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Welcome everyone. Happy New Year. You all it's going to be a great year. Some of you all it will probably be your best year ever.

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Probably all of you but just some of you might have already had some good years sorry hold on, let me just get our ladies that might be over on Facebook.

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Over with us here.

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All right. Good to see you all, as always, um, you know, obviously I know everybody can't share your screen but if you can.

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This is good practice to come out of hiding when you come on these live sessions for us to see you even if you don't have your makeup done. You know I normally do mine just because I'm leading and teaching but like, you know, let's just show up and let people

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see us and be seen in this new year. Okay, so let me pray for us I have a couple housekeeping things but then we're going to go right into the content tonight.

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I'm going to be telling God to do some really big stuff tonight. And so just so you know where my level of expectancy is I hope that you will come and join me in that same level of expectancy for God to meet you tonight in a special way.

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Father just thank you so much for God another day.

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Thank you that if we're here, God you have something amazing for us, not just in our love story but in every area of our lives Lord I pray that you would help every lady to to rise up a little bit more into the fullness of your original design and plan for

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help them to hear what your spirit is saying to them louder than any voice of the enemy God we thank you for placing the balm of Gilead upon every wound.

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Every lie Lord let their let let the light shine on the lies and the deception where the enemy has has kept them stuck in ways that they didn't even know where these these wounds have been dormant they've been hidden.

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Lord we thank you for your grace thank you for revealings for healing we thank you for the greater truth that you are true that you bring life and hope.

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Even when the enemy tries to come in and kill steal and destroy you sent Jesus and Jesus you came. You chose us I'm so grateful.

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We're never too far gone. We can't, we cannot mess up in such a way that we would not be able to experience the fullness of your love because your word declares that your love is unconditional.

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So Lord I pray that if any of the ladies that are here live or watching the replay Lord I pray that you would help them to come out of the mindsets that they they cause a separation between themselves and you and being able to receive your love, because that's

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not true. So Lord we just thank you for healing in those areas tonight as well. In Jesus name. Amen. Amen. Hello. See some more joining us. Welcome.

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Alright so tonight.

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Just a couple housekeeping things. I'm welcome to our new ladies we've had a couple new ladies join us if you're here tonight and you've never been here.

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Is everyone's audio okay Nicole is saying, so everyone hear me okay. Okay, Nicole maybe check on your end sometimes I mute my computer and I forget that I muted so I don't know if that's what's going on for you, but I'm

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welcome to our new ladies who are joining us if you've never met me before I'm Bethany Cooper I'm one of the hardware coaches in our program, and just excited to be able to journey with you all on just in your amazing hard work journey and everything God's

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going to do in you and through you in these next five weeks if you're just newly joining us. And for those of you that have been here for a while you know we normally have live sessions on Mondays at 1pm and 8pm Eastern we'll go back to that next Monday.

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So if you are international and that time works better for you will be back for both times again starting next Monday we just did the 8pm only just during our Christmas Day and New Year's Day holidays.

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So that will start back, and if you guys have any questions, just know you can post them and as soon as we're able to get to them will approve them and send them through and answer them for you.

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One of the things we are going to start to do ladies just so you don't get confused is instead of you all trying to find the replays in different places.

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We have been putting them for a while into your website the jackiedorman.com website portal, as well as the Facebook group.

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So going forward we're going to just move towards just putting them in the portal because it just makes it easier everybody will know to go there for your replays.

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bottom. Okay. So the live replays of what we're doing like tonight, those will be down at the

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bottom of your page. And what we'll do is we'll cycle old ones out so that you don't have to

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scroll so far down. But right now you have to click the thing that says show more. And then

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there's a second page. So just so you know where to find like our Supernatural Saturday from this

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last Saturday, if you did not hear that, you are going to want to hear it. It's so good.

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And just to kick off your year, praying about like, what is God's word or his theme for your

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life this year, and leaning into what God wants to show you there. And then they activated that

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last night. On Sunday nights, we always do activation if you're new to activation. Basically,

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it's, it's taking the scripture, you know, faith without works is dead. So basically,

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what we do is we apply works to our faith, and put legs on them. So that can look a lot of

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different ways, but God will show us, you know, different ways to activate you all in things,

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and then it's your choice to participate or not. So tonight, the time Mel on Mondays is 1pm

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Eastern Time. And then again, at 8pm Eastern Time, we only record the 8pm Eastern Time though. So

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that's when we go live into the page. And that's just so that we can keep it clean because it's a

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lot of work to download all of these videos and things. So tonight, I want to kick us off,

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I was reading through I didn't get through everyone's weekly roll call, but I'll be in there

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looking at those and our my other teammates, Annette, for those of you that are new Annette

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Winter and Jennifer Yankovich are also heartwork moderators in this group. So you'll see them

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commenting as well. And they are on my team. I should also do a reminder for our new ladies,

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whether you came in last week or the or this week, this is your time to take your helper hats

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off. Okay, so you guys don't have to help each other. You don't have to give each other advice.

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That's that's our job. Okay, that's what we're here for. You get to just receive and be here

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and hear what God is saying to you about your hard work. Okay, so on that note, I was reading

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through some of your all's weekly roll call, we put that up every Sunday, Monday ish. And we just

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ask you guys where you're at, what is God saying to you? Are there any areas you're struggling

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doing great, all of those kind of things. So when you respond on there, we read those and we respond,

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but we also use that to pray about our content for Monday nights. And one of the things that God

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really highlighted to me today, someone wrote in their response, something about residual effects

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from their previous marriage. And that really stood out to me like in a good way. And I was

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just thinking about how many of you all myself included, you know, when we are trying to move

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forward, there are oftentimes residual effects from your previous marriages, maybe their previous

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relationships, same thing with, you know, any unhealthy, toxic relationships. So that could be,

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you know, family, friends, any, any kind of toxicity. When I read that, though, an image that

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I saw was like, if you can imagine someone just kind of like with their arms out and their clothes

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are sopping wet, but then they also have all these rags like hanging from them that are just soaking

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wet. That was the image God gave me. And so I wanted just to speak that, like kind of speak

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that out tonight that when we have these residual effects, sometimes it's just this stuff that's

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like heavy and it's, it's weighing on us and it's wet and it's just, you know, weighing us down and

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we don't even realize it's there, but praise God we're in heart work. So we're coming out of that

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stuff, right? So it doesn't mean it has to stay there or it will stay there. We have a choice to

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say, okay, Lord, show me where I'm still experiencing these residual effects where it's,

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it's hindering me in some way and it's keeping me from moving forward. Okay. So then the thing

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that I want to address here is some of you all may or may not have ever dated. So then what,

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well, here's the thing. Some of you all have residual effects from even like

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friendships when you were in elementary school, I've, I've been doing this coaching for a long

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time. And, um, one lady that stands out in particular, she had a friend that moved away

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when she was little and it broke her heart, like absolutely broke her heart. And she,

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her parents, unfortunately were not in a healthy place to help her process that

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loss. And so she carried that for a very long time.

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And so coming into a community like this, God was trying to encourage her to open up and let people

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in. And she was terrified to do it because the enemy lied to her that if you let people in

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and you love them, you're going to lose them. And so some of you, that's where you're at tonight.

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And maybe it wasn't your, your friend from school, but maybe it was someone else that

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you loved and you gave them a piece of your heart and they didn't care for it the way that they

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should have, or something like, you know, what happened with that girl, that lady, her friend

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moved away. It can be a sudden death of someone, you know, I had, um, a young lady that played

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softball with me in high school and she died in a tragic car accident. And it, I mean, it

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wrecked me, you all like my heart. And she was one of the first people that was like

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a true Christian in front of me. Like I knew she was a Christian. She was always so positive.

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Like I can still imagine her out on the baseball, like softball field and stuff that she would say

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and do. And she was such a fun person. And so when she died, I just didn't understand like why God

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would take her. So again, I'm just kind of stoking some of this stuff up tonight. This

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is how I do, because I'm going to send you guys into breakouts here in a minute.

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Some of the other things around the same kind of thing. It's a little different. Someone else said

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that their mom used to say no a lot, and that caused them to learn helplessness. So basically

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they didn't learn how to help themselves because they always were told no or held back. And so

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when I responded to her, what God told me to say is God is saying to it's like to her. And I'm,

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I'm releasing this over all of you as well tonight. It's time to start saying yes to yourself

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more. Yes. To you. Yes. To the little girl in you who has been told no, some of you, your entire

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lives, whether it's from a parent or other people, or even in your own mind, how the enemy messes

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with you and causes you to think that if you step out and do this thing, that's in your heart,

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that you're going to get rejected or shoved down or that you'll look silly or, you know,

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we all hear different things. So whatever your, whatever way the enemy speaks and tries to oppress

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you, that's what I'm talking about. Right. So in all of this tonight, I want you guys to,

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we're going to link it with our forgiveness. Okay. So I just felt like the Lord kept talking

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about leaving victim mentalities behind, start saying yes to yourself more. And where do you

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have these residual effects happening that you, God is saying, come, come further into healing

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tonight because I have something great for you. So I want to read a little bit again, just want

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to kind of talk and link it to the forgiveness for you a little bit tonight. Sorry. I just marked

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this a little bit ago. Give me one second. Okay. So again, the pages are different because I have

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the physical book, but it's in your heart work book. Um, the opening quote in chapter 10 says

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this, we must develop and maintain the capacity to forgive. He who is devoid, devoid, I think is how

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you say that devout, whichever one of the power to forgive is devoid of the power to love that's

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Martin Luther King. So I want to encourage you guys. Forgiveness is a choice. We're not

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always going to feel it, but understand too, that the love God is love. God himself is who empowers

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us to forgive. You don't have to do it on your own. So it's asking for him to help you forgive

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so that you can step into the divine plan. God has for you. We forgive because we've already

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been forgiven. Ladies, those who have been forgiven much will forgive much.

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And I don't mean not to shame anyone if you're struggling with forgiveness,

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but one of the things that helped me the most, uh, years ago when I was really struggling to

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forgive the guy data before who cheated on me multiple times, like I was just in a rough spot.

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And I remember the Lord just lovingly saying, I went to the cross for you.

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He was talking to me.

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I went to the cross for you.

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I went to the cross for him too.

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And it, you know, when I meditated on what, like all of the things that I had done wrong

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in my life.

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And Jesus went to the cross for me.

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He chose me even knowing I would choose some of those things.

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And so when we allow that to not shame us, but to really sink into our hearts and transform

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how we look at even the things other people have done to us, we're not excusing their

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unhealthy behavior.

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We're not saying, Hey, it's okay that you did that, but we're saying, I choose forgiveness

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because I have been forgiven.

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That's what we're doing.

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So we don't give away power.

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We actually take, we actually take power and receive it and walk in it when we do that.

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So victim mode, we will all be the victim of something or someone in our lifetime, but

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staying in victim mode is dangerous.

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It can lead to many self-destructive behaviors.

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Post addiction, self mutilation, suicidal tendencies, chronic, and toxic relationship

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patterns stem from viewing ourselves as victims.

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When you think of yourself as a victim, you create opportunities with your choices that

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continue to reinforce that identity.

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So if you're not careful, you can use the bad things that have happened to you as an

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excuse to not only do bad things to yourself and others, but to continue to choose things

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that will bring you more and more suffering.

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So where do you need to come out of victim tonight?

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I'm giving you guys a lot of things you can go into the breakout and talk about.

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In that way, any, you can just share whatever's really speaking to you from the stuff like

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the Holy spirit stirring up tonight.

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What do you need to share about?

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And I'm just going to let you guys kind of free for all.

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What is God speaking to you?

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When you go into this breakout session, I'm going to give you eight minutes.

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When you go in there, I'm going to be praying for you.

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When you come back for our new ladies, what we do is I ask some of you to share with the

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whole group, what you shared in your breakout group.

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And then we just see where the Holy spirit's going to take it from there.

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All right.

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Let me get that set up for you all.

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I'm excited.

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Again, I feel like God's going to do some really big stuff tonight, ladies.

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So for those of you that feel terrified right now, don't stay terrified.

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Okay.

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Receive what God has for you.

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It's good.

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It's really, really good.

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All right.

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Eight minutes.

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We're good on that.

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Click to join.

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Praying for you all.

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All right, my ladies on Facebook, if you're still hanging out with us, I see, I see nine

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or 10 of you.

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If you want to join us on zoom so you can get in those breakout sessions, you're going

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to want to jump on zoom using the link that I put in the Facebook comments.

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Um, all right, great.

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Everybody's situated in there.

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If you're not able to jump on zoom, that is totally okay.

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I want you to know you can still participate in the comments of the, of the, uh, live feed

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And then I will, I will do my best to watch that as well and include you in our conversation.

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Carrie, did you get kicked out?

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Oh, there she goes.

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So for now, until I start to see some stuff from you all, I am just going to pray.

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I'm going to trust the Holy spirit during this time, father, thank you so much for man,

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your goodness towards us.

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Thank you.

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Thank you for sending your son, Jesus to die on the cross for his blood to be shed for

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the forgiveness of our sins, for our healing, for our redemption, Jesus.

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Thank you so much for coming, um, and surrendering.

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Even when it was hard, you went to the cross.

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Thank you for following through on your word who I feel that in the Holy spirit tonight.

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Thank you for being here with us.

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Thank you that you God, Jesus Christ and Holy spirit.

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You're a man of your word.

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You're you're the Trinity you're three in one, but you are one.

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I pray that every lady in the breakouts, as well as those watching on Facebook or in the

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replay, that they would experience a fresh wave and a fresh wind of the truth of who

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A father that you are love and you want them to know you more as love.

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So I pray that that would just wash over them in a fresh way tonight.

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Help them to receive all the love and the goodness and the faithfulness

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and the kindness that you have for them.

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God, I thank you that you would help us to come out of victim

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mentalities and mindsets that we would leave those things behind that we

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would step into the fullness of your grace and your mercy.

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That's new every morning that we would see ourselves through new eyes, through

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your eyes and hear what your spirit is saying about us, Diana, that's totally

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fine.

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I'm so glad that you're still joining us any way that you can.

