Hello, everyone. Happy Monday. I can't believe it's already been a week since we've been here
last week. But it's time. It's time for us to step into what God wants to do tonight. I hope
that you all come, even just right now, just maybe where you're at. If you haven't prayed
this already, just Lord, just kind of posture your heart. I just expect you to do the things
that I need done tonight in my heart. Just help me to receive everything that you have for me, Lord.
Help me to hear what your Spirit's saying. Help me to get out of my own way. I'm sorry about my
ice machine. I totally forgot I meant to turn that off, y'all. But just where you're posturing
with an expectation that God wants to speak to you personally every time you come, okay?
It's really important when you engage your heart in that way and your spirit and your mind and
your body and your soul, like it helps you come into this room and this atmosphere with a whole
different perspective. You tend to check out less, too. So tonight, I do have a little bit of teaching
for you, but I believe God has something really special for each one of you tonight. I am going
to pray over you again, but I just wanted to kind of encourage you guys as you're coming in to just
really always consider your heart. If you've never met me before, I'm Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the
heartwork coaches here in the group. So for those of you that are new, we would love for you to,
you can raise your digital hand. You can put it in the chat. Say, I'm new. You can raise your
physical hand, whatever works for you. Okay, Sherry. Hi, welcome. Welcome, Diana. Hello, Suzanne.
Hello. I think we have a couple others. Yeah, Linda. I thought you were a new face for me.
Nice to see you. Jen is new. Anyone else? Am I missing anyone? That's awesome. Well, keep putting
it in the chat. If you're new, we don't want to miss you. We want to say hi to you. For all of
our other ladies that are coming back for maybe round two, three, four, five, I'm not sure,
but we're glad you're here too. And God just loves you guys all so much. Look at all these beautiful
faces. Hi, Seneca. I think that's how you say your name. So for you, for all of you coming in brand
new, one of the things that I encourage you all to do when you can, obviously we understand sometimes
you're not able, but to come on screen. So we like to see you. We like to like know that who
we're talking to, but also the key to this is you're coming out of hiding every time you show up
and you connect in community. And when you go into breakouts that you don't lean into being afraid,
I know like for some of you, you're going to be brand new. I'm going to put you into a room with
people that you've never met before. And I'm going to ask you to share things that are hard, that I
promised you. If you will trust God in this process, this is an amazing community. It's an
amazing group of women. I it's been a very rare thing that I've ever had anyone say that they
didn't get blessed in breakout sessions. I've had people say they were nervous and afraid to talk,
but I've never had anybody say to me. It, it did not go well. Okay. So just want you guys to know
that when I do the breakout sessions, that is, we want to encourage you to engage and connect.
And even if you feel afraid, guess what? You can just say, Hey, I'm a little,
I'm a little nervous, or I feel like feeling a little scared tonight and let your sisters cheer
you on. Okay. That's when we can get breakthrough is when we're honest and real. And we just kind
of let God do what he wants to do with that. So welcome everyone. I want to encourage you again,
no matter what week you're in, if you're brand new or you're in week three, continue to take
your time. What I mean by that is don't rush through this one week of content a week. If you
take longer than that, it's okay, but we really don't want you taking a shorter amount of time.
So even for those of you, you might like watch the content and get your reading done in a few days.
I really want to encourage you all to give yourself a full week to process what you're
learning, what you're hearing, what you're reading. And what I mean by that, I'm going
to give you an example tonight. Like my example is I want you to let your spirit and soul breathe.
And what I mean by that is if you just skip right to the next thing, as soon as you finish the
content for like example, week one, like your body and your spirit soul, haven't even really
fully had time to kind of unpack what you just read and learned. But if you give yourself a
little bit of breathing room, a few days to process, I typically people that do that are
going to experience that, what I call percolation of the Holy Spirit, where he brings things to the
surface. And then also, I've had some people say, I do, I feel great about the videos
and I can do the reading, but the questions to journal those, you know, maybe they're just
feeling a little bit tempted to avoid. And one of the things I mentioned in the earlier session
today is avoid.
is one of the self-preservation techniques you all.
So if you find yourself even avoiding the content
or avoiding actually doing the heart work,
that typically is one way that you're trying
to protect yourself from feeling pain,
whether you realize that.
A lot of times we do it subconsciously.
We don't even know really why we're doing what we're doing,
but we know that we're maybe watching,
and I'm not saying you can't watch TV,
but I'm just giving this as an example,
but maybe we're watching TV for hours
instead of doing the heart work, right?
When we know we really probably should do the heart work.
Yeah, I did it too, you all.
I did, when God was unpacking some things about my dad,
I think I might've said this last week, I was struggling.
I was, I was on the struggle bus for a few days,
and then I realized what was going on.
I realized the enemy was trying to get me to avoid
and not lean in.
So we wanna lean in and trust the Holy Spirit.
So take your time, let your spirit breathe.
And for those of you that if it takes you longer
than a week, y'all, you're not behind, okay?
You're not behind, you're doing great.
Everybody's process is different.
Everybody's life is different.
Some people experience loss in this process.
I wish that wasn't the case, but it happens.
We want you to know you don't have to compare yourself
to anybody else.
Your journey is your journey,
and just let it be your journey, okay?
And then the last thing is just that reminder
to ask God really good questions.
So when you guys have something
that's coming to the surface,
it could be an image that you,
like you don't even know what it means.
I had someone today, she was doing the one hour with God
that Jackie recommended in our Supernatural Saturday.
And she said she started seeing all these different colors
and what does that mean?
I'm sorry, I forget who wrote that,
but I'm not even sure I know exactly
what God's trying to do there for her.
But the thing that I said, let's ask God,
like, God, what do these colors mean?
Why am I seeing this?
Like, is this connected to a memory
or is this just something new you're trying to show me?
Like you just ask God good questions and let him answer.
Okay?
All right, that's all my housekeeping.
I did it in seven minutes, you all.
I hope that you kept up with me.
I was tracking pretty fast.
Let me pray for us.
Father God, thank you so much for, again, just this night.
Thank you for bringing us here for such a time as this.
We thank you, God, for transformation.
We thank you for renewing our minds
that all old things have passed away.
Behold, everything else can be made new.
We thank you, God, that you are creating rivers
in the wasteland and these streams in the desert
and you're bringing hope into our spirits.
Thank you, Lord.
You're colliding heaven here on earth tonight
in our presence.
Help us, Father.
Help us to know that you're a good Father.
I ask you to heal and bind up any wound
that would lead the ladies in this group
to believe anything other than that.
I pray that you would just go
into the recesses of their spirit.
God, you know the things that are in darkness
that need to be brought to the light.
You know the mindsets and the places
that need to shift tonight.
And we just thank you, God, for a greater revelation,
a greater understanding of who Jesus is
and what he died to give us,
that he's already won the victory for us
that we can just choose to step into.
But Lord, sometimes we just can't see
the things that are keeping us
from stepping into the revelation and the truth
and the higher upgraded life that you have for us.
So help us to know what those obstacles are
so we can remove them and step into that place.
Holy Spirit, we ask you to come and have your way.
In Jesus' name, amen.
Amen.
All right.
Yeah, Sarah, I get it.
I really do.
I see you.
Girl, I'm 45.
I'm believing.
God can do anything.
And so, you know, I think on that note,
let's just talk a little bit about this for a second.
She said, I'm not getting any younger.
My uterus grieves every month
that it doesn't have a baby in it yet.
The sooner I do the hard work,
the sooner I can meet my spirit mate.
That's legit.
It's real.
Here's the thing.
I wanna encourage you guys,
and I know you're kind of teasing a little bit,
but like, this is real, right?
So many times the enemy will try to get us to panic.
I see it in every phase where people will try to rush
or they'll get really frustrated
if something isn't working.
So let's just talk about that for a second.
Let's lean into what's working, okay?
And I don't mean to minimize.
As I said, I'm 45.
Brian and I, my husband now, we're believing, we're trying.
We'll see what God wants to do.
But here's the thing.
In the process, even in my dating process,
of course the enemy was,
I mean, he was trying to make me panic like crazy,
like my clock was running out.
But when I.
shifted into, Lord, I give this fully to you.
Like, I just trust that if you want me to be a mom
with a baby in my own belly,
that that will come to pass in due season.
And I just had to fully, like just fully surrender it
because I just know that if that doesn't happen,
that God still has a plan for me.
So if we can get to that place, ladies,
where whatever that thing that the enemy can use
as like that carrot or that thing to cause panic,
to really release that to the Lord,
it will enable you to just kind of,
it doesn't mean you're not still moving
towards that thing, right?
It just means that you can breathe
and go through your process without that panic, panic,
panic button being pushed all the time, okay?
Because you know what?
Here's the other thing, thank you, Lord.
God is a time bender and he also redeems our timeline.
So ladies, I'm serious.
God can do all kinds of things that we don't even know
and can't even fully comprehend that he can do.
All right, so that was not my content for tonight,
but I felt like it was worth the mentioning
when she put that in there,
because I know a lot of people struggle
with that concept or other concepts
in a lot of ways in this process.
All right, so tonight, this is what the Lord told me to do.
We're gonna go through kind of a little bit
of a conversation, if you will.
I'm gonna teach for a few minutes.
Hopefully I won't take too long,
but I'm gonna give you a lot, so just be ready.
If you can't take notes tonight,
go back and listen to the replay.
But as I was praying on the last few days for you all,
and just for the group in general,
we have a lot of ladies that are in week one,
we have ladies just coming in in week one,
or excuse me, week five and then week one,
and then we've got people all in between.
But the Lord said to me this morning specifically,
awaken the princesses, awaken the princesses.
That's what he said to me specifically.
So that's where we're going tonight.
And I hope that you'll have some fun
on this journey with me.
Your first scripture tonight is Isaiah 52 verse one,
and it's the beginning part of that scripture.
It says, awake, awake, Zion, clothe yourself with strength.
And sorry, my notes are over here.
Put on your garments of splendor.
