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Hi! How are you? I'm good. I just got in the door, so I was like, oh!

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Well, I'm glad it worked out. Yeah, I'm so glad it worked out.

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Yes! It was so, like, I was gonna book it for yesterday

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and then I looked at the link and I was like, oh, I need to just quickly go swim and when

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I got back, like, it was all taken. I was like, oh, that was fast.

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Oh, I'm sorry. No, it's all good. There was room today, so

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that's good. What was today?

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No, I said there was still room today, so. Oh, there was room, yeah.

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Yeah. Yes.

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Sorry, I am pulling up your questions. Sorry, I'm listening. I'm just pulling up

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your questions, making sure all of those to be able to reference. So, yeah, so how have you,

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have you been just in general since we, since the, the personal ministry session?

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Going through. I, yeah, I, I think, like, like, I wrote,

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like, the next, the following day, I was just like, oh, my goodness, I probably should have

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said that, or, you know, how it, like, comes up, like, different things, when you're like, oh,

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yeah, but so I've been, I've been good, but I've been busy, so it's just, like, I haven't really,

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I, yesterday, I listened to the, what is it, session four with the two exercises, so I did

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that, yeah. I've been hanging out a lot with you. It's, like, driving to the cabin. I was listening

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driving home from the cabin. I was listening, so, so we've been hanging out, like, every day.

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Okay, well, now I know. In the spirit, we've been together. Well, I'm glad that you're enjoying

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continuing to watch them. I try to encourage people to do that. I'm like, I know that you've

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already watched them, and you think you've already watched them, but I promise, if you start

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implementing them, and you re-watch them, you will discover stuff that you never heard me say the

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first time, and you'll be like, oh, my word, I can do that, or now that makes sense, you know,

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so, anyway, people, like I said, people go back for months, literally sometimes years, to go back

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and watch some of that stuff, and they're like, oh, my word, it's just, not just as a reminder,

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but in order to go deeper, because in order to go deeper and rest, and go into rest, and literally

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area of your, every area of your life, is the same thing that you do to go into the first step,

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to take the first step, to go into the first, with everything, it's very simple, it's very,

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it's just as powerful for the big things, as it is for the little things, for the deep things,

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as it is for the surface level, so, anyway, some that you're enjoying, and that it's helpful.

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Yeah, yeah, so, so, so, in general, I've been, like, feeling good, but I still, I'm still, like,

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like I said, I keep going back over it, because I feel like I'm not quite grasping it, and that's

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like, so, I still see, that's why I had the question with the weight thing, and, like, the

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health coach, and, like, how do I go about it, because now it's, like, so, with my dad, I had

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that question, like, oh, because that could just, there will always be things, you know what I mean,

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where it's, like, oh, you can keep digging, you can have, like, layers, but generally speaking,

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I feel fine, and I'm at peace, I have the interview tomorrow, I had, like, a big leaders

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assembly thing today, and, like, all of that is fine, like, I'm at rest when I'm, like,

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thinking about that, doing that, all of those things, but.

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When you're thinking about what and doing what?

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When you're thinking about what and doing what?

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Yeah, so, when I had, like, a big presentation today at work, like, then I'm fine, I'm at rest,

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like, I'm not stressing about it, or, like, the interview for tomorrow, like, I'm not really

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stressing about it, but. That's right, like, tomorrow.

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Yeah, but it's still, like, so, with that, though, I'm still, like, trying to, I mean,

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because I remember you said, because I'll still be, like, oh, my goodness, like, is this me just

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panicking, you know, trying to get out, because it's, like, too chaotic where I am, so I'm trying

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to, like, find the next level of rest where I'm, like, not worrying about taking the wrong

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decision, I'm sorry, I don't know how to turn off my messenger, and it keeps, like, somebody's

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talking about paddle, and I'm, like, I don't know what you're talking about, so it's just, like.

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Um, yeah, um, so with both, I think with.

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both like the weight and like the job it's like still two of those core things that I'm wondering

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like oh how do I make sure that I'm not making the wrong decision and then I know you've said like oh

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but it's not about that like you have to give up like I think even your husband said like oh just

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take yourself out of the equation and like leave it to God and I feel like that's kind of what

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you've said in that too like when it comes to the job um so correct me if I'm wrong because I or if

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I'm like misunderstanding it so that's what I've been thinking that oh I need to like just try to

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like not try just be at peace and just whether I get the job or accept it or not that

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whatever God has for me is not like it's not going to ruin it with I do something else

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or you know what I mean it's okay what so I think to backtrack it's that hole where I felt like in

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my last position God told me I was going to leave and then I felt like something new was going to

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happen and then a job opening where I am right now opened up but I ended up not getting it

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um and then my father passed away and then I was like oh good thing I didn't start a new job because

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I wouldn't have been at a capacity to deal with that and especially knowing what this company

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is like now I'm like I definitely would not um so then when things settled down

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I got a text and then I had a short conversation and then I was pretty much offered the job over

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the table and so I kind of just took it without thinking because I was like well I feel like you

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know this is God because he offered it to me once and then out of his kindness he let me not have it

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because he could see what was coming and then he gave me like another chance um to step into it now

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well when in that process I had a sense that I won't be here for long I think I told you that

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and then I was like um I I had a sense I won't be here for long because something's going to happen

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this fall you know like and automatically I was like I'm going to meet somebody or God's going

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to open a door into something else um so I think now that my previous boss contacted me and said oh

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I would like an application from you as well and I applied and I now have the interview tomorrow

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where I'm not at rest it's like do I stay where I am or do I go to this new job if I get the offer

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is that what I have because I don't think that's what I have the sense of being you know what I

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mean so I think it's that whole being able to be at rest that God has control over my destiny and

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I mean I know he does and that I think I'm just fearful of making wrong decisions still

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yeah um so the fear of making a wrong decision clouds our or resists our ability to be able to

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hear God be able to very to hear clearly um it's it's not just clouding our judgment it's resisting

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our ability to hear him so the more that we actually just release ourselves to the freedom

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in God that he literally died to give us the freedom that that we have to make a mistake

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the freedom that we have to act to make the wrong decision whether it be intentionally or

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unintentionally the the more that we do that then the more the easier it is um to more clearly hear

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the Lord's will to be co-deciding with him about what we're going to do by co-deciding again you

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know that it's it depends on how mature that we are in the Lord as to how much our opinion weighs

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in the conversation but it's still significant we always have a voice no matter how little

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and young we are you know in particular measures of faith in the Lord we always have a voice um

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so it just depends on how much of his character that we're expressing as to and that we're living

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as to how much of weight that our opinion is carrying so in the final position but um so

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anyway it just just that is the first thing that I would suggest is is to again remember is choose

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that you

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you and God really are okay.

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Now, that phrasing may not resonate with you.

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If not, pick a different phrasing,

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something that makes more sense to you,

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but that you and God are okay,

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or that he unconditionally loves and accepts you,

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or that he's looking on you thoroughly,

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enjoying you and delighting in you.

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You know, in other words,

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to choose that you really are existing,

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living in and abiding in a complete freedom,

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that is not being limited to,

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or needs to feel threatened

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by the potential of making a mistake.

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That's really what it comes down to,

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is understand that you're not threatened

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by making a mistake.

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If you make a mistake, it's in your soul or your body,

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which is not where your identity is seated.

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It is the aspect of you,

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but it's not where your identity is seated.

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And so your identity, you,

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whatever it is that you are,

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your connection with the Lord,

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that cannot be threatened.

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So you're not threatened even by the potential

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or the actuality of your own sin.

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So that's what we keep being concerned about.

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That's what creates so much stress and so much pressure,

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is the feeling that we're under threat

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of possibly making a wrong decision.

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And making a wrong decision is not threatening to you.

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It's not threatening to your relationship with the Lord.

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And we can all talk about that conceptually,

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but it really is something that we have to choose,

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is the reality of the,

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and the extent and the degree to which of our freedom.

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That our freedom really is that big.

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We are free to make mistakes.

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God wants to mature us so that we,

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so that it's not that we don't make mistakes,

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but that we're reflecting of his character.

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The whole mistake thing is thinking his character is this,

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and it's actually not.

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So the whole thing is not,

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the whole point is not to avoid mistakes.

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It's earlier than that.

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The whole point, you know,

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before we ever get to a mistake,

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the whole point is reflecting the character of the Lord.

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And so anyway, that is the first thing,

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is to stop, to stop creating that resistance

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to by thinking,

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by being afraid of making the wrong decision.

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Release yourself into the freedom

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between you and the Lord of making the wrong decision.

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Not that you're wanting to,

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but free yourself that you're not threatened

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if you make the wrong decision.

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If you make the wrong decision,

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because like, okay, you moved,

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and I can move a car that's in motion.

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I can steer a car that's in motion.

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Yeah.

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So, so anyway,

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so that will make it easier to be able to hear.

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It'll also help you more emotionally release the outcome.

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Like, okay, which one do I really wish

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and really hope that he would say for me to do?

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If you release yourself from the threat

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of being concerned that you're going to make a mistake

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or that you're going to make the wrong decision,

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then it automatically helps you release a bit more

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of your emotional tie to what, to the outcome.

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Like, well, I really don't want to do this.

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And I really want to do this.

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I really hope God will let me do this,

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but is that what I'm supposed to do?

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You know, or am I doing it out of fear or am I whatever?

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Yeah.

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So that is another thing.

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Again, I'm not trying to make any of this complicated,

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not meaning to make any of this sound complicated.

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I'm trying to present different things to you

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that you'll know in your spirit what resonates,

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like, oh, that's the holdup right there,

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or that made sense, or, okay,

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that finally was the key that unlocked that part of me

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that was locked up or tied down

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or felt restricted or restrained.

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So another thing to think about, you know,

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as in like, as in also releasing the threat

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of feeling like, you know, you're under threat

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if you make a bad mistake.

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I mean, if you make a wrong decision and a mistake.

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So not, so there's that.

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Another thing that you can do is to,

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well, let me think about that just a second,

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how to phrase that in a way that'll,

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go ahead, did you have a question?

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Yeah, no, because just, I think ultimately

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either of those, these two jobs

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are not necessarily what I feel called to.

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So I think there's something else he has for me

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and kind of like what your husband said too,

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I feel there's something,

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when he said three to five months,

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I'm like, yeah, that makes sense with what I felt earlier,

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you know, this year and even last year.

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So I think that's kind of where.

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or my, Oh, am I just not trusting God, you know, moving

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into this? Or, or do I need to move into this to like, I don't

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know, but it's Yeah, but I think it's good to just like, try to.

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Yeah, well, the other thing to not feel in line with what

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you're saying, the other thing to to release, to release that

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you're that we create resistance in and we need to let go of is,

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is feeling threatened by yourself, feeling threatened by

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your reason for why you're wanting to do what you're

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wanting to do. I'm not saying that we're not just like, just

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like what I was talking about with our bodies or whatever, you

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know, we're not agreeing with why we're making the decision

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and saying it's okay to make it out of fear, or it's okay that

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we're wanting to make it out of fear. We're not doing all of

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that. All we're doing is we're stopping fighting that part of

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ourselves. Stop fighting the fact that we're making the

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decision or the that the desire has been created out of fear. Or

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what if it is? I don't know if it is. But what if it is out of

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fear? What if it is because they're not trusting God, then

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we're feeling threatened by that we're thinking, oh, see, that's

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wrong. And I need to stop it. And I would need whatever. And

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we just need to let all of that go.

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Yeah, because I think that's a core thing in me. Like, even

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when I went to Iris, I was like, should I have been an Irish

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should have gone to Bethel? Like, I feel like this is a

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constant battle where I'm always second guessing. Did I hear God

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right? Did I make the right decision? And now here I am

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again, with the same kind of thing, you know, so like,

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yes. So basically, stop being afraid of yourself. Okay. So

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again, that whole aspect of like fully love and accept yourself

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where you're stopping resisting your own self. Like, okay, I

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think that you're a potentially a rebellious child, you know,

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talking to your like, you're not thinking about your own soul and

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body. I think you're a rebellious child that I really

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have to watch and to keep an app to keep under control. And I

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have to be very vigilant to make sure you're doing everything

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right. And you don't step out of line because all my word you go

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get lost in the grocery store if I'm not like watching you all of

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the time kind of thing. Yeah. And so and that is creating our

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own resistance that is, and that's making it harder to not

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just to hear the Lord, but to also actually emotionally let go

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of the outcome. Yeah, if we need to start letting go of all of

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that, we have all of this resistance, all of these places

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in us that are locked down and God, God spilled his blood, so

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that we'd be free. So that wouldn't be so locked down so

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that we wouldn't be living under such emotional and mental and

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physical limitations. So it'll be easier to make decisions to

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be able to hear the word of Lord to be able to emotionally release

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and let go of the outcome and give it to the Lord. If you just

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stop resisting things, as opposed to think is a and I'm

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talking about that is kind of like the first, almost like a

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first step. Not that there's like all of these steps, but

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like in how to put that, that you're not because understand

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that what we're doing here is I'm trying to, is I'm telling

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you how to bring yourself back to neutral. I'm not telling you,

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and we're not talking about how to actually act in the character

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of the Lord or even believe in sort of, technically, at the

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root of it, it's actually choosing to believe in that we

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won't get into that complication, because that just

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makes it feel more complicated than it really is. But we're

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just trying to bring yourself to neutral, instead of resisting

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yourself to stop resisting. And then from there, it'll be easier

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to start letting things go and allowing God to emotionally

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emotionally releasing God from the outcome, allowing trusting

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him for the outcome, like, okay, God, you know, and be more

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clear, it easier to hear God more clearly as to whether you

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should do this or that you're just bringing yourself to

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neutral. And so that's really what I've talked about in these

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pat in these couple of things, it's not feeling threatened by

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your, your potential, you know, your potential to make a

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mistake in making a decision, or feeling threat, and then also

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releasing the threat of feeling of, of yourself and your reason

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why you're coming to, to the desire that you have, in other

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words, why you're desiring what you're desiring, just, just let

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it be. So you're just you're using basically, it's the same

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idea as the same conclusion that you come to in using the third

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rest shifting tool, which is no judgment, is you're just stop

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And judging the situation, you're stopped being afraid of it.

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You're stopping, you know, making it out to, to be something that it's

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not or fighting what it just is.

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Just let it be that you're, you're, you're not agreeing with it.

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You're not saying it's okay.

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If you really discover that you are afraid it's, it's, you're not

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agreeing with the fact that it's okay to not trust God, you're just not

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resisting the fact that you are, that you are afraid of God or that you are.

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Is if, if you were to come to that and then, then it's easier to let go, but

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it's harder to let go when you're spending all of your energy, fighting

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what it is that you don't want to be true, just accept that it's true

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or accept that it might be true.

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Just no longer felt threatened by it.

