WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:24.000 Okay. 2 00:00:24.000 --> 00:00:27.000 Hey Renata. 3 00:00:27.000 --> 00:00:33.000 How are you? I'm doing okay. Good to see you. Good to see you too. 4 00:00:33.000 --> 00:00:37.000 What time is it there is it like this. 5 00:00:37.000 --> 00:00:45.000 But, oh, well that's because I'm in central standard time now. Okay, what is it at your place. 6 00:00:45.000 --> 00:00:51.000 It is 1010 o'clock in the morning. Yes, in the morning. 7 00:00:51.000 --> 00:00:53.000 Yeah. 8 00:00:53.000 --> 00:00:55.000 So, how are you. 9 00:00:55.000 --> 00:00:58.000 Well, I'm doing. 10 00:00:58.000 --> 00:01:03.000 Okay, my sister and I went for a walk yesterday. 11 00:01:03.000 --> 00:01:09.000 And she's like, I feel your, I feel you're more at peace. 12 00:01:09.000 --> 00:01:27.000 And I'm like, Oh, really and she's like yeah I feel you're more, you're less stressed, just more like more calm and not so stressed and more like quiet, not like quiet, don't say anything but more like, Yeah, yeah. 13 00:01:27.000 --> 00:01:35.000 And she's like, am I right or am I just it's not just what I'm feeling I'm like no I think you're right, I think you're right. 14 00:01:35.000 --> 00:01:53.000 That's so exciting. Other people are noticing. Yeah, like it's, it's real it's not just in your head it's like no I really am changing, and it's really becoming a part of who I am, not just something I do, you know, because you're doing it unconsciously. 15 00:01:54.000 --> 00:02:08.000 And I also think that I noticed in my friendships that because I have been in so much stress for many years, there's always things you know but that sometimes the friendship go in a pattern. 16 00:02:08.000 --> 00:02:18.000 And there's always been like a lot of heavy things that I share from my life. And it, I think it's almost my maybe. 17 00:02:18.000 --> 00:02:25.000 Sometimes I don't know what to say anymore, or I'm like, Well, I don't know if there is that many heavy things. 18 00:02:25.000 --> 00:02:33.000 And I can tell that maybe sometimes your friendship is a way used to go somewhere, and then now. 19 00:02:33.000 --> 00:02:35.000 Well, I don't. 20 00:02:35.000 --> 00:02:43.000 Either I don't feel like I need to talk about those things, or I actually don't have an, or my life isn't that hard anymore. 21 00:02:43.000 --> 00:02:50.000 So, it can be a friendship or expectations of a friendship or. Yeah. 22 00:02:50.000 --> 00:03:02.000 But I don't feel like I'm not being honest I feel like, oh, there must be something wrong or I'm, I'm not digging deep enough for, so I'm just like noticing like little things like this. 23 00:03:03.000 --> 00:03:12.000 Well, I mean I could be wrong, but I think that it means that it's just not your focus anymore. You know, it's not that those, it's not that hard things aren't happening. 24 00:03:12.000 --> 00:03:25.000 I mean, for instance, you talked to us about them you know on the rest intensive. Yeah, it's not that hard things aren't happening, but maybe not as many, or maybe simply you just don't notice them as hard things anymore. 25 00:03:26.000 --> 00:03:38.000 In other words, they no longer affect you as if you're being attacked or you're being threatened, or there's something that you have to be ultra vigilant about, you know, be on the defensive, be on the lookout for whatever. 26 00:03:38.000 --> 00:03:53.000 And so that is really exciting. And so what I was also thinking when you were talking about this you're, you're like, you know, know how to ask me but when you have friendships me when you get together you talk about, you know, all the heavy things. 27 00:03:53.000 --> 00:04:07.000 Well, the exciting thing about that is that now, your friendships can can you know you can form a friendship with people. 28 00:04:08.000 --> 00:04:30.000 Your times with people your times with your friends might be lighter now might be more like you the two of you connecting on who it is that you are and what it is you enjoy and just, and just kind of giving each other the opportunity to enjoy each other, as opposed 29 00:04:30.000 --> 00:04:39.000 to being there for each other, while the others going through a difficult time, because that's a very important part of friendship, but it's not the only part. 30 00:04:39.000 --> 00:04:49.000 So it's exciting that now you know you can kind of like broaden and develop those friendships in in and, you know, and expand them from what they were. 31 00:04:49.000 --> 00:05:00.000 I have a friend like that, where she and I get together and. And one of the things that we talked about is we know we can rely on each other to talk about to be able to talk about the difficult. 32 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:04.560 things, you know, in other words, the heavy things struggles and be able to feel like someone's there 33 00:05:04.560 --> 00:05:10.560 for us. But then the way that she and I got together is the fact that the fact that, you 34 00:05:10.560 --> 00:05:17.440 know, she and I just really enjoy who each other are. And so that's something that at different 35 00:05:17.440 --> 00:05:22.640 seasons of our lives, that's what we have is we have, you know, just the lightheartedness and the 36 00:05:22.640 --> 00:05:27.120 fun and whatever, as opposed to always the heavy. So that's exciting. 37 00:05:30.400 --> 00:05:38.480 Yeah, yeah, it may be friendships will look a little bit different than I also feel like I have 38 00:05:38.480 --> 00:05:52.320 more energy and capacity to listen, listen more, I think, to like, I always have made it. It's 39 00:05:52.320 --> 00:05:57.680 always been really important for me to be there for friends and to listen. But I always but I 40 00:05:57.680 --> 00:06:07.280 felt like I haven't had the capacity that I've wanted to because I've dealt with so much of my 41 00:06:07.280 --> 00:06:16.880 own stuff. But now I think I feel like I have more, more capacity to be involved in other people's 42 00:06:16.880 --> 00:06:27.920 lives. Siding. Yeah. Yeah, that I don't. So I'm just like noticing this a little, a little bit. 43 00:06:27.920 --> 00:06:34.320 And also, I'm starting to share. Because for the first half year, I didn't really share that much 44 00:06:34.320 --> 00:06:40.080 that was going on in me, because there were so many processes. And but I think I'm starting to 45 00:06:40.080 --> 00:06:49.680 share more now with friends, and my family. And I can tell. And I think I also more, it's not I'm 46 00:06:49.680 --> 00:06:57.280 not so vulnerable that I can't handle that they don't accept it or understand it right away. Like, 47 00:06:57.280 --> 00:07:04.720 and like, I'm aware that some of these thoughts might be really new to them or threatening or 48 00:07:04.720 --> 00:07:12.000 whatever. And also, I don't tell them flat out, this is what I'm learning. I'm just weaving it 49 00:07:12.000 --> 00:07:19.280 into what we're talking about. I'm just gonna speak on the topic freedom. And then I just talk 50 00:07:19.280 --> 00:07:24.880 about what's going what I believe freedom is. And I incorporate the things that I'm walking through 51 00:07:24.880 --> 00:07:31.440 and just in the talk about what she's going to speak about, kind of like, but in that I'm actually 52 00:07:31.440 --> 00:07:37.200 sharing what's going on in my life and my heart and then things that I've come to believe. So I am 53 00:07:37.200 --> 00:07:44.000 using it, but more in the context of what what's going on in each other's lives. Yes. 54 00:07:44.880 --> 00:07:53.840 That's exciting. That's wonderful. And but I, but I can tell that a lot of people don't understand 55 00:07:53.840 --> 00:08:00.880 maybe what I'm talking about. Yeah, yeah. Most people, most people. Yeah. Most people in my life 56 00:08:00.880 --> 00:08:08.080 don't, you know, my heart is so weird to me because you do this for a living. Yeah, well, 57 00:08:09.600 --> 00:08:17.760 it's, it's, but it's very usual. And, and I don't want this to sound different than what I mean, 58 00:08:17.760 --> 00:08:25.520 when I say this, but you, you remember that it says that, that Jesus said that a prophet is, 59 00:08:28.160 --> 00:08:35.120 oh, how does is not without honor, except in his hometown or something like that. 60 00:08:35.120 --> 00:08:41.039 In other words, it's remember that when Jesus went back to Nazareth, he said, 61 00:08:41.760 --> 00:08:49.280 um, yeah, it said, people kept asking, people said, well, wait a minute, isn't this Joseph's 62 00:08:49.280 --> 00:08:55.600 son? Isn't this the carpenter's son? And it was hard for them to kind of connect with the fact 63 00:08:55.600 --> 00:09:01.920 that he could be, uh, that he could be extraordinary, that he could have a revelation that 64 00:09:01.920 --> 00:09:08.240 they didn't because, um, and that he had something to offer because they, they knew him as the 65 00:09:08.240 --> 00:09:13.200 carpenter's son. So like, oh my goodness, it kind of like similar to the fact that people used to 66 00:09:13.200 --> 00:09:17.600 say, you know, what good could come out of Nazareth? You know, what good thing could come 67 00:09:17.600 --> 00:09:25.360 out of Nazareth? So it's this idea that, um, people that just know you just, um, they, they 68 00:09:25.360 --> 00:09:35.920 love you and they support you and what makes you happy. But, um, most families and friends, uh, 69 00:09:36.000 --> 00:09:45.440 don't, um, I don't know, take, make the effort to participate personally in order to receive 70 00:09:46.240 --> 00:09:51.200 a contribution or whatever. So, I mean, meaning like something that you have to offer them to 71 00:09:51.200 --> 00:09:55.680 be able to receive that. So, and I don't mean anything bad about my family or my friends. 72 00:09:55.680 --> 00:09:59.840 When I say that it's, my point is to point that out is that. 73 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:04.120 It's just normal that people have a hard time connecting 74 00:10:04.120 --> 00:10:06.840 with the fact that you could have something 75 00:10:06.840 --> 00:10:08.960 that they could benefit from 76 00:10:08.960 --> 00:10:12.360 because they've known you your whole life. 77 00:10:12.360 --> 00:10:15.200 But my sister even mentioned that in the testimony 78 00:10:15.200 --> 00:10:17.680 she did in the rest intensive one time. 79 00:10:17.680 --> 00:10:18.820 She said, 80 00:10:20.640 --> 00:10:22.220 she said, 81 00:10:22.220 --> 00:10:24.080 you know, it took me a long time 82 00:10:24.080 --> 00:10:26.480 to join the rest intensive. 83 00:10:26.480 --> 00:10:28.920 She said, because I couldn't believe 84 00:10:29.800 --> 00:10:32.080 or she said, it was really hard for me to believe 85 00:10:32.080 --> 00:10:34.040 or imagine or to accept, 86 00:10:34.040 --> 00:10:35.960 I don't remember which word she used, 87 00:10:35.960 --> 00:10:39.520 that Ashley could have a revelation that I didn't 88 00:10:39.520 --> 00:10:41.640 if we grew up in the same household, 89 00:10:41.640 --> 00:10:43.400 if we grew up in the same way. 90 00:10:43.400 --> 00:10:45.800 But she said, and so she was struggling 91 00:10:45.800 --> 00:10:48.120 and with things in her life 92 00:10:48.120 --> 00:10:49.960 and how on earth could I have the answer 93 00:10:49.960 --> 00:10:51.960 that she was looking for? 94 00:10:51.960 --> 00:10:53.400 And I told her, 95 00:10:54.800 --> 00:10:58.560 I think in a response is because, as I said, 96 00:10:59.200 --> 00:11:01.960 because I didn't have it until I was an adult. 97 00:11:01.960 --> 00:11:04.080 I didn't have it until I was off on my own, 98 00:11:04.080 --> 00:11:05.880 doing my own thing, 99 00:11:05.880 --> 00:11:07.600 pursuing the Lord in a new way 100 00:11:07.600 --> 00:11:09.680 and receiving something different. 101 00:11:09.680 --> 00:11:12.560 So that's why, because I didn't have it either. 102 00:11:14.120 --> 00:11:17.440 But she said, but then I joined and she said, 103 00:11:17.440 --> 00:11:19.120 and then I realized it's true. 104 00:11:19.120 --> 00:11:22.400 She said, because what she did is, 105 00:11:22.400 --> 00:11:24.440 remember, it's not my message, it's the Lord's, 106 00:11:24.440 --> 00:11:27.880 it's just, I heard it and it changed my life. 107 00:11:27.880 --> 00:11:29.520 And so then when my sister heard it 108 00:11:29.520 --> 00:11:32.560 and she chose to receive it between her and the Lord, 109 00:11:32.560 --> 00:11:35.240 not between me, not for me, 110 00:11:35.240 --> 00:11:37.120 but between her and the Lord, 111 00:11:37.120 --> 00:11:38.640 all of a sudden everything changed 112 00:11:38.640 --> 00:11:40.600 and she got the freedom she'd been looking for. 113 00:11:40.600 --> 00:11:42.480 She said she'd done Celebrate Recovery. 