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Hello, happy Monday.

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Welcome, Tameka girl, you got a great smile.

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I don't know if anybody's ever told you that, but you do.

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Man, you light up a room.

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So good to see you guys.

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Welcome, welcome.

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Wanna encourage you, if you can turn on your cameras

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to turn your cameras on if you're driving or something

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and you can, or if you're working, that's okay.

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But as I like to remind all of you, we love to see you.

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Sometimes too, like when I can see you all,

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I can kind of see what God is stirring at times.

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Not that I know exactly, but I can tell

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if something is really hitting home with you all.

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And that tells me where we need to keep going,

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if that makes sense.

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So there's grace on your face.

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Jackie talks about that all the time.

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And there is a reason we say that truly.

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So if you've never met me before, how many people,

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you don't have to raise your digital hands,

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but how many people are joining us for the first time

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in a live session tonight?

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Like first time being here, anybody?

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Okay, welcome, Karen.

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Heart check in, Lauren, I see you.

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Hi, Susan.

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Okay, I just wanna see how many new people

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who have never been here before.

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Welcome, my name's Bethany Cooper.

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I'm one of the HeartWork coaches in the group.

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You guys probably have seen me responding to you.

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We also have Annette and Jennifer

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who will be responding to you.

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And then Jackie comes in at times as well in the group

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in the Facebook group is where I'm talking about.

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And every time we do a HeartWork session,

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like a heart check-in like this,

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just so y'all know, last week was a heart check-in.

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It just was a different heart check-in

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because Jackie did the Supernatural Hope.

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So I just don't want that to be confusing for everyone.

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It was still considered a heart check-in.

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So every Monday at 1 p.m. and eight o'clock p.m.

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Eastern time are our heart check-ins,

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no matter what we do during those times, okay?

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So just wanna make sure that's clear for everyone.

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But I always do a little bit of housekeeping

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at the beginning of every session.

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If you were here with me earlier today

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and you came back for more,

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you're gonna hear some repeat stuff.

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Just bear with us if that is you.

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One of the things I thought was important

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to explain to you all,

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when you guys are going to any kind of prayer sessions

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or anything that we host on Zoom like tonight,

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if you try to log in and it says

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there's another meeting in progress

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or the meeting isn't started or anything like that,

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just hang tight because as soon as we start the meeting,

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it will let you all in.

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I know some people were kind of confused by that.

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So for example, the reason it might not let you in

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is either I haven't started the meeting

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if it's on my Zoom seat,

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or I might be doing another meeting or session

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right beforehand.

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So until I finish that session, it won't let you all in.

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So don't worry if you see that,

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just hang tight and you'll get let in

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when the meeting starts.

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And then also we wanna encourage you all,

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I don't know if you saw the post Jackie put up today,

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just that reminder to really resist distractions.

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And so you guys will get distractions from every direction,

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whether it's old people that you haven't talked to in years,

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like kind of coming out of the woodwork to kids

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or just struggles, distractions at work.

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The other thing that's kind of coming up

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is that some people are finding out about books,

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even like, you know, if we're on other sessions

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and yeah, skyrocket, the distractions will,

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as soon as you enter this group,

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truly you guys, I'm not kidding.

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Like you'll have more distractions

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than you've probably ever had.

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But what I was gonna say is you guys might feel like

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if someone mentions a book,

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oh, I should go read that book too

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because that will help accelerate my healing.

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And what we want you to know is really the main things

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is the Bible and the heart work book

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and the heart work course materials right now.

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And this is why some people think they need added stuff

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to try to figure out what's going on.

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And if you will apply the stuff

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that is already provided for you in this course,

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the supernatural impartation of what God is doing

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on this movement is here, it's on these materials.

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And we just don't think that you need to go read

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additional stuff at this time

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because this is where God led you to be.

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So we believe like, if you'll be laser kind of focused,

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I wrote down on my paper, fix your focus.

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So you wanna make sure you just really fix your focus.

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I always kind of talk like,

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I don't know if you guys have ever been to a horse race,

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but they put those blinders on

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and there's probably all kinds of reasons they do that.

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But I know that one of them is so that they,

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those horses kind of stay focused.

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They stay in their lane, if you will.

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And they go towards the goal.

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So we want you guys to make it to where God wants you to go.

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But we also don't want you to go a hundred miles an hour,

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like in 50 different directions, right?

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So that's where it's just staying focused

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and you'll get to where God wants you to be.

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Their thing I felt what like was important, I know there's still some confusion on where do we go for links and I hope that you guys are starting to figure it out more and more.

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I will encourage you just take a breath, because it is a little bit to learn when you first come in the door, we are trying to continue to make it.

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easier and easier for you, but even that we're in process we're growing as you all are growing so i'm.

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want to make sure you guys know the portal is the website anytime we say the portal that's Jackie doorman.com website when you log in there that's your portal.

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In that portal, you have the heart work program course okay so that's all your videos that's your journaling questions.

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And that's where you're going to find the schedules and links is in there Okay, so that means every link that you're going to need for this whole program prayer.

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Sunday night activation is a part of prayer the live sessions that's all in there you're also going to have another.

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It looks similar to the heart records, but it's another thing that you can enter and that will have all of the replays.

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So, like tonight, while it is it's streaming to Facebook, so you can definitely watch it there, but we also will load that right into your replay area, so if you guys want to watch it there, it will be there.

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And then, when we do the supernatural Saturday those replays will go into there as well okay.

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And then the other thing is like on the Facebook page, the main purpose of the Facebook page again you guys will have some videos in there, but it's literally duplicate of what's in your portal so just so you know it's just easier for you to go to your portal.

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The Facebook is really for Community it's for you guys have a place to pose for us to respond to you to know how you're doing and to engage with your sisters and in your.

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In your program some of these ladies you guys will not believe, but I promise some of these ladies, if you will allow yourself.

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To really open up and get to know each other you some of you all might be in each other's weddings truly.

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So that's that can really happen, as I shared before, that is something that happened for me, I was in a friend of mine's wedding last September and it's it's about learning how to open up to people in general.

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And the more that you practice opening up in this environment, I promise it will help you make room to open up for your spirit mate when they when they come into your life okay.

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All right, on that note we're going to go ahead and get started and go into the material for tonight father, thank you so much for.

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God just just that we can breathe you in God that you're you're present.

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In every moment that you sent your son Jesus to die on the cross to shed his blood and he chose to come.

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He chose to come to also make a way for us to be one with him, as he is one with you and you sent the Holy Spirit who's our comforter our counselor our guide so that we would never have to walk on this earth alone.

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We ask you Holy Spirit to come and have your way move all about tonight's session help the ladies to hear what your spirit has for them tonight.

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Lord, I thank you that you know us better than we know ourselves, sometimes you even surprise me still where the stuff that you, you bring to the surface and things that I don't even know are still there.

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But God in your perfect timing and in your grace and your love you bring those things to the surface, so that we can keep healing and we can keep.

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drawing closer to the fullness of who you originally created us to be so help us Lord to surrender to that process to trust you.

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Even when we might not know how to trust you that we can even be honest with you God and say God helped me to trust you more.

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Help me to believe more I believe help my unbelief God I pray that you would help the ladies tonight.

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To grow in their faith to grow in their understanding of who you are and to just really be open to everything you want to do in them and through them in Jesus name a man.

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Alright, so tonight, I want to start off by just talking a little bit about soil and plants I don't know if you guys are plant people or not.

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And I don't know if I can I like plants I don't know if I can officially qualify myself as a like I know a lot about plants, but.

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One of the things that I have learned is that the soil is really important, unless you have it in water because that's you can do some plants and water to.

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And that whatever we put in the soil is going to then come up right it's going to come out and it's going to be reproduced.

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I have this one plant that I got it when my mom passed away and it had a bunch of different plants in it so like five or six plants.

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And I kind of divided all those up about six months ago in for whatever it's worth I didn't talk about this in the session earlier today, but I noticed it this morning, and it just came to my mind, but I was looking in that that basket.

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might've been yesterday.

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And I realized that a leaf of one of the plants

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that I thought I had completely taken out

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and put into something else is now growing there again.

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So I'm like, oh, there must've been some roots to that

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still down underneath of there, right?

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So whatever's in the soil is going to start to grow.

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It's going to produce something out of there.

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And so my question for you to consider as we start tonight

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is what is planted in your heart?

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What's planted in the soil of your heart?

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And what is the soil of your heart look like right now?

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And there's no shame in this.

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I just want you to kind of ask the Lord,

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like, is your heart rocky?

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Is it soil that's good soil?

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Is it soil that's producing life?

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in your mind?

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The Bible says that out of the abundance of the heart,

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the mouth speaks.

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So even some of us, we might not speak

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the negative things out, but we might think them.

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And a lot of times we think negative things

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about ourselves quite a lot.

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I've been coaching ladies groups now for two and a half

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years and long before I even came into this community,

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I was coaching for a long time there as well.

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But just in regards to heart work in this community

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for about two and a half years,

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and I can't tell you how many women

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actually don't like themselves.

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about that tonight as we're going into our content

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for the night, like, you know,

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how do you feel about yourself?

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You know, I think that as Christians and some of you

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may or may not go to church or I don't know where,

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what your walk in the Lord and with the Lord is,

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but you might love yourself, but do you like yourself?

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Do you like who you are?

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Do you like what you see in the mirror?

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And I'm not just talking about looks.

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And the reason I'm stirring this up is because

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I believe God wants to do something here tonight,

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because this didn't come up earlier today at all.

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So for some of you, I believe God wants you to consider

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like, how do you feel about yourself

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when you look in the mirror?

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Do you think about all the things that you did wrong

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or who you haven't become yet,

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or whatever level of success you thought you needed to be at

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that you aren't, or maybe you are,

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but you don't feel like you have the things you want

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in other areas of your life.

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So whatever that kind of looks like for you,

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if you're thinking on those things,

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or if you're thinking on things that are negative about men,

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those things are getting planted in your heart.

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And the more that you think on them,

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the more that you meditate on them,

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the more they get in your heart.

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So that's why even the Bible talks about

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to meditate on his word day and night.

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Why do we do that?

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Because the word is what dispels anything

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that's not in alignment with the word.

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So anything that's in dark,

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like anything dark cannot remain when the light comes in.

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So when we meditate on the word day and night,

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it causes all that other stuff to go out, right?

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So on that note, I wanna read a couple things to you.

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I'm not gonna read all of these pages.

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And again, if I tell you guys the pages,

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it never matches up with your ebook.

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So just kind of follow along with me on this.

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And so I wanna read to you about God's standard of good.

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When God uses the word good,

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he isn't talking about our human standard of good.

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He is referring to his standard of good.

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So it's that heavenly understanding of what good is.

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because we still think in earthly terms,

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we label things good or bad a lot.

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So we'll just wanna encourage you

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to shift a little bit there.

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So maybe you do have a little bit of something good

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working out in your life,

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but is it God's version of good yet?

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So maybe some of you guys feel like,

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yeah, I'm doing pretty good.

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Things are going really great in this area,

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but is it to the level of where God's good?

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And that's why we are here.

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We want more.

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Most of us have a tendency to live in crisis mode,

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only focusing on the areas that are a complete train wreck,

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not realizing there's an upgrade available

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in every area of our life,

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if we are willing to be shown that we can't,

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like shown what we can't see yet.

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So how many of you guys want an upgrade tonight?

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Like how many want everything God has for you

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in every area of your life?

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like, I want more, Lord.

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I want more upgrade.

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I want more understanding.

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I want more truth.

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it's good for us to say, yeah, I want more.

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So here's where we have to start though.

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We have to understand and look at the areas

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that aren't going well as well.

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okay, what areas are not going well in my life?

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so that we can get healing there. And then as that heals and mends and is restored, then that area

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will become healthier and more whole. Your problem areas are the places you have the most unhealed

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wounds. These unhealed wounds that are harboring fears, lies, and false narratives create havoc in

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that area of your life as they mature and manifest through emotions like guilt, shame,

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unworthiness, and fear. So I want you just to start thinking about like, what's the area of

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your life where you feel the most stuck right now? And for some of you, yeah, it's going to

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be maybe the spirit mate, but are there other areas as well? Like where do you want God to

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bring freedom into your heart and life tonight and in the days ahead? A lot of times we don't

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understand that, you know, the things that we're seeing in the physical realm, like we just think

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so often change my behavior, change my behavior, and then everything else in my life will change,

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but that actually isn't how it works. We have to have heart transformation and then the heart

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transformation brings behavior transformation. Do you see the difference? So there's a lot of times

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even when, I mean, people in the church don't even realize whether it's addiction problems or

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eating problems or, you know, gossiping problems. I mean, it doesn't matter what it is, like, yeah,

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we can probably stop and be on good behavior for a while. But then when you hit another bump and

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you hit a hard spot, if, if your heart's not changed, you're going to tend to go back to

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that thing. So one of the things I was reading in a totally different book today was talking about

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like when you, like, sometimes if you were raised in a family that had unhealthy eating

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habits, which I was, my mom hid food a lot and I saw my sister hide food and I saw them,

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like my mom, when she would be really sad, like she would just eat all kinds of ice cream. Like,

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I'm not saying ice cream is bad, but I, it was the amount that she ate and like, there were just,

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it was weird to me. I never understood the hiding of the food and stuff, but then over time it was,

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it was crazy. Like I started thinking to do those things. And so, you know, we never really realize

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how things that other people do, they, they start to create these grooves in our minds and in our

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hearts. And then we start reciprocating what they're doing. And so one of the things that

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really stood out to me in this book that I've been reading is it was talking about, like,

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if you learn to, um, you know, feed your sadness with food or you're overwhelmed with food,

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then when you feel sad or overwhelmed, you're, you're probably going to eat food,

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even when you don't want it. And that really spoke to me a lot, you all. And I feel like,

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um, just being really transparent, that's something like, I literally wrote it out and

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hung it up on my mirror and the declaration to kind of resist because I don't need food

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to feel better. I need Christ. I need the fullness of the Holy spirit. I need his love and his

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understanding. And, um, and I'm not saying I even do it all the time, but I know I catch myself

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sometimes like after I eat something, like I didn't even really want that. Why did I do that?

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And so I feel like God's been kind of showing me the habit and he's trying to help me kind of break

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that pattern, if you will. And so I want to encourage you guys to say, again, I'm just kind

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of putting things out. There's the Holy spirit's bringing them up. So as I'm going on some fruits,

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some more fruits, so there's fruits versus roots. Okay. The fruit is what's on the surface. It's

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what we see, right? So it's, what's more visible fruits might include things like sickness,

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self-pity victim mentality, despair. So despair is different than sadness. So just want to make

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sure you guys understand that suicidal tendencies discussed in judgment. Some more fruits are

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obesity, perversion, addiction, sexual dysfunction, hopelessness, hatred, self-hatred, uh, abrasiveness,

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maybe short temper, being jealous of people gossiping. I could go on, but just to give you

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guys an idea, those are the fruits. Okay. Those are unhealthy fruit. If you guys are wondering

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what good fruit looks like, if you study scripture on the fruits of the spirit,

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those are the good fruits that we want to have versus the other fruit. All right. So I just

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wanted to kind of read those things to you because where we're going to go tonight,

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our first breakout session is going to be about, um, lies, but in particular,

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the flies, you guys, if you haven't read it yet in the book, it talks about the Lord of the flies

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and like how flies will come and they'll, you know, go into these areas and I'll let the book

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do the justice. Cause I'm not as good as Jackie explaining it, but they'll, you know, they'll lay

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these eggs in these really, you know, areas. And it's just like that where the Lord, or excuse me,

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the enemy will come into trauma. If you're

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you will, and he'll lay eggs, he'll plant a seed,

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he'll lie to you about something.

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And sometimes it's so subtle that we don't even catch it

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when he's doing it.

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He's sneaky, he's sneaky, and he tries to kind of subtly

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just, will you believe what I'm telling you?

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And so tonight we wanna ask the Lord to reveal the flies,

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lies, and counterfeit lives.

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Okay, the counterfeit lives are the people that we live into

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because we believe lies.

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So it's when we don't really show up as our full self.

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I'll give you another example.

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Years ago, I was in this other relationship

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and we went to dinner at first and it was a dinner

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that had like a, it was a nice place,

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but they had like a dance floor and stuff.

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And I do love to dance, but the point that I feel led

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to bring this up is I was with the guy I was dating

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at the time and his friends came.

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it was the first time I met his friends.

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I was trying to impress them and just seem like

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I was the cool girlfriend.

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And his one friend in particular was dating someone

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for a very long time.

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And at one point he started dancing with other women

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out on the floor.

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And I remember just being so mad,

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but I just tried to act like it didn't bother me

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and just act cool about it.

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that was a counterfeit version of myself

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because I was uncomfortable in that moment.

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but I tried to just like go on in that relationship,

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even though early in the beginning,

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I saw that he surrounded himself with friends

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that weren't making good choices.

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Does that make sense?

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All right, so I'm just kind of planting seeds

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to get you guys thinking about your own stuff

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and maybe that doesn't relate to you at all,

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but just let the Lord kind of use that,

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to help you for your own situations.

