Welcome to Supernatural Saturday.
Once again, if you are new, welcome.
This is the session that we have every week, Saturday morning, where we lean into the current
prophetic reality of heaven.
We want to be living heaven on earth, right?
We don't want to just be living our boring, earthly lives with no supernatural support.
We don't want that.
In fact, I will tell you, yesterday I was walking around with my daughter, and I was
noticing that this world has lost its luster for me in this season.
Now, I am a very optimistic person.
I have a very positive personality just by nature.
I'm so thankful for that because I had a really hard childhood, and I don't think if I would
have had that nature, that intrinsic nature, I'm either up or getting up kind of personality,
I probably wouldn't have made it through some of the things that I have lived through.
God was good to bless me with that temperament, and so I'm usually pretty positive.
I don't gravitate towards the negative, even in times of trial and problems.
I'm that person that's like, but tomorrow's another day.
I just noticed as I was walking around that I'm not finding the usual joy that I would
in different things.
I was just really leaning into that, and I feel like the Lord really wants us to remember
that this is not our home.
You guys know when you go, and not that we shouldn't love this life, I mean, it's such
a gift to us, and we have such purpose, and I really want you to feel like your purpose
is being restored this morning because you are here with purpose.
Put your hand on your chest right now, and just get quiet, just put your hand right there.
Just leave it there for just one second.
You feel that?
That's your heart beating.
That is the sound, that is the feeling of purpose.
You have purpose.
If you are alive this morning, which you are, because you're here, then you have purpose.
God has plans for you.
Jeremiah 29, 11 tells us that they're good plans.
They're plans full of hope for a good future.
That's what they are, and they're more than one.
They're plural.
They're plans.
So that means that if you zig instead of zag, if you go left instead of right, you can't
mess it up because God has a plan for you that will continuously change with you because
he's good.
That's why, because he's good.
And so, not that we shouldn't love this gift called life.
We shouldn't.
We should love it for sure.
It's not always fun.
I understand that, but we should love it, but that really wasn't what the message was.
The message was a reminder of, hey, don't lay up your treasure here.
Don't let this be the only place.
Don't let this be what you're living for.
We should all be living for eternity.
I worked for a prominent Jewish man.
Some of you have heard this story.
I didn't plan on telling it, but Holy Spirit's prompting me in this moment.
I worked for him for probably about nine months.
It was one of my favorite jobs.
I took it because we needed the money, and a friend referred me, and he just added so
much value to me.
I felt immediately like he was a grandfather to me.
He was in his mid-70s, not old, probably 74, 75 years old, and he owned this viatical insurance
company in downtown Columbus, Ohio, and he was very, very rich.
He owned the biggest house in the best neighborhood in Columbus, Ohio, where all the mansions
were.
He had the biggest mansion, friends.
He had money on money.
His money had money.
I was his assistant.
When I tell you that I had never been anyone's assistant before, and I didn't know how to
do anything assistants do, I'm not kidding, but I have a can-do attitude, and he hired
me anyway.
As I'm trying to figure out all the things that secretary, receptionist people do, they
already know it, but I'm trying to figure it out, kind of like how to use the computer.
He's having patience with me, and the good news is that he was pretty old-fashioned because
he was Jewish and in his 70s, and he did things the old-world way a lot, meaning come in here
and write down what I'm going to say.
Come in here and sit down, and let me talk to you, and you write it down, and then you
go type it up.
in an email.
And so one day we were talking, and of course I was definitely a strong Christian at that
time.
In fact, I'm going to get into a little bit of this today because it's going to help a
lot of you with your dreams and your callings.
But I was just biding my time with these little jobs to make money because I was going to
be a preacher, okay?
And my ministry just hadn't taken off yet, but I was going to be a preacher.
I was going to be a preacher at a church.
That's what I was going to do with my life, all right?
That was my big, hairy, audacious goal.
That was my dream of dreams because I felt like that was what I was supposed to do with
the gift that God had given me, being a preacher.
That's the best use.
I had been taught that and discipled.
Actually, I've been discipled by a denomination that doesn't allow women to be preachers,
so that's a problem.
But then at the same time, kind of out of both sides of their mouth, they're like, but
you would be a real good preacher, Jackie.
Girls aren't allowed to do this, but you'd be good at it if they were, okay?
And so that's kind of where I had been in the years leading up to this story.
Now this story takes place after my pastor went to prison, after I was no longer in that
denomination, after I was divorced and remarried.
But still, that was still the dream of my heart, okay?
I would come and I would talk to him and I would learn from him and he taught me so much
about business.
I didn't really plan to learn about business.
That wasn't on my agenda, to learn about business, because I was going to be a preacher.
But I would sit with him and I would listen and I would hear all the things that he was
talking about, about his family and his children.
He had six children.
None of them followed him into the family business, even though it was very lucrative
and very successful.
None of them followed him there.
And I'm sad to tell you this, that when he passed away suddenly, suddenly, we worked
late one night trying to go through some paperwork where there were some discrepancies and he
wanted me to help him with it.
We left about seven o'clock that night.
I remember pulling up next to him at the stoplight in downtown Columbus because there were no
cars because everyone else had already gone home during the regular rush hour.
We pulled up next to each other at the light.
I remember looking over at him and his little Volvo over there, looking over and he was
a tiny little Jewish man and he could barely see over the steering wheel.
And I looked over and I saw him there and he never looked over at me because he just
wasn't aware that I was next to him at the light.
And I just smiled because I loved him.
I had grown a love for him over those nine or 10 months as a grandfather, as someone
who poured into me, as someone who thought I was super intelligent and I was deserving
of their attention and their teaching.
And then the next morning I got to work at my regular time and I started doing my daily
morning duties and it was a high holy holiday in the Jewish faith.
