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Hello, welcome. Welcome, welcome. It's great to see you all tonight. We have 16 on right

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now 15 it looks like it's going back and forth on right now and I'm sure there's going to

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be some more joining us. If you are joining us for the first time. If you can let us know

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in the chat so that we can say hi to you and welcome you that would be great. Also want

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to encourage you if you're able, if you're driving or eating, don't feel like you have

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to come on screen. But if you're able to come on screen, we want to encourage you to come

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on screen for every live session. Here's part of why and I haven't said this in a long time,

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but I thought of it this afternoon and Jackie used to say it all the time. Y'all there's

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grace on our face. So why does that matter? Well, because when we're coaching or teaching,

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sometimes there's just things that the Holy Spirit will speak to us as we see some of

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you all and we see what how the Lord is moving throughout the process. Sometimes it's a prophetic

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thing. And so it's important for you to know that it like show up fully as much as you

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can. Okay. And so no shame if you can't get on, I know some people are also working and

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so don't feel any kind of condemnation if you can't get on screen, but I want to encourage

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you if you can to do so. Here's the second reason why in our society in general, even

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before COVID people started isolating more and more and more going more tech and less

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connection with people less letting themselves be seen known accepted all those things. Then

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when COVID happened, that kind of accelerated that and we started going on screen all the

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time, like what we do here, but you all I've led online for a very long time, even before

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I came into this community and I can't tell you how many times the blank screens are there.

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And I get it that even sometimes I'll come on, on Saturday mornings and I'll listen in

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and you know, maybe not turn it on, but I want to encourage you come on live as much

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as you can, because you're going to be practicing coming out of hiding in this season. And some

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of you will be like, well, I don't think I've been hiding. You will be surprised at what

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God shows you in the season, the ways that you have pulled back and maybe not shown up

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as your full self at times, or even not let yourself be seen. And we want, we want God

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sees you and we want to see you. So we love to see your faces. My name is Bethany Cooper.

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I think I forgot to say that in the beginning. I'm one of the heartwork coaches in this community.

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And y'all, I just love what God's doing here. He's really moving and shifting our hearts

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as well. And one of the things even this morning, as I led prayer, it's just that reminder to

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be praying and asking God to change our hearts regarding how we view God himself as well

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as men. And I want to just nudge you in that direction again tonight. If you have not seen

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it already, Supernatural Saturday is available for you in the app, in the replay tab. Okay.

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So the replays is going to be like Supernatural Saturday. Sometimes we'll record Sunday night.

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Last night did not get recorded because it was just a normal Sunday night prayer. But

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sometimes we will do that if we do like a prophetic ministry night. And then your training

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tab is where all your coursework is going to be. So that's the core part of your courses.

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I did want to give you all a heads up, especially even for my ladies that are finishing phase

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one. We, we did not get that breaking soul ties video redone yet. So what we decided

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to do is go ahead and put the old one back in for now. So definitely check that out before

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you head on to phase two. Don't feel like you can't go ahead and move to phase two,

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but I just want you all to know it's there. It'll bring you just as much healing if you

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do it once you're in phase two. Sorry, I'll have a little bug here flying around. So that

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is there for you all as well. And that's in week three. So that's where that's at in the

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course curriculum location. For those that are joining us new, you're here for the first

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time. If you didn't hear me say that, please let us know that you're joining for the first

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time. I see Lolita. Hi Lolita. Um, Jennifer, are you saying you're joining for the first

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time as well? Hi star. Anyone else joining for the first time? Tiffany? I see. Oh, Nicole.

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Well, welcome back just in case to double check. All right. Welcome to your first time

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here tonight. The way it's going to work is I'm going to do, I'm going to pray here in

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a minute. We're going to do some content. Uh, we're all do some talking and sharing

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and then we'll do breakout sessions. And in those breakout sessions, I'll give you a question.

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You're going to go in and you're going to talk with the other sisters that are in this community

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group with you. And a lot of you aren't going to know each other, but this is how it starts.

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You start to get to know each other through these breakout session times. And we want to

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encourage you don't, don't sign out when breakouts start happening. Y'all can get so much more.

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freedom if you'll stay and engage in those.

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If you're at work again, all you have to do is let me know

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that you can't go into breakout and I'll make sure

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to move people that maybe were partnered with you

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or will be partnered with you around.

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And then we'll come back, we'll do some group coaching,

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I'll share a little bit more and we'll do it again.

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We'll do another breakout and then come back

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and do group coaching.

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So on that note, let me pray for us and get us started.

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Father, thank you so much for who you are.

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God, thank you for the reminder just that your mercy

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is new every morning, it's new even in this moment.

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God, I thank you that we can just pause

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and just say thank you at any time.

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We can pause and ask for help at any time

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that you are an ever present help.

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In any time of trouble or any time of situation

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or navigating things, seeking out healing,

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God, we thank you that you're doing something supernatural

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in this community, in this movement.

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We thank you, God, for the grace that's upon this movement,

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upon our leaders, upon our team.

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We thank you, God, for even the ladies that come in

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and the men that come into this movement, God,

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that you have prepared them.

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You've drawn them here for such a time as this.

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We thank you that you'll help them to step further

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into the healing that you have for them.

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God, that you are the main thing.

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You're the main reason that we're all here.

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So Lord, help us to receive everything you have for us

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to bring us closer to understanding

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of who you are as a good father,

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that you're faithful, that you're true,

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that you never leave us, you never forsake us.

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God, even when we face fear or anxiety, worries,

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all these things that come upon us,

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Lord, we thank you that you gave us the ability to overcome.

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We thank you that the blood is powerful

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and by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony,

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we can overcome.

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Help us to step further into kingdom revelation tonight,

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that you would help us to heal in our hearts more tonight,

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that anything in darkness would be brought to the light

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so that we can be healed and restored

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and step further into who you originally created us to be.

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Help us to see ourself through your eyes, Lord.

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Not the eyes of man, not even our own interpretation

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or judgment of ourselves or criticisms,

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but help us to see ourselves through your eyes.

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We thank you that you would remove scales,

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even like with Paul.

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When you encountered him on the road to Damascus,

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he was blind for three days.

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And in that time, God, you spoke to him, you met with him,

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God, and then as he received the infilling of the Holy Spirit,

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those scales fell from his eyes.

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We ask for a fresh infilling of your Holy Spirit.

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Holy Spirit, we thank you for being here with us.

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We just ask you to have your way.

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In Jesus name, amen.

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Y'all, that was really kind of,

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I wasn't planning to pray about the thing

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with the Damascus road, but for some of you,

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it doesn't mean that you're not saved.

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It just means that you've been walking

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in a little bit of darkness.

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And it doesn't mean that you haven't loved the Lord,

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that God wants to give you new eyes to see,

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a new spirit to hear what his spirit is saying to you,

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about you, for you.

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And I believe that he wants to give us all

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an upgrade tonight.

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So we're gonna talk a little bit about overcoming fear

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and anxiety.

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We're also gonna talk about control.

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And we're gonna talk about just the reality

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that in the midst of all of that, we have hope.

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We always have hope you all.

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And I know sometimes we don't feel full of hope

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because our feelings do impact us.

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But what we choose in those moments is faith.

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We choose to receive fresh faith from heaven.

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We can ask God to give us an impartation of faith.

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Just so y'all know too,

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there is in the Bible a scripture

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that talks about the gift of faith.

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So if you don't have faith at times,

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just know that there is that choice to have faith,

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but we can also ask God to stir up the gift of faith

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within us to impart that within us

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so that we can walk in more faith in the days ahead.

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I want you to think about your hearts.

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And if you can imagine, excuse me,

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kind of like a Play-Doh or cookie dough.

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And when you're kind of kneading it and you're moving it,

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if you put a thumbprint in it, it stays there, doesn't it?

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If you push on Play-Doh with your thumb or you squeeze it,

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your fingerprints, your impressions

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are gonna stay there, right?

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I want you to think about this

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as we're talking about the heart tonight.

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Our hearts, they're either,

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A, can sometimes be hardened through pain and trauma.

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The Bible talks about that, right?

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We can have stony, hardened hearts,

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but at the core, on the inside, they're impressionable.

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We can make an impression on them,

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the enemy through the lies and the fear

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and the doubt and the unbelief

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and all the things that he spews.

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is, can cause there to be an impression on our hearts. And so

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I want you just to be thinking about if you don't have paper,

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you might want to grab some, or you can put it in your phone or

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whatever works for you all, you know, I don't want you to feel

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distracted by it. But I want you just to be jotting things down

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tonight as I as I'm sharing as we're talking as we're I'm

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asking questions for y'all to engage in the chat before we

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even go into breakouts, because I want you to be thinking about

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the thoughts that you have. I want you to be thinking about

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the ways that fear and anxiety try to enter your world on a

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regular basis. Proverbs 423 says this, keep your heart with all

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vigilance, for from it flows the springs of life. That word

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vigilance there leads it's just the quality or state of being

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vigilant. But when I look at vigilant, this is what it means

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alertly watchful to avoid danger. Jackie talks in the

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videos about how so many times we put passwords and locks on

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everything y'all our front door in our in our house here in

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Florida, when we moved here, we were like, why are there three

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locks on this door, we really didn't understand there's three

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locks on the door. And sometimes I'm like, Oh, these God bless

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these locks, trying to get out of my own doors hard sometimes.

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But when the hurricane came, y'all, we understood why they

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have three locks on that door. The wind catches the door in

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such a way that it was blowing, you know, air and wind through

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the through the cracks in the door and water was coming in and

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all this stuff. So sometimes it's good to have locks. But

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you know, sometimes we don't have any locks. Imagine instead

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of the three locks on my door, which y'all could see it right

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now, I had my door wide open, and anything that wanted to come

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in that door could come right on in. And a lot of times that's

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what we do with our hearts. We allow everything that someone

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says to us everything that we think everything the enemy

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causes to come into our minds. We receive that as all truth,

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don't we a lot of the time. I want you guys to be thinking

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about even I didn't think to say this earlier today, but what's

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just come up in my spirit, I want you to think about this. As

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you are processing your thoughts, I want you to pause

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and ask the Lord God, is this your thought? Is this a thought

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from the enemy? Or is this my, my thought? God, is this your

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thought? Is this a thought from the enemy? Or is this my own

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thought? And I want you just to start doing that with the Lord

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on a more regular basis, because there's a lot of you that think

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that it's your thought, but it's actually the enemy feeding you a

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thought that he wants you to think on, but it's actually not

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yours. Okay, it originated from the liar of all liars, and he

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wants you to get tripped up. But we're going to start becoming

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more alertly watchful of our hearts starting tonight. Fear is

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false evidence of appearing real. So I want you to think

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even right now fears that you've faced even in the last few days,

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maybe today, the last week, whenever you felt afraid on any

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level, it'd be a little fear, big fear, maybe you had a fear

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rise up as you know, heartwork stuff is surfacing. And I want

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you to think about that fear that rose up, and how it

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presented itself. What did it come up with? What was it

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connected to? Fear is false evidence appearing real. Even

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when Jesus was in the wilderness, Satan went there,

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didn't he? And he was saying things to Jesus. And what was he

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doing? He was taking a little bit of truth, and twisting it

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even when he was speaking to Jesus himself. But Jesus knows

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the truth. He is the way the truth in the life. So he knew

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how to speak truth into what was being said to overcome it. So

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y'all he gave us an example. When we are being faced with

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lies and doubt and unbelief and fear and all this stuff that the

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enemy is taking a little bit of truth, and he's distorting it so

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that we eat it like a morsel. You know, we don't even

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understand it. It's just, it tastes good for that moment. And

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then the pain comes, doesn't it? Yeah, it does. But the more we

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grow in the healing of the Father of who we are, our hearts

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are getting healed, the more we're going to understand the

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truth, and we're going to see the truth as it is. We're not

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going to see the truth twisted anymore. It takes time. Some of

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you all your journeys might be a little longer in healing. Some

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of you all might need to like hang out and in one of the weeks

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a little bit longer because the Holy Spirit might nudge you to

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do that. And if that's you, I want to encourage you to lean

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into that. Because the Father knows best for you.

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He knows what's best.

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Anxiety, we're talking about fears,

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false evidence appearing real.

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Anxiety, get this you all, guess what it's fueled by?

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Fear.

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Anxiety are typically what if thoughts.

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I mean, we think a lot of other things,

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but typically it's what if that?

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What if this?

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What if that?

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You know, what if this scenario happens?

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And what if they do this?

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And then I'm gonna have to go do this.

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we've caused ourselves to be up in a frenzy.

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And again, you all, when I coach, when I release this stuff,

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I really don't ever want you all to feel shame

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or guilt or condemnation.

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If you feel that, know that that's coming from the devil,

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even as you're here listening to this,

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because I have felt these things too.

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And that's how I can coach you through it.

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I've learned how to apply the truth.

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I've learned how to overcome anxiety.

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And there was a time in my life

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where the enemy tried to convince me

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that I was always anxious, that that's just who you are.

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And so one day I said to God,

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like, why did you make me this way?

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I was driving, literally, I know exactly where I was.

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I was in Lexington, Kentucky.

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I was driving to work and I was in pain.

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I was going through a lot of the revelations.

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That's when I found out that my spiritual father's dad

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had been cheating on me.

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and all the things that flooded in

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with the pain of that situation.

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it felt like it all came back like a flood.

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Does anyone ever have that happen?

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You overcome an area,

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but down the road you go through a situation

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and it feels like all that stuff has come right back in.

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That's how it felt.

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And so that's why I said to God,

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why did you make me this way?

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I don't wanna be anxious anymore.

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I don't wanna be afraid.

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And he said, I didn't.

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And it caused me to pause like, wait a minute, what?

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What do you mean?

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Because I feel like I've always been afraid,

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that I've always been anxious.

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And God said, no, when I originally created you

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before trauma ever entered,

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and this is long before I came into heart work,

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which then we learn about this here.

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He said, I didn't put that in you.

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Trauma that you experienced in lives

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that you believed as a kid,

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because I didn't have the ability to process

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what I was going through as a little girl

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in an abusive home.

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I didn't, a lot of you didn't.

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And so God in his goodness was like,

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no, don't believe that lie.

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That is not a part of your character.

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It is not a part of who you are.

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The enemy is trying to convince you that it is,

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but it's not.

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And from that day forward, am I gonna say

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I've never had an anxious thought ever again?

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The reality is, is the enemy always tries to come back

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and bring it back.

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He keeps trying to come back to the door

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and bring us back the stuff we've already overcome.

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And then he also tries to bring us new stuff.

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So we have to stand again, what?

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Alertly watchful, to be sober and vigilant,

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to pay attention.

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We cast down every thought, we take it captive,

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we cast it down and make it obedient to truth.

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So even myself, I've overcome.

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Now though, here's the difference.

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I felt like I, even though I had victory before,

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the enemy was trying to convince me in that season

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that I never had the victory.

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I always, even from before trauma entered,

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I always had the victory.

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Because I was made in the image of God.

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I was covered by the blood of the lamb.

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So I am his and I have victory in him.

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When I give my life to Jesus Christ,

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I automatically enter that victory and so do you.

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And so tonight we're gonna learn a little bit more

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how to apply the victory,

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but we first have to identify the root fears

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and the things that are causing the anxiety to happen.

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So I want you to be thinking about

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trauma that you've been through,

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situations that have caused fear or anxiety.

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Maybe some of you have panic, worry, or dread disorders.

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on a regular basis, but when something happens,

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maybe you start what's coming up in my spirit.

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Some of you, it surfaces the most

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when you're moving towards something good

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and the enemy is trying to convince you

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that you can't do it, you can't have it,

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whatever the storyline is.

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Trauma that happened to us is not what stops us

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from living an amazing life, you all.

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It's not the trauma that stops us,

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but it's the lies that we believe

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as a result of the trauma.

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Stephanie, I saw your video today and I loved it.

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I loved it and I was so excited like it's one of those moments where I'm just like and y'all I love all your posts

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But it's you know, there's these moments where it's just like this is all these posts y'all are doing

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This is why we do what we do. Thank you Jesus

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Because we never know what one thing that someone's gonna hear and it's just gonna click

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It's just gonna click so every time we keep coming the posts that you all are doing as you're sharing

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I hope you know that other sisters are seeing those posts and they are being set free as well

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You guys don't get to see all the testimonies that come in from people that are being impacted even as you share

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So keep on showing up and keep on sharing, but it's the lies we believe as a result of the trauma

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Now Stephanie when you shared what what I feel like I I want to pull this forward if y'all didn't see her video in the

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App check it out. It's really good

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But she was saying it was something she thought that had happened

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That was causing her to think her identity was a certain way, but that wasn't her identity

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That's not her identity. God gave her an identity

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God dreamed her up just like he dreamed you up and and God was excited when he formed you and he made you and

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So then when the when the enemy brought the trauma

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That's when the lies entered

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So I want you to think about any areas where you might have had like where you might say, okay

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This is a problem area or I always get stuck here

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I feel like I I

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Gave three steps ahead and two steps back three steps ahead and two steps back or however

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You guys want to say it that push pull where you just feel stuck in an area

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I want you to write down what that area is

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And and for those of you that feel led you can put it in the chat

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Let's see some of the areas that you have been feeling stuck in your life

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Go ahead and put those in the chat for us

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Okay health and anxiety rejection trusting friendships, okay

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That's good

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Time management

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Is it you've Elise? I don't know if I said that right tell me when that shows up for you the most

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When do you struggle with time management the most is it related to certain types of projects or just in general?

