All right, hello, welcome.
Hopefully you guys will turn on your computers and let me see your lovely faces.
It makes a huge difference as we lead these sessions.
You guys will hear Jackie talk about there's grace on your face and it really there really
really is.
So I'm going to apologize in advance.
I am battling some kind of flu or something.
I've kind of resisted it for a week now and it just crept in overnight.
And so I'm going to be kind of clear in my throat a lot tonight.
So I apologize.
It's just going to be the way we're going to roll tonight, but I'm excited for you all
to be here.
If this is your first time, who's who's here for your first time tonight?
Just so I know.
Is anybody a newbie?
All right.
Welcome.
Let's see, Sarah, Jennifer.
All right.
I know some of the other new ladies will be catching the replay and that's totally fine.
My name is Bethany Cooper.
I am one of the heart work coaches in here.
We also have Annette and Jennifer Yankovic will be commenting, excuse me, on your all's
your posts and things like that.
They'll engage with you.
They're also helping me in the group just so you know that they are part of our team.
And then the other thing for you all that are new, you get to take all your helper hats
off.
You don't, you don't have to help anybody in here.
You get to just come in and receive and let God do what he's doing in your life.
And it's just going to be a really great, great time.
You can always cheer each other on and, you know, pray for each other, but we just want
you guys to know that you don't have to help.
You don't have to coach, no advice, all that kind of stuff.
And then the other couple of little housekeeping, I always do housekeeping at the beginning
of lives.
I don't want to do that very long, but it's always important as well.
Just because I noticed a couple of people were feeling like a little anxious because
they weren't where they felt like they needed to be because maybe there were other people
that started at the same time as them.
What's important is for you guys to go at your pace, like your life.
Obviously we don't want you to stay here like long-term necessarily like months and months
and months, but like life happens too, right?
So you go at your own pace, the best practice.
This is what we recommend because this is where we see the most success one week of
content per week.
Okay.
So in your Jackie Dorman website portal, when you go in there, it's by week, you know, it's
by week.
Um, one of the things I've noticed, because I can, we can see all on the backend of everything,
like everything everybody's doing and whatnot, I'm noticing not a lot of people are watching
the welcome video all the way through y'all are going to want to watch that Jackie says
some really important stuff in that video.
You're not going to want to miss it.
I know it might, you might be itching to get to that first week of content, but that welcome
video also has some supernatural things in there that really set up your heart to receive
the other content.
So please make sure you're watching that even if you're in week four and you didn't fully
watch that, I would encourage you to go back and watch that.
All right.
And then, um, just don't rush.
We do have daily prayer.
If you don't know, um, our prayer times and our schedule are in your Facebook group guides
tab.
Be very familiar with the guides tab.
So those we'll talk about the portal a lot, and we'll talk about Facebook and guides,
um, for all of our new ladies also, and some of you lovely ladies that I don't see as much
when you post, but I love seeing you all.
I do.
We like hearing from you.
We like knowing what's going on and that's how we can help you get to where God wants
you to go as well.
It basically accelerates your, your journey when you come in and show up and that's even
the struggles.
I don't know if you've noticed, but other people in the group have posted their breakthroughs,
their struggles, um, areas, they need prayer, all of those kinds of things.
And when you guys do that sincerely, it not only invites the Lord to come in, but it invites
the community, you know, your sisters that you're doing this with, as well as the coaches
to be able to come alongside of you in a really good way.
So I got to meet someone here.
All right.
So those are my announcements for you tonight.
I did a quick, you all, I did it in like five minutes.
I feel proud of that.
All right.
So let's pray and get started.
God has some good stuff tonight.
All right, father, thank you so much for who you are.
Thank you that, uh, even tonight, you're just, I already feel like you're supernatural
empowerment Lord.
So I just ask you to meet every one of these ladies in a special way, no matter what they've
come in with, no matter what baggage, maybe they're tired, Lord, maybe they've had a tough
day or Lord.
They're just super excited about what you're doing in their life, wherever they're at.
God, thank you that you're meeting them in this night and this just a special, special way.
I pray that you would open their eyes to see what your Spirit's doing, their ears to hear what your Spirit is saying.
Holy Spirit, I ask you just to come and just hover over them in a loving way.
Let them feel your grace and your truth.
We ask you to bring those things out of darkness into the light, Lord God.
Even things that we may have shoved down years ago that that are still impacting us or getting us to to be tripped up or triggered.
God, I pray that you bring those things to the light, bring revealing for healing to those areas so that we can move forward.
And we just thank you for it in Jesus name.
Amen.
All right, y'all, I'm sorry.
I'm going to have to do this to a lot.
I'm trying to power through tonight.
So as I was reading your all's responses.
Hi, Lori.
I also say hi, everyone on Facebook.
Come join us here on Zoom if you want to be in the breakouts with us.
But I'll say hi to you all there as well.
But as I was praying, I was reading your all's, some of your weekly roll calls and just praying for you guys in these sessions this morning.
And the Lord just kept putting on my heart supernatural surrender, supernatural surrender.
And this is exactly like specifically what came to mind.
What does this even mean?
What does it even mean to supernaturally surrender?
And I know some of you have already read that content.
You've watched the videos.
But I believe just from the session even earlier today that God is is wanting to show you another layer of what it means to really let go and surrender to God's will and plan for your life.
And so as we step into that tonight, I just want to remind you that, you know, surrendering is when, for example, if there's a battle going on, it doesn't mean that you just don't care.
It's that you're choosing to wave the white flag and you're saying, I surrender.
I surrender to your ways.
I surrender to what's going on.
And what can be scary about that is a lot of us.
We just don't want to let go because we think we can make it happen better, quicker and more advanced, whatever that looks like in a lot of different ways.
And sometimes it's even a subconscious like, God, I've got this like I can I can do this.
I can figure this out.
I can make this happen.
And God is just always saying, sweet daughter, my beloved daughter, will you trust me?
And that's where I want us to go tonight as well, because the reality is this.
We we will struggle, struggle to surrender if we don't truly trust.
And trusting comes from truly knowing who you are in Christ and being so rooted in the love of God, like who we is.
And everything that is makes him up the goodness, the faithfulness, the kindness, all of these attributes that are who he is.
He is love.
He can't deny himself.
He is love.
And so therefore, if we don't know him as that.
There's no shame tonight, there's no shame, but if we don't really know him that way, we are going to struggle to trust that he really has something good for us.
So a lot of times the reason we do this back and forth, like the Jesus, you know, take the wheel, but no, I'm going to take it back because, oh, my gosh, it's not happening the way I thought we were supposed to turn right here and you're turning left.
And and we take the wheel back and we're like, OK, I got this.
And then we're like messing it up.
And then we're like, oh, my God, no, I don't take it back, take it back.
And so if we'll just if we'll just let him take the wheel, like really let him take the wheel.
For some of you this week, it might look like.
Maybe just letting him come in a little further into your heart, into the places that feel unspoken.
You know, I've talked a lot over the last few weeks, if you guys have heard any of those lives, some of our newer ladies won't, but that those do not enter signs where it feels really vulnerable and tender that we would let him in.
And as I've said before, he's a gentleman.
He's not going to force his way in.
He's going to knock.
He knocks on the door of our hearts and he asked us to let him come in.
And so that's who he is.
He's never going to force his way in.
And so when we lean into the Holy Spirit, you guys will hear a lot about the revealing for healing.
We don't dig.
So I don't want you guys getting out your shovels and trying to figure out what got you to where you are and what the mess is and and figure, you know, where what is it?
Is it this? Is it this?
And you're like just analyzing and analyzing.
No, here, here I'm living, literally giving you all permission.
You don't have to do that.
Sincerely, you just have to say, Lord, will you reveal the root
to me of what's triggering me in this situation? Lord, man,
that, that was really hard for me. When that person said that
to me, it didn't just hurt me. Like it's, I felt it deep. Like
what's that about? Like what's going on there. And we're just,
we get really good at asking good questions and we trust that
he will reveal things for healing in their perfect timing
for you, just like he did for me. And I can tell you, like,
even today, there's a couple things this morning, and I might
not share the same stories tonight. So if people saw this
morning, you might see a little different, but the one in
particular, I had this lady. She's, she's a friend of mine,
and she's been through this program and she's healing a lot.
But in particular, she just gets really triggered, especially if
she messages people via text or whatever, and they can't
respond to her right away. And, and I've been working with her
on this, but in particular, there was a day last week where
I mean, I'm pretty busy, y'all. I try to make time for people as
much as I can. But there are times where I have to set
boundaries and I just could not respond to her that day. But I
didn't ignore her. I sent a message and said, Hey, I'm, you
know, I love you, but I'm like swamped today. I'm going to go
from back to back to back to back. I can't like, I can't even
take anything else on. And, uh, you know, she said she was good.
