I'll send father. Thank you so much for your amazing grace. God, thank you for the process
of healing God from the inside out. I thank you father for placing the bomb of Gilead
upon the hearts, the minds, the souls, the bodies, and the wills of everyone that hears
Lord God live tonight. Those that watch the replay, those that are joining us on Facebook,
Lord, we just thank you for your glory. We thank you for your presence. We thank you
Lord that, uh, you know exactly what we need when we need it. So Lord, we're trusting you.
We're surrendering to your will and your plan God, because it's good and it's perfect and
it's pleasing Lord. So help us to lean in tonight. Help us to recognize the still small
voice and the gentle nudges of your Holy spirit. Thank you Lord for the invitation to draw
closer to you, to seek you with all of our hearts, our souls, our minds, Lord God, that
we would leave nothing. Um, with do not enter signs up that we would allow you to come in
and you would just come and sit with us Lord. And you would meet with us and Lord that you
love us and you want to invite us into a deeper relationship. And that is, that is the main
reason we're here. Yes, Lord, we, they, they desire and long for spirit mates Lord, but
we just thank you that you draw them through your love and kindness to lead them to repentance,
to confess, to forgive, to heal, to mend, to be made whole. And we just thank you Holy
spirit for being with us tonight, being our comforter, our counselor, our guide and an
ever present help in times of trouble and times of joy. And we just thank you for it
in advance in Jesus name. Hello, hello, hello. We might have a small crew tonight, which
is totally fine. Um, more people might jump on when they know that we are on merry Christmas,
y'all it's merry Christmas, 2023. I will say this, you guys are going to be surprised at
who you are this time and next year. Truly. So many of you guys are going to be living
completely different lives a year from now. And, uh, so I just want to encourage you
with that. Even myself. Um, I don't know that I could have imagined exactly how God would
work all things out and to bring me the person I'm with and to get to do some of the things
I get to do now. So God is working in your life too, even when it doesn't feel like it.
So that's what you, I'm going to encourage you to lean into tonight and in the next few
days, you know, as we round out 2023, that you would embrace the hope of a new tomorrow,
that something new is on the horizon, a couple of housekeeping items for you all tonight.
Um, I just want to remind you guys, um, I feel like this is, and this is good. It's not a bad
thing, but I feel like this has been coming up a lot. And so I felt like it was important to
remind you that you guys are going to feel a lot of feelings. Okay. You're going to feel hard
things. You're going to feel good things. You're going to feel things. You can't even put words to,
but, um, just know that you're feeling the fields so that you can heal the, so that God can come in
and heal those fields. And some of you guys, you know, are going to face some anger. You're going
to face some grief. You're going to face some joy and relief. You're going to have this whole box of
stuff that in the midst of unpacking and healing, it's at times, if you allow it can be
overwhelming, just know that God's grace is sufficient. And I don't say that as a band-aid,
but it truly is. His grace is sufficient. He will meet you in every moment. And, uh,
he's not upset when we are angry. He's not upset when we're grieving. He accepts, accepts us just
as we are. And so I encourage you to continue to come as you are. And when you, um, feel those
things, I don't want you all to receive the lies of shame, guilt, and condemnation. Okay. Your dog,
your dog is so cute, Michelle. It likes your little hat. That's great. Oh, that's great.
Um, I want to encourage you all also don't quit. Some of you guys have heard me say this for weeks,
but it's a good reminder. And again, in this time of, you know, the Christmas holidays,
some of you have things that look a lot different than the way they used to be.
Some of you are facing dreams that have been shattered and things like that.
Some of you are learning how to rebuild your lives in a new way. And so I just want you to know,
don't quit. Don't give into isolation. The enemy would love for you to isolate and not engage.
And some of you watching this live or watching the replay.
Some of you are continuing to kind of breeze through, maybe just kind of on like listening to these recorded sessions and not engaging a really lovingly want to encourage you engage, engage, engage, engage.
So what I mean by that is don't coast through the group.
Come out of hiding, let us see you let us know you.
Because you don't realize that that is actually one of the main keys of this whole process is being in community being seen being heard being known.
And, you know, not having to hide who you are, even in the difficult moments like that you guys don't have to hide that stuff like that you're in a safe place to process to heal and work on those areas so want to encourage you all to continue to do that if you're
not. And then if you're not, again, not trying to shame you trying to encourage you like come and and open up and let us come alongside of you.
And the last housework housekeeping item is just a reminder to rest.
Move your bodies, when you can, and just really invest in drinking a lot of water and healthy food.
I know a lot of you guys are processing a lot some of you guys have deep trauma that you're, you're dealing with in this season.
And just, just want you to know like you got to continue to give yourself some grace and rest and
just kind of flow in through your body to that doesn't belong there so that's where the drinking, you know, water and moving your body and things like that are so important.
All right, that's my kind of housekeeping area for tonight that's what I felt led to do. That's when I prayed for you guys that's what God said remind them of these things.
Tonight we're going to start by talking about unpacking heart boxes.
So, if you guys are reading the material you're watching the videos, some of you might not be to this week of the material yet, but that's all right, stay here with us.
We're going to talk a little bit about these blind spots and filters.
And it really, in particular, want to touch on the fact that some of us have bombs underneath the surface.
So, you know, like a big iceberg, you see the tip on the top. You see what's above the water, but you have no idea what's underneath that surface.
But see the Lord does the Lord knows everything underneath the surface of our hearts our minds our spirits our souls. He knows what's down underneath things that we have long forgotten some of us, you know, for whatever reason this just came up in my spirit
so maybe this is for someone here tonight.
But even long ago in elementary school when someone made fun of you, and you were on the playground and you cried.
That kind of stuff we just we just move on.
But see that stuff is in the depths of our soul, and God wants you to heal in those areas as well every aspect of our being matters to him.
And so when we have these bombs underneath the surface. That is a huge reason why we get triggered so quickly.
And that can be, you know, not just in heartwork you're getting triggered a lot, but like you're trying to engage in relationships and every little thing that people do it's agitating you it's setting you, and not just you're getting frustrated but like
you're kind of going zero to 180 you're triggered, you know, you're totally in a trauma response, all those kind of things and again there's no shame in this this is part of the understanding what's happening.
It's because there's something underneath the surface that that thing has kind of pushed on. And now you're being triggered.
A lot of us don't even realize I have a couple right now they're, they're in our symbol group which is saving your marriage before it starts. And it's through the community that we're doing that my husband and I are doing this Jackie and does it sometimes as well.
But anyways, this couple.
And there's a reason I'm sharing this because it's super important for you guys to understand the things that we're doing in heartwork now is as you guys continue to lean into these it's truly going to help you so much when you are dating someone.
Okay.
The couple.
They're just they're just triggering each other, and they don't mean to, but they both have areas that need some healing. And so I want to just help you guys understand that, you know, it's okay when that stuff happens but that's why it's important to not
it's important to talk about it with the person you know you're dating as well as someone that's safe in a community that can help you through that now if the person that you're dating.
Baiting is not healthy and you try to talk to them,
they're not gonna be able to receive what you're saying.
They're not gonna understand that sometimes
it has to do with them and sometimes it doesn't, right?
So even now, some of you guys around the holidays,
you might be with family, you might be with friends,
people that you love, but some of them,
they might trigger you.
And so just wanna encourage you that it's not forever.
As you continue to heal, it does get better.
And as you guys are leaning into this,
the reason I brought this up tonight
is that when we show up in life, in any situation,
we don't see the things the way they truly are.
