Hey, hey, hey, welcome to Monday Night Heart Check-In.
It's good to see you all.
Hi, hi.
People are rolling in.
We're going to get started here in just a few minutes.
Welcome.
For those of you that are joining us for the first time,
can you put in the chat if you are
joining for your first live session
so that we can welcome you tonight?
Want to see that in the chat.
And also, if you've never joined us before,
you all are going to hear me encouraging
you to come on screen with us.
And some of you weren't planning on that.
And I understand, but I want to encourage you to get out
of your comfort zone anyways.
And if you're not able or feel comfortable enough
to do it tonight, I want to encourage you
all to come on screen next week.
Come on screen the time that you can take that leap.
But I want to kind of push you out of that nest as well.
Here's why.
And I should introduce myself.
My name is Bethany Cooper.
I'm one of the HeartWork coaches here.
And you all are going to see me in the community
beyond phase one.
But this is part of what I do in the community at this time.
And so it's going to be a great journey.
Y'all, it's going to be whatever you make it, truly.
So what you put into your journey in the heart healing
process is what you're going to get out of it, sincerely.
And so I want to encourage you all
to really take this time for you to understand
the importance of the investment that you are making.
Do you know that you are your best investment?
For those of you that have wondered
why you circle around the same things over and over,
or you attract the same kind of guys,
or whatever the dynamic is that led you here,
let's take the time while you're here
to break free from the stuff.
Get healing where you need it so that you
don't continue those things in the days ahead, OK?
So make this time great.
Invest in yourself.
I'm going to encourage you all.
I was thinking about this, not because of anything you all
did, actually I was thinking about this
because someone that I know is struggling with something.
They've been circling around the same thing for a year.
And really, this is a pattern in their life.
Love them, the Lord loves them.
But one of the things that really stood out to me tonight
is this is someone who reads a lot of Christian books.
They read their Bible.
And I'm not saying it's not working,
but sometimes you all, there's actually
a point where we get too much information
and we're not really absorbing what we're learning.
We're not really letting God get it deep inside.
So why I'm saying that to you is during this hard work
time, can I encourage you to only
read your Bible and the heart work book
and focus on the videos?
Don't try to, unless you're in school, OK?
Obviously, don't quit your school.
If you're in school or something,
don't stop going to school.
But I want to encourage you to really set this time aside
to just focus on the heart work materials in your Bible.
And I believe that you will thank me later
if you choose to accept that challenge, OK?
Welcome to all of our first timers.
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And I know that can be tricky if people are driving
or on their phones, so no pressure.
But if you're able, would love to know your name on there.
Rembo, first time.
Megan's first time.
Cindy Carter, first time.
Debra is her first time as well.
It's OK.
If your audio doesn't work, you can still
join in on breakout sessions, but you
might have to just type your stuff in the chat.
Just know that might be something you'll face.
Lauren's first time.
Anyone else?
Crystal, Kelly Gooden, Brittany.
I like to call people by name.
You all enjoy this.
It's so good to have you.
This is going to be a great journey.
You're going to really see all the ways
God has loved you all along.
He really has.
And he's been drawing you with his loving kindness
even to this moment for such a time as this.
And he is going to do amazing things beyond what
you can ask, think, or imagine.
For those of you also who have not
seen the Jesus Cares board video,
you're about to see it if you haven't yet
in either the welcome section or week one.
I can't remember right now.
But not only do we want you to do the Jesus Cares board,
but we want you to post your board in the group.
Why does that matter?
Well, here's what we believe.
We believe that when you take that courageous step
to post your board in the group, it is a private group.
We ask that you do it.
Own this app. Nobody can invade our group. Just FYI. This is our company's app that we paid to
develop and your information is private. When you post that in the group, we can start praying for
your spiritual, those needs that you've cast onto that board as well. And I also believe
in supernatural acceleration. When you step in and you say, yes, these are the cares that I cast on
Jesus. And you all can add to your board as you go. I don't want you all to feel like you have
to have it completely finished to post it. Some people worry about that kind of stuff.
Do the board. However is best for you. If the post-its is what you want to do. Awesome. If
you want to do something a little more, do whatever God leads you to do, but just the
point is do it and then post it in the group. Uh, two more housekeeping items for you all
replays, um, for all of our supernatural Saturdays, all of our heart work check-ins like this live
session tonight. Um, we also did a special time of prayer last night, last night over families,
um, lineage and legacy. We prayed for family members that were not, that are not currently
saved people that know the Lord and are far from him is really beautiful. So those are all in your
replay tab. So when you're in the app, there are different tabs, your community tab. I'm going to
go ahead and pull this up and show you all real quick, just because if I just talk through it,
I'm afraid you won't understand. Now, for those of you, again, remember if you joined long before
the app was formed, y'all are still in Facebook. Um, I am slowly starting to get you all connected
over to the app because it's just, we got to start to phase everybody into the same place.
It'll be a lot easier. Okay. So community tab, that's where all of your posts are going to go.
Okay. We're going to talk high level right now. And then I'll come back to the community,
the community tab more in detail. So those are all the different types of post
training is where your course material is located. So you're going to see all that in there
replays. That's what I was just talking about. I'm going to go through this super quick. You all
replace events. So every event that we do for phase one is going to be in your event calendar.
I'm going to recommend for you all, if you haven't already create a free zoom profile,
log into zoom before you click on the link that's in these. So as soon as I click on this link here
or this event here, the link for zoom is here, but also if you scroll down the zoom meeting ID
and passcode are here. Why am I telling you that? Unfortunately, it has nothing to do with
our technology. It's some kind of bug that is happening between zoom and Android phone users.
Typically some people that have Apple have experienced it as well. Some people, the links
aren't working. So if that happens, go directly to zoom, type that zoom meeting ID and passcode in,
and you should get right into the session. Okay. Resources. All we really have in there for you
right now, which is great is the affiliate program. I can explain that more later.
Just cause I don't want to take too much time tonight on the community tab. There's also
sub tabs. So there's an all wins, ask a coach and relationship milestones.
All is going to be any kind of posts. You can like anything like your Jesus cares board.
When we do activations, you can post about just what is God doing in your heart? You know,
whatever you all want to post there wins is more like, what are some areas you're getting wins
breakthrough? They can be small, they can be big, but come in and post celebrate what God's doing
in you. And I'm confident that's going to encourage other people in the group as well.
Ask a coach. So if you have a question, you can post that in here and it will go to ask a coach.
Um, if you also are doing an activation and want to share that on the ask a coach too,
that's totally fine. Y'all. The biggest thing is you're not going to get in trouble if it's
posted in a certain place. If, if I'm saying or anything like that, just do your best,
but I just want you guys to know what each one of these tabs means to us,
because if you continue in the program, you're going to have the same tabs in your other groups
as well. Relationship milestones. Okay. So how does this work in our group? Because we don't
want you to date right now. We want you to press pause on the men, press pause on dating,
on the dating apps, um, during your five ish weeks in heartwork. So in this, we want to encourage you
to, to share about reconciliation that's happening. You know, what is God doing and, uh, friendships,
what is God doing and, uh, friendships, other work relationships? Like where are you getting
some traction and healing in your relationships in your life? Okay. Um, so you guys can see some
examples in there as well. Some other people have posted, I put some in there as an example to give,
you know, you guys some inspiration as well and just to encourage you. Okay. All right.
Last thing, best practice for this journey is one week of content per week. Okay.
Some of you all are going to feel like you just want to fly right through.
to binge the videos. You want to binge the book because you just want breakthrough. And I want
to encourage you, please do not do that. Please do not do that. You need to give yourself time
to process what you're going to be learning, what you're going to be hearing, to give yourself and
your soul enough time to percolate stuff up to the surface. Some of y'all have been numb for so long
that you're going to think you're good and you're not. So out of love for you all,
I want to encourage you take one week per one week of content. If you need to go a little slower,
that is fine. And some of you in particular are going to feel like God is going to nudge you
to spend an extra week in a certain week. Or, you know, we had someone recently, she finished,
she took the five weeks or so, and she felt led to start over because God was doing so much in
her life. If that is you, cool. We don't want you to camp out here in phase one forever though,
either, because that's not healthy either. Just think of it like if you're in the ICU,
the longer you're in the ICU, the hospital, like it's not, it's not great. You all. Okay. So we
want you to come in, let God do what he's doing in you. And we want to encourage you to keep moving.
So I always encourage everybody, if overwhelm, especially if overwhelm tries to set in,
one step forward every day. God, what is one step I can take today to move forward in my course?
