All right, welcome.
We are here tonight for another heart check-in.
It's so good to see you.
My name's Bethany Cooper.
I'm one of the heart work coaches here
in the group, in the community.
And just a pleasure to get to know those of you
that are joining us for the first time.
If you've never been to a live heart check-in,
can you raise your digital hand
or put something in the chat so I can see who you are
so that we can welcome you.
All right, Shawnee, welcome.
That's awesome, always love.
I know that we are continuing to have people
join our program all the time now.
So that's why, ladies, some of you ask,
do I need to have certain weeks' work done
before I can come to a heart check-in?
You come to a heart check-in every single week
that you're a part of this program.
And no matter what, whether you've read that material
or you're on that week or not,
I promise you're still gonna get breakthrough.
God's gonna help you learn and hear and receive
just what you need in that week.
He knew exactly when you were gonna join this program.
Do you know that?
And he planned it perfectly
knowing what we would already be doing.
So praise the Lord.
He is very intentional in everything that he does.
So welcome to our new ladies.
Audrey, welcome.
I see you there too in the chat.
That's awesome.
Do you wanna encourage our new ladies
as well as those that have been here before?
We encourage, if you can,
again, if you can't, it's totally okay,
to come on screen, okay?
So as you see, some of our other ladies
are already on screen.
If you can come on screen, we would love to see you.
This is part of your time to let yourself be seen
by other ladies in the community,
during the teaching time.
I call it teaching.
It's really other things.
But during your breakout and all of the things,
I really believe it's a key part
of the heart work healing process.
I do.
And that's why I say it every single week, you all.
Cause I think for me,
when we struggle with healing on the inside that's needed,
we start shutting down on the outside
in ways that we don't even realize.
And in our culture after COVID,
we do so many things online.
Even team meetings that we've had the last few months,
we've really trying to shift and be intentional
to always turn our cameras on.
Cause we started doing meetings every single week
with our screens off and we didn't even see each other.
We're just talking to the name on the screen, right?
We can hear voices, but when you see someone's face,
doesn't it just make you feel better?
Yeah.
I love seeing you all.
I'm so glad that you're here.
All right.
So for those of you, let me say this too.
For those of you that are watching on replay,
I wanna encourage you to post a picture of yourself
or even those of you that are live,
post a picture of yourself this week in the group
and say, hey, hi,
this is the revelations God has given me this week.
This is what God is speaking to me about this week.
It's really delightful for you all
to start making connections to names and faces.
And this is your sister squad.
Some of you don't realize that's what this group is.
What that means to us in this community
is that the women in the group that you're in right now
that are on the healing journey with you,
some of you may become very close friends
if you'll allow yourself to.
And some of you might end up in each other's weddings.
I know there are people that you don't even know right now.
It seems crazy, but that is exactly what's happened
time and time again in this community.
I actually was in the wedding of one of the ladies
that is in our phase two coaching.
When y'all get there, you'll meet Carla.
Carla and I had never met before
when we came into this program.
And we both were in the same bootcamp, same healing group.
And then we both went to Austin
as a part of a community thing with this community
at the same time, we ended up staying in the same room
and we became close friends.
And I had the pleasure of being in her wedding
and watching her get married and all of the things.
So you just never know who you might meet in this community
that will be a part of your tomorrows.
All right, what I encourage you all,
for those of you that have been on any of our
all community events like Supernatural Saturday
or Sunday night when we did the prophetic night,
or even if you listen to the replays,
Jackie's been talking about some of the things
that we're rolling out.
And I just wanna make sure everyone's on the same page.
When she talks about spirit mate match,
that is something that we're working on launching.
That is not for phase one, okay?
And I don't want anyone to feel like you're gonna miss out
because you won't, I promise, okay?
This is gonna take a while for us
to get everybody into the program.
We have like 850 ladies in phase three, you all.
It's gonna take us a little while.
And the other aspect here is this,
is that we don't want you to fly through your heart healing,
trying to get to the next phase to get over there.
do that because you're going to miss really what you need to have happen here and you
all, what will happen during heartwork.
I really believe if you all will really let God do what he wants to do during this time,
it will revolutionize your life.
And I know that some of you have done healing programs before and you're like, yeah, I've
done stuff.
I don't even know if this is going to really do anything for me, but I felt like I should
try it just in case.
I believe that you are going to experience transformation in a really supernatural, beautiful
way.
So I encourage you all just to get excited about that for down the road, you know, tuck
it away.
Know that that's there, but don't let it get you like into FOMO.
Okay.
Um, God knows exactly when you need to be over there doing that as well.
Um, and then also the affiliate stuff, all of those things that she's talking about,
we will communicate that all to you all in your groups.
So please just want to remind people, don't email us and ask us about those things.
And don't, don't worry about it or get too caught up in it.
It's a very exciting stuff, but it's not the primary thing for you all in phase one right
now.
Okay.
Phase one is you healing and getting to focus on yourself and let God do amazing things
in you.
All right.
So this week we are going to be talking tonight.
I'm saying this week, but tonight we're going to be talking about forgiveness and princesses
awakening.
Um, so I know last week got a little heavy repentance and confession can be just one
of those weeks where, man, it goes deep, doesn't it?
But I want you to know, um, I really felt led this week to combine forgiveness, which
can also be heavy with something very uplifting and awakening and hopeful princesses awakening.
That's you.
So when I'm saying that, that means you, you awakening to all the amazing things God has
for you.
So let me pray for us.
Thank you so much for your goodness, your kindness, your gentleness, your faithfulness,
God, that you are the yes.
And amen.
You are the alpha and the Omega God.
You are the Prince of peace, God Almighty, the maker and creator of heaven and earth.
Nothing is too hard for you.
And you are not a man that you should lie.
Thank you God for every woman that you've drawn into this community, into the heart
healing process for such a time as this God, I thank you for the plans and the promises
that you have for them.
I thank you that you would just bring anything out of darkness into light tonight so that
there could be healing and redemptive work happening in this place.
Yes, Lord, I believe just even right now, I heard you say in the spirit that this is
Holy ground.
And I believe you when you say that, but this is a Holy ground.
It's Holy territory, Holy spirit.
We ask you to come.
We invite you here.
We ask you to have your way in our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits, and souls.
Lord, if we are even in our own way in any way tonight, I pray that you would help us
to get out of our own way so that we can hear you, experience you, understand the kingdom
of heaven in our mind in a fresh way, that we would know you more as love, that we would
leave the past behind and look forward and embrace the new that you have for us.
We thank you for it in advance in Jesus name, amen.
So tonight I want to talk about forgiveness.
I want to start off there.
A lot of times, some of you have been here for a while, so you've heard this a couple
different times.
I'm going to talk about the tether ball.
Where's my Laura?
Laura's heard about the tether ball, haven't you, Laura?
But yeah, so I'm going to talk about the tether ball game.
For some of you, you might be way younger than me.
Some of you may have not had this on your playgrounds, but we played tether ball in
my school.
And tether ball was this game where the ball was attached to a pole by a rope.
And we would just stand there, it'd be like typically one or two kids, maybe three, and
you just hit this ball back and forth to each other.
And I don't even remember how you win the game, but I just remember playing the game.
But the ball, at the end of the day, at some point, the only way it could come off that
pole was when the person that was responsible for the outdoor equipment would go and remove
this ball, right?
So I'm telling you this because I want you to imagine you are the ball.
And the enemy is the one standing there hitting you back and forth and back and forth.
With what?
Unforgiveness.
Okay?
I want you to think about the trap of unforgiveness, bitterness, resentment.
Sometimes we get into anger, wrath, and malice in our hearts in ways that we don't even know
it's there because it's underneath the surface.
It's brewing.
It's brewing under there.
And then sometimes it just, yeah.
It does, it comes right up out like a volcano.
For some of us, there's a lot of shame
that some of you experience
because you have anger outburst.
I'm just hearing that in the spirit.
And the Lord doesn't want you to stay there.