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Just want, you know, I see you and I hear you and I'm so glad you're here.

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we're seen that we don't have to fear that you will forget us because God,

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your eyes are always on us.

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keep watch over us.

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now in heavenly places, interceding for us.

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negate the fact that you're still there.

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Like when we're, um, if any of you have had little kids or, you know, growing up

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with your parents, sometimes we don't know our parents are still there and

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they've got their eye on us because they're letting us venture out some, but

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their eyes are still on us and they love us and they're looking out for us.

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there weren't other people along the way that God placed in your path

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that we're looking out for you.

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It says in his word, under the shadow of his wings and in the

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presence of the almighty, that's where we're at tonight.

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Hallelujah.

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Praise the Lord that he's always keeping us safe and that we don't

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have to fear or be afraid.

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go through those with us.

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He's gone before us and he will make a way for us to stand up

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under those things and to overcome.

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Yes, yes, yes, yes.

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Psalm 51 10 says, create in me a clean heart of God and renew

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a steadfast spirit within me.

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anything that's dead, anything that's not serving us, anything that's

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holding us back from the fullness.

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Again, I just keep hearing that the fullness of his plans for us.

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Lord, I thank you that you would just continue to help each lady to

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hear what your spirit is saying to them, help them to know the areas

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that you want them to share any wet rags or residual effects from previous

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relationships and toxic environments, Lord, that you just want them to

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trust you to remove those rags tonight.

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I thank you that you would help them to say, yes, Lord, you're knocking

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on the door of our hearts and you're asking if you can come in.

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the power of your Holy spirit.

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To respond to you and say, yes, yes, Lord, you can come in.

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You can come into these places of my heart and bring healing and life.

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literally it's like there is this empty crevice and it has looked like it's a

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dead place, but as soon as you allow God to come in there, what I saw was that

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dark, empty place being filled with the grass and flowers blossoming and just

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like quick, a quick work, a quick work.

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fully understand it and we can't comprehend it, that you are still

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That's totally fine as well.

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I see you as well.

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I'm so glad that you guys are here.

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I see Leah.

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I see Kara.

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I just want to shout out your names a little bit.

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MJ, which is Melissa Joy, Erin Elizabeth, Sandra, Brandy, Jamie.

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that I see you all and God loves you so much.

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Romans 8 28 says, so we are convinced that every detail of our lives is

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continually woven together to fit into God's perfect plan of bringing good into

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our lives for we are his lovers who have been called to fulfill his design.

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and purpose. Hi Lori. It's so good. I love when you guys say hi when you're here. We

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are so glad that you're part of this community. God loves you. He's doing, he drew you here

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for a purpose for such a time as this. Y'all earlier today, um, I looked at my watch when

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I had a song playing and it said 414. I immediately thought of Esther 414. And that is part of

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what I just declared that we are brought to the kingdom for such a time as this. It is

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your time. It is my time. It is our time to step into our divine plan and destiny and

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for God to lead you all into your divine destiny, DNA relationship. Praise God. He's already

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done that for me. And so I can speak hope and life into you all in those areas. Um,

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Oh, cool. Lori, your birthday is 414. So April 14th, that is supernatural. I love that. Um,

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all right. So let's talk about too. If you guys have something you want to share that I was

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talking about again, you can put those in the comments. Um, any areas where you feel like God,

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I'm getting a little bit of feedback. Hold on one second. Any areas where you've,

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Oh, sorry. Don't unmute there, Katie. Sorry. Just bumped that accidentally. Um,

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where you guys want to share with the group so that when they see your comments, like areas

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where you feel like God is wanting you to say yes to yourself in this season. I want to hear,

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I want to hear some of those. All right. Welcome back ladies. We are just waiting for everyone

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else to come back. Sorry, y'all. I get really dry when I'm leading these sessions. Um, might

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have chapstick a lot tonight and water a lot. So sorry. We got choked in there. All right. Almost

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have everybody back. How was it? Was it pretty good? Good conversations. I think we had a lot.

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Y'all had a lot of options to talk about tonight in there. All right. They're almost here.

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Here we go. All right. Welcome back. Welcome back. Should have about 33. I think of you

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were close. Um, we might've lost a couple of people. Um, all right. Awesome. Who is willing

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to share with the whole group? What you shared in your private breakout session?

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I'll share. Okay. Awesome. Go ahead, Jamie. Um, I was mentioning that when you had said something,

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um, about the woman who was told no a lot, um, I had this kind of revelation on the way to the

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store earlier. My, my daughter and her friend were in the backseat. And it's like, every time

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we go somewhere, she asks for something. And of course I get irritated. I'm like, why, why are

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you always asking for something? And she's like, I don't know. And I'm like, I don't know. And I'm

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like, why are you always asking for something? And she's like, I don't know. And I'm like, I don't

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know. And I'm like, why are you always asking for stuff? And I had this thought in my head that

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when I was growing up, my mom would always tell me not to ask for anything.

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Don't ask for anything. When we're going to the store, don't ask for anything. When you go to a

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friend's house. And I was thinking to myself, how much of that might be related to why I can't ask

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for help now, why I don't ask God for anything. And just kind of like, just thinking with God,

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what is the connection there? Is there a connection there to why I feel like I have

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to be misindependent and do everything and be everything all the time?

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Yeah. I'm going to say a big yeah to that one. Yes, yes, yes. You're onto something there.

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And here's the thing. Here's the thing. Not only will you all, if you guys have

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been through things like that, not only will you struggle to ask people for help,

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um, you're going to have a hard time asking God to bless your life.

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Like it will feel weird for, or uncomfortable when God starts saying, ask me. And I know this

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because God has had me in the season. I literally, I'm looking right out at this sign. I put up,

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ask God. He kept saying, ask me, just ask me, ask me and see what I will do.

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And he's not a slot machine. You also, I'm not trying to say that, but there's something about,

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here's where it started for me. And we're going to talk about this a little bit tonight as well.

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So I'm going to kind of plant some seeds right now. Several years ago, God started showing me

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how many orphan mentalities and, and poverty mindsets and popper over princess stuff that

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I was walking in and living in. And I still feel like God is still showing me stuff all the time.

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And he started working on me with my vision board. He started talking to me about how his door was

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always open to me. And that was several years ago. Now, how crazy, if you guys haven't heard

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Saturday's supernatural Saturday, Jackie talks about the word for our 2024 is the year of the

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open door. So I feel like God's on that even tonight. I did not plan on kind of talking

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about this thing from my board, but he started talking to me about my door's always open to you.

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My dad, when I grew up, was an alcoholic drug addict, was not really around left when I was

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just like newly born and left my mom without a car. There's all kinds of stuff. Anyways,

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I'm sharing that to say when he was around, I can remember he fell asleep all the time.

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He would make me stay home. I wasn't allowed to go with my friends. And then he would pass out,

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fall asleep. And I remember just resenting him so much for that stuff. And so I related to God

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in the same kind of way, like you you're there, but I don't feel like you're really there kind

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of stuff. And it translated into all different other things that I grew up under. And they all

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kind of formed us like web, if you will, in my mindsets. And so God started talking to me about

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that. My door's always open to you. And he started talking to me like daughter, beloved, come and

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ask me, just come and ask me and see what I'll do. And, uh, and then this last year, God was

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talking to both Brian and I about that. We could have whatever we ask for. What, what? Yes. That's

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transforming ways. I think about God and his plan for my life. Yes, absolutely. I want to follow

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his plan. I want to follow the holy spirit, but y'all there are times where God, we will have

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seasons where he says, we have a choice. We always have a choice, but there's times where

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he's literally like, I want to bless you with what you're asking for. If it's good for us. Okay.

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Remember that context, if it is good for us, if we're asking for stuff that is not good for us,

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he loves us so much that it will protect us from that stuff. So I don't want you to hear what I'm

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not saying, but Jamie, yes, God wants you to ask him for what you need. He wants you to know

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that there's probably a reason. And I would encourage you to even ask the Lord to reveal

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to you why your mom did that. Because unfortunately, most times when we, we do,

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or say things like that as a parent, it's probably because we didn't have money.

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I remember even saying it to my spiritual daughters, cause a little, my little Olivia

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would always, always wanted something when we would go to the store. Now I didn't say to her,

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don't go to other people's houses and ask for anything or anything like that. But

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I can remember just feeling the stress of not having money and I knew they were going to want

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stuff. So I would just like, don't, don't touch anything. Don't ask for anything. Like we're,

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we're going to the store for the groceries and that's it, you know? And I loved them,

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I loved them, but I felt this pressure. And so again, not that it excuses it,

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but I think just where we can also allow God to give us that understanding and then forgive them.

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Because that's, that's the other side. Most times we don't even realize that that thing with your

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mom, you, you probably, if you haven't already, I would encourage you to do the forgiveness prayer

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regarding that, because it can shift into like, when you are told or anyone is told when you go

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other places, don't even ask those people for anything. It can almost shift into believing

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that you have to be neglected and not that I'm saying you were neglected, Jamie, but in our

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minds, that's how the enemy messes with us. Right? So just be praying and asking God where he wants

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you to say yes to yourself. And are there any areas he wants you to say yes to your daughter

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as well in the days ahead? What a blessing. Thank you for sharing that right out of the gate.

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Anyone else want to share what you shared in your breakout session?

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Um, I'll share, go ahead. Okay. Yeah. I had just shared in mind. So I was, um,

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sexually abused as a child and I still play the victim, you know, like if that didn't happen to

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me, then I wouldn't, you know, do these things or act this way. And, um, I'm definitely ready to let

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that go. I'm 52. I'm ready to let it go. That is awesome. Yeah. And then, um, I have resentment

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and I have more resentment actually towards my mom than the family member that abused me. And

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it was just, she knew and she's my mom, you know, but, um, I really have been working on that

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relationship with her. Some stuff came out at Christmas and I'm like, I am just ready to let

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that forget or forgive her and let those resentments go. So, um, so that's what I had shared about,

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and that's what's come out in the heart work.

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that I've been doing, working on.

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Thank you so much for sharing.

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Yes, so many.

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So we have a lot of ladies and men

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that have been abused, you all, we do.

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It's sad, so much abuse goes around in the world,

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but I can tell you, for those of you that don't know,

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if you're newer to our group, I've shared this before,

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so I won't go into the whole story.

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I also was sexually abused by family members.

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And my mom, when I told my mom,

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she actually ignored me, y'all.

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So I can relate to even, Bobby, what you said.

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I carried a lot of resentment about that for a while.

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And what I came to understand,

406
00:35:39.320 --> 00:35:40.880
and this is different for everybody,

407
00:35:40.880 --> 00:35:44.600
and again, this doesn't excuse any of these things, ladies,

408
00:35:44.600 --> 00:35:48.120
but this is where, when we choose forgiveness,

409
00:35:48.120 --> 00:35:51.600
God will also give us compassion for them.

410
00:35:52.720 --> 00:35:56.920
So my mother grew up in a home

411
00:35:56.960 --> 00:35:59.200
where that was prevalent as well.

412
00:35:59.200 --> 00:36:02.560
And they went through all kinds of crazy stuff.

413
00:36:02.560 --> 00:36:04.200
Her dad committed suicide,

414
00:36:04.200 --> 00:36:08.040
and they were told to never speak of it, ever.

415
00:36:08.040 --> 00:36:10.520
And so that's kind of what the family learned.

416
00:36:10.520 --> 00:36:12.120
They learned you don't talk about it,

417
00:36:12.120 --> 00:36:13.720
you don't acknowledge it,

418
00:36:13.720 --> 00:36:16.600
and you absolutely don't try to work through it together

419
00:36:16.600 --> 00:36:17.840
as a family.

420
00:36:17.840 --> 00:36:19.720
Everybody goes their separate ways.

421
00:36:19.720 --> 00:36:22.960
And so, again, I'm not excusing that my mom ignored me.

422
00:36:22.960 --> 00:36:24.960
It just, I don't think,

423
00:36:24.960 --> 00:36:27.680
just based off of what God has shown me personally,

424
00:36:27.680 --> 00:36:31.680
that she had the capacity and the health at that time

425
00:36:31.680 --> 00:36:33.480
to deal with it.

426
00:36:33.480 --> 00:36:35.640
And so she did what she learned,

427
00:36:35.640 --> 00:36:37.480
and that was her coping mechanism,

428
00:36:37.480 --> 00:36:38.640
which you guys are gonna learn

429
00:36:38.640 --> 00:36:40.640
some of your self-preservation stuff,

430
00:36:40.640 --> 00:36:44.000
like what do you do when you get triggered?

431
00:36:44.000 --> 00:36:47.320
How do you show up or maybe not show up?

432
00:36:47.320 --> 00:36:48.920
Same kind of thing.

433
00:36:48.920 --> 00:36:52.320
And so when we choose to forgive,

434
00:36:52.320 --> 00:36:57.160
again, we technically didn't deserve Jesus's forgiveness

435
00:36:57.160 --> 00:36:58.360
and God's forgiveness either,

436
00:36:58.360 --> 00:37:01.160
but he forgave and Jesus came,

437
00:37:01.160 --> 00:37:02.560
and he did all that for us.

438
00:37:02.560 --> 00:37:06.680
And so we might not feel like people deserve forgiveness,

439
00:37:06.680 --> 00:37:11.120
but we still choose it because we're commanded to, you all.

440
00:37:11.120 --> 00:37:13.840
We're commanded to forgive.

441
00:37:13.840 --> 00:37:18.040
And so we'll be praying for you in those areas

442
00:37:18.040 --> 00:37:20.040
where God is revealing more things,

443
00:37:20.040 --> 00:37:21.560
where stuff is coming out.

444
00:37:22.400 --> 00:37:24.360
And that is how good God is,

445
00:37:24.360 --> 00:37:26.480
is he doesn't, when we start saying,

446
00:37:26.480 --> 00:37:29.920
okay, Lord, show me, show me, teach me, heal me, grow me,

447
00:37:29.920 --> 00:37:32.000
all this stuff that we're learning in heart work,

448
00:37:32.000 --> 00:37:33.880
we're asking him to reveal things for healing,

449
00:37:33.880 --> 00:37:36.600
and then he does because he loves you

450
00:37:36.600 --> 00:37:40.200
and he doesn't want you to stay carrying that weight around

451
00:37:40.200 --> 00:37:42.000
within yourself anymore.

