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That stinks.

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All right.

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So, Lord, we just thank you for even mistakes, as I'm talking about mistakes.

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That does stink when we make mistakes, right?

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But God, I thank you in your grace and your goodness.

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You can help us kind of really figure those things out.

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And I thank you, Lord, that even in the midst of our mistakes, you make a masterpiece.

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And I just thank you, God, that you're working in and on our behalf in every moment.

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So, Lord, we just ask you to continue to anoint this session and just remove any distraction.

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Even right there, just how the enemy can try to distract from moving forward and having

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things and, you know, this level of perfection, Lord, we thank you that you bridge every gap.

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Yes, Lord, I thank you that you would help every one of these ladies.

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I think what I started praying is just to experience your love in just a fresh way tonight,

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that you would help them to come out of agreement with lies that they've been believing.

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Lord, I thank you that you would help them to begin to partner tonight more and more

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and more with your truth, with your life, with your hope, God, with your redemption.

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I thank you, Lord, that you would transform them by the renewing of their minds, Lord,

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that everything old would pass away and behold, everything new would become new in you.

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It's all becoming new in you day by day by day, but Lord, a lot of that newness comes

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when we're transformed, not just in our minds, but it also takes root in our hearts.

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So, Lord, we thank you for the truth of your redemption and your salvation and the work

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that you're doing right now, even while the ladies are talking and sharing, God, that

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you would help them to invite your searching gaze into their hearts, that you would examine

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them through and through, and that you would find out anything and everything that might

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be hidden within them, that you would put to the test and sift through all of their

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anxious cares and see if there's any path of pain that they are walking on and lead

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them back to your glorious ways, the path that brings them back to you.

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Lord, we just thank you for continuing to bring just your healing, redemption, and life

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and hope.

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We thank you, God, for amazing grace.

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How sweet the sound that saved a wretch like us, God, I thank you that you sent your son

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Jesus to die on the cross, to shed his blood, and that Jesus, you came and you chose, you

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chose us.

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And I thank you that you allowed that to happen also so that we could have a way to be in

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relationship with you, just as you are in a relationship with the Father, that we can

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be one with you as you are one with the Father.

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And I thank you that you created us for family and you made that possible through your sacrifices.

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And through the hardships that you went through so that we could be close to you.

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And I'm just so grateful.

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I thank you, Lord, God, that you're continuing to heal all wounds.

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God, we thank you that you would just go to the source of the trauma and pain that feeds

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the negative thoughts that we have, like, Lord, just come in tonight and do our miraculous

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work where you just start to create separation in our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our

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spirits, and our souls, where we've held on to negative self-talk and really self-hatred

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and self-loathing for some of us.

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And we would come out of alignment with those things and come into alignment with your truth.

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And I just thank you, Lord, God, that your word declares in John 8, 31 and 32, and this

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is Jesus's words, if you continue in my word, you shall know the truth and the truth shall

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make you free.

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Praise be to the Lord that we can be free and we can come into more truth every day.

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Cassandra says, something negative I'm letting go of is, sorry, I should hold this up a little

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bit easier.

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I'm so old.

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Man, you don't look old.

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I hope that makes you smile, but that's so true.

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You do not look old, but she's hearing thoughts like I'm too old.

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I'm so old.

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I have been saying this.

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She says here, I've been saying this more in panic lately, as I would like to be married

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and have kids soon, but God just showed me.

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I have been saying this to myself since I was 24.

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Wow.

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Cassandra, this is huge.

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She also says here, not sure where it comes from that I started that at such a young age,

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but I'm ready to come out of alignment with that.

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Yeah.

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So I would be curious, like, as you pray into that, Cassandra, just start, you might not

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know right away it's tonight, but like just start asking God, where did that come from?

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Did your mom say that a lot over herself and you grew up hearing that?

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Did people say stuff to you about, you better hurry up and get your guy or whatever?

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You know, people say all kinds of stuff to us and they make statements about like us

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waiting too long or we'll miss out.

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And that can kind of feed into that fear of we're too old.

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older, we're going to miss out. And I'll just tell you, y'all, I'm 45 and I just married my spirit

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mate a year and a half ago. So, and we have ladies that are in our community. Seriously,

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one of the ladies, I think she was in her seventies that just got married recently.

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We are never too old. It's never too late. And we are never too far gone. God is the redeeming

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God. He is the God of restoration and he opens doors like you would never believe.

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Okay. So looking at Cassandra, what you shared is helping Jacqueline. She said,

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that was mine from this morning. I'm so old and guys, my age are going for younger girls. Okay.

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So here's the trick, Jacqueline, you got to come out of alignment with that for sure. Yes. Are

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there some guys that are doing that 100%? There's some ladies that are doing that. We got some

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cougars that go after the young guys, but here's the thing. Not all guys do that and not all ladies

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do that. Right. So we can ask God to show us where did that come from? Even that we think

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every guy, our age is going for the younger girls. Yes. Again, you might see that happening with some,

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but if you keep telling yourself that story, that's what you're going to keep seeing. It's

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kind of like, I don't know if that was last week where I was talking about, you know, when you go

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to buy a new car and you start seeing that car everywhere, Jackie talks about what we focus on

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increases. And that is so true. You all. So even with the story that I was saying earlier about

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the lady that struggles with the negativity, because she keeps focusing on what she's not

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getting on what she's not getting, that is becoming the bigger story that she is telling

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right now, but she could tell a different story. She could, and you could, so we need to switch

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myself included. I'll share a little bit later. Some of the stories I'm starting to switch

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things that I've been telling myself for a while. Okay. Lydia says this is so encouraging because

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I felt exactly the same way. Yes. See, this is what happens. This is why it's so important for

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you guys to, to share in this community, because what you share might help others get breakthrough.