The reason that those anger outbursts are happening
is because underneath the surface,
and there's a lot of emotions under this,
but two of the big ones are sadness and frustration,
disappointment comes to mind.
Y'all, that's all underneath of anger,
but it's all linked to unforgiveness as well, typically.
Sometimes we feel anger because of injustice too.
So I just wanna keep some balance there, right?
Because injustice, we feel anger
about things that are being done to us
or other people that are not just.
Okay, so now here, think about this.
God wants to take you off that pole
because he doesn't want you to get kicked around
by the devil anymore because of unforgiveness.
When we forgive other people,
we are releasing them in the spirit realm,
but we are also releasing ourselves.
Okay, do y'all understand?
Like when we forgive, it's not saying,
okay, what you did is okay.
It's just saying, I choose in the spirit realm right now,
I choose to release you and let you go
from this harm that you've done to me.
And God, I trust you to take care of this on my behalf.
That's what it's saying.
So I want you to imagine if you were wearing sunglasses,
I said to this afternoon,
I was gonna remember to bring my sunglasses tonight
and I forgot again.
Let's see, I see Audrey has sunglasses on.
She's gonna be my demonstration right now, okay?
I was so busy this afternoon
I forgot to get him out again, but she's my demonstration.
She looks lovely, doesn't she?
Hi, Audrey.
All right, so she's walking,
she's got these sunglasses on, right?
It looks like she's in the sunshine,
but sometimes y'all, the reason I wanna use sunglasses
is because I feel like it's a real,
like when you put sunglasses on in the next few days,
you're gonna be thinking about this a little bit, I think.
If it sinks in, good.
When we put these sunglasses on,
we see the world differently, don't we?
The colors, depending on what kind of sunglasses you have.
If you have sunglasses where it really protects you
from the UV rays, I put my sunglasses on
and it makes a bunch of stuff, not everything,
but a bunch of stuff look pink or orange.
My husband was like, the one day we just went away
for this weekend trip recently.
And I was like, man, do you see all that orange
over there in the clouds?
He's like, what are you talking about?
I wasn't even thinking about it, I had my sunglasses on.
I was like, in the clouds, don't you see that over there?
He was like, I don't see any orange, it's white.
And I was like, what?
Well, then I lowered my sunglasses and it was white,
you all, it was a white gray something.
It was not orange, but I was seeing orange.
Now that's kind of a funny analogy,
but here's why I want to make that connection.
When we have brokenness, blind spots and filters,
hence the sunglasses, so to speak,
they cause us to see other people differently.
They cause us to interact with other people differently
and it impacts our ability to truly connect.
Now I want you to kind of differentiate the difference
between interacting with people and connecting.
Two different things, you all.
I can walk into a room and interact with you
and say, hello, how are you?
But then I can take that a little bit deeper.
How are you doing after your mom passed away?
Or your kids went back to school this week,
how's that going?
Or your mom, your kid went away to college.
You know, I'm connecting
and I'm building relationship with you.
And hopefully I'm at some point gaining trust
and respect and love in that connection, right?
Well, if we have unforgiveness, here's the reality.
We go around and we connect with a lot of people
in the interaction level,
but we struggle to connect, don't we?
Sometimes we will still connect with maybe one or two,
a handful at most people.
But if anybody reminds us remotely of those people
that hurt us, we're like, nope.
Like you can't come in too close.
We hold people at an arm's length.
So I want you to consider the fact
that when you have unforgiveness in your heart
in any way towards anyone, I'm sorry, I panicked.
I thought I wasn't recording there for a minute.
That it is causing you to not experience the fullness of what God has for you in relationships
with other people in community on any level, as well as here's the kicker with yourself as well.
Last night, Jackie talked briefly at the beginning of our prophetic night when you,
if you weren't able to join us live, totally fine. If you're able to catch the replay,
awesome. But she talked at the beginning about this is a season where our community is going
back to school. She really believes that God is calling a lot of us back to school in a lot of
different ways, but primarily growing closer to him, going back to school to grow deeper with God.
And then she said this with ourselves and with other people.
In the book, it talks briefly about blind spots and filters. I want to read something really quick
to you all. It says this, when you, this happens so often to all of us in life, we can't see that
bomb was already there inside of us waiting for the trigger. Let me tell you something. When you
walk into any situation, it doesn't matter what it is, bad or good. You don't see that thing,
that place, those people, the way that they are. You see them the way that you would see them.
You are on the inside. I'm going to read that again. She says, let me say that again.
So you can really get ahold of it. We don't see things the way they truly are. We see them the
way that we are on the inside. So that's kind of why I was making the analogy of the sunglasses.
So I want you to be asking the Lord, as I continue in this, like, what are the sunglasses,
if you will, on my heart, what are the lenses that I'm looking at everybody and everything
through the way that I hear stuff, receive stuff. If you hear, like even during coaching sessions,
if you tend to hear a lot of thoughts of shame and guilt and condemnation,
that is from the enemy. And there is a lens that's covering your heart. That's telling you,
you're not good enough. There's healing that needs to happen so that you don't continue to
believe and receive everything that's said through those lenses. She goes on in the book. She says,
for instance, say you were severely hurt by a group of people. They mistreated you,
lied about you, and then discarded you. The heart wounds and lies that were created as a result of
that trauma will give you a skewed perception of groups in the future. You might even avoid groups
or communities of people like the plague, convincing yourself that they are all bad.
So instead of communities, let's insert men, right? If you're hurt by men, some of you might
decide to avoid men like the plague and decide that all men are bad. And even if you
enter relationships, some of you in your hearts really don't like men. You want a relationship,
but you don't like men. And there's no judgment or shame because God knows how you got there in
your heart. He wants to help you. She goes on or you might try again to search for community.
But if you decide to join a similar group in the future, your most significant obstacle to
belonging will be the filter that was created by your prior experience. Okay. So if you have a
piece of paper with you, I want to encourage you, like, if anything's coming up for you right now,
a previous hurt that's coming up in your heart or your spirit, I just want you, or even if you don't
hear it right now, if there's something that comes up as I continue, I want you to write that down
because I don't want you to forget about it because this is how the Holy Spirit reveals
things for healing. You'll hear something, there'll be a whisper, a memory will pop up, or a thought
will happen. And I want to encourage you to lean into those and hear what the Spirit is saying.
Matthew 22 39 says, love your neighbor as you love yourself. So how do we love our neighbors?
If we don't even love ourselves, I talked earlier today a little bit about how many people
I come into contact with that really don't like themselves, like at all, and don't enjoy their
own company. So then they're going and trying to hang out with other people and they're feeling
just discomfort the whole time because they're uncomfortable in their own skin.
And maybe that's not you, but maybe you're the person that looks in the mirror and you just
constantly say mean things to yourself, or about yourself, or I'm so stupid, why did I even think
of that, or I know this. Okay, raise a hand. Who's
Who in this room has ever started a sentence like this?
I know this is gonna sound stupid, but,
and then whatever your sentence is.
Anyone else ever said that?
I think a lot of us.
More of you than realize it right now.
Maybe your phrase is different.
Yes, a lot of us.
Why do we do that?
Where did that thought even come from
that what we're about to say is stupid?
I want you to ask yourself that this week.
Where does that word show up for you?
And again, maybe the word isn't stupid.
Maybe it's something else.
Silly, feeling bad for feeling shy.
You know, these things that we've lived
with our entire lives.
Some of you, since you were kids,
and you don't even understand or realize
that someone said something to you along the way
and you believed them, and now you're living that out.
But that isn't who God originally created you to be.
Forgiveness is not a feeling, it's a choice.
Do you know that some of you, when you choose to forgive,
you're not gonna feel anything at all?
You're not gonna feel tingly.
You're not gonna feel excited.
It's actually gonna feel pretty like nothing.
Like nothing is gonna feel,
like you're not gonna feel this huge shift.
Now, sometimes, yes, you all, that happens.
There's this beautiful spiritual experience
and you feel a release and it's amazing,
but sometimes it's not like that at all.
