WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:26.000 I can't hear you. 2 00:00:26.000 --> 00:00:34.000 If you tap on the screen, the menu should pop up on the bottom and then click the audio. 3 00:00:34.000 --> 00:00:42.000 Which should say mute versus unmute. 4 00:00:42.000 --> 00:00:46.000 Well. 5 00:00:46.000 --> 00:00:52.000 Okay, so now, I can't, I can't hear you. That is so weird. 6 00:00:52.000 --> 00:00:56.000 Okay, wait, say it one more time. 7 00:00:56.000 --> 00:00:58.000 Can you hear me now. 8 00:00:58.000 --> 00:01:00.000 Now I can hear you. Okay, good. 9 00:01:00.000 --> 00:01:03.000 That was weird. 10 00:01:03.000 --> 00:01:04.000 How are you. 11 00:01:04.000 --> 00:01:07.000 I'm doing pretty good. 12 00:01:07.000 --> 00:01:09.000 Going well. 13 00:01:09.000 --> 00:01:12.000 It is. Yes. 14 00:01:12.000 --> 00:01:15.000 It's been, it's been busy but it's been good. 15 00:01:15.000 --> 00:01:17.000 Yeah. 16 00:01:17.000 --> 00:01:23.000 Well, it feels, it feels weird to see, you know, so often so many days in a row. 17 00:01:23.000 --> 00:01:27.000 Right, I know. Yesterday that today. 18 00:01:27.000 --> 00:01:39.000 So what, what is it that you would like to talk about or address or, or, I don't know, questions about or on your heart or going through or. 19 00:01:40.000 --> 00:01:43.000 I don't know. 20 00:01:43.000 --> 00:01:55.000 I didn't think about that before I got on here and I was like, it was kind of like, I don't really know like I feel like I'm in a good place right now. 21 00:01:55.000 --> 00:02:12.000 I feel like I'm in a good place like how, like a lot of times I just kind of forget about it. And I just, and I don't, I guess I want to say, I don't do work to stay in this place do I need to do work to stay in this place. 22 00:02:12.000 --> 00:02:14.000 Does that make sense. 23 00:02:15.000 --> 00:02:17.000 Yeah, it does. 24 00:02:17.000 --> 00:02:24.000 And we definitely don't want to do work to be in the place, obviously, but you do want to. 25 00:02:24.000 --> 00:02:43.000 You want to live in that rest, and in that, that choice that belief and choice between in that experience basically between you and the Lord, that you are always loved that he's loving on you right now so in other words, always enjoying everything 26 00:02:44.000 --> 00:02:55.000 being something you and God are doing together. So enjoying him all the time as opposed to putting him on the shelf until you're going through a hard time, and you go find him. 27 00:02:55.000 --> 00:03:08.000 It's learning to live life where you and he are always where your life focus is the development of your relationship with them, not in the okay now I'm doing life. 28 00:03:08.000 --> 00:03:26.000 And then I need to remember to just keep this thing with God good so that my life means that things are easier. It's like you it's shifting into no longer choosing your life as your highest priority and and choosing instead, you and God are developing 29 00:03:26.000 --> 00:03:55.000 relationship, and then living and existing together in the spirit, all the time. 30 00:03:55.000 --> 00:04:06.000 But, but we'll still be continuing the development of that relationship but even then I don't believe that our lives are going to look like they do now. 31 00:04:06.000 --> 00:04:22.000 You know that family units are going to operate and look in the same way then as they do now I believe that's a particular life experience in a way that we're going through that we're just going through this experience for however many years, because 32 00:04:22.000 --> 00:04:29.000 it is part of the development process you know etc or not development process it's just part of them. 33 00:04:29.000 --> 00:04:43.000 Just the way that God has set up creation to for us to process through and to walk through that, you know, God says that in heaven, he says that there is no such thing as as being married and being given a marriage and etc. 34 00:04:44.000 --> 00:04:59.000 Then, but that same but the thing that stays the same throughout is we're always developing our relationship with him, regardless of the circumstance or situation that we're in, whether it is before creation during creation, or after we die. 35 00:04:59.000 --> 00:05:00.000 So, so 36 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:03.920 The whole point, even during creation is the development of our relationship. 37 00:05:04.280 --> 00:05:05.880 So, okay. 38 00:05:05.960 --> 00:05:08.280 It's not that the other things aren't valuable and special. 39 00:05:08.480 --> 00:05:12.600 It's that they're not the point, the other's the point. 40 00:05:12.920 --> 00:05:16.840 And it's through living that way that it affects this, that it affects, you know, 41 00:05:16.840 --> 00:05:18.760 our family and our children or whatever. 42 00:05:19.280 --> 00:05:23.680 Um, yeah, the whole point isn't that to make this better. 43 00:05:23.720 --> 00:05:25.160 The whole point is living this. 44 00:05:25.160 --> 00:05:29.000 And then this happens to get gain all of the benefits of the 45 00:05:29.000 --> 00:05:30.640 development of our relationship with the Lord. 46 00:05:30.960 --> 00:05:35.560 So yeah, in fact, it's in the best when things are good, that's the easiest and 47 00:05:35.560 --> 00:05:39.640 the best time to do what it is that we're trying to do in the hard times. 48 00:05:39.640 --> 00:05:43.920 In fact, it makes it easier to do when the hard times is it's all set up. 49 00:05:43.960 --> 00:05:50.000 And, um, in the good times when things are easier, um, then it makes, it 50 00:05:50.000 --> 00:05:54.560 strengthens us so that in the hard times we're more prepared, we're more familiar 51 00:05:54.560 --> 00:05:59.960 with how to let go or how to, how to be remembering, you know, remembering, not 52 00:05:59.960 --> 00:06:04.760 like we're trying to remind ourselves, but just our awareness of, and our choice 53 00:06:04.760 --> 00:06:09.640 that I am living life, developing my relationship with the Lord, God, how do 54 00:06:09.640 --> 00:06:13.360 we, you know, going, in other words, going to the grocery store and walking up and 55 00:06:13.360 --> 00:06:17.160 down the aisles with the Lord and picking out rice and then picking out, you know, 56 00:06:17.160 --> 00:06:19.520 dah, dah, dah, you're not alone anymore. 57 00:06:20.320 --> 00:06:20.640 Hmm. 58 00:06:21.520 --> 00:06:23.120 So it's that kind of a thing. 59 00:06:23.160 --> 00:06:26.080 And that's what we focus on during the times is I'm alone. 60 00:06:26.120 --> 00:06:26.880 I mean, I'm alone. 61 00:06:27.160 --> 00:06:27.920 I'm loved. 62 00:06:28.120 --> 00:06:32.120 I'm enough, you know, he's delighting in me right now. 63 00:06:32.680 --> 00:06:38.680 Things are, things are, um, they really, they, and it's easier for us to 64 00:06:38.680 --> 00:06:41.360 believe that when things are going good. 65 00:06:42.640 --> 00:06:44.040 Um, so yeah. 66 00:06:44.800 --> 00:06:47.200 So yeah, like I said, it's a new lifestyle. 67 00:06:47.800 --> 00:06:48.120 Right. 68 00:06:48.440 --> 00:06:54.280 So I'll just talk a lot about the pain part because that's, um, that's some, 69 00:06:54.320 --> 00:07:00.200 that's the times where we are more likely are more usually triggered to be seeking 70 00:07:00.200 --> 00:07:06.080 the Lord and where people realize, oh yeah, things aren't okay, deep down inside 71 00:07:06.080 --> 00:07:09.440 me, because in the good times they think that they're okay, but that's kind of 72 00:07:09.440 --> 00:07:12.960 similar to the fact that you just aren't feeling it anymore. 73 00:07:13.720 --> 00:07:17.240 And then in the pain feelings come to the surface and oh my goodness, you know, 74 00:07:17.600 --> 00:07:20.200 we it's the problems are still there. 75 00:07:20.200 --> 00:07:23.880 The unbelief is still there, even when we don't feel it and everything feels good. 76 00:07:24.320 --> 00:07:26.680 So we just need to continue to choose God. 77 00:07:26.680 --> 00:07:27.320 This is mine. 78 00:07:27.360 --> 00:07:28.360 This is my choice. 79 00:07:28.360 --> 00:07:30.640 My choice is that you are my highest priority. 80 00:07:30.960 --> 00:07:33.000 You are my, my focus. 81 00:07:33.480 --> 00:07:37.920 I wake up every morning thinking, okay, me and God, we're living this life together. 82 00:07:37.920 --> 00:07:39.160 Okay, God, what are we doing now? 83 00:07:39.160 --> 00:07:39.360 Okay. 84 00:07:39.400 --> 00:07:42.480 We're going in and we're taking a shower and then we're now we're doing this. 85 00:07:42.480 --> 00:07:46.760 And it's just this awareness and this choice that you're just always enveloped 86 00:07:46.760 --> 00:07:51.360 in and exist within his love and his delight and the two of y'all are doing 87 00:07:51.360 --> 00:07:53.000 stuff together, et cetera. 88 00:07:53.000 --> 00:07:56.520 And it's a lot easier to be clear about direction from the Lord as 89 00:07:56.520 --> 00:07:57.920 well, when we're in that place. 90 00:07:58.760 --> 00:07:59.120 Okay. 91 00:07:59.600 --> 00:08:00.480 That makes sense. 