WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.820 All right, so welcome to Sunday Night Activation. 2 00:00:02.820 --> 00:00:05.120 We don't always record, but tonight we are going to. 3 00:00:05.120 --> 00:00:07.140 We are not gonna have breakout sessions tonight, 4 00:00:07.140 --> 00:00:08.420 I don't think. 5 00:00:08.420 --> 00:00:11.540 We may throw in a little breakout session here at the end, 6 00:00:11.540 --> 00:00:13.100 but this is a co-ed session. 7 00:00:13.100 --> 00:00:15.180 If you are brand new to Sunday Night Activation, 8 00:00:15.180 --> 00:00:17.480 you've never been here before. 9 00:00:17.480 --> 00:00:19.500 Always make sure that if your camera's on, 10 00:00:19.500 --> 00:00:22.380 your clothes are on, because it is a co-ed, 11 00:00:22.380 --> 00:00:24.620 it's a co-ed time together, okay? 12 00:00:24.620 --> 00:00:26.820 And the reason why I announce that is because, 13 00:00:26.820 --> 00:00:28.700 unfortunately in the past, 14 00:00:28.700 --> 00:00:31.340 people have not noticed that their camera was on 15 00:00:31.340 --> 00:00:33.140 and their clothes were off. 16 00:00:33.140 --> 00:00:38.060 So this is not that kind of Zoom, friends, all right? 17 00:00:38.060 --> 00:00:41.340 So let's make sure that we know what's up. 18 00:00:41.340 --> 00:00:44.100 I wanna encourage you always when you come to co-ed events 19 00:00:44.100 --> 00:00:47.680 in last year, single, have your camera on. 20 00:00:47.680 --> 00:00:50.500 Prepare yourself to have your camera on. 21 00:00:50.500 --> 00:00:53.820 And we have those on Fridays, 22 00:00:53.820 --> 00:00:55.900 Faith Friday, prayer at 10 a.m., 23 00:00:55.900 --> 00:00:57.540 Eastern is co-ed, 24 00:00:57.540 --> 00:01:00.260 and then we have Supernatural Saturday at 10 a.m. Eastern, 25 00:01:00.260 --> 00:01:01.720 which is also co-ed. 26 00:01:01.720 --> 00:01:05.660 And then we have this Sunday Night Activation as well. 27 00:01:05.660 --> 00:01:07.700 And then all different types of path sessions 28 00:01:07.700 --> 00:01:09.860 and different things if you're in phase three. 29 00:01:09.860 --> 00:01:12.380 So, but we're talking to all the community here today, 30 00:01:12.380 --> 00:01:15.200 phase one, two, and three, and of course the men's group. 31 00:01:15.200 --> 00:01:18.240 So we're going to have a time together 32 00:01:18.240 --> 00:01:21.240 for Mother's Day tonight. 33 00:01:21.240 --> 00:01:23.620 Happy Mother's Day for all of you that are mothers. 34 00:01:23.620 --> 00:01:25.420 Go ahead and post in the chat. 35 00:01:25.940 --> 00:01:26.860 We honor you. 36 00:01:26.860 --> 00:01:29.580 We're thankful for all of you ladies 37 00:01:29.580 --> 00:01:31.580 that maybe you haven't given birth to a child, 38 00:01:31.580 --> 00:01:32.900 but you fostered a child, 39 00:01:32.900 --> 00:01:37.420 or your former husband had children that you helped raise, 40 00:01:37.420 --> 00:01:41.620 or you just have been a mentor and a mother figure 41 00:01:41.620 --> 00:01:43.100 in someone's life, 42 00:01:43.100 --> 00:01:46.200 and we wanna include you in honoring you today. 43 00:01:46.200 --> 00:01:48.180 There's an old saying that says, 44 00:01:48.180 --> 00:01:51.940 the hand that rocks the cradle rules the world. 45 00:01:51.940 --> 00:01:53.540 And I believe that that is just speaking 46 00:01:53.580 --> 00:01:56.060 to how influential mothers are. 47 00:01:56.060 --> 00:01:59.020 And the mother relationship in our lives 48 00:01:59.020 --> 00:02:02.220 is kind of a make it or break it relationship, right? 49 00:02:02.220 --> 00:02:04.020 If you had a good mom, 50 00:02:04.020 --> 00:02:06.580 and I say that relatively, right? 51 00:02:06.580 --> 00:02:09.180 Because people try their best. 52 00:02:09.180 --> 00:02:10.900 But if you had someone who really nurtured you 53 00:02:10.900 --> 00:02:12.140 and helped you and supported you, 54 00:02:12.140 --> 00:02:16.340 then you might feel a lot more able to deal with life 55 00:02:16.340 --> 00:02:19.620 and a lot like you have the tools and resources 56 00:02:19.620 --> 00:02:22.340 that you need to be successful in life, right? 57 00:02:22.340 --> 00:02:24.580 And if you didn't, if you were like me, 58 00:02:24.580 --> 00:02:27.660 and you were raised by someone who was very broken, 59 00:02:27.660 --> 00:02:29.940 and once again, trying their best 60 00:02:29.940 --> 00:02:31.900 with the information that they have, 61 00:02:31.900 --> 00:02:34.340 but it just is very lacking in helping you 62 00:02:34.340 --> 00:02:36.180 to become who you need to be, 63 00:02:36.180 --> 00:02:38.580 and in some ways, even abusive. 64 00:02:38.580 --> 00:02:42.100 Some of you on here have experienced abuse and neglect 65 00:02:42.100 --> 00:02:45.060 at abusive levels, neglected abusive levels. 66 00:02:45.060 --> 00:02:46.980 And we're gonna deal with that tonight. 67 00:02:46.980 --> 00:02:49.240 We're gonna talk about that tonight. 68 00:02:49.240 --> 00:02:50.440 Really not talk about it, 69 00:02:50.440 --> 00:02:53.000 but we're going to process it together. 70 00:02:53.000 --> 00:02:54.720 And then at the end, we're gonna have a time 71 00:02:54.720 --> 00:02:57.680 where Renee's gonna lead you in writing a couple letters. 72 00:02:57.680 --> 00:02:59.960 And so get prepared for that. 73 00:02:59.960 --> 00:03:01.920 She'll give you a couple minutes to go get what you need 74 00:03:01.920 --> 00:03:03.440 when it's time to do that. 75 00:03:03.440 --> 00:03:05.960 But I have done what is called the mother's blessing 76 00:03:05.960 --> 00:03:07.720 for many years now. 77 00:03:07.720 --> 00:03:09.280 And I'm gonna do that with you tonight. 78 00:03:09.280 --> 00:03:11.400 Now, when Father's Day rolls around next month, 79 00:03:11.400 --> 00:03:14.680 we're gonna do this exact same thing on Father's Day Sunday. 80 00:03:15.680 --> 00:03:18.760 We're not leaving out the truth 81 00:03:18.760 --> 00:03:22.660 that fathers are very influential in our lives as well, 82 00:03:22.660 --> 00:03:24.320 but we're just gonna deal with moms tonight 83 00:03:24.320 --> 00:03:25.840 because it's Mother's Day. 84 00:03:25.840 --> 00:03:28.680 So for those of you that are mothers, we honor you. 85 00:03:28.680 --> 00:03:30.940 You may not even feel like you did that great of a job, 86 00:03:30.940 --> 00:03:34.400 and we're going to, once again, process all of that tonight 87 00:03:34.400 --> 00:03:35.220 so that, why? 88 00:03:35.220 --> 00:03:36.960 You can get free, that's why. 89 00:03:36.960 --> 00:03:38.540 It's time to be free. 90 00:03:38.540 --> 00:03:39.380 It is. 91 00:03:39.380 --> 00:03:41.480 My mother is spending her fourth Mother's Day in heaven, 92 00:03:41.480 --> 00:03:44.440 and I'm so thankful for the last four years of her life 93 00:03:45.200 --> 00:03:46.200 that I got to spend time with her 94 00:03:46.200 --> 00:03:47.480 and do her heart work with her 95 00:03:47.480 --> 00:03:48.920 and really get to know her 96 00:03:48.920 --> 00:03:52.200 and really get to understand the why behind the what. 97 00:03:52.200 --> 00:03:53.440 If I hadn't had that time 98 00:03:53.440 --> 00:03:54.960 at the end of my mom's life, friends, 99 00:03:54.960 --> 00:03:58.320 I probably, when she passed away and went to heaven 100 00:03:58.320 --> 00:04:01.560 because she was very sick with disease and disease 101 00:04:01.560 --> 00:04:04.800 in her body, and she passed away, in my opinion, 102 00:04:04.800 --> 00:04:07.180 very prematurely at 62 years old. 103 00:04:07.180 --> 00:04:09.440 And had I not had those last four years, 104 00:04:09.440 --> 00:04:11.420 if God had not gifted that to me, 105 00:04:11.420 --> 00:04:13.560 and I prayed for years for it, 106 00:04:13.560 --> 00:04:15.200 God told me that it was going to come someday. 107 00:04:15.200 --> 00:04:16.399 He said, someday you and your mom 108 00:04:16.399 --> 00:04:17.600 are going to be like true sisters, 109 00:04:17.600 --> 00:04:18.959 and I just kind of laughed. 110 00:04:20.120 --> 00:04:21.320 But I believed it, right? 111 00:04:21.320 --> 00:04:23.640 I laughed because it's just so far-fetched, 112 00:04:23.640 --> 00:04:25.960 but at the same time, weirder things have happened. 113 00:04:25.960 --> 00:04:28.580 Okay, so God, I will partner with you 114 00:04:28.580 --> 00:04:30.640 if this is what you say you want to do. 115 00:04:30.640 --> 00:04:33.320 My mom couldn't even be in the same room with me 116 00:04:33.320 --> 00:04:37.720 without, in some way, trying to injure me, 117 00:04:37.720 --> 00:04:39.480 verbally, emotionally. 118 00:04:39.480 --> 00:04:41.920 I had been through so much pain and heartache 119 00:04:42.360 --> 00:04:44.480 really hadn't been raised by my mother 120 00:04:44.480 --> 00:04:46.840 after the age of 13, 14 years old. 121 00:04:46.840 --> 00:04:51.840 And before that, of course, not in a good place 122 00:04:52.120 --> 00:04:55.040 and not in a safe place with her. 123 00:04:55.040 --> 00:05:00.040 And so those last four years of being able to get vulnerable 124 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:04.040 and open, and for her to be vulnerable and open with me, and for me to really just get 125 00:05:04.040 --> 00:05:08.320 to know this woman who God knit me together in the womb of. 126 00:05:08.320 --> 00:05:10.600 It was just a phenomenal opportunity. 127 00:05:10.600 --> 00:05:15.280 I know that not everybody gets it, but if your mother has gone on to heaven, you can 128 00:05:15.280 --> 00:05:20.040 still process this tonight, whether she was the greatest mother in the world or whether 129 00:05:20.040 --> 00:05:25.440 a cat's a better mother than your mother was to you when she was on earth, you still can 130 00:05:25.440 --> 00:05:27.540 process that tonight. 