Just don't stop. Just keep moving. Okay. I think that is it. So I'm not going to go into all the
phases tonight because Jackie explains that I think in the orientation video that's in your
thing, but basically phase one is the heart work. That's, that's where we're at. You're going to be
focused on your inner heart healing phase two is what we call our love story accelerator,
whether or not you decide to go into dating, right? When you exit phase one,
you should still take time to learn from the course material, get the coaching,
let God work in your heart in that phase as well. And then phase three is what we consider our
community and continued growth as a whole. So we're all, once we go through phase one,
phase two, we all end up in phase three together as a big happy family. Okay. All right. Are we
ready to go ahead into tonight's content? I'm super excited to dive into it. Let me pray for us.
Father God, I just thank you so much for who you are. God, I thank you that we are your good idea.
God, I thank you that we don't have to be perfect, that we don't have, have to have some level of
where we just will never make mistakes, but God, you love us. You see us, you,
your love is unconditional for us. I thank you, God, that you look at us and you smile.
I pray that people that have been raised in any kind of very religious strict households,
where they believe that you are mad at them. God, I pray that you would just change minds,
change hearts tonight. We ask you to reveal areas for healing, that you would bring anything out of
darkness into the light, God, so that we could see it, that we could understand, God, the places
that you want to heal us in our innermost being. I thank you that you are transforming us by the
renewing of our minds, that all things have passed away and behold, everything has become
new in you. God, I thank you that you would help the ladies tonight also to understand and receive
truth from heaven of Jesus, how you felt the day they were born. Not only, God, were their parents
excited, but you were celebrating the day they came into the world. And I pray that you would
help even those that are struggling with that thought and concept right now to receive your
truth, to see, God, the way that you see them. In Jesus name, amen. Tonight, we're going to talk
about the broken heart and what it is and how we get caught up in lies. And we're also going to
talk about the real you, the real you as in the princess, a daughter of the king, and what it
looks like to awaken and live your best life. So we're going to start with the heart first.
If y'all are thinking about your broken heart, what I want you to understand, and you're going
to gain from this course, the truth is this, trauma doesn't just hurt us, it's creating different
versions of us. So it's causing fractures in our soul that cause us to lean into counterfeit
identities, to have these filters, these blind spots that we live our life through.
So it creates these different versions of us. And those different versions of us,
unfortunately, cause us to choose people that are unhealthy, to not set boundaries, to
think less of ourselves and be really self-condemning in our thoughts. I mean,
there's so many different things, but those are three things that come up to the surface for me
tonight as I'm saying that to you. So no matter what your background is,
No matter what you've done, y'all tonight can be a clean slate for you.
It can be your new beginning, but it will be up to you to choose that new beginning
and then to begin to align yourself and partner with the truth of heaven for your life.
What is your broken heart like and where is it leading you?
Is it leading you into fullness, into abundance, into goodness, even when it's hard you all?
Just recently, um, you know, sometimes there's things happening in the physical world that
are hard and bad.
Sometimes there are things that happen in the inner world, right?
That are hard and bad.
Just recently when the hurricane was coming here, I live in Florida.
I feel like I gained a better understanding of how to navigate hard situations, but to
have hope and life and joy in the midst of it.
Y'all, we can lean into our true identity in the midst of hard situations.
Does that mean we won't struggle?
No, of course I, I battled anxiety.
I battled fear, but God can help us overcome that stuff.
But here's the key.
It's not the identity that we currently have.
It's not the identity that we think we are.
It is actually God's true identity for you.
And what that means is when he originally created you.
Like when God had the idea of you in his mind, which was good, he said, he fearfully
and wonderfully made us like we're good.
He didn't think anything was broken or missing or lacking, and he formed us and he had this
idea of everything that we would, would go and do in the world.
But then trauma and wounds and sin enters the picture.
And so God's goal through his loving kindness is to always lead us to that original design.
That original design that was set up for us to live the best life that he had for us.
I want you to think about the book talks a little bit about this.
If y'all aren't there yet, it's okay, but I wanted just to just draw this out tonight.
It is called the Lord of the Flies.
If you don't know, that's a nickname for Satan, the devil, Beezlebub, the Lord of the
flies.
And it's talking about what happens when flies lay eggs.
And so I'm just going to read this little blurb and then we're going to go into the
rest of this.
It says what flies do is they find an unhealed wound, a sore or someplace of decomposition,
and they lay their eggs inside of this place.
They do this.
So when the eggs hatch, the larvae will have an unlimited food source.
These unhealed heart wounds, traumas, and rejections become an ideal place for the enemy
to sow his seeds, which are the lies because our hearts are fertile wounds, remember?
And anything that gets in there reproduces.
So I want to ask you right now, just to be really honest with yourself, you don't have
to put anything in the chat, but if you have pen and paper, I want you just to write down
like is like, what's getting reproduced from your heart?
Like what's the first thought that comes and it's okay if some of you all are maybe further
in the course and you might feel like there's good stuff coming out of there, but if some
of you are like, yeah, like even today, man, I was angry or I felt bitter.
I felt resentful, whatever.
Maybe you felt great, but I'm just saying, just be honest with what is coming out of
your heart in this season right now, okay?
When we're fully honest with ourselves, y'all, that's a great starting place for healing.
It really, really is.
The broken heart is three things.
It's a liar, a puzzle, and a pretender.
We started talking about the lies already.
It's full of lies.
Why?
As this even described, when we go through trauma and wounds, the enemy comes in and
plants lies in there in those sore places, in those painful places to cause them to grow
because our defenses are down and a lot of times when we're going through trauma or wounds,
it can be tougher, not impossible, but tougher to hold fast to the truth, okay?
The puzzle is like all the areas that feel messed up in our hearts.
Have you ever felt like, man, this is just a jumble mess?
Maybe in your mind, but really your mind and your heart are connected, y'all.
Did you know that?
Like there's a direct connection there.
Out of the overflow of our hearts, our mouth speaks and also our mind thinks.
So what's going on in your heart?
Our heart that's the puzzle also sometimes tells us that we want things that we don't
really want.
Well, what does that look like?
Well, sometimes it's food when we don't really need it.
Sometimes it's sexual stuff that we don't need to.
do and we always feel yucky afterwards, but our flesh is telling us we'll feel better if we do
this thing. Maybe it's gossiping, maybe it's lying, maybe it's deceiving someone in some way.
Maybe it's, I don't know, I'm trying to think of different types of messes. Financial,
we keep doing the same financial things. As we go on, the pretender typically does a couple
different things. And this again is your broken heart in ways that it shows up
for those that have just joined us. It is a mask. Have y'all ever had like, I mean, we have
Halloween coming up. We just did a fall festival here. I saw a lot of kids walking around with
mask on and you couldn't even see their face like at all, some of the kids.
And so I want you to think about the fact that sometimes when your broken heart causes you to
pretend, you're putting up a mask and you're not really letting anyone see who you really are.
Because you're afraid somewhere deep down in that if they really see who you are,
that they will not accept you, love you, whatever, fill in the blank. Sometimes the pretender,
you'll want expensive things, status symbols. I brought this up earlier today and I think this
is important as well. The flip side of that in our church culture, people, how did I say it today?
Think it's holy to have clothes with holes and holy things. Like we have to be these martyrs and
it's bad if we want something nice. I want you to have balance in this area in your life.
It's okay to want and have nice things, but it's also healthy and good
to not get caught up in those things and have balance and let those things dictate our lives.
Because sometimes y'all, God's going to nudge you instead of buying things for yourself to buy
groceries for a mom that's single and she can't afford them or an orphan. God's heart is crying
out in this season, in this society. He's always been crying out for us to care for orphans and
widows and it should disturb us. It should. And so we need to be open and balanced in those ways, okay?
All right. It can cause us to also live below our true identity. Jeremiah 17, 9 says this,
the heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked. So who can even know it?
Did you know that we don't even really fully know our own hearts sometimes?
Y'all, as I've gone through this process, I've been coaching for years doing this. It's been amazing.
I went through bootcamp. That's what we used to call it, uh, several years ago. And on my journey,
I remember this one, and I'm not going to go into the memory, but this one memory in particular,
like one day percolated to the surface. And I was like, man, I didn't even know that was in there.
You know, like sometimes y'all are going to have that happen and you're just kind of like, well,
what, what does that have to do with anything? Sometimes you're, you're even going to be like,
you're even going to be like, well, I don't even think I was upset about that.
But if it's coming to the surface, God's trying to show you something through it. That memory may
lead you to another memory. Okay. So be, be really good at asking God good questions in this journey.
God knows your heart better than you do. Proverbs 4, 23 says this, keep your heart
with all vigilance for from it flows the springs of life. Our hearts are also very impressionable
ladies. Okay. So I want you to think about how often you have been easily and like impressed.
