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All right, so welcome to your heart check-in ladies and Bethany is going to be facilitating most of that check-in

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But I came tonight because I really wanted to just check in with y'all and let you know that God is on the move

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God is on the move. I am in Cartagena and that is in Colombia. That is in South America

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I have never been out of the country except once last summer

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My family went to Italy and that was the first time that I left the United States of America besides Niagara Falls

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Well in Cabo, Mexico, that's true. And so

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This is definitely a whole different culture down here, but God loves

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His single sons and daughters. We are here for the very first

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Last-trip single retreat that is why I'm here

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And so I would have never chosen that this to be the place

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But God chose this city and it's very obvious why because people here are so hungry they're so hungry for

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Holy Spirit, they're so hungry for

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You know marriage and family. I mean, this is a culture that you know, obviously values marriage

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but then there's a lot of breakdown because of the

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Patriarchy and machismo and if you don't know what that means

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That just means men acting badly and not being sorry for it because it's part of culture

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And so the local news did a story twice on me being here and

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All kinds of crazy things started happening. And so I just want to let you know that God is opening up other nations

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I really believe that there are you know

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amazing men and women in these nations that God has hand-picked to be part of this revival of marriage and family and

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So it's just it's so it's so incredible. I'm so I'm just blown away honestly by it

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Ah

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No one here speaks English

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Doing a local news interview was an interesting a very interesting

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Situation, but we did have some women that showed up for our first ever last year single

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conference here in Cartagena and

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They are definitely world changers

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They're definitely people that God has put his hand upon to help bring this movement here

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So and we're gonna do this exact same thing four weeks from now in Canada

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Except we've been sowing the seed in that nation for a while, especially Western Canada, Calgary, Alberta

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Edmonton and so we're excited to be going there a month from now and that will be our second last trip single retreat in

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Conference and then we have several other several other conferences planned several for the domestic United States. We have one planned for

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Frankenmuth Michigan for all you Midwestern girlies. We're gonna be having that we're gonna do Christmas

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Actually the second week of December that's gonna be our signature retreat where we do a say yes to the dress event

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That is a very prophetic retreat if you can come to that you're gonna love it

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And then we do that same retreat in Austin. We'll be doing that in August

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I don't know Bethany if they got a calendar of all the proposed trips and retreats for last trip single

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It should be tagged in your featured section. I think we put it up for everyone

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So we're about to open the registration page for the Calgary retreat and conference in Canada

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And then the rest of them will be not that far behind

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London we're going to London this year in the fall

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We're going to be there for a royal wedding. No, just kidding

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We're gonna be there for a wedding and we're gonna do a retreat and a conference on the tail of that

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Hopefully partnering with one of our San Francisco churches that has a church plant in London and we're gonna be doing a San Francisco

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Or West Coast Conference Menlo Park as well this year. I don't think that that made it to the calendar Bethany

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So that's just some things for you to get excited

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and you know why because I've been looking through your group today and I see that so many of you are so glad that you

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Took the leap of faith and you're getting so much breakthrough already

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And the reason why is because you're missionaries if you never knew that you were gonna be called to be a missionary

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Guess what? You are you are called to be a missionary to marriage and family

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God is raising up missionaries to marriage and family and you are a missionary

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And so I want that to become part of the confession that you have of yourself

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That God has called you

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to the mission field of marriage and family and it's gonna be very very

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Exciting not easy but worth it

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Okay

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so I wanted to pop in here this tonight and just tell you that one of the things that came spiritually to me today to

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tell this

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class

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That's in phase one right now is I want you to be very aware of the stories that you tell yourself

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Write that down

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We all tell ourselves stories

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And they come in the form of thoughts.

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They come in the form of the reactions

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that we have to things.

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Like for instance, for a long time,

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when things would get too difficult

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and I would fear disappointment,

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I would tell myself what I call

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the language of disappointment.

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I would say, that doesn't matter.

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It doesn't matter anyway.

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I didn't want that anyway.

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Also, I frequently found myself saying to myself,

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Jackie, you should just give up on this.

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You should just quit this.

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You should just stop.

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You should not even, you shouldn't even try anymore.

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And what is that?

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That is the language of disappointment.

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That is the language of fear.

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That is also the language that keeps us

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from really putting ourselves out there,

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taking risks, taking territory,

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because obviously the enemy doesn't want us to do that.

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The opposing forces don't want us to do that,

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but not just that.

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Deep inside, there's a part of you

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that doesn't want you to do that either

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because that part of you is just afraid

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of more disappointment and trauma,

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more failure.

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I remember when I first stepped out,

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really tried to launch my first company,

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which was a television network for women called Jane TV.

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I would very frequently find myself

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in a place where I was telling myself

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that I was a failure,

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that I was gonna disappoint everyone,

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that this wasn't gonna work out,

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that there wasn't gonna be any kind of success

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and that everyone was gonna be mad at me.

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Those are stories that we tell ourselves, right?

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Raise your hand if you have a story that is on repeat,

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like a broken record in your head.

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And right now you're thinking of it,

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the language that you keep telling yourself.

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Yeah, well, that language comes from somewhere, right?

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It comes from past experiences.

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It might be someone else's voice in your head.

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It might've been a verbally abusive former spouse

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or sister or brother.

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Just recently, a lot of people

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are dealing with sibling rivalry in the heart work.

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That's what they're dealing with.

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It wasn't parents that they had to forgive

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as much as siblings.

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One of my students just told me that,

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growing up, her mom and dad worked a lot

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and she had an older sister

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and her older sister became a very

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verbally abusive mother figure to her.

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Nothing was ever good enough.

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So that could be a sibling's voice in your head,

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always competing with you,

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always comparing themselves to you.

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It could be a former boss or teacher or pastor.

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It could be a parent, right?

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The language that we use to talk to ourselves

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usually comes from somewhere else originally.

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So I want you to think about

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where that might originate from right now.

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It might come from culture.

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You look in the mirror and you don't see,

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smiling back at you,

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what culture has found attractive or valuable.

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Some of you are old enough to know that

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women have not been highly valued in society.

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You come from those generations and guess what?

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There were a lot of really bad messages

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that were sent to women that were born before 1950

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or around the 50s, right?

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To tell you that you only have one thing

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that you have to offer this world

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and that is your uterus,

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which is kind of ironic, right?

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Because just 10 years later, we had abortion on demand

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and we had birth control on demand,

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but women, that's all they were good for.

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You get married and you become the possession of some man

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and then you bear him children, right?

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And so that could be the narrative inside of your mind

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that you hear.

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It could also be just culturally,

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whatever's in style or in fashion or whatever's attractive,

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you don't see that looking back at you in the mirror.

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Let's see, what does culture tell us

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is beautiful right now?

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I'm pretty sure it's bizarrely small waists

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and really large butts.

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I don't know how this happened,

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but I don't think it's attractive.

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It's a freak show, y'all.

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It's a freak show out there, isn't it?

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It's a good thing that we don't take our cues from that,

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right?

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Because I'm pretty sure the only time you can get that body

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is if you have surgery and lots of it, right?

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And so, but we have.

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take inventory and one of my favorite things to say is this, you can write this down,

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we don't get what we expect, we get what we inspect.

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What does that mean? That means that you have to take your thoughts captive. Isn't that what

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the Bible says? We have to inspect our thoughts. And so in this process of heart work, I want you

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to really pay attention to what you're thinking about. Think about what you're thinking about.

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I've become so self-aware that when that story tries to go on repeat in my mind,

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when I start talking to myself in that language, I recognize it now. And I also recognize that

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it's not part of the authentic me, it's part of a counterfeit me, it's part of a trauma-based me.

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But when that voice starts yapping, I also realize that I'm in a place of overwhelm or stress,

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I'm in a place of fear, I'm in a place where whatever I'm going to do next is going to

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require risk. And so now I'm afraid. That voice that you hear,

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those things that you tell yourself, those stories that begin to go in your mind on repeat,

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pay attention not to just what they're saying, but actually when they're happening as well.

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When are they happening? Is it happening right before you go on a date?

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I once had a student that would throw up, physically throw up before every single date,

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had so much anxiety about just being rejected basically was the bottom line.

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So pay attention to when they show up. Do they show up before you're going to go into social

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situations? Do they show up before you're going to try something new? Do they show up when you

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get an invitation? Do you get an invitation to do something and then they show up? Do they show up

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at work? Do they show up in family? Do they show up when you hang out with certain friends and not

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other friends? Do you guys know that we can have something called frenemies? You ever heard this

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word? It's a real thing. And you know what it is? It's people that they're masquerading as friends,

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but they really are jealous. They're competitive. They're comparative.

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And they use language a lot of times that's very deceiving and manipulative.

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Right? It comes across as, I don't know if that was a slam. Was that a put down?

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Like you constantly find yourself asking yourself, are they like, are they cutting me down right now?

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Or are they just kidding? Are they being sarcastic? They're always comparing themselves.

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They're always saying things like, Oh, you know, is that what you're going to wear tonight? Oh,

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Oh, well, yeah, fine. It looks, I would never wear that, you know, but you can wear that,

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you know, just things that are just subtly undermining. They also might be voices that

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are not really crazy about this journey that you're on right now. You probably are not to the

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part. And some of you might be to that, to that week where I talk about the crabs in the bucket.

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And these are also voices that will try to keep you from going forward.

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And it'll be subtle. It won't be overt. A lot of times it won't be in your face. A lot of times,

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a lot of times it'd be like, Oh, I don't know if you can trust that guy. You'll be excited about

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something. And they're always raining on your parade. Does anyone know these people? They're

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always raining on your parade and they might not just be a friend. They might be a family member.

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It might be your mom. It might be your auntie. It might be, you know, your best friend's mom,

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who knows who it is, but you've got to be careful of these voices because these voices get in and

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they become those stories in your head. This other person's voice. You want to surround yourself with

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people that are going to cheer for your love story. And that are also going to clap when you

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win. They want you to win. They're excited for you to win. In fact, the best thing that could

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ever happen to them is that you could win. You want those people in your life. And if you don't

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have any of those people, it's time to find those people. Raise your hand. If you don't have any of

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those people, you can't think of one person besides this community that is really excited

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about what you're doing right now. Good. It looks like all of you have somebody. Perfect.

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Now you want more of those somebodies and less of those other buddies. Okay. And sometimes you

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can't cut those people off because they're related to you, but you can stop listening

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to what they're saying. Especially if after you leave them, you feel defeated. It's hard

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to shake negativity, you guys. And when you leave someone who's really deeply negative and offended

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and jealous and competitive, that voice will be in your head for a while.

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Okay. So those are the

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Things that I wanted to share tonight,

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I really felt that on my heart really strongly

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about those voices that we're listening to,

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whether they're coming from the outside

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or whether they're coming from the inside,

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if they don't line up with what you're learning here

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about yourself and about God

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and about how God feels about you,

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okay, if they don't line up

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with what you're being taught here,

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then you have to dismiss them.

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And it's not gonna be easy, you can't erase.

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I'm watching to see who this is resonating with

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because that means that you're already

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to that point of the teaching.

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You can't erase, you have to.

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Can't erase, you have to.

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And I see Bethany mouthing it,

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she should, she better know.

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Replace, you can't erase.

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You guys, you will never erase these thoughts,

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these stories that are in your mind and heart,

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you won't erase them.

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You can't just say, oh, I'm not gonna believe that,

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I'm not gonna think about that anymore.

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No, you have to start thinking about something else.

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You can't erase them, you have to replace them, okay?

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And so when they come, and they will,

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and they're always going to,

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for the rest of your life,

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for the rest of your life,

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there's always going to be a naysayer

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that tries to jump in your life,

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like from the outside or from the inside,

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some sort of negativity, some sort of lie,

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some sort of trauma-based lie,

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some sort of old broken story or narrative

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is going to try to repeat itself inside of your mind.

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You're going to have to recognize it,

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and you're going to have to tell yourself the truth.

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So this is what I do now.

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I still have those thoughts that come in my mind,

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intrusive thoughts, obsessive thoughts.

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Who has intrusive and obsessive thoughts?

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You do.

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Pay attention to what those are about.

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Write those things down so you can see them,

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so we can all laugh at them together,

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because they're lies.

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Intrusive and obsessive thoughts.

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Nothing good's ever going to happen to you.

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Forever alone.

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It's going to happen to everyone else, but not you, right?

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And a lot of you are waiting for the other shoe to drop.

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I want you to be honest right now.

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This is something that I've dealt with most of my life.

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Because of my very traumatic childhood,

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that I've never, I'm a very positive person,

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so I'm not verbally negative,

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but inside there's this feeling of doom,

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where I was always just kind of waiting

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for the next bad thing to happen to me.

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Always just kind of waiting, you know?

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They call it the other shoe to drop.

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Yeah, I call it the evil forebodings, Jen.

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You're right on track.

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The evil forebodings that always come.

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Like, for instance, my husband,

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we have a studio in our garage,

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and it only opens from the inside.

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He went there to work, to do some production stuff,

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and I went and knocked on the garage door,

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and he didn't answer.

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And I called his phone, and he didn't answer.

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Well, immediately my mind went straight to,

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oh, he dropped dead in there.

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He's dead in the garage.

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He's dead.

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He had a heart attack.

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He's gone.

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He's dead.

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What, why?

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Why?

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Why does it have to be worst case scenario?

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Why does he have to be dead in the garage, on the floor?

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Because this is what you get set to when you have PDSD.

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Has anyone ever heard of PDSD?

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Raise your hand if you think

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that you have some version of PDSD.

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Raise them high, loud and proud.

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Let's see them.

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I should have you raise your hand if you don't think

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you have any version of PDSD.

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And there's another thing that they call,

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and there's another thing that they call complex PDSD.

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And you know what that means?

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It means you complicated.

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You have PDSD, and you complicated.

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You a complicated person.

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And you know what?

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That's okay.

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So I see a lot of hands up right now.

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All of you rowing that boat with me.

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Okay, so I want you to understand

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that you really can't trust your thought.

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You can't trust them.

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And so you have to pay very close attention

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during this process of heart work

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into what is coming in,

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into what you're hearing from the outside.