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So Cassandra way to go. You're helping other people get breakthrough tonight. This is so awesome.

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Awesome. Um, Don says I'm feeling a lot of negative feelings and like I lost out and guilty for having

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my ex-boyfriend break up with me seven months ago. So this week is very difficult because we were

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very happy and in love. So that's, that can be tough. And I understand. Um, but God wants you

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to move forward while that can be very difficult because sometimes what we can do you all is just

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get stuck in the story of what was. I talked this morning about Lot's wife,

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Lot wasn't willing, his wife wasn't willing to move forward. And she kept looking back

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and that actually cost her, her destiny. And there's no shame Don, I'm not trying to shame

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you. I just want you to see a story that you can kind of gain some insight and, and, and, um,

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wisdom from, but just a lot of negative feelings and guilt. So I would encourage you to ask the

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Lord, why do you feel at fault for that breakup? Cause it sounds like you're taking a lot of

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responsibility on yourself. So we want to get to the root of that. And we want the Lord to

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reveal any areas where you're telling yourself a negative storyline because of that. And here's

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the thing. Guess what? God is the great God and redeeming the time. You all Jackie's talked about

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God is a time bender. He's also a deemer of our timelines. So no matter what you all have been

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through, no matter how much time you think you lost in different areas. Um, I just want you to

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know, Oh, I'm trying to mute somebody here. There we go. All right. If y'all can mute yourself until

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you share that will help me a lot. Cause we'll get, we'll start getting a lot of feedback. We

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have a lot of people in here tonight. Sorry. Let me, I don't know if it will. All right. Go

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ahead and mute yourselves. If you're not muted already, please. There we go. Let's see. I can

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do this real quick, I think. And then you can unmute when we go to share. All right, cool.

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Um, I don't remember what I was saying, so I'm going to move forward, which is totally fine.

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Welcome back. It's great to see y'all. We had some good conversation while you all were in there.

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Um, so if you want to check that out, Cassandra was sharing some of her negative feelings. Don

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shared some people are getting breakthrough. It's awesome. I hope you guys were experiencing

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that together in your breakout sessions as well. Who would like to share who is willing to share,

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uh, tonight on what you shared in your private breakout group, Melissa. Awesome. Go ahead.

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Um, I just want to say today, tonight is the step of faith for me. I never hop on

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these calls without makeup.

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my hair done. So this is like horrible for me, but thank you for loving me despite.

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Um, no, I, so I wasn't able to articulate the exact vows. Um, a lot of what you said, Bethany

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resonated for sure. Um, but one thing that I feel like the Lord was highlighting to me as you were

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talking about different kinds of vows was just this notion in relation to competition or comparison

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and how we talked about actually, um, our group talked about how we related in that when we were

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young at a very young age, two of us actually started competing with someone in like, you know,

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kindergarten, first grade and how I like, I don't think my parents encouraged it per se,

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but I always had to beat this one girl. And I just feel like that's carried over into so much

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of my life. Um, for sure in my job where it feels like performance matters, but in everything else,

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like I need for my house to be decorated better than someone else, or I need to,

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I don't even know. I need to be better with my budget than someone else. Like I'm sure

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like it is probably permeating way more of my life than I realize. And I, so I don't know

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exactly what the vow is, if it's just like, I'm going to be the best. Um, but I definitely want

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to press into the Holy spirit about what that is for sure. Yeah. And I think you're onto something

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there. Uh, the vow could be, I have to be the best at everything, you know, where, you know,

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there was a level of somewhere probably along the lines of, if I'm not the best,

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something negative happens, or I feel a negative emotion. You know, it doesn't mean somebody had

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to do something wrong to us all y'all sometimes, even as kids, we interpret the world in all kinds

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of ways. It could have even been in a classroom where the teacher was really kind of, you know,

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there was some star student that they kept kind of like really emphasizing and the other students

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just started feeling like, well, I want to be that star student. I want to get that attention,

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especially if we weren't getting that attention at home. Do you see how like, there's all these

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layers to this stuff. And so, yeah, I would definitely encourage you just to ask the Lord

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at any point. Did I start telling myself that I had to be the best and why?

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Yeah. Such a good share. And Hey, I'm so glad y'all maybe one of these nights I need to come

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on without all my makeup. Maybe I'll do that. I always get nervous because this recording goes

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out all over. So that's why I come on with my makeup on, but you know, show up and just be you

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and, and you guys are going to love yourself so much more. The more you do that, whether you have

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makeup on or not, you show up and, and turn your cameras on with your sisters here. And you guys

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really let yourself see each other. It literally, you'll be surprised at how many walls that will

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break down in your life genuinely. And then it's going to help you engage, you know, with the

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dating phase so much differently because you show up here and engage. And obviously if you have work

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or whatever, some people can't sometimes, but what I'm saying is when you're here that you just,

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you just let yourself be seen, just practice being seen and being noticed and heard. Okay. It's really

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powerful. All right. Awesome. Such a good share. Let's see here. Tanya, go ahead. A couple of

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negative things that I share with the group is that when I do something like a big mess up,

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I will say, oh, idiot. And I was like, oh, don't say that. Don't say that. Or,

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or that was stupid. And one of my biggest things that the Lord pointed out to me about two years

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ago is that I would always say, oy vey. My grandmother who lived to be 101, she was Jewish.

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She, she was Jewish. Gave her life to the Lord later in life, but she would always say, oy vey.

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And oy vey means woe is me. And so the Lord pointed that out that I was really speaking.

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It's like a curse. Woe is me. Oh, I'm so doomed. Woe is me. And I would say that used to say that

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constantly. And so the vow, another vow just came up. I shared one vow, but the vow that I said in

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my heart, that is I'm not good enough. No man would ever want me because you're often sick.

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So why are you even doing this program? Because even if your heart is healed,

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no man is still not going to want you. So for me to share that is big.

