Let's go ahead and get started.
Hello, welcome, welcome, welcome.
Hi ladies.
If you have never been here before, and you're joining us for the first time, we always kick off with some housekeeping stuff in the beginning.
And then we do our content we do breakout sessions, if you've never been here for a breakout session.
The goal is for you a to just have time to talk with other sisters in this group, going through this course together you're all going to be at different places in the course.
But God's going to be stirring things up in your spirit tonight as we do that conversation on the content. And we have just found that there's a lot of like love and benefit and safety and growth that comes from me too.
And you will find that God will divinely put you in groups with people that you need to be with at that point in time.
So for those of you that tend to get nervous and sign out when we do breakout sessions, please try to stay in it, I know it can be uncomfortable when you don't know people, but trusting that God led you here and that our process works.
And so engage, you know, even if you're just scared, say I'm scared to share, like, just be real just be honest be where you're at and I believe God will really do an incredible work in you through that.
And then also, if y'all don't know I normally and Jackie as well we give you all activations every week to work on.
I am going to start putting those in the group, I'll announce them tonight as well. But I'm going to put those in the group because some people sign out before it's over and then I just feel like people are missing out on some of that.
So I'm going to just see if we can kind of catch some people that way. Just be looking for that in the group. Welcome, welcome everyone that's joining.
I did ask the ladies as y'all were signing on if you've already answered this you don't have to answer again, but I am going to save this chat and look at this later I just want to get a kind of a roll call where everybody's at what week you're working on.
So in your phase one course, can you just put in the chat for me if you haven't answered already. What week of the course you're on some of you I know just because you answered that already in your weekly roll call but go ahead and put that in there anyways for me.
Thank you so much. This gives me a good gauge on how y'all are doing. It's not like oh my gosh someone's in trouble if they're not moving fast enough or anything like that. This is just so we know what week you're on it helps me know kind of like to make sure I hit on content that you still need all that kind of stuff.
If you're joining for the first time, welcome Maxine week one. Yay. Who else is new? Who else is new joining tonight? Anyone else put that in the chat for us. I think that was the only person I saw joining for the first time week one.
All right, so I'm going to keep going on replays. I just want to do a little quick plug if you're not familiar again some of you started in the Facebook group. This is this is going to be different for you.
But most of our group is now in the last year single app. And so when those of you that started in Facebook move to phase two, you'll get moved to the app. So don't feel like you're missing out.
It's just easier for us to move you when you move phases. But for those that are in the app, I just want to show you and this will be in the replay so people can watch this later as well.
Let me see which screen. I need to go.
Sorry, I forgot to bring something up earlier before I logged in. So you're going to see my zoom.
Okay, so when you're in the app, when you click on replays. This is where all of your replays are going to be for our heartwork live sessions when the replays are posted.
Okay, so we're going to move on to phase three.
So this is Supernatural Saturday. We gave you a sneak peek to what we some of what we do in our phase three. Phase three is a large part of like continued growth continued helping you guys, not just regarding your love story, but like awakening and coming fully alive in your whole entire life.
So we're going to talk a little bit about that.
And then we're going to talk a little bit about what our words and our thoughts are to our process, even in finding our spirit mate, or being set free in certain areas in our life.
It's really great if you haven't seen that yet. And then the Supernatural Saturday, just be sure you all again, it's not like a, oh my gosh, if you don't watch it there, you know, that's bad.
So we're going to talk a little bit about the processes of those that are able to make the time for this in your life in this season. And so just want you all to know those things are there for you, your coursework, of course, if you don't know.
it's in here. You want to do the welcome first if you've just started and make sure you read through
everything. Watch that app tech orientation. We have people skipping over that but some people
like questions that you have or you don't know where to find something that's going to walk you
through step by step, okay? And then your weeks will go from there. So I think everyone for the
most part knows the rest. That app orientation will walk you through like even on this community tab
what are these different little tabs? What do these mean? So that app orientation will walk
you through that. And then the thing is is if you all learn it now in phase one, it carries over in
phase two in our app and phase three. So you'll be very comfortable with it as you know you'll
keep growing in that as you go. All right, last housekeeping thing. Why do we post in the group?
I was thinking about this because I always encourage you all to post in the group and
I was thinking maybe you don't know why we post in the group. So here's a couple things I want
to share with you. A, you're posting in the group so that we can see how you're doing. So that you can
check in. So we do that weekly roll call every Sunday. I put up what's called the weekly roll
call post. We want you all to engage on that. How are you doing? It might seem repetitive but y'all
don't know how much it helps us gauge. Again, how are you doing with the process that you're on?
Are some of you checking out? Are some of you struggling? Are you doing really great?
But also when you go in and create your own post, it's basically your space to say,
hey, this is what I'm processing. Good, bad, ugly, hard, great, whatever it looks like for you.
And then it helps not only you have that space to process and share but it helps us as coaches
know how you're doing. But here's the other thing. Y'all do not realize how many times
the ladies in this community, in this group, on this course path with you are going to get
breakthrough because you share. Because you share something that God's doing in you or something
God's saying to you. And not only because you share but then we're coaching you on it or talking
to you about it and people are getting breakthrough from other sisters and what's happening in their
lives. So never underestimate the power of your voice, the power of what you write and say.
That's one of the ways we're able to share in this group. And some of you, your entire lives,
you have felt shy. You have felt like your voice doesn't matter. You have felt unseen, unheard,
unnoticed, all of these different things. And you need practice to come out of hiding. You do. You
need practice using your voice. And some of you are like, well, I don't have a problem sharing
my thoughts. Well, maybe you share them in a way that's not healthy and that will maybe come out
over time and you'll get healing in that area. So there's just so many benefits. So as your coach,
please come in and post in the group. Engage. Get the most out of this that you can get while
you're here. Okay? All right. Let me pray for us. Father, thank you so much for this night. God,
thank you for every one of the ladies that are here tonight live. Those that will come
and watch the replay. God, we thank you for revealing for healings that
happened this afternoon that have been happening today. God, and I believe that you're going to do
tonight. We thank you that where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. There's liberty.
We thank you, God, that your truth is what sets us free. So God, we ask you to come and just
encounter our spirits and our souls, our bodies, our minds. Help us to have revelation and insight
tonight, that you bring anything in darkness to the light so that we can be healed and set free,
so that we can move forward. God, help us to come to remembrance things that we don't even know
are holding us back. God, we don't know what we don't know until we know it. So Lord, I thank
you that you know us better than we know ourselves. I thank you that you would protect us from
ourselves. Lord, at times we don't even know why we do what we do, but God, I thank you that you
do and that you love us and you guide us and you'll take us every step of the way if we'll
continue to trust you in the process. So Lord, we surrender this process to you and Holy Spirit,
we ask you to come in. We invite you here to have your way in our hearts and in every conversation
live and weave in and out among us. In Jesus name, amen. All right, so tonight, y'all, I'm going to
talk about Candice briefly. For those of you that haven't heard Jackie talk about Candice yet in the
videos, you will. Again, for those of you that are joining for the first week, let us know in the
chat that you're here for the first time so we can say hi to you and welcome you and show you some
love and all of those great things. But Candice is talked about in the videos and Candice is one of
those examples that I think just supernaturally is a great illustration of how much God cares
about every single one of us. Candice was the woman that basically God put it on Jackie's heart.
And so it was this story that kind of unfolded that the whole time God knew who Candace was.
God knew how Candace was going to get to where the interaction happened and then how Jackie would then come to encounter her and then how Candace would receive the healing that she needed.
Sarah, welcome to Zoom for the first time.
It's great to have you.
And so tonight the reason I bring that up is because God wants you to remember tonight that he knows what you need.
He knows where you are.
And he knows how to get you what you need in every single moment.
And I want you to kind of marinate in that for a minute.
Right now, like even today, some of you might have just felt like hopeless, like today might have been really hard.
But I want you to know that you never walked one moment alone.
And that God knows what you need.
He knows where you are and he knows how to get you what you need and how to help you get the breakthrough that you need.
And he's never going to leave you alone.
He's never going to forsake you.
His word promises that.
He's not a man that he should lie.
Listen, I want you to think about this.
This is a very important week for all of us.
And I'm going to talk about that a little bit tonight and unpack that.
