Hello. Welcome, welcome. It is Monday evening, you all. It is time for us to lean into what
God has for us tonight. I'm so excited to be here, as always, to spend this time with
you just to share what God is saying about heart healing, about his sons, his daughters
during this time. Every time I share this, I'm talking to just daughters in here, but
I like to speak that over sons as well. If you've never met me before, I'm Bethany Cooper.
I'm one of the HeartWork coaches. If you are joining us new for the first time tonight,
I would love for you to let us know. You can say in the chat, you're new and joining us
for the first time, or you can just raise your digital hand or your hand where I can
see you on camera. I do want to encourage you, if you're joining us for the first time,
hi, Jenny. Welcome for your first live session tonight. One of the things I always encourage
you all to do is come on camera. If you are driving or you're at work or there's some
reason you really can't, we understand. Hi, Natalie. Welcome. Natalie's new. I want to
encourage you all, as I always say, and for those that were here this afternoon, you already
heard me, and I said this last week as well, coming out of hiding is huge. It's a huge
part of your process of healing. A lot of people don't even realize the ways that they
are not fully showing up in their everyday life. I believe if you haven't already been
experiencing that shift and transformation in this heart healing, you will. You're going
to start to get comments from people working. They're going to be like, what's new with
you? What's different? Something's changed. They're going to start to recognize because
guess what? As your heart heals, you show up in the world differently to people. That
can look a lot of different ways. As we shared last week, some different ways we can come
out of hiding. I want to encourage you all to think about these things, step into these
things. One of them is, if you have a super old picture of yourself on social media, put
a new picture up. Just go for it and see what God will do with that. We had somebody,
I don't know if you all saw in our one group, one of the wins, what she did. She did that.
She posted. She was terrified. She thought she was going to get negative comments, but
she got all these good comments. I know that might seem like a small thing, but it really
can be big in your healing process. For some of you, it's doing a post in the group. I
know that I have a lot of people that hesitate to post in the group, but when they do it
and they get supported and loved and even coached through some stuff, it can really
be impactful and help you accelerate your healing process. Don't just sit on the sidelines.
How can you participate in this journey? In addition to just watching the videos and being
here live on Monday nights, maybe for you, maybe you were hurt by females in your community
that you're in right now. One of the ways God probably wants to heal you, as we know,
healed, hurt in community, healed in community. If you were hurt by females in the past,
God is going to most likely use this time for you to open up and let your sisters in this community
love on you and bring some healing to those areas. If that is you, I want to encourage you
to come out of hiding, post, engage with the ladies in this group. Trust that God brought
you here for this appointed time, this appointed season with this appointed group of sister squad
friends. Y'all, I want to encourage you. I don't know if you've heard Jackie talk about this or
not, but we used to, she used to call our groups. I can't take credit for it because she did it.
Our sister squads. And she's like, look around the people on the screen, the people in the group with
you. Guess what? Some of these people are going to be bridesmaids in your weddings. I know it
might seem crazy to some of you all, but that absolutely has happened in our community
in so many ways, whether it was people that went to the wedding, bridesmaids, whatever,
it can really happen. And I believe it's happened and it can happen for you.
All right. So welcome to, again, all of our new ladies. I know Natalie and Jenny, I saw the two
of them were new. If anyone else is joining us new, I see some more people have joined us.
Please let us know in the chat that you're new so we can welcome you by name.
And then also a couple of quick housekeeping for you all. I'm going to try to go through
these really quick. We have the ability in our groups to go, to do a post, written, share an
image, all that kind of stuff. You can also share a video. If you all do, hi, Danielle, Danielle,
did I say that right? Danielle, Danielle.
Yeah, how do you say it? Oh my gosh, I can't do it.
Danelia Danelia, Danelia. Did I say it right? I'll get it. I'll
get it. I might have to ask you to phonetically put it in the
chat for me because then yeah. Oh, so if you'll do a video,
one thing that I will ask is no longer than three minutes, you
all Okay, here's why. We just our team, we don't have the
capacity to watch really long videos. So I don't ever want to
delete someone's video, especially when you all are
coming in and you're pouring your hearts out to us. Okay. But
if they are longer than three minutes, we just are going to
have to start, you know, kind of making a hard stop on. Yes, that
will help me. Okay, sorry, I gotta write her phonetic thing
down real quick, just so I don't forget later. This will help me.
This is really important for me to get people's names right. If
you all don't know that about me yet, you will learn that.
Okay. So keep your video short. We haven't had a lot of videos.
And we really prefer for y'all to to write your your post out
because we can read through them quicker and respond a little bit
easier as coaches. But if you do a video, if that's what you feel
led to do, just keep it under three minutes. Okay. The two
other notes I have for you are this. I want to encourage you
all to say no to these two things. Say no to doubt and
comparison. Doubt is going to be one of the biggest things that
will deflate your movement forward. Okay, doubt is rooted
into fear. And if you remember the last few weeks, we've been
really talking about how we live in fear, fear is the opposite of
love. So if we're living into fear, fear feeds the doubt. So
it's not healthy for your heart healing process. Or you're
aligning with the promises of God for your life. So we want to
encourage you to say no to doubt, don't let it in, like
literally kick it out. And comparison. That's the other
one. Here's a comparison shows up in all different kinds of
ways. Even in ladies groups, especially people compare
themselves to images, appearances. But here's the
other one I hear all the time. I'm not getting breakthrough
like they are. Okay, so I want to encourage you to really
embrace your journey. This is your journey. It's not somebody
else's journey. Let's see here. I'll use some people's names
Frenchie's journey is going to look different than summer's
journey. Jenny's is going to look different than Jessica's.
Everybody's journey is going to look different. Some people get
massive breakthrough in week five. Some people get it right
in week one. So when you're reading that someone's getting
big breakthrough in week one, and you're in week two, and
you're like, I'm not having that happen at all. It's good to pay
attention to that. But don't let that hinder you or get in your
head a lot. The one thing I will say is for those of you that you
know, you start the program, and by week three, you're still just
not really feeling anything. Like your emotions aren't really
surfacing. Still, you might be someone that has really shoved
your emotions down for so long, that you've numbed out as a
coping mechanism. And it might take you a little longer for
those feelings and emotions to know like they can come out
that it's safe here. So if you get to week three, and you're
still feeling like that, we do encourage you to go back to week
one, I don't want anyone to panic, but it is for your own
good. If that's you go back to week one and just start over.
And just kind of go through the material again, because you you
are just someone that might need that extra time. Okay, super
important to follow the Holy Spirit in your healing process.
All right, the last one I have been sharing, sharing about this
quite a bit, but it's super important. I want to encourage
you all to share your wins. I was reading a devotion this
morning, and it was it was speaking right into the so many
times, we focus so much on what the devil is doing, that we are
missing what God is doing. Okay. And the reality is, is yes, we
know there is a devil. And we know that he wars against us, at
times, we will experience spiritual warfare, and those
things are all real. But what we focus on increases, okay. So I
want to encourage you all in this process, even on your hard
days, okay, I'm going to put this out there you are, you some
of you are going to have hard days in the heart healing
process, because you're going to be processing things you haven't
processed your entire lives, some of you, but focus on what
is going well, like, where have you grown? And you know, since
you started your journey, even if you're only two days in, and
you're feeling that, where have you already grown a y'all can
celebrate that you're investing in yourself, you're investing in
your heart healing, when
Lots and lots of other people never do.
So celebrate yourself from day one.
This is a huge win and God is on the move in your life.
Okay, let me pray for us and we're going to get into the content tonight.
Father God, we just thank you so much for your amazing grace.
We thank you that you come in and just wash over our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our
spirits and souls.
You help us to hear what your spirit is saying.
I pray that you would just remove just what I'm hearing in the spirit is all the sludge
and remnants of the day that just didn't feel like your love, Lord.
I pray that whatever we came in the room with, Lord, I thank you that you would just lift
that all off of us right now that you would help us to just lean in and receive the healing
oil that you have just washing over us.
Holy Spirit, we thank you for your presence.
We thank you that you're our comforter, you're our counselor, you're our guide.
You take us by the hand.
We never walk through anything alone.
So we don't walk through even one moment of our heart healing alone.
Jesus, I thank you that you died on the cross.
You shed your blood for the forgiveness of our sins, for our healing, for our freedom,
for our redemption, and to make a way for us to be in relationship with you as you are
in relationship with the father.
Thank you that you, God loved us enough to send your son so that we could be with you.
Let us thank you, Lord, tonight, that you'll take us a little bit higher in our perspectives,
help us to experience heaven in a little tangible way.
We thank you for breakthroughs and revelation, those things that are in darkness being brought
to the light, revelation coming, healing being manifest in Jesus name, amen.
All right, y'all, we're going to talk about lies, or excuse me, flies, lies, and counterfeit
lives tonight.
Okay?
It's so tricky to say.
It is, but here's the thing.
This is why we're going to talk about it.
Trauma just doesn't hurt us.
It creates different versions of us.
And so many times I've even had a lot of people asking, well, I thought I was hearing from
God and it led me right into this unhealthy relationship.
Y'all, I've been there too.
I did.
I chose an unhealthy relationship and in the beginning, I really thought it was the Lord
leading me there.
I was looking for signs.
I felt like I was getting signs and all of the things, but here is the reality is that
my broken heart, my broken heart, not my whole heart, my broken heart led me right into a
trap.
Okay.
I went through my divorce before my stepson, as soon as I, I hadn't even filed yet.
I just said I was going to file and my former husband literally never let me see my stepson
ever again.
This was not just, Oh, you know, he kind of visited every now and then literally his mom
left him for years.
