All right, so welcome to Sunday Night Activation.
We don't always record, but tonight we are going to.
We are not gonna have breakout sessions tonight,
I don't think.
We may throw in a little breakout session here at the end,
but this is a co-ed session.
If you are brand new to Sunday Night Activation,
you've never been here before.
Always make sure that if your camera's on,
your clothes are on, because it is a co-ed,
it's a co-ed time together, okay?
And the reason why I announce that is because,
unfortunately in the past,
people have not noticed that their camera was on
and their clothes were off.
So this is not that kind of Zoom, friends, all right?
So let's make sure that we know what's up.
I wanna encourage you always when you come to co-ed events
in last year, single, have your camera on.
Prepare yourself to have your camera on.
And we have those on Fridays,
Faith Friday, prayer at 10 a.m.,
Eastern is co-ed,
and then we have Supernatural Saturday at 10 a.m. Eastern,
which is also co-ed.
And then we have this Sunday Night Activation as well.
And then all different types of path sessions
and different things if you're in phase three.
So, but we're talking to all the community here today,
phase one, two, and three, and of course the men's group.
So we're going to have a time together
for Mother's Day tonight.
Happy Mother's Day for all of you that are mothers.
Go ahead and post in the chat.
We honor you.
We're thankful for all of you ladies
that maybe you haven't given birth to a child,
but you fostered a child,
or your former husband had children that you helped raise,
or you just have been a mentor and a mother figure
in someone's life,
and we wanna include you in honoring you today.
There's an old saying that says,
the hand that rocks the cradle rules the world.
And I believe that that is just speaking
to how influential mothers are.
And the mother relationship in our lives
is kind of a make it or break it relationship, right?
If you had a good mom,
and I say that relatively, right?
Because people try their best.
But if you had someone who really nurtured you
and helped you and supported you,
then you might feel a lot more able to deal with life
and a lot like you have the tools and resources
that you need to be successful in life, right?
And if you didn't, if you were like me,
and you were raised by someone who was very broken,
and once again, trying their best
with the information that they have,
but it just is very lacking in helping you
to become who you need to be.
And in some ways, even abusive.
Some of you on here have experienced abuse and neglect
at abusive levels, neglected abusive levels.
And we're gonna deal with that tonight.
We're gonna talk about that tonight.
Really not talk about it,
but we're going to process it together.
And then at the end, we're gonna have a time
where Renee's gonna lead you in writing a couple letters.
And so get prepared for that.
She'll give you a couple minutes to go get what you need
when it's time to do that.
But I have done what is called the mother's blessing
for many years now.
And I'm gonna do that with you tonight.
Now, when Father's Day rolls around next month,
we're gonna do this exact same thing on Father's Day Sunday.
We're not leaving out the truth
that fathers are very influential in our lives as well,
but we're just gonna deal with moms tonight
because it's Mother's Day.
So for those of you that are mothers, we honor you.
You may not even feel like you did that great of a job.
And we're going to, once again, process all of that tonight
so that, why?
You can get free, that's why.
It's time to be free.
It is.
My mother is spending her fourth Mother's Day in heaven.
And I'm so thankful for the last four years of her life
that I got to spend time with her
and do her heart work with her
and really get to know her
and really get to understand the why behind the what.
If I hadn't had that time
at the end of my mom's life, friends,
I probably, you know, when she passed away
and went to heaven because she was very sick
with dis-ease and disease in her body.
And she passed away, in my opinion,
very prematurely at 62 years old.
And had I not had those last four years,
if God had not gifted that to me,
and I prayed for years for it.
God told me that it was gonna come someday.
He said, someday you and your mom
are gonna be like true sisters.
And I just kind of laughed.
But I believed it, right?
I laughed because it's just so far-fetched.
But at the same time, you know,
weirder things have happened.
Okay, so God, I will partner with you
if this is what you say you wanna do.
You know, my mom, you know,
couldn't even be in the same room with me
without, you know, in some way, you know,
trying to injure me verbally, emotionally.
I had been through so much pain and heartache
really hadn't been raised by my mother
after the age of 13, 14 years old.
And so, and before that, of course, you know,
not in a good place and not in a safe place with her.
And so those last four years of being able to get vulnerable
and open, and for her to be vulnerable and open with me, and for me to really just get
to know this woman who God knit me together in the womb of.
It was just a phenomenal opportunity.
I know that not everybody gets it, but if your mother has gone on to heaven, you can
still process this tonight, whether she was the greatest mother in the world or whether
a cat's a better mother than your mother was to you when she was on earth, you still can
process that tonight.
You can.
You're free, and you can bless, and you can be blessed.
So we're not only going to do some processing of repenting and also confessing and forgiving
here.
