I'm going to go ahead and take a few more questions.
Hello.
Happy Monday, you all.
Good to see everyone.
Welcome, welcome.
Awesome.
As people are starting to join,
I would love for you to put your name in the chat.
If you are joining us this evening,
I imagine more people are going to be signing in.
If you are new for the first time,
I would love for you to put your name in the chat.
Even if you have been in the program for a couple of weeks,
maybe this is your first live session.
Maybe you are not watching replay but you are here live.
I would love for you to put your name in the chat.
I'm going to go ahead and give you all a heads up.
We have noticed a new name.
Welcome, Nicole.
Anyone else new joining for the first time?
I just want to give you all a heads up.
Naomi.
Glad you are joining us as well.
Naomi is new.
I'm going to give you all a heads up.
Just FYI, we don't allow that.
Here is why.
There is coaching that happens in this group that is personal to
people.
While we record these sessions and it is put inside of the group
, we do not allow that.
It is the same as having someone's story dictated.
Especially by AI.
We are never going to approve that.
Get out your trusty pen and paper.
I take notes all the time.
When I'm listening to Jackie,
if you saw how many notes I have around my house.
I'm not knocking technology.
I'm knocking technology.
The replays plug.
If you have not heard our Supernatural Saturday from this past
Saturday,
or even the special session we did last night,
I would love for you to check those out and listen to them.
They will be under your replay tab if you are in the app.
I want to make sure everyone knows where to get our replays.
If you are in the Facebook group,
we are still in there talking to you.
You are the last people that will be in the Facebook group.
Anyone that starts after that point,
when we launch the app,
goes into the app.
Those in the Facebook group,
you have Kajabi.
You have a lot of people in the Facebook group.
I want you to practice a couple things when you join HeartWork.
Recommendation is one week of content per week.
One week of content per week.
If you go a little slower, that's okay.
I don't want you to feel pressure.
Some of you will feel the nudge of the Holy Spirit that says,
you are getting a lot of revelation here.
If you go a little slower,
that's okay.
We don't want people going really fast.
No one should finish this course in two weeks.
It's a five-week course.
If you tell us you have finished,
we will hold you back.
Here's the thing.
Some people want to try to fly through the HeartWork
.
Some of you,
you keep attracting the same unhealthy guys.
You keep getting stuck in the same pattern.
You want to have a spirit mate.
You want to be married.
It's going to take the HeartWork to make those changes.
That's how you're going to get the breakthrough you need.
You don't keep falling into those cycles.
I want to encourage you to stop.
It's a long course.
You are going to have to make some consistent struggles.
Maybe you tend to not be able to hold down a friendship.
Please trust us when we say,
brand new and you're joining us for the first time,
don't binge the books
inside of every, you start with the welcome area,
then you go one week at a time.
Inside of every week, there is what's called instructions.
Please read those.
When you click on it, it's gonna tell you
what book pages to read, what videos to watch,
what questions to journal and spend time with the Lord on.
That is there for you.
And this is why.
We have worked on this system for years, you all.
It's in a really good place.
And the pages that we've paired with the videos,
it's gonna help you get breakthrough
in ways you can't even imagine right now.
So my last housekeeping item,
we do this at the beginning of every session, you all.
So just things I need to make sure you know as your coach,
as well as just about our program.
You all, we wanna encourage you in HeartWork
to press pause on dating and talking to guys on the app.
And I know some people don't wanna do that
when they hear us even say that
because people will have panic rise up or fear.
They're gonna miss out, especially if they met a guy,
if they like right before they came into this program
and they're like, wait a minute,
that's gotta be God, right?
No, you all, not necessarily, okay?
I'm not saying they're not a good guy.
Time will tell.
But here's the thing.
If you will tell that guy,
hey, I have signed up for this incredible HeartWork program
and I need to just focus on that for five weeks.
I've enjoyed getting to know you,
but this is really important
and I need to focus on this for the next five weeks.
And I'd really enjoy reaching back out to you
after I'm finished if you are open to that.
That's how you wanna maybe say that to someone.
And if they react and get all bent out of shape,
you all, that's not your spirit mate, okay?
If they respond and they embrace and they're supportive,
that's some good fruit.
That's some good fruit.
You all are gonna look for fruit.
You're gonna hear that the rest of our program,
we're gonna encourage you to be fruit inspectors, okay?
All right, let me pray for us.
We're about to go into our content.
God's good, you all.
Let's reach out to him and hear what his spirit is saying.
Father, thank you.
Thank you for your grace.
Thank you for your goodness, God.
Thank you for revealings, for healing happening
in everyone's hearts, minds, bodies, spirits,
and souls supernaturally tonight.
God, I thank you that we,
I just myself am a vessel.
God, you're the one that does all the incredible work.
So help me to hear what your spirit is saying.
Help these ladies to hear.
God, I thank you that you would bring freedom
and revelation.
Your word declares that wherever the spirit of the Lord is,
there's freedom, there's liberty.
We declare captives being set free.
And we thank you, Lord, that you would loose cobwebs
and loose chains off of minds, hearts, bodies,
spirits, and souls.
I thank you, Lord, that you would take us deeper
in the understanding of your love
as far as the revelation also of your desire for us
to step further into the fullness of your plan
and purpose for us, not just any plan,
but your original design and plan for us.
Help us to hear, God, and help us to take steps
towards that every single day.
In Jesus' name, amen.
All right, tonight, you all, I told the group earlier,
I literally went to bed thinking that we were gonna talk
about two topics and God kind of changed the plan
right before I went live this afternoon
because I kept looking for my notes
and y'all, I organize them all the time.
They're in a binder and I cannot tell you
how many times I flipped through and I could not find them.
But I kept seeing notes for a different one class
that I had done.
And the Lord was just kind of finally like,
hey, hey, this one, this one.
He was highlighting it to me.
And so I wanna walk in obedience to that.
And we're gonna talk about stories.
And what I mean by that is the stories
that you tell yourself.
The limiting thoughts and belief systems
that you have been living in,
some of you don't even realize you're doing it
subconsciously, it's just happening.
Some of you learned these thought patterns
and belief systems and behaviors from family,
from generation to generation.
And so you're just not, you're not recognizing it.
And we're gonna go into why here in a little bit.
But the Lord wants you to step out of the old story,
the old story that you've been telling yourself
that these orphan mentalities even hang out with.
An orphan mentality often tells you all,
there's not enough, you gotta scrap.
There's not enough good men.
And if there's one good man,
everybody's gotta fight for him
because there's not any more.
And it can look a lot of different ways,
that's how it tends to show up in our community
or inside of ladies.
And so when I encourage you, maybe your old story is also things like,
you know, nothing's ever going to change.
Maybe it's, you know, I'm never going to get out of the financial mess I'm in.
I'm never going to be able to, you know, make my parents happy.
I'm never going to be able to, um, Experience true joy.
I don't know what your old story is.
I'm going to give you guys some other examples, but those just came up in my
spirit. And I'm, I'm trying to like, just start letting the Holy spirit work in
you. What is the old story that you constantly tell yourself?
And then when we step out of that old story, so we're turning away from that.
And we're saying, okay, I'm not going to partner with you anymore.
And I'm going to choose to step into this new story over here.
And what is the new story?
Here's the reality all from the beginning of time, when God created each one of
you, he wrote your story.
And he wants you to step, I prayed about it into the fullness of his original plan
and purpose for you, that is part of your new story.
Also, your new story is being written as you go.
Well, wait a minute.
What do you mean?
You mean God hasn't already like caused that I have to go all these single way,
all these ways.
And if I don't, then I'm punished and well, y'all that's not who God is.
Okay.
It's not like God, of course wants us to choose the healthy path.
He wants us to choose the pathway of righteousness and says, even in the word
that we want to go off to the left or the right, but that we would stay on the
pathway, what to wear to him, the pathway of righteousness, the pathway that leads
to intimacy with him, the pathway that leads to us healing and, and letting our
walls down and letting him come in and heal us and love us, and then teach us
how to do the same with other people, including our spirit mates.
So God is rewriting your story.
Every day you are becoming someone new today.
I know, but you all, some days are harder than others.
We, I live in Florida.
We just moved here at the end of June.