So when it's talking about awake here,
it's literally to arouse oneself.
So it's not just someone else coming and waking us up,
it's arousing ourself.
It's awakening like we are a participant in that.
Praise the Lord, Hannah.
I hope you experience that a lot more
as the night goes on.
Awake, awake, yep.
So as we are stirring up,
we're stirring ourselves up in this stuff.
Tonight, as you look at also this scripture,
it talks about put on your garments of splendor, okay?
So putting it on is an action, you guys.
It's not just us sitting,
waiting for God to do something for us.
It's an action, we're doing something,
we're partnering with the Lord.
And in particular, it's to dress, to clothe,
to put on, to be clothed, to be arrayed with.
And this is like a figurative thing.
So like, even though it is saying,
put it on as a garment, putting on strength,
clothe yourself with that,
but also put on the splendor, it's figurative.
So we can imagine what it would be like
if you had a cloak, a coat,
or any kind of thing that you were clothing yourself in
that you're literally choosing every day
to put that thing on.
The Bible talks about the armor of God,
putting that on too, right?
So there's really, this is a key thing for us
in the body of Christ.
And so many times people aren't doing it.
We go all through our day and many times,
and this isn't to shame you, I've done it too.
And we don't, we've never put on the armor of God.
And so many times we don't put on the splendor
because so many of us have lost our joy.
So how do we have splendor?
What the heck does that mean?
All right, let's talk about it.
Splendor is in the Hebrew, tephalra.
Y'all, as soon as I read that,
all I could think of was tiara, tiara.
It's literally being crowned,
putting that on yourself, the splendor, beautifully thy.
Do you believe you're beautiful, ladies?
Do you believe that God has called you to be crowned
with a tiara because you have royalty in your blood?
I know a lot of us are like, yeah, yeah, yeah.
And we do, but so often you all,
we don't live like royalty, do we?
Would royalty let a guy hook up with us?
No, they wouldn't.
I don't think, maybe they do, but they shouldn't.
All right, but here's the thing,
and I'm not, and I'm just throwing that out
just because that came right up in my spirit,
but there's so many.
where we live below who we are.
So tonight, as you think about that,
I want you to think about beauty, splendor, and glory,
and what does that mean for you?
Beauty, and as I continue to unpack this today,
it actually represents garments, jewelry.
Am I talking about that stuff?
Yeah, a little bit, maybe, but it's more than that, okay?
And I'm gonna talk about both aspects
because I do think there is relevance to,
you guys are gonna learn more and more and more
about the divine feminine,
but how do we show up in the world?
Do we present ourself in a feminine way?
It's not just about the clothes,
or the earrings, or the jewelry.
It's about an inner thing.
It's about an inner belief that we have
in a way that we show up,
but I can tell you that when I,
this is just me, and everyone's different,
but when I put on a nice top,
or I put on a dress, or I put on nice pants,
and then I put jewelry on,
I feel way different than if I'm walking around
in my comfy pants, okay, or my gym clothes.
That's just kind of like even business 101.
They talk to you about that kind of stuff.
So how many of us are showing up,
even on dates or in life in general,
let's just put the dates aside,
but we're showing up in life,
and we're so tired and worn out
because we're carrying baggage from wounds,
and old mindsets, and belief systems
that don't even belong to us,
and so we're wearing our gym clothes, if you will.
We're walking around life in our gym clothes,
and God tonight wants you to think about
where do you need to shift?
Again, I'm referencing clothes.
This is kind of, it is literal, but it's also figurative.
Where do you need to get an upgrade?
Where do you need to choose to shift and to upgrade
in the way that you think about yourself
and the world around you?
The other aspect of glory here, I love this.
It's of rank and renown.
It's an actual attribute of God.
So when I'm talking about the splendor,
I'm talking to you about, it's saying to us,
in that Isaiah 52.1, put on your garments of splendor.
Put on your garments of rank.
Put on your garments of renown.
Put on your garment of the attributes of God.
So what does that mean for you?
Who are you in Christ?
Who are we?
Who are we in Christ?
And when I say this too, you guys,
I really, to the best of my ability,
knew who I was in Christ before I went through heartwork,
but I can tell you that now,
I have a whole different understanding
of who I am in Christ than before I started this journey,
and I had done a lot.
I mean, I'd been saved over 22 years.
I'd done a lot of work.
I'd worked with counselors.
I'd taken psychology coaching things.
I'd taken mental health.
I mean, I had done work,
but it's still, there was supernatural impartation
and grace on this movement in such a way
that it was like, whoa.
Like, I really still didn't value myself very much.
I was allowing people to mistreat me
in ways that now I'm like is unthinkable.
Like, I still am kind of shocked like that that was me,
and that might be some of your all story,
and it might not just be men.
It might be other people that you come across
or your parents or friends, whoever.
Okay, so do we understand our royal inheritance?
Do we really understand that Jesus died
to give us not only victory,
but he gave us entrance into the family of God
so that we could be one with Jesus
as he is one with the Father
and also one with the Holy Spirit?
That we never have to be orphans.
We are never on the outside.
If we believe and think that we're on the outside
and we believe and think that God isn't good,
then there's something inside of us.
There's wounds in there that are feeding
into where the enemy can come in
and he can just lie right into those spots,
and we believe him.
So tonight, where are those wounds for you
that lead you to believe that you should just settle
for less than God's best,
or that you don't deserve to sit at the table
with the banquet before you
right next to God, the Father, the King
of all majesty, of all things,
but instead you find yourself at times,
and I'm gonna just, this is figurative,
but you're under the table begging for crumbs,
or maybe you even, you believe that you belong at the table,
but you're not choosing to sit there.
There's all, and those are just two.
There's so many other different things.
These are just things I want you to be thinking about.
So tonight it's time to partner with our divine feminine.
What is God saying to you?
Where does he want you to continue to flourish
and blossom and open up?
You know, divine feminine isn't walled off people, okay?
Like where we shrink in
and we stop showing up in the world.
You know, I don't know about you guys,
but there's definitely been times in my journey
when I looked in the mirror
and I felt like I looked sad.
And even when I look back at pictures
of some of the times when I was in that abusive relationship
I'm like, I don't even look the same.
Like I just looked a little bit lifeless
because I was so sad and broken on the inside
from the things going on there.
And whether I wanted to or not,
I started believing things that were being said to me.
So we continue to shed that stuff tonight.
I hope that's what's, yes.
Hi, Sarah, look at that tiara.
That's awesome.
You guys, and I know this might seem like no big deal
or it might seem silly to some of you.
Well, why would I get a tiara?
Because some of you never knew what it was like
to be a little princess when you were a little girl.
And so now when you're an adult, you don't know what that,
you don't know what that looks like.
You don't know what that feels like.
Myself included, I've had to learn.
I've had to learn.
As a little girl, I learned that life was not good
and that I couldn't trust people and I would never be safe.
So I never felt like a princess.
Things that should have been fun weren't.
So yes, put those, I mean, you guys,
these little activations, you will be surprised
at how it will cause you to shift.
I was talking about this earlier today.
If you ever even think about,
like just if you put your shoulders back
and you sit up tall, like there's something,
you just feel stronger.
I tend to slouch a lot.
I catch myself.
It's not good for our backs either.
But like, I know that's a small example,
but just like even breathing
and just taking life in a little bit,
like you'll feel strong.
I hope that comes into, even as I'm saying it tonight,
it causes you to think about how you're allowing your body
to be in at times of rest, as well as other times.
Okay, do we know how to partner
and activate the authority given to us from heaven?
That's your last kind of question to be thinking about.
Another scripture for you, Isaiah 60, verse one through five,
arise, shine, for your light has come
and the glory of the Lord rises upon you.
See, darkness covers the earth
and thick darkness is over the peoples,
but the Lord rises upon you and his glory appears over you.
Nations will come to your light
and kinds to the brightness of your dawn.
Lift up your eyes and look about you,
all assemble and come to you.
Your sons come from afar
and your daughters are carried on the hip.
Then you will look and be radiant.
Your heart will throb and swell with joy.
The wealth on the seas will be brought to you.
To you, the riches of the nations will come.
How many of us are living into that?
I'm even feel like as I'm reading that
and in my spirit tonight,
like the Lord is just speaking to me.
It's time for us to know
that God wants to do something great in us and through us,
not just to use us, you all,
but because as he heals us, as he does the stuff in us,
it draws people to us, but it's drawing people to him.
They will see, you guys will start to,
as you go through heartwork, people will start to ask you,
what's different?
What's different about you?
What are you doing?
Something like you're glowing, you're shining.
Seriously, people will start to ask you guys
as you continue to heal.
Maybe if it doesn't happen in heartwork,
it will probably happen at some point
where people start to recognize
that something is stirring inside of you that's different.
Princesses tend to be awakened in three areas.
So here are the three areas that I believe every woman,
because I'm talking to you all, all of us,
when I say princesses, that's you.
Yes, Hannah.
Her sister noticed, she told me,
you looked way less depressed.
That's a huge praise report, praise the Lord.
That's awesome.
All right, three areas.
Identity in Christ, restoration,
and some of, like all of us, I'll say this,
I was going to say earlier today, I said some of us,
but all of us also need in some way restitution.
happen. Restitution is like things that were lost. And we need those things given back
to us. Or maybe they were stolen. Maybe even at times the enemy has stolen money from you
or other things. Those things being restored and restitution. And then our big bold future.
Yes, the spirit mate is the cherry on top. I can't. Someone thanked me for that quote.
It's not mine. It's Jackie's. So I can't claim that. It's so good though, isn't it? The spirit
mate in this process is going to be the cherry on top. You guys are going to experience life
change in every area of your life as you lean into this process and give everything to the
Lord that he asked you to surrender and to trust him to heal. I've seen it time and time
again. The people that really go all in, they walk away changed forever. And that can be
you. All right, your big bold future. We'll talk a little bit more about that here in
a little bit. Okay. So here are some princess popper stuff. A princess never strives. Princesses
inherit. So does that mean we never have to do anything? No, we have to partner with the
Lord. We have to do stuff. But a princess, again, as soon as she's born as a newborn baby,
the kingdom rights in a sense belong to her. Now they don't pass to her until she comes of age,
right? And certain circumstances, but she's royalty as soon as she's born.