We're also going to do some blessing, and then we're going to do that letter writing
here at the end.
Sound good?
So Father God, we thank you for your goodness.
We thank you for mothers.
Mothers were your idea.
We thank you, God, that you planned for us to have mothers and fathers, and we thank
you, Lord, that you have created family and all that you ever wanted was a family.
And so it doesn't matter what type of family that we've come from.
All that matters is the family that we're going to build with our spirit mates, the
lineage and legacy that is going to go forward out of us, and that whatever has run in our
family can run out with us as far as the negative things.
And so, Lord, we thank you for those truths.
We thank you for those revelations.
We ask that you would allow any pain, any unforgiveness, any bitterness, anything that
we're still holding on to against ourselves as mothers or against the people that we called
our mothers, then we ask, God, that you would allow there to be a revealing for healing
tonight.
And that includes all mother figures, coaches and pastors, teachers, anyone in our life
that was a spiritual mother, anybody, Lord, that we might need to release and let go of
the debts that they owe us.
We thank you, Holy Spirit, that you will help us to quickly remember and acknowledge tonight.
In Jesus name.
Amen.
All right.
Now, I want to just say, first off, yeah, there are people that have given it over to
the opposing forces and they're just maliciously hurting other people.
They know that they're hurting other people and it's malicious, but 99.9% of people that
hurt us, they're not trying to be malicious.
They're doing the best with what they have.
All they have is hurt, so all they can give is hurt, right?
All they have is pain, so that's all they can give.
They're living their lives in a fear response and a trauma response, and that's all they
can give back to us.
We have to acknowledge that because if we tell ourselves a different story, oh, they're
just evil.
They're just bad people.
They're just horrible, vindictive people.
If we tell ourselves that story, then it doesn't just make them the villain of the story.
It makes them the premeditated villain, right?
It makes them almost unredeemable in our minds.
They're like the devil incarnate, right?
We can't have that because it's usually not true.
It's usually not true.
The chance that one of the people that you're going to release tonight actually premeditating
your harm is slim to none.
Most people hurt us in an effort to heal themselves.
Most people hurt us because they don't, like I said, have anything else to give but hurt.
That's all they have.
That's how they've learned to interact and have relationship with other people.
I really want you to examine, if you're one of the probably very precious few people in
here that really has told yourself the narrative of they're just plain evil, then I really
want you to release that up to God tonight and to allow him to give you truth, allow
him to give you truth back.
As we process through this repentance, this thing that I call the mother's blessing, as
we process through that and you hear anything that strikes a chord with you, I want you
to write that down and either later today, tonight, as we're writing those letters or
maybe tomorrow, maybe I want you to sit with that and ask God to tell you the truth about
it, right?
You're going to forgive tonight.
You're going to be blessed tonight, but you also need to know the truth.
What is the why behind the what, cool?
What is the why behind the what?
For instance, let me give you an example.
When I was a kid, my mom sent me to this church camp.
I knew that my mom was raised in some sort of very strict religion for the last couple
years that she lived home with her parents.
My grandfather and my grandmother had been addicts.
They had been very abusive people that found religion and found some kind of really strict
religion because a lot of times people that are deep in sin like that, if they do find
they find some kind of strict religion, right?
Because they like to, I hate to say it,
but they're already hurting themselves
with drugs and alcohol, and then they find religion
to kind of take over where drugs and alcohol left off
and keep hurting them and condemning them
and constantly putting them in a place
where they're never good enough, right?
And so that happened to my grandparents,
and I believe they truly love the Lord
and they're all in heaven and that's amazing,
but they picked a super strict religion
and in little bits and pieces,
I would hear my mom talk to other people
and I knew that she had come from something
that was super like strictly religious,
but I didn't really know a lot about that.
I never saw my mom being a spiritual person
until the end of her life.
I never saw her pray, I never saw anything like that
until the end of her life.
I did know that my mom had a very complicated relationship
with her parents and also a very complicated relationship
with religion.
Every once in a while, she would drag us to some church
and then after a week or two, we would no longer go there,
but I never knew why.
And then one year out of nowhere,
my mom announced that she was sending me to church camp
and I was like, what, what are we doing?
And not just any kind of church camp, y'all,
the kind of church camp where all the girls at camp
just sit around and watch the boys play sports
in their long dresses and their long hair
that they've never cut and just like Amish people camp
or something, I don't know.
So I obviously had short hair and no dresses.
So I had one dress, maybe two skirts or something
that was purchased for me to go to this camp.
When I say these little girls had like full wardrobes
of dresses, I'm not kidding.
They had a dress for everything at this camp
and during halfway through the day,
before they would go to like a nighttime church service,
they would go in and they would get all dolled up
and they would change into another dress.
