Hello, happy Monday.
Welcome, Tameka girl, you got a great smile.
I don't know if anybody's ever told you that, but you do.
Man, you light up a room.
So good to see you guys.
Welcome, welcome.
Wanna encourage you, if you can turn on your cameras
to turn your cameras on if you're driving or something
and you can, or if you're working, that's okay.
But as I like to remind all of you, we love to see you.
Sometimes too, like when I can see you all,
I can kind of see what God is stirring at times.
Not that I know exactly, but I can tell
if something is really hitting home with you all.
And that tells me where we need to keep going,
if that makes sense.
So there's grace on your face.
Jackie talks about that all the time.
And there is a reason we say that truly.
So if you've never met me before, how many people,
you don't have to raise your digital hands,
but how many people are joining us for the first time
in a live session tonight?
Like first time being here, anybody?
Okay, welcome, Karen.
Heart check in, Lauren, I see you.
Hi, Susan.
Okay, I just wanna see how many new people
who have never been here before.
Welcome, my name's Bethany Cooper.
I'm one of the HeartWork coaches in the group.
You guys probably have seen me responding to you.
We also have Annette and Jennifer
who will be responding to you.
And then Jackie comes in at times as well in the group
in the Facebook group is where I'm talking about.
And every time we do a HeartWork session,
like a heart check-in like this,
just so y'all know, last week was a heart check-in.
It just was a different heart check-in
because Jackie did the Supernatural Hope.
So I just don't want that to be confusing for everyone.
It was still considered a heart check-in.
So every Monday at 1 p.m. and eight o'clock p.m.
Eastern time are our heart check-ins,
no matter what we do during those times, okay?
So just wanna make sure that's clear for everyone.
But I always do a little bit of housekeeping
at the beginning of every session.
If you were here with me earlier today
and you came back for more,
you're gonna hear some repeat stuff.
Just bear with us if that is you.
One of the things I thought was important
to explain to you all,
when you guys are going to any kind of prayer sessions
or anything that we host on Zoom like tonight,
if you try to log in and it says
there's another meeting in progress
or the meeting isn't started or anything like that,
just hang tight because as soon as we start the meeting,
it will let you all in.
I know some people were kind of confused by that.
So for example, the reason it might not let you in
is either I haven't started the meeting
if it's on my Zoom seat,
or I might be doing another meeting or session
right beforehand.
So until I finish that session, it won't let you all in.
So don't worry if you see that,
just hang tight and you'll get let in
when the meeting starts.
And then also we wanna encourage you all,
I don't know if you saw the post Jackie put up today,
just that reminder to really resist distractions.
And so you guys will get distractions from every direction,
whether it's old people that you haven't talked to in years,
like kind of coming out of the woodwork to kids
or just struggles, distractions at work.
The other thing that's kind of coming up
is that some people are finding out about books,
even like, you know, if we're on other sessions
and yeah, skyrocket, the distractions will,
as soon as you enter this group,
truly you guys, I'm not kidding.
Like you'll have more distractions
than you've probably ever had.
But what I was gonna say is you guys might feel like
if someone mentions a book,
oh, I should go read that book too
because that will help accelerate my healing.
And what we want you to know is really the main things
is the Bible and the heart work book
and the heart work course materials right now.
And this is why some people think they need added stuff
to try to figure out what's going on.
And if you will apply the stuff
that is already provided for you in this course,
the supernatural impartation of what God is doing
on this movement is here, it's on these materials.
And we just don't think that you need to go read
additional stuff at this time
because this is where God led you to be.
So we believe like, if you'll be laser kind of focused,
I wrote down on my paper, fix your focus.
So you wanna make sure you just really fix your focus.
I always kind of talk like,
I don't know if you guys have ever been to a horse race,
but they put those blinders on
and there's probably all kinds of reasons they do that.
But I know that one of them is so that they,
those horses kind of stay focused.
They stay in their lane, if you will.
And they go towards the goal.
So we want you guys to make it to where God wants you to go.
But we also don't want you to go a hundred miles an hour,
like in 50 different directions, right?
So that's where it's just staying focused
and you'll get to where God wants you to be.
Their thing I felt what like was important, I know there's still some confusion on where do we go for links and I hope that you guys are starting to figure it out more and more.
I will encourage you just take a breath, because it is a little bit to learn when you first come in the door, we are trying to continue to make it.
easier and easier for you, but even that we're in process we're growing as you all are growing so i'm.
want to make sure you guys know the portal is the website anytime we say the portal that's Jackie doorman.com website when you log in there that's your portal.
In that portal, you have the heart work program course okay so that's all your videos that's your journaling questions.
And that's where you're going to find the schedules and links is in there Okay, so that means every link that you're going to need for this whole program prayer.
Sunday night activation is a part of prayer the live sessions that's all in there you're also going to have another.
It looks similar to the heart records, but it's another thing that you can enter and that will have all of the replays.
So, like tonight, while it is it's streaming to Facebook, so you can definitely watch it there, but we also will load that right into your replay area, so if you guys want to watch it there, it will be there.
And then, when we do the supernatural Saturday those replays will go into there as well okay.
And then the other thing is like on the Facebook page, the main purpose of the Facebook page again you guys will have some videos in there, but it's literally duplicate of what's in your portal so just so you know it's just easier for you to go to your portal.
The Facebook is really for Community it's for you guys have a place to pose for us to respond to you to know how you're doing and to engage with your sisters and in your.
In your program some of these ladies you guys will not believe, but I promise some of these ladies, if you will allow yourself.
To really open up and get to know each other you some of you all might be in each other's weddings truly.
So that's that can really happen, as I shared before, that is something that happened for me, I was in a friend of mine's wedding last September and it's it's about learning how to open up to people in general.
And the more that you practice opening up in this environment, I promise it will help you make room to open up for your spirit mate when they when they come into your life okay.
All right, on that note we're going to go ahead and get started and go into the material for tonight father, thank you so much for.
God just just that we can breathe you in God that you're you're present.
In every moment that you sent your son Jesus to die on the cross to shed his blood and he chose to come.
He chose to come to also make a way for us to be one with him, as he is one with you and you sent the Holy Spirit who's our comforter our counselor our guide so that we would never have to walk on this earth alone.
We ask you Holy Spirit to come and have your way move all about tonight's session help the ladies to hear what your spirit has for them tonight.
Lord, I thank you that you know us better than we know ourselves, sometimes you even surprise me still where the stuff that you, you bring to the surface and things that I don't even know are still there.
But God in your perfect timing and in your grace and your love you bring those things to the surface, so that we can keep healing and we can keep.
drawing closer to the fullness of who you originally created us to be so help us Lord to surrender to that process to trust you.
Even when we might not know how to trust you that we can even be honest with you God and say God helped me to trust you more.
Help me to believe more I believe help my unbelief God I pray that you would help the ladies tonight.
To grow in their faith to grow in their understanding of who you are and to just really be open to everything you want to do in them and through them in Jesus name a man.
Alright, so tonight, I want to start off by just talking a little bit about soil and plants I don't know if you guys are plant people or not.
And I don't know if I can I like plants I don't know if I can officially qualify myself as a like I know a lot about plants, but.
One of the things that I have learned is that the soil is really important, unless you have it in water because that's you can do some plants and water to.
And that whatever we put in the soil is going to then come up right it's going to come out and it's going to be reproduced.
I have this one plant that I got it when my mom passed away and it had a bunch of different plants in it so like five or six plants.
And I kind of divided all those up about six months ago in for whatever it's worth I didn't talk about this in the session earlier today, but I noticed it this morning, and it just came to my mind, but I was looking in that that basket.
might've been yesterday.
And I realized that a leaf of one of the plants
that I thought I had completely taken out
and put into something else is now growing there again.
So I'm like, oh, there must've been some roots to that
still down underneath of there, right?
So whatever's in the soil is going to start to grow.
It's going to produce something out of there.
And so my question for you to consider as we start tonight
is what is planted in your heart?
What's planted in the soil of your heart?
And what is the soil of your heart look like right now?
And there's no shame in this.
I just want you to kind of ask the Lord,
like, is your heart rocky?
Is it soil that's good soil?
Is it soil that's producing life?
Or do you have good things coming out of your mouth
in your mind?
The Bible says that out of the abundance of the heart,
the mouth speaks.
So even some of us, we might not speak
the negative things out, but we might think them.
And a lot of times we think negative things
about ourselves quite a lot.
I've been coaching ladies groups now for two and a half
years and long before I even came into this community,
I was coaching for a long time there as well.
But just in regards to heart work in this community
for about two and a half years,
and I can't tell you how many women
actually don't like themselves.
And so I want you to kind of even just be thinking
about that tonight as we're going into our content
for the night, like, you know,
how do you feel about yourself?
You know, I think that as Christians and some of you
may or may not go to church or I don't know where,
what your walk in the Lord and with the Lord is,
but you might love yourself, but do you like yourself?
Do you like who you are?
Do you like what you see in the mirror?
And I'm not just talking about looks.
And the reason I'm stirring this up is because
I believe God wants to do something here tonight,
because this didn't come up earlier today at all.
So for some of you, I believe God wants you to consider
like, how do you feel about yourself
when you look in the mirror?
