Hello, welcome. Welcome, welcome. It's great to see you all tonight. We have 16 on right
now 15 it looks like it's going back and forth on right now and I'm sure there's going to
be some more joining us. If you are joining us for the first time. If you can let us know
in the chat so that we can say hi to you and welcome you that would be great. Also want
to encourage you if you're able, if you're driving or eating, don't feel like you have
to come on screen. But if you're able to come on screen, we want to encourage you to come
on screen for every live session. Here's part of why and I haven't said this in a long time,
but I thought of it this afternoon and Jackie used to say it all the time. Y'all there's
grace on our face. So why does that matter? Well, because when we're coaching or teaching,
sometimes there's just things that the Holy Spirit will speak to us as we see some of
you all and we see what how the Lord is moving throughout the process. Sometimes it's a prophetic
thing. And so it's important for you to know that it like show up fully as much as you
can. Okay. And so no shame if you can't get on, I know some people are also working and
so don't feel any kind of condemnation if you can't get on screen, but I want to encourage
you if you can to do so. Here's the second reason why in our society in general, even
before COVID people started isolating more and more and more going more tech and less
connection with people less letting themselves be seen known accepted all those things. Then
when COVID happened, that kind of accelerated that and we started going on screen all the
time, like what we do here, but you all I've led online for a very long time, even before
I came into this community and I can't tell you how many times the blank screens are there.
And I get it that even sometimes I'll come on, on Saturday mornings and I'll listen in
and you know, maybe not turn it on, but I want to encourage you come on live as much
as you can, because you're going to be practicing coming out of hiding in this season. And some
of you will be like, well, I don't think I've been hiding. You will be surprised at what
God shows you in the season, the ways that you have pulled back and maybe not shown up
as your full self at times, or even not let yourself be seen. And we want, we want God
sees you and we want to see you. So we love to see your faces. My name is Bethany Cooper.
I think I forgot to say that in the beginning. I'm one of the heartwork coaches in this community.
And y'all, I just love what God's doing here. He's really moving and shifting our hearts
as well. And one of the things even this morning, as I led prayer, it's just that reminder to
be praying and asking God to change our hearts regarding how we view God himself as well
as men. And I want to just nudge you in that direction again tonight. If you have not seen
it already, Supernatural Saturday is available for you in the app, in the replay tab. Okay.
So the replays is going to be like Supernatural Saturday. Sometimes we'll record Sunday night.
Last night did not get recorded because it was just a normal Sunday night prayer. But
sometimes we will do that if we do like a prophetic ministry night. And then your training
tab is where all your coursework is going to be. So that's the core part of your courses.
I did want to give you all a heads up, especially even for my ladies that are finishing phase
one. We, we did not get that breaking soul ties video redone yet. So what we decided
to do is go ahead and put the old one back in for now. So definitely check that out before
you head on to phase two. Don't feel like you can't go ahead and move to phase two,
but I just want you all to know it's there. It'll bring you just as much healing if you
do it once you're in phase two. Sorry, I'll have a little bug here flying around. So that
is there for you all as well. And that's in week three. So that's where that's at in the
course curriculum location. For those that are joining us new, you're here for the first
time. If you didn't hear me say that, please let us know that you're joining for the first
time. I see Lolita. Hi Lolita. Um, Jennifer, are you saying you're joining for the first
time as well? Hi star. Anyone else joining for the first time? Tiffany? I see. Oh, Nicole.
Well, welcome back just in case to double check. All right. Welcome to your first time
here tonight. The way it's going to work is I'm going to do, I'm going to pray here in
a minute. We're going to do some content. Uh, we're all do some talking and sharing
and then we'll do breakout sessions. And in those breakout sessions, I'll give you a question.
You're going to go in and you're going to talk with the other sisters that are in this community
group with you. And a lot of you aren't going to know each other, but this is how it starts.
You start to get to know each other through these breakout session times. And we want to
encourage you don't, don't sign out when breakouts start happening. Y'all can get so much more.
freedom if you'll stay and engage in those.
If you're at work again, all you have to do is let me know
that you can't go into breakout and I'll make sure
to move people that maybe were partnered with you
or will be partnered with you around.
And then we'll come back, we'll do some group coaching,
I'll share a little bit more and we'll do it again.
We'll do another breakout and then come back
and do group coaching.
So on that note, let me pray for us and get us started.
Father, thank you so much for who you are.
God, thank you for the reminder just that your mercy
is new every morning, it's new even in this moment.
God, I thank you that we can just pause
and just say thank you at any time.
We can pause and ask for help at any time
that you are an ever present help.
In any time of trouble or any time of situation
or navigating things, seeking out healing,
God, we thank you that you're doing something supernatural
in this community, in this movement.
We thank you, God, for the grace that's upon this movement,
upon our leaders, upon our team.
We thank you, God, for even the ladies that come in
and the men that come into this movement, God,
that you have prepared them.
You've drawn them here for such a time as this.
We thank you that you'll help them to step further
into the healing that you have for them.
God, that you are the main thing.
You're the main reason that we're all here.
So Lord, help us to receive everything you have for us
to bring us closer to understanding
of who you are as a good father,
that you're faithful, that you're true,
that you never leave us, you never forsake us.
God, even when we face fear or anxiety, worries,
all these things that come upon us,
Lord, we thank you that you gave us the ability to overcome.
We thank you that the blood is powerful
and by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony,
we can overcome.
Help us to step further into kingdom revelation tonight,
that you would help us to heal in our hearts more tonight,
that anything in darkness would be brought to the light
so that we can be healed and restored
and step further into who you originally created us to be.
Help us to see ourself through your eyes, Lord.
Not the eyes of man, not even our own interpretation
or judgment of ourselves or criticisms,
but help us to see ourselves through your eyes.
We thank you that you would remove scales,
even like with Paul.
When you encountered him on the road to Damascus,
he was blind for three days.
And in that time, God, you spoke to him, you met with him,
God, and then as he received the infilling of the Holy Spirit,
those scales fell from his eyes.
We ask for a fresh infilling of your Holy Spirit.
Holy Spirit, we thank you for being here with us.
We just ask you to have your way.
In Jesus name, amen.
Y'all, that was really kind of,
I wasn't planning to pray about the thing
with the Damascus road, but for some of you,
it doesn't mean that you're not saved.
It just means that you've been walking
in a little bit of darkness.
And it doesn't mean that you haven't loved the Lord,
that God wants to give you new eyes to see,
a new spirit to hear what his spirit is saying to you,
about you, for you.
And I believe that he wants to give us all
an upgrade tonight.
So we're gonna talk a little bit about overcoming fear
and anxiety.
We're also gonna talk about control.
And we're gonna talk about just the reality
that in the midst of all of that, we have hope.
We always have hope you all.
And I know sometimes we don't feel full of hope
because our feelings do impact us.
But what we choose in those moments is faith.
We choose to receive fresh faith from heaven.
We can ask God to give us an impartation of faith.
Just so y'all know too,
there is in the Bible a scripture
that talks about the gift of faith.
So if you don't have faith at times,
just know that there is that choice to have faith,
but we can also ask God to stir up the gift of faith
within us to impart that within us
so that we can walk in more faith in the days ahead.
I want you to think about your hearts.
And if you can imagine, excuse me,
kind of like a Play-Doh or cookie dough.
And when you're kind of kneading it and you're moving it,
if you put a thumbprint in it, it stays there, doesn't it?
If you push on Play-Doh with your thumb or you squeeze it,
your fingerprints, your impressions
are gonna stay there, right?
I want you to think about this
as we're talking about the heart tonight.
Our hearts, they're either,
A, can sometimes be hardened through pain and trauma.
The Bible talks about that, right?
We can have stony, hardened hearts,
but at the core, on the inside, they're impressionable.
We can make an impression on them,
the enemy through the lies and the fear
and the doubt and the unbelief
and all the things that he spews.
is, can cause there to be an impression on our hearts. And so
I want you just to be thinking about if you don't have paper,
you might want to grab some, or you can put it in your phone or
whatever works for you all, you know, I don't want you to feel
distracted by it. But I want you just to be jotting things down
tonight as I as I'm sharing as we're talking as we're I'm
asking questions for y'all to engage in the chat before we
even go into breakouts, because I want you to be thinking about
the thoughts that you have. I want you to be thinking about
the ways that fear and anxiety try to enter your world on a
regular basis. Proverbs 423 says this, keep your heart with all
vigilance, for from it flows the springs of life. That word
vigilance there leads it's just the quality or state of being
vigilant. But when I look at vigilant, this is what it means
alertly watchful to avoid danger. Jackie talks in the
videos about how so many times we put passwords and locks on
everything y'all our front door in our in our house here in
Florida, when we moved here, we were like, why are there three
locks on this door, we really didn't understand there's three
locks on the door. And sometimes I'm like, Oh, these God bless
these locks, trying to get out of my own doors hard sometimes.
