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Can you see me?

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Hey, I can now.

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How are you?

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Good.

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How are you?

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Doing good.

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I'm very proud.

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I finally figured out how you do your blurry background.

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Now I'm not using that when I'm using a different blur background.

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But anyway, I finally figured out how to do it.

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I was like, I've always wondered how they do that.

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It looks so cool and professional.

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You're just choosing a virtual one?

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No, I am doing one through my Mac.

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Instead of through Zoom.

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And what it does is because I'm using my phone as my camera,

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then it lets me set,

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do different settings that Zoom doesn't.

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And anyway, so I'm using, I'm using Mac.

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Anyway, yeah.

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Lindsay's husband taught me how to do it.

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It was like, it felt very, very cool.

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So how are you?

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I'm good.

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Good.

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I would like, you don't seem good.

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No, I'm very,

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I've been anxious all week and haven't slept really.

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I don't understand.

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Yeah.

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Sorry.

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I have a time.

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Hard time falling asleep.

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And then I wake up.

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Like two hours later and I just.

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Not sleeping the rest of the time.

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Well, how have things been with them?

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With like a.

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You know,

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Making specific.

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Figuring out how to word this, but like.

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What, what is, or things like between you and the Lord right now?

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Like kind of interaction.

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Yeah.

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It was good a couple of days ago.

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And then it just.

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Hasn't been.

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I guess.

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In what way, what would make you say that?

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You know, I do though.

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You know, he loves me. He's here.

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And I'd be very.

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You know, be a lot.

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Be intentional at work, trying to be mindful. And I could, you know,

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I'm just like, grateful. I'm like, Oh, like.

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You know,

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I am taking it as like gifts of supernatural.

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Like different things that have been, you know,

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I've been able to accomplish at work.

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But then just the last few days is just like mistakes and

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embarrassment and yeah.

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Other stuff. So.

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You know, I tried to do the whole thing is like.

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No shame in no condemnation. Like I'm still loved.

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I'm still loved.

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I'm still loved.

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And then when I go to sleep, I'm starting to relax.

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And then just something.

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Then I noticed.

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I'm like, why is my thought back to work?

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Or why is my thought back to.

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Yeah, it's usually work.

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And something, and it was just weird. And I was like, okay,

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I guess this is just an exercise I'm going through.

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As soon as I find.

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And that I'm relaxing.

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I fell asleep and then it.

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That those thoughts of work woke me up or what?

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So.

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So the, an important thing that I did that changed things.

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You know, that, that kind of.

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On which everything seemed to hinge.

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Was.

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I would say.

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That rather that I would choose that.

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I would choose God as more valuable to me

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over my work.

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Over my avoiding mistakes.

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Over my doing a good job.

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I would choose him over living well.

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You know,

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living well into the category of what the world would term it as,

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but I would choose God first.

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And then what happened to me?

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Because I chose God first.

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Because God was most important to me.

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And that made a big difference because the thing is that then loosens

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the hold and the.

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It's almost like the, are, are.

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Are being controlled.

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a situation or whatever it is we're giving power to a situation or a project or your job or your

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boss or you know whatever it is um you know it could be like your kids or a situation with your

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kids or whatever you know choosing God over those things turning out well will enable you will shift

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you into into operating from the position of being in Christ so that you interact with those

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situations including your own like mistakes including not meeting your own qualifications

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not meeting your own performance standards or the performance standards

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oh that just yeah yeah thank you or the performance standards of your boss or what

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you feel that you owe your boss or whatever if you choose God who he is and who he said

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where he places excuse me where he places your value you know like what he declares your value

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to be as an individual to him sorry that's kind of like falling down isn't it um then uh then

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you'll be coming at you'll approach this you'll you'll neutralize the power of the situation

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because what you're doing is you're not only removing it uh you're not only letting it not

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control you but you're bringing in the power of the kingdom of God and the authority of the

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kingdom of God into that situation and the principles by which the kingdom work are

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different than the kingdom of this world so all of a sudden everything that should be operating

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according to the kingdom of the world starts operating according to the kingdom of heaven

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which is very weird because it's like well wait a minute that doesn't normally happen in the world

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you know such and such just happened that doesn't normally happen or such and such just fixed itself

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or it didn't bother my my boss that i made a mistake you know and they told me if i made

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one more mistake well then that would happen and it just did and they didn't and because

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because you're bringing you can only bring in the authority of the kingdom

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if you choose it over the over the world and but you can't do that if the world is more important

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than the kingdom or the world is more important to you than God so you have to choose it so my

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point is that it's it's it does two things not only does it it remove its control and basically

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cut its control over you the situation the threat the feeling you know whatever but also it so it's

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not that it just neutralizes the attack and the battle but it shifts you into a position of power

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to affect and bring life into the situation in other words to bring the kingdom the way we bring

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the fact that the principles of the kingdom of God were very different than the principles of

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kingdom of this world and then it can it can put it can cause things to change now does everything

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always work out the way that we want to know you know have i have i been through difficult

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situations at work and a lot required of me and then um and then it ended up that you know and i

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was just did my best between me and the lord and then uh did they uh you know one of the owners

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contact me and say hey ashley by the way i hear from the other owner that you're causing problems

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that you're not being a i don't remember that was such a long time ago i don't remember what he said

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but you're not you're not holding up your end of the bargain or you're not being a team player or

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you're not getting your work done or whatever it is that he said and uh and then he said so actually

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we need to we need he said you you can leave or you know if you if you need work if you need a job

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if you need money we'll let you have this very low level position if you would like would you

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like that i mean you know so does that happen absolutely did they think that i was in the wrong

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for a year until that other guy did what did to them what he'd done to me absolutely

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was was my derived reputation suffer as a result absolutely so it's not that everything

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you know turns out wonderful in fact the fact that god restored my relationship

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and my not my relationship because that my relationship with those some of those people

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never was severed but that god restored my reputation was something that surprised

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even me because he doesn't always do that he doesn't always fix things in a way that

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we see he always makes sure that vengeance is

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his and that, you know, and that he and that he brings about justice for wrongdoing and all that,

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but we don't always get to know. So often, you know, we feel like we're experiencing being

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attacked for something that we didn't do. And we never got our say. We never, you know,

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we're treated justly or whatever. So my point is, I am telling you in light of the fact that is this

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a possibility that things can go as south as you're afraid that they are, that they could,

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you know, when you're worried about making mistakes, absolutely. But you choose God over it.

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You choose God over the potential of what can happen. Because why? Because why are we worried

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about what can happen? We think, well, I'm going to be in lack. I'm going to be lack of disconnect,

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lack of connection or lack of money, lack of a job, lack of reputation, lack of, you know,

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whatever it is, a lack of comfort. Now I'm going to have to go find a job or whatever. And I'm

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telling you worst case scenario here, we're going in our minds to like the worst of the worst here.

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Right. Cause I really want to face like the power of what God says and what it can face as opposed

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to making this about something. Well, you know, you're just worried that you're going to get like

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a, that I don't know, you're going to get a sit down and kind of get your hands laughed or,

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or, you know, your boss is going to talk to you or, or call out your mistake in front of a whole

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meeting, you know, whatever we're talking about. Okay. Let's make it even worse than that, you

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know? And, and so do some of the times those things happen? Absolutely. But God's just like,

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you know what? I want you to choose me over it. And, um, and so, cause what it is you're choosing

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is not simply to live life and the way that you've been living it, just, just feeling better about it

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and having God fix everything. Cause that he won't, he won't do that. The, I mean, he,

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he fixes things, but the thing is that we won't, it's not about avoiding pain. It's not about

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avoiding difficult circumstances. It's about going through these same situations that we've

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been going through only this time, since we're doing it in rest, we now change the situation

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instead of what we've been doing, because when we go through chaos in chaos, it keeps the process,

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the cycle repetitive in our life because we didn't go through it in rest. So we in going

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through in chaos, it keeps going. So when you go through it and rest, it breaks the cycle.

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So anyway, it's, it's important to, um, uh, so anyway, that's what it is that we're doing is

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we're choosing a lifestyle, not a lifestyle here on earth. I mean, like a lifestyle of like,

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Lord, how do I experience live with, interact with, and relate with you before I came onto

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earth while I'm on the earth, after I'm on the earth, you and me, Lord, that's the highest

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priority. This just happens to be an environment in a particular realm in which I'm doing it for

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a certain number of years. And there we go. You know, so we, we, we choose, God wants us to choose

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him as the most important. And when we do that, that overcomes all of the, all of the, it, it,

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it helps to overcome all of the frustration that creation is operating in, in which there's so much

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chaos that you have to live through because, because, uh, I don't know the, the lies that

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humans have believed in their souls and have expressed a creation. So creation is all afraid

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and it's frustrated. And there's all of these other people and all these other souls that are

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in your job. They're all, you know, creating, creating issues. All that chaos is created because

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we're, haven't been living out and expressing and showing it what, you know, who it is that God

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really is. And the only way they can see it is if we choose that it's true with when it doesn't even

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exist yet, meaning like it exists in spirit, but it doesn't exist on earth yet. We have to bring it.

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So we have to bring it without proof in complete faith, you know, or whatever.

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Um, so in all, so all of this is really, is really, really challenging. And I I've lived through,

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I mean, I don't know every aspect of your circumstance, but I've lived through a lot of

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pressure on my positions and a lot, I mean, a lot, I mean, like I reported to the CEOs, this right-hand

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person. And so when we would go into companies that were looking to us literally to save them

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and all their employees, then anything that, that I said to them, the, the, the, my, my CEO would

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tell them, Hey, look, anything that Ashley says, take it as if it came from me, I had that kind of

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like pressure. And I, you know, in which I had to choose God over me performing well over me,

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whatever I had to always choose God. I'm going.

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going to, I'm going to follow you, not, not, how would you

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phrase that? I was going to say like, not like do a good job.

