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Thank you.

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Hey.

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Hi.

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How are you.

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All right.

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It's been a long time.

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I know.

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I'm trying to get my.

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Yeah, I'm trying to get these to pair.

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Because I couldn't find my AirPods.

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Yeah.

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You see, my husband brought me his.

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I don't know why it's not pairing.

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I don't know why it's not pairing.

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Really?

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You maybe need to turn it on and off.

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Got it.

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I got it, sweetie.

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Thank you.

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And then,

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because we want to make sure that they're charged for your call.

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All right.

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So I'm good.

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Sorry about that.

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I don't know where my earplugs are.

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So I'm going to have to go on a.

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On a hunt for him after we get off the call.

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Okay.

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So I didn't want to use my husband's because he has a work call.

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In an hour.

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A little over an hour.

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And.

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And so I was concerned that I would drain the batteries.

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Oh, well, he needs to make sure he has them for his work.

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Oh, how are you?

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It's been a while.

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It's been several.

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I think.

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Okay.

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That sounds about right.

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Cause I thought it was sometime earlier this year.

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So was I, was I in the new place?

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Had I already moved or was I still.

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Over there. Do you remember?

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I remember.

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There were some videos.

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For you were probably at your parents' house or someone else.

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Okay. Okay. All right. Yeah.

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I don't even remember if it was a new house, probably not.

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Yeah.

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All right. Yeah.

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So this is the apartment that we've been in since.

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The end of February.

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Oh,

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which is the apartment that I started the rest intensive in three years

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ago.

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Oh, three and a half years ago.

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Anyway, we're just really fun.

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Yeah.

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Which is fun.

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So catch me up. What's been going on.

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I'm so excited to see you today.

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Yes, you too.

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So.

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April may.

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Was.

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What's really.

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Really, there were a lot of good things happening and.

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I was.

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Handling things at work. I felt like things were shifting.

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I was being.

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I was.

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Walking into a lot more prophetic singing with the worship.

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Having.

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Another song concert.

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You did great.

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With a band and some singers and.

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And then.

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Then in April, something really hard happened.

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And what happened is that.

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I was.

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Harassment at work.

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By my students, by my pupils.

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And.

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It was.

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I think it was in several levels. I think it was emotional attack.

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Almost.

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Physical or at least trying to.

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And it was also spiritual.

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I think it was many levels of attack and.

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I.

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And it.

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That was in April. I think it was around Easter.

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It kind of came.

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It felt like so many things were going well.

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But in another way, it had been building.

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The, and I've, I've been teaching for eight years.

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I'm a teacher in high school in junior high.

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I've taught in primary school.

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And I never ever had anything like this happen to me.

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Possible that it could happen.

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But I never knew that it could happen to me.

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And I think it brought quite a bit of...

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And what happened is that I was able to pass through a lot of it and rest.

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It was like incredible how I felt like going through it and just getting out of my spirit

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and how I handled it with the pupils and with the leaders and the principal and everyone

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involved.

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And I just felt led by the spirit so much, even though it was hard and I was in shock

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of what happened.

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And the teachers took it very seriously.

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I had a lot of support.

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Support.

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Good.

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And the people responsible were, for some part at least, held accountable.

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It actually wasn't quite touching and ended up with me kind of addressing it to the whole

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class and crying and just putting the responsibility back at them and sharing my side of it.

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And several of the students and also the teacher said that she was really moved.

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And so I felt just like...

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That's great.

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Yeah.

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So that happened in April.

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And then...

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That's huge.

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So it was like a mix of shock and also I felt in a way that I was...

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And I dealt with it on an emotional level, spiritual level.

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And after that, what happened was that there was a lot of amazing and stressful things

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happening.

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It was preparations to go to China out of the blue.

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Like there were so many amazing things happen.

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And then out of the blue came a chance to go to China.

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That's great.

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Came out of nowhere.

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And I've been dreaming about this.

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But there was a lot of work to get there.

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Like hard online application, language tests online, visa application.

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It was like a lot of work.

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That was extremely draining for all of us.

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We were 15.

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And I think we started with 30 people.

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And 15 couldn't handle it.

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They dropped off during...

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They were like, this is too crazy.

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China is crazy.

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So...

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Wow.

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That put a lot of strain on me.

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But I felt also that I was moving through it in rest and handled it for the most part

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really well.

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And the China tour was just incredible.

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It was amazing.

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That's great.

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Yeah.

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I'd love to see your post.

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Yeah.

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It seemed like an amazing opportunity and a trip of a lifetime.

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It was amazing.

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It was like God did so many things.

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I connected with so many people, opportunities.

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I met people that I never thought I'd meet.

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And just appointments that were very meaningful for me and other people.

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And the whole trip, I felt like I was led by the Spirit in so many ways.

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From March until the summer, through the summer, there were really challenging things

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going on.

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And I was quite tired.

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But I felt like I was living in rest and that things were very different.

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And then August came, now fall came.

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And I'm studying.

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I stepped down.

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I'm not working as much anymore.

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Because I felt like I was supposed to study and finish something in my teaching degree

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that I don't have.

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So that means that I'm a student and working at the same time.

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So I knew that that could be potentially fairly busy.

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And after two weeks, I just started to struggle so much.

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Just after two weeks.

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And then after a while, a week or two, I asked God what's going on.

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And then he showed me that you didn't feel like I protected you

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when you were harassed by the pupils.

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And I was like, oh my gosh.

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Because I felt like I dealt with it.

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Walked through it in rest.

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Blah, blah, blah.

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Addressed the students.

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Talked to the leaders.

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Blah, blah, blah.

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And then I was like, oh my gosh, so there's this wound there.

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I didn't feel you protected me.

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I spent quite a bit of time with God.

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Just him walking me through it.

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asking him where were you and he answered me and like felt like he was and I realized like

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that I actually since then had been feeling because coming back in August I felt a lot of

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fear being with the pupils I'm really scared of them because my whole body reacted to what

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happened in April correct so then I realized oh I didn't feel like he protected me oh that he

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wasn't there like why did this happen to me so I spent quite a bit of time with that

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but then ever since that things have just been increasingly difficult like I think like I just

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fell out of rest somehow and the last two months has been extremely hard not just even up and down

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just a lot of like anxiety and heaviness even like close to depression I feel like and and a

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lot of and some of it is like when you're I'm studying online so it's a lot of time by yourself

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studying so it's like loneliness I'm less with colleagues at work and social with students and

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colleagues and and I was talking to my sister and I'm like how's your perspective of this what do

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you see because she's known me my whole life and she said like I'm starting to really worry about

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you what's going on and she said I felt like you're really your life really changed you know

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from the things that God started to speak to me about living in the spirit

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then a few things happened then I met you started rest intensive and she's like

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that was such a big difference watching you like she's like it was like day and night your life

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she's like it's so amazing and to see your life change like that and now she's now I'm like for

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the first time in I don't know over half a year I'm worried about you and you're like you just

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lost your joy and you're more worried I can see that you're more and so she's like I know you're

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not sleeping at night you're not you're not sleeping well you are out of routines and you

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just seem like more heavy and stuff and she's like maybe you should she's like what will you

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I don't know what and then I think I feel stuck because I felt like God led me to this

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study and it's going to go on for two years so it's not over in a few months yeah yeah the study

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that I felt led to and also I'm working so little that if I'm starting to work a little less I can't

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provide for myself like I'm always because I'm studying I'm cutting yeah work yeah then it would

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be like a heavy financial issue so it's not like I can quit work and then I can go on a sick leave

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but I don't want to do that either that doesn't feel like the solution so I think I just feel

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stuck and another part of it is also I think like and I through this I've listened

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quite a bit to your teaching Chris Blackaby other things and it's like now just being honest about

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everything yeah like it feels like it's not working or and I don't know like or I can't

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work anymore and then I'm thinking well why do I need to do work because that's like work again and

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that's what I want to get out but then also I think I feel like a bit also and like I felt like

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I was I was really vocal about what happened to me and I kind of feel like I don't know ashamed

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this thing didn't work either or like you know like all kinds of like and what am I doing oh now

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I got it okay you mean ashamed because you were vocal about what you've been learning about the

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lord and shifting in that relationship but then when you went through something difficult it

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it didn't hold up is that what you're saying that you feel so then I'm like oh I told everybody

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I've been vocal on Facebook there's like 300 people that saw my my um my reels or my videos

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uh I've talked to several people what God has done in my life and now I'm here again on my knees and

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yeah like and you kind of like why would I vocal about it or is it working or I've tried so many

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things you know you get all these yeah and I also can tell that I'm working a lot out of the I think

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the tree of knowledge of good and evil uh-huh just just and that's why I end a lot of in shame

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and condemnation and rules like yeah and

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And, but in another, but I can also tell, like, I can say that I can tell that at

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times I still walk in rest and I'm like, I can see that in some areas I'm like,

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Oh, I used to act like this, but now I, I can handle it in a better way.

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So it's not like totally black.

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I can totally see that sometimes.

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Like I had a very difficult class on Monday and I definitely would have been

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triggered earlier.

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And this Monday I felt like I passed through it and rest.

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So, and there was a friend of mine that I feel really responsible for.

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And she was sharing something that I got me a bit worried.

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And before that would trigger me to be like, Oh, I need to help her protect her.

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And now I was like, it's her responsibility.

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I can pray for her.

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That's her issue.

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So I don't think I need to put it on me, but there are things like that, that I can

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tell, Oh, I'm not triggered anymore.

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Oh, I passed through that and rest.

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So, but I still, a majority of the time feel a lot of shame and condemnation and a

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lot of like loneliness out of place and nothing's working.

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And I don't know what to do.

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I feel stuck.

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I feel like God led me to these things.

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I'm not getting out.

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Yeah.

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I'm just like kind of hopeless.

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Like, I don't know what to do.

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Just lost my joy.

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I think you froze.

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Oh, it might be my internet.

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Oh, there you are.

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Okay.

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Just like a lot of like, yeah.

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Yeah.

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So.

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So I'm thinking about some things, but I need to get a pen and paper to draw it.

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So just one moment.

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Okay.

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Okay.

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So I can tell you this, but it's like, I kind of got a visual and, and I thought,

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well, I think if I like draw it, it'll just kind of like help solidify your

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fight in your minds, maybe even more.

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Come on, please.

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Darn.

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Find another, get another pen.

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That one was empty.

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Here it is.

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Okay.

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Okay.

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Sorry about that.

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Okay.

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I finally found all my, okay.

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So this pencil should work.

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I don't know why I like pencils, but I do.

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Okay.

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So, um, you're probably going to think, oh, why did you even need to draw that?

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But it's like, I figured that not only would it help you, but it would help

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other people as well, if I kind of like describe, you know, our focus.

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Um,

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okay.

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What's the deeper level than that even.

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Let's go to the.

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Okay.

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So I'm showing like, uh, the different like levels of focus, um,

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okay.

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Okay, let's see here.

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Okay.

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Okie doke.

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I'll probably figure out a better way to kind of like.

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Show this at some point, but for now, here we go.

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All right. So what we have a tendency to do.

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You know,

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we have a tendency to focus at first on like wanting a comfortable

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life.

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Like so many of us want a comfortable life. And then we realize,

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well, you know,

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You know,

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a higher level of that is to actually want a successful life.

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You know, I want to, I don't just want to be comfortable.

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I want to be successful. I want to like build something.

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I want it to go somewhere. I want to whatever.

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Then other than we think, oh, well,

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I want to be successful. I want to be successful.

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I want to be successful.

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We tend to focus on living a good Christian life.

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No goodness, righteousness, all of that.

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But really what we need to be focusing on.

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Is the development of our relationship with the Lord.

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Not that life is working out a specific way.

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So what happens is if we're focusing on our life,

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What we're focusing on is our relationship with God.

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And that's not just.

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That's just.

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This.

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There's even a higher level. If we want to go up there.

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Focus.

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Is on God himself, who he is and who he says that we are. Right.

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So the thing is that if we focus on.

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On these things.

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You know, CK first, the kingdom of God and his righteousness.

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And all these things will be added unto you.

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So if we focus up here,

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If we focus on this, all we get is this.

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When we focus on this, all we get is this and maybe this.

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When we focus on this, all we get is this and maybe these.

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You know, so it's that in the level down, but we, but we can't.

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If we're focusing on any of these,

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these things will not hop in automatically.

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But if we focus on these things, if we focus on this,

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All of these things can happen.