114 00:11:42.480 --> 00:11:44.280 She says all this on the testimony 115 00:11:44.280 --> 00:11:45.320 and Celebrate Recovery, 116 00:11:45.320 --> 00:11:47.800 done deliverance sessions, 117 00:11:47.800 --> 00:11:49.800 done with deliverance ministry 118 00:11:49.800 --> 00:11:52.360 and at least one, if not two. 119 00:11:52.360 --> 00:11:55.440 Anyway, she'd done all kinds of things 120 00:11:55.440 --> 00:11:57.120 and trying to get relief and help 121 00:11:57.720 --> 00:12:00.880 and she said, none of it worked until this. 122 00:12:00.880 --> 00:12:03.280 And I had somebody else actually who said the same thing. 123 00:12:03.280 --> 00:12:05.800 I've done, Ashley, I've been a Christian 124 00:12:05.800 --> 00:12:07.480 for 20 something years. 125 00:12:07.480 --> 00:12:08.640 I've done all of this stuff. 126 00:12:08.640 --> 00:12:10.160 Nothing worked, but this did. 127 00:12:10.160 --> 00:12:12.040 It's because this is the gospel. 128 00:12:12.040 --> 00:12:14.800 It's like when Jesus said that he died 129 00:12:14.800 --> 00:12:17.280 and he gave us freedom, it's this free. 130 00:12:17.280 --> 00:12:20.720 So anyway, the point is, it's very normal. 131 00:12:20.720 --> 00:12:22.120 And that's what's really what I'm- 132 00:12:22.120 --> 00:12:23.680 And I can't take it personally. 133 00:12:23.680 --> 00:12:24.880 No, no, no. 134 00:12:24.880 --> 00:12:27.320 And what's really interesting about that 135 00:12:27.320 --> 00:12:31.000 is that I'm noticing people who are living this, 136 00:12:31.000 --> 00:12:33.080 but might not know. 137 00:12:33.080 --> 00:12:34.240 You know what I mean? 138 00:12:34.240 --> 00:12:35.080 Yeah. 139 00:12:35.080 --> 00:12:36.240 Because it is the gospel 140 00:12:36.240 --> 00:12:39.920 and it's been available to anyone at any time. 141 00:12:39.920 --> 00:12:42.080 And some people have caught it 142 00:12:42.080 --> 00:12:44.760 and they might not even know what to call it, 143 00:12:44.760 --> 00:12:47.920 but they just live in rest like most of the time 144 00:12:47.920 --> 00:12:51.200 or they just move themselves into rest without even knowing. 145 00:12:51.200 --> 00:12:52.040 Yes. 146 00:12:52.040 --> 00:12:52.880 Yeah. 147 00:12:53.600 --> 00:12:55.280 And I've noticed that in different friendship 148 00:12:55.280 --> 00:12:57.240 and family members that you're like, 149 00:12:57.240 --> 00:13:00.200 oh my gosh, you're just so not living in rest 150 00:13:00.200 --> 00:13:02.560 or, oh my gosh, you have no idea what this is, 151 00:13:02.560 --> 00:13:03.800 but you are actually living it. 152 00:13:03.800 --> 00:13:04.640 You're doing it. 153 00:13:04.640 --> 00:13:06.960 It's called something else. 154 00:13:06.960 --> 00:13:09.920 And one of the reasons why I think my, 155 00:13:09.920 --> 00:13:14.400 like I wonder why my sister is always so calm 156 00:13:14.400 --> 00:13:16.640 and collected and feels at peace. 157 00:13:16.640 --> 00:13:19.160 And I always thought that it's her personality 158 00:13:19.160 --> 00:13:21.720 or just, and also that she's just been lucky in life 159 00:13:21.720 --> 00:13:22.800 with a lot of things. 160 00:13:23.400 --> 00:13:24.800 That's part of it. 161 00:13:24.800 --> 00:13:27.640 But today, and when we had that walk yesterday 162 00:13:27.640 --> 00:13:29.480 and also other talks that we've had, 163 00:13:29.480 --> 00:13:33.280 I've come to realize, no, she just lives in rest. 164 00:13:34.160 --> 00:13:36.400 And I've been asking her like, 165 00:13:36.400 --> 00:13:38.320 when this happened and this challenging happened, 166 00:13:38.320 --> 00:13:39.680 what do you do? 167 00:13:39.680 --> 00:13:42.800 And she just like, she calls it like, 168 00:13:42.800 --> 00:13:47.120 she just feels it and then she gives it to Jesus 169 00:13:47.120 --> 00:13:49.280 and then she lets him love her. 170 00:13:49.280 --> 00:13:51.320 That's how she explains it. 171 00:13:51.320 --> 00:13:52.680 And then she says, yeah. 172 00:13:52.680 --> 00:13:54.800 And then she says like the biggest 173 00:13:54.800 --> 00:13:57.440 and the smallest things just disappear. 174 00:13:57.440 --> 00:13:58.280 Yeah. 175 00:13:58.280 --> 00:13:59.160 So she has her own language to it. 176 00:13:59.160 --> 00:14:01.800 Then I'm like, but this is actually living in rest. 177 00:14:01.800 --> 00:14:04.320 You just don't know what it's called. 178 00:14:04.320 --> 00:14:05.520 That's great. 179 00:14:05.520 --> 00:14:07.160 Have you noticed that too? 180 00:14:07.160 --> 00:14:08.000 Yeah. 181 00:14:08.000 --> 00:14:08.840 Yeah. 182 00:14:08.840 --> 00:14:11.560 There's particular people we're just attracted to 183 00:14:11.560 --> 00:14:13.720 and we're like, how do they live in so much peace? 184 00:14:13.720 --> 00:14:17.040 And how do they actually have faith in God 185 00:14:17.040 --> 00:14:18.920 and believe it to the point where, 186 00:14:18.920 --> 00:14:21.760 because we all know we should and we all say it, 187 00:14:21.760 --> 00:14:24.360 but there are certain people that actually physically, 188 00:14:24.360 --> 00:14:27.040 that actually emotionally respond like that 189 00:14:27.040 --> 00:14:28.880 in peace and enjoy. 190 00:14:28.880 --> 00:14:31.080 And I'm like, how did you do that? 191 00:14:31.080 --> 00:14:32.920 And so, yeah, they're able to do that. 192 00:14:32.920 --> 00:14:34.160 So yeah. 193 00:14:34.160 --> 00:14:35.240 Yeah. 194 00:14:35.240 --> 00:14:36.080 Not so much. 195 00:14:36.080 --> 00:14:37.960 The Lord had to teach it to me. 196 00:14:37.960 --> 00:14:38.800 Yeah. 197 00:14:38.800 --> 00:14:41.160 Again, I was grateful because then he gave me again, 198 00:14:41.160 --> 00:14:44.320 like I said, the words to be able to explain 199 00:14:44.320 --> 00:14:45.920 to other people how they could do it 200 00:14:45.920 --> 00:14:48.240 because otherwise, you know, just like me, 201 00:14:48.600 --> 00:14:50.600 I'm like, how did you do that? 202 00:14:50.600 --> 00:14:53.720 And so I wanted to walk other people through 203 00:14:53.720 --> 00:14:56.400 how to actually do it. 204 00:14:56.400 --> 00:14:58.040 The Lord just called me to it. 205 00:14:58.040 --> 00:15:00.160 And so anyway, but yes. 206 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:01.880 So many people live this thing, 207 00:15:01.880 --> 00:15:03.720 but don't know how to articulate it. 208 00:15:03.720 --> 00:15:04.560 Exactly. 209 00:15:04.560 --> 00:15:05.680 And I think my sister, 210 00:15:05.680 --> 00:15:07.400 she doesn't know how to articulate it 211 00:15:07.400 --> 00:15:10.680 or, and she doesn't know how to give it on. 212 00:15:10.680 --> 00:15:12.040 Yeah. 213 00:15:12.040 --> 00:15:14.800 I think that I just realized 214 00:15:14.800 --> 00:15:16.680 that she doesn't have the words for it. 215 00:15:16.680 --> 00:15:19.000 And she doesn't know how to teach it to others. 216 00:15:19.000 --> 00:15:21.080 But for herself, she just lives in it. 217 00:15:21.080 --> 00:15:21.920 Yeah. 218 00:15:21.920 --> 00:15:23.600 That's what's so amazing with this, 219 00:15:23.600 --> 00:15:24.960 that you actually, 220 00:15:24.960 --> 00:15:28.240 and that I hope that I will get words to actually, 221 00:15:28.280 --> 00:15:31.120 so I can actually give it to others, 222 00:15:31.120 --> 00:15:32.120 like you're doing, 223 00:15:32.120 --> 00:15:33.720 like in different ways. 224 00:15:33.720 --> 00:15:34.560 Yeah. 225 00:15:34.560 --> 00:15:37.080 Because I think it's not just to live in it, 226 00:15:37.080 --> 00:15:39.960 and it's like also understanding 227 00:15:39.960 --> 00:15:40.800 Yeah. 228 00:15:40.800 --> 00:15:42.280 what's really going on 229 00:15:42.280 --> 00:15:43.480 and have the words, 230 00:15:43.480 --> 00:15:47.000 like you're teaching us to, yeah. 231 00:15:47.000 --> 00:15:47.840 Yeah. 232 00:15:47.840 --> 00:15:48.680 Yeah. 233 00:15:48.680 --> 00:15:49.520 Great. 234 00:15:49.520 --> 00:15:50.720 That's really cool. 235 00:15:50.720 --> 00:15:53.080 That's neat that you've noticed that about other people 236 00:15:53.080 --> 00:15:55.720 and about your sister particularly. 237 00:15:55.720 --> 00:15:56.560 Yeah. 238 00:15:57.440 --> 00:15:59.200 What else is going on? 239 00:15:59.200 --> 00:16:01.720 Do you have any, I don't know, 240 00:16:03.240 --> 00:16:04.080 how's it going? 241 00:16:04.080 --> 00:16:05.680 Just pursuing the Lord 242 00:16:05.680 --> 00:16:08.240 and meaning like, 243 00:16:12.720 --> 00:16:15.720 seeking intimacy with him, 244 00:16:15.720 --> 00:16:18.800 feeling and experiencing his love, 245 00:16:18.800 --> 00:16:20.440 spending time with him 246 00:16:20.440 --> 00:16:22.720 and actually enjoying it, 247 00:16:22.720 --> 00:16:23.680 that kind of thing. 248 00:16:23.680 --> 00:16:26.680 What are your, how's things going? 249 00:16:30.360 --> 00:16:32.240 I feel like I'm, 250 00:16:33.920 --> 00:16:36.280 when hard things happen, 251 00:16:36.280 --> 00:16:38.280 there's a much higher percentage 252 00:16:38.280 --> 00:16:40.160 that I will respond and rest. 253 00:16:44.160 --> 00:16:48.440 But I still feel that I am going in and out of it, 254 00:16:49.360 --> 00:16:51.840 but a lot of times things are less challenging. 255 00:16:51.840 --> 00:16:53.840 When there happens something hard 256 00:16:53.840 --> 00:16:56.760 and I am used to being thrown off 257 00:16:56.760 --> 00:16:58.640 and then it doesn't happen. 258 00:16:58.640 --> 00:16:59.880 And I'm like, 259 00:16:59.880 --> 00:17:03.360 and I also sometimes realize that I have a choice in this 260 00:17:03.360 --> 00:17:05.160 or it's kind of like, 261 00:17:05.160 --> 00:17:06.480 oh, now I have a choice. 262 00:17:06.480 --> 00:17:10.079 I can actually respond in peace here. 263 00:17:10.079 --> 00:17:11.640 So I noticed that, 264 00:17:11.640 --> 00:17:14.240 but I still, 265 00:17:14.240 --> 00:17:15.839 what I struggle with, 266 00:17:17.599 --> 00:17:21.359 I think that there are different things that are coming up, 267 00:17:21.359 --> 00:17:22.200 but I, 268 00:17:26.280 --> 00:17:28.200 one of them is I think to, 269 00:17:31.880 --> 00:17:32.720 to, 270 00:17:33.760 --> 00:17:37.360 like I come home with my family and I, 271 00:17:39.480 --> 00:17:41.480 and there are some relationships 272 00:17:41.480 --> 00:17:43.760 that I'm really attached to, 273 00:17:43.760 --> 00:17:47.520 but I'm not getting what I want from the relationships 274 00:17:47.520 --> 00:17:50.160 and they are maybe a little bit unhealthy. 275 00:17:51.000 --> 00:17:55.600 I don't know how to let go of the people 276 00:17:55.600 --> 00:17:58.440 at the same time, stay in relationship. 277 00:17:58.440 --> 00:18:01.520 So I think that coming home this week 278 00:18:01.520 --> 00:18:04.280 has been a lot of struggles in my family. 279 00:18:04.280 --> 00:18:08.080 For instance, a nephew that I used to be very close to 280 00:18:08.080 --> 00:18:09.960 and now he's a teenager. 281 00:18:09.960 --> 00:18:11.680 And I think there might've been things 282 00:18:11.680 --> 00:18:12.880 that have happened along the way 283 00:18:12.880 --> 00:18:15.520 that maybe I didn't meet his emotional needs. 284 00:18:15.520 --> 00:18:18.000 I think there were times that I disappointed him, 285 00:18:19.000 --> 00:18:20.560 but it's so many years ago. 286 00:18:20.560 --> 00:18:23.280 And then suddenly we're at a place where 287 00:18:23.280 --> 00:18:25.840 he is just in his own world 288 00:18:25.840 --> 00:18:28.600 and I just feel really rejected. 289 00:18:28.600 --> 00:18:31.160 And then I feel like I should let go of him, 290 00:18:31.160 --> 00:18:33.720 but I also, like, I feel like I have like 291 00:18:33.720 --> 00:18:36.280 an unhealthy tie to him, 292 00:18:36.280 --> 00:18:39.640 like a need to, oh, I want to serve him, help him. 293 00:18:39.640 --> 00:18:40.720 I feel rejected. 294 00:18:40.720 --> 00:18:43.560 Like I'm emotionally tied to him 295 00:18:43.560 --> 00:18:45.520 and I'm almost a little bit needy 296 00:18:45.920 --> 00:18:49.520 and also trying to serve his needs and it's not working. 297 00:18:49.520 --> 00:18:53.400 And I feel like almost like in bondage, 298 00:18:53.400 --> 00:18:57.240 but I'm thinking if I, okay, let it go, 299 00:18:57.240 --> 00:18:59.400 but that makes it equivalent to me 300 00:18:59.400 --> 00:19:02.040 as to stop doing something. 301 00:19:02.040 --> 00:19:05.120 And right now he's not really responding to anything. 302 00:19:05.120 --> 00:19:07.080 So I'm kind of wondering, 303 00:19:07.080 --> 00:19:12.080 I just noticed that I am a bit unhealthily tied 304 00:19:18.080 --> 00:19:20.600 to some of my family members 305 00:19:22.480 --> 00:19:27.480 and I don't know how to live free in the relationships. 