It's a little crazy here right now.
And if I'm being a hundred percent transparent, I've had anxiety on and off
all day that I have been fighting, not just my own, but every time I'm trying to
just get on and look at updates or even do my work, cause you know, I get
notifications from people responding to things in our communities.
They're just, I'm just unindated with stuff, you know, and then I have friends
that are checking on me because they love me, but they're scared for me.
And so then I'm like feeling anxious all over again.
Why am I mentioning that?
Because here's the reality y'all we're going to face all kinds
of stuff every single day.
Today, maybe when I go to sleep tonight, it might not feel like my best day, but
guess what tomorrow I have a whole nother day that I can choose and
I still have time tonight.
So who are we becoming in the midst of these trials, in the midst of the joy,
in the midst of the situations and things that are unfolding, who are
we going to choose to become?
And y'all it's okay to make mistakes.
We all do.
Okay.
But what are we going to do when we get back up?
It's key.
All right.
So I want to encourage you to be aware of the stories you're telling yourself,
which is what I started with.
So I want you to think right now about a situation and scenario
that you tend to struggle with.
Maybe it's a recurring thing, a place that you feel stuck, a place that you
come up against this wall and you tend to have the same reaction.
How do you typically react in that situation?
Is it healthy or unhealthy?
Are they thoughts that are true, noble, lovely, and of good report from above,
or are they things from beneath?
Only you will know truly what do your normal thought patterns sound like?
So for example, when you make a mistake and mess up in some way, what
is your normal thought pattern?
I want to see in the chat, go ahead and start putting some things in there.
What do you hear yourself saying to yourself if you make a mistake?
What are some of your normal thoughts?
Y'all, if you fail in a sense and make a mistake, what is it that you hear?
Okay.
Nikki says I've let God down.
I'm such a loser.
Laura says, anyone else?
I knew better.
Okay.
That's good too.
I should have known better.
Ooh.
I should have known better.
Ooh, three in a row there.
I should know better.
Shame and guilt.
Okay.
What does shame and guilt sound like for you, Mackenzie?
People will be upset.
I knew better.
I'm such a failure.
Anyone else?
God's not going to help me if I keep doing this.
can't get it right. All right, keep putting those up there for
me. I want to start to give you some additional examples of what
I believe are some thoughts story, some stories that you all
are telling yourselves with that God wants you to help or wants
to help you excuse me, step out of tonight. Shelly says
embarrassed, you look like I'm assuming you're saying you look
stupid, like to yourself. Is that correct? Shelly? Go and put
that in the chat for me. So your stories might sound like this,
it might sound like something else as well. But I just want to
put these out here because these as I, as I built this content
myself a couple months ago, these were some things that
really stood out to me from my own journey from things I've
heard other members in this community say or struggle with
regarding lies of the enemy. Here are a few. It doesn't
matter. These first couple go tend to hang out together. It
doesn't matter. What I mean by that is basically whatever it
was that you wanted, and didn't work out. You just tell
yourself, well, it doesn't matter. Because it's just easier
to tell yourself than to feel the pain of the disappointment.
And maybe the the story that you're telling yourself is, yeah,
I didn't want that anyways. Okay. So the breakup that you
experienced the friendship that fell apart, the closeness with
your mom that you've always wanted and thought you were
going to get and then something happened. Yeah, I didn't want
that anyways. Or the new house or the new car y'all is all
different kinds of ways. And I want you to think about the
times that you have lied to yourself subconsciously, and
convinced yourself that you didn't want something that you
really wanted. And if something comes to your mind, I want you
to write it on your paper. Okay. And I want you just to be
praying as I keep going and ask God to help you let go of that
lie, because it's important for you in this process, each one of
you to be honest with yourself and your heart. A lot of you
might, you know, as you go through this process, some of
you might cry a lot. Some of you might not cry at all. Some of
you might be really numbed out. Because you have felt pain and
disappoint for so long that you just at one point, you're just
like, yeah, I'm done with this. I'm not gonna allow myself to
be hurt anymore. And you just start to wall your heart off.
And you tell yourself that you don't care. I don't feel
whatever all the things to protect your heart, but that
actually causes our heart to harden. Okay. All right. So,
Father, I just I'm going to pray this right now. And then I'm
going to keep going. Fathers, thank you right now that you
would remove any stony places of our hearts. Remove those stony
places and put in place of them hearts that are flesh that are
soft and pliable to you God hearts that you can massage and
not in a hurtful way, but just that you would bring us back to
life. In Jesus name. Amen. All right, some old other words, old
stories. Maybe they sound like Lena, you should just give up on
this already. Or Julia, just just give up this is never going
to work. Fill in your name into that blank you all. Maybe your
story is I never get picked. Everybody else gets picked but
me. I wait on God. I do everything you say God. But you
always pick someone else. You always bless someone else. You
take someone else to the front of the line. And I'm always put
off. A lot of those lies y'all just want to plug this when we
think things like that. At some point in our life, maybe it was
a sibling or someone else that got something that we wanted or
our parent took care of the other sibling, more in our
minds. They got more attention than we did more love than we
did more affection or more stuff. I don't, you know, fill
in the blank, it can it can be a lot of different things. But
here's the reality is it feeds the lie that you're not cared
for as much as someone else. And when you partner with that lie,
you can then also translate that onto God the Father. And he is
not a man that he should lie. Jesus came and as a man, but he
is also God. So he never was fully man. Okay, he was man on
the earth. But what I'm saying is he was still always God. So
he's not like
us. He felt what we feel so he could he could relate to us in
our suffering. He went to the cross and bore all of our sin
and all of all of everything bad upon himself to set us free to
make a way for us to be in relationship with him. But y'all
he was still always God. We experienced man and in the in
the aspect of frailty, not God. Okay, men, myself included, as I
started earlier, we are all fleshly in our weakness, you
know, we make mistakes. Jesus didn't make any mistakes.
There's a difference. All right, maybe your lie and story that
you've been telling yourself is all men only date skinny women
were all men only like women with blonde hair. I mean, y'all
fill in the blank. There's all kinds of things there to maybe
you believe all men are liars. All men are cheaters. Maybe your
story is this program takes too much time. It's too hard. I hear
the phrase a lot. Online dating is hard. Dating is hard. Life is
hard. Getting my finances writers. I mean, I did it
myself. Y'all I used to say that all the time. This is too
hard. This is too hard. I would cry like God, this is too hard.
Like I can't do this. And you know what he would say? Yes, you
can. He was so good. He would always like, like, like a dad in
the in the stands or a mom in the stands. My grandpa was the
one that was always in the stands for me on he was cheering
me on. And I believe sincerely tonight, God wants some of you
to get to really grasp that. I didn't even think of it until
just now I released a very similar word during a prayer
session. One of the times I filled in for somebody else, and
it was moving that God is sitting in the stands cheering
you on. And he's like, you can do this. When it feels hard,
trust me, give it to me. I'll carry your heart and you just
keep on walking. It doesn't mean we won't feel stuff. But we
don't have to face it alone, y'all. If those are the
storylines, the things that I said there, if that's what we
tell ourselves, can you imagine? Like, will we get out of being
unstuck? Probably not. But if the storyline I'm telling
myself is, God, when I feel like something is hard, help me to
remember that I can rely on you. God, I thank you that you have
made me more than a conqueror through Christ Jesus. In all
things, I am more than a conqueror. Y'all, each one of us
can accomplish the things that are set before us. Why and how?
Well, the Bible tells us that he's already gone before you to
make a way for you to stand. And he's also the voice behind you,
telling you the way to go and that he is a lamp unto your feet
and a light unto your path. So how is it that we believe that
we're alone in this? His word says, I will never leave you nor
forsake you. Never. So tonight, maybe some of you right where
you're at us, I just want you to invite God into the situation
and the place, the old story. And I want you to ask him to
help you remember that in that you were not alone and you're
not alone right now and to help you shift out of that. He
doesn't want you to stay there, but the choice is up to you. He
will not force you. And y'all, here's the reality. Do you know
that even biologically, it takes time to change our brain and for
our brain to heal and recover and for new neural pathways to
be formed? If you have thought the same thought over and over
and over for many years, y'all, it's going to be hard to change
that automatically. But guess how you can repetition,
reminding yourself and reminding the devil on a regular basis,
who you are, who God says you are, what the word declares
about you and calling those forth, those things that are
so they are walk by faith and not by sight. Right? We got to
practice this stuff. We got to remind our brain and create new
pathways. I had to do it you all I promise you
It can work and it does work, but it takes discipline.
