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Hello, welcome, welcome, welcome. Who is joining me live tonight? I see a bunch of names right

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now. I see no one. So let me see your faces if you're able to turn your cameras on. Hi.

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If you are not driving or eating, we'd love for you to turn your cameras on when you join

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a live session. I always like to remind you all. Thank you. Thank you. Who's joining us

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for the first time tonight? You've never joined us for a live session. Can you put that in

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the chat for me? So I know that you're joining us for the first time. If that's you. Anyone

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joining for the first time tonight? Hi, Debra. Hi, Sophie. Hi. Let's see Maxine, Lauren Frenchy.

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I see some other names. I just don't see Stephanie. Hi, Jennifer. 817. I don't know your name.

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Maybe let us know your name in the chat. If you're able. Audrey, Brenda, Star, Crystal.

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Hi, you're coming back for more. All right. That's a good sign. All right. Star, second

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time joining live. Yeah. Welcome back. All right. We have some more ladies that will

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continue to join here. I just put the reminder up in the group. If you've never met me before,

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I'm Bethany Cooper. I almost called myself Stanko there for a second. Y'all still two years in and

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I catch myself sometimes. I don't regret being a Cooper. I'm so glad. I love that last name better,

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but I'm so glad to be here with you all tonight. I'm one of the heartwork coaches here in the

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community and we're just having a lot of fun helping people get breakthrough. It's a blessing

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to be able to talk to you all and help you on your journey to healing and breakthrough. Yes.

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You know what, Crystal, I saw your ask about the computer thing earlier and I've meant to answer

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that question. This is a really good question. So she's asking about, can someone help her know how

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to get to the app on her computer? So the phone, you'll download the app to get in there. Okay.

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When you're on your computer, you don't have to download an app. I'm going to, let me grab it for

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you real quick. I got to type it in so I can grab the browser URL and I'll put it in the chat for

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you. So you just go to an internet browser. So open whatever your internet browser is. They

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say it runs better on Chrome, but I'm not, I haven't tested that out yet, but you're just

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going to do that. And I don't know why it's doing that. You'll just type, you should be able to click

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on that URL or copy and paste it. And you'll just put that into the URL space and I'll take you right

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to the app where you can access it through the browser. You still have to log in and everything,

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but you don't have to download an app to your computer. It's still an app. It's just the browser

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version of the app. Everyone understand on that part? And sometimes I'll be honest. I like to

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respond on my computer because it's a little easier, but I can't do emojis or any of the fun

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stuff when I do that. So sometimes y'all will see me doing the old-fashioned smiley face, old-fashioned

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hearts. Yep. That's why that means I've been answering on my computer versus my phone.

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So that's there for you all. I'm going to encourage you all, if you haven't done this yet,

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there are replays under your replay tab for Supernatural Saturday. I was talking to the

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afternoon group. The things that we want you to focus on while you're in, and I forgot to add

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one note that I wanted to mention, while you're in HeartWork are the HeartWork book, your videos

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from the curriculum. We encourage you to get a journal. Take time to answer the questions, y'all.

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And if there's a question that you feel led to avoid, y'all, that's a little, that's a little

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nudge from the Lord that there's probably healing that needs to happen there because you're avoiding

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it. But I want to encourage you all to do those three things. And then Supernatural Saturday would

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be that other thing that I really would say, if you can't do anything else, listen to those

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in addition to your HeartWork curriculum and the heart check-ins and whatnot. Here's why.

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I believe 100%, so does Jackie, that it will help accelerate your healing in every area of your life.

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It's going to really challenge you from, you know, insights from heaven, things that God is speaking

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to her, not only about you all in the HeartWork, but our whole community, like what is God doing

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in our whole community, as well as in kingdom, family, and marriage in this season. And so

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I want to encourage you to check those out. The note that I forgot to mention this afternoon

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is this. I want to encourage you all to not ever do it on other books that you're reading right now.

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Okay. I'm going to encourage you to put down dating books. I'm going to encourage you to

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put down other books that you're reading because you really need to be able to focus your attention.

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and during this five weeks.

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Our best practice recommendation

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is one week of content per week, okay?

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So there's five weeks.

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If you go a little slower, that's fine.

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We just also wanna make sure you all aren't

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like getting stalled somewhere in the middle.

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So if you get stuck at any part of your course,

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please come in and post us,

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let us know what's going on

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because we wanna help you keep moving forward.

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The other flip side is if you are someone

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that has just joined the program

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and you're emailing and telling us

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you're like less than a week, two weeks, three weeks in,

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and you're like, I'm finished.

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Y'all, we're gonna encourage you to go back

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and revisit videos.

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We're gonna ask you to reread stuff

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because that's way too fast.

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And here's the objection I get a lot.

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I've done a ton of heart healing before I came here.

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Like I've already, like I've heard this stuff,

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I've done this.

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If that's you, praise the Lord, that's awesome.

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But I also did the same thing

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before I came into this community.

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I had done a lot of counseling,

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I'd done a lot of heart healing,

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I'd been coaching other people

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and y'all, I still got massive,

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massive healing and breakthrough.

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You don't know what you don't know until you know it,

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but you have to come in with the right heart

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and attitude to receive it, okay?

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So if, and again, I'm not shaming y'all,

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but I just want you to know, we know that this works.

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And so that's why we're encouraging you.

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Please don't be someone that just,

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you're trying to fly through the heart work

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because you want to get to the guy.

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The guy's the cherry on top.

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At some point, he's going to be the cherry on top.

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All the other breakthrough and freedom

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you're going to get in your life

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is the most important thing.

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Don't you want to live your fullest, best,

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the good, good life in every area?

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Man, I do.

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Even myself now, I'm still,

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God is healing me all the time.

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So stay engaged, don't try to rush,

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come in and do that one week of content per week.

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And again, if you go a little slower, that's fine.

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We just don't want you binge watching videos,

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binge watching, binging on the book.

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We built the instructions that in every week,

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y'all, there's instructions.

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It says, watch these videos, read these pages,

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do this journaling.

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The reason that's important

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is we've also built this very progressively

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to help you in a very organic flow of healing.

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Does that mean that you're going to miss out on something

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if you do it outside of those lines?

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No, but I am saying to you

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that this is the practice that is working best.

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If you get that curriculum done

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a little bit sooner than a week,

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let your soul and your spirit breathe.

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Okay, go back and rewatch some of those videos,

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maybe revisit your journaling questions.

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Keep talking to the Lord about the content for that week

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versus just going right into that next week.

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What do I mean by let your soul and your spirit breathe?

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Y'all, when we're processing a lot of heart healing,

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sometimes we can't even fully comprehend it

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all in that moment.

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the Bible says, say la in Psalms a lot,

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that's like a pause and reflect.

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So that's what I'm encouraging you in, okay?

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All right, the last thing I want to mention to you

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is invest in self-care throughout your healing journey.

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Y'all, eat good, drink plenty of water,

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move your body, I highly recommend detox tea,

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especially for anyone that feels

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like they're really, really getting fatigued.

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I'm not gonna recommend brands or any of that kind of stuff,

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I don't do any of that,

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but like organic is always good, okay?

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And that just gets to those toxins

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that might be coming out as you're processing things

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that helps get them out of your body a little quicker.

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All right, awesome, let me pray for us

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and we are gonna dive right into repentance

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and confession and repentance tonight

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and identity, praise the Lord.

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We got a lot of work to do tonight, it's gonna be good.

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Father, thank you for every one of these ladies

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that's here tonight.

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Thank you for, yeah Lord,

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just bringing us to this place, to this point.

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All the ladies that are here right now

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are never all gonna be together at this appointed time

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for this appointed purpose.

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We thank you God for the revealings for healing

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that you have for them.

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Help them to hear what your spirit is saying.

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God, we thank you that you're a good father

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who gives good gifts to your children.

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We thank you that you're, yeah, Lord,

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your eyes are always on us.

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You never slumber, you never sleep, God,

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even when we don't know that you're working, you're working.

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Father, where we have any unbelief,

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I pray tonight that you would impart belief,

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that you would breathe hope,

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that you would breathe a life in healing, resurrection,

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power into our spirits.

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We thank you that yesterday is gone,

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that our sins are as far as the East is from the West

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when we surrender them to you, when we seek forgiveness,

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when we repent and turn away.

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And we thank you, God, that you love us unconditionally.

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Nothing can separate us from your love,

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not height, nor depth, nor principalities, nor.

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power or things in the present or things to come.

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your love in a deeper way tonight.

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Yes, Lord, help us to hear your love and acceptance

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for us in a fresh way.

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that you'll help every one of these ladies,

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including myself to see ourself through your eyes

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a little bit more tonight.

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Holy Spirit, we ask you to come and have your way,

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move through all the conversations,

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through the coaching, through the breakout sessions

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and to show up and show yourself faithful

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as you always are, in Jesus name, amen.

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All right, so ladies, as we start going through,

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it isn't a coincidence that I've been more under the weather

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in these last few weeks.

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Yeah, unless, yes, sometimes y'all are going to feel

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some sickness that is gonna happen.

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And a lot of that has to do with trauma

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that you've had stored up in your body

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for a really long time.

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basically your body kind of starts to recognize

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that you're releasing those things

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that have been stored up for a long time,

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but it also realizes that you're in a safe place.

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I don't know if y'all realize that,

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but when we go through trauma

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and we're in fight or flight mode

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and we come out of that trauma place

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and we come into a safe space,

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our body actually will like sigh.

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And then what will happen?

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We'll start to be able to have these things surface

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that never were able to surface before.

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Not sure if y'all realize it,

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but even when you enter a healthy relationship,

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I've had this happen multiple times.

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And Brian and I, my husband,

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I've been married for a little over two years.