Like what I mean by that is as soon as someone said something a certain way, you changed your
behavior to accommodate. One of the ways this showed up in my life is when I was dating the
girl's spirit, uh, my spiritual daughter's dad, um, early on, I wanted to be the cool girlfriend.
I was trying to impress him and his friend showed up, we were out to dinner and his friend showed
up at this one place. They had like DJ and music and all that. And I love to dance and,
but his friend was out on the dance floor. I knew his friend had a girlfriend,
but his friend was out on the dance floor with another girl. And it was really bothering me
that, okay, wait a minute, this guy that I like, this is his friend. And these are the
friends he hangs out with without sounding judgy. I just, it fell off, but I didn't say anything.
Cause I wanted to be the cool girlfriend and I didn't, I wanted to just be cool with whatever
was going on. And so I allowed my heart to be impressionable, if you will, in that moment.
And I, you know, still to this day, um, just that's a decision. I wish I wouldn't have gone
that direction. I wish I would have said what I really thought and felt. Another thing is also
when we go.
through great pressure. If you think about like, sometimes we'll go through things and we just feel
like, you know, that someone's putting their thumb down on us, that pressure that we feel,
the pressure of the world. Um, so even with the enemy, you know, when he's applying pressure in
a negative way to your life, what is it causing to have happen in your heart? Like what's going
on in there when you're going through that, here are some lies you guys might hear more,
but these are just some that I want to go through really quickly tonight to start to get you kind
of thinking and stirred up in your spirit, in a sense for this stuff to come out for you. So as
I'm, as I'm saying these, if you resonate in any way, even if it's not this exact way that I say
it, but something else comes to mind, I want you to write those on your paper. Okay. Or in your
phone, if you don't have paper. So just, just note it somewhere. Cause I want you to remember,
so you can process this out later with the Lord lie. Number one, you, and this is if the Lord is
not the Lord, excuse me. Oh my gosh, we're talking lies. So it has to be the enemy. He's the
father of lies. So this is if the enemy is saying this to you in some way, shape or form,
you are insignificant. Here's the definition definition of insignificant, not significant,
lacking meaning, not worth considering you are unimportant.
Have you ever heard the enemy say to you through someone that you are insignificant?
I want you to think about that. Did anyone in your life ever tell you that you weren't important?
Those are the kinds of things you want to talk to the Lord about. Here's lie. Number two,
you don't matter. Your voice doesn't matter. Your thoughts don't matter.
Lie number three, you should be seen and not heard. Lie number four, you are not enough.
The flip side of that, that a lot of people hear is you're too much. You're too much. You're,
you're just too much. Sometimes too, this is coming up in my spirit. You're too sensitive.
Why are you always crying? Stop that crying. It all goes along with all those things. You all,
here's another one. Your opinion doesn't matter. Number six, you're always going to have to beg.
And the reason I wrote this down is there's a lot of people that have a lot of scarcity
mindsets, orphan mentalities, limiting belief systems that come out of years of seeing
other people struggle. Uh, and not just financially, you all, this is like an
internal belief system where you think there's not enough for you enough, good men,
enough clothes, enough money, enough food, um, enough friends. If we go through something and
we, of course, it's hard to lose a friend, but why can't we move forward and embrace a new friend?
A new friend. But so many of us shift into isolation, withdrawal, and destruction,
destructive behaviors. So are there any areas in your life right now where you're begging?
You feel like you're on the outside and they're like, you just can't get to what God has for you.
And you believe the lie that there are no good men, that there are no good people
and that you are always going to struggle.
Lie number seven, if they really knew me, they wouldn't accept me, love me, or choose me.
Another one that I said this afternoon that I think is really relevant and y'all can
apply this in different ways. But one of the things is a lot of people will say, I,
I don't think there's any men who will not just love me, but also love my kids.
I hear a lot of single moms say that. Single dads believe it too. Y'all, a lot of the men,
you guys don't realize they actually struggle with very similar lies that just shows up
differently for them. But I want to encourage you that there are men out there that will not
only love you completely, but they're going to love your kids. They are because God is preparing
them and calling them to do so. And I can say this because I have been one of those moms.
I've never had a biological child yet of my own, but I have loved every child that God has brought
into my life as mine. Even when it's like Brian's girls are pretty much adults when I, when I came
into his life and, you know, so it's a little different, but I love them. I accept them,
you know, welcome them into my home and love on them. Every chance we get,
you can find a man that will do the same too. And you don't have to feel like he's going to be put
out to do so. So basically ladies, what I'm saying is you don't have to settle for scraps
because
you're a single mama, or you're divorced, or you've been married before, or never married,
whatever the scenario is, you all don't have to settle for less than God's best.
All of the lies that I shared with you before I shared the single mom one, that one can
go into this category too, but all of those lies point to low self-esteem, to not understanding
our value or worth, or those pauper orphan mentalities and limiting belief systems.
All of those lies fall under those kind of categories.
Here are some truths I want to read over you through scripture.
Proverbs 12 49 says, a wife of noble characters or husband's crown.
So do you believe that you are your husband's crown?
Just be honest with yourself.
And if you don't, I want to encourage you to ask the Lord, like, why don't I believe
that?
Like what needs healed in me so that I believe I'm a blessing to my spirit mate in every
way.
Ephesians 1 5 in love, he predestined us for adoption to sonship through Jesus Christ in
accordance with his pleasure and will.
Isaiah 43 4 says, since you are precious and honored in my sight, this is God talking.
And because I love you, I will give people in exchange for you and nations in exchange
for your life.
Luke 12 7 says, indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
Don't be afraid.
You are worth more than sparrows.
All right.
So breakout session number one, what lie had, this is the question for those of you joining
us live tonight.
I almost forgot.
Not everybody knows what we're doing.
So I'm going to open up breakout rooms here in a minute, there'll be a thing that is going
to come up on the screen.
You're going to click to join that breakout room.
It'll take you right in there.
You're going to meet some amazing women.
Some of you, you'll meet people you've never met before when I encourage you to not shut
down or, or leave the live session because we're doing breakouts.
This is the time to lean in and make some new friends.
And nobody has to fix anybody.
If y'all don't know, we take all you all take all your coaching hats off advice, giving
hats.
You don't have to do any of that here.
It's just everybody comes and shares, cheer each other on.
And then we come back together.
So when you go in there, this is your question.
What lie have you been believing that you need to invite God into tonight so that he
can begin to heal you?
What lie have you been believing that you need to invite God into tonight so that he
can begin to heal you?
All right, let me set these up for you.
If anybody's at work and you're not able to join breakout, can you put that in the chat
for me?
Just because now don't everybody that's just nervous to go into breakout, do that.
This is really just for people that aren't able to join so that I know, because when
I do these breakout rooms, I might have to move people around.
Okay, I'm going to give you all, um, eight minutes on this first one to talk about it.
That should be about two minutes for everybody.
So keep it short, brief and powerful ladies.
Okay, here you go.
All right, Melissa, thank you for letting me know.
We're going to be praying for you all while you're in there.
All right, ladies, go ahead and keep clicking to join.
If you see that there, sometimes too, if you click on the bottom, um, if you guys don't
see it, like Naomi or anyone else that is wanting to join, if you click on the more
button and breakouts, it won't, it should show that room to join again and then, okay.
Totally fine.
Um, Megan.
Totally fine.
Okay.
So I think all of you that are here with me are going to hang out here.
Okay, cool.
All right.
Father, just thank you so much for everything you're doing tonight.
We thank you God for the revealing, for healings that are already happening.
Lord, we just ask you to come into these zoom rooms as well as even in this main room while
people are listening in from work and help them to hear what your spirit is saying louder
than any voice of the enemy.
We thank you that you are Lord helping them to draw a little bit closer to you, to come
out of alignment with the lies that the enemy sewed into their life when they experienced
trauma and pain.
And we thank you God that you're just coming in and placing the balm of Gilead upon those
places tonight.
We just thank you for healing oil flowing from heaven.
over every mind, body, soul, spirit, wills, emotions.
God, yes, you care even about our emotions
and I thank you, God, that you want to heal our emotions
and our mental status.
Hi, Rebecca, we are talking about
in the breakout room right now,
what lie, where's the questions, I'm sorry.
What lie have you been believing
that you need to invite God into to heal tonight?
And so, oh, that's totally fine.
You're right on time.
I'm gonna go ahead and put you in a breakout though
so that you can have time to connect with the ladies.
So that is there for you.
All right, awesome.
So we just thank you that healing oil
is flowing from heaven,
that it's going over every part of us.
We thank you that you're healing our minds
in the way that we think.