But, uh, then another friend who has like met someone and is
potentially walked into her spirit mate relationship, that
friend hasn't been as responsive either. And so what happened is
the enemy came in and has now triggered her and told her that
she's all alone and like, nobody cares about her. She's isolated,
all this stuff. And I bring that up tonight because I think
there are even some of you that that is kind of the lie. The
enemy has you on this hamster wheel that if somebody doesn't
respond to you in a certain timeframe, it means they don't
love you or that you are abandoned or you're alone. And
the enemy tries to tell you you're an orphan and you just
don't fit in and you're never going to fit in. And what were
you thinking? And whatever that looks like for you, it's
different for everybody, but it's a lie from the pit of hell.
The enemy is assigned to get you to go away from the things God
has for you here. You are in this really, you are not, I'm
not just saying this because I'm a leader here, but this is an
incredible move of God. And I'm, you know, people make mistakes.
You're going to run into people that still make mistakes in this
group, but I'm telling you what, this is a really amazing
community. And in community, you have an opportunity to meet a
amazing sisters and not only become friends, but really
genuinely become like sisters where you're in each other's
weddings and all kinds of things like, and, and, you know, I'm
not just saying this. I literally was in a friend's
wedding in September that I met on a retreat in this community
back in 2021, we became very close friends. I still talk to
her all the time. She's married, she's blending the family and
God's doing some stuff there. So all this, I'm trying to weave
together so that you guys start to lean in and even surrender to
community. What does it mean to let someone into your heart in
life, even in the vulnerable places? Here's another thing.
I'm, I'm, I'm planting some seeds, y'all. I love to come in
and just plant seeds and stir some stuff up. And then you guys
will go into breakouts here in a minute. So I had another friend
her and I've been chatting. We talk all the time. And in the
last week, our conversation has been around. You're safe here.
You're safe here. And her and I were having a conversation and
she said, yeah, I know we were talking, her and I were talking.
And I said, no, look at me like for real. And she just looked at
me and I said, God wants you to know you're safe with me. She's
like, I know. And I was like, do you? And I was following the
Holy Spirit in that. We talked a little bit more, you know, and
we, we had a great time, got off that, got off that connection
time. And the next morning she messaged me, she woke up in the
middle of the night. She had some kind of dream and she was
praying into that. And the Lord started speaking to her about
what I said to her that day. And, um, what he revealed was
that she didn't really believe that people want to, or have
space in their life for her. That's the lie the enemy was
telling her. And so we've been talking through that. And then,
um, I'm kind of, hopefully I'm weaving this all together so you
guys can kind of see the
tapestry I'm pulling together here. My husband and I are going
through some transitions and changes. We're praying a lot
into it, talking about it. We believe God's going to end up,
you know, shifting us from the two churches we've been
pastoring and move us somewhere else. And we just don't know
where that's at yet. And the other day I was sharing with
someone and there was just this automatic, like, it reminded me
of my conversation with my friend that I'm telling you
about. It was this automatic, like, that's why you're in
community. Because she said to me, she said, do you remember
what you've been telling me for the last year that you all want,
like, that you want, that you're asking God for? And so I was
like, no, tell me. And she sent this reminder. And so that's
what being in community, like someone that loves you enough to
remind you why you're here, that God loves you enough to remind
you why you're here. You're here because somewhere deep within,
you believe God has a love story for you that far exceeds
anything that you've experienced before. Some of you, maybe
you've never dated before, and God wants to really knock your
socks off. So what does it mean to fully let go and step into
that tonight for you? We're gonna talk real quick about
control freaks. Does anyone else in here struggle with control?
Anyone else like to have control? We got to control
everything, right? And we don't even mean to sometimes, ladies,
sometimes we just, that's just we're raised that way. And so I
want to encourage you, this is the thing. When we really look
at control, at the root of it, control often comes from a place
of fear, a place of fear, or wanting to keep something in
order and out of chaos. So why do we, hi, Kendra, so why do we
struggle in this way? Why do we, why do we want to have control?
And there are times where yes, God will create order. Okay, so
don't, don't hear what I'm not saying. God is a God of order.
But it's different if he's creating order in something
versus if we are controlling it. So here's, here's how it can
sound. I've got this. I don't need any help. I'm good on my
own. Well, really, are we? If we are, then why are we here?
Right? What is God saying to you about the areas where you are
trying to control and you're trying to say, I've got this, I
don't, and this isn't just God in you. This is people are
coming in your life, and they're asking you for help. Or excuse
me, they're asking if they can help you. And you're like, No, I
got this. Even guys are trying to hold doors open for you.
Y'all, I have little boys holding doors for me. More and
more and more. Do you know when we walk in the divine feminine,
you guys will learn about this more in a couple weeks. Like
divine feminine, the power of the Holy Spirit and the divine
feminine commands in the spirit to be recognized. It's not a
prideful thing. It's just an it's an error in a manner of
being. And grown men will hold doors for you. Other women will
hold doors for you boys. It's just like people notice you and
they're like, Oh, let me help you. I'm serious. I used to
think like, like, I can do this. I don't need it. I'm the one
carrying all the bags in on the double arms instead of making
multiple trips. Yes, that is me carrying the groceries in. And I
want to do as least amount of trips as possible. Yeah,
imagine dating someone chivalrous, and they're like,
let me help you. You're like, No, I've got it. I can carry it
all. And God's just like, No. So practice now. Get your practice
in now because you guys are going to meet men, spirit mates
that are chivalrous, they're kind and they have goodness in
them. I'm telling you because I'm married to one. Y'all, I had
to learn how to let him help me. I still do. After he had a
surgery, during his surgery, y'all, I'm doing all the things
again. And so I got used to doing it, because he wasn't even
allowed to carry weight. And so then now he's he can again, and
he's like, let me help you. I'm like, I just realized I shift I
started shifting right back into that. I've got this. So some of
you tonight, God's saying, let it go. Just let that thing drop.
What if, thank you, Lord, in the area of perfectionism? What if
we just decided tonight that we don't have to be perfect? It
doesn't mean we're not still going to do our best and do it
with excellence. But what if we did just let that one thing
drop?
That's
It's wearing us out. Maybe it's a person and, and they're just draining you and draining you and
draining like that friend. I love her. But when you, when anyone doesn't respect our boundaries,
ladies, when I say, Hey, I can't, I can't talk. And you keep messaging me. That tells me that
you have an issue with boundaries. And then I'm going to pull back more from that. Right. So what,
where do we need to let go tonight? So that's what I'm, I'm giving you kind of a grab bag.
You guys can talk about whatever is speaking to you from anything that I said, when you go
into your breakout, where do you, you know, where are you struggling to surrender? Where do you
struggle with control? You know, is there some area where you're saying I've got this or, you
know, the, where do you need to let go of something? I mean, if there's something else that's
on your heart, you can talk about that too. I'm just, I'm just giving you guys a bunch to go in
there and you can talk about whatever is on your heart tonight. Hello to the ladies that just
recently joined us. So good to see you all. All right. Give me one second here.
All right. You're going to get, you're going to be in there for eight minutes. I'll be praying
for you all. And I'll be talking to my ladies over here on Facebook. Here you go.
All right. Click to join. I'll be watching if, if someone ends up by themselves,
we'll move people around. All right. I've got Selina. Mel, are you able to click to join?
Oh, that's why that got me. I'm going to move you. Let's see here.
All right. Awesome. So all my ladies, hi, Sophia. Hello, Melissa, Kendra. All right. So ladies,
feel free. You can put in the chat there. Is there something that's speaking to you out of what we've
been talking about already tonight? Where's God telling you that like you need to just surrender
in a new level right now? Where is he saying, maybe let go of control tonight. Just feel free
to put that in the chat and we'll, I'll be able to speak into those and pray for you as well.
If you're just joining us, you can come on zoom with us so that you can get into a breakout
session. It's okay. If you're, you're just joining, there's plenty of time to go into a breakout room.
So I'm going to pray for you guys while they're in there. Father, thank you so much
for just this amazing night. God. Thank you. Yes, Lord. Thank you that you sent Jesus
and Jesus. Thank you for coming. Thank you for dying on the cross for the forgiveness of our
sins, for our healing, for our freedom. We thank you that you give us the supernatural ability to
overcome. Thank you, Lord, that we don't have to just survive God that we can thrive. Hi, Lisa.
Let me put you in a group. Hey, my notifications were off. So
you could throw me back into a room. That'd be great. Oh, were you in a room already? I was.
And then I couldn't figure it out because I'm using my phone today instead of my computer. So
that's all right. You were with, um, I think I was in, Oh, shoot. I think I've been okay. Yep. Yeah.
It's okay. I'll just, sorry about that. That's all right. It's totally fine. All right. Hi,
Johanna. All right. I'm going to put you in a group too. Oh, hold on. Why is that acting funny?
There we go. All right. There you go. All right. Lord, thank you so much for, uh, Jennifer says
I've noticed I struggle with being worthy because I'm a child of God. I tend to want to earn and
deserve his love inheritance promises. Jennifer, you're not alone. I promise so many, so many
struggle with that. And in what it is, is that we, we have a heart, a head knowledge, excuse me,
had knowledge up here, but our heart doesn't fully understand because we have those lies that
are still in there and the wounds that are unhealed that say different things to us.
