Welcome, welcome, welcome, everyone.
It's so great to see you.
Jackie's gonna say a couple of things
at the beginning to kick us off.
I'm guessing we're blessed to have her here with us tonight.
Yeah, so if you're wondering.
We're guessing because Jackie didn't tell me anything.
That's what she's really.
That's all right, I love it.
If you're joining us for the first time though,
let us know, put it in the chat,
raise your hand so we can welcome you.
We wanna make sure to say hello to you
and we're so glad to have you joining us this evening.
Absolutely.
Raise your hand if you just joined, you're brand new.
You came in through that special offer
in the challenge group.
Raise your, keep your hand up
but this is your very first heart check-in.
You haven't been to any yet.
This is your first one.
All right, you're in for a treat.
So glad.
So I just wanted to jump in here.
I'm not gonna take hardly any time
but I just wanted to tell you,
God's really been talking to me about breakthrough
and about being consistent with the opportunities
that he gives us for breakthrough.
And so a lot of us don't end up breaking through
because we quit, right?
And I did a little Supernatural Saturday on that.
If you didn't hear it, you can listen to the replay.
It's in your replay calendar, your replay guide.
I think that it was this last Supernatural Saturday.
If you don't quit, you win.
And so I want to apply that to phase one.
Guys, heart work's not fun.
That's why the word work is in it
but it's not work in your own strength.
It's work with the help of Holy Spirit.
And I know a lot of you have done inner healing work before.
You've done therapy.
You've done counseling.
This is different.
God has drawn you here to get you out of your own way
and out of his way in the area of your relationship
specifically with him, yourself and others
including your spirit mate.
And there are going to be days
when you don't feel like showing up.
I look like I just came out of a steam shower
because I went to this class called Body Pump, y'all.
That class is straight from, I don't know where
but it's like cardio and weightlifting
and a whole bunch of crazy stuff.
But you know, as I was walking into it,
I always dread going because it's just, ugh.
And it's so fast and it's so hard.
But when I leave, I'm like, I did it.
I'm not saying that I'm like feeling good
but I'm like, I did it.
But today when I was walking in,
my attitude shifted to a place of gratitude where I was,
I'm glad I'm physically able to do this, right?
I'm glad I'm healthy enough to show up to this.
I'm glad I'm strong enough to show up to this.
I'm glad I'm mobile enough to do this.
I'm glad I have enough money to go to this class.
I was able to buy that class and go to that class.
And so we need to approach hard things like that.
I'm so grateful that I get to be part
of this transformation process, right?
And one more thing that I really wanna encourage you in
before Bethany does your coaching tonight,
your heart check in tonight,
is that summertime is a time of massive distraction
for a lot of people, right?
There's all kinds of things,
but God has brought you here to do this.
And it's not gonna last for a long time.
It's only gonna be five weeks long.
For some of you, maybe longer,
if you go on vacation or something
and you drop off a little bit.
If you drop off, just get right back on.
But that's the majority of the rest of the summer, right?
And so a lot of people are like,
yeah, maybe I should have taken this later.
Maybe I'll come back around and I'll start later
after the summer's over,
after this vacation or that vacation.
I wanna encourage you not to do that.
Do not slow down the rate of your own breakthrough.
If you have to go on vacation, if you have to be gone,
just join right back in.
Don't put it on pause.
I can't tell you how many people come to us
and they're in our emails and they say,
hey, I guess I'm just not gonna be in the community anymore.
Can you cancel my subscription?
And then we look and we see
the only people that ask for something to be canceled,
and it's usually about four months in or so,
we look back and they didn't do any hard work.
We can see how much progress that you've made in that.
They didn't get the breakthrough.
They didn't get the transformation.
They didn't get the momentum.
They didn't get the supernatural acceleration.
That all happens here.
So once again, I understand you have vacations planned.
I understand that you have other things going on,
family reunions and whatnot,
but this is going to help you to show up to those things
as a better version of yourself and possibly meet somebody.
All right, and so let's make sure that we're doing the work part and God will do the supernatural
heart part.
Good?
All right.
Love y'all.
Love you too.
Thank you so much, Jackie.
God is so good to remind us how important it is to not give up on ourselves, y'all.
So many times we invest in things, myself included, and we invest money, we invest time,
and then we give up.
And then, like Jackie said, we're wondering why we've not gotten the breakthrough.
So no matter what you face, one of the things I'm going to encourage you all to do, if you're
feeling at any point in your process, you're feeling led to go into isolation, you're feeling
led to quit, you're feeling discouraged, I don't want you to do that alone.
I want you to come in the group and I want you to post about it because there's nothing
to be embarrassed about.
You're in this group to be in community.
We're here to help you and coach you and cheer you on.
And I can tell you that if you'll be 100% honest with yourself, with God, and with us,
then y'all are going to have the most breakthrough you've ever had in your life.
A lot of times too, what can happen is people will quit, but a lot of times people aren't
willing to really be honest with themselves about where they're at and why they're there.
And sometimes that's because we don't know why.
And that's why you're here for this time, this season, and for God to show you those
revealings for healing.
And that's what makes, that's like the secret sauce in this truly.
And I know anybody can claim to have that stuff, but God is doing something supernatural
in this movement.
Like I've never seen it before.
I've done a lot of work before I came into this community myself.
I'm one of the success stories.
If you've never met me, I'm Bethany Cooper.
For those of you that are brand new tonight, I'm one of the heartwork coaches and I do
all kinds of stuff in this community.
I love what God is doing and I am one of those people, like God spoke to me years ago
about the switching to the, I get to.
If you all can make that shift in your heart, like that you get to be here, you get to experience
revival in your hearts and your lives like never before.
I believe you're going to posture yourselves to receive something really, really special.
I have a couple of housekeeping items.
I'm going to go through them super quick because I don't want to take a lot of time
because this afternoon God was putting something in my heart that I need to share that I did
not share this afternoon.
And I don't want to not have time for the breakout sessions and the other content.
So if you're joining us for the first time, again, welcome.
We love that you're here and we're so excited to have you as a part of our family and our
community.
We want to encourage you don't rush.
Okay.
So best practice, one week of content per week.
That's our best recommendation.
We recommend that because we see people that try to rush right through this and they tend
to not get as much breakthrough.
Now, if you need to take more time, that is okay.
Okay.
This isn't a race and y'all guess what?
Even though some of you are starting at the same time in the new offer group, we have
other ladies in here that are in week three, week four.
So guess what?
It doesn't matter if you go at different paces.
I had someone today in the group say, I think I'm already a little bit behind.
Please, please, please do not worry about that.
You are starting at your own pace and you can go at your own pace as you go.
All right.
Don't rush and just take one day at a time.
All the helper hats and when you guys just imagine you have a helper hat on, I just want
you to kind of imagine just taking that thing right off because while you're here in this
especially in phase one, we do not want you coaching each other, giving advice, helping
each other.
And some days some people are going to really be struggling and you're going to want to
help them and you're going to want to fix them.
But that's what the coaches are for.
You all don't, you get to cheer each other on.
You could just say, sister, I'm praying for you.
God bless you.
You get to do that kind of stuff and we want you to do that.
We want you to engage with each other in the community group, but the coaching and the
advice and all of that kind of stuff will be done by myself and my team, Jackie and
all of us.
If you have tech questions, I'm going to encourage you all because typically every time we have
a new group that does join, there's tech questions and typically, you know, we can answer those
in the group, but it's just best right now.
If you have a tech question, if you send those to admin at JackieDorman.com, the tech and
admin team can help you way quicker than I'll be able to help you when you post in the community
group.
Just as a side note, do it that way for now.
And then once we kind of get caught up on the back end, because myself, I just moved,
for those of you that are new, you wouldn't know this, but I just moved from Indiana to
Florida with my husband.
We're almost married two years.
And so it's just been a little crazy getting caught up.
but I'm back and I love, I love being here with y'all. So here is my, I'm going to pray and then
I have something to share with y'all because something happened today as I was unpacking
boxes. And it's one of those things that, you know, normally in the past years ago,
I probably would have brushed right past it, but God just started speaking to me and I'm going to
just give you a little, little clue. So I don't know if you see all this green, I got green,
I got green in my nails, I've got green all over me. So I'm just going to put that there for right
now. But this was something so small that I almost passed right by it today. And then God
just started whispering to me about it. So I'm going to leave that there while I pray. Father,
thank you. Thank you for just being here with us tonight. Thank you. Holy spirit for being our
comforter, for being our counselor, for being our guide, that you're an ever present help in our
time of trouble. You're you're our ever present help in times of need that you would comfort
those that are broken hearted, those who are crushed in spirit, and that you would come and
wash over them with fresh hope. We know that where hope is deferred, it can make the heart sick. And
for some that have come even tonight, their heart is sick because of things they've been through,
the trauma of the past areas, they feel stuck and they're wondering, God, can anything be different
in the days ahead? And God, we say, yes, we thank you for the yes over our lives. We thank you that
you're declaring freedom and liberty, that you're setting captives free, that you're coming in and
transforming and renewing our minds and our hearts and our spirits, our bodies and our souls tonight.