So I just want to kind of declare some things on you and over you all as I start preparing us for some Scripture truths,
some other things and for what God wants to do.
So, God, I ask you right now just to reveal to every one of the ladies here tonight.
God, I thank you that you would help their wants align with your purposes.
That you would help them to see any area where the enemy has come in and tried to kill, steal and destroy.
But that you sent Jesus to give them life and give it to them abundantly.
Help them to know the letdowns, the trauma, the unhealed wounds from the past that are causing them to view you, God,
and other people through false filters and false lenses.
God, I thank you that you would eliminate their minds and hearts,
that you again just would cause these memories and things to percolate to the surface
and help them to have truth enter in tonight in Jesus' name.
So I want to ask you all, if you don't have paper yet, you might want to get it.
Always come prepared with paper, even if you're not a big note taker.
Because here's the thing, sometimes I'm just going to say to you guys,
hey, write stuff down as it comes up, because you might think, oh, I'll remember that later.
And nine times out of ten, you all won't.
Because the enemy is always trying to get us to get distracted as soon as we get off this stuff.
Some of you all are going to have distractions pop up, even while you're on the live sessions.
And so just know that he tries to come really quick.
He does it with me too.
And so just be open to hearing anything.
Some of you all, a lot of your life, you learn to dismiss even your own thoughts.
And so I want to encourage you in this season of healing and restoration in your soul and in your body,
that you would pay attention to yourself more.
And so you might have a memory pop up that you might even think, well, where is that coming from?
That doesn't even seem like a big deal.
Why is that memory coming up?
But I want you to trust it.
I want you to trust the Lord in that process, because he knows why that memory is coming up.
Maybe it's an image that you'll see.
Sometimes you all, you might smell something.
You know, for people that have gone through certain traumas, they might smell smoke if they went through something with a fire.
I know that sounds interesting and different, but it really can happen.
So just be aware and write down things as they come up for you, okay?
And that's when you can go to the Lord and ask him really good questions.
Like, hey, Lord, this memory came up tonight.
Like, can you show me why this memory come up?
Like, what are you trying to show me with this?
And be open to that process.
Numbers 23, verse 19 in the message version says this.
God is not a man, one given to lies, and not a son of man changing his mind.
Does he speak and not do what he says?
Does he promise and not come through?
And a lot of people get confused because, you know, it says that God became like man.
You know, Jesus came in the form of a man, but here's the difference.
Jesus was the only perfect one.
While he did come in the form of a man and he can sympathize with us because he came with flesh, he was always God.
Okay?
He was always God.
He was never like us fully.
And so what it's trying to say here is that, you know, man, in our understanding, people like you and I, we're fickle people, aren't we?
Sometimes we change our minds.
Sometimes we say we're going to do something
and then we don't do it, right?
And it might not be that we're trying to lie
or be misleading,
but sometimes it's just life happens or whatever.
But there are also times people, man on the earth,
they will lie and they will mistreat us or betray us.
And so when that happens, if y'all remember last week,
if you haven't seen the replay,
definitely want to encourage you to check that out.
I put on those sunglasses as like a demonstration
of when you put on the sunglasses,
it changes everything that you're seeing, right?
So if you imagine, if people have lied to you in the world,
in your experience with humans,
how often are we then projecting that onto God himself?
Because if man did it to us and we relate to God as man,
then if they did it, then he must be like that.
But he isn't like that.
He isn't a liar.
He is not the deceiver.
There's one deceiver.
His name is Satan, the devil.
Okay, so we have to start to, or continue to,
some of y'all have grown up in the church,
but we have to remember to separate those things.
The enemy is the one that brings destruction and death.
He brings the storms and heartache and pain
and disruption and disease.
God came to bring us life, to bring love,
faithfulness, kindness, goodness.
Does he bring correction and conviction?
Absolutely.
Why?
Because he's a good dad.
Good parents don't just give their kids
everything they want, do they?
No, because it actually would hurt their kids
if they gave their kid every single thing they ever wanted.
I remember as a kid, I would always wanted sugar,
sugar, sugar, sugar.
I could eat sugar like all day, but guess what?
Stomach trouble came if I ate too much sugar.
Still as an adult, if I eat too much sugar
and God will be like, stop eating that sugar.
You know, he's a good parent.
And I'm using that as a small example,
but it really is true.
He's a good father and he's nudging us.
Sometimes we blame things on God in our life that happened,
but along the way he was whispering
and he was showing us red flags
and we chose to keep going.
But instead of owning our decision,
some of us blame God today.
Okay?
So God is not a man that he should lie
and he will come through and his promises for your life.
There's a song called Sparrows by Corey Asbury
that I love to use in this teaching now.
For a couple of years ago, I'd never used it,
but like God just led me to it a few months ago.
And I think it's super powerful.
I would encourage you to listen to it this week
and just meditate on what it says.
You know, and this is all based on the scripture
that talks about God providing for the sparrows.
But I wanna read this over you.
And this is what it says.
The sparrow's not worried about tomorrow
or the troubles to come.
The lily's not thinking about the seasons,
the drought or the flood.
A tree that's planted by the water isn't fazed by the fire.
So why should I be?
Cause you, and he's referencing God here,
take good care of me.
You take good care of me.
You know what I need before I even ask a thing.
And you hold me in your hands
with a kindness that never ends.
I'm carried in your love no matter what the future brings.
Yeah, you take good care of me.
The sun's not worried about the winter
cause soon it will pass.
The light's not thinking about the darkness
or the shadow that it cast.
Y'all know why?
Because it's the light.
The light doesn't care about the darkness
because the light always overtakes darkness, it just shines.
All right, I'm gonna keep going.
A heart that's planted in forgiveness
doesn't dwell in the past.
So why should I be?
Cause you take good care of me.
You take good care of me.
You know what I need before I even ask a thing.
You hold me in your hands
with a kindness that never ends.
I'm carried in your love no matter what the future brings.
Yeah, you take good care of me.
I wanna go back to the first part of that song
where it said about the sparrows not worried about tomorrow
or the troubles to come.
For those of you that don't know, I live in Florida.
We just moved here at the end of June.
And yeah, we just had our first hurricane experience,
pretty crazy.
Thankfully we are safe, no damage.
But the reason I bring this up
and I didn't even think about this today
when I was going through this song earlier,
but y'all when the wind was crazy, mad, crazy blowing here,
like massive wind.
There were a couple of times that I said to my.
husband, do you hear those birds out there chirping?
Like it was kind of mind blowing.
Like it was like, they weren't scared.
And I was just thinking like, even we have these little geckos that crawl around
everywhere.
And the next day it was like a storm never even hit.
And, you know, like in my mind, I was thinking, where did the geckos go?
Like, how do they, you know, so for whatever it's worth, like God and his
infinite ability gives these creatures the ability to have sustained, do they,
you know, to sustain themselves, to know what to do when a storm is coming, to
know how to find, you know, protection and covering.
And so God promises to do those things for us as well.
Doesn't he?
He does.
All right.
As we keep going.
So my question that I'm going to post here that a lot of people say in this
process is why is this time any different?
Some of you may have gone around this mountain before, maybe you've been in
other healing, you know, environments and communities before.
And so the enemy might be like, what's going to be different?
Is this going to work?
What are you doing?
Why are you even here?
Like, he's just going to kind of spew all these lies and doubt and unbelief
because he doesn't want you to move forward.
I hope you all understand that you don't have to be afraid of the devil, but you
need to understand that he will do everything he can to keep you from being
set free, bombard your mind with thoughts, send you people that are supposed to love
you and encourage you.
But instead, when they hear you're doing something like this, they knock
it down and they tear it apart.
I want to encourage you all, be careful who you're sharing with right now.
This is a really vulnerable time.
You're in your heart healing process.
I'm not saying don't share, but I'm saying just use a lot of wisdom and who
you're sharing this with, because some people will not be able to fully
understand it and they could be potentially that person.
I don't know if you ever heard of the phrase border bully.
Have you ever heard of that?
You're about to cross over into a new land, a new place, a new space, and the
enemy will send border bullies.
Those people that rise up to try to keep you from crossing over, because guess
what, you all, when we break free and we start getting victory, it automatically
causes other people to have decisions to make, doesn't it?
But that's not what we need to worry about.
We need to keep moving forward and trust that God will work all those
other things out in due time.