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You might wanna stop scrolling.

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You know, if you always find yourself reading the sad stories

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and seeing all the people that are dying

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or getting diagnosed with diseases and all the things,

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and that's what your mind looks at.

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You guys know that there were a lot of happy posts too.

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Why do you only notice the sad ones?

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Why do you only notice the bad ones?

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ones. Why are you hyper vigilant about danger? Come on, this is really important. Holy Spirit's

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on this, Bethany. Let's roll with it. Why are you always only noticing the bad things?

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Because you had to protect yourself throughout different seasons of your life. That's called

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PTSD, post-traumatic stress disorder. And when you have that, a lot of times your imagination,

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your consciousness is tuned into potential danger around you, including when you would

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just be rolling through Facebook, just scrolling through. You don't notice all the people that

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are having babies and getting married and getting promotions at work and all the happy

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things. You just notice, oh, these people were in an accident or these people, this

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happened to them and that happened to them. And what does that, that makes the world just

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a little bit more scary, right? A little bit more dangerous. And then what do we do? We

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protect ourselves a little bit more and a little bit more and a little bit more. Does this resonate

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with you? This is what happens. And I want you to be honest right now. You're not just,

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you're not just tuned into the bad things that are happening. You actually go down the rabbit

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trail and you click on the link and you go read the whole story about what happened to those poor

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unfortunate souls. Let me see your hand if you do it. You just can't stand it. You just got to go

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look at the train wreck. You want to go see the wreck. You want to see, you want to hear

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all about it because you just part of it, part of it. I know that you think that it's

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just macabre, right? So it's like, I don't know why I'm so morbid. Why in the world would

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I want to go look at that? Because part of it is you trying to figure out what happens

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so that it won't happen to you. Did you know that people that are addicted to true crime,

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it's not because they like to hear about people getting murdered. They want to see

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why they got murdered and what they did wrong to get murdered so that they don't get murdered.

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I'm not kidding. Did you know the number one genre for women in the world to watch and listen to is

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true crime? And I'm convinced that this is why people do it. It isn't because women are morbid

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and they want to hear the gory details of how some man, you know, you know, took out a hit on

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his wife's life and killed her. They want to hear the whole story so that they can see where

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this woman had her blind spots and where she didn't notice what was going wrong so that they

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can make sure it doesn't happen to them. And I think it's an unconscious thing. It's one way

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that we keep ourselves safe. The problem is Shelley and all the rest of you that watch and

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listen to true crime is that it actually is just exacerbating your PTSD. It's just making the world

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a scarier and more dangerous place. Do you guys know that there are websites out there and Facebook

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groups for women to join and they're called things like girl run or are we dating the same guy? And

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there's one in every city. And what they're for is there for women to post all the horror stories

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they have in dating. I mean really bad things y'all. Okay. Found out this man's married. He's

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married to more than one person. All the different things. This guy's a cheater. This guy's what my

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kids call hump him and dump him. You know that kind of stuff. They post these guys pictures on

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these Facebook pages and the whole story. They post their social media handles and all the things.

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I'm surprised someone hasn't been sued yet for libel and slander. But the bottom line is this.

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People join those groups and if you join those groups I'm just gonna tell you what's gonna

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happen to you. You're not gonna keep yourself safe from bad guys. You're gonna actually start

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believing that that's all there is is bad guys. That's what's gonna happen. When you put that in

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front of your face that's what happens. And so let's be careful not only what we are listening

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to that's already inside of us in these stories and narratives but let's also be very aware during

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this hard work process. I almost ask you to go on a media fast and to what you're letting come in as

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well. Yes Diana. Ear gates and eye gates. Let's be very aware of what we are consuming that's gonna

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stand in the way of our healing because so many of you are getting a massive breakthrough already.

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So exciting to read through your posts and see all the crazy breakthrough. God's speaking to you.

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You're seeing all kinds of patterns. You know God's talking to you because of those things. You

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know it's not a coincidence. You're also having dreams. All kinds of you. Remember you are on a

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dating sabbatical. Please please stay on the dating sabbatical. There's plenty of time for that in

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phase two and three. Right now this time is for you to get clear to get clear and to not just not

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silence those voices but to replace those voices with truth. Amen. Amen. Now I know that Bethany has

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taken a little inventory of all of the things that.

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You guys have shared in week one, two, three, four, and five.

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She's gonna coach on that tonight.

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Remember I said, you don't get what you expect,

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you get what you inspect.

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And what does that mean?

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That means you have to take a deeper, deeper look

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at what it is that you're thinking,

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because that will lead to what you're believing, right?

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That will lead to what you're believing.

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And it's the beliefs that we want to shift.

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The beliefs are what we want to replace with truth, right?

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Okay, all right, love y'all.

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I hope you guys have an amazing night.

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Thanks, Bethany, for letting me break in.

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Absolutely, man, that was so good.

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You all, so much going on in the spirit

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with what she's just releasing.

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When she was talking during the end,

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the song, Oh, Be Careful, Little Eyes,

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What You See came up in my spirit.

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I haven't thought of that song in forever.

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And y'all, for those of you that just joined us this week,

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you might not know, but a couple of weeks ago,

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we were talking about awakening the little princesses.

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And in order to awaken the princess us now

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in today's world, if you will,

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we have to heal the little us.

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We have to really learn how to let God come in

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and heal that.

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And so how interesting that tonight,

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part of what she's saying has led to that.

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And this is what, I'm not gonna read the whole thing,

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but I just wanna read this

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because I do believe God is on this

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and somebody else still just kind of needs to hear this.

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Oh, be careful, little eyes, what you see.

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Oh, be careful, little eyes what you see

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for the father up above is looking down in love.

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So be careful, little eyes what you see.

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Be careful, little ears, what you hear.

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Oh be careful, little ears, what you hear

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for the father up above is looking down in love.

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So be careful little ears what you hear.

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And it goes on and on.

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And it basically goes on from here.

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Be careful, little tongue, what you say.

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Be careful, little hands, what you do.

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Feet, where you go.

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Heart, who you trust.

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Mind, what you think.

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And just reiterates over and over again,

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the father's not looking down in chastisement, anger.

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Do y'all catch that?

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He's looking down with love.

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So tonight, what is God just trying to encourage you

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to really start to shift what you're allowing

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to impact your mind, your heart, your body,

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your spirit, and your soul?

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Like every day, and I'll be honest, y'all.

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I don't know if I watch true crime,

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but I do tend to like crime shows like the NCIS

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and all that.

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But we were watching, my husband and I were watching

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a series not that long ago.

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And it hasn't been around for a real long time.

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I'm not even gonna mention it.

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But I just felt like, you know what?

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This is getting pretty dark.

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And I just, the Holy Spirit was like,

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you need to stop watching this.

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And it wasn't like I was having like lots of fear

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in that moment, but I started realizing

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my dreams started changing.

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The enemy started showing up more in my dreams

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as I was watching that show.

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So just wanna say these things do impact us, ladies.

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So just be thinking about that.

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I really want to, I did, I do have content planned,

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but I really feel like what she opened with

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is super important.

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Some of you guys really need to talk about this.

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What she started with, if you weren't on

478
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right at the beginning, is beware of the stories

479
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that you tell yourself.

480
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What are your thoughts?

481
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What are your reactions?

482
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What's the storyline that you are currently

483
00:28:39.720 --> 00:28:40.560
telling yourself?

484
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She gave a couple examples of things that she has faced

485
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and heard and thought of.

486
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It doesn't matter.

487
00:28:47.600 --> 00:28:50.060
I didn't want that anyway.

488
00:28:50.060 --> 00:28:51.920
Jackie, you should just give up on this.

489
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Like, you know, what is it that you guys,

490
00:28:54.460 --> 00:28:57.640
that you ladies are hearing where the Lord

491
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is really trying to say to you tonight,

492
00:29:00.760 --> 00:29:03.320
inspect these thoughts, catch a thought.

493
00:29:03.320 --> 00:29:06.160
You guys, I talk a lot about catching thoughts quickly

494
00:29:06.160 --> 00:29:09.360
and casting them down, you know, scripture declares

495
00:29:09.360 --> 00:29:11.800
and making them obedient to Jesus Christ.

496
00:29:11.800 --> 00:29:15.840
So, you know, it's not just, hey, this thing comes in

497
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and I sit and meditate on it for a long, long time

498
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and then cast it down, which yes,

499
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sometimes that will be what happens,

500
00:29:22.320 --> 00:29:25.640
but we wanna catch that stuff quick, as quick as we can.

501
00:29:25.640 --> 00:29:28.800
And what Jackie shared is that the more we practice

502
00:29:28.800 --> 00:29:31.420
catching these thoughts and stopping them,

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00:29:31.420 --> 00:29:34.700
the better you're going to get at discerning.

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Ask the Lord when you have a thought,

505
00:29:36.820 --> 00:29:39.200
God, is this my thought?

506
00:29:40.040 --> 00:29:42.040
God, is this your thought?

507
00:29:42.040 --> 00:29:45.760
Or God, is this a thought from the enemy?

508
00:29:45.760 --> 00:29:48.280
Some of you all, that's where you need to start.

509
00:29:48.280 --> 00:29:50.060
You don't even know the difference.

510
00:29:50.060 --> 00:29:51.760
And I'm not saying this in a shameful way

511
00:29:51.760 --> 00:29:53.480
because that's part of learning.

512
00:29:53.480 --> 00:29:55.420
It's part of growing in your walk with the Lord.

513
00:29:55.420 --> 00:29:58.200
Even if you've been saved a really long time,

514
00:29:58.200 --> 00:30:00.200
some of you are telling me.

515
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.400
that you're struggling to hear God or to know, is it God or is it?

516
00:30:04.400 --> 00:30:07.920
So just praying that simple prayer, God, is this you?

517
00:30:07.920 --> 00:30:10.320
God, is this my own thoughts?

518
00:30:10.320 --> 00:30:12.480
Or is this a thought from the enemy?

519
00:30:13.280 --> 00:30:16.480
So some of you all have grown up with people saying stuff to you.

520
00:30:16.480 --> 00:30:21.280
You've adopted thoughts that now are your own thoughts.

521
00:30:21.280 --> 00:30:23.360
So that's when I say, is it my own thought?

522
00:30:23.920 --> 00:30:26.480
And those are the thoughts that are now a habit,

523
00:30:27.200 --> 00:30:28.800
even though they're not healthy for us.

524
00:30:28.800 --> 00:30:36.400
So when she was talking about, sometimes we say we want the good thing,

525
00:30:36.400 --> 00:30:41.120
we say we want the spirit, or we say we want to break free financially.

526
00:30:41.120 --> 00:30:47.040
But deep down inside, there's a part of us that's actually afraid for it to happen.

527
00:30:47.600 --> 00:30:52.560
Because then there's that risk of, in our minds, losing it.

528
00:30:54.160 --> 00:30:58.080
So, or some of you, there's a quote, I think this came up last week.

529
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Some of us fear our own greatness.

530
00:31:01.120 --> 00:31:04.960
Some of you have been told so long by, like, growing up,

531
00:31:04.960 --> 00:31:07.920
people that teased you on the playground, wherever it was,

532
00:31:07.920 --> 00:31:12.080
that you, you know, were nothing or you can't amount to anything,

533
00:31:12.080 --> 00:31:16.560
or whatever the phrase is that beats you down mentally and emotionally,

534
00:31:18.080 --> 00:31:23.200
that you heard it so much that that became kind of like your go-to,

535
00:31:23.200 --> 00:31:24.800
even when you don't want it to be.

536
00:31:25.360 --> 00:31:32.160
And so if when you encounter the good, if that feels uncomfortable to you,

537
00:31:32.160 --> 00:31:37.440
I would encourage you to spend as much time around the good as you can.

538
00:31:37.440 --> 00:31:40.320
So what Jackie is saying, limit the bad.

539
00:31:40.320 --> 00:31:43.280
Limit the bad, spend a lot of time with the good,

540
00:31:43.280 --> 00:31:46.000
spend time in the word, worship, you know,

541
00:31:46.000 --> 00:31:50.320
really allow yourself to be around other happy people.

542
00:31:51.280 --> 00:31:56.480
You all, it really can start to impact the way that you're thinking and doing life.

543
00:31:57.040 --> 00:31:59.920
And I'll say for the person that would say, well,

544
00:31:59.920 --> 00:32:04.240
the reason I don't really like to go around a bunch of happy people is like,

545
00:32:04.240 --> 00:32:05.680
I'm not where they're at.

546
00:32:05.680 --> 00:32:10.240
Like I don't have what they have and I don't feel happy like they feel.

547
00:32:10.240 --> 00:32:12.400
Has anybody ever had that happen?

548
00:32:12.400 --> 00:32:18.560
Like everybody else around you, you're like looking and they all look so happy,

549
00:32:18.560 --> 00:32:19.920
but you're not.

550
00:32:20.560 --> 00:32:24.240
And so it makes it difficult to be around them,

551
00:32:24.880 --> 00:32:27.280
but I would encourage you to go towards them,

552
00:32:28.320 --> 00:32:32.560
go towards them, feel the feel so God can heal the feels.

553
00:32:32.560 --> 00:32:34.480
So I'm going to put you in your first breakout.

554
00:32:34.480 --> 00:32:37.840
I did not have this plan, but I just feel led to run with it.

555
00:32:37.840 --> 00:32:39.600
And I'm just going to come up with the question.

556
00:32:39.600 --> 00:32:41.440
So what is the thought tonight?

557
00:32:41.440 --> 00:32:43.520
What is it that God is saying to you?

558
00:32:44.880 --> 00:32:47.600
You need to stop having this thought.

559
00:32:47.600 --> 00:32:48.960
Maybe it's more than one thought,

560
00:32:48.960 --> 00:32:52.240
but just run with whatever Holy spirit's highlighting to you.

561
00:32:52.240 --> 00:32:54.880
And let's see what he wants to do tonight.

562
00:32:54.880 --> 00:32:56.880
All right. I'm going to set up the breakout rooms.

563
00:32:58.320 --> 00:33:00.560
If you're not able to go in the breakouts,

564
00:33:00.560 --> 00:33:02.240
please put in the chat for me.

