WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:18.000 Okay. 2 00:00:18.000 --> 00:00:20.000 Hey, 3 00:00:20.000 --> 00:00:24.000 my lighting is not very good. It's never very good. 4 00:00:24.000 --> 00:00:27.000 I'm using backlighting instead of it being in the front. 5 00:00:27.000 --> 00:00:32.000 And I don't know why my AirPods will not connect. 6 00:00:32.000 --> 00:00:34.000 That'll help a little bit. 7 00:00:34.000 --> 00:00:38.000 To my AirPods. 8 00:00:38.000 --> 00:00:40.000 You're in a different location today. 9 00:00:40.000 --> 00:00:44.000 Yeah, I am in my corner of my couch. 10 00:00:44.000 --> 00:00:46.000 Oh, nice. 11 00:00:46.000 --> 00:00:50.000 And why is it not connecting that so aggravating. 12 00:00:50.000 --> 00:00:52.000 Let me see. 13 00:00:52.000 --> 00:00:58.000 Let me, let me turn this off. Maybe it's because I have my phone on. 14 00:00:58.000 --> 00:01:02.000 And it's trying to connect to my phone. 15 00:01:02.000 --> 00:01:08.000 There we go. 16 00:01:08.000 --> 00:01:19.000 See. 17 00:01:19.000 --> 00:01:37.000 Okay. 18 00:01:37.000 --> 00:01:46.000 I hope it's not. 19 00:01:46.000 --> 00:01:51.000 Okay. 20 00:01:51.000 --> 00:01:53.000 Which one's saying something. 21 00:01:53.000 --> 00:02:00.000 What are you. 22 00:02:00.000 --> 00:02:03.000 Yes, I am. I'm hearing you, but I'm trying to get you to go through, 23 00:02:03.000 --> 00:02:04.000 get it to go to my AirPods. 24 00:02:04.000 --> 00:02:06.000 And it's not working. And I don't know why. 25 00:02:06.000 --> 00:02:07.000 Shoot. 26 00:02:07.000 --> 00:02:10.000 Excuse me. 27 00:02:11.000 --> 00:02:16.000 Okay. 28 00:02:16.000 --> 00:02:18.000 Man, I'm going to sneeze again. Let me go get my headset. 29 00:02:18.000 --> 00:02:19.000 Okay. 30 00:02:19.000 --> 00:02:39.000 That's good. 31 00:02:39.000 --> 00:02:50.000 Okay. 32 00:02:50.000 --> 00:02:53.000 There you go. 33 00:02:53.000 --> 00:02:59.000 Pilot. 34 00:02:59.000 --> 00:03:01.000 Let's see here. 35 00:03:01.000 --> 00:03:06.000 Can you hear me now? 36 00:03:07.000 --> 00:03:14.000 Maybe. 37 00:03:14.000 --> 00:03:17.000 Let's say it. You want to say something again? Yeah. Can you hear me now? 38 00:03:17.000 --> 00:03:18.000 Darn it. 39 00:03:18.000 --> 00:03:19.000 It's not coming through. 40 00:03:19.000 --> 00:03:21.000 Yeah. 41 00:03:21.000 --> 00:03:23.000 I don't know what the deal is. 42 00:03:23.000 --> 00:03:26.000 I'll just keep it off. 43 00:03:26.000 --> 00:03:29.000 Can you hear me? Okay. Like this. 44 00:03:29.000 --> 00:03:35.000 I can, I can hear you just fine. I was just. 45 00:03:35.000 --> 00:03:37.000 Okay. 46 00:03:37.000 --> 00:03:41.000 How are you? 47 00:03:41.000 --> 00:03:44.000 I'm doing okay. I'm tired. 48 00:03:44.000 --> 00:03:48.000 I haven't been feeling very good the past few days. 49 00:03:48.000 --> 00:03:52.000 With recovery. And I think trying to figure out all. 50 00:03:52.000 --> 00:03:54.000 My diet and my hydration. It's a whole different. 51 00:03:54.000 --> 00:03:56.000 Ball game. 52 00:03:56.000 --> 00:03:59.000 Eating and drinking stuff. It's like. 53 00:03:59.000 --> 00:04:01.000 I'm more easily dehydrated. 54 00:04:01.000 --> 00:04:03.000 I'm just trying to figure all that out. 55 00:04:04.000 --> 00:04:05.000 Yeah. 56 00:04:05.000 --> 00:04:09.000 And then. 57 00:04:09.000 --> 00:04:12.000 And then yesterday I got the pathology report back. 58 00:04:12.000 --> 00:04:13.000 Oh, that. 59 00:04:13.000 --> 00:04:19.000 They found. 60 00:04:19.000 --> 00:04:20.000 One lymph node had cancer in it. 61 00:04:20.000 --> 00:04:22.000 So one out of 23 lymph nodes that they. 62 00:04:22.000 --> 00:04:23.000 Got. 63 00:04:23.000 --> 00:04:27.000 Had cancer in it. So. 64 00:04:27.000 --> 00:04:30.000 For me, I'm like, Oh, one out of 23, that's great. 65 00:04:30.000 --> 00:04:32.000 You know, it's not 20 out of 23. 66 00:04:33.000 --> 00:04:34.000 I don't know. 67 00:04:34.000 --> 00:04:39.000 Like if there were no lymph nodes taken. 68 00:04:39.000 --> 00:04:41.000 I mean, if there were no lymph nodes with cancer, they basically say, 69 00:04:41.000 --> 00:04:43.000 well, I think you're good to go. 70 00:04:43.000 --> 00:04:44.000 Yeah. 71 00:04:44.000 --> 00:04:47.000 But now there is one. 72 00:04:47.000 --> 00:04:51.000 The regular route is they recommend chemo. 73 00:04:51.000 --> 00:04:53.000 And I don't think I'm probably going to go that route. 74 00:04:53.000 --> 00:04:54.000 Cause I think. 75 00:04:54.000 --> 00:05:00.000 Cause still, I don't know the chance. 76 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:05.680 it doesn't mean there's other lymph nodes with cancer in my body. Yeah. So, because, because that 77 00:05:05.680 --> 00:05:13.440 lymph node was removed. So, um, Oh, they removed it. Yeah. So that was, so in the surgery, they 78 00:05:13.440 --> 00:05:20.240 removed the tumor as well as a section around the tumor. Yeah. And so they looked at all the 79 00:05:20.240 --> 00:05:25.840 lymph nodes that were in that, in that section that they cut out. I see. Yeah. So that was, 80 00:05:25.840 --> 00:05:32.160 that was all cut out. Wow. 23, just in that area. That's wild. I didn't know we had that many. 81 00:05:33.920 --> 00:05:37.760 That's like the biggest concentration of lymph nodes, which is kind of crazy. 82 00:05:38.400 --> 00:05:49.200 Like near the colon. Yeah. That makes sense. Yeah. Yeah. Um, so I'm kind of in this place of 83 00:05:49.200 --> 00:05:56.080 like, obviously still trusting the Lord. Um, yeah, but, but I'm kind of like weary 84 00:05:58.160 --> 00:06:04.080 and kind of tired and kind of not, I feel like I've just been kind of distant 85 00:06:05.280 --> 00:06:08.480 from the Lord. I don't know, which is cause I'm, I don't want to engage 86 00:06:08.480 --> 00:06:11.800 cause I don't want to engage with many people cause I'm just tired. Um, 87 00:06:15.120 --> 00:06:18.240 but I also feel like there's some resistance there and I don't know what that's about. 88 00:06:19.840 --> 00:06:23.520 So, um, between you and the Lord. Yeah. 89 00:06:26.320 --> 00:06:32.880 Well, um, it could be various things, you know, it could be, um, um, it could be a fact that, 90 00:06:32.880 --> 00:06:42.880 you know, you don't feel, uh, safe with him either because of the past or because of, um, 91 00:06:42.880 --> 00:06:49.360 because of, uh, the potential future, like either, well, you know, Lord, I don't know that 92 00:06:50.880 --> 00:06:54.560 you are, who say that you are, you know, that you're, that you're loved, that you do love me, 93 00:06:54.560 --> 00:06:59.120 that you provide for me or protect me. And there's also this thing of like, well, yeah, 94 00:06:59.120 --> 00:07:05.440 but who is he? And what would he ask of me? And then depending on what he would ask of me, what 95 00:07:05.440 --> 00:07:08.960 does that mean that I'm going to have to live through? And then what does it mean that he's 96 00:07:08.960 --> 00:07:16.640 going to require of me? Meaning like, meaning, uh, what, what does that mean about me and what 97 00:07:16.640 --> 00:07:21.680 it is that I have believed or the decisions that I've made or how I've lived life or, or whatever 98 00:07:21.680 --> 00:07:28.640 it could be, it could be, you know, any of those options. Um, it can also be of what we've 99 00:07:28.640 --> 00:07:36.160 experienced in the past. Um, when we've, when we've spent time with the Lord and then we're 100 00:07:36.160 --> 00:07:42.880 projecting that onto our current light, for instance, sometimes when people, people, I've 101 00:07:42.880 --> 00:07:47.360 had this question so many times. So like, Ashley, I don't enjoy spending time with the Lord. I don't 102 00:07:47.360 --> 00:07:53.120 enjoy like reading the Bible and, um, and the, and they think, you know, something horrible is 103 00:07:53.120 --> 00:07:57.680 wrong with them. They're like, why? And I was like, well, it makes complete sense. Either you 104 00:07:57.680 --> 00:08:02.640 are. And I, and I tell them what it is that I just described to you. I said, or every time you read 105 00:08:02.640 --> 00:08:08.000 the Bible, you just felt condemned. You felt that you were going to find yet one more thing in which 106 00:08:08.000 --> 00:08:12.960 you don't measure up one more proof. One more thing that God requires of you that you haven't 107 00:08:12.960 --> 00:08:16.720 met, that you haven't done, you know, and Oh, you forgot about that. Or, Oh, you didn't know that. 108 00:08:16.720 --> 00:08:22.880 And you didn't realize that. And, and, um, I said, so the Bible and spending time with the Lord 109 00:08:22.880 --> 00:08:29.840 wasn't fun. It wasn't safe. It wasn't, you know, it, it wasn't full of love and freedom and promises 110 00:08:29.840 --> 00:08:35.280 and good things. It was just full of more realization and awareness of how bad you were 111 00:08:35.919 --> 00:08:40.480 or how you were doing, weren't doing things the way you needed to be doing. And now we need them 112 00:08:40.480 --> 00:08:45.600 to be doing them different. And so what I told people as I said, well, all of those things just 113 00:08:45.600 --> 00:08:51.760 aren't true. I said that they think, but we think that they are. So I told them, I said, um, for one 114 00:08:51.760 --> 00:08:56.720 thing, don't be condemned. Don't feel condemned that you don't want to know that there's a reason 115 00:08:56.720 --> 00:09:02.720 for it. I said, and then what I've always recommended to people is I said, don't read 116 00:09:02.720 --> 00:09:09.440 the Bible or spend time with God in a note with an agenda, like, okay, I'm supposed to be getting 117 00:09:09.440 --> 00:09:13.520 something out of this, you know, or like you start reading Ephesians or something like, okay. 118 00:09:14.560 --> 00:09:19.120 You know, starting in chapter two, verse five today, you know, okay, now what am I going to 119 00:09:19.120 --> 00:09:24.560 learn? What do I need to be open to? What do I need to be? What revelation is going to be coming? 120 00:09:24.560 --> 00:09:33.120 I said, no, I said, read it like you would a fiction book. Just, just read, just allow your, 121 00:09:33.120 --> 00:09:39.920 your, your spirit, your soul, your body to, to just, to just hear something and, and to just be 122 00:09:39.920 --> 00:09:45.520 changed without you consciously having to do it. Let it just subconsciously adjust and just 123 00:09:46.160 --> 00:09:53.200 learn to enjoy God again for himself. Not always be worried about what is going to be required of 124 00:09:53.200 --> 00:09:59.280 you because you're spending time with the word. Just enjoy him. Allow yourself to enjoy him without 125 00:09:59.280 --> 00:09:59.920 requiring. 