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Thank you.

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Okay, I can't hear you.

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I think you're on mute.

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Yeah, you're on mute. There you go.

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How are you doing?

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We're doing good. I apologize. They just started running a wood saw, as soon as we started this, this call.

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I know and I thought I'm going to do it from my phone, and then it was just it was just thinking and thinking and I was like,

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No worries but sorry for the background noise I think it'll end after a minute it literally just started so I can hear it.

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This is my husband Ed and this is Diana. Nice to meet you. Nice to meet you.

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Oh, how have you been good good went to church this morning.

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We started 10.

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So, yeah, bright and early. Yes. Yeah. Good, good.

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Well, and so this is just, it's a bit different than a normal call, and you know because the information session is you know just about hey you know what areas are you wanting to shift into rest in or what was it that you haven't understood about the

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about or just whatever. And this is just more about like well what's what's going on, you know, with you.

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What, what are some things that you know you're wanting from the Lord that we can, we can pray about or kind of like help you walk through or send an agreement with it with you in or whatever.

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Do you have anything to add to any of this is just the time for you and I don't know anything about you whatsoever.

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It's kind of the way we, you know, I, I kind of prefer it.

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Yeah.

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I mean she talks about like her.

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Well not students but her. Yeah.

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You know from time to time but I've heard your name but that's kind of all I know, but yeah this time is really just set aside for you and I'm not really a part of the transformation sessions, so you know my background is a lot of kind of been on a

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circuit, you know I did inner healing and physical healing stuff.

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Then I, then I went through my stint in the prophetic for a while, which is probably my stronger the gifts and then, you know, then there was a season of deliverance, where I was traveling with a guy around, you know, and I've traveled all over.

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So it's not like we have a preconceived idea, you know, maybe actually does most of the things I'm just here, I have something that I'll, I'll chime in. And so, sometimes people come in and they have things that they're going through or something a little

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been putting his finger on things that even maybe either from earlier in their life or something that they all of a sudden, it's like man I thought I dealt with this stuff already.

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And he's wanting to put those things to bed. Sometimes it's just a time of encouragement. But, um, so that's why I think she's just asking kind of where are you and how are you doing and, you know, what, how can assist today.

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Well, I have just been on a journey of had told Ashley that I was raised in church, more or less, got saved at 11. So, my parents got saved and went to church and went to Christian school and all of that.

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However, in church I met my ex husband, we were married 22 years.

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And he was the quintessential bad boy. And I was the good girl, so to speak, but he attracted me because he was just so different.

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And it was that same difference I was too immature and young to really know, you know, what it should look like I come from a dysfunctional home so even though my parents got saved.

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They were like, they, they had a tough childhood so you know, they came with all these traumas and all these things, both of them.

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And so they had a, it was a rough marriage for them. And then my dad passed away in 94.

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And, and so, coming back after the divorce I got divorced in 2017 separated in 2015.

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I just said it.

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it. I had been through a lot, you know, imagine almost 30

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years, you know, 20 some odd years and the marriage was he,

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he was never delivered. He was never he had all these issues

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that I had no idea. You know, I was so young and naive. I never

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knew. Pornography was a thing I never knew. Like all this stuff

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that I later found out he was struggling with adultery. And on

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so that kind of affected me because we prayed and I prayed

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and it seemed the more I prayed, the worst things got it just he

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wasn't ready to change. And he wanted the marriage, but he just

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didn't want to put the work in to change, you know, so that's

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why I I just decided, you know, the divorce was better. And the

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this the the the straw that really was that he had an affair

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with my sister, his sister in law. They had like a fling. And

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she was my she was we were close. So it was hard. And that

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was like, Oh, it lasted about three months or so. But that's

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what really and I sensed it. I sense something was wrong. And

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when we were around her, I sensed it. And it's just

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something I couldn't accept. It was because I mean, I was

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married that long. Her and her husband were high school

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sweethearts. And none of us really wanted to. You know, when

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I brought it up to finally, I brought it up to my brother in

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law, his brother. And I said, I don't know if I'm going crazy.

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But this is what I'm thinking. And he told me no, you're not

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crazy. I'm thinking the same thing. He was sensing the same

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exact thing. So we we both confronted them. And although

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they didn't admit to it, that the guilt was all over their

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face and everything. And so and so prior to that, I had been

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praying and asking God, you know, because I would confront

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him and he would say no, no, no, no. So prior to that, I was

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like, Lord, you know, you need to do something here. Because he

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doesn't he denies it. And I, I need to be free. I need to for

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this to come out, because I can't be in this life anymore.

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And yep, it my brother in law had already, he's a computer

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guy. So he had already tapped her phone and all that and

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pulled over 1000 text messages between them in a month and a

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half. So you can imagine, I mean, I had all the proof I had

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everything. And but even though I had everything, and just, of

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course, it's hard merit divorce is hard anyway. And so that all

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that happened, and what was hard is that it wasn't just a

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divorce. What was hard was that it pulled two families apart.

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And my mother in law and my sister in law, we were very

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close. So they all sided with me. And they were all like, Oh,

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Diana, we're with you, you know, whatever you need, you know,

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we're with you, you know, I had all their support. But my ex

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husband, they completely shut him out. I mean, he was shunned.

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He was, I mean, that was hard. And then, of course, my brother

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in law. I mean, they were brothers and can imagine that. I

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mean, he just never wanted to talk to him again, never wanted

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to see him again. So my, my, my mother in law, which is just a

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sweet lady, you know, who had three, three boys, she going

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through all of this, it was very, very hard to families

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torn apart, you know, we couldn't get to get we couldn't.

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It's, it's just, it's just odd. I can't even explain it. And so

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anyway, the coming here, after all that, all the betrayal and

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trying to heal from that, it's been a long struggle. It's been

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a long struggle. And people say, well, Diana, you should be

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healed, you should be here, you should be there, you should be

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there. And it's like, yeah, it's just been hard. It's been hard

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to, to go through that. And my son to have a son, he's 18. So

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he took it very hard. And of course, this is his father. So

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he loves his father, and he's a good father. So having and I, my

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lawyer, when I was getting a divorce, he said, Okay, you

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know, you know, Diana,

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throw the book at him, you know.

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I mean, you have every right, you have every,

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every, in other words, you have the upper hand,

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basically, here.

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You can do whatever you want.

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And I heard the voice of God,

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he said, be careful what you do.

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He said, because whatever you do to him,

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it's gonna affect your son indirectly.

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Had never even thought of that.

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But I said, and he, for some reason, he said,

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don't ask him for any money, right?

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Just don't ask him.

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And I didn't know why, I didn't know what,

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I just said, I'm gonna be obedient.

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And my lawyer said, no, I'm not doing your paperwork,

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I'm not doing it.

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You need to have, you need to, you know,

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he should give you like, per his salary,

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you should be getting like 20% of his income.

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It was a lot of money.

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And God said, no, don't, don't accept,

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don't, don't, just don't.

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And then he said, okay.

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He said, but the judge is going to ask you

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why you're not requiring the 20%.

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He said, and he might not even sign off on the divorce.

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And I said, well, you know, it's a chance I have to take

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because God said, no.

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And little did I know later on

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was that he had had a lawyer person just ready

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to basically take Samuel away.

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You know, had I, had I, I didn't find that out till later.

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It was a lawyer friend that would have done him,

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would have helped him out for free

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and would have even lied about me just to,

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you know, like there was gonna be,

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God was trying to save me from what he knew could happen.

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And so, and so I'm so glad that in that way,

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I was just like, no.

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And he's always supplied our needs

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and we've never lacked anything.

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Thank you, Jesus.

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And so, but it's been a struggle on this end,

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just trying to come be free.

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We, God had me ask him to forgive.

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God told me one day I woke up and he said,

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I want you to ask him to forgive you.

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And then I struggled with it.

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And I said, no, I'm not doing that.

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God, I'm not doing that.

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He gave me dreams.

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He gave me like three or four dreams.

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I'm like, no, no, I can, I can talk to him.

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I can be civil.

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I can, I said, but don't ask me to do that

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because God, he's the one, you know, he's the one.

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Like, well, look at all he did.

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And God said, no, no, you're like,

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I want you to do this, right?

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So I said, fine, but I'm not doing it in person.

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I'm doing it over the phone.

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So I called it and I just, it was very simple.

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I just said, you know, I just, I'm a,

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it was after our divorce.

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And I said, I just want you to know that,

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that whatever I did, you know,

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I said, at any time I said, whatever I did, you know,

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to hurt you, offend you, whatever I said,

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just forgive me because I want to go on

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and I want you to go on.

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And, and, and so just forgive me.

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I said, for anything that I have done to you.

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And immediately he, he took like a deep breath

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and he just started crying.

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And I just, of course it was freeing for me,

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but it was freeing for him too.

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And I felt that, that he was, had so much guilt and shame

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and that God wanted him to have a certain kind of freedom

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in that area too, because we all make mistakes.

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And, you know, God doesn't,

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he doesn't say, oh, you've messed up, forget you.

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You know?

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I mean, if you did that, imagine.

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And so we did that and that broke something off in us,

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not where we had a relationship again,

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but where we were able to talk.

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We were able to just be, you know, about my son.

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And there was no animosity.

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And to this day, you know, he's, he, he's in the,

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he was in the hospital with the stroke like two days ago.

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And so we went to go see him at where he's staying at.

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And I took my son and, you know, we just asked him,

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you know, does he need anything?

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You know, just try to be there.

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And, and there's, there's no, nothing.

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You know, God is, he's healed that part

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where I don't feel hatred or nothing like that against him.

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If anything, I have compassion because God loves him,

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you know, and that's the one thing that God told me,

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even about my sister-in-law,

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I saw her at a Christian concert and God said, I love her.

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He told me.

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And it changed my perspective because I thought.

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You know, no matter what we do, you know, we can't change his love for us.

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And, and so it has totally and so although God hasn't healed that family, my mother-in-law

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passed away, but she was able to see that all three of them together.

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They were there with her for her, and she before she passed, she was able to see that.

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She was a praying woman.

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So that was an answer prayer for her to see all her kids again together, her boys.

