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Hey, hi everyone. Welcome, welcome, welcome. We're about to get started. I'm going to kind

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of welcome everyone and go over some housekeeping here at the beginning as always, while some

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more individuals are starting to join us. I'm Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the heartwork

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coaches here in the community, as well as y'all. You'll see me in phase two and phase

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three and all around town. Okay. So just, we're glad you're here. And for those of you

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joining us for the first time live session. So maybe you've been even in the community

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and the group heartwork course, however y'all want to look at it for a few weeks, but maybe

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this is your first live session. Anyone that's joining us for a live session for the first

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time. If you put that in the chat for me, we'd love to welcome you. We won't embarrass

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you. I promise. We just want to say, Hey, welcome and make sure that we know that you're

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here. All right. So no one. Okay. Gabby first timer. Welcome Gabby. Anyone else? The first

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timer tonight, Judy Risco. Hi. Welcome. Welcome. All right. You all so many good things already

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happening. Carrie first timer, Rebecca. Oh my gosh. Shante. We've got a lot of first

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timers. Y'all are in good company. We'll have probably some more individuals join us here

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as we continue. I want to encourage you all, if you have not got a, had a chance to check

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out our supernatural Saturday from this past Saturday, it was so good. You all there. I

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think they're all good, but this one was worry versus worship and man, it was speaking even

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to me, but what I thought was really cool was I had done a couple of heartwork sessions

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with some people individually. And even though they had entirely different situations and

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scenarios, Naomi, you like my hat. I like this too. I got this one in Hawaii. So first,

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first trip dream trip. Yeah. I love it. Dream trip that happened this last year. So praise

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God dreams come true ladies. My little segue back. What was I saying here? Oh yeah. So

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if you haven't watched that, one of the things that came up was in these two sessions, two

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different scenarios and situations, both very difficult things they were walking through.

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And the common theme was worship worship. And so then Jackie comes on supernatural Saturday.

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She had no clue what God led me to say to these two women. And then she started talking

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about it. And that, when that kind of stuff starts happening, it's like, okay, this isn't

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just God saying, which was amazing that he said it through Jackie, but like God in the

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spirit is saying this. Um, and so when I encourage you all something that I've been

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doing recently, and this happened because I woke up one morning and just like a whisper,

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it wasn't like I heard God's audible voice, but what I heard was worship first, just like

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that worship first, but it came with this, um, not heaviness, like I was scared, but

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I just felt like it was really important. And so I didn't even look at my phone at all.

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And kind of got up, went to the kitchen and just put worship music on as I was getting

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ready in the morning. And I've been doing it, trying to stick to that every day since,

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and you'll after I've been doing it, I realized how many days I was looking at work stuff

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as soon as I got up or like, you know, people message needing help. Like I oversee a bunch

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of teams in our community and I started feeling all this pressure right away in the morning.

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And I wasn't giving myself time to just receive first. And so for whoever that's for, I believe

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God wanted that to be shared tonight for somebody, let your soul and your spirit breathe and

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worship first and choose worship over worry. And God will work all the other things out.

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I truly believe that. And so check that, check that, uh, replay out. I believe it'll be a

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true blessing to you. Um, a couple other housekeeping things for you all distractions

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are going to come. Okay. So for those of you that are in any week of heartwork, the enemy

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will send distractions in all different ways. Sometimes they're, you know, trouble with X's

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stern backup. There are work situations out of nowhere that, you know, used to get along

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with your coworkers. And now all of a sudden you're not, or maybe you never got along and

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the chaos is getting worse. Maybe it's your kids. All of a sudden y'all aren't getting along.

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I mean, some people have come into heartwork and, you know, all of a sudden they're not

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feeling good. And so whatever the distraction is that the enemy is sending your way, I want

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to encourage you stay focused to the best of your ability. Don't give up and keep moving forward.

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I try to encourage you guys all the time to just do the next best.

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thing. Okay, so instead of quitting and giving up on your

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process, just do even if you feel like you're overwhelmed, if

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you just think of it like, okay, Lord, what's one thing I can do

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today to keep moving forward in my heart healing process,

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because you all are your best investment. How many of you want

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to see a raise of hands, you can put it in the chat if that's

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easier for you. How many of you tend to help everybody else and

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put yourself last? Can you show me your hands? Let's see hands

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on that. Who are my helpers that maybe are overextended at

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this season in your life, you're helping everybody else and you

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tend to put yourself last. Anyone else want to join the

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crowd? All right. Yeah, so I want to encourage you all in the

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next few weeks to really intentionally even put yourself

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on your own calendar. Save some time for yourself. I have to do

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this too. So I'm going to be accountable to you all you guys

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can come in and share as you you know, step into this. Sometimes

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it's like we even put off making doctor's appointments that we

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need to make. I mean, whatever it is for you. Don't put those

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things aside. So in this case, you all are important heartwork

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surgery. It's so important to your not only like healing, but

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to living an abundant life to living the life God originally

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created for you to live, not with a tank half empty and

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leaking out holes and over every aspect of the tank, you know,

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where you're just trying to put cups cups up underneath to catch

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what's fallen out. No, like God wants to come in and heal all of

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that so that you can live a healthier, happier life. All

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right, events in the event calendar. I'm going to just say

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this real quick when you guys go in the LIS app the last year

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single if I say LIS it's last year single just y'all know it's

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just shorter. The event tab when you go in there, click on

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the event, and then you'll go to the day. Each day. If we have

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events for phase one, it'll say it in there. When y'all click on

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the event inside of there, you'll see the zoom link, zoom

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meeting ID and the passcode. If any of you have problems with

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the zoom links, the best way to get into any of our live

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sessions is to go directly to zoom and click join a meeting

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and type like manually enter it. So if I know some people are

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still having issues getting into the zoom meetings, that is the

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quickest way. So one of the workarounds as well as create a

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free zoom profile. And set like log into that before you click

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on the link you all I figured that out a couple months ago as

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well. So I was having some issues, just click it on the

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link if I wasn't logged in. So quick workarounds there. My last

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housekeeping is this. As you're going through your heartwork

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process, it's really important for you to ask God good

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questions. What do I mean by that? What I mean is you all are

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going to have what sometimes might seem to you like random

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memories kind of percolating and coming up to the surface, but

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none of those are random. Okay. A lot of times, even if you think

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that memory, like, well, I'm not even upset about that, or, you

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know, that didn't really bug me. But like, don't dismiss that.

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But instead, ask the Lord like, Okay, Lord, this is coming up in

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my spirit. Is there something you're wanting to show me about

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this? And just see what he says. Because sometimes what will

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happen is that memory may lead to something else. I had a woman

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in heartwork, it's been several months ago, she had a memory

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come up about her uncle. And then also this random memory in

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her mind, she said random, that's why I'm using that word

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of being on the playground and her feelings getting hurt. And

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she didn't even connect the two at all. But as I continued to

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ask questions in the group, so sometimes y'all are going to

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post things and myself or the other coaches are going to ask

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you questions to get you to go back to the Lord and ask him

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more about it. Okay? Why are we going to do that? Because as a

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coach, my goal is a to always lead you back to the Lord first

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and foremost, because he's the one that has the answers. But

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also, it's going to help you continue to process the things

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that are coming up. Why do I use that as the example, y'all this

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the uncle situation and the playground situation were

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actually connected. What was the common denominator? The uncle

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used to put her down all the time. And the kids on the

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playground did too. But that didn't come together until she

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started asking the Lord about it. Okay, super important. So

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don't dismiss the things that are coming up in your spirit.

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Okay. All right. Let me pray for us. Father, thank you so much

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for this night. Thank you for everything that you're already

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doing. In our hearts, God, we thank you that you're the

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greatest.

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physician that nothing is too hard for you. Lord I thank you that your Holy Spirit would just come

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and Holy Spirit we invite you to have your way, that you would help us to open the door of our

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hearts a little bit more to you tonight. You're the comforter, you're the counselor, you're our

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guide. I thank you that you're leading us and guiding us every step of the way, that you would

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help us to hear what your Spirit is saying, that you would bring things farther out of darkness and

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into the light so that there can be revealings for healing happening, that we would come out

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of hiding and come into connection and community God, that we would step into the rivers of living

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water that are flowing from heaven tonight over us. We thank you for healing oil also flowing,

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for physical healing happening in the in the lives and the minds, emotions, spirits, bodies,

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and souls of every one of these ladies that are here live as those as well as those that will

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watch the replay. God help us to receive everything that you have for us including the fullness of

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your love. In Jesus name, amen. If y'all haven't done your Jesus Cares Board yet, for those of

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you just starting us that's explained in I think you got muted Bethany.

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Yeah we can't, I couldn't hear you. Can you hear me now? Yeah. Oh so weird I just had a thing pop up.

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Okay let me know if that happens again. I'm not sure what was going on there. All right um

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huh um Jesus Cares Board if you haven't done it yet definitely uh lean into that that's explained

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in a video in week one in your training tab. The Jesus Cares Board is a lot about every all the

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cares and worries and burdens and fears that we carry on ourselves. We get to cast all those

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physically onto Jesus by this board by this activation. It's a reminder that we are releasing

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those cares and burdens to him. Y'all don't have to wait to post in the group until it's finished.

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I'd rather you all even get started and post like hey I'm getting started this is where I'm at right

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now and and there isn't a need for perfection. Okay so I would rather y'all move on that and and

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step into the supernatural because it is powerful. So on that note we're going to talk about supernatural

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surrender first tonight. And what does it mean and and like what does it look like regarding God?

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So I want you all to start to put in the chat for me when you think of a gentleman

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like right now we're going to talk about men

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in general not men in depth but like if you think about a man that you come into contact with

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who you think is a gentleman or you've seen act like a gentleman what does that look like

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and what does that sound like? Can you put that in the chat for me?

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From your perspective what does that look like and sound like?

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Yep respects others, polite, kind words and respect, prefers others, gentle, kind,

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someone who's considerate, opening door for people, caring, sorry I'll try to read these,

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considerate, eye contact, listening, heart of service, open doors, protective, kind, makes you

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feel safe, respectful, attentive, curious about others, leads, all right,

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listens without judging a leader, keep putting those in there for me. So as you guys are

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continuing I want you to keep processing through those. These are so good.

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All right one of the things that I want you all to think about now God is not a man

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but I do believe that there are a lot of things in the human race even in women that are as we know

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the human race even in women that are as we know part of the image of God right we we have the

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image of God in us when we live into the best version of ourselves that God created us to live

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into we all men and women alike act a little differently don't we right so I want you to think

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about the best aspects of a gentleman that you've seen in your life and I know not all men have been

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that way but there are good men and there have been for those of you that might not have seen

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those yet I believe God will show you more of those good men in the days ahead but I want you

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to think about that and understand that God is a gentleman God is a gentleman that's a part of his

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character now he is not like man he doesn't make mistakes but the most important thing that I want

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you to understand about a gentleman is that they don't force their way on you

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which surprisingly I don't think I saw anyone say tonight

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which is okay because there's no wrong answers

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on that. It's about your perspective, but a gentleman, they don't force their way in.

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bit if you think about it. So the reason I want you to be thinking about this is that

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God is not going to force his way into your heart. Okay. Some of you have, whether you

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realize it or not, y'all, the reality is, is when we go through pain and trauma and

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hurt as you all go through this course, you'll learn about self-preservation techniques.

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While some of those self-preservation techniques is putting up walls to try to protect ourselves

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from the enemies. While God isn't our enemy, but a lot of us really struggle to trust God.

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And so we have even walled him out as well. Specifically, I want to bring up, do not enter

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signs. What do I mean by that? What I mean is that sometimes we can go through a lot

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of healing in our hearts, but still have what I call, do not enter signs on parts of our

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heart. Where do we have those at? Only the Lord will be able to tell you that those tend

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to be from my perspective, as I've coached for the last few years in this heart work

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space is that if there's trauma that you have gone through, whether it's things done

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to you or things that you did that create a trauma for you, sometimes you don't want

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to go into those areas, even in a heart work process like this. And sometimes it's because

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you have worked on it before. And so you're like, I don't want to go back through that

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again, but I want to encourage you that if the Holy spirit, if the Lord brings that up

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in this season, it doesn't mean you have to go all the way back through everything,

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but it's probably be coming up because God's trying to show you another layer of healing

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that he wants to do in you in that situation, in that area. I want you guys to think about

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healing and layers. Okay. Forgiveness and layers. We're going to talk about forgiveness

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later tonight as well, because some people will be like, man, I've already gone around

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this mountain. I've gone around this mountain. Why am I going around this mountain again?

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And they feel and struggle with the concept of like, I like, why can't I get past this?

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Well, here's the thing. I think that it's because they're not looking at it as in layers.

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Y'all sometimes with the abuse I went through with my brothers. I mean, I can't tell you

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how many times I've visited that place for healing. There's so many different aspects

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of how that impacted my life. Like, you know, getting married and trying to be intimate.

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I mean, that's a whole new ball game when you've gone through sexual abuse, right.

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Or any other kind of dynamic. So a lot of layers get revealed as we go and praise God,

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he's so good. He's the great physician and he heals and he restores and redeems and brings

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restitution. You all, when, when it's good and it's a pleasing gift that God gives us,

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he makes, he makes good on his promises to us in those areas.

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So I want to encourage you to take down your do not enter signs tonight.

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And even right now, for some of you, you're probably feeling like,

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no, I don't want to do that. And I just want to encourage you that you can. And how do I know

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that? Because God says be strong and of good courage. I've gone before you and he's made a

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way for you to be able. And his grace is what enables us to do. So revelation three 20 says,

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behold, I stand at the door and knock. If any man hears my voice and opens the door,

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I will come into him and we'll stop with him. And he with me, I'm using that scripture because

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even Jesus, when he stands at the door and knocks on the door of our hearts, it's an invitation.

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It's an invitation. We have a choice to open the door and allow them to come into our heart and

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our life. He does not force his way on us and neither does God, the father or the Holy spirit.

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And so not only will he come in when we open the door, but he'll have dinner with us. He'll

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sup with us. Y'all think about dinner. Like at least for me, when it's a good, like, you know,

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me and my husband and I, we enjoy going to dinner together. When I go to dinner with him,

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I feel close to him. When we have family dinners with his family, it's fun. It's like there's

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laughter. There's joy. When I go to see my best friend or my girls and you know, there's a

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community and a closeness right around the dinner table. So think about it like that too. God's like

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wanting to come into the intimate places with you. And he's wanting to sit with you and spend time

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with you. And he enjoys.

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is you being in his presence.

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All right, don't dig.

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That's my next tip for you, okay?

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So on this process, we mentioned all the time,

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we don't want you to get out of shovel

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and try to dig to look for answers.

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Revealing for healing is the process that we teach

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and coach in this community, and here is why.

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Sometimes people will try to dig

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to kind of figure things out on their own,

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and it actually can re-traumatize you.

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So that's why it's really important

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to trust what the Holy Spirit is bringing up

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in this process, and don't go looking.

