Hello, how are you?
Good to see you all.
Welcome.
If you're joining us for the first time,
as in you just signed up in the last few days
and you haven't already attended orientation earlier today,
then we definitely want to get you connected
to the orientation this evening.
I'm gonna keep repeating this
for those that have been here for a few weeks,
just so you know,
I wanna try to make sure we get them to the right place.
So anybody joining tonight,
if you've just signed up in the last few days,
you have orientation tonight with Jackie,
that's on the link that I just put in the comments there
in the chat.
So be sure to grab that and jump over to orientation
and you can watch the replay of this later.
If you joined the 1 p.m. orientation,
you can totally stay and hang out here with us.
Okay?
All right.
Welcome.
Welcome to all of my ladies.
I've been seeing you for a few weeks.
Good to see everyone.
I'm loving that your cameras are on.
You guys are getting used to this now.
For our new ladies, this is your challenge.
When you show up as much as possible,
if you're cooking or driving
and you just can't turn your camera on,
that's totally okay.
No one's ever gonna get mad at you,
but this is your challenge.
This is about coming out of hiding
and letting people see you.
When you practice being seen by your sisters
in your community,
it's going to help you,
after you finish your heart work,
to be seen by men
and be seen by the world.
So it's good practice to be here, to be seen.
And whether you have makeup done or not,
just show up and we love to see you.
Okay.
I'm gonna repeat one more time
just so we get all the new ladies.
If you did not come to 1 o'clock orientation today,
you're gonna wanna go to orientation with Jackie tonight.
I'm putting the link in there.
You can just click that Zoom link
and that should take you over to where Jackie is at.
Cause she's gonna wanna say some things to you
to get you started in the program tonight
on the right foot.
All right.
And we'll probably have to repeat this again
just for some trickler people that'll trickle in
and that's okay.
Wanna say hello to all of our ladies
joining us on Facebook,
as well as those that are watching the replay.
If you have not met me before,
my name is Bethany Cooper.
I'm one of the heart work coaches here in the program
and you guys are gonna get really familiar with me,
my team, Annette Winter, Jennifer Yankovich.
They're gonna be commenting on your post
and our weekly roll call and all the things as well.
And then Jackie will be in the group as well at times.
But we're so glad you're here
and we're so excited for what God's gonna do tonight.
I was kind of even leaning into some additional things
that God brought up in my spirit this afternoon.
So if you came earlier today,
there is gonna be some different stuff,
but I'm excited about just what God is doing
in your hearts and your minds and in this group,
all the breakthroughs that I'm reading.
I love it.
Those of you that are even struggling,
you guys, even the struggle is good.
I remember years ago, my young adult pastor said,
pain is profitable.
Y'all, it can be.
It doesn't feel good, but it can be profitable.
If we put it in the hands of the Lord,
he can make purpose out of our pain.
It is not God that puts us in pain,
but he can definitely use it for good
and work it all together
to do something glorious in our lives.
So I'm gonna pray
and then I have a couple of housekeeping things
for those that are brand new
that already went to the orientation earlier today,
because I wanna make sure you guys know
some really important things as you get started.
So Father, we just thank you as we open up tonight,
God, that we come with expectant hearts.
God, that you're gonna do something really amazing
and wonderful in our hearts, our minds,
our spirits, our souls.
God, I thank you that you would help us
to hear what your spirit is saying.
God, help us to hear your voice, your heart.
Help us to know, Lord,
the areas where we need to come out of hiding,
where there needs to be revealings for healing.
God, I thank you that supernaturally
you would bring things that are in darkness to the light.
Lord, God, help us to lean into your presence,
to understand what it looks like to really trust you
in a place of rootedness of your love.
God, that it's not that we have to live
or move or have or being separate from you
because you're always connected to us
and you're always walking with us every step of the way.
So Lord, I thank you that you would open ears
tonight to hear, hearts to receive.
God, I thank you that you would remove any fear, God,
for anyone that's battling anxiety,
fear of even engaging in the breakouts.
God, I just thank you for peace that prevails tonight.
And we just thank you for an upgrade
that you're gonna give us in Jesus' name, amen.
All right, so for those that have been here,
yes, I can absolutely post that link again, Karen, yeah.
If you all are joining brand new first time ever
and you did not go to 1 p.m. orientation today,
go ahead and click that link.
to go over and join Jackie Dorman on the orientation tonight.
If you did attend orientation earlier,
I'm gonna go through these super quick
for our ladies that have been here for a few weeks.
And this is just a good reminder
for everybody in general, actually,
is that all of our helper hats come off in this group, okay?
Except for mine and my other coaches.
We gotta keep ours on.
But you guys get to come here and just receive.
You don't have to fix anybody.
You don't have to try to help anybody.
You can cheer your sisters on
and you guys can say, hey, I'm praying for you.
And you can interact, excuse me,
and all of that kind of stuff.
But no matter what your profession is,
no matter if you're a counselor, minister, whatever,
maybe you have the ministry of helps.
We don't want you to necessarily do that in this group.
You're here to receive healing from the Father
and we will guide you in that process along the way.
I won't be able to answer everyone's question
as far as if you're supposed to go to orientation.
The best way is if you did not go at one o'clock today,
you're gonna wanna jump over there to orientation tonight
if you're brand new.
So just keep that in mind as you all are in
and you're reading each other's posts.
Sometimes you all, some people's posts are really raw
and they're really struggling.
You don't have to feel like you have to fix them
or save them because that's what God's gonna do.
And we're gonna coach them how to lean into the Lord
for that comfort and that grace
and that love that they need in that moment.
For those that are new as well,
and some of you that are even a couple of weeks in,
you're still not sure where schedules
and important links are.
You're gonna go to the JackieDorman.com website.
You're gonna log in and in the start here area,
that's where the schedules and important links,
you're gonna wanna get really comfortable with that.
You also have downloads in that area.
All of your links to join every prayer call ever
in our community is in that important links area.
Just remember prayer call,
Monday through Thursday, just women only, that's in there.
Faith Friday, that prayer link is in there.
Supernatural Saturday, it's in there.
Guess what?
Sunday night activation, it's in there.
So I'll keep repeating this because a lot of people just,
they're not sure where to go.
And so I kind of joke a little bit,
but it's okay for you guys to ask.
We wanna make sure that you're connected
and get to where everyone is at the best that we can.
Okay, pacing yourself.
This is the best practice.
Again, good reminder for those of you
that are kind of about to finish up in the next few weeks,
the best recommendation is one week of content per week.
Here's why.
Y'all need to process, you need to breathe,
you need to kind of lean into
what is the Holy Spirit saying to you
when you're watching the videos,
when you're doing the book reading
and come in the group, in the Facebook group,
and that is your community place.
So that's where you're gonna ask questions,
you're gonna post,
hey, I'm struggling with what I'm reading
and this is something God's bringing up from my past
or whatever your post is,
that's where you're gonna do that
in that Facebook community group
that you all have been given access to.
Your book reading pages are mentioned
at the beginning of every week in your instruction area.
So make sure every single week,
don't skip past the instruction area
and just go right to the videos, y'all.
You need to look at what the instructions say.
That's gonna be your help and guide every week.
All right, y'all, I did it.
I did it in just a few minutes.
So I hope you guys are excited.
Tonight is gonna be a great night.
I did go, for the new ladies,
I did go through the Jesus Cares Board a little bit
earlier today.
I'm not gonna take time
unless we have extra time at the end to do that tonight,
but I'll make sure you guys know
where to watch some of those videos from before
so that you know what we mean.
But you can also go into the media files
and look at the Jesus Cares Board
that other ladies have done.
The big thing that I am gonna say
is it's not a vision board.
A lot of people immediately think it's vision board.
This is about the cares and the worries
and the concerns that weigh you down,
or things that you're really struggling with
that you need to say, okay,
I'm choosing to cast this care on Jesus
because he cares for me.
And it sounds like such a simple thing,
but that activation of literally getting those things
off yourself and onto the board
and praying over those things
really does invite Holy Spirit to come in
and work supernaturally.
And a lot of ladies,
can I get some of my ladies
that have been in the group for a while
where you're already experiencing,
just start to put some stuff in the chat.
What are some things God's been doing
in your Jesus Cares Board
where you can really encourage our new ladies?
Why is it important?
How has it blessed you?
Whatever you wanna write.
If I have anybody that applies to you,
that would be great.
So tonight I wanna talk a little bit
about supernatural surrender.
And we did talk about this earlier today.
The sessions are typically the same,
but I just felt a little bit of a shift this afternoon.
So I'm keeping it.
similar, but I have some additional stuff that I want to bring up tonight.
So when we're talking about supernatural surrender, I want you guys to start
thinking about it from the aspect of your unbecoming, all of the things that
you're not, like the things that you were never intended to be.
So what that means is like, for example, I'll use myself as an example.
I was never intended to be with someone that was abusive.
I was never intended when God originally created me to be in a relationship where
someone, you know, cheated on me and I went through betrayal.
I was never intended to have sex before marriage as a young kid, but there were
a lot of things and trauma and wounds that come in and those lead us to make
decisions that are not healthy for us, you all.
And so when we come into this, this program, and even for those of you that
have been in for a few weeks, don't check out, even if you've listened to
the supernatural surrender video, because some of you are still struggling
with how do I really surrender this thing to the Lord?
How do I really let him come into this place of my heart that I'm struggling
with, how do I trust that he really does have my best interests at heart?
Especially because the people in my life that are supposed to love me
haven't really done a good job at that.
And so then you're struggling to trust the Lord to be that one that you can
trust in, rely on, and he will show you that, but it's a process of surrendering
that and letting go and letting God come in.
So it's unbecoming all the things that we were never intended to become, but
it's also us believing that God can do what he says he will do.
So your belief is going to be key to your process.
