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All right, hello, welcome.

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Hopefully you guys will turn on your computers and let me see your lovely faces.

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It makes a huge difference as we lead these sessions.

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You guys will hear Jackie talk about there's grace on your face and it really there really

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really is.

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So I'm going to apologize in advance.

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I am battling some kind of flu or something.

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I've kind of resisted it for a week now and it just crept in overnight.

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And so I'm going to be kind of clear in my throat a lot tonight.

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So I apologize.

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It's just going to be the way we're going to roll tonight, but I'm excited for you all

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to be here.

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If this is your first time, who's who's here for your first time tonight?

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Just so I know.

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Is anybody a newbie?

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Welcome.

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Welcome.

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Welcome.

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Let's see, Sarah, Jennifer.

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I know some of the other new ladies will be catching the replay and that's totally fine.

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My name is Bethany Cooper.

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I am one of the heart work coaches in here.

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We also have Annette and Jennifer Yankovic will be commenting, excuse me, on your all's

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your posts and things like that.

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They'll engage with you.

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They're also helping me in the group just so you know that they are part of our team.

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And then the other thing for you all that are new, you get to take all your helper hats

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off.

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You don't, you don't have to help anybody in here.

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You get to just come in and receive and let God do what he's doing in your life.

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And it's just going to be a really great, great time.

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You can always cheer each other on and, you know, pray for each other, but we just want

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you guys to know that you don't have to help.

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You don't have to coach, no advice, all that kind of stuff.

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And then the other couple of little housekeeping, I always do housekeeping at the beginning

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of lives.

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I don't want to do that very long, but it's always important as well.

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Just because I noticed a couple of people were feeling like a little anxious because

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they weren't where they felt like they needed to be because maybe there were other people

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that started at the same time as them.

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What's important is for you guys to go at your pace, like your life.

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Obviously we don't want you to stay here like long-term necessarily like months and months

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and months, but like life happens too, right?

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So you go at your own pace, the best practice.

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This is what we recommend because this is where we see the most success one week of

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content per week.

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Okay.

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So in your Jackie Dorman website portal, when you go in there, it's by week, you know, it's

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by week.

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Um, one of the things I've noticed, because I can, we can see all on the backend of everything,

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like everything everybody's doing and whatnot, I'm noticing not a lot of people are watching

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the welcome video all the way through y'all are going to want to watch that Jackie says

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some really important stuff in that video.

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You're not going to want to miss it.

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I know it might, you might be itching to get to that first week of content, but that welcome

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video also has some supernatural things in there that really set up your heart to receive

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the other content.

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So please make sure you're watching that even if you're in week four and you didn't fully

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watch that, I would encourage you to go back and watch that.

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All right.

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And then, um, just don't rush.

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We do have daily prayer.

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If you don't know, um, our prayer times and our schedule are in your Facebook group guides

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tab.

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Be very familiar with the guides tab.

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So those we'll talk about the portal a lot, and we'll talk about Facebook and guides,

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um, for all of our new ladies also, and some of you lovely ladies that I don't see as much

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when you post, but I love seeing you all.

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I do.

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We like hearing from you.

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We like knowing what's going on and that's how we can help you get to where God wants

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you to go as well.

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It basically accelerates your, your journey when you come in and show up and that's even

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the struggles.

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I don't know if you've noticed, but other people in the group have posted their breakthroughs,

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their struggles, um, areas, they need prayer, all of those kinds of things.

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And when you guys do that sincerely, it not only invites the Lord to come in, but it invites

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the community, you know, your sisters that you're doing this with, as well as the coaches

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to be able to come alongside of you in a really good way.

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So I got to meet someone here.

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All right.

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So those are my announcements for you tonight.

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I did a quick, you all, I did it in like five minutes.

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I feel proud of that.

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All right, so let's pray and get started.

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God has some good stuff tonight.

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All right, father, thank you so much for who you are.

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Thank you that, uh, even tonight, you're just, I already feel like you're supernatural

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empowerment Lord.

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So I just ask you to meet every one of these ladies in a special way, no matter what they've

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come in with, no matter what baggage, maybe they're tired, Lord, maybe they've had a tough

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day or Lord.

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They're just super excited about what you're doing in their life, wherever they're at.

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God, thank you that you're meeting them in this night and this just a special, special way.

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I pray that you would open their eyes to see what your Spirit's doing, their ears to hear what your Spirit is saying.

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Holy Spirit, I ask you just to come and just hover over them in a loving way.

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Let them feel your grace and your truth.

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We ask you to bring those things out of darkness into the light, Lord God.

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Even things that we may have shoved down years ago that that are still impacting us or getting us to to be tripped up or triggered.

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God, I pray that you bring those things to the light, bring revealing for healing to those areas so that we can move forward.

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And we just thank you for it in Jesus name.

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Amen.

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All right, y'all, I'm sorry.

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I'm going to have to do this to a lot.

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I'm trying to power through tonight.

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So as I was reading your all's responses.

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Hi, Lori.

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I also say hi, everyone on Facebook.

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Come join us here on Zoom if you want to be in the breakouts with us.

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But I'll say hi to you all there as well.

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But as I was praying, I was reading your all's, some of your weekly roll calls and just praying for you guys in these sessions this morning.

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And the Lord just kept putting on my heart supernatural surrender, supernatural surrender.

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And this is exactly like specifically what came to mind.

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What does this even mean?

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What does it even mean to supernaturally surrender?

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And I know some of you have already read that content.

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You've watched the videos.

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But I believe just from the session even earlier today that God is is wanting to show you another layer of what it means to really let go and surrender to God's will and plan for your life.

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And so as we step into that tonight, I just want to remind you that, you know, surrendering is when, for example, if there's a battle going on, it doesn't mean that you just don't care.

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It's that you're choosing to wave the white flag and you're saying, I surrender.

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I surrender to your ways.

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I surrender to what's going on.

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And what can be scary about that is a lot of us.

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We just don't want to let go because we think we can make it happen better, quicker and more advanced, whatever that looks like in a lot of different ways.

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And sometimes it's even a subconscious like, God, I've got this like I can I can do this.

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I can figure this out.

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I can make this happen.

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And God is just always saying, sweet daughter, my beloved daughter, will you trust me?

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And that's where I want us to go tonight as well, because the reality is this.

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We we will struggle, struggle to surrender if we don't truly trust.

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And trusting comes from truly knowing who you are in Christ and being so rooted in the love of God, like who we is.

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And everything that is makes him up the goodness, the faithfulness, the kindness, all of these attributes that are who he is.

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He is love.

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He can't deny himself.

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He is love.

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And so therefore, if we don't know him as that.

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There's no shame tonight, there's no shame, but if we don't really know him that way, we are going to struggle to trust that he really has something good for us.

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So a lot of times the reason we do this back and forth, like the Jesus, you know, take the wheel, but no, I'm going to take it back because, oh, my gosh, it's not happening the way I thought we were supposed to turn right here and you're turning left.

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And and we take the wheel back and we're like, OK, I got this.

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And then we're like messing it up.

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And then we're like, oh, my God, no, I don't take it back, take it back.

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And so if we'll just if we'll just let him take the wheel, like really let him take the wheel.

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For some of you this week, it might look like.

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Maybe just letting him come in a little further into your heart, into the places that feel unspoken.

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You know, I've talked a lot over the last few weeks, if you guys have heard any of those lives, some of our newer ladies won't, but that those do not enter signs where it feels really vulnerable and tender that we would let him in.

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And as I've said before, he's a gentleman.

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He's not going to force his way in.

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He's going to knock.

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He knocks on the door of our hearts and he asked us to let him come in.

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And so that's who he is.

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He's never going to force his way in.

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And so when we lean into the Holy Spirit, you guys will hear a lot about the revealing for healing.

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We don't dig.

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So I don't want you guys getting out your shovels and trying to figure out what got you to where you are and what the mess is and and figure, you know, where what is it?

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Is it this? Is it this?

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And you're like just analyzing and analyzing.

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No, here, here I'm living, literally giving you all permission.

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You don't have to do that.

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Sincerely, you just have to say, Lord, will you reveal the root

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to me of what's triggering me in this situation? Lord, man,

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that, that was really hard for me. When that person said that

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to me, it didn't just hurt me. Like it's, I felt it deep. Like

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what's that about? Like what's going on there. And we're just,

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we get really good at asking good questions and we trust that

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he will reveal things for healing in their perfect timing

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for you, just like he did for me. And I can tell you, like,

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even today, there's a couple things this morning, and I might

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not share the same stories tonight. So if people saw this

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morning, you might see a little different, but the one in

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particular, I had this lady. She's, she's a friend of mine,

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and she's been through this program and she's healing a lot.

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But in particular, she just gets really triggered, especially if

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she messages people via text or whatever, and they can't

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respond to her right away. And, and I've been working with her

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on this, but in particular, there was a day last week where

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I mean, I'm pretty busy, y'all. I try to make time for people as

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much as I can. But there are times where I have to set

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boundaries and I just could not respond to her that day. But I

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didn't ignore her. I sent a message and said, Hey, I'm, you

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know, I love you, but I'm like swamped today. I'm going to go

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from back to back to back to back. I can't like, I can't even

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take anything else on. And, uh, you know, she said she was good.

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But, uh, then another friend who has like met someone and is

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potentially walked into her spirit mate relationship, that

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friend hasn't been as responsive either. And so what happened is

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the enemy came in and has now triggered her and told her that

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she's all alone and like, nobody cares about her. She's isolated,

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all this stuff. And I bring that up tonight because I think

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there are even some of you that that is kind of the lie. The

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enemy has you on this hamster wheel that if somebody doesn't

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respond to you in a certain timeframe, it means they don't

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love you or that you are abandoned or you're alone. And

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the enemy tries to tell you you're an orphan and you just

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don't fit in and you're never going to fit in. And what were

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you thinking? And whatever that looks like for you, it's

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different for everybody, but it's a lie from the pit of hell.

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The enemy is assigned to get you to go away from the things God

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has for you here. You are in this really, you are not, I'm

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not just saying this because I'm a leader here, but this is an

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incredible move of God. And I'm, you know, people make mistakes.

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You're going to run into people that still make mistakes in this

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group, but I'm telling you what, this is a really amazing

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community. And in community, you have an opportunity to meet a

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amazing sisters and not only become friends, but really

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genuinely become like sisters where you're in each other's

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weddings and all kinds of things like, and, and, you know, I'm

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not just saying this. I literally was in a friend's

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wedding in September that I met on a retreat in this community

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back in 2021, we became very close friends. I still talk to

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her all the time. She's married, she's blending the family and

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God's doing some stuff there. So all this, I'm trying to weave

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together so that you guys start to lean in and even surrender to

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community. What does it mean to let someone into your heart in

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life, even in the vulnerable places? Here's another thing.

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I'm, I'm, I'm planting some seeds, y'all. I love to come in

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and just plant seeds and stir some stuff up. And then you guys

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will go into breakouts here in a minute. So I had another friend

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her and I've been chatting. We talk all the time. And in the

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last week, our conversation has been around. You're safe here.

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You're safe here. And her and I were having a conversation and

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she said, yeah, I know we were talking, her and I were talking.

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And I said, no, look at me like for real. And she just looked at

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me and I said, God wants you to know you're safe with me. She's

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like, I know. And I was like, do you? And I was following the

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Holy Spirit in that. We talked a little bit more, you know, and

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we, we had a great time, got off that, got off that connection

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time. And the next morning she messaged me, she woke up in the

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middle of the night. She had some kind of dream and she was

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praying into that. And the Lord started speaking to her about

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what I said to her that day. And, um, what he revealed was

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that she didn't really believe that people want to, or have

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space in their life for her. That's the lie the enemy was

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telling her. And so we've been talking through that. And then,

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um, I'm kind of, hopefully I'm weaving this all together so you

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tapestry I'm pulling together here. My husband and I are going

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through some transitions and changes. We're praying a lot

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into it, talking about it. We believe God's going to end up,

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you know, shifting us from the two churches we've been

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pastoring and move us somewhere else. And we just don't know

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where that's at yet. And the other day I was sharing with

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someone and there was just this automatic, like, it reminded me

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of my conversation with my friend that I'm telling you

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about. It was this automatic, like, that's why you're in

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community. Because she said to me, she said, do you remember

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what you've been telling me for the last year that you all want,

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like, that you want, that you're asking God for? And so I was

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like, no, tell me. And she sent this reminder. And so that's

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what being in community, like someone that loves you enough to

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remind you why you're here, that God loves you enough to remind

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you why you're here. You're here because somewhere deep within,

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you believe God has a love story for you that far exceeds

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anything that you've experienced before. Some of you, maybe

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you've never dated before, and God wants to really knock your

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socks off. So what does it mean to fully let go and step into

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that tonight for you? We're gonna talk real quick about

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control freaks. Does anyone else in here struggle with control?

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everything, right? And we don't even mean to sometimes, ladies,

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sometimes we just, that's just we're raised that way. And so I

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want to encourage you, this is the thing. When we really look

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at control, at the root of it, control often comes from a place

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of fear, a place of fear, or wanting to keep something in

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order and out of chaos. So why do we, hi, Kendra, so why do we

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struggle in this way? Why do we, why do we want to have control?

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And there are times where yes, God will create order. Okay, so

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don't, don't hear what I'm not saying. God is a God of order.

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versus if we are controlling it. So here's, here's how it can

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sound. I've got this. I don't need any help. I'm good on my

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own. Well, really, are we? If we are, then why are we here?

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Right? What is God saying to you about the areas where you are

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trying to control and you're trying to say, I've got this, I

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don't, and this isn't just God in you. This is people are

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coming in your life, and they're asking you for help. Or excuse

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me, they're asking if they can help you. And you're like, No, I

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got this. Even guys are trying to hold doors open for you.

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Y'all, I have little boys holding doors for me. More and

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more and more. Do you know when we walk in the divine feminine,

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you guys will learn about this more in a couple weeks. Like

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divine feminine, the power of the Holy Spirit and the divine

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feminine commands in the spirit to be recognized. It's not a

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prideful thing. It's just an it's an error in a manner of

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being. And grown men will hold doors for you. Other women will

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hold doors for you boys. It's just like people notice you and

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they're like, Oh, let me help you. I'm serious. I used to

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think like, like, I can do this. I don't need it. I'm the one

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carrying all the bags in on the double arms instead of making

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multiple trips. Yes, that is me carrying the groceries in. And I

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want to do as least amount of trips as possible. Yeah,

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imagine dating someone chivalrous, and they're like,

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let me help you. You're like, No, I've got it. I can carry it

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all. And God's just like, No. So practice now. Get your practice

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in now because you guys are going to meet men, spirit mates

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that are chivalrous, they're kind and they have goodness in

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them. I'm telling you because I'm married to one. Y'all, I had

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to learn how to let him help me. I still do. After he had a

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surgery, during his surgery, y'all, I'm doing all the things

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again. And so I got used to doing it, because he wasn't even

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allowed to carry weight. And so then now he's he can again, and

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he's like, let me help you. I'm like, I just realized I shift I

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started shifting right back into that. I've got this. So some of

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you tonight, God's saying, let it go. Just let that thing drop.

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What if, thank you, Lord, in the area of perfectionism? What if

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we just decided tonight that we don't have to be perfect? It

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doesn't mean we're not still going to do our best and do it

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with excellence. But what if we did just let that one thing

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It's wearing us out. Maybe it's a person and, and they're just draining you and draining you and

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draining like that friend. I love her. But when you, when anyone doesn't respect our boundaries,

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ladies, when I say, Hey, I can't, I can't talk. And you keep messaging me. That tells me that

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you have an issue with boundaries. And then I'm going to pull back more from that. Right. So what,

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where do we need to let go tonight? So that's what I'm, I'm giving you kind of a grab bag.

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You guys can talk about whatever is speaking to you from anything that I said, when you go

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into your breakout, where do you, you know, where are you struggling to surrender? Where do you

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struggle with control? You know, is there some area where you're saying I've got this or, you

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know, the, where do you need to let go of something? I mean, if there's something else that's

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on your heart, you can talk about that too. I'm just, I'm just giving you guys a bunch to go in

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there and you can talk about whatever is on your heart tonight. Hello to the ladies that just

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recently joined us. So good to see you all. All right. Give me one second here.

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All right. You're going to get, you're going to be in there for eight minutes. I'll be praying

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for you all. And I'll be talking to my ladies over here on Facebook. Here you go.

