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Hi! I miss you guys. I'm bummed I couldn't make the call yesterday, but looking forward

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to connecting again soon. I am in Spokane, Washington for work. It's been a really great

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trip, actually. The first day I was here, I think I got up at like 4am to catch my flight,

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and then immediately when I got off the plane I had to drive a long ways, and all to say

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I didn't get back home until midnight. And it was a really long day, but I just feel

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like my capacity is expanding because I'm leaning more and more on Him, and whenever

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I have to show up or do something or be somewhere, I'm like, okay God, you're just going to have

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to give me the strength and the words to say, and it's taking the pressure off of me to

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not so much perform, but to just muster up the energy or the joy. Yeah, so it's been

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really great. I feel like I've had a lot of breakthrough in that. I'm actually at a graveyard

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right now. I'm at John G. Lake's graveyard. I just thought I would visit while I was here

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and take communion. He had such a powerful ministry on his life that has really impacted

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me over the years. I went to the Spokane Healing Rooms yesterday, and that was really

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powerful and I got prayed for. I can see that I have a new belief system that I'm able to

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attach His word to and His experiences to, and just believing that it's already done

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and I don't have to go looking for it. I don't have to earn it. I don't have to make

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it happen. I'm reading Andrew Womack's book right now, You've Already Got It, and all

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these teachings that I'm hearing and these books is just solidifying everything that

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we're learning in our class, and it's beautiful. I didn't think that I would be able to get

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to this place as soon as I have, and I'm super grateful for Ashley and just that you've

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gone before us and made many sacrifices, so that way you could lead others. I just really

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appreciate you and this group. As far as actual rest goes, I've had moments, obviously we

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all have moments, that I have been experiencing unrest, and I'm quick to identify it, and

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then most of the time able to shift into rest, but just practicing more and more. I think

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I can get a little angst sometimes when things are moving really fast or I'm traveling and

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things aren't working out the way that I had anticipated, or there's lots of emails coming

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in and text messages and phone calls, and I'm like, ah, how do I tend to all these needs?

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And I think at the end of the day, it boils down to not wanting to disappoint other people

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who have the expectations of me. And I think a lot of times, it's actually going to bring

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it up maybe in one of our next calls, but I often, the disappointment that I experience

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sometimes or the unrest is I have expectations for other people that perhaps they didn't

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know or they didn't follow through with, and then it creates unrest in me. Yeah, because

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I have to pivot in my desire for the outcome, I have to pivot in my understanding of how

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things are going to play out. But yeah, I've just been kind of journaling and keeping track

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of some questions as I go. So when we meet next, we can dive in. But looking forward

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to watching yesterday's replay and seeing you all soon. I'd love to watch your journey

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shares when you're able to share them. And that's all. Okay, love you. Bye.