Okay.
One of the things I talk about a lot is the scripture in the Bible.
And I apologize.
I don't have the reference right now, but it's in there.
You can look for it.
It says there's a man talking to Jesus and he says, I believe help my unbelief.
And he's talking about Jesus healing.
I think his daughter, if I'm not mistaken, I haven't, I should've
looked at it earlier today.
But when you guys are going into situations, even in your heartwork
process, some of you guys have been around the same mountain over and over
and over, and there's no shame in that.
I just want to say right now, let's just get rid of the shame because we don't
know what we don't know until we know it.
So tonight, some of you might gain, thank you, Claudia.
Some of you might gain some revelation on, Hey, this might be why I
keep getting tripped up in this area.
This might be why I go around this mountain so many times.
And it's a lot of times it has to do with the healing that we haven't received
or we don't have the revelation and insight to go into a higher level of
understanding where we, we realize, Hey, you know what, I'm not, I'm not
meant to play in the mud, so to speak.
I'm actually meant to sit up at the King's table and my nice fancy dress.
I'm kind of like playing fun here, but it doesn't even have to be a fancy dress.
Some of y'all might check out as soon as I say that, cause you
might not like fancy dresses, whatever your outfit is.
But I'm, I'm trying to say like, God never intended for us to be down in
the squandering places, if you will.
Okay.
So tonight I want to just really encourage you to ask the father, even
right now, just where you're at.
You don't have to unmute, but just Lord, I believe help my unbelief,
whatever you need some belief for.
Maybe your belief is that life can actually be different than what you've experienced.
Maybe some of you, I don't, I don't know if you can relate to this,
but my, uh, I have two spiritual daughters.
I talk about them all the time.
So if you're new, you're going to hear me talk about them.
Um, but I don't overshare cause that's their stories, but I will say,
um, both of their biological parents.
It's just not good.
You all, uh, their mom is just really broken.
And so is their dad.
Mom's a real bad alcoholic says all kinds of mean stuff to them,
puts them down all the time.
Um, and has been from one relationship to another, to another dad, very
similar, um, very controlling and all of the kinds of things there's a lot there.
But I say all that to say, you know, when you come into a space and
that has been your experience and people are like, Hey, just trust the
Lord or, Hey, just get over that.
Why do you keep doing that?
Like sometimes even in the church, let's just be real.
People are like, Hey, clean, clean your act up.
But.
Behavior change isn't necessarily going to lead to lasting change.
So we have to have the change on the inside of our hearts.
Healing and transformation on the inside is what's going to cause all of us to
choose differently on the outside.
Right?
So we're going to choose differently and.
We're going to follow our heart as it heals in that way.
So tonight, where do you need healing?
Where do you need belief that your family line stuff can change, that your life
doesn't have to look like your parents' life, your life doesn't have to feel
small, and the dreams some of you have dreamt your entire lives that God placed
in you, that those can actually happen.
It wasn't God just playing a trick on you, planting dreams in you, but say,
no, nope, that's never possible.
If he put the dream in us, then it can be possible in any instance, if we will
choose to believe and start walking towards that.
So God is a gentleman.
I did talk about this earlier today.
I think it's super important to talk about tonight.
What do I mean by that?
I mean, he's never going to come and just shove his way into the door.
What door?
I'm talking about the door of your heart.
You know, one of the things that if you guys can kind of imagine this, like if,
if Jesus was standing right in front of you and he was just like knocking, like
gently just knocking on the door of your heart and he was saying, can I, can I come
in there?
I'm talking about the heart in general, but I'm also talking about the heart in
the vulnerable places, the places that we, we don't even want to go back into
because they're so painful.
But he's saying, if you'll just, if you'll just let me into those places, I want to
come and make my home in your heart.
I want to come and heal those places.
I want to make them brand new.
I want to bring the balm of Gilead in and in the balm of Gilead, y'all it's, it's
an old Testament medicinal property that they used to use to bring complete healing
to something.
And so when we pray that, when we talk about that, it's a, it's a, it's a
It's believing that there can be complete wholeness and healing in our hearts, but
we first have to let him in.
And so he will never force his way in.
So some of you all in your process, in this heartwork journey, no matter what week
you're in, some of you are still facing that, like, you know, do I really want to
give this to the Lord?
Do I want to go back through this?
And some of you will have situations come up that you're like, man, I've already
dealt with this.
I've gone to counseling.
I've done.
I've done all the stuff that I needed to do.
I don't want to talk about this anymore, but it's because there's another layer to
that situation that you still need healing.
And that is why the father is bringing up.
He loves you enough to help you process that additional piece that maybe you just
don't realize is, is the piece that's currently keeping you stuck where you're
at. So will you, will you answer the knock on the door tonight?
Some of you all, it's just like you've had a really rough few days and the enemy's
been just kicking your butt left and right, and you're feeling discouraged, like,
yeah, I know this is working.
It feels good.
I know I'm changing, but I still mean, I still not sure if I'm buying into this
yet. And so maybe that's where you're finding yourself tonight.
But I just want to encourage you.
If you'll just, if you'll just let him come into that place, that really vulnerable
place, he wants to bring life and he wants to bring healing.
Do you all know that most valleys, we always picture a valley.
At least I did.
Maybe I shouldn't speak for you all as very dark and very dead and no life there.
But did you know, there's actually a ton of valleys that are full of grass and
flowers and life.
Not every valley is dead.
And so that's what else I want to encourage you all with.
As you lean into the supernatural, surrender, surrender areas of your life that
you have felt like are completely dead.
There's nothing there.
There's no life.
Nothing good can come from that area.
The Holy Spirit saying tonight, tonight, like I'm about to reveal to you how alive
and green and lush and fruitful this place can actually be.
So that's where he's saying, Hey, let me, let me do this work.
You can take your hands off.
You can just follow my lead and I'm going to lead you into the abundant life.
You don't have to dig for the answers.
Ladies.
We always encourage in this group.
We don't dig.
We lean into the Holy Spirit for revealing, for healing in every process, even in the
day-to-day stuff, you all, um, so many things happen in our everyday life.
And so many of us just kind of go about our way and we're like, man, I'll deal
with that later, but then a week or two goes by and that's still down in there.
And then you're like getting offended at somebody super quick and you don't
even realize why you're doing it.
But it's because that thing two weeks ago that we just kind of like too busy to
talk about it and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and,
to do. Right. And the Lord's going to show you some of those things. Some of you guys have
and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and,
things for many, many years ago that are percolating to the surface. Um, already some of you guys are
weeks in and that stuff is just like, Whoa, like I didn't even know that was still in there. And
you're wondering, it's like a percolator, you know, like a coffee. Do you guys know what I'm
talking about? Like they just kind of percolates to the surface and then it goes back down
percolate. So throughout your process, the Lord, that's kind of what he does. He just percolates
the stuff to the surface at the time that is best for you. Okay. So we don't go dig. We don't need
to, y'all don't need to feel like you need to go to your families and ask a ton of questions.
You can some, if you want, but we really encourage you to trust the Holy spirit,
to reveal the things that you need to know. All right. One of the main reasons we don't
want to depend on anyone else is we don't want to be disappointed. Some of you all don't want
to depend even on God because you don't want to be disappointed, but here's the thing. God's about
to flip your script. God's about to write a whole new story. Some of you guys have been saved very,
very long time, but God's about to show you something new about himself. Some of you,
I know one of the ladies, I'm sorry, I can't remember who you are. If you're here tonight,
I apologize. That just said, you know, I don't, I don't know how to do this thing with the Lord.
And man, it's exciting, man. That excites me. I'm like, yes, come on in. And we're going to show you
how much God loves you, man. It's going to be an amazing journey, no matter where you're at with
the Lord. If you will just allow yourself to hear and to be open. And even if you don't know how to
hear yet that he will teach you and you'll learn in this loving environment and community control
is an illusion ladies and out of control can be a good and even healthy place to be.
So we want to encourage you guys to, you know, that song, Jesus take the wheel, just literally
that you would take your hands off the wheel and you would allow yourself to lose control.
And what we mean by that is just completely say, whatever you want to do, Lord, have your way,
show me what I need, because see, this is a thing. Some of y'all are, most of y'all have been drawn
into this because you're, you're looking for that spirit mate, which is the same reason I came in
years ago. And along the way, what you're going to find is God's going to light up your whole life.
He's going to light up your whole life in a good way. You're going to heal from the inside out.
Some of you guys are going to walk into financial blessing that you've been praying for, for 10
years, because God is healing your life. And all of a sudden you're, you're going to be in position
to receive the blessing. He's always had it and he's not been withholding from you, but the
problem is, is that sometimes we think we're ready for something. And if he gives it to us,
it'll actually destroy us. It'll actually destroy us and cripple us. So he waits until we're ready.
And you all, some of that for you, for some of you that's marriage. It is. And even if you've
been married before, I was married before too. And I was not ready, man. I thought I was ready and I
was not ready. And I chose really bad. Praise God for grace and forgiveness and restoration. He's so
good at what he does. If y'all don't know my story, I don't know if I even told some of the
older ladies that have been in the group. They're not old in age, but they're, they've been here for
a few weeks. Some of you know, I went through the program a couple of years ago. God really just,
man, he did an amazing work in my heart. I was already doing some work before I came in here
and I just started running. I started running as quick as I could with everything the Lord was
showing me to do. And, um, let's see, that was back in January of 2021. And, uh, I met my husband
in September of 21 and we got married in September of 22. So praise God. I'm a success story in this
community and it's exciting. And, uh, I've been married about a year and a half now and God's
doing some pretty amazing stuff. So the stuff I'm telling you all isn't just because like,
I'm saying something to you, like God's done this stuff in my life and I know he's no respecter of
persons, right? What he does for one, he will do for another. Okay. I'm going to circle back to
this supernatural surrender. So just encourage some of y'all. Yeah. God's got some stuff for
you. That's really, really awesome. Just wait and see. All right. The more hurt we are, the more we
try to control our environment. We're going to talk about not controlling the aspect that some
of you have already heard it a few weeks ago. We're going to talk about it a little different
tonight. So we try to keep everybody where we want them so they can't hurt us. So tonight I want to
encourage you all to just like, who is it? What situation is it that you need to, even if you've
talked about supernatural surrender before in one of the previous sessions, every time we come,
we're all at a different place than where we were before. Even if you came.
