Hello, everyone. Welcome, welcome. It's great to see you all. Bethany Cooper here, part
work coach for phase one. Would love for y'all to turn cameras on so I can see you as well
if you're able to. As always, it's great to connect with you all. Hi there. It's good
to see you. Welcome, welcome. All right, ladies, we're gonna kick off tonight. Again, if you're
joining us for the first time, I'm going to do this check in briefly at the at the beginning
of every session. So if those of you catch the replay, just know that I'm always going
to ask if you're joining us for the first time. So if you join us next time for your
first time and you're not here tonight live, definitely want you to let us know that you
are new. On that note, if you are new, or here's the other one. If you've been in this
group for a long time, and you've never done an introduction post, I want to see those
introduction posts. Here's why. This is why it's important because you all need to practice
being seen. And a lot of you are afraid to even let people in this group know about you
and see you. And so if you're going to struggle with that here, now's the time to find out
about it. And let God do some revealing for healing so that when you go to try to, you
know, step back into dating in the future, after you're done with heart healing, that
will start to prepare you for that because some of you all really struggle with connecting
with men. And so now's the time to practice connecting in general here, like I said, so
that that will give you more courage later on. So what is a what is an introduction post?
What I would love to see is a picture of you and a little bit, you don't have to tell
your life story, but just a couple things about you can be, you know, what brought you
here into this community, it could be where you're from, it could be a couple things you
love to do. You know, here's the thing, when people learn a little bit about you, it gives
them an idea of ways to connect with you as well. Some ladies in this community are really
asking God for friends. And if they see that you live near them, hey, guess what, that
might be a new friendship that could form potentially. So let's open ourselves up to
community and continue to come out of hiding way to go on those who have been doing the
activations and posts. On that note, y'all, I gave an issue for activation the last couple
weeks, and we've really only had a couple people actually do them. Those people are
getting breakthrough from doing it, I was kind of I was kind of looking forward to seeing
more of you doing it. And so if you haven't yet, there's no shame, but I want to see you
activating on some of those things. And again, I think some of it some of you are not
wanting to do photos of yourself. Maybe it's just you had a busy week, it could be that
too. Totally understand. If you don't know what the activation was for last week, I shared
it at the end of the live session for that's in the replay. So check out that replay. It's
in your replay tab for those in the app, those that are still in the Facebook group, it's
in the featured tab. Okay, so definitely check that out. And, you know, really ask the Lord
to help you take quick action on these activation items. This is another way that you can
connect with what God is teaching you and help you step into freedom and breakthrough.
Alright, so tonight, we're going to go right into some important content. I mean, it's all
important, but I feel like God's really emphasizing to me for all of you, that some of you just
don't really believe God cares about you. And that's at the core of some of your struggles
with everything else. And so we're going to lean into that first, I'm going to go ahead and
pray for us and we will get started. Father, thank you so much for God who you are. God,
thank you for your character that you are a man of your word. God, I thank you that we can
trust you. I pray Lord that you would just help every lady that's here live tonight as well as
those that would catch the replay that they would grow in the revelation of the understanding of
who you are, so that they can trust you a little bit more this week. I thank you God for
revealings for healing that are happening that are going to happen that will happen in the days
ahead. I thank you that you will bring things out of the darkness into the light so that we can
have understanding of what is causing us to be stuck. We thank you for healing in the depths of
our soul. God, you know us better than we know ourselves. You know everything that we need set
free from. Lord, you know the little scrapes all the way to the deep cuts, the things that
happened that went really deep in us. So Lord, we just thank you for your kindness and your
gentleness and your approach to us as your daughters. I ask you to help us, Lord, to step
further into connection and relationship with you tonight.
Thank you for being here, we can't do this without you.
I ask you to weave in and out of the conversations,
in and out of the teaching, in and out of the prayer.
Let it be powerful, let it break chains off of minds,
hearts, bodies, spirits, and souls this night
in Jesus' name, amen.
Amen, so for those of you that have already heard
the story of Candice, you will be familiar with this.
If you haven't heard it yet, that's okay.
You will, if you're just starting.
Again, if you've just joined us in the last few minutes,
we'd love for you to tell me if you're here new
for the first time, because I wanna welcome you by name,
super important for me.
So go ahead and put in the chat if you're new
and I'll keep an eye out for that.
So one of the things we're gonna talk about
isn't just the story of Candice,
but I wanna preface it with something.
As I was saying earlier, God's been talking to me a lot
about just that there are people in this group
that don't really fully believe that God cares about you.
You believe it because people tell you that
and you believe it in part,
but God is wanting to take you further
into the understanding of how much he cares for you.
Yes, Joanna, it's good to have you back.
So glad that you're here with us.
And so tonight I felt led to bring up the story of Candice
to kick us off, because we're gonna talk
about broken promises a little bit tonight.
God kept a promise regarding camera,
Candice, excuse me, not camera.
Jackie, if you hadn't heard this story,
God put Candice on her heart.
And one of the things that God specifically said to Jackie
about Candice was at this conference
that Candice is gonna be there and she needs healing.
Candice is gonna be there and she needs healing.
And the whole day, Jackie didn't know who Candice was.
Still after the conference was over,
Jackie didn't know who Candice was,
but God always knew who Candice was
and that Candice needed healing.
Eventually God made that connection
and Jackie was able to then meet with Candice
and Candice was able to get the healing that she needed.
Why am I sharing this tonight
when I mentioned broken promises?
Because God knows what we need.
He knows where we are and he knows how to get it to us.
Some of you have traveled a really long journey
to get to where you are now,
but God knew every step that was important to get you here.
And so even in the spirit,
I just heard the Holy Spirit just say,
some of you are still just stuck in the place of
why did it have to take this long?
And I can tell you just from my own experience,
I don't know about you all,
but sometimes it took me longer because of my own choices.
I was choosing unhealthy people.
Some of us, maybe we lost a spouse
and now we're having to go back around
and try this over again.
There's a lot of different reasons that you're here tonight,
but God doesn't want you to believe the lies of the enemy
that tell you that God doesn't care about you,
that you're forgotten,
that you're just gonna keep waiting
and nothing's ever gonna change and this is your lot
and all these horrible things that the enemy says
that so often we believe.
Isn't it interesting that oftentimes
it's easier to believe the lies
than it is to believe the truth?
Do y'all know that it's actually harder
to create a new habit than it is to create a negative one?
Interesting, right?
So tonight I wanna ask you a question
and if you have pen and paper,
you're gonna wanna keep that handy
because I'm gonna have you jot
a couple of things down as we go.
I want to ask you to ask God,
so you're asking God to reveal to you even right now,
any areas that you are struggling to believe
that God cares about your needs.
Are there any areas that, you know,
maybe this last week, today, in this moment,
things that come to mind where you are still struggling
to believe that God cares about your needs?
And guess what you all?
He doesn't only care about your needs,
but he also cares about your wants.
As long as they align with God's purposes,
I wanted my spiritual daughter's dad to marry me.
I wanted him to marry me.
I actually pleaded with God for him to marry me,
for him to ask me to marry him,
for him to want to be committed to that relationship.
I pleaded with God for that.
But God in his goodness kept that from my life
because that was not what was best for me, okay?
So that was me asking God for something
that did not align with his plan and purpose for my life.
And because of that,
me from that. Okay, so that's not what I'm talking about. But the ones that we have that
align with his purposes and you know, hey, guess what? Sometimes it's just a just really
super fun for God to bless us with something that we just want and we don't ever speak
it out and he's just like, here you go. And it's just this surprise. We had a lady last
night talking on the Sunday night prayer and she shared that she's been looking at these
shoes for her graduation. She really wanted them. They're, you know, really nice, you
know, fancy shoes and, and guess what? God, God helped her get this, but he helped her
find them at a place that was $400 off and they were in the size, the color, and it's
not somewhere, somewhere you would normally find them. And so it was just really fun to
hear that last night and think about the content. I already knew that we were coming with today.
Does God care about shoes for us? No, I think he does. I think he does. I think that we
don't think that he does. God cares about the little bitty things and he cares about
the big things. He cares about everything and he wants to be intimately involved in
our lives. It's up to us to allow him to be that kind of God, to be that close in relationship.
Again, as it's not about, it's not about stuff you all. Okay. But imagine for those of you
that have kids, you, you might've experienced this and, and had just that true feeling of
pure joy when you give your kids something, not only that they want it, but you surprise
them with something that just, you know, they squeak and, you know, yell and squeal and
they're just so excited. And do you know that we experienced those types of emotions because
God grafted us after himself? Y'all that if that's an emotion that the father has,
when we, when we receive a gift and we delight and we squeal and we're so excited and we're
so blessed. So imagine tonight, some of you, I imagine tonight, some of you hear that and
you're just not there yet. And that's okay. This is where I want you to be real honest
with yourself and really honest with God. Some of you actually need to forgive God.
And I get this question all the time. We have to believe God, like God doesn't do anything
wrong. No, he doesn't. But we oftentimes blame God for things that he didn't do.
And we hold resentment and bitterness and unforgiveness in our hearts towards God.
And some of you need to let that go tonight and in the days ahead.