126 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:05.120 Anything of yourself require requiring yourself to get anything out of it. 127 00:10:05.120 --> 00:10:06.800 Like, okay, what am I going to learn? 128 00:10:07.160 --> 00:10:08.560 Well, what does that really sing? 129 00:10:08.560 --> 00:10:10.240 And how do I need to study this? 130 00:10:10.240 --> 00:10:12.680 And let's really figure this out. 131 00:10:12.880 --> 00:10:15.200 If you read through a verse, you're like, I don't understand. 132 00:10:15.280 --> 00:10:16.120 You should keep going. 133 00:10:16.760 --> 00:10:18.380 Cause that's what you do with the fiction book. 134 00:10:18.380 --> 00:10:20.240 You know, you're just like, just enjoy it. 135 00:10:20.760 --> 00:10:21.480 Just have fun. 136 00:10:21.760 --> 00:10:26.080 Just, and then it opens what you're doing is because you were too, that's 137 00:10:26.080 --> 00:10:27.960 a way in which you're acting on faith. 138 00:10:28.440 --> 00:10:30.360 So you're having faith that God really is good. 139 00:10:30.400 --> 00:10:34.560 You're having faith that that life in God himself are more love and more 140 00:10:34.560 --> 00:10:36.200 freedom than you've given him credit for. 141 00:10:36.600 --> 00:10:41.200 And so if he was more love and freedom, what are some ways that you could act on 142 00:10:41.200 --> 00:10:46.440 it in order to, in order to actually start acting on something new that you're, 143 00:10:46.480 --> 00:10:49.280 that you're believing like, okay, well then I would enjoy the Lord. 144 00:10:49.600 --> 00:10:53.440 Then I would just read it knowing that, Hey, look, you know, this is just where 145 00:10:53.440 --> 00:10:57.840 it is that I am on the journey right now with the Lord, and I'm just going to, 146 00:10:57.840 --> 00:11:01.480 I'm going to take him at his word that, you know, that he's, he's 147 00:11:01.480 --> 00:11:02.760 as good as he says that he is. 148 00:11:02.800 --> 00:11:06.640 And so I am going to enjoy him if he's good. 149 00:11:06.640 --> 00:11:11.520 And if he's love and if he's free, well, then I'll, I'll just enjoy reading 150 00:11:11.520 --> 00:11:12.840 about him and learning about him. 151 00:11:13.400 --> 00:11:18.960 Let's see what I come across and you'll see things in a fresher way and, or in 152 00:11:18.960 --> 00:11:22.560 this, and I'm just using the Bible as an example, but just like spending time 153 00:11:22.560 --> 00:11:27.080 with God, talking to him or whatever, as opposed to going to him, always 154 00:11:27.080 --> 00:11:33.200 looking for answers or information or knowledge or revelation, just enjoying 155 00:11:33.200 --> 00:11:37.720 him by opening yourself up and making yourself vulnerable to experience the 156 00:11:37.720 --> 00:11:44.480 being, you know so anyway, those are some things to start breaking off those 157 00:11:44.480 --> 00:11:49.880 old ideas and expectations that there's always something required of us to get 158 00:11:49.880 --> 00:11:50.320 out of it. 159 00:11:50.320 --> 00:11:51.640 Like I have to learn something. 160 00:11:51.640 --> 00:11:53.440 I have to be, I have to be. 161 00:11:53.680 --> 00:11:55.000 What's that, what's that word? 162 00:11:55.000 --> 00:12:00.360 Um, um, convicted, I have to, I have to find what it is that I need to be 163 00:12:00.360 --> 00:12:04.720 convicted of, or I need to find something else I need to, I need to, you know, and 164 00:12:04.720 --> 00:12:08.160 have a realization of something else that it is that I need to do, or I need to 165 00:12:08.160 --> 00:12:14.360 read all of this and, and, and learn how to be grateful and, and learn how, I don't 166 00:12:14.360 --> 00:12:18.480 know, just learn how it is that I'm not believing God and just like, ah, just, 167 00:12:18.480 --> 00:12:23.040 just free yourself up to be safe with him again, to enjoy him, to enjoy the 168 00:12:23.040 --> 00:12:26.040 fact that he's love and his goodness and start focusing on some positive. 169 00:12:26.280 --> 00:12:32.840 Um, and, uh, that will help make, that'll help like make things clear so that when 170 00:12:32.840 --> 00:12:41.040 you go to him, you will, you will start hearing direction, his heart, his will, 171 00:12:41.240 --> 00:12:46.480 his decisions much more clearly, because you don't have these, you know, these 172 00:12:46.640 --> 00:12:52.320 because you don't have these, you don't have as much resistance to him because 173 00:12:52.320 --> 00:12:55.120 you're coming to him with an expectation that there's something you're supposed to 174 00:12:55.120 --> 00:12:58.520 get out of it, that you need to get out of it, or that you're desperate to get out 175 00:12:58.520 --> 00:13:00.960 of it, or that he holds you accountable for getting out of it. 176 00:13:00.960 --> 00:13:02.760 And then you've got to go do something with it. 177 00:13:02.760 --> 00:13:06.080 We need God's will and we need his information and we need his decisions 178 00:13:06.080 --> 00:13:09.720 and we need his knowledge and we need his heart in order to know what to do. 179 00:13:10.560 --> 00:13:13.840 You know, what does he expect of us or, or how can I apply this? 180 00:13:13.840 --> 00:13:18.280 So we seek God more than his answers and, um, et cetera. 181 00:13:18.280 --> 00:13:22.520 So, um, that helps start breaking it off of people. 182 00:13:22.560 --> 00:13:27.520 It helped broke it, break, um, break it off of me and it helps break, helps 183 00:13:27.520 --> 00:13:30.960 other people break out of that as well to just enjoy God again. 184 00:13:31.680 --> 00:13:32.000 Right. 185 00:13:32.120 --> 00:13:32.400 No. 186 00:13:33.280 --> 00:13:34.720 Is that resonating? 187 00:13:34.720 --> 00:13:35.000 You know, 188 00:13:35.360 --> 00:13:35.920 it does. 189 00:13:35.920 --> 00:13:41.080 I think it reminds me of when you just say, just stop, stop trying. 190 00:13:41.240 --> 00:13:47.400 And I think I've always tried to get out of resistance so I can hear him. 191 00:13:48.440 --> 00:13:52.480 And even just listening to you, I feel like the walls of resistance 192 00:13:52.480 --> 00:13:55.400 were just breaking down that I don't have to try so hard. 193 00:13:55.840 --> 00:13:56.200 Yeah. 194 00:13:56.280 --> 00:13:57.480 Cause we really are free. 195 00:13:57.720 --> 00:14:01.920 And that's what it means to, to, you know, to stop trying is the trying is 196 00:14:01.920 --> 00:14:06.800 the, you know, this, like this, this feeling of like, like, um, like a 197 00:14:06.800 --> 00:14:08.960 pressing into and a moving forward. 198 00:14:09.000 --> 00:14:11.760 It was just like, if we just stop, well, then that's it. 199 00:14:11.760 --> 00:14:12.200 That's it. 200 00:14:12.240 --> 00:14:14.440 That's an act of faith. 201 00:14:15.080 --> 00:14:16.920 In other words, we're having faith that, okay. 202 00:14:16.920 --> 00:14:19.640 God says that there, here's, there's nothing left for me to do. 203 00:14:19.640 --> 00:14:20.760 He's already done everything. 204 00:14:21.040 --> 00:14:25.480 My default state is naturally the thing that I'm wanting to get to. 205 00:14:25.840 --> 00:14:30.120 So if I just stop and let go, I revert back to that default state. 206 00:14:30.600 --> 00:14:32.520 So that's why all we have to do is stop trying. 207 00:14:32.520 --> 00:14:35.840 So all of this stuff, you know, you know, you know, not wanting to 208 00:14:35.840 --> 00:14:39.680 spend time with God and whatever, that's just like you said, you know, 209 00:14:39.920 --> 00:14:43.120 it's just strictly resistance because who you are less than impact. 210 00:14:44.000 --> 00:14:49.040 So stop all of the, the trying to do it right. 211 00:14:49.440 --> 00:14:53.360 We're trying to want to spend time with God, even that, you 212 00:14:53.360 --> 00:14:54.680 know, stop trying to want to. 213 00:14:55.520 --> 00:14:58.480 Just, just give yourself that gift. 214 00:14:58.640 --> 00:15:00.040 Just know this is me. 215 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:05.080 I love God, I enjoy God, but I'm not used to experiencing that. 216 00:15:05.080 --> 00:15:09.200 I'm not used to experiencing the enjoyment of it and the freedom of it. 217 00:15:09.200 --> 00:15:11.240 So I'm just going to choose this for myself. 218 00:15:11.240 --> 00:15:18.260 I'm going to choose that, that I, that, that if I, that I am who God says that I am. 219 00:15:18.260 --> 00:15:23.520 And that means that I automatically, that I, that my natural state is I do enjoy God. 220 00:15:23.520 --> 00:15:27.240 I always believe that I, I always feel loved. 221 00:15:27.240 --> 00:15:30.040 I always allow myself to be loved on. 222 00:15:30.040 --> 00:15:33.080 And then I always believe that he loves me, you know, et cetera. 223 00:15:33.080 --> 00:15:36.840 And so if I do that, well then if I believe that, well then what would I do? 224 00:15:36.840 --> 00:15:40.760 Well, I'd spend time with him strictly because I choose to. 225 00:15:40.760 --> 00:15:45.520 So that's something that you choose and that's an act on your faith. 226 00:15:45.520 --> 00:15:48.440 Because if we don't act on the faith, then it's not really faith. 227 00:15:48.440 --> 00:15:51.960 So you choose, you know, that if God says that you are that thing, well then what would 228 00:15:51.960 --> 00:15:52.960 you do? 229 00:15:52.960 --> 00:15:56.660 And you're like, okay, even though I don't have experience in it. 230 00:15:57.080 --> 00:15:58.080 I don't have experience in enjoying it. 231 00:15:58.080 --> 00:16:00.700 I'm going to, I'm going to choose that I enjoy it. 232 00:16:00.700 --> 00:16:02.100 So I'm just going to put myself there. 233 00:16:02.100 --> 00:16:06.260 I'm going to spend time with them and I'm just going to do it now though, from a different 234 00:16:06.260 --> 00:16:10.540 perspective than I have in the past and the past, I always approached it as this like 235 00:16:10.540 --> 00:16:13.740 agenda, this there, I had to, I had to have an agenda. 236 00:16:13.740 --> 00:16:15.860 There's something was supposed to happen. 