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That's not what I mean. But I'm going to choose to obey you Lord

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over trying to do my job according to the standards that

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everyone else is telling me I should do it. Like, well,

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actually, you're only good if you put in, if you do all of

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these projects that I've put on your plate. And that requires

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80 hours of work, or even 60 hours of work. And then Ashley,

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you know, that's, that's what's required. And, and, you know,

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and, and, you know, aren't you a Christian? And don't you? Aren't

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you a team player? And aren't you and I'm just using, you

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know, volume of work as an example, but sometimes it was

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the type of things I have been asked to lie. And I said, No,

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you know, no, I'm not going to do that. And, and then I don't,

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I don't remember the other things that have been asked of

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me. I've had to choose, I always chose my subordinates over my

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boss. I chose to protect my subordinates over protecting

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myself. And I chose to protect my subordinates over policing my

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boss. So I mean, things like that, that are very, like,

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serious. Why? Because I was choosing God, I was one of the

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youngest people at every single job that I've ever been in, I

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was always one of the youngest people. And I was usually over

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most of them. And so a lot of times, that really doesn't have

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a whole lot of respect, etc. And the thing is, I didn't have I'm

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young, I was young men, you know, there was only so much

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experience that I had. So normally, you would look to

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other people, okay, well, what are other people doing? How

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are other people handling their jobs, the demand of their

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projects, the demands from their bosses, the demands of, in

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order to get all of this stuff done, you know, well, then, you

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know, I have to put in 60 to 80 hours or whatever, you know, how

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do other other Christian people in business handle it? I hear

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how the business people handle it. Okay, there's that. But what

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about the Christian business people? And I wasn't hearing in

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any anything that any of them was saying, or how any of them

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live life. I was not seeing a life of the Spirit of God

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operating in them in a way that I felt was true. I would watch

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it. And I'm like, okay, well, they're tacking God onto what

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they're doing. But it doesn't feel right. So I just said,

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Okay, God, this doesn't feel right. I don't know why all

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these people are supposedly more experienced than me. What on

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earth do I know? So where on earth am I supposed to get

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guidance? Lord, what do I do? How do I handle situations like

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this with all of these demands? And what helped me is that I

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chose God. Okay, God, what do you say to do? What do you tell

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me to do in this situation? You know, what do I do? What do I

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not to and I would just I would just obey, you know, just very

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blindly. Um, so anyway, that was a really big thing. And I don't

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know what it is with work right now, probably because everyone's

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just feels like immersed back in it after the rest intensive

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and after the after the the New Year starts or something. But I

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was talking to someone else about this and transformation

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session where they were talking about all of the demands of

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their work and how it was creating so much stress and

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anxiety. And one of the things that I was telling them was an

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advising event is creating and this may not be your type of

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situation, but just throwing it out there in case because I'm

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noticing like this little trend in my conversation. So I'm like,

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Okay, well, maybe this is like something so many people are

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going through. But I was talking to them about the fact that

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there's a way to communicate things where you have to own

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yourself first, own your value, who does God say that I am? What

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is my significance? I don't mean who does God say that I am?

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righteous. I don't mean that. Just who are you? Do you have

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value regardless of how God would describe you? Do you have

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weight? And how much weight do you have? How much significance?

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God? And what is that? What is the, the, this, the solidity,

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and, and the intimacy of that connection? Right? And so, and

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then just kind of settle yourself in that because

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remember, that is shifting back into rest, you can use those

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other tools to get there and all that. But you know, that

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shifting back into rest, that's, oh, that's who I am. Because

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remember that, that shifting into rest is simply as easy as

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I say, it's easy, meaning as

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bolt as who does God say he is to the degree he says he is that, and who does he say that

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I am to the degree that I am that, you know, in other words, you know, what, what do I

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And we, and then that needs to be our, our, our, um, kind of like the point that we always

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come back to.

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And we don't need, and that will calm us down without, and will bring us to rest without

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us even having to have the answers that made us anxious in the first place.

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Well, what do I do?

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Well, what about this?

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And well, yeah, but didn't you say God?

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So what about now?

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And just, it kind of like removes the, the worry and the concern from all the questions.

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Anyway, you shift back into that place and you have to own who you are, who are you between

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you and the Lord?

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Do you remember that you were the thing that God has most entrusted you with?

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He's entrusted you with you more heavily than your children, then obviously your boss

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and your friends and all of that.

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He's entrusted you with you more than he's entrusted you with anything else.

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You are your first priority in God's eyes.

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So you have to see who you have to choose that you really are, who the, as valuable

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as God has, you know, tells you in your spirit, maybe not in words, but just in that sense

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that you get, if you shift back into him, you just feel the weight and the significance.

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And then there's a measure in which you just choose by faith that it's true.

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And you own yourself again, like I am responsible for me.

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I am significant.

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God has entrusted me with myself.

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I have to Lord over myself.

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My spirit Lord's over it and it has, it is responsible to protect and to provide for

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and to cover, you know, my soul and my body.

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This is my first priority.

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So, and, and I'm not under any threat, you know, Boston say whatever the dog can do,

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whatever I can be without however much sleep, whatever I'm under no threat, I'm in God's

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hands.

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So now that you can't get anything that you don't already have, nothing holds any, um,

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nothing holds any like, uh, Oh man, what's that word I was going to say like any bribe

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over you.

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It, you can't be bribed.

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You can't be, uh, you can't be threatened.

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You know, it doesn't have anything that you want and are willing to sacrifice the, everything

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that you have for the nothing that it's offering, you know, you already have everything.

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So from that place now, what do you do?

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So again, from that place, well then, um, you know, when you think about like, we'll

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use the term boundaries in your job, like, okay, so how do I be responsible in my job?

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And with what I've been given, what have I agreed to?

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You know, when I first signed onto this job, I agreed to give them a certain amount of

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my labor for a certain amount of money.

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They can demand all they want for more, but if they're not willing to, to, they can demand

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more of my labor, but I'm not required to give more of my labor.

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If what I negotiated was this amount of labor for this amount of money, and if they're requiring

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me to give more, but they're not willing to give more, well then, you know, then, you

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know, we're, we're, we've, um, uh, then we've, you know, this is past the negotiation that

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we agreed to, you know, that, uh, at the beginning.

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So, you know, so you just think, no, I don't mean that, that you have to be real strict

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I mean, it's just kind of kind of, you know, you got your standard, you got what you agreed

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to, and then y'all kind of do this.

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And then sometimes they don't need as much from you, but they still pay as much.

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And then other times they need a little more from you, but they don't pay you anymore.

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So you just kind of do that, you know, all that's normal, you know, it's just being part

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of being a good worker, part of being, um, you know, um, being there and serving other

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people in the way that God serves us kind of a thing.

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But when they're doing this and they're in there and, and you get to feel that your life

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is being owned by something outside of your choice, and that's, you know, that's an issue.

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So as far as like how to handle situations like that, what I, what I found very helpful

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is to always affirm what my boss said.

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Like if my boss said that they needed to do, they needed me to do something well, you know,

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and a decision's being made, that's going to now put more on my plate.

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I always put it back on my boss.

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So here, so here's the thing.

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I always put it back on my boss to be responsible, to solve my problem.

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That's what a boss is there for a boss is there to solve your problems.

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You're not there to solve the boss's problems.

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That's the way that it works.

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Now do it.

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Does everybody agree with that and see it that way?

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But that's the way that it is.

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And me as an employee.

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I got the my head on straight and operated from that, even though my leaders didn't see that.

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And then it forced my leaders to enter if they wanted to keep me to interact with me in that new way.

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But here's how I did it. I did it by by by always affirming what they said.

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So say, for instance, they say, oh, you need to do this new project. You need to expand all this.

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You got to get all this done, whatever they put all of this, all of this stuff on you of of like, hey, all of this needs to get done.

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OK, well, that's great. But that's their decision and their choice and their authority to get to decide what's done.

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And you, as the quote unquote worker, be even though you're not that low on the totem pole.

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I just mean, you know, you getting the step done like, OK, all right.

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Well, that's my job. My job is to get it done. So the thing is that it's their job to prioritize it.

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So if I can't get it all done, I always push it back on them.

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OK, so you had given me this priority, but now it's kind of like, you know, this new priority has come up.

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And so since I can't since both of since there's not enough since the hours, you know, that you've wanted from me are are not enough for both of these.

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Which one would you like me to do? And then would you like me to delay the deadline for this so that you want me to take this?

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Or, you know, do you want me to do something else?

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So what I always what I always do is I would always affirm what it is that they said.

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I thought that it was what they were talking about was a good idea or I could. I was absolutely.

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Yes, sir. I will see how I can get that done. But I'm running into this issue of the priorities or the amount of time or the money.

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So here's the problem. What would you like me to do?

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And then so I put it I put the responsibility of solving the problem back on them.

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But then I follow it up with solutions that we could do this, sir, or I could do this.

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Or if you'd like, instead of doing this, I could do this for you or I could do this or I could whatever.

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So I'm coming, not complaining and not getting all of these problems and all these things that they have to solve, because that's going to come across as, no, I won't do it.

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So instead, it's like, OK, here's an issue. I'm very willing, very, you know, absolutely to be helpful.

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And here's some ways that I've come up with problem solving it. Which one would you like?

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And then it's their responsibility, not yours to get it done.

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And you shown that you were willing to help. So they don't hear no.

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They just hear you've got an issue and you're looking to them to take up the responsibility and authority to solve it for you.

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So anyway, that is something that has helped me. I was talking to the other another person on a transformation session.

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So I don't know. Just throw it out there and you may not even need it in your situation.

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But regardless of whether you need that specific example, the whole thing starts with you have to own yourself.

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And when you own yourself, you'll make decisions from a different place and therefore you'll make different decisions or you will at least make them from a place of a different motivation.

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You won't feel driven and pushed from behind because you own yourself.

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You decide what you want to do and how you want to do it.

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It's kind of like this. Apply it to work. But I'm going to use a personal example.

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Say, for instance, that you don't want to go to the grocery store. I mean, you're just like that just sounds awful.

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I've been working all day. I don't want to. I don't want to go to a grocery store and you've got no food.

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You get no food in the pantry. So do you. And what we can do is we can just sit there and think, oh, my word.

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Woe is me. Why do I have to go to the grocery store? Why is the situation like this?

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That victimhood. It's like, why is this happening to me? Nothing's happening to you.

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You don't have to go to your store. You know, no one's making you.

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No one's literally whipping you down the street, making you go to the grocery store. You have a choice.

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So. So the thing is, you decide how do I want to live my life? What do I want for me?

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I don't have to eat tonight. What do I choose? Do I choose to not eat?

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You know, I could I can make that into something interesting. I could fast, you know, whatever.

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Or, you know, I could, I don't know, go call a friend and then and then, like, make it fun and interesting because we go out to eat or or, you know, whatever.

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Or you decide, you know, I just don't want to. I would rather not eat than make all of the effort to go to the grocery store.

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You're choosing how you what how you want to basically paint your life on a canvas.

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You got a blank canvas. You get it. You got paint. What do you want to do with it?

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So you get to choose. It's not happening to you. Nothing's being forced on you.

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You are choosing. And so it's just simply looking at it from a different perspective.

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And so you choose. Well, what kind of.

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life do I want from it? Do I want to make and create positively of my life today? Is it going

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to the grocery store or is it not? You know, but you choose it for you. So you take hold and

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ownership of yourself and then make a decision from that place. So now when you go to the grocery

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store, like say for instance, in both situations, you go to the grocery store, but one, you did it

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out of motivated by victimhood. And then, you know, why is this happening to me? And then the

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other is because she chose to. So either way you still happen in those two examples, you still

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went to the grocery store, but one is more empowering. One is you creating your life.

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And the other one is thinking everything's happening to you. Right. And so it's the same

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thing, you know, with work. So if you have things that come to, if you're on your plate that you

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don't want to do, or maybe even more than you want to do, you know, depending on what we're

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talking about or having to do it with certain people or certain things you think are unfair,

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certain things you think are busy work or certain things you think are double work,

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you know, whatever it is, you know, you just look at the situation and see if it's solvable

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and able to be talked to about with your boss or whoever's in charge and then do what you think

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that you need to. And then when the, and then when everything is said and done and everything

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that can be done is done, what do you choose to do? In other words, do you, how do you just

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decide to not get it done? Or do you decide, no, that's not the type of life that I want to create

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for me. This is the type of life I want to create for me. I'm going to do this and I want to do it.