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Yeah.

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I think that that's why it gets frustrating.

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When we.

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Oh, I don't know.

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It's doing here.

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And when we're, we're thinking, well,

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Here's, here's what made me think of it is when you were talking about,

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well, I think I've been living in rest and I noticed I've been trying

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to figure out what's going on here.

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And I'm like, well,

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I don't seem to be living in rest in these particular areas.

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So it's manifesting here.

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But it's not manifesting here.

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And the way that, and so we can get, we can feel stuck.

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We can feel frustrated. We can be feeling. Why is it not working anymore?

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It used to work.

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It's no longer working. Well, what are we using as a.

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It's kind of like a.

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We look at, am I getting this or am I getting this or am I getting this?

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Well, then it means it's working.

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Right.

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Is what we're thinking, but instead.

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And so if we do that.

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We can start.

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We can start to get more and more stuck.

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So the way to get unstuck.

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Is to act.

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You know, just let go of all of.

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Go of let go of trying to.

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Certain things.

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Like certain things in life happening a certain way,

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or you feeling a certain way.

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Or you like getting out of where it is that you are.

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Like I no longer want to feel.

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Chaotic. I know we'll longer want to feel in unrest.

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I no longer whatever those are all like all of these manifestations.

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We want to stop focusing.

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Not.

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On whatever's happening, not happening anymore.

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Like we want it to not happen. We want to not feel this way.

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We want to not be in these circumstances. We want to not.

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React the way that we've been reacting, et cetera.

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If we want.

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Sorry, I lost my, my.

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My where I was going with my grammar.

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I don't want to feel this way anymore.

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So.

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Stop focusing on all of those things. Just let them go.

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Let go of like.

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Just allow yourself to feel that way and stop fighting the fact that you're not that you're not feeling how you want to that

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You're not feeling in rest. Let all of that go and

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Choose God

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Over how you're feeling how things are going, you know, etc. And that'll get you unstuck

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So basically, I know this is going to sound a little weird

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But what what's happening is when we get when we don't like how things are going we tend to fight it

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we tend to

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Lock down it. We tend to move into battle and

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That is creating further stuckness. So in order to move through it faster, we have to let go

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We have to like, okay

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just relax in the fat and and

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Move into neutral instead of fighting it. Like I don't want to be like this

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Surely this is wrong. I'm in unrest. I don't like this instead of fighting it

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Just allow it to be and then you'll move through it and you'll shift into rest

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So rest is always having basically being in neutral and letting your hands just kind of be open

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You know in that open river remember how when we were talking about the the river

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Of

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Where the river is the spirit and

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We want to leave our hands open and put it down into the water of the river of the spirit

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And then we get to experience more of it

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But if ever we decide oh, I like how life is right now, or I like how me and God are right now

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I really like this

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Experience that the spirit is giving me whether it's giving us that experience in the spirit in our emotions in our thoughts in our physical

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Our physical circumstances, whatever it is. Oh, I really like this

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Experience wherever it is. You're having the experience in your spirit your soul your body. I really like it

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I want to keep it

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We keep trying to like grab a hold of that that moment that instance that particular situation

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Then you know how the Lord is operating in our life right now, and we want it to stay like that

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But the thing is you can't hold on to the spirit like that

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The more that you try to do it the more that you lose it

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Does that make sense?

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So the more that you try to grab a hold of the water the water is just going to run out of your hands because you

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You can't hold it

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you can't so in order to

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Experience more of this spirit and expand continue to experience spirit at all

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You have to leave your hands open and you have to not fight it

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So the way that you if you're feeling an unrest in your life

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The way to more quickly move into rest is by allowing yourself to be in that state of unrest

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And here's what I mean by allow I don't mean that you're approving of it that you're liking it that you're agreeing with it

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I don't mean any of that. I mean that you stop fighting it

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You stop thinking I shouldn't be here. I need to get out of it. No just realize okay

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That's that's where I am. So instead how do you get back into how do you get back into rest?

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You choose God over your circumstances you choose God over how you feel you choose God over how you're

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Responding and then when you choose God

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How you respond will change when you choose God?

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He'll begin to move in your circumstances and that's how you shift into rest because rest is letting go

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Of what's happening and choosing God instead and allowing God to affect

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How you feel letting God affecting the circumstances, you know, etc. So basically what happens is we get really

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the fastest way to move through

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through

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Feeling stuck is to stop fighting

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Where you are to stop fighting how you're feeling to stop fighting yourself and seeing yourself as the enemy because of how you're responding

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In a particular way. Oh, I shouldn't be feeling this way. This is not how I'm supposed to respond

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Come on, let's get with this. That's that's treating yourself like an enemy. That's

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Battling it that's fighting it and God wants you to let it go so that he can so the spirit

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Can can move through you and change things?

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But it can't do that if we're locked down on it because we're fighting it. That's that's creating stuckness

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I know it sounds very very strange because that we've always felt that no if I battle something I can move it

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But that's all that's if we're choosing to address something in unrest

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if we're choosing to

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Address it in the way that the world does but if we want to do it according to the kingdom of God

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we have to stop battling it and

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to just and to

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and to like move into neutral

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So anyway, I know that I've said a lot there, but let me know how you're hearing what I'm saying. So I know

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how I need to like reword things to help you understand.

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So what are your thoughts so far?

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I think I understood quite a bit of that.

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Okay.

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You're saying that to me,

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it sounds like rest has become a thing,

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like almost like a method.

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And then- Yeah.

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Yeah, and it's like, and I want it to stay like that

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because I really- Yeah.

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How do I get this tool to work for me?

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How do I get this to create something?

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Yeah.

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I like that my life has been changing more into rest.

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And then now I kind of got the way to do it,

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the principles that God, the relationship.

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Of course I have a relationship with God,

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but it's kind of become like a little bit of a formula

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or the how to get rest formula.

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And then you're holding onto it and try to go back to-

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Yeah, so rest is, we can start,

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remember rest is the benefit

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of our relationship with the Lord.

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So we can start to want the benefit more than we want God.

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And our focus can be on always being in rest

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instead of always believing God, having faith in God,

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knowing God, developing that relationship with God.

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And that relationship with God is basically intimacy.

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It's communion, it's interaction, it's that unity.

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That needs to be the focus.

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What will then happen is rest,

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as opposed to us then,

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as opposed to us focusing our life on

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how do I always stay in rest?

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You'll stay in rest if you always focus on the Lord

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and you choose him and whatever, because what is rest?

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Rest means that we're no longer trying

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to do things for ourselves.

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And instead we're allowing God to do it.

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We're allowing God to create the outcomes, et cetera.

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Well, the only way to do that is to believe God,

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is to choose God.

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Then it's just like, hey, yeah,

504
00:32:07.920 --> 00:32:11.680
you're putting your focus on me, you're choosing me,

505
00:32:11.680 --> 00:32:13.280
and I will do these things for you

506
00:32:13.280 --> 00:32:15.740
because if you're not focused on these,

507
00:32:15.740 --> 00:32:19.680
I will focus on them for you while you're focusing on me.

508
00:32:19.680 --> 00:32:21.640
But if you're focusing on these things,

509
00:32:21.640 --> 00:32:26.480
then I'm gonna back off because I gave you the authority

510
00:32:26.480 --> 00:32:28.720
to take care of these things

511
00:32:28.720 --> 00:32:31.440
and to choose how these things are taken care of.

512
00:32:31.440 --> 00:32:33.840
And if you're choosing to take care of them,

513
00:32:33.840 --> 00:32:37.160
then I gave you that authority to make that decision

514
00:32:37.160 --> 00:32:38.520
because I gave you that kingdom.

515
00:32:38.520 --> 00:32:42.960
So that kingdom is quote unquote, it's yours, not mine.

516
00:32:42.960 --> 00:32:46.040
Now, technically it's still within God's kingdom.

517
00:32:46.040 --> 00:32:47.760
Like anything that he gave to us,

518
00:32:47.760 --> 00:32:49.800
it still belongs to him ultimately,

519
00:32:49.800 --> 00:32:52.960
but he gave it to us to basically like steward

520
00:32:52.960 --> 00:32:54.720
and have dominion over, right?

521
00:32:54.720 --> 00:32:56.800
And that means that if we're choosing

522
00:32:56.800 --> 00:32:58.360
that to handle it in a particular way

523
00:32:58.360 --> 00:32:59.640
and we're choosing to control it,

524
00:32:59.640 --> 00:33:01.160
we're choosing to whatever,

525
00:33:01.160 --> 00:33:03.200
it's like we're choosing to provide for ourselves.

526
00:33:03.200 --> 00:33:05.440
We're choosing to protect ourselves, et cetera.

527
00:33:05.440 --> 00:33:07.800
He's gonna be like, okay, I'm backing off then

528
00:33:07.800 --> 00:33:12.640
because in order for me to, you know, God,

529
00:33:12.640 --> 00:33:16.840
in order for me to take care of this for you,

530
00:33:16.840 --> 00:33:19.640
you have to give me the authority to do that.

531
00:33:20.480 --> 00:33:23.200
And by you choosing to do it for yourself,

532
00:33:23.200 --> 00:33:24.840
you're not giving me the authority

533
00:33:24.840 --> 00:33:27.600
and you're not giving me the permission to do it for you.

534
00:33:27.600 --> 00:33:30.160
So the only way that I have permission to do it

535
00:33:30.160 --> 00:33:34.320
is if you stop doing it and you give permission to me

536
00:33:34.320 --> 00:33:36.080
to do it for you.

537
00:33:36.080 --> 00:33:38.160
So that means that we have to let this go.

538
00:33:38.160 --> 00:33:40.320
And the only way that we can give permission to God

539
00:33:40.320 --> 00:33:42.280
to do this is by choosing,

540
00:33:42.280 --> 00:33:44.800
is by submitting ourselves to him.

541
00:33:44.800 --> 00:33:46.880
God, I'm out of control,

542
00:33:46.880 --> 00:33:49.800
meaning like I'm choosing to not take control.

543
00:33:49.800 --> 00:33:51.800
I'm choosing to give it to you.

544
00:33:51.800 --> 00:33:53.520
That means, Lord, I don't get to choose

545
00:33:53.520 --> 00:33:55.840
how you decide to deal with it,

546
00:33:55.840 --> 00:33:58.000
how you decide that it should happen,

547
00:33:58.000 --> 00:34:01.560
how you decide, you know, that everything should manifest

548
00:34:01.560 --> 00:34:04.120
and what the outcomes are gonna be,

549
00:34:04.120 --> 00:34:06.960
what the outcomes are gonna be to me emotionally,

550
00:34:06.960 --> 00:34:09.639
what the outcomes are gonna be in the situation,

551
00:34:09.639 --> 00:34:11.560
like how it's gonna affect other people,

552
00:34:11.560 --> 00:34:12.760
how it's gonna affect creation.

553
00:34:12.760 --> 00:34:14.600
God, I'm no longer in control.

554
00:34:14.600 --> 00:34:17.000
I gave all of that up to you.

555
00:34:17.000 --> 00:34:19.159
And the only way that we can give it up to him

556
00:34:19.159 --> 00:34:23.920
is if we not only stop doing it ourselves,

557
00:34:23.920 --> 00:34:26.159
meaning like even emotionally and spiritually,

558
00:34:26.159 --> 00:34:27.760
we stop manipulating it,

559
00:34:27.760 --> 00:34:30.120
we stop emotionally hanging onto it,

560
00:34:30.120 --> 00:34:31.800
we let it all go,

561
00:34:31.800 --> 00:34:36.760
and we focus on and choose God instead.

562
00:34:36.760 --> 00:34:41.760
If we let go of this, but we don't choose God,

563
00:34:42.719 --> 00:34:46.600
then this doesn't get taken care of, not even by God,

564
00:34:46.600 --> 00:34:49.480
because we still haven't given him permission.

565
00:34:49.480 --> 00:34:53.199
We just chose to not take charge of it ourselves.

566
00:34:53.199 --> 00:34:56.719
So we're basically leaving our kingdom up for grabs

567
00:34:56.719 --> 00:34:58.720
to anybody who wants to grab it,

568
00:34:58.720 --> 00:35:00.720
and then we're gonna be controlled by it.

569
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:07.960
other people or Satan or whatever, but in order for God to do this, we have to intentionally

570
00:35:07.960 --> 00:35:13.440
always focus on choosing God, meaning like, okay, who does God say that he is?

