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Okay.

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Hello Renata.

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Hi.

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You.

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I'm good. How are you.

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It just testing technology over here.

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Oh, I forgot I've lost him last time. Yes, I did find them I don't remember where they were, and that I was very grateful I found them.

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And the thing is, though, that sometimes I think that this microphone works, but this one doesn't. So, if ever this one dies.

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People say they can't hear me anymore so I might have to get some new AirPods but yes they are. I have them again.

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You look good. How are you.

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I'm doing much better than last time.

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I was watching for a while. I was watching the tape of us and hearing it again, and my face scared me. I looked so bad.

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I didn't think that.

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But of course, you know sometimes like each person is kind of like what it is that they're showing on their face when they see themselves you know from the outside.

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So, yeah, I think it is like sometimes when I'm serious. I can look more serious than I am. But I also think that I was doing bad. It was like both.

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I could tell on my face. Oh my gosh you girl you don't look good.

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I'm sorry.

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Well, you know what I, what I encourage people to do is to go back and look at their very first and go back and watch their very first, like, private session with me, because they will see it will be so encouraged because they'll see such a huge difference.

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And their tone, their attitude, their perspective, their language, meaning like their language about like life and like how they're viewing it and see such a huge difference between then and now, and then make it really encouraged like oh my.

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Yeah, I was shocked at the difference, but God just transforms people like that so anyway I just wanted to encourage you I recommend go back and watch the first one, you'll be even more encouraged.

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I think I definitely. Yeah, it was just really interesting.

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Yeah, because I didn't know. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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But I'm doing, I'm doing much better. Yeah.

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I think, I think what really, really clicked about the fighting part, like I think I wrote you some of this, that you're in resistance and you're kind of fighting to get into peace, and you're made peace, some kind of walking in rest some kind of idol, and like a method.

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Yes, and I think, just, and just like it was, I just kind of understood that I needed to let go of the method of finding rest, and, and also with what you wrote was really helpful.

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You know, about how we want to have a comfortable life we want to have a great life with God. And then you actually need to choose God, you know, and, yeah, it's actually the relationship with him more like the giver more than the gift, kind of know it, but then you get into seeking his gifts, even though you know you're supposed to seek the giver.

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So, correct. Yeah, I think there was, it was just something that really clicked.

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Pretty fast.

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After I talked to you, when I just like.

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Yeah.

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And again, go ahead.

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I've been able after that.

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I could just tell when I started my teaching in my internship, that I, which are very, very heavy. It's a very heavy class that I'm in probably the most rebellious class maybe in the whole school.

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And I've had amazing experiences the last two weeks, going in and being just really secure in who I am and knowing that I'm going to be okay, even if they.

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Yeah.

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submits to the kingdom of God, or they don't.

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Yeah.

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So I come with peace and I kind of have had like.

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know, I'm going to be okay. So I've had two amazing classes

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where I felt like you can call it, I kind of felt the Holy

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Spirit in the room. And they were really, like, in many ways,

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aligning to what I was trying to do. And I felt peace there. And

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the teacher came up to me afterwards, and we were like,

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that was amazing. And yeah, she was like, that was incredible

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what happened. And, and she, of course, didn't have a language.

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She's not a Christian, which, but she sensed it that it was

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like, yeah, I think that's me. But then I also had a class

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where they totally didn't align at all. Yeah. But I was fine. It

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was like that six, 60 minutes of fighting, or like, I wasn't

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fighting, but I was they were fighting against me. Yeah. And I

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was like, just going back to the same thing. This is what I'm

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gonna do. This is what we're doing. This is okay. Stop doing

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that. This is what we're doing. Stop doing this. We're not doing

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that right now. Yeah, I was correcting them 50 times. And

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they were not aligning. Yeah, 10 minutes. Yeah. But I was on

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resting. My pulse was like this. Okay, so this is not working.

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But we're gonna try one more time. And then I came out there

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and she was and the teacher was like, I'm sorry, that was

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really, really bad. You must be exhausted. And I'm like, I can

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see how this makes people exhausted. But I'm actually not

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exhausted. I'm fine. So I was like, that is great, because you

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chose freedom for yourself, you chose that you were not

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threatened by, and you couldn't be threatened by, you didn't

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have to fear being threatened by their risk, their response,

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meaning like the fact that they're choosing to not come

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into alignment or whatever that we're not that that who it is

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that we are in our peace, and our safety with the Lord, you

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know, our whatever is not threatened by creation by

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what's happening in creation by what's happening in our

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environment, what's happening with finances, what's happening

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with people and how they respond, you know, etc. So like,

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for instance, even when I talked to women, you've asked me about

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like, they're in abusive relationships, and all of those

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were in or like emotionally or verbally abusive, they weren't

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physically abusive. But I've had multiple women come to me in

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those situations, and asked me what to do. And I say, well, the

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first thing that you have to do is you have to choose your own

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freedom. And I always talk about the fact I was making it very

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clear, I said, I'm not talking about leaving your spouse. I

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said, ask between you and the Lord as to what you need to do

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and when and what the situations are, because I don't speak into

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that, I said, but so what I know is that you need to choose

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freedom internally for yourself. And you need to realize that

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you're not threatened by what they're doing. And you need to

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choose that you're not threatening you to choose to not

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be threatened, because you're not going to be given

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permission, it's not going to get easier, the outside won't

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change, you have to choose something for yourself first.

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And then, regardless of whether or not they change, you won't be

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affected. You know, in the same way. Now we're affected in the

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way that can still hurt when people Yeah, like, for instance,

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if people aren't coming into alignment, and you're like, I

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can't, I want to have relationship with these people,

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like you're wanting to have relationship with your students,

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like, I want to have no, you can't. Yeah, everything in

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creation has its own free will. And so they have their own free

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will. And so they're just not choosing that their their choice

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doesn't. There's a word for it doesn't force itself on you. You

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know, their will and their choice doesn't affect your will

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and your choice, you still get to choose how to respond. Now.

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Now, we don't always like the situations in which we have to

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make a choice. But at least the choice is always something we

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own, we can decide what how it is that we want to be in this

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situation, how it is that we want to respond, you know, and

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so. So anyway, my point is that what you're doing is absolutely

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huge. That is it right there is what you did, or you choose, you

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know, between me and the Lord, this is who I am, and this is

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how I'm gonna live. I'm choosing me and the Lord over what

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happens over how people do or creation does or does not

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respond. I'm choosing me and God, that's the thing that he

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holds us accountable for. And that's what Jesus died to give

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us. He didn't die to give us a change of environment. He died

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to give us freedom. And that's what you chose. And it's only

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when we're walking in that freedom when we choose to walk

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in the freedom that that Christ literally bought, bought us with

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for bought for us with his blood. Say that grammatically

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correctly. It's only when we have that, that can actually

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give creation something different to respond to. And

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that gives them the opportunity to change. It's only after we

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choose our own freedom in Christ, that creation

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has an opportunity to change. So anyway, you're doing that. And

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that it's really, really, really, really, really hard to

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do. That's one of the reasons why I enjoy working with you so

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much. And people like you in that that have gone through the

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rest intensive is you finally is is you're bound and determined

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to do what God is really calling us to the root issue, as opposed

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to I just want to be saved for my environment. I just want to

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be saved for my life. But instead, you're choosing No, I

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want to do I want to do what it is that God is really addressing

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in the Bible. And this is what he's addressing. He's addressing

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No, I chose you, I called you out. And I and I'm, and I'm

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inviting you to choose that freedom. Anyway, and that's the

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only way that then you can have something you're then in a

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position to be able to give something to your situation that

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gives it the opportunity to now change. But you're the one who's

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not a victim of your situation, which is how we think of it. We

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think of ourselves as a victim of situation, God, please change

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the situation so that I will be better. Instead, God's like, No,

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you have to change so that you can give your situation

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something different. You're the one who has to rule it so that

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it can change. It needs you to change in order for it to

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change. It's waiting for you to change so it can change, as

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opposed to the other way around. So anyway, you're doing it.

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You're absolutely amazing, seriously. Because that's

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really, really hard. So I'm very, very excited for you.

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Yeah, it's been really good. And I've been so thankful. And also,

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I felt like God was inviting me into more and more financial

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financial freedom. And I think I told you that. And so I felt

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like I was going to put my savings into my normal account

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and just like be free with it. And I feel like that's another

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and you're kind of like, well, then you run dry, you don't have

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anything. If there if you really need it, like all these kind of

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kind of fear. And like, you need to be responsible with your

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money, like all kinds of these things. But I also feel in that

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that that I'm stepping into an invitation. And it's kind of a

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faith because it's not like I got a lot of more money from the

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outside. It's just like I'm choosing to spend what I

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already have in another way.

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So that also feels

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a bit more freeing. I don't know.

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Just to be able to use

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it sounds bad use money on myself or not. I'm not against

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savings. I think it's very wise and all those things that's and

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everything. But there was just a freedom in, in, in, in not

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being so tied down by it in a way I don't know how to explain

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it. So sense. Yeah.

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So I felt like I also stepped into that. And I felt like that

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for a while that God was inviting me into a greater

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financial freedom, but I just didn't know how to get into it.

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Yeah. And so that's also something that I'm kind of like

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walking into. And I can feel like I trust him more like now.

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Okay, now I actually don't have savings, because my saving is

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just part of my regular account. And then you get fear of what's

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going to happen when it is used up. But then I feel more and

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more trust that my finances is in God's hands. And just like

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everything is God's anyways, and he's always taking care of me.