That's where the enemy has power and he can create and establish those strongholds. And so
the more that we heal, the more that we break free from the lies and any kind of soul ties and things
like that, that's when we can start to overcome. And obviously replacing the lies with the truth
is a part of that process. So we just encourage you, Jennifer, in this next week, go ahead and
just look up a couple of scriptures on what does it mean to be the beloved, the beloved daughter of
God, like look up some scriptures and pick out one or two that resonate for you and ask God to.
really show you what those mean for you in this season.
Sorry, ladies, I have to take a drink.
For those that have joined us late,
I'm battling some kind of cold flu thing,
so my voice is a little rough tonight.
But yeah, so if you lean into those
and just let God show you in this new season
what he wants to say
and how he wants to show up to you in a new way.
So last night, Kendra, yes, it was amazing.
And I'm sorry to hear that you felt a little anxious.
Some of that will get better with time
because you'll start to grow and grow and grow.
Hi, Casey, let me put you into a breakout room here.
All right, so the more that you grow,
I'm not saying, I mean,
sometimes I still get nervous for sure,
but you'll grow and you'll get more comfortable
and understand what the prophetic even means.
Last night, it was kind of like a wet your appetite
kind of teaching on it.
Sometimes she's gone deeper into it in the past,
but she did a little bit lighter on it.
But we are gonna work on that in activations
this next Sunday night.
So if you come there,
there might be a little bit more practice
on some of the things that we were implementing in that.
All right, so Lord, I just thank you also.
I just wanna pray for, Lord, the way that we see ourselves.
I just pray right now for the hearts and the minds,
the souls, the spirits,
and even the bodies of every one of us in this community
and this group,
that you would help us to hear
what your spirit is saying to us,
that you would help us to receive the truth
that we are a pearl of great price,
that we are worthy of your love, God,
because you make us worthy.
And we just thank you that you would open us up
to receive all that you have for us.
We ask you to lift any veil of deception
off of our hearts, our minds, Lord,
even our bodies where our bodies,
we've become kind of disassociated
and kind of separated even from our own bodies in some ways.
We thank you for convergence
and bringing those things back together.
We thank you for healing and redeeming us
from the inside out.
We thank you, Lord,
that you create in us clean hearts, oh God,
and renew steadfast spirits within us.
And I just thank you tonight that you would show us,
Lord, if there's any area, I'm just seeing ladies,
like if someone were taking kind of a dusting rag,
but it's not just dust,
like there's dark areas in our hearts
and God's just trying to clean that stuff out
and he's doing it in love,
even though sometimes it might hurt
or feel painful in any way,
but God is saying that it's out of his love
that he's cleaning those places.
So if that applies to you,
if that's where you've been kind of feeling like,
man, this is tough and I'm not sure,
man, do I wanna do this?
Do I wanna go through this hard, hard, hard healing work?
Is it worth it?
I just wanna tell you it is.
It is, hang in there and keep going.
God is working in ways beyond
what you could ever ask, think, or imagine.
And he's taking that rag
and he's softening hardened stony places in your heart
and he's making those areas soft and pliable
to his voice, to his will and to his ways in your life.
So just know that he sees you and he loves you.
It's out of his great love for you
that he has called you through his loving kindnesses
to repentance, to transformation.
And so we just thank you, Lord,
that you see every part of us and you love us anyways.
He loves us anyways, ladies.
His love is unconditional.
It doesn't, you know, there's nothing.
The Bible declares that nothing can separate us
from his love, not height, nor depth, nor principality,
nor power, nor things in the present, nor things to come.
He loves you.
Yes, Melissa, he loves you.
Jennifer, he loves you.
Lauren, Kendra, let's see, Lori, I think earlier, Sophia.
Yes, yes, yes.
He calls you by name.
Yes, let's see what else is he,
what are people saying here?
Thank you, I couldn't join live.
Yes, that's okay.
If you purchased it, the replay should be up,
I would say in the next day or so.
Our team has had so many replays we've had to work on.
In addition, I don't know if y'all know,
but we're doing a live challenge right now too.
So that's kind of going on.
And Melissa, I see you, I'm very dusty.
I struggle with being worthy, mainly body image.
Yes, me too, girl.
I really have in the past,
I just recently back in November did a session
for another part of our community,
we call them the phase three group
on overcoming and breaking free from body shame.
And so that was-
was powerful, was powerful to do that.
And so just want you to know you're not alone and God will
continue to speak to you in mighty ways.
Just keep leaning into him, leaning into him in those areas
and giving him those vulnerable places and let it meet you
there.
Hi ladies.
Welcome back.
Everybody's almost back with us.
Almost got everybody.
I did something here in my zoom thing.
I was trying to, there we go.
It's all messed up.
Trying to watch our ladies on zoom so they can participate.
Oh, here we go.
All right, exciting.
Yes.
All right.
Oh, yeah.
Yeah, that replay might be available at some point Melissa.
I'll make sure you guys know because I do think it'll be a
blessing for a lot of people.
Hello.
Welcome back.
All right.
So for those that are new you might not know this but when we
come back to the party, we start sharing with the whole
group what you shared in your private breakout.
So and that doesn't mean like don't panic.
Everybody doesn't have to share but I just ask for someone
to start it off because normally once one person shares other
people will feel led to share.
So who wants to go first tonight and share with the whole
group?
I can go awesome.
Hi, I'm Swarna.
Nice to meet you.
Hi, nice to meet you.
I have some questions for you later, which I'll message on
Facebook about phase two and all that but but I think we're
all in this continuum of being at different places, you know
with with the heart work.
So in our group, we feel like we're all kind of camped out
between three and four weeks three and four just taking our
time digesting especially forgiveness because you know,
obviously the other ladies are remembering things that the
Holy Spirit shows them from childhood and and and and for
myself.
That's something I've been working real hard on for several
years.
So the Lord is faithful to remind me, you know, this is
this person or family especially family choosing to forgive
them choosing not to be offended which I believe are going
to be so important in marriage thus you're married.
So I've never been married but I'm I am sure that is I feel
like that has been a huge area of grace for me.
I've grown in that because the local church I go to you know
has dealt with a lot of that for us and and it's been great
to grow in that area.
So I'm thankful, you know, and as Holy Spirit reminds me there's
going to be more so I'm kind of camped out a week for right
now.
I'm like doing the the forgiveness paperwork, you know,
the book and everything and so I don't know how phase two
works into this because they sent us the link last week.
So yeah, I'll talk about that a little bit tonight.
I will just say just so you guys know I'm sorry for any
confusion.
They were moving based on the date you signed up, but that
does not mean sorry that does not mean you have to go to
phase two right now.
If you are not finished with phase one heartwork, you need
to stay with me here stay with me and hang with me for as
long as until you're done.
So what done means is in the portal Jackie Dorman.com website
portal you guys have all of your weeks in there.
You want to watch all of that stuff you want to show up to
the lives because every week you're watching material then
we're coming live and you're going to have five live sessions.
So stay all the way until you get that fifth.
I know it seems like well, what why does it matter?
Let me just go on.
I had ladies today that were getting freedom and it was
stuff that you know, they've this was their fifth week.
There was a fifth one.
So you just never know what kind of nugget God still trying
to give you so you stay and you show up and then you're here
in the Facebook group.
You're posting you're engaging and you're just letting God
give you everything during this time.
But then when you're all finished with your coursework,
then there will be I have a post in there right now, but I'll
do a refresher every week.
I'll try to get in there and do a new one or at least tag
you guys in the one from the previous week, but there's
instructions on how to join that phase to you can hang on
to that email if you'd like and you can do that at that time,
but great question.
Yeah, and part of the reason we've shifted a lot is because
we always literally had to wait and we would get these big
groups of people and then we would start and have and then
we'd have all these people waiting and so this way people
can come in and they can go at their own pace and then they
can go on to the next phase at their own pace.
So don't get into FOMO.
Don't give in you're not missing out.
God has you right where you need to be right now and there
will be.
things you all and this is why it's so important to not and not that you were Swarma, but this
just came up in my spirit. So I just that's why I'm going here. So bear with me, but like
there are times that when FOMO is happening, if we will also understand that where we're
at, excuse me, what is FOMO? Oh, fear of missing out. You're afraid of missing out. Yeah. Afraid
of missing out when you start hearing, I have a lady going, this is happening to her right
now in phase two, cause she didn't move to phase three when other people did. And so
now phase three, they're talking about what's going on over there. So this fear of missing
out it's happening. I'm sorry, y'all. I didn't even think about that. But when God is continuing
to pour into us as leaders, and I think I did some pretty great stuff before, but the
more I'm growing and healing and healing and healing, and God is imparting more, you all
are getting a totally different Bethany than two years ago when I taught and led, right?