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So lies are also what we call squatters in the heart.

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Do y'all know what squatters are?

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People that come in, tell places that they don't actually

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own those places and they take them over.

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I was telling the group earlier today,

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I actually just watched a movie last night

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where the CIA agent, he travels all over the world

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and he comes home to his apartment place

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and there's literally squatters there.

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And it was in another country.

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And during the winter in that country,

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I don't know if this was real,

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but this is what was happening in the movie.

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You couldn't even evict them.

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You couldn't even get them out.

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And I was thinking on that today,

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like how ironic that I watched this movie last night

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and then the Lord told me to go this direction today.

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And I didn't even make the connection

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until right before I jumped on the live earlier today.

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And this is why I feel like I want to mention that.

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So in that movie, even though he like rented

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or owned that place,

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he still did not have the right to evict those squatters.

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Is that crazy or what?

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But here's the thing.

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The Lord wanted me to tell you tonight

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that you have full authority by the power of Jesus Christ

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to evict every squatter, every lie,

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everything that doesn't belong out of your heart

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like we call the heart a home.

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So you kick them out of your home.

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They don't have to stay there.

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You have every right to tell them to get out.

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Okay, so I want to empower you by the Holy Spirit

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to know that they don't have to stay

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and you get to tell them when they get to leave.

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These are the enemies that will come in

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and lie to you and bring insecurity

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and resentment and bitterness and unforgiveness.

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The squatters are things like what we were talking about

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earlier, some of those fruit, the jealousy,

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all these kinds of things.

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Proverbs 23, seven says,

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for as a person thinks in his heart, so is he.

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So my question for you

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as you go into breakout session number one

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is what lies are you believing about yourself,

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about God, about other people?

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What squatters do you need to evict

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out of your heart and life tonight?

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It could be stuff that the Lord,

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even from your reading that's been stirred up,

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it could be stuff that's coming up in your mind

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even as I've been talking tonight.

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Maybe the lies are about your abilities,

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about what you can or can't do or what you need.

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Sometimes I think people believe the lie

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that they need some kind of substance to,

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this is what's coming up in my spirit too,

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like to be fun.

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How many people have ever heard that lie?

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Like you're only fun if you have a drink.

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You're too serious.

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You need to go do this or do that

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so that you're more relaxed.

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You know, these are all,

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you never understand until you start unpacking this stuff,

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how it takes root, okay?

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All right, I think that's enough to get you guys going.

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So you're going to go into breakouts.

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If you've never joined us live before, you're going to go into breakouts.

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I'm going to encourage you to open up to your sisters.

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And yes, I know some of you will not know each other.

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This will be the first time you're meeting each other.

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And it might feel you might be nervous, but I just want to encourage you

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like everybody is here on the same journey.

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You're safe here.

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If if anyone ever doesn't feel safe, I hope you tell me.

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But in two and a half years, I haven't had that happen yet.

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Praise the Lord.

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But you're going to go in and you're going to share one or two lies

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that you have been believing that you need to evict tonight,

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the squatters that you need to kick out if you have extra time.

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I want you to do that question first, OK?

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But if you have extra time, talk to each other.

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Where are you from?

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What led you to come and do this journey in the heartwork?

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You know, whatever.

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How was your day?

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You know, kind of just roll with it and get to know each other a little bit.

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You'll have about eight minutes.

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And I'm going to get that set up for you.

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I'm going to put two to three of you guys in,

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so you might only have enough time to talk about the question,

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but if you have extra time, I just wanted you guys to be prepared.

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All right.

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All right, so if you've never joined, you're going to have a thing there

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that says click to join the breakout room, go ahead and click that,

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and that will take you right into your breakout room.

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And I'll be checking to make sure everyone gets in.

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I say hi to all of our Facebook ladies.

472
00:26:41.000 --> 00:26:42.360
Hi, Cassandra.

473
00:26:44.880 --> 00:26:47.640
I'm going to talk to you guys here more just in just a minute,

474
00:26:47.640 --> 00:26:49.920
I want to just make sure everyone gets in the breakout.

475
00:26:50.120 --> 00:26:53.160
All right, Avalon, are you able, do you have a link?

476
00:26:53.720 --> 00:26:55.080
Tawana, do you have a link?

477
00:26:55.080 --> 00:26:56.920
And then I have Karen.

478
00:26:57.720 --> 00:26:59.320
Are you all able to click in?

479
00:27:05.960 --> 00:27:06.560
Make sure.

480
00:27:06.840 --> 00:27:07.640
Make sure.

481
00:27:25.760 --> 00:27:27.480
All right, I think everyone's okay.

482
00:27:28.720 --> 00:27:30.240
I just want to make sure I need some,

483
00:27:30.240 --> 00:27:32.680
like we didn't have anybody that ended up alone.

484
00:27:33.040 --> 00:27:35.560
Okay, yeah, you guys were in groups that had three.

485
00:27:35.560 --> 00:27:36.680
All right, perfect.

486
00:27:36.680 --> 00:27:39.960
All right, so I want to hear, I see that Cassandra said,

487
00:27:39.960 --> 00:27:41.840
wow, so relatable with the food.

488
00:27:41.840 --> 00:27:46.160
I've been shown the same thing too, even in happy excitement.

489
00:27:46.680 --> 00:27:49.640
I'm so glad you're still joining us, even though you're on the road.

490
00:27:49.640 --> 00:27:51.200
That's awesome.

491
00:27:51.200 --> 00:27:53.160
Anybody else that's watching on Facebook,

492
00:27:53.160 --> 00:27:55.360
if you don't know, you can come join us on Zoom.

493
00:27:55.360 --> 00:27:59.440
I posted the Zoom link at the top as soon as we went live there.

494
00:27:59.440 --> 00:28:01.440
It's also in the Facebook chat.

495
00:28:01.440 --> 00:28:04.360
It's also in the comments of the reminder post about tonight.

496
00:28:04.360 --> 00:28:07.200
So you guys can find it a lot of different places.

497
00:28:07.200 --> 00:28:09.760
But if you're not able to jump on Zoom, that's totally okay.

498
00:28:09.760 --> 00:28:13.800
But I did want to let you know that we would love to have you here,

499
00:28:14.080 --> 00:28:16.080
even if you can't join right now.

500
00:28:18.120 --> 00:28:19.440
Hold on.

501
00:28:25.800 --> 00:28:27.240
I'm going to type this question for them.

502
00:28:27.240 --> 00:28:28.320
I think they're wondering.

503
00:28:34.360 --> 00:29:00.160
Okay, so we just want to say thank you for being here tonight with us.

504
00:29:00.160 --> 00:29:01.680
Jennifer just shared too,

505
00:29:01.680 --> 00:29:05.520
the lie that the Holy Spirit just gave her is living in victory is mundane.

506
00:29:05.880 --> 00:29:07.720
Whoa, girl.

507
00:29:07.720 --> 00:29:10.080
Yeah, that is huge.

508
00:29:10.080 --> 00:29:10.440
All right.

509
00:29:10.440 --> 00:29:13.440
So I encourage you to ask the Lord.

510
00:29:14.800 --> 00:29:19.760
You know, what led you to believe that having victory is mundane?

511
00:29:19.760 --> 00:29:24.560
Like, why do you feel bad for having success or overcoming in an area?

512
00:29:24.560 --> 00:29:29.520
Did someone ever cause you to feel bad in your life when you were doing well?

513
00:29:29.520 --> 00:29:32.600
Maybe there was somebody that kind of competed with you a lot.

514
00:29:33.480 --> 00:29:35.680
I'm not sure if any of those things will relate to you.

515
00:29:35.680 --> 00:29:36.960
Hi, Angela.

516
00:29:36.960 --> 00:29:38.680
I'm going to put you into a breakout session.

517
00:29:38.680 --> 00:29:40.440
We are talking about lies.

518
00:29:40.440 --> 00:29:41.840
The Lord is in one.

519
00:29:41.840 --> 00:29:45.480
And somebody called and I got kicked out off of my deal.

520
00:29:45.480 --> 00:29:47.400
So I was in one with two ladies.

521
00:29:47.400 --> 00:29:49.640
But all right.

522
00:29:51.400 --> 00:29:54.320
Do you remember what the number was?

523
00:29:54.320 --> 00:29:57.640
No, I can just put you in a different one.

524
00:29:57.640 --> 00:29:58.680
That's OK.

525
00:29:58.680 --> 00:30:00.440
Let me just get you from up here.

526
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:03.000
Sorry about that.

527
00:30:03.000 --> 00:30:06.400
My phone rang and it kicked me off of my iPad.

528
00:30:06.400 --> 00:30:07.400
That's okay.

529
00:30:07.400 --> 00:30:08.400
All right.

530
00:30:08.400 --> 00:30:09.400
You should have that to join.

531
00:30:09.400 --> 00:30:10.400
Okay.

532
00:30:10.400 --> 00:30:11.400
Thank you.

533
00:30:11.400 --> 00:30:12.400
All right.

534
00:30:12.400 --> 00:30:13.400
Okay.

535
00:30:13.400 --> 00:30:14.400
Awesome.

536
00:30:14.400 --> 00:30:15.400
Okay.

537
00:30:15.400 --> 00:30:24.560
So Lord, we just thank you right now for all the ladies that are in the breakout rooms

538
00:30:24.560 --> 00:30:26.600
as well as those that are watching on Facebook.

539
00:30:26.600 --> 00:30:32.120
We thank you God for revealing these areas for healing, the areas where we need to evict

540
00:30:32.120 --> 00:30:36.280
the enemy out of our hearts, out of our minds, out of our spirits, our bodies, our souls.

541
00:30:36.280 --> 00:30:43.040
We thank you God that you're bringing things into the light that we're in darkness and

542
00:30:43.040 --> 00:30:49.120
things that are long forgotten even so many times Lord in the little nooks and crannies

543
00:30:49.120 --> 00:30:50.120
of our life.

544
00:30:50.120 --> 00:30:54.160
When we go through things, we so often we press that stuff down because we're just trying

545
00:30:54.160 --> 00:30:56.440
to keep moving and surviving.

546
00:30:56.440 --> 00:30:58.120
So Lord, you don't want us to stay that way.

547
00:30:58.120 --> 00:31:00.200
So I thank you that you're bringing truth.

548
00:31:00.200 --> 00:31:01.920
You're bringing life.

549
00:31:01.920 --> 00:31:08.960
You're bringing transformation or to thank you, um, that you are helping us to know you're

550
00:31:08.960 --> 00:31:13.160
good and perfecting pleasing will for our lives.

551
00:31:13.160 --> 00:31:18.640
We have Jeanette jumping on high Jeanette, how are you?

552
00:31:18.640 --> 00:31:22.480
All the ladies are in breakout session, so I'm going to put you in one of the groups.

553
00:31:22.480 --> 00:31:26.720
So what will happen is a button will come up and it'll say, you know, click to join

554
00:31:26.720 --> 00:31:27.720
the breakout.

555
00:31:27.720 --> 00:31:31.280
They are talking about lies that they are going to evict tonight.

556
00:31:31.280 --> 00:31:36.600
So lies, the Lord's been revealing that they're going to let go of, okay, I'm going to put

557
00:31:36.600 --> 00:31:38.080
you in one of those rooms.

558
00:31:38.080 --> 00:31:41.040
So that should show up there for you to click to join.

559
00:31:41.040 --> 00:31:43.040
Do you see that?

560
00:31:43.040 --> 00:31:44.040
Awesome.

561
00:31:44.040 --> 00:31:47.760
All right, thank you Lord.

562
00:31:47.760 --> 00:31:49.200
The timing is everything.

563
00:31:49.200 --> 00:31:52.760
I thank you that you brought every one of these ladies, whether those that are here

564
00:31:52.760 --> 00:31:58.120
tonight in the live session, those on Facebook, those in the replay, we love you.

565
00:31:58.120 --> 00:32:02.360
We're praying for you, but thank you God that you brought every one of these in this season

566
00:32:02.360 --> 00:32:08.080
here for such a time as this, God, we thank you that, um, you would help them to know

567
00:32:08.080 --> 00:32:13.760
how precious your thoughts are towards them, God, that those precious thoughts cannot even

568
00:32:13.760 --> 00:32:18.480
be numbered, that we would never be able to even count them.

569
00:32:18.480 --> 00:32:21.760
They outnumber the grains of sand.

570
00:32:21.760 --> 00:32:23.760
And when we wake up, God, you are still with us.

571
00:32:23.760 --> 00:32:27.680
When we lie down at night, we thank you God that you would help us to sleep and rest in

572
00:32:27.680 --> 00:32:31.760
peace and that you would guard our hearts and our minds through Christ Jesus.

573
00:32:31.760 --> 00:32:36.560
When we're awake, when we're asleep, and I thank you Lord that you never slumber or sleep,

574
00:32:36.560 --> 00:32:40.240
that your eyes are always roaming to and fro about the earth.

575
00:32:40.240 --> 00:32:45.320
And I thank you Lord that you, your eyes are turned towards us tonight and that you will

576
00:32:45.320 --> 00:32:49.640
help us to hear what your spirit is saying to us, what your heart is saying to us and

577
00:32:49.640 --> 00:32:50.640
about us.

578
00:32:50.640 --> 00:32:55.240
I thank you Lord that you'll help us to be alert and to be present, that you're about

579
00:32:55.240 --> 00:32:57.640
to do something brand new.

580
00:32:57.640 --> 00:33:01.440
It's bursting out that we would begin to perceive it.

581
00:33:01.440 --> 00:33:06.040
There it is that you are making a road through the desert and rivers and the badlands.

582
00:33:06.040 --> 00:33:08.360
Jennifer, I see that you're in shock.

583
00:33:08.360 --> 00:33:09.360
The lie was so good.

584
00:33:09.360 --> 00:33:10.680
It needed to be revealed.

585
00:33:10.680 --> 00:33:11.680
Yeah.

586
00:33:11.680 --> 00:33:12.680
And that's how it works.

587
00:33:12.680 --> 00:33:17.200
And now that you get elimination there, I would even ask the Lord, what other lies were

588
00:33:17.200 --> 00:33:19.800
you believing that were connected to that?

589
00:33:19.800 --> 00:33:23.820
Because typically, you know, when they're that big and they're that kind of sly and

590
00:33:23.820 --> 00:33:28.280
stuck in there, there tends to be other, what I call like tentacles, you know, just like

591
00:33:28.280 --> 00:33:33.600
an octopus, you know, not only do they have the, you know, whatever the octopus things

592
00:33:33.600 --> 00:33:37.420
are called, but then they have all those tentacles on them.

593
00:33:37.420 --> 00:33:39.760
So there can be other areas.

594
00:33:39.840 --> 00:33:40.840
Natalia.

595
00:33:40.840 --> 00:33:41.840
Hi, welcome.

596
00:33:41.840 --> 00:33:42.840
Yes.

597
00:33:42.840 --> 00:33:46.380
It's okay that you're here tonight.

598
00:33:46.380 --> 00:33:48.360
I don't know what you mean by path three.

599
00:33:48.360 --> 00:33:55.000
I'm thinking you're saying from week three, but so glad that you're here joining us.

600
00:33:55.000 --> 00:33:59.440
And then I just want to kind of point out too, that as we're talking about all of these

601
00:33:59.440 --> 00:34:06.480
areas for, you know, revealing for healing, we're asking God to reveal the lies that oftentimes

602
00:34:06.480 --> 00:34:09.600
we don't realize that pain can actually be a gift.

603
00:34:10.440 --> 00:34:16.219
Sometimes even when I'm going through a situation, if I start to feel pain or I start to feel

604
00:34:16.219 --> 00:34:20.040
heat in my heart, like not like a happy heat either.

605
00:34:20.040 --> 00:34:23.760
Like if I feel like heat, like, oh, that doesn't feel good.

606
00:34:23.760 --> 00:34:29.719
Or I feel angry or something's going on.

607
00:34:29.719 --> 00:34:34.739
Then I can ask the Lord to reveal what's causing that.

608
00:34:34.739 --> 00:34:39.900
So that pain is, can be a gift and it can be an engine light that tells us, Hey, you

609
00:34:39.900 --> 00:34:41.980
got to look under the hood here.

610
00:34:41.980 --> 00:34:43.260
There's something going on.

611
00:34:43.260 --> 00:34:47.500
And that's where we can keep asking God really good questions, ask him to reveal those areas

612
00:34:47.500 --> 00:34:48.500
for healing.

613
00:34:48.500 --> 00:34:53.380
Again, he knows all the cracks and crevices of our hearts, our minds, our spirits, our

614
00:34:53.380 --> 00:34:54.380
souls.

615
00:34:54.380 --> 00:34:59.260
And he knows what needs to be brought to the surface so that we can be completely whole,

616
00:34:59.260 --> 00:34:59.980
lacking no good.

617
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:06.000
because that's what the Bible declares. That's his will for us. Hi ladies. We have like 28 seconds

618
00:35:06.000 --> 00:35:12.720
until everyone's back. So I'm just going to kind of keep doing some stuff here. I just want to bless

619
00:35:12.720 --> 00:35:17.520
you all. And with the reminder that you don't have to be afraid because God is always with you.