92 00:08:01.280 --> 00:08:01.560 Yeah. 93 00:08:02.160 --> 00:08:06.640 So like my experience, so I had an experience, gosh, it was probably two or 94 00:08:06.640 --> 00:08:12.120 three months ago at the dentist is all these, it sounds, um, where I literally 95 00:08:12.120 --> 00:08:15.920 heard the audible voice of God for like, it was audible in what. 96 00:08:16.640 --> 00:08:19.120 It was audible to me, not to anyone around me. 97 00:08:20.000 --> 00:08:25.960 Um, but I also heard Satan in one ear and the Lord and the other. 98 00:08:25.960 --> 00:08:30.200 And it was the point where I was literally bawling in that dentist chair and they had 99 00:08:30.200 --> 00:08:31.640 to take a break from what they were doing. 100 00:08:32.120 --> 00:08:35.679 Luckily they're Christians and they were totally like, just with me in it. 101 00:08:36.400 --> 00:08:44.200 But he said so many things that just confirmed, confirmed a lot. 102 00:08:44.600 --> 00:08:50.240 And I go back to that time a lot when I'm feeling like I can't hear him. 103 00:08:50.280 --> 00:08:51.760 Like, where, where are you Lord? 104 00:08:51.760 --> 00:08:52.760 I want to hear you. 105 00:08:53.280 --> 00:08:59.440 Um, and that's kind of what happened yesterday when I just felt a freedom 106 00:08:59.440 --> 00:09:02.600 from him to choose, um, yeah. 107 00:09:03.120 --> 00:09:05.400 And I felt the condemnation. 108 00:09:05.400 --> 00:09:11.480 Like I literally on my right side of my body is where I heard the voice of 109 00:09:12.160 --> 00:09:16.360 at the dentist and it's always on the right side of my body where I feel 110 00:09:16.360 --> 00:09:21.560 condemnation, fear, and the Lord is always on the left side. 111 00:09:22.440 --> 00:09:25.160 And that's where I always feel loved and freedom. 112 00:09:26.160 --> 00:09:29.120 I love, um, I love, which is like, that's so weird. 113 00:09:30.040 --> 00:09:32.520 But no, it makes total sense. 114 00:09:32.560 --> 00:09:34.720 Most people aren't that sensitive and aware. 115 00:09:34.760 --> 00:09:35.800 That's amazing. 116 00:09:36.640 --> 00:09:45.440 So my, I guess my, I, it comes and it goes like, I know he's still speaking to 117 00:09:45.440 --> 00:09:47.880 me right when I don't hear him. 118 00:09:48.080 --> 00:09:54.440 Um, and trying like, I'm trying to figure out how to be more sensitive. 119 00:09:54.440 --> 00:09:57.000 And I think a lot of that does have to do with believing and 120 00:09:57.000 --> 00:09:59.520 choosing that I am loved that. 121 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:08.000 he loves me. I'm loved to the extent that he says I am. I mean do you have any like 122 00:10:08.800 --> 00:10:14.960 feedback on what helps you like just stay so you can you can keep you just you just hear him 123 00:10:14.960 --> 00:10:29.360 and it's not like okay where are you? Well one thing is that I remember that that my relationship 124 00:10:29.440 --> 00:10:34.960 with Lord or the way that things work when I interact with him is based off the fact that 125 00:10:34.960 --> 00:10:43.040 we're two beings. There's not a formula. So one of the things that I had to had to remember is 126 00:10:43.040 --> 00:10:47.280 when I was wanting always wanting that connection. I was always wanting him to be there. I was wanting 127 00:10:47.280 --> 00:10:53.600 a quote-unquote experience when I quote-unquote needed it. You know like okay Lord I'm really 128 00:10:53.600 --> 00:11:03.280 needing an answer. You know then I want I want a I want to be able to count on or depend on x y and 129 00:11:03.280 --> 00:11:14.640 z to and the way that I would work in my mind and in my emotions was I wanted to be able to predict 130 00:11:14.640 --> 00:11:23.520 in other words be able to control the outcome when I when I felt like it when I needed it when 131 00:11:23.520 --> 00:11:28.640 I was struggling when I was whatever but one of the things I had to realize is when things didn't 132 00:11:28.640 --> 00:11:36.320 work the same way all the time. I didn't always hear him. I couldn't always get the same response 133 00:11:36.320 --> 00:11:41.600 or the same experience by doing the same thing every time. I had to remember okay my relationship 134 00:11:41.600 --> 00:11:49.360 with God my interaction with him is based off the fact that he's a being not a formula or not a genie 135 00:11:49.360 --> 00:11:55.440 or something that okay like a plug and play. So in other words I had to kind of stop expecting 136 00:11:56.160 --> 00:12:06.960 a predictable chain of events. I need I want I ask I hear even if you know I'm on quote-unquote 137 00:12:06.960 --> 00:12:12.400 right relationship and everything's good and I'm believing he loves me etc. I have to remember okay 138 00:12:12.400 --> 00:12:21.920 he's a being so that means that so my point is that that helped me release the expectation of 139 00:12:21.920 --> 00:12:28.480 a formulaic predictable outcome because if if it's formulaic and it's predictable that means 140 00:12:28.480 --> 00:12:34.160 I'm controlling it. It means I figured it out and I'm trying to figure out how to utilize it to my 141 00:12:34.720 --> 00:12:42.000 benefit and I'm not meaning to make a sound like sinful or bad or whatever for wanting that. I'm 142 00:12:42.000 --> 00:12:48.560 just trying to point out the fact that the difference between the fact that God says he 143 00:12:48.560 --> 00:12:55.840 is always there and us and we can and he is always talking to us and kind of realizing and stop 144 00:12:55.840 --> 00:13:01.520 holding him like an accusation against him if we can't hear him because that accusation comes from 145 00:13:01.520 --> 00:13:08.720 the fact that we've decided oh I've now figured God out and I can predictably follow this particular 146 00:13:08.720 --> 00:13:13.600 chain of events towards getting the type of outcome or response from him that I'm wanting 147 00:13:13.600 --> 00:13:17.280 when I want it and I have to I have to let that go as well. So in other words 148 00:13:18.400 --> 00:13:26.320 and that that helped me kind of release him from that emotionally from having that kind of 149 00:13:26.320 --> 00:13:32.000 obligation towards me so there uh so there's that um and then some and then I thought there 150 00:13:32.000 --> 00:13:36.480 was something else I was going to say based off of um there were two things there was that one 151 00:13:36.480 --> 00:13:42.800 there was another one I was going to say related to that about like because what was your question 152 00:13:42.800 --> 00:13:48.400 was your question why can't we sometimes hear him is that what you were asking or what yeah 153 00:13:48.400 --> 00:13:56.560 like he feels far away or like I can't connect yeah okay um also sometimes where 154 00:13:56.560 --> 00:14:08.640 we're um God's answer to us isn't always uh isn't always what we expect sometimes we are just 155 00:14:08.640 --> 00:14:16.720 wanting what we believe is a very easy direct answer to our question and instead God is very 156 00:14:16.720 --> 00:14:23.600 aware of what's behind the question um or like say for instance it's about a particular situation 157 00:14:23.600 --> 00:14:30.960 like for instance God you know what what should I do should I leave my job and go to a new job 158 00:14:30.960 --> 00:14:35.600 should I should I whatever unless let's just use that as an example and we think that it's very 159 00:14:35.600 --> 00:14:40.720 clear and straightforward answer from the Lord yes leave your job yes go to this when you're 160 00:14:40.720 --> 00:14:44.880 God you're going God why can't you just tell me that so God I'm coming to you and I feel like I 161 00:14:44.880 --> 00:14:49.920 don't have an answer for you from you and really he's just like no it's not about you being at this 162 00:14:49.920 --> 00:14:56.720 job and not and or going to this job that's not really all that's going on here it's what's 163 00:14:56.720 --> 00:15:00.000 happening in you and how are you and I developing 164 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:04.960 our relationship and then how do we want to express that into the world? And part of that 165 00:15:04.960 --> 00:15:11.760 expression is the process we go through between releasing this job and all the things spiritually 166 00:15:11.760 --> 00:15:16.880 and in our soul that's going on with our connections job, releasing it, traversing and 167 00:15:16.880 --> 00:15:21.520 taking this journey of like finding a new job and the people that we meet along the way and 168 00:15:21.520 --> 00:15:25.120 what happens in our heart and our relationship with the Lord and accusation that comes up and 169 00:15:25.120 --> 00:15:30.800 the way that God performs the miracle and then this new thing that comes that this new job that 170 00:15:30.800 --> 00:15:36.240 reveals itself and there's there's a journey that God wants us to take and so he's not going to 171 00:15:36.240 --> 00:15:42.400 always tell us a direct answer he's just wants us to just lean on him just know okay you and I are 172 00:15:42.400 --> 00:15:50.720 just doing it just know that you and I are doing it not that not without me having to without me 173 00:15:50.720 --> 00:15:54.960 just simply telling you by the way this is where what's going on and this is where you're going 174 00:15:55.520 --> 00:16:02.480 just trust me