Welcome, welcome. Hi. Great to see you all. Hello, where are my beautiful faces.
If you're able to turn your camera on, I would love for you to do that low and some of y'all saw you this afternoon and I get to see you again.
It's so great.
Awesome.
All right, you all I'm going to go ahead and get started. We have a lot to cover tonight.
And for those of you that came this afternoon there's some that's similar to this afternoon but I have shifted some things for tonight.
So I'm excited God's going to continue to move. And I'm super grateful to be here. If you have never been with us before and you're here for the first time, can you tell us either in the chat or raise your hand.
And let us know that you're joining us for the first time. I don't know if I see some sometimes it's hard for me to read everybody's name super fast. Is anyone new you're joining for the first time ever.
All right.
I might circle back to this ladies because I feel like some of the new ladies might jump on in a little bit.
All right, well, welcome back. For those of you that have been with us before you all know who I am by now I think.
I'm going to be talking about the real you and awakening and what that means to awaken to all that God has for you in the days ahead.
I have several people that are finishing up their phase one and I just felt like it was super important to circle back to.
I want to also mention just real quick.
I didn't have time this afternoon to put them up, but I am going to be putting up in your group. Some of y'all have seen one already. I was asking, like, how many of y'all have seen one already.
And we just are so grateful that you allow us to be here with you and I'm believing for God to shift and move things in a big way.
I want to also mention just real quick.
I didn't have time this afternoon to put them up, but I am going to be putting up in your group. Some of y'all have seen one already. I was asking, like, hey, what week are you in?
I did one post sometime last week and that's been going really well. So I'm going to add that to the two other groups.
And really all this is, for those of you that it's like a check-in, like if you've fallen off, it's okay for you just to say, hey, I got distracted, I fell off.
If you're just, you know, moving along just fine, you can just say what week you're in. You don't have to share a lot of detail unless you feel led.
But it's more just so that we know where everybody's at and how many people, like, you know, like, let's say, for example, if there's a group of 100 and I only get 10 responses,
I'm going to be probably start to be concerned about the other people that never respond. You know what I'm saying?
So that helps me kind of gauge where people are at. So I want to encourage you to respond on that when I put that up in your groups.
Also, I want to encourage you all to not just fall off because that is one of the things I've realized in one of our groups we have.
And some people have been in there a while. And we're doing some cleanup on groups and there are some people that have just fallen off.
You know, I think social media can be hard at times, and we're just tired of technology in general.
But I want to encourage you all that to not, excuse me, to not just fall off.
I'd rather you all tell us that you're struggling or something got, you know, caused a distraction or whatever versus us just wondering, like, was this just too much for them?
You know, are they struggling and we just don't have a clue what's happening.
If you fell down or stopped, I want to encourage you to ask God to give you the grace to get back up and keep going.
And y'all, some days it might just feel like that for a day where you're just like, man, I just don't have the energy to do this today.
And that is okay. I hope y'all know that. But I don't want you to stay there long.
So if you are struggling, okay, I see you, Natasha. Yeah, just choose to not give up.
So I try to just remind you all, even if I respond to you one-on-one like this, but I feel like it's important to say this to the whole group.
You all, one step a day is better than no step. Okay?
So just choose, you know, maybe you plan to do a lot.
Someone shared this afternoon, they had planned to come in and work on the program and they were going to clean their house and just some things happened.
And, you know, they're also struggling with some grief.
And so I want you all to know, like, maybe just choose bite size.
If you're feeling overwhelmed right now, let's just take a bite versus trying to eat the whole elephant, if you will.
Y'all ever heard that before? Yeah. So just keep moving forward.
Some of my ladies that have been in the group for a while will testify to this.
I will always keep cheering you on.
on just keep moving forward, just keep moving forward. Because
again, that is better than no progress. It's not about
perfection. It's not about like keeping up with someone else.
This is your journey. And we just want to see you see it all
the way through because you're going to experience life change
if you do. All right. On that note, I'm one of the things that
happens a lot is shame. A lot of people I've noticed a couple
people have been mentioning, I feel shame, I feel, you know,
just beat down, I feel really heavy and discouraged. And I was
talking about that this afternoon. For some of you,
depression and oppression has become a lifestyle. And it's not
your fault. So I don't want you to receive shame when I when I
talk about this. And I don't want you to receive shame if
you've fallen and you know, really struggled to get back up
to keep moving. Some of you all the enemy will try to get you to
to avoid it at all costs moving forward, because he's trying to
tell you it's going to be too painful to keep moving forward.
And I want to encourage you to believe the best I want you to
try to resist those kind of thoughts, because the enemy
doesn't want you to move forward. So what he'll do is
he'll send border bullies. That's, that's what we call
them. And border bullies can be different for everybody, your
border bully might be a lot of heavy, heavy, heavy, deep
depression. And again, some of you all you really genuinely are
battling that because the enemy is sending that against you. But
some of you, because you grew up in a home where your parent was
very depressed and oppressed a lot, you are battling that not
just for yourself, but you might also be battling what has been
carried down through your family line. Okay, so that was one of
the things in my life, I had to really watch and even still
today, if I go through something really hard, the enemy always
tries to come and just bring like a deep despair, if you
will. And so I have to really keep that in check and keep
moving. And I stay accountable to my friends. And I stay
connected to people and just stay engaged. So if that's you,
we love you. And we don't want you to give into shame or
isolation that is not from God. Okay. Last announcement is you
all mark your calendars. I almost forgot to announce this
earlier today. We have on Thursday, almost said July.
July is almost over. I can't believe it. Thursday, August
8, at 8pm. Eastern Time, we are doing a special live session
dream interpretation. So you all have a recording in your
content. But this is gonna be a totally new person coming and
doing dream interpretation, they're going to teach you
about it, talk to you about it, all the different dynamics that
go into dream interpretation, probably even I don't know for
sure if he'll touch on this. But my guess is he's going to
also talk on we get this question a lot. How do you even
know if a dream is like something from God or not? And
do I need to even pay attention to my dreams, all that kind of
stuff. So we would love to have you join us that is going to be
open to everyone in the community. So just so y'all
know, again, that's Thursday, August 8, at 8pm, it will be
recorded, we always get this question, it is going to be
recorded. So if you cannot be there live, you will be able to
watch the replay. Okay. All right, announcements done. I'm
going to go ahead and pray. Father, thank you so much for
this night. God, thank you for every woman that's here live
every woman that's going to watch the replay. Thank you Lord
for revealings for healing that are so needed. God, thank you
for grace and mercy that's flowing from heaven above right
now. We thank you God that the river of life is flowing and is
flowing into us. I just thank you that you just Holy Spirit
would just come and wash over our hearts, our minds, our
bodies, our spirits and our souls. That you would fill us
afresh with your life with your power with your truth, let your
truth come in and bring light into every dark area and
illuminate those things that are in darkness that need to be
brought to the light so that we can be healed that we can
experience not only that that healing and the knowing in our
knower, but God the breakthrough the release. We just we just
yes, Lord, we just ask for more release and more lightheartedness
coming into us. We thank you that you would lift the
heaviness and the weariness that has come upon some people just
right off of them. In Jesus name, we thank you Jesus, that
you came, you allowed your body to be broken and your blood to
be shed. You took the weight of our sin upon yourself as well as
the sin of other people that they have committed against us.
You took that all on yourself. So Lord, I just ask you to help
us to step into freedom tonight and help us to know what freedom
looks like. So many of us have maybe not even grown up in homes
that that we learned what joy or
or happiness or true freedom looks like, feels like,
what hope living in a life of fullness and joy,
unspeakable and full of glory looks like.
So Lord, I pray that you would teach us
a little bit more tonight.
Yes, Lord.
I thank you for unveiling any kind of mindsets,
limiting belief systems that would keep us
from being able to receive your truth in Jesus' name.
Amen.
Amen and amen.
All right, you all.
We're gonna start out tonight.
I'm gonna talk to you about this giving God permission.
I know some of you all did it weeks ago,
but God definitely told me it's time
to revisit the permission slip.
Some of you all might've just started and that's okay.
Even if you did it yesterday, God is saying,
he wants this not to just be something that we do one time.
He wants it to become a part of our lifestyle.
So where we on our daily basis are thinking about,
God, I give you permission.
I surrender to you, Lord.
Y'all, he is the vine and we are the branches.
Yes, man, I feel the Holy Spirit.
We can't do anything apart from him.
And so I wanna encourage you
just to kind of heart posture yourself,
like why do I try on my own?
Why do I strive and work and push and all these things?
Why do I put these hard task things on myself
and just always believe the lie that I'm not enough?
I wanna ask you to ask yourself,
I was gonna talk about this later,
but I just feel the nudge to bring it up now.
There's a scripture in the Bible
when Adam and Eve were in the garden
and they ate of the fruit and then God came.
This was after they then realized they were naked
and they were trying to cover up
because they realized now that they were naked
and God is coming into the garden.
