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Hello, good evening, everyone.

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Hello, hello.

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It's great to see you all.

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My name is Bethany Cooper.

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I'm one of the heart work coaches here

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in our phase one group.

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So good to see so many lovely faces tonight.

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I'm sure we'll have some others joining us soon.

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Want to encourage you,

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if you're joining us for the first time,

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I'd love to see you raise your physical hand,

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digital hand, or you can put it in the chat,

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whatever works for you, just so I can see who's here.

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Oh, okay, we got Kim, Naomi.

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Let's see.

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Can you guys hear me?

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Can everyone hear me?

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Okay, I thought, because people were responding.

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So Carissa, can someone, would someone just mind?

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Oh, Anya, you just did, thank you.

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Okay, so let's see, I was saying Kim, Naomi,

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and I feel like someone else was waving their hand,

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that it was your first time and I don't want to miss you.

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Was someone else new tonight for the first time?

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Okay, I see you, Debbie.

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Thank you, I saw your hand before.

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All right, great.

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Welcome to all of our first time new ladies.

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It's so great to have you joining us

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for those watching the replay.

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If you're joining us for the first time as well, welcome,

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and it's gonna be an incredible journey, you all.

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You guys, I hope you're in

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for just everything God has for you.

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It's gonna be good, sometimes it's gonna be hard,

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and sometimes it's gonna be everything in between.

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So we're just gonna leave it there for that.

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But when you just, you really lean into trusting

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the Holy Spirit and the Father and Jesus Christ

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in your process, you won't end up disappointed, okay?

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And you just allow him to guide you in the process.

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We're gonna be here to coach you the whole way.

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Engaging in the group, I'm gonna tell you,

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if you don't engage in the group yet,

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even some of my ones that are almost finished,

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some of y'all are still not posting,

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and we love you, and we understand.

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Some people just get really nervous to do that.

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But I wanna encourage you, if I'm speaking to you right now,

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that you would take that step and come out of hiding

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this week before you move on to the next group

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and do a post, you know, just, it can be anything.

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What is God doing in your heart this week?

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You know, how did he grow you?

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But also for those that are joining, you know,

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you're here just now brand new,

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maybe you're a week in, two weeks in,

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a big part of what we do here in heart healing

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is we heal our hearts, but we also come out of hiding.

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We stop hiding and pretending

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that we're just good doing life alone,

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because God did not create us to do life alone.

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And there'll be people, this happens all the time,

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that will private message me, and they will say,

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can I just tell you what I need to share

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and what I'm processing,

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because I just cannot post this in the group.

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And my answer for all of you is always going to be the same,

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posted in the group.

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And here's why, because there's power in being seen

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and heard, some of you all have never shared things

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with certain people that God is going to nudge you

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through the Holy Spirit to share here in this group.

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And it's gonna bring you incredible freedom.

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And I even feel the Holy Spirit

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as I'm talking to you guys about that.

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A woman in phase three right now,

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for the first time ever,

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told her mother about abuse that she went through.

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That didn't go great, so you know where she turned?

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To us.

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You wanna know why?

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Because she knows she's safe here.

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So I wanna encourage you all,

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we're never gonna twist your arm.

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I don't want you to feel like you gotta come

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and spill every detail.

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You always ask Holy Spirit anyways,

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what do you need to share?

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But I just want you to know, do we make mistakes?

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We're human, you all, we're human.

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But I'm gonna tell you, we're gonna give it our best shot

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to create a safe environment for you here

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in this group and in this community.

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And so I hope that you'll take advantage of it

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because I believe it'll bring you

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an incredible breakthrough if you do.

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Okay, I have a couple of housekeeping things

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in addition to that.

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I really wasn't planning on doing that.

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So I think the Lord wanted you guys to hear that tonight.

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For those that have not heard this before,

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it's super important, when you are here in heartwork,

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you're here to receive.

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So I'm gonna encourage you all,

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can you all pretend right now,

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I know this is kind of like elementary,

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but it's gonna help you.

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So just go with me.

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Let's just pretend we all have helper hats on right now.

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I'm gonna leave mine on

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because I'm supposed to be helping you.

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And you all, you're just gonna take that helper hat off

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and you're just gonna park it

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because in this group, you aren't the helper.

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You don't have to coach, you don't have to counsel,

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you don't have to give advice.

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That's what we're here for.

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You just get to be here and receive,

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you can cheer your sisters on,

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you can encourage one another.

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But I really want to recommend and encourage you all to not give each other advice or feel like you if someone shares

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Here's really important. Don't feel like you have to solve it

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Okay, that's when our helper kicks in because I mean I'm a huge helper you all do you know how hard it was for me?

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When I went through heart work to turn that thing off

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Super hard, but when I did it I quit trying to fix everybody else to avoid

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What needed fixed in my own heart and see that's what happens people that are really good at giving and helping

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We always are so busy helping everybody else and we're not putting the mask on ourself

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and so that's why we're still some of us struggling and we're going around the same mountains over and over and

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God brought you here so that you can be set free from that

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So you're gonna practice receiving and you're gonna get really good at it by the end of this. I hope

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All right

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If you are here in phase one and you have finished phase one

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You're all the way done phase one is five weeks long you all okay

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If you go faster than that, especially people that try to get done in like two or three weeks

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We're gonna lovingly encourage you

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To come back and start over. We're gonna encourage you to not move on because you need to be here

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That's why you're here

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But if you are all the way done you've finished your five weeks of work and if it takes some of you longer

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That's okay, too

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But if you've finished all that and you're still here in phase one

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I want to encourage you all to take the leap to take the leap and do it and move on over to the phase

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Two Facebook group. Okay, you need to be there to get the coaching that aligns with the phase two content

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Because what's starting to happen is some of you all are trying to get coaching in phase one

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And it's confusing because you're talking about boys and all kinds of stuff

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So y'all need to move over to phase two if that is you and we love you and we're gonna be over there

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Coaching you over there. Okay. All right

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The last thing is I want to just clarify I call them the three peas

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Because in our community we have all kinds of peas y'all so it's gonna be confusing and I'm sorry

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We're trying to we're trying to get that kind of cleared up, but we have three phases

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We have phase one which is heartwork we have phase two, which is love story accelerator

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accelerator and phase three

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Which we call our community. It's our momentum builder. There's so much going on over there

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But the reason I'm mentioning that is because even sometimes we have so many peas in this community that people get confused

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So when you're working through each week, it's week one week two

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Week three week four week five and the only reason I'm kind of giggling a little bit is even on a coaching session last week

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I think Jackie might have called it phase one phase two, which we have that but she was talking about the week content

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So I just want to make sure everyone's all on the same page and it's not a huge thing

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But I just felt like that might bring clarity for everyone. All right. Are y'all ready? It's nice gonna be so good you all

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Need to mute that. All right. Thank you, Carissa. Thank you so much

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All right. How do I access video and sound on my phone Lauren on on the bottom? Oh

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You're probably talking about how can you hear I?

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Don't know

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If you can't hear currently from your phone if you go to

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Let me actually grab I can I can I can get it real quick ladies bear with me so we can help her

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Be able to hear

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And take me just a minute or two so just

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Thank you father for grace and patience and the hearts of our ladies. Let them just soak in your presence right now

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while they're waiting

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Hear their hearts to receive the word that you have for them in this special time tonight Lord

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let it be a night of breakthrough and healing and

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Redemption Lord help them to hear

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Your voice whispering in the still small places of their heart places even they've been afraid to go at times

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But Lord, I thank you that you're a gentleman. You don't barge through the door of their hearts

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But you you knock you stand at the door and you knock and you ask can I enter?

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Can I come in and deal with this place in your heart? Can I help you heal?

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Can I help you come out of hiding and Lord?

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I thank you that tonight your daughters or your daughters your beloved ones are going to respond

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Yes, so Lord. I thank you that you're helping us even right now even as I'm

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Kind of fumbling around on the computer or that they're here in your spirit and that they hear

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You calling out to their hearts where they're at

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to hear what your spirit is saying to them. Help them to see, to know, and to be known by you in

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every way. In Jesus name, amen. Let's see if I just was able to do this, ladies.

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All right. Oh, shoot. It won't let me share it. It's too long. All right. Let me shorten this.

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We'll get this in here for her. Let's see if it'll let it go through. All right. If y'all ever have

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any trouble hearing sound, dial in to one of those numbers that's local to you. Okay. I'm going

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to not spend much more time there, but that's one of the ways you can do it if your phone audio

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isn't working the other way. Like if it doesn't automatically pick up. All right. So tonight,

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we're going to take a trip. We're going to take a little trip and we're going to talk about fear.

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And then we're going to talk about forgiveness tonight. I've had so many people.

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We're going to have so many people that have said they're stuck in forgiveness. Forgive me.

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I've lost my train of thought there for a second. That have mentioned they're feeling stuck in

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forgiveness. They're struggling to forgive people. And so we're going to process that

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together tonight. So as we step into the fear, specifically what God put on my heart to share

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with you all in the space of fear, I believe it's building on some of the things Jackie even

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touched on last week. If you guys heard her session, if you're brand new, it's okay if you

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haven't heard it. But she kind of talked about how unbelief and fear, when we live in constant fear

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and we partner with fear, it's actually sin. Okay. Because the spirit brings life. The spirit brings

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freedom. And so if we're continuing to live and really allowing that to take over in our lives,

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it can become sin to us. And some people might be saying right now, well, wait,

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fear is also a spirit. And yes, you're right. It is. The spirit of fear, it does operate in that

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way. But we, at some point, whether unconsciously or not, agree with that. And that's how it

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starts to develop a stronghold. Okay. So, but what I want to talk about specifically is not that.

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This morning, I was in Proverbs 3, verse 24 through 26. And something that I read just

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jumped right out at me. And it made me think of some of the stuff that Jackie has talked about,

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about how many people are afraid that the other shoe is always going to drop.

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Has anybody ever felt like that before? You're just always afraid that the other shoe,

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like even if something starts going good, you're just like, when, okay, how long is this going to

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last? You know, you just don't think that you're going to be able to live in the promised land,

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if you will, and maintain and live in that. But I'm here to tell you tonight that God wants to

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tell you something about that to set you free. So in this scripture, in verse 24, we're going to

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focus on verse 25, but I felt led to read 24 through 26. And I'm not going to teach a lot.

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I'm just going to kind of come in and give this to you real quick. And then we're going to,

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we're going to unpack it together in breakouts and then group coaching.

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It says, verse 24, when you lie down, you will not be afraid. When you lie down,

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your sleep will be sweet. And that I felt led to read it because it's a promise for some of you,

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you have terrible sleep, the enemy attacks you in your sleep. And you've been asking God about it.

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He specifically wanted me to tell you that he sees you and he is fighting on your behalf.

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And his declaration over you is that you will lie down and your sleep will be sweet.

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Verse 25, have no fear of sudden disaster, have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that

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overtakes the wicked. Verse 26, for the Lord will be at your side and will keep your foot

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from being snared. You all literally, it says, have no fear, none, no fear at all.

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So let's talk about that. How do we have no fear? Well, we don't partner with fear. We turn away

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from fear and we turn towards faith. I'm going to read something to you real quick.

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Has anyone ever heard Zach Williams? Fear is a liar song. Anyone ever heard that? It's powerful.

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I'm going to read something to you real quick. These are the first two stanzas, I think that's

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what it's called, of the lyrics of, I'm not going to read the whole song, just the first two,

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I'll call them paragraphs. I don't know if stanzas, whatever it is. This is what it says.

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When he, let's just kind of imagine he being the enemy, the devil, the liar, the deceiver.

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When he told you you're not right, when he told you you're not strong enough

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to put up a good fight, when he told you,

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told you you're not worthy when he told you you're not loved

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when he told you you're not beautiful. You'll never be

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enough. Fear. He is a liar. He will take your breath, stop you

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in your steps fear. He is a liar. He will rob your rest,

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steal your happiness, cast your fear in the fire, because fear.

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He is a liar. And I just thought that was so powerful. I want to

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start to activate you guys in this because I don't want to

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just sit here and teach I want you guys to start engaging with

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the content. So I want to start hearing from you in the chat. So

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what I mean by that to activate you is to give you something and

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have you start acting on it. So that's what that means when we

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say that to you. I want you to put in the chat. Could be today

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it could have been in the last week. What is a fear that you

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have been battling you personally? Go ahead and start

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to put those in the chat for us. Fear I'll be alone forever. I

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fear that hurt everyone that I'm close to fear of failure, fear

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of rejection, not having money. I'll do my best to keep up

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there and start coming real quick. Now being alone forever

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financial conflict that God doesn't want for me more than

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what I have. Okay. That's a good one becoming homeless. All

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right, fear of not having romantic relationship working

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out. Fear them too fat, ugly for a husband to want me. So

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appreciate y'all's honesty. It's very important in this process.

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Fear of not having money being alone. The ones they're all

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standing out to me. These are all really powerful, but I keep

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going back in my heart to one of the ones fear that I hurt

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everyone that I'm close to. All right, I'm going to unpack this

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for a minute. Just feel the Lord on this as well. So let's look

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at this fear that I hurt everyone that I'm close to. If

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that was me coaching you and helping you process heartwork. I

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would encourage you anyone, if this is you, you feel like that

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at some point that, you know, I've even had people say

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everyone that gets close to me dies. And they really believe

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that. And it's because they've lost a lot of people like

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they've gone through traumatic things. And so what we do in

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that is ask the Lord to reveal the first time, when is the

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first time you lost someone in your life or someone that was

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close to you got hurt? And you believe the lie that it was

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because they were close to you. Okay, so that's how it helped

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them start unpacking that. So if you guys you can look at your

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hurts to or your rejections or your fears or whatever it is

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that you're processing and the things that are coming up, you

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know, why do we fear being homeless? Well, it might be

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because at some point we lost a home. I at one point when I was

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married before we got evicted from our house. It was horrible,

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horrible feeling. And so have I had to do hard work around that?

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Absolutely. Well, even when we just, you know, my husband and I

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were getting moved in where we're getting moved to

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different church, we're moving to Florida. But before that all

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happened, there was just some upheaval is what I'll call it.