And I was his main caregiver in addition to my ex-husband and Dylan lived with us.
I mean, he was with us all the time and I, you know, for 10 years, I was in his life
the whole time.
I watched him for the first time by myself when he was six months old.
I mean, I I'd literally been there.
And so that was a pretty big wound, you know?
And then when I met the guy that is my spiritual daughter's dad, he had two girls.
I always said I was never going to date anybody with kids ever again.
I did.
I made that vow, but then here comes this guy and he's, you know, I think he's from
the Lord and he's got these two kids and I'm like, okay, you know, this is, this is
great and all, but I don't want to meet your, your kids for six months.
And I don't like want to talk a lot about them.
And I thought that was great.
Like I was setting a good boundary, right?
I was, I was setting a good boundary, but here's this, here's the tricky part.
Three days later, you all approximately three days later, do you want to know what he started
sending me?
Pictures of his kids.
Why did I blow past that boundary?
He started sending me pictures of his kids.
And then here's the kicker.
He sends me this adorable video of the two daughters saying, we can't wait to meet you.
And they're waving in this little video.
Here's my broken heart, missing my stepson, not healed from that trauma saying, I can't
meet your kids for six months, getting this video on my phone and my heart just melted.
And all of my boundaries went right out the door.
Okay.
And so, um, I'm sharing this story tonight because my broken.
heart was telling me that he was from the Lord. But right out of
the gate, he was showing me that he did not honor me because he
wasn't honoring my boundaries. And I kept going. Okay, so why
am I saying all of this to you? Because some of you all in
different ways, it might not be exactly the same as my story,
but your broken hearts are also leading you into choices that
are not healthy for you. And that's why you're here. You're
here on this incredible journey to heal and to learn how to
honor your boundaries to honor yourself, learn how to love
yourself really well. And to understand that your broken
heart is never going to lead you into your true identity. Okay,
what's our true identity? Our true identity is what God gave
us the day he formed us. The day he created us. He said, this is
who Erica is going to be. This is what I'm forming in her. And
these are the gifts that I'm putting into Kim. And, and this
is how she's gonna be in my kingdom and bring my kingdom
here. And God had all these dreams and plans. And that was
before trauma ever entered. Okay. So when he breathes all
that into us, and he created us, that was the original intention
for our lives. Do we know what those all are? No, I don't
think even on this side of heaven, I don't know that we'll
ever know the fullness of that. But we can definitely, as we
heal, step further into the fullness of that plan more and
more every day. So that's why we're here tonight, I want to
read a little bit from the book, I don't love to read a lot, but
this is really worth it. And so I'm gonna I'm gonna do it for a
minute here tonight. And I never give book pages because the
content and the ebook and the physical physical book are the
same. I get that question a lot. But the pages are not the
same. So it's in chapter six, okay, just so y'all know,
that's where I'm at. And you don't have to flip your books
open. If you don't want to, you can just listen and just let
kind of absorb it. The Lord of the flies and the father of
lies, whichever name you choose for this opposing force, there's
one name that isn't commonly used or known. And that is the
diesel bug. I know it's pretty weird. And when it was first
brought to my attention by Holy Spirit, my reaction was ooh, it
just sounded gross. The meaning of the name is Lord of the
flies gag a maggot. This is totally Jackie. I like most
people hate flies. For me, they conjure up thoughts of stinky
garbage, cow poop and disease, nothing good. I know flies serve
a purpose in the decomposition process of organic materials,
but I still detest them. However, knowing this nickname
of the enemy helps us to understand how our heart wounds
get infected with these lies. What flies do is they find an
unhealed wound. So I want you to kind of pause before I keep
reading. I want you to think about the unhealed wounds that
you have currently in your life. And I want you to understand
that the enemy will always target those areas until they
are healed. We don't have to be afraid of that. But we need to
be aware of it. Okay, I'm going to keep going a sore or
someplace of decomposition and they lay their eggs inside of
that place. They do this so that when the eggs hatch, the larvae
will have an unlimited food source. Pretty gross, right? But
that's how the enemy works. This is where he gets that unlimited
food source, so to speak. These unhealed heart wounds, traumas
and rejections become an ideal place for the enemy to sow his
seeds, which are lies, because our hearts are fertile wombs.
Remember, because Jackie talked to us already about our hearts,
our hearts a womb. So whatever we put in there gets reproduced.
So that's what she goes on to say there. You all can read more
into that if you've just started and you're just in week one,
don't worry about skipping ahead. You'll get there. I get
that question a lot. It doesn't matter what week you all are in
come to heart check in. Okay, we we take content from all
different weeks and we coach through it. So you are right on
time. Your broken heart is what it's a liar. It's a puzzle and
it's a pretender. Those are the three main things. I'm not going
to teach a lot in these tonight because we'll do this more in
another session, but I just want to touch on them briefly because
it will tie into where we're going. Our broken heart is a
liar, which means it's full of lies. It tells us lies all the
time. It's a puzzle. So it tends to be messed up at times. It
tells us we want things that we don't want. There's a lot of
different ways, but those are a couple. It's also a pretender.
So this is where you know, mask appear where we're putting and
projecting that we're somebody that we're not. Maybe we're even
pretending that we're okay.
Hey, when we're not, maybe we're saying,
I don't need any help from anybody.
I've got this.
When we actually really desire deep inside
that someone would actually notice that we need help.
Maybe it's that we want a bunch of expensive things
or we wanna have the nice car.
We wanna have another degree and title
because we feel like that makes us someone important.
The reason I'm mentioning these things tonight
is the broken heart that's a liar.
I want us to focus there.
One of the ways our broken heart lies to us
can sound like this.
Our broken heart can cause us to blame other people
or other things as the problem.
But sometimes that's not really the problem
and they aren't really the problem.
Sometimes we need to own our side of the street.
Okay, so am I saying if someone abused you
that that is your fault?
Absolutely not.
Okay, so don't hear something that I'm not saying,
but what I am going to say,
I'm gonna give you a couple of examples
of ways that we blame other people or other things.
And there might be way more than this.
You all, again, I always want you to kind of be open
to what is Holy Spirit saying to you
out of the examples that I'm kind of putting out there.
This doesn't always have to,
if you're like, yeah, that never happened to me
or that doesn't apply to me,
ask Holy Spirit, how does it apply to you?
Because you're, you know,
like as soon as you are open to hearing,
he'll show you something.
Even if it's a small thing that you don't even realize,
sometimes you all, we think we're stuck all the time
because these big massive things and sometimes they are,
but sometimes we're stuck
because there's this little snag deep in our heart
and we just don't know it's still there, okay?
Here are some examples.
We blame another person for hurting us.
So case in point, the story that I opened with tonight,
the guy that I dated, right?
He didn't just blow past my boundaries.
For those of you that are new,
I've told this story a little bit,
so I won't go too far into it tonight
because my ladies that have been here for a few weeks
have heard it before.
But in that relationship,
I went through a lot of betrayal in that relationship,
caught him cheating multiple times with multiple people,
lots of pornography addiction in that relationship
and all kinds of stuff.
And for a while, I blamed him and I blamed God
because I felt like God led me into that relationship.
But really my counterfeit identity
and my lack of boundaries and ignoring red flags
led me into that relationship, okay?
I was convincing myself.
Here's another thing.
Thank you, Laura, for reminding me.
One of the other things that tripped me up
in that situation, you all, was fantasy thinking.
And I'm not talking about erotica right now.
I'm talking about he went to church every Sunday.
He appeared to be a good dad.
He had a house,
which I thought he was in good standing for when I met him.
He looked like he had a great kind of setup.
I wanted to get married.
I wanted to have a family.
I wanted kids.
And here was this guy
that just looked like this great package,
but he wasn't really who he said he was, okay?
So I got caught all up in the fantasy
of what we could become
and I didn't keep my feet on the ground, okay?
And that's one of the other reasons
that I blew past red flags
is I got loved a lot.
And again, I'm not blaming just him
because I really wished I had paid more attention
to my own self and really listened to the Lord
because multiple times the Lord was telling me,
he's not for you.
But I was so convinced by what I saw
in the first week and a half that I kept clinging,
like that's gonna come back.
That person is gonna come back.
And he never did.
You all, six years later, that person, that fake person,
the person I thought he was never came back, okay?
But so why am I saying that to you?
Because I had to own my side of the street.
I had to see the ways that I actually didn't listen to God
when he was trying to help me.
God, for that whole time, praise the Lord, you all.
I wanted to marry that guy.
I'm so thankful.
Even this weekend,
I won't go into this too much longer,
but my spiritual daughters got a call late the other night.
He was so drunk.
He fell down and his phone alerted EMS
and his whole contact, emergency contacts and everything.
I got a late night call.
or my oldest spiritual daughter was crying.
She had never seen anybody so drunk in her whole life.
And she was there and having to take care of him.
And so I say all that to say,
you know, people make really bad choices sometimes,
but we can make better choices in the future.
But I'm saying that to you because I said to my husband,
for those of you that don't know,
I'm married and September 4th will be two years,
but I just said to him,
God, I'm so thankful that I'm with you.
And I did not marry him.
This would have been my life.
You know, so praise the Lord.
Some of you all have also been rescued
out of some situations.
Can I get an amen in the chat for anyone
that you're relating to this in any way
and God has spared you and kept you
and maybe you're seeing it even more tonight
as I'm explaining these things to you.
Okay, here's another example of our broken heart
and the way that we can blame other things.
Weight struggles.
I know this is gonna hit some chords for some people
and I want you to know on the front end,
I know that genetics and hormones can come into play here.