God is good and he will come through for you. I want you to think about the letdowns and the
trauma, unhealed wounds that are still in your heart that are causing you to view God and other
people through filters and false lenses. You're not going to stay there. Praise the Lord. You're
in this heart healing process for a reason, but I just want you to think about them. Think about
even in the last few weeks, is there anything that happened where your immediate go-to was
the worst of the worst, or that God is angry at you, or you're too bad to have a healthy marriage?
I sat and talked at our church yesterday with a woman that has been married five times.
And God wants to bless her with a healthy marriage, just as he does anybody else.
So maybe that's your story you've been telling yourself because the enemy lied to you and said
you've messed up too many times, whether it's marriage multiple times or something else.
And that's a lie from the pit of hell to keep you from walking into the fullness of everything God
has for you. Here's another example. I have examples from church now. I never say names,
but I'm going to give you a scenario. We had a lady that on Sundays after church was
not harming anyone per se, but she kept pulling the teens together to have a little powwow with
them. And it just started catching my attention because not only were the teens sitting with her,
but then the little kids were kind of going over and sitting too. And I'm thinking, well,
I know she's not, she's not assigned as a youth leader. So I was kind of curious,
what are, what are they talking about? And it had happened just a couple of times. And then
my husband asked me the same thing one day, like, what do you think about this lady? And, you know,
I noticed she's, I was like, I've been noticing it too. Where am I going with this? When we talked
to a couple people trying to figure out what was going on, they ended up talking with this woman
and she basically through kind of the connections that, and things people said to her,
I don't know what was said fully, but all I know is when my husband was talking to her,
She was like, I'm not a pedophile.
And I was kind of like, when I heard that, I was like, wait a minute.
Whoa.
That's, that's like all the way over here.
All we were doing was wondering, Hey, what, what's going on with that?
We, you know, if someone's going to talk to our teenagers, they need to be trained.
They need to go through a background check.
They need to, you know, have permission.
No one said this woman was a pedophile.
So why at times I'm using that as an example, I know that's an extreme, but some of us do that
when things happen in life, don't we?
We just, we like, we go all the way, 180 miles down the road with some story.
That it has never even been a thought in someone else's mind, let alone God's mind.
So that's you tonight.
I want you to write those things down.
Where do you tend to go full down the full speed down the road with a storyline?
Like, where does the, where does the enemy get your goat?
Have you ever heard people say that in the old days?
Like, you know, where does the enemy trip you up so quick and he gets you to run down
the road really fast because that's your kind of trigger point, if you will.
Numbers 23, 19 says this, I'm going to read this from the message translation.
God is not a man, one given to lies and not a son of man changing his mind.
Does he speak and not do what he says?
Does he promise and not come through?
I'm going to read that again.
Numbers 23, 19, that's the message version.
God is not a man, one who is given to lies and not a son of man changing his mind.
Does he speak and not do what he says?
Does he promise and not come through?
Y'all, we look at God through the lens of man.
He is not like man.
He's not like the people that let you down.
He's not like the people that oppress you.
He's not like the people that abused you and mistreated you and lied to you and betrayed you.
He is not them.
God is good.
The Bible says that he is faithful.
He is kind, that he is love.
Y'all, he can't even deny himself because he, that is who he is.
Like he can't just separate love from who he is.
So even regarding you, he's not looking at you thinking about all the horrible things
you've done.
Now, yes, his Holy Spirit, the Holy Spirit, the Trinity, they work together to help us
get on the healthy path.
And so, yes, there's conviction of the Holy Spirit.
There are consequences when we make unhealthy choices, but guilt, shame, and condemnation
are from the enemy.
And God is never trying to withhold his love from you like man does at times, don't they?
I want you to think about, again, what I was saying, broken promises.
Have you ever had a broken promise?
What I mean by that, someone that promised you something and did not come through on
their word.
They broke their promise.
So it could be something little.
And here's where it's really important in your healing process for you all to not minimize
the things that come up, because sometimes you'll have something come up and you'll
think, well, that's really weird.
Why would I even think about that?
But I don't want you to do that.
I want you to lean into whatever it is, because it could be the beginning thread that leads
you to something else.
It could actually be that thing itself as well.
Some of you will see images.
Some of you will hear phrases.
Some of you will think of a memory or a person and just get good at asking God good questions.
And we're going to practice that tonight when we do the group coaching.
I want to read a song lyrics to you.
I'm not going to read the whole song, but I am going to read a couple of the stanzas
if you will.
It's Sparrows by Corey Asbury.
Here are the lyrics.
The sparrow's not worried about tomorrow or the troubles to come.
The lily's not thinking about the seasons, the drought, or the flood.
A tree that's planted by the water isn't fazed by the fire.
So why should I be?
Because you take good care of me.
You take good care of me.
He's talking about God.
I hope you all know that.
You know what I need before I even ask a thing.
And you hold me in your hands with a kindness that never ends.
I'm carried in your embrace.
love no matter what the future brings yeah you take good care of me the sun's not worried about
the winter because soon it will pass the light's not thinking about the darkness or the shadow
that it cast a heart that's planted in forgiveness doesn't dwell in the past so why should i be
because you take good care of me you take good care of me you know what i need before i even ask
a thing and you hold me in your hands with a kindness that never ends i'm carried in your
love no matter what the future brings yeah you take good care of me y'all can go and listen to
that song this week i highly recommend it and just really let that truth marinate in your spirit
because no matter what comes in your tomorrows it doesn't it doesn't like mean that god doesn't care
about you but if that's the line you're believing again we want to look at the lies that we're
hearing what is the trigger what's the go-to what are what are the negative things we tend to say
over ourselves and align with when when the pressure is applied
when we go around our family and somebody says something that's hurtful
what what's the go-to in our hearts and our minds
god wants to help you heal and he wants to help you step further into the truth of who he is
tonight so i want to ask you a question and i get this all the time uh i'm surprised i haven't
gotten it for a while to be honest when we have people come into this program people will say why
is this time different why is this time any different some of y'all have been on healing
journeys you've been in other healing programs you know divorce care you know whatever whatever
the case may be you've tried dating and all these things here's the reality we believe this is our
belief jackie dorman myself the team we truly believe that this is a supernatural movement of
the lord that he has empowered them to start it other people to come along to help carry out the
mission of this movement to to create kingdom families and marriages that we can be a part of
changing eternity why is this time different because god makes things different his supernatural
power and experience in your power and revelation in your life in this season in this time in this
group in the environment that you're in it's kind of like the pool the guy was sitting by the pool
waiting for other people to carry him in right but the whole time he was sitting right there
by the pool now yes he was a paralytic i don't know how paralyzed he was i don't know if that
meant he couldn't crawl be all he was sitting right there you know a woman literally touched
the hem of the garment of jesus christ and was healed i'm not shaming that man at all because
i was that man at one point in a sense okay i'm not talking about physically here i'm talking about
emotionally i felt emotionally and and in my soul and in some of the parts of my heart paralyzed
and for a long time the enemy tried to cause me to think that i could never actually have a full
amazing life because what my brothers had done he started convincing me of that at one point
because i would always be seen as damaged goods too much your story is too much it's too heavy
for people no god's yes is it hard to hear some of the stuff i've been through and talk about
yes but god in his grace and goodness he lifts all that heaviness off i don't know for you all
if it feels like that but i don't feel heavy when i talk about those things anymore i don't feel the
burden of the past i feel the freedom and the liberty of the holy ghost and what he's done in
my life and he is using it to set other people free and that's pretty incredible so i feel the
power of of jesus christ and what he's doing and what he has done and that's what i align with and
i hope that you all will will continue to have your faith and your hope fan tonight because this
time is different for you if that's what you partner with that's key if you choose to partner
with that truth it will be different for you ecclesiastes 3 1 in the message message version
says this there's an opportune time to do things the right time for everything on earth we believe
again that god led you here the heart change that's happening can equal life change for you
real and lasting change is a process as you know
process is important. So I want to encourage you to really
choose tonight to also here's one of my other things I wrote
down super important. So make sure you catch this. Get out of
alignment with microwave culture and mentalities. You know, we
want instant coffee, we want instant boyfriends, instant
family, instant relationships, y'all guess what? Wanting an
instant family is what got me caught in that toxic
relationship. Because I think I got caught up in the fantasy of
what I thought it was and what I thought it could be. And it was
never that not even from day one. Okay. And so I want you all
to really get comfortable doesn't mean when I say this,
it doesn't mean that it's going to take you forever. Okay. But
don't even with your heartwork, like some of you are going to
get frustrated with yourselves, because you just want to get
done, you just want to get done. Some of y'all want to get done
way faster than the five weeks. But you know, there is that
there is this amazing process that we believe the Holy Spirit
has led us to build, that we have seen countless people put
into practice and have their whole lives changed. Not just
their love story, their whole lives. I read a testimony of
someone in phase three. Now y'all, she's been through
heartwork, she went through phase two, and she's been in
phase three, I'm going to say, five months, approximately. So
that's about six, seven, about probably seven, seven and a
half months she's been in the program. She's getting set free
financially, in her mindsets, in orphan mentalities and things
that have held her back literally for generations and
her family. And she was saying how like, God started planting
the seeds in the heartwork phase. And then he kept
cultivating on and cultivating on and she came to an advanced
heartwork that we did. I think I did that in July or August, I
don't remember. And she's she got into the heartwork seed. And
I coached her and it was all around. She was afraid God
wasn't going to provide for finances for something. And so
we coached through the root of the matter. And we got down to
the core. And it was belief systems and mindsets, but also
beliefs that she aligned with that told her that God was not
going to provide for her that God would not come through for
her that, that she's always going to be in lack. And she's,
you know, like poverty stuff, y'all. So I don't know what your
stuff is tonight. But I want to encourage you that God is in the
business of setting people free. And that isn't reserved for
everybody else but you. Okay? So we're about to go into
breakouts. Where do you currently need an upgrade in
your understanding of God's care for you? That's not your
question for the breakout. But I want you to be thinking about
that as well. Okay? Where do you currently need an upgrade in
your understanding of God's care for you? Now, here's your
question for the breakout room. Broken promises. When was the
time someone broke a promise they made to you? And how is
that still affecting you today? When is a time someone broke a
promise to you that they made? And how is that still affecting
you today? Now, if you all get in there, and I really want you
to lean into the promises question first, because God
asked me to ask that question tonight, and today. So I want
you to trust God with that. But if you're in there, and you're
really feeling like nothing is coming up, you can lean into
the God's care part. Because either way, it's going to get
you ultimately closer to the Father, which is the goal. All
right. Okay, let me go ahead and do these breakout rooms.