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And if I run dry, of course, he's going to take care of my

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me financially. And now I'm allowed to spend it or at least

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you know, I'm not like reckless. Yeah. But kind of just like

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allowing myself to not live so tightly and to spend more and

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then to enjoy it. And to trust God that he takes care of me

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now and later. And that's actually also been really,

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that's also been really good. Just like, I can feel like I am

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trusting him more. I'm not so worried about the future. I'm

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like, it's gonna, it's gonna work out. So that's also been an

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area. And I thought about like, two things that I want to talk

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to you about and tell you about. And one of them is that I am a

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doing much better. But I experience like a lot of

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limitations when it comes to energy, like I have so many

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things that I would like to do. And I don't. And there's, but I

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don't seem to be able to have

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the energy to do it I don't even know how to explain what I wanted to say but um um

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or how you could help me with it well one of them it is that I I listened to your last

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teaching in rest intensive about a goals and dreams and desires and I've wanted to

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uh like I felt God wanted me to learn Chinese and then you say something about uh well but

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when God tells you something I'll give you a promise it's more of a direction it's not the

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end goal um but it's like a direction he sets you in and I realized okay I've been making so many

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plans about that I need to go to China I need to learn the language I don't know it well enough

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and realizing that I actually did it I have even though I don't know the language as well

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as I wanted to I started my whole life changed I I sold my apartment I moved to another city

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I changed church and friends and everything and my life has gone in a totally different direction

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because I decided to to follow his word to learn Chinese and I couldn't in my hometown

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so I realized oh my gosh I'm free like I did that um but then

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oh I don't know if this and then

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but then there is a chance for me to go to China next year

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but then I don't know if I have the capacity to do it and like okay I'll I'm now I'm just like

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doing this but then maybe it will make a picture in the end sure I don't know but then um and I

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know when I was since I was little I know I since my whole life I've known that I I can do a lot of

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things and there's a lot of things I can't do but I have two gifts at least and that I've walked

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in since I was very little and one of the things is writing and the other one is singing and

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now because I'm so busy with work and studies I don't ever write and I I sing like I sing more

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than I used to because I'm in worship and learning more about prophetic singing so it's

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not like I'm not singing but I'm not performing anymore like I used to

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I don't have concerts like I've had before um and

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and then I felt and my friend told me this that I felt like was a prophetic word she said

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God you need to move from where I was living because it's too small for you and you need to

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start doing there's a lot of people that can do what you're doing right now but you need to do

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the things that only you can do and along with that I felt like God gave me the word of like

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a spear that is used for certain occasions you know like the woman that's in hiding in the

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cliffs and then God calls her forth and then or like the hidden it's in the bible about this

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hidden spear that sometimes God uses so so the thing was that I I have these and

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so so my friend was like you work at the refugee department but a lot of people can do that

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but you have something given to you that only you can do and you need to do those things

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and then I think I have been walking into it some ways with maybe with the prophetic singing

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maybe with um being a Chinese teacher and maybe with something that I'm that I see that I'm able

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to do in people's lives like kind of like speaking into people's lives slash counseling kind of thing

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that I kind of do just with friends or like things that just come up that when I feel led to do it

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yeah but all this to say um how my life is

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so that's so so my backstory I've been a singer I've been writing a lot

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I feel like there's a that God has something specific for me

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uh but my life is a lot hindered by being sick for 20 years and limitations and lack of energy

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And I don't actually have what it takes like in the flesh

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I cannot go to China alone by myself and move there because I'm not I

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Don't think I'm well enough to do it or that it's safe enough and China's dangerous country

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It's not like moving to France

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Even in my in in my job as a teacher. I depend on the spirit

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Like I don't just go to work and do my job

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I'm dependent on God all the time just to get through the day and

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It's an amazing thing because I've learned to be really dependent on God being sick for so long

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And I've seen him come through and been able to do amazing things

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And I know it's not me because I know I've been sick

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But just being available and letting the spirit go through you like I see that I do quite a good job as a teacher

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but it's not because I'm competent a lot of the times I

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sit at work and I

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Just want to go home because I don't have the energy to do the work that's required

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And then I come to class and I just surrender it to Jesus and then the class is amazing because of God

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Not because and and also because of experience, you know, you you've had experience for many years

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So you kind of float on it? Yeah, but a lot of it's just the spirit working. Yeah me

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but if I was test, there's a lot of things that I don't do and

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Don't know why this is what came up what I wanted to talk to you about I don't even know if you

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Can help me because this is limitations that I have physically and mentally

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because of sickness and this is what sickness over many years has done to my body and to my brain and

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But then I have all these dreams and these things that's been put into me

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That I dream about doing that I'm not able to do that

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I really want to do but I don't have the energy. So if I was not sick, I hadn't been sick for so long. I

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Now I just feel like there's so many

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Just accept the boundaries of your life. And this is how your life went because you're sick so you can't do all these things

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but then I have a deep sense that

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God wants something more for my life than just all these boundaries because I

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See that I've been able to do a lot more than the doctor said I could

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Just because living in by the Spirit, yeah, correct

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Some of this is like the first part of rest intensive where it's like

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there are many areas where I'm not living in rest, which is probably draining me of energy and

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Goals desires in relationship and business. So

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Yeah, yeah, I don't even know well going but this is what's kind of what was in my heart, yeah, no

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Yeah, it does it all makes sense so what you're talking about is and everybody

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Doesn't does with it their own way that

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Confusion that you're that you're talking about

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So so many people if not, what everyone have that same confusion that they have different scenarios and situations that prompt it

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You know physical limitations or you know struggles and whatever that's creating that is causing you to question certain things

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uh limitation well let me just word it uh we do have things to to um that factors that weigh

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into our consideration of things like sickness or not feeling well you know the lack of energy etc

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so it is something to consider that's my point it's something it's not something we ignore we

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accept reality this is reality is the way it is but it doesn't but what's very important is that

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we don't define ourselves by it or identify ourselves with it that's very important that

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we don't give it more importance or credence or um than than it has and that god wants us to give

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it so we realize that yeah we have we struggle with like um uh our body struggles with having

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a certain amount of energy and we're reaching what feels like you know the the boundary and

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then we're having to like push past that boundary in order to get excellence accomplished so even

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if you don't feel like it you get up and you go to work anyway and then the lord shows up etc so

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we don't ignore the fact that our body is feeling that way we don't ignore the fact that even our

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body might just completely shut down and decide nope you're not going to work today you are you

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get out the door you're going to go to bed you know so if you might yeah so stuff like that does

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happen but the so i'm saying it's important for us to not ignore reality but we shouldn't identify

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ourselves by it or define ourselves by it or say that it rules and determines our lives that it

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determines what god does that it determines what we do that it determines you know how what our

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life is going to look like and how we're going to live etc it's just a factor that we do need to

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consider but we don't give it more power than it has we don't say that okay our decisions are going

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to be determined first by our body by our sickness by our whatever it's just one of the factors that

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we consider as a as um it's one of the contributing factors that we're considering

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when we're considering okay well should i do a concert you know should i take up this hobby again

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should i whatever but it's not the determining one so it's it's kind of so the importance um

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basically the the distinct that i'm trying to make is while we don't want to discredit its importance

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and its significance um and in the fact that it is a real factor in our lives we don't want to

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make it more important than it really is we always want to make sure that that and that things of the

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kingdom are held as more powerful and a higher determining factor than that what's within the

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limitations that we're running into in the physical and as weird as that sounds just that

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that just that's the what you call it i was going to say subliminal but just that underlying

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approach will change things so you're still you're still your body is still doing you know

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it's probably still doing right now what it did just a while ago and that it did last week and

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that it did you know 18 years ago and whatever so we're not denying reality but you just shift the

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importance that you give it you you move the more of the importance and more of what defines

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your future more of what more of how you approach yourself and the first thing that you think about

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yourself and the first thing that you think about the lord and how he's going to be able to use you

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and what your future is going to look like you do not put the majority of the importance on

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your limitations you put the majority of the importance on the spirit and what god and um

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and always the abundance of god where he wants to move you forward where he wants you to do things

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where he wants you to be a creative life-giving being and then that can happen you know you can

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be like this life-giving being in a variety of ways it's not just in okay so so that that was

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one thing so that this will i'll use as a segue to talk about the next thing i was going to talk

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about and that is when you think about these dreams that god gives you and this is what i

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meant when i said you use it as like a direction here's why when god tells you something he means

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it but what we have a habit of doing is creating an entire picture out of something that god said

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thinking that oh god must mean this and he didn't say that he said this and from this we think oh

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well that means it looks like this and that's not what he said at all so in other words he gave you

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a piece of the puzzle and we

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create a whole puzzle from his one piece. So that's why it gives us a direction, but we don't

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really know what that's going to look like. So I'm just going to throw this out as an example.

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Say, for instance, you know, you feel that God wants you to learn Chinese. Okay, Lord,

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so what's the first step? Well, then He gives you the first step. Okay, well, then I'll try this,

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you know, and then I'll try this. And then once you have that first step, then when you're in

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that step, and you're actively doing that step, then you look at the possibilities of the next

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step to take. Okay, God, what's the next step to take, etc. And my point is, there is a variety

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of ways, endless possibilities of the way that God can accomplish what it is that He's called

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you to accomplish, like in learning Chinese or whatever. And only one of those includes moving

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to China. So He might call you to move to China. But my point is that we want to be careful and

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you're thinking, well, my goodness, how can I obey? How can I obey God? When my body is limiting

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me and keeping me from obeying God. God tells me to, to learn Chinese. So I want I need to move to

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China. But my body won't let me move to China. So my body is keeping me from being able to obey God

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rubbish, rubbish. So God can do all kinds of things God can do, like you could do something

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via zoom with China, you could do, and you could find God could introduce you to a Chinese friend

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where you are. And then you have someone that you can in real time, you know, talk and communicate

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with or maybe they'll introduce you to like a Chinese community. And instead of being a man,

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God will have you, I'm just making all this up, leave, call you, you'll feel that God is calling

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you from the refugee community to focus more on the Chinese community. But the refugee community,

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we had you there in order to learn all kinds of things that you can now apply when you approach

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when you enter and help the Chinese community, because some of those might be refugees as well.

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So it depends on their situation. But my point is, like, there's endless possibilities of what God

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could, and what God might call you into, and in order to accomplish his will, and in order

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to obey him. And it may not. And so sometimes what God do is your body might, for instance,

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okay, we'll forget even if it was just your body, because just some limitation that we run into

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finances, or sickness or whatever, limits us from being able to, to, to do this. And then so what

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that does is it forces us to then really stop and listen, okay, yeah, but what did God really say?

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Did God say to China? Or did he say to just learn Chinese? Or did he say something else? And it kind

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of like, gets you to stop and think, wait just a second, what direction is really pointing? And so

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instead of us seeing all of these things as like bad things, like, like, well, my, my limitations

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are hindering me from being able to obey God. See, that all sounds really bad. It sounds like

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this is not good. Instead of that, it's just like, no, God's like, yeah, but that's not the direction.

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So it's not that you're, it's not that, oh, you have this bad thing happen to you,

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meaning like your body is limiting you. And, and you can't move forward. Instead of that, he's just

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like, no, but that is, I didn't equip you to follow that path. I equipped you to follow this one.

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That's why this one's not working. Because he's like, my grace didn't pour out in your life in

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that direction, it poured out in this one. So we keep thinking something's wrong. Now it might be.