And the first time tonight, everybody, God has brought you here tonight at this
appointed time for this appointed purpose to do something that's
really miraculous in your life.
So what is it that you need to surrender tonight?
Where do you need to ask the Lord to help you trust him a little bit more?
You know, some of y'all need to talk about the fact that you just
struggled to trust God and, and why, like, where did that come from for you?
And if you don't know that answer, that's one of the first things we'll
say to you is, Hey, ask the Lord to reveal the first time you were
struggling to trust him ever.
When's the first time Lord, that I struggled to trust you father.
When's the first time that I, I just felt like I had to have complete
control because I was so afraid that if I didn't control, I would be hurt.
I would be broken by somebody, something, whatever that situation is.
So yielding is the form of surrender.
So that's what we're talking about is giving up, giving in, letting go,
waving the white flag, saying, God, God, I'm finally for real, God, I'm
waving the white flag and I'm saying, I need you to do this work in my life
because I can't do it by myself.
So Lord, I need you to come in and show me, show me how to do this.
Show me how to walk in your ways.
It also means to fall back completely into God's arms.
You all like a trust fall.
So tonight I'm going to ask some of y'all to do a trust fall in a sense
too, because some of you guys get into these groups and I'm going to put you
in a breakout group here in a little bit.
If you've never done that, what that means is I kind of set up the
computer and I send you a thing, you click on it and it takes you into
a room with two or yeah, if there'll be most likely three of you.
So about two to three of you in each room, I'm going to ask you to share
your life with a stranger.
I am some of y'all will know each other maybe because you've
been here for a few weeks.
But here's the thing.
If you'll take that risk, if you'll just take that leap and just allow
yourself to be transparent, God's going to work in that in mighty ways.
We have so many sisters that have grown to love each other through our
community and it starts with letting each other in, letting each other
in and letting God do the work.
Um, before I do that, oh yeah, before I do that, I want to read over you guys
and you guys have probably read it before, but again, I think it's
important to do this over you tonight.
You're going to talk about supernatural surrender.
Well, part of surrender has to do with this word that some of us think is so
ugly, we just don't understand it.
That's why it's submission.
I want you guys to go ahead.
I'm going to activate you.
I want you to put in the chat.
What are some, some things you think of when you hear the word submission?
What does that bring up in you?
Go ahead and put that in the chat.
I want to start to see that.
Yep.
That word, there it is.
Submit.
Yep.
So many of us have learned the wrong things about submission.
You all we've learned some bad stuff from church.
We've learned some bad stuff from parents and people, maybe
someone we were married to, whatever.
All right.
I see weakness.
I see do what I say.
Yep.
Not my choice, mutual weakness, being under authority, give up your
will, being controlled, abuse of power.
Uh, let's see ladies on Facebook.
If you're watching this or you're catching the replay, be sure to jump
in and share as you hear these questions as well, because we want to hear from
you too, and I'll try to read from the Facebook feed as much as I can also.
All right.
Yielding slave like attitude.
Okay.
Yeah.
And these are real things that we think, but here's the thing.
None of that's true.
Y'all it's not.
Um, so submission is really a mutual respect.
It's, it's a place in a decision that we make out of love for the other person.
And y'all, when, when a marriage is healthy, when you have two healthy
people and you choose to submit to one another, there's no harm there.
Because you're safe and you're, you're both husband and wife are choosing to
respect and honor one another through submission, but rooted in that place of
love, love, and just confidence in each other.
Yeah, that's there too.
But really it's the rooted and grounded being rooted and grounded in the love
of the father and not of man when people control and they use submission and that
word and they throw it around and toss it around.
Like you got to do what I say or else.
Now, here's the thing.
Typically those are people that are not healed in their heart and they're not
operating from a place of rootedness in the love of the father.
So they're acting out of a sinful nature.
That's what's happening there.
So for those of you that have been abused and controlled, whether in church or not.
However, yeah, a lot of, I had people that were abused.
say stuff like that too. And even that slave-like attitude, I would encourage you to ask the Lord,
you know, when did you first, you know, when was the first time you learned it from a bad
perspective, you know, as far as submission? Was it even with a parent and just, you do what I say,
don't, don't, you know, don't ask questions, you know, that, that compliant, you have no opinion,
you have no voice. Yeah, that's not the father. That isn't the father's view of submission ever.
Okay. It's out of love in and out of a choice. That's why I said, God's a gentleman. He's not
going to force his way in. And so he doesn't force you to submit either. He wants you to
have a relationship with him. That's why he sent Jesus Christ. Yes, Jesus came to die on the cross
for his blood to be shed for the forgiveness of our sins, for our healing, for our freedom,
but also so that we can be in relationship with him as he is in relationship with the father.
Y'all it's all about relationship. So it's a mutual giving, even in submission with the Lord
that out of that place of love for him, not control, not because you have to. That's why
everyone has free will because he wants us to choose and he won't force us. All right. So I
want to encourage you all. We're going to do this real quick before I put you into breakout
to close your eyes. And I want you to hold out your hands like this. Okay. There's a purpose.
So when we hold out our hands like this, we can receive things and we can give.
Okay. So this is a posture of like submission and openness and surrender tonight. I'm going to read
this submission activation over you again. You might've heard this, read this, but I want to
bless you with this tonight. Father God, I give you permission to search me and to reveal anything
in my heart that does not belong to my true identity. And that is hindering me from living
the life you created me to live. Holy spirit. I invite you into the darkest places in my heart.
Show me the areas that are still wounded and are still hurting. When you reveal these broken
places to me, I covenant with you to release them into your care and to respond with forgiveness and
repentance. I set aside this season of my life for a time of healing and wholeness and ask holy
spirit to take charge of this process. I ask that you dwell with me and in me, I need you. I cannot
heal myself. I want to be free from the past free to be who I truly am. Help me to become who you
created me to be. Show me the lies I've believed about myself, my life, my surroundings, even the
lies I have believed about you. Teach me the greater truth. Teach me your ways. Teach me how
to think and how to live abundantly. Teach me, show me, heal me, grow me. Amen. And amen. Yes,
Lord. We just thank you for this. We seal this prayer and this submission activation tonight.
God, I thank you that you'll just help them to come up a little bit higher into your,
into your lap father, that some of them don't, you know, haven't even learned what a good father
is on this earth. So Lord, I pray that you would just show them tonight, a glimpse
of your heart as their good father in Jesus name. Amen. All right. I'm going to put you
into your breakout. So when you go into your breakout, this is the question
tonight. What ways do you struggle with the ideas of submission and, or trusting God or both? Okay.
So what ways do you struggle with the ideas of submission or trusting God? And you're going to
talk about that with each other. Okay. Give me one sec. I'll get these up set up here.
Okay. And also for our new ladies, if you don't know, when I put you in these breakouts,
wait for a minute, because if anybody has any internet service that lags, it takes them a
little bit longer to get into the rooms. And if you guys pop back out, they might be going in
there. So just kind of wait. If I see someone in a room by themselves, I will move you. I'll send
you a new invite to a different room. Okay. All right. I'm going to give you guys nine minutes
because you have three people in there again. What ways do you struggle with the ideas of
submission or trusting God? All right. You guys can start clicking to go into those rooms.
Yeah. I should see a notification there. Click to join.
All right. How are my ladies doing on Facebook? I want to hear from you all. What do you want to
say? Do you have any questions? I'm going to start reading some of your stuff here in just a sec.
I just got to make sure everybody gets into these rooms. Just totally dropped my pen. All right.
All right. So I'm going to go ahead and click to join, and then I'm going to go ahead and click
to update. Alice, are you able to click to join?
Laura, did it kick you out?
I'm going to send you another invite.
I don't know if it popped you out of the room.
Sometimes Zoom does that.
Do you see that there for you?
Awesome. I think everybody's good.
Okay. All right.
Cool. Father, thank you so much for just this amazing group of women.
Thank you, God, for what you're doing in their lives.
Thank you for just revealing things for healing,
even as they're talking about submission and struggling to trust you, Lord.
I pray that you would just bring truth where there's been death,
where there's been destruction in their mindsets
about just who you are as a good father.
Lord, I pray that any areas where the enemy has lorded submission over them
through other people, I ask you to heal those areas tonight,
even as they're talking as well.
God, we thank you that you would just lead us into greater truth.
I thank you, Lord, that you hide us in the cleft of your rock
when there's hardships that come.
And I thank you that you give your angels command over us
in the sense to protect us, to look out for us.
And I thank you that your eyes go to and fro all about the earth.
And I thank you, Lord, that your eyes are always upon us,
that you never slumber, that you never sleep.
And God, that you are working in our life.
Even when we're sleeping, you're working and you're moving
and you're moving all the pieces and the parts around
that can lead us into the good will and plan that you have for our lives.
And I just thank you for that.
I'm going to start to say some things to the ladies here on Facebook.
Let's see here.
Oh, Dawn, that's totally fine.
I'm so glad you're here on Facebook.
Even if you couldn't be here on Zoom, it's so great to see you.
Good evening, Karen, watching from Facebook as well.
Love you.
So glad you're here.
Is this prayer activation written anywhere?
Yes.
Paula, the prayer activation is in your HeartWork e-book.
If you haven't gotten to that part yet, it is in there.