And I know some people try very, very hard to lose weight
and really struggle too, okay?
So I want you to know that there's no shame
if you struggle to lose weight.
And I don't want you to shut down
when I start talking about this, okay?
Here's the reality.
Sometimes we say we can't lose weight,
but yet we keep eating things when we shouldn't.
I've done that.
Or I don't get out and move my body
when I should be doing that.
And so I need to participate in taking care of my body
and also practicing self-control.
Also, some of the areas that I wanna bring up here
is underlying pain.
When we carry a lot of pain and brokenness and bitterness,
it can actually cause us to gain weight and hold it on.
So some of you all are even gonna start to feel a shift
in your bodies as you go through your heart healing.
Some of y'all are gonna release some weight
that has been there because you've stored,
like you didn't personally,
but your body stored toxins in your cells because of trauma.
And as you process that trauma,
your body's gonna start to let that stuff go, okay?
I'm not saying you don't still have to partner
with taking care of your body,
but that will be something some of y'all experience.
But there are times that we will blame
our weight on other things.
I will use an example in my own family.
My mom and my sister, my mom's side of the family
was most of them, all of the women
and some of the men were overweight,
but some of that was because they learned unhealthy patterns.
So for example, and I'm not saying this to shame my mom
because I also have really had to guard against this.
And at times I struggle when I'm really stressed,
I stress eat.
So I have to really watch that.
But my mom would hide food and then my sister hid food.
And so it's just something I noticed in my family line
that there was that area,
but then my mom would always kind of be depressed
that she couldn't lose weight.
But the heart of the problem was that her heart was broken
and she didn't work through healing that was needed.
And so she hid from her own problems
and it ended up causing other things
and issues down the road, okay?
My mom, for those of you that don't know,
passed away back in 2022, back in May of 2022.
I do believe with all my heart
that my mom could have lived a lot longer.
I really do.
But only God knows.
But taking care of ourselves is super important,
but also allowing our wounds to heal
and getting the help we need.
So praise God, again, you all are here.
The last thing I wanna show you
is that the devil is not to blame for everything.
Some of you, I really wanna encourage you right now,
just start asking yourself,
is there somewhere where I am blaming the devil
for something where I actually chose the wrong path?
Where I made a choice that wasn't healthy for me,
but I just blamed the devil
because I have been in a struggle.
Some of you, like I'm saying,
this struggle in my family, weight-wise, health-wise,
financial things, what is it for us?
I used to blame the devil
because I struggled with self-control physically
because being sexually abused as a young kid,
I didn't learn how to have healthy boundaries.
And so I felt-
Like that kind of, and I'm not saying I used it or, you know, anything like that on purpose,
but subconsciously I kind of blamed the devil because I was struggling to control myself.
Okay. Do you see how that, do you see what I'm getting at? I try to use myself more than,
you know, trying to use things that are in your all's lives, because I feel like that will help
you feel less defensive and you'll let your walls come down and let the Holy Spirit speak to you
in your own life. All right. So we're going to do our first breakout. For those of you that are
joining us for the first time, this is what we do. We go, I put you guys into groups of two or three
and I give you a question and you talk about that question together. Yes. Some of you all
are literally going to talk to somebody for the first time that you've never met before.
I want to encourage you to not hide and not be afraid and not hold back. And if you feel fear,
remember, lean into love. God, the God of love is here tonight and he wants to help you
connect in community. And here's, here's the thing. As you embrace this, as you lean into this,
it can help you get breakthrough. And some of you might not know the answer to the question when you
first go into the room, but as you talk with the people that God is going to ordain to be in the
room with you, I believe he's going to give you the revelation that you need. Okay. And if you
go in with that expectation, it'll be even better. All right. Um, and Jesse, I see that you can't go
into breakout tonight. That's totally fine. If you guys can't, we understand, but just if you can,
please still go there. And here's the thing. If you feel scared, tell the people in your room.
Okay. And you guys don't have to help each other or counsel each other, but it's okay to just be
honest with where you're at. You can say when you're nervous and all that kind of stuff. All
right. Here we go. I'm going to get these set up. Okay. I think that I'm going to do two to three.
Some of y'all will have three and that way when I move people around, if I need to move people
around, it'll be good. All right. Remember if you first get in there and nobody's in your room,
just stay there and then I'll move you if I need to. Okay. All right. Here you are. Go ahead and
click to join those rooms that should have just popped up on your computer screen or phone screen
for you. Go ahead and click to join. I'll be praying for you all.
Kim, did you get one to join? Did yours pop up there?
Oh, okay. Okay. Oh my gosh. I didn't give the question.
Hold on. I got to broadcast that to everyone. So sorry.
What is my question? What and who?
Later.
Sorry. Okay. So now let me get everybody situated. Anya, did it not pop up for you either?
Oh, did it keep you here? Oh, she's gone. She gave me a thumbs up. Okay. Kim. Kim,
what is the question? Did you see the question I just sent through?
Okay. And then Monique, do you need to stay here, sweetie?
Yeah. I actually wanted to ask you a question. Okay. So I'm in phase two. I haven't finished
all my reading and I tried to click on the link for like in the phase two for this thing and it
kept saying there was another event in place. Am I not supposed to be in these?
Oh, no, no. Okay. So what it is, is wait. So did you finish phase one?
Yeah. So the only thing I have left to do is finish the reading. And so I told them when I
got the email, I said, I still, I want to, I want to finish like the reading and like,
not because obviously it's taking my time. So that was fine.
Yes. So you can just finish the reading. I would encourage you to wait to start a lot
of the phase two content just so you can completely, because there might be a couple
other things when you do that reading that will be helpful. And I know you've been doing a great
job with staying with, with the system. So the phase two check-ins are Tuesday nights.
Oh, okay. So heart check-ins yeah. Our phase one groups meet on Monday nights and then phase two
is Tuesday nights. So you're in the right place. And just so you know we let everybody know,
like you all can come back even if you don't want to right away, like, you know, come back,
if you're feeling, you know, stuff kind of getting kicked up, you can come back and just
kind of, you know, hear heart work again. So just know that too. Yeah. Yeah.
Okay, I just wanted to make sure I understood it. So yeah, I want to stay in this until at least I
finished all the reading. I've done all the videos. I've done all the, like how she'll have like the
prompts print out. I just, I'm really slow. Like with the readings, I want to make sure I get it
and I have everything. So, okay. I just want to make sure I understood it. So thank you.
Yeah, you're welcome. You're welcome. Father, thank you so much for even Monique and just her
amazing dedication to this program. And I thank you God for working in her life and the healing
work that you're doing. God, I thank you that you'll just continue to just wash over her with
grace as she reads. And Lord, even as I'm praying for Monique, that this is for all the ladies,
that they would experience your energy, your clarity of mind, God, that you would just help
them to hear what your spirit is saying through every word, every journaling entry. And they would
just step further into freedom. We thank you Lord, just even for the ladies that are in doing the
discussion group right now. We thank you that you would just minister truth in life and hope to them.
We ask you just to bring clarity to the areas where they may have been blaming other people,
other things, even God, you maybe blaming themselves and holding themselves hostage.
Lord, and help them to come to the place where they can own their side of the street, where they
can see the areas and the ways that maybe they got hung up in a situation through decisions that
were not the healthiest decision for them. So we just thank you God for bringing grace and truth
and hope in their midst. We thank you for bringing healing rain, just like that old song.
I think it's Michael W. Smith that came back in my spirit just now. We thank you Lord for bringing
your healing rain coming down and washing over every heart, mind, body, spirit, and soul.
We thank you for convergence in every lady. Lord, we're in the past when they were hurt as little
girls and they started rejecting parts of themselves. We thank you that you would bring
them into convergence or that you would bring their adult self and little girl self back into
unity. If there's any self-hatred, self-loathing, any kind of self-pity, we thank you Holy Spirit
and Jesus Christ for binding and breaking those spirits and those thoughts off of their minds,
off of their hearts, off their spirits, and help them to walk into greater truth and revelation
in the days ahead. We thank you that death and life are in the power of the tongue and those
who love it will eat its fruit. So we thank you that we will speak life over our bodies, over our
lives, over our destinies, over our spirit mates, over the promised land that you want to lead us
into. We thank you that your word declares that you want to lead us into the land flowing with
milk and honey. Yes, Lord. I haven't prayed that one in a long time, so that's for everyone tonight.
He wants to take us into the land flowing with milk and honey, but you all know when Moses and
them, I think Moses was still in the story. I have to go back. It's been a long time since I read it,
but basically what I was going to say is, you know, some of them didn't enter the promised land.
Some of them stayed where they were because they were afraid to enter. Why? Because there were giants
in the land and it looked hard. Sometimes there are giants in the land and it is going to look
hard in a sense. Even when we're doing heart work, we're going to face giants along the way. These
areas of heart work that maybe something's been there for a long time, but Lord, we just thank you
that you can demolish giants and strongholds and principalities and powers with one
one snap of your finger in a sense, Lord, that your light demolishes darkness, that there is
no darkness in you, Father. So I pray that if we sense any darkness, if we sense even torment
of the enemy or any of his tax, that we would lean into light, that we would lean into love and
that we would speak your truth and allow your truth to bring revelation and healing and transformation.
Hi, Susan. Welcome. They're about to finish up their breakout, so I'm just praying over everybody for a
little bit. We thank you, Lord, for continuing to bring truth. Help us to stay alert, to watch out
for our great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to
devour. But I thank you that we don't have to have fear or be discouraged because you, Lord God,
have gone before us into all things and you have made a way for us to stand. I thank you that your
truth says that there is such great peace and well-being that comes to the lovers of your word
and they will never be offended. God, we thank you that you would stir up the gifts of God within
each one of us, that you would stir up the hunger and thirst for your righteousness, for your word,
that we would fall in love with you all over again, Lord.
