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Welcome, welcome, welcome. It's good to see you all.

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Y'all, it feels weird to be here on a Tuesday night to do heart work.

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I'm so used to it. I do heart work on Monday nights.

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So we're going to have a heart work party tonight, if you will.

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At least that's the way I look at it.

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God wants to do some really awesome stuff.

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I'm expecting him to show up and bring illumination is what I was praying just before I hopped on.

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It's not about a person.

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It's about the Holy Spirit bringing truth and revelation to areas that we can't see.

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As you all remember, if you remember when you went through heart work,

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one of the biggest things is that the Holy Spirit knows the why behind the what.

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He knows the why behind the what in everything that we do and everything we think

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and the way we process information, even the lies that we still get tripped up with today.

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And so I want to encourage you all. I'm going to pray before we get started tonight.

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The way I'm going to do this, I don't want to teach a lot.

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So really what I want to do is group coaching a whole lot as much as we need to.

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And if that's what you all feel open to doing, that's where I'd love for it to go.

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But I also brought content if we need a break and we need to kind of bring some additional content in

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to get some more people kind of hearing what Holy Spirit wants to say to them.

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So I'm just open to just kind of just truly following the Holy Spirit in our process tonight.

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I want to welcome the men with us, ladies, just making sure you all know it's co-ed.

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So anybody that gets into the heart work seat tonight, I encourage you just to share just like you would,

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whether it's in a private like our group heart work with just the ladies or the group heart work with the men,

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because you all we help each other get breakthrough.

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Okay, so as you're preparing your heart, I'm going to go ahead and pray.

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And we're going to see what Holy Spirit wants to do tonight.

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Father, thank you so much for your grace.

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God, thank you for a day full of hope and expectancy.

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And Lord, even just some maybe just had a really hard day.

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I pray that you would just minister to every need that they have right now,

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that you would help them to put and leave those things at the door for just this reprieve,

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this time of coming into your presence and asking you to reveal these areas for healing that we need.

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Help us to remove blinders.

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And God, we ask you to bring those things that are in darkness to the light up and out of us so that there can be healing,

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so that there can be freedom and liberation.

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Holy Spirit, we ask you to come.

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We ask you to have your way because we know that where the spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.

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There is freedom.

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There is life and there's hope.

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So where the enemy has come to kill, steal, and destroy and press down and oppress and discourage,

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in Jesus' name, we just cast him out.

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And we just thank you, God, that you're warring on our behalf tonight,

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that where the enemy has come in like a flood, that you raise up a standard against him.

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So help us, Lord, to trust that you're defending us, that you're fighting for us,

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and to know that you're not a man that you should lie, that your promises are sure.

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They're fixed.

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So help us to hear what heaven is saying to us,

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so that we can get an upgrade in our understanding and our revelation of your love, Father,

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because your love is what casts out fear.

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Your love is what casts out doubt and unbelief,

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and it's what heals the brokenness of our hearts and our souls.

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Help us to hear what your spirit is saying to us, in Jesus' name.

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So I really felt led tonight.

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Just briefly, I want to share, actually, a piece that I put together for my heart work group a couple weeks ago,

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and this is what stood out to me.

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The Lord is saying tonight, we want to focus on where are you stuck?

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That's kind of the main theme tonight.

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Where are you stuck currently, and where does God want to give you an upgrade?

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Okay, so that's kind of the main overarching theme.

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But here's what the Lord said.

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I want you to ask them about the stories that they believe.

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I want you to ask them to think about the stories that I want to help them.

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I'm saying this almost as if on behalf of the Lord to all of you.

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I want to help them step out of their old stories, their old limiting thoughts, and their old belief systems,

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and I want to help them step into the new story that I am writing for them.

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And so many of us, I don't know about you all, but we start walking along, and we've done the heart work,

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and we've been in that intensive time, and we come out, and we start, you know, you all,

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I think most of you know I've been married almost two years now, but I went through the process that you all,

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a lot of you are in, the dating, and you're interacting with people, and you know what?

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Guess what?

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You're getting triggered sometimes, aren't you?

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And you're getting stuck, and then you're hearing the lies, and the old tapes are popping up like nobody's business,

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but what are we doing with what is coming up?

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What are we doing with what the enemy is doing?

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is saying. And how are we sorting that stuff out? Y'all, we got to get the tools back out.

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It doesn't mean you have to go back into the ICU and the ER and go all the way back through all

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that stuff. But we do need to continue to utilize the tools that God has given us through the

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heartwork process. So I want you to really just be thinking about even today. And if you had a great

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day and you felt like your mind was just on point, you were thinking only on things above and nothing

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negative, maybe this doesn't apply to you. So maybe go back to yesterday or the most recent day

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that just was a hard day in your mind. You know, the battlefield of the mind is real, you all.

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I want you to think about the stories that you need to step out of tonight and be aware of the

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stories that you're actually telling yourself because of pain and brokenness that still exist.

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And I hear the Holy Spirit even just saying right now, some of you just need to be reminded that

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it's not your fault. It's not your fault that you have old stories and old tapes that you have

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to work through. And some of y'all, men and women alike, have gone through abuse. Y'all, for

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some of you that have been any part of this movement long enough that's heard me talk even

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about Brian and I's stories, we have very similar stories. He got, but just he's a guy and I'm a

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woman. We both went through massive abuse in every way you can think of in our marriages.

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And so, so interesting to me that, you know, God brought the two of us together. But even in that,

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you know, you have things to unpack long after you go into relationships. So that's why it's so

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important that we're learning these tools now and you can put these things in place now and continue

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to develop a lifestyle of asking God really great questions. So I want you to just, these might not

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be applicable to you, but I just want to kind of prime the pump a little bit before we start

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opening up the heartwork seat. Some of you may tell yourself stories and thoughts like this.

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You might have reactions like these. These again are just some examples.

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Some of you, when you get let down, maybe something doesn't go your way, or maybe you just

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were in a relationship and it didn't work out, or your friends stood you up, they didn't show up,

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or your mom said something that really wounded you, or your sister fill in the blank, you all.

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How many of you will say to yourself, well, it doesn't matter. I didn't really care about that

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anyway, or I didn't really want that anyway. Maybe you're telling yourself the story of,

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you know, let's see here. I got to see who God highlights here. Liza, you should just give up on

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this already because it's just never going to work. What are you even doing here in the first place?

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See, these are all the stories. These are the lies that the enemy is saying to us, and we're

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continuing to meditate on these because our heart wounds partner with them because we don't believe

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the truth yet. Maybe your story is I never get picked. God blesses everybody else, but I'm still

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waiting on the sidelines. Just like you'll remember dodgeball in elementary school. I don't know if

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you all, I mean, you're waiting for somebody to pick you, aren't you? And some of the kids got

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picked right away. But you know, if you weren't super sporty or if you weren't a cool kid, you

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might not have gotten picked right away. That's how we labeled things in elementary schools. Isn't that

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crazy? But that's just how the human race is. But that's kind of what it feels like when I hear

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people and I see the struggles and they're real. I'm not trying to minimize them. Pain is real

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and sadness is real and hardship is real, but God's victory through Jesus Christ is also real

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and everything that he died to give us is available. It's just we have to continue to heal

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and heal and heal so that we can get more aligned with the freedom and the truth that he gave

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us when he died. Maybe this is what you're hearing. This program takes too much time.

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I'm tired of getting together online and not seeing results. Okay, so I just want, I'm curious,

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I want to see in the chat, is any of this saying anything that you all are hearing? Do you hear

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something similar, something different? I wanted to see in the chat, what are the lies you've been

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battling? Because we're just going to go after, we're going to get the, we're going to get the

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darkness out into the light so there can be healing and freedom because also God doesn't

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want you to struggle alone. Okay, Audra says being passed by. Anyone else? It doesn't even

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have to be the ones that I said. If there's a different one that you've been hearing,

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let's put it in the chat.

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is I wanna talk about this stuff.

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You're not doing enough.

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Okay, that's huge.

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A lot of people say that.

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There's something wrong with me,

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not qualified for the upgrade, all right?

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So you're qualified for the less than,

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but you're not qualified for the upgrade.

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If you're qualified for the other, guess what?

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You're qualified for that upgrade too.

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It's just about shifting our mentalities and our mindsets.

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And I don't, I'm not trying to minimize it,

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but y'all, this is truly what I learned.

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I used to think that I was always

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gonna struggle financially.

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And I'm not saying I'm living in some palace or anything,

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but man, God has really been just transforming

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my heart and mind and the way I look at finances

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and the blessings and the breakthrough

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that had been unlocked, even in the last few months.

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It is stuff that we had been praying for.

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And then it's just like, just stuff started lining up.

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So sometimes you don't see that tomorrow

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the answer is coming, but that doesn't mean it's not coming.

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For those of you that might not know,

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I just wanna feel led to encourage y'all a little bit too.

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If you haven't heard my story before,

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I'm sorry, I'm trying to read the things at the same time.

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I didn't go on the dating apps.

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I didn't go on the dating apps over and over.

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And Jackie kept talking to me about going on the dating apps

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and I just didn't feel released.

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And then the final time I prayed and I was like,

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okay, you're right, I need to do this.

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And it's not gonna happen like this for everyone.

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I don't want people to get discouraged by this.

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This was a supernatural thing, okay?

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September 2nd of 2021, I went on the dating apps.

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Brian, someone I probably would not have chosen on my own,

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messaged me first on September 6th.

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Y'all, we had our first date on September 12th.

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He drove four hours to see me and have coffee with me.

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And I couldn't believe it.

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And you know what God showed me through that?

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Is I didn't think I was worth that.

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That's why it shocked me so much.

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Deep down, I didn't even think I was worth a guy

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driving four hours just to have coffee with me.

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See, that's how the revealings for healing happen.

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And it wouldn't have happened,

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that healing wouldn't have happened to me

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if I hadn't paused and thought and asked myself,

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why, it is a blessing, it was a blessing,

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but why is this such a shock to me?

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There are a lot of good men out there.

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Men, there are a lot of good women out there.

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But if we don't believe we're worth it on the inside,

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then we'll keep settling for less than.

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And we'll keep believing that we don't deserve

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that kind of kindness and goodness and treatment.

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All right, so let's see here, what else do we got?

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I don't see anyone doing that.

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Okay, that's something else.

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Yeah, you might not see that yet.

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Remember yet is a key word you all

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get really comfortable with yet.

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It's my fault that I'm still single or stuck.

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Okay, so let's talk about this fault.

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Put this in the chat.

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What's your fault?

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Like, what did you do?

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What are you doing wrong?

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Let's hear some more about the lies there.

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I feel like we're onto something.

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I hear the lie that no man wants my children.

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Okay, I'll just debunk that right now

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because hey, you all, if you didn't know,

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I'm like a spiritual mom to three kids that aren't mine.

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And I love them like crazy.

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I love them so much.

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And they're the biggest blessing to my life.

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And that was before I met Brian.

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And then I got two more.

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So now I'm a mom.

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Well, his daughters don't call me mom yet,

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but we're working towards just them loving me

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and continuing to get to know me.

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But y'all know what I'm saying?

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Like God, he gave me three that weren't mine.

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And then he sent me a husband that had two more.

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Y'all know, I didn't wanna date anyone with kids

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because I had already lost kids through divorce before.

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They weren't mine, so I couldn't do anything about it.

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So I'm here to tell you that hope can arise

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and blessings can come where there has been brokenness

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and destruction and where the enemy tried to take from you.

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Okay, so Rhonda, there are good men out there

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who will love your children

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and they're gonna be excited about you and your kids.

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All right, so as we keep going, I'm almost there.

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And then I'm gonna open the seat

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for whoever wants to get in it for a little bit tonight.

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You don't get what you expect.

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We get what we inspect and align with.

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So I want you to inspect your thoughts.

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Where are your thoughts and your heart postures leading you?

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Because even as I'm starting to say positive things,

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so many.

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start to hear all the negative from the enemy, don't you?

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Isn't that how he works?

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He tries to sneak right in as positivity is going forth.

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He's trying to come and say, well, you're not seeing that.

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That's not happening to you.

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You know, and I say that for everyone.

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He does that to me too.

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So where are your thoughts

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and your heart postures leading you?

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I want you to think about what you're thinking about

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and don't just let your mind and your thoughts

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and your feelings lead you down pathways

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that are not bringing life to you.

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Second Corinthians 10 five says,

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we demolish arguments in every pretension

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that sets itself up against the knowledge of God.

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And we take captive every thought

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and make it obedient to Christ.

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When it talks about the high thing, the pretension,

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we demolish arguments in every pretension.

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That's a high thing.

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What that means is everything that's elevated

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and trying to raise itself up against who God is.

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Y'all know that's what happened

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when the fall happened, right?

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Lucifer tried to raise himself up above who Christ was.

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So we demolish all those things.

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we set up that sets itself up against the knowledge of God.

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And we take every thought captive

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and make it obedient to Jesus Christ.

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I want you to think about the barriers

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that you're experiencing.

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A barrier is anything that blocks

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what's intended to pass through.

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So when God is trying to get truth through to you,

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a lot of times, even when you're in church

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and you're listening to sermons,

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y'all ever notice like distraction comes,

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you're trying to listen to this even right now

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and distraction and people are texting you

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and you're getting messages

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or you're hearing the lies inserting really quick.

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He wants, it's like the soil, okay?

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So there's rocky soil.

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I forget all three of them, y'all.

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Now I'm just going off off-road in a little bit,

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but there's good soil, there's rocky soil

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and whatever the third one.

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Someone help me.

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I should know this.

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I do know it, but I just riffed on that one

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just going offline off my notes.

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Isn't it thorns?

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Yes, thank you.

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All right, so what is the soil of your heart?

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What's the soil condition?

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Because that's also going to impact

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how you receive what's being released

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every time you log in.

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And there's no shame in it, you all.

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I cannot tell you even like,

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I'm now almost married two years.

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We're trying to get pregnant.

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I can't tell you how many times the enemy wants to tell me

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that that's not going to happen.

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But I have to choose to believe in what God has told me

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and God has said some really important things to me

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and continues to encourage me and edify me.

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I don't want you all to worry.

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I'm doing, I'm actually doing really good,

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but I want to use that as an example

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because it's no matter,

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it doesn't matter what we're believing for

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or hoping for.

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It could be a job, it could be an apartment,

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it could be a car or a friend.

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Maybe some of you all just feel lonely

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and you just need friends.

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And the enemy is just saying,

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yeah, that is never going to happen

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because you don't ever get friends.

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But are you partnering with that?

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Because that's not truth.

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It's not true.

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What does God say about you?

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So I want you to pause and think about your thoughts.

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Where did they come from?

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Where did they start?

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What are they rooted in?

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Are they rooted in overwhelm?

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Are they rooted in fear?

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Are they rooted in, it's a risk?

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You're afraid because love is a risk.

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Y'all, love is a risk.

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Marriage is a risk, but man, it's a good risk.

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It is.

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I don't, I know the world wants to tell you

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that it's not worth it.

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And the enemy wants to tell you

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that there are no, there's nothing good out there for you.

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There's no good spirit mates, but he is a liar.

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Is it also potentially coming out of a place of invitation?

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Because that's the difference.

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Y'all know that God invites,

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but the enemy is the one that tries to expose, intrude,

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you know, just push his way on in.

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But God stands at the door of our hearts and he knocks.

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The Bible, that's what it says.

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He's not forcing his way in tonight.

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Nothing I say, no matter if I joke, if I'm serious,

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is gonna penetrate and get in

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without the presence of the Holy Spirit into your heart,

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into the areas you need it.

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But he's standing at the door of your heart

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and he's knocking and he's saying,

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are you gonna let me come in to this area,

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into this lie that you're still believing

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and partnering with, even though you don't mean to,

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you're subconsciously still partnering with that thing.

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So I want you to be thinking about that.

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Where does God want you to let go of these?

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negative, intrusive thoughts so that you can, what?

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We said it earlier, receive the new

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and step into the new story that God has for you.

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And here's the thing, God, the enemy, excuse me, not God,

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the enemy will also come with all kinds of evidence

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to tell you and prove to you why the thing

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that you're both leaving for is never gonna happen.

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Y'all, I can't tell you how many people,

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I just tell people now, if they even start talking to me

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about what my age is or what they think the stats are

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about having kids older, I just, I don't even talk

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to people that have no faith anymore about it

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because I just know better.

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We gotta protect our stories, y'all, we do.

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The Bible says that we should guard our hearts

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and our minds through Christ Jesus.

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Some of you, that's where you need to be in this next week.