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Some people have even gone to parents

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and been like, did this happen, did this happen?

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And I understand why.

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I did that for a season years ago as well,

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but I can tell you that it was a lot rougher process

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than just surrendering

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and letting the Holy Spirit guide my healing, okay?

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All right, trust what the Holy Spirit brings up,

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lean into the Holy Spirit,

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and then you all hear me say a lot, pull the thread.

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this is your first time hearing that phrase,

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and what I mean by that when I say pull the thread is this.

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even if you think it's silly or like,

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again, feels random, you pull the thread.

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and then see what he brings up after that.

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And if he brings up more things as you interact with him

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and talk to him, again, you pull the thread.

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You just ask him another question.

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So pull the thread to me kind of partners

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with ask him a question,

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and then if something else comes up,

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then you would ask again.

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Ask, seek, knock, keep on asking, seeking, and knocking, okay?

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All right, I wanna encourage you all,

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we're gonna go into breakouts here soon.

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If you've never done a breakout, it's great.

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We encourage you to don't leave, stay here with us.

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Can y'all, like for our ladies that are on screen,

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just wave, just welcome our new ladies.

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Let everybody, even if you're new, wave anyways.

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Y'all, it's fun.

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We have fun in this community.

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I don't want you to be afraid of each other.

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And some of you are gonna go into a breakout room

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and you're not gonna know anyone.

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Some of the other ladies might not know anyone either.

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And so we come with a common ground.

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You don't have to give advice.

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You don't have to counsel.

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You don't have to coach.

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That's my job, okay?

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You guys just get to give each other space to share

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and just be kind to each other.

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That's the goal, okay?

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And I have found time and time again,

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ladies that get connected even through breakouts,

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sometimes end up becoming friends.

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but someone could become a close friend to you

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if you open up your heart and your life to them, okay?

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All right, so here is your question for breakout.

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What are some things God is nudging you

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to surrender to him tonight?

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What are some things that God is nudging you

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to surrender to him tonight?

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Before you go into the breakout, I'm gonna read,

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we're gonna kind of revisit our submission activation,

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which this is basically the permission slip

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that you all signed when you began this journey.

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Maybe you signed it when you did the challenge

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or maybe some of you came in through a different way,

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but it's what we call the permission slip in this community.

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And it's you giving God permission to come into your heart.

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So remember, we're taking down the do not enter signs.

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So I wanna encourage you, I'm gonna read this over you

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just to prepare your heart to go into the breakout

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to share with your sisters, okay?

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Father God, I give you permission to search me

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and to reveal anything in my heart

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that does not belong to my true identity.

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And that is hindering me from living the life

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you created me to live.

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Holy Spirit, I invite you into the darkest places

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of my heart.

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Show me the areas that are still wounded

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and are still hurting.

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When you reveal these broken places to me,

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I covenant with you to release them into your care

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and to respond with forgiveness and repentance.

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I set aside this season of my life

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for a time of healing and wholeness

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and ask Holy Spirit to take charge of this process.

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I ask that you dwell with me and in me.

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I need you.

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I cannot heal myself.

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I want to be free from the past,

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free to be who I truly am.

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Help me to become who you originally created me to be.

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Show me the lies I've believed about myself,

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my life, my surroundings,

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even the lies I have believed about you.

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Teach me the greater truth.

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Teach me your ways.

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Teach me how to think and how to live abundantly.

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Teach me, show me, heal me, grow me in Jesus name, amen.

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All right, ladies, I'm gonna put you in here.

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We're gonna do three-chair room tonight

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and I'm gonna.

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Start you all off with, let's see if we do three, six, nine,

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that'll give you three minutes each.

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Give you nine minutes total.

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Here you go.

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That should be up on your screen.

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Go ahead and click to join that.

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If you can't go into breakout, that's totally fine.

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You can hang out here.

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I'm just gonna be praying

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because those that watch the replay,

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they don't go into breakout.

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So I just pray in this time.

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All right, go ahead and keep clicking to join if you're able.

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I gotta make sure we've got everyone situated here.

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Two people, at least to every room.

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All right, cool.

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All right, Father, we just thank you right now

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for every one of these groups of ladies.

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Some of them have two, some of them have three.

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Lord, you even prepare our breakout groups

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to connect in such a special way.

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So Lord, I thank you for your blessing

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over their conversations, over their time together.

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I pray that you would help them

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to hear what your spirit is saying.

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Lord, I thank you for helping.

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Oh, someone is maybe needing help.

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Hold on one second, ladies.

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I think a couple people might be stuck.

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All right, so Lord, we just thank you

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for continuing to work in every one of these ladies' lives.

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We thank you for helping them to hear your voice

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above every voice of the enemy.

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And I thank you that right now

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that you would help them to supernaturally surrender

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by your grace, Lord, even your mercy

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that's new every morning.

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And even right now that you would just flow

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and wash over every one of their hearts, their minds,

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their bodies, spirits, and souls.

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And I thank you for that.

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Lord, I thank you that you would help them

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to hear what your spirit is saying.

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Lord, I thank you that you would help them

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to heal their hearts, their minds, their bodies,

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spirits, and souls, help them to just,

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yeah, Lord, what song just came up in my spirit

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is like to dance in the river.

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Lord, I pray that you would bring beauty for ashes,

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the oil of joy where there's been mourning,

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that you would bring celebration and laughter and life

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into their spirits in a fresh way.

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I thank you, God, that you would encounter them

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as my Spirit and hear their voice.

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And let us also pray

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that we will see God make us pray

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for God's purpose, for the purpose of the Spirit.

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What else we got?

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Oh my goodness.

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And did you get kicked out?

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Okay, awesome.

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So Lord, we just thank you also for,

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yeah, Lord, upgrading our understanding

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of the kingdom of heaven

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and what it looks like to live closer to you

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and intimacy that we don't have to fear or be afraid.

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God, that you haven't come to bring us harm or destruction,

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but you've come to give us life

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and give it to us more abundantly.

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Hi, Carrie.

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Did you get kicked out?

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Oh, sorry, you're muted.

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I did, yeah.

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Do you know what group you were in?

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I said eight.

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Okay.

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Oh, I wonder if Arianne got kicked out too.

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I don't know if I said your name right.

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Is it Ariana or how do you say your name?

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Arianne, maybe.

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Ariana is right.

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Okay, awesome.

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Were you in a group and got kicked out

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or were you just joining us?

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Cause I can put you in a group if you.

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No, I just joined.

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I watched a few hours ago.

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It's the middle of the night over here,

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but you know, it's good stuff.

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That's fine.

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Okay, they're talking about the surrender right now.

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Do you want me to put you in the group?

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They have like five minutes left.

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I could listen.

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Okay, or you can just say, you want to just stay here?

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I'm just praying over everybody.

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Maybe it's better.

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Okay, and then you can just receive.

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That'll be fine.

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Father, just thank you again for, yeah,

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reminding us of the love story you originally wrote for us.

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Lord, when you dreamed us up in your mind,

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when you were creating us, God,

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you made us fearfully and wonderfully made.

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And I thank you, God,

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that you are renewing and restoring

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every part of us in this process.

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I thank you that you would help us to hear,

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yeah, Lord, your melody over us.

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Zephaniah, I think it's 317,

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talks about how you, like, rejoice.

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over us with singing. So Lord, I pray that you would help us to also know the power of

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Psalms and hymns and singing spiritual songs back to you, God, that as we worship you, God, and

461
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for who you are, that you hear faith in us as we sing unto you. So Lord, even tonight as

462
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ladies are here sharing and opening up about their hearts and their lives to you,

463
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God, that that is them stepping into community and faith. God, I thank you that you would just

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continue to, yeah, Lord, help them to feel your presence, your connection.

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We thank you for the balm of Gilead being placed upon every wound, every trauma,

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and we thank you for divine healing being released into them and over them. We thank

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you for reconciliation and healing and families. Yes, Lord, where the enemies try to come to kill,

468
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steal, and destroy, we thank you, Lord, that you've come to give us life and give it to us

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more abundantly, that we don't have to fear or be dismayed or that we don't, because fear has

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to do with torment. Your word declares it. So we can become and step back into the truth of your

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love tonight, God, that we would become rooted and grounded in your love, that we would be like

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that tree that's planted by living, rivers of living water. And I'm going to return to that.

473
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I think that's Psalm 1. Let me find that because it's so good.

474
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Yep. Psalm 1, 3, it says that person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields

475
00:31:42.000 --> 00:31:47.600
its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither, but whatever they do prospers. Well,

476
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who is the person that it's talking about there? Let's go back and read verse 1 and verse 2. It

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says, blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that

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sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, but whose delight is in the law of the Lord and who

479
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meditates on his law day and night. Y'all, it's not about the laws as far as legalism goes,

480
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but what it's saying there is the word of God. When we meditate on the word of God day and night

481
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and find our delight in that, we will be like a person planted by streams of water that will

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yield fruit in every season. So even what that means is even in the hard seasons, the seasons

483
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that can feel dry, like the desert, if you will, or the trials and tribulation that we face,

484
00:32:35.600 --> 00:32:43.440
even in those seasons, we can be like that tree that will yield fruit. So even when we don't see

485
00:32:43.840 --> 00:32:49.600
that we're yielding fruit or that we are bearing fruit, God is making it happen. Y'all, there's a

486
00:32:51.520 --> 00:32:56.320
really good analogy. If you think about trees in the winter, some places like, I don't know how

487
00:32:56.320 --> 00:33:00.000
it's going to be in Florida. This is my first winter. It's going to be my first fall and winter

488
00:33:00.000 --> 00:33:03.440
here in Florida. So I think it's going to be a little bit different here. But when I lived in

489
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Ohio and Indiana and even Kentucky, when it turns winter, especially in Indiana and Ohio, more

490
00:33:10.000 --> 00:33:18.000
Northern y'all, the trees lose all their leaves. It gets kind of dry and kind of barren looking.

491
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Right. But y'all know that trees actually in the winter, there's like the there's like a

492
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healing and inner healing and a life that's happening underneath the surface. So I want

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to encourage you to think about yourselves in that way, that even when you might not see

494
00:33:38.000 --> 00:33:42.720
something happening in the physical realm, that doesn't mean it's not happening in the spirit

495
00:33:43.360 --> 00:33:49.360
realm. Okay. God is working on your path even right now in ways you can't even imagine.

496
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I want to encourage you to partner with that truth more and more and more in the days ahead.

497
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As we lean into that truth of who the father is, we were talking about that before they went

498
00:34:00.880 --> 00:34:07.040
into the breakout sessions, that he's a gentleman. Let's even ask the Lord to remind us more about

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who God is and his character, that he is good, that he is kind, that he's faithful,

500
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that he is love. He cannot deny himself. So if we lean into that, if the lies that we hear because

501
00:34:23.920 --> 00:34:29.600
of trauma we've experienced, tell us that God isn't good or that God doesn't love us or that

502
00:34:29.600 --> 00:34:36.880
God won't come through for us, then that is an actual assault of the enemy on God's character.

503
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And he's trying to convince us through the wounds that we've experienced and the lies we believed

504
00:34:42.080 --> 00:34:47.760
as a result of them, because he doesn't want us to walk in life. He doesn't want us to walk in

505
00:34:47.760 --> 00:34:52.400
fullness. He doesn't want us to walk in truth. And so just remember, we don't have to be afraid

506
00:34:52.400 --> 00:34:58.480
of the devil, but we need to be aware of his schemes. It says, be wise as serpents, but

507
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innocent as doves.

508
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:06.080
you all. Okay. So we need to be wise and walk in the wisdom of the Lord. And yep.

509
00:35:06.720 --> 00:35:11.760
Know that the enemy prowls around like a roaring lion, but he's not a lion. Cause the lion of the

510
00:35:11.760 --> 00:35:18.320
tribe of Judah is the King of Kings. Okay. So the enemy can act like he's a lion, but that doesn't

511
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make it true. That means he doesn't win. So that's why I'm saying that y'all y'all know the end of

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the story. He doesn't win. So in your life, I want you to just partner with the truth that

513
00:35:31.120 --> 00:35:36.960
in the situations that you're facing right now, that God doesn't win, or I'm sorry, that God does

514
00:35:36.960 --> 00:35:42.480
win. The enemy doesn't win. All right. So partner with that. God wins y'all. I didn't mean to say

515
00:35:42.480 --> 00:35:48.080
it. I said it backwards. Hopefully, you know that, but yeah. So don't partner with the lies

516
00:35:48.080 --> 00:35:52.640
that the enemy is trying to feed you. Who is willing for those of you joining the first time,

517
00:35:52.640 --> 00:35:59.520
what we do now is our group shares, and typically it takes one person to get us going.

518
00:35:59.520 --> 00:36:06.160
And then once that one person shares, typically a couple others will start to share who's willing

519
00:36:06.160 --> 00:36:12.720
to share with the whole group, what you shared in your breakout. And maybe some of our ladies

520
00:36:12.720 --> 00:36:17.520
that have been here a little longer, if you'll help the other ladies that are newer show,

521
00:36:17.520 --> 00:36:23.760
show how it goes. And then it's, it's fun. We have a good time. All right. Awesome. Sarah in

522
00:36:23.760 --> 00:36:31.840
California. Go ahead. Thank you. My hand thing. I don't know where to find that. Oh, that's okay.

523
00:36:31.840 --> 00:36:36.480
If y'all okay, this is good. So if you guys hover over the bottom of your screen, whether it's on

524
00:36:36.480 --> 00:36:43.040
your phone or the computer, there is a raise hand, or it could say reactions and then it might be

525
00:36:43.040 --> 00:36:48.800
there or it might say more. And then you can find it in there. Once you click it, it tends to show

526
00:36:48.800 --> 00:36:53.920
up more often, but yeah. So if you guys don't know what the digital, okay. I see it reactions. Okay.

527
00:36:53.920 --> 00:37:02.160
Thank you. You're welcome. Okay. Um, so, um, I was sharing about how I have been being, I feel like

528
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I'm being nudged and challenged by God to just like, when I meet a guy to not automatically my

529
00:37:07.280 --> 00:37:14.160
mind be like, Oh, maybe he's the one. And instead just being like, you know, pursue friendship and,

530
00:37:14.160 --> 00:37:20.320
and work on just getting to know him, you know, naturally and, um, and everything. So I think

531
00:37:20.320 --> 00:37:26.320
that's something I feel like God has been working on in me. So, yeah, that's so good. Okay. So Sarah,

532
00:37:26.320 --> 00:37:30.160
is that just something God is speaking to you about right now? I can't remember. Are you,

533
00:37:30.160 --> 00:37:35.680
you're still in phase one with us right now, right? I, I am. Okay. Okay. So are you currently

534
00:37:35.680 --> 00:37:41.360
dating, trying to date right now? No, because I know you guys are encouraging us not to yeah. So

535
00:37:41.360 --> 00:37:47.120
I'm no, that's the only reason I wanted to clarify for our new lady. We do encourage a press pause

536
00:37:47.120 --> 00:37:54.080
for at least the time that you're in this heartwork process, because as you are like healing,

537
00:37:54.080 --> 00:37:58.400
you're going to find like, you're just going to look at a lot of stuff different. And I know some

538
00:37:58.400 --> 00:38:02.480
of you, like, that's not something you're going to want to do, but I promise if you will partner

539
00:38:02.480 --> 00:38:09.280
with that, you will find so much healing, just as you focus on what God wants to do in you.

