Hi, and welcome to video two.
I know some of you have already got your shovels out, you're ready to start digging.
You're like, let's get to work, Jackie.
But I want to remind you, no fixing.
I know it's your instinct to try to fix yourself, but I know that if you could have fixed yourself,
you already would have, especially since you have your shovel out and you're ready to go.
I know what kind of personality that is.
I have it too.
And I need to tell us that if we didn't need God, we wouldn't be here.
If we could do this on our own, we would have already done it.
So I want to gently remind you that God is emotionally involved with you and he has taken
charge of this process when you give him permission to, and we're going to talk about permission
in this video.
You're going to be held, you're going to be helped.
You're going to have the enabling power of heaven, that grace, you're going to feel that
wind at your back, that wind in your sails, if you like to think of it that way.
And so you're not going to need that shovel.
So go ahead and put it away.
I want to encourage you to be really listening.
What's coming up in your heart?
Even now, things are probably coming up out of nowhere.
You're like, wow, why am I thinking about that all of a sudden?
That is what I call the revealing for healing.
And it starts almost right away during this process.
Don't push that stuff back down.
A lot of us have a lot of heart boxes that need to be unpacked and Holy Spirit is going
to be necessary.
You're going to have to invite him to this moving party.
You know, when you move, your good friends are the only ones that help, right?
It's like, you think you have all these friends until it's time to move.
And then all of a sudden crickets, no one's around, no one's answering text messages.
Everybody's busy because nobody likes to help anyone move and unpack boxes is the worst.
And you only let your really good friends help you unpack the boxes because there's
a lot of crazy stuff, isn't there?
There's a lot of stuff that you know darn well you should have gotten rid of a long
time ago, but you didn't because you're a hoarder.
Let's just be honest.
When that whole Marie Kondo phase came out, people are like blessing and thanking things
and releasing things.
But people are realizing in that process that I'm a hoarder.
I can Marie Kondo the crap out of my closet, but my heart looks like an episode of hoarders.
I have all this stuff that I've been hanging on to for so long, grudges and little unforgiveness
and bitterness here and just all different types of memories, bad and good.
Can I tell you that even good memories can hold you back?
Because a lot of times nostalgia is just a fancy word for fear.
We don't know how to move forward.
So we're living in the past.
Maybe you're one of those people that's living in the glory days of high school because you
think that's where you peaked.
You didn't peak.
The best is always yet to come.
So we have to stop reminiscing and we have to start dreaming about the future and it's
time to go forward and we have to get rid of what's packed away in these boxes.
So we have to invite Holy Spirit.
We're going to be doing some submission and some permission during this video at the end.
So stay tuned.
Do not cut it off short because everyone, different people are going to do this in a
different way.
But I'm going to give you a template that all of you can follow to get yourself started.
So when I was a kid, we had a junk drawer.
I don't know about you guys, but we had a junk drawer in our kitchen and it's just a
catch all.
Everything that was, you know, we didn't know what to do with it.
It probably should have been thrown away, but we're going to keep it because maybe we're
going to need it someday.
Right?
And it just got thrown in that junk drawer, all different types of misplaced stuff.
And that's what our life looks like.
That's what our heart looks like.
Everything that we don't know how to process, that we don't know what to do with it.
Maybe it's something from childhood.
You didn't know how to process it because you were a little kid, right?
Little kids don't have the tools to process a lot of the trauma that we go through when
we're children.
And so we just save it for the grownup version of us.
We stick it in one of those boxes.
And so, you know, what's on the top of your heart, you know, what happened last week,
the person who, you know, smarted off to at work or, you know, your best friend going
out with that other person and not inviting you or just whatever happened.
That was the slight, was the offense, was the hurtful word, the thought, the worry,
the anxiety that you were in.
But what about all the stuff from five years ago or 10 years ago or 15 years ago or 20
years ago?
Just because it's out of sight does not mean that it's out of heart.
I know that's really hard for a lot of people to hear.
You're like, oh man, I got so much crap in my heart.
Yeah, you really do.
And guess what?
All of those Pandora's boxes are going to be opening up during this course.
And I know that's freaky and scary and it sounds really painful because maybe you've
been through a lot of bad stuff in your life.
But I want to encourage you and tell you right now that pain is your friend.
It's your friend.
Okay?
It is.
And you know how I know that?
I saw this crazy documentary years ago.
And it was about this little girl that couldn't feel pain.
She just couldn't feel it.
She was born without the ability to feel pain.