Do you think about all the things that you did wrong
or who you haven't become yet,
or whatever level of success you thought you needed to be at
that you aren't, or maybe you are,
but you don't feel like you have the things you want
in other areas of your life.
So whatever that kind of looks like for you,
if you're thinking on those things,
or if you're thinking on things that are negative about men,
those things are getting planted in your heart.
And the more that you think on them,
the more that you meditate on them,
the more they get in your heart.
So that's why even the Bible talks about
to meditate on his word day and night.
Why do we do that?
Because the word is what dispels anything
that's not in alignment with the word.
So anything that's in dark,
like anything dark cannot remain when the light comes in.
So when we meditate on the word day and night,
it causes all that other stuff to go out, right?
Okay.
So on that note, I wanna read a couple things to you.
I'm not gonna read all of these pages.
And again, if I tell you guys the pages,
it never matches up with your ebook.
So just kind of follow along with me on this.
And so I wanna read to you about God's standard of good.
When God uses the word good,
he isn't talking about our human standard of good.
He is referring to his standard of good.
So it's that heavenly understanding of what good is.
And we might not really even comprehend that yet
because we still think in earthly terms,
we label things good or bad a lot.
And that's not even what God means by good, okay?
So we'll just wanna encourage you
to shift a little bit there.
So maybe you do have a little bit of something good
working out in your life,
but is it God's version of good yet?
So maybe some of you guys feel like,
yeah, I'm doing pretty good.
Things are going really great in this area,
but is it to the level of where God's good?
Probably not.
And that's why we are here.
We want more.
Most of us have a tendency to live in crisis mode,
only focusing on the areas that are a complete train wreck,
not realizing there's an upgrade available
in every area of our life,
if we are willing to be shown that we can't,
like shown what we can't see yet.
So how many of you guys want an upgrade tonight?
Like how many want everything God has for you
in every area of your life?
Like, I mean, I still tell the Lord all the time,
like, I want more, Lord.
I want more upgrade.
I want more understanding.
I want more truth.
And so I just wanna encourage you in those areas,
it's good for us to say, yeah, I want more.
So here's where we have to start though.
We have to understand and look at the areas
that aren't going well as well.
So when we go to that and we start looking at,
okay, what areas are not going well in my life?
so that we can get healing there. And then as that heals and mends and is restored, then that area
will become healthier and more whole. Your problem areas are the places you have the most unhealed
wounds. These unhealed wounds that are harboring fears, lies, and false narratives create havoc in
that area of your life as they mature and manifest through emotions like guilt, shame,
unworthiness, and fear. So I want you just to start thinking about like, what's the area of
your life where you feel the most stuck right now? And for some of you, yeah, it's going to
be maybe the spirit mate, but are there other areas as well? Like where do you want God to
bring freedom into your heart and life tonight and in the days ahead? A lot of times we don't
understand that, you know, the things that we're seeing in the physical realm, like we just think
so often change my behavior, change my behavior, and then everything else in my life will change,
but that actually isn't how it works. We have to have heart transformation and then the heart
transformation brings behavior transformation. Do you see the difference? So there's a lot of times
even when, I mean, people in the church don't even realize whether it's addiction problems or
eating problems or, you know, gossiping problems. I mean, it doesn't matter what it is, like, yeah,
we can probably stop and be on good behavior for a while. But then when you hit another bump and
you hit a hard spot, if, if your heart's not changed, you're going to tend to go back to
that thing. So one of the things I was reading in a totally different book today was talking about
like when you, like, sometimes if you were raised in a family that had unhealthy eating
habits, which I was, my mom hid food a lot and I saw my sister hide food and I saw them,
like my mom, when she would be really sad, like she would just eat all kinds of ice cream. Like,
I'm not saying ice cream is bad, but I, it was the amount that she ate and like, there were just,
it was weird to me. I never understood the hiding of the food and stuff, but then over time it was,
it was crazy. Like I started thinking to do those things. And so, you know, we never really realize
how things that other people do, they, they start to create these grooves in our minds and in our
hearts. And then we start reciprocating what they're doing. And so one of the things that
really stood out to me in this book that I've been reading is it was talking about, like,
if you learn to, um, you know, feed your sadness with food or you're overwhelmed with food,
then when you feel sad or overwhelmed, you're, you're probably going to eat food,
even when you don't want it. And that really spoke to me a lot, you all. And I feel like,
um, just being really transparent, that's something like, I literally wrote it out and
hung it up on my mirror and the declaration to kind of resist because I don't need food
to feel better. I need Christ. I need the fullness of the Holy spirit. I need his love and his
understanding. And, um, and I'm not saying I even do it all the time, but I know I catch myself
sometimes like after I eat something, like I didn't even really want that. Why did I do that?
And so I feel like God's been kind of showing me the habit and he's trying to help me kind of break
that pattern, if you will. And so I want to encourage you guys to say, again, I'm just kind
of putting things out. There's the Holy spirit's bringing them up. So as I'm going on some fruits,
some more fruits, so there's fruits versus roots. Okay. The fruit is what's on the surface. It's
what we see, right? So it's, what's more visible fruits might include things like sickness,
self-pity victim mentality, despair. So despair is different than sadness. So just want to make
sure you guys understand that suicidal tendencies discussed in judgment. Some more fruits are
obesity, perversion, addiction, sexual dysfunction, hopelessness, hatred, self-hatred, uh, abrasiveness,
maybe short temper, being jealous of people gossiping. I could go on, but just to give you
guys an idea, those are the fruits. Okay. Those are unhealthy fruit. If you guys are wondering
what good fruit looks like, if you study scripture on the fruits of the spirit,
those are the good fruits that we want to have versus the other fruit. All right. So I just
wanted to kind of read those things to you because where we're going to go tonight,
our first breakout session is going to be about, um, lies, but in particular,
the flies, you guys, if you haven't read it yet in the book, it talks about the Lord of the flies
and like how flies will come and they'll, you know, go into these areas and I'll let the book
do the justice. Cause I'm not as good as Jackie explaining it, but they'll, you know, they'll lay
these eggs in these really, you know, areas. And it's just like that where the Lord, or excuse me,
the enemy will come into trauma. If you're
you will, and he'll lay eggs, he'll plant a seed,
he'll lie to you about something.
And sometimes it's so subtle that we don't even catch it
when he's doing it.
He's sneaky, he's sneaky, and he tries to kind of subtly
just, will you believe what I'm telling you?
And so tonight we wanna ask the Lord to reveal the flies,
lies, and counterfeit lives.
Okay, the counterfeit lives are the people that we live into
because we believe lies.
So it's when we don't really show up as our full self.
I'll give you another example.
Years ago, I was in this other relationship
and we went to dinner at first and it was a dinner
that had like a, it was a nice place,
but they had like a dance floor and stuff.
And I do love to dance, but the point that I feel led
to bring this up is I was with the guy I was dating
at the time and his friends came.
And I remember I was trying to like,
it was the first time I met his friends.
I was trying to impress them and just seem like
I was the cool girlfriend.
And his one friend in particular was dating someone
for a very long time.
And at one point he started dancing with other women
out on the floor.
And I remember just being so mad,
but I just tried to act like it didn't bother me
and just act cool about it.
And I'm sharing that to say like,
that was a counterfeit version of myself
because I was uncomfortable in that moment.
And not only did I continue to act like I was fine with it,
but I tried to just like go on in that relationship,
even though early in the beginning,
I saw that he surrounded himself with friends
that weren't making good choices.
Does that make sense?
Okay.
All right, so I'm just kind of planting seeds
to get you guys thinking about your own stuff
and maybe that doesn't relate to you at all,
but just let the Lord kind of use that,
to help you for your own situations.
So lies are also what we call squatters in the heart.
Do y'all know what squatters are?
People that come in, tell places that they don't actually
own those places and they take them over.
I was telling the group earlier today,
I actually just watched a movie last night
where the CIA agent, he travels all over the world
and he comes home to his apartment place
and there's literally squatters there.
And it was in another country.
And during the winter in that country,
I don't know if this was real,
but this is what was happening in the movie.
You couldn't even evict them.
You couldn't even get them out.
And I was thinking on that today,
like how ironic that I watched this movie last night
and then the Lord told me to go this direction today.
And I didn't even make the connection
until right before I jumped on the live earlier today.
And this is why I feel like I want to mention that.
So in that movie, even though he like rented
or owned that place,
he still did not have the right to evict those squatters.
Is that crazy or what?
But here's the thing.
The Lord wanted me to tell you tonight
that you have full authority by the power of Jesus Christ
to evict every squatter, every lie,
everything that doesn't belong out of your heart
like we call the heart a home.
So you kick them out of your home.
They don't have to stay there.
You have every right to tell them to get out.
Okay, so I want to empower you by the Holy Spirit
to know that they don't have to stay
and you get to tell them when they get to leave.
These are the enemies that will come in
and lie to you and bring insecurity
and resentment and bitterness and unforgiveness.
The squatters are things like what we were talking about
earlier, some of those fruit, the jealousy,
all these kinds of things.
Proverbs 23, seven says,
for as a person thinks in his heart, so is he.
So my question for you
as you go into breakout session number one
is what lies are you believing about yourself,
about God, about other people?
What squatters do you need to evict
out of your heart and life tonight?