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So you have to ask the Lord, because sometimes, sure enough, he'll like, like, for instance,

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you say that, hey, sometimes you don't feel good. And, but you push past it, you go to work anyway.

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And then the spirit, the strength of the spirit comes on you, and you can accomplish all this

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stuff that could happen with this as well. Where you're just like, Lord, I don't know how on earth

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this could happen for me to be able to move to China next year. And you don't know what God's

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going to do when your body between now and then that enables you to go in the future. But now

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you can't see it because you don't see how God could actually accomplish it. But over the year,

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things might change. And then next year, you might, you know, your body is not a limit for

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you being able to go to China. So the thing is, we just have to just then follow the Lord and not

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villainize, not villainize things that aren't against us. In other words, that aren't like

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causing a problem and keeping us from being able to obey God, which is like, okay, it's the same

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thing that you're doing with your students. Instead of battling it, neutralize it, just like, hey,

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whatever. I'm not threatened by it. I'm not threatened by the limitations of my body.

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I'm not threatened by the limitation by my, by how creation is.

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responding, whether it's in my body, or it's these students, or whatever, I'm not

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threatened. When you're not threatened, then you can more clearly hear the

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Spirit and hear His direction. And His direction might be, hey, I'm gonna

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provide for you to go to China. And it might be with your body healing, it might

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be without your body healing, and God still makes the way even though your

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body's not any different. He still makes a way for you to go to China. You just

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never know. But the thing is that when we're all locked down, feeling

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threatened by our circumstances, our situation, we're so, we're so, we give

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such importance to the reality of this world, we have a hard time hearing what

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the Spirit's saying. So whenever I'm talking about, like, hearing what the

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Spirit's saying, and getting important, and focusing the Spirit, we can't do that

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while denying reality. Like, oh, I'm not sick, or I'm not as sick as I really, you know,

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have been thinking I am, or these students really aren't rebellious. I'm

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not saying that, denying reality. It's just that we don't say that it has the

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high, it's the higher power. We need to stop giving it such power. The more we're

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afraid of it, the more power we're giving it. Fear is actually giving it more power

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because we're afraid of it, we're threatened by it. So just these little, I

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say little, these choices that we're making inside will completely

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change our approach to things, they'll completely change the decisions we make,

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they'll completely change how we hear the Spirit, and then eventually they will

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also change our situation. Because either our situations will change, or if they

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refuse to change, either because they're in rebellion against coming in alignment

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with the Lord, or because that's not the Lord's will for you, either way, God

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can also be bringing you a different opportunity. And when we, and you

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know how we're always looking for opportunities, Lord, we want something

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really exciting, we want something new, we like things that come to us that we

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didn't have to seek out, those opportunities, those things come when we

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stop, we just release things to the Lord. The more that we release

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the Lord, the more we, the more his abundance comes to us. And some of that

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00:37:28.600 --> 00:37:33.320
abundance comes in the forms of things like opportunities, like other options

420
00:37:33.320 --> 00:37:39.560
that we can pick from that aren't available if we're just locked into, okay,

421
00:37:39.600 --> 00:37:42.640
this is what I want, and it's keeping me from getting what I want, it's keeping me

422
00:37:42.640 --> 00:37:47.200
from obeying God, and it's a problem, and I'm afraid of it, I've got to battle it,

423
00:37:47.200 --> 00:37:52.520
whatever. We block out even the ability, not only just our ability to see the

424
00:37:52.520 --> 00:37:57.400
opportunities when they come, we actually block the opportunities from even coming.

425
00:37:57.400 --> 00:38:04.160
It's because we're narrowing ourselves down to, okay, you remember in the

426
00:38:04.160 --> 00:38:09.720
rest intensive, I talked about the fact that the more that you focus, the more

427
00:38:09.720 --> 00:38:13.800
that you grab a hold of something because you don't want it to change, it

428
00:38:13.800 --> 00:38:18.080
stops the motion and it brings it to death. Do you remember me talking about that?

429
00:38:18.080 --> 00:38:22.600
And so if it's at the spirit, you need to let it go so it can move,

430
00:38:22.600 --> 00:38:28.200
because the spirit requires movement. So if we want something too bad, we

431
00:38:28.200 --> 00:38:33.080
lock down on it, and we're trying to control it, and so it actually kills it.

432
00:38:33.080 --> 00:38:37.920
So in order for things to happen in our life, in order for us to stop being stuck,

433
00:38:37.920 --> 00:38:42.800
in order for more things to happen to us, in order for more opportunities to come,

434
00:38:42.800 --> 00:38:48.600
etc., we have to be more hands-off, and I don't mean just like physically, I mean

435
00:38:48.600 --> 00:38:54.080
like we have to let go of things emotionally and let God just do things,

436
00:38:54.080 --> 00:38:59.280
allow things to move in our life, allow things to change. That kind of approach

437
00:38:59.920 --> 00:39:06.520
allows God to bring change through opportunity, you know, etc. So anyway, I

438
00:39:06.520 --> 00:39:11.120
felt like I talked a lot, I presented a lot of information. What are your thoughts?

439
00:39:11.120 --> 00:39:29.240
I'm hearing that I have really been fearing my body.

440
00:39:30.240 --> 00:39:38.440
And put that limitation kind of up, so every time I bring it to God, it's like,

441
00:39:38.440 --> 00:39:46.120
well, but my body can't do this, or like, I don't even know if I'm aware that

442
00:39:46.120 --> 00:39:52.760
that's what I've been doing, or I've been that aware of it, that I often use it not

443
00:39:52.760 --> 00:39:58.880
as an excuse, but as a reason why things wouldn't work, or why I couldn't do

444
00:39:58.880 --> 00:40:01.720
things, or...

445
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:09.200
Yeah. And also, you know, what we do subconsciously is we use it against ourselves. We, in other

446
00:40:09.200 --> 00:40:17.800
words, we use it as reason. I put that I've never thought of explaining it like that before.

447
00:40:17.800 --> 00:40:22.000
Not only do we use it as kind of like a reason to God of like, hey, God, yeah, but what about

448
00:40:22.000 --> 00:40:27.100
this? Yeah, but you know, it's like these, these, these hurdles that the Lord has to

449
00:40:27.100 --> 00:40:34.100
overcome for us to be able to, you know, obey him or understand what he's saying and

450
00:40:34.100 --> 00:40:38.700
have it reconciled and whatever. But also we'll use it against ourselves as if we're

451
00:40:38.700 --> 00:40:46.000
a problem. As if, as if our body being sick, as weird as this sounds, as if our body being

452
00:40:46.000 --> 00:40:53.500
sick is a problem. Meaning like, as if it makes, it's a part of us that's bad. It's

453
00:40:53.500 --> 00:40:58.500
a part of this that's broken. It's a part of us that's wrong. And we, and we, and we

454
00:40:58.500 --> 00:41:02.900
kind of hold it against ourselves. We, we, we condemn and we judge ourselves for being

455
00:41:02.900 --> 00:41:07.500
sick. And we're like, this is a problem, you know? And so this is the limitation and this

456
00:41:07.500 --> 00:41:13.900
is just bad. And then our body gets this sense that we're not, it means that we're not loving

457
00:41:13.900 --> 00:41:19.900
our body. And it means that we're holding this sickness against it in judgment and that

458
00:41:19.900 --> 00:41:24.700
kind of thing. So those are things that like, if we change that and we start loving our

459
00:41:24.700 --> 00:41:29.100
body and we're just like, okay, I understand that you're sick. I'm very sorry that you're

460
00:41:29.100 --> 00:41:33.700
sick. I'm very sorry that you feel this way, you know, whatever, but, but, but I love you

461
00:41:33.700 --> 00:41:37.800
and I'm here for you instead of like fighting the sickness and like, or fighting ourselves

462
00:41:37.800 --> 00:41:43.000
like I shouldn't be like, or, or feeling bad about ourselves as if we feel ashamed or ashamed

463
00:41:43.000 --> 00:41:44.000
of being sick.

464
00:41:44.000 --> 00:41:51.000
It could be before I got sick or like, oh, if I was 20 years ago, all the things I could

465
00:41:51.000 --> 00:41:55.800
have done, or like, you're kind of like, it's kind of like a fantasy, not like a fantasy,

466
00:41:55.800 --> 00:42:02.000
but like a wish thinking or you, and that's also against your body right now. You're like,

467
00:42:02.000 --> 00:42:08.400
if you only were the way you were 20 years ago, you were only different. Yes. And if

468
00:42:08.400 --> 00:42:12.600
this didn't happen to you, all the things I could have done, then I would have, my life

469
00:42:12.600 --> 00:42:18.400
would have been better if there wasn't something wrong with you the last 20 years. And if only

470
00:42:18.400 --> 00:42:24.800
you were different, I'd be better. Yeah. It's like, I'd be different. I'd be better off

471
00:42:24.800 --> 00:42:29.800
without you. I'd be better off without you. I'd be better if you were different. If you

472
00:42:29.800 --> 00:42:33.000
were different, things would be easier for me. Things would be whatever.

473
00:42:33.000 --> 00:42:37.800
Then I could have done what I wanted to do. Then I could have done the things that I believe

474
00:42:38.000 --> 00:42:42.600
God wants me to do. Like, so it's in many levels, what I want to do, what my calling

475
00:42:42.600 --> 00:42:50.400
to be then. So it's actually, maybe I'm even mad at the body for what happened these years.

476
00:42:50.400 --> 00:42:55.000
It's like seeing that as an enemy, that's always against you and keeping you from obeying

477
00:42:55.000 --> 00:43:00.000
God and keeping you from doing what you want to do or whatever. It's the third tool. It's

478
00:43:00.000 --> 00:43:04.000
what I think of when I think of the third tool in the rest intensive, you know, in shifting

479
00:43:04.200 --> 00:43:09.400
to rest. I like no judgment. Remember how we look at how I say that, you know, we have

480
00:43:09.400 --> 00:43:13.200
a tendency to look at something. We think it shouldn't be like this and it should be

481
00:43:13.200 --> 00:43:19.800
different. You know, it's that approach to our body. Like the way it being what it is

482
00:43:19.800 --> 00:43:25.400
in the condition that it is, is not enough. It has to be different. And that's judgment.

483
00:43:25.400 --> 00:43:30.400
And we have to release judgment in order for it to change. Because when we bring judgment,

484
00:43:30.400 --> 00:43:35.600
we bring nothing but condemnation and death and we have to release judgment.

