Welcome to part three of my heart workshop, you made it here.
This is going to be a really important part.
And so we're starting to unpack those heart boxes and you should be feeling what I call
that revealing for healing.
Those aha moments that are just coming up and you're beginning to see things differently.
You're beginning to see things that you have never seen before about yourself and about
the patterns that you have.
Now if you're not seeing anything, if you feel numb inside, if you feel shut down inside,
I want to encourage you to go back all the way to the beginning and to start over.
I know that seems like a bummer, but it's important that you give God permission to
teach you and show you and heal you and grow you.
Even revisit that permission slip because there's definitely things that should be coming
up by now.
And if they're not, we want to go back.
We want to make sure that we are submitting to that supernatural surrender because you
can't do this on your own.
You're not here to do this on your own.
You need divine assistance to help you unpack.
And so we all have things in our hearts that are the enemies of abundance.
All of us.
If you're thinking, maybe I just don't have anything, let's just laugh at that.
You definitely have something in your heart that is keeping you from the abundant life
that God has for you.
I remember once I was in the front of this church and they had this area where people
went for worship and I was having a really hard time in life.
I was, I had so many difficulties.
I had more problems than a math book and I really wanted God to get rid of my problems.
I did.
I want him to fix those things.
And I saw this painter that was painting this painting and it was a beautiful painting of
a lion.
And I said, God, that's what I want you to do.
I want you to show up with the lion of Judah and I want you to just destroy all of my enemies,
all of my problems.
And I'll never forget what God said back to me.
He said, Oh, he said, really?
I would love to do that for you, Jackie, but you're going to have to get out of the way.
You're going to have to get out of the way.
Now let's just pause there for a moment.
What?
Um, am I misunderstanding you God?
Come again.
What are you saying?
He said, I would love to destroy your enemies, but you're protecting them.
You're in the way.
And if you'll step aside, I'll be happy to take them out for you.
And I was like, what do you mean by that God?
And he said, they're in your heart and you're making excuses for them.
You're standing in between me and them.
You're harboring fugitives in your heart.
So remember, we can't kick fear out and just rent it a room in the basement.
We have to evict it.
We have to.
And that's what I was doing.
I was allowing it to stay just in different areas of my life.
I was confessing and declaring, and I was, you know, standing on the word of God and
all those different churchy and religious type of activities that we do.
But I was also allowing all kinds of lies and stinking thinking and negativity and whining
and complaining.
I had embraced victimhood.
I had in so many areas of my life, and it was those squatters in my heart, that shame
and anxiety.
My heart had become a refuge for rejection and a sanctuary for shame and an asylum for
addiction.
I think oftentimes we think that addictions are just drugs and alcohol, but they're not.
We're addicted to complaining.
We're addicted to negative thinking.
We're always waiting for the other shoe to drop.
And maybe that's something that was handed down from your family.
A lot of times these squatters in our heart that we're protecting are ideas that have
come from our family, things that we know are not leading us to abundant life, but at
the same time, we also don't know how to get rid of them because they're mantras and vows
and inherited trauma.
And so whatever that thing is that's keeping you from feeling successful, whatever that
thing is that you're telling yourself, like, I'm too old.
I failed.
I'm not going to get any more chances.
Those are all the fugitives that we're harboring in our hearts.
And so we have to do things differently.
We have to do things differently than the people that came before us.
Now, this doesn't mean that your family is a bunch of outlaws or crazy people.
It just means that we want to have a more abundant life than anybody who's come before
us.
And we don't want to live our lives lesser than when we know we can live it greater than,
you know, maybe you're the black sheep of your family because you went to college.
You did things differently than other people.
Maybe you're the white sheep of your family because you're following after Jesus and no
one else in your family is a Christian.
Maybe you're a first generation Christian in your family and you're thinking, yeah,
you know what?
I'm not going to turn out like them.
I'm not going to have babies out of wedlock.
I'm not going to be an addict.
I'm not going to drink.
People always ask me, Jackie, why don't you drink?
Because I come from a long line of alcoholics.
A long line.
Do I think that means that I'm going to become an alcoholic?
No.
But when I was able to get rid of the lies that you have to drink to have a good time,
I heard God say to me, hey, that's not right.
for you. That's not right for your life. So you don't really need to mess with that. And I'm okay
with that. So I told you, and I'm going to keep telling you that I believe that you're Kinsmen
Redeemers. I believe that whatever's been running in your family line, poverty, addiction, just
negative mental attitude, that it can run out with you. It can. You don't have to follow after the
same patterns of the people that have come before you. Whether it's atheism, whether you're the
black sheep or the white sheep of your family, no matter what it is that is not leading to abundant
life, you do not have to follow in that path. And so it's time for us to come out of agreement
with all of these things. And so you can see that we're harboring them and we're actually
protecting them because a lot of times we don't even know they're bad. We don't even know that
they're bad things. We don't know that they're things that are not leading to abundant life.
You know, as your heart begins to unpack and those things begin to come to the surface,
you might say, I don't even know what this is. I've never even seen this thing before.