306 00:19:28.080 --> 00:19:31.800 Like, okay, I let everything go, let him go. 307 00:19:31.800 --> 00:19:34.040 And then I just don't bother with him. 308 00:19:34.040 --> 00:19:37.360 And I just delight myself in myself and in the Lord. 309 00:19:37.360 --> 00:19:39.400 And if he wants to come along, he does, 310 00:19:39.400 --> 00:19:41.320 but then he's a teenager. 311 00:19:41.320 --> 00:19:44.280 Or do I go and pursue him and love him? 312 00:19:44.280 --> 00:19:48.040 Like Christ loves us and just like on his terms, 313 00:19:48.040 --> 00:19:50.600 not my own terms. 314 00:19:50.600 --> 00:19:55.600 It's kind of, I can tell that I feel stuck and bound 315 00:19:58.840 --> 00:20:03.840 and I don't know what to do with myself. 316 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:04.240 and very troubled in my mind. 317 00:20:04.240 --> 00:20:06.920 And every time I see him, I'm like, what should I do? 318 00:20:08.000 --> 00:20:10.760 And I feel rejected, but I don't know what to do 319 00:20:10.760 --> 00:20:13.560 because I don't have any way into his life. 320 00:20:13.560 --> 00:20:16.800 And I don't know what his, if he's a teenager, 321 00:20:16.800 --> 00:20:20.120 so he's living in his own world, he has his own things. 322 00:20:20.120 --> 00:20:24.160 And all at the same time, I also see that he's lonely, 323 00:20:24.160 --> 00:20:27.440 but then I don't know if that is something that I'm seeing 324 00:20:27.440 --> 00:20:30.480 because I'm so emotionally involved in this, 325 00:20:30.480 --> 00:20:34.120 or if it's actually something that is real. 326 00:20:34.120 --> 00:20:39.120 So the whole, it becomes almost like a blur sometimes 327 00:20:39.120 --> 00:20:44.120 to be home, where, like for instance, with my mom today, 328 00:20:50.160 --> 00:20:52.080 I realized like she was talking 329 00:20:52.080 --> 00:20:54.800 and kind of disconnecting herself from me. 330 00:20:54.800 --> 00:20:56.560 Well, you know, when you have a talk with someone 331 00:20:56.560 --> 00:20:58.360 and there's so much in their own world 332 00:20:58.360 --> 00:21:00.520 and they don't even see if you're yawning 333 00:21:00.520 --> 00:21:03.320 or looking at your watch or trying to get out of it, 334 00:21:03.320 --> 00:21:06.240 she's just so much in her own thing. 335 00:21:06.240 --> 00:21:09.360 And then I get more and more stressed because I'm like, 336 00:21:09.360 --> 00:21:12.880 you're so disconnected to me right now, this feels so weird. 337 00:21:12.880 --> 00:21:16.040 And then I felt, I thought, oh my gosh, 338 00:21:16.040 --> 00:21:17.640 I know what's happening right now. 339 00:21:17.640 --> 00:21:21.960 I feel unprovided for, that's what I feel. 340 00:21:22.000 --> 00:21:26.720 I feel unsafe because my mom is not providing connection 341 00:21:26.720 --> 00:21:31.280 with me and I feel unprovided for. 342 00:21:31.280 --> 00:21:33.560 And it had just clicked in my mind and I was like, 343 00:21:33.560 --> 00:21:36.600 oh, okay, but God, that's not true. 344 00:21:36.600 --> 00:21:40.440 You provide for me, like you are my provider right now 345 00:21:40.440 --> 00:21:43.880 with my mom talking and ranting on about things 346 00:21:43.880 --> 00:21:45.840 and not staying connected to me, 347 00:21:45.840 --> 00:21:49.560 I feel unprovided for, but that's not true. 348 00:21:49.560 --> 00:21:51.400 So I started to speak that in my mind, 349 00:21:51.680 --> 00:21:54.960 you are provided for, you're safe, you're provided for, 350 00:21:54.960 --> 00:21:56.440 you don't have to freak out here 351 00:21:56.440 --> 00:21:59.560 and you don't have to say something unkind to your mom, 352 00:21:59.560 --> 00:22:01.000 you don't have to reject her, 353 00:22:01.000 --> 00:22:03.840 you can just stay in this, you're still safe. 354 00:22:03.840 --> 00:22:07.520 So I realized that there are like, 355 00:22:09.360 --> 00:22:11.520 with my mom and with my nephew, 356 00:22:12.600 --> 00:22:16.240 unhealthy things or bonds there, 357 00:22:16.240 --> 00:22:21.240 but I don't know how to have healthy, 358 00:22:21.840 --> 00:22:25.760 relationships with them, yeah. 359 00:22:27.160 --> 00:22:31.880 Yeah, so it sounds like, soul ties, 360 00:22:31.880 --> 00:22:34.600 are you familiar with soul ties, the noun? 361 00:22:34.600 --> 00:22:37.000 So that's what that sounds like to me, 362 00:22:37.000 --> 00:22:39.800 where you say, you feel bound, you feel connected, 363 00:22:39.800 --> 00:22:41.440 you feel like there's, 364 00:22:42.560 --> 00:22:45.480 unlike, well, I was gonna say attached, 365 00:22:45.480 --> 00:22:48.760 but attached, but I can't think of a better word, 366 00:22:48.800 --> 00:22:52.960 than you used, you're just bound, you're tied to them. 367 00:22:52.960 --> 00:22:57.880 And then there's ways obviously to just break that off, 368 00:22:57.880 --> 00:22:59.840 between you and the Lord, 369 00:22:59.840 --> 00:23:01.520 meaning like between you and the Lord, 370 00:23:01.520 --> 00:23:04.040 you can break all that off 371 00:23:04.040 --> 00:23:08.480 and then you are free to enjoy them without, 372 00:23:08.480 --> 00:23:11.480 free to enjoy your mom or your nephew, 373 00:23:11.480 --> 00:23:16.480 without feeling bound to them in an unhealthy way. 374 00:23:16.600 --> 00:23:18.720 Because there's, I don't know, 375 00:23:18.720 --> 00:23:20.880 I think that there's like healthy, 376 00:23:22.160 --> 00:23:24.520 connections that we have with people, 377 00:23:24.520 --> 00:23:26.800 but then what, so what we're talking about is, 378 00:23:26.800 --> 00:23:28.960 we're talking about the unhealthy ones, 379 00:23:28.960 --> 00:23:31.000 the ones that are built, 380 00:23:31.000 --> 00:23:34.160 either from them to us or from us to them, 381 00:23:34.160 --> 00:23:38.960 based on some need that we were emotionally demanding, 382 00:23:38.960 --> 00:23:40.800 that the other meet, 383 00:23:40.800 --> 00:23:42.440 like that they meet for you 384 00:23:42.440 --> 00:23:44.880 or that they're wanting you to meet for them. 385 00:23:44.920 --> 00:23:48.640 And anyway, and then we just simply break those off. 386 00:23:48.640 --> 00:23:51.240 It's honestly a very easy, 387 00:23:51.240 --> 00:23:53.680 it's in a very simple process. 388 00:23:53.680 --> 00:23:55.280 And then have you ever done that? 389 00:23:55.280 --> 00:23:59.240 Have you ever walked through breaking soul ties 390 00:23:59.240 --> 00:24:00.080 with the Lord? 391 00:24:00.080 --> 00:24:00.920 Yes. 392 00:24:00.920 --> 00:24:01.760 Yeah. 393 00:24:01.760 --> 00:24:02.600 Okay. 394 00:24:02.600 --> 00:24:05.920 I don't remember how we did it, but yes, I have. 395 00:24:05.920 --> 00:24:06.760 Yeah. 396 00:24:06.760 --> 00:24:07.600 Okay. 397 00:24:07.600 --> 00:24:09.200 And it's, like I said, it's very easy. 398 00:24:09.200 --> 00:24:10.760 No one ever told me how to do it. 399 00:24:10.760 --> 00:24:12.960 I just did it with the Lord and it worked. 400 00:24:13.000 --> 00:24:15.240 I just did it with the Lord and it worked. 401 00:24:15.240 --> 00:24:19.000 So, because as I've talked about in, 402 00:24:19.000 --> 00:24:22.440 you remember in the rest lifestyle in session 12, 403 00:24:22.440 --> 00:24:25.000 I talk about the power of intention, 404 00:24:25.000 --> 00:24:28.720 that what's important is your intention. 405 00:24:28.720 --> 00:24:32.760 It's like you deciding, this is what I want to do. 406 00:24:32.760 --> 00:24:36.800 And therefore, this is what I am doing. 407 00:24:36.800 --> 00:24:38.920 I am cutting this. 408 00:24:38.920 --> 00:24:40.080 I am severing. 409 00:24:40.080 --> 00:24:42.040 I am disconnecting. 410 00:24:42.080 --> 00:24:44.440 You're not disconnecting from them as a person. 411 00:24:44.440 --> 00:24:48.720 You're just disconnecting in the ways 412 00:24:48.720 --> 00:24:51.040 in which you're unhealthily connected. 413 00:24:51.040 --> 00:24:55.800 So you're cutting those unhealthy cords or ropes 414 00:24:55.800 --> 00:24:59.400 or whatever, but not the unhealthy ones. 415 00:24:59.400 --> 00:25:00.240 So you can. 416 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:03.820 And so, and that actually enables you to have a better, 417 00:25:03.820 --> 00:25:07.020 healthier, stronger relationship 418 00:25:07.020 --> 00:25:09.940 without the unhealthy connections. 419 00:25:09.940 --> 00:25:13.260 Instead of thinking, oh, well, if I'm, you know, 420 00:25:13.260 --> 00:25:14.940 like what you were talking about, like, well, 421 00:25:14.940 --> 00:25:19.260 how do I disconnect while still being connected 422 00:25:19.260 --> 00:25:20.540 in relationship with them? 423 00:25:20.540 --> 00:25:23.080 We're only talking about the unhealthy things. 424 00:25:23.080 --> 00:25:25.580 We're talking about the things that make us feel like 425 00:25:25.580 --> 00:25:30.580 their decisions are determining our lives. 426 00:25:30.700 --> 00:25:31.900 They're doing whatever, 427 00:25:31.900 --> 00:25:34.820 and we're being like pulled around by the nose 428 00:25:34.820 --> 00:25:38.620 by their decisions, and we're getting hurt, 429 00:25:38.620 --> 00:25:42.740 we're getting affected by their choices, 430 00:25:42.740 --> 00:25:45.020 and meaning like emotionally, 431 00:25:45.020 --> 00:25:47.660 or we feel like we aren't getting our needs met, 432 00:25:47.660 --> 00:25:49.260 and then we get triggered, and whatever, 433 00:25:49.260 --> 00:25:51.540 all because of decisions that they made, 434 00:25:51.540 --> 00:25:52.700 which isn't healthy, 435 00:25:52.700 --> 00:25:56.060 because then it's giving over the power of ourselves 436 00:25:56.060 --> 00:25:59.020 to someone else, giving them control over us, 437 00:25:59.020 --> 00:26:00.100 and allowing them to, 438 00:26:00.100 --> 00:26:02.260 even allowing ourselves to be manipulated. 439 00:26:02.260 --> 00:26:07.180 But, so anyway, it's very easy to just do with the Lord. 440 00:26:07.180 --> 00:26:10.500 You just go to him, and you just, 441 00:26:10.500 --> 00:26:12.900 you just, first of all, you just, 442 00:26:12.900 --> 00:26:15.380 well, let's see, first of all, 443 00:26:15.380 --> 00:26:17.340 you go to him, and then you just decide, 444 00:26:17.340 --> 00:26:19.140 Lord, this is what I want to do. 445 00:26:19.140 --> 00:26:21.060 I want to break off these soul ties. 446 00:26:21.060 --> 00:26:25.980 And remember, with intention, 447 00:26:25.980 --> 00:26:29.060 you remember that's your own free will 448 00:26:29.060 --> 00:26:32.060 that you're making this decision with. 449 00:26:32.060 --> 00:26:35.700 It can't be a hopeful or a wishful thinking. 450 00:26:35.700 --> 00:26:38.660 It's like, no, I've decided. 451 00:26:38.660 --> 00:26:42.660 So in other words, God has given me the, 452 00:26:42.660 --> 00:26:45.700 God has given me the victory over this. 453 00:26:45.700 --> 00:26:47.900 I don't have to live like this. 454 00:26:47.900 --> 00:26:50.820 He died so that I wouldn't have to, 455 00:26:51.580 --> 00:26:53.900 so therefore the only thing that is connecting me 456 00:26:53.900 --> 00:26:58.900 or chaining me to this other person is my decision. 457 00:26:59.500 --> 00:27:01.860 So I'm going to decide something different. 458 00:27:01.860 --> 00:27:05.420 I'm going to decide to disconnect myself. 459 00:27:06.260 --> 00:27:07.100 Why? 460 00:27:07.100 --> 00:27:09.500 Because Jesus said it first. 461 00:27:09.500 --> 00:27:12.660 I'm not, so that's how you can know 462 00:27:12.660 --> 00:27:16.700 that you have the power and the right to make the decision 463 00:27:16.700 --> 00:27:19.140 and that it will work, 464 00:27:19.140 --> 00:27:21.940 as opposed to, okay, well, 465 00:27:21.940 --> 00:27:23.700 there's this thing called soul ties, 466 00:27:23.700 --> 00:27:26.420 and so I'm going to try. 467 00:27:26.420 --> 00:27:27.780 I'm going to try to do it. 468 00:27:29.500 --> 00:27:33.620 You have the authority to break them 469 00:27:33.620 --> 00:27:36.860 simply because you decide. 470 00:27:36.860 --> 00:27:40.500 Because again, God is the one who said it first. 471 00:27:40.500 --> 00:27:41.660 You're not making a decision 472 00:27:41.660 --> 00:27:43.580 about something that you wish were true, 473 00:27:43.580 --> 00:27:46.100 and then you're just making up your own rules. 474 00:27:46.100 --> 00:27:47.980 God is the one who said it first, 475 00:27:47.980 --> 00:27:52.220 but you have to decide that that is what you're going to do 476 00:27:52.220 --> 00:27:55.100 and that that is what is going to happen 477 00:27:55.100 --> 00:27:58.300 and that that is what you are doing right now, 478 00:27:58.300 --> 00:28:01.260 meaning like while you're in there with the Lord 479 00:28:01.260 --> 00:28:03.580 and you're like, I'm breaking this soul tie, 480 00:28:03.580 --> 00:28:06.420 it's you're deciding that that's what you're doing. 