We see everything in our life the way that we are, okay?
So if we're walking around in life and we're not healed,
everything that we see, whether we realize it or not,
if you guys can imagine,
I wish I had my glasses here.
I did this before and it was so good.
But if we had a filter, a lens over our eyes
that we didn't even know was there
and everything that we're doing in life,
we're walking with these lenses on and it's called a filter.
It's the way we look at everything
through the lens of our hurt,
through the lens of our trauma,
through our limiting belief systems, orphan mentalities.
If you struggle with feeling like
you're always on the outside,
everyone else is getting blessed,
but you're begging for crumbs and you barely get anything,
those are signs of orphan mentalities
that you're operating within.
And so as you guys are here tonight,
I just wanna encourage you to just be ready.
We're gonna do a breakout session around this.
Be ready to talk with your sisters
about some of these blind spots, filters,
areas where God is showing you,
hey, you have some heart boxes I wanna unpack with you
and what are they?
And you don't have to go into your whole,
the whole depth of your story.
You can just say, hey, these are some things,
even this week,
like if you've been in this process for a couple of weeks,
but this week God's showing you a new heart box
or he's showing you a new filter or blind spot,
just that you would open up to your sisters
and talk about that.
I wanna give you guys one more thing
before you go into the breakout.
And this is stuff from the book, you all, just so you know.
All right, this one, when I went through this program,
I put this up on my bathroom mirror
so I could read it often.
You guys do what you want,
but sometimes some of this stuff,
like I needed to remember it every day.
This is what it says.
This is all about surrender.
Just keep giving Holy Spirit permission every day
to show you what you can't see,
permission to help you unpack all that heavy load
you are carrying in your heart.
And if you do that, you will be amazed at what happens.
So basically tonight, I wanna encourage you all
to invite the Holy Spirit again,
to come in and help you lift the heavy load
that you're trying to carry on your own,
whatever that looks like for you, okay?
All right, so I'm gonna put you guys in breakouts.
And then when we come back,
I wanna encourage you to share with the whole group.
And then we'll do a little bit of time of Q&A as well.
And then we're gonna go into the second segment
of the evening, all right?
And I'm gonna give you guys eight minutes.
So you're gonna have extra time.
Stay in there and get to know each other a little bit
if you have extra time.
If you use all your time talking about what we're talking,
you know, the heart boxes, filters, or blind spots
that you're unpacking and that God's revealing.
But if you have extra time,
get to know each other a little bit.
It'll be good for you.
So this will be good practice.
What are some fun questions?
Like, you know, not just yes or no, but like,
hey, what's your favorite thing about Christmas?
Do you have a tradition that you do
for Christmas every year?
Do you have a favorite Christmas song?
So I'm giving you guys some ideas of things
that you guys can talk about
and just have some fun to tonight, okay?
All right, here you go.
Oh, I did seven minutes.
Sorry, I forgot to change it.
That's all right.
All right, click to join, click to join.
Nicole, are you able to click to, oh, there we go.
All right, thank you.
Hi, ladies on Facebook.
Anyone wanna share any of your heart boxes
that you're unpacking, any blind spots?
or filters you might be having revealed through the Holy spirit. Or if you want to join in
the conversation about your famous or faith, famous favorite Christmas, Christmas tradition,
you can do that as well. Just want to include you tonight and bless you in the Lord. I'm
going to go ahead and pray for everybody. Uh, that is in the breakouts. Father, thank
you so much for, um, as well as all of you. Thank you so much for your goodness. God,
thank you that your, your love is, is just never, it never ceases. It's, it's unconditional
God. It is. Thank you that it goes far and wide and deep or a God. And I just thank you
that you would just minister to every lady that's in the breakouts. Those that are watching
this live, those that are catching the replay later on, help them to hear what your spirit
saying to them, help them to see and know their worth, help them to become more grounded
in you every single day. God, to be confident in you, God, to receive fresh wind in their
sales. Lord, I thank you that you would help them to, um, yes, Lord, in you to know how
they can even utilize the storms that they might be going through to rise higher. Like
the Eagles, God, your word declares that we don't have to grow weary. God, um, that we,
that if we don't faint, God, that you would help us, that you would provide everything
that we need. God, help us to hear Lord, help us to see, help us to know you more. God,
we thank you that you are love and you cannot deny yourself. Therefore you will continue
to love us, pour out your love upon us, renew us. God, I thank you for your refiners fire
that also comes in and, and it burns up the chaff. It burns up anything that is not of
you. That's not good for us. That's not serving us or leading us into truth. God, we thank
you for continuing to minister life and hope and joy and speakable and full of glory. God,
I pray that you would lift weights off of ladies tonight, or that literally some of
the ladies in the breakouts or there's watching live that they would just even right now begin
to feel God, the power of your Holy spirit, lifting weights off of them, that they've
carried for a long time. God, that you would help them to understand that your Holy spirit
wants to help them carry the heavy load they've been carrying and they don't have to continue
to carry it alone any longer, or we just thank you that we are transformed by the renewing
of our minds, that all things have passed away and behold, every single thing has become
new and you, we thank you Lord for renewing. Um, just every desert area, God, that you're
bringing rivers in the, in the streams and the wastelands, God you're making, um, I just
see even like in the, in the movie lion came at the end after scar had taken over the land
for quite some time and Simba came back to, uh, take his throne. There's a scene where
the water begins to wash away all the dead stuff. And I just hear the Lord saying that
that is what he's doing. That's what he's doing. Ladies. He's washing away all the dead
stuff. He's removing all the, the skulls and the skeletons. And, and if you haven't ever
seen that scene in the lion King, I encourage you to check it out, but all this life and
this beauty begins to return and not only return, but it's like it just flourish. So
Lord, we just, thank you. We speak, we speak the word flourish over every one of these
ladies over their lives, their families, their livelihood, God, that you would just, um,
thank you, God, give them favor with, uh, in every area that they put their hand to.
We thank you also that you would help them to stay alert and watch out for the great
enemy, Satan, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, lion looking for someone
to devour, devour. He prowls around like a roaring lion, but he's not a lion. So thank
you that you, father, you are the lion of the tribe of Judah. You are almighty God,
everlasting father, Prince of peace. You are the one that is on the throne and you can
do anything. So Lord help us to trust you a little bit more tonight. I thank you, God,
that we are not fighting against flesh and blood enemies, but against evil rulers and
authorities of the unseen world against mighty powers. And in this stark world and against
evil spirits in the heavenly places. Thank you, father. Yes, Lord. Thank you that you
promise in your word and Psalms one 19, one 65. There's such a great peace and wellbeing
that comes to the lovers of your word as they will never be offended. Lord God, if we get
offended, I thank you that offense is an opportunity for an upgrade. Well, Lord, it says
here in what I just read that.
Those who love your word can live in peace,
that we can be in peace
and that we would have the, like have wellbeing.
So Lord, I thank you that any lady that feels discouraged,
downtrodden, weak, weary, God,
that they're grieving and they're carrying these loads.
Lord, I pray that you would remind them
that you wanna bring wellbeing to their souls, Lord God.
I thank you that you lavish unfailing love
for a thousand generations on those who love you
and obey your commands, Lord.
Not only do the blessings come for us personally,
but they come for the generations behind us.
So Lord, we just thank you
that you're gonna continue to enable us
to take every thought captive
and make it obedient to Jesus Christ.
That all old things have passed away
and behold, all things have become new in you.