Because no matter what God, we know that you use the spirit mate to draw so many of these
ladies here.
But God, hi there.
Hi, ladies.
Hi, Jennifer, Natasha, they're finishing up their first breakout, they're about to come
back.
Lord, we know that you drew a lot of ladies in regarding spirit mate, but God, we know
that you want to lead all of us primarily back to you help us to get more centered in
your love to get more centered in your truth.
Help us to Lord some of us have a divine revelation of who you are as God who you are as kind
who you are as love as peace, as faithfulness as gentleness.
So many of us didn't experience that in our earthly relationships and I thank you God
for revelation and truth and light that you'll shed in the darkness.
Isaiah 66 nine says this ladies, I will not cause pain without allowing something new
to be born.
I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born.
We thank you Lord God that no matter what we go through that you work all things together
for good to save many people alive in addition to transforming us from the inside out.
We thank you that you don't cause sickness, death, disease, destruction, but Lord God,
you will use it.
If we give it to you, we just thank you for that in advance for it.
And Jesus name.
Hello.
Welcome back.
All right.
Who is willing?
I'm sorry.
You all.
I totally sent you all in there and didn't give you the question.
Someone asked.
I was like, oh my gosh, sorry about that.
You know, we just got to keep it lively.
You guys come up with it for a few minutes until you saw it.
I hope.
All right.
Well, I look at all this, the whole screen full of faces for the most part.
I love this.
Look at you all.
Let's see, Liz.
I don't know if I've seen you live on here before you probably been here, but I might
have seen you.
I see you.
It's nice to see you.
All right.
Who is willing to share with the whole group what you shared in the breakout?
Come on, feel led to jump right in.
Come on, my OG ladies share so that the newbies will feel comfortable.
All right, Jessica.
What was the question?
Well, you're going to come in and share what you shared.
Like you're going to share with the whole group what you shared in the breakout.
And the question breakout was what or who are you blaming instead of owning your side
of the street?
All right.
So Jessica can go first.
Thank you for the good laugh though, because all three of us got in the chat room like,
I don't know.
What's up?
Sorry.
Yep.
Sorry, ladies.
That was so awesome.
Anyway.
Thank you for that.
No, I think just briefly, I came to a point where like I said, I still sometimes blame
my husband, ex-husband for stuff.
But it's more of like now seeing the unhealthiness and the toxicity of what he did.
But I said, what my part was beginning to learn to see that, oh, wait a minute.
The reason I stayed there and allowed it was because I was not healthy.
I did not have boundaries.
I allowed unreasonable behavior.
So every time I said, sometimes I say bad words about him, like I'll call him a name.
But sometimes it's because I'm like, oh my gosh, he did that.
And it's the first time I'm realizing like I let that happen.
And I didn't even know that was a bad thing back then.
So then I'm all of a sudden I'm angry all over again, because it's the first time I've
been angry.
It's just like so revelatory, but it's so good because I can go like, yeah, but you
were not a healthy person.
So yeah.
Yes.
Yeah.
I relate to that so much.
And I think I said this last week or the week before, but I thought I was a confident person
in a lot of ways.
I was.
I really was.
Great leader.
I was serving in a lot of really important roles in a church and, you know, just was
rocking it.
But like I would get in these relationships romantically and that's where my hiding kind
of came into play.
I would shrink down who I was to try to make the relationship work.
I worked it like a job, you all.
And I did that because it really was never working from day one.
Right.
And so that whole time I kept trying to hold something together that was never coming together.
So great share, Jessica.
Thank you so much.
Emily, go ahead.
Um, I felt it took some work to like think about because I'm like towards the end of
this process.
So I've gone through a lot of these things, but one that I had.
quite identified yet was that I was holding some blame in my heart towards
the last ministry that I was working with, like doing a school with, and I had
hopes that like somehow it would continue, some sort of something would
continue past the school I was doing with them, and nothing really happened. I
mean there was like a little bit of talk here and there, but there wasn't like
straight-up invitation, and I knew like other people were getting those
invitations, or had gotten those invitations, so I think deep down like I
had like some blame, like oh if only they had invited me, then I would be you know
in the state I want to live in, and like all these things, like doing something
more fun than what I'm doing right now, but then like the truth is is like I
also didn't super crazy pursue it, like I didn't do the application, I didn't do
the like you know go all the way to the point where I could get a straight-up
rejection, like I didn't reach out to the director, and like all these things, so I
think the Lord, I honestly believe like the Lord kind of was directing my steps
away from them for a time, like maybe I'll come back later, but I think deep
down yeah I just had some not beautiful feelings. Can anyone relate to that? You
really want a promotion at work, or you want to do some kind of role, it could be
ministry, it could be anything, and you put it in the chat, that's probably the
easiest way, just because I don't want to lose my other digital ladies hands, but
like where you really wanted something, and you were believing for it, and you
saw other people getting it, and so then you started blaming the you know the
boss, I've been there, I'm like literally it happened to me, similar to what she
was saying, you know in a couple different ways, where I'm like wait a
minute, like I asked for this promotion for years, and I worked my tail off for it,
and I left this company, and not even a month later, this other woman, like she'd
only been there a year, got promoted, like it's still to this day, if I'm being
honest, still bugs me, you all, but there's a part of me that's still believing a lie
there, because I really believe God used that situation to move me out of there,
and I don't think he wanted me to be mistreated, or not be promoted, but if I
stayed in that that role, I don't think I would have ever, I don't think I would
be where I am right now, doing this with you all tonight, because letting go of
that, is what made room for all of this, and I really never saw, like when I
stepped into coaching, that's all I was doing, I wasn't doing all the other stuff
that I do in the community, and so I had to make room, so for some of you all, that
is why, that is why, it's not a yes, in this season, it doesn't mean that you
know, God doesn't want to bless your life, or he doesn't want to you know, work on
your behalf, the other aspect here, that I want some of you all to consider, and I
mentioned this earlier today, is that, and I kind of alluded to this, when we
started tonight, if you all weren't on, I was talking about the ways that we hide,
and so many times, we don't even realize, when we show up in life, at our jobs, in
our families, at churches, in relationships, ways that we're not really
showing up as our full self, or we have all these hurts, and they impact the way
we react to people, instead of respond to people, and all different kinds of stuff,
and that can actually cause us to not be able to step into some of these things
that we want, because it can hinder us, or you know, cause us to be hidden, in a
sense, even though we aren't, it's like you're walking around, you're like, do you
actually see me, like I'm right here, does anyone else relate to this, because I
felt like this before, I'm like, how do they not see my potential, and then they
would tell me that they could see my potential, but then they still wouldn't
pay me for it, it was crazy, craziness, but you all, God's blessing, now I can tell
you, I don't think God ever wanted me to feel like I wasn't honored, okay, so don't
misunderstand me, and I got increases in my job along the way, but I thought I
should have gotten a title promotion, and that's what I was hung up on, because for
me, that was a form of identity, okay, an accomplishment, and I didn't understand
why I wasn't being given that accomplishment, but it's because God had
a completely different lane for me to be in, and he had something totally
different for me to accomplish for him, so for some of you all, I want to
encourage you to let go of blaming those people, I'm going to say something, I just
came up in my spirit too, so I want to put this out there, some of you all are
blaming doctors, so if that hits me.
resonates for you. I want you just to kind of lean into that a little bit. Maybe a misdiagnosis.
Maybe you felt like they should have caught something. Maybe some of you all I had years.
It's probably been over a year ago. I had a lady that, you know, had a whole malpractice
thing that she had, you know, went through. It wasn't like the flip side, like she was
the patient. So that makes sense. I forget what it's called when you're the patient,
but something happened and she went through the ringer because of some, some incorrect
incisions. I'll just put it that way. And so, yeah, she had to work through a lot of
forgiveness and blame that her life was ruined because of this doctor. And so if you all
have anything like that, be sure to lean into that as well. And just really ask the Lord
to set you free from that. All right, Brenda, let me hear what you have to share.
Okay. So it's interesting because I didn't know the question. And then I was like, I
said to the girl that I was with that I felt for me, I, I tend to blame myself. Like I
missed it. Like what's come up for me recently as there was someone that I met in 2019 that
within 24 hours of knowing him and wanted to marry me. And my whole thing is like, okay,
the Lord's got to be in it. Long story short, I started thinking about him last week and
being like, did I miss it? But I'm older. And then the other thing is that I think I've
also blamed the men, you know, that they were, that I didn't want to deal like with
all their stuff, whatever, you know, even though we all have our stuff and then just
realizing now that, you know, I mean, God's, it's all about God's timing, but also to that
when we're wounded, we're going to attract another wounded person. Yep. And that's been
a big part of it. And I, I just am now thinking about that, like that, you know, I was looking
to stuff that was coming up with them and being like, Oh, I don't want to deal with
that. But then knowing that, you know, because I wasn't healthy, there was no way for me
to have a healthy relationship. So, but I tend to look to me like that. I missed it,
that I delayed it. So, yeah. Yeah. So I think, okay, so I'm going to do a little hard work
on this one and you don't have to necessarily answer if you don't want to Brenda, cause
I didn't say I was going to do that in advance, but when is the first time you felt like,
how do I want to ask this? When is the first time you remember blaming yourself for a decision?
It doesn't even have to be romantic. Like something happened and you felt like deep
down, it was all my fault. Well, what comes to mind is that, um, the first kind of interesting.