And I've coached long enough to know
that some of you all are gonna have the big experience
and some of you aren't.
You're not gonna have all those big feelings.
And then you start to compare yourself to someone else.
Well, wait a minute, I don't feel that.
What's wrong with me?
Am I doing this wrong?
Am I not forgiven right?
No, you are, it's just, you gotta walk it out.
And sometimes we just don't feel it in our body,
but it is happening in the supernatural realm.
So your choice to forgive makes a difference
every time you make it.
Okay, I'm gonna read another thing to you.
It says here, when you think of forgiveness as a feeling,
this is what you will do through your whole healing process.
You will forgive and take it back,
forgive and take it back
because you're waiting for that feeling to arrive.
You're waiting for there to be this release
and it's like, oh wait, I changed my mind.
I don't feel good about that person right now.
So they did something else.
And so I'm gonna take my forgiveness back.
Y'all, some of us have had to forgive 70 times seven, huh?
Anybody?
I was in a situation even recently,
I don't know if I even told you all this last week,
my spiritual daughters talk about them all the time.
I love them.
Praise you Lord that they're in my life.
I do, I love them like crazy.
And their dad got so drunk recently,
they were taking care of him.
Like literally he could not function.
And I was pretty angry about that.
But I've learned how to understand that in his brokenness,
he is making unhealthy choices.
And it breaks my heart that my girls
have to go through the things they do
with their biological parents.
But I know that God saved me from so many things
and he rescued me and he's cleaned my heart up
and he has me.
I'm not perfect you all, but man, I get to do this.
I get to come here every week
and share the knowledge that I have,
the experience that I have and hope and believe
for other people to be set free and see it happen.
That's incredible, right?
So if God can do it for me, he can do it for them
and he can do it for you, right?
He can clean up our messes way better
than we could ever imagine it.
I want you to understand that true forgiveness
is a supernatural debt canceling transaction.
How many people in here tonight with a raise of hands
need forgiveness?
Anybody in here need forgiveness?
Let me see you.
Who needs forgiveness?
I do too.
Let's raise my hand.
Sometimes when we're walking in our Christian walk,
we may not do the same sin or choose the same sin
that we used to before.
And so sometimes we get into heart postures
that we think that we're better than other people.
Whether we'll acknowledge that or not,
without even realizing it, pride creeps into our hearts
and sometimes we just need to pause
and really think about all that we've been forgiven of.
Right?
I want you all to think about, and I'm not saying this to shame anyone or make you feel
bad, but it helps us remember all of the goodness that God has shown to us.
When we refuse to forgive, it keeps us in a victim identity longer, okay?
It actually will tether you to the trauma.
It chains you to the hurt, the abuse, whatever the situation was.
That's why I brought up the tether earlier.
When we choose unforgiveness or don't choose to forgive, we remain tethered to that person
in those situations.
So when you think about that, imagine you were chained to the person who hurt you.
Not a good feeling, is it?
No.
Man, I'm like, get me out of here.
I don't want to be tied to those people anymore.
So I want to encourage you to also think on, like for some of you tonight, you just need
to think back on the cross when you first gave your life to Christ and how amazing that
felt and how freeing that felt.
And just ask God to give you the grace and the courage to forgive other people.
Through the empowerment of what has already been given to you.
Do you know that you will not have to forgive on your end, that God's grace can enable you?
Again, you're not going to maybe feel it's a choice, but God's spirit can enable you
to do so.
Ephesians 4.23 says, forgive one another just as God forgave you because of what Christ
has done.
Colossians 3.13 says, remember the Lord forgave you, so you must also forgive others.
You want to forgive all of the characters who played a role in the story.
Okay.
So what I mean by that is if what comes to mind is, let's say you were in high school
and there were a group of girls bullying you, but the main bully is the one that you've
kind of focused on.
Maybe you've already forgiven her, but maybe you didn't forgive the other girls that were
playing a role there.
I didn't come up earlier at all today.
So I believe that's for someone.
I don't know if you were bullied or picked on, maybe it was even elementary school.
Maybe it wasn't high school, but I believe God wants you to forgive all the characters
that played a role in that story.
Maybe for some of you, your ex, your husband, you've worked through forgiveness regarding
him, but maybe there's family members or you get what I'm saying.
Maybe you do have to forgive that main person still.
Maybe there's another layer.
And I want to encourage you all, I try to always remind you that forgiveness is in layers
because sometimes people feel like, at least this is how I felt way back when, when I had
already forgiven my brothers, when I had already forgiven my dad or my mom for the thing, those
were the main people in my life that I had to really work on multiple times.
And I remember thinking like, man, I already worked on this before.
Like God, I thought I already forgave them.
Why is this coming back up again?
And God just started showing me that healing happens in layers.
Forgiveness happens in layers.
Sometimes I'll journey down the road and I'll see the same situation, but I'll have a little
bit more revelation about what happened there or how I felt or the way I was treated.
And I didn't remember this other thing that happened that was kind of connected to the
timeframe of things that were happening.
But back then when I dealt with it, well, I didn't remember this thing over here.
So now it feels like it's connected to all this, but really it's a new piece, right?
So I want to encourage you all just to be willing to take a peek up under the hood.
If the Lord is bringing something back up that you've dealt with before, I don't want
you to panic and worry that you're going to have to go all the way back through that thing
unless the Lord leads you there.
This is why revealing for healing is so important.
You're trusting the Lord to reveal what needs healed.
Okay.
Super important.
Healing takes time.
I'm seeing a couple of hands go up.
Do y'all have questions or are you just practicing?
April, do you have a question?
Oh, go ahead.
I can't hear you.
Okay.
Sorry, this is only my second meeting.
I'm still learning.
It's all right.
Regarding forgiveness, I feel like I can forgive.
But like, how do you forget, because that's, that's the part I struggle with, you know, like I speaking of high school, so just a short story, my best friend that I thought I, I thought she was my best friend all through high school.
I have a disability rheumatoid arthritis, and she ended up telling me the week before we graduated high school that she didn't want to be my friend anymore.
And then on our graduation ceremony, she received an award kind of for basically doing me a favor by being my friend is what it came across to me, like, and I have forgiven her but I cannot, I can't, I can't forget.
And I know that it has affected me, you know, I graduated in 2000. And it has affected me as far as like I, I have a hard time getting close and letting having another close friend because that's, that's, that's how, you know, it hurts so bad.
So, I feel like I forgiven her but I can't seem all these years to forget it.
Okay, so what's really important here is you're not necessarily going to forget what happened. Okay. Sometimes, yeah, you'll, you'll get down the road and it'll feel like you live a whole different life, you know, at some point from that thing.
But typically what happens from my experience is when, when, let me think about it this way, I'll describe it this way. If you think about, this is just the idea that's coming to my mind, like if a lion got a thorn in its paw, or a dog or whatever, it feels that thorn there, right?
Well, until that thorn is taken out, that situation is going to feel that thing is going to feel very painful, right? But even after that thorn is taken out, depending on the depth of the wound, if the if it's a deeper cut, there's a scar in there, isn't there?
Well, that scar typically isn't going to go away. It's going to be there, but it can heal over time. And the level of healing can increase the more the time goes on in that sense. Now, in our heart healing process, what typically I have come to know is that, again, if we have forgiven parts of that,
but maybe there's another piece that we need God to reveal to help us move on and release, maybe it's what's coming up in my spirit. Sometimes it's forgiving ourselves. Like I know when I have felt betrayed by a friend before, sometimes I'm kind of like, how did I not see that coming?
And I would get like, I felt mad at myself or even like with the girl's dad, like he was cheating on me all the time with multiple people. Y'all, I didn't, I knew something was off, but I had no clue that was going on. And I felt so foolish and ashamed. And I just got really like, I had unforgiveness even towards myself.
I felt like I should have known better. I should have caught on to that. And so sometimes that's the thing that's holding people back from being able to move forward.
So I believe God will show you in the next few weeks, since you're just in your second week, you're just kind of on the cusp of getting started in this heart healing process. So just be asking the Lord. That's a great question to say, Lord, you know, this situation keeps coming up for me.