God used to walk with them every day.
They walked with God.
It's incredible to even fathom and think about,
but God was looking for them and they were hiding.
When he finds them, he's like, where are you basically?
And when they come out,
they basically, if you look at the scripture,
it talks about God asking them,
who told you that you were naked?
And I wanna pause and just ask you that tonight,
whatever it is that you have been struggling with,
identity stuff, not feeling like you're enough,
never measuring up,
that you have all this shame, you can't move forward.
Some of y'all, that's the story
that you're telling yourself on a regular basis.
I can't do this.
I can't move forward.
I am never gonna be healed enough
for someone good to love me.
And I wanna ask you tonight from the Holy Spirit,
who told you that?
Because that lie entered, if you will, in the garden
and it entered through trauma
or it entered through maybe even a wrong choice
that you made and you believed the lie
when shame and condemnation and guilt came from the enemy.
And God wants you to break free from that tonight.
He wants you to come into the fullness
of what he created you to be, who he created you to be.
Like when he envisioned us,
I imagine even when he created Adam and Eve
and he created them to be in relationship
and communion with him daily,
he never wanted us to be separated from him.
So he's always been about doing and carrying out everything
to lead us back into that relationship with him.
Giving God permission to access our hearts is key.
So it's also giving God permission,
excuse me, to bring things up and out of us, okay?
So we don't want that junk to say, press down in there.
We want all of that in God's timing to come up and out.
Revelation 3.20 says,
behold, I stand at the door and knock.
If any man hears my voice and opens the door,
I will come into him and he will,
and we'll sup with him and he with me.
Open here in this scripture,
open here in this scripture literally means to open,
to open it up literally and physically.
So he's saying, I'm standing at the door and I'm knocking
and the one who opens unto me, I will come in with them
and I will sup with them.
You know, I looked into this more
than I even did for this afternoon.
To sup means,
Supper to dine with and then it says I will make because I had to look up. I was like, man
I don't want to say the word intercourse again tonight because people just think sex
Don't we? Okay, but here's what it means
I'm going to read this phrase to you. It says I will make him to share in my most intimate and blissful intercourse
So the one that opens unto the lord that is what he wants to bring us into
intercourse here actually means
Exchange especially of thoughts or feelings
communion
It's it's about a deep relationship like that into me see
Like god even he sees it all already
But he's saying I am not going to barge in and bust down the door of your heart
Your heart
I'm asking you i'm knocking and i'm asking you to let me in and the choice
is yours
The choice is ours. Jesus even himself gave us an example. He communed with his disciples
Frequently didn't he he sat and he ate with them and he broke bread with them and even the night before
He was crucified you all he's dining with
His disciples and even judas
Himself as well when jesus chose to go to the cross. He chose it for us
He died to make everything better everything that you would ever struggle with
He died to make that better. He died so that we can live in victory. And so what I want you guys to think about
Ladies is where you are right now
in victorious living
And the gap in between those two places
Can is contained with several things
Oh, I forgot a couple notes here
So here are the things I jotted down the gap in between actually us being able to live the abundant
You know double double life, you know the good good life that jackie talks about that god talks about in his word
Is healing so the healing in our hearts, which is why you're here
Transformation of our minds that comes by our hearts being healed, right?
We get rid of old thoughts orphan mentalities limiting belief systems negative mindsets anything that does not
Partner and align with the kingdom. We want to rid ourselves of those things and we are transformed by the renewing of our minds
Y'all what daily?
Daily if I even go a couple days
And don't like I I really I mean I love my time with the lord
and I will listen to the word and do all that but like I my most favorite is to open my bible and just
Read just to read it and renew it in my mind
And if I go a couple days without that I start to think differently not all the way but just these slight little things
And so I encourage you just if that's not where you're at that it's not about religion
It's not about this ritual. Like if you don't do this, this isn't going to
like I
Have fallen in love with the word and with who the word represents
and so I
Love to hear from him to talk to him to read about him and to learn about how I can become more like him
But that came through many years of prayer you all it did
Didn't happen overnight. So for those of you that don't feel that way don't don't believe the lie that that isn't something that's for you
It takes time. Okay, the gap can also represent revelation. We need revelation of god's love every single day
We need an upgrade of our understanding and then also that being like that breaking free
So learning how to embrace the victory so jesus died. He shed his blood the blood is available to us you all
But if we don't have revelation of the things that are in darkness, how do we apply the blood of jesus christ to it?
We can't
So that's why we need the holy spirit to bring the things about a darkness that we have long forgotten about some of us
Into the light so that then we can apply the blood and the truth to it. That's that's the process
That's the revealing for healing
process
but it all begins with permission
And supernatural surrender so I want to remind you all this is not something you can just do on your own
Okay, this is not a do-it-yourself project
This is a supernatural process and we are constantly
inviting
God to lead the way
So where do you need to give god permission to lead you out?
To lead you out of hiding to lead you out of shame to lead you out of pain lead you out of limiting beliefs lies
Trauma so that he can lead you into
What into victory into the land flowing with?
milk and honey. Do y'all read these scriptures and you're just like, what does that mean? I,
I want to live in the land of, you know, where the honey is flowing and the milk is plentiful.
Y'all that's abundance. That's if you go back and read some of these scriptures, you know,
these were not, this was not common. And so, you know, when they went into that land,
they were big giants and they were big, great. I mean, there's big fruit. So it was like way
bigger than what they were used to experiencing. Maybe, maybe it's so that God can lead you into
the goodness of God. Maybe it's the belief that you can experience the goodness of God in the
land of the living now here today, that you don't have to wait another 10 years and you don't have
to be in the waiting room and in the land of, I don't know if this is ever going to happen.
Maybe it's leading you into security in Christ because as much as you wanted to, you just really
struggle with insecurity and doubt and unbelief. Maybe you struggle with knowing who you really
are in Christ. Y'all I knew who I was in Christ before, but I can promise you, I know who I am
in Christ way more now than I did before. And so I want to encourage you, you know, one of the
things that I think is one of the biggest resistors is our own pride. You know, we,
especially people that were raised in church, you know, and again, I'm not saying you don't
know your identity, but I believe God wants to give you an upgrade to your understanding of
your identity in Christ. And the more rooted we become in the love of God, the more we
really realize, wow, and I have so much to still learn about the love of God and what that means
for me. So I want to encourage you just to lay aside any ideas of, I already know all of that.
I already know who I am in Christ, know who you are, but always know that you can continue to
become more like Christ. You can continue to become more rooted in who he's called you to be.
So I'm going to read this permission slip over you. I'm going to encourage you. I always feel
like if we just close our eyes, at least for me, I always focus more. I want to encourage you just
to ask the Lord to start to show you what you need to give him permission to come into tonight.
Maybe some of you all need to give him permission. Like you're going to surrender all over again,
even though you did two weeks ago when you started, maybe some of you all are going to
see an image of something that you're giving him permission to heal. So I want to invite you to,
to kind of ponder that as I read this over you. And so you'll close your eyes. I'm going to read
this prayer over you. Father God, I give you permission to search me and to reveal anything
in my heart that does not belong to my true identity. Anything that is hindering me from
living the love story that you have already written for me. Anything that's hindering me
from living the full life, the abundant life that you have for me. Holy spirit, I invite you into
the darkest places in my heart. Show me the areas that are still wounded, that are still hurting.
When you reveal these broken places to me, I covenant with you to release them into your care
and to respond with forgiveness and repentance. I set aside this season of my life for a time of
healing and wholeness and ask Holy spirit, ask you to take charge of this process. I ask you,
Holy spirit to dwell with me and in me, I need you. I cannot heal myself. I want to be free,
free from the past, free to be who I truly am. Help me to become who you created me to be.
Show me the lies I've believed about myself, my life, my surroundings, even the lies I've
believed about you. God teach me the greater truth. Teach me your ways. Teach me how to think
and how to live abundantly. Teach me, show me, heal me, grow me. So be it. Amen and amen.
Y'all, before you go into breakout, I want to point out the part that says, when you reveal
these broken places to me, I covenant with you to release them into your care. Some of you all,
as God has been revealing some of these things to you, I feel like what he's shown me is you're just
holding them. You don't mean to, but it's like, you don't, you just are feeling the weight of
this stuff and you're kind of living in it. And God is saying, let me take it out of your hands
because here's the thing you all, whether we realize it or not, some of this stuff that
we've gone through and we've carried inside of us, it's kind of been a comfort zone. We're used to it.
But God wants to give you.
you a new, a new robe, if you will, he wants to give you a new
bag to carry that's way lighter, and that has a lot of good stuff
in it. But you got to be willing to give him the bag full of
rocks or hard stuff, the pain and the trauma first. And for
some of you, you're like, I'm trying. I'm trying to do that.
But I don't know how and I would encourage you to ask Jesus to
show you how he will show you how to release those things to
him in due season. Alright, so when you go into breakout, I
want you to share with each other what is something that
God's asking you to surrender to him tonight? Where is he asking
you to give him permission? Okay.