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It is big. So, Hey, here's the thing you all, some of you guys have battled physically for a

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really long time, and it has something to do with the trauma you've been carrying.

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And some of you guys are going to start to experience some healing. I really believe

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that. We've seen it over and over and over people healing from the inside out where,

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you know, even if they still

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We have one, one lady right now in the other group, she still does struggle

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physically, but she's literally getting better every day and she's learning how

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to like, Be stronger in her emotions.

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And the more that she's healing in that area and healing from the trauma, it is

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impacting her physical health as well.

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So just want to encourage you in that.

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But also ladies, how many of you, um, don't, you don't have to raise your

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digital hand, but I'm just curious.

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Does anyone else struggle believing that because you're sick, no, nobody's ever

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going to choose you or love you or anyone else in here, you can put it in

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the chat if I can't see you right now.

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I just want to, I want to ask you guys to kind of come out of agreement

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with those kind of lies and thoughts.

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Um, and we talked about something different earlier and I'll touch on it

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briefly, but we touched on in the first session, wait, and I feel like this is

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kind of like an, uh, another really important big thing.

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Like when people are sick, they're afraid they're never going to meet their spirit

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mate, but when God brings us together with our spirit mate, they will love us.

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Holy, no matter what they will.

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So it's, it's leaning into, okay, where did the you idiot start?

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Let's coach back on a couple of these things.

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Lord, show me when, when is the first time I heard someone say the word idiot.

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And when is the first time I started saying that to myself, did someone else

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say it to me, or did I just start saying that to myself, like you just, you know,

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again, you all, this is all so simplified sometimes, but this is really how I

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unpack things.

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This is how Jackie impacts things.

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This is how the Lord is teaching us to lead you all to do this, asking God really

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good questions so that you can hear it from him and be set free because his voice

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and his truth is what sets you all free.

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We can be the vessel that it comes through, but he is the one ultimately

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speaking into your spirit.

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Uh, that was so stupid.

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So again, did someone ever put something down that you were doing and say, that's

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so stupid.

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Why are you doing that?

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You know, where you're kind of unpacking all of those things and asking God to

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show you, I love that you got revelation on the way they thing.

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I think that's huge and coming out of alignment and agreement with that.

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Um, that's just going to be powerful in and of itself.

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Like what was you and coming out of agreement?

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No, no, not what was you blessed as you blessed as you highly favored of the

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Lord.

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Those are the things we align ourselves with ladies.

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That is word of like, it's from scripture.

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So let's start aligning with those.

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You guys might want to even do some search on like scriptures about how the

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word says that you're highly favored, that you're blessed, that the goodness

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of the Lord can be experienced in the land of the living.

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Those are the scriptures we want to cling to.

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Such a good share.

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I still don't know how to say your name.

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I said, I was going to practice it this week and I did not, that's fine.

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You know, I'm talking to you.

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I want to hear your lovely voice.

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I'm just going to turn on my camera.

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I don't have makeup on and my wig is off.

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So I'm just with my cap and my hats.

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Oh, it's even bent to the side, but okay.

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You look great.

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My wig is off.

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Um, I shared, I shared in my, um, breakout group, um, that I really don't

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have like negative word that I say to myself, um, I believe, um, I've been

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able to tame my tongue to, um, say the right words and positive words to

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myself and, but I also shared that, um, one of the, um, silent vows that I

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have made to myself is I didn't know that before until, until, until today.

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And when you were speaking, it just like came up was I was in, I would say a

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situation ship, the last situation ship I was in.

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And I think I was really hot when, um, we departed and I, while crying on my

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bed, I'd said that, God, I'm just done with Nigerians never again, how am I

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going to date a Nigerian, be with a Nigerian or marry a Nigerian?

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And I'm just like, that's it.

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Like, this is the last of the straw.

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Like there is nothing else.

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So afterwards I realized that my friends, uh, my friends, us band, we

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tried to like hook me up with like a friend of theirs, successful, good.

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I'm like, Nope, I'm not interested.

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Is Nigerian, I'm not interested.

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I, I wasn't dating size and a Nigerian.

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to match with me, like, oh, I see a fellow Nigerian, I'm like, nope, it ain't happening.

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There is no way I'm doing that again when God revealed that to me, because sometimes

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I complain to my friends, I'm like, why is it that I hardly find Nigerians these days?

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And God just said, well, you said you were done with Nigerians, so there you go. And

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yeah, so that God brought that up to me. And another thing I also realized was somebody

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was sharing in the group and talking about how they are a perfectionist in some things,

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and I realized that I resonated with that as well. I mean, the area of me not sharing

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my emotions, I shared with them that only one of my friends, like, only one have I ever

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cried to, and it was even over the phone. It was a Thanksgiving, I'd newly moved to

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Texas that year from Pennsylvania, and I was by myself, and it was the Thanksgiving of

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COVID, so loneliness and all that. And I said, you know what, I got this, I could go, I would

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go to the restaurant myself, eat, have fun, be merry. But as soon as I got there, and

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I ordered my food, and they brought the appetizer, and I just wanted to take a spoon, I just

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busted into tears. I just busted into tears, and I'm like, oh my God, this is happening,

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I'm lonely. And I just paid, I just got my check paid, didn't take the food, and just

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went into my car, and I just called my friend, and I just wept bitterly, and I was like,

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I'm lonely, I thought I could do this. And that's the only time, only time. I feel like

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the last time I had a heartbreak, my friends were with me, and they just noticed that my

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countenance changed. I never cried until they left. That was when I cried. I never get to

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cry in front of people. I'm always like the party mom. I don't drink, so even when I hang

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out with my friends, I'm the party mom, making sure that they get home safe, and all that.