And so I was at this camp with like two skirts and a dress
and so I just had to wear the same clothes all week
and I really didn't understand why anyone was doing
what they were doing in the first place.
All right, but I met a girl at this camp
and she was really good friends with this boy
that I thought was cute at this camp
and I invited her to come and stay at my house.
And so I get home from this camp and I'm about,
I don't know, 13, 14 years old.
Yeah, because it's probably my last summer at home.
So I'm right about that age and I invite this girl.
And I tell my mom, hey, there's this girl at this camp
you sent me to and I want her to come.
So this girl, when I tell you she had hair
down to her kneecaps, I'm not kidding.
She had this long blonde hair,
never had been cut down to her kneecaps,
obviously always wore dresses
because that's what this dissemination of Christianity
makes women do, like women aren't allowed
to wear anything but dresses.
And so she shows up at my house.
She lives two hours away from me.
We orchestrated for her to come and visit this weekend.
She shows up at my house and my mother,
I didn't realize this until now, until heartwork,
until I was older and grown up.
This was always just a major trauma for me, you guys,
but I never knew what was behind it.
And this is what I'm hoping for y'all tonight as well.
So my mom just didn't really like this girl.
And this girl was really nice and I just,
I could notice because when you live
with an abusive parent, you know when they're triggered.
It's vital to your survival to know when they're triggered.
Anyone else?
So you're really in tune to their mood changes, aren't you?
Come on, raise your hand if you had a parent like this.
You're really in tune to what kind of mood they're in
or what they're triggered by or whatever.
And so I noticed that my mom was triggered
by this girl's presence at our house, okay?
But I'm just having fun.
I'm like, man, I'm gonna corrupt this girl.
I'm gonna take her upstairs and put a bunch of makeup on her
or I'm gonna show her how to do her makeup
and I'm gonna like, you know, whatever
because I thought she looked very plain
and I was like, I wanna give you a makeover.
So I gave her a makeover.
I gave her a pair of my pants to put on.
Let's go all wild and crazy.
Come on, let's do this.
And then we were sitting outside
on the back porch of our house
after we had done all this makeover stuff
and different things.
We're sitting out there
and I forget what we were talking about.
We were laughing.
We were laughing and laughing and laughing and laughing
out there on the back porch, right?
And my mom came out of that glass porch door
so fast, y'all, like an Olympic athlete.
She came out so fast and she was like,
what are y'all laughing about?
She didn't say y'all because she was not,
we were Northern people, but I live in Texas now.
She's like, what are you guys laughing?
What are you girls laughing about?
I mean, just very triggered.
And you guys, I was caught off guard
because I'm like, oh my God, what's happening?
What's happening right now?
And we were drinking lemonade summertime,
sitting out there.
My mom grabbed my glass of lemonade
that was sitting in front of me
and she threw it in my face.
And then she turned around.
she went back inside. Now, this little girl that I had brought to visit me was horrified.
She went and called her mother, she was crying, she wanted to go home, you know, it was just like,
it was horrible. Because remember, I told you, she was friends with a little boy that I liked.
So I was just like, Oh, no, she's gonna tell him that, you know, my family is crazy. I always
really tried to hide the fact that my family was crazy. And so it was just it was it was crazy,
y'all. And for the longest time, you guys in that that lemonade, it went all over me,
it was all in my face, it was all in my hair. And of course, I have no idea what I have done wrong,
which is a lot of my life. And that that lemonade bleached my hair blonde. It did that it bleached
my hair blonde, I had a big blonde streak in my hair from that lemonade. And when I grew up,
right, and when I started doing hard work, like y'all are gonna do this tonight, you're gonna
forgive and God's gonna begin to speak to you about traumas and the why behind those traumas.
But here's the why behind that day. Right? As I got to know my mom before she went to heaven,
my mom was so traumatized by her upbringing by that denomination of religion, and by the people
that were involved in that denomination, very judgmental, very critical, very hypocritical,
you know, type of situation. And she was bullied really badly by that denomination as well. And
that's why when she turned 18, she got away from her parents. And she never turned back around
towards that type of church. And yet somehow I ended up at a camp like that, right? So it's just
like, why? But when that girl and I were out on that back porch laughing like that, my mom was
triggered into believing that we were making fun of her and laughing at her. Because girls that
look like that, that's under her in the past, right? Because she never she never belonged.
Her parents were alcoholics that went to church and everyone else was, you know,
born and raised in that. And we're three, four.
So that girl showing up at our house looking like she did was just a massive trigger for my mom of
all kinds of unhealed trauma. But you guys, I could have never gotten that revelation,
and so much freedom from that revelation, without doing hard work. Powerful, right?