481 00:28:06.420 --> 00:28:09.140 You're deciding that that is what is happening, 482 00:28:09.140 --> 00:28:11.900 not, oh, I hope this works. 483 00:28:11.900 --> 00:28:13.300 I'm going to do this, and I hope this works. 484 00:28:13.300 --> 00:28:14.700 No, no hoping it works. 485 00:28:14.700 --> 00:28:17.860 No, I'm doing it, and therefore it's happening. 486 00:28:18.620 --> 00:28:19.460 You decide that it's happening, 487 00:28:19.460 --> 00:28:22.460 because again, you're doing this all based off 488 00:28:22.460 --> 00:28:24.620 of the fact that God said it first. 489 00:28:24.620 --> 00:28:26.580 You're not making something up. 490 00:28:26.580 --> 00:28:30.220 You're not going rogue with your own idea of like, 491 00:28:30.220 --> 00:28:33.580 oh, I just wish this were true, so I'm going to decide. 492 00:28:34.580 --> 00:28:38.260 It's always based on what God said first. 493 00:28:38.260 --> 00:28:42.060 So what I do is I just go before the Lord, 494 00:28:42.060 --> 00:28:44.860 and sometimes I have God the Father 495 00:28:44.860 --> 00:28:46.780 and Jesus and the Holy Spirit. 496 00:28:46.780 --> 00:28:48.180 Sometimes I have all of them, 497 00:28:48.180 --> 00:28:52.500 because they all have roles to play. 498 00:28:52.500 --> 00:28:54.940 For one, God is the judge. 499 00:28:54.940 --> 00:28:56.820 God the Father is the judge. 500 00:28:56.820 --> 00:29:01.380 And then Jesus is my advocate. 501 00:29:01.380 --> 00:29:04.820 He's the one who has died for me. 502 00:29:04.820 --> 00:29:09.820 He's the one that I'm united with. 503 00:29:11.260 --> 00:29:13.940 He's my advocate. 504 00:29:13.940 --> 00:29:16.460 He's my lawyer, kind of a thing. 505 00:29:17.140 --> 00:29:17.980 He's on my side. 506 00:29:17.980 --> 00:29:20.300 I mean, they're all on my side, but you know what I'm saying. 507 00:29:20.300 --> 00:29:23.060 And then the Holy Spirit is there. 508 00:29:23.060 --> 00:29:27.300 That's the Spirit of God, and it facilitates so much. 509 00:29:28.460 --> 00:29:33.100 And again, kind of advocating for us before the Lord as well 510 00:29:33.100 --> 00:29:38.100 as in like our spirit within us is always speaking to God, 511 00:29:38.580 --> 00:29:40.300 and it's always speaking, 512 00:29:41.540 --> 00:29:43.900 and I believe that that's kind of like flows through 513 00:29:44.420 --> 00:29:47.260 is the Holy Spirit. 514 00:29:47.260 --> 00:29:49.580 Our spirit talking to the Lord, 515 00:29:49.580 --> 00:29:51.700 the Holy Spirit is engaged in that, 516 00:29:53.700 --> 00:29:55.580 because Spirit talks to Spirit. 517 00:29:55.580 --> 00:29:58.620 So anyway, point is, I like to have all three of them there, 518 00:29:58.620 --> 00:30:00.220 but anyway, that just kind of. 519 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:05.720 It just kind of helps me feel like, um, we're like the entirety of the 520 00:30:05.720 --> 00:30:08.600 Godhead is with me on this. 521 00:30:08.640 --> 00:30:13.680 And therefore this, this is something that we're all doing together and 522 00:30:13.680 --> 00:30:17.920 it really is going to happen, you know, anyway, and then I just, and, and 523 00:30:17.920 --> 00:30:21.680 what I do when I'm, when I'm praying to the Lord is whatever I kind of bring 524 00:30:21.680 --> 00:30:26.560 that other person with me, not in real life, but in my kind of my imagination 525 00:30:26.560 --> 00:30:30.320 and my intention and my, and my love for them or whatever, and I bring them 526 00:30:30.320 --> 00:30:36.600 it's like, Lord, you know, and, and I, and I talk good about them to the Lord. 527 00:30:36.880 --> 00:30:41.620 Lord, you know, I love this person, or you can even talk about the, about the 528 00:30:41.620 --> 00:30:44.440 things that you, that you're struggling with Lord, you know, I really struggle 529 00:30:44.440 --> 00:30:46.000 with this about them or whatever. 530 00:30:46.440 --> 00:30:49.480 And, and Lord, I don't, I don't want to anymore. 531 00:30:49.760 --> 00:30:51.840 I want to free them from that. 532 00:30:51.880 --> 00:30:54.040 And I want to free me from that. 533 00:30:54.680 --> 00:30:58.200 And, and then I just, and then I imagine there are all of these cords 534 00:30:58.200 --> 00:31:01.000 that are connecting me from to them. 535 00:31:01.760 --> 00:31:06.080 And then I just, and I just ask the Lord, you know, or I just tell the Lord, okay, 536 00:31:06.080 --> 00:31:11.680 Lord, I believe that you have, um, I'm just walking you through what's helpful. 537 00:31:11.680 --> 00:31:12.720 This isn't magic. 538 00:31:13.160 --> 00:31:18.320 I'm just telling you the ideas and the concepts of like, uh, uh, that I kind 539 00:31:19.040 --> 00:31:20.240 walk myself through. 540 00:31:20.240 --> 00:31:24.960 That's kind of helpful and helping me kind of understand what it is that I'm 541 00:31:24.960 --> 00:31:30.280 doing so that I can, again, guide my intention, like guide my will of like, 542 00:31:30.280 --> 00:31:31.440 Hey, this is what I'm doing. 543 00:31:31.440 --> 00:31:32.840 This is what I'm deciding. 544 00:31:33.080 --> 00:31:38.280 It kind of helps give me a direction for my will to go for my decision to go, Hey, 545 00:31:38.280 --> 00:31:39.440 this is what I'm doing. 546 00:31:39.640 --> 00:31:41.640 So I kind of talked to the Lord about all of it. 547 00:31:41.920 --> 00:31:45.120 And really I'm talking to myself, meaning like I'm reminding myself 548 00:31:45.120 --> 00:31:47.520 what it is that I'm doing, but I'm talking to God. 549 00:31:48.120 --> 00:31:51.240 And so anyway, I just say, Lord, you know, I have all of these connections 550 00:31:51.240 --> 00:31:52.600 and I just kind of imagine them. 551 00:31:52.600 --> 00:31:58.240 And then, and then I just, and then I tell the Lord before with them, basically 552 00:31:58.280 --> 00:32:02.760 I do this before God, the father, and basically with Jesus, you know, on my 553 00:32:02.760 --> 00:32:06.320 side and with the Holy spirit is my witness or however you want to imagine it. 554 00:32:07.280 --> 00:32:12.240 And then I say, I Lord before you right now, because Jesus said that he died 555 00:32:12.240 --> 00:32:16.800 for me so that I can do this so that I don't have to be, so I can be freed. 556 00:32:17.760 --> 00:32:22.240 I am now choosing that freedom and me and my own free will standing in what 557 00:32:22.240 --> 00:32:24.120 you have already said is true. 558 00:32:24.480 --> 00:32:26.160 Um, and is possible. 559 00:32:26.480 --> 00:32:30.840 I am cutting this soul tie with them, you know, and I'm cutting 560 00:32:30.840 --> 00:32:32.240 this other soul tie with them. 561 00:32:32.240 --> 00:32:36.280 And maybe God will give you names for it of what the soul ties are. 562 00:32:36.520 --> 00:32:42.840 And maybe he won't, you know, for me, uh, maybe sometimes he has 563 00:32:42.840 --> 00:32:44.240 and other times he hasn't. 564 00:32:44.480 --> 00:32:46.320 And so I just kind of go with whatever I have. 565 00:32:46.400 --> 00:32:47.240 I have a name for it. 566 00:32:47.240 --> 00:32:47.920 I call it that. 567 00:32:47.920 --> 00:32:50.000 And if I don't have a name for it, I just say this old tie. 568 00:32:50.000 --> 00:32:50.440 I don't know. 569 00:32:51.000 --> 00:32:54.480 You know, and then I just, and I just start cutting, but I, again, 570 00:32:54.480 --> 00:32:56.320 it can't be wishful thinking. 571 00:32:56.560 --> 00:32:57.280 It's not okay. 572 00:32:57.280 --> 00:32:59.120 I'm really hoping this is working. 573 00:32:59.160 --> 00:33:01.280 No, you make a decision that you're doing it. 574 00:33:01.840 --> 00:33:02.640 This is what I'm doing. 575 00:33:02.640 --> 00:33:06.240 This is really happening in real life in the spirit. 576 00:33:06.840 --> 00:33:08.480 I'm cutting and severing these things. 577 00:33:08.760 --> 00:33:15.160 And I promise you, if you decide that that is what is happening, it happens. 578 00:33:16.400 --> 00:33:19.920 Because God is the one who enables that to be true. 579 00:33:19.920 --> 00:33:23.040 He's just wanting you to finally come into agreement with it. 580 00:33:23.600 --> 00:33:23.960 Yeah. 581 00:33:24.080 --> 00:33:26.920 That you want to stand in that freedom and that whatever. 582 00:33:27.240 --> 00:33:30.840 And then what I do is I bless after separating all those, you know, 583 00:33:30.840 --> 00:33:32.320 just, just the unhealthy. 584 00:33:32.320 --> 00:33:33.400 So tussle times. 585 00:33:33.400 --> 00:33:34.800 That's what I tell the ward, you know? 586 00:33:35.840 --> 00:33:36.960 Um, I don't know. 587 00:33:36.960 --> 00:33:39.960 It probably depends on who you talk to as whether they think that there's, 588 00:33:40.040 --> 00:33:41.840 it's possible for any to be healthy. 589 00:33:42.080 --> 00:33:42.680 I don't know. 590 00:33:42.920 --> 00:33:47.240 All I know is that, is that I just, I was like, well, Lord, I don't know if 591 00:33:47.240 --> 00:33:49.240 there is such a thing as healthy soul ties. 592 00:33:49.240 --> 00:33:53.880 So just in case there, there is, I'm telling you, I'm cutting the unhealthy ones. 593 00:33:54.280 --> 00:33:57.520 You know, I'm not wanting to disconnect myself from this person. 594 00:33:57.560 --> 00:33:59.960 I thank you for giving this person to me. 595 00:34:00.360 --> 00:34:01.520 I love them. 596 00:34:01.840 --> 00:34:03.480 No, I want to be in relationship with them. 597 00:34:03.480 --> 00:34:04.440 Please help me to see them. 598 00:34:04.440 --> 00:34:07.360 You know, as the way Jesus sees them and all of that, but I'm 599 00:34:07.360 --> 00:34:09.360 cutting all of these others off. 600 00:34:09.440 --> 00:34:13.159 And, you know, and I thank you for giving me, um, freedom for 601 00:34:13.159 --> 00:34:15.239 giving me, for uniting me with you. 602 00:34:15.719 --> 00:34:20.639 And then I'm just going to, um, and so Lord, I, I free this person 603 00:34:21.159 --> 00:34:22.639 from their connection with me. 604 00:34:23.520 --> 00:34:27.000 Also, this is just a little thing that I'm going to mention here. 605 00:34:28.320 --> 00:34:33.920 Uh, I told the Lord when I was doing this with someone in particular, I said, Lord, 606 00:34:33.920 --> 00:34:38.639 I break off all the soul ties that, that I made towards them and that they need 607 00:34:38.639 --> 00:34:46.560 towards me because this person that I'm specifically thinking of, um, a lot when 608 00:34:46.560 --> 00:34:53.639 we're talking for this example, um, there, a lot of the ties were made first from 609 00:34:53.639 --> 00:34:59.920 them to me and because of their dependence on me to be. 610 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:08.560 okay, or to be a certain way or to whatever. And then I responded with my own based off of that. 611 00:35:08.560 --> 00:35:14.320 So anyway, the thing is that I, and I noticed that dependence on me and I wanted to cut that 612 00:35:14.320 --> 00:35:19.040 as well. So anyway, I just told her that, that basically I was cutting myself free of that as 613 00:35:19.040 --> 00:35:24.320 well. And, and then I would just, and then I close everything out by always blessing the person 614 00:35:24.320 --> 00:35:30.000 like very seriously, like, Lord, I just ask for good things for them and ask that, you know, 615 00:35:30.000 --> 00:35:35.440 that they not have to, uh, that they be forgiven Lord of everything it is that they've done. 616 00:35:35.440 --> 00:35:40.960 So Lord, I receive your forgiveness, um, for what it is that I've done, you know, 617 00:35:40.960 --> 00:35:47.360 in making these on how they sell ties. You know, I ask for an, and Lord, I, before the God, 618 00:35:47.360 --> 00:35:54.640 the judge, I forgive them. I release them of any obligation of, uh, having to pay for what 619 00:35:54.640 --> 00:35:59.680 they've done to me in connecting and making me full ties or whatever, you know, anyway. 