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The enemy was trying to come in and cause some stuff. You know,

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we got word that we might be asked to move out of the current

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parsonage that we're in in two weeks. Tell me that I didn't

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have some fear coming up you all. I did. I did. And I had to

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really work at not allowing the enemy to come in and get a

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foothold because of the things I went through before. And so I

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had to just be honest with myself. Okay, why is this coming

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up? Oh, I'm afraid. Because I did lose my house before.

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Because somebody that was supposed to provide for me

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didn't. And while my husband's doing an amazing job providing,

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this is happening because of his job. Y'all see how the enemy

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works? Okay, now had I taken that bait, I might have gotten

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upset with my husband when it had nothing to do with him,

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right? So that's how we kind of stop these things at the gate

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and we don't let them in. And we're not going to do it

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perfectly. I promise you guys are going to learn as you go. I

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have I still have to learn and remind myself how to stop this

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stuff at the gate. So that's what I want to help you do

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tonight regarding fear. So I want to encourage you whatever

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fear you put in the chat. I want to encourage you right now just

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start asking the Lord privately. Like Lord, where did this start

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for me? When was the first time?

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I felt fear about this thing.

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Thank you, Father.

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So Lord, we just thank you that you are showing them,

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even right now, Lord, where their fears are derived

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from the root wound that happened

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that caused them to fear it today,

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that the enemy's still coming in

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and he's trying to lie to them and deceive them

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and cause them to think

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they have to fear that thing still today.

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We thank you for revelation and truth.

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All right, so I wanna keep going on this.

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I appreciate y'all sharing in there.

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The Bible says that the spirit of fear

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has to do with torment, which is punishment.

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It says, there's no fear in love,

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but perfect love drives out fear

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because fear has to do with punishment.

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The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

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I remember you all, and I'm sharing some of this tonight

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because I used to be severely afraid of the dark.

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I'm not joking, like terrified.

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I had a lot of anxiety stuff.

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I had a lot of panic attacks when I was younger.

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A lot of that stemmed from things that were,

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that the abuse I endured,

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a lot of that stuff happened in the dark.

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Like there's all kinds of connections

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that I've been able to understand

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as God has revealed them over the years.

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I'm not kidding.

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Like, because even as a teenager, high school,

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like graduating, I would run from one side of the kitchen

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to the other because I was afraid people in the dark

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outside the windows would see me.

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I know it sounds strange, but that is what I believed.

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And I gave in and sometimes I would run up the stairs

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really fast from the basement to the upstairs

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because I was afraid stuff was after me.

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but I want to kind of share transparently

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because as I started learning how to overcome that,

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I started learning the truth of God's word

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and God started teaching me

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to not give in to that panic and that fear.

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I would feel that fear and the Lord would tell me,

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don't run up the stairs.

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He would just whisper, don't run,

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walk and declare my truth.

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and everything in me, I wanted to run up the stairs

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because I still felt my feelings.

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I felt that fear in my flesh.

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I felt it.

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He's given me a spirit of love,

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enough power and of a sound mind.

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And you all, it took time.

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It took time and it took commitment to that.

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I had overcome in that season

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when I went through all the betrayal

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in that relationship before that I was in for six years.

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It was like it opened Pandora's box again.

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but I know you love me.

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So why am I not free of this?

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And he said, do you?

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Do you know my love in its fullness?

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And he wasn't shaming me.

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He wasn't guilding me, but he was calling me deeper.

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He was calling me into a,

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he was saying to me, you do, but I have more.

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I have more of my love for you to understand.

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I have more of my love for you to enter

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in such a way that fear will be like,

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it will be dispelled from you.

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Because y'all, when we get into the light,

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no darkness can exist there.

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And he is the light.

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So if I'm struggling, yes, Lord.

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If I'm struggling, I just need to get with my daddy

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and I just need to get close to him.

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And I need to understand his character more

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and his goodness and his kindness and his love.

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And I know some of you have been raised in church

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your whole lives.

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And you're like, I already know this,

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but I'm gonna invite you to ask yourself, do you really?

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Because it says here that if we fear,

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we haven't been made perfect in love.

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Now there is no perfection until we go to heaven, y'all.

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Okay, we're all, we're becoming,

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but what I wanna encourage you is that tonight

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you can go a step closer to his love

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and a step further away from living a life

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of fear and panic and heartache.

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Hiding and believing that he doesn't have good stuff for you that it's just for everybody else, but not me

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God doesn't come through for me. That is a lie from the pit of hell and

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The enemy wants you to believe it and tonight. I'm gonna encourage you to get out of that fear place and choose a different heart posture

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Do y'all know that I'm not trying to oversimplify it, but it literally was a choice for me

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It was a choice every day to stop running from the fear and

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To feel it and come out of that sucker

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Just to come on right out of that and it's different for everyone for some of you. It might be a bigger battle

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I'm not trying to minimize your situation, but I'm telling you it's possible. It's possible

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Knowing him more as love abiding in his love more helps us heal more and that's what drives out the fear

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We're not the ones doing it as we remain in him as we get filled

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with rivers of living water

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That will cause all that stuff. Just like if I had imagine I wish you got I wish I would have thought of this earlier

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Imagine just pretend this is a clear cup. Okay, just pretend

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Doesn't look green you all it looks clear. Can you tell all right?

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If I had a clear glass of water, this is full

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I won't tip it too far because I'll go on my my computer, but it's full of water

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But let's just imagine it's murky water. So that's why the cup is green. I planned this in advance

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All right. Let's just imagine this is dirty water

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so imagine the fear that exists in your life right now if

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I take clear water and I pour it into the cup of dirty water

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At first it still looks a little murky and dirty

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But you keep pouring that clear water and y'all I mean, do you guys know where I'm going with this? What happens?

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That dirty water ends up clear you all it ends up clear

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And so what we can understand from this tonight is that the more that you get filled

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With the renewing water of heaven and that river of living water and you're you're spending time in the love of the Father

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It's going to cause all that stuff whether it's fear

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Rejection, you know sin maybe choices that you're making that aren't good for you. Whatever it is

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That that all can get cleared out of you

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It just takes some time and commitment

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All right. All right, so I'm gonna put you in to your breakout session

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I want to encourage you guys this last scripture

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I'm gonna give you before I put you in there is Romans 10 17, and this is what it says. I'm paraphrasing

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I think it's almost the full verse

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faith

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comes by hearing and

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hearing by the Word of God

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That's totally fine. Laura. I'm gonna read it again faith comes by hearing and

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Hearing by the Word of God, so I've given you all the Word of God tonight. I've given you the truth

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So you're hearing it as

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I'm speaking the word out and tonight you get to choose to step into it if you're

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Here tonight, and you can't go into a breakout. You can just stay in the main room with me

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Please don't everybody do that only people that literally cannot because you're working or you're driving or something

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I'm gonna put you in breakouts it for those of you that are new what break of breakouts are is I'm gonna give you a

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question

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That when you go into the room, I'm gonna set up the breakout

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It'll send you a little thing when I send it through and you'll click to join the breakout

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You'll be in there with you know, two two or three people total and you guys are gonna share with each other

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I'm asking you to share with someone you might not know I am

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But I'm gonna ask you guys to come out of your comfort zone because everyone

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At some point feels afraid

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We're talking about fear tonight

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So, please don't let fear keep you from what God wants to use to

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Help you feel love and support and community. Okay, so this is your question

465
00:29:18.280 --> 00:29:21.920
For your first breakout session. Your first question is

466
00:29:24.080 --> 00:29:26.080
Let's see, did I put it in here? Yes

467
00:29:26.640 --> 00:29:30.680
What are you fearing today? Some of you guys already put those in the chat

468
00:29:30.680 --> 00:29:34.120
So you might already have that fresh unless you feel led to share a different one and

469
00:29:34.680 --> 00:29:42.000
How are you going to come out of agreement with that fear and choose to partner with love? Okay. So what is the fear?

470
00:29:42.560 --> 00:29:47.160
What is the fear that you're having today or you've had recently you can do it

471
00:29:47.160 --> 00:29:53.240
however, you want and how are you gonna come out of agreement with that fear and partner with love today and

472
00:29:54.320 --> 00:29:57.440
If you don't know how to answer the second part of that question

473
00:29:58.240 --> 00:29:59.440
That's okay

474
00:29:59.440 --> 00:30:01.440
guess

475
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:00.840
Who does?

476
00:30:01.700 --> 00:30:04.700
The Father, Jesus Christ, and Holy Spirit,

477
00:30:04.700 --> 00:30:06.440
they know that answer.

478
00:30:06.440 --> 00:30:08.600
So just, and some of you guys,

479
00:30:08.600 --> 00:30:10.800
this is gonna be you guys also grow,

480
00:30:10.800 --> 00:30:14.680
you ladies also growing in your ability

481
00:30:14.680 --> 00:30:16.920
to recognize that God is talking to you.

482
00:30:16.920 --> 00:30:20.200
Don't get frustrated if you don't hear him right away.

483
00:30:20.200 --> 00:30:22.720
Sometimes it takes time, okay?

484
00:30:22.720 --> 00:30:24.760
But you can just ask him,

485
00:30:24.760 --> 00:30:27.820
Lord, what is something I can do

486
00:30:27.820 --> 00:30:29.240
to come out of fear tonight

487
00:30:29.240 --> 00:30:32.540
and start partnering and aligning with faith?

488
00:30:32.540 --> 00:30:36.420
And just see what comes up in your spirit and trust it, okay?

489
00:30:36.420 --> 00:30:37.660
All right, the first one,

490
00:30:37.660 --> 00:30:40.300
I'm gonna put you in there for eight minutes

491
00:30:40.300 --> 00:30:41.960
because forgiveness, I feel like it's gonna take

492
00:30:41.960 --> 00:30:44.740
a little longer than eight minutes tonight.

493
00:30:44.740 --> 00:30:47.740
Typically we need more time to talk about that and breakouts.

494
00:30:50.340 --> 00:30:54.040
All right, I'm gonna put rooms of three to four

495
00:30:54.040 --> 00:30:55.660
just because I've had a couple of people saying

496
00:30:55.660 --> 00:30:56.600
they can't do breakouts.

497
00:30:56.600 --> 00:30:58.780
I don't wanna get a bunch of people stuck.

498
00:30:58.780 --> 00:31:02.560
All right, there's that, let me see.

499
00:31:02.560 --> 00:31:04.440
Yeah, cool.

500
00:31:04.440 --> 00:31:06.080
All right, here you all go.

501
00:31:06.080 --> 00:31:08.120
I'm gonna be praying for you.

502
00:31:10.840 --> 00:31:12.280
Go ahead and click to join.

503
00:31:12.280 --> 00:31:14.480
While you're doing that, I just need to grab something

504
00:31:14.480 --> 00:31:15.980
I totally forgot to have here.

505
00:31:24.400 --> 00:31:26.720
All right, is everyone getting in there?

506
00:31:26.720 --> 00:31:28.500
Go ahead and click to join.

507
00:31:28.780 --> 00:31:33.780
All right, cool, we got a couple of people there.

508
00:31:39.520 --> 00:31:40.880
Okay, keep clicking to join.

509
00:31:40.880 --> 00:31:45.560
If you are still, if you're gonna do breakout sessions.

510
00:31:51.600 --> 00:31:54.340
All right, I think I need to move this young lady.

511
00:31:58.780 --> 00:32:03.780
All right, ladies, I'm almost done.

512
00:32:06.360 --> 00:32:09.120
I just need to make sure everybody's situated.

513
00:32:14.040 --> 00:32:15.480
I don't want anyone alone.

514
00:32:18.040 --> 00:32:22.120
Okay, all right, Father, thank you so much

515
00:32:22.120 --> 00:32:24.400
for everyone that is here tonight.

516
00:32:24.400 --> 00:32:26.100
Those that are watching the replay,

517
00:32:26.100 --> 00:32:27.520
those that are in the breakouts,

518
00:32:27.520 --> 00:32:29.940
even those that aren't able to do breakouts tonight,

519
00:32:29.940 --> 00:32:31.500
but they're just here in your presence.

520
00:32:31.500 --> 00:32:34.340
We just thank you for revealing things for healing.

521
00:32:34.340 --> 00:32:35.260
We thank you, God,

522
00:32:35.260 --> 00:32:38.760
that you're continuing to set your daughters free.

523
00:32:39.780 --> 00:32:41.900
I thank you that you would just continue to help them

524
00:32:41.900 --> 00:32:44.220
to hear what your spirit is saying to them.

525
00:32:44.220 --> 00:32:47.660
You would bring things to their minds,

526
00:32:47.660 --> 00:32:49.140
even as they're talking,

527
00:32:49.140 --> 00:32:52.340
to know what to share and how to share it.

528
00:32:52.340 --> 00:32:54.180
Hi, Chrissa, did you get kicked out?

529
00:32:57.780 --> 00:33:02.780
Hey, so I'm on my phone and on my laptop

530
00:33:04.260 --> 00:33:08.060
because I had audio on one and then video on the other.

531
00:33:08.060 --> 00:33:10.500
Okay, I think I just got put in both rooms.

532
00:33:10.500 --> 00:33:12.380
Oh, shoot, okay, hold on one second.

533
00:33:12.380 --> 00:33:17.380
So I declined it on my phone and I'm in it on my laptop.

534
00:33:17.980 --> 00:33:21.100
Okay, let me see where you're at.

535
00:33:22.620 --> 00:33:24.060
I think I'm in eight.

536
00:33:24.560 --> 00:33:29.060
I see you, I see you, okay, hold on one second.

537
00:33:30.160 --> 00:33:31.560
On my laptop.

538
00:33:31.560 --> 00:33:34.320
Yeah, I just sent it to you, you should have it now.

539
00:33:34.320 --> 00:33:35.160
Okay.

540
00:33:42.160 --> 00:33:44.840
Okay, so Laura, we just thank you right now

541
00:33:44.840 --> 00:33:46.760
for breakthroughs that are happening,

542
00:33:46.760 --> 00:33:48.280
breakthroughs that are going to happen.

543
00:33:48.280 --> 00:33:51.560
We thank you, Laura, that you would just come in

544
00:33:51.560 --> 00:33:53.560
and just wash over their hearts, their minds,

545
00:33:54.060 --> 00:33:55.780
their spirits, their bodies, and their souls.

