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Welcome, welcome, welcome, everyone.

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It's so great to see you.

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Jackie's gonna say a couple of things

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at the beginning to kick us off.

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I'm guessing we're blessed to have her here with us tonight.

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Yeah, so if you're wondering.

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We're guessing because Jackie didn't tell me anything.

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That's what she's really.

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That's all right, I love it.

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If you're joining us for the first time though,

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let us know, put it in the chat,

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raise your hand so we can welcome you.

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We wanna make sure to say hello to you

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and we're so glad to have you joining us this evening.

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Absolutely.

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Raise your hand if you just joined, you're brand new.

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You came in through that special offer

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in the challenge group.

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Raise your, keep your hand up

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but this is your very first heart check-in.

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You haven't been to any yet.

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This is your first one.

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All right, you're in for a treat.

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So glad.

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So I just wanted to jump in here.

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I'm not gonna take hardly any time

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but I just wanted to tell you,

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God's really been talking to me about breakthrough

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and about being consistent with the opportunities

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that he gives us for breakthrough.

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And so a lot of us don't end up breaking through

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because we quit, right?

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And I did a little Supernatural Saturday on that.

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If you didn't hear it, you can listen to the replay.

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It's in your replay calendar, your replay guide.

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I think that it was this last Supernatural Saturday.

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If you don't quit, you win.

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And so I want to apply that to phase one.

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Guys, heart work's not fun.

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That's why the word work is in it

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but it's not work in your own strength.

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It's work with the help of Holy Spirit.

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And I know a lot of you have done inner healing work before.

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You've done therapy.

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You've done counseling.

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This is different.

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God has drawn you here to get you out of your own way

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and out of his way in the area of your relationship

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specifically with him, yourself and others

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including your spirit mate.

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And there are going to be days

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when you don't feel like showing up.

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I look like I just came out of a steam shower

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because I went to this class called Body Pump, y'all.

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That class is straight from, I don't know where

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but it's like cardio and weightlifting

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and a whole bunch of crazy stuff.

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But you know, as I was walking into it,

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I always dread going because it's just, ugh.

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And it's so fast and it's so hard.

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But when I leave, I'm like, I did it.

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I'm not saying that I'm like feeling good

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but I'm like, I did it.

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But today when I was walking in,

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my attitude shifted to a place of gratitude where I was,

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I'm glad I'm physically able to do this, right?

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I'm glad I'm healthy enough to show up to this.

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I'm glad I'm strong enough to show up to this.

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I'm glad I'm mobile enough to do this.

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I'm glad I have enough money to go to this class.

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I was able to buy that class and go to that class.

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And so we need to approach hard things like that.

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I'm so grateful that I get to be part

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of this transformation process, right?

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And one more thing that I really wanna encourage you in

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before Bethany does your coaching tonight,

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your heart check in tonight,

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is that summertime is a time of massive distraction

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for a lot of people, right?

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There's all kinds of things,

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but God has brought you here to do this.

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And it's not gonna last for a long time.

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It's only gonna be five weeks long.

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For some of you, maybe longer,

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if you go on vacation or something

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and you drop off a little bit.

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If you drop off, just get right back on.

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But that's the majority of the rest of the summer, right?

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And so a lot of people are like,

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yeah, maybe I should have taken this later.

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Maybe I'll come back around and I'll start later

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after the summer's over,

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after this vacation or that vacation.

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I wanna encourage you not to do that.

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Do not slow down the rate of your own breakthrough.

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If you have to go on vacation, if you have to be gone,

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just join right back in.

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Don't put it on pause.

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I can't tell you how many people come to us

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and they're in our emails and they say,

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hey, I guess I'm just not gonna be in the community anymore.

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Can you cancel my subscription?

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And then we look and we see

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the only people that ask for something to be canceled,

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and it's usually about four months in or so,

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we look back and they didn't do any hard work.

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We can see how much progress that you've made in that.

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They didn't get the breakthrough.

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They didn't get the transformation.

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They didn't get the momentum.

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They didn't get the supernatural acceleration.

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That all happens here.

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So once again, I understand you have vacations planned.

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I understand that you have other things going on,

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family reunions and whatnot,

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but this is going to help you to show up to those things

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as a better version of yourself and possibly meet somebody.

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All right, and so let's make sure that we're doing the work part and God will do the supernatural

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heart part.

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Good?

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All right.

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Love y'all.

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Love you too.

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Thank you so much, Jackie.

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God is so good to remind us how important it is to not give up on ourselves, y'all.

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So many times we invest in things, myself included, and we invest money, we invest time,

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and then we give up.

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And then, like Jackie said, we're wondering why we've not gotten the breakthrough.

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So no matter what you face, one of the things I'm going to encourage you all to do, if you're

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feeling at any point in your process, you're feeling led to go into isolation, you're feeling

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led to quit, you're feeling discouraged, I don't want you to do that alone.

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I want you to come in the group and I want you to post about it because there's nothing

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to be embarrassed about.

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You're in this group to be in community.

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We're here to help you and coach you and cheer you on.

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And I can tell you that if you'll be 100% honest with yourself, with God, and with us,

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then y'all are going to have the most breakthrough you've ever had in your life.

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A lot of times too, what can happen is people will quit, but a lot of times people aren't

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willing to really be honest with themselves about where they're at and why they're there.

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And sometimes that's because we don't know why.

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And that's why you're here for this time, this season, and for God to show you those

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revealings for healing.

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And that's what makes, that's like the secret sauce in this truly.

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And I know anybody can claim to have that stuff, but God is doing something supernatural

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in this movement.

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Like I've never seen it before.

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I've done a lot of work before I came into this community myself.

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I'm one of the success stories.

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If you've never met me, I'm Bethany Cooper.

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For those of you that are brand new tonight, I'm one of the heartwork coaches and I do

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all kinds of stuff in this community.

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I love what God is doing and I am one of those people, like God spoke to me years ago

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about the switching to the, I get to.

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If you all can make that shift in your heart, like that you get to be here, you get to experience

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revival in your hearts and your lives like never before.

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I believe you're going to posture yourselves to receive something really, really special.

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I have a couple of housekeeping items.

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I'm going to go through them super quick because I don't want to take a lot of time

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because this afternoon God was putting something in my heart that I need to share that I did

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not share this afternoon.

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And I don't want to not have time for the breakout sessions and the other content.

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So if you're joining us for the first time, again, welcome.

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We love that you're here and we're so excited to have you as a part of our family and our

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community.

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We want to encourage you don't rush.

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Okay.

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So best practice, one week of content per week.

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That's our best recommendation.

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We recommend that because we see people that try to rush right through this and they tend

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to not get as much breakthrough.

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Now, if you need to take more time, that is okay.

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This isn't a race and y'all guess what?

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Even though some of you are starting at the same time in the new offer group, we have

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other ladies in here that are in week three, week four.

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So guess what?

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It doesn't matter if you go at different paces.

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I had someone today in the group say, I think I'm already a little bit behind.

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Please, please, please do not worry about that.

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You are starting at your own pace and you can go at your own pace as you go.

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Don't rush and just take one day at a time.

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All the helper hats and when you guys just imagine you have a helper hat on, I just want

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you to kind of imagine just taking that thing right off because while you're here in this

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especially in phase one, we do not want you coaching each other, giving advice, helping

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each other.

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And some days some people are going to really be struggling and you're going to want to

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help them and you're going to want to fix them.

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But that's what the coaches are for.

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You all don't, you get to cheer each other on.

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You could just say, sister, I'm praying for you.

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God bless you.

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You get to do that kind of stuff and we want you to do that.

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We want you to engage with each other in the community group, but the coaching and the

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advice and all of that kind of stuff will be done by myself and my team, Jackie and

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all of us.

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If you have tech questions, I'm going to encourage you all because typically every time we have

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a new group that does join, there's tech questions and typically, you know, we can answer those

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in the group, but it's just best right now.

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If you have a tech question, if you send those to admin at JackieDorman.com, the tech and

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admin team can help you way quicker than I'll be able to help you when you post in the community

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group.

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Just as a side note, do it that way for now.

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And then once we kind of get caught up on the back end, because myself, I just moved,

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for those of you that are new, you wouldn't know this, but I just moved from Indiana to

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Florida with my husband.

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We're almost married two years.

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And so it's just been a little crazy getting caught up.

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but I'm back and I love, I love being here with y'all. So here is my, I'm going to pray and then

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I have something to share with y'all because something happened today as I was unpacking

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boxes. And it's one of those things that, you know, normally in the past years ago,

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I probably would have brushed right past it, but God just started speaking to me and I'm going to

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just give you a little, little clue. So I don't know if you see all this green, I got green,

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I got green in my nails, I've got green all over me. So I'm just going to put that there for right

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now. But this was something so small that I almost passed right by it today. And then God

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just started whispering to me about it. So I'm going to leave that there while I pray. Father,

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thank you. Thank you for just being here with us tonight. Thank you. Holy spirit for being our

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comforter, for being our counselor, for being our guide, that you're an ever present help in our

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time of trouble. You're you're our ever present help in times of need that you would comfort

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those that are broken hearted, those who are crushed in spirit, and that you would come and

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wash over them with fresh hope. We know that where hope is deferred, it can make the heart sick. And

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for some that have come even tonight, their heart is sick because of things they've been through,

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the trauma of the past areas, they feel stuck and they're wondering, God, can anything be different

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in the days ahead? And God, we say, yes, we thank you for the yes over our lives. We thank you that

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you're declaring freedom and liberty, that you're setting captives free, that you're coming in and

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transforming and renewing our minds and our hearts and our spirits, our bodies and our souls tonight.

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We believe, God, that as you heal our hearts in the inside, in the innermost being of who we are,

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that you'll also begin to heal our physical bodies in ways that we haven't been able to heal before,

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that you're going to help us to shed weight physically that we haven't been able to shed

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to be able to shed in the past. God, I thank you that nothing is too hard for you

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and that you will love us deeply, that you're a good father, that you're a good father, that you

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have kindness and goodness and faithfulness in your heart towards us, that you are love and you

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cannot forsake yourself. Therefore, you created us in your image and therefore that means you're

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going to extend love to us and that is who you are. So help us to receive your love in a fresh way

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tonight, in Jesus name, amen. So the story I got to tell you about this, and it might seem again

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like such a small thing, and at first what got my attention, I was like, oh my gosh, I've got this,

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you guys probably can't even see it, I thought you'd see it, maybe you see it more. I was really

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hung up about this nail because I didn't want to have to paint my nails for tonight and I'm like,

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I'm going to be on this live session and they're going to see my big green hand and nail. It really

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doesn't look as bad as I thought now, but here's the thing, I was really hung up on this little

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thing, right, and what got my attention was how I see the stains and I started thinking about that

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you all might not see the stain the same way I do. I see a lot of stain, I see a lot of color in myself,

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but when I'm looking at the screen, I don't even see as much, so I'm sure you all don't either,

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and why am I talking about this? Well, here's the thing, Holy Spirit was talking to me about

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that someone tonight would be here live or watch the replay that is really feeling

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tore up from the floor up about the sins of the past in some kind of way, and you're just

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not feeling like real sure that God can forgive your sin, and I don't know who it is, but I just,

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it was one of those things that I just could not get away from all afternoon, and so I want to tell

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you that whoever you are, that God loves you, and He absolutely has already forgiven you.

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Feel the Holy Spirit on that. He's already forgiven you. It's already there. It's provided.

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You just have to receive it tonight, and this is the scripture that He brought to my mind is that

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even though it's not red, this stains on me, you know, we focus on our mistakes and our failures.

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We allow the enemy in the world to define us. I used to let my divorce define me.

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I used to think years ago that my abuse defined me, but it doesn't, and it never did, and it

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doesn't define you either. Your mistakes and even the mistakes of other people have committed unto

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you the things they've done to harm you. That is all under the blood of Jesus Christ. If you

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give your life to Jesus Christ and you live for Him, it's all under the blood. Isaiah 1 18 and 19

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says, though your skin, though your sins, excuse me, are like scarlet, I will make them white as snow.

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Though they are red like crimson, I will make them white as wool. If you only obey me, you will

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have plenty to eat.

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So, I just want to encourage you tonight, whatever you came in with, whatever you've

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been struggling with, it could be a lot of people, it could be one person, but it's worth

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it for the one.

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If it's only one person, it's worth it in my heart, and I know in the heart of the Father,

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so I wanted just to take a few minutes to say it tonight.

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Your sins can be removed as far as the east is from the west, just like mine were, just

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like a lot of people's are, but again, it's coming into agreement and alignment with the

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truth of heaven over you tonight.

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So we're going to make a shift, we're going to start talking a little bit about the actual

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content I prepared earlier today, and we're going to talk about Candice.

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Some of you have already heard the story of Candice in the videos, some of you will hear

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them in the days and weeks to come, but there's a story that Jackie shares about Candice and

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how God was speaking to her about Candice and putting Candice on her heart and basically

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telling her that Candice was going to be somewhere and that she needed healing.

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And so God was speaking to me a lot about this story, Candice, and he said to tell you

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all that he cares about you personally.

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It's not just, oh, he's going to do for the group, he's going to do for the other ladies,

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he's going to do for Wendy, he's going to do for Aranya, I'm not sure if I just said

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that right, he's going to do for Nora, he's going to do for Mickey, he's going to do for

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He calls you by name, he knows you by name, and he wants you to know that he knows what

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you need, and he knows where you are, and he knows how to get you what you need as well.

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And that's what Jackie talks about in this story and in the book as you guys begin the

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journey through the heart work.

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of us don't actually believe that he cares.

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Because of the wounds of the past and the examples that you've been given by earthly

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fathers, earthly mothers, other people, even your own mistakes at times, and even things

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that you think God did to you that he did not do, it was actually the enemy doing it,

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but the enemy lied to you and you believed that God was the mean one, that God was the

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one that did those things to you.

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And he's saying that he cares about you more than you've ever known.

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And he wants you to know tonight that if you're struggling to believe that he cares about

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you, he understands, because he knows why.

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He knows the why behind our what, he knows why we do what we do when we do it, even when

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we don't know why we do it.

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Just like Paul, he's like, why do I do the things that I don't want to do?

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Even Paul wrestled with that.

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We're going to, why did I do that?

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Some of y'all, even as you're beginning the heart work, and some of you are four weeks,

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five weeks in, you can attest to this.

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Sometimes you're going to have stuff bubble up to the surface and you're like, why am

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I so angry all of a sudden?

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I was fine last week, but now I've started heart work and now I'm going zero to 180 in

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It's because you're starting to lean into the heart work and stuff's getting stirred

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up in there that has been long simmering underneath the surface.

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It's been down under there and you've just been surviving and existing, but it's like

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a volcano eruption when something triggers that thing, but it won't last forever.

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I'm here to tell you, it won't last forever.

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The pain that you're going to feel, you are, some of you guys are going to feel pain.

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Some of you will feel it more than others.

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Some of you will be like, I'm not feeling any of the stuff that people are talking about,

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and that has a lot to do with numbing.

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If you learned as a child at a very young age, how to numb to it, to survive in the

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world that you grew up in, it might take you a little bit more time to feel some stuff

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and that's okay.

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There's nothing wrong with you.

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Okay, I want you to hear that.

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There's nothing wrong with you.

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God will help you in your process as you continue to surrender it to him.

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And Jackie will even say, if you get a certain way into the program, if you're still not

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feeling anything, don't panic, but this might happen for some of you.

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We'll encourage you to go back and start at the beginning because you might need a little

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bit more time to kind of process some of that stuff and unpack it with the Lord.

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So the father wants you to know that he cares about you to the point that he wants us to

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just talk about some of the misunderstandings about who he is because of what you've been

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through in the past.

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Some of you have been let down.

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parents or grandparents or spouses, I don't know who it was, but that was not God's heart for you.

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Some of you were beaten down by words, but that's, there's no, in my world

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and in God's world, abuse is abuse you all. Okay. And that is not the Father's heart for you.

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It never was. And it broke his heart as you were breaking.