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All right. Click to join. I'll be watching if, if someone ends up by themselves,

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we'll move people around. All right. I've got Selina. Mel, are you able to click to join?

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All right. Awesome. So all my ladies, hi, Sophia. Hello, Melissa, Kendra. All right. So ladies,

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feel free. You can put in the chat there. Is there something that's speaking to you out of what we've

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been talking about already tonight? Where's God telling you that like you need to just surrender

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in a new level right now? Where is he saying, maybe let go of control tonight. Just feel free

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to put that in the chat and we'll, I'll be able to speak into those and pray for you as well.

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If you're just joining us, you can come on zoom with us so that you can get into a breakout

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session. It's okay. If you're, you're just joining, there's plenty of time to go into a breakout room.

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So I'm going to pray for you guys while they're in there. Father, thank you so much

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for just this amazing night. God. Thank you. Yes, Lord. Thank you that you sent Jesus

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and Jesus. Thank you for coming. Thank you for dying on the cross for the forgiveness of our

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sins, for our healing, for our freedom. We thank you that you give us the supernatural ability to

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overcome. Thank you, Lord, that we don't have to just survive God that we can thrive. Hi, Lisa.

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Let me put you in a group. Hey, my notifications were off. So

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you could throw me back into a room. That'd be great. Oh, were you in a room already? I was.

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that's all right. You were with, um, I think I was in, Oh, shoot. I think I've been okay. Yep. Yeah.

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It's okay. I'll just, sorry about that. That's all right. It's totally fine. All right. Hi,

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Johanna. All right. I'm going to put you in a group too. Oh, hold on. Why is that acting funny?

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There we go. All right. There you go. All right. Lord, thank you so much for, uh, Jennifer says

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I've noticed I struggle with being worthy because I'm a child of God. I tend to want to earn and

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deserve his love inheritance promises. Jennifer, you're not alone. I promise so many, so many

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struggle with that. And in what it is, is that we, we have a heart, a head knowledge, excuse me,

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had knowledge up here, but our heart doesn't fully understand because we have those lies that

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are still in there and the wounds that are unhealed that say different things to us.

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the more that we heal, the more that we break free from the lies and any kind of soul ties and things

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like that, that's when we can start to overcome. And obviously replacing the lies with the truth

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is a part of that process. So we just encourage you, Jennifer, in this next week, go ahead and

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just look up a couple of scriptures on what does it mean to be the beloved, the beloved daughter of

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God, like look up some scriptures and pick out one or two that resonate for you and ask God to.

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really show you what those mean for you in this season.

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Sorry, ladies, I have to take a drink.

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so my voice is a little rough tonight.

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and just let God show you in this new season

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what he wants to say

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and how he wants to show up to you in a new way.

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So last night, Kendra, yes, it was amazing.

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because you'll start to grow and grow and grow.

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Hi, Casey, let me put you into a breakout room here.

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sometimes I still get nervous for sure,

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but you'll grow and you'll get more comfortable

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and understand what the prophetic even means.

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kind of teaching on it.

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but she did a little bit lighter on it.

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this next Sunday night.

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there might be a little bit more practice

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the souls, the spirits,

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and even the bodies of every one of us in this community

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that you would help us to hear

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what your spirit is saying to us,

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that you would help us to receive the truth

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that we are a pearl of great price,

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that we are worthy of your love, God,

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because you make us worthy.

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to receive all that you have for us.

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off of our hearts, our minds, Lord,

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even our bodies where our bodies,

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we've become kind of disassociated

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and bringing those things back together.

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from the inside out.

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that you create in us clean hearts, oh God,

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and renew steadfast spirits within us.

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like if someone were taking kind of a dusting rag,

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but it's not just dust,

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like there's dark areas in our hearts

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and God's just trying to clean that stuff out

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and he's doing it in love,

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even though sometimes it might hurt

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or feel painful in any way,

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but God is saying that it's out of his love

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that he's cleaning those places.

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if that's where you've been kind of feeling like,

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man, this is tough and I'm not sure,

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man, do I wanna do this?

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Do I wanna go through this hard, hard, hard healing work?

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I just wanna tell you, it is.

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It is, hang in there and keep going.

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God is working in ways beyond

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what you could ever ask, think, or imagine.

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and he's softening hardened stony places in your heart

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and he's making those areas soft and pliable

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to his voice, to his will and to his ways in your life.

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that he has called you through his loving kindnesses

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to repentance, to transformation.

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that you see every part of us and you love us anyways.

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He loves us anyways, ladies.

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His love is unconditional.

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It doesn't, you know, there's nothing.

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from his love, not height, nor depth, nor principality,

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nor power, nor things in the present, nor things to come.

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00:29:01.440 --> 00:29:03.600
He loves you.

451
00:29:03.600 --> 00:29:05.160
Yes, Melissa, he loves you.

452
00:29:05.160 --> 00:29:06.560
Jennifer, he loves you.

453
00:29:06.560 --> 00:29:11.560
Lauren, Kendra, let's see, Lori, I think earlier, Sophia.

454
00:29:11.920 --> 00:29:13.160
Yes, yes, yes.

455
00:29:13.520 --> 00:29:15.560
He calls you by name.

456
00:29:15.560 --> 00:29:17.120
Yes, let's see what else is he,

457
00:29:17.120 --> 00:29:18.880
what are people saying here?

458
00:29:18.880 --> 00:29:20.520
Thank you, I couldn't join live.

459
00:29:20.520 --> 00:29:21.660
Yes, that's okay.

460
00:29:22.520 --> 00:29:25.480
If you purchased it, the replay should be up,

461
00:29:26.440 --> 00:29:27.900
I would say in the next day or so.

462
00:29:27.900 --> 00:29:30.600
Our team has had so many replays we've had to work on.

463
00:29:30.600 --> 00:29:32.260
In addition, I don't know if y'all know,

464
00:29:32.260 --> 00:29:34.800
but we're doing a live challenge right now too.

465
00:29:34.800 --> 00:29:36.640
So that's kind of going on.

466
00:29:36.640 --> 00:29:39.600
And Melissa, I see you.

467
00:29:39.600 --> 00:29:40.580
I'm very dusty.

468
00:29:40.580 --> 00:29:42.960
I struggle with being worthy, mainly body image.

469
00:29:43.720 --> 00:29:44.840
Yes, me too, girl.

470
00:29:44.840 --> 00:29:46.320
I really have in the past.

471
00:29:46.320 --> 00:29:49.120
I just recently, back in November,

472
00:29:49.120 --> 00:29:53.080
did a session for another part of our community.

473
00:29:53.080 --> 00:29:55.340
We call them the phase three group

474
00:29:55.340 --> 00:29:58.760
on overcoming and breaking free from body shame.

475
00:29:58.760 --> 00:30:00.080
And so that was-

476
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:02.000
was powerful, was powerful to do that.

477
00:30:03.000 --> 00:30:06.200
And so just want you to know you're not alone and God will

478
00:30:06.200 --> 00:30:09.000
continue to speak to you in mighty ways.

479
00:30:09.000 --> 00:30:12.500
Just keep leaning into him, leaning into him in those areas

480
00:30:12.500 --> 00:30:15.000
and giving him those vulnerable places and let it meet you

481
00:30:15.000 --> 00:30:15.500
there.

482
00:30:15.700 --> 00:30:16.600
Hi ladies.

483
00:30:16.800 --> 00:30:17.800
Welcome back.

484
00:30:19.600 --> 00:30:21.500
Everybody's almost back with us.

485
00:30:24.500 --> 00:30:25.700
Almost got everybody.

486
00:30:26.100 --> 00:30:27.800
I did something here in my zoom thing.

487
00:30:27.800 --> 00:30:29.100
I was trying to, there we go.

488
00:30:30.100 --> 00:30:31.100
It's all messed up.

489
00:30:33.900 --> 00:30:37.300
Trying to watch our ladies on zoom so they can participate.

490
00:30:37.700 --> 00:30:38.300
Oh, here we go.

491
00:30:38.300 --> 00:30:39.900
All right, exciting.

492
00:30:39.900 --> 00:30:40.700
Yes.

493
00:30:41.300 --> 00:30:42.100
All right.

494
00:30:44.200 --> 00:30:44.900
Oh, yeah.

495
00:30:45.200 --> 00:30:48.900
Yeah, that replay might be available at some point Melissa.

496
00:30:48.900 --> 00:30:50.800
I'll make sure you guys know because I do think it'll be a

497
00:30:50.800 --> 00:30:52.000
blessing for a lot of people.

498
00:30:52.000 --> 00:30:52.700
Hello.

499
00:30:52.700 --> 00:30:53.600
Welcome back.

500
00:30:53.800 --> 00:30:54.400
All right.

501
00:30:54.400 --> 00:30:57.100
So for those that are new you might not know this but when we

502
00:30:57.100 --> 00:31:01.100
come back to the party, we start sharing with the whole

503
00:31:01.100 --> 00:31:03.300
group what you shared in your private breakout.

504
00:31:03.300 --> 00:31:05.500
So and that doesn't mean like don't panic.

505
00:31:05.600 --> 00:31:10.000
Everybody doesn't have to share but I just ask for someone

506
00:31:10.000 --> 00:31:13.100
to start it off because normally once one person shares other

507
00:31:13.100 --> 00:31:15.100
people will feel led to share.

508
00:31:15.300 --> 00:31:18.300
So who wants to go first tonight and share with the whole

509
00:31:18.300 --> 00:31:18.800
group?

510
00:31:24.700 --> 00:31:26.500
I can go awesome.

511
00:31:27.000 --> 00:31:28.100
Hi, I'm Swarna.

512
00:31:28.100 --> 00:31:28.700
Nice to meet you.

513
00:31:28.700 --> 00:31:30.900
Hi, nice to meet you.

514
00:31:31.200 --> 00:31:33.600
I have some questions for you later, which I'll message on

515
00:31:33.600 --> 00:31:38.200
Facebook about phase two and all that but but I think we're

516
00:31:38.200 --> 00:31:43.400
all in this continuum of being at different places, you know

517
00:31:43.400 --> 00:31:45.400
with with the heart work.

518
00:31:45.400 --> 00:31:49.200
So in our group, we feel like we're all kind of camped out

519
00:31:49.200 --> 00:31:52.600
between three and four weeks three and four just taking our

520
00:31:52.600 --> 00:31:58.000
time digesting especially forgiveness because you know,

521
00:31:58.000 --> 00:32:00.800
obviously the other ladies are remembering things that the

522
00:32:00.800 --> 00:32:05.300
Holy Spirit shows them from childhood and and and and for

523
00:32:05.300 --> 00:32:06.100
myself.

524
00:32:06.600 --> 00:32:09.700
That's something I've been working real hard on for several

525
00:32:09.700 --> 00:32:10.200
years.

526
00:32:10.200 --> 00:32:14.500
So the Lord is faithful to remind me, you know, this is

527
00:32:14.600 --> 00:32:18.400
this person or family especially family choosing to forgive

528
00:32:18.400 --> 00:32:21.900
them choosing not to be offended which I believe are going

529
00:32:21.900 --> 00:32:26.200
to be so important in marriage thus you're married.

530
00:32:26.200 --> 00:32:31.200
So I've never been married but I'm I am sure that is I feel

531
00:32:31.200 --> 00:32:34.400
like that has been a huge area of grace for me.

532
00:32:34.400 --> 00:32:39.700
I've grown in that because the local church I go to you know

533
00:32:39.700 --> 00:32:43.800
has dealt with a lot of that for us and and it's been great

534
00:32:43.800 --> 00:32:45.000
to grow in that area.

535
00:32:45.000 --> 00:32:50.700
So I'm thankful, you know, and as Holy Spirit reminds me there's

536
00:32:50.700 --> 00:32:54.200
going to be more so I'm kind of camped out a week for right

537
00:32:54.200 --> 00:32:54.500
now.

538
00:32:54.500 --> 00:32:58.800
I'm like doing the the forgiveness paperwork, you know,

539
00:32:58.800 --> 00:33:02.500
the book and everything and so I don't know how phase two

540
00:33:02.500 --> 00:33:05.200
works into this because they sent us the link last week.

541
00:33:05.200 --> 00:33:08.000
So yeah, I'll talk about that a little bit tonight.

542
00:33:08.000 --> 00:33:10.400
I will just say just so you guys know I'm sorry for any

543
00:33:10.400 --> 00:33:11.200
confusion.

544
00:33:11.500 --> 00:33:14.600
They were moving based on the date you signed up but that

545
00:33:14.600 --> 00:33:18.500
does not mean sorry that does not mean you have to go to

546
00:33:18.500 --> 00:33:19.600
phase two right now.

547
00:33:19.700 --> 00:33:23.400
If you are not finished with phase one heartwork, you need

548
00:33:23.400 --> 00:33:26.700
to stay with me here stay with me and hang with me for as

549
00:33:26.700 --> 00:33:28.300
long as until you're done.

550
00:33:28.300 --> 00:33:33.900
So what done means is in the portal Jackie Dorman.com website

551
00:33:33.900 --> 00:33:34.500
portal.

552
00:33:34.700 --> 00:33:37.000
You guys have all of your weeks in there.

553
00:33:37.200 --> 00:33:39.100
You want to watch all of that stuff.

554
00:33:39.200 --> 00:33:42.000
You want to show up to the lives because every week you're

555
00:33:42.000 --> 00:33:44.800
watching material then we're coming live and you're going

556
00:33:44.800 --> 00:33:46.400
to have five live sessions.

557
00:33:46.400 --> 00:33:48.300
So stay all the way until you get that fifth.

558
00:33:48.300 --> 00:33:50.300
I know it seems like well, what does it matter?

559
00:33:50.300 --> 00:33:51.000
Let me just go on.

560
00:33:51.600 --> 00:33:56.100
I had ladies today that were getting freedom and it was

561
00:33:56.100 --> 00:33:58.700
stuff that you know, they've this was their fifth week.

562
00:33:58.700 --> 00:33:59.700
There was a fifth one.

563
00:33:59.900 --> 00:34:02.200
So you just never know what kind of nugget God still trying

564
00:34:02.200 --> 00:34:05.300
to give you so you stay and you show up and then you're here

565
00:34:05.300 --> 00:34:06.200
in the Facebook group.

566
00:34:06.200 --> 00:34:09.500
You're posting you're engaging and you're just letting God

567
00:34:09.500 --> 00:34:11.500
give you everything during this time.

568
00:34:11.699 --> 00:34:15.100
But then when you're all finished with your coursework,

569
00:34:15.600 --> 00:34:18.000
then there will be I have a post in there right now, but I'll

570
00:34:18.000 --> 00:34:19.699
do a refresher every week.

571
00:34:19.699 --> 00:34:22.400
I'll try to get in there and do a new one or at least tag

572
00:34:22.400 --> 00:34:24.199
you guys in the one from the previous week, but there's

573
00:34:24.199 --> 00:34:28.100
instructions on how to join that phase to you can hang on

574
00:34:28.100 --> 00:34:30.900
to that email if you'd like and you can do that at that

575
00:34:30.900 --> 00:34:32.900
time, but great question.

576
00:34:32.900 --> 00:34:36.300
Yeah, and part of the the reason we've shifted a lot is

577
00:34:36.300 --> 00:34:40.500
because we always literally had to wait and we would get

578
00:34:40.500 --> 00:34:42.500
these big groups of people and then we would start and have

579
00:34:42.500 --> 00:34:44.100
and then we'd have all these people waiting.

580
00:34:44.300 --> 00:34:47.000
And so this way people can come in and they can go at their

581
00:34:47.000 --> 00:34:49.400
own pace and then they can go on to the next phase at their

582
00:34:49.400 --> 00:34:52.199
own pace. So don't get into FOMO.

583
00:34:52.800 --> 00:34:55.100
Don't give in you're not missing out.

584
00:34:55.100 --> 00:34:59.600
God has you right where you need to be right now and there

585
00:34:59.600 --> 00:34:59.900
will be

586
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.900
things you all and this is why it's so important to not and not that you were Swarma, but this

587
00:35:04.900 --> 00:35:09.380
just came up in my spirit. So I just that's why I'm going here. So bear with me, but like

588
00:35:09.380 --> 00:35:17.300
there are times that when FOMO is happening, if we will also understand that where we're

589
00:35:17.300 --> 00:35:24.420
at, excuse me, what is FOMO? Oh, fear of missing out. You're afraid of missing out. Yeah. Afraid

590
00:35:24.420 --> 00:35:28.140
of missing out when you start hearing, I have a lady going, this is happening to her right

591
00:35:28.140 --> 00:35:32.260
now in phase two, cause she didn't move to phase three when other people did. And so

592
00:35:32.260 --> 00:35:36.460
now phase three, they're talking about what's going on over there. So this fear of missing

593
00:35:36.460 --> 00:35:44.900
out it's happening. I'm sorry, y'all. I didn't even think about that. But when God is continuing

594
00:35:44.900 --> 00:35:50.900
to pour into us as leaders, and I think I did some pretty great stuff before, but the

595
00:35:50.900 --> 00:35:55.780
more I'm growing and healing and healing and healing, and God is imparting more, you all

596
00:35:55.780 --> 00:36:00.700
are getting a totally different Bethany than two years ago when I taught and led, right?