485
00:43:35.600 --> 00:43:41.400
I do this every day at work, the 50% where I can't do what I'm supposed to do. There's

486
00:43:41.400 --> 00:43:48.000
some kind of like, oh, if only my mind worked like it used to do, or if only I could learn

487
00:43:48.000 --> 00:43:53.200
this, if only I could research this that I need to give to the students like I used to

488
00:43:53.200 --> 00:43:59.200
research, but my mind can't do it and my body can't do it. So it's like 50% of the time

489
00:43:59.200 --> 00:44:05.600
I sit at work halfway condemning myself and trying to do it. Like I know what I need to

490
00:44:05.600 --> 00:44:10.400
do as a teacher. I just can't. And then you're kind of upset with yourself and then you try

491
00:44:10.400 --> 00:44:15.800
and then it doesn't work and sometimes it works. But then you're kind of like, why can't

492
00:44:15.800 --> 00:44:21.400
you do what you're supposed to do? And especially since it's a very specific job, you know what

493
00:44:21.400 --> 00:44:26.600
you're supposed to do and you can't do it. So you meet the frustration every single day

494
00:44:26.600 --> 00:44:32.600
at work. And as a student, I meet this. So it's like, I don't even know if I, when I

495
00:44:32.600 --> 00:44:40.600
was in the refugee department, it wasn't like that. Or when I worked at the culture house,

496
00:44:40.600 --> 00:44:46.200
well, I was still feeling like many times I was led by the spirit, but I in the natural

497
00:44:46.200 --> 00:44:53.400
was more able to do what was required of me. But now the teaching job is harder in some

498
00:44:53.400 --> 00:45:00.000
ways or I've gotten worse. I don't know. And maybe both, but.

499
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:06.000
now my mind and my body is not able to do what the job requires me to do.

500
00:45:06.000 --> 00:45:11.000
So it's like a constant frustration every day at work and school.

501
00:45:11.000 --> 00:45:13.000
Yeah, I'm sorry.

502
00:45:13.000 --> 00:45:17.000
I wasn't even aware that I am condemning it so much.

503
00:45:17.000 --> 00:45:20.000
But I think about this at work every day.

504
00:45:20.000 --> 00:45:26.000
I'm frustrated with my mind and my body not working like it should be.

505
00:45:26.000 --> 00:45:29.000
Like you said, it should be different.

506
00:45:29.000 --> 00:45:32.000
It could have been different, if only.

507
00:45:32.000 --> 00:45:36.000
And then also it becomes like a fight.

508
00:45:36.000 --> 00:45:39.000
What can I do to make it better?

509
00:45:39.000 --> 00:45:46.000
Does it mean that I need to cut back on work, work harder, change jobs?

510
00:45:46.000 --> 00:45:50.000
So it becomes like a sick leave for a while just to rest.

511
00:45:50.000 --> 00:45:56.000
Then you come up with all kinds of your own ideas.

512
00:45:56.000 --> 00:46:01.000
Not by the spirit, but your own kind of like the knowledge of good and evil.

513
00:46:01.000 --> 00:46:07.000
What do you know about the world that can help you to be in a different place?

514
00:46:07.000 --> 00:46:08.000
Yeah.

515
00:46:08.000 --> 00:46:10.000
But it's not depending on God.

516
00:46:10.000 --> 00:46:12.000
It's not like trusting God.

517
00:46:12.000 --> 00:46:19.000
It's like your own method of how can I make my body better or my mind better.

518
00:46:19.000 --> 00:46:20.000
Striving.

519
00:46:20.000 --> 00:46:22.000
Yeah, that striving.

520
00:46:22.000 --> 00:46:23.000
Exactly.

521
00:46:24.000 --> 00:46:28.000
Or what are some solutions that I can come up with?

522
00:46:28.000 --> 00:46:30.000
And it's not that God can't use those,

523
00:46:30.000 --> 00:46:34.000
but the thing is that those need to be part of a conversation with the Lord about,

524
00:46:34.000 --> 00:46:40.000
okay, Lord, which method do you and I want to allow to participate with us

525
00:46:40.000 --> 00:46:44.000
in solving this problem or whatever?

526
00:46:44.000 --> 00:46:48.000
But as opposed to the method being what solves the problem,

527
00:46:48.000 --> 00:46:50.000
because that's leaving God out of it.

528
00:46:50.000 --> 00:46:52.000
And that's the tree of the knowledge of good and evil,

529
00:46:52.000 --> 00:46:54.000
as opposed to the fact that God's like, no,

530
00:46:54.000 --> 00:46:56.000
I created all these processes to work like that,

531
00:46:56.000 --> 00:47:00.000
but you need to rely on me to be the one to heal you.

532
00:47:00.000 --> 00:47:02.000
And which method, through which method,

533
00:47:02.000 --> 00:47:06.000
or which method are we going to allow to participate in the process with us,

534
00:47:06.000 --> 00:47:08.000
you know, in this time and whatever.

535
00:47:08.000 --> 00:47:10.000
But yeah.

536
00:47:10.000 --> 00:47:14.000
So we can kind of view our body as the enemy or whatever.

537
00:47:14.000 --> 00:47:19.000
Remember, it's the same idea as what we were talking about with losing weight.

538
00:47:20.000 --> 00:47:22.000
That this is the same thing.

539
00:47:22.000 --> 00:47:28.000
It's your body doing something different than the whole losing weight thing.

540
00:47:28.000 --> 00:47:31.000
It's your body not having enough energy.

541
00:47:31.000 --> 00:47:35.000
But either way, the object is still your body.

542
00:47:35.000 --> 00:47:38.000
And it's still, you're not enough for me.

543
00:47:38.000 --> 00:47:42.000
You know, if only you were different.

544
00:47:42.000 --> 00:47:44.000
I can't accept you the way that you are.

545
00:47:44.000 --> 00:47:46.000
I'm always trying to fix you,

546
00:47:46.000 --> 00:47:53.000
as opposed to just loving your body as it is without requiring it to change.

547
00:47:53.000 --> 00:47:56.000
Then it is not that it won't change.

548
00:47:56.000 --> 00:48:00.000
And it's not that you won't even urge it to change later.

549
00:48:00.000 --> 00:48:07.000
It's that you just fully love and accept it without emotionally requiring it to change.

550
00:48:07.000 --> 00:48:09.000
Emotionally give up it ever changing.

551
00:48:09.000 --> 00:48:11.000
And just release it ever changing.

552
00:48:12.000 --> 00:48:15.000
And then love and accept it exactly as it is.

553
00:48:15.000 --> 00:48:21.000
And then you can then urge it from a place of it being fully accepted.

554
00:48:21.000 --> 00:48:23.000
Hey, step into more freedom.

555
00:48:23.000 --> 00:48:25.000
Hey body, I want you to step into more freedom.

556
00:48:25.000 --> 00:48:27.000
I want something more for you.

557
00:48:27.000 --> 00:48:29.000
I want you to have more energy.

558
00:48:29.000 --> 00:48:30.000
I want you to have more excitement.

559
00:48:30.000 --> 00:48:31.000
I want you to have more joy.

560
00:48:31.000 --> 00:48:36.000
I want you to have a greater experience here on earth than what you've been limiting yourself to.

561
00:48:36.000 --> 00:48:42.000
So it's an urging out of excitement forward looking into abundance,

562
00:48:42.000 --> 00:48:45.000
as opposed to looking at its lack and saying,

563
00:48:45.000 --> 00:48:47.000
Hey, stop being like this.

564
00:48:47.000 --> 00:48:50.000
It's more like, hey, don't you want more?

565
00:48:50.000 --> 00:48:51.000
It's like a drawing to you.

566
00:48:51.000 --> 00:48:54.000
It's like a desiring as opposed to a chain,

567
00:48:54.000 --> 00:48:57.000
as opposed to trying to get it to change from,

568
00:48:57.000 --> 00:48:59.000
Hey, look where you are is bad.

569
00:48:59.000 --> 00:49:01.000
Cut it out.

570
00:49:01.000 --> 00:49:04.000
Well, you know, nobody, nobody responds really well to that.

571
00:49:04.000 --> 00:49:06.000
So it's not that we don't urge it to change,

572
00:49:06.000 --> 00:49:11.000
but only after we can fully accept it and love it,

573
00:49:11.000 --> 00:49:13.000
regardless of it changing.

574
00:49:13.000 --> 00:49:14.000
In other words,

575
00:49:14.000 --> 00:49:22.000
fully love and accept the very essence of its being the being that's making those decisions to have low energy,

576
00:49:22.000 --> 00:49:24.000
to be sick,

577
00:49:24.000 --> 00:49:26.000
to have weight on you that,

578
00:49:26.000 --> 00:49:27.000
you know,

579
00:49:27.000 --> 00:49:28.000
you don't want or whatever,

580
00:49:28.000 --> 00:49:29.000
whatever the body,

581
00:49:29.000 --> 00:49:36.000
it's you accepting the being the entity that even though it's making these decisions,

582
00:49:36.000 --> 00:49:38.000
it's making those decisions out of fear.

583
00:49:38.000 --> 00:49:41.000
It's making those decisions because it's afraid,

584
00:49:41.000 --> 00:49:42.000
because it's alone,

585
00:49:42.000 --> 00:49:47.000
because it's just trying to survive the best way it knows how.

586
00:49:47.000 --> 00:49:49.000
It's just trying to do the right thing,

587
00:49:49.000 --> 00:49:52.000
but it's believing a lie.

588
00:49:52.000 --> 00:49:54.000
It loses abandonment alone,

589
00:49:54.000 --> 00:49:56.000
because it believes it's abandoned alone.

590
00:49:56.000 --> 00:49:59.000
These are the best decisions that can come up with.

591
00:49:59.000 --> 00:50:00.000
Right.

592
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.400
You love the entity that's making these bad decisions.

593
00:50:05.400 --> 00:50:08.200
You don't have to love the bad decisions that it's making.

594
00:50:08.200 --> 00:50:14.280
How it's choosing to like have low energy or be susceptible to sickness or have weight

595
00:50:14.280 --> 00:50:17.320
on it and hold weight, not let it go and all of that.

596
00:50:17.320 --> 00:50:22.200
You're not letting its decisions, you're not agreeing with it, but you're letting the entity

597
00:50:22.200 --> 00:50:24.680
that is making this decision.

598
00:50:24.680 --> 00:50:26.480
It's making them out of fear.

