Welcome everyone. Happy New Year. You all it's going to be a great year. Some of you all it will probably be your best year ever.
Probably all of you but just some of you might have already had some good years sorry hold on, let me just get our ladies that might be over on Facebook.
Over with us here.
Okay.
All right. Good to see you all, as always, um, you know, obviously I know everybody can't share your screen but if you can.
This is good practice to come out of hiding when you come on these live sessions for us to see you even if you don't have your makeup done. You know I normally do mine just because I'm leading and teaching but like, you know, let's just show up and let people
see us and be seen in this new year. Okay, so let me pray for us I have a couple housekeeping things but then we're going to go right into the content tonight.
I'm going to be telling God to do some really big stuff tonight. And so just so you know where my level of expectancy is I hope that you will come and join me in that same level of expectancy for God to meet you tonight in a special way.
Father just thank you so much for God another day.
Thank you that if we're here, God you have something amazing for us, not just in our love story but in every area of our lives Lord I pray that you would help every lady to to rise up a little bit more into the fullness of your original design and plan for
help them to hear what your spirit is saying to them louder than any voice of the enemy God we thank you for placing the balm of Gilead upon every wound.
Every lie Lord let their let let the light shine on the lies and the deception where the enemy has has kept them stuck in ways that they didn't even know where these these wounds have been dormant they've been hidden.
Lord we thank you for your grace thank you for revealings for healing we thank you for the greater truth that you are true that you bring life and hope.
Even when the enemy tries to come in and kill steal and destroy you sent Jesus and Jesus you came. You chose us I'm so grateful.
We're never too far gone. We can't, we cannot mess up in such a way that we would not be able to experience the fullness of your love because your word declares that your love is unconditional.
So Lord I pray that if any of the ladies that are here live or watching the replay Lord I pray that you would help them to come out of the mindsets that they they cause a separation between themselves and you and being able to receive your love, because that's
not true. So Lord we just thank you for healing in those areas tonight as well. In Jesus name. Amen. Amen. Hello. See some more joining us. Welcome.
Alright so tonight.
Just a couple housekeeping things. I'm welcome to our new ladies we've had a couple new ladies join us if you're here tonight and you've never been here.
Is everyone's audio okay Nicole is saying, so everyone hear me okay. Okay, Nicole maybe check on your end sometimes I mute my computer and I forget that I muted so I don't know if that's what's going on for you, but I'm
welcome to our new ladies who are joining us if you've never met me before I'm Bethany Cooper I'm one of the hardware coaches in our program, and just excited to be able to journey with you all on just in your amazing hard work journey and everything God's
going to do in you and through you in these next five weeks if you're just newly joining us. And for those of you that have been here for a while you know we normally have live sessions on Mondays at 1pm and 8pm Eastern we'll go back to that next Monday.
So if you are international and that time works better for you will be back for both times again starting next Monday we just did the 8pm only just during our Christmas Day and New Year's Day holidays.
So that will start back, and if you guys have any questions, just know you can post them and as soon as we're able to get to them will approve them and send them through and answer them for you.
One of the things we are going to start to do ladies just so you don't get confused is instead of you all trying to find the replays in different places.
We have been putting them for a while into your website the jackiedorman.com website portal, as well as the Facebook group.
So going forward we're going to just move towards just putting them in the portal because it just makes it easier everybody will know to go there for your replays.
bottom. Okay. So the live replays of what we're doing like tonight, those will be down at the
bottom of your page. And what we'll do is we'll cycle old ones out so that you don't have to
scroll so far down. But right now you have to click the thing that says show more. And then
there's a second page. So just so you know where to find like our Supernatural Saturday from this
last Saturday, if you did not hear that, you are going to want to hear it. It's so good.
And just to kick off your year, praying about like, what is God's word or his theme for your
life this year, and leaning into what God wants to show you there. And then they activated that
last night. On Sunday nights, we always do activation if you're new to activation. Basically,
it's, it's taking the scripture, you know, faith without works is dead. So basically,
what we do is we apply works to our faith, and put legs on them. So that can look a lot of
different ways, but God will show us, you know, different ways to activate you all in things,
and then it's your choice to participate or not. So tonight, the time Mel on Mondays is 1pm
Eastern Time. And then again, at 8pm Eastern Time, we only record the 8pm Eastern Time though. So
that's when we go live into the page. And that's just so that we can keep it clean because it's a
lot of work to download all of these videos and things. So tonight, I want to kick us off,
I was reading through I didn't get through everyone's weekly roll call, but I'll be in there
looking at those and our my other teammates, Annette, for those of you that are new Annette
Winter and Jennifer Yankovich are also heartwork moderators in this group. So you'll see them
commenting as well. And they are on my team. I should also do a reminder for our new ladies,
whether you came in last week or the or this week, this is your time to take your helper hats
off. Okay, so you guys don't have to help each other. You don't have to give each other advice.
That's that's our job. Okay, that's what we're here for. You get to just receive and be here
and hear what God is saying to you about your hard work. Okay, so on that note, I was reading
through some of your all's weekly roll call, we put that up every Sunday, Monday ish. And we just
ask you guys where you're at, what is God saying to you? Are there any areas you're struggling
doing great, all of those kind of things. So when you respond on there, we read those and we respond,
but we also use that to pray about our content for Monday nights. And one of the things that God
really highlighted to me today, someone wrote in their response, something about residual effects
from their previous marriage. And that really stood out to me like in a good way. And I was
just thinking about how many of you all myself included, you know, when we are trying to move
forward, there are oftentimes residual effects from your previous marriages, maybe their previous
relationships, same thing with, you know, any unhealthy, toxic relationships. So that could be,
you know, family, friends, any, any kind of toxicity. When I read that, though, an image that
I saw was like, if you can imagine someone just kind of like with their arms out and their clothes
are sopping wet, but then they also have all these rags like hanging from them that are just soaking
wet. That was the image God gave me. And so I wanted just to speak that, like kind of speak
that out tonight that when we have these residual effects, sometimes it's just this stuff that's
like heavy and it's, it's weighing on us and it's wet and it's just, you know, weighing us down and
we don't even realize it's there, but praise God we're in heart work. So we're coming out of that
stuff, right? So it doesn't mean it has to stay there or it will stay there. We have a choice to
say, okay, Lord, show me where I'm still experiencing these residual effects where it's,
it's hindering me in some way and it's keeping me from moving forward. Okay. So then the thing
that I want to address here is some of you all may or may not have ever dated. So then what,
well, here's the thing. Some of you all have residual effects from even like
friendships when you were in elementary school, I've, I've been doing this coaching for a long
time. And, um, one lady that stands out in particular, she had a friend that moved away
when she was little and it broke her heart, like absolutely broke her heart. And she,
her parents, unfortunately were not in a healthy place to help her process that
loss. And so she carried that for a very long time.
And so coming into a community like this, God was trying to encourage her to open up and let people
in. And she was terrified to do it because the enemy lied to her that if you let people in
and you love them, you're going to lose them. And so some of you, that's where you're at tonight.
And maybe it wasn't your, your friend from school, but maybe it was someone else that
you loved and you gave them a piece of your heart and they didn't care for it the way that they
should have, or something like, you know, what happened with that girl, that lady, her friend
moved away. It can be a sudden death of someone, you know, I had, um, a young lady that played
softball with me in high school and she died in a tragic car accident. And it, I mean, it
wrecked me, you all like my heart. And she was one of the first people that was like
a true Christian in front of me. Like I knew she was a Christian. She was always so positive.
Like I can still imagine her out on the baseball, like softball field and stuff that she would say
and do. And she was such a fun person. And so when she died, I just didn't understand like why God
would take her. So again, I'm just kind of stoking some of this stuff up tonight. This
is how I do, because I'm going to send you guys into breakouts here in a minute.