And so I knew he wasn't coming into the office that day, but I knew also that I was going
to hear from him like I always did on those days, probably around noon, but noon came
and went and I didn't hear.
The phone never rang.
And now I started to get a little worried because, you know, he's a little bit of a
micromanager.
He wanted to make sure things were being done right.
And it was very unusual for him to not check in.
And then two o'clock went and three o'clock came and four o'clock came and right about
the five o'clock hour, I got a phone call, but it wasn't from him.
It was from his wife.
And she simply said, Jackie, this is Mrs. Elman.
I said, Oh, hello, Mrs. Elman.
She said, Mr. Elman has died.
She said, please lock up the business and I'll talk to you tomorrow.
That's it.
That's all she said.
Y'all hung up the phone and the neighbors said, I screamed to the people in the next
building.
I don't know what happened.
I kind of like disassociated for a moment, but it was a shocking, horrible day.
He just died.
He got up in the morning.
He did his normal stuff.
She found him dead on the bathroom floor.
He had a massive heart attack and died.
But what happened after that is the point of the story.
And that is people came in, his cousins from another state, they came in and they began
to go through all.
There was a lot of important paperwork because of the type of business this was, stuff that
needed to be shredded.
And I spent the next nine months of my life destroying the evidence of this man's career.
Shredding paper, taking important papers that couldn't be shredded because they hadn't expired
yet into these places where they lock up important documents, like these storage places where
you can lock up important documents.
It's called fireproof.
And all this different stuff was happening.
At the end of a man's life, all of this stuff was chaff for the
fire because none of it had any eternal value.
He didn't have any children or grandchildren ready to take over
the business to serve others.
Do you see what I'm saying?
He had those things, but he did not have the relationship with
those people that would have caused them to want to follow in
their father's footsteps.
And I saw that when I sat, when I sat Shiva with his family, I
was invited the Gentile to come and sit and mourn with his
family.
And you know what?
They didn't really care that he was gone.
I had a closer relationship with him than they did.
It was sad.
It was sad because he was a good man.
He really was.
He was a kind man.
He was very kind to me.
And I don't know what went wrong in that family because I didn't
live in it.
Maybe he was just always gone working.
That's probably my best guess, building something for his
family instead of being with his family.
And so friends, if we're going to dedicate our one and only
lives to anything, let it be eternal.
Okay.
I promise you that this is going to get exciting and encouraging
in just five seconds, but I didn't plan on telling that
story, but I feel like God wants.
You to hear that story because we only have one life, just
have one, one earth experience.
And so we have to make sure that we are investing that time wisely.
In fact, the other day, God spoke to me and he said, Jackie, he
said, do not spend any of your life trying to, you know, chase.
Don't chase money.
Don't, don't try to pay the bills.
I know for a lot of you, that's really hard.
It has been hard for me in my life too, but the thing that's
not renewable is not money.
The unrenewable resource is time.
Okay.
And this hard lesson for all of us to learn.
And the Bible talks about it in so many different ways about
seeking the kingdom and everything else being given to you about
looking to the Lord as your provider about trusting him.
My favorite scriptures and Psalms.
It says God provides for his lovers, even while they're sleeping.
So being a lover of God, being a lover of people, being on assignment,
I have learned, and I will tell you, I am living in the reality of when
I follow after what God has put me on earth, then resources follow after me.
I remember not too long ago, two years ago, God impressed upon my
husband and I to go to an event.
We went to the event.
We ended up making a very, very large donation type of thing.
The larger than we've ever made in our entire lives.
And I mean, like we had to like exhaust the savings.
Like it was like a big deal.
And the reason why it was an even bigger deal was because God
And the reason why it was an even bigger deal to buy into that and to pay that was
because that very month, like two days from then, my daughter and my son-in-law
and my grandbabies, which were under a year old at the time, just five or six
months old, they were going to be coming to Texas for an entire month.
And we were going to be taking a sabbatical that God had
directed us to take to be with them.
What does that mean?
That means you're going to pay out a bunch of money, but you aren't going to make any.
Right?
You're not going to make any, but you're going to pay out more
money than you've ever paid out.
It's like, oh, okay, Lord.
You're going to stretch us here.
You know, God likes to stretch you.
If you're not willing to be stretched, then you cannot have a
larger capacity to contain more.
And it's not fun, y'all.
Being stretched is not fun.
In fact, back in the medieval days, they used that as torture, like the stretching.
They stretched people, but not in a good way.
Not the chiropractor friends.
It was different.
All right.
We don't want to be stretched.
We don't like it.
It's uncomfortable, but it's necessary if you want more.
Remember Isaiah 54, what does it say?
It says stretch, doesn't it?
Those of you that are barren, that don't have what you want, first
of all, sing, but then stretch.
Stretch, make room for more.
Go read that.
Go read Isaiah 54.
If we have time today, maybe we'll read it.
So anyway, we got back from that event.
My grandbabies and my daughter and son-in-law, they showed up at the house
for the month and there was a little bit of a temptation for me to, oh, hey, you
know, maybe I'll do some coaching, you know, and God's just like, just rest.
Okay fine. So we had an amazing month with them, with our family, and can I tell
you the day I put my daughter on the plane to go home, those babies, the day
that I put her on the plane, I got an email inviting me on a famous podcast
and that same person who is the famous person of that famous podcast hired me
to be their dating coach because they had read my book when they were sick
with COVID and it changed their life. This is a New York Times bestseller that
said my little book changed their life and invited me on their podcast and
because they're so well known and well trusted by their audience when they had
me on our community exploded y'all and can I tell you that I got back three
times in the next month what I had invested and stretched for in the month
before.