565
00:33:02.240 --> 00:33:05.840
So I know whether or not I need to pair someone different in the room

566
00:33:05.840 --> 00:33:06.800
that you get assigned to.

567
00:33:06.800 --> 00:33:09.760
Okay. That that's super helpful to me to see that.

568
00:33:11.680 --> 00:33:15.440
I think I'm going to do three to four and that will help that some as well.

569
00:33:16.080 --> 00:33:17.440
When you guys go into your breakouts,

570
00:33:17.440 --> 00:33:19.520
remember kind of hang out there.

571
00:33:19.520 --> 00:33:21.200
Even if nobody else is there with you yet,

572
00:33:21.200 --> 00:33:24.720
some people have slow internet and sometimes I need to figure out,

573
00:33:24.720 --> 00:33:28.320
you know, if people are not able because they're driving or whatever.

574
00:33:28.320 --> 00:33:30.880
Oh, very good for our new people.

575
00:33:30.880 --> 00:33:34.400
I'm so sorry. Normally I kick us off and you all, I didn't pray yet.

576
00:33:34.400 --> 00:33:36.240
So let me do that as well.

577
00:33:36.240 --> 00:33:38.240
Before I send you into breakouts, breakouts,

578
00:33:38.240 --> 00:33:41.280
basically we put you into a small room,

579
00:33:41.280 --> 00:33:44.400
like a small group with three or four ladies,

580
00:33:44.400 --> 00:33:47.440
and you're going to just all talk about the question that I gave you.

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I would encourage any of you,

582
00:33:49.760 --> 00:33:52.640
even if that's kind of like makes you sweat when you hear it,

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00:33:52.640 --> 00:33:55.120
you're nervous. You don't know these people.

584
00:33:55.120 --> 00:33:58.400
God brought all of you here for a purpose for such a time as this.

585
00:33:58.400 --> 00:34:01.600
And some of you all are going to be radically blessed by the people

586
00:34:01.600 --> 00:34:03.120
that God puts you with in your room.

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00:34:04.080 --> 00:34:06.320
And so just even if you feel afraid,

588
00:34:06.320 --> 00:34:08.159
I'm going to encourage you to do it afraid.

589
00:34:08.159 --> 00:34:11.520
Hey, I'm going to encourage you to just open up and let people in.

590
00:34:11.520 --> 00:34:13.120
This is part of coming out of hiding.

591
00:34:13.679 --> 00:34:15.679
All right, Father, thank you so much for this night.

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00:34:15.679 --> 00:34:17.520
Thank you, God, for the word that Jackie released.

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00:34:17.520 --> 00:34:20.320
Thank you, God, for what you're stirring in the spirit realm.

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00:34:20.320 --> 00:34:22.800
I pray that even as the ladies go into the breakout session

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00:34:22.800 --> 00:34:26.320
that you would just really illuminate

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00:34:26.320 --> 00:34:28.719
anything that's in darkness that needs to be brought to the light.

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00:34:28.719 --> 00:34:31.360
God, that you would reveal areas for healing.

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00:34:31.360 --> 00:34:34.000
God, that you would just help them to recognize thoughts

599
00:34:34.000 --> 00:34:35.679
that they need to come out of alignment with

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00:34:35.679 --> 00:34:38.159
that do not belong to the kingdom of heaven,

601
00:34:38.159 --> 00:34:40.080
that did not come from your heart.

602
00:34:40.080 --> 00:34:44.159
Even as that song, like you're looking down on us with love,

603
00:34:44.159 --> 00:34:46.880
with love in your heart and your eyes towards us.

604
00:34:46.880 --> 00:34:49.920
So anything that we've encountered in our lives,

605
00:34:49.920 --> 00:34:53.600
trauma, wounds, fear, panic, dread, worry,

606
00:34:53.600 --> 00:34:55.600
anything that is not of heaven,

607
00:34:56.400 --> 00:34:59.760
that's still taking up residence in our hearts and our souls.

608
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.600
our bodies. I ask you just to continue to bring those things

609
00:35:03.600 --> 00:35:06.700
to the surface that they would begin to just to even right now

610
00:35:06.700 --> 00:35:09.400
some of them are feeling it bubbling in their in their

611
00:35:09.400 --> 00:35:12.300
spirit and it's just going to start to bubble up. This is a

612
00:35:12.300 --> 00:35:15.900
spirit led thing God that you do this work. It's not about us

613
00:35:15.900 --> 00:35:19.000
digging. It's about you revealing it and allowing it to

614
00:35:19.000 --> 00:35:22.200
come to the surface. So we thank you in advance father Jesus.

615
00:35:22.200 --> 00:35:24.600
Thank you for dying on the cross for allowing your blood to

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00:35:24.600 --> 00:35:27.000
be shed for the forgiveness of our sins for our freedom for

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00:35:27.000 --> 00:35:30.700
our Liberty Holy Spirit. We thank you that you're here. We

618
00:35:30.700 --> 00:35:34.900
invite you to come and have your way and Jesus name. Amen.

619
00:35:35.100 --> 00:35:40.700
All right, so we're going to go ahead and do I'm going to do

620
00:35:40.700 --> 00:35:43.400
nine minutes for you all you have three to four people in

621
00:35:43.400 --> 00:35:48.700
your room. You're talking about what is the storyline you've

622
00:35:48.700 --> 00:35:51.800
been telling yourself or the thought that you have happened

623
00:35:51.800 --> 00:35:55.100
to think or think a lot however, you guys want to word it that

624
00:35:55.100 --> 00:35:58.600
you need to come out of alignment with tonight and really

625
00:35:58.600 --> 00:36:01.300
stop those thoughts at the gate. If you will, we're going to

626
00:36:01.300 --> 00:36:04.300
start stopping that stuff at the gate before it comes in. All

627
00:36:04.300 --> 00:36:09.000
right, here you go. Go ahead and click to join. We're praying

628
00:36:09.000 --> 00:36:09.900
for you all.

629
00:36:18.300 --> 00:36:20.700
Rachel I see you just so you know, I have to wait until they

630
00:36:20.700 --> 00:36:23.200
stop bumping around and then I can put you in a room here.

631
00:36:26.000 --> 00:36:26.500
There we go.

632
00:36:30.200 --> 00:36:32.500
There you go. That should be up there for you.

633
00:36:39.800 --> 00:36:43.000
All right, Bonnie, Melanie. I don't know if you guys are able

634
00:36:43.000 --> 00:36:44.500
to click to join.

635
00:36:48.700 --> 00:36:51.900
I did see a couple people saying they were not able to join

636
00:36:51.900 --> 00:36:53.000
totally fine.

637
00:36:56.100 --> 00:36:56.700
Okay.

638
00:37:00.100 --> 00:37:03.400
Yeah, so Jen you guys just hang out here. If you can't go into

639
00:37:03.400 --> 00:37:06.000
the breakout if you didn't figure that out already, sorry.

640
00:37:06.000 --> 00:37:07.300
I'm just now seeing that.

641
00:37:08.900 --> 00:37:10.600
Okay, I just need to check on everybody.

642
00:37:16.200 --> 00:37:20.200
Okay, so let's see here. Everybody's got two people. I think

643
00:37:20.700 --> 00:37:24.100
sorry ladies. Give me a sec and I'll just start checking in.

644
00:37:25.100 --> 00:37:26.100
To pray.

645
00:37:30.200 --> 00:37:33.000
For those of you that aren't able to go in the breakout. I

646
00:37:33.000 --> 00:37:35.600
want to encourage you to put some stuff in the chat like that.

647
00:37:35.600 --> 00:37:38.500
What's coming up in your spirit, so you can't go on breakout,

648
00:37:38.500 --> 00:37:41.700
but let's let's bring that up and then you know, maybe I can

649
00:37:41.700 --> 00:37:43.600
coach on that a little bit as well.

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00:37:44.700 --> 00:37:48.300
Father just thank you so much again for everything that you

651
00:37:48.300 --> 00:37:49.400
are doing tonight.

652
00:37:49.400 --> 00:37:52.400
God, thank you for the word released in due season through

653
00:37:52.400 --> 00:37:56.500
Jackie the revelation that's coming from heaven that you would

654
00:37:56.500 --> 00:38:02.400
help us to become your daughters who choose really wisely the

655
00:38:02.400 --> 00:38:07.400
things that we hear and say and do even today.

656
00:38:07.400 --> 00:38:10.700
I was interpreting a dream someone posted in the phase one

657
00:38:10.700 --> 00:38:12.700
group and in their dream.

658
00:38:12.700 --> 00:38:17.600
They were trying to get to another side of a school and their

659
00:38:17.600 --> 00:38:21.200
purse and their keys were on the other side of the school and

660
00:38:21.200 --> 00:38:23.600
in and they were trying to get to that and there was other

661
00:38:23.600 --> 00:38:25.500
things that they encounter, but that's just coming up in my

662
00:38:25.500 --> 00:38:29.900
spirit when I looked up like and really prayed about the keys

663
00:38:29.900 --> 00:38:31.700
the keys that were in the purse.

664
00:38:31.700 --> 00:38:36.100
The purse often can often represent our hearts all kinds of

665
00:38:36.100 --> 00:38:40.900
stuff, but the keys in particular keys often represent wisdom

666
00:38:40.900 --> 00:38:42.400
you all in Authority.

667
00:38:43.400 --> 00:38:46.100
If you think about even like I know this is kind of like a

668
00:38:46.100 --> 00:38:50.400
funny example, but even like a video game like typically the

669
00:38:50.400 --> 00:38:54.700
higher the level, you know, you get these keys to go in to these

670
00:38:54.700 --> 00:38:56.500
higher places, right?

671
00:38:57.200 --> 00:38:59.900
And so I want to encourage you guys just to really be asking

672
00:38:59.900 --> 00:39:04.700
the Holy Spirit what wisdom he wants to impart into you to take

673
00:39:04.700 --> 00:39:06.600
you to the next place.

674
00:39:06.600 --> 00:39:10.200
He wants you to go to all right Reimers.

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00:39:12.100 --> 00:39:15.500
And Lucy we are doing a breakout session right now on beware

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00:39:15.500 --> 00:39:17.000
of the stories you tell yourself.

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00:39:17.000 --> 00:39:21.000
So thoughts and reactions just want to remind anybody if you're

678
00:39:21.000 --> 00:39:23.800
joining from phase two, we don't want to talk about any dating

679
00:39:23.800 --> 00:39:26.900
stuff in here and just as a refresher.

680
00:39:26.900 --> 00:39:30.200
I'm going to put you guys in a breakout though, so you can talk

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00:39:30.200 --> 00:39:30.900
with the ladies.

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00:39:30.900 --> 00:39:32.200
Those are coming your way.

683
00:39:36.100 --> 00:39:37.000
All right, there you go.

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00:39:37.000 --> 00:39:40.600
Those are there for you to click on if you are able to join.

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00:39:40.600 --> 00:39:42.500
I'm sure they would love to have you in there.

686
00:39:43.500 --> 00:39:47.800
So as we're talking about the keys and the wisdom, you know,

687
00:39:47.800 --> 00:39:51.100
wisdom is in the book of Proverbs.

688
00:39:51.100 --> 00:39:54.100
There's so much wisdom to be gained in there and there's a ton

689
00:39:54.100 --> 00:39:58.500
of wisdom in the whole Bible in general, but Proverbs and James

690
00:39:58.500 --> 00:40:00.000
are both known as books.

691
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:06.320
about wisdom and how to grow in wisdom. And from my experience, growing in wisdom and growing in the

692
00:40:06.320 --> 00:40:12.160
understanding of the love of the father have been two very critical, vital things to my healing

693
00:40:12.160 --> 00:40:18.960
process and to freedom that's come into my life. So just want to give that to you all as well.

694
00:40:19.600 --> 00:40:25.520
Proverbs 18, 19 says, it is easier to conquer a strong city than to win back a friend whom you

695
00:40:25.520 --> 00:40:29.840
have offended. Interesting. Cause Jackie, I didn't just kind of randomly pick this one out.

696
00:40:29.840 --> 00:40:36.000
Their walls go up, making it nearly impossible to win them back. So Lord, we just pray even

697
00:40:36.000 --> 00:40:41.920
right now, as Jackie was talking tonight about frenemies and people who get offended and all

698
00:40:41.920 --> 00:40:47.760
that stuff. We know that, um, as Jackie has taught us offense is an opportunity for an upgrade. So

699
00:40:47.760 --> 00:40:53.120
Lord, we just ask you if people are getting easily offended around us and it's causing us to be in

700
00:40:53.120 --> 00:40:57.200
toxic environments when we're not doing anything wrong, I pray that you would give us wisdom to

701
00:40:57.200 --> 00:41:02.240
know and discern that. But Lord, if we are getting easily offended by other people,

702
00:41:03.920 --> 00:41:08.480
Lord, help us to know what the upgrade is. Help us to know what it is you're trying to teach us

703
00:41:08.480 --> 00:41:15.520
and show us. And it doesn't mean we're doing something wrong, but oftentimes when we get

704
00:41:15.520 --> 00:41:22.480
offended, it's because it's going into an area that is triggering something else in us. Sometimes

705
00:41:22.480 --> 00:41:28.080
it is injustice that's been done to us. So there is that, but there are a lot of times where the,

706
00:41:28.080 --> 00:41:33.760
where the Lord is saying that we don't have to choose that path. We don't have to choose to be

707
00:41:33.760 --> 00:41:39.040
offended. We can choose the pathway of forgiveness. We can come out of alignment with roots of

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00:41:39.040 --> 00:41:44.080
bitterness. You all, it actually in the Bible talks about that. We should not desire to have

709
00:41:44.080 --> 00:41:50.640
any root of bitterness, um, taking root in our hearts and our souls. And if we do, if we allow

710
00:41:50.640 --> 00:41:57.600
that to take root, it can actually cause, um, you know, things to begin to spoil down in our spirit,

711
00:41:57.600 --> 00:42:04.000
if you will. So Lord, we just thank you right now for revealings for healing in regards to

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00:42:04.000 --> 00:42:10.720
anybody that has offended us, uh, even in the last week, maybe even today, uh, in the last few months,

713
00:42:10.720 --> 00:42:15.040
Lord, maybe it's been years ago, but anything that's being brought to the surface where we

714
00:42:15.040 --> 00:42:22.320
have been offended because of things that people said or did, Lord, we just ask you to reveal any

715
00:42:22.320 --> 00:42:27.600
area for healing. Help us to see, Lord, maybe what we couldn't see when that was happening.