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Well, you know, so, but you're doing it because you have value. You're doing it because you own

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you, you do it because you are a being that, that matters. So let that being make decisions

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and move forward, you know, in a positive way with the Lord to create something, you know,

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into, into reality, to bring more of the spirit, to bring more of the kingdom, to bring more of

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his power. And trust me, it is doing the little things in life that create, that create our life

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that change, that change our character, that, um, that strengthen us, that, um, that develop our,

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that to put that, that would, that develop our God's trust in us. It's by actually doing the

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things, how, what do we choose to do? And how do we choose to interact with the things that

433
00:32:39.360 --> 00:32:45.440
we're faced with the things that the situations that we find ourselves in, but it has to be,

434
00:32:45.440 --> 00:32:54.000
what do we choose in an active decision-making approach, as opposed to what am I being made to

435
00:32:54.000 --> 00:32:57.760
do? Is this something's happening to us? And I'm sorry, this keeps falling down,

436
00:32:58.480 --> 00:33:02.640
but anyway, maybe I could put it here. Oh, that may not be helpful.

437
00:33:05.120 --> 00:33:11.040
Sorry. Um, my husband's in the, in the, um, uh, living room. So I wanted to give him some space

438
00:33:11.040 --> 00:33:18.320
to kind of have his own little time while I was busy. So, um, anyway, is, uh, is any of that

439
00:33:18.320 --> 00:33:24.480
helpful or resonating at all? Yeah, definitely. Cause I felt like I was getting pushed and pulled

440
00:33:24.480 --> 00:33:32.960
and pushed and pulled. Yeah. I'm, I'm realizing what, yeah, I wasn't choosing, um, my value and,

441
00:33:34.560 --> 00:33:39.440
and I think you're giving me a different way to interact with God and not just,

442
00:33:40.720 --> 00:33:48.480
um, you know, not just like, Oh, he loves me. Um, but like, what are we going to do together?

443
00:33:48.480 --> 00:33:53.840
And what should I do? And, you know, and, and make that choice with him.

444
00:33:54.880 --> 00:33:59.840
Yes. I'm so, I'm so glad that you pointed that out. Exactly. That's what I was, I was hoping was

445
00:34:00.400 --> 00:34:06.960
changing your perspective of your interaction with the Lord. It's not just you, him over there,

446
00:34:08.800 --> 00:34:14.719
throwing you little things of love. And so you've, you were always in supply

447
00:34:15.679 --> 00:34:22.480
or, um, you know, uh, there was another example that I, I thought of to kind of like picture that,

448
00:34:22.480 --> 00:34:32.800
but it's, um, as if you and he are separated and while you're going through stuff, you're just

449
00:34:32.800 --> 00:34:38.000
wanting, you just need to make sure the only thing he's willing to offer you is support,

450
00:34:39.040 --> 00:34:43.600
you know? And that's not true. He's like, no, no, no, we're doing, we're living life together.

451
00:34:44.400 --> 00:34:51.280
And just like I create, when you unite yourself with me, the two of us create new things that

452
00:34:51.280 --> 00:34:58.320
have never existed before. And you get to be part of that. So it's more than just like, Oh, well,

453
00:34:58.320 --> 00:34:59.920
it's, it's got okay with me.

454
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:05.160
me. I need to remember he's okay with me. No, you're so one that

455
00:35:05.160 --> 00:35:09.120
you choose. You're never without him. You're never you're never

456
00:35:09.120 --> 00:35:12.440
like separated, but yet he's just still there. You know, he's

457
00:35:12.440 --> 00:35:15.680
still hanging out and he's still willing to be around you. No,

458
00:35:15.680 --> 00:35:19.480
it's that the two it's like when you get up in the morning, he

459
00:35:19.480 --> 00:35:23.800
gets up in you with you. You're just you're one you're giving

460
00:35:23.800 --> 00:35:27.800
him you and he are are integrated as one and you are

461
00:35:28.080 --> 00:35:32.440
he's living out a human experience through you. Your

462
00:35:32.440 --> 00:35:36.600
spirit united with him is allowing him through your human

463
00:35:36.600 --> 00:35:40.920
form to have a human experience. You know, he, you know, he had

464
00:35:40.920 --> 00:35:44.040
it obviously through Jesus, but, you know, because that obviously

465
00:35:44.040 --> 00:35:47.320
Jesus was God, but, you know, and the word was made flesh, but

466
00:35:47.320 --> 00:35:53.440
the word continues to be made flesh through us. You know, now

467
00:35:53.440 --> 00:35:56.600
I don't mean that we're, we're, we're not in the same vein as

468
00:35:56.600 --> 00:35:59.800
Jesus and the fact that we're like divine and we're human. I

469
00:35:59.800 --> 00:36:03.360
don't mean that. I just mean, we're just that one with him

470
00:36:03.840 --> 00:36:08.880
that, that he's, that he's like, okay, let's live and experience

471
00:36:08.880 --> 00:36:14.720
this together. And you partner with me in physically expressing

472
00:36:14.800 --> 00:36:18.440
our togetherness. So let's live life together. Let's do this

473
00:36:18.440 --> 00:36:21.880
together. What kind of a life do we want to have? What do we want

474
00:36:21.880 --> 00:36:25.920
to fill it with? How do we want to fill our time? How do we want

475
00:36:25.920 --> 00:36:30.120
to fill our thoughts? You know what do we want to focus on?

476
00:36:30.120 --> 00:36:33.880
What do we want to try to not, not achieve like we're trying to

477
00:36:33.880 --> 00:36:38.680
like, you know, check something off of a box, but, or meet some

478
00:36:38.680 --> 00:36:42.320
kind of a standard, but rather what kind of things do we want

479
00:36:42.320 --> 00:36:48.040
to have under our belt that we've done? What aspect of life

480
00:36:48.040 --> 00:36:52.320
do we want to have experienced? Remember, remember you like

481
00:36:52.320 --> 00:36:57.880
dancing, you know, that allows God to, it allows you in a

482
00:36:57.880 --> 00:37:02.520
physical form to express an aspect of God that's in the

483
00:37:02.520 --> 00:37:10.200
spirit. And that creates a particular type of life and

484
00:37:10.200 --> 00:37:15.080
color. It's almost like painting pink on a, on a canvas, you

485
00:37:15.080 --> 00:37:18.680
know, okay, well, she, she, she got up for breakfast. And so

486
00:37:18.680 --> 00:37:21.240
that puts the little yellow over here in the corner. And then

487
00:37:21.240 --> 00:37:23.560
she started dancing in the kitchen. Well, that put this

488
00:37:23.640 --> 00:37:27.440
pink streak. And then, you know, and then before you, you're

489
00:37:27.440 --> 00:37:32.360
actually, you doing stuff is actually creating something

490
00:37:32.360 --> 00:37:34.920
that if you could see it in a different form would look like,

491
00:37:34.960 --> 00:37:39.320
like a picture, or it would look like it or sound like a song or

492
00:37:39.320 --> 00:37:42.920
whatever. Those are just various ways to kind of like picture it

493
00:37:42.920 --> 00:37:46.800
or express it. But my point is that what you're doing is your

494
00:37:46.800 --> 00:37:49.520
you, the choices that you're making in your life, how you're

495
00:37:49.520 --> 00:37:54.000
spending your time, what you're focusing on your, your emotions,

496
00:37:54.000 --> 00:37:59.320
your, what's the word for that you're, I don't know, you're

497
00:37:59.360 --> 00:38:04.560
going to say your thoughts, but just your, your value, what it

498
00:38:04.560 --> 00:38:08.200
is that you, your, your interest, what you what you

499
00:38:08.200 --> 00:38:13.920
focus your internal ecosystem on your emotions, your mind, your

500
00:38:13.920 --> 00:38:18.160
spirit, your will, all of those things. Those things are all

501
00:38:18.440 --> 00:38:22.480
painting a canvas, they all have meaning. And they're all

502
00:38:22.480 --> 00:38:28.720
creating a unique life that you as Rita with God together, are,

503
00:38:29.600 --> 00:38:33.120
you know, I keep using this word, but are you are creating,

504
00:38:33.280 --> 00:38:36.400
you know, you're making something it matters, you're not

505
00:38:36.400 --> 00:38:39.280
just doing something going going through life going through this

506
00:38:39.280 --> 00:38:41.840
thing called life hitting all these milestones, okay, well, I

507
00:38:41.840 --> 00:38:44.600
learned this, I go to school, and then I go to college, and

508
00:38:44.600 --> 00:38:47.000
then I get a degree, and I have a job, and I do that.

509
00:38:47.880 --> 00:38:51.080
You're not just passing through life's milestones, because God's

510
00:38:51.080 --> 00:38:54.440
just like, Hey, by the way, I just put this big obstacle

511
00:38:54.440 --> 00:38:57.920
course out that everyone has to go through. And I hope everyone

512
00:38:57.920 --> 00:39:01.400
finds it fun. And there's just no point, you know, and I'll be

513
00:39:01.400 --> 00:39:04.680
over here, y'all yell, if you need anything, you know, because

514
00:39:04.680 --> 00:39:10.080
I know that it's an open field and God's like, okay, okay, you

515
00:39:10.080 --> 00:39:12.680
know, Ashley, you and me, we're gonna go do that. We're gonna

516
00:39:12.680 --> 00:39:15.920
start on this into the field. Okay, so Rita and me, okay,

517
00:39:15.920 --> 00:39:19.040
we're starting here. Okay, it's blank, what do we want to do?

518
00:39:20.520 --> 00:39:23.640
And that's what you're doing. So what do you want to do? It's

519
00:39:23.640 --> 00:39:25.880
what you're doing with your prod. It's what you do every day

520
00:39:25.880 --> 00:39:28.400
when you step into work, what are you going to create with the

521
00:39:28.400 --> 00:39:33.520
Lord, who that it the conversations that you have with

522
00:39:33.520 --> 00:39:37.040
your co workers, while you're pouring yourself, you know, your

523
00:39:37.040 --> 00:39:40.920
third cup of coffee matter. It doesn't mean that you have to

524
00:39:40.920 --> 00:39:43.280
stand there for five minutes, because Oh, my goodness, this

525
00:39:43.320 --> 00:39:46.400
could be a God given opportunity to witness. I don't mean

526
00:39:46.400 --> 00:39:50.800
anything like that. I just mean, they need to get to be in the

527
00:39:50.800 --> 00:39:57.920
presence of God. But you have to allow you have to be in operating

528
00:39:57.920 --> 00:40:00.040
with God, we don't have to God can do it.

529
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.100
Anyway, but, you know, you want to be operating with God and bringing,

530
00:40:04.100 --> 00:40:06.660
bringing God very intentionally into this situation.

