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Hi friends! Coming in to do my journey share. I woke up in the middle of the

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night with a question for Ashley and I thought surely I'll remember tomorrow

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morning and I did not. So I'm asking Holy Spirit to bring it to my remembrance.

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Updates. Things have been really good these last couple of days. You know

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sometimes how you can just be experiencing one day the dark night of

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the soul and everything feels so painful and out of control and super low and

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then just a day later like you feel really good and revelation is falling

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and you just feel like you're having all these aha moments and things are

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clicking. So some days it's felt like a roller coaster but I'm super grateful

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for days like the last couple where there's been a lot of aha moments and

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Ashley said something to me in my one-on-one the other day about when we

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have such a tight grip on the promises of God or how we want to see things play

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out in our lives it's really hard for Holy Spirit to move in that place and so

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I realized that I was doing that in several areas of my life and so that was

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a few days ago and then I just made this conscious decision like okay God like

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however you want this to look I'm opening up my my eyes to just a

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different understanding a different perspective and just giving you

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permission to move however you want and since doing that and just saying that

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out loud and believing in my heart that like no God like I'm surrendering all

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these areas to you things just started happening and work opportunities and in

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friendships and things just coming my way that I was like whoa this is really

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crazy when I when I gave up the control of having it to look a very specific way

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and so that was kind of fun just to see the Lord at work and then thinking a lot

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about how we battle things and the soul in body realm and yes they'll work and

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yes we can arrive at the destination and we can achieve healing and get to those

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places with the Lord in the soul and body realm but it's gonna take so much

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striving and take way more time than it ever needed to take and so I feel like

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that's just sinking deeper and deeper and if I choose to do this in the spirit

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realm seated at the right hand of the Father and just partnering and believing

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what's already been done and so I just feel like this understanding has just

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clicked in a very deep level and while I'm not fully experiencing it in my

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physical body yet I feel like my belief system has completely changed and so

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yeah that's super exciting and I think yeah just overall I can't believe it's

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week six almost and I was just thinking about our group and how much progress

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that we've made and all that we've journeyed through in the last five weeks

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it's been a lot and I'm sad that this is the last week but hopefully we can

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all reconnect maybe after the holidays I think that's it for now other than that

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question I need to remember but I'm super grateful for you guys okay see you

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tomorrow night