452
00:37:42.000 --> 00:37:44.600
And praise God that you're letting go of victim

453
00:37:44.600 --> 00:37:46.840
and you're gonna be the victor.

454
00:37:46.840 --> 00:37:49.320
You're gonna not just be someone who survived,

455
00:37:49.320 --> 00:37:51.200
but you're gonna thrive, all of you.

456
00:37:51.400 --> 00:37:53.560
I speak that over all of you in any area

457
00:37:53.560 --> 00:37:57.960
that you've been abused, betrayed, mistreated by anybody,

458
00:37:57.960 --> 00:38:02.960
that in your 2024, you can thrive in every area.

459
00:38:06.320 --> 00:38:07.240
Amen.

460
00:38:07.240 --> 00:38:09.320
Yes, yes, so many good things.

461
00:38:09.320 --> 00:38:10.280
Thank you for sharing that.

462
00:38:10.280 --> 00:38:11.480
Anyone else wanna share?

463
00:38:13.920 --> 00:38:14.880
I can share.

464
00:38:17.400 --> 00:38:18.720
Go ahead.

465
00:38:18.720 --> 00:38:19.640
Is it Johanna?

466
00:38:19.640 --> 00:38:21.080
Is that how you say it?

467
00:38:22.080 --> 00:38:23.960
And then whoever else was gonna go,

468
00:38:23.960 --> 00:38:25.240
then you can go after her.

469
00:38:25.240 --> 00:38:27.120
I'm not sure who said that.

470
00:38:27.120 --> 00:38:29.880
Yeah, for me, the thing that I shared is,

471
00:38:29.880 --> 00:38:32.680
you know, when I was in my 20s,

472
00:38:32.680 --> 00:38:34.280
you know, I really like a guy,

473
00:38:34.280 --> 00:38:37.760
a classmate of my sister in the university,

474
00:38:37.760 --> 00:38:41.520
and one day she took me out with him,

475
00:38:41.520 --> 00:38:43.080
and she looked at me and she said,

476
00:38:43.080 --> 00:38:44.520
he will never look at you.

477
00:38:45.480 --> 00:38:48.920
And so, and that become a pattern for me,

478
00:38:48.920 --> 00:38:50.880
you know, every time that I see a guy,

479
00:38:50.880 --> 00:38:52.560
you know, and I thought he was, you know,

480
00:38:52.560 --> 00:38:54.760
looking and I was just, in my mind,

481
00:38:54.760 --> 00:38:55.720
this is the thing that I say,

482
00:38:55.720 --> 00:38:57.240
he will never look at me.

483
00:38:57.240 --> 00:38:58.800
And he just walk away, you know,

484
00:38:58.800 --> 00:39:00.800
without kind of giving the,

485
00:39:00.800 --> 00:39:03.080
even talking or, you know, saying nothing.

486
00:39:03.080 --> 00:39:05.320
And she was like, kind of scarred myself

487
00:39:06.360 --> 00:39:08.680
because of the thing that she said.

488
00:39:08.680 --> 00:39:13.080
And it's like, I never feel good enough, you know?

489
00:39:13.080 --> 00:39:14.800
So this is the thing that is coming up,

490
00:39:14.800 --> 00:39:16.760
you know, in the heart of work for me.

491
00:39:16.760 --> 00:39:19.360
You know, those words that people have spoken over me,

492
00:39:19.360 --> 00:39:23.600
and I believe the lie, so yeah.

493
00:39:23.600 --> 00:39:24.880
Thank you so much for sharing.

494
00:39:24.880 --> 00:39:26.320
Can anyone else relate to that?

495
00:39:26.320 --> 00:39:28.360
Someone said something negative over you,

496
00:39:28.360 --> 00:39:30.920
and you really still struggle with that thing.

497
00:39:30.920 --> 00:39:31.760
Anyone else?

498
00:39:31.760 --> 00:39:34.280
I see some people shaking heads, yeah.

499
00:39:34.280 --> 00:39:36.800
When you were talking, Johanna,

500
00:39:36.800 --> 00:39:37.840
I saw this image,

501
00:39:37.840 --> 00:39:39.280
I don't know if you guys have ever seen

502
00:39:39.280 --> 00:39:41.920
on social media or somewhere where,

503
00:39:41.920 --> 00:39:44.160
you know, the little girl standing in front of the mirror,

504
00:39:44.160 --> 00:39:45.840
and she's got her hands,

505
00:39:45.840 --> 00:39:48.560
and she's got this Wonder Woman or Superwoman

506
00:39:48.560 --> 00:39:49.600
or something shirt on,

507
00:39:49.600 --> 00:39:52.080
and she's just, and she's got a cape on.

508
00:39:52.080 --> 00:39:54.400
And it's a whole saying about like, you know,

509
00:39:54.400 --> 00:39:56.160
putting your cape on or whatever.

510
00:39:56.160 --> 00:39:57.440
But like, for whatever reason,

511
00:39:57.440 --> 00:39:59.000
when you were talking about that,

512
00:39:59.000 --> 00:40:00.240
that's what came to mind.

513
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:07.360
mind. Um, and it came to my mind because I was thinking, as you said, he will never look at me,

514
00:40:07.360 --> 00:40:15.040
ladies. We have to choose to see ourselves in the positive before anybody else ever sees herself

515
00:40:15.040 --> 00:40:21.280
that like sees us that way. Seriously. Like the reason a lot of us attract, I mean, I'm not in

516
00:40:21.280 --> 00:40:27.680
the dating phase anymore, but even back when I was, I attracted people that were takers because

517
00:40:27.680 --> 00:40:33.840
I was a big giver and I didn't have healthy boundaries. And I had all that lust spirits

518
00:40:33.840 --> 00:40:39.360
of lust stuff clinging to me from all that abuse and stuff I didn't deal with. And, and so it was

519
00:40:39.360 --> 00:40:45.040
just like, they were attracted to that. They were drawn to that. And so once that was broken off

520
00:40:45.600 --> 00:40:51.520
and those soul ties were broken and I was healing and I started, I started not just thinking in my

521
00:40:51.520 --> 00:41:00.160
head, but living in my heart, like I was valuable, like really valuable and not in a prideful way,

522
00:41:00.160 --> 00:41:08.720
but just like, man, I really believe that whatever guy comes into my life, that is my spirit mate.

523
00:41:08.720 --> 00:41:14.880
Like he's going to see me and he's going to know that I'm a blessing to his life. So in a sense,

524
00:41:14.880 --> 00:41:20.640
I did those things where I stood in the mirror and I talked to myself and, and said things over

525
00:41:20.640 --> 00:41:26.400
myself about who I am and, and what kind of person did I want to show up in the world as, and

526
00:41:26.400 --> 00:41:36.720
all that kind of stuff. And doing that changed the way I showed up every day. So, you know, for you,

527
00:41:36.720 --> 00:41:42.240
it's something your sister said over you. And so I would encourage you. So how I would do this ladies.

528
00:41:42.240 --> 00:41:47.680
So I'm going to use the one that you said as an example. So instead of saying, he will never look

529
00:41:47.760 --> 00:41:54.640
at me, or I will never be seen by someone like that. We shift and we say, God, thank you so much

530
00:41:54.640 --> 00:42:00.320
that you're helping me come out of hiding. And I'm going to be seen by my spirit mate and he, and I'm

531
00:42:00.320 --> 00:42:05.280
going to see my spirit mate or, and thank you God so much for giving me the confidence to come out

532
00:42:05.280 --> 00:42:11.200
of hiding and to show up as my full self, that I won't hold anything back, that I'll celebrate

533
00:42:11.200 --> 00:42:16.720
myself. I'll love myself. I'll see the value in myself. And I won't allow the words of other

534
00:42:16.720 --> 00:42:21.600
people to hold me back anymore. And again, I'm just kind of spit balling things for you all,

535
00:42:21.600 --> 00:42:28.160
but like we just, when we really, we really say that stuff and we start to get it from up here,

536
00:42:29.040 --> 00:42:34.720
down into here, like I'm serious. Like you will show up as a different person,

537
00:42:34.720 --> 00:42:40.240
even with your friends and your family. And then it will impact the stuff with the guys as well.

538
00:42:41.200 --> 00:42:46.480
All right. There was someone else that was going to share when Johanna was going to,

539
00:42:47.280 --> 00:42:55.760
I don't know who it was. It was me. Oh, awesome. Erica, go ahead. The main thing that I spoke

540
00:42:55.760 --> 00:43:03.360
about in our session, in our individual room was self-forgiveness. That is what I struggle with

541
00:43:03.680 --> 00:43:13.040
the most. And it's because I'm harder on myself than anybody. I don't give myself grace. And in

542
00:43:13.040 --> 00:43:19.280
turn, I'm more gracious with other people, but I still have a hard time giving other people grace

543
00:43:19.280 --> 00:43:24.400
because I feel, especially for me, I feel like, you know, I should know better. I should make

544
00:43:24.400 --> 00:43:35.120
better decisions, you know, and I beat myself up relentlessly for mistakes that I make. And I think,

545
00:43:36.000 --> 00:43:41.200
you know, just not listening, feeling like I'm not listening to God enough, or I hear him wrong,

546
00:43:41.200 --> 00:43:48.160
or, you know, I get it wrong because I try to get it right as much as I can. I have,

547
00:43:48.160 --> 00:43:56.080
I am a recovering perfectionist. And so, but I think when Jamie was talking, I think I got that

548
00:43:57.040 --> 00:44:07.680
from having parents who, number one, never spoke words of affirmation and who always punished,

549
00:44:07.680 --> 00:44:12.640
but never celebrated. It was always, you know, when you do something bad, you're definitely

550
00:44:12.640 --> 00:44:15.920
getting punished, but when you do something good, oh yeah, that's what you're supposed to do. You're

551
00:44:15.920 --> 00:44:21.680
supposed to make an A. We're not going to celebrate you for that. So I'm working on forgiving myself,

552
00:44:21.680 --> 00:44:31.280
but also celebrating even the smallest of wins because all I got when I was younger was punishment,

553
00:44:31.280 --> 00:44:38.080
never really the affirmation and the acceptance. And I'm also asking Holy Spirit to help me see

554
00:44:38.080 --> 00:44:45.280
God differently and not as a punisher or a judge, which he is. I mean, he does say

555
00:44:45.280 --> 00:44:52.560
he's going to judge us for our sins, but to realize that I am forgiven and that he's not

556
00:44:52.560 --> 00:44:59.200
looking to punish me all the time, that he wants to bless me. And I'm really having to shift my

557
00:44:59.200 --> 00:44:59.920
mindset around.

558
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.520
from that and forgiving myself.

559
00:45:02.520 --> 00:45:04.600
Yes, yes, so good.

560
00:45:04.600 --> 00:45:06.600
Okay, I'm gonna share a couple of things

561
00:45:06.600 --> 00:45:07.440
as you were talking.

562
00:45:07.440 --> 00:45:10.320
These are things the Holy Spirit brought up in my spirit.

563
00:45:12.000 --> 00:45:14.800
Some of you all struggle to forgive yourself

564
00:45:14.800 --> 00:45:17.080
as your adult self

565
00:45:17.080 --> 00:45:21.120
because you've not forgiven the little Erica.

566
00:45:23.520 --> 00:45:24.880
Does that make sense?

567
00:45:24.880 --> 00:45:27.160
Or the little Maria or whoever.

568
00:45:27.160 --> 00:45:31.280
So I feel like the Holy Spirit is showing me like you,

569
00:45:31.280 --> 00:45:34.520
like to encourage you to ask him to show you

570
00:45:34.520 --> 00:45:38.880
when was the first time you didn't forgive yourself

571
00:45:38.880 --> 00:45:41.040
or that you were really hard on yourself

572
00:45:41.040 --> 00:45:42.960
because you made a mistake.

573
00:45:44.680 --> 00:45:49.600
And when he shows you some of those early on times,

574
00:45:49.600 --> 00:45:52.240
like I could cry even just if I think about this too much,

575
00:45:52.240 --> 00:45:56.040
but like, y'all, he wants to come to the little you.

576
00:45:57.440 --> 00:46:01.800
Like who you were as a little girl when things went wrong

577
00:46:01.800 --> 00:46:04.160
and life was hard or people were hard on you,

578
00:46:04.160 --> 00:46:07.120
whatever your situation was like,

579
00:46:07.120 --> 00:46:08.920
and he wants to hug you there.

580
00:46:10.040 --> 00:46:11.480
That's what he wants to do.

581
00:46:11.480 --> 00:46:14.840
The Holy Spirit wants to come into those places

582
00:46:14.840 --> 00:46:17.480
and hug you in the spirit realm.

583
00:46:17.480 --> 00:46:21.840
And a lot of times I encourage you guys

584
00:46:21.840 --> 00:46:23.000
when I feel led as well,

585
00:46:23.000 --> 00:46:24.760
and I just wanna share this now.

586
00:46:25.760 --> 00:46:30.240
Some of you also need to ask Jesus to reveal to you

587
00:46:30.240 --> 00:46:35.240
where he was in the moment that that trauma happened

588
00:46:35.960 --> 00:46:39.080
or that hard thing happened.

589
00:46:39.080 --> 00:46:43.240
And what I mean by that is Jesus was always there,

590
00:46:43.240 --> 00:46:46.200
but because we believed the lie instead,

591
00:46:46.200 --> 00:46:48.760
unfortunately, it's very common as little kids,

592
00:46:48.760 --> 00:46:51.440
we can't even comprehend what's happening.

593
00:46:52.440 --> 00:46:56.440
Jesus is there and he wants to reveal to you now

594
00:46:56.440 --> 00:47:01.440
where he was then, so that you can hear then,

595
00:47:01.440 --> 00:47:03.520
the second part is ask him to tell you

596
00:47:03.520 --> 00:47:05.440
what he wants you to know about it.