131 00:05:27.540 --> 00:05:28.540 You can. 132 00:05:28.540 --> 00:05:31.880 You're free, and you can bless, and you can be blessed. 133 00:05:31.880 --> 00:05:36.800 So we're not only going to do some processing of repenting and also confessing and forgiving 134 00:05:36.800 --> 00:05:37.800 here. 135 00:05:37.800 --> 00:05:40.920 We're also going to do some blessing, and then we're going to do that letter writing 136 00:05:40.920 --> 00:05:41.920 here at the end. 137 00:05:41.920 --> 00:05:42.920 Sound good? 138 00:05:42.920 --> 00:05:44.120 So Father God, we thank you for your goodness. 139 00:05:44.120 --> 00:05:45.880 We thank you for mothers. 140 00:05:45.880 --> 00:05:46.880 Mothers were your idea. 141 00:05:46.880 --> 00:05:52.280 We thank you, God, that you planned for us to have mothers and fathers, and we thank 142 00:05:52.280 --> 00:05:57.200 you, Lord, that you have created family and all that you ever wanted was a family. 143 00:05:57.220 --> 00:06:00.140 And so it doesn't matter what type of family that we've come from. 144 00:06:00.140 --> 00:06:03.900 All that matters is the family that we're going to build with our spirit mates, the 145 00:06:03.900 --> 00:06:09.340 lineage and legacy that is going to go forward out of us, and that whatever has run in our 146 00:06:09.340 --> 00:06:12.340 family can run out with us as far as the negative things. 147 00:06:12.340 --> 00:06:14.540 And so, Lord, we thank you for those truths. 148 00:06:14.540 --> 00:06:16.300 We thank you for those revelations. 149 00:06:16.300 --> 00:06:22.380 We ask that you would allow any pain, any unforgiveness, any bitterness, anything that 150 00:06:22.380 --> 00:06:27.320 we're still holding on to against ourselves as mothers or against the people that we called 151 00:06:27.320 --> 00:06:33.080 our mothers, then we ask, God, that you would allow there to be a revealing for healing 152 00:06:33.080 --> 00:06:34.080 tonight. 153 00:06:34.080 --> 00:06:39.040 And that includes all mother figures, coaches and pastors, teachers, anyone in our life 154 00:06:39.040 --> 00:06:44.760 that was a spiritual mother, anybody, Lord, that we might need to release and let go of 155 00:06:44.760 --> 00:06:46.360 the debts that they owe us. 156 00:06:46.360 --> 00:06:51.440 We thank you, Holy Spirit, that you will help us to quickly remember and acknowledge tonight. 157 00:06:51.500 --> 00:06:52.500 In Jesus name. 158 00:06:52.500 --> 00:06:53.500 Amen. 159 00:06:53.500 --> 00:06:54.500 All right. 160 00:06:54.500 --> 00:06:59.540 Now, I want to just say, first off, yeah, there are people that have given it over to 161 00:06:59.540 --> 00:07:03.420 the opposing forces and they're just maliciously hurting other people. 162 00:07:03.420 --> 00:07:11.420 They know that they're hurting other people and it's malicious, but 99.9% of people that 163 00:07:11.420 --> 00:07:14.920 hurt us, they're not trying to be malicious. 164 00:07:14.920 --> 00:07:17.540 They're doing the best with what they have. 165 00:07:17.540 --> 00:07:20.580 All they have is hurt, so all they can give is hurt, right? 166 00:07:20.640 --> 00:07:24.240 All they have is pain, so that's all they can give. 167 00:07:24.240 --> 00:07:27.760 They're living their lives in a fear response and a trauma response, and that's all they 168 00:07:27.760 --> 00:07:29.520 can give back to us. 169 00:07:29.520 --> 00:07:33.400 We have to acknowledge that because if we tell ourselves a different story, oh, they're 170 00:07:33.400 --> 00:07:34.400 just evil. 171 00:07:34.400 --> 00:07:35.400 They're just bad people. 172 00:07:35.400 --> 00:07:37.600 They're just horrible, vindictive people. 173 00:07:37.600 --> 00:07:44.040 If we tell ourselves that story, then it doesn't just make them the villain of the story. 174 00:07:44.040 --> 00:07:47.320 It makes them the premeditated villain, right? 175 00:07:47.320 --> 00:07:50.320 It makes them almost unredeemable in our minds. 176 00:07:51.060 --> 00:07:52.500 They're like the devil incarnate, right? 177 00:07:52.500 --> 00:07:58.060 We can't have that because it's usually not true. 178 00:07:58.060 --> 00:08:00.220 It's usually not true. 179 00:08:00.220 --> 00:08:05.380 The chance that one of the people that you're going to release tonight actually premeditating 180 00:08:05.380 --> 00:08:09.900 your harm is slim to none. 181 00:08:09.900 --> 00:08:12.940 Most people hurt us in an effort to heal themselves. 182 00:08:12.940 --> 00:08:18.940 Most people hurt us because they don't, like I said, have anything else to give but hurt. 183 00:08:18.960 --> 00:08:20.560 That's all they have. 184 00:08:20.560 --> 00:08:24.880 That's how they've learned to interact and have relationship with other people. 185 00:08:24.880 --> 00:08:29.800 I really want you to examine, if you're one of the probably very precious few people in 186 00:08:29.800 --> 00:08:35.360 here that really has told yourself the narrative of they're just plain evil, then I really 187 00:08:35.360 --> 00:08:43.240 want you to release that up to God tonight and to allow him to give you truth, allow 188 00:08:43.240 --> 00:08:46.000 him to give you truth back. 189 00:08:46.060 --> 00:08:51.980 As we process through this repentance, this thing that I call the mother's blessing, as 190 00:08:51.980 --> 00:08:58.980 we process through that and you hear anything that strikes a chord with you, I want you 191 00:08:58.980 --> 00:09:06.340 to write that down and either later today, tonight, as we're writing those letters or 192 00:09:06.340 --> 00:09:16.280 maybe tomorrow, maybe I want you to sit with that and ask God to tell you the truth about 193 00:09:16.280 --> 00:09:17.280 it, right? 194 00:09:17.280 --> 00:09:18.280 You're going to forgive tonight. 195 00:09:18.280 --> 00:09:22.080 You're going to be blessed tonight, but you also need to know the truth. 196 00:09:22.080 --> 00:09:25.760 What is the why behind the what, cool? 197 00:09:25.760 --> 00:09:26.760 What is the why behind the what? 198 00:09:26.760 --> 00:09:29.200 For instance, let me give you an example. 199 00:09:29.200 --> 00:09:32.640 When I was a kid, my mom sent me to this church camp. 200 00:09:32.780 --> 00:09:40.780 I knew that my mom was raised in some sort of very strict religion for the last couple 201 00:09:40.780 --> 00:09:44.260 years that she lived home with her parents. 202 00:09:44.260 --> 00:09:47.120 My grandfather and my grandmother had been addicts. 203 00:09:47.120 --> 00:09:53.860 They had been very abusive people that found religion and found some kind of really strict 204 00:09:53.860 --> 00:09:59.700 religion because a lot of times people that are deep in sin like that, if they do find 205 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:02.140 they find some kind of strict religion, right? 206 00:10:02.140 --> 00:10:05.100 Because they like to, I hate to say it, 207 00:10:05.100 --> 00:10:07.160 but they're already hurting themselves 208 00:10:07.160 --> 00:10:09.380 with drugs and alcohol, and then they find religion 209 00:10:09.380 --> 00:10:11.940 to kind of take over where drugs and alcohol left off 210 00:10:11.940 --> 00:10:13.860 and keep hurting them and condemning them 211 00:10:13.860 --> 00:10:15.460 and constantly putting them in a place 212 00:10:15.460 --> 00:10:17.260 where they're never good enough, right? 213 00:10:17.260 --> 00:10:18.940 And so that happened to my grandparents, 214 00:10:18.940 --> 00:10:20.460 and I believe they truly love the Lord 215 00:10:20.460 --> 00:10:22.420 and they're all in heaven and that's amazing, 216 00:10:22.420 --> 00:10:24.100 but they picked a super strict religion 217 00:10:24.100 --> 00:10:26.180 and in little bits and pieces, 218 00:10:26.180 --> 00:10:28.620 I would hear my mom talk to other people 219 00:10:28.820 --> 00:10:31.180 and I knew that she had come from something 220 00:10:31.180 --> 00:10:33.600 that was super like strictly religious, 221 00:10:33.600 --> 00:10:35.760 but I didn't really know a lot about that. 222 00:10:35.760 --> 00:10:37.980 I never saw my mom being a spiritual person 223 00:10:37.980 --> 00:10:39.020 until the end of her life. 224 00:10:39.020 --> 00:10:40.300 I never saw her pray. 225 00:10:40.300 --> 00:10:43.220 I never saw anything like that until the end of her life. 226 00:10:43.220 --> 00:10:46.780 I did know that my mom had a very complicated relationship 227 00:10:46.780 --> 00:10:49.200 with her parents and also a very complicated relationship 228 00:10:49.200 --> 00:10:50.300 with religion. 229 00:10:50.300 --> 00:10:52.540 Every once in a while, she would drag us to some church 230 00:10:52.540 --> 00:10:55.060 and then after a week or two, we would no longer go there, 231 00:10:55.060 --> 00:10:56.140 but I never knew why. 232 00:10:57.100 --> 00:10:59.020 And then one year out of nowhere, 233 00:10:59.020 --> 00:11:02.300 my mom announced that she was sending me to church camp 234 00:11:02.300 --> 00:11:04.760 and I was like, what, what are we doing? 235 00:11:04.760 --> 00:11:06.700 And not just any kind of church camp, y'all, 236 00:11:06.700 --> 00:11:09.580 the kind of church camp where all the girls at camp 237 00:11:09.580 --> 00:11:11.700 just sit around and watch the boys play sports 238 00:11:11.700 --> 00:11:13.880 in their long dresses and their long hair 239 00:11:13.880 --> 00:11:18.140 that they've never cut and just like Amish people camp 240 00:11:18.140 --> 00:11:19.800 or something, I don't know. 241 00:11:19.800 --> 00:11:23.200 So I obviously had short hair and no dresses. 242 00:11:24.200 --> 00:11:29.200 So I had one dress, maybe two skirts or something 243 00:11:29.680 --> 00:11:32.200 that was purchased for me to go to this camp. 244 00:11:32.200 --> 00:11:34.680 When I say these little girls had like full wardrobes 245 00:11:34.680 --> 00:11:36.200 of dresses, I'm not kidding. 