237 00:16:15.860 --> 00:16:16.860 I'm supposed to feel him. 238 00:16:16.860 --> 00:16:17.860 I'm supposed to hear him. 239 00:16:17.860 --> 00:16:22.300 I was supposed to learn something and then I have to go and do it, you know, and you 240 00:16:22.300 --> 00:16:28.740 don't worry or I have to be convicted or I have to, I don't know, something and, and 241 00:16:28.740 --> 00:16:35.180 you don't, you just, you just go to, and you decide, no, I'm going to go just enjoy God 242 00:16:35.180 --> 00:16:36.180 just X. 243 00:16:36.180 --> 00:16:39.180 And then that'll give me a different type of an experience with them. 244 00:16:39.180 --> 00:16:43.740 So anyway, and then that'll start opening you up to feel safer because you know that 245 00:16:43.740 --> 00:16:46.060 you're allowed to spend time with the Lord. 246 00:16:46.060 --> 00:16:50.420 You'll find through experience that you, that God allows you to spend time with them without 247 00:16:50.420 --> 00:16:57.180 having to make something out of it or, you know, yeah, that makes sense. 248 00:16:57.180 --> 00:16:58.180 Yeah. 249 00:16:58.180 --> 00:16:59.180 It does. 250 00:16:59.180 --> 00:17:03.740 Well, I guess, like, I know you talk about, you know, often like through your day to day 251 00:17:03.740 --> 00:17:06.140 and you say, okay, Lord, let's, are we going to go do this today? 252 00:17:06.140 --> 00:17:07.140 Are we going to go do that? 253 00:17:07.140 --> 00:17:12.540 Or, you know, like, like you're in constant communion with him. 254 00:17:12.540 --> 00:17:17.980 And I feel at times in my life, I am like that and it, it, it is like just easy. 255 00:17:17.980 --> 00:17:25.540 And and then other times it's not, and so maybe this is the same answer that you already 256 00:17:25.540 --> 00:17:32.380 just gave me, like choosing, there's not an agenda. 257 00:17:32.380 --> 00:17:40.220 And and I think sometimes I, like, I just want to feel him like, cause I have experienced, 258 00:17:40.220 --> 00:17:47.380 you know, hearing him and, but I, and I feel like if I'm not experiencing me experiencing 259 00:17:47.380 --> 00:17:53.740 him in that same way, then is he there or, you know, 260 00:17:53.740 --> 00:17:59.380 Well partly, you know, by again, the stopping, the trying, the stopping, holding as an expectation 261 00:17:59.380 --> 00:18:03.700 of going to God and like, I'm going to go to God to experience them, or I'm wanting 262 00:18:03.700 --> 00:18:04.900 to experience them. 263 00:18:04.900 --> 00:18:07.460 Why won't he show up? 264 00:18:07.460 --> 00:18:13.340 Well, for, so instead of that, we go to him, we just, we just choose that, that we are 265 00:18:13.340 --> 00:18:18.700 who he says that we are meaning like, oh, we're that, we're that new creation, we're 266 00:18:18.700 --> 00:18:20.860 that new creature, we're that new man. 267 00:18:20.860 --> 00:18:24.900 And everything it is that that entails, meaning that we're one with Christ, we're completely 268 00:18:24.900 --> 00:18:25.900 perfect. 269 00:18:25.900 --> 00:18:29.300 We're no longer sinners, you know, and that kind of thing. 270 00:18:29.300 --> 00:18:38.420 And so from that, from the, if, if that is, you know, who I am, then I am going to just, 271 00:18:38.420 --> 00:18:39.520 just spend time with the Lord. 272 00:18:39.520 --> 00:18:44.180 I'm going to connect with them, I'm going to whatever, and by doing that, just because 273 00:18:44.180 --> 00:18:46.780 we're acting on faith, that we are who God says that we are. 274 00:18:46.780 --> 00:18:47.780 He says we're new creatures. 275 00:18:47.780 --> 00:18:50.420 He says that we're the new man that we're always in communication with him. 276 00:18:50.420 --> 00:18:54.980 So if we start acting like that, if we start presenting ourselves like that, if we start, 277 00:18:54.980 --> 00:18:58.540 I don't know, acting on that kind of like a lifestyle, like while you're stirring, while 278 00:18:58.780 --> 00:19:02.100 you're standing at the, at the stove, you know, stirring a pot of beans or whatever, 279 00:19:02.100 --> 00:19:07.140 you know, you're just, you're just aware in, in, in choosing that God is with me and God, 280 00:19:07.140 --> 00:19:13.420 you know, I'm communing with you and whatever, that by not putting an agenda on it, but simply 281 00:19:13.420 --> 00:19:19.780 by choosing to give yourself the reality of what it is that God says is already true will 282 00:19:19.780 --> 00:19:23.340 as a result, allow you to experience him. 283 00:19:23.340 --> 00:19:27.580 But if you're going for the experience, it will elude you. 284 00:19:28.580 --> 00:19:34.580 But if you go without the experience, without requiring the experience as part of the agenda, 285 00:19:34.580 --> 00:19:38.260 as far as like what we get out of it and what we want from him. 286 00:19:38.260 --> 00:19:44.580 And if we just, if we first choose him over the experience, we choose that he is that, 287 00:19:44.580 --> 00:19:49.980 that he is who he says that he is, and that we are who he says that we are, which again, 288 00:19:49.980 --> 00:19:55.660 new creature, new man, perfect one with him in constant communication with him, loved 289 00:19:55.660 --> 00:19:59.980 by him, completely resting in him, securely being. 290 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:02.520 provided for him, safe with him, all of those things. 291 00:20:02.520 --> 00:20:04.800 And we choose to live like that and act like that, 292 00:20:04.800 --> 00:20:06.720 choose that that's our reality, 293 00:20:06.720 --> 00:20:10.000 and natural results is that we'll experience it. 294 00:20:10.000 --> 00:20:12.160 But yeah, if we go for that, 295 00:20:12.160 --> 00:20:16.500 if we go for the experience over having faith in God, 296 00:20:16.500 --> 00:20:19.000 then, you know, believing that what it is 297 00:20:19.000 --> 00:20:20.560 that he says is true, 298 00:20:20.560 --> 00:20:24.760 and then we're choosing an idol. 299 00:20:24.760 --> 00:20:26.960 We're choosing experience more than God, 300 00:20:26.960 --> 00:20:28.760 experiencing him over him. 301 00:20:28.760 --> 00:20:31.000 And he wants us to choose him over experience. 302 00:20:31.000 --> 00:20:34.920 Experience is the natural result after we've chosen him. 303 00:20:34.920 --> 00:20:36.760 It comes from choosing him. 304 00:20:36.760 --> 00:20:39.600 So if we're asking for this without choosing this, 305 00:20:39.600 --> 00:20:40.960 this can't come, 306 00:20:40.960 --> 00:20:45.040 because this naturally has to come from this first. 307 00:20:45.040 --> 00:20:47.480 So if we don't have this, this can't come. 308 00:20:47.480 --> 00:20:48.960 So we have to give it up. 309 00:20:48.960 --> 00:20:51.960 In other words, just let it go and choose this instead, 310 00:20:51.960 --> 00:20:53.400 and then that'll come. 311 00:20:53.400 --> 00:20:54.240 Right. 312 00:20:55.240 --> 00:20:57.520 Well, that just, that reminded me of, 313 00:20:58.800 --> 00:21:02.400 like when I, I feel like I was putting my healing over him. 314 00:21:02.400 --> 00:21:03.240 Oh, yeah. 315 00:21:03.240 --> 00:21:05.640 And I, and I think in this past day, 316 00:21:05.640 --> 00:21:07.600 I feel like I've done that again. 317 00:21:07.600 --> 00:21:09.520 Like I almost, like I put it. 318 00:21:09.520 --> 00:21:11.400 Yeah, it's a deeper level. 319 00:21:11.400 --> 00:21:12.240 Yeah. 320 00:21:12.240 --> 00:21:16.120 Because you're being, it sees stuff in you is just, 321 00:21:16.120 --> 00:21:17.880 you know, it's like what we talked about before, 322 00:21:17.880 --> 00:21:20.360 where you've got like, you know, 323 00:21:20.360 --> 00:21:22.960 if this is the surface of what it used to, 324 00:21:22.960 --> 00:21:24.280 of what it is used to believe 325 00:21:24.280 --> 00:21:25.920 and what it is used to deal with and whatever. 326 00:21:25.920 --> 00:21:29.040 And then God has dealt with like from here down 327 00:21:29.040 --> 00:21:31.040 and that you've now let that go. 328 00:21:31.040 --> 00:21:32.160 And all of that, 329 00:21:32.160 --> 00:21:34.640 you presented that and exchanged your old beliefs 330 00:21:34.640 --> 00:21:36.080 for new beliefs and whatever. 331 00:21:36.080 --> 00:21:37.640 You now have another level, 332 00:21:37.640 --> 00:21:41.440 another surface that has never been exposed before, 333 00:21:41.440 --> 00:21:42.920 but now it's exposed 334 00:21:42.920 --> 00:21:45.480 because this from here down has been dealt with. 335 00:21:45.480 --> 00:21:46.400 So it's now removed. 336 00:21:46.400 --> 00:21:48.720 So it's now exposed to deeper level. 337 00:21:48.720 --> 00:21:51.280 So, you know, that's all that it is, 338 00:21:51.320 --> 00:21:54.160 is you're just going deeper. 339 00:21:54.160 --> 00:21:57.840 So it's not you learning, relearning a lesson. 340 00:21:57.840 --> 00:22:02.840 It's God allowing what it is that has always been there 341 00:22:03.360 --> 00:22:07.400 to just become evidence so it can actually be dealt with 342 00:22:07.400 --> 00:22:09.600 and then just removed. 343 00:22:09.600 --> 00:22:14.600 So it's not, so again, no condemnation on yourself, 344 00:22:14.720 --> 00:22:17.480 no being upset and ashamed or anything, 345 00:22:17.480 --> 00:22:20.440 because that's going to take longer to just deal with this. 346 00:22:20.440 --> 00:22:23.320 You just realize, oh, okay, this is something new. 347 00:22:23.320 --> 00:22:24.600 This is a new level. 348 00:22:24.600 --> 00:22:28.400 So, you know, we're now going to apply the same principles 349 00:22:28.400 --> 00:22:31.240 that we applied, you know, for this part up here, 350 00:22:31.240 --> 00:22:33.560 we're going to apply to this part down here. 351 00:22:33.560 --> 00:22:35.480 Same exact principles. 352 00:22:35.480 --> 00:22:36.720 That's why I tell people, I said, 353 00:22:36.720 --> 00:22:38.760 if you just rewatch the teaching, 354 00:22:39.880 --> 00:22:42.200 the more that you own this, 355 00:22:42.200 --> 00:22:47.200 every time you will come to understanding things 356 00:22:47.280 --> 00:22:48.480 and you'll hear me say things 357 00:22:48.480 --> 00:22:50.040 you didn't hear me say the first time. 358 00:22:50.640 --> 00:22:52.440 Because it's like, now you understand. 359 00:22:52.440 --> 00:22:53.440 And it's because of that, 360 00:22:53.440 --> 00:22:55.160 it's like, we're always going to a deeper level 361 00:22:55.160 --> 00:22:58.000 and you can always apply the same stuff 362 00:22:58.000 --> 00:22:59.320 at every single level. 363 00:22:59.320 --> 00:23:01.280 It's all the same principles. 364 00:23:01.280 --> 00:23:04.200 So in the kingdom of this world, everything's complicated. 365 00:23:04.200 --> 00:23:07.320 Every new situation and nuance and deeper level 366 00:23:07.320 --> 00:23:10.440 requires something extra special that's made just for that. 367 00:23:11.320 --> 00:23:14.160 But with God, it's the same thing every time. 368 00:23:14.160 --> 00:23:15.920 It's very simple. 