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We've had this conversation about,

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man, I wonder why it took so long for this memory

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to come up or for this experience to bubble to the surface.

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And he said to me this one day, he's like,

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I think it's because you finally feel safe to process it.

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Because in the past, in my relationships before,

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they were never healthy men.

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Like every time they weren't healthy.

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to process some of the pain from the past

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or to even be my true self.

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And when we can be our true self with friends,

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with family, with a spirit mate at some point,

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it really truly can help us open up more.

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So I wanna encourage you, if that's you,

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just know that in time you'll continue to open up

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the more that you heal as you go.

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All right, we don't always know the why behind the what.

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We're gonna talk about that for a little bit.

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What do I mean by that?

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I mean, we don't always know why we do what we do.

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Like even Paul, he's like,

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I don't wanna do this thing, but I keep on doing it.

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Anyone ever felt like that?

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I felt like that before.

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Like, why do I keep getting tripped up with this thing

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that I know isn't good for me?

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But then when I would come into the situation,

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it would feel hard to say no.

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Anybody ever struggle with people-pleasing tendencies?

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You have a hard time telling people no?

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Anybody, any people-pleasers in my audience tonight?

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Couple people, yeah.

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We're coming out of that, right?

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We're gonna work on coming out of that

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and having healthy boundaries,

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but on the process on the way through,

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we don't even sometimes know why we say yes to someone

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when internally we actually want to say,

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no, I don't wanna do that, or that sounds fun,

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but I don't feel like it tonight.

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and sometimes they're not even guilting us,

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we're guilting ourselves into doing it, aren't we?

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what other people will think or say.

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God knows why we do what we do.

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He knows the what behind the why.

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And that's why it's really important for y'all

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in this process to not dig,

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but to ask the Lord to reveal areas for healing.

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So we're not dependent on our own ability

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to understand something, to know why,

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why this person did this, why did I do that?

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It's all about the Holy Spirit being a part of your process

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and helping you heal as you go.

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If we go looking for rocks to turn over

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to try to get answers,

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y'all, we can actually re-traumatize ourselves.

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Trust that God will reveal everything to you

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in due season as you go, all right?

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So the Holy Spirit, if you remember,

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he's also called our comforter, our counselor, and our guide.

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I can't say that I'm having the same image happen tonight,

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but this afternoon,

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as I was starting to talk to the ladies about this,

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the Lord gave me this visual of like a dad

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kneeling down beside, like in my spirit,

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I saw like, I knew it was the father, like father.

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God, the father, and he was coming, he was kneeling down,

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like next to us individual, each individual lady, and I saw a

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first aid kit in his hand. And I knew that he was saying, you

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know, he's the great physician. He knows exactly what we need

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out of that first aid kit. And I, I even asked the Lord, do I

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share that again tonight? Because I'm not necessarily

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seeing that image tonight. And I heard the Lord say yes, because

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there's people on here tonight, that you need that reminder that

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the great physician, your good father. Why do you think he

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knelt down in that image? Anyone want to guess? At least I'm

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going to tell you my thought behind it. You don't have to

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have the right answer. But I'm just curious. What do y'all

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think? This is I love for y'all to interact. If I've never told

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you that before. I like to ask you questions. I love for you to

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interact with me, you can put in the chat. There's no I don't

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want y'all to worry about being wrong. Let's just kind of

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fellowship and talk together. Yeah, okay. So Frenchie that

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came directly to me. Yeah, there you go. I love this. Katie says

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he came to serve us. Some people are saying to get on our level,

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because he's coming to us and being on our level, a heart of

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ministering to us showing humility and coming down to

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where we are. And he longs to be with us. Y'all those are all

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correct. If you if you've never experienced a dad that felt

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loving and kind. I'm sorry that that wasn't what you experienced.

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But I want you to understand. God can help you learn what that

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looks like and feels like. And I can say that because I never had

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that dad. My dad was literally left when I was born like God.

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And he was an alcoholic and drug addict. He was in and out of the

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home. I really have very, very few memories of my dad. And the

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one memory I have, we were all getting paddled. I don't even

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remember what we did. But we were all getting paddled. All of

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us all four kids got in trouble. We were getting paddled. That's

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like one of my memories I have. But anyways, I want you to

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understand that God wants to help you grow in your

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understanding of who he is as a good father, and that he wants

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to tend to your needs with loving kindness, with

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gentleness. Will he convict through the Holy Spirit? Yes,

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because he wants to help us have a better life. That's why he'll

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put things in guardrails in our, in our path, or he'll show us

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what the word of truth says, like, hey, don't do this, but do

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this. This is why because we can live a better life if we do

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those things. And so yeah, he's, he's good. He's down on our

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level. He wants to like be close. And he wasn't like knelt

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down far away. He was like, right next to us. Like, like

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right beside and it was he wasn't turned towards it was

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interesting. His shoulder was up next to next to me next to us.

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And that's what I saw. So for whoever that's for tonight,

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that's what the Lord wants you to know that he's an ever present

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help in time of trouble. The word declares that it's a good

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reminder tonight, but the Holy Spirit is our comforter, our

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counselor and our guide. I want you to kind of envision tonight

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the Holy Spirit holding his hand out to you. He's not forcing

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his way in. He's he's inviting you to take his hand and let him

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lead you through this process. And y'all daily, I encourage you

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to choose to take his hand. And he'll know exactly what you need

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and in the moments that you need it, he'll know kind of like,

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okay, go this way. Okay. You know, here's this memory. Here's

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this situation, you know, and he's just gonna weave and walk

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with you every step of the way. So some examples of we don't

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always know why we do what we do. But God knows the what

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behind the why I want to give you some examples of some things

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God wanted me to kind of bring up briefly, I'm going to come in

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and stir the pot a little bit to see what resonates for you.

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Everybody's different. Everybody has different struggles. But

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here are some of the ones God led me to write down for us

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tonight. Which one do I want to start with? Let's talk with,

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let's start with negative self talk, negative self talk and

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thought patterns. Are you someone who consistently

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struggles with thinking negative, negative things about

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yourself, other people, situations, circumstances, you

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always think the worst is going to happen? Do you tend to look

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at yourself in the mirror and put yourself down? Put other

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people down, you know, all that negativity, all that stuff. And

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some of you might say, Well, I'm not like that all the time. But

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let's let's just kind of think about how did your day go today?

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How many people in the room tonight, you don't have to raise

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your hand, but just was your thought processes about yourself

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about your life about your situations? Good, positive.

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or were they negative?

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And were they more negative than positive?

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Where are you at in that process?

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And again, there's no shame, there's no guilt,

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no condemnation, just kind of observe

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where you're at in that process.

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If y'all remember, I really love to talk about

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who are you becoming?

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It's one of my favorite things,

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because I feel like we're always in motion

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if we choose to be.

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If we don't choose to be, that's up to us.

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But I believe we have an opportunity every single day

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to become more like Jesus Christ,

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to become more whole, to become more free,

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to become more confident,

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to be more filled with the Holy Spirit,

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to know the word of truth more.

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Every day, we have the opportunity to become.

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It's up to us to choose to walk in that.

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Okay, some other things.

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People struggle with insecurity, self-hatred.

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And so a lot of people be like, well, I don't hate myself.

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But you would be surprised, you all,

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how often hatred and self-loathing,

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self-pity, self-hatred show up.

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I'm gonna give you an example from my spiritual daughters,

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and maybe this will speak to some of you tonight as well.

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Mikayla, the oldest of the two,

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years ago, a couple years ago,

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we were having this conversation.

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I say this conversation,

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like y'all are in it with us that night,

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but a conversation about some things she was struggling with.

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She struggled with the very thing

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that I was just talking to you about,

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looking at herself in the mirror and liking what she saw.

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And here's why.

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Not only was she struggling with her image as a whole,

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but she said, every time I look in the mirror,

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I see my mom.

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Now, my girls don't have the best relationship

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with their mom.

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They do spend time with her, but it's a lot of brokenness.

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There's a lot of hard things that have happened.

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Their mom says a lot of really mean stuff to them.

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And so every time she said, I would look in the mirror,

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I just see my mom, and I don't like what I see.

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Now, she's not her mom.

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She's who, like herself.

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But because she sees a reflection of her mom,

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because she thinks she looks like her mom,

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she started internally, whether she realized it or not,

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subconsciously hating herself, rejecting herself.

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And so that's what I want to just kind of put out there

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tonight a little bit.

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Are any of you looking at yourself in the mirror

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and really not liking what you see in some way

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or shape or form?

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Maybe it's not that you see your parents in you.

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Maybe it's that you don't like a feature about yourself.

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You know, I have some people that literally

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will not come on camera.

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They won't put pictures up of themselves,

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you know, all this stuff,

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because there's something they don't like

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about how they look.

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It's so common, you all.

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People will not come out of hiding

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because they don't want anyone to see them

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because they don't like what they look like.

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So let's come out of that a little bit more.

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I'm not saying it's going to be easy,

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but it will be worth it.

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Asking the Lord to help you learn how to love yourself.

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The Bible says, love your neighbor as you what?

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Love yourself.

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So how are we going to love our neighbor

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if we don't learn to love ourself?

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Again, I've said this the last few weeks,

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but it's just a good reminder to keep putting it out there.

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And hopefully it'll keep taking root more and more.

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All right.

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Some other whys that we might not know

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why we're doing it.

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Overeating.

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Anyone ever eat their feelings?

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I've done that.

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Yeah.

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Feeling stressed or overwhelmed or sad.

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And all of a sudden I want to eat everything in the house

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and I'm not even hungry.

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Why is that?

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Well, because our brain, if we've done that before

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and we do it more than once

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and we do it for a certain amount of time,

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we begin to build a habit, right?

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So we have to start to ask the Lord to heal

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the roots in our hearts that are causing us to,

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instead of turning to him,

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eat our emotions to try to feel better.