If those people are supposed to continue in our life, that is sometimes people
aren't meant to be in our next season.
And that's true too.
So why is this time any different?
Here's why.
Do you all know that today you are not the person that you were yesterday?
And even tonight, you are not really who you were this morning.
Now you are.
Don't misunderstand me.
But all day long, you've been changing, hopefully, in the sense of if you are
continuing to partner with the Lord, you're continuing to talk to the Lord,
you're like living and moving and having your being in him and you're
seeking him in every moment.
And I know that some people are like, well, man, that feels hard.
I can't do that.
I'm just talking about like, when you fall in love with Jesus and you just
have this really close relationship with him, it doesn't feel like work you all.
It's just, he's my friend.
He's my friend.
And I talk to him all the time.
That doesn't feel like work.
Now I have a reverence.
I have a reverence for the Lord.
I don't misuse that, but I just want you to understand.
I don't feel like I have to work at it.
I love him and he loves me and we talk.
And so I want to encourage you, if that's not where you're at, that
you would even invite the Lord to take you to that place with him.
Because it's fun.
Y'all it's fun to have a relationship with the Lord.
It's not full of religion and punishment.
And yes, he loves me.
So again, he corrects me and he guides me and he will you as well, but it's
different this time because you are different and if you will partner with
the word yet, it will serve you so well, not only in heart work, but in the
additional phases and other things in your life, maybe God needed you to go
through some additional healing and growth so that you would be ready and
have the foundation that you need to sustain a marriage that's healthy.
And I know some of us, myself included in the past, I thought I was ready before.
Y'all I got married before.
I thought I was ready.
Then got divorced.
That was not a good marriage.
And then started dating someone before I should have and kept thinking
I wanted to marry that person.
Praise the Lord.
I say this all the time that God did not allow that.
to happen. Yo, I pleaded with God for that. And I actually
believed that God didn't love me enough because he wasn't giving
it to me. But that was a lie that I was believing. God was
protecting me. God was protecting me. That relationship
already impacted my life in a lot of very unhealthy ways.
Praise the Lord. I've been overcoming that and God has set
me free. I'm in a wonderful marriage now. I've been married
over two years. God's done a work in my life. But, you know,
if I had stayed in that, I would not be who I am today. I can
guarantee that. So y'all, sometimes we don't fully see it
in that moment, but God was and is protecting us. So you are
different now and every day you're becoming someone new.
Therefore, this time can and will be different. If you
believe and partner with that. Okay. All right. Ecclesiastes
3.1 says this, there's an opportune time to do things, a
right time for everything on earth. Heart change, you all
equals life change. Remember a couple of weeks ago, I said, we
don't want to just work at behavior modification. We're not
asking you to just be good. Stop that. Be good. No, we want you
to experience healing and transformation in your heart and
the depth of your soul. And then out of the overflow of our
heart, our mouth will speak. We will live our lives. Joy will
overflow out of us. And for some of you right now, you don't have
a lot of hope. And so it feels impossible, but we don't lean
into our feelings in that regard. We, we choose to trust
that as we heal and as we continue to go and grow and
fall more and more in love with the Lord, that he will fill that
tank back up. Hope deferred makes a heart sick, but y'all
the tree of life. It talks about, if you look at the rest
of that scripture, I'll pull it out when y'all are in breakouts
and I'll have it ready when you come back. But there's more to
that scripture if you keep reading. Okay. And I'll touch on
that. Like I said, real and lasting change is a process
though. And that's what a lot of people don't like. We want
instant. We, a lot of us, you know, we've grown up in this
microwave culture and the mentalities are all built
around. Everything's instant. We want everything super fast. We
don't want to wait for anything. And y'all, we don't want to
have process. Even, and I love my girls. I love them. The one
in particular, she doesn't want to have a regular, you know,
eight to five job. That's just like, she thinks that is like,
and I get where she's coming from to a degree, but she wants
to be like this instant star. And I'm like, man, I worked for
20 years to make what you're making at your, your job. If
they only knew now, of course there's inflation and all that
stuff. So I keep that in mind too, but I'm using that because
there's something happening in our culture and it is impacting
even Christians and the way we look at things. Now, I'm not
saying God wants you in the waiting room forever. So don't
misunderstand what I'm saying, but there is something to this
rejection of process. So I want to encourage you to open up to
the process that God has you on during this time, that you are
like Esther, you've come into the kingdom for such a time as
this, you've come into this place of love and of safety. And
we've been working for years on, on this course and, and making
it what it is. And we believe because we've seen it, I've
experienced it myself. It can, if you will apply yourself to
it, literally transform your life and prepare you for the
King up in heaven, the main King, but also your spirit
mate, right? Yeah. All right. Spirit mates, cherry on top,
ladies, everything else that you're going to experience life
transformation, that's the real deal. Okay. And all that other
stuff will come as a result. We believe in supernatural
transformation in this community, but we also partner
with God in the journey. So we keep taking imperfect action
every day. So I always encourage you all ask the Lord
daily, God, what's one step I can take today to take a step
towards your healing, to take a step towards your, you know,
this course, what's one step that you can take every day. So
here's a question I want you to think about before we go into
breakouts. Well, where do you currently need an upgrade in
your understanding of God's care for you? Where do you
currently need an upgrade and your understanding of God's care
for you? And that's going to partner with the question. I
want you to talk about broken promises. When was a time
someone broke a promise?
that they made to you, and how is that still affecting you today?
Now here's the thing, some of you all, you feel like God broke a promise to you.
And if that's you, that's something you need to face tonight.
Because God's word declares that he doesn't break his promises.
But somewhere along the way, the enemy lied to you through trauma and wounds that you
went through, and led you to believe that God is not a man of his word.
And so if that's your story, that's something you need to share.
Now I'm not trying to tell you guys what you need to share about, but it's important to
talk about this stuff with God.
And a lot of Christians don't even want to talk about how they feel towards God, because
they should just love God.
But this is a safe place, and we do real talk here.
So whatever your person, whoever your person is, if it's God, if it's a person, whatever,
be open to sharing about that.
Okay, so I'm going to get your breakout rooms ready.
Laura, that's totally fine if you're still here.
If you're not able to do breakout, just don't click to join the room.
And then I can always reassign the other ladies.
All right, so if you're joining us for the first time, breakout rooms, we encourage you
to stay engaged.
Some of y'all might get you really out of your comfort zone, but I promise if you will
open yourself up to it, God uses it in really, really great ways.
All right, I'm going to give you eight minutes.
Again, the question that you're answering during breakout is when was a time someone
broke a promise they made to you, and how is it still affecting you today?
Okay.
All right.
And if you guys have extra time, let's say you talk about that, short, brief, and powerful.
So both of y'all talk about it, or three of you, however many are in your room.
And then if you have extra time, get to know each other, okay?
Where are you from?
What led you to join the program?
No fixing, okay?
So when you all are sharing, nobody has to coach anybody, advise anybody.
This is total safe space.
So all you're doing is sharing what God is showing you, and then the next person can
go.
So nobody feel like you have to step in and fix anybody, okay?
All right, here you go.
Go ahead and click to join.
Okay, Father, thank you so much for this incredible group.
Thank you so much for everything you're doing in their hearts, their minds, their spirits,
and their souls, and their bodies.
As they're in the breakout, some that are here with me as they're at work or going to
meetings, God, I thank you for those that are going to watch the replay.
Thank you for revealing, for healing.
God, I pray that right now that you would just come in with the balm of Gilead and place
it upon every wound.
Lord, we know the balm of Gilead in the Old Testament time was a medicinal property that
was used for deep healing.
So Lord, we thank you that you would allow your healing oil to flow from heaven over
us, that would just flow over all of us tonight, that you would send your angels to minister
to us, your healing river flowing.
God, I thank you that you led each one of us here at this appointed time for this appointed
purpose to receive everything that you have for us.
Lord, I thank you that you are transforming us by the renewing of our minds that all old
things have passed away, and behold, everything has become new.
Help us to partner with the new story, the new truth, your truth that is everlasting,
that your word stands, and it is strong, and it's firm, and it's used for life and hope.
Let it impart into us tonight, even more than ever before, an understanding of your
love.