We believe, God, that as you heal our hearts in the inside, in the innermost being of who we are,
that you'll also begin to heal our physical bodies in ways that we haven't been able to heal before,
that you're going to help us to shed weight physically that we haven't been able to shed
to be able to shed in the past. God, I thank you that nothing is too hard for you
and that you will love us deeply, that you're a good father, that you're a good father, that you
have kindness and goodness and faithfulness in your heart towards us, that you are love and you
cannot forsake yourself. Therefore, you created us in your image and therefore that means you're
going to extend love to us and that is who you are. So help us to receive your love in a fresh way
tonight, in Jesus name, amen. So the story I got to tell you about this, and it might seem again
like such a small thing, and at first what got my attention, I was like, oh my gosh, I've got this,
you guys probably can't even see it, I thought you'd see it, maybe you see it more. I was really
hung up about this nail because I didn't want to have to paint my nails for tonight and I'm like,
I'm going to be on this live session and they're going to see my big green hand and nail. It really
doesn't look as bad as I thought now, but here's the thing, I was really hung up on this little
thing, right, and what got my attention was how I see the stains and I started thinking about that
you all might not see the stain the same way I do. I see a lot of stain, I see a lot of color in myself,
but when I'm looking at the screen, I don't even see as much, so I'm sure you all don't either,
and why am I talking about this? Well, here's the thing, Holy Spirit was talking to me about
that someone tonight would be here live or watch the replay that is really feeling
tore up from the floor up about the sins of the past in some kind of way, and you're just
not feeling like real sure that God can forgive your sin, and I don't know who it is, but I just,
it was one of those things that I just could not get away from all afternoon, and so I want to tell
you that whoever you are, that God loves you, and He absolutely has already forgiven you.
Feel the Holy Spirit on that. He's already forgiven you. It's already there. It's provided.
You just have to receive it tonight, and this is the scripture that He brought to my mind is that
even though it's not red, this stains on me, you know, we focus on our mistakes and our failures.
We allow the enemy in the world to define us. I used to let my divorce define me.
I used to think years ago that my abuse defined me, but it doesn't, and it never did, and it
doesn't define you either. Your mistakes and even the mistakes of other people have committed unto
you the things they've done to harm you. That is all under the blood of Jesus Christ. If you
give your life to Jesus Christ and you live for Him, it's all under the blood. Isaiah 1 18 and 19
says, though your skin, though your sins, excuse me, are like scarlet, I will make them white as snow.
Though they are red like crimson, I will make them white as wool. If you only obey me, you will
have plenty to eat.
So, I just want to encourage you tonight, whatever you came in with, whatever you've
been struggling with, it could be a lot of people, it could be one person, but it's worth
it for the one.
If it's only one person, it's worth it in my heart, and I know in the heart of the Father,
so I wanted just to take a few minutes to say it tonight.
Your sins can be removed as far as the east is from the west, just like mine were, just
like a lot of people's are, but again, it's coming into agreement and alignment with the
truth of heaven over you tonight.
So we're going to make a shift, we're going to start talking a little bit about the actual
content I prepared earlier today, and we're going to talk about Candice.
Some of you have already heard the story of Candice in the videos, some of you will hear
them in the days and weeks to come, but there's a story that Jackie shares about Candice and
how God was speaking to her about Candice and putting Candice on her heart and basically
telling her that Candice was going to be somewhere and that she needed healing.
And so God was speaking to me a lot about this story, Candice, and he said to tell you
all that he cares about you personally.
It's not just, oh, he's going to do for the group, he's going to do for the other ladies,
he's going to do for Wendy, he's going to do for Aranya, I'm not sure if I just said
that right, he's going to do for Nora, he's going to do for Mickey, he's going to do for
He calls you by name, he knows you by name, and he wants you to know that he knows what
you need, and he knows where you are, and he knows how to get you what you need as well.
And that's what Jackie talks about in this story and in the book as you guys begin the
journey through the heart work.
And this is why God told me to start here tonight, because he said he knows that some
of us don't actually believe that he cares.
Because of the wounds of the past and the examples that you've been given by earthly
fathers, earthly mothers, other people, even your own mistakes at times, and even things
that you think God did to you that he did not do, it was actually the enemy doing it,
but the enemy lied to you and you believed that God was the mean one, that God was the
one that did those things to you.
And he's saying that he cares about you more than you've ever known.
And he wants you to know tonight that if you're struggling to believe that he cares about
you, he understands, because he knows why.
He knows the why behind our what, he knows why we do what we do when we do it, even when
we don't know why we do it.
Just like Paul, he's like, why do I do the things that I don't want to do?
Even Paul wrestled with that.
So sometimes we're going to wrestle with that.
We're going to, why did I do that?
Why did I respond that way?
Why did I get so upset?
Some of y'all, even as you're beginning the heart work, and some of you are four weeks,
five weeks in, you can attest to this.
Sometimes you're going to have stuff bubble up to the surface and you're like, why am
I so angry all of a sudden?
I was fine last week, but now I've started heart work and now I'm going zero to 180 in
a second.
It's because you're starting to lean into the heart work and stuff's getting stirred
up in there that has been long simmering underneath the surface.
It's been down under there and you've just been surviving and existing, but it's like
a volcano eruption when something triggers that thing, but it won't last forever.
I'm here to tell you, it won't last forever.
The pain that you're going to feel, you are, some of you guys are going to feel pain.
Some of you will feel it more than others.
Some of you will be like, I'm not feeling any of the stuff that people are talking about,
and that has a lot to do with numbing.
If you learned as a child at a very young age, how to numb to it, to survive in the
world that you grew up in, it might take you a little bit more time to feel some stuff
and that's okay.
There's nothing wrong with you.
Okay, I want you to hear that.
There's nothing wrong with you.
God will help you in your process as you continue to surrender it to him.
And Jackie will even say, if you get a certain way into the program, if you're still not
feeling anything, don't panic, but this might happen for some of you.
We'll encourage you to go back and start at the beginning because you might need a little
bit more time to kind of process some of that stuff and unpack it with the Lord.
So the father wants you to know that he cares about you to the point that he wants us to
just talk about some of the misunderstandings about who he is because of what you've been
through in the past.
Some of you have been let down.
You've been beaten by.
parents or grandparents or spouses, I don't know who it was, but that was not God's heart for you.
Some of you were beaten down by words, but that's, there's no, in my world
and in God's world, abuse is abuse you all. Okay. And that is not the Father's heart for you.
It never was. And it broke his heart as you were breaking.
So I've done this before, but I felt led to do this again tonight. Again,
we have some new people, but God was talking to me again about this.
So if y'all, these are just regular sunglasses, but one of the things I want you to understand
is that what you've been through, especially when there's trauma, when you believe a lie
at the root core of that trauma, these lenses, let's pretend I'm going to call these my betrayal
lenses, because I went through a lot of betrayal. My dad left my mom, cheated on my mom.
And then that same things happened in my marriage before then. Then the next guy I met,
he did the same thing as well. And so there's lots and lots of betrayal. So let's just, I'm going to
pretend my lens and filter that I see the world through all the time. If I'm not healed, right?
This is, I'm talking about my old broken heart. Praise God. I'm healed a lot from all that,
but my old broken heart, I used to look at everything through betrayal and suspicion and,
and that men leave and men cheat and men aren't reliable. And so I took that and carried that into
every relationship, even with friends, friends, even I had friends, it was crazy. I had friends
that betrayed me. I had men that betrayed me. So it was just like people betray me. I can't trust
anybody. And that was internally the stuff I was aligning myself with you all, even long Christian.
I wanted to trust, but deep down, I was like, I don't know, like you can only get in close to me.
If you prove to me that I can trust you. And I'm not saying we should be unwise and give everybody
our hearts, you all, but love is a risk. It is. And so in order to receive love, we have to be
willing to let the walls down and let love in the love of the father, the love of other people.
And so I want to ask you tonight, what are your lenses? What are the filters that you're looking
at everybody as well as yourself through? Because some of you, all the lens that you're looking
through, even at your own self, I'm not good enough. I had a lady tell me recently, she just
went through a breakup and she just started playing old tapes. And she's like, well, if I
couldn't even keep a man that had duct tape on his, on the bumper of his tail lights, then I
can't get a good man. She believe in old tapes there. So what are your lenses? What are your
old tapes? What are the filters and things that you process things through? And while you think
about that, as we start to talk about God caring about you as well, because that's kind of where
I want you to, I want you to aim it also. How are you looking at God? And what is the lens that you
look at God through? Is it a lens of God takes away from me and he doesn't give to me. He blesses
everybody else, but I'm left out. Is it that God is mean to me? He, all he does is yell at me and
he's just angry at me all the time, because in your life, you got yelled at all the time by
everybody that was in authority over you or mistreated. And so now you look at God through
that lens. There's a song called Sparrows. I'm going to share the link with you all at the end
of the night, but I just want to read some of the lyrics of this song as I start to talk to
you about the fact that God is not a man that he should lie. Do y'all know that God is not a liar?