because I want you to trust me not your knowledge of what's going on in order to give 175 00:16:02.480 --> 00:16:08.720 you security so often we are looking for clarification because we're using our knowledge 176 00:16:09.440 --> 00:16:15.280 of what's going on God am I supposed to leave am I supposed to leave now am I supposed to 177 00:16:15.280 --> 00:16:19.520 go to the new thing now what is the new thing you know what am I supposed to do 178 00:16:20.480 --> 00:16:27.680 we have a tendency to look at at the knowledge of those things to give ourselves a sense of safety 179 00:16:27.680 --> 00:16:33.840 security and then we we don't um there's an aspect of the Lord of a deeper trust that 180 00:16:33.840 --> 00:16:39.760 he desires us to have in him that we're not having in him because we're we're we are 181 00:16:40.560 --> 00:16:46.800 comforted by the knowledge and feeling safe because of the knowledge of okay now I know 182 00:16:46.800 --> 00:16:53.440 what's going on and sometimes God's going I want you to trust me and be at rest without you having 183 00:16:53.440 --> 00:16:59.440 to know what's going on without you understanding etc and that's what Adam and Eve were tempted with 184 00:16:59.440 --> 00:17:03.440 with the tree of the knowledge of good and evil it's not the tree of good and evil it's the tree 185 00:17:03.440 --> 00:17:12.480 of the knowledge of it and so that we tend to look at and think that oh well God isn't good enough 186 00:17:12.480 --> 00:17:18.720 for me meaning like he says he's going to create the outcome yeah but what is the outcome am I 187 00:17:18.720 --> 00:17:22.720 going to like the outcome how is that outcome going to come from about what am I going to have 188 00:17:22.720 --> 00:17:29.040 to go through before I get there do I like that why does that make me feel safe etc and we don't 189 00:17:29.040 --> 00:17:36.000 like that lack of control so we choose knowledge hey if I know what's going on I can comfort myself 190 00:17:36.560 --> 00:17:42.560 you know if I if I know where we're going then I can expect then I can prove but then I can 191 00:17:42.560 --> 00:17:48.400 know how to adjust my expectations because I depend so much on my expectations I know how 192 00:17:48.400 --> 00:17:54.160 to adjust my expectations so that I can protect myself in other words all this work is we're 193 00:17:54.160 --> 00:18:00.320 doing it all on our own I can protect myself against disappointment instead of relying on 194 00:18:00.320 --> 00:18:06.640 the Lord to protect us from disappointment to protect us from I don't know certain things 195 00:18:06.640 --> 00:18:11.920 happening to protect us from you know whatever so in other words this stuff this are this reliance 196 00:18:11.920 --> 00:18:17.680 on knowledge oh that is a very loud bird this reliance on knowledge goes to a very deep level 197 00:18:18.320 --> 00:18:23.280 it's not just it's not just knowledge of what is right to do and what's wrong to do it's knowledge 198 00:18:23.280 --> 00:18:30.560 of just our awareness of things that we take security in that's people's greatest fear is 199 00:18:30.560 --> 00:18:35.840 the fear of the unknown that's why they don't like death it's not that death is necessarily 200 00:18:35.840 --> 00:18:41.920 so bad to some people because they would prefer it to their current situation if certain some of 201 00:18:41.920 --> 00:18:49.360 them their current situations are just so bad but even Shakespeare wrote about this in Hamlet 202 00:18:49.360 --> 00:18:55.680 Hamlet was contemplating suicide and then in one of him and one of Shakespeare's most famous 203 00:18:55.680 --> 00:19:00.960 passages eight it's you know to be or not to be that's what that's questioning he's questioning 204 00:19:02.000 --> 00:19:07.440 he's questioning to be in other words to exist or or not to be he said that is the question and 205 00:19:07.440 --> 00:19:13.040 as it goes along he says you know we all finally get to the point where we don't all he said but 206 00:19:13.040 --> 00:19:19.200 sometimes we'll go through situations where things are so bad we want to just end it all he 207 00:19:19.200 --> 00:19:25.040 said but what keeps us from doing it he said the fact that it's unknown he said everyone goes there 208 00:19:25.040 --> 00:19:30.560 and they you know all of these people die they go to this other land or something but no one comes 209 00:19:30.560 --> 00:19:36.800 back to to verify what it's like so that's what scares all of us from committing suicide is 210 00:19:36.800 --> 00:19:41.440 because you know or that's what Hamlet was saying you know this what prevents people from committing 211 00:19:41.440 --> 00:19:47.840 suicide is because they're afraid of the unknown so because it's that whole Adam and Eve choice is 212 00:19:47.840 --> 00:19:54.480 we want to know because we get that safety and security from clarity so and from hearing God 213 00:19:54.480 --> 00:19:59.680 talk meaning like God's told us something or if we heard him talk but then we know he's there again 214 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:05.340 the knowledge. And so we just have to, but God in spirit can 215 00:20:05.340 --> 00:20:09.760 only be known and related to through faith, through the fact 216 00:20:09.760 --> 00:20:14.240 that God said something, you know, and by the way, when God 217 00:20:14.240 --> 00:20:19.760 says something, in other words, what God gives us isn't just 218 00:20:19.760 --> 00:20:23.760 words. So there can be things that you receive from him that 219 00:20:23.760 --> 00:20:27.120 you can hold on to that you've never even heard the English 220 00:20:27.120 --> 00:20:31.320 words for, because word isn't just like a truth that he's 221 00:20:31.320 --> 00:20:34.080 telling you. And he's saying, Oh, by the way, I want you to 222 00:20:34.080 --> 00:20:37.960 believe me next Y and Z. Sometimes what it is that we're 223 00:20:37.960 --> 00:20:43.480 holding on to, that's actually word from God himself is just, 224 00:20:44.560 --> 00:20:47.520 uh, how would I, I don't read that. I've never tried to word 225 00:20:47.520 --> 00:20:52.280 that before. It's a, it's a, I was going to say it's a, it's 226 00:20:52.280 --> 00:20:55.560 an experience, but it's not an experience. It's just a knowing 227 00:20:55.720 --> 00:20:57.920 you don't even know what it is, you know, but there's something 228 00:20:57.920 --> 00:21:00.600 within you. That's completely gone still that you completely 229 00:21:00.600 --> 00:21:04.040 have faith in God about, and you don't even know what you're 230 00:21:04.040 --> 00:21:06.680 believing about it. You don't even know what you're believing 231 00:21:06.680 --> 00:21:09.720 about God, but you're, but you know, that you're having faith 232 00:21:10.840 --> 00:21:14.200 with, because you're completely still inside. In other words, 233 00:21:14.200 --> 00:21:17.960 you're completely at rest. That is another aspect as weird as 234 00:21:17.960 --> 00:21:20.880 that sounds. I know that's getting kind of deep, but as 235 00:21:20.880 --> 00:21:24.200 weird as it sounds, that is another aspect of word word is 236 00:21:24.200 --> 00:21:28.400 God himself. Case in point, Jesus himself was word with a 237 00:21:28.400 --> 00:21:33.200 capital W and Jesus was not an English word or Greek word or 238 00:21:33.200 --> 00:21:38.120 Hebrew word. He was a being. And that being was called word. So 239 00:21:38.120 --> 00:21:42.440 when it says that when God gives us word or God's word carries, 240 00:21:42.600 --> 00:21:46.240 uh, when, uh, what are those passages? You know, when God 241 00:21:46.240 --> 00:21:50.200 gives us word or when God speaks his word or whatever, it doesn't 242 00:21:50.200 --> 00:21:54.480 mean that he tells us something that we can understand. Cause 243 00:21:54.480 --> 00:21:58.440 again, that's knowledge. It's that his spirit is emanating 244 00:21:58.440 --> 00:22:02.560 something to our spirit in our spirit grabs it, whether or not 245 00:22:02.560 --> 00:22:06.400 our soul and our mind understand what it is that we grabbed, but 246 00:22:06.400 --> 00:22:09.680 there's something within us. That's still something within us 247 00:22:09.680 --> 00:22:12.760 that knows that everything's okay. Something within us. 248 00:22:12.760 --> 00:22:16.160 That's that latches onto that thing, whatever it is. And we 249 00:22:16.160 --> 00:22:20.440 get, and we're feel secure. That is word too, because word 250 00:22:20.440 --> 00:22:24.720 isn't something God speaks word is when he gives you and ask a 251 00:22:24.720 --> 00:22:29.160 piece of himself. Think of it kind of like this. When, um, I 252 00:22:29.160 --> 00:22:31.800 always kind of picture it like a man and a woman coming together 253 00:22:31.800 --> 00:22:35.560 to make a child is a man initiates. So, and then the 254 00:22:35.560 --> 00:22:38.360 woman receives, and it's the same thing with the Lord. When 255 00:22:38.360 --> 00:22:43.120 the seed that the Lord gives to us is word. That's why in 256 00:22:43.120 --> 00:22:46.120 scripture, he always refers to all of those parables, you know, 257 00:22:46.120 --> 00:22:49.360 the talk about the farmer