But when the hurricane came, y'all, we understood why they
have three locks on that door. The wind catches the door in
such a way that it was blowing, you know, air and wind through
the through the cracks in the door and water was coming in and
all this stuff. So sometimes it's good to have locks. But
you know, sometimes we don't have any locks. Imagine instead
of the three locks on my door, which y'all could see it right
now, I had my door wide open, and anything that wanted to come
in that door could come right on in. And a lot of times that's
what we do with our hearts. We allow everything that someone
says to us everything that we think everything the enemy
causes to come into our minds. We receive that as all truth,
don't we a lot of the time. I want you guys to be thinking
about even I didn't think to say this earlier today, but what's
just come up in my spirit, I want you to think about this. As
you are processing your thoughts, I want you to pause
and ask the Lord God, is this your thought? Is this a thought
from the enemy? Or is this my, my thought? God, is this your
thought? Is this a thought from the enemy? Or is this my own
thought? And I want you just to start doing that with the Lord
on a more regular basis, because there's a lot of you that think
that it's your thought, but it's actually the enemy feeding you a
thought that he wants you to think on, but it's actually not
yours. Okay, it originated from the liar of all liars, and he
wants you to get tripped up. But we're going to start becoming
more alertly watchful of our hearts starting tonight. Fear is
false evidence of appearing real. So I want you to think
even right now fears that you've faced even in the last few days,
maybe today, the last week, whenever you felt afraid on any
level, it'd be a little fear, big fear, maybe you had a fear
rise up as you know, heartwork stuff is surfacing. And I want
you to think about that fear that rose up, and how it
presented itself. What did it come up with? What was it
connected to? Fear is false evidence appearing real. Even
when Jesus was in the wilderness, Satan went there,
didn't he? And he was saying things to Jesus. And what was he
doing? He was taking a little bit of truth, and twisting it
even when he was speaking to Jesus himself. But Jesus knows
the truth. He is the way the truth in the life. So he knew
how to speak truth into what was being said to overcome it. So
y'all he gave us an example. When we are being faced with
lies and doubt and unbelief and fear and all this stuff that the
enemy is taking a little bit of truth, and he's distorting it so
that we eat it like a morsel. You know, we don't even
understand it. It's just, it tastes good for that moment. And
then the pain comes, doesn't it? Yeah, it does. But the more we
grow in the healing of the Father of who we are, our hearts
are getting healed, the more we're going to understand the
truth, and we're going to see the truth as it is. We're not
going to see the truth twisted anymore. It takes time. Some of
you all your journeys might be a little longer in healing. Some
of you all might need to like hang out and in one of the weeks
a little bit longer because the Holy Spirit might nudge you to
do that. And if that's you, I want to encourage you to lean
into that. Because the Father knows best for you.
He knows what's best.
Anxiety, we're talking about fears,
false evidence appearing real.
Anxiety, get this you all, guess what it's fueled by?
Fear.
Anxiety are typically what if thoughts.
I mean, we think a lot of other things,
but typically it's what if that?
What if this?
What if that?
You know, what if this scenario happens?
And what if they do this?
And then I'm gonna have to go do this.
And then I'm, and before we know it,
we've caused ourselves to be up in a frenzy.
And again, you all, when I coach, when I release this stuff,
I really don't ever want you all to feel shame
or guilt or condemnation.
If you feel that, know that that's coming from the devil,
even as you're here listening to this,
because I have felt these things too.
And that's how I can coach you through it.
I've learned how to apply the truth.
I've learned how to overcome anxiety.
And there was a time in my life
where the enemy tried to convince me
that I was always anxious, that that's just who you are.
And so one day I said to God,
like, why did you make me this way?
And he said, I didn't.
I was driving, literally, I know exactly where I was.
I was in Lexington, Kentucky.
I was driving to work and I was in pain.
I was going through a lot of the revelations.
That's when I found out that my spiritual father's dad
had been cheating on me.
And I remember just the panic
and all the things that flooded in
with the pain of that situation.
And I was driving to work and just tore up.
And all the anxiety that I had gotten over years ago,
it felt like it all came back like a flood.
Does anyone ever have that happen?
You overcome an area,
but down the road you go through a situation
and it feels like all that stuff has come right back in.
That's how it felt.
And so that's why I said to God,
why did you make me this way?
I don't wanna be anxious anymore.
I don't wanna be afraid.
And he said, I didn't.
And it caused me to pause like, wait a minute, what?
What do you mean?
Because I feel like I've always been afraid,
that I've always been anxious.
And God said, no, when I originally created you
before trauma ever entered,
and this is long before I came into heart work,
which then we learn about this here.
He said, I didn't put that in you.
Trauma that you experienced in lives
that you believed as a kid,
because I didn't have the ability to process
what I was going through as a little girl
in an abusive home.
I didn't, a lot of you didn't.
And so God in his goodness was like,
no, don't believe that lie.
That is not a part of your character.
It is not a part of who you are.
The enemy is trying to convince you that it is,
but it's not.
And from that day forward, am I gonna say
I've never had an anxious thought ever again?
No.
The reality is, is the enemy always tries to come back
and bring it back.
He keeps trying to come back to the door
and bring us back the stuff we've already overcome.
And then he also tries to bring us new stuff.
So we have to stand again, what?
Alertly watchful, to be sober and vigilant,
to pay attention.
We cast down every thought, we take it captive,
we cast it down and make it obedient to truth.
So even myself, I've overcome.
Now though, here's the difference.
I felt like I, even though I had victory before,
the enemy was trying to convince me in that season
that I never had the victory.
But that wasn't true.
I always, even from before trauma entered,
I always had the victory.
Why?
Because I was made in the image of God.
I was covered by the blood of the lamb.
So I am his and I have victory in him.
When I give my life to Jesus Christ,
I automatically enter that victory and so do you.
And so tonight we're gonna learn a little bit more
how to apply the victory,
but we first have to identify the root fears
and the things that are causing the anxiety to happen.
So I want you to be thinking about
trauma that you've been through,
situations that have caused fear or anxiety.
Maybe some of you have panic, worry, or dread disorders.
Maybe some of you don't deal with any of this
on a regular basis, but when something happens,
maybe you start what's coming up in my spirit.
Some of you, it surfaces the most
when you're moving towards something good
and the enemy is trying to convince you
that you can't do it, you can't have it,
whatever the storyline is.
Trauma that happened to us is not what stops us
from living an amazing life, you all.
It's not the trauma that stops us,
but it's the lies that we believe
as a result of the trauma.
Stephanie, I saw your video today and I loved it.
I loved it and I was so excited like it's one of those moments where I'm just like and y'all I love all your posts
But it's you know, there's these moments where it's just like this is all these posts y'all are doing
This is why we do what we do. Thank you Jesus
Because we never know what one thing that someone's gonna hear and it's just gonna click
It's just gonna click so every time we keep coming the posts that you all are doing as you're sharing
I hope you know that other sisters are seeing those posts and they are being set free as well
You guys don't get to see all the testimonies that come in from people that are being impacted even as you share
So keep on showing up and keep on sharing, but it's the lies we believe as a result of the trauma
Now Stephanie when you shared what what I feel like I I want to pull this forward if y'all didn't see her video in the
App check it out. It's really good
But she was saying it was something she thought that had happened
That was causing her to think her identity was a certain way, but that wasn't her identity
That's not her identity. God gave her an identity
God dreamed her up just like he dreamed you up and and God was excited when he formed you and he made you and
So then when the when the enemy brought the trauma
That's when the lies entered
So I want you to think about any areas where you might have had like where you might say, okay
This is a problem area or I always get stuck here
I feel like I I
Gave three steps ahead and two steps back three steps ahead and two steps back or however
You guys want to say it that push pull where you just feel stuck in an area
I want you to write down what that area is
And and for those of you that feel led you can put it in the chat
Let's see some of the areas that you have been feeling stuck in your life
Go ahead and put those in the chat for us
Okay health and anxiety rejection trusting friendships, okay
That's good
Time management
Uh
Is it you've Elise? I don't know if I said that right tell me when that shows up for you the most
When do you struggle with time management the most is it related to certain types of projects or just in general?
rejection
Okay moving into true adulthood I like that
Me to time management family dynamics homeownership and love life anxiety weight same routine
Okay, y'all keep putting those in there for us. I
Want to keep seeing those? Okay, I'm gonna keep going
Here's the thing when we feel stuck in an area. That's actually a signal to us
That that is an area that we believe lies
in
some way or another
So if you all are thinking about where you feel stuck
I want you to start asking the Lord to reveal to you
What lies am I believing?
surrounding these areas
Because even after heart work some of you might still need healing and some of those additional areas so that you can step into
The fullness of who God has called you to be
Not everyone sees the dysfunction in our in their life or the problems that are surrounding them
A lot of times we have blind spots and filters you all we can't fully see
The dysfunction or areas that are causing us to get tripped up
That's why it's important for y'all to invest in something like this, which praise God
Hopefully y'all have patted yourself on your on the back and just been proud of yourselves for coming here for for choosing
To invest in your heart work to choose to invest in your future
Blessed life the goodness of God that you're gonna experience in the land of the living as you continue to heal
There's a lot of people that will never take the step to invest in this it's really awesome that y'all did
Okay, so all the lies that we believe there's one that I want to point out in particular tonight and here is what it is
I'm gonna read a little bit from the book and I never tell pages because again that the hard copy book is different from
the e-book
But it's called the biggest lie
Not everyone sees the dysfunction in their life as a problem the biggest lie that you may believe in life is that your life is
normal
Many people that live broken lives believe that it's reasonable to live that way
They have inherited the emotional debt or trauma for their from their family and they think it's normal to be overweight and unhappy
To be unfaithful to be in a relationship where someone mistreats you or to be sick all the time
They think it's okay to have massive amounts of debt and spend all their energy trying to figure out how to pay the bills
or even more severe deception,
like it's normal to abuse and hurt others or yourself.