531
00:40:06.660 --> 00:40:11.600
So you and God can very powerfully bring, you know, his spirit into the,

532
00:40:11.820 --> 00:40:13.500
into the moment, into the atmosphere.

533
00:40:13.780 --> 00:40:15.380
And you never know how it might affect them.

534
00:40:15.400 --> 00:40:18.700
Even if you never said a word, you just walked over, you poured yourself

535
00:40:18.700 --> 00:40:20.220
coffee and the atmosphere changed.

536
00:40:21.060 --> 00:40:26.040
And people who say that they see in the spirit say they see stuff like that

537
00:40:26.040 --> 00:40:32.020
happen, like they're the angels and, and like other spirit beings and

538
00:40:32.020 --> 00:40:34.180
whatever, they're always doing stuff.

539
00:40:34.200 --> 00:40:37.600
They're always like doing things that look like pouring oil or kind of

540
00:40:37.600 --> 00:40:41.380
flitting around between people or standing there while people are having

541
00:40:41.380 --> 00:40:45.400
interaction in the, those two people's inner angels are standing there, you

542
00:40:45.400 --> 00:40:47.080
know, focusing on the conversation.

543
00:40:47.440 --> 00:40:50.760
Or I was, I'm reading a book right now, or it says that one of the angels

544
00:40:50.760 --> 00:40:54.260
might be like massaging one of the other, one of their people that they're

545
00:40:54.260 --> 00:40:56.700
assigned to their shoulders, always trying to encourage them.

546
00:40:56.760 --> 00:41:01.320
It said, so this, this person's that, that I'm reading about, I'm reading

547
00:41:01.320 --> 00:41:03.800
about him describing his experiences.

548
00:41:03.800 --> 00:41:09.540
He said, he said, looking into a room of people and seeing all of the

549
00:41:09.540 --> 00:41:14.400
spiritual activity that's going on at the same time, he said, it's extremely

550
00:41:14.400 --> 00:41:15.160
complicated.

551
00:41:15.860 --> 00:41:20.660
So in other words, everything that you do, all of this stuff that feels dry

552
00:41:20.660 --> 00:41:25.880
and boring and frustrating in your, in your projects on my word, I am sitting

553
00:41:25.880 --> 00:41:31.120
down yet again, in my chair, I'm turning on my computer.

554
00:41:31.520 --> 00:41:31.800
Okay.

555
00:41:31.800 --> 00:41:32.680
Where did I leave off?

556
00:41:32.820 --> 00:41:33.260
Oh my word.

557
00:41:33.260 --> 00:41:35.120
I now have a hundred emails overnight.

558
00:41:35.400 --> 00:41:39.280
You know, I remember these days, you know, here's my coffee.

559
00:41:39.280 --> 00:41:43.720
Here's my, whatever you're it, the, it actually matters.

560
00:41:44.020 --> 00:41:48.780
Those are significant moments in which you are spiritually creating

561
00:41:48.780 --> 00:41:50.480
something into the physical realm.

562
00:41:51.080 --> 00:41:52.340
So what do you want to do?

563
00:41:52.900 --> 00:41:54.080
What do you want to create?

564
00:41:54.100 --> 00:42:00.860
How do you want to bring something that's contributing spiritually, you

565
00:42:00.860 --> 00:42:05.660
know, and, and into this, into this physical realm into each moment.

566
00:42:06.080 --> 00:42:10.100
And I don't mean that you, you need to be like, this is the heavy thing and you

567
00:42:10.100 --> 00:42:12.500
need to be intentional, always thinking about it.

568
00:42:12.860 --> 00:42:18.640
I'm trying to paint a picture of the significance of the dry moments in your

569
00:42:18.640 --> 00:42:24.180
life that feel that they just pile up and all my word, your boss walked

570
00:42:24.180 --> 00:42:26.920
in and now there's more, there's more.

571
00:42:26.920 --> 00:42:29.800
I have to do, there's more pressure.

572
00:42:29.800 --> 00:42:33.400
There's more, whatever it's, there's a lot more going on.

573
00:42:33.400 --> 00:42:35.760
That's significant than all of that.

574
00:42:36.040 --> 00:42:40.920
So if that's true, how does that change how you view all of these

575
00:42:40.920 --> 00:42:42.060
things that are on your plate?

576
00:42:43.060 --> 00:42:49.660
Do you know, should you, um, is it just like a season that God has you in where

577
00:42:49.660 --> 00:42:55.100
he's going to support you because it supports you with all of this heavy

578
00:42:55.140 --> 00:43:00.740
workload that you have, or, or is it that he, he says that, you know, when

579
00:43:00.740 --> 00:43:04.740
you kind of see the significance of your life, you're just kind of going, okay,

580
00:43:04.820 --> 00:43:12.540
okay, no, I think that there is a healthier way to approach my job that I,

581
00:43:13.260 --> 00:43:19.780
that I want to talk and discuss with my boss about from a healthy perspective

582
00:43:19.780 --> 00:43:22.060
of, Hey, I am willing to be helpful.

583
00:43:22.260 --> 00:43:24.900
I am whatever, you know, you're always talking about the positive,

584
00:43:25.140 --> 00:43:30.900
mentioning a problem and then presenting solutions and then they can choose

585
00:43:30.900 --> 00:43:33.860
between those solutions and it puts the ball in their court, you know, and it

586
00:43:33.860 --> 00:43:39.180
might be that, you know, or, or is God saying, you know, Hey, you know, this

587
00:43:39.180 --> 00:43:42.460
is not what, you know, it's not what I have for you.

588
00:43:42.460 --> 00:43:43.660
I want you to go somewhere else.

589
00:43:43.660 --> 00:43:51.340
You know, I don't know, but it all starts with you recognizing who you are

590
00:43:51.340 --> 00:43:58.820
in the significance of yourself being unified with God all the time, like all

591
00:43:58.820 --> 00:44:02.660
the time, and so everything that you and God are doing together, like when you

592
00:44:02.660 --> 00:44:07.020
walk down the hall for coffee, God's God's with you, he's walking with you.

593
00:44:07.380 --> 00:44:16.420
And I, me always feeling that way just to made every moment feel valuable and

594
00:44:16.420 --> 00:44:21.620
significant and weighty because he was always right there, meaning he was in me.

595
00:44:22.180 --> 00:44:26.420
And so we were doing something and I was learning things and he's bothering me

596
00:44:26.420 --> 00:44:29.820
and teaching me and showing me how to do different things and whatever,

597
00:44:30.180 --> 00:44:31.860
but I'm always with him.

598
00:44:32.220 --> 00:44:37.980
I'm not leaving him in the cubicle or he just walking, you know, beside

599
00:44:37.980 --> 00:44:43.060
me and she's just silent and just like, Hey, poke me.

600
00:44:43.060 --> 00:44:46.580
If you, you know, if you're really scared or poke me, if you get into

601
00:44:46.580 --> 00:44:49.940
a really bad way or whatever, it's just like, no, we were doing

602
00:44:49.940 --> 00:44:51.820
something together and it mattered.

603
00:44:52.100 --> 00:44:55.660
So walking down the hall, even just getting up, walking down the hall or

604
00:44:55.660 --> 00:44:59.860
walking over to another person always felt significant to me, it always felt.

605
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.360
There were every aspect of my life mattered.

606
00:45:04.240 --> 00:45:06.700
I didn't have to, like, I mean, nothing felt weird.

607
00:45:06.700 --> 00:45:11.400
Like, um, like I didn't, that didn't feel like pressure.

608
00:45:11.400 --> 00:45:14.840
It felt like freedom and it felt like significance.

609
00:45:15.880 --> 00:45:18.360
So, okay, now that I'm significant, let's go live.

610
00:45:18.760 --> 00:45:20.400
Let's go do things.

611
00:45:20.440 --> 00:45:21.640
Let's make decisions.

612
00:45:21.700 --> 00:45:23.040
Let's get the project done.

613
00:45:23.080 --> 00:45:24.480
Let's coordinate with these people.

614
00:45:24.760 --> 00:45:26.520
Let's overcome all the obstacles.

615
00:45:26.960 --> 00:45:27.740
And that was my job.

616
00:45:27.740 --> 00:45:30.740
My job was overcoming all the obstacles.

617
00:45:31.100 --> 00:45:34.660
Like I said, like I was a, I was process improvement specialist and a business

618
00:45:34.660 --> 00:45:38.540
consultant and then a whole bunch of other things in corporate and my job was

619
00:45:38.540 --> 00:45:41.940
always the hardest things to overcome.

620
00:45:42.660 --> 00:45:45.900
The absolute hardest was always like kind of the, I don't want to say the

621
00:45:45.900 --> 00:45:49.420
impossible jobs, but the jobs that people couldn't figure out how to, how to do.

622
00:45:50.140 --> 00:45:55.420
Um, and it wasn't until the very last part of my, it was probably the last

623
00:45:55.420 --> 00:45:57.940
year that I was in corporate that.

624
00:45:58.580 --> 00:46:02.820
Um, I actually didn't have to do that kind of thing anymore.

625
00:46:02.820 --> 00:46:05.780
And I didn't, I wasn't looked at to have to solve problems.

626
00:46:05.780 --> 00:46:10.620
I was just there to kind of be a worker bee and I needed it.

627
00:46:10.620 --> 00:46:19.540
I just needed some healing for a while, but anyway, um, anyway, if, uh, let me

628
00:46:19.540 --> 00:46:23.260
know what your thoughts are and if any of that's helpful or any of that resonates.

629
00:46:23.260 --> 00:46:25.660
And if not, well then, you know, give me feedback.

630
00:46:25.660 --> 00:46:27.020
What is it that you're thinking?

631
00:46:27.260 --> 00:46:29.540
You know, what is it that, cause this whole thing is about,

632
00:46:29.540 --> 00:46:30.980
what is it that you need?

633
00:46:31.020 --> 00:46:33.380
You know, what is that, that, where are you?

634
00:46:33.860 --> 00:46:37.460
You know, it's when I wanted to give everyone private time, what do you need?

635
00:46:37.460 --> 00:46:39.220
And how are you hearing this?

636
00:46:39.300 --> 00:46:44.180
And, you know, to kind of translate things and rephrase things and whatever.

637
00:46:44.220 --> 00:46:45.340
No, no, it's good.

638
00:46:45.340 --> 00:46:50.260
Cause I'd come out of work and I'm like, what am I doing with my life as if, as

639
00:46:50.300 --> 00:46:55.500
if nothing mattered that I did, but I know I, I like that.

640
00:46:55.500 --> 00:46:59.100
It, I am significant cause Christ, you know, God is with me.

641
00:46:59.100 --> 00:47:03.940
We're in union and, you know, just hearing this, all the spiritual

642
00:47:03.940 --> 00:47:05.860
activity going on is encouraging.

643
00:47:05.860 --> 00:47:11.220
And, um, yeah, it's definitely a different way to operate.