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You need to really be careful who you're sharing

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your promise and your story with,

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what you're believing for with,

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because if you're sharing it with people that have no faith,

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you know what Jesus did with those people?

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He loved them, but he sent them out of the room, didn't he?

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Because they didn't have the faith

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for him to raise the girl up.

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Jesus is in the room tonight and he wants

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to resurrect some dreams in you.

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He wants to resurrect life and truth and he wants to heal.

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And he wants you to just, you know, we talk,

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I don't know if the guys would know this,

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but the ladies will probably remember the squatters.

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Y'all, what do we do with squatters in our house?

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Does anyone remember from heartwork?

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What do we do with the squatters?

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The squatters, they're people that just come

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when you don't live in your home and they take up residence

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and then guess what, in some states, when it's cold out,

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they actually legally can stay there

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and you can't kick them out.

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Crazy, right?

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But it's truth.

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But that's what the enemy also does

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and he's trying to just remain and squat in your heart.

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We're talking about houses,

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but we're talking about the heart.

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They have to get evicted.

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Y'all, good job for those that you were answering.

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I didn't know if people would remember.

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All right, so we're evicting some stuff tonight.

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So Tammy's got her hand up.

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So I'm gonna start with Tammy.

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Tammy, I would love for you, thank you.

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Wait, where I lost you.

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I see Michaela now up in my corner.

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So Tammy, you can leave your hand raised.

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Okay.

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That helps me see you.

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Okay.

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And then just come on screen too, if you can.

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Okay, well, I'm not completely totally dressed right now.

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Okay, yeah, don't come on screen

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and go ahead and talk without that.

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Okay.

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Go ahead.

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Well, lately my issue seems to be like worrying about,

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you know, what I should have done in the past

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that I didn't do and just wasted years

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and things I didn't do and beating myself up

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and, you know, thinking how much better it would have been

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if I'd have done this and that I was supposed to do.

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What the heck was I thinking?

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Why didn't I do this years ago?

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And, cause a lot of my life last few decades

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has kind of been kind of wasted a lot of ways.

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And I've put up with a lot of the spirit of rejection

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that I've had on me since I was a little bitty.

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I haven't, it's better than it used to be.

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I've gotten rid of it somewhat,

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but it's still keeping me down.

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And lately this fear has been getting into me

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like fear over that and fear of what the future

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is gonna be like because of that.

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And, you know, with the economy like it is

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and what's been prophesied to happen

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with this economic crash and whatnot,

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you know, I'm just like, oh my God, what's gonna happen?

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You know, I just always had a real hard time

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trusting God for provision anyway.

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But I'm starting to think of verses now

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or Jesus addressed that or Bible addresses that,

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you know, just different verses,

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but still it's kind of a,

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I'm just tired of wrestling with it all the time.

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I'm just so tired of it.

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Okay, thank you for sharing.

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I'm gonna kind of step in here a minute or two,

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and then we might talk back and forth.

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We'll see where the Lord leads us.

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So as you were talking about the shoulda, woulda, coulda,

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the first thing that stands out to me is shame.

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So the shame and guilt and condemnation

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that you're still wrestling with.

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So my question for you, Tammy,

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is have you fully forgiven yourself?

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I don't know, I was just unsure about that,

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just really insecure about it, feeling, well, like,

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can I do that?

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Can I, just this unworthiness that's been in me

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since I was a little kid.

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Well, so what I'm asking you is, have you ever done,

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let me rephrase it,

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have you ever done the forgiveness prayer sheet

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specifically to work through forgiving yourself?

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I don't think so.

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Okay, so that is one of your to-do items this week.

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So I want you to get that worksheet back out.

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And for the guys, I hope you guys have access to that.

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I think you all do.

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If you don't, post in your group and let me know.

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I wanna make sure that you do that.

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And I'll see you guys next week.

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Bye.

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You all have the tools that I'm talking about tonight

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from the heart work course.

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So Tammy, when you go through that forgiveness prayer,

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I really want you to ask the Holy Spirit

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to reveal to you every area

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that you need to forgive yourself.

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Because the shoulda, woulda, coulda

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is all based in that shame, guilt and condemnation,

485
00:25:21.160 --> 00:25:23.560
which is linked to things from the past

486
00:25:23.560 --> 00:25:25.080
that mistakes you made.

487
00:25:25.080 --> 00:25:29.320
And so that's where right away that signaling to me

488
00:25:29.320 --> 00:25:33.160
that you haven't released yourself

489
00:25:33.160 --> 00:25:35.040
from the prison, so to speak.

490
00:25:35.040 --> 00:25:36.880
The second thing I wanna hone in on,

491
00:25:36.880 --> 00:25:38.560
you were talking about the spirit of rejection

492
00:25:38.560 --> 00:25:40.320
and then you were talking about fear,

493
00:25:40.320 --> 00:25:43.760
and then that kind of led you into hard time trusting God

494
00:25:43.760 --> 00:25:46.760
and then the economy and what's gonna happen.

495
00:25:46.760 --> 00:25:48.680
And so with that, you all,

496
00:25:48.680 --> 00:25:51.280
I just wanna pause for a minute

497
00:25:51.280 --> 00:25:53.800
and remind us, all of us, myself included,

498
00:25:53.800 --> 00:25:56.640
because when she said that, man, that's so true, right?

499
00:25:56.640 --> 00:25:58.280
The enemy will use whatever he can

500
00:25:58.280 --> 00:26:02.600
to get us to think that God is not on the throne.

501
00:26:04.720 --> 00:26:07.880
That God, the creator of heaven and earth,

502
00:26:07.880 --> 00:26:12.880
A, we have to fear that he can't hold our life together

503
00:26:13.040 --> 00:26:15.160
in his hands, right?

504
00:26:15.160 --> 00:26:16.880
Isn't that kind of the core?

505
00:26:16.880 --> 00:26:19.960
When we believe that the economy is,

506
00:26:19.960 --> 00:26:21.680
you know, and these are real things, y'all.

507
00:26:21.680 --> 00:26:24.520
I mean, even when we save and we have money,

508
00:26:24.520 --> 00:26:27.720
there's no, we can't put our hope in money.

509
00:26:27.720 --> 00:26:29.640
We can't put our hope in things.

510
00:26:29.640 --> 00:26:33.720
Our hope is in the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth.

511
00:26:33.720 --> 00:26:37.000
And so when we have a hard time trusting God,

512
00:26:37.000 --> 00:26:39.440
the thing I always encourage people to do

513
00:26:39.440 --> 00:26:43.800
is to go back and ask the Lord to reveal when,

514
00:26:43.800 --> 00:26:44.840
it's not even just,

515
00:26:44.840 --> 00:26:46.520
when is the first time that that entered,

516
00:26:46.520 --> 00:26:48.560
but now it's, okay,

517
00:26:48.560 --> 00:26:51.280
when was the most recent time

518
00:26:51.280 --> 00:26:53.040
I started not trusting God again?

519
00:26:53.040 --> 00:26:54.800
Because when you go through hard work,

520
00:26:54.800 --> 00:26:56.960
you start growing in your trust again.

521
00:26:57.000 --> 00:26:59.040
You might not be all the way there,

522
00:26:59.040 --> 00:27:03.720
but where is that lack of trust still coming from?

523
00:27:03.720 --> 00:27:06.040
What is the root of that?

524
00:27:06.040 --> 00:27:08.400
And a lot of times from what I've found,

525
00:27:08.400 --> 00:27:13.400
it has to do with rejection, abandonment, loneliness.

526
00:27:15.320 --> 00:27:19.040
Those are the core things that when we are kids,

527
00:27:19.040 --> 00:27:22.800
and we experience that in any depth, you know,

528
00:27:22.800 --> 00:27:24.760
especially when it's really deep,

529
00:27:25.520 --> 00:27:28.880
we can struggle to trust that God actually loves us

530
00:27:28.880 --> 00:27:30.440
and wants to provide for us.

531
00:27:30.440 --> 00:27:32.840
And not only that he wants to, but that he will,

532
00:27:34.680 --> 00:27:37.040
because that's the difference too.

533
00:27:37.040 --> 00:27:38.240
So I want to encourage you all,

534
00:27:38.240 --> 00:27:40.040
just if you're struggling with trust,

535
00:27:40.040 --> 00:27:43.000
just to start asking God to reveal the areas

536
00:27:43.000 --> 00:27:47.000
that you still are need revealing for healing

537
00:27:47.000 --> 00:27:48.760
regarding abandonment.

538
00:27:48.760 --> 00:27:50.160
You mentioned rejection already,

539
00:27:50.160 --> 00:27:52.320
but I really feel like the abandonment

540
00:27:52.360 --> 00:27:56.400
and deep loneliness are connected there as well, okay?

541
00:27:57.400 --> 00:28:00.560
So come back after you do some of that work,

542
00:28:00.560 --> 00:28:02.320
come back in the group and tell us,

543
00:28:02.320 --> 00:28:03.880
tell us what the Lord has revealed,

544
00:28:03.880 --> 00:28:05.160
create a post in the group,

545
00:28:05.160 --> 00:28:07.560
because we want to continue to coach you on that.

546
00:28:07.560 --> 00:28:10.600
And we want to see what is God leading you into

547
00:28:10.600 --> 00:28:14.120
regarding freedom, celebrate your wins with it too.

548
00:28:14.120 --> 00:28:15.000
Ladies and gentlemen,

549
00:28:15.000 --> 00:28:17.000
let's be people that celebrate our wins

550
00:28:17.000 --> 00:28:19.040
just as much as we focus on the negative things

551
00:28:19.040 --> 00:28:20.600
we're facing, okay?

552
00:28:20.600 --> 00:28:22.840
All right, Tammy, thank you so much for sharing.

553
00:28:22.840 --> 00:28:23.680
Claire, go ahead.

554
00:28:23.680 --> 00:28:25.000
One more question, if you don't mind.

555
00:28:25.000 --> 00:28:26.000
Oh, yep.

556
00:28:26.000 --> 00:28:29.160
I don't know how to forgive myself.

557
00:28:29.160 --> 00:28:30.960
It's like something's blocking me from it

558
00:28:30.960 --> 00:28:33.880
or some belief or something

559
00:28:33.880 --> 00:28:37.600
that I don't really understand how to say it.

560
00:28:37.600 --> 00:28:40.280
I don't even know what that looks like.

561
00:28:40.280 --> 00:28:42.120
You know what I mean?

562
00:28:42.120 --> 00:28:43.160
I do.

563
00:28:43.160 --> 00:28:46.280
And I'm gonna, I don't want to give a simple answer,

564
00:28:46.280 --> 00:28:48.240
but I truly have a simple answer.

565
00:28:48.760 --> 00:28:52.240
It's a choice to forgive.

566
00:28:52.240 --> 00:28:53.800
It's a choice to forgive ourselves.

567
00:28:53.800 --> 00:28:55.840
It's a choice to forgive other people.

568
00:28:55.840 --> 00:28:59.800
Y'all are not always gonna feel like forgiving people.

569
00:28:59.800 --> 00:29:02.360
I mean, even, you know, Brian and I were,

570
00:29:02.360 --> 00:29:05.040
man, we were just getting knocked around

571
00:29:05.040 --> 00:29:07.640
by fellow Christians in that church we were in.

572
00:29:07.640 --> 00:29:09.520
And man, that was hard.

573
00:29:10.600 --> 00:29:11.520
It was hard.

574
00:29:11.520 --> 00:29:13.800
But God just kept saying, just forgive them, Bethany,

575
00:29:13.800 --> 00:29:15.560
because the enemy is trying to get you caught up

576
00:29:15.560 --> 00:29:17.840
in bitterness and resentment and unforgiveness

577
00:29:17.840 --> 00:29:20.520
because he wants to quench the Holy Spirit in you.

578
00:29:20.520 --> 00:29:22.080
So just keep forgiving.

579
00:29:22.080 --> 00:29:24.400
You don't have to let them keep getting close to you,

580
00:29:24.400 --> 00:29:26.480
but we gotta forgive, but it's a choice.

581
00:29:26.480 --> 00:29:28.520
So Tammy, my response to you

582
00:29:28.520 --> 00:29:33.440
is it's a choice to forgive yourself, okay?

583
00:29:33.440 --> 00:29:36.120
Start with the choice, you know,

584
00:29:36.960 --> 00:29:40.160
and then allow God to help, you know,

585
00:29:40.160 --> 00:29:42.560
help your feelings and your mindsets

586
00:29:42.560 --> 00:29:44.720
and your thought processes and all that stuff,

587
00:29:44.760 --> 00:29:47.200
your body even physically to align

588
00:29:47.200 --> 00:29:50.360
with the choice that you make, all right?

589
00:29:52.160 --> 00:29:55.160
So that's, it really is just like, you know,

590
00:29:55.160 --> 00:29:58.480
you all accepting Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior

591
00:29:58.480 --> 00:30:00.080
isn't this big, strong.

592
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:06.600
Oh, is it sometimes we make, we make these things way harder than they are,

593
00:30:06.600 --> 00:30:11.720
but it's because the enemy tells us that we have to, it's a free gift.

594
00:30:12.780 --> 00:30:16.600
Receiving Jesus Christ as our Lord and savior is a free gift.

595
00:30:16.600 --> 00:30:17.940
And so is his forgiveness.

596
00:30:17.940 --> 00:30:21.420
And so is his mercy and his grace.

597
00:30:21.420 --> 00:30:26.420
It's all free because Jesus died so that we could have it.

598
00:30:28.400 --> 00:30:28.900
Yeah.

599
00:30:29.340 --> 00:30:30.460
So somehow I'm not mixed.

600
00:30:30.460 --> 00:30:34.940
I used to think forgiving people meant like justifying their sin or

601
00:30:34.940 --> 00:30:36.300
different stuff that it doesn't mean.

602
00:30:36.300 --> 00:30:37.500
I know better than that now.

603
00:30:37.500 --> 00:30:40.860
But when it comes to myself, it's like, what's, what's going on in

604
00:30:40.860 --> 00:30:44.420
my mind that's keeping me, I don't understand how to apply that same

605
00:30:44.420 --> 00:30:47.460
principle to myself that I can't to other people, that's what I don't

606
00:30:47.460 --> 00:30:48.660
understand why I can't do that.

607
00:30:48.860 --> 00:30:52.860
It's probably rooted in a lot of times, uh, and you can, again, share

608
00:30:52.860 --> 00:30:57.900
more about this in the group, but I would encourage you to look at how

609
00:30:57.940 --> 00:31:02.660
you like, if your parents were really harsh and nothing you ever did was

610
00:31:02.700 --> 00:31:05.740
good enough, or even if it wasn't your parents, if it was another authority

611
00:31:05.740 --> 00:31:10.940
figure, a lot of times what we experience in real life, we will apply to God

612
00:31:10.940 --> 00:31:12.540
and Jesus Christ and the Holy spirit.

613
00:31:12.540 --> 00:31:15.860
And so we, we believe they have those same expectations of

614
00:31:15.860 --> 00:31:17.100
behaviors and they don't.

615
00:31:17.940 --> 00:31:18.440
Yeah.

616
00:31:18.860 --> 00:31:19.360
Yeah.

617
00:31:19.700 --> 00:31:21.420
Great questions, Tammy.

618
00:31:21.460 --> 00:31:22.780
Such good questions.

619
00:31:23.860 --> 00:31:24.460
You're welcome.

620
00:31:24.460 --> 00:31:25.380
Thank you for sharing.

621
00:31:25.380 --> 00:31:26.260
Claire, go ahead.

622
00:31:26.980 --> 00:31:27.480
Hmm.

623
00:31:27.500 --> 00:31:28.000
Hey.

624
00:31:29.860 --> 00:31:37.140
Hey, my share is, um, or where I feel stuck is just my kind of quick story is

625
00:31:37.140 --> 00:31:42.500
I've been in Dallas for three years and I came here because God, uh, really

626
00:31:42.500 --> 00:31:47.820
answered a big prayer and I was unhappy in my prior job and I was networking

627
00:31:47.820 --> 00:31:51.260
for like a year and a half doing everything I knew to do and finally

628
00:31:51.260 --> 00:31:52.980
got open a door and so here I am.

629
00:31:53.620 --> 00:31:56.620
Um, and at the time it was like a dream job.

630
00:31:56.980 --> 00:31:58.980
Um, I had wanted to live in Dallas for 10 years.

631
00:31:58.980 --> 00:31:59.780
It never worked out.

632
00:31:59.780 --> 00:32:00.900
I gave up, I didn't care.