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So God is restoring them, you know, maybe not to what it was, but he's still restoring

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them.

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And so that's a, that's also a blessing, but I've been asking God to, to make me whole,

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to make me just, I don't know, just free from all, everything that I've carried and,

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and now come to find out that there's just so much that he has been revealing about in

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the, in this intensive that we had, that I was carrying, that I didn't realize things

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that are coming to the surface, you know, even maybe generational trauma for my mom

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and my dad, which they've had just, they really had tough, tough, you know, just, you

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know, my dad, my dad was from that era where he was taken to the, it would be as a kid,

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he was taken to hard labor, to the labor fields, like up north, you know, and they come from

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that generation where they've had a hard, hard life, both of them.

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So it's been, it's been a lot that God has been highlighting and saying, you know, you

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need to be even free from that in your line, you know, generational line.

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So yeah, there's a lot, there's a lot, there's a lot there.

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Well, thanks for letting us know about all of that.

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I didn't know about any of them.

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the details in the background and anything.

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Oh, we can hear you, but your, your video seems to have frozen in a very odd light.

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Looks like a painted, it looks like a picture, like a painting or a drawing, a charcoal drawing.

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Can you hear me?

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Yeah, I can hear you.

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Can you hear me?

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It froze for a minute, but it didn't even freeze like the picture.

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It changed the picture.

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So anyway, but you're back.

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So I don't know all of that.

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It's happened before when we've been on like a fireside chat and you've been talking, it

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it's only happened once or twice where it would turn to that really odd looking thing.

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So, but I didn't ever want to interrupt your story.

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So I did never like ask you about it, but anyway, so thank you for sharing all of that

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You know what it is that you've been talking about.

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I didn't plan on sharing.

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I didn't plan on, I don't share that every, every, I mean, I hardly ever share it because

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Well, that's why these, that's one of the reasons why we do these and we, this is only

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the second time that we've offered this is we offered it the past rest intensive and

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we noticed that it was so impactful.

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the people in my rest intensive last time.

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And of course this is all more of even his wheelhouse and experience than mine.

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So we thought, oh, we'll, we'll offer it this time as well, because what happens is when

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we're creating this space, when we're coming into an agreement to, to create this space

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to welcome someone into basically the heart and the father heart and the, and the presence

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of, and the healing of God, then all of a sudden he starts doing things.

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So all we had to do was ask a question and things that I, you've never told me in all

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of the times we've been together, all of a sudden comes out, you know, because the Lord

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is the one who, when we're just preparing the space for it, he's like, he just needs

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to be given permission to move.

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And so all that we're doing here in creating a session like this, and then you agreeing

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to come on is the, is simply the fact that we're all giving God permission to move.

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And so he just, he's the one who brings all this stuff to light.

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And as Ed always talks about, we don't have to do any work to heal ourselves.

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Remember that in the rest intensive, we always talk about the fact that everything's that

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So even all of the things that we talk about, like making a choice, you know, well, you

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know, God has given us everything and we need to receive it.

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The receiving is not work and effort we're needing to do.

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It's simply stopping doing all the things that we think that we have to do.

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to, to try to earn it.

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It's the same thing with this.

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It's healing as a gift from the Lord healing, meaning like internal healing of wounds, memories

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and all of that is all something God's going to do.

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All we do is we stop the resistance.

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We stop resisting the healing.

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We stop, we stop not allowing ourselves to be emotionally vulnerable to the Lord so that

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he can finally, he can finally move.

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So that's, that's what we're, we provide this time for.

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It's not that we're bringing all of this like knowledge and things to say and things to

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teach or anything during this time, it's like, okay, God, we're making an available space

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for you to move.

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And then he's the one who does all of the healing work.

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So there's nothing that you or us need to do during this time.

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We would just, whatever you want to deal with Lord, would you please bring it up?

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So anyway, it's different for everyone.

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I don't know how much, I don't know your background at all or what I'm trying to decide which

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way I want to go here.

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What your background is.

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And so your walk and like going through this stuff with your husband and all the complexities

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there, how much ministry you've received or if you have any grid for what inner healing

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is or whatever, let me, you, what, what,

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Well, the, the church that I was going to yeah, I would, I would just arrive there and

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I would just be crying and crying.

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And the pastor said, you know, God is, it's just started healing you, you know?

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And for months I would just go in there and just cry and cry.

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So he has started the process of, of the inner healing and deliverance.

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in my heart that he was showing me, Holy spirit that, that I needed to deal with,

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you know?

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And so, and, and so that's kind of the journey that I've been on.

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Definitely.

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And it just, it seems like it's been like layer by layer, like it's been a little here

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and a little hair.

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It's, I guess, thank God that he doesn't do everything at once.

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And it's, so it's been six years since the divorce and eight years since the separation.

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So it's been that long that you've been going through this healing process with the Lord.

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Now, this is a strange question, but a lot of ladies will, men don't get this, but a

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lot of ladies will, they'll either immediately yell at, Oh, yep.

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Or no.

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Do you feel that you still have like an attachment with your ex that you can't seem to get out

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from underneath?

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Do you feel like you still have, like you're, there's part of you that's still running around

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out there or walking around with him and that you're not whole in that way, that somehow

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you're still can feel him and you're connected in a way for men.

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They're not wired this way.

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They don't understand what I'm talking about, but there's like a tie between you.

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I could be.

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It was a long time.

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So, I mean, I prayed for like I've had prayer for what do you call soul ties, you know,

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broken those off and have prayed.

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And I've done a lot of disconnect, you know, in the natural where, you know, he used to

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just text me and I said, no, you know, I wouldn't answer the text because I didn't want to,

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you know, if it wasn't about my son, I didn't want to keep going.

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So, we have no communication other than my son and he is actually has a girlfriend now.

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I've met her at a funeral and introduced myself and I have no animosity or no anything.

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I wish him well.

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And so, but I don't know if spiritually there's something still there.

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I mean, not sure, but as far as, but generally you feel like, like, I know it sounds weird

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to talk like this, but it's the same thing of like, when we talk about like, oh, go to

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the, go to the little, little, the little girl in you.

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That's still scared.

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That's still afraid back when she was five, something happened, you know, you're talking

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to him.

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They're just, they're what I use.

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I refer to as like, like tools to kind of help us grasp what we're trying to do and

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actually do the thing.

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It's like, oh, well, if I picture myself like this, then I can, I can like.

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walk myself through this. Okay. Here. So you're feeling like all

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of the various parts of you are all with you, you feel you feel

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whole, you feel like you get to own all parts of yourself and

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that they're with you, not something out there. That's like

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being not controlled, but being being affected outside of

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control. You don't feel that anymore.

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I don't feel that I hope not. I don't feel that no years ago, I

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would have dreams because you know, I take God speaks to me in

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dreams, and he would give me dreams where I was with him.

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Like, at least three dreams he gave me where we were together,

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like on rides in a car. And we were always together in Benin,

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they were always dark. So after that, I started getting prayer

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for soul ties, because I thought, I think God's trying to

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tell me that somehow I'm connected to be spiritually

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still. And so it was just the way the Holy Spirit was trying

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to tell me, you know, that I was still with him in, you know,

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certain things. So, but yeah, yeah.

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All right. And so I don't want to waste your time by having you

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go through. That's the tricky thing when you when you're

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talking to people that are either in the process or been

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through some healing process already.

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Doctor, you know, that doesn't know anything about you have to

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answer the same questions all over again, and go through the

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same thing over again. And I don't want, you know, I don't

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want you to have to do that.

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Whatever you feel from the Lord, that's okay. I don't mind doing

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anything.

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I get it. Um, now, I'm assuming, as part of your process, you've

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done a lot of forgiveness work.

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Well, I like I like ashes, I've chosen to forgive, I've, I've

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made the choice, I repeatedly told the Lord, you know, to give

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me the grace to forgive. So I have, I just don't know if that

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has fully sure, you know, you know, I'm not sure, but I have

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chosen and I told the Lord to help me to forgive. And so

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sure. Yeah. So now I'm a visual person. And, you know, in

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general, and so I'm going to

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for my own life, and then see if you can, if this will make sense

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to you. And so I understood forgiveness, and, and to forgive

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people. And I had tools that I learned from, you know, my times

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in different ministries and stuff. But it's like, I'm kind

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But it's like, I'm kind of thick headed, you know, like I, you

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know, even when I was in Guatemala for a while, they used

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to call me cabeza de calabaza, you know, like, pumpkin head,

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because I was more more durable, you know, I was very thick

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headed. And, and so I was hearing this term in my head,

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you know, safe harbor, safe harbor, safe harbor, safe, like,

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okay, and I and I saw what looked like a cove that was both

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protected from the elements and protected from, from site. And

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one of my favorite, I love the Caribbean of any place in the

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Caribbean, I just, I love it. And of course, there were lots

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of pirates and pirating that went on along those places. And

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so I saw this harbor, and I was thinking about those pirate

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ships and, and that they would have to find places like this

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to, to be safe to go and safe harbor. And the Lord said, Ed,

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what are you harboring? What are you harboring in your heart?

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That I realized that this cove, this harbor was things that were

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was my heart. And what things had I let in? And what I was I

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harboring there. And there was something in the tone of his

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voice that I kind of, you know, how God speaks to you sometimes

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and there's a tone to his voice that makes you a little

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uncomfortable. It's not bad, but you know, he's after something,

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you know, and, and at some point, during as I would ponder

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upon this, he showed me a boat, and the boat had someone's name

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on it. And, and it was somebody that had done something to me.

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And there were all of these anchors, lots of these chains

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coming off of this boat. And, and as I looked at the boat, I

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realized that on those chains were written all the things that

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that person had done to me. And the Lord said, Ed,

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Trying to, you know, forgiving someone without forgiving what they've done to you is like telling this boat to sail out of the harbor.

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Right. And so, it, it gave me a different perspective on what I would call the rubber band forgiveness, you know, there are those people that we like.

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He's like, Lord, I forgive my father.

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I forgive my father. I forgive my father. I forgive my father, and it keeps now, if you're seeing them every day and he's stepping on your toes every day that's a different story that's, that's a process that's just, that's just hard.