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And y'all, we don't typically feel better, do we?

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I mean, sometimes there's that instant gratification

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for a little bit, but then I don't know about,

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I can't eat a lot of dairy.

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And so I like ice cream when I'm eating it,

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but then my stomach hurts after.

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And so I'm always like, why did I eat that?

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I don't feel good.

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I need to stop doing that, right?

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I'm just giving you all some real examples,

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but this is legit stuff.

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Okay, this is coming up in my spirit.

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It didn't come up this afternoon,

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so I'm just going to run with this too.

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There's a lot of people that have experienced abuse sexually

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and I'm sure it could happen physically as well,

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who will subconsciously put on weight

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because they don't want attention drawn to themselves.

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And so I want to just say.

488
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say, if that's you, that God wants to help you come out of that. Because you can learn

489
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how to heal and know that it's okay for you to have healthy attention from men. There's

490
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always going to be the men out there that say things or do things, but we can, we can

491
00:25:19.480 --> 00:25:22.760
kind of look past that and just like, oh yeah, that's an unhealthy person. Okay. Let me just

492
00:25:22.760 --> 00:25:27.720
keep going. But we have to learn how to, we have to learn how to do that. Okay. Maybe

493
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you are someone who struggles with gossip. Maybe you're someone who struggles with authority

494
00:25:32.560 --> 00:25:37.520
in situations. Maybe that's authority at work, authority in the home. Maybe you're someone

495
00:25:37.520 --> 00:25:42.240
who really, when that submission question comes up that in that first week or two, I

496
00:25:42.240 --> 00:25:49.260
forget what week it's in. You're just like, yeah, I am not all for that. Maybe it's sexually

497
00:25:49.260 --> 00:25:55.280
related struggles. Maybe you struggle to not have sex before marriage, pornography, addictions,

498
00:25:56.280 --> 00:26:02.280
you know, a lot of people struggle in this day and age with masturbation. And they, you know,

499
00:26:02.280 --> 00:26:06.680
it's just like this big thing that is, is this hidden thing that nobody ever talks about,

500
00:26:07.240 --> 00:26:13.160
but it's really breaking down people's self-worth and their value because they never tend to feel

501
00:26:13.160 --> 00:26:17.560
good about themselves after they do it. And y'all, we're not going to get deep into that

502
00:26:17.560 --> 00:26:22.600
tonight, but I just, it's important for me to just be real and put things out there so that

503
00:26:22.600 --> 00:26:30.360
y'all can seek the Lord about it. Okay. Are you someone who is angry on the inside and it's

504
00:26:30.360 --> 00:26:35.640
turning into outbursts or maybe you're just keeping it contained on the inside, trying to keep it

505
00:26:35.640 --> 00:26:43.080
all together, but you just feel this constant anger beneath the surface. Okay. Again, we don't

506
00:26:43.080 --> 00:26:48.440
always know why we do what we do, but the Lord does. So let's seek him for the revealings for

507
00:26:48.440 --> 00:26:51.880
healing that are needed in every one of these areas. So, as I said, we're going to talk about

508
00:26:51.880 --> 00:26:57.800
confession and repentance tonight. So how do we repent? We come out of agreement with the lies

509
00:26:57.800 --> 00:27:02.520
and we, uh, in the sinful and harmful behaviors you all, and we choose to go in another direction.

510
00:27:02.520 --> 00:27:07.800
So I explained repentance earlier today. If y'all are imagining, if you're going in one direction,

511
00:27:09.240 --> 00:27:15.800
repentance means you literally at some point choose to go in the exact opposite direction.

512
00:27:16.440 --> 00:27:23.240
Now here's the important thing. I'm not looking for, and we're not looking for behavior modification

513
00:27:24.040 --> 00:27:30.840
in this community. There's a lot of people that can keep up really good behavior until they can't.

514
00:27:32.360 --> 00:27:38.680
What we're looking for is heart transformation, heart healing, and heart transformation, which

515
00:27:38.680 --> 00:27:48.680
will then equal life transformation, true repentance in a change of way. Okay. And so

516
00:27:48.680 --> 00:27:54.760
some of y'all that might happen overnight. And some of y'all it's going to be a harder process

517
00:27:54.760 --> 00:28:00.440
because you've been doing, like I said, like the eating thing. That's something I really have to

518
00:28:00.440 --> 00:28:06.840
work at because I grew up in a home where my family, my mom, my sisters, they hid food. Y'all,

519
00:28:06.840 --> 00:28:12.840
it was a learned, not only did I do it as I grew up as well, but I saw people hiding food.

520
00:28:14.120 --> 00:28:18.840
And my mom, when she was really, really sad, I always knew because she would come home from the

521
00:28:18.840 --> 00:28:23.640
grocery store and there would be gallons and gallons and gallons, multiple gallons of ice

522
00:28:23.640 --> 00:28:30.840
cream, y'all or whatever her favorite thing was in the fridge. And again, no shame on her. I know

523
00:28:30.920 --> 00:28:37.880
now why, because she was so broken and lonely and all these things on the inside, and she wasn't

524
00:28:38.520 --> 00:28:45.000
getting true healing and breakthrough. And so she was trying to ease her pain with that stuff.

525
00:28:45.880 --> 00:28:52.040
So she could have put on good behavior for a certain amount of time, but then when that heart

526
00:28:52.040 --> 00:28:57.080
healing wasn't done, that's why she always reverted back to those things. So no matter what it is,

527
00:28:57.080 --> 00:29:01.960
we want a change of mind, a change of spirit, and a change of body. And we don't want to just

528
00:29:01.960 --> 00:29:06.680
behave good. We want that genuine heart transformation through healing. James 5.16

529
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says this, therefore confess your sins one to another and pray for each other so that what

530
00:29:13.240 --> 00:29:18.680
you may be healed, the prayer of a righteous man avails much. Tonight, what we're going to do is

531
00:29:18.680 --> 00:29:23.160
we're going to confess to each other. When you all go into your breakout rooms, that's what you're

532
00:29:23.160 --> 00:29:28.840
going to do. So even as I've been talking, just be thinking about what is the Lord asking

533
00:29:28.840 --> 00:29:32.040
you to confess tonight? I have a few more things I want to share, and then I'm going to get the

534
00:29:32.040 --> 00:29:39.800
breakout rooms ready. When we don't confess and when we don't forgive, y'all, we'll talk about

535
00:29:39.800 --> 00:29:44.280
forgiveness more another night. But when we don't confess or forgive, we literally remain tethered

536
00:29:44.280 --> 00:29:51.240
to something. So I want you to imagine whatever that sin struggle is, whatever that area is where

537
00:29:51.320 --> 00:29:57.640
that cycle is happening, you're literally bound to that if you don't confess it or forgive someone

538
00:29:57.640 --> 00:29:59.800
who's hurt you. Okay?

539
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:02.300
And so we want to become untethered.

540
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We want to become free tonight.

541
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And even if you're scared,

542
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I want to encourage you, do it afraid.

543
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Do it afraid and take a risk

544
00:30:12.380 --> 00:30:15.780
and trust that God is going to do something really incredible.

545
00:30:15.780 --> 00:30:16.980
Here's the other thing I want to say,

546
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sins that we don't repent for or confess,

547
00:30:19.860 --> 00:30:21.160
create blind spots.

548
00:30:22.080 --> 00:30:24.500
If y'all have ever driven on the road in your car,

549
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and sometimes that car, you know,

550
00:30:26.660 --> 00:30:29.460
on whichever side of you is in your blind spot,

551
00:30:29.500 --> 00:30:31.620
it's really hard to see them, right?

552
00:30:31.620 --> 00:30:33.340
And sometimes you almost get in an accident

553
00:30:33.340 --> 00:30:35.140
because you don't see them and you start to get over

554
00:30:35.140 --> 00:30:36.220
and they're like, oh, you're like,

555
00:30:36.220 --> 00:30:37.540
oh, they're in my blind spot.

556
00:30:37.540 --> 00:30:39.900
And then you see them, hopefully.

557
00:30:39.900 --> 00:30:43.040
So these sin patterns and these areas

558
00:30:43.040 --> 00:30:46.460
that we need to confess also do the same thing for us.

559
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They create these blind spots and filters

560
00:30:48.980 --> 00:30:50.700
that we often can't see.

561
00:30:51.720 --> 00:30:55.100
Recently, there was a situation that happened with someone

562
00:30:55.100 --> 00:31:00.100
and genuinely you all, my heart is for them,

563
00:31:01.500 --> 00:31:03.860
but in talking and coaching them,

564
00:31:03.860 --> 00:31:06.940
there's some things that they are just not willing

565
00:31:06.940 --> 00:31:10.960
to see at this point, or they're incapable of seeing.

566
00:31:10.960 --> 00:31:12.380
It's one or the other.

567
00:31:12.380 --> 00:31:14.060
I think it's actually that they truly,

568
00:31:14.060 --> 00:31:16.220
genuinely don't see it.

569
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And so that's very common for a lot of people.

570
00:31:19.060 --> 00:31:21.740
So if someone is saying the same thing,

571
00:31:21.740 --> 00:31:25.460
if you're hearing the same thing over and over from people,

572
00:31:25.460 --> 00:31:29.520
y'all, please, sometimes they're not right,

573
00:31:29.520 --> 00:31:31.780
but let's just go on the side of,

574
00:31:31.780 --> 00:31:35.860
Lord, I'm gonna humble myself and ask you,

575
00:31:35.860 --> 00:31:39.820
is there any truth in what is being said to me?

576
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Is there any truth?

577
00:31:41.860 --> 00:31:44.620
Is there anything out of what they've said to me,

578
00:31:44.620 --> 00:31:47.060
an area that I need to heal and grow

579
00:31:47.060 --> 00:31:49.100
and come out of that place?