sowing the seed or whatever. And then 258 00:22:49.440 --> 00:22:52.760 when Jesus translated it, he said, that's actually the word 259 00:22:52.760 --> 00:22:56.560 of God. It's piece and parcel of himself. Same thing, you know, 260 00:22:56.560 --> 00:23:01.520 as an example of, of a man, um, with a woman is he's giving that 261 00:23:01.520 --> 00:23:06.440 seed. It literally was piece and parcel of himself. It literally 262 00:23:06.440 --> 00:23:10.880 was created from his DNA, from his cells, et cetera. It really 263 00:23:10.880 --> 00:23:18.040 is truly a literal piece of his body that he offers. And then, 264 00:23:18.080 --> 00:23:22.560 and then what we do to receive that from the Lord is he gives 265 00:23:22.560 --> 00:23:27.080 word, he gives seed, and then we respond. We can effortlessly, 266 00:23:27.080 --> 00:23:30.920 just like a woman, we can effortlessly receive it without 267 00:23:30.960 --> 00:23:34.800 a baby being born as a result, because in order for a baby to 268 00:23:34.800 --> 00:23:39.400 be born, in order for something to manifest from that, we have 269 00:23:39.400 --> 00:23:43.800 to have a response to the word or response to that seed. We 270 00:23:43.800 --> 00:23:48.760 have to contribute our own seed. So our, so just simply God 271 00:23:48.760 --> 00:23:52.320 talking to us and giving word and just emanating that out 272 00:23:52.440 --> 00:23:56.280 doesn't mean that, that what he says is actually going to happen 273 00:23:56.280 --> 00:24:00.240 in our lives. Just because a man initiates with a woman doesn't 274 00:24:00.240 --> 00:24:05.280 mean that a baby is conceived. A woman has to contribute. She has 275 00:24:05.280 --> 00:24:10.280 to respond, not receive it. She had in the receiving, after the 276 00:24:10.280 --> 00:24:13.640 receiving, she has to actually initiate, she has to respond in 277 00:24:13.640 --> 00:24:17.680 a particular way directly to it. And our response in the spirit 278 00:24:18.240 --> 00:24:24.640 is faith. It's, it's Lord, I choose that that is also true. 279 00:24:24.680 --> 00:24:27.960 You say that this is true, you give me piece and parcel of 280 00:24:27.960 --> 00:24:32.000 yourself, just like a man, you know, in that literal seed, that 281 00:24:32.000 --> 00:24:36.120 word from God is not something he said, it's piece and parcel 282 00:24:36.120 --> 00:24:40.720 of himself. Sometimes the piece and parcel expresses itself in 283 00:24:40.720 --> 00:24:45.120 something he says, sometimes it expressed himself as Jesus 284 00:24:45.120 --> 00:24:50.960 himself. So word can take on a variety of expressions. It's not 285 00:24:51.000 --> 00:24:55.960 spoken. It's piece and parcel of God that gets expressed sometimes 286 00:24:55.960 --> 00:24:59.120 in language. Sometimes it gets expressed as Jesus. Sometimes it 287 00:24:59.120 --> 00:24:59.880 gets expressed as 288 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:04.520 something else, but, um, it's actually God himself that he's giving us. 289 00:25:04.560 --> 00:25:08.240 And that's why, when we believe him, he receives that as love because we 290 00:25:08.240 --> 00:25:10.240 literally are receiving a piece of God. 291 00:25:10.600 --> 00:25:11.680 We're receiving it. 292 00:25:11.700 --> 00:25:12.720 We're accepting it. 293 00:25:12.820 --> 00:25:13.960 We're choosing it. 294 00:25:14.640 --> 00:25:19.240 So, um, anyway, so that's why I was, why I was saying that I know it's going 295 00:25:19.240 --> 00:25:26.380 kind of deep, but we can receive God and receive his word without hearing him say 296 00:25:26.380 --> 00:25:30.700 something, so he's always giving us an aspect of himself. 297 00:25:30.820 --> 00:25:31.060 Yeah. 298 00:25:31.100 --> 00:25:35.660 He's always giving us an aspect of self in some way, even if we don't hear words, 299 00:25:35.700 --> 00:25:40.700 even if we don't receive quote unquote direction, because our whole point is 300 00:25:40.900 --> 00:25:44.820 when we're asking God, well, God, what about this and what should I do? 301 00:25:44.820 --> 00:25:47.940 And we're going to him and we're wanting him to say something. 302 00:25:48.340 --> 00:25:50.340 He will always communicate with us. 303 00:25:50.340 --> 00:25:53.020 In fact, he's always giving us an aspect of himself. 304 00:25:53.420 --> 00:25:59.500 We just may not hear it as a clarified as in clarification of a lid of an exact 305 00:25:59.540 --> 00:26:05.820 direction that we should take or the thing that we should do or what it is 306 00:26:05.820 --> 00:26:07.340 that when we should do it or whatever. 307 00:26:08.020 --> 00:26:08.420 Okay. 308 00:26:08.460 --> 00:26:10.180 In the notice, I guess it's on that journey. 309 00:26:10.220 --> 00:26:10.500 Yeah. 310 00:26:10.540 --> 00:26:10.900 So. 311 00:26:11.380 --> 00:26:11.740 Okay. 312 00:26:11.900 --> 00:26:14.260 That makes a lot of sense and make, yes. 313 00:26:14.260 --> 00:26:16.580 It makes sense with my journey and everything. 314 00:26:17.220 --> 00:26:17.380 Yeah. 315 00:26:17.420 --> 00:26:21.020 Um, so then what do you do with him? 316 00:26:21.020 --> 00:26:22.500 Not our experience with him. 317 00:26:23.140 --> 00:26:23.500 Yeah. 318 00:26:25.220 --> 00:26:27.300 So then what do you do with like knowledge? 319 00:26:27.380 --> 00:26:33.660 Like, like in many ways, since learning about, you know, the tree of the 320 00:26:33.660 --> 00:26:39.020 knowledge of good and evil, it's like, I've desired not to search out knowledge 321 00:26:40.060 --> 00:26:41.900 for certain, for many things. 322 00:26:41.940 --> 00:26:43.180 Like, I just don't want to know. 323 00:26:43.940 --> 00:26:53.300 Um, but when, like, when do we research? 324 00:26:53.300 --> 00:26:59.780 When do we like, or do we not like, does that show that we don't have faith? 325 00:27:01.780 --> 00:27:02.220 No. 326 00:27:02.500 --> 00:27:07.380 Um, because, uh, just like God created the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. 327 00:27:07.580 --> 00:27:11.540 He, and it was in the, according to Romans seven, it says it was a holy tree. 328 00:27:12.500 --> 00:27:13.980 Knowledge is a wonderful thing. 329 00:27:14.060 --> 00:27:15.460 God doesn't create bad things. 330 00:27:15.660 --> 00:27:19.940 In fact, God appreciates when we appreciate the fact, what it is that he 331 00:27:19.940 --> 00:27:23.980 created, including knowledge and researching and information, what God 332 00:27:23.980 --> 00:27:25.860 said is he said, don't eat of it. 333 00:27:26.180 --> 00:27:30.020 In other words, don't, don't depend on it to save you. 334 00:27:30.820 --> 00:27:35.460 It's, um, uh, how far have you gotten in the, the inner is rest teachings? 335 00:27:36.300 --> 00:27:39.900 I got, you know, video for, um, okay. 336 00:27:40.820 --> 00:27:41.420 Yes. 337 00:27:41.980 --> 00:27:44.180 The King exercises and all of that. 338 00:27:44.700 --> 00:27:44.860 Yeah. 339 00:27:44.860 --> 00:27:45.140 Okay. 340 00:27:45.140 --> 00:27:49.020 So a lot of, a lot more of all this will make sense in session five. 341 00:27:49.500 --> 00:27:53.140 Um, and, uh, anyway, like a lot more. 342 00:27:53.580 --> 00:27:55.260 So you'll see this session. 343 00:27:55.700 --> 00:27:58.700 So is this right side for you backwards? 344 00:27:59.060 --> 00:27:59.260 Yep. 345 00:27:59.300 --> 00:27:59.700 That's right. 346 00:27:59.780 --> 00:28:00.140 Excellent. 347 00:28:00.580 --> 00:28:01.820 Again, it's backwards for me. 348 00:28:01.940 --> 00:28:02.220 Okay. 349 00:28:02.500 --> 00:28:05.260 So this is what I talk about in, in session five. 350 00:28:05.260 --> 00:28:06.260 It explains a lot. 351 00:28:06.260 --> 00:28:13.060 It explains about basically the, um, it goes into more depth about the, the how, 352 00:28:13.140 --> 00:28:17.420 um, Oh my word, may the Lord help me with my language. 353 00:28:17.420 --> 00:28:22.420 I don't know why I have been stumbling over trying to, uh, ever my words 354 00:28:22.420 --> 00:28:24.060 and trying to articulate things lately. 355 00:28:24.060 --> 00:28:24.700 Are you pregnant? 356 00:28:26.220 --> 00:28:26.460 Yeah. 357 00:28:26.460 --> 00:28:26.740 Yeah. 358 00:28:26.980 --> 00:28:28.180 Not that I'm aware of. 359 00:28:29.540 --> 00:28:30.500 So that's really cute. 360 00:28:30.900 --> 00:28:32.140 Yeah, exactly. 361 00:28:32.660 --> 00:28:36.100 Um, yeah, it's so weird to finally be at the time of my life where it's an 362 00:28:36.100 --> 00:28:39.820 actual possibility, you know, it's like, Oh, this is the first time. 363 00:28:40.300 --> 00:28:50.940 Um, uh, so it will explain where, uh, the, uh, how to hold knowledge in the, 364 00:28:51.180 --> 00:28:57.180 in the appropriate, with the appropriate perspective that it's, it's a good thing. 365 00:28:57.220 --> 00:29:01.500 We should seek it, um, meaning like we should be interested in it. 366 00:29:01.500 --> 00:29:02.820 We should appreciate it. 367 00:29:03.020 --> 00:29:06.180 We're learning more about God because God himself, remember how God 368 00:29:06.180 --> 00:29:07.940 expresses himself in a variety of ways. 369 00:29:07.940 --> 00:29:11.620 One of the ways he expresses himself is in how he created knowledge 370 00:29:11.820 --> 00:29:13.380 and how he created it to work. 371 00:29:13.660 --> 00:29:17.820 And so receiving it and appreciating it as receiving an aspect of God himself. 