620
00:35:17.520 --> 00:35:22.560
Don't be discouraged for he is your God. He will strengthen you and he will help you. He will hold

621
00:35:22.560 --> 00:35:27.040
you up with his righteous right hand. And I, there are a couple of people that I saw in today's,

622
00:35:27.040 --> 00:35:30.640
I haven't gotten through everybody's weekly roll call yet. And I will, if I don't get them all

623
00:35:30.640 --> 00:35:34.800
done tonight, I'll be working on them again tomorrow. So just know if I haven't gotten to

624
00:35:34.800 --> 00:35:39.760
you yet, I will see yours. Um, but I saw a couple of people were just feeling really discouraged

625
00:35:39.760 --> 00:35:45.680
and overwhelmed and, um, disheartened, you know, it can be, it can be a bumpy road, this heartwork

626
00:35:45.680 --> 00:35:52.720
process, but just keep hanging in there and just know that God is going to bring grace and healing

627
00:35:52.720 --> 00:35:59.680
and life in the midst of even those difficult places. He will. Um, so just hang in there and

628
00:35:59.680 --> 00:36:07.360
he will be your helper all the way through. Okay. So this is what we do as we come back from

629
00:36:07.360 --> 00:36:12.240
breakouts. And I ask if there's anyone that's willing to share with the whole group, what you

630
00:36:12.240 --> 00:36:18.000
shared in your breakout group. So if anyone would be willing to do that, we'd love to hear from you.

631
00:36:18.720 --> 00:36:20.720
Okay. Awesome. Claudia, go ahead.

632
00:36:22.320 --> 00:36:31.440
Hi. So I shared in my breakout room that the lie I've been always going to be the last, um,

633
00:36:32.640 --> 00:36:37.680
girl before he meets his person. It's been something that I've noticed for the last four,

634
00:36:37.680 --> 00:36:46.320
seven to four years that I meet someone and it doesn't even last a month and they either say,

635
00:36:47.120 --> 00:36:52.960
they either say this isn't going to work or I get ghosted. And two weeks, three weeks later,

636
00:36:52.960 --> 00:36:57.200
I see that they're in a relationship with someone else. And a lot of those guys are already married

637
00:36:58.080 --> 00:37:03.440
and have families. So I feel like I'm just the last step that they take before they meet somebody.

638
00:37:04.880 --> 00:37:10.000
Praise God that that's not true, but I understand that it's very real for you.

639
00:37:10.880 --> 00:37:15.120
Um, so here's the thing. When is the first time you ever remember feeling that way?

640
00:37:17.280 --> 00:37:27.600
Um, I think in a different context, it was probably when, um, the last person,

641
00:37:28.880 --> 00:37:36.160
uh, actually I want to say that when I remember probably like in 2017, sorry, 2015,

642
00:37:37.360 --> 00:37:43.040
there is somebody that I was, um, well, I say, I thought that we were seeing each other, but

643
00:37:43.040 --> 00:37:49.520
there is, um, somebody else he was seeing. And I noticed that his ex-girlfriend had shared a

644
00:37:49.520 --> 00:37:55.440
picture of them and she had a ring on her finger. And he told me that it was, um, an old picture

645
00:37:56.080 --> 00:38:00.800
and they, she was trying to get back together with him, but it turned out that it wasn't an

646
00:38:00.800 --> 00:38:04.960
old picture. It was actually very real. He proposed to her and didn't tell me.

647
00:38:05.200 --> 00:38:11.920
Okay. Yeah. So here's why I asked that. So anytime we're, we're having things like this,

648
00:38:11.920 --> 00:38:18.960
even though, um, that is manifesting in your reality for a season, I really want you to kind

649
00:38:18.960 --> 00:38:24.000
of cling to that. This is not your forever. This is not your home. You are not staying here

650
00:38:24.000 --> 00:38:29.440
in this place where it feels like these guys date you and then it's over and then they find

651
00:38:30.400 --> 00:38:36.400
their person. So the, the number one step ladies is we have to come out of alignment with those

652
00:38:36.400 --> 00:38:42.880
lies. That's step number one. We have to say, okay, well, I do know this is what it feels like.

653
00:38:42.880 --> 00:38:49.200
I am choosing to not come into agreement with that lie anymore. Okay. So that's step number one.

654
00:38:49.200 --> 00:38:53.280
The other thing was when I asked you, okay, when's the first time you remember feeling this

655
00:38:53.280 --> 00:38:58.720
way? So as you were telling that story, you know, and you might know this already, but I hear

656
00:38:58.720 --> 00:39:07.360
betrayal in there. Um, yeah, there, there was actually betrayal in a different context. It

657
00:39:07.360 --> 00:39:14.080
was when I was five, my mom was dating a guy and she married somebody. And I told her that I didn't

658
00:39:14.080 --> 00:39:20.160
want her to marry him because I didn't like him. And she did it anyway. And it turned out that he

659
00:39:20.160 --> 00:39:28.400
was, um, abusive for the next 10 years. Okay. So this is how heart work happens. Ladies. This

660
00:39:28.400 --> 00:39:34.800
is like a prime example. So the current reality that she's been living in, this is where she

661
00:39:35.440 --> 00:39:40.480
thinks, and I'm just kind of interpreting. This might be where it looks like you all are stuck

662
00:39:40.480 --> 00:39:46.880
when these things happen, but just from listening to her and asking one question, or you guys asking

663
00:39:46.880 --> 00:39:51.840
God, these kinds of questions, instead of, instead of us just always like, this is how it's always

664
00:39:51.840 --> 00:39:58.480
going to be. This is my lot, you know, where we're like, no, wait a minute. God said, he has something

665
00:39:58.480 --> 00:39:59.840
good for me.

666
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:06.480
this isn't good. So Lord, why is this happening? Like when was the first time I believed this lie?

667
00:40:07.040 --> 00:40:14.000
And so, um, with that betrayal, um, Claudia, as you're kind of unpacking that with the Lord,

668
00:40:14.000 --> 00:40:20.240
I really think as you lean into that, the betrayal with your mom and the betrayal that even with this

669
00:40:20.240 --> 00:40:25.600
guy, he was telling you, he was dating you or alluding to that fact while he was still with

670
00:40:25.600 --> 00:40:32.880
someone else and then like asked her to marry him. That is betrayal. And sometimes we don't

671
00:40:32.880 --> 00:40:38.080
even put those kinds of words to those kinds of things. And so when we do finally like,

672
00:40:38.080 --> 00:40:44.720
wait a minute, like, this is what really happened here. Then we can start to face that situation.

673
00:40:45.600 --> 00:40:50.800
Um, but there's probably going to be some forgiveness that's going to have to take

674
00:40:50.800 --> 00:40:56.800
place in both of these situations, um, where, you know, cause even as you were talking about

675
00:40:56.800 --> 00:41:02.880
your mom, um, and this is normal, just so you guys know, I don't like it happens to me too.

676
00:41:02.880 --> 00:41:07.840
Um, sometimes I'll like, if I'm talking about something that's really hard, sometimes like

677
00:41:07.840 --> 00:41:12.400
I'll literally feel like I'm shaking from the inside out and it's not, it's not anything like

678
00:41:12.400 --> 00:41:16.880
I'm not, it's not weird. It's just for a long time, I didn't understand what was happening.

679
00:41:16.880 --> 00:41:23.040
It's just, our bodies can't contain some trauma. And so as we're talking about those really hard

680
00:41:23.040 --> 00:41:27.840
things, you know, sometimes it just manifests differently. Her voice got shaky. I don't know

681
00:41:27.840 --> 00:41:32.880
if you guys could hear. So if you guys ever experienced that yourself, that is a sign to

682
00:41:32.880 --> 00:41:38.160
you, like that you're still, you still got a lot of tenderness in that area. And there's probably

683
00:41:38.160 --> 00:41:44.160
some, some need for healing there. Um, if you guys have areas of things you've been through

684
00:41:44.160 --> 00:41:50.080
that you just literally don't even want to talk about it, that can be another sign that, Hey,

685
00:41:50.080 --> 00:41:55.520
Lord, I need you to come and show me like, what's, what do I still need healed in this area?

686
00:41:56.080 --> 00:42:02.640
And so, uh, Claudia, thank you for being brave and sharing. Uh, I know it can be so tough. Um,

687
00:42:03.600 --> 00:42:08.640
but I believe God wants you to be free from all of that. And that, again, that is not your lot.

688
00:42:08.640 --> 00:42:12.880
You're going to, you're going to end up, your spirit mate's going to be drawn to you and you

689
00:42:12.880 --> 00:42:16.880
are going to be drawn to your spirit mate. And that is the truth. That's what I want you to cling

690
00:42:16.880 --> 00:42:24.880
to. And God is going to heal you and lead you into that path in the days ahead. All right. All right.

691
00:42:24.880 --> 00:42:30.720
So that's where then we replace it with truth. So the truth is that I believe God, thank you,

692
00:42:30.720 --> 00:42:34.000
God, that you're going to lead me to my spirit mate and you're going to lead my spirit mate to

693
00:42:34.000 --> 00:42:39.680
me. And then we also find truth in the word to align with as well. So we replace the lie

694
00:42:39.680 --> 00:42:43.760
with truth. Okay. And then we cling to that truth and we confess that truth

695
00:42:43.760 --> 00:42:47.120
and we align with that instead. All right, Amber, go ahead.

696
00:42:50.640 --> 00:42:57.840
Hey, yeah. So one of the things that I was thinking of was that, like, I really want to be

697
00:42:57.840 --> 00:43:06.320
cared for and led spiritually, um, by my spouse or, you know, even dating someone, but I don't,

698
00:43:06.320 --> 00:43:12.320
I'm like questioning if that's possible because I feel like that doesn't come like I lead a lot

699
00:43:12.320 --> 00:43:18.560
of things at my church. I'm a leader and just naturally, and, um, I'm always initiating things

700
00:43:18.560 --> 00:43:24.560
and kind of being the first to go. So I want that to be a thing that comes in a relationship,

701
00:43:24.560 --> 00:43:30.160
but I feel like it's not there. And so then I'm just like, do I question and doubt God's ability

702
00:43:30.160 --> 00:43:35.920
to do that? But then as you were talking to Claudia, I did kind of think back to like,

703
00:43:35.920 --> 00:43:43.120
how much does this truly go back to me losing my dad at 22. And he was like our safe place in our

704
00:43:43.120 --> 00:43:50.240
family. And, um, like he was my, my adventure buddy, like the thing, you know, like daddy's

705
00:43:50.240 --> 00:43:57.520
girl, all that stuff. And, and so how much has maybe the past 17 years really been affected by

706
00:43:58.480 --> 00:44:04.880
losing him and in a bigger way than I even knew. Um, and then I thought back to like,

707
00:44:04.880 --> 00:44:09.920
just now, like I did date someone before my dad passed away that did care for me. And that did

708
00:44:09.920 --> 00:44:15.600
lead me spiritually, but we weren't able to, to continue that relationship due to, to distance.

709
00:44:15.600 --> 00:44:20.240
And also I do think that there would have been decisions made that wouldn't have been healthy

710
00:44:20.240 --> 00:44:26.160
for us based on that distance. And so anyways, I, I just, I'm like, God, what, where's the

711
00:44:26.160 --> 00:44:30.880
possibility to be, to be led and cared for and loved. And, um, so that's where I'm kind of

712
00:44:30.880 --> 00:44:37.680
struggling. Yeah. Amber, thank you for sharing. Um, I'm going to say my hunch is yes, that there

713
00:44:37.680 --> 00:44:41.680
are some things connected to your dad there. Uh, as soon as you started talking about it,

714
00:44:41.680 --> 00:44:47.120
it just felt like the Holy spirit, like all over. And, and so typically I just know that's one of

715
00:44:47.120 --> 00:44:51.920
the ways the Lord kind of confirms and resonates in my spirit when I hear someone saying something.

716
00:44:51.920 --> 00:44:58.640
So I would encourage you just to ask the Lord, you know, um, here's, here's the reality to y'all.

717
00:44:58.640 --> 00:44:59.840
Sometimes when we lose people.

718
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:12.000
Like we can believe the lie that we will dishonor them in some way if we let someone else like in that close.

719
00:45:12.000 --> 00:45:18.000
And I'm not saying that's your situation, but I feel led to mention that.

720
00:45:18.000 --> 00:45:21.000
And thank you, Lord.

721
00:45:22.000 --> 00:45:35.000
You know, the reality, too, is if you make yourself vulnerable again, Amber, to a man leading you, that means you have to risk losing them.

722
00:45:35.000 --> 00:45:38.000
And so I feel I just again, I'm just feeling the Holy Spirit all over this.

723
00:45:38.000 --> 00:45:45.000
I'm feeling some resonance there, like the fear of, you know, can they lead me? Can they lead me?

724
00:45:45.000 --> 00:45:47.000
Maybe the enemy is just really taking you down.

725
00:45:47.000 --> 00:45:53.000
There's no men that are spiritual enough to lead you or you can't find these men to spiritually lead you, which is not true.

726
00:45:53.000 --> 00:45:57.000
They are out there. I promise. I found one and there's more than one.

727
00:45:57.000 --> 00:46:00.000
Ladies, there's lots of good guys out there. There are.

728
00:46:00.000 --> 00:46:03.000
The enemy wants us to think that there's not. That's not true.

729
00:46:03.000 --> 00:46:16.000
And so I believe as you let the Lord heal some more of the areas of the stuff with your dad and losing him and maybe even just ask the Lord, like, hey, Lord, you know, just be real.

730
00:46:16.000 --> 00:46:25.000
Like this came up tonight and I want you to show me, like, are there areas where I've put walls up and I've been afraid to let people in?

731
00:46:25.000 --> 00:46:31.000
Is there anything I need to know that's in darkness or an area that I need healing that I'm just not aware of?

732
00:46:31.000 --> 00:46:44.000
And just see what he starts to connect for you, because what you said as you were sharing that I thought was super important to you is before your dad passed away, you were dating someone who led you spiritually.

733
00:46:44.000 --> 00:46:56.000
So, you know, it can happen. Yeah. And so the enemy is just trying to he's just trying to deceive you into thinking that you're too strong for anybody to lead you.

734
00:46:56.000 --> 00:47:03.000
But here the Holy Spirit and the father and Jesus Christ are going to lead somebody into your life, but you have to make room for them.

735
00:47:03.000 --> 00:47:16.000
So that means we have to open up and not have to do it all ourselves anymore, not have to take care of ourselves anymore, you know, and really be vulnerable and let people in.

736
00:47:16.000 --> 00:47:23.000
And that's why I say to you guys, if you practice, even letting women in, some of you guys are terrified to let women in for right reasons.

737
00:47:23.000 --> 00:47:30.000
Some of you guys have been hurt by women. But if you practice here, God will help you. It will be easier.

738
00:47:30.000 --> 00:47:40.000
I'm not saying it's going to be super easy because some of you guys, it's going to be practice, but you'll get better at letting the men in to thank you for sharing your story.

739
00:47:40.000 --> 00:47:45.000
I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. Thanks for listening. Thanks for. Yeah, you're welcome.

740
00:47:46.000 --> 00:47:52.000
Okay, now I'm not sure if I'm going to say your name right. Is it Krutika?

741
00:47:52.000 --> 00:47:54.000
It's Krutika. Yeah, it was.

742
00:47:54.000 --> 00:47:57.000
I got it right the first time. Okay, awesome.

743
00:47:57.000 --> 00:48:07.000
Yeah, so a couple of things that I shared in the breakout is the first one is I feel very conscious about my body.

744
00:48:07.000 --> 00:48:15.000
I do exercise. I eat healthy. I have changed my diet for the planet and so many things.

745
00:48:15.000 --> 00:48:22.000
But then I always feel that growing up, my sister, she was born perfect.

746
00:48:22.000 --> 00:48:26.000
She had good looks, perfect features and everything. And I love my sister.

747
00:48:26.000 --> 00:48:32.000
But it feels like I was always compared to people outside my home and in my family.

748
00:48:32.000 --> 00:48:35.000
Everyone would be like, oh, my God, your sister is so much prettier.

749
00:48:35.000 --> 00:48:40.000
Yeah, like and it's like it's it is there is a trend of arranged marriages in India.

750
00:48:40.000 --> 00:48:46.000
So it's like, yeah, how will we ever get you married because your sister is so much prettier.

751
00:48:46.000 --> 00:48:52.000
And even till date, no matter how much I affirm to myself, I always feel that I'm not as pretty as her.

752
00:48:52.000 --> 00:49:01.000
And if a man ends up coming in my life, if he sees my sister, he will like her more because the environment that I came from it.

753
00:49:01.000 --> 00:49:05.000
So much importance is given to beauty and looks.

754
00:49:05.000 --> 00:49:11.000
And secondly, I also feel that whenever I go on dates and everything,

755
00:49:11.000 --> 00:49:18.000
I feel that I do not resonate with a lot of things that people think are fun.

756
00:49:18.000 --> 00:49:25.000
I have got my own hobbies and my own interests, but I like I don't find as many people who like that.