546
00:33:55.780 --> 00:33:59.060
I thank you, God, that you would bring anything in darkness

547
00:33:59.060 --> 00:34:01.420
to the light that needs to be brought to the surface

548
00:34:01.420 --> 00:34:05.420
so that they can step further into your love tonight.

549
00:34:05.420 --> 00:34:08.100
I pray that you would help them to hear

550
00:34:08.100 --> 00:34:10.460
what your spirit's saying, to heal in ways

551
00:34:10.460 --> 00:34:13.139
that they didn't even know was possible before.

552
00:34:13.139 --> 00:34:16.260
I thank you, Lord, that you are the redeemer,

553
00:34:16.260 --> 00:34:18.219
that you're the one that comes in

554
00:34:18.219 --> 00:34:20.739
and redeems all situations.

555
00:34:20.739 --> 00:34:23.380
And you're the great physician, nothing is too hard for you.

556
00:34:24.199 --> 00:34:27.199
I thank you that you're going to continue to help them too.

557
00:34:28.400 --> 00:34:30.280
Yes, Lord, I thank you that you would place

558
00:34:30.280 --> 00:34:34.120
the balm of Gilead upon every wound.

559
00:34:34.120 --> 00:34:38.120
We know in your word, the balm of Gilead is a medicine,

560
00:34:38.120 --> 00:34:41.320
essentially a balm that is placed onto people

561
00:34:41.320 --> 00:34:45.040
in the Old Testament that brought them great healing.

562
00:34:45.040 --> 00:34:47.880
So we thank you for this healing power

563
00:34:47.880 --> 00:34:50.020
and virtue coming from heaven.

564
00:34:50.020 --> 00:34:52.460
We know that that was something that happened in the Bible,

565
00:34:52.480 --> 00:34:54.719
but I know that you're the one

566
00:34:54.719 --> 00:34:57.460
that can go into all parts of a timeline.

567
00:34:57.460 --> 00:35:00.360
So Lord, we know that you can do that even for us today.

568
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.000
Okay, so Lord, we just thank you for divine healing

569
00:35:03.000 --> 00:35:05.980
and anointing oil to come from heaven

570
00:35:05.980 --> 00:35:10.980
and wash over your daughters and bring healing and wholeness.

571
00:35:12.000 --> 00:35:15.680
We just call forth grace and mercy.

572
00:35:15.680 --> 00:35:17.720
God, I thank you that you would just come against,

573
00:35:17.720 --> 00:35:19.840
yes, Lord, that you would raise up a standard

574
00:35:19.840 --> 00:35:23.360
against the enemy in every area of our lives

575
00:35:23.360 --> 00:35:25.560
and that you tonight would raise up a standard

576
00:35:25.560 --> 00:35:29.120
against the enemy regarding fear in our lives

577
00:35:29.120 --> 00:35:34.120
and you would help us to see the light

578
00:35:34.200 --> 00:35:37.760
and to know that your light does cast out all darkness.

579
00:35:37.760 --> 00:35:39.840
It does cast out all fear.

580
00:35:39.840 --> 00:35:41.900
And I thank you that we don't have to partner

581
00:35:41.900 --> 00:35:43.640
with fear or torment.

582
00:35:44.760 --> 00:35:47.960
We know that the enemy at times can attack us

583
00:35:47.960 --> 00:35:50.840
and try to bring that upon us, but I thank you, God,

584
00:35:50.840 --> 00:35:53.680
that we are covered by your blood, Jesus Christ.

585
00:35:53.680 --> 00:35:55.720
And I thank you that we can stand in the victory

586
00:35:55.720 --> 00:35:57.640
that you already won for us.

587
00:35:57.680 --> 00:36:00.560
And I thank you that even in the times

588
00:36:00.560 --> 00:36:04.520
that we're enduring physical things here in this world,

589
00:36:04.520 --> 00:36:06.280
that you would align us to heaven.

590
00:36:06.280 --> 00:36:08.960
And we just call forth right now,

591
00:36:08.960 --> 00:36:11.040
your kingdom plans and purposes

592
00:36:11.040 --> 00:36:12.760
for every one of these ladies.

593
00:36:13.640 --> 00:36:17.200
We call it forth from heaven here on earth this day.

594
00:36:17.200 --> 00:36:18.520
And we just thank you that you would help us

595
00:36:18.520 --> 00:36:20.400
to step further into the understanding

596
00:36:20.400 --> 00:36:23.800
of who you originally created us to be without fear,

597
00:36:23.800 --> 00:36:26.740
without blemish, without wounds and trauma,

598
00:36:26.780 --> 00:36:31.580
help us to get back to the original design

599
00:36:31.580 --> 00:36:32.900
that you created for us.

600
00:36:32.900 --> 00:36:34.500
And it's never too late for us.

601
00:36:34.500 --> 00:36:36.900
Lord, I thank you for that truth.

602
00:36:36.900 --> 00:36:39.900
I just heard the Lord say that so loud, it's never too late.

603
00:36:41.100 --> 00:36:43.740
So I just speak that over all of you,

604
00:36:43.740 --> 00:36:46.940
that it's never too late for us to have a turnaround story.

605
00:36:46.940 --> 00:36:48.300
It's never too late.

606
00:36:48.300 --> 00:36:51.980
God's so amazing at writing and rewriting stories

607
00:36:51.980 --> 00:36:56.360
and timelines and life stories.

608
00:36:57.120 --> 00:37:00.080
And I responded to someone's weekly roll call post

609
00:37:00.080 --> 00:37:01.400
like maybe an hour ago.

610
00:37:01.400 --> 00:37:03.800
And one of the things I was saying is,

611
00:37:03.800 --> 00:37:05.040
they up to this point,

612
00:37:05.040 --> 00:37:06.960
their parents didn't have a good marriage.

613
00:37:06.960 --> 00:37:08.400
They didn't have a good marriage.

614
00:37:08.400 --> 00:37:11.220
And so they're struggling to even want,

615
00:37:11.220 --> 00:37:13.640
like they're really realizing they actually struggled

616
00:37:13.640 --> 00:37:15.700
to even want to get married.

617
00:37:15.700 --> 00:37:19.400
And so the thing that I shared with them

618
00:37:19.400 --> 00:37:22.640
was that I had similar experience.

619
00:37:22.640 --> 00:37:24.600
My parents did not have a good marriage at all.

620
00:37:24.600 --> 00:37:28.080
Now my grandparents did, but my parents did not.

621
00:37:28.080 --> 00:37:30.300
And I did not have a good first marriage.

622
00:37:30.300 --> 00:37:31.600
And then I had really terrible

623
00:37:31.600 --> 00:37:34.360
couple other relationships after that.

624
00:37:34.360 --> 00:37:36.720
But amazing, amazing God.

625
00:37:36.720 --> 00:37:37.760
He's so powerful.

626
00:37:37.760 --> 00:37:38.600
We heal.

627
00:37:38.600 --> 00:37:40.120
I went through the whole healing process.

628
00:37:40.120 --> 00:37:41.160
There's a lot of work I did

629
00:37:41.160 --> 00:37:42.960
before I came into this community.

630
00:37:42.960 --> 00:37:46.040
And God had been healing and redeeming

631
00:37:46.040 --> 00:37:48.360
and restoring and rebuilding.

632
00:37:48.360 --> 00:37:51.440
And I met my now husband, Brian.

633
00:37:52.400 --> 00:37:55.480
And you all have the funnest life I've ever had,

634
00:37:55.480 --> 00:37:56.320
sincerely.

635
00:37:56.320 --> 00:37:57.240
And I'm not making that up.

636
00:37:57.240 --> 00:37:59.580
Like, I'm not, I mean, it's marriage.

637
00:37:59.580 --> 00:38:00.420
It's normal.

638
00:38:00.420 --> 00:38:01.240
We have our little bumps.

639
00:38:01.240 --> 00:38:02.080
Everybody does.

640
00:38:02.080 --> 00:38:03.860
And you're growing in relationship with each other.

641
00:38:03.860 --> 00:38:06.680
But literally, I laugh more than I've ever laughed

642
00:38:06.680 --> 00:38:07.840
in my life.

643
00:38:07.840 --> 00:38:11.740
And I get to be myself and I'm safe and I'm protected.

644
00:38:12.600 --> 00:38:16.400
We travel and go all over and we go explore places.

645
00:38:16.400 --> 00:38:18.820
But like, we really laugh and enjoy life.

646
00:38:18.820 --> 00:38:21.460
And I can tell you that years ago,

647
00:38:21.460 --> 00:38:23.780
I didn't know if that would be possible, but it is.

648
00:38:23.780 --> 00:38:27.580
And I'm saying to you tonight that if he's done it for me,

649
00:38:27.580 --> 00:38:29.220
he can do it for you too.

650
00:38:29.220 --> 00:38:30.900
He can do it for you too.

651
00:38:30.900 --> 00:38:35.900
So part of my journey, I had to agree with the truth

652
00:38:36.100 --> 00:38:39.420
that I was a bride and that God had good things for me.

653
00:38:39.420 --> 00:38:42.340
And so I wanna encourage you when you see this,

654
00:38:42.340 --> 00:38:44.540
or if you're here live, if you see the replay,

655
00:38:44.540 --> 00:38:48.580
whichever way that you will start aligning with the truth,

656
00:38:49.340 --> 00:38:50.340
not just declaring it out loud,

657
00:38:50.340 --> 00:38:53.500
but allowing God to get that deep in your heart

658
00:38:53.500 --> 00:38:56.860
that you are a bride and he has good plans for you.

659
00:38:56.860 --> 00:38:59.560
And God will fulfill his promises to you

660
00:38:59.560 --> 00:39:01.820
as you continue to partner with him

661
00:39:01.820 --> 00:39:05.020
and activate these truths in your life.

662
00:39:05.020 --> 00:39:07.440
And so I'm just gonna continue to read some scriptures

663
00:39:07.440 --> 00:39:09.020
as they start to come back.

664
00:39:09.020 --> 00:39:11.520
We have about 60 seconds.

665
00:39:13.060 --> 00:39:14.940
Romans 8.28 says,

666
00:39:14.940 --> 00:39:17.340
so we are convinced that every detail of our lives

667
00:39:17.380 --> 00:39:19.580
is continually woven together

668
00:39:19.580 --> 00:39:22.180
to fit into God's perfect plan

669
00:39:22.180 --> 00:39:24.660
of bringing good into our lives.

670
00:39:24.660 --> 00:39:27.740
For we are his lovers who have been called according,

671
00:39:27.740 --> 00:39:29.060
or excuse me, who have been called

672
00:39:29.060 --> 00:39:32.140
to fulfill his designed purpose.

673
00:39:32.140 --> 00:39:34.340
So Lord, we just thank you for your design purpose

674
00:39:34.340 --> 00:39:35.180
in our lives.

675
00:39:35.180 --> 00:39:38.900
We thank you that you are not finished with us yet.

676
00:39:38.900 --> 00:39:42.780
And even when we don't see it, God, you're working.

677
00:39:43.660 --> 00:39:47.580
Just like years ago, the Lord showed me,

678
00:39:47.580 --> 00:39:50.220
I looked down and I saw all these little ants

679
00:39:50.220 --> 00:39:51.820
scurrying you all.

680
00:39:51.820 --> 00:39:53.060
As people start to come back,

681
00:39:53.060 --> 00:39:54.460
I just feel led to tell the story.

682
00:39:54.460 --> 00:39:57.580
I saw all these little ants scurrying in these bugs.

683
00:39:57.580 --> 00:39:58.860
And I'd seen that before.

684
00:39:58.860 --> 00:40:00.760
You know, you grow up, you see these.

685
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.300
these all your life, but this day in particular,

686
00:40:03.300 --> 00:40:08.360
God was like, look at, watch them, learn from them.

687
00:40:08.360 --> 00:40:10.380
Y'all, it wasn't just about the ants were busy,

688
00:40:10.380 --> 00:40:12.160
here's what he wanted to show me.

689
00:40:13.200 --> 00:40:17.440
Those ants and those insects were underneath the surface

690
00:40:17.440 --> 00:40:18.640
all along.

691
00:40:18.640 --> 00:40:21.720
They're always there working, whether we see them or not.

692
00:40:21.720 --> 00:40:24.440
And God said, it's just like that.

693
00:40:24.440 --> 00:40:28.940
I'm always working whether you see it or not.

694
00:40:30.080 --> 00:40:33.880
So for whoever that's for tonight, he's always working.

695
00:40:33.880 --> 00:40:35.200
He's always working.

696
00:40:35.200 --> 00:40:40.000
It's whether or not we believe and partner with that truth.

697
00:40:40.000 --> 00:40:42.640
All right, who is willing?

698
00:40:42.640 --> 00:40:45.960
If I say who wants to, nobody raises their hands.

699
00:40:45.960 --> 00:40:50.960
So I'm gonna say who is willing to be tribute and go first.

700
00:40:52.320 --> 00:40:54.160
I feel like I saw a hand and then somebody put it down.

701
00:40:54.160 --> 00:40:55.320
Okay, all right.

702
00:40:55.320 --> 00:40:58.560
Now, do you say your name Anja, Anja?

703
00:40:58.560 --> 00:40:59.400
Anja.

704
00:41:00.260 --> 00:41:01.360
Tell me again.

705
00:41:01.360 --> 00:41:02.360
Anja.

706
00:41:02.360 --> 00:41:03.760
Anja, okay.

707
00:41:03.760 --> 00:41:06.920
I'm gonna, I gotta do phonetics because I'll forget.

708
00:41:06.920 --> 00:41:09.720
So I'll try to remember my notes next week.

709
00:41:09.720 --> 00:41:10.680
Okay, go ahead.

710
00:41:10.680 --> 00:41:11.960
I'd love for you to share.

711
00:41:14.160 --> 00:41:15.840
So the fear that's been coming up for me

712
00:41:15.840 --> 00:41:20.320
truthfully a lot lately is fear of losing my mom.

713
00:41:20.320 --> 00:41:23.280
She has a chronic kidney disease.

714
00:41:23.280 --> 00:41:27.320
She's had it more longer than I've been alive

715
00:41:27.320 --> 00:41:30.440
and just recently in this last year,

716
00:41:30.440 --> 00:41:32.360
transplants are no longer an option.

717
00:41:32.360 --> 00:41:35.920
And so we're just taking it day by day.