Show me what I need to understand to heal in the areas that are needed so I can move forward and be free from this thing.
It does. And I'm glad you brought up the forgiving yourself. And like, you brought up a good point because there were signs that I was, I was just really young and just, you know, trusting people and, you know, I just didn't know any better at that time.
So there were signs that I ignored that, you know, I, yeah, that I maybe wouldn't have been so hurt if I would have paid attention to that. So that is a part of it where I feel like, you know, don't be so foolish and pay attention to, you know, yeah.
Yeah, that's so good. April, thank you so much for sharing. Y'all, it's really important to give a lot of grace to yourself and forgive and release. I'm going to mute you April because I'm going to start to make a shift to release yourselves from the chains that you have even put on.
on yourself at times. And here's the truth that you all need to
remember is we didn't know what we didn't know. Until we know
it. We can't go back and change yesterday. But we can we can
hear what God is saying today and move forward. And praise
God like you all are here. And you're learning and you're
growing and you're investing in your own heart healing and
health. And that is incredible. So you can change your tomorrows
with the Lord. And I want to encourage you all as I prepare
you for your breakout sessions, I'm not going to read the whole
prayer, but I want to just encourage you to in your books.
Even those of you that are not on this week, in your book, not
read the chapter, but I just want you this week to I'm going
to look to tell you the chapter, the page number will be
different for you. But in chapter 11 of your ebook, there
is a prayer that's called the forgiveness prayer. Okay. And
it's, I'm just basically going to read it to you as an example.
I'm going to read you her example version as you're
preparing your hearts. For who is it? This is going to be the
question when you go into breakout, who do you need to
forgive tonight? And why? And even if you've done this
breakout before, I want to encourage you to ask the Lord,
is there anybody new that's come into your mind tonight that
God is revealing to you? This is the prayer in the book, dear
Heavenly Father, in the name of the Lord Jesus, I purpose and
choose to forgive my father for abandoning our family. Again,
this is her example. I release my father, I cancel their debts
and obligations to me in this issue. Dear Lord, I ask you to
forgive me for my bitterness towards my father in this
situation. In the name of Jesus, I cancel all Satan's power and
authority over me in this issue, because I have forgiven them and
God has forgiven me. It is done and over. Holy Spirit, please
come and heal my heart and tell me your truth about this
situation. So you can put whoever the person is for you in
those slots, whatever it is that they did to you, and partner
those truths and ask God to continue to give you revelation
so that you can be set free. All right, I'm going to get your
breakout rooms ready. I'm excited for you all to go in for
those that have never done breakout sessions. Basically, I'm
going to set it up here digitally. And I'm going to push
a button and there will be a pop up for you to join the room,
you're going to be in there with people you've never met before,
just get to know each other. It'll be really good. And I
always encourage you all to take a risk, get out of your
comfort zone and open up and just see man what God wants to
do in your conversations. Okay, I'm praying for you all. If you
can't go into breakouts, that's fine. If you get into a room and
nobody else is in there yet, please wait because I'll get you
situated. Okay, I won't leave you there by yourself alone for
long. Here you go. Okay, so who do you need to forgive tonight
and why? Go ahead and click to join those rooms. Oh, I didn't
do it yet. Sorry. Here you go. Click to join those rooms. All
right, join, join, join.
All right, Father, we just thank you right now for everything
that you're doing in the hearts and the minds and the bodies and
spirits and souls of every lady that's a part of this live
session tonight, as well as those that are watching the
replay, or we thank you even for your goodness and your mercy
that's new every morning. As I was praying earlier, we thank
you for redeeming and restoring our lives, for rebuilding us
from the fallen ashes and the rubble and the mess. And we
thank you that you are making all things new in your perfect
timing. We thank you, God, for transforming us by the renewing
of our minds that all things have passed away. And behold,
everything has become new and new. I thank you that the words
that have been said over us by other people are null and void.
Your voice is the one that we need to listen to. You're the
identity giver. I thank you, God, that you are coming in and
just speaking truth and love to your daughters tonight. I
thank you that you're helping us to hear what your spirit is
saying louder than any voice of the enemy. I thank you that your
word declares that you will shut the mouths of the lion's high
sky. Are you just joining us? Or did you get kicked out? Oh.
Thank you, Lord, for your truth for your revelation power.
I thank you, God, that you are continuing to give us higher understanding and revelation of what
the kingdom of heaven looks like, feels like. I thank you that you would help us, Lord, to lean
into your truth, that we would stay alert and watch out for our great enemy, the devil. He is
the one that prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking those in whom he might devour. But we
thank you, God, for your hedge of protection around us, that you are guiding us into all
truth and anointing us for all of our lives and walking, calling and leading us deeper into Jesus
today. I thank you that we will, that Jesus yourself, you said, I will not speak with you
much longer for the ruler of the world, Satan is coming and he has no claim on me, no power over me
nor anything that he can use against me. Ladies, that is a revelation, powerful insight that
nothing, no power, Satan has no power over Jesus Christ. Therefore, the same power that rose Jesus
Christ from the dead that's living in us and operating through those of us that have accepted
Jesus as our Lord and Savior, it's setting us free, it's transforming our lives, it can change
any darkness into the light. When light comes into a room, darkness cannot exist there at all. All
darkness has to flee in Jesus name. I also just feel led to read this part, it says, forgiveness has
yet another benefit and that is protecting you from the enemy's future plans and plots against
you. While he is disempowered by what Jesus did on the cross, we can re-empower him through our
unwillingness to forgive. We give the enemy, Satan, legal access to our lives when we hold grudges,
nurture anger, harbor resentment, or cultivate bitterness through unforgiveness. Ladies, you might
hear me read this to the ladies again in the future if you are watching the replay right now.
That's so good, I've got to bring that back to them here in a little bit. Ephesians 4 27 says, do not give
place to the enemy, don't give him legal access to your life and your family, do not give the devil
an opportunity to lead you into sin by holding a grudge or nurturing anger or harboring resentment
or cultivating bitterness. I thank you Jesus for the power of your blood that comes and we lose
every, I'm sorry, and we choose this night to bind every spirit of unforgiveness, every spirit of
bitterness, wrath, anger, malice, outbursts of rage, violence, murder, retaliation, hatred, self-hatred,
self-loathing, self-pity in Jesus name. And we loosen them in the name of Jesus Christ and by
the power of your blood, a spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind, a spirit of forgiveness,
a spirit of reconciliation, a spirit of healing, a spirit of peace in Jesus name over you and your
family. We thank you Lord that you bestow on us a crown of beauty instead of ashes. That's from
Isaiah 61 3 ladies. God is giving us a crown of beauty instead of ashes. I want to encourage you
just to lean into that thought of if you can imagine in your mind's eye like what would it be
like to to really consider being a princess in a kingdom where there's a castle and you're coming
before the king and he's crowning you and he's restoring you and placing you in your proper
place in the royal kingdom and that is what's happening for you in the spirit realm. Jesus is
saying come and be set free tonight and in the days ahead. It is up to us to partner with the truth
to partner with everything that God has for us.
Psalms 51 10 says create in me a clean heart oh God and renew a steadfast spirit within us. Lord I
thank you that even right now that you would soften hardened stony hearts any area of our
heart that is not soft and pliable to you. I thank you that you would remove those parts of our hearts
and we give you permission tonight to come in and till the soil of our hearts
so that we can get closer to you Jesus. Ladies just a reminder that God sent his son Jesus to
die on the cross for our sins so that we could be forgiven so that we could be healed and redeemed
and set free but also so that we could be in relationship with Jesus Christ as he's in
relationship with the father and with the holy spirit. So because of Jesus's sacrifice
we have the ability to enter relationship. Hi Shirai can you hear me?
Yes I can hear you. Okay awesome I'm going to put you in your breakout. I think you were
your connection was a little um sticky there. They're still talking about forgiveness. Here you go.