757
00:49:25.000 --> 00:49:29.000
And they are always like, how can you not like doing skydiving?

758
00:49:29.000 --> 00:49:30.000
Like you're so boring and everything.

759
00:49:30.000 --> 00:49:42.000
And I always feel that whenever I'm on dates and stuff, I'm always being judged for like, you know, honestly telling them that I do not like something instead of, you know, going there with them and not enjoying myself.

760
00:49:42.000 --> 00:49:51.000
And third thing is like after so many therapies and stuff, I learned that I need to set healthy boundaries rather than just draining myself.

761
00:49:51.000 --> 00:49:55.000
But it is not accepted well by my friends and family.

762
00:49:55.000 --> 00:50:00.000
I was even shamed a couple of times for setting healthy boundaries and I always feel like.

763
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.960
being honest and speaking my heart out,

764
00:50:02.960 --> 00:50:05.080
even in the kindest way possible,

765
00:50:05.080 --> 00:50:06.340
people do not take that.

766
00:50:06.340 --> 00:50:10.760
And I always feel that I just can't be myself with anyone,

767
00:50:10.760 --> 00:50:12.320
but I do not want that.

768
00:50:12.320 --> 00:50:15.820
And I always feel that if I am myself,

769
00:50:15.820 --> 00:50:19.720
or if I try to be myself, who I am, my genuine self,

770
00:50:19.720 --> 00:50:21.280
then nobody's going to like me.

771
00:50:23.360 --> 00:50:25.120
Whoa, girl.

772
00:50:25.120 --> 00:50:27.000
I'm gonna call you all of y'all girls.

773
00:50:27.000 --> 00:50:29.300
I try not to do it, but it just comes out.

774
00:50:29.340 --> 00:50:30.460
I don't know why.

775
00:50:30.460 --> 00:50:31.380
I apologize.

776
00:50:31.380 --> 00:50:33.220
You're all amazing ladies.

777
00:50:34.700 --> 00:50:37.700
Man, I just think you're amazing, number one.

778
00:50:37.700 --> 00:50:39.900
I'm just gonna say that right out of the gate.

779
00:50:39.900 --> 00:50:43.580
And I'm so sorry that people have spoken to you

780
00:50:43.580 --> 00:50:47.620
in these ways and minimized who you are.

781
00:50:47.620 --> 00:50:50.020
And it's not just about beauty.

782
00:50:50.020 --> 00:50:51.340
Like I'm hearing you say,

783
00:50:51.340 --> 00:50:54.100
people like have minimized your interest.

784
00:50:54.100 --> 00:50:55.980
People have minimized you

785
00:50:55.980 --> 00:50:57.880
in the way that you're setting boundaries.

786
00:50:58.320 --> 00:51:00.440
They're comparing you to someone else.

787
00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:01.700
And I just believe that

788
00:51:01.700 --> 00:51:03.400
just from the heart of the father tonight,

789
00:51:03.400 --> 00:51:05.440
like that breaks his heart for you.

790
00:51:05.440 --> 00:51:06.560
And I just want you to know,

791
00:51:06.560 --> 00:51:10.120
like he is sorry that you've been going through that too.

792
00:51:10.120 --> 00:51:14.880
And the next thing I wanted to say was

793
00:51:17.360 --> 00:51:19.400
when you said, I can't be myself,

794
00:51:19.400 --> 00:51:21.280
that really just summed it up.

795
00:51:21.280 --> 00:51:23.080
And how interesting tonight.

796
00:51:23.080 --> 00:51:25.740
I mean, I literally didn't talk as much about that

797
00:51:25.740 --> 00:51:29.340
this morning in the first session as I did tonight

798
00:51:29.340 --> 00:51:31.460
for you guys to like yourselves.

799
00:51:31.460 --> 00:51:33.380
And so I wanna encourage you,

800
00:51:33.380 --> 00:51:35.180
and this can apply to anybody

801
00:51:35.180 --> 00:51:36.660
if you struggle in these areas,

802
00:51:36.660 --> 00:51:38.120
to take a picture of yourself.

803
00:51:38.120 --> 00:51:39.620
I think I actually gave this example

804
00:51:39.620 --> 00:51:41.180
to somebody else in this group.

805
00:51:41.180 --> 00:51:43.300
I do so many responses in the different groups, y'all.

806
00:51:43.300 --> 00:51:46.060
I don't even remember sometimes where I'm doing it at.

807
00:51:46.060 --> 00:51:48.620
But to find a picture of yourself that you like,

808
00:51:48.620 --> 00:51:51.580
not one that someone else said you had to be a certain way,

809
00:51:51.580 --> 00:51:55.140
look a certain way, but one you like of yourself

810
00:51:55.140 --> 00:51:56.640
or just your favorite one.

811
00:51:56.640 --> 00:51:58.420
Even if you don't like, you're not like,

812
00:51:58.420 --> 00:52:00.060
I love this photo.

813
00:52:00.060 --> 00:52:02.980
And I want you to start writing things you like

814
00:52:02.980 --> 00:52:04.740
about yourself on that photo.

815
00:52:04.740 --> 00:52:05.940
And I want you to hang it up

816
00:52:05.940 --> 00:52:09.180
and I want you to look at it and reaffirm yourself

817
00:52:09.180 --> 00:52:11.340
because here's the thing.

818
00:52:11.340 --> 00:52:13.380
Unfortunately, in a broken and fallen world,

819
00:52:13.380 --> 00:52:14.720
people aren't gonna affirm us

820
00:52:14.720 --> 00:52:16.520
the way that they should at times.

821
00:52:16.520 --> 00:52:20.260
But if you grow to really love who you are,

822
00:52:20.260 --> 00:52:22.060
no matter what you endure,

823
00:52:22.060 --> 00:52:25.180
that's not going to shake that in you.

824
00:52:25.180 --> 00:52:26.820
Does that make sense?

825
00:52:26.820 --> 00:52:29.660
And so there's that first thing, okay?

826
00:52:29.660 --> 00:52:31.220
And yeah, you guys can all do it.

827
00:52:31.220 --> 00:52:33.060
I think every woman,

828
00:52:33.060 --> 00:52:34.860
I don't know if you guys have ever seen the images

829
00:52:34.860 --> 00:52:37.140
where it shows the woman that's really struggling

830
00:52:37.140 --> 00:52:42.140
and she's like, it's like all like shame and lust

831
00:52:42.340 --> 00:52:45.980
and all the negative things that we all go through.

832
00:52:45.980 --> 00:52:48.800
And God just started showing me.

833
00:52:48.800 --> 00:52:50.980
It was a class I took like just to start

834
00:52:50.980 --> 00:52:52.940
when I'm even praying for things for people,

835
00:52:52.940 --> 00:52:55.300
I really need to see God move in their life.

836
00:52:55.300 --> 00:52:58.100
God led me to take a picture of my stepson

837
00:52:58.100 --> 00:52:59.900
and I just started writing prophetic,

838
00:52:59.900 --> 00:53:02.580
like things I prayed and asked God to show me things.

839
00:53:02.580 --> 00:53:05.180
And I still, to this day,

840
00:53:05.180 --> 00:53:07.020
will pray over those things for him.

841
00:53:07.020 --> 00:53:08.740
And I believe those things are coming to pass.

842
00:53:08.740 --> 00:53:11.740
So for whatever that's worth, that came to my mind first.

843
00:53:11.740 --> 00:53:16.740
And then there's a lot of places I could go with this,

844
00:53:16.940 --> 00:53:19.840
but I feel really like this sister thing

845
00:53:19.880 --> 00:53:21.960
is like really, really big.

846
00:53:21.960 --> 00:53:24.840
And I wanna encourage you to ask the Lord

847
00:53:24.840 --> 00:53:26.840
to help you forgive her.

848
00:53:29.240 --> 00:53:32.200
Because I feel like along the way, as hard as it is,

849
00:53:32.200 --> 00:53:35.120
I have no doubt that you love her,

850
00:53:35.120 --> 00:53:38.120
but along the way, when people treat you that way

851
00:53:38.120 --> 00:53:41.320
and they compare you to her over and over and over,

852
00:53:41.320 --> 00:53:44.040
it's gonna be really tough to not have resentment

853
00:53:44.040 --> 00:53:46.000
towards her because of that.

854
00:53:46.000 --> 00:53:47.280
And so just asking the Lord

855
00:53:47.280 --> 00:53:48.900
if there's any unforgiveness there,

856
00:53:48.900 --> 00:53:50.460
if there's anything that,

857
00:53:50.460 --> 00:53:53.280
just to release her and just have your heart clear

858
00:53:53.280 --> 00:53:56.380
and to forgive those people that said that stuff to you.

859
00:53:57.420 --> 00:53:59.520
And that might take a little while and that's okay,

860
00:53:59.520 --> 00:54:01.060
but forgiveness is a choice.

861
00:54:01.060 --> 00:54:04.180
So as soon as you forgive, it happens,

862
00:54:04.180 --> 00:54:07.940
but the feelings, it might take a little while to catch up.

863
00:54:07.940 --> 00:54:10.680
And then the last thing is,

864
00:54:12.420 --> 00:54:13.820
if this encourages you at all,

865
00:54:13.820 --> 00:54:16.480
I don't know what your things are that you like to do,

866
00:54:16.480 --> 00:54:19.440
but on the first date with my now husband,

867
00:54:19.440 --> 00:54:22.360
he came out with the, I like Legos.

868
00:54:22.360 --> 00:54:23.720
Like it was like almost like,

869
00:54:23.720 --> 00:54:25.680
like he almost couldn't hold it in you all

870
00:54:25.680 --> 00:54:28.280
because he was so worried.

871
00:54:28.280 --> 00:54:31.040
He didn't want to get to know me

872
00:54:31.040 --> 00:54:34.240
if I wasn't going to accept him for his Legos.

873
00:54:34.240 --> 00:54:38.040
And the things that he likes, and this is why,

874
00:54:38.040 --> 00:54:41.480
his ex-wife used to make fun of him and put him down

875
00:54:41.480 --> 00:54:44.480
and really like minimize his interest.

876
00:54:44.480 --> 00:54:49.080
And so I will tell you that when you find the spirit mate

877
00:54:49.080 --> 00:54:52.920
that God has for you, they're going to embrace who you are

878
00:54:52.920 --> 00:54:53.880
and they're going to love you.

879
00:54:53.880 --> 00:54:56.880
And they're not going to make you feel bad for your interest.

880
00:54:56.880 --> 00:54:58.360
And it's okay if your interests

881
00:54:58.360 --> 00:55:00.080
aren't exactly the same as theirs.

882
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.840
Do I do Legos as much as him?

883
00:55:02.840 --> 00:55:06.080
No, I do them more now that I'm married to him

884
00:55:06.080 --> 00:55:08.440
because I do like puzzles and, you know,

885
00:55:08.440 --> 00:55:10.560
I enjoy doing things with him.

886
00:55:10.560 --> 00:55:13.180
We go to Lego stuff and all the kind.

887
00:55:13.180 --> 00:55:15.040
Would I have done that on my own?

888
00:55:15.040 --> 00:55:17.800
Probably not, but because we love someone,

889
00:55:17.800 --> 00:55:21.840
we do things for them to make them feel happy and loved.

890
00:55:21.840 --> 00:55:23.400
And you will have that too.

891
00:55:23.400 --> 00:55:26.560
You will, but you just have to find the right person

892
00:55:26.560 --> 00:55:29.280
that will embrace you and honor you and love you

893
00:55:29.280 --> 00:55:33.400
and build you up and not tear you down, okay?

894
00:55:33.400 --> 00:55:34.240
All right.

895
00:55:34.240 --> 00:55:36.920
And on that ladies, on that note, any of you guys,

896
00:55:36.920 --> 00:55:39.040
if there's areas where people are saying mean

897
00:55:39.040 --> 00:55:40.360
and hurtful things to you,

898
00:55:40.360 --> 00:55:42.920
and that continues to happen,

899
00:55:42.920 --> 00:55:46.080
not only through parents and other guardians,

900
00:55:46.080 --> 00:55:48.920
and now you're seeing it showing up in your dating life,

901
00:55:49.920 --> 00:55:52.320
there's probably some kind of soul tie there

902
00:55:52.320 --> 00:55:54.640
or some unforgiveness that's causing that

903
00:55:54.640 --> 00:55:58.720
to now come up in other places, okay?

904
00:55:59.160 --> 00:56:01.160
I can take one more right now,

905
00:56:01.160 --> 00:56:02.600
and then I need to get you guys going

906
00:56:02.600 --> 00:56:05.480
towards our next topic for tonight.

907
00:56:07.120 --> 00:56:09.440
I'm gonna go to Michaela only just

908
00:56:09.440 --> 00:56:11.320
because I've never heard Michaela share,

909
00:56:11.320 --> 00:56:14.960
and she was just the next person on my screen here.

910
00:56:17.760 --> 00:56:19.720
Well, this is only my second week, so that may be why.

911
00:56:19.720 --> 00:56:20.560
Oh, that's all right.

912
00:56:20.560 --> 00:56:21.400
Yeah, no, that's totally fine.

913
00:56:21.400 --> 00:56:23.160
And I didn't mean that in a negative way.

914
00:56:23.160 --> 00:56:24.000
No, no, no, no.

915
00:56:24.000 --> 00:56:25.840
I just, I'm new.

916
00:56:26.680 --> 00:56:27.520
Welcome.

917
00:56:27.920 --> 00:56:31.040
For me, the big thing that I talked about,

918
00:56:31.040 --> 00:56:33.480
and a lot of these things that people have been sharing

919
00:56:33.480 --> 00:56:34.440
have resonated with me,

920
00:56:34.440 --> 00:56:37.360
but the thing that I shared was just,

921
00:56:37.360 --> 00:56:41.880
I think lies around just feeling not worthy

922
00:56:41.880 --> 00:56:44.320
and not good enough.

923
00:56:44.320 --> 00:56:48.480
Specifically, what I was talking about was in work.

924
00:56:48.480 --> 00:56:53.480
For me, I shared that for a lot of different reasons,

925
00:56:54.000 --> 00:56:55.640
for a lot of different reasons.

926
00:56:55.640 --> 00:56:57.480
I'm a pediatric nurse practitioner,

927
00:56:57.480 --> 00:57:00.840
and for a lot of reasons over the last,

928
00:57:00.840 --> 00:57:05.400
from 2020 to when I started my job in July of 2023,

929
00:57:05.400 --> 00:57:07.120
I wasn't working.

930
00:57:07.120 --> 00:57:09.560
I did try my hand at my own business, which failed,

931
00:57:09.560 --> 00:57:12.200
but I just basically wasn't working

932
00:57:12.200 --> 00:57:13.240
in a corporate environment.

933
00:57:13.240 --> 00:57:15.520
And so I started again in July,

934
00:57:15.520 --> 00:57:18.640
and there have been a lot of roadblocks and a lot of bumps,

935
00:57:18.640 --> 00:57:21.800
and I could call it, I was in purgatory,

936
00:57:22.320 --> 00:57:24.720
is what I nicknamed it,

937
00:57:24.720 --> 00:57:27.240
because it was just a real rough start

938
00:57:28.360 --> 00:57:33.000
for like three months or four months when I started my job.

939
00:57:33.000 --> 00:57:36.200
And I think I've just been really, truly believing

940
00:57:36.200 --> 00:57:37.680
and buying into that,

941
00:57:39.040 --> 00:57:42.080
just that I'm not worthy of this position,

942
00:57:42.080 --> 00:57:45.160
and I'm not smart enough, or I'm not, I don't know,

943
00:57:45.160 --> 00:57:48.160
I'm just not enough, I think is just the lie,

944
00:57:49.080 --> 00:57:50.440
like the basic lie.

945
00:57:52.160 --> 00:57:54.160
And so that's, I think,

946
00:57:54.160 --> 00:57:55.560
one of the things that I've been struggling with

947
00:57:55.560 --> 00:57:57.800
the most lately and what has came up for me.

948
00:57:59.280 --> 00:58:00.200
Thank you for sharing.

949
00:58:00.200 --> 00:58:04.680
Mikayla, so when you mentioned about your business

950
00:58:04.680 --> 00:58:06.280
and that it didn't work out,

951
00:58:07.920 --> 00:58:09.840
how are you doing with that part of it?

952
00:58:11.480 --> 00:58:15.160
It's sad that it's not, I think,

953
00:58:15.520 --> 00:58:16.360
I don't know,

954
00:58:21.360 --> 00:58:23.040
I didn't love working for myself,

955
00:58:23.040 --> 00:58:28.040
so I think I have some feelings around,

956
00:58:29.200 --> 00:58:33.520
like, I don't love to fail and let go of things,

957
00:58:33.520 --> 00:58:36.720
but I'm like, I probably have some feelings

958
00:58:36.720 --> 00:58:38.320
around like the way that ended,

959
00:58:38.320 --> 00:58:42.520
but I think a lot more of the feeling like,

960
00:58:42.680 --> 00:58:47.080
more of the feeling like not enough

961
00:58:47.080 --> 00:58:52.080
has to do more with like past trauma in past positions.