Some of the other things around the same kind of thing. It's a little different. Someone else said
that their mom used to say no a lot, and that caused them to learn helplessness. So basically
they didn't learn how to help themselves because they always were told no or held back. And so
when I responded to her, what God told me to say is God is saying to it's like to her. And I'm,
I'm releasing this over all of you as well tonight. It's time to start saying yes to yourself
more. Yes. To you. Yes. To the little girl in you who has been told no, some of you, your entire
lives, whether it's from a parent or other people, or even in your own mind, how the enemy messes
with you and causes you to think that if you step out and do this thing, that's in your heart,
that you're going to get rejected or shoved down or that you'll look silly or, you know,
we all hear different things. So whatever your, whatever way the enemy speaks and tries to oppress
you, that's what I'm talking about. Right. So in all of this tonight, I want you guys to,
we're going to link it with our forgiveness. Okay. So I just felt like the Lord kept talking
about leaving victim mentalities behind, start saying yes to yourself more. And where do you
have these residual effects happening that you, God is saying, come, come further into healing
tonight because I have something great for you. So I want to read a little bit again, just want
to kind of talk and link it to the forgiveness for you a little bit tonight. Sorry. I just marked
this a little bit ago. Give me one second. Okay. So again, the pages are different because I have
the physical book, but it's in your heart work book. Um, the opening quote in chapter 10 says
this, we must develop and maintain the capacity to forgive. He who is devoid, devoid, I think is how
you say that devout, whichever one of the power to forgive is devoid of the power to love that's
Martin Luther King. So I want to encourage you guys. Forgiveness is a choice. We're not
always going to feel it, but understand too, that the love God is love. God himself is who empowers
us to forgive. You don't have to do it on your own. So it's asking for him to help you forgive
so that you can step into the divine plan. God has for you. We forgive because we've already
been forgiven. Ladies, those who have been forgiven much will forgive much.
And I don't mean not to shame anyone if you're struggling with forgiveness,
but one of the things that helped me the most, uh, years ago when I was really struggling to
forgive the guy data before who cheated on me multiple times, like I was just in a rough spot.
And I remember the Lord just lovingly saying, I went to the cross for you.
He was talking to me.
I went to the cross for you.
I went to the cross for him too.
And it, you know, when I meditated on what, like all of the things that I had done wrong
in my life.
And Jesus went to the cross for me.
He chose me even knowing I would choose some of those things.
And so when we allow that to not shame us, but to really sink into our hearts and transform
how we look at even the things other people have done to us, we're not excusing their
unhealthy behavior.
We're not saying, Hey, it's okay that you did that, but we're saying, I choose forgiveness
because I have been forgiven.
That's what we're doing.
So we don't give away power.
We actually take, we actually take power and receive it and walk in it when we do that.
Okay.
So victim mode, we will all be the victim of something or someone in our lifetime, but
staying in victim mode is dangerous.
It can lead to many self-destructive behaviors.
Post addiction, self mutilation, suicidal tendencies, chronic, and toxic relationship
patterns stem from viewing ourselves as victims.
When you think of yourself as a victim, you create opportunities with your choices that
continue to reinforce that identity.
So if you're not careful, you can use the bad things that have happened to you as an
excuse to not only do bad things to yourself and others, but to continue to choose things
that will bring you more and more suffering.
So where do you need to come out of victim tonight?
I'm giving you guys a lot of things you can go into the breakout and talk about.
Okay.
In that way, any, you can just share whatever's really speaking to you from the stuff like
the Holy spirit stirring up tonight.
What do you need to share about?
And I'm just going to let you guys kind of free for all.
What is God speaking to you?
When you go into this breakout session, I'm going to give you eight minutes.
When you go in there, I'm going to be praying for you.
When you come back for our new ladies, what we do is I ask some of you to share with the
whole group, what you shared in your breakout group.
And then we just see where the Holy spirit's going to take it from there.
All right.
Let me get that set up for you all.
I'm excited.
Again, I feel like God's going to do some really big stuff tonight, ladies.
So for those of you that feel terrified right now, don't stay terrified.
Okay.
Receive what God has for you.
It's good.
It's really, really good.
All right.
Eight minutes.
We're good on that.
Okay.
Click to join.
Praying for you all.
All right, my ladies on Facebook, if you're still hanging out with us, I see, I see nine
or 10 of you.
If you want to join us on zoom so you can get in those breakout sessions, you're going
to want to jump on zoom using the link that I put in the Facebook comments.
Um, all right, great.
Everybody's situated in there.
If you're not able to jump on zoom, that is totally okay.
I want you to know you can still participate in the comments of the, of the, uh, live feed
there.
And then I will, I will do my best to watch that as well and include you in our conversation.
Carrie, did you get kicked out?
Oh, there she goes.
Okay.
So for now, until I start to see some stuff from you all, I am just going to pray.
I'm going to trust the Holy spirit during this time, father, thank you so much for man,
your goodness towards us.
Thank you.
Thank you for sending your son, Jesus to die on the cross for his blood to be shed for
the forgiveness of our sins, for our healing, for our redemption, Jesus.
Thank you so much for coming, um, and surrendering.
Even when it was hard, you went to the cross.
Thank you for following through on your word who I feel that in the Holy spirit tonight.
Thank you.
Holy spirit.
Thank you for being here with us.
Thank you that you God, Jesus Christ and Holy spirit.
You're a man of your word.
You're you're the Trinity you're three in one, but you are one.
Thank you that you are not a man that you should lie, that you follow through on your
promises towards us.
I pray that every lady in the breakouts, as well as those watching on Facebook or in the
replay, that they would experience a fresh wave and a fresh wind of the truth of who
you are.
A father that you are love and you want them to know you more as love.
So I pray that that would just wash over them in a fresh way tonight.
Help them to receive all the love and the goodness and the faithfulness
and the kindness that you have for them.
God, I thank you that you would help us to come out of victim
mentalities and mindsets that we would leave those things behind that we
would step into the fullness of your grace and your mercy.
That's new every morning that we would see ourselves through new eyes, through
your eyes and hear what your spirit is saying about us, Diana, that's totally
fine.
I'm so glad that you're still joining us any way that you can.
And I'm so glad that you're partnering with me in prayer as well.
Just want, you know, I see you and I hear you and I'm so glad you're here.
So Lord, we just thank you also for just, yeah, Lord, just making us known that
we're seen that we don't have to fear that you will forget us because God,
your eyes are always on us.
And I thank you that you keep us in the cleft of your rock that you guard and
keep watch over us.
And I thank you that your, your son, Jesus is sitting at your right hand right
now in heavenly places, interceding for us.
So even those that, um, at times we don't feel your presence, Lord, that doesn't
negate the fact that you're still there.
It's just ladies.
Like when we're, um, if any of you have had little kids or, you know, growing up
with your parents, sometimes we don't know our parents are still there and
they've got their eye on us because they're letting us venture out some, but
their eyes are still on us and they love us and they're looking out for us.
And so I just want to speak that over all of you as well tonight.
And if that wasn't your experience with your parents, that doesn't mean that
there weren't other people along the way that God placed in your path
that we're looking out for you.
So he is, he is the one that looks out for us and he hides us.
It says in his word, under the shadow of his wings and in the
presence of the almighty, that's where we're at tonight.
Hallelujah.
Praise the Lord that he's always keeping us safe and that we don't
have to fear or be afraid.
Even when we go through trials and tribulation, he will
go through those with us.
He's gone before us and he will make a way for us to stand up
under those things and to overcome.
Yes, yes, yes, yes.
So good.
Psalm 51 10 says, create in me a clean heart of God and renew
a steadfast spirit within me.
So Lord tonight, I thank you that you would continue to.
Uh, create clean hearts in every lady that you would remove any chaff,
anything that's dead, anything that's not serving us, anything that's
holding us back from the fullness.
Again, I just keep hearing that the fullness of his plans for us.
Lord, I thank you that you would just continue to help each lady to
hear what your spirit is saying to them, help them to know the areas
that you want them to share any wet rags or residual effects from previous
relationships and toxic environments, Lord, that you just want them to
trust you to remove those rags tonight.
I thank you that you would help them to say, yes, Lord, you're knocking
on the door of our hearts and you're asking if you can come in.
And I thank you, Lord, that you're going to help these ladies through
the power of your Holy spirit.
To respond to you and say, yes, yes, Lord, you can come in.
You can come into these places of my heart and bring healing and life.
And I just saw in my spirit, even as I was saying that, like some of you,
literally it's like there is this empty crevice and it has looked like it's a
dead place, but as soon as you allow God to come in there, what I saw was that
dark, empty place being filled with the grass and flowers blossoming and just
like quick, a quick work, a quick work.
We just thank you Lord for doing that work in our hearts, even when we don't
fully understand it and we can't comprehend it, that you are still
doing an amazing work in us.
Hi, Braylee.
That's totally fine as well.
I see you as well.
I'm so glad that you guys are here.