God, help us to know you more as love, help us to know you more as kind, help us to know
you as love.
and envision you as a good father. I just pray that you would come in, in every
woman's heart where there's been any kind of a man that's been an abrasive
example to them. God, I thank you that you would go into those memories and just bring healing
and life. I pray that you would reveal God where you were at when those situations were happening
and just minister your love to them. I thank you, God, even if it's been a mom or a woman figure
of authority that's been harsh towards them. I pray that you would minister to the mother,
wounds and hearts, minds, bodies, spirits, and souls tonight as well. We thank you, Lord, that
Ephesians 3, 17 through 19 says, then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him.
Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong. And may you have the power
to understand as all God's people should how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is.
May you experience the love of Christ that is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made
complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. So Lord, I thank you tonight
in this word and the truth here that you would help us to grow our roots down deep in your love.
That as we open our hearts to you, Lord, and we take down any do not enter signs and we allow you
to come into the fullness of our heart, every area, God, that you don't plumble those doors
down. You knock and you ask us to invite you in. So Lord, we thank you for an atmosphere of surrender,
an atmosphere of God just choosing to trust you. Lord, even when we don't fully understand,
God, I thank you that your word here says that we would have the power to understand,
that you would give us the revelation that we need. God, I thank you that in every moment,
you would even remind us of the truth of your word, that examples like, you know,
Jesus being kept in the midst of a storm and the disciples that were afraid, but Jesus was
never afraid. He was still sleeping. So Lord, we trust that you can take care of us in the same
way that we don't have to fear. We don't have to be afraid because fear has to do with torment.
So Lord, we thank you right now tonight that your perfect love, it casts out all fear.
And we thank you, Lord, that you would, by the power of Jesus's blood and by the name of you,
Jesus, that you would lose the spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind that you would
release and lose spirits of healing and forgiveness and reconciliation in our hearts.
Help us to choose you, Father. Thank you that where the enemies come in and he's lied to us
and deceived us about who you are, God, and any part of your character. I thank you, God,
that you would come in and breathe life into those areas and breathe truth. Thank you, Lord,
God, that you would remove any hard and stony place of our hearts
that came through brokenness and callousness. God, I thank you that you would help us to stop
partnering with anger and grief as self-protection mechanisms, and that we would just allow you
to take those bodyguards down and those walls down, help us to trust you more tonight.
And I just thank you that you would put in the place of those hard and stony hearts,
hearts of flesh that are soft and pliable to you, that hear what your spirit is saying and choose
to walk in your ways. We thank you that we will not go off to the left or to the right,
that we will stay on the pathway that you have for us, God. I thank you that you would fan the
flames of hunger and thirst for your righteousness, for your word, for divine relationship with you.
God, I thank you that even as I was praying earlier, I didn't even know this was in the book
here. In John 8, 31 and 32, it says, you are truly my disciples. If you remain faithful to my
teachings, and here it is, and you will know the truth and the truth will set you free. So God,
I just feel like that was a confirmation of what you were saying earlier tonight, as I was praying,
God, that you are bringing truth into every area where there's a lie and you're bringing healing
and revelation. Help us to, yes, Lord, lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us and press
on toward the high calling of God for our lives. We thank you that you would help us to step into
the fullness of your original plan and design for us. God, I thank you that you would give us
glimpses of your glory, glimpses of heaven. God, help us to smell the fragrance of heaven,
that we would encounter you in special ways more and more in the days ahead.
Yes, Lord. Thank you, Lord, for truth. Y'all, if we just, sometimes, I don't know.
about you all, but sometimes I even have recorded myself
doing stuff like this, not for myself intentionally.
I actually went live in the middle of all this hurricane
storm because God led me to, and I was listening to myself
and it was ministering to my own spirit.
And it makes me think about David in the Bible.
And he started speaking to his spirit.
He said, why are you downcast on my soul?
Hope in the Lord.
And so some of you, I want to encourage you,
you need to speak to your spirit.
And I'm not saying it's going to happen right away,
but the more you speak truth into your own spirit
and your spirit hears you out loud,
declaring the truth of God's word,
it will cause your spirit to align
with the truth of God's word.
It's super important.
All right.
Hi, they'll be back in like 25 seconds
and we'll go ahead and keep going.
So good.
All right.
That is so good, you all.
Super thankful for how he's already here tonight
and the ways he's working.
It's so good.
I'm going to put this I think into a glass, sorry.
All right, welcome back.
Let's see, do I have everyone back?
Almost.
Hi, hi, hi.
Welcome back, everyone.
Okay, I think we're all here.
Awesome.
Okay, so who is willing to share with the whole group
what you shared in your private breakout group?
Am I recording?
Does it show recording?
Oh my gosh, I just had,
I was so worried there.
All right, thanks ladies.
I didn't see it anymore and I was like, it's gone.
Oh, there it is.
Okay, panic over.
All right, Mackenzie, awesome.
Go ahead.
Yeah, so about four years ago,
my younger sister had heard from the Lord
that of who her husband was.
And me and my family, we all hear from the Lord
and we were like, we actually felt incongruent with it
and it had been confirmed by a couple of people.
And so for four years, we just were praying for that.
And then this June,
he actually ended up marrying someone else.
And so that was really hard
because I was sharing my breakout group.
My word from the Lord for this year is believe,
believe for the promises that I've given you
because I struggle with that.
And so I felt like we all believed for so long
for something and then it didn't happen.
And so even though it wasn't a promise
that was directly broken for me,
it was for my sister and so, yeah.
That's a really great example.
And I think we all need to think about this.
We do tend to think about the promises broken to us,
but even when we see pain happen to other people,
it can cause wounds in us and we can take up,
not that you're offended, but I'm just mentioning this
because this can happen to you.
Sometimes we can even take up offense for people, right?
And so just be aware of that.
One of the things I do wanna mention here, Mackenzie,
is that here's the reality, God always has a plan, right?
Now, whether or not it was God's plan,
I'm not trying to say you guys didn't hear correctly.
I will tell you that when I'm in any kind
of prophetic trainings, they say to never prophesy
about mates, dates and babies for a reason.
So just be careful of that, y'all, okay?
Because the enemy can really trip people up
with that kind of stuff.
And again, I'm not saying you guys heard God wrong,
but just be careful there.
But one of the things I felt led in particular to say
is that here's the reality, God has a plan,
but he also gives every man free will to choose, okay?
And so while God's best for that guy
might have been your sister,
he still has free will to choose, just like we all do.
And so I can understand why that would be hard
on so many levels, but I also know,
if I've learned anything from this hurricane storm
is that God can use any storm to teach us so much
about ourselves, about other people.
And ladies, if we will allow it, an eagle,
when they face a storm, the wind will take them higher.
That's, they soar higher.
And so when we go through these situations
that even sometimes can be crushing to us
or a family member or whatever,
what are we gonna do with it?
How are we gonna let it heal us?
us, change us, transform us, you know, versus set us back and crush us.
That makes sense.
Everyone.
So, um, yeah, McKenzie, you know, just keep talking to the Lord about that.
And, um, I do want to also say, I think it's important.
This is where a lot of people start to question their ability to hear from the
Lord when stuff like that happens.
And even someone who operates in the prophetic, you all, um, I get things
right a lot, but I can tell you that there are times that it can be off too.
And I, over the years have grown a ton.
And I can tell you that when I was first learning, I didn't
always hear the way I hear now.
Okay.
So we do our best as we're going.
Um, I also thought God told me that I was going to be with that
guy that I dated for six years.
But that isn't what God was saying.
It was what I wanted.
And again, I'm not saying that's the reality for your sister or your
family or any of those things, but I just think it's important for us to
put all of that kind of out on the table as you all are processing and
talking to the Lord about it, how I discerned, um, that process is
that, um, God has good gifts for us.
And I'm not saying that person is made in his image, but that person that I
thought I wanted to be with definitely is not living into the image of God
right now and hasn't for many years.
And so if I believe God has good gifts for me, why would he send me
someone who cheats on me all the time?
You know, and again, that may not be anything like what that guy is like,
but do y'all, this is the way we need to kind of break some things down and
just look at it, like factually, does that make sense?
So it's both and we listened to the spirit, but we look at the fruit.
Okay.
All right.
Awesome.
Great.
Sure.
So good.
Kristen, go ahead.
Okay.
I had to figure out how to unmute.
