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I'm going to go ahead and take a few more questions.

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Hello.

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Happy Monday, you all.

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Good to see everyone.

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Welcome, welcome.

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Awesome.

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As people are starting to join,

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I would love for you to put your name in the chat.

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If you are joining us this evening,

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I imagine more people are going to be signing in.

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If you are new for the first time,

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I would love for you to put your name in the chat.

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Even if you have been in the program for a couple of weeks,

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maybe this is your first live session.

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Maybe you are not watching replay but you are here live.

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I would love for you to put your name in the chat.

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I'm going to go ahead and give you all a heads up.

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We have noticed a new name.

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Welcome, Nicole.

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Anyone else new joining for the first time?

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I just want to give you all a heads up.

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Naomi.

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Glad you are joining us as well.

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Naomi is new.

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I'm going to give you all a heads up.

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I'm going to give you all a heads up.

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Just FYI, we don't allow that.

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Here is why.

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There is coaching that happens in this group that is personal to

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people.

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While we record these sessions and it is put inside of the group

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, we do not allow that.

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It is the same as having someone's story dictated.

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Especially by AI.

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We are never going to approve that.

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Get out your trusty pen and paper.

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I take notes all the time.

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When I'm listening to Jackie,

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if you saw how many notes I have around my house.

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I'm not knocking technology.

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I'm not knocking technology.

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I'm knocking technology.

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The replays plug.

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If you have not heard our Supernatural Saturday from this past

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Saturday,

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or even the special session we did last night,

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I would love for you to check those out and listen to them.

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They will be under your replay tab if you are in the app.

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I want to make sure everyone knows where to get our replays.

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If you are in the Facebook group,

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we are still in there talking to you.

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You are the last people that will be in the Facebook group.

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Anyone that starts after that point,

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when we launch the app,

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goes into the app.

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Those in the Facebook group,

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you have Kajabi.

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You have a lot of people in the Facebook group.

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You have a lot of people in the Facebook group.

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I want you to practice a couple things when you join HeartWork.

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Recommendation is one week of content per week.

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One week of content per week.

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If you go a little slower, that's okay.

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I don't want you to feel pressure.

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Some of you will feel the nudge of the Holy Spirit that says,

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you are getting a lot of revelation here.

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If you go a little slower,

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that's okay.

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We don't want people going really fast.

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No one should finish this course in two weeks.

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It's a five-week course.

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If you tell us you have finished,

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we will hold you back.

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Here's the thing.

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Some people want to try to fly through the HeartWork

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Some of you,

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you keep attracting the same unhealthy guys.

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You keep getting stuck in the same pattern.

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You want to have a spirit mate.

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You want to be married.

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It's going to take the HeartWork to make those changes.

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That's how you're going to get the breakthrough you need.

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You don't keep falling into those cycles.

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I want to encourage you to stop.

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It's a long course.

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You are going to have to make some consistent struggles.

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Maybe you tend to not be able to hold down a friendship.

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Please trust us when we say,

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brand new and you're joining us for the first time,

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don't binge the books

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inside of every, you start with the welcome area,

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then you go one week at a time.

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Inside of every week, there is what's called instructions.

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Please read those.

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When you click on it, it's gonna tell you

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what book pages to read, what videos to watch,

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what questions to journal and spend time with the Lord on.

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That is there for you.

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And this is why.

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We have worked on this system for years, you all.

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It's in a really good place.

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And the pages that we've paired with the videos,

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it's gonna help you get breakthrough

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in ways you can't even imagine right now.

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So my last housekeeping item,

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we do this at the beginning of every session, you all.

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So just things I need to make sure you know as your coach,

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as well as just about our program.

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You all, we wanna encourage you in HeartWork

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to press pause on dating and talking to guys on the app.

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And I know some people don't wanna do that

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when they hear us even say that

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because people will have panic rise up or fear.

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They're gonna miss out, especially if they met a guy,

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if they like right before they came into this program

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and they're like, wait a minute,

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that's gotta be God, right?

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No, you all, not necessarily, okay?

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I'm not saying they're not a good guy.

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Time will tell.

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But here's the thing.

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If you will tell that guy,

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hey, I have signed up for this incredible HeartWork program

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and I need to just focus on that for five weeks.

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I've enjoyed getting to know you,

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but this is really important

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and I need to focus on this for the next five weeks.

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And I'd really enjoy reaching back out to you

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after I'm finished if you are open to that.

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That's how you wanna maybe say that to someone.

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And if they react and get all bent out of shape,

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you all, that's not your spirit mate, okay?

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If they respond and they embrace and they're supportive,

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that's some good fruit.

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That's some good fruit.

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You all are gonna look for fruit.

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You're gonna hear that the rest of our program,

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we're gonna encourage you to be fruit inspectors, okay?

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All right, let me pray for us.

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We're about to go into our content.

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God's good, you all.

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Let's reach out to him and hear what his spirit is saying.

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Father, thank you.

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Thank you for your grace.

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Thank you for your goodness, God.

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Thank you for revealings, for healing happening

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in everyone's hearts, minds, bodies, spirits,

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and souls supernaturally tonight.

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God, I thank you that we,

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I just myself am a vessel.

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God, you're the one that does all the incredible work.

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So help me to hear what your spirit is saying.

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Help these ladies to hear.

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God, I thank you that you would bring freedom

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and revelation.

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Your word declares that wherever the spirit of the Lord is,

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there's freedom, there's liberty.

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We declare captives being set free.

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And we thank you, Lord, that you would loose cobwebs

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and loose chains off of minds, hearts, bodies,

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spirits, and souls.

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I thank you, Lord, that you would take us deeper

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in the understanding of your love

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as far as the revelation also of your desire for us

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to step further into the fullness of your plan

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and purpose for us, not just any plan,

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but your original design and plan for us.

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Help us to hear, God, and help us to take steps

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towards that every single day.

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In Jesus' name, amen.

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All right, tonight, you all, I told the group earlier,

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I literally went to bed thinking that we were gonna talk

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about two topics and God kind of changed the plan

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right before I went live this afternoon

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because I kept looking for my notes

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and y'all, I organize them all the time.

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They're in a binder and I cannot tell you

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how many times I flipped through and I could not find them.

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But I kept seeing notes for a different one class

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that I had done.

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And the Lord was just kind of finally like,

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hey, hey, this one, this one.

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He was highlighting it to me.

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And so I wanna walk in obedience to that.

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And we're gonna talk about stories.

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And what I mean by that is the stories

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that you tell yourself.

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The limiting thoughts and belief systems

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that you have been living in,

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some of you don't even realize you're doing it

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subconsciously, it's just happening.

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Some of you learned these thought patterns

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and belief systems and behaviors from family,

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from generation to generation.

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And so you're just not, you're not recognizing it.

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And we're gonna go into why here in a little bit.

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But the Lord wants you to step out of the old story,

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the old story that you've been telling yourself

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that these orphan mentalities even hang out with.

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An orphan mentality often tells you all,

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there's not enough, you gotta scrap.

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There's not enough good men.

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And if there's one good man,

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everybody's gotta fight for him

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because there's not any more.

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And it can look a lot of different ways,

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that's how it tends to show up in our community

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or inside of ladies.

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And so when I encourage you, maybe your old story is also things like,

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you know, nothing's ever going to change.

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Maybe it's, you know, I'm never going to get out of the financial mess I'm in.

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I'm never going to be able to, you know, make my parents happy.

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I'm never going to be able to, um, Experience true joy.

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I don't know what your old story is.

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I'm going to give you guys some other examples, but those just came up in my

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spirit. And I'm, I'm trying to like, just start letting the Holy spirit work in

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you. What is the old story that you constantly tell yourself?

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And then when we step out of that old story, so we're turning away from that.

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And we're saying, okay, I'm not going to partner with you anymore.

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And I'm going to choose to step into this new story over here.

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And what is the new story?

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Here's the reality all from the beginning of time, when God created each one of

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you, he wrote your story.

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And he wants you to step, I prayed about it into the fullness of his original plan

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and purpose for you, that is part of your new story.

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Also, your new story is being written as you go.

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Well, wait a minute.

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What do you mean?

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You mean God hasn't already like caused that I have to go all these single way,

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all these ways.

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And if I don't, then I'm punished and well, y'all that's not who God is.

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Okay.

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It's not like God, of course wants us to choose the healthy path.

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He wants us to choose the pathway of righteousness and says, even in the word

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that we want to go off to the left or the right, but that we would stay on the

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pathway, what to wear to him, the pathway of righteousness, the pathway that leads

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to intimacy with him, the pathway that leads to us healing and, and letting our

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walls down and letting him come in and heal us and love us, and then teach us

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how to do the same with other people, including our spirit mates.

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So God is rewriting your story.

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Every day you are becoming someone new today.

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I know, but you all, some days are harder than others.

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We, I live in Florida.

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We just moved here at the end of June.

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It's a little crazy here right now.

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And if I'm being a hundred percent transparent, I've had anxiety on and off

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all day that I have been fighting, not just my own, but every time I'm trying to

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just get on and look at updates or even do my work, cause you know, I get

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notifications from people responding to things in our communities.

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They're just, I'm just unindated with stuff, you know, and then I have friends

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that are checking on me because they love me, but they're scared for me.

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And so then I'm like feeling anxious all over again.

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Why am I mentioning that?

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Because here's the reality y'all we're going to face all kinds

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of stuff every single day.

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Today, maybe when I go to sleep tonight, it might not feel like my best day, but

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guess what tomorrow I have a whole nother day that I can choose and

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I still have time tonight.

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So who are we becoming in the midst of these trials, in the midst of the joy,

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in the midst of the situations and things that are unfolding, who are

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we going to choose to become?

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And y'all it's okay to make mistakes.

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We all do.

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But what are we going to do when we get back up?

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It's key.

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All right.

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So I want to encourage you to be aware of the stories you're telling yourself,

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which is what I started with.

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So I want you to think right now about a situation and scenario

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that you tend to struggle with.

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Maybe it's a recurring thing, a place that you feel stuck, a place that you

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come up against this wall and you tend to have the same reaction.

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How do you typically react in that situation?

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Is it healthy or unhealthy?

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Are they thoughts that are true, noble, lovely, and of good report from above,

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or are they things from beneath?

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Only you will know truly what do your normal thought patterns sound like?

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So for example, when you make a mistake and mess up in some way, what

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is your normal thought pattern?

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I want to see in the chat, go ahead and start putting some things in there.

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What do you hear yourself saying to yourself if you make a mistake?

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What are some of your normal thoughts?

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Y'all, if you fail in a sense and make a mistake, what is it that you hear?

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Nikki says I've let God down.

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I'm such a loser.

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Laura says, anyone else?

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I knew better.

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That's good too.

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I should have known better.

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I should have known better.

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Ooh, three in a row there.

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I should know better.

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Shame and guilt.

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What does shame and guilt sound like for you, Mackenzie?

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People will be upset.

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I knew better.

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I'm such a failure.

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Anyone else?

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God's not going to help me if I keep doing this.

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can't get it right. All right, keep putting those up there for

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me. I want to start to give you some additional examples of what

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I believe are some thoughts story, some stories that you all

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are telling yourselves with that God wants you to help or wants

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to help you excuse me, step out of tonight. Shelly says

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embarrassed, you look like I'm assuming you're saying you look

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stupid, like to yourself. Is that correct? Shelly? Go and put

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that in the chat for me. So your stories might sound like this,

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it might sound like something else as well. But I just want to

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put these out here because these as I, as I built this content

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myself a couple months ago, these were some things that

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really stood out to me from my own journey from things I've

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heard other members in this community say or struggle with

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regarding lies of the enemy. Here are a few. It doesn't

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matter. These first couple go tend to hang out together. It

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doesn't matter. What I mean by that is basically whatever it

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was that you wanted, and didn't work out. You just tell

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yourself, well, it doesn't matter. Because it's just easier

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to tell yourself than to feel the pain of the disappointment.

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And maybe the the story that you're telling yourself is, yeah,

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I didn't want that anyways. Okay. So the breakup that you

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experienced the friendship that fell apart, the closeness with

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your mom that you've always wanted and thought you were

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going to get and then something happened. Yeah, I didn't want

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that anyways. Or the new house or the new car y'all is all

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different kinds of ways. And I want you to think about the

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times that you have lied to yourself subconsciously, and

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convinced yourself that you didn't want something that you

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really wanted. And if something comes to your mind, I want you

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to write it on your paper. Okay. And I want you just to be

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praying as I keep going and ask God to help you let go of that

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lie, because it's important for you in this process, each one of

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you to be honest with yourself and your heart. A lot of you

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might, you know, as you go through this process, some of

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you might cry a lot. Some of you might not cry at all. Some of

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you might be really numbed out. Because you have felt pain and

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disappoint for so long that you just at one point, you're just

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like, yeah, I'm done with this. I'm not gonna allow myself to

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be hurt anymore. And you just start to wall your heart off.

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And you tell yourself that you don't care. I don't feel

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whatever all the things to protect your heart, but that

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actually causes our heart to harden. Okay. All right. So,

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Father, I just I'm going to pray this right now. And then I'm

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going to keep going. Fathers, thank you right now that you

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would remove any stony places of our hearts. Remove those stony

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places and put in place of them hearts that are flesh that are

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soft and pliable to you God hearts that you can massage and

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not in a hurtful way, but just that you would bring us back to

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life. In Jesus name. Amen. All right, some old other words, old

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stories. Maybe they sound like Lena, you should just give up on

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this already. Or Julia, just just give up this is never going

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to work. Fill in your name into that blank you all. Maybe your

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story is I never get picked. Everybody else gets picked but

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me. I wait on God. I do everything you say God. But you

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always pick someone else. You always bless someone else. You

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take someone else to the front of the line. And I'm always put

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off. A lot of those lies y'all just want to plug this when we

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think things like that. At some point in our life, maybe it was

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a sibling or someone else that got something that we wanted or

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our parent took care of the other sibling, more in our

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minds. They got more attention than we did more love than we

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did more affection or more stuff. I don't, you know, fill

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in the blank, it can it can be a lot of different things. But

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here's the reality is it feeds the lie that you're not cared

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for as much as someone else. And when you partner with that lie,

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you can then also translate that onto God the Father. And he is

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not a man that he should lie. Jesus came and as a man, but he

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is also God. So he never was fully man. Okay, he was man on

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the earth. But what I'm saying is he was still always God. So

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he's not like

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us. He felt what we feel so he could he could relate to us in

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our suffering. He went to the cross and bore all of our sin

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and all of all of everything bad upon himself to set us free to

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make a way for us to be in relationship with him. But y'all

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he was still always God. We experienced man and in the in

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the aspect of frailty, not God. Okay, men, myself included, as I

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started earlier, we are all fleshly in our weakness, you

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know, we make mistakes. Jesus didn't make any mistakes.

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There's a difference. All right, maybe your lie and story that

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you've been telling yourself is all men only date skinny women

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were all men only like women with blonde hair. I mean, y'all

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fill in the blank. There's all kinds of things there to maybe

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you believe all men are liars. All men are cheaters. Maybe your

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story is this program takes too much time. It's too hard. I hear

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the phrase a lot. Online dating is hard. Dating is hard. Life is

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hard. Getting my finances writers. I mean, I did it

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myself. Y'all I used to say that all the time. This is too

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hard. This is too hard. I would cry like God, this is too hard.