Help us to cling to the new
and to turn away from all old things.
Lord God, I thank you for laughter and silliness
and joyfulness returning to their hearts,
their minds, their spirits, their souls.
God, thank you for giving them dreams and visions
and understanding and revelation of who you are, Father,
today and in the days ahead.
We thank you
that you're just getting started in their story.
We thank you that you rewrite our whole story, God,
and we can trust you.
I thank you that even when it's hard,
God, that we can turn to you.
Yes, Lord.
We thank you, Lord, that also,
just that you continue to lead us into wide open spaces.
Lord, your word declares that those who love you,
that you'll lead us into wide open spaces.
So Lord, I thank you that you never created us to feel
in a cage, boxed in, closed in, shut down, stuck, held back.
Those are not a part of your kingdom.
So Lord God, I thank you that you would create
a ripple effect of release, of hope, of renewal,
restoration, restitution, revival in our spirits.
Lord, I thank you that you would come in
just like you did with Lazarus, Lord,
and even though he was already dead, God,
you revived him, you brought him back to life.
So Lord, we just thank you that you would just come right now
and bring anyone that hears this, their spirits,
back to life.
Lord, we speak of life and hope and joy and peace, God.
Thank you, Lord God, that your peace would rule
and reign in our hearts.
Hello, ladies.
Welcome back.
All right, I think we have everyone.
Great.
All right, who is willing to share with the whole group
what you shared in your breakup?
Anyone?
I am.
Okay, awesome, go ahead, go ahead.
Okay.
Okay, I met my sons.
I flew to my son from California to Minnesota.
I was so excited, he's going through nursing school.
He's here, his girlfriend and him are both got accepted
and they both have their own apartments.
And I came and we were doing gifts.
And then I felt like my son didn't give me a gift at all.
And so I said, okay, I'm the mom, it's cool.
It's not a problem.
And then I went and I just had to get out of there.
And I went and I took a bath
and I just started bawling my eyes out.
And I started hearing my dad's words
when I was a little kid saying, you don't deserve gifts.
You don't deserve anything for Christmas.
And those words are just killing me.
And it was just compounded on the pain of what I perceived.
Like you said earlier, it's uncanny.
What you said is exactly what happened to me today.
And it was like, I said,
I perceived it as the girlfriend gave me gifts
that were really amazing that I personalized.
And then I felt there were no,
I never saw his name on any of the gifts.
And I was just like, I felt like a hole in my stomach
and it just triggered my dad,
the pain from my dad saying those words.
The cool thing is, here's the redemption part.
And this program is a big part of it.
I walked out of the bathroom and I was crying
and my son's like, what's wrong?
Are you okay?
And I go, I feel really sad
that I didn't get a gift from you.
And it really hurts.
And he goes, no, one of the gifts, his name was on it.
And one's coming from Amazon.
It's just late.
And then I told him, you know what?
apologize, this is triggering.
I hear my dad's voice of what he said to me,
how I don't deserve presents and it just triggered this
and I'm really sorry.
But the beautiful part is that he understood,
he received it and he wasn't mad and he was not defensive
and I could feel he could have gone that way.
But he didn't, so we embraced each other
and the peace just came over me and it was like,
this is a huge, this is huge stepping stone for me
to just talk about it.
And I invited him to talk about his feelings
and then he talked about how he felt and he's been,
this program is an intensive nursing program about BSN
and he has no money, no time, no any of that.
And he goes, I don't, he can only do so much.
And anyway, so I apologize to hurting his feelings.
So it was amazing and you are so right on
and it was my perception like exactly what you said
coming from me, not the whole picture.
Yes, Gwen, that's so good.
Thank you so much for sharing.
So let's lean into this ladies in general
for just yourselves.
One of the things that she shared here
that's really important is when that situation happened
that she was willing to say, okay, Lord, what's going on?
Yes, she recognized it was because her perception
about the gifts, but the fact that she felt what she felt
and she didn't shove it down allowed the other stuff
to percolate to the surface.
And again, it's like, we have this stuff
that's down in there that we might not think about
on the regular day, right?
So when we have something like this, A,
I mean, it's just like race.
None of us deserve grace and mercy,
but God gave it anyways, right?
And so many times, like as a parent, like,
yes, kids make mistakes, I'm in mistakes,
but praise God, like we can still choose.
So, I almost called you Grace.
Gwen, what's gonna happen here?
I will encourage you to really lean in.
What week are you in in the heart work just so I know?
I'm, I think I'm in week two,
but I missed like a whole week of-
That's okay, that's okay.
I'm just asking because it helps me to know
what information you've already read
and videos you've watched.
And so in week four, when you get there,
you don't have to rush and you can even start asking the Lord
to show you now just without all that content.
But I wanna encourage you to forgive your dad.
Okay.
Forgive your dad for what he said to you.
Because when you forgive him,
I believe it's gonna help you also like heal from the hurt
and the sting of those words.
You know, we don't know why our parents or guardians
or whoever it was, teachers, you know,
why people say or do things that they do hurt people,
hurt people, it doesn't excuse it.
But the reality is, is that we can choose to forgive,
we can choose out of obedience
that we wanna receive forgiveness.
So we forgive and allow the Lord to heal those areas
because, you know, it's just like,
God, we might not always get gifts from people, you all,
but God surprises us all the time with stuff.
And maybe in your life right now, that's doesn't feel real
because maybe that's not happening in your physical,
but I can tell you that any of you
that might not have that right now,
that there will come a time where there's those unsuddenlies
that one thing after another, after another, after another,
that you're starting, all these things are popping up.
Y'all, I cannot tell you how many like gifts
I've gotten from people
that they've been surprising me with stuff,
people that don't normally get me gifts and stuff.
And it's just kind of like, oh my gosh, God,
what are you doing?
It's happened three times in the last three weeks.
So I'm like, okay, God's doing something there.
That's a supernatural thing.
God is putting me on the hearts and minds of people
that some of them don't even know the fullness
of things they're saying as they're writing the cards
that go with these things.
So I just wanna encourage you again,
that might not be where you're at right now,
but someday that can be your reality.
The goodness of God in the word it says
can chase us down literally.
And so I just wanna encourage you guys in that as well.
Bless you, thank you Gwen for sharing that.
Okay, Laura, how about you?
Well, um, I didn't get to finish my conversation with who I was talking to.
So I think you're talking about stuff anyway, um, when you were talking about, um, being
on the playground and being made fun of, that was me.
Well, I, I don't know who else you were talking to, but I was made fun of a lot when I was
younger.
Um, and even growing up, I was made fun of, and it's always made me, um, hesitant to talk
to people.
I've always had a hard time talking to people, getting to know people, um, trusting people,
you know, wondering if they're going to, you know, say bad, mean things about me or say
things about me that aren't true and so on.
And so that's always something that I've dealt with my whole life.
And I mean, I, I've always thought I forgave those people for making fun of me, but sometimes
those things come up.
And uh, especially when you said that, I'm just like, yeah, that, that was, I was made
fun of a lot when I was younger and growing up because I have a hard time expressing my
words and sharing what I feel a lot.
And I say, I'm sorry a lot.
So, um, and it's hard for me to get the words out that I want to say sometimes to people
cause I'm always afraid I'm going to hurt somebody's feelings or offend somebody or
whatever.
Um, so you're doing great.
You're doing great.
So let me, let me pause here.
Cause I think this is going to be really beneficial for you.
I think it's going to be beneficial for others.
Couple things.