That's all right. If you all can't join breakout, you can.
That's totally fine. You can stay here and I'm going to be
praying over everybody. All right, there we go. Go ahead
and grab that you have eight minutes, ladies. All right. Keep
it short, brief and powerful.
Just going to make sure we have everyone that has two people
here. All right, Brenda, Natalia, I don't know if I
couldn't see if you all are able to join breakout or not. Okay,
cool. There we go. Perfect. Father, thank you so much for Oh,
Christina, you need a room to go into. See here. What room was
that? That's 12. Oh, there we go. I'm gonna put you in room
12 there, Christina. All right, Jamie, were you able to click
to join? That's pretty much everyone. All right, Father, we
just thank you so much for your goodness. We thank you God for
the truth that we can choose to surrender at any time that God
you give us a new day a new clean slate every single day.
And your mercies are new every morning God that you never hold
anything against us God that you're not Thank you, Lord.
You're not angry with us. You're not disappointed. Gotta thank
you that you understand. So Lord, we just ask for the
comfort of heaven comfort of the Father to come tonight into
these rooms into this room where some of the people are driving
for those that watch the replay. Just ask you to help them to
feel the comfort of God surrounding them. We know that
your word says that you hide us under the shadow of your wings
and in the presence of the Almighty. We ask you Lord just
to usher us in to the secret place with you tonight that you
would help us to hear what your spirit is saying louder than any
voice of the enemy that we don't have to fear we don't have to be
afraid of what might come. Because Lord, you are always
looking out for us. You are always on our side. You're
always fighting on our behalf. Yes, Lord. I just thank you,
Lord, that just like Isaiah 61 three says that you will bestow
on us a crown of beauty instead of ashes. And so Lord, we just
thank you that you would take every hard place in our lives
right now. And just in a fresh way that you would just continue
to work in those areas and that you would place the balm of
Gilead upon our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits,
and our souls. We thank you for complete healing that we would
lack no good thing, but also that you would turn anything
that has felt like ash and destruction and you would turn
it around for beauty in our lives that it would bring you
glory. God, I thank you. Y'all that's always so funny when it
pops up on the screen. We thank you that you would bring healing
and closure in the areas that we need it so that we can move
forward. We thank you that you would help us Yes, Lord, that
you would help us to take off the grave clothes that we would
take off those the clothes that remind us and others of mourning
and you would help us to move into joy and restoration and
healing. God, we thank you that nothing is too hard for you. And
I thank you Lord right now that you would just continue to
remind us that even like the man what can't what just came to my
mind, ladies is like how the guy, you know, that needed
healing, but there was no way to get into the house. And so his
friends cut a hole into the roof and lowered him down to be in
front of Jesus. And so Lord right now, I just thank you for
friends that you would send good friends around each one of these
ladies. And even if they have friends in their life right now
that are good friends, I pray that you would remind them of
who these people are.
Those people that would war on their behalf.
And if they don't have friends like this,
that you would send those kinds of friends and through their life,
the kind of friends that would, um,
you know, go through the hardship of climbing up on the roof,
cutting through the roof and lowering their friend down to get them
in front of Jesus.
And I thank you, Lord,
that you would help us to be that kind of friend as well,
because those things that we want.
Yes, ladies, that's what we've got to become.
So Lord help us to become really, um,
great friends to those around us.
Hi, Jamie.
Did it kick you out of the room you were in?
It kicked me out again this week.
I don't know.
It worked earlier today.
Sometimes it's just a tricky internet.
Do you know what room you were in?
I don't.
I I'm so sorry.
You don't have to apologize.
I promise.
I'm just going to go ahead and put you into any room then.
Is that all right?
Okay.
That's great.
Thank you.
Welcome.
Okay.
That's there for you.
We just ask for a blessing upon Jamie's internet connection.
We thank you that you would just help this not be a frustration
for her.
We thank you that you would just surround all internet connections.
But Lord,
I know that was something that was getting in the way for her
last week too.
So we just thank you for grace.
We thank you for peace in the midst of any struggles with
internet or connections.
We thank you even just right now,
just feel led to pray for safety for anybody that's a part of our
community.
That's driving this pandemic.
Part of our community.
That's driving that you would just protect them from any accidents
or attacks.
And I just thank you God for your head,
your protection around us.
I thank you Lord to Stephen.
I'm reading ladies in Romans 828 here.
It says,
so we are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually
woven together to fit into God's perfect plan of bringing good
into our lives.
So we are his lovers who have been called to fulfill his designed
purpose.
God,
I thank you that you call us the lovers of God and that we are
your beloved as well.
And so Lord,
I thank you.
That you would just come into the recesses of our hearts,
our minds,
our souls and that you would heal any place that isn't that is
broken.
That causes us to not believe that we are your beloved that
causes us to live underneath of where you have actually called
us to live in our mindsets.
And you know,
I even think last night I released a word about the banqueting
table.
And so Lord,
I thank you that you would help us to to really know that that
banquet table is there.
It's available for us and that we would come and sit at your
table.
That we would not just sit at your table and sit and watch the
blessings in front of us,
but that we would partake that we would taste and see that you
God are good and that the blessings that you have for us the
things that you want to give us are so much better than the
temporary things that this world has to offer us.
Let's see here.
This one is Colossians 3 13 through 14.
This is in the message version.
It says so chosen by God for this new life of love dress in
the wardrobe.
God picked out for you.
I feel like that's fitting because of what I was saying earlier
compassion,
kindness,
humility,
quiet,
strength,
discipline,
be even tempered.
Sorry to turn this page content with second place.
Wow,
be content with second place.
I don't know if I wouldn't want to always be content with that,
but that's a good reminder quick to forgive an offense forgive
as quickly and completely as the master forgave you and
regardless of what else you put on where love it's your basic
all-purpose garment.
Never be without it got a thank you right now that you would
help us to forgive as quickly and completely as the master
forgave us that there would be no lingering effects of
unforgiveness in our hearts our minds our bodies our spirits
and our souls that we are kinsmen Redeemers that we are we
are bringing change and transformation into our lives into
our families lives and we are causing ripple effects for the
eternity for eternity that we are bringing your kingdom here
on Earth as you desire it in heaven that every day that we
choose to partner with you that we are ushering in those
things that are true that are life-giving that bring healing
that bring Redemption that we no longer have to live below
your best for us.
I thank you Lord that you would continue to wipe away every
tear from our eyes and eliminate death entirely.
No one will mourn or weep any longer.
The pain of wounds will no longer exist for the old order
has ceased y'all that's what it's going to be like when we
get to Eternity.
We're not even going to know pain.
We're not going to think about pain.
We're not going to miss people, you know, all the things that
we struggle with in this world.
So we hopefully are working for an eternal purpose while while
we are here for us, you know, learning how to heal some of
you all do want to find your spirit mates.
I hope that your main goal is to step into the fullness
of God's plans and purposes for you for eternity,
for eternal purposes.
And y'all, the spirit made is the cherry on top.
I promise you.
I promise you, you're never gonna regret
seeking first the kingdom of God and his righteousness
and all these other things will be added unto you.
All right, awesome.
All right, let me hear from you.
Who is willing to share with the whole group
what you shared in your private breakout group?
What are you feeling led to surrender
or give God permission to come into tonight?
Anyone want?
All right, Emily, go ahead.
Sorry, I wasn't expecting to go this fast.
Yeah, so just when you started praying,
I saw the phrase, things not working out.
And I told the girls in my group,
that makes really good sense for me.
And so I just gave God this whole,
I almost thought a three-dimensional sentence.
And I just gave him that whole feeling
and everything that that means to me.
I'm just like, okay, God, I just surrender that.
I love this.
All right, who can relate to what Emily just said?
You need to surrender and let go of things not working out.
The lie that things are not gonna work out.
Anyone else?
Yeah, I think a lot of y'all.
But see, that's the enemy's biggest lie, isn't it?
What you're doing is never going to work.
Why are you wasting your time?
He's such a liar.
But we're gonna look more at the father, guess what?
Who's never a liar.
He's not a man that he should lie.
The Bible says that God will never lie to us.
Praise the Lord.
And you know, Emily, I keep wanting to call you Lauren,
because as soon as I saw your name, Lauren stood out.
So Emily, Lauren, I feel like that's significant.
When you said it was three-dimensional,
that really stood out to me.
So I wanna encourage you to lean into that.
I've lost you on my screen.
So I'm like looking everywhere for you.
I don't know where you're at, but it's always,
oh, there we are, there we are, I see you.
I really wanna encourage you
to lean into the three-dimensional.
That really, I felt like there was something on that.
Like all the different ways
that you have experienced in your life,
like this isn't gonna work.
I don't know if people have said that to you as well.
Like, you know, what you're doing isn't working
or you should just be satisfied without this
or like the dimensions of that.