God, I pray that you would reveal
any limiting belief systems that we've grown up under,
that we've adopted even through the lies of the enemy.
God, and what those are is just ways
that don't align with heaven,
mindsets that we live under
that do not connect and align with the kingdom.
So if we want to know what the kingdom looks like,
we can look at Jesus.
So I pray that you give us a deeper revelation
of who Jesus was, who Jesus is,
and all that you, Lord, sent him to do
and all that he chose to come and do on our behalf.
We thank you that, Jesus, you came and you died.
You allowed your body to be broken
and your blood to be shed for the forgiveness of our sins,
for our healing, for our redemption,
but also to make a way for us to be one with you
as you are one with the Father.
And I thank you that you went back up to heaven
so that the Holy Spirit would come.
So thank you for being here, Holy Spirit.
We thank you for weaving in and out of conversations
and bringing illumination and truth,
for comforting and guiding each one of those
here tonight into the fullness of the truth of the Father.
In Jesus' name, oh, there was someone new
that joined us there and she just dropped off.
So Father, we just thank you also for helping us, Lord,
to know what the next best step is each day
in this week ahead, that you would help the ladies
to see all the ways that you create beauty out of ashes.
And Lord, we just come against any spirit of overwhelm,
any spirit of fatigue, any spirits of unbelief,
doubt, fear, anxiety, panic, in Jesus' name
and by the power of your blood, Jesus,
and we lose the spirit of love and of power
and of a sound mind.
We thank you that we will be women
that are marked by your presence, Jesus.
We thank you that the same power
that rose you from the dead is living in us
for those that believe in Jesus Christ
as our Lord and Savior, that it's living in us,
that it's operating through us
so every day we can tap into the power of your presence.
Help us, Jesus, to know what that can look like
and how we can walk that out.
I thank you that even in Luke 8, 17 through 19,
it says this, because this revelation lamp now shines
within you, nothing will be hidden from you.
It will all be revealed.
Every secret of the kingdom will be unveiled
and out in the open made known by the revelation light.
So pay careful attention to your hearts
as you hear my teaching,
for to those who have open hearts,
even more revelation will be given to them
until it overflows.
And for those who do not listen with open hearts,
what little light they imagine to have will be taken away.
So Lord, we thank you for open hearts,
minds, bodies, spirits, and souls,
open to you, open to your goodness, open to your healing.
We ask you to remove any stony, hardened places
of our hearts that have happened and occurred
through trauma, that you would remove those places
and put in them places that are fleshly,
that are soft and pliable to you.
We thank you, Lord, that we will hear your knocking
on the door of our hearts and we will open
and allow you to enter into every place of our hearts
that are needed, that we will remove any do not enter signs
and trust, God, that you are good
and you have good things for us.
I just pray even right now, your word declares, Lord,
that you are close to the broken hearted
and those who are crushed in spirit.
So Lord, any ladies that are in this group,
maybe even those coming in new this week,
Lord, if any of them are crushed in spirit,
God, I thank you that you would lift them up.
I thank you, God, that when we are weak, you are strong
and that you carry us, you carry us through
and we can rely on you.
I thank you that you're not a man that you should lie
and you're not like man in the way that they let us down.
So Lord, I thank you that you'll help us
have a fresh revelation of who you are as a God of love,
as a faithful God, as a good God.
That is part of your character and you cannot deny yourself.
Yes, Lord. Let's see. Psalm 119, 165 in the Passion Translation says this.
There is such a great peace and well-being that comes to the lovers of your word and they will never be offended.
Man, that's a good word.
Lord, I pray right now tonight that you would help us to be daughters that are not easily offended,
that we would not partner with angry outbursts, lack of self-control in our behaviors,
our attitudes, our mindsets, even when the enemy tries to tempt us to go into drama.
Lord, I thank you that we will resist and turn towards healthy things instead.
God, that we will choose to stay alert, as 1 Peter 5, 8 says, and watch out for our great enemy, the devil.
He prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
But I thank you, God, that you gave us the armor that we can dress in your armor every day,
that belt of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, the shoes of the readiness of the gospel of peace,
the helmet of salvation, the shield of faith, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
We thank you, God, that when we put this armor on, we are choosing every single day to put you on,
to clothe ourselves with who you are, God.
And I just thank you that you cover every pit the enemy has set for our destruction,
and you help us to leap over those instead.
The ladies are starting to come back, you all.
As they do, I'm going to tell a quick little story.
They can go back and listen to it on replay.
This came to mind as I was praying.
You all, the enemy is going to try to send on your journey at different points in your life distractions in all kinds of forms.
And one of the distractions that he's been sending my way lately, and I just felt led to share this, is drama.
Can anybody say drama, drama, drama?
The enemy loves drama.
And I don't.
I don't like drama.
But it's been funny, and not like a ha-ha funny, but I've been kind of catching on.
And even tonight, it was so good.
I asked my husband his opinion on something, and he's like, you know, you don't got to reply to that.
He's like, because you don't have to get caught up in that drama with another person.
And I was like, you're right.
I don't.
Here's the thing.
Here's why I'm sharing this with you all.
This is someone that I've known for years, and I do care about them.
But they tend to struggle with the same patterns over and over and over again.
And I tend to find myself spending way too much time trying to help them get out of this place.
And they're still, many years later, in the similar places.
And I just can't spend energy on that anymore.
Y'all, I love this person a lot.
But I need to conserve my energy.
Like, this happened literally at 630.
And so it was really good.
It was a good check with my husband.
Like, okay, yeah, I don't need to get caught up with that.
I need to go listen to worship music and get my heart kind of in a cool place before I go live tonight.
I don't need to get caught up in someone's drama.
So I feel like I'm sharing this for someone tonight.
Because I wasn't planning on sharing that at all.
Some of you all, you're kind of like drama magnets.
And I say that not because I think you mean to be, but because the enemy is sending it your way.
But it's time for you to set healthy boundaries.
It's time for you to protect your house.
And not just your physical house.
I'm talking about your heart.
I feel the Holy Spirit on this.
Some of you all don't have any white space in your calendar.
You don't have any white space in your heart.
You feel just torn.
Like you're just going, going, going, going, going constantly.
And some of the going is you're so busy helping everybody else that you don't even have time to help yourself.
And so you might find yourself struggling to focus on the course in the next few days, weeks ahead.
Because somebody is going to call you.
I'm claiming this right now.
Somebody is going to get a phone call.
And there's going to be all kinds of drama attached to it.
Because the enemy wants you to get stuck on that instead of focusing on your own heart healing and work.
I want to encourage you, don't take the bait.
Don't take the bait.
You can love them and keep moving forward.
And you don't have to be the one to solve their problem.
Okay?
Did you all know that we don't have to be ambulance workers?
I'm kind of making light of this, but this is the truth.
Some of us don't have to be ambulance workers.
Us who are big givers, every time the ambulance siren rings, so to speak, and with these people
that have a lot of drama that we surround ourselves with, we feel like we have to be
the ones to help them.
And we don't.
Okay?
Sometimes, some of the best things we could ever do is to love those people and release
them.
It doesn't mean you can't be friends with them, but you just don't invest as much time
and space in them.
Okay?
All right.
Didn't plan on saying that, but I feel like that's a part of what we're doing tonight.
So some of y'all might need to really pray about some of your friendships and people
that are kind of sucking some life out of you in this season.
Okay?
All right.
So who is willing to share with the whole group what you shared in your private breakout
group?
It typically takes one to get us going.
So who will raise their hand as tribute and go first?
All right.
Okay.
Awesome.
Mackenzie.
And then I think I saw Rebecca raise her hand, too.
All right.
So you can go after Mackenzie, Rebecca.
I shared in my group today that I have always struggled in seasons with friendships.
My mom always was like, seasons are with friends.
And I was sad because that meant that those seasons had to end.
And so I dealt with a lot of abandonment issues when it comes to that.
And I have this friend in my life now who has just been such an, I feel so blessed to
be her friend.
And there is this element of every conversation is iron sharpening iron, and it is the most
encouraging relationship I have ever been in.
Because I am a person who ends up pouring and mentoring a lot of people, just being
honest.
And so I'm like afraid of, there's like a scarcity aspect of losing that friendship.
And so I don't know the exact like sentence or the exact lie that it is right now, but
there is an element of scarcity there that I'm trying to enjoy the friendship for however
long it is, and just thank the Lord for it.
But I'm trying to figure out and seek the Lord for the exact like lie that I'm believing
there.
Yeah.
And something I feel led to share with you, and I don't know if this will resonate for
you or anyone else, Mackenzie, but one of the things I also found, I went through something
like this recently.