And you think, wow, that would be really awesome
if I couldn't feel pain.
No, it wouldn't be.
Why?
Because without pain, you wouldn't know
if you were overdoing it.
This little girl lived a very, very small sequestered life
because she did not have the gift of pain.
She couldn't play on the playground
because what if she broke her leg when
she jumped off the monkey bars?
She'd never know.
She wouldn't have the pain to tell her
that something had happened and that she should sit down
and call for assistance.
She wouldn't know when she's brushing her teeth
if she's pressing too hard.
She wouldn't feel the pain from the pressure.
So every little tiny thing that we do in our lives
that we take for granted, she wasn't
able to do those things without really strong supervision
to keep her from hurting herself.
And that's when I realized that pain is a gift.
It lets us know when something's out of alignment.
It lets us know when we're pressing too hard
or pushing too hard or not getting enough rest
or not taking care of ourselves.
It's like the engine light on our car
that tells us when it's time to be maintenance,
when it's time to pull over.
It's like that warning signal that's saying,
hey, you better do something about this area of your life
before it blows up.
But a lot of times, we ignore pain
because we live in a culture that medicates it.
I have friends where they ask you for an ibuprofen
and you try to give them one because that's
what the bottle says.
The bottle says one to two, possibly, every six hours.
We give them one, they're like, no, no, come on.
They want three, four, five.
Some people even want six.
Why?
Because we live in a medicated culture.
We just want to get out of pain.
We don't care where the pain's coming from.
We don't care why the pain's there.
All we care is that we're able to get out of it.
That's it.
And because of that, we're in what I call perpetual pain.
While pain is a gift, it is.
It's an amazing gift that shows you that something is wrong
and that you need to change the way you're doing that thing,
whether it's a relationship, whether it's a job.
A lot of you watching are in pain at work.
You're in pain.
Monday morning is like the worst thing in the world
because you've got to get up and go to this job that you hate.
That's pain.
And you know what that pain is supposed to do?
It's supposed to drive you to do something with your life
that you love.
It's supposed to drive you to stretch yourself,
to try something new, to get the resume out there
to different places, to maybe go back to school.
But a lot of times, you know what we do with that pain?
We turn on the TV.
We get home from the job we hate, and we turn on the TV,
and we just numb out.
Uh, like little zombies.
You know, John 10.10 says that Jesus
came to give us abundant life.
Do you know that word abundant means to become fully alive?
We're not fully alive.
We're sleepwalking.
We're like the Night of the Living Dead.
All those zombie movies, that's us
because we're walking around only half alive
because we do not love what we're doing.
We don't even know what it would be like
to love what we're doing.
And so we're medicating ourselves.
But it's time to stop medicating.
It's time to feel that pain and allow that pain to be
a catalyst for what?
For change.
A catalyst to drive you into those higher levels of identity
and purpose.
You've been created for purpose and on purpose.
And I can't wait to unpack some of those ideas with you
in this HeartCourse.
We're going to really get into the idea of the real you,
and it's going to be so fun.
It's going to be so fun.
You're going to see things about yourself
that you've never seen before.
But first, we have to stop medicating this pain.
We have to go ahead and feel it.
Remember, it's not permanent.
Now, the traumas that have happened in your life,
they've caused you a lot of pain.
It is true.
That's true.
And you're going to feel some of that pain
because you've been pushing it down and hiding it
away in those heart boxes.
But it's just temporary.
I promise you, it's not your new normal.
So don't try to medicate it.
Don't try to run away from it.
Just go ahead and feel it.
We've got to feel the feels to heal the feels.
And so go ahead and feel that pain because remember,
you're not alone in this.
This is a divine appointment, and God is here to help you.
And he's the master Jenga player.
He knows exactly which blocks to pull out
so that you don't have a breakdown.
You have a breakthrough.
You ever play Jenga?
If you pull the wrong block out, then the whole thing
comes crashing down.
God is the master heart surgeon.
He knows exactly how to move the things around
that need to be moved around in order for you to get
the healing that you've come here for.
And that's why you shouldn't be digging.
That's why I don't want you to get that shovel out and dig
because you might try to dig up something that it's not
time for you to deal with.
Only the things that are revealing,
only the things that are coming to the surface
are the things that I want you to pay attention to.
Those are the things that I want you to pay attention to.
that are being highlighted because that is the stuff
that is ready to be dealt with.
That is the stuff that is ready for you
to take a deeper look at with the help of Holy Spirit.