962
00:58:52.480 --> 00:58:53.440
Okay.

963
00:58:53.440 --> 00:58:55.360
If I had to like nail it down

964
00:58:55.360 --> 00:58:58.200
versus like just trying my hand at running my own practice,

965
00:58:58.200 --> 00:59:00.280
I hated working for myself.

966
00:59:00.280 --> 00:59:01.600
Okay. I hated marketing,

967
00:59:01.600 --> 00:59:05.000
I hated doing any of that business type stuff, so.

968
00:59:05.000 --> 00:59:06.760
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

969
00:59:06.760 --> 00:59:08.720
The reason I was asking is,

970
00:59:08.720 --> 00:59:09.720
when you started talking about that,

971
00:59:09.720 --> 00:59:12.040
that was the part where you kind of started crying more,

972
00:59:12.560 --> 00:59:14.240
or I noticed that that was more vulnerable.

973
00:59:14.240 --> 00:59:18.160
And so it just made me wonder,

974
00:59:18.160 --> 00:59:22.120
because while we might not love something,

975
00:59:22.120 --> 00:59:23.600
like kind of you said it yourself,

976
00:59:23.600 --> 00:59:24.520
we don't ever,

977
00:59:24.520 --> 00:59:25.960
I don't think many of us want to feel

978
00:59:25.960 --> 00:59:27.600
like we fail at something, right?

979
00:59:28.720 --> 00:59:30.120
But here's the thing too,

980
00:59:30.120 --> 00:59:33.480
is when you were saying not smart enough,

981
00:59:33.480 --> 00:59:36.120
that stood out to me a whole lot.

982
00:59:36.120 --> 00:59:40.080
And so I'm just curious where that's coming from for you,

983
00:59:40.960 --> 00:59:43.480
you know, whether it's these former jobs

984
00:59:43.480 --> 00:59:45.960
or things that you had went through there,

985
00:59:45.960 --> 00:59:48.000
or if someone said something to you

986
00:59:48.000 --> 00:59:50.320
when you were growing up or along the way,

987
00:59:50.320 --> 00:59:53.520
I just, as you're kind of unpacking this,

988
00:59:53.520 --> 00:59:56.200
like typically, here's what I heard the Lord say,

989
00:59:56.200 --> 01:00:00.200
when pressures applied to something in all of our lives,

990
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:07.360
lives, what's inside will come out. Okay. And so right now you're going through this

991
01:00:07.360 --> 01:00:11.680
pressure because now you're in this new environment, you're trying to kind of get back into the

992
01:00:11.680 --> 01:00:18.000
swing of things. It's, it sounds like it's rough, it's hard. Um, and the pressure as

993
01:00:18.000 --> 01:00:24.440
it's getting applied, these things that are in your heart are coming out. And so somewhere

994
01:00:24.440 --> 01:00:29.680
along the way you started believe in the lie that you're not smart enough. So whether

995
01:00:29.680 --> 01:00:34.320
that's a thought that you had, um, this is something I did say earlier, and I want to

996
01:00:34.320 --> 01:00:39.360
help you guys start to discern like who, where are the thoughts coming from in your head?

997
01:00:39.360 --> 01:00:47.520
Okay. Here's the three questions to ask. God, is this my thought? God, is this your thought?

998
01:00:47.520 --> 01:00:53.360
Or is this a thought from the enemy? God, is this my thought? God, is this your thought?

999
01:00:53.360 --> 01:00:58.240
Or is this a thought from the enemy? And this is why not every thought that we have

1000
01:00:58.240 --> 01:01:04.840
in our minds is actually our own thought. But so many of us don't even understand that

1001
01:01:04.840 --> 01:01:10.080
sometimes things that we're thinking are actually from the enemy and he's trying to get us to

1002
01:01:10.080 --> 01:01:17.960
believe that thought. And it's so subtle that we just, we, we just start believing it or

1003
01:01:18.040 --> 01:01:23.560
we think it's our own thought and we own it. Um, so just as you're unpacking this with

1004
01:01:23.560 --> 01:01:29.200
the Lord, I would encourage you to ask him to reveal where the beginning of the lie that

1005
01:01:29.200 --> 01:01:36.800
you're not smart enough began. Um, and I believe that that is underneath that not smart enough

1006
01:01:36.800 --> 01:01:44.360
is underneath of the not worthy. Yeah. So we'll be praying for you and believing for

1007
01:01:44.360 --> 01:01:50.120
God to show you the truth there about yourself as well. You know, I would encourage you to,

1008
01:01:50.120 --> 01:01:56.440
um, just really soak in scriptures about like the affirm who you are and all the good stuff

1009
01:01:56.440 --> 01:02:02.480
that God put in you so that you can kind of start to build up your reservoir, reservoir,

1010
01:02:02.480 --> 01:02:06.600
if you will, you know, with a lot of good truth to meditate on when you're going through

1011
01:02:06.600 --> 01:02:12.240
these hard situations and that will give you guys ammunition. So you got, you get, get

1012
01:02:12.280 --> 01:02:17.000
some ammunition against the enemy so that you're ready. Um, when he comes in like a

1013
01:02:17.000 --> 01:02:22.440
flood, okay, we got to start to shift. I don't want us to miss out on this part. Super important.

1014
01:02:22.440 --> 01:02:28.480
All right. So we're going to talk really briefly about lies you believe about men. So I want

1015
01:02:28.480 --> 01:02:32.440
to start to activate you guys. I want you to start putting things in the chat as they

1016
01:02:32.440 --> 01:02:37.680
come up in your mind. I'm going to say a couple to get you thinking about it as well, but

1017
01:02:37.680 --> 01:02:40.800
just start putting in the chat. Like what are some lies you believe about men? What

1018
01:02:40.800 --> 01:02:48.040
is, what is the enemy saying you to you about men? Okay, here are a couple. Men are bad.

1019
01:02:48.040 --> 01:02:56.840
Men are bullies. Men aren't spiritual. Men aren't providers. So those were the four that

1020
01:02:56.840 --> 01:03:01.800
the Lord led me to wrote down, write down earlier today. I'm going to start to kind

1021
01:03:01.800 --> 01:03:07.600
of scroll real quick through some of you guys. Cheaters. Uh, men will reject me if you're

1022
01:03:07.600 --> 01:03:13.680
on myself. Hi, Crystal. I didn't realize Australia's in the house tonight. Uh, can't

1023
01:03:13.680 --> 01:03:20.360
be trusted. Unsafe have realized that I believe I won't ever be with a Christian man. Okay.

1024
01:03:20.360 --> 01:03:26.720
That's come out of alignment with that. Unfaithful. Can't be trusted. Not emotionally available.

1025
01:03:26.720 --> 01:03:33.760
Yeah. That is a lie. A lot of people believe, um, that body is most important to them. Yeah.

1026
01:03:33.840 --> 01:03:38.400
They're just only out for one thing that we hear that kind of stuff a lot. Um,

1027
01:03:40.000 --> 01:03:45.280
they're all little boys. They want moms, not wives. All right. These are really good. Okay.

1028
01:03:45.280 --> 01:03:50.240
So the reason I wanted you to put this in here as you're typing these out, I want you guys to

1029
01:03:50.240 --> 01:03:54.960
kind of just whatever yours was. I want you just to like, and you don't have to unmute or anything,

1030
01:03:54.960 --> 01:04:00.080
but I want you just to right now, like come out of alignment with that lie that you believe about

1031
01:04:00.080 --> 01:04:06.880
men. So for example, the cheaters, all men are cheaters. So the way I would come out of

1032
01:04:06.880 --> 01:04:13.840
alignment with that, as I would say, God, forgive me for believing the lie that all men are cheaters.

1033
01:04:13.840 --> 01:04:19.840
I know that you created men in your image. And I believe God that you have sons all over the world

1034
01:04:19.840 --> 01:04:24.640
that are good men, that are faithful men, that are men that walk in self-control and the fullness

1035
01:04:24.640 --> 01:04:32.080
of the fruits of your spirit. So you start declaring a truth from God's word over men.

1036
01:04:32.080 --> 01:04:37.120
And the reason this is so important in your healing process, ladies to come out of alignment

1037
01:04:37.120 --> 01:04:45.920
with these lies is, Hey, guess what? If you don't like men, men know it. When you meet them,

1038
01:04:45.920 --> 01:04:51.600
they know that you don't like them. And even if it's not them that you don't like, if you don't

1039
01:04:51.600 --> 01:04:57.520
like other men, and you're still carrying that in your spirit, it's going to project onto them

1040
01:04:58.080 --> 01:04:59.840
without you even meaning it to.

1041
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:07.000
Okay. Cause what's in our heart will come out. It will. So you have to really ask the

1042
01:05:07.000 --> 01:05:11.100
Lord to help you to forgive these men that have done these things. Most people that,

1043
01:05:11.100 --> 01:05:16.500
you know, say men are cheaters have gone through betrayal. Um, just from my experience, whether

1044
01:05:16.500 --> 01:05:20.520
that is your dad cheated on your mom, your mom cheated on your dad, whatever that looks

1045
01:05:20.520 --> 01:05:26.760
like, um, to your own relationships, um, that men only want sex. I mean, there are a lot

1046
01:05:26.760 --> 01:05:30.960
of people that, you know, really struggled to walk in self-control. Here's the reality

1047
01:05:30.960 --> 01:05:40.720
though. These, a lot of ladies also do that. It's not just men, more and more men that

1048
01:05:40.720 --> 01:05:46.600
have been in our community have said how disappointed they have been that the women are trying to

1049
01:05:46.600 --> 01:05:55.840
get them to have sex. That's legit you all. So, so we even the scales, right? That's what

1050
01:05:55.840 --> 01:06:01.680
we just did here because we all struggle. We all struggle. We all make mistakes. So,

1051
01:06:01.680 --> 01:06:05.960
you know, if we don't want to be labeled for our mistakes, we want to forgive, we want

1052
01:06:05.960 --> 01:06:11.760
to release and we want to, you know, really align with God, I believe. And obviously we're

1053
01:06:11.760 --> 01:06:15.240
not ignoring, I'm not saying go back into unhealthy relationships. That's not what I'm

1054
01:06:15.240 --> 01:06:18.480
talking about. I hope you guys don't hear that out of what I'm saying, but what I am

1055
01:06:18.480 --> 01:06:23.160
saying is, is clear out your heart, create in me a clean heart of God and renew a steadfast

1056
01:06:23.160 --> 01:06:27.360
spirit in me is what the Bible talks about. So that's what I'm encouraging you to lean

1057
01:06:27.360 --> 01:06:32.280
into. Okay. Repentance is coming out of agreement with the lies that we believe. So we actually

1058
01:06:32.280 --> 01:06:37.840
have a change of mind and a change of heart. So repentance is literally, you were going

1059
01:06:37.840 --> 01:06:45.720
one way and God reveals to you a lie and that that way is not healthy for you. And so you

1060
01:06:45.720 --> 01:06:51.560
have a change of mind first and a change of heart. Remember I said, if our heart heals,

1061
01:06:51.560 --> 01:06:56.400
our behavior changes. So when our heart heals and we have that change of heart, we start

1062
01:06:56.400 --> 01:07:03.000
going the other direction. That's repentance. That's true repentance and repentance is an

1063
01:07:03.000 --> 01:07:07.720
ongoing process in our lives. You all, we're all going to encounter things, you know, throughout

1064
01:07:07.720 --> 01:07:12.720
our lives where we need to repent, we're going to make mistakes and then we can move forward

1065
01:07:12.720 --> 01:07:20.000
and seek out healing. James 5, 16 says, confess your faults one to another and pray for each

1066
01:07:20.000 --> 01:07:26.180
other so that you might be healed. So tonight we're going to be talking about confession.

1067
01:07:26.180 --> 01:07:29.960
We're going to be doing confession. That's going to be our next breakout. I don't want

1068
01:07:29.960 --> 01:07:34.320
you to worry and freak out. Don't log out. I had that happen earlier today. When I started

1069
01:07:34.320 --> 01:07:38.200
talking about confession, a couple of people got nervous and they logged out, stay with

1070
01:07:38.200 --> 01:07:44.880
us here. This could really set you free. I'm serious. Um, so when we do confession, I want

1071
01:07:44.880 --> 01:07:49.000
you to confess the whole story and I don't mean tell them every little detail. That's

1072
01:07:49.000 --> 01:07:56.040
not what I'm saying. What I'm saying is if you, um, for example, I'm just going to throw

1073
01:07:56.040 --> 01:08:02.680
this out there. If you were of age 18, when you made a decision that you shouldn't have

1074
01:08:02.680 --> 01:08:07.720
made, but you tell people that you were under age, you were 15. Well, that's not the whole

1075
01:08:07.720 --> 01:08:13.800
story, right? You were 18. So kind of, that's just a little example. We, we don't want to

1076
01:08:13.880 --> 01:08:19.560
sugarcoat it. And if you're the villain, just confess that. What does that mean? If you're

1077
01:08:19.560 --> 01:08:26.760
the one that made the mistake, okay. If you're the one that, you know, um, had an affair with

1078
01:08:26.760 --> 01:08:31.240
someone that was married that like, that is a story where you would technically be the

1079
01:08:31.240 --> 01:08:37.880
villain, if you will, um, just own that because God loves you and you are his beloved daughter.

1080
01:08:37.880 --> 01:08:43.000
And he wants you to be set free fears that typically rise up during this confession time

1081
01:08:43.399 --> 01:08:51.080
sound a little bit like this. I cannot do it. My sins are too much. We feel like people are

1082
01:08:51.080 --> 01:08:58.040
going to judge us that we have to be ashamed or that, um, God just can't forgive all of these

1083
01:08:58.040 --> 01:09:04.279
parts of our stories. He can only forgive certain parts of our stories and the enemy will try to get

1084
01:09:04.279 --> 01:09:10.040
you to believe that and try to keep you from talking and sharing about it. Here's the truth.

1085
01:09:10.600 --> 01:09:17.160
When you share and you confess your faults, the scripture in James 5 16 said, what it said that

1086
01:09:17.160 --> 01:09:25.000
you can be healed. So what you're telling, uh, Gail is the story. I hope I said that right.

1087
01:09:25.000 --> 01:09:29.960
You're just confessing a sin tonight. You're confessing an area, something God's been revealing

1088
01:09:29.960 --> 01:09:35.479
in you, you know, whatever that is for you. If you've had unforgiveness, if you've, you know,

1089
01:09:36.040 --> 01:09:40.120
you know, if you did have a relationship with someone that you shouldn't have had,

1090
01:09:40.120 --> 01:09:44.760
if you struggle in some other area, you know, whatever that thing is for you, you're going to

1091
01:09:44.760 --> 01:09:50.760
confess to your sister in your breakout room, confess one to another. That's why we did that

1092
01:09:50.760 --> 01:09:56.120
scripture. That's what this is tonight. When we confess, it breaks generational curses. You all,

1093
01:09:56.120 --> 01:09:59.800
did you know that it breaks generational curses? When

1094
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.680
Other people have done things to us, things that have come down through our

1095
01:10:02.680 --> 01:10:07.500
family lines, as well as here's the, here's the other key when we confess

1096
01:10:07.500 --> 01:10:11.980
our sins, it also breaks that in our family line from the moment we created it.

1097
01:10:13.140 --> 01:10:13.640
Okay.

1098
01:10:13.980 --> 01:10:15.660
It breaks the enemy's holds.

1099
01:10:17.280 --> 01:10:21.240
When we can, when we don't confess, we actually remain tethered to

1100
01:10:21.240 --> 01:10:23.640
those people into that situation.

1101
01:10:24.400 --> 01:10:25.060
That's truth.

1102
01:10:25.080 --> 01:10:26.800
And you guys will learn a little bit more about that and

1103
01:10:26.800 --> 01:10:28.440
forgiveness next week as well.

1104
01:10:29.020 --> 01:10:29.460
All right.

1105
01:10:30.260 --> 01:10:31.020
So.

1106
01:10:31.920 --> 01:10:37.280
When we don't repent and we don't confess, this is where those blind spots and

1107
01:10:37.280 --> 01:10:41.480
filters and false identities come from that we've been talking about and that

1108
01:10:41.480 --> 01:10:42.660
you guys have been reading about.

1109
01:10:43.040 --> 01:10:48.120
So part of the reason that you can heal after you confess and after you forgive

1110
01:10:48.120 --> 01:10:53.200
and, and your heart's getting, you know, truth in it is because you step out of

1111
01:10:53.200 --> 01:10:57.340
those blind spots and those filters and those false parts of yourself.

1112
01:10:57.880 --> 01:11:03.460
And here's the thing you guys, when we, when we confess and we forgive

1113
01:11:03.460 --> 01:11:08.300
ourselves and we move forward, we actually come back into alignment with ourselves.

1114
01:11:08.620 --> 01:11:14.200
Did you know that if you deny a part of yourself, like even by just hiding an

1115
01:11:14.200 --> 01:11:19.200
area of who you are and a mistake you made, like you're actually denying that

1116
01:11:19.200 --> 01:11:25.520
part of you to understand, like that severs you so tonight God wants you to

1117
01:11:25.920 --> 01:11:29.500
bring you back together and he wants you to be healed and accept yourself.