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And then it'll be easier to move in a positive direction from there.

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Is that the same thing with.

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Cause I think, I think I had mentioned when, when your husband gave that word

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and I was like, oh, like it resonates and parts I've heard before and part of me

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is just like, oh, but it hasn't happened.

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You know, like why?

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Like anything really like, like the words that I have over my life, kind of like,

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like, so when he gave me that word too, I was like, yes, I receive it, but then

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there's part of me that's like, but I don't know if it's like, why I really

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want to believe it's going to happen.

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Like even when it was like three to five months and I know that resonates

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with my spirit from what before.

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And he also said three to five years.

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So I'm not holding to like, but especially when he said something will

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happen or I believe something will happen in like the next three to five

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months and it resonates with my spirit.

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So I, I agree with it, but at the same time, I'm also like, I don't know.

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I've hoped for, and believe that before, after being given a word and nothing

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happened, so I think, I think, um, so that's, I think we're not, we're not

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supposed to hold on to the word and have faith in the word that was spoken or the,

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in other words, the promise, the thing that God said happened for one thing, we

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have no idea what it actually means.

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And then another, I mean, like even listening to what, what he said and you

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said other things that have spoken on your life, you have no idea what that

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actually looks like in real life.

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I mean, like, well, what would my life look like?

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And who would I be meeting?

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What does it mean that I'm meeting them?

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What does it mean I'm interacting with them?

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I mean, good night.

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It can meet a variety of things.

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So there's nothing to be able to grab ahold of anyway, but it's

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there's nothing to be able to grab ahold of anyway.

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Um, and, and even if there were, we're not supposed to hold on to it.

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We're supposed to hold on to the one who promised when he's speaking something,

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he's all, he's trying to say something about himself that he's wanting to give

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you, not giving this thing, giving you him an aspect of himself, but the way

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he's trying to communicate it is by using something that you have that, that kind

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of, that that's within your value system.

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So you're like, Oh my Lord, you'd be that good.

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Or Oh my word, Lord, you love me that much.

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So what I've had to do with things like promises, words, prophecies is be like,

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is, is always focused on, Oh my word, Lord, you, you're that good.

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You, you see me, you, whatever, and always focus on that and just allow God.

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In his word, the word that was spoken, both accomplish it.

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Am I coming into agreement with it is not in understanding it and having an anchor

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to be able to like, agree with it as a, as a theme, because I don't

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even know what that thing is.

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It's coming into agreement with, okay, God, you know, you are who you say that

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you are, and therefore you will carry out whatever it is that is expressing

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that thing that you are and who you are is what I am holding my faith in.

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That is unshakable.

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This is shakable.

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Not only the fact that we don't know what it looks like, but just the

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when and the how and the whatever.

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There's, there's too many.

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This is the path that we end up taking to whatever God wants us to do.

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It's not straight.

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So it's pretty shakable.

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But if we hold on to him, that's unshakable, no matter what happens.

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So that allows us our faith to stay consistent instead of how our faith

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wobbles, if we're looking over here.

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Yeah, that's, that's really good.

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I, yeah, I think I was concerned that.

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Um, I think you had mentioned one time that, Oh, that is holding like not

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believing it or not, maybe not believing it, but being scared that.

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that it won't happen, that that is holding resistance towards God and then he can't be

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able to give you something because you're resisting him or something.

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I'm sorry, can you repeat that one more time?

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I'm just trying to, I think I had mentioned it before, I'm trying to remember, because

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I'd mentioned something like this before, after our session, and I had said, oh, I'm

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not sure that I believe that it can, like, I want to believe, but I'm not sure that I

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believe that it will happen.

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And then I think you had said something that, oh, that is resisting God or no holding judgment

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towards God or resisting him or something.

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I felt like I needed to do something to let it go to be able to open up kind of for him

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to do whatever he wanted to do, whatever that is.

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Oh, I think I know what you're talking about.

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Yes, because not believing God is resisting him.

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In fact, not believing God is rejecting him.

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And so that's why resisting is so, so serious is because it's an outright rejection of God

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in that particular aspect, in that particular way, that particular aspect of himself.

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You know, so and I don't mean that to sound just horribly scary where, again, it locks

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us down, but it is very serious in the fact that that's why we're not supposed to resist.

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So in other words, we're just supposed to be freer.

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So because God gives us a safe environment to learn and to make mistakes.

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So yeah.

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So what it is that you don't have to worry about is, is, is like the, okay, so say for

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instance, you're like, okay, well, I'm not sure if it's if I believe that it's actually

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going to happen.

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That is because we focus on the actual thing itself that we don't understand.

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And we don't, and we don't understand how, where it is that we are can bring us to where

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it is that God talked about.

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We don't understand how we're trying to apply worldly logic that we were taught.

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I mean, it's not just that we were taught it.

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We got in trouble by our teachers if we did not use this logic.

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So it is so ingrained in us that we were, we were, we bore physical, emotional, or circumstantial

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consequences of not following this logic.

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So it's survival mode for us because it's so ingrained.

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And so that is not how the kingdom of God works.

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We can't choose to believe something based off of evidence of like, yeah, but I, that's

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really hard to see from here to there.

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I don't understand the how I tried this before.

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That is something that has happened so many times with, with people in the Bible where

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they're like, God, I had tried this before.

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Yeah.

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Where I'm case in point, case in point, the Peter, this is one of my favorite examples

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to use at this is when Peter had been fishing all night long.

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I mean, he's a professional fisherman.

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He knew what to do and he did it all night long.

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I mean, talk about discouraged when you're a mastery of your, in your, in your craft

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and in your, in your skills.

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And Jesus said, Hey, I want you to throw it over the side of the boat.

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And so he's thinking, Hey, look, dude, you're, you don't know what you're talking about.

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I know what I'm talking about.

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And you, you know, you're a carpenter.

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I didn't know if you knew that much about Jesus at the time, but he's like, you know,

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Look, you're not a fisherman and I have to, and I not only know what to do, I've tried

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it and I've tried it all night long.

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I'm like beyond discouraged.

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And, and, but he said, but because you said, so I will do it.

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He literally did it on nothing but word, not on reason, not on experience.

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And in fact, he said, because you said it, it will override my, my, the evidence that

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I have literally putting my life and my emotions on the line for the, over the past night to

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get it to work.

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And it didn't.

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And I will literally do it on nothing but the fact that you said, and then that made

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all of the difference because the word then brought a miracle.

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So it's so, but what it is that we have to choose is like, because you said, therefore

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you will carry it out.

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So my faith is on you, not that it will manifest.

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That's basically what you're choosing.

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You're choosing God, not the manifestation.

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You're choosing that.

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What that he is true and that he is faithful and that whatever he sends out in word will

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actually land.

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Because it says that in Isaiah.

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All of his words, you know, maybe it's not Isaiah, but I thought it was that,

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and he, uh, that all of the words that he sends forth, you know, always, um,

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accomplish that, which they were sent to do.

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So when that's what you're trusting, you don't have to do anything.

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All you're having to come into agreement with is the fact is, is God and the fact

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that, and, you know, and his character and that, which, how would you put that?

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Remember when he's sending out word, he's not sending out something.

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He's not sending out like some verbal law that he's speaking.

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He's actually sending out in a manner of speaking, peace, impartial of himself.

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Remember word with a capital W that's what you're believing in.

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Yeah.

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You're not believing you're not having to worry about believing in a

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manifestation of whether or not something is or isn't going to happen.

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You're like, no, God, you were faithful.

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And therefore, if you send peace and partial of yourself out, it'll always

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00:30:57.060 --> 00:30:59.600
land, always manifest in something.

450
00:30:59.600 --> 00:31:03.720
And so I, like the rest of the world and waiting and anticipation

451
00:31:03.720 --> 00:31:05.160
of what that's going to look like.

452
00:31:05.600 --> 00:31:09.800
You anticipate that God will land.

453
00:31:10.440 --> 00:31:14.560
That God will manifest that there will be in a, that there will be an actual

454
00:31:14.560 --> 00:31:17.040
result, but you don't leave.

455
00:31:17.040 --> 00:31:22.040
And like, you don't have to focus on the actual thing itself, but you can be.

456
00:31:22.540 --> 00:31:25.540
Excited and anticipate it.

457
00:31:25.880 --> 00:31:26.380
Yeah.

458
00:31:26.580 --> 00:31:30.060
Because I think that's where kind of like my thing has been where it's like,

459
00:31:30.100 --> 00:31:33.660
Oh, cause I always keep hearing and I've experienced it.

460
00:31:33.660 --> 00:31:36.820
So it's not just like hearing, but, Oh, you have so much favor and so many open

461
00:31:36.820 --> 00:31:40.380
doors and it's like, Oh, there's this calling on your life and there's, and,

462
00:31:40.520 --> 00:31:44.500
and I can feel it cause I feel like I can't feel that well, I can feel that

463
00:31:44.500 --> 00:31:51.420
I'm not, um, which we've talked about before necessarily working or doing

464
00:31:51.420 --> 00:31:56.240
whatever I feel like I'm resonates in my spirit and, and, and so, but I think

465
00:31:56.240 --> 00:31:57.960
now that I've learned to just.

466
00:31:58.440 --> 00:32:04.400
And this is making more sense that I just release all of that and then just

467
00:32:04.400 --> 00:32:06.560
trust, uh, Oh my goodness.

468
00:32:06.640 --> 00:32:13.560
Uh, and that I just trust, um, that God's gonna take me to wherever I need to be.

469
00:32:13.560 --> 00:32:18.180
I think my fear has been, you know, sometimes you hear, well, if God said

470
00:32:18.180 --> 00:32:19.680
it, you need to act towards it.

471
00:32:19.680 --> 00:32:23.740
And if not, you know, he'll send somebody else or it's like, you know, that kind of

472
00:32:23.740 --> 00:32:27.600
like, Oh, I missed it or I didn't do what he was supposed to.

473
00:32:27.600 --> 00:32:29.100
And so we have to send somebody else.

474
00:32:29.100 --> 00:32:33.600
Cause I was over here and I didn't really understand or know what I was supposed to

475
00:32:33.600 --> 00:32:33.920
do.

476
00:32:33.920 --> 00:32:39.800
So I just kept like fumbling in the dark, not in the dark, but like going here and

477
00:32:39.800 --> 00:32:46.120
there and there, you know, not necessarily being like in, in human logic, like, Oh,

478
00:32:46.340 --> 00:32:50.580
here I go from a to B to C and this is my plan and my career.

479
00:32:50.580 --> 00:32:51.640
And this is what I want to do.

480
00:32:51.640 --> 00:32:53.180
You know, if that makes sense.

481
00:32:53.420 --> 00:32:53.700
Yeah.

482
00:32:54.620 --> 00:32:58.540
If you are focused on trying to accomplish what God wants you to accomplish, you're

483
00:32:58.540 --> 00:32:59.860
more likely to miss God.

484
00:33:00.300 --> 00:33:04.140
If you focus on God and not what you're trying to accomplish or where you're

485
00:33:04.140 --> 00:33:09.300
trying to go or what's supposed to happen, you will land there.

486
00:33:09.780 --> 00:33:09.940
Yeah.

487
00:33:09.940 --> 00:33:13.340
Because the whole point is that we just focus on the development of our

488
00:33:14.120 --> 00:33:14.680
Lord.

489
00:33:14.720 --> 00:33:17.680
And he's more interested in that than even you are.

490
00:33:18.000 --> 00:33:21.280
He's more interested in hearing him and knowing him than you are.

491
00:33:21.560 --> 00:33:25.480
So if you focus on that and you focus on, okay, God, what are we doing today?

492
00:33:25.480 --> 00:33:25.840
Okay.

493
00:33:25.840 --> 00:33:28.080
And where are you allowing us to go?

494
00:33:28.340 --> 00:33:29.520
You can have dreams.

495
00:33:29.520 --> 00:33:30.600
You can have desires.

496
00:33:30.600 --> 00:33:35.160
You and the Lord can determine certain quote unquote destinations, et cetera.

497
00:33:35.440 --> 00:33:40.320
But again, that's all based off of the, it has to be founded in the fact that you're

498
00:33:40.320 --> 00:33:46.980
pursuing his character and you are focused on the development of the relationship, not

499
00:33:46.980 --> 00:33:52.100
in landing places or, or, uh, accomplishing particular things.

500
00:33:52.460 --> 00:33:54.060
Then you miss it.

501
00:33:54.620 --> 00:33:54.980
Yeah.

502
00:33:55.340 --> 00:33:59.940
We're focused on the accomplishment and what in hearing exactly what God wants us

503
00:33:59.940 --> 00:34:04.380
to do, and then just trying to do the thing that we're more likely to miss it.

504
00:34:04.580 --> 00:34:06.540
We're also going to get burned out.

505
00:34:07.100 --> 00:34:07.420
Yeah.

506
00:34:07.520 --> 00:34:12.360
Because, because we're trying to do something, accomplish something, create an

507
00:34:12.360 --> 00:34:16.639
outcome instead of allowing God to create the outcome.

508
00:34:17.600 --> 00:34:22.159
Don't have to worry, you know, in focusing on the Lord and pursuing where he is and

509
00:34:22.159 --> 00:34:25.420
always looking for him as opposed to quote unquote, doing the right thing.

510
00:34:25.960 --> 00:34:30.520
If you're always looking and then you will always accomplish that, you know,

511
00:34:33.080 --> 00:34:36.360
what he intends for you and you won't miss it and you won't give the assignment to

512
00:34:36.360 --> 00:34:42.659
someone else, he gives the assignment to someone else when we are being rigid, when

513
00:34:42.659 --> 00:34:47.340
we are not being malleable, when we are in so much resistance.

514
00:34:47.500 --> 00:34:52.440
So that's why we have to like continually to let go, continue to let go of all this

515
00:34:52.440 --> 00:34:57.000
resistance, all this restriction, stop living in a straight jacket, you know, and

516
00:34:57.000 --> 00:34:59.980
to just, and to really, truly live, to be.

517
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:06.080
be moldable to be, um, to be swayed and pushed around and to flow with the Holy

518
00:35:06.080 --> 00:35:06.720
Spirit.

519
00:35:07.180 --> 00:35:12.800
Um, and, uh, then we're more likely to hear him because we haven't locked down

520
00:35:12.800 --> 00:35:15.320
and decided this is what I'm trying to do.

521
00:35:15.560 --> 00:35:20.000
I'm trying really, really hard to be this or to do it.

522
00:35:20.220 --> 00:35:23.320
If we release ourselves to who God says that we naturally are.

523
00:35:23.320 --> 00:35:28.000
And we choose that who we naturally are is the work that he has done and is

524
00:35:28.000 --> 00:35:31.640
continuing to do, not something that we're working really hard and practicing

525
00:35:31.640 --> 00:35:37.720
to become, but that actually by simply letting go of everything, he does this

526
00:35:37.720 --> 00:35:38.400
work in us.