It could be stuff that the Lord,
even from your reading that's been stirred up,
it could be stuff that's coming up in your mind
even as I've been talking tonight.
Maybe the lies are about your abilities,
about what you can or can't do or what you need.
Sometimes I think people believe the lie
that they need some kind of substance to,
this is what's coming up in my spirit too,
like to be fun.
How many people have ever heard that lie?
Like you're only fun if you have a drink.
You're too serious.
You need to go do this or do that
so that you're more relaxed.
You know, these are all,
you never understand until you start unpacking this stuff,
how it takes root, okay?
All right, I think that's enough to get you guys going.
So you're going to go into breakouts.
If you've never joined us live before, you're going to go into breakouts.
I'm going to encourage you to open up to your sisters.
And yes, I know some of you will not know each other.
This will be the first time you're meeting each other.
And it might feel you might be nervous, but I just want to encourage you
like everybody is here on the same journey.
You're safe here.
If if anyone ever doesn't feel safe, I hope you tell me.
But in two and a half years, I haven't had that happen yet.
Praise the Lord.
But you're going to go in and you're going to share one or two lies
that you have been believing that you need to evict tonight,
the squatters that you need to kick out if you have extra time.
I want you to do that question first, OK?
But if you have extra time, talk to each other.
Where are you from?
What led you to come and do this journey in the heartwork?
You know, whatever.
How was your day?
You know, kind of just roll with it and get to know each other a little bit.
You'll have about eight minutes.
And I'm going to get that set up for you.
I'm going to put two to three of you guys in,
so you might only have enough time to talk about the question,
but if you have extra time, I just wanted you guys to be prepared.
All right.
All right, so if you've never joined, you're going to have a thing there
that says click to join the breakout room, go ahead and click that,
and that will take you right into your breakout room.
And I'll be checking to make sure everyone gets in.
I say hi to all of our Facebook ladies.
Hi, Cassandra.
I'm going to talk to you guys here more just in just a minute,
I want to just make sure everyone gets in the breakout.
All right, Avalon, are you able, do you have a link?
Tawana, do you have a link?
And then I have Karen.
Are you all able to click in?
Make sure.
All right, I think everyone's okay.
I just want to make sure I need some,
like we didn't have anybody that ended up alone.
Okay, yeah, you guys were in groups that had three.
All right, perfect.
All right, so I want to hear, I see that Cassandra said,
wow, so relatable with the food.
I've been shown the same thing too, even in happy excitement.
I'm so glad you're still joining us, even though you're on the road.
That's awesome.
Anybody else that's watching on Facebook,
if you don't know, you can come join us on Zoom.
I posted the Zoom link at the top as soon as we went live there.
It's also in the Facebook chat.
It's also in the comments of the reminder post about tonight.
So you guys can find it a lot of different places.
But if you're not able to jump on Zoom, that's totally okay.
But I did want to let you know that we would love to have you here,
even if you can't join right now.
Hold on.
I'm going to type this question for them.
I think they're wondering.
Okay, so we just want to say thank you for being here tonight with us.
Jennifer just shared too,
the lie that the Holy Spirit just gave her is living in victory is mundane.
Whoa, girl.
Yeah, that is huge.
All right.
So I encourage you to ask the Lord.
You know, what led you to believe that having victory is mundane?
Like, why do you feel bad for having success or overcoming in an area?
Did someone ever cause you to feel bad in your life when you were doing well?
Maybe there was somebody that kind of competed with you a lot.
I'm not sure if any of those things will relate to you.
Hi, Angela.
I'm going to put you into a breakout session.
We are talking about lies.
The Lord is in one.
And somebody called and I got kicked out off of my deal.
So I was in one with two ladies.
But all right.
Do you remember what the number was?
No, I can just put you in a different one.
That's OK.
Let me just get you from up here.
Sorry about that.
My phone rang and it kicked me off of my iPad.
That's okay.
All right.
You should have that to join.
Okay.
Thank you.
All right.
Okay.
Awesome.
Okay.
So Lord, we just thank you right now for all the ladies that are in the breakout rooms
as well as those that are watching on Facebook.
We thank you God for revealing these areas for healing, the areas where we need to evict
the enemy out of our hearts, out of our minds, out of our spirits, our bodies, our souls.
We thank you God that you're bringing things into the light that we're in darkness and
things that are long forgotten even so many times Lord in the little nooks and crannies
of our life.
When we go through things, we so often we press that stuff down because we're just trying
to keep moving and surviving.
So Lord, you don't want us to stay that way.
So I thank you that you're bringing truth.
You're bringing life.
You're bringing transformation or to thank you, um, that you are helping us to know you're
good and perfecting pleasing will for our lives.
We have Jeanette jumping on high Jeanette, how are you?
All the ladies are in breakout session, so I'm going to put you in one of the groups.
So what will happen is a button will come up and it'll say, you know, click to join
the breakout.
They are talking about lies that they are going to evict tonight.
So lies, the Lord's been revealing that they're going to let go of, okay, I'm going to put
you in one of those rooms.
So that should show up there for you to click to join.
Do you see that?
Awesome.
All right, thank you Lord.
The timing is everything.
I thank you that you brought every one of these ladies, whether those that are here
tonight in the live session, those on Facebook, those in the replay, we love you.
We're praying for you, but thank you God that you brought every one of these in this season
here for such a time as this, God, we thank you that, um, you would help them to know
how precious your thoughts are towards them, God, that those precious thoughts cannot even
be numbered, that we would never be able to even count them.
They outnumber the grains of sand.
And when we wake up, God, you are still with us.
When we lie down at night, we thank you God that you would help us to sleep and rest in
peace and that you would guard our hearts and our minds through Christ Jesus.
When we're awake, when we're asleep, and I thank you Lord that you never slumber or sleep,
that your eyes are always roaming to and fro about the earth.
And I thank you Lord that you, your eyes are turned towards us tonight and that you will
help us to hear what your spirit is saying to us, what your heart is saying to us and
about us.
I thank you Lord that you'll help us to be alert and to be present, that you're about
to do something brand new.
It's bursting out that we would begin to perceive it.
There it is that you are making a road through the desert and rivers and the badlands.
Jennifer, I see that you're in shock.
The lie was so good.
It needed to be revealed.
Yeah.
And that's how it works.
And now that you get elimination there, I would even ask the Lord, what other lies were
you believing that were connected to that?
Because typically, you know, when they're that big and they're that kind of sly and
stuck in there, there tends to be other, what I call like tentacles, you know, just like
an octopus, you know, not only do they have the, you know, whatever the octopus things
are called, but then they have all those tentacles on them.
So there can be other areas.
Natalia.
Hi, welcome.
Yes.
It's okay that you're here tonight.
I don't know what you mean by path three.
I'm thinking you're saying from week three, but so glad that you're here joining us.
And then I just want to kind of point out too, that as we're talking about all of these
areas for, you know, revealing for healing, we're asking God to reveal the lies that oftentimes
we don't realize that pain can actually be a gift.
Sometimes even when I'm going through a situation, if I start to feel pain or I start to feel
heat in my heart, like not like a happy heat either.
Like if I feel like heat, like, oh, that doesn't feel good.
Or I feel angry or something's going on.
Then I can ask the Lord to reveal what's causing that.
So that pain is, can be a gift and it can be an engine light that tells us, Hey, you
got to look under the hood here.
There's something going on.
And that's where we can keep asking God really good questions, ask him to reveal those areas
for healing.
Again, he knows all the cracks and crevices of our hearts, our minds, our spirits, our
souls.
And he knows what needs to be brought to the surface so that we can be completely whole,
lacking no good.
because that's what the Bible declares. That's his will for us. Hi ladies. We have like 28 seconds
until everyone's back. So I'm just going to kind of keep doing some stuff here. I just want to bless
you all. And with the reminder that you don't have to be afraid because God is always with you.
Don't be discouraged for he is your God. He will strengthen you and he will help you. He will hold
you up with his righteous right hand. And I, there are a couple of people that I saw in today's,
I haven't gotten through everybody's weekly roll call yet. And I will, if I don't get them all
done tonight, I'll be working on them again tomorrow. So just know if I haven't gotten to
you yet, I will see yours. Um, but I saw a couple of people were just feeling really discouraged
and overwhelmed and, um, disheartened, you know, it can be, it can be a bumpy road, this heartwork
process, but just keep hanging in there and just know that God is going to bring grace and healing
and life in the midst of even those difficult places. He will. Um, so just hang in there and
he will be your helper all the way through. Okay. So this is what we do as we come back from
breakouts. And I ask if there's anyone that's willing to share with the whole group, what you
shared in your breakout group. So if anyone would be willing to do that, we'd love to hear from you.
Okay. Awesome. Claudia, go ahead.
Hi. So I shared in my breakout room that the lie I've been always going to be the last, um,
girl before he meets his person. It's been something that I've noticed for the last four,
seven to four years that I meet someone and it doesn't even last a month and they either say,
they either say this isn't going to work or I get ghosted. And two weeks, three weeks later,
I see that they're in a relationship with someone else. And a lot of those guys are already married
and have families. So I feel like I'm just the last step that they take before they meet somebody.
Praise God that that's not true, but I understand that it's very real for you.