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So I've done this before, but I felt led to do this again tonight. Again,

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we have some new people, but God was talking to me again about this.

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So if y'all, these are just regular sunglasses, but one of the things I want you to understand

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is that what you've been through, especially when there's trauma, when you believe a lie

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at the root core of that trauma, these lenses, let's pretend I'm going to call these my betrayal

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lenses, because I went through a lot of betrayal. My dad left my mom, cheated on my mom.

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And then that same things happened in my marriage before then. Then the next guy I met,

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he did the same thing as well. And so there's lots and lots of betrayal. So let's just, I'm going to

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pretend my lens and filter that I see the world through all the time. If I'm not healed, right?

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This is, I'm talking about my old broken heart. Praise God. I'm healed a lot from all that,

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but my old broken heart, I used to look at everything through betrayal and suspicion and,

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and that men leave and men cheat and men aren't reliable. And so I took that and carried that into

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every relationship, even with friends, friends, even I had friends, it was crazy. I had friends

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that betrayed me. I had men that betrayed me. So it was just like people betray me. I can't trust

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anybody. And that was internally the stuff I was aligning myself with you all, even long Christian.

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I wanted to trust, but deep down, I was like, I don't know, like you can only get in close to me.

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If you prove to me that I can trust you. And I'm not saying we should be unwise and give everybody

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our hearts, you all, but love is a risk. It is. And so in order to receive love, we have to be

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willing to let the walls down and let love in the love of the father, the love of other people.

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And so I want to ask you tonight, what are your lenses? What are the filters that you're looking

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at everybody as well as yourself through? Because some of you, all the lens that you're looking

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through, even at your own self, I'm not good enough. I had a lady tell me recently, she just

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went through a breakup and she just started playing old tapes. And she's like, well, if I

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couldn't even keep a man that had duct tape on his, on the bumper of his tail lights, then I

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can't get a good man. She believe in old tapes there. So what are your lenses? What are your

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old tapes? What are the filters and things that you process things through? And while you think

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about that, as we start to talk about God caring about you as well, because that's kind of where

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I want you to, I want you to aim it also. How are you looking at God? And what is the lens that you

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look at God through? Is it a lens of God takes away from me and he doesn't give to me. He blesses

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everybody else, but I'm left out. Is it that God is mean to me? He, all he does is yell at me and

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he's just angry at me all the time, because in your life, you got yelled at all the time by

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everybody that was in authority over you or mistreated. And so now you look at God through

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that lens. There's a song called Sparrows. I'm going to share the link with you all at the end

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of the night, but I just want to read some of the lyrics of this song as I start to talk to

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you about the fact that God is not a man that he should lie. Do y'all know that God is not a liar?

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He's never been a liar. So if he says that he has created you with a good plan and a good purpose in

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mind, and if you believe that part of that is a spirit mate who is full of the fruits of the

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spirit, who's healthy and who can love you, then you have to hold on to that. I'm telling you why,

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because the enemy will come and try to steal that from you every step of the way. But if you hold

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fast and you'll allow God to heal you and work in your life, you can, just like me, step into the

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fullness of God's plans for your life, including your love story. And some of you all are about

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to have a revitalization project happening in your whole life. Seriously, you'll get new jobs,

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you'll make new friends, you'll get a new community. Some of you have

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been not in church for a long time

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because you got hurt by somebody at church

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and you left and you never went back.

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God's not a man that he should lie.

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He's loving and he's kind and he's inviting you

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tonight to come into truth.

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The Sparrow song lyrics I wanna read to you are this.

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It says, you take good care of me.

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You know what I need before I even ask a thing

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and you hold me in your hands with a kindness

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that never ends.

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I'm carried in your love no matter what the future brings.

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Yeah, you take good care of me.

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And you know, the person that's singing that, I believe,

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I know when I worship, sometimes I'm like,

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okay, Lord, I need help believing this.

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And then there's other times that I'm like,

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singing a love song to my Jesus.

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I just like love him and sing into him

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and I believe everything I'm saying with everything in me.

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And I believe that's how this song was created

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and is being sung by Corey Asbury.

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He really believes just like the Sparrow

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who doesn't have to strive for what they need.

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Have you ever seen a bird?

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I've never seen a bird strive, I don't think.

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They soar, they flutter, they come and get their stuff

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and they go back.

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And maybe it's hard for them, the babies,

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when they get kicked out of the nest.

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I think there's a word in that for us

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that God wants you to know.

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I'm not saying you don't have to do your part.

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Just like Jackie says, we do the work

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and then God does the supernatural.

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So you're showing up, you're doing the hard work

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and God will meet you as you go.

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So some of you are here and you're asking yourself,

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okay, is this really gonna be any different?

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What's different about this?

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Like, why is this gonna make any difference?

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I've tried to meet people for 13 years

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and nothing's happened.

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I've done healing ministry things, all of the things.

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Y'all, I did a lot of healing work

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before I came into this community

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and it was all beneficial.

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It was all worth it, nothing is wasted.

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I encouraged someone in the group this week

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who felt like they wasted money on college

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because they're not doing that career right now.

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I really wanna encourage you all,

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please do not partner with lies like that.

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No matter what your situation is financially,

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you are your best investment.

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Are you worthy of that investment?

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You're worth that money, you're worth that investment

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and God will use all of that for good.

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So here's where I think this time is different for you.

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Ecclesiastes says in 3.1 in the message version,

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there's an opportune time to do things,

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a right time for everything on the earth.

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We believe in this community that every single person

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when you come in, it is by God's divine design and timing.

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I believe 100%, I've seen it for years.

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I've been with this group and this community

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for several years and I can tell you

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that the timing of everyone has been just really beautiful.

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So trust God's timing in your life.

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Heart change equals life change.

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So if you wanna life change, really lean in

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and receive the heart change that God wants to give you.

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All the real and lasting change

454
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also has a process with it you all.

455
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A lot of us, we grow up, well, I know for myself,

456
00:28:48.560 --> 00:28:51.720
I've grown up in the microwave culture

457
00:28:51.720 --> 00:28:54.640
and the instant coffee and it's just getting quicker

458
00:28:54.640 --> 00:28:55.960
and quicker and quicker.

459
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And so we want everything to be super quick.

460
00:28:59.600 --> 00:29:00.760
We don't wanna have to work for it.

461
00:29:00.760 --> 00:29:03.160
We just want it done and we wanna move on.

462
00:29:03.160 --> 00:29:05.800
And for some, it might look like that, okay?

463
00:29:05.800 --> 00:29:08.400
Just know, some people, because you don't know

464
00:29:08.400 --> 00:29:10.960
what people have done before they got here, you all.

465
00:29:11.000 --> 00:29:13.880
So let's just not compare ourselves to each other

466
00:29:13.880 --> 00:29:16.200
and let's just trust our process.

467
00:29:18.160 --> 00:29:20.840
So if you came in and you just want it to be speedy,

468
00:29:20.840 --> 00:29:24.440
I'm gonna encourage you, it can be accelerated,

469
00:29:24.440 --> 00:29:26.880
but trust God's process and timing.

470
00:29:26.880 --> 00:29:30.480
We're not here to, we don't want you just to pretend

471
00:29:30.480 --> 00:29:34.120
and behave really well and be in your good behavior

472
00:29:34.120 --> 00:29:37.600
and then walk away and never have heart change.

473
00:29:37.600 --> 00:29:38.800
So that's what I'm talking about.

474
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Heart change is gonna equal that life change.

475
00:29:41.680 --> 00:29:45.920
If you are struggling in some area with sin on any level,

476
00:29:45.920 --> 00:29:48.720
I would much rather you tell us in the community

477
00:29:48.720 --> 00:29:50.360
and let us help you.

478
00:29:50.360 --> 00:29:51.680
Let us coach you.

479
00:29:51.680 --> 00:29:54.960
Some of you all, God's gonna nudge you to confess some stuff

480
00:29:54.960 --> 00:29:57.880
and when you get into certain weeks of our program

481
00:29:57.880 --> 00:30:00.080
that you're like, oh my God, I don't wanna.

482
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:05.120
tell them that I don't even know some of these people and you're going to try to DM me or my

483
00:30:05.120 --> 00:30:10.080
team privately and I'm just going to tell you, you all, we don't, we can't respond to you directly.

484
00:30:11.600 --> 00:30:17.680
Part of that is because we've set this group up in this community up to coach you in community.

485
00:30:18.960 --> 00:30:24.480
Coming out of hiding and confessing in a safe place that we've created is going to set some

486
00:30:24.480 --> 00:30:29.760
of you free radically. And that's what you need. And it's just, you just didn't know that's what

487
00:30:29.760 --> 00:30:34.560
you need, but when you get there, you'll know. All right. So we're going to do the first breakout

488
00:30:34.560 --> 00:30:42.080
session. As I was talking earlier about God caring about you, I just want to ask you right now, just

489
00:30:42.080 --> 00:30:47.040
to start, I'm going to pray for you before we go on the breakout, but I just want you to be open

490
00:30:47.040 --> 00:30:55.520
to asking God to reveal to you personally, what is the area in your life that you struggle to

491
00:30:55.520 --> 00:31:01.280
believe that God cares about you? What's the memory? Father, I'm just going to pray right

492
00:31:01.280 --> 00:31:05.040
now. Father, right now, I just pray that you would help every lady that's here on the live session,

493
00:31:05.040 --> 00:31:10.320
as well as those that would watch the replay, that memories would just start to surface,

494
00:31:10.320 --> 00:31:13.840
come up out of their spirit. Anything that's in darkness would be brought to the light so

495
00:31:13.840 --> 00:31:18.880
that healing can happen where they have believed the lie that you don't care about them.

496
00:31:19.520 --> 00:31:24.240
Lord, whatever needs to be talked about tonight so that they can be set free. We just thank you,

497
00:31:24.240 --> 00:31:29.120
Lord, for revealing these things. We thank you that you love us enough to not leave us the way

498
00:31:29.120 --> 00:31:36.720
that we came in the door tonight in Jesus name. Amen. So if you had something come up, a memory,

499
00:31:36.720 --> 00:31:40.320
I encourage you to share that when you go in your breakout room. If you've never been here before,

500
00:31:40.320 --> 00:31:44.800
I don't want you to panic. You are going to be put in a breakout room with people that you may

501
00:31:44.800 --> 00:31:53.440
not know, but that's part of the trust process. Okay. So please don't log out when I do breakouts.

502
00:31:54.880 --> 00:31:59.120
I know some of y'all are laughing, but it really happens. People will log out. And I,

503
00:31:59.120 --> 00:32:05.440
and I want you to know, I have sympathy for, for you all who are very shy or nervous or you're

504
00:32:05.440 --> 00:32:09.840
battling shame or guilt or any of that kind of stuff. And I just want you to know that I,

505
00:32:10.560 --> 00:32:15.440
I know that you've just met me, some of y'all, but I sincerely want to say to you,

506
00:32:15.440 --> 00:32:18.560
you can trust what I'm telling you, that this is a safe environment.

507
00:32:20.720 --> 00:32:26.160
God's doing something really remarkable in this community. And I have never had a problem,

508
00:32:26.160 --> 00:32:30.640
praise Jesus in any of the things that I've led with breakout sessions or our group.

509
00:32:31.200 --> 00:32:34.560
Okay. So when you go in, you're going to share with each other,

510
00:32:35.600 --> 00:32:39.200
what, where's an area that you're struggling to believe that God cares about you? Is there

511
00:32:39.200 --> 00:32:44.000
a memory that came up or is there just something else that's come into mind that you want to share

512
00:32:44.000 --> 00:32:48.960
on that topic? I'm going to give you all eight minutes. So if you have extra time,

513
00:32:49.840 --> 00:32:53.600
you can go ahead and talk about just where you're from, get to know each other a little bit,

514
00:32:53.600 --> 00:32:59.120
but talk about what the question is first, short, brief and powerful when you're in the group.

515
00:32:59.120 --> 00:33:04.960
So please don't have one or two people dominating the conversation, invite each other to

516
00:33:04.960 --> 00:33:11.120
participate and share. And my, my ladies that are super shy, I'm going to really ask you to ask God

517
00:33:11.120 --> 00:33:17.360
to give you courage to talk and share. I know it's hard for some of you, but you can do it. I know

518
00:33:17.360 --> 00:33:23.680
you can. All right. I'm excited for y'all. It's going to be really good. Go ahead and accept

519
00:33:23.680 --> 00:33:28.880
those. Those invites are there for you. If you're going in the groups, remember some people

520
00:33:28.880 --> 00:33:32.480
internet is slow. So just wait for them to join you.

521
00:33:58.880 --> 00:34:20.320
All right. Almost ready ladies. Then I'll pray. Just had some people that weren't getting

522
00:34:20.320 --> 00:34:27.280
connected in here. Right. It's not letting me join. Oh, which group are you in?

523
00:34:29.199 --> 00:34:34.000
I'm in group six and I'm, I'm on a walk and I think the wifi is just not strong enough for me

524
00:34:34.000 --> 00:34:37.920
to make that connection. I pushed the button several times. So if you need someone else in

525
00:34:37.920 --> 00:34:41.040
there, I just want you to know, I'm not going to join it. I'll just stick with you. Yeah,

526
00:34:41.040 --> 00:34:46.000
that's totally fine. You can stay here with us. Father, thank you so much for this night. We thank

527
00:34:46.000 --> 00:34:51.679
you Lord for revealing the areas in our hearts and our minds and our spirits and our souls,

528
00:34:51.679 --> 00:34:57.360
where we are struggling to believe that you care about us. God, that you have an intimate

529
00:34:57.360 --> 00:35:00.000
involvement in our lives. We thank you.

530
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.720
Lord, that you're redeeming our storylines

531
00:35:04.720 --> 00:35:07.460
and you're going in and throughout all of our lives

532
00:35:07.460 --> 00:35:08.720
and you're tracking with us.

533
00:35:08.720 --> 00:35:10.960
You've been tracking with us all along.

534
00:35:10.960 --> 00:35:12.920
I thank you, Lord, that you would just continue

535
00:35:12.920 --> 00:35:17.280
to just bring all those things to the surface

536
00:35:17.280 --> 00:35:20.000
that need to be touched by your grace, by your goodness.

537
00:35:20.000 --> 00:35:22.880
We place the balm of Gilead upon the hearts, the minds,

538
00:35:22.880 --> 00:35:25.240
the spirits, the bodies, and the souls.

539
00:35:25.240 --> 00:35:28.240
And we thank you for the healing balm of Gilead

540
00:35:28.320 --> 00:35:30.680
coming down from heaven and being placed upon

541
00:35:30.680 --> 00:35:34.040
the most tender, the most vulnerable places

542
00:35:34.040 --> 00:35:35.260
in our hearts and our lives.

543
00:35:35.260 --> 00:35:37.440
We thank you, God, for redemption stories

544
00:35:37.440 --> 00:35:38.740
coming forth from tonight.

545
00:35:38.740 --> 00:35:40.260
We thank you for healing.

546
00:35:42.200 --> 00:35:43.480
We thank you, Lord.

547
00:35:43.480 --> 00:35:45.080
Yes, Lord.

548
00:35:45.080 --> 00:35:47.480
Yes, Lord, we thank you for...

549
00:35:50.200 --> 00:35:55.200
I just keep seeing like a gap being bridged by the Father.

550
00:35:56.080 --> 00:35:59.480
And that gap isn't just in our hearts and our lives,

551
00:35:59.480 --> 00:36:00.600
but it's between families.

552
00:36:00.600 --> 00:36:02.440
So we just thank you for reconciliation

553
00:36:02.440 --> 00:36:04.120
and healing in families.