599
00:50:26.480 --> 00:50:28.840
It's making them because it doesn't think it has a choice.

600
00:50:28.840 --> 00:50:34.840
It's just trying to do the best thing, do the best with what it thinks it has.

601
00:50:34.840 --> 00:50:36.440
And it's trying to protect you.

602
00:50:36.440 --> 00:50:43.960
It is following all the protocols that were put into place for the body to try to survive.

603
00:50:43.960 --> 00:50:48.360
And so anyway, so I just wanted to connect it with what we've talked about losing weight

604
00:50:48.360 --> 00:50:50.960
before, only this is about sickness.

605
00:50:50.960 --> 00:50:53.560
Regardless, the entity is the same.

606
00:50:53.560 --> 00:50:57.760
The entity is the body and that's thinking it's the enemy and it's just fighting it all

607
00:50:57.760 --> 00:50:58.760
the time.

608
00:50:58.760 --> 00:51:03.400
So even with a sickness, we have to just kind of like stop fighting it.

609
00:51:03.400 --> 00:51:10.040
And I have my own sickness that I'm dealing with and I have my own frustration that I'm

610
00:51:10.040 --> 00:51:13.640
dealing with, with work.

611
00:51:13.640 --> 00:51:18.880
So I just started the new job and which I'm really loving, but I'm getting very frustrated

612
00:51:18.880 --> 00:51:25.000
with myself for this, for sounds like some similar reasons that you are of like, why

613
00:51:25.000 --> 00:51:26.280
can't I get this?

614
00:51:26.280 --> 00:51:28.600
Why is my brain not computing fast enough?

615
00:51:28.600 --> 00:51:30.640
It used to compute faster than this.

616
00:51:30.640 --> 00:51:31.640
This is what I'm good at.

617
00:51:31.640 --> 00:51:32.640
This is whatever.

618
00:51:32.640 --> 00:51:34.120
And I'm like, why can't I do it?

619
00:51:34.120 --> 00:51:35.800
I used to be able to.

620
00:51:35.800 --> 00:51:41.280
And I caught myself doing that this morning, even as I actually, you have to let that go.

621
00:51:41.280 --> 00:51:47.800
You know what that feels like when you start tightening down on something, getting frustrated.

622
00:51:47.800 --> 00:51:53.400
You've got to stop that because you're not going to go anywhere working harder to try

623
00:51:53.400 --> 00:51:54.560
to knock it out.

624
00:51:54.560 --> 00:52:01.560
In order for it to, in order for you to have to have peace and be at rest and for things

625
00:52:01.560 --> 00:52:07.280
to change and for you to grow and for your mind to strengthen, you have to let go and

626
00:52:07.280 --> 00:52:13.080
you have to just accept yourself where you are and to stop fighting the fact and be frustrated

627
00:52:13.080 --> 00:52:17.840
with yourself because you're not doing it like you used to.

628
00:52:17.840 --> 00:52:25.200
Just relax and then the muscles of your brain through experience will begin to get stronger

629
00:52:25.200 --> 00:52:28.280
again and you'll begin to gather it again.

630
00:52:28.280 --> 00:52:33.320
And if you can't, I told myself, well, that's fine because it means I'm just in a different

631
00:52:33.320 --> 00:52:35.440
season now than I used to be.

632
00:52:35.440 --> 00:52:37.920
It means I can no longer do what I used to do.

633
00:52:37.920 --> 00:52:38.920
Why?

634
00:52:38.920 --> 00:52:41.360
Because this is a different season than that was.

635
00:52:41.360 --> 00:52:47.320
And so I realized that whatever is the case, whether I just get stronger in my mind to

636
00:52:47.320 --> 00:52:51.800
be able to hold logic and to follow logical patterns in the way that I used to because

637
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:57.400
of the type of work that I do, certain logic, a lot, my brain has to work in certain logical

638
00:52:57.400 --> 00:52:58.400
patterns.

639
00:52:58.400 --> 00:53:07.960
So if, um, so even if that doesn't, so either I strengthen in that or I don't, I have to

640
00:53:07.960 --> 00:53:09.960
accept either situation.

641
00:53:09.960 --> 00:53:12.280
I just realized, no, this is, this is it.

642
00:53:12.280 --> 00:53:15.080
This is what I have right now and it's okay.

643
00:53:15.080 --> 00:53:17.160
You know, the Lord wants good for me.

644
00:53:18.000 --> 00:53:19.000
I want good for me.

645
00:53:19.000 --> 00:53:23.280
And it's only if I let it go and stop holding it against God and stop holding it against

646
00:53:23.280 --> 00:53:28.640
myself that things have the opportunity to change, but they do not have the opportunity

647
00:53:28.640 --> 00:53:29.920
to change.

648
00:53:29.920 --> 00:53:36.400
If I locked down and I fight it, except if I simply push harder and I strive and I don't

649
00:53:36.400 --> 00:53:37.400
want to live like that anymore.

650
00:53:37.400 --> 00:53:41.960
So I'm like, I'm not interested in changing myself.

651
00:53:41.960 --> 00:53:45.360
If the sacrifices, I have to strive for it.

652
00:53:45.360 --> 00:53:49.800
I either want it to stay the way that it is and get peace with the Lord, or I want

653
00:53:49.800 --> 00:53:53.920
it to change while I'm at rest, but either way, I want to live my life at rest.

654
00:53:53.920 --> 00:53:55.560
This is the lifestyle that I want.

655
00:53:55.560 --> 00:53:59.720
I've chosen God and living in a particular way with him as opposed to getting specific

656
00:53:59.720 --> 00:54:00.720
outcomes.

657
00:54:00.720 --> 00:54:04.960
So I'm like, Hey, the only way that I'm willing to do what I, um, to get a different outcome

658
00:54:04.960 --> 00:54:07.880
is this is if I can do it and rest.

659
00:54:07.880 --> 00:54:12.520
So anyway, I just wanted to give you that encouragement that I understand I'm going

660
00:54:12.520 --> 00:54:13.520
through that as well.

661
00:54:13.520 --> 00:54:17.480
And I'm having to make that choice right now that happened just this morning and it's been

662
00:54:17.480 --> 00:54:21.840
happening for a while, but it happened again just this morning, just a few hours ago.

663
00:54:21.840 --> 00:54:25.080
So I understand all this is fresh for me too.

664
00:54:25.080 --> 00:54:27.720
And I'm having to continually make this choice.

665
00:54:27.720 --> 00:54:31.480
And when I get frustrated, like Ashley, you've got to let go.

666
00:54:31.480 --> 00:54:36.200
And so, um, so anyway, if it gives you any encouragement, I understand, you know, in

667
00:54:36.200 --> 00:54:41.640
my, in my own situation, what that's like, and then that's what I'm having to do is like,

668
00:54:41.760 --> 00:54:42.760
Okay, just let go.

669
00:54:42.760 --> 00:54:46.200
Just choose your relationship with the Lord and what he's showing you about living a life

670
00:54:46.200 --> 00:54:53.120
of peace and rest and allowing, and allowing your life giving spirit of your new man to

671
00:54:53.120 --> 00:54:58.360
change your mind, meaning like, you know, the brain pathways and all that to change

672
00:54:58.360 --> 00:55:00.000
your body, to change your.

673
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:07.600
emotions to change your beliefs, as opposed to striving through it. So anyway, that's an

674
00:55:07.600 --> 00:55:15.600
encouragement. That's very encouraging. So, and then the same thing with the same thing with the

675
00:55:16.240 --> 00:55:22.240
sickness. I, I have to fight not getting discouraged with my skin, my skin has just

676
00:55:22.240 --> 00:55:26.880
been, you know, I'm having those issues now for the past like almost two years, where I'll break

677
00:55:26.880 --> 00:55:31.840
out in the hives. And I don't know why. And the hives don't aren't just like, oh, itchy. No,

678
00:55:31.840 --> 00:55:40.640
they burn. It's like fire and needles. And oh, it's terrible, awful. And sometimes we don't

679
00:55:40.640 --> 00:55:45.440
know what the trigger is, or the triggers will be very normal things that you run into in everyday

680
00:55:45.440 --> 00:55:50.480
life. You can't keep away from all of them. You can't keep yourself in a bubble, you know,

681
00:55:50.480 --> 00:55:58.080
and as weird as it sounds, it's very debilitating. Just debilitating. It means

682
00:55:59.920 --> 00:56:06.480
Yeah, it means you have a hard time functioning. And it's weird as that sounds, because it's not

683
00:56:06.480 --> 00:56:12.800
like cancer or something, but it just wears you down over time, where it's just like water on a

684
00:56:12.800 --> 00:56:18.240
rock. And it just eventually just drives you crazy because it won't stop. That's why it feels

685
00:56:18.240 --> 00:56:23.680
debilitating. And then you're in such pain that it wears you down. And so you have to take like

686
00:56:23.680 --> 00:56:30.000
ibuprofen or whatever, because your body is just burning. So it's a the thing is that I had that

687
00:56:30.000 --> 00:56:37.760
when my body is, is seems it is like screaming for attention. And it sounds like seeing you're

688
00:56:37.760 --> 00:56:43.360
not healed. God's not changing. You've been like this for two years, and the doctor can't figure

689
00:56:43.920 --> 00:56:49.120
out, you know, you can you can just really, really, it can start messing with you and start

690
00:56:49.120 --> 00:56:54.080
you can start believing lies, lies about the Lord, you can start getting onto your body. Why are you

691
00:56:54.080 --> 00:56:59.680
like this? Why are you reacting? Why won't you just calm down? Or, you know, hey, look, I put

692
00:56:59.680 --> 00:57:08.880
cream on you. Okay, you know, and there's this subconscious, like, making an enemy of yourself.

693
00:57:09.680 --> 00:57:16.800
And, and so and that's not good. It's very hard, because when your body is screaming in pain,

694
00:57:16.800 --> 00:57:22.320
it's screaming for attention. And so we have a tendency for that to just be the loudest thing

695
00:57:22.320 --> 00:57:27.840
in our life. And that's focusing on that instead of the Lord. And so we have to make very intentional

696
00:57:27.840 --> 00:57:33.680
decisions. Now, what do I choose is more important to me? What do I choose is of higher value,

697
00:57:33.680 --> 00:57:39.440
higher priority, higher importance? What am I going to be defined by? What is my what are my

698
00:57:39.440 --> 00:57:44.400
actions going to be defined by today? Are they going to be defined by my body screaming? Or are

699
00:57:44.400 --> 00:57:50.400
they going to be defined by the truth of what God says, because God says that he and his truth

700
00:57:50.400 --> 00:57:57.440
has a power that can supersede the power that my body is trying to claim that it has. And so which

701
00:57:57.440 --> 00:58:02.880
one am I going to choose is more important to me, the power of God with the power of this body.