369 00:23:15.920 --> 00:23:19.200 And we just have to learn to apply it, you know, deeper, 370 00:23:19.200 --> 00:23:21.320 to apply it to every area. 371 00:23:21.320 --> 00:23:23.880 It's just like, trust me, believe me. 372 00:23:23.880 --> 00:23:25.520 What did I say? 373 00:23:25.520 --> 00:23:28.160 And choose what it is that I said 374 00:23:28.160 --> 00:23:32.120 as your higher reality over this reality. 375 00:23:32.120 --> 00:23:33.680 We never want to deny this reality 376 00:23:33.680 --> 00:23:35.200 because this is very real, 377 00:23:35.200 --> 00:23:37.600 but God's reality supersedes this. 378 00:23:37.600 --> 00:23:41.360 And we always want to choose it over this, 379 00:23:41.360 --> 00:23:42.520 but we never want to deny this. 380 00:23:42.520 --> 00:23:44.600 Because if we deny this, then we can't fully choose that. 381 00:23:44.600 --> 00:23:46.360 You can only choose it. 382 00:23:46.360 --> 00:23:47.480 Because if we deny this, 383 00:23:47.480 --> 00:23:49.920 then we're defaulting back to that, 384 00:23:49.920 --> 00:23:51.720 meaning like we're just like, well, 385 00:23:51.720 --> 00:23:55.200 as if it's the only choice, but it's not the only choice. 386 00:23:55.200 --> 00:23:58.960 So in order to choose it, we have to have a choice. 387 00:23:58.960 --> 00:24:02.480 In other words, both have to exist when we make this choice. 388 00:24:02.480 --> 00:24:05.320 But anyway, that's a little nuance. 389 00:24:05.320 --> 00:24:10.320 But so anyway, yeah, you're just going around, 390 00:24:10.840 --> 00:24:12.360 you're doing what Ed refers to 391 00:24:12.360 --> 00:24:15.160 as going around the mountain at a higher level. 392 00:24:15.200 --> 00:24:16.880 It feels like, wait a minute, 393 00:24:16.880 --> 00:24:18.240 I've seen this out of the mountain before. 394 00:24:18.240 --> 00:24:21.000 Yeah, but you're at a higher elevation now. 395 00:24:21.000 --> 00:24:24.320 Or like I describe it, like going deeper. 396 00:24:26.080 --> 00:24:28.480 A deeper level is just being exposed. 397 00:24:28.480 --> 00:24:33.160 But it'll be a lot easier if you give yourself credit 398 00:24:34.600 --> 00:24:37.960 and an understanding that when you dealt with something, 399 00:24:37.960 --> 00:24:38.960 you really did deal with it. 400 00:24:38.960 --> 00:24:41.120 Because remember, when you address, 401 00:24:41.120 --> 00:24:44.480 when you allow a certain aspect of your flesh to die, 402 00:24:44.480 --> 00:24:47.240 in other words, you let it go and you give it to the Lord, 403 00:24:47.240 --> 00:24:49.400 it's replaced by spirit. 404 00:24:49.400 --> 00:24:52.520 Because if you truly give it to the Lord, it will die. 405 00:24:52.520 --> 00:24:54.440 And then it's resurrected as spirit 406 00:24:54.440 --> 00:24:58.520 and understand that the flesh is subject to death, 407 00:24:58.520 --> 00:25:00.120 but spirit is not. 408 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:05.920 So you're, if, if that aspect of you, if the flesh has been transformed a spirit, it can 409 00:25:05.920 --> 00:25:07.220 never die. 410 00:25:07.220 --> 00:25:12.980 So if you re so you really have quote unquote, learn that lesson, and now it's been replaced 411 00:25:12.980 --> 00:25:15.460 by spirit and that spirit can never die. 412 00:25:15.460 --> 00:25:18.580 And so it's just a deeper level of the, of it. 413 00:25:18.580 --> 00:25:23.020 It's not the same thing over again, you've already dealt with that, that spirit. 414 00:25:23.020 --> 00:25:26.220 You don't have to make, you don't have to do that again. 415 00:25:26.220 --> 00:25:27.220 You know? 416 00:25:27.220 --> 00:25:28.220 Well, that's encouraging. 417 00:25:28.220 --> 00:25:29.220 Yeah. 418 00:25:29.420 --> 00:25:32.580 I was like, Oh my gosh, I have to deal with this all over again. 419 00:25:32.580 --> 00:25:40.580 But yeah, you're just making the same choice with God, but at a deeper level, a D you there's 420 00:25:40.580 --> 00:25:44.260 deeper accusation in you than you realized. 421 00:25:44.260 --> 00:25:50.260 And so all different triggers are prompting it are pulling up that out, but see, you have, 422 00:25:50.260 --> 00:25:54.100 you're living under the bondage of it, whether or not you feel it. 423 00:25:54.100 --> 00:25:58.420 So it's a good thing when it comes up because God's like, Hey, now's an opportunity to deal 424 00:25:58.620 --> 00:26:03.580 with something that you've been in bondage to that's actually like hurting various aspects 425 00:26:03.580 --> 00:26:08.220 of your life, whether or not, you know, it's there, but now, you know, it's there. 426 00:26:08.220 --> 00:26:12.540 So now you have the opportunity, you know, child, would you like to let it go? 427 00:26:12.540 --> 00:26:14.780 And know it so that it's no longer a part of your life. 428 00:26:14.780 --> 00:26:18.940 Would you like to shift into more love and freedom in order to do that though, you need 429 00:26:18.940 --> 00:26:20.420 to choose me over it. 430 00:26:20.420 --> 00:26:24.900 And so anyway, he just, he just allows more and more of that to come up because it's always 431 00:26:24.900 --> 00:26:27.100 an invitation to greater love and freedom. 432 00:26:27.100 --> 00:26:28.100 Right. 433 00:26:28.380 --> 00:26:34.820 So it's not him getting onto you and like, Hey, let's make life harder for you. 434 00:26:34.820 --> 00:26:38.260 And you know, let's see how much you love me and let's see, you know, you know, how 435 00:26:38.260 --> 00:26:42.620 long you can endure it's, it's all in, it's in all of us. 436 00:26:42.620 --> 00:26:47.700 And God's just giving you the freedom, giving you the invitation to be rid of it. 437 00:26:47.700 --> 00:26:53.180 In other words, to have that aspect of you out so that you're no longer burdened by it. 438 00:26:53.180 --> 00:26:54.660 You're no longer victim to it. 439 00:26:54.660 --> 00:26:59.100 You're no longer bonded to it and you get to operate more love and freedom, but we get 440 00:26:59.100 --> 00:27:04.020 to choose whether or not we do that, but he'll still love us and he'll still talk to us even 441 00:27:04.020 --> 00:27:05.020 if we don't. 442 00:27:05.020 --> 00:27:06.020 Right. 443 00:27:06.020 --> 00:27:08.780 But he's like, wouldn't you like to live more free, right? 444 00:27:08.780 --> 00:27:09.940 He can't give us more. 445 00:27:09.940 --> 00:27:15.860 Remember, we're not giving this up in order to get transacted from God's something. 446 00:27:15.860 --> 00:27:20.740 We already have it all, but we're not allowing ourselves to access it because we're preferring 447 00:27:20.740 --> 00:27:24.260 to hang onto this instead of taking advantage of this. 448 00:27:24.860 --> 00:27:32.420 We already have what God gave us, but holding onto this a lot doesn't allow us to, to operate 449 00:27:32.420 --> 00:27:36.460 in this because we've chosen to operate in this system instead. 450 00:27:36.460 --> 00:27:38.660 So he's just like, Hey, I've already given it to you. 451 00:27:38.660 --> 00:27:43.260 I'm not going to give you, I can't give you any more because I've already given you everything. 452 00:27:43.260 --> 00:27:47.060 So, but if you let go of this, well, then you can finally grab ahold of the thing that 453 00:27:47.060 --> 00:27:48.060 I already gave you. 454 00:27:48.060 --> 00:27:49.740 So what would you like to do? 455 00:27:49.740 --> 00:27:54.620 What kind of an X life experience do you want to have? 456 00:27:54.620 --> 00:27:56.300 And it's not just a life experience. 457 00:27:56.300 --> 00:28:01.260 I just, that, that's kind of like where it hits us on a, like a, a, a physical level, 458 00:28:01.260 --> 00:28:07.220 but it's also how much more of me do you want to be able to experience, you know, how much 459 00:28:07.220 --> 00:28:12.540 more of me do you want to be able to like touch and, and feel. 460 00:28:12.540 --> 00:28:17.820 And like I just said, experience, um, we have to start letting go of things that this earth 461 00:28:17.900 --> 00:28:22.580 in order to be able to experience these other aspects of the Lord that he's already given 462 00:28:22.580 --> 00:28:29.140 us, but we can't, we can't connect with them, you know, unless we let go of these things 463 00:28:29.140 --> 00:28:30.580 first. 464 00:28:30.580 --> 00:28:35.540 So I just say all of that and the fact in freedom of the fact that it's just, it's just 465 00:28:35.540 --> 00:28:38.620 up to our choice. 466 00:28:38.620 --> 00:28:45.060 It's not like God's withholding something from us and said, no, it can't have this. 467 00:28:45.220 --> 00:28:52.700 Um, and, um, so, but I'll give it to other people, but I won't give it to you, you know, 468 00:28:52.700 --> 00:29:03.460 he just, but he does take us all on our own journey of experiencing him and of, of, um, 469 00:29:03.460 --> 00:29:10.740 the word I'm looking for, um, I don't know that growing in our faith and, uh, we all 470 00:29:10.740 --> 00:29:18.940 just kind of have different, different experiences or like, Oh Lord, you know, um, why did you 471 00:29:18.940 --> 00:29:25.380 help so-and-so figure out how to let go or give them the opportunity to, to have connected 472 00:29:25.380 --> 00:29:28.980 with so-and-so who told them just the thing that they needed to know. 473 00:29:28.980 --> 00:29:32.820 And now they're free, but you won't, you won't give me someone like that. 474 00:29:32.820 --> 00:29:37.140 I mean, we have those accusations that we can bring up against the Lord as well, but 475 00:29:37.140 --> 00:29:42.780 God just takes, um, that's what a friend of mine refers to as, uh, God just brings 476 00:29:42.780 --> 00:29:50.500 up each one of his sons in his own way, you know, but anyway, the thing is that, uh, we, 477 00:29:50.500 --> 00:29:54.940 he has still has given us everything already, right? 478 00:29:54.940 --> 00:29:59.860 So he just fathers us in how to access it, how to access. 479 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:01.380 something that we already have. 480 00:30:01.380 --> 00:30:04.160 Cause we're like, okay, God, I come into agreement with you that I already have 481 00:30:04.160 --> 00:30:08.040 it, but I've never, I've never experienced using it. 482 00:30:08.640 --> 00:30:10.640 I don't even know what it is fully that I have. 483 00:30:10.640 --> 00:30:13.360 You say, I have it and you say, I have all this stuff, but 484 00:30:13.360 --> 00:30:14.820 what really is that Lord? 485 00:30:15.320 --> 00:30:18.600 You know, what's even the word for it, let alone what on earth can you do with it? 486 00:30:18.640 --> 00:30:21.620 And what, what on earth is its purpose and how on earth would it benefit me? 487 00:30:22.200 --> 00:30:26.480 So I don't even know what it is, let alone, you know, how to use it. 488 00:30:26.680 --> 00:30:27.840 How do I interact with it? 489 00:30:27.840 --> 00:30:29.120 How do I take advantage of it? 490 00:30:29.120 --> 00:30:30.040 How do I, whatever. 