246 00:11:36.200 --> 00:11:38.700 They had a dress for everything at this camp 247 00:11:38.700 --> 00:11:41.080 and during halfway through the day, 248 00:11:41.080 --> 00:11:43.460 before they would go to like a nighttime church service, 249 00:11:43.460 --> 00:11:45.480 they would go in and they would get all dolled up 250 00:11:45.480 --> 00:11:47.480 and they would change into another dress. 251 00:11:47.480 --> 00:11:51.480 And so I was at this camp with like two skirts and a dress 252 00:11:51.480 --> 00:11:53.360 and so I just had to wear the same clothes all week 253 00:11:53.360 --> 00:11:55.040 and I really didn't understand why anyone was doing 254 00:11:55.040 --> 00:11:57.200 what they were doing in the first place. 255 00:11:57.200 --> 00:12:00.880 All right, but I met a girl at this camp 256 00:12:00.880 --> 00:12:02.920 and she was really good friends with this boy 257 00:12:02.920 --> 00:12:05.080 that I thought was cute at this camp 258 00:12:05.080 --> 00:12:09.480 and I invited her to come and stay at my house. 259 00:12:09.480 --> 00:12:11.080 And so I get home from this camp 260 00:12:11.080 --> 00:12:15.240 and I'm about, I don't know, 13, 14 years old. 261 00:12:15.240 --> 00:12:17.520 Yeah, because it's probably my last summer at home. 262 00:12:17.520 --> 00:12:20.560 So I'm right about that age and I invite this girl 263 00:12:21.440 --> 00:12:23.560 and I tell my mom, hey, there's this girl at this camp 264 00:12:23.560 --> 00:12:25.520 you sent me to and I want her to come. 265 00:12:25.520 --> 00:12:26.880 So this girl, when I tell you, 266 00:12:26.880 --> 00:12:31.640 she had hair down to her kneecaps, I'm not kidding. 267 00:12:31.640 --> 00:12:34.240 She had this long blonde hair, 268 00:12:34.240 --> 00:12:36.920 never had been cut down to her kneecaps, 269 00:12:36.920 --> 00:12:38.760 obviously always wore dresses 270 00:12:38.760 --> 00:12:40.800 because that's what this dissemination of Christianity 271 00:12:40.800 --> 00:12:42.440 makes women do, like women aren't allowed 272 00:12:42.440 --> 00:12:43.880 to wear anything but dresses. 273 00:12:43.880 --> 00:12:45.520 And so she shows up at my house. 274 00:12:45.520 --> 00:12:47.340 She lives two hours away from me. 275 00:12:47.340 --> 00:12:50.540 We orchestrated for her to come and visit this weekend. 276 00:12:50.540 --> 00:12:53.180 She shows up at my house and my mother, 277 00:12:54.580 --> 00:12:58.220 I didn't realize this until now, until heartwork, 278 00:12:58.220 --> 00:13:00.220 until I was older and grown up. 279 00:13:00.220 --> 00:13:03.020 This was always just a major trauma for me, you guys, 280 00:13:03.020 --> 00:13:05.220 but I never knew what was behind it. 281 00:13:05.220 --> 00:13:07.980 And this is what I'm hoping for y'all tonight as well. 282 00:13:07.980 --> 00:13:11.820 So my mom just didn't really like this girl 283 00:13:11.820 --> 00:13:12.980 and this girl was really nice. 284 00:13:12.980 --> 00:13:15.020 And I just, I could notice, 285 00:13:15.020 --> 00:13:17.780 because when you live with an abusive parent, 286 00:13:17.780 --> 00:13:20.100 you know when they're triggered. 287 00:13:20.100 --> 00:13:23.060 It's vital to your survival 288 00:13:23.060 --> 00:13:25.540 to know when they're triggered, anyone else? 289 00:13:26.380 --> 00:13:29.140 So you're really in tune to their mood changes, aren't you? 290 00:13:29.140 --> 00:13:31.620 Come on, raise your hand if you had a parent like this, 291 00:13:31.620 --> 00:13:33.780 you're really in tune to what kind of mood they're in 292 00:13:33.780 --> 00:13:36.420 or what they're triggered by or whatever. 293 00:13:36.420 --> 00:13:38.380 And so I noticed that my mom was triggered 294 00:13:38.380 --> 00:13:42.380 by this girl's presence at our house, okay? 295 00:13:42.380 --> 00:13:43.780 But I'm just having fun. 296 00:13:43.780 --> 00:13:45.860 I'm like, man, I'm gonna corrupt this girl. 297 00:13:45.860 --> 00:13:47.940 I'm gonna take her upstairs and put a bunch of makeup on her 298 00:13:47.940 --> 00:13:49.380 or I'm gonna show her how to do her makeup 299 00:13:49.380 --> 00:13:51.820 and I'm gonna like, you know, whatever, 300 00:13:51.820 --> 00:13:55.620 because I thought she looked very plain 301 00:13:55.620 --> 00:13:57.940 and I was like, I wanna give you a makeover. 302 00:13:57.940 --> 00:13:59.300 So I gave her a makeover, 303 00:13:59.300 --> 00:14:01.340 I gave her a pair of my pants to put on, 304 00:14:01.340 --> 00:14:05.300 let's go all wild and crazy, come on, let's do this. 305 00:14:05.300 --> 00:14:07.060 And then we were sitting outside 306 00:14:07.060 --> 00:14:09.420 on the back porch of our house 307 00:14:09.420 --> 00:14:12.140 after we had done all this makeover stuff 308 00:14:12.220 --> 00:14:14.540 and different things, we're sitting out there 309 00:14:14.540 --> 00:14:16.020 and I forget what we were talking about, 310 00:14:16.020 --> 00:14:18.580 we were laughing, we were laughing and laughing 311 00:14:18.580 --> 00:14:22.380 and laughing and laughing out there on the back porch, right? 312 00:14:22.380 --> 00:14:27.380 And my mom came out of that glass porch door so fast, y'all, 313 00:14:28.420 --> 00:14:32.260 like an Olympic athlete, she came out so fast 314 00:14:32.260 --> 00:14:35.460 and she was like, what are y'all laughing about? 315 00:14:35.460 --> 00:14:37.180 She didn't say y'all because she was not, 316 00:14:37.180 --> 00:14:39.380 we were Northern people, but I live in Texas now. 317 00:14:39.380 --> 00:14:40.660 She's like, what are you guys laughing, 318 00:14:40.660 --> 00:14:42.140 what are you girls laughing about? 319 00:14:42.140 --> 00:14:44.500 I mean, just very triggered and you guys, 320 00:14:44.500 --> 00:14:45.340 I was caught off guard 321 00:14:45.340 --> 00:14:46.660 because I'm like, oh my God, what's happening? 322 00:14:46.660 --> 00:14:48.140 What's happening right now? 323 00:14:48.140 --> 00:14:50.900 And we were drinking lemonade summertime, sitting out there, 324 00:14:50.900 --> 00:14:53.740 my mom grabbed my glass of lemonade 325 00:14:53.740 --> 00:14:55.660 that was sitting in front of me 326 00:14:55.660 --> 00:14:57.500 and she threw it in my face 327 00:14:58.700 --> 00:14:59.940 and then she turned around 328 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:05.920 she went back inside. Now, this little girl that I had brought to visit me was horrified. 329 00:15:07.360 --> 00:15:13.280 She went and called her mother, she was crying, she wanted to go home, you know, it was just like, 330 00:15:13.280 --> 00:15:16.320 it was horrible. Because remember, I told you, she was friends with a little boy that I liked. 331 00:15:16.320 --> 00:15:20.720 So I was just like, Oh, no, she's gonna tell him that, you know, my family is crazy. I always 332 00:15:20.720 --> 00:15:26.480 really tried to hide the fact that my family was crazy. And so it was just it was it was crazy, 333 00:15:26.480 --> 00:15:31.760 y'all. And for the longest time, you guys in that that lemonade, it went all over me, 334 00:15:31.760 --> 00:15:37.200 it was all in my face, it was all in my hair. And of course, I have no idea what I have done wrong, 335 00:15:37.840 --> 00:15:46.000 which is a lot of my life. And that that lemonade bleached my hair blonde. It did that it bleached 336 00:15:46.000 --> 00:15:53.040 my hair blonde, I had a big blonde streak in my hair from that lemonade. And when I grew up, 337 00:15:53.920 --> 00:15:57.520 right, and when I started doing hard work, like y'all are gonna do this tonight, you're gonna 338 00:15:57.520 --> 00:16:02.720 forgive and God's gonna begin to speak to you about traumas and the why behind those traumas. 339 00:16:02.720 --> 00:16:08.560 But here's the why behind that day. Right? As I got to know my mom before she went to heaven, 340 00:16:08.560 --> 00:16:15.680 my mom was so traumatized by her upbringing by that denomination of religion, and by the people 341 00:16:15.680 --> 00:16:21.040 that were involved in that denomination, very judgmental, very critical, very hypocritical, 342 00:16:21.040 --> 00:16:28.000 you know, type of situation. And she was bullied really badly by that denomination as well. And 343 00:16:28.000 --> 00:16:32.640 that's why when she turned 18, she got away from her parents. And she never turned back around 344 00:16:32.640 --> 00:16:37.440 towards that type of church. And yet somehow I ended up at a camp like that, right? So it's just 345 00:16:37.440 --> 00:16:44.480 like, why? But when that girl and I were out on that back porch laughing like that, my mom was 346 00:16:44.480 --> 00:16:51.520 triggered into believing that we were making fun of her and laughing at her. Because girls that 347 00:16:51.520 --> 00:16:58.240 look like that, that's under her in the past, right? Because she never she never belonged. 348 00:16:58.240 --> 00:17:02.640 Her parents were alcoholics that went to church and everyone else was, you know, 349 00:17:03.440 --> 00:17:06.800 born and raised in that. And we're three, four. 350 00:17:14.240 --> 00:17:20.400 So that girl showing up at our house looking like she did was just a massive trigger for my mom of 351 00:17:20.400 --> 00:17:25.119 all kinds of unhealed trauma. But you guys, I could have never gotten that revelation, 352 00:17:25.119 --> 00:17:30.720 and so much freedom from that revelation, without doing hard work. Powerful, right? 