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They get heartbroken, I'm the one who provides the ice cream and the cake, you know. I'm

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the one who is the shoulder for them to cry on, and I never get to express my vulnerability,

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my emotions, and all that. So yeah, that's pretty much what I shared.

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So good. Okay, I'm just going to say, I think you are absolutely lovely, and I hope you

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know that, like truly, truly. And I love that you turned your camera on and let us see you,

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and yeah, you're just brilliant. A couple things here, and I'm going to try to like

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move through this quick, because I want to make sure we still get to our other content,

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and I see our lovely Melanie also waiting. But yes, this is so huge, you all. Somebody

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shared something very similar in our session this afternoon. It wasn't with Nigerians,

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but Ukrainians, maybe. Maybe. Yes, I see. Okay, Amber, yeah, it was you, or someone

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on our session. Sorry, yeah. But anyways, this is so important. And so maybe you didn't

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say it with a certain like nationality. Maybe you said it with, you know, a certain type

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of guy, or a guy with a certain name. I almost forgot, I wanted to mention this. You all,

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I said I would never date someone with the name Brian. Do you want to know why? Brian

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is my oldest brother who sexually abused me. I was never, ever, ever going to date

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someone or marry someone with the name Brian. Guess who God sent me? He sent me a Brian.

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Now am I saying that's going to happen to all of you? No, I'm not. So don't panic. Don't

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panic. But what I am saying is that it did cause me to, like, I did actually ask the

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Lord, like, I don't know if I can do this, like, you know, with the name thing. And God

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just just gently spoke to me and he said, I want to redeem this name for you. I want

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to redeem this name for you, Bethany. Because see, God never intended that to happen with

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my brother. He didn't. And God wants to continue to heal that and everything associated and

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connected with it. And so yes, he sent me a Brian that is amazing and one of the most

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loving and just incredibly giving men I could have ever met in my entire life who protects

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me and looks out for me and is everything opposite than what I experienced before. So

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not only did my, I choose to break that, like, come out of alignment with that vow so that

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I can move forward. I chose to align myself with the truth of the blessing that could

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come from what God whispered to me and saying he wanted to redeem that name. So maybe y'all

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need some names redeemed. Some of y'all need some, like, some towns redeemed, some locations

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redeemed because

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You used to go somewhere.

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And so you've made a vow with yourself.

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I did not talk about this earlier today.

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So I feel like this is the Lord.

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Some of you guys have literally said, I will never go to this restaurant ever again.

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I will never go to this town ever again, because it's associated with someone.

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And I want to encourage you to ask the Lord if, or when, not that this is everyone.

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Some of you guys will never go to those areas and that's fine, but some of you

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all need to go and take that land back.

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If you know what I mean, you need to take that territory back.

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You need to take that part of your life back because we all go through hard

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things and the enemy would love for us to just shut people out, shut things

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out and stop going places.

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He would love for us to just be isolated in our home every single

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day and never go out and talk to anybody.

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That's what the enemy would love.

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But God is calling family into communities, calling people into community.

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He's calling us to take land back.

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So circling back to what you shared, um, I really want to encourage you to

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not take care of everyone all the time.

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When you said, and it's a beautiful thing that you're the party mom

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and you look out for everybody, but I think it's a really big thing for you

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to be able to express your emotions, which I think you're getting to do here,

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which is awesome, but also that, you know, it's okay if you do cry in front of

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people, that you start to learn, like that you're fully loved, fully accepted.

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If you allow some tears to come out.

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And here's why I'm saying this.

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One of the other things that I went through is I used to be told

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when I was younger to stop crying.

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You all.

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And so I made a vow that I wasn't going to cry in front of people.

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You know, I'm super sensitive.

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I can cry in a commercial.

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I literally can, if it's a sappy commercial, I can cry.

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Do I make myself know?

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Like it just happens.

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And I can laugh about it now, but man, I used to get scolded for just being me.

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And so I got into even this relationship with Brian and at times would struggle.

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Like even when movies would, you know, like be sad in the areas.

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Um, and I didn't want him to see me cry, but y'all here we are, we've

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been married a year and a half.

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And both of us are criers when it's a really touching movie and we'll both

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look at each other and we just like, yeah, we're both crying, you know, like

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this, I'm trying to give you guys the, the, the love and the blessing that can

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come when we let go of these vows.

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That's what I'm trying to show you these parallels tonight a little bit.

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It's, it's a blessing when I can just be fully me, like it's okay.

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If I cry at a movie, my husband isn't making fun of me.

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If, if anything, it actually creates this place of connection for us.

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Now that is my husband.

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Maybe your person will be a little different, but you want to be with

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someone who you can be yourself with.

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All right.

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Um, let's see here, Melanie, go ahead.

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Um, so what I shared was that for me, it's not, um, it's not so

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much words, it's feelings.

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Um, I get very, um, one of the words I came up when we were talking

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is like anxiety and fear.

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It's like, I, it just like overtakes me.

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It's almost like I, I get, I'm paralyzed for a moment.

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Um, when I do something like that, um, even last week, like I made it,

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I, uh, forgot to give someone something.

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I mean, that was important.

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It was an important document.

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And, um, like I reached out to my boss right away, like freaked out.

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I was trying to figure out, I was like saying, maybe I should go drop it off.

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Maybe I like all these things started running through my head.

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Um, I just like, I don't, I don't know.

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It was like this anxiety just comes over me.

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Um, and even today, um, today was a little bit different.

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I, you know, somebody said, Oh, you know, this is the wrong, um, document.

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And it's like, again, it was like this feeling of like failing

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that just like consume me.

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Um, I, I don't know.

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I have this like a tendency to feel like I need to be perfect.

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Like I have to execute perfectly.

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Um, when I'm doing things.

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So here, here's the thing on that one again, I think there's something

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underlying here because God doesn't put anxiety and panic in us.

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Right.