Okay
Thanks. Uh huh. So we just continue Lord in that heart
posture of surrender, that you would help us Lord tonight to
surrender the pain of the past, and to trust Lord that you're
going to turn all of our pain into purpose, when we trust that
all into your hands. So even the conversations that were
happening before they went into breakouts, or even now ladies
that are hearing your voice, Lord, I thank you that you would
help them to hear what your spirit is saying in a fresh way.
Hi, Nicole. They're they have like a minute and 30 seconds
left in this breakout. They're talking about forgiveness. Do
you want me to put you in a room anyways?
No, I'm okay. I'll just wait. Okay. Thank you.
Yeah, you're welcome there. They'll be back soon.
All right. Sorry, I had to jump off the call earlier this
afternoon. I had a call.
It's totally fine. It's we went we went long. It's it's totally
great that you're back. I'm just praying for everybody and
stuff. Yeah, watch the replay. So and so Lord, we just thank
you. I think where I was going with that is that just that
heart attitude of surrender. God, people that you're bringing
to our minds Lord, that we're not saying it's okay that what
they did. But we're saying that we choose forgiveness that we
would choose to see them through your eyes. See situations
through your eyes. And that doesn't mean we have to come
into close contact with them or be in close relationship. Unless
that is where really where you lead Lord, but Lord that our
hearts would be the key here, that we would be willing to be
made willing to forgive, to choose life to choose hope to
choose the higher road. Lord, your word declares that your
ways are above our ways and your thoughts are above our thoughts.
So Lord help us tonight to have a little bit more heavenly
perspective a little bit more heavenly understanding of what
your plan and your purposes for our lives as well as the lives
of those around us. We thank you that you'll help us to release
those that have harmed us. And just even right now I'm just
seeing I don't know, sometimes I see funny things, but I just
have to speak them out because I never know who's going to
minister to I just saw someone on a little bike and another
kid coming up and pushing the kid off the bike. So Lord, I
don't know who that's for. I just thank you Lord that even as
little kids when we are wounded, maybe it was a sibling that
pushed the kid off the bike. Lord, I thank you that you'll
help us to forgive those that have harmed us in any ways. And
maybe even the that image, I feel like that could also
represent dreams and ideas that we had as children or even child
likeness that we had that was pushed and stolen, you know,
it's pushed away and stolen by the enemy forcefully. And so
Lord, we just thank you that you would help us to come into
unity with where you're leading us that you would awaken us to
new dreams to new understanding to new revelation. Lord, I thank
you that you would help us to come a little closer to your
heart that we would open the door and let you come in. I
thank you that your word declares in 20, Revelation 21,
four, he will wipe away every tear from their eyes and
eliminate death entirely. No one will mourn or weep any longer
the pain of wounds will no longer exist for the old order
has passed. Oh, that's awesome. That's a good word. Welcome
back. Um, I want someone or a couple people to get ready to
share. We're not going to do a lot of coaching right now. I
want a couple people just to share openly. I know it can be
tough, but what you share tonight about who you're
choosing to forgive might help other people break free. Okay.
So I want to encourage you in that I want to read one more
thing to you. It says this forgiveness has yet another
benefit, and that is protecting you from the enemy's future
plans and plots against you. While he is disempowered by what
Jesus did on the cross, we can re-empower him through our
unwillingness to forgive. We give the enemy legal access to
our lives when we hold grudges, nurture anger, harbor resentment
or cultivate bitterness through unforgiveness. Okay, so just I
came across that while I was praying and I was like, Oh my
gosh, that's really good. Um, so who is willing to share with
the whole group who you are forgiving tonight? Awesome.
Shirai, go ahead.
The minute you said, uh, unforgiveness, um, I immediately
the first thing that came to my head was my name.
Okay. Do you want to tell us what you're forgiving yourself
for tonight?
Um, I just feel like I've been really foolish in my relationships with men, as far as like
changing who I am to fit them, so that I wouldn't be by myself.
I think I blamed myself a long time for my sexual assault when I was 16 years old.
So it's a, and I think that, excuse me, I think because of that, I put on a whole bunch
of weight over the years and haven't been able to like, really let it let let it go.
Because of all of that, like I've hidden underneath my, my weight, not purposely, I guess, but
this is so good.
Right.
I'm so proud of you for sharing.
This is awesome.
So okay, when I want to ask you something, the question Stephanie K is who are you choosing
to forgive tonight and why?
When you said about foolish in relationships with men, the first like popped up right away,
when is the first time you feel like you made a decision to be foolish with men?
When's the first time that comes to mind?
I definitely think it was with my, my first, the first relationship I ever had.
Um, my mom warned me, I met him on key harmony.
Um, we dated for almost three years and I thought he was the person I was going to marry.
Um, I had never had sex outside of marriage or anything like that.
And I, and I excused myself from that because I thought I was going to marry him.
And I, and it didn't end up happening that way.
And he in fact, less than six months after we broke up, he was engaged to someone else.
And so I just feel, I guess I've carried that, I know I've carried that for a long
time that I just feel foolish for like giving myself away and, and, and, and going against
my own, my own values that I had, that I had that, that I had treasured since a teenager
that I, you know, because I didn't, because I thought that he was, I thought he was the
one I was going to marry and it didn't, and it didn't end up happening that way.
And I've, it hurt, that hurt a lot.
So I'm going to walk through, yeah, so I'm going to walk you through something right
now.
I've never done this, but I feel like I need to do this with you right now.
So Shirai, I encourage you right now just to say, Shirai, I forgive you.
It's so hard.
Shirai, I forgive you.
It's a choice, ladies.
It's a choice.
I also feel like it's super important to say that when we are sexually assaulted under,
you know, at any point, okay, at any point, it's not our fault, sexual assault, right?
When you are under the age of 18, like you all, why, why are people blaming themselves
and taking responsibility upon themselves for that?
That's the enemy trying to tell you, you were at fault and responsible for something that
was not your fault.
Super important to not take that responsibility on yourself.
Shirai, I think God also, I felt really specifically like you needed to hear your own name and
say, I forgive you again, remember forgiveness is not a feeling you might not feel it fully,
but it's going to happen.
It is happening.
The other thought that I had is that I saw almost like a, you know, we, I kind of encouraged
some of you all that have been here for a few weeks to do the silhouette and that whole
exercise.
But specifically Shirai, I want you to kind of tonight when you go home, it doesn't have
to be a whole silhouette.
Literally just draw an outline of your, like a head, like whatever you think your head
looks like.
You do a little side pony, whatever, but like literally write the word.
Cause it's not going to stay here.
So when I say this, don't everyone don't let me lose you.
I want you to write the first one.
I want you to write foolish across the top of your head, but then I want you to put a
big old X through that.
And I want you to create another silhouette and I want you to fill it with the truth.
Again, this doesn't have to be an actual artist picture.
Ladies.
If y'all get caught up in that, you'll never do these activations.
But if some of you will do these activations, they will be the thing that like, it's going
to make everything connect for you.
And you're going to be set free from things that you have battled your entire lives.
She's sitting here telling herself in a sense, I'm foolish.
I'm foolish.
Mom told me, no, I kept going.
I went against my own values.
And so I feel foolish, but she's not foolish.
She didn't know what she didn't know back then.
Yes, sometimes we do God's, God's warning us, you all God warned me in that prior relationship
too.
And I did, I felt foolish, but that doesn't mean I was not smart or that I was a foolish
person.
I just made a foolish decision.
Do you see the difference?
There's a difference between making a foolish decision and me claiming foolish me, Bethany
foolish as a part of my identity.
So it's, it's like separate those just like the enemy wants you to just believe that you're
not a value that you can never make a good choice ever again, because you made a mistake
and maybe you made a mistake more than once.
Therefore you are foolish.
It's an identity statement.
Okay.
So maybe your word isn't foolish ladies.
Again, earlier came up stupid, whatever that identity word is that the enemy tries to get
you to use to define yourself.
Those are the things that we need to discard and say, okay, yeah, I struggle at times with
making foolish decisions, but I am a daughter of the King.