Responsibilities of a princess as things that she learns about as she grows, but she's always a
princess as soon as she's born. And we are the same. We just don't know it sometimes to inherit
is actually to receive it as a legacy. So for all of you that have, maybe you're, you know,
you're building a legacy for your families, whether it's money or, you know, the way you
live your life and you want to leave a legacy behind you. Think of it this way. The father,
God, the father always wanted a legacy for us, right? That's why I sent Jesus.
That's why when I prayed, like Jesus came to die on the cross for the forgiveness of our sins,
for our freedom, for our redemption, for our healing. But he also came to literally pave the way
for us to have an open door to the father so that we could have family so that we could have
relationship. Okay. So that we would never be orphans. Isaiah 68, 6 says that God sets the
solitary in family. He places us in family. So no matter how alone you feel, it's reality. We
have to face that stuff because sometimes we do, we feel the depth of despair and loneliness,
but God places us in family so that we don't have to live life alone.
Here are some, now this is not a full list you all. So one of the things I want to encourage
you because earlier today, someone was like, oh my God, which it's good. They were excited
because they only, there was only one that they related to that was on the popper list. This is
a very small list because I don't have time to read you all of them, but I just want to encourage
you. Like, it's great if you only resonate with one, but just know there's a lot of other ways
for popper mindset to show up. Okay. All right. Not that I don't want you all to be free, but I
just want you to understand. All right. So here are some things to consider, and there's no shame
in any of this as a reminder, this is just to help you guys understand how the popper mindset can
show up at times in our lives. Do we only buy things on sale or at discount department stores?
Do we ever give ourselves permission to buy something at full price?
Here's another thing. I have people in phase two right now, a guy asked her on a date and he
recommended a fancy restaurant and said, I want to take you to this restaurant. And she wrote
to us, like, I don't think I'm okay with this. What? Why not? It's too soon. She said, it's too soon.
Why is it? Why is it too soon? Guess what? It's because deep down as we unpacked that,
guess what we found? She didn't believe she deserved it because growing up, she learned
that, you know, they had to, there was pain, there was pain with everything financial.
And so they just barely scraped by.
I and they couldn't afford, you know, the nice expensive
steakhouse or whatever. And so now as an adult, she feels
guilty going to places like that. Okay, so I'm gonna leave
that there. I'm going to keep going. Do you struggle with
feelings of inadequacy? Do you tend to compete with other
people around you are often compare yourself to other
people. And this can be at any age, right? This can happen when
we're young. And then we grow we grow and we keep comparing
ourselves. But if those wounds when we're young kids where we
were comparing ourselves to another, another kid don't get
healed. All that other stuff just builds and builds and
builds on top of that. So you guys are so many layers to this
comparison thing. Do you struggle to look at yourself in
the mirror and like a do you struggle to look at yourself in
the mirror and be to like what you see? So many women do not
even like to look at themselves in the mirror. Okay, so it's a
real, it's a really big issue. All right. Are you uncomfortable
around rich or successful people? Do you tend to
criticize rich or successful people? Or do you are you glad
for them? You know, that's something to kind of pay
attention to? Do you tend to feel unworthy to be friends with
people who are successful? And there's all different levels of
success in the world you all there is and we all think
different people are successful in different ways. But the thing
is, is that there is this amount this kind of level of
like, I don't I want to be friends with that person, but I
don't know if I'm good enough for them. And I know this
happens because people talk to me about it. Or it could show up
like this you all this just came up in my spirit. Sometimes you
get around other people and you think they dress really cool and
trendy, and you automatically feel less than. Even if you
left your house in what you would consider some of your
best. Okay. All right. Do you struggle to set goals because
you actually fear that you're going to fail? So you just never
set them to begin with? Do you tend to change your opinion
easily to please other people? So maybe even when you go with,
you know, friends or a guy, you have values, you have an
opinion. But I don't know if you guys are like me, you might not
have done this. But the one guy, my spiritual daughter's dad, one
of it wasn't really the first time we went out, but it was a
couple couple dates in, he introduced me to his friends.
And I will I will like wanted to be the cool girlfriend so bad
that there were things they were doing that I did not agree with.
But I just acted cool with it. And I still regret that because
that that night led to a bunch of other nights like that. Had I
just stood up and said, You know what? You know, if these are the
people you hang out with, I'm not sure this is gonna work out.
Would have went a lot different for me. But I didn't I didn't
voice how I was really feeling and I wish I would have done
that. All right. Do you often believe others reject you and
your ideas? Sometimes some of us believe that before we ever even
tell people so we just decide we're never telling anybody our
ideas because they're just going to reject them anyways.
Have three more for you. Are you easily offended?
Have you felt misunderstood for most of your life like nobody
gets me? Someone in the earlier session, they they kind of said,
Well, I just have very different ideas and point of view. So they
kind of have put themselves in a category where nobody can
understand them because they're in that place. Right? Well, that
is that is self protection you all when we wall ourselves and
we just we really pool and and probably at times maybe she did
feel not understood, right? But the enemy now turn that into no,
I just can't be because I have this very peculiar way of
looking at the world in life. Therefore, no one really can
understand me or relate to me. That is isolation, enemy
isolation at its finest. If we if we get to that place, you
that is proper mindset. We're alone. We're an orphan. We're on
the outside.
side, and nobody understands us. And it can look a lot of
different ways. Here's the last one. Do you struggle to love
yourself and sense God's pleasure in you? So a popper
mindset, so it's like a popper, P-A-U-P-E-R. So like, think of
even in the old day movies, like I even think of Robin Hood and
The Prince of Thieves, it's like, yeah, sorry, it's that's
probably my northern accent coming in there a little bit.
Yes, pop, popper. Not like a New Year's Eve popper, but a
popper. Hopefully I'm making y'all laugh. But like Robin Hood
and The Prince of Thieves, you know, the people that had very
little money, and even some of them, if you think of that
movie, I have another movie example for you, but those
people, you know, the bad king, if you will, what was he doing?
He was stealing from all those people. And so what did they do?
They went to the woods and hid until Robin Hood came on the
scene and taught them how to what? Fight back and take back
what belonged to them. So some of this tonight, I'm trying to
stir you all up so that you start to fight back, that you
don't just take the enemy's crap all the time, and you don't
listen to the things that he says to you, and you start to
recognize your royalty. And not only know it in your head, but
know it in your heart and live it out so that, and it's not
like in a snubby way, like I'm better than you, but no, it's
like it's this inner confidence that brings joy and peace, and
you function and you know your value, therefore you don't
settle, and you don't let people mistreat you and mishandle you
anymore. Sorry, I hear a little bit of feedback. Let me just
see. Close that. Okay. All right. I'm almost done.
Princess Diaries is my other movie example. Who has seen the
Princess Diaries movies? Even one of them. Oh, hi. Yeah, I see
you. It's a cute movie. It's decent for all ages. I love it.
Yeah. So in the Princess Diaries, if you guys think about
this, Mia Thermopolis, again, this is, okay, Bethany's
interpretation, okay? I'm not saying everybody else will feel
this way, but this is kind of as I was thinking back on that
movie this morning. She felt unseen a little bit, didn't she?
In the beginning of the movie, she felt like a nobody,
struggled to speak in front of the class. She actually got
sick, was very nervous to talk in front of people. The other
group of people considered her a nerd. They made fun of her,
all that kind of stuff. She let herself go in a sense. Now, of
course, this was a movie, so they did some of that for the
context, but her eyebrows were super bushy, really frizzy hair.
She wore her skirt up super high. Again, that was kind of
over-exaggerated, but I'm bringing it out because I do
think that some of us let ourselves go.
We just drift into the background, and we exist, and we
kind of go about our day every day, and sometimes don't even
allow people to see us, if you will, but what changes when we
show up in the world? It's not like, hey, everybody, I'm here,
but it's just by our presence and the way we carry ourselves,
people see us. It's how it happens, you all. It is really
how it happens. What else did she do? You guys, she hid in her
bedroom. Did you notice that in the movie? When things were
hard, she always went up into her bedroom, and not that I'm
saying we can't do that. There are times where life is hard,
and we just need solitude. Jesus went off to be by himself, but
there's a difference between isolation, which I mentioned.
The enemy will always try to isolate us. He will always try
to get you to go into hiding and not really live your full life
and full potential because then he can most likely take you out.
That's his plan. So, guess what, though? In the movie, I'm using
this movie as an example, but this aligns with Jackie's word
on Saturday. Suddenly, she's going about her life in this
movie. This is who she thought she was, and then suddenly, her
grandma shows up and tells her what? She's a real-life
princess. She's a real princess, you all. She was always a
princess, but she didn't know it until her grandma showed up
and told her that's who she was. So, how many of us have this
inheritance? We already are the princess, but because we don't
believe it, we haven't had anybody tell us it, we don't
live our lives as such. So, guess what?
After that happens, yes, she does.
She says, shut up.
It is so funny.
It's funny when you watch the movie,
you guys will have to watch it now
that I've talked about this
because this will probably mean a whole new thing to you.
But then what happens?
What happens after grandma shows up?
Does anybody know?
What begins for her?
What begins for Mia Thermopolis?
Anyone put it in the chat?
You can even unmute yourself.
Anyone want to guess?
Yes.
Transformation.
Princess lessons, training, glow up, makeover.
Yes, you guys put them in there.
All the transformation things had to start to happen.
She had to learn how to present herself,
how to wave, how to, all these different things.
And if you know, there's that key scene
where grandma's trying to teach her not to slump
and slouch while she's walking.
And it shows her like kind of over-exaggerating it.
And again, this is a little bit of fun tonight,
but she also had beauty treatments, didn't she?