And I shared on this, I don't know, maybe a month or two ago, this friendship that's
been changing.
And y'all, do y'all know that sometimes friends can ghost us?
It's like a thing now.
But anyways, I have been processing this friendship that has changed myself.
And one of the things God showed me, this was a huge kind of like, oh, so I'm really
big on like, I don't have a lot of like closeness with my biological family because all the
trauma and I, you know, I've done a lot of work and I love on them when God leads me
to, but they were at toxic levels that it just wasn't safe for me to stay around them.
And so a lot of my family are my friends.
And now with my husband, you know, him and his mom and his sisters as well.
And my, you know, I have cousins and whatnot, but the people that I'm really close to that
I consider family are my friends.
And so when I say that I feel like, hey, you're like family to me, like I mean it, right?
And so what God showed me is that because my family abandoned me and I considered some
of these people like family, when they treat me like my biological family and they, in
my mind, abandoned me, that's when I get tripped up with rejection or, you know, the enemy
lies to me about like, you know, that friendship or what it needs to look like, or all these
things that, you know, that scarcity stuff you're talking about.
And God's really been showing me, even as you were talking, I teach this in leadership
and I need to remember and remind myself, even in my spirit on the hard days of this,
but like when we are leading with people, I always encourage people to like keep open
hands, like even in our staff, with our church and like that we would hold people with open
hands.
And so I encourage all of you to think like this, and what does that mean?
That means that no one belongs to us, no one.
But if we trust God and we put them like in God's hands and we just, we just hold them
open handed, that people can go in seasons and go.
do their thing and come back and it doesn't mean that we have to try to grip and hold on to them
because if genuinely even when it's hard you all if God is moving a friend out of our life that
used to be it doesn't mean that we're never going to talk to them again but they're maybe just not
in that inner circle if God is moving them out guess what that means it means he's ready to
move someone else in that needs to be there in this season but if we grip and hold on same thing
with unhealthy relationships some of y'all need to let go of these guys keep just oh yep texting
late at night buzzing back in but they're not healthy but we're hanging on to them why because
we're afraid if we let go of that well what if nothing else comes right so we got to really
learn how to lord i trust you like god okay here mckenzie even this that was a struggle for you in
the past but now you've got this amazing friend and God brought her into your life so can he do
it again 100 you all he can he can do it again thank you for sharing that that's super real
a lot of people struggle myself included with like the ebbs and flows of friendships and
relationships and when they come in and when they go out and it's it's not it's not always easy and
it's not always cut and dry right um but what i love about what you shared is that you're already
being honest with yourself about how you're feeling and when you do that and you give that to
the lord and ask him to reveal any lies that might be still attached to that scarcity feeling then he
can heal that those parts of your heart and really help you and who knows this might be a friend for
your whole life so maybe not let's worry about what if they leave right what if they stay what
if they stay all right so good uh let's see uh it was going to be rebecca rebecca go ahead and then
i'll come up to sarah hi okay so this is the first time and i'm hoping i remember because i have kind
of brain trauma that gives me swiss cheese memory of what i just said so um basically my my issue
or lie or whatever um i was listening to the hope um video uh last night in fact and i have a
tendency i know this is my battle a big one um is that i god will has given me a promise and he's
consistently on a regular basis confirmed it time and time again for like the last year and a half
i don't want to speak it um so it's personal um and but i will have a tendency to
um gaslight myself and so even after confirmation that brings me joy and gives me hope i will look
for or i will start to doubt or i will um hone in on something that is negative to confirm that the
other shoe will drop or that it may not happen or that i hold it very loosely like you say
and the fact that okay i hope that happens but i have to leave room for the fact that it may not
and i'm going to be disappointed or crushed or um and that kind of thing and so even like when i
watched the video great great great great great got to prayer and then she got to the point where
she said something of you know god take away the prompt the promises we thought were from you but
aren't and and really were from ourselves or something like that i'm paraphrasing to some
kind of extent and i mean i just froze and went oh my god is that what's happened this last year
and a half is that promise really not mine and and have i made that up and da da da da and then i had
it balloons it and i have to go through all this mental unpacking to bring back and eventually
what what actually ends up happening often is god will reconfirm it and it's just it's a mental
battle i'm really not i get very ashamed with because i feel like i'm um i i go lord i don't
want to be that double-minded it says double-mindedness gets you nothing and i feel like i'm
being double-minded all the time with that so then i kind of do a little bit of that uh beating up
of that um i'm gonna have you i'm gonna have you pause just for a second
no you're not okay so really important y'all if i ever stop y'all it's because i already know
something we need to kind of hone in on in what you're sharing so to coach you and help you don't
ever feel like you have to apologize no one like i just want you to just uh trust that if i jump in
it's because i already feel the presence on something and i want to i want to go with that
because that's what god's highlighting to me um so please don't ever take that personal all right
so when you said about the other shoe dropping
I question for you is this, when is a time in your life
that you went through something and the other shoe dropped
and it didn't turn out well?
Only one?
I mean, what comes to mind as the...
The consistent theme throughout my life.
But the most recent was I was in a 23-year-old marriage
with a man who was chronically ill.
I was his caretaker and he died January of 2023.
And he did so kind of event...
He did it by his own hand in the fact
that he had a chronic illness he never took care of
and I was the caretaker and he was...
And then I had all this promise and belief
that he was going to get well
and that he was going to...
It was gonna turn out better than it did.
And it never did.
And...
When was the first time that you felt
like the other shoe dropped?
The first time that you can remember before that.
You said this has been a consistent theme in your life.
Do you remember the first?
Yeah, I come from a lot of trauma and drama.
And so it would have to be...
There was absolutely zero stability in my home
and I was always the one who was put in charge
of taking care of everybody else.
So it started very, very young, very, very young,
five, six years old young.
And then every time I would try to go
and something good would happen,
I got...
I was a professional singer when I was young
and I got offers and then trauma would happen in my family
and I'd have to give it all up and move forward.
So, I mean, it's just pretty a consistent theme, honestly.
Yeah, and here's the reason I asked that
and that's helpful.
Some of you guys are gonna have consistent themes
that have been your theme in your life up to this point.
And some of you guys are gonna have different themes
and you're gonna have different areas.
And sometimes I'm gonna ask questions
because I wanna get more information to coach you
from a little bit better, fuller perspective.
Because I can come in and I can coach
and I can give you insight and it could be totally off
if I'm not asking for more information.
And so one of the things that's super important
and the reason I said, some of y'all have themes
that have been a part of your life until now.
I did that intentionally.
Because I believe that you can experience
supernatural healing so much to the point
that you can break the cycle in this course and beyond.
I think some of you will take more time than others
because of how much you've been through.
Rebecca, on that, I wanna encourage you this week.
While your husband and the situation with him came up first,
I actually think the stuff from when you were younger,
specifically, you mentioned the professional singing.
Let's start there.
You were gonna be a professional singer
or had that opportunity and then a trauma happened
and that was taken away, okay?
I want you to ask the Lord to help you know
like what is the lie you believed in that situation
but here's the other side.
I want you to ask God to show you
what does he want you to know about the situation?
What was Jesus saying to you when that happened?
Because y'all, here's the reality.
Whether we realize it or believe it or not,
the Bible says that God never leaves us, ever.
So everything that we go through and have gone through,
I feel the Holy Spirit on this, he was with us.
And so I want you to ask Jesus to reveal himself
in that situation and help you to hear
what his spirit wants you to know about it.
And then come in the group and post and tell us what,
and it might take you a little while to hear that, okay?
So don't put pressure on yourself,
just journal about it and see what he shows you
because we need Jesus, the light of the world,
to bring illumination and light into those situations.
And let's start with that one
and then see where God leads you from there, okay?
Singing?
Sure, that was one of the things you mentioned.
So we just start with what comes up
and this is where it's really important.
I think I said this last week, you all,
when I coach, I talk about pulling the thread.
And what I mean by that is you're gonna,
whatever percolates to the surface.
So when I asked you tonight, what was the first time
and you were sharing, you're like a lot of different things,
but the one you actually gave form to
was that opportunity to be a professional singer
and that got taken from you.
And so to me, pull the thread means start there,
let God come in and heal that situation.
then maybe most likely, I mean, this is what typically happens.
The next thing will get revealed to you in that process, because
there's probably a lot more under that, but we also don't go
digging. So we trust the Holy spirit with what he's revealing
for healing. And we go there. Does that make sense? Everyone?
Okay, awesome. Thank you for your share. So courageous. I
appreciate you. All right, Sarah, go ahead.
Um, one of the ones that's come up for me, that God's revealed
to me since I've started this program is thinking that I'm not
good enough, and that that's why he's not doing things for me.