I see Leah.
I see Kara.
I just want to shout out your names a little bit.
MJ, which is Melissa Joy, Erin Elizabeth, Sandra, Brandy, Jamie.
Some of you guys might be on with us now on zoom, but I just wanted you to know
that I see you all and God loves you so much.
All right.
Romans 8 28 says, so we are convinced that every detail of our lives is
continually woven together to fit into God's perfect plan of bringing good into
our lives for we are his lovers who have been called to fulfill his design.
and purpose. Hi Lori. It's so good. I love when you guys say hi when you're here. We
are so glad that you're part of this community. God loves you. He's doing, he drew you here
for a purpose for such a time as this. Y'all earlier today, um, I looked at my watch when
I had a song playing and it said 414. I immediately thought of Esther 414. And that is part of
what I just declared that we are brought to the kingdom for such a time as this. It is
your time. It is my time. It is our time to step into our divine plan and destiny and
for God to lead you all into your divine destiny, DNA relationship. Praise God. He's already
done that for me. And so I can speak hope and life into you all in those areas. Um,
Oh, cool. Lori, your birthday is 414. So April 14th, that is supernatural. I love that. Um,
all right. So let's talk about too. If you guys have something you want to share that I was
talking about again, you can put those in the comments. Um, any areas where you feel like God,
I'm getting a little bit of feedback. Hold on one second. Any areas where you've,
Oh, sorry. Don't unmute there, Katie. Sorry. Just bumped that accidentally. Um,
where you guys want to share with the group so that when they see your comments, like areas
where you feel like God is wanting you to say yes to yourself in this season. I want to hear,
I want to hear some of those. All right. Welcome back ladies. We are just waiting for everyone
else to come back. Sorry, y'all. I get really dry when I'm leading these sessions. Um, might
have chapstick a lot tonight and water a lot. So sorry. We got choked in there. All right. Almost
have everybody back. How was it? Was it pretty good? Good conversations. I think we had a lot.
Y'all had a lot of options to talk about tonight in there. All right. They're almost here.
Here we go. All right. Welcome back. Welcome back. Should have about 33. I think of you
were close. Um, we might've lost a couple of people. Um, all right. Awesome. Who is willing
to share with the whole group? What you shared in your private breakout session?
I'll share. Okay. Awesome. Go ahead, Jamie. Um, I was mentioning that when you had said something,
um, about the woman who was told no a lot, um, I had this kind of revelation on the way to the
store earlier. My, my daughter and her friend were in the backseat. And it's like, every time
we go somewhere, she asks for something. And of course I get irritated. I'm like, why, why are
you always asking for something? And she's like, I don't know. And I'm like, I don't know. And I'm
like, why are you always asking for something? And she's like, I don't know. And I'm like, I don't
know. And I'm like, why are you always asking for stuff? And I had this thought in my head that
when I was growing up, my mom would always tell me not to ask for anything.
Don't ask for anything. When we're going to the store, don't ask for anything. When you go to a
friend's house. And I was thinking to myself, how much of that might be related to why I can't ask
for help now, why I don't ask God for anything. And just kind of like, just thinking with God,
what is the connection there? Is there a connection there to why I feel like I have
to be misindependent and do everything and be everything all the time?
Yeah. I'm going to say a big yeah to that one. Yes, yes, yes. You're onto something there.
And here's the thing. Here's the thing. Not only will you all, if you guys have
been through things like that, not only will you struggle to ask people for help,
um, you're going to have a hard time asking God to bless your life.
Like it will feel weird for, or uncomfortable when God starts saying, ask me. And I know this
because God has had me in the season. I literally, I'm looking right out at this sign. I put up,
ask God. He kept saying, ask me, just ask me, ask me and see what I will do.
And he's not a slot machine. You also, I'm not trying to say that, but there's something about,
here's where it started for me. And we're going to talk about this a little bit tonight as well.
So I'm going to kind of plant some seeds right now. Several years ago, God started showing me
how many orphan mentalities and, and poverty mindsets and popper over princess stuff that
I was walking in and living in. And I still feel like God is still showing me stuff all the time.
And he started working on me with my vision board. He started talking to me about how his door was
always open to me. And that was several years ago. Now, how crazy, if you guys haven't heard
Saturday's supernatural Saturday, Jackie talks about the word for our 2024 is the year of the
open door. So I feel like God's on that even tonight. I did not plan on kind of talking
about this thing from my board, but he started talking to me about my door's always open to you.
My dad, when I grew up, was an alcoholic drug addict, was not really around left when I was
just like newly born and left my mom without a car. There's all kinds of stuff. Anyways,
I'm sharing that to say when he was around, I can remember he fell asleep all the time.
He would make me stay home. I wasn't allowed to go with my friends. And then he would pass out,
fall asleep. And I remember just resenting him so much for that stuff. And so I related to God
in the same kind of way, like you you're there, but I don't feel like you're really there kind
of stuff. And it translated into all different other things that I grew up under. And they all
kind of formed us like web, if you will, in my mindsets. And so God started talking to me about
that. My door's always open to you. And he started talking to me like daughter, beloved, come and
ask me, just come and ask me and see what I'll do. And, uh, and then this last year, God was
talking to both Brian and I about that. We could have whatever we ask for. What, what? Yes. That's
transforming ways. I think about God and his plan for my life. Yes, absolutely. I want to follow
his plan. I want to follow the holy spirit, but y'all there are times where God, we will have
seasons where he says, we have a choice. We always have a choice, but there's times where
he's literally like, I want to bless you with what you're asking for. If it's good for us. Okay.
Remember that context, if it is good for us, if we're asking for stuff that is not good for us,
he loves us so much that it will protect us from that stuff. So I don't want you to hear what I'm
not saying, but Jamie, yes, God wants you to ask him for what you need. He wants you to know
that there's probably a reason. And I would encourage you to even ask the Lord to reveal
to you why your mom did that. Because unfortunately, most times when we, we do,
or say things like that as a parent, it's probably because we didn't have money.
I remember even saying it to my spiritual daughters, cause a little, my little Olivia
would always, always wanted something when we would go to the store. Now I didn't say to her,
don't go to other people's houses and ask for anything or anything like that. But
I can remember just feeling the stress of not having money and I knew they were going to want
stuff. So I would just like, don't, don't touch anything. Don't ask for anything. Like we're,
we're going to the store for the groceries and that's it, you know? And I loved them,
I loved them, but I felt this pressure. And so again, not that it excuses it,
but I think just where we can also allow God to give us that understanding and then forgive them.
Because that's, that's the other side. Most times we don't even realize that that thing with your
mom, you, you probably, if you haven't already, I would encourage you to do the forgiveness prayer
regarding that, because it can shift into like, when you are told or anyone is told when you go
other places, don't even ask those people for anything. It can almost shift into believing
that you have to be neglected and not that I'm saying you were neglected, Jamie, but in our
minds, that's how the enemy messes with us. Right? So just be praying and asking God where he wants
you to say yes to yourself. And are there any areas he wants you to say yes to your daughter
as well in the days ahead? What a blessing. Thank you for sharing that right out of the gate.
Anyone else want to share what you shared in your breakout session?
Um, I'll share, go ahead. Okay. Yeah. I had just shared in mind. So I was, um,
sexually abused as a child and I still play the victim, you know, like if that didn't happen to
me, then I wouldn't, you know, do these things or act this way. And, um, I'm definitely ready to let
that go. I'm 52. I'm ready to let it go. That is awesome. Yeah. And then, um, I have resentment
and I have more resentment actually towards my mom than the family member that abused me. And
it was just, she knew and she's my mom, you know, but, um, I really have been working on that
relationship with her. Some stuff came out at Christmas and I'm like, I am just ready to let
that forget or forgive her and let those resentments go. So, um, so that's what I had shared about,
and that's what's come out in the heart work.
that I've been doing, working on.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Yes, so many.
So we have a lot of ladies and men
that have been abused, you all, we do.
It's sad, so much abuse goes around in the world,
but I can tell you, for those of you that don't know,
if you're newer to our group, I've shared this before,
so I won't go into the whole story.
I also was sexually abused by family members.
And my mom, when I told my mom,
she actually ignored me, y'all.
So I can relate to even, Bobby, what you said.
I carried a lot of resentment about that for a while.