Um, first, um, just want to encourage you in the fact that sometimes again, as we are
walking through healing ladies, this is for everyone.
Healing happens in layers.
Okay.
So sometimes, yes, you've, we forgive, we, we ask, you know, God to help us move on,
but then something else might happen.
And again, it's just coming in and putting its finger on that pain.
And if it's not fully healed, you know, maybe we only understood a part, what we, what we
see, we see in part, we know in part.
So we can only ask God to come in and heal what we see and know.
Right.
So then you come to a place of more revelation of like, Oh, okay.
Like this also caused this other thing.
Cause maybe it was tapping into something else even before the being made fun of on
the playground.
And sometimes it's not that, but that can definitely be why there's a circling around
that if you will, like where things come up again and again, and again, it's not that
you're not trying to forgive or that you're, or that we're doing something wrong.
It's that there's more healing to be had in those areas.
The other thing, and I want to do this with everyone.
So just even if you weren't made fun of on the playground, I want to encourage you if,
if anyone's ever said anything bad or negative to you about your identity, your core, like
who you are, like this applies to, I think probably everyone in some way, we're going
to do a little activation right now.
I'll just, this came up in my spirit when she was talking and I just want to go for
it.
Um, so I want to encourage you guys, I'm going to ask you to close your eyes here in a minute.
I'm going to pray for you and I'm going to ask God to show you as I'm praying.
How you see yourself.
That's going to be the first thing.
And it's okay.
If you guys, some of you guys might not see anything at first, but this is just, we're
going to practice something.
So don't be hard on yourself.
Okay.
And then I'm going to pray and ask God to show you how he sees you.
And I want you to write down whatever you see.
Okay.
So I'm just going to, we're going to, we're going to go after this and see what God wants
to do for y'all tonight in this area.
So father, we just, we'll just ask you to close your eyes, father.
We just thank you for every one of these ladies, God.
We just right now come against every lie of the enemy, every, every way that he's come
in and he's accused us and he's put us down or got any area where the ladies are struggling
in their identity because of past wounds, being made fun of being talked down to verbally
being abused, being mistreated, glaring eyes, Snickers, whatever it was, God, that caused
them to feel less than God.
We just, we just thank you for your healing washing over that right now.
Yes, Lord.
We thank you for healing father.
I ask you right now to show every one of these ladies, give them a vision of how they see
themselves, whatever that is.
that they wouldn't limit it, what they're seeing right now,
that they wouldn't question it.
God, whatever the image is,
show them how they currently see themselves.
And Father, I pray that you would also show them now
a different image, show them how you see them
and what do you see them as?
Who do you see them as?
What do they look like?
What do they sound like?
What are they doing?
God, I thank you.
I thank you that you're the one that rewrites our stories,
that you give us identity,
that we can become more confident in you every single day.
We just thank you for showing the ladies this,
even if they haven't seen it yet,
that they would either see it later tonight
or in the days ahead,
these images would just come to them
and they would know that it's from this moment now.
In Jesus' name, amen.
Okay, so Laura, stay there.
We're gonna come back a while.
Did you see anything when we prayed?
Let me ask you first.
No.
It's okay, it's okay.
I believe, and that's why I pray that at the end,
it'll come for you guys,
cause that's how God works.
And some of it is,
some of us are learning how to hear and see.
And so don't, again, no shame, it'll come for you.
Did anyone see anything when we prayed that?
Okay, Nicole, go ahead.
What did you see?
Did you see something for the first image
or the second or both?
The first image was my weight, my body image
that I'm not attractive and not enough.
And then in the second image,
it more so that showing me that I'm loving,
that I am enough.
So.
Okay.
Not that I saw, I heard it more.
It's okay, that's all right.
And this is the thing we all hear differently, ladies, okay?
So I see images a lot.
So that's, I hear and I see.
For you, that's great.
You heard something.
So that's a great example of different things
that God can say in different ways we hear him.
Who else?
Anyone else?
Okay, Michelle.
Yeah, go ahead.
And when you said that, I didn't visually see it,
but it's like, what came to me was like, sucker.
I used to like say,
like, what do I have sucker tattooed on my forehead?
Because I would always feel like I'm being taken advantage
of, like, I'm just very generous and giving.
And I'm like, do I have sucker tattooed on my forehead?
And I just, people are takers and they just take.
And I'm a giver, but then I like, wait a minute, you know?
And I, you know, I ended up feeling taken advantage of
and not trusting people.
And so, and then I felt like the sense of like abandonment
for my family.
I've been estranged in a sense from my brother.
We haven't talked in like, unless it's like
in a blaming kind of fashion for about six years.
And, but I felt like, like, yeah,
that I was abandoned by them in a sense,
for people that I trusted.
And I felt like Jesus rebuilded me
as just like a very confident, loving woman.
And that I can be generous with my spirit
and just who I am and not have to have that fear
that others are gonna take from me.
Like that I'll be sharing my testimony like on a stage.
Awesome.
These are so good.
Ladies, thank you for trusting us.
Maria, go ahead.
Yeah, so the first image I had of like the way I see myself
is someone that's been tainted and used and just unworthy.
Someone who's just been kind of put down a lot.
And the second image was just really of like God
lifting up my chin and placing a crown over my head
and just telling me that, no, I'm a princess.
Like there's royalty in me.
And that's just kind of like I was low in the first image,
just trying to lift myself up
and him just really being above me.
But that's cause he's putting the crown over my head.
So good.
Oh, so good.
Sylvia, how about you?
Okay, for the first image,
I don't know if it,
it seems like it was kind of like a Disney movie character
that I was fighting with and I was chained to something.
And everything was dark around me, but I was fighting against that whatever night felt
like a lot of anger, frustration, sadness, things that I also that are not under my control.
And that's that's some of the feelings and emotions that I was experiencing.
And then the second one, it's kind of God putting me in a hill, the top hill.
And it was a city under that hill.
And he was showing me that this is where I want to put you, because you are free, you
have victory.
So I think I'm burning a lot inside and God wants me to get free.
Yeah, and the city was moving around in that image.
That's what I what I saw.
Love it.
I hope you guys are feeling Holy Spirit.
This is so awesome.
God is setting some of y'all free just from just from this exercise.
So good.
Thanks for sharing.
Gwen, did you have have some?
Oh, you're muted, sweetie.
Yeah.
Yes.
You know, you see the image on our, our screens right now.
I see my I saw my face, but it was all white.
And then behind it, where I have like this blue setting and behind me, it was rows and
rows of black words, negative curse, curses against me kind of feeling like they were
just that could ticker tape going across of all these negative words.
But my silhouette was white.
And so I felt like where I was, I was standing in his light.
And then the second thing, but they were still there, they'll bake, the bad words were still
there.
And then the second picture he showed me is that the word started parting, and they were
making a white path, and he was making a way through the dark things.
And then I saw a picture of my eye, because I'm a seer and I have visions.
And I know that he wants to do prophetic painting with me together.
And I know that next year is going to be amazing, if I say yes, and do it and not be afraid
to do it.
So yeah, he's giving me a future and a hope.
And the second one, true.
So good.
Okay, I have one on Facebook.
Kimberly Smith.
I see you.
I see you, girl.
All right.
She said her first one was not measuring up.
And my life is an embarrassment.
God's image that she saw was I am fearless, triumphant, like a warrior.
Y'all, these are so powerful.
Does anyone else want to share?
It's okay, if not, but just want to give you an opportunity.
Did anyone else have anything that came up for you?
Okay.