And that's, that's not something I realized that I believed
before. And then another pretty consistent lie that I've
believed throughout my life is that I'm insignificant. And I
think, um, like thinking about it right now, I see that theme
kind of like, throughout my life, like when I was, I guess
when I was younger, and my mom's emotions were frequently out of
control. And so I would, I don't know, I was just thinking about
this right now, I wondering where that came from. And I, I
think about back then and how I would kind of try to stay under
the radar and just like, not be seen so that I wouldn't stir up
anything unnecessary. And I feel like maybe that's carried over
still today. And that because people don't see me, then I feel
like I'm not there, like I'm invisible, and, and not
significant.
Yeah, here's, here's something that as you were saying that, I
also think part of this in you, when I say this, please know
that I don't think you did it intentionally. But
subconsciously, you're also have in your life chosen to not
be seen in certain ways. And one of them started when you just
described that situation. And it's it typically is probably
showing up in your life at times where you feel fear. You
described like your mom would have these emotional situations
that were out of control. And so you would hide to stay under the
radar. That's kind of what you explained to us. And so what I
imagine is because that started so young, this, that's a self
preservation technique, by the way, your body and your mind was
doing something to protect you. But what can happen is when
those place those things happen, we can then live into that, even
as we're adults. So if at any time you feel fear, even if
you're trying to interact in a relationship or a friendship or
a work situation, is if that pressure or something emotional
that feels too much, you might find yourself it might not look
the same as like when you hit as a kid, but maybe it's pulling
back, withdrawing, maybe not going out in public as much. It
can be all kinds of things. So I want you to pray you're on a
really good path. I think stuff is already like percolating to
the surface with you regarding this stuff with your mom. But
the other thing as well. It was interesting, you said, the lie
that you believe is not good enough, and that that is why
God's not doing good things for you. And so my, my question was
going to be for you. Like, who told you you weren't good
enough, like in real life? Like, was there someone that ever said
that? Because you, you know, and again, you all parents say
things sometimes we like, they don't mean it. And but then if
they don't apologize for their mistakes, that wound tends to
stay there. But I just in my spirit, imagine someone saying
because you did this, you're not getting this, but that that was
a, was that a frequent thing in your life where people withheld
things that were good from you? For any reason, whether you
misbehaved or not, but it felt like you were getting those
things held back from you?
Um, I don't remember that specifically. But I just, I
growing up, my mom was very critical of, of me and
everything that I did. So I think that probably over time
just caused me to feel like nothing I do is ever like
enough, like, yeah, like there's something wrong with me.
Am I losing her? Am I the only one that lost her there? Or did
you all lose me?
Can you hear me?
Okay, I can hear you. Now. I think we lost you there for a
little bit. But I think I think I have enough to kind of coach
you on this. One, one of the things I want you to pray still
into the thing with your mom that's coming up. And
specifically, when her emotions were out of control, and you
started to hide to prevent being seen or disruptive or whatever
verbiage you were using there, and ask the Lord to reveal those
areas for
link this, this next week that are all surrounding that and any other lies.
So the lie might be insignificant, um, not getting up, but there might be
some other ones that are hanging like outliers.
That's what I'm going to call them.
They're connected, but they're kind of outliers.
And so they might not be as obvious.
Um, and we're going to do, um, your activation y'all this week is going to
help that'll partner really well.
Um, Sarah, with what I was just saying, I do want you to write down the things,
but I never want you all to stay in a negative place.
Okay.
We're always going to try to bring the truth and the positive to any negative
that we write down and acknowledge about the lies that we're experiencing.
But I want you to start at least there where you're starting to identify.
Um, and I do want you to just to pray and ask the Lord if there are any areas
where in, in the day to day, where maybe you're not sometimes showing
up the way you want to show up.
Does that make sense?
Like you want to be a certain way, but you hold back parts of yourself.
That's and again, I don't know if that's resonating, but that's just kind of what
was coming up in my spirit for you.
Um, so I'm going to take Camilla and then, um, Anna, I'm going to probably
come back and have you share if we have time at the end, cause I need, need to
go through the additional content as well.
Um, because it's going to be really important for, for a lot of you.
Okay.
Um, Camilla.
Yeah.
So when you were reading the list of lies, one really stood out to me in
was the scarcity orphan mentality that says like that I'm not enough, that I'm
always going to be begging that I'm always going to be struggling in, especially
today, something happened in my day that really hit me and I didn't see it coming.
And that was a really strong, I thought I would, I was not even going to be able
to be here tonight because I was just crying uncontrollably and, um, I feel
like I just have to break this cycle, you know, of scarcity, like people around me
say, Camilla, you know, I don't want to sound proud.
I'm just sharing like honest here.
Like people tell me like, Oh, Camilla, I see so many potential potential in you
and you're this and that, and they see like greatness, but I like, God, I don't
know how to break this cycle of scarcity.
You know, like, I don't know how to break through this, you know, like
financially and also, um, like emotionally, you know, like thinking like there's
no good man out there anymore, like in my church, like there's just couple people
and couple married couples and.
With teenagers.
So like, I'm like, there's no guy out there left, you know, like good guys of
character and Christian single, you know?
Yeah.
So, yeah.
So ladies, this, the key to this truly is growing in your identity.
And one of the ways you're going to keep growing, you're already on a good star.
I mean, I've been so blessed by your activations and you're, you're doing the
work, the enemy's just trying to discourage you, you know?
I mean, he's trying to discourage you.
You're making a lot of great progress.
You're going to learn through this and grow through this situation
that happened today as well.
I don't think it's a coincidence that I talked about the scarcity mindset
tonight, um, but I want to encourage you, um, keep asking God to show you, excuse
me, who he is more.
And the more that you get to know God's character, the more that he's going to
keep showing you your identity in him.
Does that make sense?
Yes.
Yeah.
So, and, and with that, again, the activation, I think you guys are going to
really like the activation that we're going to do this week.
It's going to help what I'm talking to you about right now as well.
Um, because we're going to be asking God to show you all stuff about your identity.
It's going to be good.
All right.
So I'm going to segue into our content because it ties into what
you muted Bethany.
Sorry.
I don't know why I just muted myself.
I'm going to segue into the content because it's really good transition with
what we were just talking about right there.
So we're going to start talking about the real you like, who is the real you?
We talked a little bit earlier about your true identity.
Um, that is your God given identity.
And, and a lot of us don't really know that to the fullness that we could know it.
One of the stories I tell a lot is, um, and I'm going to paraphrase this.
You also, please don't hold me to like how the scriptures quoted, but in Genesis,
you know, after Adam and Eve, um, eight of the fruit and they realized they were
naked, they started finding things to cover themselves and they went into
hiding.
Interesting that we were talking about hiding tonight too.
Um, a little bit, but when God came back in, um, he's looking for them and he's
like, where are you?
And you know, they come out and basically God ends up asking them and like so many
words, like who told you that you were naked?
Like, cause they were now covered.
And the reason they covered themselves was because now they knew they were naked.
So my question to you is this, who told you that you were naked?
And what I mean by that is like, who told you that you weren't smart?
Who told you that you were fat or that you were too skinny or that you couldn't keep
a husband?
Who told you that you're, um, I'm just saying things that are coming up in my spirit that
your nose looked funny.
Who told you that you would never be able to grow financially?
Who told you that you would never be able to, um, accomplish a degree?
Like there's so many different things you all that we lean into and we live our lives
because of these things that were said to us by other people and the enemy sent those
people to say those things, to crush us in such a way that we would not step into the
fullness of what God originally created us to do and to become.
So I don't know what your, who told you you were naked phrase, like whatever your thing
is, maybe it is like even Camille, like the enemy's trying to tell her she's never going
to break the cycle.
Like, where did that start?
You know?
So who was the one that originally told you that?
And I want you to kind of imagine if a building fell, crushed, crumbled to the ground and
all the rubble and the mess, imagine if you were spiritually laying underneath of that.
The Lord never intended for you to be up under the rubble and the mess that no matter what
we go through, the Bible says we will go through trials and tribulation, but we can overcome.
It also says that we are more than conquerors on our own.
I don't know, but through Christ Jesus, but so many times we're, we're trying to go it
alone and we're trying to go at it through these false identities that we're living into.
But did you know that you were created to be a supernova?
You were.
And some of you are like, man, I don't feel that special, but I'm here tonight to tell
you that you are genuinely God.
Mike was so excited the day that he was forming you and molding you and he was putting gifts
and talents and abilities into you and he was like, man, she's going to be amazing.
And I can't wait to release her into the world.