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So when was the first time, and again, you don't have to answer tonight, but

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just asking the Lord, when is the first time that I made a mistake and was

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schooled it in a very strong way?

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Or, you know, sometimes y'all, this is the thing.

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It, it could not even be you all.

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It could be something in your family line that has been passed down.

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And so even when you guys are asking the Lord if you're not if nothing's coming to the surface that you have personally been through

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I would encourage you all to ask the Lord. Is there anyone in my family line that experienced this?

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That I am now it's because sometimes it's so strong you all when it's when it's super strong like that

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It's either from a trauma we experienced or a passed down trauma that can actually it grows each time

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It's passed down. Does that make sense?

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The Bible actually talks about this when if you guys read up on anything in the Bible scripturally on generational curses, you know

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When it's passed down to the next generation to the next generation, it actually grows

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Okay, we don't have to be afraid of that stuff because we're under the blood

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So even if that is what you're experiencing, you know

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God's bringing some illumination to that and you can be set free for sure. That does not have to be your forever

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But I really do think it's important that you brought that up because it's not always a thought you guys are gonna have

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It's sometimes your body is and this came up even earlier today

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Like sometimes your body is gonna feel some stuff and if you lean into that like what what's causing this?

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Where's this coming from? You know, you can really gain some insight from the Lord on those things

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I see Robin that you raised your hand. I need to get us into our next breakout session

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So I will circle back to you if we have time

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I hate to do that. But like we really got it. We got to start to move towards our next content. Um

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Okay, so we've been talking about all these vows all the negative things and I did that first

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Because I wanted to prepare you guys get some of that stuff cleaned out because I want to talk about the real you

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who is the real you and

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For the ladies on Facebook, I will respond to some of you. I see so many great responses in there

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I'll come in and respond more in a little bit as well

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I got to use my phone to see my notes, so I won't be able to see Facebook for a little bit

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um

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Okay, so new things anytime we start getting something new new shoes new life new whatever

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It doesn't always feel great at first. There are a lot of times sometimes when you get a new job

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I don't know if you guys have ever felt this way, but sometimes a new job like it's stretching you

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It's growing you sometimes you start to think oh my gosh, can I actually do this job?

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I don't know if you guys have ever felt like that, but I've absolutely felt that way

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Sometimes they don't feel great at first. Sometimes they're gonna stretch us

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They're gonna grow us and it can feel tough

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The reminder that I want to give you guys tonight is that that's that prayer that Jackie put that's so pivotal in this whole heart

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Book teach me show me heal me grow me

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Like in everything that we do that prayer that simple prayer that is profound if you think about it

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That you can remember to pray at any moment God teach me through this

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Show me something new through this heal me and grow me so if you get offended y'all

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What what Lord what do you want to teach me through this? Okay? What do you want to show me?

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How do you want to heal me through this?

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How do you want to grow me?

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Romans 8 37 through 39 says yet in all these things

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We are more than conquerors and gain an overwhelming victory through him who loved us for I'm convinced that neither

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Neither death nor life nor angels nor principalities nor things present and threatening nor things to come

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Nor powers nor height nor depth nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from

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What the unlimited love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord

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God is for you. So who can be against you?

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No one no thing can have victory you all the end of the story is we win

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I know some of you you're not feeling like you're winning in the romantic phase an area of your life

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But the reality and the truth is is that you win?

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You're just learning and growing and stepping every day closer to that win if you believe that is true

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Okay

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We don't strive we princesses of the King of Kings inherit

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What are some things you've been striving for that God is saying in this season that you are now going to inherit

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Striving is like you're you're scraping for that you're working so hard and you're you know

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You're just like wearing yourself out trying to get that thing

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Some of you all need to ask the Lord to help you actually let go of all the things you're trying to do and

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rest

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Those who have an internal state of peace and rest man that emanates like everywhere they go

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You can just feel that kind of coming from them because they're just they have this way about them

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That draws you in

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Y'all that's where we want to be. Okay, we want to have this literal understanding of who we are

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in God, who we are in Christ, what our identity is, who are we in him, in such a way that

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it literally, everything exuding from us is the glory and the presence and the peace and

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the rest of the Father, as well as the love and the joy and all of the fruits of the Spirit.

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Okay, so here's the thing, tonight I want to encourage you all to start asking the Lord

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to awaken you to true love's kiss, and I'm not talking right now about your Prince Charming,

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that will come too, that will. What I'm talking about right now is the kiss of heaven, like God,

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and I'm not talking about us kissing God or kissing Jesus, I always feel like it's important

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to say these things because, you know, some people can hear something and be like, what is she saying?

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What I'm saying is that in the story of Snow White, I think I'm getting it right, or Sleeping

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Beauty, Sleeping Beauty, yep, the true love's kiss, when he comes and awakens her,

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is this, we are being awakened to heaven tonight. Some of you guys are being awakened in this season

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to things that you haven't even known or understood about yourself,

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so what are we being awakened to? Here are three things, identity, so your identity in Christ,

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knowing more and more who you are in Christ, you're being awakened to restoration, what is the

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restorative work of Christ, what does it do in you, how is it working on your behalf all the time,

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and you're also being awakened to your big, bold future. Yes, I said big, bold future,

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some of y'all need to like, even just like big, bold, happy future, put it in there,

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I'm gonna be happy, I believe God wants me to be happy, and just start aligning yourself with that,

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and like, I am leaving negativity behind, I am leaving the old garbage self-talk behind,

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and I, I am going after the good stuff, and cling to that. Isaiah 60 verse 1 says,

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Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you.

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So, you know, in the beginning, some of you guys are just in week one, which that's totally fine,

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we're talking about some stuff that's in week five tonight, a little bit, but either way,

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whether you're in week one, or you're in week five, at that point, you're learning in week one

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to surrender the pen, you're learning to surrender supernaturally to the Lord and His process.