God wants to come in and heal each dimension.
When you said that, that just felt super natural.
He wants to come into that in every way, shape and form.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Yep, all right, Delisa, hi.
Hello, hey, yeah, so the first thing that I heard
is that God just wants me to release the questions
and the concern about my spouse, who he is,
and just release my love life to him in general,
which for me is very difficult.
I've probably been in a relationship
since I was in high school.
And one particular relationship
that just almost completely broke me
was I was in one relationship,
but then when I was on the phone with a guy friend of mine,
I heard that the guy friend was my husband
while in that relationship.
I heard it, I know I heard it.
And so I'm still in the other relationship.
I'm going on about my life.
Me and this guy never has anything going on,
but every so often I would remember what I heard.
At the point that I heard it,
I kind of just like pushed it to the back of my mind.
Like, no, he's been my friend, that's crazy.
Well, what happened was it came back around
when I was in a, actually a season of healing,
because I've been in many,
but I was in a season of like healing, fasting,
all of this different stuff.
And the guy friend who I heard was my husband,
we basically just started talking like every day.
And so it just, it kept coming.
It was more like prevalent.
Like everything that I, everything was built around,
I heard that this man was my husband.
So pretty much, you know, got in that relationship,
honestly forced him into a relationship
because he didn't want to mess up the friendship.
But because of what I thought I heard,
which now I know was deception,
you know, I just got into that relationship.
And it's crazy that I heard it years before
me and him ever even reconnected.
I mean, literally like probably four or five years
that I had heard it.
And so, yeah, forced him into that relationship.
That revealed a lot of stuff in me that was still broken.
You know, it was just a lot.
So the area for me when it comes to love has been very like tricky because that whole situation
made me not trust myself.
And because I thought for sure it was God who had spoken, it just caused a lot of like
pain and confusion.
And so for me, one of the things that I that I know that I heard tonight is that God just
wanted me to release my love story to him, the ending of it, how it's going to come together.
Because whoever I'm talking to, if my husband or not, you know, I just really, for me, pray
that it would just be ease and that the man would know.
I mean, it's even got to the point where I've even told God, don't even tell me.
Like I don't even have to know if you told that man that, let that man pursue me, you
know, as his person, because it just caused so much confusion that, you know, and I don't
even know if it's right to say that I don't want to know, but that's just where, kind
of where I have been in like the past few years of this, like not dating and stuff.
So yeah, that was my little thing.
So, and you know what, that's such a real issue that a lot of people struggle with is
like, who is it?
When is it?
When are, when is it going to be?
Is it this person?
Is it that person?
And so really love that you're saying, I'm just, you know, God saying, Hey, surrender
all these questions and concerns to me.
I do.
I think something like I really related to when you said I had been in relationships
since high school.
That's how, that was my story before I always had a boyfriend, you know, I never knew how
to be by myself until then God, that last time after I dated the girl's dad, I just
took a break for a couple of years and I, I wasn't someone, I didn't put myself in the
waiting room.
I really knew that I needed a break.
I needed to find out who I was because y'all, the more that we are whole and healed, the
more we will be able to tell if someone else is healthy and whole when we meet them.
And I do believe like Jackie, we've talked about this in our community.
I prayed a lot, God, thank you for helping me to recognize my spirit mate and for my
spirit mate to recognize me.
Like I just prayed that and I just released that and I didn't stress about it.
Like how I used to.
So I do want to encourage you to Lisa, I think you're onto a really good path.
It sounds like you're continuing to surrender this.
And even, um, it sounds like, you know, God is already restoring your ability to know
if you hear him and to trust yourself.
I mean, you just said, God said this to me and I started praying into this.
So I want to encourage you like that is something God's already renewing and I believe he will
continue to show you that.
One of the things, this is totally unrelated, but just so y'all, I think I've told you guys
this before, but we do not ever, when we do prophetic ministry nights, we never props
prophesied dates, mates and babies y'all.
We don't, because those are just things that you really need to be careful about.
And there are people that, you know, have gotten prophecies by people in their churches
and stuff that, you know, about a name of a person they, and then they've been stuck
for 20 years, not dating people because they don't have the name of that person.
Okay.
So really want to encourage you all just, it doesn't mean you can't learn how to trust
yourself, but just be cautious of that kind of stuff.
Um, you know, sometimes the enemy will try to insert those things into our minds to get
us stuck on something so that we don't move forward as well.
But I love that you're learning how to trust yourself and hear God, and you will continue
to grow in that staying accountable and community and reading the word of God are going to be
key.
Y'all.
The word of God is how you're going to learn the voice of God even greater than hearing
sermons preached.
Do y'all know that reading the word of God is the greatest way to learn the voice of
God.
Sermons are great too.
Obviously.
I believe in hearing sermons.
I love the word of God.
My husband preaches, but learning it through the word is the most important thing you can
do.
Okay.
All right.
Let's go.
Hi.
Um, so before we even started tonight, I was doing some hard work and, um, I finished up
and then I was like, oh, I need to jump in on the zoom and I was like, oh, I need to
do that.
Uh, permission slip tonight.
So the Lord was definitely on this for me.
Um, but the thing that the Lord's like highlighting that I need to surrender, there's a few things,
but the main thing which encompasses, which I think encompasses all of the things is,
um, just my struggle with not truly governing my life.
Um, like my life, not really being mine to control.
understanding that I am not my own and I've always had a problem with this like
I used to get there's certain worship songs that I would not sing because I'm
like this is I would be mad like I know it's the truth and I know the Lord's
ways are far better than my ways but why can't I be the one to perfectly guide
and control why can't my decision be the perfect one to make sure my life goes
the way that I think it will and I know some of it is what was said earlier
about things not working out and there's like this sense of well I'm
gonna be disappointed if I just if I let him if I let the Lord control all the
things then I then it's not gonna be as good as I think it will and I'm gonna be
disappointed and so that is what the Lord has highlighted and like it is one
of those things where it's like well I know that's a lie but also there's still
a level of unbelief that I'm walking in because this is still something that I
continuously struggle with. Yeah so here's my question for you is um you know if we are
in a place of if I believe the Lord if I let the Lord choose I'm going to be
disappointed I'm gonna end up disappointed so typically that comes
from being disappointed by our parents or someone that was making decisions for
us that actually we felt brought us some kind of harm or let down or they
didn't follow through on their word or you know the other flip side of that is
you were saying also that you really struggle to let go of control and so
that that is a defense mechanism you know so if I let go of control this is
going to be bad for me so I would encourage you or anyone else that is in
those kind of places where that stuff is being revealed is always asking the
Lord you know where did this start for me that I felt disappointed when I let
someone else choose for me. I mean I know for me it was my childhood with both my
parents they're just how they parented and I know now what I didn't then is
that they didn't know what they were doing but that doesn't affect me that
doesn't change the effect that it's had on me so I know where it comes from.
Yeah so um so I will encourage you are what week are you in Ariel just so that
I know? I'm at the very beginning of week five. Okay so if you remember one of the
things that I always encourage you all to do is just to really um even if we
know where it comes from and we've worked on that just to revisit it and
just ask the Lord is there any other piece that you want me to see that I
didn't see last week and it doesn't mean you have to go back all the way through
that stuff but there might just be some lingering effects when y'all were in the
breakout room that was one of the things I was praying over is um there was a
scripture I read and it really stood out to me to it was about forgiving and
like that there wouldn't be any remnant left of unforgiveness in us and uh so
that just really stands out for whatever reason right now and it doesn't mean
that I think that there is but I just felt led to circle back to that scripture
um so good thank you for sharing appreciate it and uh keep letting go of
that control and just keep surrendering it will help it really will you all will
start to experience change you know it will get easier over time it will all
right let's see uh is it Naysha or Nasha how do I say your name
Naysha Naysha okay um so I know earlier um at the
my time 12 p.m heart check-in um I shared um about my home church and just some pain
that I have experienced there and I wanted to surrender that um to God and I noticed
like most of the pain that I have experienced is not being able to move in the
giftings God has given me um or and just not being trusted in them and them being questioned
and um I know this past Sunday I experienced some pain um from my home church and just now
while everyone else was talking I realized that it's a lot of just the rejection of it um and it
might even stem just from childhood as well just me wanting to be me and use what
God has given me, and they're either being jealousy
or just some type of rejection along with it.
So I noticed like, whenever I'm questioned about it
or there's some type of rejection, I do get down a bit
because I did get a little sad yesterday.
I feel really like it's super important.
God is telling me to ask you, what are your giftings?
I feel like you need to voice them tonight in a safe place.
And I want you to know that we're gonna fully accept you
and we're gonna celebrate you.
You don't have to operate in the gift,
just share with us what the gift is, yeah.
It's hard.
It's okay.
It's hard.
So this is where, it's okay if you're not ready
to do it yet, but when you're ready this week,
I would encourage you to do a post
and just celebrate your own self a little bit.