580
00:31:49.100 --> 00:31:51.140
So just wanna encourage you to do that.

581
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Also, as you guys go in,

582
00:31:53.140 --> 00:31:56.380
ladies go into the breakout room tonight,

583
00:31:56.380 --> 00:31:58.500
just a reminder, you don't have to coach,

584
00:31:58.500 --> 00:31:59.780
you don't have to advise,

585
00:31:59.780 --> 00:32:01.620
you don't have to help each other.

586
00:32:01.620 --> 00:32:03.380
Here's what I wanna encourage you to do.

587
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This is, and I thought about this last week.

588
00:32:05.920 --> 00:32:07.380
This is really helpful.

589
00:32:07.380 --> 00:32:10.940
After your sister hopefully shares her confession,

590
00:32:10.940 --> 00:32:12.620
you don't have to, even if she cries,

591
00:32:12.620 --> 00:32:14.180
and y'all, I want you to know

592
00:32:14.180 --> 00:32:16.440
you don't have to apologize if you cry.

593
00:32:16.440 --> 00:32:18.180
Even during our group coaching

594
00:32:18.180 --> 00:32:19.760
or when you share in the breakout,

595
00:32:19.760 --> 00:32:21.240
if you need to cry, let it out.

596
00:32:21.240 --> 00:32:23.880
It's really important for that to happen.

597
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But after your sister shares, whoever goes first,

598
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don't feel like you have, if she cries

599
00:32:30.400 --> 00:32:32.640
or anything like you have to like fix it,

600
00:32:32.640 --> 00:32:35.640
just say, thank you so much for sharing your heart with us.

601
00:32:36.760 --> 00:32:38.480
That's simple ladies, okay?

602
00:32:38.480 --> 00:32:40.920
And then the next person can go.

603
00:32:40.920 --> 00:32:45.300
If you are not able to talk out loud, Shelly, that's okay.

604
00:32:45.300 --> 00:32:47.680
You can either stay with us in the main room

605
00:32:47.680 --> 00:32:50.720
or you can always go in and type in the chat

606
00:32:50.720 --> 00:32:54.080
so that maybe one of the ladies can read it out loud for you.

607
00:32:54.080 --> 00:32:55.860
You can totally decide on that.

608
00:32:55.860 --> 00:32:58.200
And if your audio isn't working, that's okay.

609
00:32:58.200 --> 00:32:59.600
You can stay and listen.

610
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I'll be praying over everybody

611
00:33:00.940 --> 00:33:02.800
while they're in the breakouts anyways.

612
00:33:02.800 --> 00:33:03.760
But I do want you all,

613
00:33:03.760 --> 00:33:06.680
if you're not able to go into the breakout,

614
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I want to encourage you all, and anybody can do this,

615
00:33:10.040 --> 00:33:11.960
whether you can go into the breakout or not.

616
00:33:11.960 --> 00:33:15.700
But if you feel led to post your confession in the group,

617
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I would encourage you to do so, okay?

618
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So y'all can pray into that as well.

619
00:33:19.200 --> 00:33:21.660
All right, let me get these breakout rooms ready.

620
00:33:21.660 --> 00:33:26.020
Your question is, what do you need to confess tonight?

621
00:33:27.160 --> 00:33:28.520
That's your question.

622
00:33:28.520 --> 00:33:30.180
All right, let's see here.

623
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I'm gonna give you all nine minutes.

624
00:33:33.420 --> 00:33:36.780
I'm gonna have like two to three people to a room.

625
00:33:36.780 --> 00:33:38.640
So short, brief and powerful.

626
00:33:42.720 --> 00:33:45.560
All right, there y'all go.

627
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Blessings to you, praying for you.

628
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As you guys go in,

629
00:33:49.660 --> 00:33:52.520
remember some people's internet might be delayed.

630
00:34:00.280 --> 00:34:02.860
Hey, everybody, click to join, click to join.

631
00:34:04.320 --> 00:34:05.600
Got two in there.

632
00:34:11.239 --> 00:34:14.100
Oh, I didn't put her in there.

633
00:34:15.560 --> 00:34:18.560
All right, I'm gonna move Amy around.

634
00:34:18.560 --> 00:34:20.760
All right, I'm gonna move Kasey in as well.

635
00:34:34.760 --> 00:34:36.600
Ayesha, are you able to go into your room?

636
00:34:36.600 --> 00:34:38.800
Just let me know if you're not.

637
00:34:38.800 --> 00:34:40.199
Okay, Kasey can't.

638
00:34:42.800 --> 00:34:45.520
All right, I'm gonna move Amy around.

639
00:34:46.520 --> 00:34:50.120
Oh, it's weird, I don't even see you.

640
00:34:52.920 --> 00:34:55.100
Oh, okay, I'll just try this.

641
00:34:57.280 --> 00:34:58.440
Try that room.

642
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:05.440
Okay, Lord, we just thank you.

643
00:35:05.440 --> 00:35:09.280
We thank you for technology, Lord, that helps us connect in this way.

644
00:35:09.280 --> 00:35:15.200
Lord, that we can reach people all around the world and bring your truth and life and

645
00:35:15.200 --> 00:35:16.200
hope to them.

646
00:35:16.200 --> 00:35:18.920
We thank you for revealings, for healing that are happening.

647
00:35:18.920 --> 00:35:23.880
Even now, as the ladies are having conversations, we thank you for confessions and repentance.

648
00:35:23.880 --> 00:35:26.160
God, we thank you where the spirit of the Lord is.

649
00:35:26.160 --> 00:35:29.280
There's liberty, there's freedom for the captives, and we believe that captives are

650
00:35:29.280 --> 00:35:30.280
being set free tonight.

651
00:35:30.280 --> 00:35:37.760
We thank you for your truth that can come and prevail over any darkness.

652
00:35:37.760 --> 00:35:43.520
We thank you that you would bring healing and life to every situation.

653
00:35:43.520 --> 00:35:50.160
I don't know what it's doing.

654
00:35:50.160 --> 00:35:51.840
I think it's kicking you out.

655
00:35:51.840 --> 00:35:57.440
Maybe your internet is, maybe, is your internet showing slow or anything on your end?

656
00:35:57.440 --> 00:36:00.040
Yeah, we'll try it again.

657
00:36:00.040 --> 00:36:05.480
If it keeps kicking you out, you can always stay while I pray, but I really want you to

658
00:36:05.480 --> 00:36:09.080
be able to share with the ladies if you can.

659
00:36:09.080 --> 00:36:14.560
Go ahead and try that one.

660
00:36:14.560 --> 00:36:19.360
Hopefully, Lord, help her to be able to stay in that room and be able to share with the

661
00:36:19.360 --> 00:36:20.360
ladies.

662
00:36:20.360 --> 00:36:30.560
Yeah, so we just thank you for just bringing, yeah, Lord, hope in the midst of shattered

663
00:36:30.560 --> 00:36:32.200
pieces of their lives.

664
00:36:32.200 --> 00:36:37.840
We thank you, Lord, that you would show them areas where they have struggled with sin patterns

665
00:36:37.840 --> 00:36:42.160
that they might not even be aware of right now that you want to continue to reveal to

666
00:36:42.160 --> 00:36:48.960
them for healing and hope in life to be manifest in them and through them.

667
00:36:49.960 --> 00:36:56.560
I just keep seeing an image, ladies, of the Lord literally sweeping up broken, shattered

668
00:36:56.560 --> 00:37:02.960
pieces of glass, and then it just keeps reminding me of the story in the book where Jackie talks

669
00:37:02.960 --> 00:37:07.560
about that Chinese, I don't know what it's called, but where they pour the gold inside

670
00:37:07.560 --> 00:37:14.720
of the container and it makes all the cracks are shown through as gold.

671
00:37:14.720 --> 00:37:21.720
It just makes me think about how God makes all things new in his time.

672
00:37:21.720 --> 00:37:25.680
So I want to encourage you all just to lean into that truth that God makes all things

673
00:37:25.680 --> 00:37:33.200
new and he knows how to restore us to greater condition than before we were ever broken.

674
00:37:33.200 --> 00:37:37.200
It also makes me think about how he's the potter and we're the clay.

675
00:37:37.200 --> 00:37:41.400
And so Lord, we just thank you that you are the potter and we are the clay.

676
00:37:41.400 --> 00:37:47.400
God, I thank you that you'll mold us and make us with your hands, with love, with kindness.

677
00:37:47.400 --> 00:37:53.840
God, that you'll just really know the times and the places to apply pressure and when

678
00:37:53.840 --> 00:37:55.560
not to, Lord.

679
00:37:55.560 --> 00:37:59.960
And we just thank you that you see the finished work, you see the finished work, you see the

680
00:37:59.960 --> 00:38:02.440
initial plan and promise that you had for us.

681
00:38:02.440 --> 00:38:07.720
And I thank you, God, that you'll continue to heal every part of us that from the inside

682
00:38:07.720 --> 00:38:12.960
out that will be healed and made completely whole, lacking no good thing.

683
00:38:12.960 --> 00:38:17.800
We thank you, Lord, that we are laying aside every weight that so easily ensnares us, that

684
00:38:17.800 --> 00:38:21.720
we are pressing on toward the high calling of God for our lives.

685
00:38:21.720 --> 00:38:32.160
I thank you, Lord, that you will continue to be able to speak truth and love to us and

686
00:38:32.160 --> 00:38:36.920
help us to open our hearts and our minds and our spirits, our bodies and our souls to be

687
00:38:36.920 --> 00:38:40.800
able to receive your truth.

688
00:38:40.800 --> 00:38:50.760
Thank you, Lord, for continuing to, yeah, Lord, illuminate every dark area.