But you guys it's important for you to see the trajectory of this. I had to do
it before it happened. I had to do it. Now you can say hey Jackie do you think
that that that opportunity would have still happened had you not? Maybe but
I'll never know. I will never know because I did what I
did right? Alright so let's go back to Jackie wanting to be a preacher. So
Jackie has a big mouth we already know that and it needs to be used for good
and not for evil. I promise you it used to be used for a lot of evil. I promise
you okay. In fact my grandmother, God in heaven partying with Jesus right now, you
know she was a pretty sharp-tongued Pentecostal woman which has caused my
mother to run away from religion, church, God, because she was being raised by mean
people that professed Jesus. Anybody else anybody else know this story? So when
she was 18 she was outie. She was out of Dodge. He ran away with the first boy
that said she was pretty, my dad. Married him. He was Bad News Bears. Had two kids
in two years and see every once in a while my mom was in a crisis she'd be
like hey we're going to church and we'd be like what? We're going to church and
we always went to the same kind of church. We went to the kind of church that
she ran away from. These crazy Pentecostal churches with the women with
the long dresses and long hair and everyone speaking in tongues and it's
super confusing and as soon as you come in because you don't have long hair and
you have on pants they try to drag you to the altar and get you saved. You know
those places and you guys it was really off-putting for me when I was a kid and
I was going through a lot of abuse. My poor mother she chose all the wrong men.
Three times married before I was 10 years old. Abusive men, addicts, all kinds of
situations and so I wasn't really seeing how this God was working for anyone. It
certainly wasn't working for my mom every time she decided to go back to
these churches where people judged her and made up rumors about her because she
was hot my mother and she was definitely not Pentecostal. So I can imagine now
that I'm older and I know what I know I can imagine they're like here comes
Jezebel. Jezebel's in the church you know and so this was this was my experience
with all of these things and yet in my 20s I met Jesus. I met Jesus in my car. I
had a radical conversion. Can't get into that story but I will tell you that it
stuck because 28 years later I have not turned back. But anyway that Pentecostal
grandmother she used to say the best thing that could happen to you Jackie
Marie is that you could lose your voice. That you could be a mute. That's the best
thing that God could do for you. Like oh look old lady you better not curse me. I
even knew back then. I love my grandma. You know she just believed what she
believed and he's in heaven now and she realizes that there are more people
there than Pentecostals. I'm sure she's pretty shocked by that but um that's the
way it goes. So preacher is in my 20s when I met Jesus what I thought would be
the the best thing that I could do with my life and where did that come from? It
came from just listening to people around me talk about you know how that
was the thing that that you know that the A team right the first string that
gets put in the game that's what they're called to do.
The first ring, if you've ever played sports,
they're the people that are the best,
the best of the best.
And so in the church that I had grown up in,
as far as like been discipled in from the time I was 22,
they always put a huge emphasis on full-time ministry.
Right?
That's the A-team, that's the first ring.
All the rest of you poor schmucks that have to go to work,
yeah, you can serve the Lord too,
but you just weren't chosen with these fivefold giftings.
You guys, that's not true.
That's not what the Bible says.
It's not what the Bible says.
In fact, the people that have those ministries,
so to speak, those offices of those fivefold,
pastor, apostle, teacher, all that stuff,
those people are supposed to be equipping you
to play in the game.
They're supposed to be equipping you
with an evangelism gift to go play in the game.
They're supposed to be equipping you with the prophetic
to go play in the game.
They're supposed to be helping you love and care for people
with a pastoral heart to go play in the game.
The whole purpose of them having that
is to edify and exhort the body of Christ.
That's what it's for.
And that's how you can tell
if someone has like that office of that
rather than just the assignment of that.
Because they will spend their time not up on stages
trying to show off their gift.
They will spend their time equipping and edifying
and encouraging God's people in those gifts
so that they can go out and win over a lost and dying world.
That is what that's all about.
But I didn't know that then.
I didn't have good teaching.
I didn't.
So I was just like, okay, well, I can talk.
I know I can.
And I have a lot of revelation.
God tells me a lot of things.
And intercession.
And when I say those things to other people,
they really like them.
So I'm gonna be a preacher.
I'm gonna be a preacher.
That's what I'm gonna do.
I'm gonna be a preacher.
But you guys, girls,
they're not really welcome to be preachers.
And even still now, it's just really,
I mean, you can probably count on both your hands
how many like prominent female preachers you know about.
You know, it's getting better.
But we're talking about over the last 30 years, okay?
And so it's harder than you think.
Harder than you think.
And especially if you think
that you have to be a preacher in a church,
then it's really hard, okay?
Unless that church thinks that, you know,
that you're called to be that,
they hire you or whatever.
And I've worked on staff for lots of churches.
On staff, I have.
Because that is what I thought I was supposed to do.
But can I tell you, there came a day in time
when I got my first women's conference.
I've been in ministry for 28 years, y'all.
28 years I've been in ministry.
I have done everything from being a social worker,
from driving an outreach van,
from being an outreach director of a church.
I had a prison ministry.
I had a ministry to prostituted women,
also called anti-trafficking,
but it wasn't called that back then.
I had a gathering at my house for years and years
called WOW Women, where all kinds of people
got set free and delivered and healed
and all different types of things.
I worked in television.
I had a women's only,
the first IPTV network for women, Jane TV,
I founded that.
Some of you maybe have even heard of that name before
because it got big in the Midwest
before it crashed and burned.
It was a powerful place for women to come
and get information about everything
from their health to their marriage.
And I built that when I worked in television.
It was really amazing.
I was a blogger under the pen, Real Life Unplugged.
I was a speaker in secular places.
It's so funny, I couldn't get invited
to speak in a church.