They did a makeover,
but something else that I wanted to point out.
Do y'all remember the mattress scene on the stairwell?
Grandma taught her how to have fun and cut a moose.
Yeah, all kinds of stuff.
There's so many fun aspects to this movie
about her transformation.
And then grandma also told her and taught her
to not give up when things got hard, didn't she?
So in your process of becoming the princess
that you've always been, ladies,
this is what I wanna kind of leave you
before we go into breakout.
You're becoming, you're becoming,
you're becoming every day.
You're becoming more like that princess,
but it begins with surrender.
It begins with aligning with the inner identity
of who you were already created to be.
And it begins with believing
that that inheritance is already yours,
that it belongs to you.
And guess what?
Typically a princess also gets what?
A prince.
A prince charming, not prince alarming.
Remember, we're trying to stay away from those.
Prince, that's Jackie's too,
so don't quote me on that.
Like, it's mine, it's Jackie's.
But like, seriously,
that was one of my favorite quotes I heard her say.
We want prince charming.
We don't want scary old prince,
prince who mistreats us and does all kinds of bad stuff.
No, we stay away from those kinds of guys
because they're not even a prince, are they?
Now inside somewhere they are
because God gave them their identity,
but they're not living into that identity of Christ.
All right, so you're gonna go into breakout session
and this is what I want you to talk about.
Where do you need to shift out of pauper mindsets,
you know, living below where God wants you to live?
Where do you need to shift out of that tonight?
And maybe the other question that you can answer as well
is what areas do you struggle to partner with God
as his daughter, as a princess,
as a royal heir to the kingdom of heaven?
Okay, that's what you're gonna talk about.
I'm gonna put you in the breakouts.
If you cannot go in the breakout because you're driving
or you're at work or whatever,
just stay in the main room with me.
For those of you that are new,
when I put you guys in breakouts,
you'll just click the button to join the breakout.
Stay in the room that you're in
even if somebody is not there right away
because some people's internet lags
and I might have to move some people around,
but I will get to you, okay?
So I'm gonna put you all in there.
I'm giving you nine minutes for this first one.
Give me one second here.
All right, that'll be good.
Bethany, could you please repeat the question?
Yeah, absolutely.
So the question, you can answer either one or both.
What areas do you need to shift out of
like having those proper mindsets and heart postures?
Where do you need to shift out of that today?
And the other question is,
what area do you struggle to partner with God
as his daughter, a princess,
and a royal heir of the kingdom of heaven, okay?
All right, praying for you all,
go ahead and click to join those rooms.
I'm gonna try to make sure everybody gets situated here
and then I'll pray for those of you
that aren't able to go into breakouts.
All right, April, are you able to click?
Let me go get to there.
All right, Carrie, are you staying with me?
I think probably.
I know you did last week.
All right, Jenna, Elizabeth, make sure everybody's got people here.
All right, I think we got everybody.
All right, Father, thank you so much for this amazing night.
Thank you for everything that you're doing and teaching us.
I pray right now for those that are in the breakouts, those that will watch this recording
and replay, as well as those that are here.
Oh, Carrie, I might have to bump you because I didn't think you were going to go in there.
Let me put you in a different room.
Let's see, 17 only has two.
The question is basically how to come out of pauper mindsets, any area where those show
up in your life and you're going to change out of poverty mentality, pauper mindsets
into princess.
All right, so, Father, again, just thank you so much for the shifts that are happening
in the spirit realm tonight.
I thank you that you're going to continue to align every one of these ladies with the
truth of your plan and your destiny for their lives, God.
I thank you that you would impart supernatural revelation and upgrades that even while they're
here talking, while they sleep tonight and this next week, that you would just continue
to wash over them with renewing power, anointing power.
We thank you that you would release, oh, that's okay, it's totally fine, that you would release
just healing virtue as well.
We know there's ladies in this phase one group that need, and phase two and phase three,
and men that need healing.
So Lord, we just thank you right now, and we declare complete healing and wholeness
coming into their bodies, into their minds, their spirits, their souls.
We thank you for continuing to renew them in every area, and we thank you that you would
continue to remove any barriers that keep them far away from being in an intimate relationship
with you, Lord.
And we just thank you that it's always an invitation into an upgrade, into a closer
relationship, into divine revelation and understanding.
So Lord, help us to accept that invitation tonight, to take it, to come into the party,
if you will, and sit with you and enjoy all that you have for us.
Lord, I thank you that you would help us to continue to look in the mirror and see ourselves
the way that you see us.
I pray that you would help us to come into that congruence and alignment with our bodies
and in areas where that fissure and that brokenness happened when we were children.
God, I thank you that you would realign us and just bring that supernatural healing.
I just see like different pieces of puzzle pieces being put together and just locked
together one by one by one.
So Lord, we just thank you that you would just continue to piece the puzzles of our
hearts back together, but that they would be better than they were before they were
broken.
Lord, we just thank you in advance for that.
We thank you that you hold all of our cares, our worries, our concerns in your hand and
Lord, every one of these ladies, whether they've done a Jesus Cares Board or not, Lord, we
thank you that you administer to every care and need that they have.
Lord, we thank you for bringing solutions before we even have a need.
And we thank you that you would help us to trust in you at all times.
Lord, in your word, you say all praise to God, to the God and father of our master,
Jesus, the Messiah, father of all mercy, God of all healing counsel.
He comes alongside of us when we go through hard times and before we even know it.
He brings us alongside someone else.
So Lord, we thank you for people that you're bringing alongside of us in this community,
that you're bringing leaders to help those that are taking this program and you're also
bringing sisters and we call them sister squads, sister brides, where they can come
alongside of each other and cheer each other on.
And we just thank you that you provide for us in hard times that we don't have to do
life alone and that we can rely on and depend on you no matter what the enemy has told us,
no matter what the world has told us, or even our parents or people that raised us.
We know that your word declares that you heal the wounds of every shattered heart, that
you set all of your stars in place and you call them all by name.
So Lord, in Psalm 147, three through four, it says that it declares that.
So we know that you also call us by name and you're continuing to work and thank you Lord
that you are the great physician.
Nothing's too hard for you, that you're in the surgery room doing supernatural surgery
on hearts, minds, spirits, bodies, and souls right now.
And we thank you, God.
for the things that you're doing that we can't even comprehend at this moment.
Nadine, did it kick you out of your room?
I'm not sure. Nadine, just let me know if it kicked you out of your room so I know if
I need to put you back in there or if you're just joining us that's totally fine.
All right, I'm going to keep going. So Lord, we just thank you also that you would continue to,
thank you Lord, that you would continue to open our eyes to see where life is springing up all
around us. That even those in the first week, second week, God, that they would just begin to
see what you're doing. Lord, help us to not focus on what's not working but help us to focus more
on what is working and the way that you're manifesting your presence and your blessings
in our life. That the goodness of God, we will experience it in the land of the living. I thank
you, Lord, that you're continuing to just right now even, Lord, I just imagine you as a happy
good father who's excited to give gifts to us. Just like I know when I buy gifts for my girls,
I get so excited for them to open the gifts and be surprised. So Lord, I just imagine you that way
and I just thank you for the gifts that you're giving us and the surprises that you have in
store. I thank you that you're going to continue to help us to, thank you, Lord, understand who
you are as a good father like better than ever before. That we would have a fresh revelation
of your love and your understanding and I thank you that, again, where the enemy tried to bring
separation and isolation, I thank you that you're bringing connection and family and healing.
Your word declares, there has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who
started this great work and you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very
day Christ Jesus appears. And that's Philippians 1, 6 in the message version. So Lord, we just thank you
that you never give up on us, that you continue to work in our lives, you continue to see things
through, that you're not a man that you should lie, that your promises are yes and amen over our lives
and over our destinies and help us, Lord, just to know what those things are and every single day to
take the next best step that you're showing us. I thank you that your word also declares that this
is not the time to pull away and neglect meeting together as some have formed the habit of doing.
Thank you, Lord, that even tonight we're gathering together because we need each other. In fact, we
should come together even more frequently, eager to encourage and urge each other onward as we
anticipate that day dawning. That's Hebrews 10, 25. Ladies, I thank God for every single one of you,
like you being in this community, you showing up to invest in yourself, to be a part of the
conversations, to be a part of the prayer, to be a part of even posting a post on your takeaways,
like everything is a part of God's divine plan unfolding in this group, in this community
right now. Like even the group that was in a few weeks ago, you know, every group is different,
every dynamic is different, and God is using you to be a part of what's happening right now. Isn't
that glorious? It's so fun. He's so good to provide us all these beautiful blessings surrounding us
and beautiful friends and his breakthrough power that can redeem all things. And so we just thank
you for being a part of this family. Hi there. Thank you for investing in yourself. Oh, we got
a dynamic duo up there in the corner. Who's that? The two ladies. Can you tell me who you are up
there? Let's see who you are. Hi there. Hi, this is Barb and Joyce. We had to join together because
we had a little technical difficulty. Hi Barb and Joyce. Is that what you said, Barb? Yep, yep.
All right, good, good, good. I just always try to do a check-in when it says like a phone name
or something so I know who it is. Yep. All right, everyone's coming back. We have like six seconds.
Everyone will be here. Let's start to get this going because I can't believe that you all,
we're already at five to nine. So I want to start talking about this. Who wants to share
with the whole group what you shared in your private breakout group that you're coming out
of these popper mindsets or areas where you really, you know, realize that you struggle to
to be his daughter? Anyone willing to share? All right, awesome. Monica, go ahead.
Hi, good evening, ladies. I'm excited. I've been here a couple weeks, Bethany, but this is my first
time raising my hand. So thank you. I actually really related to the first one of buy only on
sale or discount stores. I was really surprised.
when you said that. But for me, I think just kind of always not
feeling worthy enough or feeling valuable. I grew up in a
household where my mother always bought everything on sale, cut
the coupons and everything. So I think that mindset is ingrained.
But I think it's really taking its toll on me just not feeling
like I love myself knowing God's love for me. So thank you for
Yeah, helping me see that.