So it was right before. So I met a guy who I thought was Christian. Um, but then, you
know, he was not walking with the Lord, but the Lord used it anyways. He, it was a very
abusive relationship. And that's what comes to mind when you ask me that. Okay. So I would
definitely encourage you, even if you've already done it before to use that forgiveness prayer
sheet regarding forgiving yourself for moving forward in that relationship. Okay. Um, because
that is the first thing that came up and for now that might be as far as the Lord will
take you with this. But my guess is once you forgive yourself for that, the Lord might
highlight another layer deeper where you blamed yourself for something. And, and you all just
so you know, that, that can ha that can be how our healing process will happen, where
the Lord will reveal the first thing for you, because he knows what we're ready for at each
moment. Okay. And he knows how to help you get to where you need to go. And so he'll
reveal to you, it's not a game, but he's trying to help you because you need to heal from that
situation still. And then once you kind of work through that, then he might reveal the next piece
of like, okay, what are some ways that you believed that you were at fault here and you
were to blame? And it's always two way street, right? It's takes two people. Um, and so while
that man was a Christian and yeah, ladies, we wouldn't encourage you to be in relationships
with people that don't, you know, love, love the Lord and not just people that go to church,
but they actually have a relationship with Jesus. That's what we want you to really look.
for it and don't get hyper, like religious about it either though. Okay. Obviously y'all
are in heartworks. You don't have to worry about that right now, but I just want you
to kind of know, like, it's important to forgive yourself for mistakes that you've made. So
if you're holding yourself hostage, cause that's kind of what we do. I want to encourage
you all to really ask the Lord. This is kind of what I want you to consider. Like, um,
if you can imagine yourself inside of a jail and the door is open, but you're internally
telling yourself, you're not allowed to leave the jail cell. It's like a punishing ourselves
for stuff we did. Um, but God is like, it's time to come out of the jail. Like I've set
you free already. Um, and he's not mad at us and you know, all these things, but sometimes
our subconscious, because we need healing. We, we think we're still in the prison. We
think we got to stay there, but we don't. So I was going to say that came up after I
said that to you was that there's still a fear in me of like, so after that happened,
the way that I viewed, um, meeting somebody was, I was like, okay, Lord, like I want,
I basically was like, I want nothing to do with it anymore. Like, like I wanted the Lord
to do everything because I felt like, you know, I'm not good at doing this. So I want
all hands off, you know what I mean? So there's still like, when you brought that up, like
there's still this fear in me of, of that slight possibility again, you know? Yeah.
So one of the great things is in this community, look around the room. Okay. The difference,
and this is, I'm going to say this cause this is true for me as well. In the past, part
of the, the reason I was picking wrong was a, I wasn't listening to red flags. I wasn't
truly listening to myself, but B I didn't have healthy community around me. And I have
some great friends. You all, I had some great friends, but even one of my closest friends,
she just wanted me to get married and have babies. I can't tell you how many times she
told me how cute that guy and me, we would just make the cutest babies. And I heard about
that all of the time. So much so that I felt pressured by it. It's not her fault that I
stayed in that relationship, but I'm just, that's another layer where, you know, people
and things can cause influence. So in this community, as long as you pick the people
that are, you know, really walking it out and being healthy and following kind of the
protocol, you know, we're not giving you, when you go through this program, even in
the heart work, we're not giving you guidelines as rules, but we're saying, Hey, this is what
we have found to work. And being in community, when I was dating, I came into my group and
I shared that with the group. And I was like, these are the people I'm meeting. This is
what's happening. This is what's good. This is what's not. They all called my husband
PB and J because that was my nickname for him. And that's how my group, that's what
we did. And so we, we, you know, whether it's a small group or big group, you all, it can
still be the same for you. If you allow community to be there, they, we can help you. Like if
you're dating someone and they got all kinds of red flags, we're going to lovingly be like,
Hey, this isn't good, but it will be up to you all, whether or not you heed wise counsel.
Okay. Same thing in the heart work. If I feel like, you know, someone's saying they're done
with heartwork that takes five weeks and two weeks, I'm going to be like, Hey, no, go
back, start over and take it, take your time because you need it. Everybody needs it. Okay.
So yeah, community is really, really important. So Brenda, thank you for sharing. I encourage
you to lean into that. And if this resonated for anybody else, if you've been blaming
yourself, I would definitely encourage you to ask the Lord kind of same thing I asked
her, you know, when was the first time I blamed myself or held myself hostage and didn't
forgive myself and see what the Lord brings up. Okay. I'm going to go ahead and shift
onto our next topic tonight. Confession and repentance. God knows the why behind the what.
Okay. So when I say this to you, God knows the why behind the what God knows why some of
you, some of us, myself included, um, whether it's current or in the past, excuse me, have
struggled with having sex before marriage. And I know that there are a lot of Christians
that this is the case. We have a lot of people, even in this community, we talk, it's good to
talk about it.
talk about it. If this is your struggle, don't hide. Be honest about it. God knows the why
behind the what. He knows why you're doing what you're doing. He knows the first time,
you know, some of you all were exposed to sexual abuse. Some of you were exposed to
other things. You know, lust is a real thing in our society. Everywhere you turn around
every TV show anymore, you know, that's, it's just everywhere, right? Porn addictions are
at an all time high. And this is not just a male problem. Hey, I'm going to talk real
talk for a minute. Is everybody ready? Okay. Real talk is that we have a lot of ladies
struggling with masturbation. We have a lot of ladies very lonely and doing things because
they're trying to soothe their loneliness and it's a dead end road. And I want you to
know there's no shame. There's no, I'm not trying to guilt you or condemn you because
we can't just behave good ladies. Okay. We need to experience heart change and transformation
and let God heal the places in us that lead us to do things that are not good for us.
Okay. And that includes overeating. That includes gossiping that, you know, all of these things,
they all are not good for us. I'm going to give you a couple other examples of God knows
the why behind the what? Negative self-talk. How many of you beat yourself up in your mind
daily? Like you're saying mean things to yourself, whether it's about your body image or you're
not smart, or maybe your negative self-talk is just nothing's ever going to change. I
don't even know if this program is going to work. Why am I in this program? What am I
doing? You know, like, where is your negative talk leading you? Cause everybody's is different.
Maybe your negative self-talk sounds something like,
I'm never going to be able to accomplish that fill in the blank, whatever that is. So why
should I even try? Because some of you in this heart healing process,
God's going to be awakening dreams in you. Some of you had dreams when you were kids
and that the enemy came in and he stole and he's crushed them.
The Holy spirit on this. And God's going to reawaken those things. And he's going to
nudge you to take a class or go do like, and it doesn't have to be a school class,
like credit wise. It could literally be even a class where you go do a painting class just
to explore. Some of y'all have been called to paint. You've been anointed to paint.
And the enemy tried to convince you as a kid that you weren't any good. I don't know why,
but that I just felt led to use painting as the example. So I feel like that is for someone,
but maybe yours is something different. Maybe yours, you know, you're better with wood and
tools like, but because you were a girl, you were told that's not for you. I mean,
there's all different things. Maybe you love fishing. I don't know about, I love to fish
when I was little, but my dad only took the boys. Things like that. Okay. But allowing God to come
in and, you know, he knows the why behind the what he knows why we have these negative self-talk
cycles and he wants to help us out of it. Maybe yours is insecurity and self-hatred.
And a lot of people think, well, I don't hate myself, but there are thoughts that you're having
that if we really unpacked them, show signs of really not liking yourself for various different
reasons. Okay. I want to tell you a little story. I'm going to try to tell it as quick as I can.
I was unpacking some things from when I was younger. Cause I was looking for a photo from
when I was little. And as I was going through these envelopes, I came across a letter from my
dad. At the time I got this letter is probably in fourth grade. So I think I was about nine.
The letter from my dad was from when he was in jail. Okay. So I'm just going to preface the
story with that. My dad was in and out of jail several times when I was younger, he was a drug
addict and alcoholic. And I really hardly ever remember him being home. Like I just don't really
have a lot of memories at all with my dad, but in this letter in particular he wrote it to my
sister and I, and he was talking about random things, but then he started talking. Now, mind
you, this is my adult dad writing a letter from jail to my sister and I, I was nine. So she would
have been maybe 12 little kids, right? In this letter, he starts talking about how he would like
to come home.
Um, but he has all these fines that he can't pay because he doesn't have any
money and because he doesn't have any money, he has to stay there longer
because he makes, I don't know what it was a certain amount every day that he
stays in jail.
So now I got to stay in jail this many days so that I can pay back this debt.
And he just kept talking in this letter about the money that he didn't have.
And I said to my husband, I literally read it last night.
I hadn't read it in a really long time.
And I said to Brian last night, I was like, this is kind of crazy reading this
now growing up, I battled financially, like in a lot of ways and not just in
the physical, like in my mind regarding money and feeling like I was never going
to have enough and feeling like I would do my best to save, but I felt like I
just had holes in my pockets.
Does anyone ever felt like that?
I don't know if you guys have, but I felt like I really tried and I just kept,
it just kept disappearing and some of it was bad decisions, but I was a big
giver too and all the things, but this is why I'm bringing it up.
I feel like when I looked at that letter, the reality of what I heard and what I
read and what I learned, I was told over and over that, you know, we don't have
money, so I grew up telling myself a lot and even was told you can't do
that because we don't have money.
And yeah, sometimes that's reality and that's life and you know, all those
things, it's not the end of the world when we can't do every single thing we
want to do.
Right.
But I'm saying this to you because God knows the why behind the what for my dad
too.
He knows why my dad made the decisions that he made and ended up in jail.