353 00:17:31.360 --> 00:17:35.600 Had nothing to do with me. And you guys, so often the things that happen to us, 354 00:17:35.600 --> 00:17:39.600 you know, that other people say to us or do to us, especially our mothers, because that's what 355 00:17:39.600 --> 00:17:43.680 we're talking about tonight. We're not talking about anybody else. It didn't have anything to 356 00:17:43.680 --> 00:17:50.160 do with you. It didn't. It was unhealed pain in their own hearts. And so I'm going to go ahead 357 00:17:50.160 --> 00:17:56.960 and speak to you, if you'll give me permission. I want to speak to you as your mother, in her stead, 358 00:17:56.960 --> 00:18:02.720 in her place. As another woman who has hurt you, your sister, possibly. 359 00:18:04.400 --> 00:18:11.840 Gentleman, possibly your former wife, in her sharp tongue. A daughter, a friend that's a 360 00:18:11.840 --> 00:18:18.080 female. Any female, really, that has hurt you. Because I'm a mother. I'm a sister. I'm a wife. 361 00:18:18.080 --> 00:18:24.400 I'm a daughter. I'm a friend. I'm a teacher. I've been a pastor in the past. A prophet. 362 00:18:25.360 --> 00:18:31.520 All types of different female forms that this trauma has taken on in your life. I can represent 363 00:18:31.520 --> 00:18:37.280 those things to you tonight. And if you allow me to, I will speak in their stead. Because you 364 00:18:37.280 --> 00:18:43.440 may never get the apology from them. They may not even be on this earth anymore. But God wants you 365 00:18:43.440 --> 00:18:48.080 to be able to receive an apology, even if it has never been given to you. And he wants you to be 366 00:18:48.160 --> 00:19:00.160 free. So we acknowledge right now how women, how the damaged and dark feminine, the corrupt feminine, 367 00:19:00.160 --> 00:19:07.520 the counterfeit feminine, has hurt us. But while we acknowledge how the counterfeit feminine, 368 00:19:07.520 --> 00:19:12.400 in all its many forms, and through all the people it's come through in our lives, has hurt us, 369 00:19:12.480 --> 00:19:16.960 we also have to acknowledge that the divine feminine is here to heal us. 370 00:19:19.040 --> 00:19:25.920 Women have hurt us. But guess what? Women will also heal us. Hurt by women, healed by women. 371 00:19:27.120 --> 00:19:31.200 And so gentlemen, you as well, any woman who's hurt your mother, sister, 372 00:19:31.920 --> 00:19:40.320 former wife, girlfriend, daughter, any form of female that has hurt you, 373 00:19:41.040 --> 00:19:48.160 emotionally, y'all, relationally, verbally, financially, doesn't matter, physically, 374 00:19:49.360 --> 00:19:54.160 spiritually, I want you to get into a posture right now where you can really hear from Holy 375 00:19:54.160 --> 00:19:59.840 Spirit. So close your eyes, turn off your camera if you need to. And I've written down 376 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:03.640 Some things and you guys if you don't hear the specific thing that's been done to you 377 00:20:03.720 --> 00:20:06.560 You can go ahead and say it over yourself because it's implied 378 00:20:07.560 --> 00:20:09.560 It's implied tonight 379 00:20:09.600 --> 00:20:11.600 So I want to speak as your mother sister 380 00:20:12.200 --> 00:20:14.200 former wife daughter 381 00:20:14.880 --> 00:20:17.540 friend pastor teacher coach 382 00:20:19.120 --> 00:20:21.120 That hurt you I want to speak 383 00:20:22.200 --> 00:20:25.320 Instead of them tonight and ask you to forgive me for being a bad friend 384 00:20:25.320 --> 00:20:31.560 Forgive me for being jealous of you forgive me for manipulating you 385 00:20:32.920 --> 00:20:34.920 Forgive me for competing with you 386 00:20:36.480 --> 00:20:40.320 Forgive me for abandoning you and that includes dying prematurely 387 00:20:41.440 --> 00:20:48.200 I'm sorry. I didn't want to go. I wanted to stay I wanted to raise you, but I couldn't 388 00:20:50.040 --> 00:20:52.040 Forgive me for leaving you 389 00:20:52.640 --> 00:20:56.280 Forgive me for putting you last on my list of important things 390 00:20:57.640 --> 00:21:00.360 We're not seeing your importance. We're not seeing your value 391 00:21:01.640 --> 00:21:03.680 Forgive me for not being able to attach 392 00:21:04.800 --> 00:21:09.960 Forgive me for not being able to let you in and to be vulnerable with you or to love you the way that you needed 393 00:21:09.960 --> 00:21:11.960 to be loved I 394 00:21:12.720 --> 00:21:14.720 Didn't protect you forgive me 395 00:21:16.360 --> 00:21:18.360 Forgive me for not affirming you 396 00:21:19.880 --> 00:21:21.880 For not seeing what you needed 397 00:21:22.040 --> 00:21:24.040 For not helping you when you needed me most 398 00:21:25.120 --> 00:21:29.000 Forgive me for abandoning you or disappearing when you needed me most 399 00:21:30.840 --> 00:21:32.840 Forgive me for not supporting you 400 00:21:33.800 --> 00:21:39.960 For not showing up for your special events in life your wedding graduation any sporting events 401 00:21:41.400 --> 00:21:45.160 For not treating you like you were an important part of my life 402 00:21:47.320 --> 00:21:50.680 Forgive me for criticizing you for blaming you 403 00:21:52.080 --> 00:21:54.080 For cursing you or cussing you 404 00:21:56.520 --> 00:21:59.800 Forgive me for verbal of verbally abusing you in any form 405 00:22:01.640 --> 00:22:06.080 Forgive me for financially abusing you ruining your credit 406 00:22:07.800 --> 00:22:09.800 Causing you to have to 407 00:22:11.080 --> 00:22:13.080 Declare bankruptcy 408 00:22:14.000 --> 00:22:19.240 For not appreciating the things that you gave me and ruining those things 409 00:22:19.960 --> 00:22:23.600 Destroying opportunities for you because of my addictions 410 00:22:24.960 --> 00:22:26.960 Because of my behavior 411 00:22:27.560 --> 00:22:31.000 Alienating you from family and friends from co-workers 412 00:22:32.320 --> 00:22:34.320 all the emotional abuse 413 00:22:35.800 --> 00:22:38.800 Treating you like you're we're never good enough. I 414 00:22:39.360 --> 00:22:43.980 Was never happy with you. You could never do anything to please me 415 00:22:44.800 --> 00:22:48.960 Forgive me. It wasn't you it wasn't your fault. You were enough 416 00:22:49.760 --> 00:22:51.760 I was just empty. I 417 00:22:52.040 --> 00:22:57.720 Had to find something to blame it on and it was easy to blame it on you because you were right there 418 00:23:00.160 --> 00:23:03.080 Forgive me for never touching you for never hugging you 419 00:23:04.400 --> 00:23:06.400 or forgive me for 420 00:23:07.320 --> 00:23:10.400 Physically abusing you sexually abusing you 421 00:23:14.480 --> 00:23:17.800 Forgiving me forgive me for stealing your friends or your husband 422 00:23:20.240 --> 00:23:21.560 You 423 00:23:21.560 --> 00:23:26.040 Stealing all the attention putting it all on me. It was always all about me all the time 424 00:23:27.080 --> 00:23:30.280 And I'm really feeling right now that there's some sibling rivalry that 425 00:23:31.240 --> 00:23:33.600 Whether you're a man or a woman your sister 426 00:23:35.920 --> 00:23:37.920 Always soaking up all the attention 427 00:23:39.280 --> 00:23:44.000 Had a best friend that wanted all the attention you had a mother that always wanted all the attention 428 00:23:44.000 --> 00:23:46.600 It was always about them and their addiction or their problems 429 00:23:47.200 --> 00:23:49.200 Right now forgive them 430 00:23:50.240 --> 00:23:52.240 You 431 00:23:58.760 --> 00:24:04.440 You might be the villain of the story you might be the villain of your own story this might be you 432 00:24:05.520 --> 00:24:08.760 That some of these things apply to and you can forgive yourself 433 00:24:11.640 --> 00:24:13.640 You can forgive yourself tonight 434 00:24:15.080 --> 00:24:17.080 Forgive me for not protecting you 435 00:24:18.080 --> 00:24:21.320 From my abusive husband 436 00:24:24.520 --> 00:24:26.520 For letting him hurt you 437 00:24:27.200 --> 00:24:34.360 Or letting your father hurt you verbally sexually physically mentally emotionally spiritually 438 00:24:36.360 --> 00:24:38.360 Financially 439 00:24:38.840 --> 00:24:40.840 You 440 00:24:43.440 --> 00:24:48.440 Forgive me for alienating you forgive me for lying about you and turning people against you 441 00:24:58.160 --> 00:25:00.160 Some of you need to sit in that first 442 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:01.900 Second, some other things are coming up 443 00:25:01.900 --> 00:25:03.160 in your hearts right now. 444 00:25:08.500 --> 00:25:10.260 Whether this person that has hurt you this way 445 00:25:10.260 --> 00:25:13.160 is alive or not alive, it's time to release them. 446 00:25:22.700 --> 00:25:24.700 I feel like someone had a female business partner 447 00:25:24.700 --> 00:25:26.400 that really did you wrong. 448 00:25:26.400 --> 00:25:30.300 They didn't set out to do it, but it happened, 449 00:25:30.300 --> 00:25:33.300 and they did you dirty. 450 00:25:33.300 --> 00:25:38.340 You didn't get back your investment. 451 00:25:38.340 --> 00:25:40.940 I feel like they either sold clients or customers, 452 00:25:40.940 --> 00:25:44.160 whether it was someone that you were in a actual startup 453 00:25:44.160 --> 00:25:47.440 business with or some sort of established business, 454 00:25:47.440 --> 00:25:54.040 like real estate or investment of some sort, store. 455 00:25:54.040 --> 00:25:55.000 It's time to forgive. 456 00:25:56.640 --> 00:25:58.500 That's not the last thing that you're ever going to do. 457 00:25:58.500 --> 00:26:00.060 God's going to bless you, but you 458 00:26:00.060 --> 00:26:02.760 have to let go of the people that have wronged you. 459 00:26:13.360 --> 00:26:15.560 Yes, just waiting on Holy Spirit. 460 00:26:15.560 --> 00:26:16.300 We're just waiting. 461 00:26:26.400 --> 00:26:29.640 Some of you come from a culture where women are just 462 00:26:29.640 --> 00:26:32.460 very catty to each other, where you can't trust them. 463 00:26:32.460 --> 00:26:35.500 Females are not to be trusted. 