372 00:29:17.820 --> 00:29:18.540 So it's all good. 373 00:29:19.020 --> 00:29:21.420 But what God doesn't want us to do is to eat from it. 374 00:29:21.420 --> 00:29:28.580 Meaning like, like I said, to depend on it is if our lack of knowledge, if we are 375 00:29:28.580 --> 00:29:36.180 weak and, um, and without knowledge and that it's our, that our lack of knowledge 376 00:29:36.180 --> 00:29:41.140 will kill us or that, and by that, I mean like spiritually, you know, socially, 377 00:29:41.140 --> 00:29:47.820 emotionally, whatever, um, or that are, um, us having knowledge will save us 378 00:29:48.060 --> 00:29:53.380 because what that's doing is knowledge is down here and God wants us to rely on him. 379 00:29:53.420 --> 00:29:57.300 Also, where will I talk about this in the session? 380 00:29:57.700 --> 00:29:58.740 You're like a balloon. 381 00:29:59.180 --> 00:29:59.980 You exist. 382 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:06.300 up here in the spirit. And so you can, you can, you're, you're 383 00:30:06.300 --> 00:30:11.100 positioned in Christ, where you are in the position of all power 384 00:30:11.100 --> 00:30:14.220 and all authority and everything has been put under your feet 385 00:30:14.220 --> 00:30:16.980 because it's you're in Christ and everything is under Christ's 386 00:30:16.980 --> 00:30:21.940 feet. That means that knowledge, Satan, you know, evil forces, 387 00:30:21.940 --> 00:30:26.460 all of those things are under your feet, including, like I 388 00:30:26.460 --> 00:30:30.200 said, knowledge, that means you're you in your position in 389 00:30:30.200 --> 00:30:33.840 Christ, you receive everything from Christ that you need. And 390 00:30:33.840 --> 00:30:38.960 knowledge is less than that. And you're above knowledge. So if we 391 00:30:38.960 --> 00:30:43.120 depend on knowledge, and we think that we are in order to 392 00:30:43.120 --> 00:30:47.240 give us something, we're putting ourselves underneath knowledge, 393 00:30:47.280 --> 00:30:51.780 because we need it in order to have something that we feel that 394 00:30:51.780 --> 00:30:54.360 we don't have. For one thing that's coming into agreement 395 00:30:54.780 --> 00:30:59.220 that we are in lack. And in other words, in disagreement 396 00:30:59.220 --> 00:31:02.460 with God that he's we're in abundance. And so if we're in 397 00:31:02.460 --> 00:31:05.400 lack, well, what can get me out of life, what can give me what I 398 00:31:05.400 --> 00:31:07.940 need, because I don't have everything, okay, knowledge has 399 00:31:07.940 --> 00:31:12.000 something to give me that I don't have. And therefore, I 400 00:31:12.000 --> 00:31:15.740 need it in order to get what it is that I don't have that is 401 00:31:15.780 --> 00:31:19.580 claiming and making knowledge more powerful in our life than 402 00:31:19.580 --> 00:31:23.500 we are. It's making it more powerful in our life than God 403 00:31:23.500 --> 00:31:27.480 is. That's the problem. So that's why, you know, we're not 404 00:31:27.480 --> 00:31:29.480 supposed to eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, 405 00:31:29.480 --> 00:31:33.880 meaning you're you when you eat, let's just, you know how it was 406 00:31:33.880 --> 00:31:36.760 when we were kids, it was always pictured as an apple, eBay, the 407 00:31:36.760 --> 00:31:42.680 apple. So we eat the apple. So when we do, I mean, we know this 408 00:31:42.680 --> 00:31:44.980 and you know this better than anyone based off of you know, 409 00:31:44.980 --> 00:31:49.240 your your experience and your all of your, all of your 410 00:31:49.240 --> 00:31:56.780 research and everything. And, and is that we use what it is 411 00:31:56.780 --> 00:32:00.020 that we eat, our body uses what it is that we eat for fuel. 412 00:32:00.400 --> 00:32:03.420 That's what it uses to accomplish what it does. That's 413 00:32:03.420 --> 00:32:07.420 where it gets its energy from, etc. And God said, that's why 414 00:32:07.420 --> 00:32:10.780 God said don't eat of it. But he gave them dominion over it. And 415 00:32:10.780 --> 00:32:13.500 he said, you know, I want you to take care of the trees in the 416 00:32:13.500 --> 00:32:16.340 garden, including the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. 417 00:32:16.480 --> 00:32:19.800 But he said, don't eat of it. He didn't say don't touch it. 418 00:32:20.040 --> 00:32:23.800 Even made that up. He didn't say don't touch it. He said, don't 419 00:32:23.840 --> 00:32:28.720 eat of it. There's nothing wrong with interacting with it. God 420 00:32:28.720 --> 00:32:34.220 just says, remember who you are. This is you. This is it. And 421 00:32:34.220 --> 00:32:37.360 don't get them flipped. You know, don't make knowledge and 422 00:32:37.360 --> 00:32:40.960 believe knowledge has something that you don't, and then put 423 00:32:40.960 --> 00:32:46.320 yourself underneath it. So it's so we're not supposed to rely 424 00:32:46.340 --> 00:32:50.620 on knowledge. So now that so we approach knowledge and research 425 00:32:50.620 --> 00:32:55.740 and learn about things from the perspective that okay, we're not 426 00:32:55.740 --> 00:32:59.460 dependent on it, God has given us everything. So now that God 427 00:32:59.460 --> 00:33:03.820 has given me everything, what aspect of creation would, you 428 00:33:03.820 --> 00:33:07.580 know, does the Lord want to be part of our journey? And let's 429 00:33:07.580 --> 00:33:11.060 go learn about it. Sometimes learning about it will prompt 430 00:33:11.060 --> 00:33:14.340 our conversations with the Lord. So say, for instance, that God 431 00:33:14.360 --> 00:33:16.840 hasn't given you a particular direction to look into 432 00:33:16.840 --> 00:33:19.720 something. But there's something in you that's just particularly 433 00:33:19.720 --> 00:33:25.520 interested. Well, I take I take those things as I mean, unless I 434 00:33:25.520 --> 00:33:28.920 feel some weight in it, which means that I'm pursuing out of 435 00:33:28.920 --> 00:33:32.560 fear, unless I feel some weight in it. I'm like, hey, you know 436 00:33:32.560 --> 00:33:35.800 what, maybe the Lord is prompting me that something good 437 00:33:35.800 --> 00:33:40.080 in me that is just excited or drawn to learning about 438 00:33:40.080 --> 00:33:43.880 something that God created some principle by which he created 439 00:33:43.980 --> 00:33:48.460 nature and life in my body to react and to respond to water or 440 00:33:48.460 --> 00:33:52.220 to food or to chemo or to naturopathic, you know, 441 00:33:52.220 --> 00:33:55.280 supplements or you know, whatever. And I want to learn 442 00:33:55.280 --> 00:33:59.860 more about all of that. And so I follow those leads. And then 443 00:33:59.860 --> 00:34:02.660 when as I'm pursuing it, I'm still doing it with the Lord. 444 00:34:02.660 --> 00:34:05.340 I'm not saying, Okay, God, I'm gonna go do this. I hope you're 445 00:34:05.340 --> 00:34:09.460 okay with this. I'll be back. It's like, no, you and the Lord 446 00:34:09.580 --> 00:34:11.840 are researching it together. You're looking through the 447 00:34:11.840 --> 00:34:14.420 internet together when you're always in your spirit, keeping 448 00:34:14.420 --> 00:34:17.780 yourself open to the Lord. Instead of closing him off 449 00:34:17.780 --> 00:34:21.620 thinking I'm, I don't feel safe with God, that he's going to 450 00:34:21.620 --> 00:34:25.580 keep me safe. And I want to learn what it is that I want to 451 00:34:25.580 --> 00:34:29.100 learn because it probably has the secret to heal me. It's 452 00:34:29.100 --> 00:34:32.540 like, okay, you and the Lord together, open it, research it 453 00:34:32.540 --> 00:34:35.900 together. And then you'll feel in your spirit leadings and 454 00:34:35.900 --> 00:34:39.500 freedom towards learning about particular things. And then 455 00:34:39.500 --> 00:34:42.000 you'll feel closed off towards others. And then you take those 456 00:34:42.000 --> 00:34:45.120 things before the Lord that you felt that you learned about and 457 00:34:45.120 --> 00:34:48.960 that you felt freedom and love in you're like, Okay, God, what 458 00:34:48.960 --> 00:34:53.360 about this? You know, you, you know, should, should we, you 459 00:34:53.360 --> 00:34:55.880 know, should we implement this? Should this be part of our 460 00:34:55.880 --> 00:34:59.120 journey? I don't fully understand it. Or I think that I 461 00:34:59.120 --> 00:34:59.960 fully understand 462 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.640 this is what it sounds like to me, should we do this? And then you and the Lord have a 463 00:35:04.640 --> 00:35:09.120 conversation about what it is that y'all want to do about it. So that's what knowledge is. 464 00:35:09.120 --> 00:35:13.760 We can use it to kind of like trigger and prompt conversations with the Lord, 465 00:35:13.760 --> 00:35:23.680 but we always rely on God, not knowledge as our source, as what's going to heal us, 466 00:35:23.680 --> 00:35:30.400 as it has everything it is that we need. Knowledge does not have any power to fix us 467 00:35:31.120 --> 00:35:36.880 unless we put ourselves, take ourselves away from God and put ourselves underneath knowledge. 