He's never been a liar. So if he says that he has created you with a good plan and a good purpose in
mind, and if you believe that part of that is a spirit mate who is full of the fruits of the
spirit, who's healthy and who can love you, then you have to hold on to that. I'm telling you why,
because the enemy will come and try to steal that from you every step of the way. But if you hold
fast and you'll allow God to heal you and work in your life, you can, just like me, step into the
fullness of God's plans for your life, including your love story. And some of you all are about
to have a revitalization project happening in your whole life. Seriously, you'll get new jobs,
you'll make new friends, you'll get a new community. Some of you have
been not in church for a long time
because you got hurt by somebody at church
and you left and you never went back.
God's not a man that he should lie.
He's loving and he's kind and he's inviting you
tonight to come into truth.
The Sparrow song lyrics I wanna read to you are this.
It says, you take good care of me.
You know what I need before I even ask a thing
and you hold me in your hands with a kindness
that never ends.
I'm carried in your love no matter what the future brings.
Yeah, you take good care of me.
And you know, the person that's singing that, I believe,
I know when I worship, sometimes I'm like,
okay, Lord, I need help believing this.
And then there's other times that I'm like,
singing a love song to my Jesus.
I just like love him and sing into him
and I believe everything I'm saying with everything in me.
And I believe that's how this song was created
and is being sung by Corey Asbury.
He really believes just like the Sparrow
who doesn't have to strive for what they need.
Have you ever seen a bird?
I've never seen a bird strive, I don't think.
They soar, they flutter, they come and get their stuff
and they go back.
And maybe it's hard for them, the babies,
when they get kicked out of the nest.
But from my perspective, it looks fairly easy for them.
I think there's a word in that for us
that God wants you to know.
I'm not saying you don't have to do your part.
Just like Jackie says, we do the work
and then God does the supernatural.
So you're showing up, you're doing the hard work
and God will meet you as you go.
So some of you are here and you're asking yourself,
okay, is this really gonna be any different?
What's different about this?
Like, why is this gonna make any difference?
I've tried to meet people for 13 years
and nothing's happened.
I've done healing ministry things, all of the things.
Y'all, I did a lot of healing work
before I came into this community
and it was all beneficial.
It was all worth it, nothing is wasted.
I encouraged someone in the group this week
who felt like they wasted money on college
because they're not doing that career right now.
I really wanna encourage you all,
please do not partner with lies like that.
No matter what your situation is financially,
you are your best investment.
Are you worthy of that investment?
You're worth that money, you're worth that investment
and God will use all of that for good.
So here's where I think this time is different for you.
Ecclesiastes says in 3.1 in the message version,
there's an opportune time to do things,
a right time for everything on the earth.
We believe in this community that every single person
when you come in, it is by God's divine design and timing.
I believe 100%, I've seen it for years.
I've been with this group and this community
for several years and I can tell you
that the timing of everyone has been just really beautiful.
So trust God's timing in your life.
Heart change equals life change.
So if you wanna life change, really lean in
and receive the heart change that God wants to give you.
All the real and lasting change
also has a process with it you all.
A lot of us, we grow up, well, I know for myself,
I've grown up in the microwave culture
and the instant coffee and it's just getting quicker
and quicker and quicker.
And so we want everything to be super quick.
We don't wanna have to work for it.
We just want it done and we wanna move on.
And for some, it might look like that, okay?
Just know, some people, because you don't know
what people have done before they got here, you all.
So let's just not compare ourselves to each other
and let's just trust our process.
So if you came in and you just want it to be speedy,
I'm gonna encourage you, it can be accelerated,
but trust God's process and timing.
We're not here to, we don't want you just to pretend
and behave really well and be in your good behavior
and then walk away and never have heart change.
So that's what I'm talking about.
Heart change is gonna equal that life change.
If you are struggling in some area with sin on any level,
I would much rather you tell us in the community
and let us help you.
Let us coach you.
Some of you all, God's gonna nudge you to confess some stuff
and when you get into certain weeks of our program
that you're like, oh my God, I don't wanna.
tell them that I don't even know some of these people and you're going to try to DM me or my
team privately and I'm just going to tell you, you all, we don't, we can't respond to you directly.
Part of that is because we've set this group up in this community up to coach you in community.
Coming out of hiding and confessing in a safe place that we've created is going to set some
of you free radically. And that's what you need. And it's just, you just didn't know that's what
you need, but when you get there, you'll know. All right. So we're going to do the first breakout
session. As I was talking earlier about God caring about you, I just want to ask you right now, just
to start, I'm going to pray for you before we go on the breakout, but I just want you to be open
to asking God to reveal to you personally, what is the area in your life that you struggle to
believe that God cares about you? What's the memory? Father, I'm just going to pray right
now. Father, right now, I just pray that you would help every lady that's here on the live session,
as well as those that would watch the replay, that memories would just start to surface,
come up out of their spirit. Anything that's in darkness would be brought to the light so
that healing can happen where they have believed the lie that you don't care about them.
Lord, whatever needs to be talked about tonight so that they can be set free. We just thank you,
Lord, for revealing these things. We thank you that you love us enough to not leave us the way
that we came in the door tonight in Jesus name. Amen. So if you had something come up, a memory,
I encourage you to share that when you go in your breakout room. If you've never been here before,
I don't want you to panic. You are going to be put in a breakout room with people that you may
not know, but that's part of the trust process. Okay. So please don't log out when I do breakouts.
I know some of y'all are laughing, but it really happens. People will log out. And I,
and I want you to know, I have sympathy for, for you all who are very shy or nervous or you're
battling shame or guilt or any of that kind of stuff. And I just want you to know that I,
I know that you've just met me, some of y'all, but I sincerely want to say to you,
you can trust what I'm telling you, that this is a safe environment.
God's doing something really remarkable in this community. And I have never had a problem,
praise Jesus in any of the things that I've led with breakout sessions or our group.
Okay. So when you go in, you're going to share with each other,
what, where's an area that you're struggling to believe that God cares about you? Is there
a memory that came up or is there just something else that's come into mind that you want to share
on that topic? I'm going to give you all eight minutes. So if you have extra time,
you can go ahead and talk about just where you're from, get to know each other a little bit,
but talk about what the question is first, short, brief and powerful when you're in the group.
So please don't have one or two people dominating the conversation, invite each other to
participate and share. And my, my ladies that are super shy, I'm going to really ask you to ask God
to give you courage to talk and share. I know it's hard for some of you, but you can do it. I know
you can. All right. I'm excited for y'all. It's going to be really good. Go ahead and accept
those. Those invites are there for you. If you're going in the groups, remember some people
internet is slow. So just wait for them to join you.
All right. Almost ready ladies. Then I'll pray. Just had some people that weren't getting
connected in here. Right. It's not letting me join. Oh, which group are you in?
I'm in group six and I'm, I'm on a walk and I think the wifi is just not strong enough for me
to make that connection. I pushed the button several times. So if you need someone else in
there, I just want you to know, I'm not going to join it. I'll just stick with you. Yeah,
that's totally fine. You can stay here with us. Father, thank you so much for this night. We thank
you Lord for revealing the areas in our hearts and our minds and our spirits and our souls,
where we are struggling to believe that you care about us. God, that you have an intimate
involvement in our lives. We thank you.
Lord, that you're redeeming our storylines
and you're going in and throughout all of our lives
and you're tracking with us.
You've been tracking with us all along.
I thank you, Lord, that you would just continue
to just bring all those things to the surface
that need to be touched by your grace, by your goodness.
We place the balm of Gilead upon the hearts, the minds,
the spirits, the bodies, and the souls.
And we thank you for the healing balm of Gilead
coming down from heaven and being placed upon
the most tender, the most vulnerable places
in our hearts and our lives.
We thank you, God, for redemption stories
coming forth from tonight.
We thank you for healing.
We thank you, Lord.
Yes, Lord.
Yes, Lord, we thank you for...
I just keep seeing like a gap being bridged by the Father.
And that gap isn't just in our hearts and our lives,
but it's between families.
So we just thank you for reconciliation
and healing in families.
We thank you, God, for finding and breaking
in the name of Jesus Christ
and by the power of the blood of Jesus Christ,
every spirit of bitterness and unforgiveness,
any spirits of resentment, any spirits of stubbornness,
wrath, malice, we thank you for, in Jesus' name,
releasing a spirit of love and of power
and of a sound mind, a spirit of forgiveness,
a spirit of reconciliation and peace.
We thank you, Lord, that you are coming in
and you're teaching us all the truth
that you wanna give us.
Hi, Jennifer, I just saw that you just joined us.
I'm gonna go ahead and put you in a breakout.
We are talking about areas that we struggle to believe
that God cares about us.
So I'm gonna put you in a room
and you can go ahead and accept that now.
There you go.
And Lord, we just thank you
that you continue to meet us as we go.
Just like the two men on the road to Emmaus,
they were going and they didn't understand what had happened
and why things happened to Jesus the way they did.
And Jesus even met them on the road
and their hearts were burning within them,
but they didn't recognize him in that moment,
but he was there.