So you just, you're here at this appointed time. And that applies for Jackie that applies
for other coaches as well, whoever it is that's leading and facilitating, but you're here
at this appointed time because God has something to impart to you that we have at this time.
We might not have had it before. Okay. So on that note, just know, yeah, you're going
to be here. Enjoy the ride. When you guys are leaning in, just know you don't have to
stay in forgiveness forever. Don't, don't camp out there for a week. Like when I'm saying
if you need to take two weeks or so, great, that's fine. But when you get into three and
four long weeks of just constant forgiveness prayers, you all, that can be a lot. That's
way a little too long there. And this is why forgiveness is an ongoing process. Healing
is an ongoing process. So I don't want you guys to feel like you have to like stay here
or that you're not able to move forward. You're going to continue to heal as you go. Okay.
So did I answer the questions and anything there?
So my question is regarding the, the Monday night session will be like next week. There's
no FOMO here. I'm just asking like week six. So you'll still be the leader. We just do
the link, the link that's on the Facebook page for, for this session. I can still continue
with that. Yep. Yep. So I'll yeah. So if you are just now in week four, even if you've
come to six live sessions, that doesn't matter. It's more based off of your course and where
you're at in your course. Does that make sense? So you can, yeah. So it'll be a different
person next week. Another I'll be here either myself or Jackie. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Yeah.
I have two coaches that help in the group and that and Jennifer. So there'll be responding
to you guys in the group. Sometimes Jennifer's able to come live with us. Sometimes she's
not just depends on their jobs, but yeah, every Monday night I'm here Mondays at one
we're here Mondays at 8 PM Eastern. And that is the time for your live sessions for phase
one. All right. Awesome. Great questions. Yeah. And I didn't, I didn't necessarily think
you had FOMO, but it just came up in my spirit. So maybe someone else was struggling with
that. All right. Who else wants to share or, or has something that God put on your heart
to share with everyone? I'll share. So I actually got in a room with my friend, Amanda and I
are doing this and we didn't know that we were both going to be on. So we were in the
same room. So that was kind of fun. It's fun. Yeah. And so I just shared with, so last year
I was in Mexico for 10 months for a missions trip teaching English. And so part of that
control thing, I said, I really always wanted to be in control, but then I went to a country
where I didn't know the language, basically didn't know anything. And so I really had
to let all of that go. And so now coming back, there's still some things I try to be in control,
but I feel like I've gotten better or even with just letting people help to, you know,
like you said, they're just wanting to help. And so I feel like when we don't let others
help, we're taking away a blessing. And so and then one of the things that Amanda and
I talked about was just that completely surrendering. We talked about how we'll
give it to God, but then we take it back and just the struggle of just leaving it there
and completely surrendering. So yeah. That was so good. Thank you for sharing.
When you were talking about the Mexico and you were being in a, you were in a country
that you didn't have the knowledge of the language. And so you had to surrender.
What came up in my spirit was that you all
Oh, learning, I'm so sorry.
Bear with me, you all.
Learning the language of the Father
is like being in a new country, you all, sometimes.
If you think about it, the heavenly language,
like the way God speaks, the way God thinks,
even some of you all had some ladies sharing in the chat,
you know, just really being on that prophesy your year
and you're learning something new
and you're being stretched and all these things,
like even learning and knowing truly
what is the Father's love?
What does it look like?
What does it feel like?
What does it sound like?
It can be like you're in another country, in a sense.
And it's like completely surrendering
to learning the new language.
I just, as soon as you said it, I was like,
whoa, that's really good.
Man, that could really preach, truly.
But like, we're learning a new love language, we are.
And the Father's love language,
in His mark of your view, is beautiful daughter,
it's beloved, dear one, all that kind of language.
That is how He speaks over us.
The Bible declares that He dances over us,
rejoices over us with singing.
That is the God that we serve.
Thank you for sharing, Sarah.
I'm probably gonna switch up breakouts though,
now that I know that you all, it's not a bad thing,
but that way you get someone new in your group there too.
All right, who else wants to share?
You can go ahead.
Selena, you can go.
Selena, do you wanna share?
Okay, does someone else have anything you wanna share
before we start going on?
Okay. I'll share.
Oh, sorry.
I saw Shannon put her hand up
and I thought it was Shannon talking.
Shannon can go and then Michelle.
All right.
So I actually posted this in the Facebook group this week,
but the big thing for me, I feel like for me,
like the perfectionism and the control go hand in hand
and kind of have similar roots.
But like for me, I really identified
with having a really hard time
letting people serve me and help me.
And like I'm 44 and I've never been married.
So I'm just used to doing it all myself all the time.
And so I thought that that was just the main reason.
And then I was finishing the week five content this week.
And there was a chapter that talked about
like things from birth, like being a mistake or whatever.
And my parents were 19 when I was born.
They weren't married.
My mom had to drop out of college, move back home.
Her parents wanted to give me up for adoption.
Like it was this whole tough thing.
And so like she chose to keep me
and my parents ended up getting married,
but it was always really rough growing up
because neither of them could go to college
and finances were always tight.
And so I know that I was chosen and wanted,
but as I was going through that content,
like for the first time,
God really connected the dots with me
that that control comes from not wanting
to feel like a burden to other people
and not wanting to make people be put out
in order to help me.
And that went back to the circumstances of my birth
and just knowing that I was chosen and wanted,
but I still felt like a burden
because of the inconvenience that it caused my mom
or so God's just really been like,
taking me back to that this week
and speaking to me about that.
So that's been pretty huge for me this week,
but something else connected to that.
At one point I had just had a rough year,
like with my health, I had a planned surgery
and then like two unexpected emergency surgeries
within a couple months of each other.
And so I needed a lot of help.
And at one point my aunt was like,
you're being a blessing blocker.
And I was like, what?
And she's like, you are robbing someone
of the joy and opportunity of being a blessing to you
by not accepting help.
And I was like, oh my gosh,
it just hit me really hard.
Like, dang, she's so right.
I'm like, I need to work on this.
So yeah, so it's just been, that's really,
God has already been highlighting
that to me this week anyway.
And so, yeah.
So good.
All right, I'm gonna issue you all an activation
for this week.
This is when it's coming in.
I gave it to the group this morning too,
and it just came up.
God totally brought it up again tonight.
All right, this is the assignment.
this week and in the weeks ahead so this don't just stop this week just keep going okay so we
activate you now and you just keep doing this i want you guys to anytime anybody offers to help
you yes thank you so much if it's somebody opening a door if it's somebody um offering to give you
money if it's someone who's just hey can i pray for you whatever it is do you want to borrow
something do you need a cup of sugar some of you guys that might be your little thing where you're
working on something in the kitchen and you're like shoot i'm out of that and god's gonna be
like go ask your neighbor and you're gonna have to go over and actually ask for help so some of
you it's just practicing getting out there and others god is gonna nudge you to ask for it
and just be surprised like i mean seriously be open for surprises because it's fun and for those
of you that are dreading it right now i want you to know like god's gonna really teach you how fun
it can be to let people help you seriously um we had um a lady post in phase three tonight after
last night's prophesy your year god there was a word that was given to her that she was supposed
to help someone of the opposite sex and she she even said this morning i thought how am i gonna do
that i don't even have that many guys in my life she was she lives in new york walking down the
street she finds a wallet guess what it's for a guy and she's like in the old days i would have
taken the money out and thrown it away you're in new york you just keep going and uh she said but
god nudged her to look at the actual address to look it up and it wasn't that far from her work
y'all this is such a cool story so she says that um you know she decides to get a friend and go
there to take this wallet because here's this word that god had given her just last night
and she's got this wallet and they go and at first it doesn't seem like it's gonna work out
nobody's answering the door and then they go and knock on another door and god kind of just
whispered to her go back down and knock again basically there's a more there's a longer story
but go back down and knock again so she does a woman answers kind of hesitant and then she tells
the woman why she's there and why she's asking for this man and the woman like starts like
excitingly screaming oh my god oh my god oh my god he's going on a trip this week and he needs his id
and his cards and had that wallet not gotten returned to him y'all he might not have been
able to go on that trip or he would have had to really go through the ringer to get that stuff
super quick this week so i just want to share that because here you know god was using her
to bless someone a man ended up being someone she would never probably have met and she didn't even
meet him tonight she met the person you know that he lives with but it's it's like god is giving us
these opportunities for something new and it's adventure and sometimes it comes packaged like
that do you see what i'm saying but even for you all it might it might just be something simple
that god will nudge you to do all right so there's that part and then i want to circle back
to something when shannon was talking when she was talking about the inconvenience part
and being feeling like a burden over the years and really battling that i heard the word identity
and then i heard the word marked and marked in the sense that the enemy tried to mark you
as a burden but that is not god's declaration over you you are a blessing
you're a blessing shannon i encourage you and anyone else that this is resonating with to look
yourself in the mirror and say shannon you're a blessing and sometimes that might be really hard
and other times it might feel really easy even if you cry i want you to press through that and
keep telling yourself that that is who you are that is who you are you know and even just
meditating on who has god called you to be who does he say you are you know god in the bible
all the time he changed people's names why why do you think he did that because if their name
did not truly define them based on his identity for them they needed a new name a name that would
align with the identity and purpose of heaven for their lives so some of you all are going to get
some new names in the spirit these next several weeks as well you don't inconvenience god shannon
or anyone god told me to say that directly to you
you. God is saying you don't inconvenience me either. You
didn't inconvenience your parents, and you're not
inconveniencing God. So I'm saying that to all of you. He
loves us. He wants to hear from us. We're not an inconvenience
to him. Okay. All right. Awesome. Michelle, do you still
want to share?