You're so welcome. And y'all just so you know, it is totally
okay to cut coupons. It's okay. It's on discount. So I feel like
you know, it's always really important for me to bring the
balance in. But the reason it does matter is that some of us
get so stuck in those places that we panic when we are put in
a place or a scenario where things aren't on discount,
right. So one of the things I encourage someone to do today
is I encourage you now, obviously, we want to use
wisdom, okay, I always want to make sure I'm being very clear.
I'm not trying to tell you guys to go in debt, or overspend like
crazy. But what I am saying is for those of you that can relate
to what she just said, and you really struggle to let yourself
buy something full price, and or when you do you feel a lot of
guilt, I would encourage you to really pray and ask the Lord
what you need to go buy full price and really work on the
feelings that it invokes in you, even if it's negative, because
it's going to bring that revealing for the healing to the
surface probably quicker than if you just sit and think about it.
Okay, so for some of you, um, maybe it's treating yourself at
a spa and doing something nice and investing in yourself that
way, but you don't really let yourself do that stuff, because
that's for everybody else. And it's not for you. Or you're bad
for spending money on something like that. Maybe the enemy tells
you frivolous or whatever. So I'm just putting that out there.
Again, I just try to say things as they come up in my spirit.
But just be thinking about what God might want you to do and ask
him don't just come up with your own idea, because he might
surprise you with what he asked you to go by. And it probably
will be exactly what you need. All right, Jen. Hi.
Hi, what a great evening. So far. I just love freedom because
it's partly painful, and partly exciting. For me, what came up
was that as I was listening to you in the list, was how years
ago, when we talked about when you talked about Bethany about
partnering with God, so it's not just like thinking, sitting,
ruminating, drilling, it's that thing of like, what action can I
do in the natural that might unlock something in the spirit.
And I remember I was telling the ladies on in my room, how years
ago, the father said, I am setting you up to be to know how
to, you know, sit and dine with kings. I'm like, okay, cool.
He's like, so this is what I want you to do, Jen. I want you
to start sitting in five star hotel lobbies, getting all
dressed up, ordering tea, and actually becoming comfortable in
it. And I was like, what? And I was telling ladies how there's
this one time I walked up to this hotel, I lived in
Vancouver, British Columbia, so lots of ritzy people. And I did
this Sesame Street Grover thing when he goes near bar, and I
literally walked up to this hotel door, and I started to
feel my heart palpitating. And and I was like, Oh, and then I
moved away. I was like, Okay, I feel comfortable. And I kept
doing that until I broke through my own barrier. And then I began
to like, get accustomed and comfortable. And then level two,
he's like, Oh, I want you to go hold Renfrew, which is where all
you know, the big name brands are like Chanel, Prada, Louis
Vuitton, all this stuff. And he's like, I want you to
actually shop there. Not you don't have to buy anything, but
I want you to like sit, watch the people look at what they're
wearing. And he walked me through an encounter where he's
like, I want you to like imagine yourself having coffee with
them, actually talking to them about their businesses or
whatever it is. And I was just like, wow, this is an
interesting Holy Spirit school. And I just really love how as a
father, he was removing me from a place of, like poverty. And
he's like, I want you to actually learn how to love the
one person on earth that I died for that you didn't pick up on,
and it's you. And so this trajectory has been so good. And
I'm just gonna end with this, because what was running through
my spirit, even for me is like, Oh, my goodness, we I'm only
able to receive what I believe I'm worth. And the Lord's like,
that's why we're going to have to get you to that space where
in physically, emotionally, mentally, you're like, you're
just, you're just so in love with you not like a big headedness.
It's just a sober understanding that you are so
beautiful. And so that's something I do regularly, ladies, which is really weird. I actually picture
the eternal Jen that's 100% love, 100% champion, 100% humble. And I watch her walk into a room,
I watch her talk to people, and I'm just like, and I just start weeping, like, that's me.
And, and it's just this whole thing of like, I am now becoming who I'm beholding. And so
I'm feeling really weepy right now, because I feel like we struggle with that. And I mean,
I have to keep practicing it until it becomes cellular. So anyway, I just thought that was a
really fun memory. We're in the looks like do you remember the day? I'm like, Oh, yeah, I do.
This is so good. It's so rich, you all. I'm serious. This is rich tonight. Jen, thank you.
I felt the Holy Spirit so much as she was giving examples and you all she's becoming
what she's beholding. The problem is that so many of us we don't behold ourselves.
We don't think we're up here. And again, this isn't about getting a big head. It's not about
buying expensive things. Y'all, I we are getting to the heart of the matter.
Tonight. If we don't think we are worth good things, guess what we're going to attract
unhealthy people. We attract what we become, right?
So what are you becoming? And how can that shift in the days ahead? How can you change
who you're becoming from tonight forward? Maybe your trajectory before you came tonight was one
way but after tonight you're going to start thinking about wait a minute like
would a princess let a guy treat her like this and talk to her like this?
Would a princess like think this way about themselves when they look in the mirror?
I don't know. I'm sure princesses struggle too. Okay, so let's just be real there too.
But I do think that there's a different level when we when we start to transform into those
different places. I definitely 100% carry myself differently now than I did even a year ago,
three years ago. You guys like God is transforming and shifting things and I could really relate
when you said the five-star hotel example. Sometimes y'all you'll be surprised just what
going and sitting in these places and then ask the Lord if you're feeling that uncomfortable
feeling even thinking about going to those places, start there. Just start somewhere and ask
Lord why is this bothering me? Where did this start in me and why do I believe that I don't belong there?
Why do we believe we don't belong there?
Yes, and I feel that in the spirit like it's time to believe that we belong.
I'm going to let that sit for a minute because I could linger there because it's stirring pretty
thick. It's beautiful. Jesus is beautiful. The Holy Spirit, the presence that's here with us
tonight, ladies, it's beautiful. His face is turned towards you and you know he dances.
It talks in Zephaniah that he dances over us. He rejoices over us, you all.
How do you feel like you belong? That's a good question. I think from my perspective,
you change on the inside first and then you start to see who you are becoming. I think
part of it is that partnering. It is getting around people that are beyond where you are
and you learn from them. I don't sit and just stay where I've been. I get around other people
that are like where I want to be and I learn from them because I don't want to be back there.
I want to go over here. I try to just talk to them, pray, and ask God to open doors
to get around people that have influence and understanding that I need to be there.
I need to get breakthrough and that is what led me to this program years ago and to other things
that I've now come into contact with because of what God is doing. So I think the belonging
feeling that way happens after we believe. We think it and we know it in our heart. The value
changes on the inside first. The scripture and Proverbs that talks about our worth being far
above rubies. How many of y'all have heard that verse? Had it spoken over you? You've read it,
you've written it to people, but how many believe?
I mean, do you believe that your worth is far above rubies?
And if you don't, why don't you?
The other thing that I have one more thought, and then I'm coming over to Kelly, yes.
When Jen was sharing, one of the things that came to mind, and I've said this to y'all
before, but I'm going to say it again tonight.
Some of you all, because you're Christians, we all are, I think for the most part.
If you're not, that's totally okay that you're here too.
We are taught to love ourselves because we have to, because that is what you do as a
Christian.
You love other people, you love yourself, all this stuff.
But there's a lot of people that don't like themselves.
Some of you all don't like who you are.
If we don't even like who we are, how are we going to attract someone good?
Do you see how this breaks it down?
We can't attract something good if we don't even like us.
So there's no shame in any of this.
Again, I'm trying to remind you guys, there's no shame.
I've been there, and you might think, well, I don't like myself, but then when it comes
down to it, you tend to tear yourself down quite a bit.
So that's what I'm getting at tonight.
All right, Kelly, go ahead.
I would say, what I said was comparing myself with others is what I struggle with.
And being a teacher, especially a special ed teacher, it's really good to be analytical,
but often it's really hard to turn it off in everyday life.
Okay, so here's what I'm going to say to that.
I don't disagree.
My brain goes pretty much all the time, too.
But what I've had to do, Kelly, is learn how to shift it to things where I'm not analyzing
in negative ways.
Does that make sense?
So the scripture talks about thinking on things that are above and not beneath, things that
are true, noble, lovely, and of good report.
And so if we say things like, well, because I am this, this is just my lot, in a sense,
because that's kind of in a roundabout way, you're saying, I am a teacher, and this is
a part of my job, therefore, I analyze.
So basically, you're partnering with that, that that is the only way that you can be.
Does that make sense?
And so what we want to do, we want to be careful, ladies, to partner in a line with, and I'm
not saying it's even bad to analyze.
So don't don't think that I'm saying it's bad if we have analytical minds, but anything
good out of balance can become a weakness and a hindrance.
Okay.
And so if you are analyzing so much that you can't have peace, or you can't move forward,
then that's where it becomes that weakness.
So we want God to bring us into balance.
And part of that coming into balance is understanding that you are way more than your analytical
mind.
Okay.
And so it's creating that space in that room, like years ago, the enemy tried to tell me
that God created me with anxiety problems.
The enemy literally told me that that is how God created me.
And God in my car, driving to work, spoke to me and said, I did not make you that way.
Cause I was arguing with God, like, why did you make me this way?
I don't understand.
Like, why am I always struggling with this?
And he said, I didn't, I didn't make you that way.
Was it an audible voice?
No, but it was the voice on the inside and it was loud.
He wasn't yelling at me, but he was kindly just telling me, no, that isn't how I'm
And so it made me pause, like, wait a minute.
What do you mean?
And he said, Bethany, when I formed you, I never put that in you.
Trauma that I experienced opened the door for that stuff to enter.
So our analytical minds, when they go into overdrive, it tends to be, it can be, I'm
not saying it's always this way.
It can be because we're trying to have control, but if we let go and say, Lord, you know what?
Normally I let my mind go and go and go and go on this stuff, but tonight.
