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are they all the sex the Catholic Church. The school.
From my home Grammar School Student League. I has a lot of.
Kind of demanded that be put into a public school for two year.
And then I start turning into such a little scallawag. Learning to the early.
Vibrations of the rock culture
when you have a doctor you know all the accoutrements of a young her dad in one
hundred fifty seven you're fifty eight and so I was.
But for a year and two fine young man's school.
I was miserable at this crap school
but on the other hand my mind sought constantly in this case.
I REALLY EXCITED heavily on the ocean as a symbol.
So I started to start serving summer.
My dad and he became so tied up observing and surfing with a stimulus.
So strong you know.
It was really good for you physically Plus it got me going through the motions of
finding things exploring California.
It's so precarious you know I mean you're literally inside of a tube of water.
You're in the eye of the wave and it's terrifying.
It really is but it's also exhilarating.
Stream least like you do your senses are just barraged by energy. For twelve years.
And I still relate to it
but it's not I don't you know I used to be a surfer you know first
and foremost you know now I might think I'm really a mammal.
So we've got.
Like I got those people so loaded at that at that party that we were at
that everybody forgot they just forgot any any trips.
Everybody was just sitting there you know they're just you know taking each other
and taking me and digging digging Michael
and it was plain of feeling really you know we had a really high collection of
people that you know I really have.
It is almost because we the first day I smoke during the day I always was
is unique.
You know because it's kind of a fresh impetus to the nervous.
Overall effect is one of being a tranquilizer actually.
By status piece but this isn't an printed Christmas card.
Yeah I got from the taro one of my favorite cards in a cardboard it's funny to me
ask logically does the hermit. Sometimes I project into my mess.
Qualities that are scribed this is particular sign which is
and I think it represents a person. Or an aspect of the personality.
Evolving personality where it's reached not the final degree of in life like you
can call a really master of wisdom. But yet it's the retained agreeable.
Wisdom or your old knowledge sufficient
that he has responsibility to turn on his brother to his fellow man.
Oh that's your project.
What are you doing doing what he's been doing.
Thank you my speech
and your papa.
I want to watch this college junior college for a year
and a half after high school although I you know I didn't know then why I was doing
it. Nor do I nor Now it is what we do next.
And I got turned on to drugs kind of when I was going there
and then in the same time I got caught up on my parents for a journey which caused
you know just shrieking is my son died on June sixth.
And I got sent to the shrink to get better at the end of that summer.
I took acid and it just blew my mind.
Like it was so extreme an experience is a real acid trip.
You know is like the end pleasures beyond being beyond complacency it's beyond fear.
You know you get you to slack and get your mind or you had a very good.
Rescue centers
and that's all I need to get you keep
how much me. I made about.
You know so many of them away which means you'll join them.
Yeah
but I haven't I haven't any I've been doing a little carpentry like I'm doing it
for her brother downtown and he's got
that it's not you know I think I made about bagels somewhere upwards of twenty five
listening to you know I was
in a period of taking a lot of the luxury of living
and actually living me just the archetypal rock out existence in town here.
And when you're. You know when you're taking. Psychedelic chemicals.
You really are sensitive to the fact
that.
What you normally recognize as being reality. You know how your consciousness.
React to the every day because you.
There is just a fraction of what's there and so.
Usually kind of undertaking search to find what you think is real
and what isn't what will verify.
The experiences you've had you know. Taking these drugs.
And what doesn't and the Tarot Taro is an L.S.D.. The. L.S.D.
and The terror are both involved in self realization by.
You have been looking for.
Oh yeah well I you know like I'm not idle I built a bedroom before you can.
Extension up there. And I've been on session of the bathroom.
But I live in a I don't know what you call the community I live in
that nobody's got so I gotta work as easy as I do it for free.
I used to work at the actor out of your dry work to be acting right up the side of
some.
I mean I couldn't work for the act because one of the things they're selling I just
don't believe in you know what you're selling the place you aside to assist
you know
that this product of a phase of the marketplace.
I've taken just about everything except for my shirt.
I don't know how many times I've dropped. I could probably estimate around.
Most of it's going to waste.
Most of it's just been a burden on my nervous system frankly maybe two hundred
fifty doses. Trips I've taken.
Can really stand that you know ten really were psychedelic experiences.
I just didn't take enough or I take too much in the wrong place.
You know you can really goofy things. That's for sure. If you're in a.
Hung up state and you take them.
I mean it's going to focus right in and usually you can have what is called a bunk.
But it just means you get sucked away by some or.
On resolved aspect and you can get free of it. On trips or all kinds of things.
But they can really be avoided. I think or. I did it two years.
I did it last year and I didn't like it at all.
So I didn't do for year in that I did it.
Two weeks for the Christmas presents before I was a fuck
and just see you know Christmas formal last year is so funny I thought well maybe I
didn't like this guy before but I had such a good time. This is so funny.
I mean it simulates nice parts of your son just.
So I think these are times where if we're going to survive on a very large scale we
have to stop acting.
Blindly you know acting by impulse and but on an ego level
and investigate what we really need is a whole being an act in accordance to the
needs of the species rather than what T.V. Tells you that you ought to be.
And mostly in terms of what you consume
and what you can afford what you can ask of definitely does it cuts away the
bullshit. You know stocks about.
To have any court ordered payment child support payments probation
or you attend college if you are receiving lots of training after the part of the
school this fall is just.
There's no capital involved it's just rather leave.
You can find
that one with the Navajo Indian American a major American church or more.
Last time I think psychedelic was so good. I haven't wanted to say.
Then how to use that medicine so good if you take capital.
Math there still is five literally.
Taking a cap of whatever some of you decide they're going to make
and market because this stuff is part of the marketplace
and so I don't take commercials.
I just do it because of you know too many fucking times of taking a drug and.
In twenty minutes I've known I'm I've taken some.
Pie already there's no doubt you know who made it. There's kind of this.
Spiny.
Fiberglass like in the center and I'm not sure what the chemical content is
but it's repulsive actually the first by any cactuses recalls updated
in the nation because you just take the fuzz out and put it in water make a tea
and it should boil it for about two hours please make it chug it down the food
chain has been worn.
And so anything before has come out.
Psychedelic So if you relate to them as a sacrament you will have the experience
more times than not. You expect of the sacrament like
when I had my first communion. I waited.
You know like I was so prime I had seven years old and I went and got the host
and swallow it and I sat there and waited.
The priest said Give me a Nugent's deserve what you give deference because nothing
happened. But I can guarantee you
that man if you take a psychedelic something will happen.
Every time Heaven or Hell it's all within you.
You know there's nothing in the L.S.D. that Isn't in you.
You know all it is is a catalyst. I want to go hiking.
Let me get it out of this town
and I don't want to wander around here because I gotta drive.
Thank you Bill.
It's Man that's another good thing about them they turn you on to levels of play
that you never have the hair.
You know to break your facade in the need it it's in the organising You need to
play you need to just get up and know your pal you know and go through a couple of.
You know
and shit like they're making faces.
For
five
hundred seat
of incredible lack of to put ahead of more than anything.
And so I just wonder.
There's nothing you can do to match it.
You don't have to do away with it
and so I'm trying to be as still as possible and so that I can feel my body
and still nature fessing
and see if you really get a.
Descent learned
so.
You know he doesn't let it really merge into
the rest energy
or if you're really good.
There's going to be lightning flashes
and decided I really a lot of
brotherhood in their early grave at
that belief is probably due in part to acid trip because I've experienced.
I felt that I was experiencing some incredibly real living think between myself
and the rest of the human organism.
I believe in this it.