554
00:36:04.120 --> 00:36:06.520
We thank you, God, for finding and breaking

555
00:36:06.520 --> 00:36:07.800
in the name of Jesus Christ

556
00:36:07.800 --> 00:36:09.600
and by the power of the blood of Jesus Christ,

557
00:36:09.600 --> 00:36:12.660
every spirit of bitterness and unforgiveness,

558
00:36:12.660 --> 00:36:16.400
any spirits of resentment, any spirits of stubbornness,

559
00:36:16.400 --> 00:36:20.240
wrath, malice, we thank you for, in Jesus' name,

560
00:36:20.240 --> 00:36:23.040
releasing a spirit of love and of power

561
00:36:23.040 --> 00:36:24.920
and of a sound mind, a spirit of forgiveness,

562
00:36:25.640 --> 00:36:27.760
a spirit of reconciliation and peace.

563
00:36:27.760 --> 00:36:30.760
We thank you, Lord, that you are coming in

564
00:36:30.760 --> 00:36:33.680
and you're teaching us all the truth

565
00:36:33.680 --> 00:36:34.520
that you wanna give us.

566
00:36:34.520 --> 00:36:36.400
Hi, Jennifer, I just saw that you just joined us.

567
00:36:36.400 --> 00:36:37.800
I'm gonna go ahead and put you in a breakout.

568
00:36:37.800 --> 00:36:42.360
We are talking about areas that we struggle to believe

569
00:36:42.360 --> 00:36:44.280
that God cares about us.

570
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So I'm gonna put you in a room

571
00:36:45.560 --> 00:36:47.800
and you can go ahead and accept that now.

572
00:36:51.840 --> 00:36:52.840
There you go.

573
00:36:52.840 --> 00:36:54.120
And Lord, we just thank you

574
00:36:54.120 --> 00:36:59.120
that you continue to meet us as we go.

575
00:36:59.760 --> 00:37:01.960
Just like the two men on the road to Emmaus,

576
00:37:01.960 --> 00:37:06.880
they were going and they didn't understand what had happened

577
00:37:06.880 --> 00:37:10.040
and why things happened to Jesus the way they did.

578
00:37:10.040 --> 00:37:11.920
And Jesus even met them on the road

579
00:37:11.920 --> 00:37:13.480
and their hearts were burning within them,

580
00:37:13.480 --> 00:37:16.000
but they didn't recognize him in that moment,

581
00:37:16.000 --> 00:37:17.640
but he was there.

582
00:37:17.640 --> 00:37:20.180
So Lord, we just thank you that you would remind us

583
00:37:20.180 --> 00:37:23.660
of the times in our lives that you were there all along,

584
00:37:23.660 --> 00:37:25.740
that you were with us, that you were walking with us,

585
00:37:25.740 --> 00:37:28.620
you were ministering to us, you were protecting us,

586
00:37:28.620 --> 00:37:30.020
but the enemy lied to us

587
00:37:30.020 --> 00:37:33.020
and he caused us to believe that you weren't there,

588
00:37:33.020 --> 00:37:35.580
that you left us, that you forsook us,

589
00:37:35.580 --> 00:37:36.980
but that is not who you are.

590
00:37:36.980 --> 00:37:39.660
So Lord, we just thank you for the reminder

591
00:37:39.660 --> 00:37:42.180
that you're good, that you're a good father

592
00:37:42.180 --> 00:37:44.700
who gives good gifts to your children

593
00:37:44.700 --> 00:37:47.620
and that you're continuing to work all things together

594
00:37:47.620 --> 00:37:49.140
for good in our lives.

595
00:37:50.220 --> 00:37:52.300
That you hedge us in with your protection.

596
00:37:52.300 --> 00:37:53.940
We thank you that you also hide us

597
00:37:53.940 --> 00:37:55.380
under the shadow of your wings

598
00:37:55.380 --> 00:37:57.800
and in the presence of the almighty.

599
00:37:59.140 --> 00:38:00.860
When the enemy comes in like a flood,

600
00:38:00.860 --> 00:38:03.800
we know that you father raise up a standard against him,

601
00:38:03.800 --> 00:38:06.020
that we don't have to be afraid of the enemy.

602
00:38:06.020 --> 00:38:08.880
We don't have to be afraid of the terror that comes.

603
00:38:08.880 --> 00:38:12.460
I think it says by night or the arrow that flies by day.

604
00:38:12.460 --> 00:38:15.660
We thank you God that you give us the armor

605
00:38:15.660 --> 00:38:17.540
that we can put on every single day

606
00:38:17.580 --> 00:38:22.340
to be protected by your presence, by your power.

607
00:38:22.340 --> 00:38:23.900
We thank you that the same power

608
00:38:23.900 --> 00:38:25.700
that rose Jesus Christ from the dead

609
00:38:25.700 --> 00:38:29.580
is also living in us and operating through us

610
00:38:29.580 --> 00:38:31.980
for all those who have accepted Jesus Christ

611
00:38:31.980 --> 00:38:32.940
as our Lord and savior.

612
00:38:32.940 --> 00:38:35.100
And we thank you that we can partner

613
00:38:35.100 --> 00:38:38.260
with that power every single day.

614
00:38:38.260 --> 00:38:41.300
And that that power, we can receive that

615
00:38:41.300 --> 00:38:43.980
to be empowered to even do our heart work.

616
00:38:45.100 --> 00:38:46.620
Yes, that's a good truth.

617
00:38:46.620 --> 00:38:48.500
That even in our heart work process

618
00:38:48.500 --> 00:38:52.160
and our healing processes, we don't have to do it alone.

619
00:38:52.160 --> 00:38:55.480
We can ask for the Lord's help at all times.

620
00:38:56.660 --> 00:39:00.260
And Lord, I just thank you even right now tonight

621
00:39:00.260 --> 00:39:05.260
that you in your word declare in Psalm 139, 23 through 24.

622
00:39:06.540 --> 00:39:08.700
I always love to read this one during heart work sessions

623
00:39:08.700 --> 00:39:09.740
because it's so good.

624
00:39:09.740 --> 00:39:12.140
This is from the passion translation.

625
00:39:12.140 --> 00:39:14.100
God, I invite, excuse me,

626
00:39:14.100 --> 00:39:16.180
you're searching gaze into my heart.

627
00:39:16.700 --> 00:39:17.860
Examine me through and through.

628
00:39:17.860 --> 00:39:20.740
Find out everything that may be hidden within me.

629
00:39:20.740 --> 00:39:25.460
Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares.

630
00:39:25.460 --> 00:39:27.620
See if there's any path of pain I'm walking on

631
00:39:27.620 --> 00:39:30.720
and lead me back to your glorious ways.

632
00:39:30.720 --> 00:39:34.440
The path that brings me back to you.

633
00:39:34.440 --> 00:39:36.140
Lord, I thank you that you would help us

634
00:39:36.140 --> 00:39:38.540
to return to our first love.

635
00:39:38.540 --> 00:39:41.600
I thank you that you are calling out to our hearts

636
00:39:41.600 --> 00:39:44.500
and our minds and our spirits, our bodies and our souls.

637
00:39:45.340 --> 00:39:48.700
And you're leading us into places of repentance

638
00:39:48.700 --> 00:39:50.240
through your loving kindness.

639
00:39:51.300 --> 00:39:54.380
Your grace and your mercy is new every morning.

640
00:39:55.620 --> 00:39:59.260
And I thank you that we can trust you to,

641
00:39:59.260 --> 00:40:00.100
as I read that.

642
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.460
Scripture earlier tonight, make us white as snow.

643
00:40:04.120 --> 00:40:07.360
That even when we fall short in one way or another, God,

644
00:40:07.360 --> 00:40:10.120
that you cover all of our weaknesses.

645
00:40:10.120 --> 00:40:12.800
And I thank you that we can turn to you in our weakness

646
00:40:12.800 --> 00:40:14.400
and that you make us strong.

647
00:40:15.720 --> 00:40:17.600
I thank you that we can rely on you,

648
00:40:17.600 --> 00:40:21.640
even though we might not have been able to rely on people

649
00:40:21.640 --> 00:40:23.880
in the past or people in the world even today.

650
00:40:23.880 --> 00:40:27.560
God, I thank you that we can always rely on you.

651
00:40:27.560 --> 00:40:29.560
And I pray that you would help any person

652
00:40:30.200 --> 00:40:32.200
that hears me even pray that, that doesn't believe that,

653
00:40:32.200 --> 00:40:35.280
that doesn't know that yet.

654
00:40:35.280 --> 00:40:37.400
God, that you would make that a reality in their lives,

655
00:40:37.400 --> 00:40:41.220
that they would continue to know you more and more

656
00:40:42.500 --> 00:40:45.280
as a God of love, as a God of restoration,

657
00:40:45.280 --> 00:40:49.280
as that God of joy, peace, kindness, goodness,

658
00:40:49.280 --> 00:40:52.080
faithfulness, forbearance, gentleness.

659
00:40:52.080 --> 00:40:54.360
God, that you would also help us to know

660
00:40:54.360 --> 00:40:57.280
how we can tap into all the fruits of the spirit

661
00:40:57.280 --> 00:41:00.040
and be able to walk in self-control as well.

662
00:41:00.040 --> 00:41:03.880
I thank you that even the temptations that we face

663
00:41:03.880 --> 00:41:07.320
in this world, that you can help us to overcome them.

664
00:41:07.320 --> 00:41:09.400
And I thank you, God, that we don't do,

665
00:41:09.400 --> 00:41:11.360
as I said earlier, anything alone.

666
00:41:11.360 --> 00:41:13.480
I thank you that you're meeting us every step of the way.

667
00:41:13.480 --> 00:41:14.480
Hi, Katie.

668
00:41:14.480 --> 00:41:16.560
They're about to come back from the first breakout session.

669
00:41:16.560 --> 00:41:19.280
So I'm just gonna leave you here with us.

670
00:41:19.280 --> 00:41:22.520
So glad that you're here with us tonight.

671
00:41:22.520 --> 00:41:24.280
All right, here we go.

672
00:41:28.120 --> 00:41:31.160
We'll be back with us here in like 50 seconds.

673
00:41:35.520 --> 00:41:36.680
Hello, hello.

674
00:41:40.320 --> 00:41:41.720
Good to see you all.

675
00:41:44.320 --> 00:41:46.680
Ms. Lorraine, I can tell a difference about you.

676
00:41:46.680 --> 00:41:48.280
I don't know if you see it in yourself,

677
00:41:48.280 --> 00:41:50.800
but I see a lightness in you.

678
00:41:50.800 --> 00:41:52.960
I see it happening.

679
00:41:52.960 --> 00:41:55.120
Yeah, I do, yes.

680
00:41:55.560 --> 00:41:56.800
A lightness in your face,

681
00:41:56.800 --> 00:42:00.680
your countenance is changing, sweetie, every week.

682
00:42:00.680 --> 00:42:01.800
Oh, that's so good.

683
00:42:01.800 --> 00:42:02.640
Oh, wow.

684
00:42:02.640 --> 00:42:05.640
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yep.

685
00:42:05.640 --> 00:42:07.200
Thanks for telling me that.

686
00:42:07.200 --> 00:42:08.600
You're welcome.

687
00:42:08.600 --> 00:42:11.360
I, you know, we used to hear the pastors say,

688
00:42:11.360 --> 00:42:13.760
if you're happy, tell your face that.

689
00:42:13.760 --> 00:42:16.880
So I'm trying to practice that now.

690
00:42:16.880 --> 00:42:20.160
Yes, well, and the great thing about it, you all,

691
00:42:20.160 --> 00:42:24.640
is when we heal on the inside, it happens soon.

692
00:42:25.080 --> 00:42:27.320
It happens super naturally on the outside.

693
00:42:27.320 --> 00:42:28.520
It does.

694
00:42:28.520 --> 00:42:31.320
You guys will have people, as you go through this process,

695
00:42:31.320 --> 00:42:34.200
you're gonna have people that will start asking you like,

696
00:42:34.200 --> 00:42:35.200
what's going on with you?

697
00:42:35.200 --> 00:42:36.680
Like, you're like glowing,

698
00:42:36.680 --> 00:42:38.680
and they'll start just saying stuff to you.

699
00:42:38.680 --> 00:42:39.960
You'll be amazed.

700
00:42:39.960 --> 00:42:41.000
All right, welcome back.

701
00:42:41.000 --> 00:42:42.520
We have everyone back.

702
00:42:42.520 --> 00:42:43.760
It's good to have you.

703
00:42:43.760 --> 00:42:46.240
So for those joining us for the first time,

704
00:42:47.200 --> 00:42:48.160
this is how it goes.

705
00:42:48.160 --> 00:42:49.880
When we come back from breakout session,

706
00:42:49.880 --> 00:42:53.960
I ask people that are willing to share with the whole group

707
00:42:53.960 --> 00:42:56.480
what you shared with the private group.

708
00:42:56.480 --> 00:42:59.000
So do we have anyone that is willing to share

709
00:42:59.000 --> 00:43:00.320
with the whole group what you shared

710
00:43:00.320 --> 00:43:03.240
in your private breakout about the areas that you struggle

711
00:43:03.240 --> 00:43:06.880
to believe that God, excuse me, cares about you?

712
00:43:06.880 --> 00:43:09.760
And it normally takes one or two, and then we get rolling.

713
00:43:09.760 --> 00:43:12.520
So whoever is willing.

714
00:43:12.520 --> 00:43:13.600
I'll go.

715
00:43:13.600 --> 00:43:14.720
Awesome, great.

716
00:43:14.720 --> 00:43:15.720
Let's see, Rachel.

717
00:43:15.720 --> 00:43:17.080
Awesome, go ahead.

718
00:43:17.080 --> 00:43:19.400
Oh, me, Regina, or Rachel?

719
00:43:19.400 --> 00:43:20.600
Oh, so sorry.

720
00:43:20.600 --> 00:43:23.600
I saw Rachel unmuted, but that was Regina.

721
00:43:24.240 --> 00:43:25.160
Okay, Regina, go ahead.

722
00:43:27.160 --> 00:43:31.080
Yeah, so in general, I feel like God cares about me

723
00:43:31.080 --> 00:43:34.040
and love me, but what happened last year

724
00:43:34.040 --> 00:43:35.440
really rocked my world.

725
00:43:35.440 --> 00:43:37.160
My dad passed away suddenly,

726
00:43:37.160 --> 00:43:40.320
and I just can't get over the fact that

727
00:43:40.320 --> 00:43:42.640
I feel like that's an area where God doesn't love me

728
00:43:42.640 --> 00:43:44.160
and care about me.

729
00:43:44.160 --> 00:43:48.200
And it's also making it very hard for me with the heart work.

730
00:43:49.440 --> 00:43:53.160
So yeah, I see that as a challenge for me.

731
00:43:53.640 --> 00:43:55.360
Thank you so much for sharing that.

732
00:43:57.000 --> 00:43:59.360
I want anybody that can relate to Regina.

733
00:43:59.360 --> 00:44:01.560
Has anyone else lost someone suddenly

734
00:44:01.560 --> 00:44:03.360
and you're just really having a hard time

735
00:44:03.360 --> 00:44:04.320
because of that belief?

736
00:44:04.320 --> 00:44:05.960
And you can put it in the chat

737
00:44:05.960 --> 00:44:07.160
or you can raise your digital hand.

738
00:44:07.160 --> 00:44:08.000
Anyone else?

739
00:44:08.000 --> 00:44:09.680
Or you can, yeah, you can just raise your hand

740
00:44:09.680 --> 00:44:10.840
so I can see you.

741
00:44:11.720 --> 00:44:12.960
All right.

742
00:44:12.960 --> 00:44:15.560
So I wanna talk about this briefly

743
00:44:15.560 --> 00:44:18.280
because I wanna have enough time for everybody to share.

744
00:44:18.280 --> 00:44:19.800
Okay, I see you all.

745
00:44:19.800 --> 00:44:20.640
I see you.

746
00:44:20.640 --> 00:44:22.280
Thank you for sharing.

747
00:44:22.560 --> 00:44:24.600
And if you don't want to share,

748
00:44:24.600 --> 00:44:25.920
if you don't wanna share with the whole group,

749
00:44:25.920 --> 00:44:28.760
you can put your hand down just so I know the difference.

750
00:44:30.280 --> 00:44:33.120
I said this to someone that has been battling physically,

751
00:44:33.120 --> 00:44:36.920
but it's also going to apply to this as well.