These are, these are some of the things, what I did with you guys, I learned at a conference
years ago, the first time I ever did anything prophetic, like, I didn't even know what like
prophecy and prophetic was.
And I went to this conference, and they walked us through that exercise.
The first image I saw years ago, I was a little mouse inside of a cage, and the cage
was closed.
There was not, the door was not open.
And and then when she prayed for us to see the way God saw us, I was a little girl with
blonde hair.
And I was in this really pretty dress and I had a basket and I was skipping, I was skipping
down a road like I was happy, I was really happy.
And man, that just changed my heart in my life.
When I, when I saw like how God saw me compared to how I saw myself, it really enabled me
to, to recognize the chasm between the two, if you will, you know, and so I want to encourage
you guys in this as well.
God led me to continue to pray into that vision of how he saw me.
And for years to come after that, he continued to develop that vision.
And I started seeing myself at one point I was, and I was happy when I was doing this,
I was running down the road.
I wasn't skipping anymore.
I was running and I was running to him and I knew that's what the vision was.
And then another one I saw, I was walking and I was in all of these fields of wheat,
just wheat, just golden wheat everywhere.
And I had my arms out and I was walking through this field and again, knew I was walking to
him.
So just want to, again, encourage you guys, like continue to ask the Lord to show you,
show you how he sees you, show you the potential.
your life to show you what like literally how to shift from the lies that you're still believing
and he understands that's the thing there was no judgment he wasn't angry with me that i saw
myself like a mouse caught in a cage he wasn't mad there was grace in his eyes and love in his heart
and that is the same thing for all of you does anyone else want to share what you shared in the
breakout about your filters blind spots or broke um the unpacking the heart boxes
i had shared this good um actually like 1 32 o'clock in the morning last night
i don't know if anyone saw it but a lot of things bubbled up last night um
um sorry if i get emotional um for the first time in 21 years it was just a very lonely christmas
for me my feelings as far as my family and everybody else no i was blessed last week
with a beautiful granddaughter everyone's healthy and happy but i just felt very lonely for the
first time in 21 years everything changed i had wrote in the post that i kind of saw like the shift
around thanksgiving so i didn't put up a tree didn't do anything
it just stirred up a lot in me last night that this christmas morning would be
different and i'm just trying to work through that yeah yeah thank you nicole thank you for
sharing i uh i wrote down a couple things um as you know i saw your post and i responded and i'm
so grateful for your courage to share and if you all didn't see her post one of the things i think
is super important and this isn't the one the things i was going to mention but i i feel like
this is coming up too nicole kind of put herself down a little bit too in the post
like you know i know this is childish i know this is and it wasn't you all these are real
feelings these are real situations and it's okay that we feel and we don't have to pretend
and you know act like we've just got it all together life is hard sometimes but praise god
we don't have to stay here you're not going to stay here forever this is where you're at right
now but god's going to help you heal he's going to help you come out of this the couple things
that i wrote down is when you said battling loneliness because that um more today when you
shared it was more the anger and the things you were battling too um in it you know you mentioned
different things but i don't know that i put my finger on the lonely i mean obviously it was in
there but i also wonder you know if you saying it tonight is a you know part of god also bringing
some other things to the to the to the light if you will um ladies there are times where we can
actually battle not just lonely loneliness but pangs of loneliness i don't know if you guys
have ever heard of that but pangs of loneliness can take root when we're children and we we battle
any kind of or go through excuse me any kind of abandonment and deep rejection neglect also falls
into that category as well and there's probably other things but um years ago i started looking
into it pangs of loneliness can actually even be stronger it's proven than someone who's battling
an addiction like that's how like and so people will do things to try to make that pang it's p-a-n-g
of loneliness go away because they just it's so it's so deep and the draw to get that to go away
is so strong and so i want to encourage you all if any of you battle deep deep loneliness
um that you would ask the father to reveal any wounds of abandonment neglect rejection
um and truly even some of you physically were left alone as kids when when you were way too
young to be left alone and so fear also came in so some of those things are have for years have
partnered together if you will but the the enemy doesn't win ladies god always wins god always wins
and you guys are gaining revelation and insight into these things and you're going to walk out of
them you're not going to stay in these these areas the other thing i wanted to mention
and i want you to know it's okay that you didn't decorate when i say this
but i also want to encourage you guys in this
that in the days ahead that you will celebrate yourself. Like, what does it look like to
celebrate you? Not for anybody else to celebrate Christmas for you or New Year's for you, or,
you know, what does it look like to like, say, I am worth it, whether, and again, it is okay
that you're sad. So I'm not minimizing this. This is an important situation in her life right now,
but that we don't say, if these people that I love are not here,
I am not worth doing these things for. And I'm not saying you said that, but there are people
that that is, that's where they're at. And so, and maybe you guys are okay with not decorating
Christmas. So I'm not trying to necessarily say it's just about decorating for Christmas,
but this can be things like sometimes getting up and taking a shower and doing your hair and your
makeup and like showing up for yourself in the day. Like some of us, you know, when we feel
this way, we won't, we won't get out of our PJ's for days. And I want to encourage you,
there's no shame, but just don't stay there. Some of you guys need to take a shower,
put some makeup on. Like, I know it sounds crazy when you feel sad and when you feel down,
but put on some happy music and ask the Lord to help you know what it's like to really
love yourself and celebrate you. Like dance like nobody's watching kind of stuff. And I don't know
if you guys have ever, you know, heard those songs and just, man, I wish I was like that.
I wish that I had the joy to dance like nobody was watching.
And it comes down, it starts with a choice. Maybe it's like, you just start tapping your foot,
right? And I know this, I'm not like, this might sound really small, but these are big things,
ladies. It might like, even if you don't feel like it, raising your hands and just thanking God,
thanking Him for everything that you have right now. And I hear you saying too, like, you know,
you're blessed, but this is real. This is the enemy coming against you. And he's trying to
oppress you. That's what's happening, but he doesn't win. So the Lord wins. And this is just
an encouragement for you all, especially to obviously Christmas, new year's is coming.
The enemy would love you guys to feel like you're, you're never going to get out of where you are.
And that's not true. It's not. And one day you're going to come back and say, Bethany,
I remember the day you told me that where I was at wasn't truth. I didn't believe you then
now fully. Some of you guys, you believe me, but you're like, I believe you, but I'm, I don't know.
And you're going to come back and you're going to tell us what God has done. You are. And even
like when Michelle was saying earlier, she's going to stand on stages. You all, God is showing her,
she's going to share her testimony on stage. I think that's probably several of you.
Maybe yours is a book. Maybe yours is another way. Maybe yours is behind the scenes, sharing
your testimony one to another. It all is important. You are the hero of your story.
We talked about that a little bit last week, or maybe it was on faith Friday. I do so many
things. You all, sometimes I forget where I say things, but all right. So this is really good.
This is, I hope this is blessing you. Let's talk about our next thing. And I want you guys to go
and break out. We're already at five till nine. I can't believe it. All right. I felt like I also
wanted me to go after tonight and you guys heard this in content before, but it was, how, how can
we catch the foxes? How can we catch these foxes? This kind of stuff is going together tonight. So
we're unpacking the boxes. We're we're looking for these filters and blind spots. And now God's
saying, what about these foxes? So how do we fix the foundation? Well, we're not the ones that fix
it by ourselves. Praise the Lord. We don't have to do the fixing by ourselves. And so I want to
encourage you guys to examine the areas of your lives where you don't like your life. And some
of you are going to be like, I don't like much of it. Some of you guys are going to be like, I'm
doing great in all these areas, but I have this one area. Maybe it's, you know, the spirit mate,
maybe it's work as well, whatever it is for you. Examine the areas of your lives where you aren't
thrilled with your life. Maybe you also have things that are following a pattern of brokenness.