And years ago, I would like, I remember the first time I was old enough to
acknowledge and understand that letter.
Um, I was so angry, but yesterday I didn't feel angry.
I just kind of was like, wow, like it's kind of crazy.
Like this is partially why I struggled with this, these thought patterns, but God
also knows the why behind my what and why I struggled to hold on to money at times.
So whatever your struggle is, God understands and he wants to help you not
just through it.
He doesn't want to just help you survive.
He wants to help you learn how to heal your heart.
He heals it for us, but he wants to help you in that process so that you can learn
how to thrive and succeed in life in every area, including your love story.
So it's super important to ask the Holy spirit all along the way to reveal to you
what you need to know.
The Holy spirit is the counselor.
He's your comforter.
He's your guide.
He knows you better than you know yourself.
So when you don't know why you're doing what you're doing, you know, the story,
Paul is like, you know, I don't know why I keep doing this thing that I don't want
to do so we can relate to Paul.
Don't we like sometimes don't we.
Okay.
So repentance, what is repentance?
Let's talk about it real quick.
Repentance is literally coming out of agreement with lies or sinful and harmful
behaviors.
It's coming out of agreement with those things.
It's literally, if I was going this direction, it's saying, okay, I'm not going
to go in that direction anymore.
And it's not just, Hey, let me be on my best behavior for a few weeks and just act
like I've got it all together.
But it's literally God, I need you.
I can't do this by myself and I can't keep going down this path of pain.
You know, that, that prayer in the book, if you all aren't there yet, but she,
Jackie talks about like, Lord, take my feet off this path of pain.
It's from a scripture, but it's one of the versions.
It's really beautiful.
And set my feet back on the path that leads me back to you.
And that's what we need, you know, the Lord to help us, to show us the areas
where we need to repent and come out of agreement and turn away from these things
that are not serving us and turn towards him.
So it's a change of mind.
It's a change of spirit.
And it's literally you all, it is a change of body.
Here's, I'm going to kind of tie back in when I was talking about briefly earlier
about the real talk, you all self-control is a fruit of the spirit.
I'm not going to preach on this, but I want you to start leaning into this
in your heart healing process.
If you all have struggled in any kind of lustful, sexual, even overeating,
any kind of addictions where your body is impacted because of your decision,
I want to encourage you to ask the Lord to help you understand that you have a change of mind,
a change of spirit and a change of body. It's three.
Okay, so we're literally changing directions and we're going the other way.
So also asking God, are there any guardrails I need to set up, Lord,
to protect me from falling into temptation and sin?
Maybe some of you need to stop subscriptions to things, maybe be on phones less.
I mean, just really ask the Holy Spirit and see what he will say to you.
All right, because again, we don't want just behave good.
We want genuine heart change and transformation, right?
Right, ladies? Yeah. All right. Confess your faults. Here we go.
James 5, 16, therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you might be healed.
The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.
That's the first scripture for you.
First John 1, 9 says if we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins
and purify us from all unrighteousness.
So when you're going to go into the breakout room, I want to encourage you all.
We're going to talk about what, what is God nudging you to confess tonight?
Where is he asking you to repent and go in a different direction?
When I encourage you to confess the whole story and what I mean by that is not every gory detail.
Okay. I just mean, just tell it like it is.
Okay. If you struggle watching pornography, say that.
Okay. If you struggled at some point and had an affair with a married man, say that.
If you're the villain, confess that you're the villain.
Don't sugarcoat things because here's the thing.
Y'all know what changed my life with that relationship when I broke up with that guy.
I called this counselor, wanted to start working with her.
She was really highly recommended.
And she said to me, why do you think I'm doing my phone thing?
Back in the day I used to talk.
That tells you like what kind of phone I talked on when I was little y'all.
I saw a phone like that in a hotel this weekend.
Maybe that's what's why it's on my mind.
But I was talking to her and she said, why do you think you need?
I dated myself a little bit there.
Why do you think you need my help?
Like, why do you want me to counsel you?
And I said, because.
You know, my ex-husband, the guy dated after him and this guy, all three had addiction problems.
All three betrayed me in the relationship.
And I don't want to keep making the same mistake anymore.
And the common denominator.
Is me.
So.
I wanted to be honest with myself.
I'm not saying that.
God.
Wanted any of those relationships for me the night before my first
wedding, I actually felt like I should call it off. You all.
God in his goodness rescued me from that bad decision.
Okay.
And in our decisions, he'll rescue you as well.
Okay.
I'm going to put you in your breakouts.
And again, I know for some of you, this is feeling, you know,
it's stretching you.
It's going to stretch you.
But this is why it's really important.
As I read in that scripture, confess your faults one to another.
Why?
So you may be healed.
Okay.
All right.
Here you go. Go ahead.
Does everyone have a question?
Okay.
All right.
I'm going to put you in your breakouts.
And again, I know for some of you, this is feeling, you know,
it's stretching you.
It's going to stretch you.
But this is why it's really important.
As I read in that scripture, confess your faults one to another.
Why?
All right. Here you go. Go ahead.
Does everyone know the question? I don't want to lead you in there.
You know, everybody knows now.
I'm making a little joke. Okay, here we go.
I'll see y'all in a little bit.
Praying for you.
Love you all.
Father, thank you so much.
As they go into the breakouts and even as some of the ladies can't go
into breakouts and we have people that are going to watch this on
replay.
Or we just ask you to minister your life,
your hope and your truth to them right now that you'll help them to
come out of hiding in every way.
Lord, we thank you that your mercies are new every morning.
Lord, I thank you. That great is your faithfulness to us.
Even right now that your Holy spirit and your presence and your love
would invade their hearts, their minds, their spirits, not,
not as in you push down the door and take them over, but it just comes.
and washes over.
I believe every one of these spiritual rooms
that they're in right now,
that they're meeting with their sisters
and they're opening their hearts.
I pray that you would bless and minister,
even the ladies that can't share and break out right now,
that you would give them the courage
to confess to someone that's safe for them this week.
We thank you, Lord,
that you are transforming us by the renewing of our minds,
that all things have passed away
and behold, everything has become new in you.
I thank you, Lord,
that you are changing minds and hearts
and spirits and souls.
We thank you that you're bringing truth and life
and redemption to each and every one of us.
We thank you for causing a shift in our spirits.
Help us to hear your truth.
Help us to see your life and your hope.
We thank you, Lord, for, yes, Lord,
redeeming our timelines and redeeming our stories.
Lord, even right now, just in my spirit,
I kept hearing the word,
some of those have felt despised,
even against themselves,
like they've despised their own self
is what I'm hearing in the spirit.
And so, Lord, I pray that you'll help a lot of the ladies
forgive themselves tonight.
Sorry, ladies, I'm getting kind of choked up in my sinuses.
I pray that you would help them to extend forgiveness
and grace towards themselves, as well as towards others,
that they would receive your grace
and your truth and your hope.
I just saw an image, ladies,
I like literally saw as if the Lord
was holding in his hand a lantern
and he was just taking the light,
like the glow of his glory,
and just kind of gently like bringing that light towards us.
And so I'll just speak that over everyone tonight,
that the glow of the glory of God is here and he's working.
I thank you, Lord,
that you would illuminate every dark area.
We thank you, Lord,
that you would lift weights off of ladies tonight,
where they've been carrying burdens for a long time.
Lord, I thank you that you'll help them
to lay their burdens down at your feet
and allow you to, as your word declares,
what was crimson red, that you would make it white as snow.
We thank you that as soon as we ask for your forgiveness,
as soon as we repent and turn and go the other direction,
our sins are removed as far as the East is from the West.
We thank you, Lord,
for every area where we felt oppressed
and depressed in the past,
that you're literally removing the lid off of us
and you're saying, live, live, awaken, daughter,
arise, shine, for your light has come,
for the glory of the Lord has risen upon you.
And we just thank you, Lord, for calling us forth.
All right, this scripture is so good.
Luke 8, 17 through 19 in the Passion Translation says this,
because of this revelation lamp now shines within you,
nothing will be hidden from you.
It will all be revealed.
Every secret of the kingdom will be unveiled
and out in the open made known by the revelation light.
So pay careful attention to your hearts
as you hear my teaching.
For to those who have open hearts,
even more revelation will be given to them
until it overflows.
And for those who do not listen with open hearts,
what little light they imagine to have will be taken away.
So Lord, we just thank you.
I didn't even realize that that's talking about
the lanterns and the light in a sense.
So Lord, we just thank you for that revelation
and that scripture coming into combination
with the image that you showed me.
We thank you for fresh oil being poured into us
as the lamps of Christ to shine bright for you.
We thank you that as you continue to reveal these areas
for healing in our hearts,
that you would make known your will to us.
We thank you, Lord, that in Psalm 37, 8,
it says, stay away from anger and revenge,
keep envy far from you, for it only leads you into lies.
So Lord, we thank you that you would help us
to forgive those that have harmed us in any way,
that we would no longer want revenge,
but Lord, that we would trust those people
in those situations into your hands,
that you are our defender.
I thank you that you'll help us to know your truth
and that your truth is what sets us free.
So Lord, we thank you that even your ladies,
as they read.
your word in the days ahead that Hi, Susan. Hi, I got kicked out
of my group. What room are you in? Oh, golly, I can't remember.
It's just one one person, the young girl that talked earlier.
Mind you struggling a lot with her identity. Okay, yep. Thank
you. You're welcome.