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Like I can't do this. And you know what he would say? Yes, you

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can. He was so good. He would always like, like, like a dad in

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the in the stands or a mom in the stands. My grandpa was the

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one that was always in the stands for me on he was cheering

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me on. And I believe sincerely tonight, God wants some of you

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to get to really grasp that. I didn't even think of it until

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just now I released a very similar word during a prayer

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session. One of the times I filled in for somebody else, and

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it was moving that God is sitting in the stands cheering

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you on. And he's like, you can do this. When it feels hard,

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trust me, give it to me. I'll carry your heart and you just

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keep on walking. It doesn't mean we won't feel stuff. But we

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don't have to face it alone, y'all. If those are the

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storylines, the things that I said there, if that's what we

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tell ourselves, can you imagine? Like, will we get out of being

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unstuck? Probably not. But if the storyline I'm telling

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myself is, God, when I feel like something is hard, help me to

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remember that I can rely on you. God, I thank you that you have

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made me more than a conqueror through Christ Jesus. In all

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things, I am more than a conqueror. Y'all, each one of us

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can accomplish the things that are set before us. Why and how?

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Well, the Bible tells us that he's already gone before you to

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make a way for you to stand. And he's also the voice behind you,

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telling you the way to go and that he is a lamp unto your feet

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and a light unto your path. So how is it that we believe that

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we're alone in this? His word says, I will never leave you nor

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forsake you. Never. So tonight, maybe some of you right where

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you're at us, I just want you to invite God into the situation

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and the place, the old story. And I want you to ask him to

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help you remember that in that you were not alone and you're

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not alone right now and to help you shift out of that. He

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doesn't want you to stay there, but the choice is up to you. He

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will not force you. And y'all, here's the reality. Do you know

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that even biologically, it takes time to change our brain and for

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our brain to heal and recover and for new neural pathways to

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be formed? If you have thought the same thought over and over

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and over for many years, y'all, it's going to be hard to change

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that automatically. But guess how you can repetition,

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reminding yourself and reminding the devil on a regular basis,

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who you are, who God says you are, what the word declares

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about you and calling those forth, those things that are

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so they are walk by faith and not by sight. Right? We got to

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practice this stuff. We got to remind our brain and create new

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pathways. I had to do it you all I promise you

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It can work and it does work, but it takes discipline.

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It takes consistency.

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It takes, you know, not giving up.

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And on the hard days, he will carry you.

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So think about what you're thinking about.

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I want you to start to examine your thoughts

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more than ever during this hard work process.

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And what I mean by that is that we don't get what we expect.

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We actually get what we inspect and choose to align with.

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So where are your thoughts and your heart postures

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taking you right now?

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And how do you want it to be different?

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And ask God to help you get there, okay?

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Here's part two of that though.

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Where did these thoughts actually originate?

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So what I mean by that is what's the original source?

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I'm not asking you all to figure this out on your own.

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I'm encouraging you, if you're here for the first time,

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you're new tonight, or maybe you just a second time

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or whatever, y'all are gonna hear this a lot.

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It's a revealing for healing.

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We don't want you to get shovels out and start digging.

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We want you to ask God questions,

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really good questions on a regular basis.

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So Lord, this memory came up out of nowhere

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and I don't know what you're trying to show me.

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Lord, give me insight.

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What are you trying to reveal?

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Is there something in my heart

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that you want me to know about?

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You're inviting the Father, Jesus Christ,

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and the Holy Spirit to come in and help you have revelation.

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So what's the original source,

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the original initial wound or trauma

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that caused you to believe

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and partner with these lies and stories?

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And I wrote down, who told you that you were naked?

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So there's this story, y'all might've heard it,

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about Adam and Eve in the Bible.

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When they ate of the fruit,

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I'm gonna share the abbreviated version,

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but y'all can go read it.

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When they ate of the fruit

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and realized that they were naked,

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it says that they hid.

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And then God came back into where they were at.

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And he called to them because he couldn't find them.

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And when they came out, he asked them, why are you hiding?

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And basically what came out is he said,

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in their conversation, he ends up saying,

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who told you that you were naked?

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So what I wanna say to you

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is who told you that you were naked?

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And what I mean by that is the story

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that you're telling yourself,

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who said that to you to begin with?

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Was it a teacher?

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Was it your mom, your dad, a friend, sibling?

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Was it yourself?

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00:28:05.020 --> 00:28:07.900
When a trauma happened and you believed lies

498
00:28:07.900 --> 00:28:10.620
and you just partnered subconsciously with that

499
00:28:10.620 --> 00:28:12.300
and you just kept telling yourself,

500
00:28:12.300 --> 00:28:14.180
like even Shelly was saying earlier,

501
00:28:14.180 --> 00:28:15.740
y'all, I'm gonna go back and read

502
00:28:15.740 --> 00:28:17.540
what she ended up sharing as a follow-up.

503
00:28:17.540 --> 00:28:18.380
Let me find it.

504
00:28:19.420 --> 00:28:21.700
Her original thing was embarrassed, look stupid.

505
00:28:21.700 --> 00:28:23.460
And then she responded when I asked the question,

506
00:28:23.460 --> 00:28:25.860
look stupid to others, then I feel stupid,

507
00:28:25.860 --> 00:28:27.780
not on little things, but bigger things

508
00:28:27.780 --> 00:28:29.460
that she takes pride in.

509
00:28:29.460 --> 00:28:31.180
But here's the reality.

510
00:28:31.180 --> 00:28:33.540
Do you know how many people tell themselves

511
00:28:33.540 --> 00:28:36.240
on a regular basis, you're so stupid?

512
00:28:36.240 --> 00:28:40.740
Like to themselves, you're so dumb.

513
00:28:40.740 --> 00:28:42.220
You never get this right.

514
00:28:42.220 --> 00:28:44.260
We say this stuff to ourselves, right?

515
00:28:45.080 --> 00:28:47.480
But somebody said that to you

516
00:28:47.480 --> 00:28:49.400
long before you said it to yourself.

517
00:28:50.480 --> 00:28:52.200
Again, it could have been the enemy,

518
00:28:52.200 --> 00:28:53.720
but asking the Lord for revelation

519
00:28:53.720 --> 00:28:56.240
is gonna be key to your healing process.

520
00:28:57.160 --> 00:28:59.480
So tonight I want you to imagine

521
00:28:59.480 --> 00:29:03.880
a old school record player, y'all.

522
00:29:03.880 --> 00:29:06.800
The younger ones might not even know what that looks like,

523
00:29:08.360 --> 00:29:12.080
but a record player used to be placed on,

524
00:29:12.900 --> 00:29:16.180
or a record used to be placed on a record player.

525
00:29:16.180 --> 00:29:19.100
And if that record got a big enough scratch on it,

526
00:29:20.000 --> 00:29:23.660
that record player would play the song up into that point.

527
00:29:23.660 --> 00:29:26.380
And then it would like make this skipping sound

528
00:29:26.380 --> 00:29:28.340
and it would never go past that point.

529
00:29:28.340 --> 00:29:31.220
If you all know, you know.

530
00:29:31.220 --> 00:29:33.140
And sometimes they were like good songs

531
00:29:33.140 --> 00:29:35.380
and then all of a sudden, once that scratch was there,

532
00:29:35.380 --> 00:29:38.020
nope, that record's really no good.

533
00:29:39.060 --> 00:29:41.760
Here's what I wanna propose to you.

534
00:29:42.440 --> 00:29:45.780
That some of y'all have some records on your record player,

535
00:29:45.780 --> 00:29:48.180
that that's what it's like.

536
00:29:48.180 --> 00:29:50.260
There's a scratch and a trauma and a wound,

537
00:29:50.260 --> 00:29:53.980
and then the lies that were happening that you believed,

538
00:29:53.980 --> 00:29:56.020
and that created the scratch on the record.

539
00:29:56.020 --> 00:30:00.180
And that's why you keep getting stuck in the same places.

540
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.000
And so, God wants to give you a new record.

541
00:30:04.000 --> 00:30:08.000
He wants to give you new downloads, a new revelation, a new insight.

542
00:30:08.000 --> 00:30:13.000
Not just one, but multiple. He wants to take away all the things

543
00:30:13.000 --> 00:30:16.000
that are not of Him, that are not of Heaven.

544
00:30:16.000 --> 00:30:19.000
The Bible talks about being transformed by the, what?

545
00:30:19.000 --> 00:30:22.000
Renewing of our minds.

546
00:30:22.000 --> 00:30:25.000
That all old things would pass away,

547
00:30:25.000 --> 00:30:28.000
and behold, everything would become new.

548
00:30:28.000 --> 00:30:31.000
Everything would become new, from the inside out, you all.

549
00:30:31.000 --> 00:30:34.000
Not just in our mind mentally, our heart.

550
00:30:34.000 --> 00:30:39.000
Our heart is truly the root of a lot of what we think.

551
00:30:39.000 --> 00:30:42.000
So if you're struggling in your mind,

552
00:30:42.000 --> 00:30:45.000
there's probably healing that's also needed in your heart,

553
00:30:45.000 --> 00:30:47.000
and they go together.

554
00:30:47.000 --> 00:30:49.000
All right?

555
00:30:49.000 --> 00:30:51.000
Okay, we're going to keep going.

556
00:30:51.000 --> 00:30:53.000
We're almost ready for breakouts.

557
00:30:53.000 --> 00:30:55.000
I'm excited for you all tonight.

558
00:30:55.000 --> 00:30:57.000
Second Corinthians 10 five says this,

559
00:30:57.000 --> 00:31:00.000
we demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against

560
00:31:00.000 --> 00:31:02.000
the knowledge of God.

561
00:31:02.000 --> 00:31:07.000
And we take captive every thought and make it obedient to Jesus Christ.

562
00:31:07.000 --> 00:31:10.000
So I want you to think about your thoughts this morning, today.

563
00:31:10.000 --> 00:31:13.000
Maybe if you had a great day and you just think, man,

564
00:31:13.000 --> 00:31:15.000
I was actually thinking a lot of good stuff today.

565
00:31:15.000 --> 00:31:18.000
Awesome. Way to go.

566
00:31:18.000 --> 00:31:21.000
Maybe your rough day was yesterday with your mind.

567
00:31:21.000 --> 00:31:22.000
I don't know.

568
00:31:22.000 --> 00:31:25.000
I don't know if you all ever just feel like sometimes it's a battlefield up

569
00:31:25.000 --> 00:31:26.000
there.

570
00:31:26.000 --> 00:31:29.000
I don't know about anybody else, but some days it is way,

571
00:31:29.000 --> 00:31:33.000
like way easier to be positive all day and think on truth.

572
00:31:33.000 --> 00:31:36.000
Then other days.

573
00:31:36.000 --> 00:31:39.000
Kelly, you can just listen in. If you can't go into breakout,

574
00:31:39.000 --> 00:31:42.000
you can just listen and pray with while I pray when they go on

575
00:31:42.000 --> 00:31:46.000
breakouts.

576
00:31:46.000 --> 00:31:48.000
Think about your thoughts this morning.

577
00:31:48.000 --> 00:31:50.000
I want you to think about your thoughts this morning.

578
00:31:50.000 --> 00:31:52.000
I want you to think about your thoughts today.

579
00:31:52.000 --> 00:31:53.000
Yesterday.

580
00:31:53.000 --> 00:32:00.000
What have they been rooted in?

581
00:32:00.000 --> 00:32:03.000
So what I mean by that, have they been rooted in overwhelm?

582
00:32:03.000 --> 00:32:06.000
Like even I was saying earlier, anxiety.

583
00:32:06.000 --> 00:32:07.000
Panic.

584
00:32:07.000 --> 00:32:08.000
Worry dread.

585
00:32:08.000 --> 00:32:09.000
Fear.

586
00:32:09.000 --> 00:32:12.000
Some of y'all feel like, Oh, I don't want to take this risk.

587
00:32:12.000 --> 00:32:14.000
But y'all that is embedded in rooted in fear.

588
00:32:14.000 --> 00:32:15.000
Okay.

589
00:32:15.000 --> 00:32:17.000
I want you to think about your thoughts this morning.

590
00:32:17.000 --> 00:32:19.000
I want you to think about your thoughts today.

591
00:32:19.000 --> 00:32:21.000
I want you to think about your thoughts.

592
00:32:21.000 --> 00:32:28.000
Some of you that have felt like there's been this invitation.

593
00:32:28.000 --> 00:32:32.000
Hope is starting to rise up. Truth is starting to invade the darkness.

594
00:32:32.000 --> 00:32:34.000
And you're starting to have more positive thoughts.

595
00:32:34.000 --> 00:32:37.000
Hopefully for those of you that are in week four and five,

596
00:32:37.000 --> 00:32:38.000
that is where you're at.

597
00:32:38.000 --> 00:32:41.000
Or if not, you're on your way there. Those of you just coming in.

598
00:32:41.000 --> 00:32:42.000
Don't be surprised.

599
00:32:43.000 --> 00:32:45.000
Okay.

600
00:32:45.000 --> 00:32:47.000
So I want you to think about your thoughts this morning.

601
00:32:47.000 --> 00:32:48.000
They're about,

602
00:32:48.000 --> 00:32:50.000
are they about the things that you've been thinking about in the

603
00:32:50.000 --> 00:32:51.000
beginning?

604
00:32:51.000 --> 00:32:52.000
It's very common.

605
00:32:52.000 --> 00:32:53.000
Okay.

606
00:32:53.000 --> 00:32:54.000
All right.

607
00:32:54.000 --> 00:32:56.000
That's scripture was second Corinthians.

608
00:32:56.000 --> 00:32:59.000
10 five Laura.

609
00:32:59.000 --> 00:33:03.000
We demolished arguments in every pretension that sets itself up

610
00:33:03.000 --> 00:33:04.000
against the knowledge of God.

611
00:33:04.000 --> 00:33:08.000
And we take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.

612
00:33:08.000 --> 00:33:09.000
So.

613
00:33:09.000 --> 00:33:11.000
We make it line up with the kingdom.

614
00:33:11.000 --> 00:33:12.000
Okay.

615
00:33:12.000 --> 00:33:15.000
All right.

616
00:33:15.000 --> 00:33:26.000
All right. I also want you to think about this last thing.

617
00:33:26.000 --> 00:33:28.000
When you struggle with these intrusive thoughts,

618
00:33:28.000 --> 00:33:31.000
these old stories that are not aligning with heaven.

619
00:33:31.000 --> 00:33:33.000
When do you typically struggle with them the most?

620
00:33:33.000 --> 00:33:34.000
Okay.

621
00:33:34.000 --> 00:33:35.000
Like the timeframe.

622
00:33:35.000 --> 00:33:38.000
I want you all to start paying attention to this in the days ahead.

623
00:33:38.000 --> 00:33:41.000
When do you struggle with these negative thoughts the most?

624
00:33:41.000 --> 00:33:42.000
When are you stressed out at work?

625
00:33:42.000 --> 00:33:43.000
When are you tired?

626
00:33:43.000 --> 00:33:45.000
When are you stressed out in your mind?

627
00:33:45.000 --> 00:33:48.000
Is it the middle of the day when you're stressed out at work or you're

628
00:33:48.000 --> 00:33:50.000
bored or whatever it is?

629
00:33:50.000 --> 00:33:51.000
Just giving examples.

630
00:33:51.000 --> 00:33:54.000
When do you struggle with these negative thoughts?

631
00:33:54.000 --> 00:33:57.000
The most, these old lies and storylines.

632
00:33:57.000 --> 00:34:04.000
All right. So you're going to go into your first breakout.