So Lord, we just thank you that you would remind us
of the times in our lives that you were there all along,
that you were with us, that you were walking with us,
you were ministering to us, you were protecting us,
but the enemy lied to us
and he caused us to believe that you weren't there,
that you left us, that you forsook us,
but that is not who you are.
So Lord, we just thank you for the reminder
that you're good, that you're a good father
who gives good gifts to your children
and that you're continuing to work all things together
for good in our lives.
That you hedge us in with your protection.
We thank you that you also hide us
under the shadow of your wings
and in the presence of the almighty.
When the enemy comes in like a flood,
we know that you father raise up a standard against him,
that we don't have to be afraid of the enemy.
We don't have to be afraid of the terror that comes.
I think it says by night or the arrow that flies by day.
We thank you God that you give us the armor
that we can put on every single day
to be protected by your presence, by your power.
We thank you that the same power
that rose Jesus Christ from the dead
is also living in us and operating through us
for all those who have accepted Jesus Christ
as our Lord and savior.
And we thank you that we can partner
with that power every single day.
And that that power, we can receive that
to be empowered to even do our heart work.
Yes, that's a good truth.
That even in our heart work process
and our healing processes, we don't have to do it alone.
We can ask for the Lord's help at all times.
And Lord, I just thank you even right now tonight
that you in your word declare in Psalm 139, 23 through 24.
I always love to read this one during heart work sessions
because it's so good.
This is from the passion translation.
God, I invite, excuse me,
you're searching gaze into my heart.
Examine me through and through.
Find out everything that may be hidden within me.
Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares.
See if there's any path of pain I'm walking on
and lead me back to your glorious ways.
The path that brings me back to you.
Lord, I thank you that you would help us
to return to our first love.
I thank you that you are calling out to our hearts
and our minds and our spirits, our bodies and our souls.
And you're leading us into places of repentance
through your loving kindness.
Your grace and your mercy is new every morning.
And I thank you that we can trust you to,
as I read that.
Scripture earlier tonight, make us white as snow.
That even when we fall short in one way or another, God,
that you cover all of our weaknesses.
And I thank you that we can turn to you in our weakness
and that you make us strong.
I thank you that we can rely on you,
even though we might not have been able to rely on people
in the past or people in the world even today.
God, I thank you that we can always rely on you.
And I pray that you would help any person
that hears me even pray that, that doesn't believe that,
that doesn't know that yet.
God, that you would make that a reality in their lives,
that they would continue to know you more and more
as a God of love, as a God of restoration,
as that God of joy, peace, kindness, goodness,
faithfulness, forbearance, gentleness.
God, that you would also help us to know
how we can tap into all the fruits of the spirit
and be able to walk in self-control as well.
I thank you that even the temptations that we face
in this world, that you can help us to overcome them.
And I thank you, God, that we don't do,
as I said earlier, anything alone.
I thank you that you're meeting us every step of the way.
Hi, Katie.
They're about to come back from the first breakout session.
So I'm just gonna leave you here with us.
So glad that you're here with us tonight.
All right, here we go.
We'll be back with us here in like 50 seconds.
Hello, hello.
Good to see you all.
Ms. Lorraine, I can tell a difference about you.
I don't know if you see it in yourself,
but I see a lightness in you.
I see it happening.
Yeah, I do, yes.
A lightness in your face,
your countenance is changing, sweetie, every week.
Oh, that's so good.
Oh, wow.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yep.
Thanks for telling me that.
You're welcome.
I, you know, we used to hear the pastors say,
if you're happy, tell your face that.
So I'm trying to practice that now.
Yes, well, and the great thing about it, you all,
is when we heal on the inside, it happens soon.
It happens super naturally on the outside.
It does.
You guys will have people, as you go through this process,
you're gonna have people that will start asking you like,
what's going on with you?
Like, you're like glowing,
and they'll start just saying stuff to you.
You'll be amazed.
All right, welcome back.
We have everyone back.
It's good to have you.
So for those joining us for the first time,
this is how it goes.
When we come back from breakout session,
I ask people that are willing to share with the whole group
what you shared with the private group.
So do we have anyone that is willing to share
with the whole group what you shared
in your private breakout about the areas that you struggle
to believe that God, excuse me, cares about you?
And it normally takes one or two, and then we get rolling.
So whoever is willing.
I'll go.
Awesome, great.
Let's see, Rachel.
Awesome, go ahead.
Oh, me, Regina, or Rachel?
Oh, so sorry.
I saw Rachel unmuted, but that was Regina.
Okay, Regina, go ahead.
Yeah, so in general, I feel like God cares about me
and love me, but what happened last year
really rocked my world.
My dad passed away suddenly,
and I just can't get over the fact that
I feel like that's an area where God doesn't love me
and care about me.
And it's also making it very hard for me with the heart work.
So yeah, I see that as a challenge for me.
Thank you so much for sharing that.
I want anybody that can relate to Regina.
Has anyone else lost someone suddenly
and you're just really having a hard time
because of that belief?
And you can put it in the chat
or you can raise your digital hand.
Anyone else?
Or you can, yeah, you can just raise your hand
so I can see you.
All right.
So I wanna talk about this briefly
because I wanna have enough time for everybody to share.
Okay, I see you all.
I see you.
Thank you for sharing.
And if you don't want to share,
if you don't wanna share with the whole group,
you can put your hand down just so I know the difference.
I said this to someone that has been battling physically,
but it's also going to apply to this as well.
The enemy is the one that brings death and disease.
Okay?
He is.
It's not the father.
And a lot of times people will say,
but God could have saved them.
God could have healed them.
So why didn't he?
Now, I'm not here to answer
those philosophical questions tonight,
but what I am here to say is that the enemy is.
the one that's bringing destruction and bringing death
and bringing disease and discomfort
and all the disc stuff that Jackie talks about.
And so the enemy is the one that's trying
to destroy our families.
He's trying to destroy us.
And so I would encourage you, Regina,
as you're processing this, when your father passed away,
a lot of times you all,
it is that current situation we're struggling with
and the lies that we started believing during that time.
But what can happen is with the current trauma
is actually linking to other trauma and lies we believed.
And so it becomes more powerful
and that's how strongholds get created.
Y'all, the Bible talks about strongholds.
This is kind of how it happens.
We believe a lie back here when we're younger.
And then when something else happens
that has a similar feeling or a similar like thought
or the enemy lies to us in a similar way and we believe it,
then that gets fortified a little bit more.
And then you go a little bit more
and then the same kind of thing.
And each time it becomes stronger and stronger.
But guess what?
Here's the great thing is God is able
to break every stronghold, to break every chain.
We sing about it in church on Sundays,
but so many of us, we struggle to believe it
or to experience it.
And it's not your fault if you're struggling.
I just wanna make that clear.
A lot of times we struggle
because we don't have the revelation that we need yet.
But you're on the precipice, Regina.
I think you're there to this point
that you would share tonight
because God is in the process of setting you free
from that pain and the feeling that if he loved you,
your dad wouldn't have died.
Or whatever lies, you know, snuck in there.
So I wanna ask you, Regina, when your dad passed away,
in addition to the general, if you will,
lie that God didn't care about you,
what were some of the lies that you heard during that time?
Do you recall?
That I'm not a good daughter
because I could have made more effort
to communicate and see him.
Because he died in our home country, Korea,
where I was born.
Okay.
So as you continue to lean into this
for healing with the Lord,
I really want to encourage you to keep asking the Lord.
Again, you're not digging.
We never dig.
We don't want you to dig.
We want you to ask the Lord,
is there any other lies that I believed
or that I believe about myself?
And then, you know,
or that I believe about myself.
And then as you start to see those,
have I believed this lie before?
Have I believed this lie before?
And if so, what was the memory that was linked to?
And this is how you'll start to connect the dots
to get to the root.
Okay.
And you guys don't have to try to uncover the root yourself.
You just trust the process.
The Lord will reveal the root more and more.
If there's a deeper root in time,
he'll reveal that to you,
but trust that he's gonna reveal to you
what you need in this moment right now.
And then when you're ready for that other thing,
if there is something else,
he will show that to you when it's time.
So I encourage you to do that.
And then the other side of this
is we ask for the lies to be revealed,
but then we also ask for what?
For those of you that are further along in the process,
what do we ask for as well?
Replace it with the truth.
That's right.
We're asking God to reveal the truth to replace the lie
because we can't just have the revelation of the lie.
We have to have the truth to now cling onto
to replace those lies.
So I'm gonna encourage you to do that as well.
Thank you, Regina, for being our first one to go tonight.
Jennifer, go ahead.
So I just kind of said,
I kind of feel like finances,
like, you know, being a single mom
and, you know, I used to be like,
I used to tithe and offer like all the time,
every paycheck, you know, it was what I did.
I was tithing and offering,
but like, I never saw like the fruit from it.
And so then it got to be discouraging, like,
okay, God, where are you in my finances?
Like, I want to be able to be blessed
so I can be a blessing,
but I can't even afford to take care of myself.
So then it got to be where I couldn't tithe anymore
because I need to be able to pay my bails.