571
00:35:13.440 --> 00:35:16.560
I am going to declare that he is that in my kingdom.

572
00:35:16.560 --> 00:35:23.080
If God says that he's good, me giving him charge over this means that I am telling my

573
00:35:23.080 --> 00:35:28.400
kingdom, hey, by the way, God is good and he's good to you right now.

574
00:35:28.400 --> 00:35:34.480
I'm giving him permission to come in and be his goodness to you, but I don't know what

575
00:35:34.480 --> 00:35:35.520
that's going to make.

576
00:35:35.520 --> 00:35:40.320
I don't know what that's going to cause to happen to my kingdom when God is good and

577
00:35:40.320 --> 00:35:47.160
I choose that he can be who he is in my kingdom, in my life, in my emotions, in my situation.

578
00:35:47.160 --> 00:35:50.200
I don't know what his goodness is going to create.

579
00:35:50.200 --> 00:35:53.000
I don't know if I'm going to like it or not.

580
00:35:53.000 --> 00:35:58.120
I didn't know if that's going to be in my, how I would choose for everything to happen.

581
00:35:58.120 --> 00:36:03.400
You're giving up that control, but you're choosing that he is who he is and that he's

582
00:36:03.400 --> 00:36:09.040
going to be that in this situation or in your emotions or in whatever.

583
00:36:09.040 --> 00:36:11.160
So think of it like this.

584
00:36:11.160 --> 00:36:18.920
Remember that when you're choosing to give God, when you're choosing to submit yourself

585
00:36:18.920 --> 00:36:24.920
to him and to his character, you were choosing that he is who he says that he is.

586
00:36:24.920 --> 00:36:30.320
So like, say, let's pick something specific that you're choosing that God is good because

587
00:36:30.320 --> 00:36:31.320
he said that he's good.

588
00:36:31.320 --> 00:36:38.320
So you choose, okay, I'm choosing that in real, that the reality in which I live is

589
00:36:38.320 --> 00:36:42.800
that he is good and that he's good to me.

590
00:36:42.800 --> 00:36:45.480
He's good to me now, not tomorrow.

591
00:36:45.480 --> 00:36:46.960
I don't have to wait for it.

592
00:36:46.960 --> 00:36:48.600
He is good.

593
00:36:48.600 --> 00:36:53.360
He is good to me, not only to everybody else, but he's good to me.

594
00:36:53.360 --> 00:36:56.960
So he is who he is to me right now.

595
00:36:56.960 --> 00:36:58.200
I don't have to wait for it.

596
00:36:58.200 --> 00:37:02.080
He is who he is to me right now.

597
00:37:02.080 --> 00:37:04.720
And then you pick something specific like that you're struggling in.

598
00:37:04.720 --> 00:37:10.840
Like he is good to me right now in my body, like in my health, or he's good to me right

599
00:37:10.840 --> 00:37:17.240
now in my emotions, or he is good to me right now in my finances or, you know, whatever

600
00:37:17.240 --> 00:37:22.440
it is you're struggling with that right there is faith.

601
00:37:22.440 --> 00:37:29.720
It's not even just because it, and it's like, how do I put it?

602
00:37:29.720 --> 00:37:35.160
It's not acting on faith necessarily, but it's, it's like fully fleshing out what it

603
00:37:35.160 --> 00:37:38.280
is that you're having, that God wants us to have faith in.

604
00:37:38.280 --> 00:37:41.320
He wants us to have faith that he is who he says that he is.

605
00:37:41.320 --> 00:37:47.280
And all the things that he says that he is, are that he's good, that he has chosen us,

606
00:37:47.280 --> 00:37:53.040
that he does it, and that it's for us now, and that it's in, it's in every aspect that

607
00:37:53.040 --> 00:38:01.600
touches us, our situation, our emotions, our thoughts, our health, our future, our dreams,

608
00:38:01.600 --> 00:38:09.440
our desires, our whatever, that his character is manifesting towards us as the object.

609
00:38:09.440 --> 00:38:11.520
Right now, we don't have to wait for it.

610
00:38:11.520 --> 00:38:16.480
And it's in all of the areas that touch our lives that affect us, you know, in our spirit,

611
00:38:16.480 --> 00:38:20.960
in our soul, and in our body, you know, our soul, meaning like, you know, your emotions,

612
00:38:20.960 --> 00:38:25.760
your thoughts, your decisions, your will, et cetera, it affects your body, you know,

613
00:38:25.760 --> 00:38:30.480
your health, your, I'm trying to think of like, what else, but like the, the situations

614
00:38:30.480 --> 00:38:34.240
that your body finds itself in, you know, et cetera.

615
00:38:34.240 --> 00:38:39.800
So that is what we're supposed to be focusing on instead of focusing on like, am I in rest

616
00:38:39.800 --> 00:38:40.800
or not?

617
00:38:40.800 --> 00:38:45.280
The whole thing about, there's nothing wrong about thinking about like, well, am I in rest

618
00:38:45.280 --> 00:38:46.280
or not?

619
00:38:46.280 --> 00:38:48.320
Because that's kind of like a sign.

620
00:38:48.320 --> 00:38:49.320
It lets us know.

621
00:38:49.320 --> 00:38:52.560
So Lord, you know, am I truly having faith in you?

622
00:38:52.560 --> 00:38:58.240
If I'm having faith in you, then I'm, I'm in rest because I'm not worried about anything

623
00:38:58.240 --> 00:38:59.800
because I believe you.

624
00:38:59.800 --> 00:39:00.800
You say that you're good.

625
00:39:00.800 --> 00:39:02.320
You say that you're taking care of me.

626
00:39:02.320 --> 00:39:04.280
You say that you provide for me, all of those things.

627
00:39:04.280 --> 00:39:07.200
So therefore there's nothing left for me to do.

628
00:39:07.200 --> 00:39:08.440
That's rest.

629
00:39:08.440 --> 00:39:12.920
It's a natural by-product of choosing God.

630
00:39:12.920 --> 00:39:15.800
Instead of us thinking, I'm just trying to get rest.

631
00:39:15.800 --> 00:39:17.200
You can't get rest.

632
00:39:17.200 --> 00:39:21.560
If your focus is rest, you get rest as a by-product.

633
00:39:21.560 --> 00:39:27.120
It'll naturally happen when you choose God, when you choose to believe him.

634
00:39:27.120 --> 00:39:35.920
So that's how you can get unstuck is you choosing and is you, well, there was something else

635
00:39:35.920 --> 00:39:36.920
I wanted to say too.

636
00:39:36.920 --> 00:39:37.920
I remember that.

637
00:39:37.920 --> 00:39:49.720
Um, is you choosing that to just always focus on the Lord and to, and to stop battling where

638
00:39:49.720 --> 00:39:53.880
it is that you are, because that's part of what's creating greater shame and greater

639
00:39:53.880 --> 00:39:54.880
condemnation.

640
00:39:54.880 --> 00:39:55.880
Oh, shoot.

641
00:39:55.880 --> 00:39:57.320
I was fine.

642
00:39:57.320 --> 00:39:58.320
Now I'm not fine.

643
00:39:58.320 --> 00:39:59.320
I was in rest.

644
00:39:59.320 --> 00:39:59.820
Now I'm not.

645
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.120
Oh goodness, this is bad.

646
00:40:02.120 --> 00:40:04.140
This means that I've made a bad choice.

647
00:40:04.140 --> 00:40:06.280
It means that I'm not doing something right.

648
00:40:06.280 --> 00:40:11.020
Or it means that I made a choice to have faith in the wrong thing.

649
00:40:11.020 --> 00:40:14.180
And then, you know, and we just go down and down and down.

650
00:40:14.180 --> 00:40:20.380
So we just create more shame and more condemnation and we, we get stuck deeper and deeper.

651
00:40:20.380 --> 00:40:25.820
We cause a deeper and deeper, uh, because we cause ourselves to get stuck to a greater

652
00:40:25.820 --> 00:40:26.820
and greater degree.

653
00:40:26.820 --> 00:40:30.660
It's like, like thinking further and further down into quicksand.

654
00:40:30.660 --> 00:40:35.540
So the way to stop that is simply choose, okay, but who does God say that he is and

655
00:40:35.540 --> 00:40:42.380
who does he say that I am that'll immediately shift us up and out of it immediately.

656
00:40:42.380 --> 00:40:45.860
But in order to do that, that means that you have to let go of all these things.

657
00:40:45.860 --> 00:40:51.020
You mean you had stopped battling yourself and thinking, okay, well, um, I'm bad and

658
00:40:51.020 --> 00:40:53.540
I need to stop being bad.

659
00:40:53.540 --> 00:40:58.340
Don't label yourself as bad anymore because if you think I'm bad, I need to stop being

660
00:40:58.340 --> 00:40:59.340
bad.

661
00:40:59.340 --> 00:41:02.060
That's a, that you're, you're, you're battling it.

662
00:41:02.060 --> 00:41:04.780
You're naming yourself and identifying yourself as something.

663
00:41:04.780 --> 00:41:08.540
And then you're like, I need to stop that and you're focusing on it.

664
00:41:08.540 --> 00:41:10.380
That gets us more stuck.

665
00:41:10.380 --> 00:41:18.340
So what I've noticed gets me unstuck faster is if I stop, is I stop focusing on things

666
00:41:18.340 --> 00:41:24.260
about myself that I don't want, that God says, oh, you shouldn't be like this and whatever.

667
00:41:24.260 --> 00:41:26.540
And I'm like, okay, I shouldn't be like that.

668
00:41:26.540 --> 00:41:32.220
So I need to just make myself, I need to look at it and I need to stop doing that.

669
00:41:32.220 --> 00:41:36.300
Basically ignore it, just, just accept the fact.

670
00:41:36.300 --> 00:41:40.780
Remember that letting go and shifting into neutral means stop thinking that it shouldn't

671
00:41:40.780 --> 00:41:41.780
be this way.

672
00:41:41.780 --> 00:41:43.660
It should be different.

673
00:41:43.660 --> 00:41:46.420
Remember that that's the third tool is to stop judging.

674
00:41:46.820 --> 00:41:49.620
Remember, you know, you tell yourself, what is it?

675
00:41:49.620 --> 00:41:53.060
No shame, no condemnation, stop, no judgment.

676
00:41:53.060 --> 00:41:56.260
Remember that no judgment is the third, is the third tool that I mentioned.

677
00:41:56.260 --> 00:41:58.780
I go to that one all the time.

678
00:41:58.780 --> 00:42:03.180
That's that where we, we, this helps you shift into neutral.

679
00:42:03.180 --> 00:42:09.780
It helps you stop battling something is you, you stop thinking it shouldn't be this way

680
00:42:09.780 --> 00:42:11.900
and it should be different.

681
00:42:11.900 --> 00:42:16.620
Just accept the fact this is how it is.

682
00:42:16.620 --> 00:42:18.300
You're not agreeing with it.

683
00:42:18.300 --> 00:42:19.540
You're not saying you like it.

684
00:42:19.540 --> 00:42:22.020
You're not saying it's allowed to stay.

685
00:42:22.020 --> 00:42:24.180
You're not saying any of it.

686
00:42:24.180 --> 00:42:30.060
You're just stopping battling and you're, you're, you're no longer saying it shouldn't

687
00:42:30.060 --> 00:42:31.060
be like this.

688
00:42:31.060 --> 00:42:32.060
You're like, no.

689
00:42:32.060 --> 00:42:33.060
Well, it is.

690
00:42:33.060 --> 00:42:36.180
I need to accept the fact that this is how I'm feeling about myself.

691
00:42:36.180 --> 00:42:40.860
This is just the way that this is the way that it currently is right now and you love

692
00:42:40.860 --> 00:42:46.060
and accept yourself even though you've made that decision and then you'll more easily

693
00:42:46.060 --> 00:42:47.340
stop making this decision.

694
00:42:47.340 --> 00:42:49.940
You're like, okay, well, it's not supposed to be like that.

695
00:42:49.940 --> 00:42:53.580
Meaning like if I'm not supposed to think of myself like that, okay, well, but I am.

696
00:42:53.580 --> 00:42:54.580
Okay.

697
00:42:54.580 --> 00:43:00.540
So I'll just, I'll just accept the fact and stop fighting the fact that that's how I feel

698
00:43:00.540 --> 00:43:05.660
and that that's how I think that then, then what that's doing is it's uncurling your fingers

699
00:43:05.660 --> 00:43:07.900
and it's finally letting the thing go.