Um, I shared that I feel actually pretty okay with people, um, but it's more with
God, I would say, feeling disappointed that I feel like he has spoken to me many
times over the years about having a husband and children, and I'm now 44.
And I haven't, you know, come across that yet.
And I was actually dating someone last year that was, um, I don't know if
it's true, but I was dating someone last year that was, uh, the first person I
really could have seen myself with, honestly, but I didn't have total peace.
And there were some, like you said, with the spirit and in the natural, it was
like, I was feeling some signs pointing towards him, but then there were certain
things in the natural that made me hesitant, even though almost everything
else was there.
So, um, and then the girl that I spoke with in this, the individual
that I spoke with in this relationship, she had a very strong sense of
love and, uh, feeling disappointed in herself, breaking promises to herself.
And that resonated with me too.
And even within that relationship, there were things I did that, like that I broke
promises I'd made to myself that like I wouldn't do, or, you know, so.
This is so good.
I love that the broken promises to you, to ourselves came up y'all.
I put a sign up in my kitchen that said, keep promises to yourself today.
And it was little, it was little things and big things.
So like, if I said I wasn't gonna like eat a bunch of sweets, you know, cause I
was trying to get like really work on my health.
And like, if I told myself that I was going to do that, and then I didn't, and
I kept bringing, I'm not saying we can't make mistakes y'all, but like when we
continue to break those we're actually breaking and it does wear down on us on
the inside.
Right.
Um, but also in the sense of, um, you know, the bigger things, you know, when
we say we're going to set a boundary and we don't stick to that boundary, you
know, why do we do that?
You know, have we ever asked God to show us the why behind the what?
Like, why do we keep doing that?
Um, and do we need healing in an area that is causing us to not keep a boundary
that we need to keep, you know, and y'all I'm going to bring the big one out.
Having sex before marriage.
There's a lot of people that, that tell themselves that guys will, there's no
good guys that will wait until they're married.
And there's a lot of women that, you know, don't want to wait for a lot of
different reasons.
And I just think it's important for us to really look at where.
Where are those things coming from in us?
Is it that we believe that God's been holding out us all this time, so we deserve it?
Or like for me, I didn't learn a lot of boundaries when I was younger because I was sexually
abused really, really young.
And so my body really became in a sense, powerful.
It was, you know, something that I didn't know.
And so I had to really learn how to, even in this courtship, how to set a lot of guardrails
to you all, a lot of guardrails and protect both of us and us working as a team.
And so these are things that, you know, we need to look at, but what was the root?
The root was that I needed healing more in areas from the past, and I needed to grow
and mature more in my self-control.
That's the truth, you know, and I had to own that.
But also I want to touch on when you said, you know, that you've always wanted a husband
and children.
And I think you said you're 46.
And I think that's what you said.
And it hasn't happened.
44.
Okay.
I can remember.
I want to get that right.
But I want to encourage you all to really ask the Lord to show you if along the way,
if there were times he was trying to help you, but subconsciously, I'm not saying we
did this intentionally, but subconsciously we actually self-sabotaged in some way.
Because typically we believe the lie that God just hasn't fulfilled the promise, but
a lot of times what's actually happened along the way is we've either been kind of hiding
and not fully showing up because our heart has so much brokenness or we're engaging.
And then stuff happens because of the wounds.
And then we self-sabotage and things fall apart.
Or we attract people that are really unhealthy.
There's so many dynamics, but those are three big ones, you know, so just be asking God
to really start showing you like, when is the first time this is what I tell everyone
when's the first time that I felt like God, you didn't fulfill your promise to me regarding
a husband.
Let's start there.
So not just right now, but God, when's the first time that I believed you didn't fulfill
your promise to me regarding a husband.
And you don't have to answer right now, but definitely journal that down because that's
something you want to start unpacking with him.
We want to get to the root, okay.
Not just the current situation, but what's the root that's feeding the current lie.
Does that make sense?
And we're going to go through the revealing for healing cycle tonight in a little bit
in this, you'll, this stuff will start to be unpacked a lot more.
Sarah, we might have to go back and watch the replay.
Cause I don't even think I will fully remember the exact way I just said those to you all.
Oh man, I laugh at myself because I should have wrote those down, but those just came
up in the spirit.
So yeah.
Thanks for asking those.
Okay.
So the other Sarah who has her hand raised, go ahead and you can share Kristen.
Thank you for sharing.
Hi.
This is my first time sharing, so I'm a little nervous.
So I shared I couldn't think of an outright promise that someone had made that was broken,
but what came to my mind first was my previous relationship because it felt like it was going
towards marriage and I don't know why I'm crying right now.
And and then when it didn't, it felt like, it felt like a sort of broken promise because
there was a ring and everything.
It was like really close to marriage.
I'm really sorry to hear that.
Y'all, this is really important.
Just so Sarah feels really supported and anyone else y'all, if you feel emotion, I don't want
you to get embarrassed.
Okay.
So if y'all cry, when you start sharing, this is, it's important to let this stuff out because
a lot of us learn to go into survival mode.
And what happens when we do that is we shove all these emotions down.
And so when we start to talk about it, that stuff will start to percolate up.
So we might not like she's saying, I don't even know why I'm crying right now, but it's
because there's something in there that hurt you and it needs to come out.
Okay.
And so this is, I think this is a good one for you to just spend some time with the Lord.
I'm like, you're saying like, you know, you had a ring, you thought you all were moving
forward.
Do you mind if I ask why you all decided not to move forward?
Like, did you break up or how did that happen?
I did because it started becoming very.
verbally abusive. And like, and he started, I started seeing a
very aggressive, angry side of him that I hadn't known before
that. And I realized that it wasn't healthy, and I needed to
get out.
Hey, so you were God defended.
Say that again.
So what the reality is here is we're God defended. Yeah.
Because before you got married, God allowed you to see some
stuff that was there that you didn't know was there. Yeah. And
so I know that can be really hard. Um, but I see it as God
actually keeping his promise to you to protect you. And so I
want to encourage you to really lean into that in the next few
weeks, that God is protecting you and defending you and
therefore he revealed these things to you before you entered
into covenant with this person. And I don't think this is the
plan for the rest of your life. You're learning you're here,
you're going to grow. And I believe that you can absolutely
learn how to attract healthier people in the future. Y'all,
it's really important to understand if you're a big
giver. A lot of times people when we get out of balance, if
we're big givers, we will attract takers. Okay, so and
that can be in all kinds of relationships, not just romantic,
it can be friendships as well. And so just be aware of kind of
the, if y'all tend to struggle with attracting the same kind of
people, ask the Lord, like, you know, God, why am I attracting
this kind of person like what in me, most times it's going to go
back to your identity, or you your low self worth. And, and
you all and when I say that I used to like feel I was
confident. And I was like a rock star in some areas of my
life. I really not like pridefully saying that, but like
I felt strong, right. And I felt like I did have a good identity
in Christ, but there was still so much broken on the inside
that still needed healed that it was subconsciously impacting
how I showed up. And I definitely after I went through
boot camp, and in my healing process showed up around men
differently. And I'm going to go through that and share that
here. I feel like it's a good segue. But Sarah, definitely
lean into this. Thank you for sharing on your first time. You
did great. You made it. Y'all, this is this is so important.
And you might not realize Sarah, but what you just did is you
stepped into breakthrough. You stepped into breakthrough
tonight. So many times you all need to use your voices. And
that's going to bring accelerated healing more than
you know. Okay. That is so good. He knows everything we need in
every moment. Okay, so I'm going to start to shift. And you just
lower your hand, Sarah for now. I want to show you all the
revealing healing for healing cycle here. I'm going to bring
it up on the screen as I walk you through this process. And
this is in week three, in the content in your course. And if
you see here, we want it starts with negative emotions. And I'm
going to kind of break this down in a minute. But the cycle
starts with negative emotions. I'm not sure why this is
highlighted. So I apologize, but negative emotions and painful
memory, trauma stories, and I'll go slower in a minute. And this
is on a sheet in your in your course. So you don't necessarily
have to write this all down. Then lies believed are revealed
is that next part of that cycle. And then you all we want to come
all the way to the end. Don't forget the end God revealing the
truth. Okay, super important. Now I'm going to walk you
through an example. And you all your life is going to be
different. Okay, so your stuff may be completely different than
mine. But again, I'm just trying to give you examples tonight. So
that when you sit down to do this yourself, that it'll give
you some some context for how to unpack it a little bit more.