597
00:36:00.700 --> 00:36:05.260
So you just, you're here at this appointed time. And that applies for Jackie that applies

598
00:36:05.260 --> 00:36:12.940
for other coaches as well, whoever it is that's leading and facilitating, but you're here

599
00:36:12.940 --> 00:36:18.740
at this appointed time because God has something to impart to you that we have at this time.

600
00:36:18.740 --> 00:36:24.020
We might not have had it before. Okay. So on that note, just know, yeah, you're going

601
00:36:24.020 --> 00:36:28.380
to be here. Enjoy the ride. When you guys are leaning in, just know you don't have to

602
00:36:28.380 --> 00:36:33.900
stay in forgiveness forever. Don't, don't camp out there for a week. Like when I'm saying

603
00:36:33.900 --> 00:36:39.740
if you need to take two weeks or so, great, that's fine. But when you get into three and

604
00:36:39.740 --> 00:36:47.140
four long weeks of just constant forgiveness prayers, you all, that can be a lot. That's

605
00:36:47.140 --> 00:36:54.380
way a little too long there. And this is why forgiveness is an ongoing process. Healing

606
00:36:54.380 --> 00:37:00.220
is an ongoing process. So I don't want you guys to feel like you have to like stay here

607
00:37:00.220 --> 00:37:06.500
or that you're not able to move forward. You're going to continue to heal as you go. Okay.

608
00:37:06.500 --> 00:37:12.420
So did I answer the questions and anything there?

609
00:37:12.420 --> 00:37:20.220
So my question is regarding the, the Monday night session will be like next week. There's

610
00:37:20.220 --> 00:37:26.780
no FOMO here. I'm just asking like week six. So you'll still be the leader. We just do

611
00:37:26.780 --> 00:37:33.260
the link, the link that's on the Facebook page for, for this session. I can still continue

612
00:37:33.260 --> 00:37:40.620
with that. Yep. Yep. So I'll yeah. So if you are just now in week four, even if you've

613
00:37:40.620 --> 00:37:45.220
come to six live sessions, that doesn't matter. It's more based off of your course and where

614
00:37:45.220 --> 00:37:50.700
you're at in your course. Does that make sense? So you can, yeah. So it'll be a different

615
00:37:50.700 --> 00:37:58.460
person next week. Another I'll be here either myself or Jackie. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Yeah.

616
00:37:58.460 --> 00:38:03.300
I have two coaches that help in the group and that and Jennifer. So there'll be responding

617
00:38:03.300 --> 00:38:07.820
to you guys in the group. Sometimes Jennifer's able to come live with us. Sometimes she's

618
00:38:07.820 --> 00:38:14.460
not just depends on their jobs, but yeah, every Monday night I'm here Mondays at one

619
00:38:14.460 --> 00:38:20.620
we're here Mondays at 8 PM Eastern. And that is the time for your live sessions for phase

620
00:38:20.620 --> 00:38:26.220
one. All right. Awesome. Great questions. Yeah. And I didn't, I didn't necessarily think

621
00:38:26.220 --> 00:38:30.860
you had FOMO, but it just came up in my spirit. So maybe someone else was struggling with

622
00:38:30.860 --> 00:38:37.180
that. All right. Who else wants to share or, or has something that God put on your heart

623
00:38:37.340 --> 00:38:45.020
to share with everyone? I'll share. So I actually got in a room with my friend, Amanda and I

624
00:38:45.020 --> 00:38:48.380
are doing this and we didn't know that we were both going to be on. So we were in the

625
00:38:48.380 --> 00:38:54.380
same room. So that was kind of fun. It's fun. Yeah. And so I just shared with, so last year

626
00:38:54.380 --> 00:39:00.300
I was in Mexico for 10 months for a missions trip teaching English. And so part of that

627
00:39:00.300 --> 00:39:05.740
control thing, I said, I really always wanted to be in control, but then I went to a country

628
00:39:05.740 --> 00:39:10.860
where I didn't know the language, basically didn't know anything. And so I really had

629
00:39:10.860 --> 00:39:16.460
to let all of that go. And so now coming back, there's still some things I try to be in control,

630
00:39:16.460 --> 00:39:21.340
but I feel like I've gotten better or even with just letting people help to, you know,

631
00:39:21.340 --> 00:39:25.340
like you said, they're just wanting to help. And so I feel like when we don't let others

632
00:39:25.340 --> 00:39:31.180
help, we're taking away a blessing. And so and then one of the things that Amanda and

633
00:39:31.180 --> 00:39:36.140
I talked about was just that completely surrendering. We talked about how we'll

634
00:39:36.140 --> 00:39:41.740
give it to God, but then we take it back and just the struggle of just leaving it there

635
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and completely surrendering. So yeah. That was so good. Thank you for sharing.

636
00:39:47.180 --> 00:39:51.500
When you were talking about the Mexico and you were being in a, you were in a country

637
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that you didn't have the knowledge of the language. And so you had to surrender.

638
00:39:55.660 --> 00:40:00.300
What came up in my spirit was that you all

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Oh, learning, I'm so sorry.

640
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Bear with me, you all.

641
00:40:04.720 --> 00:40:07.400
Learning the language of the Father

642
00:40:07.400 --> 00:40:11.520
is like being in a new country, you all, sometimes.

643
00:40:11.520 --> 00:40:14.680
If you think about it, the heavenly language,

644
00:40:14.680 --> 00:40:17.760
like the way God speaks, the way God thinks,

645
00:40:17.760 --> 00:40:21.160
even some of you all had some ladies sharing in the chat,

646
00:40:21.160 --> 00:40:23.520
you know, just really being on that prophesy your year

647
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and you're learning something new

648
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and you're being stretched and all these things,

649
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like even learning and knowing truly

650
00:40:29.640 --> 00:40:31.160
what is the Father's love?

651
00:40:31.160 --> 00:40:32.040
What does it look like?

652
00:40:32.040 --> 00:40:32.920
What does it feel like?

653
00:40:32.920 --> 00:40:35.040
What does it sound like?

654
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It can be like you're in another country, in a sense.

655
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And it's like completely surrendering

656
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to learning the new language.

657
00:40:44.800 --> 00:40:46.520
I just, as soon as you said it, I was like,

658
00:40:46.520 --> 00:40:47.640
whoa, that's really good.

659
00:40:47.640 --> 00:40:50.280
Man, that could really preach, truly.

660
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But like, we're learning a new love language, we are.

661
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And the Father's love language,

662
00:40:55.360 --> 00:40:58.880
in His mark of your view, is beautiful daughter,

663
00:40:58.880 --> 00:41:02.680
it's beloved, dear one, all that kind of language.

664
00:41:02.680 --> 00:41:05.880
That is how He speaks over us.

665
00:41:05.880 --> 00:41:09.000
The Bible declares that He dances over us,

666
00:41:09.000 --> 00:41:11.200
rejoices over us with singing.

667
00:41:12.640 --> 00:41:15.800
That is the God that we serve.

668
00:41:15.800 --> 00:41:17.480
Thank you for sharing, Sarah.

669
00:41:17.480 --> 00:41:19.320
I'm probably gonna switch up breakouts though,

670
00:41:19.320 --> 00:41:21.720
now that I know that you all, it's not a bad thing,

671
00:41:21.720 --> 00:41:25.040
but that way you get someone new in your group there too.

672
00:41:25.920 --> 00:41:27.720
All right, who else wants to share?

673
00:41:28.920 --> 00:41:29.840
Who else?

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00:41:36.400 --> 00:41:37.440
Selena, you can go.

675
00:41:45.680 --> 00:41:47.040
Selena, do you wanna share?

676
00:41:52.000 --> 00:41:52.840
Okay.

677
00:41:52.840 --> 00:41:54.840
Does someone else have anything you wanna share

678
00:41:54.840 --> 00:41:57.040
before we start going on?

679
00:41:58.040 --> 00:41:58.880
Oh, sorry.

680
00:42:00.240 --> 00:42:01.720
I saw Shannon put her hand up

681
00:42:01.720 --> 00:42:04.960
and I thought it was Shannon talking.

682
00:42:04.960 --> 00:42:06.600
Shannon can go and then Michelle.

683
00:42:09.360 --> 00:42:10.200
All right.

684
00:42:10.200 --> 00:42:14.160
So I actually posted this in the Facebook group this week,

685
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but the big thing for me,

686
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I feel like for me,

687
00:42:17.200 --> 00:42:20.120
like the perfectionism and the control go hand in hand

688
00:42:20.120 --> 00:42:23.280
and kind of have similar roots.

689
00:42:24.280 --> 00:42:25.680
But like for me,

690
00:42:25.680 --> 00:42:29.920
I really identified with having a really hard time

691
00:42:29.920 --> 00:42:32.880
letting people serve me and help me.

692
00:42:32.880 --> 00:42:37.320
And like I'm 44 and I've never been married,

693
00:42:37.320 --> 00:42:40.120
so I'm just used to doing it all myself all the time.

694
00:42:40.120 --> 00:42:43.320
And so I thought that that was just the main reason.

695
00:42:43.320 --> 00:42:48.320
And then I was finishing the week five content this week

696
00:42:48.400 --> 00:42:50.720
and there was a chapter that talked about

697
00:42:50.720 --> 00:42:53.040
like things from birth,

698
00:42:53.720 --> 00:42:54.920
like being a mistake or whatever.

699
00:42:54.920 --> 00:42:58.920
And my parents were 19 when I was born,

700
00:42:58.920 --> 00:42:59.760
they weren't married.

701
00:42:59.760 --> 00:43:02.680
My mom had to drop out of college, move back home.

702
00:43:02.680 --> 00:43:04.680
Her parents wanted to give me up for adoption.

703
00:43:04.680 --> 00:43:06.520
Like it was this whole tough thing.

704
00:43:06.520 --> 00:43:08.760
And so like she chose to keep me

705
00:43:08.760 --> 00:43:10.600
and my parents ended up getting married,

706
00:43:10.600 --> 00:43:12.800
but it was always really rough growing up

707
00:43:12.800 --> 00:43:14.480
because neither of them could go to college

708
00:43:14.480 --> 00:43:16.400
and finances were always tight.

709
00:43:16.400 --> 00:43:20.000
And so I know that I was chosen and wanted,

710
00:43:20.000 --> 00:43:22.600
but as I was going through that content,

711
00:43:23.120 --> 00:43:23.960
like for the first time,

712
00:43:23.960 --> 00:43:25.800
God really connected the dots with me

713
00:43:25.800 --> 00:43:30.800
that control comes from not wanting to feel

714
00:43:31.280 --> 00:43:32.920
like a burden to other people

715
00:43:32.920 --> 00:43:36.000
and not wanting to make people be put out

716
00:43:36.000 --> 00:43:36.960
in order to help me.

717
00:43:36.960 --> 00:43:40.800
And that went back to the circumstances of my birth

718
00:43:40.800 --> 00:43:43.360
and just knowing that I was chosen and wanted,

719
00:43:43.360 --> 00:43:44.760
but I still felt like a burden

720
00:43:44.760 --> 00:43:48.680
because of the inconvenience that it caused my mom.

721
00:43:48.680 --> 00:43:51.200
Or, you know, so God's just really been like,

722
00:43:51.400 --> 00:43:52.880
taking me back to that this week

723
00:43:52.880 --> 00:43:56.320
and speaking to that, speaking to me about that.

724
00:43:58.000 --> 00:44:00.600
So that's been pretty huge for me this week,

725
00:44:00.600 --> 00:44:03.240
but something else connected to that.

726
00:44:03.240 --> 00:44:05.640
At one point I had just had a rough year,

727
00:44:05.640 --> 00:44:08.160
like with my health, I had a planned surgery

728
00:44:08.160 --> 00:44:10.960
and then like two unexpected emergency surgeries

729
00:44:10.960 --> 00:44:12.400
within a couple months of each other.

730
00:44:12.400 --> 00:44:14.880
And so I needed a lot of help.

731
00:44:14.880 --> 00:44:17.600
And at one point my aunt was like,

732
00:44:17.600 --> 00:44:19.200
you're being a blessing blocker.

733
00:44:19.200 --> 00:44:20.880
And I was like, what?

734
00:44:21.680 --> 00:44:24.520
You are robbing someone of the joy and opportunity

735
00:44:24.520 --> 00:44:27.080
of being a blessing to you by not accepting help.

736
00:44:27.080 --> 00:44:29.760
And I was like, oh my gosh,

737
00:44:29.760 --> 00:44:31.160
that just hit me really hard.

738
00:44:31.160 --> 00:44:33.280
Like, dang, she's so right.

739
00:44:33.280 --> 00:44:35.320
I'm like, I need to work on this.

740
00:44:36.320 --> 00:44:38.640
So yeah, so it's just been, that's really,

741
00:44:38.640 --> 00:44:40.120
God has already been highlighting

742
00:44:40.120 --> 00:44:41.760
that to me this week anyway.

743
00:44:41.760 --> 00:44:43.640
And so, yeah.

744
00:44:45.440 --> 00:44:46.520
So good.

745
00:44:46.520 --> 00:44:48.320
All right, I'm gonna issue all,

746
00:44:48.320 --> 00:44:51.680
issue you all an activation for this week.

747
00:44:51.680 --> 00:44:52.760
This is when it's coming in.

748
00:44:52.760 --> 00:44:54.080
I gave it to the group this morning too,

749
00:44:54.080 --> 00:44:55.320
and it just came up.

750
00:44:55.320 --> 00:44:57.600
God totally brought it up again tonight.

751
00:44:57.600 --> 00:44:59.360
All right, this is the assignment.