689
00:38:50.760 --> 00:38:53.760
We thank you that you'll bring things out of darkness into the light, that you'll even

690
00:38:53.760 --> 00:38:59.480
help the ladies remember things that they have forgotten that they did so that they

691
00:38:59.480 --> 00:39:03.600
can confess those things and come into the fullness of your light.

692
00:39:03.600 --> 00:39:07.800
We thank you that wherever our hearts make us feel guilty and remind us of our failures

693
00:39:07.800 --> 00:39:12.680
in 1 John 3.20, it says, we know that God is much greater and more merciful than our

694
00:39:12.680 --> 00:39:18.160
conscience and he knows everything there is to know about us.

695
00:39:18.160 --> 00:39:22.400
We thank you, Lord, that everything hidden and covered up will soon be revealed for the

696
00:39:22.400 --> 00:39:25.560
fast aid is falling down and nothing will be kept secret for long.

697
00:39:25.560 --> 00:39:31.080
So we just thank you, God, that you're bringing those things out of the secret places and

698
00:39:31.080 --> 00:39:37.080
the secret recesses of our soul where we pushed things down subconsciously so that

699
00:39:37.080 --> 00:39:42.180
we could survive, but Lord, we thank you that we're in a safe place now and we can come

700
00:39:42.180 --> 00:39:50.600
out of hiding and trust you to heal us, to restore us, to rebuild us, to renew us.

701
00:39:50.600 --> 00:39:59.880
We thank you, Lord, that every area where there's been any kind of disruption, yeah, Lord,

702
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.320
fractures in our spirit and our soul.

703
00:40:02.320 --> 00:40:03.880
We thank you for the balm of Gilead

704
00:40:03.880 --> 00:40:05.620
being placed upon those areas.

705
00:40:05.620 --> 00:40:08.680
We thank you that you'll help us to have spirits

706
00:40:08.680 --> 00:40:10.700
that are full of turnaround spirit,

707
00:40:10.700 --> 00:40:13.040
that we will literally choose to turn away

708
00:40:13.040 --> 00:40:15.920
from anything that does not look like you.

709
00:40:15.920 --> 00:40:17.260
Lord, not just temporarily,

710
00:40:17.260 --> 00:40:21.040
but that we would long to live our lives

711
00:40:21.040 --> 00:40:22.840
into the fullness of your plan for us,

712
00:40:22.840 --> 00:40:26.880
that we would desire to know you more every single day,

713
00:40:26.880 --> 00:40:28.920
and that you would reveal these areas for healing

714
00:40:28.920 --> 00:40:32.960
so that we can be, yeah, Lord, disglorified,

715
00:40:32.960 --> 00:40:34.560
that we would be able to live a life

716
00:40:34.560 --> 00:40:36.480
that is full of your goodness,

717
00:40:36.480 --> 00:40:38.540
that your goodness can chase us down

718
00:40:38.540 --> 00:40:40.240
in the land of the living.

719
00:40:40.240 --> 00:40:45.240
I thank you that you are continuing to weave together

720
00:40:45.420 --> 00:40:48.480
every aspect and detail of our lives

721
00:40:48.480 --> 00:40:50.280
to fit into your God,

722
00:40:50.280 --> 00:40:53.000
your perfect plan of bringing good into our lives.

723
00:40:53.000 --> 00:40:54.600
We are lovers, I'm sorry,

724
00:40:54.600 --> 00:40:56.920
for we are his lovers have been called

725
00:40:56.920 --> 00:40:59.280
to fulfill his design purpose.

726
00:40:59.280 --> 00:41:01.760
Lord, help us to see your design purpose for us.

727
00:41:01.760 --> 00:41:03.240
We thank you that you would give us eyes

728
00:41:03.240 --> 00:41:05.720
to see ourselves through your eyes, ears,

729
00:41:05.720 --> 00:41:08.140
to hear what your spirit is saying about us,

730
00:41:08.140 --> 00:41:11.780
that you would help us to partner with the kingdom of heaven

731
00:41:11.780 --> 00:41:15.400
and the truth that God wants to release into us

732
00:41:15.400 --> 00:41:17.120
and over us tonight.

733
00:41:18.180 --> 00:41:20.240
We thank you that in Genesis 50, 20,

734
00:41:20.240 --> 00:41:23.740
even as Joseph was sharing here,

735
00:41:24.740 --> 00:41:29.380
we know that the enemy intended things for evil to harm him,

736
00:41:29.380 --> 00:41:33.260
but God, you used everything for good,

737
00:41:33.260 --> 00:41:36.780
not only for his life, but to save many people alive.

738
00:41:36.780 --> 00:41:37.780
And we just thank you, God,

739
00:41:37.780 --> 00:41:40.340
that you're doing that same thing in our life.

740
00:41:40.340 --> 00:41:42.740
We thank you that you're taking all of the ashes

741
00:41:42.740 --> 00:41:44.620
and turning them into beauty,

742
00:41:44.620 --> 00:41:46.860
that every area where we've been

743
00:41:46.860 --> 00:41:49.900
in a season of mourning and grief,

744
00:41:50.900 --> 00:41:52.980
yeah, Lord, I just come,

745
00:41:52.980 --> 00:41:57.180
I ask you to come and just breathe life and hope

746
00:41:57.180 --> 00:42:00.660
and healing into those grief filled areas

747
00:42:02.660 --> 00:42:05.300
where we have felt like we can never break free.

748
00:42:05.300 --> 00:42:07.820
Lord, I thank you that you are breaking us free,

749
00:42:08.700 --> 00:42:10.340
that you just like with Paul and Silas,

750
00:42:10.340 --> 00:42:11.860
you just come right into the prison

751
00:42:11.860 --> 00:42:15.700
and you open the prison gates and you lead us on out.

752
00:42:15.700 --> 00:42:17.900
And we just thank you in advance for that.

753
00:42:18.900 --> 00:42:20.900
We thank you, Lord, that you encourage us

754
00:42:20.900 --> 00:42:24.380
to not give the enemy any place in our hearts or our lives,

755
00:42:24.380 --> 00:42:26.100
that we would not give him legal access

756
00:42:26.100 --> 00:42:28.060
to our life and our family,

757
00:42:28.060 --> 00:42:30.180
that we would not give him an opportunity

758
00:42:30.180 --> 00:42:33.340
by holding grudges against people or nurturing anger

759
00:42:33.340 --> 00:42:36.180
or harboring any kind of resentment or bitterness.

760
00:42:36.180 --> 00:42:39.540
God, help us to release all of these things to you

761
00:42:39.540 --> 00:42:42.780
and to choose the path of healing,

762
00:42:42.780 --> 00:42:46.380
to choose pathways of righteousness for your name's sake.

763
00:42:46.980 --> 00:42:49.060
We thank you that we would choose love.

764
00:42:50.540 --> 00:42:52.180
Lord, we can have so many gifts,

765
00:42:52.180 --> 00:42:54.100
but if we don't have love, then we have nothing.

766
00:42:54.100 --> 00:42:58.660
So help us, Lord, to choose to be patient,

767
00:42:58.660 --> 00:43:01.300
to be kind, to be filled with your love,

768
00:43:01.300 --> 00:43:03.820
that we thank you that you'll, yeah, Lord,

769
00:43:03.820 --> 00:43:08.220
show us how you wanna just turn our lives around

770
00:43:08.220 --> 00:43:10.660
for your glory.

771
00:43:10.660 --> 00:43:14.180
And yeah, I'm asking you, Lord,

772
00:43:14.180 --> 00:43:16.540
to give people fresh vision and understanding

773
00:43:16.540 --> 00:43:18.540
of your plan and your purpose for their life.

774
00:43:18.540 --> 00:43:20.380
Help them to hear what yours,

775
00:43:20.380 --> 00:43:22.780
help them to have like while they sleep and during the day,

776
00:43:22.780 --> 00:43:26.220
just to start to receive fresh revelation

777
00:43:26.220 --> 00:43:28.740
of everything you have for them.

778
00:43:28.740 --> 00:43:31.700
Yeah, unhindered, Lord.

779
00:43:31.700 --> 00:43:34.660
Thank you that these women would be unhindered,

780
00:43:34.660 --> 00:43:36.220
that they would no longer be stuck,

781
00:43:36.220 --> 00:43:39.140
that they would be set free in every area.

782
00:43:39.140 --> 00:43:41.340
We just thank you, Lord, that any tether,

783
00:43:41.340 --> 00:43:43.140
anything holding them back,

784
00:43:43.140 --> 00:43:45.860
God, that that would be broken, that would be revealed.

785
00:43:45.860 --> 00:43:48.740
And Lord, give them the courage to choose

786
00:43:49.580 --> 00:43:51.940
to walk into freedom, to choose to confess,

787
00:43:51.940 --> 00:43:55.820
to choose to forgive, to choose love, to choose to heal,

788
00:43:56.740 --> 00:43:58.900
even when they don't fully understand it.

789
00:43:58.900 --> 00:44:00.620
In Jesus' name, welcome back.

790
00:44:00.620 --> 00:44:02.100
I think almost everybody's back.

791
00:44:02.100 --> 00:44:04.940
We have like two rooms in there.

792
00:44:04.940 --> 00:44:06.860
They're about to be brought back here.

793
00:44:08.180 --> 00:44:10.340
Y'all, God is so good.

794
00:44:10.340 --> 00:44:11.180
He's so good.

795
00:44:11.180 --> 00:44:13.020
He knows exactly what you need.

796
00:44:14.140 --> 00:44:16.900
All right, welcome back, everyone.

797
00:44:16.900 --> 00:44:18.100
Hi.

798
00:44:18.100 --> 00:44:20.980
All right, who is willing to share with the whole group

799
00:44:20.980 --> 00:44:23.460
what you shared in the breakout?

800
00:44:26.100 --> 00:44:28.620
Normally takes one to get us going.