633
00:34:04.000 --> 00:34:06.000
And I want you to share about this question.

634
00:34:07.000 --> 00:34:08.000
Okay.

635
00:34:08.000 --> 00:34:15.000
And I want you to know what they're rooted in.

636
00:34:15.000 --> 00:34:16.000
You can talk about that too,

637
00:34:16.000 --> 00:34:18.000
but I want you to first focus on what negative thoughts,

638
00:34:18.000 --> 00:34:20.000
because some of you, it might take you a little bit.

639
00:34:20.000 --> 00:34:23.000
To really identify what your negative thought patterns are.

640
00:34:23.000 --> 00:34:24.000
Okay.

641
00:34:24.000 --> 00:34:28.000
And here's the thing y'all I've been saved for a long time.

642
00:34:28.000 --> 00:34:30.000
And I'm, I feel pretty strong as a Christian.

643
00:34:30.000 --> 00:34:35.000
But I still.

644
00:34:35.000 --> 00:34:38.000
I feel like the most important thing is to learn to identify your

645
00:34:38.000 --> 00:34:40.000
negative thoughts and responses.

646
00:34:40.000 --> 00:34:44.000
And I want you to know that sometimes when pressure is applied,

647
00:34:44.000 --> 00:34:47.000
Y'all like the diamond being made into a diamond. Guess what?

648
00:34:47.000 --> 00:34:50.000
Diamonds are made when pressure is applied.

649
00:34:50.000 --> 00:34:51.000
Okay.

650
00:34:51.000 --> 00:34:52.000
All right.

651
00:34:52.000 --> 00:34:54.000
You're going to go into your breakout.

652
00:34:54.000 --> 00:35:02.000
I'm going to set those up right now.

653
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:06.160
in the main room. So even if you get assigned a room, just don't accept it.

654
00:35:10.800 --> 00:35:15.840
All right. If any of you get into a room and somebody's not there right at the beginning,

655
00:35:15.840 --> 00:35:20.800
just wait for a minute because sometimes internets are slower than others. I'll kind

656
00:35:20.800 --> 00:35:25.120
of take a look and if anyone's alone for too long, I'll move you to a different room, okay?

657
00:35:26.000 --> 00:35:29.600
All right, you all. So I'm going to give you eight minutes to talk about this.

658
00:35:30.640 --> 00:35:36.640
I want you to talk about these negative thought patterns and stories first. If you have extra

659
00:35:36.640 --> 00:35:42.000
time, you can get to know each other a little bit. Where are you from? What led you to join

660
00:35:42.000 --> 00:35:47.120
the community? But please don't do that first, okay? I want you to do that if you have time,

661
00:35:47.120 --> 00:35:51.360
but the goal of the breakout is for you all to connect, but it's to talk about these things

662
00:35:51.360 --> 00:35:56.320
that we're working on as well, okay? All right, there you go.

663
00:36:21.360 --> 00:36:32.320
So

664
00:36:38.640 --> 00:36:40.560
we have everyone situated.

665
00:36:40.560 --> 00:36:52.400
Good. Awesome. Okay, Father, thank you so much for who you are. God, thank you for truth. Thank

666
00:36:52.400 --> 00:37:00.320
you for life. Jesus, I thank you that you are the light of the world, that you came in to bring

667
00:37:00.320 --> 00:37:05.440
light into every dark area. So I just ask you to illuminate the dark places in our hearts,

668
00:37:05.440 --> 00:37:10.080
our minds, our bodies and spirits and souls tonight and help us to receive your revelation

669
00:37:10.080 --> 00:37:15.360
and truth. Thank you, Jesus, that you would help us to hear what your spirit is saying.

670
00:37:18.080 --> 00:37:23.520
We ask you to help us to experience a fresh wind in our relationship with you,

671
00:37:24.800 --> 00:37:31.360
a fresh insight each day that, yes, Lord, that you would just stir up hunger and thirst for

672
00:37:31.360 --> 00:37:37.040
your righteousness, for your word, to know you in our hearts and our lives. We thank you for

673
00:37:37.040 --> 00:37:43.040
heart surgery that you do while we sleep. We thank you for quickening and awakening dreams

674
00:37:43.040 --> 00:37:48.080
within us at night as well as in the daytime. We thank you, God, that you would help us to

675
00:37:48.080 --> 00:37:51.680
have ears to hear what your spirit is saying. We thank you that we are your sheep and your

676
00:37:51.680 --> 00:37:56.640
sheep hear your voice, and we always obey what you tell us to do. So Lord, I thank you that

677
00:37:56.640 --> 00:38:01.360
you'll give us insight every day to know the next best step that we should take every single day.

678
00:38:02.320 --> 00:38:08.320
Luke 645 says this, a good person produces good things from the treasury of a good heart and an

679
00:38:08.320 --> 00:38:15.520
evil person produces evil things from the treasury of an evil heart. What you say flows, so what we

680
00:38:15.520 --> 00:38:22.160
say and also what we think flows from what's in our hearts. So we thank you for placing the

681
00:38:22.160 --> 00:38:27.600
balm of Gilead upon our hearts, Lord, that you would just supernaturally bring healing

682
00:38:28.160 --> 00:38:34.640
and wholeness, that we would be completely whole, lacking no good thing. I thank you, Lord, that we

683
00:38:34.640 --> 00:38:42.080
would really cling to your truth and your promises. I thank you that you would help us to

684
00:38:44.080 --> 00:38:49.040
lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us and press on toward the high calling of God for

685
00:38:49.040 --> 00:38:55.120
our lives, that we would never give up, Lord, even as I was saying at the beginning of the

686
00:38:56.080 --> 00:39:00.960
session tonight, that we would be determined, or I said it this afternoon, that we would be

687
00:39:00.960 --> 00:39:08.720
determined to be unstoppable. I forgot my mug tonight. God asked me to talk about that this

688
00:39:08.720 --> 00:39:18.160
afternoon and it was just really fun. And I had this unstoppable mug and that just came back to

689
00:39:18.160 --> 00:39:22.160
my mind. Sorry, someone was asking for help at the same time I was trying to tell you all that story.

690
00:39:23.120 --> 00:39:26.560
I think someone's in with someone who they can't hear them.

691
00:39:34.720 --> 00:39:39.600
Hold on one second, y'all. I'll be right back.

692
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:26.400
Okay, Leanne, let's see here.

693
00:40:26.400 --> 00:40:27.400
Can you tap it?

694
00:40:27.400 --> 00:40:30.440
Let's see if it'll let you talk.

695
00:40:30.440 --> 00:40:32.400
No.

696
00:40:32.400 --> 00:40:34.400
Try leaving the meeting and come back.

697
00:40:34.400 --> 00:40:38.400
Let's see if that will work, okay?

698
00:40:38.400 --> 00:40:39.400
Where are my breakout rooms?

699
00:40:39.400 --> 00:40:40.400
There they are.

700
00:40:40.400 --> 00:40:41.400
Sorry, y'all.

701
00:40:41.400 --> 00:40:46.400
I've got to reset my screen, and then I'll start to pray again.

702
00:40:46.400 --> 00:40:51.480
All right.

703
00:40:51.480 --> 00:40:52.480
Where was I going with that?

704
00:40:52.480 --> 00:40:53.480
Jesus only.

705
00:40:53.480 --> 00:40:54.480
You know.

706
00:40:54.480 --> 00:40:55.480
You know what we need, Lord.

707
00:40:55.560 --> 00:40:56.560
Thank you for that.

708
00:40:56.560 --> 00:41:05.560
Oh, Leanne, did it kick you out?

709
00:41:05.560 --> 00:41:16.560
Or was she the one?

710
00:41:16.560 --> 00:41:18.560
Were you the one that just left and came back?

711
00:41:18.560 --> 00:41:22.560
Can you turn your screen on so I can see your pretty face?

712
00:41:22.640 --> 00:41:28.640
Can't tell.

713
00:41:28.640 --> 00:41:32.640
Oh, she said, okay, I'm going to go get my computer.

714
00:41:32.640 --> 00:41:33.640
All right, awesome.

715
00:41:33.640 --> 00:41:38.640
All right, so, Lord, we just thank you for technology things being worked out.

716
00:41:38.640 --> 00:41:41.640
We thank you for healing and truth.

717
00:41:41.640 --> 00:41:45.640
I'm going to go ahead and bump that other lady to a different room so she's just not

718
00:41:45.640 --> 00:41:51.640
sitting there by herself.

719
00:41:51.720 --> 00:41:56.720
All right, there we go, and then I can put her in a different room.

720
00:41:56.720 --> 00:42:02.720
All right, so, Lord, we just thank you for wisdom and peace, even when we face obstacles

721
00:42:02.720 --> 00:42:05.720
with technology and trying to get things situated.

722
00:42:05.720 --> 00:42:06.720
We thank you for blessing.

723
00:42:06.720 --> 00:42:12.720
Father, we just thank you also that you would help us to trust in you, that we would be

724
00:42:12.720 --> 00:42:18.720
able to experience your peace in all situations, which exceeds anything we can understand,

725
00:42:18.800 --> 00:42:24.800
and we thank you that your peace will guard our hearts and our minds as we live in Christ Jesus.

726
00:42:24.800 --> 00:42:30.800
We thank you for that.

727
00:42:30.800 --> 00:42:42.800
Let's see.

728
00:42:42.800 --> 00:42:46.800
Thank you, Lord, that you are also just the reminder that even when the thief comes to

729
00:42:46.880 --> 00:42:52.880
kill, steal, and destroy, that you, Jesus Christ, came to give us everything in abundance,

730
00:42:52.880 --> 00:42:58.880
more than we expect, life in its fullness, until we overflow.

731
00:42:58.880 --> 00:42:59.880
Thank you, Father, for that.

732
00:42:59.880 --> 00:43:00.880
Thank you, Jesus.

733
00:43:00.880 --> 00:43:02.880
Thank you, Holy Spirit.

734
00:43:02.880 --> 00:43:05.880
Hi, Leanne.

735
00:43:05.880 --> 00:43:09.880
Is it letting you unmute?

736
00:43:09.880 --> 00:43:14.880
Never had this happen.

737
00:43:14.960 --> 00:43:22.960
Like, I'm clicking to try to let you unmute and ask you to, and it's not doing that either.

738
00:43:22.960 --> 00:43:26.960
Did that pop up for you?

739
00:43:26.960 --> 00:43:34.960
Okay, click that, and let's see if it'll work.

740
00:43:34.960 --> 00:43:35.960
Hmm.

741
00:43:35.960 --> 00:43:40.960
Have you done video calls on your device before?

742
00:43:40.960 --> 00:43:41.960
Yeah.

743
00:43:41.960 --> 00:43:43.960
I don't know what's going on.

744
00:43:44.040 --> 00:43:46.040
I'm so sorry.

745
00:43:46.040 --> 00:43:51.040
Did you have the same problem last week?

746
00:43:51.040 --> 00:43:53.040
Okay, you did.

747
00:43:53.040 --> 00:43:54.040
All right.

748
00:43:54.040 --> 00:43:59.040
I feel like, remind me, send an email to our, did you send an email to our admin team?

749
00:43:59.040 --> 00:44:13.040
Can you put that in the chat for me?

750
00:44:13.120 --> 00:44:16.120
Okay, yeah.

751
00:44:16.120 --> 00:44:20.120
So I think it's on, I hate to say this, I think it's on your side of the things, like

752
00:44:20.120 --> 00:44:26.120
your settings on your device are blocking your mic from being able to be used.

753
00:44:26.120 --> 00:44:31.120
But I, I'm not, I'm techie, but I'm not good enough to tell you what to change on your

754
00:44:31.120 --> 00:44:32.120
phone or your computer.

755
00:44:32.120 --> 00:44:37.120
But even if, I don't know if you have a Best Buy near you, but if you go in to like a Geek

756
00:44:37.120 --> 00:44:42.120
Squad area, they might be able to help, or wherever you bought your device from, they

757
00:44:42.200 --> 00:44:45.200
might be able to help you know, like if you're not sure how to figure it out, what to change

758
00:44:45.200 --> 00:44:47.200
on your settings.

759
00:44:47.200 --> 00:44:52.200
Or you can even do a Google search or something and put in like whatever your computer or

760
00:44:52.200 --> 00:44:57.200
phone device is and say, how do I turn my settings on so that I, my mic will work?

761
00:44:57.200 --> 00:44:58.200
Does that make sense?

762
00:44:58.200 --> 00:44:59.200
All right.

763
00:44:59.200 --> 00:44:59.200


764
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.000
listen in tonight. I don't want you to feel like you have to leave. Okay. I know you're not able.

765
00:45:04.000 --> 00:45:08.960
It's not as like being able to go into the breakouts, but I want, I don't want you to feel

766
00:45:08.960 --> 00:45:15.840
like you have to like leave or miss out. Okay. All right. Y'all sometimes technology, if we don't

767
00:45:15.840 --> 00:45:21.280
know how to work it, it's okay. Just, just, I know it can be frustrating, but trust that God

768
00:45:21.280 --> 00:45:26.720
will help you work that out too. And we grow in the process. Don't we all. Yeah, we do. All right.

769
00:45:26.720 --> 00:45:33.520
So let's, let's lean into what God is doing. I want to encourage you all. If you've never been

770
00:45:33.520 --> 00:45:40.880
here before, this is when we do our group breakout sessions and coaching. And, um, I ask someone or

771
00:45:40.880 --> 00:45:47.680
a couple people, we try not to have too many people, but a couple share with everyone, what

772
00:45:47.680 --> 00:45:54.800
you shared in your private breakout. And I don't say who wants to anymore, because that never seems

773
00:45:54.800 --> 00:46:01.680
to work. So I typically switch to like, who is willing to be that person and who's willing to

774
00:46:01.680 --> 00:46:06.480
go first tonight. Normally once we have one, at least one person, it gets other people kind

775
00:46:06.480 --> 00:46:19.360
of thinking about some stuff. Nikki. Awesome. Go ahead. Hi. Um, so I shared in the breakout that,

776
00:46:19.520 --> 00:46:30.960
um, my negative thoughts typically, uh, trace back to God and his view of me. Um,

777
00:46:32.560 --> 00:46:42.480
and I was sharing with, um, Mackenzie that I'm sure it stems from people, but I don't have

778
00:46:42.480 --> 00:46:53.200
any major trauma. My family was, um, like very healthy. I mean, not like, um, like there wasn't

779
00:46:53.200 --> 00:46:58.080
any dysfunction, but there was no abuse or neglect or anything like that. They were Christian. They

780
00:46:58.080 --> 00:47:09.920
raised me with, um, they raised me well, but nonetheless, I have just, um, constant thoughts

781
00:47:09.920 --> 00:47:15.440
that I'm not pleasing God and that I'm never going to please him truly. And I was sharing that

782
00:47:15.440 --> 00:47:21.360
like I'm in Florida too, and I've been here 23 years, so I'm used to hurricanes, but this one is

783
00:47:21.360 --> 00:47:26.880
like making me a little bit more anxious than others. Cause I'm also in the line of the hurricane.