468 00:35:36.880 --> 00:35:41.600 And if we do that, it means that we are condemned for everything. It is that, 469 00:35:43.360 --> 00:35:48.640 that, okay. Say for instance, if we put ourselves under knowledge, it means that we're putting 470 00:35:48.640 --> 00:35:53.280 ourself under the law and there's all kinds of benefits if you follow the law and there's 471 00:35:53.280 --> 00:35:59.920 all kinds of condemnation and judgment and consequences. If you don't, if you break it, 472 00:35:59.920 --> 00:36:05.280 whether or not, you know what the consequences were to break it. If you put yourself in 473 00:36:05.280 --> 00:36:12.080 subjection to knowledge or the law, you sure you gain all of the benefits. You're controlling 474 00:36:12.080 --> 00:36:16.960 everything now and you gain all the benefits. It also subjects you to all the consequences. 475 00:36:16.960 --> 00:36:21.040 And then there's always going to be consequences. That's why there's currently, because it's 476 00:36:21.040 --> 00:36:26.480 currently a flesh, which is subject to death. So there's always going to be consequences in it 477 00:36:26.480 --> 00:36:30.880 until it's overcome and transferred to transform spirit, which is what we're trying to do. 478 00:36:31.440 --> 00:36:36.480 But until then, so it's going to have consequences and side effects. That's why even naturopathic 479 00:36:37.680 --> 00:36:41.920 options have side effects. It's why essential oils have side effects. It's why apples still 480 00:36:41.920 --> 00:36:49.200 have side effects. Everything leads to entropy eventually. So no matter how good and how pure 481 00:36:49.200 --> 00:36:55.680 and organic that something is, it still has a side effect because regardless, all of those things 482 00:36:55.680 --> 00:37:02.960 are still are still, um, of the law and are still subject to corruption until we overcome them in 483 00:37:02.960 --> 00:37:09.280 the spirit and transfer them to spirit. So anyway, it's not that they're bad. Knowledge isn't bad 484 00:37:09.280 --> 00:37:16.080 and all these tools aren't bad. They just don't, we, we can't rely on them to give us a power 485 00:37:16.880 --> 00:37:23.360 that we're denying that God says that he provides for us. We can't deny that and then choose to get 486 00:37:23.360 --> 00:37:28.400 that power from knowledge or whatever. That means that we're denying that we are who God says that 487 00:37:28.400 --> 00:37:33.680 we are. If we're here and, but we're relying on knowledge. It's instead we're putting ourself 488 00:37:33.680 --> 00:37:39.360 either here or here. And God said, that's not who you are. That's not where you are. And that's why 489 00:37:39.360 --> 00:37:48.000 we're in sin. It's unbelief. It's not an action. It's not believing God, but in being on this 490 00:37:48.000 --> 00:37:53.520 journey, like, Oh, well, I don't know if I should research. I didn't know if I should learn about it. 491 00:37:53.520 --> 00:38:01.680 I didn't know if I'm relying on knowledge and you're fine. It's God has grace for us to be 492 00:38:01.760 --> 00:38:07.360 wherever it is that we are. And like, I, I always say, if you're five, be five, 493 00:38:08.800 --> 00:38:14.640 but just to always be stretching towards learning what you need to and pushing boundaries of faith 494 00:38:15.200 --> 00:38:20.720 to eventually grow into six years old. You know, it's that kind of a thing. I always use five. 495 00:38:20.720 --> 00:38:25.360 Why? I don't know. Oh, I know why, because I was talking to my brother one time and he talked to 496 00:38:25.360 --> 00:38:29.680 me about that. He was saying, Ashley, if you're five, just be five. So I've used that all the time 497 00:38:29.680 --> 00:38:34.000 that, uh, so I don't mean to make us all sound like, I think that we're all immature children. 498 00:38:34.000 --> 00:38:39.760 I just, I'm picking a number and five makes sense to people because they can picture a five-year-old 499 00:38:39.760 --> 00:38:44.400 as opposed to like a, I don't know, 15 or a 19 year old five-year-old seems to make more sense 500 00:38:44.400 --> 00:38:49.760 to people. But anyway, the point is that wherever it is that we are on the journey, it's okay for 501 00:38:49.760 --> 00:38:54.960 us to be there. And God's like, okay, that's where you are right now. It's what you understand. It's 502 00:38:54.960 --> 00:38:59.280 what you know, you are, have more faith today than you did yesterday. And I am pleased that 503 00:38:59.280 --> 00:39:05.200 you believe me to that degree. So that's another thing that I always choose is I allow myself to, 504 00:39:05.200 --> 00:39:14.000 I receive myself as where I am on the journey and believe that and choose that God is not, 505 00:39:14.000 --> 00:39:18.800 says that I am not ever in condemnation, no matter where it is that I am on the journey. 506 00:39:18.800 --> 00:39:26.480 So I receive myself like that as well. And this is just where I am. So I'm stretching in my faith 507 00:39:27.040 --> 00:39:32.480 and I'm learning and whatever degree to which I am having faith with God, 508 00:39:32.480 --> 00:39:40.480 he is pleased and so excited that I would receive him to that degree. God views life as half full, 509 00:39:40.480 --> 00:39:46.560 not half empty. He's pleased with what we give him. You know, the glass is half empty instead of, 510 00:39:47.120 --> 00:39:53.360 the glass is half full instead of half empty. He's pleased with what it is that we, he focuses 511 00:39:53.360 --> 00:39:59.280 on the positive. He's always pleased with what it is that we give him as opposed to focusing on 512 00:39:59.280 --> 00:39:59.920 where it is. 513 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.760 is that we haven't journeyed to or grown into yet. 514 00:40:04.760 --> 00:40:08.960 He's pleased that we believe in to the degree that we do. 515 00:40:08.960 --> 00:40:11.200 So we operate in that measure. 516 00:40:11.200 --> 00:40:15.120 And then the rest of it, go where your soul finds peace. 517 00:40:15.120 --> 00:40:17.560 And that's one of the things I think I talked about 518 00:40:17.560 --> 00:40:20.800 in like session seven is, in fact, I would read 519 00:40:20.800 --> 00:40:25.800 if you go to the practical shifting tools posts that I made. 520 00:40:26.040 --> 00:40:27.640 Did you see that one? 521 00:40:27.640 --> 00:40:28.900 It's a very long post. 522 00:40:28.900 --> 00:40:31.880 So if you go almost all the way to the bottom, 523 00:40:31.880 --> 00:40:36.060 right before victory in Jesus or victory through Jesus. 524 00:40:36.060 --> 00:40:37.120 I don't remember how worded that. 525 00:40:37.120 --> 00:40:40.740 It says, choose and go where your soul finds peace. 526 00:40:40.740 --> 00:40:45.740 That is kind of your default for you stretch into faith 527 00:40:45.860 --> 00:40:47.740 as much as you can. 528 00:40:47.740 --> 00:40:50.020 And then for whatever it is that your faith 529 00:40:50.020 --> 00:40:55.020 just isn't there yet, go back to, 530 00:40:55.100 --> 00:40:57.300 you know, declare that what God says is true, 531 00:40:57.300 --> 00:40:59.300 but go where your soul finds peace. 532 00:40:59.300 --> 00:41:03.220 In other words, act on what it is that gives your soul peace 533 00:41:03.220 --> 00:41:08.220 because it doesn't do us any good to want to believe God, 534 00:41:11.540 --> 00:41:14.820 but we don't actually believe God, but we want to. 535 00:41:14.820 --> 00:41:19.580 And so we step out on it because that's not real faith. 536 00:41:19.580 --> 00:41:23.180 So there's nothing to support us and we fall. 537 00:41:23.180 --> 00:41:25.380 So it's like you're coming to an edge of a cliff. 538 00:41:25.380 --> 00:41:26.860 You know, I wanna have faith in the Lord. 539 00:41:27.380 --> 00:41:30.420 Because he says to, you know, what faith is, 540 00:41:30.420 --> 00:41:34.020 is faith is putting is we coming to the edge of the cliff 541 00:41:34.020 --> 00:41:36.300 and there's all this, you know, void 542 00:41:36.300 --> 00:41:39.980 and faith is creates this stepping stone 543 00:41:39.980 --> 00:41:43.780 so that when we step out in action after the faith, 544 00:41:43.780 --> 00:41:45.940 we've got something to support us. 545 00:41:45.940 --> 00:41:48.580 But if so, but if we want to believe this, 546 00:41:48.580 --> 00:41:51.380 but we don't believe it, but we really want to, 547 00:41:51.380 --> 00:41:53.540 we wish that we believed it because God's, 548 00:41:53.540 --> 00:41:55.740 I'm willing to Lord, 549 00:41:55.740 --> 00:41:58.820 this stepping stone does not get created. 550 00:41:58.820 --> 00:42:01.460 And if we act without that faith, 551 00:42:01.460 --> 00:42:03.300 even though we really want to believe in, 552 00:42:03.300 --> 00:42:06.260 if we don't really believe him, when we step out, 553 00:42:06.260 --> 00:42:09.380 we're gonna fall because there's nothing to support us. 554 00:42:09.380 --> 00:42:14.380 So that's why I say God can support and protect 555 00:42:15.220 --> 00:42:17.540 and provide a safe supportive environment 556 00:42:17.540 --> 00:42:20.620 for us to learn about things 557 00:42:20.620 --> 00:42:23.460 when we're not yet strong enough in our faith 558 00:42:24.220 --> 00:42:25.580 to create it ourselves. 