752
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.200
this week and in the weeks ahead so this don't just stop this week just keep going okay so we

753
00:45:05.200 --> 00:45:11.760
activate you now and you just keep doing this i want you guys to anytime anybody offers to help

754
00:45:11.760 --> 00:45:20.720
you yes thank you so much if it's somebody opening a door if it's somebody um offering to give you

755
00:45:20.720 --> 00:45:28.560
money if it's someone who's just hey can i pray for you whatever it is do you want to borrow

756
00:45:28.560 --> 00:45:33.680
something do you need a cup of sugar some of you guys that might be your little thing where you're

757
00:45:33.680 --> 00:45:38.720
working on something in the kitchen and you're like shoot i'm out of that and god's gonna be

758
00:45:38.720 --> 00:45:46.800
like go ask your neighbor and you're gonna have to go over and actually ask for help so some of

759
00:45:46.800 --> 00:45:51.200
you it's just practicing getting out there and others god is gonna nudge you to ask for it

760
00:45:52.160 --> 00:45:59.280
and just be surprised like i mean seriously be open for surprises because it's fun and for those

761
00:45:59.280 --> 00:46:04.160
of you that are dreading it right now i want you to know like god's gonna really teach you how fun

762
00:46:04.160 --> 00:46:14.320
it can be to let people help you seriously um we had um a lady post in phase three tonight after

763
00:46:14.320 --> 00:46:19.120
last night's prophesy your year god there was a word that was given to her that she was supposed

764
00:46:19.120 --> 00:46:24.880
to help someone of the opposite sex and she she even said this morning i thought how am i gonna do

765
00:46:24.880 --> 00:46:30.640
that i don't even have that many guys in my life she was she lives in new york walking down the

766
00:46:30.640 --> 00:46:39.040
street she finds a wallet guess what it's for a guy and she's like in the old days i would have

767
00:46:39.040 --> 00:46:44.240
taken the money out and thrown it away you're in new york you just keep going and uh she said but

768
00:46:44.240 --> 00:46:49.280
god nudged her to look at the actual address to look it up and it wasn't that far from her work

769
00:46:49.280 --> 00:46:55.600
y'all this is such a cool story so she says that um you know she decides to get a friend and go

770
00:46:55.600 --> 00:47:00.480
there to take this wallet because here's this word that god had given her just last night

771
00:47:02.000 --> 00:47:06.480
and she's got this wallet and they go and at first it doesn't seem like it's gonna work out

772
00:47:06.480 --> 00:47:10.880
nobody's answering the door and then they go and knock on another door and god kind of just

773
00:47:10.880 --> 00:47:16.960
whispered to her go back down and knock again basically there's a more there's a longer story

774
00:47:16.960 --> 00:47:23.200
but go back down and knock again so she does a woman answers kind of hesitant and then she tells

775
00:47:23.200 --> 00:47:30.000
the woman why she's there and why she's asking for this man and the woman like starts like

776
00:47:30.000 --> 00:47:36.720
excitingly screaming oh my god oh my god oh my god he's going on a trip this week and he needs his id

777
00:47:36.720 --> 00:47:44.480
and his cards and had that wallet not gotten returned to him y'all he might not have been

778
00:47:44.480 --> 00:47:48.560
able to go on that trip or he would have had to really go through the ringer to get that stuff

779
00:47:48.560 --> 00:47:54.960
super quick this week so i just want to share that because here you know god was using her

780
00:47:55.680 --> 00:48:01.280
to bless someone a man ended up being someone she would never probably have met and she didn't even

781
00:48:01.360 --> 00:48:07.360
meet him tonight she met the person you know that he lives with but it's it's like god is giving us

782
00:48:07.360 --> 00:48:13.360
these opportunities for something new and it's adventure and sometimes it comes packaged like

783
00:48:13.360 --> 00:48:18.000
that do you see what i'm saying but even for you all it might it might just be something simple

784
00:48:18.000 --> 00:48:23.680
that god will nudge you to do all right so there's that part and then i want to circle back

785
00:48:24.400 --> 00:48:32.240
to something when shannon was talking when she was talking about the inconvenience part

786
00:48:32.240 --> 00:48:38.560
and being feeling like a burden over the years and really battling that i heard the word identity

787
00:48:39.360 --> 00:48:46.640
and then i heard the word marked and marked in the sense that the enemy tried to mark you

788
00:48:47.200 --> 00:48:53.840
as a burden but that is not god's declaration over you you are a blessing

789
00:48:55.760 --> 00:49:02.720
you're a blessing shannon i encourage you and anyone else that this is resonating with to look

790
00:49:02.720 --> 00:49:11.040
yourself in the mirror and say shannon you're a blessing and sometimes that might be really hard

791
00:49:11.040 --> 00:49:16.240
and other times it might feel really easy even if you cry i want you to press through that and

792
00:49:16.240 --> 00:49:22.640
keep telling yourself that that is who you are that is who you are you know and even just

793
00:49:22.640 --> 00:49:28.480
meditating on who has god called you to be who does he say you are you know god in the bible

794
00:49:28.480 --> 00:49:34.640
all the time he changed people's names why why do you think he did that because if their name

795
00:49:34.640 --> 00:49:43.680
did not truly define them based on his identity for them they needed a new name a name that would

796
00:49:43.680 --> 00:49:49.520
align with the identity and purpose of heaven for their lives so some of you all are going to get

797
00:49:49.520 --> 00:49:57.040
some new names in the spirit these next several weeks as well you don't inconvenience god shannon

798
00:49:57.040 --> 00:49:59.920
or anyone god told me to say that directly to you

799
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.800
you. God is saying you don't inconvenience me either. You

800
00:50:03.800 --> 00:50:06.480
didn't inconvenience your parents, and you're not

801
00:50:06.480 --> 00:50:10.880
inconveniencing God. So I'm saying that to all of you. He

802
00:50:10.880 --> 00:50:14.480
loves us. He wants to hear from us. We're not an inconvenience

803
00:50:14.480 --> 00:50:19.640
to him. Okay. All right. Awesome. Michelle, do you still

804
00:50:19.640 --> 00:50:20.320
want to share?

805
00:50:30.160 --> 00:50:31.760
I don't have to, you can go on.

806
00:50:33.680 --> 00:50:38.640
Okay. All right, I can keep going. All right. So as we

807
00:50:38.640 --> 00:50:43.200
start to track, I want to touch on something real quick. Because

808
00:50:43.200 --> 00:50:45.840
I've noticed that some of the ladies that have even been in

809
00:50:45.840 --> 00:50:48.880
here for a little while, I'm not even sure if you guys know

810
00:50:48.880 --> 00:50:51.320
about the Jesus Cares Board yet. So I felt like it was really

811
00:50:51.320 --> 00:50:54.040
important to touch on that tonight. It will be in your

812
00:50:54.040 --> 00:50:56.840
course materials. If you have not heard about it yet, you

813
00:50:56.840 --> 00:50:59.520
will, but I'm going to kind of talk to you briefly about it

814
00:50:59.520 --> 00:51:03.880
tonight. Number one, a Jesus Cares Board is not a vision

815
00:51:03.880 --> 00:51:06.840
board. Okay, I love vision boards. Y'all, the more you get

816
00:51:06.840 --> 00:51:10.720
to know me, I do vision boards every year. But your Jesus Cares

817
00:51:10.720 --> 00:51:15.440
Board is not a vision board. It's totally separate. Okay, I'm

818
00:51:15.440 --> 00:51:17.840
going to show you a picture, a couple pictures, and I'm going

819
00:51:17.840 --> 00:51:24.200
to talk you through it. If I can find my right. I have too many

820
00:51:24.200 --> 00:51:28.280
things open. Here we go. Y'all are going to see yourself.

821
00:51:29.240 --> 00:51:33.040
I have the double screen open right now. All right, here we

822
00:51:33.040 --> 00:51:39.840
go. All right. So this is an example. And I love this one

823
00:51:39.840 --> 00:51:44.520
because she did not have a board at the time. And one of the

824
00:51:44.520 --> 00:51:47.440
things I want to emphasize is even if you don't have a poster

825
00:51:47.440 --> 00:51:50.280
board, if you don't have a bulletin board, you can use a

826
00:51:50.280 --> 00:51:54.280
wall in your house, she used a cupboard, it works just fine,

827
00:51:54.280 --> 00:51:57.920
and it will have the same effectiveness. Okay. But here's

828
00:51:57.960 --> 00:52:02.480
what she did. It's about casting your cares on Jesus. So what are

829
00:52:02.480 --> 00:52:05.920
your worries, your concerns, your cares, things that burden

830
00:52:05.920 --> 00:52:09.480
you, and they weigh you down. I mean, Shannon, it could even be

831
00:52:09.480 --> 00:52:11.880
that thing that you just shared about believing that you're

832
00:52:11.880 --> 00:52:14.720
burning, you could say, I'm not a burden anymore, I'm casting

833
00:52:14.720 --> 00:52:18.160
that care on the Lord. Again, just giving you all examples. It

834
00:52:18.160 --> 00:52:20.400
could be someone in your family that's not saved. I mean,

835
00:52:20.400 --> 00:52:24.960
there's still your car needs fixed, whatever your need is,

836
00:52:24.960 --> 00:52:29.480
okay. And you cast those cares, it's a literal activation

837
00:52:29.480 --> 00:52:34.000
saying, I am not going to carry this on myself anymore. And I

838
00:52:34.000 --> 00:52:39.360
cannot do it on my own. Jesus, I need you to supernaturally take

839
00:52:39.360 --> 00:52:42.200
care of this thing. And as you're doing it, you're putting

840
00:52:42.200 --> 00:52:46.600
that thing on your board. And you're saying, I trust you to

841
00:52:46.600 --> 00:52:50.360
supernaturally work in that situation. Okay. And then you go

842
00:52:50.360 --> 00:52:52.840
back and you pray over them, but you don't take them back off the

843
00:52:52.840 --> 00:52:55.720
board. You keep them on the board. The only time you take

844
00:52:55.720 --> 00:52:58.960
them off the board, you all guess when, when they're

845
00:52:58.960 --> 00:53:01.840
answered, when they're answered, do you all see what she did up

846
00:53:01.840 --> 00:53:05.480
here? She has the answer prayers. And this is all stuff

847
00:53:05.480 --> 00:53:08.600
that God answered just during her time and heartwork you all

848
00:53:09.760 --> 00:53:12.640
from the time she started heartwork to the time she

849
00:53:12.640 --> 00:53:16.760
finished, God had already answered in six of those things.

850
00:53:17.680 --> 00:53:21.000
Okay. Might not be the same for everybody, but I just want you

851
00:53:21.000 --> 00:53:23.960
guys to know it is possible. Okay. Let me show you another

852
00:53:23.960 --> 00:53:29.720
one. Here's one, she has a board. Okay. So she's got a

853
00:53:29.720 --> 00:53:32.160
board. She's a little bit more organized. It doesn't matter how

854
00:53:32.160 --> 00:53:35.640
you guys do it. You can do it with different colors, different

855
00:53:35.640 --> 00:53:39.280
shapes, whatever. And then I'm going to show you one more. Come

856
00:53:39.280 --> 00:53:44.800
on, keep going. Yeah, that one's here's the one I want to show

857
00:53:44.800 --> 00:53:48.240
you. All right. And it doesn't mean that I like have any

858
00:53:48.240 --> 00:53:50.640
preference role. Everybody did great. But these were the ones

859
00:53:50.640 --> 00:53:54.320
that kind of just real quick stood out to me today. She's got

860
00:53:54.320 --> 00:53:57.720
some different colors, but she also chose some images, you

861
00:53:57.720 --> 00:54:01.840
know, so this person in particular was struggling with

862
00:54:01.840 --> 00:54:06.120
feeling very, very low hope when they came into the program. And

863
00:54:06.120 --> 00:54:10.480
so she was casting her care regarding her hope and that

864
00:54:10.480 --> 00:54:14.400
area. So God's been working in all that stuff. Okay. So, and

865
00:54:14.400 --> 00:54:17.520
this is just one of those push pin ones. So you can do it like

866
00:54:17.520 --> 00:54:22.080
that. All right. Does anyone have questions about the Jesus

867
00:54:22.080 --> 00:54:30.080
cares board? Everyone good. All right. So what I want is as you

868
00:54:30.080 --> 00:54:33.000
start to work on them, and you get your Jesus cares board

869
00:54:33.000 --> 00:54:36.080
going, it doesn't even have to be all the way finished. If you

870
00:54:36.080 --> 00:54:38.040
want to wait and get it finished. Great, that's fine.

871
00:54:38.240 --> 00:54:43.040
But I want you to post them in the group. I want you to show

872
00:54:43.040 --> 00:54:46.400
us what are your cares again, this is about being in community

873
00:54:46.400 --> 00:54:50.360
and connecting and going through this together. You can

874
00:54:50.360 --> 00:54:53.840
do the board in phase two as well. But typically we have

875
00:54:53.840 --> 00:54:59.440
everybody share their board in phase one, just right now. Okay.

876
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.920
Um, we do, we do other stuff in, in the other phases, but we will still, like,

877
00:55:04.920 --> 00:55:08.460
I still have my Jesus cares board and the Holy spirit has been talking

878
00:55:08.460 --> 00:55:12.040
to me about updating mine, just being honest, I've been super busy.

879
00:55:12.040 --> 00:55:15.060
You all, but I need to go back and revisit that board.

880
00:55:15.060 --> 00:55:18.360
And I need to, I need to take some things that have been answered.

881
00:55:18.360 --> 00:55:22.300
You guys, my board still has stuff about my spirit mate on it.

882
00:55:22.320 --> 00:55:26.020
Well, I've had my spirit mate a year and four months and we're

883
00:55:26.020 --> 00:55:27.180
officially married that long.

884
00:55:27.360 --> 00:55:29.020
So I can go and take those things off.

885
00:55:29.020 --> 00:55:29.260
Right.

886
00:55:29.260 --> 00:55:33.020
And I can update that because I have some other areas that we need God to work.

887
00:55:33.060 --> 00:55:36.260
We're, we're trying to get pregnant and all of the things.

888
00:55:36.480 --> 00:55:37.980
So I can put that on our board.

889
00:55:38.020 --> 00:55:38.340
Right.

890
00:55:38.700 --> 00:55:41.580
So that's how you use that board over time.

891
00:55:41.760 --> 00:55:43.220
You let it become a part.

892
00:55:43.260 --> 00:55:46.620
Don't, don't get so busy like me that you let it get so far behind.

893
00:55:46.780 --> 00:55:47.140
Okay.

894
00:55:47.620 --> 00:55:48.220
All right.

895
00:55:48.900 --> 00:55:51.620
Last thing I want to talk about, I just want to make sure you guys

896
00:55:51.740 --> 00:55:53.420
heard about the Jesus cares board.

897
00:55:53.420 --> 00:55:54.500
There's a couple of things.

898
00:55:55.340 --> 00:56:01.460
I wanted to bring up tonight when we were talking earlier about the letting

899
00:56:01.460 --> 00:56:05.180
people help us, one of the things that came up earlier, I almost forgot to

900
00:56:05.180 --> 00:56:11.660
mention it in today's session, why don't we want to depend on other people?

901
00:56:12.860 --> 00:56:19.500
Why don't we, anyone have a guess there's no wrong answer.

902
00:56:20.140 --> 00:56:22.540
We're prideful and hurts our pride.

903
00:56:23.660 --> 00:56:24.380
It does.

904
00:56:24.620 --> 00:56:25.180
It does.

905
00:56:25.540 --> 00:56:33.540
But even under that, if you, you kind of like started saying it, so go ahead.

906
00:56:33.580 --> 00:56:34.380
Who was going to say something?

907
00:56:34.940 --> 00:56:35.500
Sorry, it was me.

908
00:56:35.500 --> 00:56:41.180
I was going to say maybe being let down in the past, disappointed, all of those

909
00:56:41.180 --> 00:56:41.780
work together.

910
00:56:41.780 --> 00:56:46.260
So do you know that pride is often that surfaces because underneath it,

911
00:56:46.260 --> 00:56:49.620
we're hurt a lot of the time, ego and pride, they kind of go together.

912
00:56:49.620 --> 00:56:54.500
Well, typically ego and pride, they get puffed up a lot when we get hurt.

913
00:56:54.900 --> 00:56:59.420
And so we build this like kind of tough exterior because we're defending

914
00:56:59.420 --> 00:57:00.820
that stuff underneath of there.

915
00:57:01.020 --> 00:57:04.140
And there are other reasons for pride and ego, but that is one of the reasons

916
00:57:04.140 --> 00:57:08.340
people really end up struggling with a lot of that stuff, but yeah, we don't

917
00:57:08.340 --> 00:57:09.660
want to be disappointed.

918
00:57:10.020 --> 00:57:11.340
You all it is.

919
00:57:11.340 --> 00:57:15.900
It's so hard when we get let down by other people, when we put our hearts

920
00:57:15.900 --> 00:57:21.860
into something and we take a risk and they make mistakes or it doesn't go the

921
00:57:21.860 --> 00:57:23.100
way we thought it would.

922
00:57:23.140 --> 00:57:23.540
Right.

923
00:57:23.540 --> 00:57:25.380
Then this isn't just romantic relationships.

924
00:57:25.380 --> 00:57:26.460
This is friendships.

925
00:57:26.460 --> 00:57:27.620
This is family.

926
00:57:27.820 --> 00:57:28.780
This is community.

927
00:57:28.780 --> 00:57:29.660
This is church.

928
00:57:29.660 --> 00:57:31.940
I mean, this is life, right?

929
00:57:32.740 --> 00:57:33.180
All right.

930
00:57:33.180 --> 00:57:40.020
So with that being said, I'm going to go ahead and move on to the next

931
00:57:40.100 --> 00:57:40.420
slide.

932
00:57:40.420 --> 00:57:44.820
The Lord doesn't want you to be afraid of disappointment.

933
00:57:46.220 --> 00:57:49.060
Fear is false evidence appearing real.

934
00:57:49.700 --> 00:57:50.500
That's what it is.

935
00:57:51.700 --> 00:57:53.420
Fear is fueled by lies.

936
00:57:54.340 --> 00:58:00.340
So if we are leaning into fear, the Bible also declares that fear has to do with

937
00:58:00.340 --> 00:58:00.900
torment.

938
00:58:02.980 --> 00:58:03.500
I'm sorry.

939
00:58:03.740 --> 00:58:04.660
I'm choking a little bit.

940
00:58:04.900 --> 00:58:07.820
And then, um, fear has to do with torment.

941
00:58:07.900 --> 00:58:12.860
And then also the other flip side of that is it says that he who has been made

942
00:58:12.860 --> 00:58:16.140
perfect in love doesn't fear.