And you will see that very soon as you start reading.
But yeah, some of those things, you all, I did that a lot.
I printed the submission activation out.
And then there's one later in the book that's a forgiveness prayer.
I printed those out and I read those a lot.
So that might be something you all would want to consider doing as well.
Dawn says here, submission has been in my former marriages and relationships.
I need to be the slave in the bedroom.
And he is the master.
Yeah, Ugg.
I think that's Ugg too, Dawn.
I'm so sorry that you went through that.
These men were not Christians and I wasn't at the time.
But it was a very big part and impacted my married life
and into my Christian relationships.
Yeah, I can imagine that would have been so hard to go through.
I'm going to say something on this more here in just one second.
I have someone logging in.
So I'm going to hold that thought for a minute.
As soon as she gets on here, I'll kind of get her connected to go.
I think she.
OK.
Hi, Michelle.
I'm going to go ahead and connect you to the breakout rooms.
Everybody's in there.
They're talking about what ways do you struggle
with the idea of submission or trusting God?
So I'm going to put you in a breakout and you'll
be able to share with the other ladies.
Go ahead and click to join that room.
Oh, hi, Brittany.
Got another person jumping on here.
Hi, Brittany.
We are doing breakout sessions right now.
The ladies are talking about what ways do you
struggle with the ideas of submission or trusting God?
So I'm going to put you in a breakout here in just a second.
OK, sorry.
Hi.
Oh, that's OK.
I almost forgot.
Oh, that's all right.
Jasmine, I'm going to put you in the breakout room.
The ladies will tell you what they're talking about, OK?
I don't know what.
There we go.
The thing wasn't highlighting for you for a second there.
All right, Brittany, you're good to go.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
So Dawn, on this, I just want to comment about this.
And in the sense of for anyone that
is watching this that has gone through any level of abuse,
sexually, intimately, whether it was with your spouse
or someone else that took advantage of you
and kind of did that whole you have to submit
or else kind of stuff, I just want
you to really lean into, like, what
does the Lord want to say to you about those situations
and those areas?
And how does He want to come in and love the version of you
that was going through those areas and that trauma?
And just how can we learn to shift into the place
where we don't attract those people anymore?
And as we've kind of been saying for weeks for those
that have been in the group, but for those that are brand new,
this might be new information to you.
But the more that you heal on the inside,
the better.
chance you're going to attract someone healthy in the future.
So that's why this heart work components and the things that we do here are so
important because they're setting you guys up for success and acceleration in
your, every relationship, including your love story.
And so as you lean in, um, to.
You know, Lord, why did I choose someone that abused me in that way?
Was there things that I believed in my mind before I was, um, already in my, in
those relationships that led me to feel like I had no voice?
Was it just the way they lorded over us?
Or was it also the way we postured ourselves in those relationships?
You know, when we chose them now, I will say having gone through very abusive
marriage, I can remember.
One of my first dates with him, one of the first big dates.
And we went to this, um, I wasn't saved at the time.
And we went to this dance club and there were people that he knew there.
And I can remember looking back now, things that he was saying or doing to try
to cause me to be afraid, to be afraid of him and situations.
And so I do know like there's a lot of mind games and control.
And so we want to ask the Lord to unravel that stuff and that, that mind control
and those games that we were under and that we went through.
And again, asking God really great questions is one of the best ways to do
and to trust that God will come in and love and heal and restore
every one of those areas.
Hi, Tanya.
Did you get kicked out of your room?
Not sure.
All right.
I'm just going to trust that.
I don't know if you can hear me or not.
It looks like you were in room six, but it shows not joined.
So I'm not sure if you got kicked out or if you just had connection issues, but,
um, that we would ask the Lord to come into those areas and, um, bring truth
and bring, bring revelation.
You know, are there any, um, what I'm hearing in my spirit is just like
cobwebs that need cleaned up, you know, anything that the Lord wants to just
come in and sweep and clean and make everything brand new and that we wouldn't,
um, that we wouldn't walk in shame, you know, or condemnation or guilt from
any of those things or situations.
Again, we don't, we didn't know back then what we didn't know
because we didn't know it.
So right now we're coming in to new understanding and new revelations.
And those can lead you guys into, um, just, just even who you
consider and who you look at.
And we don't look at people judgmentally, but we just say, yeah, you know what?
That's not for me anymore.
Or man, that guy is saying, you know, some hurtful and mean things to me.
And, you know, maybe in the past I would have put up with that, but
I know that I'm worth more now.
Well, how do we know we're worth more?
Well, we spend time with the Lord and we become more and more rooted and grounded
in the love of Christ and who he says we are, and that's how we don't like shift
and change so quickly when we go into relationships is because we know who we
are, that's why a lot of ministers and, and leaders will talk about two whole
people coming into a relationship is what can make it one, but, uh, two half
people, uh, coming into a relationship does not make one.
So you want to really lean into this time of preparation and healing and
restoration and see what God wants to do in you and through you during this time.
Hello.
Hi, welcome back.
Everybody.
I'll start to come back here slowly in a little bit.
I'll bring everybody back.
So Don, I, uh, I was talking to Don on Facebook, Don, I hope that's helpful.
Uh, and I hope that just encourages you that even in the ways that I went
through some of that stuff, God has redeemed and restored, and I've
definitely found somebody totally different.
So caring, so amazing and respectful, even, uh, in intimacy.
So you guys have that to look forward to when you choose someone that's healthy
and being in community and letting us come alongside of you can be a huge
part of, of finding that good, healthy spirit mate.
All right.
Welcome back.
We have almost everybody here.
Just a few more seconds.
Just easier to wait.
Yeah, there we go.
Everybody's back.
Awesome.
Welcome back.
All right.
Some of y'all had some connection issues, I think, so hopefully it'll
work better for you the next time around.
If you are unmuted, if y'all can grab that real quick, I'll try to
mute anybody that I see.
All right.
So this is how we do it.
If this is your first time here, um, what we do when we come back together
in the group is we give you an opportunity to share with the whole group.
What you shared in your private breakout group.
And typically, um, the.
First time around, we have people that are really nervous,
but as soon as someone starts talking,
it tends to flow really well.
And then typically I also have where a bunch of people,
we might have one or two share,
and then when it's about time for me to move on,
then a bunch more people.
So it's just good to go ahead and jump in right now.
Is there anyone that wants to share tonight
or is willing to share with the group?
All right, Lucy, awesome, go ahead.
Thanks, Bethany.
So what came up for me,
and I can sense it doesn't feel good in my stomach,
but I'm not sure quite where to take it.
I was just telling the gals.
I've never thought I had an issue with that word,
but the last guy I was dating,
when he talked to me about his former partner,
he said, oh yeah, well, she was pretty good at submissing.
And it just turned my stomach in that moment
to think that she had been rated
and I would be rated over how good I was
at being mouse-like or quote, submissive.
So it just turns my stomach
and I'm not sure what to do with that.
Yeah, so the first thing I'll say
is just when you guys are,
right now, for those of you that are in hard work,
if you don't know this,
we want you to take a dating sabbatical for five weeks.
But for those of you that are getting ready
to go into phase two, when that opens back up,
if you're ever in that situation again,
I would ask them, what is your view of submission?
I think it's important.
If they bring that up and they open the door,
just see what they say.
And then you're gonna know more.
I mean, typically if they're coming out of the gate
with that pretty soon, like early on,
it's probably not from a healthy place,
but we don't ever wanna assume.
So let's get more information.
Let's find out kind of what their vantage point
and their viewpoint is.
But yeah, I think I would encourage you to ask yourself,
not only with that guy, like ask the Lord,
like, Lord, why did that bother me
that that guy said that to me?
And number two, is it linked to anything else
I've ever been through where I felt,
cause what you said is mouse-like.
And I thought that was so interesting
because is that what he was conveying to you?
Like he just wanted you to always listen
and be mute and never speak?
Or was that your interpretation of submission, right?
And so that's where we can kind of listen to ourselves
and listen to what's coming up in our spirits.
Like, what do we think about submission?
And then Lord, where did this come from?
Again, it could be that situation,
but my guess is that it's somewhere along the way,
you were told, maybe this isn't the one,
but this is what comes up in my spirit.
Like a lot of people are told,
just get over there and sit and be quiet.
Like we don't wanna hear, like sometimes even parents,
and they don't always mean bad.
Sometimes people do because they're not healthy,
but sometimes parents are trying to like,
and they'll be like,
just get over there and sit and be quiet.
Like, I need you to just be quiet.
And kids can interpret that all kinds of ways.
Now, if that's done in a very abusive and neglectful way,
man, that can cause that mindset of mouse-like.
Like what is, and again, maybe I'll let you answer.
I think this will be good for everyone.
What is mouse-like?
When you say that, what does that mean to you?
Um, like not having a voice.
I remember like my dad used to not like to hear
whatever his girlfriend or wife would say.
And I remember feeling kind of similar that, yeah,
that it wasn't okay to talk back or have an opinion.
Okay. So I think we're onto something here.
The other thing that's coming up too,
and I don't know if this would resonate with you.
If you guys think about a mouse and I, you know,
I don't even know if this is really real,
but this is how the movies portray it, right?
So this is what comes up in my spirit.
Like they run and they hide in these little holes.
They're like the unseen, right?
They're there, but you don't see them
until it's nighttime and it's safe to come out,
so to speak, right?
And so it just kind of leads me to also wonder
if at times you felt like you just needed
to be in the background
and it wasn't always safe to come out.
Yeah, I feel the Holy spirit on that one.
And I'm so sorry that that's how you felt at times,
but God wants you to, man,
he's going to open wide open space to you, Lucy.
And he's going to provide a space for you
with a spirit mate where you can come out
and you can be fully seen and fully heard
and fully loved and appreciated.