And so let's invite Holy Spirit into this process with us.
We already know that we can't do it alone.
We already know that perpetual pain is not from God.
While pain is a gift, if you're stuck in pain
in any area of your life, every month, every year,
over and over again, you're in the same pain,
then you definitely know that that is an area
where you are believing a lie.
And we're gonna talk about all the different lies
that we believe and where they've come from
in our next video.
And I cannot wait to get there.
But first, we have to submit.
Submission is a dirty word.
It's a dirty word for so many people.
And why is that?
Because we've been asked to submit to people
that didn't have our best interest at heart.
We've been asked to submit to situations
that were not good for us.
But that's not the case with God.
He's never gonna ask you to do something
that isn't in your best interest.
Remember, it can't be good for him
if it's not good for you.
So you can trust him.
You can lean back.
Remember that trust game where you fall back
into the arms of?
You can fall back into his arms.
You can yield.
You know that word yield means to give up, to surrender.
It means to wave the white flag.
You're like, wave the white flag, yes,
because we're in a power struggle with God
and we need to surrender to him.
A lot of you have had that beautiful love story
called the Word of God.
You've had it used against you, all right?
It's a love story.
And if you've heard it spoken of in any other terms,
then you've heard it spoken of wrong.
If you've heard it preached or taught to you
or quoted to you or thrown at you,
thrown in your face,
well, some scripture about something that you're doing wrong
and how you're gonna be punished and sat in the corner,
then you've heard it the wrong way
because you always have to be able to hear it
through the voice of love
because that is the way it was written.
And so we don't wanna submit to that higher truth,
but we need to, we need to.
And you're like, well, you know what, Jackie,
I've tried it, I've read the Bible
and it didn't do anything for me,
didn't fix what was wrong.
Well, I understand.
Remember I told you I couldn't get activated in it either
because my heart was broken
and there was nothing wrong with that beautiful word of God,
but my heart couldn't retain it.
It couldn't get in there like the seed,
the beautiful seed that it is
and bear fruit of an abundant life for me.
And that is what we're doing here.
We're getting our hearts healed
so that we can activate that beautiful love story
that God wrote for us and wrote about us.
And so I wanna invite you to just surrender.
I wanna invite you to give God permission
to reveal you and heal you,
permission to bring you up
out of all of those counterfeit layers
that you're under right now,
all of that perpetual pain that you're in.
And so what we're gonna do is
I'm gonna give you a template, a permission slip,
and you're gonna have that in your materials
that go along with these videos.
And I want you to sign it.
I know it's like, really, you want me to sign it?
Yes, because you're giving permission when you sign that
and something very supernatural happens
when people sign that permission slip.
It may seem like a silly activation to you,
but I promise you, if you really mean it,
it is going to cause something to begin.
It's gonna flip the switch on something in your life
that you will never go back to where you came from again.
You won't.
And this process will be accelerated.
So I'm just gonna read to you
what is in that permission slip right now.
And I want you to read it over yourself.
And I want you to add to it anything else
that you wanna give God permission to do
during this time with you and in you.
And this is just a template,
so you can add anything that you want to it,
but this is what I want you to pray.
And I definitely want you to sign
and give that legal authority to God to give you permission.
And I want you to pray.
And I want you to add to this
that you are ready to get this process started.
Father God, I give you permission to search me
and to reveal anything in my heart
that does not belong to my true identity.
Anything that's hindering me from living the life
you created me to live.
Holy Spirit, I invite you into the darkest places in my heart
show me the areas that are still wounded and still hurting.
And when you reveal those broken places to me,
I set aside the season of my life
for a time of healing and wholeness.
And I ask Holy Spirit to take charge of this process.
I ask that you dwell with me and in me.
I need you, I cannot heal myself.
I want to be free, free from the past,
free to be who I truly am.
Help me to become who you created me to be.
Show me the lies I have believed about myself, my life,
my surroundings, even the lies that I've believed about you.
Teach me the greater truth.
Teach me your ways.
Teach me how to think and how to live abundantly.
Teach me, show me, heal me, and grow me.
If you've prayed that and you signed that,
even if you didn't print it out
because you don't got a printer and you just signed it,
you just signed it in your mind,
you gave God permission to take charge of this process,
you've invited Holy Spirit to come alongside you
and to do the heavy lifting
and help you unpack these heart boxes,
I believe you're gonna begin to see
some very, very amazing
supernatural transformations in your life.
I can't wait to see you in our next video.