Had nothing to do with me. And you guys, so often the things that happen to us,
you know, that other people say to us or do to us, especially our mothers, because that's what
we're talking about tonight. We're not talking about anybody else. It didn't have anything to
do with you. It didn't. It was unhealed pain in their own hearts. And so I'm going to go ahead
and speak to you, if you'll give me permission. I want to speak to you as your mother, in her stead,
in her place. As another woman who has hurt you, your sister, possibly.
Gentleman, possibly your former wife, in her sharp tongue. A daughter, a friend that's a
female. Any female, really, that has hurt you. Because I'm a mother. I'm a sister. I'm a wife.
I'm a daughter. I'm a friend. I'm a teacher. I've been a pastor in the past. A prophet.
All types of different female forms that this trauma has taken on in your life. I can represent
those things to you tonight. And if you allow me to, I will speak in their stead. Because you may
never get the apology from them. They may not even be on this earth anymore. But God wants you to be
able to receive an apology, even if it has never been given to you. And he wants you to be free.
So we acknowledge right now how women, how the damaged and dark feminine, the corrupt feminine,
the counterfeit feminine, has hurt us. But while we acknowledge how the counterfeit feminine,
in all its many forms, and through all the people it's come through in our lives, has hurt us,
we also have to acknowledge that the divine feminine is here to heal us.
Women have hurt us. But guess what? Women will also heal us. Hurt by women, healed by women.
And so gentlemen, you as well, any woman who has hurt your mother, sister,
former wife, girlfriend, daughter, any form of female that has hurt you emotionally, y'all,
relationally, verbally, financially, doesn't matter, physically, spiritually,
I want you to get into a posture right now where you can really hear from Holy Spirit. So close
your eyes, turn off your camera if you need to. And I've written down
Some things and you guys if you don't hear the specific thing that's been done to you
You can go ahead and say it over yourself because it's implied
It's implied tonight
So I want to speak as your mother sister
former wife daughter
friend pastor teacher coach
That hurt you I want to speak
Instead of them tonight and ask you to forgive me for being a bad friend
Forgive me for being jealous of you forgive me for manipulating you
Forgive me for competing with you
Forgive me for abandoning you and that includes dying prematurely
I'm sorry. I didn't want to go. I wanted to stay I wanted to raise you, but I couldn't
Forgive me for leaving you
Forgive me for putting you last on my list of important things
We're not seeing your importance. We're not seeing your value
Forgive me for not being able to attach
Forgive me for not being able to let you in and to be vulnerable with you or to love you the way that you needed
to be loved I
Didn't protect you forgive me
Forgive me for not affirming you
For not seeing what you needed
For not helping you when you needed me most
Forgive me for abandoning you or disappearing when you needed me most
Forgive me for not supporting you
For not showing up for your special events in life your wedding graduation any sporting events
For not treating you like you were an important part of my life
Forgive me for criticizing you for blaming you
For cursing you or cussing you
Forgive me for verbal of verbally abusing you in any form
Forgive me for financially abusing you ruining your credit
Causing you to have to
Declare bankruptcy
For not appreciating the things that you gave me and ruining those things
Destroying opportunities for you because of my addictions
Because of my behavior
Alienating you from family and friends from co-workers
all the emotional abuse
Treating you like you're we're never good enough. I
Was never happy with you. You could never do anything to please me
Forgive me. It wasn't you it wasn't your fault. You were enough
I was just empty. I
Had to find something to blame it on and it was easy to blame it on you because you were right there
Forgive me for never touching you for never hugging you
or forgive me for
Physically abusing you sexually abusing you
Forgiving me forgive me for stealing your friends or your husband
You
Stealing all the attention putting it all on me. It was always all about me all the time
And I'm really feeling right now that there's some sibling rivalry that
Whether you're a man or a woman your sister
Always soaking up all the attention
Had a best friend that wanted all the attention you had a mother that always wanted all the attention
It was always about them and their addiction or their problems
Right now forgive them
You
You might be the villain of the story you might be the villain of your own story this might be you
That some of these things apply to and you can forgive yourself
You can forgive yourself tonight
Forgive me for not protecting you
From my abusive husband
For letting him hurt you
Or letting your father hurt you verbally sexually physically mentally emotionally spiritually
Financially
You
Forgive me for alienating you forgive me for lying about you and turning people against you
Some of you need to sit in that first
Second, some other things are coming up
in your hearts right now.
Whether this person that has hurt you this way
is alive or not alive, it's time to release them.
I feel like someone had a female business partner
that really did you wrong.
They didn't set out to do it, but it happened.
And they did you dirty.
You didn't get back your investment.