Um, so here's the thing. When is the first time you ever remember feeling that way?
Um, I think in a different context, it was probably when, um, the last person,
uh, actually I want to say that when I remember probably like in 2017, sorry, 2015,
there is somebody that I was, um, well, I say, I thought that we were seeing each other, but
there is, um, somebody else he was seeing. And I noticed that his ex-girlfriend had shared a
picture of them and she had a ring on her finger. And he told me that it was, um, an old picture
and they, she was trying to get back together with him, but it turned out that it wasn't an
old picture. It was actually very real. He proposed to her and didn't tell me.
Okay. Yeah. So here's why I asked that. So anytime we're, we're having things like this,
even though, um, that is manifesting in your reality for a season, I really want you to kind
of cling to that. This is not your forever. This is not your home. You are not staying here
in this place where it feels like these guys date you and then it's over and then they find
their person. So the, the number one step ladies is we have to come out of alignment with those
lies. That's step number one. We have to say, okay, well, I do know this is what it feels like.
I am choosing to not come into agreement with that lie anymore. Okay. So that's step number one.
The other thing was when I asked you, okay, when's the first time you remember feeling this
way? So as you were telling that story, you know, and you might know this already, but I hear
betrayal in there. Um, yeah, there, there was actually betrayal in a different context. It
was when I was five, my mom was dating a guy and she married somebody. And I told her that I didn't
want her to marry him because I didn't like him. And she did it anyway. And it turned out that he
was, um, abusive for the next 10 years. Okay. So this is how heart work happens. Ladies. This
is like a prime example. So the current reality that she's been living in, this is where she
thinks, and I'm just kind of interpreting. This might be where it looks like you all are stuck
when these things happen, but just from listening to her and asking one question, or you guys asking
God, these kinds of questions, instead of, instead of us just always like, this is how it's always
going to be. This is my lot, you know, where we're like, no, wait a minute. God said, he has something
good for me.
this isn't good. So Lord, why is this happening? Like when was the first time I believed this lie?
And so, um, with that betrayal, um, Claudia, as you're kind of unpacking that with the Lord,
I really think as you lean into that, the betrayal with your mom and the betrayal that even with this
guy, he was telling you, he was dating you or alluding to that fact while he was still with
someone else and then like asked her to marry him. That is betrayal. And sometimes we don't
even put those kinds of words to those kinds of things. And so when we do finally like,
wait a minute, like, this is what really happened here. Then we can start to face that situation.
Um, but there's probably going to be some forgiveness that's going to have to take
place in both of these situations, um, where, you know, cause even as you were talking about
your mom, um, and this is normal, just so you guys know, I don't like it happens to me too.
Um, sometimes I'll like, if I'm talking about something that's really hard, sometimes like
I'll literally feel like I'm shaking from the inside out and it's not, it's not anything like
I'm not, it's not weird. It's just for a long time, I didn't understand what was happening.
It's just, our bodies can't contain some trauma. And so as we're talking about those really hard
things, you know, sometimes it just manifests differently. Her voice got shaky. I don't know
if you guys could hear. So if you guys ever experienced that yourself, that is a sign to
you, like that you're still, you still got a lot of tenderness in that area. And there's probably
some, some need for healing there. Um, if you guys have areas of things you've been through
that you just literally don't even want to talk about it, that can be another sign that, Hey,
Lord, I need you to come and show me like, what's, what do I still need healed in this area?
And so, uh, Claudia, thank you for being brave and sharing. Uh, I know it can be so tough. Um,
but I believe God wants you to be free from all of that. And that, again, that is not your lot.
You're going to, you're going to end up, your spirit mate's going to be drawn to you and you
are going to be drawn to your spirit mate. And that is the truth. That's what I want you to cling
to. And God is going to heal you and lead you into that path in the days ahead. All right. All right.
So that's where then we replace it with truth. So the truth is that I believe God, thank you,
God, that you're going to lead me to my spirit mate and you're going to lead my spirit mate to
me. And then we also find truth in the word to align with as well. So we replace the lie
with truth. Okay. And then we cling to that truth and we confess that truth
and we align with that instead. All right, Amber, go ahead.
Hey, yeah. So one of the things that I was thinking of was that, like, I really want to be
cared for and led spiritually, um, by my spouse or, you know, even dating someone, but I don't,
I'm like questioning if that's possible because I feel like that doesn't come like I lead a lot
of things at my church. I'm a leader and just naturally, and, um, I'm always initiating things
and kind of being the first to go. So I want that to be a thing that comes in a relationship,
but I feel like it's not there. And so then I'm just like, do I question and doubt God's ability
to do that? But then as you were talking to Claudia, I did kind of think back to like,
how much does this truly go back to me losing my dad at 22. And he was like our safe place in our
family. And, um, like he was my, my adventure buddy, like the thing, you know, like daddy's
girl, all that stuff. And, and so how much has maybe the past 17 years really been affected by
losing him and in a bigger way than I even knew. Um, and then I thought back to like,
just now, like I did date someone before my dad passed away that did care for me. And that did
lead me spiritually, but we weren't able to, to continue that relationship due to, to distance.
And also I do think that there would have been decisions made that wouldn't have been healthy
for us based on that distance. And so anyways, I, I just, I'm like, God, what, where's the
possibility to be, to be led and cared for and loved. And, um, so that's where I'm kind of
struggling. Yeah. Amber, thank you for sharing. Um, I'm going to say my hunch is yes, that there
are some things connected to your dad there. Uh, as soon as you started talking about it,
it just felt like the Holy spirit, like all over. And, and so typically I just know that's one of
the ways the Lord kind of confirms and resonates in my spirit when I hear someone saying something.
So I would encourage you just to ask the Lord, you know, um, here's, here's the reality to y'all.
Sometimes when we lose people.
Like we can believe the lie that we will dishonor them in some way if we let someone else like in that close.
And I'm not saying that's your situation, but I feel led to mention that.
And thank you, Lord.
You know, the reality, too, is if you make yourself vulnerable again, Amber, to a man leading you, that means you have to risk losing them.
And so I feel I just again, I'm just feeling the Holy Spirit all over this.
I'm feeling some resonance there, like the fear of, you know, can they lead me? Can they lead me?
Maybe the enemy is just really taking you down.
There's no men that are spiritual enough to lead you or you can't find these men to spiritually lead you, which is not true.
They are out there. I promise. I found one and there's more than one.
Ladies, there's lots of good guys out there. There are.
The enemy wants us to think that there's not. That's not true.
And so I believe as you let the Lord heal some more of the areas of the stuff with your dad and losing him and maybe even just ask the Lord, like, hey, Lord, you know, just be real.
Like this came up tonight and I want you to show me, like, are there areas where I've put walls up and I've been afraid to let people in?
Is there anything I need to know that's in darkness or an area that I need healing that I'm just not aware of?
And just see what he starts to connect for you, because what you said as you were sharing that I thought was super important to you is before your dad passed away, you were dating someone who led you spiritually.
So, you know, it can happen. Yeah. And so the enemy is just trying to he's just trying to deceive you into thinking that you're too strong for anybody to lead you.
But here the Holy Spirit and the father and Jesus Christ are going to lead somebody into your life, but you have to make room for them.
So that means we have to open up and not have to do it all ourselves anymore, not have to take care of ourselves anymore, you know, and really be vulnerable and let people in.
And that's why I say to you guys, if you practice, even letting women in, some of you guys are terrified to let women in for right reasons.
Some of you guys have been hurt by women. But if you practice here, God will help you. It will be easier.
I'm not saying it's going to be super easy because some of you guys, it's going to be practice, but you'll get better at letting the men in to thank you for sharing your story.
I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. Thanks for listening. Thanks for. Yeah, you're welcome.
Okay, now I'm not sure if I'm going to say your name right. Is it Krutika?
It's Krutika. Yeah, it was.
I got it right the first time. Okay, awesome.
Yeah, so a couple of things that I shared in the breakout is the first one is I feel very conscious about my body.
I do exercise. I eat healthy. I have changed my diet for the planet and so many things.
But then I always feel that growing up, my sister, she was born perfect.
She had good looks, perfect features and everything. And I love my sister.
But it feels like I was always compared to people outside my home and in my family.
Everyone would be like, oh, my God, your sister is so much prettier.
Yeah, like and it's like it's it is there is a trend of arranged marriages in India.
So it's like, yeah, how will we ever get you married because your sister is so much prettier.
And even till date, no matter how much I affirm to myself, I always feel that I'm not as pretty as her.
And if a man ends up coming in my life, if he sees my sister, he will like her more because the environment that I came from it.
So much importance is given to beauty and looks.
And secondly, I also feel that whenever I go on dates and everything,
I feel that I do not resonate with a lot of things that people think are fun.
I have got my own hobbies and my own interests, but I like I don't find as many people who like that.
And they are always like, how can you not like doing skydiving?
Like you're so boring and everything.
And I always feel that whenever I'm on dates and stuff, I'm always being judged for like, you know, honestly telling them that I do not like something instead of, you know, going there with them and not enjoying myself.
And third thing is like after so many therapies and stuff, I learned that I need to set healthy boundaries rather than just draining myself.
But it is not accepted well by my friends and family.