700
00:43:07.900 --> 00:43:11.500
Now what you do instead is what God, what does God want me to do?

701
00:43:11.500 --> 00:43:16.140
He says that I, he wants me to believe that I am who he says that I am.

702
00:43:16.140 --> 00:43:19.660
So you have to choose that you are who God says you are.

703
00:43:19.660 --> 00:43:26.540
And remember, you've been feeling this way, so now you're making an intentional choice

704
00:43:26.540 --> 00:43:32.700
that God says that you're not that, but you're still going to feel this, right?

705
00:43:32.700 --> 00:43:37.420
So you let this thing go and you stop fighting it, but you're still going to feel like that.

706
00:43:37.900 --> 00:43:40.620
So your feeling isn't going to change yet.

707
00:43:40.620 --> 00:43:46.460
You just make a willful and intentional decision, but God says I'm this, so therefore I'm going

708
00:43:46.460 --> 00:43:47.180
to choose it.

709
00:43:48.140 --> 00:43:48.940
That's faith.

710
00:43:49.500 --> 00:43:54.780
Faith is choosing that something's your reality simply because God said it, even though you

711
00:43:54.780 --> 00:43:55.740
don't feel like it.

712
00:43:56.460 --> 00:44:00.220
You don't, you feel like you feel bad.

713
00:44:00.940 --> 00:44:02.460
You feel unworthy.

714
00:44:02.460 --> 00:44:04.620
You feel that you don't deserve things.

715
00:44:04.620 --> 00:44:09.260
You feel that you've made wrong decisions and you feel bad about yourself.

716
00:44:09.260 --> 00:44:10.540
That's how we feel.

717
00:44:11.740 --> 00:44:17.580
Your feelings will automatically change when you intentionally choose that you are who

718
00:44:17.580 --> 00:44:18.540
God says that you are.

719
00:44:19.500 --> 00:44:24.620
You make that decision and you decide for yourself, nope, nope, I know that this is

720
00:44:24.620 --> 00:44:27.260
how I feel, but I'm choosing that that's actually not true.

721
00:44:27.980 --> 00:44:33.100
And then over time, your feelings will change and you'll start to feel like this person

722
00:44:33.100 --> 00:44:33.900
instead of this.

723
00:44:34.780 --> 00:44:41.180
That you can't, um, so you're, you were not waiting for our feelings to change.

724
00:44:42.060 --> 00:44:48.460
We're choosing to stop and, and we're, we're making a decision to stop and to make a

725
00:44:48.460 --> 00:44:49.100
different choice.

726
00:44:50.780 --> 00:44:55.180
Instead of choosing this about me, I'm going to choose that this is true and I'm going

727
00:44:55.180 --> 00:44:59.740
to start acting like this and I'm going to start, you know, believe in God about this.

728
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.200
That is what shifts you into rest.

729
00:45:02.560 --> 00:45:08.460
So, um, anyway, so is all of this making a bit of sense?

730
00:45:08.460 --> 00:45:12.120
I'm trying to, what I'm trying to do is to give you some practical things.

731
00:45:12.840 --> 00:45:16.180
To get unstuck from where you are.

732
00:45:17.000 --> 00:45:19.100
So is this, is this making sense?

733
00:45:19.100 --> 00:45:22.120
I mean, does it make sense of like, oh no, this actually feels like,

734
00:45:22.420 --> 00:45:24.380
well, this is something tangible.

735
00:45:24.580 --> 00:45:27.060
I can grab ahold of, it's not really tangible, but you know, it's

736
00:45:27.060 --> 00:45:29.540
something I can grab ahold of and do.

737
00:45:30.120 --> 00:45:35.620
I understand how to do it, how to, you know, it feels, uh, it

738
00:45:35.620 --> 00:45:37.140
feels like a relief, I think.

739
00:45:37.580 --> 00:45:37.980
Yeah.

740
00:45:39.040 --> 00:45:39.360
Yeah.

741
00:45:39.420 --> 00:45:44.000
And it's like, you're kind of focusing on the gift instead of the giver.

742
00:45:45.280 --> 00:45:47.440
And to focus on rest instead of God.

743
00:45:47.940 --> 00:45:48.460
Yes.

744
00:45:48.500 --> 00:45:50.520
It's focusing on the gift instead of the giver.

745
00:45:50.620 --> 00:45:50.820
Yeah.

746
00:45:50.840 --> 00:45:51.380
Yes.

747
00:45:51.420 --> 00:45:52.140
That's what I mean.

748
00:45:52.600 --> 00:46:00.360
And, uh, kind of, uh, I can see myself the fighting thing because for instance,

749
00:46:00.360 --> 00:46:05.240
it's work, some other things are really challenging and then I get into, and

750
00:46:05.240 --> 00:46:08.280
then I want to address it because I'm a very person that loves, you know,

751
00:46:08.320 --> 00:46:11.480
righteousness, like battle, I want things to be right.

752
00:46:12.000 --> 00:46:17.680
So then I go into battle and I can just see myself and then I'm like, I kind

753
00:46:17.680 --> 00:46:21.400
of am aware that I'm not working out of my spirit, I feel like this is very

754
00:46:21.400 --> 00:46:25.980
soulish, but it's like, I can't stop it because I want things to be right.

755
00:46:26.660 --> 00:46:30.620
And then I feel condemned afterwards because I can tell that I was working

756
00:46:30.620 --> 00:46:35.620
out of my soul and then I can see what you're saying, like the, the battle.

757
00:46:35.660 --> 00:46:41.060
And then I'm like, Oh, I did something out of the soul and out of my emotions.

758
00:46:41.100 --> 00:46:42.500
And then I feel condemned.

759
00:46:42.980 --> 00:46:43.180
Yeah.

760
00:46:43.180 --> 00:46:46.540
And then I'm like, why am I, and then I'm trying to get rest.

761
00:46:46.540 --> 00:46:49.500
So I'm trying to apply principles and things that I learned.

762
00:46:50.040 --> 00:46:56.220
And then, and then it becomes like a fight instead of, um, which ends with

763
00:46:56.560 --> 00:47:01.600
going into battle, condemnation brings more battle, brings more condemnation.

764
00:47:01.760 --> 00:47:13.840
You know, and I kind of get stuck there and not, and then I think I, the very

765
00:47:13.840 --> 00:47:19.200
encouraging thing through this though, has been that I blame God a lot less.

766
00:47:20.120 --> 00:47:21.600
That's great.

767
00:47:21.880 --> 00:47:23.360
What do you do instead?

768
00:47:23.920 --> 00:47:25.880
Like what's the response instead?

769
00:47:26.480 --> 00:47:31.920
Like if, if I was struggling like this a year ago or something like that, I would

770
00:47:31.920 --> 00:47:36.200
have felt more bitterness and much more against God.

771
00:47:36.200 --> 00:47:42.880
And I can really tell my heart has been so empty of so much like, because even

772
00:47:42.880 --> 00:47:48.480
those, these two months have been really hard, I have rarely turned against God.

773
00:47:48.480 --> 00:47:51.700
I've been a little bit questioning what's going on, God, I don't understand

774
00:47:51.700 --> 00:47:56.300
it, but I can tell that I know he loves me and that we're actually on the same

775
00:47:56.300 --> 00:48:01.380
team here, I just don't know what's going on, but I can't tell that I'm like,

776
00:48:02.580 --> 00:48:05.400
I'm like a lot less than resistance to our God.

777
00:48:05.400 --> 00:48:07.780
And I don't feel like he brought this on me.

778
00:48:07.780 --> 00:48:12.660
And what kind of tests do I have to go through, but I still feel like I am

779
00:48:12.660 --> 00:48:19.240
battling and, uh, I am actually not focusing on him, him, on his goodness

780
00:48:19.240 --> 00:48:21.120
and taking that step in faith.

781
00:48:21.160 --> 00:48:27.400
I'm actually more, uh, trying to apply your, your principle and the things that

782
00:48:27.400 --> 00:48:34.320
I've learned out of the situation, which is kind of like an, which is, I don't

783
00:48:34.320 --> 00:48:40.160
know what that is, it's more like you try to fix it yourself, like you're saying.

784
00:48:40.160 --> 00:48:46.740
I try to fix it myself, how to get into rest and out of this, and then I fight to

785
00:48:46.740 --> 00:48:50.500
get out, get into rest and that's, yeah.

786
00:48:51.180 --> 00:48:57.980
The way to shift into rest is always by choosing God over what you're focusing

787
00:48:57.980 --> 00:49:00.820
on to shift your focus to God.

788
00:49:01.280 --> 00:49:04.660
That is always the way that is the simplest way I can think of to describe

789
00:49:04.660 --> 00:49:10.060
it, the way to get to always shift into rest is to shift your focus onto God.

790
00:49:10.400 --> 00:49:13.820
Me and by focus, I don't mean like you're thinking about him more than

791
00:49:13.820 --> 00:49:14.980
you're thinking about the other.

792
00:49:15.260 --> 00:49:21.540
What I mean is you're choosing God as, uh, you're, you're, you're

793
00:49:21.540 --> 00:49:24.460
choosing God over your choice of this.

794
00:49:24.780 --> 00:49:28.100
So you're valuing him more than you value this.

795
00:49:28.500 --> 00:49:33.100
And that is a, and you're wanting him more than you want this to go away.

796
00:49:33.420 --> 00:49:35.500
You're wanting him more than you want this to change.

797
00:49:35.500 --> 00:49:38.140
You're wanting him more than you want this thing to happen or whatever.

798
00:49:38.840 --> 00:49:44.240
Is you want him more than life or more than the manifestation or more

799
00:49:44.240 --> 00:49:49.200
than what you get from him, all of those things, that is how you shift

800
00:49:49.200 --> 00:49:51.120
into rest literally in any moment.

801
00:49:51.520 --> 00:49:56.240
Um, now the, the reason I don't really usually talk about that is because

802
00:49:56.560 --> 00:49:59.960
if that is very, until, until we really.

803
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:10.840
develop a relationship with the Lord and basically heal from and unlearn some

804
00:50:10.840 --> 00:50:16.080
things. That is really hard to do. It's really hard to do period. And to just

805
00:50:16.080 --> 00:50:20.160
simply choose that he's more important than this thing. But that's why I teach

806
00:50:20.160 --> 00:50:26.280
all of these tools is it kind of gives us a like a stair-step way of eventually

807
00:50:26.280 --> 00:50:32.400
of learning things and learning how to make a choice for God instead of this by

808
00:50:32.400 --> 00:50:38.920
like starting in something by giving like all of these tools to make it a

809
00:50:38.920 --> 00:50:44.160
bit easier. But eventually once we get practiced well enough at it we're like

810
00:50:44.160 --> 00:50:48.000
okay we'll be able to skip all those little incremental steps. We don't have

811
00:50:48.000 --> 00:50:51.560
to go up every single run. We don't have to go up the stairs like one at a

812
00:50:51.560 --> 00:50:55.160
time. You can start going up the stairs like two or three at a time. You know

813
00:50:55.160 --> 00:50:58.080
what I'm talking about like when you go upstairs you know you can start going up

814
00:50:58.080 --> 00:51:03.320
at two or three at a time. Because you know and and and you can now shift from

815
00:51:03.320 --> 00:51:07.800
okay I'm in unrest in a situation. Okay that means that I am more worried about

816
00:51:07.800 --> 00:51:13.040
this and I'm in I'm making this more important to me in my life. That things

817
00:51:13.040 --> 00:51:17.080
get fixed and it's changed and this gets resolved and this gets reconciled. I'm

818
00:51:17.080 --> 00:51:23.560
I'm making that more important currently than God. And God being who he is and God

819
00:51:23.600 --> 00:51:27.560
being who he is in this situation. So because I'm making this more important

820
00:51:27.560 --> 00:51:31.960
to me God can't be who he is into this situation because I'm not allowing it.