540
00:38:10.000 --> 00:38:14.400
And you're just going to, even like what's what Sarah's saying right here, this is a huge revelation.

541
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And so that's why I wanted just to make sure, not that I thought you were, but I wanted to clarify

542
00:38:18.640 --> 00:38:25.680
for those that might not know, we asked for that press pause. Um, we have a lot of people that get

543
00:38:25.680 --> 00:38:32.640
stuck here. Is he the one? Is he the one? And people panic. And then they, without meaning to,

544
00:38:32.640 --> 00:38:38.960
they put pressure on the guy. And then the guys like they back way off. Okay. And so I would

545
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encourage you to ask Sarah or anyone else that can relate to what she's saying. Ask the Lord

546
00:38:45.520 --> 00:38:51.920
when that started for you. Okay. So like when, maybe, you know, from my perspective, when was

547
00:38:51.920 --> 00:39:02.000
the first time you felt pressure for the guy to be the one? Does that make sense? And I just want,

548
00:39:02.000 --> 00:39:07.440
I'll be curious to see where else this goes with you. If there's any other healing regarding, um,

549
00:39:08.960 --> 00:39:18.160
a man pursuing you and being the one that kind of is that chivalrous one versus maybe,

550
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I don't know why, but if this is resonating for you, but have you been the one that's had

551
00:39:22.560 --> 00:39:28.400
to lead a lot of relationships in the past? Uh, I feel like, yeah, I feel like I tend to

552
00:39:28.400 --> 00:39:33.680
be, I guess the pursuer, so to speak. I, maybe I'm the one who's like the initiator in the

553
00:39:33.680 --> 00:39:39.680
conversation or like, like, Oh, I think that's really cool that you fill in the blank, whatever

554
00:39:39.680 --> 00:39:46.000
it is, you know? So I think, yeah. And so, yeah. Okay. Okay. So I, I was trying to tread lightly

555
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because we don't do a lot of dating coaching in phase one, but I, the Holy spirit was kind of

556
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bringing that up. And so as you lean into the supernatural surrender, part of that Sarah is

557
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going to literally be surrendering the pen to the Lord and learning how.

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how to let yourself receive and be pursued in a healthy way.

559
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And so just wanted to mention that to you.

560
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And again, anyone else that is resonating

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with what we're talking about here,

562
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because the reality is this,

563
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God, I believe just from my experience,

564
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I've actually gone through this,

565
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will lead you all to your spirit mates

566
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and lead your spirit mates to you.

567
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And some of that is a discovery process.

568
00:40:30.640 --> 00:40:32.600
I used to think, oh, I would meet one person

569
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and I would just date them.

570
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And God in my process said he was gonna give me options.

571
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And I remember thinking, how is that gonna be possible?

572
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And all these things.

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Y'all, it totally was possible.

574
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And it was great because you know why?

575
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Because I never learned that I could get to know people

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in a healthy level and just decide,

577
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do I like this about this person?

578
00:40:57.360 --> 00:40:58.340
Do I not like this?

579
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Is this healthy?

580
00:40:59.620 --> 00:41:00.740
Is this not healthy?

581
00:41:00.740 --> 00:41:03.020
And doing that in a healthy way

582
00:41:03.020 --> 00:41:05.700
and looking through an entirely different lens

583
00:41:05.700 --> 00:41:07.140
this last time around

584
00:41:07.140 --> 00:41:09.900
was just a whole different ballgame for me.

585
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So I wanna encourage you all,

586
00:41:11.580 --> 00:41:13.180
again, trust the process.

587
00:41:13.180 --> 00:41:15.460
God knows what he's doing.

588
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And if you're not sure, guess what?

589
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You just signed up for an amazing community

590
00:41:20.540 --> 00:41:23.020
where you don't have to do this by yourself anymore.

591
00:41:23.020 --> 00:41:24.980
Cause that was another thing for me.

592
00:41:24.980 --> 00:41:27.300
I did a lot of that by myself in the past.

593
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And this time around I had community

594
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and I came in and shared with my sisters in the group.

595
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Y'all, they all knew the nicknames of the guys I dated

596
00:41:36.300 --> 00:41:37.500
and was getting to know.

597
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It was a whole fun thing.

598
00:41:39.220 --> 00:41:41.060
So your journey can be fun too,

599
00:41:41.060 --> 00:41:43.060
but for now you're doing hard work,

600
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which is fun too, yeah.

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So thank you, Sarah, for kicking us off.

602
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Is there anyone else who is willing to share

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with the whole group what you shared in your breakout?

604
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No one's, okay, awesome.

605
00:41:59.380 --> 00:42:01.420
Mackenzie, thank you.

606
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I think that there was a level of,

607
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like when you talked about distractions

608
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and I know you prepared us last week,

609
00:42:10.860 --> 00:42:13.420
you were like, this week you're gonna have distractions.

610
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Work was very much that distraction this week.

611
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And it was insane.

612
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And I was like, wow, I don't know how to say no to this

613
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because I have to do my job.

614
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But I think there's an element of work,

615
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a new layer of work that I'm having to surrender to the Lord

616
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because I feel like I've surrendered

617
00:42:31.860 --> 00:42:35.340
so many different elements of this job to the Lord.

618
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And for me, I think that this new level

619
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that I'm surrendering is what people think of me at work.

620
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Because I was telling my breakout,

621
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I call myself a recovering people pleaser.

622
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And so I'm trying to like surrender that

623
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in this new position.

624
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And maybe that's what it is,

625
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is I'm just surrendering it in this new position.

626
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I love that.

627
00:43:02.300 --> 00:43:04.900
So I'm curious, before you even went into

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the what people think of me and the people pleaser part,

629
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I heard in my spirit identity.

630
00:43:10.060 --> 00:43:13.340
Do you get your identity in your work a lot?

631
00:43:13.340 --> 00:43:14.180
Do you feel like?

632
00:43:15.860 --> 00:43:18.180
I would say in the past, yes.

633
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But I feel like in this last season of my life,

634
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I have tried to change the perspective

635
00:43:26.500 --> 00:43:28.860
so that my job is a,

636
00:43:28.860 --> 00:43:32.660
I'm not living for fulfillment in my job,

637
00:43:32.660 --> 00:43:37.580
but my job is a tool so that I can live and have fun

638
00:43:37.580 --> 00:43:40.140
and provide and all that kind of stuff.

639
00:43:40.140 --> 00:43:43.220
So I think that probably was in the past,

640
00:43:43.220 --> 00:43:47.980
but I feel like I'm shifting out of that, I guess.

641
00:43:47.980 --> 00:43:51.260
So when does the people pleasing kick in the most for you?

642
00:43:53.860 --> 00:43:56.420
In this job or just in general?

643
00:43:56.420 --> 00:43:58.140
It could be either or, yeah.

644
00:43:59.140 --> 00:44:02.580
Recently I moved into a salesperson job.

645
00:44:02.580 --> 00:44:05.420
So I'm a salesperson now for my company

646
00:44:05.420 --> 00:44:09.460
and my company is kind of going downhill.

647
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And so I feel like it's hard for me to like do my job well

648
00:44:16.940 --> 00:44:19.060
because our company is going downhill

649
00:44:19.060 --> 00:44:24.060
and I don't want the perception of me to be determined,

650
00:44:25.620 --> 00:44:26.460
I guess.

651
00:44:27.620 --> 00:44:29.540
Maybe that's why I heard identity then

652
00:44:29.540 --> 00:44:33.420
because as you're sharing more, that makes sense to me.

653
00:44:34.300 --> 00:44:36.860
Because while you might not be getting your identity

654
00:44:36.860 --> 00:44:41.340
out of it, if the company's not doing well

655
00:44:41.340 --> 00:44:43.460
and you're in a sales role

656
00:44:43.460 --> 00:44:46.020
and it's harder to actually do your job,

657
00:44:46.900 --> 00:44:50.340
I mean, there's a level of what I hear potentially

658
00:44:50.340 --> 00:44:55.340
maybe fear there of how is that going to impact you?

659
00:44:55.340 --> 00:44:57.060
Would that resonate for you?

660
00:44:57.060 --> 00:44:57.900
Yeah.

661
00:44:57.900 --> 00:44:59.220
Okay. All right.

662
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.200
So maybe just lean into that because one of the things that ladies, um, in these kinds of

663
00:45:05.200 --> 00:45:10.560
situations, you know, we, we don't encourage people to make big changes during heartwork

664
00:45:10.560 --> 00:45:15.200
either. So we, we don't encourage people to move. We don't encourage people to change jobs during

665
00:45:15.200 --> 00:45:22.080
heartwork. Um, unless there's some kind of like, you can't avoid it. Right. Um, but in this process,

666
00:45:22.080 --> 00:45:27.280
you know, I all would encourage you to, um, just be asking the Lord, um,

667
00:45:29.200 --> 00:45:37.760
what about the idea of if this impacts you, like your identity, if you will, to some degree,

668
00:45:38.400 --> 00:45:43.280
like what fears are, is that bringing up for you and really kind of see where else that might go

669
00:45:43.280 --> 00:45:49.200
back to. I don't know why, but if in like your parents are coming up in my mind for some reason

670
00:45:49.280 --> 00:45:54.400
right now too. Um, and so I don't know if there was some point where,

671
00:45:57.520 --> 00:46:01.200
I don't know if there was some point where you felt like you let them down in some way

672
00:46:01.200 --> 00:46:05.680
or I don't know. So I feel like there's a connection there. Is that resonating Mackenzie?

673
00:46:07.280 --> 00:46:11.760
So something a couple of weeks ago that my mom actually came up and when I was, I think it was

674
00:46:11.760 --> 00:46:18.400
in week two. So a couple of weeks ago, but, um, was that my mom was the disappointment thing.

675
00:46:18.400 --> 00:46:24.080
And my mom that I was a disappointment in my parents. And my mom said, my mom said to me

676
00:46:24.080 --> 00:46:29.200
without even knowing what was going on, but she said, when you were younger, I used, I didn't

677
00:46:29.200 --> 00:46:33.440
have to punish you. Like I did your sisters. I just had to let you know that I was disappointed

678
00:46:33.440 --> 00:46:41.360
in you. Um, and so that was something that came up probably like when I first came in and God

679
00:46:41.600 --> 00:46:45.920
prepared me for it because it was like on Monday morning and then you had asked a question Monday

680
00:46:45.920 --> 00:46:52.720
night. Um, and so, yeah. Okay. I forgot that we even talked about this before. So it's interesting.

681
00:46:52.720 --> 00:46:59.760
It's coming back up tonight. Okay. So maybe just, there might be another layer to that. Yeah. Just

682
00:46:59.760 --> 00:47:03.840
cause I, I would have not thought of your parents on my own. Cause we were totally talking about

683
00:47:03.840 --> 00:47:10.400
your job. Um, and so just, just, just ask the Lord about that again and circle back to that.

684
00:47:11.360 --> 00:47:17.200
Um, Rebecca says in the chat wild, God has been really feeling my mother wound this week. Yeah.

685
00:47:17.200 --> 00:47:22.640
I would, I would say a lot of you all are going to, it just depends on your relationships with

686
00:47:22.640 --> 00:47:27.920
your parents. Like some of you have probably great parents, but here's the reality, even

687
00:47:27.920 --> 00:47:32.480
great parents. I feel like I've been even a good parent to my spiritual daughters and to my step

688
00:47:32.480 --> 00:47:38.720
son, but because of other things that happened in the relationships with the people I was in and

689
00:47:38.720 --> 00:47:45.200
life y'all, none of us are perfect. And our kids look at things through their lenses.

690
00:47:45.760 --> 00:47:52.960
Okay. As kids and they can't fully comprehend some of the trauma that happens. Well, when we were

691
00:47:52.960 --> 00:48:01.360
kids, we couldn't fully comprehend stuff either. And so even if your parent got sick or whatever,

692
00:48:01.360 --> 00:48:08.560
like I also had a what's coming to mind somebody, um, a while back that their sibling was very sick

693
00:48:08.560 --> 00:48:12.320
all the time. And the parents, you know, paid a lot of attention to that sibling. It wasn't

694
00:48:12.320 --> 00:48:19.840
cause they didn't love the other child, but there was so much stress and the parents were struggling

695
00:48:19.840 --> 00:48:27.840
to just like survive and take care of the kid, the child that was very sick, you know? And so

696
00:48:27.840 --> 00:48:34.080
just be aware during this process, if things come up regarding your parents, um, don't, don't feel

697
00:48:34.080 --> 00:48:39.760
like you're doing your parents a disservice. Okay. Cause even good parents sometimes, you know,

698
00:48:39.760 --> 00:48:44.720
we have heart wounds that are connected to them and we need to be willing to look again, taking

699
00:48:44.720 --> 00:48:51.360
those do not enter signs down. Okay. Your parents, uh, and healing that you need is important,

700
00:48:51.360 --> 00:48:56.560
uh, in relation to that. All right. Awesome. Camilla, go ahead, Mackenzie. Thanks for sharing.

701
00:48:57.600 --> 00:49:03.280
So I was sharing in the group that, uh, what I struggled, I mean, what I feel like God's calling

702
00:49:03.280 --> 00:49:12.240
me to surrender is, um, the control. So of how and when, cause I received promises from God and

703
00:49:12.800 --> 00:49:19.920
he's been like saying that through many different, uh, random people and reaffirming that, but like,

704
00:49:19.920 --> 00:49:25.440
I, I keep like thinking that my time is limited. So like, if I, I have the feeling that I'm like,

705
00:49:25.440 --> 00:49:30.000
Oh, I'm running out of time. How's that going to happen? You know, when, when and how,

706
00:49:30.480 --> 00:49:36.400
and that's like a, a way of wanting to control, you know? So, uh, that's what I'm

707
00:49:36.960 --> 00:49:42.480
surrendering now. And it was funny cause in my group, all the girls had the same issue. They

708
00:49:42.480 --> 00:49:48.000
shared the same thing and it was like, yeah. You all, when you all first went into the breakout,

709
00:49:48.000 --> 00:49:52.160
one of the things I said was God, thank you for all the people that you've placed together in

710
00:49:52.160 --> 00:49:56.560
the group. So divinely tonight, or I said something similar to that. I really believe

711
00:49:56.560 --> 00:49:59.760
I really believe that even when I'm pressing buttons, God is.

712
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.720
orchestrating conversations and people that need to be in groups together.