752
00:44:38.400 --> 00:44:41.800
The enemy is the one that brings death and disease.

753
00:44:42.920 --> 00:44:44.080
Okay?

754
00:44:44.080 --> 00:44:44.960
He is.

755
00:44:44.960 --> 00:44:47.000
It's not the father.

756
00:44:47.000 --> 00:44:48.480
And a lot of times people will say,

757
00:44:48.480 --> 00:44:50.280
but God could have saved them.

758
00:44:50.280 --> 00:44:51.440
God could have healed them.

759
00:44:51.440 --> 00:44:53.840
So why didn't he?

760
00:44:53.840 --> 00:44:55.040
Now, I'm not here to answer

761
00:44:55.040 --> 00:44:57.080
those philosophical questions tonight,

762
00:44:57.080 --> 00:45:00.080
but what I am here to say is that the enemy is.

763
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.800
the one that's bringing destruction and bringing death

764
00:45:02.800 --> 00:45:05.480
and bringing disease and discomfort

765
00:45:05.480 --> 00:45:09.200
and all the disc stuff that Jackie talks about.

766
00:45:09.200 --> 00:45:12.120
And so the enemy is the one that's trying

767
00:45:12.120 --> 00:45:13.560
to destroy our families.

768
00:45:13.560 --> 00:45:15.360
He's trying to destroy us.

769
00:45:15.360 --> 00:45:17.040
And so I would encourage you, Regina,

770
00:45:17.040 --> 00:45:21.340
as you're processing this, when your father passed away,

771
00:45:22.800 --> 00:45:24.120
a lot of times you all,

772
00:45:24.120 --> 00:45:27.600
it is that current situation we're struggling with

773
00:45:27.600 --> 00:45:30.120
and the lies that we started believing during that time.

774
00:45:30.120 --> 00:45:33.760
But what can happen is with the current trauma

775
00:45:33.760 --> 00:45:37.920
is actually linking to other trauma and lies we believed.

776
00:45:37.920 --> 00:45:40.000
And so it becomes more powerful

777
00:45:40.000 --> 00:45:42.680
and that's how strongholds get created.

778
00:45:42.680 --> 00:45:44.520
Y'all, the Bible talks about strongholds.

779
00:45:44.520 --> 00:45:46.920
This is kind of how it happens.

780
00:45:46.920 --> 00:45:50.120
We believe a lie back here when we're younger.

781
00:45:50.120 --> 00:45:51.680
And then when something else happens

782
00:45:51.680 --> 00:45:56.320
that has a similar feeling or a similar like thought

783
00:45:56.320 --> 00:46:00.400
or the enemy lies to us in a similar way and we believe it,

784
00:46:00.400 --> 00:46:02.400
then that gets fortified a little bit more.

785
00:46:02.400 --> 00:46:04.160
And then you go a little bit more

786
00:46:04.160 --> 00:46:05.640
and then the same kind of thing.

787
00:46:05.640 --> 00:46:09.800
And each time it becomes stronger and stronger.

788
00:46:09.800 --> 00:46:10.840
But guess what?

789
00:46:10.840 --> 00:46:13.800
Here's the great thing is God is able

790
00:46:13.800 --> 00:46:17.060
to break every stronghold, to break every chain.

791
00:46:17.060 --> 00:46:19.600
We sing about it in church on Sundays,

792
00:46:19.600 --> 00:46:22.980
but so many of us, we struggle to believe it

793
00:46:22.980 --> 00:46:24.880
or to experience it.

794
00:46:24.880 --> 00:46:27.320
And it's not your fault if you're struggling.

795
00:46:27.320 --> 00:46:29.200
I just wanna make that clear.

796
00:46:29.200 --> 00:46:30.680
A lot of times we struggle

797
00:46:30.680 --> 00:46:35.680
because we don't have the revelation that we need yet.

798
00:46:35.680 --> 00:46:37.680
But you're on the precipice, Regina.

799
00:46:37.680 --> 00:46:41.240
I think you're there to this point

800
00:46:41.240 --> 00:46:42.740
that you would share tonight

801
00:46:42.740 --> 00:46:45.320
because God is in the process of setting you free

802
00:46:45.320 --> 00:46:50.160
from that pain and the feeling that if he loved you,

803
00:46:50.160 --> 00:46:51.920
your dad wouldn't have died.

804
00:46:52.600 --> 00:46:55.600
Or whatever lies, you know, snuck in there.

805
00:46:55.600 --> 00:46:58.800
So I wanna ask you, Regina, when your dad passed away,

806
00:46:58.800 --> 00:47:01.880
in addition to the general, if you will,

807
00:47:01.880 --> 00:47:04.080
lie that God didn't care about you,

808
00:47:04.080 --> 00:47:06.560
what were some of the lies that you heard during that time?

809
00:47:06.560 --> 00:47:07.480
Do you recall?

810
00:47:11.520 --> 00:47:13.000
That I'm not a good daughter

811
00:47:14.000 --> 00:47:15.960
because I could have made more effort

812
00:47:15.960 --> 00:47:18.000
to communicate and see him.

813
00:47:18.000 --> 00:47:22.000
Because he died in our home country, Korea,

814
00:47:22.000 --> 00:47:22.840
where I was born.

815
00:47:25.600 --> 00:47:26.440
Okay.

816
00:47:26.440 --> 00:47:29.240
So as you continue to lean into this

817
00:47:29.240 --> 00:47:31.040
for healing with the Lord,

818
00:47:31.040 --> 00:47:33.960
I really want to encourage you to keep asking the Lord.

819
00:47:33.960 --> 00:47:35.120
Again, you're not digging.

820
00:47:35.120 --> 00:47:35.960
We never dig.

821
00:47:35.960 --> 00:47:37.120
We don't want you to dig.

822
00:47:38.120 --> 00:47:39.200
We want you to ask the Lord,

823
00:47:39.200 --> 00:47:41.520
is there any other lies that I believed

824
00:47:41.520 --> 00:47:43.760
or that I believe about myself?

825
00:47:43.760 --> 00:47:44.960
And then, you know,

826
00:47:45.240 --> 00:47:47.640
or that I believe about myself.

827
00:47:47.640 --> 00:47:50.720
And then as you start to see those,

828
00:47:50.720 --> 00:47:53.040
have I believed this lie before?

829
00:47:55.040 --> 00:47:56.520
Have I believed this lie before?

830
00:47:56.520 --> 00:47:59.280
And if so, what was the memory that was linked to?

831
00:48:00.400 --> 00:48:02.480
And this is how you'll start to connect the dots

832
00:48:02.480 --> 00:48:04.360
to get to the root.

833
00:48:04.360 --> 00:48:05.200
Okay.

834
00:48:06.440 --> 00:48:09.280
And you guys don't have to try to uncover the root yourself.

835
00:48:09.280 --> 00:48:11.200
You just trust the process.

836
00:48:11.200 --> 00:48:13.320
The Lord will reveal the root more and more.

837
00:48:13.720 --> 00:48:15.800
If there's a deeper root in time,

838
00:48:15.800 --> 00:48:16.800
he'll reveal that to you,

839
00:48:16.800 --> 00:48:18.600
but trust that he's gonna reveal to you

840
00:48:18.600 --> 00:48:21.480
what you need in this moment right now.

841
00:48:21.480 --> 00:48:23.560
And then when you're ready for that other thing,

842
00:48:23.560 --> 00:48:24.880
if there is something else,

843
00:48:24.880 --> 00:48:27.960
he will show that to you when it's time.

844
00:48:27.960 --> 00:48:29.080
So I encourage you to do that.

845
00:48:29.080 --> 00:48:30.840
And then the other side of this

846
00:48:30.840 --> 00:48:32.840
is we ask for the lies to be revealed,

847
00:48:32.840 --> 00:48:35.480
but then we also ask for what?

848
00:48:35.480 --> 00:48:37.760
For those of you that are further along in the process,

849
00:48:37.760 --> 00:48:39.760
what do we ask for as well?

850
00:48:39.760 --> 00:48:41.320
Replace it with the truth.

851
00:48:41.320 --> 00:48:42.600
That's right.

852
00:48:42.640 --> 00:48:45.920
We're asking God to reveal the truth to replace the lie

853
00:48:45.920 --> 00:48:49.120
because we can't just have the revelation of the lie.

854
00:48:49.120 --> 00:48:52.360
We have to have the truth to now cling onto

855
00:48:52.360 --> 00:48:55.000
to replace those lies.

856
00:48:55.000 --> 00:48:57.040
So I'm gonna encourage you to do that as well.

857
00:48:57.040 --> 00:49:00.360
Thank you, Regina, for being our first one to go tonight.

858
00:49:00.360 --> 00:49:01.560
Jennifer, go ahead.

859
00:49:04.760 --> 00:49:06.400
So I just kind of said,

860
00:49:07.240 --> 00:49:09.520
I kind of feel like finances,

861
00:49:09.560 --> 00:49:13.000
like, you know, being a single mom

862
00:49:13.000 --> 00:49:16.040
and, you know, I used to be like,

863
00:49:16.040 --> 00:49:18.400
I used to tithe and offer like all the time,

864
00:49:18.400 --> 00:49:20.920
every paycheck, you know, it was what I did.

865
00:49:20.920 --> 00:49:22.480
I was tithing and offering,

866
00:49:23.600 --> 00:49:26.640
but like, I never saw like the fruit from it.

867
00:49:26.640 --> 00:49:29.040
And so then it got to be discouraging, like,

868
00:49:29.040 --> 00:49:30.760
okay, God, where are you in my finances?

869
00:49:30.760 --> 00:49:34.000
Like, I want to be able to be blessed

870
00:49:34.000 --> 00:49:35.120
so I can be a blessing,

871
00:49:35.120 --> 00:49:37.520
but I can't even afford to take care of myself.

872
00:49:37.520 --> 00:49:40.560
So then it got to be where I couldn't tithe anymore

873
00:49:40.560 --> 00:49:43.440
because I need to be able to pay my bails.

874
00:49:43.440 --> 00:49:48.440
So that's kind of where I struggle right now.

875
00:49:49.000 --> 00:49:49.840
All right.

876
00:49:49.840 --> 00:49:52.040
So anyone else struggling with finances

877
00:49:52.040 --> 00:49:53.960
and you feel like you haven't seen the fruit,

878
00:49:53.960 --> 00:49:56.640
I really want to encourage you, if that's you,

879
00:49:56.640 --> 00:50:00.120
that you would begin to ask the Lord to also...

880
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.720
Um, what's coming up in my spirit is a lot of times, and again, you all, this is I'm

881
00:50:04.720 --> 00:50:09.280
heartwork coach. So this is just my brain automatically goes to where did this start?

882
00:50:09.280 --> 00:50:14.880
Again, it's, it's the current situation. But what came up in my spirit is I went to say that to you,

883
00:50:14.880 --> 00:50:21.440
Jennifer, and anybody else that's in this place is when you were younger, did you see your parents

884
00:50:21.440 --> 00:50:27.840
struggling with money and making comments about how God wasn't coming through for them. And that

885
00:50:27.840 --> 00:50:32.560
may not be the case for you, Jennifer, or whoever, but I just want to put that out there because it

886
00:50:32.560 --> 00:50:37.920
came up in my spirit that some of us are having tapes that are playing in our minds right now,

887
00:50:39.040 --> 00:50:46.720
because we heard it growing up. And that planted those seeds that now because we're in pain,

888
00:50:46.720 --> 00:50:52.880
or we're going through some kind of trial, the enemy, the enemy's like, aha, see, I told you,

889
00:50:53.840 --> 00:51:00.080
I told you that God wouldn't come through for you. So again, I'm just going with the Holy Spirit and

890
00:51:00.080 --> 00:51:05.040
what he's putting up there. But that's, that's kind of how he'll work. He'll try to come in and

891
00:51:05.040 --> 00:51:11.680
prove to you something he's been telling you all along. So if that applies, I want to encourage

892
00:51:11.680 --> 00:51:15.840
you to lean into that and ask him where did that start? Where did that start? If it is that just

893
00:51:15.840 --> 00:51:20.240
that current situation, ask him when's the first time in the current situation where you felt like,

894
00:51:20.240 --> 00:51:25.120
you know what, God, like I'm giving you my money. I'm doing, I'm obeying you. And you're just not

895
00:51:25.120 --> 00:51:32.240
showing up for me. And is it that he's not showing up is in the way that we want, but maybe he was

896
00:51:32.240 --> 00:51:37.600
showing up in other ways because y'all he's not a slot machine. Right. And we know this and I'm not,

897
00:51:37.600 --> 00:51:42.400
I'm not giving Jennifer a hard time. I'm speaking to myself, even my, I had trouble with that in

898
00:51:42.400 --> 00:51:46.640
the past. Like, it just felt like, man, God, I'm giving you everything. I'm doing everything right.

899
00:51:46.640 --> 00:51:54.720
I'm following all the rules. Check, check, check. But where are you God? I'm being really real with

900
00:51:54.720 --> 00:52:01.360
you all. But I thought those kinds of things he'll come through for you. He will, but sometimes he

901
00:52:01.360 --> 00:52:06.800
comes through in other ways. And it doesn't mean he won't show up in the finances too. Sometimes

902
00:52:06.800 --> 00:52:12.480
it's our heart change that needs to happen. First. I started having massive breakthrough in my finances

903
00:52:12.480 --> 00:52:17.680
as my heart continued to heal. I had to break through from a lot break free from a lot of

904
00:52:17.680 --> 00:52:22.320
orphan mentalities, limiting mindsets and poverty belief systems that I was living in.

905
00:52:23.360 --> 00:52:27.200
So I had to begin to partner with truth in the way that I even thought about money.

906
00:52:29.600 --> 00:52:35.680
And some of you, that'll be the story for you too. All right. Very good. Jennifer. Great job, Holly.

907
00:52:35.680 --> 00:52:45.680
Go ahead. Okay. I'm praying for courage. I'm new, but I'm very grateful to be here. I shared this

908
00:52:45.680 --> 00:52:51.840
in the breakout group and there seemed to be a theme. I thought that I heard from the Lord

909
00:52:51.840 --> 00:52:58.240
about my spirit mate when I, who my spirit mate was in my late twenties. He was a single pastor

910
00:52:58.240 --> 00:53:03.520
at our church. And there was a two year period where he showed a lot of attention, but never

911
00:53:03.520 --> 00:53:09.680
formally pursued. My spiritual father spoke to me about it. His spiritual father spoke to me about

912
00:53:09.680 --> 00:53:15.600
it. And in the end, nothing happened. And I see how God was protecting me because he was struggling

913
00:53:15.600 --> 00:53:21.280
with some stuff, but it, and I went through a lot of healing at another church for inner healing,

914
00:53:21.920 --> 00:53:27.520
but, and God spoke to me about the reasoning of why it did not come to pass. But I have

915
00:53:27.520 --> 00:53:34.400
struggled since then to believe the voice of God in this area of my life. And lots of questions

916
00:53:34.400 --> 00:53:42.160
about what was that? Yes. Holly, I can relate to you in a different way. I believed I was hearing

917
00:53:42.160 --> 00:53:48.960
from God and I led myself right into a really, really bad relationship. Y'all will hear me talk

918
00:53:48.960 --> 00:53:52.880
about my spiritual daughters. Those of you that have been here for several weeks have heard me

919
00:53:52.880 --> 00:54:01.200
talk about them. I dated their dad for six years and for probably all six, he was cheating on me.

920
00:54:01.920 --> 00:54:08.880
Started finding out about six months in, and I just kept hanging on. What? Why did I do that?

921
00:54:10.080 --> 00:54:14.320
I thought I heard God and I thought he was going to be the person he said he was going to be in

922
00:54:14.320 --> 00:54:21.200
those first few months. And it never returned. He really was not that person. So sometimes it

923
00:54:21.200 --> 00:54:30.000
is tough when we hear something and we think it's God and then it's not.