I knew someone like that.
They thought it was normal to be molested by family members
because it's all they had ever known.
When they were confronted by an outsider about the abuse,
they said, that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it?
No, it does not.
Maybe you have been confronted by people in your life,
friends, coworkers, or even family
that are trying to get you to see
how dysfunctional an area of your life has become.
I have done this for people over the years.
Some people call it an intervention.
It's a reality check when someone is so deep in a lie
that their behavior has become dangerous
to others or themselves.
And so I'm using this tonight
because I do believe some of us in the room tonight,
if you will, are watching the replay
that the enemy has been trying to convince you
to minimize what you have gone through.
And I do believe that it's just normal,
that everyone just has this kind of stuff happen.
And the reason I wanted to point this out
is we had a client, she's been through heart work,
she's been through phase two,
she's all the way in phase three,
she's been there for a while.
I've coached her several times
and Jackie's in the middle of doing some work
with her right now.
And y'all, she's finally just,
like every time she was coached,
there was more stuff coming out,
well, it's no big deal,
I made the best of it,
or this is just what everybody goes through.
And so that was kind of what she told herself
when she was younger as a coping mechanism.
And so I wanna encourage you all,
if that is you,
I wanna encourage you to come out of agreement
with that lie tonight,
because God has better things for you.
And mistreatment and things like that are not normal.
And why am I connecting that to fear and anxiety?
Well, a lot of people
that do not get healing in these deep areas
will struggle with fear and anxiety,
panic, worry, dread,
even more than maybe other people might.
So we want you to step into truth.
And so I want you to pause and just ask yourself,
and remember, this can start tonight,
but even throughout this week,
you wanna ask God to help you with this.
When you are looking at those fears
or those areas where you've been stuck
that I've had you kind of writing down on the paper,
the ones you put in the chat,
I want you to ask yourself, what are the facts?
What are the facts?
And then what is true?
And if you don't know what that is yet,
again, remember what I said earlier,
you're gonna start asking God,
God, what are your thoughts?
What are the thoughts from the enemy?
And what are my thoughts?
And you're gonna start to sort out
what is true and what is not true by doing that.
We can overcome fears the more we heal
and become more rooted in God's love and faithfulness to us.
Here are some other scenarios with people
that struggle with lots of fear or panic
or thoughts like this.
They might be someone who is always waiting
for the other shoe to drop.
Maybe you tend to think the worst case scenario
instead of the best case scenario.
Maybe you hear a siren and think automatically
that something has happened to someone you love.
Maybe you're someone that when someone doesn't respond
to a text message you've sent
in the timeframe you think that they should,
you start to have spiraling thoughts like,
they're mad at me, they don't care about me.
They must be talking to someone else.
I'm not pretty enough.
I'm not good enough.
I'm fill in the blank.
Anxious attachment style, people that struggle with that,
they will tend to spiral in their thoughts
when a lot of times none of those things are happening.
Okay, super important for y'all to pay attention
to where the spiral thoughts might be taking you.
So I want you to ask yourself lately,
what have your thoughts been rooted in?
What have they been rooted in?
Have they been rooted in fear, doubt, unbelief, pain?
Have they been rooted in love, joy, peace?
When you start to look at what they're rooted in,
it will then show you why you're like then
the fruit that's coming forth.
Next week, we're gonna talk about identity
and I don't know the second topic yet,
but we're gonna do the,
if you haven't been here yet for this one,
some of our ladies that are starting to move
in the next phase,
we're gonna do the root system activation next week.
We're gonna look at our roots
and where they started
and where we can start to discern
the roots that we still need to work on
and the roots that are starting to heal
because some of y'all are experiencing a lot of healing
and it's good to pay attention to that as well.
All right, here's some scriptures for you.
First John 4, 18.
This is John 4, 18.
The Amplified Version.
There is no fear in love, dread does not exist.
But perfect, so perfect here,
what it means is complete, full-grown love drives out fear,
because fear involves the expectation of divine punishment.
So the one who is afraid of God's judgment
is not perfected in love,
which what that means is they have not grown
into a sufficient understanding of God's love.
So basically it's telling us that if we live in fear,
that we actually expect divine judgment,
because we don't have a true understanding
of God's love for us.
God himself is love, he cannot and will not deny himself,
we are made in the image of God,
therefore we are in him, he is in us,
so if he cannot deny himself, guess what you all?
He cannot deny us, nothing can separate us
from the love of God, not height, not depth,
nor principality, nor power, nor things in the present,
nor things to come, but yet so many of us struggle,
don't we?
So maybe tonight the upgrade is God,
help me to understand who you are as love more,
because the more that we understand who he is as love,
you all, the more secure we're gonna become in him,
and again, it doesn't mean we're never gonna feel fear
or be tempted to feel afraid,
but we can stand and remain, oh wait,
I don't have to be afraid,
because my daddy, my daddy's got me,
he loves me, I'm in his love right now,
and no matter what I go through,
I'm under the shadow of his wings,
because guess what?
He shows up and he brings an army to fight on my behalf,
do you all just, can you feel that even when I'm saying it?
We don't fight alone, you all,
and we don't fight for victory, we fight from it,
Jesus already died and gave us the victory,
but we have to step into it, okay?
John 3.16 says this,
"'For God so loved the world that he gave
"'his only begotten son that whosoever believes in him
"'should not perish, but have everlasting life.'"
I'm getting ready to put you all
into the breakout sessions here in just a few minutes,
I want to share these song lyrics with you all,
it's by Zach Williams, it's called Fear is a Liar,
and as I'm reading these song lyrics,
I even want you to think about other fears
that maybe the Lord is trying to reveal to you
that you need to be set free from tonight.
Stephanie, that's totally fine,
you can hang out here while I pray,
and that'll be all good.
All right, so I'm gonna read these over you,
and Lord, I just pray that you would just continue
to reveal to the ladies anything that they've been fearing
that they don't even recognize they've been afraid of.
Lord, I thank you for revealing, for healing,
even as I read these song lyrics,
help them to hear what your spirit is saying
louder than the voice of the enemy, in Jesus' name.
Here are the lyrics, and this is as if,
like when he's singing this, it's as if, you know,
it says, when he told you, so he being the devil, okay?
When he told you you're not good enough,
when he told you you're not right,
when he told you you're not strong enough
to put up a good fight,
when he told you you're not worthy,
when he told you you're not loved,
when he told you you're not beautiful,
you'll never be enough.
Fear, he is a liar.
He will take your breath, stop you in your steps.
Fear, he is a liar.
He will rob your rest, steal your happiness,
cast your fear in the fire,
because fear, he is a liar.
When he told you you were troubled,
you'll forever be alone.
When he told you you should run away,
you'll never find a home.
When he told you you were dirty and you should be ashamed,
when he told you you could be the one
that grace could never change.
Oh, fear, he is a liar.
He will take your breath, stop you in your steps.
Fear, he is a liar.
He will rob your rest, steal your happiness,
cast your fear in the fire,
because fear, he is a liar.
Y'all, we have to cast our fears.
We have to get rid of that stuff.
We have to ask the Lord to, you know,
there's a scripture that talks about the wheat and the chaff
and the dross getting moved away, the winnowing fan,
that it would separate that stuff
and begin to take that stuff
that's not meant to be a part of us,
that will take that stuff away.
And so I believe by faith that that can happen tonight.
Here is your breakout question.
What fear or fears, if you have more than one that you are recognizing, are you going to ask
God to help you with tonight? What fear or fears are you going to ask God to help you with tonight?
All right, let me get these ready.
All right, I'm going to give you all nine minutes because I have like three to four people in a room
and if you go in a room and somebody's not there yet, just hang on because some people's internet's
a little slower than others but they'll get there or if I need to move people around I will, okay?
All right, praying for you all, go ahead and click to join those.
All right, Lord, we just thank you so much for your goodness. We thank you for everything you're
doing in our lives. We thank you for just continuing to give us revelation and insight
into all the work that you're doing in our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits, and our souls.
We thank you, God, for bringing truth in every area where there's been lies, Lord, where we've
been tormented from the past. We thank you for, yeah, Lord, I just saw in the spirit as if God is
tonight planting little seeds that are going to start to spring up with green leaves on them,
that it's going to bring life into areas where it's felt like they were dead areas in the past
where some of you all, you just felt like nothing good can come from that area, nothing good could
come from that pain or whatever it is that you've been through but God is saying tonight that he
can bring life out of any area of death. He is the one that brings life into every situation.