I don't have to, you can go on.
Okay. All right, I can keep going. All right. So as we
start to track, I want to touch on something real quick. Because
I've noticed that some of the ladies that have even been in
here for a little while, I'm not even sure if you guys know
about the Jesus Cares Board yet. So I felt like it was really
important to touch on that tonight. It will be in your
course materials. If you have not heard about it yet, you
will, but I'm going to kind of talk to you briefly about it
tonight. Number one, a Jesus Cares Board is not a vision
board. Okay, I love vision boards. Y'all, the more you get
to know me, I do vision boards every year. But your Jesus Cares
Board is not a vision board. It's totally separate. Okay, I'm
going to show you a picture, a couple pictures, and I'm going
to talk you through it. If I can find my right. I have too many
things open. Here we go. Y'all are going to see yourself.
I have the double screen open right now. All right, here we
go. All right. So this is an example. And I love this one
because she did not have a board at the time. And one of the
things I want to emphasize is even if you don't have a poster
board, if you don't have a bulletin board, you can use a
wall in your house, she used a cupboard, it works just fine,
and it will have the same effectiveness. Okay. But here's
what she did. It's about casting your cares on Jesus. So what are
your worries, your concerns, your cares, things that burden
you, and they weigh you down. I mean, Shannon, it could even be
that thing that you just shared about believing that you're
burning, you could say, I'm not a burden anymore, I'm casting
that care on the Lord. Again, just giving you all examples. It
could be someone in your family that's not saved. I mean,
there's still your car needs fixed, whatever your need is,
okay. And you cast those cares, it's a literal activation
saying, I am not going to carry this on myself anymore. And I
cannot do it on my own. Jesus, I need you to supernaturally take
care of this thing. And as you're doing it, you're putting
that thing on your board. And you're saying, I trust you to
supernaturally work in that situation. Okay. And then you go
back and you pray over them, but you don't take them back off the
board. You keep them on the board. The only time you take
them off the board, you all guess when, when they're
answered, when they're answered, do you all see what she did up
here? She has the answer prayers. And this is all stuff
that God answered just during her time and heartwork you all
from the time she started heartwork to the time she
finished, God had already answered in six of those things.
Okay. Might not be the same for everybody, but I just want you
guys to know it is possible. Okay. Let me show you another
one. Here's one, she has a board. Okay. So she's got a
board. She's a little bit more organized. It doesn't matter how
you guys do it. You can do it with different colors, different
shapes, whatever. And then I'm going to show you one more. Come
on, keep going. Yeah, that one's here's the one I want to show
you. All right. And it doesn't mean that I like have any
preference role. Everybody did great. But these were the ones
that kind of just real quick stood out to me today. She's got
some different colors, but she also chose some images, you
know, so this person in particular was struggling with
feeling very, very low hope when they came into the program. And
so she was casting her care regarding her hope and that
area. So God's been working in all that stuff. Okay. So, and
this is just one of those push pin ones. So you can do it like
that. All right. Does anyone have questions about the Jesus
cares board? Everyone good. All right. So what I want is as you
start to work on them, and you get your Jesus cares board
going, it doesn't even have to be all the way finished. If you
want to wait and get it finished. Great, that's fine.
But I want you to post them in the group. I want you to show
us what are your cares again, this is about being in community
and connecting and going through this together. You can
do the board in phase two as well. But typically we have
everybody share their board in phase one, just right now. Okay.
Um, we do, we do other stuff in, in the other phases, but we will still, like,
I still have my Jesus cares board and the Holy spirit has been talking
to me about updating mine, just being honest, I've been super busy.
You all, but I need to go back and revisit that board.
And I need to, I need to take some things that have been answered.
You guys, my board still has stuff about my spirit mate on it.
Well, I've had my spirit mate a year and four months and we're
officially married that long.
So I can go and take those things off.
Right.
And I can update that because I have some other areas that we need God to work.
We're, we're trying to get pregnant and all of the things.
So I can put that on our board.
Right.
So that's how you use that board over time.
You let it become a part.
Don't, don't get so busy like me that you let it get so far behind.
Okay.
All right.
Last thing I want to talk about, I just want to make sure you guys
heard about the Jesus cares board.
There's a couple of things.
I wanted to bring up tonight when we were talking earlier about the letting
people help us, one of the things that came up earlier, I almost forgot to
mention it in today's session, why don't we want to depend on other people?
Why don't we, anyone have a guess there's no wrong answer.
We're prideful and hurts our pride.
It does.
But even under that, if you, you kind of like started saying it, so go ahead.
Who was going to say something?
Sorry, it was me.
I was going to say maybe being let down in the past, disappointed, all of those
work together.
So do you know that pride is often that surfaces because underneath it,
we're hurt a lot of the time, ego and pride, they kind of go together.
Well, typically ego and pride, they get puffed up a lot when we get hurt.
And so we build this like kind of tough exterior because we're defending
that stuff underneath of there.
And there are other reasons for pride and ego, but that is one of the reasons
people really end up struggling with a lot of that stuff, but yeah, we don't
want to be disappointed.
You all it is.
It's so hard when we get let down by other people, when we put our hearts
into something and we take a risk and they make mistakes or it doesn't go the
way we thought it would.
Right.
Then this isn't just romantic relationships.
This is friendships.
This is family.
This is community.
This is church.
I mean, this is life, right?
All right.
So with that being said, I'm going to go ahead and move on to the next
The Lord doesn't want you to be afraid of disappointment.
Fear is false evidence appearing real.
That's what it is.
Fear is fueled by lies.
So if we are leaning into fear, the Bible also declares that fear has to do with
torment.
I'm sorry, I'm choking a little bit.
And then, um, fear has to do with torment.
And then also the other flip side of that is it says that he who has been made
perfect in love doesn't fear.
So it goes back to what we started with tonight.
Like, are we rooted in the love of the father in such a way that it, and I'm not
saying yes, you all, we're all going to go through stuff every day, but when the
enemy tries to bring, bring fear to the door, we're like, it's almost like love is
a force field, right?
Love is a force field.
We acknowledge what's happening.
And we, we know that sometimes there's times where we have to shift.
We talked quite a bit earlier today about boundaries.
Sometimes we have to shift boundaries with people because their, their love is, it's
not just a risk.
It's actually hurting us their version of love.
What I'm talking about right now is people that are toxic you all, and they don't have
an actual understanding of love and their version of love is coming from a lot of
counterfeit identities and places that are not healed and whole.
And that's why they call it love, but it's not, they just, they don't understand that
it's not okay.
That's what mental illness is.
Okay.
All right.
So on that note, um, I want to talk to you guys a little bit about unguarded hearts and
what does it mean to have an unguarded heart?
I want to read something to you real quick.
I'm not going to do this for long, but I felt like this was important.
It says, think about it.
We have passwords for everything.
Our phones, computers, our bank accounts, my husband, even this is Jackie talking.
My husband even has passwords for his passwords.
Don't ask.
It's like a spy movie around here.
When you want to log into anything, you need to use your thumbprint, scan your
retina.
I mean, God, I'm just trying to watch Netflix.
I love that part.
We have locks on our doors and cars, even our locker at the gym.
But seriously, why?
Why are we so protective of all of these material possessions?
Because we know the value of these things.
When you see the value of something, you understand what boundaries or safeguards you need to
put in place to protect it.
We do not show the same respect for our hearts.
So what boundaries do you guys need to put in place with some people?
Maybe even yourself.
Maybe you need to shift a behavior.
And again, it's not just about stopping a behavior, ladies.
It's not.
It's about God transforming us on the inside in such a way that it causes our external
behaviors to change.
We have to invite them into those areas, though.
So some of you, you know, you grew up not learning the value of your own being, who
you are.
Some of you, I'm even just hearing the Holy Spirit say, like, you were, like, picked on
even in your own families for your laugh, for your personality.
Maybe you asked a lot of questions.
You know, I don't know what it was, but some of you, like, that was kind of your life growing
up.
But God is speaking over you tonight, and he's saying, that was not my heart for you.
Like, he, his heart broke when your heart was breaking.
And even the times when you didn't acknowledge it to yourself, because it was too hard to
acknowledge that someone who should love you was actually making fun of you and putting
you down.
Hurt people hurt people, y'all.
They do.
Okay, I'm going to keep going.
The quality of your family can set you up for success or disaster in this life, and
many have experienced the latter.