633
00:32:01.100 --> 00:32:02.660
And then the job happened to be in Dallas.

634
00:32:02.660 --> 00:32:04.020
So it just all kind of fell into place.

635
00:32:04.540 --> 00:32:10.140
So, uh, last year I got laid off and it was around the time my dad died.

636
00:32:10.140 --> 00:32:13.700
It was just a lot God provided and I have a new job at the same

637
00:32:13.700 --> 00:32:15.460
company, so it all kind of worked out.

638
00:32:15.820 --> 00:32:19.380
I'm in a role that I'm not, that I wouldn't have picked, but I have an

639
00:32:19.380 --> 00:32:22.780
amazing boss and it's been exactly what I needed for the past year, even

640
00:32:22.780 --> 00:32:24.540
though, you know, it's not my dream job.

641
00:32:25.020 --> 00:32:28.660
I'm at a point where I really, really want a promotion and I've started

642
00:32:28.660 --> 00:32:30.140
to push for that and network for that.

643
00:32:30.420 --> 00:32:33.700
I'm not going to get it with my current job role because basically

644
00:32:33.700 --> 00:32:36.620
they don't have the finances, even though my boss likes me, whatever.

645
00:32:37.220 --> 00:32:42.380
So, um, I'm really, really unhappy because I'm just feeling really stuck

646
00:32:42.420 --> 00:32:47.420
about, um, I had thought to myself, like I wouldn't stay in Dallas past

647
00:32:47.700 --> 00:32:51.340
probably two years now I've been here three, unless I met my husband.

648
00:32:51.580 --> 00:32:55.180
Um, and that at that point, if I had not met him, I would move closer

649
00:32:55.180 --> 00:32:56.660
to home and just get a remote job.

650
00:32:57.020 --> 00:33:00.220
Well, I've been searching for a remote job and like, you know, it's

651
00:33:00.220 --> 00:33:02.620
not, um, the search is still on.

652
00:33:02.620 --> 00:33:05.820
It's, it's not like I've given up, but, um, it has not been easy to find.

653
00:33:06.100 --> 00:33:10.500
And so I just feel like I'm in this weird place of, I really want a promotion.

654
00:33:10.540 --> 00:33:12.140
I really want a better job that I enjoy.

655
00:33:12.220 --> 00:33:13.500
I also really want to get married.

656
00:33:13.780 --> 00:33:16.500
And it kind of feels like I might have to pick one.

657
00:33:16.580 --> 00:33:20.580
Um, in the sense of like, maybe I just move home and pick like a mediocre

658
00:33:20.620 --> 00:33:24.940
job, even if I make about what I make now and stay remote or possibly less.

659
00:33:24.940 --> 00:33:25.260
Right.

660
00:33:25.260 --> 00:33:30.260
So, um, I've just been really wrestling with that and, uh, prayed about it quite

661
00:33:30.260 --> 00:33:34.020
a bit and it feels like for now, I don't want to make a drastic move and just

662
00:33:34.020 --> 00:33:37.500
quit my job, although I think about it constantly, um, because I'm unhappy.

663
00:33:38.260 --> 00:33:41.020
Um, but I am just trying to trust God.

664
00:33:41.060 --> 00:33:42.460
I do feel like he's going to provide.

665
00:33:42.740 --> 00:33:46.620
Um, I'm just quite not, not quite sure what to do in the meantime, going back

666
00:33:46.620 --> 00:33:50.940
to that other waiting period I was in before this job, I did everything I knew

667
00:33:50.940 --> 00:33:53.220
to do, you know, I just, I like took tests.

668
00:33:53.220 --> 00:33:54.660
I was going to go back to grad school.

669
00:33:54.660 --> 00:33:56.020
I was just like, I'm unhappy.

670
00:33:56.020 --> 00:33:57.660
I will do anything to move forward.

671
00:33:58.020 --> 00:33:59.100
And then God opened a door.

672
00:33:59.380 --> 00:34:06.140
So, um, that's just really, I, you know, and a very much like an executor.

673
00:34:06.300 --> 00:34:09.780
And if I have a plan, I'll execute the plan, but I'm feeling very like

674
00:34:09.780 --> 00:34:13.300
flustered of what to do, because I don't really feel clear about it.

675
00:34:13.300 --> 00:34:16.699
Other than like, put everything out there and just kind of trust God.

676
00:34:18.020 --> 00:34:18.460
Okay.

677
00:34:18.460 --> 00:34:19.659
So here we go.

678
00:34:19.900 --> 00:34:20.500
You ready?

679
00:34:22.620 --> 00:34:23.060
All right.

680
00:34:23.060 --> 00:34:23.900
First thing.

681
00:34:23.980 --> 00:34:27.420
And I was going to start with something else, but as soon as you said it and I'm

682
00:34:27.420 --> 00:34:35.380
chuckling, but so sometimes, you know, us executors, we have our plans, but you

683
00:34:35.380 --> 00:34:38.100
know, God orders our steps clear.

684
00:34:38.500 --> 00:34:45.900
And sometimes God is not trying to cause us to suffer and to be in a waiting room,

685
00:34:46.219 --> 00:34:52.179
but he's trying to get us to rely on him and let him create the

686
00:34:52.179 --> 00:34:54.580
better plan that we then follow.

687
00:34:55.060 --> 00:34:59.740
Um, and so I feel like God is trying to teach you how to.

688
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:05.960
In him and let him do the heavy lifting, but you keep trying to do the heavy lifting

689
00:35:06.680 --> 00:35:13.320
Okay. So one of the things I want to ask you, um, are you still using your Jesus cares board? Do you still do that?

690
00:35:14.560 --> 00:35:19.680
Um my screen. Oh, oh, no. I'm sorry. Okay. Okay. Okay. All right

691
00:35:20.920 --> 00:35:25.560
Maybe not as consistently as I should I've been trying to remain grateful, but I can do better

692
00:35:26.120 --> 00:35:29.640
Yeah, so I would encourage you to go back and revamp, you know

693
00:35:29.640 --> 00:35:33.940
Some of y'all this is for everybody if you haven't visited your Jesus cares board in a while

694
00:35:34.440 --> 00:35:36.400
I would encourage you to redo it

695
00:35:36.400 --> 00:35:41.640
I I did that right before we moved and it felt it was such a relief like all these things

696
00:35:41.640 --> 00:35:44.480
I hadn't realized I was carrying on myself. I

697
00:35:45.200 --> 00:35:48.520
Just like when I put it all on the board. I was just like, okay like

698
00:35:49.520 --> 00:35:52.200
like it was like a breath of fresh air and so

699
00:35:53.200 --> 00:35:58.880
Yeah, Hannah put put and and this is the thing why do we put it away, you know

700
00:35:59.240 --> 00:36:02.120
Let's let's make Jesus cares board a part of our life

701
00:36:02.120 --> 00:36:04.880
And and just knowing because there's gonna be things

702
00:36:04.960 --> 00:36:11.440
Ebbs and flows things that are gonna come in and out and so I would encourage you Claire or anyone else if you're struggling in

703
00:36:11.440 --> 00:36:16.160
An area, but you know take some time in prayer revamp that board or put it on your board

704
00:36:16.160 --> 00:36:20.200
And then here's the other thing that came up in my my spirit

705
00:36:20.200 --> 00:36:25.280
I just did this with our group today. We went through the super or excuse me yesterday

706
00:36:25.280 --> 00:36:27.440
we went through the supernatural surrender prayer and

707
00:36:27.760 --> 00:36:34.440
We did the permission slip together all over again, and I have people in in the fifth week of people in the first week

708
00:36:34.440 --> 00:36:37.040
They're all in different places in the heart work now

709
00:36:37.040 --> 00:36:42.720
and I would encourage you Claire to get that back out and read through that and really

710
00:36:43.520 --> 00:36:49.480
Surrender this job in this situation and you know, do I move do I wait for my spirit mate here?

711
00:36:49.480 --> 00:36:55.560
All these things that are kind of swirling and swirling around and just say Lord

712
00:36:55.760 --> 00:37:01.640
You know what? I give you permission all over again to come into my heart, you know

713
00:37:01.640 --> 00:37:06.960
Help me to see the things I can't see help me to release these things to you that I'm trying to take care of and

714
00:37:07.120 --> 00:37:09.240
Fix and figure out, you know

715
00:37:09.240 --> 00:37:15.280
And it'll lead you through that whole prayer and and you might want to just read that daily right now just to help your heart

716
00:37:15.280 --> 00:37:19.920
in the first thing in the day or you know, not legalistic whenever you can do it, but just

717
00:37:20.600 --> 00:37:25.960
So that you're aligning your heart with the reminder that oh, yeah God

718
00:37:26.600 --> 00:37:28.840
Like you're gonna help me do this

719
00:37:29.080 --> 00:37:34.680
Like you've got me and I don't have to be afraid and I don't have to get into worry

720
00:37:35.440 --> 00:37:40.320
Because you're gonna work it out for me now. He's gonna lead us to partner with him, right?

721
00:37:40.320 --> 00:37:41.680
He's gonna lead us at some point

722
00:37:41.680 --> 00:37:45.320
He'll probably lead you to apply for a job or he'll lead you to do something

723
00:37:45.320 --> 00:37:51.600
but I feel like right now that I just see this inner struggle like this figure it out figure it out figure it out and

724
00:37:52.040 --> 00:37:54.040
I heard the word say

725
00:37:54.160 --> 00:37:55.640
contentment

726
00:37:55.640 --> 00:38:02.600
He wants you to be at peace and have contentment in every situation in every circumstance

727
00:38:02.600 --> 00:38:05.000
It doesn't mean you have to stay in that job forever

728
00:38:05.440 --> 00:38:12.080
He just wants to know that you'll choose to surrender and trust him to see it through for you

729
00:38:13.080 --> 00:38:15.080
so would encourage you to do that and

730
00:38:15.480 --> 00:38:22.320
Let's again anybody that I that we do the seat coaching with would encourage you all to come into the groups and post just so

731
00:38:22.320 --> 00:38:26.000
I don't have to say that for everyone and I definitely want to hear you know

732
00:38:26.000 --> 00:38:32.040
What God does with these, you know homework assignments if you will that I give you I call it homework

733
00:38:32.040 --> 00:38:38.600
But you know, I feel like supernatural God work is a better phrase because he'll use it

734
00:38:38.600 --> 00:38:43.840
If y'all if y'all lean into it, he'll definitely set you free in ways. You just don't even know you still need it

735
00:38:44.520 --> 00:38:47.540
Thank you so much for sharing Elizabeth. Go ahead

736
00:38:49.520 --> 00:38:54.440
All right, um, so I've noticed this pattern and it stems from

737
00:38:55.560 --> 00:38:57.560
beliefs that I took on

738
00:38:58.480 --> 00:39:00.600
about not being enough and

739
00:39:01.600 --> 00:39:07.040
A lot of anxiety about being desired and fear of not being desirable and

740
00:39:07.880 --> 00:39:14.180
It's caused a very familiar pattern to happen in my dating relationships

741
00:39:16.320 --> 00:39:20.760
Where I will go out on one or two dates and then they're like you're great

742
00:39:20.760 --> 00:39:25.280
But and which my dad used to say you're great, but dot dot dot

743
00:39:26.160 --> 00:39:28.320
and I have also felt like

744
00:39:29.040 --> 00:39:30.120
Especially

745
00:39:30.120 --> 00:39:33.960
The last few years and then I had a dream recently where I felt like the Lord

746
00:39:34.400 --> 00:39:38.000
showed me that there's been a lot of spiritual opposition to

747
00:39:39.440 --> 00:39:41.440
me coming into marriage and

748
00:39:42.160 --> 00:39:44.240
I've done a lot of work on

749
00:39:44.880 --> 00:39:47.160
Really trying to challenge these negative beliefs

750
00:39:47.920 --> 00:39:52.040
Challenging the beliefs I have about God's goodness for my life and disappointment

751
00:39:52.040 --> 00:39:58.040
The last couple of years I have met some really incredible guys, but it's been

752
00:40:00.800 --> 00:40:08.160
like you're great, you're amazing, but like I, it would require me to surround her and do things

753
00:40:08.160 --> 00:40:16.720
that they are not wanting to do. Um, or another one was like, yes, it was a mutual yes on both

754
00:40:16.720 --> 00:40:22.480
our ends of like, yes, I'm interested in getting to know you. I find you attractive, but I realized

755
00:40:22.480 --> 00:40:26.480
I need to do my heart healing and I'm not ready. So it feels like there's just been like this

756
00:40:26.480 --> 00:40:31.760
constant, like, oh, this looks like it and disappointment. And I'm at a place where I

757
00:40:31.760 --> 00:40:38.000
can't move forward further in my life in so many ways without a partner. So I'm really had this

758
00:40:38.000 --> 00:40:46.320
sense this week of just like feeling really stuck of like, I have done so much internal work to grow

759
00:40:46.320 --> 00:40:58.720
and mature. Um, and, uh, just kind of don't know what else to do, um, to see it things shift and

760
00:40:58.720 --> 00:41:04.240
to see the breakthrough. Cause I feel like I've been contending for so long. Um, and this pattern

761
00:41:04.240 --> 00:41:10.960
hasn't seemed to, to shift. So that's, I was so grateful when you posted about this. Yeah.

762
00:41:10.960 --> 00:41:17.280
So Elizabeth, here is what is coming up. So number one, I'm so sorry that your dad said that to you.

763
00:41:17.280 --> 00:41:23.440
Um, can you tell me, like, give me one example of when your dad said that to you? Like,

764
00:41:24.640 --> 00:41:28.160
um, I would, why did he say it? How, like, what was the context?

765
00:41:28.160 --> 00:41:37.040
Yeah. Um, I think I was in junior high high school and, um, I had gotten in a fight with

766
00:41:37.040 --> 00:41:42.320
him and my mom about something. And it usually was my mom trying to intervene, um, between us

767
00:41:43.200 --> 00:41:50.000
and because I'd never felt heard. Um, I would lash out and like get really big and intense

768
00:41:50.000 --> 00:41:56.240
emotionally. And so his response is you're such a great person, but then it's like your personality

769
00:41:56.240 --> 00:42:02.880
or these things, the way you respond, like for me, it just felt like it totally undermined everything

770
00:42:02.880 --> 00:42:09.360
that he said good about me. And that has shown up in like, you're great. You're attractive. You're

771
00:42:09.360 --> 00:42:17.680
like, but I don't want you. And so it feels very familiar in that sense. So it feels, it's like,

772
00:42:19.200 --> 00:42:23.600
like, but you didn't get to know me. And now I've realized how many, how much of like, because I

773
00:42:23.600 --> 00:42:29.440
felt so judged about myself, how I cut people off or even connecting with my personality and who I

774
00:42:29.520 --> 00:42:34.960
am. And the last guy I went out with, it was incredibly healing of being told, I love your

775
00:42:34.960 --> 00:42:40.240
intensity. Like you're amazing. But then he was like, well, I need to finish this divorce process.

776
00:42:40.800 --> 00:42:45.680
I need to heal some more. Um, so it felt like once again, God, like here I've been contending

777
00:42:46.240 --> 00:42:53.280
and what looked like hope got dashed. And that's where I'm feeling that has been such a pain point

778
00:42:53.280 --> 00:43:00.240
in my life. And the enemy has really used it to create some lies around, um, God that he's

779
00:43:00.240 --> 00:43:04.960
constantly dangling the carrot in front of me. And so I've been really trying to do some work

780
00:43:04.960 --> 00:43:13.760
around how I see God and believe. Um, and yet I, I, there's, there's no, no high quality person

781
00:43:13.760 --> 00:43:18.960
that I'm like, I can't even test if things are different. Um, I yeah, there has, there there's,

782
00:43:18.960 --> 00:43:26.080
it's been quiet. Okay. So here's a couple of things. So as you're talking more about that,

783
00:43:26.080 --> 00:43:31.360
and that was the reason I kind of wanted some clarity because I could take what your dad said

784
00:43:31.360 --> 00:43:36.080
to you in so many different directions. But now that I understand a little bit more of like,

785
00:43:36.080 --> 00:43:42.000
how did this come out and what was the additional things that were said and all of that? I wrote

786
00:43:42.000 --> 00:43:52.160
down too much. The lie is I'm too much. I'm too much for them, or I'm not enough. There's always

787
00:43:52.160 --> 00:43:57.600
these ping pongs back and forth. Right. And those are typically two massive, big core lies that

788
00:43:57.600 --> 00:44:05.520
people feel and believe and then partner with subconsciously. And so, um, even, even on the

789
00:44:05.520 --> 00:44:14.560
good flip side, you just said this last guy said, I love your intensity, but this, and here's the

790
00:44:14.560 --> 00:44:19.040
thing. I'm not saying it's bad for us to be intense. You know, y'all know, I'm kind of can

791
00:44:19.040 --> 00:44:26.640
be intense to be real serious and I can go after some things, but I think that's also another way

792
00:44:26.640 --> 00:44:34.080
that the enemy is trying to reinforce that you're a lot. And you're not, I think that we come out of

793
00:44:34.400 --> 00:44:40.800
I would encourage you to come out of agreement with in partnership with that lie that you are,

794
00:44:40.800 --> 00:44:47.040
you're a whole lot. You're too much because it's, it's, it's just kind of sticking around and

795
00:44:47.040 --> 00:44:54.160
following you. Like it belongs like a friend and it's not your friend. And the other thing that

796
00:44:54.160 --> 00:44:59.840
came up when I was thinking about this originally is, um, I really want to encourage you.