716
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What is your spirit saying? What is your spirit trying to lead us into? What is the higher path?

717
00:42:33.440 --> 00:42:41.520
What is the greater way? And help us to walk in it, uh, tonight. Psalm 119, 165 in the Passion

718
00:42:41.520 --> 00:42:46.080
Translation says this is, there is such a great peace and wellbeing that comes to the lovers of

719
00:42:46.080 --> 00:42:51.840
your word and they will never be offended. How crazy. I really didn't know that was about offense

720
00:42:51.840 --> 00:42:57.360
as well, but it's interesting. So I'm going to read it again. There is such a great peace and

721
00:42:57.360 --> 00:43:04.480
wellbeing that comes to the lovers of your word and they will never be offended. Lord, we just

722
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thank you, um, that you would help us to be daughters that would hunger and thirst for your

723
00:43:09.360 --> 00:43:14.640
righteousness, for your word, that we would grow in the understanding of who you've called us to be,

724
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that we would lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us. And we would press on toward

725
00:43:19.680 --> 00:43:26.000
the high calling of God for our lives, that we would literally choose to walk in those pathways

726
00:43:26.000 --> 00:43:32.240
of righteousness for your namesake, Lord, that we would allow you to, to shine your glory into us

727
00:43:32.240 --> 00:43:37.920
and through us in every situation. Do we need to be doormats? No, but Lord, I thank you that you

728
00:43:37.920 --> 00:43:43.040
give us the, you give us the wisdom and discernment for the times we need to stand up for ourselves.

729
00:43:43.040 --> 00:43:49.040
And you also give us the wisdom and discernment for the times that we need to just choose to walk

730
00:43:49.040 --> 00:43:58.160
away and choose to forgive and choose to, um, walk in and be cloaked in love. And I just heard that

731
00:43:58.160 --> 00:44:03.840
specifically in my spirit to be cloaked in love. Let's think about that. Let's even meditate on

732
00:44:03.840 --> 00:44:10.160
that a little bit tonight. What does it look like to put on a jacket, if you will, that literally has,

733
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you know, let's maybe we'll just say word, the word love all over it, but let's, let's look at

734
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that from the perspective of putting on love. Like it's actually God himself putting on love, put on

735
00:44:23.520 --> 00:44:30.720
joy, put on hope that we every day have a choice when we wake up myself included to put on the

736
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armor of God, the belt of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, the shoes of the readiness of

737
00:44:36.560 --> 00:44:41.520
the gospel of peace, the helmet of salvation, the shield of faith, the sword of the spirit.

738
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But so often we start our days without that stuff, but in the same way, would we wake up and put on

739
00:44:48.480 --> 00:44:55.920
love? Would we put on joy, even when we don't feel it, we can activate it. So just want you guys to

740
00:44:55.920 --> 00:44:59.920
remember that it's not always about what we feel. We can't allow.

741
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.800
our feelings and our emotions to dictate our choices and our thoughts and our actions.

742
00:45:06.000 --> 00:45:12.000
So we want to lead into truth. We want to walk in the fruits of the spirit, which are love, joy,

743
00:45:12.000 --> 00:45:17.440
peace, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, self-control. And I think forbearance is in there.

744
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And I don't know if one of the other words that I said is forbearance, but that we would walk in

745
00:45:22.400 --> 00:45:28.720
all the fruits of the Holy Spirit and that we would do what we can to cultivate those in our

746
00:45:28.720 --> 00:45:34.400
lives through the choices that we make, the thoughts that we think, the words that we say.

747
00:45:34.400 --> 00:45:40.640
You all, there's life and death in the power of the tongue and those who, what does the Bible say?

748
00:45:40.640 --> 00:45:47.280
Something, I forget how it says it, but we eat the fruit of what we say. We eat the fruit of what we

749
00:45:47.280 --> 00:45:53.760
think and what we say and the way we allow that to transform our lives. So I see everyone's coming

750
00:45:53.760 --> 00:45:59.200
back. We have like 18 seconds. While you guys were in there, I was praying and just sharing things

751
00:45:59.200 --> 00:46:04.240
God was putting on my heart. So you guys might want to go back and listen to those clips. You

752
00:46:04.240 --> 00:46:09.680
can kind of, you know, go through that replay and catch that later, but I hope it'll be a blessing

753
00:46:09.680 --> 00:46:14.560
to you if you were not, or if you were in that breakout session or you're catching this replay

754
00:46:14.560 --> 00:46:19.520
tonight. Welcome back. We have everybody now who is willing to share with the whole group

755
00:46:20.160 --> 00:46:25.680
what you shared in the private breakout. All right. Awesome. Nadine, go ahead.

756
00:46:27.280 --> 00:46:37.520
Hi. Hi. Okay. I had a breakthrough on Friday. I was sharing with the group that I caught myself

757
00:46:37.520 --> 00:46:45.120
speaking to myself aggressively and it was something quite silly. I, something, it wasn't

758
00:46:45.200 --> 00:46:51.040
silly, but it wasn't major. And I was correcting myself in my first language and it was very, it

759
00:46:51.040 --> 00:46:56.480
was in a very aggressive tone. And I stopped and I said, is this a voice of the Holy Spirit? And I

760
00:46:56.480 --> 00:47:01.280
said, no. And then I said, it has a spirit attached itself to me. Who's speaking to me like that?

761
00:47:01.280 --> 00:47:06.000
And I said, no, that is my voice. So that's something I'm dealing with. And that's something

762
00:47:06.000 --> 00:47:11.120
that the Holy Spirit is dealing with me with, because what I'm realizing from that is that when

763
00:47:11.120 --> 00:47:16.080
I get upset with people, I speak to them very, very aggressively. And I'm realizing that I don't

764
00:47:16.080 --> 00:47:23.600
know how to speak to someone, even if I'm upset and not be aggressive and rude and like that.

765
00:47:24.240 --> 00:47:29.680
The other thing I was telling the group is that I caught myself sometime ago saying,

766
00:47:29.680 --> 00:47:36.800
nobody loves you. And I'm a very confident person. Like just out of nowhere, I hear a voice in my

767
00:47:36.800 --> 00:47:43.280
head saying, nobody loves you. And, um, it was, I don't know if it was some months or some years

768
00:47:43.280 --> 00:47:50.240
ago that I realized it, but I've never replaced it. I usually say, no, that's not true. God loves me,

769
00:47:50.240 --> 00:47:56.400
but I've never replaced it with anything else or say, you know, maybe that is replacement.

770
00:47:56.400 --> 00:47:59.440
I don't know. So that was what I shared with the group. That's my two cents.

771
00:48:00.240 --> 00:48:05.680
I love this. This is so good. Okay. So a couple of things, um, first of all, thanks so much for

772
00:48:05.680 --> 00:48:14.960
sharing. Um, when you get upset with people and speak to them aggressively, and this is something

773
00:48:14.960 --> 00:48:18.800
that you've struggled with for a long time. The first thing I would look at for anyone that

774
00:48:18.800 --> 00:48:25.280
struggles with this is a, when did this start? Like, when did this start for you? And I lost you

775
00:48:25.280 --> 00:48:30.560
on my screen. Oh, there, there you are needed. Um, when did it start for you? So ask Holy spirit,

776
00:48:30.560 --> 00:48:38.400
when's the first time I got upset and spoke to someone aggressively and what was happening and

777
00:48:38.400 --> 00:48:45.760
why did I do that? Okay. Then I would also ask the Holy spirit, ask the Lord, you know,

778
00:48:45.760 --> 00:48:50.720
cause their Trinity, their three in one, you all. So sometimes I say Lord, and sometimes I say Jesus.

779
00:48:50.720 --> 00:48:54.880
And sometimes I say, Holy spirit, they are three separate, but they are three in one. So

780
00:48:55.600 --> 00:49:04.160
they work together as a team. Um, but I would also ask, you know, was this something that you learned?

781
00:49:05.600 --> 00:49:11.440
Cause as soon as you started talking about it, um, I, I really believe that this is something

782
00:49:11.440 --> 00:49:18.160
that you saw happening and also something that's been done to you, which is now why it's, it's like

783
00:49:18.160 --> 00:49:24.960
a habit, right? And so you're going to have to learn how to retrain that part of your brain.

784
00:49:24.960 --> 00:49:31.440
If you will, uh, there's a lot of studies on our brain and retraining our brain and new grooves

785
00:49:31.440 --> 00:49:37.040
that can grow. Y'all, if we think on negative things, it can actually damage our brains.

786
00:49:37.040 --> 00:49:42.640
No joke. Y'all can look it up. But if we think on positive things, it creates all these, like,

787
00:49:42.640 --> 00:49:45.760
I don't know the scientific terms. And it's been a little while since I read in this book,

788
00:49:45.760 --> 00:49:52.720
but basically lots of positive things happening up there that start like basically causing your

789
00:49:52.720 --> 00:49:58.320
brain to heal and grow and new cells and all kinds of stuff. So think about that. The next

790
00:49:58.320 --> 00:49:59.840
time you're allowing yourself to.

791
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.360
just be super negative. And I'm not saying we can't have bad days. Okay. We all have bad days,

792
00:50:06.160 --> 00:50:10.960
but what are we saying to ourselves? How are we thinking? What are we doing? Like,

793
00:50:10.960 --> 00:50:17.040
how are we acting and all of that? Okay. So want to encourage you on that, Nadine. And on the

794
00:50:17.040 --> 00:50:23.600
second one, nobody loves you. I love that you are recognizing. I feel like I keep hearing a voice.

795
00:50:23.600 --> 00:50:29.120
Sorry, y'all. Is someone unmuted? Okay. If you're unmuted, can you just mute for me?

796
00:50:31.280 --> 00:50:37.280
Have to replace that lie that you were hearing. Sometimes you all, the enemy is really sneaky,

797
00:50:38.080 --> 00:50:46.160
and he will speak very subtly, but it'll be very direct. Okay. So like when she heard that,

798
00:50:47.440 --> 00:50:53.200
the enemy was speaking to her and trying to get her to believe that nobody loves her.

799
00:50:54.320 --> 00:51:01.200
And that's like, it was a direct thing. Nobody loves you. And so her sitting and processing,

800
00:51:01.200 --> 00:51:06.160
wait a minute, like this isn't mine. I know God loves me, but now she's got to take it to that

801
00:51:06.160 --> 00:51:11.840
next step. So what I would do is encourage you to look up a couple of scriptures on,

802
00:51:12.560 --> 00:51:16.960
you know, just being really like rooted and grounded, being in God's family, being loved,

803
00:51:16.960 --> 00:51:25.600
anything of that nature, God's love for you. And really just allow the Lord to show you which ones

804
00:51:25.600 --> 00:51:30.320
speak to you the most. And I would encourage anybody when you're doing this, replacing

805
00:51:30.320 --> 00:51:37.680
the lies with the truth. You want to really let the Lord highlight the scripture to you.

806
00:51:37.680 --> 00:51:43.040
That's going to transform you. Okay. They're all going to be powerful and they're all going to

807
00:51:43.040 --> 00:51:49.040
bless you, but which one is going to help you really get the breakthrough to replace that lie.

808
00:51:49.040 --> 00:51:54.640
And those are the ones that I would then encourage you to write out, put those suckers up. I'm a big,

809
00:51:54.640 --> 00:51:59.920
you guys, if you've ever come, came in my house, my husband's family was just here recently and

810
00:51:59.920 --> 00:52:04.400
his sister, I noticed she was looking at my little post-its on my cupboards. And I'm like, yeah,

811
00:52:04.400 --> 00:52:08.880
those are my little reminders when God is speaking to me about something and I don't want to forget

812
00:52:08.880 --> 00:52:13.760
about it. I want to meditate on that. I'll write it on a post-it note or an index card. And I put

813
00:52:13.760 --> 00:52:20.480
that sucker up where I can see it. So one of mine right now is, is this my best? Yes. Or is this just

814
00:52:20.480 --> 00:52:27.440
a good? Yes. I know that's not the same, but like as far as looking and replacing, but I'm, I want

815
00:52:27.440 --> 00:52:35.440
to every single day, give my best. Yes. So for you, what is it that you need to do and lean into

816
00:52:35.440 --> 00:52:40.560
that truth that you are loved, that you're adored, that you're wanted, that you're chosen,

817
00:52:41.280 --> 00:52:49.600
you know, whatever the thing is for you all. Okay. Let's go to Stephanie. I think. Yeah. Stephanie.

818
00:52:52.880 --> 00:52:59.280
I had a bit of a breakthrough the other night. I was sure that nobody could ever help me get over

819
00:52:59.280 --> 00:53:07.760
what I did 20 years ago. And I have prayed about it so many times and I've tried to forgive myself

820
00:53:07.760 --> 00:53:12.400
so many times. And I finally said, okay, Holy Spirit, is there a lie that I'm believing

821
00:53:13.280 --> 00:53:18.800
that's keeping me from this? And it didn't take me too long just to write down.