620 00:35:59.680 --> 00:36:05.120 So that's how, and that's how I finished it is I always finish on a positive note of now that 621 00:36:05.120 --> 00:36:11.920 there's no, now that there's no, uh, unhealthy connection between me and them, cause I've cut 622 00:36:11.920 --> 00:36:18.320 it all off. Now there's nothing, but all the goodness to enjoy. And, and I want to, and I, 623 00:36:18.320 --> 00:36:23.120 and I want to be like my father, I want to be like Jesus. And so I want to bless them. 624 00:36:24.640 --> 00:36:28.320 Um, not just kind of like, okay, well now we're free and I'm going to forgive them. 625 00:36:28.320 --> 00:36:36.640 I'm going to turn around and also consciously bless them and ask the Lord to bless them. 626 00:36:36.640 --> 00:36:42.000 So anyway, uh, did all of that kind of make sense? It's not, it's not magic. You don't have 627 00:36:42.000 --> 00:36:46.400 to, no, no, no. And I've, I've been through similar before, but it's helped. It's really 628 00:36:46.400 --> 00:36:51.360 good. But I know what I totally understand what you're talking about. It's really good. 629 00:36:52.240 --> 00:37:00.320 So that's helpful. But like I said, what the power to enable it to happen is in your intention, 630 00:37:00.320 --> 00:37:05.360 your decision that that's what you're doing. Um, not that, Oh yeah, I will do that. No, 631 00:37:05.360 --> 00:37:09.280 that, that is actually what is happening. You determine that that is what is happening. It's, 632 00:37:09.280 --> 00:37:15.120 it's a King who's made a decree and expects it to be carried out. He's not hopeful that it'll 633 00:37:15.120 --> 00:37:20.720 be carried out. He expects that it is. And it's just, once he says it, he assumes that it's done. 634 00:37:20.720 --> 00:37:26.400 That's basically it. It's an assumption that it's done and that it's happened. And then it really 635 00:37:26.400 --> 00:37:33.360 will be true. So God is the one who's, it's his power. That's actually cutting everything, 636 00:37:33.360 --> 00:37:38.080 but you're coming into agreement with it is what is enabling it to happen. 637 00:37:39.440 --> 00:37:46.000 So you're not powerfully doing all of this. So to speak, it's you're just calling on the power of 638 00:37:46.000 --> 00:37:51.440 Jesus that actually has the power to cut all of that stuff. You're just coming into agreement 639 00:37:51.440 --> 00:38:01.920 with it and calling on it to, to do it, calling on it to happen. So that's what I would recommend 640 00:38:01.920 --> 00:38:09.840 doing. And, and you will things will be just healthier and happier. And then also you were 641 00:38:09.840 --> 00:38:17.040 talking about your you didn't know, like, say for instance, you gave an example with your nephew, 642 00:38:17.040 --> 00:38:23.280 like, well, you know, do I just go off and do my own thing? Or do I try to connect? Honestly, 643 00:38:23.280 --> 00:38:29.200 it's kind of a bit of both. You just do your, you, you know, you enjoy yourself. You don't 644 00:38:30.080 --> 00:38:36.560 especially after you cut all the soul ties off, this is easier. You just, you, because you're not 645 00:38:36.560 --> 00:38:41.520 connected to him anymore and in an unhealthy way anymore, you're not pulled around by him and 646 00:38:41.520 --> 00:38:46.880 unbiased decisions and whatever. So you do you're doing your thing and you're enjoying you, even if 647 00:38:46.880 --> 00:38:54.080 he doesn't want to enjoy life with you right now, you're enjoying life with you. But there's also 648 00:38:54.080 --> 00:39:02.960 the thing of like, you know, still, still like presenting invitations to him to do stuff, 649 00:39:02.960 --> 00:39:10.640 or just doing something for him without expecting anything in return. For instance, you can, and 650 00:39:10.640 --> 00:39:16.640 this is just an example. It's not that you have to do exactly this, just an example. But like, 651 00:39:16.640 --> 00:39:22.960 when I say without expecting anything in return, like you, you talk about, oh, I like to bring in 652 00:39:22.960 --> 00:39:28.240 food and stuff. Well, you can, but you're saying that he doesn't engage with you at all. 653 00:39:29.120 --> 00:39:37.840 You can, you can still bring in food and just not, and either not sit with him, like, not like 654 00:39:37.840 --> 00:39:42.800 you're like ignoring him, but you can tell that he wants to do his own thing. So you just bring 655 00:39:42.800 --> 00:39:48.080 in food. Hey, thought you'd like this, you know, and then you go off and you do your own thing. 656 00:39:48.080 --> 00:39:53.200 So in other words, he realizes there's no pressure. You're just, you're just giving him 657 00:39:53.200 --> 00:39:59.760 things, not expecting anything in return, or you bring it and then, and he's sitting at the table. 658 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.480 And you're sitting at the table and, but you're, you're, I don't know, 659 00:40:03.480 --> 00:40:07.320 reading a book or you're working on the computer or you're scrolling on your 660 00:40:07.320 --> 00:40:12.840 phone again, you're reaching out to him without, and you're available. 661 00:40:13.580 --> 00:40:20.040 If he wants anything, but he won't feel the pressure of the gift is if 662 00:40:20.040 --> 00:40:22.640 there's an exchange or an obligation. 663 00:40:23.080 --> 00:40:26.240 So it's love without conditions. 664 00:40:26.320 --> 00:40:29.720 It's love, you know, so I'm just mentioning that as an 665 00:40:29.720 --> 00:40:32.320 example, you can apply it, you know, however you want, but. 666 00:40:32.920 --> 00:40:37.240 I mean, so it's a bit of, it's kind of like a combination of both. 667 00:40:37.240 --> 00:40:42.840 It's not ignoring them, but at the same time, it's not requiring anything of them. 668 00:40:43.200 --> 00:40:45.760 It's just always being there, always being available. 669 00:40:46.000 --> 00:40:50.360 And then it is putting yourself in the vulnerable position that you're giving 670 00:40:50.760 --> 00:40:58.360 and you're doing, and you're there without, you know, reciprocity, which 671 00:40:58.360 --> 00:41:01.640 can be hard and hurtful, but yeah. 672 00:41:02.640 --> 00:41:03.040 Yeah. 673 00:41:04.800 --> 00:41:07.600 You know, it's that kind of thing because you're right. 674 00:41:07.600 --> 00:41:14.040 I mean, God wants us, God wants us to love on other people. 675 00:41:14.680 --> 00:41:19.680 And you know, that if you just love him and love on him, it'll come out very 676 00:41:19.680 --> 00:41:28.160 naturally without, and he'll sense it without you even having to do anything. 677 00:41:28.160 --> 00:41:31.480 It you're just natural without you consciously having to do particular 678 00:41:31.480 --> 00:41:33.240 things, it'll just naturally come out. 679 00:41:33.840 --> 00:41:37.880 Um, but, uh, anyway, so is that helpful? 680 00:41:40.880 --> 00:41:43.080 Yeah, that is helpful. 681 00:41:46.000 --> 00:41:46.160 Yeah. 682 00:41:46.160 --> 00:41:47.480 I think that would be really good. 683 00:41:49.160 --> 00:41:57.760 Um, and that I will, and maybe I will just naturally more know what I 684 00:41:57.800 --> 00:42:04.880 want to do when you don't have this unhealthy bond, maybe, um, I won't know 685 00:42:04.880 --> 00:42:11.120 right now, but then I will be more free to be like, Oh, it's natural to just 686 00:42:11.120 --> 00:42:16.520 like be a little bit on the side, but I'm still there or it'll be natural 687 00:42:16.520 --> 00:42:18.640 to really do something specific. 688 00:42:19.240 --> 00:42:20.080 Yeah, correct. 689 00:42:20.560 --> 00:42:26.680 Because I will be free to kind of sense what's, what's right to do and what 690 00:42:26.680 --> 00:42:31.120 the spirit is leading you to do either, or, but now it's so muddled with 691 00:42:31.120 --> 00:42:34.400 emotion that we see it clearly. 692 00:42:35.680 --> 00:42:40.120 Yes, because right now it's like you as well are kind of feeling 693 00:42:40.160 --> 00:42:43.240 and obligation or pressure. 694 00:42:43.560 --> 00:42:49.680 It's for a different reason than he is, but, um, it's, it's still kind of 695 00:42:49.680 --> 00:42:54.240 there almost like a, okay, well, if I want this, I have to do this or 696 00:42:54.480 --> 00:42:55.880 basically an agenda. 697 00:42:55.880 --> 00:42:57.200 That's what I'm talking about. 698 00:42:57.240 --> 00:43:04.360 And so when you, it's easier for people to experience and see Christ's love for 699 00:43:04.360 --> 00:43:10.080 them through us while we don't have an agenda, meaning like something we're 700 00:43:10.080 --> 00:43:14.480 trying to accomplish or response we're trying to get from them. 701 00:43:15.760 --> 00:43:16.040 Yeah. 702 00:43:16.200 --> 00:43:23.720 So everything just becomes more clear and more effortless when you don't have 703 00:43:23.720 --> 00:43:27.240 that, that, that unhealthy connection anymore. 704 00:43:27.680 --> 00:43:34.320 So otherwise we're being manipulated and controlled by our own unhealthy 705 00:43:34.320 --> 00:43:35.880 connection with them. 706 00:43:36.400 --> 00:43:44.560 And because that connection we built trying to provide for our own need through 707 00:43:44.560 --> 00:43:48.240 them, like a need of this or that and whatever. 708 00:43:48.240 --> 00:43:53.600 And so anyway, it just, it's, it's just getting in the way, but so what we 709 00:43:53.600 --> 00:43:58.440 can do, uh, for the rest of the time is we can either, if you've got something 710 00:43:58.440 --> 00:44:00.560 else, we can, we can talk through that. 711 00:44:00.880 --> 00:44:06.840 And if not, what we can do is, uh, unless you'd like to do it by yourself, we 712 00:44:06.840 --> 00:44:11.320 could go to the Lord together and you could break those soul ties if you 713 00:44:11.320 --> 00:44:12.920 would like to do that together. 714 00:44:13.120 --> 00:44:16.440 If you want to do it on your own, that is perfectly fine. 715 00:44:16.840 --> 00:44:19.160 I just wanted to offer it in case you wanted to. 716 00:44:19.600 --> 00:44:23.320 Um, and, uh, or if you've got other things that you wanted to talk about, 717 00:44:23.320 --> 00:44:24.200 we can talk about that. 718 00:44:24.320 --> 00:44:25.920 So it's your time. 719 00:44:25.960 --> 00:44:27.240 You just, you decide what you want to do. 720 00:44:31.400 --> 00:44:32.960 And you may not even be ready yet. 721 00:44:33.680 --> 00:44:37.080 You know, you may just need to kind of work through some things with the Lord 722 00:44:37.080 --> 00:44:41.760 before you're ready, because again, it has to be your decision of, no, this is 723 00:44:41.760 --> 00:44:43.000 what I've decided. 724 00:44:43.680 --> 00:44:44.960 I think I am ready. 725 00:44:46.600 --> 00:44:47.080 Yeah. 726 00:44:49.320 --> 00:44:49.560 Yeah. 727 00:44:49.560 --> 00:44:52.280 Maybe it would be helpful to do it with someone. 728 00:44:54.840 --> 00:44:55.480 It's hard for me. 729 00:44:55.480 --> 00:44:56.480 It's hard to decide. 730 00:44:59.320 --> 00:44:59.720 I just. 731 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:00.840 Take your time. 732 00:45:07.520 --> 00:45:09.700 Another thing we could just, if you want, 733 00:45:09.700 --> 00:45:12.560 we can just go to the Lord and then see what happens. 734 00:45:12.560 --> 00:45:16.800 So if while, you know, just talk to him about, you know, 735 00:45:16.800 --> 00:45:18.720 what really is, you know, 736 00:45:18.720 --> 00:45:20.760 just kind of like present them before the Lord. 737 00:45:20.760 --> 00:45:22.240 Like, okay, Lord, here's me. 738 00:45:22.240 --> 00:45:24.440 And I would do them one at a time. 739 00:45:24.440 --> 00:45:27.160 Here's me and my nephew, or here's me and my mom. 740 00:45:27.920 --> 00:45:32.920 I think I would like, yeah, I'm ready to break it off. 741 00:45:32.960 --> 00:45:35.980 And I think it would be good to, yeah. 742 00:45:35.980 --> 00:45:37.720 Okay. Okay, sure. 743 00:45:37.720 --> 00:45:40.520 Now I'll talk some, you know, and pray and whatever, 744 00:45:40.520 --> 00:45:43.320 but the majority of it'll just be you. 745 00:45:43.320 --> 00:45:44.160 Yes. 746 00:45:44.160 --> 00:45:48.640 So you just decide how, what it is that you want to say. 747 00:45:48.640 --> 00:45:50.720 I'm not going to jump in and correct you. 748 00:45:51.600 --> 00:45:53.280 Don't worry about that. 749 00:45:53.280 --> 00:45:55.560 Meaning like, I'm not going to be like, okay, no, no, no. 750 00:45:55.600 --> 00:45:56.880 Remember to say this. 751 00:45:56.880 --> 00:45:58.320 And oh, you didn't say this. 752 00:45:58.320 --> 00:45:59.760 And I'm not going to do that. 753 00:45:59.760 --> 00:46:04.680 You need to feel, I'm just there to support you. 754 00:46:04.680 --> 00:46:06.320 And so you just need to feel safe 755 00:46:06.320 --> 00:46:08.080 that it's just between you and the Lord, 756 00:46:08.080 --> 00:46:09.840 whatever you want to do. 757 00:46:09.840 --> 00:46:11.840 I, no one taught me this. 758 00:46:11.840 --> 00:46:13.160 I just went to the Lord and said, 759 00:46:13.160 --> 00:46:14.360 Lord, this is what I want to do. 760 00:46:14.360 --> 00:46:16.320 And the Lord guided me through it. 761 00:46:16.320 --> 00:46:17.640 That's what he does. 762 00:46:17.640 --> 00:46:19.360 So I'm just there for kind of like, 763 00:46:19.360 --> 00:46:20.480 for just kind of support. 764 00:46:20.480 --> 00:46:23.400 And then I'll pray with you in agreement and all of that. 765 00:46:23.400 --> 00:46:26.200 But, so I just wanted you to know what to expect 766 00:46:26.200 --> 00:46:28.480 so that you wouldn't have to anticipate 767 00:46:28.480 --> 00:46:30.440 or be concerned about anticipating. 