He is the resurrection and the life. So do you believe that you have an area that can't get
resurrected because God wants you to know tonight that it can be resurrected and it can thrive. You
can flourish as you surrender those areas to him. And so I thank you, God, right now. I thank you
for the women that are in these groups. We thank you for those that are here in this room with me
as well as those that will watch the replay. God, we know that you are bringing resurrection power
into their life. God, that you are helping them to rise up from the dead, to rise up from the grave
of their life, of the broken ashes. We thank you, God, that you bring beauty for ashes and the oil
of joy for mourning. We thank you that you would lift spirits of heaviness off of them, that you
would lift spirits of oppression and depression and Jesus' name that you would just break that
off of them. And we thank you that you would bring truth and hope and life. God, we thank you that
Lord, where the enemy has deceived us in the past, God, we thank you that you would lift every veil
of deception. God, and we thank you for placing the balm of Gilead upon our hearts, our minds,
our bodies, our spirits, and our souls. We thank you for healing us from the inside out and bringing
truth and revelation and hope in every place where there has been damage in the past. We thank you,
God, that you would breathe. I just keep hearing this, actually, it's a Christmas song, but the
breath of heaven. And so we thank you, God, that we just ask for breath of heaven to just breathe
over us tonight and to, yeah, bring peace. God, we thank you that you are the God of peace. So we
thank you that you would come and abide with us, that you would help us to abide in you and remain
in you, that we are the branches and you are the vine, that we are connected. And where the enemy
has tried to cause us to believe that we're severed, that we're broken, that we cannot be connected, or
we're not a part of the family, that we're always on the outside looking in, we thank you, God, for
that reconnection. That even in the truth is that we were never disconnected. So Lord, we just
thank you. I just, in the spirit, I just see the Lord just taking his hand and placing it upon those
areas of broken vines, broken branches in our minds, and he's pouring in healing. He's pouring in life.
He's pouring in love. And we just thank you that, yeah, just like a heartbeat that's restarting
again. We thank you, Lord, for revival happening within us.
Yeah, Lord, we thank you that we declare
spring up a well within our souls and make us whole.
We thank you that we would tap into the river of life
that's flowing in and out of us.
We thank you, Jesus, for setting us free.
And we thank you, Holy Spirit,
that where the spirit of the Lord is,
there is freedom, there is liberty for the captives.
And so we declare that you would open
the prison gates tonight and set captives free,
that you would bring truth and hope
in the midst of doubt and unbelief in every area.
We thank you, Lord, for even in the Psalm 86, 17,
it says this,
send me a miraculous sign to show me how much you love me
so that those who hate me will see it and be ashamed.
Don't they know that you, Lord, are my comforter,
the one who comes to help me.
God, thank you that you're the one that comes to our aid,
that you are the one that comes to help us.
God, I thank you that even in the areas
where some of us have battled sickness
for many, many years,
we thank you for healing our bodies,
healing our minds, healing our souls.
Yes, Lord, we thank you even in our timeline,
our family timelines, where there's been disruption,
disease, destruction,
we thank you that you're coming to rebuild,
restore, renew, and revitalize these areas.
And we just, we trust you, Lord, in this process.
We thank you that Psalm 99 says,
all who are oppressed may come to you as a shelter
in the time of trouble, a perfect hiding place.
God, I thank you that you are our hiding place.
God, I thank you that you would help us to run to you
and know that we are safe.
Psalm 1-3 says this,
he will be standing firm like a flourishing tree
planted by God's design,
deeply rooted by the brooks of bliss,
bearing fruit in every season of his life.
He is never dry, never fainting,
ever blessed and ever prosperous.
Lord, I thank you that you would help us, Lord,
as your daughters to envision ourselves
planted by streams of living water,
that our root systems would go down deep
into the river of water
and that we would get our sustenance directly from you.
Yes, Lord, I thank you that you would help us
to have a new vision, a new understanding
of who we are in you.
Psalm 37, eight says,
stay away from anger and revenge,
keep envy far from you,
for it only leads you in to lies.
So Lord, we just thank you for helping us
to step out of old mindsets, old lies.
Lord, that we would have a little bit more revelation tonight
of the things that have kept us bound.
Lord, we thank you, God,
that you are helping us to step into that truth
and into the light.
We know that your light casts out all darkness,
that in you, Jesus, there is no darkness,
that the darkness cannot even comprehend the light.
So we thank you that all darkness has to flee.
Yeah, yeah, Lord,
where the enemy has come in like a flood against us,
I thank you, Father,
that you raise up a standard against the enemy.
And we thank you that you make him pay back in full
and then some.
Yeah, thank you, Lord, thank you, Lord.
James 5, 11 through 12 says,
we give great honor to those who endure under suffering.
For instance, you know about Job, a man of great endurance.
You can see how the Lord was kind to him at the end,
for the Lord is full of tenderness and mercy.
Lord, we thank you that you are full of tenderness
and mercy.
I'm sorry, y'all, I'm getting so dry in my throat.
I'm talking so much.
So Lord, help us to know that no matter what we go through,
that you're on our side.
Yes, Lord.
And there's a scripture,
and it also talks about how God will prepare a table for us
in the presence of our enemies.
Sometimes our enemies aren't people.
Sometimes our enemies are sickness.
Sometimes our enemy are strongholds, principalities,
or things that have risen up against us.
But even as Jackie talked about in Supernatural Saturday,
we don't want to focus on the devil too much, you all, okay?
We want to, that keeps us bound in the second heaven area.
We want to think about God
and all of his mighty capabilities.
He is the King of Kings.
He's Almighty God, the Prince of Peace.
And he sits upon the throne and nothing is too hard for him.
And Jesus is sitting at his right hand,
interceding for all of us right now.
Let us think on that.
And know that Jesus loves us.
He's interceding for us and he is on our side.
And the Holy Spirit was sent here.
He's our helper, our comforter, our guide.
And he walks.
with us every step of the way as long as we continue to, he's there always, but it's our
choice to take his hand when he extends it to us and to trust that he is working on our behalf
and that we can walk with him every step of the way. And one thing I know is that the Holy Spirit
is really good at like showing us a pit before we step into it. If we are attuning into the
Holy Spirit and we're asking for his wisdom, his guidance, his direction, he will say to us,
whether we realize it or not, he'll say, Hey, don't go there today. Y'all. I don't know why
a couple of weeks ago, month, month ago or so, I wanted to go to Lexington because my spiritual
daughter, she was having a rough time. And I was like, do I need to come? She said, maybe.
And I wanted to go. I was looking into flights. I was looking into car rentals, all the things.
And I heard the Lord say, don't go. You need to stay home and take care of yourself.
And I can't really tell you what all that was about, but all I can tell you is that as soon
as I let that go and released it, I had peace. Sometimes we need to trust that the Holy Spirit
is protecting us from things that we don't even know about. Hey, all right. Y'all can go back
and listen to that later in the replay. If you want, I was praying and talking about some stuff.
Welcome back. It's so good to see you. Look at all these amazing women wave to each other. Look
at how gorgeous you all are. This is awesome. Yes. It's so great to see you all. I love it.
It's one of my favorite, favorite things. Okay. So who is willing to share with the
whole group? What you shared in your private breakout group, Jen. Awesome. Go ahead.
So my fear is health anxiety, but breaking them down even further
with any health scare, the fear tide is I will get cancer and die.
Okay. Do you recall, was there a time when that thought first came to you? Do you know?
It started when I was five years old and witnessed my dad's battle and death with cancer.
Okay. So ever since about the age of five, anytime I get sick, not as much as I've gotten older,
but when I was younger, anytime I'd get sick, I was afraid I was going to die.
Okay. So super important. You all, if you notice here, what's happened is the enemy is trying to
make her believe she's going to have the same thing happen to her that happened to her dad.
Which interestingly fact, he's not even my biological father,
but even talking about it right now, like my heart's racing.
So this is something I would say definitely probably need some more healing there and
just really, and Jen, what I'm sensing is like a tenderness from the father. Like he just wants
to come and soothe you in the trouble that you witnessed. And you've been doing the work. I mean,
you know, we, you've been walking through this program, you've been doing a great job,
but I feel like now some of the layers of the other stuff are kind of moved out of the way.
And I feel like you're going to have more capacity now to let him come in and love on this area.
Thank you. It has been really hard.
Yeah, I imagine so. And so in that, make sure that you come out of alignment.
Here's what's really important, ladies. When we have these lies, big or little,
we have to choose to come out of alignment with them. Because at some point, whether we did it
subconsciously or not, we started agreeing with that fear. Okay. And I will tell you, I've even
noticed, and sometimes here's another key thing, I feel like I need to mention this, the enemy also
assaults us with those thoughts. Kind of like I was saying to you, I feel like I'm getting a little
echo, saying to you all, like I had overcome that anxiety, but then what happened is I went through
another really traumatic situation that caused me a lot of deep pain. And for whatever reason,
that ushered all of that old anxiety to the surface. Now, I had a choice in that season
to recognize whether or not I was going to continue to partner with that and let that
increase or say, you know what? No, I am not this person. I am calm. And I literally had to start
talking to my spirit and aligning with what God said. No, God made me in his image. I'm fearfully
and wonderfully made. I walk in the peace and the righteousness of the Holy Spirit,
you know, where we really start saying who we are. And so
I'm not saying that all sickness is going to immediately go. You all,
when we speak something or pray, I wish that was the case, but that's why we do walk through
trials and tribulation, but the Holy spirit is there. God is there to be with us every step of
the way. Um, and he doesn't want that for us, but the reality is that we live in a broken and
fallen world. We do full of sin and disruption and all this disease and stuff, but I don't
believe that is your lot done. I think there's so much left for you. And I think you've just
scratched, like you you're just like starting to scratch the surface for those of you that don't
know, Jen, was it last week or two weeks ago you shared for the first time? I think it's been like
three weeks, two or three. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. And so just so y'all know, some of you have been in
the program since March. So yeah. And she, it took her a while to get the courage, but then once she
did it, now she did it again tonight. And this is how it happens. This is how we come out of hiding.