718
00:41:35.920 --> 00:41:37.040
I mean, she's doing okay.

719
00:41:37.040 --> 00:41:40.080
She's not necessarily at the very end of things

720
00:41:40.080 --> 00:41:43.240
but it just kind of hit, it made things very real.

721
00:41:44.240 --> 00:41:47.640
And so that's been something I've been dealing with

722
00:41:47.640 --> 00:41:48.960
off and on a lot lately.

723
00:41:48.960 --> 00:41:50.880
Like I say off and on,

724
00:41:50.880 --> 00:41:54.240
the off is when I don't let myself think about it.

725
00:41:54.240 --> 00:41:56.040
And so just grieving,

726
00:41:56.040 --> 00:41:57.760
living in this kind of ambiguous grief

727
00:41:57.760 --> 00:41:58.800
where she's still here

728
00:41:58.800 --> 00:42:02.520
but I don't know how much longer we have

729
00:42:02.520 --> 00:42:04.360
and then wanting her to be at my wedding

730
00:42:04.360 --> 00:42:06.760
and all of those pieces.

731
00:42:06.760 --> 00:42:09.040
And so I just was sharing with the ladies.

732
00:42:10.160 --> 00:42:13.120
I actually had a dream about it this last week

733
00:42:13.120 --> 00:42:17.600
and the short of it is there was this group of people

734
00:42:17.600 --> 00:42:18.560
that were talking to her

735
00:42:18.560 --> 00:42:20.560
and she started laughing uncontrollably.

736
00:42:21.440 --> 00:42:24.160
And I was like, she was leaning back

737
00:42:24.160 --> 00:42:26.480
and I was trying to hang on to her and hold her up.

738
00:42:26.480 --> 00:42:29.280
And I kept saying, mom, mom, don't go, don't go.

739
00:42:29.280 --> 00:42:31.240
And at one point I even,

740
00:42:31.240 --> 00:42:33.120
like I was crying and I broke down.

741
00:42:33.120 --> 00:42:35.160
I was like, mommy, don't leave me.

742
00:42:36.120 --> 00:42:38.760
And I felt the Lord behind me

743
00:42:38.760 --> 00:42:40.280
and yet I was kind of removed from it

744
00:42:40.280 --> 00:42:42.120
even though I was there with her,

745
00:42:42.120 --> 00:42:44.600
just saying, let her go.

746
00:42:44.600 --> 00:42:48.360
And like the sense of like, I've got you or lean into me.

747
00:42:49.240 --> 00:42:54.000
And I woke up like crying, of course, as well,

748
00:42:54.000 --> 00:42:57.360
but I just feel like that.

749
00:42:57.360 --> 00:42:59.120
I mean, that's the answer.

750
00:42:59.120 --> 00:43:01.920
I don't know a practical way per se,

751
00:43:01.920 --> 00:43:05.840
but just the like to lean into him.

752
00:43:05.840 --> 00:43:09.440
I've been trying to do that just when it comes up,

753
00:43:09.440 --> 00:43:11.320
being like, okay, like, Lord, I do.

754
00:43:11.320 --> 00:43:14.440
I surrender, that whole thing of surrender,

755
00:43:14.440 --> 00:43:16.360
the permissions that we did.

756
00:43:16.400 --> 00:43:17.800
Just, I surrender her to you.

757
00:43:17.800 --> 00:43:19.160
I surrender the outcome to you.

758
00:43:19.160 --> 00:43:20.440
I can't control it.

759
00:43:21.920 --> 00:43:26.920
And just trusting that we'll have the fullness

760
00:43:27.040 --> 00:43:28.840
of the days that she's given.

761
00:43:28.840 --> 00:43:30.160
So, yeah.

762
00:43:31.080 --> 00:43:32.800
Oh, sweet sister, bless you.

763
00:43:32.800 --> 00:43:34.240
Thank you for sharing.

764
00:43:35.760 --> 00:43:38.320
You know, I love where you're at with this.

765
00:43:38.320 --> 00:43:42.440
I think you're in the best spot you can be in this process.

766
00:43:42.440 --> 00:43:45.040
The one thing I wanna say is that

767
00:43:45.600 --> 00:43:50.600
the dream, y'all, these things can be interpreted naturally,

768
00:43:50.920 --> 00:43:53.280
but they can also be interpreted spiritually.

769
00:43:53.280 --> 00:43:55.440
And you're doing that because you're seeing,

770
00:43:55.440 --> 00:43:56.800
you know, you're kind of have,

771
00:43:56.800 --> 00:43:59.720
you're living in this real situation, right?

772
00:43:59.720 --> 00:44:02.800
And I do think the Lord is encouraging you to let her go.

773
00:44:02.800 --> 00:44:06.280
And maybe that will mean a physical letting go.

774
00:44:06.280 --> 00:44:07.960
I don't know.

775
00:44:07.960 --> 00:44:10.720
But what I wanna encourage you is that

776
00:44:10.760 --> 00:44:14.760
sometimes it's a letting go within,

777
00:44:16.240 --> 00:44:17.800
you know, in those fears,

778
00:44:17.800 --> 00:44:20.520
because see, the fear is even causing like,

779
00:44:20.520 --> 00:44:22.480
some withholding, like holding back,

780
00:44:22.480 --> 00:44:26.360
or, you know, like that fear of planning your life,

781
00:44:26.360 --> 00:44:29.720
or, because, you know, all these things, the what ifs.

782
00:44:30.720 --> 00:44:34.720
So if you can even let go of some of those in this process,

783
00:44:35.640 --> 00:44:38.400
I believe really what resonates is what you said,

784
00:44:38.440 --> 00:44:40.640
like, the Lord is saying, I've got you.

785
00:44:42.320 --> 00:44:46.320
Like, Anya, right?

786
00:44:46.320 --> 00:44:47.160
Is that right?

787
00:44:47.160 --> 00:44:48.000
Anya?

788
00:44:48.000 --> 00:44:48.840
Yeah.

789
00:44:48.840 --> 00:44:49.680
Okay.

790
00:44:50.680 --> 00:44:51.920
That he's got you.

791
00:44:51.920 --> 00:44:55.600
That no matter what, I've got you.

792
00:44:55.600 --> 00:44:57.080
And he's not gonna let you fall.

793
00:44:57.080 --> 00:44:58.440
And I will tell you,

794
00:44:58.440 --> 00:45:00.360
I'm not gonna let you fall.

795
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.840
And I don't, I don't mean that this means this is going to be your outcome.

796
00:45:00.360 --> 00:45:02.040
I'm not gonna let you fall.

797
00:45:02.040 --> 00:45:03.720
I'm not gonna let you fall.

798
00:45:03.720 --> 00:45:05.480
I'm not gonna let you fall.

799
00:45:04.840 --> 00:45:09.960
I had been married before, but I, even so it ended up not going well.

800
00:45:09.960 --> 00:45:14.320
And I really wanted my mom at this wedding.

801
00:45:14.320 --> 00:45:15.480
That was not the case.

802
00:45:15.480 --> 00:45:17.280
That was not what happened for me.

803
00:45:17.280 --> 00:45:21.160
And I remember thinking like, what am I going to do now?

804
00:45:21.160 --> 00:45:26.560
Like I'm not close to my dad and now my mom's not here and I have no one to walk me down

805
00:45:26.560 --> 00:45:27.920
the aisle.

806
00:45:27.920 --> 00:45:31.920
And I just remember really wrestling and being frustrated about that.

807
00:45:31.920 --> 00:45:39.000
And all of a sudden the Lord said, like, you have family, you have community.

808
00:45:39.000 --> 00:45:41.960
And I'm not saying it takes away the hard parts.

809
00:45:41.960 --> 00:45:42.960
Okay.

810
00:45:42.960 --> 00:45:46.600
Cause the reality is you all, we're all going to have some hard parts at times we've got

811
00:45:46.600 --> 00:45:48.880
to face and go through.

812
00:45:48.880 --> 00:45:54.160
But what I am saying is, and I'm not saying this is possible for everyone else.

813
00:45:54.160 --> 00:45:56.720
Cause people then are like, oh my gosh, I want her to do that.

814
00:45:56.720 --> 00:46:01.680
But I felt led to ask Jackie Dorman to do it for me.

815
00:46:01.680 --> 00:46:03.080
And she's my friend.

816
00:46:03.080 --> 00:46:04.080
She's my mentor.

817
00:46:04.080 --> 00:46:07.240
We were, you know, we work alongside.

818
00:46:07.240 --> 00:46:12.480
And so there was something supernatural that was happening in that transaction, if you

819
00:46:12.480 --> 00:46:13.480
will.

820
00:46:13.480 --> 00:46:17.920
And so I just, I was kind of like, I don't know about this, but okay.

821
00:46:17.920 --> 00:46:20.920
Like, but it was, it was a glorious day.

822
00:46:20.920 --> 00:46:27.000
It was a glorious day and God showed up in so many ways to show me my mom.

823
00:46:27.000 --> 00:46:32.800
You all, my mom and I shared butterflies back and back and forth for years, all kinds of

824
00:46:32.800 --> 00:46:33.800
butterfly things.

825
00:46:33.800 --> 00:46:36.600
It was a God thing between us.

826
00:46:36.600 --> 00:46:38.880
And I had a butterfly release.

827
00:46:38.880 --> 00:46:42.160
I didn't plan on sharing this, but I just feel led to, I had a butterfly release.

828
00:46:42.160 --> 00:46:45.600
I had this whole thing planned to honor my mom and my husband.

829
00:46:45.600 --> 00:46:50.160
Y'all, I know this is going to sound like it's going somewhere bad, but it's not.

830
00:46:50.160 --> 00:46:51.440
I had this whole thing planned.

831
00:46:51.440 --> 00:46:55.200
I had this whole picture in my head of how it was going to go.

832
00:46:55.200 --> 00:47:02.600
You all, not one butterfly in those things lived, y'all I'm a control freak.

833
00:47:02.600 --> 00:47:05.480
Imagine that moment.

834
00:47:05.480 --> 00:47:07.560
And I just laughed in my wedding.

835
00:47:07.560 --> 00:47:08.560
I laughed.

836
00:47:08.560 --> 00:47:14.400
I was like, well, that didn't go as planned and everyone just started laughing, but here's

837
00:47:14.400 --> 00:47:15.400
the kicker.

838
00:47:15.400 --> 00:47:16.400
Do y'all know?

839
00:47:16.400 --> 00:47:20.960
I didn't know the whole time there was a butterfly on my veil.

840
00:47:20.960 --> 00:47:24.320
We got married near a butterfly garden.

841
00:47:24.320 --> 00:47:27.560
And there was a butterfly on my veil the whole time.

842
00:47:27.560 --> 00:47:30.920
People that were at the wedding took a picture of it and sent it to me.

843
00:47:30.920 --> 00:47:32.680
Y'all, my mom was there.

844
00:47:32.680 --> 00:47:33.840
Was she that butterfly?

845
00:47:33.840 --> 00:47:35.840
No, but I believe God sent that.

846
00:47:35.840 --> 00:47:41.400
I believe God sent that to show me tangibly.

847
00:47:41.400 --> 00:47:42.400
She's here.

848
00:47:42.400 --> 00:47:44.120
So I want to encourage you all.

849
00:47:44.480 --> 00:47:47.880
This is the part of letting go that I want to encourage.

850
00:47:47.880 --> 00:47:52.960
So again, I didn't mean to go into all that, but for anybody that struggles with this kind

851
00:47:52.960 --> 00:47:58.800
of thing of like getting married again and someone that you really wanted there might

852
00:47:58.800 --> 00:48:05.680
not be able to be there physically, God can do all kinds of stuff.

853
00:48:05.680 --> 00:48:07.080
Thank you for sharing.

854
00:48:07.080 --> 00:48:12.400
And we're going to believe for your mama to be just fine and be all the way there and

855
00:48:12.400 --> 00:48:13.400
all the things.

856
00:48:13.400 --> 00:48:17.000
But I just wanted to share that to encourage you no matter what.

857
00:48:17.000 --> 00:48:19.640
All right, Brittany, go ahead.

858
00:48:19.640 --> 00:48:20.640
Okay.

859
00:48:20.640 --> 00:48:27.560
So one thing that I have been fearing, and I believe it's still along the lines of worrying,

860
00:48:27.560 --> 00:48:35.000
is I've been faced with kind of being reeled back into helping my grandmother.

861
00:48:35.000 --> 00:48:38.240
So I've been her caregiver for about 12 years.

862
00:48:38.480 --> 00:48:47.640
I live here and she's 88, God bless her, 88, still bathes herself, still cooks for herself,

863
00:48:47.640 --> 00:48:54.480
still has a little sharp mind of her own, but she does have vascular dementia.

864
00:48:54.480 --> 00:48:59.760
And I was just waiting for the doctor to confirm that, but I have help with family.

865
00:48:59.760 --> 00:49:08.200
I fear that she is not going to be taken care of as she is supposed to be in the way that

866
00:49:08.680 --> 00:49:10.080
the doctor would recommend it.

867
00:49:10.080 --> 00:49:18.560
And the reason why I've had that fear is because I'm one of the only people besides my mom

868
00:49:18.560 --> 00:49:20.960
who's been helping her, but she's been patient.

869
00:49:20.960 --> 00:49:26.840
Like we've been patient with her, but my uncle lives here too.

870
00:49:26.840 --> 00:49:35.560
And so that was unexpected and he's been here for a year and he is not patient and he himself

871
00:49:35.560 --> 00:49:41.880
has short-term memory issues because he, by God's grace, he had brain surgery over

872
00:49:41.880 --> 00:49:45.480
a year and a half ago and he wasn't supposed to make it, but they had to put his brain

873
00:49:45.480 --> 00:49:46.480
back in the skull.

874
00:49:46.480 --> 00:49:52.840
So he's still alive, still going, just short-term memory issues and he doesn't carry his weight

875
00:49:52.840 --> 00:49:54.600
as much as he should be.

876
00:49:54.600 --> 00:49:58.880
But I've been having that fear because I've gone through a lot of things with my grandmother

877
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.160
I'm just trying to give it away.

878
00:50:03.160 --> 00:50:07.480
Cause the Lord is just really saying it's time because he's transitioning me.

879
00:50:07.640 --> 00:50:09.480
So this is good.