The majority of people that read this book will have never been taught the value of themselves
or their hearts.
And to be fair, in most cases, your family didn't know the value of your heart or their
own either.
They can't teach you what they don't know themselves.
You all, for real, let that sink in tonight.
I'm not making, I'm not saying make excuses for people that are toxic and misbehave and
treat you badly.
But what I am saying is that God wants, wants to release into us compassion and empathy
and forgiveness and help us release it to other people.
So what you're going to talk about in your breakout, though, are these areas, these tender
areas where, yeah, I'm going to ask you to get vulnerable.
I am.
Was there anything where people made fun of you, whether it was in your family and school
growing up, you know, areas where you didn't get to actually be yourself?
So maybe people didn't make fun of you, but something was going on that it just caused
you to shrink down in some way and not be yourself.
Maybe you were shy and you were made fun of for being shy and it wasn't okay to be shy.
Well, that's kind of the same thing.
It's just the opposite side of it.
So whatever it was, a part of who you are was, you were told it wasn't okay to be that.
So that's what I want you to talk about because then we're going to come back and we're going
to do some coaching on that and we're going to bring some healing into this place tonight.
All right.
Sound good?
I hope so, because we're going to go there.
All right.
I'm going to recreate these rooms.
I'm excited for this, you guys.
I hope you are.
All right.
Here you go.
I'm praying for you.
We love you.
Hi there.
Let's see, Andrea, on Facebook and the website, yeah, you want to, the portal is where the
class coursework is at, but the Facebook stuff has, you know, some replays and you
want to post your kind of your homework or thoughts in the Facebook groups.
All right.
Let's see.
Oh, I see.
Where can you find the zoom link for the call?
You can find the zoom link for every one of these live sessions, ladies in your Jackie
Dorman.com website portal, as well as the guides tab in the Facebook page.
Kendra, thank you for helping her trying to scroll and see what else is going on in
here tonight.
All right.
So good.
Hi, Jennifer.
Oh, shoot.
Someone's asking for help.
Let me see what she might be in there by herself.
Yep.
She's in there by herself.
All right.
yourself. Hold on one second. I'm just talking and praying
All right.
away. Does everyone else have a partner? All right, cool. Good
to see you. Hi there. Oh, hello. This is really good. It's good
stuff. I'm just popping on but it's so good. You're like, good
wave. Keep going. It is the Lord. I'm telling you what I've
been battling sickness all day. And so sometimes I just, I'm
like, okay, Lord, like I literally was like, you got to
do this tonight because I didn't know if I'd be able to talk. So
thank you for that. So I'm curious. Is there anything you
feel it's okay? If not, is there anything like stirred up in you
that you feel like you want to share? You want me to keep
going? Keep going? Yeah. Okay. All right. So one of the things
that on that topic of, you know, when our family doesn't, their
own hearts aren't healed. And so therefore they do things and
they perpetuate behaviors and really sin cycles. And that is
what creates the breakdown in the family. So one of the things
that God's been really talking to me about is, um, redeeming
the timeline and that God sent me to be a kinsman redeemer in
my family. And that, you know, years ago that used to feel so
heavy. I don't know about anybody else, but man, when I
heard that from the Lord many years ago, that, um, I was going
to be a kinsman redeemer and God was going to create, you
know, use me to create bridges and all these kinds of things.
I remember just feeling like, oh my gosh, like how, what, how am
I going to do that? I mean, my whole family was rejecting me
because I was standing up and asking them to talk about the
hard stuff. And so, um, all these years later, you all, and
for those of you that I've heard some of my journey, um, my mom
passed away, uh, in may of 2022, my dad has actually been in and
out of the hospital. I have like literally no relationship with
him at all. And just been praying into that even, but what
I want to share is that while there's been all this breakdown
in family because of brokenness and the toxicity, God continues
to stir my heart. To minister to my family and that, you know,
God, isn't going to ask everybody to do that. So please
don't, you know, people hear this and feel like, oh my gosh,
I'm panicked. God will lead you. If that's the way he's leading
you. Um, I will tell you that I believe years ago, God anointed
me to do this. Um, and I didn't know what it was going to look
like or how it was going to look, but I'll tell you this to
give you guys some hope. And not that I'm saying my, my brother
going through a divorce is something to be hopeful about,
but my oldest brother, he was the one who actually, I mean,
both my brothers sexually abused my sister and I, but he was the
main perpetrator if you will. And, uh, and so for years, I
didn't want him around me. I didn't want to talk to him and
it still can be very tough, but God continues to give me the
grace. And, um, as he was going through his divorce, God will
just nudge me from time to time to message him and check on him
to call him. And, uh, it's just, God has been opening doors and
doing things. And, you know, one of the things that I saw a
similarity in my brother, excuse me, to how I was when I got
married before was in his marriage, he was trapped. He
like, he started shrinking. He started not being like his
vibrant self. And so when we had our most recent chat, I just
started speaking into him about what do you want to do? Like
you can do anything. Like, what, where do you want to travel?
What do you want to go see? And, and just trying to speak some
life into him and y'all, he, I messaged him the other day
because it was his birthday to check on him. And he's about to
take some dance classes, like, you know, ballroom dancing with
the stars kind of stuff. And I just, that blessed my heart so
much, as much as the, you know, the enemy used him to bring a
lot of pain into my life. I'm happy that he is going to go
live his life and hopefully be happy and thrive. Because you
know, what I know is that along the way someone hurt him too. I
do. I know that. And even if it wasn't abuse or whatever, like
along the path, you know, any kind of destruction, it breeds
destruction, it breeds destruction, but praise God.
When Jesus came, he came to make a way for us. He came to redeem
all that stuff. And so no matter what our past has looked like,
no matter what our family line has looked like, God can
literally turn all of that around by one person's obedience.
Jackie was talking on, I think the most recent supernatural
Saturday, and she was talking about the great cloud of
witnesses. And even again, it touched on it last night.
Somebody gave me a word on the prophesy your year. And she kind
of went into how, even for me, it had to do with the great
cloud of witnesses. And I was just like, whoa, because she
didn't even know that that really spoke to me on that
Saturday call. And so I want to encourage.
some of you guys, like for some of you, you feel alone.
You feel like you're fighting this battle by yourself,
but the person that you loved
that went on to be with the Lord already, guess what?
They're a part of those great cloud of witnesses
if they were saved and they're up there interceding for you
and cheering us on literally,
they wanna see his kingdom come in us and through us too.
And so just sitting and thinking on that,
I was thinking this morning about my mom
and as hard as life was on this earth with her at times,
I feel like God continues to speak to me
about how he is now using my mom to usher in things
that things that she could never talk to me
about here on earth,
that she's trying to give me information.
Y'all, I've had dreams in the last couple of months,
multiple times, my mom in them
and she warns me or shows me something in the dream.
And so I just want you to know again,
God can show up however he wants to bring redemption,
however he wants, if we will trust him and lean into him.
And man, it's just, it's glorious.
It really, really is.
And I can't always say,
I always know what every dream means,
but as I lean into them and ask him,
just like I try to teach you all,
it's not always easy,
but we do our best to hear what the father is saying.
And man, he wants redemption.
He wants healing in families.
He wants life to flow into us and flow out of us.
And I see some of the ladies in the Facebook group too.
I just want you to know, I see you.
Sophia says, my mom always made negative comments
about my looks.
She was embarrassed to have a daughter that looked like me.
I'm just gonna pause there and just say,
I'm sorry for that.
I know I'm not your mom,
but I feel on behalf of your mother,
who maybe at times couldn't even apologize herself.
I haven't even read the whole thing.
Oh, wait, you say here,
my whole life until she passed away,
she said those things to me.
So I don't know,
maybe God just has me standing in the gap
on behalf of your mom tonight to speak over you, Sophia,
to say, I'm sorry.
I'm hearing the Lord say, baby girl, I'm sorry.
And so I just want to speak that over you,
that God is wanting to heal that relationship
with your mother.
Even though she's already in heaven,
God can come in and touch that relationship.
He can heal that.
Just like, I mean, I had no clue, Sophia.
I didn't even see your thing.
And here I was going on and on about God redeeming
this relationship with my mom,
and she's already in heaven,
and the ways that he's doing that through dreams
and visions and things he's been speaking to me.
So I believe God had your number, Sophia.
And he knew that you needed to hear that tonight.
You are beautiful.
You're lovely.
And man, they were blessed to have you as a daughter.
So I just come against every curse
that's ever been spoken out against you
through the words and the mouth of anyone else,
whether that was your mom or your family or friends.
And I just speak love and blessing and life to you,
that when you walk into the room,
you radiate his glory wherever you go.
Yes, Lord.
Bless her, Lord, and help her to receive all of that
and help her to hear what your spirit's saying
louder than all the voices in the anime in the days ahead.
Hello.
Welcome back.
Every time, y'all.
Y'all are beautiful.
I love it.
I love, love, love seeing my ladies.
I do.
It's my favorite part of the week.
All right.