822
00:53:19.680 --> 00:53:27.440
I think I'm unforgivable. And I just sat there and bawled for about 15 minutes. And then I wrote

823
00:53:27.440 --> 00:53:31.920
down the truth. And that is, I'm, I'm already forgiven. And that was such a huge breakthrough

824
00:53:31.920 --> 00:53:40.080
for me. It might not sound like a lot, but this has been ongoing for probably 20 years and my

825
00:53:40.080 --> 00:53:47.600
kids are part of it. And but no matter what they think at this point, I know that I'm forgiven. So

826
00:53:48.240 --> 00:53:54.000
that's so good to hear that. It is powerful. It is powerful. You all never underestimate your story

827
00:53:54.000 --> 00:53:59.360
and who it's impacting as you're sharing it on this session or in the replay. You know, people

828
00:53:59.360 --> 00:54:04.720
are going to watch this for weeks to come. And so God bless you. Thank you so much, Stephanie,

829
00:54:04.720 --> 00:54:10.640
for sharing. You know, on the flip side of that too, I really want to encourage you to ask the

830
00:54:10.640 --> 00:54:16.720
Lord to show you what it looks like to live the forgiven life. Okay. Cause you know, the truth now,

831
00:54:16.720 --> 00:54:22.080
you know, I feel the Holy Spirit on that for you. You know, the truth now that you are forgiven,

832
00:54:22.080 --> 00:54:28.400
but what does it look like to live free? What's it look like? What's it feel like,

833
00:54:28.960 --> 00:54:36.240
you know, you might even want to dream a little bit looking on, you know not Instagram, but like

834
00:54:36.240 --> 00:54:41.200
on Google and just start searching. You know what I would normally do is I would search the word

835
00:54:41.200 --> 00:54:46.880
freedom or living free. And I would look for images that really resonate. I'm a visual person.

836
00:54:46.880 --> 00:54:52.160
You also, I love to do things visually. But like, again, if there's something that jumps

837
00:54:52.160 --> 00:54:57.360
out and speaks at you, I would just put that up and let that continue to minister to your spirit.

838
00:54:57.360 --> 00:54:59.920
Yeah, man. What's it look, what's it feel like and look like?

839
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:01.400
like to live free.

840
00:55:01.400 --> 00:55:03.280
Isn't God so good, you all?

841
00:55:03.280 --> 00:55:04.120
He's so good.

842
00:55:04.120 --> 00:55:06.040
He's so creative in how he speaks to us.

843
00:55:06.040 --> 00:55:07.000
Thank you, Stephanie.

844
00:55:07.000 --> 00:55:07.840
Go ahead, Renee.

845
00:55:07.840 --> 00:55:08.660
Thank you, Bethany.

846
00:55:08.660 --> 00:55:09.500
You're welcome.

847
00:55:14.840 --> 00:55:16.200
Renee, do you wanna share?

848
00:55:21.080 --> 00:55:22.760
I do.

849
00:55:22.760 --> 00:55:26.460
So mine is, I have a lot of friends

850
00:55:26.460 --> 00:55:27.760
that are super successful.

851
00:55:27.760 --> 00:55:29.840
And like in our group, I was telling them,

852
00:55:30.120 --> 00:55:34.720
they work at the CIA, the FBI, the NIH,

853
00:55:34.720 --> 00:55:36.920
super successful in their jobs,

854
00:55:36.920 --> 00:55:40.780
have kids, work in foundations,

855
00:55:40.780 --> 00:55:44.240
spoken in front of Congress, and then there's me.

856
00:55:44.240 --> 00:55:48.700
And I am like, the mantra that's been going on

857
00:55:48.700 --> 00:55:52.000
in my head lately is that I've missed the mark,

858
00:55:52.000 --> 00:55:54.580
that I'm late to the party.

859
00:55:56.440 --> 00:55:59.400
Always a bridesmaid, never a bride.

860
00:55:59.400 --> 00:56:02.120
Somehow I've missed the opportunity

861
00:56:02.120 --> 00:56:05.120
that God had for me in my life.

862
00:56:05.120 --> 00:56:09.640
And I find it really hard to adjust to that.

863
00:56:09.640 --> 00:56:14.640
But I read a quote this week that was really,

864
00:56:15.520 --> 00:56:16.640
it was a short one.

865
00:56:16.640 --> 00:56:20.760
And it just said, you are the perfect person

866
00:56:20.760 --> 00:56:22.240
at the wrong address.

867
00:56:22.240 --> 00:56:24.380
And it really resonated with me.

868
00:56:24.380 --> 00:56:27.560
Like, it hasn't been me that's been the problem.

869
00:56:27.560 --> 00:56:30.440
I've just been in the wrong place for so long.

870
00:56:31.960 --> 00:56:35.240
And so it was God just reminding me

871
00:56:35.240 --> 00:56:38.600
that it's just where you are right now.

872
00:56:38.600 --> 00:56:40.920
It doesn't mean that you're wrong.

873
00:56:40.920 --> 00:56:42.760
It's just where you are right now.

874
00:56:42.760 --> 00:56:45.920
And that really encouraged me this week.

875
00:56:47.120 --> 00:56:48.440
Yes, that's so good.

876
00:56:48.440 --> 00:56:52.220
And I think I remember even responding to that post.

877
00:56:52.220 --> 00:56:54.160
And one of the things I wanna share too,

878
00:56:54.160 --> 00:56:57.040
because I think this will help other people as well, Renee,

879
00:56:57.040 --> 00:56:59.080
is that you all sometimes too,

880
00:56:59.080 --> 00:57:01.480
the wrong address is because we're living

881
00:57:01.480 --> 00:57:03.180
into counterfeit identities.

882
00:57:04.600 --> 00:57:06.640
When we're not living in the true identity

883
00:57:06.640 --> 00:57:09.400
that God gave us when he created us,

884
00:57:09.400 --> 00:57:11.200
we're living into counterfeit identities

885
00:57:11.200 --> 00:57:13.680
because of trauma and unhealed wounds.

886
00:57:13.680 --> 00:57:16.320
You know, even today someone shared,

887
00:57:16.320 --> 00:57:17.640
it makes me think of this,

888
00:57:17.640 --> 00:57:18.840
I'm like kind of bouncing around,

889
00:57:18.840 --> 00:57:21.800
but they've been in the group for a couple of weeks

890
00:57:21.800 --> 00:57:24.080
and they just did their introduction post.

891
00:57:24.280 --> 00:57:29.080
And, you know, coming out of hiding you all is a big deal.

892
00:57:30.000 --> 00:57:31.760
Allowing yourself to be seen,

893
00:57:31.760 --> 00:57:34.920
introducing yourself, taking that leap,

894
00:57:34.920 --> 00:57:36.640
you know, that's a big deal.

895
00:57:36.640 --> 00:57:38.800
And some of you still need to do that.

896
00:57:39.840 --> 00:57:42.680
Why, why does that even matter?

897
00:57:42.680 --> 00:57:46.160
Well, because you're practicing for showing up more

898
00:57:46.160 --> 00:57:48.560
in your life outside of here too.

899
00:57:49.720 --> 00:57:53.440
Some of you have faded into isolation

900
00:57:53.440 --> 00:57:55.760
and you've told yourself the lie,

901
00:57:55.760 --> 00:57:57.080
this came up on the first session.

902
00:57:57.080 --> 00:57:58.280
And so I'm just gonna go with it

903
00:57:58.280 --> 00:58:00.760
because I feel like it applies tonight as well.

904
00:58:00.760 --> 00:58:02.040
You've told yourself the lie

905
00:58:02.040 --> 00:58:03.760
that you're just better off alone.

906
00:58:04.800 --> 00:58:06.520
You're better off alone.

907
00:58:06.520 --> 00:58:09.600
And life is just easier without having to worry

908
00:58:09.600 --> 00:58:13.000
about anybody else or upsetting people

909
00:58:13.000 --> 00:58:16.960
or whatever storyline you've kind of aligned with.

910
00:58:16.960 --> 00:58:19.520
And it's kind of like what Jackie was saying earlier.

911
00:58:19.520 --> 00:58:24.240
She said that the thought that she was catching

912
00:58:24.240 --> 00:58:28.760
is it doesn't matter, I didn't want that anyway.

913
00:58:28.760 --> 00:58:32.040
And some of us have gone into hiding in such a way

914
00:58:32.040 --> 00:58:34.880
that we tell ourselves that,

915
00:58:34.880 --> 00:58:37.440
well, I didn't wanna hang out with anybody anyway.

916
00:58:38.680 --> 00:58:40.640
I don't, I'm a homebody.

917
00:58:40.640 --> 00:58:43.400
I don't, and some of us, again, reality,

918
00:58:43.400 --> 00:58:44.920
some of us do like, you know,

919
00:58:44.920 --> 00:58:48.680
we prefer that invert, like extrovert, introverted.

920
00:58:48.680 --> 00:58:50.160
We like time alone,

921
00:58:50.160 --> 00:58:53.720
but some of us get out of balance, right?

922
00:58:53.720 --> 00:58:57.320
With it where we're just home way too much

923
00:58:57.320 --> 00:58:59.440
and staying inside of our houses.

924
00:58:59.440 --> 00:59:04.400
Back in the day, I mean, we played outside all the time

925
00:59:04.400 --> 00:59:06.320
and we interacted with our neighbors

926
00:59:06.320 --> 00:59:10.800
and we talked to people and now myself included,

927
00:59:10.800 --> 00:59:12.960
I have so much stuff delivered you all where we live,

928
00:59:12.960 --> 00:59:14.480
but we don't have a lot of stores by us.

929
00:59:14.480 --> 00:59:18.280
But like, for real, like if I don't go outside

930
00:59:18.880 --> 00:59:22.000
and go to places, I literally could work every day

931
00:59:22.000 --> 00:59:25.120
because I work from home, from my computer.

932
00:59:25.120 --> 00:59:27.000
I have stuff delivered to me.

933
00:59:27.000 --> 00:59:30.000
I literally, for the most part, don't have to go anywhere,

934
00:59:31.080 --> 00:59:35.680
but I need to because I need to be around people.

935
00:59:35.680 --> 00:59:38.840
And so do you, each one of you, okay?

936
00:59:38.840 --> 00:59:42.200
So on that note, I don't know how I got over to that Renee,

937
00:59:42.200 --> 00:59:43.640
but I wanna circle back.

938
00:59:43.640 --> 00:59:45.800
I've missed the mark.

939
00:59:45.800 --> 00:59:48.080
I wanna encourage you to ask the Lord where,

940
00:59:48.080 --> 00:59:50.200
again, where did that start for you?

941
00:59:50.200 --> 00:59:52.720
When was the first time you aligned with the lie

942
00:59:52.720 --> 00:59:54.000
that you missed the mark?

943
00:59:54.000 --> 00:59:56.280
And that you, what I'm hearing in the Holy Spirit

944
00:59:56.280 --> 00:59:58.600
is that you weren't good enough.

945
00:59:58.600 --> 01:00:00.200
You know, the comparison trap.

946
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.360
that you've gotten into is everybody's successful but me.

947
01:00:03.880 --> 01:00:08.840
And you could you said, and then there's me. So what's so wrong

948
01:00:08.840 --> 01:00:13.760
with you? That's my question for you. What's wrong with there?

949
01:00:13.840 --> 01:00:18.160
There's nothing. But let's start to ask God to show you who you

950
01:00:18.160 --> 01:00:22.640
are in the greatness inside of you. And and start to really let

951
01:00:22.640 --> 01:00:25.640
him unpack what like, what are the gifts and the abilities in

952
01:00:25.640 --> 01:00:30.120
you? And who are you? And who does he want you to become in

953
01:00:30.120 --> 01:00:34.560
this healing process? Because while you in the past believed

954
01:00:34.560 --> 01:00:38.200
that you missed the mark, I feel like God is setting you up for

955
01:00:38.200 --> 01:00:41.160
something really special in the future. Does it have to look

956
01:00:41.160 --> 01:00:45.680
like all your friends? No. You're sometimes the most

957
01:00:45.680 --> 01:00:50.360
powerful people are the people that love people one person at a

958
01:00:50.360 --> 01:00:54.800
time. Right? They're not always the people that go out and do

959
01:00:54.800 --> 01:00:58.640
these, you know, high, you know, really well known jobs and in

960
01:00:58.640 --> 01:01:01.600
all this place. Like, I'm not minimizing that. I think that's

961
01:01:01.600 --> 01:01:06.080
great. But we get into this. Well, that's greater than

962
01:01:06.080 --> 01:01:10.160
anything I could ever do. But where did that start? Because I

963
01:01:10.160 --> 01:01:14.600
don't think that's the voice of heaven. Right? So where did that

964
01:01:14.600 --> 01:01:19.880
start for us? And as you ask the Lord, just see what he just see

965
01:01:19.880 --> 01:01:22.960
what he shows you there. Because when you get to the root of

966
01:01:22.960 --> 01:01:26.840
where that began, then you can ask him to heal that area. And

967
01:01:26.840 --> 01:01:30.440
that's going to help you. I'm like, I'm hearing the word

968
01:01:30.440 --> 01:01:33.120
springboard. Like, I feel like it's going to be a springboard

969
01:01:33.120 --> 01:01:38.000
for you into something new. So bless you. Thank you for

970
01:01:38.000 --> 01:01:41.560
sharing. Let's see here. I have a couple more ladies and then

971
01:01:41.560 --> 01:01:43.920
we're gonna have to switch to the next content. Laura, go

972
01:01:43.920 --> 01:01:44.400
ahead.

973
01:01:48.400 --> 01:01:52.240
Okay, um, yeah, it really affected me when Jackie was

974
01:01:52.240 --> 01:01:56.400
talking about listening to true crime podcasts, because like, I

975
01:01:56.400 --> 01:01:59.400
got addicted to that, like a few years ago. And like, I listened

976
01:01:59.400 --> 01:02:04.160
to that pretty much like every day. But then also, yeah, I got

977
01:02:04.160 --> 01:02:07.840
divorced six years ago, and I found out five years into our

978
01:02:07.840 --> 01:02:10.520
marriage that the ex was like addicted to porn. And that was

979
01:02:10.520 --> 01:02:14.320
like a huge issue in our marriage for like many years. So

980
01:02:15.240 --> 01:02:18.600
yeah, my thing is, like, I'll never be able to find a man that

981
01:02:18.600 --> 01:02:22.080
I can trust again, or who will be like, honest and transparent

982
01:02:22.080 --> 01:02:27.120
with me. And then also, yeah, I am better off alone, because I

983
01:02:27.120 --> 01:02:31.880
have been alone, like these past six years, or even seven, since

984
01:02:31.880 --> 01:02:37.560
like, I filed for divorce, and then he moved out in 2017. So,

985
01:02:37.840 --> 01:02:40.800
yeah, that like, in my mind, I'm like, oh, I don't have to deal

986
01:02:40.800 --> 01:02:48.720
with like his whatever, like, issues, or if he has issues, or

987
01:02:48.720 --> 01:02:49.640
just Yeah.