644
00:47:11.300 --> 00:47:15.740
And you're pouring into numbers and you're making decisions about

645
00:47:15.740 --> 00:47:17.580
finances or payroll or something.

646
00:47:17.580 --> 00:47:19.620
I don't, I don't remember exactly what it is, but

647
00:47:20.580 --> 00:47:24.500
whatever it is that you're doing, understand that what you touch.

648
00:47:25.340 --> 00:47:31.140
Is if you have the opportunity to pour spirit into it and pour kingdom into it

649
00:47:31.140 --> 00:47:37.300
so that it now has a particular aspect of life that other people who interact

650
00:47:37.300 --> 00:47:42.420
with those numbers or with the results of all your calculations are affected by.

651
00:47:42.980 --> 00:47:43.900
It matters.

652
00:47:44.300 --> 00:47:49.260
It's not just, oh, well, you know, I'm not talking to people, you know,

653
00:47:49.380 --> 00:47:52.060
actually I'm, I'm stuck in a corner somewhere, you know, I've got, I I'm

654
00:47:52.060 --> 00:47:54.580
doing this or, you know, I just deal with numbers.

655
00:47:54.580 --> 00:47:55.260
I don't, I don't.

656
00:47:55.660 --> 00:48:00.660
You deal with like, I don't know, just whatever that looks more influential.

657
00:48:00.700 --> 00:48:06.060
No, we don't understand what we pour into whatever it is that we touch,

658
00:48:06.060 --> 00:48:09.500
whatever it is that we interact with, we pour an aspect of spirit and the

659
00:48:09.500 --> 00:48:13.780
authority of our, of the kingdom of God into, and then whatever else comes

660
00:48:13.780 --> 00:48:18.860
in contact with it has an opportunity to be blessed by and affected by it.

661
00:48:18.860 --> 00:48:21.500
I know that that sounds weird, especially when it's something like.

662
00:48:22.100 --> 00:48:26.860
Numbers or, you know, it's not words that they understood and that got the

663
00:48:26.900 --> 00:48:28.980
gave them this epiphany or whatever.

664
00:48:29.300 --> 00:48:31.620
It really, really, really matters.

665
00:48:31.860 --> 00:48:35.940
I wish I could think of a, of an example, because I had this fleeting example

666
00:48:35.940 --> 00:48:40.020
that popped into my head of a real, of something that I heard recently that

667
00:48:40.020 --> 00:48:43.940
happened in real life in a business situation, and I thought it, but

668
00:48:43.940 --> 00:48:48.980
unfortunately, because of the people that were connected with that department

669
00:48:48.980 --> 00:48:55.180
or whatever, it had a very negative effect on everyone, simply because of

670
00:48:55.180 --> 00:49:00.180
the spirit and the authority of the people or the spirit of the people that

671
00:49:00.180 --> 00:49:04.660
were in those situations and the authority of the world that they were

672
00:49:04.660 --> 00:49:10.300
allowing to affect it, then anybody who affect he was touched by, or, you know,

673
00:49:10.300 --> 00:49:14.060
interacted with the things that went out from that department were affected.

674
00:49:14.740 --> 00:49:19.140
You know, it, and so it's because remember that it's our spirit that

675
00:49:19.140 --> 00:49:24.940
gives life to creation and it's our, it's our souls in our, our, our, what

676
00:49:24.940 --> 00:49:27.740
it is that we're saying about God, that creation is responding to.

677
00:49:28.220 --> 00:49:32.180
So even if it's numbers or it's the computer or it's inanimate objects,

678
00:49:32.580 --> 00:49:35.460
you know, it's actually carrying something out.

679
00:49:36.020 --> 00:49:41.700
And I was, I was talking to, to encouraging Casey with this.

680
00:49:41.700 --> 00:49:42.980
She hadn't asked me about this.

681
00:49:42.980 --> 00:49:46.100
It was just something I just threw in there, you know, since they're moving.

682
00:49:46.500 --> 00:49:49.260
And I was just, and of course they're getting their house ready and everything.

683
00:49:49.260 --> 00:49:50.700
And so I just encouraged her.

684
00:49:50.700 --> 00:49:54.500
I said, you remember that with everything it is that you have to do to get the,

685
00:49:54.540 --> 00:49:58.980
you know, working on the house and all of that, you remember that you're preparing

686
00:49:58.980 --> 00:50:00.100
that house.

687
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.200
which isn't a person.

688
00:50:02.200 --> 00:50:05.720
You're preparing it with your spiritual authority

689
00:50:05.720 --> 00:50:08.760
to receive the next people that come in

690
00:50:08.760 --> 00:50:11.120
so that it might change their life.

691
00:50:11.120 --> 00:50:13.520
The atmosphere, the atmosphere of peace,

692
00:50:14.600 --> 00:50:17.120
and I gave her examples of like,

693
00:50:17.120 --> 00:50:20.680
see things like the painter coming in

694
00:50:20.680 --> 00:50:22.280
and you having to schedule things

695
00:50:22.280 --> 00:50:23.600
with the painters to come in.

696
00:50:23.600 --> 00:50:24.800
I was totally making this up.

697
00:50:24.800 --> 00:50:26.040
I don't know if she's bringing painters in,

698
00:50:26.040 --> 00:50:28.000
but so I said like, say for instance,

699
00:50:28.000 --> 00:50:29.900
if you have all of these things that you need to do

700
00:50:29.900 --> 00:50:32.060
including repaint your house,

701
00:50:32.060 --> 00:50:33.980
and it just feels like, oh my word,

702
00:50:33.980 --> 00:50:38.740
this is a very, I don't know,

703
00:50:38.740 --> 00:50:43.620
very, I don't know, not Christian,

704
00:50:43.620 --> 00:50:45.820
but just like unspiritual thing to do.

705
00:50:45.820 --> 00:50:48.420
It's just like this thing that gets in the way of life

706
00:50:48.420 --> 00:50:50.180
and oh my word, with all the things I have to do,

707
00:50:50.180 --> 00:50:51.220
now I have to call the painters,

708
00:50:51.220 --> 00:50:52.060
now I have to schedule,

709
00:50:52.060 --> 00:50:55.060
then we have to arrange the furniture, blah, blah, blah.

710
00:50:55.060 --> 00:50:58.980
It can feel like things that are on a to-do list

711
00:50:58.980 --> 00:51:01.740
or a checklist that just have to get done

712
00:51:01.740 --> 00:51:06.740
and that it's being forced on us.

713
00:51:06.740 --> 00:51:07.860
But I was encouraging her.

714
00:51:07.860 --> 00:51:10.980
I said, hey, if you have got painters coming,

715
00:51:10.980 --> 00:51:14.220
I said, as an example, I said, see it like this.

716
00:51:14.220 --> 00:51:16.700
He is like, no, you were bringing that,

717
00:51:16.700 --> 00:51:21.700
you were preparing the house as the current ruling king

718
00:51:21.820 --> 00:51:24.860
of what you expect of it and the type of order

719
00:51:24.860 --> 00:51:27.940
that you are calling it to come into

720
00:51:27.940 --> 00:51:30.700
in order to create a particular atmosphere

721
00:51:30.700 --> 00:51:32.860
and presence of the God

722
00:51:32.860 --> 00:51:36.380
in which that next family will be coming into.

723
00:51:36.380 --> 00:51:38.180
And part of the way you're doing that

724
00:51:38.180 --> 00:51:41.300
is by bringing in order to that home,

725
00:51:41.300 --> 00:51:42.780
by having the painters come in,

726
00:51:42.780 --> 00:51:45.980
making everything look fresh and nice and orderly

727
00:51:45.980 --> 00:51:49.060
and new and whatever.

728
00:51:49.060 --> 00:51:51.980
And I said, you're communicating something to creation

729
00:51:51.980 --> 00:51:54.460
because creation is always looking to us

730
00:51:54.460 --> 00:51:56.180
to give it instruction.

731
00:51:56.180 --> 00:51:57.660
But what instruction are we giving it?

732
00:51:58.340 --> 00:51:59.260
Are we giving it positive or negative?

733
00:51:59.260 --> 00:52:02.100
Are we complaining while we're doing it?

734
00:52:02.100 --> 00:52:03.980
As if it, and then it gets the impression

735
00:52:03.980 --> 00:52:08.300
that it's a bother and we hate it and we're the enemy

736
00:52:08.300 --> 00:52:10.820
and we can't be trusted and we're not a good leader

737
00:52:10.820 --> 00:52:13.020
and it's not safe with us.

738
00:52:13.020 --> 00:52:15.100
What are we communicating to it?

739
00:52:15.100 --> 00:52:17.420
So anyway, I just wanna encourage you that,

740
00:52:17.420 --> 00:52:20.460
you're like, oh, what am I doing with my life?

741
00:52:20.460 --> 00:52:22.300
If you feel that the Lord is telling you

742
00:52:22.300 --> 00:52:24.380
to go somewhere else and do something,

743
00:52:24.380 --> 00:52:27.100
well then sometimes he can use questions like that

744
00:52:27.660 --> 00:52:28.980
in our mind to help prompt it.

745
00:52:28.980 --> 00:52:32.980
But also to take before the Lord is the consideration of,

746
00:52:32.980 --> 00:52:37.780
yeah, but what if, regardless if God is moving me on,

747
00:52:37.780 --> 00:52:41.860
regardless of that, how do I approach

748
00:52:41.860 --> 00:52:46.860
every day boring, dry moments in my life

749
00:52:47.260 --> 00:52:50.580
where I'm just plugging in numbers or I'm pulling reports

750
00:52:50.580 --> 00:52:53.420
or I'm giving reports or I'm preparing for a meeting?

751
00:52:53.420 --> 00:52:56.220
Lord, seriously, in the grand scheme of things,

752
00:52:56.220 --> 00:52:58.260
what on earth am I doing here?

753
00:52:58.260 --> 00:52:59.940
Some people are teaching children.

754
00:52:59.940 --> 00:53:01.900
Oh, they're raising the next generation.

755
00:53:01.900 --> 00:53:03.700
Other people are missionaries.

756
00:53:03.700 --> 00:53:04.860
Other people are pastors.

757
00:53:04.860 --> 00:53:06.980
Lord, seriously, what am I doing?

758
00:53:06.980 --> 00:53:09.060
You know, I thought, Lord, that,

759
00:53:09.060 --> 00:53:11.740
I've been in this desk job, so I'm like,

760
00:53:11.740 --> 00:53:15.980
Lord, seriously, seriously, do you see me?

761
00:53:15.980 --> 00:53:20.220
I am, I'm a secretary, I'm an admin.

762
00:53:20.220 --> 00:53:25.100
I'm like doing paperwork and files and remaking labels

763
00:53:25.100 --> 00:53:28.180
and that's my job, Lord, that's all I do.

764
00:53:28.180 --> 00:53:33.180
You know, but I had to see, I just poured who God is

765
00:53:34.220 --> 00:53:38.540
in his love of excellence, in his love of quality,

766
00:53:38.540 --> 00:53:41.340
in his love of the beautiful, fascinating world

767
00:53:41.340 --> 00:53:44.780
that he created and the physics in which everything works.