It takes consistency.
It takes, you know, not giving up.
And on the hard days, he will carry you.
So think about what you're thinking about.
I want you to start to examine your thoughts
more than ever during this hard work process.
And what I mean by that is that we don't get what we expect.
We actually get what we inspect and choose to align with.
So where are your thoughts and your heart postures
taking you right now?
And how do you want it to be different?
And ask God to help you get there, okay?
Here's part two of that though.
Where did these thoughts actually originate?
So what I mean by that is what's the original source?
I'm not asking you all to figure this out on your own.
I'm encouraging you, if you're here for the first time,
you're new tonight, or maybe you just a second time
or whatever, y'all are gonna hear this a lot.
It's a revealing for healing.
We don't want you to get shovels out and start digging.
We want you to ask God questions,
really good questions on a regular basis.
So Lord, this memory came up out of nowhere
and I don't know what you're trying to show me.
Lord, give me insight.
What are you trying to reveal?
Is there something in my heart
that you want me to know about?
You're inviting the Father, Jesus Christ,
and the Holy Spirit to come in and help you have revelation.
So what's the original source,
the original initial wound or trauma
that caused you to believe
and partner with these lies and stories?
And I wrote down, who told you that you were naked?
So there's this story, y'all might've heard it,
about Adam and Eve in the Bible.
When they ate of the fruit,
I'm gonna share the abbreviated version,
but y'all can go read it.
When they ate of the fruit
and realized that they were naked,
it says that they hid.
And then God came back into where they were at.
And he called to them because he couldn't find them.
And when they came out, he asked them, why are you hiding?
And basically what came out is he said,
in their conversation, he ends up saying,
who told you that you were naked?
So what I wanna say to you
is who told you that you were naked?
And what I mean by that is the story
that you're telling yourself,
who said that to you to begin with?
Was it a teacher?
Was it your mom, your dad, a friend, sibling?
Was it yourself?
When a trauma happened and you believed lies
and you just partnered subconsciously with that
and you just kept telling yourself,
like even Shelly was saying earlier,
y'all, I'm gonna go back and read
what she ended up sharing as a follow-up.
Let me find it.
Her original thing was embarrassed, look stupid.
And then she responded when I asked the question,
look stupid to others, then I feel stupid,
not on little things, but bigger things
that she takes pride in.
But here's the reality.
Do you know how many people tell themselves
on a regular basis, you're so stupid?
Like to themselves, you're so dumb.
You never get this right.
We say this stuff to ourselves, right?
But somebody said that to you
long before you said it to yourself.
Again, it could have been the enemy,
but asking the Lord for revelation
is gonna be key to your healing process.
So tonight I want you to imagine
a old school record player, y'all.
The younger ones might not even know what that looks like,
but a record player used to be placed on,
or a record used to be placed on a record player.
And if that record got a big enough scratch on it,
that record player would play the song up into that point.
And then it would like make this skipping sound
and it would never go past that point.
If you all know, you know.
And sometimes they were like good songs
and then all of a sudden, once that scratch was there,
nope, that record's really no good.
Here's what I wanna propose to you.
That some of y'all have some records on your record player,
that that's what it's like.
There's a scratch and a trauma and a wound,
and then the lies that were happening that you believed,
and that created the scratch on the record.
And that's why you keep getting stuck in the same places.
And so, God wants to give you a new record.
He wants to give you new downloads, a new revelation, a new insight.
Not just one, but multiple. He wants to take away all the things
that are not of Him, that are not of Heaven.
The Bible talks about being transformed by the, what?
Renewing of our minds.
That all old things would pass away,
and behold, everything would become new.
Everything would become new, from the inside out, you all.
Not just in our mind mentally, our heart.
Our heart is truly the root of a lot of what we think.
So if you're struggling in your mind,
there's probably healing that's also needed in your heart,
and they go together.
All right?
Okay, we're going to keep going.
We're almost ready for breakouts.
I'm excited for you all tonight.
Second Corinthians 10 five says this,
we demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against
the knowledge of God.
And we take captive every thought and make it obedient to Jesus Christ.
So I want you to think about your thoughts this morning, today.
Maybe if you had a great day and you just think, man,
I was actually thinking a lot of good stuff today.
Awesome. Way to go.
Maybe your rough day was yesterday with your mind.
I don't know.
I don't know if you all ever just feel like sometimes it's a battlefield up
there.
I don't know about anybody else, but some days it is way,
like way easier to be positive all day and think on truth.
Then other days.
Kelly, you can just listen in. If you can't go into breakout,
you can just listen and pray with while I pray when they go on
breakouts.
Think about your thoughts this morning.
I want you to think about your thoughts this morning.
I want you to think about your thoughts today.
Yesterday.
What have they been rooted in?
So what I mean by that, have they been rooted in overwhelm?
Like even I was saying earlier, anxiety.
Panic.
Worry dread.
Fear.
Some of y'all feel like, Oh, I don't want to take this risk.
But y'all that is embedded in rooted in fear.
Okay.
I want you to think about your thoughts this morning.
I want you to think about your thoughts today.
I want you to think about your thoughts.
Some of you that have felt like there's been this invitation.
Hope is starting to rise up. Truth is starting to invade the darkness.
And you're starting to have more positive thoughts.
Hopefully for those of you that are in week four and five,
that is where you're at.
Or if not, you're on your way there. Those of you just coming in.
Don't be surprised.
Okay.
So I want you to think about your thoughts this morning.
They're about,
are they about the things that you've been thinking about in the
beginning?
It's very common.
Okay.
All right.
That's scripture was second Corinthians.
10 five Laura.
We demolished arguments in every pretension that sets itself up
against the knowledge of God.
And we take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.
So.
We make it line up with the kingdom.
Okay.
All right.
All right. I also want you to think about this last thing.
When you struggle with these intrusive thoughts,
these old stories that are not aligning with heaven.
When do you typically struggle with them the most?
Okay.
Like the timeframe.
I want you all to start paying attention to this in the days ahead.
When do you struggle with these negative thoughts the most?
When are you stressed out at work?
When are you tired?
When are you stressed out in your mind?
Is it the middle of the day when you're stressed out at work or you're
bored or whatever it is?
Just giving examples.
When do you struggle with these negative thoughts?
The most, these old lies and storylines.
All right. So you're going to go into your first breakout.
And I want you to share about this question.
Okay.
And I want you to know what they're rooted in.
You can talk about that too,
but I want you to first focus on what negative thoughts,
because some of you, it might take you a little bit.
To really identify what your negative thought patterns are.
Okay.
And here's the thing y'all I've been saved for a long time.
And I'm, I feel pretty strong as a Christian.
But I still.
I feel like the most important thing is to learn to identify your
negative thoughts and responses.
And I want you to know that sometimes when pressure is applied,
Y'all like the diamond being made into a diamond. Guess what?
Diamonds are made when pressure is applied.
Okay.
All right.
You're going to go into your breakout.
I'm going to set those up right now.
in the main room. So even if you get assigned a room, just don't accept it.
All right. If any of you get into a room and somebody's not there right at the beginning,
just wait for a minute because sometimes internets are slower than others. I'll kind
of take a look and if anyone's alone for too long, I'll move you to a different room, okay?
All right, you all. So I'm going to give you eight minutes to talk about this.
I want you to talk about these negative thought patterns and stories first. If you have extra
time, you can get to know each other a little bit. Where are you from? What led you to join
the community? But please don't do that first, okay? I want you to do that if you have time,
but the goal of the breakout is for you all to connect, but it's to talk about these things
that we're working on as well, okay? All right, there you go.
So
we have everyone situated.
Good. Awesome. Okay, Father, thank you so much for who you are. God, thank you for truth. Thank
you for life. Jesus, I thank you that you are the light of the world, that you came in to bring
light into every dark area. So I just ask you to illuminate the dark places in our hearts,
our minds, our bodies and spirits and souls tonight and help us to receive your revelation
and truth. Thank you, Jesus, that you would help us to hear what your spirit is saying.