491 00:30:30.580 --> 00:30:33.440 Um, and then that's something that God has to just teach us. 492 00:30:33.480 --> 00:30:37.080 He has to teach us what he has given us, teach us what it means, teach us how to 493 00:30:37.080 --> 00:30:42.200 use it, teach us how to access it, teach us under what situations is wise for us to 494 00:30:42.240 --> 00:30:46.880 utilize it, um, you know, teach us, well, who is his character and what 495 00:30:46.880 --> 00:30:48.520 does it mean to act in love? 496 00:30:50.000 --> 00:30:53.000 You know, the world has their own ideas of what it means to act in love, but 497 00:30:53.000 --> 00:30:54.280 God's a very different way. 498 00:30:54.720 --> 00:30:58.000 For instance, what he did with a prodigal son, when he, when the 499 00:30:58.000 --> 00:31:03.120 prodigal son, you know, went very dishonorably and very, um, disrespectfully 500 00:31:03.120 --> 00:31:07.880 to his father and demanded, you know, his, his inheritance or asked for it. 501 00:31:07.880 --> 00:31:09.120 How will, however you want to word it? 502 00:31:10.040 --> 00:31:13.960 Um, the father didn't have to give him the inheritance 503 00:31:13.960 --> 00:31:15.040 because he hadn't died yet. 504 00:31:15.720 --> 00:31:19.440 But not only did he, he give it to him, you know, before he died, 505 00:31:19.760 --> 00:31:21.560 you know, he gave it to him period. 506 00:31:21.960 --> 00:31:27.040 Meaning like the son was like, Hey, I'm rejecting you and I want to go do this 507 00:31:27.040 --> 00:31:27.920 on my own. 508 00:31:28.000 --> 00:31:30.360 And by the way, you're going to pay for it. 509 00:31:30.680 --> 00:31:32.080 You're going to enable me to do it. 510 00:31:32.680 --> 00:31:37.200 Well, in our world, that's called enabling, you know, is where it's like, 511 00:31:37.480 --> 00:31:38.760 Hey, I'm going to leave you. 512 00:31:39.160 --> 00:31:40.560 I'm going to, I'm going to reject you. 513 00:31:40.560 --> 00:31:42.080 I'm going to go hurt myself. 514 00:31:42.080 --> 00:31:45.680 I'm going to go, you know, whatever I want to provide for and protect myself 515 00:31:46.280 --> 00:31:47.720 and the choices that I make. 516 00:31:47.720 --> 00:31:50.920 And, and yet, and the father knows you have, but that's going to hurt you. 517 00:31:51.560 --> 00:31:51.880 Yeah. 518 00:31:51.880 --> 00:31:56.160 But that's gonna, this, this stuff is eventually going to run out, et cetera. 519 00:31:56.200 --> 00:31:58.680 But if you, but I love you. 520 00:31:58.680 --> 00:32:01.160 And so therefore I don't want to leave you stranded. 521 00:32:01.360 --> 00:32:05.440 I want to give you a means by which you can provide for and protect yourself. 522 00:32:05.480 --> 00:32:10.120 If you won't let me do it, if you won't let me do it, I will give you the means 523 00:32:10.120 --> 00:32:11.560 by which you can do it yourself. 524 00:32:11.920 --> 00:32:16.080 But just know, unfortunately that because it's not connected to me, it'll run out. 525 00:32:16.520 --> 00:32:19.760 But anyway, like I said, that's referred to, you know, in our world is enabling. 526 00:32:20.360 --> 00:32:20.640 Right. 527 00:32:20.640 --> 00:32:25.000 So our own, our world has its own way of describing love, you know, what it means 528 00:32:25.040 --> 00:32:29.200 to love, but God, you know, he, he does things very, very different. 529 00:32:29.680 --> 00:32:33.000 He, he literally gives people money to do drugs. 530 00:32:33.680 --> 00:32:34.360 Why? 531 00:32:34.400 --> 00:32:35.840 I don't know, but he does. 532 00:32:36.400 --> 00:32:37.720 He keeps people alive. 533 00:32:37.720 --> 00:32:42.360 Sometimes he, you know, he saves, he saves murderers. 534 00:32:42.360 --> 00:32:48.080 There, there, um, there are stories of this, that murderers have been saved by 535 00:32:48.080 --> 00:32:53.760 God and they were never caught and that eventually they just turned themselves 536 00:32:54.360 --> 00:32:55.800 because they've just believed it was right. 537 00:32:57.920 --> 00:33:00.480 God let God freed him and let him off the hook. 538 00:33:00.840 --> 00:33:05.240 In fact, um, I have a friend of mine, it's kind of a wild story, but I have a friend 539 00:33:05.240 --> 00:33:10.440 of mine who, um, became a Christian in federal prison and he was in prison for, 540 00:33:10.440 --> 00:33:15.160 I think 10 years and, um, for doing some, all kinds of stuff. 541 00:33:15.520 --> 00:33:18.760 And, um, anyway, so while he was in prison, he said, actually, you wouldn't 542 00:33:18.760 --> 00:33:23.360 believe the faith of some of these people in that I met in prison and 543 00:33:23.360 --> 00:33:25.160 the walk that they had with the Lord. 544 00:33:25.200 --> 00:33:27.080 And he said, it was wild. 545 00:33:27.080 --> 00:33:33.800 How the stories of the stories that they would tell of the fact that if police 546 00:33:33.800 --> 00:33:37.920 were about to get them, even this is before these people were saved, but the 547 00:33:37.920 --> 00:33:39.360 police were about to get them. 548 00:33:39.800 --> 00:33:45.760 And, um, and they had like a car, like full of drugs and the police were about 549 00:33:45.760 --> 00:33:50.160 to find them and they prayed and asked the Lord, Lord, please don't let them 550 00:33:50.160 --> 00:33:50.880 catch me. 551 00:33:51.520 --> 00:33:53.400 And he said, the Lord would answer their prayer. 552 00:33:55.480 --> 00:33:58.120 Like, Ashley, you try to explain that to me. 553 00:33:59.280 --> 00:34:01.640 He's like, he said, it is wild. 554 00:34:02.120 --> 00:34:05.960 The faith that some of these people who are in jail have because 555 00:34:05.960 --> 00:34:07.320 of what they've seen of the Lord. 556 00:34:08.080 --> 00:34:12.120 You know, and so my goodness, you know, you think that God loves us to such a 557 00:34:12.120 --> 00:34:16.159 degree and that we would just look at how he just handles this world and we 558 00:34:16.159 --> 00:34:17.480 go on, well, that's not love. 559 00:34:17.480 --> 00:34:21.480 And isn't that like, like actually enabling them to hurt themselves and 560 00:34:21.480 --> 00:34:25.719 then that whatever, well, apparently love to God means something very 561 00:34:25.719 --> 00:34:27.520 different than it does here on earth. 562 00:34:28.000 --> 00:34:30.960 Cause there's also times where he just says, no, you don't enable them 563 00:34:30.960 --> 00:34:31.840 and you don't help them. 564 00:34:32.239 --> 00:34:35.480 Well, God will, but, but how does that, this make this situation 565 00:34:35.480 --> 00:34:36.560 different than last time? 566 00:34:36.560 --> 00:34:40.280 Because that looked like enabling, you know, it's just like, there's 567 00:34:40.280 --> 00:34:43.480 something about there's love and you don't understand me. 568 00:34:43.560 --> 00:34:44.800 You don't understand my character. 569 00:34:44.800 --> 00:34:46.120 You don't understand what love is. 570 00:34:46.120 --> 00:34:50.000 You're trying to understand me by looking at worldly law and 571 00:34:50.000 --> 00:34:51.719 trying to compare situations. 572 00:34:51.800 --> 00:34:55.520 He's like, I can't be explained by the law. 573 00:34:56.320 --> 00:34:56.719 Right. 574 00:34:57.280 --> 00:34:59.480 So anyway, so what you're trying to say. 575 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:11.040 Stop trying to understand God, let him just reveal himself to you and just show, just 576 00:35:11.040 --> 00:35:12.040 just show. 577 00:35:12.040 --> 00:35:15.780 And he allow him to just show up as he wants to. 578 00:35:15.780 --> 00:35:20.740 And then you'll come to understand him better rather than trying to figure him out, trying 579 00:35:20.740 --> 00:35:27.340 to figure out formulas of what this means and what that means and whatever it is a lot. 580 00:35:27.340 --> 00:35:29.100 God can't be understood that way. 581 00:35:29.100 --> 00:35:37.360 He can be understood by the spirit, but he, um, but it's understood like a being not understood 582 00:35:37.360 --> 00:35:45.740 like a figured out, like you can't, and God's not interested in being figured out and God 583 00:35:45.740 --> 00:35:48.940 doesn't hold us accountable to figuring him out. 584 00:35:48.940 --> 00:35:51.220 He's like, I just want you to know me. 585 00:35:51.220 --> 00:35:52.220 Yeah. 586 00:35:52.220 --> 00:35:54.660 Knowing is very different than figuring out. 587 00:35:54.660 --> 00:35:55.660 Right. 588 00:35:55.660 --> 00:35:56.660 Yeah. 589 00:35:56.660 --> 00:36:02.140 Or even understanding or being able to predict or whatever he's like, no, you, you learn 590 00:36:02.140 --> 00:36:11.100 to be like me by getting to know me and then being, that's how you be like me, not by looking 591 00:36:11.100 --> 00:36:15.260 at me and figuring me out and then trying to copy. 592 00:36:15.260 --> 00:36:16.260 Yeah. 593 00:36:16.260 --> 00:36:18.660 So anyway, right. 594 00:36:18.660 --> 00:36:22.580 There's a little bit of copying, you know, that we do as kids, kids, you know, like kids 595 00:36:22.580 --> 00:36:29.980 referring to like us relish our relationship, the Lord, um, but there's, but a lot of times 596 00:36:29.980 --> 00:36:33.700 when we copy, there's ways in which we're not doing it quite right. 597 00:36:33.700 --> 00:36:36.100 And God's like, okay, that's okay. 598 00:36:36.100 --> 00:36:38.580 This is how you do it. 599 00:36:38.580 --> 00:36:41.580 It looked like I was doing that, but that's not actually what I was doing. 600 00:36:41.580 --> 00:36:44.540 A friend of mine, um, uh, uses this picture. 601 00:36:44.540 --> 00:36:50.180 He says like, uh, Chris Black, you know, that I talk about, um, that teaches on the three 602 00:36:50.180 --> 00:36:51.180 realms. 603 00:36:51.380 --> 00:36:54.100 Um, he, um, he uses it like this. 604 00:36:54.100 --> 00:36:58.300 He said, um, it's like, you're watching your, your three-year-old watching your father wash 605 00:36:58.300 --> 00:37:01.580 a car and you're wanting, he's washing it with soap. 606 00:37:01.580 --> 00:37:04.820 And then you, as a kid, you're not fully comprehending what's going on. 607 00:37:04.820 --> 00:37:06.020 You're just kind of watching him. 608 00:37:06.020 --> 00:37:09.940 He said, so what you do is you grab a whole, you know, the, all of the water and the soap 609 00:37:09.940 --> 00:37:12.460 has been like running into the, into the yard. 610 00:37:12.460 --> 00:37:14.900 And so you start picking up some mud. 611 00:37:14.900 --> 00:37:18.220 Now you start scrubbing, you know, and you're just so proud of yourself. 