So great job on doing that again and using your voice and we just declare healing over you. I know
that, um, you hadn't been feeling well recently. And so, um, we just speak healing and strength
over your body and vitality and long life. There's actually scriptures about that. So I'd encourage
you to look that up as well. You're so welcome. God bless you. All right, Laura, go ahead.
Um, so mine, um, is just fear of dating again. Um, I know that I'm only like
finishing like week three, um, and still like not dating yet, but, um, and I, I know that like you
had said that just because we get to phase two, we don't have to like immediately start dating,
which did take some pressure off. But just being that I was hurt for so many years in my marriage,
um, just, um, it just really scares me that like, um, like a man that I meet and like,
initially like, we'll think that like, he's genuine and honest and upfront about who he is,
that like, as I get to know him or like, I may not even find out or whatever that he's hiding
something like some addiction or whatever. Like I found out like five years into my marriage that
the ex was like addicted to porn. So, yeah. And so what's really important is that again,
we all will have to choose to not partner with the lie that all men lie, all men deceive all men
cheat. Um, and even if you think you've already done that, you probably might want to do that
again, Laura, and just make sure that, um, the enemy is not still trying to convince you that
men are scary. I almost feel like that's kind of ringing up in my spirit to like, men are scary.
You're not safe here. Um, so that might even link to before your hubby, your former husband. Um,
and then when we're looking at this ladies, yes, just so y'all know, when you get to phase two,
we do encourage people to do a dating challenge, but no one is forced. Okay. Everybody has a
choice. And some people that we even say, Hey, you probably shouldn't date right away. We'll go
right into dating. Trust us. If we say you need to wait, you need to wait because we can tell
when people need more healing genuinely. Um, and so, um, but also some of you like you don't move
forward in hard work because you're afraid about moving into the next phase. And that's what I was
kind of alluding to earlier. Some of us, or maybe that was this afternoon. Sorry. That was this
afternoon. Some of us are afraid to receive the good that God wants to give us. And so we, we
struggle and we get stuck because we're afraid to actually move forward because moving forward means
what we have to keep changing, right? The goods coming and, and that might bring more
revealings for healing. And so we have all these what ifs and things that pile up around us. And
that's where we have to fully surrender all of that stuff and say, Lord, I need you. I need you
to calm my mind. Help me. The Bible also declares that we should guard our hearts and our minds
through Christ Jesus. So daily guarding our heart and our mind. It's like together. It's like a flow
of things constantly going on. And ladies, we have way more thoughts than men have. Okay. It doesn't
mean men are not smart. They are super smart, but y'all literally, when they say they're not
thinking about anything, do y'all know that men actually have a box it's proven in their brain
that like, there's not this like calm, but we have all these like wires that are going all
over the place in our brains. So there is a reason that we are different and we talk way more. Some of
us are quiet. I talk, I talk enough for all of us, but.
If we will get our minds under control and that's not something we can do on our own.
That's where the supernatural ability of the Holy Spirit, self-discipline and control is going to come into place.
Did you all know self-control is a fruit of the Spirit?
It is.
It's a fruit of the Spirit that a lot of people don't talk about very often, but it is a fruit of the Spirit and self-control applies to all things.
We won't go into the other things tonight.
But Laura, praying for you, I lost you on my screen.
Praying for you to continue to believe in good things ahead for you.
The other thing I was going to say for anyone that relates to Laura and for Laura herself.
There are times where Brian absolutely has never lied to me, but the enemy will still try to convince me that I can't trust.
But I have to cause my mind to come into submission to the truth.
Does that make sense, everyone?
So the process might continue even after you all are married.
I've been married two years, but I know that he is safe.
I know that he's a good man and I know that those things are not on his mind like at all.
Genuinely.
And God was kind and led me to someone that was safe because he knew I needed that.
We all need that.
I knew I needed a special man that would have a supernatural grace to understand my story and be able to handle it and not get all weird.
Because that's what I had in the past.
So we can all have that.
Y'all, I'm a testimony.
If I can have it, you can have it.
All right?
All right.
Awesome.
All right.
Rembo, hi.
Hi.
So what God's been dealing with me on is thinking that there's no good men out there.
I actually have an encouragement just because this weekend I had someone reach out that was giving away a refrigerator and I needed one for my garage.
And so I didn't have a way to pick it up like an hour away.
And he brought it over.
And when we were talking, and this is a friend like there's no romantic like interest there, but he started talking to me about how he prays that God will just work in him because he wants to be like a good husband and like he's going after healing and just all these things that I've never heard a man speak.
And I'm just looking at him listening, but just thinking, wow, God, you had to actually bring someone to my door to confirm what you've been saying to me ever since I started this course.
And so I just wanted to share that just because, you know, some women may share the same thoughts that, you know, there's no good men out there or something that I've been told is on my standards are too high and just just all these different things.
That is so good. And hey, here, here, I'm going to issue I only issued one activation this morning. Sorry, first one p.m.ers, if you're here tonight, you'll hear both. So this, I'm going to issue an activation, because it made me start thinking as she was sharing.
Here's the reality all what we look for, we're going to find.
I want you to be thinking about that. What you look for you are going to find if you're looking for men that are cheaters liars cheats all these things, you're gonna find that.
Y'all we're all going to come across some that are like that but here's the reality if we look for good. We're going to find good and guess what, as we heal.
Good is going to be attracted to us so here it here's what she's saying, this is what I'm hearing. God and his kindness sent Rambo, a real life example to show her what he's capable of and what he's doing.
And God used a guy to come and do something really nice and he went out of his way to come and do it.
So you all I want you to be on the lookout for this. We did this a couple weeks ago and I had one or two people shared somebody went to Home Depot and, and this man offered to help her so this is what we do.
Look for good, and then we're gonna practice
letting men help us.
We're gonna practice.
So before we jump off tonight,
I'll pray for God to supernaturally send opportunities
you're all, like to all of you to your way.
Okay, I said that really weird, but you know what I mean.
The other thing is practice smiling
at people in general, but men too.
Now, do you have to flirt with them and do all that?
No, cause y'all are in heartwork right now.
But some of you are afraid of men
for good reason, some of you.
But the more you practice, y'all, I used to like,
I felt like I was a pretty confident person
most of my life, but after I went through heartwork,
I realized more than ever that when I would walk by men,
I would look down and God started showing me that,
like, why was I doing that?
Well, because I still hadn't gotten over my fear of men,
not fully.
And so working on looking men in the eye and smiling,
like I might wave or be nice, you know,
wasn't trying to pick them up,
but it was me trying to practice.
So many guys, just super nice.
I feel like even now I'll go places
and little boys will open doors for me.
Like, it's just like the more we walk in the divine feminine
and we walk in these things,
God will send people that recognize it
and they'll just be chivalrous.
So be on the lookout.
Okay, I wasn't planning on doing that,
but I feel led to do that.
So we're gonna just add that in tonight.
Thank you, Rambo, for sharing that.
Nikki, go ahead.
Hi, what I shared in the breakout
was a fear that keeps coming up a lot lately.
And it's fears surrounding friendship
that friends that I've had for years
are just gonna stop being in my life.
And the acronym that you shared,
false evidence appearing real,
like it happens all the time.
And I even like know that I'm doing it and I still do it.
Like with the text messaging stuff,
I was sharing in the group
that a friend I've had for close to seven years now,
I sent her a message like a couple of days ago
in the middle of the day and she didn't respond.
And then I sent an unrelated message like in the evening
and she didn't respond.
And then I sent a group message in one of our group chats
like 24 hours later and she didn't respond.
So I finally, I actually did at that point
wonder if like she was okay,
but I still thought the thought that she
like was done with me.
Like, I don't know, like it sounds so absurd,
but like that was just as plausible
as anything else in my mind.
That thought just would not go away.
So I reached out to her and she was busy,
like which, and she apologized.
And this is actually one of her patterns
that she doesn't respond right away.
But for some reason, I just took it to the extreme more
because of the multiple text messages.
And that's just one example.
It happened yesterday where I texted her finally
and asked her if she was okay.
But this just happens all the time
and I'm ready to just let the friendships go.
I'm ready to just be like, all right,
I guess they're done with me.
So I'll just back off.
Like, I'm just like, I'm not gonna like say anything,
but I'm just the kind of person
that just wants to go ahead and close off then,
like not reach out, stuff like that.
And I am so discouraged in some way
because I've been in hard work for such a long time
and this is like such a problem.
And it's like getting worse in a way,
which I'm not saying is because of the program,
but, and I feel like it's because maybe
it's being a healing, feeling for healing,
but it's so bad.
Like, it's so bad.
Like, I am not ready for a relationship
if this is how I'm gonna be with friends.
Like, that's how like overwhelming it is.
Yeah.
So I think here's one of the important things,
and this is why we do encourage you all
to not get stuck in hard work
for a very, very, very, very, very long time.
And the example I give is if someone goes
into the ICU in the hospital
and they're there for a long time,
y'all, it's not good.
Okay, to be in an intensive hard work
for a long extended period.
You're gonna do hard work your whole life,
but not this deep extensive work.
And so that's why I wanna encourage you, Nikki,
just, you know, keep moving forward.