We ask you to help us to experience a fresh wind in our relationship with you,
a fresh insight each day that, yes, Lord, that you would just stir up hunger and thirst for
your righteousness, for your word, to know you in our hearts and our lives. We thank you for
heart surgery that you do while we sleep. We thank you for quickening and awakening dreams
within us at night as well as in the daytime. We thank you, God, that you would help us to
have ears to hear what your spirit is saying. We thank you that we are your sheep and your
sheep hear your voice, and we always obey what you tell us to do. So Lord, I thank you that
you'll give us insight every day to know the next best step that we should take every single day.
Luke 645 says this, a good person produces good things from the treasury of a good heart and an
evil person produces evil things from the treasury of an evil heart. What you say flows, so what we
say and also what we think flows from what's in our hearts. So we thank you for placing the
balm of Gilead upon our hearts, Lord, that you would just supernaturally bring healing
and wholeness, that we would be completely whole, lacking no good thing. I thank you, Lord, that we
would really cling to your truth and your promises. I thank you that you would help us to
lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us and press on toward the high calling of God for
our lives, that we would never give up, Lord, even as I was saying at the beginning of the
session tonight, that we would be determined, or I said it this afternoon, that we would be
determined to be unstoppable. I forgot my mug tonight. God asked me to talk about that this
afternoon and it was just really fun. And I had this unstoppable mug and that just came back to
my mind. Sorry, someone was asking for help at the same time I was trying to tell you all that story.
I think someone's in with someone who they can't hear them.
Hold on one second, y'all. I'll be right back.
Okay, Leanne, let's see here.
Can you tap it?
Let's see if it'll let you talk.
No.
Try leaving the meeting and come back.
Let's see if that will work, okay?
Where are my breakout rooms?
There they are.
Sorry, y'all.
I've got to reset my screen, and then I'll start to pray again.
All right.
Where was I going with that?
Jesus only.
You know.
You know what we need, Lord.
Thank you for that.
Oh, Leanne, did it kick you out?
Or was she the one?
Were you the one that just left and came back?
Can you turn your screen on so I can see your pretty face?
Can't tell.
Oh, she said, okay, I'm going to go get my computer.
All right, awesome.
All right, so, Lord, we just thank you for technology things being worked out.
We thank you for healing and truth.
I'm going to go ahead and bump that other lady to a different room so she's just not
sitting there by herself.
All right, there we go, and then I can put her in a different room.
All right, so, Lord, we just thank you for wisdom and peace, even when we face obstacles
with technology and trying to get things situated.
We thank you for blessing.
Father, we just thank you also that you would help us to trust in you, that we would be
able to experience your peace in all situations, which exceeds anything we can understand,
and we thank you that your peace will guard our hearts and our minds as we live in Christ Jesus.
We thank you for that.
Let's see.
Thank you, Lord, that you are also just the reminder that even when the thief comes to
kill, steal, and destroy, that you, Jesus Christ, came to give us everything in abundance,
more than we expect, life in its fullness, until we overflow.
Thank you, Father, for that.
Thank you, Jesus.
Thank you, Holy Spirit.
Hi, Leanne.
Is it letting you unmute?
Never had this happen.
Like, I'm clicking to try to let you unmute and ask you to, and it's not doing that either.
Did that pop up for you?
Okay, click that, and let's see if it'll work.
Hmm.
Have you done video calls on your device before?
Yeah.
I don't know what's going on.
I'm so sorry.
Did you have the same problem last week?
Okay, you did.
All right.
I feel like, remind me, send an email to our, did you send an email to our admin team?
Can you put that in the chat for me?
Okay, yeah.
So I think it's on, I hate to say this, I think it's on your side of the things, like
your settings on your device are blocking your mic from being able to be used.
But I, I'm not, I'm techie, but I'm not good enough to tell you what to change on your
phone or your computer.
But even if, I don't know if you have a Best Buy near you, but if you go in to like a Geek
Squad area, they might be able to help, or wherever you bought your device from, they
might be able to help you know, like if you're not sure how to figure it out, what to change
on your settings.
Or you can even do a Google search or something and put in like whatever your computer or
phone device is and say, how do I turn my settings on so that I, my mic will work?
Does that make sense?
All right.
listen in tonight. I don't want you to feel like you have to leave. Okay. I know you're not able.
It's not as like being able to go into the breakouts, but I want, I don't want you to feel
like you have to like leave or miss out. Okay. All right. Y'all sometimes technology, if we don't
know how to work it, it's okay. Just, just, I know it can be frustrating, but trust that God
will help you work that out too. And we grow in the process. Don't we all. Yeah, we do. All right.
So let's, let's lean into what God is doing. I want to encourage you all. If you've never been
here before, this is when we do our group breakout sessions and coaching. And, um, I ask someone or
a couple people, we try not to have too many people, but a couple share with everyone, what
you shared in your private breakout. And I don't say who wants to anymore, because that never seems
to work. So I typically switch to like, who is willing to be that person and who's willing to
go first tonight. Normally once we have one, at least one person, it gets other people kind
of thinking about some stuff. Nikki. Awesome. Go ahead. Hi. Um, so I shared in the breakout that,
um, my negative thoughts typically, uh, trace back to God and his view of me. Um,
and I was sharing with, um, Mackenzie that I'm sure it stems from people, but I don't have
any major trauma. My family was, um, like very healthy. I mean, not like, um, like there wasn't
any dysfunction, but there was no abuse or neglect or anything like that. They were Christian. They
raised me with, um, they raised me well, but nonetheless, I have just, um, constant thoughts
that I'm not pleasing God and that I'm never going to please him truly. And I was sharing that
like I'm in Florida too, and I've been here 23 years, so I'm used to hurricanes, but this one is
like making me a little bit more anxious than others. Cause I'm also in the line of the hurricane.
And I was sharing also in the breakout that I am feeling anxious, but then on top of the anxiety,
I feel very ashamed that I feel anxious because it's like, the Bible says that,
you know, we should, uh, present our requests to God and the peace of God
will, that surpasses all understanding. Well, God will guard our hearts. And so I was like,
even telling God today, I'm like, I don't have that peace right now at all. Like, and so I feel
like I'm a disappointment to him that I don't even have like peace in this situation that I should be
used to on top of that. So it's just like, I was sharing that it was anxiety on top of anxiety.
And, um, and Mackenzie gave me some good encouragement. Um, but I know that this
has been a, uh, just an ongoing thing, probably my entire Christian life, which is, which I've,
I've been a Christian for many, many years and it's like still there.
Well, okay. So here's a couple things. Um, the first thing I want to say,
anytime we feel shame, guilt, or condemnation, y'all that is from the enemy. Okay.
The reality is, is that we have flesh and our flesh is always going to try to do
and say, and think the opposite of what the spirit man would do say or think. Um,
so that's the first thought I had because, you know, feeling like we're a disappointment or
being ashamed of something, or, you know, that's where, what caught caused me to think about shame
when you said that. So my first thought is, uh, my first question for you, Nikki, is while you
had a great family and they were Christian, um, like, did you grow up with the idea that Christians
had to be perfect? Um, if I did that messaging to me must've been subtle because I never thought
that I did. I never thought that that was an expectation, but I mean, I wouldn't be surprised
if it was there and I just didn't pick up on it. Hey, did you feel like your parents were perfect?
No. However, something did just kind of come to me. Um, I actually grew up in a very, a very,
uh, um,
I don't know how to put it. My, my family is, is big in the ministry on both sides of
my parents. So there was like, I don't know if that kind of, yeah. So you had both sides
and the lineage and legacy in your family is ministry on, on all sides. That's what
you're saying. Okay. Very, very strong ministry, very successful ministries kind of thing.