Alright, so I'm going to do three to four of you per room.
I'm giving you nine minutes. Remember, short, brief and
powerful. And here, it's really important to remember this.
Helper hats come off, you don't have to counsel anybody give
advice or anything like that. You just cheer each other on,
speak truth, love each other, but like, give enough time for
everybody to go. Okay, super important. All right, go ahead
and click to join those rooms.
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All right, Lord, we just thank you so much for these incredible ladies.
We thank you, God, for healing the core of who we are.
We thank you, God, that you would just bring revealings for healing regarding any broken
promises.
Lord, where the enemy came in and through other people, he led them to break their promises
to us, and that caused us to believe the lie that, God, you are not a man that keeps his
promises.
So, Lord, we just thank you for truth.
We thank you for life.
We thank you for healing and restoration.
We thank you for, yeah, like just pouring the healing balm of Gilead over our hearts,
our minds, our bodies, our spirits, and our souls.
I thank you, Lord, for helping us to hear what your spirit is saying to us tonight.
I thank you that even right now in the breakout sessions and those that watch this replay,
God, that you give them aha moments right now, that things will just start to bubble
up to the surface, that they would have memories come to the surface, that they would have
phrases and words that were said to them.
Lord, I thank you that you would remove the dagger, and I'm just seeing like a thorn being
removed from someone's side, and Lord, just that that resembles the pain of the promise
that was broken.
I just heard the Holy Spirit say, and for some of you, the promise broken is when your
marriage vows were broken, and maybe that was that they broke them with you, or maybe
you were the one that broke the promise, and so I just want to lean into that as well.
So, Lord, we just thank you for forgiveness, God, that we can forgive other people, and
you can help us to also forgive ourselves.
If we were the ones that broke a promise in any way, I pray that you would just help us
to release ourselves, that we would extend grace for ourselves.
We thank you for healing, and reconciliation, and relationships, and families.
We thank you, Lord, that you are making all things new.
Lord, God, you're taking everything, and you're working it all together for good, for those
who love you and live according to your purposes.
We thank you, God, for renewing us by the transforming of our minds, that all old things
have passed away, and behold, everything is becoming new and new.
I thank you, God, that you would create in us clean hearts, O God, and renew steadfast
spirits within us.
We thank you, God, for coming in and just ministering grace, and truth, and love.
I thank you, God, that you would just envelop us with your love tonight, that you would
hide us under the shadow of your wings and in the presence of the Almighty.
I thank you, God, that we would not partner with or believe the lies of the enemy that
tell us that you have forgotten us.
We thank you, God, that you never forget.
Hi, Melissa.
They're talking right now about, the question is, when was the time someone broke a promise
they made to you, and how is that still affecting you today?
So I'm going to go ahead and put you in a breakout room, okay?
You can go ahead and click to join that.
All right.
So, Laura, we just thank you also for Melissa, who just joined us.
We thank you, God, for working in her life.
We thank you that you are continuing to, even as Romans 828, I just came across the scripture,
it sounds so good.
In the passion translation, sorry.
So we are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually woven together to fit
into God's perfect plan of bringing good into our lives, for we are his lovers who have
been called to fulfill his designed purpose.
Lord, we just thank you for your designed purpose for our lives.
We thank you that you have a plan to prosper us, to give us a hope in a future, not to
bring us harm, not to bring us destruction.
So Lord, we come out of alignment and agreement with every lie of the enemy that you're just
dangling carrots in front of us, but never following through, never getting us across
the finish line.
Lord, we partner with you in that.
We know that it's not just by faith, but it's faith combined with work.
So Lord, I thank you that you would show us this week just what is that step we can take
to lead us closer to you in relationship with you, to allow you to be the center, help us
to become more secure in our identity in you so that we can then be healthier spirit
mates to come into contact with the person that you have for us, Lord, down the road.
We thank you, God, for helping us to continue to align with the truth of having things that
are true and noble and lovely and of good report, things that are above only and not
beneath.
I thank you, God, that we are your daughters and we are here and we're.
you for the healing work that you're already doing, for the
healing work that you will do. And I thank you that you'll give
us grace and yes, just refreshing that you would fill
hope tanks tonight a little bit more that you would help us this
week to receive a fresh and filling of your Holy Spirit even
as we prayed on the prayer call last night, if you all didn't
catch it, it's okay. It's not a recorded one when we have normal
prayer time, but just want to share with you that God talked a
lot last night about filling us afresh and us choosing to be
filled with his spirit and coming to him daily to get that
fresh and filling. So Lord, I just thank you that you would
help us to hunger and thirst for your righteousness, for your
word, for your presence, that we would never be satisfied with
anything apart from you, God, that you are the vine and we are
the branches. So Lord, we just remember tonight our reliance on
you, even in our heart healing process, let us not pursue this
pathway by ourselves. Help us to partner with you in this
process and to pause, to slow down and ask you really great
questions to allow you to do the work deep within us that you
know that we need to lead us into the fullness of who you
originally created us to be. Help us to never settle for less
than your best. Help us to continue to pursue righteousness,
right living that we would not go off to the left or to the
right, but they would, we would stay on the pathway that you
have for us. And Lord, if we do make a mistake and fall, I thank
you that your goodness and your grace and your mercy are new
every morning and we can get back up and we can start going
again. Help us Lord to extend that mercy to ourselves. Here's
first John three 20 says, whenever our hearts make us feel
guilty and remind us of our failures, we know that God is
much greater and more merciful than our conscience. And he
knows everything there is to know about us. So we thank you.
We give you praise tonight. Psalm 134, excuse me, Psalm 139
14 and the amplified amplified version says this, I will give
thanks and praise to you for I'm fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works in my soul knows it very well. Where
we thank you that nothing is hidden from you, that you see
everything that you love us in our weaknesses, just as much as
you love us in our strengths. God, that you are the same
yesterday, today, and forever. And I thank you that we can be
confident in you, that we can rely on you to be that firm
foundation that we can stand on. Your word declares that we can
be as we follow you and choose pathways of righteousness and
seek your face that we can become like trees planted by
rivers of living water that we can always remain connected to
you. And that when we become that tree of righteousness, that
other people can come up under our shade and find healing and
find rest. So Lord, I thank you that you would help us to find
purpose in our pain and surrender all of our life to you
and allow you to come in, even into those tender places and
bring healing and bring truth and bring life. We thank you for
love. We thank you for reminding us even tonight, what love
really looks like. I pray that if there are women in this group
that don't know what true, genuine love looks like, that
you would give them more experiences of that in the days
ahead that you would place healthy people on their path to
be an example, an extension of your faithfulness and your
loving kindness. We thank you Lord in advance for that. We
thank you for wooing us and drawing us into all truth and
anointing us for all of our lives and walk and calling and
leading us deeper into Jesus every single day. Jesus, thank
you for coming and allowing your body to be broken and your blood
to be shed for the forgiveness of our sins, for our freedom,
for our healing, to lead us further into relationship with
you. Help us to receive your truth because your truth is what
sets us free. We thank you Lord for that. Hi, welcome.
Just waiting for everybody. We have like 20 seconds. So we just
thank you even right now as the ladies are starting to come back
that you will just be in our midst as I do the group
coaching and Lord that we would hear what your spirit is saying.
That you would help us to partner with your truth in a
greater way tonight, the truth of heaven that we would call
forth your kingdom this day on earth as you desire it in
heaven in Jesus name. All right, welcome back. All right, I
think I have everyone. Welcome back. Welcome back. Welcome
back. All right, who is willing to share with the whole group
what you shared and your breakout group?
Awesome. Okay, let's go with Ruth first, and then I'll go with Laura.