Whether your parents planned you or not, God always planned you and you are, you were his
good thought and you are his good thought.
That has not changed.
Romans 8, 37 through 39 says this, no, here's the scripture to support what I was saying.
In all these things, we are more than conquerors through him who loved us, for I am convinced
that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future
nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be
able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus, our Lord.
If God is for you, who and what can be against you?
If God is for you, who or what can be against you?
Who or what can be against his plan unfolding in your life?
Y'all, it's time.
It's time for you to continue to step into the fullness of the life God planned for you.
It's time for the princess on the inside of you, the royalty, the royal part of who
God created you to be, to rise up and awaken.
Ephesians 5, 14 says this, awake, awake, O sleeper, and rise up from the dead and Christ
will shine on you.
So how do we awaken?
Well, God is the one that awakens us, right?
Even in moments like tonight, some of you will leave tonight and you will be changed
forever.
You will.
Some of you will take steps towards that, but each one of you will, will go on the path
that you choose as well as the ones that God enables you to walk on.
But I want you to think of it like, like heaven comes down and kisses our life and awakens
us just like in the love stories, the little princess stories, right?
There's a prince.
God is the one awakening you to that true identity.
How many of you all, anyone ever seen the movie Wreck-It Ralph?
Anyone ever seen that?
Yeah, it's super cute.
And I won't spend a lot of time on this, but if you haven't seen it, I will, I would love
for y'all or even if you've seen it to watch it.
I don't want to give away too much, but there's this character in there that God really has
shown me this storyline as a good example for true identity that's always been there.
But sometimes things happen in life and
get a glitch. Penelope in the movie is like this little girl that's glitching and she's just like
this cute little adorable girl and Wreck-It Ralph meets her and at first it's like a one motive but
then he starts she grows on him and they start to become kind of like really good friends and
then as the story unfolds what ends up being found out is that there was this villain guy
okay so we're gonna pretend he's the devil this is my little scenario he took a part of Penelope
out of her this is like a a movie based on like a game so she had a chip that he removed
but imagine the same thing happened in your life at some point the enemy came and he
took a piece out and you've been glitching ever since and all that needs to happen and
i'm not trying to simplify this but like y'all the movie when that chip got put back in place
she even herself had forgotten who she was before that chip was taken out it's kind of incredible
but then when that chip chip got put back in she turns into the princess that she always was
there was never a time that she wasn't a princess
but she forgot who she was in her mind and some of you you've just forgotten who you are
you are becoming someone new every single day
so i believe god wants to help you become that princess that that person that does allow him to
put the royal robe on you and come into his family you're also going to awaken to restoration in your
life you're going to awaken to big bold future some of you guys are going to have quickened
dreams not just nighttime dreams daytime dreams but what i'm talking about tonight
are like childhood dreams things you always wanted to do but you've never done it one of you all i
was so excited on your activation you said i've been wanting to go to this place for years and i
finally went and it was beautiful and i'm sorry i don't remember who it was but it was beautiful
and i was so glad that you shared that with us but i felt so yes nicole i felt so excited
to see you and at the same moment i was thinking man why do we wait why do we go why do we wait
to go and do these things that we long to do live today ladies live today don't wait to live
tomorrow you're going to be able to do all kinds of amazing things with your spirit mate when they
come to but have fun today live today awaken to your life now practice living because you know
what your spirit mate and men that are healthy guess what ladies they're attracted to people
who can have fun and are lively and live life they are okay here's your breakout question
in what ways does the enemy challenge the real you does he tend to use comparison competition
or imitation or maybe he uses all of them but what does he tend to use with you and how does
this show up in your life like what's what's one of the ways that you know either comparison
competition or imitation how does that show up for you all right i'm going to recreate these rooms
we lost a couple people all right we're going to do six minutes so you're gonna have to be
a little quicker on this one but go ahead and go click to that room
then click to join
all right i think we got everyone situated lord i just thank you
for your truth and your life lord i thank you that you're bringing revelation power into our
spirits our souls our bodies our minds and our wills i thank you god that you are awakening these
women to the power of who you have created them to be lord that you would just breathe life into
them even right now that they would arise arise a sleeper and wake up from the dead that they would
have visions and understanding of what it means to literally not only you open the grave the two
whom, where we've been buried under things, but you enable us
to sit up and to get up and to start living life more
abundantly. We thank you, God, for resurrection power, the same
power that rose Jesus from the dead, again, is living and
operating in us. And even Lazarus is a prime example.
Jesus loved him. Lazarus died. Could Jesus have kept Lazarus
alive, even from where he was at? Absolutely. But it says that
he allowed that so that God could be glorified. And I was
thinking about this the other day, after Lazarus was risen
from the dead, Jesus and Lazarus were just sitting at a dinner
table one night, having dinner together. And I was thinking to
myself, man, wouldn't that be wild to sit there with a man
that was dead for a few days, but now he's alive. Same thing
with Jesus, right? But the same thing can happen in our life.
Things that seem dead right now, God can breathe life and hope
and new things. He can bring rivers in the wasteland and
streams in the desert. Isaiah 43, 19 talks about that. I want
to encourage you all to meditate on that scripture and really let
it sink in, that we would think on things that are true, noble
and lovely and of good report, things that are above only and
not beneath, that we would believe by the power of God that
we are blessed when we go in, we're blessed when we go out,
we're blessed when we lie down at night and we're blessed when
we rise up, even when we physically don't feel it, that
we would align with that truth and partner with heaven to see
what God wants to do in us and through us every single day. We
thank you, God, that you're doing a new work in our lives,
that we will not settle for less than your best. God, I thank you
that you would help us to recognize the areas where we're
not living fully alive. Some of us are living good lives, but
we're not living the good, good abundant life you created us to
live. Revelation 12, 9 through 11 says this, then I heard a
triumphant voice in heaven proclaiming now salvation and
power set in place and the kingdom reign of our God and the
ruling authority of his anointed one are established for the
accuser of our brothers and sisters who relentlessly accused
them day and night before our God has now been defeated. Cast
out once and for all. Eva, I just saw your message. That's
totally fine. That's totally fine. John 3, 16 says this, for
this is how much God loved the world. He gave his one and only
son, his one and only unique son as a gift. So now everyone who
believes in him will never perish, but experience
everlasting life. Lord, we thank you that you'll help us to also
just understand what it looks like to be like a tree that's
planted by rivers of living water that we would flourish in
season and out of season, even under pressure that we would,
yeah, just experience the fullness of your joy, joy,
unspeakable and full of glory. And Lord that our joy comes a
lot from focusing on the joy of our salvation that when we
meditate and think on even the day that you, you met us Lord,
that you drew us in with your loving kindness. And we made a
decision to live for Jesus Christ, the joy that we felt,
Lord, let that be the thing that emanates in our soul tonight.
Help us to cling to the truth of who you are and all that you're
doing in our life, even when we can't see it with our physical
eyes, that we would partner with the truth that you are working
all things together for good, for those who love you and live
according to your purposes that you're working on our behalf,
even right now in Jesus, I thank you that you're sitting at the
right hand of the father interceding for us. And I thank
you, Lord, Jesus, that you, you are always, you went to the
cross for us, you chose us, you conquered death and destruction
and we can live in the abundant life, the healed life, the full
life because of it. Isaiah 53 verse four through six says
this, yet it was our weaknesses he carried. It was our sorrows
that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a
punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins, but
he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins.
He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so that we
could be healed. Matthew 7, 25 through 26 says this, these
words I speak to you, and this is Jesus saying this are not
incidental additions to your life, homeowner improvements to
your standard of living. They are foundational words, words to
build a life on. If you work these words into your life, you
are like a smart carpenter. Sorry, I got to push these
buttons. Who built his house on a solid
rock, rain poured down, the river flooded, a tornado hit, but nothing moved that house. It was
fixed to the rock. God's so good you all. He protects us in trouble and storms and when the
winds blow. Jesus wasn't scared in that boat when the waves were crashing. Do you know why?
Because he knew where they were going. He knew where he was taking the disciples.
He knew where they were going. He had no fear and so he could sleep and be at a place of rest.
So in Jesus name I declare that you all will even in the midst of heartwork be in that place of
rest knowing that Jesus is with you and he knows where you're going and he'll take you there and
he'll guide you every step of the way. He's not going to leave you alone. Even when Peter stepped
out of the boat. We focus a lot on the fact that Peter sunk you all, but what what the heck he got
out of the boat. Let's focus on that, right? I always get a little echo when Eloise comes back.