924
00:54:30.960 --> 00:54:35.920
And so what I want to encourage you all, if that is you, you're going to learn a lot in this program

925
00:54:35.920 --> 00:54:41.760
about counterfeit identities and the filters. Even earlier, I was talking about the lens and the

926
00:54:41.760 --> 00:54:49.040
filters. Some of us have these lenses and filters that are people-pleasing and we're big givers

927
00:54:49.040 --> 00:54:54.160
and we just give and give and give, even when we're recognizing red flags. Cause see the thing

928
00:54:54.160 --> 00:54:59.200
for me, and this might not be the case for you, Holly, but I was seeing red flags with that guy

929
00:54:59.200 --> 00:54:59.840
really, really.

930
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:08.640
quick. I mean, so quick, but I, I believed the lies that he was dropping. And here's the thing.

931
00:55:08.640 --> 00:55:14.800
I gave him so much bait on the first phone call that he knew exactly what to you. The enemy knew

932
00:55:14.800 --> 00:55:21.040
what to use through that person to just draw me right in. And it was through his daughters. And

933
00:55:21.040 --> 00:55:27.760
then I had the hardest time letting go because of loss in the past with kids. It was a two-year

934
00:55:27.760 --> 00:55:33.360
process. Yeah. And it can be tough. And we never went on a date. We never even went on a date. He

935
00:55:33.360 --> 00:55:40.400
just chased me around the church to see if I had a ring finger. And some of that, and this is the

936
00:55:40.400 --> 00:55:46.080
thing, it's all about our heart that gets caught up in it. But the thing that I want to emphasize

937
00:55:46.080 --> 00:55:54.880
the most is that I question my ability to hear from God after that too. But y'all, I hear from

938
00:55:54.880 --> 00:56:01.600
the Lord all the time. And the more I heal, the more clearly I hear from him. So I want to

939
00:56:01.600 --> 00:56:06.720
encourage you, if you're in that place where you're questioning your ability to hear, here's,

940
00:56:06.720 --> 00:56:14.480
here's some key healing, community, and does it align with the word of God? Those are three super

941
00:56:14.480 --> 00:56:21.440
important things you all. And so that's where we can, if we, if we go to community and we're saying,

942
00:56:21.440 --> 00:56:27.280
hey, this is the situation. And they're all like, no, no, danger, danger. And we just keep going.

943
00:56:28.400 --> 00:56:32.800
Well, that's not good. Right? So that's why it's amazing for y'all to be here in community,

944
00:56:32.800 --> 00:56:36.560
because we're going to be able, and even in heart work, as you guys are processing things,

945
00:56:36.560 --> 00:56:42.000
some of y'all are going to have old boyfriends coming out of the woodwork. I'm just going to

946
00:56:42.000 --> 00:56:46.160
tell you, it's going to happen. If you're brand new, you haven't heard us say that before. It

947
00:56:46.160 --> 00:56:53.280
will happen. And you have to just resist that stuff. Resist that and do not get caught up in

948
00:56:53.280 --> 00:57:00.080
distraction because the enemy wants you to get off track. Okay? So Holly, the, the clarity will come.

949
00:57:00.080 --> 00:57:04.720
It's going to come and you're going to start to trust yourself more and more as you heal in the

950
00:57:04.720 --> 00:57:10.320
days to come. Thank you so much for sharing. Great job on, on being courageous. Your first share.

951
00:57:10.320 --> 00:57:20.560
Good job. All right, Wendy, go ahead. I shared that I have always wanted to be married and it's

952
00:57:20.560 --> 00:57:30.240
just never happened for me. And at this point I just feel like God doesn't care. And I've been

953
00:57:30.240 --> 00:57:38.080
here like a couple of, a month and a half, two months maybe. And it's like, I'm at the, I stopped

954
00:57:38.080 --> 00:57:45.200
after week one because of the Jesus caring board. And I'm like, I don't believe that, I don't know

955
00:57:45.200 --> 00:57:56.800
that he does. So, um, it just, yeah, I don't know. Okay. I just, and it's funny because as you were

956
00:57:56.800 --> 00:58:07.200
speaking, I just had a realization of why I've wanted to be married, um, for as long as I can

957
00:58:07.280 --> 00:58:16.880
remember. Um, so that's just interesting. Like I, I'm having some breakthroughs here in real time.

958
00:58:18.720 --> 00:58:25.840
So do you, do you want to share what you're on or not? Sure. Um, so I, I'm an only child.

959
00:58:25.840 --> 00:58:33.120
I've never been married. I grew up with an alcoholic father, a mom who was like foreign,

960
00:58:33.120 --> 00:58:42.480
like she's from Mexico. And, um, she, my dad was very controlling and abusive and drunk,

961
00:58:42.480 --> 00:58:52.640
quite frankly, all the time. Um, never physically, but verbally. Um, and, uh, I just, it was just

962
00:58:52.640 --> 00:58:58.960
thinking I spent a lot of time in my room by myself and I watched a lot of TV that neither

963
00:58:58.960 --> 00:59:08.320
parent really cared, cared about me that much, I guess. I mean, they did in their own warped way.

964
00:59:08.320 --> 00:59:16.800
Um, but, um, I just spent a lot of time on my own. Um, and I watched a lot of TV and, you know,

965
00:59:16.800 --> 00:59:26.080
TV families are very idyllic and they're very, um, perfect. And I've always wanted that.

966
00:59:29.840 --> 00:59:36.160
I believe God's going to really use this tonight, Wendy. I think this is, um, one of the biggest

967
00:59:36.160 --> 00:59:41.360
shares you've done since you've been in the group. And I want to encourage you that there's nothing

968
00:59:41.360 --> 00:59:46.960
wrong with wanting a healthy and happy family. I will tell you that there's no perfect family.

969
00:59:48.000 --> 00:59:54.320
Um, because we're not perfect. Okay. So it's okay to, to want a healthy and happy family.

970
00:59:54.320 --> 00:59:59.840
And I want to encourage you to, um, what I hear the Holy spirit saying is to.

971
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:04.000
let yourself believe that it's possible.

972
01:00:04.000 --> 01:00:06.120
You're saying that you got stuck at week one

973
01:00:06.120 --> 01:00:09.720
because you just really aren't sure that Jesus cares.

974
01:00:09.720 --> 01:00:12.320
But I believe that God sent me,

975
01:00:12.320 --> 01:00:14.740
like I said earlier, even that message about the sins

976
01:00:14.740 --> 01:00:17.460
and like even the fact that I built the content

977
01:00:17.460 --> 01:00:20.320
the way I did, I mean, God was speaking to me today

978
01:00:20.320 --> 01:00:24.760
saying my daughters think I don't care about them.

979
01:00:27.200 --> 01:00:28.160
But I do.

980
01:00:29.160 --> 01:00:32.080
And I've been saying to them throughout their life

981
01:00:32.080 --> 01:00:36.360
that I've cared all along, but we just struggle to believe

982
01:00:36.360 --> 01:00:39.800
because sometimes, I don't know if you all feel like this,

983
01:00:39.800 --> 01:00:42.620
but sometimes the lies feel easier to believe.

984
01:00:43.480 --> 01:00:44.860
Does anyone else ever feel like that?

985
01:00:44.860 --> 01:00:49.080
It feels easier to believe the negative than the positive.

986
01:00:49.080 --> 01:00:52.280
And a lot of that is because we grow up,

987
01:00:52.280 --> 01:00:54.460
some of us, in a lot of negative.

988
01:00:55.300 --> 01:00:59.820
And so our comfort zone is the negative.

989
01:00:59.820 --> 01:01:02.860
So some of us have to learn how to come out of alignment

990
01:01:02.860 --> 01:01:04.780
and agreement with that stuff.

991
01:01:06.360 --> 01:01:10.220
You were never meant to be in your room alone and isolated.

992
01:01:10.220 --> 01:01:12.660
God always had a family for you.

993
01:01:12.660 --> 01:01:15.660
And he wanted that, and like you said,

994
01:01:15.660 --> 01:01:17.680
your family loved you in its own way,

995
01:01:17.680 --> 01:01:20.780
but he always wanted you to, okay, thank you, Jesus.

996
01:01:20.780 --> 01:01:23.460
He wants you to come on out of that room.

997
01:01:23.460 --> 01:01:25.740
And I know I'm kind of metaphorically saying that,

998
01:01:25.740 --> 01:01:27.580
but even you sharing openly tonight,

999
01:01:27.580 --> 01:01:30.660
I feel like God's just opening that bedroom door

1000
01:01:30.660 --> 01:01:32.740
from a long time ago when you were a little girl

1001
01:01:32.740 --> 01:01:36.820
and he's just saying it, come on out, Wendy, come on out.

1002
01:01:36.820 --> 01:01:39.820
And like, there's a whole new world out here

1003
01:01:39.820 --> 01:01:44.300
waiting for you, and he is excited for you to step into it

1004
01:01:44.300 --> 01:01:45.940
and to usher, I'm hearing him say,

1005
01:01:45.940 --> 01:01:50.940
to usher you into the big, bold future he has for you.

1006
01:01:51.780 --> 01:01:55.380
And it begins with us like, you know what, Lord,

1007
01:01:55.380 --> 01:01:59.780
even when I struggle, like when you all were in breakouts,

1008
01:01:59.780 --> 01:02:02.340
I was praying and what came to me is that it's okay

1009
01:02:02.340 --> 01:02:05.820
for us to even ask God's help in the heart work.

1010
01:02:05.820 --> 01:02:07.740
So it's okay for you all to acknowledge,

1011
01:02:07.740 --> 01:02:10.280
God, I need help to believe this.

1012
01:02:11.380 --> 01:02:14.100
The Bible talks about, and there's a scripture

1013
01:02:14.100 --> 01:02:15.860
and I don't have it with me tonight,

1014
01:02:15.860 --> 01:02:17.060
this is just coming up in my spirit,

1015
01:02:17.060 --> 01:02:19.700
says, I believe, help my unbelief.

1016
01:02:19.700 --> 01:02:23.020
It's about the father that's asking for his kid

1017
01:02:23.020 --> 01:02:26.100
to be healed, and he's saying to Jesus,

1018
01:02:26.100 --> 01:02:30.980
if I'm not mistaken, I believe, help my unbelief.

1019
01:02:30.980 --> 01:02:33.820
So y'all, do y'all understand it's okay

1020
01:02:33.820 --> 01:02:36.460
if we struggle to have belief at times?

1021
01:02:37.860 --> 01:02:40.620
So we can say to the father, I believe

1022
01:02:40.620 --> 01:02:44.520
that you have good for me, but help my unbelief.

1023
01:02:46.020 --> 01:02:47.880
And where does my unbelief come from?

1024
01:02:47.880 --> 01:02:48.980
What is it rooted in?

1025
01:02:48.980 --> 01:02:52.940
Why, where did the lie enter in that I believed

1026
01:02:52.940 --> 01:02:55.080
that you didn't have anything good for me?

1027
01:02:56.460 --> 01:03:00.020
So for some of you, it is, it's coming out of that room.

1028
01:03:00.020 --> 01:03:02.180
So how do you come out of the room?

1029
01:03:02.180 --> 01:03:03.980
If that's you, if you're resonating even

1030
01:03:03.980 --> 01:03:07.460
with what I'm saying to Wendy, hopefully y'all know

1031
01:03:07.460 --> 01:03:09.900
just right out of the gate, if I'm saying something

1032
01:03:09.900 --> 01:03:11.740
to someone else and it's resonating

1033
01:03:11.740 --> 01:03:13.880
and speaking to you in your spirit,

1034
01:03:13.880 --> 01:03:15.420
you can reach up and say, Lord,

1035
01:03:15.420 --> 01:03:18.020
I received that for myself too.

1036
01:03:18.020 --> 01:03:20.240
Thank you, Miranda, Matthew 9, 24.

1037
01:03:21.620 --> 01:03:23.620
You can receive that for yourself too.

1038
01:03:23.620 --> 01:03:25.780
So one of the ways you can come out of that room

1039
01:03:25.780 --> 01:03:27.500
when you're a little kid and you're stuck

1040
01:03:27.500 --> 01:03:32.500
in that place emotionally is you ask Jesus

1041
01:03:32.540 --> 01:03:34.940
to show you where he was at in the room

1042
01:03:36.500 --> 01:03:38.560
and to show you where he's at outside the room

1043
01:03:38.560 --> 01:03:40.460
and to help you come out of that room

1044
01:03:40.460 --> 01:03:42.600
or whatever you feel led to pray,

1045
01:03:42.600 --> 01:03:44.180
but ask him to also help you to hear

1046
01:03:44.180 --> 01:03:45.680
what his spirit is saying to you.

1047
01:03:45.680 --> 01:03:49.200
What is the truth that Jesus Christ himself

1048
01:03:49.200 --> 01:03:52.440
wants to speak to you in those areas of woundedness,

1049
01:03:52.440 --> 01:03:57.320
isolation, neglect, abandonment, whatever it is you all.

1050
01:03:57.320 --> 01:04:01.760
Some of you have deep pangs, it's called pangs of loneliness

1051
01:04:01.760 --> 01:04:04.760
and it feels so painful at times,

1052
01:04:04.760 --> 01:04:09.280
like you don't even know why it hurts so bad

1053
01:04:09.280 --> 01:04:11.000
because you feel so lonely.

1054
01:04:11.000 --> 01:04:13.240
Like where did this come from?

1055
01:04:14.240 --> 01:04:18.640
And God wants you to know that he has wept for you

1056
01:04:22.280 --> 01:04:23.800
and he's been collecting,

1057
01:04:23.800 --> 01:04:26.360
the Bible says he collects our tears in a bottle

1058
01:04:28.120 --> 01:04:30.460
and he doesn't just collect them to hold onto them,

1059
01:04:30.460 --> 01:04:32.040
you all, guess what happens?

1060
01:04:32.960 --> 01:04:36.560
In due season at the appointed time,

1061
01:04:36.560 --> 01:04:40.680
he will pour them out on you as choice oil.

1062
01:04:40.680 --> 01:04:43.000
He will anoint your life back

1063
01:04:43.880 --> 01:04:46.940
and there'll be restored to you, not as sadness,

1064
01:04:46.940 --> 01:04:49.360
not as tears, but you all know what happens,

1065
01:04:49.360 --> 01:04:54.360
it's actually joy and it's restitution and it's love

1066
01:04:54.920 --> 01:04:59.020
and it's grace that will be poured out on you a hundredfold.

1067
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.000
We're gonna shift and talk about our next topic.

1068
01:05:03.000 --> 01:05:04.420
I'm already at 905, y'all.

1069
01:05:04.420 --> 01:05:06.880
I hope you're getting a little bit of something

1070
01:05:06.880 --> 01:05:08.140
from the Father tonight.

1071
01:05:09.480 --> 01:05:10.500
We're gonna talk a little bit

1072
01:05:10.500 --> 01:05:13.000
about another hard topic called submission.

1073
01:05:14.520 --> 01:05:16.680
And as soon as I say it, people will cringe.

1074
01:05:16.680 --> 01:05:19.560
I know the things that start to happen

1075
01:05:19.560 --> 01:05:22.240
as soon as we start to talk about it.

1076
01:05:22.240 --> 01:05:25.680
But this is what God told me to give to you all tonight.

1077
01:05:25.680 --> 01:05:27.040
And some of it comes from the book

1078
01:05:27.040 --> 01:05:28.920
and some of it comes from my own thoughts

1079
01:05:28.920 --> 01:05:30.960
and talking to the Lord about it today.

1080
01:05:31.960 --> 01:05:36.600
Submission means to yield to the power of another person,

1081
01:05:36.600 --> 01:05:41.400
another being, God himself, first and foremost,

1082
01:05:41.400 --> 01:05:45.100
to let go in the process and trust God.

1083
01:05:46.760 --> 01:05:49.760
Submission is not about someone dominating us

1084
01:05:49.760 --> 01:05:53.980
or controlling us or lording things over us.

1085
01:05:53.980 --> 01:05:58.780
It's about us equally, whether it's us and God

1086
01:05:58.780 --> 01:06:00.620
and someone else that we can trust.