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Right. But this is like those things where there are people in our lives that we people say we need to forgive them and they're like I had forgiven them I've forgiven them 100 times.

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Right. But there's a place in the, in the presence of God and in, in the presence of the Holy Spirit, where, when you go through this process and sometimes I would look at people, and I would see like rocks on their hearts.

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And sometimes those rocks were burdens they were carrying that they shouldn't be carrying.

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But oftentimes too they were those things that are wedged into our heart that the Lord wants to take from us.

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So, so now this is the question I have to now that I've used all of those words to get to this place.

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In your place of forgiveness is then, is that how it has worked for you, or has it been that you're continuing to forgive your husband the boat over and over and over again, because I have a feeling that

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we'll move on. But I have, there's probably some things your husband.

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Maybe your family.

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You know that that maybe the Lord wants to take from you today.

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Unrelated to this, but how has your time of forgiveness with God worked, has it been the rubber banding kind of I'm forgiving this person the whole, but it seems to not be able to, to, it just doesn't seem to sit.

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Or has it been like, Oh no, I have forgiven every single little pebble of everything I've ever thought of in my entire life, 100 times.

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I don't, I don't think I've, you know, I've chosen to forgive I've said it I've asked God to help me.

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I've asked some people to forgive me, but I, I don't know if I fully have forgiven, I don't know that there's anything still in my heart that I need to release or let go.

447
00:33:02.000 --> 00:33:10.000
Yeah. So I want to tell you that I don't think I believe this is the Lord. Okay.

448
00:33:10.000 --> 00:33:29.000
I want to tell you that you've done an amazing job that you're like a champion that you, the Lord is very, very, very proud of you, and that you've carried things that seem like an insurmountable weight for a very long time with very little thanks.

449
00:33:29.000 --> 00:33:32.000
And it's the things.

450
00:33:32.000 --> 00:33:44.000
You know, as James used to say is a prophet that prophets are known on earth for what they say prophets in heaven are known for what they don't say, you know, there's an aspect of things that make you known in earth.

451
00:33:44.000 --> 00:33:52.000
But don't make you famous in heaven and there are things that nobody will know about an earth that make you famous in heaven.

452
00:33:52.000 --> 00:34:02.000
And a lot of things that you've done at the consternation even other people and people will never know about that, that heaven knows all about.

453
00:34:02.000 --> 00:34:08.000
So you've done an amazing job, and you've healed a tremendous amount.

454
00:34:08.000 --> 00:34:15.000
And I just feel like this is another layer of the onion, you know, I call it the peeling the onion of it.

455
00:34:15.000 --> 00:34:29.000
This is, this is another layer of you, not that you haven't done all these things. I just feel like you're in a place of maturity and position now for another layer to come off to be dealt with.

456
00:34:30.000 --> 00:34:37.000
And remember that this is all about your freedom, not that you, you've done something wrong and not having forgiven more than you already have.

457
00:34:37.000 --> 00:34:53.000
This is all about just like, okay, child, you know, I'm, this is all about God focused on you. He wants you to be free not, hey, you haven't done a good enough job for giving to as much as you're supposed to, you know, this is all about your freedom.

458
00:34:53.000 --> 00:35:00.000
So, would you, would you be open to, to walking through a little bit of this.

459
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:08.240
with us okay all right um now if you were here in front of me i i know this sounds very silly okay

460
00:35:08.240 --> 00:35:15.600
but what i would have you do is um if you are you right-handed or left-handed right-handed

461
00:35:15.600 --> 00:35:19.680
all right so i would i would normally make people take a look i'm going to pray for you but

462
00:35:20.240 --> 00:35:20.740
okay

463
00:35:24.800 --> 00:35:31.680
and then with their right hand i would have them go and it's easiest sometimes just to pick

464
00:35:32.240 --> 00:35:37.680
a person so right now for ease of our conversation we'll pick your husband for instance right

465
00:35:38.240 --> 00:35:44.000
but it may not stop there the lord may bring other people uh into the situation and i may

466
00:35:44.000 --> 00:35:50.160
feel prompted it's some time to say hey what about frank i don't know who frank i'm just

467
00:35:50.160 --> 00:35:57.440
making a name okay and and then what i want you to do is like lord i forgive what's your

468
00:35:57.440 --> 00:36:09.760
ex-husband's name adrian adrian all right lord i forgive adrian for uh you know cussing at me i

469
00:36:09.760 --> 00:36:16.000
feel i forgive adrian for and be as specific as you can and if there's something that that you

470
00:36:16.000 --> 00:36:22.480
want that comes up but you don't feel comfortable saying out loud you just say lord i forgive and

471
00:36:22.480 --> 00:36:27.760
you just silently put it in your little cup this is your little cup taking rocks out of your heart

472
00:36:27.760 --> 00:36:33.280
putting them in your little cup okay the lord will know what that is right and when it's all

473
00:36:33.280 --> 00:36:37.840
done the second peter says we cast all our cares and concerns upon the lord we're going to offer

474
00:36:37.840 --> 00:36:43.520
all these things up to the lord right and i'm going to pray and i'm going to pray for you

475
00:36:44.640 --> 00:36:52.800
um and i may um just as kind of like a sealant on this go through a very quick um soul tie

476
00:36:53.440 --> 00:37:00.000
you know breaking again um just to because you one thing stuck out to me that you said was that

477
00:37:00.000 --> 00:37:06.480
you had uh that you wanted to be whole um and i know that can mean a lot of things to people that

478
00:37:06.480 --> 00:37:11.440
can mean just healed it can be a lot of things but i just feel like there's an aspect of wholeness

479
00:37:12.240 --> 00:37:20.640
and a lifting of weight it's like if it looks like um sometimes i just see it looks like you're waiting

480
00:37:23.840 --> 00:37:28.560
just carrying weight around and you've gotten used to carrying it but the lord doesn't want

481
00:37:28.560 --> 00:37:34.960
you to carry it anymore you know and i think that part of your time with ashley actually

482
00:37:34.960 --> 00:37:42.320
is learning to surrender more of the weight and responsibility of things into its rightful place

483
00:37:42.320 --> 00:37:49.680
in god uh so that you are unencumbered to freely be able to be who you are and to do and respond to

484
00:37:49.680 --> 00:37:57.520
the things that god has and while i'm at it before we got on and i again i don't know you from adam

485
00:37:57.520 --> 00:38:06.080
so if this doesn't fit you then you know just toss it okay but i kept seeing and hearing

486
00:38:06.720 --> 00:38:16.560
uh diamond diamond studded diamond diamond diamond and and it it was like there had been a diamond

487
00:38:16.560 --> 00:38:24.640
hewn from the earth that through this through these years have been the many many facets of

488
00:38:24.640 --> 00:38:30.800
this diamond have been chiseled and ground away and it's like that

489
00:38:34.240 --> 00:38:44.240
and the true shining the true um um i'm trying to through brilliance uh there's even these there's

490
00:38:44.240 --> 00:38:51.120
even codes for diamonds that have a certain um level of clarity and and sparkle to them

491
00:38:51.920 --> 00:39:00.000
that is getting ready to be done so that the major painful process for lack of better term

492
00:39:00.000 --> 00:39:06.160
has already been passed and that you're that diamond and then you're in a time of being

493
00:39:06.160 --> 00:39:13.200
polished that the obscurity that has been placed over your life and the roughness of it and even

494
00:39:13.200 --> 00:39:20.560
the early stages in which it was pulled from uh has led to like almost like a devaluation

495
00:39:21.120 --> 00:39:26.640
and not being able to be seen so it wouldn't be surprised to me if you were not if you were if

496
00:39:26.640 --> 00:39:34.880
you felt overlooked that you felt shrouded and not seen that the true brilliance or the word even

497
00:39:34.880 --> 00:39:39.680
beauty or beautiful probably maybe isn't this thing that you're most comfortable with but i

498
00:39:39.680 --> 00:39:46.640
feel like the lord is getting ready to write that over you like a banner in this season that you're

499
00:39:46.640 --> 00:39:58.800
in a place of polish not in a place of filing and chiseling and and that that hard your place of

500
00:39:58.800 --> 00:39:59.920
refinement i guess would be

501
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:01.060
better place to put it.

502
00:40:01.440 --> 00:40:06.300
And then as I kept looking at the D and again, I don't really know how this fits

503
00:40:06.300 --> 00:40:11.060
you and some of what I'm going to say is going to sound a little strange, maybe

504
00:40:11.100 --> 00:40:12.860
depending on where you are spiritually.

505
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But I kept, I was hearing the word Deborah and Deborah was a judge

506
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and a fierce woman of the Bible.

507
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And so not only was she a judge to know what was right and wrong, but she was a

508
00:40:27.760 --> 00:40:32.360
leader and leader in a time and a place where being a woman as a leader was not

509
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normal.

510
00:40:33.520 --> 00:40:38.620
And not only that, there were some crazy things about Deborah, including the, the

511
00:40:38.620 --> 00:40:41.640
stars themselves battled on her behalf.

512
00:40:42.680 --> 00:40:48.000
The very stars themselves battled alongside or on behalf of Deborah.

513
00:40:48.320 --> 00:40:54.960
She had had so much favor and such position in heaven that even creation itself armed

514
00:40:54.960 --> 00:40:59.080
allied itself with her to submit and fight on her behalf.

515
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So I feel that there is a place of strength and judge, not too late staying in judgment

516
00:41:05.320 --> 00:41:09.560
of other people, but a place of discerning right and wrong, but a place of

517
00:41:09.560 --> 00:41:14.000
leadership that may be foreign for someone to say that to you, but a place of

518
00:41:14.000 --> 00:41:20.200
leadership in the eyes of men, because of the position given to you by God, that it's

519
00:41:20.200 --> 00:41:21.720
about to come upon your life.

520
00:41:22.040 --> 00:41:28.400
And that there is a place I believe where even creation is going to respond and

521
00:41:28.400 --> 00:41:29.240
rejoice to that.

522
00:41:29.680 --> 00:41:34.760
If I knew you a little better, I would say that there's almost a place of you in

523
00:41:34.760 --> 00:41:39.800
creation that is already fixed in your heart is something that's dear and important to

524
00:41:39.800 --> 00:41:40.120
you.