880
00:50:09.640 --> 00:50:10.400
I'm going to come back.

881
00:50:10.400 --> 00:50:12.240
I'm going to let a couple of people share, and then I'm going to kind of

882
00:50:12.240 --> 00:50:14.400
bounce and coach all of them at one time.

883
00:50:14.680 --> 00:50:16.680
Thank you so much for sharing, Jen, go ahead.

884
00:50:20.000 --> 00:50:27.520
Um, so one of the things that I shared in my group was that, um, one of the things

885
00:50:28.160 --> 00:50:30.800
I don't know, not necessarily that I feared anything today.

886
00:50:30.800 --> 00:50:38.800
It was just kind of an ongoing fear of, you know, um, my husband, um, I loved him

887
00:50:38.800 --> 00:50:44.240
very much, but he was very narcissistic, very, um, emotionally abusive to both me

888
00:50:44.240 --> 00:50:48.800
and my son, um, to where we've always felt like we were kind of walking on

889
00:50:48.800 --> 00:50:52.200
eggshells around him, didn't know what we were going to do, truly believe

890
00:50:52.200 --> 00:50:53.600
he was probably bipolar.

891
00:50:54.040 --> 00:50:57.760
Um, but I thought I can fix him and I thought I could do everything in my

892
00:50:57.760 --> 00:50:58.720
power to make him happy.

893
00:50:58.720 --> 00:51:00.080
And of course that didn't work.

894
00:51:00.520 --> 00:51:06.320
Um, and so unfortunately it ended, um, in suicide about three years ago.

895
00:51:06.800 --> 00:51:10.600
And my fear is, um, like I want to be married again.

896
00:51:10.600 --> 00:51:12.040
I want to fall in love again.

897
00:51:12.280 --> 00:51:14.360
Um, but I always, I have that fear.

898
00:51:14.360 --> 00:51:20.040
Like, will I find the same type of person who's going to be a narcissist

899
00:51:20.160 --> 00:51:22.000
and will I be able to spot that?

900
00:51:22.000 --> 00:51:27.880
Or will I, um, just fall for it again and have to endure that again.

901
00:51:28.360 --> 00:51:32.240
So, or find, or, you know, meeting somebody with mental illness or

902
00:51:32.560 --> 00:51:35.320
dealing with all of that, like, that's just a fear of mine.

903
00:51:35.320 --> 00:51:40.080
And so like, I have the walls up of, I just don't want to be hurt again.

904
00:51:40.360 --> 00:51:45.600
But then through the program I've been, you know, um, like the things that

905
00:51:45.600 --> 00:51:50.640
you've said about, you know, no good people climb walls, only thieves climb

906
00:51:50.640 --> 00:51:56.320
walls and, um, you know, giving God the pen, letting God write my story and not

907
00:51:56.320 --> 00:52:01.160
me being in control and try to write my own story, but let him write it and, um,

908
00:52:01.160 --> 00:52:08.480
trust that he is going to, um, he's going to work it out and that everybody

909
00:52:08.480 --> 00:52:11.920
has yellow flags, but not everybody.

910
00:52:11.920 --> 00:52:14.520
Some of those yellow flags, we may be looking hard and being like,

911
00:52:14.520 --> 00:52:16.240
oh, that's a red flag, but it really isn't.

912
00:52:16.240 --> 00:52:18.920
It's just what we're feeling.

913
00:52:19.440 --> 00:52:20.040
Yes.

914
00:52:20.360 --> 00:52:22.080
So many good things in there.

915
00:52:22.480 --> 00:52:25.800
I'm going to, I'm going to kind of let the other ladies quickly share, and then

916
00:52:25.800 --> 00:52:28.200
I'm going to come back and do some coaching.

917
00:52:28.200 --> 00:52:29.520
So go ahead, Jen.

918
00:52:29.520 --> 00:52:30.960
Thank you for sharing, Judy.

919
00:52:30.960 --> 00:52:31.560
Go ahead.

920
00:52:32.360 --> 00:52:33.160
Hi everyone.

921
00:52:33.160 --> 00:52:37.200
So, um, I think for me, my fear is something that I've been

922
00:52:37.200 --> 00:52:38.520
dealing with for a while.

923
00:52:38.520 --> 00:52:44.000
And I think when I started this program, um, I started having dreams.

924
00:52:44.000 --> 00:52:45.080
I never used to dream before.

925
00:52:45.080 --> 00:52:48.000
So I started having dreams and I've shared a couple of dreams.

926
00:52:48.000 --> 00:52:52.480
And one of the dreams that, um, kind of is recurring is one

927
00:52:52.480 --> 00:52:55.440
that I feel like, um, I've never chosen.

928
00:52:55.600 --> 00:52:56.400
I have this dream.

929
00:52:56.400 --> 00:53:02.000
I think, Bethany, you helped me, um, on Facebook and, um, like I'm never, I'm,

930
00:53:02.000 --> 00:53:05.440
I'm, I'm, I have these friends and they're planning a trip and everyone

931
00:53:05.440 --> 00:53:06.880
is going for the trip except me.

932
00:53:07.440 --> 00:53:12.120
And so I started thinking about the times when as a child, I was never chosen, you

933
00:53:12.120 --> 00:53:17.840
know, and I remember one time my uncle said like, Oh, you know, uh, everyone in

934
00:53:17.840 --> 00:53:21.400
this house is going to be married except you, you know, you're not the, one of

935
00:53:21.400 --> 00:53:25.840
the most beautiful ones, you know, I like, I always felt like I don't, I don't

936
00:53:25.840 --> 00:53:26.840
amount to anything.

937
00:53:27.720 --> 00:53:31.840
So I think, um, I'm right now I'm on the, I'm on week four and I'm scared.

938
00:53:32.600 --> 00:53:36.440
I'm scared of, of, of, of even finishing week four, because I'm like, if I finish

939
00:53:36.440 --> 00:53:40.840
week five, it means I have to now face this thing.

940
00:53:40.840 --> 00:53:43.400
And I haven't really been in a relationship for a very long time.

941
00:53:43.400 --> 00:53:44.680
And I'm even so scared.

942
00:53:44.680 --> 00:53:47.400
And I'm like, Lord, really, how will it work?

943
00:53:47.880 --> 00:53:51.040
I don't even know how I'm going to manage that.

944
00:53:51.040 --> 00:53:57.120
So, um, I just need the Lord's help to overcome that fear of, um, not being

945
00:53:57.120 --> 00:53:59.840
wanted and not being chosen.

946
00:54:01.040 --> 00:54:04.080
Y'all we're going to have some, we're going to have some fun tonight.

947
00:54:04.480 --> 00:54:08.520
I'm going to let everybody keep sharing here after, after Annika, I see

948
00:54:08.520 --> 00:54:09.880
Christina, you raised your hand too.

949
00:54:09.880 --> 00:54:10.200
Okay.

950
00:54:10.200 --> 00:54:12.640
So I'll let the three of you guys go, but then I'm going to ask nobody else

951
00:54:12.640 --> 00:54:15.720
to raise their hand because I got to switch to forgiveness after this.

952
00:54:16.040 --> 00:54:16.760
Go ahead, Mandy.

953
00:54:21.800 --> 00:54:22.960
Oh, sorry.

954
00:54:23.480 --> 00:54:23.960
Oh, that's okay.

955
00:54:23.960 --> 00:54:24.400
I see you.

956
00:54:24.800 --> 00:54:33.200
Uh, so my fear has been, um, feeling like I was going to miss it.

957
00:54:33.360 --> 00:54:38.120
Like that I'll somehow or another miss it or mess up whatever God has in store for

958
00:54:38.120 --> 00:54:43.520
me as especially finding a person, another person, um, after having been

959
00:54:43.520 --> 00:54:47.120
divorced, cause I've only been with one other person that was my ex-husband.

960
00:54:47.720 --> 00:54:56.160
And so, uh, joining this group actually was a huge deal, um, in stepping out of

961
00:54:56.160 --> 00:54:59.960
the fear, but yet there's still this fear and each time, each time you go to.

962
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.160
another week, it's like you're getting closer and closer to

963
00:55:02.160 --> 00:55:06.320
what could be coming next, but getting more and more afraid of,

964
00:55:06.840 --> 00:55:08.360
can I still screw this thing up?

965
00:55:10.600 --> 00:55:13.560
All right. Thank you for sharing. All right. Let's see.

966
00:55:14.360 --> 00:55:15.800
Anika. Yeah, go ahead.

967
00:55:17.760 --> 00:55:21.560
It's Anika. Yeah, thank you. Okay. Yeah, kind of in that

968
00:55:21.560 --> 00:55:25.920
same vein. In my breakout group, we talked about how we desire

969
00:55:25.920 --> 00:55:29.880
relationships so much, but we're actually so afraid of it. And so

970
00:55:29.880 --> 00:55:34.120
afraid of being open and vulnerable with somebody. And so

971
00:55:34.120 --> 00:55:36.280
I think we were talking about how sometimes that leads to

972
00:55:36.280 --> 00:55:40.000
perfectionism of I have to be perfect. And then pointing out

973
00:55:40.040 --> 00:55:42.600
like, we're talking about all the yellow flags, but then

974
00:55:42.600 --> 00:55:47.200
thinking, Oh, well, is there a better person for me than this

975
00:55:47.200 --> 00:55:50.720
person? And actually just what is the fear of intimacy? And

976
00:55:50.720 --> 00:55:55.640
what is actual genuinely healthy concern? So just the fear of

977
00:55:55.640 --> 00:55:58.440
not knowing and all of it turning into a little bit of a

978
00:55:58.440 --> 00:55:59.440
mind chaos.

979
00:56:00.080 --> 00:56:03.680
Yeah, yeah, these are good. You all. This is so good. Thank you

980
00:56:03.680 --> 00:56:06.080
everyone who's been sharing. Christina, go ahead.

981
00:56:08.240 --> 00:56:13.600
Um, I haven't felt a lot of conscious fear, but I've been

982
00:56:13.600 --> 00:56:18.920
dreaming. And as we're talking, I remembered I've had multiple

983
00:56:18.920 --> 00:56:21.320
dreams. There was someone that I felt like the Lord told me I was

984
00:56:21.320 --> 00:56:23.840
going to marry when I was 15. I didn't know even know God talked

985
00:56:23.840 --> 00:56:27.360
to people. And he showed up in a dream. And then it's someone

986
00:56:27.360 --> 00:56:29.400
that I dated seriously, a little bit ago showed up in a

987
00:56:29.400 --> 00:56:33.720
dream. And, but at the end, there was this long kind of

988
00:56:33.720 --> 00:56:39.040
circuitous dream. And at the end of the dream, I saw this flash

989
00:56:39.080 --> 00:56:45.080
of myself as like a five or six year old. And I heard her say,

990
00:56:45.160 --> 00:56:54.120
love is scary. And then I woke up. And, and I've just kind of

991
00:56:54.120 --> 00:56:58.720
been like, Lord, what, what is that, that my sweet little self

992
00:56:58.720 --> 00:57:00.960
was like, that is terrifying.

993
00:57:03.240 --> 00:57:06.720
Hey, thank you for sharing. These are these are so good.

994
00:57:07.000 --> 00:57:09.600
Y'all I know it takes so much courage to share. The reason I

995
00:57:09.600 --> 00:57:13.000
wanted to have you popcorn share is because I wanted to get

996
00:57:13.000 --> 00:57:15.800
through everybody because it's super important for y'all to use

997
00:57:15.800 --> 00:57:18.960
your voices, especially when we're talking about stuff like

998
00:57:18.960 --> 00:57:21.600
this. And I know for some people, if you're, if you tend

999
00:57:21.600 --> 00:57:25.960
to be more empathic, you might be like, Whoa, that's a lot. I'm

1000
00:57:25.960 --> 00:57:28.640
hearing a lot of stuff. But I want to encourage you just to

1001
00:57:28.640 --> 00:57:33.720
kind of like, shake it out. Y'all I'm an empath to but I've

1002
00:57:33.880 --> 00:57:38.440
I've been learning how to not take everybody's stuff on

1003
00:57:38.440 --> 00:57:42.400
myself. So I know that you can do it too. All right. So here's

1004
00:57:42.400 --> 00:57:45.920
the thing, a couple things I feel really important to point

1005
00:57:45.920 --> 00:57:50.760
out. I understand clinical diagnoses, and all of that

1006
00:57:50.760 --> 00:57:53.840
stuff, y'all. But one of the things we do in this community

1007
00:57:53.840 --> 00:58:00.720
is we separate someone struggle from the way we label them. So I

1008
00:58:00.720 --> 00:58:07.480
want to encourage all of you that have labeled people or even

1009
00:58:07.480 --> 00:58:10.400
people that have labeled you to come out from under the labels

1010
00:58:10.400 --> 00:58:16.840
people have put on you. But what I mean by that is the person I

1011
00:58:16.840 --> 00:58:20.160
used to date, this is how I'll give you the example. This is

1012
00:58:20.160 --> 00:58:24.920
true. The person I used to date for six years struggled with

1013
00:58:24.920 --> 00:58:30.360
narcissistic tendencies, and sociopathic tendencies. I do not

1014
00:58:30.360 --> 00:58:36.480
call him a narcissist anymore. Okay, here's why. Because there

1015
00:58:36.480 --> 00:58:41.680
is power in everything that we say. I don't want to be labeled

1016
00:58:41.680 --> 00:58:46.920
for the mistakes I've made in my life. And so in my forgiveness

1017
00:58:46.920 --> 00:58:50.280
steps, that is something that you know, we teach in this

1018
00:58:50.280 --> 00:58:56.360
program, we encourage you to step away from labeling, even

1019
00:58:56.360 --> 00:58:58.680
though sometimes you guys are just trying to explain a

1020
00:58:58.680 --> 00:59:00.920
situation. So no one's in trouble for anything they said.