And what I came to understand,
and this is different for everybody,
and again, this doesn't excuse any of these things, ladies,
but this is where, when we choose forgiveness,
God will also give us compassion for them.
So my mother grew up in a home
where that was prevalent as well.
And they went through all kinds of crazy stuff.
Her dad committed suicide,
and they were told to never speak of it, ever.
And so that's kind of what the family learned.
They learned you don't talk about it,
you don't acknowledge it,
and you absolutely don't try to work through it together
as a family.
Everybody goes their separate ways.
And so, again, I'm not excusing that my mom ignored me.
It just, I don't think,
just based off of what God has shown me personally,
that she had the capacity and the health at that time
to deal with it.
And so she did what she learned,
and that was her coping mechanism,
which you guys are gonna learn
some of your self-preservation stuff,
like what do you do when you get triggered?
How do you show up or maybe not show up?
Same kind of thing.
And so when we choose to forgive,
again, we technically didn't deserve Jesus's forgiveness
and God's forgiveness either,
but he forgave and Jesus came,
and he did all that for us.
And so we might not feel like people deserve forgiveness,
but we still choose it because we're commanded to, you all.
We're commanded to forgive.
And so we'll be praying for you in those areas
where God is revealing more things,
where stuff is coming out.
And that is how good God is,
is he doesn't, when we start saying,
okay, Lord, show me, show me, teach me, heal me, grow me,
all this stuff that we're learning in heart work,
we're asking him to reveal things for healing,
and then he does because he loves you
and he doesn't want you to stay carrying that weight around
within yourself anymore.
And praise God that you're letting go of victim
and you're gonna be the victor.
You're gonna not just be someone who survived,
but you're gonna thrive, all of you.
I speak that over all of you in any area
that you've been abused, betrayed, mistreated by anybody,
that in your 2024, you can thrive in every area.
Amen.
Yes, yes, so many good things.
Thank you for sharing that.
Anyone else wanna share?
I can share.
Go ahead.
Is it Johanna?
Is that how you say it?
And then whoever else was gonna go,
then you can go after her.
I'm not sure who said that.
Yeah, for me, the thing that I shared is,
you know, when I was in my 20s,
you know, I really like a guy,
a classmate of my sister in the university,
and one day she took me out with him,
and she looked at me and she said,
he will never look at you.
And so, and that become a pattern for me,
you know, every time that I see a guy,
you know, and I thought he was, you know,
looking and I was just, in my mind,
this is the thing that I say,
he will never look at me.
And he just walk away, you know,
without kind of giving the,
even talking or, you know, saying nothing.
And she was like, kind of scarred myself
because of the thing that she said.
And it's like, I never feel good enough, you know?
So this is the thing that is coming up,
you know, in the heart of work for me.
You know, those words that people have spoken over me,
and I believe the lie, so yeah.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Can anyone else relate to that?
Someone said something negative over you,
and you really still struggle with that thing.
Anyone else?
I see some people shaking heads, yeah.
When you were talking, Johanna,
I saw this image,
I don't know if you guys have ever seen
on social media or somewhere where,
you know, the little girl standing in front of the mirror,
and she's got her hands,
and she's got this Wonder Woman or Superwoman
or something shirt on,
and she's just, and she's got a cape on.
And it's a whole saying about like, you know,
putting your cape on or whatever.
But like, for whatever reason,
when you were talking about that,
that's what came to mind.
mind. Um, and it came to my mind because I was thinking, as you said, he will never look at me,
ladies. We have to choose to see ourselves in the positive before anybody else ever sees herself
that like sees us that way. Seriously. Like the reason a lot of us attract, I mean, I'm not in
the dating phase anymore, but even back when I was, I attracted people that were takers because
I was a big giver and I didn't have healthy boundaries. And I had all that lust spirits
of lust stuff clinging to me from all that abuse and stuff I didn't deal with. And, and so it was
just like, they were attracted to that. They were drawn to that. And so once that was broken off
and those soul ties were broken and I was healing and I started, I started not just thinking in my
head, but living in my heart, like I was valuable, like really valuable and not in a prideful way,
but just like, man, I really believe that whatever guy comes into my life, that is my spirit mate.
Like he's going to see me and he's going to know that I'm a blessing to his life. So in a sense,
I did those things where I stood in the mirror and I talked to myself and, and said things over
myself about who I am and, and what kind of person did I want to show up in the world as, and
all that kind of stuff. And doing that changed the way I showed up every day. So, you know, for you,
it's something your sister said over you. And so I would encourage you. So how I would do this ladies.
So I'm going to use the one that you said as an example. So instead of saying, he will never look
at me, or I will never be seen by someone like that. We shift and we say, God, thank you so much
that you're helping me come out of hiding. And I'm going to be seen by my spirit mate and he, and I'm
going to see my spirit mate or, and thank you God so much for giving me the confidence to come out
of hiding and to show up as my full self, that I won't hold anything back, that I'll celebrate
myself. I'll love myself. I'll see the value in myself. And I won't allow the words of other
people to hold me back anymore. And again, I'm just kind of spit balling things for you all,
but like we just, when we really, we really say that stuff and we start to get it from up here,
down into here, like I'm serious. Like you will show up as a different person,
even with your friends and your family. And then it will impact the stuff with the guys as well.
All right. There was someone else that was going to share when Johanna was going to,
I don't know who it was. It was me. Oh, awesome. Erica, go ahead. The main thing that I spoke
about in our session, in our individual room was self-forgiveness. That is what I struggle with
the most. And it's because I'm harder on myself than anybody. I don't give myself grace. And in
turn, I'm more gracious with other people, but I still have a hard time giving other people grace
because I feel, especially for me, I feel like, you know, I should know better. I should make
better decisions, you know, and I beat myself up relentlessly for mistakes that I make. And I think,
you know, just not listening, feeling like I'm not listening to God enough, or I hear him wrong,
or, you know, I get it wrong because I try to get it right as much as I can. I have,
I am a recovering perfectionist. And so, but I think when Jamie was talking, I think I got that
from having parents who, number one, never spoke words of affirmation and who always punished,
but never celebrated. It was always, you know, when you do something bad, you're definitely
getting punished, but when you do something good, oh yeah, that's what you're supposed to do. You're
supposed to make an A. We're not going to celebrate you for that. So I'm working on forgiving myself,
but also celebrating even the smallest of wins because all I got when I was younger was punishment,
never really the affirmation and the acceptance. And I'm also asking Holy Spirit to help me see
God differently and not as a punisher or a judge, which he is. I mean, he does say
he's going to judge us for our sins, but to realize that I am forgiven and that he's not
looking to punish me all the time, that he wants to bless me. And I'm really having to shift my
mindset around.
from that and forgiving myself.
Yes, yes, so good.
Okay, I'm gonna share a couple of things
as you were talking.
These are things the Holy Spirit brought up in my spirit.
Some of you all struggle to forgive yourself
as your adult self
because you've not forgiven the little Erica.
Does that make sense?
Or the little Maria or whoever.
So I feel like the Holy Spirit is showing me like you,
like to encourage you to ask him to show you
when was the first time you didn't forgive yourself
or that you were really hard on yourself
because you made a mistake.
And when he shows you some of those early on times,
like I could cry even just if I think about this too much,
but like, y'all, he wants to come to the little you.
Like who you were as a little girl when things went wrong
and life was hard or people were hard on you,
whatever your situation was like,
and he wants to hug you there.
That's what he wants to do.
The Holy Spirit wants to come into those places
and hug you in the spirit realm.
And a lot of times I encourage you guys
when I feel led as well,
and I just wanna share this now.
Some of you also need to ask Jesus to reveal to you
where he was in the moment that that trauma happened
or that hard thing happened.
And what I mean by that is Jesus was always there,
but because we believed the lie instead,
unfortunately, it's very common as little kids,
we can't even comprehend what's happening.
Jesus is there and he wants to reveal to you now
where he was then, so that you can hear then,
the second part is ask him to tell you
what he wants you to know about it.
And I'm gonna give you an example.
I went through an experience where there was one memory
in particular I was really struggling with from the abuse,
like, and it was all hard, you all,
but like one memory in particular,
and someone led me in this type of prayer
and it wasn't necessarily people laying hands
and I believe in that too,
but like, they literally were like,
invite Jesus in to show you.
And he revealed to me where he was at in that room.
And then he revealed to me what he wanted me to know.
And you all, it like, in a good way, like I was undone.