I feel like they either sold clients or customers,
whether it was someone that you were in a actual startup
business with or some sort of established business,
like real estate or investment of some sort, store.
It's time to forgive.
That's not the last thing that you're ever going to do.
God's going to bless you.
But you have to let go of the people that have wronged you.
Yes, just waiting on Holy Spirit.
We're just waiting.
Some of you come from a culture where women are just
very catty to each other, where you can't trust them.
Females are not to be trusted.
God wants you to release that stereotype in your heart
right now.
He wants to bring some ride-or-die females
into your life that will be your biggest support
system, who you can trust.
You don't ever have to worry about them betraying you.
But you have to let go of that prejudice
that you have against females.
You have to let go of it.
Gentlemen, that goes for you as well.
All women can't be trusted once a few hurt us.
It's time to let that go.
I see tears happening, lots of people
getting set free right now.
There are lots of things that I didn't mention.
So if there is one that I didn't mention that specifically you
are getting free from right now that God is bringing
to your heart, go ahead and put it in the chat
so that someone else can read it and get free from it as well.
You don't have to put up the story.
Just getting free from the betrayal from this
or whatever it was that happened.
The female doctor who misdiagnosed you
or malpracticed on you, the female drunk driver
that took the life of your child.
So many things.
Turned your father against you.
Not only don't you have a relationship with your mother,
but your father won't speak to you
either because he doesn't want to set her off.
He wants to keep the peace, so you lost your father as well.
And I believe that there will be more coming up in your hearts
as you go forward into tonight to write those letters.
And as this healing just continues
to gain ground in your heart, I think
that the Holy Spirit will bring more things
to your conscious mind.
All the verbal abuse of being told that you're not enough
or that you're too much, that you're stupid,
that you're ugly, that you're fat, that you're clumsy,
that you're lazy, that you'll never amount to anything.
All the curses that have come out
of a female person's mouth, a mother, a sister, a friend,
a teacher, a coach.
All the judgment that has come against you
from any type of woman judging you in any way, releasing that.
All the bullying in school, kids that made up rumors about you,
lied about you, bullied you, made fun of you,
sabotaged you, bullied you.
All the things that have come out of a woman's mouth
Yes, we release them.
We release them right now.
We release them to
We receive this forgiveness as if it's coming from their own mouths.
silence and let you decide that is very important.
We receive it.
I want you to picture them saying they're sorry.
I want you to picture them asking me to forgive them.
God's asking you to forgive them.
I want you to picture that happening right now.
Gentlemen, having former girlfriends or friends that sabotage your relationships or made up
stories about you or accuse you of something that you didn't do, even something sexual
perhaps that maybe even got you in trouble, all out of jealousy or competition or anger
because of rejection, all the things.
Oftentimes we become the woman that we needed in our lives, ladies.
We become the mother that we needed.
And so some of you are guilty of having codependency and enabling your children and it's hurting
them.
It's not helping them.
You had such an abusive mother figure, whether it's a grandma or an aunt, doesn't matter
who it was that raised you, that you decided you were going to become mother of the year,
mother of the century.
And what that looked like to you is being the mother that you thought you needed, creating
codependency with your children.
They aren't able to do things on their own because you never allowed them to grow up
and do things for themselves.
You enabled their bad behavior and now it's time to repent.
Yes, it's another good one.
Any female voices that accused you of things that you weren't doing, that you didn't do,
that you had never done, but always accusing you of, you know, doing something dishonest
or doing something immoral, being someone who is not doing what you're supposed to do,
any kind of religious voices that have come through women always condemning you and always
acting like God was condemning you and speaking curses over you that were supposedly from
God.
We're releasing all of that tonight.
So now I want to get you guys headed towards your letters.
I feel like some more is going to come out as you guys do that, but I want to bless you
now.
We've created some space as you're forgiving, as you're releasing for some blessings, and
I want to give you the blessings.
The Bible says that death and life are in the power of the tongue and they that love
it will eat its fruit.
And I just want to bless you.
I want to use my mouth.
I want to use my words.
Words are power containers to release over you good health.
I want to release over you wealth and prosperity.
I want to release over you that everything that you touch prospers, that you prosper
even as your soul prospers.
All the words that you long to hear from a mother figure in your life, that you are,
that you are talented, that you are smart, that you are good, that you are able to do
anything that you set your mind to do.
I just want to declare over you that you are healthy emotionally and mentally, that you're
free from all dis-ease and disease, any fear, anxiety, depression, anything that would try
to befall or beset you that is not from heaven or heaven's portion for you, that you are
free from those things, that you are able to do the things that you've been created
to do, that you have every resource, that you feel supported and loved because you are
loved.