1087
01:06:00.620 --> 01:06:03.540
Someone you can trust is super important here, you all.

1088
01:06:05.740 --> 01:06:10.020
It's about equally respecting each other,

1089
01:06:10.020 --> 01:06:12.780
partnering with each other, loving each other

1090
01:06:12.780 --> 01:06:15.580
and surrendering and yielding to each other.

1091
01:06:15.580 --> 01:06:17.240
That's what submission is.

1092
01:06:19.940 --> 01:06:24.660
Do y'all know that God never forces his way onto you?

1093
01:06:25.620 --> 01:06:28.540
The enemy at times has lied to some of you

1094
01:06:28.540 --> 01:06:30.980
and said that that is who God is.

1095
01:06:32.100 --> 01:06:34.300
Some of you all have endured abuse.

1096
01:06:34.300 --> 01:06:36.420
Some of you all have endured other people

1097
01:06:36.420 --> 01:06:39.900
taking advantage of you and they have led you,

1098
01:06:39.900 --> 01:06:41.820
those things have led you to believe

1099
01:06:41.820 --> 01:06:46.420
that God is like that and he's not.

1100
01:06:48.820 --> 01:06:51.420
A yield sign, if you think about it, in the US,

1101
01:06:51.420 --> 01:06:53.220
and again, I said this earlier today,

1102
01:06:53.220 --> 01:06:54.740
I have to say kind of the US now

1103
01:06:54.740 --> 01:06:56.900
because we have people that are international

1104
01:06:56.900 --> 01:06:59.260
and I don't know if there are yield signs

1105
01:06:59.260 --> 01:07:00.620
in some of the other countries.

1106
01:07:00.620 --> 01:07:03.140
I was thinking about this today, I don't know.

1107
01:07:03.140 --> 01:07:07.060
So I'm just, in the US we have yield signs.

1108
01:07:07.060 --> 01:07:09.900
And I was kind of joking, like some people are terrible.

1109
01:07:09.900 --> 01:07:11.940
They don't yield at all and they just,

1110
01:07:11.940 --> 01:07:13.180
I've had this happen.

1111
01:07:13.180 --> 01:07:15.180
We just drove from Indiana to Florida

1112
01:07:15.180 --> 01:07:16.620
and I can tell you that some people

1113
01:07:16.620 --> 01:07:18.620
do not know what yield means.

1114
01:07:18.620 --> 01:07:20.420
They just don't know what it means.

1115
01:07:21.140 --> 01:07:23.100
They just really floor it.

1116
01:07:23.100 --> 01:07:26.060
And you could end up in potential close accidents,

1117
01:07:26.060 --> 01:07:27.620
close calls, all this stuff.

1118
01:07:28.780 --> 01:07:31.420
But a yield sign is actually there

1119
01:07:31.420 --> 01:07:35.500
so that the driver that has the yield sign

1120
01:07:35.500 --> 01:07:39.220
would start to slow down and not only slow down,

1121
01:07:39.220 --> 01:07:41.620
but they would yield their right

1122
01:07:42.860 --> 01:07:45.180
to the other vehicles or pedestrians.

1123
01:07:46.180 --> 01:07:48.700
And I know some of you, that is where it's like,

1124
01:07:48.700 --> 01:07:53.700
ah, I don't want to give my rights up to anybody else

1125
01:07:54.300 --> 01:07:57.220
because I can't trust people.

1126
01:07:58.060 --> 01:07:59.580
And you're gonna say things to me like,

1127
01:07:59.580 --> 01:08:01.740
this person did this with my heart

1128
01:08:01.740 --> 01:08:06.740
and this is why I can't trust somebody in the future.

1129
01:08:06.740 --> 01:08:07.940
And I'm gonna sympathize with you

1130
01:08:07.940 --> 01:08:09.900
and I'm gonna coach you and I'm gonna love you,

1131
01:08:09.900 --> 01:08:12.380
but I'm gonna encourage you to forgive them

1132
01:08:12.380 --> 01:08:14.660
so that you can actually come into

1133
01:08:14.660 --> 01:08:16.979
healthy true relationship with someone else.

1134
01:08:18.939 --> 01:08:20.220
In your heart healing process,

1135
01:08:20.220 --> 01:08:24.260
we're gonna encourage you to yield to God first and foremost

1136
01:08:24.260 --> 01:08:26.340
and as you yield to him, as I said,

1137
01:08:26.340 --> 01:08:27.899
he will not force his way on you.

1138
01:08:27.899 --> 01:08:29.180
Here's what he does.

1139
01:08:30.300 --> 01:08:32.740
I talk about this a lot in the heart healing coaching

1140
01:08:32.740 --> 01:08:35.060
sessions because I think it's super important.

1141
01:08:36.380 --> 01:08:38.740
God the Father stands at the door of your heart

1142
01:08:38.740 --> 01:08:40.500
and he knocks.

1143
01:08:40.500 --> 01:08:42.300
That's what the Bible tells us.

1144
01:08:43.660 --> 01:08:47.500
It doesn't say that God barges in and he pushes you down

1145
01:08:47.500 --> 01:08:50.060
and he says, you gotta do this or else.

1146
01:08:50.060 --> 01:08:53.819
Now in the Old Testament, there's a lot of law and all that

1147
01:08:53.819 --> 01:08:58.819
but even then God invited Moses with the burning bush,

1148
01:08:58.899 --> 01:09:01.580
you all, it was an invitation.

1149
01:09:01.580 --> 01:09:04.380
God didn't force him to go look at that.

1150
01:09:04.380 --> 01:09:06.300
God calls us.

1151
01:09:07.740 --> 01:09:10.100
God beckons us to come.

1152
01:09:10.100 --> 01:09:12.340
He draws us with his loving kindness

1153
01:09:12.340 --> 01:09:13.660
to lead us to repentance.

1154
01:09:13.660 --> 01:09:15.180
That's what the Bible says.

1155
01:09:16.060 --> 01:09:18.899
Does that sound like abusive language to you?

1156
01:09:20.620 --> 01:09:22.180
It doesn't, does it?

1157
01:09:22.180 --> 01:09:26.700
No, but so many of us and rightfully so,

1158
01:09:26.700 --> 01:09:29.420
some of the churches we've been in

1159
01:09:29.420 --> 01:09:31.620
have actually abused us and mistreated us

1160
01:09:31.620 --> 01:09:34.660
and poured a lot of religion on us.

1161
01:09:34.660 --> 01:09:37.979
And so we think God is this harsh taskmaster.

1162
01:09:38.819 --> 01:09:41.020
Task, I said that kind of funny.

1163
01:09:41.020 --> 01:09:43.979
But like, yes, he's gonna call us

1164
01:09:44.580 --> 01:09:47.020
and he's gonna convict us because he loves us.

1165
01:09:47.020 --> 01:09:51.300
He's gonna say, hey, don't go that way, sweet daughter.

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That is gonna hurt you.

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That's not the best way.

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Go this way because he loves you.

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Revelation 3.20 says,

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behold, I stand at the door and knock.

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If anyone hears my voice and opens the door,

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y'all, this is what it says.

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Listen to this whole rest of this scripture.

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It says, I will come in to him.

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If I knock and the door is open,

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so he doesn't barge the door.

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If the door is open, I will come in with

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them and eat with them and be with them.

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That's talk of a close and intimate relationship.

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Is it not?

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Job 22.21 in the NLT says,

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submit to God and you will have peace.

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Then things will go well with you.

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Proverbs 3.5 in the message version says,

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trust God from the bottom of your heart.

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Don't try to figure out everything on your own.

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Listen for God's voice with everything you do.

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Everywhere you go, he's the one who will keep you on track.

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Don't assume that you know it all.

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I'm gonna read something over you.

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It's called the submission activation.

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It is in your book, in your ebook.

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It's at the end of chapter three.

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Please don't zoom and read ahead if you're just starting,

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but I will encourage you all.

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I want you to find this submission activation

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after we're done tonight.

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Don't do it right now.

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Cause right now I want your attention,

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but later I'm gonna have you do something

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with this this week.

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But I wanna encourage you to close your eyes

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and I'm gonna read this over you

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before we do the next breakout.

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Okay, so I know this can feel awkward

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cause you're like, who's looking at me,

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but hopefully everyone's gonna close their eyes.

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And if not, it's totally fine.

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All right.

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Yes, Lord.

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Father God, I give you permission to search me

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and to reveal anything in my heart

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that does not belong to my true identity.

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And that is hindering me from living the life

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you created me to live.

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Holy Spirit, I invite you into the darkest places

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of my heart.

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Show me the areas that are still wounded

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and are still hurting.

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When you reveal these broken places to me,

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I covenant with you to release them into your care

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and to respond with forgiveness and repentance.

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I set aside the season of my life

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for a time of healing and wholeness

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and ask the Holy Spirit to take charge of this process.

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I ask that you dwell with me and in me.

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I need you.

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I cannot heal myself.

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I want to be free from the past,

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free to be who I truly am.

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Help me to become who you created me to be.

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Show me the lies I've believed about myself,

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my life, my surroundings,

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and even the lies I had believed about you, God.

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Teach me the greater truth.

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Teach me your ways.

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Teach me how to think and how to live abundantly.

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Teach me, show me, heal me, grow me.

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In Jesus' name.

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All right, you all are going to go into your breakout

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and you're going to talk about submission.

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And in the sense of,

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do you struggle with submission and why?

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Okay, remember short, brief, and powerful.

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I'm going to put you in there.

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Let me open these groups.

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I'm going to do seven minutes.

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I got to go down just a little bit

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because I want to have time for y'all to talk about this

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when we come back.

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And I'm going to recreate these two.

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All right, there you go.

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You're going to meet some new people this time.

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Then click to join.

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All right, I think I've got everyone situated.

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Father, we just thank you right now

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that you would just come in

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and continue to bring the truth of the word

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of what it means to submit, to yield to God,

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to live abundantly and to live in the truth of the word.

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And we thank you for that.

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And we thank you for the opportunity

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to be here with you today.

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And we thank you for the opportunity

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to continue the truth of the word

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of what it means to submit, to yield to you.

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That you continue to bring that

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into our understanding from heaven,

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that you would pour in fresh revelation and insight

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into our minds and our spirits tonight about that.

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Sorry, ladies, I'm getting super dry on my throat.

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And I thank you, Lord, that you would just,

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thank you, Lord, just soften our hearts

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in the areas where our hearts have become hard

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because of the pain of the past,

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where we have gone through things in our lives

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that told us that we could not trust people

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and that people will only use.

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submission to hurt us. And we thank you, Lord, that you are

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restoring the foundations of the world, you're restoring the

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foundations of our heart. Hi, Lori, we're doing conversations

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about submission in the breakout rooms. So I'm sending one your

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way. You can click to join that. So we just thank you also that

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you're, as I was praying that you would soften the heart and

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places of our hearts where we've gotten stony in there, because

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of wounds of the past and misunderstandings. Thank you,

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Lord. Yes, Lord, where we are easily offended even today

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because of the pain of the past and things that we get triggered

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by. Thank you, Lord, that you go into the depths of our, of our

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being and that you would heal this sadness. Lord, where the

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sadness and the frustration and disappointment goes unresolved,

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unhealed, that's where the anger then begins to happen. So

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where we just thank you that you would go into this, the source,

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the root places, and that you would just minister your peace

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and your grace for tonight. Lord, we thank you that you're

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the great physician, that nothing is too hard for you. Hi,

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Katie, were you having a hard time connecting? I thought I saw

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you a minute ago. All right, I'm just gonna leave you here

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until I know if you're connected with us. So Lord, I just thank

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you that you would just continue just to, yes, Lord, help us to

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marinate in your truth. Thank you, Lord, that you would help

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us to begin to think differently in our heart, and

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that those thoughts of truth in life would be what would lead us

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into our tomorrows, that we will lay aside every weight that so

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easily ensnares us, so that we can press on toward the high

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calling of God for our lives. I thank you, God, that yes, Lord,

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that you are making all things new. We thank you that you are

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the potter and we are the clay and that we are in your hands

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and we can trust that you are the master craftsman, that you

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know exactly what we need. We know, you know exactly the

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curvature that we need, if you will, as the pot and the things

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that we need to be able to hold and contain. So Lord, we thank

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you that, yes, Lord, that you're filling all the cracks as well,

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with your power, with your presence, with your hope, with

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your life, with your truth. We thank you that in Jeremiah 29,

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11, it says, for I know the plans I have for you, says the

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Lord, they are plans for good and not for disaster, to give

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01:17:48.440 --> 01:17:53.320
you a future and a hope. So where we declare goodness and

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hope to be our light. I thank you that we, we the righteous

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will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living,

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that we will not have to wait just for eternity. We will not

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have to wait just for heaven to see your goodness. So Lord, we

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thank you. And we wait upon you tonight to receive your glory,

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to receive your goodness, to receive the upgrades of heaven,

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even as the word that the community we declared last night

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that it's Christmas in July. I thank you that you would help us

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to just get into that place and that posture to receive the

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gifts and the surprises that you have for us, Lord. Yes, Lord, we

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thank you that you would remove the lies of the enemy from our

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hearts, our minds, our bodies, and our spirits and souls, that

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tell us that you, you don't have enough and you'll never give us

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what we want or what we need. God, I thank you for the times

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that you protect us from the things that we wanted, that

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were not good for us. But I thank you also, God, that you

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will bless us with overflow in abundance in your due timing. We

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thank you, Lord, that yes, Lord, everywhere we turn, that

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blessings are on every side. We thank you that we do not fear

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falling into the traps or being afraid at night. We thank you

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that yes, Lord, your word declares that perfect love casts

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out all fear, because fear has to do with torment. So we choose

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to come out of alignment and agreement with fear tonight. And

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we thank you that you would help us to bask in the understanding

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of you as love that you got our love, help us to marinate in the

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truth that love is patient, love is kind, love is faithful, love

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is good, and that we can receive your love tonight. I thank you

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that we, as your daughters, can stand and receive the fullness

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of all your plans and promises for us. Psalms 119, 165, and

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Passion Translation says this, there is such a great peace and

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well-being that comes to the lovers of your word, and they

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will never be offended. Lord, I thank you that you would stir up

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hunger and thirst for your righteousness, for your word

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within us.

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that we would be lovers of your word and lovers of who you are, that we would grow in the understanding

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of who you are, God, the Father, Jesus Christ, who you are as our friend, as the one that has

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gone before us, as the one that died for our victory, for our healing, for our redemption,

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that you already won the war for us. So all the freedom that we're fighting for, even right now,

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all the breakthroughs that we're asking for, we're praying for, we're pleading for,

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Jesus, I thank you that you've already won it, you've already won it, so help us to step further

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into the fullness of it tonight. I thank you, Holy Spirit, that you are there with us,

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walking with us, that you've gone before us, that you're making a way for us to stand even now.

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I thank you that you comfort us, you keep us, and you never leave us. Exodus 26 says,

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I lavish on family and love for a thousand generations on those who love me and obey my

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commands. God, I thank you that not only will you bless my life and their life, but for thousands

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of generations behind them, that God, you will use the situations and the healing work that you're

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doing now to lavish your love upon them and their families. Yes, Lord. Yes, Lord.

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Yes, Lord. We have six seconds, and I have something I almost forgot when Wendy was sharing,

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God said something to me, I almost forgot until just now as I was praying that last scripture.

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Welcome back. Welcome back. Before we do the quick shares, when Wendy was sharing earlier,

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I wrote it down, and I forgot to say it, and this is, I believe the timing is perfect right now.

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This is for all of you. This is for Wendy, and this is for all of you.

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I wrote Kinsman Redeemer. I wrote Kinsman Redeemer, and Jackie talks about this. I believe

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it to be true. Before I ever heard her say it, God was speaking to me years and years and years

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before I stepped into the fullness of what God is doing in my life, and I've, you all, I've only

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scratched the surface, and so I just want to encourage you. There's so much good ahead.

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And so I just want to encourage you. There's so much good ahead. There's so much good ahead.