I was even shamed a couple of times for setting healthy boundaries and I always feel like.
being honest and speaking my heart out,
even in the kindest way possible,
people do not take that.
And I always feel that I just can't be myself with anyone,
but I do not want that.
And I always feel that if I am myself,
or if I try to be myself, who I am, my genuine self,
then nobody's going to like me.
Whoa, girl.
I'm gonna call you all of y'all girls.
I try not to do it, but it just comes out.
I don't know why.
I apologize.
You're all amazing ladies.
Man, I just think you're amazing, number one.
I'm just gonna say that right out of the gate.
And I'm so sorry that people have spoken to you
in these ways and minimized who you are.
And it's not just about beauty.
Like I'm hearing you say,
people like have minimized your interest.
People have minimized you
in the way that you're setting boundaries.
They're comparing you to someone else.
And I just believe that
just from the heart of the father tonight,
like that breaks his heart for you.
And I just want you to know,
like he is sorry that you've been going through that too.
And the next thing I wanted to say was
when you said, I can't be myself,
that really just summed it up.
And how interesting tonight.
I mean, I literally didn't talk as much about that
this morning in the first session as I did tonight
for you guys to like yourselves.
And so I wanna encourage you,
and this can apply to anybody
if you struggle in these areas,
to take a picture of yourself.
I think I actually gave this example
to somebody else in this group.
I do so many responses in the different groups, y'all.
I don't even remember sometimes where I'm doing it at.
But to find a picture of yourself that you like,
not one that someone else said you had to be a certain way,
look a certain way, but one you like of yourself
or just your favorite one.
Even if you don't like, you're not like,
I love this photo.
And I want you to start writing things you like
about yourself on that photo.
And I want you to hang it up
and I want you to look at it and reaffirm yourself
because here's the thing.
Unfortunately, in a broken and fallen world,
people aren't gonna affirm us
the way that they should at times.
But if you grow to really love who you are,
no matter what you endure,
that's not going to shake that in you.
Does that make sense?
And so there's that first thing, okay?
And yeah, you guys can all do it.
I think every woman,
I don't know if you guys have ever seen the images
where it shows the woman that's really struggling
and she's like, it's like all like shame and lust
and all the negative things that we all go through.
And God just started showing me.
It was a class I took like just to start
when I'm even praying for things for people,
I really need to see God move in their life.
God led me to take a picture of my stepson
and I just started writing prophetic,
like things I prayed and asked God to show me things.
And I still, to this day,
will pray over those things for him.
And I believe those things are coming to pass.
So for whatever that's worth, that came to my mind first.
And then there's a lot of places I could go with this,
but I feel really like this sister thing
is like really, really big.
And I wanna encourage you to ask the Lord
to help you forgive her.
Because I feel like along the way, as hard as it is,
I have no doubt that you love her,
but along the way, when people treat you that way
and they compare you to her over and over and over,
it's gonna be really tough to not have resentment
towards her because of that.
And so just asking the Lord
if there's any unforgiveness there,
if there's anything that,
just to release her and just have your heart clear
and to forgive those people that said that stuff to you.
And that might take a little while and that's okay,
but forgiveness is a choice.
So as soon as you forgive, it happens,
but the feelings, it might take a little while to catch up.
And then the last thing is,
if this encourages you at all,
I don't know what your things are that you like to do,
but on the first date with my now husband,
he came out with the, I like Legos.
Like it was like almost like,
like he almost couldn't hold it in you all
because he was so worried.
He didn't want to get to know me
if I wasn't going to accept him for his Legos.
And the things that he likes, and this is why,
his ex-wife used to make fun of him and put him down
and really like minimize his interest.
And so I will tell you that when you find the spirit mate
that God has for you, they're going to embrace who you are
and they're going to love you.
And they're not going to make you feel bad for your interest.
And it's okay if your interests
aren't exactly the same as theirs.
Do I do Legos as much as him?
No, I do them more now that I'm married to him
because I do like puzzles and, you know,
I enjoy doing things with him.
We go to Lego stuff and all the kind.
Would I have done that on my own?
Probably not, but because we love someone,
we do things for them to make them feel happy and loved.
And you will have that too.
You will, but you just have to find the right person
that will embrace you and honor you and love you
and build you up and not tear you down, okay?
All right.
And on that ladies, on that note, any of you guys,
if there's areas where people are saying mean
and hurtful things to you,
and that continues to happen,
not only through parents and other guardians,
and now you're seeing it showing up in your dating life,
there's probably some kind of soul tie there
or some unforgiveness that's causing that
to now come up in other places, okay?
I can take one more right now,
and then I need to get you guys going
towards our next topic for tonight.
I'm gonna go to Michaela only just
because I've never heard Michaela share,
and she was just the next person on my screen here.
Well, this is only my second week, so that may be why.
Oh, that's all right.
Yeah, no, that's totally fine.
And I didn't mean that in a negative way.
No, no, no, no.
I just, I'm new.
Welcome.
For me, the big thing that I talked about,
and a lot of these things that people have been sharing
have resonated with me,
but the thing that I shared was just,
I think lies around just feeling not worthy
and not good enough.
Specifically, what I was talking about was in work.
For me, I shared that for a lot of different reasons,
for a lot of different reasons.
I'm a pediatric nurse practitioner,
and for a lot of reasons over the last,
from 2020 to when I started my job in July of 2023,
I wasn't working.
I did try my hand at my own business, which failed,
but I just basically wasn't working
in a corporate environment.
And so I started again in July,
and there have been a lot of roadblocks and a lot of bumps,
and I could call it, I was in purgatory,
is what I nicknamed it,
because it was just a real rough start
for like three months or four months when I started my job.
And I think I've just been really, truly believing
and buying into that,
just that I'm not worthy of this position,
and I'm not smart enough, or I'm not, I don't know,
I'm just not enough, I think is just the lie,
like the basic lie.
And so that's, I think,
one of the things that I've been struggling with
the most lately and what has came up for me.
Thank you for sharing.
Mikayla, so when you mentioned about your business
and that it didn't work out,
how are you doing with that part of it?
It's sad that it's not, I think,
I don't know,
I didn't love working for myself,
so I think I have some feelings around,
like, I don't love to fail and let go of things,
but I'm like, I probably have some feelings
around like the way that ended,
but I think a lot more of the feeling like,
more of the feeling like not enough
has to do more with like past trauma in past positions.
Okay.
If I had to like nail it down
versus like just trying my hand at running my own practice,
I hated working for myself.
Okay. I hated marketing,
I hated doing any of that business type stuff, so.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
The reason I was asking is,
when you started talking about that,
that was the part where you kind of started crying more,
or I noticed that that was more vulnerable.
And so it just made me wonder,
because while we might not love something,
like kind of you said it yourself,
we don't ever,
I don't think many of us want to feel
like we fail at something, right?
But here's the thing too,
is when you were saying not smart enough,
that stood out to me a whole lot.
And so I'm just curious where that's coming from for you,
you know, whether it's these former jobs
or things that you had went through there,
or if someone said something to you
when you were growing up or along the way,
I just, as you're kind of unpacking this,
like typically, here's what I heard the Lord say,
when pressures applied to something in all of our lives,
lives, what's inside will come out. Okay. And so right now you're going through this
pressure because now you're in this new environment, you're trying to kind of get back into the
swing of things. It's, it sounds like it's rough, it's hard. Um, and the pressure as
it's getting applied, these things that are in your heart are coming out. And so somewhere
along the way you started believe in the lie that you're not smart enough. So whether
that's a thought that you had, um, this is something I did say earlier, and I want to
help you guys start to discern like who, where are the thoughts coming from in your head?
Okay. Here's the three questions to ask. God, is this my thought? God, is this your thought?
Or is this a thought from the enemy? God, is this my thought? God, is this your thought?
Or is this a thought from the enemy? And this is why not every thought that we have
in our minds is actually our own thought. But so many of us don't even understand that
sometimes things that we're thinking are actually from the enemy and he's trying to get us to
believe that thought. And it's so subtle that we just, we, we just start believing it or
we think it's our own thought and we own it. Um, so just as you're unpacking this with
the Lord, I would encourage you to ask him to reveal where the beginning of the lie that
you're not smart enough began. Um, and I believe that that is underneath that not smart enough
is underneath of the not worthy. Yeah. So we'll be praying for you and believing for
God to show you the truth there about yourself as well. You know, I would encourage you to,
um, just really soak in scriptures about like the affirm who you are and all the good stuff
that God put in you so that you can kind of start to build up your reservoir, reservoir,
if you will, you know, with a lot of good truth to meditate on when you're going through
these hard situations and that will give you guys ammunition. So you got, you get, get
some ammunition against the enemy so that you're ready. Um, when he comes in like a
flood, okay, we got to start to shift. I don't want us to miss out on this part. Super important.
All right. So we're going to talk really briefly about lies you believe about men. So I want
to start to activate you guys. I want you to start putting things in the chat as they
come up in your mind. I'm going to say a couple to get you thinking about it as well, but
just start putting in the chat. Like what are some lies you believe about men? What
is, what is the enemy saying you to you about men? Okay, here are a couple. Men are bad.