Have you ever helped a family or a friend, a family member or friend? Have you ever helped
them unpack? And they're just like, you're like, Hey, where does this go? And they're like, Oh,
I don't even know what that is. I don't even know where that's come from. And so you're going to
begin to see a lot of that. As we have this revealing for healing, there's going to be what
I call the knowns and the unknowns. The knowns are things that you know happened. And the unknowns
are things that you're like, how did that even get in my box? Does that even belong to me?
Because sometimes it's a generational thing, like what I'm talking about. Sometimes it's
something that happened to you, but sometimes it's something that happened to your mother or
your grandmother or your great grandmother or your father or your grandfather or your great
grandfather, because those are lies that have been handed down for generations. You know,
maybe you were never sexually molested, but someone in your family was. And so that same
a lie that's been handed down of I'm not good enough, or I'm damaged goods that you feel that
in your heart, but there's really no reason to feel that way. So a lot of people I've been working
with a lot of students and a lot of students say, Hey, did I just forget about this? Did I repress
it? Because the stuff that's coming up, they don't remember it ever happening to them.
They don't remember the type of rejection or the shame or whatever it is that's coming up.
That doesn't seem attached to a memory in their lives. And so maybe it happened in your generation
as God is showing you that it's holding you back. It was passed down as a mindset to you from the
people that have come before you. And now you're living in the repercussions of it. You're living
in the shame of it, but you don't have to live in the shame of it anymore. And so I really want to
encourage you. I feel like this is really for somebody that you're going to be unpacking these
boxes and you're going to see things that you don't recognize and you don't expect. And you're
going to wonder, Hey, is this even part of something God wants to heal in me? I really want to encourage
you to bring that to God and say, Hey, where did this come from? Show me this. Show me where this
comes from. Show me where this root is. And he may begin to talk to you about something that's
happened, not in your life, but in the life of someone else in your family, something that's part
of your lineage. And so all of these things that are coming up are in your heart soil, and it's
time to clear them out. And that's what we're doing here. We want that amazing abundant life.
And we know that in order to have that, all the good information has to make it this 18 inch
journey from mind to heart. And so we want to know, we want to be able to look in the mirror
and see what God says about us. We want to be able to manifest the promises of God.
Remember the heart is a womb and whatever gets into it, it reproduces and then produces the
quality of our lives. And there's lots of things about our lives that we don't like
lots of areas where we know we're not living the life that God has for us.
With our parents, maybe with your children in our communities, in our vocations,
we get up every day and we go through the motions, but we know that there has to be more
in our finances, in our romantic relationships. We're not satisfied. These are places where we
know that God has a bigger promise for us. Deep down inside, we know that we are worth more than
what we're doing with our one and only lives. And so I know that it's time for that to change.
And it's going to change when that debris in your heart gets moved out of the way,
because the seed is good. God's word, his promises, they are good. It's sound,
but it's the soil of the heart that needs to be plowed up. The word of God is always
going to bear fruit if it takes root. And so we need to allow it to get in there.
And the way that we allow it to get in there is to allow Holy Spirit to unpack and plow and weed
where all of these things are blocking that good, good. My daughter always likes to say
the good, good, the good, good. We want the good, good. We want that higher level of good.
You know, life might be good in some areas, but it's a God's definition of good.
Is it?
Because I know that God has a good for us that will rock our worlds, that will blow
our minds.
And we want that.
We want to live that version of good, God's version of good.
And so I want to encourage you to clear your schedule out, to make room for Holy Spirit,
to talk to you.
Take your time to read the material, to allow yourself to really process the knowns and
the unknowns, to see what's in these heart boxes.
Whatever tragedy was in your family, maybe in your own life, that divorce, that hurt,
that pain, that trauma, whatever it is that you know about, the thing that you've been
spending your whole life trying to avoid, that's what we call the knowns.
You don't ever want it to happen again, but you're living your life on the defense.
You're trying to protect yourself and you're not self-defended, you're God defended.
And so those known traumas, we can't continue to repress them.
We can't continue to try to stuff them in the box and keep them there.
Maybe it was a miscarriage or sexual abuse or the person that cheated on you or ghosted
you, whatever it is, just because it's out of sight does not mean it's out of heart.
And so we have to begin to allow this emotional healing to come.
It's not about being re-traumatized.
I know a lot of people are like, oh, this is going to hurt.
And that's why I'm doing what I'm doing right now.
That's why I'm showing up to kind of do this check in with your heart over the material
that you're going to be going over.
And the reason why is because it is going to hurt, but it's the pain of healing and
not the pain of trauma.
It's the pain of thriving instead of just surviving.
So that has some pain attached to it.
So grab ahold of the hand of Holy Spirit and just know that everything's going to be okay.
No matter what kind of anxiety or fear or shame or negative emotions come out of this
week, you're not going to stay in that place.
That's not your new normal.
You're just pressing through and you're pressing through that trauma to get to the other side
of the real truth about yourself.
So make sure that you're taking time to rest, to process and to unpack.
And at the end of this process, you are going to be everything that God said you can be.
And I'll see you soon.
Bye.