1021
00:59:01.120 --> 00:59:04.640
But I'm just using this as a teaching moment. Okay. And I do

1022
00:59:04.640 --> 00:59:08.280
understand, like I said, people in the clinical world, they do

1023
00:59:08.280 --> 00:59:14.600
get diagnosed as that. I get all that. But if we want to have a

1024
00:59:14.600 --> 00:59:17.760
grace extended to us, we don't want people labeling us, I'm

1025
00:59:17.760 --> 00:59:20.600
just gonna encourage you guys to step into that freedom, because

1026
00:59:20.600 --> 00:59:23.520
it brings a lot of freedom. It really does when you step into

1027
00:59:23.520 --> 00:59:29.440
it. But on the coaching, the things I want to point out a

1028
00:59:29.440 --> 00:59:34.680
couple, I heard a couple kind of similar themes. So what if I

1029
00:59:34.680 --> 00:59:38.720
find the same person? Okay, so somebody that's unhealthy, and I

1030
00:59:38.720 --> 00:59:44.880
find the same person? What if I'm never chosen? And I'm gonna

1031
00:59:44.880 --> 00:59:50.800
mess it up or miss it? And then how do I know whether or not to

1032
00:59:50.800 --> 00:59:55.120
tell the difference if someone's healthy or not? And then love is

1033
00:59:55.120 --> 00:59:59.600
scary, y'all, we have a theme going on here tonight. And so

1034
00:59:59.600 --> 00:59:59.960
this is

1035
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.380
I feel like, you know, the Lord's just really wanting to emphasize this area of fear and

1036
01:00:06.380 --> 01:00:12.600
how it's impacting the way we view love, the way we view relationship.

1037
01:00:12.600 --> 01:00:20.840
And I want to encourage you that while I chose not good before a couple times, unfortunately,

1038
01:00:20.840 --> 01:00:27.480
God taught me through the healing and putting these tools into practice and staying in community.

1039
01:00:27.480 --> 01:00:29.400
Y'all, it's key.

1040
01:00:29.400 --> 01:00:30.400
It's key.

1041
01:00:30.400 --> 01:00:34.280
It's not just about, hey, you know, we want you to be here for us.

1042
01:00:34.280 --> 01:00:40.080
This is genuinely being in community and sharing about your process will be a lifeline for

1043
01:00:40.080 --> 01:00:43.360
you if you let it, truly.

1044
01:00:43.360 --> 01:00:52.280
So I was able to have a different experience because I wasn't doing it just by myself anymore.

1045
01:00:52.280 --> 01:00:56.720
And I had a safe place to ask people and I had the tools that I had learned.

1046
01:00:56.720 --> 01:01:00.280
So I knew better because I was more healed.

1047
01:01:00.280 --> 01:01:06.240
I knew how to like identify, okay, I'm seeing this thing and I'm not going to ignore it

1048
01:01:06.240 --> 01:01:07.240
anymore.

1049
01:01:07.240 --> 01:01:08.920
I'm just going to, I'm going to pay attention to this.

1050
01:01:08.920 --> 01:01:14.480
And if it was real bad, like there was some guy, one guy tried to send me a text saying,

1051
01:01:14.480 --> 01:01:16.360
did I want to see his wiener?

1052
01:01:16.360 --> 01:01:20.240
Seriously, y'all, this really happened.

1053
01:01:20.240 --> 01:01:23.040
And I knew what he meant.

1054
01:01:23.040 --> 01:01:24.780
I wasn't dumb.

1055
01:01:24.780 --> 01:01:28.580
So I got mad and I'm like, I don't like what you just said.

1056
01:01:28.580 --> 01:01:30.020
And then he tried to play it off.

1057
01:01:30.020 --> 01:01:31.020
Like that's not what he meant.

1058
01:01:31.020 --> 01:01:36.340
And he sent me a dog, a picture of a dog in a little weenie, like a hot dog costume.

1059
01:01:36.340 --> 01:01:38.100
I was like, that is not what you meant.

1060
01:01:38.100 --> 01:01:39.620
I called him out on it.

1061
01:01:39.620 --> 01:01:40.620
Right?

1062
01:01:40.620 --> 01:01:43.380
Well, it didn't go great because I called him out on it.

1063
01:01:43.380 --> 01:01:45.540
So I knew, okay, yeah, that's unhealthy.

1064
01:01:45.540 --> 01:01:47.260
I'm not, I'm not doing that.

1065
01:01:47.260 --> 01:01:48.260
Okay.

1066
01:01:48.260 --> 01:01:49.260
So you do start to learn.

1067
01:01:49.260 --> 01:01:51.020
That's what I'm trying to tell you.

1068
01:01:51.020 --> 01:01:56.300
And in the past, you all, I would have been so afraid to say something like that to that

1069
01:01:56.300 --> 01:01:58.220
guy and call him out on that.

1070
01:01:58.220 --> 01:02:03.340
But even in that, like, as you heal and grow, you're going to gain your voice.

1071
01:02:03.340 --> 01:02:05.140
You're going to grow in confidence.

1072
01:02:05.140 --> 01:02:10.380
You're going to learn that it's okay for me to say like, Hey, I don't like what you just

1073
01:02:10.380 --> 01:02:11.620
said.

1074
01:02:11.620 --> 01:02:13.620
You know, and I wasn't being rude about it.

1075
01:02:13.620 --> 01:02:14.620
I just was honest.

1076
01:02:14.620 --> 01:02:16.860
I was like, Hey, I don't like that text.

1077
01:02:16.860 --> 01:02:19.420
You just sent me, you know?

1078
01:02:19.420 --> 01:02:20.420
And so you'll learn.

1079
01:02:20.820 --> 01:02:22.740
You'll learn how to do that.

1080
01:02:22.740 --> 01:02:27.900
So the one thing out of that is just that simple, that simple statement.

1081
01:02:27.900 --> 01:02:29.140
You're going to learn.

1082
01:02:29.140 --> 01:02:30.540
You can stay in community.

1083
01:02:30.540 --> 01:02:33.020
You'll have people to help you.

1084
01:02:33.020 --> 01:02:38.980
So if you find the same type of person and, and your loving community and sisters are

1085
01:02:38.980 --> 01:02:44.900
saying, Hey, I don't think that guy's good for you.

1086
01:02:44.900 --> 01:02:48.980
Hopefully you'll listen to us because we're going to be cheering you on.

1087
01:02:48.980 --> 01:02:50.060
We want you to win.

1088
01:02:50.220 --> 01:02:51.220
We want you to win.

1089
01:02:51.220 --> 01:02:52.220
Okay.

1090
01:02:52.220 --> 01:02:53.220
So that'll be one thing.

1091
01:02:53.220 --> 01:02:54.220
Seriously.

1092
01:02:54.220 --> 01:02:58.300
I know that sounds so simple and you probably wanted this big spiritual thing, but it really

1093
01:02:58.300 --> 01:02:59.300
is.

1094
01:02:59.300 --> 01:03:03.380
It really is being in this community and learning from us and letting us speak into your life.

1095
01:03:03.380 --> 01:03:10.220
We really want the best for you on the never chosen or love is scary.

1096
01:03:10.220 --> 01:03:12.980
And that dream that you had, I'm going to encourage you all.

1097
01:03:12.980 --> 01:03:20.420
If you guys have fears like this, um, as Judy shared in her dream, when she had that

1098
01:03:20.420 --> 01:03:26.500
dream, you know, I'm encouraging her to like, okay, ask the Lord, where did this start?

1099
01:03:26.500 --> 01:03:31.900
When's the first time you didn't feel chosen by someone that you really wanted to be chosen

1100
01:03:31.900 --> 01:03:32.900
by?

1101
01:03:32.900 --> 01:03:34.140
Was it on the playground?

1102
01:03:34.140 --> 01:03:36.740
Was it in your family?

1103
01:03:36.740 --> 01:03:38.140
Was it dating someone?

1104
01:03:38.140 --> 01:03:39.980
You know, where, where did that start?

1105
01:03:39.980 --> 01:03:42.100
And you're not trying to figure this out yourself.

1106
01:03:42.220 --> 01:03:47.820
You're asking the Holy spirit to reveal these areas for healing and you're allowing him

1107
01:03:47.820 --> 01:03:49.420
to reveal it.

1108
01:03:49.420 --> 01:03:54.140
And then you're asking him what, what's the next part you all, not just to reveal the

1109
01:03:54.140 --> 01:03:57.860
thing for healing, but what does that anyone that's further along in the program who can

1110
01:03:57.860 --> 01:04:00.260
tell me what's the next step?

1111
01:04:00.260 --> 01:04:01.260
What do we need?

1112
01:04:01.260 --> 01:04:10.340
In addition to that, you didn't know you were going to get a test, did you?

1113
01:04:10.340 --> 01:04:11.340
Can anyone tell me?

1114
01:04:12.060 --> 01:04:14.060
I see some people type in some waiting.

1115
01:04:14.060 --> 01:04:15.060
Okay.

1116
01:04:15.060 --> 01:04:16.060
Healing God's truth.

1117
01:04:16.060 --> 01:04:17.060
Yes, yes, yes.

1118
01:04:17.060 --> 01:04:18.060
There you go.

1119
01:04:18.060 --> 01:04:19.060
All right.

1120
01:04:19.060 --> 01:04:20.060
Yes.

1121
01:04:20.060 --> 01:04:21.060
We all need healing.

1122
01:04:21.060 --> 01:04:23.820
We need the truth to replace the lie.

1123
01:04:23.820 --> 01:04:31.420
So we need to ask the Lord, okay, father, the lie is that I'm never chosen because that's

1124
01:04:31.420 --> 01:04:33.340
a lie from the pit of hell.

1125
01:04:33.340 --> 01:04:35.900
So we can discern that now.

1126
01:04:35.900 --> 01:04:38.380
So we need the truth.

1127
01:04:38.380 --> 01:04:43.020
The truth comes as the revealing for healing is happening and we're healing from those

1128
01:04:43.020 --> 01:04:48.540
situations that originally told us you're not chosen.

1129
01:04:48.540 --> 01:04:52.620
Everybody else has chosen, but you, which is not true, but that's the lie.

1130
01:04:52.620 --> 01:04:57.580
The enemy led you to believe in whatever painful thing you went through.

1131
01:04:57.580 --> 01:05:00.060
So now we can say, okay.

1132
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:07.520
Lord, what's the truth?" We ask the Lord to show us what's the truth, and every one of you might hear

1133
01:05:07.520 --> 01:05:12.560
the same thing. You might hear different things. So you're hearing the truth from the Father as

1134
01:05:12.560 --> 01:05:18.000
far as what he's speaking over you, but also I'm going to encourage you to go to the Word and look

1135
01:05:18.000 --> 01:05:23.360
for truth that stands out to you and really resonates with what God is speaking to you.

1136
01:05:24.640 --> 01:05:28.880
And yes, they are kind of one and the same, but sometimes God talks to you differently,

1137
01:05:28.880 --> 01:05:36.160
but it should always align with the Word, you all. Okay? Is everyone good? Everyone following me?

1138
01:05:36.160 --> 01:05:41.680
Okay. And I will tell you, you know, the fear of intimacy and opening up, if you have fear of

1139
01:05:41.680 --> 01:05:48.480
intimacy, I'm going to say that started somewhere, too. So when is the first time you were afraid to

1140
01:05:48.480 --> 01:06:01.120
be your true self? Do you all know intimacy is into me? See. Into me. See. When we are intimate with

1141
01:06:01.120 --> 01:06:05.760
someone, even if it's a friend, and we're growing in friendship, and we're becoming buds, and we're

1142
01:06:05.760 --> 01:06:13.360
sharing our lives, we're opening the door of our heart to those people to come in, right?

1143
01:06:14.320 --> 01:06:24.160
So if we have a fear of intimacy, somewhere along the way, we let someone in, and they hurt us,

1144
01:06:24.160 --> 01:06:32.480
or they force their way in without permission. Okay? So, and there's probably other scenarios,

1145
01:06:32.480 --> 01:06:37.040
but those are the two that are coming up in my mind right now. So be praying into that.

1146
01:06:37.040 --> 01:06:41.920
Ask the Lord to reveal, where did this start for me? Know that you don't have to stay there.

1147
01:06:42.080 --> 01:06:48.160
You all, we never have to stay in a posture in a place of fear. So tonight, again, that invitation

1148
01:06:48.160 --> 01:06:53.440
is for us to come out of there. Okay. So now on that note, I want to shift towards forgiveness.

1149
01:06:53.440 --> 01:06:59.920
It's going to be really good to, I hope you guys are getting some freedom. Yeah. Erase and replace.

1150
01:06:59.920 --> 01:07:05.600
That's right, Debbie. Erase all the old thinking, the stinking thinking that clouds our minds,

1151
01:07:05.600 --> 01:07:13.360
and the fear-filled thoughts, and receive faith. All right. So forgiveness is not a feeling.

1152
01:07:14.160 --> 01:07:21.520
It's a choice. Okay. So we all aren't going to feel it. I can promise you there were times I

1153
01:07:21.520 --> 01:07:28.720
did not feel like forgiving people, but the word of God says this, Ephesians 4, 32,

1154
01:07:29.360 --> 01:07:35.840
Forgive one another just as God forgave you because of what Christ has done.

1155
01:07:36.720 --> 01:07:43.680
Colossians 3, 13 says, Remember the Lord forgave you, so you must also forgive others.

1156
01:07:45.280 --> 01:07:50.800
Someone shared today, I was talking to them and they were sharing how, and I know some of you

1157
01:07:50.800 --> 01:07:54.880
are struggling with this, so that's why I want to share this with you. Interestingly enough,

1158
01:07:54.880 --> 01:08:02.000
this woman today was sharing that she had forgiven her ex for hurting her, but she was

1159
01:08:02.000 --> 01:08:08.160
struggling to forgive her ex for hurting her son. And she said she was talking with this woman,

1160
01:08:08.160 --> 01:08:13.040
this mentor at dinner one night, and that woman started talking about the sacrifice Jesus made,

1161
01:08:13.680 --> 01:08:18.960
and everything that he went through on the cross. And she said, even as this woman was

1162
01:08:18.960 --> 01:08:26.000
talking to me, I started getting the revelation of, well, wait, Jesus died for me.