768
00:53:44.780 --> 00:53:48.620
He, I was getting to interact with that world

769
00:53:48.620 --> 00:53:52.100
and then manipulate it to be able to create something,

770
00:53:52.100 --> 00:53:54.300
to make these labels, to come up with these ideas,

771
00:53:54.300 --> 00:53:56.180
to create these little computer systems,

772
00:53:56.180 --> 00:53:58.460
to do whatever.

773
00:53:58.460 --> 00:54:02.900
And so I just tried to pour God and his principles

774
00:54:02.900 --> 00:54:04.700
and his kingdom as best as I could.

775
00:54:04.700 --> 00:54:07.260
And we're talking like this is like, I don't know,

776
00:54:07.260 --> 00:54:10.180
13, 14 years ago, I knew nothing about rest,

777
00:54:11.340 --> 00:54:13.700
but I just knew, yeah, but God is out there

778
00:54:13.700 --> 00:54:18.700
and he's important and he made this world.

779
00:54:20.300 --> 00:54:21.940
So surely I need to appreciate it.

780
00:54:21.940 --> 00:54:23.540
And so anyways, I would just try to pour

781
00:54:23.580 --> 00:54:25.860
into all those things and pour myself

782
00:54:25.860 --> 00:54:29.900
and what I felt was his goodness and his excellence

783
00:54:29.900 --> 00:54:33.340
and his love of physics and how it works

784
00:54:33.340 --> 00:54:35.740
and labels and ink and paper.

785
00:54:35.740 --> 00:54:37.620
And God created all those things.

786
00:54:37.620 --> 00:54:39.260
And he's like, I want you to interact with it

787
00:54:39.260 --> 00:54:42.260
and tell it who I am, you know?

788
00:54:42.260 --> 00:54:46.860
And so, and then whoever touches that piece of paper

789
00:54:46.860 --> 00:54:50.820
or whatever, sometime later can be affected spiritually.

790
00:54:50.820 --> 00:54:52.620
It can bring peace.

791
00:54:52.660 --> 00:54:53.580
It can be whatever.

792
00:54:53.580 --> 00:54:55.580
That's why we feel good or bad

793
00:54:55.580 --> 00:54:57.900
about certain inanimate objects.

794
00:54:57.900 --> 00:54:59.660
They're not just inanimate.

795
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.180
There's, there's things about the, the last, the person who owned it, you know,

796
00:55:06.180 --> 00:55:09.540
I mean, that's why I'm careful when I go to thrift store or we'll go to any store,

797
00:55:09.540 --> 00:55:12.980
but particularly thrift stores, because people previously owned them.

798
00:55:13.600 --> 00:55:17.040
And so I pray over things when they come in, cause I am telling you, sometimes

799
00:55:17.340 --> 00:55:21.180
you look at something or you pick something up and you feel really bad.

800
00:55:21.300 --> 00:55:22.860
You're like, I just feel gross.

801
00:55:23.380 --> 00:55:27.880
I don't even know why, or you just feel very heavy or you feel sad.

802
00:55:27.880 --> 00:55:31.860
And there are other things that just, just light you up and just bring you joy.

803
00:55:32.260 --> 00:55:35.680
And you know, that it's more than just like, oh, I like this color.

804
00:55:35.780 --> 00:55:41.320
It's like the, the object itself has some kind of a, is reflecting a

805
00:55:41.320 --> 00:55:46.020
belief of what it's been exposed to, you know, so anyway, so everything

806
00:55:46.020 --> 00:55:47.540
you do is very significant.

807
00:55:47.700 --> 00:55:52.020
You've got value and importance in your, you're doing something proactive.

808
00:55:52.020 --> 00:55:57.720
So you choose to paint your life.

809
00:55:57.920 --> 00:55:59.400
You choose to create your life.

810
00:55:59.640 --> 00:56:03.600
Meaning like you choose to, you choose to create your moment.

811
00:56:04.120 --> 00:56:04.480
Okay.

812
00:56:04.480 --> 00:56:06.080
It is 8 0 2 AM.

813
00:56:06.960 --> 00:56:08.400
I'm creating my moment here.

814
00:56:08.480 --> 00:56:09.640
What am I, what am I doing?

815
00:56:09.680 --> 00:56:11.000
I am moving forward.

816
00:56:11.000 --> 00:56:12.120
I am doing something.

817
00:56:12.120 --> 00:56:12.340
Why?

818
00:56:12.340 --> 00:56:15.900
Because I choose to no one forced this job on me.

819
00:56:15.920 --> 00:56:16.620
Not even God.

820
00:56:17.560 --> 00:56:18.240
I chose it.

821
00:56:18.680 --> 00:56:20.000
This is what I choose for me.

822
00:56:20.900 --> 00:56:24.300
You know, and now you may wish you had a different choice.

823
00:56:24.340 --> 00:56:32.060
You may wish that God, but the thing is, unless, unless, you know, unless

824
00:56:32.060 --> 00:56:35.700
we're talking about the fact that maybe God did or whatever, if you feel like

825
00:56:35.700 --> 00:56:37.940
this is what God told you to do, then you're like, you know what?

826
00:56:37.940 --> 00:56:39.020
He didn't force me to do it.

827
00:56:39.020 --> 00:56:40.060
There was no other choice.

828
00:56:40.580 --> 00:56:43.420
This is what, this is the opportunity that God presented to me.

829
00:56:44.380 --> 00:56:44.780
Okay.

830
00:56:45.220 --> 00:56:48.460
Then this is what I choose because you have the opportunity to reject it.

831
00:56:49.040 --> 00:56:51.000
You have the opportunity to try to find something else.

832
00:56:51.760 --> 00:56:53.720
No, but you said, no, this is it.

833
00:56:54.320 --> 00:56:57.600
And so you decide in those moments, do I still choose this?

834
00:56:59.320 --> 00:57:01.680
You know, and it could simply be for the fact of, well, I don't

835
00:57:01.680 --> 00:57:02.840
feel that God's released me.

836
00:57:02.920 --> 00:57:03.280
Okay.

837
00:57:03.280 --> 00:57:06.240
So do you want to rebel against what you believe that God is saying to do?

838
00:57:06.600 --> 00:57:07.880
Or do you choose this?

839
00:57:08.520 --> 00:57:09.840
Everything's a choice.

840
00:57:10.320 --> 00:57:12.220
We're not ever forced to do anything.

841
00:57:12.880 --> 00:57:17.760
Um, so we own that choice and God loves that.

842
00:57:18.020 --> 00:57:21.740
I am telling you what things start to move and change very powerfully in your

843
00:57:21.740 --> 00:57:27.140
life when you intentionally make what a friend of mine calls strong decisions.

844
00:57:29.060 --> 00:57:32.380
So, oh, well, you, you know, uh, you've heard of, uh, Chris Blackaby.

845
00:57:32.660 --> 00:57:34.020
That's what he's always talking about.

846
00:57:34.020 --> 00:57:37.200
He's always, he always refers to it as strong decision.

847
00:57:37.620 --> 00:57:40.540
You know, he's, he's always telling me, Ashley, make a strong decision.

848
00:57:40.540 --> 00:57:44.540
I'm like, okay, I will.

849
00:57:45.000 --> 00:57:48.640
And, but I, and I always thought it was a very odd way to phrase that, but the

850
00:57:48.640 --> 00:57:53.880
longer that I've, I've, you know, lived with the Lord in, in learning about,

851
00:57:54.280 --> 00:57:59.080
you know, rest and identity and our union with him and, and how to interact,

852
00:57:59.120 --> 00:58:00.840
operate, make decisions, et cetera.

853
00:58:00.840 --> 00:58:03.040
The more I understood what he's saying.

854
00:58:03.320 --> 00:58:06.960
And the more that when I, when I interact with the Lord like that, the more

855
00:58:06.960 --> 00:58:13.600
powerful his, my inner God's, my interaction is I strongly make a decision.

856
00:58:13.600 --> 00:58:16.060
In other words, I make a decision and I own it.

857
00:58:16.940 --> 00:58:21.640
Lord, I make that decision, not blaming it on someone else or God.

858
00:58:21.640 --> 00:58:25.220
Well, you told me, I mean, we all saw what happened to Adam when he said

859
00:58:25.660 --> 00:58:29.820
the woman that you gave me, you know, if we own our own decision and we

860
00:58:29.820 --> 00:58:33.820
don't even give it to the Lord, we're like, no God, you know, this is my decision.

861
00:58:34.260 --> 00:58:35.240
This is what I choose.

862
00:58:35.240 --> 00:58:37.060
I choose because I think this is you.

863
00:58:37.900 --> 00:58:38.540
I own it.

864
00:58:38.920 --> 00:58:40.840
I'm responsible for having made this decision.

865
00:58:41.120 --> 00:58:41.620
This is it.

866
00:58:41.800 --> 00:58:43.300
God loves that.

867
00:58:43.360 --> 00:58:46.160
He's like, now that I can do something with like, okay.

868
00:58:46.720 --> 00:58:49.120
Because it's like, we're choosing that.

869
00:58:49.120 --> 00:58:55.440
We want to live life with him as opposed to being dragged around like a limp dishrag.

870
00:58:56.100 --> 00:58:56.400
Okay.

871
00:58:56.400 --> 00:58:57.580
God, I'm here.

872
00:58:57.720 --> 00:58:58.440
What are you doing?

873
00:58:58.440 --> 00:59:03.100
What is your will eventually revoked my destiny to me, Lord.

874
00:59:03.100 --> 00:59:07.080
You know, he's like, no, he's like, he's like, get excited.

875
00:59:07.600 --> 00:59:12.480
Just decide it, you know, get excited and come up with ideas about what we want to

876
00:59:12.480 --> 00:59:20.200
do, you know, live offensively, live motivated to create, to move forward, to

877
00:59:20.200 --> 00:59:23.660
initiate, to be intentional, to come up with ideas.

878
00:59:24.120 --> 00:59:29.820
I don't know if you watched, um, the, uh, session 12 yet you watch session 12.

879
00:59:29.820 --> 00:59:30.100
Okay.

880
00:59:30.140 --> 00:59:33.520
So in session 12, you know, the power of intention is that kind of an idea.

881
00:59:33.520 --> 00:59:43.540
It's extremely, extremely powerful because the kingdom needs us to stand up.

882
00:59:44.380 --> 00:59:49.460
It needs us to be, um, Oh man.

883
00:59:49.900 --> 00:59:50.980
What was the word for that?

884
00:59:50.980 --> 00:59:54.460
Just, um, I don't know.

885
00:59:54.680 --> 00:59:55.220
Oh man.

886
00:59:55.580 --> 00:59:59.940
There's, there's a word for it where you, it, yes, it's owning yourself and.