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Tonight, I'm asking you to re-surrender your inner identity to the Lord. Some of you guys are like,

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I already know who I am in Christ. Well, do you? Because some of you are struggling to the point

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that you're, you're kind of going around the same mountain over and over and over,

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and you're asking yourself, why am I not moving forward? And it really leads back to identity,

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most of the time. Healing that's needed in identity struggles. Do you know that when we are insecure,

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those come out of identity issues and struggles? And I think most women, if we're really being

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honest, we struggle with insecurity. Do you know why women catfight and fight over things? It's

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because somebody, like, there's insecurity there, there's fear there, and the enemy breed, like, man,

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he, he like breeds on fear, and he wants you to be afraid, and he wants you to panic, and he wants

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you to think that nothing is ever going to happen that God has promised you. But we can choose to

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re-surrender that inner identity to the Lord and let God give us a new identity. You know, in the

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Bible, they often got new names when they encountered Christ, when God gave them a new name

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in the Old Testament as well. There's something to that, you all. Maybe you won't have a physical

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name change, but maybe God wants to give you a new name tonight. What is your new name?

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What is your new identity? We can't erase the lies, we have to replace them with the truth.

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So we want to look at unbelief. Where does it come from? How does it form? So here's where it starts.

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When we have not been able to see the fruit of the promise, so some of you all, you know God's

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promised you certain things, but you haven't seen the fruit of that in your life. And so when that

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happens, it causes uncertainty. That's where unbelief comes in, okay? Doubt is uncertainty

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that causes inaction, okay? So some of you all start shutting down the thoughts like,

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I'm never going to meet anybody because I'm sick, like it just it takes us into this hopeless place.

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And so then we stop moving forward. So we want to come out of alignment with that. We don't

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want to be hospitable to doubts. We want to kick the doubts to the curb, just like we kicked

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all those squatters to the curb a couple weeks ago. If you are new tonight and you didn't hear

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that session, we'll talk about it.

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it again at some point here in the next few weeks, but it's time to kick those things out.

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You have to choose to believe for yourself to come into full agreement and partner with the truth.

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All right. You guys kind of, it's interesting. Some of you guys already went here tonight,

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but I'm going to put you in to breakout. It's okay. If we don't have a lot of coaching time

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left at the end, it's super important for you all to get in a group and talk to each other

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more than it is even the coaching. We did a lot of coaching already. So that's good.

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In this next breakout group, I want you to talk about comparison traps.

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Where do you need to come out of a comparison trap? And what I mean by that is ways that the

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enemy challenges the real you. So he tries to get you to think you got to compete with other people,

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that you've got to like imitate something. You got to be someone that you're not.

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What does that look like in your life? Okay. I'm going to put you in a breakout.

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For all our ladies on Facebook, I'm going to come back and try to look at your comments.

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All right. All right. Here you go.

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Then click to join.

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I have a couple of people. Sorry, y'all. I got to get a couple of y'all in a room here.

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There we go. Okay. Charlotte, I think I just sent one to you. Angela, I just sent one to you.

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Awesome. Okay. I think we got everybody. We'll make sure nobody is alone.

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Bridget's by herself. We don't want her by herself.

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Okay. Cool. All right. So let me go see what y'all are saying over here.

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Sorry, I got to get all the way back in there, y'all. Okay. Let's see here. Let me look at the,

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I'm going to start from the bottom up. Yes, insecurity is big time. It cripples me in

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different areas, Dawn says. Yeah. So let's keep asking the Lord, where do those insecurities

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come from? Because you're becoming a new woman, Dawn. Literally, God is going to set you free

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from this stuff. I'm so excited for you to see what's going to happen in the days ahead.

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All right. Let's see. Ashley said, oh, wow, that's me. I don't like to cry. I suppressed

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that part of myself because I was yelled at for always crying. Yeah, man, that's so tough because

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those are true emotions, right? God made us that way. Ever since that happened, I suppressed my

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emotions. I find myself being a little more emotional as an adult. I love that. That's God

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healing you. And I hope and pray that God continues to heal you and help you really be

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okay with your emotions and okay with the way God created you. And he'll help you balance those out

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because sometimes too, when we have, we we've suppressed them for so long, sometimes we'll have

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like an overcorrect, right? So we might feel like we cry a lot and then it'll start to balance,

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balance out. I cried a lot when I was in part work and your timing might be different for that, but

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it did balance itself out. No, I mean, I kind of already said, like when I say I cry in commercials,

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I don't like sob cry, but like there's, you know, those different kinds of cries that we need to

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have. Don said, I can't stay in my hometown, but God is making me move back there for school. I

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left, ran away. I don't like my hometown. Okay. So you say God is making you move back there. Let's

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maybe talk about that in the group. I'm kind of curious to coach through that with you

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because God doesn't make us, he invites us. But I want, I want to unpack that more with you

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because there's probably a reason you feel that way. And I don't know that I can do it justice

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here in this quick time. Um, so I just want to make sure I don't, you know, misspeak and

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hurt you in any way. Um, cause I want to care for that really well. Okay. So Cassandra said,

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Oh, that's how I felt for so long about my hometown. Okay. So we got a couple people,

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there's a hometown theme here. So I would encourage you guys. And again, doesn't mean

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you actually have to go back there, but that God would heal your heart regarding whatever's

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connected to that hometown stuff so that you can, um, be free even in that area so that you're not,

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um, fearing going into a place, right? We want to, we want to have good, peaceful thoughts about

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all things inside of us to the best of our ability. Uh, Charlotte says negative talk.

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I'm never going to be attracted to someone who has attracted to me

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or everyone I'm attracted to won't be attracted.