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rejection

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Okay moving into true adulthood I like that

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Me to time management family dynamics homeownership and love life anxiety weight same routine

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Okay, y'all keep putting those in there for us. I

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Want to keep seeing those? Okay, I'm gonna keep going

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Here's the thing when we feel stuck in an area. That's actually a signal to us

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That that is an area that we believe lies

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in

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some way or another

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So if you all are thinking about where you feel stuck

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I want you to start asking the Lord to reveal to you

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What lies am I believing?

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surrounding these areas

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Because even after heart work some of you might still need healing and some of those additional areas so that you can step into

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The fullness of who God has called you to be

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Not everyone sees the dysfunction in our in their life or the problems that are surrounding them

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A lot of times we have blind spots and filters you all we can't fully see

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The dysfunction or areas that are causing us to get tripped up

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That's why it's important for y'all to invest in something like this, which praise God

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Hopefully y'all have patted yourself on your on the back and just been proud of yourselves for coming here for for choosing

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To invest in your heart work to choose to invest in your future

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Blessed life the goodness of God that you're gonna experience in the land of the living as you continue to heal

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There's a lot of people that will never take the step to invest in this it's really awesome that y'all did

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Okay, so all the lies that we believe there's one that I want to point out in particular tonight and here is what it is

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I'm gonna read a little bit from the book and I never tell pages because again that the hard copy book is different from

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the e-book

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But it's called the biggest lie

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Not everyone sees the dysfunction in their life as a problem the biggest lie that you may believe in life is that your life is

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normal

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Many people that live broken lives believe that it's reasonable to live that way

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They have inherited the emotional debt or trauma for their from their family and they think it's normal to be overweight and unhappy

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To be unfaithful to be in a relationship where someone mistreats you or to be sick all the time

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They think it's okay to have massive amounts of debt and spend all their energy trying to figure out how to pay the bills

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or even more severe deception,

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like it's normal to abuse and hurt others or yourself.

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I knew someone like that.

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They thought it was normal to be molested by family members

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because it's all they had ever known.

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When they were confronted by an outsider about the abuse,

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they said, that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it?

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No, it does not.

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Maybe you have been confronted by people in your life,

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friends, coworkers, or even family

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that are trying to get you to see

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how dysfunctional an area of your life has become.

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I have done this for people over the years.

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Some people call it an intervention.

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It's a reality check when someone is so deep in a lie

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that their behavior has become dangerous

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to others or themselves.

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And so I'm using this tonight

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because I do believe some of us in the room tonight,

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if you will, are watching the replay

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that the enemy has been trying to convince you

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to minimize what you have gone through.

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And I do believe that it's just normal,

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that everyone just has this kind of stuff happen.

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And the reason I wanted to point this out

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is we had a client, she's been through heart work,

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she's been through phase two,

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she's all the way in phase three,

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she's been there for a while.

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I've coached her several times

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and Jackie's in the middle of doing some work

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with her right now.

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And y'all, she's finally just,

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like every time she was coached,

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there was more stuff coming out,

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well, it's no big deal,

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I made the best of it,

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or this is just what everybody goes through.

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And so that was kind of what she told herself

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when she was younger as a coping mechanism.

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if that is you,

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I wanna encourage you to come out of agreement

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with that lie tonight,

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because God has better things for you.

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And mistreatment and things like that are not normal.

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00:26:54.880 --> 00:26:57.920
And why am I connecting that to fear and anxiety?

478
00:26:57.920 --> 00:26:59.840
Well, a lot of people

479
00:26:59.840 --> 00:27:02.720
that do not get healing in these deep areas

480
00:27:02.720 --> 00:27:04.960
will struggle with fear and anxiety,

481
00:27:04.960 --> 00:27:07.120
panic, worry, dread,

482
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even more than maybe other people might.

483
00:27:10.000 --> 00:27:12.440
So we want you to step into truth.

484
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And so I want you to pause and just ask yourself,

485
00:27:14.880 --> 00:27:17.000
and remember, this can start tonight,

486
00:27:17.000 --> 00:27:18.600
but even throughout this week,

487
00:27:18.600 --> 00:27:21.480
you wanna ask God to help you with this.

488
00:27:21.480 --> 00:27:23.480
When you are looking at those fears

489
00:27:23.480 --> 00:27:25.280
or those areas where you've been stuck

490
00:27:25.280 --> 00:27:27.440
that I've had you kind of writing down on the paper,

491
00:27:27.440 --> 00:27:29.160
the ones you put in the chat,

492
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I want you to ask yourself, what are the facts?

493
00:27:34.920 --> 00:27:36.960
What are the facts?

494
00:27:36.960 --> 00:27:38.240
And then what is true?

495
00:27:38.240 --> 00:27:39.760
And if you don't know what that is yet,

496
00:27:39.760 --> 00:27:41.240
again, remember what I said earlier,

497
00:27:41.240 --> 00:27:42.560
you're gonna start asking God,

498
00:27:42.560 --> 00:27:44.440
God, what are your thoughts?

499
00:27:44.440 --> 00:27:46.440
What are the thoughts from the enemy?

500
00:27:46.440 --> 00:27:47.560
And what are my thoughts?

501
00:27:47.560 --> 00:27:50.400
And you're gonna start to sort out

502
00:27:50.400 --> 00:27:53.520
what is true and what is not true by doing that.

503
00:27:54.400 --> 00:27:56.240
We can overcome fears the more we heal

504
00:27:56.240 --> 00:28:00.080
and become more rooted in God's love and faithfulness to us.

505
00:28:00.080 --> 00:28:02.600
Here are some other scenarios with people

506
00:28:02.600 --> 00:28:05.400
that struggle with lots of fear or panic

507
00:28:05.400 --> 00:28:07.400
or thoughts like this.

508
00:28:07.400 --> 00:28:09.920
They might be someone who is always waiting

509
00:28:09.920 --> 00:28:11.480
for the other shoe to drop.

510
00:28:12.480 --> 00:28:16.000
Maybe you tend to think the worst case scenario

511
00:28:16.000 --> 00:28:18.040
instead of the best case scenario.

512
00:28:19.040 --> 00:28:22.440
Maybe you hear a siren and think automatically

513
00:28:22.440 --> 00:28:24.840
that something has happened to someone you love.

514
00:28:26.440 --> 00:28:29.840
Maybe you're someone that when someone doesn't respond

515
00:28:29.840 --> 00:28:31.600
to a text message you've sent

516
00:28:31.600 --> 00:28:34.560
in the timeframe you think that they should,

517
00:28:34.560 --> 00:28:37.360
you start to have spiraling thoughts like,

518
00:28:37.360 --> 00:28:40.000
they're mad at me, they don't care about me.

519
00:28:40.000 --> 00:28:41.960
They must be talking to someone else.

520
00:28:41.960 --> 00:28:42.920
I'm not pretty enough.

521
00:28:42.920 --> 00:28:43.760
I'm not good enough.

522
00:28:43.760 --> 00:28:45.600
I'm fill in the blank.

523
00:28:45.960 --> 00:28:48.760
Anxious attachment style, people that struggle with that,

524
00:28:48.760 --> 00:28:51.600
they will tend to spiral in their thoughts

525
00:28:51.600 --> 00:28:55.160
when a lot of times none of those things are happening.

526
00:28:56.160 --> 00:28:58.280
Okay, super important for y'all to pay attention

527
00:28:58.280 --> 00:29:01.360
to where the spiral thoughts might be taking you.

528
00:29:01.360 --> 00:29:03.040
So I want you to ask yourself lately,

529
00:29:03.040 --> 00:29:05.560
what have your thoughts been rooted in?

530
00:29:06.480 --> 00:29:07.440
What have they been rooted in?

531
00:29:07.440 --> 00:29:11.600
Have they been rooted in fear, doubt, unbelief, pain?

532
00:29:12.520 --> 00:29:16.800
Have they been rooted in love, joy, peace?

533
00:29:17.880 --> 00:29:20.160
When you start to look at what they're rooted in,

534
00:29:20.160 --> 00:29:23.160
it will then show you why you're like then

535
00:29:23.160 --> 00:29:24.440
the fruit that's coming forth.

536
00:29:24.440 --> 00:29:27.040
Next week, we're gonna talk about identity

537
00:29:27.040 --> 00:29:28.720
and I don't know the second topic yet,

538
00:29:28.720 --> 00:29:30.080
but we're gonna do the,

539
00:29:30.080 --> 00:29:32.880
if you haven't been here yet for this one,

540
00:29:32.880 --> 00:29:34.400
some of our ladies that are starting to move

541
00:29:34.400 --> 00:29:35.240
in the next phase,

542
00:29:35.240 --> 00:29:38.240
we're gonna do the root system activation next week.

543
00:29:38.240 --> 00:29:39.400
We're gonna look at our roots

544
00:29:39.400 --> 00:29:42.200
and where they started

545
00:29:42.200 --> 00:29:44.560
and where we can start to discern

546
00:29:44.560 --> 00:29:46.000
the roots that we still need to work on

547
00:29:46.000 --> 00:29:47.560
and the roots that are starting to heal

548
00:29:47.560 --> 00:29:52.240
because some of y'all are experiencing a lot of healing

549
00:29:52.240 --> 00:29:54.960
and it's good to pay attention to that as well.

550
00:29:54.960 --> 00:29:56.360
All right, here's some scriptures for you.

551
00:29:56.360 --> 00:29:58.880
First John 4, 18.

552
00:29:59.720 --> 00:30:00.560
This is John 4, 18.

553
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:02.080
The Amplified Version.

554
00:30:02.080 --> 00:30:05.760
There is no fear in love, dread does not exist.

555
00:30:06.680 --> 00:30:08.760
But perfect, so perfect here,

556
00:30:08.760 --> 00:30:13.760
what it means is complete, full-grown love drives out fear,

557
00:30:13.920 --> 00:30:18.120
because fear involves the expectation of divine punishment.

558
00:30:19.600 --> 00:30:22.240
So the one who is afraid of God's judgment

559
00:30:22.240 --> 00:30:23.960
is not perfected in love,

560
00:30:23.960 --> 00:30:27.000
which what that means is they have not grown

561
00:30:27.000 --> 00:30:30.360
into a sufficient understanding of God's love.

562
00:30:30.360 --> 00:30:35.360
So basically it's telling us that if we live in fear,

563
00:30:36.960 --> 00:30:40.880
that we actually expect divine judgment,

564
00:30:40.880 --> 00:30:43.360
because we don't have a true understanding

565
00:30:43.360 --> 00:30:46.100
of God's love for us.

566
00:30:47.280 --> 00:30:51.840
God himself is love, he cannot and will not deny himself,

567
00:30:51.840 --> 00:30:53.440
we are made in the image of God,

568
00:30:53.440 --> 00:30:57.080
therefore we are in him, he is in us,

569
00:30:57.080 --> 00:31:00.320
so if he cannot deny himself, guess what you all?

570
00:31:00.320 --> 00:31:03.780
He cannot deny us, nothing can separate us

571
00:31:03.780 --> 00:31:05.720
from the love of God, not height, not depth,

572
00:31:05.720 --> 00:31:08.560
nor principality, nor power, nor things in the present,

573
00:31:08.560 --> 00:31:13.560
nor things to come, but yet so many of us struggle,

574
00:31:13.680 --> 00:31:14.520
don't we?

575
00:31:16.840 --> 00:31:20.600
So maybe tonight the upgrade is God,

576
00:31:20.600 --> 00:31:24.220
help me to understand who you are as love more,

577
00:31:25.760 --> 00:31:28.760
because the more that we understand who he is as love,

578
00:31:28.760 --> 00:31:33.260
you all, the more secure we're gonna become in him,

579
00:31:33.260 --> 00:31:35.560
and again, it doesn't mean we're never gonna feel fear

580
00:31:35.560 --> 00:31:38.340
or be tempted to feel afraid,

581
00:31:38.340 --> 00:31:42.720
but we can stand and remain, oh wait,

582
00:31:42.720 --> 00:31:44.400
I don't have to be afraid,

583
00:31:44.400 --> 00:31:47.720
because my daddy, my daddy's got me,

584
00:31:48.560 --> 00:31:52.320
he loves me, I'm in his love right now,

585
00:31:52.320 --> 00:31:53.680
and no matter what I go through,

586
00:31:53.680 --> 00:31:55.880
I'm under the shadow of his wings,

587
00:31:55.880 --> 00:31:56.700
because guess what?

588
00:31:56.700 --> 00:31:59.660
He shows up and he brings an army to fight on my behalf,

589
00:32:02.160 --> 00:32:05.960
do you all just, can you feel that even when I'm saying it?

590
00:32:05.960 --> 00:32:07.960
We don't fight alone, you all,

591
00:32:07.960 --> 00:32:11.080
and we don't fight for victory, we fight from it,

592
00:32:11.080 --> 00:32:14.520
Jesus already died and gave us the victory,

593
00:32:14.520 --> 00:32:18.240
but we have to step into it, okay?

594
00:32:18.240 --> 00:32:19.520
John 3.16 says this,

595
00:32:19.520 --> 00:32:21.080
"'For God so loved the world that he gave

596
00:32:21.080 --> 00:32:24.520
"'his only begotten son that whosoever believes in him

597
00:32:24.520 --> 00:32:29.520
"'should not perish, but have everlasting life.'"

598
00:32:29.880 --> 00:32:31.080
I'm getting ready to put you all

599
00:32:31.080 --> 00:32:33.560
into the breakout sessions here in just a few minutes,

600
00:32:33.560 --> 00:32:38.560
I want to share these song lyrics with you all,

601
00:32:38.860 --> 00:32:42.880
it's by Zach Williams, it's called Fear is a Liar,

602
00:32:42.880 --> 00:32:44.480
and as I'm reading these song lyrics,

603
00:32:45.240 --> 00:32:46.960
I even want you to think about other fears

604
00:32:46.960 --> 00:32:49.520
that maybe the Lord is trying to reveal to you

605
00:32:49.520 --> 00:32:52.320
that you need to be set free from tonight.

606
00:32:52.320 --> 00:32:53.560
Stephanie, that's totally fine,

607
00:32:53.560 --> 00:32:55.860
you can hang out here while I pray,

608
00:32:55.860 --> 00:32:57.360
and that'll be all good.

609
00:32:57.360 --> 00:32:59.700
All right, so I'm gonna read these over you,

610
00:32:59.700 --> 00:33:02.160
and Lord, I just pray that you would just continue

611
00:33:02.160 --> 00:33:04.720
to reveal to the ladies anything that they've been fearing

612
00:33:04.720 --> 00:33:07.460
that they don't even recognize they've been afraid of.

613
00:33:07.460 --> 00:33:09.560
Lord, I thank you for revealing, for healing,

614
00:33:09.560 --> 00:33:11.080
even as I read these song lyrics,

615
00:33:11.080 --> 00:33:12.960
help them to hear what your spirit is saying

616
00:33:12.960 --> 00:33:16.240
louder than the voice of the enemy, in Jesus' name.

617
00:33:16.240 --> 00:33:19.000
Here are the lyrics, and this is as if,

618
00:33:19.000 --> 00:33:22.600
like when he's singing this, it's as if, you know,

619
00:33:22.600 --> 00:33:27.000
it says, when he told you, so he being the devil, okay?

620
00:33:27.000 --> 00:33:29.520
When he told you you're not good enough,

621
00:33:29.520 --> 00:33:31.640
when he told you you're not right,

622
00:33:31.640 --> 00:33:33.680
when he told you you're not strong enough

623
00:33:33.680 --> 00:33:35.700
to put up a good fight,

624
00:33:35.700 --> 00:33:37.840
when he told you you're not worthy,

625
00:33:37.840 --> 00:33:39.960
when he told you you're not loved,

626
00:33:39.960 --> 00:33:42.440
when he told you you're not beautiful,

627
00:33:42.520 --> 00:33:44.880
you'll never be enough.

628
00:33:44.880 --> 00:33:46.840
Fear, he is a liar.

629
00:33:46.840 --> 00:33:49.800
He will take your breath, stop you in your steps.

630
00:33:49.800 --> 00:33:51.560
Fear, he is a liar.