464 00:26:35.500 --> 00:26:37.940 God wants you to release that stereotype in your heart 465 00:26:37.940 --> 00:26:40.200 right now. 466 00:26:40.200 --> 00:26:43.740 He wants to bring some ride-or-die females 467 00:26:43.740 --> 00:26:47.660 into your life that will be your biggest support 468 00:26:47.660 --> 00:26:52.040 system, who you can trust. 469 00:26:52.040 --> 00:26:54.460 You don't ever have to worry about them betraying you. 470 00:26:57.400 --> 00:27:00.100 But you have to let go of that prejudice 471 00:27:00.100 --> 00:27:01.260 that you have against females. 472 00:27:01.260 --> 00:27:02.940 You have to let go of it. 473 00:27:02.940 --> 00:27:05.340 Gentlemen, that goes for you as well. 474 00:27:05.340 --> 00:27:09.660 All women can't be trusted once a few hurt us. 475 00:27:09.660 --> 00:27:10.940 It's time to let that go. 476 00:27:14.840 --> 00:27:17.860 I see tears happening, lots of people 477 00:27:17.860 --> 00:27:19.400 getting set free right now. 478 00:27:22.700 --> 00:27:24.660 There are lots of things that I didn't mention. 479 00:27:24.720 --> 00:27:28.320 So if there is one that I didn't mention that specifically you 480 00:27:28.320 --> 00:27:30.000 are getting free from right now that God 481 00:27:30.000 --> 00:27:32.600 is bringing to your heart, go ahead and put it in the chat 482 00:27:32.600 --> 00:27:35.200 so that someone else can read it and get free from it as well. 483 00:27:35.200 --> 00:27:37.120 You don't have to put up the story, 484 00:27:37.120 --> 00:27:42.400 just getting free from the betrayal from this 485 00:27:42.400 --> 00:27:44.760 or whatever it was that happened. 486 00:27:44.760 --> 00:27:48.560 The female doctor who misdiagnosed you 487 00:27:48.560 --> 00:27:52.560 or malpracticed on you, the female driver, 488 00:27:52.620 --> 00:27:58.820 the female drunk driver that took the life of your child, 489 00:27:58.820 --> 00:27:59.900 so many things. 490 00:28:15.220 --> 00:28:18.020 Turned your father against you. 491 00:28:18.020 --> 00:28:20.220 Not only don't you have a relationship with your mother, 492 00:28:20.220 --> 00:28:21.620 but your father won't speak to you 493 00:28:21.680 --> 00:28:24.080 either because he doesn't want to set her off. 494 00:28:24.080 --> 00:28:26.680 He wants to keep the peace, so you lost your father as well. 495 00:28:35.160 --> 00:28:38.180 And I believe that there will be more coming up in your hearts 496 00:28:38.180 --> 00:28:40.880 as you go forward into tonight to write those letters. 497 00:28:40.880 --> 00:28:44.880 And as this healing just continues 498 00:28:44.880 --> 00:28:46.440 to gain ground in your heart, I think 499 00:28:46.440 --> 00:28:48.280 that the Holy Spirit will bring more things 500 00:28:48.280 --> 00:28:49.320 to your conscious mind. 501 00:28:52.120 --> 00:28:54.920 All the verbal abuse of being told that you're not enough 502 00:28:54.920 --> 00:28:58.120 or that you're too much, that you're stupid, 503 00:28:58.120 --> 00:29:01.920 that you're ugly, that you're fat, that you're clumsy, 504 00:29:01.920 --> 00:29:06.520 that you're lazy, that you'll never amount to anything. 505 00:29:06.520 --> 00:29:08.320 All the curses that have come out 506 00:29:08.320 --> 00:29:14.520 of a female person's mouth, a mother, a sister, a friend, 507 00:29:14.520 --> 00:29:18.320 a teacher, a coach, all of those things 508 00:29:19.220 --> 00:29:22.220 that have come out of a female person's mouth. 509 00:29:22.220 --> 00:29:28.220 All the judgment that has come against you 510 00:29:28.220 --> 00:29:34.420 from any type of woman judging you in any way, 511 00:29:34.420 --> 00:29:35.420 releasing that. 512 00:29:35.420 --> 00:29:40.220 All the bullying in school, kids that made up rumors about you, 513 00:29:40.220 --> 00:29:44.020 lied about you, bullied you, made fun of you, 514 00:29:44.620 --> 00:29:47.920 bullied you, made fun of you, sabotaged you. 515 00:29:57.120 --> 00:29:58.420 Yes, we release them. 516 00:29:58.420 --> 00:29:59.620 We release them right now. 517 00:29:59.620 --> 00:30:00.320 We release them. 518 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:05.560 We receive this forgiveness as if it's coming from their own mouths. 519 00:30:05.560 --> 00:30:06.560 We receive it. 520 00:30:06.560 --> 00:30:09.480 I want you to picture them saying they're sorry. 521 00:30:09.480 --> 00:30:14.280 I want you to picture them asking me to forgive them. 522 00:30:14.280 --> 00:30:15.560 God's asking you to forgive them. 523 00:30:15.560 --> 00:30:17.640 I want you to picture that happening right now. 524 00:30:30.000 --> 00:30:42.000 Gentlemen, having former girlfriends or friends that sabotage your relationships or made up 525 00:30:42.000 --> 00:30:47.280 stories about you or accuse you of something that you didn't do, even something sexual 526 00:30:47.280 --> 00:30:56.440 perhaps that maybe even got you in trouble, all out of jealousy or competition or anger 527 00:30:56.440 --> 00:31:05.600 because of rejection, all the things. 528 00:31:05.600 --> 00:31:09.040 Oftentimes we become the woman that we needed in our lives, ladies. 529 00:31:09.040 --> 00:31:11.200 We become the mother that we needed. 530 00:31:11.200 --> 00:31:16.720 And so some of you are guilty of having codependency and enabling your children and it's hurting 531 00:31:16.720 --> 00:31:17.720 them. 532 00:31:17.720 --> 00:31:18.720 It's not helping them. 533 00:31:18.720 --> 00:31:23.440 You had such an abusive mother figure, whether it's a grandma or an aunt, doesn't matter 534 00:31:23.560 --> 00:31:28.600 who it was that raised you, that you decided you were going to become mother of the year, 535 00:31:28.600 --> 00:31:30.520 mother of the century. 536 00:31:30.520 --> 00:31:34.960 And what that looked like to you is being the mother that you thought you needed, creating 537 00:31:34.960 --> 00:31:37.360 codependency with your children. 538 00:31:37.360 --> 00:31:40.560 They aren't able to do things on their own because you never allowed them to grow up 539 00:31:40.560 --> 00:31:41.960 and do things for themselves. 540 00:31:41.960 --> 00:31:44.600 You enabled their bad behavior and now it's time to repent. 541 00:31:53.440 --> 00:32:02.200 Yes, it's another good one. 542 00:32:02.200 --> 00:32:06.160 Any female voices that accused you of things that you weren't doing, that you didn't do, 543 00:32:06.160 --> 00:32:12.280 that you had never done, but always accusing you of, you know, doing something dishonest 544 00:32:12.280 --> 00:32:22.920 or doing something immoral, being someone who is not doing what you're supposed to do, 545 00:32:22.920 --> 00:32:27.760 any kind of religious voices that have come through women always condemning you and always 546 00:32:27.760 --> 00:32:33.040 acting like God was condemning you and speaking curses over you that were supposedly from 547 00:32:33.040 --> 00:32:35.040 God. 548 00:32:35.040 --> 00:32:40.240 We're releasing all of that tonight. 549 00:32:40.240 --> 00:32:42.680 So now I want to get you guys headed towards your letters. 550 00:32:42.680 --> 00:32:47.920 I feel like some more is going to come out as you guys do that, but I want to bless you 551 00:32:47.920 --> 00:32:48.920 now. 552 00:32:48.920 --> 00:32:54.600 We've created some space as you're forgiving, as you're releasing for some blessings, and 553 00:32:54.600 --> 00:32:56.160 I want to give you the blessings. 554 00:32:56.160 --> 00:32:59.840 The Bible says that death and life are in the power of the tongue and they that love 555 00:32:59.840 --> 00:33:00.840 it will eat its fruits. 556 00:33:00.840 --> 00:33:02.480 And I just want to bless you. 557 00:33:02.480 --> 00:33:03.680 I want to use my mouth. 558 00:33:03.680 --> 00:33:05.520 I want to use my words. 559 00:33:05.520 --> 00:33:10.320 Words are power containers to release over you good health. 560 00:33:10.320 --> 00:33:13.160 I want to release over you wealth and prosperity. 561 00:33:13.160 --> 00:33:17.760 I want to release over you that everything that you touch prospers, that you prosper 562 00:33:17.760 --> 00:33:19.880 even as your soul prospers. 563 00:33:19.880 --> 00:33:27.120 All the words that you long to hear from a mother figure in your life, that you are, 564 00:33:27.120 --> 00:33:30.400 that you are talented, that you are smart, that you are good, that you are able to do 565 00:33:30.400 --> 00:33:33.720 anything that you set your mind to do. 566 00:33:33.720 --> 00:33:39.280 I just want to declare over you that you are healthy emotionally and mentally, that you're 567 00:33:39.280 --> 00:33:44.560 free from all dis-ease and disease, any fear, anxiety, depression, anything that would try 568 00:33:44.560 --> 00:33:50.880 to befall or beset you that is not from heaven or heaven's portion for you, that you are 569 00:33:50.880 --> 00:33:56.960 free from those things, that you are able to do the things that you've been created 570 00:33:56.960 --> 00:34:01.400 to do, that you have every resource, that you feel supported and loved because you are 571 00:34:01.400 --> 00:34:02.400 loved. 