1163
01:08:27.760 --> 01:08:34.000
Like everything Jesus endured on the cross, he endured it for me. And this is how she's talking

1164
01:08:34.000 --> 01:08:40.479
to me. And y'all, we know this to be true, right? Sometimes I think it's so common to us that we

1165
01:08:40.479 --> 01:08:45.200
kind of get removed from it. So I want to encourage you right now, just kind of imagine,

1166
01:08:45.200 --> 01:08:48.800
I don't want you to, it's not a gruesome thing, but I just want you to, where you're at, I want

1167
01:08:48.800 --> 01:08:58.319
you just to close your mind and imagine Jesus. He says on the cross, even at that time, and they're

1168
01:08:58.319 --> 01:09:05.040
still mistreating him, and he's on the cross, and he's saying, Father, forgive them, for they don't

1169
01:09:05.040 --> 01:09:12.800
know what they're doing. Father, thank you right now. I just thank you for forgiveness. I thank

1170
01:09:12.800 --> 01:09:17.279
you for Jesus dying on the cross, shedding his blood for the forgiveness of our sins, for our

1171
01:09:17.279 --> 01:09:22.960
freedom, for our healing, for our redemption. I pray right now that anyone that's struggling

1172
01:09:22.960 --> 01:09:28.240
with forgiveness, that they would just have a fresh revelation of the forgiveness that you

1173
01:09:28.240 --> 01:09:35.359
extended them, and that they didn't have to earn it. They didn't have to perform for it. You just

1174
01:09:35.359 --> 01:09:42.479
gave it freely. And it doesn't mean that they, if they, when they step into forgiveness and

1175
01:09:42.479 --> 01:09:48.479
choose forgiveness, Father, that that means they forget what has happened, but they choose out of

1176
01:09:48.479 --> 01:09:55.840
the fullness of your love and your empowerment of your Holy Spirit enables them to choose. And I

1177
01:09:55.840 --> 01:09:59.840
thank you tonight that you'll help them to do that today and in the days ahead.

1178
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:01.120
Jesus name.

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So when we, when we don't choose forgiveness, y'all, here's kind

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of what it's like.

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I need for those of you that have been in, maybe you're in

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week five, you might've heard me say this, but it's like a

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tether, tether ball game.

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And for, for some of you, you may be a little younger.

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Have you ever seen a tether ball game?

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It's a pole on a playground with a rope and the ball connected to

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the rope and that ball never goes away from that pole unless

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somebody removes the rope.

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Hey, so there's always someone at the end of the day, you know,

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that playground person, they go out and they undo all that stuff.

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Right.

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But here's the deal.

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I know that's a simple example, but it's really a good one.

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When we don't choose forgiveness, nobody comes and takes that ball

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and that rope off that pole.

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It stays there and it stays tethered there until we forgive.

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And I want to put it to you this way.

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Do you want to be tethered to the person that you are

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struggling to forgive right now?

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Cause that's what's happening.

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Some of you want to move forward in your life and you want to

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attract someone healthy and new, but you don't want to forgive.

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And you have to, in order to move forward, we all, we all, myself

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included, we just went through some horrible things here, Christians.

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I'm surprised at sometimes what Christians do to each other.

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And the Lord just reminds me over and over again, just resist the bitter

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root, resist unforgiveness and bitterness and resentment, you know,

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bitter roots, they happen in our soul when we don't forgive and that

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resentment sits in there and it festers and it becomes a poison to us.

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So tonight I want to encourage you, like it's time to let it out.

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It's time to let it go.

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Again, it's not saying that what they did is okay.

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It's not okay, but the Lord will take care of it.

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Is it always the way we want him to take care of it?

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No, it's not.

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But you know what?

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His ways are far above our ways.

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They are, and he knows the best way to carry these things out.

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Okay.

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All right.

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So tonight you want to forgive all the characters that played a role.

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And even when you're working on your forgiveness sheets, some of you guys

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aren't going to be in forgiveness week for a little while.

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So just remember this, just tuck this away.

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You want to forgive all the characters that played a role.

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Okay.

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You don't need to tell everybody in the breakout, all of the gory details

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and I'm not even saying you have to name every person that played a role tonight.

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This is regarding the forgiveness prayer worksheet.

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Okay.

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You want to forgive even yourselves.

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Some of you, um, I had someone today on the one o'clock session that's in week

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four, but if you guys just go to the website portal, the jackiedorman.com

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website portal and go into the start here area, there's actually a section

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that says downloads and every sheet, every worksheet for every single week is in that area.

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Had a lady today during the one o'clock session that during this forgiveness

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piece, had a vision of herself in a dog cage, and that's where she was living life from.

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Y'all just let that, let that sit with you for a minute.

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She viewed herself inside the cage like a dog.

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And there's a lot of us that in some way, shape or form, maybe yours isn't a dog cage.

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Maybe I remember years ago, the first time anybody ever did some kind of prophetic thing with me.

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I saw myself, I was a mouse and I was cowered down and I was in a cage.

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I think it's interesting.

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This woman today saw a cage.

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I think oftentimes we want free, we want to be free, but we don't know how.

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And so some of us just start giving up, but freedom is going to be one of the keys that

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unlocks your door and, and y'all, for some of you, what I want to say is Jesus already

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came and he already unlocked the door for you and he's going to unlock the door for you.

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As Jesus already came and he already unlocked the door, but you're convinced that door is

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closed and you can't come out, but it's already open.

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It's wide open.

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And I'll even go as far as to say, there are no walls on that cage.

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It's not even there, but because of things.

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been through and there's no shame in this you all it's just reality because of what you've been

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through you believe and perceive that that cage is there and tonight i'm going to encourage you

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to pray and ask the lord to show you if there is any mindsets any heart postures any way that you're

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currently living your life that that's really internally how you view yourself that he will

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show that to you because he doesn't want you to stay there okay all right here's your question

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for your breakout who do you need to forgive tonight and why some of you that were here at

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one o'clock today you can share the same thing it doesn't matter you can share something different

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because god might have brought somebody different to your mind tonight but i want to encourage you

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to still share and engage in the group okay i'm going to get you ready remember that we're all

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safe here what you share in these breakouts stays in the breakouts you all just want to remind you

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of that okay and you don't need to feel shame or any of that stuff we've all made mistakes here you

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go praying for you all bless you

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all right keep clicking to join

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okay perfect

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perfect all right she keeps getting stuck with people let's see her

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make sure she moves down to that next okay cool

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y'all get to hear me talk to myself while i make sure people are with people

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cool all right

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and then i'm gonna pray here in just a minute i just got to make sure these last couple rooms

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everybody's good

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all right i think i've got everyone situated now oh

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there we go

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all right father just thank you so much for everything you're doing tonight thanks for

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sending your son jesus jesus thank you for coming holy spirit we thank you for also coming when

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jesus ascended into heaven that you're here that you're our comforter you're our counselor you're

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our guide you know and you know us better than we know ourselves i pray that you would just

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continue to help us to hear what your spirit is saying tonight to us i thank you that your

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word declares that you heal the wounds of every shattered heart you set you set your stars in

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place calling them all by name you call us by name as well thank you that there's never a tear

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that we have cried that you haven't kept in a bottle to pour out like choice oil upon our hearts

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our lives our spirits our souls and i thank you god that you're working in the midst of all the

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pain and the heartache that we've experienced now thank you god that you're going to create

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a beautiful tapestry out of it thank you that you are the potter and we are the clay

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and we can trust you to create that masterpiece that you are at work in us and through us every

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single day i thank you that you're going to continue to refine us like with the refiners

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fire that because out of your great love you don't want us to stay uh in a place where we have chaff

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and we have things that hold us back and that keep us from living an abundant and full life

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as jackie talks about the good good life

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yes lord i thank you that you're going to help us to continue to

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uh i just saw an image of like kids on christmas day like all the presents and that were wrapped

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and prepared ahead of time god i thank you for the surprises and the gifts that you have prepared

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ahead of time for all of us i thank you that you'll help us to shift out of believing that you

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bring harm to us because that's not truth your word declares that you come uh you came to give

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us life jesus came to give us life and give it to us more abundantly but also that you have plans

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to prosper us to give us a hope and a future and i thank you god that you'll help us to step into

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the truth that you are good

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All the time. There's that song that's just resonating in my spirit right now

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I'm not gonna sing it to y'all

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But it says you are good all the time and all the time you are good

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You are good all the time and just sings the same thing all over but it's a very joy

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filled song

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So I would encourage you all to look that up and just let that really marinate in your spirit that he is good all

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The time April did you get kicked out?

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I

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Can't hear you

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I apologize. Oh, it's okay. I don't stop and they have done kicked off the room. Oh, that's okay. You are totally fine

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I'm gonna let's see. They have like three minutes left. I don't know if it put you in a room or not

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I'm gonna look real quick

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I'll put you in with them. That way you can chat for a few minutes. We're just talking about who we need to forgive

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Okay. Thanks. All right, you're welcome

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Ephesians 3 17 through 19 says then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him

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Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong

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And may you have the power to understand as all God's people should how wide how long how high?

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How deep his love is may you experience the love of Christ?

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Though it is too great to understand fully

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Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God

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I want to point out there that's that part of the scripture that says your roots grow down into God's love

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And keep you strong. So we're just thank you right now that our roots would continue to grow deeper into your love tonight

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That you it's like the tree planted by rivers of living water

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That we will it never withers it never faints no matter what the pressure

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No matter the weather or the elements because it's planted by the water the living water that I was talking about earlier

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So Lord, I thank you that we would live our lives in such a way that it would be as if we are trees

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planted by living water

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Ephesians 3 20 and 21 says never doubt God's mighty power to work in you and

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Accomplish all of this. He will achieve infinitely more than your greatest

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request your most

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Unbelievable dream and exceed your wildest imagination. He will all do them all for his miraculous power

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constantly

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energizes you I don't know about you all but I

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Need some energy sometimes and I remember tonight even about an hour before the session

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I've been trying to get away from this is such a small thing

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But I'm gonna share it with you because I think it's can be relevant, too

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Um, I've been trying to get away from drinking more than two cups of coffee a day

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And I was doing really good there for a while and then life got really crazy and I started slowly

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Going back to that third cup of coffee, but then I haven't been sleeping as well

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And

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So I decided this morning I was gonna not have that third cup of coffee

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But about an hour before our session I was feeling kind of sleepy and I remember praying and saying to the Lord

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Lord, I need your strength

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Remind me that it's about you being strong that I don't have to be strong tonight

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You can be strong in me and work through me. So I just want to say to you guys that last scripture there

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He says he will outdo them all for his miraculous power

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Constantly

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Energizes you and so I just feel like that was a confirmation of what I prayed but for whoever that's for maybe you're feeling weak

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In your body physically, maybe you're wondering if you can do whatever it is

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God is leading you to do maybe even to do this course. I've had several people really feeling

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Overwhelmed and fatigued as soon as they started a lot of distractions have come busyness at work

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And so Lord we just pause right now and we thank you for energy. We thank you for focus. We thank you for the ability

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That again the same power that rose Jesus Christ from the dead is living on if we've accepted Jesus as our Savior that power

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Is living in us and it's operating through us and it can undo us with that power to accomplish

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That which we set our hands to do. So Lord, I thank you that you're giving us the power and the ability

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To step into the fullness of your plans and promises and everything that you call us to do

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So help us Lord to receive your energy from heaven to be filled up with your presence at all times

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y'all I was just chatting and praying and and

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And if you guys want, you know, you don't have to but you might want to check out what came out during those breakouts

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Uh just in the spirit as I'm talking sometimes I'm sharing stories

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But um

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There's some stuff that comes up in the holy spirit there as well marissa, you know what I just totally closed my story

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So I'm gonna close my story and I'll see you guys next week. Bye

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It was from the book. I don't know what chapter, but it might have been Passion Translation. I'm not sure. I'm so sorry.

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She uses all different versions in there, but it was good, wasn't it? So good. All right. Who is willing to share? We only have time for a couple.

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I've gone over the – I wasn't here with you all last week, but a couple weeks ago, I went over way too long. We're not going to do that tonight.

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So I have time for sure for one. Carrie, awesome. Go ahead. And Sarah, I might have time, so hang there, okay? All right, Carrie, go ahead.

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I want to share that I need to forgive someone I was in a relationship with before. He was very – he took advantage of me, of my kindness a lot.

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And, you know, he would – on a few occasions, you know, I would – he would ask to borrow money, and, you know, I would give it to him out of the kindness of my heart.

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And, you know, he would always just promise to pay me back, pay me back. And I knew – like something in me knew that it was wrong, but I just wanted to – I knew that, you know, I was just taking his word for it that he would do it.

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And, you know, as a friend, I said, okay, I'll give it to you this time. But then it just kept happening. And so I need to forgive him because I felt – I was so taken advantage of.

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And I also – in the group chat, I was saying I also need to forgive myself for feeling so naive and, like, I would say, how could you – how could I be so dumb, so stupid to do – let him do that when I knew better? I knew better. I knew better. I knew better.

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That's what I wanted to share, just forgiving myself and forgiving him completely. And so that doesn't carry over into another relationship where I expect that to happen or I look for that to happen again.

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Yes, so good. And I'm so glad that you also see the side of forgiving yourself. It's going to be powerful. Now, here's the thing, and I'm not going to share long. Sarah, I'm going to come to you.

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Anybody, if you guys have ever – I've done it too, okay, so I relate to you when you say – when you're kind of beating yourself up, how could I be so dumb to fall for that again or whatever.

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I really want to encourage you all, typically when we allow ourselves to be overextended, when we keep giving and we keep giving and we keep giving, even though somebody's mistreating us, y'all, that typically starts somewhere before that moment, okay?

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So maybe as a kid, we didn't learn how to set healthy boundaries because no one really taught us. It could be as a kid, people imposed themselves on us in some kind of way, and so there were never any such thing as boundaries, right?

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There's a lot of different reasons, and maybe it could be because, you know, sometimes even, like, really good upbringing, you know, with our parents, our parents were taught, like, you don't say no to adults or you don't say no in the – you know what I mean? Like, we're taught to just be giving, and I'm not saying that's bad, but any gift overextended is when it becomes a weakness to us, okay?

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And so just be – anybody that can relate to Carrie, you know, or even Carrie, just kind of ask the Lord, where did this start for me? Because I'm going to venture to say, while it might not be the same kind of scenarios, that there's probably other people that take advantage of you, okay?

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And I don't know if that's true or not, Carrie, for you, but typically people that have one kind of scenario like that where it's happening over and over, there's probably someone else, at least one other person that's also in their sphere that's taking advantage because that's what starts to happen. You have a giver, and they just attract takers. They attract takers.