Even if you think you're not ready,
I want you just to keep moving forward
because I believe.
leave part of the victory for you is giving yourself permission to not be perfect and
not have everything all together. Uh, the other thought that was coming up for me is
I'm just, again, I feel like we've met, I probably asked you something similar before,
but I just can't recall. So I apologize. Did you have a sudden loss of relationship with
anybody in your life? Like anyone, family, sibling, friend, like where, where one day
they were there and another day they were like gone or something happened tragically?
No, uh, not as far as like death. Um, I've had loss of friendship though in my life.
Nothing sudden as far as death goes. Okay. Okay. So just as I think for you, I really
do. I think it's you giving yourself permission and before, cause if you, that was the only
kind of thing, if you had someone where it was like sudden death or something like that,
or there was just that core deep, deep, deep trauma still that needed healing, then that
would be a signal to me. Okay. Maybe you need to spend a little more time there, but you
didn't have that happen. You have had loss of friendship, but there might be something
that until you start getting into relationship, ladies, this is the truth until you start
getting into other relationships, maybe even starting a new friendship, some of that is
going to bring the additional revealing for healing. Um, and again, that perfectionist
stuff keeps coming up for me. Um, you don't have to have everything perfect to move forward.
And part of the panic is probably coming in because there's that underlying perfectionism
that's partnering. Like you're the enemy is trying to convince you that here's the fear.
The enemy is trying to convince you that you're not clean enough, holy enough, good enough.
And if you dare try to do something moving forward, you're just going to, I don't know,
dare I say the enemy's trying to tell you're going to mess it all up. I don't know, whatever,
something going on there. And so it's literally causing you more panic and anxiety and dread
because now you're kind of in this holding pattern, right? Where you need to launch,
you need to, you know, that failure to launch people talk about that kind of stuff. It's
real. So now it's just like every day, just, I'm going to move forward. I'm going to be okay.
Where you start. Okay. Like I can choose. Um, here's another thing. I used to feel anxious
when, um, texts wouldn't come or I would think a negative thing. And I can remember when I was
dating Brian, like one day, like I hadn't heard back from him. I knew he was sick.
And I started panicking that something really bad happened to him. And I can remember like
literally at work saying to myself, everything is okay. I'm going to wait for him to respond.
I don't have to be afraid. And so you might have to really just talk to your spirit,
even regarding those things. And the truth is always what's going to extinguish the lie.
Okay. So when you feel that panic and that fear, or even as you're talking tonight,
worship is going to be your friend as well. Okay. Worship is warfare ladies. It is. So worship
a lot in this season. Okay. You're going to, you're going to do just fine. I think you're
going to figure your way out. If you will just, just, just jump, just go for it. Okay. And we're
going to be there as a community to walk with you. You're not going to have to do it alone.
If you let us keep walking with you. Yes. I appreciate that. And the perfectionism thing
is definitely an issue because I do feel like there's a lie. I'm believing that,
look, you've been in heartwork this long and you're struggling so much with this.
How can you expect a relationship? And, and that will slow me down. So I need to just keep moving
forward. And I am praying about the anxiety, but I have not tried worship. I've just been praying,
but I'm going to try the worship for sure. Yeah. Yeah. It's a lot of times worry and worship
cannot coexist at the same time. Just y'all know faith and fear don't exist at the same time. So
if we are struggling with fear, if we activate our faith, same thing, if we're in worry or
anxiety, if we start to worship using our mouths, like that stuff has to go, it can't,
it can't even reside there in the presence of, of worship. Yeah. A lot of good stuff. Yeah. You're
welcome. Yeah. And maybe even just, uh, have a dance party. I think fun, fun. You need to activate
fun dance parties in your apartment. Lots of life. Yeah. Usher that good stuff in. Okay.
Thank you. You're welcome. All right. So I'm going to go to Lolita and then Nicole, I'm going to
have you wait and we're going to do a breakout. And when we come back, I won't forget. I'll have
you go when we come back. Okay. Lolita.
Go ahead. Hi. Good evening everyone. Hi. So, what I was fearing is the rapture.
I am a born again Christian of 30 years and like standing for Jesus have I even done enough, not that I wouldn't make it into heaven.
But just, you know, standing before him with what I have done things I have done in my life, you know, not bad things but like that I make disciples that I witness to enough people, not to get into heaven, but just the stand before,
you know, almighty God, like, what have I done with the talents and the gifts that he has given me have I buried them, you know, things like that.
So sometimes, you know, I'm thinking he's coming back. And, you know, it will get me a little scared because I did have a dream that he told me he was telling people he's coming back soon that was about over a year ago.
And so things like that.
So, thank you for sharing a question for you.
Your biological dad, did you have a close relationship with him.
I don't actually know the biological one.
I know my, the one I thought was my biological, and I found out later he wasn't.
Were you close with him like where did you have the kind of relationship where you could cuddle up with him and feel safe.
Yeah.
Okay.
Here's why I'm asking you that is basically what I'm hearing through what you're saying is that God is going to bring judgment on you.
Okay.
In a sense, okay let me finish it's okay. Because here, here's the core of why I'm saying that if we believe God, like yes you all we are going to face the Lord one day and we will like, you know, go through all that process with him, but we're covered
by the blood.
We're covered by the blood. Okay. And so it's important for all of us, and that's why I asked about the dad connections, how we relate to our dads on earth is often how we relate to God the Father.
Okay, so if we feel like we had to earn our dad's affection or be good to even have peace or any of those kind of things. And then we are going to feel similar with the father in relationship with him.
So I really want to encourage you to ask the Lord to show you the first time that you felt fear regarding, you know, whether it's your biological dad or is he, do you consider him your stepdad.
The other dad that was in your life.
He was the only father I knew, and then I found out like it's a woman that he wasn't my father after my mother died. We did.
So you call him your dad is I just I want to know how to call it like what to call him for you. Oh yeah, yeah. Okay. Okay. So, I'm really asking the Lord to show you the first times that you felt a lack of closeness.
That's the way I feel led to word a lack of closeness and and not being able to feel the love connection that you wanted.
I was scared that he wouldn't molest me he never did what my grandmother told me to be leery of that.
Growing up as a little girl.
Okay, so that might be the connection, but let's ask the Holy Spirit to reveal for sure what is the original source of disconnect regarding like safety around men dads.
Okay, anybody, anyone in an authority role can be in that category as well. Okay.
All right, ladies, I'm going to I'm going to switch over to control because I need to fit this content in because you guys need to talk about this as well tonight.
So I want you all. Can you raise your hands if you're a control freak who in this room is a control freak or ever has struggled with trying to control things people places outcomes perceptions.
Any of the above.
Yeah, yeah.
The reality is, is we may not realize.
but most of us try to control things more than we should.
But here's the thing, control is an illusion, ladies.
Okay, it's an illusion.
We really, it's misleading us.
We really don't have control
in the way that we think that we do.
And so I wanna kind of unpack this
a little bit with you tonight.
Healthy people who walk in victory
don't try to control other people.
Okay, healthy people who walk in victory
don't try to control other people.
They know it doesn't work and it's not their job.
Okay, so it's not our job to control other people.
And this can get really tricky,
especially when someone is mistreating us, right?
We can't control that.
What we can control is how much time
we spend with those people, right?
Yes, okay.
We can control our beliefs that we have,
our own beliefs about things, our values.
We can control our responses versus a reaction.
If any of you struggle with anger
or any kind of like outburst or rage
or any of that kind of stuff,
know that underneath of that is sadness and disappointment
and all kinds of frustration and all that.
Anger is all the way up here.
Those things are down under here.
Anger is hurt, sadness and hurt's down here.
Anger is hurt's bodyguard.
So if you start seeing anger come out that those reactions
is because underneath of there somewhere,
there's some hurt and sadness and disappointment
and frustration that needs healed, okay?
And so we wanna learn how to respond versus reacting.
Boundaries are important,
but we also need to make sure we keep boundaries
and balance regarding our boundaries.
Here's why.
Sometimes we'll go overboard with our boundaries
because we're trying to self-protect, okay?
So we don't wanna put up a bunch of walls
and keep everybody out, including God.
Some people do that and I'm not making fun of that
because I understand why people do it.
But we don't wanna try to control things to avoid pain,
avoid getting hurt because we're afraid of loss.
We wanna learn how to be hearts wide open.
I know some of you are gonna be like,
oh, I don't wanna do that.
That's so scary.
But that's how we receive all the good
that God has for us too.
Y'all, love is a risk.
Allowing yourself to be loved, to be able to receive love,
to be able to receive love.
And we have to open up, right?
We have to open our arms.
In order for someone to hug me,
unless they just come, we have this one lady, I love her.
She's so sweet.
But man, she grips my neck on Sundays
and she just pulls me right into her.
She's one of those huggers, super sweet.
So sometimes we don't have to have our arms wide open
for a hug, but you know what I'm saying.
For the most part, it's a reciprocal thing, isn't it?
We open our arms and we open up to them
and they open up to us and we're embracing
and we're accepting of that.
As a reminder, I kind of said this briefly,
but I want you to think about the places
that you've been trying to control,
maybe people, places, things, perceptions.
Perceptions can be all different kinds of ways
that it shows up.
It could be, this came up this afternoon.
And so I feel like maybe to mention it,
sometimes maybe, it came up in the morning prayer.