797
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.440
So you can be that lie that I just said,

798
00:45:02.440 --> 00:45:04.240
but also the phrase how you said,

799
00:45:04.240 --> 00:45:05.400
because you said the guys are saying

800
00:45:05.400 --> 00:45:07.640
kind of the same thing, you're great,

801
00:45:07.640 --> 00:45:10.760
but I wanna encourage you to write that out

802
00:45:10.760 --> 00:45:12.920
on a piece of paper, sincerely,

803
00:45:12.920 --> 00:45:16.160
like take time to do this tonight when you get off of here,

804
00:45:16.160 --> 00:45:17.440
like even if it's five minutes,

805
00:45:17.440 --> 00:45:19.240
it doesn't have to be pretty.

806
00:45:19.240 --> 00:45:22.240
I want you to write a couple of the massive core lies,

807
00:45:22.240 --> 00:45:24.160
but definitely putting that you're great,

808
00:45:24.160 --> 00:45:27.120
but or I'm too much, whatever comes up for you.

809
00:45:27.120 --> 00:45:29.720
And then I want you to literally put a big fat X

810
00:45:30.320 --> 00:45:32.000
and I know this sounds so simple,

811
00:45:32.000 --> 00:45:35.760
but y'all sometimes we just need to cut that thing

812
00:45:35.760 --> 00:45:37.440
and just say, you know what?

813
00:45:37.440 --> 00:45:42.440
No, like you cannot keep coming in here anymore.

814
00:45:43.840 --> 00:45:47.040
And we need this physical activation representing

815
00:45:47.040 --> 00:45:49.920
like I am coming out of agreement with this stuff

816
00:45:49.920 --> 00:45:53.040
and this cannot come into my heart or my mind

817
00:45:53.040 --> 00:45:54.760
and it cannot remain here.

818
00:45:54.760 --> 00:45:57.760
And so as we do that, then here's the flip side,

819
00:45:57.760 --> 00:46:01.160
don't forget you all, how do we overcome the lie?

820
00:46:02.160 --> 00:46:04.680
We have to replace it with truth.

821
00:46:04.680 --> 00:46:06.480
And I gave someone this example last night

822
00:46:06.480 --> 00:46:08.440
and it just literally, as soon as you started talking,

823
00:46:08.440 --> 00:46:10.720
I heard the Lord say, she needs the same thing.

824
00:46:10.720 --> 00:46:13.280
And so what I said is after you do that,

825
00:46:13.280 --> 00:46:15.360
I want you to get, it can be post-it notes,

826
00:46:15.360 --> 00:46:18.240
it can just be other pieces of paper that you tape on it,

827
00:46:18.240 --> 00:46:20.880
but I want you to start asking the Lord for the truth.

828
00:46:20.880 --> 00:46:22.360
And every truth he gives you,

829
00:46:22.360 --> 00:46:24.960
I want you just to tape it on top of that paper

830
00:46:24.960 --> 00:46:26.960
that has the lies on it.

831
00:46:26.960 --> 00:46:30.240
Because I want you to start to physically see

832
00:46:30.240 --> 00:46:33.120
that those things are gonna start replacing the lies

833
00:46:33.120 --> 00:46:34.280
in your life.

834
00:46:34.280 --> 00:46:36.440
And that that is what you're gonna partner with.

835
00:46:36.440 --> 00:46:39.200
And here's gonna be the kicker Elizabeth,

836
00:46:39.200 --> 00:46:43.360
I can bet you that the enemy is gonna send someone

837
00:46:43.360 --> 00:46:46.040
to say the same thing to you.

838
00:46:46.040 --> 00:46:48.000
And you're gonna have a choice to make.

839
00:46:50.200 --> 00:46:52.520
You're gonna have a choice to say, you know what?

840
00:46:52.520 --> 00:46:55.280
No, thank you, God bless you

841
00:46:55.280 --> 00:46:57.240
and don't partner with that.

842
00:46:57.240 --> 00:46:59.240
Don't stay there, don't linger with it

843
00:46:59.240 --> 00:47:01.680
because that's not your story anymore.

844
00:47:01.680 --> 00:47:05.840
As of tonight, we're serving the enemy on your behalf,

845
00:47:05.840 --> 00:47:06.960
I am doing it for you.

846
00:47:06.960 --> 00:47:09.760
I'm serving the enemy an eviction notice.

847
00:47:09.760 --> 00:47:13.640
He cannot continue to bring that to your door

848
00:47:13.640 --> 00:47:15.600
and force it down your throat.

849
00:47:15.600 --> 00:47:19.480
Again, it's your choice to partner with me in this

850
00:47:19.480 --> 00:47:20.960
and step into freedom.

851
00:47:20.960 --> 00:47:24.480
And the enemy, oftentimes you all,

852
00:47:24.480 --> 00:47:25.920
he'll come in the same place

853
00:47:25.920 --> 00:47:27.280
and he'll come in the same place

854
00:47:27.280 --> 00:47:29.640
and he'll keep trying to hit that same place.

855
00:47:29.640 --> 00:47:31.880
And then when we get victory over that, guess what?

856
00:47:31.880 --> 00:47:32.880
He'll try to figure out

857
00:47:32.880 --> 00:47:35.640
if he can come in through another door.

858
00:47:35.640 --> 00:47:37.400
That's just how he works.

859
00:47:37.400 --> 00:47:40.000
And so we don't live afraid of that.

860
00:47:40.000 --> 00:47:41.680
We just live with the knowledge of that

861
00:47:41.680 --> 00:47:45.120
so that we can resist the devil.

862
00:47:45.120 --> 00:47:48.120
And it says, when we resist the devil, what happens?

863
00:47:48.120 --> 00:47:51.080
He has like, he literally can't,

864
00:47:51.080 --> 00:47:54.000
he cannot stay when light comes in the room,

865
00:47:54.000 --> 00:47:56.200
when Jesus Christ, the light of Christ

866
00:47:56.200 --> 00:47:59.520
is brought into the room, the enemy cannot stay there.

867
00:48:00.920 --> 00:48:01.760
He can't.

868
00:48:01.760 --> 00:48:04.640
So you putting that truth up

869
00:48:04.640 --> 00:48:06.200
and really partnering with the truth,

870
00:48:06.200 --> 00:48:07.960
like speaking it out over yourself,

871
00:48:07.960 --> 00:48:11.360
like every single time, this is sincerely stuff I did.

872
00:48:11.360 --> 00:48:14.960
I remember the first time I heard Jackie ever say,

873
00:48:14.960 --> 00:48:17.600
come out of alignment with independence

874
00:48:17.600 --> 00:48:22.480
and come into alignment with interdependence on God.

875
00:48:22.520 --> 00:48:25.000
And I was like, man, that's so good

876
00:48:25.000 --> 00:48:27.000
because my whole life I had prided myself

877
00:48:27.000 --> 00:48:28.840
on how independent I was.

878
00:48:30.200 --> 00:48:33.400
I took care of myself and I told myself that story

879
00:48:33.400 --> 00:48:36.640
because I had so much pain

880
00:48:36.640 --> 00:48:39.440
from other people not taking care of me.

881
00:48:39.440 --> 00:48:41.800
So the only way I knew how to deal with that

882
00:48:41.800 --> 00:48:44.400
and cope with it was to pride myself

883
00:48:44.400 --> 00:48:48.520
on how able I was at taking care of myself.

884
00:48:50.000 --> 00:48:50.920
But guess what?

885
00:48:50.960 --> 00:48:53.200
I had to learn how to come out of alignment.

886
00:48:53.200 --> 00:48:54.800
And I'm not saying this is you, Elizabeth,

887
00:48:54.800 --> 00:48:56.800
but I just felt led to go into this too.

888
00:48:56.800 --> 00:48:59.840
Come out of alignment with independence

889
00:48:59.840 --> 00:49:02.160
and get my heart ready

890
00:49:02.160 --> 00:49:04.760
to come into interdependence with God,

891
00:49:04.760 --> 00:49:05.840
but why?

892
00:49:05.840 --> 00:49:08.720
To be in relationship with him,

893
00:49:08.720 --> 00:49:12.360
but also because y'all, he was getting ready to send me

894
00:49:12.360 --> 00:49:16.000
a man that was chivalrous, that wanted to bless me

895
00:49:16.000 --> 00:49:17.840
and do things to help me.

896
00:49:17.840 --> 00:49:20.800
Y'all, he doesn't want me to even carry my food bag

897
00:49:21.680 --> 00:49:22.520
or my food box.

898
00:49:22.520 --> 00:49:23.840
I'm serious.

899
00:49:23.840 --> 00:49:25.480
He loves to help me.

900
00:49:26.800 --> 00:49:29.440
And if I hadn't learned how to receive help

901
00:49:29.440 --> 00:49:31.440
from the Lord and other people,

902
00:49:31.440 --> 00:49:34.600
I can bet you I would have scared him off

903
00:49:35.840 --> 00:49:37.280
because I was so independent

904
00:49:37.280 --> 00:49:39.240
that I just didn't need his help.

905
00:49:41.400 --> 00:49:44.960
So this is why the heart work is so important, y'all.

906
00:49:46.200 --> 00:49:48.600
So Elizabeth, I can't wait to see what happens

907
00:49:48.600 --> 00:49:50.080
and the truth that comes.

908
00:49:51.160 --> 00:49:54.920
And I don't know what you're gonna do with this,

909
00:49:54.920 --> 00:49:57.360
but I got, this will give you a little chuckle.

910
00:49:57.360 --> 00:50:00.000
And so we gotta get the but.

911
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.520
out of your life, okay?

912
00:50:01.520 --> 00:50:04.680
Cause the butts are the big problem here.

913
00:50:04.680 --> 00:50:07.600
So seriously, I'm chuckling a little bit

914
00:50:07.600 --> 00:50:11.440
because then you said that they were then saying yes to you

915
00:50:11.440 --> 00:50:14.920
but this, so we gotta get the butts out of here

916
00:50:15.980 --> 00:50:18.400
because there's gonna be a spirit mate

917
00:50:18.400 --> 00:50:21.520
that's gonna see you and recognize you

918
00:50:21.520 --> 00:50:25.880
and see your value and what you bring to the table

919
00:50:25.880 --> 00:50:29.620
as a couple and they're not gonna run,

920
00:50:29.620 --> 00:50:31.600
they're not gonna change their mind

921
00:50:31.600 --> 00:50:34.340
and see just as soon as you start partnering

922
00:50:34.340 --> 00:50:37.780
with that truth and really stay there,

923
00:50:37.780 --> 00:50:39.540
like fight for that truth,

924
00:50:41.080 --> 00:50:44.240
I believe that that is when it will enter in.

925
00:50:47.340 --> 00:50:49.580
The enemy always wants us to go back.

926
00:50:49.580 --> 00:50:51.460
It's kind of like the prodigal, you know,

927
00:50:51.460 --> 00:50:55.780
when he left the palace, you all, I mean, think about it.

928
00:50:55.780 --> 00:50:59.020
He left all this abundance that he had

929
00:50:59.660 --> 00:51:02.120
and he went and he was eaten, you know,

930
00:51:03.220 --> 00:51:05.620
like less than the pigs basically.

931
00:51:07.560 --> 00:51:10.780
And sometimes I hate to use that as an example,

932
00:51:10.780 --> 00:51:11.620
but it's true.

933
00:51:11.620 --> 00:51:13.440
Sometimes that's how our thinking is.

934
00:51:14.380 --> 00:51:16.980
I was thinking literally also about this today

935
00:51:16.980 --> 00:51:18.020
and I wasn't gonna say this,

936
00:51:18.020 --> 00:51:19.740
but I do feel like it's coming back in my spirit.

937
00:51:19.740 --> 00:51:21.360
So maybe it was from the Lord.

938
00:51:21.360 --> 00:51:23.080
We were watching a little bit of the Olympics

939
00:51:23.080 --> 00:51:26.060
and I was just thinking, watching Simone Biles

940
00:51:26.060 --> 00:51:29.660
and her routine and how much in the swimmers

941
00:51:29.660 --> 00:51:32.180
and just this one swimmer, I forget what her name is,

942
00:51:32.180 --> 00:51:35.780
Ledecky or Ledesky, I'm sorry if I'm messing up her name,

943
00:51:35.780 --> 00:51:40.660
but man, she was just so far, you know,

944
00:51:40.660 --> 00:51:42.460
in front of all the other people,

945
00:51:42.460 --> 00:51:44.260
just the dedication and the commitment

946
00:51:44.260 --> 00:51:46.620
that it must take to get to where they're at.

947
00:51:46.620 --> 00:51:49.060
And I just started thinking about the mindset

948
00:51:49.060 --> 00:51:50.140
that they must have.

949
00:51:50.140 --> 00:51:55.140
And, you know, I imagine that they had hard days.

950
00:51:55.620 --> 00:51:58.660
I imagine that they all at some point faced

951
00:52:00.500 --> 00:52:02.860
the thought of giving up to some degree,

952
00:52:02.860 --> 00:52:07.020
but there's something inside of them that they don't.

953
00:52:08.700 --> 00:52:11.220
They don't give up, they keep going.

954
00:52:12.260 --> 00:52:13.980
And I just was thinking to myself,

955
00:52:13.980 --> 00:52:15.580
like how many times in the past,

956
00:52:15.580 --> 00:52:17.900
like the enemy really tried to get me to think

957
00:52:17.900 --> 00:52:22.060
like you should just quit, you should just quit.

958
00:52:22.060 --> 00:52:25.700
Y'all, the enemy told me after I dated the girl's dad

959
00:52:25.700 --> 00:52:27.820
and I mean, I was with that guy for six years

960
00:52:27.820 --> 00:52:31.180
and he just, you know, treated me like crap,

961
00:52:31.180 --> 00:52:33.660
but I let him, crazy, right?

962
00:52:35.180 --> 00:52:37.780
When I left that, the enemy was so quick to tell me

963
00:52:37.780 --> 00:52:39.780
how I would never figure it out.

964
00:52:40.780 --> 00:52:43.260
And that's the story he fed me for a really long time.

965
00:52:43.260 --> 00:52:45.980
You are the enemy, you are the enemy.

966
00:52:45.980 --> 00:52:47.580
He fed me for a really long time.

967
00:52:47.580 --> 00:52:49.860
You are never gonna get this right.

968
00:52:50.700 --> 00:52:53.020
You can get all this other stuff right,

969
00:52:53.020 --> 00:52:55.060
but you can't do this.

970
00:52:57.300 --> 00:52:59.020
I'm not saying I got it all figured out,

971
00:52:59.020 --> 00:53:02.780
but I love my husband and I love my life.

972
00:53:02.780 --> 00:53:06.980
I feel like I'm living a completely different life.

973
00:53:06.980 --> 00:53:10.580
And that can be the story for all of you too.

974
00:53:10.580 --> 00:53:12.020
It can be.

975
00:53:12.020 --> 00:53:14.220
We have to partner with truth.

976
00:53:14.220 --> 00:53:15.860
The ladies, the guys might not know this,

977
00:53:16.740 --> 00:53:17.580
but the ladies, some of y'all know,

978
00:53:17.580 --> 00:53:19.180
I started walking around my apartment,

979
00:53:19.180 --> 00:53:21.260
wearing white dresses, telling myself,

980
00:53:21.260 --> 00:53:23.900
Bethany Stanko, you are a bride.

981
00:53:23.900 --> 00:53:24.740
You are a bride.

982
00:53:24.740 --> 00:53:25.860
I kept talking to myself.