I couldn't get invited to speak in a church,
but I could get invited to speak in colleges.
I could get invited to speak all these other places, right?
Obviously not preaching,
but speaking about women's issues
and speaking about feminism
and what the real definition of that is.
And I was Jehovah sneaky in most of my life
leading up to this big, hairy, audacious goal
of being a preacher someday, okay?
I felt like God called me to be a missionary
in my first marriage to Germany.
And so I went and I learned German
working at a German bakery.
I went and worked at the bakery
because it's a German bakery
and everyone spoke German
because I wanted to learn German by immersion.
You guys, I am crazy.
I wanna make sure y'all know that, okay?
I wanna make sure,
but I feel like it takes being crazy
in order to live this wildly life.
This is a wildly life.
If you're not living a wildly life,
I don't know that you're doing it right.
I'm hoping to stoke the fires
of some wildness in you today.
Hey, I started online teaching
all the way back to, I don't know, 2014.
I was a media consultant.
Some of the biggest preachers,
if I would name them right now,
the biggest ministries.
I consulted them in their media departments.
I had a media consultancy off the back of my executive producer TV career.
I produced huge events.
The event that's happening in D.C. right now, I was involved in the last event in 2018.
I'm super good friends with Lou Angle's main promoter.
I was supposed to be at that event, but I had to go visit my grandbabies.
I'm like, look guys, I can't do all this.
I'm not going to do all this.
Hopefully some of y'all made it out there.
I'm glad you did, and I want you to.
But all I'm trying to say is I've been around.
I've done a lot of things.
I started teaching heart workshops in person, online.
I started taking the advice that I gave my clients about what they should do with their
media departments at their churches and their ministries.
I started taking that advice myself and saying, hey, I got something to say.
Let me take my knowledge and put it to work for this message.
So I started getting that message out there, and you guys, the rest is history.
Here we are.
Look at this.
In 2020, God asked me to shift all of my efforts towards his single sons and daughters.
I want you to know who's leading you.
This is who's leading you.
Someone who has put her hand to the plow 28 years ago and through a lot of crazy, never
turned back.
I have never turned back, never, and I'm not going to, not going to.
Because God said, I want my single sons and daughters married.
I want them partnered.
They need partners for what's coming.
You guys, it's not about what's happening today, it's about what's coming.
And I'm not a doomsday preacher, but it's about what's coming.
So let me circle back around to that very first women's conference.
It was a big one at a mega church, you guys.
Go big or go home.
My very first preaching assignment was to be the Friday night opener of a women's conference
at a mega church.
The other speakers, I was fangirling over them, y'all.
I was like, oh my God, they're going to be there.
Oh, I'm going to see them.
I'm going to see them.
I'm going to, you know, New York Times bestselling authors and famous, you know, because remember,
there's not a lot of women preachers.
So you guys could probably guess some of the people I'm talking about.
I'm like, oh my gosh, they're going to be there.
You know, I'm going to be there on Friday night, but they're going to be there on Saturday
and Sunday and I'm going to get to see them in the green room and blah, blah, blah, blah.
And so I get up on Friday and I speak my heart and I do what the Lord tells me to do.
And Saturday and you guys, everyone, all these people, these are seasoned women that have
been doing this and are anointed to do it.
And they have book tables, they have books upon books, y'all.
They have all kinds of tapes and all different types of things that you can buy because this
was what, 15, 16 years ago.
And I didn't have anything.
Okay.
I had a flyer that kind of had my email address on it and that's about it.
So Saturday after the main session, we're going into the last session.
This is important.
This is going to speak to someone.
This is not just for women.
Guys, this is for you too.
Please take the nuggets that are being released here.
It's very important that you do.
God's trying to shift your thinking right now.
So there was a main session on Saturday and then there was going to be a breakout type
of time at this conference where you got to pick from a menu of breakouts, right?
And I was going to do a breakout about fear, okay, because at the time I was, I had broke
free from, you know, 10 plus years of anxiety disorder of the fighter, the, the panic disorder,
anxiety disorder, anxiety induced OCD, you know, all the things.
And so fear was a regular part of my life.
Panic was a regular part of my life.
And so that was what my workshop was going to be about.
So spoke on Friday, Saturday, main session, famous preacher lady.
And then another, not as famous, but like well-known preacher person.
And then these breakout sessions.
And so after the sessions in the morning, we're over with, they started assigning us
our rooms for the breakout sessions based on how many people had signed up for your
breakout session.
You know, you're going to get this little room over here in hallway B.
If you only had like 15 people, you know, you guys understand, right?
So the organizer came to me and they said, Hey, you know, we 15 minutes until breakouts,
you're going to be in the main auditorium.
And I was like, what?
And she's like, the main auditorium, you're going to be in the main auditorium, you know,
the place that you spoke on Friday night, the main sanctuary, the main auditorium.
And I was like, why?
And she's like, almost everyone in this whole conference signed up for your breakout.
What?
I'm telling you guys, the names of this conference that were speaking alongside of me.
and even the topics of their breakouts, fabulous.
But apparently I'd made enough of an impact
with my craziness on Friday night
that people wanted to come and see
what this girl was gonna do in this breakout session.
Yeah, you guys, I came out of like,
oh man, this is my dream coming true.
Please pay attention, it's my dream.
All these years, I've wanted to be a preacher.
All these years, I've been held back
by this denomination that discipled me,
that told me that women shouldn't speak in the church.
All these years, by this pastor going to prison
and by this dysfunctional and unhealthy marriage,
all these years, and finally, here I am,
I'm getting my shot.
And then, to beat the band, right,
this famous preacher, the most famous preacher
at this conference, comes up to me in the green room
after breakouts and says, hey.