801
00:44:28.620 --> 00:44:30.540
All right, Katie, go for it.

802
00:44:31.660 --> 00:44:35.260
Okay, I feel like this came up last week.

803
00:44:36.500 --> 00:44:38.660
It's a space around,

804
00:44:38.700 --> 00:44:41.460
and I don't know if it falls under one of your categories,

805
00:44:41.460 --> 00:44:44.660
but it's a space around perfectionism.

806
00:44:46.580 --> 00:44:50.180
And maybe that's a form of like self-hatred,

807
00:44:50.180 --> 00:44:55.100
but I talked about,

808
00:44:55.100 --> 00:44:57.180
I'm doing these presentations every week,

809
00:44:57.180 --> 00:44:59.940
and today we had an impromptu.

810
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.880
And it just, I feel like I so bombed it.

811
00:45:02.880 --> 00:45:04.280
I didn't know the topic.

812
00:45:04.800 --> 00:45:06.720
They give it to you and you just start talking.

813
00:45:06.720 --> 00:45:12.880
And anyway, I just really had to talk myself down with

814
00:45:12.880 --> 00:45:14.800
the guys and combat that.

815
00:45:16.040 --> 00:45:17.600
So I cried a lot.

816
00:45:19.040 --> 00:45:20.040
So here's my question.

817
00:45:20.040 --> 00:45:22.000
And I should have said this earlier.

818
00:45:22.080 --> 00:45:23.800
I did not have a complete list.

819
00:45:23.800 --> 00:45:24.880
Those were just some ideas.

820
00:45:24.880 --> 00:45:27.680
So if y'all felt something else come up, that's totally fine.

821
00:45:28.520 --> 00:45:30.800
So let me ask you this.

822
00:45:31.320 --> 00:45:36.560
Um, when you don't feel like you do something perfect, do you

823
00:45:36.560 --> 00:45:41.440
tend to shame yourself like even today was the language that you

824
00:45:41.440 --> 00:45:43.840
were hearing shameful towards you?

825
00:45:45.880 --> 00:45:49.080
It, what comes up as I feel unlovable.

826
00:45:50.040 --> 00:45:50.400
Okay.

827
00:45:50.640 --> 00:45:51.320
Tell me why.

828
00:45:53.960 --> 00:45:57.480
Do you know, like even the first time that you can remember, let's do

829
00:45:57.480 --> 00:46:01.000
this and it might not be the ultimate first time, but let's just try

830
00:46:01.000 --> 00:46:02.280
to take a journey towards that.

831
00:46:02.280 --> 00:46:07.480
When's the first time you remember not being perfect and feeling like

832
00:46:07.480 --> 00:46:09.720
somebody didn't love you well,

833
00:46:15.280 --> 00:46:16.720
I was probably young.

834
00:46:17.000 --> 00:46:17.520
Um,

835
00:46:21.680 --> 00:46:24.280
there isn't anything specific coming up.

836
00:46:24.480 --> 00:46:25.040
That's okay.

837
00:46:25.560 --> 00:46:27.080
And this is where it's really important.

838
00:46:27.080 --> 00:46:29.720
Ladies, just so y'all know, this is totally okay.

839
00:46:29.720 --> 00:46:34.840
If she doesn't have anything come up right now, because I trust the word

840
00:46:34.920 --> 00:46:37.000
to reveal that to her when it's time.

841
00:46:37.440 --> 00:46:37.920
Okay.

842
00:46:38.280 --> 00:46:41.160
And I do think that there probably is something there.

843
00:46:41.680 --> 00:46:45.840
Sometimes ladies in this process, we're not going to remember on this

844
00:46:45.840 --> 00:46:50.600
spot because it might even be really tender for us to go there.

845
00:46:51.440 --> 00:46:56.240
And so sometimes we put up and I'm not saying you're doing it intentionally,

846
00:46:56.240 --> 00:47:01.520
but just subconsciously are our subconscious puts up walls to protect

847
00:47:01.520 --> 00:47:06.600
us from going into certain areas until we've maybe dealt with some other things.

848
00:47:06.600 --> 00:47:10.520
So there might be some other areas that God might lead you to deal with first.

849
00:47:11.240 --> 00:47:14.720
Until you can kind of start to let those walls down more.

850
00:47:14.720 --> 00:47:17.360
And it's not, again, it's nothing that you're doing wrong.

851
00:47:17.600 --> 00:47:20.360
It's just might be the process that you have to go through.

852
00:47:20.680 --> 00:47:21.600
Does that make sense?

853
00:47:22.120 --> 00:47:24.960
So I don't want anyone to feel like, oh my gosh, I'm not doing something right.

854
00:47:25.400 --> 00:47:26.320
I can't have this.

855
00:47:26.320 --> 00:47:27.600
There's no memory coming up or there.

856
00:47:28.040 --> 00:47:29.280
No, just trust it.

857
00:47:29.440 --> 00:47:30.120
Just trust it.

858
00:47:30.120 --> 00:47:35.920
So for now, all you know, is that when you're not perfect, you feel unlovable.

859
00:47:36.200 --> 00:47:40.240
So when's the first time you remember feeling unlovable?

860
00:47:48.920 --> 00:47:49.520
It's okay.

861
00:47:51.280 --> 00:47:52.120
Was it today?

862
00:47:53.120 --> 00:47:54.640
Is it easier to start with today?

863
00:47:55.400 --> 00:47:56.360
To start with today?

864
00:47:56.720 --> 00:47:57.080
Yeah.

865
00:47:58.720 --> 00:48:01.040
When was the first time today I felt unlovable?

866
00:48:01.120 --> 00:48:01.560
Sure.

867
00:48:01.800 --> 00:48:02.720
Let's start there.

868
00:48:02.960 --> 00:48:06.520
That felt, that felt more fresh to you and a little bit easier

869
00:48:06.520 --> 00:48:08.000
where you wouldn't feel pressure.

870
00:48:08.320 --> 00:48:14.080
So when that, that lie that you were unlovable came up, were there any other

871
00:48:14.080 --> 00:48:17.080
lies that you were hearing at the same time?

872
00:48:17.360 --> 00:48:25.480
It's sort of like, there's a space around, you know, letting a man in

873
00:48:25.560 --> 00:48:35.120
and accepting love there, maybe being good enough.

874
00:48:38.720 --> 00:48:40.040
Who do you have to present to?

875
00:48:40.040 --> 00:48:45.480
Is it like a man or woman boss or what, what is it like to be a woman boss?

876
00:48:45.480 --> 00:48:46.520
It's a class.

877
00:48:46.680 --> 00:48:51.600
Uh, so other students, um, we're going on a missions trip together and then a

878
00:48:51.600 --> 00:48:56.720
facilitator, so it's not a huge group and I've been doing it up till today.

879
00:48:56.720 --> 00:49:02.640
So, and, and here's the thing y'all, it could be to one person, but if you're

880
00:49:02.640 --> 00:49:06.920
internally afraid, is there anything in you that you're afraid if you didn't

881
00:49:06.920 --> 00:49:09.920
do it well enough, that you're not going to be able to go do something?

882
00:49:09.960 --> 00:49:11.120
Is that what's happening?

883
00:49:11.120 --> 00:49:18.520
No, I think I've just, it's been a pattern of struggle to public, to public

884
00:49:18.520 --> 00:49:24.560
speak, uh, in the past, so that I'm even, it is a big deal.

885
00:49:24.880 --> 00:49:30.640
Um, and I feel like there was part of me that was silenced as a child.

886
00:49:34.240 --> 00:49:34.640
Okay.

887
00:49:34.640 --> 00:49:40.280
So, um, I'm going to, I'm going to, I'm going to, I'm going to, I'm going to

888
00:49:40.280 --> 00:49:44.920
okay, so we won't keep pushing on this because I also think it's super important

889
00:49:44.960 --> 00:49:50.120
to not nudge too much until you start having a little bit more percolate to the

890
00:49:50.120 --> 00:49:50.960
surface.

891
00:49:51.520 --> 00:49:54.040
Um, again, that's where we stay away from digging.

892
00:49:54.080 --> 00:49:57.720
So I asked him some questions and you didn't feel anything come up, but when I

893
00:49:57.720 --> 00:49:59.960
started asking around today, that felt.

894
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.040
little bit easier for you to go into. So the things I want you to pray into in the days ahead,

895
00:50:05.040 --> 00:50:10.480
and again, it's okay if it doesn't come up right away, but I want you to ask the Lord to show you

896
00:50:11.840 --> 00:50:19.360
when was a time I felt unlovable before today? And is there anything you want to show me about it?

897
00:50:19.360 --> 00:50:24.160
Is there a memory that I need to know? And again, it's just you asking God good questions and just

898
00:50:24.160 --> 00:50:30.720
letting him, and if it takes weeks, Katie, it's okay, right? And then the next thing,

899
00:50:30.720 --> 00:50:35.680
as you said about the public speaking, then you said, I think I was silenced as a child.

900
00:50:36.720 --> 00:50:42.640
Okay. So even the fact that you said, I think, I feel like there is a lot of, again,

901
00:50:42.640 --> 00:50:47.680
those walls that are there, and it's just something, a self-protection mechanism that

902
00:50:47.680 --> 00:50:53.840
you probably put in place subconsciously as a kid. And so just start, just ask the Lord.