Here's an important thing before I go through this cycle. Y'all
we cannot replace events that happened. Okay, we can't go back
and change things. It's done. But what we can do is we can
replace the lies we believe because of the trauma and the
wounds that we have gone through and experienced. So that's the
point of this revealing for healing cycle. As you replace
the lies with truth, it sets you free in ways that you don't
even know that you need it. So here's an example from my life.
Now these are things this is something that I've I've grown
through. This is not something I struggle with anymore. So I just
don't want you sometimes when I share these parts of my stories,
people get worried. And I just want you to know I'm talking to
you tonight from a place of victory.
God has redeemed my soul. He has set me free and I can talk about this stuff without pain in my heart and my spirit.
I mean, it's kind of crazy to me that this was part of my life.
Okay, because I just don't feel like it was a part of my life anymore.
I know it happened, but the pain of it is not there anymore.
Okay, but here's a negative emotion.
This is my negative emotion that I identified and it was fear, but in particular, not just fear, but fear around men.
So when I would get around men, I would feel insecure.
I would feel fear. I'd feel stress and tension in my body.
Okay, so fear, tension, stress, insecure.
Those were my emotions and my feelings.
Does everyone understand?
Okay, the next thing, okay, so then what's my painful memory?
The way I look at this is like the painful, and maybe Jackie would describe it differently, but this is just what God has shown me as I did my process.
The painful memory is kind of like an umbrella.
So it's kind of the overarching theme, if you will.
So my painful memory was abused by men.
That's my overarching thing.
Okay, but then the trauma stories are the stories that are kind of up under that main theme.
Okay, so here are my trauma stories, and there's more, but these are the ones I felt led to share with you all tonight.
Sexually abused by my brothers and sister when I was younger.
So that's one of my trauma stories.
Emotional, mental, spiritual abuse with my husband and that former relationship I was in as well.
I actually had another relationship in between there that also had a lot of that.
So I had three relationships in a row that looked very, very similar.
Additional trauma stories, kind of crazy how similar these stories are, totally different timeframes.
But these stories kind of link up under those other abuses and, you know, getting trapped and someone trying to take advantage of my body, if you will.
So when I was like in elementary school, I literally have no clue how old I was.
My mom took us to someone's house for like a home interiors party.
That's something they did back then.
And we were, all the kids were sent upstairs to play.
And this boy tried to lock me in this room by myself with him.
And my sister, I mean, it was pretty traumatic.
My sister was, because see, my sister went through a lot of the abuse with my brothers too.
And there were times that she felt like she had to protect me.
And so she got super triggered.
I was triggered.
I was trying to get out of the room.
This kid puts this dresser and my sister's trying to knock the door, like knock it down.
That's all I remember.
Now, then I'm in high school years later and someone that was supposed to be my friend, I'm doing quotes there because she really wasn't a good friend.
This is someone I spent time with, but she really was not a good friend.
And she proved over and over and over again that she really was not a kind person to me, but I kept hanging out with her.
And it didn't go well with me because of that.
This was one of the examples.
She thought it was funny to put something down in my shirt and she kind of shoved me into the bathroom.
And then another like told a boy to come in and get that.
And then she had him come in and lock the door.
Y'all, I couldn't get out.
Now, thankfully, after I like stood up for myself, he stopped, but it was after a lot.
So I'm not sharing those things to traumatize you all, but I want you to understand like, this is how these different trauma stories and different things that we go through start to create these strongholds and these areas where all these lies are fortified in there.
Do you see how that can work?
Okay.
So the lies that I believed, and again, there's more than this, but these are the two that I want to draw out tonight because these are really big in my life.
One, all men are abusive.
Number two, I, Bethany, need to be afraid of men.
And three, I, Bethany, cannot trust men.
Okay, so those were lies that I believe.
Now here, we're going to go all the way.
Remember, we want to go all the way to the truth because what?
The truth is what sets us free.
It's what sets us free, you all, and not just knowing the truth in our head, but getting it down in our heart through the healing and literally allowing God to come into these vulnerable places to set us free.
So my truth is a declaration that's standing on scripture truth.
Okay, so my truth declaration number one is you don't have to fear or be afraid.
I, Bethany, and y'all, I used to declare this stuff out loud.
over myself all the time.
I, Bethany, back then, my name was Stanko.
I, Bethany Stanko, do not have a spirit of fear,
but I have a spirit of love and of power
and of a sound mind.
So I don't have to fear or be afraid.
Here's two scriptures in addition to the one I just quoted.
Isaiah 41.10.
So do not fear, for I am with you.
Do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41.13, for I am the Lord, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand and says to you,
do not fear, for I will help you.
My next truth is I can trust God to protect me.
Psalm 121, seven through eight.
The Lord will help, will keep you from all harm.
He will watch over your life.
The Lord will watch over your coming and your going
both now and forever more.
So I'm gonna stop the screen share.
So I'm gonna talk to you for just another minute.
Here's the tough thing.
Excuse me.
A lot of people struggle with,
what was that?
Oh, sorry.
Unmute yourself again.
Sorry, what was that?
What was that last Bible verse?
Oh yeah, Psalm 121, for seven through eight.
Thank you.
So a lot of people wrestle with,
well, why didn't God stop the abuse?
Okay, y'all, here's the truth
that people don't like to look at.
God in his infinite love, unconditional,
just big and wide for everybody
that's a part of his image,
gives man and woman free will.
And because he gives us free will,
we all have choices to make.
We can choose to do good,
or we can choose to do evil.
Every person has a choice, okay?
And so I don't believe that God wanted any of that
for my life, any of it.
But as I give it to him, as I surrender it to him,
he's absolutely turning it around for good, is he not?
I'm here testifying.
And y'all, I mean, God uses my story to set people free.
Do I wish, am I glad that stuff happened?
It's kind of awkward,
because no, I'm not, but like I am,
because now I get to see all these people
that get impacted because God is working in it.
I know that probably sounds a little crazy,
but that's the truth.
I wouldn't wish it on anybody,
but God is so good that he saves me
as well as many people alive
because of the things that he's done in my life.
And he can do that with you as well.
So here's my question for you for breakout.
What is a negative emotion or memory
that God is bringing up in your spirit tonight
that you need revealing for healing in?
So this is just you saying, okay,
this is the memory or the emotion
that's coming up for me tonight
that I need to go and do this revealing
for healing cycle with, okay?
And I want y'all to know,
I kind of gave you guys very high level.
I gave you a little bit more detail than I even,
like y'all don't have to go into massive details.
If you don't want, this is more like high level, okay?
Just because people can get really traumatized
if we overshare on like all the little details.
Like I shared overarching, like what happened,
but I didn't share like, this is how the abuse happened.
This is, you know what I mean?
Does that make sense what I'm saying, everyone?
Okay.
All right, because we want people to feel safe
and it's super important.
Remember, you don't have to advise anyone or coach anyone.
You're just giving each other safe space to share.
And then after one person shares, you know,
love on each other a little bit
and then the next person goes, okay?
All right, cool.
I'm gonna set up new breakout rooms
just so y'all can get to know some new people.
Hold on one second.
I need, there we go.
I am gonna do, I think seven minutes just because of time.
All right, go ahead and click to join those for me.
Okay.
And I think we've got everyone situated.
Father, thank you for revealing, for healing.
Thank you that you're using our stories.
You're changing us from the inside out.
God, that there's nothing ever wasted.
Ladies.
It makes me think of the story that Jackie has in the book where
she talks about the jars.
I forget exactly how she says it, but she talks about the gold being
poured in and really sealing those cracks.
And I want you to think about your life in that regard.
Like every crack that we have, if you will, in our vessel as God, his
glory and his healing and his redemption come in and fill our jar up.
It fills those cracks with goals and quite a masterpiece he makes if you will.
So no matter what the mess has been in your life, no matter what the ashes
are, God can create beauty out of every amount of ash, he can bring joy and
where there has been mourning and healing where there's been pain.
Romans 8, 28 says, and we know that God causes everything to work together
for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for
them, Genesis 50, 20 says you intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good.
He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.
If y'all don't know, that's the story of Joseph.
That's Joseph saying that, and God raised him to a place of power and authority.