988
01:02:50.640 --> 01:02:54.320
So one of the things to think of here, okay, so on this note,

989
01:02:54.320 --> 01:03:01.400
ladies, we have to start telling ourselves a different story. So

990
01:03:01.400 --> 01:03:04.400
I know that that is the prior story. I know you've been doing

991
01:03:04.400 --> 01:03:07.400
a lot of healing, Lauren, it's been so powerful to watch you

992
01:03:07.400 --> 01:03:10.680
walk this journey. And when I say tell yourself a different

993
01:03:10.680 --> 01:03:14.000
story, it's not it's not acting like that stuff didn't happen,

994
01:03:14.000 --> 01:03:19.240
because it did. But what Jackie is saying is very true, we will

995
01:03:19.240 --> 01:03:26.240
watch these shows to figure out how to not only I think, even

996
01:03:26.240 --> 01:03:29.280
beyond protecting our own selves, we also try to then

997
01:03:29.280 --> 01:03:33.240
protect other people from it. But you all then it's like, it

998
01:03:33.240 --> 01:03:37.520
starts to surround us, right? Because then we're so focused on

999
01:03:37.560 --> 01:03:41.040
the negative, and the things that are not good. And we just

1000
01:03:41.040 --> 01:03:43.640
don't realize and it doesn't mean you have to just completely

1001
01:03:43.640 --> 01:03:46.360
stop. I mean, you have to ask the Holy Spirit on that, Laura.

1002
01:03:46.640 --> 01:03:51.160
But I definitely can tell you that the times that God has

1003
01:03:51.160 --> 01:03:54.720
asked me to stop watching a show or stop listening to something,

1004
01:03:55.080 --> 01:03:59.440
and it's definitely served me really well, when I've shifted

1005
01:03:59.440 --> 01:04:02.920
that and spent more time reading the word or listening to

1006
01:04:02.920 --> 01:04:06.880
something that's positive, instead. And then it also

1007
01:04:06.880 --> 01:04:09.960
impacts what I started attracting into my life as well.

1008
01:04:09.960 --> 01:04:14.000
It's kind of it's pretty interesting. And so with what

1009
01:04:14.000 --> 01:04:17.880
you found out, I would just encourage you to ask the Lord,

1010
01:04:17.880 --> 01:04:22.600
like, what's the flip side of, you'll never find anybody good?

1011
01:04:22.640 --> 01:04:25.200
What's the flip side of that? What's the script that you need

1012
01:04:25.200 --> 01:04:31.520
to flip there? And I would say something like, you know, there

1013
01:04:31.520 --> 01:04:37.400
are men that love the Lord who are trustworthy. And Father, I

1014
01:04:37.400 --> 01:04:41.240
believe that you're going to draw a healthy spirit mate to

1015
01:04:41.240 --> 01:04:45.360
me. And you're going to help me to be drawn to a healthy spirit

1016
01:04:45.360 --> 01:04:51.920
mate as well. And starts like literally not like it, we have

1017
01:04:51.920 --> 01:04:56.160
to take it the whole way. So not only are we believing that, but

1018
01:04:56.160 --> 01:04:59.160
we're writing it out, we're saying it, and we're repeating

1019
01:04:59.160 --> 01:04:59.760
it. And we're

1020
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:01.440
lining our spirit with that.

1021
01:05:01.440 --> 01:05:04.720
And we're saying anytime that negative stuff comes back up

1022
01:05:04.720 --> 01:05:06.240
that we can't find anybody good

1023
01:05:06.240 --> 01:05:08.680
and I'll never be able to trust anybody ever again.

1024
01:05:08.680 --> 01:05:11.240
And I'm just better off not loving and risking

1025
01:05:11.240 --> 01:05:16.040
because I might just have the whole same thing happen again.

1026
01:05:16.040 --> 01:05:18.360
Y'all, I went through multiple relationships,

1027
01:05:18.360 --> 01:05:20.780
three in a row where similar things happen.

1028
01:05:21.640 --> 01:05:26.400
Do you think I wasn't afraid to love and risk?

1029
01:05:26.400 --> 01:05:28.920
Absolutely, I was.

1030
01:05:28.960 --> 01:05:30.120
But here's the thing,

1031
01:05:31.200 --> 01:05:33.320
when I went through the heart work and the mentorship

1032
01:05:33.320 --> 01:05:35.620
and all this stuff before that,

1033
01:05:36.680 --> 01:05:39.440
when I came into this community, this program,

1034
01:05:39.440 --> 01:05:40.960
God really just started speaking to me

1035
01:05:40.960 --> 01:05:43.480
about like being different now.

1036
01:05:43.480 --> 01:05:46.160
When you are healing and you're changing,

1037
01:05:46.160 --> 01:05:49.520
you aren't the same person that you were before.

1038
01:05:49.520 --> 01:05:50.520
And I say this all the time,

1039
01:05:50.520 --> 01:05:52.440
you aren't the same person you were yesterday

1040
01:05:52.440 --> 01:05:55.280
and tomorrow you're not gonna be the same as you were today.

1041
01:05:55.320 --> 01:05:58.700
And so if we are becoming something different,

1042
01:06:00.120 --> 01:06:03.520
why do we still believe we're gonna attract

1043
01:06:03.520 --> 01:06:05.480
the same thing that we did before?

1044
01:06:07.740 --> 01:06:09.940
Where's that coming from for us?

1045
01:06:11.560 --> 01:06:14.200
So just allowing the Lord to show us that

1046
01:06:14.200 --> 01:06:15.720
so that we can unpack that.

1047
01:06:15.720 --> 01:06:17.400
And again, there's no shame in it, you all.

1048
01:06:17.400 --> 01:06:19.820
I've had those thoughts too,

1049
01:06:19.820 --> 01:06:24.040
but when I allowed God to help me be honest with myself

1050
01:06:24.040 --> 01:06:26.360
and look at that stuff and take that to him

1051
01:06:26.360 --> 01:06:28.080
and ask him to change it.

1052
01:06:28.080 --> 01:06:30.760
Y'all, I was like walking around my apartment,

1053
01:06:30.760 --> 01:06:32.040
like I am a bride.

1054
01:06:32.040 --> 01:06:34.080
Bethany, I was Bethany Stanko back then.

1055
01:06:34.080 --> 01:06:35.760
Bethany Stanko is a bride.

1056
01:06:35.760 --> 01:06:38.120
God just started talking to me about like,

1057
01:06:38.120 --> 01:06:40.360
I needed to declare a thing.

1058
01:06:41.240 --> 01:06:43.640
I needed, so I prayed all the time,

1059
01:06:43.640 --> 01:06:46.640
God, thank you so much that you're gonna send healthy men

1060
01:06:46.640 --> 01:06:48.700
my way when I started in the dating stuff.

1061
01:06:48.700 --> 01:06:50.120
You're gonna send healthy men my way

1062
01:06:50.120 --> 01:06:52.000
and you're gonna protect me from the unhealthy men.

1063
01:06:52.000 --> 01:06:54.360
You're gonna help me to recognize someone

1064
01:06:54.360 --> 01:06:56.480
and I'm not gonna blow past red flags anymore.

1065
01:06:56.480 --> 01:06:58.000
I'm gonna recognize them

1066
01:06:58.000 --> 01:07:00.980
and I'm gonna also recognize green flags.

1067
01:07:00.980 --> 01:07:05.280
Praise Jesus, I'm going to be different this time

1068
01:07:05.280 --> 01:07:07.520
and attract somebody different this time.

1069
01:07:07.520 --> 01:07:11.060
Like it truly is, like we have to turn away

1070
01:07:11.060 --> 01:07:13.160
from all the fear-filled thoughts

1071
01:07:13.160 --> 01:07:16.400
that are over here in the past.

1072
01:07:16.400 --> 01:07:18.480
And as your heart heals, you're gonna be able,

1073
01:07:18.480 --> 01:07:20.640
like every time your heart heals a little bit more,

1074
01:07:20.640 --> 01:07:23.560
you're gonna be able to kind of shift a little bit more

1075
01:07:23.560 --> 01:07:25.440
and shift a little bit more and shift.

1076
01:07:25.440 --> 01:07:28.340
And before long, you're going to be walking

1077
01:07:28.340 --> 01:07:31.240
in an entirely different direction if you allow yourself.

1078
01:07:32.440 --> 01:07:35.460
Yeah, so just keep aligning with the truth, Laura.

1079
01:07:35.460 --> 01:07:39.880
You're on a great path, you're making so much progress.

1080
01:07:39.880 --> 01:07:41.920
So just keep aligning with the truth

1081
01:07:41.920 --> 01:07:44.120
because God is doing a work in your life

1082
01:07:44.120 --> 01:07:46.240
and something good is on the way.

1083
01:07:46.240 --> 01:07:48.860
It is, yeah, you're welcome.

1084
01:07:48.860 --> 01:07:50.760
All right, Lorraine, go ahead.

1085
01:07:56.240 --> 01:07:59.820
Okay, yeah, there were two of us

1086
01:07:59.820 --> 01:08:03.980
and we both basically said quite a bit

1087
01:08:03.980 --> 01:08:06.540
of the same concern that we have

1088
01:08:06.540 --> 01:08:11.540
is being afraid of if things work out.

1089
01:08:11.660 --> 01:08:13.980
What happens if things work out?

1090
01:08:13.980 --> 01:08:18.979
And I know for me, there's been what I call

1091
01:08:19.260 --> 01:08:20.899
like a string of pearls.

1092
01:08:20.899 --> 01:08:25.140
Jackie called it the complex PTSD.

1093
01:08:25.140 --> 01:08:27.740
And I've been alive on the earth for so long

1094
01:08:27.740 --> 01:08:31.020
that when I start to get a healing,

1095
01:08:31.020 --> 01:08:35.140
I've been here too long and I managed to mess it up.

1096
01:08:35.140 --> 01:08:37.020
And then it becomes complicated

1097
01:08:37.020 --> 01:08:38.939
because now I don't have one thing.

1098
01:08:38.939 --> 01:08:43.500
It's the multiplication going in the wrong direction.

1099
01:08:44.340 --> 01:08:45.420
And so I call it like,

1100
01:08:45.420 --> 01:08:47.260
I've heard somebody say a string of pearls.

1101
01:08:47.260 --> 01:08:48.899
So, and that's what it is.

1102
01:08:48.899 --> 01:08:51.420
It's like one thing after another

1103
01:08:51.420 --> 01:08:54.080
and to be so accustomed to that.

1104
01:08:55.779 --> 01:08:58.620
Cause I think about how would I actually ever be able

1105
01:08:58.620 --> 01:09:00.260
to be around a healthy man

1106
01:09:00.260 --> 01:09:05.260
because I've never had that my whole life, bar of Jesus.

1107
01:09:05.260 --> 01:09:08.060
And then I believe I have a really good son,

1108
01:09:08.060 --> 01:09:12.979
but my growing years, my married life,

1109
01:09:12.979 --> 01:09:14.180
just wasn't there.

1110
01:09:14.180 --> 01:09:19.180
And I'm so glad to be in this group

1111
01:09:19.939 --> 01:09:22.779
because I could never do this alone.

1112
01:09:23.740 --> 01:09:26.020
I would have just said, okay, I shut down

1113
01:09:26.020 --> 01:09:29.740
and I'll just live my life out however it goes.

1114
01:09:29.740 --> 01:09:32.420
And I really don't wanna do that.

1115
01:09:32.420 --> 01:09:35.100
I've had too many encounters with the real living God

1116
01:09:35.100 --> 01:09:36.979
and I know he has better things.

1117
01:09:36.979 --> 01:09:41.300
So just what you were saying, Bethany,

1118
01:09:41.340 --> 01:09:44.580
is I'm gonna start changing the things that I speak.

1119
01:09:44.580 --> 01:09:48.200
And I believe my mind is also going to start,

1120
01:09:50.620 --> 01:09:53.300
following that and thinking on those things

1121
01:09:53.300 --> 01:09:55.900
which are good and lovely and just and pure

1122
01:09:55.900 --> 01:09:57.140
and all of that.

1123
01:09:57.140 --> 01:09:58.900
I've gotten so far away from it.

1124
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:03.080
Um, so that's where I stood tonight.

1125
01:10:03.080 --> 01:10:08.800
It's like, okay, I don't know if I could actually, you know, um, allow

1126
01:10:08.880 --> 01:10:10.960
someone healthy to come in my life.

1127
01:10:11.000 --> 01:10:12.760
Cause I just don't see myself there.

1128
01:10:14.960 --> 01:10:18.660
So I'm going to say, say two things and then I'm going to come to Jen.

1129
01:10:18.720 --> 01:10:22.800
Um, I want to plant a seed in that place of thought that you're having.

1130
01:10:23.800 --> 01:10:31.240
So when you were talking, I wrote down two phrases, learn it and patient man.

1131
01:10:32.320 --> 01:10:37.320
Um, but also the other thought I had is that how that can

1132
01:10:37.320 --> 01:10:39.640
happen, Lorraine is supernatural.

1133
01:10:41.680 --> 01:10:46.360
Um, the great physician, there's nothing too hard for him, you all.

1134
01:10:46.560 --> 01:10:51.080
And I know that it takes time and healing takes time, but sometimes he does a

1135
01:10:51.240 --> 01:10:53.240
supernatural work as well.

1136
01:10:53.720 --> 01:10:56.960
And so I want to encourage you to not count yourself out.

1137
01:10:57.520 --> 01:11:02.200
Um, uh, Anna put in the chat as well, string of pearls dot, dot,

1138
01:11:02.200 --> 01:11:04.400
dot string of blessings, 100%.

1139
01:11:04.400 --> 01:11:08.280
So it's again, flipping that script, but I wanted to plant

1140
01:11:08.280 --> 01:11:10.720
that seed about a patient man.

1141
01:11:11.360 --> 01:11:16.080
How can you be in a healthy relationship after you've been through what you've

1142
01:11:16.080 --> 01:11:20.800
been through and you've had all these years and now you're in this place.