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So until you learn as a giver, you get healthy, and you kind of bring that back into balance, because that's how it was. People just take, take, take, take, take. And so now I still have to practice this. I have to be really good at setting boundaries where people can't just come and take from me all the time, okay?

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And that's not just financial, y'all. People will try to take time, and even when I say, hey, I'm really busy. I can't talk right now, and they'll just keep pushing. Y'all, that's for some of you. Some of you, that happens to you, and the Lord wants to encourage you tonight. It's okay to say, I'm not going to respond to that text, and you're not doing it to be mean. You're actually doing it to care for yourself really well.

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Okay. All right, Sarah. I lost you there. Okay. Yeah, I put my hand down because mine was about forgiving myself

1383
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I I had done like week fours

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forgiveness of everybody else and their mama and everybody and and God's like

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Reminding me tapping me on the shoulder later in the week. Like hey, you forgot to forgive yourself and I'm like God

1386
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Where do I begin? I have a full list of records of wrongs. Like I'm very hard on my

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Like unrealistic standards even some, you know self-hatred mixed in, you know sprinkle on top

1388
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but like it's like I don't even know where to begin to forgive myself because there's a lot of like

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Like I have a whole history and like I don't have a history of forgiving myself or giving myself a lot of grace

1390
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I'm kind of learning to break up with perfectionism

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so

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Also learning some self-compassion as well, but it's like it's not a muscle. That's very strong just yet

1393
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So in a lot of a lot of women you all cannot tell you how many times women do not forgive themselves

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So I want to encourage you Sarah or anyone that this applies to

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When you don't know where to begin to forgive yourself again, remember this is why we ask the Holy Spirit

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Okay, Holy Spirit

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Father Jesus Christ, however, you want to pray

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Show me what I need to forgive myself for first and

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start there and

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Then let him continue to guide that process because he'll show you the stuff that's really keeping you hung up. Okay, and

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The being great the grace filled and kindness

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I'm gonna encourage you to really practice that

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So, you know, maybe it's doing a kind of thing like buying yourself a gift

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You know when you wouldn't normally because you're typically maybe harder and you have to achieve some kind of level of whatever

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I'm just kind of making that up but like, you know, really ask the Lord even for that you guys

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He'll tell us all kinds of stuff. He's so fun

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01:32:04.680 --> 01:32:10.960
God is fun. He's a good dad and he'll he'll if you say God like I

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01:32:11.360 --> 01:32:16.080
Don't really I'm so hard on myself all the time. Like what can I do to show myself more grace?

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01:32:16.760 --> 01:32:21.800
Guess what he'll come and he'll whisper and he'll say something

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He'll whisper something to you and some of you all are so used to dismissing stuff that you just don't know. It's him

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yet

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Yet you guys get comfortable with the word yet. Okay

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Seneca and then I'm gonna close us down for the night after this

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Hello

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So for me I

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The challenge I am having is that I

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know I need to forgive my ex and

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I think I did

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but every now and again, I will

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see a make of the car that he drives and

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Everything just comes back all over again

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so it may be fine for probably two months and then I see a car that looks like his and

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I've done the work where I've tried to I've reached out to him and to

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Just express how I felt but there's no great level of remorse or even

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01:33:24.160 --> 01:33:30.440
Acknowledging. Well, he does acknowledge. Yeah, there was something off or did something wrong, but he explains it away

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So I am having difficulties even though I will say in my heart I have forgiven

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Him, but then I don't think I'm being honest. I

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Because I'm still I'm not sure if this is right or wrong. I'm still in week three. I've not there yet, but

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But I'm still trying to figure out what is it

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That I need to do to actually complete that forgiveness

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Yeah, this is great. Okay, so this is a really great question. They're all great tonight

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Y'all all the shares are great. This is a really good one to end forgiveness on

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So here's two things without me talking for a long time

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01:34:12.880 --> 01:34:16.880
the first thought is that you all forgiveness is in layers and

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01:34:17.880 --> 01:34:24.240
we forgive what we know at that time and then sometimes we heal a little bit more and

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Then we get revelation on something else. We need to forgive. Okay

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01:34:29.280 --> 01:34:35.880
The other thing that I want to say and I don't and I meant to ask you is Sanica Sanica how you say your name

1438
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No, it's Seneca

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Did anyone else ever hurt you in a similar way that this gentleman did oh, yes

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Okay

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01:34:54.080 --> 01:34:56.080
Here's the reason I'm asking you all

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01:34:57.120 --> 01:34:58.840
sometimes

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01:34:58.840 --> 01:35:00.840
the current

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01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:08.400
thing that you're hung up on. It is about that situation, but it's also, you're struggling

1445
01:35:08.400 --> 01:35:17.560
to overcome here because down here, it's connecting over here. Does that make sense everyone?

1446
01:35:17.560 --> 01:35:22.560
So I'm going to give you an example. When I went through the betrayals in that relationship

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01:35:22.560 --> 01:35:26.400
I was in, when he cheated on me and all that stuff, some of you guys have never heard that

1448
01:35:26.400 --> 01:35:35.800
story, but some of you have been here long enough to hear it. When I found all that out,

1449
01:35:35.800 --> 01:35:41.960
the depth of pain that I felt, it was kind of like, okay, I know this is about this,

1450
01:35:41.960 --> 01:35:49.160
but man, this feels big. This feels real big. And when I started asking the Lord about it,

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01:35:49.160 --> 01:35:57.760
all of the stuff from my dad cheating on my mom, he left our family. He left our family

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01:35:57.760 --> 01:36:03.760
and he got another family. It was like, and I don't even know why I didn't automatically

1453
01:36:03.760 --> 01:36:10.560
connect those dots, but that was like that, that wound over here, I was struggling. I

1454
01:36:10.560 --> 01:36:15.360
was struggling. It was so deep. And so there's different dynamics that can kind of show you

1455
01:36:15.360 --> 01:36:22.160
that it's linking to another pain and wound that also still needs healing. So I would encourage

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01:36:22.160 --> 01:36:30.400
you Seneca, other people that hurt you similar to this guy, I would encourage you to do forgiveness

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01:36:30.400 --> 01:36:38.280
sheets on this guy and those people in those situations as well and see, even if you've done

1458
01:36:38.280 --> 01:36:43.640
it before, again, you're where you are today now with the information you have. And so that's

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01:36:43.640 --> 01:36:49.480
different than when you perched it before. So let's, let's do that. And let's see if this time

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01:36:50.120 --> 01:36:55.640
it enables you to completely break free because you're healing from all the things that are kind

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01:36:55.640 --> 01:37:00.440
of in your soul and spirit, they're kind of linked together. Is everyone following me?

1462
01:37:02.200 --> 01:37:08.040
Okay. I want to make sure I'm not losing anybody. Okay. So let us know after you do that,

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I would love for you to do a post in the group and tell us how it's going.

1464
01:37:12.040 --> 01:37:18.760
Okay. And you might not, just so you know, sometimes we experience this big release and we

1465
01:37:18.760 --> 01:37:26.520
feel it. And sometimes we just forgive you all and we feel nothing. So I just want to let some of you

1466
01:37:26.520 --> 01:37:31.720
guys know, you're not going to feel something in that moment. You might not, but that doesn't mean

1467
01:37:31.720 --> 01:37:36.120
it's not effective and others of you, you're going to have some kind of breakthrough. You're going to

1468
01:37:36.120 --> 01:37:40.680
feel it, all the things, but don't be discouraged. And when other people are sharing about their

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01:37:40.680 --> 01:37:47.160
experience, please do not fall into comparing. That's the trap of the enemy to get you guys to

1470
01:37:47.160 --> 01:37:52.840
compare each other to, you know, and feel like, well, this is happening for them. Something must

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01:37:52.840 --> 01:37:57.400
be wrong. Maybe I'm, I must not be doing this good enough. You know, the enemy will even try

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01:37:57.400 --> 01:38:03.480
to tell you you're not doing hard work good enough. You just got to resist that stuff. I know

1473
01:38:03.480 --> 01:38:08.840
it's not easy, but you're doing great. I've been so blessed by all the things you guys are sharing.

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I'm going to pray and close this out. We look forward to hearing. I'm sorry, Bethany. I'm sorry.

1475
01:38:15.320 --> 01:38:19.000
You said I should share. Can you just go over again? What exactly do you want me to share?

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01:38:20.760 --> 01:38:27.240
After you've done your forgiveness prayer sheet for this, the gentleman that the original scenario

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01:38:27.240 --> 01:38:33.000
came up for, as well as anybody else that is similar, that hurt you in a similar way. I just

1478
01:38:33.000 --> 01:38:38.360
mean, and it doesn't have to be even right away this week, but after you've taken time to process

1479
01:38:38.360 --> 01:38:46.360
that, that you'll come back and share in the group. How God used that in you. Like how, how are

1480
01:38:46.360 --> 01:38:52.120
you doing? You know, cause I want to make sure that you continue to move forward. So even if you've,

1481
01:38:52.120 --> 01:38:57.320
you've done it and you feel nothing, I would want you to come share that. Does that make sense?

1482
01:38:57.960 --> 01:39:05.320
Yes. Okay. Understood. Thank you. Okay. You're welcome. Okay. I have time for one question,

1483
01:39:05.320 --> 01:39:13.960
Carissa. Go ahead. I'll try to make it really quick. Oh, this is my first session. Yeah. I

1484
01:39:13.960 --> 01:39:21.960
literally just started the program on Friday or Saturday. If there are things that are spoke about

1485
01:39:21.960 --> 01:39:30.360
in groups like this, are there places that we can process or at, like, if you talk about something

1486
01:39:30.360 --> 01:39:36.280
and then I have a question about it, how do, where can I go to process that or

1487
01:39:38.120 --> 01:39:43.480
ask more about that subject you were talking about? Yeah. So in our Facebook group, so that's

1488
01:39:43.480 --> 01:39:48.520
where you guys are going to do your post. So we do the weekly roll call. So you can post on that,

1489
01:39:48.520 --> 01:39:56.920
or you can create your own post and our team or myself will coach you on that. But that's why we

1490
01:39:56.920 --> 01:39:59.800
do these live sessions too, because then you can, you can.

1491
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:03.440
and share, you can get more coaching. When you're with us

1492
01:40:03.440 --> 01:40:06.600
live, we have the one o'clock on Mondays, we have eight o'clock

1493
01:40:06.600 --> 01:40:11.920
on Monday, 8pm on Mondays. But right now, that's kind of the

1494
01:40:11.920 --> 01:40:16.800
framework that you're going to be in to get to process and to

1495
01:40:16.800 --> 01:40:21.080
work through that stuff. Okay. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. And some of

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01:40:21.080 --> 01:40:24.600
it to you all just be really good at journaling. Even if you

1497
01:40:24.600 --> 01:40:26.700
don't love to journal you all, it's going to be really

1498
01:40:26.700 --> 01:40:31.700
important to do that. Yeah. And welcome. I don't know if we saw

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01:40:31.700 --> 01:40:36.180
you earlier. So welcome for your first time. All right. Great

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01:40:36.180 --> 01:40:39.500
question, by the way, if anybody else was wondering that it

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01:40:39.500 --> 01:40:41.980
really will bring you breakthrough more than you

1502
01:40:41.980 --> 01:40:45.340
realize, it really will. We've been doing this for a while you

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01:40:45.340 --> 01:40:50.180
all and people get breakthrough all the time. You can go in

1504
01:40:50.180 --> 01:40:53.860
that Facebook group anytime to share if you're not already in

1505
01:40:53.860 --> 01:40:56.420
there, Joanne, we've been hunting some of you down

1506
01:40:56.420 --> 01:41:01.700
lovingly trying to find you. And so you probably have emails from

1507
01:41:01.700 --> 01:41:05.300
Renee Rizzo on our team trying to get you to the Facebook

1508
01:41:05.300 --> 01:41:13.220
group. So look for those in your email. Renee. It's at Jane media,

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01:41:13.220 --> 01:41:18.980
I think. All right. Okay, let me pray. Father, thank you so much

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01:41:18.980 --> 01:41:22.860
for your amazing grace. Thanks for doing all of the good things

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01:41:22.860 --> 01:41:25.700
that you're doing in our lives. I thank you for breakthrough

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01:41:25.700 --> 01:41:29.220
that's happening. That's already taken place as well as that's

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01:41:29.220 --> 01:41:33.020
going to come in this next week. You know, every every woman in

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01:41:33.020 --> 01:41:35.900
the week that they're in, you know, the the place that they're

1515
01:41:35.900 --> 01:41:38.100
at in the course, the things that they're still struggling

1516
01:41:38.100 --> 01:41:40.820
with the things that they're getting breakthrough in. Lord, I

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01:41:40.820 --> 01:41:43.420
thank you that you would help us to celebrate the wins just as

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01:41:43.420 --> 01:41:47.260
much as we acknowledge the hard parts of hard work. And I thank

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01:41:47.260 --> 01:41:52.140
you, Lord. Yes, Lord, as a reminder that we talked tonight

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01:41:52.140 --> 01:41:56.620
about fear. But the reminder also that where the spirit of

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01:41:56.620 --> 01:41:59.780
the Lord is, there is liberty and freedom. So we thank you for

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01:41:59.780 --> 01:42:02.700
liberty. We thank you for freedom and the Holy Ghost. We

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01:42:02.700 --> 01:42:05.780
thank you that the power that rose Jesus from the dead is

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01:42:05.780 --> 01:42:09.900
living in us. If we've accepted him as Jesus Christ is our

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01:42:09.900 --> 01:42:13.020
Savior, he's living in us that powers living in us, and can

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01:42:13.020 --> 01:42:16.540
enable us to do all things that we never walk in this life

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01:42:16.540 --> 01:42:20.020
alone. And that you're doing an amazing work in our lives that

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01:42:20.020 --> 01:42:23.700
you've gone before us. And you're going to enable us to to

1529
01:42:23.740 --> 01:42:26.380
every single day, take another step closer towards your

1530
01:42:26.380 --> 01:42:30.180
promises, towards the spirit mate that you have for us, and

1531
01:42:30.180 --> 01:42:33.500
the fullness of every beautiful plan that's unfolding in our

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01:42:33.500 --> 01:42:38.260
lives. In Jesus name. Amen. God bless you all. And I will see

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you guys in the group. Have a good night.