Okay, so I was sharing my thought, it's like, um, I felt left out by my family, because
my daughter was taken away from me 2014. And I was hoping that my family can stand with
me in the crisis. And I just felt like, because they didn't stand with me. I felt like a failure.
I've been feeling like a failure. I've been feeling like I've been feeling shame on myself
on my end for not being there for my daughter. And I've been feeling like, yeah, like let
down really, because I thought this is the most important time for my family to stand
with me. And so I've been kind of like, going uptown, uptown. Yeah, sort of like just feeling
Yeah, why did my family not stand with me in the time I really needed them. And it's
really been tough, really. And of course, my daughter needs my support. But at the same
time, I feel so helpless, because I live in Germany, and I'm still trying to understand
the system, how it works. So the last 10 years, because she was taken 2014, has been
very tough for me.
Okay, thank you for sharing that Ruth. Ladies, when we have situations like this, just because
of a lot of dynamics going on here, the best thing we can do is when you when we have the
feelings asking God to show us, okay, a it's normal to feel hurt if our family or friends
don't stand with us in something, right. But because we don't know all the dynamics
here, I also want to, you know, kind of be cautious of that. So, Ruth, just as you're
processing this, I really want to encourage you to obviously, you know, we work through
forgiveness towards family and people that don't stand with us or don't have our back
when we need them to, or want them to or all that kind of stuff. But also like, what does
it look like for your life to keep moving forward? Okay, no matter what people do for
us, ladies, no matter if people are on our side or not on our side, like, what can we
do? How can we move our life forward in a healthy way? Okay. And I know that can be
really tough, especially when it impacts kids. They're caught in the mix. You know, not the
same situation by any means. But my spiritual daughters, you know, I mean, I wish they
weren't caught in the middle of any situations with their biological parents and the way
things are happening and all that. But they're definitely they've been caught in the mix
a very long time. And so one of the biggest things was, I have to choose to move my life
forward. And I have to trust and believe and know that that is making an impact on their
life. And so the healthier we become, the more that God can use that to minister to
our kids, no matter what has happened. You're still her mama. Okay. And so we're going to
be praying for you regarding that situation. But interestingly enough, when y'all were
in the breakout session, I saw a thorn, like, like, almost as if a thorn was in someone's
side. And I felt like it was a really close personal betrayal. And for whatever reason,
I feel like whether there's someone else that applies to or not, I feel like that does apply
to your situation here. So just believing for healing from feelings of betrayal. When
we feel like a failure, also, we have to remember that we feel the field so God can heal the
field. So we don't want to allow our feelings to dictate and drive our life though. Okay.
So while we might feel a certain way, what is the truth? Like, what is God saying about us?
And so I want to encourage you in this next week, really sit with the Lord and ask him,
like, God, what do you say about me? Get in the word, find some scriptures. Like,
what does God say about you? Who are you? You're his beloved. You're his daughter.
You're a gift. You know, you're worth as far above rubies. There's, there's so many scriptures,
you know, that talk about the good in us. And so as you lean into those and partner with the truth,
God will continue to help you live that out. Does that make sense?
It makes sense. I just wanted to say, Bethany, I wanted to confirm what she said because
my sister, my youngest sister, actually.
betrayed me. She is the one who went to the government and said that my daughter should
be taken away. And she said, I'm not a good mother. And she said, she said lots of bad things
anyway, but I've forgiven her even just through this program. But of course, it's been tough.
Because I felt like I don't, I no longer want to have any contact with my sister, because I just.
Oh, I think we lost her. I don't know what more she could do to me in this program.
Can you not hear me? I hear you now. Yeah, it's okay. I hear you now.
Go ahead. Yes. So I'm saying, I'm saying just being in this program, having had Jackie several
saying that sometimes it's important to move places. I am planning to move out of the country.
But for now, I'm just trying to work things out for my daughter to come back home fast.
Then we can move together. Yes. Yes. I love that. I love that you are trying to rebuild your life
and let God come into the mix set. I hope that that is on your Jesus cares board. Have you done
your Jesus cares board? Yes, yes, yes, yes. Okay. And just the last thing. And because of that,
I've found myself not feeling pretty and looking good. So for the last 10 years, I've not thought
about a man or I've actually not even in the process of thinking right now of marriage. So
right now I'm trying to heal and there's no man. And I've not even thought of love anywhere because
I felt not looking pretty. So I don't think I really want a man right now until I'm done with
the healing program. And just so you know, you all, when they're, especially when there's
circumstances like this, this is a great example of the best path for her right now
is healing and focusing on getting her daughter back. Can God bring someone during that time?
Absolutely. But that is a good goal. That's a good focus. And so that doesn't mean just,
I feel like this is important to say. Some people really worry that when they finish phase one and
they go into phase two, that that means they have to date right now. And that isn't the case,
but everybody can listen to the education and the curriculum in there and learn stuff from it and
apply it to all kinds of relationships. And then also interactions with men, you know, on any level,
even if you don't want to date men, again, I kicked off tonight. Some people are, are even
just afraid to interact with men. It's great practice to allow God to help you heal in those
areas because God doesn't want us to be afraid, afraid of his sons, healthy people. Okay. Ruth,
thank you for sharing. And as I said, we'll be definitely praying for you about that. So glad
that you are looking to the Lord to heal and redeem that relationship with your daughter. We'll
be praying for her to come home to you soon. Laura, go ahead.
Yeah, I just want to thank you, Bethany, for making that comment about like, that we don't
have to like start dating as soon as we get into phase two, because that has like really been
stressing me out. I think that kind of like holds me back from actually moving forward in phase one,
because like, it really scares me to like start dating again, because I haven't dated in like,
since like the nineties or whatever. So it's like, but anyhow, that's like another topic. But
yeah, so for me, the broken promises, well, the first was like my dad, my parents divorced when
I was like six. And I just felt like, because he remarried again, like when I turned eight,
and just like all growing up, like I just never felt that he really placed emphasis on like,
being like an integral part of my life. Like I would spend my Christmases
and like, well, a week at Christmastime, and then like my summers with him till I got to be like a
certain age. And then I cramped my style. But like, after he remarried, he just kind of pawned
off on my stepmom, like the responsibility of like staying in contact with me, like sending
birthday presents, Christmas cards, and like calling me and whatever. And so that was him.
And then the other was the ex. So I found out like five years into our marriage that he was
addicted to porn. And that was like a huge issue in our marriage for like many years. I mean,
shortly after I did find out in 99, we did get into recovery. And but yeah, I realized when I
like told him in 2017, that I was actually filing for divorce, that he had been jumping through
hoops for me for like years. So because he knew that I wanted him to be in recovery. I'm like,
Oh, well, that makes sense. Because like, he always had excuses about why he
didn't want to be in recovery. And I was like, Oh, well, that makes sense. And so I was like,
well, that makes sense. Because like, he always had excuses about why he wasn't doing his recovery
work, or he couldn't go to a different meeting, or he couldn't see a therapist or whatever it was.
And so it's like, yeah, because if he was going to be in recovery, he had to do it for like himself,
not because it was something
than that I was wanting him to do.
So, and yeah, and so for me,
that was like a broken promise that like,
he couldn't love me or he wouldn't like,
make the effort to like, to work on his recovery
so that he could like,
improve our marriage and our relationship
and like, just keep our marriage together.
So yeah.
And something came up in my spirit
and you weren't saying this,
but this came up in my spirit.
So I feel like I should say it and this is for everyone,
but it came up as you were talking.
You know, something for all of you to think about as well
is maybe someone else didn't break a promise to you,
but maybe you broke a promise to yourself along the way.
That's coming up in my spirit.
So I felt led to write that down
and say it to you all as well.
And you all, sometimes we think of promises
as big things all the time,
but actually promises are like small things too.
So for example, if we say, I'm gonna do this,
whatever this is.
So maybe it's, I'm going to commit to working out
and we continuously don't do it and don't do it.
And we break our own word to ourselves.
That's also like,
basically we start to not even believe our own selves.
Okay, so just felt led to point that out.
Again, not that that had anything necessarily
to do with Laura,
but it was coming up in my spirit
from some of the things she was saying there.
One of the things, Laura, thank you so much for sharing.
I really, as you were sharing about your dad specifically,
the pond off, you were pond off on step-mom.
Here's why I'm honing in on that.
Ladies, tonight we're talking about broken promises,
but ultimately I'm trying to talk to you
about God's love and care for you.
Okay, so at the core,
if we believe that our own earthly fathers
don't really desire to pursue relationship with us
and they just pond us off on someone else or don't connect,
we translate that a lot of times onto God himself.
Okay, so if that's any of you all,
I want to encourage you to lean into what is the truth?
Who is God?
Do we know his character?
One of the things God led me to do years ago
was to really lean into taking one of his characteristics
and just studying scripture on it.
And like, what did the Bible say about God is love?
What did the Bible say about God is faithful?
What does the Bible say about God is gentle or kind?
Like the characteristics of God.
And the more that I meditated on those
and learned about what the Bible actually says
about who he is, the more I believed him.
Does that make sense, what I'm saying?
Because it started getting further down
into my heart and soul.
And as I was healing in that process at the same time,
like my heart was healing
and I was getting more truth in here.
So it was like both and happening at the same time.