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to me. Also I'll never change. Okay. So just be really sure to come out of agreement with those

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things. Um, it's really important for you all to not believe the lie that you're not going to be

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attracted to someone that's attracted to you. I will tell you though on that. And this is something

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my husband knows. Um, the first night I met him, I was not physically attracted to him. I wasn't,

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um, but I really loved his personality. I loved the way I felt around him. I had so much peace

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in his presence that it was just undeniable for me. Um, and so I went back out with him again.

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I still wasn't sure if I was attracted, wasn't attractive, but I just, again, like I loved

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everything about him, uh, and the way he presented himself, the way he was like, you know, in a, a

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gentlemanly way pursuing my heart and, and wanting to get to know me and being intentional.

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And, uh, the more time I spent with him, man, he just became more and more attractive to me

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every single time. And I'm so grateful that I didn't allow my old kind of thought patterns

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of what is attractive and what, you know, I needed. Cause I grew up, um, you know,

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I learned really early on that things were super physical in an unhealthy way. And so, um,

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you know, the enemy used to try to lead me to people through like a lustful,

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I didn't understand it at the time, a lustful attraction. And I'm not saying Charlotte,

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that's the case for you, but I'm just saying there are times where people will get connected

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to other people out of a very like visceral, physical, lustful attraction. And those are

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the kinds that we don't want. If that's, if that's something we experienced, we want to

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lean away from that and ask the Lord to reveal kind of any areas that might need healing.

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Um, so that we don't get drawn into unhealthy relationships in that way.

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Uh, Don said interval of mine possibly messed up my relationship. It's, I will never allow

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myself to have a man hurt me again. So I will always be in control so I won't get hurt. Okay.

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So Lord, we just thank you for Don. We thank you God that you're continuing to heal all the broken

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areas, any, any areas where she has been hurt and wounded in the past by men. And we just thank you

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for healing all of those areas, God. And I thank you that you would lead her into a place where

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she feels safe and secure in you. And she trusts you more than any person. Um, we know that man,

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we make mistakes. We all do. And Lord, I just thank you that in the midst of mistakes that

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she can find her security and her trust in you. And, uh, that when man fails us, God, you never

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will, you never will. Your word declares that you'll never leave us. You'll never forsake us

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that you will always be working on our behalf. And so, Lord, I thank you that you'll help us

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to hear that and know that truth and to really lean into that. Angela says my inner vows that

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no one understands me and I'm always the bad guy with my kids. Okay. So Angela, I'm in, I would

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love to see you create a post in the group. When did this start for you? No one understands you.

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So did this start as a kid where you, you know, you were told a story or someone was saying they

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couldn't understand things that you were saying, or, you know, speak up, speak more clearly,

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you know, or things like that, or was it something else? And then when did you start

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believing the lie that you're always the bad guy with your kids? Um, you, I think you sharing about

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that will be really big. You can do it in the, in the comments here, or you can create a new

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post, which will make it a little easier for me to see, um, which would be really good, um, for

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myself and the other heartwork coaches to see kind of where that's kind of stemming from. And we can

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coach you through that. Let's see here, Dawn, I see your new one. They're about to come back

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from their breakout rooms, but I'll come back and circle back to what you just shared here. Okay.

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All right. They're about to come back in 60 seconds. Y'all this night has flown by.

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It's flown by.

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Hello. Welcome back. Y'all I cannot, I was just saying to the ladies on Facebook,

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this night has flown by. I've been having too much fun. I've been having a lot of fun. Robin,

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I'm so sorry. I didn't get to hear your thing. Will you create a post and share so I can hear

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what you were going to share? Maybe that would, I would love that if you're willing to do that.

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All right. I never want to like not be able to give people a space to share. So I always feel

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bad when I have to do that. I don't like it.

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it. All right, we almost have everybody back. Welcome back.

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Paula, I just have to say, man, your room is like, so like,

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lovely, the brightness, the flowers, I just my eye, like all

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night, my eye just keeps going to your photo because your room

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it's so like, vigorous invigorating, like a lot of

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liveliness in that. All right. Okay. Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't

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see your thing, Melissa, I would have done that. Okay, so y'all

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were at 630 or 930. If you're in Eastern time zone. So I have to

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close us up here in just a minute. I really want to share a

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couple more things with you. And I do want to hear from you guys,

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but we are we are at the time. But really important why I led

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you guys through this tonight is to lead you to a place where

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you're starting to awaken to some new things. Just like any

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other thing that we teach you, we have to get out with the old

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and in with the new. Some of you guys, I would encourage you to

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start asking the Lord, do you have physical things that you

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need to start getting rid of to make room for your spirit mate

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one day. Some of you all like one of the things God led me I

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didn't even think I had anything when Jackie said this the first

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time when I was you know, my group years ago. And you all I

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started cleaning and preparing because I was getting ready to

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move. And I came across this box that I still had. Y'all I

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couldn't even believe it when I opened it. It was the notes that

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when my boyfriend in high school, literally we used to

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like every day give each other notes. I had all of those notes

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and love letters and teddy bear and all this stuff from this guy

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in high school. And not that that's like the worst thing in

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the world. But like, you all don't realize how much when we

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we leave that stuff kind of around. It's taking up other

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space for things that you know, you want to have something new

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come into. So God led me to get rid of all that stuff. And I

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also went through my phone. And I just feel glad to share this

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before I start about the awakening part. I had a lot of

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evidence is what I'll call it. When the guy that I was in

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relationship with for a long time kept cheating on me. Like I

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would always be looking for what he was doing, because I

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knew he was up to something. And then when I would see the bad

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stuff or women he was following on Instagram, or whatever it

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was, or the stuff that I actually found that was legit

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stuff he was doing, I would take screenshots of it. And I had

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that still in my phone, two years after I wasn't with him

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anymore. And y'all multiple times, I would look at that

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stuff and want to delete it and like feel like I need to like, I

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think I might need to hold on to this just in case. Why? Why

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would I need to hold on to that? And so I'm sharing this for

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somebody, somebody in this group, whether you're live, or

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you're catching the replay, you need to let go of the evidence

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unless you're in a court. I'm not talking about that. I'm

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talking about totally outside, you don't have any court cases

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going on. But some of y'all are still holding on to that

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evidence of what somebody did or said to you might be a friend

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might be someone you dated, and God is saying, I want you to let

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that go. I want you to let that go and get rid of that stuff.