Yeah. Okay. So is there some kind of like subconscious feeling of, you have to like,
like keep up with the Joneses, if you will, you know, keep up with the family lineage
and you know, all that they've done, you have to be. And even if people didn't say that
to you, is it like, like I almost envisioned if I was in a Royal palace and I saw all the
Kings and Queens that came before, and we heard about all their great exploits, if you
will, there would be an automatic. Potentially, I'm not going to say all the time, because
I think what's presented then is okay. I have to not be that. Okay. If I believe that lie
and receive that, whether it's coming from people or myself or the enemy, if I believe
that then I can actually not be just myself. And I will never feel like I'm enough because
I'm always trying to obtain something that isn't even me. Does that make sense? Because
it's every someone else's thing. For example, my oldest brother got straight A's. He was
like a top athlete. Everybody raved over him. And I felt like I was always in his shadow,
like always trying to achieve what he achieved. And my story though, what's interesting is
he was my main abuser. And so when I remembered the abuse, it was, there was this whole conflict,
not saying that's the same for you at all, but I'm just pulling that out for the other
side of the group here. And so then I'm like, y'all, y'all think he's so great, but it's
a big fat lie. I remember thinking that in my head all the time. So that was the story.
Everybody thinks he's so great and he's not. And so what are those stories? We just partner
with them. And so I think that to me, it sounds like you like, because the enemy told you a lie
somewhere, I almost keep hearing too, that like, you'll never be good enough. You'll never be as
good as them or stuff like that. And if we partner with that, well, then that does become our story.
And that does become the expectation of who we have to live up to be. The other flip side of that
is that y'all, we can pick this up from media on, if you, if y'all ever think about that,
I was coaching a young lady recently and she had a similar kind of story. Like she's been
raised in a good family. Now her parents did get divorced. So she did have that. And she
went through abuse as a kid. So she also had that trauma, but still she had this intrusive
thought that really wasn't related to any of those things. And she recalls watching a video
on TV or some kind of commercial. And just, it was something bad happening to someone on the TV
and, and the enemy lied to her and basically caused her to fear that her life would end up like
she would end up being like those people. Does that make sense? What I'm saying? And so just
ask the Lord, you know, just keep asking me, even if you already have, because again, every day we're
gaining new information, new insight. You might not have understood before gotten the piece that
you needed, but you all, once that piece comes and it like goes right in, you're like,
you're like, that's it. And so if you're not there yet, Nikki, I believe that God is,
is helping you piece things together. And it, it absolutely, these lies and storylines don't
have to come through trauma. They, they do often, but sometimes they can come through expectations
and inferiority complex is coming up in my spirit too. Like that always feeling
inferior to someone else. So is there a sibling you feel that way with?
No, but I do, I do resonate with that. The inferiority complex.
I have a younger brother, but, and that's it. And I don't feel that with him.
I mean, I mean, if I do, it could be subtle. What was that?
Did your mom, do you know if your mom ever struggled with that?
with that with her? Does she have siblings? Oh, my mom definitely struggles with that.
I think this is a generational thing. Yeah. My mom definitely struggled with inferiority.
Yeah. And she has two older sisters. Yeah. I think we're gaining some insight here. Seriously,
because as soon as I said, inferior inferiority complex, that's what made me think of big sister
and you don't have a sister. And so typically people would be just like, oh, I got it wrong,
but I am a firm believer on, okay, Lord, if it's not that what else is it? And I heard your mom.
And so again, we're just, we're just seeking, we're not saying 100% that it is that, but let's
just ask the Lord, is this, you know, something mom struggled with that, whether you realize it
or not, there's things that she was saying and doing that you're then subconsciously receiving
from her, not only when you're alive, but guess what you all in utero, that stuff legit happens.
Okay. So just be praying, asking God for revelation on that. I think you're going to
get some more pieces in the days ahead to give you a breakthrough, not to stay here to get
breakthrough. Okay. Awesome. Thank you. Yeah. Thanks for sharing. Okay. Is it your point?
Is that right? Awesome. Yes. I love your curly hair. I don't know if you had it that way,
but it looks so pretty. Thank you. No, I haven't. It's nice. Thank you. Um, one thing that I shared
in, um, the breakout, um, basically just this, today was a good day, but this weekend was one
of those days where I feel like I can't get things done. Like I don't have enough time,
whether it's getting things done for work, been, been a mom doing yard work, just even just doing
hard work. So I just feel like I, I, I pretty much put myself down like, Oh, I should have been
doing this for my time. I should have been doing that, but I'm, I'm spending my time doing all
these different things, but stuff comes up, life things comes up and then I'm like, okay, now this
is that back or I set a plan or a goal, um, for myself. And I'm like, I didn't achieve that goal.
Yeah. So, um, do you, do you feel like, um, do you fill your schedule to full and then you just
need a break and that's why you kind of tap out? Yeah. So I resonated with what you were saying.
And interestingly enough, this past weekend, I struggled with something very similar and, um,
had so much to get done, but felt myself avoiding everything, but not just that you all, I was
battling like focus, like I was struggling to focus, to be able to read and get things done.
And so, um, what I tend to do is like, okay, Lord, is this a spiritual attack or is this like,
when you guys get further into the course, there's a self-preservation technique sheet.
When we start to feel too much stress, we will sometimes shift into self-preservation mode and
sometimes self-preservation is checking out. It is y'all. There's a lot of different
self-preservation. Sometimes self-preservation is shut down isolation. There's all kinds of them.
And so, uh, Jacoy, I would encourage you or anyone else, um, just to be, even in those moments,
like instead of us being hard on it, I do it too. I have to watch myself like, oh my God,
what's wrong with me? Why am I like, why can't I do this? You know, but really checking like,
wait a minute. Okay. I noticed that every time I'm really have a really awesome chunk of time
to be able to read and conquer some of this stuff, even a book I'm writing,
I get, I feel like the enemy comes in, but it's also me partnering with old habits,
the overwhelm and the shutdown. And so I have to learn just like I was saying earlier,
you know, the new habits in the mind, when that comes on me, I need to maybe,
maybe I need to do a little bit of exercise and get some endorphins going or whatever,
but always come back and, you know, try to do it again. And sometimes that's not going to work.
You all write that first couple of times, because again, we're building new muscles.
We're building new habits. We're breaking out of old ways. And so of course our flesh is going to
resist. The enemy is going to cause resistance. Y'all, some of you are going to face a lot of
resistance because the enemy from the enemy, because he doesn't want you to move forward.
He wants you to stay where you are and maybe even push you back some. We don't have to fear
that. We just need to be aware of it and understand that Jesus
already gave you the victory. So you fight not for victory, but from it. I, I fight from it too.
I don't always, again, because I have flesh, I'm human. I also fight things, but I, I can remember
to apply the blood and ask the Lord to help me overcome. So even in this, what seems like the
small things, let's, let's try to catch our thoughts. I do want to encourage you as well,
or anyone else that struggles with similar stuff that when you're like struggling to do something,
you're getting down on yourself. Is that something that you've always done?
Um, if you've always done it, when was the first time you did it?
Or is this something along the way that like you started doing and saying to yourself,
and when did that start just again, getting to that root? Like when was the first time?
Yeah. When was the first time I started putting myself down like this?
Like I wasn't good enough. Was it me just myself or did someone else say that to me?
Yeah. Sometimes y'all, when you feel, I'm going to address what Alyssa said in the chat. She said,
I, I so feel this last night. I felt paralyzed. It felt like spiritual attack. I tried everything,
not always. And then she said more recent. Um, I want to encourage you all. If you feel a lot of
spiritual warfare, when you're doing your heartwork, I'm not trying to minimize it. Okay.
But I really want you to know that our, our worship is our warfare. Some of you all,
the best thing you could ever do is put some worship music on and dance around your apartment
and celebrate and rejoice. And you're not going to feel like it.
But you still need to do it. It's a choice choose to worship. Why? Because the King of Kings is
mighty. He sits on the throne and he's created everything. And he's working on your behalf right
now. And you're going to partner with that. And you're going to worship him because he's good.
You know what I'm saying? We don't have to do that. We don't have to do that. We don't have
to worship him because he's good. You know what I'm saying? We don't have to feel good to worship
him because he's, he he's good all the time. Yeah. Worship is your warfare. It's one of the
best ways you can battle. And here's the other thing. We don't want to focus too much on the
devil. You all, sometimes we get so focused on the devil and that's why he's winning. And so if
we'll just start praising, I said to somebody, I don't know if it was the last session, but y'all,
if I just sat here and just started reading, Oh, like out of my Bible over you, would not the
atmosphere change? Like just sitting here, just reading truth over you. Can you imagine if you
all, all of us, all 32 of us, if we would all agree this week, I might be changing our activation
by the way, it's coming up in my spirit. I might be changing the one I wrote down.