Make sure I didn't miss any questions.
Who is ready?
Who's ready to share and open up and be so vulnerable?
You can do it.
And preferably, let me do this.
Somebody who hasn't shared already,
because some of you need to just, yeah, jump in.
Meredith, go ahead.
Okay, I'll go,
because I usually don't talk.
I listen a lot.
You know, really, as I've been going through the last-
Oh, it's because she's moving.
I think she was walking.
I was telling the ladies in the group that,
and I thought I'd ask for forgiveness
for all the things that I needed to ask
for the people who had hurt me,
the people who had wronged me.
I started, you know, with the recent people
and kind of working my way back,
praying through each of those people.
And then I know you had said, go even deeper.
You know, who else?
Is there something?
And is there someone else that has,
thinking about from childhood
and some childhood trauma came back up
and things from, that's how it shaped me
into who I am now,
based on how I was perceived as a child,
being made fun of and what have you.
And so what I did is I prayed for them as my child self
and then as their child self,
and then them as adults,
because I still know them,
still interact with them in some way, shape or form now,
just because of Facebook and what have you,
you still connect with them.
So, you know, they probably have no idea how they shaped or affected me.
Um, but now I still want to be the light going out regardless of how, but to have
that connection, um, that they really did alter the way that I had friendships.
Um, I want a tribe, I want girlfriends.
I've never really ever had them been in a sorority, been in all the things, did
all the things to try to get it, but I've only ever had connections with a few.
So it's, it's definitely been, um, quality over quantity.
I have a ton of connections involved in the community.
Know everybody.
My job makes me know everyone, but I wasn't, um, and I'm not just the relationship
to the next levels of where I want to go now.
So that's, that's where I'm seeing now for things.
This is so good.
Thank you so much for sharing.
I'm glad you jumped in and that you shared with us.
I love it.
Hey, you all.
I forgot.
I even said that to her about forgive those people when you
were kids at the kids, the kid level.
And then, yeah, you can forgive them as adults, especially if you still know
them, but the reality is, is that sometimes what we forget, we come in
and I'm not saying it's bad, but we come in as our adult selves and we're
like, I'm trying to forgive them.
I'm trying to forgive them, but really.
We need to go in and recognize the little Bethany or the little Leah or the little
Michelle who was, you know, on the playground or left out of the game or
picked on by her siblings or whatever, whatever it is in that little, little
us is the one that's hurting and needs some love and sometimes even pausing
us ourselves in saying, man, God, show me how I can love the inner, a little
Bethany got that got hurt in this situation.
How can I love her tonight?
How can I, how can I let you minister to her in that place tonight?
So good.
I love that you leaned into that and went after that.
I'm serious.
It's going to alter now and in a good way, you show up in the world.
One of the other things I started, I wrote down and I love that you're
connected in the community and you've got some solid friendships, but I heard
the Lord say, tell her to start thanking me for friendships, start thanking him
for new friendships, because I think some new stuff and not that you have to get
rid of or let go of necessarily.
I mean, he'll show you if you do, but I've been getting rid of, yes.
And I've had to get rid of, and I have been thanking him very
much so for the new people.
So you're spot on with that.
Yep.
Yes.
Yeah.
And so ladies, the reason this, this is so, so powerful when we do this, when
we start thanking him before we have it, it's kind of like that song
praise before the breakthrough.
I don't know if you guys have ever heard of that, but like we're praising him
and we're thanking him long before we actually have it here.
Um, you guys, some of you will, will have heard me on super faith Friday.
I've shared this story so many times.
God led me to start saying, I am a bride, Bethany, Bethany state.
I was stanko at the time.
Bethany Stanko, you are a bride walking around my apartment.
The person underneath me probably wondered who I was
talking to sometimes you all.
I talked to myself a lot during that time in, and it changed me.
It did because it was like, I needed my, I needed to be my own cheerleader.
I always won.
I always felt like, man, why, why, why is nobody else cheering me on?
I'm sure I'm fighting for people.
I'm doing the Lord's work.
I'm healing people.
I'm being, and like, where's my cheering party?
Well, God was like, you're here cheering party.
And when, and it didn't mean that he didn't want to give me friends.
You all, I have a lot of friends too.
My best friend lived like 40 minutes away, but she had a family.
She was busy.
And so it was me.
And especially during COVID you all, I was literally by myself more
than I've ever been by myself.
And I learned how to really embrace my own presence.
Some of you, that's going to be your challenge in the next few weeks.
Like it's one thing to love yourself, but do you like yourself?
Like, do you like being in your own presence without the TV on without
something, you know, and I'm not trying to get into the, should you drink?
Should you not?
But I'm just saying some of us like the food, the glasses of wine, the TV, all
the things that we fill the space with, because we just really struggle to be
in our own presence and what does that feel like, because so many of us
disassociated as young kids and we separated from our own bodies.
And so we, God is trying to bring that back.
together so that you can exist in a more healed and whole state and enjoy your own presence.
And I know some of you are like, yeah, I'm good. That I'm good. I like my presence, but
I think some of you, the Lord's going to unpack this a little bit more in the next few weeks.
I really feel there's something on this. I prayed it earlier tonight. And so that tells
me this is a second time it's coming up. God wants to bring convergence. So basically it
doesn't mean that you meant for yourself to like, almost like some of you years ago,
you had out of body experiences. Okay. Because the pain was so, so big and you could not,
you couldn't withstand it. And so the only way that your brain could, could handle it
was to create a little bit of separation, not calling you crazy. Okay. So don't think
I'm saying that, but basically you, we, we separate. And so God's bringing, bringing
that back together. Ladies. He is some of you that you're going to really experience
transformation because you're going to start to really know what it's like to be in your
own skin and like it and not feel like, Oh man, like this is, I just feel uncomfortable
in my own skin all the time. I know I'm speaking to somebody. So God's healing something and
he's going to come in and he's going to just bless it. He's going to bless it from the
inside out. The healing is going to come and it's going to change the whole way you, you
just exist in, even in your own, in your own room. Some of you all, I saw a girl. Okay.
Thank you, Lord. I saw this young lady. I used to lead her and it just made me smile
so much, but she was doing this video. She was like, some of you be like this. And she
was singing like crazy with her curling iron and worship song before church on Sunday.
But like some of y'all need to have some dance parties, some singing parties, like
letting the little girl come out. I think we even talked about this a little bit last
week or two weeks ago, but like, what does that look like to let her out? Let her go
wild a little bit. Don't get too crazy. I'm not saying alcohol and things. I'm saying
just the little fun things that, you know, what did it, what did, and some of you, even
as little kids, maybe that wasn't your thing. Maybe yours was more outside and adventure
and climbing trees. So I'm not, I'm not saying it has to always look a certain way. It's
more about what's on the inside. That's been pen up and it's been pushed down and it's
been suppressed for so long. And the Lord's like, let her come out, let her come out because
I like that girl. Cause guess what? You all, a lot of that is what he created and he marked
that. So earlier when I was saying how the enemy tried to Mark you with something else,
that's not you. God's like, yep, that's what I made. That's what I want to see. I want
to see her laugh and I want to see her celebrating. I want to see her having fun because I delight
in her. Yes. He delights in us when we're sad. Yes. Line dancing, karaoke. Yeah. Y'all,
I used to sing all the time and I would look over and people would be just watching. I
would just crack up because I just, I just love, I love the Lord and I really do love
my life. Even when it was hard, like he just taught me how to, to somehow like lean into
him in the midst of it. And maybe that's not you and that's okay, but your own version
of that. Okay. All right. So I have time for one more, I think. Let's go Laura. And then
maybe Maria. So hang on Maria. Don't go anywhere. All right.
Um, so I was telling the person that I was talking to about how I, um, was made fun of
a lot. I, and I want, I know I've shared this before, but growing up, I was made fun of,
fun of a lot, especially when I was in middle school. Um, because that's when I started to
develop more, you know? Um, and, um, because, uh, my bust size is large. Um, a lot of the
girls that I knew in middle school would say that I was stuffing my bra when I'm like,
dude, I'm like, these are real. If I could get rid of them, I would, but they're real.
You know, they're not fake. Um, and because of that, I always, um, even now I'm very
self-conscious about the types of shirts that I wear, you know, the type of clothing that I wear.
I don't like tight shirts. I don't like shirts that show any cleavage at all. I'm very cautious
about stuff like that. Um, and so that really, and when, um, uh, Meredith was talking about
forgiving.
as your younger self and forgiving them as your younger
self and then forgiving them now.
I don't, I don't remember their names.
I don't know.
I don't remember who they are.
I don't even talk to half of them anymore.
And that's, yeah, that's okay.
But I mean, one of them, well, I don't think she was
in the group is I'm still friends with today.
We've been friends for a long time, but I, I've always
wanted to talk to this friend about, you know,
how she treated me in middle school, but I, you know,
was haven't gotten up the courage to say,
this is how I felt, you know, and I just want you to know,
I forgive you.
Yeah.