784
00:47:28.000 --> 00:47:36.160
And I was sharing also in the breakout that I am feeling anxious, but then on top of the anxiety,

785
00:47:36.160 --> 00:47:41.440
I feel very ashamed that I feel anxious because it's like, the Bible says that,

786
00:47:42.400 --> 00:47:46.960
you know, we should, uh, present our requests to God and the peace of God

787
00:47:47.920 --> 00:47:52.880
will, that surpasses all understanding. Well, God will guard our hearts. And so I was like,

788
00:47:52.880 --> 00:47:57.280
even telling God today, I'm like, I don't have that peace right now at all. Like, and so I feel

789
00:47:57.280 --> 00:48:04.880
like I'm a disappointment to him that I don't even have like peace in this situation that I should be

790
00:48:04.880 --> 00:48:08.960
used to on top of that. So it's just like, I was sharing that it was anxiety on top of anxiety.

791
00:48:09.760 --> 00:48:16.160
And, um, and Mackenzie gave me some good encouragement. Um, but I know that this

792
00:48:16.160 --> 00:48:23.920
has been a, uh, just an ongoing thing, probably my entire Christian life, which is, which I've,

793
00:48:23.920 --> 00:48:29.200
I've been a Christian for many, many years and it's like still there.

794
00:48:30.080 --> 00:48:35.520
Well, okay. So here's a couple things. Um, the first thing I want to say,

795
00:48:35.520 --> 00:48:41.440
anytime we feel shame, guilt, or condemnation, y'all that is from the enemy. Okay.

796
00:48:44.000 --> 00:48:50.320
The reality is, is that we have flesh and our flesh is always going to try to do

797
00:48:50.320 --> 00:48:57.440
and say, and think the opposite of what the spirit man would do say or think. Um,

798
00:48:57.440 --> 00:49:02.080
so that's the first thought I had because, you know, feeling like we're a disappointment or

799
00:49:02.080 --> 00:49:06.800
being ashamed of something, or, you know, that's where, what caught caused me to think about shame

800
00:49:06.800 --> 00:49:14.880
when you said that. So my first thought is, uh, my first question for you, Nikki, is while you

801
00:49:14.880 --> 00:49:22.960
had a great family and they were Christian, um, like, did you grow up with the idea that Christians

802
00:49:22.960 --> 00:49:32.320
had to be perfect? Um, if I did that messaging to me must've been subtle because I never thought

803
00:49:32.320 --> 00:49:38.560
that I did. I never thought that that was an expectation, but I mean, I wouldn't be surprised

804
00:49:38.560 --> 00:49:46.400
if it was there and I just didn't pick up on it. Hey, did you feel like your parents were perfect?

805
00:49:46.960 --> 00:49:54.960
No. However, something did just kind of come to me. Um, I actually grew up in a very, a very,

806
00:49:54.960 --> 00:49:56.960
uh, um,

807
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.960
I don't know how to put it. My, my family is, is big in the ministry on both sides of

808
00:50:05.960 --> 00:50:13.480
my parents. So there was like, I don't know if that kind of, yeah. So you had both sides

809
00:50:13.480 --> 00:50:18.800
and the lineage and legacy in your family is ministry on, on all sides. That's what

810
00:50:18.800 --> 00:50:26.240
you're saying. Okay. Very, very strong ministry, very successful ministries kind of thing.

811
00:50:26.240 --> 00:50:36.920
Yeah. Okay. So is there some kind of like subconscious feeling of, you have to like,

812
00:50:36.920 --> 00:50:41.680
like keep up with the Joneses, if you will, you know, keep up with the family lineage

813
00:50:41.680 --> 00:50:46.280
and you know, all that they've done, you have to be. And even if people didn't say that

814
00:50:46.280 --> 00:50:54.120
to you, is it like, like I almost envisioned if I was in a Royal palace and I saw all the

815
00:50:54.120 --> 00:50:59.880
Kings and Queens that came before, and we heard about all their great exploits, if you

816
00:50:59.880 --> 00:51:07.440
will, there would be an automatic. Potentially, I'm not going to say all the time, because

817
00:51:07.440 --> 00:51:18.780
I think what's presented then is okay. I have to not be that. Okay. If I believe that lie

818
00:51:18.780 --> 00:51:23.720
and receive that, whether it's coming from people or myself or the enemy, if I believe

819
00:51:23.720 --> 00:51:32.480
that then I can actually not be just myself. And I will never feel like I'm enough because

820
00:51:32.480 --> 00:51:39.080
I'm always trying to obtain something that isn't even me. Does that make sense? Because

821
00:51:39.080 --> 00:51:47.200
it's every someone else's thing. For example, my oldest brother got straight A's. He was

822
00:51:47.200 --> 00:51:53.040
like a top athlete. Everybody raved over him. And I felt like I was always in his shadow,

823
00:51:53.040 --> 00:51:58.320
like always trying to achieve what he achieved. And my story though, what's interesting is

824
00:51:58.320 --> 00:52:04.080
he was my main abuser. And so when I remembered the abuse, it was, there was this whole conflict,

825
00:52:04.080 --> 00:52:06.880
not saying that's the same for you at all, but I'm just pulling that out for the other

826
00:52:06.880 --> 00:52:13.840
side of the group here. And so then I'm like, y'all, y'all think he's so great, but it's

827
00:52:13.840 --> 00:52:18.480
a big fat lie. I remember thinking that in my head all the time. So that was the story.

828
00:52:18.720 --> 00:52:26.960
Everybody thinks he's so great and he's not. And so what are those stories? We just partner

829
00:52:26.960 --> 00:52:35.280
with them. And so I think that to me, it sounds like you like, because the enemy told you a lie

830
00:52:35.280 --> 00:52:41.280
somewhere, I almost keep hearing too, that like, you'll never be good enough. You'll never be as

831
00:52:41.280 --> 00:52:46.480
good as them or stuff like that. And if we partner with that, well, then that does become our story.

832
00:52:46.480 --> 00:52:53.920
And that does become the expectation of who we have to live up to be. The other flip side of that

833
00:52:53.920 --> 00:53:03.040
is that y'all, we can pick this up from media on, if you, if y'all ever think about that,

834
00:53:03.040 --> 00:53:08.800
I was coaching a young lady recently and she had a similar kind of story. Like she's been

835
00:53:08.800 --> 00:53:15.280
raised in a good family. Now her parents did get divorced. So she did have that. And she

836
00:53:15.280 --> 00:53:22.080
went through abuse as a kid. So she also had that trauma, but still she had this intrusive

837
00:53:22.080 --> 00:53:31.280
thought that really wasn't related to any of those things. And she recalls watching a video

838
00:53:31.280 --> 00:53:37.680
on TV or some kind of commercial. And just, it was something bad happening to someone on the TV

839
00:53:38.560 --> 00:53:46.240
and, and the enemy lied to her and basically caused her to fear that her life would end up like

840
00:53:46.240 --> 00:53:52.640
she would end up being like those people. Does that make sense? What I'm saying? And so just

841
00:53:52.640 --> 00:53:57.200
ask the Lord, you know, just keep asking me, even if you already have, because again, every day we're

842
00:53:57.200 --> 00:54:02.960
gaining new information, new insight. You might not have understood before gotten the piece that

843
00:54:03.760 --> 00:54:08.080
you needed, but you all, once that piece comes and it like goes right in, you're like,

844
00:54:09.520 --> 00:54:14.160
you're like, that's it. And so if you're not there yet, Nikki, I believe that God is,

845
00:54:14.160 --> 00:54:20.560
is helping you piece things together. And it, it absolutely, these lies and storylines don't

846
00:54:20.560 --> 00:54:26.640
have to come through trauma. They, they do often, but sometimes they can come through expectations

847
00:54:27.360 --> 00:54:34.400
and inferiority complex is coming up in my spirit too. Like that always feeling

848
00:54:34.400 --> 00:54:38.880
inferior to someone else. So is there a sibling you feel that way with?

849
00:54:40.560 --> 00:54:46.000
No, but I do, I do resonate with that. The inferiority complex.

850
00:54:47.040 --> 00:54:51.040
I have a younger brother, but, and that's it. And I don't feel that with him.

851
00:54:51.520 --> 00:54:54.240
I mean, I mean, if I do, it could be subtle. What was that?

852
00:54:55.040 --> 00:54:58.480
Did your mom, do you know if your mom ever struggled with that?

853
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.240
with that with her? Does she have siblings? Oh, my mom definitely struggles with that.

854
00:55:04.960 --> 00:55:10.400
I think this is a generational thing. Yeah. My mom definitely struggled with inferiority.

855
00:55:11.200 --> 00:55:16.960
Yeah. And she has two older sisters. Yeah. I think we're gaining some insight here. Seriously,

856
00:55:16.960 --> 00:55:23.120
because as soon as I said, inferior inferiority complex, that's what made me think of big sister

857
00:55:23.920 --> 00:55:28.560
and you don't have a sister. And so typically people would be just like, oh, I got it wrong,

858
00:55:29.120 --> 00:55:34.400
but I am a firm believer on, okay, Lord, if it's not that what else is it? And I heard your mom.

859
00:55:35.280 --> 00:55:39.920
And so again, we're just, we're just seeking, we're not saying 100% that it is that, but let's

860
00:55:39.920 --> 00:55:47.920
just ask the Lord, is this, you know, something mom struggled with that, whether you realize it

861
00:55:47.920 --> 00:55:52.720
or not, there's things that she was saying and doing that you're then subconsciously receiving

862
00:55:52.720 --> 00:56:00.320
from her, not only when you're alive, but guess what you all in utero, that stuff legit happens.

863
00:56:00.320 --> 00:56:04.480
Okay. So just be praying, asking God for revelation on that. I think you're going to

864
00:56:04.480 --> 00:56:09.280
get some more pieces in the days ahead to give you a breakthrough, not to stay here to get

865
00:56:09.280 --> 00:56:15.920
breakthrough. Okay. Awesome. Thank you. Yeah. Thanks for sharing. Okay. Is it your point?

866
00:56:15.920 --> 00:56:22.560
Is that right? Awesome. Yes. I love your curly hair. I don't know if you had it that way,

867
00:56:22.960 --> 00:56:31.120
but it looks so pretty. Thank you. No, I haven't. It's nice. Thank you. Um, one thing that I shared

868
00:56:31.120 --> 00:56:39.840
in, um, the breakout, um, basically just this, today was a good day, but this weekend was one

869
00:56:39.840 --> 00:56:43.600
of those days where I feel like I can't get things done. Like I don't have enough time,

870
00:56:43.600 --> 00:56:49.760
whether it's getting things done for work, been, been a mom doing yard work, just even just doing

871
00:56:49.760 --> 00:56:56.240
hard work. So I just feel like I, I, I pretty much put myself down like, Oh, I should have been

872
00:56:56.240 --> 00:57:00.400
doing this for my time. I should have been doing that, but I'm, I'm spending my time doing all

873
00:57:00.400 --> 00:57:06.400
these different things, but stuff comes up, life things comes up and then I'm like, okay, now this

874
00:57:06.400 --> 00:57:13.760
is that back or I set a plan or a goal, um, for myself. And I'm like, I didn't achieve that goal.

875
00:57:14.720 --> 00:57:25.920
Yeah. So, um, do you, do you feel like, um, do you fill your schedule to full and then you just

876
00:57:25.920 --> 00:57:33.760
need a break and that's why you kind of tap out? Yeah. So I resonated with what you were saying.

877
00:57:33.760 --> 00:57:41.120
And interestingly enough, this past weekend, I struggled with something very similar and, um,

878
00:57:41.840 --> 00:57:47.760
had so much to get done, but felt myself avoiding everything, but not just that you all, I was

879
00:57:47.760 --> 00:57:53.520
battling like focus, like I was struggling to focus, to be able to read and get things done.

880
00:57:54.160 --> 00:58:01.920
And so, um, what I tend to do is like, okay, Lord, is this a spiritual attack or is this like,

881
00:58:02.640 --> 00:58:06.800
when you guys get further into the course, there's a self-preservation technique sheet.

882
00:58:07.760 --> 00:58:16.000
When we start to feel too much stress, we will sometimes shift into self-preservation mode and

883
00:58:16.000 --> 00:58:23.840
sometimes self-preservation is checking out. It is y'all. There's a lot of different

884
00:58:23.840 --> 00:58:29.360
self-preservation. Sometimes self-preservation is shut down isolation. There's all kinds of them.

885
00:58:29.360 --> 00:58:34.800
And so, uh, Jacoy, I would encourage you or anyone else, um, just to be, even in those moments,

886
00:58:35.600 --> 00:58:40.320
like instead of us being hard on it, I do it too. I have to watch myself like, oh my God,

887
00:58:40.320 --> 00:58:46.240
what's wrong with me? Why am I like, why can't I do this? You know, but really checking like,

888
00:58:46.240 --> 00:58:52.800
wait a minute. Okay. I noticed that every time I'm really have a really awesome chunk of time

889
00:58:52.800 --> 00:58:56.640
to be able to read and conquer some of this stuff, even a book I'm writing,

890
00:58:57.600 --> 00:59:04.400
I get, I feel like the enemy comes in, but it's also me partnering with old habits,

891
00:59:04.400 --> 00:59:09.520
the overwhelm and the shutdown. And so I have to learn just like I was saying earlier,

892
00:59:10.160 --> 00:59:15.600
you know, the new habits in the mind, when that comes on me, I need to maybe,

893
00:59:16.240 --> 00:59:21.200
maybe I need to do a little bit of exercise and get some endorphins going or whatever,

894
00:59:21.200 --> 00:59:27.120
but always come back and, you know, try to do it again. And sometimes that's not going to work.

895
00:59:27.120 --> 00:59:31.200
You all write that first couple of times, because again, we're building new muscles.

896
00:59:31.200 --> 00:59:38.320
We're building new habits. We're breaking out of old ways. And so of course our flesh is going to

897
00:59:38.320 --> 00:59:44.560
resist. The enemy is going to cause resistance. Y'all, some of you are going to face a lot of

898
00:59:44.560 --> 00:59:48.960
resistance because the enemy from the enemy, because he doesn't want you to move forward.

899
00:59:49.760 --> 00:59:54.960
He wants you to stay where you are and maybe even push you back some. We don't have to fear

900
00:59:54.960 --> 00:59:59.360
that. We just need to be aware of it and understand that Jesus

901
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:08.160
already gave you the victory. So you fight not for victory, but from it. I, I fight from it too.

902
01:00:08.800 --> 01:00:15.280
I don't always, again, because I have flesh, I'm human. I also fight things, but I, I can remember

903
01:00:16.480 --> 01:00:22.160
to apply the blood and ask the Lord to help me overcome. So even in this, what seems like the

904
01:00:22.160 --> 01:00:28.560
small things, let's, let's try to catch our thoughts. I do want to encourage you as well,

905
01:00:28.960 --> 01:00:33.520
or anyone else that struggles with similar stuff that when you're like struggling to do something,

906
01:00:33.520 --> 01:00:39.360
you're getting down on yourself. Is that something that you've always done?

907
01:00:42.000 --> 01:00:45.840
Um, if you've always done it, when was the first time you did it?

908
01:00:48.240 --> 01:00:53.440
Or is this something along the way that like you started doing and saying to yourself,

909
01:00:53.440 --> 01:00:59.200
and when did that start just again, getting to that root? Like when was the first time?

910
01:01:01.600 --> 01:01:07.040
Yeah. When was the first time I started putting myself down like this?

911
01:01:07.760 --> 01:01:12.800
Like I wasn't good enough. Was it me just myself or did someone else say that to me?