887
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.800
of that, but it's, it's, I can't think. But anyway, it's, he, he

888
01:00:06.800 --> 01:00:11.040
really enjoys it, because he's like, okay, so you have your own

889
01:00:11.040 --> 01:00:16.720
free will, are making a choice, that this life I've given you is

890
01:00:16.720 --> 01:00:21.320
good. You're claiming it, you're claiming and owning your own

891
01:00:21.320 --> 01:00:25.680
life that I've offered to you, you're taking it up, you're

892
01:00:25.680 --> 01:00:29.520
receiving it, you have ideas, you want to move forward, as

893
01:00:29.520 --> 01:00:34.200
opposed to, okay, well, I'll allow it, God. So do what you

894
01:00:34.200 --> 01:00:39.800
want. And I'll just hang out. Because you, you kind of, the

895
01:00:39.800 --> 01:00:43.200
best way I can come up to describe it is you claim it. He

896
01:00:43.240 --> 01:00:47.400
loves it. He responds differently. My life changed

897
01:00:47.400 --> 01:00:50.880
when I began to take responsibility for my decisions,

898
01:00:51.160 --> 01:00:54.360
responsibility for my actions when I was strong in them,

899
01:00:54.400 --> 01:00:58.400
meaning like, I own them to him. I was like, God, this is what I

900
01:00:58.400 --> 01:01:05.800
choose. Get remember in a in a revelation. I don't remember

901
01:01:05.800 --> 01:01:09.880
which one I don't know is revelation for Revelation three

902
01:01:09.880 --> 01:01:12.280
anyway, talking to the Church of Laodicea, and he said, I wish

903
01:01:12.280 --> 01:01:15.200
you were hot or cold, because I would know what to do with you.

904
01:01:15.240 --> 01:01:17.520
But now that you're lukewarm, he said, I don't know what to do

905
01:01:17.520 --> 01:01:20.280
with you, except spew you out of my mouth. It's the same

906
01:01:20.280 --> 01:01:25.720
principle of he likes a strong decision, hot or cold, which is

907
01:01:25.720 --> 01:01:28.360
it going to be? Yes, you're going to obey me or no, you're

908
01:01:28.360 --> 01:01:33.080
not. But dadgum, make a choice. None of this. Oh, no, what do

909
01:01:33.080 --> 01:01:36.880
you want to do? I don't know, Lord. I don't really care. I'm

910
01:01:36.880 --> 01:01:39.480
just upset with all the decisions you've made for me so

911
01:01:39.480 --> 01:01:47.080
far. It's, it's just that he's like, he's like, do you do you

912
01:01:47.080 --> 01:01:53.440
see what I've given is good? What you know? Let's do you do

913
01:01:53.440 --> 01:01:55.960
you want to do you have your own ideas? Do you think it's a

914
01:01:55.960 --> 01:01:58.200
good thing? Do you own it? Do you appreciate it? You know,

915
01:01:58.200 --> 01:01:59.760
or whatever. So anyway,

916
01:02:01.200 --> 01:02:06.600
so that's good. Yeah, I that's what I needed to get my life

917
01:02:06.600 --> 01:02:11.040
back again. Yeah, yeah. And have you done anything at all with

918
01:02:11.040 --> 01:02:15.280
the dancing at it? Oh, yeah, I went on Wednesday with with my

919
01:02:15.280 --> 01:02:20.440
friend Tammy. Oh, yeah, Tammy. Yeah. What did y'all what did

920
01:02:20.440 --> 01:02:23.360
y'all do it? Did y'all join a class? Or did you just go out

921
01:02:23.360 --> 01:02:26.720
to like Billy Bob's or something? No, no. Um, no, we

922
01:02:26.720 --> 01:02:36.720
went to like a trial class for ballet technique. When I was

923
01:02:36.720 --> 01:02:40.760
little. Yeah. When I was little, I was like that. Now that I'm

924
01:02:40.760 --> 01:02:42.240
older. I'm like, that seems hard.

925
01:02:44.240 --> 01:02:45.640
ankles are screaming.

926
01:02:48.520 --> 01:02:51.960
But it was very technical because it was technical. But

927
01:02:51.960 --> 01:02:56.040
yeah, there's other things we can try. So it was fun. Great.

928
01:02:56.080 --> 01:02:59.320
And where's this? It's just up the road. It's in Bedford. It's

929
01:02:59.320 --> 01:03:03.480
called Laura's that dance dynamics or something like that.

930
01:03:03.960 --> 01:03:07.880
Yeah, I don't remember that. I don't remember where that is. I

931
01:03:07.880 --> 01:03:10.560
mean, I don't remember seeing that. So I mean, Bedford, you

932
01:03:10.560 --> 01:03:12.840
know, I haven't been everywhere in Bedford, but I used to live

933
01:03:12.840 --> 01:03:15.960
right there. So I thought, Oh, well, I wonder if I'd seen it or

934
01:03:15.960 --> 01:03:19.360
heard of it or something. So okay. Yeah, well, cool. That's

935
01:03:19.360 --> 01:03:21.400
great. And does Tammy live near you?

936
01:03:22.120 --> 01:03:25.240
She's in Addison. So 30 minutes. Yeah.

937
01:03:25.360 --> 01:03:30.600
Yeah. Yeah. Okay. So anyway, well, that's cool. I'm glad.

938
01:03:30.640 --> 01:03:34.960
Well, my word, you Kim and Tammy are all really spread out. I'm

939
01:03:34.960 --> 01:03:38.160
good. Kim is like off the mat now.

940
01:03:39.880 --> 01:03:44.680
They're in Addison in the middle. Yes. Yeah. Where's Where's

941
01:03:44.680 --> 01:03:45.280
Mary?

942
01:03:45.880 --> 01:03:52.400
She went to Mansfield. Okay. Wow, y'all are y'all covered the

943
01:03:52.400 --> 01:03:53.200
Metroplex.

944
01:03:57.160 --> 01:04:00.480
Yeah. Is there anybody else in your group that hadn't heard it?

945
01:04:01.040 --> 01:04:01.400
Or maybe?

946
01:04:01.400 --> 01:04:05.880
No, that's pretty much Yeah, the four. Yeah. Well, that's fun.

947
01:04:06.160 --> 01:04:11.800
Yeah. Well, so anyway, was there and I mean, did any of that

948
01:04:11.800 --> 01:04:14.800
help? I kind of like just took a little thing that you gave me

949
01:04:14.800 --> 01:04:17.640
and then I just took off, which is very unusual. But it's like,

950
01:04:17.640 --> 01:04:20.200
I just kind of felt like I had all of these things, you know,

951
01:04:20.200 --> 01:04:24.480
that I could say. But anyway, I was talking, I thought, well,

952
01:04:24.520 --> 01:04:26.560
actually, I don't know, you know, is that actually

953
01:04:26.560 --> 01:04:29.440
applicable or relevant to what she's going through? You know,

954
01:04:29.440 --> 01:04:33.000
you really didn't get much before you took off. So, sir,

955
01:04:33.360 --> 01:04:36.280
you know, did any of that resonate? Did that? Oh, yeah.

956
01:04:36.800 --> 01:04:42.240
Yeah, all of it did. Oh, good. Yes. Yeah. So I mean, sometimes,

957
01:04:42.400 --> 01:04:48.120
huh. I was gonna say, especially making that decision, choosing,

958
01:04:49.040 --> 01:04:53.880
you know, that he's there always and not just, and I love the

959
01:04:53.880 --> 01:04:57.080
idea of like, my spirits just, you know, it just reminds me of

960
01:04:57.080 --> 01:05:00.040
like, was it Peter walking or and then

961
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.240
just his shadow cast on them and they were like healed. So, yeah.

962
01:05:06.160 --> 01:05:14.320
Yeah, exactly. And, um, and even people were taking, they were praying over claws and,

963
01:05:14.320 --> 01:05:18.800
and sending them to people, you know, to be healed. I mean, it's just, it's just really

964
01:05:18.800 --> 01:05:26.880
as wild how all that works, but, um, I was sending us and say, oh yeah. So everything

965
01:05:26.880 --> 01:05:31.200
that I was talking about, I mean, I know I gave some specifics, but some of what I was talking

966
01:05:31.200 --> 01:05:35.680
about, you know, is just, it's just that whole, you know, taking us back to, okay, well, what

967
01:05:35.680 --> 01:05:43.360
does God say about himself and about us and own that be you we've been entrusted with ourselves

968
01:05:43.360 --> 01:05:50.320
as the first thing. So claim us, you know, and be responsible to God for us. I don't mean

969
01:05:50.320 --> 01:05:55.520
responsible as in like this, this burden. Oh my goodness. I've got this responsibility, but like

970
01:05:56.400 --> 01:06:04.960
that, that we, um, that were the thing that answers for our decisions, you know, et cetera.

971
01:06:05.520 --> 01:06:13.040
Um, but, uh, a lot of times, a lot of times that these things that we struggling with,

972
01:06:13.040 --> 01:06:17.360
you know, anxiety and struggling to sleep and I'm, you know, all of these things,

973
01:06:18.160 --> 01:06:27.680
the answers are always very simple and they're very, oh, I say that usually I don't, you know,

974
01:06:27.680 --> 01:06:31.360
I feel really, I don't know, I feel like we're kind of nervous thing always. Cause I'm like,

975
01:06:31.360 --> 01:06:36.320
I don't know. There's only so much. I know that, but basically just think of it this way. The

976
01:06:36.320 --> 01:06:42.080
answers are simple. They're very, we just always go back to the root. What does God say about

977
01:06:42.080 --> 01:06:47.760
himself? To what degree? And what does he say about me to what degree? And I choose that. And

978
01:06:47.760 --> 01:06:53.280
then everything else flows from that. Everything else comes from that. Sure. We can do other

979
01:06:53.280 --> 01:06:58.720
things from that place and whatever, but if we go all the way back to, okay, I'm struggling with

980
01:06:58.720 --> 01:07:07.920
anxiety, I'm struggling to sleep on whatever. Okay. Pull back to connecting with valuing and

981
01:07:08.000 --> 01:07:13.760
choosing God above anything else in your life. And even about how choosing God could affect

982
01:07:14.400 --> 01:07:19.520
or could affect your life and any consequences or results that could create, you know,

983
01:07:19.520 --> 01:07:23.520
any potential issues that you're like, you know what, that really wouldn't be fun to live through.