903
00:50:54.400 --> 00:51:02.320
Lord, was I silenced as a kid? Was there a time I felt like I wanted to talk and someone did or

904
00:51:02.320 --> 00:51:07.120
said something that I didn't feel safe to share my thoughts or my voice or whatever it was you

905
00:51:07.120 --> 00:51:14.880
were doing? Sometimes people even are just trying to be kids, like playfully and the adult or the

906
00:51:14.880 --> 00:51:20.960
parent, whether they're stressed or whatever their reason is, they silence. They don't want to hear

907
00:51:20.960 --> 00:51:27.040
that. Shut that noise down. You know, all that kind of stuff. And, or they could do it really

908
00:51:27.040 --> 00:51:31.680
nicely. And the kids still could feel rejected. You know, we never know, but that's where I want

909
00:51:31.680 --> 00:51:37.920
you to start this week on those two things. Okay. And let's, as God shows you some things,

910
00:51:37.920 --> 00:51:42.400
even if it's a little thing and you're like, I don't even think this is related. Don't question

911
00:51:42.400 --> 00:51:46.640
it. Just come back and share in the group with us. Okay. Because that we're going to let the

912
00:51:46.640 --> 00:51:53.440
Lord help you unpack this at the pace. That's best for you. That sound good. All right. Thank

913
00:51:53.440 --> 00:51:57.760
you for sharing. It takes a lot of courage to share and it can be tough when things don't come

914
00:51:57.760 --> 00:52:02.960
up right away. That's why it's super important for you to know it's totally fine. And, and it's,

915
00:52:02.960 --> 00:52:08.160
it's good for other people to learn that the process is different for everybody.

916
00:52:08.160 --> 00:52:12.240
Yeah. So thank you so much for sharing Frenchy. Go ahead.

917
00:52:12.240 --> 00:52:26.960
Hi, how are you? Pretty good. So I feel like I got some revelation on a cycle that's been

918
00:52:26.960 --> 00:52:33.440
happening in my life. And I've been asking the Lord, like, what is this? And it's when you were

919
00:52:33.440 --> 00:52:39.760
sharing about like eating our feelings, but then people have been sexually abused, put on weight to

920
00:52:39.760 --> 00:52:48.320
feel safe. And I noticed like, I'll take care of myself and I'll put in the effort and like,

921
00:52:48.320 --> 00:52:56.720
I'll keep up with my hair. Cause purple fades fast. And then all of a sudden, like I'll get

922
00:52:56.720 --> 00:53:02.000
unwanted attention or I won't feel safe. And then I'll feel all this guilt and shame

923
00:53:03.680 --> 00:53:08.240
about my appearance. And then I'm just like, Oh, I don't care. And I'll just let everything go.

924
00:53:08.240 --> 00:53:14.000
So then I'm like, well, I might eat all the gluten and dairy I possibly can and not take

925
00:53:14.000 --> 00:53:21.120
care of myself. And it's not great. Like it doesn't fix the problem, obviously. But I was

926
00:53:21.120 --> 00:53:27.360
feeling like, what, like, what is this route? But then he reminded me of something that happened

927
00:53:28.000 --> 00:53:36.400
with like attempted sexual assault one time in my twenties. So that was a memory that came up today.

928
00:53:36.400 --> 00:53:43.600
And I felt like a lot of guilt and shame in that moment. And I did nothing wrong. Like I

929
00:53:43.600 --> 00:53:51.280
was just walking home from work. And so I think he's just turning the light bulbs on and like,

930
00:53:51.280 --> 00:53:58.160
Oh man, this is still playing out in my life to this very day. So I don't want it anymore,

931
00:53:58.160 --> 00:54:05.680
which is great that it's coming up now. It is. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing

932
00:54:05.680 --> 00:54:10.080
that with us. I'm sorry to hear that that happened to you. I think it's super important

933
00:54:10.080 --> 00:54:18.880
that, you know, and recognize that you didn't do anything wrong. Okay. It's so common you all,

934
00:54:18.880 --> 00:54:24.080
as I was saying for this to happen. And so as you're unpacking this with the Lord, I don't

935
00:54:24.080 --> 00:54:28.160
think it's a coincidence that that memory, I don't, did that memory come up before tonight?

936
00:54:28.880 --> 00:54:32.960
No, it was while you were explaining it and I was taking notes and all of a sudden I was like,

937
00:54:33.600 --> 00:54:39.920
Savannah, this is important. So this is kind of like what I was just saying to Katie,

938
00:54:39.920 --> 00:54:43.840
if y'all recognize, I don't think this is a coincidence either because French,

939
00:54:43.840 --> 00:54:48.000
she's been seeking insight on this. Like what's keeping me stuck here.

940
00:54:48.640 --> 00:54:55.280
Why is this cycle something I keep struggling with. And all of a sudden now tonight she's

941
00:54:55.280 --> 00:54:59.120
hearing, and I know French has been on when I've done the repentance and confession before.

942
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.960
You all, and I maybe didn't share exactly what I shared tonight.

943
00:55:04.960 --> 00:55:09.280
You know, God, I have the basic same content and then sometimes God will just lead me to

944
00:55:09.280 --> 00:55:11.880
say other things.

945
00:55:11.880 --> 00:55:16.600
Or she could just be at the point where she was ready to hear it and receive it and get

946
00:55:16.600 --> 00:55:17.600
that revelation.

947
00:55:17.600 --> 00:55:23.360
And it doesn't mean she didn't want it before, but we need to be in a right place to receive

948
00:55:23.360 --> 00:55:26.080
it, to handle what's being given, right?

949
00:55:26.080 --> 00:55:29.440
And so God is giving you the tools to get breakthrough.

950
00:55:29.440 --> 00:55:33.520
I really want to encourage you, anyone that resonates with FriendsG, I want to encourage

951
00:55:33.520 --> 00:55:38.800
you to really ask the Lord to help you love your body.

952
00:55:38.800 --> 00:55:43.480
To really start leaning into like healing in the body image.

953
00:55:43.480 --> 00:55:47.120
Like for me, one of the things God led me to do, and everyone's different you all, okay?

954
00:55:47.120 --> 00:55:50.960
So I'm not saying that everyone should do this, but this was something God led me to

955
00:55:50.960 --> 00:55:53.480
put on my Jesus Cares Board.

956
00:55:53.480 --> 00:55:56.880
And y'all can put these kinds of things on your Jesus Cares Board if you didn't know.

957
00:55:57.400 --> 00:56:02.320
But if you can, because of all the sexual abuse and other things I went through.

958
00:56:02.320 --> 00:56:06.840
And then also I was in a church that was, I love my former church.

959
00:56:06.840 --> 00:56:11.480
I love the people there, but it had a lot of religion in it.

960
00:56:11.480 --> 00:56:15.680
And they didn't believe that you should wear bikinis and all that stuff.

961
00:56:15.680 --> 00:56:20.320
And I'm not here to debate that, but what it did is because I came out of all that abuse

962
00:56:20.320 --> 00:56:24.760
and that I went into that religious environment where it was like, if you wear a bikini, you're

963
00:56:25.320 --> 00:56:27.760
going to tempt men and they're going to sin.

964
00:56:27.760 --> 00:56:33.040
And so it just added on to all that body shame and guilt.

965
00:56:33.040 --> 00:56:36.000
And so I loved the beach.

966
00:56:36.000 --> 00:56:38.120
I loved to go by water.

967
00:56:38.120 --> 00:56:44.840
And y'all, what ended up happening is I became terrified to do it because I was always freaking

968
00:56:44.840 --> 00:56:48.080
out like, who am I going to make sin?

969
00:56:48.080 --> 00:56:50.320
And it just was like, I couldn't even function.

970
00:56:50.320 --> 00:56:51.320
I couldn't even.

971
00:56:51.320 --> 00:56:55.560
And then it turned into me not liking myself in the swimsuits or think I was too fat or

972
00:56:55.560 --> 00:56:56.560
this or that.

973
00:56:56.560 --> 00:56:59.680
And you all just became this vicious cycle.

974
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And so I put on my Jesus cares board, Lord, I want to go to the beach and just be free

975
00:57:05.360 --> 00:57:06.360
in my swimming suit.

976
00:57:06.360 --> 00:57:09.360
I don't even need to wear a bikini.

977
00:57:09.360 --> 00:57:14.440
I just want to be able to go to the beach and feel comfortable in my skin.

978
00:57:14.440 --> 00:57:18.680
Legit, that was what I asked for.

979
00:57:18.760 --> 00:57:24.760
And I'm not saying I never struggle anymore, but y'all, I live by the beach now and we

980
00:57:24.760 --> 00:57:27.720
go to the beach all the time.

981
00:57:27.720 --> 00:57:32.320
I'm so grateful that I sought the Lord about that.

982
00:57:32.320 --> 00:57:34.040
And I kept praying into it.

983
00:57:34.040 --> 00:57:40.440
And I kept leaning into what he was showing me to do to the point that, yes, you all standing

984
00:57:40.440 --> 00:57:47.840
in front of the mirror without clothes on and asking God to help you love the body parts

985
00:57:48.000 --> 00:57:53.760
that you don't love, super important.

986
00:57:53.760 --> 00:57:58.120
Have any of you ever that have struggled with any of this, I'm just curious.

987
00:57:58.120 --> 00:58:06.480
Have any of you ever just thanked your body for being strong for you?

988
00:58:06.480 --> 00:58:11.840
Some of you might be led to do that in the next few weeks, maybe starting this week that

989
00:58:11.840 --> 00:58:12.840
we would just pause.

990
00:58:12.840 --> 00:58:16.840
God, thank you so much, body, body, thank you for being strong for me.

991
00:58:16.840 --> 00:58:22.320
And I know that might seem silly, but God gave us this body and some of our bodies have

992
00:58:22.320 --> 00:58:27.200
been through so much trauma and stress and they've been strong for us.

993
00:58:27.200 --> 00:58:32.200
And some people will, I know like in our community that have struggled with a lot of sickness,

994
00:58:32.200 --> 00:58:34.480
they're like, no, my body hasn't.

995
00:58:34.480 --> 00:58:39.120
I'm sick all the time, but here's the thing.