631
00:33:51.560 --> 00:33:54.440
He will rob your rest, steal your happiness,

632
00:33:54.440 --> 00:33:57.240
cast your fear in the fire,

633
00:33:57.240 --> 00:33:59.720
because fear, he is a liar.

634
00:33:59.720 --> 00:34:01.480
When he told you you were troubled,

635
00:34:01.480 --> 00:34:03.560
you'll forever be alone.

636
00:34:03.560 --> 00:34:05.600
When he told you you should run away,

637
00:34:05.600 --> 00:34:08.040
you'll never find a home.

638
00:34:08.040 --> 00:34:10.920
When he told you you were dirty and you should be ashamed,

639
00:34:10.920 --> 00:34:14.040
when he told you you could be the one

640
00:34:14.040 --> 00:34:17.000
that grace could never change.

641
00:34:17.920 --> 00:34:19.280
Oh, fear, he is a liar.

642
00:34:19.280 --> 00:34:21.679
He will take your breath, stop you in your steps.

643
00:34:21.679 --> 00:34:23.719
Fear, he is a liar.

644
00:34:23.719 --> 00:34:25.800
He will rob your rest, steal your happiness,

645
00:34:25.800 --> 00:34:27.199
cast your fear in the fire,

646
00:34:27.199 --> 00:34:30.920
because fear, he is a liar.

647
00:34:30.920 --> 00:34:33.239
Y'all, we have to cast our fears.

648
00:34:33.239 --> 00:34:35.440
We have to get rid of that stuff.

649
00:34:35.440 --> 00:34:37.320
We have to ask the Lord to, you know,

650
00:34:37.320 --> 00:34:42.320
there's a scripture that talks about the wheat and the chaff

651
00:34:43.000 --> 00:34:46.560
and the dross getting moved away, the winnowing fan,

652
00:34:46.560 --> 00:34:48.639
that it would separate that stuff

653
00:34:48.639 --> 00:34:50.199
and begin to take that stuff

654
00:34:50.199 --> 00:34:52.920
that's not meant to be a part of us,

655
00:34:52.920 --> 00:34:55.000
that will take that stuff away.

656
00:34:55.000 --> 00:34:57.400
And so I believe by faith that that can happen tonight.

657
00:34:57.400 --> 00:34:59.280
Here is your breakout question.

658
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.960
What fear or fears, if you have more than one that you are recognizing, are you going to ask

659
00:35:04.960 --> 00:35:12.000
God to help you with tonight? What fear or fears are you going to ask God to help you with tonight?

660
00:35:13.520 --> 00:35:27.520
All right, let me get these ready.

661
00:35:30.960 --> 00:35:34.800
All right, I'm going to give you all nine minutes because I have like three to four people in a room

662
00:35:35.520 --> 00:35:40.400
and if you go in a room and somebody's not there yet, just hang on because some people's internet's

663
00:35:40.400 --> 00:35:45.520
a little slower than others but they'll get there or if I need to move people around I will, okay?

664
00:35:45.520 --> 00:35:49.520
All right, praying for you all, go ahead and click to join those.

665
00:36:00.000 --> 00:36:24.240
All right, Lord, we just thank you so much for your goodness. We thank you for everything you're

666
00:36:24.240 --> 00:36:32.560
doing in our lives. We thank you for just continuing to give us revelation and insight

667
00:36:34.000 --> 00:36:38.560
into all the work that you're doing in our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits, and our souls.

668
00:36:39.120 --> 00:36:46.240
We thank you, God, for bringing truth in every area where there's been lies, Lord, where we've

669
00:36:46.240 --> 00:36:54.000
been tormented from the past. We thank you for, yeah, Lord, I just saw in the spirit as if God is

670
00:36:54.320 --> 00:37:00.800
tonight planting little seeds that are going to start to spring up with green leaves on them,

671
00:37:00.800 --> 00:37:06.560
that it's going to bring life into areas where it's felt like they were dead areas in the past

672
00:37:06.560 --> 00:37:12.000
where some of you all, you just felt like nothing good can come from that area, nothing good could

673
00:37:12.000 --> 00:37:16.880
come from that pain or whatever it is that you've been through but God is saying tonight that he

674
00:37:16.880 --> 00:37:23.440
can bring life out of any area of death. He is the one that brings life into every situation.

675
00:37:23.440 --> 00:37:27.920
He is the resurrection and the life. So do you believe that you have an area that can't get

676
00:37:27.920 --> 00:37:33.520
resurrected because God wants you to know tonight that it can be resurrected and it can thrive. You

677
00:37:33.520 --> 00:37:38.880
can flourish as you surrender those areas to him. And so I thank you, God, right now. I thank you

678
00:37:38.880 --> 00:37:43.280
for the women that are in these groups. We thank you for those that are here in this room with me

679
00:37:43.280 --> 00:37:48.400
as well as those that will watch the replay. God, we know that you are bringing resurrection power

680
00:37:48.400 --> 00:37:54.080
into their life. God, that you are helping them to rise up from the dead, to rise up from the grave

681
00:37:54.080 --> 00:37:59.920
of their life, of the broken ashes. We thank you, God, that you bring beauty for ashes and the oil

682
00:37:59.920 --> 00:38:04.640
of joy for mourning. We thank you that you would lift spirits of heaviness off of them, that you

683
00:38:04.640 --> 00:38:09.440
would lift spirits of oppression and depression and Jesus' name that you would just break that

684
00:38:09.440 --> 00:38:14.880
off of them. And we thank you that you would bring truth and hope and life. God, we thank you that

685
00:38:15.360 --> 00:38:21.840
Lord, where the enemy has deceived us in the past, God, we thank you that you would lift every veil

686
00:38:21.840 --> 00:38:27.280
of deception. God, and we thank you for placing the balm of Gilead upon our hearts, our minds,

687
00:38:27.280 --> 00:38:33.040
our bodies, our spirits, and our souls. We thank you for healing us from the inside out and bringing

688
00:38:33.040 --> 00:38:39.840
truth and revelation and hope in every place where there has been damage in the past. We thank you,

689
00:38:39.840 --> 00:38:46.720
God, that you would breathe. I just keep hearing this, actually, it's a Christmas song, but the

690
00:38:46.720 --> 00:38:52.720
breath of heaven. And so we thank you, God, that we just ask for breath of heaven to just breathe

691
00:38:52.720 --> 00:39:01.280
over us tonight and to, yeah, bring peace. God, we thank you that you are the God of peace. So we

692
00:39:01.280 --> 00:39:06.320
thank you that you would come and abide with us, that you would help us to abide in you and remain

693
00:39:06.320 --> 00:39:12.480
in you, that we are the branches and you are the vine, that we are connected. And where the enemy

694
00:39:12.480 --> 00:39:17.440
has tried to cause us to believe that we're severed, that we're broken, that we cannot be connected, or

695
00:39:17.440 --> 00:39:22.720
we're not a part of the family, that we're always on the outside looking in, we thank you, God, for

696
00:39:22.720 --> 00:39:29.520
that reconnection. That even in the truth is that we were never disconnected. So Lord, we just

697
00:39:29.520 --> 00:39:36.240
thank you. I just, in the spirit, I just see the Lord just taking his hand and placing it upon those

698
00:39:36.240 --> 00:39:43.120
areas of broken vines, broken branches in our minds, and he's pouring in healing. He's pouring in life.

699
00:39:43.120 --> 00:39:49.520
He's pouring in love. And we just thank you that, yeah, just like a heartbeat that's restarting

700
00:39:49.600 --> 00:39:54.400
again. We thank you, Lord, for revival happening within us.

701
00:39:57.280 --> 00:39:59.920
Yeah, Lord, we thank you that we declare

702
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.600
spring up a well within our souls and make us whole.

703
00:40:03.600 --> 00:40:07.900
We thank you that we would tap into the river of life

704
00:40:07.900 --> 00:40:09.800
that's flowing in and out of us.

705
00:40:09.800 --> 00:40:13.240
We thank you, Jesus, for setting us free.

706
00:40:13.240 --> 00:40:14.360
And we thank you, Holy Spirit,

707
00:40:14.360 --> 00:40:15.560
that where the spirit of the Lord is,

708
00:40:15.560 --> 00:40:17.800
there is freedom, there is liberty for the captives.

709
00:40:17.800 --> 00:40:19.360
And so we declare that you would open

710
00:40:19.360 --> 00:40:22.180
the prison gates tonight and set captives free,

711
00:40:22.180 --> 00:40:24.040
that you would bring truth and hope

712
00:40:25.160 --> 00:40:28.260
in the midst of doubt and unbelief in every area.

713
00:40:30.720 --> 00:40:35.720
We thank you, Lord, for even in the Psalm 86, 17,

714
00:40:36.200 --> 00:40:37.040
it says this,

715
00:40:37.040 --> 00:40:39.560
send me a miraculous sign to show me how much you love me

716
00:40:39.560 --> 00:40:43.480
so that those who hate me will see it and be ashamed.

717
00:40:43.480 --> 00:40:46.280
Don't they know that you, Lord, are my comforter,

718
00:40:46.280 --> 00:40:49.360
the one who comes to help me.

719
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God, thank you that you're the one that comes to our aid,

720
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that you are the one that comes to help us.

721
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God, I thank you that even in the areas

722
00:40:56.080 --> 00:40:58.780
where some of us have battled sickness

723
00:40:58.780 --> 00:41:00.220
for many, many years,

724
00:41:00.220 --> 00:41:02.100
we thank you for healing our bodies,

725
00:41:02.100 --> 00:41:04.200
healing our minds, healing our souls.

726
00:41:05.740 --> 00:41:08.060
Yes, Lord, we thank you even in our timeline,

727
00:41:08.060 --> 00:41:10.300
our family timelines, where there's been disruption,

728
00:41:10.300 --> 00:41:13.420
disease, destruction,

729
00:41:13.420 --> 00:41:16.500
we thank you that you're coming to rebuild,

730
00:41:16.500 --> 00:41:20.700
restore, renew, and revitalize these areas.

731
00:41:20.700 --> 00:41:23.780
And we just, we trust you, Lord, in this process.

732
00:41:24.620 --> 00:41:26.340
We thank you that Psalm 99 says,

733
00:41:26.380 --> 00:41:29.300
all who are oppressed may come to you as a shelter

734
00:41:29.300 --> 00:41:33.660
in the time of trouble, a perfect hiding place.

735
00:41:33.660 --> 00:41:37.060
God, I thank you that you are our hiding place.

736
00:41:37.060 --> 00:41:39.420
God, I thank you that you would help us to run to you

737
00:41:39.420 --> 00:41:41.320
and know that we are safe.

738
00:41:42.900 --> 00:41:44.420
Psalm 1-3 says this,

739
00:41:44.420 --> 00:41:46.980
he will be standing firm like a flourishing tree

740
00:41:46.980 --> 00:41:48.860
planted by God's design,

741
00:41:48.860 --> 00:41:51.220
deeply rooted by the brooks of bliss,

742
00:41:51.220 --> 00:41:53.580
bearing fruit in every season of his life.

743
00:41:53.620 --> 00:41:56.340
He is never dry, never fainting,

744
00:41:56.340 --> 00:41:59.180
ever blessed and ever prosperous.

745
00:42:00.300 --> 00:42:02.660
Lord, I thank you that you would help us, Lord,

746
00:42:02.660 --> 00:42:05.660
as your daughters to envision ourselves

747
00:42:05.660 --> 00:42:08.300
planted by streams of living water,

748
00:42:08.300 --> 00:42:10.540
that our root systems would go down deep

749
00:42:10.540 --> 00:42:12.980
into the river of water

750
00:42:12.980 --> 00:42:15.980
and that we would get our sustenance directly from you.

751
00:42:16.900 --> 00:42:18.660
Yes, Lord, I thank you that you would help us

752
00:42:18.660 --> 00:42:20.860
to have a new vision, a new understanding

753
00:42:20.860 --> 00:42:23.100
of who we are in you.

754
00:42:24.460 --> 00:42:25.820
Psalm 37, eight says,

755
00:42:25.820 --> 00:42:28.020
stay away from anger and revenge,

756
00:42:28.020 --> 00:42:30.740
keep envy far from you,

757
00:42:30.740 --> 00:42:33.340
for it only leads you in to lies.

758
00:42:33.340 --> 00:42:37.640
So Lord, we just thank you for helping us

759
00:42:37.640 --> 00:42:41.940
to step out of old mindsets, old lies.

760
00:42:41.940 --> 00:42:44.740
Lord, that we would have a little bit more revelation tonight

761
00:42:44.740 --> 00:42:47.180
of the things that have kept us bound.

762
00:42:47.180 --> 00:42:48.140
Lord, we thank you, God,

763
00:42:48.140 --> 00:42:51.300
that you are helping us to step into that truth

764
00:42:51.300 --> 00:42:52.180
and into the light.

765
00:42:52.180 --> 00:42:55.260
We know that your light casts out all darkness,

766
00:42:55.260 --> 00:42:57.940
that in you, Jesus, there is no darkness,

767
00:42:57.940 --> 00:43:00.580
that the darkness cannot even comprehend the light.

768
00:43:00.580 --> 00:43:04.100
So we thank you that all darkness has to flee.

769
00:43:04.100 --> 00:43:06.300
Yeah, yeah, Lord,

770
00:43:06.300 --> 00:43:09.220
where the enemy has come in like a flood against us,

771
00:43:09.220 --> 00:43:10.260
I thank you, Father,

772
00:43:10.260 --> 00:43:12.880
that you raise up a standard against the enemy.

773
00:43:14.460 --> 00:43:18.140
And we thank you that you make him pay back in full

774
00:43:18.140 --> 00:43:19.280
and then some.

775
00:43:20.280 --> 00:43:24.240
Yeah, thank you, Lord, thank you, Lord.

776
00:43:24.240 --> 00:43:26.440
James 5, 11 through 12 says,

777
00:43:26.440 --> 00:43:29.880
we give great honor to those who endure under suffering.

778
00:43:29.880 --> 00:43:33.680
For instance, you know about Job, a man of great endurance.

779
00:43:33.680 --> 00:43:36.160
You can see how the Lord was kind to him at the end,

780
00:43:36.160 --> 00:43:39.500
for the Lord is full of tenderness and mercy.

781
00:43:39.500 --> 00:43:42.560
Lord, we thank you that you are full of tenderness

782
00:43:42.560 --> 00:43:43.400
and mercy.

783
00:43:43.400 --> 00:43:48.400
I'm sorry, y'all, I'm getting so dry in my throat.

784
00:43:48.640 --> 00:43:49.880
I'm talking so much.

785
00:43:52.200 --> 00:43:56.760
So Lord, help us to know that no matter what we go through,

786
00:43:56.760 --> 00:43:58.280
that you're on our side.

787
00:43:59.560 --> 00:44:01.600
Yes, Lord.

788
00:44:01.600 --> 00:44:02.600
And there's a scripture,

789
00:44:02.600 --> 00:44:06.440
and it also talks about how God will prepare a table for us

790
00:44:06.440 --> 00:44:08.440
in the presence of our enemies.

791
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Sometimes our enemies aren't people.

792
00:44:10.320 --> 00:44:12.640
Sometimes our enemies are sickness.

793
00:44:12.640 --> 00:44:16.000
Sometimes our enemy are strongholds, principalities,

794
00:44:16.000 --> 00:44:17.560
or things that have risen up against us.

795
00:44:17.560 --> 00:44:21.440
But even as Jackie talked about in Supernatural Saturday,

796
00:44:21.440 --> 00:44:24.960
we don't want to focus on the devil too much, you all, okay?

797
00:44:24.960 --> 00:44:28.080
We want to, that keeps us bound in the second heaven area.

798
00:44:28.080 --> 00:44:30.520
We want to think about God

799
00:44:30.520 --> 00:44:33.080
and all of his mighty capabilities.

800
00:44:33.080 --> 00:44:34.720
He is the King of Kings.

801
00:44:34.720 --> 00:44:37.320
He's Almighty God, the Prince of Peace.

802
00:44:37.320 --> 00:44:41.080
And he sits upon the throne and nothing is too hard for him.

803
00:44:41.080 --> 00:44:43.200
And Jesus is sitting at his right hand,

804
00:44:43.200 --> 00:44:46.280
interceding for all of us right now.

805
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Let us think on that.

806
00:44:48.040 --> 00:44:49.560
And know that Jesus loves us.

807
00:44:49.560 --> 00:44:52.880
He's interceding for us and he is on our side.

808
00:44:52.880 --> 00:44:55.680
And the Holy Spirit was sent here.

809
00:44:55.680 --> 00:44:59.600
He's our helper, our comforter, our guide.

810
00:44:59.600 --> 00:45:00.440
And he walks.