527
00:35:38.440 --> 00:35:42.080
And then the work that he already has done in us, which really all the work

528
00:35:42.080 --> 00:35:44.640
has already been done in us, but I'm, I'm trying to make this simple.

529
00:35:44.640 --> 00:35:50.600
And I said that then if we stop resisting, then who it is, all the work that he's

530
00:35:50.600 --> 00:35:52.760
already done in us finally can come out.

531
00:35:53.200 --> 00:35:59.000
So anyway, we won't do living life like that, living life that free and always

532
00:35:59.000 --> 00:36:03.320
focused on God and ourselves and what we want to do, even what we want to do for

533
00:36:03.320 --> 00:36:06.200
God and making really sure that we don't miss him.

534
00:36:06.880 --> 00:36:14.640
Just living that free in God will, will, uh, will position us to not miss what he

535
00:36:14.640 --> 00:36:20.840
wants us to do and accomplish wants us to accomplish and allow his, his word to

536
00:36:20.840 --> 00:36:24.560
land because we're coming into agreement with who he is.

537
00:36:24.720 --> 00:36:27.200
We're just allowing him to be who he is.

538
00:36:27.720 --> 00:36:28.000
Okay.

539
00:36:28.040 --> 00:36:32.240
Lord, if you say that that's, what's going to happen, I'm going to, I'm, I'm

540
00:36:32.240 --> 00:36:40.200
going to, I am, uh, I'm not going to be resisting you moving in my life because

541
00:36:40.200 --> 00:36:45.240
I, and I never know what aspect of you moving in my life is SIMP is strictly

542
00:36:45.240 --> 00:36:46.520
towards that purpose.

543
00:36:47.280 --> 00:36:47.600
Yeah.

544
00:36:47.600 --> 00:36:50.160
You know what it is that you said that you promised what happened.

545
00:36:50.400 --> 00:36:57.600
So your agreement is with him and his word, not necessarily focus, not, not

546
00:36:57.720 --> 00:37:00.760
necessarily on what he said.

547
00:37:02.160 --> 00:37:07.000
So to speak, I guess there you're not disagreeing with what he said, but that's

548
00:37:07.000 --> 00:37:09.320
not what you were agreeing with either.

549
00:37:09.400 --> 00:37:12.080
You're not disagreeing with it, but that's not what you're agreeing with.

550
00:37:12.080 --> 00:37:13.360
What you're agreeing with it.

551
00:37:13.560 --> 00:37:19.240
What you're agreeing with is the one who said it and the word that was spoken, not

552
00:37:19.280 --> 00:37:23.960
the word that like Ed said, somebody else said not that word, but what came forth

553
00:37:23.960 --> 00:37:27.000
from God, that he's like, Hey, this is the trajectory.

554
00:37:27.040 --> 00:37:28.880
This is the thing that I've said in motion.

555
00:37:29.200 --> 00:37:36.200
I've set something in motion and you really, God kind of gave you some English.

556
00:37:37.120 --> 00:37:42.520
Verbal communication to give you an idea of what this is, but it's deeper than that.

557
00:37:42.520 --> 00:37:44.440
This is the expression of what this is.

558
00:37:44.440 --> 00:37:48.760
Don't look at the expression and the words that were used and extrapolate

559
00:37:48.760 --> 00:37:55.040
what they could mean or what vision and life, but rather what was that an

560
00:37:55.040 --> 00:38:03.680
expression of this thing really have no idea about, about what that is because

561
00:38:04.880 --> 00:38:06.560
define it very well.

562
00:38:06.720 --> 00:38:09.000
God's like, okay, let me give you an expression of it.

563
00:38:09.280 --> 00:38:09.520
Okay.

564
00:38:09.520 --> 00:38:11.080
Let me word it in English.

565
00:38:11.120 --> 00:38:14.760
I know the, the, the language of English is very limited.

566
00:38:15.000 --> 00:38:17.920
I know that you're going to interpret it in a particular way based on your

567
00:38:17.920 --> 00:38:19.320
background, dah, dah, dah.

568
00:38:19.320 --> 00:38:22.280
So it's, it's not going to be perfect, but Hey, it's an expression.

569
00:38:22.640 --> 00:38:24.240
We don't focus on the expression.

570
00:38:24.240 --> 00:38:25.320
We focus on that.

571
00:38:25.600 --> 00:38:31.560
Do not understand that it came from, because this is what this word capital

572
00:38:31.560 --> 00:38:33.560
W is what can carry this thing out.

573
00:38:34.160 --> 00:38:34.880
Does that help?

574
00:38:35.240 --> 00:38:35.640
Yeah.

575
00:38:35.880 --> 00:38:40.320
That makes all the difference in things actually manifesting.

576
00:38:40.560 --> 00:38:41.240
And I lived it.

577
00:38:41.640 --> 00:38:43.120
So it's not just concept.

578
00:38:43.120 --> 00:38:48.800
This is literally what I have done that is fondly enabled things like these

579
00:38:48.800 --> 00:38:53.440
amazing opportunities and things that, you know, God has spoken over my life

580
00:38:53.440 --> 00:38:55.440
and whatever, to finally manifest.

581
00:38:55.800 --> 00:38:57.560
Cause I got out of the way.

582
00:38:57.600 --> 00:39:01.760
I stopped holding him emotionally accountable for the visions that

583
00:39:01.760 --> 00:39:03.520
I'd created out of these words.

584
00:39:03.520 --> 00:39:07.800
And I'm just like, okay, I'm just going to focus on the, who that said it.

585
00:39:08.520 --> 00:39:12.360
And the word that this was an expression of forget the expression.

586
00:39:12.360 --> 00:39:13.520
This is what God said.

587
00:39:13.720 --> 00:39:16.640
And therefore I'm so excited and anticipate and fully

588
00:39:16.640 --> 00:39:18.400
anticipate this thing to land.

589
00:39:19.040 --> 00:39:20.040
And I don't know.

590
00:39:20.040 --> 00:39:21.120
It's like an adventure.

591
00:39:21.480 --> 00:39:23.240
I don't know what it's going to look like when it lands.

592
00:39:23.280 --> 00:39:23.560
Yeah.

593
00:39:23.840 --> 00:39:24.040
Yeah.

594
00:39:24.080 --> 00:39:26.440
No, an actual real final expression.

595
00:39:26.440 --> 00:39:32.200
I was giving kind of a vague, you know, but it was just a trailer, you know?

596
00:39:33.120 --> 00:39:34.000
So is that helpful?

597
00:39:34.040 --> 00:39:35.040
It makes all the difference.

598
00:39:35.600 --> 00:39:39.800
And coming into agreement with something, not being shakable and holding strong in

599
00:39:39.800 --> 00:39:45.200
our faith and being excited and anticipating instead of being discouraged or worried

600
00:39:45.200 --> 00:39:49.480
that we're not having a faith and we're not believing it also leaves us free to

601
00:39:49.480 --> 00:39:51.160
live the daily life in between.

602
00:39:52.760 --> 00:39:54.840
And then it allows the thing to finally land.

603
00:39:54.840 --> 00:39:55.320
Eventually.

604
00:39:57.120 --> 00:39:58.480
Makes so much sense.

605
00:39:58.520 --> 00:39:58.920
Thank you.

606
00:39:58.920 --> 00:40:00.040
Life will be bigger.

607
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:06.080
and freer and broader and have more opportunity and more life and more movement and more adventure

608
00:40:06.080 --> 00:40:13.120
and more abundance. I promise you more than all of those things, not just like prophecies

609
00:40:13.120 --> 00:40:19.000
God has spoken, but just anything that happened that could happen in your life when you wake

610
00:40:19.000 --> 00:40:23.200
up every morning. Oh, I don't know what I know that I'm going to go to work and I'm

611
00:40:23.200 --> 00:40:27.320
going to whatever, but Hey, I have no idea what God is going to do and what, how he's

612
00:40:27.320 --> 00:40:32.120
going to manifest himself. You're all kinds of opportunities will start coming and she

613
00:40:32.120 --> 00:40:38.040
might get, make more money and you might have better, um, better, uh, like friendship opportunities

614
00:40:38.040 --> 00:40:45.320
or, uh, get, you know, your husband can finally come and you're, um, I don't know, just whatever.

615
00:40:45.320 --> 00:40:51.600
It really is wild. It really will change everything. It resonates in my spirit. So I know, yeah.

616
00:40:51.600 --> 00:40:58.760
Or I can feel it, you know, it's like my spirit. Yeah. So, um, I know I had a couple

617
00:40:58.760 --> 00:41:04.320
more questions, but I, I think the most important thing that I would like to ask before we run

618
00:41:04.320 --> 00:41:09.280
out of time, if we, it, I mean, it's the weight thing that we have talked about before. So

619
00:41:09.280 --> 00:41:16.000
I think it's with that coach thing, like how, because what I've noticed is I'm, I'm, it's

620
00:41:16.000 --> 00:41:21.400
going the wrong way. So I keep like a gaming weight and then, cause I keep eating bad and

621
00:41:22.200 --> 00:41:26.040
I keep like, Oh, I don't want to eat. Like, I don't, it's like, Oh, I don't feel like

622
00:41:26.040 --> 00:41:31.080
cooking. Oh, I don't feel like eating anything. I don't feel like doing anything. Right. And

623
00:41:31.080 --> 00:41:36.000
then I end up eating, like making shortcuts that are like bad. And then I gained weight.

624
00:41:36.000 --> 00:41:40.040
And then I take a look at myself in the mirror and I'm like, Oh my goodness, like you worked

625
00:41:40.040 --> 00:41:45.600
so hard. And then you just like, let it all go. You know what I mean? And, and so I've

626
00:41:45.640 --> 00:41:52.400
had this like health coach and she has been like, which started a year and a half ago.

627
00:41:52.400 --> 00:41:56.840
And then it kind of spiraled out after my dad passed away, but I'd been really quote

628
00:41:56.840 --> 00:42:02.640
good before that. And it was, it was like a, a regiment where it was like, these are

629
00:42:02.640 --> 00:42:06.280
your options for breakfast. And these are your options for lunch and for dinner and

630
00:42:06.280 --> 00:42:09.960
for supper. And this is how you exercise. And this is how you can, this is how many

631
00:42:09.960 --> 00:42:15.360
calories it is. And you weigh yourself and you measure yourself. And so now I've also

632
00:42:15.360 --> 00:42:20.800
been like, I've put the weight aside. I don't want to measure, like, I want to live in

633
00:42:20.800 --> 00:42:28.320
freedom in it, but I also see that it's going the wrong way. And, and she would be like,

634
00:42:28.320 --> 00:42:32.920
as I'm like, Oh, I think I need to stop this. And she is like, no, no, you know, when you're

635
00:42:32.920 --> 00:42:37.520
going through a hard time, this is when it's more important to keep focused on, you know,

636
00:42:37.520 --> 00:42:42.960
like eating right and exercising. And so it's like two very contradictory things. It feels

637
00:42:43.040 --> 00:42:47.680
like in my head. So I'm like, ask me help. Like, what do I do?

638
00:42:48.880 --> 00:42:53.840
No, that definitely makes sense. So it's, there's some things that are coming to mind.

639
00:42:53.840 --> 00:43:00.880
First of all, sorry, I'm trying to remember, think of which one I want to mention first.

640
00:43:02.000 --> 00:43:07.200
Maybe I'll mention this one first and then that'll probably help more easily segue into

641
00:43:07.200 --> 00:43:13.200
the other, um, that you remember me talking about the importance of like owning your own

642
00:43:13.200 --> 00:43:18.400
life and owning your own decisions. And like, uh, like for instance, I had mentioned as an

643
00:43:18.400 --> 00:43:22.800
example and I don't remember who I was talking to, like in which fireside chat. And then you

644
00:43:22.800 --> 00:43:28.000
asked the question, but whoever it was, I was referencing a previous rest intensive member.

645
00:43:28.560 --> 00:43:34.080
Um, someone that was not in ours. Yeah. It was, I think so. Yeah.

646
00:43:34.080 --> 00:43:38.080
About getting up in bed, getting up out of bed every morning and not picking up the backpack

647
00:43:38.080 --> 00:43:44.240
full of rocks. That one. Oh, no, no, no, no. I'm sorry. No, no, that's fine. So she, oh,

648
00:43:44.240 --> 00:43:47.760
I know what you were talking about. You were thinking of the, of the lady who like lost 31

649
00:43:47.760 --> 00:43:55.840
pounds. Yeah. No. So this is, this is someone that has passed rest intensive at well time before last

650
00:43:55.840 --> 00:44:05.840
and she had, um, uh, she was going through a time. She knew that God had set aside this time

651
00:44:05.840 --> 00:44:13.040
for her to be healing from some things. And she, but the thing is she's taken it on like a project

652
00:44:13.840 --> 00:44:19.120
and it was making it very burdensome and very oppressive of like, Oh my word. Okay. What,

653
00:44:19.120 --> 00:44:24.800
what more pain am I going to have to go through or navigate through today? Because God wants me

654
00:44:24.800 --> 00:44:28.960
to face it and I got to heal and, or, or whatever. And so she was just thinking, Oh my word is just

655
00:44:28.960 --> 00:44:35.200
like, and, and, um, so I told her, I said, okay, well, the, an important thing is that you are

656
00:44:35.200 --> 00:44:40.000
taking this whole healing thing. And this, this thing that God wants to offer you is freedom.

657
00:44:40.000 --> 00:44:48.640
You were taking this on as something that you, I didn't word like it's being forced on you,

658
00:44:48.640 --> 00:44:55.680
but basically we're taking this thing and we're flipping it to where we see ourselves as a victim,

659
00:44:55.680 --> 00:44:58.640
where we see ourselves as a victim to our own lives.

660
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:19.000
Life is full of what it is that we're waking up and having to respond to that our life is being created by decisions that other people are making, or the environment presents to us situations present to us that we have to respond to, and that's going to create

661
00:45:19.000 --> 00:45:40.000
our lives today, you know, and so we're under the pressure of always being in situations with with people or environment or whatever, and we're problems in which we're are in which we are being forced into this is how it feels forced into having to come up

662
00:45:40.000 --> 00:45:52.000
with the quote unquote right response that is God approved. And that will allow me to avoid the most amount of pain.

663
00:45:52.000 --> 00:46:08.000
And that is a very depressing approach to life. And so often so it can be the same thing with like eating can be same thing with food is thinking that is feeling like things are being forced on us, because what we've done is we've decided hey I don't

664
00:46:08.000 --> 00:46:25.000
like my weight, I don't like you know what I'm, I don't like weighing this much I want to weigh different or whatever so we think, oh well I'm choosing to diet, but then it switches where we consider ourselves a victim to the diet.