Even if your spirit mate doesn't like your opinion,
y'all, this can really happen.
You can learn how to be in relationship
and not always agree.
You can agree to disagree in a loving way, right?
Man, God is so good.
Thank you for sharing, Lucy.
I think you're so good.
God wants to do some, some really important healing work this week in that area.
So I encourage you to, I encourage you to invite him to come into that stuff with
your dad and just the growing up and anything else that kind of might come up
with this, uh, in the, in the next few days.
Yeah.
Yes.
Father, thank you for healing Lucy.
Thank you for healing these situations, Lord.
I thank you that you're going to give her her voice back and you're going to
tell her how important her voice actually is to your kingdom, because I believe
Lord, you want to use her for some really big things in the future, using
her voice and being seen and heard and known and loved fully, fully, fully,
fully, Lord, we just thank you for it in advance.
Yeah.
Anyone else feeling like your voice, like you were never, I want the three ladies.
I see your hands.
Don't go anywhere.
You don't have to raise your digital hands, but I just want to start to see it
in the chat, anyone else ever feel like you just didn't have a voice or that
people try to squash your voice, your opinion, or we're just going to go here
for a little bit, let me see you.
Let me see you.
Oh my goodness.
Crystal church for speaking.
Literally.
Were you literally like the physically someone did that to you?
Okay.
Well, we just thank you for all of these ladies right now, Crystal and every
other lady that I can't even read their names.
It's coming so quick and fast.
Lord, we just thank you for the voices of your daughters.
God, I pray tonight that you'll just show them how much their voice matters to you,
that you would just, um, even some of them literally that were, they were
literally choked for expressing their voice.
Lord, I pray that you would bring healing to those situations.
God, that you were released forgiveness and reconciliation
and peace to those places.
Lord, I thank you that you would just ignite their voice for you.
Not in a, an, an overbearing way, but God, that you would anoint their voice
with, with grace, with truth, with life, with hope, God, that they would be
bondage breakers, they would be kinsmen, redeemers in their families.
And that the things that they say, God would bring life and hope
and truth everywhere that they go.
And Lord, we thank you for your hand upon them in every one of these situations.
Lord, we thank you that you heal.
Even the things that we don't even know and can't think of right now that there
needs to be healing regarding our voices.
I also just thank you, Lord, for healing physical issues that are, that have
happened over the years and people's throats and we just thank you that you
just come in and bring physical healing to vocal cords, to anything related to
the neck, any neck injuries, God.
And we just thank you for healing and release in Jesus name.
All right.
God is doing something really cool tonight.
You all Leah.
Is that how you say your name?
Leah?
Is it Lee?
Yes.
Sorry.
That was right.
That's correct.
Sorry.
That was really powerful.
I just want to say comment really quick that really struck me.
I'm a singer and I've had like issues singing lately.
So as you were praying and Lucy, thank you for sharing.
That was really beautiful.
I just feel like there's something that I didn't expect for the Lord
to just minister to me then.
Um, but yeah, so I just wanted to share.
Um, mine was actually trusting God because I was raised in a big family,
oldest of a big family, um, in charge to run the ship essentially.
And I didn't have an opinion that was worth being said.
And so I just have always kind of lived under the guise of, well, if I don't
figure it out, no one else is going to, and I don't want to bother God.
And, or if I do bother him, sorry, it's a big ask.
And, um, Oh my goodness.
So for me, um, with the areas of my dreams and just where I'm gifted in.
And especially with romantic love, it's been like, well, a better hustle
and grind to figure it out.
And very much like, uh, get your armor on and get on that battlefield and not
like the way that I am designed, which is, I don't know, I'm way more
soft and feminine deep down.
And so anyway, I don't even know where this is turning into, but for me, I just
wanted to voice the trusting in God.
And I want to just put a stake in the ground tonight to really open up my
life to surrender my life to him.
Trust in him that he really does have the plan and he hasn't forgotten me.
So, yeah, that's what I wanted to share.
Thank you so much for sharing.
And we're going to be praying.
I see some ladies in the chat.
They're kind of encouraging you.
They're going to be praying for your, your singing and your throat.
And we're going to be praying as a community for that.
And for anyone else that needs us, I'll Tanya made a comment.
Y'all I've never stopped and prayed for people physically during
heartwork, hardly ever.
just because I try to stay right in the lane,
but that was the Lord for sure.
When you said that you don't want to bother God,
that really stood out to me.
And so I want to just encourage you or anyone else
that if you ever have thoughts like this,
just from my experience, it tends to be when we think
or we're afraid that we're going to bother our parents
or some kind of like a teacher
or someone that has had authority over us in the past.
And we are afraid to then approach God
because we, whatever we experience in the physical
with people that are supposed to take care of us,
we then put onto God that he is the same as them.
But here's the thing,
God's like chair, if you will, is always open.
Like I always like to picture,
this is just my own, like the way that it helps me.
God is sitting there and he's got this chair pulled out
right next to them.
Some of the ladies have heard me talk about this.
It's just this beautiful picture.
I just imagine like, he just loves to talk to me
and he loves to talk to you.
And he's got this chair pulled out
where you can just come up and sit.
And for those of you,
the reason that that ministers to me a lot is way back,
I used to really struggle with the idea.
Now my grandpa, I felt safe to come,
like go and sit on his lap,
but I didn't necessarily feel safe to sit on guys' laps.
And in my head, I'm like, that might, you know,
until I learned that when there's genuine, true,
pure, innocent love from God, the father,
there's no, there's nothing creepy about it, you all.
There's nothing creepy about it.
So for whatever it's worth, that's what I thought.
And like the chair being pulled out for you, Leah,
like you're never a bother to him.
Anyone else that this is ministering to you,
like he literally looks forward to hearing from us, you all.
He wants to know what's on our hearts,
even though he might already know the thoughts
because the word says he does.
He already knows our thoughts.
He knows what we're going to do.
But the fact that again, we have free will
and we can choose to be in relationship with him,
man, he loves that time.
So he's never tired of hearing from you
and he wants to hear your heart and you're never a bother.
So I would encourage you to ask the Lord,
like when's the first time I felt like
I was a bother to somebody?
And who was that person?
And Lord, how do you want to bring truth
and healing to that situation?
You know, was it something they said?
Was it something they did?
And how does God want to heal that situation?
Okay.
Let's see here.
I'm going to see if I get it right.
Is it Kritika, am I right?
Did I do it?
Yes, it's Kritika.
That's so great.
Yeah, so in the group, I did mention that,
like I don't have any negative annotations
with the word surrender, but when Lucy talked,
I don't know, it just did something in my solar plexus.
It just started vibrating and got very heated
and it made me all teary.
So I don't know whether God is trying
to show me something there.
I'll try to focus on that.
But what else I shared is,
I know like God has shown over and over again
that he's there with me
and like so many things have happened,
but it still feels that sometimes I'm all in.
I am like, yes, it is working and everything,
but a lot of times I'm like, does God even exist?
Sometimes I have such a hard time believing that he exists,
like especially like where there are so many things
happening in the world and even around me,
even to me and like to my family and loved ones.
And I'm like, do you not even see like what is happening?
And sometimes even when I have faith in God,
I just feel like, okay, why have you gone silent
all of a sudden?
Like sometimes I receive so many messages
and sometimes like nothing, nothing at all.
And I'm screaming at God.
And sometimes I'm like,
if you could just come in front of me,
I would like shake you and ask you,
what do you want me to do?
Like say something.
So, yes.
And hey, I just wanna say first and foremost,
I think a lot of us struggle with like those kind of back
and forth, like, you know, God, you know,
the why gods and all of that.
So I just want you to know you're in good company.
I think a lot of people kind of go back and forth
and those things.
But what I can say is that even myself,
there are times where I'm praying
or I'm going through situations
and I don't feel like God is talking the same way.
And see, I think that's the thing.
Sometimes we get stuck that God has to speak back to us
in the same way all the time.
And sometimes he shifts and he's still talking,
but maybe we're not recognizing that it's him.
So for example, I'm just,
and I'm not saying this has to be what's happens
in your life, but I went through a season
where I felt like, you know, I wasn't hearing God a lot.
And then, and this is way back
at when I was living still in Lexington.
And I was going for walks, I start going for walks every day, and I just started seeing
these numbers standing out to me.
And I mean, like, and not creepy numerology stuff, you all, but literally, like, it was
like, it was kind of like, Oh, that I noticed that number, but I don't know why that's I'm
noticing that.
And I just started praying and asking God to show me what he was trying to show me.
Y'all, he would use house numbers to lead me to a scripture to say something to me.
You know, and so sometimes it just, it just depends on like, do we, are we open to seeing
and hearing in a new way, you know, and it's not that God's trying to play a trick on us.
It's just that he's trying to teach us a new, a new way to hear him and, and to go deeper
in the relationship.
And sometimes he is silent.
He is, but it's not because he's trying to be mean to us or withhold from us.
Sometimes it's just, you know, that we're growing in faith.
We're growing in perseverance.
We're growing in, but I think a lot of times for me, when I feel like God is silent, it's
typically because I haven't unplugged enough.
You know, we're on our, our social media, we're on our phones, we're on our devices,
the TV's on.
I literally was just talking to my husband about this last night.
You know, we're not in nature as much or whatever way, like for you, I would, I would
encourage you, what is the way you connect with God the most and go do more of that?
Because sometimes literally, like I can feel like I'm not hearing God and I can go out
in nature and it's like, oh my God, I feel so connected because I, I feel like I am connected
and closer to God when I'm in nature.
That's that's one of mine.
God speaks to me a lot through music.
So it's like, what, what way does God speak to you and how does he want to talk to you
in the days ahead?
You know, on the, the things in the world, I wish I had time to go into that tonight,
but it is important.
I will say that man has free will always, man always has free will and man is given
all of us.