So that's kind of where I struggle right now.
All right.
So anyone else struggling with finances
and you feel like you haven't seen the fruit,
I really want to encourage you, if that's you,
that you would begin to ask the Lord to also...
Um, what's coming up in my spirit is a lot of times, and again, you all, this is I'm
heartwork coach. So this is just my brain automatically goes to where did this start?
Again, it's, it's the current situation. But what came up in my spirit is I went to say that to you,
Jennifer, and anybody else that's in this place is when you were younger, did you see your parents
struggling with money and making comments about how God wasn't coming through for them. And that
may not be the case for you, Jennifer, or whoever, but I just want to put that out there because it
came up in my spirit that some of us are having tapes that are playing in our minds right now,
because we heard it growing up. And that planted those seeds that now because we're in pain,
or we're going through some kind of trial, the enemy, the enemy's like, aha, see, I told you,
I told you that God wouldn't come through for you. So again, I'm just going with the Holy Spirit and
what he's putting up there. But that's, that's kind of how he'll work. He'll try to come in and
prove to you something he's been telling you all along. So if that applies, I want to encourage
you to lean into that and ask him where did that start? Where did that start? If it is that just
that current situation, ask him when's the first time in the current situation where you felt like,
you know what, God, like I'm giving you my money. I'm doing, I'm obeying you. And you're just not
showing up for me. And is it that he's not showing up is in the way that we want, but maybe he was
showing up in other ways because y'all he's not a slot machine. Right. And we know this and I'm not,
I'm not giving Jennifer a hard time. I'm speaking to myself, even my, I had trouble with that in
the past. Like, it just felt like, man, God, I'm giving you everything. I'm doing everything right.
I'm following all the rules. Check, check, check. But where are you God? I'm being really real with
you all. But I thought those kinds of things he'll come through for you. He will, but sometimes he
comes through in other ways. And it doesn't mean he won't show up in the finances too. Sometimes
it's our heart change that needs to happen. First. I started having massive breakthrough in my finances
as my heart continued to heal. I had to break through from a lot break free from a lot of
orphan mentalities, limiting mindsets and poverty belief systems that I was living in.
So I had to begin to partner with truth in the way that I even thought about money.
And some of you, that'll be the story for you too. All right. Very good. Jennifer. Great job, Holly.
Go ahead. Okay. I'm praying for courage. I'm new, but I'm very grateful to be here. I shared this
in the breakout group and there seemed to be a theme. I thought that I heard from the Lord
about my spirit mate when I, who my spirit mate was in my late twenties. He was a single pastor
at our church. And there was a two year period where he showed a lot of attention, but never
formally pursued. My spiritual father spoke to me about it. His spiritual father spoke to me about
it. And in the end, nothing happened. And I see how God was protecting me because he was struggling
with some stuff, but it, and I went through a lot of healing at another church for inner healing,
but, and God spoke to me about the reasoning of why it did not come to pass. But I have
struggled since then to believe the voice of God in this area of my life. And lots of questions
about what was that? Yes. Holly, I can relate to you in a different way. I believed I was hearing
from God and I led myself right into a really, really bad relationship. Y'all will hear me talk
about my spiritual daughters. Those of you that have been here for several weeks have heard me
talk about them. I dated their dad for six years and for probably all six, he was cheating on me.
Started finding out about six months in, and I just kept hanging on. What? Why did I do that?
I thought I heard God and I thought he was going to be the person he said he was going to be in
those first few months. And it never returned. He really was not that person. So sometimes it
is tough when we hear something and we think it's God and then it's not.
And so what I want to encourage you all, if that is you, you're going to learn a lot in this program
about counterfeit identities and the filters. Even earlier, I was talking about the lens and the
filters. Some of us have these lenses and filters that are people-pleasing and we're big givers
and we just give and give and give, even when we're recognizing red flags. Cause see the thing
for me, and this might not be the case for you, Holly, but I was seeing red flags with that guy
really, really.
quick. I mean, so quick, but I, I believed the lies that he was dropping. And here's the thing.
I gave him so much bait on the first phone call that he knew exactly what to you. The enemy knew
what to use through that person to just draw me right in. And it was through his daughters. And
then I had the hardest time letting go because of loss in the past with kids. It was a two-year
process. Yeah. And it can be tough. And we never went on a date. We never even went on a date. He
just chased me around the church to see if I had a ring finger. And some of that, and this is the
thing, it's all about our heart that gets caught up in it. But the thing that I want to emphasize
the most is that I question my ability to hear from God after that too. But y'all, I hear from
the Lord all the time. And the more I heal, the more clearly I hear from him. So I want to
encourage you, if you're in that place where you're questioning your ability to hear, here's,
here's some key healing, community, and does it align with the word of God? Those are three super
important things you all. And so that's where we can, if we, if we go to community and we're saying,
hey, this is the situation. And they're all like, no, no, danger, danger. And we just keep going.
Well, that's not good. Right? So that's why it's amazing for y'all to be here in community,
because we're going to be able, and even in heart work, as you guys are processing things,
some of y'all are going to have old boyfriends coming out of the woodwork. I'm just going to
tell you, it's going to happen. If you're brand new, you haven't heard us say that before. It
will happen. And you have to just resist that stuff. Resist that and do not get caught up in
distraction because the enemy wants you to get off track. Okay? So Holly, the, the clarity will come.
It's going to come and you're going to start to trust yourself more and more as you heal in the
days to come. Thank you so much for sharing. Great job on, on being courageous. Your first share.
Good job. All right, Wendy, go ahead. I shared that I have always wanted to be married and it's
just never happened for me. And at this point I just feel like God doesn't care. And I've been
here like a couple of, a month and a half, two months maybe. And it's like, I'm at the, I stopped
after week one because of the Jesus caring board. And I'm like, I don't believe that, I don't know
that he does. So, um, it just, yeah, I don't know. Okay. I just, and it's funny because as you were
speaking, I just had a realization of why I've wanted to be married, um, for as long as I can
remember. Um, so that's just interesting. Like I, I'm having some breakthroughs here in real time.
So do you, do you want to share what you're on or not? Sure. Um, so I, I'm an only child.
I've never been married. I grew up with an alcoholic father, a mom who was like foreign,
like she's from Mexico. And, um, she, my dad was very controlling and abusive and drunk,
quite frankly, all the time. Um, never physically, but verbally. Um, and, uh, I just, it was just
thinking I spent a lot of time in my room by myself and I watched a lot of TV that neither
parent really cared, cared about me that much, I guess. I mean, they did in their own warped way.
Um, but, um, I just spent a lot of time on my own. Um, and I watched a lot of TV and, you know,
TV families are very idyllic and they're very, um, perfect. And I've always wanted that.
I believe God's going to really use this tonight, Wendy. I think this is, um, one of the biggest
shares you've done since you've been in the group. And I want to encourage you that there's nothing
wrong with wanting a healthy and happy family. I will tell you that there's no perfect family.
Um, because we're not perfect. Okay. So it's okay to, to want a healthy and happy family.
And I want to encourage you to, um, what I hear the Holy spirit saying is to.
let yourself believe that it's possible.
You're saying that you got stuck at week one
because you just really aren't sure that Jesus cares.
But I believe that God sent me,
like I said earlier, even that message about the sins
and like even the fact that I built the content
the way I did, I mean, God was speaking to me today
saying my daughters think I don't care about them.
But I do.
And I've been saying to them throughout their life
that I've cared all along, but we just struggle to believe
because sometimes, I don't know if you all feel like this,
but sometimes the lies feel easier to believe.
Does anyone else ever feel like that?
It feels easier to believe the negative than the positive.
And a lot of that is because we grow up,
some of us, in a lot of negative.
And so our comfort zone is the negative.
So some of us have to learn how to come out of alignment
and agreement with that stuff.
You were never meant to be in your room alone and isolated.
God always had a family for you.
And he wanted that, and like you said,
your family loved you in its own way,
but he always wanted you to, okay, thank you, Jesus.
He wants you to come on out of that room.
And I know I'm kind of metaphorically saying that,
but even you sharing openly tonight,
I feel like God's just opening that bedroom door
from a long time ago when you were a little girl
and he's just saying it, come on out, Wendy, come on out.
And like, there's a whole new world out here
waiting for you, and he is excited for you to step into it
and to usher, I'm hearing him say,
to usher you into the big, bold future he has for you.
And it begins with us like, you know what, Lord,
even when I struggle, like when you all were in breakouts,
I was praying and what came to me is that it's okay
for us to even ask God's help in the heart work.
So it's okay for you all to acknowledge,
God, I need help to believe this.
The Bible talks about, and there's a scripture
and I don't have it with me tonight,
this is just coming up in my spirit,
says, I believe, help my unbelief.
It's about the father that's asking for his kid
to be healed, and he's saying to Jesus,
if I'm not mistaken, I believe, help my unbelief.
So y'all, do y'all understand it's okay
if we struggle to have belief at times?
So we can say to the father, I believe
that you have good for me, but help my unbelief.
And where does my unbelief come from?
What is it rooted in?