I am the beloved.
I am loved.
I am cherished.
I am wise.
I can walk in discernment.
I can hear the words of the Lord.
I am his sheep and I hear his voice and I obey all that he tells me to do.
Man, do you, I mean like literally y'all, I didn't use to, to be able to shift that
quick, but as soon as I start doing that, I want to get up in here and shout even myself
when I start talking like that, because I'm partnering with truth where the spirit of
the Lord is, there is freedom.
There is liberty.
The truth is what sets us free.
So tonight, what truth do you need to cling to and let go of these identity statements
that have labeled you and kept you?
I didn't mean to go into that, but I feel like that is so paired with forgiveness tonight
for this group, forgiving yourself and setting yourself free.
I did this earlier today and it's coming back up in my spirit.
So I'm going to do it again.
I want you to close your eyes, all of you, like whoever's willing to trust me, close
your eyes and I want you to imagine yourself sitting inside of a prison cell.
I know it sounds crazy, but I just want you to imagine yourself there, but here's the
kicker.
I want you to see the door open and I want you to see the prison door open right now.
And I want you to hear the voice of the father saying to you, come out.
The door is already open for you.
Jesus died.
His blood was shed so that you could be set free.
So come out, come out of the prison, come out and be free, come and spend time with
me.
Y'all can open your eyes.
I want you to kind of carry that with you this week.
When you're thinking about the areas that you struggle with, you're not always going
to feel like that door's open, but that doesn't mean it's not open.
Okay?
Partnering with the truth is something we have to practice.
So I don't want you to shame yourself if you struggle some days because you're going to,
but that's why you're here in community and we can speak true to you and we can encourage
you and coach you and love you in a safe environment, help you process things that some of you have
never processed so that you can move forward on you.
Go ahead.
I'm sorry.
I just saw your hand.
No worries.
So I I've been working through forgiveness stuff cause that's the week that I'm on, which
has been good.
And I think something that I've kind of realized is as I've been forgiving, there's been a
couple of people where there's just been a lot of stuff surrounding some situations.
Um, you were talking about the filter or the rose or the colored glasses, and that was
even the language I've been using where they, they like colored my view.
And I realized there's been a lot of these different scenarios that I feel like have
almost compounded these beliefs in me or they like, you know, prove they're the evidence
for why I believe what I believe.
believe in. So I, yeah, I basically got to the part where I just, I felt like it is myself,
which the Lord was even speaking to me a couple of weeks ago. And I started to, I haven't
touched that one yet with the forgiveness sheet, maybe because I knew there'd be a lot,
but I'm seeing even some of the things coming up and recognizing it's like forgiving myself
for believing those lies. Um, even for believing, maybe they didn't necessarily intentionally,
you know, do things that they did that would make me not feel good about myself. But it's
like, it just was like another, see, not enough, not enough, not enough. So, cause it was,
yeah, there were, there were different scenarios for different people, but that kind of has
been the, the theme throughout it, like me as I am not enough. And so then I have to
either perform or I have to be perfect or I have to, if I do everything right, then
no one can say that there's anything wrong with me or whatever, but yeah. So I, that's
kind of where I'm getting to is just forgiving myself for believing the lies.
That's so good. And when you were sharing Anya, I was thinking about also in church
context. Okay. Obviously we are, we are a business tree is what Jackie calls it because
we're not fully, we're not people's church, but we're this para ministry that God has
called us and positioned us to bring freedom, you know, to people and it's beautiful. But
the reason I bring it up is that even as you were talking, I was thinking about how this
one time I went up for prayer with my former husband and we were struggling really bad.
And I know when I say this, I want y'all to know, I know my pastor at that time didn't
mean to cause me to like thing. I don't think he intended for me to feel what I felt. So
I was hearing through a heart lens, kind of like what you're saying, like I was never
enough. Um, but basically he would told, you know, he said something to my ex-husband about,
I think loving me more. I don't even fully remember what was said to my ex, but I just
remember him. He's like, and you need to stop striving. And I just felt so condemned, like
in that moment, like, Oh my God, I'm trying so hard to just like make this marriage work,
but I wasn't, I didn't know how to stop doing what he was even saying because my whole life,
I felt like I had to work hard to make every relationship work. I didn't know how, I didn't
know what easy look like. Not that, I mean, all relationships have little things, you
know, but like at that point in my life, all relationships for the most part, except for
like a couple of few ones were hard, hard work, hard, but see, that's the trip. The enemy gets
us up, you know, it gets us to think like, that's the way it is. And so in that moment,
the reason I bring that up in that moment, I re I received so much religious condemnation from
the enemy, not, it wasn't that person. The enemy was the one, the accuser that was causing me to
feel that way because of my past trauma and the lies I believed. So some of you all will have
some shedding of religious beliefs as well, where even if you go to church, you know, and you want
to be married, you're like told you should just be happy being single. Okay. Or whatever it is.
And I want to encourage you all to just continue to breathe through the situations when you're
processing forgiveness on you. It's okay that you're taking some time with that.
Um, God will guide you through every step of the way. I will tell you though. Um,
one of the other things I want to bring up is that avoidance is a self-defense mechanism.
You'll learn that in your week five, it's on that self-preservation technique sheet. Avoidance is
one of the things that we will do when we are trying to self-protect. Okay. So what you kind
of said, you, you kind of said, I feel like this is going to kind of be a bigger one.
So I've been waiting to deal with this, but I'm going to encourage you to go for it.
Yeah. I've been pretty consistent. Okay. Good. Just a long list. So
that's great. So if there's anyone else that gets to that point where you're forgiving and
you're just like, Oh, I can't deal with this.
I got to avoid this one. I can forgive all these people, but I'm going to,
I'm going to wait on that one.
I'm going to encourage you to go right on through that sucker because forgive
them and impress through because the enemy sometimes in the program,
we will lose people in week four because there's one person.
They just do not think they can forgive. I'm serious.
So I don't want to lose you all in this process. Okay.
We want you to stay in the game, stay engaged.
If you get to that point and that is you,
please come into the group and say what's happening. Don't,
don't isolate and get taken out by the enemy. Okay. Super important. All right.
I'm going to shift and talk about our next part because it's,
this is also very important to forgiveness is awakening to the
real us. Who,
who is this real you that we are talking about in this community?
It's your true identity.
So if you can imagine when God was forming you in the womb,
when he breathed life into you and he put dreams in you and he put gifts
in you before any trauma ever entered your
world, that was your true identity.
And so we're asking God daily to show us our true
identity.
When Adam and Eve were in the garden in the beginning,
they didn't know they were naked. Hey, because there was no,
they hadn't sinned yet. They hadn't done,
they were literally walking in the cool of the day, talking with God.
They were in close relationship with him.
And then they went through the whole, you know,
they ate of the fruit and all that. And then they knew they were naked.
And then they hid and then they covered themselves with leaves and the whole
thing. When God comes back on the scene and they're in the garden,
when he comes back on the scene and the story,
his question to them is who told you
that you were naked?
The reason I bring that up right now is some of you,
it's kind of the flip side. Like who told you that you weren't enough?
Who told you that you were not smart? Who told you that, oh,
you're just always shy. She never speaks up.
Who told you that you couldn't, um,
I don't know, become a doctor, that you couldn't write a book,
that you fill in the blank for whatever it is that you feel stuck
in.
Who told you that you were that thing or that you couldn't accomplish
that thing.
It may just be the enemy or it could be someone else's voice long ago
that the enemy used to speak into your life, even little,
like even when we are little kids, you all,
there are people where a sibling pushed them
down and they fell and got hurt.
And they still have trauma or wound connected to that.
And they just didn't know it. There's so many things.
God doesn't want you to live under the rubble and the mess of the world or
your life or the circumstances that you've been through the bad choices that we
all have made along the way.
He wants you to come into your true identity. You are a supernova.
What the heck does that mean?
That means that you are carrying something that can absolutely
change the world.
You are a supernova. Some of you are like, wait, I don't even know.