I was undone because he, his heart broke for me.
And so many of us don't understand that part of it.
Like he, God is not the author of these terrible things.
He's not.
The enemy wants you to think that he is
and he's playing a role in it and he's not.
That's, anything death is from the enemy.
Anything that causes us to die or be traumatized in pain,
all of that is from the hands of the enemy.
Okay, so that's the first part.
And I know I saw someone said,
whew, this is heavy.
It is, but man, it's so good.
It's so rich when we invite Jesus to come in
and show us where he was at and what does he want us to know.
All right, so and then the other thing
when you were talking about the perfectionist
and just before you even started saying
that your parents didn't affirm you much,
I wrote down in quotes, afraid to mess up.
And so even in that, when you're asking the Lord
to show you the stuff from when you're a little girl,
I would even say there's probably something there
where you maybe did make a mistake.
Again, I feel like it's linking
and just ask him to reveal
when you first started becoming afraid
to even make a mistake,
that there would be this heavy hand.
Even if you never got spanked or anything,
like as little kids,
like even if someone yells at us in a very strong tone,
that can be traumatizing
because everyone's spirit is different.
And for some of you, like you're very, very sensitive
and you might not even see yourself that way now,
but you might've been that way as a kid.
But if there was a lot of harsh things spoken to you,
it can break that spirit,
but God can restore that as well, okay?
So I don't want you guys to think you have to stay there.
But anyways, I feel like there's a link there for you.
So just wanna encourage you to pray into that.
And if this applies to anyone else,
yeah, yes, Alexis, I see you.
She says, I just realized I haven't forgiven myself
for losing my virginity at six.
16 against my will. So are you saying that someone, someone raped you? Just put that
in the chat. So I want to just talk about this if so, because you all under 18 is under
the age of accountability. You're not responsible for someone else's actions. So technically
you don't have to forgive yourself for, you know, something under the age of 18 that was
done to you by another person. Do you understand the difference ladies? When we're over 18,
we are then potentially choosing. Now, obviously if someone does something like raping us,
that's totally different. Um, I told him no many times, but eventually gave in. Okay.
So I can see where that guilt and shame would come in because of the eventually giving in
my youngest spiritual daughter actually is dealing with this right now. And so we're
just going to just right now come into agreement with forgiveness being released for all of
you. I feel like there's a lot on this tonight for you guys. So I want to just pray into
this for a minute. Father, thank you so much for your amazing grace. God, we thank you
that we come out of, um, yes, Lord shackles of shame, guilt, and condemnation in every
area of our lives, Lord, that we don't have to continue with cloaks, um, that carry us
down into oppression and depression. God, we thank you, um, that in Jesus name and by
the power of the blood of Jesus Christ, that you would lose spirits of forgiveness and
healing and reconciliation and peace over every one of these ladies tonight, or we thank
you that you would help them to step a little bit further into your grace and to the fullness
of the understanding of who you are. God as love, who you are. God is good and faithful
and kind God that you are gentle and that your joy is full of life, God, and that you
have a good plan for each one of them. We thank you that you'll help them to receive
your forgiveness and to extend that forgiveness to themselves and to others as well. And Jesus
name, Jesus name. All right. Um, yeah. Okay. So many good things, Gracie. I see you. I
see your hand. Um, I would love to hear what you have to say. That was an accident, but I did this
the other day too. That's all right. Just one thing that recently happened to me probably about
a month and a half ago. Um, I was just in prayer and I really sensed that in utero, my, my mom was
abused and, um, something there's been studies about in utero and children that were, that had
experienced abuse while in utero. And, um, something that I, but the lie that I believed,
I think in that experience was that, um, it's my fault and I'm responsible, um, came up just in
utero. Um, and so we, I've been running through that often, but again, it's coming back to that
place because I was abused as a child also, but, um, realizing that the roots are so deep, just
what you said about inviting him in and where did, where was the root cause of these behaviors
and belief systems that I carried into my early adulthood came from, from an experience in utero.
And then it just, it grew and got and produced fruit. Um, and so I know I've experienced a lot
of healing, but this was something that was, uh, that was really just uncovered recently. And it
was really beautiful experience. Yes. Gracie, thank you for sharing. Um, what came up in my
spirit, even as you were sharing is even if it's not exactly the same as what Gracie experienced,
um, I wrote down on my paper, one of the things I saw right before I logged in was someone's post.
I didn't even get to read it fully, but I saw that they, they were not a planned baby. And so
they've carried the idea that they were a mistake. And, uh, and so I feel like it's linking back to
that. Um, when our parents, when our moms get pregnant, if, if they did not want us or if they
were scared or whatever, um, if there was any level of rejection, like rejecting the baby in any way,
um, that can get actually released and I'm not going to get into the medical stuff, but it can
get released. And so I do want to, we'll pray before you all hop off tonight about that as well,
but just want you guys to understand, like when Gracie's talking, like, I know that might be a
stretch for some people and I don't mean that in a bad way, but like, there are things that can get
released when you're babies that God will reveal to you that he wants to heal all the way back
before you could even like really know what was going on. Okay. So just trust is the Holy
Spirit reveal stuff. Ladies, you guys are, are growing in your ability to hear him too,
as a part of the heartwork healing process.
That's your love story accelerator.
When you go into that and this community as a whole, God is, is showing his
people, showing his sons and his daughters that he's speaking, he's always speaking.
He wants you to know that you can hear him and he will reveal to you the
ways that you hear him the most.
Okay.
Let's start to shift a little bit.
I know that felt heavy for a little bit.
So let's kind of shake that off.
Seriously, like you guys can do this.
It really does help.
You're going to think I'm a little crazy, but everybody kind of needs
to stretch and get that off of them a little bit.
Yeah.
Because anytime we start to get into a zone where it's heavy, heavy, heavy,
which is really good too, we don't want that to settle into our bodies.
Okay.
All right.
So the next thing I want us to talk about tonight, uh, this is where else the
Lord was, was leading is a little bit about those orphan mentalities, poverty
mindsets, where are you living as a pauper instead of a princess?
And one of the things I wrote down from the book, I'm not going to read it, but
this is what stood out to me tonight in particular, where are you living as a
practical poly instead of living and doing things that are unexpected, fun and
exciting.
So isn't this funny?
God led me to this really serious thing.
And then he wants me to kind of get you guys thinking about where
do you not live into the fun?
Where, where are you being so practical all the time that you're, you're
not living in the unexpected and suddenly is the excitement land.
If you will, the, what is the fun things God is wanting you to do?
Some of you live in this again, there's no shame in this.
I lived as a practical poly for a while because I didn't have a lot of money.
Okay.
So those poverty mindsets kind of partnered with the practical me.
And so God had to teach me how to like, even have fun without spending a lot of
money.
So I want to encourage you.
Don't let money be an excuse for why you can't go have fun.
All right.
Seriously, you guys will be so surprised during your heartwork, even just
practicing self-care, going out and doing something fun, getting on a swing.
Going like, I know it's winter time.
If you're in like certain areas like me, like in Indiana, it's cold here now, but
like, there's so many things you can go find to do that will bring out the little
inner child in you.
And you guys need to be doing that.
Like in whatever way, the Lord, you know, maybe for some of you, uh, this is what
just came to my mind.
Like, and again, obviously within reason, if you're not physically capable, I
wouldn't do this, but like some of you probably still can do a cartwheel, you
know, like doing little things like, like that.
Um, I think some of you even just getting a dress and getting dressed up and doing
your hair, going somewhere, having your hair and makeup done, like these things
that you don't do anymore, that you loved doing some of you.
And, and I want you to know, like, if you were not someone that grew up liking
makeup or doing, I don't want you to feel any shame.
Okay.
This isn't necessarily about that.
It's about what is it that God is nudging you about when you were little, that was
fun or exciting, or it made you feel pretty, or it made you feel alive or, or
whatever that God is saying, come out of the practical poly come out of hiding.
Some of you, some of you even wallflowers.
I love you.
I love my wallflowers.
You guys just kind of hang out in the group.
You're, you're doing the work, but you're not saying anything.
You're not saying much.
And the Lord is like, I see you, but it's time to use your voice and using
your voice is typing sometimes it's, it is on these things, speaking up when
you're scared, turning your cameras on.
Like I nudged you guys earlier, letting me see you, letting everybody else see you.