665
00:46:25.000 --> 00:46:39.000
And so we're forced on me, even though we're the ones who's forcing it on ourselves, still forcing it on ourselves, instead of choosing it for ourselves I'm like no no what do I want for me, do I have to do this.

666
00:46:40.000 --> 00:46:56.000
What do I want what kind of a life do I want, and think of it as pursuing something, because you're choosing to create your life so that's what you're doing when you are dieting or you're exercising is you were literally creating the life that you want, not

667
00:46:56.000 --> 00:46:58.000
life that's coming.

668
00:46:59.000 --> 00:47:15.000
So the life you have right now literally in this moment you were creating this moment yourself. You're not reacting to the moment you're creating it. And so it completely turns the table on the situation where you're not a victim, having to respond.

669
00:47:15.000 --> 00:47:25.000
So you're owning yourself and you're choosing this is what you're going to do this is the life you want you are literally creating, you're not responding.

670
00:47:25.000 --> 00:47:31.000
You know, you're

671
00:47:31.000 --> 00:47:46.000
telling her is I said, I said, I said, what you're doing is you're picking up this backpack of rocks, every day and walking around with it. I said, and just thinking oh my goodness this is just, this is all so heavy, but I am forced to do all of this stuff

672
00:47:46.000 --> 00:47:56.000
and whatever I said don't do that. Don't pick up the bag of rocks in the morning, and every morning wake up and think, what do me and God want to create today, what do we want to do today, how do I want to.

673
00:47:56.000 --> 00:48:09.000
What kind of a life do I want and I'm not talking about any five or 10 year plan I'm not talking about that I'm talking about literally right now, what kind of an experience to what I want to do I want to have in this moment, but experienced.

674
00:48:09.000 --> 00:48:19.000
I want to have in the next moment I'm talking about, create your current life. And that'll obviously create you know your future life and you can, you know,

675
00:48:19.000 --> 00:48:34.000
you can do that. But I'm talking about bringing it more home bringing it more to the present. And so often we're ignoring the present responding to the present, instead of creating the present, because we're, and we're just, and we dream about the future

676
00:48:34.000 --> 00:48:40.000
that we that we think of as a way that I can finally escape my present.

677
00:48:40.000 --> 00:48:52.000
We can't escape our present anymore. We don't want to try to escape our present, there's nothing to escape if you're not under threat. So you have to switch yourself out of out of no longer being threatened, you're not threatened by your diet you're not threatened

678
00:48:52.000 --> 00:48:56.000
by your exercise you are not threatened by your own choices.

679
00:48:57.000 --> 00:49:03.000
You get to decide what do you want to do what do you not want to do if you don't want to die, do not have to dag them do the diet.

680
00:49:03.000 --> 00:49:21.000
You have to choose what do I want for me. Yes, that the diet is fun. I'm not saying that I'm saying you're creating your life. And what tools can you use to help you create the life that you want right now, not that you want to five years from now the life

681
00:49:21.000 --> 00:49:23.000
that you want right now.

682
00:49:23.000 --> 00:49:38.000
You know, and then you and then so I also told her again as an example I said for instance, I said you go with an example of like turning the table where you do the same action, but you've switched the perspective from what you're doing the action.

683
00:49:38.000 --> 00:49:53.000
As I say, say for instance that you've got no food in the pantry, and you've got no food in the refrigerator you've you ate the last thing out of it. And now you have to go to the grocery store, and you're on my word.

684
00:49:53.000 --> 00:50:00.000
I don't want to have to go to the grocery store thing why why do I have to go to the grocery store Why am I in this situation. Why did the environment.

685
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.500
Even though, you know, that there's nobody responsible for it.

686
00:50:03.500 --> 00:50:05.580
It's not like the environment is doing this to you.

687
00:50:05.900 --> 00:50:09.720
We take this on as a, I don't want to, but I'm going to have to,

688
00:50:10.380 --> 00:50:12.060
but we need to switch that.

689
00:50:12.320 --> 00:50:12.860
Technically.

690
00:50:12.860 --> 00:50:14.100
Do we have to go to the grocery store?

691
00:50:14.100 --> 00:50:16.360
No, we could choose no tonight.

692
00:50:16.360 --> 00:50:20.340
You know what I really, I really am just going to not eat.

693
00:50:20.940 --> 00:50:23.840
That's what I would, I would rather do than go to the grocery store.

694
00:50:23.960 --> 00:50:24.860
That's my choice.

695
00:50:25.200 --> 00:50:25.820
You know why?

696
00:50:25.820 --> 00:50:27.920
Because I, I value more.

697
00:50:27.980 --> 00:50:32.940
I value my time tonight more than the 30 minutes to an hour.

698
00:50:32.940 --> 00:50:34.200
That's going to take me to go to the grocery store.

699
00:50:34.320 --> 00:50:35.240
That's just what I choose.

700
00:50:35.620 --> 00:50:36.800
There's nothing wrong with that choice.

701
00:50:37.200 --> 00:50:38.020
You just make that choice.

702
00:50:38.600 --> 00:50:44.760
But, but I said, or had, do you decide that that's not the life

703
00:50:44.760 --> 00:50:46.220
that you want to read for yourself?

704
00:50:47.340 --> 00:50:49.760
And I, you actually want to eat.

705
00:50:49.820 --> 00:50:55.380
So how do you want, so how can you then offensively create

706
00:50:55.380 --> 00:50:56.340
the life that you want?

707
00:50:56.380 --> 00:51:00.660
Oh, well, if I wouldn't eat tonight, then I want to go to the grocery store.

708
00:51:00.720 --> 00:51:05.460
I went to get what it is that I need for tonight and bring it home and, and make

709
00:51:05.460 --> 00:51:10.580
it because this is the life that I want to give me, this is the life that I want

710
00:51:10.580 --> 00:51:15.820
to actually create into creation so that it actually changes creation in a very

711
00:51:15.960 --> 00:51:18.300
surprising, but powerful way.

712
00:51:19.100 --> 00:51:26.600
So that is, that's what I suggest is, is switching from, is switching to

713
00:51:26.640 --> 00:51:34.460
owning more of yourself, your decisions to, to rule your own self instead of

714
00:51:34.460 --> 00:51:39.520
being victim to, Oh, I have to, or even victim to yourself where you're like,

715
00:51:39.560 --> 00:51:41.120
Oh my word, it's forcing me.

716
00:51:41.360 --> 00:51:42.440
It's not forcing you.

717
00:51:42.620 --> 00:51:45.400
Your S your body does not control you in either.

718
00:51:45.400 --> 00:51:47.360
Does your soul, your spirit does.

719
00:51:47.780 --> 00:51:50.380
So choose which part of you is going to run the show.

720
00:51:50.760 --> 00:51:51.060
Yeah.

721
00:51:51.780 --> 00:51:57.860
So there's no contradiction then in trying to like what we've talked about

722
00:51:57.860 --> 00:52:02.660
before, trying to like, not trying to, but living from your spirit and embracing

723
00:52:02.660 --> 00:52:04.060
your soul and your body.

724
00:52:04.380 --> 00:52:14.200
And at the same time, kind of like doing whatever, like an exercise, exercising,

725
00:52:14.200 --> 00:52:19.260
watching, like doing the calories, doing whatever, just to like get

726
00:52:19.260 --> 00:52:21.460
to the goal of where, whatever.

727
00:52:22.400 --> 00:52:25.100
Yeah, no, no, not at all.

728
00:52:25.740 --> 00:52:26.260
Not at all.

729
00:52:26.300 --> 00:52:29.380
It's the, it's the approach to it.

730
00:52:30.060 --> 00:52:34.220
It's the, it's the, it's the direction from which you approach it.

731
00:52:34.840 --> 00:52:36.320
It's the way in which you approach it.

732
00:52:36.320 --> 00:52:37.300
Are you approaching it?

733
00:52:37.300 --> 00:52:40.760
Because you're, because you're approaching it from your spirit of like, no,

734
00:52:40.980 --> 00:52:42.000
this is what we're going to do.

735
00:52:42.000 --> 00:52:44.800
We are going to manifest who it is that we are in spirit.

736
00:52:44.800 --> 00:52:47.220
We're going to manifest that indoor soul and into our body.

737
00:52:47.600 --> 00:52:54.420
And here are some, here are some tools that creation meaning, uh, that God has

738
00:52:54.420 --> 00:52:59.300
created as laws put into creation that I'm going to choose to partner with me.

739
00:52:59.780 --> 00:53:03.980
For instance, my body seems to be responding to it, you know, because it

740
00:53:03.980 --> 00:53:08.660
believes that, you know, it is what it is, then it needs, then, um, I need

741
00:53:08.660 --> 00:53:11.220
lower, fewer calories and more exercise.

742
00:53:11.240 --> 00:53:11.700
Okay.

743
00:53:12.000 --> 00:53:14.220
Then that's, then those are the tools that we're going to use.

744
00:53:14.460 --> 00:53:17.340
Those are the things that I'm going to partner with, um, that I'm going to

745
00:53:17.340 --> 00:53:22.340
allow creation to partner with me in, in, um, in utilizing, I'm going to

746
00:53:22.340 --> 00:53:25.440
utilize diet and I'm going to utilize exercise and I'm going to utilize

747
00:53:25.440 --> 00:53:30.140
whatever, but you'll want, um, it'll be faster and easier to lose weight.

748
00:53:30.380 --> 00:53:33.120
If you, if you fully accept your body.

749
00:53:33.900 --> 00:53:38.840
The way that it is without requiring it to change so that it feels safe

750
00:53:39.560 --> 00:53:48.720
to respond beyond the law of diet and exercise, and you will lose more with

751
00:53:48.720 --> 00:53:52.040
diet and exercise than even scientifically you would normally would.

752
00:53:52.600 --> 00:53:57.200
So not only will it respond to the physical laws, you might have a miracle

753
00:53:57.880 --> 00:54:03.440
of like you losing twice as much through diet and exercise than sign.

754
00:54:04.280 --> 00:54:07.960
And typically you should for the amount that you're eating and this, and the,

755
00:54:08.000 --> 00:54:08.960
and the exercise, why?

756
00:54:08.960 --> 00:54:11.280
Because your body feels safe enough to change.

757
00:54:11.760 --> 00:54:18.120
So that's where you're still using creation principles and allowing it to

758
00:54:18.120 --> 00:54:21.000
partner with you, but you're allowing it to partner with you, with you as the

759
00:54:21.000 --> 00:54:25.840
King, not being subject to it where, Oh, I have to, because I need it.

760
00:54:25.840 --> 00:54:27.240
And it's more powerful than me.

761
00:54:27.560 --> 00:54:30.080
You have to do it from the approach that you're more powerful.

762
00:54:30.720 --> 00:54:31.040
Yeah.

763
00:54:31.400 --> 00:54:36.800
Cause I think that last thing, I just don't fully understand how to X, like I

764
00:54:36.800 --> 00:54:41.840
still haven't cracked that code of what that looks like to fully embrace my body,

765
00:54:41.880 --> 00:54:43.760
regardless to make it feel safe.

766
00:54:43.760 --> 00:54:45.800
Like, I don't know how to make it feel safe.

767
00:54:46.480 --> 00:54:54.840
Well, you do that by, um, by remember it's not, um, you're looking past like all

768
00:54:54.840 --> 00:54:58.360
of the roles and all of that pockets and all of the, whatever that you're looking

769
00:54:58.360 --> 00:54:59.520
at, you're like, I really don't like that.

770
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:00.800
I don't like that.

771
00:55:01.120 --> 00:55:01.840
You don't have to like it.

772
00:55:02.640 --> 00:55:08.400
Your body decided that it was going to put on weight and it was going to put it there.

773
00:55:08.760 --> 00:55:11.160
You don't have to agree with your body's decision.

774
00:55:11.600 --> 00:55:16.160
You don't have to believe and agree with the fact that it may of, of the

775
00:55:16.160 --> 00:55:17.840
reason why it made that decision.

776
00:55:18.080 --> 00:55:19.360
It made it out of fear.

777
00:55:19.360 --> 00:55:20.400
It made it out or whatever.

778
00:55:20.400 --> 00:55:22.080
You don't have to agree with any of that.

779
00:55:22.400 --> 00:55:26.200
What you're choosing is you're choosing the body, the entity, that

780
00:55:26.520 --> 00:55:31.840
kind of like the will that made that decision, that that is good.

781
00:55:32.360 --> 00:55:40.200
And then that is the, and that you fully love and accept it even while it's

782
00:55:40.200 --> 00:55:42.840
making self-destructive decisions.

783
00:55:43.760 --> 00:55:48.240
And, and you can, and part of how you can help yourself in that is to know that

784
00:55:48.240 --> 00:55:52.960
the reason the body's doing it is because it thinks you're evil and it's trying to

785
00:55:52.960 --> 00:55:59.960
do the right thing in an evil environment with an evil leader doesn't trust you.

786
00:56:00.200 --> 00:56:02.280
I'm not saying you are evil and that it actually is.

787
00:56:03.000 --> 00:56:07.840
I'm saying it's thinking I'm not safe with that spirit.

788
00:56:08.120 --> 00:56:09.040
I'm not safe with it.

789
00:56:09.360 --> 00:56:12.160
So I have to do the right thing on my own.

790
00:56:13.320 --> 00:56:19.480
So thinks it's doing the right thing, but actually it's act, it's acting in what

791
00:56:19.480 --> 00:56:21.840
God would call calls in the Bible rebellion.

792
00:56:22.320 --> 00:56:23.400
Kids do the same thing.

793
00:56:23.440 --> 00:56:25.480
You know, when they're going through rebellion as a teenager, they were

794
00:56:25.480 --> 00:56:27.600
fighting so hard for sense of self.

795
00:56:28.480 --> 00:56:32.680
And so in a way they're thinking my parents are against me.

796
00:56:32.680 --> 00:56:38.200
You know, everybody's trying to like, they are in emotional and sometimes

797
00:56:38.200 --> 00:56:40.240
even spiritual survival mode.

798
00:56:40.520 --> 00:56:45.000
So everything is trying to do the right thing.

799
00:56:45.080 --> 00:56:50.720
But if you try to do the right thing from the wrong, uh, from the, uh, by, by

800
00:56:50.720 --> 00:56:53.600
rejecting truth, it's called rebellion.

801
00:56:54.520 --> 00:56:58.600
You end up doing the wrong thing, even though you tried to do the right thing.

802
00:56:58.880 --> 00:57:00.600
So the body is doing the same thing.

803
00:57:00.880 --> 00:57:04.840
It's thinking I, you know, I can't trust anything else.

804
00:57:05.360 --> 00:57:07.440
Nobody else is doing the right thing.

805
00:57:07.480 --> 00:57:09.080
So I'm going to do the right thing.