713
00:50:03.720 --> 00:50:08.540
So I believe that you can believe that too, and partner with that, um, because

714
00:50:08.540 --> 00:50:12.120
you're all as conversations with each other also bring healing and insight

715
00:50:12.120 --> 00:50:14.340
and revelation, all kinds of stuff.

716
00:50:14.760 --> 00:50:15.120
Okay.

717
00:50:15.300 --> 00:50:21.480
So here's one of the things I want to, um, Encourage you or anyone else.

718
00:50:21.480 --> 00:50:23.180
I see Judy saying me too.

719
00:50:23.700 --> 00:50:25.600
Uh, I think Nicole said yes.

720
00:50:25.600 --> 00:50:30.760
And there, do you all believe that God can redeem time?

721
00:50:33.840 --> 00:50:40.760
Because he can, and I know we, it's tough for us to comprehend that he

722
00:50:40.760 --> 00:50:46.620
can actually give us time back, but he can, he says it in his word.

723
00:50:47.140 --> 00:50:50.400
And there were times where even the sun was made to stand still.

724
00:50:50.940 --> 00:50:51.320
Right.

725
00:50:51.360 --> 00:50:55.120
I don't think, I mean, some of that is symbolic in the old Testament, but I do

726
00:50:55.120 --> 00:50:59.960
believe it was symbolic and it was a story that was told for a purpose or a

727
00:50:59.960 --> 00:51:00.560
reason.

728
00:51:01.280 --> 00:51:06.040
And so, um, for me, you know, being in a relationship with the girl's dad for six

729
00:51:06.040 --> 00:51:09.960
years, I remember coming out of that, just feeling like, man, I wasted all that

730
00:51:09.960 --> 00:51:10.360
time.

731
00:51:10.720 --> 00:51:12.640
Well, that wasn't true.

732
00:51:13.360 --> 00:51:16.800
The enemy was telling me that you just wasted all that time.

733
00:51:17.480 --> 00:51:21.600
Now you're not going to be able to have a baby because you're this older, you

734
00:51:21.600 --> 00:51:25.960
know, he just started going and trying to take me on a rabbit trail with him.

735
00:51:26.680 --> 00:51:31.400
And I could have kept going on that trail and that thought process and that, that

736
00:51:31.400 --> 00:51:34.680
heart posture, or I could say, you know what?

737
00:51:35.480 --> 00:51:37.400
I don't receive that light.

738
00:51:38.080 --> 00:51:41.480
God, you knew my heart in that relationship.

739
00:51:41.800 --> 00:51:45.760
I know there are definitely things now hindsight.

740
00:51:46.160 --> 00:51:50.160
And even years ago, before I'm in where I'm at now, there are definitely things I

741
00:51:50.160 --> 00:51:57.080
would have done differently, but I didn't know what I didn't know until I knew it.

742
00:51:57.800 --> 00:52:01.760
So I want to encourage you all to give yourself some grace because you're

743
00:52:01.760 --> 00:52:03.280
learning and you're growing.

744
00:52:03.640 --> 00:52:10.320
And, you know, even if you've tried several times, okay, I understand it's

745
00:52:10.320 --> 00:52:16.720
frustrating, but let that go surrender that and choose to move forward tonight

746
00:52:17.120 --> 00:52:22.000
and to not partner with the lie that your time is limited.

747
00:52:23.680 --> 00:52:24.440
Here's another thing.

748
00:52:24.440 --> 00:52:26.640
When you said that my time is limited.

749
00:52:26.640 --> 00:52:31.160
I think you meant it in the regard of like, uh, that time clock that we kind

750
00:52:31.160 --> 00:52:34.560
of all ladies start to feel if you're wanting to have kids, is that what you

751
00:52:34.560 --> 00:52:35.280
meant, Camilla?

752
00:52:35.640 --> 00:52:36.040
Okay.

753
00:52:36.200 --> 00:52:39.760
That's what I thought, but I felt like in the spirit, someone else is here

754
00:52:39.760 --> 00:52:44.400
tonight, or maybe someone that will watch the replay is, is feeling that from

755
00:52:44.400 --> 00:52:50.720
their perspective of, they don't feel like they have much life left, like as

756
00:52:50.720 --> 00:52:52.680
in years vitality.

757
00:52:54.480 --> 00:52:58.160
And so if that's you tonight, I want to encourage you to not partner with that

758
00:52:58.160 --> 00:52:58.440
lie.

759
00:52:58.440 --> 00:53:02.720
I think the enemy is trying to convince you that you're not going to live much

760
00:53:02.720 --> 00:53:03.360
longer.

761
00:53:04.000 --> 00:53:05.800
And that is not truth.

762
00:53:05.800 --> 00:53:11.440
I believe that's from the enemy and the pit of hell trying to convince you that

763
00:53:11.480 --> 00:53:13.600
there isn't anything good left for you.

764
00:53:13.840 --> 00:53:14.240
Okay.

765
00:53:14.600 --> 00:53:16.280
So be aware of that kind of stuff.

766
00:53:16.280 --> 00:53:20.200
Ladies, the enemies, he tries to be real sneaky and kind of backdoored in again,

767
00:53:20.200 --> 00:53:25.160
through these wounds and trauma we've been through, even like thoughts and lies

768
00:53:25.160 --> 00:53:25.800
like that.

769
00:53:26.800 --> 00:53:30.360
And you might not even realize that you're thinking about them, but people

770
00:53:30.360 --> 00:53:34.320
that anybody can struggle with it, but especially people that have had terminal,

771
00:53:34.360 --> 00:53:39.040
like kind of diagnoses or a lot of autoimmune or a lot of health issues over

772
00:53:39.040 --> 00:53:41.960
the years will struggle with things like that.

773
00:53:41.960 --> 00:53:45.920
So just do your best to not partner with that, that kind of stuff.

774
00:53:46.000 --> 00:53:47.880
All right, Katie, go ahead, Camilla.

775
00:53:47.880 --> 00:53:48.680
Thanks for sharing.

776
00:53:50.400 --> 00:53:50.760
Okay.

777
00:53:50.760 --> 00:53:57.960
So when you mentioned memories earlier tonight, that, that is what really came

778
00:53:57.960 --> 00:54:06.120
up for me and to really surrender to what's coming up and sit with the Lord to

779
00:54:06.120 --> 00:54:11.040
talk to him about some of these memories that do feel super random.

780
00:54:11.480 --> 00:54:17.320
And, and really kind of commit to the, the process and dedicate this

781
00:54:17.320 --> 00:54:20.200
time to what he wants to bring up.

782
00:54:21.960 --> 00:54:22.840
That's really good.

783
00:54:23.680 --> 00:54:28.640
Is there any memory in particular that's coming up that felt random

784
00:54:28.640 --> 00:54:30.480
that comes to mind tonight for you?

785
00:54:31.680 --> 00:54:33.440
If you're willing to share, it's totally up to you.

786
00:54:33.960 --> 00:54:36.800
Yeah, it was a birthday.

787
00:54:36.840 --> 00:54:46.800
I was probably turning 13 or 14 and I was at a youth camp and just super insecure.

788
00:54:48.000 --> 00:54:52.960
And it's, um, yeah, there's just pain.

789
00:54:52.960 --> 00:54:55.680
Cause I feel like my actions hurt my parents.

790
00:54:56.640 --> 00:54:59.960
Um, they, this is weird to share.

791
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:01.840
but I'll share anyway.

792
00:55:01.840 --> 00:55:04.360
They brought me a cake to this youth camp.

793
00:55:04.360 --> 00:55:06.800
It was like an overnight camp.

794
00:55:06.800 --> 00:55:11.140
And I was so embarrassed and my, you know,

795
00:55:11.140 --> 00:55:14.160
I kind of acted out of that embarrassment

796
00:55:14.160 --> 00:55:18.800
and in a negative way.

797
00:55:18.800 --> 00:55:22.280
And I think about that and I just feel like it hurt them.

798
00:55:23.480 --> 00:55:24.320
Okay.

799
00:55:24.320 --> 00:55:25.400
I don't think it's random at all.

800
00:55:25.400 --> 00:55:27.160
Have you, what week are you on?

801
00:55:27.160 --> 00:55:28.760
Remind me.

802
00:55:28.800 --> 00:55:30.800
I'm at the end of week two.

803
00:55:30.800 --> 00:55:31.640
Okay.

804
00:55:31.640 --> 00:55:34.520
So we are gonna talk about forgiveness some tonight,

805
00:55:34.520 --> 00:55:38.400
but the forgiveness sheets when you get to week four

806
00:55:38.400 --> 00:55:40.000
will be in there for you.

807
00:55:41.000 --> 00:55:42.580
But I wanna encourage you,

808
00:55:43.680 --> 00:55:45.040
this is like gonna be a great segue

809
00:55:45.040 --> 00:55:47.360
cause I'm gonna segue from this with you

810
00:55:47.360 --> 00:55:50.120
right into our content on forgiveness.

811
00:55:50.120 --> 00:55:53.120
But I wanna encourage you to forgive yourself for that.

812
00:55:54.600 --> 00:55:56.580
Even though it seems silly,

813
00:55:56.580 --> 00:55:58.820
I feel like there might be a lot more connected to that.

814
00:55:58.820 --> 00:56:01.860
The other thing that came up was, you know,

815
00:56:01.860 --> 00:56:04.920
be willing to look at why you were embarrassed.

816
00:56:06.580 --> 00:56:07.420
Okay.

817
00:56:07.420 --> 00:56:09.900
Cause while, you know,

818
00:56:09.900 --> 00:56:13.460
sometimes we just have those feelings and thoughts as kids

819
00:56:13.460 --> 00:56:17.160
because we're teenagers or, you know, kids or whatever.

820
00:56:18.660 --> 00:56:21.700
Typically, even if it's a lie that we're believing

821
00:56:21.700 --> 00:56:25.760
about our parents or what other people will think of us,

822
00:56:25.760 --> 00:56:28.200
there's something typically under there.

823
00:56:28.200 --> 00:56:30.320
Cause one of the things you said as well

824
00:56:30.320 --> 00:56:32.360
is you were insecure.

825
00:56:33.680 --> 00:56:36.280
And so I'm just wondering if some of the insecurities

826
00:56:36.280 --> 00:56:39.580
you were struggling with at that time

827
00:56:39.580 --> 00:56:40.660
when your parents showed up,

828
00:56:40.660 --> 00:56:43.440
even though they were doing something nice for you,

829
00:56:43.440 --> 00:56:46.680
if that fed into being afraid that kids would make fun of you

830
00:56:46.680 --> 00:56:48.320
or something, you know?

831
00:56:48.320 --> 00:56:50.980
So just again, be willing to, you know,

832
00:56:50.980 --> 00:56:53.560
really just sit with the Lord and ask him like,

833
00:56:53.560 --> 00:56:56.000
Lord, can you help me remember why I was embarrassed

834
00:56:56.000 --> 00:56:59.520
or like, you know, why I said or did what I did

835
00:56:59.520 --> 00:57:02.880
and doing and processing that,

836
00:57:02.880 --> 00:57:06.460
forgiving yourself for that will be really important.

837
00:57:06.460 --> 00:57:09.800
Y'all, sometimes we do not realize

838
00:57:09.800 --> 00:57:12.840
the things that we have done or that others have done to us

839
00:57:12.840 --> 00:57:15.060
that like when it happens, we just,

840
00:57:15.060 --> 00:57:17.520
we move on and then something else happens

841
00:57:17.520 --> 00:57:19.480
and it's like another layer pushes down,

842
00:57:19.480 --> 00:57:21.160
something else happens and it's another layer

843
00:57:21.160 --> 00:57:22.640
pushes down and over time,

844
00:57:22.640 --> 00:57:24.720
it just, this stuff keeps getting packed down

845
00:57:24.720 --> 00:57:26.920
into our souls and our spirits.

846
00:57:26.920 --> 00:57:28.520
And that's why I said, just, you know,

847
00:57:28.520 --> 00:57:30.160
this stuff will start to percolate up

848
00:57:30.160 --> 00:57:33.060
and you'll be like, that seems so random.

849
00:57:33.060 --> 00:57:35.960
But it actually most times isn't

850
00:57:35.960 --> 00:57:40.960
because God wants you to be free from all of that stuff

851
00:57:41.240 --> 00:57:43.200
so that you're not carrying that down

852
00:57:43.200 --> 00:57:45.000
in your soul and spirit anymore

853
00:57:45.000 --> 00:57:48.980
because those kinds of things actually keep us stuck.

854
00:57:48.980 --> 00:57:51.700
Because while that was, you were 13 or 14,

855
00:57:51.700 --> 00:57:53.680
even though you're an adult now,

856
00:57:54.940 --> 00:57:58.060
the reality of feeling like you hurt your parents

857
00:57:58.060 --> 00:58:00.780
is still down in you or it wouldn't be coming up.

858
00:58:01.660 --> 00:58:04.660
So in certain ways, not only does that cause us

859
00:58:04.660 --> 00:58:07.860
to hold back even from our parents or those that we hurt,

860
00:58:07.860 --> 00:58:09.900
but we come into new relationship

861
00:58:09.900 --> 00:58:11.940
and people are wanting to love us

862
00:58:11.940 --> 00:58:14.220
and we struggle to fully receive love

863
00:58:14.220 --> 00:58:16.060
for a lot of different reasons.

864
00:58:16.060 --> 00:58:18.820
A, are we afraid that we're gonna hurt them?

865
00:58:19.660 --> 00:58:21.500
B, are we afraid they're gonna hurt us?

866
00:58:21.500 --> 00:58:23.460
All these different scenarios.

867
00:58:23.460 --> 00:58:25.460
So that's why we wanna allow the Lord

868
00:58:25.460 --> 00:58:27.780
to come in and minister in those areas

869
00:58:27.780 --> 00:58:31.860
and heal and just become more and more open.

870
00:58:31.860 --> 00:58:36.860
I want y'all to think about living fully open, okay?

871
00:58:39.660 --> 00:58:42.660
And for some of you, that's gonna feel really risky,

872
00:58:42.660 --> 00:58:46.380
but here's the truth, love is a risk.

873
00:58:48.820 --> 00:58:53.820
I had to choose to be open to love

874
00:58:54.420 --> 00:58:58.820
in order to enter the marriage relationship I am in.

875
00:58:59.900 --> 00:59:03.740
Some of you have been single for a really long time

876
00:59:03.740 --> 00:59:08.180
and it's gonna be really important for you to surrender

877
00:59:08.180 --> 00:59:10.700
and allow yourself to become open

878
00:59:11.580 --> 00:59:16.580
to living a life with someone and partnering

879
00:59:17.140 --> 00:59:20.780
and not just doing everything your way all the time.

880
00:59:22.460 --> 00:59:27.260
Because in a marriage, it's not always about what we want.

881
00:59:27.260 --> 00:59:28.740
Okay, I can promise you that.

882
00:59:28.740 --> 00:59:32.500
So lean into this stuff, but it's fun.

883
00:59:32.500 --> 00:59:35.300
Okay, Nicole, so that's important for y'all to hear too.