597
00:47:07.080 --> 00:47:09.280
And I'm gonna give you an example.

598
00:47:09.280 --> 00:47:14.280
I went through an experience where there was one memory

599
00:47:14.280 --> 00:47:17.240
in particular I was really struggling with from the abuse,

600
00:47:17.240 --> 00:47:19.120
like, and it was all hard, you all,

601
00:47:19.960 --> 00:47:23.160
but like one memory in particular,

602
00:47:23.160 --> 00:47:27.000
and someone led me in this type of prayer

603
00:47:27.000 --> 00:47:30.240
and it wasn't necessarily people laying hands

604
00:47:30.240 --> 00:47:31.440
and I believe in that too,

605
00:47:31.440 --> 00:47:33.120
but like, they literally were like,

606
00:47:33.120 --> 00:47:35.560
invite Jesus in to show you.

607
00:47:35.560 --> 00:47:38.840
And he revealed to me where he was at in that room.

608
00:47:38.840 --> 00:47:43.120
And then he revealed to me what he wanted me to know.

609
00:47:43.120 --> 00:47:48.120
And you all, it like, in a good way, like I was undone.

610
00:47:48.640 --> 00:47:53.640
I was undone because he, his heart broke for me.

611
00:47:54.520 --> 00:47:57.800
And so many of us don't understand that part of it.

612
00:47:57.800 --> 00:48:02.800
Like he, God is not the author of these terrible things.

613
00:48:03.840 --> 00:48:05.040
He's not.

614
00:48:05.040 --> 00:48:08.040
The enemy wants you to think that he is

615
00:48:08.040 --> 00:48:09.840
and he's playing a role in it and he's not.

616
00:48:09.840 --> 00:48:13.440
That's, anything death is from the enemy.

617
00:48:13.440 --> 00:48:18.440
Anything that causes us to die or be traumatized in pain,

618
00:48:19.560 --> 00:48:22.000
all of that is from the hands of the enemy.

619
00:48:22.000 --> 00:48:23.760
Okay, so that's the first part.

620
00:48:23.760 --> 00:48:25.120
And I know I saw someone said,

621
00:48:25.120 --> 00:48:26.080
whew, this is heavy.

622
00:48:26.080 --> 00:48:28.080
It is, but man, it's so good.

623
00:48:28.080 --> 00:48:30.920
It's so rich when we invite Jesus to come in

624
00:48:30.920 --> 00:48:35.640
and show us where he was at and what does he want us to know.

625
00:48:36.720 --> 00:48:38.040
All right, so and then the other thing

626
00:48:38.040 --> 00:48:40.360
when you were talking about the perfectionist

627
00:48:40.360 --> 00:48:44.240
and just before you even started saying

628
00:48:44.240 --> 00:48:46.640
that your parents didn't affirm you much,

629
00:48:46.640 --> 00:48:49.320
I wrote down in quotes, afraid to mess up.

630
00:48:50.840 --> 00:48:54.040
And so even in that, when you're asking the Lord

631
00:48:54.040 --> 00:48:56.000
to show you the stuff from when you're a little girl,

632
00:48:56.000 --> 00:48:58.120
I would even say there's probably something there

633
00:48:58.120 --> 00:49:00.320
where you maybe did make a mistake.

634
00:49:00.320 --> 00:49:02.720
Again, I feel like it's linking

635
00:49:02.720 --> 00:49:07.000
and just ask him to reveal

636
00:49:07.000 --> 00:49:08.680
when you first started becoming afraid

637
00:49:08.680 --> 00:49:09.840
to even make a mistake,

638
00:49:09.840 --> 00:49:12.320
that there would be this heavy hand.

639
00:49:12.320 --> 00:49:14.280
Even if you never got spanked or anything,

640
00:49:14.280 --> 00:49:15.680
like as little kids,

641
00:49:15.680 --> 00:49:19.400
like even if someone yells at us in a very strong tone,

642
00:49:19.400 --> 00:49:21.760
that can be traumatizing

643
00:49:21.760 --> 00:49:24.200
because everyone's spirit is different.

644
00:49:24.200 --> 00:49:28.680
And for some of you, like you're very, very sensitive

645
00:49:28.680 --> 00:49:31.960
and you might not even see yourself that way now,

646
00:49:31.960 --> 00:49:34.360
but you might've been that way as a kid.

647
00:49:34.360 --> 00:49:36.920
But if there was a lot of harsh things spoken to you,

648
00:49:36.920 --> 00:49:39.640
it can break that spirit,

649
00:49:39.640 --> 00:49:42.680
but God can restore that as well, okay?

650
00:49:42.680 --> 00:49:44.920
So I don't want you guys to think you have to stay there.

651
00:49:44.920 --> 00:49:47.280
But anyways, I feel like there's a link there for you.

652
00:49:47.280 --> 00:49:49.040
So just wanna encourage you to pray into that.

653
00:49:49.040 --> 00:49:50.840
And if this applies to anyone else,

654
00:49:52.720 --> 00:49:56.040
yeah, yes, Alexis, I see you.

655
00:49:56.040 --> 00:49:58.400
She says, I just realized I haven't forgiven myself

656
00:49:58.400 --> 00:50:00.280
for losing my virginity at six.

657
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:07.480
16 against my will. So are you saying that someone, someone raped you? Just put that

658
00:50:07.480 --> 00:50:17.520
in the chat. So I want to just talk about this if so, because you all under 18 is under

659
00:50:17.520 --> 00:50:23.360
the age of accountability. You're not responsible for someone else's actions. So technically

660
00:50:23.360 --> 00:50:29.860
you don't have to forgive yourself for, you know, something under the age of 18 that was

661
00:50:29.860 --> 00:50:36.320
done to you by another person. Do you understand the difference ladies? When we're over 18,

662
00:50:36.320 --> 00:50:40.980
we are then potentially choosing. Now, obviously if someone does something like raping us,

663
00:50:40.980 --> 00:50:46.180
that's totally different. Um, I told him no many times, but eventually gave in. Okay.

664
00:50:46.180 --> 00:50:50.660
So I can see where that guilt and shame would come in because of the eventually giving in

665
00:50:50.660 --> 00:50:55.500
my youngest spiritual daughter actually is dealing with this right now. And so we're

666
00:50:55.500 --> 00:50:59.660
just going to just right now come into agreement with forgiveness being released for all of

667
00:50:59.660 --> 00:51:03.860
you. I feel like there's a lot on this tonight for you guys. So I want to just pray into

668
00:51:03.860 --> 00:51:09.020
this for a minute. Father, thank you so much for your amazing grace. God, we thank you

669
00:51:09.020 --> 00:51:14.840
that we come out of, um, yes, Lord shackles of shame, guilt, and condemnation in every

670
00:51:14.840 --> 00:51:21.260
area of our lives, Lord, that we don't have to continue with cloaks, um, that carry us

671
00:51:21.260 --> 00:51:26.060
down into oppression and depression. God, we thank you, um, that in Jesus name and by

672
00:51:26.060 --> 00:51:30.420
the power of the blood of Jesus Christ, that you would lose spirits of forgiveness and

673
00:51:30.420 --> 00:51:35.940
healing and reconciliation and peace over every one of these ladies tonight, or we thank

674
00:51:35.940 --> 00:51:40.500
you that you would help them to step a little bit further into your grace and to the fullness

675
00:51:40.500 --> 00:51:46.100
of the understanding of who you are. God as love, who you are. God is good and faithful

676
00:51:46.100 --> 00:51:53.940
and kind God that you are gentle and that your joy is full of life, God, and that you

677
00:51:53.940 --> 00:51:57.380
have a good plan for each one of them. We thank you that you'll help them to receive

678
00:51:57.380 --> 00:52:03.620
your forgiveness and to extend that forgiveness to themselves and to others as well. And Jesus

679
00:52:03.620 --> 00:52:12.420
name, Jesus name. All right. Um, yeah. Okay. So many good things, Gracie. I see you. I

680
00:52:12.420 --> 00:52:17.860
see your hand. Um, I would love to hear what you have to say. That was an accident, but I did this

681
00:52:17.860 --> 00:52:25.140
the other day too. That's all right. Just one thing that recently happened to me probably about

682
00:52:25.140 --> 00:52:34.340
a month and a half ago. Um, I was just in prayer and I really sensed that in utero, my, my mom was

683
00:52:34.340 --> 00:52:40.820
abused and, um, something there's been studies about in utero and children that were, that had

684
00:52:40.820 --> 00:52:45.780
experienced abuse while in utero. And, um, something that I, but the lie that I believed,

685
00:52:45.780 --> 00:52:54.100
I think in that experience was that, um, it's my fault and I'm responsible, um, came up just in

686
00:52:54.100 --> 00:53:00.260
utero. Um, and so we, I've been running through that often, but again, it's coming back to that

687
00:53:00.260 --> 00:53:05.860
place because I was abused as a child also, but, um, realizing that the roots are so deep, just

688
00:53:05.860 --> 00:53:11.220
what you said about inviting him in and where did, where was the root cause of these behaviors

689
00:53:11.220 --> 00:53:18.980
and belief systems that I carried into my early adulthood came from, from an experience in utero.

690
00:53:18.980 --> 00:53:26.180
And then it just, it grew and got and produced fruit. Um, and so I know I've experienced a lot

691
00:53:26.180 --> 00:53:30.340
of healing, but this was something that was, uh, that was really just uncovered recently. And it

692
00:53:30.340 --> 00:53:36.980
was really beautiful experience. Yes. Gracie, thank you for sharing. Um, what came up in my

693
00:53:36.980 --> 00:53:42.900
spirit, even as you were sharing is even if it's not exactly the same as what Gracie experienced,

694
00:53:42.900 --> 00:53:48.900
um, I wrote down on my paper, one of the things I saw right before I logged in was someone's post.

695
00:53:48.900 --> 00:53:55.620
I didn't even get to read it fully, but I saw that they, they were not a planned baby. And so

696
00:53:55.620 --> 00:54:04.020
they've carried the idea that they were a mistake. And, uh, and so I feel like it's linking back to

697
00:54:04.020 --> 00:54:12.020
that. Um, when our parents, when our moms get pregnant, if, if they did not want us or if they

698
00:54:12.020 --> 00:54:19.940
were scared or whatever, um, if there was any level of rejection, like rejecting the baby in any way,

699
00:54:20.740 --> 00:54:25.300
um, that can get actually released and I'm not going to get into the medical stuff, but it can

700
00:54:25.300 --> 00:54:31.540
get released. And so I do want to, we'll pray before you all hop off tonight about that as well,

701
00:54:31.540 --> 00:54:35.300
but just want you guys to understand, like when Gracie's talking, like, I know that might be a

702
00:54:35.300 --> 00:54:39.860
stretch for some people and I don't mean that in a bad way, but like, there are things that can get

703
00:54:39.860 --> 00:54:46.820
released when you're babies that God will reveal to you that he wants to heal all the way back

704
00:54:46.820 --> 00:54:52.580
before you could even like really know what was going on. Okay. So just trust is the Holy

705
00:54:52.580 --> 00:54:58.020
Spirit reveal stuff. Ladies, you guys are, are growing in your ability to hear him too,

706
00:54:58.020 --> 00:54:59.860
as a part of the heartwork healing process.

707
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:01.320
That's your love story accelerator.

708
00:55:01.320 --> 00:55:05.640
When you go into that and this community as a whole, God is, is showing his

709
00:55:05.640 --> 00:55:10.480
people, showing his sons and his daughters that he's speaking, he's always speaking.

710
00:55:10.520 --> 00:55:15.720
He wants you to know that you can hear him and he will reveal to you the

711
00:55:15.720 --> 00:55:17.760
ways that you hear him the most.

712
00:55:17.760 --> 00:55:18.040
Okay.

713
00:55:18.040 --> 00:55:19.840
Let's start to shift a little bit.

714
00:55:20.080 --> 00:55:21.880
I know that felt heavy for a little bit.

715
00:55:21.880 --> 00:55:23.560
So let's kind of shake that off.

716
00:55:23.800 --> 00:55:25.760
Seriously, like you guys can do this.

717
00:55:25.760 --> 00:55:26.840
It really does help.

718
00:55:26.840 --> 00:55:29.840
You're going to think I'm a little crazy, but everybody kind of needs

719
00:55:29.880 --> 00:55:32.440
to stretch and get that off of them a little bit.

720
00:55:32.720 --> 00:55:33.120
Yeah.

721
00:55:33.520 --> 00:55:37.160
Because anytime we start to get into a zone where it's heavy, heavy, heavy,

722
00:55:37.160 --> 00:55:41.320
which is really good too, we don't want that to settle into our bodies.

723
00:55:41.320 --> 00:55:41.760
Okay.

724
00:55:42.680 --> 00:55:43.160
All right.

725
00:55:43.400 --> 00:55:47.200
So the next thing I want us to talk about tonight, uh, this is where else the

726
00:55:47.200 --> 00:55:52.440
Lord was, was leading is a little bit about those orphan mentalities, poverty

727
00:55:52.440 --> 00:55:57.360
mindsets, where are you living as a pauper instead of a princess?

728
00:55:57.680 --> 00:56:01.640
And one of the things I wrote down from the book, I'm not going to read it, but

729
00:56:01.640 --> 00:56:07.200
this is what stood out to me tonight in particular, where are you living as a

730
00:56:07.200 --> 00:56:15.600
practical poly instead of living and doing things that are unexpected, fun and

731
00:56:15.600 --> 00:56:16.480
exciting.

732
00:56:17.160 --> 00:56:17.920
So isn't this funny?

733
00:56:17.920 --> 00:56:20.360
God led me to this really serious thing.

734
00:56:20.720 --> 00:56:23.640
And then he wants me to kind of get you guys thinking about where

735
00:56:23.640 --> 00:56:25.760
do you not live into the fun?

736
00:56:26.160 --> 00:56:30.560
Where, where are you being so practical all the time that you're, you're

737
00:56:30.560 --> 00:56:35.440
not living in the unexpected and suddenly is the excitement land.