Men are bullies. Men aren't spiritual. Men aren't providers. So those were the four that
the Lord led me to wrote down, write down earlier today. I'm going to start to kind
of scroll real quick through some of you guys. Cheaters. Uh, men will reject me if you're
on myself. Hi, Crystal. I didn't realize Australia's in the house tonight. Uh, can't
be trusted. Unsafe have realized that I believe I won't ever be with a Christian man. Okay.
That's come out of alignment with that. Unfaithful. Can't be trusted. Not emotionally available.
Yeah. That is a lie. A lot of people believe, um, that body is most important to them. Yeah.
They're just only out for one thing that we hear that kind of stuff a lot. Um,
they're all little boys. They want moms, not wives. All right. These are really good. Okay.
So the reason I wanted you to put this in here as you're typing these out, I want you guys to
kind of just whatever yours was. I want you just to like, and you don't have to unmute or anything,
but I want you just to right now, like come out of alignment with that lie that you believe about
men. So for example, the cheaters, all men are cheaters. So the way I would come out of
alignment with that, as I would say, God, forgive me for believing the lie that all men are cheaters.
I know that you created men in your image. And I believe God that you have sons all over the world
that are good men, that are faithful men, that are men that walk in self-control and the fullness
of the fruits of your spirit. So you start declaring a truth from God's word over men.
And the reason this is so important in your healing process, ladies to come out of alignment
with these lies is, Hey, guess what? If you don't like men, men know it. When you meet them,
they know that you don't like them. And even if it's not them that you don't like, if you don't
like other men, and you're still carrying that in your spirit, it's going to project onto them
without you even meaning it to.
Okay. Cause what's in our heart will come out. It will. So you have to really ask the
Lord to help you to forgive these men that have done these things. Most people that,
you know, say men are cheaters have gone through betrayal. Um, just from my experience, whether
that is your dad cheated on your mom, your mom cheated on your dad, whatever that looks
like, um, to your own relationships, um, that men only want sex. I mean, there are a lot
of people that, you know, really struggled to walk in self-control. Here's the reality
though. These, a lot of ladies also do that. It's not just men, more and more men that
have been in our community have said how disappointed they have been that the women are trying to
get them to have sex. That's legit you all. So, so we even the scales, right? That's what
we just did here because we all struggle. We all struggle. We all make mistakes. So,
you know, if we don't want to be labeled for our mistakes, we want to forgive, we want
to release and we want to, you know, really align with God, I believe. And obviously we're
not ignoring, I'm not saying go back into unhealthy relationships. That's not what I'm
talking about. I hope you guys don't hear that out of what I'm saying, but what I am
saying is, is clear out your heart, create in me a clean heart of God and renew a steadfast
spirit in me is what the Bible talks about. So that's what I'm encouraging you to lean
into. Okay. Repentance is coming out of agreement with the lies that we believe. So we actually
have a change of mind and a change of heart. So repentance is literally, you were going
one way and God reveals to you a lie and that that way is not healthy for you. And so you
have a change of mind first and a change of heart. Remember I said, if our heart heals,
our behavior changes. So when our heart heals and we have that change of heart, we start
going the other direction. That's repentance. That's true repentance and repentance is an
ongoing process in our lives. You all, we're all going to encounter things, you know, throughout
our lives where we need to repent, we're going to make mistakes and then we can move forward
and seek out healing. James 5, 16 says, confess your faults one to another and pray for each
other so that you might be healed. So tonight we're going to be talking about confession.
We're going to be doing confession. That's going to be our next breakout. I don't want
you to worry and freak out. Don't log out. I had that happen earlier today. When I started
talking about confession, a couple of people got nervous and they logged out, stay with
us here. This could really set you free. I'm serious. Um, so when we do confession, I want
you to confess the whole story and I don't mean tell them every little detail. That's
not what I'm saying. What I'm saying is if you, um, for example, I'm just going to throw
this out there. If you were of age 18, when you made a decision that you shouldn't have
made, but you tell people that you were under age, you were 15. Well, that's not the whole
story, right? You were 18. So kind of, that's just a little example. We, we don't want to
sugarcoat it. And if you're the villain, just confess that. What does that mean? If you're
the one that made the mistake, okay. If you're the one that, you know, um, had an affair with
someone that was married that like, that is a story where you would technically be the
villain, if you will, um, just own that because God loves you and you are his beloved daughter.
And he wants you to be set free fears that typically rise up during this confession time
sound a little bit like this. I cannot do it. My sins are too much. We feel like people are
going to judge us that we have to be ashamed or that, um, God just can't forgive all of these
parts of our stories. He can only forgive certain parts of our stories and the enemy will try to get
you to believe that and try to keep you from talking and sharing about it. Here's the truth.
When you share and you confess your faults, the scripture in James 5 16 said, what it said that
you can be healed. So what you're telling, uh, Gail is the story. I hope I said that right.
You're just confessing a sin tonight. You're confessing an area, something God's been revealing
in you, you know, whatever that is for you. If you've had unforgiveness, if you've, you know,
you know, if you did have a relationship with someone that you shouldn't have had,
if you struggle in some other area, you know, whatever that thing is for you, you're going to
confess to your sister in your breakout room, confess one to another. That's why we did that
scripture. That's what this is tonight. When we confess, it breaks generational curses. You all,
did you know that it breaks generational curses? When
Other people have done things to us, things that have come down through our
family lines, as well as here's the, here's the other key when we confess
our sins, it also breaks that in our family line from the moment we created it.
Okay.
It breaks the enemy's holds.
When we can, when we don't confess, we actually remain tethered to
those people into that situation.
That's truth.
And you guys will learn a little bit more about that and
forgiveness next week as well.
All right.
So.
When we don't repent and we don't confess, this is where those blind spots and
filters and false identities come from that we've been talking about and that
you guys have been reading about.
So part of the reason that you can heal after you confess and after you forgive
and, and your heart's getting, you know, truth in it is because you step out of
those blind spots and those filters and those false parts of yourself.
And here's the thing you guys, when we, when we confess and we forgive
ourselves and we move forward, we actually come back into alignment with ourselves.
Did you know that if you deny a part of yourself, like even by just hiding an
area of who you are and a mistake you made, like you're actually denying that
part of you to understand, like that severs you so tonight God wants you to
bring you back together and he wants you to be healed and accept yourself.
And again, you guys don't have to tell all the gory details.
That is not what we're talking about here.
Okay.
All right.
Um, I want to read one other thing to you and then I'm going to put you in this
breakout and it's going to be great.
Uh, one 36, hold on one second.
Sorry.
I forgot to mark this page.
Um, it's about secrets.
Here we are.
Secrets are dangerous because they, they are an infection that's trapped
inside of these heart wounds of ours.
Infection is easily treated when it's able to be let out of the body, but when
it's trapped inside, it can cause life threatening damage.
Did you guys know that if you have an infection in your body and you don't
know about it, it can actually kill you.
Literally.
That's what sepsis, you know, it's very, very serious.
It's an infection that goes all throughout your body.
So tonight I want to encourage you that this is about letting the
infection out so you can be healed.
Okay.
All right.
I'm going to be praying for you.
I'm going to say hi again to our ladies on Facebook.
Sorry.
I haven't said anything for a little bit to you all, but we see you
and we're so glad you're here.
Um, I'm going to put you guys back with the same groups.
That way you feel maybe a little bit safer and maybe a little
bit more courageous to share.
All right, go ahead.
And then I have some ladies I'll have to put in the group.
Um, as soon as we get some people situated here, go ahead and click to join, click to
join as soon as it stops moving, I'll be able to, it just moves.
It won't let me do it until you guys, there we go.
All right, cool.
Okay.
Kelly, there should be one there for you.
Crystal.
Sorry, y'all.
It just keeps bouncing around so I can never grab them quick enough.
I'll get y'all in there.
I'm I'm alone in my room.
I think my partner left.
Okay.
Hold on one second.
Um, who was saying that to me?
Charlotte.
Okay.
Sorry about that.
It's okay.
Okay.
Talia.
I got to get you in a room here and then Charlotte, what room are you in?
Two.
Oh, I just put, I just put in Talia in there with you.
So if you go into two, are you able to go back in there or no?
No.
Okay.
I'll move you.
Oh, wait, I've got it.
I see it.
Okay.
Am I having a bunch more people coming back?
We have a couple of people that aren't in a room.
Yeah, I was in the room.
Nobody was in there.
This is Gael.
Okay.
Let me find you.
It might be that your person, I see everyone's coming back.
Okay.
You guys have to just stay in your room.
Just like, just wait for me.
Okay.
Cause what happens then when you guys come out, then I have to put you in all
different rooms, which I know you guys are learning, but just for future reference.
Everyone's coming back.
Okay.
All right.
When I send you guys, I have to, I literally have to undo all that.
Yeah.
You guys were all together.
Okay.
So sometimes people to just so you guys know if their internet is delayed, it
just takes them a little bit to get in there.
Um, so I don't know how I'm going to do this.
So you guys need to love your comments, watching and liking them and
Look and see if you can see how to get back in that room you just came from.
reaching out to them.
Because for most people, it's a great outlet, but under the circumstances of
It should be there for you.
when they're reporting, it's gonna be tough because they're so concerned about
their l inverted.
Because I have no way to create another whole room for you.
Okay.
Amanda's sitting there by herself.