884
00:59:36.500 --> 00:59:39.580
Brian and I have a lot of fun making decisions together too

885
00:59:39.580 --> 00:59:42.380
and he has great ideas and I have great ideas

886
00:59:42.380 --> 00:59:43.980
and we go on adventures.

887
00:59:44.060 --> 00:59:49.060
So be careful to not be afraid of change, okay?

888
00:59:52.340 --> 00:59:54.140
It helps us become more like Christ, y'all.

889
00:59:54.140 --> 00:59:55.340
When we have a healthy marriage,

890
00:59:55.340 --> 00:59:59.300
it definitely can help us become more like Christ.

891
00:59:59.300 --> 01:00:00.140
Okay, let's talk.

892
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:04.720
about forgiveness. Katie, thank you for sharing. Appreciate

893
01:00:04.720 --> 01:00:10.000
that. All right, so I want you all to think about forgiveness

894
01:00:10.000 --> 01:00:15.880
regarding breaking tethers. And I tell this story a lot just

895
01:00:15.880 --> 01:00:18.320
because it's something that I relate to. But when I was

896
01:00:18.320 --> 01:00:22.400
younger, on the playground in elementary school, we had a

897
01:00:22.400 --> 01:00:28.120
tether ball game. And the tether ball game basically is this,

898
01:00:28.120 --> 01:00:32.000
it's a pole with a rope, and a ball attached to it, and the

899
01:00:32.000 --> 01:00:35.600
kids would stand around and hit it back and forth. And I use

900
01:00:35.600 --> 01:00:41.160
this as an example, because unforgiveness is like a tether,

901
01:00:41.640 --> 01:00:46.160
that ball would always remain stuck to the pole, unless

902
01:00:46.160 --> 01:00:50.280
somebody removed the rope and the ball and took it in at the

903
01:00:50.280 --> 01:00:54.480
end of the day. So when you're thinking about the areas where

904
01:00:54.480 --> 01:00:58.520
you're maybe choosing to not forgive, I want you to think

905
01:00:58.520 --> 01:01:02.120
about the fact, this is reality, y'all, you're not going to like

906
01:01:02.120 --> 01:01:06.400
it. But this is the truth. When we don't forgive people, we are

907
01:01:06.400 --> 01:01:11.280
tethered to them. And we are tethered to the trauma, that

908
01:01:11.280 --> 01:01:17.760
means we are connected. So it's important for you to forgive so

909
01:01:17.760 --> 01:01:24.040
that you can become untethered and unbound, unattached to those

910
01:01:24.040 --> 01:01:28.200
people in those situations. So it's not that we're forgetting

911
01:01:28.200 --> 01:01:33.960
what they did, but we're choosing to forgive. We're

912
01:01:33.960 --> 01:01:37.160
choosing to release them. And guess what happens in the

913
01:01:37.160 --> 01:01:43.400
process, we also get released in the spirit realm. We also become

914
01:01:43.400 --> 01:01:47.840
free in the spirit realm. Somebody asked a really great

915
01:01:47.840 --> 01:01:51.880
question this afternoon. I think I don't remember exactly how she

916
01:01:51.880 --> 01:01:54.640
asked it, but she was asking about the difference between

917
01:01:54.640 --> 01:02:00.360
anger and hurt and forgiveness. And I wish I could remember

918
01:02:00.360 --> 01:02:02.400
exactly how she said it, but I thought it was such a great

919
01:02:02.400 --> 01:02:05.440
question. Here's the big difference. Forgiveness is not

920
01:02:05.440 --> 01:02:12.640
an emotion. Anger is hurt's bodyguard. A lot of times

921
01:02:12.640 --> 01:02:16.480
underneath the surface of anger is disappointment, frustration,

922
01:02:16.480 --> 01:02:21.840
other emotions. But forgiveness is not an emotion. Sometimes

923
01:02:21.840 --> 01:02:25.160
y'all you're going to choose to forgive out of out of obedience,

924
01:02:25.200 --> 01:02:29.320
and you're not going to feel anything. Sometimes you're going

925
01:02:29.320 --> 01:02:31.200
to choose to forgive and you're going to actually feel a

926
01:02:31.200 --> 01:02:35.160
physical release in your spirit, you're going to feel something.

927
01:02:37.000 --> 01:02:41.160
But again, that's not because it's an emotion, it's because

928
01:02:41.160 --> 01:02:45.160
there's something coming off of you in the spirit realm, you're

929
01:02:45.160 --> 01:02:50.560
feeling that. Okay, that's the difference. I want you all to

930
01:02:50.560 --> 01:02:53.280
think about as well. Gosh, I forgot my sunglasses again

931
01:02:53.280 --> 01:02:56.000
tonight. I love this analogy and I forgot them. I think some of

932
01:02:56.000 --> 01:02:57.680
y'all have been here for a little while and you've seen it

933
01:02:57.680 --> 01:03:01.520
before. But imagine I'm wearing sunglasses right now. Okay, just

934
01:03:01.520 --> 01:03:07.760
imagine it. The reason I like this example is because when I

935
01:03:07.760 --> 01:03:11.000
look through the sunglasses, I have the the kind of sunglasses

936
01:03:11.040 --> 01:03:15.040
where it tints the color that you see. And so everywhere I

937
01:03:15.040 --> 01:03:19.200
look with these sunglasses, I see like orange or pink in the

938
01:03:19.200 --> 01:03:22.960
clouds, but that's not really there. It's actually white or

939
01:03:22.960 --> 01:03:26.240
whatever color clouds really are. And so I want you to also

940
01:03:26.240 --> 01:03:31.800
think about what forgiveness does to you. When you look at

941
01:03:31.800 --> 01:03:35.520
the people around you, when you look at yourself, it actually

942
01:03:35.960 --> 01:03:39.880
kind of taints the way you look at the world, the way that you

943
01:03:39.880 --> 01:03:42.920
look at yourself, the way that you look at other people around

944
01:03:42.920 --> 01:03:48.360
you. And it causes you to have these filters and blind spots

945
01:03:48.360 --> 01:03:53.320
that you see things through. Okay. And so when we're choosing

946
01:03:53.320 --> 01:03:57.520
to forgive, we're also allowing God to remove those sunglasses,

947
01:03:57.520 --> 01:04:01.040
those lenses, if you will, and filters that we've been looking

948
01:04:01.040 --> 01:04:07.240
through that are not a part of his plan for us. It can also

949
01:04:07.240 --> 01:04:10.760
unforgiveness can also impact your ability to receive and give

950
01:04:10.760 --> 01:04:14.160
love as I've been talking about tonight. It can also impact your

951
01:04:14.160 --> 01:04:18.920
ability to remain in connection with God, yourself, and other

952
01:04:18.920 --> 01:04:23.720
people. God doesn't remove, like he's not saying I don't want to

953
01:04:23.720 --> 01:04:27.600
be with you. But what's happening is you are actually

954
01:04:27.880 --> 01:04:33.360
through choosing on forgiveness, creating separation. It's not

955
01:04:33.360 --> 01:04:36.440
that God's not close to you, but you but we we create

956
01:04:36.440 --> 01:04:40.480
separation in the spirit through that. Okay, I'm going to read

957
01:04:40.480 --> 01:04:42.520
something to you real quick. It's not a lot, but it's

958
01:04:42.520 --> 01:04:46.600
important. These blind spots and filters that I'm talking about.

959
01:04:47.520 --> 01:04:49.800
When you walk into any situation, it doesn't matter

960
01:04:49.800 --> 01:04:53.680
what it is bad or good. You don't see that thing that place

961
01:04:53.680 --> 01:04:58.240
those people the way that they are. You see them the way that

962
01:04:58.240 --> 01:04:59.960
you are on

963
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:06.200
inside. Okay. So we see people the way we are. If our heart is

964
01:05:06.200 --> 01:05:14.680
not healed, we see them through brokenness. For instance, say

965
01:05:14.680 --> 01:05:18.640
you were severely hurt by a group of people. Let's say

966
01:05:18.640 --> 01:05:23.280
tonight, maybe it's a group of women, maybe it's friends, maybe

967
01:05:23.280 --> 01:05:27.760
it was a leader that was a woman over you, or your mom that came

968
01:05:27.760 --> 01:05:33.320
up tonight. So let's go there a little bit. Maybe they mistreated

969
01:05:33.320 --> 01:05:39.280
you lied about you. Maybe they even discarded you. The heart

970
01:05:39.280 --> 01:05:41.760
wounds and lies that were created as a result of that

971
01:05:41.760 --> 01:05:45.440
trauma will give you a skewed perception of groups in the

972
01:05:45.440 --> 01:05:50.640
future, or women in the future that are leaders or other

973
01:05:50.640 --> 01:05:54.880
motherly type figures or even your own mom. Same thing with

974
01:05:54.880 --> 01:05:58.960
men, ladies. Okay. You may avoid groups or communities of

975
01:05:58.960 --> 01:06:01.320
people like the plague convincing yourself that they

976
01:06:01.320 --> 01:06:05.600
are all bad. Some of you tell yourself I will never fit in. I

977
01:06:05.600 --> 01:06:07.640
did a session the other day with someone that's what she tells

978
01:06:07.640 --> 01:06:13.400
herself all the time. I don't fit in I've never fit in. But

979
01:06:13.400 --> 01:06:17.520
here's the reality God says in his word that he places the

980
01:06:17.520 --> 01:06:23.080
solitary and family. So that is actually a lie that is not based

981
01:06:23.080 --> 01:06:27.400
on the word of God that she's believing. We can feel like we

982
01:06:27.400 --> 01:06:32.240
don't fit y'all I, in reality, never have felt like I fit in my

983
01:06:32.240 --> 01:06:36.600
family. I'm totally different than the rest of my family. But

984
01:06:37.240 --> 01:06:42.720
God absolutely causes me to fit. Look at this amazing community.

985
01:06:42.760 --> 01:06:45.680
I never could have imagined this a couple years ago. I couldn't

986
01:06:45.680 --> 01:06:50.280
have. But God placed me here. And it's like one of the most

987
01:06:50.280 --> 01:06:53.960
amazing things I get to be a part of. I love it. And I'm

988
01:06:53.960 --> 01:06:57.840
thriving here. And you know, hopefully God will keep me here

989
01:06:57.840 --> 01:07:01.640
a long, long time. But either way, I have to trust that my

990
01:07:01.640 --> 01:07:07.600
good daddy is going to place me and family no matter where I go.

991
01:07:10.560 --> 01:07:14.480
It's how we look at it. Okay, I'm going on. Or you may try

992
01:07:14.480 --> 01:07:17.000
again to search for community. But if you decide to join a

993
01:07:17.000 --> 01:07:20.440
similar group in the future, your most significant obstacle

994
01:07:20.440 --> 01:07:25.800
to belonging will be the filter that was created by your prior

995
01:07:25.880 --> 01:07:30.080
experience. Basically the pain and the trauma that you went

996
01:07:30.080 --> 01:07:34.360
through. Okay, so what filters do you need to also let go of

997
01:07:34.360 --> 01:07:36.240
tonight? That's not your breakout question. But I want

998
01:07:36.240 --> 01:07:39.360
you to be thinking about it. Because I really feel like God's

999
01:07:39.360 --> 01:07:41.760
on that because we didn't go into this at all in the

1000
01:07:41.760 --> 01:07:46.520
afternoon session. Matthew 2239 says love your neighbor as you

1001
01:07:46.520 --> 01:07:51.480
love yourself. Remember, forgiveness is not a not a

1002
01:07:51.480 --> 01:07:55.520
feeling but it's a choice that you are making. Ephesians 423

1003
01:07:55.520 --> 01:07:59.040
says this forgive one another just as God forgave you because

1004
01:07:59.040 --> 01:08:04.920
of what Christ has done. Colossians 313 says this

1005
01:08:04.920 --> 01:08:10.320
remember the Lord forgave you so you must also forgive others.

1006
01:08:10.720 --> 01:08:16.120
Forgive all the characters in your story, ladies, including

1007
01:08:16.479 --> 01:08:21.240
yourself. Some of you that you know, you're really good at

1008
01:08:21.240 --> 01:08:26.240
forgiving everybody else, but when it comes to you, you you

1009
01:08:26.240 --> 01:08:29.040
basically this is what came up in my spirit this afternoon and

1010
01:08:29.040 --> 01:08:31.439
it's coming to mind again. So I'm just going to run with this.

1011
01:08:32.479 --> 01:08:36.399
It's like you're saying God, I cannot have a free pass about

1012
01:08:36.399 --> 01:08:41.200
this. What do I mean by that? You're basically holding

1013
01:08:41.200 --> 01:08:46.080
yourself hostage. Because you feel like what you did was so

1014
01:08:46.080 --> 01:08:49.200
bad that you don't deserve forgiveness. But that's not

1015
01:08:49.200 --> 01:08:54.880
true. God forgives you and loves you unconditionally. So it's

1016
01:08:54.880 --> 01:08:59.680
time for you to receive that love and forgiveness and release

1017
01:08:59.680 --> 01:09:03.439
yourself. So I want to encourage you to do that if that is

1018
01:09:04.319 --> 01:09:07.520
speaking to you tonight. Remember that forgiveness

1019
01:09:07.520 --> 01:09:13.520
happens in layers ladies. Okay. Healing happens in layers. Some

1020
01:09:13.520 --> 01:09:17.680
of you all you know, this is a difficult journey at times, but

1021
01:09:17.680 --> 01:09:20.479
keep moving keep putting one foot in front of the other and

1022
01:09:20.479 --> 01:09:24.720
God will lead you into his glory into his beautiful plan for your

1023
01:09:24.720 --> 01:09:30.720
life and it's going to be good. Alright, so the last thing I

1024
01:09:31.439 --> 01:09:35.040
want to say before we go into breakouts is that when we're

1025
01:09:35.040 --> 01:09:40.240
talking about God as a gentleman earlier, another aspect of God's

1026
01:09:40.240 --> 01:09:46.880
character is he is love. Not just he chooses to love he is

1027
01:09:46.880 --> 01:09:54.880
actually love. So he cannot deny himself. He can't stop loving.

1028
01:09:55.440 --> 01:09:58.480
So I want you all to think about this aspect if God is

1029
01:09:58.480 --> 01:09:59.040
love.

1030
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.480
I always like to think of him coming, raining down on me.

1031
01:10:02.480 --> 01:10:04.440
I know he's all around us, but it just,

1032
01:10:04.440 --> 01:10:06.600
there's something about just in my mind,

1033
01:10:06.600 --> 01:10:09.160
ah, like him coming down.

1034
01:10:09.160 --> 01:10:14.160
But just, if he's sending love down to me, guess what?

1035
01:10:15.520 --> 01:10:19.840
He's also sending love down upon my enemies.

1036
01:10:19.840 --> 01:10:20.680
Is he not?

1037
01:10:23.200 --> 01:10:24.760
He is.