We're all given free will out of God's love for us because he doesn't force anything on
us.
And so unfortunately man in the world that's unhealthy, make bad decisions that lead to
destruction you all.
And some of it is, you know, you know, the stuff in the world, that's the hurricanes
and the floods and all that, but y'all that a lot of that is also happening because of
the things that man is doing, that's leading to destruction in the earth.
So we'll leave that there for tonight, but I just felt like it was important to at least
mention it.
But God is working and you know, maybe even soak in some scriptures on you know, who God
is, because the more that we know who God is, the more we don't feel like he leaves
us in the midst of things.
So no shame in any of that.
I'm so glad you shared it because seriously, a lot of people struggle with those kinds
of things and he knows you're all in and he's all in with you too.
I promise.
And I think he's going to show you more of that in the days ahead.
He's all in with you too.
Yeah.
Chris, Crystal, go ahead.
Oh, sorry.
I don't hear you got to unmute.
That's all right.
My first time speaking.
So this is new, but mine was trusting God's timing.
I know, you know, everything happens in God's timing, but sometimes I feel like if I don't
hear from God, like I'll just take control and answer it myself, you know, whatever I'm
asking him.
So I'll reply to a text when I probably shouldn't have, and it's not always a bad thing that
I do, but sometimes it is, you know?
So it's like, I know it's always, especially if I'm like a spirit mate, you know, it's
like, I trust his timing, what he's, that he has a plan for me, but what is that time?
You know?
So that, and there was another member in my group that kind of felt the same way.
And like, I'm, I know I'm a controlling person, so it's hard releasing that control to God,
you know?
I'll give it to him and take it back.
And I think that's something that either you or Jackie talked about in the past as well.
Yes.
Yeah.
And we're going to talk about that here in a minute, actually.
So I'm glad you brought it up.
And I think this is the biggest thing, y'all, when we are struggling to trust God's timing,
ultimately it's that we don't trust God.
So if we kind of unpack it back further, you know, that God has our best interest and that
he isn't withholding from us and he is going to lead us into those things that are, you
know, that we're asking for, we're believing for.
The big thing is the...
if you guys haven't heard it yet, there's the story that Jackie will tell about the baby gate.
And it's just like a toddler, right? When we want them to be safe and we don't want them to stick
fingers in outlets, we put outlet covers on it. When we don't want them to fall downstairs,
we put baby gates, you know, and we protect them. And so there are times where we think we're ready
for something. And I might've even said this earlier, but we're really not ready yet.
And if God gave it to us, it would actually potentially crush us, or it could go all,
you know, straight, like wrong and bad. Like I said, when I got married the first time,
I just wasn't ready. And, um, I went straight on into that and it ended up massively, you know,
destroying me a great deal for a very long time. Um, and so trusting God's timing, it's,
it's learning how to be more in step with him. It's also learning that, you know,
it's, uh, it's not about perfection. It's about progress. So sometimes it's about taking a step
and follow God's leading and seeing what he says to do next and just taking that next step.
And so many of us are waiting for God's perfect timing that we don't do anything at all.
Right. And so I think there's a, there's a balance there on waiting for God in his timing.
And also like, you feel like God is saying something and you take a step and you let
him speak to you in the midst of that. And then does he keep, is he continuing to lead you down
that path, you know, with that person, with that situation, with that thing, whatever,
and that he is big enough to help correct and get us back on the right path. Now, I'm not saying go
out and just date a bunch of people y'all when you come out of this heartwork that are not healthy
for you. But what I am saying is that, you know, he, it's not like he just is saying, like, if you
ever mess up or you get outside of my timing, you're like in trouble. Right. He is going to say,
Hey, that's not a good way. Go this way, daughter. That's not a good path, or that's not the healthiest
person for you. Go this way, daughter. But it's, it's just, it's walking. It's really walking.
It's walking it out and letting him guide and direct. You know, the scripture talks about that
he will be a lamp unto our feet and a light onto our path. That means he's literally going to show
us the way to go as we go, as we go, you all. So just something to ponder. I would encourage you
to ask the Lord if, if also the other thing that's coming up, Crystal, so often, not only do we
struggle to trust God, but we struggle to trust ourself. We struggle to trust ourselves and that
we're able to make healthy decisions because I don't know about you guys, but I made not good
decisions in the past. And so I was struggling to, uh, not be afraid that I wouldn't make bad
decisions again, you know, whether it was, you know, choosing someone unhealthy or, you know,
sometimes with finances or whatever, but, um, God had to teach me how to, um, trust him, but get
more rooted in who I am in him and trusting my ability to hear as I go. Um, so we're going to
switch Abby. I see you and I hate to, to not say go right now, but I need to shift us to the next
topic just cause I need to get you all into your next breakout session. It's going to be really
good. So I would encourage you, um, if you want do a post in the group so that I can still hear
and the ladies can hear what you were going to share tonight. Cause I still want you to know
how important it is, what you were going to say. Um, okay. So you all, I want to talk a little bit
about, um, this control stuff, but from the aspect, this is what God put on my heart earlier
today for you all. When we talk about control and the areas that we struggle to let go of control,
do you guys understand that a lot of times the reason we struggle with control is because we
have unhealed trauma that causes us to try to maintain control as a form of protection.
So for example, you know, you get hurt as a young kid in situations at home. And so you grow up
making promises to yourself. I'll, I'll give you a good example. My one, another one, my other
spiritual daughter, um, lover to death, young, the youngest of two. Um, she said to me, I took her out
this past weekend and she said to me, uh, I'm just at this place where I'm not going to rely on my
I'm just at this place where I'm not going to rely on anybody. And she wasn't saying it to me in a
mean way. She was more talking about her parents, but just in general, this is where she's at.
I will say it again for you, Claudia, hold on one sec. But, um, she said, I'm not going to rely on
anybody else. I'm going to make my own decisions. I'm going to do my own stuff. And I'm just not
even going to ask anybody's opinion. And that's her way of controlling and protecting herself
from being hurt. Um, it came from a situation, her biological mom, um, it was a car that her mom
was leasing.
but she had allowed her to drive it. It was supposed to be her car. And one, uh, I guess
this has happened multiple times, but this time was kind of like the final straw, but
mom showed up at her work, took the car and never came back to get her, you all.
And then there was this whole fight over this car and mom said all kinds of stuff. So now
then she was left for a month without a way to even get to school. Mom doesn't come and take
her to school. Dad doesn't want to take her to school. It's like, you know, so here's this,
I mean, she's, she's about to graduate, but she's still, she's still a teenager.
She's still young. And, and, and now she's like, got this storyline of, I can't rely on anybody.
And so I'm just going to take care of me and myself, you know? So I know I could relate to
that. I did that when I was younger too. And that broke my heart hearing her say that cause like,
I know that she knows she can trust me. I know it. Cause she tells me,
but because the other people kind of like are bigger in this scenario is just really overwrought.
Like, it's not like it diminishes what I'm doing in her life, but man, she's just really in a tough
spot. So how many of you are now, maybe have been for a long time doing things in your life
because you're trying to protect yourself from being let down.
You're, you have these trauma wounds and here's what I said. Unhealed trauma can cause us to try
to maintain control as a form of protection. So I brought up a couple of examples earlier today,
too. Some of the ways it can show up is, and there's so many more, but these are the ones
that came to me as I was writing my notes for these sessions, OCD, whatever kind of OCD.
So maybe you're, you're really just struggling. You got to have your house. Perfect. Nothing.
Everything's got to be bleached and cleaned or your car or whatever your space is that is,
this is your space and nobody can come into it and mess it up or get it out of order.
And again, no shame in any of these things, y'all. I'm just, these are things that came up.
One of the other things was I mentioned about like the eating. Some of us struggle to eat and
eat and eat because that is the thing that we can control. People have taken all these other things
away from us, but they can't take the food away from us in that sense. We can control that.
Sometimes like my mom used to hide food. My sister did too. And there was this sense of
control, like, this is mine and no one else can have it. And so that was their way of kind of
protecting their food, protecting their stuff. I don't know why they did that. I really don't.
I never got a chance to ask my mom that. My sister, I think learned it from my mom. But
anyways, those are two things. Some of y'all, it's going to be finances. Some of y'all it's
going to be with men and you're just like, yeah, no, thanks. Thanks for trying to open my door,
but I got it. I don't need your help. Like, guy, I don't need you to open that door and hold
it for me. I don't need you to come and pick me up and take care of me, whatever that looks like.
Some of us, we're just like, we've got this and nobody can come in past that layer. So that's what
I want you guys to talk about. So do you have an unhealed wound or trauma that is leading you to
try to, uh, control to maintain, like try to maintain, excuse me, control as that form of
protection, putting a wall up to keep people out that you think might hurt you. Yeah. I don't need
your help. Ooh, so much good stuff. You all, it's going to be good. Uh, let's see here. I'm going
to recreate the rooms. Cause I want some of the new ladies, I want you to be able to meet some
new people. All right. I got to do eight minutes. So you guys will have to be quick this time,
just cause we're kind of, I can't even believe we're already cutting close on time. All right,
go ahead and click to join that praying for you all. So ladies on Facebook, let me hear,
let me hear about, you know, what trauma or wounds are unhealed that are leading you guys
to try to control as a form of protection. Susan, are you having a hard time connecting?
Oh, there she goes. Shannon. I think you're my last one.
I think that's just a bad connection there. All right. So I'm going to kind of catch up
with some of the things y'all have been saying on Facebook. Um, I guess I should pray over the
rooms as well as those that are watching here live. So father, we just thank you.
now just for these areas where we struggle to shift into control to maintain some form of
protection. God, even though we aren't really, we aren't really protecting ourselves, we're
actually making it harder on ourselves. So Lord, I pray tonight that you'll just help us to
open up and share about these areas that we need you to come in and heal
so that we don't try to control and maintain some kind of idea of control
to tell ourselves that we're actually protecting ourselves. Help us to trust that you want to
protect us, that you want to defend us. Even as I was saying earlier, I read in the word this
morning in Psalm 91. I'm going to read this to you all. I feel like I should get this out.