She said, I got in early and I was here Friday night
and I was back here in the green room.
She said, and I saw your message.
And I was like, now I'm starting to feel really nervous.
I'm like, oh yeah, hi, it's so good to meet you.
And she's like, listen, I wanna tell you something.
I then went out in the hallway to find your book table,
she said, and I couldn't find it.
And then I asked the organizer and they told me
you didn't have any books.
And I asked about your tapes and your teaching series
and they said you didn't have any.
And I just wanna let you know that you're wasting
the gift that God has given you.
Like she like called me out.
And I said, look, I've been trying.
And she said, no, she's like, I wanna mentor you.
It's like, come and work with me.
She's like, I have been on the biggest platforms
and the biggest churches and the biggest conferences
with the biggest name speakers.
And she said, and you are already playing at our level.
She said, you belong here.
You guys, if you don't think that I went home
from that conference like a bird with a French fry,
I was so excited.
I was about to be mentored by the best of the best.
I was about to get ushered in, roll out the red carpet
to the biggest conferences and the biggest stages.
You guys know me, you know that I could have done it.
You know me now, okay.
I could have been little junior Joyce Meyer
if I wanted to be, but I'll tell you what happened.
I got home and God said, you're not going.
I was like, what?
He's like, you're not going.
I'm not going where?
He's like, you're not going into the church.
He's like, you're not gonna be a preacher.
This is not what I want you to do with your life.
I'm like, I don't understand.
This is a, this is favor.
He's like, it's not my favor.
What?
How can it not be your favor?
Because it's not what I'm doing, Jackie.
I'm ushering in a kingdom age
and I want you to go this direction.
I'm not doing church anymore.
I'm doing kingdom.
And you guys, I had no idea what that meant.
None, zero.
You guys, this is 16 years ago.
Nobody except some crunchy, you know,
silver haired intercessor ladies.
No one knew what that meant.
And so David and I went on a wild ride from that day.
I was so mad at God.
I think that I went on like a hunger strike
for like three months.
I was just bad.
It was bad.
That famous Christian preacher lady kept calling me.
What's going on?
Why aren't you, you know,
why aren't you taking this opportunity?
It was just not good.
It was a bad time for me in my life.
I was super confused.
I didn't know if it was God or the devil.
I'm just telling you like it is
because you guys got to understand
that the most important thing in your life
is that you would follow after God's trajectory
even when it doesn't make sense.
And when you're confused about what that is,
you surround yourself with people in community
that are not confused.
Everyone that I put that to like,
hey, I think God told me this.
They're like, yeah, it doesn't make sense.
But I feel a witness in my spirit for that.
Oh, that's not what I want to hear.
I want to hear, no, Jackie, go forward.
Go forward.
I was in the shower at the beginning when he told me no,
he told me not to take that opportunity
and also not to take any preaching opportunities
that came off of that conference.
So like with the conference, you know,
people, when they see you speak,
now they know you can speak
and that's how you start getting invited
to other women's conferences, right?
And so he's like, I don't, you're not doing any of this.
I'm happy to tell you now, you guys,
that I've been obedient to the Lord for the last 15 years.
I actually do get to speak at church.
I do get to speak at churches now.
God does send me back in as kind of like a wild card
into different churches and different places to speak.
And then after I speak,
I'm usually not invited back because of what I say,
but that's okay.
I'm all right with that.
All right, so let me tell you, let me tell you,
that I was in the shower like right after God said,
hey, don't take any more preaching gigs, okay?
You're not taking this opportunity with this woman
and you're not taking any more preaching gigs.
And I was in the shower and I was,
I do some of my best revelating in the shower.
I was in the shower and I heard the Lord say to me,
well, I said, I was complaining to the Lord.
I was so upset, y'all, okay?
I had been being groomed for this, in my opinion.
I had been doing ministry in the church
for a bazillion years.
And you guys, this was all before TV.
In fact, this is what leads to TV.
This is what leads to all those things on the list
that I just told you about.
I would have never done any of that
and probably not be here with you
had it not been obedient to what the Lord was saying to me.
Because if I would have been whisked away by this woman,
I would have just been preaching in churches,
I would have had some Christian books out
and you know, whatever would have happened, okay?
So I'm in the shower and I'm just, oh, I'm so upset
because I've been working towards this forever.
And this is what I know.
I know church.
I was the outreach preacher of a church.
I've been on staff of all these churches.
Church is what I know.
What do you mean we're not doing church?
You know, this is what I know.
This is what I've been training for.
Like I'm Rocky and I don't get to fight now.
What are we doing?
And God just speaks to me and he says,
this is what my servant Paul felt like too.
And I was like, Paul who?
You guys, this is how confused I was.
I was like, what Paul?
And he's like, Paul.
And I was like, Paul, okay, you got my attention.
What do you mean this is what he felt like?
He said he knew how to be a Jew.
He knew how to be a Pharisee.
He was the Pharisee of the Pharisees.
He said, I want you to go back and I want you to read
and I want you to see how many times
he wanted to go to his own kind and evangelize them.
That's what he wanted to do.
You guys, Paul wanted to preach to the choir
because it's what he knew.
It's a place where he knew the most
and he'd be the most respected.
He had a reputation in that place.
But God chose to send him to a people that did not know him
and a people that he did not understand.
Do you see this?
He sent him as an apostle to the Gentiles.
The chiefest of Pharisees got converted from Saul to Paul
and got sent to the Gentiles.
So God was about to send me where?
He was about to send me back to my roots, friends,
because I did not get raised in the church.
He was about to send me back to do something
that I was not trained to do
and that was talk to people outside of the church
in very interesting ways, like through television,
through very, what we call Jehovah sneaky ways,
very covert ways, very covert ways.