Hold on one second.
I'm going to send Gail to Amanda.
Oh, now here she comes.
All right.
This is crazy.
Oh, you guys are, they're going in there.
Okay.
Awesome.
29.
There we go.
All right.
I'll kind of get you guys in there.
I think I can do this.
Right.
Oh, Amanda, you came out.
We had an issue.
Yeah, I know it can get tricky, but we'll get everybody.
Can you click to go back in your room?
Cause I just put someone in there with you.
Do you see it?
Okay.
All right.
I'm just going to send you a new one.
You guys will just have to be in bigger rooms.
Okay.
That should be there for you.
All right.
So who do I have with me here?
Still I've Cara and Tanya.
Tanya, are you trying to go in a breakout room, sweetie?
Cara, are you trying to go in one?
Okay.
I'm just going to send you a new one.
You guys will just have to be in bigger rooms.
Cara, are you trying to go in one?
Carla, I'm calling you Cara.
I'm so sorry.
All right.
Carla might be hanging here with us.
Okay.
Sorry, everyone on Facebook.
Let me hear from you.
You guys can put in the, in the comments there.
If there's anything that you don't have to write the whole thing, but if
there's anything that you're feeling like the Lord's just, you know, saying
you should confess tonight, you can put that in the, in the comments.
If you feel brave enough to do that, if not, I want to encourage you to find
another sister in the group and just connect with them and, and, and, you
know, do go through that process of confessing to one another in that way.
Um, so it can work.
And if you're watching this on replay, you can do the same thing.
Excuse me, you all.
Okay.
So I want to pray some things over everybody in the group.
I want to pray some scriptures.
I want to speak some truth.
All right, Lord, we thank you for your truth that as we read in James 5 16, that
as we confess our sins, one to another and pray for each other so that we might
be healed, the earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power
and produces wonderful results.
We thank you Lord, that you will wipe away every tear from our
eyes and eliminate death entirely.
No one will mourn or weep any longer.
The pain of wounds will no longer exist for the old order has ceased y'all.
That's a promise for when we are in heaven with him, there
will literally will be no pain.
There will be no pain.
Whenever our hearts make us feel guilty and remind us of our failures.
We know that God is much greater and more merciful than our conscience.
And he knows everything there is to know about us.
So Lord, we thank you for that acceptance, that love that you embrace us,
that you see everything about us and you open your arms wide to us.
Okay.
I love this.
I wasn't planning on doing this, but I'm going to read this out.
This is about how to locate the lie and repent.
This is from the book as well.
Again, I'm not going to say the page cause it'll be different for you all,
but I think this is important.
Step one, start with the most significant problem areas in your life.
These troubled areas are an indication that lies are being believed in that
area, which needs healing.
Number two, ask the Holy spirit to show you the lie you are believing when it is
revealed, repent of believing the lie and be willing to release it and the
behavior and emotions attached to it.
Ask Holy spirit to help you.
Number three, now ask the Holy spirit to show you the truth
about this area and about yourself.
Repeat this truth to yourself regularly and embrace scriptures and other divine
confirmations of this truth to continue to reinforce your new belief systems.
So tonight you all are getting into some new belief systems.
It's stepping out of the old and into the new.
I love this scripture in Jeremiah 24 seven.
It says, I will give them hearts that recognize me as the Lord.
They will be my people and I will be their God for they will
return to me wholeheartedly.
All right.
Hello.
Again, to those who are on Facebook, Lydia, I see you.
This is so good.
I need to do this.
Not sure that might've been on the picture thing I was talking about there.
Love to hear from you guys.
Um, when you are joining us on Facebook.
Um, also just here, I love this Psalm one, three, this is from the passion
translation.
It says he will be standing firm, like a flourishing tree planted by God's
design, deeply rooted by the Brooks of bliss.
Who wants to be by Brooks of bliss, man, I do bearing fruit in every season of his
life, her life.
She is never dry, never fainting, ever blessed and ever prosperous.
And that is a promise for us.
You all.
Okay.
Cassandra.
I love it.
I have one, she says, I was always going after unavailable men because I thought
I wasn't worthy of someone who was available and didn't think anyone would
ever love me.
Thank you for being courageous to share that.
I appreciate that.
And we just encourage you to come out of agreement with that light tonight.
And, um, as you have confessed that, that the Lord, that, you know, how loved
you are and how proud he is of you right now.
Um, but also just, um, to really start declaring over yourself that you're going
to be fully known and fully loved.
Okay.
So really align with that truth, fully known and fully loved.
That is your destiny, Cassandra.
And that is God's plan for you in every area of your life.
Um, hi ladies, we're waiting for the other ladies to come back.
Praying and reading some stuff over you all.
Ooh, God is so good.
You all he's healing and he's restoring and he's rebuilding.
He's renewing.
Father, I just thank you for reviving hearts and minds and spirits tonight.
Thank you that you're awakening the little girls inside of them, Lord, um,
that you would cause them to arise and shine, that your glory would rise upon
them, God, I thank you that you would just, um, lift up their countenance,
Lord, and help them to see the goodness and the mercy that you have for them
every single day.
Oh, Melissa.
Yeah.
Sometimes the internet connection can be so tough, but just thank you for
enduring and trying to keep pressing through.
We'll pray for internet connections in the future.
Okay.
Some people might need to mute real quick.
We have enough time for maybe one or two, if anyone is willing to share with the
whole group.
Jeanette, go ahead.
Hey.
Hi everybody.
You're rocking this.
You're rocking the technology.
I know you were worried about this coming into this group.
You're doing great.
Oh, thanks.
I'm learning pretty quick.
You are.
You're doing good.
Thank you.
Um, okay.
Well, my confession is, um, it was my early twenties, long time ago, and it was
one of my best friends and she was dating somebody, of course I was jealous of her
because she was dating him and I liked him and I, I took him from her and that
blew up in my face, of course.
I only was with him for three months and it wasn't a good situation.
And then of course the friendship with my best friend fell apart.
And I, go ahead.
Sorry.
Oh, okay.
Um, I was just going to say, I still feel really bad about that.
It wasn't my proudest moment and I really asked God to forgive me.
Yeah.
Thank you for sharing.
So, you know, when we, when we do ask him to forgive us, he, he forgives it as soon
as we ask, but here's what some people may not know is if you guys have ever
wondered why things kind of, we feel like we're going around the same mountain
or it comes up over and over again, it really is that there's another layer to
it, or there's a piece of it that we might not see or remember.
Um, it could be that if we didn't forgive ourselves, maybe we forgave
other people in a scenario.
And this is something like in this situation where you made a choice, a
choice, but maybe it is like forgiving yourself and really releasing
yourself from that situation.
Um, and, um, you know, I just even just hear the word saying that, um, that
doesn't limit you from making good friends today and in the future.
I don't know if that's anything that the enemy has ever kind of taunted you
with that when, when you made that decision and that friendship fell apart
that you didn't deserve good friendships.
Again, I don't, I don't know if that is anything you've ever heard, but that's
just something that came up in my spirit.
So whether it's for you or someone else, when we make mistakes, the
enemy wants to hold us hostage.
And God comes.
He says, no, when we repent in the, we put that under the blood,
everything is made new.
Everything is.
And so like, even earlier when I was telling you guys, like when we come out of
alignment with those lies, it releases us, it breaks us free from those tethers.
And so we don't have to live in that lot anymore.
So we can embrace the fullness of forgiveness and healing in every area.
Thank you for sharing.
All right.
Kristen, go ahead or Kirsten.
I'm so sorry.
Kirsten.
I think, um, yeah, I was just sharing about, like, I realized last weekend
that I, I've only dated one Christian guy.
I don't know about anyone, but, um, and it's like, I have this stronghold
there about like not wanting to do the Christian man and, um, I've been
promiscuous, you know, God, I stopped dating a lot, like two years, about two
years ago, cause God was like, okay, let's just work on you.
Right.
More.
Um, so in our group, I was just coming out of agreement with a lie that like, I
can't be with it.
Like, I won't be with a Christian man and men are abusive.
And so last weekend when I was journaling, I find that I've never
actually journaled about this.
Like, why won't I, why don't I, right.
I'd rather be single, I guess, than be with a Christian guy.
So I was like, oh crap.
And I was sick for three days because of the stuff that came up.
It was like, my mom died when I was in sixth grade and I was at a private school.
And fifth through eighth, my dad was abusive.
My grandpa was abusive, but it was like the, the Christian men in my life, my dad,
my grandpa, and even the school, it was like Lutheran, you know, all I remember
we're hearing was like the black book of sin and legalism and like nothing about
My heart like literally is recently attaching to the father's love.
So I like, I haven't, I have no way.
So I have a lot of compassion for myself, but, um, I just feel like, yeah, Holy
Spirit's just like renewing that.
And so looking at all the layers of lies for that, like I literally could be single
my whole life and I would be fine if I didn't have to be with a Christian guy.
And I've never said that out loud until now that that's, that's like the reality
of what I felt like people would say, like, you should date a Christian guy.
And I'm like, why?
I don't, for me, it's no different.
I'd rather be with like a good man who doesn't use them with a man who abuses.
So, so here's, okay.
So I want, I want to just a hundred percent support you.
It's interesting.