983
00:53:25.860 --> 00:53:30.860
I just kept declaring because God told me I was a bride.

984
00:53:32.660 --> 00:53:34.500
And I know maybe that's not the guy's thing,

985
00:53:34.500 --> 00:53:35.780
but y'all can.

986
00:53:35.780 --> 00:53:38.900
Like, hey, I am a man of honor, integrity,

987
00:53:38.900 --> 00:53:42.020
and I will be able to lead my wife in love

988
00:53:42.020 --> 00:53:43.940
and care for my family, provide for,

989
00:53:43.940 --> 00:53:48.940
whatever your mindset struggle is,

990
00:53:48.940 --> 00:53:50.900
you all know what the stories are

991
00:53:50.900 --> 00:53:54.420
that the enemy is trying to convince you that you can't do.

992
00:53:55.540 --> 00:53:58.060
And God's trying to say you can tonight.

993
00:53:59.100 --> 00:54:00.660
You can.

994
00:54:00.660 --> 00:54:02.180
Thank you so much, Elizabeth,

995
00:54:02.180 --> 00:54:05.180
for sharing and asking your question.

996
00:54:05.180 --> 00:54:06.540
Stephanie, go ahead.

997
00:54:09.260 --> 00:54:12.260
So thank you, Bethany, for everything you've done.

998
00:54:12.260 --> 00:54:14.580
I feel like I've had so much breakthrough in this program,

999
00:54:14.580 --> 00:54:17.100
so I just wanted to start with that.

1000
00:54:17.100 --> 00:54:20.180
But I'm noticing right before we got on this call,

1001
00:54:20.180 --> 00:54:22.100
I had a situation and I was like,

1002
00:54:22.100 --> 00:54:23.700
okay, I need to talk about this.

1003
00:54:24.740 --> 00:54:27.940
I've had a few situations where,

1004
00:54:27.940 --> 00:54:31.420
so one at work where I have a client

1005
00:54:31.420 --> 00:54:36.260
and her insurance company just hasn't been releasing funds

1006
00:54:36.260 --> 00:54:39.180
that are owed to me and it's accumulating

1007
00:54:39.180 --> 00:54:41.300
and I've spent so many hours on the phone

1008
00:54:41.340 --> 00:54:43.500
trying to figure it out and it's thousands of dollars.

1009
00:54:43.500 --> 00:54:48.500
And then I've had just like random bills

1010
00:54:49.980 --> 00:54:51.660
like way above what they should be.

1011
00:54:51.660 --> 00:54:56.580
And then today I just got a bill for my own insurance

1012
00:54:56.580 --> 00:54:57.820
that should have been covered

1013
00:54:57.820 --> 00:54:59.500
that I like had checked on before.

1014
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:08.000
And so when I'm in these situations and I'm talking to the people or the companies,

1015
00:55:08.000 --> 00:55:17.000
I just, it's like my blood starts boiling and I get so frustrated because it just, it feels like this injustice.

1016
00:55:17.000 --> 00:55:24.000
And it's like, I don't want to go to this victim mindset, but it, I have to battle that.

1017
00:55:24.000 --> 00:55:27.000
Like it feels like, oh, the enemy is just coming after me.

1018
00:55:27.000 --> 00:55:30.000
And I, I'm like, I do all the declarations.

1019
00:55:30.000 --> 00:55:33.000
I pray. I'm trying to trust God to like figure it out.

1020
00:55:33.000 --> 00:55:37.000
But it's been months of this.

1021
00:55:37.000 --> 00:55:42.000
And I just get so frustrated that I'm like,

1022
00:55:42.000 --> 00:55:48.000
Does it remind you of anything like when you were younger, any kind of injustice?

1023
00:55:48.000 --> 00:55:53.000
Is that anything coming up that it's linked into for you when this is happening?

1024
00:55:53.000 --> 00:55:59.000
Yeah, I'm sure it's connected to some abuse in my childhood where it's like,

1025
00:55:59.000 --> 00:56:03.000
because I think what comes up is like, no one's doing anything about this.

1026
00:56:03.000 --> 00:56:07.000
No one's taking me seriously.

1027
00:56:07.000 --> 00:56:08.000
Okay.

1028
00:56:08.000 --> 00:56:09.000
Yeah.

1029
00:56:09.000 --> 00:56:16.000
Okay. So, and when I point this out, don't get embarrassed, but I want to just do this because it teaches everybody.

1030
00:56:16.000 --> 00:56:19.000
So y'all, when I asked her that question, when she went to respond,

1031
00:56:19.000 --> 00:56:21.000
and sometimes this happens to me when I'm talking to you,

1032
00:56:21.000 --> 00:56:23.000
I find it interesting.

1033
00:56:23.000 --> 00:56:28.000
I tend to have to cough at times where I'm getting ready to release something.

1034
00:56:28.000 --> 00:56:33.000
You know, that might be even my own, you know, stress or something that I'm trying,

1035
00:56:33.000 --> 00:56:34.000
breakthroughs coming for somebody.

1036
00:56:34.000 --> 00:56:38.000
But when I asked you that question, you went to answer your voice crackled a little bit.

1037
00:56:38.000 --> 00:56:42.000
And it sounded like you almost felt like you had something in your throat there for a sec.

1038
00:56:42.000 --> 00:56:43.000
Is that how it felt?

1039
00:56:43.000 --> 00:56:44.000
Yeah. Yeah.

1040
00:56:44.000 --> 00:56:46.000
Like I feel the emotion coming up.

1041
00:56:46.000 --> 00:56:47.000
Okay. Okay.

1042
00:56:47.000 --> 00:56:52.000
Okay. So that tells me that the way I call it, there's some heat on that.

1043
00:56:52.000 --> 00:56:55.000
Okay. So that is signaling to me that you,

1044
00:56:55.000 --> 00:57:03.000
there might be some additional healing that God wants because that happened when you said no one is doing anything.

1045
00:57:03.000 --> 00:57:09.000
So like, kind of like it resonates with a phrase, like, you know, no one's fighting for me.

1046
00:57:09.000 --> 00:57:11.000
No one's warring on my behalf.

1047
00:57:11.000 --> 00:57:16.000
Like I'm having to fight this battle by myself and nothing is happening.

1048
00:57:16.000 --> 00:57:18.000
And so I want to encourage you just to,

1049
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:21.000
you don't have to go all the way back into that stuff from when you were little.

1050
00:57:21.000 --> 00:57:25.000
You know, you guys did, you all did a lot of that when you were in heart work,

1051
00:57:25.000 --> 00:57:30.000
but I do want to encourage you just to ask the Lord if there's any additional healing he's wanting to do.

1052
00:57:30.000 --> 00:57:33.000
He's not causing these situations to happen at work,

1053
00:57:33.000 --> 00:57:38.000
but I do believe he wants to use them to bring about additional healing in you.

1054
00:57:38.000 --> 00:57:41.000
And so I would encourage you just to talk to him a little bit about that.

1055
00:57:41.000 --> 00:57:45.000
But also something that I heard when you were talking interesting to this morning,

1056
00:57:45.000 --> 00:57:50.000
I was listening to this prophetic message, if you will.

1057
00:57:50.000 --> 00:57:54.000
And the guy was praying about and talking about delay.

1058
00:57:54.000 --> 00:58:03.000
And how many times we don't realize that the delay is because the Prince of Persia,

1059
00:58:03.000 --> 00:58:07.000
you know, the enemy, you know, uses all these different forces.

1060
00:58:07.000 --> 00:58:13.000
But the Prince of Persia is talked about in the Bible, how he tries to delay an answer from coming.

1061
00:58:14.000 --> 00:58:18.000
God's already released it to us, but he's trying to hinder it.

1062
00:58:18.000 --> 00:58:25.000
And sometimes, you know, the intercession, and it sounds like you are, you're trying to forgive,

1063
00:58:25.000 --> 00:58:29.000
you're trying to do all the things and keep your, you know, you said, I'm doing the declarations.

1064
00:58:29.000 --> 00:58:31.000
I'm trying, but it keeps happening.

1065
00:58:31.000 --> 00:58:35.000
And so to me, the fact that you keep facing the same thing also,

1066
00:58:35.000 --> 00:58:37.000
it's not something that you've done to create it,

1067
00:58:37.000 --> 00:58:42.000
but I feel like the enemy is trying to hinder the blessing.

1068
00:58:42.000 --> 00:58:44.000
And not even the blessing, just what you're owed.

1069
00:58:45.000 --> 00:58:46.000
That's what I wrote down.

1070
00:58:46.000 --> 00:58:48.000
Pay what you owe.

1071
00:58:48.000 --> 00:58:50.000
Like, pay me what you owe me.

1072
00:58:50.000 --> 00:58:55.000
And so that's what led me to ask you about injustice when you were younger.

1073
00:58:55.000 --> 00:58:58.000
Was there any time, you know, that you felt, and you already answered this,

1074
00:58:58.000 --> 00:59:02.000
but just to continue to help you unpack this some more later.

1075
00:59:05.000 --> 00:59:10.000
Is there anybody that you still feel like owes you something?

1076
00:59:10.000 --> 00:59:13.000
Maybe an apology or anything like that.

1077
00:59:13.000 --> 00:59:16.000
Just really praying into that as well.

1078
00:59:16.000 --> 00:59:20.000
And potentially, just if there is someone that you just really feel like,

1079
00:59:20.000 --> 00:59:25.000
man, they owe me an apology, and maybe there's a little bit of bitterness there

1080
00:59:25.000 --> 00:59:28.000
or resentment because they didn't apologize,

1081
00:59:28.000 --> 00:59:32.000
I would encourage you to do some forgiveness there and just really release them.

1082
00:59:33.000 --> 00:59:36.000
I don't know about you all, but when people hurt me,

1083
00:59:36.000 --> 00:59:39.000
I really do want them to come and apologize.

1084
00:59:39.000 --> 00:59:40.000
I do.

1085
00:59:40.000 --> 00:59:41.000
I think that's human nature.

1086
00:59:41.000 --> 00:59:44.000
But a lot of times, they don't.

1087
00:59:45.000 --> 00:59:47.000
And I find that interesting.

1088
00:59:47.000 --> 00:59:49.000
I'm not saying not everyone.

1089
00:59:49.000 --> 00:59:50.000
The people that are healthy do.

1090
00:59:50.000 --> 00:59:52.000
But when people aren't healthy, they don't,

1091
00:59:52.000 --> 00:59:55.000
they're afraid of apologizing and taking ownership.

1092
00:59:55.000 --> 00:59:58.000
They don't know how to do it or all these different kind of things.

1093
00:59:58.000 --> 01:00:00.000
But just want to encourage you to kind of let go.

1094
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.320
lean into that more. And the Prince of Persia is the one

1095
01:00:06.320 --> 01:00:09.080
that's delaying the money. I really feel pretty confident

1096
01:00:09.080 --> 01:00:12.720
about that. Yeah, if you look that up in the word, you know,

1097
01:00:12.720 --> 01:00:17.720
that that's time where there was all the wrestling, you know, you

1098
01:00:17.720 --> 01:00:20.800
know, walked away with his hip and all that change all that

1099
01:00:20.800 --> 01:00:24.280
that's Yeah, thank you, Aaron joy. I love my helper Cheryl's

1100
01:00:24.280 --> 01:00:26.280
been telling people where the hard work stuff sad want to

1101
01:00:26.280 --> 01:00:29.600
shout out Cheryl and Aaron put in the reference there. I

1102
01:00:29.600 --> 01:00:34.440
appreciate you all. You guys are so amazing. And so yeah,

1103
01:00:34.440 --> 01:00:37.320
Stephanie, pray into that. And we look forward to hearing what

1104
01:00:37.320 --> 01:00:41.840
God does. And I'm at the end here, I'm going to pray over

1105
01:00:41.840 --> 01:00:44.560
everybody for any kind of things that are being held up like

1106
01:00:44.560 --> 01:00:48.040
that. We'll pray for for God to come in. Because here's here's

1107
01:00:48.040 --> 01:00:52.040
the flip side. Thank you, Lord, for reminding me. The angel

1108
01:00:52.040 --> 01:00:56.640
Michael came also on the scene there. And he brought the

1109
01:00:56.640 --> 01:01:02.200
solution. So the solutions on the way. Okay. And just a quick

1110
01:01:02.200 --> 01:01:07.280
question, like, with the recent bill, I got, I think it was a

1111
01:01:07.280 --> 01:01:11.200
miscommunication, because I had checked on a new insurance that

1112
01:01:11.200 --> 01:01:14.920
this place took it before, like several times. They said they

1113
01:01:14.920 --> 01:01:20.600
did and turns out. So it's like, do I do I just pay it? Because I

1114
01:01:20.600 --> 01:01:23.920
have the money? Or do I you know, like,

1115
01:01:24.520 --> 01:01:28.000
well, okay, so here is where I'll draw the line. Yeah. So

1116
01:01:28.000 --> 01:01:30.120
that's where you're going to need to ask the Lord about that

1117
01:01:30.120 --> 01:01:33.840
personally. Okay. Because I feel like, I mean, I know you just

1118
01:01:33.840 --> 01:01:37.520
explained it to me. But I don't feel I'd have to really know the

1119
01:01:37.520 --> 01:01:40.880
whole picture to really give you an answer. And I don't feel like

1120
01:01:40.920 --> 01:01:44.120
I'm feeling a caution from the Lord. Yeah, you need to hear

1121
01:01:44.120 --> 01:01:47.240
from the Lord on that and follow what he's telling you to do

1122
01:01:47.240 --> 01:01:52.600
regarding that. Okay. Thank you. You're welcome. All right, Don,

1123
01:01:52.600 --> 01:01:55.520
go ahead. And you all I know it's nine o'clock. If you need

1124
01:01:55.520 --> 01:01:58.040
to hop off. I totally understand. But I am gonna I am

1125
01:01:58.040 --> 01:02:03.040
gonna do Don and Abby. I think Robin, you just added again. So

1126
01:02:03.040 --> 01:02:05.760
I'll let Robin go. But that after that, I'll have to stop

1127
01:02:05.760 --> 01:02:08.040
for the night. Okay. All right, Don, go ahead.

1128
01:02:08.400 --> 01:02:13.800
Oh, thank you. Hi, Bethany. Hi. Yeah. Hi. One of my biggest

1129
01:02:14.320 --> 01:02:17.600
things with my mindset and the biggest struggle I'm having now

1130
01:02:17.600 --> 01:02:21.320
it always goes back to the same issue for me. I'm trying to do

1131
01:02:21.320 --> 01:02:26.440
better on it. And it's with the my lack of finance. So it's a

1132
01:02:26.480 --> 01:02:32.000
poverty mindset, lack. I have a lack all the time scarcity. God

1133
01:02:32.000 --> 01:02:35.400
doesn't want to bless me. I'm not worthy to be blessed. And so

1134
01:02:35.400 --> 01:02:37.520
when these things come up, it always has to do with my

1135
01:02:37.520 --> 01:02:40.880
finances that God does not want to bless me all that, you know,

1136
01:02:40.880 --> 01:02:44.760
he's not going to provide for you. And I go back to times of

1137
01:02:44.760 --> 01:02:48.520
like when God did not provide for me like when I lost housing

1138
01:02:48.520 --> 01:02:51.280
when I was homeless. And the devil will always throw that

1139
01:02:51.280 --> 01:02:55.400
back up in my face that I was a Christian spirit filled and was

1140
01:02:55.400 --> 01:02:58.440
homeless. Well, God didn't provide for you. Well, you see

1141
01:02:58.440 --> 01:03:01.840
that's going to happen again. So with financial I just moved

1142
01:03:01.840 --> 01:03:05.560
recently and I was triggered because and my Christian friends

1143
01:03:05.560 --> 01:03:08.720
meanwhile, they always say well just pray and believe God just

1144
01:03:08.720 --> 01:03:12.040
type just give just pray and believe God and God's gonna the

1145
01:03:12.040 --> 01:03:14.880
money's gonna happen the money will come through, but it

1146
01:03:14.880 --> 01:03:19.360
doesn't. And so then I lose my trust. And then I begin to worry

1147
01:03:19.360 --> 01:03:21.760
and then that worry will say, well, God, why is this not

1148
01:03:21.760 --> 01:03:24.760
happening? So I'm in debt right now, you know, because of my

1149
01:03:24.760 --> 01:03:27.920
move, I'm trying to get out of the debt. I have a big call. I

1150
01:03:27.920 --> 01:03:31.600
have a big a big a big call to God on my life. I got a

1151
01:03:31.600 --> 01:03:34.480
scholarship to go back to school. I'm supposed to start

1152
01:03:34.480 --> 01:03:37.480
school in three weeks, but there's no money to start the

1153
01:03:37.480 --> 01:03:40.560
school. And everybody's saying, Oh, God's gonna come through.