Give me a minute. I'm going to turn to it. Psalm 91 is a great, I'm going to just read the whole
thing. I think this is really great, but I'm going to focus on verse 9 and 10.
Whoever dwells, this is verse 1, in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the
Almighty. I will say of the Lord, he is my refuge and my fortress, my God in whom I trust. Surely
he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with his
feathers and under his wings you will find refuge. His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that
stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday. A thousand may fall at your
side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only observe with your
eyes and see the punishment of the wicked. If you say, the Lord, here's verse 9, is my refuge,
and you make the Most High your dwelling. Verse 10, oh I'm sorry, 10 and 11 is actually,
no harm will ever take you, no disaster will come near your tent, for he will command his angels
concerning you to guard you in all of your ways. Man, that's powerful. They will lift you up in
their hands so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. You will tread on the lion and
the cobra. You will trample the great lion and the serpent because he loves me, says the Lord.
I will rescue him. I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on me,
and I will answer him, and I will be with him in trouble. I will deliver him and honor him
with long life. I will satisfy him and show my salvation. Lord, we thank you for this truth.
We thank you that you said, commanded your angels concerning us, that they lift us up,
they guard us in all of our ways, Lord God. I thank you that we can trust in your protection,
that we can dwell in the shelter of the Most High and rest in your shadow, in the shadow of
the Almighty, that we can lean into your presence and your power and know that you are working on
our behalf. Yes, Lord, we thank you for that. Okay, so I'm going to come here. I see Larissa.
Hi there. Yes, I see. I don't know what I was talking about, but yes, God knows best. He really
does. She says, my first relationship with my ex-husband, I wasn't ready at all. I didn't even
know what I wanted and didn't want in what I... I get it. Sorry, I read that wrong. I didn't even
know what I wanted and didn't want in a relationship. Neither did I... I can't read tonight.
Neither did I even know what to look out for in men. Yes. Okay, I'm following you. Yeah, it's so
tough when we go headstrong into things and we just want to make a decision on our own. Again,
I can't emphasize, this isn't about money or anything. It's about, man, community and what's
in this community. I cannot speak volume... I cannot speak enough about how that helps me in
my process to pick healthy because I was coming into community. I was sharing and I was saying,
hey, what do you think about this? What do you think about this thing that this guy said? Or
this is how I felt tonight when this guy, this one guy I went on a couple of dates with,
I had already told him multiple times, I didn't want to talk a lot about sex, but y'all know
we were trying to answer these fun question things on this app. And once you know, he goes right for
the sex ones after we did a couple. And so, yeah, sometimes it's hard to know, but in that moment,
I knew like, hey, this guy's not respecting the boundary that I've set. And he knows that
he's not doing it. So he was a nice guy, but I blessed him and I moved on. So that's what you
all can do too. But it takes learning. It takes walking in community. It takes also learning how
to set healthy boundaries with family. Some of us need to learn, even just, it's okay for us to say
no. Some of y'all need to practice like, no, thank you. And being okay, if your family member tries
to put a guilt trip on you because you're not doing what they want you to do. We don't have
to give into that all the time, right? We can walk in confidence that it's okay.
Okay for us to have a life too.
And it's okay for us to, to do things and not always want to do
other things people want us to do.
Yep.
Some of us need to come out of people pleasing.
I've been there for a long time and God's teaching me how to come out of that.
Oh, Cassie might've gotten kicked out here.
Did you get kicked out of your room?
Cassie?
Can you hear me?
Yeah, I hear, you know, Hey, my internet is so unstable tonight
for some reason, and so I, yes, got kicked out.
That's okay.
Do you know what room you were in?
Okay.
All right.
Try to go back in there.
If not, you can just hang here with me.
It's no big deal.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
Um, Gabrielle says in Facebook, she says, I definitely have
control issues from past trauma.
What was brought to mind in my teenage years was eating disorders.
Lots of hiding, putting on a mask in order to cope people pleasing OCD.
Yeah.
Thank you for sharing, uh, Gabrielle.
I don't know if I said your name right the last time.
Um, and so I would encourage you just to ask the Lord, um, you know, when those
eating disorders started, when you were a teenager, like, was there something
that happened that triggered that, that led you to start doing that?
Um, because just from my experience, um, there's a lot of unhealed areas.
Um, I have a friend, I don't know if you would relate to this, but when I was in
high school, she just felt like a lot of pressure from her parents, she was
the oldest of two daughters, her dad worked in our school system and as a
principal, very high up, um, and so there was just this whole kind of.
A persona that they had to portray.
Um, always have it together, the best grades, the best athlete,
you know, all those kinds of things.
And so that was one of the things that really led her to feel a lot of
pressure and some of those things, even we interpret them differently
than they're actually intended, but.
Would just be, uh, good for you to ask the Lord to reveal those areas for
healing from when you were a teenager and just to lead you into truth and
healing and anywhere that's needed.
So that, because here's the thing, if you're not healed in that
teenage girl version of yourself, um, it can, that can show up even in
your relationships now and you're, even though you're older now, you're not
healed as the teenage version of yourself.
And so when people do or say things in life today, your teenage self is still
getting triggered versus like, if you were healed in those areas and then you
can show up differently in all of your relationships, um, so I'm just reading
some things on Facebook, y'all trying to catch up with those ladies while you're
here, you have a few seconds before people come back here and says after
being married four times to men who all cheated and walked away with no remorse.
I found myself not letting anyone in because I don't want to feel
that kind of pain ever again.
But deep down, I want someone in.
Um, but I, uh, I try to control everything.
They try to start because my mind goes back to the way I was hurt before.
Yeah.
So I would encourage you, Karen, to go back to the original source again,
it, even though it's the marriages is where it maybe got triggered.
I would encourage you to ask the Lord.
When is the first time you felt like, um, you know, maybe somebody walked
all over you and that your opinion and your heart did not matter.
And then let God heal those areas.
Um, Oh, I missed a question before I went into breakout.
Claudia said, do you think it's a form of pride?
Do I think control is a form of pride?
Is that what you mean?
I think that's what you're saying.
Um, all right.
So as a cloudy answers that for me, I'll come back to that.
Um, but who is willing to share with the whole group?
Awesome.
Crystal, go ahead.
Yeah, this is such a massive one for me.
Like I've literally been journaling through this stuff with the Lord.
And then that was the topic that was for today.
So I'm being brave.
Um, so the, the question was, is there unhealed trauma?
And I'm like, yeah, absolutely.
Um, for me, I think it's a couple of different things.
One being, um, just growing up, even from a small girl in our home, um,
discipline was always just do what I say.
There was no chance to kind of communicate my side of the story.
So if there was a fight with a sibling or anything like that, it
was always just sort of like shut down.
And I think even from a young age, I was called a kid, like a, my, I
remember feeling like my parents were saying to me that I was not a
submissive child, like I was a rebel or, you know, like, just do what you're told.
There seemed to always be like this anger in them that I wasn't compliant.
Um, and then the other component of that for me is probably what
I already shared in the chat.
So a little bit older when, um, my parents.
were disciplining me, I would often be kind of held against the wall and choked and I had to
sort of maintain a calm exterior because any kind of emotion would then be punished harsher. And so
internally I was saying, I'm not going to listen to you because that was my way of protecting all
of the harsh words and stuff that was coming out. So yeah, I see even now as an adult, it's just so,
I'm so aware that if people speak to me with direct language, that's, you know, do this,
I get triggered because they're not asking, they're telling. And then that triggers that
sense of wanting to feel like I want to stay in control. Yes. Wow, man. So good. Thank you for
being vulnerable. Thank you for trusting us and sharing your story. I'm so sorry that you went
through that. Lord, we just ask for you to come in and heal these areas regarding parental abuse.
Y'all, that's what it is. That was not okay in the father's eyes. I'm a hundred percent
confident in that. And so Lord, we know there's grace for her parents, but Lord, we just ask for
healing in those places. But I want to encourage you too, Crystal, I think it's good that you're
you're recognizing when people aren't asking, they're just like kind of demanding. But we want
to, we want to ask the Lord to reveal the root, whether it is with your parents is the root place
that causes that trigger, or is there something even past, like before the situations happened
where, you know, just do what you're told. And maybe it's even when you were younger.
But I would also say to this thing that stood out to me is, you know, there, there is a side
of some of us where we just are very confident and we're, you know, have a very strong mind and
opinions. And if our parents aren't healed, they don't know how to, they don't know how to nurture
that in us. And instead it's, it threatens them. It threatens them. And that's not our fault.
Right. But they're responding out of this brokenness and this lack of understanding of how
to really enable their child to mature and grow and flourish as the leader that they are probably
called to be. And so I'm not saying that every rebellious thought we ever have is that you all,
but I'm just saying like, there are times where even, even I can think back to my, my stepson,
when he was young, man, I can remember reading this book about, I don't remember what it's called,
but it was about stubborn children. And like, how do you get, like, how do you break through with
them when they're just not willing to hear you? But here's the thing. My stepson also had a lot
of woundedness and brokenness, not only with his dad, but his mom and stuff that happened in trauma.
And so there is an aspect of us that we become stubborn and rebellious again, out of this.
I don't need anybody's help. I don't need to listen to anybody. Like I know what's best.
And it's not even because we even want that sometimes it's because that is again, what we're
projecting to protect. So I would encourage you guys, if any of you have that kind of heart posture,
just ask the Lord to come in and help, help you open that part of your heart to him and just see
what he wants to show you there. Because I feel like God wants to soften some of those areas.