821
00:51:31.960 --> 00:51:35.840
I'm not giving him the authority and permission because I chose this is more

822
00:51:35.840 --> 00:51:41.920
important to me over that. That's an idol. So whenever we're in unrest we've made

823
00:51:41.920 --> 00:51:47.680
something an idol over God. We've made something else more important than God

824
00:51:47.720 --> 00:51:55.800
being who he is. It's only when we make God as being as as he is he it's only

825
00:51:55.800 --> 00:52:01.920
when we make God being that sorry. Why can't I think of how to phrase that in

826
00:52:01.920 --> 00:52:08.360
English. It's only when we choose and make it the most important thing to us

827
00:52:08.360 --> 00:52:14.480
be of God being who he is. That is the only way that he can be that into this

828
00:52:14.480 --> 00:52:19.800
situation is if we make him more important to us in this situation ever

829
00:52:19.800 --> 00:52:27.440
changing. But how do you do this like like practically like I think I get like

830
00:52:27.440 --> 00:52:31.840
the concept you're talking about and just like a picture of it. But then when

831
00:52:31.840 --> 00:52:37.440
you come in that certain situations for instance my job and all the stressful

832
00:52:37.440 --> 00:52:45.440
situations with the leaders the teachers this. Yeah. You go into every

833
00:52:45.440 --> 00:52:49.200
single because that's also I think that we learned earlier was like you don't

834
00:52:49.200 --> 00:52:53.080
have to micromanage things. You don't have to know where everything came from.

835
00:52:53.080 --> 00:52:57.160
You don't have to track the thought and change the thought or yes kind of you

836
00:52:57.160 --> 00:53:04.280
can kind of bypass those things. So how do I practically do this. Yeah. Well

837
00:53:04.280 --> 00:53:09.480
I'm talking about that. That's what I'm talking about. That's really hard to do.

838
00:53:09.480 --> 00:53:15.280
It's too big of a leap. That's why we're like yeah but how do you do that. That's

839
00:53:15.280 --> 00:53:18.640
why I talk about like when I talk about in the rest intensive when I give people

840
00:53:18.640 --> 00:53:23.040
like incremental things I explain it in like detail of like we'll do this kind

841
00:53:23.040 --> 00:53:25.640
of a thing and do this kind of thing. Because to go from here to here is

842
00:53:25.640 --> 00:53:30.120
something that we just don't understand. We don't understand how to do. So the

843
00:53:30.560 --> 00:53:34.480
steps remember that I've that I've explained of how to do that is for one

844
00:53:34.480 --> 00:53:37.760
thing you believe that God is who he says that he is. So that's something that

845
00:53:37.760 --> 00:53:46.480
we have to do. Okay. And and then that's kind of like that's a I don't know how

846
00:53:46.480 --> 00:53:49.760
to put it. But anyway that's something that we have to do. Another thing that we

847
00:53:49.760 --> 00:53:54.760
have to do is we have to let go of this. We're holding on to this and we need to

848
00:53:54.760 --> 00:53:59.600
let go. So one of the things that I so then I go through the different tools

849
00:53:59.600 --> 00:54:03.880
that people can use of how to teach oneself how to let go of this. So they

850
00:54:03.880 --> 00:54:08.360
start halt stop holding on to that. When I'm talking about letting go it's the

851
00:54:08.360 --> 00:54:14.280
same thing as stopping making this so important. Remember how I said this is

852
00:54:14.280 --> 00:54:18.000
more important than God. You know to us in our in our lives you know and that

853
00:54:18.000 --> 00:54:22.360
makes us an idol. And that's when we're in unrest. So that's why I talked about

854
00:54:22.360 --> 00:54:26.320
you know in order to shift into rest we have to let go. What I'm saying is I'm

855
00:54:26.480 --> 00:54:30.720
expressing by the phrase letting go I'm expressing the fact that we're not

856
00:54:30.720 --> 00:54:37.680
making that we stop making this so important to us. We let we we devalue it

857
00:54:37.680 --> 00:54:44.360
so to speak. We give it up to God. We sacrifice it. We put it on the altar. We

858
00:54:44.360 --> 00:54:50.440
submit. So those are all phrases of us doing the same thing. We're letting go.

859
00:54:50.440 --> 00:54:56.720
We're submitting. We're no longer and we're no longer making this as important

860
00:54:56.720 --> 00:55:01.960
and as valuable to us. All of those phrases are saying

861
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.400
the same thing. We're doing the same thing but if I use it if I use it but I just happen to use the

862
00:55:06.400 --> 00:55:12.800
phrase letting go instead of always using the phrase oh make this less important. That phrase

863
00:55:12.800 --> 00:55:19.280
doesn't really click with people but if I say let it go now I might have to explain to someone okay

864
00:55:19.280 --> 00:55:23.440
by the way this is how you let go because we kind of struggle with okay well I understand what you

865
00:55:23.440 --> 00:55:28.160
mean but how do I do that and then I walk through the different tools but if I use the phrase

866
00:55:28.160 --> 00:55:33.040
letting go people understand how to what that means to let go of something it means to not

867
00:55:33.040 --> 00:55:36.880
hold on to it anymore they're like okay I don't know how to do it but I at least understand what

868
00:55:36.880 --> 00:55:42.000
you're talking about but if I say make this not as important they're like I don't understand how

869
00:55:42.000 --> 00:55:46.160
do I make it not important it's important you know so I use a different phrase to help them

870
00:55:46.160 --> 00:55:53.440
understand I'll say you let it go like okay I got that now tell me how to do that so so you all of

871
00:55:53.440 --> 00:55:59.040
those phrases or like submit people are like I just don't understand what do you mean to submit

872
00:55:59.040 --> 00:56:03.920
it what does that mean it means to let go okay okay I understand what let go means I just don't

873
00:56:03.920 --> 00:56:09.760
understand what submit means again they all kind of mean the same thing submit not making something

874
00:56:09.760 --> 00:56:14.320
making something less important devaluing something all of those things you're all saying

875
00:56:14.320 --> 00:56:20.160
the same thing but no one understands that when I use those phrases so I use the phrase let go

876
00:56:20.160 --> 00:56:26.560
they're like I got it now just tell me how to let it go you know so that so anyway that's what

877
00:56:26.560 --> 00:56:32.720
we're doing um and as but you're asking you know how to practically do it you're you just you let

878
00:56:32.720 --> 00:56:37.760
this thing go meaning that you're going to make it less important you're going to stop idolizing it

879
00:56:37.760 --> 00:56:41.760
you're going to you're going to stop making it as valuable to yourself you know all those things

880
00:56:42.480 --> 00:56:48.800
and how do you do that you you let go how do you let go do one of the tools like you know

881
00:56:48.960 --> 00:56:53.280
go through those things like okay remember no shame and no condemnation and tell yourself to

882
00:56:53.280 --> 00:56:58.720
stop remember no judgment meaning like stop fighting it this thing and stop saying it shouldn't

883
00:56:58.720 --> 00:57:04.080
be like this and it should be different it should be better than this or it should be worse than this

884
00:57:04.080 --> 00:57:08.400
because judgment is not being done and so it needs to be worse than this you know the judgment needs

885
00:57:08.400 --> 00:57:12.560
to come or whatever it is we're thinking it shouldn't be like this and it should be different

886
00:57:13.360 --> 00:57:19.360
we need to that's holding on to it we need to let go and how do you let go no judgment like okay

887
00:57:19.360 --> 00:57:24.400
i'm just gonna i'm gonna stop saying that it should be different i'm gonna stop requiring it

888
00:57:24.400 --> 00:57:30.960
emotionally to be different that is releasing it to the lord and now the lord can come in and do

889
00:57:30.960 --> 00:57:38.480
something if he so chooses so that's how we practically um uh how we practically like make

890
00:57:38.800 --> 00:57:45.440
these things not as important and make god more important than this thing is by doing those

891
00:57:45.440 --> 00:57:50.480
letting go tools that i explained those are like the those are like going this going up those

892
00:57:50.480 --> 00:57:55.920
stairs one at a time remember how i told you you know you go up the stairs one at a time you know

893
00:57:55.920 --> 00:58:00.480
because going from here to jumping to the second level is it's it's too big of a leap we're like

894
00:58:00.480 --> 00:58:05.280
how do you do that how do you like not make this important and make god more important than that

895
00:58:05.280 --> 00:58:09.600
in a moment it's like telling someone to jump from the first floor to the second floor in one

896
00:58:09.600 --> 00:58:14.720
leap it's like yeah but that seems impossible how do you do that so it's like okay just go up the

897
00:58:14.720 --> 00:58:21.280
stairs one at a time just do these tools just just do these incremental things help yourself

898
00:58:21.280 --> 00:58:29.200
do it you know um does that make sense i mean you don't have to tell me it makes sense if it

899
00:58:29.200 --> 00:58:39.360
really doesn't no i think i understand it most of it okay it makes sense so i want to encourage

900
00:58:39.360 --> 00:58:46.000
you in a couple of things one what it is that you're going through is is normal i go through

901
00:58:46.000 --> 00:58:50.960
those seasons too where i'm like i just feel like i'm living a lot of my life in unrest

902
00:58:51.840 --> 00:58:59.040
and all that that means is not that i've reverted or that i'm going backwards or i've lost something

903
00:58:59.680 --> 00:59:07.440
remember it or that i i've finally i've lost ground no i still have all of that ground that

904
00:59:07.440 --> 00:59:13.840
i had gained before all it means is that god's moving me into a deeper level i'm he's he's

905
00:59:13.840 --> 00:59:22.560
allowing things to come up that are triggering that are triggering um or are are bringing up

906
00:59:22.560 --> 00:59:27.520
out of me all of these areas in which i'm still in unrest and now they're all at the surface

907
00:59:28.320 --> 00:59:32.800
so i'm facing them all right now but it doesn't mean that all those areas that i shifted into

908
00:59:32.800 --> 00:59:39.920
rest i'm now in unrest in all of this no you're just in it you're just having to face the deeper

909
00:59:39.920 --> 00:59:46.800
areas of yourself that have always been in unrest and that you've never dealt with not even you know

910
00:59:46.800 --> 00:59:53.040
a year ago when you know you and i started working together these areas i know that they might seem

911
00:59:53.120 --> 00:59:57.680
like they're the same areas they're not or or they're the same areas but what i mean is like

912
00:59:57.680 --> 00:59:59.760
they're they're always at a deeper level

913
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:04.720
They're not the same thing that you've already conquered and that you've already won, because

914
01:00:04.720 --> 01:00:10.880
when you've won in an area with the Lord, it changed it from flesh into spirit, that thing

915
01:00:10.880 --> 01:00:17.600
died, was buried and was resurrected to spirit. That thing that's now spirit, that aspect of you,

916
01:00:17.600 --> 01:00:22.000
you know, that shifted into rest in that way in which you're trusting and believing the Lord,

917
01:00:22.000 --> 01:00:26.800
it is spirit and it can no longer die. You can't, you can't lose it.

918
01:00:27.760 --> 01:00:33.280
If that aspect of spirit can't die and has to be faced and everything again, you've already done

919
01:00:33.280 --> 01:00:41.520
it. So anything new that's coming up in the area of unrest is new, meaning like it's always been

920
01:00:41.520 --> 01:00:48.800
there, but you haven't dealt with it yet. You haven't. And so know that you're just conquering

921
01:00:48.800 --> 01:00:53.040
more and more territory in yourself. You're overcoming more and more into greater and

922
01:00:53.040 --> 01:00:58.880
greater degrees. So when I hear that, Oh, you know, people get so worried, like, Oh,

923
01:00:58.880 --> 01:01:03.360
actually it was an unrest and I was doing so well during the rest intensive and for several months

924
01:01:03.360 --> 01:01:07.760
afterwards. And now I'm not anymore. I've lost something. You haven't lost anything.

925
01:01:07.760 --> 01:01:12.640
You're just going to a deeper level. So what I taught in the rest intensive are the same

926
01:01:12.640 --> 01:01:18.400
simple principles. We literally apply it every single level. We literally apply to every single

927
01:01:18.400 --> 01:01:24.160
area of unrest that we encounter in our lives. Every single one. It's not that we've missed

928
01:01:24.160 --> 01:01:30.080
something and that we didn't learn something the first time and whatever. It's that you now have

929
01:01:30.080 --> 01:01:35.760
to apply all those things you've learned that worked in these areas. They will work in these,

930
01:01:36.640 --> 01:01:43.440
but we think that because we worked on them and we got, and we saw some progress that we shouldn't

931
01:01:43.440 --> 01:01:49.680
be experiencing these. It's like, no, these are areas that we didn't apply them to yet.

932
01:01:49.680 --> 01:01:54.960
And now we have to apply them to these areas. We're always in a process of overcoming

933
01:01:55.840 --> 01:02:02.240
our flesh until all of our flesh is transformed into spirit. And it will happen. It happened with

934
01:02:02.240 --> 01:02:07.440
Jesus. All of him eventually transferred over into the spirit, including his body.