And it ended up, um, God used him to save not only his family, but the whole,
you know, that whole kingdom, if you will.
Isaiah 61 says this, the spirit of the sovereign Lord is upon me for the Lord
has anointed me to bring good news to the poor.
He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be
released and prisoners will be freed.
He has sent me to tell those who mourn that the time of the Lord's favor has
come and with it, the day of God's anger against their enemies to all who mourn
in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing
instead of mourning, festive praise, instead of despair and their righteousness.
They will be like great oaks that the Lord has planted for his own glory.
They will, they will rebuild the ancient ruins repairing cities destroyed long
ago, they will revive them though.
They have been deserted for many generations.
So basically y'all God's going to do great things in us and through us.
And even in generations to come, as well as just redeeming our timeline where the
enemies come in and he's destroyed ancient ruins that we can be that kinsmen
redeemer in our family line, that we can be that person that changes things for
history in and around, not only our family, but our communities and cities and
in countries that God can use us in mighty ways and big and small ways.
You all James one, two through four says this.
My fellow believers, when it seems as though you are facing nothing but
difficulties, see it as an invaluable opportunity to experience the greatest
joy that you can for, you know, that when your faith is tested, it stirs up power
within you to endure all things.
And then as your endurance grows even stronger, it will release perfection
into every part of your being until there is nothing missing and nothing lacking.
Ephesians four, 26 through 27 says this, but don't let the passion
of your emotions lead you to sin.
Don't let anger control you or be fuel for revenge, not even for a day.
Don't give the slanderous accuser, the devil, an opportunity to manipulate you.
Y'all just remember that, um, anger is hurts bodyguard.
If anger kicks in within us, that we would pay attention to that, that
we would pause and say, okay, Lord.
What's at the root of this anger.
What's the pain that I'm feeling that I'm covering up with
anger to protect myself right now.
And the Lord will show us and he'll lead us into all truth and anoint us for all
of our lives and walk in calling.
And he'll lead us deeper into Jesus.
If we will continue to ask him to do so.
I encourage you right now, just as you're listening to this.
And even as the ladies are in the breakout that you'll just, uh, continue
to pray, like, Lord, what is the emotion or memory that you are bringing up in
my spirit tonight that you want to reveal for healing God, that you'll
help me to partner with the truth.
That you are working on my behalf right now, even when I can't see it, Lord,
you're working God, your ways are above our ways.
Your thoughts are above our thoughts that nothing is too hard for you.
So where the enemy is trying to convince me or convince us that
it's never going to happen.
We thank you, God, that you're coming in tonight and you're
saying it is going to happen.
Can't you perceive it?
I'm doing a new thing.
I'm bringing streams in the, in the wasteland and rivers in the desert.
And I might have those backwards, y'all,
but that's that scripture in Isaiah, I think it's 43.
God's doing something new.
Y'all, I'm looking to see if there's any other scriptures
from the book that just jump out at me tonight.
God's developing in us the ability to receive love tonight,
to receive his constant care,
to meditate on the fact that he's our defender.
Yes, there's a scripture in the Bible that talks about,
how God is like a mother hen
who gathers her chicks to herself.
I think I said I was gonna talk about
that other scripture too, now what was that?
Shoot, earlier I said I was gonna come back
and talk about that.
Now I forget what it was, y'all.
All right, well, maybe the Lord will help me remember.
Isaiah, or excuse me, Psalm 139, 14 says this,
I will give thanks and praise to you
for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works and my soul knows it very well.
Do you believe that you're fearfully and wonderfully made?
God says it's true.
1 John 3.20 says, whenever our hearts make us feel guilty
and remind us of our failures,
we know that God is much greater and more merciful
than our conscience.
And he knows everything there is to know about us.
Luke 12.2 says this, everything hidden and covered up
will soon be exposed for the fast aid is falling down
and nothing will be kept secret for long.
Revelation 21.4 says, he will wipe away every tear
from their eyes and eliminate death entirely.
No one will mourn or weep any longer.
The pain of wounds will no longer exist
for the old order has ceased.
Y'all, is that not a comfort just to think about like,
when we go to heaven,
like we literally will not feel pain ever again.
What we experience in this light and temporary moment,
like it feels long to us,
but our time on this earth is brief.
Let us live for eternity.
Jackie talks about that in Supernatural Saturday,
you all, if you didn't hear it,
we need to live for eternity.
What is our purpose here?
Yes, we want you all to have your spirit mate.
We want you to be blessed.
We believe God has led you here
to lead you to your spirit mate.
And not only to that, but kingdom, family and marriage
to become a part of a movement of what God is doing
and wants to release into the land in this season
and this time.
But even more than that, what is your purpose?
Who has God called you to be as a daughter?
What does he want to do in you
that will then create the things through you,
including that marriage covenant?
It's so good.
If y'all will meditate on those things,
seek first his kingdom and his righteousness
and all of the other things will be added unto you.
So good.
All right.
Who's willing to share with everyone
what you shared in your breakout about a memory or emotion?
Awesome.
Jennifer, go ahead.
Oh, you're muted.
Okay.
So even though I've been in this group for a very long time,
this is my first time sharing.
So I'm just gonna get through it.
I shared that around that formative years,
I wanna say it was like nine through 13.
My mom was married to a man
who was emotionally and verbally abusive
and he kept speaking or he spoke over me
that no man will ever want me.
And so thinking through that,
it's kind of that pattern has kind of proven true so far
in that anytime I have been interested romantically
in someone, they don't want me, they choose someone else.
And if I take that further
to like where that might've first began,
my biological father on the day I was born
walked into the hospital and said I wasn't his.
And so that was what I had shared in my breakout.
Jennifer, this is big.
I'm so proud of you for sharing this
and y'all here's the thing,
each one of your journeys is so special, truly.
And God's been doing a huge work in you
the entire time you've been here.
And I'm so excited that you just shared this.
I love the connections that you're making
and I think you're about to be
upon another huge breakthrough, I really do.
There are two really big connections to be making right now.
And you might've already made them in the past,
but the fact that you're actually sharing them out loud.
It's interesting, this afternoon,
I don't know if I've shared this before
when you've been on Jennifer,
but also the other ladies that are new
maybe have never heard this part of my story.
But I shared this afternoon that when I was a teenager
through various different events,
my mom, I basically had a need.
I was really hungry.
I'd been at this thing all day.
She was there with me.
It was for something for school.
And then there was a craft show
and she wanted to stay for this craft show,
but I was really hungry.
She didn't, for whatever reason, want to buy me food.
I don't really know why.
But the reason I'm sharing this
is because I actually had a need.
And because I had a need and she, for whatever reason,
did not choose to fulfill that,
it turned into something bigger.
And she ended up screaming at me
in front of all these people about how selfish I was.
And then it escalated,
because she just stormed out and I was standing there.
And I just remember thinking, what do I do?
I just remember thinking,
I don't know if a lot of people were looking at me,
but I just remember thinking, oh my God,
everybody is probably looking at me.
And so I went after her,
trying to find her out in the parking lot.
I had no clue where she was.
And when I found her, she started screaming at me again.
And that was the day she said,
we never wanted you to begin with.
They got pregnant with me when she was on birth control.
And so there was a large part of my life
where I really battled so much with, I wasn't wanted.
And how that like damaged things in the core of who I was.
And I remember just at one point how like one day
that all just shifted,
because I finally really understood how much God wanted.
Yeah.
Y'all, I'm a miracle, like God wanted me.
And even when my parents didn't, he did.
And he formed me and he created me
and he predestined me for a purpose.
And so I just wanna, I wanna release that over you.
Like while your dad may not have said that you were his,
God is saying and has been saying
from the day that he made you, that you are his.
And he's always wanted you, Jennifer.
Thank you.
He's always wanted you.
And I do think that there's something with this guy
that was speaking that over you.
Okay, so one of the things I wanna encourage you
is that you can just, in Jesus name,
I don't partner with that lie over my life anymore.
That what that man said over me does not define my destiny.
So Lord, I thank you that in the days ahead,
as I meet the man, my spirit mate,
you will help him to see me and I will see him.
And we will know that you are leading us to each other
and that you all will choose each other
and just start partnering with the truth
that counteracts the lie.
Does that make sense?
It does, yes.