You guys don't realize, I know it seems like such small little things, but each
one of these little things that you do will cause you to gain momentum and gain
momentum.
And again, you're going to start showing up as a different person in your life.
If you will invest in these things.
Okay.
So I'm going to put you in your breakout.
I want you guys just to talk about, okay.
And if you don't know what orphan mentalities are, I kind of went into this.
I think, I don't know if it, again, I do so many sessions.
It could have been Friday or could have been last Mondays, but the best way I can
explain, oh, and I want to just say to some of our ladies on Facebook, I see you
commenting.
I'll come back when they go into breakout and I'll, I'll touch on some of your
things as well.
Thank you for sharing.
Um, but when you guys go in here, the orphan mentalities, this is how I describe
it.
This was my own personal experience.
It was any place in my life.
where I felt like there was a gate, and I was reaching through the gate, like begging, begging God, like maybe if I could just, God, if you'll just, and never feeling like I could get to that thing.
Because in my mind, the enemy told me, like, I would never be able to have it.
And that can be a lot of different things to all. It's not just stuff, it can even be a way of life internally.
Like you look at other people, and you see them happy and living life and enjoying their life and you're like, yeah, I'm never going to have that.
That's one of the ways orphan mentalities can show up too. And that's just one, but it can be money, it can be poverty mindsets, and poverty mindsets isn't just money, just so you know.
It can be like, okay, I'm going to give you an example.
If you got holes in your socks, ladies, get rid of your socks and get some new ones. I know that sounds so simple.
Maybe it's some of you guys need to go, like, I'm just going to be real, buy new underwear, go buy a new bra, go buy something a little bit nicer for yourself.
And again, I'm not knocking it. I know we all do things and we put up with stuff that we don't even like. Some of us wear clothes that we actually don't like at all.
And we put up with it because we don't have a lot of money and we tell ourselves we have to keep wearing those things because we don't have money.
But do you all know there's places like, you know, gosh, I can't, like the Goodwill and places like that where you can literally go and get something for a couple bucks, and it might be a totally different outfit that you feel like rocking in.
So let's shift out of those mindsets of I can't do it. I don't have enough or whatever. Yeah, Salvation Army, there's a bunch of different places, maybe a friend, who knows, you know, pray, pray and ask God to provide an outfit for you.
But this is where we start to shift out of the, it's not possible. It's never going to happen for me. I can't do it, into, God, how do you want to do this for me?
You know, so we're shifting into how do you want to do this for me, God? How do you want to show up and show me what you can do in my life? Okay, so I'm going to put you in, yes, where we are living.
I see Nicole, I've been living this for years, survival mode. And again, there's no shame in it. It's recognizing it and asking the Lord to help you see how you can come out of that.
Like, what is the one step you can take every day? And this is where, what we can do so that it doesn't feel overwhelming, ladies. You don't have to accomplish the whole year in one day. Lord, what can I do today to come out of survival mode and help me come alive more?
Okay. All right. I'm going to put you guys in there. And I can't wait to hear how this goes. And I'm going to go ahead and I'm going to leave you with the same groups tonight. Okay, here you go.
Oh, I got to assign a couple people.
Hold on one second for my ladies that need assigned.
Keeps jumping around. I'm trying to do it.
There you go.
Go.
I don't know why it won't let me do some of y'all. It's weird.
Oh, there you go.
Sorry about that.
Okay, there we go.
All right. Sorry, ladies on Facebook. I had it. I couldn't figure out how to get them into there.
I'm sorry y'all are saw me with my finger in my mouth and all the things so hopefully I'm giving you all a good laugh.
So Lori says in here my mom was about to divorce my dad, when she found out she was pregnant with me she felt I made her more obligated to stay with him and resented me I'm so sorry that that happened to you.
Thank you.
now that you'll help Lori to continue,
even if she's already forgiven her mom for this before,
that she will continue to forgive her.
And Lord, that there will be just a spirit of reconciliation
and healing released from heaven above tonight
between her and her mom.
And I just thank you, Lord,
that you planned Lori from the day you thought of her.
You created her and brought her together
and you allowed her to be conceived
in the womb.
So Lord, we just thank you that she's a blessing,
that all children are blessings from heaven.
So Lord, we just thank you
that she'll be able to receive that tonight
and to fully experience your love and your grace
and your goodness for her,
that she would come out of alignment and agreement
with the lies,
that she was an obligation or resented in any way.
So Lord, we just thank you that you would continue
to heal any open or unhealed wounds
connected to that storyline in Jesus name.
All right, and Lori, I see that you're,
one of your goals this year is to have more fun.
That's so exciting.
I would love for you to share
just even some of the things the Lord is leading you to do
that is going to be more exciting and fun.
All right, while they're all in there,
or maybe actually I'll save this.
I think I'll save this until they come back
and I'll read it over everybody at the end.
So Lord, we just thank you so much
for continuing to help us awaken and arise
and that we would shine
and that your glory would rise upon us,
that you would help us to come out of hiding
and come into the light,
into the fullness of your plans and purposes for us.
I thank you that there has never been the slightest doubt
in your mind that the God who started this great work
in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish
on the very day Christ Jesus appears.
Lord, we thank you that your word also declares
this is not the time to pull away
and neglect meeting together
as some have formed the habit of doing
because we need each other.
In fact, we should come together even more frequently,
eager to encourage and urge each other onward
as we anticipate that day dawning.
I thank you, Lord, that you, thank you, Lord God,
that you would create sisterhoods
that would last a lifetime in this group.
Through these connections,
I thank you that you would help them to grow
in their ability to trust each other,
to trust you more, Lord,
and to see that you're doing a work far beyond
what they could ever ask, think, or imagine.
And Lord, we thank you that you are the one
that heals the wounds of every shattered heart.
You set the stars in place, calling them all by name.
That's from Psalms 147, verse three and four
from the Passion Translation.
Axe throwing for one.
Lori, that sounds awesome.
You should, when you go do that,
you should take a picture of it.
You should take a picture of it
and share it with us in the group.
We would love to see that.
All right, Lord, we just thank you for your words,
your word that is truth, that it's life,
that it cuts between bone and marrow,
and it is life and death.
We have life and death in the power of our tongues.
That's why it's so important, ladies,
for us to speak truth out of our mouths out loud.
And so if you ever wonder why I talk about that a lot,
that is one of the reasons.
When we confess things that are truth,
that are life-giving out of our mouths,
our spirit aligns with that.
A little bit more every day.
John 3.16 says,
for this is how much God loved the world.
He gave his one and only unique son as a gift.
So now everyone who believes in him will never perish,
but experience everlasting life.
Carrie, what room did you get kicked out of?
Do you know?
Maybe eight?
It looks like eight's low numbers.
Can you hear me?
Get you back in there.
You can click to join room eight,
even if you weren't in there.
That's where I just put you.
John 3.16 says,
for this is how much God loved the world.
He gave his one and only unique son as a gift.
So now everyone who believes in him will never perish,
but experience everlasting life.
Thank you, Lord,
that you sent your son so that we could experience
everlasting life,
that we don't have to live lives as paupers
underneath the table, waiting for breadcrumbs.
God, that you have created us
to be a princess in your kingdom.
Lord, I thank you that you would help us to step into,
yes, Lord, a deeper understanding.
what it means that your door is always open to us,
that we don't have to be afraid
that you're going to bring down the hammer on us.
Lord, I pray that in any way
where any of these ladies have experienced harshness
through their fathers, through authority figures,
maybe even their mothers,
that you would heal those areas
with the balm of Gilead tonight.
We thank you for that.
Yes.
These words I speak to you
are not incidental additions to your life.
Homeowner improvements to your standard of living.
They are foundational words, words to build a life on.
If you work these words into your life,
you are a smart carpenter
who built his house on a solid rock.
Rain poured down, the river flooded, a tornado hit,
but nothing moved that house.
It was fixed to the rock.
That's Matthew chapter seven, verse 24 and 25
from the message version.
Crystal or Kristen, I'm sorry,
I see your comment as well.
Line dancing, totally out of my comfort zone.
I've believed most of my life.
I am uncoordinated, ready to break that lie.
That's right.
That's right, practice.
Hey, look it up on YouTube
and practice a little bit before you go if you need to.
But I think that's so exciting.
Go have fun.
Let your little inner girl come out and play.
And I cannot wait to hear all about it.
I shouldn't just say I.