811
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.840
with us every step of the way as long as we continue to, he's there always, but it's our

812
00:45:05.840 --> 00:45:12.080
choice to take his hand when he extends it to us and to trust that he is working on our behalf

813
00:45:13.600 --> 00:45:20.560
and that we can walk with him every step of the way. And one thing I know is that the Holy Spirit

814
00:45:20.560 --> 00:45:26.080
is really good at like showing us a pit before we step into it. If we are attuning into the

815
00:45:26.080 --> 00:45:31.920
Holy Spirit and we're asking for his wisdom, his guidance, his direction, he will say to us,

816
00:45:31.920 --> 00:45:37.520
whether we realize it or not, he'll say, Hey, don't go there today. Y'all. I don't know why

817
00:45:37.520 --> 00:45:43.280
a couple of weeks ago, month, month ago or so, I wanted to go to Lexington because my spiritual

818
00:45:43.280 --> 00:45:47.280
daughter, she was having a rough time. And I was like, do I need to come? She said, maybe.

819
00:45:48.080 --> 00:45:52.640
And I wanted to go. I was looking into flights. I was looking into car rentals, all the things.

820
00:45:53.600 --> 00:45:59.360
And I heard the Lord say, don't go. You need to stay home and take care of yourself.

821
00:46:00.160 --> 00:46:05.200
And I can't really tell you what all that was about, but all I can tell you is that as soon

822
00:46:05.200 --> 00:46:11.680
as I let that go and released it, I had peace. Sometimes we need to trust that the Holy Spirit

823
00:46:11.680 --> 00:46:17.760
is protecting us from things that we don't even know about. Hey, all right. Y'all can go back

824
00:46:17.760 --> 00:46:22.080
and listen to that later in the replay. If you want, I was praying and talking about some stuff.

825
00:46:22.720 --> 00:46:28.320
Welcome back. It's so good to see you. Look at all these amazing women wave to each other. Look

826
00:46:28.320 --> 00:46:34.160
at how gorgeous you all are. This is awesome. Yes. It's so great to see you all. I love it.

827
00:46:34.160 --> 00:46:38.960
It's one of my favorite, favorite things. Okay. So who is willing to share with the

828
00:46:38.960 --> 00:46:46.400
whole group? What you shared in your private breakout group, Jen. Awesome. Go ahead.

829
00:46:48.480 --> 00:46:56.080
So my fear is health anxiety, but breaking them down even further

830
00:46:56.880 --> 00:47:01.600
with any health scare, the fear tide is I will get cancer and die.

831
00:47:04.160 --> 00:47:11.360
Okay. Do you recall, was there a time when that thought first came to you? Do you know?

832
00:47:12.320 --> 00:47:19.360
It started when I was five years old and witnessed my dad's battle and death with cancer.

833
00:47:19.920 --> 00:47:29.440
Okay. So ever since about the age of five, anytime I get sick, not as much as I've gotten older,

834
00:47:29.440 --> 00:47:33.200
but when I was younger, anytime I'd get sick, I was afraid I was going to die.

835
00:47:34.080 --> 00:47:40.320
Okay. So super important. You all, if you notice here, what's happened is the enemy is trying to

836
00:47:40.320 --> 00:47:44.240
make her believe she's going to have the same thing happen to her that happened to her dad.

837
00:47:45.440 --> 00:47:48.720
Which interestingly fact, he's not even my biological father,

838
00:47:50.240 --> 00:47:52.720
but even talking about it right now, like my heart's racing.

839
00:47:54.800 --> 00:47:59.120
So this is something I would say definitely probably need some more healing there and

840
00:47:59.120 --> 00:48:05.440
just really, and Jen, what I'm sensing is like a tenderness from the father. Like he just wants

841
00:48:05.440 --> 00:48:12.880
to come and soothe you in the trouble that you witnessed. And you've been doing the work. I mean,

842
00:48:12.880 --> 00:48:16.640
you know, we, you've been walking through this program, you've been doing a great job,

843
00:48:16.640 --> 00:48:23.440
but I feel like now some of the layers of the other stuff are kind of moved out of the way.

844
00:48:23.440 --> 00:48:30.240
And I feel like you're going to have more capacity now to let him come in and love on this area.

845
00:48:31.200 --> 00:48:33.360
Thank you. It has been really hard.

846
00:48:34.000 --> 00:48:40.720
Yeah, I imagine so. And so in that, make sure that you come out of alignment.

847
00:48:40.720 --> 00:48:45.680
Here's what's really important, ladies. When we have these lies, big or little,

848
00:48:45.680 --> 00:48:50.960
we have to choose to come out of alignment with them. Because at some point, whether we did it

849
00:48:50.960 --> 00:48:57.040
subconsciously or not, we started agreeing with that fear. Okay. And I will tell you, I've even

850
00:48:57.040 --> 00:49:02.640
noticed, and sometimes here's another key thing, I feel like I need to mention this, the enemy also

851
00:49:02.640 --> 00:49:08.560
assaults us with those thoughts. Kind of like I was saying to you, I feel like I'm getting a little

852
00:49:08.560 --> 00:49:15.200
echo, saying to you all, like I had overcome that anxiety, but then what happened is I went through

853
00:49:15.200 --> 00:49:22.240
another really traumatic situation that caused me a lot of deep pain. And for whatever reason,

854
00:49:22.240 --> 00:49:30.320
that ushered all of that old anxiety to the surface. Now, I had a choice in that season

855
00:49:31.040 --> 00:49:36.800
to recognize whether or not I was going to continue to partner with that and let that

856
00:49:36.800 --> 00:49:44.960
increase or say, you know what? No, I am not this person. I am calm. And I literally had to start

857
00:49:44.960 --> 00:49:50.960
talking to my spirit and aligning with what God said. No, God made me in his image. I'm fearfully

858
00:49:50.960 --> 00:49:54.960
and wonderfully made. I walk in the peace and the righteousness of the Holy Spirit,

859
00:49:54.960 --> 00:49:59.840
you know, where we really start saying who we are. And so

860
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.600
I'm not saying that all sickness is going to immediately go. You all,

861
00:50:04.320 --> 00:50:10.320
when we speak something or pray, I wish that was the case, but that's why we do walk through

862
00:50:10.320 --> 00:50:14.880
trials and tribulation, but the Holy spirit is there. God is there to be with us every step of

863
00:50:14.880 --> 00:50:20.240
the way. Um, and he doesn't want that for us, but the reality is that we live in a broken and

864
00:50:20.240 --> 00:50:26.800
fallen world. We do full of sin and disruption and all this disease and stuff, but I don't

865
00:50:26.800 --> 00:50:32.560
believe that is your lot done. I think there's so much left for you. And I think you've just

866
00:50:32.560 --> 00:50:36.880
scratched, like you you're just like starting to scratch the surface for those of you that don't

867
00:50:36.880 --> 00:50:43.200
know, Jen, was it last week or two weeks ago you shared for the first time? I think it's been like

868
00:50:43.200 --> 00:50:48.640
three weeks, two or three. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. And so just so y'all know, some of you have been in

869
00:50:48.640 --> 00:50:54.560
the program since March. So yeah. And she, it took her a while to get the courage, but then once she

870
00:50:54.560 --> 00:50:59.120
did it, now she did it again tonight. And this is how it happens. This is how we come out of hiding.

871
00:50:59.120 --> 00:51:05.680
So great job on doing that again and using your voice and we just declare healing over you. I know

872
00:51:05.680 --> 00:51:11.520
that, um, you hadn't been feeling well recently. And so, um, we just speak healing and strength

873
00:51:11.520 --> 00:51:16.320
over your body and vitality and long life. There's actually scriptures about that. So I'd encourage

874
00:51:16.320 --> 00:51:22.880
you to look that up as well. You're so welcome. God bless you. All right, Laura, go ahead.

875
00:51:24.880 --> 00:51:34.160
Um, so mine, um, is just fear of dating again. Um, I know that I'm only like

876
00:51:35.760 --> 00:51:41.360
finishing like week three, um, and still like not dating yet, but, um, and I, I know that like you

877
00:51:41.360 --> 00:51:45.200
had said that just because we get to phase two, we don't have to like immediately start dating,

878
00:51:45.200 --> 00:51:50.800
which did take some pressure off. But just being that I was hurt for so many years in my marriage,

879
00:51:50.880 --> 00:51:58.800
um, just, um, it just really scares me that like, um, like a man that I meet and like,

880
00:51:58.800 --> 00:52:03.040
initially like, we'll think that like, he's genuine and honest and upfront about who he is,

881
00:52:03.840 --> 00:52:10.400
that like, as I get to know him or like, I may not even find out or whatever that he's hiding

882
00:52:10.400 --> 00:52:14.720
something like some addiction or whatever. Like I found out like five years into my marriage that

883
00:52:14.720 --> 00:52:20.800
the ex was like addicted to porn. So, yeah. And so what's really important is that again,

884
00:52:21.840 --> 00:52:29.840
we all will have to choose to not partner with the lie that all men lie, all men deceive all men

885
00:52:29.840 --> 00:52:35.520
cheat. Um, and even if you think you've already done that, you probably might want to do that

886
00:52:35.520 --> 00:52:42.080
again, Laura, and just make sure that, um, the enemy is not still trying to convince you that

887
00:52:42.080 --> 00:52:48.320
men are scary. I almost feel like that's kind of ringing up in my spirit to like, men are scary.

888
00:52:48.320 --> 00:52:56.160
You're not safe here. Um, so that might even link to before your hubby, your former husband. Um,

889
00:52:57.920 --> 00:53:02.640
and then when we're looking at this ladies, yes, just so y'all know, when you get to phase two,

890
00:53:02.640 --> 00:53:08.160
we do encourage people to do a dating challenge, but no one is forced. Okay. Everybody has a

891
00:53:08.160 --> 00:53:14.080
choice. And some people that we even say, Hey, you probably shouldn't date right away. We'll go

892
00:53:14.080 --> 00:53:19.440
right into dating. Trust us. If we say you need to wait, you need to wait because we can tell

893
00:53:19.440 --> 00:53:26.480
when people need more healing genuinely. Um, and so, um, but also some of you like you don't move

894
00:53:26.480 --> 00:53:30.640
forward in hard work because you're afraid about moving into the next phase. And that's what I was

895
00:53:30.640 --> 00:53:35.360
kind of alluding to earlier. Some of us, or maybe that was this afternoon. Sorry. That was this

896
00:53:35.360 --> 00:53:42.640
afternoon. Some of us are afraid to receive the good that God wants to give us. And so we, we

897
00:53:42.640 --> 00:53:48.160
struggle and we get stuck because we're afraid to actually move forward because moving forward means

898
00:53:49.040 --> 00:53:54.240
what we have to keep changing, right? The goods coming and, and that might bring more

899
00:53:54.240 --> 00:53:59.520
revealings for healing. And so we have all these what ifs and things that pile up around us. And

900
00:53:59.520 --> 00:54:06.080
that's where we have to fully surrender all of that stuff and say, Lord, I need you. I need you

901
00:54:06.080 --> 00:54:11.600
to calm my mind. Help me. The Bible also declares that we should guard our hearts and our minds

902
00:54:11.600 --> 00:54:18.240
through Christ Jesus. So daily guarding our heart and our mind. It's like together. It's like a flow

903
00:54:18.240 --> 00:54:24.160
of things constantly going on. And ladies, we have way more thoughts than men have. Okay. It doesn't

904
00:54:24.160 --> 00:54:30.960
mean men are not smart. They are super smart, but y'all literally, when they say they're not

905
00:54:30.960 --> 00:54:36.720
thinking about anything, do y'all know that men actually have a box it's proven in their brain

906
00:54:37.520 --> 00:54:45.280
that like, there's not this like calm, but we have all these like wires that are going all

907
00:54:45.280 --> 00:54:53.280
over the place in our brains. So there is a reason that we are different and we talk way more. Some of

908
00:54:53.280 --> 00:54:58.160
us are quiet. I talk, I talk enough for all of us, but.

909
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.000
If we will get our minds under control and that's not something we can do on our own.

910
00:55:06.000 --> 00:55:13.000
That's where the supernatural ability of the Holy Spirit, self-discipline and control is going to come into place.

911
00:55:13.000 --> 00:55:16.000
Did you all know self-control is a fruit of the Spirit?

912
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It is.

913
00:55:18.000 --> 00:55:25.000
It's a fruit of the Spirit that a lot of people don't talk about very often, but it is a fruit of the Spirit and self-control applies to all things.

914
00:55:25.000 --> 00:55:27.000
We won't go into the other things tonight.

915
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But Laura, praying for you, I lost you on my screen.

916
00:55:30.000 --> 00:55:35.000
Praying for you to continue to believe in good things ahead for you.

917
00:55:35.000 --> 00:55:42.000
The other thing I was going to say for anyone that relates to Laura and for Laura herself.

918
00:55:42.000 --> 00:55:53.000
There are times where Brian absolutely has never lied to me, but the enemy will still try to convince me that I can't trust.

919
00:55:53.000 --> 00:55:59.000
But I have to cause my mind to come into submission to the truth.

920
00:55:59.000 --> 00:56:02.000
Does that make sense, everyone?

921
00:56:02.000 --> 00:56:07.000
So the process might continue even after you all are married.

922
00:56:07.000 --> 00:56:11.000
I've been married two years, but I know that he is safe.

923
00:56:11.000 --> 00:56:16.000
I know that he's a good man and I know that those things are not on his mind like at all.

924
00:56:16.000 --> 00:56:18.000
Genuinely.

925
00:56:19.000 --> 00:56:25.000
And God was kind and led me to someone that was safe because he knew I needed that.

926
00:56:25.000 --> 00:56:27.000
We all need that.

927
00:56:27.000 --> 00:56:36.000
I knew I needed a special man that would have a supernatural grace to understand my story and be able to handle it and not get all weird.

928
00:56:36.000 --> 00:56:38.000
Because that's what I had in the past.

929
00:56:38.000 --> 00:56:40.000
So we can all have that.

930
00:56:40.000 --> 00:56:41.000
Y'all, I'm a testimony.

931
00:56:41.000 --> 00:56:43.000
If I can have it, you can have it.

932
00:56:43.000 --> 00:56:44.000
All right?

933
00:56:44.000 --> 00:56:45.000
All right.

934
00:56:45.000 --> 00:56:46.000
Awesome.

935
00:56:46.000 --> 00:56:47.000
All right.

936
00:56:47.000 --> 00:56:54.000
Rembo, hi.

937
00:56:54.000 --> 00:56:56.000
Hi.

938
00:56:56.000 --> 00:57:03.000
So what God's been dealing with me on is thinking that there's no good men out there.

939
00:57:04.000 --> 00:57:17.000
I actually have an encouragement just because this weekend I had someone reach out that was giving away a refrigerator and I needed one for my garage.

940
00:57:17.000 --> 00:57:21.000
And so I didn't have a way to pick it up like an hour away.

941
00:57:21.000 --> 00:57:26.000
And he brought it over.

942
00:57:27.000 --> 00:57:49.000
And when we were talking, and this is a friend like there's no romantic like interest there, but he started talking to me about how he prays that God will just work in him because he wants to be like a good husband and like he's going after healing and just all these things that I've never heard a man speak.

943
00:57:50.000 --> 00:58:03.000
And I'm just looking at him listening, but just thinking, wow, God, you had to actually bring someone to my door to confirm what you've been saying to me ever since I started this course.

944
00:58:04.000 --> 00:58:19.000
And so I just wanted to share that just because, you know, some women may share the same thoughts that, you know, there's no good men out there or something that I've been told is on my standards are too high and just just all these different things.

945
00:58:20.000 --> 00:58:38.000
And so I just wanted to share that just because, you know, some women may share the same thoughts that, you know, there's no good men out there or something that I've been told is on my standards are too high and just just all these different things.

946
00:58:38.000 --> 00:58:53.000
That is so good. And hey, here, here, I'm going to issue I only issued one activation this morning. Sorry, first one p.m.ers, if you're here tonight, you'll hear both. So this, I'm going to issue an activation, because it made me start thinking as she was sharing.

947
00:58:53.000 --> 00:58:58.000
Here's the reality all what we look for, we're going to find.

948
00:58:58.000 --> 00:59:09.000
I want you to be thinking about that. What you look for you are going to find if you're looking for men that are cheaters liars cheats all these things, you're gonna find that.

949
00:59:09.000 --> 00:59:18.000
Y'all we're all going to come across some that are like that but here's the reality if we look for good. We're going to find good and guess what, as we heal.

950
00:59:18.000 --> 00:59:35.000
Good is going to be attracted to us so here it here's what she's saying, this is what I'm hearing. God and his kindness sent Rambo, a real life example to show her what he's capable of and what he's doing.

951
00:59:35.000 --> 00:59:49.000
And God used a guy to come and do something really nice and he went out of his way to come and do it.

952
00:59:49.000 --> 01:00:00.000
So you all I want you to be on the lookout for this. We did this a couple weeks ago and I had one or two people shared somebody went to Home Depot and, and this man offered to help her so this is what we do.