738
00:56:35.440 --> 00:56:40.040
If you will, the, what is the fun things God is wanting you to do?

739
00:56:40.400 --> 00:56:43.240
Some of you live in this again, there's no shame in this.

740
00:56:44.440 --> 00:56:47.840
I lived as a practical poly for a while because I didn't have a lot of money.

741
00:56:48.440 --> 00:56:48.840
Okay.

742
00:56:49.240 --> 00:56:54.480
So those poverty mindsets kind of partnered with the practical me.

743
00:56:55.080 --> 00:56:59.000
And so God had to teach me how to like, even have fun without spending a lot of

744
00:56:59.000 --> 00:56:59.360
money.

745
00:57:00.240 --> 00:57:01.920
So I want to encourage you.

746
00:57:02.360 --> 00:57:06.760
Don't let money be an excuse for why you can't go have fun.

747
00:57:07.280 --> 00:57:07.920
All right.

748
00:57:08.160 --> 00:57:11.560
Seriously, you guys will be so surprised during your heartwork, even just

749
00:57:11.560 --> 00:57:17.000
practicing self-care, going out and doing something fun, getting on a swing.

750
00:57:17.360 --> 00:57:19.320
Going like, I know it's winter time.

751
00:57:19.360 --> 00:57:23.840
If you're in like certain areas like me, like in Indiana, it's cold here now, but

752
00:57:23.840 --> 00:57:29.200
like, there's so many things you can go find to do that will bring out the little

753
00:57:29.200 --> 00:57:30.400
inner child in you.

754
00:57:30.400 --> 00:57:32.120
And you guys need to be doing that.

755
00:57:32.320 --> 00:57:36.200
Like in whatever way, the Lord, you know, maybe for some of you, uh, this is what

756
00:57:36.200 --> 00:57:37.200
just came to my mind.

757
00:57:37.200 --> 00:57:41.560
Like, and again, obviously within reason, if you're not physically capable, I

758
00:57:41.560 --> 00:57:45.200
wouldn't do this, but like some of you probably still can do a cartwheel, you

759
00:57:45.200 --> 00:57:48.240
know, like doing little things like, like that.

760
00:57:49.240 --> 00:57:55.200
Um, I think some of you even just getting a dress and getting dressed up and doing

761
00:57:55.200 --> 00:58:00.000
your hair, going somewhere, having your hair and makeup done, like these things

762
00:58:00.000 --> 00:58:03.840
that you don't do anymore, that you loved doing some of you.

763
00:58:03.840 --> 00:58:08.480
And, and I want you to know, like, if you were not someone that grew up liking

764
00:58:08.480 --> 00:58:11.360
makeup or doing, I don't want you to feel any shame.

765
00:58:11.760 --> 00:58:12.320
Okay.

766
00:58:13.160 --> 00:58:15.240
This isn't necessarily about that.

767
00:58:15.280 --> 00:58:20.960
It's about what is it that God is nudging you about when you were little, that was

768
00:58:20.960 --> 00:58:25.520
fun or exciting, or it made you feel pretty, or it made you feel alive or, or

769
00:58:25.520 --> 00:58:30.720
whatever that God is saying, come out of the practical poly come out of hiding.

770
00:58:30.720 --> 00:58:33.520
Some of you, some of you even wallflowers.

771
00:58:33.520 --> 00:58:34.440
I love you.

772
00:58:34.720 --> 00:58:36.000
I love my wallflowers.

773
00:58:36.000 --> 00:58:37.760
You guys just kind of hang out in the group.

774
00:58:37.760 --> 00:58:41.240
You're, you're doing the work, but you're not saying anything.

775
00:58:42.080 --> 00:58:43.160
You're not saying much.

776
00:58:43.160 --> 00:58:49.680
And the Lord is like, I see you, but it's time to use your voice and using

777
00:58:49.680 --> 00:58:54.560
your voice is typing sometimes it's, it is on these things, speaking up when

778
00:58:54.560 --> 00:58:57.360
you're scared, turning your cameras on.

779
00:58:57.360 --> 00:59:02.640
Like I nudged you guys earlier, letting me see you, letting everybody else see you.

780
00:59:03.360 --> 00:59:07.160
You guys don't realize, I know it seems like such small little things, but each

781
00:59:07.160 --> 00:59:12.520
one of these little things that you do will cause you to gain momentum and gain

782
00:59:13.520 --> 00:59:14.280
momentum.

783
00:59:14.760 --> 00:59:19.360
And again, you're going to start showing up as a different person in your life.

784
00:59:19.360 --> 00:59:21.040
If you will invest in these things.

785
00:59:21.400 --> 00:59:21.720
Okay.

786
00:59:21.720 --> 00:59:23.840
So I'm going to put you in your breakout.

787
00:59:24.960 --> 00:59:26.880
I want you guys just to talk about, okay.

788
00:59:27.160 --> 00:59:30.400
And if you don't know what orphan mentalities are, I kind of went into this.

789
00:59:30.400 --> 00:59:33.240
I think, I don't know if it, again, I do so many sessions.

790
00:59:33.240 --> 00:59:37.320
It could have been Friday or could have been last Mondays, but the best way I can

791
00:59:37.320 --> 00:59:41.440
explain, oh, and I want to just say to some of our ladies on Facebook, I see you

792
00:59:41.440 --> 00:59:42.040
commenting.

793
00:59:42.040 --> 00:59:45.320
I'll come back when they go into breakout and I'll, I'll touch on some of your

794
00:59:45.320 --> 00:59:46.200
things as well.

795
00:59:46.200 --> 00:59:47.160
Thank you for sharing.

796
00:59:47.520 --> 00:59:53.440
Um, but when you guys go in here, the orphan mentalities, this is how I describe

797
00:59:53.440 --> 00:59:53.560
it.

798
00:59:53.560 --> 00:59:55.720
This was my own personal experience.

799
00:59:57.440 --> 00:59:59.920
It was any place in my life.

800
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:18.000
where I felt like there was a gate, and I was reaching through the gate, like begging, begging God, like maybe if I could just, God, if you'll just, and never feeling like I could get to that thing.

801
01:00:18.000 --> 01:00:25.000
Because in my mind, the enemy told me, like, I would never be able to have it.

802
01:00:25.000 --> 01:00:33.000
And that can be a lot of different things to all. It's not just stuff, it can even be a way of life internally.

803
01:00:33.000 --> 01:00:46.000
Like you look at other people, and you see them happy and living life and enjoying their life and you're like, yeah, I'm never going to have that.

804
01:00:46.000 --> 01:00:58.000
That's one of the ways orphan mentalities can show up too. And that's just one, but it can be money, it can be poverty mindsets, and poverty mindsets isn't just money, just so you know.

805
01:00:58.000 --> 01:01:03.000
It can be like, okay, I'm going to give you an example.

806
01:01:03.000 --> 01:01:12.000
If you got holes in your socks, ladies, get rid of your socks and get some new ones. I know that sounds so simple.

807
01:01:12.000 --> 01:01:23.000
Maybe it's some of you guys need to go, like, I'm just going to be real, buy new underwear, go buy a new bra, go buy something a little bit nicer for yourself.

808
01:01:23.000 --> 01:01:34.000
And again, I'm not knocking it. I know we all do things and we put up with stuff that we don't even like. Some of us wear clothes that we actually don't like at all.

809
01:01:34.000 --> 01:01:42.000
And we put up with it because we don't have a lot of money and we tell ourselves we have to keep wearing those things because we don't have money.

810
01:01:42.000 --> 01:01:57.000
But do you all know there's places like, you know, gosh, I can't, like the Goodwill and places like that where you can literally go and get something for a couple bucks, and it might be a totally different outfit that you feel like rocking in.

811
01:01:58.000 --> 01:02:12.000
So let's shift out of those mindsets of I can't do it. I don't have enough or whatever. Yeah, Salvation Army, there's a bunch of different places, maybe a friend, who knows, you know, pray, pray and ask God to provide an outfit for you.

812
01:02:12.000 --> 01:02:24.000
But this is where we start to shift out of the, it's not possible. It's never going to happen for me. I can't do it, into, God, how do you want to do this for me?

813
01:02:24.000 --> 01:02:37.000
You know, so we're shifting into how do you want to do this for me, God? How do you want to show up and show me what you can do in my life? Okay, so I'm going to put you in, yes, where we are living.

814
01:02:37.000 --> 01:02:48.000
I see Nicole, I've been living this for years, survival mode. And again, there's no shame in it. It's recognizing it and asking the Lord to help you see how you can come out of that.

815
01:02:49.000 --> 01:03:06.000
Like, what is the one step you can take every day? And this is where, what we can do so that it doesn't feel overwhelming, ladies. You don't have to accomplish the whole year in one day. Lord, what can I do today to come out of survival mode and help me come alive more?

816
01:03:06.000 --> 01:03:20.000
Okay. All right. I'm going to put you guys in there. And I can't wait to hear how this goes. And I'm going to go ahead and I'm going to leave you with the same groups tonight. Okay, here you go.

817
01:03:20.000 --> 01:03:34.000
Oh, I got to assign a couple people.

818
01:03:35.000 --> 01:03:40.000
Hold on one second for my ladies that need assigned.

819
01:03:40.000 --> 01:03:47.000
Keeps jumping around. I'm trying to do it.

820
01:03:47.000 --> 01:03:53.000
There you go.

821
01:03:53.000 --> 01:03:56.000
Go.

822
01:03:56.000 --> 01:04:01.000
I don't know why it won't let me do some of y'all. It's weird.

823
01:04:01.000 --> 01:04:05.000
Oh, there you go.

824
01:04:05.000 --> 01:04:08.000
Sorry about that.

825
01:04:32.000 --> 01:04:34.000
Okay, there we go.

826
01:04:34.000 --> 01:04:38.000
All right. Sorry, ladies on Facebook. I had it. I couldn't figure out how to get them into there.

827
01:04:38.000 --> 01:04:44.000
I'm sorry y'all are saw me with my finger in my mouth and all the things so hopefully I'm giving you all a good laugh.

828
01:04:44.000 --> 01:04:59.000
So Lori says in here my mom was about to divorce my dad, when she found out she was pregnant with me she felt I made her more obligated to stay with him and resented me I'm so sorry that that happened to you.

829
01:04:59.000 --> 01:05:00.000
Thank you.

830
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.440
now that you'll help Lori to continue,

831
01:05:03.440 --> 01:05:05.880
even if she's already forgiven her mom for this before,

832
01:05:05.880 --> 01:05:08.920
that she will continue to forgive her.

833
01:05:08.920 --> 01:05:12.360
And Lord, that there will be just a spirit of reconciliation

834
01:05:12.360 --> 01:05:14.900
and healing released from heaven above tonight

835
01:05:14.900 --> 01:05:16.560
between her and her mom.

836
01:05:16.560 --> 01:05:17.840
And I just thank you, Lord,

837
01:05:17.840 --> 01:05:22.440
that you planned Lori from the day you thought of her.

838
01:05:23.360 --> 01:05:27.160
You created her and brought her together

839
01:05:27.160 --> 01:05:29.960
and you allowed her to be conceived

840
01:05:29.960 --> 01:05:30.800
in the womb.

841
01:05:30.800 --> 01:05:32.800
So Lord, we just thank you that she's a blessing,

842
01:05:32.800 --> 01:05:36.040
that all children are blessings from heaven.

843
01:05:36.040 --> 01:05:36.920
So Lord, we just thank you

844
01:05:36.920 --> 01:05:39.840
that she'll be able to receive that tonight

845
01:05:39.840 --> 01:05:44.360
and to fully experience your love and your grace

846
01:05:44.360 --> 01:05:45.560
and your goodness for her,

847
01:05:45.560 --> 01:05:47.840
that she would come out of alignment and agreement

848
01:05:47.840 --> 01:05:49.240
with the lies,

849
01:05:49.240 --> 01:05:53.600
that she was an obligation or resented in any way.

850
01:05:53.600 --> 01:05:56.000
So Lord, we just thank you that you would continue

851
01:05:56.000 --> 01:05:58.640
to heal any open or unhealed wounds

852
01:05:58.640 --> 01:06:03.400
connected to that storyline in Jesus name.

853
01:06:03.400 --> 01:06:04.920
All right, and Lori, I see that you're,

854
01:06:04.920 --> 01:06:07.040
one of your goals this year is to have more fun.

855
01:06:07.040 --> 01:06:08.600
That's so exciting.

856
01:06:08.600 --> 01:06:09.800
I would love for you to share

857
01:06:09.800 --> 01:06:12.680
just even some of the things the Lord is leading you to do

858
01:06:12.680 --> 01:06:16.140
that is going to be more exciting and fun.

859
01:06:17.160 --> 01:06:19.080
All right, while they're all in there,

860
01:06:20.080 --> 01:06:21.780
or maybe actually I'll save this.

861
01:06:21.780 --> 01:06:24.360
I think I'll save this until they come back

862
01:06:24.360 --> 01:06:26.760
and I'll read it over everybody at the end.

863
01:06:28.320 --> 01:06:29.960
So Lord, we just thank you so much

864
01:06:29.960 --> 01:06:34.360
for continuing to help us awaken and arise

865
01:06:34.360 --> 01:06:35.640
and that we would shine

866
01:06:35.640 --> 01:06:38.120
and that your glory would rise upon us,

867
01:06:38.120 --> 01:06:40.440
that you would help us to come out of hiding

868
01:06:40.440 --> 01:06:41.640
and come into the light,

869
01:06:41.640 --> 01:06:46.640
into the fullness of your plans and purposes for us.

870
01:06:46.800 --> 01:06:49.040
I thank you that there has never been the slightest doubt

871
01:06:49.040 --> 01:06:52.320
in your mind that the God who started this great work

872
01:06:52.360 --> 01:06:55.760
in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish

873
01:06:55.760 --> 01:06:59.080
on the very day Christ Jesus appears.

874
01:06:59.080 --> 01:07:00.880
Lord, we thank you that your word also declares

875
01:07:00.880 --> 01:07:02.640
this is not the time to pull away

876
01:07:02.640 --> 01:07:03.920
and neglect meeting together

877
01:07:03.920 --> 01:07:05.680
as some have formed the habit of doing

878
01:07:05.680 --> 01:07:07.440
because we need each other.