525
00:41:41.080 --> 00:41:45.000
And the creation is important to God because it says he's not coming to serve.

526
00:41:45.120 --> 00:41:48.120
He's not coming back to save man.

527
00:41:48.360 --> 00:41:51.720
He's coming back to save creation, all of it.

528
00:41:52.640 --> 00:41:59.360
And I've always myself been fascinated by the mystics of old that had this like, like

529
00:41:59.360 --> 00:41:59.720
St.

530
00:41:59.720 --> 00:42:03.800
Francis of Assisi that was so united with God.

531
00:42:04.320 --> 00:42:09.960
He would preach to the trees and to the animals and they would come to him to hear

532
00:42:09.960 --> 00:42:11.640
and he could communicate with animals.

533
00:42:11.640 --> 00:42:17.120
And I was like, what, like, that's like something inside my heart was just leaping.

534
00:42:18.200 --> 00:42:23.560
And I feel that there is some type of connection, a godly connection between you

535
00:42:23.560 --> 00:42:24.440
and his creation.

536
00:42:25.360 --> 00:42:33.240
And I believe that similar to Deborah as a character, that there is a place of who you

537
00:42:33.240 --> 00:42:35.640
are, how you're known in heaven.

538
00:42:36.840 --> 00:42:41.520
This is like the third time I've said this, but kind of like as a Gideon moment where

539
00:42:41.520 --> 00:42:49.640
Gideon was addressed by Gabriel to reveal who he, who he is, how he's seen in heaven

540
00:42:49.640 --> 00:42:52.120
that so belied how he was seen on earth.

541
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And the Gideon just refused to believe it.

542
00:42:55.840 --> 00:43:02.000
Well, I feel like in this season, the revealing of heaven, of who you are and your

543
00:43:02.000 --> 00:43:06.720
identity first and foremost to you is coming.

544
00:43:07.720 --> 00:43:12.680
And then that alignment then is going to be released for other people to see you.

545
00:43:13.240 --> 00:43:16.720
And I'm going to say this thing to you as a truism.

546
00:43:17.560 --> 00:43:22.720
Do not use your family as your barometer for your change.

547
00:43:25.840 --> 00:43:33.760
The Lord himself said a prophet is not without honor, except that at home, their

548
00:43:33.760 --> 00:43:35.560
family and their hometown.

549
00:43:36.160 --> 00:43:42.520
When he went back to the, he, this is the son of God went back to Nazareth and he was

550
00:43:42.520 --> 00:43:45.840
preaching and teaching, he'd had all the signs, wonders, and miracles.

551
00:43:45.840 --> 00:43:50.680
He was all, he was fully, you know, lathered in the Holy spirit.

552
00:43:51.240 --> 00:43:52.400
And they were like, wait a minute.

553
00:43:52.400 --> 00:43:56.000
Isn't this that, isn't that Joseph's son, that Carpenter's kid?

554
00:43:56.600 --> 00:43:58.000
Like, why should we listen to this guy?

555
00:43:59.520 --> 00:43:59.720
Yeah.

556
00:44:00.560 --> 00:44:05.080
So I feel like also part of your season is God bringing in new people to your life.

557
00:44:06.240 --> 00:44:07.800
That don't have that history.

558
00:44:08.720 --> 00:44:14.600
And as a, as I learned from a man many, many years ago, who debatable whether he

559
00:44:14.600 --> 00:44:20.440
was a Christian or not, but he had like a guru and, and it was like, he said, son,

560
00:44:20.440 --> 00:44:24.920
if you ever want to find out you, if you've mastered your life, go home and

561
00:44:24.920 --> 00:44:26.240
spend two weeks with your family.

562
00:44:28.200 --> 00:44:28.480
Right.

563
00:44:28.840 --> 00:44:34.280
The longer people have known you, the more preconceived an idea they have of who you

564
00:44:34.280 --> 00:44:37.480
are, and there's a pressure to conform to that identity.

565
00:44:38.520 --> 00:44:38.880
Right.

566
00:44:39.400 --> 00:44:41.400
But there's a new season coming for you.

567
00:44:42.440 --> 00:44:45.360
The things are not the way that they've always been.

568
00:44:46.440 --> 00:44:51.640
And I believe a renewing of dreams, uh, things that you have given up, things

569
00:44:51.640 --> 00:44:55.600
that you've sacrificed and things that you've even forgotten about that God

570
00:44:55.600 --> 00:44:59.440
has not forgotten about, and I mark my words in the next.

571
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:07.240
two weeks, two months, the Lord is going to start to bring up things that you have totally forgotten about,

572
00:45:07.240 --> 00:45:12.640
that you never even remembered that you wanted or that you asked for, but he has not forgotten.

573
00:45:15.840 --> 00:45:25.840
Right? And that your name in heaven, how you're known, like Graham Cook has a thing about inheritance scriptures and identity in heaven.

574
00:45:26.000 --> 00:45:32.640
And it's like you have a different actual name in heaven than you do here on earth.

575
00:45:33.440 --> 00:45:38.560
And it's not like you're renamed, that your name has no bearing, but there's a heavenly identity

576
00:45:38.560 --> 00:45:44.320
and that's your true identity. And I feel like this season is all about getting rid of the things

577
00:45:44.320 --> 00:45:50.000
from the past season to be able to take things into the new season. As a matter of fact, there's

578
00:45:50.000 --> 00:45:54.320
the last thing I'm going to say about this, otherwise we'll never get to the other stuff,

579
00:45:54.320 --> 00:46:03.760
is the Jewish people have a way of handling the new year every year. And this isn't calendar

580
00:46:03.760 --> 00:46:09.280
new year, this is their new year, but it doesn't really matter. The point is that they go through

581
00:46:09.280 --> 00:46:16.880
intentionally to look through their past year to evaluate it. And they intentionally decide

582
00:46:17.520 --> 00:46:20.880
what they're going to take into the new year and what they're going to leave behind.

583
00:46:22.320 --> 00:46:27.680
Right? Because the, you're taking things into the new year that aren't supposed to be a part

584
00:46:27.680 --> 00:46:34.560
of the new year. It's taking up space that otherwise would be making room for the things

585
00:46:34.560 --> 00:46:39.680
that God wants to bring into your life. And I feel like in a similar sense, that's where you are.

586
00:46:40.640 --> 00:46:50.320
And that the sky's the limit. Don't look to the lack or don't look at, I'm saying this to myself,

587
00:46:50.320 --> 00:47:01.360
Ashley's about to laugh, but don't look at your age as a limiting factor of what it is that you

588
00:47:01.360 --> 00:47:09.280
can do or better yet what God can do in this season and stage of your life. And as to quote

589
00:47:09.280 --> 00:47:17.360
Graham again, the more you become captivated by the majesty, the majestic, how large God is,

590
00:47:18.320 --> 00:47:27.920
the easier it is to walk into that place in life. And then also is the united place where you stand,

591
00:47:27.920 --> 00:47:31.360
that the more you learn about God, the more you can learn about yourself,

592
00:47:31.360 --> 00:47:35.520
the bigger you see God, the more easily it is to see a bigger version of you.

593
00:47:36.160 --> 00:47:40.800
And that that unity between the two of you is about to come into a whole new fresh place.

594
00:47:42.400 --> 00:47:49.200
Does any of that make sense? Yes. Thank you. Thank you so much. That's a encouraging word.

595
00:47:49.680 --> 00:47:59.200
Yeah. Okay. Okay. How much time do we have here? Yeah. All right. Thanks. So what time do we start?

596
00:47:59.200 --> 00:48:06.640
What time do we start? Okay. One 30. All right. Okay. As I'm listening to Saul's in the background

597
00:48:06.640 --> 00:48:15.760
here. So simply we're just going to run through this, just a simple forgiveness exercise and

598
00:48:15.760 --> 00:48:21.680
don't feel pressured to get it all because you can always do this on your own. Okay. Okay. And

599
00:48:21.680 --> 00:48:28.560
again, I just, just for the simplistic sake and, and don't be surprised if you feel an actual weight

600
00:48:28.560 --> 00:48:34.000
coming into your hands as you do this. Okay. And I think of them as rocks, right? These are rocks

601
00:48:34.000 --> 00:48:39.840
in your heart and make a little cup with your left hand. I'm going to pray quickly. And then,

602
00:48:41.360 --> 00:48:46.800
you know, I may have be prompted with a suggestion or something, but by and large,

603
00:48:46.800 --> 00:48:53.840
this is just you and the Lord, you and the Holy spirit walking through stuff, let him lead you

604
00:48:54.800 --> 00:49:00.960
and just, uh, just go where he takes you and trust, uh, that this isn't your own effort.

605
00:49:02.240 --> 00:49:07.600
This is not you trying through your own willpower to make it happen. This is the

606
00:49:07.600 --> 00:49:15.200
Lord himself coming to empower, to give you the grace to set these things done. Okay. Okay. All

607
00:49:15.200 --> 00:49:21.920
right. So Lord, I just pray for my beautiful sister, Lord. And we thank you for the, um,

608
00:49:22.000 --> 00:49:28.560
institution of marriage, but the, the place of, of, uh, of what you hold of marriage, even

609
00:49:28.560 --> 00:49:34.720
in the mystery of our own lives to be living in union with you, that there was a, uh, a beautiful

610
00:49:34.720 --> 00:49:41.440
things to come just like her son out of the marriage, uh, with her husband. Uh, we thank you

611
00:49:41.440 --> 00:49:45.920
for the family of origin that you've given us though, Lord, no matter how good their parents

612
00:49:45.920 --> 00:49:51.280
and our ancestors were and how much gold there is, there's just stuff that they fell short.

613
00:49:51.920 --> 00:49:58.080
And even in our own lives. So, uh, Holy spirit, I ask your presence to come into that room right now.

614
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.560
would lead and guide this exercise,

615
00:50:02.560 --> 00:50:03.680
that you would be glorified.

616
00:50:03.680 --> 00:50:06.840
We bless her ex-husband and we bless her family.

617
00:50:06.840 --> 00:50:09.960
We bless her mother and father, her son, her sister-in-law,

618
00:50:09.960 --> 00:50:11.840
brother-in-law, mother-in-law.