953
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.000
Look for good, and then we're gonna practice

954
01:00:03.000 --> 01:00:05.520
letting men help us.

955
01:00:05.520 --> 01:00:06.700
We're gonna practice.

956
01:00:08.020 --> 01:00:09.320
So before we jump off tonight,

957
01:00:09.320 --> 01:00:12.880
I'll pray for God to supernaturally send opportunities

958
01:00:12.880 --> 01:00:15.760
you're all, like to all of you to your way.

959
01:00:15.760 --> 01:00:18.760
Okay, I said that really weird, but you know what I mean.

960
01:00:18.760 --> 01:00:21.200
The other thing is practice smiling

961
01:00:23.720 --> 01:00:28.720
at people in general, but men too.

962
01:00:28.800 --> 01:00:31.280
Now, do you have to flirt with them and do all that?

963
01:00:31.280 --> 01:00:33.380
No, cause y'all are in heartwork right now.

964
01:00:33.380 --> 01:00:37.440
But some of you are afraid of men

965
01:00:39.200 --> 01:00:41.000
for good reason, some of you.

966
01:00:41.940 --> 01:00:45.280
But the more you practice, y'all, I used to like,

967
01:00:45.280 --> 01:00:47.520
I felt like I was a pretty confident person

968
01:00:47.520 --> 01:00:51.280
most of my life, but after I went through heartwork,

969
01:00:51.280 --> 01:00:54.900
I realized more than ever that when I would walk by men,

970
01:00:54.900 --> 01:00:58.620
I would look down and God started showing me that,

971
01:00:58.620 --> 01:01:00.060
like, why was I doing that?

972
01:01:00.060 --> 01:01:05.060
Well, because I still hadn't gotten over my fear of men,

973
01:01:05.700 --> 01:01:06.900
not fully.

974
01:01:06.900 --> 01:01:10.180
And so working on looking men in the eye and smiling,

975
01:01:10.180 --> 01:01:12.520
like I might wave or be nice, you know,

976
01:01:12.520 --> 01:01:13.360
wasn't trying to pick them up,

977
01:01:13.360 --> 01:01:15.180
but it was me trying to practice.

978
01:01:15.180 --> 01:01:17.680
So many guys, just super nice.

979
01:01:17.680 --> 01:01:19.660
I feel like even now I'll go places

980
01:01:19.660 --> 01:01:22.100
and little boys will open doors for me.

981
01:01:22.100 --> 01:01:24.880
Like, it's just like the more we walk in the divine feminine

982
01:01:25.720 --> 01:01:27.480
and we walk in these things,

983
01:01:27.480 --> 01:01:30.080
God will send people that recognize it

984
01:01:30.080 --> 01:01:32.640
and they'll just be chivalrous.

985
01:01:32.640 --> 01:01:34.240
So be on the lookout.

986
01:01:34.240 --> 01:01:35.480
Okay, I wasn't planning on doing that,

987
01:01:35.480 --> 01:01:36.640
but I feel led to do that.

988
01:01:36.640 --> 01:01:38.600
So we're gonna just add that in tonight.

989
01:01:38.600 --> 01:01:40.540
Thank you, Rambo, for sharing that.

990
01:01:40.540 --> 01:01:41.640
Nikki, go ahead.

991
01:01:44.080 --> 01:01:48.040
Hi, what I shared in the breakout

992
01:01:48.040 --> 01:01:52.720
was a fear that keeps coming up a lot lately.

993
01:01:52.800 --> 01:01:56.720
And it's fears surrounding friendship

994
01:01:56.720 --> 01:02:00.960
that friends that I've had for years

995
01:02:00.960 --> 01:02:05.760
are just gonna stop being in my life.

996
01:02:06.960 --> 01:02:10.440
And the acronym that you shared,

997
01:02:10.440 --> 01:02:12.400
false evidence appearing real,

998
01:02:12.400 --> 01:02:14.200
like it happens all the time.

999
01:02:14.200 --> 01:02:19.200
And I even like know that I'm doing it and I still do it.

1000
01:02:19.280 --> 01:02:21.360
Like with the text messaging stuff,

1001
01:02:22.800 --> 01:02:24.200
I was sharing in the group

1002
01:02:24.200 --> 01:02:28.600
that a friend I've had for close to seven years now,

1003
01:02:28.600 --> 01:02:32.760
I sent her a message like a couple of days ago

1004
01:02:32.760 --> 01:02:35.040
in the middle of the day and she didn't respond.

1005
01:02:35.040 --> 01:02:38.920
And then I sent an unrelated message like in the evening

1006
01:02:38.920 --> 01:02:39.760
and she didn't respond.

1007
01:02:39.760 --> 01:02:43.080
And then I sent a group message in one of our group chats

1008
01:02:43.080 --> 01:02:45.080
like 24 hours later and she didn't respond.

1009
01:02:45.080 --> 01:02:48.280
So I finally, I actually did at that point

1010
01:02:48.280 --> 01:02:49.600
wonder if like she was okay,

1011
01:02:49.640 --> 01:02:53.040
but I still thought the thought that she

1012
01:02:54.000 --> 01:02:55.480
like was done with me.

1013
01:02:55.480 --> 01:02:59.160
Like, I don't know, like it sounds so absurd,

1014
01:02:59.160 --> 01:03:02.400
but like that was just as plausible

1015
01:03:02.400 --> 01:03:05.200
as anything else in my mind.

1016
01:03:05.200 --> 01:03:06.600
That thought just would not go away.

1017
01:03:06.600 --> 01:03:09.840
So I reached out to her and she was busy,

1018
01:03:09.840 --> 01:03:12.560
like which, and she apologized.

1019
01:03:12.560 --> 01:03:14.680
And this is actually one of her patterns

1020
01:03:14.680 --> 01:03:16.360
that she doesn't respond right away.

1021
01:03:16.360 --> 01:03:20.320
But for some reason, I just took it to the extreme more

1022
01:03:20.320 --> 01:03:22.560
because of the multiple text messages.

1023
01:03:22.560 --> 01:03:23.520
And that's just one example.

1024
01:03:23.520 --> 01:03:26.040
It happened yesterday where I texted her finally

1025
01:03:26.040 --> 01:03:28.120
and asked her if she was okay.

1026
01:03:28.120 --> 01:03:30.680
But this just happens all the time

1027
01:03:30.680 --> 01:03:33.840
and I'm ready to just let the friendships go.

1028
01:03:33.840 --> 01:03:35.200
I'm ready to just be like, all right,

1029
01:03:35.200 --> 01:03:39.440
I guess they're done with me.

1030
01:03:39.440 --> 01:03:40.960
So I'll just back off.

1031
01:03:40.960 --> 01:03:44.880
Like, I'm just like, I'm not gonna like say anything,

1032
01:03:44.920 --> 01:03:45.760
but I'm just the kind of person

1033
01:03:45.760 --> 01:03:48.760
that just wants to go ahead and close off then,

1034
01:03:48.760 --> 01:03:51.000
like not reach out, stuff like that.

1035
01:03:51.960 --> 01:03:54.240
And I am so discouraged in some way

1036
01:03:54.240 --> 01:03:56.960
because I've been in hard work for such a long time

1037
01:03:56.960 --> 01:03:59.200
and this is like such a problem.

1038
01:03:59.200 --> 01:04:01.160
And it's like getting worse in a way,

1039
01:04:01.160 --> 01:04:02.920
which I'm not saying is because of the program,

1040
01:04:02.920 --> 01:04:04.840
but, and I feel like it's because maybe

1041
01:04:04.840 --> 01:04:07.560
it's being a healing, feeling for healing,

1042
01:04:07.560 --> 01:04:08.960
but it's so bad.

1043
01:04:08.960 --> 01:04:09.800
Like, it's so bad.

1044
01:04:09.800 --> 01:04:11.240
Like, I am not ready for a relationship

1045
01:04:11.240 --> 01:04:12.840
if this is how I'm gonna be with friends.

1046
01:04:12.840 --> 01:04:17.840
Like, that's how like overwhelming it is.

1047
01:04:18.800 --> 01:04:19.640
Yeah.

1048
01:04:19.640 --> 01:04:22.400
So I think here's one of the important things,

1049
01:04:22.400 --> 01:04:24.600
and this is why we do encourage you all

1050
01:04:24.600 --> 01:04:26.480
to not get stuck in hard work

1051
01:04:26.480 --> 01:04:29.840
for a very, very, very, very, very long time.

1052
01:04:30.720 --> 01:04:33.520
And the example I give is if someone goes

1053
01:04:33.520 --> 01:04:35.720
into the ICU in the hospital

1054
01:04:35.720 --> 01:04:37.880
and they're there for a long time,

1055
01:04:37.880 --> 01:04:39.520
y'all, it's not good.

1056
01:04:40.480 --> 01:04:44.000
Okay, to be in an intensive hard work

1057
01:04:44.000 --> 01:04:45.600
for a long extended period.

1058
01:04:45.600 --> 01:04:48.000
You're gonna do hard work your whole life,

1059
01:04:48.000 --> 01:04:50.280
but not this deep extensive work.

1060
01:04:50.280 --> 01:04:52.680
And so that's why I wanna encourage you, Nikki,

1061
01:04:52.680 --> 01:04:55.200
just, you know, keep moving forward.

1062
01:04:55.200 --> 01:04:57.960
Even if you think you're not ready,

1063
01:04:57.960 --> 01:04:59.480
I want you just to keep moving forward

1064
01:04:59.480 --> 01:05:00.320
because I believe.

1065
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:06.000
leave part of the victory for you is giving yourself permission to not be perfect and

1066
01:05:06.000 --> 01:05:11.880
not have everything all together. Uh, the other thought that was coming up for me is

1067
01:05:11.880 --> 01:05:16.520
I'm just, again, I feel like we've met, I probably asked you something similar before,

1068
01:05:16.520 --> 01:05:21.800
but I just can't recall. So I apologize. Did you have a sudden loss of relationship with

1069
01:05:21.800 --> 01:05:27.120
anybody in your life? Like anyone, family, sibling, friend, like where, where one day

1070
01:05:27.120 --> 01:05:32.120
they were there and another day they were like gone or something happened tragically?

1071
01:05:32.120 --> 01:05:40.160
No, uh, not as far as like death. Um, I've had loss of friendship though in my life.

1072
01:05:40.160 --> 01:05:46.160
Nothing sudden as far as death goes. Okay. Okay. So just as I think for you, I really

1073
01:05:46.160 --> 01:05:50.740
do. I think it's you giving yourself permission and before, cause if you, that was the only

1074
01:05:50.740 --> 01:05:55.160
kind of thing, if you had someone where it was like sudden death or something like that,

1075
01:05:55.160 --> 01:06:00.800
or there was just that core deep, deep, deep trauma still that needed healing, then that

1076
01:06:00.800 --> 01:06:05.280
would be a signal to me. Okay. Maybe you need to spend a little more time there, but you

1077
01:06:05.280 --> 01:06:10.160
didn't have that happen. You have had loss of friendship, but there might be something

1078
01:06:10.160 --> 01:06:15.560
that until you start getting into relationship, ladies, this is the truth until you start

1079
01:06:15.560 --> 01:06:20.920
getting into other relationships, maybe even starting a new friendship, some of that is

1080
01:06:20.920 --> 01:06:26.360
going to bring the additional revealing for healing. Um, and again, that perfectionist

1081
01:06:26.360 --> 01:06:33.480
stuff keeps coming up for me. Um, you don't have to have everything perfect to move forward.

1082
01:06:33.480 --> 01:06:38.600
And part of the panic is probably coming in because there's that underlying perfectionism

1083
01:06:38.600 --> 01:06:43.840
that's partnering. Like you're the enemy is trying to convince you that here's the fear.

1084
01:06:43.840 --> 01:06:48.840
The enemy is trying to convince you that you're not clean enough, holy enough, good enough.

1085
01:06:48.840 --> 01:06:54.880
And if you dare try to do something moving forward, you're just going to, I don't know,

1086
01:06:54.880 --> 01:06:59.520
dare I say the enemy's trying to tell you're going to mess it all up. I don't know, whatever,

1087
01:06:59.520 --> 01:07:04.440
something going on there. And so it's literally causing you more panic and anxiety and dread

1088
01:07:04.440 --> 01:07:11.400
because now you're kind of in this holding pattern, right? Where you need to launch,

1089
01:07:11.400 --> 01:07:15.000
you need to, you know, that failure to launch people talk about that kind of stuff. It's

1090
01:07:15.000 --> 01:07:20.280
real. So now it's just like every day, just, I'm going to move forward. I'm going to be okay.

1091
01:07:20.280 --> 01:07:27.560
Where you start. Okay. Like I can choose. Um, here's another thing. I used to feel anxious

1092
01:07:27.560 --> 01:07:33.080
when, um, texts wouldn't come or I would think a negative thing. And I can remember when I was

1093
01:07:33.080 --> 01:07:38.360
dating Brian, like one day, like I hadn't heard back from him. I knew he was sick.

1094
01:07:38.360 --> 01:07:43.160
And I started panicking that something really bad happened to him. And I can remember like

1095
01:07:43.160 --> 01:07:49.480
literally at work saying to myself, everything is okay. I'm going to wait for him to respond.

1096
01:07:49.480 --> 01:07:53.960
I don't have to be afraid. And so you might have to really just talk to your spirit,

1097
01:07:53.960 --> 01:07:59.880
even regarding those things. And the truth is always what's going to extinguish the lie.

1098
01:08:01.320 --> 01:08:07.720
Okay. So when you feel that panic and that fear, or even as you're talking tonight,

1099
01:08:07.720 --> 01:08:16.760
worship is going to be your friend as well. Okay. Worship is warfare ladies. It is. So worship

1100
01:08:16.760 --> 01:08:21.880
a lot in this season. Okay. You're going to, you're going to do just fine. I think you're

1101
01:08:21.880 --> 01:08:27.880
going to figure your way out. If you will just, just, just jump, just go for it. Okay. And we're

1102
01:08:27.880 --> 01:08:31.640
going to be there as a community to walk with you. You're not going to have to do it alone.

1103
01:08:31.640 --> 01:08:37.800
If you let us keep walking with you. Yes. I appreciate that. And the perfectionism thing

1104
01:08:37.800 --> 01:08:44.840
is definitely an issue because I do feel like there's a lie. I'm believing that,

1105
01:08:45.560 --> 01:08:48.680
look, you've been in heartwork this long and you're struggling so much with this.

1106
01:08:48.680 --> 01:08:56.680
How can you expect a relationship? And, and that will slow me down. So I need to just keep moving

1107
01:08:56.680 --> 01:09:02.600
forward. And I am praying about the anxiety, but I have not tried worship. I've just been praying,

1108
01:09:02.600 --> 01:09:08.920
but I'm going to try the worship for sure. Yeah. Yeah. It's a lot of times worry and worship

1109
01:09:08.920 --> 01:09:14.439
cannot coexist at the same time. Just y'all know faith and fear don't exist at the same time. So

1110
01:09:14.439 --> 01:09:20.439
if we are struggling with fear, if we activate our faith, same thing, if we're in worry or

1111
01:09:20.439 --> 01:09:26.760
anxiety, if we start to worship using our mouths, like that stuff has to go, it can't,

1112
01:09:26.760 --> 01:09:32.760
it can't even reside there in the presence of, of worship. Yeah. A lot of good stuff. Yeah. You're

1113
01:09:32.760 --> 01:09:39.800
welcome. Yeah. And maybe even just, uh, have a dance party. I think fun, fun. You need to activate

1114
01:09:39.800 --> 01:09:46.120
fun dance parties in your apartment. Lots of life. Yeah. Usher that good stuff in. Okay.

1115
01:09:47.080 --> 01:09:52.120
Thank you. You're welcome. All right. So I'm going to go to Lolita and then Nicole, I'm going to

1116
01:09:52.120 --> 01:09:57.320
have you wait and we're going to do a breakout. And when we come back, I won't forget. I'll have

1117
01:09:57.320 --> 01:09:59.960
you go when we come back. Okay. Lolita.

1118
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:11.000
Go ahead. Hi. Good evening everyone. Hi. So, what I was fearing is the rapture.

1119
01:10:11.000 --> 01:10:22.000
I am a born again Christian of 30 years and like standing for Jesus have I even done enough, not that I wouldn't make it into heaven.

1120
01:10:22.000 --> 01:10:43.000
But just, you know, standing before him with what I have done things I have done in my life, you know, not bad things but like that I make disciples that I witness to enough people, not to get into heaven, but just the stand before,

1121
01:10:43.000 --> 01:10:54.000
you know, almighty God, like, what have I done with the talents and the gifts that he has given me have I buried them, you know, things like that.