I said this today and some people chuckled, but this is, this is true.
I don't even know if I want to change the world.
I don't know if I want to be a supernova. Let's just be real.
Sometimes that feels real big, doesn't it? And scary,
but this is the reality.
Sometimes changing the world is one person at a time.
There's all different ways to change the world. It's one conversation.
It's one kind word. You know, I never, I won't say,
I never thought I would impact a lot of people, but I,
I didn't envision years ago what I'm doing right now.
Does that make sense? Like I, when people would say,
there would be this part of me that like the first time someone spoke a word
over me and prayed and they said that I would be used to reach the nations.
I do remember in that moment, like, what the heck are they talking about?
Like, I know like 40 people, you know,
like you're in this at the time I was in the small church, I had, you know,
only been saved for maybe a handful of years at that point.
And I just remember thinking that is just what,
I don't, I don't know about that, you know, but,
but there was enough of this, like, wait, like, God, could that,
could that happen? Not because I wanted to be famous.
Y'all.
I didn't care about that, I really didn't.
I just was like, I could change the world.
Like I could be used to reach the nations for you.
It was for him, it wasn't for me.
And that's what excited me.
Some of you, that is what God is wanting you to know tonight.
That's his plan for you.
He wants to use you to reach the nations
and change the world.
And some of you, it is enough to just reach your neighbor.
Everybody plays a role in this kingdom
and we need every person that plays a role.
Romans 8, 37 through 39 says,
"'No, in all these things,
"'we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
"'For I am convinced that neither death nor life,
"'nor angels, nor demons, nor the present,
"'nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth,
"'nor anything else in all of creation
"'will be able to separate us from the love of God
"'that is in Christ Jesus, our Lord.'"
I read that scripture right now
because nothing you have ever done
will ever keep you from the love of God,
nor can it ever.
Also, when you partner with that truth,
you can lean into who you are called to be
in your tomorrows.
If God is for you, who can be against you?
Even this, ladies, if God is for you,
how can the past be against you?
Let that sit in for a minute.
If God is for you,
how can your past even stop you from moving forward?
Well, it's because we don't believe the truth somewhere.
And typically, it's that we don't even
actually fully understand the love of the Father
and how that can revolutionize our lives.
But it's time.
It's time for us to get fresh understanding.
It's time for us to envision ourselves.
While you all were in breakout, I was praying
and I saw this image of a princess
coming before the king, her father,
and being crowned.
The scripture was, he will give us a crown of beauty
for all of the ashes that we've experienced in our life.
So it's time for the princesses within you to awaken.
Ephesians 5, 14 says,
awake, awake, O sleeper, and rise up from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.
I want you to think about every dead place in your life,
every place that you felt stuck even today.
And I just want you to see God
awakening those things and causing those to come to life.
He breathes on it and it just comes to life.
It really is that moment of heaven and earth colliding
and us partnering with the truth awakened
by also what?
True love's kiss, the kiss of heaven.
What does it mean to experience the kiss of heaven?
I'm not talking about God himself
coming down and kissing you,
but I want you to imagine just the moment of bliss
where you just fully understand
how much God loves you infinitely
and how that empowers you to move forward
and awaken like Snow White and Sleeping Beauty.
The prince comes and they're awake
and they're living and alive and all of these things.
Awaken to what?
Now here, what are we even awakening to?
Again, that true identity.
I use the story,
I just try to always make it real, tangible too.
And you all, you may not hear God the way I do,
so if this doesn't connect for you, that's totally cool.
But I connect with God in media a lot.
Movies, music, images, I just see God in creation.
Like he just, it's so fun to see him everywhere,
to hear him everywhere.
And years ago, I was watching Wreck-It Ralph.
Wreck-It Ralph.
Anyone seen that movie?
Who's seen it?
Okay, I see a couple people.
I wanna encourage you to watch it.
I know it's a kid's movie,
but I'm gonna tell you a little bit about what it's about.
So I'm sorry in advance,
but it'll still be worth it to watch the movie.
Vanellope is one of the main characters in the movie.
Even though the movie's called Wreck-It Ralph,
Vanellope is one of the main characters
in addition to Ralph.
Vanellope was this little girl who had this glitch.
And the story unfolds.
And we start finding out why she actually had the glitch to begin with.
Because there was an evil man in the story who took a chip out of her, basically,
and it caused her to glitch. But not only did it cause her to glitch, you all,
she didn't remember who she was.
Y'all, the story, when she finally gets her chip back, she remembers and she comes back
into that place and that position of who she really was. But see, she was that person all along.
She just forgot for a little while because the enemy came in and he tried to kill,
steal and destroy her. But even as the word declares, Jesus came so that we could have
it life and have it more abundantly, you all. Guess what Vanellope was? Guess who she was?
She was a princess in that movie. Oh, yeah, she was. I don't know about you all, but seriously,
I have chills just every time I tell that story, it just moves my heart.
Like everybody in that game and that movie saw her like a glitch, like a mess up.
That was not her identity. That was not who she was. Nothing that the other people say about us
is true. Not even what the enemy says about us, not what other people think.
I'm doing this course right now and it helps you process emotions. And one person can say
they love us and another person can say they hate us. And the question is, who is right?
Who's right? One person loves me, the other person hates me. Who's right?
Anyone know the answer to this? Neither one. Guess who defines me?
It's God who defines me. It's what I believe about myself. So cool. That's awesome. That's
an emotion that person has towards me that loves me. It's an emotion that they have
if they don't like me, but that does not define who I am. Who are you? Who do you want to be in
the days ahead? God is the one that gives the identity. Look to him to get your identity. God
wants you to awaken to restoration, to rebuilding, to restoring, to reconciliation,
to being renewed. Jackie talks about this all the time. All the re-words you can think of.
God wants you to awaken to your big, bold, beautiful future. What are some ways that we
can do that? Well, here are some things. You're going to awaken to dreams that some of y'all
have had when you were children that got squashed and pushed aside by other people,
even your own self, because someone like, maybe you didn't fit in and maybe you felt like having
that dream made you stand out and you just wanted to fit in. I mean, there's all different ways that
we lose these dreams or the enemy came in and stole them. So that's one of the ways you're
going to awaken in these days ahead to some of those things. Some of you are going to get
new dreams. So yes, some of you will have like nighttime dreams and daydreams. That's separate
even from what I'm talking about right now. I'm talking about some of you are going to start to
have a desire to go back to school, to travel and go somewhere new, to write a book, to, I don't know,
name it, draw, art. I mean, there's so many things, cook. Maybe some of you have always wanted to be a
cook or a baker. I don't know what your dream is, what your heart's desire is or has been, but I
believe truly if you live into that version of yourself, you're going to awaken and come alive
like you never have before. We all have a choice to choose what we are going to believe. Okay. I'm
about to put you in your breakout. We're not going to have a lot of coaching time at the end. So I
just want you to know that, but you being in the breakout is super important because this is how
you're connecting with your sisters and you're processing what we're talking about. In what ways
does the enemy challenge the real you? That's the question. In what ways does the enemy challenge
the real you? Here are a couple examples. These are ways I see it showing up. Comparison,
competition, and imitation. It can show up in different ways for you, but I just want you to
think about those things. How does the enemy challenge the real you? All right. Let me get
these breakout rooms set up. Recreate these.
All right, this is going to be short, brief, and powerful, you all, okay?
I'm literally giving you two, four, six, six minutes.
Here you go.
Go ahead and click to join those rooms.
All right, I think I've got everyone situated.
All right, Lord, we just thank you right now to your divine awakening in the hearts of your daughters.
I thank you, God, that you would even right now stir gifts and dreams, visions inside of them.
I thank you that you would stir up the hunger and thirst for your righteousness, for your word.
To know you better, but also, Lord God, that you would stir up the gifts that you've placed inside of them,
the gifts of the spirit, that, Lord, you would help them to remember dreams that they had as children
that would benefit their life, that you would breathe life back into those dreams
and help them to hear what your spirit is saying over them, that, Lord, you would give them new dreams,
new visions, new revelations, innovation ideas.