Why, where did the lie enter in that I believed
that you didn't have anything good for me?
So for some of you, it is, it's coming out of that room.
So how do you come out of the room?
If that's you, if you're resonating even
with what I'm saying to Wendy, hopefully y'all know
just right out of the gate, if I'm saying something
to someone else and it's resonating
and speaking to you in your spirit,
you can reach up and say, Lord,
I received that for myself too.
Thank you, Miranda, Matthew 9, 24.
You can receive that for yourself too.
So one of the ways you can come out of that room
when you're a little kid and you're stuck
in that place emotionally is you ask Jesus
to show you where he was at in the room
and to show you where he's at outside the room
and to help you come out of that room
or whatever you feel led to pray,
but ask him to also help you to hear
what his spirit is saying to you.
What is the truth that Jesus Christ himself
wants to speak to you in those areas of woundedness,
isolation, neglect, abandonment, whatever it is you all.
Some of you have deep pangs, it's called pangs of loneliness
and it feels so painful at times,
like you don't even know why it hurts so bad
because you feel so lonely.
Like where did this come from?
And God wants you to know that he has wept for you
and he's been collecting,
the Bible says he collects our tears in a bottle
and he doesn't just collect them to hold onto them,
you all, guess what happens?
In due season at the appointed time,
he will pour them out on you as choice oil.
He will anoint your life back
and there'll be restored to you, not as sadness,
not as tears, but you all know what happens,
it's actually joy and it's restitution and it's love
and it's grace that will be poured out on you a hundredfold.
We're gonna shift and talk about our next topic.
I'm already at 905, y'all.
I hope you're getting a little bit of something
from the Father tonight.
We're gonna talk a little bit
about another hard topic called submission.
And as soon as I say it, people will cringe.
I know the things that start to happen
as soon as we start to talk about it.
But this is what God told me to give to you all tonight.
And some of it comes from the book
and some of it comes from my own thoughts
and talking to the Lord about it today.
Submission means to yield to the power of another person,
another being, God himself, first and foremost,
to let go in the process and trust God.
Submission is not about someone dominating us
or controlling us or lording things over us.
It's about us equally, whether it's us and God
and someone else that we can trust.
Someone you can trust is super important here, you all.
It's about equally respecting each other,
partnering with each other, loving each other
and surrendering and yielding to each other.
That's what submission is.
Do y'all know that God never forces his way onto you?
The enemy at times has lied to some of you
and said that that is who God is.
Some of you all have endured abuse.
Some of you all have endured other people
taking advantage of you and they have led you,
those things have led you to believe
that God is like that and he's not.
A yield sign, if you think about it, in the US,
and again, I said this earlier today,
I have to say kind of the US now
because we have people that are international
and I don't know if there are yield signs
in some of the other countries.
I was thinking about this today, I don't know.
So I'm just, in the US we have yield signs.
And I was kind of joking, like some people are terrible.
They don't yield at all and they just,
I've had this happen.
We just drove from Indiana to Florida
and I can tell you that some people
do not know what yield means.
They just don't know what it means.
They just really floor it.
And you could end up in potential close accidents,
close calls, all this stuff.
But a yield sign is actually there
so that the driver that has the yield sign
would start to slow down and not only slow down,
but they would yield their right
to the other vehicles or pedestrians.
And I know some of you, that is where it's like,
ah, I don't want to give my rights up to anybody else
because I can't trust people.
And you're gonna say things to me like,
this person did this with my heart
and this is why I can't trust somebody in the future.
And I'm gonna sympathize with you
and I'm gonna coach you and I'm gonna love you,
but I'm gonna encourage you to forgive them
so that you can actually come into
healthy true relationship with someone else.
In your heart healing process,
we're gonna encourage you to yield to God first and foremost
and as you yield to him, as I said,
he will not force his way on you.
Here's what he does.
I talk about this a lot in the heart healing coaching
sessions because I think it's super important.
God the Father stands at the door of your heart
and he knocks.
That's what the Bible tells us.
It doesn't say that God barges in and he pushes you down
and he says, you gotta do this or else.
Now in the Old Testament, there's a lot of law and all that
but even then God invited Moses with the burning bush,
you all, it was an invitation.
God didn't force him to go look at that.
God calls us.
God beckons us to come.
He draws us with his loving kindness
to lead us to repentance.
That's what the Bible says.
Does that sound like abusive language to you?
It doesn't, does it?
No, but so many of us and rightfully so,
some of the churches we've been in
have actually abused us and mistreated us
and poured a lot of religion on us.
And so we think God is this harsh taskmaster.
Task, I said that kind of funny.
But like, yes, he's gonna call us
and he's gonna convict us because he loves us.
He's gonna say, hey, don't go that way, sweet daughter.
That is gonna hurt you.
That's not the best way.
Go this way because he loves you.
Revelation 3.20 says,
behold, I stand at the door and knock.
If anyone hears my voice and opens the door,
y'all, this is what it says.
Listen to this whole rest of this scripture.
It says, I will come in to him.
If I knock and the door is open,
so he doesn't barge the door.
If the door is open, I will come in with
them and eat with them and be with them.
That's talk of a close and intimate relationship.
Is it not?
Job 22.21 in the NLT says,
submit to God and you will have peace.
Then things will go well with you.
Proverbs 3.5 in the message version says,
trust God from the bottom of your heart.
Don't try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God's voice with everything you do.
Everywhere you go, he's the one who will keep you on track.
Don't assume that you know it all.
I'm gonna read something over you.
It's called the submission activation.
It is in your book, in your ebook.
It's at the end of chapter three.
Please don't zoom and read ahead if you're just starting,
but I will encourage you all.
I want you to find this submission activation
after we're done tonight.
Don't do it right now.
Cause right now I want your attention,
but later I'm gonna have you do something
with this this week.
But I wanna encourage you to close your eyes
and I'm gonna read this over you
before we do the next breakout.
Okay, so I know this can feel awkward
cause you're like, who's looking at me,
but hopefully everyone's gonna close their eyes.
And if not, it's totally fine.
All right.
Yes, Lord.
Father God, I give you permission to search me
and to reveal anything in my heart
that does not belong to my true identity.
And that is hindering me from living the life
you created me to live.
Holy Spirit, I invite you into the darkest places
of my heart.
Show me the areas that are still wounded
and are still hurting.
When you reveal these broken places to me,
I covenant with you to release them into your care
and to respond with forgiveness and repentance.
I set aside the season of my life
for a time of healing and wholeness
and ask the Holy Spirit to take charge of this process.
I ask that you dwell with me and in me.
I need you.
I cannot heal myself.
I want to be free from the past,
free to be who I truly am.
Help me to become who you created me to be.
Show me the lies I've believed about myself,
my life, my surroundings,
and even the lies I had believed about you, God.
Teach me the greater truth.
Teach me your ways.
Teach me how to think and how to live abundantly.
Teach me, show me, heal me, grow me.
In Jesus' name.
All right, you all are going to go into your breakout
and you're going to talk about submission.
And in the sense of,
do you struggle with submission and why?
Okay, remember short, brief, and powerful.
I'm going to put you in there.
Let me open these groups.
I'm going to do seven minutes.
I got to go down just a little bit
because I want to have time for y'all to talk about this
when we come back.
And I'm going to recreate these two.
All right, there you go.
You're going to meet some new people this time.
Then click to join.
All right, I think I've got everyone situated.
Father, we just thank you right now
that you would just come in
and continue to bring the truth of the word
of what it means to submit, to yield to God,
to live abundantly and to live in the truth of the word.
And we thank you for that.
And we thank you for the opportunity
to be here with you today.
And we thank you for the opportunity
to continue the truth of the word
of what it means to submit, to yield to you.
That you continue to bring that
into our understanding from heaven,
that you would pour in fresh revelation and insight
into our minds and our spirits tonight about that.
Sorry, ladies, I'm getting super dry on my throat.