I want to tell you that I love you and that you're good, that God loves you, that Jesus
died for you and as you, and you no longer have to lay in the bed of the decisions that
you've made that are not worthy of you, but you can lay in the bed that Jesus made at
the finished work of the cross, that his arms are always open, that he is always available
and anything that you've committed to him, he will not let go of until his return, that
God is for you, that life is for you, life is for you.
God wants good things for you.
He's created you to have a good life, an abundant life, an overflowing life and I bless you
with that right now.
I bless your future relationships and marriages, your lineage and your legacy, the fruit of
your womb, your children and your children's children's children's children will
call you blessed.
They will call you blessed,
that you are a kinsman redeemer,
that you are a restorer of paths to dwell in,
you're a repairer of the breach.
Yes, I bless you, I bless you.
I bless you with being able to hear the voice of the Lord
like you never have before,
and being able to receive his love.
Let your roots go deep, deep, deep down into his love,
and anything and everything that has been blocking you
from receiving his love is removed.
I bless you, I bless you.
The things that have stalked you,
the things that have hunted you,
the addictions, the problems, the strife, the strongholds,
they are broken in Jesus name.
The anointing of the mother,
the anointing of a mother, the nurture, the caring,
the extension of heaven breaks the yoke.
Be free.
Be free to be who God created you to be in Jesus name.
All right, I love y'all.
I thank God for you.
God has such great and big plans for you
on the other side of releasing and forgiving.
Forgiveness is the pathway to abundance.
And so now Renee is gonna take over
and lead you into writing some letters
because these are not letters
that you ever have to deliver.
You may be led to do something like that,
but these are letters that are supernatural.
And as you write them,
I believe the things that you write will happen.
They will manifest, right?
And so, and I've written these letters myself.
And so you're going,
she's gonna give you instructions
on who all you can write letters to.
You might wanna write even more than one letter.
And so I'm gonna release that to her now.
Awesome, thank you so much, Jackie.
God's blessing on you, mama bear.
Go and have a great night.
All right, before we get into that,
I just, the Lord just gave me just a few verses
that I wanted to read over you,
depending on what season y'all are in right now.
And I am glad that there are men on here too.
So I'm so glad you're here.
I see you, I see you men.
Psalm 55, 22.
Give your burdens to the Lord
and he will take care of you.
He will not permit the godly to slip and to fall.
And I'll put these in the chat
while you guys are journaling.
Psalm 107, 28 to 29.
Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble
and he brought them out of their distress.
He stilled the storm to a whisper
and the waves of the sea were hushed.
Psalm 38, nine.
You know what I long for, Lord.
You hear my every sigh.
Ooh, I love that y'all.
The Lord hears our sigh.
Psalm 103, four to five.
He redeems me from death
and crowns me with love and tender mercies.
He fills my life with good things.
My youth is renewed like the eagles.
Okay, so I'm gonna play some music for you guys
while we journal for the next probably 10 minutes.
I might pray over you while you're doing that.
And here are the people
that you can be writing the letter to.
And it can be a celebratory letter.
So some of you may have just received
this incredible healing for your mom.
And you might be like,
I don't wanna write a forgiveness letter.
Like I just forgave her.
That was amazing.
And so maybe you want to get to write her a letter.
Now that you have a forgiven heart,
like the letter that you wished you could always write her.
Whether her location or geography
is here on this side of the veil
or on the other side of the veil.
So you may feel called to write a letter to your mom,
either a celebratory letter to your mom
or forgiveness to continue this forgiveness posture.
Maybe you need to write a letter to yourself.
Maybe you need to celebrate
that you've been a darn good mom
and you want the father's words to envelop over you
and remind you what a great mom you've been.
I didn't say perfect, but a great mom.
Or maybe you need to forgive yourself
for the mother that you were.
Maybe you have caused some damage
and you're that person and you need to forgive yourself.
Or maybe there are letters to your children
and you need to ask for their forgiveness.
Or you wanna celebrate them
because you get to be their mom
and they've been worried that you think that,
they've been worried that you've been a mom so long
it stopped you from getting to live your dreams.
Men, if you are here.
here, you may need to write a letter to your mom.
And the other thing that just came to me
is you might need to write the letter
to your children's mother, which would be your ex-wife.
And so for some reason, I just felt called
to write that down.
So some of you may need to write a letter
to your children's mother.
So however you feel prompted to whoever you wanna write to,
this is your time now.
Oh, this is not what I wanted.
Hold on, hold on.
That's not the song I wanted.
Apparently you're supposed to listen to Carrie Underwood
for just a moment.
Is there a format for this letter?
Just comes, whatever comes to your mind.
You can write it as a poem.
You can draw.
You can write it as a song, a cry of your heart.