806
00:57:09.320 --> 00:57:11.320
I'm going to protect this body.

807
00:57:12.040 --> 00:57:13.640
I'm going to do what I have to do.

808
00:57:13.960 --> 00:57:22.360
In fact, honestly, the reason that, that we have fat is when we get toxins in the

809
00:57:22.360 --> 00:57:26.800
body, either through hairspray or, um, you know, you know, chemicals like stuff

810
00:57:26.800 --> 00:57:30.480
that we just use, you know, makeup, or we actually ingest with like food, like

811
00:57:30.480 --> 00:57:34.040
too much sugar or too much, whatever it literally poisons the body.

812
00:57:34.040 --> 00:57:38.400
So the fat is actually toxins that aren't coming out through the colon

813
00:57:38.400 --> 00:57:41.600
or the, or the, uh, sweat glands fast enough.

814
00:57:42.000 --> 00:57:47.200
So the body, in order to protect your body, neutralizes those toxins in fat

815
00:57:47.200 --> 00:57:52.800
molecules, and then sends the fat to be stored somewhere to neutralize the poison.

816
00:57:54.120 --> 00:57:54.440
Yeah.

817
00:57:54.480 --> 00:57:56.800
It's actually trying to protect you.

818
00:57:57.720 --> 00:58:03.440
And so, um, so no wonder it thinks that we're not, that we're not safe is if

819
00:58:03.440 --> 00:58:08.000
we're putting poison in our body, if it's to poison and so it's afraid.

820
00:58:08.320 --> 00:58:13.520
So anyway, um, that is, uh, uh, so does that, does that help?

821
00:58:13.680 --> 00:58:19.440
You're actually thinking of your, the actual entity of your body, not its

822
00:58:19.440 --> 00:58:25.400
decisions and not why it's making its decisions, you're actually finding the

823
00:58:25.400 --> 00:58:31.800
aspect of the body itself and loving that is like this, I don't know this

824
00:58:31.800 --> 00:58:36.480
partner with you in life and you're like, I, you know, I love and accept you

825
00:58:36.760 --> 00:58:37.680
unconditionally.

826
00:58:37.680 --> 00:58:42.640
In other words, without it having with, with no meaning, you aren't doing

827
00:58:42.640 --> 00:58:44.960
anything for me that I'm loving you for.

828
00:58:45.480 --> 00:58:48.360
I'm just loving you because you are you.

829
00:58:48.720 --> 00:58:49.960
I choose you.

830
00:58:49.960 --> 00:58:53.640
God gave me you and I didn't have a choice, but now, even though I don't

831
00:58:53.640 --> 00:58:59.440
have a choice, I am intentionally choosing you over a different body or

832
00:58:59.440 --> 00:59:02.200
over a different soul or whatever I'm choosing you.

833
00:59:02.560 --> 00:59:04.720
And so you choose yourself like that.

834
00:59:05.240 --> 00:59:05.720
Yeah.

835
00:59:06.080 --> 00:59:06.840
That makes sense.

836
00:59:06.840 --> 00:59:12.400
And then, so I choose my body and then, and then also maybe like, because I

837
00:59:12.400 --> 00:59:15.840
choose you and because I love you, I'm going to feed you like good things and

838
00:59:15.840 --> 00:59:16.560
not poison.

839
00:59:17.400 --> 00:59:17.840
Yeah.

840
00:59:17.880 --> 00:59:18.160
Yeah.

841
00:59:18.160 --> 00:59:19.000
Things like that.

842
00:59:19.160 --> 00:59:19.640
Yes.

843
00:59:19.960 --> 00:59:24.280
And, um, and then don't, um, and so you're going to love on it and you're

844
00:59:24.280 --> 00:59:28.160
going to show that it, you know, you're safe with it where, I mean, that it's

845
00:59:28.160 --> 00:59:29.200
safe with you.

846
00:59:29.800 --> 00:59:33.960
And then again, not it and fully accept, you know, how to talk about fully

847
00:59:33.960 --> 00:59:37.160
accepting yourself and negative emotions that all you're doing is you're

848
00:59:37.160 --> 00:59:38.800
bringing yourself to neutral.

849
00:59:39.000 --> 00:59:43.360
You're not agreeing with the fact that like what we talked way at the beginning

850
00:59:43.360 --> 00:59:47.320
of the conversation about no longer feeling threatened by the fact that you

851
00:59:47.320 --> 00:59:53.720
might be making this decision or this desire or desiring this out of fear.

852
00:59:54.000 --> 00:59:59.280
Same, same thing, you know, with your, with your, um, uh, with your body is not

853
00:59:59.280 --> 00:59:59.960
being.

854
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:09.360
is don't well, how do I put it? It's, it's not being threatened by your body and the decisions

855
01:00:09.360 --> 01:00:14.240
that it's making, understanding you're not threatened by your body. And the fact that

856
01:00:14.240 --> 01:00:18.960
it's gaining weight, that's not a threat to you at all. It can, it's a, it's a child that doesn't

857
01:00:18.960 --> 01:00:24.480
know what's going on and it's scared. It's like, Hey, you can be scared. That's okay. You can be

858
01:00:24.480 --> 01:00:31.040
scared. I still choose you even though you're scared. And even though you're acting in a very

859
01:00:31.840 --> 01:00:38.800
frustrating, annoying, time-consuming on my part way. And it now affects my life in all of these

860
01:00:38.800 --> 01:00:48.000
ways. I am still, I I'm not threatened by it. I still rule over you and you don't, you're not in

861
01:00:48.000 --> 01:00:52.560
charge. I am now you don't do it in that mean way, but in a mean way, but it's just kind of like,

862
01:00:52.560 --> 01:00:58.720
Hey, it's like, Hey, I'm here to, with all of, not just all of the authority, but with all the

863
01:00:58.720 --> 01:01:04.080
responsibility to take care of you. So you're fine. So I'm, you know, sorry that you're scared.

864
01:01:04.080 --> 01:01:10.080
I'm sorry that you're afraid. That's okay. You're not agreeing with it as if it's, as if it's good

865
01:01:10.080 --> 01:01:17.040
or okay to be afraid, you're allowing it to be afraid with you. You're afraid when it's with

866
01:01:17.040 --> 01:01:23.280
you, it's almost like creating space for something to be the way it is instead of shoving

867
01:01:23.280 --> 01:01:29.680
it out because it's the way it is. So when I pick up a huge chocolate on my way home from work,

868
01:01:29.680 --> 01:01:35.920
and then I eat that, like, how, how would I approach it in that sense? You know, like,

869
01:01:35.920 --> 01:01:42.320
is it like, Oh, okay. Well, how would you speak to your, you know what I mean? Cause it's like,

870
01:01:42.320 --> 01:01:48.160
I mean, it's me doing it. It's not like its own entity. And I know it's a dumb choice,

871
01:01:48.160 --> 01:01:54.000
you know, but it's like for comfort or for whatever. I don't know. Yeah. I don't know why.

872
01:01:54.960 --> 01:01:59.760
Well, that's your soul making that choice. Your soul being afraid because your soul is the one

873
01:01:59.760 --> 01:02:04.560
making the decision, right? So it's not your body making the decision to go and grab the chocolate,

874
01:02:04.560 --> 01:02:08.400
you know, as if it's outside your control. It's your soul. That's making that decision. You've

875
01:02:08.400 --> 01:02:14.640
decided in your mind, you've decided in your emotions or your body can be craving it, whatever

876
01:02:14.640 --> 01:02:23.760
it is, you know? And so what I do, if I had, in fact, I had that last night or yesterday or the

877
01:02:23.760 --> 01:02:27.680
night before, maybe it was the night before. I don't remember. It was last night or the night

878
01:02:27.680 --> 01:02:36.560
before. And I was thinking, and, and, um, I, I went to the, uh, uh, went to the pantry,

879
01:02:37.200 --> 01:02:40.400
opened it up. And of course I'm seeing all of this snacky things.

880
01:02:41.360 --> 01:02:48.640
And I really don't struggle much at all with snacking anymore. I used to horribly like beyond

881
01:02:48.640 --> 01:02:53.840
horribly beyond anything you've ever experienced. I promise you it's, it was bad. I was, it was very,

882
01:02:53.840 --> 01:03:00.000
very bad. So the Lord has saved me from myself, but it would really talk to you how much sugar

883
01:03:00.000 --> 01:03:04.000
I could eat at one time. I don't know how someone can eat all of that and not go

884
01:03:04.000 --> 01:03:11.680
into a sugar coma. I see a sugar coma, no, an actual self poisoning coma. I don't understand

885
01:03:11.680 --> 01:03:16.560
anyway, the body is miraculous and I'm very grateful. I'm safe. But, um, but the thing is

886
01:03:16.560 --> 01:03:20.880
that, um, that I really don't struggle with that. And I'm struggling with it yesterday. I was like,

887
01:03:21.840 --> 01:03:27.280
that's odd. Why am I struggling with it? And I realized that I was feeling out of control.

888
01:03:27.840 --> 01:03:32.560
I realized that I was stressed because of some stuff that I was doing yesterday.

889
01:03:32.560 --> 01:03:38.400
And I just felt like I wasn't accomplishing what I wanted to. And I didn't feel, and I realized,

890
01:03:38.400 --> 01:03:45.280
okay, I'm not owning. And I didn't even word these, this, I didn't use these words with myself

891
01:03:45.280 --> 01:03:50.800
basically, because I've learned to articulate all of this for other people, but I've also learned

892
01:03:50.800 --> 01:03:58.400
to, uh, but that's because I learned to act on particular things without even me articulating

893
01:03:58.400 --> 01:04:02.880
to myself what it was I was doing. So kind of like using a tool. And once you use it enough,

894
01:04:02.880 --> 01:04:07.040
you don't have to use it anymore. You just do it. So I was doing that kind of thing. I was

895
01:04:07.040 --> 01:04:12.720
shifting inside without knowing, without having the words to my, to myself and my English in the

896
01:04:12.720 --> 01:04:16.240
English language as to what I was doing, but really I was realizing, Oh, wait a minute.

897
01:04:16.240 --> 01:04:21.360
You feel out of control. You don't feel like you're owning your own life. You feel like things

898
01:04:21.360 --> 01:04:26.560
aren't like, um, yeah, that you just aren't controlling the outcome or whatever. And I was

899
01:04:26.560 --> 01:04:32.880
like, Oh, and I realized, okay, I said, remember you're just fine. You own yourself. You get to

900
01:04:32.880 --> 01:04:38.480
decide how you want to live life. Meaning like you decide what it, not just what you want to eat,

901
01:04:38.560 --> 01:04:41.680
but the fact that all of these things haven't been working out today,

902
01:04:42.400 --> 01:04:47.680
you know, and the way that you want, is that a threat? I'm like, no, that's okay. You know,

903
01:04:47.680 --> 01:04:52.800
cause I, why? Because I'm fine with God. God's fine with me. There's, there's not like something

904
01:04:52.800 --> 01:04:57.440
that he's wanting me to accomplish that I'm behind on in order for him to be okay with me,

905
01:04:57.440 --> 01:04:59.760
in order for him to still be in communication. So I'm like,

906
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:06.640
Oh, okay. And so if something doesn't work out today, God can like bend time to make

907
01:05:06.640 --> 01:05:12.360
everything work out fine tomorrow and meet the deadline anyway, through some miraculous

908
01:05:12.360 --> 01:05:16.560
way that I didn't even have to work at because I was completely at rest and he did it all.

909
01:05:16.560 --> 01:05:22.620
So being that you're, you're, you're feeling under threat and you have got to realize and

910
01:05:22.620 --> 01:05:26.520
choose that you really are ruling your life and you are not under threat.

911
01:05:26.520 --> 01:05:34.480
And I don't need food or I didn't need it. So helpful. I think that, yeah, it was, I

912
01:05:34.480 --> 01:05:39.100
was feeling under, under, under threat and whatever. And I realized, no, I choose me

913
01:05:39.100 --> 01:05:42.720
because here's what it is that we're doing. We're trying to choose something that we value

914
01:05:42.720 --> 01:05:48.600
to make ourselves feel good. Choose you choose that. You make yourself feel good more than

915
01:05:48.600 --> 01:05:54.040
something else outside of you can. That's the damage is when we're giving power to something

916
01:05:54.040 --> 01:05:58.960
outside of ourselves. And that is meaning that we're not believing God. If God says

917
01:05:58.960 --> 01:06:05.980
that given us everything that we need, it means that, and we're saying, no, I need this

918
01:06:05.980 --> 01:06:10.920
outside of me. God's like, no, that is subject to you. And so if you're believing that that

919
01:06:10.920 --> 01:06:16.840
has more power than you do, in other words, it has something that you need, you're making

920
01:06:16.840 --> 01:06:21.880
it more powerful. And God's like, then you're not believing me. Yeah. So that is not, that's

921
01:06:21.880 --> 01:06:29.560
the opposite of faith. That is why it's a sin. It's not the action itself. It's a sin.

922
01:06:29.560 --> 01:06:33.940
It's the reason why we're doing it. I'm doing it because I don't believe I am who God says

923
01:06:33.940 --> 01:06:38.680
that I am. So you have to reposition yourself and reach his know who, who does God say that

924
01:06:38.680 --> 01:06:43.760
I am? Then once you settle back into who it is that God says that you are now, what do

925
01:06:43.760 --> 01:06:50.280
you want to do now that you are free will being again, who God has set up to rule your

926
01:06:50.280 --> 01:06:56.840
domain and your kingdom? What do you choose as a good King that is learning to be, to

927
01:06:56.840 --> 01:07:03.800
express and to live and to be the character of God? Now what do you choose? And then you'll

928
01:07:03.800 --> 01:07:08.400
actually make a completely different decision, but now you'll do it because you feel like

929
01:07:08.400 --> 01:07:13.480
this is what I choose because this is, so I'm now making a decision out of who I truly

930
01:07:13.480 --> 01:07:18.760
am in Christ. Totally different. No law. I promise you, you will no longer want it.

931
01:07:18.760 --> 01:07:25.640
You will no longer want it. All making sense now. Cause I think this is what's been going

932
01:07:25.640 --> 01:07:30.480
on lately is because of that court case coming up, like first, like understanding, like all

933
01:07:30.480 --> 01:07:34.360
the, like gathering all the information, blah, blah, blah. And now kind of just like waiting

934
01:07:34.360 --> 01:07:39.280
for a date to come up. And it's like, that feels out of my control. And I've never been

935
01:07:39.280 --> 01:07:45.520
in this position before. And, you know, so many emotions. Yeah. So I think, I think that's

936
01:07:45.520 --> 01:07:50.960
why I'm responding like that or my soul and my body, you know, like especially my soul,

937
01:07:50.960 --> 01:07:57.360
cause trying to control something that I can't control. But I just have to give that to God

938
01:07:57.360 --> 01:08:04.920
as well and just be like, Hey, whatever outcome. Yeah. So that's where I have to figure out

939
01:08:05.080 --> 01:08:09.880
how you forgive or bless or do, you know, to release God, to do whatever it is that he wants

940
01:08:09.880 --> 01:08:16.680
to do and take myself out of the equation there too. And then not harming myself by.