912
01:01:13.680 --> 01:01:20.480
Yeah. Sometimes y'all, when you feel, I'm going to address what Alyssa said in the chat. She said,

913
01:01:20.480 --> 01:01:26.400
I, I so feel this last night. I felt paralyzed. It felt like spiritual attack. I tried everything,

914
01:01:27.440 --> 01:01:35.200
not always. And then she said more recent. Um, I want to encourage you all. If you feel a lot of

915
01:01:36.160 --> 01:01:40.960
spiritual warfare, when you're doing your heartwork, I'm not trying to minimize it. Okay.

916
01:01:40.960 --> 01:01:48.400
But I really want you to know that our, our worship is our warfare. Some of you all,

917
01:01:48.960 --> 01:01:53.840
the best thing you could ever do is put some worship music on and dance around your apartment

918
01:01:54.400 --> 01:01:57.360
and celebrate and rejoice. And you're not going to feel like it.

919
01:01:57.360 --> 01:02:04.080
But you still need to do it. It's a choice choose to worship. Why? Because the King of Kings is

920
01:02:04.080 --> 01:02:09.680
mighty. He sits on the throne and he's created everything. And he's working on your behalf right

921
01:02:09.680 --> 01:02:13.280
now. And you're going to partner with that. And you're going to worship him because he's good.

922
01:02:16.240 --> 01:02:20.720
You know what I'm saying? We don't have to do that. We don't have to do that. We don't have

923
01:02:20.720 --> 01:02:29.520
to worship him because he's good. You know what I'm saying? We don't have to feel good to worship

924
01:02:29.520 --> 01:02:38.560
him because he's, he he's good all the time. Yeah. Worship is your warfare. It's one of the

925
01:02:38.560 --> 01:02:44.560
best ways you can battle. And here's the other thing. We don't want to focus too much on the

926
01:02:44.560 --> 01:02:52.320
devil. You all, sometimes we get so focused on the devil and that's why he's winning. And so if

927
01:02:52.320 --> 01:02:56.480
we'll just start praising, I said to somebody, I don't know if it was the last session, but y'all,

928
01:02:56.480 --> 01:03:03.920
if I just sat here and just started reading, Oh, like out of my Bible over you, would not the

929
01:03:03.920 --> 01:03:10.480
atmosphere change? Like just sitting here, just reading truth over you. Can you imagine if you

930
01:03:10.480 --> 01:03:18.880
all, all of us, all 32 of us, if we would all agree this week, I might be changing our activation

931
01:03:18.880 --> 01:03:22.240
by the way, it's coming up in my spirit. I might be changing the one I wrote down.

932
01:03:24.080 --> 01:03:32.960
If we just, I don't know, 10 minutes a night, does that feel doable? 10 minutes, y'all 10 minutes a

933
01:03:32.960 --> 01:03:39.760
night for you to just read out of the Bible out loud over yourself and put your name in there

934
01:03:40.560 --> 01:03:46.240
as well. Like I'm going to use this little scripture here. What, where am I at? I am in

935
01:03:46.240 --> 01:03:57.440
Proverbs 3, 25. Oh, God is so good. Y'all this is going to be good. 25 and 26. Now I did not do this

936
01:03:57.440 --> 01:04:03.440
on purpose. Y'all I just picked my Bible up and just was trying to hold it. And then I felt this

937
01:04:03.440 --> 01:04:12.160
nudge. This is what it says. Have no fear of sudden disaster. What, what was I just talking about? I

938
01:04:12.160 --> 01:04:18.640
was not y'all it's not even the third. I normally read the proverb for the day that it is. It's the

939
01:04:18.640 --> 01:04:25.440
seventh. Have no fear of sudden disaster of the ruin that overtakes the wicked for the Lord will

940
01:04:25.440 --> 01:04:30.960
be at your side and will keep your foot from being snared. So how would I make that applicable

941
01:04:30.960 --> 01:04:37.520
to myself? If I start in Jesus name, Bethany will have no fear of sudden disaster of the ruin that

942
01:04:37.520 --> 01:04:43.760
overtakes the wicked for the Lord is at Bethany's side and will keep her foot from being snared.

943
01:04:44.560 --> 01:04:48.480
Do you see how like I'm still reading scripture, but I'm putting myself in there.

944
01:04:48.960 --> 01:04:53.760
Do not withhold good from those whom it is due when it is your power to act. Do not say to your

945
01:04:53.760 --> 01:04:57.760
neighbor, come back tomorrow and I'll give it to you when you already have it with you.

946
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:06.040
God, I thank you that I, Bethany, will not plot harm against my neighbor who lives trustfully

947
01:05:06.040 --> 01:05:07.040
near me.

948
01:05:07.040 --> 01:05:09.240
And you just you just keep going.

949
01:05:09.240 --> 01:05:11.280
If that if you're not ready to do that, that's fine.

950
01:05:11.280 --> 01:05:13.760
Just read the scripture, the truth.

951
01:05:13.760 --> 01:05:17.960
You know, the scripture says it will cut through bone and marrow.

952
01:05:17.960 --> 01:05:25.560
That as soon as it's released, it will do that thing which it was like sent out to accomplish.

953
01:05:25.560 --> 01:05:26.840
So that's what some of us need to do.

954
01:05:26.840 --> 01:05:30.280
I think that is going to be our activation.

955
01:05:30.280 --> 01:05:31.760
Can we do it?

956
01:05:31.760 --> 01:05:34.760
Seven days.

957
01:05:34.760 --> 01:05:36.880
Ten minutes every day.

958
01:05:36.880 --> 01:05:38.600
That's activation number one.

959
01:05:38.600 --> 01:05:43.240
Just if y'all don't know where to start, Psalms are awesome.

960
01:05:43.240 --> 01:05:45.200
I was just in Proverbs.

961
01:05:45.200 --> 01:05:50.400
You can literally any of them pick John, Matthew, wherever you feel led to go.

962
01:05:50.400 --> 01:05:53.800
Try not to go into Old Testament other than Psalms or Proverbs, y'all, because it gets

963
01:05:53.800 --> 01:05:56.360
a little tricky in there.

964
01:05:56.880 --> 01:05:59.840
We're trying to we're trying to get the hope going.

965
01:05:59.840 --> 01:06:01.120
Not that there's not hope in there.

966
01:06:01.120 --> 01:06:02.120
All the words good.

967
01:06:02.120 --> 01:06:06.080
But y'all, some of the Old Testament books, if you don't understand the context, it can

968
01:06:06.080 --> 01:06:07.920
be very misunderstood.

969
01:06:07.920 --> 01:06:09.720
OK.

970
01:06:09.720 --> 01:06:10.720
Let's do it.

971
01:06:10.720 --> 01:06:11.720
I'll do it with you.

972
01:06:11.720 --> 01:06:12.720
I'm going to activate.

973
01:06:12.720 --> 01:06:17.120
And then what we do with activations is we do them and then we go in the group and we

974
01:06:17.120 --> 01:06:18.120
post about it.

975
01:06:18.120 --> 01:06:20.960
And we say, this is what happened when I did this.

976
01:06:20.960 --> 01:06:25.080
And we're going to testify of what God's doing in us.

977
01:06:25.080 --> 01:06:26.080
I'll do it, too.

978
01:06:26.080 --> 01:06:27.080
I promise.

979
01:06:27.080 --> 01:06:30.000
I'll come in the group and tell you all what God does in me this week.

980
01:06:30.000 --> 01:06:31.000
I really am.

981
01:06:31.000 --> 01:06:32.000
No joke.

982
01:06:32.000 --> 01:06:33.760
Y'all, that was totally the Lord.

983
01:06:33.760 --> 01:06:38.400
I needed that scripture reminder tonight, but I didn't plan that.

984
01:06:38.400 --> 01:06:42.000
God did that just now.

985
01:06:42.000 --> 01:06:45.080
And that's how he'll show up for you, too.

986
01:06:45.080 --> 01:06:48.240
Yeah, he's so good.

987
01:06:48.240 --> 01:06:50.080
He's so good.

988
01:06:50.080 --> 01:06:51.080
Who?

989
01:06:51.080 --> 01:06:52.080
Jesus.

990
01:06:52.080 --> 01:06:54.080
He's so good.

991
01:06:54.080 --> 01:06:56.280
All right.

992
01:06:56.280 --> 01:06:59.320
Having myself a Jesus party here for a second.

993
01:06:59.320 --> 01:07:00.320
He's good.

994
01:07:00.320 --> 01:07:01.320
You all.

995
01:07:01.320 --> 01:07:04.400
Do you know that you can just say Jesus help.

996
01:07:04.400 --> 01:07:11.560
If you don't know what else to pray, Jesus help.

997
01:07:11.560 --> 01:07:12.560
A little kid.

998
01:07:12.560 --> 01:07:14.040
I read this story years ago.

999
01:07:14.040 --> 01:07:18.280
A mom was pregnant and there was something going on.

1000
01:07:18.280 --> 01:07:22.360
And the little boy, I might mess it up, but I think the story goes, a little boy put his

1001
01:07:22.360 --> 01:07:24.280
hands on his mommy belly.

1002
01:07:24.280 --> 01:07:28.960
And he said, Jesus.

1003
01:07:28.960 --> 01:07:29.960
Mommy's sick.

1004
01:07:29.960 --> 01:07:30.960
He'll.

1005
01:07:30.960 --> 01:07:31.960
Amen.

1006
01:07:31.960 --> 01:07:34.400
And that's what he said.

1007
01:07:34.400 --> 01:07:35.400
Guess what?

1008
01:07:35.400 --> 01:07:37.080
You all.

1009
01:07:37.080 --> 01:07:41.240
The Lord heard that little boy's prayer and that mom got better.

1010
01:07:41.240 --> 01:07:44.560
It's not about fancy words.

1011
01:07:44.560 --> 01:07:45.680
It's not.

1012
01:07:45.680 --> 01:07:50.120
We learn how to pray as we go, but y'all don't feel like you have to have something fancy.

1013
01:07:50.120 --> 01:07:51.120
Okay.

1014
01:07:51.120 --> 01:07:56.560
He cares about you and he'd rather have a conversation with you than no conversation

1015
01:07:56.560 --> 01:07:57.560
at all.

1016
01:07:57.560 --> 01:07:59.840
And I feel the Holy spirit on that.

1017
01:07:59.840 --> 01:08:03.320
Some of y'all need that tonight.

1018
01:08:03.320 --> 01:08:08.280
You're his dad, God's daughter, and he wants to hear your voice.

1019
01:08:08.280 --> 01:08:14.940
Yes, you can pray in your head, but I feel like the Holy spirit's on this activation

1020
01:08:14.940 --> 01:08:18.840
assignment as well, because some of you all need to get comfortable with hearing your

1021
01:08:18.840 --> 01:08:25.279
own voice, declare the word of God out loud so that you can also start praying out loud.

1022
01:08:25.279 --> 01:08:26.279
Yeah.

1023
01:08:26.279 --> 01:08:27.279
All right.

1024
01:08:27.279 --> 01:08:32.240
We're going to go on into forgiveness.

1025
01:08:32.240 --> 01:08:34.560
Thank you for those that shared.

1026
01:08:34.560 --> 01:08:37.200
God had something else there's a stir in.

1027
01:08:37.200 --> 01:08:39.359
So we went with it for a few minutes.

1028
01:08:39.359 --> 01:08:42.479
All right, you're on forgiveness.

1029
01:08:42.479 --> 01:08:46.800
If you weren't on last night, again, please, I was saying this at the beginning, please

1030
01:08:46.800 --> 01:08:50.960
check out supernatural Saturday and last night's session in the replay, when you get

1031
01:08:50.960 --> 01:08:54.080
time or make time for it, it'll be really good.

1032
01:08:54.080 --> 01:08:58.920
But last night, Jackie and I kind of, she led the beginning, then we kind of volleyed

1033
01:08:58.920 --> 01:09:02.319
back and forth on some things.

1034
01:09:02.319 --> 01:09:08.520
But the theme was repentance, confession, forgiveness, and how the days of all are about,

1035
01:09:08.520 --> 01:09:15.120
you know, really being introspective and asking God to create clean hearts and renew steadfast

1036
01:09:15.120 --> 01:09:16.720
spirits within us.

1037
01:09:17.640 --> 01:09:24.000
So I felt like it was really fitting to talk about forgiveness tonight.

1038
01:09:24.000 --> 01:09:28.600
Some of you all are in week four, some of you have just begun, you'll get to week four

1039
01:09:28.600 --> 01:09:34.319
at whatever point, but you can still receive the truth about this tonight.

1040
01:09:34.319 --> 01:09:37.200
Forgiveness breaks tethers.

1041
01:09:37.200 --> 01:09:40.840
I always use the tetherball example because it can be a little fun too, because forgiveness

1042
01:09:40.840 --> 01:09:42.040
is a heavy topic.

1043
01:09:42.040 --> 01:09:46.040
So I like to kind of lighten the mood a little bit every now and then.

1044
01:09:46.359 --> 01:09:50.560
And so I use the tetherball example, if y'all don't know, there used to be this game, again,

1045
01:09:50.560 --> 01:09:53.600
I don't know if it's still on playgrounds or not, but there was, there would be this

1046
01:09:53.600 --> 01:09:59.960
pole and then a rope and a ball that was connected to the rope and the kids.

1047
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:03.260
would just stand on the playground and hit this ball back and forth.

1048
01:10:03.260 --> 01:10:06.040
And I think there was probably more to it, but that's what I remember.

1049
01:10:06.960 --> 01:10:09.900
And I said today, I was laughing because I was thinking about this.

1050
01:10:10.020 --> 01:10:14.140
I don't really know why I liked that game a lot, but I always wanted to play it.

1051
01:10:14.760 --> 01:10:18.960
And I said, maybe because I had been through so much as a kid and I wasn't

1052
01:10:18.960 --> 01:10:21.120
allowed to express my emotions a lot at home.

1053
01:10:21.120 --> 01:10:25.200
And so I'd go to school and just whack that crap out of that ball.

1054
01:10:25.200 --> 01:10:26.080
And it felt good.

1055
01:10:26.580 --> 01:10:27.120
Felt good.

1056
01:10:27.120 --> 01:10:27.560
Didn't it?

1057
01:10:28.560 --> 01:10:32.200
I see some people shaking their heads, so they know they had that experience too.

1058
01:10:32.720 --> 01:10:38.800
But I use that example because the ball is always connected to the pole

1059
01:10:38.800 --> 01:10:41.320
because of that rope, the tether.

1060
01:10:42.280 --> 01:10:47.680
And, and at the end of every day, for the most part, whoever it was, they

1061
01:10:47.680 --> 01:10:51.640
would come out onto the playground and they would remove the ball and the rope.

1062
01:10:52.040 --> 01:10:54.240
And that's what would break the tether, if you will.

1063
01:10:54.760 --> 01:10:58.040
And so I'm giving you an example because when we, when we have

1064
01:10:58.040 --> 01:11:07.520
unforgiveness in our hearts and our souls, it actually binds us to people and to trauma.

1065
01:11:09.800 --> 01:11:15.720
So we remain always attached to the pole, if you will, and nothing can take us

1066
01:11:15.720 --> 01:11:22.840
off of there, but to choose to forget, that's how you come untethered.

1067
01:11:25.040 --> 01:11:26.160
I'll give you another image.

1068
01:11:26.160 --> 01:11:30.480
If this is helpful to those of you that don't follow that image, if you

1069
01:11:30.480 --> 01:11:37.120
were in a hot air balloon and you wanted to take off and rise, y'all know a lot

1070
01:11:37.120 --> 01:11:42.520
of the hot air balloons are roped to the ground on all sides to keep it down, to

1071
01:11:42.520 --> 01:11:47.800
keep it safe, but when they're ready to fly and take off, they release the ropes.