943
00:58:17.020 --> 00:58:18.980
So it goes back to what we started with tonight.

944
00:58:19.500 --> 00:58:27.380
Like, are we rooted in the love of the father in such a way that it, and I'm not

945
00:58:27.380 --> 00:58:32.580
saying yes, you all, we're all going to go through stuff every day, but when the

946
00:58:32.620 --> 00:58:38.500
enemy tries to bring, bring fear to the door, we're like, it's almost like love is

947
00:58:38.500 --> 00:58:40.140
a force field, right?

948
00:58:40.820 --> 00:58:41.860
Love is a force field.

949
00:58:42.020 --> 00:58:44.060
We acknowledge what's happening.

950
00:58:44.740 --> 00:58:47.860
And we, we know that sometimes there's times where we have to shift.

951
00:58:49.220 --> 00:58:51.540
We talked quite a bit earlier today about boundaries.

952
00:58:51.540 --> 00:58:57.180
Sometimes we have to shift boundaries with people because their, their love is, it's

953
00:58:57.180 --> 00:58:58.060
not just a risk.

954
00:58:58.060 --> 00:59:00.940
It's actually hurting us their version of love.

955
00:59:01.340 --> 00:59:04.820
What I'm talking about right now is people that are toxic you all, and they don't have

956
00:59:04.820 --> 00:59:09.420
an actual understanding of love and their version of love is coming from a lot of

957
00:59:09.420 --> 00:59:12.740
counterfeit identities and places that are not healed and whole.

958
00:59:13.500 --> 00:59:17.380
And that's why they call it love, but it's not, they just, they don't

959
00:59:17.380 --> 00:59:19.420
understand that it's not.

960
00:59:20.540 --> 00:59:21.020
Okay.

961
00:59:21.180 --> 00:59:22.700
That's what mental illness is.

962
00:59:23.780 --> 00:59:24.260
Okay.

963
00:59:25.740 --> 00:59:26.060
All right.

964
00:59:26.820 --> 00:59:27.140
All right.

965
00:59:27.140 --> 00:59:32.940
So on that note, I want to talk to you guys a little bit about unguarded hearts

966
00:59:32.940 --> 00:59:35.260
and what does it mean to have an unguarded heart?

967
00:59:35.260 --> 00:59:36.940
I want to read something to you real quick.

968
00:59:36.940 --> 00:59:40.140
I'm not going to do this for long, but I felt like this was important.

969
00:59:41.540 --> 00:59:42.460
It says, think about it.

970
00:59:42.860 --> 00:59:44.220
We have passwords for everything.

971
00:59:44.220 --> 00:59:48.100
Our phones, computers, our bank accounts, my husband, even this is Jackie talking.

972
00:59:48.580 --> 00:59:50.860
My husband even has passwords for his passwords.

973
00:59:50.900 --> 00:59:51.580
Don't ask.

974
00:59:52.140 --> 00:59:53.900
It's like a spy movie around here.

975
00:59:53.900 --> 00:59:56.940
When you want to log into anything, you need to use your thumbprint, scan your

976
00:59:56.940 --> 01:00:00.020
retina, I mean, God, I'm just trying to watch Netflix.

977
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.580
I love that part.

978
01:00:02.580 --> 01:00:06.980
We have locks on our doors and cars, even our locker at the gym.

979
01:00:06.980 --> 01:00:09.220
But seriously, why?

980
01:00:09.220 --> 01:00:14.340
Why are we so protective of all of these material possessions?

981
01:00:14.340 --> 01:00:18.460
Because we know the value of these things.

982
01:00:18.460 --> 01:00:25.180
When you see the value of something, you understand what boundaries or safeguards you need to put

983
01:00:25.180 --> 01:00:27.300
in place to protect it.

984
01:00:27.300 --> 01:00:33.460
We do not show the same respect for our hearts.

985
01:00:33.460 --> 01:00:37.560
So what boundaries do you guys need to put in place with some people?

986
01:00:37.560 --> 01:00:39.460
Maybe even yourself.

987
01:00:39.460 --> 01:00:42.340
Maybe you need to shift a behavior.

988
01:00:42.340 --> 01:00:45.340
And again, it's not just about stopping a behavior, ladies.

989
01:00:45.340 --> 01:00:46.340
It's not.

990
01:00:46.340 --> 01:00:51.980
It's about God transforming us on the inside in such a way that it causes our external

991
01:00:51.980 --> 01:00:54.160
behaviors to change.

992
01:00:54.160 --> 01:00:56.360
We have to invite them into those areas, though.

993
01:00:56.360 --> 01:01:04.220
So some of you, you know, you grew up not learning the value of your own being, who

994
01:01:04.220 --> 01:01:06.500
you are.

995
01:01:06.500 --> 01:01:10.060
Some of you, I'm even just hearing the Holy Spirit say, like, you were, like, picked on

996
01:01:10.060 --> 01:01:16.220
even in your own families for your laugh, for your personality.

997
01:01:16.220 --> 01:01:19.580
Maybe you asked a lot of questions.

998
01:01:19.580 --> 01:01:24.300
You know, I don't know what it was, but some of you, like, that was kind of your life growing

999
01:01:24.300 --> 01:01:25.300
up.

1000
01:01:25.300 --> 01:01:32.940
But God is speaking over you tonight, and he's saying, that was not my heart for you.

1001
01:01:32.940 --> 01:01:39.380
Like, he, his heart broke when your heart was breaking.

1002
01:01:39.380 --> 01:01:44.140
And even the times when you didn't acknowledge it to yourself, because it was too hard to

1003
01:01:44.140 --> 01:01:51.780
acknowledge that someone who should love you was actually making fun of you and putting

1004
01:01:51.780 --> 01:01:55.500
you down.

1005
01:01:55.500 --> 01:01:57.460
Hurt people hurt people, y'all.

1006
01:01:57.460 --> 01:01:58.460
They do.

1007
01:01:58.460 --> 01:02:01.260
Okay, I'm going to keep going.

1008
01:02:01.260 --> 01:02:05.540
The quality of your family can set you up for success or disaster in this life, and

1009
01:02:05.540 --> 01:02:08.380
many have experienced the latter.

1010
01:02:08.380 --> 01:02:13.380
The majority of people that read this book will have never been taught the value of themselves

1011
01:02:13.380 --> 01:02:14.780
or their hearts.

1012
01:02:14.780 --> 01:02:20.540
And to be fair, in most cases, your family didn't know the value of your heart or their

1013
01:02:20.540 --> 01:02:23.460
own either.

1014
01:02:23.460 --> 01:02:30.860
They can't teach you what they don't know themselves.

1015
01:02:30.860 --> 01:02:34.820
You all, for real, let that sink in tonight.

1016
01:02:34.820 --> 01:02:40.220
I'm not making, I'm not saying make excuses for people that are toxic and misbehave and

1017
01:02:40.220 --> 01:02:41.220
treat you badly.

1018
01:02:41.220 --> 01:02:48.420
But what I am saying is that God wants, wants to release into us compassion and empathy

1019
01:02:48.420 --> 01:02:53.660
and forgiveness and help us release it to other people.

1020
01:02:53.660 --> 01:02:58.060
So what you're going to talk about in your breakout, though, are these areas, these tender

1021
01:02:58.060 --> 01:03:01.420
areas where, yeah, I'm going to ask you to get vulnerable.

1022
01:03:01.420 --> 01:03:03.220
I am.

1023
01:03:03.220 --> 01:03:08.780
Was there anything where people made fun of you, whether it was in your family and school

1024
01:03:08.780 --> 01:03:14.740
growing up, you know, areas where you didn't get to actually be yourself?

1025
01:03:14.740 --> 01:03:18.300
So maybe people didn't make fun of you, but something was going on that it just caused

1026
01:03:19.180 --> 01:03:22.740
you to shrink down in some way and not be yourself.

1027
01:03:22.740 --> 01:03:27.260
Maybe you were shy and you were made fun of for being shy and it wasn't okay to be shy.

1028
01:03:27.260 --> 01:03:28.900
Well, that's kind of the same thing.

1029
01:03:28.900 --> 01:03:30.940
It's just the opposite side of it.

1030
01:03:30.940 --> 01:03:38.540
So whatever it was, a part of who you are was, you were told it wasn't okay to be that.

1031
01:03:38.540 --> 01:03:42.020
So that's what I want you to talk about because then we're going to come back and we're going

1032
01:03:42.020 --> 01:03:46.540
to do some coaching on that and we're going to bring some healing into this place tonight.

1033
01:03:46.780 --> 01:03:47.780
All right.

1034
01:03:47.780 --> 01:03:48.780
Sound good?

1035
01:03:48.780 --> 01:03:51.300
I hope so, because we're going to go there.

1036
01:03:51.300 --> 01:03:52.300
All right.

1037
01:03:52.300 --> 01:03:56.140
I'm going to recreate these rooms.

1038
01:03:56.140 --> 01:03:57.420
I'm excited for this, you guys.

1039
01:03:57.420 --> 01:03:58.420
I hope you are.

1040
01:03:58.420 --> 01:03:59.420
All right.

1041
01:03:59.420 --> 01:04:00.420
Here you go.

1042
01:04:00.420 --> 01:04:01.420
I'm praying for you.

1043
01:04:01.420 --> 01:04:02.420
We love you.

1044
01:04:02.420 --> 01:04:03.420
Hi there.

1045
01:04:03.420 --> 01:04:13.100
Let's see, Andrea, on Facebook and the website, yeah, you want to, the portal is where the

1046
01:04:13.100 --> 01:04:15.940
class coursework is at.

1047
01:04:16.340 --> 01:04:21.500
But the Facebook stuff has, you know, some replays and you want to post your kind of

1048
01:04:21.500 --> 01:04:24.140
your homework or thoughts in the Facebook groups.

1049
01:04:24.140 --> 01:04:25.140
All right.

1050
01:04:25.140 --> 01:04:26.140
Let's see.

1051
01:04:26.140 --> 01:04:28.140
Oh, I see.

1052
01:04:28.140 --> 01:04:30.020
Where can you find the zoom link for the call?

1053
01:04:30.020 --> 01:04:35.700
You can find the zoom link for every one of these live sessions, ladies, in your JackieDorman.com

1054
01:04:35.700 --> 01:04:40.140
website portal, as well as the guides tab in the Facebook page.

1055
01:04:40.140 --> 01:04:44.700
Kendra, thank you for helping her trying to scroll and see what else is going on in here

1056
01:04:44.780 --> 01:04:45.780
tonight.

1057
01:04:45.780 --> 01:04:46.780
All right.

1058
01:04:46.780 --> 01:04:47.780
So good.

1059
01:04:47.780 --> 01:04:48.780
Hi, Jennifer.

1060
01:04:48.780 --> 01:04:49.780
Oh, shoot.

1061
01:04:49.780 --> 01:04:50.780
Someone's asking for help.

1062
01:04:50.780 --> 01:04:57.620
Let me see what she might be in there by herself.

1063
01:04:57.620 --> 01:05:00.100
Yep, she's in there by herself.

1064
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.800
yourself. Hold on one second. I'm just talking and praying

1065
01:05:02.800 --> 01:05:13.240
away. Does everyone else have a partner? All right, cool. Good

1066
01:05:13.240 --> 01:05:20.360
to see you. Hi there. Oh, hello. This is really good. It's good

1067
01:05:20.360 --> 01:05:25.880
stuff. I'm just popping on but it's so good. You're like, good

1068
01:05:25.880 --> 01:05:28.880
wave. Keep going. It is the Lord. I'm telling you what I've

1069
01:05:28.880 --> 01:05:33.720
been battling sickness all day. And so sometimes I just, I'm

1070
01:05:33.720 --> 01:05:36.000
like, okay, Lord, like I literally was like, you got to

1071
01:05:36.000 --> 01:05:39.480
do this tonight because I didn't know if I'd be able to talk. So

1072
01:05:39.480 --> 01:05:43.160
thank you for that. So I'm curious. Is there anything you

1073
01:05:43.160 --> 01:05:45.680
feel it's okay? If not, is there anything like stirred up in you

1074
01:05:45.680 --> 01:05:48.240
that you feel like you want to share? You want me to keep

1075
01:05:48.240 --> 01:05:52.800
going? Keep going? Yeah. Okay. All right. So one of the things

1076
01:05:52.800 --> 01:05:58.280
that on that topic of, you know, when our family doesn't, their

1077
01:05:58.280 --> 01:06:01.960
own hearts aren't healed. And so therefore they do things and

1078
01:06:01.960 --> 01:06:06.560
they perpetuate behaviors and really sin cycles. And that is

1079
01:06:06.560 --> 01:06:09.680
what creates the breakdown in the family. So one of the things

1080
01:06:09.680 --> 01:06:13.600
that God's been really talking to me about is, um, redeeming

1081
01:06:13.600 --> 01:06:16.600
the timeline and that God sent me to be a kinsman redeemer in

1082
01:06:16.600 --> 01:06:20.080
my family. And that, you know, years ago, that used to feel so

1083
01:06:20.080 --> 01:06:22.360
heavy. I don't know about anybody else, but man, when I

1084
01:06:22.360 --> 01:06:26.960
heard that from the Lord many years ago, that, um, I was going

1085
01:06:26.960 --> 01:06:29.360
to be a kinsman redeemer and God was going to create, you

1086
01:06:29.360 --> 01:06:31.960
know, use me to create bridges and all these kinds of things.

1087
01:06:32.320 --> 01:06:35.480
I remember just feeling like, oh my gosh, like how, what, how am

1088
01:06:35.480 --> 01:06:38.200
I going to do that? I mean, my whole family was rejecting me

1089
01:06:38.200 --> 01:06:41.080
because I was standing up and asking them to talk about the

1090
01:06:41.080 --> 01:06:46.200
hard stuff. And so, um, all these years later, you all, and

1091
01:06:46.200 --> 01:06:49.600
for those of you that I've heard some of my journey, um, my mom

1092
01:06:49.600 --> 01:06:53.600
passed away, uh, in may of 2022, my dad has actually been in and

1093
01:06:53.600 --> 01:06:56.720
out of the hospital. I have like literally no relationship with

1094
01:06:56.720 --> 01:07:00.720
him at all. And just been praying into that even, but what

1095
01:07:00.720 --> 01:07:04.560
I want to share is that while there's been all this breakdown

1096
01:07:04.560 --> 01:07:08.880
in family because of brokenness and the toxicity, God continues

1097
01:07:08.880 --> 01:07:13.600
to stir my heart. To minister to my family and that, you know,

1098
01:07:13.600 --> 01:07:16.080
God, isn't going to ask everybody to do that. So please

1099
01:07:16.080 --> 01:07:18.880
don't, you know, people hear this and feel like, oh my gosh,

1100
01:07:18.880 --> 01:07:21.960
I'm panicked. God will lead you. If that's the way he's leading

1101
01:07:21.960 --> 01:07:25.600
you. Um, I will tell you that I believe years ago, God anointed

1102
01:07:25.600 --> 01:07:29.080
me to do this. Um, and I didn't know what it was going to look

1103
01:07:29.080 --> 01:07:31.760
like or how it was going to look, but I'll tell you this to

1104
01:07:31.760 --> 01:07:35.480
give you guys some hope. And not that I'm saying my, my brother

1105
01:07:35.480 --> 01:07:37.920
going through a divorce is something to be hopeful about,

1106
01:07:37.920 --> 01:07:41.720
but my oldest brother, he was the one who actually, I mean,

1107
01:07:41.720 --> 01:07:44.600
both my brothers sexually abused my sister and I, but he was the

1108
01:07:44.600 --> 01:07:50.080
main perpetrator if you will. And, uh, and so for years, I

1109
01:07:50.080 --> 01:07:52.040
didn't want him around me. I didn't want to talk to him and

1110
01:07:52.040 --> 01:07:55.880
it still can be very tough, but God continues to give me the

1111
01:07:55.880 --> 01:08:00.960
grace. And, um, as he was going through his divorce, God will

1112
01:08:00.960 --> 01:08:03.840
just nudge me from time to time to message him and check on him

1113
01:08:03.840 --> 01:08:09.480
to call him. And, uh, it's just, God has been opening doors and

1114
01:08:09.480 --> 01:08:12.800
doing things. And, you know, one of the things that I saw a

1115
01:08:12.800 --> 01:08:17.120
similarity in my brother, excuse me, to how I was when I got

1116
01:08:17.120 --> 01:08:22.319
married before was in his marriage, he was trapped. He

1117
01:08:22.319 --> 01:08:26.000
like, he started shrinking. He started not being like his

1118
01:08:26.000 --> 01:08:30.080
vibrant self. And so when we had our most recent chat, I just

1119
01:08:30.080 --> 01:08:33.080
started speaking into him about what do you want to do? Like you

1120
01:08:33.080 --> 01:08:35.359
can do anything. Like what, where do you want to travel?