Sometimes maybe a sibling is saying something bad
to mom about you, and then mom's telling you.
So now the perception of who you are is getting distorted,
not only to the mom, but now mom's telling you
what the other person, that's manipulation, just FYI.
Okay, lack of boundaries mom has there.
Brother said it, but mom didn't have to repeat it.
But the only person that this person was upset
with this morning was brother, is that interesting?
Yeah, we need to pay attention to that.
Perceptions also something that came up for me
when I put these notes down was,
and this is a real struggle.
When some of y'all are single parents,
you have a child with someone
that you're not in relationship, married to,
trying to control the perception
that your kids have in every situation.
It can be really tough if your ex is saying something
that's not true about you, right?
Maybe it's a situation at work.
You know, I don't know what the situation is for you,
but we can trust God to defend us, you all,
and make things that are wrong, right.
We also don't wanna try to control outcomes.
So this is where some of you have really struggled
in the past because you say that you want God to help you,
but then you keep trying to take control back
regarding relationships and outcomes of dating,
all those kinds of things.
So tonight, I want you to lean into the truth
that you are God defended and you can be embraced
in his love.
Isaiah 26, three says this,
you will keep in perfect peace
those whose minds are steadfast,
which means stayed upon you.
Do you all know what the rest of it is?
Because they trust in you.
So here's what I wanna propose to you.
If you struggle with control,
you also probably struggle to trust on some level.
Or also, I don't wanna forget to mention,
again, there's no shame in this,
but if any of you struggle with any kind of OCD stuff,
know that that can be a form of you
trying to create a sense of having control
because you went through a lot of brokenness and chaos
when you were younger, or even when you were older,
you couldn't develop this stuff at any time.
And so God might wanna heal that stuff
and help you not struggle.
And again, I say this,
OCD isn't just about having a clean house.
Some people, that's how it manifests,
but sometimes it can be like you can't wear certain clothes,
you can't have certain noises.
There's just all different ways
it's showing up in the world today.
But ask the Lord on that as well.
The verse there, Anna, was Isaiah 26, three.
I'll read it again for you all,
and then I'm gonna get ready to send you all into breakouts.
You will keep in perfect peace
those whose minds are steadfast,
which means stayed upon you because they trust in you.
So as we choose to trust in the Lord,
he will keep us in perfect peace.
So good, right?
So good.
All right, here is your question.
Well, here's the statement right before that.
Sorry, it's time to yield control, give in, let go.
Y'all get your white flags out tonight
because you're about to wave them
in your breakout room, hopefully,
that you're conceding
and you're gonna surrender control tonight.
Yep, thank you.
I saw it, Lolita.
White flags waving over there.
All right, breakout number two.
Where do you need to wave the white flag
and let go and surrender control tonight?
Where do y'all need to let go of control tonight
and let the Father help you surrender?
Okay, so I'm gonna do a little bit smaller groups this time.
I wanna recreate these.
I might move a couple of y'all around once these are formed,
and then I'm gonna do a little bit shorter time
because we're cutting really close to time.
All right, go ahead, go ahead and click to join those.
Once y'all get in there, I'll see who needs moved around.
That's totally fine, Kelly.
You can stay here with me.
All right.
Father, thank you so much
for all that you're continuing to do tonight.
God, thank you for helping us to surrender to you
and that you're gonna enable us to wave the white flag.
I feel led to read that submission activation.
We did this a couple of weeks ago.
Maybe it was even last week.
I don't remember, y'all.
But I feel led to pray this over everybody
as they are in the process of surrendering right now.
Father God, I give you permission to search me
and to reveal anything in my heart
that does not belong to my true identity
and that is hindering me from living the life
you created me to live.
Holy Spirit, I invite you into the darkest places
in my heart.
Show me the areas that are still wounded
and are still hurting.
When you reveal these broken places to me,
I covenant with you to release them into your care
and to respond with forgiveness and repentance.
I set aside this season of my life
for a time of healing and wholeness
and ask Holy Spirit to take charge of this process.
I ask that you direct me to you.
Well with me and in me, I need you.
I cannot heal myself.
I want to be free from the past,
free to be who I truly am.
Help me to become who you have created me to be.
Show me the lies I've believed about myself,
my life, my surroundings,
and even the lies I have believed about you.
Teach me the greater truth.
Teach me your ways.
Teach me how to think and how to live abundantly.
Teach me, show me, heal me, grow me, amen.
As I was reading that just now,
it made me think about,
I wrote this thing down on my paper earlier.
The renewed mind is the result of a surrendered heart.
And when I was reading that part where it said,
teach me how to think and how to live abundantly.
That's a thing that we would pray daily
and ask God to transform us by the renewing of our minds.
That all things have passed away
and behold, everything has become new.
And that also aligns with,
you know, that healing that we need in our hearts.
So we're asking God to heal our hearts
and that is partnering with the ability
for us to think differently.
And so that renewed mind is the result of a surrendered heart
and we're talking about letting go of control
and surrendering completely to the Lord tonight.
And so I feel like that pairs really well with that
and almost forgot to say it.
So I wanna encourage you all to really just continue
to ask the Lord to help us to see,
like when we say, think like the kingdom,
like in my mind, it's like,
how would Jesus think in this situation?
Like, what is the higher revelation that God, Jesus
and Holy Spirit want me to have
so that I can live a healthier life?
So what is that invitation for us to go up into that place
so that we can walk in more freedom?
I love that.
God is so good that he doesn't leave us,
you know, where we have been.
He's always inviting us into a higher perspective.
We can only see the forest for the trees, right?
We see what's right in front of us,
but God has an eagle eye view.
And so we can choose to come up higher
and see that really beautiful view that he sees.
Let's see here.
I'm trying to find what else God wants me to say
and pray over you all tonight.
This one's good.
Jeremiah 24, seven says,
I will give them hearts that recognize me as the Lord.
They will be my people and I will be their God
for they will return to me wholeheartedly.
God, we thank you that you'll help us
to fully surrender every area of our hearts,
that we'll take down any do not enter signs
in areas of our hearts,
that we will return to you wholeheartedly,
that we will allow you to enter every area
and bring revealing for healing.
God, show us the areas where we need to confess any sin,
anything that isn't in alignment with your plan
for our lives, that is not a part of your kingdom.
Thank you that you would help us to turn away
from those situations and scenarios
that lead us away from you
and help us step further into the fullness
of who you've originally created us to be
and the plan and purpose that you have for our lives.
Psalm 139, 14 in the amplified version says this,
I will give thanks and praise to you
for I'm fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works and my soul knows it very well.
1 John 3, 20 says this,
whenever our hearts make us feel guilty
and remind us of our failures,
we know that God is much greater
and more merciful than our conscience.
And he knows everything there is to know about us.
Yeah, Luke 12, two says,
everything hidden and covered up will soon be revealed
for the fast aid is falling down
and nothing will be kept secret for long.
We thank you Lord for continuing to help us to,
yeah, receive the truth that you have provided for us.
We know that your truth is what brings destruction
to the enemy that it, yeah.
I just got a picture of like,
the enemy was trying to build a fort
and God just brings truth and he just knocks it right down.
Like it's not a hard fort.
It's not hard for God to tear that stuff down.
He's just like, okay, get that crap out of here.
Get that out of here.
And sometimes we need to think more playfully like that.
I'm not saying we shouldn't take the enemy seriously.
We know that.
You know, he does come to kill, steal and destroy, but we also know that Jesus came to give us life
and to give it to us more abundantly. So we can stand in that. But I do think so many Christians
don't have fun. And I used to think that even about myself, so serious all the time. So serious.
And I am a serious person, y'all. I tend to really think very deeply about things, but I like to have
fun and I like to laugh and I like to play. And so God sent me a husband that likes to do those
things too. Y'all, he's got dad jokes all day long. Sometimes they're funny, sometimes they're not.
But I'm saying that to say, it got me thinking when I was talking to whoever that was. Now,
I can't remember which one of you. Nikki, when I was saying about the fun,
some of you all are going to defeat the plans of the enemy so much faster by having fun.
Because you grew up in religion out of, after you came out of a hard home life.
I'm not saying this is true for Nikki, but I'm just saying people in general and
the enemy's chains will be broken off when we have fun, when we have joy, when we celebrate
in the Lord, when we worship. And I know some churches don't believe in dancing. Y'all,
I went to a church that was like that. I bless them. I love them, but they were not right.
They weren't. Y'all, I had so much fun at our wedding. I wasn't doing nasty stuff. I just was
celebrating. I believe a wedding is a celebration. And I, this time around was determined. We had a
DJ. David Dorman was a great DJ. David Dorman was our DJ at our wedding. That's why I'm saying
that it was so much fun. And we really had an amazing time. Why am I saying all this? Because
y'all the joy of the Lord is our strength. Some of y'all that feel weak in your body tonight,
and you need some joy. I want to encourage you to watch something funny this week.
Maybe a couple of funny movies. Do some fun stuff. Go play a little bit. Some of you need
to practice playing and letting your inner child come out. I don't know if that's, you know,
go for a bike ride, climb a tree, go swing on a swing, go down a slide. I don't know what it is
for you. Some of you are like, I haven't climbed a tree in like 30 or 40 years. I'm not doing that.