559 00:42:25.580 --> 00:42:28.340 So just go where your soul finds peace, 560 00:42:28.340 --> 00:42:32.500 go to just operate in the degree that a faith that you can. 561 00:42:32.500 --> 00:42:35.420 And then the rest of it is just you being where it is 562 00:42:35.420 --> 00:42:37.300 that you are right now on your journey. 563 00:42:37.300 --> 00:42:41.380 And you're not born 35, you were born a baby 564 00:42:41.380 --> 00:42:43.180 and you grow and you grow and you grow 565 00:42:43.180 --> 00:42:44.340 in the same thing in the spirit, 566 00:42:44.340 --> 00:42:48.580 not born at this degree of spiritual maturity 567 00:42:48.580 --> 00:42:49.820 in your relationship with the Lord. 568 00:42:49.820 --> 00:42:50.860 You've never been there. 569 00:42:50.860 --> 00:42:52.180 You don't know how to be there. 570 00:42:52.180 --> 00:42:53.860 You don't know how to get there. 571 00:42:53.860 --> 00:42:55.540 You don't understand it. 572 00:42:55.540 --> 00:42:57.020 God doesn't expect it of you. 573 00:42:57.020 --> 00:42:58.140 God created you here. 574 00:42:59.100 --> 00:43:02.340 And so wherever it is that you are, be that thing. 575 00:43:02.340 --> 00:43:04.780 A five-year-old is wonderful as a five-year-old 576 00:43:05.820 --> 00:43:09.820 and they're cute and they mess up and they make mistakes. 577 00:43:09.820 --> 00:43:11.620 And that's why God gave them parents 578 00:43:11.620 --> 00:43:14.380 so that they could make mistakes 579 00:43:14.380 --> 00:43:16.380 and not have to bear the full weight 580 00:43:16.380 --> 00:43:18.900 of the consequences of their actions 581 00:43:18.900 --> 00:43:20.460 and learn in an environment 582 00:43:20.460 --> 00:43:25.460 where they don't have to fully pay for trying 583 00:43:25.700 --> 00:43:27.260 and not quite getting it right. 584 00:43:29.180 --> 00:43:30.900 So it's the same thing in spirit. 585 00:43:30.900 --> 00:43:32.900 God does the same thing for us. 586 00:43:32.900 --> 00:43:35.300 So we don't need to be harder on ourselves 587 00:43:35.300 --> 00:43:37.940 and be like, oh, well, I really, 588 00:43:39.260 --> 00:43:40.660 God, this is bad. 589 00:43:40.660 --> 00:43:41.980 I shouldn't do this anymore. 590 00:43:41.980 --> 00:43:46.740 Well, if you don't have the faith to support you out there 591 00:43:46.740 --> 00:43:48.180 and that's what you need to do. 592 00:43:48.180 --> 00:43:49.420 And then you trust, 593 00:43:49.420 --> 00:43:51.460 because the whole point is to learn more and more 594 00:43:51.460 --> 00:43:53.460 about who God is and to choose more and more 595 00:43:53.460 --> 00:43:54.300 that that's who he is. 596 00:43:54.300 --> 00:43:56.380 So choosing to the degree that you can, 597 00:43:56.380 --> 00:43:58.620 the rest of it, declare that that's who he is, 598 00:43:58.620 --> 00:44:01.060 even though you can't choose enough to act on it. 599 00:44:01.060 --> 00:44:02.980 I'm going to eventually shift, Lord. 600 00:44:02.980 --> 00:44:05.300 And so right now I choose that if you say your love, 601 00:44:05.300 --> 00:44:08.180 that you're love, but I can't act on it yet 602 00:44:08.180 --> 00:44:09.540 because I don't really believe it. 603 00:44:09.540 --> 00:44:11.660 So I'm going to act where it is that I can. 604 00:44:13.540 --> 00:44:14.740 Okay. 605 00:44:14.740 --> 00:44:16.220 That makes sense. 606 00:44:16.220 --> 00:44:18.860 And it's like, it's freeing and there's so much grace. 607 00:44:19.660 --> 00:44:21.340 Exactly. 608 00:44:21.340 --> 00:44:23.860 It's okay for us to be where it is that we are. 609 00:44:23.860 --> 00:44:24.780 We're not bad. 610 00:44:24.780 --> 00:44:28.620 God created life to be where we are on this process. 611 00:44:28.620 --> 00:44:30.700 And we're always a different age 612 00:44:30.700 --> 00:44:32.500 and it's okay to be that age. 613 00:44:32.500 --> 00:44:35.540 It's not bad to be that age, you know? 614 00:44:35.540 --> 00:44:37.620 Right, right. 615 00:44:37.620 --> 00:44:39.300 It's okay to learn to walk. 616 00:44:39.300 --> 00:44:40.940 I mean, eventually you're going to, you know, 617 00:44:40.940 --> 00:44:42.460 we all learn to walk, 618 00:44:42.460 --> 00:44:46.260 but we don't get onto a baby for falling, 619 00:44:46.260 --> 00:44:48.460 for trying, taking steps and then falling. 620 00:44:49.300 --> 00:44:51.540 In fact, God made provision for the fact 621 00:44:51.540 --> 00:44:55.260 that they wouldn't know coming out of the womb, 622 00:44:55.260 --> 00:44:56.900 how to stand up and walk. 623 00:44:56.900 --> 00:44:59.860 He made provision for the process of them learning. 624 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.400 by making them, like covering them, not only just like with a lot of fat, 625 00:45:04.640 --> 00:45:09.000 but also making all of their joints very flexible so that when they fell, 626 00:45:09.160 --> 00:45:13.880 they would be protected. That's why, you know, an old person, when they fall, 627 00:45:13.880 --> 00:45:17.320 they don't have all that fat and they don't, and their joints aren't flexible. 628 00:45:17.320 --> 00:45:21.080 So they break, but a baby can do that and do it over and over. 629 00:45:21.080 --> 00:45:24.920 And sometimes we wonder how on earth did they not just get a concussion or how, 630 00:45:24.920 --> 00:45:25.200 you know, 631 00:45:25.200 --> 00:45:30.200 they just hit their head because God made provision for that phase. 632 00:45:32.160 --> 00:45:36.320 They were not born into contemnation. The same thing with us in the spirit. 633 00:45:36.800 --> 00:45:40.200 God doesn't look on us when we make our mistakes, when we're trying to learn. 634 00:45:40.240 --> 00:45:44.200 Okay. So what are you saying? Okay. So how do I do the sonship thing? 635 00:45:44.480 --> 00:45:47.200 How do I have faith in you? What are you telling me to have faith in? Okay. 636 00:45:47.200 --> 00:45:49.840 Lord, I'm going to try this. I think this is right, but I'm not sure. 637 00:45:50.760 --> 00:45:53.880 But all my guests might have were bare, like really bad consequences. 638 00:45:54.040 --> 00:45:55.400 If I'm wrong, he's like, 639 00:45:55.400 --> 00:45:59.280 do you not understand that I am going to provide you a safe environment where 640 00:45:59.280 --> 00:46:04.320 you will not have to bear the horrible consequences 641 00:46:04.400 --> 00:46:05.640 that the, the, 642 00:46:05.800 --> 00:46:10.600 the weight of the consequences that you normally would when you're 643 00:46:10.600 --> 00:46:13.600 trying it early enough, you know, 644 00:46:13.640 --> 00:46:17.560 then I'm going to preserve and protect you from a lot of those consequences. 645 00:46:18.720 --> 00:46:20.640 It's the same thing in spirit. Yeah. 646 00:46:21.640 --> 00:46:24.840 Oh, okay. That makes sense. Yeah. 647 00:46:27.680 --> 00:46:30.840 Well, I think those are questions. Um, 648 00:46:31.520 --> 00:46:34.080 and that's helped clarify a lot of things, 649 00:46:34.760 --> 00:46:38.640 things I think I've already known in some way, shape or form, but it's like, 650 00:46:38.680 --> 00:46:42.720 Oh yeah. Yeah. Yeah. 651 00:46:43.320 --> 00:46:47.840 You already know all of this because this is because your 652 00:46:47.920 --> 00:46:52.720 spirit has access to, and is in the one who's has all, 653 00:46:52.760 --> 00:46:55.680 who has not only just all knowledge, but all spirit, all wisdom, 654 00:46:55.680 --> 00:46:59.480 all understanding, et cetera. What I do is I just, 655 00:46:59.600 --> 00:47:03.480 I'm just positioned, you know, I guess, you know, maybe, you know, 656 00:47:03.480 --> 00:47:07.560 God's given me the honor to be positioned in your life for my spirit, 657 00:47:07.560 --> 00:47:11.600 to speak something, to simply prompt your spirit, to remember something. 658 00:47:11.600 --> 00:47:13.680 It knows, well, technically your spirit already knows it, 659 00:47:14.040 --> 00:47:15.960 but that your soul will finally hear it. 660 00:47:16.240 --> 00:47:18.080 That's why when you hear something, you're like, 661 00:47:18.120 --> 00:47:20.480 I feel like I've always known that I've never heard it, 662 00:47:20.920 --> 00:47:24.400 but I felt like I was known because you have, it's who you are. 663 00:47:24.680 --> 00:47:26.880 I don't teach someone anything. 664 00:47:26.920 --> 00:47:29.800 I don't give them anything they don't already have. 665 00:47:30.520 --> 00:47:35.440 I just help people remove their own barriers to remembering 666 00:47:35.560 --> 00:47:37.120 who they are, so to speak, 667 00:47:37.520 --> 00:47:42.520 and to allow the fact that they already have access to all that knowledge for it 668 00:47:42.560 --> 00:47:44.440 to come for them to be brave, 669 00:47:44.440 --> 00:47:48.440 to choose to believe that their spirit's a safe place so that their soul 670 00:47:48.440 --> 00:47:50.680 finally comes into agreement with that. 671 00:47:51.000 --> 00:47:54.520 But these are all things everybody already knows. We just don't, aren't, 672 00:47:54.960 --> 00:47:59.640 haven't allowed access to our spirit in order for our soul 673 00:47:59.640 --> 00:48:04.200 to be fully aware of all of the things that our spirit already knows. 