1121
01:08:35.359 --> 01:08:38.000
What do you want to go see? And, and just trying to speak some

1122
01:08:38.000 --> 01:08:40.840
life into him and y'all, he, I messaged him the other day

1123
01:08:40.840 --> 01:08:44.399
because it was his birthday to check on him. And he's about to

1124
01:08:44.399 --> 01:08:48.240
take some dance classes, like, you know, ballroom dancing with

1125
01:08:48.240 --> 01:08:51.880
the stars kind of stuff. And I just, that blessed my heart so

1126
01:08:51.880 --> 01:08:55.240
much as much as the, you know, the enemy used him to bring a

1127
01:08:55.240 --> 01:08:59.600
lot of pain into my life. I'm happy that he is going to go

1128
01:08:59.600 --> 01:09:04.200
live his life and hopefully be happy and thrive because you

1129
01:09:04.200 --> 01:09:09.840
know, what I know is that along the way, someone hurt him too.

1130
01:09:10.840 --> 01:09:14.399
I do. I know that. And even if it wasn't abuse or whatever,

1131
01:09:14.399 --> 01:09:18.800
like along the path, you know, any kind of destruction, it

1132
01:09:18.800 --> 01:09:21.560
breeds destruction, it breeds destruction, but praise God.

1133
01:09:21.560 --> 01:09:26.319
When Jesus came, he came to make a way for us. He came to redeem

1134
01:09:26.319 --> 01:09:30.000
all that stuff. And so no matter what our past has looked like,

1135
01:09:30.000 --> 01:09:32.960
no matter what our family line has looked like, God can

1136
01:09:32.960 --> 01:09:36.479
literally turn all of that around by one person's

1137
01:09:36.760 --> 01:09:39.720
obedience. Jackie was talking on, I think the most recent

1138
01:09:39.720 --> 01:09:41.880
supernatural Saturday, and she was talking about the great

1139
01:09:41.880 --> 01:09:45.040
cloud of witnesses. And even again, it touched on it last

1140
01:09:45.040 --> 01:09:47.760
night. Somebody gave me a word on the prophesy your year. And

1141
01:09:47.760 --> 01:09:52.120
she kind of went into how, even for me, it had to do with the

1142
01:09:52.120 --> 01:09:55.120
great cloud of witnesses. And I was just like, whoa, because she

1143
01:09:55.120 --> 01:09:57.600
didn't even know that that really spoke to me on that

1144
01:09:57.600 --> 01:09:59.960
Saturday call. And so I want to encourage.

1145
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:04.560
some of you guys, like for some of you, you feel alone.

1146
01:10:04.560 --> 01:10:07.400
You feel like you're fighting this battle by yourself,

1147
01:10:07.400 --> 01:10:10.000
but the person that you loved

1148
01:10:10.000 --> 01:10:12.720
that went on to be with the Lord already, guess what?

1149
01:10:12.720 --> 01:10:14.720
They're a part of those great cloud of witnesses

1150
01:10:14.720 --> 01:10:18.000
if they were saved and they're up there interceding for you

1151
01:10:18.000 --> 01:10:20.800
and cheering us on literally,

1152
01:10:20.800 --> 01:10:24.400
they wanna see his kingdom come in us and through us too.

1153
01:10:24.400 --> 01:10:27.120
And so just sitting and thinking on that,

1154
01:10:27.120 --> 01:10:30.280
I was thinking this morning about my mom

1155
01:10:30.280 --> 01:10:34.900
and as hard as life was on this earth with her at times,

1156
01:10:34.900 --> 01:10:37.280
I feel like God continues to speak to me

1157
01:10:37.280 --> 01:10:42.280
about how he is now using my mom to usher in things

1158
01:10:44.560 --> 01:10:46.380
that things that she could never talk to me

1159
01:10:46.380 --> 01:10:47.860
about here on earth,

1160
01:10:47.860 --> 01:10:49.880
that she's trying to give me information.

1161
01:10:49.880 --> 01:10:53.040
Y'all, I've had dreams in the last couple of months,

1162
01:10:53.040 --> 01:10:54.720
multiple times, my mom in them

1163
01:10:54.720 --> 01:10:58.080
and she warns me or shows me something in the dream.

1164
01:10:58.080 --> 01:10:59.840
And so I just want you to know again,

1165
01:10:59.840 --> 01:11:02.560
God can show up however he wants to bring redemption,

1166
01:11:02.560 --> 01:11:07.080
however he wants, if we will trust him and lean into him.

1167
01:11:07.080 --> 01:11:10.040
And man, it's just, it's glorious.

1168
01:11:10.040 --> 01:11:11.120
It really, really is.

1169
01:11:11.120 --> 01:11:12.200
And I can't always say,

1170
01:11:12.200 --> 01:11:13.880
I always know what every dream means,

1171
01:11:13.880 --> 01:11:16.400
but as I lean into them and ask him,

1172
01:11:16.400 --> 01:11:19.040
just like I try to teach you all,

1173
01:11:19.040 --> 01:11:19.920
it's not always easy,

1174
01:11:19.920 --> 01:11:23.680
but we do our best to hear what the father is saying.

1175
01:11:23.680 --> 01:11:27.000
And man, he wants redemption.

1176
01:11:27.000 --> 01:11:28.280
He wants healing in families.

1177
01:11:28.280 --> 01:11:32.040
He wants life to flow into us and flow out of us.

1178
01:11:32.040 --> 01:11:34.760
And I see some of the ladies in the Facebook group too.

1179
01:11:34.760 --> 01:11:37.280
I just want you to know, I see you.

1180
01:11:37.280 --> 01:11:40.200
Sophia says, my mom always made negative comments

1181
01:11:40.200 --> 01:11:41.040
about my looks.

1182
01:11:41.040 --> 01:11:43.580
She was embarrassed to have a daughter that looked like me.

1183
01:11:43.580 --> 01:11:45.200
I'm just gonna pause there and just say,

1184
01:11:45.200 --> 01:11:46.800
I'm sorry for that.

1185
01:11:46.800 --> 01:11:48.040
I know I'm not your mom,

1186
01:11:48.040 --> 01:11:50.640
but I feel on behalf of your mother,

1187
01:11:50.640 --> 01:11:53.520
who maybe at times couldn't even apologize herself.

1188
01:11:54.360 --> 01:11:55.840
I haven't even read the whole thing.

1189
01:11:55.840 --> 01:11:56.680
Oh, wait, you say here,

1190
01:11:56.680 --> 01:11:59.080
my whole life until she passed away,

1191
01:11:59.080 --> 01:12:00.280
she said those things to me.

1192
01:12:00.280 --> 01:12:01.120
So I don't know,

1193
01:12:01.120 --> 01:12:03.240
maybe God just has me standing in the gap

1194
01:12:03.240 --> 01:12:06.680
on behalf of your mom tonight to speak over you, Sophia,

1195
01:12:06.680 --> 01:12:09.320
to say, I'm sorry.

1196
01:12:09.320 --> 01:12:12.360
I'm hearing the Lord say, baby girl, I'm sorry.

1197
01:12:12.360 --> 01:12:13.940
And so I just want to speak that over you,

1198
01:12:13.940 --> 01:12:16.580
that God is wanting to heal that relationship

1199
01:12:16.580 --> 01:12:17.420
with your mother.

1200
01:12:17.420 --> 01:12:18.560
Even though she's already in heaven,

1201
01:12:18.560 --> 01:12:21.600
God can come in and touch that relationship.

1202
01:12:21.600 --> 01:12:22.800
He can heal that.

1203
01:12:22.800 --> 01:12:24.800
Just like, I mean, I had no clue, Sophia.

1204
01:12:24.800 --> 01:12:25.700
I didn't even see your thing.

1205
01:12:25.700 --> 01:12:27.960
And here I was going on and on about God redeeming

1206
01:12:27.960 --> 01:12:29.400
this relationship with my mom,

1207
01:12:29.400 --> 01:12:30.760
and she's already in heaven,

1208
01:12:30.760 --> 01:12:33.520
and the ways that he's doing that through dreams

1209
01:12:33.520 --> 01:12:36.440
and visions and things he's been speaking to me.

1210
01:12:36.440 --> 01:12:39.260
So I believe God had your number, Sophia.

1211
01:12:39.260 --> 01:12:41.620
And he knew that you needed to hear that tonight.

1212
01:12:41.620 --> 01:12:42.760
You are beautiful.

1213
01:12:42.760 --> 01:12:44.260
You're lovely.

1214
01:12:44.260 --> 01:12:47.500
And man, they were blessed to have you as a daughter.

1215
01:12:47.500 --> 01:12:49.540
So I just come against every curse

1216
01:12:49.540 --> 01:12:51.480
that's ever been spoken out against you

1217
01:12:51.480 --> 01:12:53.920
through the words and the mouth of anyone else,

1218
01:12:53.920 --> 01:12:56.680
whether that was your mom or your family or friends.

1219
01:12:56.680 --> 01:13:00.260
And I just speak love and blessing and life to you,

1220
01:13:00.260 --> 01:13:02.040
that when you walk into the room,

1221
01:13:02.040 --> 01:13:06.260
you radiate his glory wherever you go.

1222
01:13:06.260 --> 01:13:07.320
Yes, Lord.

1223
01:13:08.360 --> 01:13:09.200
Yes, Lord.

1224
01:13:09.200 --> 01:13:11.440
Bless her, Lord, and help her to receive all of that

1225
01:13:11.440 --> 01:13:13.240
and help her to hear what your spirit's saying

1226
01:13:13.240 --> 01:13:16.040
louder than all the voices in the anime in the days ahead.

1227
01:13:16.040 --> 01:13:17.320
Hello.

1228
01:13:17.320 --> 01:13:18.480
Welcome back.

1229
01:13:19.480 --> 01:13:21.160
Every time, y'all.

1230
01:13:21.160 --> 01:13:22.400
Y'all are beautiful.

1231
01:13:22.400 --> 01:13:23.240
I love it.

1232
01:13:23.240 --> 01:13:26.520
I love, love, love seeing my ladies.

1233
01:13:26.520 --> 01:13:27.520
I do.

1234
01:13:27.520 --> 01:13:29.680
It's my favorite part of the week.

1235
01:13:29.680 --> 01:13:30.520
All right.

1236
01:13:31.600 --> 01:13:32.880
Make sure I didn't miss any questions.

1237
01:13:32.880 --> 01:13:34.040
Who is ready?

1238
01:13:34.040 --> 01:13:37.880
Who's ready to share and open up and be so vulnerable?

1239
01:13:37.880 --> 01:13:39.400
You can do it.

1240
01:13:39.400 --> 01:13:40.760
And preferably, let me do this.

1241
01:13:40.760 --> 01:13:42.940
Somebody who hasn't shared already,

1242
01:13:42.940 --> 01:13:46.400
because some of you need to just, yeah, jump in.

1243
01:13:46.400 --> 01:13:47.440
Meredith, go ahead.

1244
01:13:49.480 --> 01:13:51.600
Okay, I'll go,

1245
01:13:51.600 --> 01:13:52.520
because I usually don't talk.

1246
01:13:52.520 --> 01:13:53.920
I listen a lot.

1247
01:13:55.280 --> 01:13:58.080
You know, really, as I've been going through the last-

1248
01:14:02.360 --> 01:14:03.680
Oh, it's because she's moving.

1249
01:14:03.680 --> 01:14:04.520
I think she was walking.

1250
01:14:04.520 --> 01:14:07.360
I was telling the ladies in the group that,

1251
01:14:07.360 --> 01:14:10.920
and I thought I'd ask for forgiveness

1252
01:14:10.920 --> 01:14:12.200
for all the things that I needed to ask

1253
01:14:12.200 --> 01:14:13.360
for the people who had hurt me,

1254
01:14:13.360 --> 01:14:15.240
the people who had wronged me.

1255
01:14:15.240 --> 01:14:17.520
I started, you know, with the recent people

1256
01:14:17.520 --> 01:14:18.720
and kind of working my way back,

1257
01:14:18.720 --> 01:14:20.800
praying through each of those people.

1258
01:14:20.800 --> 01:14:23.400
And then I know you had said, go even deeper.

1259
01:14:23.400 --> 01:14:25.040
You know, who else?

1260
01:14:25.040 --> 01:14:25.880
Is there something?

1261
01:14:25.880 --> 01:14:27.880
And is there someone else that has,

1262
01:14:27.880 --> 01:14:29.200
thinking about from childhood

1263
01:14:29.200 --> 01:14:32.320
and some childhood trauma came back up

1264
01:14:32.320 --> 01:14:34.400
and things from, that's how it shaped me

1265
01:14:34.400 --> 01:14:36.160
into who I am now,

1266
01:14:36.160 --> 01:14:39.600
based on how I was perceived as a child,

1267
01:14:39.600 --> 01:14:41.360
being made fun of and what have you.

1268
01:14:41.360 --> 01:14:46.360
And so what I did is I prayed for them as my child self

1269
01:14:47.360 --> 01:14:51.040
and then as their child self,

1270
01:14:51.040 --> 01:14:52.560
and then them as adults,

1271
01:14:52.560 --> 01:14:53.600
because I still know them,

1272
01:14:53.600 --> 01:14:55.880
still interact with them in some way, shape or form now,

1273
01:14:55.880 --> 01:14:58.040
just because of Facebook and what have you,

1274
01:14:58.040 --> 01:14:59.440
you still connect with them.

1275
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:04.920
So, you know, they probably have no idea how they shaped or affected me.

1276
01:15:05.680 --> 01:15:11.480
Um, but now I still want to be the light going out regardless of how, but to have

1277
01:15:11.480 --> 01:15:17.820
that connection, um, that they really did alter the way that I had friendships.

1278
01:15:17.880 --> 01:15:20.360
Um, I want a tribe, I want girlfriends.

1279
01:15:20.840 --> 01:15:24.640
I've never really ever had them been in a sorority, been in all the things, did

1280
01:15:24.640 --> 01:15:29.820
all the things to try to get it, but I've only ever had connections with a few.

1281
01:15:29.820 --> 01:15:34.860
So it's, it's definitely been, um, quality over quantity.

1282
01:15:34.860 --> 01:15:37.500
I have a ton of connections involved in the community.

1283
01:15:37.500 --> 01:15:38.500
Know everybody.

1284
01:15:38.500 --> 01:15:45.420
My job makes me know everyone, but I wasn't, um, and I'm not just the relationship

1285
01:15:45.420 --> 01:15:47.560
to the next levels of where I want to go now.

1286
01:15:47.660 --> 01:15:50.340
So that's, that's where I'm seeing now for things.

1287
01:15:51.580 --> 01:15:52.320
This is so good.

1288
01:15:52.320 --> 01:15:53.660
Thank you so much for sharing.

1289
01:15:53.660 --> 01:15:56.180
I'm glad you jumped in and that you shared with us.

1290
01:15:56.180 --> 01:15:56.820
I love it.

1291
01:15:57.420 --> 01:15:58.380
Hey, you all.

1292
01:15:59.100 --> 01:15:59.580
I forgot.

1293
01:15:59.580 --> 01:16:03.140
I even said that to her about forgive those people when you

1294
01:16:03.140 --> 01:16:06.020
were kids at the kids, the kid level.

1295
01:16:06.660 --> 01:16:09.700
And then, yeah, you can forgive them as adults, especially if you still know

1296
01:16:09.700 --> 01:16:15.340
them, but the reality is, is that sometimes what we forget, we come in

1297
01:16:15.340 --> 01:16:18.620
and I'm not saying it's bad, but we come in as our adult selves and we're

1298
01:16:18.620 --> 01:16:20.260
like, I'm trying to forgive them.

1299
01:16:20.260 --> 01:16:22.500
I'm trying to forgive them, but really.

1300
01:16:23.100 --> 01:16:30.140
We need to go in and recognize the little Bethany or the little Leah or the little

1301
01:16:30.140 --> 01:16:36.140
Michelle who was, you know, on the playground or left out of the game or

1302
01:16:36.140 --> 01:16:41.860
picked on by her siblings or whatever, whatever it is in that little, little

1303
01:16:41.860 --> 01:16:48.180
us is the one that's hurting and needs some love and sometimes even pausing

1304
01:16:48.180 --> 01:16:54.180
us ourselves in saying, man, God, show me how I can love the inner, a little

1305
01:16:54.180 --> 01:16:56.780
Bethany got that got hurt in this situation.