If we just, I don't know, 10 minutes a night, does that feel doable? 10 minutes, y'all 10 minutes a
night for you to just read out of the Bible out loud over yourself and put your name in there
as well. Like I'm going to use this little scripture here. What, where am I at? I am in
Proverbs 3, 25. Oh, God is so good. Y'all this is going to be good. 25 and 26. Now I did not do this
on purpose. Y'all I just picked my Bible up and just was trying to hold it. And then I felt this
nudge. This is what it says. Have no fear of sudden disaster. What, what was I just talking about? I
was not y'all it's not even the third. I normally read the proverb for the day that it is. It's the
seventh. Have no fear of sudden disaster of the ruin that overtakes the wicked for the Lord will
be at your side and will keep your foot from being snared. So how would I make that applicable
to myself? If I start in Jesus name, Bethany will have no fear of sudden disaster of the ruin that
overtakes the wicked for the Lord is at Bethany's side and will keep her foot from being snared.
Do you see how like I'm still reading scripture, but I'm putting myself in there.
Do not withhold good from those whom it is due when it is your power to act. Do not say to your
neighbor, come back tomorrow and I'll give it to you when you already have it with you.
God, I thank you that I, Bethany, will not plot harm against my neighbor who lives trustfully
near me.
And you just you just keep going.
If that if you're not ready to do that, that's fine.
Just read the scripture, the truth.
You know, the scripture says it will cut through bone and marrow.
That as soon as it's released, it will do that thing which it was like sent out to accomplish.
So that's what some of us need to do.
I think that is going to be our activation.
Can we do it?
Seven days.
Ten minutes every day.
That's activation number one.
Just if y'all don't know where to start, Psalms are awesome.
I was just in Proverbs.
You can literally any of them pick John, Matthew, wherever you feel led to go.
Try not to go into Old Testament other than Psalms or Proverbs, y'all, because it gets
a little tricky in there.
We're trying to we're trying to get the hope going.
Not that there's not hope in there.
All the words good.
But y'all, some of the Old Testament books, if you don't understand the context, it can
be very misunderstood.
OK.
Let's do it.
I'll do it with you.
I'm going to activate.
And then what we do with activations is we do them and then we go in the group and we
post about it.
And we say, this is what happened when I did this.
And we're going to testify of what God's doing in us.
I'll do it, too.
I promise.
I'll come in the group and tell you all what God does in me this week.
I really am.
No joke.
Y'all, that was totally the Lord.
I needed that scripture reminder tonight, but I didn't plan that.
God did that just now.
And that's how he'll show up for you, too.
Yeah, he's so good.
He's so good.
Who?
Jesus.
He's so good.
All right.
Having myself a Jesus party here for a second.
He's good.
You all.
Do you know that you can just say Jesus help.
If you don't know what else to pray, Jesus help.
A little kid.
I read this story years ago.
A mom was pregnant and there was something going on.
And the little boy, I might mess it up, but I think the story goes, a little boy put his
hands on his mommy belly.
And he said, Jesus.
Mommy's sick.
He'll.
Amen.
And that's what he said.
Guess what?
You all.
The Lord heard that little boy's prayer and that mom got better.
It's not about fancy words.
It's not.
We learn how to pray as we go, but y'all don't feel like you have to have something fancy.
Okay.
He cares about you and he'd rather have a conversation with you than no conversation
at all.
And I feel the Holy spirit on that.
Some of y'all need that tonight.
You're his dad, God's daughter, and he wants to hear your voice.
Yes, you can pray in your head, but I feel like the Holy spirit's on this activation
assignment as well, because some of you all need to get comfortable with hearing your
own voice, declare the word of God out loud so that you can also start praying out loud.
Yeah.
All right.
We're going to go on into forgiveness.
Thank you for those that shared.
God had something else there's a stir in.
So we went with it for a few minutes.
All right, you're on forgiveness.
If you weren't on last night, again, please, I was saying this at the beginning, please
check out supernatural Saturday and last night's session in the replay, when you get
time or make time for it, it'll be really good.
But last night, Jackie and I kind of, she led the beginning, then we kind of volleyed
back and forth on some things.
But the theme was repentance, confession, forgiveness, and how the days of all are about,
you know, really being introspective and asking God to create clean hearts and renew steadfast
spirits within us.
So I felt like it was really fitting to talk about forgiveness tonight.
Some of you all are in week four, some of you have just begun, you'll get to week four
at whatever point, but you can still receive the truth about this tonight.
Forgiveness breaks tethers.
I always use the tetherball example because it can be a little fun too, because forgiveness
is a heavy topic.
So I like to kind of lighten the mood a little bit every now and then.
And so I use the tetherball example, if y'all don't know, there used to be this game, again,
I don't know if it's still on playgrounds or not, but there was, there would be this
pole and then a rope and a ball that was connected to the rope and the kids.
would just stand on the playground and hit this ball back and forth.
And I think there was probably more to it, but that's what I remember.
And I said today, I was laughing because I was thinking about this.
I don't really know why I liked that game a lot, but I always wanted to play it.
And I said, maybe because I had been through so much as a kid and I wasn't
allowed to express my emotions a lot at home.
And so I'd go to school and just whack that crap out of that ball.
And it felt good.
Felt good.
Didn't it?
I see some people shaking their heads, so they know they had that experience too.
But I use that example because the ball is always connected to the pole
because of that rope, the tether.
And, and at the end of every day, for the most part, whoever it was, they
would come out onto the playground and they would remove the ball and the rope.
And that's what would break the tether, if you will.
And so I'm giving you an example because when we, when we have
unforgiveness in our hearts and our souls, it actually binds us to people and to trauma.
So we remain always attached to the pole, if you will, and nothing can take us
off of there, but to choose to forget, that's how you come untethered.
I'll give you another image.
If this is helpful to those of you that don't follow that image, if you
were in a hot air balloon and you wanted to take off and rise, y'all know a lot
of the hot air balloons are roped to the ground on all sides to keep it down, to
keep it safe, but when they're ready to fly and take off, they release the ropes.
Don't they?
Well, some of you, God's trying to lead you into the fullness of
his plans and promises for you.
And to cause you to rise, if you will, but the unforgiveness and bitterness
and resentment and all these things in our hearts are keeping us bound to the
ground and not truly able to move forward.
Some of y'all are walking around.
I just saw this in my spirit too.
You're like, I'm moving forward.
I'm moving forward, but you got like a broken leg and you're limping like crazy.
And God's just like, sweetie, just, just come into my presence
and let me heal this stuff.
And then I will restore that leg or whatever that is that's causing the
limp and you will walk as if you never had it to begin with.
All right.
So what, what happens when we forgive people?
Well, it doesn't mean we have to forget what happened, but it, it releases them.
It releases us from the trauma, from the pain and you all from my experience.
Um, I feel like it lets the poison out.
Like I still remember what I went through, but it doesn't pain me
in the depth of my soul anymore.
Does anyone understand?
Yeah.
When we forgive, we're not always going to feel like it.
We're not always going to want to do it, but it's important for us.
And I'm going to talk about some scriptures here that will help you.
But I want to give you this example first.
So I love this example because it's so simple.
So my sunglasses it's dark in here, but I've got this light, but if I was really
outside and the sun was bright, whatever, I'd put these sunglasses on.
But the reality is, is every time I wear these sunglasses, like even the light
that I'm looking at here changes the color of the light because it has a UV filter.
So when I look at the clouds and I'm outside, a lot of times they look peach
and pink, and like I said, something to my husband one day before I even thought
about it, that the UV was in here.
Look at those awesome, like the orange and the clouds.
And he's like, what are you talking about?
That's not there.
But y'all, these are filters and blind spots.
That's what I'm representing to you right now.
Some of you all have so much unforgiveness and bitterness, even if some of it is
subconscious, like you don't even remember some of the stuff you went through.
And so how can you forget if you don't even remember it?
Does that make sense?