935
01:02:07.440 --> 01:02:11.840
You know, it, it, it, the flesh died. He was buried for three days and then he was raised

936
01:02:11.920 --> 01:02:16.320
resurrected as a spiritual body. And we know that because he was able to walk through walls and

937
01:02:16.320 --> 01:02:21.680
translate from like, you know, leaving me the house and the math and appearing on the road to

938
01:02:21.680 --> 01:02:26.640
a man and doing all this stuff, you know, so it was spiritual body. So, um, anyway,

939
01:02:26.640 --> 01:02:31.200
so just be encouraged that what it is you're experiencing is you're just experiencing

940
01:02:31.200 --> 01:02:35.760
walking further down this road where you've chosen a lifestyle of rest or like, you know, what

941
01:02:35.760 --> 01:02:42.080
I choose God over my circumstances. And so I'm having to learn how to always choose

942
01:02:42.080 --> 01:02:50.080
how to choose God in newer circumstances, in other emotions, in other, basically you're being

943
01:02:50.080 --> 01:02:53.600
faced with all of the areas in which you're not believing God.

944
01:02:56.240 --> 01:03:00.640
And so that a new one is coming up of how you haven't believed God in your life.

945
01:03:01.520 --> 01:03:05.360
So now choose to believe God in that area, and then you'll shift into rest in that area. And

946
01:03:05.360 --> 01:03:10.320
then another area will come up. So there's going to be a lot of them, a lot of them that are going

947
01:03:10.320 --> 01:03:15.200
to come up about provision. A lot of them that are going to come up about protection, because

948
01:03:15.200 --> 01:03:21.680
you're having to believe God that he is who he says that he is to deeper and deeper level. Okay,

949
01:03:21.680 --> 01:03:26.000
God, I've been believing that. Um, like first, let's just say that when you started the rest

950
01:03:26.000 --> 01:03:30.480
intensive, you believed that God provided you to this degree. He says he provides you to this

951
01:03:30.480 --> 01:03:35.520
degree, but you, you believe this much after the rest intensive, you went through some through the

952
01:03:35.520 --> 01:03:42.640
rest intensive, you and the Lord went through some stuff and you chose God. You chose in by faith

953
01:03:42.640 --> 01:03:48.720
that God actually was better than what you thought. And he says, Hey, Renata, I am all this.

954
01:03:48.720 --> 01:03:54.240
And you're like, okay, God, I believe that you're this. Okay. That's so much more than what you

955
01:03:54.240 --> 01:03:59.840
started with. But God says, yeah, but I'm still all of this. So you're going to go through more

956
01:03:59.920 --> 01:04:04.240
and more in your life where you're where stuff is going to come up. And you're like, I'm in unrest

957
01:04:04.240 --> 01:04:08.480
in this area. And you realize, okay, well, I, you know, when God's going to show you, you don't

958
01:04:08.480 --> 01:04:13.680
believe that I provide for you. And you're going, God, I do believe that you provide for me. And

959
01:04:13.680 --> 01:04:19.520
God's like, yeah, but I provide for you this much. And the situation that you're encountering right

960
01:04:19.520 --> 01:04:26.560
now is, is in here. And you're not believing me. So I tell you, I'm providing for you. And you're

961
01:04:26.560 --> 01:04:30.400
like, and this is above the area that you've been believing. So you're like, no, God, you don't

962
01:04:30.400 --> 01:04:35.600
provide for me. And he's like, yeah, I do. Or you get mad at yourself because you're like, God,

963
01:04:35.600 --> 01:04:39.840
I thought we already dealt with that. He's like, yeah, we dealt with this. We didn't deal with

964
01:04:39.840 --> 01:04:44.160
this part of my providing for you. You still don't believe I provide for you right here.

965
01:04:45.040 --> 01:04:48.160
And so you're like, and then so you're going to have to stretch into that.

966
01:04:49.040 --> 01:04:54.320
And then there's a bit more. So, so don't be worried if you're like, if you run into like

967
01:04:54.320 --> 01:04:59.840
the same thing about God, like I thought that I, I shifted interest in the fact that God.

968
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.200
provided for me. I thought that I shifted into rest and the fact that God was good to

969
01:05:03.200 --> 01:05:08.400
me and that whatever. Well, yeah, but he says he's this much and we're only believing in

970
01:05:08.400 --> 01:05:13.920
this much. So he's constantly trying to get us to come into greater and greater agreement

971
01:05:13.920 --> 01:05:18.760
that he is who he says that he is. By the way, this means that you only get to experience

972
01:05:18.760 --> 01:05:25.360
this much of his provision. You only get to experience the degree of God that you believe

973
01:05:25.360 --> 01:05:30.360
that he is. So if he's this much and he says he'll do this for you, but you only believe

974
01:05:30.360 --> 01:05:36.440
this much, this is all you'll experience of God providing for you. So in order to experience

975
01:05:36.440 --> 01:05:42.640
God providing for you like this, you have to believe that it's true. But, and how much

976
01:05:42.640 --> 01:05:47.760
is all of this right now for you? It's an unknown. You know, it's for me, if for me,

977
01:05:47.760 --> 01:05:53.120
it's an unknown as well. God's having to teach me that he is when he, God has to teach me

978
01:05:53.200 --> 01:05:59.200
who he is. He says he's provision, but God, I've never seen that. I've only seen the amount

979
01:05:59.200 --> 01:06:04.880
that I believe this far. And so I've seen you manifest like that, but you say that you're

980
01:06:04.880 --> 01:06:09.600
more than that. What is that Lord? What does that look like? I know you've used the word

981
01:06:09.600 --> 01:06:15.200
provision board, but what does that look like in my life? What does that mean that those

982
01:06:15.200 --> 01:06:20.560
things will happen? What do you look like when your provision up here in my life when

983
01:06:20.560 --> 01:06:26.000
I've never seen it? Does that make sense? So that's what, that that's where you are right

984
01:06:26.000 --> 01:06:32.480
now. So, so I say that for your encouragement, don't be discouraged. You're not in a, you

985
01:06:32.480 --> 01:06:37.760
haven't reverted. You haven't gone backwards. You're now, God is inviting you into greater

986
01:06:37.760 --> 01:06:42.960
freedom. Look at the difference between your life before you started the rest intensive,

987
01:06:42.960 --> 01:06:48.880
before you started believing God in these ways, and then your life after that huge difference,

988
01:06:49.440 --> 01:06:55.040
God wants to take you from where that is to something even greater.

989
01:06:56.960 --> 01:07:02.400
That's what you're going through right now is you're going through the transition between

990
01:07:02.400 --> 01:07:07.440
what you have so thus far, and you know, and what you believed and shifted interest in

991
01:07:07.440 --> 01:07:12.000
the Lord in. And he says, I know you like that Renata, because it's so great and so

992
01:07:12.000 --> 01:07:16.720
different from how this was back here. I know that you like that, but did you know that

993
01:07:16.720 --> 01:07:23.360
that is nothing compared to what I'm inviting you into here. And once you get here, you'll

994
01:07:23.360 --> 01:07:28.960
be surprised that this was so wonderful to you because you just had no idea because it

995
01:07:28.960 --> 01:07:34.480
was so much better than this, but understand the degree to which this, this is better than

996
01:07:34.480 --> 01:07:41.680
this. This is better than where you are now, but we have to have faith in God to choose

997
01:07:42.640 --> 01:07:49.440
to step into this unknown with him. But when we do, it's that much better than anything we'd

998
01:07:49.440 --> 01:07:53.840
ever experienced prior. It's almost like, you don't realize how much in the dark you are until

999
01:07:53.840 --> 01:07:59.120
you move into the light. So there's so much light here than what you had in the darkness there.

1000
01:07:59.840 --> 01:08:06.800
That's my husband so much that you had in the darkness chair, but imagine. And so it's like,

1001
01:08:06.800 --> 01:08:14.800
oh my word, this is so much light, but your light here is so much more than this. That

1002
01:08:14.800 --> 01:08:18.880
when you move into the light here, you'll suddenly realize how much in darkness you've been

1003
01:08:19.840 --> 01:08:23.359
during the rest intense. Oh, I say during the rest of minutes of meaning, like everything that

1004
01:08:23.359 --> 01:08:27.040
you learned during that time and all that you, that you developed in your relationship with the

1005
01:08:27.040 --> 01:08:33.920
Lord since you think that's light now. And God's just like, no, you're still in a lot of darkness.

1006
01:08:33.920 --> 01:08:37.920
You're still in so much more, so much bondage. You're a lot freer than you were here.

1007
01:08:38.640 --> 01:08:43.760
But, and so you think this is so great, Lord, I've lost it. And God's like, no,

1008
01:08:44.399 --> 01:08:49.040
it's that I'm still showing you all of the areas that you are in in bondage.

1009
01:08:50.160 --> 01:08:55.040
And I want to bring you into greater freedom. That's where you are right now. You're moving

1010
01:08:55.040 --> 01:09:02.720
from basically glory to glory. So it's, you're not in a bad place. You're not, you haven't gone

1011
01:09:02.720 --> 01:09:10.880
backwards. God is you, you are further down the road, but making the same transition that you made

1012
01:09:11.439 --> 01:09:17.600
before, during the rest intensive. And it feels awful. Do you remember that time? Do you remember

1013
01:09:17.600 --> 01:09:21.600
when you were going through that? And you're just like, this feels worse than it did before,

1014
01:09:21.600 --> 01:09:26.000
because now I feel like there's this carrot. And before I didn't even know the carrot existed. Now

1015
01:09:26.000 --> 01:09:31.359
I know there's a carrot and I can't get to it. That's what you're feeling like now. It's like,

1016
01:09:31.359 --> 01:09:36.319
I know it should be different. And why does it feel worse? It'll feel worse before it feels

1017
01:09:36.319 --> 01:09:42.000
better. And the reason is because the new stuff is coming up, the stuff that you hadn't dealt with

1018
01:09:42.000 --> 01:09:47.439
yet, this areas that you hadn't shifted into resting yet. So anyway, is this all making sense

1019
01:09:47.439 --> 01:09:55.920
or not? It's making a lot of sense. I feel peace when you're talking and just,

1020
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:16.180
Yeah, I can see that how I've held on to things these months and then blaming myself and thinking

1021
01:10:16.180 --> 01:10:21.400
like you're saying like, oh, you lost it or I did something wrong or it's my fault that

1022
01:10:21.400 --> 01:10:24.680
I got out of rest and you kind of fear from in.

1023
01:10:24.680 --> 01:10:25.680
Yeah.

1024
01:10:26.520 --> 01:10:32.400
I think I have thought the thoughts and maybe this is a different level, but I haven't really,

1025
01:10:32.400 --> 01:10:34.320
I haven't thought it the way you're voicing it.

1026
01:10:34.320 --> 01:10:39.040
I've just like, maybe there must, this is something new God's doing or appealing to

1027
01:10:39.040 --> 01:10:45.280
us in a new way or that there is like another level or another more inheritance.

1028
01:10:45.280 --> 01:10:51.400
Like, or like, I think I feel it with finances, for instance, that like I used to have like

1029
01:10:51.400 --> 01:10:57.560
a poverty mentality and I feel like God has in various situations, set me more and more

1030
01:10:57.560 --> 01:11:02.840
free and yeah, that's great.

1031
01:11:02.840 --> 01:11:08.960
But now I've been feeling like I have had a sense that there's more freedom, but I kind

1032
01:11:08.960 --> 01:11:17.800
of cling a little bit to my old ways, but having a sense of provision, there is a different

1033
01:11:17.800 --> 01:11:25.480
level of freedom with finances and I feel like God has invited me into it, but I struggle

1034
01:11:25.480 --> 01:11:27.120
to go there.

1035
01:11:27.120 --> 01:11:28.120
Yeah.

1036
01:11:28.120 --> 01:11:33.680
I don't know how I hold on to my tight ways, controlling money, not as much as I did before

1037
01:11:33.680 --> 01:11:39.560
when I was in poverty mentality, because I'm a lot more free now, but still have some of

1038
01:11:39.560 --> 01:11:44.360
the same mechanisms and I can sense God is like, let it go.

1039
01:11:44.360 --> 01:11:53.600
Let me show you how generous I am, but I don't know how to accept it or move into it.

1040
01:11:53.600 --> 01:11:59.760
And then when we're talking, I realized that like areas where you're kind of still battling

1041
01:11:59.760 --> 01:12:04.760
and you're not letting it go and let God, you know, go from this level too.