1306
01:16:56.780 --> 01:16:58.340
How can I love her tonight?

1307
01:16:59.700 --> 01:17:04.380
How can I, how can I let you minister to her in that place tonight?

1308
01:17:05.180 --> 01:17:05.900
So good.

1309
01:17:05.900 --> 01:17:07.900
I love that you leaned into that and went after that.

1310
01:17:08.140 --> 01:17:08.660
I'm serious.

1311
01:17:08.660 --> 01:17:14.140
It's going to alter now and in a good way, you show up in the world.

1312
01:17:14.340 --> 01:17:18.300
One of the other things I started, I wrote down and I love that you're

1313
01:17:18.300 --> 01:17:21.740
connected in the community and you've got some solid friendships, but I heard

1314
01:17:21.740 --> 01:17:26.020
the Lord say, tell her to start thanking me for friendships, start thanking him

1315
01:17:26.020 --> 01:17:29.260
for new friendships, because I think some new stuff and not that you have to get

1316
01:17:29.260 --> 01:17:31.260
rid of or let go of necessarily.

1317
01:17:31.260 --> 01:17:34.900
I mean, he'll show you if you do, but I've been getting rid of, yes.

1318
01:17:34.940 --> 01:17:37.900
And I've had to get rid of, and I have been thanking him very

1319
01:17:37.900 --> 01:17:39.220
much so for the new people.

1320
01:17:39.540 --> 01:17:40.780
So you're spot on with that.

1321
01:17:40.820 --> 01:17:41.060
Yep.

1322
01:17:41.060 --> 01:17:41.580
Yes.

1323
01:17:41.860 --> 01:17:42.140
Yeah.

1324
01:17:42.180 --> 01:17:46.260
And so ladies, the reason this, this is so, so powerful when we do this, when

1325
01:17:46.260 --> 01:17:49.620
we start thanking him before we have it, it's kind of like that song

1326
01:17:49.620 --> 01:17:50.820
praise before the breakthrough.

1327
01:17:50.820 --> 01:17:54.100
I don't know if you guys have ever heard of that, but like we're praising him

1328
01:17:54.100 --> 01:17:58.580
and we're thanking him long before we actually have it here.

1329
01:17:59.220 --> 01:18:03.420
Um, you guys, some of you will, will have heard me on super faith Friday.

1330
01:18:03.420 --> 01:18:04.980
I've shared this story so many times.

1331
01:18:05.380 --> 01:18:09.820
God led me to start saying, I am a bride, Bethany, Bethany state.

1332
01:18:09.820 --> 01:18:10.780
I was stanko at the time.

1333
01:18:10.780 --> 01:18:13.540
Bethany Stanko, you are a bride walking around my apartment.

1334
01:18:13.580 --> 01:18:16.860
The person underneath me probably wondered who I was

1335
01:18:16.860 --> 01:18:18.340
talking to sometimes you all.

1336
01:18:18.900 --> 01:18:25.260
I talked to myself a lot during that time in, and it changed me.

1337
01:18:25.340 --> 01:18:29.980
It did because it was like, I needed my, I needed to be my own cheerleader.

1338
01:18:31.900 --> 01:18:32.540
I always won.

1339
01:18:32.540 --> 01:18:36.900
I always felt like, man, why, why, why is nobody else cheering me on?

1340
01:18:36.900 --> 01:18:38.900
I'm sure I'm fighting for people.

1341
01:18:39.100 --> 01:18:40.380
I'm doing the Lord's work.

1342
01:18:40.380 --> 01:18:41.220
I'm healing people.

1343
01:18:41.220 --> 01:18:43.900
I'm being, and like, where's my cheering party?

1344
01:18:44.580 --> 01:18:47.620
Well, God was like, you're here cheering party.

1345
01:18:48.180 --> 01:18:50.820
And when, and it didn't mean that he didn't want to give me friends.

1346
01:18:50.820 --> 01:18:52.900
You all, I have a lot of friends too.

1347
01:18:53.460 --> 01:18:56.340
My best friend lived like 40 minutes away, but she had a family.

1348
01:18:56.340 --> 01:18:57.220
She was busy.

1349
01:18:58.140 --> 01:18:58.900
And so it was me.

1350
01:18:59.460 --> 01:19:05.140
And especially during COVID you all, I was literally by myself more

1351
01:19:05.180 --> 01:19:07.300
than I've ever been by myself.

1352
01:19:07.780 --> 01:19:11.260
And I learned how to really embrace my own presence.

1353
01:19:12.020 --> 01:19:14.780
Some of you, that's going to be your challenge in the next few weeks.

1354
01:19:14.780 --> 01:19:20.740
Like it's one thing to love yourself, but do you like yourself?

1355
01:19:22.540 --> 01:19:28.180
Like, do you like being in your own presence without the TV on without

1356
01:19:28.180 --> 01:19:32.060
something, you know, and I'm not trying to get into the, should you drink?

1357
01:19:32.060 --> 01:19:32.540
Should you not?

1358
01:19:32.540 --> 01:19:38.940
But I'm just saying some of us like the food, the glasses of wine, the TV, all

1359
01:19:38.940 --> 01:19:46.700
the things that we fill the space with, because we just really struggle to be

1360
01:19:46.700 --> 01:19:52.180
in our own presence and what does that feel like, because so many of us

1361
01:19:52.180 --> 01:19:57.300
disassociated as young kids and we separated from our own bodies.

1362
01:19:57.300 --> 01:19:59.900
And so we, God is trying to bring that back.

1363
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:08.440
together so that you can exist in a more healed and whole state and enjoy your own presence.

1364
01:20:08.440 --> 01:20:12.640
And I know some of you are like, yeah, I'm good. That I'm good. I like my presence, but

1365
01:20:12.640 --> 01:20:17.000
I think some of you, the Lord's going to unpack this a little bit more in the next few weeks.

1366
01:20:17.000 --> 01:20:22.340
I really feel there's something on this. I prayed it earlier tonight. And so that tells

1367
01:20:22.340 --> 01:20:27.960
me this is a second time it's coming up. God wants to bring convergence. So basically it

1368
01:20:27.960 --> 01:20:33.880
doesn't mean that you meant for yourself to like, almost like some of you years ago,

1369
01:20:33.880 --> 01:20:40.860
you had out of body experiences. Okay. Because the pain was so, so big and you could not,

1370
01:20:40.860 --> 01:20:45.500
you couldn't withstand it. And so the only way that your brain could, could handle it

1371
01:20:45.500 --> 01:20:51.260
was to create a little bit of separation, not calling you crazy. Okay. So don't think

1372
01:20:51.260 --> 01:20:56.620
I'm saying that, but basically you, we, we separate. And so God's bringing, bringing

1373
01:20:56.620 --> 01:21:01.620
that back together. Ladies. He is some of you that you're going to really experience

1374
01:21:01.620 --> 01:21:05.260
transformation because you're going to start to really know what it's like to be in your

1375
01:21:05.260 --> 01:21:13.580
own skin and like it and not feel like, Oh man, like this is, I just feel uncomfortable

1376
01:21:13.580 --> 01:21:18.900
in my own skin all the time. I know I'm speaking to somebody. So God's healing something and

1377
01:21:18.900 --> 01:21:22.740
he's going to come in and he's going to just bless it. He's going to bless it from the

1378
01:21:22.740 --> 01:21:27.500
inside out. The healing is going to come and it's going to change the whole way you, you

1379
01:21:27.500 --> 01:21:32.780
just exist in, even in your own, in your own room. Some of you all, I saw a girl. Okay.

1380
01:21:32.780 --> 01:21:36.660
Thank you, Lord. I saw this young lady. I used to lead her and it just made me smile

1381
01:21:36.660 --> 01:21:41.300
so much, but she was doing this video. She was like, some of you be like this. And she

1382
01:21:41.300 --> 01:21:46.220
was singing like crazy with her curling iron and worship song before church on Sunday.

1383
01:21:46.220 --> 01:21:50.540
But like some of y'all need to have some dance parties, some singing parties, like

1384
01:21:50.540 --> 01:21:54.620
letting the little girl come out. I think we even talked about this a little bit last

1385
01:21:54.620 --> 01:21:59.820
week or two weeks ago, but like, what does that look like to let her out? Let her go

1386
01:21:59.820 --> 01:22:03.580
wild a little bit. Don't get too crazy. I'm not saying alcohol and things. I'm saying

1387
01:22:03.580 --> 01:22:07.940
just the little fun things that, you know, what did it, what did, and some of you, even

1388
01:22:07.940 --> 01:22:11.760
as little kids, maybe that wasn't your thing. Maybe yours was more outside and adventure

1389
01:22:11.760 --> 01:22:16.520
and climbing trees. So I'm not, I'm not saying it has to always look a certain way. It's

1390
01:22:16.520 --> 01:22:23.600
more about what's on the inside. That's been pen up and it's been pushed down and it's

1391
01:22:23.600 --> 01:22:29.960
been suppressed for so long. And the Lord's like, let her come out, let her come out because

1392
01:22:29.960 --> 01:22:37.400
I like that girl. Cause guess what? You all, a lot of that is what he created and he marked

1393
01:22:37.400 --> 01:22:41.960
that. So earlier when I was saying how the enemy tried to Mark you with something else,

1394
01:22:41.960 --> 01:22:47.640
that's not you. God's like, yep, that's what I made. That's what I want to see. I want

1395
01:22:47.640 --> 01:22:53.240
to see her laugh and I want to see her celebrating. I want to see her having fun because I delight

1396
01:22:53.240 --> 01:22:59.800
in her. Yes. He delights in us when we're sad. Yes. Line dancing, karaoke. Yeah. Y'all,

1397
01:22:59.800 --> 01:23:03.560
I used to sing all the time and I would look over and people would be just watching. I

1398
01:23:03.560 --> 01:23:10.040
would just crack up because I just, I just love, I love the Lord and I really do love

1399
01:23:10.040 --> 01:23:15.040
my life. Even when it was hard, like he just taught me how to, to somehow like lean into

1400
01:23:15.040 --> 01:23:20.760
him in the midst of it. And maybe that's not you and that's okay, but your own version

1401
01:23:20.760 --> 01:23:29.640
of that. Okay. All right. So I have time for one more, I think. Let's go Laura. And then

1402
01:23:29.640 --> 01:23:33.480
maybe Maria. So hang on Maria. Don't go anywhere. All right.

1403
01:23:35.480 --> 01:23:44.440
Um, so I was telling the person that I was talking to about how I, um, was made fun of

1404
01:23:44.440 --> 01:23:50.040
a lot. I, and I want, I know I've shared this before, but growing up, I was made fun of,

1405
01:23:50.040 --> 01:23:56.120
fun of a lot, especially when I was in middle school. Um, because that's when I started to

1406
01:23:56.920 --> 01:24:09.880
develop more, you know? Um, and, um, because, uh, my bust size is large. Um, a lot of the

1407
01:24:09.880 --> 01:24:17.400
girls that I knew in middle school would say that I was stuffing my bra when I'm like,

1408
01:24:17.400 --> 01:24:23.560
dude, I'm like, these are real. If I could get rid of them, I would, but they're real.

1409
01:24:23.960 --> 01:24:32.200
You know, they're not fake. Um, and because of that, I always, um, even now I'm very

1410
01:24:32.200 --> 01:24:39.800
self-conscious about the types of shirts that I wear, you know, the type of clothing that I wear.

1411
01:24:39.800 --> 01:24:48.360
I don't like tight shirts. I don't like shirts that show any cleavage at all. I'm very cautious

1412
01:24:48.360 --> 01:24:59.000
about stuff like that. Um, and so that really, and when, um, uh, Meredith was talking about

1413
01:24:59.000 --> 01:24:59.800
forgiving.

1414
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:05.000
as your younger self and forgiving them as your younger

1415
01:25:05.040 --> 01:25:08.760
self and then forgiving them now.

1416
01:25:08.760 --> 01:25:12.340
I don't, I don't remember their names.

1417
01:25:13.760 --> 01:25:14.600
I don't know.

1418
01:25:14.600 --> 01:25:16.680
I don't remember who they are.

1419
01:25:16.680 --> 01:25:19.320
I don't even talk to half of them anymore.

1420
01:25:19.320 --> 01:25:22.000
And that's, yeah, that's okay.

1421
01:25:22.000 --> 01:25:27.000
But I mean, one of them, well, I don't think she was

1422
01:25:28.000 --> 01:25:31.840
in the group is I'm still friends with today.

1423
01:25:33.000 --> 01:25:38.000
We've been friends for a long time, but I, I've always

1424
01:25:38.240 --> 01:25:42.960
wanted to talk to this friend about, you know,

1425
01:25:42.960 --> 01:25:45.080
how she treated me in middle school.

1426
01:25:45.080 --> 01:25:50.080
But I, you know, was haven't gotten up the courage to say

1427
01:25:51.480 --> 01:25:56.440
this is how I felt, you know, and I just want you to know,

1428
01:25:56.440 --> 01:25:57.600
I forgive you.

1429
01:25:58.800 --> 01:25:59.640
Yeah.

1430
01:25:59.640 --> 01:26:03.760
Maybe, maybe just pray about if the Lord wants you to,

1431
01:26:03.760 --> 01:26:06.040
and maybe, maybe don't take it right to the,

1432
01:26:06.040 --> 01:26:08.440
I forgive you until you see kind of like,

1433
01:26:08.440 --> 01:26:11.960
is she able to have a healthy conversation with you?

1434
01:26:11.960 --> 01:26:13.640
You know, so ladies just keep in mind,

1435
01:26:13.640 --> 01:26:16.720
like sometimes the forgiveness is writing a letter

1436
01:26:16.720 --> 01:26:18.220
and not giving it to them.

1437
01:26:18.220 --> 01:26:21.580
Sometimes it is having a conversation in person.

1438
01:26:21.580 --> 01:26:24.320
So really pray and discern and ask the Lord,

1439
01:26:25.320 --> 01:26:27.680
does he want you to talk to her about this?

1440
01:26:27.680 --> 01:26:28.680
Is this something he,

1441
01:26:28.680 --> 01:26:32.400
is she healthy enough to have that conversation?

1442
01:26:32.400 --> 01:26:35.640
And sometimes you can just try with like some small stuff

1443
01:26:36.920 --> 01:26:40.520
and see how that goes before maybe going

1444
01:26:40.520 --> 01:26:41.520
into the full conversation.

1445
01:26:41.520 --> 01:26:44.000
And again, we don't have to live afraid you all,

1446
01:26:44.000 --> 01:26:48.240
but there's a level of walking in like this,

1447
01:26:48.240 --> 01:26:52.640
recognizing who we're with and are they a safe person

1448
01:26:52.640 --> 01:26:55.120
to have this kind of conversation with?

1449
01:26:55.120 --> 01:26:58.760
Cause what can happen is if we approach a conversation

1450
01:26:58.760 --> 01:27:01.360
like that and they're not healthy,

1451
01:27:01.360 --> 01:27:03.320
they may turn on us and retaliate

1452
01:27:03.320 --> 01:27:04.280
and might make it even bigger.

1453
01:27:04.280 --> 01:27:08.160
Now I will say there are times where the Lord will lead you

1454
01:27:08.160 --> 01:27:12.480
to have that conversation because maybe that friend

1455
01:27:12.480 --> 01:27:16.280
isn't just really a healthy friend for us, right?

1456
01:27:16.280 --> 01:27:19.680
And we'll discover that through those conversations.

1457
01:27:19.680 --> 01:27:21.720
So that's why it's real important just to ask the Lord

1458
01:27:21.720 --> 01:27:24.160
to show you, is that a direction you should go?

1459
01:27:24.160 --> 01:27:25.880
And then go in that if he says yes,

1460
01:27:25.880 --> 01:27:28.520
and if he says, hey, no, or not yet,

1461
01:27:28.520 --> 01:27:30.760
sometimes he'll just say not yet

1462
01:27:30.760 --> 01:27:31.800
because maybe they're just,

1463
01:27:31.800 --> 01:27:34.440
they're not in a place to receive it yet.