612 00:37:18.220 --> 00:37:20.540 I'm just like my dad, look what I'm doing. 613 00:37:20.820 --> 00:37:25.980 You're not realizing that what you're doing, even though you think it looks like your dad 614 00:37:25.980 --> 00:37:31.980 isn't really what your dad's doing, your dad is just like, okay, you're three. 615 00:37:31.980 --> 00:37:33.260 That's really, that's really cute. 616 00:37:33.260 --> 00:37:35.460 I'm very glad that you're watching me. 617 00:37:35.460 --> 00:37:39.900 Let me show you, since you're showing such interest in being like me, let me show you 618 00:37:39.900 --> 00:37:40.900 what I'm doing. 619 00:37:40.900 --> 00:37:43.180 I'm glad to see the same thing with us. 620 00:37:43.180 --> 00:37:44.180 Right. 621 00:37:44.180 --> 00:37:45.180 So great illustration. 622 00:37:45.180 --> 00:37:46.180 I know. 623 00:37:46.180 --> 00:37:47.180 I thought that was a great idea. 624 00:37:47.180 --> 00:37:50.180 I was like, that's a really good one, Chris. 625 00:37:50.820 --> 00:37:56.300 So what do you, so something that I've kind of been like, um, this has been stirring in 626 00:37:56.300 --> 00:38:04.420 me is that I've, for all my adult life, I've always had a passion for like health and wellness 627 00:38:04.420 --> 00:38:06.540 and fitness. 628 00:38:06.540 --> 00:38:14.820 And I feel like it's like been given to me like from, from God, but now that I'm like 629 00:38:14.820 --> 00:38:22.300 learning about, um, you know, the three realms and the, um, the tree of the knowledge of 630 00:38:22.300 --> 00:38:23.300 good and evil. 631 00:38:23.300 --> 00:38:28.820 And it's kind of like, I don't know where to put that. 632 00:38:28.820 --> 00:38:34.820 And it's like, is God calling me away from that to step into this, like newness with 633 00:38:34.820 --> 00:38:40.860 him to get rid of this knowledge that I have and this knowledge that I've thirsted after 634 00:38:40.860 --> 00:38:49.220 and, um, desired and what, you know, have taught many people and, um, like, what do 635 00:38:49.220 --> 00:38:50.220 I do with that? 636 00:38:50.220 --> 00:38:54.500 Well, so everything that you've been doing, all of that is really great. 637 00:38:54.500 --> 00:39:00.820 And the Lord loves the fact that you appreciate what he baked into creation. 638 00:39:00.820 --> 00:39:03.540 Those things won't go away. 639 00:39:03.540 --> 00:39:08.460 You know, the, uh, the, um, I think I was talking about this the other day. 640 00:39:08.460 --> 00:39:12.460 Sometimes I get a little confused as to whether or not I said it like on, on like a, on a 641 00:39:12.460 --> 00:39:16.700 private transformation session with someone or like the whole group, but is there, forgive 642 00:39:16.700 --> 00:39:24.260 me if I'm like repeating myself, but it's, um, uh, you know, that, that God didn't, isn't 643 00:39:24.260 --> 00:39:27.500 that Jesus came to fulfill the law, not to abolish it. 644 00:39:27.500 --> 00:39:31.460 And by the law, I'm referring to just anything in the creation that he created. 645 00:39:31.460 --> 00:39:33.940 Um, we're not just talking about like spiritual laws. 646 00:39:33.940 --> 00:39:37.300 We're talking about like earthly laws and, and, um, and stuff. 647 00:39:37.300 --> 00:39:39.780 He came to fulfill, not to abolish. 648 00:39:39.780 --> 00:39:43.580 So in other words, there's nothing wrong with anything that God created. 649 00:39:43.580 --> 00:39:46.260 It's been subjected to frustration. 650 00:39:46.260 --> 00:39:52.660 It has, it's acting out of the fat, out of instruction from the human soul in belief 651 00:39:52.660 --> 00:39:54.780 that God's not good and it's not safe. 652 00:39:54.780 --> 00:39:56.780 And so therefore it's now subject to death. 653 00:39:56.780 --> 00:39:59.500 And it mentions in Romans eight, it was subject. 654 00:39:59.500 --> 00:40:00.020 It was subject. 655 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:06.880 to defrustration, not of its own will, but out, but by hope that it would be saved or 656 00:40:06.880 --> 00:40:10.320 redeemed or something. I don't remember how it finished that sentence, but basically in 657 00:40:10.320 --> 00:40:20.680 hopes that it would have salvation. And so point is that it's not bad. It's just acting 658 00:40:20.680 --> 00:40:28.480 disorderly, because it's because it's acting as if it's has is like, I don't know, subject 659 00:40:28.480 --> 00:40:33.920 to disease and subject to entropy, you know, the law of entropy and stuff like that. And 660 00:40:33.920 --> 00:40:37.800 I do not believe that the law of entropy was in existence before the fall. I believe that 661 00:40:37.800 --> 00:40:42.360 the law of entropy happened as a result of the fall and that now everything's leading 662 00:40:42.360 --> 00:40:49.560 towards, you know, towards that like death and decay. So point is that what it is that 663 00:40:49.560 --> 00:40:55.960 God created, including health and how our bodies work and the laws, meaning like the 664 00:40:55.960 --> 00:41:01.960 physical laws by which they operate. He loves it. He created Adam's body to work like that. 665 00:41:01.960 --> 00:41:08.820 And there was nothing wrong with Adam's before the fall. Right. And, and so showing an appreciation 666 00:41:08.820 --> 00:41:13.640 for what it is that God created, like learning about it, you know, there's nothing wrong 667 00:41:13.640 --> 00:41:17.600 with knowledge. God just doesn't want us to depend on it. God created the tree of the 668 00:41:17.600 --> 00:41:22.120 knowledge of good and evil, called it good, said it was great. He said, just don't eat 669 00:41:22.120 --> 00:41:27.760 of it. In other words, don't depend on it to give you something that you, if you feel 670 00:41:27.760 --> 00:41:33.560 like you're in need, he said, don't use, don't depend on it. He said, you take care of it. 671 00:41:33.560 --> 00:41:39.560 You enjoy, you appreciate it. You use it, but you don't depend on it. You don't use 672 00:41:39.560 --> 00:41:45.480 it for fuel. You just use it as in like you interact with it, you take care of it, you 673 00:41:45.480 --> 00:41:49.000 nurture it, you appreciate it, et cetera. So the same thing with everything it is that 674 00:41:49.000 --> 00:41:54.520 you've learned, those are, um, that's, I think that the, that the world, I could be 675 00:41:54.520 --> 00:41:58.600 wrong, but I think that the world, even under the new earth is still going to operate according 676 00:41:58.600 --> 00:42:02.920 to those same laws and same principles. They just won't be subject to corruption anymore. 677 00:42:02.920 --> 00:42:09.600 We won't have disease, et cetera, but we will have, you know, that leads to death and decay, 678 00:42:09.600 --> 00:42:14.400 that we will have all of the things like we'll be able to eat, but we don't, but we won't 679 00:42:14.400 --> 00:42:23.400 have to eat for fuel. Yeah. We'll be sustained by God, but we can still eat just like Jesus. 680 00:42:23.400 --> 00:42:29.160 Jesus is new body did not have to eat, but yet it could, he didn't have to walk. He could 681 00:42:29.160 --> 00:42:36.320 translate, but yet he walked, you know, he, and, uh, anyway, so, I mean, just like a variety 682 00:42:36.320 --> 00:42:39.760 of other examples that we could give. So I believe that we're still going to have these 683 00:42:39.760 --> 00:42:43.600 bodies and that they're still going to be the same principles that are in operation 684 00:42:43.600 --> 00:42:48.240 now, but we're not going to be subject to them. Now, right now, we believe that we're 685 00:42:48.240 --> 00:42:52.720 subject to them. So if something happens, we have to succumb to the natural law, the 686 00:42:52.720 --> 00:42:58.680 natural result of that law. But, but eventually, you know, what, which is what happened with 687 00:42:58.680 --> 00:43:03.520 Jesus, we're no longer going to have, we're no longer have to be subject to those laws, 688 00:43:03.520 --> 00:43:08.440 but we can choose to use them. We can choose to operate within them. Just like Jesus could 689 00:43:08.440 --> 00:43:15.160 choose to eat and his body would process it, but he no longer depended on food in order 690 00:43:15.160 --> 00:43:20.720 to be sustained. We know that 100% sure, because he rose bodily from the grave. Anyone who 691 00:43:20.720 --> 00:43:27.080 could bodily raised from the rise from the grave does not need to eat. If you can conquer 692 00:43:27.080 --> 00:43:32.480 death, your body is not, it's not, it does not require food. You know, you were apparently 693 00:43:32.480 --> 00:43:38.320 bowling on some other source. So, um, so anyway, it's, uh, so all of those things 694 00:43:38.320 --> 00:43:42.920 are good, but what God doesn't want us to do, what God wants us to learn is how to no 695 00:43:42.920 --> 00:43:51.000 longer depend on all of those things for our salvation. In other words, if we are, if, 696 00:43:51.000 --> 00:43:58.400 if we're in need that, that it's how we eat and how we work and how we exercise and how 697 00:43:58.400 --> 00:44:05.920 we use those principles, that is what is going to save us. So therefore we're in lack unless 698 00:44:05.920 --> 00:44:11.640 we'll use their energy source to fix us. In other words, we're making them more powerful 699 00:44:11.640 --> 00:44:16.200 than we are because we need them. And I was like, no, no, no. I want you to understand 700 00:44:16.200 --> 00:44:21.640 that you're a son of God and that you pull your source for me. And then you can just 701 00:44:21.640 --> 00:44:28.380 use and operate within these principles because you're part of this world. You literally care 702 00:44:28.380 --> 00:44:34.140 in your body. You literally carry the same nutrients, the same molecules and atoms and 703 00:44:34.140 --> 00:44:41.300 elements that I don't know, but that make up viruses and that make up, um, that make 704 00:44:41.300 --> 00:44:46.980 up, uh, I don't know, you know, bacteria and that make up a cell, uh, obviously cells, 705 00:44:46.980 --> 00:44:52.300 but, um, I don't know, just various different things of creation, like, uh, like nitrogen 706 00:44:52.300 --> 00:44:56.920 and oxygen. And I mean, you literally, your body is literally made up of those same elements. 