1154
01:03:40.840 --> 01:03:44.640
Oh, just have faith sister just have faith. That's easy for them

1155
01:03:44.640 --> 01:03:48.520
to say, but I need to see it like where is where is it? So

1156
01:03:48.520 --> 01:03:51.920
God called me here. I'm like, then you need to provide and

1157
01:03:51.920 --> 01:03:56.000
that's what I keep saying. But in my mind is saying that but

1158
01:03:56.000 --> 01:03:59.760
I'm like, do I really believe that? No, I mean, I'm like,

1159
01:03:59.800 --> 01:04:03.280
really afraid about starting school in three weeks, because I

1160
01:04:03.280 --> 01:04:06.240
don't have the money. So if I don't have the money, I can't do

1161
01:04:06.240 --> 01:04:09.680
it. And then it's like, you don't trust God. And then my

1162
01:04:09.680 --> 01:04:12.160
mind will say, Oh, you don't trust the Lord, you have no

1163
01:04:12.160 --> 01:04:14.680
trust. So condemn myself.

1164
01:04:15.360 --> 01:04:19.240
Yeah, so okay, so here's where I'm going to go with this one.

1165
01:04:19.560 --> 01:04:23.400
Y'all there's balance in everything. Okay? In the

1166
01:04:23.400 --> 01:04:28.240
kingdom, there's balance, there's not religion. And here's

1167
01:04:28.240 --> 01:04:32.640
the thing. Sometimes God is going to ask us to step out in

1168
01:04:32.640 --> 01:04:39.000
faith. But I think wisdom, far outweighs faith in a lot of a

1169
01:04:39.000 --> 01:04:43.040
lot of things. And I would really encourage you just to

1170
01:04:43.040 --> 01:04:46.360
start getting into Proverbs and reading Proverbs on a regular

1171
01:04:46.360 --> 01:04:51.680
basis. Proverbs is going to give you wisdom in decisions like

1172
01:04:51.680 --> 01:04:54.480
this, it's going to tell you like the way to go and the way

1173
01:04:54.480 --> 01:04:57.040
that fools go. And I'm not saying you're a fool. But just,

1174
01:04:57.240 --> 01:04:59.880
you know, sometimes the people that are just saying

1175
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.160
People that are just saying, Oh, have faith. Oh, have faith. Go do this. Whether the money is there

1176
01:05:04.160 --> 01:05:09.840
or not. Well, okay. Maybe the money will show up, but we also need to look at if I'm being like,

1177
01:05:09.840 --> 01:05:18.160
I look at my own life. So I'll use my life as an example in the past. Um, I mean, I used to just

1178
01:05:18.160 --> 01:05:25.680
give, give, give, give, give, give the guy I was dating. I gave and gave and gave until I didn't

1179
01:05:25.680 --> 01:05:34.800
even have for myself. Well, I could blame him for that, or I could take ownership of that.

1180
01:05:36.320 --> 01:05:41.200
And so I'll say the same thing. A lot of times we blame God because God didn't come through for us.

1181
01:05:42.160 --> 01:05:47.680
But sometimes it's because we're choosing to keep spending our money.

1182
01:05:49.680 --> 01:05:53.600
And I love, and I don't mean this just towards you, Don, myself, I was doing that.

1183
01:05:54.560 --> 01:06:01.360
And so I had to really look at like, okay, what is the heart issue? Like behind why I'm

1184
01:06:02.080 --> 01:06:06.720
giving all the time. It's amazing that I'm a giver. I know that God is blessed by me being

1185
01:06:06.720 --> 01:06:13.840
a giver, but Jackie talks a lot about this, any gift overextended y'all that's a signal.

1186
01:06:14.400 --> 01:06:19.280
That's a signal that there's heartwork that's needed there because we're, we're getting a

1187
01:06:19.360 --> 01:06:27.840
need filled by overextending that in some way, shape or form. So I had to look at, okay, well,

1188
01:06:27.840 --> 01:06:36.160
is it that, you know, I just don't know how to handle my own finances. And so I just keep saying,

1189
01:06:36.160 --> 01:06:39.840
well, God will come through. Well, God will come through if I give to this person, God will come

1190
01:06:39.840 --> 01:06:46.080
through. But then what, when I can't pay my bills, then I'm mad at God because he didn't come through.

1191
01:06:46.160 --> 01:06:50.880
I mean, this is a common story, even in a lot of churches, Christians, this is how we live,

1192
01:06:51.680 --> 01:06:58.560
right? So I would encourage you just to really sincerely, and this is my honest to goodness,

1193
01:06:58.560 --> 01:07:04.640
get in Proverbs because God wants to give you wisdom and what to do. I'm not saying that God

1194
01:07:04.640 --> 01:07:09.120
won't come through for you, Don, and give you the money that you need. But I also think you have to

1195
01:07:09.920 --> 01:07:16.880
be really careful, all of us, we have to be really careful about who we're letting speak into our

1196
01:07:16.880 --> 01:07:24.800
lives. And we have to also, and this isn't in a judgmental way, you know, like I said earlier,

1197
01:07:24.800 --> 01:07:32.960
like my best, one of my best friends, I cannot talk to her about baby stuff very much at all.

1198
01:07:33.360 --> 01:07:37.600
I let her in, we talk about it, for a while there, I didn't really bring it up at all,

1199
01:07:37.600 --> 01:07:43.200
because she started coming at me with all these opinions from doctors and people that she knows.

1200
01:07:43.200 --> 01:07:50.240
And I was just like, I finally said, I love you, but I'm believing for this. So I just feel like

1201
01:07:50.240 --> 01:07:58.400
I need to tell you, like, I can't receive any of that from you. Even if it's good information,

1202
01:07:59.280 --> 01:08:03.040
she's bringing me all this stuff that I need to be concerned about, blah, blah, blah. Well,

1203
01:08:03.040 --> 01:08:10.960
I'll be concerned about that if that day comes, right? So, so we say to people, you know,

1204
01:08:12.000 --> 01:08:15.520
where are the boundaries? This is the other thing, Don, that came up is where are the boundaries that

1205
01:08:15.520 --> 01:08:21.439
maybe need to be put in place for the days ahead? You know, with people, with finances for yourself,

1206
01:08:21.439 --> 01:08:26.080
you know, where you start saving a little bit, you know, we can all make promises,

1207
01:08:26.160 --> 01:08:30.640
a little bit, you know, we can all make progress. This is why it's so important. If y'all didn't

1208
01:08:30.640 --> 01:08:36.319
hear Supernatural Saturday last Saturday, what Jackie was saying, if, if we can get a hold of

1209
01:08:36.319 --> 01:08:43.200
this as a community, y'all, it'll literally change our lives. We're sitting in the watermelon patch,

1210
01:08:43.200 --> 01:08:48.240
and we're crying because the watermelons aren't coming up. But maybe the strawberries are,

1211
01:08:48.240 --> 01:08:52.080
the whole patch is ripe, and they're dying on the vine, because we're not over there picking it.

1212
01:08:52.880 --> 01:08:58.080
So again, I'm not saying you shouldn't be at school. But if the, if the money's not coming

1213
01:08:58.080 --> 01:09:06.399
through right now, is God blessing something else? Just be in prayer about it. Just one of

1214
01:09:06.399 --> 01:09:11.200
the questions I wanted to pull up is with a hard book about this, because the whole thing is he

1215
01:09:11.200 --> 01:09:17.040
probably is blessing me in other ways. But again, I, I can't see it because my whole mindset is on

1216
01:09:17.040 --> 01:09:22.240
lack. Like I'm always thinking I'm not worthy to be blessed. I want to talk more, but I actually

1217
01:09:22.240 --> 01:09:27.359
have a hard time believing what people are telling me when they say that God does want to bless me.

1218
01:09:28.080 --> 01:09:33.600
Yeah. So when you, and this is one of the things, if you remember, when we went through a heart work,

1219
01:09:34.640 --> 01:09:40.880
we have to get to the source. So the source for you, you might already know it's back in childhood,

1220
01:09:40.880 --> 01:09:45.439
but there's probably still another wound there that needs healing. Because even if,

1221
01:09:46.399 --> 01:09:51.680
even if we start to heal, like all the abuse that I went through you all, I had to do several rounds

1222
01:09:51.680 --> 01:09:57.600
of healing regarding that. And, and I've had even more things happen to bring healing after I got

1223
01:09:57.600 --> 01:09:59.840
married because, you know,

1224
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:03.800
Oh, you get married and then you're faced with new things that bring up

1225
01:10:03.840 --> 01:10:06.240
revealings for healing and you can step into that.

1226
01:10:06.520 --> 01:10:10.320
So I would encourage you just to keep asking the Lord, you know, Hey, Lord.

1227
01:10:11.160 --> 01:10:14.960
I'm really still struggling with this lack mentality.

1228
01:10:14.960 --> 01:10:18.720
I will tell you, as you were talking, I saw a little girl.

1229
01:10:18.800 --> 01:10:23.800
Um, it was kind of like, I saw you holding a doll, but the doll disappeared.

1230
01:10:23.840 --> 01:10:29.640
And so I don't know if there was something that you wanted as a kid or some kind of

1231
01:10:29.640 --> 01:10:34.800
need that you had, or you saw a friend that had something, I'm not sure I

1232
01:10:34.800 --> 01:10:38.120
couldn't like really hone in all the way on it, but that's what I saw.

1233
01:10:38.880 --> 01:10:43.600
And it's interesting that even something that simple, we don't realize as kids,

1234
01:10:43.600 --> 01:10:50.960
how a lie that we believe can enter in that young, and it can inform all of

1235
01:10:50.960 --> 01:10:55.360
our thoughts beyond that, because every time a trauma happens from that moment

1236
01:10:55.360 --> 01:11:00.600
on, that looks like, sounds like, feels like the same enemy, we'll use it to

1237
01:11:00.640 --> 01:11:02.640
kind of build and build and build.

1238
01:11:02.640 --> 01:11:04.320
And that's how strongholds are formed.

1239
01:11:04.320 --> 01:11:09.360
And so I would, I would even say that part of the struggle is that they're,

1240
01:11:09.360 --> 01:11:12.600
they're probably in the past has been a stronghold there.

1241
01:11:12.840 --> 01:11:16.440
And over time, the Lord's trying to help you break through that stronghold.

1242
01:11:17.480 --> 01:11:17.840
Yeah.

1243
01:11:18.080 --> 01:11:22.840
And, and the transforming of your mind is going to come by getting truth in there.

1244
01:11:23.160 --> 01:11:27.320
The healing in your heart and the truth in your mind, and those two kind of pairing

1245
01:11:27.320 --> 01:11:32.880
together and, and walking those things out through your daily choices as well.

1246
01:11:33.080 --> 01:11:35.920
So that's how the partnering with the truth, it comes into play.

1247
01:11:37.080 --> 01:11:41.560
So declaring it is powerful and we need to do that every day, but partnering

1248
01:11:41.560 --> 01:11:44.200
with it, that that's the walking it out part.

1249
01:11:44.880 --> 01:11:49.000
So for me, one of the ways I had to begin partnering with the truth, I could

1250
01:11:49.000 --> 01:11:55.560
declare a financial blessing over myself all day long, but if I never saved any

1251
01:11:55.560 --> 01:12:00.080
money, do y'all know that God says he'll bless the storehouses?

1252
01:12:01.320 --> 01:12:02.720
Well, what's the storehouses?

1253
01:12:03.600 --> 01:12:04.720
Well, that's our savings.

1254
01:12:06.240 --> 01:12:09.040
And if we have no savings, it doesn't mean he can't still bless us.

1255
01:12:09.040 --> 01:12:12.640
Of course he can, but it's important for us to save.

1256
01:12:12.880 --> 01:12:16.040
And I don't want to get into finances, but I just want to kind of put that out there.

1257
01:12:16.280 --> 01:12:17.760
That was something that he showed me.

1258
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:27.480
I had to, I needed to create the storehouse and, and, and decide that it was, it was

1259
01:12:27.480 --> 01:12:35.440
really important to also create wealth for myself and my future generations and, and

1260
01:12:35.440 --> 01:12:39.000
really emphasize that and be intentional about that.

1261
01:12:39.760 --> 01:12:40.640
It's a trigger.

1262
01:12:40.760 --> 01:12:42.360
I'll say Bethany, it's a big trigger.

1263
01:12:42.480 --> 01:12:47.080
When people talk about blessing and getting abundantly blessed and how much money they

1264
01:12:47.120 --> 01:12:48.520
have, it makes me upset.

1265
01:12:48.560 --> 01:12:49.160
It's a trigger.

1266
01:12:49.720 --> 01:12:50.040
Yeah.

1267
01:12:50.280 --> 01:12:54.760
So that's where, again, I would say, okay, Lord, you know, this is where you got, you

1268
01:12:54.760 --> 01:12:58.040
all have to get, you know, just stay really good at asking questions.

1269
01:12:58.040 --> 01:13:00.800
God, this is triggering me right now.

1270
01:13:00.840 --> 01:13:02.520
Like, why is this offending me?

1271
01:13:02.520 --> 01:13:03.800
Why is this triggering me?

1272
01:13:03.800 --> 01:13:08.280
Why does this feel painful when I hear them talk about this and just keep having

1273
01:13:08.280 --> 01:13:12.360
conversations with him and he will continue to reveal these things to you.

1274
01:13:13.080 --> 01:13:17.600
The Bible says that he whispers secrets from heaven to his friends.

1275
01:13:18.960 --> 01:13:20.120
You are his friend.

1276
01:13:20.120 --> 01:13:21.040
I'm his friend.

1277
01:13:22.120 --> 01:13:25.280
So I believe he'll whisper some things to you in the days ahead, Don.

1278
01:13:25.280 --> 01:13:26.840
He's not finished yet.

1279
01:13:26.880 --> 01:13:30.000
Keep hanging in there and we'll be praying for you about your school.

1280
01:13:30.240 --> 01:13:33.320
I know that's something you really, during heartwork felt like a huge

1281
01:13:33.320 --> 01:13:36.120
breakthrough for you, for you in that area.

1282
01:13:36.120 --> 01:13:39.440
And so I'd love to see you walk in that, but we also want to trust God's timing for

1283
01:13:39.440 --> 01:13:39.840
that too.

1284
01:13:39.840 --> 01:13:43.360
So I'll be praying on all sides regarding that for you.

1285
01:13:43.360 --> 01:13:43.880
Okay.

1286
01:13:44.480 --> 01:13:45.360
Thank you very much.

1287
01:13:45.360 --> 01:13:45.640
Yeah.

1288
01:13:46.200 --> 01:13:46.520
Yeah.

1289
01:13:46.520 --> 01:13:47.200
You're welcome.

1290
01:13:47.240 --> 01:13:48.120
We love you.

1291
01:13:48.440 --> 01:13:48.800
Yeah.

1292
01:13:49.440 --> 01:13:50.440
Abby, go ahead.

1293
01:13:55.360 --> 01:14:00.480
Hi, I, I actually was triggered right before I, uh, I came to the meeting.

1294
01:14:00.960 --> 01:14:05.560
I'm kind of still processing myself, but I would like to hear about your, um,

1295
01:14:06.280 --> 01:14:07.480
some spiritual insights.

1296
01:14:07.480 --> 01:14:14.640
So, so basically, um, there were like two guys who one guy used to be interesting

1297
01:14:14.640 --> 01:14:19.640
me and one guy I used to be interesting in, but none of them end up, you know, we

1298
01:14:19.640 --> 01:14:21.080
can date and stuff like that.

1299
01:14:21.720 --> 01:14:27.120
And I started to find out, uh, both of them may be seeing other people now.

1300
01:14:27.160 --> 01:14:35.160
I'm not, it's not like confirmed yet, but I just feel like, um, I don't know,

1301
01:14:35.760 --> 01:14:37.440
like jealousy or anger.

1302
01:14:37.440 --> 01:14:37.920
I don't know.

1303
01:14:37.960 --> 01:14:42.120
It's very, um, that kind of complicated emotions.

1304
01:14:42.120 --> 01:14:45.400
And I feel bad because I've like, I should be able to bless them because

1305
01:14:45.400 --> 01:14:46.600
they're brothers in the Lord.

1306
01:14:46.600 --> 01:14:47.000
Right.

1307
01:14:47.640 --> 01:14:50.320
But I just felt like, why am I left out?