I'm going to trust that you're going to bring peace into my mind and you create space for me to think something new
Okay, and and we just ask and we invite him so I encourage you or anybody else if you tend to struggle with
overanalyzing everything
Ask the Lord to come in and bring Sela rest to bring
Space and peace into your mind and don't just receive that that is just how you always have to be
Because that's not truth
So good. These are good shares. We're having some good conversation tonight Wendy. I'd love to hear what you have to say
um, my issue has always been feelings of inadequacy, um, I have
Just never felt
Good enough smart enough skinny enough
Any of it?
Christian enough quite frankly
And
then comparing myself to others because
Everyone else always seems to have what I want
and I feel like if I can be like them I
can get that too and
it
Never has worked
Because I still don't have what I want. Um
So, yeah, that's my
I've gotten better. I went through a breakup a few years ago and
did a lot of
healing work from my childhood and
I think my confidence rose a lot. I think people noticed
and
would
compliment me on a lot of stuff and
Some for some reason here lately like this morning, I woke up with a lot of anxiety and
and
Feelings of inadequacy like I've done something wrong at work. I've something's messed up
I hadn't even gotten to work and I'm already thinking I've screwed something up
Or something is screwed up, but I don't know how to fix it that kind of thing
What were you talking about before you went to bed last night? Just curious
Okay
Asked the Lord to help you remember not you don't have to right now, but here's here's why
Either you were thinking about worries and cares before you went to bed
Subconsciously and you were letting that kind of really
Stay and remain if you will
Or the enemy was just attacking you in your sleep. I was probably thinking
Oh gosh, I have to go to work tomorrow. What's gonna happen that kind of thing. Okay, something not good happening at work right now. No
That's the thing is no everything's fine. My manager's like you're great. You're telling me all the time. I'm great
Trouble when you were a kid like when you're working on schoolwork or any kind of like first job like this this cuz to me
What you're telling me is that I'm not good at it. I'm not good at it
Like this this cuz to me what you're telling me is that this is oh
it's totally for my dad from I was terrified of him and I
If he was one of those people you didn't make mad and so you
Did whatever you had to do to please him and
And he was an alcoholic so
If you made him mad he would have a temper and you couldn't say the wrong thing
But you never really knew what the wrong thing was
so
You just walked on eggshells around him all the time. And that's where so I feed off of other people's
emotions like
Are they mad at me? They're mad. Are they mad? They're mad at me
Okay
This will probably just it sounds like and I don't want to discourage you but you're on the right track, okay
Mm-hmm. I think it might just take a little bit of time because it sounds like
what I'm getting a picture in the spirit is almost like a coil and
It's wrapped kind of tight
But I want you to know that God isn't leaving you there and I believe that you're talking about this tonight by divine
appointment
Because at first I was like, okay Lord, what is it? What is it? And I didn't I wasn't sure
But as soon as I asked you that and you start talking about your dad, I saw the coil
And so the coil that it is though
It's the one where almost like if you can imagine tape like tape and it's wrapped and it's wrapped and it's wrapped
Kind of like that
But like you just got to take the like the piece God is taking the piece that's gonna begin to unravel that thing
And you've been you've been doing a lot of work
But I feel like in the midst of all of this the more that you lean into the forgiveness
Or any old memory that you need to revisit and forgive.
Because it's causing for the fact that you woke up.
Like full of anxiety and afraid, but nothing's going wrong at work.
That's what led me to ask you that question.
And so there's that internal healing that still needs to happen.
When y'all were in the breakout.
I felt led to pray and speak that literally some of you would have
supernatural surgery while you're sleeping.
And, you know, I just want to encourage you all.
God is the great physician.
Like nothing is too hard for him.
But the, the struggle is, is that some of us have gone to church for so
long and we've been taught things and we are taught that we have to
strive to get something.
And I want to say to you tonight, Wendy, and anyone else.
You don't have to be an angel to get something.
You don't have to be a spiritual leader to get something.
You don't have to be a doctor to get something.
You don't have to be a nurse to get something.
You don't have to be a dentist to get something.
I want to say to you tonight, Wendy, and anyone else.
You don't have to strive for this.
I feel the Holy spirit on this.
You do not have to do anything to earn God's love or his affection or
this breakthrough.
God's going to teach you how to partner with him.
But so you're going to, you're going to take action.
He's going to teach you that this isn't like you having to,
to do something to impress him.
Does that make sense? Like that distinction.
And part of this is that,
that you used to be so terrified of your dad that God wants you to
know, like, you don't have to be afraid of him.
Like he's not waiting around the corner to just knock you down.
He's not waiting around the corner.
He's inviting you into a process with him that I really think your
whole, your whole understanding of who God is.
Is going to change.
And I'm going to say,
it's going to start to change rapidly in these next few weeks.
I feel like God's going to visit you. I really do. And I, you guys,
I don't make claims like this very often,
but I just feel like God's wanting to do really,
really good things for you guys.
And I'm going to say,
I don't want you to be afraid of anything.
I don't want you to be afraid of that.
Because it's going to help you open up.
And be like, it might feel awkward. Anything new, you all,
anytime we get something new, it's just like new shoes.
When you get new shoes, sometimes you get blisters.
So sometimes the process hurts a little bit.
You know, so that uncoiling might hurt. You might feel awkward.
It might stretch you some.
But I want you to know that you can learn to be like you.
And that you don't have to walk on eggshells all the time.
And you don't have to be afraid that everybody's going to be mad at
you. And actually in Jesus name, you're going to learn too.
You don't have to people, please.
And that it's okay if some people don't aren't happy with something
you do.
Not because you're doing something mean, but just because some people,
you all, we can live our best life and somebody is going to get mad.
And that's okay.
So we can never all make everybody happy.
Right.
Wendy,
thank you for trusting us and sharing and being vulnerable.
Yeah.
Come into agreement with it and he will do it for you as well.
All right.
You're welcome.
Elizabeth, go ahead.
Oh, I can't hear you, sweetie.
Oh, I didn't have my hand up.
I'm sorry.
Oh,
Oh, sorry.
Elizabeth Bach.
I don't know if that's how you say your name.
Yeah.
I was having difficulties.
Technical difficulties with turning on my.
Speaker.
That's all right.
So.
Yeah, I feel like, well, what I shared.
And then like, as you guys are sharing, I was like, Oh,
I don't really compare myself to others. And then I was like, Oh,
wait, I totally do.
Yeah.
I don't have a lot of time with that.
You should be like trying to find things on sale.
And some of it was even like,
I pride myself on getting things on sale. You know?
But also just realizing that.
Like I was resonating with.
A lot of these and I'm like, Oh, I don't want to have this mindset.
Yeah.
Yeah, like, I think the unworthiness too, like, I was just like, oh, like, um, even
Yeah.
like, as I was listening to some of the people sharing and stuff, I was like, definitely
feeling like the unworthy, um, and like, like, like something had come to mind where
it was a compliment, it was meant to be a compliment, where somebody had said to me
that I could charge a certain amount for my work, if I believed I was worth it. And I
remember feeling and this person I really admired, because they were really good at
what they, they did. And they charged that much. And they were saying, like, you could
definitely charge the same thing. And I walked away being like, I don't feel worthy. And
I knew that that was supposed to be, it was supposed to be a compliment, it was supposed
to encourage me to step into it. Like, you're supposed to step into this, like, just believe
in yourself, you know, just believe you're worth it. Um, and yeah, so it's like, I want,
I want these mind shifts, you know?
Yeah. So I think the first thing is, and you don't necessarily have to answer tonight,
just be thinking about this. Ladies, when we, in a general sense, maybe, excuse me, we
don't know for sure, like, why we feel unworthy, we just have this general sense of
unworthiness. And I encourage you to ask the Lord, when is the first time you felt
unworthy? Because we got to get to the root of the matter. And God wants to take you there.
And don't stress over this, because sometimes people are like, I don't know if I have the
root, I don't just go with what the Lord shows you first, let him help you unpack that. And
then if he wants to show you more, he will. That's just the natural organic way that that
will unfold. And the other thing I was going to say is that compliments in general, okay, when
she said that word, I was like, Oh, man, yeah. How many of you just show of hands, or you can
even put in the chat? Yes, yes, yes, or whatever. How many of you when someone has
complimented you have rejected that compliment in some way, and it can sound a lot of
different ways, like, they might be like, Oh, I love your shirt. And you'd be like, Oh, this
whole thing, I've had this thing forever. Or they'll compliment your hair, and you'll be like,
Oh, my gosh, I have such bad split ends, or I'm kind of making some stuff up. But like, you
know, like, we automatically reject the compliment that someone is giving us. Why do we do
that? Let's ask the Lord, like, why, Lord, why do I do that? Ask him to show you that. And I
know that sounds like a small thing. But even things like that, we're literally turning away
something kind that God is actually saying to us through someone. Okay, there's that part of
it. And then also, Elizabeth, when you were talking about, you know, when that person gave
you that compliment, they were actually encouraging you to come up higher. And I feel
like now the enemy is kind of making you feel bad because you want to go there. But you feel
like you don't know how to get there right yet. Yet is a key word, you guys comfortable with the
word yet? Okay. Here's the thing, it has to happen here first. It has to happen in our hearts
first, you all. And it's it's similar to change behavior, we can change our behavior on the
outside short term. So you know, even like when Wendy was saying she didn't sometimes even feel
good enough spiritually. You know, when we're changing spiritually, not that this is her
story, but any of us, sometimes we change a behavior to be good, to follow the Christian
guideline. And of course, you guys, I love the Lord, I believe in the Word of God, I believe
living according to the Word is good. But I also know that sometimes people are striving to achieve
some kind of Christian status. And they never feel like they reached that mark. And so we've
got to ask the Lord. He is the identity giver, you all, I'm going to share for a few more minutes.