We, our community, our leadership team
looks forward to hearing all of these kind of amazing things
when you guys do the hard stuff and the fun stuff,
all of it creates breakthrough
and we're so excited for you.
Ephesians three, 17 through 19 says,
then Christ will make his home in your hearts
as you trust in him.
Your roots will grow down into God's love
and keep you strong.
And may you have the power to understand
as all God's people should, how wide, how long,
how high and how deep his love is.
May you experience the love of Christ
though it is too great to understand fully.
Then you will be made complete
with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.
Hi ladies, I'm just waiting for everyone to come back.
Never doubt God's mighty power to work in you
and accomplish all this.
He will achieve infinitely more than your greatest request,
your most unbelievable dream
and exceed your wildest imagination.
He will outdo them all.
For his miraculous power constantly energizes you.
That's from Ephesians three, 20 through 21
in the Passion Translation.
Hello, welcome back.
All right, who is willing to share with the whole group
what you shared in your private breakout group?
I can go.
All right, awesome.
Yes, I was caught in the middle of my testimony.
I was sharing with the group that yesterday
when I was celebrating,
first I celebrated with my family and then I went to church
and my sister got some things to put on your head.
And one of them, it was a crown that said happy new years.
And it was like a princess crown.
And, you know, I remember that some ladies
have been talking about, I put out your crown,
but I like, I didn't pay attention to that.
So I put it and so we took some pictures,
but when I went to church, people like,
everybody at the same time said,
oh, here comes the queen.
And I was like, wow, it felt so, so good.
Not because I was, you know, very proud,
but in a humble sense, it reminds me
and like going to the presence of the king
and I've been acknowledged for all those years
that I have not been seen because I didn't want to,
or I didn't put myself out there.
I was in my little corner, but that reminder.
And I actually, I started acting like a queen.
My posture, even like the way that I speak,
it was amazing.
Those five minutes of the glamor and the spotlight,
it felt so good.
So thank you for letting me share.
I actually put a crown in my Amazon basket
because I'm buying myself a crown.
Yes, girl.
Yes.
Ladies, again, it is about,
did you hear what Sylvia just said?
After they said that to her,
she started acting like a queen.
Ladies, how about we start acting like a queen
before people say it to us?
And I don't mean that bad.
That's so exciting.
I think that's awesome breakthrough,
but this is serious, like this is for real.
Like let's practice.
I used to, I used to dance around in my apartment because I just was practicing the joy of the
Lord and how I wanted my life to feel.
And I know that might sound so silly to some of you, but even my girls, I remember the
first time we were just messing around and we were pretending we were dancing salsa.
I don't know salsa you all, but the light, the life and the joy that came up into the
girls when I did that.
And that's what reminded me that time when I was alone in my apartment and God was like,
I want you to dance.
And it was like, I was dancing with him.
We were just having the bit, the biggest time ever.
It was so fun.
And so, you know, it's, it is what we do in private ladies that impacts what we do in
public show up and be that crown, that woman with the crown, even when you're by yourself,
believe in yourself that you are a conqueror, that you are a princess, that you're beloved.
Yes.
I love this.
Okay.
Um, is it Ms. Shonda?
You got it.
Oh, really?
I'm so excited.
All right.
What do you got?
So I shared a little story about, as of lately, the things that I've been really attached
to have been either tearing or getting holes in it.
And I, in terms of being in survival mode, I feel like I've been in survival mode for
a long time.
And then in transition, I will recognize I do have a spending problem.
I either spend too much or I don't spend it all.
So there's really no balance.
And then I feel like, oh, I don't need to spend because I don't want to have, not have
enough for the things that I need to have enough for.
And so, um, I was on a trip in Atlanta and the day my favorite boots, the zipper just
decided not to zip.
So I had to walk through the airport with broken boots.
And I'm like, what W T whatever, um, this morning I took my jeans out of the dryer and
I have thick thighs that definitely save lives ultimately.
And so, you know, where the jeans kind of rub together like that little hole.
And I was like, for real, these are my favorite jeans.
Why do they have a hole in them?
And so it wasn't until you were just talking that the Lord just shared with me, when you're
talking about making room and doing the hard work, he's making room for the upgrade.
And I believe that's what he's doing with a lot of us.
We can get so comfortable being in clothes that no longer serve us for our new season.
And so, um, this summer I wanted, I do a lot of speaking engagements occasionally and
I wanted some new clothes and I was like, gosh, I cannot really afford it at the time.
And a friend of mine came to my house with a bag full of clothes that her sister sent
to me now as a full figure woman, who's curvy, that doesn't happen very often because it's,
we don't have the normal sizes.
And so I felt like God was like, I got you.
You keep being obedient and keep trusting me and following me.
And I will put people in place to make sure that you look good.
And oftentimes the scripture, and I'm going to paraphrase it because I don't, I love Jesus.
I'm saved, but I don't always, can't remember the address of scriptures, but he says, if
I'll take care of the birds and the bees, what more won't I do for you?
And so if the Lord will take care of the birds and make sure they eat and crap on our cars,
what more won't he do for us so that we can truly go out and be prepared for our spirit
mates.
And I will say one last thing, what I've noticed lately is people have been just complimenting
me and I'm like, you're complimenting me in these old rags, but it's really not about
the old rags.
It's about how he's changing us on the inside that will exude on the outside.
And so I hope you're enjoying it.
Oh, yes, yes.
Anyone else?
Like, yes, yes.
Me too.
That was so good.
You all.
I I'm big on if you, okay.
So I used to be a cheerleader, so I love cheering people on.
I think it changes us when we participate, you know, and again, I know not everybody's
going to come like all cheery like me, so I don't feel bad if that's not you, but I,
there are times ladies where even just doing the silly things that I'm saying, you, you
just will be amazed at even just participating in that, how it shifts your spirit.
Thank you for sharing that.
I think there's so many times and that we, we, and we don't mean to, but we limit God.
You all, we really do.
And when she was talking, I just feel led to also encourage you all to be praying.
And if you're brand new, I lead Faith Fridays, and God has been doing this thing on Fridays, where a couple Fridays ago.
It happened where one person shared that they got this unexpected money and I just felt I felt the Holy Spirit on that.
And so I encouraged everyone just to start thanking God for sending them surprise money and checks and stuff in the mail and increases and promotions.
And you all literally every Friday since then, people have been testifying of surprise money.
And, and again, God is not a slot machine.
So I'm not saying that, but I'm telling you all, there is something he is doing in this season to show his kids that he hears us that he sees us and he loves to have fun.
He is the God of more than enough, more than enough.
And so I believe that he can also surprise us with a gift card to a store that we've never shopped at like whatever.
And, and again, it's not always going to come in the way we're asking either.
So know that, but it might come in a way that you wouldn't have even thought to ask.
This is not closed.
I'm going to tell you guys this really quick story.
And then I'm going to go to, sorry, Carol and Nicole.
Way back when I was a little girl.
I don't even remember why I wanted Raggedy Ann and Andy dolls.
I couldn't tell you why.
But I remember.
And I didn't for a lot, a lot of years, remember that I wanted those as a kid.
I have a friend that recently.
I'm Brian and I are like starting to try to get pregnant stuff and she did an activation for our kit like us and for our kids and she made us these Raggedy Ann and Andy dolls and sent them to me.
And I was like, Oh my God.
I wanted, I was super excited just because I thought it was super sweet.
And then God, like two days later reminded me.
You wanted these more than you were a kid and you didn't get them.
But I got them for you.
And I was like, Oh my God.
I'm so grateful for that. Like, all I know is that there are things that we longed for, that we felt like no one ever understood, or in I don't fault my mom, my mom was a single mom of four kids.
Yes, she made mistakes, but like, she did a lot of great things for us too. And for whatever reason, I didn't get Raggedy Ann and Andy dolls back then.
But God doesn't forget you all.
He doesn't forget I feel the Holy Spirit on this.
Some of you guys, even right now, there's things in the desire deep desires of your heart that you're not even speaking out in one day he's going to answer it.
And you're going to be like, Oh my gosh I never even told anybody this.
He knows the thoughts of your heart, and he loves you.
And when it's the right time. And if it's good for you. I believe he's going to answer that for you Carol I would love to hear what you have to share.