Because ladies, here's what's so important.
And this is where she's, if I don't wanna push her
because it could cause trauma.
So as soon as I see that that's really that hard for her
to go into that, I'm gonna encourage her to do that
when she's ready, okay?
So you don't have to do that right now,
but I just, I asked because I needed to know
if you really could publicly acknowledge it or not,
because that shows me how deep the wound is, okay?
So ladies, when we have wounds like this,
where I'm gonna even call it an identity crisis
a little bit, because somewhere along the way,
we kind of touched on this this afternoon a little bit.
Someone else shared about something totally different.
She was different than all of her family.
And I don't know if Caitlin's here tonight,
but she was different than the way her family was.
And so she started hate,
like she actually verbalized this afternoon
that she hates that quality about herself.
But that's actually a gift that God gave
to her and her family.
He created her different.
And so Naisha, God put these gifts in you for a purpose
and they're beautiful and amazing.
And whether or not your church or the people in your life
currently know how to handle them and honor that in you,
or even to a steward that gift in you really well,
that doesn't mean that those aren't real, okay?
And so when you're ready this week,
I just wanna encourage you to pray about this.
It can be next week, if you're not ready this week,
it's when you have the courage and the grace,
but I do feel like it's super important for you
to begin to voice who you are.
And I'm gonna pray for you before we move on to just real
quick, I'll say short prayer.
Father, thank you for Naisha.
Thank you God for the gifts and the abilities
that you've placed in her.
God, I thank you that you'll help her to continue
to come out of hiding where people have harmed her
through their words, through their actions.
They've minimized her, they've questioned her.
I'm even hearing the word ridiculed.
God, I thank you that you'll help her to come out
of hiding where people have harmed her through their words,
ridiculed, Lord, I thank you that you'll help her
just to not shrink down, but to open up
and to begin to flourish into who you've created her to be.
And I pray Lord that you'll guide her to,
whether it's a different group or a different church
where she can thrive, where she can be trained up
in these giftings and that they would be honored
in a really safe way.
And I just thank you God that you would guard
and keep watch over her and ask you to heal
every wound of rejection that's been created
in Jesus name, amen, amen.
Y'all, anybody that's ever experienced that on any level,
I just, in Jesus name, those prayers are for you as well.
Okay, y'all can receive anything that's a word given
to anybody else, if that's resonating in your spirit,
even last night as people were praying over Sarah
and myself and giving us words, y'all know that you can,
if something's really speaking to you, you can say,
you're not taking that word from us
because it's ours too.
You can just say, man, I received that for myself as well.
Okay, all right, Natasha, go ahead.
Thank you, yes, I just wanted to briefly share
that when you were talking about an attitude of pride
and thinking that you already know your identity,
who you are in Christ very well,
that just really, really spoke to me.
And I just felt like I needed to release that attitude
of pride and ask the Lord for grace
to have deeper, deeper, you know,
much deeper insights on who I am in the Lord because like you said, none of us can probably
in this life fully walk in the truth of our identity or be satisfied that we are have
received the full revelation of our identity. So I just wanted to share that.
Thank you. Thank you for your courage. I love that. Y'all anybody else struggling with that
I encourage you just to jump right into that. You don't even have to go live just right
now. Father, I just come out of agreement with pride and pretending that I have it all
together that I know everything about who I was created to be. And I just come into
a full fresh understanding of your who I am and you my identity in Christ that I'll come
out of any insecurity, fear, unbelief, and come into unity with you in Jesus name, y'all,
it can be that, you know, we just, it's those moments where we just pause and, and we just
say like how she just went after it was something I said just in passing and, and that that
spoke into her spirit. And she's like, I'm going to come out of agreement with that.
That's how we do it. So good. Erica, go ahead.
Bethany, I hope you had a great with yesterday. I did. Thank you.
I shared two things in our group. The first one is body image has just been one of those
things that has stuck around for a really, really, really long time. And I think, you
know, I've chosen to be single now for almost four years, because I really wanted to work
on myself. But one thing that goes through my mind is, well, maybe I've been single because
no one has wanted me. But yet, I really haven't put myself out there. And I think it's because
I really do struggle with just feeling so inadequate body wise. And the other thing
that I shared was that I really do feel like I'm supposed to go into this completely, I'm a
nurse. And so there's like a million choices of nurses. And I've really felt led to pursue this
completely different area of nursing, which really feels so out of reach, because it's just
like a super high level of nursing. But I feel like the Lord is guiding me in that direction.
But yet, every single day, so I have to get a certification. Every single day I sit down to
study, I just hear this message of like, you're never going to get this. You're never going to
understand all of that. And now that I say that out loud, it sounds like an attack from the enemy,
right? But yet, that can be such a clear message that I hear instead of the opposite message,
which I think is from the Lord of telling me to go for it.
Okay, so I love this. Do you know that the enemy is never going to encourage you to move forward
in your life in any capacity? So it doesn't mean that every time we feel led to move forward,
I think that there's a, you know, I will always tell you all balance is key. Okay.
So if our heart, I don't think this is why you're pursuing it, but if our heart is pursuing more
knowledge to get another degree, to have another label behind her name, because we're getting our
identity out of a label or, you know, a title, that's one thing, but it sounds like.
God is calling you into something greater so that you leave behind the lies of what you cannot
accomplish, but he might also have a higher purpose for you in that higher role. Like
I actually am hearing the word influence. I feel like God is leading you into that
so that you can be an influence. And I don't even know what all that role can influence,
but that's what I'm hearing. And so I would encourage you to, when, when you hear things
like you're never going to get this or any other kind of lie, again, those border bullies,
this is another example. Anytime you're trying to move into something greater, even the heart
healing, a greater revelation, a greater, you know, advancement so that you can, you know,
be the influence that God is calling you to be. The enemy does not want you to enter that land.
He doesn't want you to enter the land with milk and honey. So he's going to always try to keep
you in the place where you were now, again, that balance is key. So just continue to ask
the Holy spirit, but here's the thing you can start moving towards that. And guess what you
all ladies, guess what?
Even if we make a wrong step, guess what? God is big enough to redirect us onto the right path.
Okay. So I would encourage you to start, you know, moving towards that. I would wait until
you're finished with heartwork because, you know, we really encourage people to not make any big
movements while they're in heartwork because you want to kind of make sure it's not just because
your heart's getting so stirred up that you're mishearing. Um, but just start looking into the
program, start praying about it during this time. Just don't get distracted. Cause you know,
you want to finish out your heartwork really well. And then on the body image stuff, I also
want to just say, um, years ago, um, I didn't even know I was doing it, you all, but I was eating,
um, to hide my body. I'm not saying that's the case for you, but I remember, um, I was leaving
work one day and these guys, I went to walk across the street and these guys that were not healthy
guys, not all guys are like this. I want to preface this. Okay. We're not getting on the
bash guys bandwagon, but I just, this is an example. Um, they were cat calling me kind of,
and saying like yelling out the window and all this stuff. And I immediately just felt like,
oh, like if I didn't look attractive, this wouldn't happen. That was the lie that came
in my mind so fast. And I can remember after that happened, just really struggling with
turning to food every time I felt nervous or overwhelmed and just really battling all that
again. And so the last few years I've really learned how to give all of that to the Lord.
I'm going to go this, I'm going to go a step further. It's not
on me. It's not my responsibility to make someone not sin.
Okay. Years ago in the church I was in, they didn't believe that you could wear a bikini,
you know, you had to have every ounce of yourself covered up and I'm not knocking that y'all.
I mean, I saw, I live by the beach now and I've seen more butts than I ever wanted to see.
You know, that's just the way the society is now. But, but the flip side of that is that
I felt like I couldn't even go to the beach or I would cause people to sin.
And it, it really fed into all of my body insecurities that were already there and
religion fed that the spirit of religion, not people got, the enemy was using people,
but I just want to encourage you to ask the Lord, like, you know, where,
where is this really stemming from? Is it, you know, am I not moving forward on,
on the health things because I am hiding to some degree? And if so, Lord, why am I hiding?
You know, and just really, it doesn't have to be a striving thing, but just,
you know, lean into that with the Lord. You know, you said I chose to be single for four years
and I believed no one would want me. So those, those thoughts and those beliefs came from
somewhere along your path. So asking the Lord to reveal the beginning of those
is going to be key for you too. And you know, what's really great. I literally,
I just told a friend this one of my prayers on my Jesus cares board. You all, I wish I had my
board to show you right now for a couple of years I had on my board that I wanted to go to the beach
and feel completely free in my bathing suit. And you all, I just had like a moment just recently
in the last few weeks where I was just like, Oh my gosh, like I was at the beach
and I didn't feel insecure one time. I didn't feel like people were staring at me. I didn't
worry. I didn't have all this weird stuff going on in my mind. Like I just was completely at
peace. And it never like that stuff, that old stuff never even crossed my mind.