619
00:50:11.840 --> 00:50:13.240
We bless her.

620
00:50:13.240 --> 00:50:14.480
We bless her generations.

621
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We bless her home, Lord.

622
00:50:16.680 --> 00:50:21.040
And this isn't about being critical or about judgment.

623
00:50:21.040 --> 00:50:24.980
This is about her freedom and removing any barriers

624
00:50:24.980 --> 00:50:27.620
that could stand between her and you

625
00:50:27.620 --> 00:50:30.180
and that she can walk into the newness and fullness of life

626
00:50:30.180 --> 00:50:32.020
in Jesus' name.

627
00:50:32.020 --> 00:50:36.020
So whenever you're ready, just reach in and grab a rock

628
00:50:36.020 --> 00:50:38.860
and say, Lord, I forgive.

629
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And it's easier sometimes to start with one person

630
00:50:41.780 --> 00:50:43.660
and just say, and then I have four,

631
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and then you name whatever it is.

632
00:50:45.300 --> 00:50:48.220
And you just keep going until the rocks aren't there.

633
00:50:48.220 --> 00:50:49.860
Then don't be surprised if he changes

634
00:50:49.860 --> 00:50:52.260
the channel to another person.

635
00:50:52.260 --> 00:50:52.760
OK.

636
00:50:58.140 --> 00:50:59.620
I forgive.

637
00:50:59.620 --> 00:51:01.740
I forgive, Adrian, Lord.

638
00:51:06.740 --> 00:51:07.240
For?

639
00:51:13.580 --> 00:51:16.060
I forgive.

640
00:51:16.060 --> 00:51:16.560
Yes Lord.

641
00:51:21.900 --> 00:51:22.400
I try.

642
00:51:26.400 --> 00:51:27.340
Thank you, Lord.

643
00:51:27.340 --> 00:51:28.840
I try.

644
00:51:28.840 --> 00:51:31.840
Thank you, Lord.

645
00:51:31.840 --> 00:51:32.340
I forgive.

646
00:51:40.320 --> 00:51:41.820
I forgive.

647
00:51:41.820 --> 00:51:42.820
Thank you, Lord.

648
00:51:57.340 --> 00:51:59.820
Thank you, Lord.

649
00:51:59.820 --> 00:52:00.320
I forgive.

650
00:52:15.840 --> 00:52:17.300
I forgive.

651
00:52:17.300 --> 00:52:18.400
Diana, thank you.

652
00:52:18.400 --> 00:52:20.440
You're doing a great job.

653
00:52:20.440 --> 00:52:22.360
But what I would encourage you to do

654
00:52:22.360 --> 00:52:31.480
is to say, I forgive Adrian for pornography.

655
00:52:31.480 --> 00:52:36.920
I forgive Adrian for his first affair.

656
00:52:36.920 --> 00:52:41.480
I forgive Adrian for lying to me.

657
00:52:41.480 --> 00:52:45.600
I forgive the specific actual events and things that he did,

658
00:52:45.600 --> 00:52:49.360
those chains that are grinding, that are holding him to you.

659
00:52:49.360 --> 00:52:55.680
I forgive Adrian for the adultery.

660
00:52:55.680 --> 00:52:59.120
I forgive Adrian for the pornography.

661
00:52:59.120 --> 00:53:03.760
I forgive Adrian for the betrayal and disloyalty.

662
00:53:03.760 --> 00:53:08.280
I forgive him, Lord, for the lying.

663
00:53:08.280 --> 00:53:10.760
I forgive him for the deception.

664
00:53:20.360 --> 00:53:23.360
I forgive Lizzie, God, my sister-in-law.

665
00:53:23.360 --> 00:53:25.840
I forgive her for the betrayal.

666
00:53:25.840 --> 00:53:30.640
I forgive her, God, for the lying, for the deception,

667
00:53:30.640 --> 00:53:31.720
for the adultery.

668
00:53:49.560 --> 00:53:51.160
I do you a favor.

669
00:53:52.180 --> 00:53:55.560
I ask that you repeat what David was saying.

670
00:53:55.560 --> 00:53:57.040
I forgive you for your betrayal.

671
00:53:57.040 --> 00:53:58.840
I forgive you for the adultery.

672
00:53:58.840 --> 00:54:00.560
I forgive you for being a imbecile.

673
00:54:00.560 --> 00:54:02.200
I forgive you for Veronica.

674
00:54:02.200 --> 00:54:02.660
I forgive you.

675
00:54:02.660 --> 00:54:04.000
I appreciate you.

676
00:54:04.000 --> 00:54:07.880
I forgive you for your disloyalty.

677
00:54:07.880 --> 00:54:09.680
I forgive you for the seduction.

678
00:54:09.680 --> 00:54:12.000
I forgive you for being an idol.

679
00:54:12.000 --> 00:54:12.940
I forgive you.

680
00:54:12.940 --> 00:54:16.300
Father, I forgive, with all my heart.

681
00:54:16.900 --> 00:54:17.740
About yourself.

682
00:54:22.740 --> 00:54:23.460
The hardest one.

683
00:54:24.620 --> 00:54:25.740
I forgive myself.

684
00:54:28.900 --> 00:54:29.380
For what?

685
00:54:36.060 --> 00:54:36.660
It's OK.

686
00:54:38.980 --> 00:54:39.900
It's the hardest one.

687
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.000
Hey.

688
00:55:04.000 --> 00:55:23.000
You.

689
00:55:23.000 --> 00:55:33.000
Thank you.

690
00:55:33.000 --> 00:55:40.000
Thank you.

691
00:55:40.000 --> 00:55:50.000
Thank you.

692
00:55:50.000 --> 00:56:19.000
Thank you.

693
00:56:19.000 --> 00:56:27.000
Thank you.

694
00:56:27.000 --> 00:56:30.000
Maybe you should have known better.

695
00:56:30.000 --> 00:56:33.000
Maybe you didn't listen to your own voice.

696
00:56:33.000 --> 00:56:34.000
Yes.

697
00:56:34.000 --> 00:56:38.000
I forgive myself because I should have.

698
00:56:38.000 --> 00:56:44.000
Should have known better.

699
00:56:44.000 --> 00:56:51.000
Boy.

700
00:56:51.000 --> 00:57:03.000
Forgive myself for being rebellious.

701
00:57:03.000 --> 00:57:15.000
I should have known better.

702
00:57:15.000 --> 00:57:18.000
Yeah.

703
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:23.000
It's like, for lack of a better term, it's like looking at the 20 year old.

704
00:57:23.000 --> 00:57:26.000
Who didn't know anything.

705
00:57:26.000 --> 00:57:29.000
That you're holding responsible for.

706
00:57:29.000 --> 00:57:31.000
As.

707
00:57:31.000 --> 00:57:34.000
As a mature adult.

708
00:57:34.000 --> 00:57:38.000
You know, what would you say to that 20 year old.

709
00:57:38.000 --> 00:57:41.000
To let her go to lead to free her.

710
00:57:41.000 --> 00:57:44.000
From the judgments of the mistakes that she made.

711
00:57:44.000 --> 00:57:48.000
Does that make sense?

712
00:57:48.000 --> 00:57:50.000
I didn't know.

713
00:57:50.000 --> 00:57:54.000
She didn't know.

714
00:57:54.000 --> 00:57:58.000
She needs you to forgive her.

715
00:57:59.000 --> 00:58:08.000
Because she didn't.

716
00:58:08.000 --> 00:58:15.000
So.

717
00:58:15.000 --> 00:58:20.000
Yep.

718
00:58:20.000 --> 00:58:24.000
No, I'm just throwing things out. You don't have to say any of these things, but.

719
00:58:25.000 --> 00:58:28.000
Yeah.

720
00:58:28.000 --> 00:58:30.000
I've experienced that moms.

721
00:58:30.000 --> 00:58:35.000
Feel responsible for anything that hurts their children.

722
00:58:35.000 --> 00:58:37.000
And even if it's not their fault.

723
00:58:37.000 --> 00:58:41.000
Like this divorce.

724
00:58:41.000 --> 00:58:45.000
Sometimes they'll hold themselves responsible for their hurt.

725
00:58:45.000 --> 00:58:47.000
Of the divorce and all the things that came from it.

726
00:58:47.000 --> 00:58:48.000
That affected.

727
00:58:48.000 --> 00:58:53.000
Their children.

728
00:58:53.000 --> 00:58:56.000
So.

729
00:58:56.000 --> 00:58:59.000
You're a good mom.

730
00:58:59.000 --> 00:59:03.000
Doing the best you can.

731
00:59:03.000 --> 00:59:05.000
And the collateral damage isn't your responsibility.

732
00:59:05.000 --> 00:59:18.000
It's not your fault.

733
00:59:19.000 --> 00:59:25.000
Yeah.

734
00:59:25.000 --> 00:59:27.000
All the false burdens.

735
00:59:27.000 --> 00:59:31.000
All the things that you're carrying.

736
00:59:31.000 --> 00:59:32.000
Yeah.

737
00:59:32.000 --> 00:59:41.000
And if you know what some of those are, just give them to the Lord now.

738
00:59:41.000 --> 00:59:43.000
I could have done more.

739
00:59:43.000 --> 00:59:45.000
Couldn't do better.

740
00:59:45.000 --> 00:59:48.000
I don't think that.

741
00:59:48.000 --> 00:59:51.000
To save it.

742
00:59:51.000 --> 00:59:58.000
Yep.

743
01:00:00.640 --> 01:00:05.760
So, um, some other things that I had thought of that are things that we don't think about

744
01:00:05.760 --> 01:00:11.280
forgiving people for, whether this be about your, uh, your husband or sister-in-law, you,

745
01:00:11.280 --> 01:00:17.200
someone else would be, um, uh, and this is something that Ed talks a lot about.

746
01:00:17.200 --> 01:00:23.680
It was like the two different types of traumas, the things that people did versus that you,

747
01:00:23.680 --> 01:00:27.600
that God intended for you to receive from them that they didn't give.