And this is why, again, you don't have to go hunting, don't go hunting, but this is
why you ask the Lord to reveal things for healing so that you can get these blind
spots in these filters removed.
Okay.
What are blind spots?
When we put these on, what, what does it cause?
It causes us to see other people differently, see things differently, people,
situations.
It causes us to interact differently with people.
What do I mean by that?
Well, have y'all ever, anyone ever gone into a situation with someone and before you
even show up, you feel like you got your guard up.
Like you're not really sure if you can trust these people.
So you're kind of like open, but you're not,
you're not really open.
Anyone resonate?
Yeah, we do that, don't we?
Our filters and blind spots can also, you know,
and these are all connected to healing
that needs to happen in our heart and in our soul.
These blind spots and filters can also impact
our ability to truly connect.
So it's basically like a build on the last thing I said.
What do I mean by that?
Some of you say you want a spirit mate,
but you don't really even like men.
Let alone be able to look men in the eye,
connect with them.
Some of you, you know, have been so wounded
and hurt by your mom that you're terrified
of other female relationships or a friend.
So you come into communities and you never really interact.
I'm not shaming you all.
I'm just saying this happens all the time.
And then we keep saying, well, why can't I,
why, you know, why isn't this working out?
Well, the guys can tell that we don't like men.
Because if we have unforgiveness towards men in our hearts,
y'all, it shows up.
If we have unforgiveness towards other women,
that's going to show up to some degree
in our current relationships.
God's not going to hold it against you.
And other people who truly love you won't either.
But we want to learn how to become fully free and open.
So it can cause us to not be able to remain
in connection with God, ourselves and others.
Did you know that unforgiveness and bitterness
and resentment can actually cause you to change
the way you interact with yourself as well?
It can.
All right, Matthew 22, 39 says,
love your neighbor as you love, who?
Yourself, yourself.
So you got to learn how to love yourself first,
and then you can learn how to love other people
more as well.
Forgiveness is not a feeling, but a choice.
Ephesians 4, 23 says this,
forgive one another just as God forgave you
because of what Christ has done.
That is reason enough to forgive you all.
Jesus Christ died for you.
So Virginia, he died for you.
He chose you, he forgave you.
Therefore, we then can enter into that same choice.
Y'all, I always just go with the Holy Spirit.
Virginia, I'm not picking on you, girl.
But just felt led to say your name.
Colossians 3, 13 says,
remember the Lord forgave you,
so you must also forgive others, right?
So we receive his forgiveness first,
and then we release it to others, including,
yep, you guessed it, even our enemies.
Does that mean you have to bring them close
and spend all kinds of cuddly time with them, you all?
No, it does not.
Don't misunderstand that part, all right?
Of course, we wanna see reconciliation in relationships,
and that's what we pray for and believe for,
but we can trust God in that process too.
And it doesn't look the same in every situation.
Y'all, I'm having reconciliation and healing
in my family relationships with my two brothers and sister
that all abused me,
but I don't have close relationship with them.
I don't do life with them every day.
And that is what God led me to do
because I needed to change my whole life
and the way I did that was by moving away from toxicity.
But I got, since then, have gone back into this,
you know, where they're at and loved on them.
When I got married, I invited all of them.
My two brothers came.
I'm so in seed, you all.
Through the leading the Holy Spirit, is it easy?
No, but it's absolutely worth it.
I want them to go to heaven with me.
I want them there.
Hurt people, hurt people.
I'm not excusing what they did,
but I recognize that the enemy of their souls
was leading them down wrong paths as well.
All right, so we want to forgive all the characters
in the story and guess what you all,
that includes ourselves.
So some of you tonight, you need to forgive yourself.
You need to choose to forgive yourself.
Forgiveness happens in layers as well as healing.
So I say that because a lot of times
people really struggle with,
well, I've already done this work.
I've worked on this before.
I don't want to do this again.
Or like, you know, you feel like you're going around
the same mountain kind of over and over.
That's not really true, you all.
I know that's how the enemy wants us to look at it,
but what's really happening,
sometimes that is happening because we're stuck,
but when we're in healing programs like this,
what's typically happening is God is revealing another
like layer of it, another slice of it, if you will,
because we need more healing in an area
so that we can continue to move forward.
All right.
So don't be hard on yourself.
So I want you guys to practice extending grace to yourself.
Your breakout question is this,
who do you need to forgive tonight and why?
Who do you need to forgive tonight and why?
All right, I'm gonna do five minutes
in this breakout room.
We're gonna recreate these rooms.
I'm gonna try to keep the rooms, there we go.
All right, go ahead and click to join those.
And then if I need to move people around, I will.
So everybody just click to join
and then I can see where you're all at.
Oh, shoot, well, shoot, I just moved that person.
All right, Christy, are you able to join the breakout room?
All right, I'm gonna go ahead and click to join that group.
All right, make sure one more person, okay.
We got her situated, everybody has two.
All right, well, we just thank you
that you would just bring situations and people to mind
where we need to forgive.
Myself included, I thank you, God,
that you're always helping us to choose forgiveness.
I thank you, Lord, even in the anxiousness
and things that have happened today and the stressors.
I know we all face them, but Lord,
I just feel even right now,
just the importance of forgiving people
and situations and things that cause stress.
I thank you, Lord, for helping us to hear
what your spirit is saying tonight.
I thank you, God, that you would help us to enter
into the fullness of your love for us,
that we would become more rooted and firm and fixed
in the truth of your love.
The Lord just brought to mind,
and so I'm just gonna share,
when Moses was sent off to protect him
and all of that, God made provision for Moses
long before he was sent off by his mom.
And I remember hearing that story the first time,
thinking, man, I feel so bad for Moses,
like his mom just got rid of him,
but she was looking out for him.
She was providing for him and taking care of him,
and God had a plan for him.
I am just sharing that because I believe
our perspective is always key.
And God was setting him up to be raised in a royal family
so that he could understand
the way the kingdom works as well.
When we understand authority
and what we have been given authority over as Christians
through the blood of Jesus Christ and his sacrifice
and dying on the cross,
then we will enforce that authority more often.
And so I just wanna encourage all of you
watching the replay,
if you hear this or if you've been here live tonight
and you're watching the replay,
for that reason, you just wanted to listen to it again,
I wanna encourage all of you
that God has given you authority supernaturally
to tread upon serpents, the devil, Satan himself,
not to focus on him,
but to tell him where he needs to go, in a sense.
So we rise above the situation and in Jesus name,
I'm not gonna get distracted by this thing
and in Jesus name, I'm gonna believe and trust that God,
even as I press through,
I will receive more focus
from what I was saying earlier, that example.
Lord, I thank you that you can help me,
press through the weariness that I feel
and the fatigue I feel
to continue to step into your plan and your promise
and to receive everything that you have for me.
That when the enemy
God, that you would cause him to flee seven ways and you would raise up a
standard against him. God, I thank you right now.
Even as I'm praying this to God, I'm just in Jesus name.
Just dispatch angels on your behalf, God,
to minister to every person that's on this call as well as those that
watch the replay or, or even in this, in this phase one,
but they have never come to alive. God,
I ask that you would dispatch those angels to minister supernatural
healing.
I'm just praying right now.
Healing oil flowing from heaven above over each one of their hearts,
minds, bodies, spirits, and souls.
Yeah. I just saw in the spirit too,
just as if God was taking a rag and cleaning up a messy spot.
And I just heard in the spirit God saying he's making all things new.
I just saw in the spirit that God is making all things new.
So I just want to encourage you to repent.
If you have any areas that are even coming up in your spirit,
where you need to repent.
One encourage you to repent and turn away from those things that are not
serving you. They're not leading you into the full life.
And start to just return to the Lord, return to your first love.
Spending more time in the word, not out of,
out of religious duty or checking things off a list, but.
God, I just am so glad to be here with you this morning.
Thank you, God, that you're going to meet me through your word.
I just want to encourage you to repent and turn away from those things
that are not serving you.
God, thank you for helping me hear your heart for me today.
But those are the ways that God has taught me to pray over the years,
ladies, and it's really changed my whole relationship with him.
No, I actually love spending time with the Lord.
The enemy fights me a lot too. He just like anybody else,
he brings all kinds of work up or life situations.
And now we got hurricanes.