707 00:44:56.920 --> 00:44:59.600 We are of creation. We are of this earth. 708 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.320 And so we're deeply connected with it, but our identity is higher. 709 00:45:04.320 --> 00:45:09.920 Our identity is in the spirit point is everything's that, that you've got, you know, it's all 710 00:45:09.920 --> 00:45:10.920 great. 711 00:45:10.920 --> 00:45:15.240 Cause just like, just, I'm just teaching you how you can depend on me instead of depending 712 00:45:15.240 --> 00:45:16.560 on it. 713 00:45:16.560 --> 00:45:23.960 You can enjoy them because you can't fully enjoy and use to its fullest potential, something 714 00:45:23.960 --> 00:45:29.360 that you feel that you need, because it is always more powerful than you are. 715 00:45:29.360 --> 00:45:35.160 If you need it, but if you no longer need it, then you can use it more effectively. 716 00:45:35.160 --> 00:45:38.440 You can use it to its fullest, et cetera. 717 00:45:38.440 --> 00:45:40.680 So anyway, that, but that's just a journey. 718 00:45:40.680 --> 00:45:43.160 God doesn't expect us to do it overnight. 719 00:45:43.160 --> 00:45:47.560 And in fact, if we kid ourselves and thinking we can do it overnight, that's when we run 720 00:45:47.560 --> 00:45:52.760 into that issue of acting on something that we don't have the faith for yet. 721 00:45:52.760 --> 00:45:55.200 So God's just like, Hey, let's just develop this. 722 00:45:55.200 --> 00:45:56.200 You know, we've got time. 723 00:45:56.200 --> 00:45:57.200 My goodness. 724 00:45:58.200 --> 00:46:05.480 Well, cause that makes me think about like diet, like different diets and as far as like 725 00:46:05.480 --> 00:46:13.640 for healing cancer and like, if I didn't feel like I needed it, I probably wouldn't change 726 00:46:13.640 --> 00:46:16.120 to a different diet. 727 00:46:16.120 --> 00:46:26.240 So like, how do I like, like, like either a plant-based diet or a keto diet for healing 728 00:46:26.280 --> 00:46:29.280 cancer? 729 00:46:29.280 --> 00:46:38.000 Like the only reason I would do that is because I felt like I needed it to cure can't to be 730 00:46:38.000 --> 00:46:39.000 healthy. 731 00:46:39.000 --> 00:46:40.000 Correct. 732 00:46:40.000 --> 00:46:41.000 Yeah. 733 00:46:41.000 --> 00:46:43.560 Cause that's where we are right now. 734 00:46:43.560 --> 00:46:49.240 We can know where God is taking us, but not yet know how to get there. 735 00:46:49.240 --> 00:46:55.120 So we need to act where it is that we are like, is this where you talk about go where 736 00:46:55.120 --> 00:46:56.600 your soul has peace? 737 00:46:56.600 --> 00:46:57.600 Yeah. 738 00:46:57.600 --> 00:46:58.600 Yes. 739 00:46:58.600 --> 00:46:59.600 Yeah. 740 00:46:59.600 --> 00:47:06.880 So we can only act, you know, act on, on the faith that it is that you have, but if you, 741 00:47:06.880 --> 00:47:15.320 if your body isn't like, we can want to believe this all that we want, you know, but we can 742 00:47:15.320 --> 00:47:17.160 be willing to all that we want. 743 00:47:17.160 --> 00:47:21.000 And we can know that eventually God wants to take us there, but if we don't fully know 744 00:47:21.000 --> 00:47:28.360 yet how to do it, then our faith quite isn't, isn't where it needs to be in order for us 745 00:47:28.360 --> 00:47:29.360 to act on it. 746 00:47:29.360 --> 00:47:31.400 And so God's like, that's fine. 747 00:47:31.400 --> 00:47:34.600 That's just not where you are right now, you know, but agree with me in what measure you 748 00:47:34.600 --> 00:47:42.080 can, and then where does your, what, what is your, does your body and soul indicate 749 00:47:42.080 --> 00:47:44.440 to you that they truly believe? 750 00:47:44.440 --> 00:47:49.360 Because that's what they're going to respond to because otherwise we're just kind of kidding 751 00:47:49.360 --> 00:47:50.360 ourselves. 752 00:47:50.720 --> 00:47:54.960 Our body is, continues to respond to diet and that's where we need to go. 753 00:47:54.960 --> 00:47:56.120 We need to give it diet. 754 00:47:56.120 --> 00:48:00.440 I do the same thing with me, you know, with like, I, I watch certain things that I eat 755 00:48:00.440 --> 00:48:01.440 or whatever. 756 00:48:01.440 --> 00:48:09.120 And I know that eventually God is going to teach me how to pull, how to use, how to use 757 00:48:09.120 --> 00:48:14.520 utilize him as my source and how to be sourced from him. 758 00:48:14.520 --> 00:48:18.520 But right now I don't have the faith for that. 759 00:48:18.520 --> 00:48:20.240 I don't fully understand that. 760 00:48:20.240 --> 00:48:24.000 I don't understand how to have faith in him for that other than strictly, Oh, well, if 761 00:48:24.000 --> 00:48:25.840 God says it's true, then it's just true. 762 00:48:25.840 --> 00:48:29.040 And I just don't know how, and I'll just stop eating. 763 00:48:29.040 --> 00:48:35.480 I can say that all I want to, but deep down, if my body doesn't respond to that, it means 764 00:48:35.480 --> 00:48:37.280 I don't actually believe it. 765 00:48:37.280 --> 00:48:39.680 I just want to believe it. 766 00:48:39.680 --> 00:48:45.880 And so I have to just go wherever it is that I actually am believing. 767 00:48:45.880 --> 00:48:49.080 And so I'm like, okay, well then I need to not eat much sugar. 768 00:48:49.080 --> 00:48:51.240 I need to watch how many calories I eat. 769 00:48:51.240 --> 00:48:56.080 I need to, and so I do that because that's where it is that I am right now. 770 00:48:56.080 --> 00:48:57.080 Yeah. 771 00:48:57.080 --> 00:49:03.080 So anyway, but we can know that God is heading it is, is, is has something else for us. 772 00:49:03.080 --> 00:49:07.480 And we're like, and we can ask God, okay, God, what, again, like he's already given 773 00:49:07.480 --> 00:49:08.480 us everything. 774 00:49:08.480 --> 00:49:10.800 So God, what have you given us? 775 00:49:10.800 --> 00:49:14.680 So sometimes you've given us words for it and sometimes you haven't, but even when you've 776 00:49:14.680 --> 00:49:19.160 given us words for it, Lord, like of what it is that you've given us, you have it. 777 00:49:19.160 --> 00:49:20.360 What does that mean? 778 00:49:20.360 --> 00:49:21.360 How do I do that? 779 00:49:21.360 --> 00:49:22.360 How do I access that? 780 00:49:22.360 --> 00:49:23.360 How do I interact with that? 781 00:49:23.360 --> 00:49:24.360 Cause I just don't understand. 782 00:49:24.360 --> 00:49:30.180 So, and it's, it's like a kid learn, you'd ride a bike, you know, just because he has 783 00:49:30.180 --> 00:49:32.080 everything he needs to ride the bike. 784 00:49:32.080 --> 00:49:36.640 Doesn't mean that he, that doesn't mean that he knows how to, his body doesn't know how 785 00:49:36.640 --> 00:49:37.640 to do that. 786 00:49:37.640 --> 00:49:38.640 And so what's going to happen? 787 00:49:38.640 --> 00:49:39.640 He's going to fall. 788 00:49:39.640 --> 00:49:40.640 He's going to get on one of those things. 789 00:49:40.640 --> 00:49:41.640 He's going to fall. 790 00:49:41.640 --> 00:49:42.640 He's going to hurt himself. 791 00:49:42.640 --> 00:49:44.640 And he could actually really hurt himself. 792 00:49:44.640 --> 00:49:49.360 He could hit his head, break his arm, he could, whatever, you know, because he saw his dad 793 00:49:49.360 --> 00:49:50.360 riding the bike. 794 00:49:50.360 --> 00:49:53.540 And so he tried to do it and then whatever. 795 00:49:53.540 --> 00:49:59.400 So just because he, he can eventually doesn't mean that. 796 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.040 He's ready for it now because he has to grow into that. 797 00:50:03.040 --> 00:50:06.960 And we're not condemned until we get there, but God loves the fact that we 798 00:50:06.960 --> 00:50:13.160 want to get there, but he wants us to act in an honor where it is that we are. 799 00:50:13.200 --> 00:50:15.040 Otherwise we can really hurt ourselves. 800 00:50:15.280 --> 00:50:17.920 And he's not even requiring us to be there yet. 801 00:50:18.320 --> 00:50:19.840 Cause he's like, yeah, but that's not where you are yet. 802 00:50:19.880 --> 00:50:21.560 You're you're, you're five. 803 00:50:21.960 --> 00:50:23.120 You're not 15. 804 00:50:23.120 --> 00:50:26.000 You can't ride that bike yet, you know, but I'll teach you how 805 00:50:26.000 --> 00:50:29.000 to ride your own size bike, you know? 806 00:50:29.240 --> 00:50:29.640 Right. 807 00:50:29.680 --> 00:50:31.080 But I have to teach you how to do that. 808 00:50:32.200 --> 00:50:35.760 And your body has to learn balance and all like multiple different aspects 809 00:50:35.760 --> 00:50:38.600 that you have to all work in coordination at the same time. 810 00:50:39.240 --> 00:50:39.520 Right. 811 00:50:39.520 --> 00:50:42.800 And that's not something that, that like a, like a, like a 812 00:50:42.800 --> 00:50:44.240 two or three year old can do. 813 00:50:45.240 --> 00:50:46.360 And we're so used to that. 814 00:50:46.360 --> 00:50:49.480 We don't think about the fact that no, the reason is two or three year old 815 00:50:49.480 --> 00:50:54.160 can't, can't do that is because that many aspects of their body cannot 816 00:50:54.160 --> 00:50:56.200 coordinate all together at the same time. 817 00:50:56.640 --> 00:50:58.240 Like it can when it's five. 818 00:50:58.960 --> 00:51:02.840 So it's not because they're small it's because it can't coordinate. 819 00:51:03.320 --> 00:51:04.280 Same thing with logic. 820 00:51:04.280 --> 00:51:05.640 Logic is built. 821 00:51:06.160 --> 00:51:08.160 Logic is not born into a little baby. 822 00:51:08.200 --> 00:51:11.240 I mean, well, there's certain aspects of logic, but it's very, very simple, 823 00:51:11.560 --> 00:51:17.640 but logical thinking about like results and consequences and very complicated 824 00:51:17.640 --> 00:51:22.000 processes that has to develop in children to the point where teachers 825 00:51:22.000 --> 00:51:26.280 specifically learn how to teach people, how to teach children, how 826 00:51:26.280 --> 00:51:28.080 to develop their logic skills. 827 00:51:28.560 --> 00:51:33.880 How to, how to, how to move from this to this, to this conclusion into this one. 828 00:51:33.920 --> 00:51:36.320 It's, it's learned, right. 