768 00:46:30.440 --> 00:46:32.560 I wonder if Ashley's going to interject at any point. 769 00:46:32.560 --> 00:46:34.280 I hope that I'm saying all of this right. 770 00:46:34.280 --> 00:46:35.560 Okay, Ashley's listening too. 771 00:46:35.560 --> 00:46:37.920 So I need to make sure to remember to say all these things. 772 00:46:37.920 --> 00:46:39.520 No, I'm not going to say anything. 773 00:46:39.520 --> 00:46:41.080 So it'll all be good. 774 00:46:41.080 --> 00:46:45.120 So, because again, all of these things can happen 775 00:46:45.120 --> 00:46:48.520 without, meaning like you can break off 776 00:46:48.520 --> 00:46:50.760 all of these soul ties and whatever, 777 00:46:50.760 --> 00:46:55.040 without even consciously knowing 778 00:46:55.040 --> 00:46:56.680 what it is that you're doing. 779 00:46:56.680 --> 00:47:00.400 Kind of like your sister and being in rest and all of that. 780 00:47:00.400 --> 00:47:05.400 It's like, but if people can't do it, 781 00:47:05.480 --> 00:47:07.760 sometimes it helps someone else. 782 00:47:07.760 --> 00:47:09.680 If they can't figure out how to do it, 783 00:47:09.680 --> 00:47:11.200 then it helps them kind of like, 784 00:47:11.200 --> 00:47:12.840 if someone articulates for them, 785 00:47:12.840 --> 00:47:14.280 hey, look, this is what you're doing. 786 00:47:14.280 --> 00:47:15.640 This is how you can do it or whatever. 787 00:47:15.640 --> 00:47:20.120 So point is that there's nothing magical 788 00:47:20.120 --> 00:47:22.120 that you have to all try to remember. 789 00:47:22.120 --> 00:47:26.200 You just feel, you're very sensitive 790 00:47:28.440 --> 00:47:31.680 to be able to like feel things like, 791 00:47:31.680 --> 00:47:34.800 and have spiritual insight 792 00:47:34.800 --> 00:47:36.800 into what really is kind of going on. 793 00:47:36.800 --> 00:47:39.000 Like, hey, I'm feeling bound. 794 00:47:39.000 --> 00:47:42.080 So that's very insightful to be able to articulate that. 795 00:47:42.080 --> 00:47:44.320 So you already know all that stuff. 796 00:47:44.320 --> 00:47:46.600 So point is that when you go before the Lord, 797 00:47:46.600 --> 00:47:49.480 you're going to sense what to say, 798 00:47:49.520 --> 00:47:53.320 what's going on and how that needs to be dealt with. 799 00:47:53.320 --> 00:47:54.960 It's going to be just fine. 800 00:47:54.960 --> 00:47:56.680 And it doesn't, it's not complicated. 801 00:47:56.680 --> 00:47:58.160 It's not hard. 802 00:47:58.160 --> 00:48:01.240 You just decide that that's what you're going to do. 803 00:48:01.240 --> 00:48:03.560 In fact, doing it can take a lot, 804 00:48:03.560 --> 00:48:06.520 that a lot, it can be a lot faster 805 00:48:06.520 --> 00:48:10.000 than me having described to you what it's like. 806 00:48:10.000 --> 00:48:10.960 It can be really fast. 807 00:48:10.960 --> 00:48:12.680 So anyway, it's just, you just take your time, 808 00:48:12.680 --> 00:48:14.280 whatever you're going to do, so. 809 00:48:15.560 --> 00:48:17.920 So Lord, we come before you 810 00:48:18.000 --> 00:48:20.360 and thank you so much for Renata. 811 00:48:20.360 --> 00:48:23.920 And Lord, she's got some things 812 00:48:23.920 --> 00:48:26.240 that she would like to talk to you about on here 813 00:48:26.240 --> 00:48:30.400 with her Lord in agreement to break these soul ties, 814 00:48:30.400 --> 00:48:34.080 to be able to take advantage of 815 00:48:34.080 --> 00:48:38.400 and come into agreement with the power of the gospel, 816 00:48:38.400 --> 00:48:40.280 what Jesus did on the cross. 817 00:48:40.280 --> 00:48:43.960 And so Father, we ask that you would just, 818 00:48:43.960 --> 00:48:45.920 that we receive Lord your cleansing 819 00:48:46.280 --> 00:48:51.280 of everything it is Lord that is in our lives, 820 00:48:51.320 --> 00:48:53.920 Lord, that's not in agreement with you that, 821 00:48:53.920 --> 00:48:56.640 and we just ask that in coming before you Lord, 822 00:48:56.640 --> 00:48:58.560 that you would just cleanse us, 823 00:48:58.560 --> 00:49:01.000 that you would put new clothes on us, 824 00:49:01.000 --> 00:49:05.760 that you would, that you just receive this very 825 00:49:07.440 --> 00:49:10.440 fully acceptingly Lord into your presence. 826 00:49:10.440 --> 00:49:13.120 We ask for the presence of God the Father 827 00:49:13.160 --> 00:49:16.280 and Holy Spirit, we ask that you would join us as well. 828 00:49:16.280 --> 00:49:19.080 And Jesus, we ask that we would feel your presence 829 00:49:19.080 --> 00:49:22.080 as our advocate Lord. 830 00:49:22.080 --> 00:49:24.960 And I stand Lord again, in agreement with Renata 831 00:49:26.120 --> 00:49:29.960 in presenting these people before you 832 00:49:29.960 --> 00:49:34.640 and as a witness that these soul ties Lord are broken 833 00:49:34.640 --> 00:49:36.760 so that everything in the spirit realm, 834 00:49:36.760 --> 00:49:40.720 whether in heaven or whether in the second heaven 835 00:49:40.720 --> 00:49:42.680 with all of the evil spirits Lord, 836 00:49:43.280 --> 00:49:44.600 that everything would recognize 837 00:49:44.600 --> 00:49:48.600 that this is actually officially been done in his final. 838 00:49:55.520 --> 00:49:59.600 I thank you Lord for the revelation of being a King. 839 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:10.360 And I choose to reveal myself in the presence here of Lucas, Caleb, and my mom, as a king 840 00:50:10.360 --> 00:50:17.280 and the authority that has been given to me by God. 841 00:50:17.280 --> 00:50:24.880 And in the name of Jesus, I just cut all ties that are unhealthy, emotional ties that have 842 00:50:24.880 --> 00:50:31.520 been come between me and Lucas, in the name of Jesus. 843 00:50:31.520 --> 00:50:38.320 I thank you, Jesus, that I, by my intention and my will, can, in the heavenly, and it's 844 00:50:38.320 --> 00:50:46.000 done in heaven, as it is on earth, I cut in the name of Jesus, all unhealthy ties to Lucas, 845 00:50:46.000 --> 00:50:52.440 all physical, emotional, and if there's any spiritual ties that has gone on, has been 846 00:50:52.440 --> 00:50:56.120 between us, I just cut it in the name of Jesus. 847 00:50:56.120 --> 00:51:04.120 And I just set him free, fully set him free to just be himself, fully the way that you 848 00:51:04.120 --> 00:51:16.560 intended him to be, and to not be unhealthily tied to me. 849 00:51:16.560 --> 00:51:25.960 In the name of Jesus, I just cleanse anything between us that has been in any control on 850 00:51:25.960 --> 00:51:29.080 my part. 851 00:51:29.080 --> 00:51:37.440 I just repent of control that I've held in his life. 852 00:51:37.440 --> 00:51:41.280 Maybe not wantonly, but that still be there. 853 00:51:41.280 --> 00:51:47.280 Forgive me, Jesus, for trying to, in a way, control him, or the love between us, and because 854 00:51:47.280 --> 00:51:49.800 I was fearful of losing him. 855 00:51:49.800 --> 00:51:51.320 I just repent of that. 856 00:51:51.320 --> 00:51:58.600 And I thank you, Jesus, that these ties have been cut, and what has been done in heaven 857 00:51:58.600 --> 00:52:01.600 is also done on earth. 858 00:52:01.600 --> 00:52:07.760 And I thank you for that freedom that you paid so dearly for, and that I can live in 859 00:52:07.760 --> 00:52:09.680 a healthy relationship with Lucas. 860 00:52:11.600 --> 00:52:24.400 And in the name of Jesus, I just cut all unhealthy ties with Caleb, the older nephew. 861 00:52:24.400 --> 00:52:29.960 Cut all unhealthy ties, soul ties, with him, in the name of Jesus. 862 00:52:29.960 --> 00:52:33.800 By my intention and will, I choose to cut them. 863 00:52:33.800 --> 00:52:40.680 Let your will be done on heaven as it is on earth. 864 00:52:40.680 --> 00:52:46.640 And I also set him free, fully free to live his own life, and to believe and think whatever 865 00:52:46.640 --> 00:52:48.800 he wants to believe and think. 866 00:52:48.800 --> 00:52:55.480 And he's free from any kind of things that I've been holding against him. 867 00:52:55.480 --> 00:53:03.200 And I also want to repent if there's been any control on my part, or any kind of emotional 868 00:53:03.200 --> 00:53:08.680 needs to him and Lucas, I just want to repent of that. 869 00:53:08.680 --> 00:53:14.120 Please forgive me and set me fully free to let them both live freely the way that you 870 00:53:14.120 --> 00:53:19.040 intended them to, and for me to have the rightful place in their lives, the way that you want 871 00:53:19.040 --> 00:53:20.360 me to. 872 00:53:20.360 --> 00:53:26.560 And not in a needy way, not in a controlling way, not in a way that it's tying me down 873 00:53:26.560 --> 00:53:28.200 to them. 874 00:53:28.200 --> 00:53:36.000 So I just let both of them go, Caleb and Lucas, and I just bless them with everything good 875 00:53:36.000 --> 00:53:41.760 from you, everything that you have, that you will just shower them with your love and 876 00:53:41.760 --> 00:53:46.600 your grace and your mercy and the knowledge of who you are. 877 00:53:46.600 --> 00:53:54.640 They can live in freedom with you, and for Caleb to one day reunite with you. 878 00:53:54.640 --> 00:54:00.160 But also in that I just set him free to go on his own walk, that he can find you in his 879 00:54:00.160 --> 00:54:05.440 timing and he can be allowed to be wherever he is, and that I'm not going to control his 880 00:54:05.440 --> 00:54:07.920 belief in you or not believe in you. 881 00:54:07.920 --> 00:54:12.040 I just set him free to be on his own journey with you, and I thank you that you are in 882 00:54:12.040 --> 00:54:18.160 control, and that you are in control of both of their lives, and that I don't have to carry 883 00:54:18.160 --> 00:54:19.640 them or hold them. 884 00:54:19.640 --> 00:54:27.120 So I also just release myself of the responsibility of not having to hold them or carry them. 885 00:54:27.120 --> 00:54:34.160 I just release myself from the things that I've held on to. 886 00:54:34.160 --> 00:54:46.720 And lastly, in the name of Jesus, I just cut unhealthy ties, soul ties, with my mom. 887 00:54:46.720 --> 00:54:50.520 All of them, all the ties that have come from her side and the ties that have come from 888 00:54:50.520 --> 00:54:54.600 my side, I cut them with my intention, with my will. 889 00:54:54.600 --> 00:55:00.000 I intentionally cut all the ties between us that are unhealthy, all the soul ties. 890 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.600 all the emotional things between us. And I set both of us free. 891 00:55:05.680 --> 00:55:11.320 And I forgive her for controlling, being controllive 892 00:55:11.360 --> 00:55:17.160 and manipulative. And I ask you to forgive me for bitterness and 893 00:55:17.160 --> 00:55:21.320 resentment towards her. Forgive me for holding things against 894 00:55:21.320 --> 00:55:27.080 her for being in resistance. And I set her free to just be 895 00:55:27.080 --> 00:55:31.400 whoever she is and that she does not have to change. I 896 00:55:31.400 --> 00:55:36.840 release her from the need to change from the need to meet my 897 00:55:36.840 --> 00:55:41.400 needs be a different way to not be controlling to live her own 898 00:55:41.400 --> 00:55:45.920 life. I just release her from any expectations that I'm 899 00:55:45.920 --> 00:55:50.440 holding on to her for her to change and be different or be 900 00:55:50.440 --> 00:55:52.880 the way she was before or all the other things that I'm 901 00:55:52.880 --> 00:55:56.640 holding against her. I just fully release her to be wherever 902 00:55:56.640 --> 00:56:01.840 she is, even the bad things, even the hard things Lord. And I 903 00:56:01.840 --> 00:56:05.400 set my free myself free from the control that I've been feeling 904 00:56:05.400 --> 00:56:08.720 for her. And I choose to not receive it to not be 905 00:56:08.720 --> 00:56:16.800 manipulated and not follow in the steps that she sometimes 906 00:56:16.800 --> 00:56:21.040 taking to control me. I choose to put a hedge of protection 907 00:56:21.040 --> 00:56:24.800 around me on my physical and emotional and spiritual being 908 00:56:25.400 --> 00:56:31.520 and to set myself free to live the way that I choose to not 909 00:56:31.520 --> 00:56:39.120 being controlled what she wants me to do. And I bless her Lord, 910 00:56:39.520 --> 00:56:44.600 I pray that you will come with your spirit and lead her and 911 00:56:44.600 --> 00:56:49.480 guide her and give her all the things, all the goodness of your 912 00:56:49.480 --> 00:56:52.880 heart to her. I pray that she will feel loved. I pray for all 913 00:56:52.880 --> 00:56:56.680 three of them that they will feel loved by you, and that you 914 00:56:56.680 --> 00:57:00.120 will reach them wherever they are, and shower