And it was just like, it was like a breath of fresh air. And so Jesus cares board, you all,
it's a real thing. Put these kinds of things on your Jesus cares board. Like Jesus does care
about these kinds of things. He doesn't want us to feel like we can't go somewhere
in public and wear a tank top or wear shorts or whatever the body image issue is. Some of you all
don't like your face, which y'all are beautiful. So whatever it is, I know that some of like,
that sounds funny to some of y'all, but I hear so many things you wouldn't believe. Like people
just don't like themselves. And so that's not necessarily you Erica, but just that, that came
up as I was explaining that. Appreciate you sharing Kelly, go ahead. And then I'm going to
go into our next content after Kelly. Okay. So I.
Let's see real quickly went through a breakup in January and I've still
been really struggling with that.
Um, I'm 51 and I was overseas as a missionary throughout my thirties.
And when I moved back here to Albuquerque, I dated one Christian
man before I went to the field.
And then when I came back here, I've dated about foreman in the
12 years that I've been back.
And the most recent one, I really felt like I was going to marry him
and I felt peace about that.
And I've never had that happen.
I've always been real like, no, no.
And I felt so much peace.
And, um, so it's been very, very difficult, this breakup.
And it's equally hard because we both go to the same church.
One of his sons serves at my church, um, works at my church with me on staff.
His dad, the guy I dated served has served there for years.
He's been divorced for two years and separated for three and
they attended there as a couple.
And he's very involved on one of their safety teams.
And so I, um, as I've been going through the heart work and even
prior to the heart work, learning some stuff about attachment, I've really
started to realize some things about myself and add some big
breakthroughs in the past, maybe two to three weeks, but in the course
of that, it's also made me become aware of the things that I did that
were unhealthy in the relationship.
And then the enemy partnered with my hormones fluctuating because of
perimenopause has just swooped in so hard with shame and fear that I will
never meet anybody else and feeling anxious to go to church, which, you
know, usually that's your safe place.
And I feel, um, scared that I'll run into him or see some of
his friends who it's uncomfortable.
And so these past two weekends have been so unbelievably dark.
I can't even explain the level of like, I'm not suicidal, but a deep, like
I've gone through one deep depression, another time in my life, and I feel
like it's approaching that and it's very scary and, um, but it's coupled
with these moments of like major breakthroughs of understanding how I
would be at this place and stuff like that.
And so when you are asking, um, what asking the Lord to reveal the broken
places that I need to covenant with him or covenant to release those to him.
I feel like this is a big one.
Um, because I don't, now I'm seeing like kind of a pattern and I
don't really know how to fix it.
It's like clear now.
And one thing I know is that, um, and I've heard this over the last, maybe
six years, um, you left your first love.
And I, and I keep saying like, well, do the things you did at first.
Like I'm doing the things Lord.
And one thing I've realized is that I think I've less left my first love
because of some real big disappointments.
And one of those has to do with, um, losing my niece and nephew, but
another one has to do with this, like wanting to be married and have children.
And now I'm 51 and I feel like I delighted myself in the Lord for so long.
And it was very sincere and I wasn't worried about getting married.
I felt like there was always time.
And now it seems like we're up against the wall and he still hasn't answered.
And I feel like I have kind of lost my love because I feel really let down.
And so I feel like that is the stuff that I'm having to release to him.
To bring the healing, because I don't know how to be healed.
I don't know how to make it healed, you know?
Yeah.
So a couple things, um, as you were talking, I, I wrote this down.
As the Lord was saying it to me to tell you your mistakes, aren't too much for God.
I feel like despair set in the shame came in, but despair set in first.
Um, when you were focusing on the things that you, you said things that I did in
the relationship that were bad, okay.
That created the breakup.
If you, okay, here's the reality.
It takes two.
Okay.
Every relationship takes two people, whether that's a.
romantic relationship, a family relationship. And so it's almost like
the enemy is trying to make you feel like it's all your fault, that thing
didn't work. Totally, because you mess up too big. And that's a lie. Okay,
that's a lie. And I'm going to venture to say that that is linking back to
something way back when you were younger, where you believed that you
messed up so big, that, you know, even God's, you know, God's grace and his
forgiveness couldn't cover it. And you really struggled with that at some
point. But I'm also this deep depression that you went into before. I really
want to encourage you. So the reason this is feeling so deep, again, is that
despair. Okay, there's a difference with you, ladies, when we go through
stuff, when we struggle with sadness, or despair, so despair can, you know,
from what I have experienced before in my life, I feel like despair and
depression is something I battled, but it's also something I learned, I kind
of alluded to this earlier, I don't know if you were on at the time. Kelly,
when I was sharing this earlier tonight, but I really believe that a lot, there
are several people in this phase one group in this program that are really
battling some deep depression and oppression. And one of the things I said
is, I don't believe it's just you and your battle with it. I believe it's also
a generational thing. A lot of us learned these kind of things from our
parents, like our parents didn't know how to process pain. And so there was a
lot of despair and depression. And again, these are spirits you all Okay, so we
have to remember that. But in Jesus Christ, all of those things can be cast
out that the struggle can be real, right? It's here happening in the physical as
well. So we feel these things. And when we partner with the feelings, and we let
our feelings take us in a line with the lies, that's where that's where we start
getting really caught up and tripped up. And so I would encourage you just to
kind of go back to that area where the things that you did in the relationship
that you know, were bad or messed it up in your mind. What is the truth that God
wants to bring to that? Okay, because the truth is what sets us free. Right? And
where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is what liberty and freedom. So we need
Holy Spirit to come in and fill you and literally to overflowing fill you with
hope and truth in life. And that is what will dispel all the darkness and all the
heaviness and the depression. But I do believe that you are one of the people
that this has been a generational thing in your family line, and God wants to
come in and redeem that. And that's partly why you're battling it because
it's something that you're actually going to change in your family line.
How Bethany and maybe this is something that you want to address later offline,
but that is completely true. My brother has severe PTSD from being a sniper in
the military. And he has lived with my parents now for probably 16 years
divorced. We lost like I said, my niece and nephew and my parents are in severe
despair. Like I say when that happened, it's like a grenade went off in our
family. Yeah. And we are all in despair, even though recently there has been a
little bit of glimmer of hope, because I've been going to a counselor. And he's
come with me a couple times, because he's such a big part of what all of this
stuff, you know? Yeah. So I do want you if you'll do a post in the group, I'll
respond on this more. But I as you were talking, I saw what I saw first is a life
preservers being thrown to you. But then what I saw is God was sending a rescue
boat. Okay, you don't got to save your family. God's gonna come with the rescue
boat, and he's saving them, you don't have to save them. He's throwing you the
lifeline, and he's pulling you out. Because you're trying you're in there,
you're trying to save everyone. And so that's why you feel like you're sinking,
but you're not. Hey, you're not and he's gonna send I just the Holy Spirit is all
up in this place tonight. It feels so good. I love when it's like this. He's
sending a lifeboat for your family, sweetie. So you don't you don't, you can
love them, you can bless them, but you you are not their Savior, and he's got it.
Okay, so you can I don't want to, I don't want to be but I feel like they're, I
feel like I'm hanging on to I live in the same town. And I feel like I'm
hanging on to the life preserver and they are pulling me because of their
and I, yeah, I'll post about it. And you post about it because I'll be able to
coach you a little bit more personally there, just because I want to go ahead
and move to our next content. But I do
I think this is really important for a lot of people.
Sometimes whether we realize it or not,
and I don't know enough about your story
to speak into it too much,
but sometimes when we don't set boundaries
where we need to set boundaries,
that's partly where that comes into play,
where it feels like we're grabbing
that life preserver all the way,
but then we keep not setting healthy boundaries,
which can lead us into kind of that almost double-mindedness,
that feeling of back and forth.
And again, I would have to know more about your situation,
but those are just a couple of things
that come to mind for anyone
that is struggling with that back and forth feeling
like where you're trying to move forward,
but you feel like people are pulling you back, okay?
This other part might also help, Kelly.
I'm gonna be talking next, ladies, about the real you,
but before we do that,
I am gonna issue all a challenge
because I don't wanna lose anybody.
Some people might have to jump off a few minutes early.
This is your challenge.
This is your activation for this week.
I'm so excited for this, y'all.
I've been excited to bring this tonight.
All right, so this is your coming out of hiding challenge.
That's what we're calling it.
So for those of you that were with me weeks ago,
we did the go and find a garden,
find the place of rest and peace.
I forgot to give you all a challenge last week,
but we are gonna be doing these activations every week.
And what activations, the whole point of an activation
is to put into practice what you're learning
because that helps you retain it more
and helps you move forward, okay?
Coming out of hiding challenge looks and sounds like this,
and you can build on this.
I want you to ask the Holy Spirit
because I'm just giving you ideas,
but God needs to be the one to show you personally
what you need to do to come out of hiding, okay?
But example, if you guys remember all the time,
I'm like, hey, I wanna see you turn your cameras on.