And some of you, and even me saying that it's probably going to cause you guys to feel your
heart racing because it's going to mean you have to, well, not have to, you get to choose to
invite him in for healing and that stuff.
And you don't have to be tough all the time. You don't, the world tells you, you do, but God is
going to bring not only a spirit mate, as far as what we believe around you and into your life,
but he's bringing sisters and community and people that you can rely on. Are people imperfect? Yes,
we are. We all are. We're all going to make mistakes, y'all, but God can bring really
incredible, amazing people around us on the journey as well. So just a couple of things to
keep in mind. I will tell you guys it's at nine 30. So I'm going to be able to take one or two
more. I'm so sorry. I know it kind of, we get going and see, this is what happens. We get going and
then, and then we don't always have time. So be sure to post in the group. If you're not able to
go tonight, or you can even go on to the live feed it's it's projecting into the group right
now. So you guys will see it. And I have ladies commenting on here. So if you want to put your
comment there, I'll, I'll respond to you there.
Uh, or my team will. Okay. Um, Rachel, go ahead. I saw, I see you at the top of my screen next.
Hey there. Can you hear me? Yep. Okay, perfect. Um, so I shared with the group, um, and I wasn't
nervous to share with them, but I'm very nervous and I don't ever get nervous talking in front of
people. So, um, so I've grown up in church my entire life. Um, I'm a pastor's kid and I think
I learned, and I don't know where I learned, but probably just being in the environment. Cause I
don't think it was from my parents to put a face on, to show up, to know how to act and how to
behave. And so as I started getting older, you know, teenage years, probably even probably more
into my twenties. Um, I would just stuff things because I would need to put the face on, right.
I was on staff at a church. I was a teacher and the town that I lived in at the time. And
I would just put the face on cause I had to show up. And so when I saw friends getting married or
saw them get having kids or all the things that I wanted and me not getting those, I just stuff,
stuff, stuff, stuff, stuff. And then I had some things happen in life that were pretty traumatic,
that turned my life kind of upside down. Um, and all of those emotions came bubbling out and
me following and just putting the face on and doing the act for so long turned into the other
end of me controlling, um, the other end of controlling, but like me not getting a relationship
for so long. I saw everybody else get it that I just went out and had very superficial surface
physical relationships with guys in my early thirties. I'm now 39. I was like, well, this
didn't work for so long. So basically she's my language as it I'm going to go do what I want to
do. Um, realizing the Lord showing me that all of that is like a sense of control. But even now,
like, like you mentioned earlier, like, I don't even know how to trust myself because I've made
all of these choices that I'm not proud of that I really don't think are me, but it's like you
stuck for so long cause you didn't get what you wanted. Then you tried to go get what you wanted.
And that didn't work out either. Like, you don't mean like you wanted to control it so much that
everything was, I didn't want to go deep with those people because I was protecting myself
because it would hurt too much to say that I even really wanted this now, if I didn't get it.
Yes. Yeah. Okay. We're going to pause on this cause this is super important. I want to hear
from you guys. How many of you all actually tell yourselves that you don't want a spirit made
because that's easier in your mind. Yeah. I see some people raising hands, put in the chat. That's
you. Yeah. Lord, we thank you that you're going to help every one of these ladies to
admit to themselves that they not only want, Jackie said this, I heard her say it recently
on the lab. They not only want a spirit mate, but they need a spirit mate because that's what
you've created them for. So what I thank you that they'll give themselves permission to, to trust
that you want to bring an amazing spirit mate into their life at your appointed time, Lord.
And I thank you that it's not about waiting forever for that appointed time, but God, I thank
you that, uh, the blessing is coming and we just thank you in advance for it. And we trust that
you're good in the process. Um, so when you were talking, Rachel, um, one of the things that I
wrote down is you said, when you start talking about, you know, the, the going kind of from one
side to the other side, you know, we over correct at times you all that's, you know, we do. Um,
and sometimes it can look like super religious, you know, and then kind of like what you said,
and even though yours was about relationships, some people go hyper religious church, you know,
scripture, all this stuff. And then they go and then they're out partying all the time,
you know, whatever, whatever that cycle is, it's this over correct. And what we need is we need to
ask God to bring us into balance right in the center. And what does that look like? Um, and so
that was one of the first things, and God will show us over time. He'll bring us into balance
and the balance comes you all from healing in our hearts. That's how it comes. It's not something you
can magically make happen. But the more you heal, the more centered and rooted you become in your
identity in Christ, the more that you will find yourself feeling peaceful and balanced and
centered. We're, we're going to close soon, but I do want to talk on this for a minute.
So you said about the part about trusting yourself and immediately,
because as you were talking, I immediately wrote down, forgive yourself.
Okay. Uh, I think like you forgiving yourself for those mistakes and the
those over corrections, if you will, you know,
maybe go on the opposite side and really
releasing yourself from the bondage.
And like, just what I'm hearing in my spirit,
even during those times, it's almost like,
I don't know if this resonates,
but sometimes when we are making decisions
that we know are not even really what we want,
but we're doing it anyways,
we lose a little piece of ourselves in that process
because we're actually denying,
because what we really want is the spirit mate
in the healthy way, right?
And we want that spirit mate that chooses to wait
until they have sex or to wait until we're married
to have sex and all these things.
But when we feel like we can't get it,
the enemy deceives us and tricks us into thinking,
you know, we can go for this counterfeit thing, right?
But when we forgive ourselves, you all, man,
it really can release so much of that situation
and open us up to step further into what God has for us.
Sometimes we hold ourselves in bondage and hostage.
I talked about this a little bit for those
that were in our sessions last week or two weeks ago
when we talked about forgiveness, excuse me,
and you really wanna learn how to just continue to say,
father, like, I wanna trust myself more,
but I wanna trust you more.
Like, you know what I mean?
Like, it's like a combo.
So trusting him more is gonna help you trust yourself more.
Lord, help me to forgive myself.
You know, we can't change those things, you all.
We can't, we can't go back.
What's done is done, but you can go forward
and God by his grace will equip you to go forward
and make healthy choices.
You guys are making the best investment
you can ever make in yourself by doing this journey.
I hope you guys know that.
If you don't yet, you will, you will.
And even some of you, you might not even notice it.
In the five weeks you're here,
some of you all are gonna go on
and you're gonna look back and you'll be like, oh my gosh.
Like, you're gonna recognize the growth event.
It's different for everybody,
but God has a plan and a purpose for your life.
And he wants to lead you into a land flowing with milk
and honey, you all.
Milk and honey was a big thing back in that day.
It was a sign of prospering.
God wants you to prosper and to know him in every way.
So I'm so sorry, we have to close.
We're at 938.
I wish I could go all night.
I really would, I really do.
But we got to save some for in the group.
We'll talk in there.
You guys come in there, talk to us,
share what you're gonna share in here.
I still wanna hear.
I see, I know, isn't this terrible?
I do this every week, you all.
Bemi, am I allowed to call you Bemi?
Can I call you that?
Tell me how to say your name.
I need to call you by your name.
You can just call me Busola.
Busola.
You can pick any of us.
No, no, no, no, no, no.
We got to call you by your name.
Your name is so important.
Everything means something.
So if you call me Olu, it means something.
If you call me Ola, it means something.
If you call me Busola, it means something.
So whatever you call me, it's okay.
Well, I call you Busola because that is part of your name.
And I am gonna get this right, you all.
Our names are so important.
So I don't wanna just call her anything.
She's beautiful.
Thank you for your grace.
I butcher it every week, you all.
I really was trying.
All right, and then let's see.
Gosh, I got some hard names tonight, you all.
Sulakshani?
Is that close?
Pick it, Sulakshana.
Okay, Sulakshana.
I like that.
And Sandy.
So for sure, the three of you all,
I wanna see posts from you all in the group
so I can hear what you were gonna say.
Claudia, your name doesn't mean that.
We're gonna find out the different meaning for your name.
We're gonna find out what the Bible actually says.
I think there's something else to your name.
It's beautiful.
All right, whoever else wants to share in the group,
I wasn't excluding you,
but I saw those three ladies had their hands up
and I just wanna make sure
that they feel really heard tonight as well
because we got into an important topic here
and we have to close.
So I love you guys.
For those of you that are new,
I'm gonna tell you that all the time.
And I do, I mean it.
And you're like, how do you love me if you don't know me?
And I'm gonna say with the love of Jesus Christ
that he's given me for you.
I couldn't be more honored to be on this journey with you.
And I'm so excited to get to know you guys
better every week.
Father, we thank you for God, your abundance.
God, we know that you are good
because your word tells us that.
So Lord, even when we don't see it in the world,
even when we don't see it in our own lives,
God, I pray that you would just ignite our hearts
to trust you.
trust your word. Lord, your word also declares that you are not a man that you should lie.
So Lord, when you say that you have plans and promises to prosper us, to give us a hope
in a future not to bring harm or not to bring evil, God, we know that we can trust that.
Lord, we thank you that you would just continue to fan the flames of hunger and thirst for
your righteousness, for your word, for understanding your character within us. Help us to just
experience Lord, even as we sleep, your sailor rest, your presence surrounding us, your peace
and grace flowing over us every day. God, we thank you that even in the night hour,
when we are struggling, God, when the enemy comes in like a flood, God, that you would
cause him to flee seven ways. And Lord God, that, that you are fighting on our behalf
and that you have dispatched angel armies tonight on behalf of every one of these ladies,
Lord, even in the tender places that were stirred up. God, we thank you that you would
send ministering angels to their aid tonight in every area. And we just thank you for it
in advance in Jesus name. We love you guys. Bless you. I'll see you guys in the phase
one Facebook group. Yep. That's where I'm talking about. So we'll see you guys there.
Have a great night, everyone.