them with love 915 00:57:00.160 --> 00:57:05.400 and grace, and that you will show them how good you are at 916 00:57:05.400 --> 00:57:12.160 the different places where they're at. And I also forgive 917 00:57:12.160 --> 00:57:16.560 Caleb and Lucas for the things that they've done towards me in 918 00:57:16.560 --> 00:57:20.600 rebellion and in maybe resentment that they've had 919 00:57:20.600 --> 00:57:24.560 towards me. And anything that I've noticed or not noticed 920 00:57:24.560 --> 00:57:27.880 that come towards me, I just set them free and I forgive them. 921 00:57:28.200 --> 00:57:32.200 And I will not hold not hold it against them. I let go of any 922 00:57:34.840 --> 00:57:42.400 anger and bitterness that I have towards all three of them. And I 923 00:57:42.400 --> 00:57:46.200 thank you that you fully cleanse can fully cleanse it and I choose 924 00:57:46.240 --> 00:57:50.800 in faith to live in connection with them the way that you 925 00:57:50.800 --> 00:57:55.360 intended me to. I set them free and I set myself free from the 926 00:57:55.360 --> 00:58:00.280 unhealthiness of our relationship and I choose to 927 00:58:00.280 --> 00:58:03.720 live in freedom. I let them go in freedom and I choose to live 928 00:58:03.720 --> 00:58:07.480 in freedom in relationship with them. And I thank you that I can 929 00:58:07.480 --> 00:58:11.320 in faith choose to believe that you will guide me and how to 930 00:58:11.320 --> 00:58:15.440 interact with them. And that I don't have to feel a thing. I 931 00:58:15.440 --> 00:58:20.240 can just choose it because you say that it's possible and you 932 00:58:20.240 --> 00:58:22.720 say that that's what you want for our family and that's what 933 00:58:22.720 --> 00:58:27.360 you want for me and I can choose to do it no matter what I feel 934 00:58:27.360 --> 00:58:32.800 or whatever feels the right or good that I can just know that 935 00:58:34.120 --> 00:58:39.480 that I can that it's something that you want and I can choose 936 00:58:39.520 --> 00:58:43.200 your will over my own your reality over my own 937 00:58:45.440 --> 00:59:04.240 Lord, I stand in agreement with Renata of everything more that 938 00:59:04.240 --> 00:59:13.280 she said and thank you for that, through new through Jesus, that 939 00:59:13.280 --> 00:59:16.840 all of those things have been done. Thank you for giving us 940 00:59:16.880 --> 00:59:20.120 that gift. Thank you for giving Renata that gift. Thank you for 941 00:59:20.120 --> 00:59:26.000 giving Renata the gift of freedom and show her Lord how 942 00:59:26.000 --> 00:59:30.960 to walk in this new freedom. Give her a love that she has 943 00:59:30.960 --> 00:59:35.680 never felt and that she's never known. Give her give her 944 00:59:35.680 --> 00:59:39.640 clarity, Lord, help her to see these people Lord through your 945 00:59:39.640 --> 00:59:43.760 eyes and through the eyes of Jesus love and his compassion 946 00:59:43.760 --> 00:59:48.160 and his understanding and his wisdom and how to interact with 947 00:59:48.160 --> 00:59:52.320 them and pray that her their spirit would know and would see 948 00:59:52.320 --> 00:59:57.440 things and would be able to to speak those those truths in over 949 00:59:57.440 --> 00:59:59.920 their lives and pray that they 950 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:10.400 be greatly touched and impacted, Lord, by her spirit. And thank you, God the Father and Holy 951 01:00:10.400 --> 01:00:17.520 Spirit and Jesus for being with us during this time and for standing together, not just as 952 01:00:17.520 --> 01:00:23.840 witnesses, Lord, Holy Spirit, but also as the advocate, Jesus, and for receiving all of this 953 01:00:24.480 --> 01:00:30.160 as the great judge, Lord, the great lawmaker, the one who has determined 954 01:00:31.920 --> 01:00:38.880 truth. And pray that all of these things, Lord, would be written in the scrolls, 955 01:00:40.000 --> 01:00:46.880 that there would be no question in the future about whether or not this has been done, 956 01:00:47.520 --> 01:00:57.680 that nothing would have the right to come against Renata and get her to question or to doubt whether 957 01:00:57.680 --> 01:01:04.160 or not this has happened, no matter what interactions may occur, Lord, between her 958 01:01:04.160 --> 01:01:13.920 and these other people. And just pray that you would send, that you would set up angels to 959 01:01:13.920 --> 01:01:21.760 enforce what Renata has come to agreement with you on regarding her severing these unhealthy 960 01:01:21.760 --> 01:01:28.560 connections. And we ask that beautiful, healthy relationships, Lord, would be established. 961 01:01:28.560 --> 01:01:35.120 In Jesus's name, amen. Amen. That's exciting, Renata. Oh, my word. 962 01:01:38.400 --> 01:01:42.080 That was so good, right? I was feeling all kinds of things. 963 01:01:42.480 --> 01:01:45.760 You were? Yes, especially when you were talking, 964 01:01:45.760 --> 01:01:50.080 when you were severing things with Caleb, I felt it. I was like, oh, that was powerful. 965 01:01:51.360 --> 01:01:55.760 Yeah, that was very exciting. Yeah, it was just at the very, even the just the very beginning of 966 01:01:55.760 --> 01:01:59.920 the prayer when you said that you were going to cut everything. And I was just like, oh, 967 01:01:59.920 --> 01:02:05.520 I just felt it was very exciting. So good. Thank you. And you could tell that you were just being 968 01:02:05.520 --> 01:02:10.240 led by the Spirit, the things that you were saying, I was like, yes, that that's the Father's 969 01:02:10.240 --> 01:02:15.440 heart. That's Jesus's heart, you know, asking, you know, God, I free them from ever having to 970 01:02:15.440 --> 01:02:22.480 change. So important. And, and it's anyway, it's really cool. So I knew I was like, okay, 971 01:02:22.480 --> 01:02:27.680 she's hearing the Spirit. Because when I went before the Lord about things, that's the one of 972 01:02:27.680 --> 01:02:33.920 the things that he always talks to me about, is actually release them from ever having to change. 973 01:02:34.560 --> 01:02:39.360 But I don't hear other people talking about it. So when I heard you saying, I'm like, 974 01:02:39.360 --> 01:02:49.040 see, she hears the same Holy Spirit. That's exciting. I'm so excited for you. But yeah, 975 01:02:49.040 --> 01:02:54.800 so and then like I prayed, I asked the Lord, you know, because we're not used to walking in this 976 01:02:54.800 --> 01:03:00.080 freedom. So it all sounds great. But we don't really know how to do it. Like, okay, what do 977 01:03:00.080 --> 01:03:05.840 I do with this much freedom? Because freedom, when we're used to not being free, is scary. 978 01:03:05.840 --> 01:03:12.400 And even when it's not scary, it's confusing. Or it's like, I don't understand what do I do now? 979 01:03:12.400 --> 01:03:17.600 Because I used I knew I had an established routine or habit of interacting with them like this. 980 01:03:18.480 --> 01:03:25.040 And that the things that were in me that would prompt or motivate it or found or would get the 981 01:03:25.040 --> 01:03:30.640 foundation for these actions is no longer there. So now what do I do? You know? So anyway, so I'm 982 01:03:30.640 --> 01:03:36.000 very excited for you. So how did you feel? What was your experience? 983 01:03:37.680 --> 01:03:42.000 I was a little bit in the beginning, I was like, what is the right thing to do? 984 01:03:42.000 --> 01:03:47.040 But then I tried to just let it go and just like, pray whatever came to me to my mind. 985 01:03:48.640 --> 01:03:52.400 Oh, I don't have to Oh, I forgot about this. It's not so important if you 986 01:03:52.960 --> 01:03:58.800 what you know, it's like, whatever comes to your mind. Yeah. And I could tell that I've 987 01:03:58.800 --> 01:04:03.680 that it felt good. Like I was doing like this, I think. Or like, like, 988 01:04:04.640 --> 01:04:08.400 if you're working, you're physically letting something go up your shoulders. 989 01:04:10.240 --> 01:04:17.280 So your body even feels it that your breath and your body feels it. And I also thought about the 990 01:04:17.280 --> 01:04:25.440 thing with letting my mom allowing her to be the way she is. And just the other things. Yeah. 991 01:04:26.960 --> 01:04:29.360 Yeah. And it felt good to 992 01:04:32.400 --> 01:04:38.320 Yeah, it just felt good to go through it and to have someone be a witness of it. 993 01:04:38.960 --> 01:04:46.000 Hmm. Yeah, great. I'm so excited for you. It was wonderful. Like I said, I was like, 994 01:04:46.720 --> 01:04:53.600 she's doing it Lauren. It's real, you know, and I was it always, I was, as you can tell, 995 01:04:53.600 --> 01:04:59.920 I always get tickled pink, when people are truly connecting with the Holy Spirit and speaking 996 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.320 out that as opposed to, Oh, I'm going to try to get this right. 997 01:05:05.120 --> 01:05:09.120 You know, I could tell from what you were saying and the spirit in which you were saying it, I'm 998 01:05:09.120 --> 01:05:17.280 like, okay, she really is being, letting herself be guided by the Holy spirit and just trusting 999 01:05:17.280 --> 01:05:25.120 that she hears him. And that whatever he says is what is needed for the thing to actually happen. 1000 01:05:25.120 --> 01:05:29.200 Cause that's what we want to do. We want to, well, I want this thing to happen. And you were 1001 01:05:29.200 --> 01:05:34.560 entrusting that you didn't have to memorize the formula or know exactly what to do or make sure 1002 01:05:34.560 --> 01:05:39.360 you not forget something, but they're just like, well, what does he say? Yeah. You know, and to 1003 01:05:39.360 --> 01:05:44.400 just, and so that's why I was, you know, commending you at the beginning of, um, about, you know, 1004 01:05:44.400 --> 01:05:51.600 before we ever prayed about the fact that you are so sensitive, you, you, um, to the spirit that you, 1005 01:05:52.320 --> 01:06:00.800 um, that you sense what, um, uh, you know, you sense what it is that he's saying and you 1006 01:06:00.800 --> 01:06:08.720 submit yourself to that. And, and so many people don't do that or, and because they, 1007 01:06:09.360 --> 01:06:17.280 they either don't trust it or the, the big thing, especially with people that are attracted to the 1008 01:06:17.280 --> 01:06:22.800 rest intensive, they don't trust themselves. They don't think, oh, you know, I think that 1009 01:06:22.800 --> 01:06:27.120 that's probably just me. That's not the spirit or whatever. Anyway. So greatly convinced you for 1010 01:06:27.120 --> 01:06:33.840 that. So you have a very strong, um, uh, uh, I don't know, just that I just felt that the, 1011 01:06:33.840 --> 01:06:36.400 the Lord's, that was one of the things I was feeling when you were praying 1012 01:06:37.120 --> 01:06:43.920 and the Lord's great pleasure in you. Um, and what it is that you have, how you've chosen to 1013 01:06:43.920 --> 01:06:51.120 submit yourself, um, to him and make yourself available to him and whatever. Um, and so the 1014 01:06:51.120 --> 01:06:59.200 last thing I just, I want to say and encourage you in is life does not have to be this hard. 1015 01:07:01.200 --> 01:07:06.800 Life does not have. Yeah. Life does not have to be as hard as you've lived it. And as hard 1016 01:07:06.800 --> 01:07:13.920 as you thought it had to be, as much as you thought that was required of you. Um, and the, 1017 01:07:13.920 --> 01:07:22.560 one of the ways you can know that is watch other people's lives that aren't being so hard and 1018 01:07:22.560 --> 01:07:31.120 vigilant as you, and then watch how much they enjoy life and how you can feel God's pleasure 1019 01:07:32.080 --> 01:07:39.120 even though they're not doing as much or working as hard as you. So know that that is your heart 1020 01:07:39.120 --> 01:07:46.240 and there's your spirit and that you can effortlessly please the Lord and obey him 1021 01:07:46.240 --> 01:07:51.360 without life being so hard to do. I just want to encourage you. That was just something that 1022 01:07:51.360 --> 01:07:59.200 came to mind. Thank you. And you can ask the Lord what that means and therefore how to live life, 1023 01:07:59.200 --> 01:08:05.600 you know, because it all sounds good, but how, how to, how do you do it differently than the way 1024 01:08:05.600 --> 01:08:12.160 that you've been doing it? You know, that these are questions, you know, that I not just have, 1025 01:08:12.160 --> 01:08:20.240 but still ask the Lord, you know, because I, I help people as much as I have moved into, um, 1026 01:08:20.240 --> 01:08:24.560 rest, but then there are areas that I haven't moved into rest in, you know? And so it just 1027 01:08:24.560 --> 01:08:34.479 always ask the Lord, okay, Lord, how do I, um, uh, how do, um, you intended life to be easier 1028 01:08:34.479 --> 01:08:42.000 than I'm allowing it to be. So show me how to live it different, you know, through my life. 1029 01:08:44.160 --> 01:08:50.800 Will it affect a lot of relationship and your work and a lot of like, does it, does it becomes, um, 1030 01:08:51.439 --> 01:08:56.080 the cosmic is out of balance before it becomes into balance. Like we talked about in the beginning. 