748
01:00:28.480 --> 01:00:33.840
And so maybe, especially speaking, you know, specifically about, um, Adrian is your husband,

749
01:00:34.560 --> 01:00:39.440
not having given you things that you were supposed to receive as his wife.

750
01:00:40.640 --> 01:00:47.040
So ways that he was loved, that he was supposed to have given you or trust that he was supposed

751
01:00:47.040 --> 01:00:53.280
to have given you or ways in which you just felt like, because of the lack of receiving things,

752
01:00:53.280 --> 01:00:57.360
that there's something in your soul and in your spirit that knows that God intended you to receive

753
01:00:57.360 --> 01:01:03.280
from him because you lacked getting them. You thought that's all that you deserved.

754
01:01:04.480 --> 01:01:10.160
And so to forgive him as not, you know, having compassion, it's like having compassion for the

755
01:01:10.160 --> 01:01:16.000
20 year old you that didn't know it's like forgiving him for not giving you something

756
01:01:16.000 --> 01:01:22.400
that maybe he couldn't because he didn't know he wasn't healed enough or he just flat out refused

757
01:01:22.400 --> 01:01:29.760
to. So regardless of the reason, whether or not, you know, someone would justify it. The point is

758
01:01:29.760 --> 01:01:36.400
God intended something different from you, but we unintentionally hold that against someone.

759
01:01:36.400 --> 01:01:43.040
And that can sometimes be a quiet trauma that we've, that we haven't forgiven that we don't

760
01:01:43.040 --> 01:01:51.920
know is there. So basically we'll rationalize. This person was broken. They mean to,

761
01:01:52.000 --> 01:01:55.600
but the reality is there, the wound was still there. They still hurt you.

762
01:01:56.240 --> 01:02:01.360
So it's kind of like forgiving your husband for lack of a better term of being a broken man.

763
01:02:03.520 --> 01:02:07.920
Right. He may have not been able to, you may know that you may have known that he did the best he

764
01:02:07.920 --> 01:02:14.320
could, but that doesn't matter. The wounds are still there. This is just dealing with your soul

765
01:02:14.320 --> 01:02:20.640
before God to let these things go because the damage was still there. And what made me think

766
01:02:20.640 --> 01:02:25.040
of this is when you had talked about the fact that all this work you've done to restore a

767
01:02:25.040 --> 01:02:28.160
relationship between you and your husband, you're like, Oh, this is where we are now.

768
01:02:28.160 --> 01:02:34.000
And things are good. But when, but before you got to that part, when you were talking about the story,

769
01:02:34.000 --> 01:02:41.840
you cried and I was like, you were still wounded because it hurt that you, that was done to you.

770
01:02:41.840 --> 01:02:46.800
In other words, there's something in us that knows, Lord, was that all that I deserve?

771
01:02:46.800 --> 01:02:51.920
That hurts Lord, you know, because in other words, we're still taking it as this must mean

772
01:02:51.920 --> 01:02:56.960
something about me. And so to start releasing those things as if the things that you should

773
01:02:56.960 --> 01:03:02.080
have got that should have been done to you as if those were, you deserved those or the things that

774
01:03:02.080 --> 01:03:08.400
didn't happen is if you deserved the fact that they didn't happen. So forgiving him, all of

775
01:03:08.400 --> 01:03:14.160
those things might be, it's kind of like sleeper trauma that we don't realize is there. Okay.

776
01:03:16.960 --> 01:03:26.880
So let's kind of step back into our little Holy Spirit bubble there and see out of the

777
01:03:26.880 --> 01:03:31.280
things that Ashley is bringing up, what, what you can release to the Lord today.

778
01:03:33.680 --> 01:03:40.480
God, I forgive Adrian because he couldn't love me. I forgive Adrian because he couldn't

779
01:03:41.280 --> 01:03:43.280
be the husband that I wanted him to be.

780
01:03:45.120 --> 01:03:51.520
But I forgive him for not loving me enough, for not listening to me, for not being the husband

781
01:03:51.520 --> 01:04:00.720
that I wanted him to be. I forgive him, Lord, for not being the person that he was capable of being.

782
01:04:02.320 --> 01:04:07.200
He wasn't capable of being, but I release him and I forgive him.

783
01:04:10.480 --> 01:04:21.760
Yeah. Thank you, Lord.

784
01:04:28.800 --> 01:04:33.840
All right. I think that's a good place to kind of segue into the next stage. So

785
01:04:33.840 --> 01:04:38.000
I just want you to take that cup with all of those rocks and I want you to lift it up to the Lord.

786
01:04:41.360 --> 01:04:48.960
And so don't you turn your hand over and wipe it away. And I'm going to pray, Lord, just,

787
01:04:48.960 --> 01:04:52.800
Lord, it says in 2 Peter that we cast all of our cares and concerns upon you.

788
01:04:53.520 --> 01:04:56.800
So we offer all these things. Now turn your hand over and wipe it away, Lord,

789
01:04:56.800 --> 01:04:59.760
that you would take these things and wipe clean.

790
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:05.980
that, Lord, You would cleanse her emotions, that You would release her from all these places.

791
01:05:06.000 --> 01:05:11.980
And if there's any place that, Lord, that she has opened and maybe didn't illuminate further,

792
01:05:12.000 --> 01:05:16.980
that, Lord, the grace of God to cover, that, Lord, that she has forgiven.

793
01:05:17.000 --> 01:05:18.980
And we release Adrienne.

794
01:05:19.000 --> 01:05:20.980
We release the sister-in-law.

795
01:05:21.000 --> 01:05:23.980
We release the family, Lord.

796
01:05:23.980 --> 01:05:27.960
And as a friend of mine says, Lord, we forgive them.

797
01:05:27.980 --> 01:05:29.960
You forgive them.

798
01:05:29.980 --> 01:05:31.960
We release them.

799
01:05:31.980 --> 01:05:43.960
So we release Adrienne, the sister-in-law, any of the other people that he may have done these things, you know, with in the past, God.

800
01:05:43.960 --> 01:05:57.940
And, Lord, that You would wash her clean, the blood of Jesus and the living waters to flow over her hands in Jesus name.

801
01:05:57.960 --> 01:06:04.940
So I'm just going to move into like a friend of mine, the way he breaks soul ties, which is probably maybe a little different than you're used to.

802
01:06:04.960 --> 01:06:07.940
And you can just kind of repeat after me.

803
01:06:07.940 --> 01:06:13.920
And you say, Lord, I bring you Adrienne.

804
01:06:13.940 --> 01:06:15.920
Lord, I bring you Adrienne.

805
01:06:15.940 --> 01:06:18.920
And I thank you for our time together.

806
01:06:18.940 --> 01:06:20.920
And I thank you for our time together.

807
01:06:20.940 --> 01:06:22.920
And he was my husband.

808
01:06:22.940 --> 01:06:24.920
He was my husband.

809
01:06:24.940 --> 01:06:29.920
And we were united as one before you.

810
01:06:29.940 --> 01:06:34.920
We were united as one before you.

811
01:06:34.940 --> 01:06:36.920
And, Lord, now that we are divorced.

812
01:06:37.920 --> 01:06:40.900
Lord, now that we're divorced.

813
01:06:40.920 --> 01:06:44.900
It is no longer healthy for me to be connected to him in this way anymore.

814
01:06:44.920 --> 01:06:49.900
No longer healthy for me to be connected in this way anymore.

815
01:06:49.920 --> 01:06:53.900
Lord, I do not want to be connected with him that way anymore.

816
01:06:53.920 --> 01:06:58.900
Lord, I don't want to be connected with him anymore in that way.

817
01:06:58.920 --> 01:07:00.900
And in Jesus name.

818
01:07:00.920 --> 01:07:02.900
And in Jesus name.

819
01:07:02.900 --> 01:07:06.880
I break the energetic soul tie.

820
01:07:06.900 --> 01:07:08.880
I break the what soul tie?

821
01:07:08.900 --> 01:07:10.880
Energetic soul tie.

822
01:07:10.900 --> 01:07:11.880
Energetic.

823
01:07:11.900 --> 01:07:13.880
I break the energetic soul tie.

824
01:07:13.900 --> 01:07:15.880
Between Adrienne and myself.

825
01:07:15.900 --> 01:07:19.880
Between Adrienne and myself.

826
01:07:19.900 --> 01:07:26.880
Between any residual contact or connection with whatever your sister-in-law's name is.

827
01:07:26.880 --> 01:07:32.860
Between any residual contact between Lizzie and others.

828
01:07:32.880 --> 01:07:34.860
Okay.

829
01:07:34.880 --> 01:07:36.860
And in Jesus name I say.

830
01:07:36.880 --> 01:07:39.860
And in Jesus name I say.

831
01:07:39.880 --> 01:07:40.860
Adrienne.

832
01:07:40.880 --> 01:07:41.860
Adrienne.

833
01:07:41.880 --> 01:07:44.860
I don't want to be connected to you that way anymore.

834
01:07:44.880 --> 01:07:47.860
I don't want to be connected to you that way anymore.

835
01:07:47.880 --> 01:07:49.860
And I command you to leave in Jesus name.

836
01:07:49.880 --> 01:07:52.860
And I command you to leave in Jesus name.

837
01:07:52.880 --> 01:07:55.860
And I would say the same thing for, you said it was Lizzie?

838
01:07:56.860 --> 01:07:58.840
And Lizzie.

839
01:07:58.860 --> 01:08:01.840
Lizzie, I say I don't want to be connected to you either.

840
01:08:01.860 --> 01:08:04.840
Lizzie, I say I don't want to be connected to you either.

841
01:08:04.860 --> 01:08:07.840
And I command you to leave also.

842
01:08:07.860 --> 01:08:09.840
And I command you to leave also.

843
01:08:09.860 --> 01:08:11.840
In Jesus name.

844
01:08:11.860 --> 01:08:12.840
All right.

845
01:08:12.860 --> 01:08:13.840
Now I'm going to pray.

846
01:08:13.860 --> 01:08:15.840
Father, we thank you for marriage.

847
01:08:15.860 --> 01:08:19.840
We thank you, Lord, for the union of this, of these two.

848
01:08:19.859 --> 01:08:21.840
But Lord, that season is over.