We've got, we've got a drought. We've got, we've got,
we've got a drought in our life.
And he's going to be our enemy. So we've got to press through.
We got to press through that stuff.
Praise Jesus that he has gone before me.
And I can walk and stand because he's already there and he's made a way
for me.
And he'll do the same for all of you as well.
So what we just thank you right now that you'll continue to bless and
minister in these conversations, even those that are watching the replay.
I want to encourage you all to just get out of your comfort zone and
just get out of your comfort zone.
Because we need to forgive and why.
Lord help us to all choose courage.
To partner with truth.
To know that you're making all things new.
That you're saying, can you not perceive it?
You're making rivers in the desert land and streams.
In the wasteland. I might've said those backwards,
but you're putting that into the work that we need to do.
That that all of our hearts,
the bones that are dry and dad that you're breathing life into them.
That the army, even within ourself is beginning to rise, hope, hope,
hope.
Beginning to rise up.
That we would not partner with the lies.
Doubt unbelief that the enemy is trying to feed us,
but we would partner with the truth.
I don't know about you all, but I think today,
that's what I also sense about myself. It's just sometimes.
It's just.
We got some rough edges that are still there that get come out again
through stress or self-preservation techniques and things.
But Lord, we thank you that you just hug us.
You just hug us and you love us and you cover us under the shadow of
your love.
And we thank you for that.
God, we thank you for this opportunity, Lord, we are safe in you.
You're our defender. You're a protector.
You're ever ever present help in time of need.
Sort of.
Thank you that you would meet every one of these ladies in their times
of need and their areas of need. God,
we thank you for this opportunity to share this testimony with you today.
The theme of the book of Genesis in these rooms.
It's not with human beings,
but with the highest principalities and authorities operating in
rebellion under the heavenly realms.
And so that again comes into that authority thing that I was saying in
the beginning.
It's important for us to take authority.
Over ourselves, our bodies, and our minds and our spirits.
Some one 47, three through four.
We all go on this journey to proclaim or to declare and to
propagate his name unto all the nearby stars and przedsiębiores to
proclaim and to dedicate,
the great mighty name of our God to all the stars and play.
Calling them all by their names.
Hmm.
So good.
And calls us by name as well. The Bible talks about that too.
His anointed one are established for the accuser of our brothers and sisters who relentlessly
Revelation 12, nine through 11 says this.
accused them day and night before our God has now been defeated cast out once and for
all.
Can I get an amen?
Satan, the accuser of the brethren has been defeated in that.
That's right.
The war's already won you all it is.
And so we get to step into that.
All right.
So what we're going to do, because I want some of you to share, but we can't stay much
longer because we're already at, at an hour and 30.
And so what I want you to do is who is willing just to say, um, the person that you need
to forgive tonight.
You don't have to go into the why, but just to speak the name out and say, I choose to
forgive who's willing, I mean, Camilla, just go ahead.
Yeah.
And it's okay.
If you, if two people go at once, just defer and let someone else go.
I feel like the Lord wants us to do this tonight.
So whoever feels like, go ahead and speak it out.
I choose to forgive my mother.
I choose to forgive my father.
Hey, I choose to forgive my best friend, Aaron McCachran.
I choose to forgive myself.
I choose to forgive the ex.
I choose to forgive my first high school friends and dad.
I choose to forgive my mom.
I choose to forgive myself.
I choose to forgive.
Go ahead, go ahead.
Oh, I'll go ahead and go that.
I choose to forgive my mom.
I choose to forgive myself.
I choose to forgive my mom and myself.
I choose to forgive my dad and men who hurt me.
I choose to forgive myself.
I choose to forgive my mom.
I choose to forgive my mom's ex-boyfriend.
Someone else.
I choose to forgive myself too.
I want you all to kind of picture just right now, I just want you to picture God giving
you a big hug.
Like some of you just, you're still struggling and that's okay.
He loves you in spite of, in spite of the things that we do, his love is great.
Some of you may not have, have experienced that kind of love with your earthly fathers
or mothers, but that doesn't make it so about him.
So I believe tonight was the start of many new things that are going to start happening
in your lives.
Yes, Lord.
I believe some of you are going to have spiritual fathers come into your life and they're not
going to ever be your father, okay, but they're going to be people that God's going to send
to fill a void when you're ready, not in a clingy place y'all.
So what will happen a lot of times is God will wait until your heart is healed enough
to handle it.
Okay.
And what I mean by that is sometimes we're desperate for something and God doesn't want
us to ever put more emphasis on a person than on him, right?
He's not going to withhold from us, but he wants our heart to be in a healthy place.
Sometimes he will introduce us to that through like a theme or a book or a church sermon
or a session like this, you know, where God's just really starting to minister to you about
what is the love of the father really look like and sound like.
So blessed to be here with y'all tonight.
I believe we're shifting heaven.
I saw that someone wrote, they could feel the weight lifting.
I felt it too.
That's why I just kept lingering.
And sometimes y'all, if you were someone that went to speak and then someone else went
and then you didn't finish, I want you to know the enemy wants you to believe that your
voice isn't, isn't important.
It doesn't matter.
Kind of going back into the lie of like.
Someone else always gets in front of us, you know,
and not that anybody did anything wrong,
but I feel like the enemy always tries to come in and lie,
even in good moments like that.
So I just want to address it.
Let me pray over y'all.
I have one more activation.
So activation number one was to, what?
Does any, yep, yep.
You got it, Camilla.
Seven days this week, 10 minutes a day,
read the word of God out loud over yourself.
Okay, let me ask you a question.
If you forget one day, are you a failure?
No, you're not.
Just pick back up the next day, you all.
This isn't about legalism.
This is just about entering an invitation.
That's all it's about.
Okay, so don't receive some kind of weight on yourself.
Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.
There's freedom in this, okay?
All right, number two activation,
I want you to track your thoughts this week.
Okay, I want you just to,
not that you have to write everything down,
but especially if you're having a hard day
and you're really battling in your mind,
I just want you to pay attention to your thoughts.
Like, what are your thoughts?
Where are they leading you?
What are you hearing?
Yeah.
I want you to track that.
And you guys can come into the group,
post about your stuff.
If you're struggling with anything we've talked about
or that you're reading,
myself and the coaches are here for you.
This is your time.
Let us coach you.
Come in the group and talk to us.
And it can be about celebrating too.
If y'all are getting breakthroughs,
there's a tab that's called wins.
If you're in the app and if you're not in the app,
you can just post it on the main page
and we wanna celebrate with you, just FYI.
We wanna celebrate your wins.
We wanna walk with you in the difficulties.
If you need prayer on a certain day, guess what?
Y'all can come into the group and say, I need prayer.
Wanna remind everybody, especially for those that are new,
take off your helper hats.
Because I got all kinds of teammates that are my helpers
and we'll help everybody.
We'll coach people so you don't have to give advice
or help, just cheer each other on, love each other.
And that's good.
Let me pray for us.
Father, thank you.
Thank you for forgiveness.
Thank you for healing.
Thank you for the reminder
that your mercy is new every morning.
Thank you for the reminder
that we don't have to fear sudden disaster.
Thank you for the reminder
that you give us a timely word in season
for the hunger of our hearts and our souls.
Help us to feel seen more than ever.
Help us to know that you hear us.
God, thank you for showing up in tangible ways this week.
Help us to see, help us to like literally awaken
out of the slumber that we've been in
and arise and shine and see the glory that's risen upon us.
God, I thank you that you've called us
for such a time as this.
Help us to receive everything you have for us
in Jesus name, amen.
God bless you all.
Y'all I'll be seeing you in the groups
hopefully all week long.
If you don't see me in there come Thursday or Friday,
I may have lost power.
So don't think I'm gone.
I have teammates that'll get in there too.
But if y'all post something
and don't see a response right away,
I just don't want you to freak out, okay?
Leave it there, don't take them down
because a couple of my coaches work weekend shifts
and they're nurses.
And so I typically cover all that,
but if I'm not answering
it's probably cause I've lost power,
but I'll get back in there as soon as I can.
Love you all.
And I'll be seeing you all.
I'm praying for breakthroughs.
Have a good night, everyone.
Bye.
Have a great week everybody.
Bethany, bye.