829 00:51:36.560 --> 00:51:36.960 You know? 830 00:51:37.120 --> 00:51:40.600 And so anyway, God, God doesn't condemn us for being where it is that we are. 831 00:51:40.600 --> 00:51:43.360 And we can really hurt ourselves by like jumping to somewhere that we 832 00:51:43.360 --> 00:51:44.880 want to be at that we're not yet. 833 00:51:45.560 --> 00:51:51.520 So now I personally have friends who, who don't eat, um, or, or go 834 00:51:51.520 --> 00:51:56.560 through times where they don't eat and I'm just not there, but they've 835 00:51:56.560 --> 00:51:59.000 had to work to get there and not by work. 836 00:51:59.000 --> 00:51:59.840 I don't mean work hard. 837 00:51:59.840 --> 00:52:01.960 I mean, they've had to take that in their own relationship with the Lord 838 00:52:01.960 --> 00:52:05.400 and like figure out how to, how do you have faith so that your 839 00:52:05.400 --> 00:52:06.840 body doesn't need food? 840 00:52:07.160 --> 00:52:09.240 How do you communicate that to your body? 841 00:52:09.240 --> 00:52:13.080 How do you actually believe it to the point that your body responds to that 842 00:52:13.080 --> 00:52:18.360 belief, like where you really believe it, you know, and so, um, there are 843 00:52:18.360 --> 00:52:19.840 even non-Christians that do that. 844 00:52:19.840 --> 00:52:22.040 And they're not even, like I said, they're not even Christians. 845 00:52:22.560 --> 00:52:24.840 So we just, we just take whatever it is. 846 00:52:24.840 --> 00:52:26.880 The Lord gives us wherever it is that we are. 847 00:52:26.920 --> 00:52:30.560 And he gets excited about the fact that we want to pursue new things with 848 00:52:30.560 --> 00:52:33.520 him and that we want to learn new things. 849 00:52:33.880 --> 00:52:36.720 And we want to press in as opposed to just like, we don't 850 00:52:36.720 --> 00:52:37.600 want to learn anything else. 851 00:52:37.600 --> 00:52:42.160 He loves that, but he also wants us to acknowledge where it is that we are 852 00:52:42.560 --> 00:52:48.240 and live there while pressing into the new, as opposed to trying to live 853 00:52:48.240 --> 00:52:51.360 somewhere that he hasn't revealed what that thing is yet. 854 00:52:52.080 --> 00:52:56.600 And so anyway, so yeah, it's helpful. 855 00:52:57.160 --> 00:52:59.480 It makes me feel a little bit more at peace today or a lot. 856 00:53:00.560 --> 00:53:01.080 Good. 857 00:53:01.320 --> 00:53:05.760 So, like I said, what it is that you have enjoyed that you just feel like 858 00:53:06.000 --> 00:53:11.120 gives you life that you've, that you've, that other people's lives have benefited 859 00:53:11.120 --> 00:53:15.760 by you pouring into them all that it is that you've learned the Lord loves that. 860 00:53:16.280 --> 00:53:17.280 He's so pleased with that. 861 00:53:17.280 --> 00:53:18.080 He's like all my words. 862 00:53:18.080 --> 00:53:20.160 See, see Casey understands. 863 00:53:20.160 --> 00:53:24.240 Casey appreciates this and Ashley on the other hand just doesn't, but Casey 864 00:53:24.240 --> 00:53:28.160 understands she's doing it, you know? 865 00:53:28.280 --> 00:53:33.360 And so, um, cause I just, just don't have that interest in like health as much 866 00:53:33.360 --> 00:53:36.160 as, as much as some people I have other interests. 867 00:53:36.720 --> 00:53:42.000 Um, and, uh, so anybody who's just like Casey, Casey understands she can see 868 00:53:42.000 --> 00:53:44.440 that expression of me into the world. 869 00:53:44.920 --> 00:53:50.400 And, um, and she is delighting in me when she's delighting in the things that I've 870 00:53:50.400 --> 00:53:52.840 made, because I thought that they were cool. 871 00:53:53.000 --> 00:53:53.760 I wanted them. 872 00:53:53.840 --> 00:53:55.400 They were a gift that I wanted to give my children. 873 00:53:55.520 --> 00:53:56.480 I just, they're really neat. 874 00:53:56.520 --> 00:53:57.600 I wish everybody loved them. 875 00:53:58.360 --> 00:53:59.720 And so he likes that. 876 00:54:00.120 --> 00:54:00.960 That's not bad. 877 00:54:00.960 --> 00:54:01.680 It's not wrong. 878 00:54:01.720 --> 00:54:03.000 It's not going away. 879 00:54:05.560 --> 00:54:10.760 So, so yeah, he just wants us to rely on him, not yet. 880 00:54:11.040 --> 00:54:12.920 And the less that we rely on it. 881 00:54:12.920 --> 00:54:17.440 And the more that we rely on him, the better that this becomes because we can 882 00:54:17.440 --> 00:54:20.920 you, you can, we can use it more because now we're more powerful than it. 883 00:54:21.720 --> 00:54:23.520 So we can use it to its fullest potential. 884 00:54:23.520 --> 00:54:27.200 We can give it things that it needs because creation is waiting on us. 885 00:54:27.200 --> 00:54:32.320 And yet we keep trying to think that we keep using creation to take care of us. 886 00:54:32.840 --> 00:54:34.920 And creation is waiting on us to take care of it. 887 00:54:35.320 --> 00:54:40.280 And so once the tables are turned, well, um, we're going to start getting so much 888 00:54:40.280 --> 00:54:44.440 more out of creation and health and, you know, and all of that, then we are now. 889 00:54:45.000 --> 00:54:45.480 Right. 890 00:54:45.680 --> 00:54:46.520 That makes sense. 891 00:54:46.960 --> 00:54:47.320 Yeah. 892 00:54:48.880 --> 00:54:54.920 And then my other last question was when will you open up the videos for the rest 893 00:54:54.920 --> 00:54:59.200 of the rest of the rest lifestyle? 894 00:54:59.560 --> 00:54:59.760 Yeah. 895 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.680 rest lifestyle. Um, you know, I haven't, I was talking to Ed about this. 896 00:55:04.720 --> 00:55:12.280 I have not decided because I don't know if I'm going to do them all at once, or 897 00:55:12.280 --> 00:55:15.680 if I'm going to do, I'm kind of like, if I'm like going to spread them out a 898 00:55:15.680 --> 00:55:20.160 little bit, um, I wish what I had done this time for the rest intensive is 899 00:55:20.160 --> 00:55:24.020 opened up all up at once and had kind of like a concentrated, and this is what 900 00:55:24.020 --> 00:55:27.800 I'm going to do in January, going to do a more concentrated teaching in the 901 00:55:27.800 --> 00:55:31.280 beginning and then spend the rest of the time just with everybody, like 902 00:55:31.500 --> 00:55:36.120 learning how to apply all of those things, because it's so much of a whole 903 00:55:36.120 --> 00:55:41.020 package, those first seven that unless they, unless people get exposed to that 904 00:55:41.020 --> 00:55:46.760 information all at the same time, it can feel very confusing because if you're 905 00:55:46.760 --> 00:55:49.640 talking about love one week and then the next week you're learning about one 906 00:55:49.640 --> 00:55:53.600 spirit, and then the next week you're learning about two trees. 907 00:55:53.600 --> 00:55:55.720 And then the next week you're learning about three rounds. 908 00:55:55.720 --> 00:55:59.400 My goodness, it's a whole month before you get to three realms, let alone, you 909 00:55:59.400 --> 00:56:01.360 know, rush shifting tools, et cetera. 910 00:56:01.600 --> 00:56:05.980 So I'm going to have all of that concentrated at the beginning, um, in 911 00:56:05.980 --> 00:56:09.800 January, but for this time, it's different for the rest lifestyle. 912 00:56:09.800 --> 00:56:14.960 It's, um, they're very standalone teachings because it's about like healing 913 00:56:14.960 --> 00:56:18.760 the body and soul, you know, through the spirit and operating spirit, whatever. 914 00:56:19.080 --> 00:56:24.780 So I'll at least open the first one, you know, that first week, but I have to 915 00:56:24.780 --> 00:56:27.540 figure out is how do I want to do the others? 916 00:56:27.580 --> 00:56:31.980 And my whole purpose is how will everybody learn as a group together? 917 00:56:32.980 --> 00:56:39.420 The most effectively, is it opening them all up or is it, um, giving them out? 918 00:56:40.020 --> 00:56:40.740 I'm really not sure. 919 00:56:40.780 --> 00:56:44.740 I figured out what's best the first time, but the second one was a bit different. 920 00:56:45.340 --> 00:56:45.740 Okay. 921 00:56:46.220 --> 00:56:47.860 Was there a reason, did you need something? 922 00:56:48.020 --> 00:56:53.020 Well, no, I was just going to maybe go look, listen to the next one, but it's, 923 00:56:53.020 --> 00:56:54.340 it's no, no, no rush. 924 00:56:54.380 --> 00:56:54.820 Either way. 925 00:56:54.820 --> 00:56:56.540 It'll, it'll be coming up pretty soon. 926 00:56:56.540 --> 00:57:00.260 So, so I'll at least open it up because what are we on? 927 00:57:00.260 --> 00:57:02.900 Thursday, Thursday. 928 00:57:03.060 --> 00:57:03.380 Okay. 929 00:57:03.380 --> 00:57:03.780 Thursday. 930 00:57:03.780 --> 00:57:06.100 So I'll at least open it up within a few days. 931 00:57:06.100 --> 00:57:06.900 So, yeah. 932 00:57:07.340 --> 00:57:07.700 Okay. 933 00:57:08.380 --> 00:57:08.660 Yeah. 934 00:57:09.380 --> 00:57:11.140 So I'm excited that you're going to be there. 935 00:57:11.140 --> 00:57:18.740 There's at least five people that have registered and then there's at least a 936 00:57:18.740 --> 00:57:23.180 sixth person who said that they want to, and then I didn't know about the rest, 937 00:57:23.180 --> 00:57:25.460 but I've heard five are signed up. 938 00:57:26.780 --> 00:57:27.700 Not sure about the sick. 939 00:57:27.780 --> 00:57:31.740 And then the sixth one hasn't pulled the trigger, but they told me today. 940 00:57:31.740 --> 00:57:32.500 Yes, absolutely. 941 00:57:32.500 --> 00:57:33.100 Going to do it. 942 00:57:33.660 --> 00:57:36.940 Um, and then, um, the others I've known, I don't know. 943 00:57:36.980 --> 00:57:40.980 I think that at least most, if not all of them are going to sign up, but that's 944 00:57:40.980 --> 00:57:43.620 just based off of their responses. 945 00:57:43.620 --> 00:57:46.420 So yeah, everyone has their own journey. 946 00:57:47.340 --> 00:57:49.780 Well, I'm grateful that you're continued on doing it. 947 00:57:50.260 --> 00:57:51.860 I'm excited that it worked out. 948 00:57:52.020 --> 00:57:55.060 I was telling everybody, I'm excited that people want it too. 949 00:57:55.100 --> 00:57:58.580 So anyway, that it was helpful enough to people that it was 950 00:57:58.580 --> 00:57:59.580 giving them what they wanted. 951 00:57:59.580 --> 00:58:00.460 So yeah. 952 00:58:00.780 --> 00:58:01.740 Oh yes, for sure. 953 00:58:02.420 --> 00:58:03.500 I'm so glad. 954 00:58:03.980 --> 00:58:05.460 Well, I'm glad you're going to be one of them. 955 00:58:05.460 --> 00:58:07.940 So it'll be fun to do the next six weeks together. 956 00:58:08.300 --> 00:58:08.900 It will. 957 00:58:09.900 --> 00:58:12.700 Well, I will let you go and I will see you tonight then. 958 00:58:13.020 --> 00:58:13.340 Okay. 959 00:58:13.380 --> 00:58:14.140 Sounds good. 960 00:58:14.660 --> 00:58:15.140 Bye. 961 00:58:15.340 --> 00:58:15.660 Bye.