Yeah, and it can be quite powerful.
And you all, and the reality of this
is sometimes you're gonna say this stuff
and you're not gonna fully believe it 100% in your heart.
You're still gonna be growing in your faith in that area,
at least from my experience.
But the more I partnered with the truth
and the more that I healed,
the more I believed what I was saying
and the unbelief kept leaving.
One of the things I want y'all to get comfortable with
as well is I believe, help my unbelief.
I believe, help my unbelief.
Because the reality is you all,
is so many people struggle with unbelief,
but they just, they've never been able to pinpoint it
or they feel ashamed because they're Christians.
And so they feel like,
I shouldn't struggle with unbelief, but we all do.
That's why there's scripture that talks about that we,
God doesn't want us to be like a wave tossed to and fro.
And again, this isn't necessarily just for Jennifer.
I'm kind of going into a little bit of kind of teaching
and edifying here right now.
But God wants us to be firm and fixed and sure.
But where does that come from?
It comes from being rooted
in the knowledge of who we are in him
and how much, like God is love.
God is love.
He literally cannot deny himself
and we were created in his image.
So he therefore will not ever deny us.
Does that make sense?
He will, again,
He'll protect us. He'll correct us. He'll love us. He'll guide us,
but he will always pursue us with his loving kindness.
His loving kindness is what leads us to true repentance,
not behavior modification.
Jennifer. I'm so excited. I really am. I'm just, you know, these moments as a
coach, we wait, we wait and we watch and we pray. And then someone shares and
you just, it's, it's a big moment. I celebrate you tonight.
For your courage. Is there anyone else that was led to share tonight?
Were you going to say something else, Jennifer? Okay.
I just want to make sure I didn't know if I cut you off. Anyone else?
I'll, I'll talk. Go ahead. Go ahead.
So this isn't the one that I shared with Joanna,
but it kind of came up as, as Jennifer and you were saying
what you did.
So I think it was like
almost when I was 30,
I had my first ever freedom session.
And,
and so the gal just said, I see you crying from the womb.
And I just broke because it was like,
I always knew something was off, but
that my mother never wanted me. And so she just,
this, this lady, just, she could see me crying from the womb.
And I'm like, Oh my gosh, that's true.
But but since that time,
the Lord has been so gracious to say,
you know, what you did, Bethany, that,
that the Lord loves us and no matter what,
my mother was very broken. And so
anyway. Yeah. Yeah. So
but that just, you know,
back then you didn't get a birth abortions or whatever. So
praise God. Cause you're here. I know.
And, and, and he, you know, the Lord has,
he calls me my girl when we're journaling.
And I think I've shared this before that I ask him, you know,
why don't you say my beautiful girl or, you know, lovely or something.
And he said, go look up the song,
the temptations, the old song, my girl.
And, and so I did, and I've, you know, played it and danced to it,
you know? And he says I'm sunshine on a,
on a cloudy day. That's right. Yeah.
And so he's just shown me so much love and
just precious times and stuff.
And so I know he wanted me and he created me and just
something that, that I don't know,
if it was through something that Jackie said or whatever,
that really touched me about how much he loves us and stuff,
you know, she's, she said so much good stuff lately,
but anyway, just confirms, you know,
we're all his precious creations. Yes, we are.
And he decided, okay, the Eloise model gets this.
And that in hazel eyes, we've got to have hazel eyes and blah, blah, blah,
you know? So, so it's like, you know, ask him what,
what he's seeing that he just adores about each of
us, you know? So, yeah, I love this.
This is going to be a good activation.
I'm going to change one of our activations tonight. Okay.
Thank you for sharing Eloise.
And I do want to pray into this because I feel like there's some other people
that maybe maybe you've never heard of that concept of like crying
from the womb or, or getting ministry in those ways.
But there are a lot of studies out there that if,
even if a mom gets pregnant young or she's scared,
or maybe she has health concerns, I mean, there's a lot of different reasons.
It doesn't mean they always don't want us,
but what can happen is there can be things released,
you know, while the baby is in the womb that can lead to them, you know,
being born with a root of rejection.
And so I do feel led to pray into that tonight before we close.
But here are the activations.
Nations for this week. Number one, that just came out of what
Eloise was saying is I do want you all to pray and ask God,
like, like how she was saying, like, God says to her, my girl,
like, what does God want to call you in this season? Like, what's
that term, Lord of endearment that you want to speak to me
when you and I talk. And I want to encourage you all if you
don't hear it right away, don't get frustrated. Okay, just keep
listening and leaning in and let him show you. And if you hear
something right away, don't diminish it and think, well,
that's just me making that up. Because some people do that. But
it's actually the Lord whispering to you something.
Okay. So that's your first activation. We're going to call
it terms of endearment. Because that's how God speaks to us. And
I hear things differently than the way Eloise does, but that
doesn't make it any less special. Okay. God showed me as
a long, long time ago, I'm a picture of a little girl skipping
with blonde hair, and he was showing me who I was going to
become. And it had nothing to do with the hair color other than I
believe it. Blonde hair was a prophetic of symbolism of glory.
And happiness, she was skipping and she was happy. And so God
speaks in all different kinds of ways. So just let him show you
for you. Okay. Number two, is this, I really want you all to
spend some time in nature at some point this week. Okay. So I
want you to like, ask God, don't just decide like, okay, this is
what I'm going to go do. But I actually want you to ask God,
where does he want you to go with him? So maybe your place
that you feel close to God, maybe that's gardens, maybe it's
flowers, maybe it's actually working in your garden. Maybe
for you, it's going for a hike or by the beach, you know, really
ask the Lord, okay, these are things I love. These are places
I feel close to you, God, where do you want me to meet with you
this week? And when you go, when you go there, I want you to talk
to him. And I want you to ask him for revelations. You know,
how does he feel about you? What does he want you to hear? You
know, what are some areas he wants to heal in you while
you're there. And for those of you that are willing, I would
love for you to take a snapshot of yourself there. Or you can
just take a snapshot of the place if that's easier, but I
want you to share about it in the group. Okay. And again, you
all when you do these things, and they are really, really
valuable to you getting freedom, but also others being
encouraged. You know, when you start to see other people's
posts in the group, I don't know, but you all, but it kind
of lights up the lights up the group, doesn't it? When you see
things people have done, and they, they lean into this stuff.
And so just know that God wants to do a work in you. And if you
want to share your terms of endearment, like what God says
to you, I would love to hear this too. Again, these are all
even listening to Eloise tell that story, didn't it kind of
like, take you to that place a little bit. So imagine if you
all read those kind of things that are in the group this week,
how much that would minister to your soul. And maybe for some of
you, it might be a revealing for healing, because if you're
struggling, and you're not hearing that, and you need
breakthroughs in some more areas to lead you to that place, lean
into that as well. Okay. So whatever happens, trust it, and
come into the group and talk about it. All right, let me pray
for us. Father, thank you so much for everything you did
tonight. The things that you're going to continue to do, God,
thank you that you are ministering to every one of
these ladies, God, in a really supernatural ways. If anyone
received any kind of rejection while they were in the womb,
God, roots of rejection, we just ask you to come in and heal
those areas, Lord. God, help them to hear what your spirit
is saying, God. Yes, Lord, help them to have visions of what you
were doing and how you were, like, what were you saying, God,
the day that they came into the world in the delivery room?
What were you thinking? How are you feeling? Help them to know
those things. God, we thank you that you celebrate us, you
celebrated us when you were forming us when we came, but
God, help us to hear, help us to see it for ourselves and in
supernatural ways. We thank you, God, that you're leading us into
a deeper revelation of your love for us tonight, and your care
and that you're a good father. Help us to see the ways you
defend us and protect us and you're looking out for us. God,
we ask you to reveal any areas where we have believed the lie
of the enemy that you have not kept your word to us, that
you've failed us, that you've let us down. God, where we have
partnered with those lies, help us to come out of a line of
with them and come into agreement and alignment with the truth that you are kind, that you
rejection.
are good, that you are faithful. We just thank you that your head of protection is around
us, that we can trust in you. We can rely on you and we just believe it all tonight
in Jesus name. Amen. God bless you all. I'll see you all in the group. I hope you have
an amazing week and I'll talk to y'all again real soon. Okay. Bye. Thanks, Bethany. It
was great. Good night.