941
01:08:18.840 --> 01:08:27.240
Yeah. Yeah. Eating to gain control or protect myself. Yeah, exactly. And so, like I said,

942
01:08:27.240 --> 01:08:32.520
we're usually choosing something like chocolate or whatever, because it's a, it's weird as it

943
01:08:32.520 --> 01:08:37.560
sounds. There's some kind of a value in it for us. It's like, I want that. I want to have that.

944
01:08:38.680 --> 01:08:47.319
But what I've had to learn to do instead is, is enjoy me. Yeah. So if I give myself me,

945
01:08:47.319 --> 01:08:51.800
in other words, I put my, I remember who it is that I am. I thoroughly enjoy me. I don't know

946
01:08:51.800 --> 01:08:58.279
about you. I really like myself, but I had to, because I love who God made me to be. And I love

947
01:08:58.279 --> 01:09:04.439
the aspects of him that I get to live with 24 seven. And I love experiencing it. I love being

948
01:09:04.439 --> 01:09:08.920
in connection with those parts of me. Cause it makes me really excited. I personally really

949
01:09:08.920 --> 01:09:12.600
like it. Not everybody likes me and likes those parts of me, but I really like them.

950
01:09:12.600 --> 01:09:18.200
And so I get to be with me all the time. So that's what I do usually in those situations,

951
01:09:18.200 --> 01:09:26.040
instead of going for food is I'm looking for something to enjoy. So I choose myself.

952
01:09:26.040 --> 01:09:31.399
I choose what I am and all of a sudden I reaccess that part of me that I like so much. I'm like,

953
01:09:31.399 --> 01:09:37.080
Oh, okay. See, I'm good. I found something I enjoy. And then I, and then I usually will

954
01:09:37.080 --> 01:09:44.600
express that part of myself either by creating or I will, um, or I'll dream or I'll like,

955
01:09:44.600 --> 01:09:51.640
I don't know. Sometimes I'll watch a movie or book or, or, and, um, and usually it's something

956
01:09:51.640 --> 01:09:57.080
productive. It's not something that like, like food or a movie isn't always productive.

957
01:09:57.080 --> 01:09:59.720
It's usually something very productive because.

958
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.440
That is me being like my father, who's always creating, he's always, he's always putting

959
01:10:05.440 --> 01:10:11.400
something he's always contributing instead of always consuming.

960
01:10:11.400 --> 01:10:16.480
And so that, that, that naturally comes and I'm not trying to, it naturally comes when

961
01:10:16.480 --> 01:10:24.320
I choose, if I'm trying to find something to enjoy, if I choose to enjoy myself, then

962
01:10:24.320 --> 01:10:29.480
I find, then I naturally end up choosing things that are usually contributory.

963
01:10:29.480 --> 01:10:30.480
Yeah.

964
01:10:30.480 --> 01:10:31.480
Anyway.

965
01:10:31.480 --> 01:10:32.480
Yeah.

966
01:10:32.480 --> 01:10:33.480
Yeah.

967
01:10:33.480 --> 01:10:34.480
Thank you.

968
01:10:34.480 --> 01:10:35.480
So helpful.

969
01:10:35.480 --> 01:10:36.480
Yeah.

970
01:10:36.480 --> 01:10:37.480
Yeah.

971
01:10:37.480 --> 01:10:42.440
Um, you had mentioned, um, also about, you know, your dad and all of that.

972
01:10:42.440 --> 01:10:43.440
Yeah.

973
01:10:43.440 --> 01:10:48.960
You can go back through and for one thing, yes, the devil can come back or the enemy

974
01:10:48.960 --> 01:10:54.040
can come back and try to use us as staff and like claim that we haven't done it or whatever.

975
01:10:54.040 --> 01:10:57.560
But that's why I'd prayed the prayer that he did to seal it.

976
01:10:57.560 --> 01:11:02.360
He's like, absolutely not in order to tell heaven, no, it's done.

977
01:11:02.360 --> 01:11:05.520
And accusations can't come against during.

978
01:11:05.520 --> 01:11:10.280
You have all of the right heaven, because it's already been established to be able to

979
01:11:10.280 --> 01:11:11.880
dispel stuff.

980
01:11:11.880 --> 01:11:15.600
But if it's something that you feel just isn't quite resolved, because you're like, you know

981
01:11:15.600 --> 01:11:16.600
what?

982
01:11:16.600 --> 01:11:18.680
That's something I would like to give up.

983
01:11:18.680 --> 01:11:23.520
I would like to whatever, um, it says my internet is unstable.

984
01:11:23.520 --> 01:11:24.520
Can you hear me?

985
01:11:24.520 --> 01:11:25.520
Yeah.

986
01:11:25.520 --> 01:11:26.520
Yeah.

987
01:11:26.520 --> 01:11:27.520
Okay.

988
01:11:27.520 --> 01:11:34.640
Then, um, uh, if it's that, well, then I personally just take time to just release those things

989
01:11:34.640 --> 01:11:38.680
and do the same thing, you know, what you, you were doing with Ed and just kind of like,

990
01:11:38.680 --> 01:11:42.480
you know, say, Hey, you know, I took this out, put it in my hand, you know, because

991
01:11:42.480 --> 01:11:45.560
that just kind of gives you an anchor for your soul to help you know what you're doing.

992
01:11:45.560 --> 01:11:47.720
Um, uh, but it's not necessary.

993
01:11:47.720 --> 01:11:53.080
It's just that we feel that if we do something like that, then we really are doing it as

994
01:11:53.640 --> 01:11:56.680
opposed to hoping that we're doing it somewhere in there somewhere.

995
01:11:56.680 --> 01:12:00.760
So now I begin to just, you know, I, I release this and I give it all up and I no longer

996
01:12:00.760 --> 01:12:01.760
want it.

997
01:12:01.760 --> 01:12:07.060
Um, and then, uh, and you're just declaring your, your ruling as a King and you're declaring

998
01:12:07.060 --> 01:12:10.600
your authority to finalize something.

999
01:12:10.600 --> 01:12:14.800
So me personally, if ever I come up with something that I've, what I've already gone through

1000
01:12:14.800 --> 01:12:20.600
with someone is, um, and I feel like, I don't know if that's, if that's still actually in

1001
01:12:20.600 --> 01:12:21.600
there.

1002
01:12:21.600 --> 01:12:23.040
And then I just go through the process.

1003
01:12:23.040 --> 01:12:24.720
I'm like, well, it doesn't really matter.

1004
01:12:24.720 --> 01:12:30.400
You know, I can just do it, but if I'm thinking, no, I've already done it, then I just, then

1005
01:12:30.400 --> 01:12:32.440
I just, um, you know, dismiss it.

1006
01:12:32.440 --> 01:12:36.000
And I rebuke, you know, the enemy or whatever, like, uh, I'm just letting you know, this

1007
01:12:36.000 --> 01:12:39.520
is what happened and, and by, and I expect it to be done.

1008
01:12:39.520 --> 01:12:45.200
I tell him I don't get all upset and act like it's a battle.

1009
01:12:45.200 --> 01:12:47.160
It's not a battle.

1010
01:12:47.160 --> 01:12:54.040
You're calling on heaven to reopen that scroll and to show it to him so that then he'll obey

1011
01:12:54.040 --> 01:12:58.160
that because he's hearing that authority and you don't have to worry about it.

1012
01:12:58.160 --> 01:13:00.520
I don't have to convince him of anything.

1013
01:13:00.520 --> 01:13:07.160
You're not trying to convince me of the law that's being created in heaven.

1014
01:13:07.160 --> 01:13:15.600
Um, and then, so, uh, before we, before we go, did you have any of these other questions

1015
01:13:15.600 --> 01:13:17.440
you wanted me to answer or no?

1016
01:13:17.440 --> 01:13:23.480
Um, yeah, there was just, um, I mean, one was just how I deal with the court case.

1017
01:13:23.480 --> 01:13:24.960
Like do I just like give it up?

1018
01:13:24.960 --> 01:13:33.440
Like how do I, um, how can I partner with God so that I don't have to worry about it

1019
01:13:33.440 --> 01:13:40.040
and just pretty much, is there anything I need to do so that there's no soul-ish things

1020
01:13:40.040 --> 01:13:44.040
that you know, like that can disturb the outcome?

1021
01:13:44.040 --> 01:13:45.040
Like you know what I mean?

1022
01:13:45.480 --> 01:13:49.000
I just want to be like, Hey, I've released this to God and whatever God wants to do is

1023
01:13:49.000 --> 01:13:50.520
what will happen.

1024
01:13:50.520 --> 01:13:55.400
Um, yeah, that was that.

1025
01:13:55.400 --> 01:13:59.760
And that the last question that was written there was just, uh, one of my friends, she

1026
01:13:59.760 --> 01:14:02.200
was like, I have so much authority of my words.

1027
01:14:02.200 --> 01:14:06.400
I'm like a prophet and if I declare things and they're bad, then that's going to ruin

1028
01:14:06.400 --> 01:14:07.480
other people's lives.

1029
01:14:07.480 --> 01:14:10.080
And I just didn't know what to say to that.

1030
01:14:10.080 --> 01:14:14.800
So I mean, that's, that was just a curiosity, but yeah.

1031
01:14:15.560 --> 01:14:20.560
Um, it, well, that absolutely Kim is, um, uh, can be true.

1032
01:14:20.560 --> 01:14:21.560
Absolutely.

1033
01:14:21.560 --> 01:14:28.600
And so I'm looking at that because she was so angry at a colleague that she's like, I

1034
01:14:28.600 --> 01:14:29.600
have to be dry.

1035
01:14:29.600 --> 01:14:31.160
She's like, I'm drinking a bottle of wine.

1036
01:14:31.160 --> 01:14:35.840
Cause I need to like sedate myself so that I don't speak curses over my colleagues.

1037
01:14:35.840 --> 01:14:37.360
Cause I don't want to harm them.

1038
01:14:37.360 --> 01:14:42.360
And I was like, I was like, I'm sure there's a better way to do that.

1039
01:14:43.360 --> 01:14:44.360
That's what I was thinking.

1040
01:14:44.360 --> 01:14:45.360
I was like, wow.

1041
01:14:45.360 --> 01:14:51.360
Um, but, um, so I do think that there's stuff that's a bit more productive, but, um, I,

1042
01:14:51.360 --> 01:14:59.960
uh, it, what, what she's saying in a manner of speaking is true because if you.

1043
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:07.740
We say it in if, uh, there's a particular way in which we can talk about things

1044
01:15:07.740 --> 01:15:12.500
where we're trying to verbally process with someone because we need help.

1045
01:15:13.300 --> 01:15:17.160
Um, about, and bad things about this person.

1046
01:15:17.200 --> 01:15:20.780
And in other words, what it is that they did and how I feel about it.

1047
01:15:20.780 --> 01:15:24.480
And I'm just feeling like this and I'm whatever with that's not

1048
01:15:24.480 --> 01:15:26.240
going to cause harm in spirit.

1049
01:15:26.660 --> 01:15:31.700
It's very different though, when you're, when you are really upset and you are,

1050
01:15:31.740 --> 01:15:38.540
well, where we get curses or you're having an intention, an intentional.

1051
01:15:39.280 --> 01:15:47.420
Uh, how does it, basically where you have particular emotions that, uh, not

1052
01:15:47.420 --> 01:15:53.780
emotions, but, um, how, man, what would be the word for that?

1053
01:15:54.380 --> 01:16:00.960
Um, let me just say kind of an, uh, you have bad intentions towards someone.

1054
01:16:00.960 --> 01:16:01.880
Let's word it like that.

1055
01:16:01.880 --> 01:16:06.520
In other words, you have something within you really seriously towards

1056
01:16:06.520 --> 01:16:11.880
someone and, and it can, and it can flow towards them and damage them because

1057
01:16:11.880 --> 01:16:16.940
you you're basically in, in an emotional attacking mode, even if you don't

1058
01:16:16.940 --> 01:16:25.040
verbalize it emotionally, um, out and out flowing against them, you're

1059
01:16:25.040 --> 01:16:26.660
emotionally flowing against them.

1060
01:16:27.000 --> 01:16:32.360
If you verbalize that, or if you create too much intention in your heart of

1061
01:16:32.360 --> 01:16:38.040
like, this is what I want, and this is what I will, and this is that actually

1062
01:16:38.200 --> 01:16:44.400
can does have the authority to cause bad things to be, to send bad things to them.

1063
01:16:44.680 --> 01:16:46.440
It's based on our intention.

1064
01:16:46.440 --> 01:16:55.260
And then obviously verbalize that, that emotional intentional

1065
01:16:55.700 --> 01:16:57.480
energetic flow towards them.

1066
01:16:58.020 --> 01:17:00.020
Then that speaking that the curse.

1067
01:17:00.240 --> 01:17:04.820
So the issue, regardless of whether or not she verbalizes it, if there is an

1068
01:17:04.820 --> 01:17:10.500
intentional, emotional, negative flow towards someone, it's harm, it can harm

1069
01:17:11.180 --> 01:17:13.580
Yeah, because really do have that much authority.

1070
01:17:14.980 --> 01:17:21.100
So, but you can be upset, but I don't want that to be confusing with confused

1071
01:17:21.100 --> 01:17:26.660
with the fact that we can just be upset and not be emotionally sending

1072
01:17:27.240 --> 01:17:28.940
attacks towards someone.

1073
01:17:29.500 --> 01:17:30.000
Yeah.

1074
01:17:30.540 --> 01:17:34.860
You know, just it's emotional attacks that we're sending, maybe not even

1075
01:17:34.860 --> 01:17:39.660
verbal, maybe not even conscious, but if we are emotionally attacking them,

1076
01:17:39.660 --> 01:17:43.780
not emotionally, just dealing with what they said, but sending it.

1077
01:17:44.580 --> 01:17:48.060
That's there's, there's intention now that actually does have authority.

1078
01:17:48.540 --> 01:17:49.040
Okay.

1079
01:17:49.040 --> 01:17:52.720
Cause I was, I was thinking if you're really, really angry, is there a space

1080
01:17:52.720 --> 01:17:56.860
where you can be like, I mean, I'm having trouble accessing my anger, but at one

1081
01:17:56.860 --> 01:18:01.940
point maybe, but if you're really, really angry, angry, can you like spiel out to

1082
01:18:01.940 --> 01:18:04.460
God, like be really angry and then be covered.