1031 01:08:56.720 --> 01:09:04.319 Oh yeah. Yeah. Remember it's the whole thing of everything that is that you, that is in 1032 01:09:04.319 --> 01:09:13.520 disalignment or unalignment with the Lord is going to become evident when you become more 1033 01:09:13.520 --> 01:09:19.359 aligned with him. And so now there's, there's, uh, there's an alignment between you and everything 1034 01:09:19.359 --> 01:09:23.600 else. Now that there's alignment between you and God, there's an alignment between 1035 01:09:23.600 --> 01:09:29.040 you and everything else. So you're calling on them, meaning like other people's souls 1036 01:09:29.040 --> 01:09:34.640 or creation or trees or flowers or whatever it is, or environment or situations. You're calling 1037 01:09:34.640 --> 01:09:39.359 it now to giving it an opportunity. You're presenting a son of God to it. So it has the 1038 01:09:39.359 --> 01:09:47.040 opportunity to come into alignment, to respond to the spirit of God within you. Um, and cause you 1039 01:09:47.040 --> 01:09:55.840 know, Christ lives within us. And anyway, so until that, see it in certain ways, it's easier 1040 01:09:57.120 --> 01:09:59.840 if creation is not in alignment. 1041 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:04.320 and you're not in alignment with God, but you're in alignment with creation and y'all are all kind 1042 01:10:04.320 --> 01:10:10.000 of like believing the same thing. Things look easier because y'all are all in agreement. You're 1043 01:10:10.000 --> 01:10:13.600 all in alignment and God says, no, come out of agreement with that. Come into agreement with me, 1044 01:10:13.600 --> 01:10:18.400 but then it's still doing its other thing. But what you can do is because you're in alignment 1045 01:10:18.400 --> 01:10:23.040 with the Lord, that is gives creation the opportunity to come into alignment as well. 1046 01:10:23.040 --> 01:10:29.600 That's the overcoming. It's the overcoming of the flesh, the overcoming of the lies that you, 1047 01:10:29.680 --> 01:10:35.360 your soul, your body, other people, flowers, trees, or whatever have been believing lies that it's 1048 01:10:35.360 --> 01:10:40.960 been believing about God. You're now presenting a different truth than what you've been presenting 1049 01:10:40.960 --> 01:10:45.360 previously in your life. You're now presenting, you know, God actually is as loving as necessity 1050 01:10:45.360 --> 01:10:49.440 as he is as good as he says he is, et cetera. And it has the opportunity to choose how it 1051 01:10:49.440 --> 01:10:57.840 wants to respond. The majority of creation will respond favorably, but it will be hard until it 1052 01:10:57.840 --> 01:11:07.920 does. And I think I told you this. I think I told it to the group at one point that I started seeing 1053 01:11:07.920 --> 01:11:17.360 all of this when sometime when I was working and I kept telling the Lord, Lord, something feels 1054 01:11:18.400 --> 01:11:26.320 wrong. Or is something wrong with me Lord? Because every situation that I get, I was noticing this 1055 01:11:26.320 --> 01:11:34.800 in business, every situation that I get, that I get put into, like say for instance, I get put on 1056 01:11:34.800 --> 01:11:41.760 a project or whatever. It all goes to hell in a hand basket really fast. As soon as I'm added 1057 01:11:41.760 --> 01:11:49.920 to the project, Lord, am I carrying something spiritually negative around? You know, is, 1058 01:11:49.920 --> 01:11:58.560 is this something that am I causing so much upheaval and that all of these bad things start 1059 01:11:58.560 --> 01:12:03.120 happening as soon as I start to be added to projects? Because I said, I said it eventually, 1060 01:12:03.120 --> 01:12:10.720 Lord, eventually everything works out great. Eventually, you know, everything comes, I didn't 1061 01:12:10.720 --> 01:12:14.080 know this word at the time, but everything eventually comes into alignment. Everything 1062 01:12:14.080 --> 01:12:20.480 eventually becomes healthier than it was before. The problem gets fixed and meaning like not just 1063 01:12:20.480 --> 01:12:25.040 the problem that was created, but like the problem that I was hired for, it gets fixed and other 1064 01:12:25.040 --> 01:12:30.080 people couldn't fix it. And you know, the impossible has happened now and this is all wonderful and 1065 01:12:30.080 --> 01:12:34.080 everybody thinks I'm great. And now they want to put me on another project. And then that project 1066 01:12:34.080 --> 01:12:39.760 goes to hell in a hand basket as soon as I arrive. And you know, it's like, Lord, am I, is something 1067 01:12:39.760 --> 01:12:46.960 bad about me? And am I bringing in something negative, even though eventually Lord, you used 1068 01:12:46.960 --> 01:12:52.800 me to help fix it and it's all good. And it's so much better than it ever was before I joined, 1069 01:12:53.840 --> 01:12:59.760 but, and I helped fix the, and you helped me, you know, help fix the problem. I go through all of 1070 01:12:59.760 --> 01:13:04.160 this difficulty and the project goes through all this difficulty and all the people go through all 1071 01:13:04.160 --> 01:13:10.720 this difficulty until we get there. So, you know, is there something negative? And, and he showed me 1072 01:13:10.720 --> 01:13:16.960 that no, actually that stuff was already there. The thing is that's why things weren't working. 1073 01:13:17.520 --> 01:13:22.320 So when you come in, you're bringing in the authority of the kingdom of God. And so now all 1074 01:13:22.320 --> 01:13:28.320 of this sudden, every, all of the mess and the chaos that was already there, all of a sudden 1075 01:13:28.320 --> 01:13:35.760 becomes highlighted. It's like your presence bringing in the presence of God triggers all 1076 01:13:35.760 --> 01:13:41.520 of the ugliness to come to light, you know, the situation or the people or the unhealthy dynamics 1077 01:13:41.520 --> 01:13:50.160 or whatever. And, but actually, because you continue to hold me as the standard and, and 1078 01:13:50.960 --> 01:13:56.960 continue to bring in my, the, the, my authority, then everything eventually has the opportunity. 1079 01:13:56.960 --> 01:14:00.160 It all has the opportunity of how it's to choose how it's going to respond. 1080 01:14:00.880 --> 01:14:08.640 And the majority of it ends up usually responding and coming into alignment and fixing. And then 1081 01:14:08.640 --> 01:14:14.880 that which is refuses to stay in alignment, you know, it, it goes away and, and whatever. And 1082 01:14:14.880 --> 01:14:20.560 eventually all of this stuff gets, gets fixed. So he was just showing me, actually, no, it was always 1083 01:14:20.560 --> 01:14:26.560 there. He said, that's why I needed you. I needed you to bring in my presence and the authority of 1084 01:14:26.560 --> 01:14:33.520 the kingdom of God so that it has the kingdom of God to choose to respond to, is it going to come 1085 01:14:33.520 --> 01:14:40.160 into alignment or is it going to refuse? And just as a total side note, some things that don't, 1086 01:14:40.160 --> 01:14:47.360 if the whole thing refuses to come into alignment, then God will, will do, will remove you. 1087 01:14:48.560 --> 01:14:53.600 Yeah, because I have experienced this, but I also have experienced, no, not the same thing as you, 1088 01:14:53.600 --> 01:14:59.840 obviously, but something that's same idea, but I've also felt sometimes that you. 1089 01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:05.920 come out to things and it doesn't work out but it doesn't mean that you gave it opportunity to 1090 01:15:05.920 --> 01:15:12.720 come into alignment and it chose not to. Correct. So it doesn't mean necessarily that you brought in 1091 01:15:12.720 --> 01:15:20.880 something bad. No, it means it was there and it's responding to the Christ within you 1092 01:15:20.880 --> 01:15:27.280 and if it is not in alignment to the Christ within you it's going to act out, 1093 01:15:28.240 --> 01:15:37.200 it's going to act even worse because it can't because light is being shown on the darkness 1094 01:15:37.760 --> 01:15:44.080 and therefore it can't hide anymore is my point and so therefore it becomes very obvious to 1095 01:15:44.080 --> 01:15:51.280 everybody. So anyway just I don't know why we've got to start talking about that but there you go 1096 01:15:51.280 --> 01:15:54.080 and oh because we were talking about the unalignment you were talking about does 1097 01:15:54.080 --> 01:15:58.960 everything sometimes seem worse before it gets better. Yeah because everything that you used to 1098 01:15:58.960 --> 01:16:02.880 that was familiar and that you used to be in alignment with you're no longer in alignment 1099 01:16:02.880 --> 01:16:09.600 with it. You're now in alignment with the Lord and so but that is how we release and free creation 1100 01:16:09.600 --> 01:16:18.880 from frustration. We have to come into alignment with the Lord and that and then creation 1101 01:16:18.880 --> 01:16:25.120 and then presenting ourselves as a son of God now gives creation the opportunity to receive that 1102 01:16:25.120 --> 01:16:32.480 same freedom from us through it's Christ's freedom through us because you know but 1103 01:16:33.040 --> 01:16:39.360 until it chooses that it's not in alignment and so it's going to look ugly. So it has the 1104 01:16:39.360 --> 01:16:45.360 opportunity to come into alignment or not. It gets to make its own choice and sometimes it 1105 01:16:45.360 --> 01:16:51.760 chooses not to. It usually does but sometimes it doesn't and then remember what Jesus did to the 1106 01:16:51.760 --> 01:16:58.800 fig tree when it didn't feed him. It says you didn't feed a son of God and so I'm going to curse you. 1107 01:16:59.840 --> 01:17:05.520 So it so in other words it he said you know you have to always come into alignment with the son 1108 01:17:05.520 --> 01:17:10.960 of God with a son of God. In other words the the spirit of God himself you know that's within you 1109 01:17:11.600 --> 01:17:18.320 and if it doesn't well there's consequences and so anyway like I said and just like he sent the 1110 01:17:18.320 --> 01:17:24.240 disciples out. He sent the disciples to the to the villages and he said you know someone receives you 1111 01:17:24.240 --> 01:17:30.320 he said you know be received into their house and allow your spirit and your peace to stay 1112 01:17:30.320 --> 01:17:36.560 and all that because you've been received but if a town refuses to receive you he said leave 1113 01:17:36.560 --> 01:17:44.320 and shake the dust of it off your feet and so because they were presented with the spirit 1114 01:17:44.960 --> 01:17:53.120 of God and they said no. So don't allow your peace to stay. He said you know take your 1115 01:17:53.120 --> 01:17:59.360 peace back to you it says. Shake the dust off your feet and leave and so anyway you just kind 1116 01:17:59.360 --> 01:18:05.760 of have to but that's what he told the disciples to do. So the thing is that he's always talking 1117 01:18:05.760 --> 01:18:11.120 about give everyone a chance. Give everything a chance. If the Lord is telling you I don't mean 1118 01:18:11.120 --> 01:18:15.680 like it's good to go into all the bad places and all that. You have to go according to the 1119 01:18:15.680 --> 01:18:21.600 Lord's direction but my point is anything that he calls you to whether or not he's calling you 1120 01:18:21.600 --> 01:18:26.960 God is sending an angel or he's sending other people or he's he's giving everyone an opportunity 1121 01:18:26.960 --> 01:18:34.320 and he's giving all of creation eventually an opportunity to choose them and so he's he's 1122 01:18:34.320 --> 01:18:37.120 like I said he's giving everyone a chance everyone an opportunity. So 1123 01:18:38.880 --> 01:18:41.440 but yeah and then they get to decide what they want to do. 1124 01:18:45.040 --> 01:18:52.880 Okay well it was good to get to know you. Thank you. You're welcome. You are welcome and I'm 1125 01:18:52.880 --> 01:18:59.280 very much looking forward to hearing how how things go. You know how you feel you know and 1126 01:18:59.280 --> 01:19:07.520 respond and all that. So yes I'm excited to see. All right good to see you later. Bye.