572 00:34:02.400 --> 00:34:08.400 I want to tell you that I love you and that you're good, that God loves you, that Jesus 573 00:34:08.400 --> 00:34:13.520 died for you and as you, and you no longer have to lay in the bed of the decisions that 574 00:34:13.520 --> 00:34:19.840 you've made that are not worthy of you, but you can lay in the bed that Jesus made at 575 00:34:19.840 --> 00:34:25.520 the finished work of the cross, that his arms are always open, that he is always available 576 00:34:25.520 --> 00:34:32.080 and anything that you've committed to him, he will not let go of until his return, that 577 00:34:32.080 --> 00:34:37.360 God is for you, that life is for you, life is for you. 578 00:34:37.360 --> 00:34:39.360 God wants good things for you. 579 00:34:39.360 --> 00:34:46.000 He's created you to have a good life, an abundant life, an overflowing life and I bless you 580 00:34:46.000 --> 00:34:47.199 with that right now. 581 00:34:47.199 --> 00:34:53.880 I bless your future relationships and marriages, your lineage and your legacy, the fruit of 582 00:34:53.880 --> 00:35:00.000 your womb, your children and your children's children's children's children will 583 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:01.680 call you blessed. 584 00:35:03.320 --> 00:35:05.000 They will call you blessed, 585 00:35:05.000 --> 00:35:06.960 that you are a kinsman redeemer, 586 00:35:06.960 --> 00:35:09.720 that you are a restorer of paths to dwell in, 587 00:35:09.720 --> 00:35:11.360 you're a repairer of the breach. 588 00:35:12.880 --> 00:35:16.080 Yes, I bless you, I bless you. 589 00:35:16.080 --> 00:35:20.400 I bless you with being able to hear the voice of the Lord 590 00:35:20.400 --> 00:35:21.840 like you never have before, 591 00:35:21.840 --> 00:35:25.480 and being able to receive his love. 592 00:35:25.480 --> 00:35:29.200 Let your roots go deep, deep, deep down into his love, 593 00:35:29.320 --> 00:35:31.960 and anything and everything that has been blocking you 594 00:35:31.960 --> 00:35:34.560 from receiving his love is removed. 595 00:35:34.560 --> 00:35:37.160 I bless you, I bless you. 596 00:35:37.160 --> 00:35:38.640 The things that have stalked you, 597 00:35:38.640 --> 00:35:40.240 the things that have hunted you, 598 00:35:40.240 --> 00:35:44.920 the addictions, the problems, the strife, the strongholds, 599 00:35:44.920 --> 00:35:47.240 they are broken in Jesus name. 600 00:35:48.200 --> 00:35:51.480 The anointing of the mother, 601 00:35:51.480 --> 00:35:55.440 the anointing of a mother, the nurture, the caring, 602 00:35:55.440 --> 00:35:58.880 the extension of heaven breaks the yoke. 603 00:35:59.880 --> 00:36:00.720 Be free. 604 00:36:01.720 --> 00:36:06.400 Be free to be who God created you to be in Jesus name. 605 00:36:09.280 --> 00:36:10.600 All right, I love y'all. 606 00:36:12.080 --> 00:36:13.760 I thank God for you. 607 00:36:13.760 --> 00:36:15.800 God has such great and big plans for you 608 00:36:15.800 --> 00:36:20.080 on the other side of releasing and forgiving. 609 00:36:20.080 --> 00:36:25.080 Forgiveness is the pathway to abundance. 610 00:36:25.120 --> 00:36:27.080 And so now Renee is gonna take over 611 00:36:27.080 --> 00:36:29.360 and lead you into writing some letters 612 00:36:29.360 --> 00:36:30.200 because these are not letters 613 00:36:30.200 --> 00:36:32.080 that you ever have to deliver. 614 00:36:32.080 --> 00:36:34.000 You may be led to do something like that, 615 00:36:34.000 --> 00:36:37.720 but these are letters that are supernatural. 616 00:36:37.720 --> 00:36:38.760 And as you write them, 617 00:36:38.760 --> 00:36:41.160 I believe the things that you write will happen. 618 00:36:41.160 --> 00:36:43.320 They will manifest, right? 619 00:36:43.320 --> 00:36:46.880 And so, and I've written these letters myself. 620 00:36:46.880 --> 00:36:47.720 And so you're going, 621 00:36:47.720 --> 00:36:48.880 she's gonna give you instructions 622 00:36:48.880 --> 00:36:51.400 on who all you can write letters to. 623 00:36:51.400 --> 00:36:53.560 You might wanna write even more than one letter. 624 00:36:53.560 --> 00:36:55.600 And so I'm gonna release that to her now. 625 00:36:56.280 --> 00:36:58.400 Awesome, thank you so much, Jackie. 626 00:36:58.400 --> 00:37:01.440 God's blessing on you, mama bear. 627 00:37:01.440 --> 00:37:02.840 Go and have a great night. 628 00:37:02.840 --> 00:37:04.120 All right, before we get into that, 629 00:37:04.120 --> 00:37:07.600 I just, the Lord just gave me just a few verses 630 00:37:07.600 --> 00:37:09.120 that I wanted to read over you, 631 00:37:09.120 --> 00:37:14.120 depending on what season y'all are in right now. 632 00:37:14.440 --> 00:37:16.640 And I am glad that there are men on here too. 633 00:37:16.640 --> 00:37:18.200 So I'm so glad you're here. 634 00:37:18.200 --> 00:37:20.800 I see you, I see you men. 635 00:37:20.840 --> 00:37:23.920 Psalm 55, 22. 636 00:37:23.920 --> 00:37:26.040 Give your burdens to the Lord 637 00:37:26.040 --> 00:37:27.760 and he will take care of you. 638 00:37:27.760 --> 00:37:31.560 He will not permit the godly to slip and to fall. 639 00:37:33.360 --> 00:37:34.600 And I'll put these in the chat 640 00:37:34.600 --> 00:37:36.240 while you guys are journaling. 641 00:37:36.240 --> 00:37:39.320 Psalm 107, 28 to 29. 642 00:37:39.320 --> 00:37:41.720 Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble 643 00:37:41.720 --> 00:37:44.280 and he brought them out of their distress. 644 00:37:44.280 --> 00:37:46.400 He stilled the storm to a whisper 645 00:37:46.400 --> 00:37:48.720 and the waves of the sea were hushed. 646 00:37:51.800 --> 00:37:55.160 Psalm 38, nine. 647 00:37:55.160 --> 00:37:57.260 You know what I long for, Lord. 648 00:37:57.260 --> 00:37:59.240 You hear my every sigh. 649 00:37:59.240 --> 00:38:00.440 Ooh, I love that y'all. 650 00:38:00.440 --> 00:38:03.120 The Lord hears our sigh. 651 00:38:04.040 --> 00:38:06.520 Psalm 103, four to five. 652 00:38:06.520 --> 00:38:08.080 He redeems me from death 653 00:38:08.080 --> 00:38:11.240 and crowns me with love and tender mercies. 654 00:38:11.240 --> 00:38:13.800 He fills my life with good things. 655 00:38:13.800 --> 00:38:17.640 My youth is renewed like the eagles. 656 00:38:17.640 --> 00:38:20.360 Okay, so I'm gonna play some music for you guys 657 00:38:20.800 --> 00:38:25.400 while we journal for the next probably 10 minutes. 658 00:38:25.400 --> 00:38:28.680 I might pray over you while you're doing that. 659 00:38:28.680 --> 00:38:29.600 And here are the people 660 00:38:29.600 --> 00:38:32.600 that you can be writing the letter to. 661 00:38:32.600 --> 00:38:34.860 And it can be a celebratory letter. 662 00:38:34.860 --> 00:38:36.680 So some of you may have just received 663 00:38:36.680 --> 00:38:40.800 this incredible healing for your mom. 664 00:38:40.800 --> 00:38:42.000 And you might be like, 665 00:38:42.000 --> 00:38:43.880 I don't wanna write a forgiveness letter. 666 00:38:43.880 --> 00:38:45.200 Like I just forgave her. 667 00:38:45.200 --> 00:38:46.560 That was amazing. 668 00:38:46.560 --> 00:38:50.120 And so maybe you want to get to write her a letter. 669 00:38:50.880 --> 00:38:52.160 Now that you have a forgiven heart, 670 00:38:52.160 --> 00:38:55.660 like the letter that you wished you could always write her. 671 00:38:56.520 --> 00:38:59.400 Whether her location or geography 672 00:38:59.400 --> 00:39:01.600 is here on this side of the veil 673 00:39:01.600 --> 00:39:02.780 or on the other side of the veil. 674 00:39:02.780 --> 00:39:06.320 So you may feel called to write a letter to your mom, 675 00:39:06.320 --> 00:39:09.000 either a celebratory letter to your mom 676 00:39:09.000 --> 00:39:12.600 or forgiveness to continue this forgiveness posture. 677 00:39:12.600 --> 00:39:16.000 Maybe you need to write a letter to yourself. 678 00:39:16.000 --> 00:39:18.180 Maybe you need to celebrate 679 00:39:18.180 --> 00:39:19.880 that you've been a darn good mom 680 00:39:20.780 --> 00:39:24.520 and you want the father's words to envelop over you 681 00:39:24.520 --> 00:39:27.320 and remind you what a great mom you've been. 682 00:39:27.320 --> 00:39:29.720 I didn't say perfect, but a great mom. 683 00:39:29.720 --> 00:39:32.600 Or maybe you need to forgive yourself 684 00:39:32.600 --> 00:39:34.560 for the mother that you were. 685 00:39:34.560 --> 00:39:37.160 Maybe you have caused some damage 686 00:39:37.160 --> 00:39:40.640 and you're that person and you need to forgive yourself. 687 00:39:40.640 --> 00:39:43.260 Or maybe there are letters to your children 688 00:39:43.260 --> 00:39:46.380 and you need to ask for their forgiveness. 689 00:39:46.380 --> 00:39:48.040 Or you wanna celebrate them 690 00:39:48.040 --> 00:39:49.800 because you get to be their mom 691 00:39:49.800 --> 00:39:53.600 and they've been worried that you think that, 692 00:39:53.600 --> 00:39:56.100 they've been worried that you've been a mom so long 693 00:39:56.100 --> 00:39:59.000 it stopped you from getting to live your dreams. 694 00:39:59.000 --> 00:40:00.240 Men, if you are here. 695 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.580 here, you may need to write a letter to your mom. 696 00:40:04.580 --> 00:40:06.740 And the other thing that just came to me 697 00:40:06.740 --> 00:40:10.140 is you might need to write the letter 698 00:40:10.140 --> 00:40:14.060 to your children's mother, which would be your ex-wife. 699 00:40:14.060 --> 00:40:16.820 And so for some reason, I just felt called 700 00:40:16.820 --> 00:40:17.780 to write that down. 701 00:40:17.780 --> 00:40:20.420 So some of you may need to write a letter 702 00:40:20.420 --> 00:40:22.220 to your children's mother. 703 00:40:22.220 --> 00:40:26.940 So however you feel prompted to whoever you wanna write to, 704 00:40:26.940 --> 00:40:28.820 this is your time now. 705 00:40:29.820 --> 00:40:31.020 Oh, this is not what I wanted. 706 00:40:31.020 --> 00:40:31.860 Hold on, hold on. 707 00:40:31.860 --> 00:40:33.220 That's not the song I wanted. 708 00:40:38.140 --> 00:40:39.900 Apparently you're supposed to listen to Carrie Underwood 709 00:40:39.900 --> 00:40:40.860 for just a moment. 710 00:40:47.420 --> 00:40:48.940 Is there a format for this letter? 