1143
01:11:21.360 --> 01:11:29.680
Well, because God can equip a healthy man with patience and love and kindness

1144
01:11:29.720 --> 01:11:34.320
and goodness that, that really, man, it smells like the fragrance of heaven.

1145
01:11:35.560 --> 01:11:39.640
I know some of you cannot even believe that is possible, but

1146
01:11:39.640 --> 01:11:42.560
I'm telling you I'm married to it.

1147
01:11:44.120 --> 01:11:45.560
I am married to it.

1148
01:11:47.080 --> 01:11:50.120
Therefore I know it to be possible and true.

1149
01:11:51.520 --> 01:11:56.280
So for those of you that feel like you've been broken too much, you're hurt too

1150
01:11:56.280 --> 01:12:00.600
much, you're, you're terrified to even tell your future spirit mate, some of

1151
01:12:00.600 --> 01:12:04.520
the stuff you've been through, just disclaimer, you don't, you want to be

1152
01:12:04.520 --> 01:12:07.320
forthcoming, but you don't have to tell them every detail you all.

1153
01:12:07.320 --> 01:12:07.840
Okay.

1154
01:12:08.280 --> 01:12:11.440
Ask the Holy spirit, what you really need to share.

1155
01:12:11.920 --> 01:12:12.600
Cause you know what?

1156
01:12:12.960 --> 01:12:16.760
Sometimes some of that stuff can actually do more harm than good.

1157
01:12:17.600 --> 01:12:22.600
So one of the things the Lord led me to ask Brian was how much do

1158
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you want to know about my past?

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And he said, well, I know you now, so let's just work from now forward.

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And then we kind of took it from there, what we felt led to share.

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So again, just know that God can prepare that spirit mate for you to be equipped

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with what is needed, just like God is now equipping you and healing you

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01:12:47.400 --> 01:12:49.600
for your spirit mate as well.

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They might have some of the same fears you all have.

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Okay.

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Grace, grace, grace abounding unto all of you.

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Okay.

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I know that Sherry, you put your hand up as well.

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I am going to go into content right after Jen, but if we have time to circle

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back, you can, you can share when we come back after that.

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Okay.

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Go ahead, Jen.

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I think he's trying to help her unmute it there.

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We might, Oh, there she is.

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01:13:47.320 --> 01:13:51.240
So if you, if you tap on the bottom of the screen, you'll see the microphone.

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You'll see the microphone show up.

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Yeah, I found it.

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I come out switch.

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Like I pressed something and it was on a different screen and I

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want to pull up that microphone.

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Um, that was my son.

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Um, so one of the things that I was, um, fan in, um, my session was I, uh,

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01:14:14.360 --> 01:14:16.760
struggle a lot with, I think similar.

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Um, what has been said tonight is a feeling of not being worthy.

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Um, and like, um, not being pretty, not being able to take

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01:14:27.520 --> 01:14:30.000
compliments, like that kind of thing.

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Um, like, and something that came up on my Facebook page, my niece had posted

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that, and that was just like, Oh, wow.

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Um, it was talking about like, showed like an image of a woman looking in a

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mirror and saying like, I feel so ugly now.

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And then like her child saying, mama, everyone says I look just like you.

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And so like thinking that, and it was just like, Oh wow.

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That just hit different.

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You know, it hit, hit, hit, struck a nerve, I guess.

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Um, but.

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just learning how to feel worthy again and a lot of what you, I think what you said about

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like a patient man being fearful because I'm a widow. I've been, I lost my husband three

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years ago to suicide. So I think a lot of, I mean, I have like past issues, like children

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issues and stuff too, but like our childhood issues, but I think a lot of that feeling of

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unworthiness and not being able to trust again and finding someone. So having that patient man,

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you know, that, that really spoke to me. And just, I guess, just learning how to feel worthy again

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and stop those thoughts. Jen, thank you so much for sharing. I'm so sorry. First, let me say to

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01:15:46.400 --> 01:15:53.120
hear about what you have gone through and the trauma and the loss and all of the lies that

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01:15:53.120 --> 01:16:01.760
enter in when you go through a trauma like that. The second thing is that, you know, last week's

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01:16:01.760 --> 01:16:08.720
session, if you guys, for those of you that just came in new brand new, we did it last week.

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I dealt a lot with body issues and body shame in part of that, that recording. So you may want

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to go and take a listen to that one. I have a feeling it's going to really minister to you.

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That image was powerful, what you said. And a lot of us need to kind of think about that, you know,

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what she said. I mean, we're looking at ourselves and picking ourselves apart and her kids are like,

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but people say, I look like you and we're not thinking, but I feel like God is highlighting

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that to you because he's trying to tell you that you're beautiful through that post. And that's

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how other people see you. But for some reason, that's not how you're seeing yourself. So when

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did you first start not thinking you were beautiful or that you weren't enough or that

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you weren't worthy? Was it just, was it not just, but was it when that happened with your

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husband, your, your former husband, or did some of those things start before that time where,

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you know, there was a, what I'm hearing, my spirit is like a slow doll, like a slow fade,

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a slow doll kind of transition from feeling lovely you all. Cause even my, my first husband,

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I mean, I felt lovely for a while, little while, really little while, but it did, it was there,

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but then it was just kind of like, it just faded and faded and faded. And so

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you know, just really asking the Lord when, when was the first time I believe the lie that I was

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not beautiful, that I was not worthy of love and see where he leads you on that trail, because

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getting to the root of the matter, ladies is key. And I don't want that to stress you out.

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Cause some of you guys are like, I don't know if this is the route. I don't know if this is the

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route. All you have to do is trust that whatever the word brings up then is what you need to know.

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And that moment. And then if there's other things that he wants to reveal to you about that,

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that might be further in a deeper route, he will reveal those in due season as well. Okay. So

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that's where the leaning into the supernatural surrender and trusting the Holy spirit to reveal

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the things that are necessary is so key to your healing process. You all, we should never want

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to depend on ourselves. So father, help us to come out of alignment with independence and come

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into alignment with interdependence on you, you know, where we depend on him too. He's the vine

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01:18:55.440 --> 01:19:02.000
where the branches, he feeds our soul. So when we believe things like we're not beautiful or we're

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not worthy, well, then we need to feed our soul with the truth. What does the truth say? The

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truth says that you Jen and Stephanie and Pam and Jesse and Elizabeth and everybody on here,

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your worth is far above rubies to me. I mean, I'd have to study it out more. It's been a while

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since I did a, you know, Greek and Hebrew, whatever study on that. But I would imagine

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that that's kind of an abundant amount.

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It's abundant. You are worth more than all of that. And that's what the father's truth says

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over you. But, you know, again, hearing it and reading it in scripture and really getting it

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01:19:56.320 --> 01:19:59.680
down in your knower, in your heart really good.

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is a whole different story. So that comes through the heart healing and trauma being removed.

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Okay, so that's why this process is so important. Jen, thank you for sharing your story.

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I just want to share a couple things you all tonight before we close up. Again, I had some

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other stuff planned, but I really am thankful that tonight went where it went. It goes in

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alignment with the Jesus Cares Board. If you guys have not done a Jesus Cares Board yet,

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01:20:29.120 --> 01:20:34.480
if you're in even week five, and you have not done your Jesus Cares Board yet, you all,

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01:20:34.480 --> 01:20:41.920
what are you waiting for? I'm going to be a little tiny baby amount hard on you. Let's do them.

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Because here's the thing, someone shared today in the first breakout session, and I'm not picking

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on her, but it was really insightful. She said, I haven't done it yet. She's been writing notes

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of what she wants to put on the board, but several of the things are really big,

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is how she said it. And she has a lot of fear around, will God actually work on these things?

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And so in her own way, not putting them on the board is protecting herself.

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Do you all see what we do? We procrastinate something like a Jesus Cares Board,

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because if we admit that we need God's help in this thing, Jesus, I need your help.

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It's admitting that we cannot control that thing and that we need someone else's help to do it.

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Jesus, right? So that's a big deal for some people, but also what if, what if he doesn't do it?

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But here's the flip side, you all, what if he does? What if he does? You guys,

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I really want to encourage you to get a hold of that. What if he does? What if,

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what if literally you guys put things on the board and you start to see changes happening?

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They're not all going to happen like that, but I'm telling you what, when I put some things on my board,

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I started seeing some stuff changing in those situations. And I started experiencing financial

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change and healing things that needed to happen. And I started experiencing changes in my body

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images, issues. You all, I used to love to go to the beach as a kid and then got in, you know,

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gave my life to the Lord, got into like, you know, and had all the abuse in the background that

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wasn't healed, came into the church and blessed the people that were in my church. But, you know,

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they didn't believe in wearing bikinis. So there was that. And it was kind of emphasized in my mind,

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like, if I go and I look too cute in this bathing suit, it's my fault if a guy sins.

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And so it was like the flip side, religion, literally, I was so afraid to do anything.

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And therefore I quit going to beaches. I quit wearing bathing suits. And it just became a big

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old thing. You all I'm serious. It's been a, someone was sharing earlier when it's a long

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journey. It might sound like when I'm describing it to you that when I have been breaking free from

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that, it just sounds like a little bit of a story to you all, but it's been a 20 year journey for me

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to break free from that stuff so that I can actually go out on the beach again and not

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feel like who's looking at me. Like, am I causing anybody to think anything bad?

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I'm like free of that stuff. Y'all it's incredible. I don't know how I got off on that,

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but maybe somebody needed that tonight. I did not plan on saying that, but oh, I know why I put that

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on my Jesus cares board. It's still there because I'm on my way and I've gotten a lot of breakthrough,

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but there's some things I'm still working on regarding that. Okay. Put things on there,

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01:24:06.960 --> 01:24:11.600
big, small, whatever they are. You want to put them on your board. You guys,

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if you go into the photo section and you're in the Facebook page, you can see people that have

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done the Jesus cares board. There's all different kinds of them. The point isn't how crafty you can

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01:24:21.760 --> 01:24:29.200
be. If you want to be crafty, be crafty. But if you just want to do it and move forward, which is

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01:24:29.200 --> 01:24:35.280
what's most important, you can literally do some post-its and stick them on your wall or your door

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01:24:35.280 --> 01:24:40.240
or get a board that you put them on whatever you need to do so that you can move forward. And then

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you can always add, you know, it to look prettier and all the things. Okay. So Jesus cares board.

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What is it about? It's not a vision board. It's about you taking the things that keep you up at

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01:24:51.680 --> 01:24:58.560
night, the worries, the fears, the concerns that are weighing you down. And you're casting those

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on to Jesus.

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as an activation.

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You're activating that when you put it on the board

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and you're saying, Jesus, I cannot change the situation

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and I need to let this go

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and I need to cast this care onto you

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because the Bible says what?

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Because he cares for us.

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And y'all guess what?

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He cares about those cares that you care about as well.

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Some of y'all aren't sure that God's gonna come through

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for your kid that's addicted to some stuff.

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And I'm telling you what, God, I have a stepson

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that has been battling alcohol addiction.

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God cares about him more than I do.

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Oh, yes, Lord.

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God cares about your kids more than you do.

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So let's let him work in those situations and do some stuff.

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Some of us need to get out of the way, right?

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I won't step too far into that tonight.

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Praise Jesus, God knows what we need too.

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So he'll help us as a helicopter parents and control freaks

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and all of those things, he'll help us learn how to let go.

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Okay, so I wanted to also touch on really quick,

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God defended, what is being God defended look like?

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What does it sound like?

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As you guys start to lean into being God defended

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in your lives, in your situations,

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it's asking God to show you all the ways that all along,

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he's always been trustworthy.

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So if you start asking him to show you,

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God, how did you defend me in the past

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when I didn't recognize it?

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When I didn't know that you were protecting me,

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what are some things that you did

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that protected me along the way?

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Y'all, that's something I ask God.

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I don't think there's anything wrong with that.

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Let's ask him, God, show me.

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Show me where you were showing up for me

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and I did not know you were there.

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Jesus met the two men on the road to Emmaus

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and he was talking to them and walking with them

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and they did not even recognize him and that's okay.

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But guess what?

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He was still there, wasn't he?

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He was there and he was walking among them

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and even their hearts burned within them,

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but they just didn't know at the time it was Jesus.

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Along the way, some of you didn't know.

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Yes, Lord.

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You didn't know Jesus was walking right next to you.

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You didn't know.

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I did a heartwork session with someone this week,

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you all, like a one-on-one

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01:27:41.560 --> 01:27:44.880
and you all, please don't ask for those in phase one.

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I don't do that many of them.

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01:27:47.760 --> 01:27:49.600
Jackie has strict rules on that right now

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just because I'm doing so many other things for the movement

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01:27:53.240 --> 01:27:58.240
but the point is I asked the Lord to show her

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where Jesus was at when she was going through

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this traumatic thing as a little kid, as a little girl

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and he showed her.

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He showed her where he was

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and it's helping her to break free.

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You all, some of us need to ask Jesus,

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Jesus, where were you?

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Your word tells me that you were there.

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Can you reveal yourself to me when this situation happened?

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And what do you want me to know about it?

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What do you want to tell me about your heart for me

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01:28:34.080 --> 01:28:35.560
in this situation?

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And see what he shows you.

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And I know that might be a stretch for some of you

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but he will start to show you.

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He will start to show you, he will speak to you.

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Some of you guys will see one image

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and that's the beginning of hearing

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01:28:52.240 --> 01:28:53.680
what he's trying to tell you.

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So even I kind of, my eyes went back to Jen.

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Jen, even when that happened with your husband

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when he committed suicide,

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I would encourage you to ask Jesus where he was.

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When you found out or however that unfolded,

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Jesus, where were you when this happened?

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What was your heart for me in that moment

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and what do you want me to know about it?

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And ladies, all of you, I wanna encourage you.

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If you have something you're really struggling

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01:29:26.440 --> 01:29:29.520
to break free from and break through,

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01:29:29.520 --> 01:29:31.000
man, that's the way to go.

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You need Jesus to speak the truth.

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He's the one, he's the way, the truth and the life.