1038
01:10:24.760 --> 01:10:28.920
And I'm not saying you need to have them back in your life

1039
01:10:28.920 --> 01:10:32.080
and be buds again, or any of that kind of stuff,

1040
01:10:32.080 --> 01:10:36.160
but I wanna encourage you to allow the father

1041
01:10:36.160 --> 01:10:39.400
to heal your heart and set you free

1042
01:10:39.400 --> 01:10:42.320
so that you can move forward in your life

1043
01:10:42.320 --> 01:10:45.000
and let God take care of whatever needs to happen

1044
01:10:45.000 --> 01:10:45.840
over there.

1045
01:10:47.720 --> 01:10:49.320
Okay?

1046
01:10:49.320 --> 01:10:50.440
All right.

1047
01:10:50.440 --> 01:10:52.240
Your breakout question is,

1048
01:10:52.240 --> 01:10:55.040
who do you need to forgive tonight and why?

1049
01:10:56.040 --> 01:10:59.600
Who do you need to forgive tonight and why?

1050
01:11:01.280 --> 01:11:02.960
Let's, I'm gonna recreate.

1051
01:11:02.960 --> 01:11:05.840
So you're gonna be with different people, hopefully.

1052
01:11:05.840 --> 01:11:06.840
Maybe, maybe not.

1053
01:11:06.840 --> 01:11:08.000
We'll see.

1054
01:11:08.000 --> 01:11:10.360
And I am going to change it.

1055
01:11:10.360 --> 01:11:12.440
I'm gonna reduce the time just a little bit.

1056
01:11:12.440 --> 01:11:13.480
Let's do seven minutes.

1057
01:11:13.480 --> 01:11:15.120
You might have to talk a little quicker,

1058
01:11:15.120 --> 01:11:16.840
short, brief, and powerful.

1059
01:11:16.840 --> 01:11:18.880
Go ahead and join those rooms.

1060
01:11:22.000 --> 01:11:23.640
Go ahead and click to join those.

1061
01:11:25.320 --> 01:11:26.160
Okay.

1062
01:11:50.440 --> 01:11:51.600
Hold on one sec, ladies.

1063
01:11:51.600 --> 01:11:54.200
I'm gonna start to pray here in just a second.

1064
01:11:56.040 --> 01:11:57.840
I'm gonna get people situated here.

1065
01:11:57.840 --> 01:11:58.680
There we go.

1066
01:12:00.600 --> 01:12:01.440
All right.

1067
01:12:01.440 --> 01:12:03.760
Father, thank you for forgiveness.

1068
01:12:03.760 --> 01:12:07.200
Thank you for sending your son, Jesus,

1069
01:12:07.200 --> 01:12:08.640
to die on the cross,

1070
01:12:10.280 --> 01:12:12.320
for his body to be broken and his blood to be shed,

1071
01:12:12.320 --> 01:12:13.880
for the forgiveness of our sins,

1072
01:12:13.880 --> 01:12:15.880
for our healing, for our redemption,

1073
01:12:16.760 --> 01:12:19.520
to also make a way for us to be one with you, Father,

1074
01:12:19.520 --> 01:12:20.520
as he is one with you.

1075
01:12:20.520 --> 01:12:22.560
And Jesus, I thank you for coming.

1076
01:12:22.720 --> 01:12:24.640
I thank you for choosing us.

1077
01:12:24.640 --> 01:12:29.440
I thank you for allowing us to be a part of the family.

1078
01:12:30.840 --> 01:12:34.000
Holy Spirit, we thank you for coming as well.

1079
01:12:35.080 --> 01:12:36.560
Jesus, thank you for ascending

1080
01:12:36.560 --> 01:12:38.320
so that the Holy Spirit could come.

1081
01:12:39.440 --> 01:12:41.480
I ask you to just hover over every one

1082
01:12:41.480 --> 01:12:43.400
of the conversations happening tonight,

1083
01:12:43.400 --> 01:12:44.960
as well as the ladies that are here,

1084
01:12:44.960 --> 01:12:46.320
those that are gonna watch the replay,

1085
01:12:46.320 --> 01:12:49.400
that you would just minister your grace and your truth, Lord,

1086
01:12:49.400 --> 01:12:51.320
in a fresh way that we would hear

1087
01:12:52.920 --> 01:12:55.320
just your heart towards us from heaven,

1088
01:12:56.920 --> 01:13:00.160
that fresh waves of grace and healing and hope

1089
01:13:01.280 --> 01:13:06.280
and mercy would flow and wash over every dry, dead area,

1090
01:13:07.160 --> 01:13:10.440
every area where the river has been stopped up,

1091
01:13:10.440 --> 01:13:12.920
where your spirit has not been flowing

1092
01:13:12.920 --> 01:13:14.760
like we knew it in the past.

1093
01:13:14.880 --> 01:13:16.480
We thank you that you would create in us

1094
01:13:16.480 --> 01:13:17.680
a clean heart, oh God,

1095
01:13:17.680 --> 01:13:20.000
and renew steadfast spirits within us,

1096
01:13:22.800 --> 01:13:26.680
that you, even in Isaiah 43, 19, say,

1097
01:13:28.280 --> 01:13:31.680
I'm doing a new thing, can you not perceive it?

1098
01:13:31.680 --> 01:13:33.680
Lord, help us to perceive the new thing

1099
01:13:33.680 --> 01:13:35.920
that you're doing in us.

1100
01:13:35.920 --> 01:13:38.320
Help us to take our eyes off of the people

1101
01:13:38.320 --> 01:13:40.080
that are in our lives,

1102
01:13:40.080 --> 01:13:43.480
and help us to see the things that you're doing in us.

1103
01:13:43.480 --> 01:13:46.400
The people that perpetrated these things,

1104
01:13:46.400 --> 01:13:48.920
that harmed us in some way.

1105
01:13:48.920 --> 01:13:52.360
Help us to put our eyes on you and choose forgiveness,

1106
01:13:52.360 --> 01:13:54.840
to choose to move towards you,

1107
01:13:54.840 --> 01:13:57.600
towards the plan and the purpose you have for us.

1108
01:13:57.600 --> 01:13:59.680
I thank you that you will help us to lay aside

1109
01:13:59.680 --> 01:14:01.960
every weight that so easily ensnares us

1110
01:14:01.960 --> 01:14:03.880
that we would press on

1111
01:14:03.880 --> 01:14:06.120
toward the high calling of God for our lives.

1112
01:14:06.120 --> 01:14:07.960
I thank you that you would help us to think on things

1113
01:14:07.960 --> 01:14:11.040
that are true and noble and lovely and of good report,

1114
01:14:11.040 --> 01:14:13.880
things that are above only and not beneath.

1115
01:14:13.880 --> 01:14:17.440
I thank you, God, that you declare in your word

1116
01:14:17.440 --> 01:14:19.400
that we will be blessed when we rise up,

1117
01:14:19.400 --> 01:14:21.160
that we can be blessed when we lie down,

1118
01:14:21.160 --> 01:14:22.840
when we go out, we can be blessed.

1119
01:14:22.840 --> 01:14:25.800
And even when we come in for those that seek you

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01:14:25.800 --> 01:14:27.520
and live according to your purposes.

1121
01:14:27.520 --> 01:14:28.880
So Lord, we thank you for that.

1122
01:14:28.880 --> 01:14:32.280
We thank you for Selah rest over every one of these ladies,

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01:14:32.280 --> 01:14:34.320
even women that have been struggling with sleep.

1124
01:14:34.320 --> 01:14:37.760
God, I thank you that you would give us a deep rest.

1125
01:14:37.760 --> 01:14:40.840
God, that you, your eyes are always on us.

1126
01:14:41.840 --> 01:14:44.960
You never slumber or sleep and you're always doing

1127
01:14:44.960 --> 01:14:47.160
and moving and protecting us.

1128
01:14:47.160 --> 01:14:49.920
God, I thank you that even right now,

1129
01:14:49.920 --> 01:14:52.960
God, that you are weaving in and out of our timelines,

1130
01:14:52.960 --> 01:14:55.320
that you're redeeming our time.

1131
01:14:55.320 --> 01:14:57.960
God, I thank you that you can give us back time

1132
01:14:57.960 --> 01:15:00.000
where the enemies try to steal it.

1133
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:02.000
You can give us back money.

1134
01:15:02.000 --> 01:15:04.000
We thank you for restitution.

1135
01:15:04.000 --> 01:15:07.000
We thank you for healing. We thank you for life.

1136
01:15:07.000 --> 01:15:10.000
And joy unspeakable and full of your glory.

1137
01:15:10.000 --> 01:15:12.000
Lord, let us receive your truth.

1138
01:15:12.000 --> 01:15:14.000
Let us receive your life.

1139
01:15:14.000 --> 01:15:16.000
Let us receive your hope.

1140
01:15:16.000 --> 01:15:21.000
We thank you, God, that we can bask in your presence

1141
01:15:21.000 --> 01:15:27.000
and yeah, Lord, that we would celebrate with you.

1142
01:15:27.000 --> 01:15:31.000
That we would allow you to show us how precious your thoughts are about us.

1143
01:15:31.000 --> 01:15:36.000
So, God, your word declares in Psalm 139, 17 through 18,

1144
01:15:36.000 --> 01:15:42.000
that your thoughts that are precious cannot even be numbered.

1145
01:15:42.000 --> 01:15:44.000
We can't even count them.

1146
01:15:44.000 --> 01:15:47.000
They outnumber the grains of sand.

1147
01:15:47.000 --> 01:15:51.000
And when we wake up in the daytime, you are still with us, God.

1148
01:15:51.000 --> 01:15:54.000
You never leave us. You never forsake us.

1149
01:15:54.000 --> 01:15:56.000
You're always working on our behalf.

1150
01:15:56.000 --> 01:16:02.000
I thank you, God, that you would just continue to show us, Lord, your glory.

1151
01:16:02.000 --> 01:16:08.000
I thank you that you would help us to grow in the revelation of our understanding of your character, God.

1152
01:16:08.000 --> 01:16:10.000
That you are faithful.

1153
01:16:10.000 --> 01:16:12.000
That you are good.

1154
01:16:12.000 --> 01:16:14.000
That you are kind.

1155
01:16:14.000 --> 01:16:16.000
That you are loving, God.

1156
01:16:16.000 --> 01:16:18.000
That you are peace.

1157
01:16:18.000 --> 01:16:20.000
Yes, Lord.

1158
01:16:20.000 --> 01:16:22.000
Yes, Lord.

1159
01:16:22.000 --> 01:16:24.000
Yes, Lord.

1160
01:16:24.000 --> 01:16:31.000
I thank you, God, where there's weariness and well-doing, Lord, from the journey that's been hard for so many,

1161
01:16:31.000 --> 01:16:40.000
God, I thank you that you would just bring peace and rest to their bodies, to their spirits, their souls, their minds.

1162
01:16:40.000 --> 01:16:47.000
I thank you that you would just, yes, Lord, place your hedge of protection around all of these ladies and their families.

1163
01:16:47.000 --> 01:16:52.000
That you would cover every pit the enemy has set for their destruction and you would help them to leap over those instead.

1164
01:16:52.000 --> 01:16:59.000
I thank you even your word declares that we can trust the righteous can turn to you and be safe.

1165
01:16:59.000 --> 01:17:05.000
And that you would make a table, prepare a table for us in the presence of our enemies.

1166
01:17:05.000 --> 01:17:09.000
So, Lord, I thank you that you'll help us to partner with that truth.

1167
01:17:10.000 --> 01:17:14.000
We know that 2 Timothy 1, 7 says,

1168
01:17:14.000 --> 01:17:23.000
For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but he's given us a spirit of power and of love and of self-discipline.

1169
01:17:23.000 --> 01:17:27.000
It also says in some versions, a sound mind.

1170
01:17:27.000 --> 01:17:32.000
So, Lord, we thank you that we will not partner with fear because fear has to do with torment.

1171
01:17:32.000 --> 01:17:38.000
I thank you that you will help us to grow in the revelation of your love for us more every day.

1172
01:17:39.000 --> 01:17:42.000
Yeah, this one's so good too, ladies.

1173
01:17:42.000 --> 01:17:47.000
Even as I was looking down, Psalm 41, 10 in the NLT says this.

1174
01:17:47.000 --> 01:17:50.000
Don't be afraid for I am with you.

1175
01:17:50.000 --> 01:17:52.000
Don't be discouraged for I am your God.

1176
01:17:52.000 --> 01:17:54.000
I will strengthen you and help you.

1177
01:17:54.000 --> 01:17:59.000
I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

1178
01:17:59.000 --> 01:18:07.000
Lord, I thank you that even these ladies tonight that they would experience you lifting them up with your victorious right hand.

1179
01:18:07.000 --> 01:18:14.000
Lord, where they have felt just beaten down by the enemy, God, I thank you for a reprieve.

1180
01:18:14.000 --> 01:18:26.000
I thank you for, yeah, Lord, that you would cover any open door of the enemy that hasn't even been an open door of their doing.

1181
01:18:26.000 --> 01:18:31.000
But, Lord, God, the enemies just continue to come in and hit them over and over and over in the same areas.

1182
01:18:31.000 --> 01:18:34.000
We thank you for closing those doors.

1183
01:18:34.000 --> 01:18:39.000
I thank you that your word declares that your glory is our rear guard.

1184
01:18:39.000 --> 01:18:45.000
I thank you that you would hide us under the shadow of your wings and in your mighty presence.

1185
01:18:45.000 --> 01:18:56.000
I thank you that you would continue to transform us by the renewing of our minds that all old things have passed away and, behold, everything has become new in you.

1186
01:18:56.000 --> 01:19:02.000
I thank you, God, that you're giving us new hearts, new minds, new spirits.

1187
01:19:03.000 --> 01:19:08.000
Yeah, revitalization projects are happening here, ladies.

1188
01:19:08.000 --> 01:19:12.000
I just heard the Lord say he's doing some new builds.

1189
01:19:12.000 --> 01:19:18.000
New builds, y'all, not just, and reno jobs are awesome, too, okay?

1190
01:19:18.000 --> 01:19:24.000
What I mean by that is, you know, you have an old house and you want to renovate it.

1191
01:19:24.000 --> 01:19:30.000
That's awesome, too, but I feel like in the spirit tonight, some of y'all need that encouragement that God's creating a new build.

1192
01:19:30.000 --> 01:19:32.000
He's doing something new.

1193
01:19:32.000 --> 01:19:38.000
He's going to give you a new vision, a new revelation of his plan for your life.

1194
01:19:38.000 --> 01:19:40.000
It's just, will we perceive it?

1195
01:19:40.000 --> 01:19:47.000
In Isaiah 43, that was one of the scriptures that comes up a lot during heart work when I pray for you all.

1196
01:19:47.000 --> 01:19:59.000
I remember a time that I could not perceive God's goodness in my life when my marriage was falling apart years ago and someone prayed for me that I would be used to help marriage and families.

1197
01:19:59.000 --> 01:20:00.000
And I remember that.

1198
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:02.840
I remember just laughing and thinking that was ridiculous.