1042
01:12:04.760 --> 01:12:08.680
And I can see that, oh, I used to be here and now I still struggle with it, but it's

1043
01:12:08.680 --> 01:12:09.680
not here.

1044
01:12:09.680 --> 01:12:10.680
It's here.

1045
01:12:10.680 --> 01:12:11.680
Yeah.

1046
01:12:12.000 --> 01:12:20.520
And I can feel the invitation, like I said, I can feel the invitation that he is inviting

1047
01:12:20.520 --> 01:12:26.480
me into something better, more freeing.

1048
01:12:26.480 --> 01:12:27.640
Isn't that wonderful?

1049
01:12:27.640 --> 01:12:33.400
Because like you said, you're instead of seeing God from the perspective of why are you being

1050
01:12:33.400 --> 01:12:34.720
hard on me?

1051
01:12:34.720 --> 01:12:41.960
You've now seen that, realized that all those like that, that feeling that you, that interaction

1052
01:12:41.960 --> 01:12:45.920
that you kept feeling from him, that previously in your life, you've labeled it as God being

1053
01:12:45.920 --> 01:12:51.920
hard on you instead was God inviting you, which is, which is instead of him being negative

1054
01:12:51.920 --> 01:12:53.320
towards you, he's being positive.

1055
01:12:53.320 --> 01:12:54.320
Isn't that fascinating?

1056
01:12:54.320 --> 01:12:55.320
Yeah.

1057
01:12:55.320 --> 01:12:56.320
Yeah.

1058
01:12:56.320 --> 01:13:06.440
Because a year ago I probably would have thought of it more as, is this a test or why are you

1059
01:13:06.440 --> 01:13:07.440
withholding things from me?

1060
01:13:07.440 --> 01:13:08.440
Why is it so hard?

1061
01:13:08.440 --> 01:13:09.440
Why is it so challenging?

1062
01:13:09.440 --> 01:13:16.040
And now it's more like I can see that it's not, God is inviting me, but it's me that

1063
01:13:16.040 --> 01:13:20.200
don't know how to step into it or receive the invitation.

1064
01:13:20.200 --> 01:13:21.200
Yes.

1065
01:13:21.200 --> 01:13:22.200
Yeah.

1066
01:13:22.200 --> 01:13:23.640
Isn't that great?

1067
01:13:23.640 --> 01:13:30.160
And so when God gives us an invitation, one of the things that makes it a bit easier,

1068
01:13:30.160 --> 01:13:38.080
and it's actually the only way to accept the invitation, but that makes it that, I don't

1069
01:13:38.080 --> 01:13:44.360
know how to explain it, but what we need to choose when we choose God's invitation, like

1070
01:13:44.360 --> 01:13:51.920
say for instance, you talked about him inviting you to, how did you phrase it?

1071
01:13:51.920 --> 01:13:58.720
You didn't phrase it as not have a poverty mentality, but you said to trust him work

1072
01:13:58.720 --> 01:13:59.720
for finances.

1073
01:13:59.720 --> 01:14:01.000
Maybe that's what that was.

1074
01:14:01.000 --> 01:14:05.280
So what it is that we're doing is remember that when we have faith in the Lord, we have

1075
01:14:05.280 --> 01:14:07.880
faith in him, not in his promise.

1076
01:14:07.880 --> 01:14:10.360
So we hold on to him.

1077
01:14:10.360 --> 01:14:13.760
It's that we believe that God is who he says that he is, not that he will do what he says

1078
01:14:13.760 --> 01:14:14.760
he will do.

1079
01:14:14.760 --> 01:14:18.960
What we hold on to is that he is who he says that he is.

1080
01:14:18.960 --> 01:14:23.240
So it's the same thing when God is inviting you into something to trust him with your

1081
01:14:23.240 --> 01:14:24.240
finances.

1082
01:14:24.240 --> 01:14:29.560
It's not that we need to trust that these things are going to happen to your finances

1083
01:14:29.560 --> 01:14:33.920
in that God is going to do these things with your finances, but rather you're choosing

1084
01:14:33.920 --> 01:14:41.840
that God is going to be good to you in your finances, and we can't label what good means.

1085
01:14:41.840 --> 01:14:42.840
We can't label that.

1086
01:14:42.840 --> 01:14:48.840
Well, good means you're going to have a lot, or good that you're going to have more.

1087
01:14:48.840 --> 01:14:59.720
We're not putting our faith that in how the finances and how God's character is going

1088
01:14:59.720 --> 01:15:00.040
to make it.

1089
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:06.960
manifest. We're not going to focus on the manifestation. We have faith that God is who

1090
01:15:06.960 --> 01:15:12.320
he says he is, that he's good, and that he'll be that goodness into your finances, that

1091
01:15:12.320 --> 01:15:19.240
he is provider, and that he'll be provider for you in your finances, and he's protector

1092
01:15:19.240 --> 01:15:24.280
and he'll be protector in your finances. But we don't get to, but we're not having faith

1093
01:15:24.280 --> 01:15:28.640
that, oh, well, if God's good in my finances, it means this is what's going to happen in

1094
01:15:28.640 --> 01:15:36.240
my finances. So when God, so that helps, or at least it does me, it's still a risk that

1095
01:15:36.240 --> 01:15:46.880
we take because faith is always a risk. It's still a stretch that we make to believe something

1096
01:15:46.880 --> 01:15:54.040
new about God and to accept his invitation. But at least what helps me is it's easier

1097
01:15:54.040 --> 01:16:00.160
for me. And I don't know if it's just, yeah, I don't really know why. I don't know if it's

1098
01:16:00.160 --> 01:16:06.040
like it will, that's easier for everyone, or if it just happens to be for me. But for

1099
01:16:06.040 --> 01:16:14.800
me, I find it easier to make the choice if I realize that I am choosing that God is something

1100
01:16:14.800 --> 01:16:24.240
instead of trying to believe that instead of choosing to trust that God is going to do

1101
01:16:24.240 --> 01:16:29.600
these things in my finances. For me, I find it easier to choose that God is something

1102
01:16:29.880 --> 01:16:34.760
than that the X, Y, and Z is going to happen in my finances. You know why? Because these

1103
01:16:34.760 --> 01:16:39.760
things don't always happen in our finances. And we have experience in that, right? So

1104
01:16:39.760 --> 01:16:44.840
it's harder for me to believe that. And so for me, I find it a lot easier to accept God's

1105
01:16:44.840 --> 01:16:52.080
invitation to stretch my faith and to believe something new about him. If I just choose to

1106
01:16:52.080 --> 01:16:59.160
believe that he is who he says that he is. And I know that people have found it hard to believe

1107
01:16:59.160 --> 01:17:03.440
something that God's telling them, because they're trying to believe that this thing is

1108
01:17:03.440 --> 01:17:08.160
going to happen. Yeah. And I don't think they need to be believing that this thing is going

1109
01:17:08.160 --> 01:17:12.960
to happen. They need to be believing that he is who he says that he is. Yeah. And sure, God

1110
01:17:12.960 --> 01:17:20.000
always, yeah, less. Yes. Yeah. Because you're just all for his goodness. Yeah, exactly. It's

1111
01:17:20.000 --> 01:17:26.360
still, yeah, it's still always that God is being good. And yeah, he can invite you into it, but

1112
01:17:26.360 --> 01:17:32.400
you'll end up having less. And if he's doing something in your finances and in your trust in

1113
01:17:32.400 --> 01:17:41.080
him. Yeah, correct. Yeah. So the two things that I'll leave you with are that I recommend, you

1114
01:17:41.080 --> 01:17:46.040
know, to help you like out of like the stagnant is to remember, focus on your relationship with

1115
01:17:46.040 --> 01:17:51.960
the Lord. Here, let me back up. Focus on two things. God is who he says that he is to the

1116
01:17:51.960 --> 01:17:56.680
degree he says he's that and that you are who he says that you are to the degree he says that

1117
01:17:56.680 --> 01:18:01.840
you're that. And just choose them. You won't feel like it. Remember, you've been focusing on

1118
01:18:02.120 --> 01:18:08.480
Oh, you know, I'm bad. I've done the wrong thing, whatever. But is that who God says that you are?

1119
01:18:08.800 --> 01:18:13.680
Your flesh has done those things. Absolutely. You're fresh made those decisions, your flesh is

1120
01:18:13.680 --> 01:18:20.000
in fear, your flesh is afraid, your flesh is angry, your flesh is whatever. Sure. But is that who you

1121
01:18:20.000 --> 01:18:28.520
are in your spirit? No. So so instead of identifying yourself as what your flood is, as the way your

1122
01:18:28.520 --> 01:18:35.000
flesh is acting out, and in all of its fear, and it's all of its unbelief, instead of identifying

1123
01:18:35.000 --> 01:18:40.320
yourself as that, let your flesh do what it's doing right now. And just understand, well, it's

1124
01:18:40.320 --> 01:18:48.840
afraid, okay. But that's not who I am. I am the spirit is not afraid. You know, my spirit is one

1125
01:18:48.840 --> 01:18:52.760
with Christ, and I'm not afraid. And I always believe my father and I'm always loved by my

1126
01:18:52.760 --> 01:18:58.640
father. And I always feel loved by my father. And you know, that is who I am. And I always choose to

1127
01:18:58.640 --> 01:19:05.320
focus on who you are not how you're acting. And then how you act will change. The more that you

1128
01:19:05.320 --> 01:19:10.800
focus on who it is that you are, the more how you act will change. So focus on who God says that he

1129
01:19:10.800 --> 01:19:17.880
is and who it is that he says that you are. And part of that is is stop fighting your flesh so

1130
01:19:17.880 --> 01:19:24.200
much stuff. And by fighting, I don't mean that you're accepting it that you're giving it permission

1131
01:19:24.200 --> 01:19:32.320
to do stuff, you know, and to act out into whatever it means to stop condemning it or fighting it. And

1132
01:19:32.360 --> 01:19:38.600
not in disassociating from the part of yourself that's making those decisions. Being like, you

1133
01:19:38.600 --> 01:19:44.120
shouldn't be like that. Just stop fighting it just shift into neutral like, well, that's, that's how

1134
01:19:44.160 --> 01:19:51.040
I'm being. God, I'm asking that, that you help me change that shift into your spirit. Ask your spirit

1135
01:19:51.040 --> 01:19:56.120
to like talk to your soul and your body. Talk to your soul and you know, calm them down and, and

1136
01:19:56.160 --> 01:19:59.960
help them feel safe. And you talk to your soul and body and invite

1137
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:04.640
them to feel safe with your spirit, you know, et cetera, so that things will change, but

1138
01:20:04.640 --> 01:20:07.400
you will shift out of this stuckness place faster.

1139
01:20:07.400 --> 01:20:15.120
If you stop, if you, uh, Oh man, I just thought of the word, well, that's aggravating.

1140
01:20:15.120 --> 01:20:22.120
And that we're, man, it was a different, I was going to use a different word that I thought

1141
01:20:22.120 --> 01:20:29.520
would help clarify it even more, but anyway, it says you stop fighting yourself and, um,

1142
01:20:29.520 --> 01:20:33.800
and seeing yourself as an enemy and being antagonistic towards yourself.

1143
01:20:33.800 --> 01:20:39.000
Meaning like you stop, you stop resisting yourself.

1144
01:20:39.000 --> 01:20:40.480
There you go.

1145
01:20:40.480 --> 01:20:47.200
Stop resisting because remember whenever we're not in rest, we're in an active state of resistance.

1146
01:20:47.200 --> 01:20:52.400
So stop the resisting to allow the spirit to flow again.

1147
01:20:52.400 --> 01:20:54.280
And then things will change.

1148
01:20:54.480 --> 01:20:59.760
Um, remember that, and I always try to make this very clear to people.

1149
01:20:59.760 --> 01:21:07.120
You stopping the resistance is not the same thing as you being permissive of it.

1150
01:21:07.120 --> 01:21:08.440
You're not agreeing with it.

1151
01:21:08.440 --> 01:21:11.200
You're not saying it's okay.

1152
01:21:11.200 --> 01:21:13.240
You're not giving it permission to sin.

1153
01:21:13.240 --> 01:21:16.320
You're not, you're not doing any of that.

1154
01:21:16.320 --> 01:21:18.760
You're just stopping the battle.