879
01:07:07.440 --> 01:07:10.440
In fact, we should come together even more frequently,

880
01:07:10.440 --> 01:07:13.320
eager to encourage and urge each other onward

881
01:07:13.320 --> 01:07:16.440
as we anticipate that day dawning.

882
01:07:17.640 --> 01:07:21.920
I thank you, Lord, that you, thank you, Lord God,

883
01:07:22.520 --> 01:07:24.960
that you would create sisterhoods

884
01:07:24.960 --> 01:07:27.400
that would last a lifetime in this group.

885
01:07:27.400 --> 01:07:28.480
Through these connections,

886
01:07:28.480 --> 01:07:30.360
I thank you that you would help them to grow

887
01:07:30.360 --> 01:07:32.720
in their ability to trust each other,

888
01:07:32.720 --> 01:07:34.520
to trust you more, Lord,

889
01:07:34.520 --> 01:07:38.680
and to see that you're doing a work far beyond

890
01:07:38.680 --> 01:07:40.640
what they could ever ask, think, or imagine.

891
01:07:40.640 --> 01:07:42.320
And Lord, we thank you that you are the one

892
01:07:42.320 --> 01:07:45.560
that heals the wounds of every shattered heart.

893
01:07:45.560 --> 01:07:49.440
You set the stars in place, calling them all by name.

894
01:07:49.440 --> 01:07:52.360
That's from Psalms 147, verse three and four

895
01:07:52.360 --> 01:07:54.600
from the Passion Translation.

896
01:07:56.120 --> 01:07:57.800
Axe throwing for one.

897
01:07:57.800 --> 01:07:59.760
Lori, that sounds awesome.

898
01:07:59.760 --> 01:08:01.240
You should, when you go do that,

899
01:08:01.240 --> 01:08:02.760
you should take a picture of it.

900
01:08:02.760 --> 01:08:03.800
You should take a picture of it

901
01:08:03.800 --> 01:08:05.440
and share it with us in the group.

902
01:08:05.440 --> 01:08:06.760
We would love to see that.

903
01:08:07.920 --> 01:08:11.560
All right, Lord, we just thank you for your words,

904
01:08:11.560 --> 01:08:14.040
your word that is truth, that it's life,

905
01:08:14.040 --> 01:08:15.920
that it cuts between bone and marrow,

906
01:08:15.920 --> 01:08:18.080
and it is life and death.

907
01:08:18.080 --> 01:08:20.359
We have life and death in the power of our tongues.

908
01:08:20.359 --> 01:08:21.920
That's why it's so important, ladies,

909
01:08:21.920 --> 01:08:25.000
for us to speak truth out of our mouths out loud.

910
01:08:25.000 --> 01:08:28.080
And so if you ever wonder why I talk about that a lot,

911
01:08:28.080 --> 01:08:29.359
that is one of the reasons.

912
01:08:29.359 --> 01:08:31.720
When we confess things that are truth,

913
01:08:31.720 --> 01:08:34.279
that are life-giving out of our mouths,

914
01:08:34.279 --> 01:08:37.680
our spirit aligns with that.

915
01:08:38.720 --> 01:08:40.960
A little bit more every day.

916
01:08:40.960 --> 01:08:42.080
John 3.16 says,

917
01:08:42.080 --> 01:08:44.399
for this is how much God loved the world.

918
01:08:44.399 --> 01:08:48.560
He gave his one and only unique son as a gift.

919
01:08:48.560 --> 01:08:51.359
So now everyone who believes in him will never perish,

920
01:08:51.359 --> 01:08:53.760
but experience everlasting life.

921
01:08:53.760 --> 01:08:55.960
Carrie, what room did you get kicked out of?

922
01:09:01.080 --> 01:09:01.920
Do you know?

923
01:09:03.800 --> 01:09:04.640
Maybe eight?

924
01:09:04.640 --> 01:09:07.600
It looks like eight's low numbers.

925
01:09:09.279 --> 01:09:10.120
Can you hear me?

926
01:09:12.960 --> 01:09:14.040
Get you back in there.

927
01:09:14.960 --> 01:09:16.640
You can click to join room eight,

928
01:09:16.640 --> 01:09:17.920
even if you weren't in there.

929
01:09:17.920 --> 01:09:19.319
That's where I just put you.

930
01:09:21.359 --> 01:09:22.720
John 3.16 says,

931
01:09:22.720 --> 01:09:24.279
for this is how much God loved the world.

932
01:09:24.279 --> 01:09:26.760
He gave his one and only unique son as a gift.

933
01:09:26.760 --> 01:09:30.439
So now everyone who believes in him will never perish,

934
01:09:30.439 --> 01:09:34.960
but experience everlasting life.

935
01:09:34.960 --> 01:09:35.800
Thank you, Lord,

936
01:09:35.800 --> 01:09:38.160
that you sent your son so that we could experience

937
01:09:38.160 --> 01:09:39.800
everlasting life,

938
01:09:39.840 --> 01:09:44.439
that we don't have to live lives as paupers

939
01:09:44.439 --> 01:09:46.760
underneath the table, waiting for breadcrumbs.

940
01:09:46.760 --> 01:09:48.760
God, that you have created us

941
01:09:48.760 --> 01:09:51.880
to be a princess in your kingdom.

942
01:09:51.880 --> 01:09:55.000
Lord, I thank you that you would help us to step into,

943
01:09:57.880 --> 01:10:00.040
yes, Lord, a deeper understanding.

944
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:03.280
what it means that your door is always open to us,

945
01:10:03.280 --> 01:10:05.000
that we don't have to be afraid

946
01:10:05.000 --> 01:10:07.960
that you're going to bring down the hammer on us.

947
01:10:07.960 --> 01:10:09.960
Lord, I pray that in any way

948
01:10:09.960 --> 01:10:13.360
where any of these ladies have experienced harshness

949
01:10:13.360 --> 01:10:15.480
through their fathers, through authority figures,

950
01:10:15.480 --> 01:10:16.800
maybe even their mothers,

951
01:10:17.900 --> 01:10:19.840
that you would heal those areas

952
01:10:19.840 --> 01:10:21.480
with the balm of Gilead tonight.

953
01:10:21.480 --> 01:10:22.860
We thank you for that.

954
01:10:24.560 --> 01:10:25.400
Yes.

955
01:10:26.320 --> 01:10:27.640
These words I speak to you

956
01:10:27.640 --> 01:10:29.800
are not incidental additions to your life.

957
01:10:29.800 --> 01:10:32.160
Homeowner improvements to your standard of living.

958
01:10:32.160 --> 01:10:35.040
They are foundational words, words to build a life on.

959
01:10:35.040 --> 01:10:37.080
If you work these words into your life,

960
01:10:37.080 --> 01:10:38.760
you are a smart carpenter

961
01:10:38.760 --> 01:10:42.420
who built his house on a solid rock.

962
01:10:42.420 --> 01:10:45.480
Rain poured down, the river flooded, a tornado hit,

963
01:10:45.480 --> 01:10:48.720
but nothing moved that house.

964
01:10:48.720 --> 01:10:50.520
It was fixed to the rock.

965
01:10:50.520 --> 01:10:53.660
That's Matthew chapter seven, verse 24 and 25

966
01:10:53.660 --> 01:10:55.500
from the message version.

967
01:10:56.720 --> 01:10:58.520
Crystal or Kristen, I'm sorry,

968
01:10:58.520 --> 01:11:00.280
I see your comment as well.

969
01:11:00.280 --> 01:11:02.600
Line dancing, totally out of my comfort zone.

970
01:11:02.600 --> 01:11:04.440
I've believed most of my life.

971
01:11:04.440 --> 01:11:06.800
I am uncoordinated, ready to break that lie.

972
01:11:06.800 --> 01:11:08.040
That's right.

973
01:11:08.040 --> 01:11:09.040
That's right, practice.

974
01:11:09.040 --> 01:11:10.920
Hey, look it up on YouTube

975
01:11:10.920 --> 01:11:13.240
and practice a little bit before you go if you need to.

976
01:11:13.240 --> 01:11:15.480
But I think that's so exciting.

977
01:11:15.480 --> 01:11:16.680
Go have fun.

978
01:11:16.680 --> 01:11:20.900
Let your little inner girl come out and play.

979
01:11:20.900 --> 01:11:24.340
And I cannot wait to hear all about it.

980
01:11:25.360 --> 01:11:26.320
I shouldn't just say I.

981
01:11:26.320 --> 01:11:29.240
We, our community, our leadership team

982
01:11:29.240 --> 01:11:32.520
looks forward to hearing all of these kind of amazing things

983
01:11:32.520 --> 01:11:35.960
when you guys do the hard stuff and the fun stuff,

984
01:11:35.960 --> 01:11:37.680
all of it creates breakthrough

985
01:11:37.680 --> 01:11:39.720
and we're so excited for you.

986
01:11:39.720 --> 01:11:41.920
Ephesians three, 17 through 19 says,

987
01:11:41.920 --> 01:11:43.860
then Christ will make his home in your hearts

988
01:11:43.860 --> 01:11:46.020
as you trust in him.

989
01:11:46.020 --> 01:11:48.000
Your roots will grow down into God's love

990
01:11:48.000 --> 01:11:49.640
and keep you strong.

991
01:11:49.640 --> 01:11:51.480
And may you have the power to understand

992
01:11:51.480 --> 01:11:54.160
as all God's people should, how wide, how long,

993
01:11:54.160 --> 01:11:56.640
how high and how deep his love is.

994
01:11:56.640 --> 01:11:58.440
May you experience the love of Christ

995
01:11:58.440 --> 01:12:01.160
though it is too great to understand fully.

996
01:12:01.160 --> 01:12:02.840
Then you will be made complete

997
01:12:02.840 --> 01:12:07.120
with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.

998
01:12:07.120 --> 01:12:10.400
Hi ladies, I'm just waiting for everyone to come back.

999
01:12:10.400 --> 01:12:12.600
Never doubt God's mighty power to work in you

1000
01:12:12.600 --> 01:12:13.760
and accomplish all this.

1001
01:12:13.760 --> 01:12:18.000
He will achieve infinitely more than your greatest request,

1002
01:12:18.000 --> 01:12:19.980
your most unbelievable dream

1003
01:12:19.980 --> 01:12:22.160
and exceed your wildest imagination.

1004
01:12:22.160 --> 01:12:23.920
He will outdo them all.

1005
01:12:24.680 --> 01:12:27.920
For his miraculous power constantly energizes you.

1006
01:12:27.920 --> 01:12:31.560
That's from Ephesians three, 20 through 21

1007
01:12:31.560 --> 01:12:33.640
in the Passion Translation.

1008
01:12:33.640 --> 01:12:35.840
Hello, welcome back.

1009
01:12:35.840 --> 01:12:38.840
All right, who is willing to share with the whole group

1010
01:12:38.840 --> 01:12:41.600
what you shared in your private breakout group?

1011
01:12:44.440 --> 01:12:45.660
I can go.

1012
01:12:45.660 --> 01:12:47.360
All right, awesome.

1013
01:12:47.360 --> 01:12:52.360
Yes, I was caught in the middle of my testimony.

1014
01:12:53.240 --> 01:12:58.000
I was sharing with the group that yesterday

1015
01:12:58.000 --> 01:12:59.240
when I was celebrating,

1016
01:12:59.240 --> 01:13:03.480
first I celebrated with my family and then I went to church

1017
01:13:03.480 --> 01:13:07.440
and my sister got some things to put on your head.

1018
01:13:07.440 --> 01:13:11.640
And one of them, it was a crown that said happy new years.

1019
01:13:11.640 --> 01:13:13.880
And it was like a princess crown.

1020
01:13:13.880 --> 01:13:16.520
And, you know, I remember that some ladies

1021
01:13:16.520 --> 01:13:19.800
have been talking about, I put out your crown,

1022
01:13:19.800 --> 01:13:22.760
but I like, I didn't pay attention to that.

1023
01:13:22.760 --> 01:13:27.760
So I put it and so we took some pictures,

1024
01:13:27.960 --> 01:13:32.360
but when I went to church, people like,

1025
01:13:32.360 --> 01:13:34.240
everybody at the same time said,

1026
01:13:34.240 --> 01:13:36.360
oh, here comes the queen.

1027
01:13:36.360 --> 01:13:41.360
And I was like, wow, it felt so, so good.

1028
01:13:42.400 --> 01:13:46.840
Not because I was, you know, very proud,

1029
01:13:46.880 --> 01:13:50.480
but in a humble sense, it reminds me

1030
01:13:50.480 --> 01:13:54.120
and like going to the presence of the king

1031
01:13:54.120 --> 01:13:56.800
and I've been acknowledged for all those years

1032
01:13:56.800 --> 01:14:00.760
that I have not been seen because I didn't want to,

1033
01:14:00.760 --> 01:14:03.360
or I didn't put myself out there.

1034
01:14:03.360 --> 01:14:06.160
I was in my little corner, but that reminder.

1035
01:14:06.160 --> 01:14:10.880
And I actually, I started acting like a queen.

1036
01:14:10.880 --> 01:14:15.880
My posture, even like the way that I speak,

1037
01:14:16.160 --> 01:14:17.440
it was amazing.

1038
01:14:17.440 --> 01:14:22.040
Those five minutes of the glamor and the spotlight,

1039
01:14:22.040 --> 01:14:23.320
it felt so good.

1040
01:14:23.320 --> 01:14:26.000
So thank you for letting me share.

1041
01:14:26.000 --> 01:14:30.280
I actually put a crown in my Amazon basket

1042
01:14:30.280 --> 01:14:32.840
because I'm buying myself a crown.

1043
01:14:32.840 --> 01:14:34.360
Yes, girl.

1044
01:14:34.360 --> 01:14:35.400
Yes.

1045
01:14:35.400 --> 01:14:38.960
Ladies, again, it is about,

1046
01:14:38.960 --> 01:14:41.400
did you hear what Sylvia just said?