1118
01:11:29.840 --> 01:11:32.520
And again, you guys don't have to tell all the gory details.

1119
01:11:32.520 --> 01:11:34.200
That is not what we're talking about here.

1120
01:11:34.240 --> 01:11:34.740
Okay.

1121
01:11:35.080 --> 01:11:35.640
All right.

1122
01:11:36.220 --> 01:11:39.280
Um, I want to read one other thing to you and then I'm going to put you in this

1123
01:11:39.280 --> 01:11:41.280
breakout and it's going to be great.

1124
01:11:42.680 --> 01:11:44.920
Uh, one 36, hold on one second.

1125
01:11:44.920 --> 01:11:45.400
Sorry.

1126
01:11:45.440 --> 01:11:46.840
I forgot to mark this page.

1127
01:11:48.400 --> 01:11:51.160
Um, it's about secrets.

1128
01:11:51.500 --> 01:11:52.000
Here we are.

1129
01:11:53.000 --> 01:11:56.960
Secrets are dangerous because they, they are an infection that's trapped

1130
01:11:56.960 --> 01:11:59.000
inside of these heart wounds of ours.

1131
01:11:59.440 --> 01:12:04.720
Infection is easily treated when it's able to be let out of the body, but when

1132
01:12:04.720 --> 01:12:08.320
it's trapped inside, it can cause life threatening damage.

1133
01:12:08.640 --> 01:12:12.760
Did you guys know that if you have an infection in your body and you don't

1134
01:12:12.760 --> 01:12:14.760
know about it, it can actually kill you.

1135
01:12:15.680 --> 01:12:16.180
Literally.

1136
01:12:17.080 --> 01:12:20.440
That's what sepsis, you know, it's very, very serious.

1137
01:12:20.760 --> 01:12:22.800
It's an infection that goes all throughout your body.

1138
01:12:23.640 --> 01:12:28.040
So tonight I want to encourage you that this is about letting the

1139
01:12:28.040 --> 01:12:30.520
infection out so you can be healed.

1140
01:12:31.120 --> 01:12:31.620
Okay.

1141
01:12:32.080 --> 01:12:32.580
All right.

1142
01:12:32.800 --> 01:12:34.240
I'm going to be praying for you.

1143
01:12:34.240 --> 01:12:36.640
I'm going to say hi again to our ladies on Facebook.

1144
01:12:36.640 --> 01:12:36.880
Sorry.

1145
01:12:36.880 --> 01:12:39.920
I haven't said anything for a little bit to you all, but we see you

1146
01:12:40.600 --> 01:12:42.120
and we're so glad you're here.

1147
01:12:42.600 --> 01:12:45.240
Um, I'm going to put you guys back with the same groups.

1148
01:12:45.320 --> 01:12:49.120
That way you feel maybe a little bit safer and maybe a little

1149
01:12:49.120 --> 01:12:50.600
bit more courageous to share.

1150
01:12:51.400 --> 01:12:52.760
All right, go ahead.

1151
01:12:52.760 --> 01:12:54.880
And then I have some ladies I'll have to put in the group.

1152
01:12:54.960 --> 01:12:59.920
Um, as soon as we get some people situated here, go ahead and click to join, click to

1153
01:12:59.920 --> 01:13:12.240
join as soon as it stops moving, I'll be able to, it just moves.

1154
01:13:12.280 --> 01:13:14.160
It won't let me do it until you guys, there we go.

1155
01:13:14.280 --> 01:13:14.960
All right, cool.

1156
01:13:20.120 --> 01:13:20.640
Okay.

1157
01:13:20.640 --> 01:13:23.040
Kelly, there should be one there for you.

1158
01:13:23.080 --> 01:13:23.920
Crystal.

1159
01:13:24.280 --> 01:13:24.880
Sorry, y'all.

1160
01:13:24.920 --> 01:13:27.960
It just keeps bouncing around so I can never grab them quick enough.

1161
01:13:31.720 --> 01:13:32.760
I'll get y'all in there.

1162
01:13:33.320 --> 01:13:34.640
I'm I'm alone in my room.

1163
01:13:34.640 --> 01:13:36.400
I think my partner left.

1164
01:13:36.920 --> 01:13:37.360
Okay.

1165
01:13:37.400 --> 01:13:38.960
Hold on one second.

1166
01:13:39.280 --> 01:13:41.160
Um, who was saying that to me?

1167
01:13:41.520 --> 01:13:42.020
Charlotte.

1168
01:13:42.400 --> 01:13:42.720
Okay.

1169
01:13:42.720 --> 01:13:43.520
Sorry about that.

1170
01:13:44.000 --> 01:13:44.500
It's okay.

1171
01:13:45.080 --> 01:13:45.800
Okay.

1172
01:13:49.880 --> 01:13:50.400
Talia.

1173
01:13:50.400 --> 01:13:53.920
I got to get you in a room here and then Charlotte, what room are you in?

1174
01:13:54.160 --> 01:13:54.660
Two.

1175
01:13:54.680 --> 01:13:57.640
Oh, I just put, I just put in Talia in there with you.

1176
01:13:57.640 --> 01:14:00.720
So if you go into two, are you able to go back in there or no?

1177
01:14:01.080 --> 01:14:01.580
No.

1178
01:14:02.040 --> 01:14:02.540
Okay.

1179
01:14:02.540 --> 01:14:03.280
I'll move you.

1180
01:14:03.680 --> 01:14:04.400
Oh, wait, I've got it.

1181
01:14:04.440 --> 01:14:04.940
I see it.

1182
01:14:05.320 --> 01:14:05.820
Okay.

1183
01:14:07.200 --> 01:14:09.080
Am I having a bunch more people coming back?

1184
01:14:09.480 --> 01:14:11.240
We have a couple of people that aren't in a room.

1185
01:14:11.840 --> 01:14:13.240
Yeah, I was in the room.

1186
01:14:13.240 --> 01:14:14.160
Nobody was in there.

1187
01:14:14.200 --> 01:14:15.000
This is Gael.

1188
01:14:15.480 --> 01:14:16.000
Okay.

1189
01:14:16.040 --> 01:14:17.000
Let me find you.

1190
01:14:17.120 --> 01:14:19.960
It might be that your person, I see everyone's coming back.

1191
01:14:20.000 --> 01:14:20.500
Okay.

1192
01:14:20.600 --> 01:14:22.160
You guys have to just stay in your room.

1193
01:14:22.160 --> 01:14:23.960
Just like, just wait for me.

1194
01:14:23.960 --> 01:14:24.460
Okay.

1195
01:14:24.460 --> 01:14:27.680
Cause what happens then when you guys come out, then I have to put you in all

1196
01:14:27.680 --> 01:14:31.000
different rooms, which I know you guys are learning, but just for future reference.

1197
01:14:32.800 --> 01:14:33.800
Everyone's coming back.

1198
01:14:35.440 --> 01:14:35.940
Okay.

1199
01:14:37.680 --> 01:14:38.180
All right.

1200
01:14:38.240 --> 01:14:41.240
When I send you guys, I have to, I literally have to undo all that.

1201
01:14:41.240 --> 01:14:41.740
Yeah.

1202
01:14:41.740 --> 01:14:43.080
You guys were all together.

1203
01:14:43.080 --> 01:14:43.580
Okay.

1204
01:14:43.860 --> 01:14:44.400
Okay.

1205
01:14:46.220 --> 01:14:50.200
So sometimes people to just so you guys know if their internet is delayed, it

1206
01:14:50.200 --> 01:14:52.100
just takes them a little bit to get in there.

1207
01:14:52.780 --> 01:14:55.140
Um, so I don't know how I'm going to do this.

1208
01:14:55.440 --> 01:15:00.600
So you guys need to love your comments, watching and liking them and

1209
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:03.560
Look and see if you can see how to get back in that room you just came from.

1210
01:15:00.780 --> 01:15:01.420
reaching out to them.

1211
01:15:01.780 --> 01:15:05.500
Because for most people, it's a great outlet, but under the circumstances of

1212
01:15:04.560 --> 01:15:05.880
It should be there for you.

1213
01:15:05.500 --> 01:15:09.680
when they're reporting, it's gonna be tough because they're so concerned about

1214
01:15:09.800 --> 01:15:11.180
their l inverted.

1215
01:15:13.080 --> 01:15:15.840
Because I have no way to create another whole room for you.

1216
01:15:17.440 --> 01:15:17.760
Okay.

1217
01:15:17.760 --> 01:15:19.240
Amanda's sitting there by herself.

1218
01:15:19.240 --> 01:15:19.960
Hold on one second.

1219
01:15:19.960 --> 01:15:22.520
I'm going to send Gail to Amanda.

1220
01:15:23.160 --> 01:15:24.520
Oh, now here she comes.

1221
01:15:26.680 --> 01:15:27.160
All right.

1222
01:15:27.160 --> 01:15:28.000
This is crazy.

1223
01:15:28.000 --> 01:15:31.120
Oh, you guys are, they're going in there.

1224
01:15:31.120 --> 01:15:31.360
Okay.

1225
01:15:31.360 --> 01:15:31.960
Awesome.

1226
01:15:32.960 --> 01:15:33.880
29.

1227
01:15:35.200 --> 01:15:36.080
There we go.

1228
01:15:36.640 --> 01:15:36.960
All right.

1229
01:15:36.960 --> 01:15:38.200
I'll kind of get you guys in there.

1230
01:15:38.240 --> 01:15:39.280
I think I can do this.

1231
01:15:40.560 --> 01:15:41.000
Right.

1232
01:15:41.120 --> 01:15:42.320
Oh, Amanda, you came out.

1233
01:15:43.480 --> 01:15:44.600
We had an issue.

1234
01:15:44.640 --> 01:15:47.760
Yeah, I know it can get tricky, but we'll get everybody.

1235
01:15:47.760 --> 01:15:49.440
Can you click to go back in your room?

1236
01:15:49.440 --> 01:15:51.080
Cause I just put someone in there with you.

1237
01:15:55.640 --> 01:15:56.320
Do you see it?

1238
01:15:58.520 --> 01:15:58.720
Okay.

1239
01:15:58.720 --> 01:15:58.960
All right.

1240
01:15:58.960 --> 01:16:00.040
I'm just going to send you a new one.

1241
01:16:00.040 --> 01:16:01.920
You guys will just have to be in bigger rooms.

1242
01:16:05.080 --> 01:16:05.560
Okay.

1243
01:16:05.600 --> 01:16:06.840
That should be there for you.

1244
01:16:07.160 --> 01:16:07.360
All right.

1245
01:16:07.360 --> 01:16:08.680
So who do I have with me here?

1246
01:16:09.240 --> 01:16:12.240
Still I've Cara and Tanya.

1247
01:16:12.280 --> 01:16:14.760
Tanya, are you trying to go in a breakout room, sweetie?

1248
01:16:17.240 --> 01:16:18.680
Cara, are you trying to go in one?

1249
01:16:21.280 --> 01:16:21.560
Okay.

1250
01:16:21.560 --> 01:16:22.640
I'm just going to send you a new one.

1251
01:16:22.640 --> 01:16:24.280
You guys will just have to be in bigger rooms.

1252
01:16:24.800 --> 01:16:26.320
Cara, are you trying to go in one?

1253
01:16:30.240 --> 01:16:31.600
Carla, I'm calling you Cara.

1254
01:16:31.600 --> 01:16:32.280
I'm so sorry.

1255
01:16:40.200 --> 01:16:40.480
All right.

1256
01:16:40.480 --> 01:16:42.040
Carla might be hanging here with us.

1257
01:16:42.080 --> 01:16:42.480
Okay.

1258
01:16:43.320 --> 01:16:45.160
Sorry, everyone on Facebook.

1259
01:16:45.640 --> 01:16:47.000
Let me hear from you.

1260
01:16:47.040 --> 01:16:49.320
You guys can put in the, in the comments there.

1261
01:16:49.320 --> 01:16:52.600
If there's anything that you don't have to write the whole thing, but if

1262
01:16:52.600 --> 01:16:56.320
there's anything that you're feeling like the Lord's just, you know, saying

1263
01:16:56.320 --> 01:16:59.280
you should confess tonight, you can put that in the, in the comments.

1264
01:16:59.280 --> 01:17:04.400
If you feel brave enough to do that, if not, I want to encourage you to find

1265
01:17:04.400 --> 01:17:09.280
another sister in the group and just connect with them and, and, and, you

1266
01:17:09.280 --> 01:17:13.680
know, do go through that process of confessing to one another in that way.

1267
01:17:14.080 --> 01:17:15.200
Um, so it can work.

1268
01:17:15.200 --> 01:17:18.520
And if you're watching this on replay, you can do the same thing.

1269
01:17:19.640 --> 01:17:20.520
Excuse me, you all.

1270
01:17:20.840 --> 01:17:21.240
Okay.

1271
01:17:21.240 --> 01:17:24.640
So I want to pray some things over everybody in the group.

1272
01:17:24.640 --> 01:17:26.120
I want to pray some scriptures.

1273
01:17:27.320 --> 01:17:28.600
I want to speak some truth.

1274
01:17:30.040 --> 01:17:35.560
All right, Lord, we thank you for your truth that as we read in James 5 16, that

1275
01:17:35.560 --> 01:17:39.160
as we confess our sins, one to another and pray for each other so that we might

1276
01:17:39.160 --> 01:17:42.800
be healed, the earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power

1277
01:17:42.800 --> 01:17:45.080
and produces wonderful results.

1278
01:17:45.560 --> 01:17:48.200
We thank you Lord, that you will wipe away every tear from our

1279
01:17:48.200 --> 01:17:50.840
eyes and eliminate death entirely.

1280
01:17:52.080 --> 01:17:54.320
No one will mourn or weep any longer.

1281
01:17:54.320 --> 01:17:59.760
The pain of wounds will no longer exist for the old order has ceased y'all.

1282
01:17:59.760 --> 01:18:03.160
That's a promise for when we are in heaven with him, there

1283
01:18:03.160 --> 01:18:04.840
will literally will be no pain.

1284
01:18:05.000 --> 01:18:06.200
There will be no pain.

1285
01:18:07.040 --> 01:18:10.560
Whenever our hearts make us feel guilty and remind us of our failures.

1286
01:18:10.560 --> 01:18:13.880
We know that God is much greater and more merciful than our conscience.

1287
01:18:13.880 --> 01:18:16.400
And he knows everything there is to know about us.

1288
01:18:16.400 --> 01:18:21.080
So Lord, we thank you for that acceptance, that love that you embrace us,

1289
01:18:21.080 --> 01:18:25.640
that you see everything about us and you open your arms wide to us.

1290
01:18:27.560 --> 01:18:28.000
Okay.

1291
01:18:28.000 --> 01:18:28.680
I love this.

1292
01:18:28.680 --> 01:18:30.960
I wasn't planning on doing this, but I'm going to read this out.

1293
01:18:30.960 --> 01:18:34.160
This is about how to locate the lie and repent.

1294
01:18:34.160 --> 01:18:35.520
This is from the book as well.

1295
01:18:35.800 --> 01:18:38.560
Again, I'm not going to say the page cause it'll be different for you all,

1296
01:18:38.840 --> 01:18:40.120
but I think this is important.

1297
01:18:40.920 --> 01:18:44.760
Step one, start with the most significant problem areas in your life.

1298
01:18:45.000 --> 01:18:49.480
These troubled areas are an indication that lies are being believed in that

1299
01:18:49.520 --> 01:18:51.640
area, which needs healing.

1300
01:18:53.080 --> 01:18:58.240
Number two, ask the Holy spirit to show you the lie you are believing when it is

1301
01:18:58.240 --> 01:19:03.400
revealed, repent of believing the lie and be willing to release it and the

1302
01:19:03.400 --> 01:19:05.440
behavior and emotions attached to it.

1303
01:19:05.840 --> 01:19:07.160
Ask Holy spirit to help you.

1304
01:19:07.680 --> 01:19:10.360
Number three, now ask the Holy spirit to show you the truth

1305
01:19:10.360 --> 01:19:12.640
about this area and about yourself.

1306
01:19:13.200 --> 01:19:18.080
Repeat this truth to yourself regularly and embrace scriptures and other divine

1307
01:19:18.080 --> 01:19:23.400
confirmations of this truth to continue to reinforce your new belief systems.

1308
01:19:23.640 --> 01:19:27.000
So tonight you all are getting into some new belief systems.

1309
01:19:27.320 --> 01:19:30.400
It's stepping out of the old and into the new.

1310
01:19:30.720 --> 01:19:33.520
I love this scripture in Jeremiah 24 seven.

1311
01:19:33.520 --> 01:19:36.600
It says, I will give them hearts that recognize me as the Lord.

1312
01:19:36.920 --> 01:19:39.640
They will be my people and I will be their God for they will

1313
01:19:39.640 --> 01:19:42.360
return to me wholeheartedly.

1314
01:19:43.080 --> 01:19:43.760
All right.

1315
01:19:43.800 --> 01:19:44.280
Hello.