And then I'll try to come to Nicole and Mary. So hang tight, ladies. I got to share a couple more
things that way. If people need to jump off at 930. They can okay, because I don't want people
feeling like I'm just keeping them here forever. God is the identity giver. If you don't know what
your true identity is, ask him, ask him to show you more every day. Father, how do you see me help
me to see my
Self the way that you see me help me to know who you've called me to be
You even like doing spiritual gifts assessments and figuring out like what gifts has god put inside of you
Who has he called you to be?
What what are things that you love to do that cause you to just feel alive and they wake you up?
Maybe even like when you watch an injustice happen
It burns you like that just sets you on fire because you want that thing
To change that is telling you something about who you are on the inside and what matters to you
Those are all indicators of part of your current
Identity now. Here's the thing
We are all
becoming
Who you are today is not who you will be even tomorrow
And then tomorrow you're going to be becoming new again
It's like a brand new day his mercies are new every
Morning, we are becoming new every day
As we you know, that's that's all with the understanding that we are surrendering to him making us new every day
Okay
He he doesn't force anything on us
It's a choice to partner with him in that process
As we've been talking about princess's awakening. I want to tell you guys too. Here's the thing
As you are going in your process, you're going to have dreams of different kinds awakening
You're going to have spiritual dreams like, you know in the nighttime in the daytime you're gonna have that but this is something different
Okay
Some of you guys are going to have childhood dreams
surfacing
So maybe you wanted to dance when you were a kid
Maybe you wanted to cut hair. I don't know. I'm just kind of throwing things out there
Maybe you wanted to draw but you never felt like you had the space or the freedom or the safety to do so
um, you know, whatever your thing was
Some of you might start feeling
That awakening in you and i'm going to encourage you
To do it
To somehow use that to start activating that to start living into that
um
And just see what god where he wants to lead
It doesn't mean that you're necessarily going to quit your job and become an artist
Unless that's what god leads you to do, but i'm just saying there's there's something about
Coming back into agreement
With things that you
for whatever reason
Lost when you were a kid
Or maybe they got squashed by someone or whatever the case may be
The other thing are new dreams entering some of you guys are going to start to have
New desires you want to go and travel and explore to places you've never been maybe you want to do a new degree
Maybe you want to you know, try a different haircut
You know, whatever i'm just saying i'm giving there's small examples and there's big examples some of you guys
And we do encourage you not to make any big life changes while you're in the hard work, okay?
Wait until you kind of get through let that stuff settle and then you make decisions from there
We want you to encourage we want to encourage you to begin unwrapping gifts god has for you
He has a lot of gifts for you
And here's the thing you guys will read this in the book if you haven't already but you you
You jessica april you nadine you tiffany everyone on here, but I just felt led to call out a couple names sherry
Each one of us we are super novas
We are we are incredible beings that house
Not only the image of god, but the same power that rose jesus christ from the dead is living
In you it's living in you and it's operating through you
And the more free we become guess what you all we become like little lightning rods
And we're just sending the father light light of heaven out into the world everywhere we go
As we receive we can then give we don't give what we don't receive, okay
Last two things you don't need to convince someone of your value
Okay
You don't need to exaggerate your value
So we were talking about this whole princess thing and and it's not about having a big head
It's not about us lording that over people or or you know any of that stuff, but here's the thing
Some of us go to the other extreme
And and we don't really believe any of those things about ourselves and then we try to over exaggerate our value
So we don't really believe it, but we're trying to be that does that make sense?
Okay
So when we know our value in christ, that's why this is all so important when you know your value in christ
You're gonna live that out and it's gonna look genuine to other people
It's gonna feel like um, here's another example david when he went to the battlefield
They tried to put saul's armor on him, didn't they? Well, it didn't work out
So he went to the battlefield
didn't fit because it wasn't David's armor.
And he was like, you know, I'm not gonna lie. I'm not gonna lie. I'm not gonna lie
It was Saul's armor.
So if you show up on the battlefield or in everyday life
I'm not gonna lie. I'm not gonna lie. I'm not gonna lie
in Saul's armor, well, it's not gonna fit you.
So you gotta show up in your armor.
You gotta show up in your princess gear.
You gotta show up in your tiara,
whatever that means for you guys.
So show up as you.
I'm gonna read something over you
and then whoever needs to hop off, you can hop off
because I wanna make sure to read this
and speak this over all of you.
And then I'm gonna come, if anyone wants to stay on,
stay on, would love to have you stay while we listen.
I'll only be able to take two more,
Nicole and Mary, okay?
All right.
So this is God's declaration over all of you.
This is from the book.
It is not mine.
So I just wanna make sure everyone knows this is Jackie's.
Here it is.
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter,
a light bearer, a truth teller, and a hope dealer.
My heart is awakening.
It's my time to be made whole.
I contain the beauty of all creation.
The mysteries of the entire universe reside in me.
I am the image of the almighty God,
the offspring of the great I am.
I am a beloved daughter of God.
My original heart is the one of love, joy,
peace, hope, and innocence.
I was created for community.
I am accepted in the family of God.
I have been created to prosper.
I will not be anyone besides who love God.
God love, that's what it's referring to,
has made me to be.
From this moment forward,
every day when I look in the mirror,
I am going to see more and more of what God sees.
Woo, you all.
You are everything to the Father.
You are everything to him.
Yes, Jesus left the 99 for the one.
You are the one tonight.
So what do you have need of?
Because he cares about what you need.
And guess what?
He also cares about what you want.
If what you want isn't good for you,
he may not give it to you.
Praise God he protects us from ourselves,
you all, sometimes.
Praise God he didn't let that guy marry me.
Oh my gosh, you all, I would have ruined my life.
I would have ruined my life.
But I thought I wanted him.
Praise God, God knew better.
And he protected me from myself during that time.
And he's protected some of you.
And he's gonna help you.
He's gonna help you find the better path.
I'm gonna say one more thing
and I'm gonna go to our next two ladies.
When I read that part about my original heart
is one of love, joy, peace, hope, and innocence.
When I read that word innocence, I felt,
I mean, the whole thing was blessing me.
I just feel there's so much power when I read that.
It's amazing.
You guys might wanna start reading that out loud
over yourself often right now.
But I wanna say when I said that word innocence,
I felt it sweep over me.
Okay?
And so I know there's someone,
whether you're watching live on right now
or you're watching the replay,
that you lost innocence very young.
It was taken from you.
But I want you to know that your original heart had that.
And God's gonna restore that to you.
He's gonna restore that to you.
And I want you to know that God's gonna restore that
to you in the latter years here.
And it begins today.
It begins today for you.
Okay?
All right.
If you all wanna stay, stay.
But I just always wanna let people know
they can leave if they need to go ahead and sign up.
So, Michelle,
I won't be able to take your question tonight.
I'm only gonna be able to do Nicole and Mary
and then we're gonna close down for the night, okay?
But please put yours in the group so I can respond to you.
Okay, Nicole, go ahead.
Right there, I guess this message was for me.
I mean, this whole meeting tonight,
because I'm currently trying to see how God sees me.
Like, what value?
Because I grew up, you know, I come from poverty.
So, it's always like, I want to be better, you know, I don't want to be in the same situation
that my mom was raising us.
And I look back and I say, okay, well, it's quite better than it was when she was raising
us.
You know, my kids this and that and they had better than I had when we was growing up.
But it's just, it's hard for me to see because, like, I have to try to vision myself or see
myself how God sees me, which is supposed to change the way I see things.
So, like, in certain situations, like financially, when you think about, like, spending habits
and stuff, you know, like me pulling back when I thought about the always going to stores,
I guess, in a sense for me, I have five children.
And so, like, I'm always bargaining and I'm always, but before then, I was always like
that.
And I think it got a lot worse when I had the kids because I would do for them and leave
me, you know, kind of, oh, I'll do for myself in a couple more months.
And then a couple more months come around and I still don't do for me because the kids
always need something.
So it's like, God, did you just make me to be a mom and just, you know, and it's kind
of like I put myself on a back burner.
And I also tend to settle with me because I'm thinking, like, maybe, well, God, I know
you didn't put me here to be, like, single with five kids, but what man, what good man
am I really going to meet that's going to accept me and my five kids and he's really
going to be good.
It's like I've always thought about, like, give and take.
I have to be like a give and take thing, like, oh, I have to accept this because he's accepting
me and my five kids or, or something like that.
So I'm really at a point where I'm just like, God, where do you, I mean, I'm really trying
to see the vision he has for me.
That's where I'm, that's where I'm exactly, that's where I'm at.
So the first thing, yeah, I love it.
Thank you for what you shared, Nicole, and I think there's more than just you that's
in this place tonight.
So I appreciate your courage and sharing.
I have a couple thoughts.
You know, when Jen was sharing how she like started envisioning who she was in that, that
other place, okay.
Sometimes we literally have to do that.
So that can look a lot of different ways.
It can be one of the things I did, this was a different coach had me do this and was really,
really helpful for me.
And this wasn't necessarily about my identity, but I think this will still help you.
She had me create a vision board for who did I want, like, what did I want my job, my life,
my career to look like?
And then she also had me do one for like, what kind of man did I actually want to be
with?
And what did I want that relationship to feel like, look like all that kind of stuff.
And so I spent quite a bit of time on those two boards years ago, and they, they became
a visual reminder for me that when other things came my way that were not in alignment with
those things, then it was like that visual reminder, wait a minute, no, like, this is
where I'm going.
This is who I'm becoming.
And so that may or may not, if you're a visual person, that probably will really help you.
But here's the thing.
It also, ladies, it begins with knowing the word more and more and more.
So for me, what transformed my heart internally, even beyond things like doing a vision board,
is I started looking up scriptures that talked about my identity, my value.
And after I like looked those up and read those, I would memorize them.
And I know this is kind of old school, but you guys, it really works.
It does.
The word of God will transform.
It has the power to cut through bone and marrow and rebuild and restore us like never before.
And then after I really let those kind of marinate in my spirit, if you will, then God
led me to do that with scriptures about him, his character.
Because what I started learning was that the more secure I became in him, the more secure
I became in myself.
Does that make sense how I said that, everyone?