Or if you wanna write to the Lord
or you want the Lord to write to you, that's okay too.
And I am gonna do something at the end,
so don't get off early if you can't.
And I am gonna do something at the end,
so don't get off early if you can't.
♪ Oh Lord, oh Lord, oh Lord, oh Lord, oh Lord ♪
♪ Amen ♪
You
Give a few more minutes and then we're going to do the last 10 minutes together
You
Remember you guys this could have been a celebration letter to it's either to your mom
To yourself or to your children or to your children's mother
either prayer of Thanksgiving a prayer of celebration or prayer forgiveness
Forgiveness is for you. Just like those permission slips back in phase one
in the heart work, we talked about forgiving people and
Releasing them even when they haven't asked for it or their behavior hasn't changed the forgiveness is for you
You
Okay
We're gonna come back and so somebody put in the post and this is a really good question
How do you write a letter forgiveness when they?
Haven't deserved it yet. Well, that's the whole point of forgiveness. It's really for you
It's releasing the bondage in the hole that it has on
you
And so I know that's hard y'all that's hard to do and we all have somebody and
You know, and here's the thing y'all Jesus went to the cross and he died for our sins
Before we asked for our we asked for our
our sins to be forgiven.
So Jesus modeled that, right?
Like he bore our sins before we asked for that.
So in the same way we get to do that,
and it's an honor to get to do that.
I'm actually gonna turn my camera on.
I'm sorry that my typing, the verses,
is the noise that y'all are hearing.
I also have chicken in the oven and I'm like,
oh my gosh, can they hear the chicken grilling in the oven?
It's in the other room, it makes no sense.
And so I'm gonna ask a few of you to be brave.
And if you feel like you need to read,
not the whole thing,
cause you just wrote for 10 minutes
and I don't want people to like read a dissertation,
but if there's one paragraph, like four sentences,
like four to five sentence,
one part of your letter that you wanna read out loud,
I want you to have the space to do that.
If you feel like you wanna just go,
if you wanna literally just do this,
if you wanna take the letter and say,
in front of my brothers and sisters, I release you,
and you tear up the letter in front of us
as an act of really releasing it, you can do that too.
So I know a bunch of you might bump in at the same time.
It's okay, just be patient.
So let's take the last 10 minutes.
If you wanna read four or five sentences out loud
as a declaration, or you just wanna say,
I celebrate you mom, I forgive you mom, or I forgive,
and you're talking about yourself
and then tear up the letter.
So go ahead and take the floor to do that.
I'll go.
I forgive you mom for being mentally ill
and committed to a mental institute my entire life
and never being in there for me.
I love that.
I just felt the victory for you, Gwen.
All right, next person.
I'll go.
Thank you God that I get to release my mom to you,
the creator of the universe.
She didn't know better.
She was wounded and traumatized at a young age,
and she was taught to stay silent from her mom.
She never was taught that boundaries are I love you.
Yay, everyone's clapping for you.
Next person, go.
I'll go.
And this was in regards of how Jackie
was asking forgiveness on their behalf.
So I say, hi mom.
I'm so glad I can write you this letter.
Thank you for asking for forgiveness.
Thank you for admitting you left me.
Thank you for admitting that you couldn't handle being a mom.
And it wasn't just because that needed us,
but you didn't have it in you to take care of us.
So I forgive you and I release you.
I love you mom.
I love you.
I love it.
Next.
I think there's freedom late.
And hey, you guys,
if you want to do a celebration, like I love you mom,
it doesn't have to be a negative thing too.
So let's get a few more in here.
I'll go.
My forgiveness is to myself for allowing things,
men into the life that were harmful to my own children.
So I just really set forgiveness onto myself
for the things that I did not know at that time.
And I just thank you for helping me see
that I can be forgiven in this too.
I love it.
We don't normally cheer each other on for these prayers.
And I love getting to see everybody's hands clapping.
All right, keep going.
Somebody described three or four sentences of it.
You don't have to have the letter fish.
Mom, I thank you for loving me
and I thank you God that my mom has given me a good life
as a mom, the best the mom that she could be.
And I forgive you mom for the hurtful things
that you've said to me,
whether you were in your right mind or not,
I forgive you and I love you and I bless you mom.
Yesterday, I bought a card that I wanted to give to my mom.
It's like a bunch of trees
and it says the best moms are patient and nurturing.
And I don't feel like my mom was that.
So I felt like God let me write in the card
and he let me write in the card.
And I'm so grateful for that.
And I'm so thankful for the gift that I got from God.
was like speaking towards me. And it says this is the type of
mother I've created you to be your healing and it's not just
for your benefit will but will be healing for many and my heart
towards you is full of compassion. I love you. I will
be patient and nurture you and you will learn from me.