Let's see. Yeah, she's good. Okay. I don't know what I was
saying there. But oh, thank you word that you would, as your
ladies begin to read your word this week, or continue to read
your word that you would bring fresh revelation, insight,
illumination from heaven that you would help them the word to
come alive to them, that as they read it, that words and
scripture phrases would pop off the pages to them, and they
would just recognize Lord that you're speaking to them. And I
thank you that you would help them to understand that it's an
exciting adventure to seek your word. Your word says seek, and
you'll answer knock and the door will be opened up to us. And
there's another part of that scriptures. I just can't think
of it right now, ladies, but let us be seekers. Let us keep
asking and keep knocking. And maybe that was the third one
there. Psalm 13 says he will be standing firm like a flourishing
tree planted by God's design deeply rooted by the bricks of
bliss bearing fruit in every season of his life. He is never
dry, never fainting, ever blessed, ever prosperous, Lord,
thank you that we will ever be prosperous in you, that you will
plan us like this tree by rude bricks of bliss that will be
like by those rivers of living water. So any area where we have
not felt alive where we felt stuck where we haven't had hope.
I thank you that you plan us by the river of living water and
that your living water would flow up that it would bubble up
in our stomachs and bubble up out of us and bring forth joy
unspeakable and full of glory in Jesus name. Welcome back,
ladies, we have a little bit more time, but they'll be here
soon. So Lord, we just thank you that as you awaken us from the
inside out and your live your river of living water flows
through us, I thank you that you would help us to celebrate
and bask in your joy that some of us would truly know the
eternal joy, not a joy that we have to fake or put a smile on
and, and just long to have or understand, but a true and
genuine joy from the inside out, that it would burst out of us
everywhere we go. And we thank you, Lord, that you would draw
people unto yourself and into your kingdom through us, that
ladies that have never known their purpose will begin to know
their purpose, like never before, that they would have
fresh revelation and insight of who you originally created them
to be. And you would help them to step further into that more
every day. And we just thank you for that in advance. We have
about 16 seconds ladies, and they'll be back. I hope it was a
good time. I know it can be confession night can be tough.
Hey, I do know. But I hope it was good to
that is God is so good. I keep thinking every week I bring
these bright red cups. My little solo cup. Y'all.
All right.
Bethany, can I ask you something quick? Why when we come back to
the group? Are you talking? Who are you talking to?
Oh, I'm just praying and talking to the ladies on replay.
Because guess what, when y'all are in breakout, instead of it
being just black, I have people that can't go into breakout or
people that will when they watch the replay don't have the
breakout session. So I just pray and declare over them. And
sometimes God will give me prophetic images and I declare
that stuff out. So if you all ever want to go and listen to
that, you can fast forward through to when I send you into
breakouts and hear that part. But yeah, so that's what I'm
doing. And sometimes the Lord will show me something that I
need to tell you all when I'm doing that. But yeah, great
question. I'm just having a party here by myself. You all
party with Jesus. I love it. All right. Love it. So good, Kim.
All right. Let me see here. We have Jennifer. Yes, my ladies.
No, Jennifer and then Suzanne and we'll see we're probably
we'll probably be right at time to end tonight after they're
finished. Okay. Go ahead, Jennifer.
I have. I wanted to start with a question, but I was will share
what I shared in the breakout room as well. But the question
is something that actually is something that I has been
percolating for me in my own personal life.
life, like just asking about it.
And it's partly probably a lie too.
But as we were talking, the question came up, I was like, I think the lie that I've
sometimes told myself is like that masturbation isn't involving anyone else or hurting anyone
else.
And so is this really wrong?
And I'm wondering if we could unpack that a little bit, because I think that that's
where sometimes like the lie creeps in for people.
What I shared with the ladies is that I have been walking in celibacy, was walking in celibacy
since 2013 when I came back to my relationship with Jesus, like gave my life back to Christ.
And then I fell in 2020.
And I just wasn't, I told the ladies that like, I wasn't prepared for what it would
be like in my 30s to walk in celibacy once my friends had started getting married and
having families and the loneliness along with my hormones being different.
And listening to my body once a month when it's ovulating and having to navigate, you
know, like my heart married with my biology.
And so I went through a period of like, just wanting to be like an empowered woman.
And I made a lot of decisions when I fell that really wounded my soul.
Like by the end of it, like I just felt like a shell of me.
And I felt like I had compromised so much of myself.
And I understood what a soul tie was, unfortunately, because I had experienced it.
Now I could feel what that felt like and had to break those things.
I'm glad to say that I've been practicing celibacy since September of last year.
So I am really happy about that.
But where I'm struggling right now is in my inner world and my thought life.
Because in dating, my pool is smaller, seems smaller since I'm later in my 30s, I'm 37.
And I've had guys disqualify themselves, including the last person I was talking to, because
they don't want to wait until marriage.
And so in my inner world, I'm like struggling right now.
And I've been praying about the doubt is what I confessed.
The doubt about, is this going to work for me?
You know, my sister is married very happily.
And she's an attorney and she has a house and kids.
And they didn't wait a day.
And so sometimes I'm like, God, that's so not fair, because I've tried so many times
to do it this way, you know?
So yeah.
This is real.
This is so good.
Okay.
So here's the first thing, y'all, I can touch on her first question, but I cannot unpack
it at this time tonight.
Okay.
So I'm just going to say that on the forefront.
And not because I'm afraid to talk about it, but I think it's a bigger discussion.
We've unpacked this before.
And I think, you know, for me too, what's really important for y'all to hear is kind
of what I've been saying tonight is that I'm not encouraging y'all just to have behavior
modification.
I want y'all to experience heart transformation.
And that is what will bring you the ability to, even when just from experience, okay,
I'm speaking from experience here.
Even when your body has hormonal surges, you will learn to choose yourself in a different
way.
Okay.
That's probably the best way to say it.
I can remember just the enemy trying to even convince me of something, something very similar
to what you were saying.
Like it's only like, I'm not harming anybody else.
This is just me kind of, but God really had to show me like our body is a temple of the
Holy spirit, you know, and I don't want to get religious about it.
I want you all to pray about it and see what God shows you.
Okay.
Because I think that's where we hear so much religion and churches about what you should
or shouldn't do.
And, you know, for good reason, because the church is supposed to be the light and like,
you know, the, the lighthouse showing us the way to go, but in some regards, the church
has led us astray.
So if I encourage you all to ask the Holy spirit, as you are continuing to heal, as
you spend time in the word of God, I would encourage you to, you know, the word doesn't
say a whole lot about, is it okay to masturbate?
But if y'all look into fornication and stuff like that, you know, it depends on how you
look at it.
But, um, I remember one, I'll have to find it.
I'll see if I can find which scripture it actually was, but it talked about like being
far from God.
And I just, that was not something I even wanted to consider, um, that I would do anything
that would hinder my connection with the Holy spirit.
And so that was why I made changes from.
myself. And so I put a lot of guardrails. If I felt really
lonely, I didn't put on the lonely music that caused me to
think about other things. Y'all, this is real, right? Because
this is what we do. Sometimes as women, we're so emotional, we're
already sad and lonely. And then we put on this love music or
music that makes us think about sex, or we watch the shows that
have a bunch of sex in them. You all I talked earlier today. Okay,
I am going to go a little bit into this. We're at 930. If you
need to hop off, it's okay. I want you all to really ask the
Lord to our eye gates and our ear gates are super important
for everybody. I am a very, um, I get very impacted by things I
see in here. Okay, so I also have a very in tune attunement
to the Holy Spirit when he's speaking. And so I have to be
very careful on what I watch and what I hear, even violence,
like I'm not just even talking sex stuff right now, like
everything. Um, but years ago, okay, I'm gonna full
transparency, I was watching this show, and I hope I don't
offend anyone. But I'm just gonna be honest. I was
watching, watching Brigerton something, I think I don't know
how you say it. And the Holy Spirit was like, you need to
stop watching this. I really started feeling uncomfortable
with what was in that show. And it really, again, this might
offend people. I'm sorry if it does. But it really is soft
porn. It's it's trying to get people okay, with the things
that are happening on TV. And we see a lot of this stuff in
movies now too. It's not just that show you all. But if we're
okay with that, you know, then we might be okay with the next
thing. You know, 50 shades of gray came out years ago now.
And I remember the first time I heard a whole Christian women's
group went to watch the movie together. And I was like, this
is messed up. Like, that's messed up a little bit if you
think about it. And if you went to watch it, or you did watch
it, no shame. I love you. But I feel like the enemy has
disguised things and tried to convince us that this stuff is
okay, and that it's not harming us and that then we're taking
this stuff into relationships with us. And I can tell you for
a fact, a healthy, loving marriage relationship is nothing
like the movies. Okay, sometimes sex is really awkward, you all
Okay, I'm not going to go too far into it. But like you learn
to love, you learn to love and you choose love and God blesses
it. Okay. So on another note of what she said, I think the
bigger thing that you said there was really huge, Jennifer, you
said, your inner world and thought life, that you had to
really look at where that was leading you. And where is it
leading you now and the thoughts that you're struggling with, you
know, these guys that say they don't want to wait until
marriage? Well, there are guys that will wait until marriage, I
know that it might seem and you all trust me, I hear it a lot.
And it is discouraging to some degree. But then I also hear how
many great guys are out there. I mean, we're hearing about it all
the time we have literally Jackie is not making it up when
she tells you all. And you see on her Instagram, these stories
of people that are getting married. These are people I have
met and I know literally, so I'm telling you that it is real. It
can happen for you as well. And these men are just as serious
about protecting the covenant as we are. Some of us actually are
more trying to get them not to some of our ladies. So we're
really trying to work you know, and again, no shame. It's it's
all about learning like why like what's triggering those
behaviors in us and asking the Lord to reveal like, when's the
first time that I struggled, you know, sexually, in any way you
all again, I'm just being real talk and ask the Holy Spirit to
reveal that to you and see what he wants to heal there. I don't
normally go this far into this conversation. So the Lord must
know that some some people need it tonight. Okay. We love you
all and we want you to walk into freedom and healing in every
area. Okay. All right, Suzanne, I want to give you an opportunity
to share. Thank you so much for waiting.