1047
01:14:41.400 --> 01:14:43.560
After they said that to her,

1048
01:14:43.600 --> 01:14:46.000
she started acting like a queen.

1049
01:14:46.000 --> 01:14:48.840
Ladies, how about we start acting like a queen

1050
01:14:48.840 --> 01:14:50.760
before people say it to us?

1051
01:14:50.760 --> 01:14:51.680
And I don't mean that bad.

1052
01:14:51.680 --> 01:14:52.560
That's so exciting.

1053
01:14:52.560 --> 01:14:53.960
I think that's awesome breakthrough,

1054
01:14:53.960 --> 01:14:56.840
but this is serious, like this is for real.

1055
01:14:56.840 --> 01:14:59.280
Like let's practice.

1056
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:07.240
I used to, I used to dance around in my apartment because I just was practicing the joy of the

1057
01:15:07.240 --> 01:15:10.620
Lord and how I wanted my life to feel.

1058
01:15:10.620 --> 01:15:15.120
And I know that might sound so silly to some of you, but even my girls, I remember the

1059
01:15:15.120 --> 01:15:20.320
first time we were just messing around and we were pretending we were dancing salsa.

1060
01:15:20.320 --> 01:15:25.880
I don't know salsa you all, but the light, the life and the joy that came up into the

1061
01:15:25.880 --> 01:15:28.080
girls when I did that.

1062
01:15:28.080 --> 01:15:32.000
And that's what reminded me that time when I was alone in my apartment and God was like,

1063
01:15:32.000 --> 01:15:33.800
I want you to dance.

1064
01:15:33.800 --> 01:15:35.880
And it was like, I was dancing with him.

1065
01:15:35.880 --> 01:15:39.260
We were just having the bit, the biggest time ever.

1066
01:15:39.260 --> 01:15:41.080
It was so fun.

1067
01:15:41.080 --> 01:15:47.880
And so, you know, it's, it is what we do in private ladies that impacts what we do in

1068
01:15:47.880 --> 01:15:55.340
public show up and be that crown, that woman with the crown, even when you're by yourself,

1069
01:15:55.340 --> 01:16:01.540
believe in yourself that you are a conqueror, that you are a princess, that you're beloved.

1070
01:16:01.540 --> 01:16:02.540
Yes.

1071
01:16:02.540 --> 01:16:03.540
Yes.

1072
01:16:03.540 --> 01:16:04.540
Yes.

1073
01:16:04.540 --> 01:16:05.540
I love this.

1074
01:16:05.540 --> 01:16:06.540
Okay.

1075
01:16:06.540 --> 01:16:09.980
Um, is it Ms. Shonda?

1076
01:16:09.980 --> 01:16:10.980
You got it.

1077
01:16:10.980 --> 01:16:11.980
Oh, really?

1078
01:16:11.980 --> 01:16:12.980
I'm so excited.

1079
01:16:12.980 --> 01:16:13.980
All right.

1080
01:16:13.980 --> 01:16:15.520
What do you got?

1081
01:16:15.520 --> 01:16:23.260
So I shared a little story about, as of lately, the things that I've been really attached

1082
01:16:23.260 --> 01:16:29.420
to have been either tearing or getting holes in it.

1083
01:16:29.420 --> 01:16:34.300
And I, in terms of being in survival mode, I feel like I've been in survival mode for

1084
01:16:34.300 --> 01:16:35.300
a long time.

1085
01:16:35.300 --> 01:16:39.460
And then in transition, I will recognize I do have a spending problem.

1086
01:16:39.460 --> 01:16:41.860
I either spend too much or I don't spend it all.

1087
01:16:41.860 --> 01:16:43.540
So there's really no balance.

1088
01:16:43.540 --> 01:16:48.020
And then I feel like, oh, I don't need to spend because I don't want to have, not have

1089
01:16:48.020 --> 01:16:52.040
enough for the things that I need to have enough for.

1090
01:16:52.040 --> 01:16:59.240
And so, um, I was on a trip in Atlanta and the day my favorite boots, the zipper just

1091
01:16:59.240 --> 01:17:00.240
decided not to zip.

1092
01:17:00.240 --> 01:17:02.160
So I had to walk through the airport with broken boots.

1093
01:17:02.160 --> 01:17:09.280
And I'm like, what W T whatever, um, this morning I took my jeans out of the dryer and

1094
01:17:09.280 --> 01:17:13.720
I have thick thighs that definitely save lives ultimately.

1095
01:17:13.720 --> 01:17:19.320
And so, you know, where the jeans kind of rub together like that little hole.

1096
01:17:19.320 --> 01:17:22.320
And I was like, for real, these are my favorite jeans.

1097
01:17:22.320 --> 01:17:24.680
Why do they have a hole in them?

1098
01:17:24.680 --> 01:17:28.840
And so it wasn't until you were just talking that the Lord just shared with me, when you're

1099
01:17:28.840 --> 01:17:34.520
talking about making room and doing the hard work, he's making room for the upgrade.

1100
01:17:34.520 --> 01:17:36.440
And I believe that's what he's doing with a lot of us.

1101
01:17:36.440 --> 01:17:44.320
We can get so comfortable being in clothes that no longer serve us for our new season.

1102
01:17:44.320 --> 01:17:51.400
And so, um, this summer I wanted, I do a lot of speaking engagements occasionally and

1103
01:17:51.400 --> 01:17:56.120
I wanted some new clothes and I was like, gosh, I cannot really afford it at the time.

1104
01:17:56.120 --> 01:18:00.960
And a friend of mine came to my house with a bag full of clothes that her sister sent

1105
01:18:00.960 --> 01:18:10.880
to me now as a full figure woman, who's curvy, that doesn't happen very often because it's,

1106
01:18:10.880 --> 01:18:12.400
we don't have the normal sizes.

1107
01:18:12.400 --> 01:18:15.960
And so I felt like God was like, I got you.

1108
01:18:15.960 --> 01:18:19.800
You keep being obedient and keep trusting me and following me.

1109
01:18:19.800 --> 01:18:23.480
And I will put people in place to make sure that you look good.

1110
01:18:23.480 --> 01:18:31.760
And oftentimes the scripture, and I'm going to paraphrase it because I don't, I love Jesus.

1111
01:18:31.760 --> 01:18:36.400
I'm saved, but I don't always, can't remember the address of scriptures, but he says, if

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I'll take care of the birds and the bees, what more won't I do for you?

1113
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And so if the Lord will take care of the birds and make sure they eat and crap on our cars,

1114
01:18:46.840 --> 01:18:52.920
what more won't he do for us so that we can truly go out and be prepared for our spirit

1115
01:18:52.920 --> 01:18:53.920
mates.

1116
01:18:53.920 --> 01:18:57.800
And I will say one last thing, what I've noticed lately is people have been just complimenting

1117
01:18:57.800 --> 01:19:03.240
me and I'm like, you're complimenting me in these old rags, but it's really not about

1118
01:19:03.240 --> 01:19:04.240
the old rags.

1119
01:19:04.240 --> 01:19:08.680
It's about how he's changing us on the inside that will exude on the outside.

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And so I hope you're enjoying it.

1121
01:19:11.080 --> 01:19:14.920
Oh, yes, yes.

1122
01:19:14.920 --> 01:19:15.920
Anyone else?

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01:19:15.920 --> 01:19:16.920
Like, yes, yes.

1124
01:19:16.920 --> 01:19:17.920
Me too.

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01:19:17.920 --> 01:19:18.920
Me too.

1126
01:19:18.920 --> 01:19:19.920
That was so good.

1127
01:19:19.920 --> 01:19:20.920
You all.

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01:19:20.920 --> 01:19:21.920
I I'm big on if you, okay.

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01:19:21.920 --> 01:19:24.960
So I used to be a cheerleader, so I love cheering people on.

1130
01:19:24.960 --> 01:19:30.560
I think it changes us when we participate, you know, and again, I know not everybody's

1131
01:19:30.560 --> 01:19:36.160
going to come like all cheery like me, so I don't feel bad if that's not you, but I,

1132
01:19:36.160 --> 01:19:43.680
there are times ladies where even just doing the silly things that I'm saying, you, you

1133
01:19:43.680 --> 01:19:50.040
just will be amazed at even just participating in that, how it shifts your spirit.

1134
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Thank you for sharing that.

1135
01:19:51.760 --> 01:19:58.360
I think there's so many times and that we, we, and we don't mean to, but we limit God.

1136
01:19:58.360 --> 01:19:59.840
You all, we really do.

1137
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:07.000
And when she was talking, I just feel led to also encourage you all to be praying.

1138
01:20:07.000 --> 01:20:18.000
And if you're brand new, I lead Faith Fridays, and God has been doing this thing on Fridays, where a couple Fridays ago.

1139
01:20:18.000 --> 01:20:24.000
It happened where one person shared that they got this unexpected money and I just felt I felt the Holy Spirit on that.

1140
01:20:24.000 --> 01:20:33.000
And so I encouraged everyone just to start thanking God for sending them surprise money and checks and stuff in the mail and increases and promotions.

1141
01:20:33.000 --> 01:20:39.000
And you all literally every Friday since then, people have been testifying of surprise money.

1142
01:20:39.000 --> 01:20:42.000
And, and again, God is not a slot machine.

1143
01:20:42.000 --> 01:20:55.000
So I'm not saying that, but I'm telling you all, there is something he is doing in this season to show his kids that he hears us that he sees us and he loves to have fun.

1144
01:20:55.000 --> 01:21:00.000
He is the God of more than enough, more than enough.

1145
01:21:00.000 --> 01:21:09.000
And so I believe that he can also surprise us with a gift card to a store that we've never shopped at like whatever.

1146
01:21:09.000 --> 01:21:13.000
And, and again, it's not always going to come in the way we're asking either.

1147
01:21:13.000 --> 01:21:18.000
So know that, but it might come in a way that you wouldn't have even thought to ask.

1148
01:21:18.000 --> 01:21:20.000
This is not closed.

1149
01:21:20.000 --> 01:21:22.000
I'm going to tell you guys this really quick story.

1150
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And then I'm going to go to, sorry, Carol and Nicole.

1151
01:21:25.000 --> 01:21:30.000
Way back when I was a little girl.

1152
01:21:30.000 --> 01:21:34.000
I don't even remember why I wanted Raggedy Ann and Andy dolls.

1153
01:21:34.000 --> 01:21:36.000
I couldn't tell you why.

1154
01:21:36.000 --> 01:21:39.000
But I remember.

1155
01:21:39.000 --> 01:21:44.000
And I didn't for a lot, a lot of years, remember that I wanted those as a kid.

1156
01:21:44.000 --> 01:21:48.000
I have a friend that recently.

1157
01:21:48.000 --> 01:22:03.000
I'm Brian and I are like starting to try to get pregnant stuff and she did an activation for our kit like us and for our kids and she made us these Raggedy Ann and Andy dolls and sent them to me.

1158
01:22:03.000 --> 01:22:05.000
And I was like, Oh my God.

1159
01:22:05.000 --> 01:22:09.000
I wanted, I was super excited just because I thought it was super sweet.

1160
01:22:09.000 --> 01:22:15.000
And then God, like two days later reminded me.

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01:22:15.000 --> 01:22:18.000
You wanted these more than you were a kid and you didn't get them.

1162
01:22:18.000 --> 01:22:21.000
But I got them for you.

1163
01:22:22.000 --> 01:22:24.000
And I was like, Oh my God.

1164
01:22:24.000 --> 01:22:40.000
I'm so grateful for that. Like, all I know is that there are things that we longed for, that we felt like no one ever understood, or in I don't fault my mom, my mom was a single mom of four kids.

1165
01:22:40.000 --> 01:22:48.000
Yes, she made mistakes, but like, she did a lot of great things for us too. And for whatever reason, I didn't get Raggedy Ann and Andy dolls back then.

1166
01:22:48.000 --> 01:22:51.000
But God doesn't forget you all.

1167
01:22:51.000 --> 01:22:54.000
He doesn't forget I feel the Holy Spirit on this.

1168
01:22:54.000 --> 01:23:06.000
Some of you guys, even right now, there's things in the desire deep desires of your heart that you're not even speaking out in one day he's going to answer it.

1169
01:23:06.000 --> 01:23:11.000
And you're going to be like, Oh my gosh I never even told anybody this.

1170
01:23:12.000 --> 01:23:17.000
He knows the thoughts of your heart, and he loves you.

1171
01:23:17.000 --> 01:23:28.000
And when it's the right time. And if it's good for you. I believe he's going to answer that for you Carol I would love to hear what you have to share.

1172
01:23:28.000 --> 01:23:45.000
Yeah, so there was four of us in the group and I believe three of us talked about this same thing and I had started us out with the poverty mindset of wanting to be going on a trip with someone for such a long time, and the obvious first one I had said though

1173
01:23:45.000 --> 01:24:00.000
was to have that man in my life and have that companion to do things with, and it has been a very strong thing that has been in front of me where I see people going and live in Minnesota so going somewhere warm is so awesome.

1174
01:24:00.000 --> 01:24:04.000
And I really enjoy it but I can't go very often.

1175
01:24:05.000 --> 01:24:08.000
And even going on any trips.

1176
01:24:08.000 --> 01:24:24.000
Being divorced and single, of course, I don't have a lot of people in my life that I can do that with so that is something of a poverty mindset where it's like, No, I'm not going to for a while there I was like nope I'm not going to get this, it's not going to happen

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01:24:24.000 --> 01:24:41.000
I'm like no, turn it around and speak truth and ask God, God, I really want to go on a trip with someone. So I flipped it around and I was telling the girls to like that scripture came to mind, seek and you will find ask, and it will be given to you.

1178
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So I'm sitting in that moment now.

1179
01:24:44.000 --> 01:24:50.000
And I'm trusting that it's going to happen because also we've got the love story coming in this year.

1180
01:24:50.000 --> 01:24:59.000
And I know one of the other gals had said something similar to that, wanting the companion to do that with.