711 00:40:48.940 --> 00:40:51.780 Just comes, whatever comes to your mind. 712 00:40:51.780 --> 00:40:54.220 You can write it as a poem. 713 00:40:54.220 --> 00:40:56.140 You can draw. 714 00:40:56.140 --> 00:41:01.140 You can write it as a song, a cry of your heart. 715 00:41:09.300 --> 00:41:10.980 Or if you wanna write to the Lord 716 00:41:10.980 --> 00:41:14.400 or you want the Lord to write to you, that's okay too. 717 00:41:56.140 --> 00:42:01.320 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, 10. 718 00:42:27.140 --> 00:42:29.020 And I am gonna do something at the end, 719 00:42:29.020 --> 00:42:31.540 so don't get off early if you can't. 720 00:42:56.140 --> 00:43:01.140 So, I hope that you enjoyed this video. 721 00:43:01.320 --> 00:43:04.320 If you did, please give it a thumbs up. 722 00:43:04.320 --> 00:43:05.960 And if you have any questions, 723 00:43:05.960 --> 00:43:08.820 please feel free to leave them in the comments. 724 00:43:08.820 --> 00:43:11.300 And I will see you in the next video. 725 00:43:11.300 --> 00:43:12.140 Bye. 726 00:43:12.140 --> 00:43:12.980 Bye. 727 00:43:12.980 --> 00:43:13.800 Bye. 728 00:43:13.800 --> 00:43:14.640 Bye. 729 00:43:14.640 --> 00:43:15.480 Bye. 730 00:43:15.480 --> 00:43:16.300 Bye. 731 00:43:16.300 --> 00:43:17.140 Bye. 732 00:43:17.140 --> 00:43:17.960 Bye. 733 00:43:17.960 --> 00:43:18.800 Bye. 734 00:43:18.800 --> 00:43:19.640 Bye. 735 00:43:19.640 --> 00:43:20.460 Bye. 736 00:43:20.460 --> 00:43:21.300 Bye. 737 00:43:21.300 --> 00:43:22.140 Bye. 738 00:43:22.140 --> 00:43:22.960 Bye. 739 00:43:22.960 --> 00:43:23.800 Bye. 740 00:43:23.800 --> 00:43:24.640 Bye. 741 00:43:24.640 --> 00:43:25.460 Bye. 742 00:43:25.460 --> 00:43:26.340 Bye. 743 00:44:55.460 --> 00:44:56.460 Bye. 744 00:44:56.460 --> 00:44:56.460 745 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.000 You 746 00:45:30.000 --> 00:45:32.000 You 747 00:46:00.000 --> 00:46:02.000 You 748 00:46:30.000 --> 00:46:32.000 You 749 00:47:00.000 --> 00:47:02.000 You 750 00:47:16.280 --> 00:47:20.160 Give a few more minutes and then we're going to do the last 10 minutes together 751 00:47:30.000 --> 00:47:32.960 You 752 00:48:31.000 --> 00:48:35.560 Remember you guys this could have been a celebration letter to it's either to 753 00:48:35.560 --> 00:48:42.000 your mom to yourself or to your children or to your children's mother either 754 00:48:42.000 --> 00:48:47.760 prayer of Thanksgiving a prayer of celebration or prayer forgiveness 755 00:48:47.760 --> 00:48:54.040 forgiveness is for you just like those permission slips back in phase one in 756 00:48:54.040 --> 00:48:59.280 the heart work we talked about forgiving people and releasing them even when they 757 00:48:59.280 --> 00:49:04.240 haven't asked for it or their behavior hasn't changed the forgiveness is for 758 00:49:04.240 --> 00:49:06.440 you 759 00:49:06.440 --> 00:49:29.600 okay we're gonna come back and so somebody put in the post and this is a 760 00:49:29.600 --> 00:49:33.840 really good question how do you write a letter forgiveness when they haven't 761 00:49:33.840 --> 00:49:38.280 deserved it yet well that's the whole point of forgiveness it's really for you 762 00:49:38.280 --> 00:49:46.920 it's releasing the bondage in the hole that it has on you and so I know that's 763 00:49:46.920 --> 00:49:53.720 hard y'all that's hard to do and we all have somebody and you know and here's 764 00:49:53.720 --> 00:49:58.720 the thing y'all Jesus went to the cross and he died for our sins before we asked 765 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.040 our sins to be forgiven. 766 00:50:01.040 --> 00:50:03.560 So Jesus modeled that, right? 767 00:50:03.560 --> 00:50:06.000 Like he bore our sins before we asked for that. 768 00:50:06.000 --> 00:50:08.640 So in the same way we get to do that, 769 00:50:08.640 --> 00:50:11.200 and it's an honor to get to do that. 770 00:50:11.200 --> 00:50:12.900 I'm actually gonna turn my camera on. 771 00:50:12.900 --> 00:50:15.120 I'm sorry that my typing, the verses, 772 00:50:15.120 --> 00:50:16.560 is the noise that y'all are hearing. 773 00:50:16.560 --> 00:50:18.240 I also have chicken in the oven and I'm like, 774 00:50:18.240 --> 00:50:21.520 oh my gosh, can they hear the chicken grilling in the oven? 775 00:50:21.520 --> 00:50:23.660 It's in the other room, it makes no sense. 776 00:50:24.260 --> 00:50:29.260 And so I'm gonna ask a few of you to be brave. 777 00:50:30.820 --> 00:50:34.300 And if you feel like you need to read, 778 00:50:34.300 --> 00:50:35.300 not the whole thing, 779 00:50:35.300 --> 00:50:36.620 cause you just wrote for 10 minutes 780 00:50:36.620 --> 00:50:39.760 and I don't want people to like read a dissertation, 781 00:50:39.760 --> 00:50:43.300 but if there's one paragraph, like four sentences, 782 00:50:43.300 --> 00:50:44.540 like four to five sentence, 783 00:50:44.540 --> 00:50:48.100 one part of your letter that you wanna read out loud, 784 00:50:48.100 --> 00:50:50.260 I want you to have the space to do that. 785 00:50:50.260 --> 00:50:52.820 If you feel like you wanna just go, 786 00:50:52.820 --> 00:50:54.700 if you wanna literally just do this, 787 00:50:54.700 --> 00:50:57.340 if you wanna take the letter and say, 788 00:50:57.340 --> 00:51:00.680 in front of my brothers and sisters, I release you, 789 00:51:01.540 --> 00:51:03.920 and you tear up the letter in front of us 790 00:51:03.920 --> 00:51:07.300 as an act of really releasing it, you can do that too. 791 00:51:07.300 --> 00:51:10.220 So I know a bunch of you might bump in at the same time. 792 00:51:10.220 --> 00:51:11.600 It's okay, just be patient. 793 00:51:11.600 --> 00:51:13.120 So let's take the last 10 minutes. 794 00:51:13.120 --> 00:51:16.180 If you wanna read four or five sentences out loud 795 00:51:16.180 --> 00:51:18.820 as a declaration, or you just wanna say, 796 00:51:18.820 --> 00:51:22.060 I celebrate you mom, I forgive you mom, or I forgive, 797 00:51:22.060 --> 00:51:23.340 and you're talking about yourself 798 00:51:23.340 --> 00:51:24.340 and then tear up the letter. 799 00:51:24.340 --> 00:51:27.340 So go ahead and take the floor to do that. 800 00:51:28.340 --> 00:51:29.300 I'll go. 801 00:51:29.300 --> 00:51:33.220 I forgive you mom for being mentally ill 802 00:51:33.220 --> 00:51:36.180 and committed to a mental institute my entire life 803 00:51:36.180 --> 00:51:37.820 and never being in there for me. 804 00:51:42.880 --> 00:51:43.940 I love that. 805 00:51:43.940 --> 00:51:45.980 I just felt the victory for you, Gwen. 806 00:51:45.980 --> 00:51:47.140 All right, next person. 807 00:51:50.300 --> 00:51:51.140 I'll go. 808 00:51:52.180 --> 00:51:55.380 Thank you God that I get to release my mom to you, 809 00:51:55.380 --> 00:51:56.660 the creator of the universe. 810 00:51:56.660 --> 00:51:57.820 She didn't know better. 811 00:51:57.820 --> 00:52:00.620 She was wounded and traumatized at a young age, 812 00:52:00.620 --> 00:52:03.100 and she was taught to stay silent from her mom. 813 00:52:03.100 --> 00:52:05.900 She never was taught that boundaries are I love you. 814 00:52:10.260 --> 00:52:12.020 Yay, everyone's clapping for you. 815 00:52:12.020 --> 00:52:13.380 Next person, go. 816 00:52:16.140 --> 00:52:17.420 I'll go. 817 00:52:17.420 --> 00:52:20.060 And this was in regards of how Jackie 818 00:52:20.060 --> 00:52:24.300 was asking forgiveness on their behalf. 819 00:52:25.420 --> 00:52:28.060 So I say, hi mom. 820 00:52:28.060 --> 00:52:29.940 I'm so glad I can write you this letter. 821 00:52:29.940 --> 00:52:31.940 Thank you for asking for forgiveness. 822 00:52:31.940 --> 00:52:34.860 Thank you for admitting you left me. 823 00:52:34.860 --> 00:52:39.180 Thank you for admitting that you couldn't handle being a mom. 824 00:52:39.180 --> 00:52:41.820 And it wasn't just because that needed us, 825 00:52:41.820 --> 00:52:46.180 but you didn't have it in you to take care of us. 826 00:52:46.180 --> 00:52:48.940 So I forgive you and I release you. 827 00:52:48.940 --> 00:52:49.780 I love you mom. 828 00:52:50.180 --> 00:52:51.020 I love you. 829 00:52:57.580 --> 00:52:58.820 I love it, next. 830 00:53:15.940 --> 00:53:17.540 I think there's freedom laying, and hey you guys, 831 00:53:17.540 --> 00:53:19.860 if you wanna do a celebration like, I love you mom, 832 00:53:19.860 --> 00:53:20.700 I'm gonna do something too. 833 00:53:20.700 --> 00:53:22.380 So let's get a few more in here. 834 00:53:23.900 --> 00:53:24.740 I'll go. 835 00:53:26.300 --> 00:53:31.300 My forgiveness is to myself for allowing things, 836 00:53:31.660 --> 00:53:35.900 men into the life that were harmful to my own children. 837 00:53:35.900 --> 00:53:39.320 So I just really set forgiveness onto myself 838 00:53:39.320 --> 00:53:42.460 for the things that I did not know at that time. 839 00:53:42.460 --> 00:53:47.180 And I just thank you for helping me see 840 00:53:47.180 --> 00:53:49.420 that I can be forgiven in this too. 841 00:53:49.860 --> 00:53:50.700 Thank you. 842 00:53:58.580 --> 00:53:59.420 I love it. 843 00:53:59.420 --> 00:54:01.260 We don't normally cheer each other on for these prayers. 844 00:54:01.260 --> 00:54:03.220 And I love getting to see everybody's hands clapping. 845 00:54:03.220 --> 00:54:04.220 All right, keep going. 846 00:54:04.220 --> 00:54:06.780 Somebody just grab three or four sentences of it. 847 00:54:06.780 --> 00:54:08.740 You don't have to have the letter fish. 848 00:54:14.860 --> 00:54:16.740 Mom, I thank you for loving me. 849 00:54:16.740 --> 00:54:21.740 And I thank you God that my mom has given me a good life 850 00:54:23.900 --> 00:54:26.340 as a mom, the best the mom that she could be. 851 00:54:26.340 --> 00:54:29.620 And I forgive you mom for the hurtful things 852 00:54:29.620 --> 00:54:30.940 that you've said to me. 853 00:54:30.940 --> 00:54:32.700 Whether you were in your right mind or not, 854 00:54:32.700 --> 00:54:35.220 I forgive you and I love you and I bless you mom. 855 00:54:35.220 --> 00:54:40.220 Yesterday, I bought a card that I wanted to give to my mom. 856 00:54:47.420 --> 00:54:49.860 It's like a bunch of trees 857 00:54:49.860 --> 00:54:54.460 and it says the best moms are patient and nurturing. 