Maybe, maybe just pray about if the Lord wants you to,
and maybe, maybe don't take it right to the,
I forgive you until you see kind of like,
is she able to have a healthy conversation with you?
You know, so ladies just keep in mind,
like sometimes the forgiveness is writing a letter
and not giving it to them.
Sometimes it is having a conversation in person.
So really pray and discern and ask the Lord,
does he want you to talk to her about this?
Is this something he, is she healthy enough
to have that conversation?
And sometimes you can just try with like some small stuff
and see how that goes before maybe going
into the full conversation.
And again, we don't have to live afraid you all,
but there's a level of walking in like this,
recognizing who we're with and are they a safe person
to have this kind of conversation with?
Because what can happen is if we approach a conversation
like that and they're not healthy,
they may turn on us and retaliate
and might make it even bigger.
Now I will say there are times where the Lord will lead you
to have that conversation because maybe that friend
isn't just really a healthy friend for us, right?
And we'll discover that through those conversations.
So that's why it's real important just to ask the Lord
to show you, is that a direction you should go?
And then go in that if he says yes,
and if he says, hey, no, or not yet,
sometimes he'll just say not yet
because maybe they're just,
they're not in a place to receive it yet.
The other thing I was gonna say is
my youngest spiritual daughter is also big busted
and she as well got made fun of by her biological mom
and other kids.
In my own way, I don't have that situation, but she does,
but I've watched her suffer from it.
So I want you to know that that isn't
what God intended for you.
And I believe he will wanna heal that and help you.
It doesn't mean you have to necessarily
wear certain types of clothes,
but what does it mean to feel more comfortable
wearing pretty things and not feeling like
you have to hide your body?
But of course, just so you all know, ladies,
I am pro-modesty.
I am, I don't think you gotta wear turtlenecks all the time
or anything like that, but I do believe in modesty.
And I don't think we have to show off our bodies
to attract a man.
Way back in the day I did,
but that was when I wasn't healed and I know better now.
But that doesn't mean that if you have something that goes,
hopefully not all the way down,
but it's something a little lower,
that doesn't mean that gives a man or anyone else
the right to say hurtful and mean and crude things, okay?
Those are signs that people aren't healthy
if they're doing those things.
All right, let's see.
Maria, I think if you wanna share, you can share.
We're right at 9.30.
I don't wanna give you,
I don't want you to not have an opportunity if you want one.
You know, I really would like to just get out of it,
but I think I'm gonna push myself to share.
I'll try to be quick though.
It's not really well-processed
because I didn't make this connection
until after I got out of my group.
The last one, the question of what causes us
to shrink down and not be ourself.
And I didn't initially know the answer to that question.
And I just kind of processed with my partner that,
you know, I grew up the oldest of seven kids
and my mom really expected perfection of me
and would make comments like,
oh, Maria is my perfect child.
And I just, I had a really high standard
to live to all the time.
And I did a really good job of it.
And so.
I thought, well, the real me just never came out.
But I was asking the Lord after I left the chat
and I was like, I don't like being seen
because I feel uncomfortable.
Why do I feel uncomfortable?
Oh, because they might see that I'm not perfect.
They might see that I need help and that I can't do it all.
And that tied back to the previous question
because that's something that the Lord's been
really speaking to me the last two or three weeks
is opening up and asking people for help,
being willing to say like, I'm struggling in this area.
I don't have it all together and I need help.
That's really been showing up in my business.
And it's been really, really hard for me to ask for help
because I feel like I'm a burden,
like I don't wanna bother people.
And so, yeah, I just thought it was cool
how it all kind of came together.
And also I didn't want to share
because I didn't feel like I had processed it yet.
And I was like, this is gonna be messy.
And then I was like, oh, that's a good opportunity
to practice not having it all together.
Yes, yes.
And I'm so glad you did.
Here's the thing too.
Ladies, anytime again, back on this burden,
did you notice they came right full circle?
The burden thing that Shannon was talking about?
You also said you don't wanna bother people.
You know, sometimes if we are taught
or someone says, this is my perfect little child,
when we see the other kids misbehaving potentially,
I don't know what your other siblings were doing,
but I'm just kind of going
with what's coming up in my spirit.
Those aren't perfect.
Those kids aren't perfect.
And so they're treated differently.
And so then we become afraid to some degree
that if we then aren't perfect,
will mom not love us as much anymore?
Or whoever it is, right?
So there's this level of when we have things,
again, just to kind of circle back,
where we are afraid we're gonna bother someone
or we're gonna burden them.
Normally you wanna look under the lid of that.
Ask the Lord, like what's really going on there?
And I like how you unpack that with just,
you know, the different things that you were thinking.
And that's ladies, again, asking really good questions.
If you get offended easily,
I think someone said that earlier,
you get offended easily, ask the Lord,
why am I so offended?
What's going on there?
Like, is it just because this person did this
or did this trigger something else in my life?
Or are they reminding me of them?
Like, are they reminding me of myself?
You know, you just, whatever it is,
you just ask the Lord to help you unpack it.
And the more that you unpack it with him,
the more freedom you're going to get
as you then ask him to come in and heal those areas
and then replace those lies with the truth, okay?
So it's that whole revealing for healing cycle.
If you're not in that part of the course yet,
there's a worksheet, revealing for healing cycle.
If you guys utilize that,
it will be a tool you can use literally
for the rest of your life.
In the beginning, you'll need to use the paper
to remind yourself how to go through the process.
And you'll just look at it and do it again and do it again.
I really recommend it.
And then eventually you'll learn to do it without the paper.
You understand, everyone?
And the more that you do that,
you'll be able to not only help yourself
like with the Lord's help, of course,
but to heal that it'll create ripple effects in your family.
Sylvia says, for me, perfection bring the spirit of rescuer
of the imperfect persons or went to the other extreme
and become prideful and judgmental thinking
and seeing them as inferior persons
because they were not perfect.
Yes, Sylvia, yes.
And even now, oh Lord, I'm gonna tell on myself.
Sometimes when people are sharing, not in this group,
I would say more like close people
in ministry in this church.
When I first came in, I have a lot of experience
and I didn't mean to have pride, you all,
but I was getting so frustrated
because these people have been in this church.
Some of them, they're literally their entire lives,
40, 50 years, and they're like baby Christians.
And I know that probably sounds so like I'm so great,
but my entire life, I've never experienced that.
Growing up, before I knew the Lord,
my parents and my grandparents,
I went to all these different churches.
And then when I got saved, I just was on fire.
I just loved the Lord and I went after him.
And so it's hard for me to understand or relate sometimes
to people that have been in church their entire lives.
And it's just like, they just have no hunger.
It doesn't mean they don't.
They don't love the Lord. I can't, you know, God says we shouldn't judge another's heart.
We can judge their fruit, but not their heart. But what I know is like, it just has been hard.
It's been hard for me. I've had to really adjust and, and ask the Lord to forgive me for being
prideful at times. And, and just being like, why don't, why do they do it this way? Why don't they,
you know, just, and I use that as kind of a lighthearted example, but it can be,
it can be in our, again, in our family relationships and work. And when you get
married, guess what? It can, it can rear its head there too, because, Hey, we don't need these men.
I got this. I can do this better than him. I've done it by myself for however long.
So we'll leave you with that. I'm going to leave you with that tonight. As we log off,
ask the Lord, is there any areas where you need to make more room for the guy to come in and have
an opinion and allow him at times to, to be the one to lead, to be the one to lead and that you
don't have to have all the answers and it's okay for you to, to trust, to trust that God will guide
him and God will guide the two of you. Y'all aren't, aren't in that space a hundred percent,
but preparing your heart now will help you when you step back into the dating ring in a few weeks,
I promise. All right. Let me pray you out father. Thank you so much for these amazing women.
I pray that you would help them just to see truly what you see, what I see, God helped them to hear
what your spirit is saying more and more in the days ahead. God set them free in ways that they
couldn't even ask, think, or imagine Lord. I just even see like you just set, like literally opening
your hands up in these little baby birds, like are in your hands and they're just gaining their
wings and they're getting, they're getting ready to fly. And I just thank you that that represents
what's happening in this season. We thank you that you keep them in their, in your care until they're
ready. God, and when they're ready, you'll just launch them out. So what I pray that you would
fill their hope tanks tonight while they sleep, refresh them, restore them, rebuild them. God,
we thank you that you would go in and, and redeem all of the broken and fallen places.
God, where, where their family generational lines have been broken, where there's been
heartache and hardship, where there's been toxicity and brokenness and teasing and putting
down other people. God, we just thank you that you would just come and with your Holy spirit,
mark those places and speak life and peace and joy and hope. God, that you would use these ladies
as kinsmen redeemers in their families, as well as in, in the land in the days to come. We just
thank you Lord for your calling on their lives. And we, we ask you to help them or to step a
little further into the fullness of who you originally created them to be in Jesus name.
Amen. God bless you. I'll see you guys in the group and love you guys. Have a good night.
Thank you. Bye.