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01:29:38.360 --> 01:29:40.960
No one comes to the father except through him.

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You all, the truth, he's the truth.

1382
01:29:43.440 --> 01:29:47.040
He's the one that wants to speak the truth into us

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01:29:47.040 --> 01:29:47.960
and he's waiting.

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But if you all remember,

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he stands at the door of our hearts and he knocks.

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01:29:54.000 --> 01:29:56.320
He won't force his way in.

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01:29:56.320 --> 01:29:58.440
He's waiting for the invitation.

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He's a gentleman.

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01:30:01.940 --> 01:30:05.000
Some of you have never been treated

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01:30:05.000 --> 01:30:08.720
by men like you haven't seen a gentleman.

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01:30:08.720 --> 01:30:11.940
And so some of you, it's hard, excuse me,

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01:30:11.940 --> 01:30:14.940
for you to believe that God and

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01:30:14.940 --> 01:30:17.300
Jesus and Holy Spirit are gentlemen,

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01:30:17.300 --> 01:30:20.320
that they won't force their way on you.

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They won't force their way on other people either.

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01:30:22.560 --> 01:30:24.420
And that's why somebody asked the question,

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01:30:24.420 --> 01:30:25.900
why is it's hard to get over?

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Why is there bad stuff in the world?

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01:30:28.440 --> 01:30:31.160
Well, because God gave everyone in his amazing,

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01:30:31.160 --> 01:30:35.160
infinite love, he gave everyone the free will to choose.

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01:30:35.160 --> 01:30:37.560
Some people choose unhealthy things

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01:30:38.680 --> 01:30:41.200
and some people choose really great things.

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01:30:42.360 --> 01:30:47.240
But he loves everybody enough to give us the choice.

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01:30:48.720 --> 01:30:51.840
And so he's giving you the choice to open your heart

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01:30:53.040 --> 01:30:55.640
and allow him to come into these tender places

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01:30:55.680 --> 01:30:58.240
and heal and restore and redeem

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01:30:58.240 --> 01:31:00.340
and rebuild you from the inside out.

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01:31:02.960 --> 01:31:05.040
He's so good, you all, he's so good.

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01:31:05.040 --> 01:31:07.640
So God, where do I need to trust you

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01:31:07.640 --> 01:31:09.160
a little bit more tonight?

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01:31:11.560 --> 01:31:16.100
Where have I struggled to believe that you defend me

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01:31:16.100 --> 01:31:17.540
and you protect me?

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01:31:18.400 --> 01:31:21.260
And where did that lie enter my life?

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01:31:22.320 --> 01:31:23.260
And he'll show you.

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01:31:24.260 --> 01:31:28.100
I'm gonna let Sherry go just because we have one

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01:31:28.100 --> 01:31:30.740
and then I'll close us out for the night.

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Sherry, go ahead.

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Okay, so in our group, there was just two of us in there.

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01:31:39.620 --> 01:31:44.620
I think mine was, I'm not smart enough, I'll never succeed.

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01:31:47.560 --> 01:31:50.740
Even in previous times dating,

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01:31:50.780 --> 01:31:55.180
if I found someone that I thought was better than me,

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01:31:55.180 --> 01:31:58.940
I would not even attempt to go with that one

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01:31:58.940 --> 01:32:01.980
because that seems like that's not gonna work

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because I'm not gonna be good enough.

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01:32:06.180 --> 01:32:08.820
Hey, so I would encourage you to ask the Lord

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01:32:08.820 --> 01:32:10.540
who set the bar for that.

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01:32:12.140 --> 01:32:13.100
You know what I'm saying?

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01:32:13.100 --> 01:32:16.660
Who's informing you on who's too good for you?

1429
01:32:17.660 --> 01:32:19.980
So sometimes too, ladies,

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01:32:19.980 --> 01:32:24.300
it's because we don't like ourselves, right?

1431
01:32:24.300 --> 01:32:29.300
I did a lesson a while back on in the church,

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01:32:29.420 --> 01:32:30.260
in the body of Christ,

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01:32:30.260 --> 01:32:31.780
we're taught we have to love everybody

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01:32:31.780 --> 01:32:36.780
and we learn to love ourselves, right?

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01:32:38.220 --> 01:32:40.880
But so many of us don't even like ourselves.

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01:32:41.980 --> 01:32:43.400
We don't like what we see in the mirror.

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01:32:43.400 --> 01:32:45.140
We don't like things about ourselves.

1438
01:32:45.140 --> 01:32:46.420
We pick ourselves apart,

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01:32:46.420 --> 01:32:47.860
kind of like what we're talking about tonight,

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01:32:47.860 --> 01:32:50.860
all these thoughts that we have that are not of the kingdom,

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01:32:50.860 --> 01:32:52.420
they're not from heaven.

1442
01:32:52.420 --> 01:32:57.040
But because we think on these things a lot,

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01:32:57.040 --> 01:32:59.100
it then informs the way we think

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01:32:59.100 --> 01:33:03.580
about who we believe we're good enough for.

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01:33:03.580 --> 01:33:06.660
So I would encourage you to really ask yourself,

1446
01:33:08.300 --> 01:33:12.460
when's the first time you didn't like yourself and why?

1447
01:33:12.460 --> 01:33:15.780
And really asking God to reveal to you

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01:33:15.780 --> 01:33:18.540
your identity in Christ.

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01:33:18.540 --> 01:33:20.460
Like, who are you really?

1450
01:33:20.460 --> 01:33:22.740
And who does God wanna help you become?

1451
01:33:22.740 --> 01:33:24.660
You all, I used to pray all the time,

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01:33:24.660 --> 01:33:28.900
God, help me to become more secure and confident in you.

1453
01:33:28.900 --> 01:33:31.420
Help me to know who I am in you, Lord.

1454
01:33:31.420 --> 01:33:35.140
Because when I didn't know who I was in him,

1455
01:33:35.140 --> 01:33:36.820
I put up with a guy who cheated on me

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01:33:36.820 --> 01:33:38.820
over and over and over again.

1457
01:33:38.820 --> 01:33:40.080
What in the world?

1458
01:33:40.080 --> 01:33:41.300
I still think back on that.

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01:33:41.300 --> 01:33:42.620
Like what?

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01:33:42.620 --> 01:33:45.200
It's because deep down,

1461
01:33:45.200 --> 01:33:49.700
the wounds that were not healed were informing my decisions.

1462
01:33:49.700 --> 01:33:51.780
And it was telling me,

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01:33:51.780 --> 01:33:53.920
I mean, there's a lot going on in that situation,

1464
01:33:53.920 --> 01:33:58.920
but it was telling me that I wasn't worth more,

1465
01:33:59.700 --> 01:34:01.780
which absolutely is not true.

1466
01:34:01.780 --> 01:34:04.420
And I have been saved long enough to know better.

1467
01:34:04.420 --> 01:34:06.280
My mind knew better,

1468
01:34:06.280 --> 01:34:07.660
but the wounds in my heart

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01:34:07.660 --> 01:34:10.300
were still informing me differently.

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01:34:10.300 --> 01:34:11.860
Does that make sense, everyone?

1471
01:34:13.260 --> 01:34:16.600
And then the whole love bombing and all kinds of stuff.

1472
01:34:16.600 --> 01:34:19.380
So there was just a lot of entanglement there.

1473
01:34:19.380 --> 01:34:21.420
So you guys, there's webs, if you will,

1474
01:34:21.420 --> 01:34:23.740
that we need to come out from under

1475
01:34:23.740 --> 01:34:26.300
and that cleansing that comes,

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01:34:26.300 --> 01:34:28.780
which the Bible talks about being transformed

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01:34:28.780 --> 01:34:30.900
by the renewing of our minds

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01:34:30.900 --> 01:34:33.060
so that all the old things will pass away

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01:34:33.060 --> 01:34:35.220
and behold, everything will become new.

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01:34:35.220 --> 01:34:37.000
Well, the transforming of our minds,

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01:34:37.000 --> 01:34:38.020
as Jackie has talked about,

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01:34:38.020 --> 01:34:41.860
it's actually the transforming of our hearts.

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01:34:41.860 --> 01:34:43.340
And the transforming of our hearts

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01:34:43.340 --> 01:34:46.220
is what enables the truth to come

1485
01:34:46.220 --> 01:34:47.860
and all those old things to pass away

1486
01:34:47.860 --> 01:34:50.420
and for us to be transformed from the inside out.

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01:34:50.420 --> 01:34:54.180
So as you lean into who are you in Christ, God,

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01:34:54.180 --> 01:34:55.860
show me who you want me to be.

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01:34:55.860 --> 01:34:57.160
Show me who I am in you.

1490
01:34:57.160 --> 01:34:59.980
Help me to know the truth about

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01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.000
how you see me and really continue to align with those things.

1492
01:35:04.520 --> 01:35:09.400
And I think that you're going to start to believe differently in the

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01:35:09.400 --> 01:35:14.220
days ahead about like, what is your worth? And, you know,

1494
01:35:14.220 --> 01:35:15.960
even again, who sets the bar,

1495
01:35:16.360 --> 01:35:19.960
who sets the bar there and allow God to be the one that sets that bar,

1496
01:35:19.960 --> 01:35:25.160
because he has good things in store for all of you. All right.

1497
01:35:25.880 --> 01:35:29.440
All right. Our heart's clear. Mine's clear. Everyone good.

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01:35:29.640 --> 01:35:34.080
I feel like this was really good tonight. Sometimes it's a little more low key,

1499
01:35:34.360 --> 01:35:37.560
but God's doing some stuff. He's stirring in hearts.

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I want to pray for you as I start to close. Father,

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01:35:42.260 --> 01:35:47.120
thank you so much for, you know, just continuing to be here with us.

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01:35:48.240 --> 01:35:52.240
God, you are omnipresent. You're majestic. You're mighty.

1503
01:35:53.400 --> 01:35:55.480
You're the creator of heaven and earth and,

1504
01:35:55.840 --> 01:35:59.440
and you come and you spend time with your daughters.

1505
01:35:59.440 --> 01:36:00.760
And I just thank you for that.

1506
01:36:01.400 --> 01:36:04.560
I thank you for revealing for healings that are happening. God.

1507
01:36:04.560 --> 01:36:09.160
I thank you for yes, Lord. I thank you for minds being renewed.

1508
01:36:09.160 --> 01:36:10.880
Even right now, as I'm praying, God,

1509
01:36:10.880 --> 01:36:14.400
that people will supernaturally experience transformation.

1510
01:36:15.480 --> 01:36:20.080
I pray that as they sleep tonight, that they would have sale arrest,

1511
01:36:20.920 --> 01:36:24.680
God, that you would remove anxiety and fear and panic,

1512
01:36:24.880 --> 01:36:28.200
and you would bring peace, hope in life,

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01:36:29.680 --> 01:36:32.400
that you would do supernatural surgery in,

1514
01:36:33.160 --> 01:36:35.880
in the OR of their, their dream state.

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01:36:36.440 --> 01:36:38.360
And I thank you for in advance, Lord,

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01:36:38.360 --> 01:36:42.840
I thank you that you're going to start to show them and awaken within them,

1517
01:36:42.840 --> 01:36:44.960
the good that you have in store for them.

1518
01:36:44.960 --> 01:36:48.920
I pray that you would go and knock on the door of their hearts where you need

1519
01:36:48.920 --> 01:36:53.640
and want them to open so that you can lead them into the abundant life that you

1520
01:36:53.640 --> 01:36:57.240
have for them. But it begins with a, yes, Lord,

1521
01:36:57.240 --> 01:37:01.720
you can come in to this, this place of hurt, this place of trauma,

1522
01:37:02.400 --> 01:37:06.480
and you can heal this area so that I can move forward. So, Lord,

1523
01:37:06.480 --> 01:37:11.000
we thank you that you'll help us to take down the do not enter signs off of our

1524
01:37:11.000 --> 01:37:13.680
hearts. And that will give you permission to enter in,

1525
01:37:14.640 --> 01:37:19.360
help us to surrender all of these areas supernaturally to you and to trust that

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01:37:19.360 --> 01:37:20.240
you are working.

1527
01:37:21.240 --> 01:37:25.240
You're working in ways beyond anything we could ever ask, think,

1528
01:37:25.240 --> 01:37:29.440
or imagine. And even when we don't know it, you're working, you,

1529
01:37:29.640 --> 01:37:34.080
you never slumber, you never sleep. You never grow tired or weary, but God,

1530
01:37:34.080 --> 01:37:37.800
you're always keeping your eyes on us. You're looking out for us.

1531
01:37:37.800 --> 01:37:38.680
You're protecting us,

1532
01:37:38.680 --> 01:37:42.760
help us understand and see and recognize more in the days ahead,

1533
01:37:43.160 --> 01:37:46.280
all the ways that you've been defending us and protecting us all along,

1534
01:37:46.280 --> 01:37:50.920
but we misunderstood or we believed a lie that told us something different,

1535
01:37:51.280 --> 01:37:53.600
help us to see the truth, help us to know the truth,

1536
01:37:53.600 --> 01:37:58.000
to align our hearts with the truth and to partner with you in this healing

1537
01:37:58.000 --> 01:38:01.760
process. And we believe all these things in Jesus name.

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01:38:02.000 --> 01:38:06.080
God bless you all. We love you. We'll see you guys again. I saw, Oh,

1539
01:38:06.280 --> 01:38:09.200
I saw someone, uh, Diane, I think,

1540
01:38:09.200 --> 01:38:12.600
or Diane put in there about next Monday. It is Memorial day.

1541
01:38:13.040 --> 01:38:16.360
Y'all I'm not a hundred percent sure what Jackie wants to do. I need to ask her.

1542
01:38:16.520 --> 01:38:19.760
So just be watching the Facebook page. Typically we've,

1543
01:38:19.880 --> 01:38:22.960
we've done for sure the 8pm, but I'm not sure.

1544
01:38:22.960 --> 01:38:25.520
So I'll confirm that and we'll put a post up in the group.

1545
01:38:25.800 --> 01:38:29.160
So definitely check the Facebook group. So you know what we're doing next Monday.

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Okay. God bless you all. Have an amazing night. Bye.