So some of y'all are already doing that.
Great job, sometimes you can't because you're driving
or whatever, and that's totally fine.
But cameras on, when you come to lives
and not just our live, okay?
When you come to the other lives,
like prayer calls, Sunday night co-ed,
just turning your cameras on, being seen,
letting yourself be heard.
Some of y'all coming out of hiding,
we found some of y'all tonight using your voice.
That came up in today's session in the afternoon too.
Using your voice to speak stuff out
that you were told to not speak out before,
really, really important.
Okay, here's the next one.
Some of you all, and only do this if you're,
some of you don't have your real names
or your profile pictures on social media
because it's for safety reasons.
So I'm not speaking to those people right now,
but if that doesn't, if that's not you,
I wanna encourage you all on your social media,
I want you to post a picture of yourself.
I don't wanna see random pictures of your cats
on your profile pic or if you're on the app or whatever,
but here's the real thing.
Some people legit do that
because they don't like to see themselves, okay?
So people hide and they put these pictures
of just random stuff up, okay?
So that's one way.
Also, this is another way.
Some of us use pictures on our profiles
from like 10 years ago,
because that is our favorite picture of ourself.
I wanna encourage you to put a new picture up.
Present day, who you are, how you look.
Now, make it cute, right?
Make it one you like, but I'm just saying like,
be who you are.
Own where you're at right now.
Own where you're at, own who you are.
Just like I said, I had to show up
and learn how to go to the beach and embrace who I am.
We're becoming something else,
but right now this is who we are, all right?
Also, this was another one.
I think this is gonna be really big for a lot of you.
I wanna encourage you to get out of your regular routine.
Some of you all, you get up, you drive to work,
you maybe stop at the grocery store and you come home.
I want you to start going somewhere new.
I want you to add some new stops in.
I want you to go a different route.
I want you to start getting out of the normal
that you've been doing in your comfort zone.
So practice doing some new things.
Go, if some of y'all work from home,
go sit in a coffee shop.
Say hi to some people.
And here's the other one.
This is to build on what I just said there.
I want you all to practice saying hello to men and women
that you see when you're out and about,
whether that's a church, a store.
I want you to practice using people by their name.
I know that.
Sounds like really small stuff, but y'all, it really is important.
You know, COVID it was already happening before COVID, but when we went through
COVID people withdrew, we quit having eye contact with people.
We quit saying people's names.
We don't even want people to look at us.
We like avoid people.
And in this next season, God, it wants to teach you how to reconnect.
If there's a guy smile, say hello.
You don't have to marry the guy you're just practicing saying hello.
Okay.
You don't got to get his digits yet.
You're in heartwork.
So just, but for real, some of you all are like, I don't know if you're like me,
but I literally, because I had still so much shame back then, I didn't
like to look at guys in the eyes.
Like I would walk and I'd kind of do one of those, you know, you look up, you
see them, but you don't really look at them, but you kind of do anyone ever do
that?
I did that.
So I remember a group of us were in, um, Franklin, Tennessee from this
community, and we decided we were all going to practice together.
What if I already do that?
If you already do all that, Tammy, just keep practicing, keep doing it.
Cause maybe you'll do it differently.
Maybe this time you'll smile.
Hi, you know, just add to it.
You all, I'm being a little silly now.
Okay.
I better stick to my content, but that's your challenge.
Come out of hiding.
You're coming out of hiding.
It's going to be fun.
All right.
The real you.
So this is where we're going to go for a little bit tonight before we close.
I want to encourage you all to really be asking the Lord, who is the real me?
That you would lean more into your true identity.
I touched earlier on who told you that you were naked.
So we want to come out of these things that we were never intended to carry.
When I wrote down the true identity earlier tonight as well, I saw this
picture of, and this might be for more than one person, but I saw this
picture of a person under rubble, you know, like as if a building had
fallen down and they were under the rubble.
And what I saw was God was picking them up and he was dusting them off.
And so that's for one of you, maybe multiple of you tonight that you were
never meant to be under the rubble.
That God is picking you up and he's dusting you off and he's going to show
you your true identity and what that looks like, feels like he's going to
teach you how to walk in the new you.
Um, also you are a supernova.
Yes.
You.
Yes.
You Jen cabin.
I see you.
You are a supernova.
You are carrying something that can change the world.
That's for everyone.
But again, y'all, I try to follow the Holy spirit.
He said, say it to Jen, say her name.
She needs to hear it.
You are a supernova.
You all are carrying something that can change the world.
Do you have to change the whole world all at once?
No, you don't.
I can change one person at a time and another person at a time.
And no, and maybe one day, some of y'all will be doing something
just like what I'm doing.
Y'all years ago, someone gave me a word that I would reach the nations.
I remember thinking at that time.
What in the world?
I don't hardly know anybody.
I knew, I knew the couple people that were at that prayer meeting.
I couldn't even conceive it.
And here I am today.
Do I think this is the end?
No, I think God has a lot more, but some of you you're in those
beginning stages and you're like, I don't know, like how I could
even reach five people.
Don't worry about all that.
Just do the next best thing that God shows you to do.
And the next best thing after that, the next day.
All right.
Romans eight.
I forgot to get my Bible.
You all, I totally forgot.
Okay.
I don't have the full scripture for you, but I want you all to
read Romans eight 37 through 39.
And it talks about this is God.
If God is for you, who can be against you?
Okay.
So you're set to be a supernova.
And even I used to, you have all these beautiful gifts in you.
If God is for you, who can be against you?
No one, no one.
Yes, they do.
We encounter them in the physical realm.
Don't we, but praise Jesus.
He is the resurrector and he can protect us and defend us in
the midst of all of those things.
Okay.
So it's time ladies.
It's time.
Um, Kelly, I'll have you hold just cause I have so much more to get through.
I'm trying to rush, but thank you for that.
Um, it's time for you, the princess in the story to awaken the princess
within you to completely come alive.
Ephesians five 14 says awake.
Oh, sleeper and rise up from the dead and Christ will shine on you.
Ooh.
He's so good.
Holy Spirit goosebumps tonight.
I'm loving it.
Awake O sleeper and rise up from the dead and Christ will shine on you.
Awakened by what?
The kiss from heaven.
True love's kiss awakening you.
The kiss from heaven tonight and in the days ahead to awaken you to what?
Your true identity, which is what we were just talking about.
God reminded me tonight of the movie Wreck-It Ralph.
Do y'all know Vanellope?
Have y'all ever seen that movie Wreck-It Ralph?
If you haven't, it's such a good movie.
You all it's a kid's movie, but I encourage y'all to see it and Vanellope.
She's so cute.
Y'all she's got this little glitch and the glitch is like, you know, like in a computer
glitch, like she, she keeps like not really being there.
And when this glitch happens, she starts disappearing a little bit more, a little bit more, a little
bit more.
The closer she's getting to her breakthrough, I feel God on the closer she's getting to
her breakthrough, the glitch happens more and it happens more and it happens more.
Y'all this story is so beautiful.
It's so simplistic, but it's so beautiful.
So I don't want to spoil it for those that haven't seen it.
Y'all she didn't really remember who she was because in that story, there was an enemy
who took something from her.
And because she did not have that important piece, that's what was causing the glitch.
And it also caused her to forget who she really was.
In this story, it unveils that she's actually a princess.
The enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy, but Jesus Christ came to give you life and
give it to you more abundantly.
The enemy is the one who has taken things from you, who has caused death and destruction
and abuse and harm.
That did not come from the father, but God is going to come in and he's going to put
everything all together.
He's working it all together for good, to save many people alive, to bring you freedom,
to bring freedom to your families and to awaken you to your true identity.
You are going to remember the princess that you were always created to be, and you can
live in that truth.
God wants to also awaken you to true restoration in every area of your life.
Nothing missing, nothing lacking, nothing broken, completely whole.
Completely whole.
Walking in the fullness of the gifts of God in you, walking in the beautiful body he created
you to live in that you are fearfully and wonderfully made.
You lack nothing.
You lack no thing, nothing.
God didn't mess up when he created you.
He wants you to awaken to your big, bold future.
He wants to awaken dreams in you.
Some of you had childhood dreams that he wants to just breathe right onto tonight, and he
wants to awaken those dreams within you, and he also wants to give you some new dreams.
Some of you are holding onto prophecies from 10 years ago, and God says it's time to receive
a new word.
It's time to let that thing go so that you can, yep, grab onto the new.
The new is ahead of you.
Letting go of false identities and views of ourselves.
How does this happen?
We can't erase this stuff, ladies.
We have to replace it.
That's where what I was talking about earlier, replacing it with the truth is so critical.
All of this sounds amazing, and for some of you, you're still struggling to believe.
Like, you're like, I hear it.
I believe it, but I don't feel it yet.
We all have a choice about what we're going to believe.
Do you know that the Holy Spirit is your intercessor?