1199
01:20:02.840 --> 01:20:06.280
Like what in the heck, God, are you serious?

1200
01:20:06.280 --> 01:20:08.120
Like, you know what's going on

1201
01:20:08.120 --> 01:20:10.160
and you're gonna send this person over here

1202
01:20:10.160 --> 01:20:12.780
to pray for me and say that to me.

1203
01:20:13.640 --> 01:20:16.760
And I just thought, I just was not, I didn't like it.

1204
01:20:16.760 --> 01:20:19.640
But God had a purpose in that, he did.

1205
01:20:19.640 --> 01:20:23.000
And many years ago, it started coming full circle

1206
01:20:23.000 --> 01:20:26.080
as I was a single person helping create

1207
01:20:26.080 --> 01:20:29.020
a marriage conference for an online church.

1208
01:20:29.060 --> 01:20:30.180
What?

1209
01:20:30.180 --> 01:20:31.660
Yep, I got a front row seat to it

1210
01:20:31.660 --> 01:20:33.100
and I got to help them accomplish it.

1211
01:20:33.100 --> 01:20:35.640
And that was, I was sown into marriages and families.

1212
01:20:35.640 --> 01:20:36.860
That was kind of the beginning.

1213
01:20:36.860 --> 01:20:38.660
That was long before I came into this community

1214
01:20:38.660 --> 01:20:43.080
and now I get to be here and do this.

1215
01:20:43.080 --> 01:20:44.500
What?

1216
01:20:44.500 --> 01:20:47.020
Yes, it's awesome you all.

1217
01:20:47.020 --> 01:20:51.140
So open your heart to receive fresh vision.

1218
01:20:51.140 --> 01:20:53.180
God wants to show you something new.

1219
01:20:53.180 --> 01:20:56.280
All right, who's willing to share in your,

1220
01:20:56.280 --> 01:20:57.220
or with the whole group,

1221
01:20:57.220 --> 01:20:59.220
what you shared in your breakout group?

1222
01:21:04.780 --> 01:21:06.260
Who's first?

1223
01:21:06.260 --> 01:21:08.480
Awesome, all right, Nicole, go for it.

1224
01:21:09.740 --> 01:21:10.980
Well, it's like you were saying,

1225
01:21:10.980 --> 01:21:15.060
it's got different layers of different things, I guess.

1226
01:21:15.060 --> 01:21:20.060
So I guess men, whether it's getting ghosted once

1227
01:21:20.900 --> 01:21:25.020
or things that were said that kind of started

1228
01:21:25.020 --> 01:21:29.100
to unravel the relationship and cause defense and hurt.

1229
01:21:29.100 --> 01:21:32.460
And then further back, not so much that I'm,

1230
01:21:33.700 --> 01:21:35.180
I don't think harboring unforgiveness,

1231
01:21:35.180 --> 01:21:37.860
but it was just the hurt from the years of,

1232
01:21:37.860 --> 01:21:39.220
like with my father.

1233
01:21:41.200 --> 01:21:44.180
Oh, he was involved in some different groups

1234
01:21:44.180 --> 01:21:48.180
and caused anti-government.

1235
01:21:49.180 --> 01:21:52.260
He kind of got real serious and thankfully got,

1236
01:21:52.260 --> 01:21:54.720
stopped him at one point from taking action.

1237
01:21:55.560 --> 01:22:00.080
But it caused a lot of problems in marriage,

1238
01:22:00.080 --> 01:22:02.600
a lot of, so there's a lot of yelling

1239
01:22:02.600 --> 01:22:04.080
and he wasn't a communicator.

1240
01:22:04.080 --> 01:22:06.520
So it was a lot of one-sided yelling from my mom.

1241
01:22:06.520 --> 01:22:10.640
And so a lot of hurt over the years

1242
01:22:10.640 --> 01:22:15.640
and just seems like even into, I mean, later life,

1243
01:22:16.800 --> 01:22:19.360
not really learning from mistakes

1244
01:22:19.360 --> 01:22:21.780
and repeating and just cyclical.

1245
01:22:22.780 --> 01:22:25.700
So even though the love was still there,

1246
01:22:25.700 --> 01:22:29.660
but there was still, you know,

1247
01:22:29.660 --> 01:22:33.580
continuing to see the cycles that got out of the stuff

1248
01:22:33.580 --> 01:22:36.100
he was in when he was younger,

1249
01:22:36.100 --> 01:22:39.340
but just mistakes in the marriage and things

1250
01:22:39.340 --> 01:22:41.780
that would cause hurt with my mom.

1251
01:22:41.780 --> 01:22:44.340
And even forgiving myself,

1252
01:22:45.420 --> 01:22:48.220
because I think hearing a lot of the yelling,

1253
01:22:48.220 --> 01:22:50.740
maybe we took that on with ourselves too.

1254
01:22:50.780 --> 01:22:55.340
And just the way I spoke to him before he passed away

1255
01:22:55.340 --> 01:22:56.700
and regretting, you know,

1256
01:22:56.700 --> 01:23:00.020
of course I didn't know if he was gonna pass away,

1257
01:23:00.020 --> 01:23:02.020
but regretting the way I spoke to him,

1258
01:23:02.020 --> 01:23:05.500
the last thing I said and, you know,

1259
01:23:05.500 --> 01:23:09.020
just forgiving myself as well, so.

1260
01:23:09.860 --> 01:23:11.100
Thank you for sharing that.

1261
01:23:11.100 --> 01:23:12.220
Yeah, yeah.

1262
01:23:12.220 --> 01:23:13.140
It's really good.

1263
01:23:14.460 --> 01:23:18.420
One of the things as we're processing this stuff,

1264
01:23:18.420 --> 01:23:19.260
y'all, it doesn't mean

1265
01:23:19.260 --> 01:23:22.140
that we're harboring resentment towards people,

1266
01:23:23.180 --> 01:23:26.340
but again, if God is bringing it up,

1267
01:23:26.340 --> 01:23:28.420
it's probably there's some more healing

1268
01:23:28.420 --> 01:23:29.980
that he wants to do there.

1269
01:23:31.180 --> 01:23:35.140
When you were sharing the part about, you know,

1270
01:23:35.140 --> 01:23:36.860
that dad didn't really learn,

1271
01:23:36.860 --> 01:23:39.380
like he still kind of did those cyclical,

1272
01:23:39.380 --> 01:23:42.900
like he kind of redid the same things over and over,

1273
01:23:42.900 --> 01:23:44.420
if you will, that's kind of how I interpreted

1274
01:23:44.420 --> 01:23:45.740
what you were saying.

1275
01:23:45.740 --> 01:23:50.660
Do you struggle to believe that men can change in general?

1276
01:23:50.660 --> 01:23:52.900
Like, do you battle that lie at all?

1277
01:23:56.060 --> 01:23:56.900
No, I don't.

1278
01:23:58.860 --> 01:24:01.020
Not really, I guess I haven't had a lot of

1279
01:24:01.020 --> 01:24:03.980
like long-term relationships to deal with that.

1280
01:24:06.460 --> 01:24:09.660
I think it depends on the individual, maybe.

1281
01:24:11.020 --> 01:24:12.780
Do you feel open to men?

1282
01:24:12.780 --> 01:24:14.420
Do you like men?

1283
01:24:14.420 --> 01:24:15.740
Like, not just, okay, you want to-

1284
01:24:15.740 --> 01:24:17.340
Yeah, no, I don't resent.

1285
01:24:17.340 --> 01:24:20.380
Some people will say yes, but then underlying,

1286
01:24:20.380 --> 01:24:23.140
that's why I'm asking, like without realizing it,

1287
01:24:23.140 --> 01:24:25.020
because of what we've been through,

1288
01:24:25.020 --> 01:24:28.420
we have like underlying subconscious,

1289
01:24:28.420 --> 01:24:31.500
like maybe not even that we don't like men,

1290
01:24:31.500 --> 01:24:33.420
but maybe we don't feel safe.

1291
01:24:34.700 --> 01:24:35.540
Walls up.

1292
01:24:38.260 --> 01:24:40.940
Yeah, like I can see myself putting walls up

1293
01:24:40.940 --> 01:24:43.780
to protect myself until I know somebody

1294
01:24:43.780 --> 01:24:48.780
and yeah, I could see, I could see that.

1295
01:24:50.940 --> 01:24:53.300
So in this process, the reason I asked you that

1296
01:24:53.300 --> 01:24:55.740
is that in the process of, you know,

1297
01:24:55.740 --> 01:24:57.620
removing those do not enter signs

1298
01:24:57.620 --> 01:25:00.260
and learning to do this now with the Lord.

1299
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:02.840
and even with this group of women,

1300
01:25:02.840 --> 01:25:05.920
it's going to help you prepare to do that

1301
01:25:05.920 --> 01:25:09.200
when you enter, like to try to date again.

1302
01:25:09.200 --> 01:25:13.800
Because if we don't learn to take the walls down here,

1303
01:25:13.800 --> 01:25:16.760
it's gonna be harder when you move in that place

1304
01:25:16.760 --> 01:25:19.640
because of the underlying stories

1305
01:25:19.640 --> 01:25:21.760
or areas that we still need healing.

1306
01:25:21.760 --> 01:25:26.760
So I tend to see women or men struggle with triggers a lot

1307
01:25:27.600 --> 01:25:31.560
if they don't really lean into these kinds of areas

1308
01:25:31.560 --> 01:25:32.560
that God's revealing.

1309
01:25:32.560 --> 01:25:36.560
Like if there's a man that yelled

1310
01:25:36.560 --> 01:25:38.160
or was abusive in some way,

1311
01:25:38.160 --> 01:25:41.360
and whether they realize it or not,

1312
01:25:41.360 --> 01:25:44.760
it can impact the way they view men in general.

1313
01:25:44.760 --> 01:25:47.500
And so again, just look at that,

1314
01:25:47.500 --> 01:25:50.080
just spend some time with the Lord in the next few weeks

1315
01:25:50.080 --> 01:25:51.680
and keep talking to him

1316
01:25:51.680 --> 01:25:54.920
because it sounds like you already are about that.

1317
01:25:54.920 --> 01:25:56.620
And then the forgiving yourself.

1318
01:25:57.800 --> 01:25:59.920
I kind of heard your voice kind of,

1319
01:25:59.920 --> 01:26:01.840
sometimes when I'm talking about certain things

1320
01:26:01.840 --> 01:26:03.440
and it's still emotional a little bit,

1321
01:26:03.440 --> 01:26:05.040
like I don't hurt and have pain,

1322
01:26:05.040 --> 01:26:09.120
but there's still some like physical emotion there.

1323
01:26:09.120 --> 01:26:11.520
And I can tend to recognize that sometimes

1324
01:26:11.520 --> 01:26:12.520
in people as well.

1325
01:26:12.520 --> 01:26:16.080
And so I heard that a little bit for you.

1326
01:26:16.080 --> 01:26:19.120
And so that sounded a little more tender.

1327
01:26:19.120 --> 01:26:20.600
And so I wanna encourage you

1328
01:26:20.600 --> 01:26:23.320
to definitely lean into that as well.

1329
01:26:23.840 --> 01:26:26.680
And God's already forgiven you for that.

1330
01:26:26.680 --> 01:26:31.200
And I believe, I'm just gonna say,

1331
01:26:31.200 --> 01:26:33.280
there's so much that happens you all

1332
01:26:34.600 --> 01:26:37.120
that we have no comprehension of.

1333
01:26:37.120 --> 01:26:41.620
And I just, you don't have to hold yourself hostage to that.

1334
01:26:42.840 --> 01:26:46.720
We can't change what we did or what we do in the past.

1335
01:26:46.720 --> 01:26:49.720
All we can do is change who we are today.

1336
01:26:49.720 --> 01:26:51.740
And every single day going forward,

1337
01:26:51.740 --> 01:26:55.860
we are becoming someone new, okay?

1338
01:26:55.860 --> 01:26:57.500
So celebrate who you are now

1339
01:26:57.500 --> 01:27:00.340
and all that you're learning and forgive yourself.

1340
01:27:00.340 --> 01:27:02.400
And yeah, it's gonna be exciting.

1341
01:27:02.400 --> 01:27:05.900
I think you're gonna be really a lot more free

1342
01:27:05.900 --> 01:27:08.580
after you do that, for sure.

1343
01:27:08.580 --> 01:27:09.420
Thank you.

1344
01:27:09.420 --> 01:27:10.240
Thank you.

1345
01:27:10.240 --> 01:27:11.400
Stephanie, go ahead.

1346
01:27:14.020 --> 01:27:16.180
Davis or Kay?

1347
01:27:16.180 --> 01:27:17.180
Oh, I'm sorry.

1348
01:27:17.180 --> 01:27:18.180
Are there two?

1349
01:27:18.180 --> 01:27:19.780
Oh, Stephanie Davis.

1350
01:27:19.780 --> 01:27:20.780
Thank you.

1351
01:27:20.780 --> 01:27:22.060
Okay, that's me.

1352
01:27:22.060 --> 01:27:23.260
Hi, everyone.

1353
01:27:23.260 --> 01:27:24.460
Hi.

1354
01:27:24.460 --> 01:27:27.800
So when you told us to go in the room,

1355
01:27:27.800 --> 01:27:32.540
the first thing that came to my heart was two things,

1356
01:27:32.540 --> 01:27:37.180
is to forgive myself for the mistakes I've made

1357
01:27:38.100 --> 01:27:42.700
and two, to forgive my son.

1358
01:27:43.780 --> 01:27:48.780
My son passed away and I never thought I blamed him,

1359
01:27:49.660 --> 01:27:54.420
but I blame him for putting me through losing a child.

1360
01:27:54.420 --> 01:27:57.300
He didn't kill himself, he didn't do anything,

1361
01:27:57.300 --> 01:28:00.380
but I never realized I blamed him.

1362
01:28:00.380 --> 01:28:02.100
I just, when I look at his picture,

1363
01:28:02.100 --> 01:28:04.500
I was like, why he didn't listen?

1364
01:28:05.460 --> 01:28:10.460
And I never realized I animosity against him for leaving me.

1365
01:28:15.900 --> 01:28:16.740
So thank you.

1366
01:28:16.740 --> 01:28:18.020
That's powerful, Stephanie.

1367
01:28:18.020 --> 01:28:19.020
That's so powerful.

1368
01:28:19.020 --> 01:28:20.460
Thank you for sharing that with us

1369
01:28:20.460 --> 01:28:22.280
and opening your heart about that.

1370
01:28:23.260 --> 01:28:26.620
Y'all, this is real stuff, right?

1371
01:28:28.540 --> 01:28:30.260
There are so many things that the Lord

1372
01:28:30.260 --> 01:28:34.860
just gonna say lovingly, like, hey, forgive them,

1373
01:28:34.860 --> 01:28:38.740
forgive yourself, and this is why it matters.

1374
01:28:38.740 --> 01:28:40.660
Okay, so good.

1375
01:28:40.660 --> 01:28:44.140
All right, Rambo, did I say it right?