1083
01:18:04.460 --> 01:18:09.140
So it's not harmful to other, but you still kind of get it out of your system.

1084
01:18:09.940 --> 01:18:12.940
Well, yeah, because within the current covering of the Lord, you can talk to

1085
01:18:12.940 --> 01:18:14.380
him, Hey Lord, this is how I feel.

1086
01:18:14.380 --> 01:18:17.300
This is whatever, but you're not directing it towards someone.

1087
01:18:17.600 --> 01:18:18.100
Okay.

1088
01:18:18.100 --> 01:18:20.640
So that's the diary intentional harm.

1089
01:18:20.700 --> 01:18:26.500
Even if it's subconscious, there's an intentional harm factor in there that

1090
01:18:26.500 --> 01:18:32.860
you're, that you're desiring that and that you're sending, that is a problem.

1091
01:18:33.020 --> 01:18:38.500
But if you're just, if you're just navigating your emotions and you're mad,

1092
01:18:38.820 --> 01:18:43.500
mad about somebody, or if you're mad at somebody that absolutely is not being

1093
01:18:43.500 --> 01:18:46.100
sent anywhere, you're, you're just.

1094
01:18:46.660 --> 01:18:48.660
Processing it all of that with the Lord.

1095
01:18:49.540 --> 01:18:51.660
Or you're like, God, I have this bad intention.

1096
01:18:51.660 --> 01:18:52.500
Can you remove it?

1097
01:18:52.620 --> 01:18:55.300
Like, I don't want it or like, yeah, yeah.

1098
01:18:55.300 --> 01:18:56.780
You can absolutely do that or whatever.

1099
01:18:56.780 --> 01:19:00.700
So, and by the way, by intention, you know, I am talking about actually

1100
01:19:00.700 --> 01:19:05.300
energetically sending a negative flow towards them, you know, that's what I'm

1101
01:19:05.300 --> 01:19:07.660
talking about, that's what can harm someone.

1102
01:19:07.900 --> 01:19:11.300
Having fear is poisonous to ourselves.

1103
01:19:11.980 --> 01:19:14.540
It's not damaging to someone else.

1104
01:19:14.820 --> 01:19:18.060
And that's what I thought I was like, but that needs to come out of us and

1105
01:19:18.060 --> 01:19:24.500
like, not to that person, but just like still out of us, those types of emotions

1106
01:19:24.500 --> 01:19:27.660
are the ones that I was saying, you know, it's good if you fully sit with

1107
01:19:27.660 --> 01:19:31.940
yourself, accepting, okay, this is how I feel again, you're not a group that

1108
01:19:31.940 --> 01:19:34.940
you're taking yourself to neutral because you stopped fighting it and thinking I

1109
01:19:34.940 --> 01:19:41.140
shouldn't feel like I'm mad because I feel this way or that you are, you know,

1110
01:19:41.420 --> 01:19:45.540
or that you're just feeding it, but instead you're just like, okay, I just

1111
01:19:45.540 --> 01:19:47.780
accept the fact that I am, I'm not judging it.

1112
01:19:47.780 --> 01:19:49.660
And I'm not saying that it shouldn't be like this and it

1113
01:19:49.660 --> 01:19:50.620
should be something different.

1114
01:19:51.180 --> 01:19:53.540
I'm just saying, well, this is, this is the way it is.

1115
01:19:53.740 --> 01:19:55.540
This is, this is reality right now.

1116
01:19:55.980 --> 01:19:59.980
Then it'll immediately diffuse the intensity and then you can take.

1117
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:04.320
And then, and then you take up for the Lord and do the same thing with him, allow yourself

1118
01:20:04.320 --> 01:20:08.920
to be with him, feeling that way, and then see how he deals with it.

1119
01:20:08.920 --> 01:20:13.080
Meaning like not only correction, but the fact that the fact that you just feel safe

1120
01:20:13.080 --> 01:20:18.480
enough with him, experiencing the fact that you're safe enough with him, like, Oh my goodness,

1121
01:20:18.480 --> 01:20:19.680
he's not even correct to me.

1122
01:20:19.680 --> 01:20:20.680
Okay.

1123
01:20:20.680 --> 01:20:23.400
You know what, Laura, this really doesn't look like you because you're with him.

1124
01:20:23.400 --> 01:20:28.040
So you're sensing more of what he's like, Oh, this really doesn't look like you.

1125
01:20:28.040 --> 01:20:29.760
We're not really in alignment right now.

1126
01:20:29.760 --> 01:20:33.880
I'm like vibrating on a different frequency wave than you are, but it'll feel like, you

1127
01:20:33.880 --> 01:20:36.760
know, it's kind of like, we're not lining up.

1128
01:20:36.760 --> 01:20:38.360
I want to be more in line with you.

1129
01:20:38.360 --> 01:20:43.600
And then he'll help kind of like dispel the emotions.

1130
01:20:43.600 --> 01:20:45.640
You can give him the emotions as well.

1131
01:20:45.640 --> 01:20:47.000
He'll take them into himself.

1132
01:20:47.000 --> 01:20:50.480
This is what it'll kind of like picture it.

1133
01:20:50.480 --> 01:20:55.720
God uses different ways to picture it to different people, but basically he'll take it into himself

1134
01:20:55.720 --> 01:21:02.920
and it'll completely neutralize and not only neutralize, but it'll, I don't know, I don't

1135
01:21:02.920 --> 01:21:07.280
know if it disappears or if God redeems it and it changes into something else, but whatever

1136
01:21:07.280 --> 01:21:10.840
it is, it makes it into himself and it completely neutralizes it.

1137
01:21:10.840 --> 01:21:16.320
So you don't have to carry it anymore, but anyway, so yeah, that is true.

1138
01:21:16.320 --> 01:21:20.640
And then as far as you were talking about your, about the court case.

1139
01:21:20.640 --> 01:21:26.080
So one thing, just like the whole decision making about your job is don't feel threatened

1140
01:21:26.080 --> 01:21:32.040
by your, and, and be all worried about how it is that you're feeling and all my word,

1141
01:21:32.040 --> 01:21:34.280
I'm bitter and I shouldn't be bitter.

1142
01:21:34.280 --> 01:21:41.520
And I'm whatever, the more that you're at the, the more that you're focused on the fact

1143
01:21:41.520 --> 01:21:46.080
that you are feeling, you're experiencing certain things that you quote unquote shouldn't.

1144
01:21:46.080 --> 01:21:47.080
Yeah.

1145
01:21:47.080 --> 01:21:52.440
Like being scared of the outcome, like, Oh, will it be, yeah.

1146
01:21:52.440 --> 01:21:53.440
Will you fight for it?

1147
01:21:53.440 --> 01:21:54.440
You know what I mean?

1148
01:21:54.440 --> 01:21:55.440
Like I'm yeah.

1149
01:21:55.440 --> 01:22:02.500
I mean, like, cause we're like suing someone and I'm like, Ooh, that's like yucky.

1150
01:22:02.500 --> 01:22:07.440
And then part of me just wants to be like, Oh, I just want to forgive and move on and

1151
01:22:07.440 --> 01:22:12.440
let bygones be bygones and just like, but then there are so much values involved that

1152
01:22:12.440 --> 01:22:15.360
it's like, kind of like what you were saying with your court case.

1153
01:22:15.640 --> 01:22:21.080
I think God is dealing with other things, you know, but I'm like, and I also don't just

1154
01:22:21.080 --> 01:22:22.760
want to be like, Huh, it doesn't matter.

1155
01:22:22.760 --> 01:22:24.000
No, of course it matters.

1156
01:22:24.000 --> 01:22:31.400
It's like an inheritance thing, you know, but I also don't want to, yeah, I just really

1157
01:22:31.400 --> 01:22:35.960
want to leave it with God and be like, God, whatever, like it's, it's ultimately every,

1158
01:22:35.960 --> 01:22:43.480
like all of it is God's I'm God's, she's God's the money is God's like, I mean, yeah, correct.

1159
01:22:43.480 --> 01:22:48.080
So remember that what it is that you're doing is you are learning through this court case

1160
01:22:48.080 --> 01:22:50.920
about how to rule, how to rule in spirit.

1161
01:22:50.920 --> 01:22:54.160
And it, these are the types of things that are required of a King.

1162
01:22:54.160 --> 01:22:56.000
I'm not saying that we should all go out and sue everybody.

1163
01:22:56.000 --> 01:22:57.000
That's not what I'm saying.

1164
01:22:57.000 --> 01:23:02.400
I'm saying when we're in situations like this, it's actually teaching us to rule.

1165
01:23:02.400 --> 01:23:12.320
And so we're not, God wants to help us navigate it as a King, not simply, not simply escaping

1166
01:23:12.320 --> 01:23:18.360
it because, because of the responsibility that comes with navigating it.

1167
01:23:18.360 --> 01:23:25.520
So you can take advantage of this opportunity as God, as I believe that God wants you to

1168
01:23:25.520 --> 01:23:38.400
in in in learning how to responsibly rule in creation through a lawsuit and, and navigate

1169
01:23:38.400 --> 01:23:45.260
it spiritually and and, and the things that God will shift in you so that you'll be able

1170
01:23:45.260 --> 01:23:53.120
to, you'll be able to bless her, but understand that in suing someone, you're not condemning

1171
01:23:53.120 --> 01:23:54.120
them.

1172
01:23:54.120 --> 01:23:55.120
You're not condemning them spiritually.

1173
01:23:55.120 --> 01:23:58.280
You're not, that's not what you're doing here.

1174
01:23:58.280 --> 01:24:01.520
You're just like, Hey, look, justice needs to be brought.

1175
01:24:01.520 --> 01:24:06.280
Something needs to be, some evil needs to be brought to the light and it needs to be

1176
01:24:06.280 --> 01:24:07.280
dealt with.

1177
01:24:07.280 --> 01:24:11.520
And God, if he, I'm not trying to make this complicated, but you know, God has directed

1178
01:24:11.520 --> 01:24:12.920
y'all, you know, to do this.

1179
01:24:12.920 --> 01:24:18.280
If you feel like, feel like this is what we're supposed to do, then, then that's the premise

1180
01:24:18.280 --> 01:24:26.600
that I'm kind of like going at approaching this is it's like, okay, God, there are their

1181
01:24:26.600 --> 01:24:32.600
actions and reasons behind those actions that need to be brought to light, that need to

1182
01:24:32.600 --> 01:24:37.480
be brought to justice, that need to be dealt with.

1183
01:24:37.480 --> 01:24:40.600
And sometimes God uses creation.

1184
01:24:40.600 --> 01:24:48.080
In other words, the laws of the land and whatever to partner with him in bringing justice, but

1185
01:24:48.080 --> 01:24:55.040
justice is not condemning the person as an evil person or condemning heart, condemning

1186
01:24:55.040 --> 01:24:56.480
their spirit.

1187
01:24:56.480 --> 01:25:00.000
It's not the person it's justice.

1188
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:05.580
us to the situation. Yeah. And there were terrible spiritual

1189
01:25:05.580 --> 01:25:10.100
destructive things that were done by her actions, terrible

1190
01:25:10.100 --> 01:25:16.180
things, twisted stuff like that. And so it was done. And so you

1191
01:25:16.180 --> 01:25:18.980
in this in the spirit, or, you know, and souls, you know,

1192
01:25:18.980 --> 01:25:22.980
through this spirit through this court case, can begin to bring

1193
01:25:22.980 --> 01:25:25.980
justice to those terrible destructive things that weren't

1194
01:25:25.980 --> 01:25:30.180
just done on earth, but were that then enter the spirit

1195
01:25:30.180 --> 01:25:33.780
realm, because of certain things that were certain decisions, you

1196
01:25:33.780 --> 01:25:38.400
know, that were, or then had particular consequences on

1197
01:25:38.400 --> 01:25:41.020
earth. And so you're, you're bringing, you're bringing

1198
01:25:41.020 --> 01:25:46.280
justice to that you're allowing, you know, you're allowing court

1199
01:25:46.280 --> 01:25:50.040
case system to be part of that process, God's God's using it,

1200
01:25:50.040 --> 01:25:56.040
y'all are using it. But you don't have to feel bad, as if,

1201
01:25:56.480 --> 01:26:02.600
oh, well, by suing someone, we're, we're like, villainizing

1202
01:26:02.600 --> 01:26:07.480
them, as a person, or removing their value, that we're

1203
01:26:07.480 --> 01:26:10.720
devaluing them, or that we're shaming them, or that we're

1204
01:26:10.720 --> 01:26:14.480
condemning them, no, but you are bringing their action, their

1205
01:26:14.480 --> 01:26:18.400
approach, their posture, to justice, you're trying to bring

1206
01:26:18.480 --> 01:26:25.000
order back to creation. As a ruling king, and you do, and you

1207
01:26:25.000 --> 01:26:27.960
want to do that, though, as much from the spirit, you want to do

1208
01:26:27.960 --> 01:26:33.480
that from the spirit realm, but you're using creation principles

1209
01:26:33.480 --> 01:26:38.600
such as like court case to be to partner with you in it. But it's

1210
01:26:38.600 --> 01:26:43.040
not the court case that will bring justice. It's God, you're

1211
01:26:43.040 --> 01:26:47.440
bringing kingdom of God into this situation, so that his

1212
01:26:47.440 --> 01:26:52.080
principles will overrule, maybe even the natural way that the

1213
01:26:52.080 --> 01:26:56.480
court goes, because it's the kingdom of God that needs to

1214
01:26:56.480 --> 01:27:00.520
undo and bring justice to all of the spiritual destruction that

1215
01:27:00.520 --> 01:27:04.080
was done anyway, let alone any destruction that was done in the

1216
01:27:04.080 --> 01:27:07.680
physical realm. Yeah. So that's all you're doing is you're just

1217
01:27:07.800 --> 01:27:13.640
allow yourself to be a catalyst of, of, of bringing in the

1218
01:27:13.640 --> 01:27:17.680
kingdom of God, while and so that God can deal with the

1219
01:27:17.680 --> 01:27:23.600
situation into it so that he can give him the authority to

1220
01:27:23.600 --> 01:27:28.640
because the because, because the, the thing was done against

1221
01:27:28.640 --> 01:27:34.160
you. So you're the one who has the authority to bring in to to

1222
01:27:34.160 --> 01:27:39.880
give the authority to the principles that you agree with,

1223
01:27:40.400 --> 01:27:44.720
that have the higher power and the final say, that's the

1224
01:27:44.720 --> 01:27:50.240
position that you are holding is you are choosing, okay, you're

1225
01:27:50.240 --> 01:27:53.040
the gateway between heaven and earth. So you're opening the

1226
01:27:53.040 --> 01:27:57.000
gate. Yeah, you bring it in. So you don't have to feel guilty

1227
01:27:57.000 --> 01:28:00.640
about any of that. You know, you're not, you're not

1228
01:28:00.640 --> 01:28:03.360
villainizing or you're not saying she's evil. You're not

1229
01:28:03.400 --> 01:28:07.520
like declaring something about her. You know, you're just

1230
01:28:07.520 --> 01:28:11.760
allowing God to come in and to bring his justice. But if she

1231
01:28:11.760 --> 01:28:14.280
had done it to someone else, that's not a Christian, they

1232
01:28:14.280 --> 01:28:18.240
wouldn't be bringing in the kingdom of God. And so you have

1233
01:28:18.240 --> 01:28:23.240
the opportunity to actually make this for to bring restoration to

1234
01:28:23.240 --> 01:28:27.640
her soul. Yeah, restoration to her because you're bringing in

1235
01:28:27.640 --> 01:28:29.440
the kingdom of God. Yeah.