And it was this glorious, you know,
like it just started feeling,
I started feeling lighter and more free.
And so Laura, in two things as well.
So I want you to lean into this
regarding your dad and your step-mom.
Okay, even if you've forgiven them before,
because unfortunately when we have these kinds of wounds,
they can cause us to attract people that are unhealthy
who will also break promises to us.
You don't need to be afraid of that
because you're here healing now.
And as we stay in community for all of us,
God can help community to protect us
from that kind of stuff.
But here's the other thing I want to say too.
So interesting, I did not plan on mentioning
the thing about phase two,
but the Lord kind of just nudged me.
And, you know, I've been encouraging you for a while,
keep going forward, keep going forward, keep going forward.
Y'all, sometimes we self-sabotage
even in our heart healing process.
Here, she's been afraid about something that,
what week are you on right now?
And there's no shame in this.
Just tell us what week are you in
in heart healing right now?
Week three.
Y'all, she still has two, well, three,
four and five to finish,
but she isn't giving herself permission essentially.
Okay, in her subconscious,
I'm not saying she's doing it intentionally.
In her subconscious,
she is not giving herself permission to move forward
because she's afraid of having to date.
And there's probably other things at play there.
But I think it's important.
Sincerely, I thought I was going to reach out
to you privately.
I didn't know you were going to share tonight,
but God had you on my heart the last few days.
And he told me to tell you that it's time.
for you to give yourself permission to move forward.
I did not know that we were gonna be talking
about this tonight.
It's time.
And specifically, interestingly enough,
Hallie brought that to mind.
I was thinking about a woman that's now in phase three.
I had a conversation with her recently,
and she said that I said something similar to her,
and I just happened to be thinking about that conversation
and how she said that impacted her.
And I was like, man, Laura, that was such a simple thing.
But in that moment, that helped her.
And the Lord said, I want you to tell Laura the same thing.
And so God sees you.
He knows your struggle.
He doesn't want you to be afraid.
He's your defender.
He's the one that's gone before you in this,
and he's gonna give you the grace and the courage
and the ability to walk out your heart healing
and anything else that comes in the days ahead.
Y'all, this is a glorious adventure.
I'm serious.
If you will look at it as fun, even in the hard moments,
God will weave it all together for your good.
He really, really will.
All right, Laura, thanks for sharing.
Thanks for letting me speak into those areas too.
I know those can be tender.
Okay.
Is it Jaquoy?
Did I say it right?
Yes, you did.
I'm so excited right now.
Okay, go ahead.
The first thing that came to mind
when you talked about broken promises
was my dad.
My dad left, I have a twin sister.
He left us when we were two.
So he moved to, I'm from Illinois and he moved to Nevada.
So he's been there to this day.
He still lives there.
So he would, sometimes he'll come visit us,
but I vaguely remember him visiting or even calling.
And he'll just make these promises to us,
like, hey, he's gonna come visit us.
He's gonna take us X, Y, Z,
or he's gonna fly us out to visit him
and he'll never show up.
So just go ghost.
So it affects me in my adulthood now
because even just relationships,
either whether friendships or even just a spouse,
I have, I feel like I have trust issues
because someone is telling me, hey, I'm gonna do,
I'm gonna make sure that I show up for you
to cut your grass or help with your kids.
I always have a plan B.
I'm like, well, if they don't show up,
I need to have a plan B because I just,
just because knowing the past that I'm like,
well, people didn't show up for me before.
So I think it really affects me today.
Yeah, I do think there can be some good in that,
but it's almost like a protect yourself
before the hurt comes kind of thing.
And so where I see that potentially coming into play as well
is in relationships, not just with men,
but keeping friends and people at arm's length
because of being afraid of them being too close
and hurting you or letting you down in some way.
Y'all, here's something important for you to process
for a little bit tonight.
Love is a risk.
Okay, it is.
And Jaquoy, my heart goes out to you.
I could tell just even as you were talking about your dad
leaving when you were two,
like I could hear some stuff in your voice in there.
So I feel like there is still a lot of tenderness
in your heart regarding that situation.
So just make sure as you're going through this process,
what week are you on?
I'm just starting on week four,
but I've been in the program for a little bit, so.
That's okay.
Hey, you're doing a great job.
You're here and you're showing up
and you're continuing to move forward.
That's awesome.
So this week's gonna be good for you
with this whole thing that you brought up tonight.
Week four is all about forgiveness.
As you're processing this situation with your dad,
I encourage you to use one of those forgiveness prayer
sheets and write down anything that comes to your mind
about your dad.
Even if it seems like your sheet is covered in things,
just write.
And you don't even always have to write a full sentence.
Ladies, you can write thoughts, you can write short things,
but just getting it out of you onto paper
is really important.
And then just writing that prayer to forgive.
And also on the plan B thing,
I just heard the Lord say to tell you
that he's your plan B.
So in the days ahead, I think he's just wanting you to know,
like, he has your back
and he's gonna follow through for you.
Or even earlier as I was starting us out,
it makes me think of people waiting
for the other shoe to drop as well.
That just came up in my spirit too.
So God's saying you don't have to keep waiting
for the other shoe to drop.
There are gonna be people that are gonna be really great
and you're gonna meet them.
And you're going to be really blessed by their addition to your life.
And that's, that's friends.
That's, that's the family of God.
That's men, there's so many different things that God wants to show
you, um, how amazing life can be.
Um, but some of that will be, the process will be the, the surrendering and
taking down, down the do not enter signs, you know, and I believe as you
process the stuff with your dad, you'll be able to do that a little bit
more after this week, for sure.
And anyone else, you know, I know we're mentioning your, your dad right now,
but anyone else that, you know, you feel like has failed you or let you down in
some way, um, that you would process that y'all, this is really good stuff.
I'm going to, I saw that, uh, Kristen raised her hand, Kristen, I will
come back to you if I can.
I'm going to start to shift towards our next content.
So we're going to talk a little bit about submission again, tonight.
Some of you have been here before when I talked about submission, but hang with us.
I want to talk about submission again.
It means to yield.
Some of you are hearing it for the first time tonight to
yield to the power of another.
So most importantly, we're talking tonight about yielding and
submitting to God first and foremost.
Okay.
And what does that look like and feel like?
And when you even hear the word submission, I just want to activate you all.
What does that make you think of?
If you hear the word submission, what are the first thoughts that come to your mind?
Go ahead and put those in the chat for me.
I want to see what those look like and sound like for you all.
Phrases taking away my power.
Okay.
Safety.
Yeah.
Cause some of y'all have good experience with it.
Obey giving up helpless, no control, lesser letting go.
Anyone else scared?
Y'all are being honest.
I love it.
Humbling myself, trusting another.
Okay.
Keeping those in there as you have them covered.
Shelley says covered as we start to talk about this, I want to encourage you again,
just in your healing process to let go in this process and make a choice to trust God.
Even like I was saying to Laura, like y'all don't hold yourselves in prison.
Okay.
Give yourselves permission to live, to move forward, to see what God has for you.
Submission is not about someone dominating us or controlling us.
Okay.
So I saw a lot of you all, that's kind of the story that the enemy has told you about
submission and that's come because there have been people that had authority over
you to some degree, if you will, and they abused it or they fell short in some way.
Um, and you probably got hurt in the process.
Maybe it's also because you didn't learn a healthy view of submission growing up
because it was mishandled in your home, even as a kid.
So submission is never, God never intended it to be about someone
dominating us or controlling us.
Submission is about, and this is in regards to a future spirit mate, you all,
when I'm talking about it in this regard, submission is a mutual
surrender and respect mutual.
You're a team you're coming together.
Okay.
You're, you're, you're locking arms.
Okay.
None of this.
I'm above you.
I'm pushing you down stuff.
That's not God's view of submission.
Okay.
So if we believe we have to become a lesser in order to submit to a future spirit
mate, we actually also believe that about God and we're, we're aligning with lies
that we have believed because of trauma.
So if that is something, you know, that you have no, we're never in control.
Shirai, we're never in control.
So remember that, remember, we talked about that controls and illusion.
We're never in control.
God in his infinite power is in control.
Okay.
So no matter what comes, we can trust God to defend us and protect us.
The Bible talks about that.
He will hide us in the cleft of his rock.
Y'all, when we need help, he will protect us.
He will hide us.
And some of you, I know we've talked about this before.
I'm not going to go into too much tonight, but some of you have not
believed that because you experienced harm at the hands of someone else.
That was not God's will for you.
That was not God's will for them.
God did not cause that harm.
The enemy is the one that brings death, disease, destruction, disruption, all
the, all the bad stuff that is always about bringing life and health and
healing and, uh, repairing and rebuilding things.
All right.
So when we choose to submit to someone else, we are actually choosing to honor
them, to honor the relationship and to be a part of a process with God, with God.