674 00:48:04.520 --> 00:48:07.920 But the more that we feel free, the more that we feel safe, 675 00:48:08.440 --> 00:48:12.280 the more that that's that, that knowledge and wisdom and under, 676 00:48:12.280 --> 00:48:14.160 because it's spirit of knowledge, spirit of wisdom, 677 00:48:14.160 --> 00:48:16.640 spirit of understanding in the Lord, 678 00:48:17.160 --> 00:48:21.440 the fact that we're unified with him comes into our soul and transforms it. 679 00:48:21.440 --> 00:48:24.600 And all of a sudden it's like, Oh yeah. Okay. You know, 680 00:48:24.640 --> 00:48:26.600 I felt like I've always known that because we have, 681 00:48:26.640 --> 00:48:28.400 it's a part of who it is that we already are. 682 00:48:29.080 --> 00:48:33.760 Right. So it's like the hearing of like, 683 00:48:33.760 --> 00:48:35.160 just you saying that, is it, 684 00:48:35.160 --> 00:48:39.080 it comes into our soul where I've known it, but I've never heard it. 685 00:48:40.080 --> 00:48:43.120 It's like that. Is that like where the, 686 00:48:44.040 --> 00:48:48.960 kind of the transformational process comes in where my flesh and spirit 687 00:48:48.960 --> 00:48:49.800 come into. 688 00:48:50.840 --> 00:48:54.760 Yes, that is overcoming. That is the alignment. That is, 689 00:48:54.760 --> 00:48:57.200 there's another word that you used. What was the other word that you used? 690 00:49:00.440 --> 00:49:03.040 Oh, transformation. Yes. That's transformation. 691 00:49:03.400 --> 00:49:08.360 It's where your soul and your body begin to change when they are, 692 00:49:08.480 --> 00:49:11.760 when they come into alignment with this spirit, 693 00:49:11.760 --> 00:49:15.880 into agreement with the spirit in the spirit of God, literally transforms us. 694 00:49:16.200 --> 00:49:21.040 That's why I think it was Paul who talked about transform 695 00:49:21.040 --> 00:49:23.280 yourselves by the renewing of your mind. 696 00:49:23.560 --> 00:49:28.640 Meaning mind is in the soul, not minded than the brain mind of our soul, 697 00:49:28.680 --> 00:49:32.160 because our soul is the decision maker. It's the gatekeeper. 698 00:49:32.400 --> 00:49:34.000 We already are the thing in the spirit, 699 00:49:34.000 --> 00:49:38.040 but what is our soul going to come into agreement with to allow to pass through 700 00:49:38.040 --> 00:49:42.960 the gate so that it can be changed and the body can be changed to come 701 00:49:42.960 --> 00:49:46.320 into agreement with the spirit and therefore get to live out of that kind of a 702 00:49:46.320 --> 00:49:50.360 power. So and until then, you know, 703 00:49:50.360 --> 00:49:54.800 our body thinks that it's subject to attack that it has to succumb 704 00:49:55.320 --> 00:49:57.160 to our attack to attack. 705 00:49:57.800 --> 00:50:00.040 Same thing with our soul means that we believe. 706 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:06.420 That our soul, um, bills that it's subject to, um, you know, things like say, for 707 00:50:06.420 --> 00:50:11.360 instance, if we've go through something traumatically emotional with, uh, in a 708 00:50:11.360 --> 00:50:15.420 relationship or whatever, then our soul feels like, oh my goodness, I'm nothing. 709 00:50:15.800 --> 00:50:16.980 I'm rejected. 710 00:50:16.980 --> 00:50:19.740 I'm, you know, this means something about me. 711 00:50:20.260 --> 00:50:23.980 And it thinks that it has to succumb to that as opposed to choosing. 712 00:50:23.980 --> 00:50:24.340 Nope. 713 00:50:24.660 --> 00:50:26.380 I am who the spirit says that I am. 714 00:50:26.680 --> 00:50:28.340 That is what transforms us. 715 00:50:28.360 --> 00:50:30.020 That's what overcomes the flesh. 716 00:50:30.020 --> 00:50:32.720 And that's what transforms flesh into spirit. 717 00:50:33.800 --> 00:50:34.160 Okay. 718 00:50:36.440 --> 00:50:36.720 Yeah. 719 00:50:36.760 --> 00:50:39.200 So we're not transforming ourselves in spirit. 720 00:50:39.200 --> 00:50:42.240 We're transforming this, the flesh into spirit. 721 00:50:42.920 --> 00:50:43.320 Okay. 722 00:50:43.760 --> 00:50:44.440 That makes sense. 723 00:50:44.440 --> 00:50:45.480 Alignment and agreement. 724 00:50:45.480 --> 00:50:45.680 Yeah. 725 00:50:46.080 --> 00:50:50.040 But yeah, uh, session five will make a lot more, will help 726 00:50:50.040 --> 00:50:51.240 everything make a lot more sense. 727 00:50:51.240 --> 00:50:54.120 It addresses, it addresses actually a lot of things. 728 00:50:56.240 --> 00:50:58.280 It's often people's favorite favorite one. 729 00:50:58.840 --> 00:50:59.200 Yeah. 730 00:50:59.680 --> 00:51:00.320 Yay. 731 00:51:02.360 --> 00:51:02.760 Good. 732 00:51:02.760 --> 00:51:04.640 Well, I'm glad that you're doing better. 733 00:51:04.720 --> 00:51:10.680 And, um, uh, and I, I know that it took me a while to get back to your post, but 734 00:51:11.240 --> 00:51:16.440 I've noticed that whenever that happens with me, that it takes a while 735 00:51:16.440 --> 00:51:18.080 for me to get back to someone. 736 00:51:18.360 --> 00:51:23.520 I know that God is trying to meet them on their, on his own so that, so that 737 00:51:23.540 --> 00:51:31.460 he can like prove himself in experientially in their life so that they 738 00:51:31.460 --> 00:51:35.880 begin to trust him more and more because he met them in their pain, 739 00:51:35.940 --> 00:51:38.060 in their struggle, in their question. 740 00:51:38.460 --> 00:51:44.100 And so I've learned to not be, be so concerned if I'm like, Oh my word. 741 00:51:44.420 --> 00:51:48.900 You know, emotionally, somebody is just really in a, in a difficult spot. 742 00:51:48.900 --> 00:51:50.040 This is what I'm here for. 743 00:51:50.040 --> 00:51:51.620 I want to be there, whatever. 744 00:51:51.760 --> 00:51:56.480 And I've noticed that if there's some hindrance to me being able to be there, 745 00:51:57.080 --> 00:52:02.280 you know, and be as responsive as I want to, I I've learned over and over and 746 00:52:02.280 --> 00:52:03.760 over and over and over and over and over. 747 00:52:04.080 --> 00:52:08.160 That is when God ends up doing the, uh, the biggest work in their life 748 00:52:09.040 --> 00:52:10.800 is because I couldn't get to them. 749 00:52:11.200 --> 00:52:12.040 And he's like, yep. 750 00:52:12.600 --> 00:52:15.320 You know, I need, I need to, to touch them. 751 00:52:15.320 --> 00:52:16.000 I was like, okay. 752 00:52:16.400 --> 00:52:19.240 And so you ended up hearing that really exciting thing. 753 00:52:19.600 --> 00:52:19.920 Right. 754 00:52:19.920 --> 00:52:20.520 So I'm good. 755 00:52:21.020 --> 00:52:29.260 There's nothing like a person knowing the end and having that, uh, uh, knowing 756 00:52:29.500 --> 00:52:33.300 the voice of God for themselves and being talked to directly by him. 757 00:52:33.340 --> 00:52:38.100 There's nothing that's, that's, um, of greater price to any of us is, and 758 00:52:38.100 --> 00:52:41.460 that's something that you never want to take away from someone is their 759 00:52:41.460 --> 00:52:47.720 relationship with the Lord, meaning like their, um, um, which again, my 760 00:52:47.720 --> 00:52:49.580 goodness, the, the phrase Lord, please. 761 00:52:50.360 --> 00:52:56.920 Uh, just, uh, that, um, just that assurance that they hear from God. 762 00:52:57.240 --> 00:52:57.960 That's what I'm trying to say. 763 00:52:58.560 --> 00:53:00.160 Yeah, yeah, exactly. 764 00:53:00.360 --> 00:53:00.640 Yeah. 765 00:53:00.640 --> 00:53:05.280 To, to take, to make them not be able to rely on that. 766 00:53:05.280 --> 00:53:10.560 Meaning like we circumvent by interjecting too soon and by trying to help someone 767 00:53:10.560 --> 00:53:14.880 too soon or, or whatever can actually, um, handicap them. 768 00:53:15.600 --> 00:53:18.020 Um, so anyway, so I just do the best that I can. 769 00:53:18.520 --> 00:53:21.920 So I knew, I knew I was like, okay, that's probably going to do something 770 00:53:21.920 --> 00:53:23.960 because I can't get to the Hudson. 771 00:53:24.440 --> 00:53:28.120 So the same thing with Cicely or the same thing with Kate, I'm like, oh my word, 772 00:53:28.120 --> 00:53:32.000 Lord, why all of a sudden everybody needs something, including me. 773 00:53:32.000 --> 00:53:34.200 It's like, okay, God, you're just going to have to care of all of us. 774 00:53:34.960 --> 00:53:36.560 So I'm so glad to hear everybody. 775 00:53:37.840 --> 00:53:38.360 Huh? 776 00:53:38.880 --> 00:53:39.880 And he always does. 777 00:53:40.280 --> 00:53:41.280 And he always does. 778 00:53:41.300 --> 00:53:41.920 That's right. 779 00:53:42.480 --> 00:53:42.980 Yes. 780 00:53:43.040 --> 00:53:45.160 Well, it was good to get to visit with you. 781 00:53:45.180 --> 00:53:48.060 I've got another transformation session now. 782 00:53:48.620 --> 00:53:49.260 All right. 783 00:53:49.340 --> 00:53:50.500 Well, thank you, Ashley. 784 00:53:51.260 --> 00:53:51.820 Sure. 785 00:53:51.820 --> 00:53:53.860 Good to visit with you too. 786 00:53:53.940 --> 00:53:54.760 We'll see you tomorrow. 787 00:53:55.780 --> 00:53:56.500 All right. 788 00:53:56.540 --> 00:53:57.020 Bye.