He's your helper.
If you struggle to believe these things tonight, if you're struggling to have faith,
do you know that you can ask God to give you the gift of faith, to believe?
God, I need a fresh and filling of faith and hope.
Where hope has been deferred, and it's been making your heart sick.
I talked about this earlier today, too.
I'm going to read it.
Proverbs 13, 12, the rest of the scripture, you all, it doesn't stop at hope,
deferred makes the heart sick.
It says, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.
Some of y'all, God's about to fulfill longings
that have long been waited for,
and it's gonna become a tree of life to you,
to your spirit mate, to your children,
to your grandchildren, and communities of people
are gonna come up under your shade.
As we close tonight,
I want you all to start thinking about this.
I would encourage you if you feel led
to do a post in the groups,
we don't have time to do breakout.
I feel like we had a lot of really great coaching time,
so I'm glad for that.
But I want you to be thinking about
what way does the enemy challenge the real you?
There's three categories
that he tends to challenge the real us.
Comparison, so he's always trying to get you
to compare yourself to someone else.
You're never good enough when you think about them.
Maybe it's competition.
Maybe you grew up with siblings or friends
or competing with the neighbor.
I don't know who it was competing
with someone at work right now.
You're always competing.
Maybe it's imitation for you.
Maybe you're imitating, you're pretending to be somebody
or something that you're not.
You want to be that, but you're not yet.
And so you're trying to pretend until that day comes,
but God wants you just to be the real you.
He wants you to be where you are
so that you can heal and grow
into who he's truly created you to be.
As we start to close, I'm gonna read something over you.
Again, I just want you to ask God to show you,
as I read this over you, a vision, a picture, a phrase.
However God wants to speak to you, you are a supernova.
I want you to ask him to show you
what that looks like for you today.
It doesn't have to be the big impact.
It just, what's the supernova mean for you
right now in your today?
This is from the book.
So y'all, you can find this in your book.
It's towards the end of the book and read it over yourself.
I would encourage you.
It says, use this declaration as often as necessary.
I would encourage you to do this daily.
The more you declare things out loud over yourself,
the more you are going to believe them, okay?
Okay, here we go.
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter,
a light bearer, a truth teller, and a hope dealer.
My heart is awakening.
It's my time to be made whole.
I contain the beauty of all creation.
The mysteries of the entire universe reside in me.
I am the image of the almighty God,
the offspring of the great I am.
I am a beloved daughter of God.
My original heart is one of love and joy,
peace, hope, and innocence.
I was created for community.
I am accepted in the family of God.
I have been created to prosper.
I will not be anyone besides who love God himself
has made me to be.
From this moment forward, every day,
when I look in the mirror,
I am going to see more and more of what God sees.
Yes.
Y'all, I felt power reading that to you.
Can I get an amen?
Y'all are supernovas.
You, I mean, you're a world changer.
When you come into the room,
if you walk in the truth that Jesus Christ,
the same power that rose him from the dead
is living in you and it's operating through you,
everywhere you go, you bring Jesus with you.
How can you not change the atmosphere?
He changes everything.
Some of you all don't even know
if you like your own presence in your home.
You don't enjoy being with yourself.
Guess what?
Jesus is with you.
So guess what?
He's coming into your house with you.
So you're not alone.
So maybe that's what you need to focus on in this next week.
He is with you and he's changing everything
and everywhere that you go.
That, Laura, is in the book in the end.
Like it's literally at the end of, let me look here.
Chapter 14.
It's okay if y'all,
I don't want you to read the whole book to the end,
but skip to that and print that.
You guys can't see it.
Print that sucker out and put that up or write it on paper.
Y'all don't have to have a printer.
If I say that, someone will be like,
well, I don't got a printer.
So I can't.
Y'all, I take notes like 24 seven.
It's not, yeah, it takes time.
But y'all, I used to keep things up in my house
all the time.
I still do it.
People that know me know, like that is the.
stuff that changed my life. I memorize scripture that way. I
speak truth over myself that way. I still have to do it. I'm
believing for a baby. I have a sign up in my room that says
believe and, and, and while it's not up right now, but it was in
my other house. I got to put it back up. But God told me every
time you see that sign, tap it three times and say, I believe
I'm going to have a baby. I believe God that you're
releasing my baby from heaven. And you're going to give that to
us. I don't know how he's going to do it, but I trust him. Not
just because it's some random thing I've decided to believe,
but God has actually spoken to me personally about it. And I'm
aligning with that. Do you know what the world wants to tell me?
Y'all? I just turned 46. Do you want to know what the world
wants to tell me? It's not possible. You're too old. Well,
guess what? I'm still having a cycle. So something can still
happen up in there. Right? All right. Y'all. God is good. I'm
being a little funny. I like to be a little funny on occasion.
When we have serious stuff, we got to laugh a little bit too.
Right? If y'all are feeling heavy during the week this next
week, I, and again, these might sound like simple things, but if
you're feeling real heavy and depressed and just like the
heart work is hard. I just want you guys to on occasion, get up
and just, just move your body, get out, do some exercise, shake
it off, put on here's here. Okay. Worship is warfare. This
is the last thing I'm going to give you. And then I'm going to
pray for y'all. Worship is warfare. Some of y'all need to
put on a dance song and freaking dance like nobody's business. A
fun one, too. A fun one that just is going to make the devil
so mad because you're having a party in the middle of heart
work. Yes, you are. Y'all can do this stuff. I did this. I didn't
always feel like dancing, but I was like, God, I'm going to
dance. We're going to have a party. I love to dance though.
Y'all I do. I love to celebrate. I was one of those fanatics in
my old Pentecostal church dancing up in the front of the
church. Yes, I did. I did. I love Jesus. I don't go to that
kind of church right now, but I dance in my heart. I dance in
my heart. So maybe some of y'all need to sing and dance in your
car. You know, when people look at you and you're just having a
good old time and just smile and be like, yeah, I'm having a
good time. Some of y'all that's, that's going to be your
freedom. Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom and
liberty. Everywhere that you go, you take the spirit of the
living God with you. Don't forget it. The enemy wants you
to feel like you're, you can't win and he's a liar. You've
already won. That's the truth. Jesus already won the victory
for you. You win. That's the end of the story. You win. Yes, some
of you tonight, I want it. I want you to write on a post-it
card. Maria Jose wins. That's the end of the story. Yes, I see
a girl. You're so beautiful. I love you ladies. I could party
with y'all all night. I was feeling tired and, and stuff
this afternoon here. Who was that? Michelle gave me that word
last night. Yes, I heard you. You had it on point girl. Some
of y'all don't even know how much you hear God and prophesy
over people. So I just, as we close tonight, I want to
encourage you. Yes, step into your gifts. Let God speak
through you. You don't even, some of you see images, you
don't even know it's God yet, but you're learning. You're
learning and you'll, you'll continue to understand and
discern these things. He's moving in this earth in big
ways and you get to be a part of it. You do. Father, thank you
for your beautiful, amazing daughters. Thank you God for
breathing life into us. Thank you that even when we feel
tired, God, you come in and you, you do something kind of
wonderful. So Lord, I ask you to do that wonderful in their
lives and their healing process that you would lift the
burdens off of them, that yokes of, of heaviness and bondages
of oppression would be broken tonight. Let them dance like
the freedom that they have always wanted to dance in. Just
like David danced before the Lord, unashamed. Lord, let them
dance before you unashamed in their apartments, in their cars,
before people were ever, God helped them to break free from
the shackles and the things that the enemy, the chains that
he's placed on them. We thank you for revealing for healing,
continuing to take place. Even while they sleep at night, God,
we thank you for.
find supernatural healings, impartation of revelation.
God, we ask for joy unspeakable and full of glory
to be placed within them, that you are the God of peace.
So where there hasn't been hope, where it's been deferred,
we thank you that you would breathe the life,
breathe hope into them in a fresh way.
Awaken the princesses within.
Yes, Lord, give them more glimpses of how you see them.
We thank you that you would help them to hear your voice
louder than any voice of the enemy,
that you would shut right now the mouths of the lions
that have been roaring.
We know that the enemy prowls around like a lion,
but we know there's only one lion of the tribe of Judah,
and God, that is you.
And we thank you, Jesus, that you are the author
and the finisher of our faith,
that you came to give us life
and give it to us more abundantly,
that you died and you gave us freedom.
So help us, help us, Holy Spirit,
to step into that freedom this week.
In Jesus' name, amen.
Amen, amen, amen.
Oh, he's so good, you all.
Yeah, that take it back song, it is done.
So good.
Sorry, someone was saying something.
I just said amen.
Amen, amen.
All right, bless you, ladies.
Don't forget your challenge.
Come out of hiding.
You can come share about it.
And remember to post if you feel led
about the areas where you are struggling
to step into the real you,
whether that's comparison, competition, imitation.
I'll see you all in the groups, okay?
Bless you.
Have a good night.
Thanks so much.