1308
01:14:50.440 --> 01:14:52.760
You know, what did I do wrong?

1309
01:14:53.120 --> 01:14:53.520
Yeah.

1310
01:14:54.400 --> 01:14:54.880
Okay.

1311
01:14:55.200 --> 01:14:58.880
So was that Hunter?

1312
01:14:58.960 --> 01:14:59.600
Okay.

1313
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:02.200
I don't know who that was.

1314
01:15:02.200 --> 01:15:05.400
So anytime you all have anything like this,

1315
01:15:05.400 --> 01:15:08.920
the first thing is it's interesting.

1316
01:15:08.920 --> 01:15:12.200
Someone was sharing with me something about things

1317
01:15:12.200 --> 01:15:14.320
like this similarly last night.

1318
01:15:14.320 --> 01:15:18.120
So you are getting to know in community.

1319
01:15:18.120 --> 01:15:19.580
Remember, level one and level two,

1320
01:15:19.580 --> 01:15:23.000
you're getting to know each other in community as friends.

1321
01:15:23.000 --> 01:15:24.320
You're not exclusive.

1322
01:15:24.320 --> 01:15:29.600
So we know, most likely, you're seeing other people.

1323
01:15:29.600 --> 01:15:31.400
They're seeing other people.

1324
01:15:31.400 --> 01:15:36.440
So we really hold open hands, hopefully.

1325
01:15:36.440 --> 01:15:38.640
Hold people with open hands, you all.

1326
01:15:38.640 --> 01:15:41.000
Because here's the thing.

1327
01:15:41.000 --> 01:15:45.200
When we start to feel ownership, and not that we're saying this,

1328
01:15:45.200 --> 01:15:46.000
I own them.

1329
01:15:46.000 --> 01:15:51.120
But subconsciously, we're like, OK, he's mine.

1330
01:15:51.120 --> 01:15:53.640
Whether we're fully admitting to ourselves if we like someone

1331
01:15:53.640 --> 01:15:56.800
or we don't, and then when something happens

1332
01:15:56.840 --> 01:15:59.720
and then the jealousy and the anger gets kicked in,

1333
01:15:59.720 --> 01:16:03.120
OK, well, what's underneath the surface of anger?

1334
01:16:03.120 --> 01:16:04.680
Let's just deal with that one.

1335
01:16:04.680 --> 01:16:06.680
Anger hurts bodyguard.

1336
01:16:06.680 --> 01:16:08.960
So what's underneath the anger?

1337
01:16:08.960 --> 01:16:11.640
A lot of times, frustration, disappointment, sadness.

1338
01:16:14.240 --> 01:16:16.800
And even you all, some of you all,

1339
01:16:16.800 --> 01:16:18.760
I know, I don't know if this is OK to say.

1340
01:16:18.760 --> 01:16:19.880
We're on a Christian thing.

1341
01:16:19.880 --> 01:16:21.400
But Jackie says things all the time.

1342
01:16:21.400 --> 01:16:25.120
But some of us, we just get so pissed off, don't we?

1343
01:16:25.120 --> 01:16:29.440
If something does, right away, just from 0 to 180,

1344
01:16:29.440 --> 01:16:32.120
I'm not saying everybody, but some people, we do.

1345
01:16:32.120 --> 01:16:35.560
And we don't realize that that is all underneath.

1346
01:16:35.560 --> 01:16:37.760
We get these bad attitudes, and we're

1347
01:16:37.760 --> 01:16:41.960
stuck in an attitude, and that's sadness

1348
01:16:41.960 --> 01:16:44.360
underneath the surface.

1349
01:16:44.360 --> 01:16:46.640
So what needs healing?

1350
01:16:46.640 --> 01:16:47.760
Where are you hurt?

1351
01:16:47.760 --> 01:16:49.160
Where are you believing a lie?

1352
01:16:49.160 --> 01:16:52.960
You said, what did I do wrong?

1353
01:16:53.000 --> 01:16:54.880
Well, that, to me, goes right back to,

1354
01:16:54.880 --> 01:16:57.480
why do you believe that if a guy doesn't like you,

1355
01:16:57.480 --> 01:17:00.480
it means you aren't enough, or you did something wrong?

1356
01:17:00.480 --> 01:17:03.080
Well, most times, a lot of us, that links back

1357
01:17:03.080 --> 01:17:05.160
to growing up and hearing.

1358
01:17:05.160 --> 01:17:06.920
And this can go same thing for the guys.

1359
01:17:06.920 --> 01:17:09.880
If you guys, that's the first thing you hear when a woman is

1360
01:17:09.880 --> 01:17:12.680
deciding, hey, I think you're a nice guy,

1361
01:17:12.680 --> 01:17:16.720
but I don't know that you're my spirit mate,

1362
01:17:16.720 --> 01:17:19.000
it's because deep down somewhere,

1363
01:17:19.000 --> 01:17:21.240
we're believing we're not good enough.

1364
01:17:21.240 --> 01:17:23.080
So that goes right back to identity.

1365
01:17:25.920 --> 01:17:28.480
So I would say to you, Abby, and I

1366
01:17:28.480 --> 01:17:32.080
know that we've talked a little bit about this before,

1367
01:17:32.080 --> 01:17:36.640
is the importance of getting to know who you are in Christ.

1368
01:17:36.640 --> 01:17:40.680
Apart from any guy, who are you in Christ becoming

1369
01:17:40.680 --> 01:17:42.400
more and more secure?

1370
01:17:42.400 --> 01:17:44.160
And it doesn't mean you have to stop dating,

1371
01:17:44.160 --> 01:17:46.360
because you're in process, you're learning.

1372
01:17:46.360 --> 01:17:48.200
Even these situations are helping

1373
01:17:48.200 --> 01:17:55.160
you continue to grow in the understanding of, OK,

1374
01:17:55.160 --> 01:17:56.480
this is triggering me, why?

1375
01:17:56.480 --> 01:17:59.520
OK, Lord, where do I still need healing?

1376
01:17:59.520 --> 01:18:01.880
The struggle of, why didn't they choose me?

1377
01:18:01.880 --> 01:18:06.240
Whatever's coming up, and just take that before the Lord,

1378
01:18:06.240 --> 01:18:09.200
and let Him reveal to you what still needs healed,

1379
01:18:09.200 --> 01:18:11.640
the lies that you are believing.

1380
01:18:11.640 --> 01:18:15.160
When we first logged in, you all,

1381
01:18:15.160 --> 01:18:17.000
I said, a lot of times the enemy will come,

1382
01:18:17.000 --> 01:18:20.200
and he'll say, I didn't try to get us to convince ourselves,

1383
01:18:20.200 --> 01:18:21.600
I didn't want that anyway.

1384
01:18:21.600 --> 01:18:24.800
Well, that was a waste of time, so whatever.

1385
01:18:24.800 --> 01:18:26.880
Y'all, I was with somebody for six years,

1386
01:18:26.880 --> 01:18:30.360
and I can sincerely tell you, yeah, it's kind of like,

1387
01:18:30.360 --> 01:18:33.360
it blows my mind that I was with that person for six years,

1388
01:18:33.360 --> 01:18:37.440
but I sincerely don't feel like it was a waste of my time.

1389
01:18:37.440 --> 01:18:40.800
Sincerely.

1390
01:18:40.800 --> 01:18:45.320
I learned a lot of hard lessons, I did.

1391
01:18:45.320 --> 01:18:47.960
But I gained two amazing girls out of it,

1392
01:18:47.960 --> 01:18:51.560
and I learned how to love myself better.

1393
01:18:54.440 --> 01:18:56.680
I really did, and it changed my life

1394
01:18:56.680 --> 01:18:59.960
because I let it change my life.

1395
01:18:59.960 --> 01:19:03.240
So that was not a waste.

1396
01:19:03.240 --> 01:19:06.200
I am who I am today.

1397
01:19:06.200 --> 01:19:08.240
Could I have become who I am without that?

1398
01:19:08.240 --> 01:19:10.520
Sure, I think I could have.

1399
01:19:10.520 --> 01:19:14.040
But God warned me, He showed me red flags,

1400
01:19:14.040 --> 01:19:17.520
and I just kept on going.

1401
01:19:17.520 --> 01:19:20.880
I just kept on going because my heart got so attached

1402
01:19:20.880 --> 01:19:22.920
to those little cutie pies.

1403
01:19:22.920 --> 01:19:24.480
I tried to convince myself we were

1404
01:19:24.480 --> 01:19:27.120
going to be a big, happy family.

1405
01:19:27.120 --> 01:19:29.160
That's what we do sometimes, don't we?

1406
01:19:29.160 --> 01:19:32.640
We get so caught up in things and fantasizing.

1407
01:19:32.640 --> 01:19:34.600
But God, in His goodness, He came in

1408
01:19:34.600 --> 01:19:37.640
and He healed all of that.

1409
01:19:37.640 --> 01:19:42.440
So Abby, no matter what is triggering you, God loves you,

1410
01:19:42.440 --> 01:19:44.640
and He wants to heal that stuff in you,

1411
01:19:44.640 --> 01:19:47.880
and He wants you to become more secure in Him.

1412
01:19:50.920 --> 01:19:52.240
Yeah, let's see.

1413
01:19:52.240 --> 01:19:54.200
You're saying, why do I feel a similar feeling?

1414
01:19:54.200 --> 01:19:55.760
Not very strong, though, about the guy

1415
01:19:55.760 --> 01:19:58.120
who used to be interested in me.

1416
01:19:58.120 --> 01:20:01.200
Well, I think because it.

1417
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:01.560
It's a route of rejection.

1418
01:20:01.560 --> 01:20:03.640
That's the other thing that I had written down here.

1419
01:20:03.640 --> 01:20:06.680
Anytime we feel like someone doesn't choose us,

1420
01:20:06.680 --> 01:20:09.460
even if we already thought we didn't like them,

1421
01:20:10.680 --> 01:20:14.080
it can flare up a route of rejection in you.

1422
01:20:14.080 --> 01:20:15.280
So I would just encourage you.

1423
01:20:15.280 --> 01:20:18.080
It's like, I told him no.

1424
01:20:18.080 --> 01:20:19.280
That's what, yeah.

1425
01:20:19.280 --> 01:20:20.120
Yeah, I understand.

1426
01:20:20.120 --> 01:20:21.780
Yeah, I don't understand that part.

1427
01:20:21.780 --> 01:20:23.480
Like, if that's the guy.

1428
01:20:23.480 --> 01:20:25.400
Yeah, because it's a route of rejection

1429
01:20:25.400 --> 01:20:28.100
because now, even though you told him no,

1430
01:20:28.100 --> 01:20:29.600
you know he's dating someone else.

1431
01:20:29.600 --> 01:20:31.800
So now you're telling yourself,

1432
01:20:31.800 --> 01:20:32.980
even though I didn't choose him,

1433
01:20:32.980 --> 01:20:34.980
now he's chosen someone else.

1434
01:20:34.980 --> 01:20:38.540
It's all goes back to rejection and control, really.

1435
01:20:39.680 --> 01:20:40.620
Okay.

1436
01:20:40.620 --> 01:20:41.460
Yeah.

1437
01:20:41.460 --> 01:20:42.540
Yeah, because I feel bad.

1438
01:20:42.540 --> 01:20:45.460
I think I should be able to bless him, right?

1439
01:20:45.460 --> 01:20:46.740
Well, you will be one.

1440
01:20:46.740 --> 01:20:48.440
You might not be there yet, Abby,

1441
01:20:48.440 --> 01:20:50.660
but man, you've grown a ton.

1442
01:20:50.660 --> 01:20:52.940
I really want to encourage you to also celebrate

1443
01:20:52.940 --> 01:20:55.440
the growth that you've been experiencing

1444
01:20:55.440 --> 01:20:58.980
and just start thanking God for helping you

1445
01:20:59.320 --> 01:21:03.360
to fully surrender those guys in that situation

1446
01:21:03.360 --> 01:21:05.040
and help you to be a blessing to them.

1447
01:21:05.040 --> 01:21:06.840
God will give you the grace to do it.

1448
01:21:07.880 --> 01:21:08.700
He will.

1449
01:21:08.700 --> 01:21:09.540
Thank you.

1450
01:21:09.540 --> 01:21:10.380
You're welcome.

1451
01:21:10.380 --> 01:21:11.200
Robin, go ahead.

1452
01:21:13.520 --> 01:21:14.560
Hi, Bethany.

1453
01:21:14.560 --> 01:21:15.400
Hi.

1454
01:21:17.240 --> 01:21:18.720
So yeah, I wasn't going to share anything,

1455
01:21:18.720 --> 01:21:20.920
but then I thought, actually, I do have something

1456
01:21:20.920 --> 01:21:23.000
that I need your input.

1457
01:21:23.000 --> 01:21:25.760
And I think it's on the financial theme,

1458
01:21:25.760 --> 01:21:26.800
which was interesting,

1459
01:21:26.800 --> 01:21:29.180
because I put my hand up after the first one,

1460
01:21:29.180 --> 01:21:32.140
and then there was someone, I think, Don, two times ago.

1461
01:21:32.140 --> 01:21:34.900
So I will take some of that advice about proverbs

1462
01:21:34.900 --> 01:21:37.020
and giving and overgiving,

1463
01:21:37.020 --> 01:21:39.080
because that's been combined recently.

1464
01:21:40.300 --> 01:21:44.660
And so, and before I forget, what I'll say is,

1465
01:21:44.660 --> 01:21:47.340
I realize sometimes in certain circles,

1466
01:21:47.340 --> 01:21:49.360
there's a lot of talk about giving

1467
01:21:49.360 --> 01:21:53.300
and believing that the Lord is just going to give back.

1468
01:21:53.300 --> 01:21:55.300
But there's other things that the Bible says about money,

1469
01:21:55.920 --> 01:21:59.680
and I have been feeling at multiple times

1470
01:21:59.680 --> 01:22:01.760
that I just need to do like a bit of a study

1471
01:22:01.760 --> 01:22:03.760
on what God actually says about that,

1472
01:22:03.760 --> 01:22:06.700
because I think it can turn into a bit of magical thinking,

1473
01:22:06.700 --> 01:22:08.440
and also feeling guilty,

1474
01:22:08.440 --> 01:22:11.000
but I actually do give a fair amount.

1475
01:22:11.000 --> 01:22:13.400
So anyway, my situation is this.

1476
01:22:14.800 --> 01:22:17.800
I moved to Edmonton just under two years ago,

1477
01:22:17.800 --> 01:22:18.960
and I stepped out in faith.

1478
01:22:18.960 --> 01:22:20.340
I know this is where God's wanted me to be,

1479
01:22:20.340 --> 01:22:22.140
but it hasn't been a bit challenging.

1480
01:22:22.140 --> 01:22:25.280
I'm a teacher, just getting full-time contracts.

1481
01:22:26.140 --> 01:22:29.060
Tutoring on the side or being given a job

1482
01:22:29.060 --> 01:22:32.260
that had a ton of responsibility,

1483
01:22:32.260 --> 01:22:35.100
so then I couldn't even do extra things like tutoring.

1484
01:22:35.100 --> 01:22:38.220
And God has blessed me in a lot of areas,

1485
01:22:38.220 --> 01:22:39.700
but I felt stretched.

1486
01:22:41.000 --> 01:22:45.280
And since then, I strongly have felt the Lord

1487
01:22:46.380 --> 01:22:47.460
asked me to go back to school,

1488
01:22:47.460 --> 01:22:49.820
and I've posted about going to seminary online.

1489
01:22:50.820 --> 01:22:52.340
It's start that.

1490
01:22:52.340 --> 01:22:56.000
And so my question is really just

1491
01:22:56.000 --> 01:22:58.440
if you have any insight about finances,

1492
01:22:58.440 --> 01:23:00.420
I'll just share a little bit more.

1493
01:23:00.420 --> 01:23:02.000
I had a heart-to-heart with the Lord,

1494
01:23:02.000 --> 01:23:02.840
because I'm his daughter,

1495
01:23:02.840 --> 01:23:06.280
and I say, God, I'm feeling like I can't do this,

1496
01:23:06.280 --> 01:23:11.280
work full-time, and take a course every term.

1497
01:23:11.840 --> 01:23:13.420
There's five terms,

1498
01:23:13.420 --> 01:23:15.720
and I don't think I can do it financially.

1499
01:23:15.720 --> 01:23:18.040
So I felt peace, and I was saying, do three a year.

1500
01:23:18.040 --> 01:23:18.880
I was like, okay.