I'm not sure why, but let's focus on the positive. The enemy's going to try to get you all to focus
on the negative a lot and it can be hard when you're doing heart healing because you're going
to see the lies and the pain, but I want to encourage you to celebrate your wins. Y'all,
you made it. You're here and some of you like you're investing in this heart healing and others
never do. I want you to like really just the old-fashioned like tonight when you get off.
I really sincerely and some of you will do this and some won't, but I genuinely want you to give
yourself a hug and just like say thank you to yourself. Like really love yourself and say thank
you for not giving up on me. Yeah. Y'all, we're our best advocates. We fight for ourselves and
Jesus fights on our behalf too, but we got to love ourselves really well. Okay, I have three minutes.
So here's what I'm going to do. Eva. No, Anna. I'm so sorry. Wrong name. Anna. Anna, I would like for
you to go ahead and share because you had your hand up before if you would like to still share
and then I'll go ahead and finish us up for tonight. Yeah, sure. And it's Anna, by the way.
Anna. Thank you. Like Elsa and Anna. Okay. Okay. Yeah. So it's interesting because in the first
breakout, this is my first night, by the way. So in the first breakout, we were talking about
just kind of the lie that there's nobody out. I'm 43. I've never been married. I don't have children
and I want those things very deeply and I've just been waiting on the Lord to provide them for me
and just had a lot of, you know, trauma and that sort of thing. And so it's just hard to believe
that that is in my future. But then I also question it in that maybe that's not what God has
for me. So is it right for me to continue to pursue that? But what's interesting is we came back from
that and what Mackenzie shared and what you shared actually triggered something else for me and that
just feeling like like ghosted by a friend. Right. Like I've had a couple of friends that have
were very close. Like I was in their weddings. We were best friends. And separately, just one
completely ghosted me. And it was very painful. And I had no idea why. And she refused to respond
to me and got her whole family to ghost me. And so I still, to this day, have no idea. And it had
been, you know, 10 years and she she tried to come back into my life earlier this year.
And I struggled with how to respond to that. And I did respond. And then she ended up not responding
back to me at all. And so it's been kind of this repeated, I guess, abandonment or people that I
had, you know, prayed the Lord would bring into my life when I first went to college that I would
find a Christian friend. And here this is this first person I met. She was an answered prayer
for me. And then to have her do that to me. And that's happened more than once with really
close friends. And so that really hit for me for sure. This is this. Yeah, I feel like this is the
Lord for several people tonight, because it's interesting. You didn't know this, but the person
I was talking about, I was in her wedding. She was in my wedding. So it does. It's kind of like,
wait a minute, this doesn't feel right, you know, but one of the things in particular,
you'll just keep this in mind, the enemy will try to come at us similar ways to wear us down.
And if he can't get one way, he'll try to come another way. And he'll kind of keep trying to
attack the same things. So like, think of it like, I don't know what movies, but like the old school
war movies, when there would be castles, and they would go to war, well, how they would take the
castle down is they would try to find the vulnerability of the castle and they would
target it and target it and target it. And they would go to the door and, you know, they would
take those big logs and whatever they're called. You all know what movies I'm talking about, right?
Try to pound the door. Well, that's because the door typically couldn't be the stone. It was made
out of something else. And typically they've, they believed they could get through that place.
And so what I want to propose to all of you is that the enemy will try to come at you in similar
ways, but praise God, you have people fighting on your behalf in heaven. And there's scripture in
the Bible that even talks about like, there are times where, uh, I don't remember if it was
Elisha or Elijah right now. I apologize y'all, but it was one of them. But like, you know,
the servant was scared because there was, you know, all these army people surrounding them
and he was terrified they were going to be overcome. And, um, Elisha or Elijah prayed to,
for God to open the servant's eyes. And when he did, when God opened the servant's eyes,
there was a whole host of army angels there to war on their behalf. So I'm saying that to say this,
no matter what we go through, no matter how the enemy comes at us and tries to take us down in
different ways or discourage us or cause us to believe that people don't love us, that we are
abandoned because see the whole, the whole thing is he's trying to get us to take the bait. Yep.
See your friend left you. They ghosted you. You are abandoned. People don't love you. They don't
stick around again. I'm just kind of saying different things, but like whatever you hear,
that's what you want to hone in on. Like, Lord, what is it that I heard when this happened and
what are their lies and trauma in my life? Did this connect to when's the first time I felt
abandoned by a friend, by a parent, whoever y'all sometimes when we go down this road, I'll have
people say like, even as a kid, they had a friend that moved away and they just were so heartbroken
over that the friend didn't leave them, but they felt abandoned by that friend. So just be open to
whatever the Lord brings up ladies. Okay. In this process, super important. All right. I'm going to
close this out tonight. Here is what your activation is this week. I'm going to show you
a picture. This is just one example. I don't want people to worry. It doesn't have to be super
crafty. I had another example and I meant to look for it this afternoon. And then I totally forgot,
but here's one example that I want to show you. This is what I call the silhouette activation.
The silhouette literally can be less crafty than this. Y'all can scratch a little with pencil,
a little silhouette of yourself. It doesn't even have to have eyes and color, but if you want to
do whatever you feel led to do, but with that silhouette, I want you to ask God this,
God, what do you say about me? God, who do you say that I am?
And I want you to write the positive things that you hear onto the silhouette.
If you hear negative things, I don't want those to go on the silhouette. Those need to go on a
separate piece of paper because what's happening is as you guys are leaning into God, who do you
say that I am? God, what do you want me to hear about myself? You're going to have negative
thoughts that you think about yourself because of lies you believe that are going to come up as well.
If those come up, write those on another piece of paper, then cross them out and say, okay, God,
this is not truth. What is your truth for me? And once you process that out and get the truth,
get the positive thing, then you can put that on your silhouette. Okay.
So that's your activation. We're calling this the silhouette of yourself, your identity,
who you are, and this will pair with the real you. Again, you're asking God to show you. And
some of you, yeah, I see. I know Laura, some of you are going to struggle with this, but it's okay.
If you only get one word right now, do one word and start there. Don't feel like you're less than
if you don't get that, that young lady got a lot of words. That's awesome. I had other people that
had like five words, just do what, do what God leads you to do, because it's better to start
somewhere than not do it at all. Cause I have a lot of people that will just be like, Oh,
that's too much. And they're afraid they're not going to hear God. And so they just won't do it,
but just, I encourage you to lean in. If y'all don't ever know how to hear God,
reading his word is one of the best ways to get to know him and hear him more.
Okay. All right. So as we do that, that's your activation number one. And because
of some things that came up tonight, I feel led to give you a second one.
It didn't come up this afternoon, but I wrote it down when y'all were in the breakout.
We're going to do the mirror.
activation. That's what I call it. And what I want you to do
is I want you to stand in front of your bathroom mirror, or
bedroom or whatever, in front of a mirror. And I want you to
genuinely tell yourself that you love yourself. This is I do the
mirror activation a couple different ways. So we're gonna
we're gonna take step one tonight. And you all might
think, well, that's not hard. But some of you all are going to
find an encounter with God in this some of y'all are gonna,
it'll be a process for you to actually really love yourself
when you're looking at yourself and say, Hey, Maria, I love you.
And genuinely meet it. Okay. But starting with confessing that is
the first part. All right, as we close tonight, I'm going to read
our supernova declaration over you. This is at the end of your
ebook. So you guys can look for this. And I encourage you
honestly, write this out and put it up and declare it out loud
over yourself on a regular basis, it will change your life.
How do I know? Because God led me to do that. And it did. Okay,
here we go. So as I'm reading this, I really want to encourage
you just to like, close your eyes and let the truth really
inspire you and let God speak into your soul. This is what he
is saying over each one of you tonight. You are a world
changer, an atmosphere shifter, a light bearer, a truth teller
and a hope dealer. Your heart is awakening. It's your time to be
made whole. You contain the beauty of all creation, the
mysteries of the entire universe reside in you. You are the image
of the Almighty God, the offspring of the great I am.
You are a beloved daughter of God. His original heart, your
original heart is one of love, joy, peace, hope and innocence.
You were created for community and love. You are accepted in
the family of God. You have been created to prosper. You will not
be anyone besides who love God, the Father has made you to be.
From this moment forward every day, when you look in the
mirror, you are going to see more and more of what God sees
in Jesus name. Amen and Amen. Father, I pray that you would
seal every one of these declarations, every word that
spoke in all the prayers that have been prayed. Pray that you
would just continue to minister to these ladies this week and
help them to hear what your spirit is saying to them. In
Jesus name. We love you all. Keep showing up in the group.
I've been so excited y'all. I saw lots more engagement in the
last week in the group. It's awesome. Keep coming in and
sharing. So good to see you. I'll be seeing you all again
really soon. Good night.