So when we choose to submit to someone else, we are actually choosing to honor
with them. Okay. So one of the things I told the ladies earlier is way in the early dating
stages, um, I didn't have this conversation with everyone. Y'all, we're not going to talk
about dating tonight, but I do feel like this is important to mention. Okay. When I knew
that Brian and I were, were exclusive, we had already decided we were going to only
date each other. This is after dating some other people and things. Um, this was something
that we talked about because I had been abused in my prior marriage. Um, I was abused in
my home growing up. My mom was very manipulative in like lots of different ways. And then,
um, you know, the stuff I went through with the girls, dad, and I just knew that I could
not be with someone married to someone who would try to push me down to make themselves
feel bigger. Okay. So I know that that stuff is out there. That is not what healthy submission
looks like. Okay. So Brian and I talked a lot about, um, what our beliefs about submission
were and, you know, I was pleasantly surprised that he had the same view that I did, that
it was a mutual agreement. It's a mutual respect. It's a mutual surrender to one another,
a partnership. Okay. All right. So I want you to think about yield signs, you know,
the yellow signs, that's the one, not the, well, you can think about the red and white
ones too. Okay. Different places have them different colors, but I just want you to think
about yield signs and what is their purpose. The purpose is to tell us to slow down. Why?
Because typically we're approaching traffic that's coming the other, you know, coming
the other way, or there's pedestrians that are going to walk in. So it's to protect us
from having what accidents or close accidents or that kind of stuff. And this is the reality.
Sometimes some of us just plow right through the yield sign. We see it, we see it there,
but we just keep going. And then we wonder why we got in an accident, right? Isn't that true?
Sometimes we blow, we blow right past red flags, yellow flags, and God saying, pay attention,
just pay attention to this. Okay. So tonight I want to encourage you don't, and in this
next week, I don't want you to blow past the yield signs, even in the sense of like, if
God is saying to you, Hey, you don't have to stop here for good, but just, Hey, let's
pause and look at this wound. Let's pause and look at this area. That's coming up right
now. This thought that you haven't had this thought in a long time about this person,
you know, all of a sudden someone from high school is coming up in your dream at night
or in the daytime. And you're like, what in the world? I haven't thought about this person
in ages. And they were someone that bullied you. You know, I don't know what the scenarios
are, but that's just what's one of them that's coming up. So whatever comes up, like ask
God questions about that. Don't just blow past those things. God is a reminder. He will
not force his way in on you. He will not plow the door down. Romans two, four says, or do
you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, forbearance and patience, not realizing that
God's kindness is intended to lead you to repentance. He stands at the door of your
heart, our hearts and knocks revelation three 20 says behold, I stand at the door and knock.
If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come to him and or her. I put in there
and eat with them and they with me. So I'm, I've been sharing that scripture over and
over and over again, the last several weeks, because it's so important. So many of you
believe that God is just going to come and plow the door down. He's just going to like
bring this bulldozer and this big ball and just wreck the whole thing. And he is not
like that. He's not like that with your heart. He's not like that with your life. He's not
saying you've messed up too much. So I just got to start all the way over. He's not saying
all any of that stuff. He's saying, I stand at the door and knock on the door of your
heart and you, each one of you, Nikki gets to choose to let them in. Sure. I gets to
choose to answer. God, I hear you. God, I'm going to let you come in. Even though, even
though I'm a little nervous, God, I'm going to let you come into this area of my heart.
You know, he knows what we need and when we need it and he knows how to get it to us.
Job 22 verse 21 says, submit to God and you will have peace. Then things will go well
with you. Proverbs 3, 5 in the message version says this, trust God from the bottom of your
heart. Don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything
you do, everywhere you go.
So he's the one who will keep you on track.
Don't assume that you know it all.
So we have to listen, we have to trust him.
We have to believe that he is doing something good
in our lives.
I'm gonna put you into breakout rooms
and here's your question.
Do you struggle with submission and why?
All right, let me recreate these.
I want y'all to meet some new people.
I'm gonna take it down to eight minutes
just because I wanna have a decent amount of time
to coach a couple people.
All right, there you go.
Go ahead and click to join those rooms.
All right, thank you, Lord, for everything that you're doing.
God, we thank you that you would just revitalize
our view of submission,
that you would transform the way that we look at
submitting to someone that is healthy,
someone that we can trust.
God, we thank you that you're also showing us
what it looks like as our heart heals
to choose to trust you more in this season.
We thank you for revealing the areas where we struggle
and we have fear, even as some of these ladies put in,
that they're afraid that they're gonna have to let go
of their protection.
So God, I thank you that you would reveal to them
the ways that you actually protect them and cover them more
through their choice to submit and choose you.
So Lord, we just thank you that you would bring truth
and life and redemption to these areas where,
yes, Lord, I just stand in the gap on behalf of leaders
and parents who have abused authority in the past
and in any way that they've harmed any of the ladies
in this group.
And not that I did those things, but God,
I just heard you say like to stand in the gap
on behalf of those people.
And I say to all of these ladies that I'm so sorry
for the harm that was caused to you through the people
that mishandled authority that was given to them,
ways they harmed you through words, through actions,
mistreatment, neglect, abuse of power,
oppressing you in one way or another.
So Lord, we thank you for healing and redeeming
the storyline of our lives.
We thank you that you go all throughout our timeline
and you can redeem anything.
And we thank you that right now that you would go
into those places where the trauma entered,
where someone did abuse authority and it broke us.
And we thank you that you had placed the balm of Gilead
upon those areas of our timelines,
those parts of our hearts, those stories,
that you would help us to hear everything
that your spirit is saying louder than the voice
of the enemy that spoke to us during that time of trauma.
And we thank you God for restoring our relationship
with you, help us to enter into your throne room of grace
in a fresh way tonight.
We thank you God that you would just help us Lord
to know your truth and that your truth
is what sets us free.
That scripture just keeps coming up in my spirit tonight.
Ladies, we thank you God that you in Revelation 21,
in Revelation 21 for it says he will wipe away every tear
from their eyes and eliminate death entirely.
No one will mourn or weep any longer.
The pain of wounds will no longer exist
for the old order has ceased.
So Lord, we just thank you that you are truly wiping away
tears from our eyes, that you are making everything new,
that you're giving us beauty for ashes
and the oil of joy for mourning.
I thank you God that we can trust and rely on you
in every area of our life.
Yes, Lord.
All right, ladies, I'm looking for just some other things
that I feel like God is saying to us tonight
through scripture in the book.
But we just thank you also for, yeah, Lord,
thank you for reminding us that our war is not with people,
that it's with principalities and powers.
In Ephesians 6, 12, it says your hand-to-hand combat
is not with human beings,
but with the highest principalities and authorities
operating in rebellion under the heavenly realms.
But I thank you God that you've also given us the armor.
You have given us the ability to close.
ourselves truly in your presence and your protection every single day. The armor of
God is the belt of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, the shoes of the readiness of
the gospel of peace, the helmet of salvation, the shield of faith, the sword of the spirit,
and the glory of God that is our rear guard. We thank you that you had just, you know, all about
Lord God that you send your angels right now to minister to us in every area. We thank you that
even as we sleep tonight that we would experience freedom and breakthrough. We thank you for
supernatural surgeries happening as people are sleeping and that they would experience your
truth and your revelation and your healing and your redemption. We thank you that you heal all
the wounds of every shattered heart and you set your stars in place calling them all by name.
That's what Psalm 147 verse 3 and 4 says. We thank you God that you know every hair on our head
and I thank you God that nothing is out of your sight. So Lord, I thank you that you can help us to
partner with the truth that you carry away our weaknesses and our sorrows and I thank you again
that you just help us to embrace the joy of our salvation. I thank you that you fill us with joy
unspeakable and full of glory and and for some that don't feel that now I thank you God that you
would just come into those areas where the enemy stole their joy and I pray that you would just
breathe joy into them that you would help them to experience true genuine inner joy from the inside
out as you I just saw in the spirit Lord like the Lord's putting together puzzle pieces.