849
01:08:21.840 --> 01:08:27.819
In any way that except for the connection with her son, I come.

850
01:08:27.840 --> 01:08:32.819
And in Jesus name I break the power of the energetic soul tie

851
01:08:32.840 --> 01:08:35.819
between her and her ex-husband.

852
01:08:35.840 --> 01:08:40.819
And today I say, Adrienne, in every way that you are connected

853
01:08:40.840 --> 01:08:47.819
in any possible way with Diana, that Lord, I command every place,

854
01:08:47.819 --> 01:08:51.800
every piece of him to go back to where it came from,

855
01:08:51.819 --> 01:08:55.800
dipped in the blood of Jesus, so that he may be whole.

856
01:08:55.819 --> 01:08:58.800
And I command any place of Lizzie that has been attached to her,

857
01:08:58.819 --> 01:09:02.800
I command every place, because the two of you were one,

858
01:09:02.819 --> 01:09:06.800
I command every place of her to leave also,

859
01:09:06.819 --> 01:09:13.800
to go back to where she came from, that she may be whole.

860
01:09:13.800 --> 01:09:22.779
So I also, Lord, say I call all parts of Diana back.

861
01:09:22.800 --> 01:09:26.779
Every place that you would release your angels for every place,

862
01:09:26.800 --> 01:09:30.779
her heart, any part of her soul has been connected to anyone,

863
01:09:30.800 --> 01:09:33.779
any person, place or thing, that Lord,

864
01:09:33.800 --> 01:09:38.779
that has led her feeling scattered or not whole.

865
01:09:38.779 --> 01:09:43.760
We call all parts of her back in Jesus holy name,

866
01:09:43.779 --> 01:09:48.760
dipped in the blood of Jesus, and we call her into wholeness today.

867
01:09:48.779 --> 01:09:52.760
We call her into wholeness today.

868
01:09:52.779 --> 01:09:58.760
And Lord, I also, Lord, your word says that adultery hurts.

869
01:09:58.780 --> 01:09:59.760
It is like a spear.

870
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:04.240
through the liver. So today, Lord, I break the power of the

871
01:10:04.240 --> 01:10:08.720
adultery. I break the power of the adultery, Lord, that is set

872
01:10:08.720 --> 01:10:13.000
over her life. I bless, Lord, her liver. I bless her

873
01:10:13.000 --> 01:10:17.360
autoimmune system, including her thyroid. I bless her kidneys. I

874
01:10:17.360 --> 01:10:21.400
bless all of her female organs, Lord God. I dedicate these

875
01:10:21.400 --> 01:10:27.760
places to you, oh Lord God. I bless her eyes, Lord, her ears,

876
01:10:27.760 --> 01:10:33.520
her mouth, her stomach, Lord God, her intestinal tract, Lord,

877
01:10:34.280 --> 01:10:37.840
even Lord, I don't know, her right leg and all the way up and

878
01:10:37.840 --> 01:10:41.360
down that right leg. I bless and dedicate all these places to

879
01:10:41.360 --> 01:10:46.080
you, Lord. And I command every place where the spirit of

880
01:10:46.080 --> 01:10:50.720
adultery has come upon her and every afflicting spirit. I break

881
01:10:50.720 --> 01:10:53.400
the power of those things. I command them to release her

882
01:10:53.400 --> 01:10:57.720
today, including whatever sentence of death somehow that

883
01:10:57.720 --> 01:11:00.360
has been following her around in her entire life, that that

884
01:11:00.360 --> 01:11:04.760
assignment be broken today in Jesus name. Lord, I break the

885
01:11:04.760 --> 01:11:10.120
power of any hopelessness and any place, Lord, of death

886
01:11:10.120 --> 01:11:14.000
wishes, Lord, where it's not that you want to die or kill

887
01:11:14.000 --> 01:11:18.280
yourself, but where life has become hopeless, Lord. And I

888
01:11:18.280 --> 01:11:22.880
break that assignment or the agreement in any way within her

889
01:11:22.880 --> 01:11:26.440
body that has caused her autoimmune system to go a

890
01:11:26.440 --> 01:11:30.440
little haywire. I bless her immune system, Lord, and I

891
01:11:30.440 --> 01:11:33.680
commanded to come into alignment today with the way that you

892
01:11:33.680 --> 01:11:39.000
intended it. And in Jesus name, Lord, you came and you had a

893
01:11:39.000 --> 01:11:42.640
simple message that the kingdom of God was at hand. And there

894
01:11:42.640 --> 01:11:46.440
was a demonstration. And I say to you and your body today,

895
01:11:46.440 --> 01:11:50.760
Diane, that the kingdom of God is at hand, and it is breaking

896
01:11:50.760 --> 01:11:54.560
forth into your life. And I speak to your body right now.

897
01:11:54.560 --> 01:11:57.280
And I say, receive the inbreaking kingdom of Jesus

898
01:11:57.280 --> 01:12:01.880
Christ. Now, Father, there's the anointing. Father, release the

899
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healing power into her body. Release the power over the

900
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fogginess of the mind. Release your power over her thyroid,

901
01:12:11.040 --> 01:12:15.160
Lord, over internal organs, Lord, and wash her from head to

902
01:12:15.160 --> 01:12:19.080
toe from all the afflictions that have come against her and

903
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all of the collateral damage that has come into her body.

904
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And Lord, we break the power today of every agreement that's

905
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ever been made with death and anything else, even that has

906
01:12:29.520 --> 01:12:32.680
come through the family line that, Lord, we placed the cross

907
01:12:32.680 --> 01:12:35.720
of Jesus Christ between her and the iniquity of her

908
01:12:35.720 --> 01:12:39.320
forefathers. We release the blood of Jesus over her and her

909
01:12:39.320 --> 01:12:42.800
generations all the way back to Adam. And we release it all the

910
01:12:42.800 --> 01:12:47.080
way forward. And we say that there will be no more. It will

911
01:12:47.080 --> 01:12:51.280
not go forward. And we put the cross of Jesus Christ between

912
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her and the iniquity of our ancestors. And we break the

913
01:12:54.160 --> 01:12:57.680
power of those things. And we ask that you release the healing

914
01:12:57.680 --> 01:13:01.840
power today, including the things that have been held up

915
01:13:01.840 --> 01:13:06.080
that are her inheritance, her son's inheritance, that would

916
01:13:06.080 --> 01:13:09.880
been held up, including finances and resources that have been

917
01:13:09.880 --> 01:13:15.160
stolen because of the decisions and the collateral damage of the

918
01:13:15.160 --> 01:13:23.080
iniquity of her ancestors. Now, Lord, let the environment or

919
01:13:23.080 --> 01:13:26.880
home shift to one of unparalleled peace. We declare

920
01:13:26.880 --> 01:13:29.560
that that is a place of encounter. That is a place,

921
01:13:29.560 --> 01:13:33.480
Lord, that is good, as Jacob said, that this can this is the

922
01:13:33.480 --> 01:13:36.360
ascending and descending of angels, that this can be none

923
01:13:36.360 --> 01:13:39.560
other than the house of the Lord, the Lord, not only to be

924
01:13:39.560 --> 01:13:43.200
aware of darkness, but to be more aware of your presence, to

925
01:13:43.200 --> 01:13:47.080
be able to see the angels ascending and descending in her

926
01:13:47.080 --> 01:13:51.040
very own home, that it is an oasis, a place of healing, a

927
01:13:51.040 --> 01:13:54.640
place of peace, a place of presence, that Lord will spill

928
01:13:54.640 --> 01:13:58.640
out to her neighbors, to the street across that when people

929
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walk by that there is something different, and that no dark

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thing may enter. And Lord, I bless her bed. Her bed posted to

931
01:14:09.200 --> 01:14:13.960
be anointed right now in your name, Jesus, and that any

932
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darkness that has afflicted her at night, any terrors of the

933
01:14:18.080 --> 01:14:21.480
night, even from the time when she was a child, we break the

934
01:14:21.480 --> 01:14:26.240
patterns of that for her and her son, that they will no longer

935
01:14:26.240 --> 01:14:30.400
the dreams, the nighttime is the time of encounter, and that

936
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Lord, that there be unparalleled encounters with you in the

937
01:14:34.600 --> 01:14:38.720
nighttime hours as she sleeps, where she would be able to wake

938
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and say, I don't know if in the spirit or in the flesh, I went,

939
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I do not know that you would take her to and fro throughout

940
01:14:47.520 --> 01:14:49.680
the earth and throughout the heavens, and you would show her

941
01:14:49.680 --> 01:14:53.080
the mysteries that you've hidden up for her. Lord, we bless you,

942
01:14:53.080 --> 01:14:57.000
Lord, we ask you to be glorified this day, Lord God, we pray that

943
01:14:57.000 --> 01:15:00.080
every single thing that she's touched, and has been spoken

944
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:04.640
today that you would uncover, that you would shine your light and bring things to the surface.

945
01:15:04.640 --> 01:15:10.720
And we bless those that have cursed us. We release love over her ex-husband, her family,

946
01:15:10.720 --> 01:15:17.680
the brokenness in this family. And the brokenness of this family is not her responsibility for where,

947
01:15:17.680 --> 01:15:24.000
how it ended up or it's fixing. That family was yours from the beginning. It is one you put

948
01:15:24.000 --> 01:15:30.240
together and the healing of that family is your responsibility, Lord. And we sit upon you.

949
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We bless you, Lord. And I bless her in Jesus' holy name.

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01:15:37.360 --> 01:15:41.840
Wow. I feel a thousand pounds lighter.

951
01:15:45.760 --> 01:15:49.280
I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of me.

952
01:15:49.280 --> 01:15:57.120
Thank you very much. You're welcome. It's just a big thing. And I don't mean there's so much

953
01:15:57.120 --> 01:16:03.520
more to do. It's just the beginning of the real effects of the freedom

954
01:16:04.640 --> 01:16:10.480
that's coming into your life. There's a shift coming. It's already begun and it starts with you.