984
01:07:24.480 --> 01:07:30.080
You choose God over those possibilities. And then you choose that you are who he says that

985
01:07:30.080 --> 01:07:34.960
you are that significant. And then if you believe those things, meaning if you choose them,

986
01:07:35.520 --> 01:07:42.800
if they really are your reality that you have made, you will make you, it totally changes the,

987
01:07:42.800 --> 01:07:49.680
your perspective on whatever situation that you're in. And then it also guides you as to what

988
01:07:49.680 --> 01:07:55.360
decision to then make. So that's why I'm always taking people back to something. So basic is

989
01:07:55.360 --> 01:08:02.240
based. It's almost in a way the same answer every single time, because if we shift into that place,

990
01:08:02.240 --> 01:08:07.760
we will see whatever situation that we're in from a totally different perspective,

991
01:08:07.760 --> 01:08:13.760
and we'll have clarity on what direction to take with it. You know, how to approach our boss about

992
01:08:13.760 --> 01:08:17.840
that, or what to do with this to do with this project, or how to problem how to solve this

993
01:08:17.840 --> 01:08:26.800
problem, or what to do with it about the fact that of the meantime, in of not knowing how to

994
01:08:26.800 --> 01:08:33.760
answer the, how to fix the problem. So now I'm currently in, in a situation in which the problem

995
01:08:33.760 --> 01:08:41.040
is not fit being fixed, and it's just messy right now. So how do I be in that place? You will know

996
01:08:41.040 --> 01:08:46.160
how to be in that place and you will be able to rest fully be and go through that place by shifting

997
01:08:46.160 --> 01:08:52.720
back into who God is and who you are and choosing those as your highest value. And so that's why I

998
01:08:52.720 --> 01:08:58.960
always like pull people back to that, because you know, what I teach aren't formulas of like, okay,

999
01:08:58.960 --> 01:09:02.880
in this situation, do this, in this situation, do this, in this situation, do this, and just memorize

1000
01:09:02.880 --> 01:09:09.279
all the rules. It's, it's empowering every person to understand that they have everything they need

1001
01:09:09.279 --> 01:09:15.359
to make their own decision. And the reason that they can't see it is that in whatever question

1002
01:09:15.359 --> 01:09:20.560
that they bring up is simply because they're not viewing it from the correct perspective.

1003
01:09:20.560 --> 01:09:24.319
It means that they're viewing it from outside of God and from, in other words, from feeling

1004
01:09:24.319 --> 01:09:30.720
separated from God, instead of remembering and choosing that he is their highest value and

1005
01:09:30.720 --> 01:09:36.560
choosing him for who he is and for who he says that you are. When you do that, then you're, you're, we,

1006
01:09:37.439 --> 01:09:42.000
you're operating from the place that's always connected to the spirit of wisdom, always

1007
01:09:42.000 --> 01:09:47.200
connected to the spirit of understanding and knowledge. And so you not only do you have support

1008
01:09:47.840 --> 01:09:55.360
from heaven, but you also have the clarity, the knowledge, the wisdom of heaven. And so it just

1009
01:09:55.360 --> 01:09:59.840
totally changes your perspective. So I can, if I can help people understand.

1010
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.600
and how to quickly change their own perspective, they then answer their own questions about what

1011
01:10:05.600 --> 01:10:11.760
to do in whatever situation that they're dealing with at work or, you know, in relationships or

1012
01:10:11.760 --> 01:10:17.040
whatever. Um, and then sometimes it just kind of, you know, obviously help them out by like

1013
01:10:17.600 --> 01:10:21.440
walking them all the way from that through. Therefore, if you do this and then therefore,

1014
01:10:21.440 --> 01:10:25.120
if you believe in the Lord in this way, and therefore does it, well, then you can handle

1015
01:10:25.120 --> 01:10:31.520
it in this way, but that's just, that's just an idea. Um, that's just an example,

1016
01:10:31.520 --> 01:10:40.080
but it all comes back to us uniquely expressing who we in God are, you know, and then do expressing

1017
01:10:40.080 --> 01:10:48.000
that out loud, meaning like in what we do, um, that will, that will create our own unique life

1018
01:10:48.000 --> 01:10:55.680
with him and that will change everything that'll free everything. So, um, and everyone has something

1019
01:10:56.480 --> 01:11:09.920
that, um, everyone has something that is unique that other people don't have and that,

1020
01:11:09.920 --> 01:11:16.160
and are meant to bring things that other people can't bring. So I can't instruct anybody in that

1021
01:11:16.800 --> 01:11:21.600
because I don't have it, you know, I've never been exposed to that. I've never seen it.

1022
01:11:21.600 --> 01:11:25.920
They're supposed to bring that new thing down and then we'll all see it, including me, you know,

1023
01:11:26.800 --> 01:11:33.120
anyway. Um, but yeah, so that's, um, anyway, like I said, I hope all of that resonated and was

1024
01:11:33.120 --> 01:11:39.280
helpful to your situation and what you're going through. Yes, definitely. Yeah. And I'm so excited

1025
01:11:39.280 --> 01:11:47.040
to hear that you went dancing excited. So your plans, have you been doing anything else besides

1026
01:11:47.040 --> 01:11:52.720
that? Like any, like, how have you liked your nighttime routine been going or shows that you're

1027
01:11:52.720 --> 01:11:58.560
watching or books that you're reading or I don't know, just stuff you're choosing for you outside

1028
01:11:58.560 --> 01:12:06.400
work. No, I hadn't really done the nighttime routine. I just try to get out of bed sooner,

1029
01:12:06.400 --> 01:12:14.720
but yeah. And then just, yeah, I, I guess I hadn't dealt with centering, you know, I do my,

1030
01:12:14.720 --> 01:12:23.440
I'm, you know, I'm connected and rested, but I wasn't still, I don't. Yeah.

1031
01:12:24.160 --> 01:12:27.280
So choosing, um,

1032
01:12:29.520 --> 01:12:38.400
yeah. Perspective. Yeah. Yeah. It'll be easier if you choose that God is protector, provider,

1033
01:12:38.400 --> 01:12:46.640
safety, et cetera. And that you're in that then it is, if, if he's kind of out of the picture

1034
01:12:46.640 --> 01:12:56.320
and you're like, Oh, I'm safe. I'm connected. I'm okay. He's making sure of it because that will

1035
01:12:56.320 --> 01:13:02.720
still make us feel separated. Even though we think we're trying to give ourselves truth,

1036
01:13:03.520 --> 01:13:09.680
the comfort of truth, like, well, we are protected, whatever. If you associate you,

1037
01:13:10.720 --> 01:13:14.560
in other words, how you, how you feel, or basically your state of being, like you're

1038
01:13:14.560 --> 01:13:20.800
protected today. If you associate that with the fact that that's who he is and it's

1039
01:13:22.080 --> 01:13:29.360
then, and you're simply experiencing God's character protector, provider, whatever,

1040
01:13:29.920 --> 01:13:35.200
that is what brings rest. Cause remember, remember rest isn't feeling a particular way

1041
01:13:35.200 --> 01:13:39.680
or remembering that we are something it's actually simply being in him.

1042
01:13:40.640 --> 01:13:46.080
So in order to remember, to operate from the place of being in him, we have to associate

1043
01:13:46.080 --> 01:13:52.720
all those things that we want with simply us experiencing those aspects of his character

1044
01:13:52.720 --> 01:13:59.360
instead of us, instead of us, you know, feeling connected or feeling at rest or feeling peace

1045
01:13:59.360 --> 01:14:05.600
or feeling protected or feeling provided for whatever. Nope. Nope. He's my protector.

1046
01:14:05.680 --> 01:14:12.000
He's he's protecting. He is my provider. He is my, you know, whatever that, that might help

1047
01:14:12.880 --> 01:14:20.080
because you're connecting with him and that, and he is what gives us an anchor that removes all

1048
01:14:20.080 --> 01:14:27.600
the stress and the anxiety. And that's what makes what we have as sons of God different than say,

1049
01:14:27.600 --> 01:14:32.720
for instance, a counselor or, you know, or a psychologist that would just talk about,

1050
01:14:33.360 --> 01:14:39.920
you know, how to make our, how to, how to like talk to ourselves to like comfort ourselves or

1051
01:14:39.920 --> 01:14:44.080
whatever. Oh, I need to remember I'm okay. And I'm whatever, anyway, and that may not be what

1052
01:14:44.080 --> 01:14:48.800
you were referring to, but just in case it was, I wanted to kind of mention a little nuance that

1053
01:14:48.800 --> 01:14:56.720
actually where all the power is, is always connecting you with what you need with God

1054
01:14:56.720 --> 01:14:59.840
and his character, that, that, that it's his character.

1055
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:07.920
that's, and you being in him, that's giving you everything you need. Does that make sense?

1056
01:15:08.480 --> 01:15:15.360
Yeah, I can see how I was just trying to more like soothe myself instead of, yeah, being

1057
01:15:16.560 --> 01:15:24.720
his character. Yeah. Which is what we all do. We all do. And so, but I've learned that that didn't

1058
01:15:24.720 --> 01:15:32.640
work for me long-term. What only finally worked is when I realized, no, the reason I'm safe,

1059
01:15:32.640 --> 01:15:38.640
the reason I'm whatever is that's what he is and I'm in him. And then all of a sudden that worked.

1060
01:15:39.520 --> 01:15:42.560
So anyway, I just thought that maybe that would help you because that's what helped me.

1061
01:15:43.360 --> 01:15:48.480
Yes, definitely. Well, is there anything else before we jump off?

1062
01:15:49.280 --> 01:15:54.400
No, no, I appreciate you rescheduling. I was going to accept if you didn't reach out again,

1063
01:15:54.960 --> 01:16:03.600
I missed my boat. So you're fine. You're fine. I'm glad that it worked out. And I reached out to

1064
01:16:05.120 --> 01:16:09.440
Tammy and let her know the information just so that she could look at it and decide what

1065
01:16:09.440 --> 01:16:17.600
she wanted to do. Cause Kim had put her and her and I in contact about a month or two ago.

1066
01:16:17.600 --> 01:16:22.000
And so because she had reached out to me personally, I wanted to make sure she heard

1067
01:16:22.000 --> 01:16:26.720
back from me. And so I responded with this thing. I responded back then, but I told her,

1068
01:16:26.720 --> 01:16:31.040
she asked me, well, let me know the next time you do it. So we'll let her know. So anyway,

1069
01:16:31.040 --> 01:16:35.200
so I don't know if she'll join or not. But the thing is, I just want to let you

1070
01:16:35.200 --> 01:16:38.720
know so that you knew I sent her stuff. Hopefully she got it.

1071
01:16:39.680 --> 01:16:44.640
Yeah. Yeah. And I sent it to her too. It sounds like she's going to. Yeah. Yeah.

1072
01:16:44.640 --> 01:16:48.800
So, okay. Okay. Well, even if she doesn't, I will. So,

1073
01:16:49.520 --> 01:16:55.680
Oh, well, great. I'm so I always get excited when I get to know who for sure who's coming. So I'm

1074
01:16:55.680 --> 01:16:59.840
like, okay, I can start getting all plan, you know, plan, like who I'm going to be doing a

1075
01:16:59.840 --> 01:17:04.720
life with for the next several weeks. I always get excited about that. So yeah, there's several

1076
01:17:04.720 --> 01:17:11.120
other people who sound like they might be joining. And so we'll just, we'll just see.

1077
01:17:11.120 --> 01:17:18.240
So anyway, even new people. All right. Well, I will talk to you later and I will very much

1078
01:17:18.240 --> 01:17:27.200
look forward to seeing you when you join the group. Okay. Thank you. Bye Rita. Bye Ashley.