And I thank you, Lord, that you would just,
thank you, Lord, just soften our hearts
in the areas where our hearts have become hard
because of the pain of the past,
where we have gone through things in our lives
that told us that we could not trust people
and that people will only use.
submission to hurt us. And we thank you, Lord, that you are
restoring the foundations of the world, you're restoring the
foundations of our heart. Hi, Lori, we're doing conversations
about submission in the breakout rooms. So I'm sending one your
way. You can click to join that. So we just thank you also that
you're, as I was praying that you would soften the heart and
places of our hearts where we've gotten stony in there, because
of wounds of the past and misunderstandings. Thank you,
Lord. Yes, Lord, where we are easily offended even today
because of the pain of the past and things that we get triggered
by. Thank you, Lord, that you go into the depths of our, of our
being and that you would heal this sadness. Lord, where the
sadness and the frustration and disappointment goes unresolved,
unhealed, that's where the anger then begins to happen. So
where we just thank you that you would go into this, the source,
the root places, and that you would just minister your peace
and your grace for tonight. Lord, we thank you that you're
the great physician, that nothing is too hard for you. Hi,
Katie, were you having a hard time connecting? I thought I saw
you a minute ago. All right, I'm just gonna leave you here
until I know if you're connected with us. So Lord, I just thank
you that you would just continue just to, yes, Lord, help us to
marinate in your truth. Thank you, Lord, that you would help
us to begin to think differently in our heart, and
that those thoughts of truth in life would be what would lead us
into our tomorrows, that we will lay aside every weight that so
easily ensnares us, so that we can press on toward the high
calling of God for our lives. I thank you, God, that yes, Lord,
that you are making all things new. We thank you that you are
the potter and we are the clay and that we are in your hands
and we can trust that you are the master craftsman, that you
know exactly what we need. We know, you know exactly the
curvature that we need, if you will, as the pot and the things
that we need to be able to hold and contain. So Lord, we thank
you that, yes, Lord, that you're filling all the cracks as well,
with your power, with your presence, with your hope, with
your life, with your truth. We thank you that in Jeremiah 29,
11, it says, for I know the plans I have for you, says the
Lord, they are plans for good and not for disaster, to give
you a future and a hope. So where we declare goodness and
hope to be our light. I thank you that we, we the righteous
will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living,
that we will not have to wait just for eternity. We will not
have to wait just for heaven to see your goodness. So Lord, we
thank you. And we wait upon you tonight to receive your glory,
to receive your goodness, to receive the upgrades of heaven,
even as the word that the community we declared last night
that it's Christmas in July. I thank you that you would help us
to just get into that place and that posture to receive the
gifts and the surprises that you have for us, Lord. Yes, Lord, we
thank you that you would remove the lies of the enemy from our
hearts, our minds, our bodies, and our spirits and souls, that
tell us that you, you don't have enough and you'll never give us
what we want or what we need. God, I thank you for the times
that you protect us from the things that we wanted, that
were not good for us. But I thank you also, God, that you
will bless us with overflow in abundance in your due timing. We
thank you, Lord, that yes, Lord, everywhere we turn, that
blessings are on every side. We thank you that we do not fear
falling into the traps or being afraid at night. We thank you
that yes, Lord, your word declares that perfect love casts
out all fear, because fear has to do with torment. So we choose
to come out of alignment and agreement with fear tonight. And
we thank you that you would help us to bask in the understanding
of you as love that you got our love, help us to marinate in the
truth that love is patient, love is kind, love is faithful, love
is good, and that we can receive your love tonight. I thank you
that we, as your daughters, can stand and receive the fullness
of all your plans and promises for us. Psalms 119, 165, and
Passion Translation says this, there is such a great peace and
well-being that comes to the lovers of your word, and they
will never be offended. Lord, I thank you that you would stir up
hunger and thirst for your righteousness, for your word
within us.
that we would be lovers of your word and lovers of who you are, that we would grow in the understanding
of who you are, God, the Father, Jesus Christ, who you are as our friend, as the one that has
gone before us, as the one that died for our victory, for our healing, for our redemption,
that you already won the war for us. So all the freedom that we're fighting for, even right now,
all the breakthroughs that we're asking for, we're praying for, we're pleading for,
Jesus, I thank you that you've already won it, you've already won it, so help us to step further
into the fullness of it tonight. I thank you, Holy Spirit, that you are there with us,
walking with us, that you've gone before us, that you're making a way for us to stand even now.
I thank you that you comfort us, you keep us, and you never leave us. Exodus 26 says,
I lavish on family and love for a thousand generations on those who love me and obey my
commands. God, I thank you that not only will you bless my life and their life, but for thousands
of generations behind them, that God, you will use the situations and the healing work that you're
doing now to lavish your love upon them and their families. Yes, Lord. Yes, Lord.
Yes, Lord. We have six seconds, and I have something I almost forgot when Wendy was sharing,
God said something to me, I almost forgot until just now as I was praying that last scripture.
Welcome back. Welcome back. Before we do the quick shares, when Wendy was sharing earlier,
I wrote it down, and I forgot to say it, and this is, I believe the timing is perfect right now.
This is for all of you. This is for Wendy, and this is for all of you.
I wrote Kinsman Redeemer. I wrote Kinsman Redeemer, and Jackie talks about this. I believe
it to be true. Before I ever heard her say it, God was speaking to me years and years and years
before I stepped into the fullness of what God is doing in my life, and I've, you all, I've only
scratched the surface, and so I just want to encourage you. There's so much good ahead.
And so I just want to encourage you. There's so much good ahead. There's so much good ahead.
Don't give up on yourself. God's got good stuff in store. God wants to use you as
Kinsman Redeemers in your family to bring change and transformation, not just for you,
but for thousands of generations, for your children and their children and ripple effects
in your community. Will you, will you choose to become a part of the movement
of kingdom families and marriages? The call of heaven is crying out.
Don't give up on yourselves. Good things are ahead. All right. Who is willing to share with
the whole group? And I can probably take two people or three, maybe, depending on the shares.
All right. Awesome. Leslie, go ahead. Okay. So I shared submission for me. My dad was not
the kindest or the most loving man, and he was in the ministry and my parents struggled
financially always. And so for me, submission is difficult. Not so much. I've been able to forgive
my dad. So that part, I don't think that I struggle with as far as just him, but more or less
control. Like he not only was controlling, he didn't control anything well. So he's controlling
everything. He was unkind to my mother. He cheated on my mom. They were broke all the time. He
barely worked and she did work and took care of the house and took care of us. So for me,
submitting is difficult because it would mean relinquishing control. Because now as an adult,
I'm a single mom. And the thought of a man coming in, like I want some credentials, like, you know,
what's your credit score? What's your income level? Like what, you know, how do you spend?
Mostly in the area of finances, I suppose. But I would love a man to be a gentle leader.
And I told the girls, even though this relationship didn't work out, I was in
a short relationship recently where he was a gentle leader. And so even though it didn't
work out, I feel like God gave me a glimpse of what that could look like.
That is a great share, Leslie. And God will do that with you all. He will. I went on
dates with guys that it didn't work out, but God was definitely showing me that there were good
men out there in that process. And so God will do that with some of you all as well.
I do want to encourage you, you know, in your process, this is really important for y'all to
hear. Some of the ladies that are about to finish, they've heard me say this before,
but it's super important. So I'm going to keep saying it to you all.
happens in layers, you all, and so does forgiveness.
So you might be, Leslie, completely done forgiving your dad,
forgiving him before, but I want to encourage you
or anyone else as you're in this process,
if God brings your dad up or someone that you all
have already forgiven before you came into this program,
I want to encourage you.
It doesn't mean you have to go all the way back
into everything.
It doesn't mean you didn't forgive them before,
but what it just means is that there might be a new layer
of healing and forgiveness that God wants to do.
And so I call it peeking up under the hood.
I like to, I kind of like to give that analogy.
Like you're just, you're just kind of letting God
help you look up under that hood a little bit again,
because some people get that whole fear.
Like I don't want to have to go deal
with that whole thing again.
And I want to encourage you not to fear,
but just be willing, just be willing and be open.
Because if God brings it up to you again, there's a reason.
There's a reason and a season to all of it.
And so on that, it may not be that God leads you Leslie
into that, but if you struggle with the idea
of relinquishing control, oftentimes the undergirding
of control and the fear of letting go of control
is that word fear.
Okay, so we're afraid somewhere deep inside
that if we let someone have control, quote unquote,
they will hurt us.
Okay, so what lies are we still believing
that we're afraid that if we let anyone in that far
that they will treat us the way others have treated us
or the way we saw other people treated.
And so we put these walls of control up
to protect ourselves, okay.
But it's a false protection.
There really is like some of you all, myself included,
we even try to protect our kids from everything, don't we?
We don't want our kids to feel any pain.
And we try to protect them from everything,
but it's not possible.
It's an unrealistic goal you all,
because the world is full of pain.
And actually here's the reality, pain can be profitable.
It can be, if we give it to God and let him use it.
I'm not saying that God wants us to go through pain.
I'm saying that pain is in the world
because of sin and fallen and broken people, okay.
So if we experience pain because of that,
God can heal that pain.
Love is a risk.
Where's Leslie?
I'm looking for you.
Love is a risk.
So relinquishing control, it will feel like a risk,
but I can tell you, even myself,
I'll be fully transparent you all.
I have been married almost two years
and I'm still working on completely giving over
and joining our finances.
Praise God I have a patient husband.
I was abused a lot in my former marriage.
I got money taken from me.
My brother took money from me when I was younger
and stole from me all the time.
So when my ex-husband did it,
it just like, remember I talked earlier
about those strongholds that form.
And so I'm learning over and over again
that I can trust my husband and he's patient
and he's loving and we're almost there.
We're almost there.
I've made a lot of victory steps.
And so I want you to know,
it's okay to just be in process too,
but don't like myself,
like I have to really be willing to push myself too
in the sense that like,
I don't need to keep waiting either.
Does that make sense?
There's like this delicate balance there.
Okay.
So God, I believe God can send you all healthy spirit mates.
You gotta choose well, stay in community, keep talking.
Right now you're pressing pause.
If you don't know, you're pressing pause,
hopefully on the guys.
While you're in heart work, it's important.