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Don't give up on yourself. God's got good stuff in store. God wants to use you as

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Kinsman Redeemers in your family to bring change and transformation, not just for you,

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but for thousands of generations, for your children and their children and ripple effects

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in your community. Will you, will you choose to become a part of the movement

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of kingdom families and marriages? The call of heaven is crying out.

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Don't give up on yourselves. Good things are ahead. All right. Who is willing to share with

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the whole group? And I can probably take two people or three, maybe, depending on the shares.

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All right. Awesome. Leslie, go ahead. Okay. So I shared submission for me. My dad was not

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the kindest or the most loving man, and he was in the ministry and my parents struggled

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financially always. And so for me, submission is difficult. Not so much. I've been able to forgive

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my dad. So that part, I don't think that I struggle with as far as just him, but more or less

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control. Like he not only was controlling, he didn't control anything well. So he's controlling

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everything. He was unkind to my mother. He cheated on my mom. They were broke all the time. He

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barely worked and she did work and took care of the house and took care of us. So for me,

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submitting is difficult because it would mean relinquishing control. Because now as an adult,

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I'm a single mom. And the thought of a man coming in, like I want some credentials, like, you know,

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what's your credit score? What's your income level? Like what, you know, how do you spend?

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01:24:06.640 --> 01:24:13.440
Mostly in the area of finances, I suppose. But I would love a man to be a gentle leader.

1394
01:24:13.440 --> 01:24:17.840
And I told the girls, even though this relationship didn't work out, I was in

1395
01:24:17.840 --> 01:24:23.440
a short relationship recently where he was a gentle leader. And so even though it didn't

1396
01:24:23.440 --> 01:24:28.160
work out, I feel like God gave me a glimpse of what that could look like.

1397
01:24:29.360 --> 01:24:34.000
That is a great share, Leslie. And God will do that with you all. He will. I went on

1398
01:24:34.000 --> 01:24:38.400
dates with guys that it didn't work out, but God was definitely showing me that there were good

1399
01:24:38.400 --> 01:24:42.960
men out there in that process. And so God will do that with some of you all as well.

1400
01:24:42.960 --> 01:24:48.960
I do want to encourage you, you know, in your process, this is really important for y'all to

1401
01:24:48.960 --> 01:24:53.600
hear. Some of the ladies that are about to finish, they've heard me say this before,

1402
01:24:54.640 --> 01:24:57.680
but it's super important. So I'm going to keep saying it to you all.

1403
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:03.820
happens in layers, you all, and so does forgiveness.

1404
01:25:04.840 --> 01:25:09.840
So you might be, Leslie, completely done forgiving your dad,

1405
01:25:09.840 --> 01:25:12.460
forgiving him before, but I want to encourage you

1406
01:25:12.460 --> 01:25:14.980
or anyone else as you're in this process,

1407
01:25:14.980 --> 01:25:18.900
if God brings your dad up or someone that you all

1408
01:25:18.900 --> 01:25:22.260
have already forgiven before you came into this program,

1409
01:25:22.260 --> 01:25:23.620
I want to encourage you.

1410
01:25:23.620 --> 01:25:25.220
It doesn't mean you have to go all the way back

1411
01:25:25.220 --> 01:25:26.060
into everything.

1412
01:25:26.060 --> 01:25:28.420
It doesn't mean you didn't forgive them before,

1413
01:25:28.420 --> 01:25:31.420
but what it just means is that there might be a new layer

1414
01:25:31.420 --> 01:25:34.340
of healing and forgiveness that God wants to do.

1415
01:25:34.340 --> 01:25:37.380
And so I call it peeking up under the hood.

1416
01:25:37.380 --> 01:25:39.780
I like to, I kind of like to give that analogy.

1417
01:25:39.780 --> 01:25:41.900
Like you're just, you're just kind of letting God

1418
01:25:41.900 --> 01:25:45.260
help you look up under that hood a little bit again,

1419
01:25:45.260 --> 01:25:47.700
because some people get that whole fear.

1420
01:25:47.700 --> 01:25:49.020
Like I don't want to have to go deal

1421
01:25:49.020 --> 01:25:50.780
with that whole thing again.

1422
01:25:50.780 --> 01:25:53.080
And I want to encourage you not to fear,

1423
01:25:54.020 --> 01:25:57.340
but just be willing, just be willing and be open.

1424
01:25:57.380 --> 01:26:02.380
Because if God brings it up to you again, there's a reason.

1425
01:26:02.460 --> 01:26:05.740
There's a reason and a season to all of it.

1426
01:26:05.740 --> 01:26:10.740
And so on that, it may not be that God leads you Leslie

1427
01:26:10.900 --> 01:26:15.780
into that, but if you struggle with the idea

1428
01:26:15.780 --> 01:26:20.580
of relinquishing control, oftentimes the undergirding

1429
01:26:20.580 --> 01:26:24.460
of control and the fear of letting go of control

1430
01:26:24.460 --> 01:26:27.260
is that word fear.

1431
01:26:28.180 --> 01:26:30.780
Okay, so we're afraid somewhere deep inside

1432
01:26:32.140 --> 01:26:37.140
that if we let someone have control, quote unquote,

1433
01:26:37.740 --> 01:26:39.260
they will hurt us.

1434
01:26:42.140 --> 01:26:47.140
Okay, so what lies are we still believing

1435
01:26:47.380 --> 01:26:52.380
that we're afraid that if we let anyone in that far

1436
01:26:52.860 --> 01:26:56.460
that they will treat us the way others have treated us

1437
01:26:56.460 --> 01:26:58.420
or the way we saw other people treated.

1438
01:26:58.420 --> 01:27:01.380
And so we put these walls of control up

1439
01:27:01.380 --> 01:27:03.900
to protect ourselves, okay.

1440
01:27:03.900 --> 01:27:06.140
But it's a false protection.

1441
01:27:06.140 --> 01:27:10.020
There really is like some of you all, myself included,

1442
01:27:10.020 --> 01:27:13.300
we even try to protect our kids from everything, don't we?

1443
01:27:13.300 --> 01:27:15.980
We don't want our kids to feel any pain.

1444
01:27:15.980 --> 01:27:18.700
And we try to protect them from everything,

1445
01:27:18.700 --> 01:27:21.180
but it's not possible.

1446
01:27:22.580 --> 01:27:25.420
It's an unrealistic goal you all,

1447
01:27:25.420 --> 01:27:27.900
because the world is full of pain.

1448
01:27:29.660 --> 01:27:34.660
And actually here's the reality, pain can be profitable.

1449
01:27:38.140 --> 01:27:41.700
It can be, if we give it to God and let him use it.

1450
01:27:42.700 --> 01:27:44.900
I'm not saying that God wants us to go through pain.

1451
01:27:44.900 --> 01:27:46.940
I'm saying that pain is in the world

1452
01:27:46.940 --> 01:27:51.420
because of sin and fallen and broken people, okay.

1453
01:27:52.420 --> 01:27:56.500
So if we experience pain because of that,

1454
01:27:56.500 --> 01:27:58.940
God can heal that pain.

1455
01:27:58.940 --> 01:28:00.540
Love is a risk.

1456
01:28:00.540 --> 01:28:01.380
Where's Leslie?

1457
01:28:01.380 --> 01:28:02.300
I'm looking for you.

1458
01:28:02.300 --> 01:28:03.780
Love is a risk.

1459
01:28:03.780 --> 01:28:07.020
So relinquishing control, it will feel like a risk,

1460
01:28:07.020 --> 01:28:09.380
but I can tell you, even myself,

1461
01:28:09.380 --> 01:28:11.700
I'll be fully transparent you all.

1462
01:28:11.700 --> 01:28:13.940
I have been married almost two years

1463
01:28:13.940 --> 01:28:17.580
and I'm still working on completely giving over

1464
01:28:17.580 --> 01:28:19.580
and joining our finances.

1465
01:28:19.700 --> 01:28:21.820
Praise God I have a patient husband.

1466
01:28:22.980 --> 01:28:25.260
I was abused a lot in my former marriage.

1467
01:28:25.260 --> 01:28:27.420
I got money taken from me.

1468
01:28:27.420 --> 01:28:29.780
My brother took money from me when I was younger

1469
01:28:29.780 --> 01:28:31.060
and stole from me all the time.

1470
01:28:31.060 --> 01:28:32.900
So when my ex-husband did it,

1471
01:28:32.900 --> 01:28:34.900
it just like, remember I talked earlier

1472
01:28:34.900 --> 01:28:37.780
about those strongholds that form.

1473
01:28:37.780 --> 01:28:41.220
And so I'm learning over and over again

1474
01:28:41.220 --> 01:28:44.100
that I can trust my husband and he's patient

1475
01:28:44.100 --> 01:28:45.500
and he's loving and we're almost there.

1476
01:28:45.500 --> 01:28:46.580
We're almost there.

1477
01:28:46.580 --> 01:28:48.740
I've made a lot of victory steps.

1478
01:28:48.780 --> 01:28:49.860
And so I want you to know,

1479
01:28:49.860 --> 01:28:53.300
it's okay to just be in process too,

1480
01:28:53.300 --> 01:28:54.860
but don't like myself,

1481
01:28:54.860 --> 01:28:59.340
like I have to really be willing to push myself too

1482
01:29:01.020 --> 01:29:02.620
in the sense that like,

1483
01:29:03.700 --> 01:29:07.860
I don't need to keep waiting either.

1484
01:29:07.860 --> 01:29:08.700
Does that make sense?

1485
01:29:08.700 --> 01:29:10.700
There's like this delicate balance there.

1486
01:29:12.660 --> 01:29:13.500
Okay.

1487
01:29:13.500 --> 01:29:17.380
So God, I believe God can send you all healthy spirit mates.

1488
01:29:17.380 --> 01:29:20.380
You gotta choose well, stay in community, keep talking.

1489
01:29:20.380 --> 01:29:21.780
Right now you're pressing pause.

1490
01:29:21.780 --> 01:29:23.140
If you don't know, you're pressing pause,

1491
01:29:23.140 --> 01:29:24.700
hopefully on the guys.

1492
01:29:24.700 --> 01:29:26.940
While you're in heart work, it's important.

1493
01:29:26.940 --> 01:29:30.980
I promise you will not regret it later.

1494
01:29:30.980 --> 01:29:32.340
I know some of you all are worried

1495
01:29:32.340 --> 01:29:35.420
you're gonna miss out on somebody, but you're not.

1496
01:29:35.420 --> 01:29:37.900
If they're your spirit mate, they'll wait.

1497
01:29:37.900 --> 01:29:39.780
You can circle back to them.

1498
01:29:39.780 --> 01:29:40.980
It'll be worth waiting.

1499
01:29:42.740 --> 01:29:45.100
You'll find the blessing in it later.

1500
01:29:45.100 --> 01:29:45.940
Okay.

1501
01:29:45.940 --> 01:29:47.100
Super important.

1502
01:29:47.820 --> 01:29:48.860
Christina, go ahead.

1503
01:29:49.820 --> 01:29:50.660
Hi.

1504
01:29:52.020 --> 01:29:52.860
Hi.

1505
01:29:54.660 --> 01:29:58.500
I think when you started talking about submission,

1506
01:29:58.500 --> 01:29:59.700
I can feel myself go.

1507
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:06.440
My dad is amazing.

1508
01:30:06.440 --> 01:30:14.320
He was kind and supportive and wise and provided for my family and fun and taught me about

1509
01:30:14.320 --> 01:30:19.480
Jesus and walked with me.

1510
01:30:19.480 --> 01:30:25.280
When I was growing up, I thought I had the perfect dad, and he was not faithful to my

1511
01:30:25.280 --> 01:30:29.480
mama repeatedly.

1512
01:30:29.480 --> 01:30:38.560
And that was really confusing, really confusing.

1513
01:30:38.560 --> 01:30:44.240
And I haven't dated a lot, I've dated a couple of people, but someone that I dated and almost

1514
01:30:44.240 --> 01:30:53.680
married had some gaps in where he was growing.

1515
01:30:53.680 --> 01:31:00.120
And because of that, he didn't know what he wanted and wasn't honest with himself.

1516
01:31:00.120 --> 01:31:05.360
And because he wasn't honest with himself, he wasn't honest with me in the places where

1517
01:31:05.360 --> 01:31:10.040
we were going very different directions.

1518
01:31:10.040 --> 01:31:16.640
And so there's parts of me that learned to not ask questions and to enjoy good things

1519
01:31:16.640 --> 01:31:20.400
but not ask questions.

1520
01:31:20.400 --> 01:31:31.880
And so I think with the submission piece, it's just like, I'm not sure what my heart

1521
01:31:31.880 --> 01:31:38.680
needs to know whether or not I can trust someone because, you know, kind, supportive, good

1522
01:31:38.680 --> 01:31:43.000
Christian man might not do it for me.

1523
01:31:43.000 --> 01:31:46.840
I think what's super important, you said something really powerful.

1524
01:31:46.840 --> 01:31:52.680
You said, I learned, don't ask questions, just take the good.

1525
01:31:52.680 --> 01:31:57.480
And I think for you, one of the things I want to encourage you in, one of the things I said

1526
01:31:57.480 --> 01:32:06.640
about submission is a mutual agreement of respect and yielding, both people are yielding.

1527
01:32:06.640 --> 01:32:13.920
So it doesn't mean we have to pretend we're just okay with everything and never ask questions.

1528
01:32:14.000 --> 01:32:21.360
Actually, that submission also comes through being fully honest and transparent with each

1529
01:32:21.360 --> 01:32:24.400
other in a partnership, in a marriage.

1530
01:32:24.400 --> 01:32:35.080
And so I would encourage you, honestly, because your mom, the things that happened there,

1531
01:32:35.080 --> 01:32:39.240
it sounds like your dad was really jovial, fun person to be around.

1532
01:32:39.240 --> 01:32:44.360
It sounds like it appeared that everything was kind of perfect.

1533
01:32:44.360 --> 01:32:50.920
And a lot of times your mom may or may not have known what was going on, but I'm just

1534
01:32:50.920 --> 01:32:52.440
going to put it out there.

1535
01:32:52.440 --> 01:32:59.000
If your mom was just trying to keep the family together and didn't want to show her pain

1536
01:32:59.000 --> 01:33:07.040
or anything, you might have learned at a young age to not ask questions.

1537
01:33:07.040 --> 01:33:11.480
So now you're kind of living out that reality now.

1538
01:33:11.480 --> 01:33:12.480
Yeah.

1539
01:33:12.480 --> 01:33:15.880
No, I was trained in that.

1540
01:33:15.880 --> 01:33:20.800
I saw things I would ask questions as a very small person.

1541
01:33:20.800 --> 01:33:23.120
And so I was taught to not do that.

1542
01:33:23.120 --> 01:33:24.120
All right.

1543
01:33:24.120 --> 01:33:35.320
So when you ask questions when you were smaller, what happens when you ask questions?

1544
01:33:35.320 --> 01:33:44.560
I wrote something in a little paper for school in first grade, and my dad was like the head

1545
01:33:44.560 --> 01:33:48.600
of the school.

1546
01:33:48.600 --> 01:33:54.680
And it wasn't something terrible, but it was just something that my dad had done that wasn't

1547
01:33:54.680 --> 01:33:55.680
super positive.

1548
01:33:55.680 --> 01:33:56.680
Yeah.

1549
01:33:56.680 --> 01:34:01.920
And my parents read it when I went to bed.

1550
01:34:01.920 --> 01:34:09.320
And the next day my mom asked me if I could change it.

1551
01:34:09.320 --> 01:34:10.480
Can you say something different?

1552
01:34:10.480 --> 01:34:12.960
And I was like, well, I didn't say anything untrue.

1553
01:34:12.960 --> 01:34:16.400
And she said, yeah.

1554
01:34:16.400 --> 01:34:28.440
So I added on positive things, but that was a pretty loud, it's really dangerous to talk

1555
01:34:28.440 --> 01:34:34.680
about anything negative.