1376
01:28:45.900 --> 01:28:46.940
You did, yes.

1377
01:28:46.940 --> 01:28:48.460
Awesome, okay, go ahead.

1378
01:28:50.500 --> 01:28:55.500
So for me, the Lord kept bringing memory all week,

1379
01:28:55.620 --> 01:28:57.220
which really surprised me

1380
01:28:57.220 --> 01:29:01.020
just because I just recently signed up for this class

1381
01:29:03.220 --> 01:29:06.780
and I kept thinking to myself,

1382
01:29:06.780 --> 01:29:09.900
I've been through so much therapy, sozo's,

1383
01:29:09.900 --> 01:29:11.300
healings, just everything.

1384
01:29:11.300 --> 01:29:13.980
And I was just like, okay, well, I'll just be here,

1385
01:29:13.980 --> 01:29:16.300
but I don't see why.

1386
01:29:16.300 --> 01:29:21.300
And so in my marriage, there was a lot of infidelity

1387
01:29:22.980 --> 01:29:26.820
and I have forgiven him so many times,

1388
01:29:26.820 --> 01:29:30.100
just forgiven so many things.

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But what surprised me is that the Lord was bringing up

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the women that were involved

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and specifically this one memory of someone

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that I thought was his friend only to find out later

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that it was more than that,

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but she had a conversation with me

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and was telling me that the reason he's doing

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what he's doing is because I don't listen to him

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and I don't do this and that, just blaming me.

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And the Lord just kept bringing that up

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and I was just surprised.

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eyes, that I actually physically felt it in my heart. And that's

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just something, you know, because I kept telling myself,

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01:30:07.640 --> 01:30:10.880
you know, these women don't know it's not their fault, but I did

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not realize that I was still hurting behind even their part

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in this.

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That's so good. Rambo, so many times people don't realize, I

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01:30:26.120 --> 01:30:31.840
have to think of the phrase, we redirect things that we feel on

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to other people. So sometimes, like, it sounds like you were

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01:30:36.120 --> 01:30:39.680
upset with him. But like, for me, one of the things I did

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when I'm the girl's dad, my, my ex husband did stuff like this,

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01:30:45.040 --> 01:30:48.440
too. But the girl's dad was one of the main, like, I've never

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01:30:48.440 --> 01:30:51.600
been through betrayal, like what I went through with him. And I

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01:30:51.600 --> 01:30:54.720
had a lady that he was having a side relationship with actually

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01:30:54.720 --> 01:30:58.000
like, stalk me on social media was is like, terrible, y'all.

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And, and so I started kind of like stepping out of my online

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01:31:02.840 --> 01:31:04.880
ministry and everything, because I just didn't want to deal with

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01:31:04.880 --> 01:31:10.280
it. But I'm saying all that to say, um, I remember just

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directing my anger on to even this one other woman that he was

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01:31:17.520 --> 01:31:20.040
doing some stuff with that I went to church with, I had just

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01:31:20.040 --> 01:31:25.840
started becoming friends with her too. And random, they met at

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01:31:25.840 --> 01:31:30.080
a bar. And yeah, it went downhill from there. But I never

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01:31:30.080 --> 01:31:34.960
spoke to her ever again. I just couldn't handle it. And I just

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01:31:34.960 --> 01:31:41.720
had to cut her out. Because that was easier than dealing with the

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01:31:41.720 --> 01:31:45.600
situation with him at that time. Now I did end up dealing with

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01:31:45.600 --> 01:31:48.040
that situation and obviously broke up with him and all the

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01:31:48.040 --> 01:31:55.960
things, but I had to forgive myself for like cutting her out.

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Because she actually didn't even do anything wrong. Like she

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actually told me that he kind of approached her at the bar and all

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01:32:01.480 --> 01:32:06.160
this stuff. But I just was mad at her. You know, I'm saying, and

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so I had to forgive myself for that. And then also the other

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01:32:10.200 --> 01:32:13.000
women that actually did do stuff with him and like that woman

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01:32:13.000 --> 01:32:16.760
that bullied me and I mean, she was saying crazy stuff to me. I'm

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01:32:16.760 --> 01:32:21.560
like, oh, if you only knew, you know, so I resonate with what

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01:32:21.560 --> 01:32:24.480
you're sharing in that regard. And so yeah, we have to forgive

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01:32:24.480 --> 01:32:27.760
all the people in the story, ladies. And even if your

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01:32:27.760 --> 01:32:31.640
situation isn't this, like even if it was a situation, this is

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01:32:31.640 --> 01:32:34.600
just coming up in my spirit as we start to close tonight. And I

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01:32:34.600 --> 01:32:37.440
will, Stephanie Kay will still share just so you know, so don't

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01:32:37.440 --> 01:32:42.720
go anywhere. If you were hurt in a church, you don't have to

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01:32:42.720 --> 01:32:47.840
raise your hand. Okay. I just want to encourage you to forgive

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01:32:48.720 --> 01:32:52.720
those people, those leaders, whatever the situation and

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01:32:52.720 --> 01:32:56.760
scenario is, because God wants you to be able to move forward

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01:32:56.760 --> 01:33:01.000
and receive new community. Some of you are isolated, and you're

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01:33:01.000 --> 01:33:04.880
not connecting in church community, because you have

1444
01:33:04.880 --> 01:33:08.640
walls up because of the pain of the past. Okay, really

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01:33:08.640 --> 01:33:13.200
important. Rambo, thank you for sharing. Stephanie Kay, go

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01:33:13.200 --> 01:33:15.680
ahead. And then we'll close after Stephanie Kay, you all.

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01:33:16.440 --> 01:33:20.480
Thanks, Bethany. I'm so had a really great conversation with

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my group. And I think, for me, the first thing that came up is

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01:33:24.560 --> 01:33:27.480
as we were kind of going through the questions was forgiving

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01:33:27.480 --> 01:33:30.920
myself, honestly, just for years of people pleasing, I feel the

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01:33:30.920 --> 01:33:34.360
Lord brought up in my spirit that so much of my childhood was

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01:33:34.400 --> 01:33:38.440
never having the option to say no. And so how that has really

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01:33:38.440 --> 01:33:41.760
shaped the way that I've kind of been in spaces where I feel

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01:33:41.760 --> 01:33:44.640
like I have to continue to say yes. And I think honestly,

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01:33:44.640 --> 01:33:47.640
related to that as well, just like, being in community with

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01:33:47.640 --> 01:33:51.760
someone who has hurt me and continues to hurt me. And like,

1457
01:33:51.760 --> 01:33:54.240
what is that? What does forgiveness look like in that?

1458
01:33:54.240 --> 01:33:57.240
And, like, went to church yesterday, and the passages love

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01:33:57.240 --> 01:33:59.920
your enemies, the same one that you had tonight. And so feeling

1460
01:33:59.920 --> 01:34:03.560
the conviction in that, but also the fear of like, what if this

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01:34:03.560 --> 01:34:05.120
just keeps happening? You know,

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01:34:05.960 --> 01:34:10.360
that's so good. This is gonna be a great closing for me to coach

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01:34:10.360 --> 01:34:13.200
on this for a minute. Stephanie, thank you for sharing that and

1464
01:34:13.200 --> 01:34:18.960
being vulnerable. I think here's the thing you all balance is key

1465
01:34:19.240 --> 01:34:23.760
always, and the Lord will help you be in balance. And so will

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01:34:23.760 --> 01:34:27.640
this community if you will come into community and share here. I

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01:34:27.640 --> 01:34:29.520
know I tell you guys, you're gonna get tired of hearing me

1468
01:34:29.520 --> 01:34:33.080
say it. But when you post in the group, and you allow us to see

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01:34:33.080 --> 01:34:36.560
you, or you share live or you share in the breakouts, you

1470
01:34:36.560 --> 01:34:39.920
know, this is this is like where you can take advantage of like

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01:34:39.920 --> 01:34:45.000
learning how to navigate what you're processing. But also,

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having grown up in a home where I felt like I couldn't say no

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01:34:50.280 --> 01:34:54.280
either. And then I did that a lot in relationships, like I

1474
01:34:54.320 --> 01:34:57.360
like I just dated guys, and I saw red flags, and I would just

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01:34:57.360 --> 01:35:00.000
blow past him. Part of that was because I was a people

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01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:03.360
pleaser. And I just was trying to make everybody happy and, and

1477
01:35:03.360 --> 01:35:08.360
all of this. And sometimes I was afraid, honestly, and I didn't

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01:35:08.360 --> 01:35:12.040
see my value. And so I would minimize myself to stay with

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01:35:12.040 --> 01:35:17.880
someone that just really was no good for me. And so along the

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01:35:17.880 --> 01:35:23.640
way, I remember, I just started making a list of how I felt

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01:35:23.640 --> 01:35:28.120
about myself. And if there was anything negative on it, kind of

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01:35:28.120 --> 01:35:31.600
like the silhouette that I gave you guys that that exercise, if

1483
01:35:31.600 --> 01:35:36.880
you're brand new, it would be in the replay from last week, I

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01:35:36.880 --> 01:35:42.120
think. And basically, we want to get rid of negative things that

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01:35:42.120 --> 01:35:44.720
we think about ourselves. So even as we do the silhouette

1486
01:35:44.720 --> 01:35:48.080
exercise, and we ask God to help us hear what he has to say about

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01:35:48.080 --> 01:35:51.280
us, anything negative, we want to write that on a separate

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01:35:51.280 --> 01:35:54.280
paper and ask God to help us know the truth to replace that

1489
01:35:54.280 --> 01:35:58.160
lie. But basically, I'm saying that to you to say is the more

1490
01:35:58.160 --> 01:36:02.520
that you know who you are in Christ, like who will like your

1491
01:36:02.520 --> 01:36:07.240
identity, like what, what are your values? I guess that's kind

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01:36:07.240 --> 01:36:10.160
of where I'm going. Because if we know ourself better, and we

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01:36:10.160 --> 01:36:15.920
know what our values are, like, what do we care about? Like,

1494
01:36:15.920 --> 01:36:18.600
what are our God non negotiables? Next, next week,

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we're going to talk a little bit about control. And we're going

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to talk about never will I ever list. And when you know, so I

1497
01:36:25.600 --> 01:36:27.880
don't want to give too much away. But like, as you all are

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01:36:27.880 --> 01:36:31.880
seeking the Lord, and kind of starting to figure out, like the

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01:36:31.880 --> 01:36:35.440
surrender, the pen, like, what are some God, God, non

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negotiables, though, like, for me, I definitely wanted to marry

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01:36:39.920 --> 01:36:42.720
someone that didn't just tell me they wanted to have a baby that

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01:36:42.720 --> 01:36:47.080
genuinely wanted to have children. Because my former

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01:36:47.080 --> 01:36:51.920
husband said he wanted kids. He already had a son, I thought we

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01:36:51.920 --> 01:36:56.120
were having more kids and got married. And lo and behold, he

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01:36:56.120 --> 01:37:00.360
didn't want any more kids. Well, now I'm stuck in a marriage with

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01:37:00.360 --> 01:37:05.400
someone that doesn't want kids not always wanted kids. So then

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01:37:05.400 --> 01:37:09.640
same kind of thing dating the girl's dad changed his mind. And

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01:37:09.640 --> 01:37:12.440
we're not getting married, kept talking about marriage. Praise

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01:37:12.440 --> 01:37:15.280
God, I didn't marry him. I say it all the time, y'all. I'm so

1510
01:37:15.280 --> 01:37:20.880
glad God did not give me my answer to that prayer. But then

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01:37:20.920 --> 01:37:24.600
when I was looking this last time around, I knew better what

1512
01:37:24.600 --> 01:37:28.560
I wanted and not like a list of like, he can't have this color

1513
01:37:28.560 --> 01:37:31.640
hair, he can't have this name, or none of that kind of stuff,

1514
01:37:31.640 --> 01:37:35.800
you all but just the core. Like, I didn't want him just to say,

1515
01:37:35.800 --> 01:37:39.080
Oh, like, I love God. Okay, great. You go to church. But do

1516
01:37:39.080 --> 01:37:43.560
you really live by the fruits of the Spirit? Is that a part of

1517
01:37:43.560 --> 01:37:46.680
your life? So that's I don't know if that's helpful,

1518
01:37:46.720 --> 01:37:51.520
Stephanie. But like, I think the more that you just like discern

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01:37:51.520 --> 01:37:57.480
who you are, you will know how to say no to unhealthy things

1520
01:37:57.520 --> 01:38:02.120
more. Does that make sense? So I kind of made that long journey

1521
01:38:02.120 --> 01:38:07.360
to get there. Oh, you all have fun when I'm here. All right,

1522
01:38:07.360 --> 01:38:10.720
it's 938. Let me close us down. It's been an amazing night. I

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01:38:10.720 --> 01:38:16.200
hope you all are enjoying this process. We're here for you. If

1524
01:38:16.200 --> 01:38:19.400
you need prayer at any time, you can post in the group and let us

1525
01:38:19.400 --> 01:38:23.160
know don't feel like you have to struggle by yourself. And we

1526
01:38:23.160 --> 01:38:27.760
will, we will be honored to pray for you. And really looking

1527
01:38:27.760 --> 01:38:30.560
forward to seeing what God does for you and in you in the days

1528
01:38:30.560 --> 01:38:35.480
ahead. So Father, we just thank you. Oh, man, God, you're just

1529
01:38:35.480 --> 01:38:41.320
so good. I thank you, God, for renewing our minds, changing our

1530
01:38:41.320 --> 01:38:44.440
perspectives where we need it, Lord, helping us forgive

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01:38:44.440 --> 01:38:47.840
ourselves and other people, helping us to receive your

1532
01:38:47.840 --> 01:38:52.600
forgiveness. Help us to never forget the sacrifice that Jesus

1533
01:38:52.600 --> 01:38:56.920
made for us. And he did it because he loved us. And you

1534
01:38:56.920 --> 01:39:00.240
love us and he chose relationships. So help us Lord,

1535
01:39:00.520 --> 01:39:05.840
to turn towards relationship with you. Yeah, Lord, I thank

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01:39:05.840 --> 01:39:09.880
you for just filling us afresh with your Holy Spirit. And the

1537
01:39:09.880 --> 01:39:13.120
days ahead, I thank you that you'll help us to worship, that

1538
01:39:13.120 --> 01:39:17.640
our worship is warfare, and that we can rest in you, Lord. I

1539
01:39:17.640 --> 01:39:20.320
thank you that you would just continue to cleanse our minds

1540
01:39:20.320 --> 01:39:22.960
and our hearts and our bodies and spirits and souls more and

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01:39:22.960 --> 01:39:25.760
more in the days ahead. We just thank you in advance for it in

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01:39:25.760 --> 01:39:30.120
Jesus name. Amen. God bless you all. I'll see you all in the

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01:39:30.120 --> 01:39:33.680
group. Have an amazing week, everyone. Bye.

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01:39:33.920 --> 01:39:35.080
Good night.