That was amazing. I loved that. I'm sorry, my dog is barking.
So I was compelled to have God right to me. And here's what I
got. Renee, I know it looks like you haven't had a chance to get
to be a mom. But you have been a mom. You have raised and coached
and mentored so many. So do not think your mothering skills went
to waste. And I promise you that your mothering days are not
done. All right, we have room for a couple more, whatever you
want it, whatever you got, you guys, there's there's power and
release. I felt compelled to write to myself to Renee.
Precious Sarah, you're my masterpiece, though misunderstood
often by this world. I see and know you and I honor you. I
paint the skies with stars just for you.
Yes, love it. I love it. Someone else was about to go. So go
ahead. You go.
And I also wrote to myself. Can you hear me?
Yes, go ahead. Okay. And the Lord said to me, and I'm proud of
you for forgiving those that you needed to forgive. Now I desire
you to see me your father, your creator, the one who created you
in the image of myself, your true love, your protector, and
the one that will never ever leave nor forsake you.
And then he said, I sent my son, Jesus Christ, your Messiah, you
took took all these things for you. He washed you clean and set
you free. You can let go and forget the past because I'm your
real past your present and your eternal future. In me is hope,
joy, peace, pure and perfect love, gladness and dancing.
So good. So good. So good. You guys. I know it's hard y'all
Mother's Day is such a complicated holiday, right? It's
like I feel bad for pastors now. Because they're like, let's
celebrate the moms and also the kind of moms, the ones that lost
their moms, the ones that are estranged from their moms, the
ones that aren't good moms, the one that haven't been able to
see their kids. And it's like, Oh my gosh, what's left. And so if
you received amazing blessing tonight, yay, we celebrate that.
If God is still working on you, and you're like, Oh my gosh, I
don't have that victory. That is okay. We're going to trust and
believe that when you put your head down tonight, that you're
going to let the Lord continue to do his work and bring the
celebration, the healing, the forgiveness, whatever it is that
you need. Okay, Jason, I see that you're on this call. I
don't know if you love praying out loud or not. But if you're
still here, would you be willing to close us out in prayer? I
just think there'd be something really tender about a male voice
kind of closing us out for the night, if you'd be willing. Is
he still here?
Yeah, I'm here. Sorry. We're trying to
Okay, great. Yeah, no, absolutely. Oh, wow.
Sorry, I didn't mean to throw you on the spot. It's just
closing. I feel like you need anything prophetic. It's all
good.
Heavenly Father, I just, I thank you for this day, Lord. I thank
you, Father, for
that this is the time Lord of forgiveness. I thank you,
Father, this is a time of healing. Lord, I thank you for
the anointing God that's on this call. God, I just pray for
the hearts that are being mended and being made whole, Lord
Jesus. I thank you, Father, for the things that we have to
celebrate. Also, thank you, Lord Jesus, that the things that are
broken, I thank you, Lord, they are healed. We just declare God
healing over them in the name of Jesus. We thank you, Father,
that your shalom, God, your peace, God, the nothing
missing, nothing broken. Shalom, Father, that is of you. I thank
you, God, that that would just rest on everyone.
on this call tonight, and I thank you, Father,
that this is a starting, Father God,
this is the seed, Lord, that's being planted in our hearts,
and I just pray, God, right now, for just the harvest
this is gonna create, the generational harvest
this is gonna create, Lord, I just thank you, Father,
that in our hearts, God, that you are doing a work,
and I just pray, God, that this work just continues.
And Lord, we just thank you, Father,
that you are preparing us, Father,
for the good things that you have ahead for us.
I thank you, Lord, that, you know, you said,
the path of the righteousness is the rising sun,
and I just thank you, Father, that on everyone's night,
God, I thank you that this week, and the weeks ahead,
and the months, Lord Jesus, all the things
that are ahead for us, I thank you, Father God,
that it is the rising sun, Lord Jesus, of you
that is shining on us, I thank you, Father,
for just blessing everyone on this call tonight.
And I thank you again, Lord, just for healing,
Lord Jesus, in everyone's life, God,
that we can walk away, Lord, whole,
and knowing, Father, that you're the one
that's just the restorer, Father God,
that Amos 9-11, Lord God, that you're restoring
the house of David, and that the latter house
is greater than the former, Lord Jesus.
And we just thank you, Father, that you're the one, Lord,
who makes all things new, and I just pray, God,
that this newness, Lord, and that wholeness
over everyone on this call tonight,
and we thank you for those things in Jesus' name, amen.
Woo, amen, Jason, I'm gonna be calling on you again.
That was awesome.
Y'all, go have an amazing night.
God bless you all, in Jesus' name.
That was so good.