1072
01:11:47.800 --> 01:11:48.360
Don't they?

1073
01:11:49.480 --> 01:11:53.360
Well, some of you, God's trying to lead you into the fullness of

1074
01:11:53.360 --> 01:11:55.200
his plans and promises for you.

1075
01:11:56.360 --> 01:12:01.560
And to cause you to rise, if you will, but the unforgiveness and bitterness

1076
01:12:01.560 --> 01:12:06.120
and resentment and all these things in our hearts are keeping us bound to the

1077
01:12:06.120 --> 01:12:09.480
ground and not truly able to move forward.

1078
01:12:09.840 --> 01:12:11.480
Some of y'all are walking around.

1079
01:12:11.480 --> 01:12:13.080
I just saw this in my spirit too.

1080
01:12:13.320 --> 01:12:14.800
You're like, I'm moving forward.

1081
01:12:15.040 --> 01:12:19.320
I'm moving forward, but you got like a broken leg and you're limping like crazy.

1082
01:12:19.720 --> 01:12:24.080
And God's just like, sweetie, just, just come into my presence

1083
01:12:24.080 --> 01:12:26.680
and let me heal this stuff.

1084
01:12:27.280 --> 01:12:32.560
And then I will restore that leg or whatever that is that's causing the

1085
01:12:32.560 --> 01:12:36.360
limp and you will walk as if you never had it to begin with.

1086
01:12:39.160 --> 01:12:39.480
All right.

1087
01:12:39.480 --> 01:12:41.960
So what, what happens when we forgive people?

1088
01:12:41.960 --> 01:12:48.800
Well, it doesn't mean we have to forget what happened, but it, it releases them.

1089
01:12:49.200 --> 01:12:55.840
It releases us from the trauma, from the pain and you all from my experience.

1090
01:12:57.000 --> 01:13:00.440
Um, I feel like it lets the poison out.

1091
01:13:02.000 --> 01:13:07.800
Like I still remember what I went through, but it doesn't pain me

1092
01:13:07.800 --> 01:13:09.760
in the depth of my soul anymore.

1093
01:13:11.840 --> 01:13:13.040
Does anyone understand?

1094
01:13:16.120 --> 01:13:16.520
Yeah.

1095
01:13:17.200 --> 01:13:19.880
When we forgive, we're not always going to feel like it.

1096
01:13:21.480 --> 01:13:25.040
We're not always going to want to do it, but it's important for us.

1097
01:13:25.040 --> 01:13:27.200
And I'm going to talk about some scriptures here that will help you.

1098
01:13:27.200 --> 01:13:29.080
But I want to give you this example first.

1099
01:13:29.600 --> 01:13:32.600
So I love this example because it's so simple.

1100
01:13:33.160 --> 01:13:37.280
So my sunglasses it's dark in here, but I've got this light, but if I was really

1101
01:13:37.280 --> 01:13:40.640
outside and the sun was bright, whatever, I'd put these sunglasses on.

1102
01:13:40.640 --> 01:13:45.600
But the reality is, is every time I wear these sunglasses, like even the light

1103
01:13:45.680 --> 01:13:50.800
that I'm looking at here changes the color of the light because it has a UV filter.

1104
01:13:51.160 --> 01:13:54.440
So when I look at the clouds and I'm outside, a lot of times they look peach

1105
01:13:54.440 --> 01:13:58.440
and pink, and like I said, something to my husband one day before I even thought

1106
01:13:58.440 --> 01:13:59.920
about it, that the UV was in here.

1107
01:14:00.280 --> 01:14:03.120
Look at those awesome, like the orange and the clouds.

1108
01:14:03.120 --> 01:14:04.640
And he's like, what are you talking about?

1109
01:14:04.640 --> 01:14:05.320
That's not there.

1110
01:14:06.520 --> 01:14:08.800
But y'all, these are filters and blind spots.

1111
01:14:08.880 --> 01:14:10.720
That's what I'm representing to you right now.

1112
01:14:11.560 --> 01:14:16.720
Some of you all have so much unforgiveness and bitterness, even if some of it is

1113
01:14:16.720 --> 01:14:20.240
subconscious, like you don't even remember some of the stuff you went through.

1114
01:14:21.920 --> 01:14:25.760
And so how can you forget if you don't even remember it?

1115
01:14:26.360 --> 01:14:27.160
Does that make sense?

1116
01:14:28.240 --> 01:14:32.720
And this is why, again, you don't have to go hunting, don't go hunting, but this is

1117
01:14:32.720 --> 01:14:36.920
why you ask the Lord to reveal things for healing so that you can get these blind

1118
01:14:36.920 --> 01:14:38.720
spots in these filters removed.

1119
01:14:39.120 --> 01:14:39.560
Okay.

1120
01:14:39.720 --> 01:14:40.640
What are blind spots?

1121
01:14:40.640 --> 01:14:43.040
When we put these on, what, what does it cause?

1122
01:14:43.040 --> 01:14:47.320
It causes us to see other people differently, see things differently, people,

1123
01:14:47.320 --> 01:14:48.200
situations.

1124
01:14:48.560 --> 01:14:51.720
It causes us to interact differently with people.

1125
01:14:52.680 --> 01:14:53.680
What do I mean by that?

1126
01:14:53.720 --> 01:14:59.960
Well, have y'all ever, anyone ever gone into a situation with someone and before you

1127
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:03.440
even show up, you feel like you got your guard up.

1128
01:15:03.440 --> 01:15:06.120
Like you're not really sure if you can trust these people.

1129
01:15:06.120 --> 01:15:10.880
So you're kind of like open, but you're not,

1130
01:15:10.880 --> 01:15:12.300
you're not really open.

1131
01:15:12.300 --> 01:15:13.340
Anyone resonate?

1132
01:15:15.060 --> 01:15:16.620
Yeah, we do that, don't we?

1133
01:15:18.760 --> 01:15:22.480
Our filters and blind spots can also, you know,

1134
01:15:22.480 --> 01:15:24.840
and these are all connected to healing

1135
01:15:24.840 --> 01:15:28.280
that needs to happen in our heart and in our soul.

1136
01:15:30.240 --> 01:15:34.560
These blind spots and filters can also impact

1137
01:15:34.560 --> 01:15:36.880
our ability to truly connect.

1138
01:15:36.880 --> 01:15:40.880
So it's basically like a build on the last thing I said.

1139
01:15:40.880 --> 01:15:42.140
What do I mean by that?

1140
01:15:44.120 --> 01:15:47.700
Some of you say you want a spirit mate,

1141
01:15:47.700 --> 01:15:49.820
but you don't really even like men.

1142
01:15:51.280 --> 01:15:54.520
Let alone be able to look men in the eye,

1143
01:15:54.520 --> 01:15:55.480
connect with them.

1144
01:15:55.480 --> 01:15:57.560
Some of you, you know, have been so wounded

1145
01:15:57.560 --> 01:15:59.760
and hurt by your mom that you're terrified

1146
01:16:00.520 --> 01:16:02.200
of other female relationships or a friend.

1147
01:16:02.200 --> 01:16:06.600
So you come into communities and you never really interact.

1148
01:16:07.720 --> 01:16:08.760
I'm not shaming you all.

1149
01:16:08.760 --> 01:16:11.080
I'm just saying this happens all the time.

1150
01:16:12.480 --> 01:16:15.280
And then we keep saying, well, why can't I,

1151
01:16:15.280 --> 01:16:16.920
why, you know, why isn't this working out?

1152
01:16:16.920 --> 01:16:19.580
Well, the guys can tell that we don't like men.

1153
01:16:21.920 --> 01:16:24.800
Because if we have unforgiveness towards men in our hearts,

1154
01:16:24.800 --> 01:16:26.320
y'all, it shows up.

1155
01:16:27.320 --> 01:16:30.320
If we have unforgiveness towards other women,

1156
01:16:30.320 --> 01:16:32.760
that's going to show up to some degree

1157
01:16:32.760 --> 01:16:35.240
in our current relationships.

1158
01:16:35.240 --> 01:16:36.720
God's not going to hold it against you.

1159
01:16:36.720 --> 01:16:39.520
And other people who truly love you won't either.

1160
01:16:39.520 --> 01:16:43.300
But we want to learn how to become fully free and open.

1161
01:16:44.160 --> 01:16:46.680
So it can cause us to not be able to remain

1162
01:16:46.680 --> 01:16:49.880
in connection with God, ourselves and others.

1163
01:16:49.880 --> 01:16:51.800
Did you know that unforgiveness and bitterness

1164
01:16:51.800 --> 01:16:53.680
and resentment can actually cause you to change

1165
01:16:53.680 --> 01:16:55.880
the way you interact with yourself as well?

1166
01:16:56.640 --> 01:16:58.120
It can.

1167
01:16:58.120 --> 01:17:00.480
All right, Matthew 22, 39 says,

1168
01:17:00.480 --> 01:17:03.040
love your neighbor as you love, who?

1169
01:17:04.400 --> 01:17:07.460
Yourself, yourself.

1170
01:17:07.460 --> 01:17:10.120
So you got to learn how to love yourself first,

1171
01:17:10.120 --> 01:17:13.040
and then you can learn how to love other people

1172
01:17:13.040 --> 01:17:13.880
more as well.

1173
01:17:13.880 --> 01:17:16.680
Forgiveness is not a feeling, but a choice.

1174
01:17:16.680 --> 01:17:19.080
Ephesians 4, 23 says this,

1175
01:17:19.080 --> 01:17:21.160
forgive one another just as God forgave you

1176
01:17:21.160 --> 01:17:23.680
because of what Christ has done.

1177
01:17:24.680 --> 01:17:26.960
That is reason enough to forgive you all.

1178
01:17:26.960 --> 01:17:29.520
Jesus Christ died for you.

1179
01:17:30.400 --> 01:17:33.400
So Virginia, he died for you.

1180
01:17:33.400 --> 01:17:36.260
He chose you, he forgave you.

1181
01:17:36.260 --> 01:17:41.260
Therefore, we then can enter into that same choice.

1182
01:17:41.680 --> 01:17:43.240
Y'all, I always just go with the Holy Spirit.

1183
01:17:43.240 --> 01:17:45.600
Virginia, I'm not picking on you, girl.

1184
01:17:45.600 --> 01:17:47.700
But just felt led to say your name.

1185
01:17:49.240 --> 01:17:51.560
Colossians 3, 13 says,

1186
01:17:51.560 --> 01:17:53.280
remember the Lord forgave you,

1187
01:17:53.280 --> 01:17:57.200
so you must also forgive others, right?

1188
01:17:58.320 --> 01:18:02.000
So we receive his forgiveness first,

1189
01:18:02.000 --> 01:18:06.040
and then we release it to others, including,

1190
01:18:06.040 --> 01:18:09.840
yep, you guessed it, even our enemies.

1191
01:18:09.840 --> 01:18:12.320
Does that mean you have to bring them close

1192
01:18:12.320 --> 01:18:15.400
and spend all kinds of cuddly time with them, you all?

1193
01:18:15.400 --> 01:18:17.400
No, it does not.

1194
01:18:17.400 --> 01:18:20.100
Don't misunderstand that part, all right?

1195
01:18:20.100 --> 01:18:22.700
Of course, we wanna see reconciliation in relationships,

1196
01:18:22.700 --> 01:18:24.540
and that's what we pray for and believe for,

1197
01:18:24.540 --> 01:18:27.100
but we can trust God in that process too.

1198
01:18:27.100 --> 01:18:29.840
And it doesn't look the same in every situation.

1199
01:18:29.840 --> 01:18:32.020
Y'all, I'm having reconciliation and healing

1200
01:18:32.020 --> 01:18:35.660
in my family relationships with my two brothers and sister

1201
01:18:35.660 --> 01:18:37.500
that all abused me,

1202
01:18:37.500 --> 01:18:40.240
but I don't have close relationship with them.

1203
01:18:40.240 --> 01:18:42.380
I don't do life with them every day.

1204
01:18:42.380 --> 01:18:44.980
And that is what God led me to do

1205
01:18:44.980 --> 01:18:48.460
because I needed to change my whole life

1206
01:18:48.460 --> 01:18:53.460
and the way I did that was by moving away from toxicity.

1207
01:18:55.380 --> 01:18:59.580
But I got, since then, have gone back into this,

1208
01:18:59.580 --> 01:19:02.420
you know, where they're at and loved on them.

1209
01:19:02.420 --> 01:19:04.580
When I got married, I invited all of them.

1210
01:19:04.580 --> 01:19:06.980
My two brothers came.

1211
01:19:06.980 --> 01:19:08.540
I'm so in seed, you all.

1212
01:19:09.420 --> 01:19:11.740
Through the leading the Holy Spirit, is it easy?

1213
01:19:11.740 --> 01:19:13.820
No, but it's absolutely worth it.

1214
01:19:13.820 --> 01:19:15.620
I want them to go to heaven with me.

1215
01:19:16.500 --> 01:19:17.640
I want them there.

1216
01:19:19.380 --> 01:19:21.060
Hurt people, hurt people.

1217
01:19:21.060 --> 01:19:22.900
I'm not excusing what they did,

1218
01:19:23.780 --> 01:19:28.420
but I recognize that the enemy of their souls

1219
01:19:28.420 --> 01:19:30.640
was leading them down wrong paths as well.

1220
01:19:32.060 --> 01:19:33.840
All right, so we want to forgive all the characters

1221
01:19:33.840 --> 01:19:35.540
in the story and guess what you all,

1222
01:19:35.540 --> 01:19:37.140
that includes ourselves.

1223
01:19:37.140 --> 01:19:40.920
So some of you tonight, you need to forgive yourself.

1224
01:19:42.140 --> 01:19:44.020
You need to choose to forgive yourself.

1225
01:19:44.020 --> 01:19:47.180
Forgiveness happens in layers as well as healing.

1226
01:19:47.180 --> 01:19:49.380
So I say that because a lot of times

1227
01:19:49.380 --> 01:19:50.620
people really struggle with,

1228
01:19:50.620 --> 01:19:51.980
well, I've already done this work.

1229
01:19:51.980 --> 01:19:53.180
I've worked on this before.

1230
01:19:53.180 --> 01:19:54.740
I don't want to do this again.

1231
01:19:54.740 --> 01:19:58.260
Or like, you know, you feel like you're going around

1232
01:19:58.260 --> 01:19:59.860
the same mountain kind of over and over.

1233
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:01.320
That's not really true, you all.

1234
01:20:01.320 --> 01:20:04.140
I know that's how the enemy wants us to look at it,

1235
01:20:04.140 --> 01:20:06.200
but what's really happening,

1236
01:20:06.200 --> 01:20:08.760
sometimes that is happening because we're stuck,

1237
01:20:08.760 --> 01:20:11.520
but when we're in healing programs like this,

1238
01:20:11.520 --> 01:20:15.280
what's typically happening is God is revealing another

1239
01:20:15.280 --> 01:20:19.720
like layer of it, another slice of it, if you will,

1240
01:20:19.720 --> 01:20:22.640
because we need more healing in an area

1241
01:20:22.640 --> 01:20:25.560
so that we can continue to move forward.

1242
01:20:25.560 --> 01:20:26.840
All right.

1243
01:20:26.840 --> 01:20:28.040
So don't be hard on yourself.