1464
01:27:34.440 --> 01:27:36.280
The other thing I was gonna say is

1465
01:27:38.400 --> 01:27:43.240
my youngest spiritual daughter is also big busted

1466
01:27:43.240 --> 01:27:47.440
and she as well got made fun of by her biological mom

1467
01:27:47.440 --> 01:27:48.280
and other kids.

1468
01:27:49.000 --> 01:27:52.600
In my own way, I don't have that situation, but she does,

1469
01:27:52.600 --> 01:27:54.880
but I've watched her suffer from it.

1470
01:27:54.880 --> 01:27:57.040
So I want you to know that that isn't

1471
01:27:57.040 --> 01:27:58.760
what God intended for you.

1472
01:27:58.760 --> 01:28:02.920
And I believe he will wanna heal that and help you.

1473
01:28:02.920 --> 01:28:04.400
It doesn't mean you have to necessarily

1474
01:28:04.400 --> 01:28:05.680
wear certain types of clothes,

1475
01:28:05.680 --> 01:28:09.240
but what does it mean to feel more comfortable

1476
01:28:09.240 --> 01:28:12.440
wearing pretty things and not feeling like

1477
01:28:12.440 --> 01:28:14.280
you have to hide your body?

1478
01:28:14.280 --> 01:28:16.280
But of course, just so you all know, ladies,

1479
01:28:16.880 --> 01:28:19.640
I am pro-modesty, I am.

1480
01:28:19.640 --> 01:28:21.920
I don't think you gotta wear turtlenecks all the time

1481
01:28:21.920 --> 01:28:24.960
or anything like that, but I do believe in modesty.

1482
01:28:24.960 --> 01:28:26.960
And I don't think we have to show off our bodies

1483
01:28:26.960 --> 01:28:29.280
to attract a man.

1484
01:28:29.280 --> 01:28:30.920
Way back in the day I did,

1485
01:28:30.920 --> 01:28:34.560
but that was when I wasn't healed and I know better now.

1486
01:28:34.560 --> 01:28:37.880
But that doesn't mean that if you have something

1487
01:28:37.880 --> 01:28:40.480
that goes, hopefully not all the way down,

1488
01:28:40.480 --> 01:28:41.720
but it's something a little lower,

1489
01:28:41.720 --> 01:28:45.000
that doesn't mean that gives a man or anyone else

1490
01:28:45.040 --> 01:28:49.240
the right to say hurtful and mean and crude things, okay?

1491
01:28:50.120 --> 01:28:53.280
Those are signs that people aren't healthy

1492
01:28:53.280 --> 01:28:55.080
if they're doing those things.

1493
01:28:55.080 --> 01:28:56.520
All right, let's see.

1494
01:28:56.520 --> 01:28:59.760
Maria, I think if you wanna share, you can share.

1495
01:28:59.760 --> 01:29:00.760
We're right at 9.30.

1496
01:29:00.760 --> 01:29:02.040
I don't wanna give you,

1497
01:29:02.040 --> 01:29:05.000
I don't want you to not have an opportunity if you want one.

1498
01:29:07.720 --> 01:29:10.600
You know, I really would like to just get out of it,

1499
01:29:10.600 --> 01:29:14.400
but I think I'm gonna push myself to share.

1500
01:29:16.000 --> 01:29:18.160
I'll try to be quick though.

1501
01:29:18.160 --> 01:29:20.080
It's not really well processed

1502
01:29:20.080 --> 01:29:22.080
because I didn't make this connection

1503
01:29:22.080 --> 01:29:24.800
until after I got out of my group.

1504
01:29:25.800 --> 01:29:29.320
The last one, the question of what causes us

1505
01:29:29.320 --> 01:29:32.400
to shrink down and not be ourself.

1506
01:29:32.400 --> 01:29:35.160
And I didn't initially know the answer to that question.

1507
01:29:35.160 --> 01:29:37.680
And I just kind of processed with my partner that,

1508
01:29:38.920 --> 01:29:42.400
I grew up the oldest of seven kids

1509
01:29:42.920 --> 01:29:47.840
and my mom really expected perfection of me

1510
01:29:47.840 --> 01:29:49.920
and would make comments like,

1511
01:29:49.920 --> 01:29:52.360
oh, Maria is my perfect child.

1512
01:29:52.360 --> 01:29:55.040
And I just, I had a really high standard

1513
01:29:55.040 --> 01:29:56.080
to live to all the time.

1514
01:29:56.080 --> 01:29:58.400
And I did a really good job of it.

1515
01:29:59.640 --> 01:30:00.480
And so.

1516
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:03.360
I thought, well, the real me just never came out.

1517
01:30:04.360 --> 01:30:09.360
But I was asking the Lord after I left the chat

1518
01:30:09.840 --> 01:30:13.720
and I was like, I don't like being seen

1519
01:30:13.720 --> 01:30:15.040
because I feel uncomfortable.

1520
01:30:15.040 --> 01:30:17.000
Why do I feel uncomfortable?

1521
01:30:17.000 --> 01:30:19.360
Oh, because they might see that I'm not perfect.

1522
01:30:19.360 --> 01:30:23.560
They might see that I need help and that I can't do it all.

1523
01:30:23.560 --> 01:30:25.860
And that tied back to the previous question

1524
01:30:25.860 --> 01:30:27.400
because that's something that the Lord's been

1525
01:30:27.400 --> 01:30:29.980
really speaking to me the last two or three weeks

1526
01:30:29.980 --> 01:30:33.100
is opening up and asking people for help,

1527
01:30:33.100 --> 01:30:36.620
being willing to say like, I'm struggling in this area.

1528
01:30:36.620 --> 01:30:38.620
I don't have it all together and I need help.

1529
01:30:38.620 --> 01:30:40.940
That's really been showing up in my business.

1530
01:30:41.880 --> 01:30:45.800
And it's been really, really hard for me to ask for help

1531
01:30:45.800 --> 01:30:47.500
because I feel like I'm a burden,

1532
01:30:47.500 --> 01:30:49.580
like I don't wanna bother people.

1533
01:30:51.020 --> 01:30:52.620
And so, yeah, I just thought it was cool

1534
01:30:52.620 --> 01:30:55.200
how it all kind of came together.

1535
01:30:55.200 --> 01:30:59.160
And also I didn't want to share

1536
01:30:59.160 --> 01:31:01.160
because I didn't feel like I had processed it yet.

1537
01:31:01.160 --> 01:31:02.440
And I was like, this is gonna be messy.

1538
01:31:02.440 --> 01:31:04.240
And then I was like, oh, that's a good opportunity

1539
01:31:04.240 --> 01:31:07.560
to practice not having it all together.

1540
01:31:07.560 --> 01:31:08.820
Yes, yes.

1541
01:31:08.820 --> 01:31:10.200
And I'm so glad you did.

1542
01:31:11.320 --> 01:31:13.160
Here's the thing too.

1543
01:31:13.160 --> 01:31:15.240
Ladies, anytime again, back on this burden,

1544
01:31:15.240 --> 01:31:17.940
did you notice they came right full circle?

1545
01:31:17.940 --> 01:31:20.800
The burden thing that Shannon was talking about?

1546
01:31:20.800 --> 01:31:24.080
You also said you don't wanna bother people.

1547
01:31:25.080 --> 01:31:29.080
You know, sometimes if we are taught

1548
01:31:29.080 --> 01:31:31.920
or someone says, this is my perfect little child,

1549
01:31:31.920 --> 01:31:36.080
when we see the other kids misbehaving potentially,

1550
01:31:36.080 --> 01:31:38.040
I don't know what your other siblings were doing,

1551
01:31:38.040 --> 01:31:38.880
but I'm just kind of going

1552
01:31:38.880 --> 01:31:40.600
with what's coming up in my spirit.

1553
01:31:42.380 --> 01:31:44.240
Those aren't perfect.

1554
01:31:44.240 --> 01:31:45.580
Those kids aren't perfect.

1555
01:31:45.580 --> 01:31:47.280
And so they're treated differently.

1556
01:31:47.280 --> 01:31:51.740
And so then we become afraid to some degree

1557
01:31:51.820 --> 01:31:54.780
that if we then aren't perfect,

1558
01:31:54.780 --> 01:31:57.900
will mom not love us as much anymore?

1559
01:31:57.900 --> 01:31:59.980
Or whoever it is, right?

1560
01:31:59.980 --> 01:32:03.580
So there's this level of when we have things,

1561
01:32:03.580 --> 01:32:05.400
again, just to kind of circle back,

1562
01:32:05.400 --> 01:32:07.620
where we are afraid we're gonna bother someone

1563
01:32:07.620 --> 01:32:09.380
or we're gonna burden them.

1564
01:32:09.380 --> 01:32:11.540
Normally you wanna look under the lid of that.

1565
01:32:11.540 --> 01:32:14.140
Ask the Lord, like what's really going on there?

1566
01:32:14.140 --> 01:32:16.780
And I like how you unpack that with just,

1567
01:32:17.780 --> 01:32:19.860
you know, the different things that you were thinking.

1568
01:32:20.300 --> 01:32:25.020
And that's ladies, again, asking really good questions.

1569
01:32:25.020 --> 01:32:26.300
If you get offended easily,

1570
01:32:26.300 --> 01:32:27.420
I think someone said that earlier,

1571
01:32:27.420 --> 01:32:29.500
you get offended easily, ask the Lord,

1572
01:32:29.500 --> 01:32:31.340
why am I so offended?

1573
01:32:31.340 --> 01:32:32.980
What's going on there?

1574
01:32:32.980 --> 01:32:35.340
Like, is it just because this person did this

1575
01:32:35.340 --> 01:32:39.460
or did this trigger something else in my life?

1576
01:32:39.460 --> 01:32:41.980
Or are they reminding me of them?

1577
01:32:41.980 --> 01:32:44.140
Like, are they reminding me of myself?

1578
01:32:44.140 --> 01:32:45.820
You know, you just, whatever it is,

1579
01:32:45.820 --> 01:32:48.220
you just ask the Lord to help you unpack it.

1580
01:32:48.220 --> 01:32:49.840
And the more that you unpack it with him,

1581
01:32:50.680 --> 01:32:52.400
the more freedom you're going to get

1582
01:32:52.400 --> 01:32:55.760
as you then ask him to come in and heal those areas

1583
01:32:55.760 --> 01:32:58.800
and then replace those lies with the truth, okay?

1584
01:32:58.800 --> 01:33:01.040
So it's that whole revealing for healing cycle.

1585
01:33:01.040 --> 01:33:02.920
If you're not in that part of the course yet,

1586
01:33:02.920 --> 01:33:06.680
there's a worksheet, revealing for healing cycle.

1587
01:33:06.680 --> 01:33:08.800
If you guys utilize that,

1588
01:33:08.800 --> 01:33:11.320
it will be a tool you can use literally

1589
01:33:11.320 --> 01:33:12.760
for the rest of your life.

1590
01:33:12.760 --> 01:33:14.520
In the beginning, you'll need to use the paper

1591
01:33:14.520 --> 01:33:16.640
to remind yourself how to go through the process.

1592
01:33:16.640 --> 01:33:19.120
And you'll just look at it and do it again and do it again.

1593
01:33:19.120 --> 01:33:20.640
I really recommend it.

1594
01:33:20.640 --> 01:33:24.220
And then eventually you'll learn to do it without the paper.

1595
01:33:25.600 --> 01:33:27.640
You understand, everyone?

1596
01:33:27.640 --> 01:33:29.880
And the more that you do that,

1597
01:33:30.800 --> 01:33:33.280
you'll be able to not only help yourself

1598
01:33:33.280 --> 01:33:34.800
like with the Lord's help, of course,

1599
01:33:34.800 --> 01:33:38.920
but to heal that it'll create ripple effects in your family.

1600
01:33:38.920 --> 01:33:42.360
Sylvia says, for me, perfection bring the spirit of rescuer

1601
01:33:42.360 --> 01:33:45.440
of the imperfect persons or went to the other extreme

1602
01:33:45.440 --> 01:33:47.320
and become prideful and judgmental thinking

1603
01:33:47.320 --> 01:33:49.120
and seeing them as inferior persons

1604
01:33:49.120 --> 01:33:51.380
because they were not perfect.

1605
01:33:51.380 --> 01:33:54.420
Yes, Sylvia, yes.

1606
01:33:55.720 --> 01:34:00.720
And even now, oh Lord, I'm gonna tell on myself.

1607
01:34:02.480 --> 01:34:07.480
Sometimes when people are sharing, not in this group,

1608
01:34:07.680 --> 01:34:11.640
I would say more like close people

1609
01:34:11.640 --> 01:34:13.680
in ministry in this church.

1610
01:34:14.520 --> 01:34:17.400
When I first came in, I have a lot of experience

1611
01:34:17.400 --> 01:34:19.240
and I didn't mean to have pride, you all,

1612
01:34:19.240 --> 01:34:21.760
but I was getting so frustrated

1613
01:34:21.760 --> 01:34:23.680
because these people have been in this church.

1614
01:34:23.680 --> 01:34:26.000
Some of them, they're literally their entire lives,

1615
01:34:26.000 --> 01:34:29.160
40, 50 years, and they're like baby Christians.

1616
01:34:29.160 --> 01:34:32.420
And I know that probably sounds so like I'm so great,

1617
01:34:32.420 --> 01:34:36.480
but my entire life, I've never experienced that.

1618
01:34:36.480 --> 01:34:39.360
Growing up, before I knew the Lord,

1619
01:34:39.360 --> 01:34:40.560
my parents and my grandparents,

1620
01:34:40.560 --> 01:34:41.580
I went to all these different churches.

1621
01:34:41.620 --> 01:34:45.700
And then when I got saved, I just was on fire.

1622
01:34:45.700 --> 01:34:48.840
I just loved the Lord and I went after him.

1623
01:34:48.840 --> 01:34:52.700
And so it's hard for me to understand or relate sometimes

1624
01:34:53.780 --> 01:34:56.300
to people that have been in church their entire lives.

1625
01:34:56.300 --> 01:34:59.260
And it's just like, they just have no hunger.

1626
01:34:59.260 --> 01:35:00.660
It doesn't mean they don't.

1627
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:05.440
They don't love the Lord. I can't, you know, God says we shouldn't judge another's heart.

1628
01:35:05.440 --> 01:35:12.000
We can judge their fruit, but not their heart. But what I know is like, it just has been hard.

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It's been hard for me. I've had to really adjust and, and ask the Lord to forgive me for being

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prideful at times. And, and just being like, why don't, why do they do it this way? Why don't they,

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you know, just, and I use that as kind of a lighthearted example, but it can be,

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it can be in our, again, in our family relationships and work. And when you get

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married, guess what? It can, it can rear its head there too, because, Hey, we don't need these men.

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I got this. I can do this better than him. I've done it by myself for however long.

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So we'll leave you with that. I'm going to leave you with that tonight. As we log off,

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ask the Lord, is there any areas where you need to make more room for the guy to come in and have

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an opinion and allow him at times to, to be the one to lead, to be the one to lead and that you

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don't have to have all the answers and it's okay for you to, to trust, to trust that God will guide

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him and God will guide the two of you. Y'all aren't, aren't in that space a hundred percent,

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but preparing your heart now will help you when you step back into the dating ring in a few weeks,

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I promise. All right. Let me pray you out father. Thank you so much for these amazing women.

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I pray that you would help them just to see truly what you see, what I see, God helped them to hear

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what your spirit is saying more and more in the days ahead. God set them free in ways that they

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couldn't even ask, think, or imagine Lord. I just even see like you just set, like literally opening

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your hands up in these little baby birds, like are in your hands and they're just gaining their

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wings and they're getting, they're getting ready to fly. And I just thank you that that represents

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what's happening in this season. We thank you that you keep them in their, in your care until they're

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ready. God, and when they're ready, you'll just launch them out. So what I pray that you would

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fill their hope tanks tonight while they sleep, refresh them, restore them, rebuild them. God,

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we thank you that you would go in and, and redeem all of the broken and fallen places.

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God, where, where their family generational lines have been broken, where there's been

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heartache and hardship, where there's been toxicity and brokenness and teasing and putting

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down other people. God, we just thank you that you would just come and with your Holy spirit,

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mark those places and speak life and peace and joy and hope. God, that you would use these ladies

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as kinsmen redeemers in their families, as well as in, in the land in the days to come. We just

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thank you Lord for your calling on their lives. And we, we ask you to help them or to step a

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little further into the fullness of who you originally created them to be in Jesus name.

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Amen. God bless you. I'll see you guys in the group and love you guys. Have a good night.

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Thank you. Bye.