That's what he wanted me to do with my life.
And that's when I started getting opportunities
like becoming the general manager of a television network.
That's when I went to broadcasting school.
That's when I founded Jane TV.
That's when I started getting invited to come in
and speak in colleges and universities like Oberlin,
like Otterbein, like incredible,
like Ohio State University, right?
Crazy stuff.
Because I just said yes to God.
It wasn't what I wanted.
I think that's really important for you to know.
It's not what I wanted because I had a misconception
about what would be best.
So please write that down.
It's not what I wanted because I had a misconception
about what would be the best trajectory for my life.
I had a misconception about what was good.
Raise your hand if this is speaking to you
in some way, shape or form.
Something in it, you're hearing God through it
about some situation.
It doesn't have to be about your career.
It could be about your love life.
It could be about anything.
Because remember this 5785 year that we're in, what is it?
It is the year that the faithful see a reward.
And remember God defines faithfulness differently than us.
Go read Hebrews 11 if you don't believe it, okay?
You messing up, dropping the ball, I'm gonna go there.
You sleeping with someone
because you just couldn't take it anymore.
You end up in a relationship
where you're having sex and doing stuff
and now you're out of that relationship
or maybe trying to get out of that relationship
because you know it's not the best relationship for you
and you know that God has a spirit mate for you
that is not this person.
God does not see you as not faithful.
Come on, hear me.
does not see you as not faithful.
You know how I know?
Because you recognize that this is not his best for you
and you want his best.
So I wanna tell you something that we did not highlight
in our last Supernatural Saturday about the year 5785
and that is the 85 together.
Yes, it's the pei hei,
but it's also grace for new beginnings.
You guys, it's grace for a stiff.
It's grace for a new beginning
and new beginnings are not for the faint of heart.
I just told you the trajectory that I went to
to get where I am and it was a lot of new beginnings.
It was a lot of shifts, it was a lot of pivots.
It's not for the faint of heart
because it requires obedience, it requires endings,
it requires some things to have funerals.
Meaning you bury that stuff and you do not dig it back up.
It's done, it's over.
You're not going back there.
You're not gonna be part of that anymore.
That community, that friendship.
Some of you right here today have friends
that literally are keeping you from the promises of God
and you're so afraid to let go of them.
Some of you have family.
I'm not telling you to ditch your family.
I'm not telling you to burn the bridge.
What I'm saying is is that you are medicating
the emptiness and the hunger that you would have
with these dead end relationships and situations.
Instead of doing whatever it is
that God would call you to do,
you continue to spend every weekend
sitting around with people that are not going anywhere
and they're not doing anything
and you're afraid not to go
because without them, you have no one.
Well, maybe for a short season, you need to have no one.
You need to have nothing to do on Saturday.
You need to open that space.
Once again, not saying burning bridges
unless it is abusive and toxic
and then you may have to love people from a distance
because they're not safe.
So grace for new beginnings.
You guys, we are living in a time of grace
for new beginnings.
Really quickly, Galatians 6-9.
I wanna break apart this scripture for you
and this is what I had written down for today,
not any of that other stuff.
All of that other stuff was just Holy Spirit
taking us on a ride.
Do not grow weary is the first part of Galatians 6-9.
What does grow weary mean there?
It means do not let doubt set in
that what you're doing doesn't matter.
Write that down.
Do not start to doubt that this is leading somewhere good.
Do not let doubt creep in
that what you're doing even matters.
We often fall into sin because we think that this thing
that we're trying to do right,
we're like, oh, what does it matter?
Raise your hand if you've ever said it,
it doesn't matter anyway.
It doesn't matter.
Who cares?
So easy to fall into that, you guys,
and that's why this scripture is telling us
do not grow weary.
In what?
In doing what you know is right
is the very next sentence, my paraphrase.
In doing the right thing, doing the righteous thing.
You guys, it's not convenient, it isn't.
It's not gonna be easy.
Remember, you don't need easy, you need worth it,
and a lot of you give up in between hard and worth it.
Remember, there's a grace here.
What does grace mean?
Grace means the empowerment of heaven
to do what you cannot do in your flesh.
It's an endowment of power from on high.
That's what grace means.
Yes, it means getting what you don't deserve,
receiving things that you haven't earned or merited,
but there's another meaning of it,
which is receiving the power, the grace,
to do what you cannot do in yourself.
Okay?
All right, so let's keep going.
Do not grow weary.
Do not let doubt set in.
Don't give it a foothold.
Don't give it a stronghold.
In doing what you know is right.
And for all of us, that's gonna be different.
I'm not just talking about following the Bible,
following the 10 commandments.
I'm not talking about that.
I'm talking about what God told you to do.
And if you haven't heard any clarity on that,
keep pressing for clarity.
And until you get clarity, very important,
you're like, well, I just don't know what to do.
Then you have two choices.
You either do nothing,
but you expectantly look for God in the situation.
You're not taking action quite yet,
you're not taking action quite yet,
but you're expecting to take action.
And you're expecting God to show you what action to take.
You're not just leaving it lay.
You're not being passive about it.
You're being proactive about it.
You're praying.
on your Jesus Cares board, you're looking for revelation
and you will receive it.
The Bible says they that hunger and thirst
after righteousness will be filled.
You will receive it, okay?
And then your second thing is to take imperfect action.
If you don't feel, if you don't know exactly what to do,
but you have an idea in your heart
that you wanna go ahead and try
and it's not out of desperation,
it's not an idea in your heart
where you're trying to throw a Hail Mary
and it's hoping it works out okay,
but you're like, hey, I have a creative idea.
Go ahead and go for it.
Take imperfect action.
God can't drive a parked car.