Okay. Find something different to do that makes you feel you jump in a puddle. Some of us were
so afraid to get in the rain. Sometimes I feel like that too. When it starts to rain, I'm like,
you know, just did my hair or whatever, but you know what? Sometimes we just need to let the rain
wash us and have fun and dance in the rain. If you know what I'm saying,
does that make sense? And I feel like that also pairs really well with the control thing.
Because when we let go of control, we can have more fun. Okay. All right. So normally I would
open it up for breakout. I did have one person that I said could come here and share. Let's see
if I can find you so I know who you are. Nicole, I want to give Nicole, I said I was going to give
her an opportunity to share. Do you still want to share, Nicole?
Sure. Okay. Awesome. Go ahead. I just shared in the first breakout that I really can't pinpoint
any emotions. I just do a lot of crying. I can't think of any. I don't remember the question. I
I can't think of anything. I can't put a name to anything. It's just tears.
And have you always felt that way? Or did this just start when you came into heart work?
Well, I kind of just started when I came into heart work. I don't feel like I've always done
that way. But I also stopped taking my depression medication. So around the same time, that was
before I got into heart work and made that decision. So I think that has something to do
with it. I'm feeling all the feels that I never felt while on the medication. And yeah.
Okay, so that might be part of like your body just starting to kind of recalibrate, but keep,
keep us up to date on what's going on there. I will tell you all sometimes you are going to
have more emotions because supernaturally you're entering an environment where we like
God has provided and we've been praying and soaking, you know, this movement and prayer for
years. And so you step in all of you all, and you're just going to start to automatically,
some of you, some of you are like, I don't feel anything. And that's okay, too.
might get all the way through heartwork,
and then you start feeling.
Everybody's journey is different,
but yours might be that you finally
are letting yourself feel,
but just let us know if that keeps happening.
We wanna keep a gauge on that
and just maybe really be in prayer
about what is causing it,
but it sounds like it's just a healing thing right now.
Okay?
So if y'all can't identify the source, that's okay.
Remember to give yourselves a lot of grace in this process
in the sense of when you ask God something,
if you don't get an answer right away,
trust the process when he reveals it, okay?
Same thing as if when you're on a prayer call
or one of the prophetic nights
and we're activating you guys,
ladies, if you don't hear something right away,
don't panic and believe the lie that you don't hear God.
Okay?
For some of you all,
maybe this season of your journey
is about you reconnecting with the Lord
and figuring out how you hear from him.
So not putting your pressure on yourself
is gonna be really important.
Just let yourself be where you're at right now
and you'll learn and grow as you go.
We're gonna do our best to help you
in that process as well.
We are at 936.
I'm gonna let Maureen share.
I see you, Maureen.
I saw your hand earlier too,
but I do wanna give the activation
so if anybody needs to jump off that you have it.
The second activation,
because remember I added one,
we're looking at guys, we're smiling,
we're engaging in the worlds.
And I say this too, I said this earlier,
some of you all are afraid of women too.
So smile at some friendly ladies
and even some of the ladies that might look grumpy, you all,
maybe smile at them too
and let's pass some joy around, right?
All right, I'm kind of being funny right now.
Hopefully you all think it's funny.
That's my sense of humor.
Okay, here's activation number two.
Your never will I ever list.
Some of you who are about to finish phase two
might've already done this.
And so if you did, I want you to go back
and look at your list and see how much it's changed, okay?
Never will I ever list is this.
Okay, let me tell you what it's not first.
We're not asking you to say,
never will I ever date someone who's abusive.
You don't have to say that
because we don't want you to date someone who's abusive.
Never will I ever date someone who is an addict.
Well, right now, if they're a current addict,
we're not gonna encourage you to date them either, okay?
So you don't have to put those kinds of things
on your never will I ever list.
What we're looking for is for you to make a list
of your never will I ever.
So for instance, I'm just gonna start giving you ideas.
It doesn't have to be these.
You guys need to pray and ask the Lord
to show you what yours are.
Never will I ever date a Jonathan
because my former husband was a Jonathan
and he was a complete jerk, okay?
I don't even know a Jonathan, but I just made that up.
Never will I ever date someone of a certain ethnicity.
Never will I ever date a pastor or a police officer
or someone in the military.
Never will I ever date someone who's shorter than me
or taller than me.
Maybe never will I ever date someone who's thinner than me.
Some of the ladies that comes out with some of you all,
you don't wanna date a guy who's smaller than you in any way
because you feel like you are, that makes you feel bigger.
Well, that might not be true.
That might not be true.
We have a lady right now that is in that process
and the guy that she's dating,
she said, I would have never picked him.
And y'all, she's really liking him
and getting to know him and it's great.
No, Debra, it can be about other things too,
but the never will I evers right now, we'll open it up.
We do normally do it like these are the things
that you make your list of the kinds of people
that you're never gonna be with.
But some of you, Debra brought up a good point,
might have never will I evers that show up for you,
put them on the list
and let's see what God wants to unpack for you.
If you have those show up.
Some of you might have never will I evers
that actually reveal areas where you have vows
that you have made.
So we'll just let you kind of put on there.
And what I want you to do is put these in the group.
I know it's gonna feel a little scary for some of y'all,
but if you'll come in and post it in the group,
we're gonna coach you on some of those, okay?
Some of you, I might like, okay, great job.
If I don't feel anything,
like where the Lord's really highlighting
that you need to like process something,
I'm just gonna really encourage you and love on you.
And then there's gonna be other people where I will sense
like, okay, there's some trauma connected to this
and I'll ask you questions.
So just trust, know that we love you
and that's why we're asking questions.
questions, okay? Everyone good with that? All right, awesome. So if you have to jump
off, I want to go ahead and let you know that you can decide to log off if you need to,
but I do want to give Maureen a minute to share as well, because I did see her hand
earlier as well.
Okay, thank you, thank you. I'll make it really short.
Oh, that's fine.
And whoever has to leave, bye. I just wanted to say I'm really grateful for what you shared
about having fun. One of the hard things that I was allowing myself to trust God with
is God's timing. And I can say that, and people have been able to say that to me, but I guess
I'm feeling like I'm more able to walk into that tonight now and have fun in the process.
And the other lie that's being debunked is that I'm in a hurry because of my age being
44 and wanting children. And so that's gotten me in trouble with relationships of moving
too fast. And so that lie of I have to hurry or move fast is going to help me, you know,
and I think God's not in a hurry was the truth that God showed me and that I'm just really
looking forward to enjoying this and slowing down and having fun. So thank you for sharing
that about just having fun. I think I really want to try to focus on that part of it all.
That's so good. Thank you for sharing. I appreciate you sharing that. And you all, this is, this
is really important. What Maureen just shared about the fun, also helping us stay out of
the fear of like, that it has to be in a certain timeframe or look a certain way or happen
a certain way. I told the story this afternoon. I'm not going to share the whole story, but
I wanted my guy delivered to my door. Genuinely. That was what I told the Lord multiple times.
And I said, I was never going to do online dating again because I met the girl's dad
on through online dating and that went horrible. And so I blamed online dating for that, but
really it was that I didn't pay attention to red flags that I saw. And so after much
coaching and prompting Jackie Dorman finally encouraged me again to do the online dating.
And then I think literally the next day is when I signed up online dating and it doesn't
happen this way for everyone. So I don't want people to get discouraged when I share my
story, but it was very supernatural. I met Brian four days later. I met Brian. Now I
had gone on some dates before that. So this wasn't the beginning of my process. It was
just the beginning of my online dating because I had stayed away from it. I decided I was
only going to date people in person or through the community, or like I said, they had to
come to my door. Well, that wasn't happening. I had dated and I got on and that just wasn't
working out. And so that's when she encouraged me to try online dating again. Y'all everything
can be different this time around. Y'all are changing. You're becoming someone new and
what you experienced before does not mean that's what you will experience tomorrow.
Okay. All right. We've had a long night. We've been on here late. I'm sorry. I kept you late.
I apologize. I hope it was a blessing to be on the last few minutes. Father. Thank you.
Thank you for the reminder that you're good. Thank you for the reminder that you have great
plans in store for us. I pray this week that you will help the ladies have opportunities
to practice smiling at men that you will send them their way to do kind things for
them that you will show them that there are good men all around them. Not that they'll
get caught up in that, but God that they'll just thank you. They'll appreciate the goodness
that they're starting to see around them. We thank you that we will. Yes, Lord, help us to
be gold seekers and the people around us help us to be filled with your joy. Does it mean that we
won't feel pain? No, we will at times, but God, we thank you that we can have joy in the midst
of it all. So where I thank you that you'll continue to do what you do best and reveal
things for healing. We thank you for. Comforting the brokenhearted, those that are processing
pain from the past. We thank you that you'll be near to them and you'll help them and you'll
lead them through to victory that they will be set free and including Nikki or anyone that feels
what she has felt, where there's been a, a battle that they've been circling around over and over
and over again, and they're afraid that they're not going to break free, but God, we thank you
that you're going to break them free. That you're going to leave them out of the prison. Just like
you did with Peter, how the angel showed up and literally remove the doors, open the doors of the
prison and let them straight out. So Lord, we, we declare that over Nikki and anyone else that
related to her tonight. We, we thank you for freedom. We thank you for, life and hope and
joy and speak speakable and full of.
glory in Jesus name. Amen. God bless you all. We love you. We'll see you in the group and have
an amazing rest of your night. Bye. Good night.