You know, the same thing, the same area of brokenness continues to come up. Maybe it's
things that are hurting you over and over again. Maybe it's areas you're making bad decisions over
and over again.
Whatever it is, God understands and he wants to help you out of it.
So he wants to come in and restore the cracks in your foundation.
Okay.
He wants to come in with.
I don't know what it's called, but you know, they fill the cement in.
He brings in the gold. He's pouring the gold into all the cracks.
He's making us better than we were before we ever had a crack.
So we need to invite the Holy Spirit to be our contractor.
Cause he has the, he, you know, contractors, when they come in,
they have the blueprints, right?
We don't have the blueprints.
We don't know how God originally created us to be, but God does.
The Holy spirit does.
So when we ask him to come in and be that contractor.
And help us understand and recognize the foxes, big foxes look like this.
These are some of the big foxes known trauma. Okay. So abuse,
molestation, divorce, accidents, sickness, huge losses.
You know, huge losses can cover a lot.
Maybe constant, like a financial shame.
I would also put eating disorders in there as well.
And then the little foxes are those, you know, again,
We don't realize that we don't even realize we're still believing.
Jeremiah 17, nine through 10 says this.
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?
I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind to reward each person,
according to their conduct.
According to what their deeds deserve.
So the Lord is the one that comes in and he's examining the heart.
And he's examining the mind.
And he's examining the heart.
And he understands the mysteries of our heart, the puzzle,
the pieces that are all shattered that are, you know, some of us.
I don't know if you guys are puzzlers, but I'm a puzzler.
And when you get it.
And originally in the box, typically the pieces are all, you know,
they're none of them are put together.
And so you're looking, you're trying to figure out that puzzle piece.
You're trying to figure out, okay,
I'm going to put this thing together and I'm going to help you put this
thing together.
Just continue to surrender the pen to me, surrender.
The wheel and let me do.
What I, what I need and want to do in your life.
And so.
God is continuing to work in you all.
I want you guys to talk a little bit about the foxes.
Okay.
I'm going to put you in there.
But tonight might be your night to come out of hiding.
Okay.
All right. I'm going to put you in there.
We praying for you guys.
And I recreate these rooms tonight.
So you're going to meet a couple of different people.
And I want to do eight minutes. Like I said,
I was going to do last time.
There we go.
Make sure it's saved. Okay, cool.
Okay.
Meredith, I got to put you in a room. Hold on one second here.
Here we go.
Okay.
So Meredith,
you'll want to click to join to go in the breakout session.
All right, father.
Thank you so much for continuing to reveal these areas for healing.
God, thank you for revealing the foxes.
God, the little foxes,
the big foxes and everything in between and helping us to step into.
You're the shelter that we can go to and be safe in times of
trouble and times of joy.
And even in the times we wander around in the wilderness,
Lord help us to come out of these wilderness places and come into the
fullness of your love for us. The fullness of your blessings.
And every area that we are oppressed and we're crushed,
help us to come to you because you're the shelter.
That we can run to and be safe in times of trouble in times of joy
that you're our perfect hiding place.
And even in the times of trouble,
we still struggle to believe that you have something good in store for us.
Help us to trust you.
We're God with a little bit more of our hearts tonight,
a little bit more of our spirits.
Help us to continue to lean into the truth of who you are,
father, as.
Love as peace, as goodness, as kindness, faithfulness.
God, I thank you that in your word in Jeremiah 24, seven,
it says, I will give them hearts
that recognize me as the Lord.
Yes, Lord, we're gonna recognize him, ladies.
They will be my people and I will be their God
for they will return to me wholeheartedly.
Isn't that a wonderful promise?
We're gonna recognize the Lord.
We're gonna understand his voice.
We're gonna grow in our ability to know his voice, ladies,
to know it and know it really well.
Thank you, Lord, that you're continuing to teach us
how to listen to you, to trust you,
to take you by the hand, to follow you,
to let you show us the better way
that we wouldn't rebel against you, God.
And if there's rebellion, Lord, help us to understand
we're making these rebellious choices out of brokenness
and out of a lack of understanding your truth.
God, I thank you for continuing to lift the veils
from our eyes and our hearts
that you would just remove any hardened,
stony places of our hearts
that are not soft and pliable to you.
Lord, we ask you to help us to have hearts
that become pliable to your voice, to your way,
that you would create in us clean hearts, O God,
and renew steadfast spirits within us.
Yes, Lord, that we would not go off to the left
or to the right, that we would stay on the pathway
that you have for us, God.
I thank you, Jesus, for coming and dying on the cross
and shedding your blood for the forgiveness of our sins,
for our healing, for our freedom,
that you came in the form of a baby on this earth,
and you also are coming back one day.
So thank you, Father, that you allow Jesus to come.
And Jesus, thank you for coming.
Thank you for going through all the things
that you endured on the earth
so that you could also relate to us,
so that you would make a way for us to be one with you
as you were one with the Father.
I thank you, Lord, that you are continuing
to allow us to just come into your gates with thanksgiving
and into your courts with praise.
I thank you that you'll help us to step
into celebrating ourselves, praising you, God,
in every area.
I thank you that we will give thanks and praise to you,
for we are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works, and our souls know it very well.
God, whenever our hearts make us feel guilty,
and remind us of our failures,
we know that God is much greater and more merciful
than our conscious,
and he knows everything there is to know about us.
Everything that's hidden and covered up
will soon be exposed, will be revealed,
for the façade is falling down,
and nothing will be kept secret for long.
God, thank you.
And that's not something we have to be afraid of, God,
because you're loving and you're kind
in your process, Lord.
You don't come in like a wrecking ball
and just destroy us,
but God, you come and you knock on the door of our hearts,
and you ask us to let you in,
to let you in and to reveal these tender areas of our lives.
God, you do it because you love us,
and you want us to be more whole.
You want us to step further into the healing
and the life that you have for us.
I thank you that your word also declares in Revelation 21,4,
he will wipe away every tear from their eyes
and eliminate death entirely.
Praise be to God.
No one will mourn or weep any longer.
The pain of wounds will no longer exist
for the old order has ceased.
Yes, Lord, thank you that we can choose forgiveness,
that we can choose to step into your healing rivers
that are always flowing from heaven.
God, your rivers of healing waters are always flowing,
even when we don't see it or understand it
or perceive it, God, that doesn't make it so.
So Lord, help us to see with spiritual eyes
the rivers of living water flowing through us
and into us tonight.
I thank you, Lord, that you'll help us
to choose to forgive, Lord God, those who have hurt us,
those who have wronged us in any way, including ourselves.
God, that you would help us to forgive ourselves,
to love others as you first loved us.
God, I thank you.
I thank you for your redeeming grace
and your redeeming love.
And I thank you that you're gonna continue to help us
to step into that path that you have for us,
that we will lay aside every weight
that so easily ensnares us,
and we would press on toward the high calling of God
for our lives.
And I thank you that that includes the plans
and the promises that you have for us, Lord.