1155
01:21:18.760 --> 01:21:21.680
You're stopping the resistance against it.

1156
01:21:21.680 --> 01:21:26.320
The resistance is keeping you stuck and it's not allowing change.

1157
01:21:26.320 --> 01:21:30.280
The more that we resist, the less, the less that can change.

1158
01:21:30.280 --> 01:21:33.120
Does that make sense?

1159
01:21:33.120 --> 01:21:35.080
So cause here's basically what it is.

1160
01:21:35.080 --> 01:21:37.280
Think of it like this.

1161
01:21:37.280 --> 01:21:40.240
Um, it's needing to move this way.

1162
01:21:40.240 --> 01:21:41.560
All right.

1163
01:21:41.560 --> 01:21:44.920
And it's acting out and it's being ugly and it's doing all kinds of stuff.

1164
01:21:44.920 --> 01:21:48.040
And we're like, Oh my goodness, you need to stop doing that.

1165
01:21:48.040 --> 01:21:54.560
The only way that it can actually stop being like that is if you let it go through, you

1166
01:21:54.560 --> 01:22:00.880
let it pass through, but you can't allow it to come up and then you tell it to stop.

1167
01:22:00.880 --> 01:22:02.800
It's going to keep it.

1168
01:22:02.800 --> 01:22:04.040
You have to let it go through.

1169
01:22:04.040 --> 01:22:05.040
So that's what I'm saying.

1170
01:22:05.040 --> 01:22:06.760
You stop the resistance.

1171
01:22:06.760 --> 01:22:08.120
It's a little similar to what I walk.

1172
01:22:08.120 --> 01:22:09.120
I say it's a little similar.

1173
01:22:09.120 --> 01:22:11.720
It's the same thing as what I'd walk people through.

1174
01:22:11.720 --> 01:22:15.680
And I've been walking people through this and the breakthrough program about like when

1175
01:22:15.680 --> 01:22:21.040
your emotions come up, and I think I mentioned this in rest intensive, you let your emotions

1176
01:22:21.040 --> 01:22:25.960
come up, like even fear, anger or whatever, and you allow yourself to fully feel them

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01:22:25.960 --> 01:22:30.080
in order for, and then, and then submit them to the Lord in order for them to come up and

1178
01:22:30.080 --> 01:22:31.080
out.

1179
01:22:31.080 --> 01:22:37.040
But you can't, you can't feel anger come up and be like, Oh my word, I shouldn't be angry.

1180
01:22:37.040 --> 01:22:41.240
Cause if you do that, well, and you, and you like think, Oh my word, this is bad.

1181
01:22:41.240 --> 01:22:43.320
I shouldn't be like this.

1182
01:22:43.320 --> 01:22:48.880
What you're doing is you're stifling it and it pushes it down and it keeps it.

1183
01:22:48.880 --> 01:22:54.960
So in order to let, in order for the anger to leave and in order for the reason, whoops,

1184
01:22:54.960 --> 01:23:01.440
in order for the reason of anger to leave, you have to let it come up and out.

1185
01:23:01.440 --> 01:23:05.720
So you have to allow yourself to feel it instead of being like, no, I shouldn't feel that way.

1186
01:23:05.720 --> 01:23:10.640
You have to accept the fact, Nope, this is me and this is how I'm feeling and let it

1187
01:23:10.640 --> 01:23:11.640
come up and leave.

1188
01:23:11.960 --> 01:23:14.960
So take that emotion and you submit it to the Lord.

1189
01:23:14.960 --> 01:23:20.000
So what I've been recommending to people is when you are feeling a particular way, say

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01:23:20.000 --> 01:23:24.840
you're feeling frustrated, say you're feeling disappointed.

1191
01:23:24.840 --> 01:23:25.840
You talked about depression.

1192
01:23:25.840 --> 01:23:31.680
You know, you're just feeling very, uh, what is despondent, hopeless, whatever sits in

1193
01:23:31.680 --> 01:23:34.760
that feeling with the Lord.

1194
01:23:34.760 --> 01:23:39.840
Like in other words, fully feel the feeling, not, not kind of a little bit, allow all of

1195
01:23:39.840 --> 01:23:40.840
it to come up.

1196
01:23:40.840 --> 01:23:45.120
However much you want to feel, allow that to come up and then bring, and then allow

1197
01:23:45.120 --> 01:23:48.680
God to come to you or go to him.

1198
01:23:48.680 --> 01:23:54.200
However, it makes sense to you and literally sit in his presence, fully feeling that ugly,

1199
01:23:54.200 --> 01:23:57.240
awful, just come uncomfortable feeling.

1200
01:23:57.240 --> 01:23:58.240
Huh?

1201
01:23:58.240 --> 01:23:59.240
Okay.

1202
01:23:59.240 --> 01:24:00.240
Okay.

1203
01:24:00.240 --> 01:24:09.640
Um, and, uh, and then that will allow you to, um, well, a couple of things.

1204
01:24:10.440 --> 01:24:20.200
For one, you'll get to experience that God, um, that God fully accepts you and doesn't

1205
01:24:20.200 --> 01:24:21.200
resist.

1206
01:24:21.200 --> 01:24:26.920
You doesn't resist being with you and will not even correct you while you're feeling

1207
01:24:26.920 --> 01:24:27.920
that way.

1208
01:24:27.920 --> 01:24:31.480
And you're sitting in his presence, you will find that he will fully accept you feeling

1209
01:24:31.480 --> 01:24:35.760
that way, which you feel is then, you know, like, I felt like I'm in sin right now.

1210
01:24:35.760 --> 01:24:37.000
I'm angry.

1211
01:24:37.000 --> 01:24:39.080
I'm afraid I'm whatever.

1212
01:24:39.080 --> 01:24:44.960
I'm feeling ugly because like inside, I'm feeling ugly, you know, it feels awful.

1213
01:24:44.960 --> 01:24:49.280
And I know this is sin and I'm in sin in the presence of God.

1214
01:24:49.280 --> 01:24:53.040
And we've always been, we've always thought God's going to reject us.

1215
01:24:53.040 --> 01:24:54.040
God's going to correct us.

1216
01:24:54.040 --> 01:24:55.040
God's going to punish us.

1217
01:24:55.040 --> 01:25:00.000
God's going to do something and you will find that he just lets you be.

1218
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:02.400
He just sits with you and he's fine.

1219
01:25:02.400 --> 01:25:04.840
He is very unthreatened by your sin.

1220
01:25:05.320 --> 01:25:06.520
It's very unthreatened by it.

1221
01:25:06.520 --> 01:25:07.960
He's very unthreatened by your feelings.

1222
01:25:08.240 --> 01:25:09.960
It's very unthreatened by your unbelief.

1223
01:25:09.960 --> 01:25:11.640
So he'll just, you'll just sit with him.

1224
01:25:11.680 --> 01:25:15.440
I've experienced this and you will experience that God fully accepts you.

1225
01:25:15.920 --> 01:25:17.200
He's not giving you permission.

1226
01:25:17.280 --> 01:25:18.520
He doesn't say it's okay.

1227
01:25:18.840 --> 01:25:22.200
You know, none of those things, but he's just letting you be, and he's

1228
01:25:22.200 --> 01:25:25.920
letting you be as you are, how you're feeling with all of the issues that

1229
01:25:25.920 --> 01:25:29.400
you're struggling with, with all your unbelief, with all your accusation against

1230
01:25:29.400 --> 01:25:36.080
him, he will let you be that while you're with him, you will get a different

1231
01:25:36.080 --> 01:25:37.120
experience about God.

1232
01:25:37.120 --> 01:25:40.680
And here's what I found with me is that when you, and this has

1233
01:25:40.680 --> 01:25:41.960
happened with other people as well.

1234
01:25:42.320 --> 01:25:45.920
When you sit with him with all those feelings, you'll

1235
01:25:45.920 --> 01:25:48.120
suddenly let go of the feelings.

1236
01:25:48.600 --> 01:25:51.640
It's like you self-correct, like God won't correct you.

1237
01:25:51.840 --> 01:25:58.240
You will find that, that the presence of God will heal that in you and take it away.

1238
01:25:59.240 --> 01:26:00.400
It's really weird.

1239
01:26:00.880 --> 01:26:03.320
And you didn't correct yourself and he didn't correct you.

1240
01:26:03.920 --> 01:26:10.480
You being in the presence of God healed, you feel that filled the need that you

1241
01:26:10.480 --> 01:26:15.200
have, that all those emotions were coming up in relation to, and it'll go away.

1242
01:26:16.360 --> 01:26:17.560
It's really strange.

1243
01:26:17.760 --> 01:26:18.880
You will feel safe.

1244
01:26:18.920 --> 01:26:19.960
You'll feel protected.

1245
01:26:20.000 --> 01:26:23.240
You'll feel provided for, you'll feel, you'll feel his goodness.

1246
01:26:23.280 --> 01:26:24.080
You'll feel good.

1247
01:26:24.520 --> 01:26:25.080
You'll feel it.

1248
01:26:25.120 --> 01:26:28.360
You'll get the sense of, you'll get the sense from God that you

1249
01:26:28.360 --> 01:26:29.800
really are who he says that you are.

1250
01:26:30.280 --> 01:26:31.680
You'll feel differently about yourself.

1251
01:26:32.160 --> 01:26:33.120
It's really wild.

1252
01:26:33.760 --> 01:26:37.880
And you didn't, you didn't correct yourself and he didn't correct you, correct you.

1253
01:26:38.240 --> 01:26:42.000
Literally being in his presence while you're sinning in the middle of

1254
01:26:42.000 --> 01:26:44.680
your sin will heal your, will heal you.

1255
01:26:45.320 --> 01:26:49.240
Remember that sin is simply unbelief and it'll heal that unbelief.

1256
01:26:50.080 --> 01:26:53.400
So anyway, those are some things that I would recommend to you is stop

1257
01:26:53.400 --> 01:26:54.720
fighting yourself, letting go.

1258
01:26:54.720 --> 01:26:55.960
That'll help you get unstuck.

1259
01:26:56.400 --> 01:26:58.560
Choose God and not rest.

1260
01:26:58.680 --> 01:27:00.920
Choose God and not you being a particular way.

1261
01:27:00.960 --> 01:27:05.120
Choose God and not your circumstances changing and everything will change.

1262
01:27:05.480 --> 01:27:09.200
Your circumstance, your circumstances may change, but your, your

1263
01:27:09.200 --> 01:27:10.600
emotions will definitely change.

1264
01:27:10.920 --> 01:27:12.120
Your perspective will change.

1265
01:27:12.120 --> 01:27:14.000
Your feelings will change, you know, et cetera.

1266
01:27:14.600 --> 01:27:18.080
So, and then get back to me, you know, within like a few days, you

1267
01:27:18.080 --> 01:27:19.240
know, a week or two or something.

1268
01:27:19.240 --> 01:27:21.200
Let me know how it's going.

1269
01:27:22.520 --> 01:27:23.080
It's I'm good.

1270
01:27:23.840 --> 01:27:25.440
This is so good.

1271
01:27:25.480 --> 01:27:26.160
Very helpful.

1272
01:27:26.160 --> 01:27:27.760
Can I ask you a last question?

1273
01:27:28.440 --> 01:27:28.880
Sure.

1274
01:27:30.160 --> 01:27:35.440
Have you thought about more of the things that Annette and I addressed?

1275
01:27:35.480 --> 01:27:38.360
You said a little bit about doing a breakthrough thing.

1276
01:27:38.360 --> 01:27:39.680
You said a little bit about,

1277
01:27:41.600 --> 01:27:44.760
I have, I haven't come to a conclusion on it yet.

1278
01:27:44.760 --> 01:27:48.040
I'm still holding it before, before the Lord.

1279
01:27:48.080 --> 01:27:52.480
And so, but I'll let y'all know what it is that I decide.

1280
01:27:52.720 --> 01:27:57.160
So, but I have definitely been thinking about it and praying about it.

1281
01:27:57.840 --> 01:27:59.200
Thank you so much.

1282
01:28:00.240 --> 01:28:03.720
I will let you know in a few days or a week when how things goes.

1283
01:28:04.480 --> 01:28:05.000
Perfect.

1284
01:28:05.240 --> 01:28:05.720
Perfect.

1285
01:28:06.040 --> 01:28:08.000
It's good to see you too.

1286
01:28:08.800 --> 01:28:09.280
Bye.

1287
01:28:09.440 --> 01:28:10.040
Bye.