So to speak that word over those of you that hear this replay that God is putting all the
pieces together and he's creating a masterpiece far beyond what you could ever ask think or imagine
and he has not forgotten you he will not forget and that's kind of a thread and theme of our
night tonight that he will come through for you not just someone else and everybody else but for
you yes all right here's another one Ephesians 3 17 through 19 it says then Christ will make
his home in your hearts as you trust in him your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you
strong and may you have the power to understand as all God's people should how wide how long
how high and how deep his love is may experience the love of Christ though it is too great to
understand fully then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes
from God
so good I love that I love that scripture
we just thank you Lord for what you're continuing to do in the breakout rooms we thank you that
you're continuing to help us as your sons and your daughters well it's just daughters tonight
on here but in my spirit I just felt led to say sons uh to step into your truth and your hope
in your life that you're rewriting storylines right now Ephesians 3 20 through 21 says never
doubt God's mighty power to work in you and accomplish all of this he will achieve infinitely
more than your greatest request your most unbelievable dream and exceed your wildest
imagination all right they're starting to come back he will outdo them all for his miraculous
power constantly energizes you isn't that such a glorious scripture I love that he will achieve
infinitely more than your greatest request your most unbelievable dream and exceed your wildest
imagination isn't that something just good to think about love it hi we lost you I think
it's okay my connection like I was getting out of my car oh yeah yeah yeah it's okay I'm glad
you're here they're gonna come back in like 20 seconds okay
oh that's so good that's so good
um
welcome back hello hello hello
all right welcome back as y'all are getting ready for whoever would be willing to share what you
shared in your breakout I want to give you the activations for this week
I have two for you and they're not hard. Okay. So don't panic when I say two
All right. The first one is this I want to encourage you all in and this is different than your Jesus cares board
Okay, because right now like the Jesus cares board is an overarching or even when you do have the cares
You can put them on there
but I want you some of you kind of do Jesus cares and maybe forget about it or have
Additional things come up and you don't realize you can put them on the board
And so I felt led for you all to do a list of three to five things. Okay, so it's this is easy three to five things
That you are choosing tonight to partner with God in
Saying God you care about me and you care about these things
Three to five
So as those come to your mind
Tonight and this week I
Want you to make those in a little list God
I'm choosing to partner with you that you care about me and you care about these
Three to five things now it cares about more than that
But I want you to start here and then I would love for you to take a screenshot
Of your three to five things or you can do it in text if you just want to type them into a post
But I would like to see them in the group
Again this is me trying to get you all to come in and embrace the community that is here for you
Look at your sisters on the screen y'all wave at each other. Just wave at each other. Yep. There you are
I'm kind of being a little silly
but this is an amazing group of women and you all have every opportunity to connect with these amazing women during this time and
The more that you are in the group posting and communicating with each other there can be really awesome
Friendships and connections made here don't miss out on that. Some of you are still kind of like on the sidelines
You're not really engaging yet
I I have this in every every group every time no matter when people come there are people that you know
They're just not sure and I understand some of y'all have been hurt before by people or you feel like ah
The enemy is like the group's too big. He just tells you all these lies. So you don't engage. I want to encourage you to engage
Talk to your sisters talk to each other. Let us hear what God is doing in you during this time. Okay, that's number one
Number two. Oh, that's awesome Shrey
Yeah, see this is so great
This is why I mix groups up sometimes even when it might make you all a little nervous sure
I just said yes, I found out tonight that Shelly's a kindergarten teacher just like her
Look at that awesome connection just from one conversation
Love that. Okay. Here's number two activation. Mm-hmm
So one of the ways that we can experience God from my perspective not that everyone feels this way
But even if you're not somebody that connects with God in this way
I want you just to kind of practice this because you might become one is
through nature any kind of nature
So some of you all what comes to mind? I don't know if y'all it wasn't really a good movie
But I didn't know back in the day
Pretty woman and there's a scene where she has him take his shoes off and just walk in the grass
Y'all ever do you remember that scene?
But I think about that all the time because so many times just like we're so busy
We're so busy and we're on technology all the time and we're not really getting outside as much and we're not connecting in nature
So whether it's by water for you flowers going on a hike or a little walk
Maybe it's just if you can't get to a beach or a big place of water
Maybe just go by a stream and just kind of like even if it's five minutes you all
You don't feel like this has to be this big massive outing if you want to do that. That's awesome
but even just taking five ten minutes half an hour, whatever your time allotment can be and
Connect with God. I want you to think about that Sparrows song that I read earlier and I want you to look around
I want you to kind of like pay attention to what's going on in nature around you and think about God as the creator of
the universe and
How amazing he is and how everything he created is amazing
including you
He didn't mess up you all and he cares about you
The Bible talks about like if you'll adorn a sparrow and
The lilies in the you know fields will he not also adorn us I
Want I want you all to think on those things this week. Okay. All right
All right, Joanna
Go ahead. You can go ahead and go
Yeah, so I shared in the group before when I thought about submission. I was like I
Like it was positive I actually viewed it as like yeah, I like I'm excited to submit to my
has been just because I always view that as something that would be positive.
And most recently, I was in a relationship with someone who I like, so he used submission
as a way to control and manipulate. And so like now when I hear the word submission,
it's more so like, it's kind of like a trigger of like, oh, like control or lesser than.
Um, so my view on submission, I'm realizing now that it has definitely changed from
what it used to be. Okay. Thank you for sharing that with us.
I know how many people can relate to Joanna here? Raise your hands. Anybody? Natalie, I see,
I see. I hate to call you iPhone three, but I don't know who you are. I'm so sorry.
Put it in the chat for me. So I know your name. I know I've seen your face before. I feel bad
that I don't remember your first name, but, um, there were a couple other people that raised
hands there too. So ladies, when we're in this place where, again, someone has, um, really,
um, misused authority and abused it on some level. I want to encourage you to ask the Lord
to help you again, even if you've already forgiven them, go use the forgiveness prayer sheet too.
And you all can get those. Um, I think before you get into the week that they're in, but I'm
not a hundred percent sure that we've done some changes on the backend. So if you can't let me
know if God is leading you to do forgiveness and you can't get that, I will get that to you, but.
Um, God wants to repair the damage that was done there.
And he wants to help you see that not every guy is going to be like that. And there are
healthy men out there that will, will respect you. Um, and here's, here's one of the things
that came up this afternoon and, and this is coming back up in my spirit now. So I want to
share this, you all, um, there are healthy men out there that will love you even in your ugliest
moments fully, and they won't walk out on you and they won't Lord things over you because you
made a mistake. Okay. So those are the kinds of guys you're going to be looking for men that walk
in the fruits of the spirit. Guess what? Fruits of the spirit. Some of them are gentleness,
kindness, faithfulness. Does that mean men need to be weak and not masculine? No, y'all. It's not
healthy for men to not be men. Okay. So we, as women, we want meekness and we want gentleness
and those are good things. And we should want that should want that in our men, but men are
chivalrous. They love to be chivalrous and do things for us and protect us. And, and from my
experience, if I explain a problem, my husband loves, he wants to fix it for me. He wants to
make that better, you know? And so men need to be able to be men. Now, do they need to come in
and take over and fix it when we don't need them to know, but guess what? We get to learn
communication. Y'all that's how it works. All right. So there are men that will come and
Joanna, I'm saying this to you. The reason I gave that example regarding what I've learned
and just what I've seen is in my prior marriage, my ex-husband totally misused
authority and, and my desire to be a good wife and submit because that's what I was told. If
you're a good wife, you submit. And this time it's just totally different. It's just totally
different. It's genuinely us in kindness, loving one another and honoring each other in our
thoughts and actions. And, and you know, even in our process of getting moved to a new church,
you know, I have, I have, I don't have to choose to trust my husband, but I want to choose to trust
my husband because I trust, I believe in him. I trust that he hears from God and that I hear
from God too. And together, together, we made a decision to come here. Does that make sense?
Everyone? Okay. That's what you're going to be looking for and people. Okay. All right. Let's
see. Renee, I see you changed your name there. Okay. Kristen, go ahead. And then I'll come to Renee.
So I shared that I have kind of a mixed feeling on submission. Like I, I think that
growing up, well, growing up, my mom, I viewed my parents more as a matriarchy. Like my mom's
more of the one who gets things done and, you know, has like, I don't know. I just respect
that she follows through and.
Um, kind of knows the wise thing to do.
And not that my dad doesn't ever, but I kind of got from her the mentality
that like, she knew better, you know?
And so it's like to follow her and versus, so I didn't, I don't know that
I really saw my mom like submitting to my dad super a lot, like if he got
angry, you know, she would just go, okay, you know, whatever to abate the
anger, but it wasn't usually because she like really respected and
trusted his opinion over hers.
And so, and then I had some abuse from my brother when I was younger.
So it's like the two men that, um, I looked to, to respect and
to protect and trust and lead.
I wasn't fully seeing that really happen.
And so I do think over time in my walk with God, that God has helped me learn
how to honor and submit to my dad and, um, whether or not I agreed with him
or thought that his way was right.
And also I feel like God's helped me learn how to submit to God as, as I've
grown in relationship and trusting him.
But I still think there's parts of me that are like, I've got to protect
myself and I don't, it takes a lot for me, I think, to find a man that I
respect and trust enough that I want to submit to that leadership and like,
and trust that he's plugged into the Lord enough and listening to the
Lord's directives that I want to follow for you.
Sorry to interrupt you.
I have a question.
It's important.
No, it's okay.
I feel like this is important.
Do you feel like you respected your mom?
Yes.
Uh, even when mom backed down because dad got angry.
Um, I kind of viewed it as like taking the high road, I guess.
Okay.
I feel like there's something to that because out of that whole
story, God nudged me about your mom.
So I just want to encourage you just to kind of be asking the Lord about
that, because I think that sometimes whether we realize it or not, and I'm
not saying you don't respect your mom.
I think in the general sense, most of us respect our parents.
Okay.
Even parents that are unhealthy.
We do our best to, to love and honor and respect our parents.
Especially when we've done processes of healing and forgiveness, but
subconsciously, if there is any kind of lack of disrespect towards your mom,
because she chose to back down when dad would get angry and then you also had
your brothers, I mean, if they were abusive towards you, I'm kind of sitting
here wondering like, what was mom and dad doing?
Well, when my parents said it was, I just have one brother.
And when my parents found out about what happened, they sat down and talked with
my brother and were basically like, this better stop and it stopped, but they
didn't know what to do at the time.
So they like never got me counseling or anything like that.
It just kind of got like brushed aside.
So.
And just know, I don't mean anything bad or disrespectful to your parents.