I thank you that any area where we are still believing.
lies of the enemy, that we would just continue to push those things aside and trust your
good word instead. I thank you, Lord. I thank you that you are working all things together
for good in our lives to save many people alive. I thank you that you declare in Isaiah
61, three, that you would bestow on us a crown of beauty instead of ashes. And Lord, I just
declare that even right now over every lady, but Maria, that just came to mind the vision
that you gave Maria a little while ago about putting a crown on her head. And so I just
declare that over everyone in this group, that God is bestowing on you a crown of beauty
instead of ashes, where, where there's been pain, where there's been mourning, where there's
been loss, where there's been deception and betrayal, and you've been left behind and
other people chosen, whatever that looks like, where there's been illness and sickness and all
of these things, God is saying, I'm giving you beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning,
and he lifts the spirit of heaviness off of us. So Lord, we just thank you that you're
lifting the spirit of heaviness off of every woman tonight, that you're helping them to step
into your joy, unspeakable and full of glory, or we thank you that you would help them to dance
and worship and celebrate you that your word declares that even the rocks will cry out.
If we don't worship you, Lord, I pray that even, even the waves thunderclap and they,
they worship you Lord help us to not, not ever stop worshiping you and understanding that you
are good. God, where the enemy has tried to lie and deceive us in and cause us to think that you
hold out on us, Lord, I thank you that you would bring truth and light to those places tonight.
Hello, ladies. Welcome back. Welcome back. Welcome back. Everyone else is about to come in.
Welcome back. Have you all ever heard the song? Uh, you are good. You are good all the time. You
are good. I'm not singing really great tonight. I, my voice, but that just came up in my spirit
when you guys were coming back. And so we might have to find that song and just worshiping that
a little bit this week. Um, and just let that marinate. I feel like some of you guys, if you
just let that marinate, like he is good, he is good all the time. You are good. Like just start
singing that over yourself and it will start to shift your spirit into alignment with heaven.
Um, I'm ready for you guys to share, but I wanted to put, um, share this with you guys when you're
back on, as I was praying for you guys, I came to this scripture right towards the end. And when I
read it, it made me think of Maria's vision of God, putting the crown on her. So just wanted to
read this to you guys as you're back. Isaiah 61, three says to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes. And as I read it, I felt like it was for Maria, but I think it's for,
I declared it as a word over everybody in phase one, that you would receive the crown of beauty
that God is putting on your heads tonight. Instead of ashes, all the things that the enemy
intended for evil. Yes, Lord, Jesus came to turn it all around for good. Y'all he's working. He's
working. He's working. He's sitting at the right hand of the father right now, interceding for you
by name. Let that sink in. And the times where we, yes, Israel hotten. Yes, yes, yes. That's the one.
Yeah. He's man. You guys, I probably heard that song the first time, like 20 some years ago. It's
such a good song. All right. So just soak in the truth of who God is soaking, what he's doing in
your life. Who wants to share with everyone? I see. Yes, I don't know your first name. I'm so
sorry. I see that you're E Graham. It's Erica. Thank you, Erica.
I just wanted to say that I had a great conversation with Gwen. It was brief,
but we were talking about what you were saying about celebrating ourselves and the victories
and how a lot of the time, the foxes that we have kind of tell us don't do that and try to keep us
from celebrating our wins. And one of the things...
God has impressed upon me from now until the end of the year is just to literally sit down
and write out my wins for the year. And it's going to take self-reflection. It's going to
take some time. You're just going to have to sit, sit down, get quiet with him, and just
in every phase and aspect of your life, because what it's going to do, it's going to get your
motor running to get you ready to go into 2024, because everybody's going to, I can't,
2023 sucked. It was bad. No, you had wins. And when I sat down and I really had an opportunity
to just look in every area of my life, like you said, God is good. And that, when we celebrate
our wins, that's us showing, him showing us, look, I've been good to you. Don't follow that
trap of everybody's thinking, woe is me, all is doomed. And I mean, I'm good. Yes, there are
challenges, but if we can just sit down, because what the enemy wants us to do is to get so busy
and so distracted that we don't take the time for self-reflection,
also self-awareness. It takes self-awareness and self-reflection, and we can't do that
with other people. So while I understand Nicole's plight, and I've been there as well,
I relish this time at the end of the year to just slow down
and write out my wins and reflect, because when I start to think, and I start to think,
and then that's when that worship comes, and that's when that praise comes, and that's when
that, so I'm encouraging everybody to take that on as a project between, it's the 25th,
between now and the 31st, just sit down and write it out. It'll change you.
Yes. And this is so good. And I love what Michelle Palmer put in the chat too. There's a whole week
left to have more wins for 2023, ladies, and close it out strong. And here's the thing.
Some of you might be like, well, I don't feel like I'm having any wins, or 2023 didn't have
any wins. Ask the Lord to help you see them. Number one, I see a win for all of you. You all
chose to invest in yourself, in your heart healing. Do you guys know how many people will never choose
this? But you did. You did. You showed up for yourself in such a big way. You're here tonight.
This is a win. Some of you guys have shared openly. That's a win. You really can find a lot
of wins when you start asking God to show them to you. Maybe some of you, a win this week was
going for a walk when you didn't feel like it. I don't know. So I'm just throwing ideas out there.
Let God help you see the good. And again, as Eric was saying, it's not that we don't see the hard.
It's not that we don't see the things that are difficult.
Confession time. I just put my tree up today.
I have my, my spiritual daughters are coming in town tomorrow. If they weren't, I probably would
have just let it go only because just life has been so crazy. But deep down in my heart,
I kept saying, well, I'm going to do it for them. And I, I did, but you know,
what really also got me motivated? I love Christmas. I shared great Christmas memories
with my grandparents and my mom, and they're not here anymore on this earth. I'll get to
celebrate with them again, one day in heaven, but I'm sharing this with you. My husband had
surgery back on November 11th or November 30th, excuse me. It was supposed to be just a recovery
from that. And it turned into a lot of other things. Sometimes life is just hard. You all,
but like the awkwardness of Christmas in that sense, it's not just about decorations, right?
It's about who he is and what he did and what he's going to do between now and when he comes back
again. And then what is he going to do when he comes back again? So, you know, there's always
things that we can praise him for, man. There's so much good, even in the hard there's good.
There's good. All right. All right. Go ahead. You guys can share. Nicole, I see you go ahead.
When you were saying about that with your tree,
you know, it kind of hit, like, I disappointed myself because I should have done it for me.
but I was so in my funk that I didn't do it at all.
And I won't do that again.
I will make sure that I do it for me,
because I, like you said,
Christmas is about family, tradition, things,
and I need to start doing for me.
That's right.
I'm not bored again.
Yes, yes.
And again, ladies,
this isn't so much for us to feel bad, right?
It's for us to see, okay,
and acknowledge what do we love?
What do we enjoy?
Like some of you, that will be a good assignment too.
Like not to give you a bunch of assignments,
but like some of you just need to ask the Lord,
like help me to know what I like.
Because the more you get established in what you like,
what things, you know,
what are the things that help you come alive?
Like make you feel joyful and excited about life.
Because if you continue to get grounded in those things,
when you start dating someone,
you're gonna like, basically,
it's not like you change for them.
You become more whole and more of yourself,
the real you as the healing happens.
And so then you're gonna attract someone
who will value who you are.
And they're not gonna ask you to stop doing things you love
and try to control you.
That's not healthy, right?
But the more we know ourselves
and the more that we appreciate who we are,
the less those things will happen, okay?
All right, Laura, go ahead.
Well, I didn't get to share about my foxes, but that's okay.