1236
01:28:30.880 --> 01:28:33.840
Yeah, it's so helpful. It's just that because I think it's been

1237
01:28:33.840 --> 01:28:36.400
like, and it's still draining me. That's what I feel like.

1238
01:28:36.400 --> 01:28:40.480
It's like, oh, it's like, not not not at the top of my mind.

1239
01:28:40.480 --> 01:28:44.680
But just like, you know, it's kind of like a leaking faucet,

1240
01:28:44.720 --> 01:28:47.720
you know, where it's like, it's dripping. It feels like God's

1241
01:28:47.720 --> 01:28:50.080
dripping all the time, you know, and it's like,

1242
01:28:51.440 --> 01:28:56.680
yeah, it's, it's not fun as much as you can. Every especially

1243
01:28:56.680 --> 01:29:00.440
before you go to bed, but really, you know, every time you

1244
01:29:00.440 --> 01:29:03.880
discuss the court case or whatever. And you'll eventually

1245
01:29:03.880 --> 01:29:05.960
do this to the point where you won't have to actually go

1246
01:29:05.960 --> 01:29:09.760
through this whole process, but kind of like, at least initially

1247
01:29:09.760 --> 01:29:14.080
begin to intentionally cut yourself away from the court

1248
01:29:14.080 --> 01:29:17.160
case, like in the spirit, like, okay, we discussed it, we

1249
01:29:17.160 --> 01:29:20.000
whatever, okay, anything, anything, evil, Lord, anything

1250
01:29:20.000 --> 01:29:22.840
gross, anything that is like trying to inspires are trying to

1251
01:29:22.840 --> 01:29:25.800
grab ahold of me and hold on to me. And like, that's making you

1252
01:29:25.800 --> 01:29:29.520
feel like there's always like this sludge subconscious sludge

1253
01:29:29.520 --> 01:29:32.680
that you're going through. You're not thinking about it.

1254
01:29:32.680 --> 01:29:35.800
There's this subconscious. Yeah, like that bill is is affecting

1255
01:29:35.800 --> 01:29:40.840
your life. It's cut away from that. Like, just like, okay, I'm

1256
01:29:40.880 --> 01:29:44.280
you know, Lord, you know, free me from and I'm and I'm choosing

1257
01:29:44.280 --> 01:29:49.200
Lord to cut away from cut any like ties or any like fingers or

1258
01:29:49.200 --> 01:29:52.200
whatever that I've tried to like leech on to me after having

1259
01:29:52.200 --> 01:29:55.920
discussed it. I'm cutting all of those off of me. Nothing

1260
01:29:55.920 --> 01:30:00.000
controls me nothing manipulates me nothing corrupts me nothing is

1261
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:04.240
affecting me and Lord you're, you're freeing me and Lord, you know, I'm releasing, you know,

1262
01:30:04.240 --> 01:30:10.800
all of this to you. Like, for instance, when we do, um, The way I learned that was, um, uh, in

1263
01:30:10.800 --> 01:30:15.280
this, uh, training, you know, that Ed has done for the, for, in, for inner healing or whatever,

1264
01:30:16.080 --> 01:30:23.120
when you pray with people, um, you, they, they recommend after the person leaves, like say,

1265
01:30:23.120 --> 01:30:26.080
for instance, if you're like in a room with them and, you know, you've talked to them or whatever,

1266
01:30:26.800 --> 01:30:33.040
um, that once they leave, one of the things that you do is you cut yourself off. Yeah. Because

1267
01:30:33.040 --> 01:30:37.440
what it is that they talked about, because you're their safe place to talk about stuff.

1268
01:30:37.440 --> 01:30:43.120
So they talk about all of this stuff. And so you really do have to have to remove the connection.

1269
01:30:43.120 --> 01:30:46.720
You're not saying that you're not going to be connected, you know, to the person as a,

1270
01:30:46.720 --> 01:30:52.400
as a person, friends pay, pray for each other and all that you're cutting yourself off from

1271
01:30:52.400 --> 01:30:57.840
everything. It is that this person was dealing with it. They got freed from, you don't want to

1272
01:30:57.840 --> 01:31:03.280
have any kind of connection to it either. So you cut that off. So, um, and it's just a, and it

1273
01:31:03.280 --> 01:31:09.920
really, really works, really works. So, uh, so anyway, that kind of thing, I think might be

1274
01:31:11.360 --> 01:31:15.200
the sledge, the Laura's thing. And then you just cut things off. And every time that y'all talk

1275
01:31:15.200 --> 01:31:21.840
about something or whatever, Hey, Lord, I'm declaring that I'm removing myself. I'm taking

1276
01:31:23.120 --> 01:31:28.000
the permission, not just the permission, but I'm taking up the authority that you gave me

1277
01:31:28.000 --> 01:31:34.400
to free myself. I am taking advantage that I'm using that tool, so to speak. And I'm now

1278
01:31:34.400 --> 01:31:38.400
severing myself. You gave me that ability. I'm not doing it outside of your ability.

1279
01:31:38.960 --> 01:31:43.760
You gave me that ability. And now Lord, that's the tool you gave me this, this saw, or you gave me

1280
01:31:43.760 --> 01:31:48.480
this knife. You're the one who gave it to me. I'm now taking this, this was bought for me by the

1281
01:31:48.480 --> 01:31:55.920
blood of Christ. And that's the thing I'm choosing my own intentional free will. I'm deciding that

1282
01:31:55.920 --> 01:32:01.520
that's what I'm doing. Again, this is not wishful thinking. This is not, Oh, I hope this is working.

1283
01:32:01.520 --> 01:32:06.800
I hope I'm using the right spiritual warfare tactic. No, you're making a decision. God gave

1284
01:32:06.800 --> 01:32:12.000
you the knife. Now he's like, how do you want to use it? Like, okay, I gave you permission to cut

1285
01:32:12.000 --> 01:32:16.800
these things off. Is that what you choose to do? Yes. I choose to do that. So cut it off.

1286
01:32:16.800 --> 01:32:22.080
Just the fact that you decided that you're going to do it. That's what cuts it off.

1287
01:32:22.960 --> 01:32:27.600
It's your authority that did it. You were given it by God, but it's your authority that did it.

1288
01:32:27.600 --> 01:32:31.840
So in other words, you don't have to worry that, Oh, this is wishful thinking. I hope this works.

1289
01:32:31.840 --> 01:32:38.160
If you decide it and you do it, it's done. So you know that in a manner of speaking,

1290
01:32:38.800 --> 01:32:42.960
is a weirder word as it is to use in this situation, you have that control,

1291
01:32:43.600 --> 01:32:50.560
you have the control to remove yourself. It was given to you by God only in his power

1292
01:32:50.560 --> 01:32:55.680
covered by his blood. And you have the opportunity to choose to receive that,

1293
01:32:55.680 --> 01:33:00.560
which he's given you instead of resisting that, which he's given you or not taking advantage of

1294
01:33:00.560 --> 01:33:04.560
the gift that he's given you. He gave it, it all originated from him. This isn't you working

1295
01:33:04.560 --> 01:33:09.760
autonomously and deciding this is what you want to do. You get to decide if you want to take up

1296
01:33:09.760 --> 01:33:14.560
the knife and cut it. So you can know if you decide it, that it's done and you don't have to

1297
01:33:14.560 --> 01:33:20.880
worry about, Oh, well, what is it about being accused? Or like, in other words, if you do all

1298
01:33:20.880 --> 01:33:24.880
of that and a few minutes later, you know, you're still pulling the sledge. You're like, absolutely

1299
01:33:24.880 --> 01:33:29.840
not. I've already done that. It's done. You don't have to worry. Oh my word. What if I didn't do it?

1300
01:33:29.840 --> 01:33:36.400
No, you decide. No, I did. And it will go away. Okay. Yeah. Anyway, is that helpful?

1301
01:33:36.400 --> 01:33:39.360
Oh my gosh. This is yeah. Transformational.

1302
01:33:43.280 --> 01:33:51.760
That was amazing. Yeah. I think we answered all the questions. Oh my goodness. Yes. Above and

1303
01:33:51.760 --> 01:34:03.120
beyond. I'll be listening to this over and over. Yeah. And I think I had just like with the whole

1304
01:34:03.120 --> 01:34:07.440
body thing, I think I had just forgotten that there was a soul in there as well. So that was

1305
01:34:07.440 --> 01:34:12.960
super helpful. Yeah. That's the one that makes, that's basically what I think of as the aspect

1306
01:34:12.960 --> 01:34:17.680
of you. That's making a decision about whether it's going to believe God or not. It's do I open

1307
01:34:17.680 --> 01:34:23.840
the trap door or do I leave it closed? Yeah. Because spirit already is it's your decision to

1308
01:34:23.840 --> 01:34:28.960
come into agreement with it and bring it down. It depends on who you talk to, but some people say

1309
01:34:28.960 --> 01:34:34.960
that your spirit, your mind, and your, sorry, your spirit, your soul, and your body all have a

1310
01:34:34.960 --> 01:34:42.240
will. I'll have a mind and all have a heart. I don't know if that's true or not, but it makes

1311
01:34:42.240 --> 01:34:48.480
sense, at least in certain situations. I'm like, no, that makes sense. So anyway, if you kind of

1312
01:34:48.480 --> 01:34:52.640
think of it a bit, that's not too complicated. The point is think of the soul as kind of the

1313
01:34:52.640 --> 01:34:57.120
decision-making aspect of wondering of choosing whether or not your flesh is going to come into

1314
01:34:57.120 --> 01:35:00.240
alignment with the spirit and allow itself to be transformed.

1315
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:06.720
into spirit. So anyway, yeah. Okay. Thank you so much. Oh my

1316
01:35:06.720 --> 01:35:07.200
goodness.

1317
01:35:07.400 --> 01:35:09.280
You're welcome. I love your sweater.

1318
01:35:09.720 --> 01:35:12.920
You look really cute. I do too. I've had it for a while. And I

1319
01:35:12.920 --> 01:35:16.720
keep thinking about, well, maybe I need, I need to get rid of it.

1320
01:35:16.720 --> 01:35:18.000
Maybe I've had it a long time.

1321
01:35:18.000 --> 01:35:19.480
No, I really like it.

1322
01:35:20.360 --> 01:35:23.160
No, it looks so good. Yeah, don't get rid of it.

1323
01:35:24.800 --> 01:35:25.240
Keep it.

1324
01:35:25.520 --> 01:35:29.080
Right. Okay, official. It's official decision though.

1325
01:35:29.520 --> 01:35:29.960
Yeah.

1326
01:35:33.120 --> 01:35:36.960
Yeah, thank you. You too. Or it's probably daytime there. But

1327
01:35:37.320 --> 01:35:37.720
yeah,

1328
01:35:37.760 --> 01:35:41.480
yes, it is 239, which is later than I thought that it was. But

1329
01:35:41.480 --> 01:35:44.360
anyway, well, it's not later than I knew it was, but it's,

1330
01:35:44.800 --> 01:35:50.200
it's later than it feels like it is. Yeah. All right. Well, I

1331
01:35:50.200 --> 01:35:51.320
will talk to you later.

1332
01:35:52.320 --> 01:35:58.240
Thank you so much. Will there be like a continuing of the rest

1333
01:35:58.280 --> 01:35:59.880
in terms of thing or it's like, no.

1334
01:36:00.440 --> 01:36:04.960
And so what I'm planning to do, I'm still in the works, but I

1335
01:36:05.000 --> 01:36:07.440
it's, I think you're probably the first person who's heard

1336
01:36:07.440 --> 01:36:13.480
this. I am looking to do a three day challenge, April 4, 5, and

1337
01:36:13.480 --> 01:36:18.400
six in but it's in the evening. So it's like 90 minute, I think

1338
01:36:18.400 --> 01:36:21.600
60 to 90 minutes each night. I haven't announced it or anything

1339
01:36:21.600 --> 01:36:24.440
yet. I'm still working on the details. And then going to do

1340
01:36:24.440 --> 01:36:30.680
plan to do a three day live virtual event. Friday, Saturday

1341
01:36:30.680 --> 01:36:37.320
and Sunday, the weekend after Easter, which I don't know what

1342
01:36:37.320 --> 01:36:41.280
those days are. Is that like the 13th, 14th and 15th or something

1343
01:36:41.280 --> 01:36:44.960
like that? Anyway, that's what I'm looking to do. And then

1344
01:36:45.000 --> 01:36:51.480
potentially doing a another rest intensive. And on the back of

1345
01:36:51.640 --> 01:36:53.760
internship after that.

1346
01:36:57.320 --> 01:36:59.720
Amazing. I'm so excited for it.

1347
01:37:00.280 --> 01:37:04.120
Yes. Yeah. I'm going to Spain.

1348
01:37:05.480 --> 01:37:09.720
Friday, next Friday, not tomorrow. Yeah. Oh, cuz y'all

1349
01:37:09.720 --> 01:37:13.360
are gonna be there for Easter, right? No, we're Yeah, before

1350
01:37:13.360 --> 01:37:17.600
Easter. We were there from Friday to Wednesday. Okay. Okay.

1351
01:37:17.600 --> 01:37:21.720
And then Easter kind of starts on the first day here. So yeah,

1352
01:37:21.760 --> 01:37:24.680
then I'll come back and go to the cabin. I think Renata was

1353
01:37:24.680 --> 01:37:27.240
texting me too. So I think she's been looking at a different

1354
01:37:27.320 --> 01:37:32.360
hotel or something. I just saw she sent over a picture and then

1355
01:37:32.360 --> 01:37:35.200
like, she recorded something so

1356
01:37:36.040 --> 01:37:40.600
good. Oh, that's right. Yeah. Well, y'all have been I hope to

1357
01:37:40.600 --> 01:37:46.560
get to a picture too. Yeah. All right. Well, have a good night.

1358
01:37:46.560 --> 01:37:52.320
Love you too. Thank you so much. You're welcome. Thank you. Bye.