Awesome. Thank you. Hey, so I'm in the second breakout room
connects to the question that you we talked about in the first
breakout room. And it has to do with just like the health
healing journey on like the physical health healing journey
that is on and
I've shared a little bit in the group on Facebook and not and
it really has really been a thing during this journey that
wasn't as present prior to starting this. And so it's been
discerning through what is what's really all going on here.
But the confession and I feel like I'm wondering if my body
even trusts me to heal. Yeah, because I feel like there's
something. Yeah, like, will I will I take care of myself?
Well, like, have I does my body trust me to care for it? Well?
And is that where some of the hindrances to some of the
physical healing coming? So what I shared in my group was, like,
there have been some things going on where it's I've just
like the other day, I just was almost like anxiety attack type
of things. And there's been this. So there's been some
physical things going on. But in that, I've also seen myself
partner with a lot of hopelessness to in the midst and
kind of feeling like it just keeps piling on it feels like
how do you dig out of this? Or do I believe God can really
heal? And I may do but do I, you know, like, am I doing that for
myself, I guess is a better way to put that. And with all of
that. It's just, it's that place. Oh, so in when I'm in
just these places, I'm like, forget it, like, you know, why
eat? Well, if it's not going to work, or like, just these lies
coming in of I've, I've do these things, and I still seem to not
get well. So then I like come under this hopelessness. And
let's just dive into the pizza and ice cream anyway, you know,
and so, which is hurting me, you know, it's not helping me.
And
I mean, I'm gonna have you just for a second, because I feel
like I want to lead you into some hard work for a sec. Yeah,
when you were talking about does my body even trust me to take
care of it? I want to, I want to ask you, because you're on to
something here, I really do think that this is going to help
you in the days ahead. And when is the first time like you
remember feeling like maybe you didn't take good care of your
body, like first time or like where you got sick? And you
thought, like, did I do something to cause that? It
could be either one.
We think
like, I remember, I got sick a lot, even as a kid, just with
things. But I don't know if I've thought at that point,
though, like I did that. Necessarily, I think are of your
question would be more as as an adult, like even some issues and
just eating things that aren't helping me or are hurting my gut
or
so let's talk about as a kid, though. Okay, let's get for
sick. So tell me, when is the first time you remember? Like,
I don't know if you had to go to a hospital or like, what stands
out to you as a kid? Like when you say you were really sick as
a kid? Can you tell me just kind of the brief version? Like, what
do you remember the most? Like, what is the most poignant moment
of that?
Yeah, I guess, just times where I never went to the hospital
that I don't remember that but doing anything like that. But
just, it just felt like every time I just would keep getting
strep throat and have super high fevers and just being like
knocked out for a while and missing school. And I just
remember that happening often as a young child.
Hey, do you remember? And it's okay, if you don't, but this is
I just want to kind of lead you into this a little bit. Do you
remember any thoughts that you might have had during that time?
Like, how did you think and feel about the fact that you were
missing school a lot? Or that you were sick a lot?
Um, you know, one thing, and I've thought of this before, is
it almost felt like it gave me permission to take a break.
Okay, a break from what?
Like, like the school thing that didn't bother me that I missed
it. It was like, nice to not have to.
Okay. So you partnered in some way with sickness, then?
I do think I did. I almost like, even when I was older, my sister
in law said, she's like, you know, every time like a break,
even a break rolled around, like Christmas break.
It came or this came like you just would get sick all the time.
And I'm like, you know, that's true.
Um, but when I was older, that's what I really recognize.
I feel like a partnership of it almost, it like gives permission to take, to rest.
Was anyone else in your family sick like this?
Like mom or did anyone else struggle?
Did anyone like, did mom or grandma ever say, I used to get sick like this
to you or I don't remember my parents saying that, um, my sister did a little
bit, she was older than me.
Like I didn't, she was a lot older than me.
We didn't live in the house very, like, we didn't share a lot of space in the
house cause she was that much older.
She moved out.
Um, like she had mono and things like that.
Did she get attention when she was sick?
I don't know.
I was, I was too young to really recognize that there's some connections there.
Um, so just, I want to encourage you to ask the Lord a little bit about this and
kind of just, and it may not, it may not end up being anything, but when you
mentioned, you know, that someone else mentioned to you that you got sick a lot.
Okay.
So now some other people in your family and your life are noticing you got sick a
lot.
And so immediately I'm like, okay, wait a minute.
That kind of signals to me that someone else in family line might also have had
something similar.
So I didn't know I'm asking mom or aunt and here it's your sister that was older.
Again, I don't know if for sure if there's anything there, but I felt led to ask you
if she got attention when she was sick.
Cause again, as kids, we don't, you know, we don't understand certain things.
And when an older sibling is sick a lot and we're seeing them get all this
attention subconsciously, sometimes we can, even if we don't want to or mean to,
we can actually partner with something like if I'll get attention to, and we
don't, I mean, even as little kids, we can think that way.
Right.
Um, but the other flip side, and you know, I've kind of commented to you on this,
the flip side is the enemy.
You know, he does inflict a spirit of disease on families.
Okay.
So that's, there's a balance there, but I really think you kind of just keep
pulling this thread a little bit and see what else the Lord wants to reveal here.
I feel like there might even just be some additional revelation.
Um, the other thing that I want to leave you with, and that I am going to close
tonight, right.
Is that I want to encourage you to also ask the Lord, when was the first time
if you did partner with sickness?
Okay.
And what I mean by that for anyone that doesn't know what I mean by partner with
it, that means that on some level in her subconscious, she agreed that she would
like that there was something good that could come from her sickness.
Does that make sense?
Everyone.
Okay.
And it doesn't mean she did that intentionally, but again, subconsciously
sometimes when we believe these lies, because of things that we've seen, things
that we've heard, also things that can come down through family line.
That's why I asked, is there anybody else there in the family
that also had a lots of sickness?
So, um, ask the Lord when is, if, if there was a partnership with sickness,
if I came into agreement with sickness in some way, can you show me when the first
time was, and just ask the Lord and see what he shows you.
And same thing that I was telling Jennifer, you start with the first layer, see what
the Lord or whoever I was talking to.
I think that was Jennifer.
Um, what is the first memory that the Lord shows you and process that on?
Let him, if there's other things to say, Lord, is there anything else you want to
show me and you don't have to strive for the answer.
Okay.
Ladies, we never have to strive.
We, we ask and we let the Lord reveal.
Okay.
All right.
Tonight, you all has been so good.
We had some real talk.
We had some confession, repentance.
I want to encourage you all.
This is, this is activations.
Um, we're always giving you activations.
Um, I don't know if I can even remember the one that I did earlier today.
You all, I should have wrote that down.
It was a pretty good idea.
I don't know if I remember, so I'm going to give you a different one.
So if you came during the morning, early session, do the
activation I gave you for that group.
And then I'm going to give you all one for tonight.
All right.
So.
In your coming out of, um, hiding, I think it's super important for you all to,
Oh, this is what I did.
Thank you, Jesus.
I remember.
All right.
Some of y'all have hidden for so long that you don't even really know yourself.
And there are things that you haven't liked a lot about yourself.
And so I want you to write yourself.
And when I say a letter, it doesn't have to be pages and pages.
Okay.
This is not, if you want to write that many, go for it.
But what I, what I want you to do is I want you to say, Lord, show
me some good stuff about myself.
Show me, you know, things about me that I want to explore, whatever, like
anything about coming out of hiding and just start writing things down.
Good stuff.
What is good about April?
What is good about Lynn?
Like, what is good about Liz and Lord help me to put it on paper and just
start writing a couple of things down thoughts, phrases, whatever
comes up in your spirit.
Again, if anything negative comes up, y'all write that sucker down in a
different area, but cross that out.
Cause that's not truth.
That's not from the Lord.
And then ask God for the truth to replace that.
Cause even those little times where we're trying to work on something good,
the enemy will try to slip right in there.
So we don't, we won't, we don't want them to come in.
So that's your activation, but here's the, here's the other side of this.
I want you to tell us in the group, I want you to share some of that.
If you don't have to share the whole letter, if you don't want to, but at
least part of it, this is part of your coming out of hiding this week.
Okay.
Come out of hiding, come into community.
Let us celebrate you.
You're not going to get rejected.
We're going to love your, your letter to yourself, your note to yourself,
whatever you can take a screenshot of it and share the image, or you can share
a couple of lines from it, whatever your preference is.
Okay.
Father, thank you so much for your grace, your goodness.
Thank you for the Holy spirit, who is so amazing.
He's he's close, like a friend.
I thank you that we never have to walk through life alone.
That Lord God, you never leave us nor forsake us that you're always
working in, in our lives and ways.
We can't even ask, think, or imagine.
I pray Lord tonight, like so much has been stirred up about areas that we need to
repent, confess even areas that we struggle in Lord, that, you know, a lot of the
church in the world doesn't talk about.
I pray that you would just bring grace and truth and hope that you would reveal to
these ladies areas that you want them to have heart transformation and
make a shift in their lives.
I thank you that you would remove chains and bondages in greater ways this week.
We thank you for supernatural breakthroughs and healing in Jesus name.
God bless you all.
Have an amazing night, everyone.
Bye.