Go ahead and put that car in gear and let him steer you.
Hey, let's see what happens.
I do a lot of that.
I do a lot of imperfect action y'all, just so you know.
So do not grow weary in doing what you know is right
or what you think is right for in what?
Due season, due time, at the proper time
in all different translations,
this is different right there.
But you guys know that that is the same phrasing
and same wording that we see at the birth of Christ
and the birth of the church.
So in the book of Luke, when Christ is born
and in the book of Acts where the church is born,
we see that same language in the Greek.
We see that the days were accomplished,
that the days were fully come, that it was time y'all.
Don't let the enemy or your own feelings tell you
that God does not have a plan, because it's not true.
And what does it say?
It says for in due season and due time, you will what?
You will reap, that word reap,
obviously it's an agricultural term.
God talks about, it's a law of his universe
that he has put into effect.
And you guys, he said, I will not be mocked.
He said, this cannot be circumvented.
Whatever you reap, you will sow.
You guys, a lot of people use that to scare people.
Oh, you're gonna reap what you sow.
But you guys, it's a positive thing
for those of you that have good seed in the ground
and you have good seed in the ground.
It's a promise that there will be a harvest.
It's a promise, you will reap.
And so right now you should be asking yourself,
okay, what is it in the ground?
What is in the ground?
Go over to Psalm 126, five and six.
They that what, go forth bearing precious seed,
what weeping, intercession, prayer.
You guys, God has all your tears.
The Bible says he has them in a bottle.
I don't know how he does this, he does it.
All that seed, it's not been lost.
All those tears that you cried over that person,
over that situation, over that family member,
over yourself, over your body, over the healing, whatever,
that's all seed in the ground, friends.
And guess what?
God will not be mocked.
What you have sown, you will reap.
What does that mean?
That means there's breakthrough scheduled.
Remember, this is the year of the breakthrough
for the faithful.
There's breakthrough, there's healing,
there's deliverance, there's favor.
There are situations that have nagged your steps
like a hound dog for years that will just disappear,
just disappear.
I've had that happen so many times,
this huge problem in my life, this person,
this harassing spirit coming through this situation,
dog in me, brain in me, me praying over it,
weeping over it, interceding over it,
and then one day, whoo, gone, just gone.
Like toilet paper during COVID, mysteriously disappeared,
don't even know what happened.
So start asking yourself, what's in my ground?
You plant it even when it hurts,
even though you don't know it, all those tears.
Bible says weeping endures for a night,
but there is a morning that comes full of joy.
So let's keep on with Ephesians 6, 9 real quick.
You will reap if you what?
If you do not give up.
The word faint there means give up, it means quit.
And you guys, I don't mean quit for a day
or quit for an hour, I don't mean say, I'm quitting.
I mean, really quit.
I don't mean quit for three months, I mean, really quit.
I'm talking turn your back and walk away and never return.
That's what that's talking about.
So for those of you that have been beating yourself up
about, well, you know, I did it my own way for a while,
nothing was happening.
So I took matters into my own hands
and I got myself in this situation.
Where are you now, friend?
Are you back?
Because I see you back.
And that means you didn't quit.
That means you didn't quit.
And guess what, God doesn't fire people.
So if you walk off the job and you're gone for three months and you show back up, they're
like, you're like, but I didn't quit.
They're like, but you're fired.
But God doesn't fire people.
So there's the good news.
Ursula, you don't believe me.
I see you smiling, girl, you got a seed in the ground.
That's right.
I see you, but I can see you just like Holy Spirit.
You guys always know Holy Spirit is around when I start getting crazy.
You guys, if you do not believe in a God that has joy and a sense of humor, then you got
the wrong God.
All right, so I want to see a list right now.
It's time to activate.
227 of you, let's see in the comments.
What do you have in the ground?
What's in your ground?
I have another word.
Have you tried?
A lot of you are like, oh, but Jackie, I've tried.
There's no grace for a new beginning.
I've tried.
Okay, but we're in the season of grace for new beginnings.
So try again.
God said, ask them, have you tried?
And if the answer is yes, try again.
Let's see.
All this specific stuff, you guys, don't get all ideology-ish on me, okay?
I want to see specifically what kind of harvest you're expecting because of the seed you have
in the ground.
What kind of harvest are you expecting?
Instead of me asking you, what do you have in the ground?
Let me ask you, what harvest are you expecting in due time, in due season?
Let's see it.
I will tell you right now that if I'm pregnant and gestating, I'm not expecting to give birth,
you know, to a, what, to a cat or a dog, to a monkey.
I'm expecting to give birth to a human baby, and a lot of times, God will give you more
information in this high-technology age, oh, it's a boy, oh, it has hair.
You guys, these 3D scans now, you can actually see the baby.
You can see everything.
It's just crazy.
Come on, what are we expecting in our harvest?
What are we expecting in this year?
And you guys, this cannot be just hype for you.
I know it's exciting.
I know Holy Spirit is quickening your hearts, but you have to walk away from this with your
notes and you have to put them in front of your face and you have to remember that God
is saying that this is the season and times that we're in.
The people that are the most successful in this life are the people that know their times
and seasons.
They know what it's time for, and they continuously pray in what God has said it's time for.
They don't just let God off the hook.
God doesn't want you to let Him off the hook.
Look, you guys, I raised three kids, and if I promise them something, and sometimes I
just promise them something without ever even thinking about what I'm saying, unlike God,
and then what do they do?
These kids will harass me until I do what I said I would do, because they know that
I'm a good mom.
They know that I'm not going to lie to them.
If I said I'm going to take them for ice cream, I'm going to take them for ice cream.
If I told them that I was going to take them to the store so they could get some new shoes
for them, then they're going to say, Mom, when are we going?