702
00:58:03.840 --> 00:58:08.800
Even while even though my body me choosing God and his power might not change how my body feels,

703
00:58:09.360 --> 00:58:15.760
which decision am I going to make, which how, you know, what am I going to determine is the

704
00:58:15.760 --> 00:58:23.840
most important and valuable thing to me in my life. And so anyway, just, you know, just, again,

705
00:58:23.840 --> 00:58:28.880
to give you an encouragement that even in even my own life, which are very different situations than

706
00:58:29.760 --> 00:58:34.400
they get, like, they don't feel it's extreme, you know, it's your situation,

707
00:58:34.960 --> 00:58:43.120
they are still causing me to have the same, the same questions, you know, between me and the Lord,

708
00:58:43.120 --> 00:58:47.520
you know, the same, the same and be forced to make the same decisions that I was like,

709
00:58:47.520 --> 00:58:52.560
encouraging you to have, like, okay, which is more important? Which am I going to choose?

710
00:58:52.560 --> 00:58:57.760
And to realize, okay, the more that I locked down and fight against this thing, the less likely it

711
00:58:57.760 --> 00:59:03.360
will change. So if I want this to change, I need to start loosening, I need to start letting go.

712
00:59:04.640 --> 00:59:10.480
And but you're having to do it in the face of struggle, in the face of being frustrated,

713
00:59:10.480 --> 00:59:15.440
because your mind won't work. So you're stressed, because so therefore, you can't get work done,

714
00:59:15.440 --> 00:59:19.520
or you can't get it done as fast. And you think it's something was if it was different,

715
00:59:19.520 --> 00:59:24.640
if it was like how I used to be, I'd be able to do it now. And having to let all of that go

716
00:59:25.520 --> 00:59:33.520
and choose yourself over getting your work done. Meaning, choose rest in peace, instead of I've got

717
00:59:33.520 --> 00:59:36.960
it, I've got this agenda, I have to execute this agenda, because remember what that is,

718
00:59:36.960 --> 00:59:43.040
that's choosing an outcome and trying to control it. And using all of our power to try to control

719
00:59:43.040 --> 00:59:49.360
how something's an outcome. And God says, No, like the outcomes in me, I'm choosing, I'm making you

720
00:59:49.360 --> 00:59:56.960
and holding you accountable, or and responsible to accountable to me, and responsible for

721
00:59:57.920 --> 00:59:59.920
believing that you are who I say that you

722
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:07.400
want and relying completely on you and resting in complete peace and loving yourself and

723
01:00:07.400 --> 01:00:12.240
choosing that you're as valuable as I've declared you to be and choosing the freedom that I've

724
01:00:12.240 --> 01:00:19.560
paid for by my blood for you to have that and then let me take care of your work.

725
01:00:19.560 --> 01:00:26.320
Let me take care of your, of, of working with your brain so that your, so that the, the,

726
01:00:26.320 --> 01:00:30.960
you know, you won't have as much brain fog or working with your body so that you will

727
01:00:30.960 --> 01:00:35.720
now have the energy to execute this or you might send angels to help you execute it.

728
01:00:35.720 --> 01:00:42.560
I know people, two people who've told me that that happened before where they sit down and

729
01:00:42.560 --> 01:00:46.760
they sit down to do work and like that, they told the Lord, Lord, I have so much work to

730
01:00:46.760 --> 01:00:47.760
do there.

731
01:00:47.760 --> 01:00:49.280
There were like piles of papers on their desk.

732
01:00:49.280 --> 01:00:54.320
Again, these were two different people who told me the, who are the story from and, and

733
01:00:54.320 --> 01:00:59.640
they said that the Lord, the Lord sent angels to do all their work for them.

734
01:00:59.640 --> 01:01:03.920
And I don't remember all the logistics of like, if they, if they fell asleep, if they

735
01:01:03.920 --> 01:01:07.160
had just gotten to work and then they fell asleep and as soon as they woke up, all their

736
01:01:07.160 --> 01:01:11.280
work was done and all the papers were moved and everything was perfect or exactly how

737
01:01:11.280 --> 01:01:12.280
that worked out.

738
01:01:12.280 --> 01:01:16.520
But like the little kids and angels to fix it for you, or, you know, he could just have

739
01:01:16.520 --> 01:01:21.720
time very, very slowly and you end up getting all of your work done and you're like, how

740
01:01:21.720 --> 01:01:23.800
on earth did I do that so quickly?

741
01:01:23.800 --> 01:01:26.440
Cause I didn't feel like I was moving fast.

742
01:01:26.440 --> 01:01:31.080
The Lord can slow down time or he can, I mean, the Lord does a variety of things or he just

743
01:01:31.080 --> 01:01:35.680
gives you the energy and you bust through it and you're going, how on earth should I

744
01:01:35.680 --> 01:01:36.680
do that?

745
01:01:36.680 --> 01:01:37.680
That fast?

746
01:01:37.680 --> 01:01:40.720
I didn't think I had the energy for that, but the Lord gave it to me anyway.

747
01:01:40.720 --> 01:01:44.560
He can accomplish it in a variety of ways, but whatever it is, he said, I want you to

748
01:01:44.560 --> 01:01:51.640
choose me instead of accomplishing something juice and then let me help you do it.

749
01:01:51.640 --> 01:01:54.480
Does that make sense?

750
01:01:54.480 --> 01:01:55.840
Hmm.

751
01:01:55.840 --> 01:01:57.200
It does.

752
01:01:57.200 --> 01:02:06.180
I don't think I was even aware that I do this all the time that I'm choosing, uh, my sickness

753
01:02:06.180 --> 01:02:13.800
over or like I condemned my body and that I choose sickness over God kind of like beat

754
01:02:13.800 --> 01:02:15.240
it down, condemn it.

755
01:02:15.240 --> 01:02:16.240
Yeah.

756
01:02:16.240 --> 01:02:21.560
I get frustrated holding it against yourself and like, Oh my gosh, you've got this limitation.

757
01:02:22.480 --> 01:02:23.480
You've got this problem.

758
01:02:23.480 --> 01:02:28.800
Instead of just allowing yourself, I know this is going to sound weird, but allow yourself

759
01:02:28.800 --> 01:02:30.360
to be sick.

760
01:02:30.360 --> 01:02:31.360
Just allow it.

761
01:02:31.360 --> 01:02:32.360
Okay.

762
01:02:32.360 --> 01:02:34.160
You can be in this space and you can just be sick.

763
01:02:34.160 --> 01:02:38.920
This is just the way that it is you because all you're doing is you're releasing, you're,

764
01:02:38.920 --> 01:02:40.080
you're letting go of judgment.

765
01:02:40.080 --> 01:02:43.160
You're saying you're, you're stopping saying it shouldn't be like this.

766
01:02:43.160 --> 01:02:44.160
You're like a no.

767
01:02:44.160 --> 01:02:45.160
Okay.

768
01:02:45.160 --> 01:02:46.160
It is this way.

769
01:02:46.160 --> 01:02:47.960
Remember, you're not giving into it.

770
01:02:47.960 --> 01:02:50.000
You're not saying it's okay to be this way.

771
01:02:50.000 --> 01:02:53.720
You're not giving it permission and you're not giving up like, Oh, it's never going to

772
01:02:53.720 --> 01:02:54.720
change.

773
01:02:54.720 --> 01:02:55.720
That's not what you're doing.

774
01:02:55.720 --> 01:03:00.560
You're simply allowing it to exist as it is instead of saying it shouldn't be like this

775
01:03:00.560 --> 01:03:01.960
and it should be different.

776
01:03:01.960 --> 01:03:03.400
You're just accepting it.

777
01:03:03.400 --> 01:03:07.960
Meaning like you're allowing it to be in your presence the way that it is.

778
01:03:07.960 --> 01:03:11.720
It doesn't mean you're accepting it like you're giving it permission to stay that way.

779
01:03:11.720 --> 01:03:13.400
You are accepting it.

780
01:03:13.400 --> 01:03:17.960
You are accepting it into your presence without requiring it to change.

781
01:03:17.960 --> 01:03:19.960
You're just allowing it to be right there.

782
01:03:19.960 --> 01:03:20.960
It's sick right now.

783
01:03:20.960 --> 01:03:21.960
Okay.

784
01:03:21.960 --> 01:03:22.960
You're just letting it be sick.

785
01:03:22.960 --> 01:03:23.960
It's the way that it is.

786
01:03:23.960 --> 01:03:24.960
Okay.

787
01:03:24.960 --> 01:03:25.960
It there.

788
01:03:25.960 --> 01:03:32.920
You're, that will stop you fighting your body so much, but then your body can start to change

789
01:03:32.920 --> 01:03:38.400
since it's affecting my life so much.

790
01:03:38.400 --> 01:03:41.080
That's why I think it comes up so often.

791
01:03:41.080 --> 01:03:45.600
Will I get to a point where you don't have to do it every time because it's there every

792
01:03:45.600 --> 01:03:51.520
day at work and it's there every time I try to do things at home that I can't do or physical

793
01:03:51.520 --> 01:03:57.280
labor or it's there when I want to go in the lead worship with people, but I don't have

794
01:03:57.280 --> 01:03:58.280
it.

795
01:03:58.280 --> 01:04:02.760
It's like all the time everywhere or when I can't sleep at night.

796
01:04:02.760 --> 01:04:09.200
So it's, it's, it's there very often, but does it get, do you have to take this choice

797
01:04:09.200 --> 01:04:12.480
every like 10 times a day, all the time?

798
01:04:12.480 --> 01:04:15.280
Or does it get.

799
01:04:15.280 --> 01:04:18.560
Think about how much more in rest that you are now than you used to be.

800
01:04:18.560 --> 01:04:20.000
And you don't even think about it.

801
01:04:20.000 --> 01:04:22.960
Think of things that don't trigger you anymore.

802
01:04:22.960 --> 01:04:26.800
They still happen, but they don't trigger you things that, that, that used to think

803
01:04:26.800 --> 01:04:27.800
about all the time.

804
01:04:27.800 --> 01:04:29.360
You just don't think about it anymore.