1122
01:10:54.000 --> 01:11:09.000
So sometimes, you know, I'm thinking he's coming back. And, you know, it will get me a little scared because I did have a dream that he told me he was telling people he's coming back soon that was about over a year ago.

1123
01:11:09.000 --> 01:11:11.000
And so things like that.

1124
01:11:11.000 --> 01:11:15.000
So, thank you for sharing a question for you.

1125
01:11:15.000 --> 01:11:21.000
Your biological dad, did you have a close relationship with him.

1126
01:11:21.000 --> 01:11:26.000
I don't actually know the biological one.

1127
01:11:26.000 --> 01:11:32.000
I know my, the one I thought was my biological, and I found out later he wasn't.

1128
01:11:32.000 --> 01:11:40.000
Were you close with him like where did you have the kind of relationship where you could cuddle up with him and feel safe.

1129
01:11:41.000 --> 01:11:42.000
Yeah.

1130
01:11:42.000 --> 01:11:43.000
Okay.

1131
01:11:43.000 --> 01:11:54.000
Here's why I'm asking you that is basically what I'm hearing through what you're saying is that God is going to bring judgment on you.

1132
01:11:54.000 --> 01:11:55.000
Okay.

1133
01:11:55.000 --> 01:12:12.000
In a sense, okay let me finish it's okay. Because here, here's the core of why I'm saying that if we believe God, like yes you all we are going to face the Lord one day and we will like, you know, go through all that process with him, but we're covered

1134
01:12:12.000 --> 01:12:14.000
by the blood.

1135
01:12:14.000 --> 01:12:29.000
We're covered by the blood. Okay. And so it's important for all of us, and that's why I asked about the dad connections, how we relate to our dads on earth is often how we relate to God the Father.

1136
01:12:29.000 --> 01:12:51.000
Okay, so if we feel like we had to earn our dad's affection or be good to even have peace or any of those kind of things. And then we are going to feel similar with the father in relationship with him.

1137
01:12:51.000 --> 01:13:05.000
So I really want to encourage you to ask the Lord to show you the first time that you felt fear regarding, you know, whether it's your biological dad or is he, do you consider him your stepdad.

1138
01:13:05.000 --> 01:13:07.000
The other dad that was in your life.

1139
01:13:07.000 --> 01:13:18.000
He was the only father I knew, and then I found out like it's a woman that he wasn't my father after my mother died. We did.

1140
01:13:18.000 --> 01:13:34.000
So you call him your dad is I just I want to know how to call it like what to call him for you. Oh yeah, yeah. Okay. Okay. So, I'm really asking the Lord to show you the first times that you felt a lack of closeness.

1141
01:13:34.000 --> 01:13:46.000
That's the way I feel led to word a lack of closeness and and not being able to feel the love connection that you wanted.

1142
01:13:46.000 --> 01:13:55.000
I was scared that he wouldn't molest me he never did what my grandmother told me to be leery of that.

1143
01:13:55.000 --> 01:13:58.000
Growing up as a little girl.

1144
01:13:58.000 --> 01:14:13.000
Okay, so that might be the connection, but let's ask the Holy Spirit to reveal for sure what is the original source of disconnect regarding like safety around men dads.

1145
01:14:13.000 --> 01:14:31.000
Okay, anybody, anyone in an authority role can be in that category as well. Okay.

1146
01:14:32.000 --> 01:14:40.000
All right, ladies, I'm going to I'm going to switch over to control because I need to fit this content in because you guys need to talk about this as well tonight.

1147
01:14:40.000 --> 01:14:54.000
So I want you all. Can you raise your hands if you're a control freak who in this room is a control freak or ever has struggled with trying to control things people places outcomes perceptions.

1148
01:14:54.000 --> 01:14:56.000
Any of the above.

1149
01:14:56.000 --> 01:14:58.000
Yeah, yeah.

1150
01:14:58.000 --> 01:15:00.000
The reality is, is we may not realize.

1151
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:04.720
but most of us try to control things more than we should.

1152
01:15:04.720 --> 01:15:07.920
But here's the thing, control is an illusion, ladies.

1153
01:15:08.960 --> 01:15:10.640
Okay, it's an illusion.

1154
01:15:10.640 --> 01:15:14.520
We really, it's misleading us.

1155
01:15:14.520 --> 01:15:16.640
We really don't have control

1156
01:15:16.640 --> 01:15:19.480
in the way that we think that we do.

1157
01:15:19.480 --> 01:15:21.140
And so I wanna kind of unpack this

1158
01:15:21.140 --> 01:15:22.940
a little bit with you tonight.

1159
01:15:24.120 --> 01:15:26.240
Healthy people who walk in victory

1160
01:15:26.240 --> 01:15:29.400
don't try to control other people.

1161
01:15:30.480 --> 01:15:33.480
Okay, healthy people who walk in victory

1162
01:15:33.480 --> 01:15:36.640
don't try to control other people.

1163
01:15:36.640 --> 01:15:39.920
They know it doesn't work and it's not their job.

1164
01:15:39.920 --> 01:15:43.200
Okay, so it's not our job to control other people.

1165
01:15:44.120 --> 01:15:45.720
And this can get really tricky,

1166
01:15:45.720 --> 01:15:49.780
especially when someone is mistreating us, right?

1167
01:15:51.560 --> 01:15:53.400
We can't control that.

1168
01:15:53.400 --> 01:15:55.760
What we can control is how much time

1169
01:15:55.760 --> 01:15:59.360
we spend with those people, right?

1170
01:15:59.360 --> 01:16:00.760
Yes, okay.

1171
01:16:02.760 --> 01:16:07.440
We can control our beliefs that we have,

1172
01:16:07.440 --> 01:16:10.880
our own beliefs about things, our values.

1173
01:16:10.880 --> 01:16:15.160
We can control our responses versus a reaction.

1174
01:16:15.160 --> 01:16:17.920
If any of you struggle with anger

1175
01:16:17.920 --> 01:16:20.760
or any kind of like outburst or rage

1176
01:16:20.760 --> 01:16:22.140
or any of that kind of stuff,

1177
01:16:22.140 --> 01:16:26.360
know that underneath of that is sadness and disappointment

1178
01:16:26.360 --> 01:16:28.600
and all kinds of frustration and all that.

1179
01:16:28.600 --> 01:16:29.960
Anger is all the way up here.

1180
01:16:29.960 --> 01:16:31.160
Those things are down under here.

1181
01:16:31.160 --> 01:16:34.520
Anger is hurt, sadness and hurt's down here.

1182
01:16:34.520 --> 01:16:36.720
Anger is hurt's bodyguard.

1183
01:16:36.720 --> 01:16:39.880
So if you start seeing anger come out that those reactions

1184
01:16:39.880 --> 01:16:42.800
is because underneath of there somewhere,

1185
01:16:42.800 --> 01:16:45.320
there's some hurt and sadness and disappointment

1186
01:16:45.320 --> 01:16:48.760
and frustration that needs healed, okay?

1187
01:16:50.040 --> 01:16:54.360
And so we wanna learn how to respond versus reacting.

1188
01:16:55.520 --> 01:16:57.200
Boundaries are important,

1189
01:16:57.200 --> 01:16:59.680
but we also need to make sure we keep boundaries

1190
01:16:59.680 --> 01:17:02.640
and balance regarding our boundaries.

1191
01:17:02.640 --> 01:17:03.680
Here's why.

1192
01:17:04.640 --> 01:17:07.840
Sometimes we'll go overboard with our boundaries

1193
01:17:07.840 --> 01:17:12.080
because we're trying to self-protect, okay?

1194
01:17:12.080 --> 01:17:14.320
So we don't wanna put up a bunch of walls

1195
01:17:14.320 --> 01:17:17.080
and keep everybody out, including God.

1196
01:17:17.080 --> 01:17:19.960
Some people do that and I'm not making fun of that

1197
01:17:19.960 --> 01:17:22.840
because I understand why people do it.

1198
01:17:22.840 --> 01:17:27.840
But we don't wanna try to control things to avoid pain,

1199
01:17:27.920 --> 01:17:31.320
avoid getting hurt because we're afraid of loss.

1200
01:17:31.320 --> 01:17:35.920
We wanna learn how to be hearts wide open.

1201
01:17:35.920 --> 01:17:37.560
I know some of you are gonna be like,

1202
01:17:37.560 --> 01:17:39.040
oh, I don't wanna do that.

1203
01:17:39.040 --> 01:17:40.880
That's so scary.

1204
01:17:40.880 --> 01:17:43.280
But that's how we receive all the good

1205
01:17:43.280 --> 01:17:45.360
that God has for us too.

1206
01:17:46.240 --> 01:17:48.160
Y'all, love is a risk.

1207
01:17:48.160 --> 01:17:51.520
Allowing yourself to be loved, to be able to receive love,

1208
01:17:51.560 --> 01:17:53.440
to be able to receive love.

1209
01:17:53.440 --> 01:17:56.160
And we have to open up, right?

1210
01:17:56.160 --> 01:17:57.400
We have to open our arms.

1211
01:17:57.400 --> 01:17:59.440
In order for someone to hug me,

1212
01:17:59.440 --> 01:18:03.080
unless they just come, we have this one lady, I love her.

1213
01:18:03.080 --> 01:18:04.040
She's so sweet.

1214
01:18:04.040 --> 01:18:06.120
But man, she grips my neck on Sundays

1215
01:18:06.120 --> 01:18:08.560
and she just pulls me right into her.

1216
01:18:08.560 --> 01:18:11.240
She's one of those huggers, super sweet.

1217
01:18:12.680 --> 01:18:15.280
So sometimes we don't have to have our arms wide open

1218
01:18:15.280 --> 01:18:16.680
for a hug, but you know what I'm saying.

1219
01:18:16.680 --> 01:18:21.400
For the most part, it's a reciprocal thing, isn't it?

1220
01:18:21.960 --> 01:18:24.880
We open our arms and we open up to them

1221
01:18:24.880 --> 01:18:28.040
and they open up to us and we're embracing

1222
01:18:28.040 --> 01:18:30.000
and we're accepting of that.

1223
01:18:31.720 --> 01:18:33.680
As a reminder, I kind of said this briefly,

1224
01:18:33.680 --> 01:18:35.880
but I want you to think about the places

1225
01:18:35.880 --> 01:18:37.400
that you've been trying to control,

1226
01:18:37.400 --> 01:18:42.400
maybe people, places, things, perceptions.

1227
01:18:43.080 --> 01:18:45.040
Perceptions can be all different kinds of ways

1228
01:18:45.040 --> 01:18:45.880
that it shows up.

1229
01:18:45.880 --> 01:18:48.080
It could be, this came up this afternoon.

1230
01:18:48.080 --> 01:18:50.840
And so I feel like maybe to mention it,

1231
01:18:50.840 --> 01:18:54.000
sometimes maybe, it came up in the morning prayer.

1232
01:18:54.000 --> 01:18:57.960
Sometimes maybe a sibling is saying something bad

1233
01:18:57.960 --> 01:19:01.360
to mom about you, and then mom's telling you.

1234
01:19:03.000 --> 01:19:06.760
So now the perception of who you are is getting distorted,

1235
01:19:06.760 --> 01:19:09.920
not only to the mom, but now mom's telling you

1236
01:19:09.920 --> 01:19:14.080
what the other person, that's manipulation, just FYI.

1237
01:19:14.080 --> 01:19:17.360
Okay, lack of boundaries mom has there.

1238
01:19:17.360 --> 01:19:20.520
Brother said it, but mom didn't have to repeat it.

1239
01:19:21.520 --> 01:19:24.120
But the only person that this person was upset

1240
01:19:24.120 --> 01:19:26.720
with this morning was brother, is that interesting?

1241
01:19:28.240 --> 01:19:30.200
Yeah, we need to pay attention to that.

1242
01:19:30.200 --> 01:19:33.360
Perceptions also something that came up for me

1243
01:19:33.360 --> 01:19:35.240
when I put these notes down was,

1244
01:19:36.760 --> 01:19:37.960
and this is a real struggle.

1245
01:19:37.960 --> 01:19:40.760
When some of y'all are single parents,

1246
01:19:40.760 --> 01:19:42.400
you have a child with someone

1247
01:19:42.400 --> 01:19:45.160
that you're not in relationship, married to,

1248
01:19:46.440 --> 01:19:48.400
trying to control the perception

1249
01:19:48.440 --> 01:19:51.480
that your kids have in every situation.

1250
01:19:52.320 --> 01:19:54.840
It can be really tough if your ex is saying something

1251
01:19:54.840 --> 01:19:57.080
that's not true about you, right?

1252
01:19:57.960 --> 01:19:59.960
Maybe it's a situation at work.

1253
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:02.240
You know, I don't know what the situation is for you,

1254
01:20:02.240 --> 01:20:05.980
but we can trust God to defend us, you all,

1255
01:20:07.240 --> 01:20:09.840
and make things that are wrong, right.

1256
01:20:11.580 --> 01:20:14.360
We also don't wanna try to control outcomes.

1257
01:20:14.360 --> 01:20:17.480
So this is where some of you have really struggled

1258
01:20:17.480 --> 01:20:22.440
in the past because you say that you want God to help you,

1259
01:20:22.440 --> 01:20:24.820
but then you keep trying to take control back

1260
01:20:24.820 --> 01:20:28.680
regarding relationships and outcomes of dating,

1261
01:20:28.680 --> 01:20:30.480
all those kinds of things.

1262
01:20:30.480 --> 01:20:33.640
So tonight, I want you to lean into the truth

1263
01:20:33.640 --> 01:20:36.360
that you are God defended and you can be embraced

1264
01:20:36.360 --> 01:20:37.520
in his love.

1265
01:20:37.520 --> 01:20:39.280
Isaiah 26, three says this,

1266
01:20:39.280 --> 01:20:40.640
you will keep in perfect peace

1267
01:20:40.640 --> 01:20:43.080
those whose minds are steadfast,

1268
01:20:43.080 --> 01:20:46.440
which means stayed upon you.

1269
01:20:46.440 --> 01:20:48.960
Do you all know what the rest of it is?

1270
01:20:48.960 --> 01:20:51.520
Because they trust in you.

1271
01:20:53.440 --> 01:20:55.560
So here's what I wanna propose to you.

1272
01:20:56.480 --> 01:20:59.800
If you struggle with control,

1273
01:20:59.800 --> 01:21:04.340
you also probably struggle to trust on some level.

1274
01:21:06.960 --> 01:21:10.960
Or also, I don't wanna forget to mention,

1275
01:21:10.960 --> 01:21:12.320
again, there's no shame in this,

1276
01:21:12.320 --> 01:21:15.520
but if any of you struggle with any kind of OCD stuff,

1277
01:21:17.680 --> 01:21:19.560
know that that can be a form of you

1278
01:21:19.560 --> 01:21:23.540
trying to create a sense of having control

1279
01:21:23.540 --> 01:21:26.620
because you went through a lot of brokenness and chaos

1280
01:21:26.620 --> 01:21:28.700
when you were younger, or even when you were older,

1281
01:21:28.700 --> 01:21:31.380
you couldn't develop this stuff at any time.

1282
01:21:31.380 --> 01:21:33.540
And so God might wanna heal that stuff

1283
01:21:33.540 --> 01:21:36.020
and help you not struggle.

1284
01:21:36.020 --> 01:21:37.380
And again, I say this,

1285
01:21:37.380 --> 01:21:39.820
OCD isn't just about having a clean house.

1286
01:21:39.820 --> 01:21:41.340
Some people, that's how it manifests,

1287
01:21:41.340 --> 01:21:45.020
but sometimes it can be like you can't wear certain clothes,

1288
01:21:45.020 --> 01:21:47.820
you can't have certain noises.

1289
01:21:47.820 --> 01:21:49.060
There's just all different ways

1290
01:21:49.060 --> 01:21:51.300
it's showing up in the world today.

1291
01:21:51.300 --> 01:21:53.700
But ask the Lord on that as well.

1292
01:21:53.700 --> 01:21:57.900
The verse there, Anna, was Isaiah 26, three.

1293
01:21:57.900 --> 01:21:59.460
I'll read it again for you all,

1294
01:21:59.460 --> 01:22:03.220
and then I'm gonna get ready to send you all into breakouts.

1295
01:22:03.220 --> 01:22:05.380
You will keep in perfect peace

1296
01:22:05.380 --> 01:22:08.180
those whose minds are steadfast,

1297
01:22:08.180 --> 01:22:13.180
which means stayed upon you because they trust in you.

1298
01:22:14.380 --> 01:22:17.260
So as we choose to trust in the Lord,

1299
01:22:17.260 --> 01:22:19.660
he will keep us in perfect peace.

1300
01:22:20.620 --> 01:22:22.300
So good, right?

1301
01:22:22.300 --> 01:22:23.340
So good.

1302
01:22:23.340 --> 01:22:25.300
All right, here is your question.