And we thank you, Lord, that you would help them to move into your truth
and that your truth would set them free.
Thank you for continuing to, Lord, I'm just going to lean into the vision you gave me years ago.
When Jackie and David were praying, I saw myself, ladies, in this cement coffin,
and the coffin opened and I sat up, like straight up out of there.
I heard the Lord say, come alive.
And I sat straight up in this coffin.
It was a vision, an image I had, but I got radically set free that night.
And I don't even know what all God was setting me free from,
but I just remember crying and like the tears were just flowing and flowing and flowing.
And they put us into this breakout.
And I remember, like, I still couldn't even open my eyes because there were so many tears.
And sometimes, ladies, that's going to be a process that some of you will need to embrace.
Like if the tears just start coming, just to let them flow, to not hold that back,
to not feel ashamed or embarrassed by that,
because there's a cleansing that's happening as we are allowing the tears to flow.
Excuse me, ladies, my allergies are really kicking in tonight.
Psalm 147, three through four says, he heals the wounds of our shattered heart.
He sets his stars in place, calling them all by their names.
So Lord, we just thank you that you heal the wounds of all of our shattered hearts,
that you would just come in and place the balm of Gilead upon every wound
and bring healing and truth and life and wholeness and all of those broken, shattered places.
I thank you, Lord.
Thank you, yes, restoring them to better than they were before they were broken, Lord.
And I just thank you in advance for that.
I'm just trying to see what else, like, Lord wants me to lean into right now, ladies.
I just thank you, Lord God. I just saw in my mind's eye as well, like, you know,
have you ever seen the drawings where it's like a, again, kind of like a silhouette
and the top of the head is open and there's all these colorful things like gear shifts
and, you know, like thought bubbles and all that.
And so I just want to speak that right over everybody in this group as well.
I thank you, God, for new thoughts, new mindsets, new, no more limiting beliefs
and things that hold us back, no more orphan mentalities, Lord.
We are asking you, Lord, to replace those things with life, with hope, with truth
and help us to cling and think on things that are true and noble and lovely and have good report,
things that are above only and not beneath.
I thank you, Lord, that you're going to help us to look for the gold in ourselves
as well as look for the gold in other people.
I thank you, God, that you're going to give us new lenses to see the world differently
and a good way that we will continue to lay aside all of the things that do not partner with heaven
and you'll help us to...
walk in just, yeah.
I'm seeing new backpacks being given to people.
I'd started laughing a little bit
because at first I saw like an image of the people
like Ghostbusters, you know,
when they would go in to like get rid of all the ghosts,
they would put on those backpacks
and they would just shoot the ghosts
and they would kill them.
So it just kind of makes me chuckle.
Like I feel like in the spirit realm,
some people are getting some backpacks tonight
and they're gonna be slaying some ghost of the past,
so to speak.
Some of the things that have really hindered them.
And I just thank you, Lord, for truth.
I thank you, Lord, for life.
I thank you, Lord, for just fun,
even just the reminder, God,
in what you just showed me that you're just fun
and you'll talk to us all different kinds of ways.
I thank you, Lord,
that these ladies will continue to really partner
with the truth that they are your sheep
and they hear your voice
and that you are a fun God who likes to talk to us
in all kinds of fun and fresh ways.
Ephesians 3, 17 through 19 says this,
then Christ will make his home in your hearts
as you trust in him.
Your roots will grow down into God's love
and keep you strong.
And may you have the power to understand
as all God's people should,
how wide, how long, how high,
how deep is his love for us.
May you experience the love of Christ,
though it is too great to understand fully.
Then you will be made complete
with all the fullness of life
and power that comes from God.
Praise the Lord.
Yes, Lord, I thank you.
I'm just gonna read the beginning of that verse again.
This is Ephesians 3, verse 17.
I think, I don't know if it goes into 18 here.
Then Christ will make his home in your hearts
as you trust in him.
Your roots will go down into God's love,
will grow down into God's love and keep you strong.
So just thank you, Lord,
for that strength that we gain from you,
that we can go deep down into your love.
So Lord, even just right now
that you would help the ladies
just to really envision themselves
being like a tree planted by rivers of living water
and that their roots are just stretching down
into that water.
God, that you're just gonna fill them up to overflowing.
I don't know if you can see back there.
Sorry, ladies.
You're gonna fill them up to overflowing
and that they'll be transformed from the inside out.
And we just thank you in advance for that.
Welcome back.
There we go.
All right.
Praise the Lord.
We're at 9.30.
So I'm going to encourage you all.
This is your activation for this week.
In addition to watching Wreck-It Ralph,
so you have two assignments.
Hopefully they're both fun.
I want to see you all in the group this week
posting about the dreams or the things
that God is awakening you to.
We talk a lot about the hard stuff
and what God's having us process, and that's good.
We need to do that.
But I really want to encourage you all to embrace
what is God awakening you to?
What is he saying to you about the real you?
What is he saying about your identity
or whatever he leads you to share?
But if whatever your takeaway from that part of tonight,
I want to see you,
because we didn't have time to talk about it
at the end here tonight.
So I'd like to hear from you.
Like, what did you all share in your private breakout
that you can now go into the group and share there?
And I know some of you will absolutely not want to do this,
but I'm encouraging you.
Again, I can encourage you all every single week
to show up and post in the group,
and some of you will stay in hiding.
Some of you will just get busy.
The enemy will distract you.
There's all different reasons.
Again, I'm never going to be angry at you, okay?
But I want to encourage you, do this.
Do this for yourself and let God set you free
in ways you can't even imagine.
I'm going to read something over you
and close this out.
This is from the book.
I would encourage you all to get this out of your book.
It's all the way at the end.
Now, again, don't speed read through,
but I'm just saying,
you can flip back here and get this out.
Write it on a piece of paper,
put it up in your house and read it over yourself
out loud often.
And I want to encourage you.
I'm going to read it the way it is in the book,
but when you write it out for yourself,
put your name in there.
Declare over your own self these truths.
It's powerful.
Here we go.
This is a declaration that we encourage you to use
as often as necessary.
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter,
a light bearer, a truth teller, and a hope dealer.
Whoo! My heart is awakening. It's my time to be made whole. I contain the beauty of all creation.
The mysteries of the entire universe reside inside of me. I am the image of the Almighty God,
the offspring of the Great I Am. I am a beloved daughter of God. My original heart is one of love
and joy and peace, hope and innocence. I was created for community. I am accepted in the
family of God. I have been created to prosper. I will not be anyone besides who love. God,
the Father, has made me to be. From this moment forward, every day, when I look in the mirror,
I am going to see more and more of what God sees. In Jesus' name. Yes, Lord. Yes. I love
that hope dealer too. I felt that all up in my body when I said it. Father, thank you for
reminding us of who we are. Thank you that your promises are yes and amen, that they're fixed.
I thank you, God, that you have plans to prosper us, to give us a hope and a future, not to bring
us harm, not to destroy us. God, I thank you that you take us out of the muck and the miry clay and
you set our feet upon the rock. You are that rock, and I thank you that nothing can separate us from
your love. Tonight, I pray that you would help these ladies go to bed and have dreams and visions
and revelations of who you have called them to be, that you would help them to hear the
whispers from heaven over them and saying, yes, daughter, you are my beloved. Your worth is far
above rubies. My heart breaks when your heart breaks, and I'm here, and I'm walking with you.
I've gone before you. Be strong and of good courage. Don't be afraid. So, Lord, I thank you that you
guard and protect and keep watch over us, that you would protect us from distractions this week,
that you would protect us from mindsets and limiting belief systems that would take us
backwards because we're going forward, and we are taking ground in our own life as well as taking
ground for your kingdom. In Jesus' name, amen and amen. We love you all. I can't wait to see your
post in the group. I get excited. I do. I celebrate you. I wish you all could see the parties I have
sometimes when I read your posts, so please do that as you feel led this week, and I'll see you
there. Have a great night, everyone. God bless you.