These are just important questions so that I can kind of navigate you because
you're saying you struggled to believe that you'll ever meet a guy that you can
respect.
And so for whatever reason that led me to your mom.
So again, I don't always know why God puts spirit and it doesn't mean that
that's going to end up being the thing, but maybe it'll lead you to where you
need to go.
Um, and so just lean into that a little bit and pray about it.
If it ends up going nowhere, that's totally fine too, but I think it's worth
just asking, asking the Lord about, um, and then, um, just come back and do a
post for me in the group.
Okay.
On that.
Cause I, I feel like there might be, if something comes up, I think there will
be follow-up.
I need to help you unpack with that.
Where in the, when you say post in the group, what do you mean?
Yep.
Are you, did you get connected in our app group?
I have the app.
Yeah.
Does everyone know how to, maybe that's part of the reason I'm not seeing people
posting in there.
Does everyone know how to get in the well?
Okay.
Eloise, you're in Facebook.
That's why, honey, you're, you're still in Facebook.
So that's totally different.
Cause you started at a different, you started before we launched that.
So anybody that started like Laura still in Facebook and Shelley, anybody before
yeah.
Anya's in there.
We have quite a few ladies that are here live tonight.
So people in Facebook.
Yeah.
Hold on one second.
People that are in Facebook are going to post in Facebook.
Okay.
If you're in the app and just know nobody's missing out.
Once y'all moved to phase two, you're all going to go to the app.
Okay.
So we just, it's this, there's no other easy way to do it, but go ahead and post
in Facebook if you're, if you're in Facebook, if you're in the app, when you
click on the tab that says community.
Okay.
In there, you can click all you can click wins, ask a coach.
Um,
If you have a specific question for me or one of the other coaches, you're going to want to select
ask a coach and then you just deselect all. If you guys are in your welcome area in the app,
there's a little tech video you're going to want to watch and I'll teach you how to use the
the app there for you, okay? All right, I'm going to go ahead and shift just so I can get to Renee.
If anyone needs to jump off, it's totally okay. I know we're already over time, so I want to honor
y'all's time. Renee, I would love to hear what you were going to share. So I am, I'm kind of
in between. So my original thoughts on submissive was bad, very much so. My husband, I came from a
very traumatic background and my husband was abusive, but I was a very type A personality,
so I'm a very take charge. And because my husband was a weak man, but then I wasn't a believer,
and then I came to Christ later on, which then like you, the church taught women were supposed
to be submissive. And he used that to lord over me, but I'm still a type A. I still struggle
with the submissive part of, I believe things have to be taken to, I have to take charge to
get things done in order for them to get done. And that's the way my ex-husband was in our marriage.
Like if anything needed to be done in the house or anything needed to be done, I was the one who
took charge and did it. And so being submissive, I believe in it in God's manner with marriage,
but it's still one of those that I'm, I'm open to, but I'm still leery about I'm more, I'm more
open than I've been. I look at it as a positive, but I'm not sure I can do it once I get into
marriage because I haven't dated in 16 years. So I have a couple, I have a couple things for you
here. Okay. And this can go for anybody. And when I say this, I understand why you're saying type
A personality. Okay. So that's my preface. Okay. But I also want to encourage you to stop partnering
with that. Okay. Here's why divine feminine can't come out to play when type A personalities are
always in charge. I'm not saying you can't be strong. I'm a boss, babe. I loved it. I love to
make it happen. You all I like I I'm good. I'm good at administration, but there's a difference
between understanding my anointing and my gifting and walking in that when I have the open door to
do it versus believing the lie that if I want something done, I'm the only person that can do
it. So I've got to do it. So I say this with a lot of love to you heard that line somewhere in your
life. So I am wondering if you maybe heard mom say stuff like that. Number one, that that's one
thing I want you to kind of ask the Lord about number two is, was there a point in your life
where you, there was something that needed done and you really felt like no one else stepped up
to do it and you felt kind of forced to do it. It could even have been a hurtful situation. I don't
know, like something where you felt pushed into that role. I pretty much had to raise myself since
I was I was on the streets pretty much most of my life from the age four on both my parents left
from five. My, my dad left when I was four well five and my mom left when I was five. So my dad
divorced my mom when I was four, let me clarify. And then my mom left when I was six. And so I was
left with her boyfriend. So I was pretty much raised on the streets. I didn't have parents.
So if I wanted food, I had to get it myself. If I needed something, I had to get it myself.
So pretty much it was all on me to get what I needed pretty much most of my life. Okay.
This makes a hundred percent sense to me. So I want you to hear me say this first from the Lord
to you. I'm really sorry that you went through that and that you felt like you were the only
one that could take care of yourself and that nobody that should have been taking care of you
did. That was not God's plan for you. And his heart was breaking watching that happen. And
so now here's the great part. Okay. The good side of this is you're here now and you're getting healing.
and God wants to help you come out of agreement
with the lie that you have to do it all by yourself
or that no one's ever gonna partner with you to get it done.
And it's gonna be really important for you
to come out of alignment with those lies
because a good man that is chivalrous will come along
and if they don't believe the women will let them help them,
they won't stay.
Yeah.
Yeah, and I don't want you to be afraid of that, okay?
But I want you to know that it's time for you
to let God heal those broken places
where you felt neglected and abandoned and alone.
And he wants to start showing you
what his plan was for you all along
before that trauma ever happened,
before your dad left, before your mom left
and you were on your own.
And so, sorry y'all, I gotta go after this a little bit.
God's gonna restore your childhood to you
and I know some of us, we think, well, how can that be?
It's kind of like Nicodemus,
like how can I become born again?
How can I go back into my mother's womb?
And we just don't fully understand
and can't comprehend these things, but God does make it so.
I didn't feel like I had much of a childhood.
I kind of, in a sense, not by any means
what you just explained did I experience,
but there were times where I felt like I had to raise,
my mom wouldn't get out of bed, a lot of different reasons,
but it was hard and the abuse and all that that went on.
And so I remember just feeling sad
after I came to the Lord more so,
just really recognizing like, man,
like I didn't get to be a kid.
I didn't get to just be a kid.
And God said, I'm gonna help you.
I'm gonna give that back to you.
And you all, I laugh more now than I,
I mean, I think these were things that I did.
I felt as a kid, but I, because of all that other stuff,
it just got really covered up.
And then I didn't get to experience the fullness of it.
But like, I mean, even I'll tell you all a story.
I had this boxer and you all just imagine, just imagine.
I know you only see me on the screen,
but just picture this with me.
She could play hide and seek you all, I'm not joking.
I would hide and I would be like, Chloe.
And I would hide and like only say it every now and then.
And I taught her how to play hide and seek.
This is what I, this is the, this is who I am, y'all.
This is really who I am.
I'm letting you in on some secrets tonight.
I'm the girl, I like to, my poor husband, God bless him.
I like to jump out and scare him.
You know, why?
Because it's fun.
It's fun.
But I'm sharing this with you
because there was a lot of years in my life
that I was not being myself.
I wasn't being this person that I'm describing to you,
but I'm having a lot of fun figuring that out about myself.
And, you know, it looks a lot of different ways.
It might look like for you,
like trying some things that you have always wanted to do
and never done and let yourself really feel fun again.
And not just be the doer, doer, doer, doer.
Does that make sense?
It does, very much.
Okay, I think this is gonna bring
a lot of breakthrough for you.
I saw that someone asked about divine feminine.
I don't have time to go into that tonight.
You all will learn about that in phase two, for sure.
Hey, if you go into phase two,
you'll learn about it there in depth.
Y'all, we've gone way over.
And so I need to close this out.
Eloise, I'm not gonna be able to take your question
or your stuff right now,
but will you put it in the group for me, please?
And I'd love to respond to you there.
God's doing some awesome stuff, ladies.
Let him keep celebrating your wins,
keep celebrating the strides that you're making every day.
Man, it's such a blessing.
I feel like just a moment in time,
this is such a blessing to be a part
of this night with you all.
You know, all these same people right now,
look at the screen, y'all.
Look at the names, look at the people.
These same people may not ever be in the same room
ever again together at this time.
Now we might, but it won't be exactly these people
that we're here right now, okay?
God ordains things for a purpose.
So see the goodness, see the glimmer, if you will,
in the things that he's doing
and bringing you together with these people right now.
Let me pray for us.
Father, thank you so much for your healing.
And your grace, God, thank you, God.
Going after the one.
Going after the one, Lord.
That's what your word talks a lot about, that you will leave the 99 and go after the one.
So for those that feel and have felt like the one at times, God, thank you that you've
gone after each one of us.
I thank you that you bring us into the fold and, and you say, you are my daughter, my
beloved and, and you pour out your love into our lives, into our hearts, into our minds.
Help us to open up, to receive everything you have for us.
We thank you that you'll help us to step further into the fullness of who you originally created
us to be each and every day, one step at a time in Jesus name.
Amen.
Kelly, the answer to your question is yes, yes, there are men out there like that.
I'm telling you about one that lives in my house.
And he's not just one of a kind.
There are a lot of good men and God is raising up men that love him all over the world.
You all pray for men.
He's doing it.
God bless you all.
Have a good night.
I'll see you all in the groups.
Okay.
Love you.