1244
01:20:28.040 --> 01:20:30.800
So I want you guys to practice extending grace to yourself.

1245
01:20:30.800 --> 01:20:33.080
Your breakout question is this,

1246
01:20:34.040 --> 01:20:37.620
who do you need to forgive tonight and why?

1247
01:20:39.320 --> 01:20:42.200
Who do you need to forgive tonight and why?

1248
01:20:42.200 --> 01:20:45.960
All right, I'm gonna do five minutes

1249
01:20:45.960 --> 01:20:47.840
in this breakout room.

1250
01:20:47.840 --> 01:20:49.840
We're gonna recreate these rooms.

1251
01:20:49.840 --> 01:20:54.840
I'm gonna try to keep the rooms, there we go.

1252
01:21:01.600 --> 01:21:03.440
All right, go ahead and click to join those.

1253
01:21:03.440 --> 01:21:05.900
And then if I need to move people around, I will.

1254
01:21:05.900 --> 01:21:07.240
So everybody just click to join

1255
01:21:07.240 --> 01:21:09.240
and then I can see where you're all at.

1256
01:21:19.840 --> 01:21:24.840
Oh, shoot, well, shoot, I just moved that person.

1257
01:21:41.600 --> 01:21:44.600
All right, Christy, are you able to join the breakout room?

1258
01:21:49.840 --> 01:21:54.840
All right, I'm gonna go ahead and click to join that group.

1259
01:22:07.840 --> 01:22:10.440
All right, make sure one more person, okay.

1260
01:22:10.440 --> 01:22:13.520
We got her situated, everybody has two.

1261
01:22:16.400 --> 01:22:17.520
All right, well, we just thank you

1262
01:22:17.800 --> 01:22:21.200
that you would just bring situations and people to mind

1263
01:22:22.880 --> 01:22:24.320
where we need to forgive.

1264
01:22:24.320 --> 01:22:26.040
Myself included, I thank you, God,

1265
01:22:26.040 --> 01:22:29.480
that you're always helping us to choose forgiveness.

1266
01:22:29.480 --> 01:22:31.780
I thank you, Lord, even in the anxiousness

1267
01:22:31.780 --> 01:22:34.480
and things that have happened today and the stressors.

1268
01:22:35.600 --> 01:22:37.040
I know we all face them, but Lord,

1269
01:22:37.040 --> 01:22:38.120
I just feel even right now,

1270
01:22:38.120 --> 01:22:41.000
just the importance of forgiving people

1271
01:22:41.000 --> 01:22:43.960
and situations and things that cause stress.

1272
01:22:43.960 --> 01:22:47.920
I thank you, Lord, for helping us to hear

1273
01:22:47.920 --> 01:22:49.280
what your spirit is saying tonight.

1274
01:22:49.280 --> 01:22:51.560
I thank you, God, that you would help us to enter

1275
01:22:51.560 --> 01:22:54.880
into the fullness of your love for us,

1276
01:22:54.880 --> 01:22:57.920
that we would become more rooted and firm and fixed

1277
01:22:57.920 --> 01:23:00.180
in the truth of your love.

1278
01:23:04.760 --> 01:23:06.200
The Lord just brought to mind,

1279
01:23:06.200 --> 01:23:07.760
and so I'm just gonna share,

1280
01:23:09.080 --> 01:23:12.680
when Moses was sent off to protect him

1281
01:23:13.600 --> 01:23:17.240
and all of that, God made provision for Moses

1282
01:23:17.240 --> 01:23:21.320
long before he was sent off by his mom.

1283
01:23:21.320 --> 01:23:24.640
And I remember hearing that story the first time,

1284
01:23:24.640 --> 01:23:27.160
thinking, man, I feel so bad for Moses,

1285
01:23:27.160 --> 01:23:29.720
like his mom just got rid of him,

1286
01:23:29.720 --> 01:23:31.880
but she was looking out for him.

1287
01:23:31.880 --> 01:23:34.960
She was providing for him and taking care of him,

1288
01:23:34.960 --> 01:23:36.600
and God had a plan for him.

1289
01:23:37.700 --> 01:23:40.200
I am just sharing that because I believe

1290
01:23:40.240 --> 01:23:42.680
our perspective is always key.

1291
01:23:42.680 --> 01:23:46.600
And God was setting him up to be raised in a royal family

1292
01:23:46.600 --> 01:23:48.920
so that he could understand

1293
01:23:48.920 --> 01:23:52.000
the way the kingdom works as well.

1294
01:23:52.000 --> 01:23:53.800
When we understand authority

1295
01:23:53.800 --> 01:23:57.280
and what we have been given authority over as Christians

1296
01:23:57.280 --> 01:23:59.440
through the blood of Jesus Christ and his sacrifice

1297
01:23:59.440 --> 01:24:00.880
and dying on the cross,

1298
01:24:00.880 --> 01:24:03.880
then we will enforce that authority more often.

1299
01:24:03.880 --> 01:24:05.360
And so I just wanna encourage all of you

1300
01:24:05.360 --> 01:24:06.760
watching the replay,

1301
01:24:07.680 --> 01:24:11.080
if you hear this or if you've been here live tonight

1302
01:24:11.080 --> 01:24:12.720
and you're watching the replay,

1303
01:24:12.720 --> 01:24:15.400
for that reason, you just wanted to listen to it again,

1304
01:24:15.400 --> 01:24:16.680
I wanna encourage all of you

1305
01:24:16.680 --> 01:24:20.160
that God has given you authority supernaturally

1306
01:24:21.680 --> 01:24:24.640
to tread upon serpents, the devil, Satan himself,

1307
01:24:24.640 --> 01:24:26.160
not to focus on him,

1308
01:24:26.160 --> 01:24:29.280
but to tell him where he needs to go, in a sense.

1309
01:24:29.280 --> 01:24:34.120
So we rise above the situation and in Jesus name,

1310
01:24:35.120 --> 01:24:37.160
I'm not gonna get distracted by this thing

1311
01:24:37.160 --> 01:24:40.320
and in Jesus name, I'm gonna believe and trust that God,

1312
01:24:40.320 --> 01:24:42.120
even as I press through,

1313
01:24:42.120 --> 01:24:44.280
I will receive more focus

1314
01:24:44.280 --> 01:24:46.400
from what I was saying earlier, that example.

1315
01:24:46.400 --> 01:24:48.680
Lord, I thank you that you can help me,

1316
01:24:48.680 --> 01:24:52.320
press through the weariness that I feel

1317
01:24:52.320 --> 01:24:53.560
and the fatigue I feel

1318
01:24:53.560 --> 01:24:56.480
to continue to step into your plan and your promise

1319
01:24:56.480 --> 01:24:59.160
and to receive everything that you have for me.

1320
01:24:59.160 --> 01:25:00.000
That when the enemy

1321
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:03.000
God, that you would cause him to flee seven ways and you would raise up a

1322
01:25:03.000 --> 01:25:05.000
standard against him. God, I thank you right now.

1323
01:25:05.000 --> 01:25:08.000
Even as I'm praying this to God, I'm just in Jesus name.

1324
01:25:08.000 --> 01:25:11.000
Just dispatch angels on your behalf, God,

1325
01:25:11.000 --> 01:25:14.000
to minister to every person that's on this call as well as those that

1326
01:25:14.000 --> 01:25:17.000
watch the replay or, or even in this, in this phase one,

1327
01:25:17.000 --> 01:25:19.000
but they have never come to alive. God,

1328
01:25:19.000 --> 01:25:22.000
I ask that you would dispatch those angels to minister supernatural

1329
01:25:22.000 --> 01:25:28.000
healing.

1330
01:25:28.000 --> 01:25:29.000
I'm just praying right now.

1331
01:25:29.000 --> 01:25:35.000
I'm just praying right now.

1332
01:25:35.000 --> 01:25:38.000
Healing oil flowing from heaven above over each one of their hearts,

1333
01:25:38.000 --> 01:25:48.000
minds, bodies, spirits, and souls.

1334
01:25:48.000 --> 01:25:50.000
Yeah. I just saw in the spirit too,

1335
01:25:50.000 --> 01:25:53.000
just as if God was taking a rag and cleaning up a messy spot.

1336
01:25:53.000 --> 01:25:56.000
And I just heard in the spirit God saying he's making all things new.

1337
01:25:57.000 --> 01:26:00.000
I just saw in the spirit that God is making all things new.

1338
01:26:00.000 --> 01:26:02.000
So I just want to encourage you to repent.

1339
01:26:02.000 --> 01:26:05.000
If you have any areas that are even coming up in your spirit,

1340
01:26:05.000 --> 01:26:06.000
where you need to repent.

1341
01:26:06.000 --> 01:26:09.000
One encourage you to repent and turn away from those things that are not

1342
01:26:09.000 --> 01:26:11.000
serving you. They're not leading you into the full life.

1343
01:26:11.000 --> 01:26:14.000
And start to just return to the Lord, return to your first love.

1344
01:26:14.000 --> 01:26:16.000
Spending more time in the word, not out of,

1345
01:26:16.000 --> 01:26:19.000
out of religious duty or checking things off a list, but.

1346
01:26:19.000 --> 01:26:22.000
God, I just am so glad to be here with you this morning.

1347
01:26:22.000 --> 01:26:24.000
Thank you, God, that you're going to meet me through your word.

1348
01:26:24.000 --> 01:26:27.000
I just want to encourage you to repent and turn away from those things

1349
01:26:27.000 --> 01:26:28.000
that are not serving you.

1350
01:26:28.000 --> 01:26:36.000
God, thank you for helping me hear your heart for me today.

1351
01:26:36.000 --> 01:26:38.000
But those are the ways that God has taught me to pray over the years,

1352
01:26:38.000 --> 01:26:41.000
ladies, and it's really changed my whole relationship with him.

1353
01:26:41.000 --> 01:26:44.000
No, I actually love spending time with the Lord.

1354
01:26:44.000 --> 01:26:47.000
The enemy fights me a lot too. He just like anybody else,

1355
01:26:47.000 --> 01:26:50.000
he brings all kinds of work up or life situations.

1356
01:26:50.000 --> 01:26:51.000
And now we got hurricanes.

1357
01:26:51.000 --> 01:26:53.000
We've got, we've got a drought. We've got, we've got,

1358
01:26:53.000 --> 01:26:54.000
we've got a drought in our life.

1359
01:26:54.000 --> 01:26:57.000
And he's going to be our enemy. So we've got to press through.

1360
01:26:57.000 --> 01:26:58.000
We got to press through that stuff.

1361
01:26:58.000 --> 01:27:03.000
Praise Jesus that he has gone before me.

1362
01:27:03.000 --> 01:27:06.000
And I can walk and stand because he's already there and he's made a way

1363
01:27:06.000 --> 01:27:07.000
for me.

1364
01:27:07.000 --> 01:27:10.000
And he'll do the same for all of you as well.

1365
01:27:10.000 --> 01:27:12.000
So what we just thank you right now that you'll continue to bless and

1366
01:27:12.000 --> 01:27:15.000
minister in these conversations, even those that are watching the replay.

1367
01:27:15.000 --> 01:27:18.000
I want to encourage you all to just get out of your comfort zone and

1368
01:27:18.000 --> 01:27:20.000
just get out of your comfort zone.

1369
01:27:20.000 --> 01:27:23.000
Because we need to forgive and why.

1370
01:27:23.000 --> 01:27:25.000
Lord help us to all choose courage.

1371
01:27:25.000 --> 01:27:29.000
To partner with truth.

1372
01:27:29.000 --> 01:27:32.000
To know that you're making all things new.

1373
01:27:32.000 --> 01:27:37.000
That you're saying, can you not perceive it?

1374
01:27:37.000 --> 01:27:44.000
You're making rivers in the desert land and streams.

1375
01:27:44.000 --> 01:27:46.000
In the wasteland. I might've said those backwards,

1376
01:27:47.000 --> 01:27:53.000
but you're putting that into the work that we need to do.

1377
01:27:53.000 --> 01:27:55.000
That that all of our hearts,

1378
01:27:55.000 --> 01:27:58.000
the bones that are dry and dad that you're breathing life into them.

1379
01:27:58.000 --> 01:28:02.000
That the army, even within ourself is beginning to rise, hope, hope,

1380
01:28:02.000 --> 01:28:03.000
hope.

1381
01:28:03.000 --> 01:28:04.000
Beginning to rise up.

1382
01:28:04.000 --> 01:28:08.000
That we would not partner with the lies.

1383
01:28:08.000 --> 01:28:10.000
Doubt unbelief that the enemy is trying to feed us,

1384
01:28:10.000 --> 01:28:12.000
but we would partner with the truth.

1385
01:28:13.000 --> 01:28:15.000
I don't know about you all, but I think today,

1386
01:28:15.000 --> 01:28:18.000
that's what I also sense about myself. It's just sometimes.

1387
01:28:18.000 --> 01:28:30.000
It's just.

1388
01:28:30.000 --> 01:28:33.000
We got some rough edges that are still there that get come out again

1389
01:28:33.000 --> 01:28:36.000
through stress or self-preservation techniques and things.

1390
01:28:36.000 --> 01:28:38.000
But Lord, we thank you that you just hug us.

1391
01:28:38.000 --> 01:28:41.000
You just hug us and you love us and you cover us under the shadow of

1392
01:28:41.000 --> 01:28:42.000
your love.

1393
01:28:42.000 --> 01:28:50.000
And we thank you for that.

1394
01:28:50.000 --> 01:28:53.000
God, we thank you for this opportunity, Lord, we are safe in you.

1395
01:28:53.000 --> 01:28:55.000
You're our defender. You're a protector.

1396
01:28:55.000 --> 01:29:02.000
You're ever ever present help in time of need.

1397
01:29:02.000 --> 01:29:03.000
Sort of.

1398
01:29:03.000 --> 01:29:06.000
Thank you that you would meet every one of these ladies in their times

1399
01:29:06.000 --> 01:29:08.000
of need and their areas of need. God,

1400
01:29:08.000 --> 01:29:15.000
we thank you for this opportunity to share this testimony with you today.

1401
01:29:15.000 --> 01:29:17.000
The theme of the book of Genesis in these rooms.

1402
01:29:17.000 --> 01:29:18.000
It's not with human beings,

1403
01:29:18.000 --> 01:29:21.000
but with the highest principalities and authorities operating in

1404
01:29:21.000 --> 01:29:22.000
rebellion under the heavenly realms.

1405
01:29:22.000 --> 01:29:25.000
And so that again comes into that authority thing that I was saying in

1406
01:29:25.000 --> 01:29:26.000
the beginning.

1407
01:29:26.000 --> 01:29:29.000
It's important for us to take authority.

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01:29:29.000 --> 01:29:32.000
Over ourselves, our bodies, and our minds and our spirits.

1409
01:29:32.000 --> 01:29:35.000
Some one 47, three through four.

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01:29:35.000 --> 01:29:38.000
We all go on this journey to proclaim or to declare and to

1411
01:29:38.000 --> 01:29:41.000
propagate his name unto all the nearby stars and przedsiębiores to

1412
01:29:41.000 --> 01:29:44.000
proclaim and to dedicate,

1413
01:29:44.000 --> 01:29:47.000
the great mighty name of our God to all the stars and play.

1414
01:29:47.000 --> 01:29:50.000
Calling them all by their names.

1415
01:29:50.000 --> 01:29:51.000
Hmm.

1416
01:29:51.000 --> 01:29:52.000
So good.