So when she was talking about winds and stuff,
and you were talking about your husband
being in the hospital, I think I shared this before,
but my dad has been in the hospital
since the middle of November and he had heart surgery,
but it's just been a roller coaster for us,
my whole family.
But he's finally coming home tomorrow.
So I look at that as a win.
So I initially joined the group
because I keep asking myself, why am I still single?
And there has to be a reason.
And I don't know what the reason is.
And maybe I just need to work on myself more.
I'm finding out maybe it's more about working on me
than it is about getting to that final destination
of walking down the aisle and getting married.
I'm trying not to rush the process,
but at the same time, it's like,
I just want to get there, I just want to get there.
So I'm trying to take in everything.
And I feel like it's taking me longer
to process everything, but hopefully eventually
I'll get there.
And some people, I will say, just so you know, Laura,
it depends on, every person starts
in a different place too.
So every single woman that comes into this group,
some people have done counseling for years,
some people have done coaching,
some people are doing other things.
So we never want to, and not that you are,
but just as a reminder for all of you,
you never want to look at another sister in the group
and be like, why are they going so fast?
Why am I not?
What's wrong with me?
No, you gotta just stay focused on your journey
and what is God trying to do in you?
And the cool thing about this process,
and I know it seems counterintuitive
when it's like, okay, come in, stop dating,
but just press pause, not stop forever.
But it truly, when you guys lean into the healing,
your process will be accelerated later.
It will.
And for some of you, when you're finishing
the five weeks of heartwork,
some of you might need more time to heal,
but you can still move forward into the other group
because healing is a journey.
It continues, you all.
It continues in marriage too.
Did y'all know that?
It will, it does.
Yes, yes, yes.
You're going to continue to heal all the way through.
So just know that it's a process and God will meet you every step of the way.
Okay.
All right, Michelle, what do you got?
I wanted to share this earlier when Maria had made the comment about the crown.
And I was like, just wanted to encourage all the ladies.
It's like super easy, like on Amazon, but this year at my churches, our women's conference,
our campus, there's like six different campuses.
So our campus, all the women, we wore crowns and it was just so fun.
And it, I mean, it seems silly, but it's just like fun.
And on Amazon, you can get one for seven to $10 and just like wear it around the house.
And it does, it makes you feel like special.
And so I just wanted to encourage everyone to do that just for themselves to wear, get
a crown and wear it.
Yes, I love this.
Okay.
So this is a good conversation as we start to close the night out, because some of you
guys know this already, or you're learning it at least in our group, in this community.
I love, I don't know where Jackie learned it, but the activations and stuff that we
do, you know, the princess crown, yeah, a hundred percent.
Some of you guys need to do that.
If that, if that resonated in your spirit, I would encourage you to go ahead and get
on Amazon or go shop for one.
You know, I'm not saying just Amazon, but some of you guys need to feel like, look at
yourself in the mirror with it on.
And some of y'all probably will cry.
I'm just going to tell you, some of you guys need some true, like belief that you are a
princess.
Not just in the words that you say or the thoughts that you try to think, but deep in
deep, deep, deep in that this is who I am.
That I am called here for such a time as this.
Can you imagine Esther, all the beautification treatments she went through, all the baths
and the soaking and the oils and the fragrances and all the preparation.
Some of you guys, that's what like you, you don't realize it right now, but that's part
of what's happening.
You got it.
We got has to remove the stuff that isn't good so that he can fill you with the fragrances
of heaven and all the goodness.
And so some of you guys, as you get these crowns, as you stand in front of the mirror,
you know, really just ask God to help you see yourself the way he sees you.
What is he, what else does he want to tell you?
What words does he want to speak into your life?
What's your word for 2024?
Like even just praying like for one word, God, what's my word for 2024?
The one word you want me to learn more about, lean into, understand, you know, I'm big on
that.
So I always, I feel like God always takes me there at this time of year to encourage
other people as well.
But also the other thing I want to tell you guys, and you're not here yet, so I would
encourage you to wait for this part until you get to love story accelerated.
But I want to go ahead and plant a seed.
Some of you guys, when you're in love story accelerator, I would encourage you to buy
something for yourself that says, I am a bride.
And if you buy it now, it's not going to hurt you, but just don't get too caught up in the
boy stuff right now.
Okay.
That's why I'm encouraging you to wait until love story so that you can focus on your heart
work right now and not get distracted.
But some of you guys, you know, just need to even, yep.
I'm bride like where, where a sash that says you're a bride around your house.
And what does that feel like?
What does that, you know, does that raise your belief?
What is that prophetic act act doing in your spirit to help you align with the truth of
heaven for your destiny?
Yes, Erica.
I love that.
Erica said her three words for 2024 are release manifest and thrive.
Those are powerful.
That's so good.
All right, ladies, I feel like God is done so much tonight.
He's so good.
You all, I hope that you guys know that you are seen.
You are heard.
You're loved.
The father is pursuing your hearts.
Yes, the spirit mate is going to be the cherry on the top.
He will be, but all the other stuff in between and the Sunday, if you will, and it's so good
taste and see that the Lord is good.
Taste and see that the Lord is good.
This will be.
your last year single you all. God's doing some stuff. All right. So we're going to show up in
the group this week. We'll be back next week. If you guys remember, we're doing only APM again,
next, next week as well on new year's day. I can't even believe it. A week from today will
be new year's day. And I can't wait to hear your breakthrough stories this week. I'm,
I'm expecting big things this week for you all. Some of you guys are going to face some hard
things again, as you process your healing and your heartwork, but guess what? Keep your head up,
keep your head up, look towards heaven and know that good things are coming.
He is the lifter of your heads. Okay. He's the lifter of our heads for all things. Yes.
Merry Christmas. I can't remember. Oh, I meant to show you all, I got a little Merry Christmas
sweater sweatshirt for y'all. I kept thinking earlier and I was like, well, you can't really
see it, but, uh, my husband's sister got this for us. We all wore Merry Christmas matching shirts.
Y'all this is the kind of stuff I always wanted. Seriously. My sister and I are not close like at
all. And I've always wanted sisters that would do this kind of stuff. And now I've got it.
Like God just sent me a husband, you know, for those of you that don't know, I'm one of the
success stories. I don't even know if some of our newbies know that. So I went through this program
several years ago, and I've been married now a year and almost four months, but, uh, he has two
sisters and a great mom and I'm super blessed. So I'm encouraging you things that you have longed
for. God sees you. He hears you. He will answer at the right appointed time for you. May God bless
you. Let me pray us out father. Thank you so much for your goodness. Thank you for your mercy. Thank
you for your grace. God, we ask you just to, um, protect all the seeds that were planted tonight.
Lord, the enemy will try to come in quick to steal the seeds and pluck them right up.
So Lord, we ask you to protect them, protect their minds, their hearts, their spirits, their souls,
protect their bodies. We thank you for health and wholeness. God, that you would surround these
ladies with your truth and your love. God, as they go throughout this week, help them to see
the wins of this last year, help them to continue to unpack the heart boxes with you and to recognize
the filters and blind spots and, and the foxes. And, and thank you, God, that you're working on
their behalf right now, help them to recognize the power of your presence, that the same, um,
spirit that rose Jesus from the dead at, if they've accepted you as their Lord and savior,
Jesus, that same power is living within them and it's operating through them. So help them this
week to recognize that and to come into alignment with your truth. We just thank you for it in
advance in Jesus name. God bless you. Have a great night, everyone. I'll see you guys again next week.
Bye. Thank you.