1316
01:19:44.280 --> 01:19:44.640
Hello.

1317
01:19:44.640 --> 01:19:45.120
Hello.

1318
01:19:45.120 --> 01:19:48.720
Again, to those who are on Facebook, Lydia, I see you.

1319
01:19:48.720 --> 01:19:49.480
This is so good.

1320
01:19:49.480 --> 01:19:50.800
I need to do this.

1321
01:19:51.520 --> 01:19:54.480
Not sure that might've been on the picture thing I was talking about there.

1322
01:19:55.440 --> 01:19:56.960
Love to hear from you guys.

1323
01:19:57.040 --> 01:19:59.360
Um, when you are joining us on Facebook.

1324
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:04.200
Um, also just here, I love this Psalm one, three, this is from the passion

1325
01:20:04.200 --> 01:20:04.840
translation.

1326
01:20:04.840 --> 01:20:08.460
It says he will be standing firm, like a flourishing tree planted by God's

1327
01:20:08.460 --> 01:20:12.360
design, deeply rooted by the Brooks of bliss.

1328
01:20:12.960 --> 01:20:17.560
Who wants to be by Brooks of bliss, man, I do bearing fruit in every season of his

1329
01:20:17.560 --> 01:20:18.760
life, her life.

1330
01:20:19.800 --> 01:20:24.360
She is never dry, never fainting, ever blessed and ever prosperous.

1331
01:20:24.360 --> 01:20:26.080
And that is a promise for us.

1332
01:20:26.080 --> 01:20:26.640
You all.

1333
01:20:27.200 --> 01:20:27.760
Okay.

1334
01:20:27.960 --> 01:20:28.480
Cassandra.

1335
01:20:28.480 --> 01:20:29.080
I love it.

1336
01:20:29.480 --> 01:20:35.160
I have one, she says, I was always going after unavailable men because I thought

1337
01:20:35.160 --> 01:20:39.800
I wasn't worthy of someone who was available and didn't think anyone would

1338
01:20:39.800 --> 01:20:40.600
ever love me.

1339
01:20:40.600 --> 01:20:42.720
Thank you for being courageous to share that.

1340
01:20:42.720 --> 01:20:43.720
I appreciate that.

1341
01:20:44.920 --> 01:20:49.560
And we just encourage you to come out of agreement with that light tonight.

1342
01:20:49.560 --> 01:20:54.600
And, um, as you have confessed that, that the Lord, that, you know, how loved

1343
01:20:54.600 --> 01:20:57.880
you are and how proud he is of you right now.

1344
01:20:58.320 --> 01:21:03.000
Um, but also just, um, to really start declaring over yourself that you're going

1345
01:21:03.000 --> 01:21:06.040
to be fully known and fully loved.

1346
01:21:06.440 --> 01:21:06.800
Okay.

1347
01:21:06.800 --> 01:21:10.560
So really align with that truth, fully known and fully loved.

1348
01:21:11.000 --> 01:21:13.000
That is your destiny, Cassandra.

1349
01:21:13.040 --> 01:21:17.040
And that is God's plan for you in every area of your life.

1350
01:21:17.760 --> 01:21:21.520
Um, hi ladies, we're waiting for the other ladies to come back.

1351
01:21:23.240 --> 01:21:25.440
Praying and reading some stuff over you all.

1352
01:21:28.880 --> 01:21:30.400
Ooh, God is so good.

1353
01:21:30.400 --> 01:21:34.440
You all he's healing and he's restoring and he's rebuilding.

1354
01:21:34.440 --> 01:21:35.680
He's renewing.

1355
01:21:36.480 --> 01:21:40.600
Father, I just thank you for reviving hearts and minds and spirits tonight.

1356
01:21:40.640 --> 01:21:45.640
Thank you that you're awakening the little girls inside of them, Lord, um,

1357
01:21:45.680 --> 01:21:50.440
that you would cause them to arise and shine, that your glory would rise upon

1358
01:21:50.440 --> 01:21:55.480
them, God, I thank you that you would just, um, lift up their countenance,

1359
01:21:55.680 --> 01:22:01.440
Lord, and help them to see the goodness and the mercy that you have for them

1360
01:22:01.440 --> 01:22:02.360
every single day.

1361
01:22:04.240 --> 01:22:05.080
Oh, Melissa.

1362
01:22:05.080 --> 01:22:05.320
Yeah.

1363
01:22:05.320 --> 01:22:09.480
Sometimes the internet connection can be so tough, but just thank you for

1364
01:22:09.480 --> 01:22:13.080
enduring and trying to keep pressing through.

1365
01:22:14.280 --> 01:22:16.800
We'll pray for internet connections in the future.

1366
01:22:16.800 --> 01:22:17.440
Okay.

1367
01:22:17.840 --> 01:22:19.600
Some people might need to mute real quick.

1368
01:22:19.600 --> 01:22:24.920
We have enough time for maybe one or two, if anyone is willing to share with the

1369
01:22:24.920 --> 01:22:25.480
whole group.

1370
01:22:30.840 --> 01:22:31.720
Jeanette, go ahead.

1371
01:22:35.520 --> 01:22:36.080
Hey.

1372
01:22:36.800 --> 01:22:37.880
Hi everybody.

1373
01:22:38.640 --> 01:22:39.520
You're rocking this.

1374
01:22:39.560 --> 01:22:41.200
You're rocking the technology.

1375
01:22:41.200 --> 01:22:43.320
I know you were worried about this coming into this group.

1376
01:22:43.320 --> 01:22:44.280
You're doing great.

1377
01:22:44.920 --> 01:22:45.640
Oh, thanks.

1378
01:22:45.640 --> 01:22:46.800
I'm learning pretty quick.

1379
01:22:47.160 --> 01:22:47.760
You are.

1380
01:22:47.760 --> 01:22:48.440
You're doing good.

1381
01:22:49.200 --> 01:22:49.720
Thank you.

1382
01:22:50.800 --> 01:22:52.040
Um, okay.

1383
01:22:52.040 --> 01:23:00.600
Well, my confession is, um, it was my early twenties, long time ago, and it was

1384
01:23:00.600 --> 01:23:06.160
one of my best friends and she was dating somebody, of course I was jealous of her

1385
01:23:06.160 --> 01:23:15.480
because she was dating him and I liked him and I, I took him from her and that

1386
01:23:15.560 --> 01:23:17.520
blew up in my face, of course.

1387
01:23:18.440 --> 01:23:25.600
I only was with him for three months and it wasn't a good situation.

1388
01:23:27.520 --> 01:23:32.040
And then of course the friendship with my best friend fell apart.

1389
01:23:35.080 --> 01:23:37.080
And I, go ahead.

1390
01:23:37.080 --> 01:23:37.440
Sorry.

1391
01:23:38.200 --> 01:23:38.840
Oh, okay.

1392
01:23:38.840 --> 01:23:41.840
Um, I was just going to say, I still feel really bad about that.

1393
01:23:41.920 --> 01:23:47.040
It wasn't my proudest moment and I really asked God to forgive me.

1394
01:23:48.520 --> 01:23:48.880
Yeah.

1395
01:23:48.920 --> 01:23:49.880
Thank you for sharing.

1396
01:23:49.880 --> 01:23:55.240
So, you know, when we, when we do ask him to forgive us, he, he forgives it as soon

1397
01:23:55.240 --> 01:24:00.080
as we ask, but here's what some people may not know is if you guys have ever

1398
01:24:00.080 --> 01:24:03.280
wondered why things kind of, we feel like we're going around the same mountain

1399
01:24:03.280 --> 01:24:08.000
or it comes up over and over again, it really is that there's another layer to

1400
01:24:08.000 --> 01:24:12.200
it, or there's a piece of it that we might not see or remember.

1401
01:24:13.520 --> 01:24:17.120
Um, it could be that if we didn't forgive ourselves, maybe we forgave

1402
01:24:17.240 --> 01:24:18.760
other people in a scenario.

1403
01:24:18.760 --> 01:24:22.160
And this is something like in this situation where you made a choice, a

1404
01:24:22.160 --> 01:24:26.840
choice, but maybe it is like forgiving yourself and really releasing

1405
01:24:26.840 --> 01:24:29.040
yourself from that situation.

1406
01:24:29.440 --> 01:24:35.800
Um, and, um, you know, I just even just hear the word saying that, um, that

1407
01:24:35.800 --> 01:24:39.440
doesn't limit you from making good friends today and in the future.

1408
01:24:39.800 --> 01:24:43.000
I don't know if that's anything that the enemy has ever kind of taunted you

1409
01:24:43.000 --> 01:24:46.560
with that when, when you made that decision and that friendship fell apart

1410
01:24:46.560 --> 01:24:48.720
that you didn't deserve good friendships.

1411
01:24:48.720 --> 01:24:51.440
Again, I don't, I don't know if that is anything you've ever heard, but that's

1412
01:24:51.440 --> 01:24:53.160
just something that came up in my spirit.

1413
01:24:53.480 --> 01:24:56.480
So whether it's for you or someone else, when we make mistakes, the

1414
01:24:56.480 --> 01:24:58.000
enemy wants to hold us hostage.

1415
01:24:58.560 --> 01:24:59.920
And God comes.

1416
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.400
He says, no, when we repent in the, we put that under the blood,

1417
01:25:04.720 --> 01:25:06.440
everything is made new.

1418
01:25:06.840 --> 01:25:07.600
Everything is.

1419
01:25:08.120 --> 01:25:11.840
And so like, even earlier when I was telling you guys, like when we come out of

1420
01:25:11.840 --> 01:25:16.360
alignment with those lies, it releases us, it breaks us free from those tethers.

1421
01:25:16.840 --> 01:25:20.800
And so we don't have to live in that lot anymore.

1422
01:25:22.080 --> 01:25:27.280
So we can embrace the fullness of forgiveness and healing in every area.

1423
01:25:27.720 --> 01:25:28.720
Thank you for sharing.

1424
01:25:30.040 --> 01:25:30.480
All right.

1425
01:25:30.480 --> 01:25:33.760
Kristen, go ahead or Kirsten.

1426
01:25:33.800 --> 01:25:34.320
I'm so sorry.

1427
01:25:34.360 --> 01:25:34.880
Kirsten.

1428
01:25:35.520 --> 01:25:36.080
Kirsten.

1429
01:25:36.760 --> 01:25:37.280
Kirsten.

1430
01:25:37.760 --> 01:25:44.600
I think, um, yeah, I was just sharing about, like, I realized last weekend

1431
01:25:44.600 --> 01:25:47.800
that I, I've only dated one Christian guy.

1432
01:25:47.920 --> 01:25:52.280
I don't know about anyone, but, um, and it's like, I have this stronghold

1433
01:25:52.280 --> 01:25:57.960
there about like not wanting to do the Christian man and, um, I've been

1434
01:25:58.240 --> 01:26:03.640
promiscuous, you know, God, I stopped dating a lot, like two years, about two

1435
01:26:03.640 --> 01:26:06.920
years ago, cause God was like, okay, let's just work on you.

1436
01:26:06.960 --> 01:26:07.400
Right.

1437
01:26:07.880 --> 01:26:08.480
More.

1438
01:26:09.200 --> 01:26:12.600
Um, so in our group, I was just coming out of agreement with a lie that like, I

1439
01:26:12.600 --> 01:26:13.320
can't be with it.

1440
01:26:13.360 --> 01:26:16.800
Like, I won't be with a Christian man and men are abusive.

1441
01:26:17.680 --> 01:26:20.200
And so last weekend when I was journaling, I find that I've never

1442
01:26:20.200 --> 01:26:21.400
actually journaled about this.

1443
01:26:21.400 --> 01:26:23.440
Like, why won't I, why don't I, right.

1444
01:26:23.600 --> 01:26:26.160
I'd rather be single, I guess, than be with a Christian guy.

1445
01:26:26.360 --> 01:26:27.400
So I was like, oh crap.

1446
01:26:28.200 --> 01:26:31.640
And I was sick for three days because of the stuff that came up.

1447
01:26:31.640 --> 01:26:37.720
It was like, my mom died when I was in sixth grade and I was at a private school.

1448
01:26:39.400 --> 01:26:41.880
And fifth through eighth, my dad was abusive.

1449
01:26:41.880 --> 01:26:47.120
My grandpa was abusive, but it was like the, the Christian men in my life, my dad,

1450
01:26:47.120 --> 01:26:51.640
my grandpa, and even the school, it was like Lutheran, you know, all I remember

1451
01:26:51.640 --> 01:26:56.000
we're hearing was like the black book of sin and legalism and like nothing about

1452
01:26:56.960 --> 01:27:00.760
My heart like literally is recently attaching to the father's love.

1453
01:27:00.920 --> 01:27:04.280
So I like, I haven't, I have no way.

1454
01:27:04.800 --> 01:27:10.800
So I have a lot of compassion for myself, but, um, I just feel like, yeah, Holy

1455
01:27:10.800 --> 01:27:12.280
Spirit's just like renewing that.

1456
01:27:12.280 --> 01:27:17.400
And so looking at all the layers of lies for that, like I literally could be single

1457
01:27:17.400 --> 01:27:20.920
my whole life and I would be fine if I didn't have to be with a Christian guy.

1458
01:27:20.920 --> 01:27:27.280
And I've never said that out loud until now that that's, that's like the reality

1459
01:27:27.280 --> 01:27:30.520
of what I felt like people would say, like, you should date a Christian guy.

1460
01:27:30.520 --> 01:27:31.360
And I'm like, why?

1461
01:27:31.960 --> 01:27:33.800
I don't, for me, it's no different.

1462
01:27:33.800 --> 01:27:39.880
I'd rather be with like a good man who doesn't use them with a man who abuses.

1463
01:27:39.960 --> 01:27:42.080
So, so here's, okay.

1464
01:27:42.080 --> 01:27:44.840
So I want, I want to just a hundred percent support you.

1465
01:27:44.840 --> 01:27:45.840
It's interesting.

1466
01:27:45.840 --> 01:27:51.480
So I have two spiritual daughters, uh, from that relationship I was in for six years and

1467
01:27:51.480 --> 01:27:53.600
he cheated on me over and over and over again.

1468
01:27:53.600 --> 01:27:55.000
And he went to church all the time, y'all.

1469
01:27:55.560 --> 01:27:58.680
Um, we went to a Christian church, so not similar denomination.

1470
01:27:58.680 --> 01:27:59.400
Here's the thing.

1471
01:27:59.920 --> 01:28:05.280
If we can separate, um, people's unhealthy choices from.

1472
01:28:05.760 --> 01:28:09.440
Their belief or not believe it will really help set us free truly.

1473
01:28:10.040 --> 01:28:13.760
But what's interesting is my, the oldest spiritual daughter.

1474
01:28:14.400 --> 01:28:16.520
Never dates Christian men either.

1475
01:28:17.160 --> 01:28:19.680
She won't even like make Christian friends half the time.

1476
01:28:20.760 --> 01:28:25.400
Um, which is kind of interesting, but as soon as you start talking before you even

1477
01:28:25.400 --> 01:28:31.320
said it, I was going to ask you like, what was your, what were the men roles in your

1478
01:28:31.320 --> 01:28:31.680
life?

1479
01:28:31.680 --> 01:28:32.360
What were they like?

1480
01:28:32.360 --> 01:28:33.120
Were they Christians?

1481
01:28:33.120 --> 01:28:34.400
Were they healthy Christians?

1482
01:28:34.960 --> 01:28:42.880
And so I would encourage you, um, to a, um, the first thing that I think here is

1483
01:28:42.880 --> 01:28:49.920
really, really important is, um, understanding that all, like not all Christian men are

1484
01:28:49.920 --> 01:28:50.720
that way.

1485
01:28:51.760 --> 01:28:59.480
And really giving yourself permission to, um, believe that there are Christian men out

1486
01:28:59.480 --> 01:29:02.400
there that are kind that are not abusive.

1487
01:29:02.960 --> 01:29:06.800
Um, as a part of the healing, you're already connecting some really important

1488
01:29:06.800 --> 01:29:07.600
dots there.

1489
01:29:08.080 --> 01:29:13.440
Um, as far as like where this stemmed from and like why you really struggle in this

1490
01:29:13.440 --> 01:29:14.000
area.

1491
01:29:14.560 --> 01:29:19.400
Um, I would also encourage you, uh, I mean, you're, you guys aren't in the

1492
01:29:19.400 --> 01:29:23.160
forgiveness week yet, but you can go ahead and start, even if you have forgiven your

1493
01:29:23.160 --> 01:29:26.960
dad and your grandpa before, I would encourage you to like, whatever the Lord

1494
01:29:26.960 --> 01:29:32.560
reveals to continue to forgive that and forgive even any teachers that were very

1495
01:29:32.560 --> 01:29:39.680
authoritarian, very religious, that shamed you in any way for just maybe, uh, what

1496
01:29:39.680 --> 01:29:44.000
comes to mind is, you know, in certain belief systems, if you don't have it all

1497
01:29:44.000 --> 01:29:49.080
right, you know, I grew up next door, next door to some girls that went to a more

1498
01:29:49.080 --> 01:29:53.840
strict, uh, school that was connected to a denomination and they got their hand,

1499
01:29:53.840 --> 01:29:59.120
their, you know, finger slapped with the, uh, with the rulers and stuff like that.