1501
01:23:18.880 --> 01:23:21.240
I said, okay, God, what's the plan for finances?

1502
01:23:22.360 --> 01:23:24.480
I'm having trouble because it's a U.S. university

1503
01:23:24.480 --> 01:23:26.920
getting things to go through with student loans.

1504
01:23:28.760 --> 01:23:30.480
There's a block there.

1505
01:23:30.480 --> 01:23:31.840
I've been looking at some scholarships.

1506
01:23:31.840 --> 01:23:33.720
I found a scholarship for women in ministry,

1507
01:23:33.720 --> 01:23:35.040
and that's one of the courses I took.

1508
01:23:35.040 --> 01:23:37.440
It's all set, but it's just the timing of it.

1509
01:23:37.440 --> 01:23:40.900
But I think I'm gonna be able to do that next year.

1510
01:23:42.240 --> 01:23:44.040
And just being in Canada,

1511
01:23:44.040 --> 01:23:45.440
but my university's in the States,

1512
01:23:45.440 --> 01:23:46.880
it's just harder with that.

1513
01:23:47.860 --> 01:23:49.120
I have put it out.

1514
01:23:49.120 --> 01:23:49.960
I didn't want to.

1515
01:23:49.960 --> 01:23:51.160
I made a little Facebook page

1516
01:23:51.160 --> 01:23:52.500
to get people to be part of it,

1517
01:23:52.500 --> 01:23:54.500
just to invite people into the journey.

1518
01:23:55.380 --> 01:23:58.580
Even though my family has been questioning sometimes

1519
01:23:58.580 --> 01:23:59.980
some of my Christian decisions,

1520
01:23:59.980 --> 01:24:00.920
because they aren't Christian,

1521
01:24:00.920 --> 01:24:02.660
and worried I was part of a cult.

1522
01:24:04.700 --> 01:24:07.640
And I have let people know I do have this need.

1523
01:24:07.640 --> 01:24:11.100
So my last course, I still have some money left on that,

1524
01:24:11.100 --> 01:24:12.820
like going to university.

1525
01:24:12.820 --> 01:24:14.700
And that's when I've paused,

1526
01:24:14.700 --> 01:24:16.580
and I felt like I needed to take a couple months off

1527
01:24:16.580 --> 01:24:18.500
as a teacher just to rest.

1528
01:24:18.520 --> 01:24:22.920
And I'm kind of like, God, you've got to answer this.

1529
01:24:22.920 --> 01:24:25.520
I know, he confirmed that I needed to be there.

1530
01:24:25.520 --> 01:24:28.360
The Course in Women in Ministry, my prof,

1531
01:24:28.360 --> 01:24:30.400
she's an international minister,

1532
01:24:30.400 --> 01:24:32.880
and I just got invited to this women in leadership thing

1533
01:24:32.880 --> 01:24:34.160
that also costs money.

1534
01:24:34.160 --> 01:24:35.660
I know God is on that,

1535
01:24:36.760 --> 01:24:40.480
but there's a big gap between,

1536
01:24:40.480 --> 01:24:43.440
like I don't even have funds to pay for the last one.

1537
01:24:43.440 --> 01:24:44.880
So I was praying about it,

1538
01:24:44.880 --> 01:24:46.680
and I did ask the Lord,

1539
01:24:46.680 --> 01:24:48.240
Lord, where is this coming from?

1540
01:24:48.900 --> 01:24:49.740
There's this bleep,

1541
01:24:49.740 --> 01:24:50.560
because I just have this thing,

1542
01:24:50.560 --> 01:24:51.540
like there's never going to be enough.

1543
01:24:51.540 --> 01:24:54.020
That's what was coming up, like there's never enough.

1544
01:24:54.020 --> 01:24:56.260
And you know what is the greatest show, man?

1545
01:24:56.260 --> 01:24:57.860
There's that song, never enough, never enough.

1546
01:24:57.860 --> 01:25:00.460
Like I kept hearing that song, like echoing in my.

1547
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.200
spirit. And I asked the Lord about it. And the image that

1548
01:25:04.200 --> 01:25:07.600
came to mind was my parents are divorced and being in my mom's

1549
01:25:07.600 --> 01:25:11.600
house after they were divorced in my bedroom. And two things.

1550
01:25:11.880 --> 01:25:16.800
One is my mom. After my parents separated, my mom struggled with

1551
01:25:16.800 --> 01:25:20.320
money the whole time and she was in debt. And I knew about things

1552
01:25:20.320 --> 01:25:24.280
I probably shouldn't have. And I think the Lord showed me that I

1553
01:25:24.280 --> 01:25:27.480
took that burden on. And the other thing that came on was

1554
01:25:27.480 --> 01:25:30.760
during that time there, I was just coming into the house where

1555
01:25:30.760 --> 01:25:34.440
someone robbed. And they actually like I think they

1556
01:25:34.440 --> 01:25:37.720
escaped through my window might have been my mom's. I can't

1557
01:25:37.720 --> 01:25:42.200
remember. But someone actually broke in and I didn't feel safe

1558
01:25:42.200 --> 01:25:45.640
and I was the one that had to deal with that. And I don't know

1559
01:25:45.640 --> 01:25:50.080
if that could have opened a door to I have a recurring dream. I

1560
01:25:50.080 --> 01:25:50.520
haven't had it.

1561
01:25:51.160 --> 01:25:54.240
Yeah, sorry. So I'm gonna jump in. So here's what's one of the

1562
01:25:54.240 --> 01:25:57.160
things that's super important. This is for everybody. Y'all

1563
01:25:57.160 --> 01:26:00.040
when we're doing heartwork, and I'm sure you're praying in the

1564
01:26:00.040 --> 01:26:02.120
process. So I don't want it to sound like I don't think you're

1565
01:26:02.120 --> 01:26:06.000
praying. But sometimes we can try to figure it out. Like,

1566
01:26:06.640 --> 01:26:11.480
okay. And so really want to encourage you just to remember

1567
01:26:11.480 --> 01:26:13.760
that we don't have to dig. We don't have to try to go

1568
01:26:13.760 --> 01:26:18.040
searching. We just ask the Lord to reveal things for healing,

1569
01:26:18.360 --> 01:26:22.240
and know that he'll reveal it in the time that is best for you.

1570
01:26:22.240 --> 01:26:24.560
And sometimes that can be tough when we feel like we're in a

1571
01:26:24.560 --> 01:26:28.280
time crunch to write because this course is happening

1572
01:26:28.280 --> 01:26:30.600
schooling, all this stuff. And you're trying to figure this

1573
01:26:30.600 --> 01:26:33.600
stuff out. But I really feel like it's going to be important

1574
01:26:33.600 --> 01:26:38.400
for you to just kind of trust that God is going to show you

1575
01:26:38.400 --> 01:26:41.960
the pieces along the way that are important. And he's going to

1576
01:26:41.960 --> 01:26:44.880
show you where they go versus trying to figure out what goes

1577
01:26:44.880 --> 01:26:49.120
together. And I really felt like, I think that there probably

1578
01:26:49.120 --> 01:26:51.840
is stuff you've had to deal with from the thing with your house,

1579
01:26:51.840 --> 01:26:54.560
the house being broken into, but I don't know in my spirit

1580
01:26:54.560 --> 01:26:57.800
that that connects to the financial God will show you for

1581
01:26:57.800 --> 01:27:02.080
sure. But I feel like that's, you know, that's where the us

1582
01:27:02.080 --> 01:27:04.960
trying to figure out in our own strength can kind of come into

1583
01:27:04.960 --> 01:27:10.320
play. But interestingly enough, before you ever said a word

1584
01:27:10.320 --> 01:27:14.160
about, you know, the lies that you were having about I can't do

1585
01:27:14.160 --> 01:27:17.360
this never enough before you shared about your parents. I

1586
01:27:17.400 --> 01:27:23.880
heard the phrase multiple times, old tapes, old tapes. And what

1587
01:27:23.880 --> 01:27:27.200
that represented to me when God said it is that, you know, we

1588
01:27:27.200 --> 01:27:31.440
all have these old tapes in our minds that we play. And old

1589
01:27:31.440 --> 01:27:36.760
tapes can also represent things that our parents said, things

1590
01:27:36.760 --> 01:27:41.080
our grandparents said, and those were spoken, and we heard them.

1591
01:27:41.080 --> 01:27:45.400
And then without even knowing it, we subconsciously absorb

1592
01:27:45.400 --> 01:27:49.160
that stuff, you all, we absorb the things that people say

1593
01:27:49.160 --> 01:27:53.400
around us. And if we partner with those in any way, because

1594
01:27:53.400 --> 01:27:57.880
we go through trauma as well, financially, or like you saw

1595
01:27:57.880 --> 01:28:00.880
your mom struggling, you said, I probably heard things I

1596
01:28:00.880 --> 01:28:03.880
shouldn't, you know, all those kind of things start to pair

1597
01:28:03.880 --> 01:28:07.840
with the other old tapes. And it starts to again, create that

1598
01:28:07.840 --> 01:28:12.080
stronghold in our minds and our spirits and our souls. And so we

1599
01:28:12.080 --> 01:28:15.560
really need to just ask the Lord to reveal what what are the

1600
01:28:15.560 --> 01:28:22.600
old tapes that are playing in your mind, that he wants to

1601
01:28:22.600 --> 01:28:25.640
uncover and reveal to you, I do think that it is connected to

1602
01:28:25.640 --> 01:28:29.080
your parents divorce, seeing your mom struggle. But I kept

1603
01:28:29.080 --> 01:28:31.920
feeling also like something with grandma, I don't I don't really

1604
01:28:31.920 --> 01:28:35.440
know anything about your story. And I don't know if there was a

1605
01:28:35.440 --> 01:28:40.440
struggle that your grandma had. And I'm not I'm not getting too

1606
01:28:40.440 --> 01:28:43.600
deep into the generational stuff. But it is real. So that

1607
01:28:43.600 --> 01:28:46.800
can carry down. And so just be asking the Lord about that,

1608
01:28:46.800 --> 01:28:52.680
Robin. Just a reminder to you all that God has placed so many

1609
01:28:52.680 --> 01:28:55.120
of us, we are called to be the kinsmen redeemers in our

1610
01:28:55.120 --> 01:28:59.520
families. Right? So he's bringing these truths and these

1611
01:28:59.520 --> 01:29:03.480
revelations to us so that we get healing and, and freedom and

1612
01:29:03.480 --> 01:29:08.560
revelation, so that it brings it to our family. And God will come

1613
01:29:08.600 --> 01:29:13.160
in and redeem our timelines, and he'll do all kinds of stuff. If

1614
01:29:13.160 --> 01:29:15.800
we'll allow him to so want to encourage you just to keep

1615
01:29:16.680 --> 01:29:20.720
seeking him I specifically the old tapes, that's just it's so

1616
01:29:20.720 --> 01:29:24.640
loud in my spirit. And again, God will show you what those

1617
01:29:24.640 --> 01:29:27.840
are. I do also want to say I want there to be balanced when

1618
01:29:27.840 --> 01:29:30.840
you all hear about the financial stuff, because God also talks a

1619
01:29:30.840 --> 01:29:35.440
lot about us being generous givers. Okay, so just remember

1620
01:29:35.440 --> 01:29:39.240
balance is key. Okay, when you're looking at things, it

1621
01:29:39.240 --> 01:29:42.480
should line up with the Word of God, not just what somebody's

1622
01:29:42.480 --> 01:29:46.120
telling you to do. And it shouldn't be the Word of God

1623
01:29:46.120 --> 01:29:49.000
being taken out of context. So make sure y'all are looking at

1624
01:29:49.000 --> 01:29:52.240
the context of Scripture. And so many times, you know, we just go

1625
01:29:52.560 --> 01:29:55.400
and we sit under sermons, or we sit under things that people are

1626
01:29:55.400 --> 01:29:58.720
saying to us. But we need to go search the word out for

1627
01:29:58.720 --> 01:29:59.600
ourselves.

1628
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:01.660
And seek it out.

1629
01:30:01.660 --> 01:30:05.000
And that is where God will show us to divide rightly the word of God.

1630
01:30:05.000 --> 01:30:08.680
It talks about that in scripture that we should divide it rightly.

1631
01:30:08.680 --> 01:30:11.280
So that's how, that's what I would encourage you to do as well.

1632
01:30:11.280 --> 01:30:12.280
I love that.

1633
01:30:12.280 --> 01:30:14.520
You're going to go ahead and, you know, do the Proverbs as well.

1634
01:30:14.520 --> 01:30:18.640
Y'all James is also kind of like the new Testament Proverbs.

1635
01:30:18.640 --> 01:30:23.680
If you didn't know, it's kind of like another book of what that's kind of noted as a wisdom

1636
01:30:23.680 --> 01:30:24.680
book.

1637
01:30:24.680 --> 01:30:30.720
So James, you can gain a lot of wealth from a lot of knowledge, wealth from that as well.

1638
01:30:30.720 --> 01:30:35.960
I didn't mean financial, but a lot of insight and wisdom when you're making decisions, when

1639
01:30:35.960 --> 01:30:42.040
you need insight and, and you're really trying to grow in being someone that walks in wisdom

1640
01:30:42.040 --> 01:30:44.000
and discernment and knowledge.

1641
01:30:44.000 --> 01:30:46.440
Robin, thank you for sharing.

1642
01:30:46.440 --> 01:30:47.440
Okay.

1643
01:30:47.440 --> 01:30:50.840
So I have a message that was sent to me.

1644
01:30:50.840 --> 01:30:52.480
I know it's getting late.

1645
01:30:52.480 --> 01:30:53.480
So Melissa.

1646
01:30:53.480 --> 01:30:54.480
Yeah.

1647
01:30:54.480 --> 01:30:59.760
I think I was kind of leaning towards yes, but I'm looking and it's nine 30.

1648
01:30:59.760 --> 01:31:06.640
But what I do want to encourage you to do is I want you to send that into admin at Jackie

1649
01:31:06.640 --> 01:31:10.320
Dorman.com or submit that to ask Jackie your question.

1650
01:31:10.320 --> 01:31:15.360
So I just want to make sure that that does get answered because the team would be happy

1651
01:31:15.360 --> 01:31:19.720
to support you and kind of speak truth into that area for you.

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Okay.

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I'm going to pray for you all.

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I hope this has been a good night for you.

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God is so good.

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Y'all.

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He, he doesn't expect us to not struggle.

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Okay.

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The Bible says that we will go through trials and tribulation in this world, but y'all he's

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overcome Jesus Christ came and he overcame the world.

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So he suffered and he overcame it so he can relate to you in your suffering.

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So if you are struggling, y'all, some of the best prayers I ever prayed were Jesus

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01:31:51.820 --> 01:31:52.820
help.

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That's simple.

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Jesus help because he knows exactly what you need.

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Father, thank you so much for who you are.

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Thank you for freedom.

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Thank you for continuing to reveal things for healing in us that you would just continue

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to do supernatural heart surgery.

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God, so many times we just want to be free and we don't know how to get free, but God,

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I know that you know how, and you're not dangling even our freedom over us.

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God, you are standing at the door of our hearts and you're knocking and you're asking if we'll

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let you in.

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And, and some of us we're in self-imposed prisons and we don't even realize that we've

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put ourselves there.

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So Lord, I'm just asking you, just like you came into Paul and Silas, I'm asking you to

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come in and open the prison door and set your sons and your daughters free.

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I thank you that you would help them to have insights from heaven, that you would come

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in and meet them in the night hour and their dreams and their daydreams.

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And you do is just speak to them, speak love to them, speak truth to them, that you would

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give them sale arrest.

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Some of them are weary, they're, they're burdened and they're heavy laden, but Lord, I thank

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you that you would lift those burdens off of them now.

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And I thank you that you would help them to walk into the liberty and the fullness that

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you have for them in the days ahead, that any area that they've been stuck, God, we

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just call forth a breaker spirit in Jesus name to come in and break through every area

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where they've been stuck and they, they just need your help, God.

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And we just thank you that you would send angels to minister to them and war on their

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behalf right now in Jesus name.

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And we thank you for it in advance, father, amen.

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We love you all.

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And we're so glad to have you a part of this community.

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We'll see you all very soon.

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If you didn't know the next community event is Thursday, August 8th.

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We are doing a brand new special session.

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We're bringing someone different that y'all have never heard from to do a dream interpretation

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session, session, excuse me, it's going to be great.

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That's 8pm Eastern time, Thursday, August 8th.

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We hope to see you there.

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God bless you.

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And we'll see you again soon.

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