I promise you will not regret it later.
I know some of you all are worried
you're gonna miss out on somebody, but you're not.
If they're your spirit mate, they'll wait.
You can circle back to them.
It'll be worth waiting.
You'll find the blessing in it later.
Okay.
Super important.
Christina, go ahead.
Hi.
I think when you started talking about submission,
I can feel myself go.
My dad is amazing.
He was kind and supportive and wise and provided for my family and fun and taught me about
Jesus and walked with me.
When I was growing up, I thought I had the perfect dad, and he was not faithful to my
mama repeatedly.
And that was really confusing, really confusing.
And I haven't dated a lot, I've dated a couple of people, but someone that I dated and almost
married had some gaps in where he was growing.
And because of that, he didn't know what he wanted and wasn't honest with himself.
And because he wasn't honest with himself, he wasn't honest with me in the places where
we were going very different directions.
And so there's parts of me that learned to not ask questions and to enjoy good things
but not ask questions.
And so I think with the submission piece, it's just like, I'm not sure what my heart
needs to know whether or not I can trust someone because, you know, kind, supportive, good
Christian man might not do it for me.
I think what's super important, you said something really powerful.
You said, I learned, don't ask questions, just take the good.
And I think for you, one of the things I want to encourage you in, one of the things I said
about submission is a mutual agreement of respect and yielding, both people are yielding.
So it doesn't mean we have to pretend we're just okay with everything and never ask questions.
Actually, that submission also comes through being fully honest and transparent with each
other in a partnership, in a marriage.
And so I would encourage you, honestly, because your mom, the things that happened there,
it sounds like your dad was really jovial, fun person to be around.
It sounds like it appeared that everything was kind of perfect.
And a lot of times your mom may or may not have known what was going on, but I'm just
going to put it out there.
If your mom was just trying to keep the family together and didn't want to show her pain
or anything, you might have learned at a young age to not ask questions.
So now you're kind of living out that reality now.
Yeah.
No, I was trained in that.
I saw things I would ask questions as a very small person.
And so I was taught to not do that.
All right.
So when you ask questions when you were smaller, what happens when you ask questions?
I wrote something in a little paper for school in first grade, and my dad was like the head
of the school.
And it wasn't something terrible, but it was just something that my dad had done that wasn't
super positive.
Yeah.
And my parents read it when I went to bed.
And the next day my mom asked me if I could change it.
Can you say something different?
And I was like, well, I didn't say anything untrue.
And she said, yeah.
So I added on positive things, but that was a pretty loud, it's really dangerous to talk
about anything negative.
And if you do, the grownups in your world can't handle it.
Yeah.
So this is why, so this is kind of the important stuff, ladies.
I want to encourage all of y'all to ask really good questions.
And you may already know this kind of where I'm taking you, Christina, but what you're
saying is huge.
And so many times we don't realize that.
some monumental thing that happened there. Like you were
being honest. And I feel the Holy Spirit and so pure and what
you were saying. And you were basically and and I'm not saying
they asked you to lie. But in a sense, they were asking you to
change the story to make themselves comfortable, which in
some ways might have felt to you very confusing, because then how
do you start to discern the truth from the lie and the, you
know, all these things that a child it's very tough to
comprehend, right? And so then you grow, and that is reinforced
probably at different times in your life. So then you get into
relationship with people. And you may or may not feel bad when
you recognize things that aren't healthy. And you just go along
with them, and convince yourself that something is good or that
don't ask questions, because you might find something out
that you don't want to know.
Yeah, or they may not be able to handle that.
Yeah. So if anyone else has had any of this kind of stuff
happen, and where your voice in in some way or another, because
here's the other thing. Your voice was taken a little bit in
that moment. Yeah. So some of you, your healing process is
going to be a lot about getting your voices back. And that's why
it's super important to show up and post in the group. And you
all will not like you won't even fully understand how much it's
going to help you break free. But it is even sharing on the
groups. And when we're doing this stuff, it's it's like an
awakening that's happening. And you're coming out of this place
of hiding, and seclusion and isolation and fear of saying
something because of what someone may or may not think.
Right. Definitely lean into that in your process. I think you're
probably going to encounter that in a couple different ways as
you go. Christina, I appreciate you sharing and letting me kind
of talk with that through and I know we're at 937. If you all
need to hop off. I do want to give Jennifer a chance to share
real quick. So if anyone has to jump off, we love you. I don't
want you to feel obligated to stay. But if you can, we'd love
for you to stay just for a few more minutes. Jennifer, go
ahead.
So I shared how I feel like in I've always been a people
pleaser. I've always been a very much don't like conflict, don't
want to fight, just submit to whatever even if I felt like,
you know, maybe this isn't a good thing. But growing up all
through my life, I've always been very much a people pleaser.
And it didn't, you know, and then that in turn, you know, I
met my husband and he had, you know, narcissistic tendencies.
And so and I was always very submissive to that just because
it was easier to avoid the fight. So I felt like I've
always been very submissive. And now that I was, you know, when
he passed away, I was forced to be independent and taking care
of me and my son. So now like, yes, I want to be married again.
And I want to find love because I've had people tell me that
they don't like my mother in law, she's told me she doesn't
even know if like, what me and him had was actual true love.
And she doesn't think that either of us really knew what
love was, which is possible because I had a really hard
childhood. But now I'm kind of like, it's hard for me for one
for me to trust. But also like, I don't know, like, just the
thought of being like, releasing those reins or whatever it is
like a fear thing like I don't want, you know, I'm I can take
care of myself, you know, but again, I want somebody a
partner, you know, so it's just hard. It's hard.
Jennifer, you're growing so much. I hope that you see it in
yourself, even in your shares, I can tell you've gotten less
nervous. You're doing so great. I'm so excited for you. Here's
the thing I want to encourage you to really lean into asking
people for help in this next week. I'm giving that assignment
in particular to you. Anybody else that wants to grab that can
grab it. But I really want to encourage you. And you might not
know who to ask right now when I say that to you, but I just am
going to believe that God's going to show you the people to
reach out to. And even if they don't take you up on it, that
it's more about the using your voice to ask for help. Because
something you just said, as you were sharing, was, you know, as
a single mom, and
with some of the things you've gone through,
you really started depending on yourself solely.
And before God brings your spirit mate,
I want you to start practicing.
I want God, I want you to start practicing
letting people help you again.
And I'm gonna even just go as far as this.
I think you're gonna experience a new level
of someone helping you and partnering with you.
Like really, really partnering in life
and making decisions and loving
and all of the things and fun too.
Not just the hard stuff, but the fun stuff too.
And so I wanna encourage you to open yourself up to that
and just see what God is gonna do through that.
Here is the homework for you all.
I know I'm giving you extra homework,
but I promise it's not too much, okay?
It's not.
Number one, that submission activation
that I read from the end of chapter three,
I wanna encourage you all, again,
I don't want you to, for those of you that have just started,
I don't want you to speed read through all the chapters,
just flip through and find that.
And just this next week.
And when I say this, I don't want this to be all legalistic.
If y'all miss a day, there's grace.
But I just want you to try to aim to read this out loud
over yourself at least once a day,
preferably in the morning,
because it's gonna help you posture your heart
into that place of submission and surrender
right in the morning, okay?
Number two is, let me grab this song.
I said I was gonna do that.
Hold on one second.
That Sparrows song that I was talking about earlier.
I'm gonna put it here in the chat for you all.
So y'all can grab that link.
Can y'all grab that?
I'll put it in your groups too, okay?
But try to grab that now if you can.
And what I want you to do with that
is I just want you to listen to the song
as many times as you feel led.
If only once, that's fine.
But I want you to specifically ask God
to speak to you personally about how he cares about you.
Like, what does he wanna say to you through that song?
Because when I listen to it,
I know what he says to me today.
God gave me that song
before he gave me any of the content for today.
That's what I was like,
woke up singing that song this morning.
I mean, I haven't listened to the song
in a very, very long time.
So it just must've been in my spirit,
like just living in there.
That's what worship does, you all.
It'll live in there
and it'll start to bubble up at the right time.
But I believe he has a word for each one of you
through that song in a special way.
And he's gonna say something to you.
We are praying for you
and we are believing for breakthrough
and for transformation
in ways you haven't even thought of or imagined.
I saw someone said in here,
I experienced the same thing being a pastor's daughter.
We are taught not to talk about anything negative
for the sake of the ministry.
I just wanna encourage you, Jennifer,
to really ask God to show you
how to find safe places to share
in addition to this group.
Because it's gonna help you come out of that fear
that you were taught at a young age
to that protect so you never share
because you're protecting the image,
you're protecting the family,
protecting the ministry, all those things.
And anyone else that's been
in any of those kinds of situations,
God is gonna do some stuff through that as well.
All right, you all, we're late.
I love you guys.
Praying for you all.
See you in the group.
Again, keep coming out of hiding, keep showing up.
Believe big.
Christmas in July, if you guys didn't hear last night,
that's the word over the community in this season.
It's Christmas in July
and God has surprises and blessings for you.
God bless.
See you.