1303
01:22:26.660 --> 01:22:28.300
Well, here's the statement right before that.

1304
01:22:28.300 --> 01:22:32.460
Sorry, it's time to yield control, give in, let go.

1305
01:22:32.460 --> 01:22:34.740
Y'all get your white flags out tonight

1306
01:22:34.740 --> 01:22:36.020
because you're about to wave them

1307
01:22:36.020 --> 01:22:38.660
in your breakout room, hopefully,

1308
01:22:38.660 --> 01:22:39.700
that you're conceding

1309
01:22:39.700 --> 01:22:42.780
and you're gonna surrender control tonight.

1310
01:22:42.780 --> 01:22:43.780
Yep, thank you.

1311
01:22:43.780 --> 01:22:45.020
I saw it, Lolita.

1312
01:22:46.420 --> 01:22:48.060
White flags waving over there.

1313
01:22:48.300 --> 01:22:50.060
All right, breakout number two.

1314
01:22:50.060 --> 01:22:52.060
Where do you need to wave the white flag

1315
01:22:52.060 --> 01:22:55.420
and let go and surrender control tonight?

1316
01:22:55.420 --> 01:22:57.500
Where do y'all need to let go of control tonight

1317
01:22:57.500 --> 01:22:59.700
and let the Father help you surrender?

1318
01:22:59.700 --> 01:23:03.540
Okay, so I'm gonna do a little bit smaller groups this time.

1319
01:23:03.540 --> 01:23:05.980
I wanna recreate these.

1320
01:23:09.980 --> 01:23:12.780
I might move a couple of y'all around once these are formed,

1321
01:23:12.780 --> 01:23:15.260
and then I'm gonna do a little bit shorter time

1322
01:23:15.300 --> 01:23:17.940
because we're cutting really close to time.

1323
01:23:19.220 --> 01:23:23.500
All right, go ahead, go ahead and click to join those.

1324
01:23:24.460 --> 01:23:28.140
Once y'all get in there, I'll see who needs moved around.

1325
01:23:46.140 --> 01:23:47.300
That's totally fine, Kelly.

1326
01:23:47.300 --> 01:23:48.900
You can stay here with me.

1327
01:23:48.900 --> 01:23:49.740
All right.

1328
01:23:51.060 --> 01:23:52.300
Father, thank you so much

1329
01:23:52.300 --> 01:23:54.860
for all that you're continuing to do tonight.

1330
01:23:54.860 --> 01:23:58.460
God, thank you for helping us to surrender to you

1331
01:23:58.460 --> 01:24:02.420
and that you're gonna enable us to wave the white flag.

1332
01:24:03.420 --> 01:24:05.780
I feel led to read that submission activation.

1333
01:24:05.780 --> 01:24:06.900
We did this a couple of weeks ago.

1334
01:24:06.900 --> 01:24:07.980
Maybe it was even last week.

1335
01:24:07.980 --> 01:24:09.300
I don't remember, y'all.

1336
01:24:09.300 --> 01:24:12.900
But I feel led to pray this over everybody

1337
01:24:13.900 --> 01:24:17.860
as they are in the process of surrendering right now.

1338
01:24:20.780 --> 01:24:23.100
Father God, I give you permission to search me

1339
01:24:23.100 --> 01:24:25.100
and to reveal anything in my heart

1340
01:24:25.100 --> 01:24:28.060
that does not belong to my true identity

1341
01:24:28.060 --> 01:24:30.260
and that is hindering me from living the life

1342
01:24:30.260 --> 01:24:31.660
you created me to live.

1343
01:24:32.860 --> 01:24:35.260
Holy Spirit, I invite you into the darkest places

1344
01:24:35.260 --> 01:24:36.220
in my heart.

1345
01:24:36.220 --> 01:24:38.220
Show me the areas that are still wounded

1346
01:24:38.220 --> 01:24:39.780
and are still hurting.

1347
01:24:39.780 --> 01:24:42.140
When you reveal these broken places to me,

1348
01:24:42.820 --> 01:24:46.420
I covenant with you to release them into your care

1349
01:24:46.420 --> 01:24:50.260
and to respond with forgiveness and repentance.

1350
01:24:50.260 --> 01:24:52.060
I set aside this season of my life

1351
01:24:52.060 --> 01:24:55.060
for a time of healing and wholeness

1352
01:24:55.060 --> 01:24:59.180
and ask Holy Spirit to take charge of this process.

1353
01:24:59.180 --> 01:25:01.260
I ask that you direct me to you.

1354
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.040
Well with me and in me, I need you.

1355
01:25:04.040 --> 01:25:06.320
I cannot heal myself.

1356
01:25:06.320 --> 01:25:08.840
I want to be free from the past,

1357
01:25:08.840 --> 01:25:11.400
free to be who I truly am.

1358
01:25:11.400 --> 01:25:14.600
Help me to become who you have created me to be.

1359
01:25:14.600 --> 01:25:17.240
Show me the lies I've believed about myself,

1360
01:25:17.240 --> 01:25:19.560
my life, my surroundings,

1361
01:25:19.560 --> 01:25:23.640
and even the lies I have believed about you.

1362
01:25:23.640 --> 01:25:25.600
Teach me the greater truth.

1363
01:25:25.600 --> 01:25:27.080
Teach me your ways.

1364
01:25:27.120 --> 01:25:31.840
Teach me how to think and how to live abundantly.

1365
01:25:31.840 --> 01:25:35.960
Teach me, show me, heal me, grow me, amen.

1366
01:25:35.960 --> 01:25:37.400
As I was reading that just now,

1367
01:25:37.400 --> 01:25:38.680
it made me think about,

1368
01:25:38.680 --> 01:25:40.600
I wrote this thing down on my paper earlier.

1369
01:25:40.600 --> 01:25:45.440
The renewed mind is the result of a surrendered heart.

1370
01:25:45.440 --> 01:25:48.160
And when I was reading that part where it said,

1371
01:25:52.200 --> 01:25:55.400
teach me how to think and how to live abundantly.

1372
01:25:55.400 --> 01:25:58.600
That's a thing that we would pray daily

1373
01:25:58.600 --> 01:26:03.040
and ask God to transform us by the renewing of our minds.

1374
01:26:03.040 --> 01:26:04.800
That all things have passed away

1375
01:26:04.800 --> 01:26:06.400
and behold, everything has become new.

1376
01:26:06.400 --> 01:26:08.640
And that also aligns with,

1377
01:26:08.640 --> 01:26:11.440
you know, that healing that we need in our hearts.

1378
01:26:11.440 --> 01:26:13.600
So we're asking God to heal our hearts

1379
01:26:13.600 --> 01:26:15.680
and that is partnering with the ability

1380
01:26:15.680 --> 01:26:17.360
for us to think differently.

1381
01:26:17.360 --> 01:26:21.320
And so that renewed mind is the result of a surrendered heart

1382
01:26:21.320 --> 01:26:23.880
and we're talking about letting go of control

1383
01:26:23.880 --> 01:26:26.840
and surrendering completely to the Lord tonight.

1384
01:26:26.840 --> 01:26:29.240
And so I feel like that pairs really well with that

1385
01:26:29.240 --> 01:26:31.280
and almost forgot to say it.

1386
01:26:31.280 --> 01:26:34.440
So I wanna encourage you all to really just continue

1387
01:26:34.440 --> 01:26:37.840
to ask the Lord to help us to see,

1388
01:26:37.840 --> 01:26:41.240
like when we say, think like the kingdom,

1389
01:26:41.240 --> 01:26:42.880
like in my mind, it's like,

1390
01:26:42.880 --> 01:26:45.960
how would Jesus think in this situation?

1391
01:26:45.960 --> 01:26:49.560
Like, what is the higher revelation that God, Jesus

1392
01:26:49.560 --> 01:26:51.320
and Holy Spirit want me to have

1393
01:26:51.320 --> 01:26:53.520
so that I can live a healthier life?

1394
01:26:54.880 --> 01:26:58.960
So what is that invitation for us to go up into that place

1395
01:26:58.960 --> 01:27:01.000
so that we can walk in more freedom?

1396
01:27:02.640 --> 01:27:03.480
I love that.

1397
01:27:03.480 --> 01:27:05.600
God is so good that he doesn't leave us,

1398
01:27:05.600 --> 01:27:07.160
you know, where we have been.

1399
01:27:07.160 --> 01:27:11.600
He's always inviting us into a higher perspective.

1400
01:27:14.040 --> 01:27:16.360
We can only see the forest for the trees, right?

1401
01:27:16.360 --> 01:27:17.800
We see what's right in front of us,

1402
01:27:17.800 --> 01:27:20.160
but God has an eagle eye view.

1403
01:27:20.160 --> 01:27:22.600
And so we can choose to come up higher

1404
01:27:23.120 --> 01:27:27.640
and see that really beautiful view that he sees.

1405
01:27:29.560 --> 01:27:30.400
Let's see here.

1406
01:27:30.400 --> 01:27:32.800
I'm trying to find what else God wants me to say

1407
01:27:32.800 --> 01:27:35.400
and pray over you all tonight.

1408
01:27:37.080 --> 01:27:37.920
This one's good.

1409
01:27:37.920 --> 01:27:39.760
Jeremiah 24, seven says,

1410
01:27:39.760 --> 01:27:43.680
I will give them hearts that recognize me as the Lord.

1411
01:27:43.680 --> 01:27:46.960
They will be my people and I will be their God

1412
01:27:46.960 --> 01:27:50.840
for they will return to me wholeheartedly.

1413
01:27:50.880 --> 01:27:52.360
God, we thank you that you'll help us

1414
01:27:52.360 --> 01:27:55.760
to fully surrender every area of our hearts,

1415
01:27:55.760 --> 01:27:58.480
that we'll take down any do not enter signs

1416
01:27:58.480 --> 01:28:00.360
in areas of our hearts,

1417
01:28:00.360 --> 01:28:03.480
that we will return to you wholeheartedly,

1418
01:28:03.480 --> 01:28:06.080
that we will allow you to enter every area

1419
01:28:06.080 --> 01:28:08.400
and bring revealing for healing.

1420
01:28:08.400 --> 01:28:12.000
God, show us the areas where we need to confess any sin,

1421
01:28:12.000 --> 01:28:14.960
anything that isn't in alignment with your plan

1422
01:28:14.960 --> 01:28:18.520
for our lives, that is not a part of your kingdom.

1423
01:28:18.560 --> 01:28:21.160
Thank you that you would help us to turn away

1424
01:28:21.160 --> 01:28:24.120
from those situations and scenarios

1425
01:28:24.120 --> 01:28:26.080
that lead us away from you

1426
01:28:26.080 --> 01:28:28.160
and help us step further into the fullness

1427
01:28:28.160 --> 01:28:30.040
of who you've originally created us to be

1428
01:28:30.040 --> 01:28:33.480
and the plan and purpose that you have for our lives.

1429
01:28:33.480 --> 01:28:36.520
Psalm 139, 14 in the amplified version says this,

1430
01:28:36.520 --> 01:28:38.560
I will give thanks and praise to you

1431
01:28:39.560 --> 01:28:41.640
for I'm fearfully and wonderfully made.

1432
01:28:41.640 --> 01:28:46.640
Wonderful are your works and my soul knows it very well.

1433
01:28:46.960 --> 01:28:48.800
1 John 3, 20 says this,

1434
01:28:48.800 --> 01:28:50.920
whenever our hearts make us feel guilty

1435
01:28:50.920 --> 01:28:52.480
and remind us of our failures,

1436
01:28:52.480 --> 01:28:55.080
we know that God is much greater

1437
01:28:55.080 --> 01:28:57.680
and more merciful than our conscience.

1438
01:28:57.680 --> 01:29:01.280
And he knows everything there is to know about us.

1439
01:29:04.760 --> 01:29:08.760
Yeah, Luke 12, two says,

1440
01:29:08.760 --> 01:29:13.120
everything hidden and covered up will soon be revealed

1441
01:29:13.120 --> 01:29:15.200
for the fast aid is falling down

1442
01:29:15.200 --> 01:29:17.600
and nothing will be kept secret for long.

1443
01:29:18.680 --> 01:29:23.680
We thank you Lord for continuing to help us to,

1444
01:29:26.360 --> 01:29:30.200
yeah, receive the truth that you have provided for us.

1445
01:29:30.200 --> 01:29:34.120
We know that your truth is what brings destruction

1446
01:29:34.120 --> 01:29:37.040
to the enemy that it, yeah.

1447
01:29:37.040 --> 01:29:39.240
I just got a picture of like,

1448
01:29:39.240 --> 01:29:41.080
the enemy was trying to build a fort

1449
01:29:42.120 --> 01:29:44.600
and God just brings truth and he just knocks it right down.

1450
01:29:45.000 --> 01:29:46.360
Like it's not a hard fort.

1451
01:29:46.360 --> 01:29:48.320
It's not hard for God to tear that stuff down.

1452
01:29:48.320 --> 01:29:51.520
He's just like, okay, get that crap out of here.

1453
01:29:51.520 --> 01:29:52.720
Get that out of here.

1454
01:29:52.720 --> 01:29:56.800
And sometimes we need to think more playfully like that.

1455
01:29:56.800 --> 01:29:59.480
I'm not saying we shouldn't take the enemy seriously.

1456
01:29:59.480 --> 01:30:00.320
We know that.

1457
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:06.320
You know, he does come to kill, steal and destroy, but we also know that Jesus came to give us life

1458
01:30:06.320 --> 01:30:12.240
and to give it to us more abundantly. So we can stand in that. But I do think so many Christians

1459
01:30:12.240 --> 01:30:19.200
don't have fun. And I used to think that even about myself, so serious all the time. So serious.

1460
01:30:19.200 --> 01:30:26.960
And I am a serious person, y'all. I tend to really think very deeply about things, but I like to have

1461
01:30:26.960 --> 01:30:32.480
fun and I like to laugh and I like to play. And so God sent me a husband that likes to do those

1462
01:30:32.480 --> 01:30:39.120
things too. Y'all, he's got dad jokes all day long. Sometimes they're funny, sometimes they're not.

1463
01:30:39.840 --> 01:30:47.280
But I'm saying that to say, it got me thinking when I was talking to whoever that was. Now,

1464
01:30:47.280 --> 01:30:52.400
I can't remember which one of you. Nikki, when I was saying about the fun,

1465
01:30:53.360 --> 01:30:59.600
some of you all are going to defeat the plans of the enemy so much faster by having fun.

1466
01:31:00.960 --> 01:31:06.880
Because you grew up in religion out of, after you came out of a hard home life.

1467
01:31:06.880 --> 01:31:11.120
I'm not saying this is true for Nikki, but I'm just saying people in general and

1468
01:31:13.040 --> 01:31:19.680
the enemy's chains will be broken off when we have fun, when we have joy, when we celebrate

1469
01:31:19.760 --> 01:31:25.760
in the Lord, when we worship. And I know some churches don't believe in dancing. Y'all,

1470
01:31:25.760 --> 01:31:31.120
I went to a church that was like that. I bless them. I love them, but they were not right.

1471
01:31:32.320 --> 01:31:38.480
They weren't. Y'all, I had so much fun at our wedding. I wasn't doing nasty stuff. I just was

1472
01:31:38.480 --> 01:31:45.280
celebrating. I believe a wedding is a celebration. And I, this time around was determined. We had a

1473
01:31:45.280 --> 01:31:51.440
DJ. David Dorman was a great DJ. David Dorman was our DJ at our wedding. That's why I'm saying

1474
01:31:51.440 --> 01:31:56.560
that it was so much fun. And we really had an amazing time. Why am I saying all this? Because

1475
01:31:56.560 --> 01:32:04.400
y'all the joy of the Lord is our strength. Some of y'all that feel weak in your body tonight,

1476
01:32:04.400 --> 01:32:08.800
and you need some joy. I want to encourage you to watch something funny this week.

1477
01:32:09.760 --> 01:32:16.960
Maybe a couple of funny movies. Do some fun stuff. Go play a little bit. Some of you need

1478
01:32:16.960 --> 01:32:22.800
to practice playing and letting your inner child come out. I don't know if that's, you know,

1479
01:32:23.520 --> 01:32:29.280
go for a bike ride, climb a tree, go swing on a swing, go down a slide. I don't know what it is

1480
01:32:29.280 --> 01:32:34.320
for you. Some of you are like, I haven't climbed a tree in like 30 or 40 years. I'm not doing that.

1481
01:32:34.400 --> 01:32:39.920
Okay. Find something different to do that makes you feel you jump in a puddle. Some of us were

1482
01:32:39.920 --> 01:32:43.760
so afraid to get in the rain. Sometimes I feel like that too. When it starts to rain, I'm like,

1483
01:32:44.640 --> 01:32:49.440
you know, just did my hair or whatever, but you know what? Sometimes we just need to let the rain

1484
01:32:49.440 --> 01:32:53.040
wash us and have fun and dance in the rain. If you know what I'm saying,

1485
01:32:54.080 --> 01:32:59.280
does that make sense? And I feel like that also pairs really well with the control thing.