1181
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.480
just kind of one on one time. So that was, those were my two

1182
01:25:04.480 --> 01:25:09.280
things. And then the other gal did talk about the poverty

1183
01:25:09.280 --> 01:25:19.200
mindset of having that support. She had a support job. And she

1184
01:25:19.200 --> 01:25:21.920
had gone to it and they had said promoted it as Yep, you're going

1185
01:25:21.920 --> 01:25:26.440
to move on to another, you know, the next step up. But things

1186
01:25:26.440 --> 01:25:30.320
changed there, and it became less and less. And so that kind

1187
01:25:30.320 --> 01:25:33.960
of hit her and feel free to chime in, Jen, if you want to.

1188
01:25:34.640 --> 01:25:38.160
But that was that was one thing that was a heavy thing for her

1189
01:25:38.160 --> 01:25:40.080
to for a negative mindset.

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01:25:41.200 --> 01:25:45.160
Yeah, thank you so much for sharing. So a couple things,

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01:25:45.200 --> 01:25:49.840
ladies, when, and I know that you all want the companion, and

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01:25:49.840 --> 01:25:52.640
I believe for you that you're going to have the companion to

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01:25:52.640 --> 01:25:55.680
go on the trips with. But I want to encourage you all.

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01:25:56.840 --> 01:26:00.920
To start looking at your bucket list, looking for places you

1195
01:26:00.920 --> 01:26:05.480
want to go, and encouraging some of you to go with some of these

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01:26:05.480 --> 01:26:09.760
sisters in your group, to activate what God is going to do

1197
01:26:09.760 --> 01:26:15.440
with your spirit mate one day. And I know, again, I 100% I was

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01:26:15.440 --> 01:26:18.400
you guys and I was married before, but everything we did,

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01:26:18.400 --> 01:26:22.320
I felt alone, it never felt fun. And we didn't travel a lot. And

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so that was one of my actual just to encourage you, Carol,

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01:26:25.440 --> 01:26:28.720
that was actually one of my requests. If I go back and

1202
01:26:28.720 --> 01:26:31.760
showed you guys my Jesus cares board, it's had stuff on there

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01:26:31.760 --> 01:26:35.640
about traveling and, and fun and all of that kind of stuff. And

1204
01:26:35.640 --> 01:26:39.720
you all I travel more now than I ever have in my life with my

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01:26:39.720 --> 01:26:43.160
spirit mate. And so I just want to encourage you that that can

1206
01:26:43.160 --> 01:26:47.720
happen for you all. But I will tell you, do you want to know

1207
01:26:47.720 --> 01:26:53.400
what God led me to do first, to take myself on some trips to

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01:26:53.400 --> 01:26:57.480
find some girls. And I will tell you two of the trips I

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01:26:57.480 --> 01:27:03.520
traveled by myself, but I went and I met people there. And the

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01:27:03.520 --> 01:27:08.280
one was for our retreat for this community way back in 2021. And

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01:27:08.280 --> 01:27:11.360
then the other one was connected to this community as well. But I

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01:27:11.360 --> 01:27:15.480
just, there was a girl in my bridal party, and I did, I knew

1213
01:27:15.480 --> 01:27:19.160
her just from online, but she was going there too. And I was

1214
01:27:19.160 --> 01:27:21.840
like, Hey, you want to share a hotel room? And we you know, I

1215
01:27:21.840 --> 01:27:26.280
drove and we met. And sometimes we have to kind of we have to

1216
01:27:26.280 --> 01:27:30.680
start that in ourselves and start getting that going. So

1217
01:27:30.680 --> 01:27:35.200
that again, we start attracting the people that are like us

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01:27:35.200 --> 01:27:38.560
because we're already doing those things. Does that make

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01:27:38.560 --> 01:27:43.200
sense? All right. The other thing on the promotion, but then

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01:27:43.240 --> 01:27:49.080
change, then things changed. As soon as you said that, and I

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01:27:49.080 --> 01:27:52.360
think you were saying that was part of Jen's share. Yeah, that

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01:27:52.360 --> 01:27:58.520
was me. Yeah. Um, I just feel like, I'm not sure why. But I

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01:27:58.520 --> 01:28:02.200
feel like that somehow, when that happened, the reason that

1224
01:28:02.200 --> 01:28:06.800
felt so heavy for you is that's linking to something else, where

1225
01:28:06.840 --> 01:28:09.760
there was a promise of a blessing, and you felt like that

1226
01:28:09.760 --> 01:28:15.680
got taken away. And so this current situation at work, or

1227
01:28:15.680 --> 01:28:20.200
whenever that happened, is also linking up with something else

1228
01:28:21.080 --> 01:28:24.800
that needs healing. Okay, so I don't I don't know, I don't have

1229
01:28:24.800 --> 01:28:27.280
enough clarity on what that is. But I'm just sensing there's a

1230
01:28:27.280 --> 01:28:31.000
linking there to something else. And it might even be if it's not

1231
01:28:31.000 --> 01:28:34.480
you that experienced that it might be your parents or someone

1232
01:28:34.480 --> 01:28:38.720
else like in your family line. Okay. So just just pray for

1233
01:28:38.760 --> 01:28:42.720
Yeah, the Lord will reveal that for you. Okay, we're almost at

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01:28:42.720 --> 01:28:45.720
930. So I'm going to let Nicole go ahead and share and then

1235
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we'll start to close up for tonight.

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01:28:48.520 --> 01:28:53.560
So real fast. I know that you see my posts and about my dream

1237
01:28:53.560 --> 01:28:56.760
and how I was struggling with poverty mindset and everything.

1238
01:28:57.120 --> 01:29:02.320
So when we were in our group, three of us, a revelation hit

1239
01:29:02.320 --> 01:29:07.720
me. I had asked the father to help me with the poverty month

1240
01:29:07.720 --> 01:29:12.480
mindset. And then a couple nights after I had the dream

1241
01:29:12.480 --> 01:29:17.800
where I heard you're going to die and I screamed no. And I

1242
01:29:17.800 --> 01:29:24.120
heard that I'm going to live. So that revelation is poverty

1243
01:29:24.120 --> 01:29:28.240
mindset is going and I'm going to move into my new season in my

1244
01:29:28.240 --> 01:29:28.880
new life.

1245
01:29:29.480 --> 01:29:33.680
That's right. That's right. Yes, ladies, we die to our old

1246
01:29:33.680 --> 01:29:36.760
selves. The Bible actually tells us that we should die to

1247
01:29:36.760 --> 01:29:41.520
ourselves daily to our flesh, to our fleshly desires. And so

1248
01:29:41.520 --> 01:29:47.560
when we start living more for the Lord, we are going to have

1249
01:29:47.560 --> 01:29:52.200
times where the Lord will speak to us about the old man or woman

1250
01:29:52.200 --> 01:29:56.760
passing away. And behold, all things are becoming new. There's

1251
01:29:56.760 --> 01:29:59.800
a lot of scriptures if you guys look that up. Sorry, my thing's

1252
01:29:59.800 --> 01:29:59.960
going

1253
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:06.320
start going off. Um, if you guys start looking that stuff up, you'll, you'll see that God,

1254
01:30:06.320 --> 01:30:12.260
it's not, and he's not doing it to hurt us. It's to transform us just like the caterpillar

1255
01:30:12.260 --> 01:30:17.640
in the cocoon. Think of it that way. The caterpillar goes into that cocoon and it goes through

1256
01:30:17.640 --> 01:30:24.220
all that metamorphosis and that change so that what it can become the butterfly and

1257
01:30:24.220 --> 01:30:29.960
be free and fly and all kinds of things. Butterflies cross pollinate. I mean, they're just, it's

1258
01:30:29.960 --> 01:30:35.320
incredible what they do. Um, and so some of you all, that's the process that you're

1259
01:30:35.320 --> 01:30:40.520
in, you're in the cocoon and God is transforming and changing you. And there's that story out

1260
01:30:40.520 --> 01:30:45.720
there that if somebody walked up and tried to help that caterpillar by opening that cocoon,

1261
01:30:45.720 --> 01:30:49.600
it actually would harm it. So sometimes it's going to feel uncomfortable, ladies. You're

1262
01:30:49.600 --> 01:30:54.000
going to feel like this doesn't feel good. It's going to be hard, but just hang in there

1263
01:30:54.000 --> 01:31:00.280
because God is doing something else for, um, you in the future. That's going to help

1264
01:31:00.280 --> 01:31:05.040
you. Uh, Michonne, I know that you had, you mentioned you had a couple of questions. Um,

1265
01:31:05.040 --> 01:31:10.920
I need to probably close this up soon. Is it a question about like tonight's session

1266
01:31:10.920 --> 01:31:18.000
or just in general questions or just in general, like you talk about bridal group in the groups

1267
01:31:18.000 --> 01:31:23.960
and I'm not very active on Facebook just because of work. And it's just not an easy medium

1268
01:31:23.960 --> 01:31:31.920
to get into with school. So I'm, I'm, I know you guys have upgraded this change, upgraded

1269
01:31:31.920 --> 01:31:38.560
the system. And so how do we connect with people that may be on the same, in the same

1270
01:31:38.560 --> 01:31:42.800
group? So this group, is this everybody that's in the week three, or is this people that

1271
01:31:42.800 --> 01:31:46.760
are just starting? Like, where are people in the group? Like, that's kind of something

1272
01:31:46.760 --> 01:31:53.760
I don't know connecting with people. So, yeah. So everybody, the way phase one, well, the

1273
01:31:53.760 --> 01:31:58.320
way our program works now we've shifted it recently. So people, some of our ladies in

1274
01:31:58.320 --> 01:32:03.840
phase one could be finishing phase one, like week four, week five. Some of you all are

1275
01:32:03.840 --> 01:32:08.440
just starting. Some of you all are in the middle. Um, as far as where you're at in the

1276
01:32:08.440 --> 01:32:13.880
course, people can be in different places. So when I do that weekly roll call, when people

1277
01:32:13.880 --> 01:32:19.120
comment on there, you can see where different people are at in their process. So if you

1278
01:32:19.120 --> 01:32:24.120
wanted to sync up with someone that way, and that is on Facebook. So if you're not

1279
01:32:24.400 --> 01:32:29.160
able to get on Facebook, but that's where that's at. As far as how you meet people that

1280
01:32:29.160 --> 01:32:36.400
live near you, when you start to get further into our community, we will open up like

1281
01:32:36.400 --> 01:32:42.120
single cities to you. And we will encourage you, we don't have them in every area. This

1282
01:32:42.120 --> 01:32:47.240
is just something that's still growing. But we do have several single city groups, and

1283
01:32:47.240 --> 01:32:53.320
you can join those. And so we're continuing to grow as a movement. And so the more we

1284
01:32:53.320 --> 01:32:59.320
grow, the more becomes available in that sense. One of the things we're also I had

1285
01:32:59.320 --> 01:33:03.720
assigned for the previous group prayer partners, it's just a lot of work to do it

1286
01:33:03.720 --> 01:33:07.720
manually. And so we're trying to come up with a way to do it where it's just super

1287
01:33:07.720 --> 01:33:11.960
easy. And you guys can get assigned, but we don't have that yet. If that doesn't

1288
01:33:11.960 --> 01:33:16.600
happen, I'll probably go ahead and assign you all just manually one more time until

1289
01:33:16.600 --> 01:33:25.920
we get that figured out. So yeah, we don't we don't share any emails or phone numbers

1290
01:33:25.920 --> 01:33:30.240
or WhatsApp information in our in our Facebook group. So I would encourage you guys not

1291
01:33:30.240 --> 01:33:37.000
to do that. Just because that's just one of the safeguards we have in place. Like if

1292
01:33:37.000 --> 01:33:43.400
you guys decide to connect with each other one on one, that is totally up to you. But

1293
01:33:43.400 --> 01:33:47.720
as far as sharing your information, your private stuff inside of that Facebook group,

1294
01:33:47.720 --> 01:33:53.000
I wouldn't do that. Okay, and we won't approve your post if you do. So, but if it's a

1295
01:33:53.000 --> 01:33:56.440
comment, you know, we might not always see that, but we would prefer you not to put that

1296
01:33:56.440 --> 01:34:03.800
stuff in there. So, all right. Anything else, ladies, everyone heart, hearts clear.

1297
01:34:04.240 --> 01:34:08.600
Tonight, I hope this was a blessing to you. And I'm just going to be continuing to pray

1298
01:34:08.600 --> 01:34:12.960
for you guys about the forgiveness and the confession and, you know, really releasing

1299
01:34:12.960 --> 01:34:18.720
yourselves and being able to move on. And because we're at 935, I do see you, Gracie,

1300
01:34:18.720 --> 01:34:24.000
but I'm going to have to close us out. If you want, if you didn't get to ask your question

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01:34:24.000 --> 01:34:28.840
tonight, ladies, you can also post your question in the phase one group. Okay, so know

1302
01:34:28.840 --> 01:34:34.160
that you can do it that way as well. And I will answer you there. Father, thank you so

1303
01:34:34.160 --> 01:34:40.040
much for this incredible night. God, I know that you brought each person here for such

1304
01:34:40.040 --> 01:34:44.400
a time as this, God, we will never all be in the same place at the same time, hearing the

1305
01:34:44.400 --> 01:34:49.840
same words from your heart, the whispers from heaven that you had for each one of these

1306
01:34:49.840 --> 01:34:54.120
ladies tonight, God, the connections that were created in the breakout rooms, Lord, we

1307
01:34:54.120 --> 01:34:59.960
just ask you to continue to grow. This sisterhood group, help them to

1308
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.240
on each other, help them to grow in their trust in you. We just thank you, Lord, that you would

1309
01:35:04.240 --> 01:35:09.040
continue to guide them every step of the way, that you would help them to hear what your spirit is

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01:35:09.040 --> 01:35:13.440
saying to them specifically. God, if there's things that are in darkness, that those would

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be brought to the light so that they can be healed and made whole. And Lord, we just thank you for

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grace. We thank you for grace and courage and strength in each new day. In Jesus name. Amen.

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All right. I'll be seeing you all in the group. Have an amazing week and we'll talk to you guys

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soon. Bye everyone.