So I started doing studies on.
you know, the character of God. And I started with God is love. And I just started looking
up all kinds of scriptures about God is love and studying those and spending time with those,
praying about those. Um, so that's that side of it on the aspect of like,
when we are, when we grow up in situations, so like, I'm not saying it's the same as yours,
but my grandmother lived in a trailer. Um, the only reason we had a house, my mom was a single
mom with four kids. The only reason we had a house is because my grandparents on my dad's side paid
for us to live there. Um, my mom did her best, but, and I didn't know that when I was younger,
I found that out later, but, um, my mom struggled financially, so I didn't learn a lot of financial
things from her. And so, um, I, I just started taking financial classes and I know that's not
an easy answer ladies, when you're struggling financially, but like the only way, whether
it's financial or educational or regarding our bodies and our health, the only way for us to
change what we leave behind is to do something different than what we saw and learned from our
parents. And that doesn't mean that we're saying they weren't good or that they didn't try or any
of those things, but knowledge is your power. It really is. And so the more knowledge we gain,
the more power we have to shift and create a different tomorrow for our children.
And for ourselves. So I would, you know, in this regard, part of like growing and coming
out of poverty mindsets for me was me learning how to save money, learning how, like I worked
at a trust company at one point, if you guys don't know what that means, I worked at a company where
a lot of people would come to our company and we would invest their money for them.
And they would be like, I worked for a company where it was people with high net worth. They
had a lot of money. And when I started like learning and seeing how other people live,
it changed my whole, like, Oh my gosh, like, wait a minute. Like I don't live like this.
And in the cause some like, well, I don't know if I could ever have something like that,
but then I started having money taken out of my paycheck and put into a 401k
and money taken out. And it just, over time, I'm not saying I'm them yet,
but I definitely have a lot more money saved now because I started somewhere.
I had to start somewhere. You guys can start somewhere too.
It's committing to ourselves and choosing. So I don't know if that was helpful for you,
but those are just a couple of things. I know that's the financial thing isn't,
doesn't feel like identity, but that's how you can start to shift out of
those things in the physical realm. It's to arm yourself with knowledge and tools.
Is that good, Nicole?
Yeah, I guess. Cause I've always wanted better. I've always wanted better, but it's like,
I guess I just have to roll with the purpose that God has for my life. And I'm sooner or
later I'm gonna get there because it's like, no, I don't want to be in poverty. Of course,
nobody does. I grew up in it and I don't, I want my kids to have a better life, but it's like,
it's like always something is blocking it or getting in the way of it or I started and stopped.
Yeah. I will say you all heart healing definitely changed me regarding my finances as well.
It really did. And so what you're doing right now is one of the best investments you can make in
yourself truly. And through this process every day that I literally will ask God, God, what is
the thing you want me to do today? I try, of course I have to do lists with things to do for work,
but like, I'll try to ask God, what's the one thing you want me to do today to grow myself or,
you know, whatever. I kind of know what that means between God and I, God, what's the one,
because if we try to focus on 10, we get overwhelmed and we tend to not move forward.
But if we focus on one every day, just one thing, we will tend to start moving forward.
Does that feel more helpful? Yes. More, more small bites. I think for you and anyone else
that this applies to when you can get small wins in your pocket, I think that'll help.
create more wins for you and you'll start to feel some momentum moving forward. Yeah,
God's got you. He's going to help you. And you doing this and being here is a huge, huge plus.
Okay, Mary, go ahead.
Um, I just wanted to say thank you for tonight because I feel like this is what I needed this
week. But two things that you said that stuck in my head that I'm trying to like figure out
is one, sharing the story of the girl who like, when she got took into a fancy restaurant,
and she was like, This is weird. Why? I always been like that. I'm always been like,
I'm the simple girl, you can just take me to McDonald's, I will be happy. As long you know,
so really, because I always even when going to restaurants, like I'll order a salad if somebody
offered to pay because I was like, I don't want them to spend over me that and then the other
thing that you said that really it's like, playing in my head till now is that God can like set up
table by you will be like you put yourself under the table and okay to take crumbs. So I always
been like that where God has set up tables for me. And I'm like, No, I'll sit on the kids table.
I'm okay. And it's like, I don't even understand why I do that to myself.
Okay, two things. Um, so that I'm in I like, I'm an easy girl. I, you know, easygoing,
I think is what you said. Not easy, easygoing girl. I'm okay with McDonald's. I know that came
out so wrong. Oh, man. So here's the thing deep down somewhere. Typically, when we do that,
it's because we don't really think we deserve the other stuff. Or like I said, without guy,
I was dating, I was trying to, I was trying to be cool. And I was trying to just like,
I'm easygoing. Because somewhere deep down inside, I also felt like if I actually say what I want,
or need, this guy won't like me.
So we do that. We don't, we don't necessarily lean into what do we like? What do we want?
And is it okay to have McDonald's? Of course. But y'all, you better be going on dates that
are better than McDonald's. Okay, we're just gonna set that that tone right now.
Oh, man. I'm doing a little funny as we're getting late in the night. But just seriously,
we're getting late in the night. But just seriously, like, I think you just have to
start asking the Lord. Like, when did you start telling yourself that you had to just be okay
with whatever? You know, and you may need to I used to feel really uncomfortable at fancy
restaurants, too. And sometimes I still do. But I have found that the and I'm not like we don't
overspend you guys, like when we went to Hawaii recently, we saved for the whole trip,
we paid for it in cash, we did not go into debt, God is blessing our lives. And so I'm not big on
just like, I don't like to waste money. And I don't like to be frivolous. I really don't. But
I have found that I really enjoy from time to time going to a very nice restaurant
that I wouldn't normally go to. And just experiencing it and the food you all is like,
it is so good. It really is very different. A steak at a fancy restaurant is way different
than a steak at just, you know, and again, it's like a Texas Roadhouse. And those are great.
But there's just something really kind of wonderful about experiencing
finer taste, finer food. And it's not just the restaurant thing. It's kind of like what
Jen was sharing earlier to like, if you walk into a fancy hotel, are you comfortable there?
Maybe going and sitting in the lobby and letting yourself just be there and feel it
and experience it. So I would encourage you, Mary, I think, like I said earlier,
ask the Lord, what do you need to buy yourself? Where do you need to go? Do you need to go
somewhere that you wouldn't normally go and just start to experience that kind of upgrade environment
so that you start to get comfortable. And again, it doesn't mean that that's going to be your,
maybe it will be your normal, but it doesn't mean that that's something you have to do all the time
if that's not really what you like. But it's more about, again, like
why, what's leading you to not get up in that chair at the table, like what you said.
So ask the Lord, like, when's the first time that you were afraid?
to get up in the chair, so to speak.
Was there a time where there was a blessing
that was sitting there for you,
and for some reason you had fear
that if you actually took a hold of that,
that there would be consequences for it?
Or here's the flip side, ladies,
and I'm gonna start to close us.
Sometimes you all were afraid of our own greatness.
Mary, I have a feeling that might be the case.
I think that there is greatness on the inside of everyone,
but right now I just feel like that there's the,
if I can find the quote, I'll put it up in the group,
but I'm not sure.
But there's a quote that talks about like,
basically, our greatest fear is that we would have
all this greatness on the inside of us,
and that we could actually change the world,
that we could actually impact those around us,
that we could actually impact those around us.
I mean, I'm kind of paraphrasing now,
but just, I feel like the fact
that you recognize the chair's out,
but you're not getting in it,
it could be because you're afraid
of how great you're actually gonna become
if you let yourself get in that chair.
And what will you leave behind when you do?
So are there fears of friends, people,
things being left behind?
Do you have any, and you don't have to answer now,
but I'm just kind of stirring this up
so you can go to the Lord with it.
But like, or are there fears of like,
if you get up in the chair and you start doing well,
that God's gonna pull that rug out from you
and it's gonna be taken away.
So why even let yourself get up there
and start to enjoy it now?
Okay, so it could be anything.
It could be stuff that I never even mentioned,
but just start asking the Lord about it.
He's bringing it to your mind for purpose
to lead you into greater freedom.
I also don't wanna forget,
I was gonna mention to Nicole,
you mentioned, would there really be a guy
that would want to be a dad to my five kids?
And the answer is yes.
Yes, there is.
And here's my example for you all.
I have no biological children of my own.
Y'all wanna guess how many kids I have now though?
You wanna guess, Nicole?
Five.
I have five.
I have my stepson from my first marriage.
I have my two spiritual daughters that I treat as my own,
like literally y'all, like they're mine.
I've adopted them.
And now I have my two daughters
that are my husband's daughters, but they are mine now.
I have five total.
I always thought I would have two kids of my own.
Many years ago, but God had different plans for me.
So I'm saying that to you to say,
none of those kids are biologically mine,
but they are 100% mine and I love them.
And I'm so grateful that God gave me an opportunity
to have them in my life.
And so I believe that there are men like that out there.
And I've seen my own husband loving my spiritual daughters
and investing in them.
Now that that's two for him,
well, three counting my stepson,
but you know what I'm saying, right?
You hear what I'm saying?
So it's out there.
Ladies, believe it.
God has good things for you.
Okay, we are way late tonight.
I see sleepy eyes.
I'm getting sleepy too.
I hope this was a blessing for you all.
I'll see you all in the Facebook group.
I'm gonna pray real quick.
Father, thank you.
Thank you for everything that you have done tonight,
the things that you're gonna continue to do.
Jesus, just come and help.
And the areas that we don't know how to break free,
we don't know what's holding us back.
We just ask for you to come and help.
Holy Spirit, we ask you to weave in and out of minds,
hearts, bodies, spirits, and souls,
and just minister to them.
We thank you that you're the great comforter.
You're our friend.
You're closer to us than a brother.
You're our counselor.
So counsel us even while we sleep.
We thank you for healing being released in Jesus name.
Be with them this week.
Protect them from every attack of the enemy.
Keep watch and guard over them and their families.
In Jesus name.
Amen.
All right, y'all.
I'm checking out.