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You some of y'all need to delete photos of you and your old

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boyfriends. Yes, you do. You need to let go of that stuff.

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Because here's what happens. And even with this guy, I, you know,

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I had even photos I kept, you know, more because of the girls,

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my spiritual daughters, that's their dad, and I had photos, I

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really wanted to keep them with him. And but every time I would

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go through my phone and see him, I'd be like, like, I'm not

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trying to be mean, but it just gave me this automatic negative

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like, oh, like every single time, it just didn't feel good.

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And so I'm like, Why am I keeping this? It's they'll get

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their own photos one day, like I just had to come to that place.

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And, you know, again, I'm just sharing this because I feel like

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somebody you just got to let go of that stuff. So that God can

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bring you a new person at some point, and you can take some new

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photos. Okay. All right, dreams awakening. Lord, we ask you to

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awaken us and help us come alive again in these areas. Okay,

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these are the two that we want you guys to really be praying

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into childhood dreams coming back alive, which is partially

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why we're encouraging you to kind of connect with your little

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girl inside of yourself and have fun, but also new dreams

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entering in. Some of you are going to have a lot of new

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dreams of things like and I'm not just talking about night

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dreams right now I'm talking about ideas of things you want

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to do. Some of you guys might want to go back to school, some

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of you guys might want to try a cooking class, you know, it

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doesn't matter what it is, but do those things, pursue those

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dreams, let that stuff be cultivated.

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and grow. So anything that starts bubbling to the surface,

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I encourage you to write that stuff down. Don't dismiss it.

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Don't tell yourself that's a stupid idea. See, those are the

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things, remember, we're getting rid of that stuff. Like, oh,

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man, that's a fun idea. I think I might do that. Yeah, I like to

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be silly, but like literally talk to yourself that way. It

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will really change how you show up about something. It will. You

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guys will remember me one day, I'll be in your head and you'll

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be like, oh, yeah, oh, I like that. I'm gonna try that.

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Hopefully, you'll get that deep down in your spirit. And it'll

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feel really good when you think of it. Okay, so you're a

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supernova, every single one of you are a supernova, God has

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placed you here, and you are carrying something that will

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change the world. Literally, every single one of you has

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something inside of you that God put there to change the world.

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Do you believe that? Do you believe that you carry

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something that can change the world? Some of you, you're going

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to change the world one person at a time. And that is so

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important. Some of you are going to go and you're going to change

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groups of people. Either way, both are so valuable to the

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kingdom of heaven and what God is trying to do on the earth in

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this time. It's time to begin unwrapping the gifts God has for

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you. Your former years, which means now and every day forward

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can be greater than your latter years. You all I, I'm

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experiencing it now. I always remember that scripture, I

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prayed that scripture over myself, I clung to that

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scripture, when life is hard and bad, I mean, I held to that

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scripture. And now I get to experience that. And I can tell

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you that it really can happen. Your latter years can be greater

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than your former, former. As we start to close tonight, I'm

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going to read something over you. And it is from the book,

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you guys can read this over yourself, I encourage you to

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find it in the book and print it out, put it up, read it over

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yourself often, it's a declaration. And this is where

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again, we come against all those negative things, how we not only

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say things out loud that are true, but we replace it with,

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you know, those lies with the truth, and we get it in us, we

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meditate on it, we think about it, we pray about it, that's

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one of the ways that we overcome. So God bless you

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tonight. I'm so glad you've been here. I hope it's been a

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blessing for you. And this is how we're going to close

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tonight. And this is about you, every single one of you. I am a

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world changer, an atmosphere shifter, a light bearer, a truth

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teller and a hope dealer. My heart is awakening. It's time to

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be made whole. I contain the beauty of all creation, the

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mysteries of the entire universe reside in me. I am the image of

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the Almighty God, the offspring of the great I am. I am a

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beloved daughter of God. My original heart is one of love,

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joy, peace, hope and innocence. Yes, innocence is being restored

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to some of you. I was created for community. I'm accepted in

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the family of God. I have been created to prosper. I will not

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be anyone besides who love God, the Father love has made me to

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be. From this moment forward. Every day when I look in the

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mirror, I am going to see more and more of what God sees.

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Every day ladies, when you look in the mirror, you're going to

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see more and more of what God sees. Father, thank you so much

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for this truth. Thank you for these amazing, incredible, life

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changing women. Thank you for bringing them on this journey.

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Thank you for leading them here for such a time as this. God, we

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ask you to continue to reveal any areas where the enemy is

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trying to get them stuck in negativity, negative self talk,

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inner vows, Lord, anything that needs that's in darkness, Lord,

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bring it to the light so that they can be healed and restored

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and set free in Jesus name. Where the Spirit of the Lord is

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there is freedom. So Holy Spirit, we ask you to come and

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fill them afresh with your with your power with your presence

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with your love with your grace. And God, we ask you to transform

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them from the inside out. We thank you in advance for it. God

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help them to step further into the real you the real them that

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you created them to be help them to see that help them to

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experience it help them to come alive. Awake, awake. Oh sleeper.

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Yes, Lord, the daughters of Zion, let them arise and let

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them see your glory be manifested in their lives in

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Jesus name. Amen. God bless you all. I'll see you guys in the

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group and I can't wait to hear about the fun about the

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breakthroughs about anything else that God leads you to share

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God bless you