1486
01:33:00.160 --> 01:33:06.640
Because when we let go of control, we can have more fun. Okay. All right. So normally I would

1487
01:33:06.640 --> 01:33:14.720
open it up for breakout. I did have one person that I said could come here and share. Let's see

1488
01:33:14.720 --> 01:33:23.600
if I can find you so I know who you are. Nicole, I want to give Nicole, I said I was going to give

1489
01:33:24.320 --> 01:33:26.800
her an opportunity to share. Do you still want to share, Nicole?

1490
01:33:31.840 --> 01:33:39.600
Sure. Okay. Awesome. Go ahead. I just shared in the first breakout that I really can't pinpoint

1491
01:33:39.600 --> 01:33:49.440
any emotions. I just do a lot of crying. I can't think of any. I don't remember the question. I

1492
01:33:50.400 --> 01:33:54.960
I can't think of anything. I can't put a name to anything. It's just tears.

1493
01:33:56.240 --> 01:34:00.320
And have you always felt that way? Or did this just start when you came into heart work?

1494
01:34:02.240 --> 01:34:07.440
Well, I kind of just started when I came into heart work. I don't feel like I've always done

1495
01:34:07.440 --> 01:34:15.600
that way. But I also stopped taking my depression medication. So around the same time, that was

1496
01:34:15.600 --> 01:34:21.040
before I got into heart work and made that decision. So I think that has something to do

1497
01:34:21.040 --> 01:34:26.480
with it. I'm feeling all the feels that I never felt while on the medication. And yeah.

1498
01:34:27.680 --> 01:34:34.160
Okay, so that might be part of like your body just starting to kind of recalibrate, but keep,

1499
01:34:34.160 --> 01:34:38.640
keep us up to date on what's going on there. I will tell you all sometimes you are going to

1500
01:34:38.640 --> 01:34:44.560
have more emotions because supernaturally you're entering an environment where we like

1501
01:34:44.560 --> 01:34:50.880
God has provided and we've been praying and soaking, you know, this movement and prayer for

1502
01:34:50.880 --> 01:34:56.160
years. And so you step in all of you all, and you're just going to start to automatically,

1503
01:34:56.160 --> 01:34:59.600
some of you, some of you are like, I don't feel anything. And that's okay, too.

1504
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:01.860
might get all the way through heartwork,

1505
01:35:01.860 --> 01:35:03.020
and then you start feeling.

1506
01:35:03.020 --> 01:35:04.880
Everybody's journey is different,

1507
01:35:04.880 --> 01:35:07.560
but yours might be that you finally

1508
01:35:07.560 --> 01:35:08.820
are letting yourself feel,

1509
01:35:08.820 --> 01:35:11.820
but just let us know if that keeps happening.

1510
01:35:11.820 --> 01:35:13.280
We wanna keep a gauge on that

1511
01:35:13.280 --> 01:35:15.520
and just maybe really be in prayer

1512
01:35:15.520 --> 01:35:17.280
about what is causing it,

1513
01:35:17.280 --> 01:35:20.180
but it sounds like it's just a healing thing right now.

1514
01:35:21.080 --> 01:35:21.920
Okay?

1515
01:35:23.320 --> 01:35:26.800
So if y'all can't identify the source, that's okay.

1516
01:35:26.880 --> 01:35:31.120
Remember to give yourselves a lot of grace in this process

1517
01:35:31.120 --> 01:35:33.600
in the sense of when you ask God something,

1518
01:35:33.600 --> 01:35:35.920
if you don't get an answer right away,

1519
01:35:36.840 --> 01:35:40.200
trust the process when he reveals it, okay?

1520
01:35:40.200 --> 01:35:43.000
Same thing as if when you're on a prayer call

1521
01:35:43.000 --> 01:35:44.560
or one of the prophetic nights

1522
01:35:44.560 --> 01:35:46.500
and we're activating you guys,

1523
01:35:46.500 --> 01:35:49.400
ladies, if you don't hear something right away,

1524
01:35:49.400 --> 01:35:52.600
don't panic and believe the lie that you don't hear God.

1525
01:35:54.160 --> 01:35:55.000
Okay?

1526
01:35:55.000 --> 01:35:55.840
For some of you all,

1527
01:35:55.840 --> 01:35:58.080
maybe this season of your journey

1528
01:35:58.080 --> 01:36:00.320
is about you reconnecting with the Lord

1529
01:36:00.320 --> 01:36:04.180
and figuring out how you hear from him.

1530
01:36:04.180 --> 01:36:07.120
So not putting your pressure on yourself

1531
01:36:07.120 --> 01:36:08.620
is gonna be really important.

1532
01:36:09.600 --> 01:36:11.840
Just let yourself be where you're at right now

1533
01:36:11.840 --> 01:36:13.720
and you'll learn and grow as you go.

1534
01:36:13.720 --> 01:36:16.840
We're gonna do our best to help you

1535
01:36:16.840 --> 01:36:18.940
in that process as well.

1536
01:36:18.940 --> 01:36:20.240
We are at 936.

1537
01:36:20.240 --> 01:36:21.520
I'm gonna let Maureen share.

1538
01:36:21.520 --> 01:36:22.840
I see you, Maureen.

1539
01:36:22.840 --> 01:36:24.620
I saw your hand earlier too,

1540
01:36:25.240 --> 01:36:26.140
but I do wanna give the activation

1541
01:36:26.140 --> 01:36:29.180
so if anybody needs to jump off that you have it.

1542
01:36:29.180 --> 01:36:30.540
The second activation,

1543
01:36:30.540 --> 01:36:32.340
because remember I added one,

1544
01:36:32.340 --> 01:36:34.440
we're looking at guys, we're smiling,

1545
01:36:34.440 --> 01:36:36.580
we're engaging in the worlds.

1546
01:36:36.580 --> 01:36:39.780
And I say this too, I said this earlier,

1547
01:36:39.780 --> 01:36:42.940
some of you all are afraid of women too.

1548
01:36:42.940 --> 01:36:47.940
So smile at some friendly ladies

1549
01:36:48.420 --> 01:36:51.060
and even some of the ladies that might look grumpy, you all,

1550
01:36:51.060 --> 01:36:52.300
maybe smile at them too

1551
01:36:52.340 --> 01:36:54.740
and let's pass some joy around, right?

1552
01:36:54.740 --> 01:36:57.460
All right, I'm kind of being funny right now.

1553
01:36:57.460 --> 01:36:59.180
Hopefully you all think it's funny.

1554
01:36:59.180 --> 01:37:01.380
That's my sense of humor.

1555
01:37:01.380 --> 01:37:05.180
Okay, here's activation number two.

1556
01:37:05.180 --> 01:37:06.900
Your never will I ever list.

1557
01:37:06.900 --> 01:37:09.500
Some of you who are about to finish phase two

1558
01:37:09.500 --> 01:37:11.100
might've already done this.

1559
01:37:11.100 --> 01:37:13.140
And so if you did, I want you to go back

1560
01:37:13.140 --> 01:37:18.060
and look at your list and see how much it's changed, okay?

1561
01:37:18.060 --> 01:37:20.100
Never will I ever list is this.

1562
01:37:21.100 --> 01:37:24.220
Okay, let me tell you what it's not first.

1563
01:37:24.220 --> 01:37:26.300
We're not asking you to say,

1564
01:37:26.300 --> 01:37:29.540
never will I ever date someone who's abusive.

1565
01:37:29.540 --> 01:37:30.660
You don't have to say that

1566
01:37:30.660 --> 01:37:33.540
because we don't want you to date someone who's abusive.

1567
01:37:33.540 --> 01:37:37.240
Never will I ever date someone who is an addict.

1568
01:37:37.240 --> 01:37:39.700
Well, right now, if they're a current addict,

1569
01:37:39.700 --> 01:37:42.500
we're not gonna encourage you to date them either, okay?

1570
01:37:42.500 --> 01:37:44.160
So you don't have to put those kinds of things

1571
01:37:44.160 --> 01:37:46.460
on your never will I ever list.

1572
01:37:46.460 --> 01:37:49.060
What we're looking for is for you to make a list

1573
01:37:49.060 --> 01:37:51.020
of your never will I ever.

1574
01:37:51.020 --> 01:37:54.380
So for instance, I'm just gonna start giving you ideas.

1575
01:37:54.380 --> 01:37:55.620
It doesn't have to be these.

1576
01:37:55.620 --> 01:37:57.180
You guys need to pray and ask the Lord

1577
01:37:57.180 --> 01:37:58.580
to show you what yours are.

1578
01:37:59.580 --> 01:38:01.900
Never will I ever date a Jonathan

1579
01:38:01.900 --> 01:38:04.180
because my former husband was a Jonathan

1580
01:38:04.180 --> 01:38:05.900
and he was a complete jerk, okay?

1581
01:38:05.900 --> 01:38:08.380
I don't even know a Jonathan, but I just made that up.

1582
01:38:08.380 --> 01:38:10.960
Never will I ever date someone of a certain ethnicity.

1583
01:38:10.960 --> 01:38:13.620
Never will I ever date a pastor or a police officer

1584
01:38:13.620 --> 01:38:14.700
or someone in the military.

1585
01:38:14.700 --> 01:38:17.500
Never will I ever date someone who's shorter than me

1586
01:38:17.500 --> 01:38:19.020
or taller than me.

1587
01:38:19.020 --> 01:38:22.660
Maybe never will I ever date someone who's thinner than me.

1588
01:38:22.660 --> 01:38:25.700
Some of the ladies that comes out with some of you all,

1589
01:38:25.700 --> 01:38:29.540
you don't wanna date a guy who's smaller than you in any way

1590
01:38:29.540 --> 01:38:32.420
because you feel like you are, that makes you feel bigger.

1591
01:38:32.420 --> 01:38:35.060
Well, that might not be true.

1592
01:38:35.060 --> 01:38:36.340
That might not be true.

1593
01:38:36.340 --> 01:38:38.980
We have a lady right now that is in that process

1594
01:38:38.980 --> 01:38:40.380
and the guy that she's dating,

1595
01:38:40.380 --> 01:38:42.620
she said, I would have never picked him.

1596
01:38:42.620 --> 01:38:45.260
And y'all, she's really liking him

1597
01:38:45.260 --> 01:38:47.260
and getting to know him and it's great.

1598
01:38:50.020 --> 01:38:53.500
No, Debra, it can be about other things too,

1599
01:38:53.500 --> 01:38:58.500
but the never will I evers right now, we'll open it up.

1600
01:38:59.220 --> 01:39:01.740
We do normally do it like these are the things

1601
01:39:01.740 --> 01:39:04.060
that you make your list of the kinds of people

1602
01:39:04.060 --> 01:39:06.180
that you're never gonna be with.

1603
01:39:06.180 --> 01:39:10.040
But some of you, Debra brought up a good point,

1604
01:39:10.040 --> 01:39:14.540
might have never will I evers that show up for you,

1605
01:39:14.580 --> 01:39:15.580
put them on the list

1606
01:39:15.580 --> 01:39:17.620
and let's see what God wants to unpack for you.

1607
01:39:17.620 --> 01:39:18.940
If you have those show up.

1608
01:39:18.940 --> 01:39:21.180
Some of you might have never will I evers

1609
01:39:21.180 --> 01:39:24.940
that actually reveal areas where you have vows

1610
01:39:24.940 --> 01:39:26.300
that you have made.

1611
01:39:26.300 --> 01:39:28.700
So we'll just let you kind of put on there.

1612
01:39:28.700 --> 01:39:30.940
And what I want you to do is put these in the group.

1613
01:39:30.940 --> 01:39:34.280
I know it's gonna feel a little scary for some of y'all,

1614
01:39:34.280 --> 01:39:36.420
but if you'll come in and post it in the group,

1615
01:39:36.420 --> 01:39:39.300
we're gonna coach you on some of those, okay?

1616
01:39:39.300 --> 01:39:42.940
Some of you, I might like, okay, great job.

1617
01:39:42.940 --> 01:39:44.620
If I don't feel anything,

1618
01:39:44.620 --> 01:39:46.300
like where the Lord's really highlighting

1619
01:39:46.300 --> 01:39:48.300
that you need to like process something,

1620
01:39:48.300 --> 01:39:50.540
I'm just gonna really encourage you and love on you.

1621
01:39:50.540 --> 01:39:53.060
And then there's gonna be other people where I will sense

1622
01:39:53.060 --> 01:39:55.500
like, okay, there's some trauma connected to this

1623
01:39:55.500 --> 01:39:57.060
and I'll ask you questions.

1624
01:39:57.060 --> 01:39:58.840
So just trust, know that we love you

1625
01:39:58.840 --> 01:40:00.740
and that's why we're asking questions.

1626
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:04.840
questions, okay? Everyone good with that? All right, awesome. So if you have to jump

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off, I want to go ahead and let you know that you can decide to log off if you need to,

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but I do want to give Maureen a minute to share as well, because I did see her hand

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earlier as well.

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Okay, thank you, thank you. I'll make it really short.

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Oh, that's fine.

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And whoever has to leave, bye. I just wanted to say I'm really grateful for what you shared

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about having fun. One of the hard things that I was allowing myself to trust God with

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is God's timing. And I can say that, and people have been able to say that to me, but I guess

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I'm feeling like I'm more able to walk into that tonight now and have fun in the process.

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And the other lie that's being debunked is that I'm in a hurry because of my age being

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44 and wanting children. And so that's gotten me in trouble with relationships of moving

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too fast. And so that lie of I have to hurry or move fast is going to help me, you know,

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and I think God's not in a hurry was the truth that God showed me and that I'm just really

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looking forward to enjoying this and slowing down and having fun. So thank you for sharing

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that about just having fun. I think I really want to try to focus on that part of it all.

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That's so good. Thank you for sharing. I appreciate you sharing that. And you all, this is, this

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is really important. What Maureen just shared about the fun, also helping us stay out of

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the fear of like, that it has to be in a certain timeframe or look a certain way or happen

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a certain way. I told the story this afternoon. I'm not going to share the whole story, but

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I wanted my guy delivered to my door. Genuinely. That was what I told the Lord multiple times.

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And I said, I was never going to do online dating again because I met the girl's dad

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on through online dating and that went horrible. And so I blamed online dating for that, but

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really it was that I didn't pay attention to red flags that I saw. And so after much

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coaching and prompting Jackie Dorman finally encouraged me again to do the online dating.

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And then I think literally the next day is when I signed up online dating and it doesn't

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happen this way for everyone. So I don't want people to get discouraged when I share my

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story, but it was very supernatural. I met Brian four days later. I met Brian. Now I

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had gone on some dates before that. So this wasn't the beginning of my process. It was

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just the beginning of my online dating because I had stayed away from it. I decided I was

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only going to date people in person or through the community, or like I said, they had to

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come to my door. Well, that wasn't happening. I had dated and I got on and that just wasn't

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working out. And so that's when she encouraged me to try online dating again. Y'all everything

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can be different this time around. Y'all are changing. You're becoming someone new and

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what you experienced before does not mean that's what you will experience tomorrow.

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Okay. All right. We've had a long night. We've been on here late. I'm sorry. I kept you late.

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I apologize. I hope it was a blessing to be on the last few minutes. Father. Thank you.

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Thank you for the reminder that you're good. Thank you for the reminder that you have great

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plans in store for us. I pray this week that you will help the ladies have opportunities

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to practice smiling at men that you will send them their way to do kind things for

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them that you will show them that there are good men all around them. Not that they'll

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get caught up in that, but God that they'll just thank you. They'll appreciate the goodness

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that they're starting to see around them. We thank you that we will. Yes, Lord, help us to

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be gold seekers and the people around us help us to be filled with your joy. Does it mean that we

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won't feel pain? No, we will at times, but God, we thank you that we can have joy in the midst

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of it all. So where I thank you that you'll continue to do what you do best and reveal

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things for healing. We thank you for. Comforting the brokenhearted, those that are processing

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pain from the past. We thank you that you'll be near to them and you'll help them and you'll

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lead them through to victory that they will be set free and including Nikki or anyone that feels

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what she has felt, where there's been a, a battle that they've been circling around over and over

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and over again, and they're afraid that they're not going to break free, but God, we thank you

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that you're going to break them free. That you're going to leave them out of the prison. Just like

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you did with Peter, how the angel showed up and literally remove the doors, open the doors of the

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prison and let them straight out. So Lord, we, we declare that over Nikki and anyone else that

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related to her tonight. We, we thank you for freedom. We thank you for, life and hope and

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joy and speak speakable and full of.

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glory in Jesus name. Amen. God bless you all. We love you. We'll see you in the group and have

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an amazing rest of your night. Bye. Good night.