1500
01:29:59.120 --> 01:30:00.000
If they got answers.

1501
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:04.320
wrong. And, you know, I can remember hearing stuff like that as a kid and just not understanding,

1502
01:30:04.320 --> 01:30:08.720
like, but you go to a church school. Like I didn't understand, I went to a public school.

1503
01:30:08.720 --> 01:30:14.400
That wasn't great either necessarily all the time, but you know, like where we really let God heal,

1504
01:30:14.400 --> 01:30:20.400
even the things like that, that we might not realize impacted us. And, and then along the way,

1505
01:30:21.680 --> 01:30:26.240
you had already had that experience as a six-year-old, were there any other things

1506
01:30:26.240 --> 01:30:29.760
that fed into that? So maybe I'm just going to throw this out here again. I don't know your

1507
01:30:29.760 --> 01:30:34.240
story. Maybe there was a friend that you had that was a Christian and her husband treated her bad

1508
01:30:34.240 --> 01:30:39.600
too. And so then that just fed into that lie more again, or whatever you see on the news.

1509
01:30:39.600 --> 01:30:44.880
And every time you see a Christian, that's a man that's doing something unhealthy. You're like,

1510
01:30:44.880 --> 01:30:50.640
yep, there's those Christian men being bad. You know, again, I'm kind of elaborating. I don't

1511
01:30:50.640 --> 01:30:56.400
know what your thoughts are or what your life is. It has been like, but I'm trying to help you guys

1512
01:30:56.400 --> 01:31:03.920
see how, when we believe a lie and we have these areas how it really, the enemy just keeps trying

1513
01:31:03.920 --> 01:31:09.920
to dump on it and dump on it and add to it. And so as we start to unpack that stuff, the Lord will

1514
01:31:09.920 --> 01:31:16.800
start like asking you to let that go and really give yourself permission to believe that there

1515
01:31:16.800 --> 01:31:23.360
are in general, good Christian people, that not everyone, whether they're male or female

1516
01:31:24.000 --> 01:31:31.600
does the wrong thing and treats people badly. You know, so just really making room for that

1517
01:31:31.600 --> 01:31:38.560
and giving yourself a lot of grace because it does take time. You know, if you think about a ship

1518
01:31:39.200 --> 01:31:46.080
that is, is kind of going at forging ahead to turn that ship, it takes a little bit of time

1519
01:31:47.200 --> 01:31:53.040
right. To get it to go in a different direction. So give yourself some grace time and forgive

1520
01:31:53.040 --> 01:31:59.120
yourself, really ask the Lord to help you embrace some new mindsets. It sounds like he's teaching

1521
01:31:59.120 --> 01:32:05.040
you about his love in a new way, which is amazing. That's going to change your life in and of itself.

1522
01:32:05.040 --> 01:32:11.840
So, so glad for you. Thank you for sharing. And then if you all need to leave, it's okay. I do

1523
01:32:11.840 --> 01:32:17.520
want to give Kendra, she had her hand up. So I do want to let her share before we close tonight.

1524
01:32:17.520 --> 01:32:25.600
Go ahead. Okay. This is my first time to share and I like, I was feeling like a lot of panic

1525
01:32:25.600 --> 01:32:33.760
waiting for my turn to come, but I guess like the thing that I confess in my breakout group, which

1526
01:32:34.560 --> 01:32:40.400
I, I'm sorry if I start crying, it's just like, you don't have to apologize. Okay.

1527
01:32:40.400 --> 01:32:52.000
Like, I still feel like a lot of shame about it and stuff, but in my last relationship, when things

1528
01:32:52.000 --> 01:32:59.600
like weren't going well, I kind of like felt like it was like all on me or something. And so like

1529
01:32:59.600 --> 01:33:08.880
in my defense or something, I can be like very critical and like verbally like abusive or just

1530
01:33:08.880 --> 01:33:15.920
like judgmental or something like that, like towards like my ex-boyfriend. And I just feel

1531
01:33:15.920 --> 01:33:23.600
like really bad about that. Yeah. So, okay. So let me ask you something. Did you see someone

1532
01:33:23.600 --> 01:33:31.040
treat anybody that way before when you were growing up? I think my mom has always been like

1533
01:33:31.040 --> 01:33:38.720
really hard on me and, and I don't want to be like that and I don't want to excuse that in myself,

1534
01:33:39.440 --> 01:33:45.200
but that's where I think like it's come from. So here's, here's something that's super important

1535
01:33:45.200 --> 01:33:51.920
you all for everybody to understand. Acknowledging where something comes from doesn't mean you're,

1536
01:33:51.920 --> 01:33:57.120
you're excusing yourself. Okay. So I want, I just want you to understand, like you're not saying,

1537
01:33:57.120 --> 01:34:02.400
okay, you're, you're actually saying to us, I don't want to be like this, but you have to

1538
01:34:02.400 --> 01:34:08.800
acknowledge and see where it came from and understand, like, you know, I mean, it's like

1539
01:34:08.800 --> 01:34:14.160
what I was sharing earlier, whether we realize it or not, like my mom hiding food impacted me,

1540
01:34:14.880 --> 01:34:21.120
my mom turning to food all the time impacted me, whether I wanted it to or not. And so I can,

1541
01:34:21.120 --> 01:34:27.440
I can see that more and more now, and I can choose to not do those same things,

1542
01:34:27.440 --> 01:34:34.800
but it takes work. Right. So your situation is different, but that it probably started

1543
01:34:34.800 --> 01:34:42.480
somewhere for you because typically people don't just do those things normally if they're not

1544
01:34:42.480 --> 01:34:48.400
learned you all. I mean, that's, it's, it's typically not, I mean, Cain and Abel is like

1545
01:34:48.400 --> 01:34:55.360
one time where someone just was like, chose evil, but all along the way, the Holy spirit was,

1546
01:34:55.360 --> 01:34:59.840
you know, even back then trying to urge him to choose right. And so.

1547
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:03.800
So along the way, we can maybe next time,

1548
01:35:03.800 --> 01:35:06.680
you're like, okay, why am I, where's this coming from?

1549
01:35:06.680 --> 01:35:09.960
Typically you all, and I'll just, okay,

1550
01:35:09.960 --> 01:35:12.080
so let me just say something here.

1551
01:35:12.080 --> 01:35:17.080
I used to turn to verbal to protect myself.

1552
01:35:20.000 --> 01:35:22.680
The one time I've ever can remember,

1553
01:35:22.680 --> 01:35:27.120
like my sister used to hit me because my brothers hit her.

1554
01:35:27.160 --> 01:35:31.840
And I'll never forget the one day I had just had enough.

1555
01:35:31.840 --> 01:35:34.600
I'd had enough and I was sick of her hitting me

1556
01:35:34.600 --> 01:35:37.920
and I just hit her, like I hit her good.

1557
01:35:37.920 --> 01:35:40.840
I'm kind of proud, not gonna lie.

1558
01:35:40.840 --> 01:35:45.000
But I feel bad because I feel proud of that

1559
01:35:45.000 --> 01:35:46.720
because you know why I stood up for myself.

1560
01:35:46.720 --> 01:35:47.560
It wasn't right.

1561
01:35:47.560 --> 01:35:48.380
It's still not right.

1562
01:35:48.380 --> 01:35:51.000
Even in my heart, it's not right that I did that.

1563
01:35:51.000 --> 01:35:53.920
But in that moment, I can remember just feeling

1564
01:35:53.920 --> 01:35:58.640
so much shame because I started doing what she had done.

1565
01:35:58.640 --> 01:36:02.120
And for years, I felt so much shame about it.

1566
01:36:02.120 --> 01:36:04.080
I kind of joke, you guys, I'm joking lightly.

1567
01:36:04.080 --> 01:36:07.240
I'm not a fighter.

1568
01:36:07.240 --> 01:36:08.720
I'm not.

1569
01:36:08.720 --> 01:36:10.200
It's just kind of ironic now

1570
01:36:10.200 --> 01:36:11.980
because it doesn't even align with who I am.

1571
01:36:11.980 --> 01:36:14.640
Like I just don't even do any of that stuff.

1572
01:36:15.840 --> 01:36:17.640
So I can joke a little bit about it now.

1573
01:36:17.640 --> 01:36:20.740
My sister and I can joke about it together,

1574
01:36:20.740 --> 01:36:23.680
but it took a long time.

1575
01:36:24.680 --> 01:36:27.440
Because I just felt like, oh my gosh,

1576
01:36:27.440 --> 01:36:30.020
I am becoming what I said I would never do.

1577
01:36:31.200 --> 01:36:33.420
And so I don't know if that resonates for you,

1578
01:36:33.420 --> 01:36:35.480
but the enemy is the one that brings shame

1579
01:36:35.480 --> 01:36:38.560
and guilt and condemnation in any situation, ladies.

1580
01:36:38.560 --> 01:36:42.420
So when we understand that, we can say, you know what,

1581
01:36:42.420 --> 01:36:45.380
Satan, I'm not gonna keep receiving your shame

1582
01:36:45.380 --> 01:36:46.880
and your guilt anymore.

1583
01:36:46.880 --> 01:36:50.840
I believe that I'm forgiven when I ask for forgiveness

1584
01:36:50.840 --> 01:36:52.560
and that I can move forward

1585
01:36:52.600 --> 01:36:55.380
and I don't have to be bound to that situation anymore.

1586
01:36:55.380 --> 01:36:57.200
And just so you know,

1587
01:36:57.200 --> 01:36:59.960
you don't actually even have to apologize directly to him.

1588
01:36:59.960 --> 01:37:02.320
You can just ask the Lord for forgiveness

1589
01:37:02.320 --> 01:37:04.740
and ask the Lord to help him to forgive you

1590
01:37:04.740 --> 01:37:06.680
and you can move forward.

1591
01:37:06.680 --> 01:37:09.960
If God leads you all to actually tell someone

1592
01:37:09.960 --> 01:37:11.480
or ask someone for forgiveness,

1593
01:37:11.480 --> 01:37:12.960
then you should follow the Lord.

1594
01:37:12.960 --> 01:37:14.360
But I don't want you guys to feel like

1595
01:37:14.360 --> 01:37:16.720
you have to actually go to people

1596
01:37:16.720 --> 01:37:20.520
unless you're led by the Lord to do so, okay?

1597
01:37:20.520 --> 01:37:21.560
All right.

1598
01:37:21.560 --> 01:37:23.640
So forgive yourself.

1599
01:37:23.640 --> 01:37:25.560
You have a new day ahead of you

1600
01:37:25.560 --> 01:37:29.960
and you can walk into the fullness of everything God has.

1601
01:37:29.960 --> 01:37:32.000
I would encourage you to ask the Lord

1602
01:37:32.000 --> 01:37:36.040
what was underneath the surface that led you to speak out.

1603
01:37:36.040 --> 01:37:38.800
Was it that you were protecting yourself?

1604
01:37:38.800 --> 01:37:40.680
In the later weeks of this program,

1605
01:37:40.680 --> 01:37:43.900
you guys will get a self-preservation technique sheet.

1606
01:37:43.900 --> 01:37:45.480
It's actually in your downloads.

1607
01:37:45.480 --> 01:37:48.440
If you've already done your downloads, you already have it.

1608
01:37:49.360 --> 01:37:52.560
But if you look at that self-preservation sheet,

1609
01:37:52.560 --> 01:37:56.520
what you're explaining and describing is actually on there.

1610
01:37:56.520 --> 01:38:00.020
Some people yell when they're in self-preservation mode.

1611
01:38:00.020 --> 01:38:03.280
Some people like will get verbal

1612
01:38:03.280 --> 01:38:07.340
and use put downs or sarcasm and all that kind of stuff.

1613
01:38:07.340 --> 01:38:09.560
So there's a whole big list.

1614
01:38:09.560 --> 01:38:11.960
And so just, it's okay.

1615
01:38:11.960 --> 01:38:14.880
You know, again, hopefully you're here

1616
01:38:14.880 --> 01:38:16.560
to change your direction.

1617
01:38:16.560 --> 01:38:19.200
Remember, repentance is going in a different direction.

1618
01:38:19.200 --> 01:38:22.560
So tonight might be the beginning of that for some of you.

1619
01:38:22.560 --> 01:38:24.000
And here's your starting point.

1620
01:38:24.000 --> 01:38:26.880
And tomorrow can be the next step

1621
01:38:26.880 --> 01:38:29.920
in your starting in a new direction.

1622
01:38:29.920 --> 01:38:31.440
So let me pray us out.

1623
01:38:31.440 --> 01:38:32.600
Thanks for hanging in here.

1624
01:38:32.600 --> 01:38:34.400
Thanks for letting her share her story.

1625
01:38:34.400 --> 01:38:35.880
Thank you for your courage to share.

1626
01:38:35.880 --> 01:38:38.280
I'm so glad you did wait.

1627
01:38:38.280 --> 01:38:39.400
What's the download?

1628
01:38:39.400 --> 01:38:43.320
Okay, so the download is in your portal.

1629
01:38:43.320 --> 01:38:46.440
When you go into the HeartWork program,

1630
01:38:47.280 --> 01:38:50.680
there's an area in start here that says downloads

1631
01:38:50.680 --> 01:38:52.120
and that's all your worksheets.

1632
01:38:52.120 --> 01:38:55.420
So like every week you have worksheets,

1633
01:38:55.420 --> 01:38:57.600
but what we did to make it easier for you guys,

1634
01:38:57.600 --> 01:38:59.440
they're still in every week,

1635
01:38:59.440 --> 01:39:02.340
but you can also quickly download them all

1636
01:39:02.340 --> 01:39:05.580
right in the beginning if you want in that downloads area.

1637
01:39:05.580 --> 01:39:09.480
So like the permission slip, that's all in there.

1638
01:39:09.480 --> 01:39:11.880
Forgiveness, prayer, all the things.

1639
01:39:11.880 --> 01:39:14.280
All right, all right, let me pray for you.

1640
01:39:14.280 --> 01:39:15.440
Father, thank you so much

1641
01:39:15.440 --> 01:39:18.920
for every one of these ladies that confess tonight.

1642
01:39:18.920 --> 01:39:22.000
God, I pray that you would just wash over them.

1643
01:39:22.000 --> 01:39:24.800
Lord, your word declares that you take our sins

1644
01:39:24.800 --> 01:39:27.200
that are crimson scarlet and you make them white as snow,

1645
01:39:27.200 --> 01:39:29.120
that we are made new in you.

1646
01:39:29.120 --> 01:39:32.120
God, we thank you that you would just cover

1647
01:39:32.120 --> 01:39:34.160
these tender, soft areas of our hearts,

1648
01:39:34.160 --> 01:39:36.240
our minds, our spirits, our souls,

1649
01:39:36.240 --> 01:39:39.160
that you would continue to heal and redeem and restore.

1650
01:39:39.160 --> 01:39:41.400
God, I thank you that you would help them to feel

1651
01:39:41.400 --> 01:39:43.600
and experience your love in a fresh way.

1652
01:39:44.440 --> 01:39:47.960
God, where they learned harsh things from parents,

1653
01:39:47.960 --> 01:39:49.960
from guardians, from teachers,

1654
01:39:49.960 --> 01:39:52.720
God, I pray that you would show them true,

1655
01:39:52.720 --> 01:39:53.920
true and good things,

1656
01:39:53.920 --> 01:39:55.720
that you would show them who you are, God,

1657
01:39:55.720 --> 01:39:57.640
that you're not a God waiting up in heaven,

1658
01:39:57.640 --> 01:40:00.080
just waiting to yell at them.

1659
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:03.880
and call out their faults, but God, you extend your heart

1660
01:40:03.880 --> 01:40:06.340
and you have love for them in your eyes.

1661
01:40:06.340 --> 01:40:08.260
And I just thank you that you would help them

1662
01:40:08.260 --> 01:40:12.000
to understand not just who you are as love,

1663
01:40:12.000 --> 01:40:15.180
but who you are as good, who you are as faithful.

1664
01:40:15.180 --> 01:40:19.840
God, that you literally, it's unconditional love.

1665
01:40:19.840 --> 01:40:24.840
So nothing can separate them from your love or from you.

1666
01:40:25.140 --> 01:40:27.180
So Lord, we pray that you would just make that more real

1667
01:40:27.180 --> 01:40:29.260
to them today and in the days ahead.

1668
01:40:29.260 --> 01:40:31.860
In Jesus name, amen.

1669
01:40:31.860 --> 01:40:32.860
God bless you all.

1670
01:40:32.860 --> 01:40:34.780
I will see you guys in the group

1671
01:40:34.780 --> 01:40:37.100
and we'll be talking to you soon.

1672
01:40:37.100 --> 01:40:40.020
Next Monday, we go live again at 1 p.m.

1673
01:40:40.020 --> 01:40:41.500
and 8 p.m. Eastern time.

1674
01:40:41.500 --> 01:40:43.100
So we'll see you guys then.

1675
01:40:43.100 --> 01:40:43.940
Bye everyone.