So I have two spiritual daughters, uh, from that relationship I was in for six years and
he cheated on me over and over and over again.
And he went to church all the time, y'all.
Um, we went to a Christian church, so not similar denomination.
Here's the thing.
If we can separate, um, people's unhealthy choices from.
Their belief or not believe it will really help set us free truly.
But what's interesting is my, the oldest spiritual daughter.
Never dates Christian men either.
She won't even like make Christian friends half the time.
Um, which is kind of interesting, but as soon as you start talking before you even
said it, I was going to ask you like, what was your, what were the men roles in your
life?
What were they like?
Were they Christians?
Were they healthy Christians?
And so I would encourage you, um, to a, um, the first thing that I think here is
really, really important is, um, understanding that all, like not all Christian men are
that way.
And really giving yourself permission to, um, believe that there are Christian men out
there that are kind that are not abusive.
Um, as a part of the healing, you're already connecting some really important
dots there.
Um, as far as like where this stemmed from and like why you really struggle in this
area.
Um, I would also encourage you, uh, I mean, you're, you guys aren't in the
forgiveness week yet, but you can go ahead and start, even if you have forgiven your
dad and your grandpa before, I would encourage you to like, whatever the Lord
reveals to continue to forgive that and forgive even any teachers that were very
authoritarian, very religious, that shamed you in any way for just maybe, uh, what
comes to mind is, you know, in certain belief systems, if you don't have it all
right, you know, I grew up next door, next door to some girls that went to a more
strict, uh, school that was connected to a denomination and they got their hand,
their, you know, finger slapped with the, uh, with the rulers and stuff like that.
If they got answers.
wrong. And, you know, I can remember hearing stuff like that as a kid and just not understanding,
like, but you go to a church school. Like I didn't understand, I went to a public school.
That wasn't great either necessarily all the time, but you know, like where we really let God heal,
even the things like that, that we might not realize impacted us. And, and then along the way,
you had already had that experience as a six-year-old, were there any other things
that fed into that? So maybe I'm just going to throw this out here again. I don't know your
story. Maybe there was a friend that you had that was a Christian and her husband treated her bad
too. And so then that just fed into that lie more again, or whatever you see on the news.
And every time you see a Christian, that's a man that's doing something unhealthy. You're like,
yep, there's those Christian men being bad. You know, again, I'm kind of elaborating. I don't
know what your thoughts are or what your life is. It has been like, but I'm trying to help you guys
see how, when we believe a lie and we have these areas how it really, the enemy just keeps trying
to dump on it and dump on it and add to it. And so as we start to unpack that stuff, the Lord will
start like asking you to let that go and really give yourself permission to believe that there
are in general, good Christian people, that not everyone, whether they're male or female
does the wrong thing and treats people badly. You know, so just really making room for that
and giving yourself a lot of grace because it does take time. You know, if you think about a ship
that is, is kind of going at forging ahead to turn that ship, it takes a little bit of time
right. To get it to go in a different direction. So give yourself some grace time and forgive
yourself, really ask the Lord to help you embrace some new mindsets. It sounds like he's teaching
you about his love in a new way, which is amazing. That's going to change your life in and of itself.
So, so glad for you. Thank you for sharing. And then if you all need to leave, it's okay. I do
want to give Kendra, she had her hand up. So I do want to let her share before we close tonight.
Go ahead. Okay. This is my first time to share and I like, I was feeling like a lot of panic
waiting for my turn to come, but I guess like the thing that I confess in my breakout group, which
I, I'm sorry if I start crying, it's just like, you don't have to apologize. Okay.
Like, I still feel like a lot of shame about it and stuff, but in my last relationship, when things
like weren't going well, I kind of like felt like it was like all on me or something. And so like
in my defense or something, I can be like very critical and like verbally like abusive or just
like judgmental or something like that, like towards like my ex-boyfriend. And I just feel
like really bad about that. Yeah. So, okay. So let me ask you something. Did you see someone
treat anybody that way before when you were growing up? I think my mom has always been like
really hard on me and, and I don't want to be like that and I don't want to excuse that in myself,
but that's where I think like it's come from. So here's, here's something that's super important
you all for everybody to understand. Acknowledging where something comes from doesn't mean you're,
you're excusing yourself. Okay. So I want, I just want you to understand, like you're not saying,
okay, you're, you're actually saying to us, I don't want to be like this, but you have to
acknowledge and see where it came from and understand, like, you know, I mean, it's like
what I was sharing earlier, whether we realize it or not, like my mom hiding food impacted me,
my mom turning to food all the time impacted me, whether I wanted it to or not. And so I can,
I can see that more and more now, and I can choose to not do those same things,
but it takes work. Right. So your situation is different, but that it probably started
somewhere for you because typically people don't just do those things normally if they're not
learned you all. I mean, that's, it's, it's typically not, I mean, Cain and Abel is like
one time where someone just was like, chose evil, but all along the way, the Holy spirit was,
you know, even back then trying to urge him to choose right. And so.
So along the way, we can maybe next time,
you're like, okay, why am I, where's this coming from?
Typically you all, and I'll just, okay,
so let me just say something here.
I used to turn to verbal to protect myself.
The one time I've ever can remember,
like my sister used to hit me because my brothers hit her.
And I'll never forget the one day I had just had enough.
I'd had enough and I was sick of her hitting me
and I just hit her, like I hit her good.
I'm kind of proud, not gonna lie.
But I feel bad because I feel proud of that
because you know why I stood up for myself.
It wasn't right.
It's still not right.
Even in my heart, it's not right that I did that.
But in that moment, I can remember just feeling
so much shame because I started doing what she had done.
And for years, I felt so much shame about it.
I kind of joke, you guys, I'm joking lightly.
I'm not a fighter.
I'm not.
It's just kind of ironic now
because it doesn't even align with who I am.
Like I just don't even do any of that stuff.
So I can joke a little bit about it now.
My sister and I can joke about it together,
but it took a long time.
Because I just felt like, oh my gosh,
I am becoming what I said I would never do.
And so I don't know if that resonates for you,
but the enemy is the one that brings shame
and guilt and condemnation in any situation, ladies.
So when we understand that, we can say, you know what,
Satan, I'm not gonna keep receiving your shame
and your guilt anymore.
I believe that I'm forgiven when I ask for forgiveness
and that I can move forward
and I don't have to be bound to that situation anymore.
And just so you know,
you don't actually even have to apologize directly to him.
You can just ask the Lord for forgiveness
and ask the Lord to help him to forgive you
and you can move forward.
If God leads you all to actually tell someone
or ask someone for forgiveness,
then you should follow the Lord.
But I don't want you guys to feel like
you have to actually go to people
unless you're led by the Lord to do so, okay?
All right.
So forgive yourself.
You have a new day ahead of you
and you can walk into the fullness of everything God has.
I would encourage you to ask the Lord
what was underneath the surface that led you to speak out.
Was it that you were protecting yourself?
In the later weeks of this program,
you guys will get a self-preservation technique sheet.
It's actually in your downloads.
If you've already done your downloads, you already have it.
But if you look at that self-preservation sheet,
what you're explaining and describing is actually on there.
Some people yell when they're in self-preservation mode.
Some people like will get verbal
and use put downs or sarcasm and all that kind of stuff.
So there's a whole big list.
And so just, it's okay.
You know, again, hopefully you're here
to change your direction.
Remember, repentance is going in a different direction.
So tonight might be the beginning of that for some of you.
And here's your starting point.
And tomorrow can be the next step
in your starting in a new direction.
So let me pray us out.
Thanks for hanging in here.
Thanks for letting her share her story.
Thank you for your courage to share.
I'm so glad you did wait.
What's the download?
Okay, so the download is in your portal.
When you go into the HeartWork program,
there's an area in start here that says downloads
and that's all your worksheets.
So like every week you have worksheets,
but what we did to make it easier for you guys,
they're still in every week,
but you can also quickly download them all
right in the beginning if you want in that downloads area.
So like the permission slip, that's all in there.
Forgiveness, prayer, all the things.
All right, all right, let me pray for you.
Father, thank you so much
for every one of these ladies that confess tonight.
God, I pray that you would just wash over them.
Lord, your word declares that you take our sins
that are crimson scarlet and you make them white as snow,
that we are made new in you.
God, we thank you that you would just cover
these tender, soft areas of our hearts,
our minds, our spirits, our souls,
that you would continue to heal and redeem and restore.
God, I thank you that you would help them to feel
and experience your love in a fresh way.
God, where they learned harsh things from parents,
from guardians, from teachers,
God, I pray that you would show them true,
true and good things,
that you would show them who you are, God,
that you're not a God waiting up in heaven,
just waiting to yell at them.
and call out their faults, but God, you extend your heart
and you have love for them in your eyes.
And I just thank you that you would help them
to understand not just who you are as love,
but who you are as good, who you are as faithful.
God, that you literally, it's unconditional love.
So nothing can separate them from your love or from you.
So Lord, we pray that you would just make that more real
to them today and in the days ahead.
In Jesus name, amen.
God bless you all.
I will see you guys in the group
and we'll be talking to you soon.
Next Monday, we go live again at 1 p.m.
and 8 p.m. Eastern time.
So we'll see you guys then.
Bye everyone.