955
01:16:11.440 --> 01:16:17.520
You want your son's life to change? Your life changes first. You want your husband and

956
01:16:17.520 --> 01:16:23.680
everybody else? Don't look at them. But the point is you're worth it and God's going to begin in you

957
01:16:23.680 --> 01:16:28.560
and it's going to be released from you as a natural outcropping. You're going to bring hope

958
01:16:28.560 --> 01:16:33.280
to many, many people. You're going to be a part of, you're going to be a restorer of the breach.

959
01:16:34.080 --> 01:16:40.480
You're going to restore a whole lot of things, including furniture for whatever reason. And I

960
01:16:40.480 --> 01:16:45.600
feel that you're going to restore a lot of things, including people. And that, but it's going to

961
01:16:45.600 --> 01:16:52.480
begin with you. That your restoration is in full swing and some of it has been under works for a

962
01:16:52.480 --> 01:16:58.560
long time and it's just now getting to the place that can be seen. My old boss, who was a pastor

963
01:16:58.560 --> 01:17:03.280
for a long time, left the ministry and then came back, was in construction for a while and he said

964
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that 80% of the work happened where you couldn't see anything being done. It was the moving of the

965
01:17:09.920 --> 01:17:15.120
earth. It was the plowing and leveling of the ground. It was the digging of the place for the

966
01:17:15.120 --> 01:17:20.000
foundation that only 20% of the building process was actually visible to the eye.

967
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Well, 80% of the process that has already happened in where you are right now is because of your

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01:17:27.600 --> 01:17:33.840
diligence of the things that you've done before the Lord. And now is the time for it to be seen.

969
01:17:33.840 --> 01:17:42.640
It's like spring is coming and now you can see the flowers bloom. Now you can see the harvest

970
01:17:42.640 --> 01:17:49.040
starting to grow. So the fields of promise are opening up for you and you should be wildly

971
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excited. Open your heart and don't let, I don't want to say it that way. I pray that the experiences

972
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you've had with men, with man, as in both men and women, with Christians do not become your lenses

973
01:18:14.880 --> 01:18:21.920
of how to see God and what to hold in expectation for the coming season. And that history not be

974
01:18:21.920 --> 01:18:29.360
your teacher because history is not your teacher. History doesn't dictate your future. The Lord is

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01:18:29.360 --> 01:18:34.800
your rabbi. That in this season that the Lord himself would be your rabbi and that your history

976
01:18:34.800 --> 01:18:40.400
has no bearing on where you're going to go, how high you can go, what you're going to be, and that

977
01:18:40.400 --> 01:18:45.600
God is going to move mountains and build bridges that you would never have imagined, including

978
01:18:45.600 --> 01:18:55.360
opening up opportunities. So I think that's all I got to say about that. I don't want to

979
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I don't want to get on my soapbox and then, you know, the neighbors will be coming. Why is this man shouting?

980
01:19:05.600 --> 01:19:11.600
Thank you so much. Thank you so much. I appreciate everything. I just, wow.

981
01:19:12.640 --> 01:19:19.600
You're welcome. I greatly feel so much lighter, so much. I just feel like so much has left me. I don't need

982
01:19:20.560 --> 01:19:32.080
Wow. That's exciting. Yeah. Yes. Thank you for that word. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Thank you.

983
01:19:33.200 --> 01:19:37.840
I've always felt for you and I just feel it reiterated yet again. And so, you know, obviously

984
01:19:37.840 --> 01:19:43.120
Ed, from what he was hearing and sensing from Lord and expressing, you know, he was affirming it,

985
01:19:43.120 --> 01:19:48.720
you know, that God is very pleased with you. You know, we all feel that in general with with certain

986
01:19:48.720 --> 01:19:55.920
people. But for you, it was just it was a very marked thing that God was that God was noting

987
01:19:56.880 --> 01:19:59.840
to my spirit. And apparently, you know, when Ed met you.

988
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:02.000
just now, you know, to his spirit as well.

989
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Cause he, he affirmed it, um, that he's very, that the Lord is very,

990
01:20:05.440 --> 01:20:06.240
very pleased with you.

991
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You've been faithful, you know, when you didn't, when other people

992
01:20:10.240 --> 01:20:14.120
wouldn't have been, and you had to do it in silence and you did it for him.

993
01:20:14.360 --> 01:20:15.280
You did it for the Lord.

994
01:20:15.320 --> 01:20:19.800
So he's very, very pleased with your, um, well, like I said, the word that

995
01:20:19.800 --> 01:20:23.020
just keeps coming to mind as being the most important, and it's not something

996
01:20:23.020 --> 01:20:26.940
that it's not a word that usually, uh, I usually talk a lot about that usually

997
01:20:26.940 --> 01:20:31.140
comes to mind to describe people, but for you, it just seems to be just that

998
01:20:31.140 --> 01:20:35.860
faithfulness and by that, I don't mean consistency, I mean, your faithfulness

999
01:20:35.860 --> 01:20:41.500
to God, your, your choice that, that, that of, of him and choosing to follow

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01:20:41.500 --> 01:20:45.120
him and choosing, okay, God, if this is who you are, this is who I want to be

1001
01:20:45.120 --> 01:20:50.540
like, and this is who I want to, um, I want to come into alignment with.

1002
01:20:50.900 --> 01:20:55.140
And so I'm doing it to the best of my ability and staying consistent in

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01:20:55.860 --> 01:20:57.940
is showing your faithfulness to who he is.

1004
01:20:57.940 --> 01:21:00.500
So, and in other words, to your relationship.

1005
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Yeah.

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So anyway, I felt that he's very, very pleased with that.

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01:21:04.340 --> 01:21:06.860
And so therefore he can entrust himself to you.

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So

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pray for you quickly, just to close things up.

1010
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So unless you have more that you want to do so, but where we just, I just

1011
01:21:16.740 --> 01:21:20.980
lift my beautiful sister Lord, and you've placed the word beauty as a banner over

1012
01:21:21.900 --> 01:21:25.500
the Lord, that, uh, every place in her soul and in her history where she's

1013
01:21:25.500 --> 01:21:29.660
fighting against that label that you've placed on her Lord, that you would win

1014
01:21:30.780 --> 01:21:36.300
that you would be, you would, that she would be persuaded that Lord, I pray

1015
01:21:36.300 --> 01:21:38.020
that you would seal this time together.

1016
01:21:38.580 --> 01:21:43.020
Um, that you would seal this time that Lord, that nothing can be lost or stolen.

1017
01:21:43.420 --> 01:21:48.020
I thank you Lord for every seed, every head of wheat that seemed to have,

1018
01:21:48.140 --> 01:21:50.180
um, died and fallen to the ground.

1019
01:21:50.180 --> 01:21:53.620
But your word says that, that, that a head of wheat has to die and fall to

1020
01:21:53.620 --> 01:21:55.140
the ground for our harvest to be reaped.

1021
01:21:55.460 --> 01:21:59.100
So I thank you Lord for the fields of promise that are still yet to be springing

1022
01:21:59.100 --> 01:22:05.140
forth, but I pray that you would, um, highlight everything and to uphold your

1023
01:22:05.140 --> 01:22:08.580
word for everything that was spoken, that was from you and that anything that

1024
01:22:08.580 --> 01:22:12.580
wasn't Lord God that would hit the ground and would die out and not, and

1025
01:22:12.580 --> 01:22:13.820
that she would not even remember.

1026
01:22:14.180 --> 01:22:16.140
I pray Lord, you would continue your good work.

1027
01:22:16.540 --> 01:22:20.820
I pray Lord that there be in a doors of intimacy to open up between the two of

1028
01:22:20.820 --> 01:22:25.140
you, Lord, to walk through greater and greater levels of freedom and things,

1029
01:22:25.140 --> 01:22:29.380
Lord, that in this season that you want to empty out of her backpack, uh, for

1030
01:22:29.380 --> 01:22:33.700
you to come and take back onto yourself that Lord, it is to be yoked with you.

1031
01:22:33.700 --> 01:22:37.940
And you're the big ox and we're the little ox and that we wouldn't

1032
01:22:37.940 --> 01:22:39.820
try to go kick against the goads.

1033
01:22:39.860 --> 01:22:41.380
We wouldn't try to go too fast.

1034
01:22:41.980 --> 01:22:44.100
And there's sometimes you'd have to drag us along.

1035
01:22:44.700 --> 01:22:49.540
And I pray today, Lord, that you would witness to her, that you would, uh, as

1036
01:22:49.540 --> 01:22:53.260
I jokingly say, wrap her up like a love burrito, Lord God, that you would

1037
01:22:53.260 --> 01:22:58.220
assault her with your love, that in every way, whether it's her favorite

1038
01:22:58.220 --> 01:23:02.140
song on the railroad or the billboard around on the corner, or that she

1039
01:23:02.140 --> 01:23:05.860
started getting junk mail that's advertising things that are, that have

1040
01:23:05.860 --> 01:23:10.740
been deep into her heart, that Lord would let her know as if assaulted by

1041
01:23:10.780 --> 01:23:15.140
your love, um, and the loved into submission that you really care about

1042
01:23:15.140 --> 01:23:18.500
the smallest little things in her life and that everything is about to change.

1043
01:23:18.940 --> 01:23:22.980
And I thank you Lord for the sudden leads, but nobody likes to talk about

1044
01:23:22.980 --> 01:23:24.620
all that was led up to the suddenly.

1045
01:23:24.900 --> 01:23:26.940
And I thank you Lord for the suddenly for her today.

1046
01:23:26.940 --> 01:23:29.020
And the suddenly she's getting ready to step into, and we

1047
01:23:29.020 --> 01:23:30.100
bless you in Jesus name.

1048
01:23:30.700 --> 01:23:31.300
Amen.

1049
01:23:36.260 --> 01:23:38.180
Oh, likewise, likewise.

1050
01:23:38.380 --> 01:23:39.620
Thank you so much.

1051
01:23:41.620 --> 01:23:42.140
Bye.

1052
01:23:42.500 --> 01:23:43.580
Have a good rest of your day.

1053
01:23:44.340 --> 01:23:44.860
Okay.

1054
01:23:45.020 --> 01:23:45.980
Love you guys.

1055
01:23:46.180 --> 01:23:47.100
Love you too.

1056
01:23:47.460 --> 01:23:47.980
Bye.