When are we going?
God told me years ago, He said, My kids don't believe me.
I said, Why do you say that, God?
And He said, Because I promised them things.
He said, And they're excited when I tell them.
He said, But then they don't mention it to me ever again.
You guys, the story in the Bible, the parables, they're four examples of spiritual things.
Even the unjust judge gave the woman justice because she kept nagging him about it.
Even the neighbor that didn't want to get up in the middle of the night and give their
neighbor what they needed and were asking for, got up and did it because they kept
knocking on the door.
And God goes on to say, If these people do this stuff, what do you think I'm going to
do?
These unjust people, these people that don't care, even as a parent, if your kid asks you
for bread, you're not going to give them a snake or a rock.
How much more am I, the father of lights, the giver of good gifts, going to give good
gifts to my children when they ask?
Specifically, Holy Spirit.
And why does he say Holy Spirit there?
Because that's the empowerment to get everything done, friends.
That is the grace from heaven that I'm talking about.
We have to walk supernaturally.
I will admit and confess to you that I might be renewed and revived, but I used to live
much more supernatural life than I live right now.
Those years, that timeline that I went down,
what was that for?
Why was God having me do all that stuff
if that's not what I was gonna do with my life?
The outreach day and all the things,
because you guys, I experienced the power of God.
I had such supernatural experiences
during all these ministries that are listed here.
Powerful times that no one can ever take away from me.
But I'll admit to you that we're living in an age,
before we even get out of bed in the morning,
we're already asleep, supernaturally.
We're all bogged down by the cares of life,
the exact things that God told us not to do.
Why did he tell us not to do it?
Why did he tell us not to seek those things first?
Is it because those things are bad?
This is what preachers will tell you.
Well, God told you not to seek those things.
It's bad to seek those things.
No, no, no, no, no.
He told you not to seek those things
because he knows that if you run off hasting those things,
that you're not gonna live a supernatural life.
But if you get up and you seek the kingdom first,
everything else is gonna come to you supernaturally.
You're not gonna take that job
that you just literally want to kill yourself every morning
when you get up, when you have to go there.
You're not gonna take that job
because you're not chasing money.
But if you get up and you seek the kingdom first,
you might end up in some job that you weren't qualified for
and you never thought you would do.
And maybe it pays less than the other one
that you were gonna take,
that you're gonna eventually wanna just about.
But this job has potential that you can't see,
but you're being supernaturally led.
You guys know that before I became a social worker,
went to school to be a social worker,
I went and worked at a homeless shelter.
Never in a million years
would have thought I would work in a homeless shelter.
I don't know anything about any of this stuff,
but I will tell you that I had Christian radio on.
That's how old this story is.
And I was driving and I was praying to God,
hey, you promised me these things,
you've shown me these things,
how do you want me to get there?
And this ad kept coming on the radio for this shelter,
this faith mission.
So I went down there, you guys,
because I'm a take action,
throw it against the wall kind of girl.
And I went down there and I applied for a job
with no experience whatsoever.
And I was honest about it.
I didn't try to lie and say, oh, I have experience.
And I got an interview that day.
The person, the administrator
happened to be there at the shelter that day.
She interviewed me.
And I told the Lord, I said, if this is you,
I said, I know it's crazy,
but I wanna be hired on the spot.
And I was.
I was hired on the spot to be a shelter aid,
an intake person for homeless people
when they came into the shelter.
And then that job evolved over time.
And then that job led to me going to college
to be a social worker.
And a psychologist.
Which, and that's a whole nother story, okay?
All right, so my bottom line is,
is that we seek the kingdom first.
Because if you seek the kingdom first,
all the things that you do second, third, fourth, and fifth
are gonna be different.
It isn't because that other stuff is bad to have.
Money's not bad to have, y'all.
A house is not bad to have.
Poverty is not next to godliness.
That is not true.
That's not biblical.
Poverty of spirit, meaning what?
Meaning that you know that God is your source and not you.
God wants you to enjoy this life.
He wants you to have some place to go to every day
that you wanna jump out of bed and race to.
Whether it's a job, whether it's a relationship,
whether it's a community, a vocation,
an assignment of some sort.
Maybe you got a job that's provision
on the way to the vision,
but it makes it okay because you make good money there
and you get to go do this other hobby that you love.
Whatever, it doesn't matter.
Different strokes for different folks,
different seasons for different reasons.
It's okay.
So Father, we thank you for today.
Wow, you're so good.
You're so good, Lord.
Help us to make this fifth.
You've promised us that we are in a season
and a time right now that's a due season.
It's a reaping season, Lord.
Show us where to reap.
Show us what's ripe.
Lead us to the places where we have harvest, Lord.
Lead us individually and corporately
to the places that we have harvest.
You have promised that in this timeframe, 5785,
that there's a grace for new beginnings,
that there's an empowerment for us
to make pivots and fifths, to make changes, Lord.
Let us feel that power coming over us.
Let us feel that revelation
of where those changes need to be made, God.
Let us have a boldness that we've never had before
to step out and do things that we've never done before,
to go to places we've never gone before,
and to meet people that we've never met before.
Lord, it's time.
for us. We are your body in the earth and God we are asking for you to activate us in a way that
we've never been activated before in Jesus name let it be done and amen. All right you guys go
keep remember you're like but Jackie how how how how maybe we'll do that tomorrow night but when
you get up in the morning it's just as simple as saying hey God I seek you first today I want the
kingdom more than anything else and so I'm asking you to direct my steps make them kingdom steps
light the way show me the way give me divine appointments I'm looking to you
amen it's as simple as that you guys not hard it's not hard to be supernatural
all right I love y'all I'll see you soon bye everyone