858 00:54:54.460 --> 00:54:56.380 And I don't feel like my mom was that. 859 00:54:56.380 --> 00:54:59.660 So I felt like God let me write in the card 860 00:54:59.660 --> 00:55:01.460 and he let me write in the card. 861 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.020 was like speaking towards me. And it says this is the type of 862 00:55:04.020 --> 00:55:07.880 mother I've created you to be your healing and it's not just 863 00:55:07.880 --> 00:55:11.820 for your benefit will but will be healing for many and my heart 864 00:55:11.820 --> 00:55:15.240 towards you is full of compassion. I love you. I will 865 00:55:15.240 --> 00:55:18.360 be patient and nurture you and you will learn from me. 866 00:55:22.080 --> 00:55:25.160 That was amazing. I loved that. I'm sorry, my dog is barking. 867 00:55:30.000 --> 00:55:51.000 So I was compelled to have God right to me. And here's what I 868 00:55:51.000 --> 00:55:56.520 got. Renee, I know it looks like you haven't had a chance to get 869 00:55:56.520 --> 00:56:03.280 to be a mom. But you have been a mom. You have raised and coached 870 00:56:03.280 --> 00:56:07.240 and mentored so many. So do not think your mothering skills went 871 00:56:07.240 --> 00:56:11.840 to waste. And I promise you that your mothering days are not 872 00:56:11.840 --> 00:56:27.920 done. All right, we have room for a couple more, whatever you 873 00:56:27.920 --> 00:56:30.680 want it, whatever you got, you guys, there's there's power and 874 00:56:30.680 --> 00:56:35.920 release. I felt compelled to write to myself to Renee. 875 00:56:37.800 --> 00:56:41.040 Precious Sarah, you're my masterpiece, though misunderstood 876 00:56:41.040 --> 00:56:44.560 often by this world. I see and know you and I honor you. I 877 00:56:44.560 --> 00:56:46.680 paint the skies with stars just for you. 878 00:56:49.400 --> 00:56:52.720 Yes, love it. I love it. Someone else was about to go. So go 879 00:56:52.720 --> 00:56:53.600 ahead. You go. 880 00:56:56.040 --> 00:56:59.240 And I also wrote to myself. Can you hear me? 881 00:57:01.120 --> 00:57:07.000 Yes, go ahead. Okay. And the Lord said to me, and I'm proud of 882 00:57:07.000 --> 00:57:13.960 you for forgiving those that you needed to forgive. Now I desire 883 00:57:13.960 --> 00:57:17.840 you to see me your father, your creator, the one who created you 884 00:57:17.840 --> 00:57:23.080 in the image of myself, your true love, your protector, and 885 00:57:23.080 --> 00:57:26.200 the one that will never ever leave nor forsake you. 886 00:57:28.480 --> 00:57:32.240 And then he said, I sent my son, Jesus Christ, your Messiah, you 887 00:57:32.240 --> 00:57:36.800 took took all these things for you. He washed you clean and set 888 00:57:36.800 --> 00:57:41.080 you free. You can let go and forget the past because I'm your 889 00:57:41.080 --> 00:57:46.280 real past your present and your eternal future. In me is hope, 890 00:57:46.320 --> 00:57:50.800 joy, peace, pure and perfect love, gladness and dancing. 891 00:57:53.640 --> 00:57:58.560 So good. So good. So good. You guys. I know it's hard y'all 892 00:57:58.560 --> 00:58:02.000 Mother's Day is such a complicated holiday, right? It's 893 00:58:02.000 --> 00:58:05.400 like I feel bad for pastors now. Because they're like, let's 894 00:58:05.400 --> 00:58:08.640 celebrate the moms and also the kind of moms, the ones that lost 895 00:58:08.640 --> 00:58:11.240 their moms, the ones that are estranged from their moms, the 896 00:58:11.240 --> 00:58:13.520 ones that aren't good moms, the one that haven't been able to 897 00:58:13.520 --> 00:58:18.400 see their kids. And it's like, Oh my gosh, what's left. And so if 898 00:58:18.440 --> 00:58:22.200 you received amazing blessing tonight, yay, we celebrate that. 899 00:58:22.480 --> 00:58:25.080 If God is still working on you, and you're like, Oh my gosh, I 900 00:58:25.080 --> 00:58:28.520 don't have that victory. That is okay. We're going to trust and 901 00:58:28.520 --> 00:58:31.440 believe that when you put your head down tonight, that you're 902 00:58:31.440 --> 00:58:34.720 going to let the Lord continue to do his work and bring the 903 00:58:34.720 --> 00:58:38.400 celebration, the healing, the forgiveness, whatever it is that 904 00:58:38.400 --> 00:58:41.960 you need. Okay, Jason, I see that you're on this call. I 905 00:58:41.960 --> 00:58:44.800 don't know if you love praying out loud or not. But if you're 906 00:58:44.800 --> 00:58:48.680 still here, would you be willing to close us out in prayer? I 907 00:58:48.680 --> 00:58:51.520 just think there'd be something really tender about a male voice 908 00:58:51.520 --> 00:58:57.560 kind of closing us out for the night, if you'd be willing. Is 909 00:58:57.560 --> 00:58:58.360 he still here? 910 00:58:58.840 --> 00:59:00.440 Yeah, I'm here. Sorry. We're trying to 911 00:59:00.760 --> 00:59:04.160 Okay, great. Yeah, no, absolutely. Oh, wow. 912 00:59:05.120 --> 00:59:07.480 Sorry, I didn't mean to throw you on the spot. It's just 913 00:59:07.480 --> 00:59:11.080 closing. I feel like you need anything prophetic. It's all 914 00:59:11.080 --> 00:59:11.440 good. 915 00:59:17.000 --> 00:59:21.240 Heavenly Father, I just, I thank you for this day, Lord. I thank 916 00:59:21.240 --> 00:59:22.360 you, Father, for 917 00:59:24.560 --> 00:59:26.840 that this is the time Lord of forgiveness. I thank you, 918 00:59:26.840 --> 00:59:29.200 Father, this is a time of healing. Lord, I thank you for 919 00:59:29.200 --> 00:59:33.040 the anointing God that's on this call. God, I just pray for 920 00:59:33.040 --> 00:59:36.600 the hearts that are being mended and being made whole, Lord 921 00:59:36.600 --> 00:59:38.840 Jesus. I thank you, Father, for the things that we have to 922 00:59:38.840 --> 00:59:43.760 celebrate. Also, thank you, Lord Jesus, that the things that are 923 00:59:43.760 --> 00:59:47.240 broken, I thank you, Lord, they are healed. We just declare God 924 00:59:47.240 --> 00:59:49.880 healing over them in the name of Jesus. We thank you, Father, 925 00:59:49.880 --> 00:59:53.480 that your shalom, God, your peace, God, the nothing 926 00:59:53.520 --> 00:59:57.320 missing, nothing broken. Shalom, Father, that is of you. I thank 927 00:59:57.320 --> 01:00:00.040 you, God, that that would just rest on everyone. 928 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.760 on this call tonight, and I thank you, Father, 929 01:00:04.040 --> 01:00:06.240 that this is a starting, Father God, 930 01:00:06.240 --> 01:00:08.600 this is the seed, Lord, that's being planted in our hearts, 931 01:00:08.600 --> 01:00:10.960 and I just pray, God, right now, for just the harvest 932 01:00:10.960 --> 01:00:13.800 this is gonna create, the generational harvest 933 01:00:13.800 --> 01:00:16.580 this is gonna create, Lord, I just thank you, Father, 934 01:00:16.580 --> 01:00:18.800 that in our hearts, God, that you are doing a work, 935 01:00:18.800 --> 01:00:21.840 and I just pray, God, that this work just continues. 936 01:00:21.840 --> 01:00:23.120 And Lord, we just thank you, Father, 937 01:00:23.120 --> 01:00:25.720 that you are preparing us, Father, 938 01:00:25.720 --> 01:00:27.400 for the good things that you have ahead for us. 939 01:00:27.400 --> 01:00:29.120 I thank you, Lord, that, you know, you said, 940 01:00:29.160 --> 01:00:31.400 the path of the righteousness is the rising sun, 941 01:00:31.400 --> 01:00:33.560 and I just thank you, Father, that on everyone's night, 942 01:00:33.560 --> 01:00:36.240 God, I thank you that this week, and the weeks ahead, 943 01:00:36.240 --> 01:00:38.200 and the months, Lord Jesus, all the things 944 01:00:38.200 --> 01:00:39.760 that are ahead for us, I thank you, Father God, 945 01:00:39.760 --> 01:00:42.360 that it is the rising sun, Lord Jesus, of you 946 01:00:42.360 --> 01:00:44.160 that is shining on us, I thank you, Father, 947 01:00:44.160 --> 01:00:47.120 for just blessing everyone on this call tonight. 948 01:00:47.120 --> 01:00:49.160 And I thank you again, Lord, just for healing, 949 01:00:49.160 --> 01:00:50.920 Lord Jesus, in everyone's life, God, 950 01:00:50.920 --> 01:00:53.880 that we can walk away, Lord, whole, 951 01:00:53.880 --> 01:00:55.680 and knowing, Father, that you're the one 952 01:00:55.680 --> 01:00:58.160 that's just the restorer, Father God, 953 01:00:58.360 --> 01:01:00.960 that Amos 9-11, Lord God, that you're restoring 954 01:01:00.960 --> 01:01:03.880 the house of David, and that the latter house 955 01:01:03.880 --> 01:01:06.200 is greater than the former, Lord Jesus. 956 01:01:06.200 --> 01:01:08.400 And we just thank you, Father, that you're the one, Lord, 957 01:01:08.400 --> 01:01:11.920 who makes all things new, and I just pray, God, 958 01:01:11.920 --> 01:01:14.000 that this newness, Lord, and that wholeness 959 01:01:14.000 --> 01:01:16.360 over everyone on this call tonight, 960 01:01:16.360 --> 01:01:19.360 and we thank you for those things in Jesus' name, amen. 961 01:01:20.240 --> 01:01:23.520 Woo, amen, Jason, I'm gonna be calling on you again. 962 01:01:23.520 --> 01:01:24.840 That was awesome. 963 01:01:24.840 --> 01:01:27.000 Y'all, go have an amazing night. 964 01:01:27.040 --> 01:01:29.040 God bless you all, in Jesus' name. 965 01:01:29.040 --> 01:01:29.880 That was so good.