Yeah, so there was four of us in the group and I believe three of us talked about this same thing and I had started us out with the poverty mindset of wanting to be going on a trip with someone for such a long time, and the obvious first one I had said though
was to have that man in my life and have that companion to do things with, and it has been a very strong thing that has been in front of me where I see people going and live in Minnesota so going somewhere warm is so awesome.
And I really enjoy it but I can't go very often.
And even going on any trips.
Being divorced and single, of course, I don't have a lot of people in my life that I can do that with so that is something of a poverty mindset where it's like, No, I'm not going to for a while there I was like nope I'm not going to get this, it's not going to happen
I'm like no, turn it around and speak truth and ask God, God, I really want to go on a trip with someone. So I flipped it around and I was telling the girls to like that scripture came to mind, seek and you will find ask, and it will be given to you.
So I'm sitting in that moment now.
And I'm trusting that it's going to happen because also we've got the love story coming in this year.
And I know one of the other gals had said something similar to that, wanting the companion to do that with.
just kind of one on one time. So that was, those were my two
things. And then the other gal did talk about the poverty
mindset of having that support. She had a support job. And she
had gone to it and they had said promoted it as Yep, you're going
to move on to another, you know, the next step up. But things
changed there, and it became less and less. And so that kind
of hit her and feel free to chime in, Jen, if you want to.
But that was that was one thing that was a heavy thing for her
to for a negative mindset.
Yeah, thank you so much for sharing. So a couple things,
ladies, when, and I know that you all want the companion, and
I believe for you that you're going to have the companion to
go on the trips with. But I want to encourage you all.
To start looking at your bucket list, looking for places you
want to go, and encouraging some of you to go with some of these
sisters in your group, to activate what God is going to do
with your spirit mate one day. And I know, again, I 100% I was
you guys and I was married before, but everything we did,
I felt alone, it never felt fun. And we didn't travel a lot. And
so that was one of my actual just to encourage you, Carol,
that was actually one of my requests. If I go back and
showed you guys my Jesus cares board, it's had stuff on there
about traveling and, and fun and all of that kind of stuff. And
you all I travel more now than I ever have in my life with my
spirit mate. And so I just want to encourage you that that can
happen for you all. But I will tell you, do you want to know
what God led me to do first, to take myself on some trips to
find some girls. And I will tell you two of the trips I
traveled by myself, but I went and I met people there. And the
one was for our retreat for this community way back in 2021. And
then the other one was connected to this community as well. But I
just, there was a girl in my bridal party, and I did, I knew
her just from online, but she was going there too. And I was
like, Hey, you want to share a hotel room? And we you know, I
drove and we met. And sometimes we have to kind of we have to
start that in ourselves and start getting that going. So
that again, we start attracting the people that are like us
because we're already doing those things. Does that make
sense? All right. The other thing on the promotion, but then
change, then things changed. As soon as you said that, and I
think you were saying that was part of Jen's share. Yeah, that
was me. Yeah. Um, I just feel like, I'm not sure why. But I
feel like that somehow, when that happened, the reason that
felt so heavy for you is that's linking to something else, where
there was a promise of a blessing, and you felt like that
got taken away. And so this current situation at work, or
whenever that happened, is also linking up with something else
that needs healing. Okay, so I don't I don't know, I don't have
enough clarity on what that is. But I'm just sensing there's a
linking there to something else. And it might even be if it's not
you that experienced that it might be your parents or someone
else like in your family line. Okay. So just just pray for
Yeah, the Lord will reveal that for you. Okay, we're almost at
930. So I'm going to let Nicole go ahead and share and then
we'll start to close up for tonight.
So real fast. I know that you see my posts and about my dream
and how I was struggling with poverty mindset and everything.
So when we were in our group, three of us, a revelation hit
me. I had asked the father to help me with the poverty month
mindset. And then a couple nights after I had the dream
where I heard you're going to die and I screamed no. And I
heard that I'm going to live. So that revelation is poverty
mindset is going and I'm going to move into my new season in my
new life.
That's right. That's right. Yes, ladies, we die to our old
selves. The Bible actually tells us that we should die to
ourselves daily to our flesh, to our fleshly desires. And so
when we start living more for the Lord, we are going to have
times where the Lord will speak to us about the old man or woman
passing away. And behold, all things are becoming new. There's
a lot of scriptures if you guys look that up. Sorry, my thing's
going
start going off. Um, if you guys start looking that stuff up, you'll, you'll see that God,
it's not, and he's not doing it to hurt us. It's to transform us just like the caterpillar
in the cocoon. Think of it that way. The caterpillar goes into that cocoon and it goes through
all that metamorphosis and that change so that what it can become the butterfly and
be free and fly and all kinds of things. Butterflies cross pollinate. I mean, they're just, it's
incredible what they do. Um, and so some of you all, that's the process that you're
in, you're in the cocoon and God is transforming and changing you. And there's that story out
there that if somebody walked up and tried to help that caterpillar by opening that cocoon,
it actually would harm it. So sometimes it's going to feel uncomfortable, ladies. You're
going to feel like this doesn't feel good. It's going to be hard, but just hang in there
because God is doing something else for, um, you in the future. That's going to help
you. Uh, Michonne, I know that you had, you mentioned you had a couple of questions. Um,
I need to probably close this up soon. Is it a question about like tonight's session
or just in general questions or just in general, like you talk about bridal group in the groups
and I'm not very active on Facebook just because of work. And it's just not an easy medium
to get into with school. So I'm, I'm, I know you guys have upgraded this change, upgraded
the system. And so how do we connect with people that may be on the same, in the same
group? So this group, is this everybody that's in the week three, or is this people that
are just starting? Like, where are people in the group? Like, that's kind of something
I don't know connecting with people. So, yeah. So everybody, the way phase one, well, the
way our program works now we've shifted it recently. So people, some of our ladies in
phase one could be finishing phase one, like week four, week five. Some of you all are
just starting. Some of you all are in the middle. Um, as far as where you're at in the
course, people can be in different places. So when I do that weekly roll call, when people
comment on there, you can see where different people are at in their process. So if you
wanted to sync up with someone that way, and that is on Facebook. So if you're not
able to get on Facebook, but that's where that's at. As far as how you meet people that
live near you, when you start to get further into our community, we will open up like
single cities to you. And we will encourage you, we don't have them in every area. This
is just something that's still growing. But we do have several single city groups, and
you can join those. And so we're continuing to grow as a movement. And so the more we
grow, the more becomes available in that sense. One of the things we're also I had
assigned for the previous group prayer partners, it's just a lot of work to do it
manually. And so we're trying to come up with a way to do it where it's just super
easy. And you guys can get assigned, but we don't have that yet. If that doesn't
happen, I'll probably go ahead and assign you all just manually one more time until
we get that figured out. So yeah, we don't we don't share any emails or phone numbers
or WhatsApp information in our in our Facebook group. So I would encourage you guys not
to do that. Just because that's just one of the safeguards we have in place. Like if
you guys decide to connect with each other one on one, that is totally up to you. But
as far as sharing your information, your private stuff inside of that Facebook group,
I wouldn't do that. Okay, and we won't approve your post if you do. So, but if it's a
comment, you know, we might not always see that, but we would prefer you not to put that
stuff in there. So, all right. Anything else, ladies, everyone heart, hearts clear.
Tonight, I hope this was a blessing to you. And I'm just going to be continuing to pray
for you guys about the forgiveness and the confession and, you know, really releasing
yourselves and being able to move on. And because we're at 935, I do see you, Gracie,
but I'm going to have to close us out. If you want, if you didn't get to ask your question
tonight, ladies, you can also post your question in the phase one group. Okay, so know
that you can do it that way as well. And I will answer you there. Father, thank you so
much for this incredible night. God, I know that you brought each person here for such
a time as this, God, we will never all be in the same place at the same time, hearing the
same words from your heart, the whispers from heaven that you had for each one of these
ladies tonight, God, the connections that were created in the breakout rooms, Lord, we
just ask you to continue to grow. This sisterhood group, help them to
on each other, help them to grow in their trust in you. We just thank you, Lord, that you would
continue to guide them every step of the way, that you would help them to hear what your spirit is
saying to them specifically. God, if there's things that are in darkness, that those would
be brought to the light so that they can be healed and made whole. And Lord, we just thank you for
grace. We thank you for grace and courage and strength in each new day. In Jesus name. Amen.
All right. I'll be seeing you all in the group. Have an amazing week and we'll talk to you guys
soon. Bye everyone.