805
01:04:29.360 --> 01:04:33.440
It's because you used to be so aware of them, hypervigilant, watching them, fighting them

806
01:04:33.440 --> 01:04:34.440
all of the time.

807
01:04:34.440 --> 01:04:35.760
And now they don't bother you.

808
01:04:35.760 --> 01:04:38.360
Now you're like, whatever, I'm not threatened by them.

809
01:04:38.360 --> 01:04:40.760
It'll be the same thing with your body.

810
01:04:40.760 --> 01:04:43.800
What you're doing is in the beginning, you have to make a very intentional choice in

811
01:04:43.800 --> 01:04:46.720
a decision of like, no, I'm writing a new record.

812
01:04:46.720 --> 01:04:48.160
This is who I believe God is.

813
01:04:48.160 --> 01:04:50.920
This is who I believe that he says that I am.

814
01:04:50.920 --> 01:04:56.200
And I am fully loving and accepting my body in the, in the perfected form that God says

815
01:04:56.200 --> 01:04:57.440
that he created.

816
01:04:57.440 --> 01:04:58.720
He said, it's perfectly fine.

817
01:04:58.720 --> 01:05:00.000
He doesn't mean that it's making.

818
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.560
good decisions right now, but your body's a good body.

819
01:05:03.560 --> 01:05:06.320
God wants you to change your body into a spirit body,

820
01:05:06.320 --> 01:05:07.720
not get rid of it.

821
01:05:07.720 --> 01:05:09.720
Jesus's body changed into a spirit body.

822
01:05:09.720 --> 01:05:11.200
You're going to keep your body,

823
01:05:11.200 --> 01:05:12.360
but it's going to become spirit.

824
01:05:12.360 --> 01:05:13.920
It's going to be whole, you know, whatever.

825
01:05:13.920 --> 01:05:15.040
There's nothing wrong with your body.

826
01:05:15.040 --> 01:05:17.320
It's not going to go into the ground and never come out.

827
01:05:17.320 --> 01:05:18.280
It's going to go into the ground

828
01:05:18.280 --> 01:05:20.200
and God's going to raise it back up again.

829
01:05:20.200 --> 01:05:21.420
You're going to be with it forever.

830
01:05:21.420 --> 01:05:23.120
There's nothing wrong with it, right?

831
01:05:23.120 --> 01:05:27.600
It's just acting out fleshly, the fleshly wages of sin.

832
01:05:27.640 --> 01:05:31.280
I mean, sorry, the wages of sin, which are death, you know?

833
01:05:31.280 --> 01:05:33.080
And that's all that, that's what it's doing.

834
01:05:33.080 --> 01:05:35.400
There's nothing wrong with it

835
01:05:35.400 --> 01:05:37.400
and something that God created.

836
01:05:37.400 --> 01:05:39.240
So you're loving that thing.

837
01:05:39.240 --> 01:05:41.360
And that's what you're choosing to do very intentionally.

838
01:05:41.360 --> 01:05:43.240
You're like, this is a good thing.

839
01:05:43.240 --> 01:05:44.880
My body's a good thing.

840
01:05:44.880 --> 01:05:46.440
Now I'm going to keep this thing

841
01:05:46.440 --> 01:05:48.240
and keep it for eternity.

842
01:05:48.240 --> 01:05:49.320
It's great.

843
01:05:49.320 --> 01:05:51.720
Nothing wrong with it, you know?

844
01:05:51.720 --> 01:05:54.400
But aren't we going to get a new body?

845
01:05:54.400 --> 01:05:57.640
Well, yeah, it's flesh transferring to spirit.

846
01:05:57.640 --> 01:05:58.640
That's the new body.

847
01:05:59.760 --> 01:06:02.360
So what does that mean?

848
01:06:02.360 --> 01:06:04.320
Well, it simply means that everything,

849
01:06:04.320 --> 01:06:05.160
every aspect of your body.

850
01:06:05.160 --> 01:06:07.160
Are we getting new bodies when we die

851
01:06:07.160 --> 01:06:09.200
and we resurrect again?

852
01:06:09.200 --> 01:06:12.240
Or is it happening when we're alive?

853
01:06:12.240 --> 01:06:13.880
Okay, but remember it says that

854
01:06:13.880 --> 01:06:17.720
you're going to be transformed in the twinkling of an eye.

855
01:06:17.720 --> 01:06:21.540
So it's your fleshly body transforming into spirit.

856
01:06:21.540 --> 01:06:23.060
That's the new body.

857
01:06:23.060 --> 01:06:25.060
But it's not like your body's been replaced.

858
01:06:25.060 --> 01:06:27.580
Think about, for instance, people who've been to heaven.

859
01:06:27.580 --> 01:06:30.260
You know, when they say they recognize people.

860
01:06:30.260 --> 01:06:31.100
Why?

861
01:06:31.100 --> 01:06:32.980
Because they still have the same body.

862
01:06:32.980 --> 01:06:35.500
In fact, some of them that they claim

863
01:06:35.500 --> 01:06:39.100
that people that die when they're like 90 or whatever

864
01:06:39.100 --> 01:06:40.540
look like they're in their twenties

865
01:06:40.540 --> 01:06:42.300
or their thirties or whatever.

866
01:06:42.300 --> 01:06:45.100
But they recognize them because it's the same body

867
01:06:45.100 --> 01:06:48.020
as they see a picture of that person

868
01:06:48.020 --> 01:06:51.060
when they, you know, 20 years ago on their dad's desk.

869
01:06:51.060 --> 01:06:53.060
They say that's the same person.

870
01:06:53.060 --> 01:06:54.100
And some of these people,

871
01:06:54.100 --> 01:06:56.660
they died and went to heaven and met people.

872
01:06:56.660 --> 01:06:58.740
And then they came back to life.

873
01:06:58.740 --> 01:07:00.380
They had never met the person in the picture,

874
01:07:00.380 --> 01:07:01.340
but they met them in heaven.

875
01:07:01.340 --> 01:07:04.220
That's how they know that picture is that person.

876
01:07:04.220 --> 01:07:05.900
And this was, and they have like a young body.

877
01:07:05.900 --> 01:07:07.420
So anyway, you can, we all,

878
01:07:07.420 --> 01:07:08.660
everyone believes different things

879
01:07:08.660 --> 01:07:10.180
about whether or not people have really died

880
01:07:10.180 --> 01:07:11.340
and gone to heaven.

881
01:07:11.340 --> 01:07:12.180
No, but I believe that.

882
01:07:12.180 --> 01:07:13.020
I believe that.

883
01:07:13.020 --> 01:07:14.220
Yeah, I believe that.

884
01:07:14.220 --> 01:07:15.580
It's from stuff like that.

885
01:07:15.580 --> 01:07:16.860
And, but I mean, and that,

886
01:07:16.860 --> 01:07:18.780
but that obviously isn't in scripture.

887
01:07:18.780 --> 01:07:20.060
But what is in scripture

888
01:07:20.060 --> 01:07:21.460
is the fact that Jesus,

889
01:07:21.460 --> 01:07:23.860
Jesus's earthly body was resurrected

890
01:07:23.860 --> 01:07:25.500
and that ascended into heaven.

891
01:07:27.420 --> 01:07:30.860
That is the body he still has because he ascended.

892
01:07:30.860 --> 01:07:33.700
He literally rose up and went into heaven,

893
01:07:33.700 --> 01:07:34.740
that physical body.

894
01:07:34.740 --> 01:07:37.100
And it had the wounds that he died in,

895
01:07:37.100 --> 01:07:38.220
that he died with.

896
01:07:38.220 --> 01:07:39.500
Remember it had the wounds in his hands

897
01:07:39.500 --> 01:07:41.580
and the wound in his side.

898
01:07:41.580 --> 01:07:43.420
That didn't heal.

899
01:07:43.420 --> 01:07:45.900
In other words, it didn't go away.

900
01:07:45.900 --> 01:07:48.180
So it was his fleshly body

901
01:07:48.180 --> 01:07:49.940
that just was changed into spirit.

902
01:07:49.940 --> 01:07:51.260
So it could now never die.

903
01:07:51.260 --> 01:07:53.700
Adam had a spiritual body.

904
01:07:53.700 --> 01:07:55.980
In other words, it was human,

905
01:07:55.980 --> 01:07:57.580
but it was spirit and it couldn't die.

906
01:07:57.580 --> 01:08:00.140
And the problem was that after he ate the apple,

907
01:08:00.140 --> 01:08:01.340
you know, when he fell,

908
01:08:01.340 --> 01:08:05.380
then it, now that spirit body now became flesh

909
01:08:05.380 --> 01:08:08.060
and it was subject to the death now.

910
01:08:08.060 --> 01:08:10.260
Originally his human body with two arms,

911
01:08:10.260 --> 01:08:13.660
two legs, a head, all of that stuff could not,

912
01:08:13.660 --> 01:08:14.700
couldn't die.

913
01:08:14.700 --> 01:08:16.740
But after the fall, it died.

914
01:08:16.740 --> 01:08:18.300
So when he talks about a new body,

915
01:08:18.300 --> 01:08:19.300
we do get a new body,

916
01:08:19.300 --> 01:08:22.300
but the new body is simply the flesh

917
01:08:22.300 --> 01:08:24.460
transitioning into spirit.

918
01:08:24.460 --> 01:08:25.700
That's the newness of it.

919
01:08:25.700 --> 01:08:28.300
And that's why God calls it a trans,

920
01:08:28.300 --> 01:08:30.540
I think he said it will be transformed.

921
01:08:32.100 --> 01:08:35.420
So it is, it's new because it's spirit,

922
01:08:35.420 --> 01:08:36.620
but it's not new as in like,

923
01:08:36.620 --> 01:08:37.979
you're gonna look different.

924
01:08:39.100 --> 01:08:42.140
We still look the same.

925
01:08:42.140 --> 01:08:44.859
Jesus, they still recognize Jesus.

926
01:08:44.859 --> 01:08:46.100
They recognize Jesus,

927
01:08:46.100 --> 01:08:48.020
but there was some aspect about the fact

928
01:08:48.020 --> 01:08:50.899
that El Nahuatl may say couldn't recognize Jesus

929
01:08:50.899 --> 01:08:52.460
because it was spirit.

930
01:08:52.460 --> 01:08:54.420
I don't fully understand everything,

931
01:08:54.420 --> 01:08:55.859
but I'm just telling you what I believe

932
01:08:55.859 --> 01:08:57.779
based on what I've read in the scripture

933
01:08:57.779 --> 01:09:00.100
and what it all sounds like and whatever.