1417
01:29:52.000 --> 01:30:02.000
And calls us by name as well. The Bible talks about that too.

1418
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:06.100
His anointed one are established for the accuser of our brothers and sisters who relentlessly

1419
01:30:02.000 --> 01:30:04.000
Revelation 12, nine through 11 says this.

1420
01:30:06.100 --> 01:30:12.780
accused them day and night before our God has now been defeated cast out once and for

1421
01:30:12.780 --> 01:30:13.780
all.

1422
01:30:13.780 --> 01:30:14.780
Can I get an amen?

1423
01:30:14.780 --> 01:30:21.220
Satan, the accuser of the brethren has been defeated in that.

1424
01:30:21.220 --> 01:30:22.220
That's right.

1425
01:30:22.220 --> 01:30:24.780
The war's already won you all it is.

1426
01:30:24.780 --> 01:30:26.580
And so we get to step into that.

1427
01:30:26.580 --> 01:30:27.580
All right.

1428
01:30:27.580 --> 01:30:30.140
So what we're going to do, because I want some of you to share, but we can't stay much

1429
01:30:30.140 --> 01:30:33.500
longer because we're already at, at an hour and 30.

1430
01:30:33.500 --> 01:30:40.420
And so what I want you to do is who is willing just to say, um, the person that you need

1431
01:30:40.420 --> 01:30:41.420
to forgive tonight.

1432
01:30:41.420 --> 01:30:44.700
You don't have to go into the why, but just to speak the name out and say, I choose to

1433
01:30:44.700 --> 01:30:51.500
forgive who's willing, I mean, Camilla, just go ahead.

1434
01:30:51.500 --> 01:30:52.500
Yeah.

1435
01:30:52.500 --> 01:30:53.500
And it's okay.

1436
01:30:53.500 --> 01:30:54.780
If you, if two people go at once, just defer and let someone else go.

1437
01:30:54.780 --> 01:30:57.900
I feel like the Lord wants us to do this tonight.

1438
01:30:57.900 --> 01:31:00.500
So whoever feels like, go ahead and speak it out.

1439
01:31:00.500 --> 01:31:02.780
I choose to forgive my mother.

1440
01:31:02.780 --> 01:31:05.180
I choose to forgive my father.

1441
01:31:05.180 --> 01:31:10.460
Hey, I choose to forgive my best friend, Aaron McCachran.

1442
01:31:10.460 --> 01:31:13.700
I choose to forgive myself.

1443
01:31:13.700 --> 01:31:16.620
I choose to forgive the ex.

1444
01:31:16.620 --> 01:31:25.180
I choose to forgive my first high school friends and dad.

1445
01:31:25.180 --> 01:31:28.860
I choose to forgive my mom.

1446
01:31:28.860 --> 01:31:34.580
I choose to forgive myself.

1447
01:31:34.580 --> 01:31:37.580
I choose to forgive.

1448
01:31:37.580 --> 01:31:44.620
Go ahead, go ahead.

1449
01:31:44.620 --> 01:31:48.260
Oh, I'll go ahead and go that.

1450
01:31:48.260 --> 01:31:51.940
I choose to forgive my mom.

1451
01:31:51.940 --> 01:31:57.180
I choose to forgive myself.

1452
01:31:57.180 --> 01:32:04.020
I choose to forgive my mom and myself.

1453
01:32:04.020 --> 01:32:09.860
I choose to forgive my dad and men who hurt me.

1454
01:32:09.860 --> 01:32:17.980
I choose to forgive myself.

1455
01:32:17.980 --> 01:32:24.500
I choose to forgive my mom.

1456
01:32:24.500 --> 01:32:35.740
I choose to forgive my mom's ex-boyfriend.

1457
01:32:35.740 --> 01:32:42.540
Someone else.

1458
01:32:42.540 --> 01:32:45.420
I choose to forgive myself too.

1459
01:32:45.420 --> 01:33:00.060
I want you all to kind of picture just right now, I just want you to picture God giving

1460
01:33:00.060 --> 01:33:02.420
you a big hug.

1461
01:33:02.420 --> 01:33:06.460
Like some of you just, you're still struggling and that's okay.

1462
01:33:06.460 --> 01:33:17.700
He loves you in spite of, in spite of the things that we do, his love is great.

1463
01:33:17.700 --> 01:33:22.460
Some of you may not have, have experienced that kind of love with your earthly fathers

1464
01:33:22.460 --> 01:33:27.180
or mothers, but that doesn't make it so about him.

1465
01:33:27.180 --> 01:33:33.700
So I believe tonight was the start of many new things that are going to start happening

1466
01:33:33.700 --> 01:33:34.700
in your lives.

1467
01:33:34.700 --> 01:33:35.700
Yes, Lord.

1468
01:33:35.700 --> 01:33:42.260
I believe some of you are going to have spiritual fathers come into your life and they're not

1469
01:33:42.260 --> 01:33:48.740
going to ever be your father, okay, but they're going to be people that God's going to send

1470
01:33:48.740 --> 01:33:53.940
to fill a void when you're ready, not in a clingy place y'all.

1471
01:33:53.940 --> 01:33:57.740
So what will happen a lot of times is God will wait until your heart is healed enough

1472
01:33:57.740 --> 01:33:59.740
to handle it.

1473
01:33:59.740 --> 01:34:01.140
Okay.

1474
01:34:01.140 --> 01:34:05.860
And what I mean by that is sometimes we're desperate for something and God doesn't want

1475
01:34:05.860 --> 01:34:10.980
us to ever put more emphasis on a person than on him, right?

1476
01:34:10.980 --> 01:34:15.820
He's not going to withhold from us, but he wants our heart to be in a healthy place.

1477
01:34:15.820 --> 01:34:20.660
Sometimes he will introduce us to that through like a theme or a book or a church sermon

1478
01:34:20.660 --> 01:34:25.860
or a session like this, you know, where God's just really starting to minister to you about

1479
01:34:25.860 --> 01:34:32.420
what is the love of the father really look like and sound like.

1480
01:34:32.420 --> 01:34:33.940
So blessed to be here with y'all tonight.

1481
01:34:33.940 --> 01:34:36.860
I believe we're shifting heaven.

1482
01:34:36.860 --> 01:34:42.420
I saw that someone wrote, they could feel the weight lifting.

1483
01:34:42.420 --> 01:34:44.580
I felt it too.

1484
01:34:44.580 --> 01:34:46.420
That's why I just kept lingering.

1485
01:34:46.420 --> 01:34:50.660
And sometimes y'all, if you were someone that went to speak and then someone else went

1486
01:34:50.660 --> 01:34:54.140
and then you didn't finish, I want you to know the enemy wants you to believe that your

1487
01:34:54.140 --> 01:34:56.820
voice isn't, isn't important.

1488
01:34:56.820 --> 01:34:58.180
It doesn't matter.

1489
01:34:58.180 --> 01:34:59.940
Kind of going back into the lie of like.

1490
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:02.440
Someone else always gets in front of us, you know,

1491
01:35:02.440 --> 01:35:04.200
and not that anybody did anything wrong,

1492
01:35:04.200 --> 01:35:06.600
but I feel like the enemy always tries to come in and lie,

1493
01:35:06.600 --> 01:35:07.980
even in good moments like that.

1494
01:35:07.980 --> 01:35:09.360
So I just want to address it.

1495
01:35:09.360 --> 01:35:10.640
Let me pray over y'all.

1496
01:35:10.640 --> 01:35:11.960
I have one more activation.

1497
01:35:11.960 --> 01:35:16.320
So activation number one was to, what?

1498
01:35:16.320 --> 01:35:17.920
Does any, yep, yep.

1499
01:35:17.920 --> 01:35:20.520
You got it, Camilla.

1500
01:35:20.520 --> 01:35:24.080
Seven days this week, 10 minutes a day,

1501
01:35:24.080 --> 01:35:26.040
read the word of God out loud over yourself.

1502
01:35:26.040 --> 01:35:28.240
Okay, let me ask you a question.

1503
01:35:29.200 --> 01:35:34.200
If you forget one day, are you a failure?

1504
01:35:35.760 --> 01:35:37.040
No, you're not.

1505
01:35:37.040 --> 01:35:38.680
Just pick back up the next day, you all.

1506
01:35:38.680 --> 01:35:40.320
This isn't about legalism.

1507
01:35:41.200 --> 01:35:43.680
This is just about entering an invitation.

1508
01:35:43.680 --> 01:35:44.920
That's all it's about.

1509
01:35:44.920 --> 01:35:48.480
Okay, so don't receive some kind of weight on yourself.

1510
01:35:48.480 --> 01:35:51.380
Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.

1511
01:35:51.380 --> 01:35:53.480
There's freedom in this, okay?

1512
01:35:53.480 --> 01:35:55.800
All right, number two activation,

1513
01:35:55.800 --> 01:35:58.280
I want you to track your thoughts this week.

1514
01:35:59.960 --> 01:36:01.560
Okay, I want you just to,

1515
01:36:01.560 --> 01:36:03.200
not that you have to write everything down,

1516
01:36:03.200 --> 01:36:05.680
but especially if you're having a hard day

1517
01:36:05.680 --> 01:36:08.680
and you're really battling in your mind,

1518
01:36:08.680 --> 01:36:10.880
I just want you to pay attention to your thoughts.

1519
01:36:10.880 --> 01:36:12.520
Like, what are your thoughts?

1520
01:36:12.520 --> 01:36:13.440
Where are they leading you?

1521
01:36:13.440 --> 01:36:14.760
What are you hearing?

1522
01:36:15.680 --> 01:36:16.520
Yeah.

1523
01:36:19.040 --> 01:36:20.040
I want you to track that.

1524
01:36:20.040 --> 01:36:22.360
And you guys can come into the group,

1525
01:36:22.360 --> 01:36:23.480
post about your stuff.

1526
01:36:23.480 --> 01:36:25.880
If you're struggling with anything we've talked about

1527
01:36:25.880 --> 01:36:27.400
or that you're reading,

1528
01:36:27.400 --> 01:36:29.280
myself and the coaches are here for you.

1529
01:36:29.280 --> 01:36:30.400
This is your time.

1530
01:36:30.400 --> 01:36:31.880
Let us coach you.

1531
01:36:31.880 --> 01:36:33.560
Come in the group and talk to us.

1532
01:36:33.560 --> 01:36:35.840
And it can be about celebrating too.

1533
01:36:35.840 --> 01:36:37.140
If y'all are getting breakthroughs,

1534
01:36:37.140 --> 01:36:39.920
there's a tab that's called wins.

1535
01:36:39.920 --> 01:36:42.260
If you're in the app and if you're not in the app,

1536
01:36:42.260 --> 01:36:43.960
you can just post it on the main page

1537
01:36:43.960 --> 01:36:46.740
and we wanna celebrate with you, just FYI.

1538
01:36:46.740 --> 01:36:47.960
We wanna celebrate your wins.

1539
01:36:47.960 --> 01:36:50.620
We wanna walk with you in the difficulties.

1540
01:36:50.620 --> 01:36:52.760
If you need prayer on a certain day, guess what?

1541
01:36:52.760 --> 01:36:55.120
Y'all can come into the group and say, I need prayer.

1542
01:36:55.120 --> 01:36:57.240
Wanna remind everybody, especially for those that are new,

1543
01:36:57.240 --> 01:36:58.720
take off your helper hats.

1544
01:36:59.560 --> 01:37:02.360
Because I got all kinds of teammates that are my helpers

1545
01:37:02.360 --> 01:37:04.040
and we'll help everybody.

1546
01:37:04.040 --> 01:37:06.080
We'll coach people so you don't have to give advice

1547
01:37:06.080 --> 01:37:09.060
or help, just cheer each other on, love each other.

1548
01:37:09.060 --> 01:37:09.900
And that's good.

1549
01:37:09.900 --> 01:37:10.720
Let me pray for us.

1550
01:37:10.720 --> 01:37:11.560
Father, thank you.

1551
01:37:13.520 --> 01:37:14.820
Thank you for forgiveness.

1552
01:37:14.820 --> 01:37:16.280
Thank you for healing.

1553
01:37:17.340 --> 01:37:18.480
Thank you for the reminder

1554
01:37:18.480 --> 01:37:20.560
that your mercy is new every morning.

1555
01:37:21.440 --> 01:37:22.440
Thank you for the reminder

1556
01:37:22.440 --> 01:37:25.840
that we don't have to fear sudden disaster.

1557
01:37:25.840 --> 01:37:26.800
Thank you for the reminder

1558
01:37:26.800 --> 01:37:29.960
that you give us a timely word in season

1559
01:37:29.960 --> 01:37:33.880
for the hunger of our hearts and our souls.

1560
01:37:35.320 --> 01:37:37.440
Help us to feel seen more than ever.

1561
01:37:37.440 --> 01:37:39.260
Help us to know that you hear us.

1562
01:37:40.720 --> 01:37:43.280
God, thank you for showing up in tangible ways this week.

1563
01:37:43.280 --> 01:37:48.080
Help us to see, help us to like literally awaken

1564
01:37:48.080 --> 01:37:49.880
out of the slumber that we've been in

1565
01:37:49.880 --> 01:37:54.240
and arise and shine and see the glory that's risen upon us.

1566
01:37:54.240 --> 01:37:55.680
God, I thank you that you've called us

1567
01:37:55.680 --> 01:37:56.680
for such a time as this.

1568
01:37:56.680 --> 01:37:58.640
Help us to receive everything you have for us

1569
01:37:58.640 --> 01:38:01.080
in Jesus name, amen.

1570
01:38:01.080 --> 01:38:02.780
God bless you all.

1571
01:38:02.780 --> 01:38:04.880
Y'all I'll be seeing you in the groups

1572
01:38:04.880 --> 01:38:06.760
hopefully all week long.

1573
01:38:06.760 --> 01:38:11.240
If you don't see me in there come Thursday or Friday,

1574
01:38:11.240 --> 01:38:13.000
I may have lost power.

1575
01:38:13.000 --> 01:38:14.360
So don't think I'm gone.

1576
01:38:14.360 --> 01:38:16.160
I have teammates that'll get in there too.

1577
01:38:16.160 --> 01:38:17.320
But if y'all post something

1578
01:38:17.320 --> 01:38:18.600
and don't see a response right away,

1579
01:38:18.600 --> 01:38:20.400
I just don't want you to freak out, okay?

1580
01:38:20.400 --> 01:38:22.760
Leave it there, don't take them down

1581
01:38:22.760 --> 01:38:26.880
because a couple of my coaches work weekend shifts

1582
01:38:26.880 --> 01:38:27.720
and they're nurses.

1583
01:38:27.720 --> 01:38:29.880
And so I typically cover all that,

1584
01:38:29.880 --> 01:38:30.960
but if I'm not answering

1585
01:38:30.960 --> 01:38:32.280
it's probably cause I've lost power,

1586
01:38:32.280 --> 01:38:34.920
but I'll get back in there as soon as I can.

1587
01:38:34.920 --> 01:38:35.920
Love you all.

1588
01:38:35.920 --> 01:38:36.840
And I'll be seeing you all.

1589
01:38:36.840 --> 01:38:38.720
I'm praying for breakthroughs.

1590
01:38:38.720 --> 01:38:40.520
Have a good night, everyone.

1591
01:38:40.520 --> 01:38:41.680
Bye.

1592
01:38:41.680 --> 01:38:43.320
Have a great week everybody.

1593
01:38:43.320 --> 01:38:44.160
Bethany, bye.