1556
01:34:34.680 --> 01:34:40.760
And if you do, the grownups in your world can't handle it.

1557
01:34:40.760 --> 01:34:41.760
Yeah.

1558
01:34:41.760 --> 01:34:45.240
So this is why, so this is kind of the important stuff, ladies.

1559
01:34:45.240 --> 01:34:48.640
I want to encourage all of y'all to ask really good questions.

1560
01:34:48.640 --> 01:34:54.200
And you may already know this kind of where I'm taking you, Christina, but what you're

1561
01:34:54.200 --> 01:34:57.880
saying is huge.

1562
01:34:57.880 --> 01:35:00.280
And so many times we don't realize that.

1563
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.800
some monumental thing that happened there. Like you were

1564
01:35:04.800 --> 01:35:09.480
being honest. And I feel the Holy Spirit and so pure and what

1565
01:35:09.480 --> 01:35:14.940
you were saying. And you were basically and and I'm not saying

1566
01:35:14.940 --> 01:35:19.360
they asked you to lie. But in a sense, they were asking you to

1567
01:35:19.360 --> 01:35:24.080
change the story to make themselves comfortable, which in

1568
01:35:24.080 --> 01:35:29.120
some ways might have felt to you very confusing, because then how

1569
01:35:29.120 --> 01:35:32.280
do you start to discern the truth from the lie and the, you

1570
01:35:32.280 --> 01:35:35.520
know, all these things that a child it's very tough to

1571
01:35:35.520 --> 01:35:41.440
comprehend, right? And so then you grow, and that is reinforced

1572
01:35:41.440 --> 01:35:44.280
probably at different times in your life. So then you get into

1573
01:35:44.280 --> 01:35:49.680
relationship with people. And you may or may not feel bad when

1574
01:35:49.680 --> 01:35:55.360
you recognize things that aren't healthy. And you just go along

1575
01:35:55.360 --> 01:35:58.940
with them, and convince yourself that something is good or that

1576
01:35:58.940 --> 01:36:02.260
don't ask questions, because you might find something out

1577
01:36:02.260 --> 01:36:03.460
that you don't want to know.

1578
01:36:05.100 --> 01:36:07.540
Yeah, or they may not be able to handle that.

1579
01:36:07.560 --> 01:36:11.660
Yeah. So if anyone else has had any of this kind of stuff

1580
01:36:11.660 --> 01:36:17.700
happen, and where your voice in in some way or another, because

1581
01:36:17.700 --> 01:36:23.700
here's the other thing. Your voice was taken a little bit in

1582
01:36:23.700 --> 01:36:29.180
that moment. Yeah. So some of you, your healing process is

1583
01:36:29.180 --> 01:36:33.020
going to be a lot about getting your voices back. And that's why

1584
01:36:33.020 --> 01:36:37.300
it's super important to show up and post in the group. And you

1585
01:36:37.300 --> 01:36:40.820
all will not like you won't even fully understand how much it's

1586
01:36:40.820 --> 01:36:45.460
going to help you break free. But it is even sharing on the

1587
01:36:45.460 --> 01:36:48.980
groups. And when we're doing this stuff, it's it's like an

1588
01:36:48.980 --> 01:36:52.740
awakening that's happening. And you're coming out of this place

1589
01:36:52.740 --> 01:36:57.420
of hiding, and seclusion and isolation and fear of saying

1590
01:36:57.420 --> 01:37:00.460
something because of what someone may or may not think.

1591
01:37:00.980 --> 01:37:05.260
Right. Definitely lean into that in your process. I think you're

1592
01:37:05.260 --> 01:37:07.900
probably going to encounter that in a couple different ways as

1593
01:37:07.900 --> 01:37:12.220
you go. Christina, I appreciate you sharing and letting me kind

1594
01:37:12.220 --> 01:37:15.500
of talk with that through and I know we're at 937. If you all

1595
01:37:15.500 --> 01:37:19.460
need to hop off. I do want to give Jennifer a chance to share

1596
01:37:19.460 --> 01:37:23.140
real quick. So if anyone has to jump off, we love you. I don't

1597
01:37:23.140 --> 01:37:27.540
want you to feel obligated to stay. But if you can, we'd love

1598
01:37:27.540 --> 01:37:29.860
for you to stay just for a few more minutes. Jennifer, go

1599
01:37:29.860 --> 01:37:30.220
ahead.

1600
01:37:32.340 --> 01:37:38.940
So I shared how I feel like in I've always been a people

1601
01:37:38.940 --> 01:37:43.820
pleaser. I've always been a very much don't like conflict, don't

1602
01:37:43.820 --> 01:37:48.140
want to fight, just submit to whatever even if I felt like,

1603
01:37:48.580 --> 01:37:53.540
you know, maybe this isn't a good thing. But growing up all

1604
01:37:53.540 --> 01:37:56.820
through my life, I've always been very much a people pleaser.

1605
01:37:56.980 --> 01:38:00.900
And it didn't, you know, and then that in turn, you know, I

1606
01:38:00.900 --> 01:38:04.900
met my husband and he had, you know, narcissistic tendencies.

1607
01:38:04.900 --> 01:38:07.940
And so and I was always very submissive to that just because

1608
01:38:07.940 --> 01:38:13.500
it was easier to avoid the fight. So I felt like I've

1609
01:38:13.500 --> 01:38:17.020
always been very submissive. And now that I was, you know, when

1610
01:38:17.020 --> 01:38:22.740
he passed away, I was forced to be independent and taking care

1611
01:38:22.740 --> 01:38:27.140
of me and my son. So now like, yes, I want to be married again.

1612
01:38:27.660 --> 01:38:30.900
And I want to find love because I've had people tell me that

1613
01:38:31.540 --> 01:38:33.780
they don't like my mother in law, she's told me she doesn't

1614
01:38:33.780 --> 01:38:37.620
even know if like, what me and him had was actual true love.

1615
01:38:39.100 --> 01:38:41.900
And she doesn't think that either of us really knew what

1616
01:38:41.900 --> 01:38:44.820
love was, which is possible because I had a really hard

1617
01:38:44.820 --> 01:38:52.180
childhood. But now I'm kind of like, it's hard for me for one

1618
01:38:52.180 --> 01:38:58.060
for me to trust. But also like, I don't know, like, just the

1619
01:38:58.060 --> 01:39:04.860
thought of being like, releasing those reins or whatever it is

1620
01:39:04.860 --> 01:39:09.540
like a fear thing like I don't want, you know, I'm I can take

1621
01:39:09.540 --> 01:39:12.220
care of myself, you know, but again, I want somebody a

1622
01:39:12.220 --> 01:39:14.260
partner, you know, so it's just hard. It's hard.

1623
01:39:16.340 --> 01:39:19.180
Jennifer, you're growing so much. I hope that you see it in

1624
01:39:19.180 --> 01:39:21.940
yourself, even in your shares, I can tell you've gotten less

1625
01:39:21.940 --> 01:39:26.260
nervous. You're doing so great. I'm so excited for you. Here's

1626
01:39:26.260 --> 01:39:30.900
the thing I want to encourage you to really lean into asking

1627
01:39:30.900 --> 01:39:33.500
people for help in this next week. I'm giving that assignment

1628
01:39:33.500 --> 01:39:36.340
in particular to you. Anybody else that wants to grab that can

1629
01:39:36.340 --> 01:39:41.580
grab it. But I really want to encourage you. And you might not

1630
01:39:41.580 --> 01:39:44.380
know who to ask right now when I say that to you, but I just am

1631
01:39:44.380 --> 01:39:46.340
going to believe that God's going to show you the people to

1632
01:39:46.340 --> 01:39:49.780
reach out to. And even if they don't take you up on it, that

1633
01:39:49.780 --> 01:39:53.500
it's more about the using your voice to ask for help. Because

1634
01:39:53.500 --> 01:39:58.580
something you just said, as you were sharing, was, you know, as

1635
01:39:58.580 --> 01:39:59.940
a single mom, and

1636
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:02.480
with some of the things you've gone through,

1637
01:40:02.480 --> 01:40:05.480
you really started depending on yourself solely.

1638
01:40:06.800 --> 01:40:09.720
And before God brings your spirit mate,

1639
01:40:09.720 --> 01:40:12.280
I want you to start practicing.

1640
01:40:12.280 --> 01:40:14.320
I want God, I want you to start practicing

1641
01:40:14.320 --> 01:40:16.520
letting people help you again.

1642
01:40:16.520 --> 01:40:19.120
And I'm gonna even just go as far as this.

1643
01:40:19.120 --> 01:40:21.360
I think you're gonna experience a new level

1644
01:40:21.360 --> 01:40:24.540
of someone helping you and partnering with you.

1645
01:40:24.540 --> 01:40:27.640
Like really, really partnering in life

1646
01:40:27.680 --> 01:40:30.520
and making decisions and loving

1647
01:40:30.520 --> 01:40:33.160
and all of the things and fun too.

1648
01:40:33.160 --> 01:40:36.880
Not just the hard stuff, but the fun stuff too.

1649
01:40:36.880 --> 01:40:40.200
And so I wanna encourage you to open yourself up to that

1650
01:40:40.200 --> 01:40:43.320
and just see what God is gonna do through that.

1651
01:40:43.320 --> 01:40:45.320
Here is the homework for you all.

1652
01:40:45.320 --> 01:40:47.400
I know I'm giving you extra homework,

1653
01:40:47.400 --> 01:40:49.660
but I promise it's not too much, okay?

1654
01:40:49.660 --> 01:40:50.980
It's not.

1655
01:40:50.980 --> 01:40:54.020
Number one, that submission activation

1656
01:40:54.020 --> 01:40:56.480
that I read from the end of chapter three,

1657
01:40:56.480 --> 01:40:57.840
I wanna encourage you all, again,

1658
01:40:57.840 --> 01:41:00.080
I don't want you to, for those of you that have just started,

1659
01:41:00.080 --> 01:41:02.080
I don't want you to speed read through all the chapters,

1660
01:41:02.080 --> 01:41:04.240
just flip through and find that.

1661
01:41:04.240 --> 01:41:05.760
And just this next week.

1662
01:41:05.760 --> 01:41:08.360
And when I say this, I don't want this to be all legalistic.

1663
01:41:08.360 --> 01:41:11.940
If y'all miss a day, there's grace.

1664
01:41:11.940 --> 01:41:15.480
But I just want you to try to aim to read this out loud

1665
01:41:15.480 --> 01:41:18.360
over yourself at least once a day,

1666
01:41:18.360 --> 01:41:20.560
preferably in the morning,

1667
01:41:20.560 --> 01:41:23.220
because it's gonna help you posture your heart

1668
01:41:23.220 --> 01:41:25.580
into that place of submission and surrender

1669
01:41:25.580 --> 01:41:28.540
right in the morning, okay?

1670
01:41:28.540 --> 01:41:31.260
Number two is, let me grab this song.

1671
01:41:31.260 --> 01:41:32.540
I said I was gonna do that.

1672
01:41:32.540 --> 01:41:34.740
Hold on one second.

1673
01:41:35.860 --> 01:41:39.820
That Sparrows song that I was talking about earlier.

1674
01:41:39.820 --> 01:41:42.220
I'm gonna put it here in the chat for you all.

1675
01:41:44.380 --> 01:41:46.180
So y'all can grab that link.

1676
01:41:46.180 --> 01:41:47.180
Can y'all grab that?

1677
01:41:47.180 --> 01:41:49.940
I'll put it in your groups too, okay?

1678
01:41:49.940 --> 01:41:52.380
But try to grab that now if you can.

1679
01:41:52.380 --> 01:41:54.100
And what I want you to do with that

1680
01:41:54.100 --> 01:41:55.940
is I just want you to listen to the song

1681
01:41:55.940 --> 01:41:57.460
as many times as you feel led.

1682
01:41:57.460 --> 01:41:59.380
If only once, that's fine.

1683
01:41:59.380 --> 01:42:01.620
But I want you to specifically ask God

1684
01:42:01.620 --> 01:42:06.620
to speak to you personally about how he cares about you.

1685
01:42:07.980 --> 01:42:10.720
Like, what does he wanna say to you through that song?

1686
01:42:11.940 --> 01:42:13.100
Because when I listen to it,

1687
01:42:13.100 --> 01:42:16.180
I know what he says to me today.

1688
01:42:16.180 --> 01:42:17.580
God gave me that song

1689
01:42:17.580 --> 01:42:19.540
before he gave me any of the content for today.

1690
01:42:19.540 --> 01:42:20.740
That's what I was like,

1691
01:42:20.740 --> 01:42:22.620
woke up singing that song this morning.

1692
01:42:23.220 --> 01:42:25.300
I mean, I haven't listened to the song

1693
01:42:25.300 --> 01:42:26.660
in a very, very long time.

1694
01:42:26.660 --> 01:42:28.860
So it just must've been in my spirit,

1695
01:42:28.860 --> 01:42:30.700
like just living in there.

1696
01:42:30.700 --> 01:42:32.140
That's what worship does, you all.

1697
01:42:32.140 --> 01:42:33.060
It'll live in there

1698
01:42:33.060 --> 01:42:36.220
and it'll start to bubble up at the right time.

1699
01:42:36.220 --> 01:42:39.140
But I believe he has a word for each one of you

1700
01:42:39.140 --> 01:42:41.140
through that song in a special way.

1701
01:42:41.140 --> 01:42:42.940
And he's gonna say something to you.

1702
01:42:44.100 --> 01:42:45.220
We are praying for you

1703
01:42:45.220 --> 01:42:47.540
and we are believing for breakthrough

1704
01:42:47.540 --> 01:42:49.420
and for transformation

1705
01:42:50.140 --> 01:42:52.700
in ways you haven't even thought of or imagined.

1706
01:42:54.700 --> 01:42:56.140
I saw someone said in here,

1707
01:42:56.140 --> 01:42:58.220
I experienced the same thing being a pastor's daughter.

1708
01:42:58.220 --> 01:43:00.780
We are taught not to talk about anything negative

1709
01:43:00.780 --> 01:43:02.500
for the sake of the ministry.

1710
01:43:03.740 --> 01:43:06.380
I just wanna encourage you, Jennifer,

1711
01:43:06.380 --> 01:43:10.620
to really ask God to show you

1712
01:43:10.620 --> 01:43:15.220
how to find safe places to share

1713
01:43:16.500 --> 01:43:18.540
in addition to this group.

1714
01:43:18.540 --> 01:43:22.300
Because it's gonna help you come out of that fear

1715
01:43:22.300 --> 01:43:24.780
that you were taught at a young age

1716
01:43:24.780 --> 01:43:27.780
to that protect so you never share

1717
01:43:27.780 --> 01:43:29.260
because you're protecting the image,

1718
01:43:29.260 --> 01:43:30.460
you're protecting the family,

1719
01:43:30.460 --> 01:43:32.500
protecting the ministry, all those things.

1720
01:43:32.500 --> 01:43:33.620
And anyone else that's been

1721
01:43:33.620 --> 01:43:35.620
in any of those kinds of situations,

1722
01:43:36.780 --> 01:43:39.460
God is gonna do some stuff through that as well.

1723
01:43:39.460 --> 01:43:41.420
All right, you all, we're late.

1724
01:43:41.420 --> 01:43:42.300
I love you guys.

1725
01:43:42.300 --> 01:43:43.380
Praying for you all.

1726
01:43:43.380 --> 01:43:44.940
See you in the group.

1727
01:43:45.820 --> 01:43:48.340
Again, keep coming out of hiding, keep showing up.

1728
01:43:49.020 --> 01:43:50.180
Believe big.

1729
01:43:50.180 --> 01:43:52.460
Christmas in July, if you guys didn't hear last night,

1730
01:43:52.460 --> 01:43:55.620
that's the word over the community in this season.

1731
01:43:55.620 --> 01:43:56.860
It's Christmas in July

1732
01:43:56.860 --> 01:43:59.180
and God has surprises and blessings for you.

1733
01:43:59.180 --> 01:44:00.220
God bless.

1734
01:44:00.220 --> 01:44:01.060
See you.