934
01:09:00.100 --> 01:09:01.340
So you, you know,

935
01:09:01.340 --> 01:09:03.180
you know, don't take what I'm saying as possible,

936
01:09:03.180 --> 01:09:04.220
but you asked the question.

937
01:09:04.220 --> 01:09:05.819
And so that's what I personally believe.

938
01:09:05.819 --> 01:09:08.340
And that's why I do.

939
01:09:08.340 --> 01:09:09.740
From scripture, this is what I see

940
01:09:09.740 --> 01:09:12.660
and this is why I believe what I believe.

941
01:09:12.660 --> 01:09:14.540
But anyway, so, I mean,

942
01:09:15.220 --> 01:09:18.100
so regardless that even if, say for instance,

943
01:09:18.100 --> 01:09:21.580
even if you weren't having this body anymore

944
01:09:21.580 --> 01:09:22.500
and one day it would die

945
01:09:22.500 --> 01:09:24.060
and God give you a completely new body

946
01:09:24.060 --> 01:09:26.260
that has no relationships whatsoever to this body,

947
01:09:26.260 --> 01:09:27.540
you don't even want the thing.

948
01:09:27.540 --> 01:09:28.540
Even if that's true,

949
01:09:28.540 --> 01:09:30.979
God's the one who created the body that you're in

950
01:09:30.979 --> 01:09:32.700
and God doesn't create bad things.

951
01:09:34.819 --> 01:09:38.140
And I don't say this is one of your three parts

952
01:09:38.140 --> 01:09:39.899
that make you up.

953
01:09:39.899 --> 01:09:41.300
That's another reason why I don't think

954
01:09:41.300 --> 01:09:43.100
that we're losing this body.

955
01:09:43.140 --> 01:09:45.180
Like it's just gonna transition into spirit

956
01:09:45.180 --> 01:09:47.340
is because it's a third part of you,

957
01:09:47.340 --> 01:09:49.420
your spirit, your soul, your body.

958
01:09:49.420 --> 01:09:51.420
I mean, would God completely get rid of a part of you

959
01:09:51.420 --> 01:09:53.220
and then you'll just be two?

960
01:09:53.220 --> 01:09:55.340
I mean, I don't, I think that, you know,

961
01:09:55.340 --> 01:09:56.660
we're so unified.

962
01:09:56.660 --> 01:09:58.980
I don't think he's gonna take apart that unified,

963
01:09:58.980 --> 01:10:00.620
even though it's three, it's one.

964
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:01.360
and it's like the Godhead.

965
01:10:01.360 --> 01:10:03.080
I don't think he's gonna take one piece of it

966
01:10:03.080 --> 01:10:05.080
and be like, okay, well, let's get rid of it completely

967
01:10:05.080 --> 01:10:07.760
and just grab another piece and plug it in.

968
01:10:07.760 --> 01:10:09.000
I could be completely wrong.

969
01:10:09.000 --> 01:10:10.680
It was just my own personal opinion.

970
01:10:10.680 --> 01:10:13.720
I said that's another reason why I think.

971
01:10:13.720 --> 01:10:15.400
But anyway, even if,

972
01:10:15.400 --> 01:10:19.080
even if you were to completely get rid of this body,

973
01:10:19.080 --> 01:10:21.680
give you a brand new body that had never existed before

974
01:10:21.680 --> 01:10:24.080
and you look completely different in the new world

975
01:10:24.080 --> 01:10:25.320
than you do in this one,

976
01:10:25.320 --> 01:10:26.520
even if that's the case,

977
01:10:26.520 --> 01:10:28.960
the one who created you right now,

978
01:10:28.960 --> 01:10:31.000
God said was created by him.

979
01:10:31.000 --> 01:10:34.720
He says that he himself knits you in the womb.

980
01:10:34.720 --> 01:10:36.160
Remember it mentions that in Psalms

981
01:10:36.160 --> 01:10:37.560
and it mentioned that to Jeremiah,

982
01:10:37.560 --> 01:10:40.440
before I knitted you in your mother's womb, I knitted you.

983
01:10:40.440 --> 01:10:43.160
God creates our bodies

984
01:10:43.160 --> 01:10:45.640
and God doesn't create anything bad.

985
01:10:45.640 --> 01:10:49.480
So even for that alone, for that reason alone,

986
01:10:49.480 --> 01:10:50.960
we know that we can accept this

987
01:10:50.960 --> 01:10:54.880
and it says in Thessalonians that your spirit, soul and body

988
01:10:54.880 --> 01:10:56.960
so it's an aspect of you.

989
01:10:56.960 --> 01:10:59.760
I think that's something I need to,

990
01:10:59.760 --> 01:11:04.760
that I don't fully believe probably like about my body.

991
01:11:05.400 --> 01:11:07.800
And I appreciate you explaining the other things.

992
01:11:07.800 --> 01:11:09.760
I think it's a little bit new to me.

993
01:11:09.760 --> 01:11:13.760
So it's not like I am against what you're saying.

994
01:11:13.760 --> 01:11:17.920
It's just like, oh, I think it's really interesting

995
01:11:17.920 --> 01:11:19.520
and it makes sense.

996
01:11:19.520 --> 01:11:22.880
Anyway, you know, it's important for us to love

997
01:11:22.880 --> 01:11:25.280
and accept, you know, accept this.

998
01:11:25.280 --> 01:11:26.360
It's needing us.

999
01:11:26.360 --> 01:11:29.840
It's our first, it's a first area of dominion

1000
01:11:29.840 --> 01:11:32.920
within our own creative, in our own kingdom.

1001
01:11:32.920 --> 01:11:33.960
It's your flesh.

1002
01:11:33.960 --> 01:11:36.920
That's the first area in which you've been given dominion.

1003
01:11:36.920 --> 01:11:39.320
Even before any spouse that you have,

1004
01:11:39.320 --> 01:11:42.040
even before your children, even before your students,

1005
01:11:42.040 --> 01:11:44.320
even before your money, even before anything else

1006
01:11:44.320 --> 01:11:45.840
God wants you to accomplish.

1007
01:11:45.840 --> 01:11:47.280
The first area of dominion

1008
01:11:47.280 --> 01:11:49.280
that he holds you accountable for is your own flesh,

1009
01:11:49.280 --> 01:11:51.120
which is your soul and your body.

1010
01:11:51.120 --> 01:11:54.160
Meaning that you need to rule it and you need to love it.

1011
01:11:54.160 --> 01:11:55.200
You need to accept it.

1012
01:11:55.200 --> 01:11:58.720
It needs to be your favorite, you know, that kind of thing.

1013
01:11:58.720 --> 01:11:59.560
Yeah.

1014
01:11:59.560 --> 01:12:00.400
Yeah.

1015
01:12:00.400 --> 01:12:01.240
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1016
01:12:01.240 --> 01:12:02.080
Well, I'm really sorry.

1017
01:12:02.080 --> 01:12:03.680
I have to go in about three minutes,

1018
01:12:03.680 --> 01:12:06.400
but I want to, so I wanted to make sure that,

1019
01:12:06.400 --> 01:12:08.120
cause I have another appointment,

1020
01:12:08.120 --> 01:12:11.280
but I was wanting to make sure that you were,

1021
01:12:11.280 --> 01:12:12.280
that you were good.

1022
01:12:13.160 --> 01:12:16.920
Did I answer you, cause you had those two questions

1023
01:12:16.920 --> 01:12:18.320
and did you, did it, you know,

1024
01:12:18.320 --> 01:12:20.680
about your limitations of your body, you know,

1025
01:12:20.680 --> 01:12:22.920
the limitations and about making decisions

1026
01:12:22.920 --> 01:12:25.680
that the Lord wants you to make, things like that.

1027
01:12:25.680 --> 01:12:27.360
Was that helpful?

1028
01:12:27.360 --> 01:12:31.640
Did you have, did I not answer something that you were,

1029
01:12:31.640 --> 01:12:34.720
I mean, I know you probably have lots to think about, but.

1030
01:12:34.720 --> 01:12:37.640
I have lots to think about, but it did,

1031
01:12:37.640 --> 01:12:39.920
it did answer my questions.

1032
01:12:39.920 --> 01:12:40.760
Yeah.

1033
01:12:40.760 --> 01:12:41.600
Oh, it did?

1034
01:12:41.600 --> 01:12:42.440
Okay.

1035
01:12:42.440 --> 01:12:43.280
Yeah.

1036
01:12:43.280 --> 01:12:44.560
Well, I want to make sure before I left you

1037
01:12:44.560 --> 01:12:46.040
that I'd at least been to your classroom.

1038
01:12:46.040 --> 01:12:46.880
Yeah.

1039
01:12:46.880 --> 01:12:48.520
Because we've talked about a lot.

1040
01:12:49.840 --> 01:12:51.280
Okay, well, good.

1041
01:12:51.320 --> 01:12:55.360
Well, anything else for the next two minutes or not?

1042
01:12:55.360 --> 01:12:56.200
No, no, no.

1043
01:12:56.200 --> 01:12:59.440
I think that was, that was really helpful.

1044
01:12:59.440 --> 01:13:01.560
And thanks for explaining things to me.

1045
01:13:01.560 --> 01:13:04.240
And yeah, I have a lot to think about, but that's,

1046
01:13:04.240 --> 01:13:05.520
that's good.

1047
01:13:05.520 --> 01:13:06.360
Okay.

1048
01:13:06.360 --> 01:13:07.720
All right, well, good.

1049
01:13:07.720 --> 01:13:08.560
Good.

1050
01:13:08.560 --> 01:13:10.120
Well, I'll wait for this to process.

1051
01:13:10.120 --> 01:13:11.600
And like I said, I have an appointment,

1052
01:13:11.600 --> 01:13:16.160
so I will try to get it up on the site

1053
01:13:16.160 --> 01:13:18.920
to today or tomorrow for you to be able to watch it.

1054
01:13:18.920 --> 01:13:20.000
Yes, no doubt.

1055
01:13:20.000 --> 01:13:20.840
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

1056
01:13:21.400 --> 01:13:22.240
That's great.

1057
01:13:22.240 --> 01:13:23.080
All right.

1058
01:13:23.080 --> 01:13:24.240
All right, well, good to talk to you, Renata.

1059
01:13:24.240 --> 01:13:25.960
Yes, you too.

1060
01:13:25.960 --> 01:13:27.640
All right, bye.