996
00:58:39.120 --> 00:58:46.000
Some of you all may have been sick for years, but you're still alive, aren't you?

997
00:58:46.160 --> 00:58:55.280
And your body is still doing its best to function and thrive, but our souls, when our souls

998
00:58:55.280 --> 00:59:01.800
are broken and there's this stuff in there, our bodies can't help, but like be impacted

999
00:59:01.800 --> 00:59:03.800
by that as well.

1000
00:59:03.800 --> 00:59:08.880
Now the enemy causes sickness, but we also, the unhealed wounds can do that as well, if

1001
00:59:08.880 --> 00:59:11.240
y'all didn't know.

1002
00:59:11.240 --> 00:59:16.720
So the more that you heal, some of you all are going to be like walking out of disorders

1003
00:59:16.720 --> 00:59:20.440
and sicknesses that you've had for a long time.

1004
00:59:20.440 --> 00:59:22.640
And am I saying it's going to be overnight for everybody?

1005
00:59:22.640 --> 00:59:27.960
No, some of you all, I don't understand why God does things like some people get a radical

1006
00:59:27.960 --> 00:59:34.080
healing and they're just, you know, I said earlier today, even my journey coming out

1007
00:59:34.080 --> 00:59:39.000
from under the spirit of lust that was impacted into my life as a little girl.

1008
00:59:39.520 --> 00:59:44.000
I mean, what kid at five or six knows how to handle sex?

1009
00:59:44.000 --> 00:59:49.120
You all know one, no one.

1010
00:59:49.120 --> 00:59:54.920
So all that lust was brought into my life, let alone the generations before me that also

1011
00:59:54.920 --> 00:59:58.000
were like participating in that.

1012
00:59:58.000 --> 00:59:59.800
And so as I grew up.

1013
01:00:00.800 --> 01:00:04.400
Every single way the enemy could, he would just try to come in and bring the spirit of

1014
01:00:04.400 --> 01:00:11.040
lust, spirit of lust, all these different ways to attack and crush me. So I had to make a stand

1015
01:00:11.040 --> 01:00:17.840
against that and choose to walk in the fruits of the spirit, including the spirit of self-control,

1016
01:00:17.840 --> 01:00:23.840
even when it was hard, even as it got closer to wedding day, setting guardrails,

1017
01:00:24.800 --> 01:00:30.880
Ryan leaving before it got dark, never hanging out late at night, no more cuddling, no more

1018
01:00:30.880 --> 01:00:38.560
kissing. Yep. For real. I had to put those guardrails in place. We had to, because I was

1019
01:00:38.560 --> 01:00:45.120
fighting for freedom, not just for me, not just for him. Yes, for us, but for my kids,

1020
01:00:45.120 --> 01:00:51.440
for the generations behind us, because I will not allow that spirit to come down through me.

1021
01:00:51.440 --> 01:00:55.920
I will not. And so that was something I fought for. And so some of you all,

1022
01:00:57.040 --> 01:01:02.240
you're going to feel that Kinsman Redeemer start to come on you, even as I'm talking right now

1023
01:01:02.240 --> 01:01:06.640
for something that's come down through your family line. And God wants to not only deliver

1024
01:01:06.640 --> 01:01:12.720
you and set you free, but he wants to use you to redeem your timeline for other people to come

1025
01:01:12.720 --> 01:01:20.960
behind you. Generational blessings. I feel the Holy spirit on this. God is using me to usher in

1026
01:01:20.960 --> 01:01:27.200
generational blessings and freedom for my kids and their kids and their kids. Am I saying they

1027
01:01:27.200 --> 01:01:32.000
won't have to fight against that stuff? No, I I'm not naive. I know the enemy will try to bring that

1028
01:01:32.000 --> 01:01:40.080
back in, but I can educate my kids and my family. So maybe yours is food. Maybe yours is body image.

1029
01:01:40.080 --> 01:01:45.520
Maybe yours is the last stuff. Y'all, whatever it is, God, God wants to deliver you. And he wants

1030
01:01:45.600 --> 01:01:55.600
to help you for generations. All right. Frenchy. So good. Hopefully some of that was helpful for

1031
01:01:55.600 --> 01:02:04.800
you. I would encourage you also, um, anytime that you sense that feeling of, um, wanting to eat

1032
01:02:04.800 --> 01:02:11.440
because you're afraid of attention from men, just ask the Lord to show you the positive, the positive,

1033
01:02:11.440 --> 01:02:19.760
the flip side. So to help you like, okay, Lord, help me to know what healthy attention looks like.

1034
01:02:21.840 --> 01:02:28.080
Does that make sense? What's healthy attention from men look like? What does that feel like?

1035
01:02:28.080 --> 01:02:34.720
And Lord helped me to not be afraid and take it on myself. Okay. Here's another insight. Sorry,

1036
01:02:34.720 --> 01:02:38.480
y'all this isn't Lord's doing something with this right now. So I just have to trust him.

1037
01:02:38.960 --> 01:02:44.480
The other aspect here is when that unwanted attention happens to you all, when we start

1038
01:02:44.480 --> 01:02:50.800
putting weight on, or we respond negatively, it's like we've taken responsibility on ourselves

1039
01:02:51.440 --> 01:03:00.640
for that behavior. Does that make sense? What I just said? Yeah, I feel that. So even Frenchy,

1040
01:03:00.640 --> 01:03:06.720
like not taking responsibility for men when they do unhealthy things, or even women,

1041
01:03:07.600 --> 01:03:10.960
y'all in this day and age, there's women that are coming on to other women.

1042
01:03:10.960 --> 01:03:15.680
So let's just say that too. So when you get any kind of unwanted attention,

1043
01:03:17.040 --> 01:03:23.040
that you don't take that responsibility for their behavior onto yourself, just like myself,

1044
01:03:23.760 --> 01:03:32.080
I can go to the beach, praise the Lord and be free and not worry constantly about what someone else

1045
01:03:32.080 --> 01:03:39.280
is thinking, not thinking, doing, not doing. I can just go and enjoy the beach and the water,

1046
01:03:39.280 --> 01:03:47.680
which is why I'm there anyways. So freeing. So maybe also Frenchy or anyone else that this is

1047
01:03:47.680 --> 01:03:54.480
speaking to, are there other areas of your life where you tend to take responsibility upon yourself

1048
01:03:55.200 --> 01:04:01.200
for other people's behaviors? Not just in this area, because a lot of times if we do that

1049
01:04:01.200 --> 01:04:06.080
in the body area, we tend to do that in other areas as well. Okay.

1050
01:04:08.320 --> 01:04:13.760
Oh, you all, I didn't mean to go all there, but we went there. We did it. You tracked with me.

1051
01:04:13.760 --> 01:04:20.880
I didn't lose all of you. This is great. Okay. We can do hard stuff, ladies. We can. We can.

1052
01:04:21.520 --> 01:04:29.760
All right. Sarah, go ahead. So I was just going to share what I shared in the group,

1053
01:04:29.840 --> 01:04:38.400
then my confession. And mine was lust. I feel like I've come a really long way with, because I,

1054
01:04:39.600 --> 01:04:44.560
in the not so distant past, have really struggled with porn off and on throughout my life.

1055
01:04:44.560 --> 01:04:48.800
And I feel like I've gotten a lot of breakthrough with that. It's not a struggle right now, but

1056
01:04:49.440 --> 01:04:57.360
I feel like lust is still there. And actually, as the person that I was talking to was talking about

1057
01:04:57.360 --> 01:04:59.840
some of their stuff, they mentioned numbing.

1058
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.160
And I think, I feel like those two things kind of go hand in hand with me.

1059
01:05:04.160 --> 01:05:11.360
Like I, if I'm feeling strong feelings, I, I like, I, I recognize what I'm feeling.

1060
01:05:11.360 --> 01:05:16.440
And I, a lot of times know why I'm feeling it, but I don't know what to do with the feelings.

1061
01:05:16.440 --> 01:05:20.480
And so I just kind of turn it off, you know.

1062
01:05:20.480 --> 01:05:23.280
And so I think.

1063
01:05:23.280 --> 01:05:30.440
Can you give me an example so I can help, can help you process that a little bit?

1064
01:05:30.440 --> 01:05:36.640
Like with stress, especially, I think that's been the biggest thing in the last few years,

1065
01:05:36.640 --> 01:05:40.000
the stress, which I did just quit my job.

1066
01:05:40.000 --> 01:05:47.480
So that was kind of, I'm going to have a lot less of the stress that I was dealing with.

1067
01:05:47.480 --> 01:05:48.480
But yeah.

1068
01:05:48.480 --> 01:05:49.480
Okay.

1069
01:05:49.480 --> 01:05:51.320
This is helpful.

1070
01:05:51.320 --> 01:05:56.760
Thank you for sharing and having courage to be so open with us.

1071
01:05:56.760 --> 01:05:59.640
There's a lot of people that struggle with this, Sarah.

1072
01:05:59.640 --> 01:06:02.960
And I believe what you just shared is going to help a lot of other people tonight.

1073
01:06:02.960 --> 01:06:09.360
When you were sharing, when you said the numbing thing, what I heard in my spirit was disassociate.

1074
01:06:09.360 --> 01:06:15.480
A lot of people will do numbing behaviors, whether that's alcohol, pornography, you know,

1075
01:06:15.480 --> 01:06:23.520
and smoking or, you know, all these kinds of things to disassociate from their current reality.

1076
01:06:23.520 --> 01:06:29.080
And that can start really young, but it also can start because someone just exposed us to it.

1077
01:06:29.080 --> 01:06:36.880
And then as we became addicted to it, whatever that thing is, the numbing becomes a part

1078
01:06:36.880 --> 01:06:42.160
of the process because it's, you know, that, y'all, I don't know all the studies, but like

1079
01:06:42.240 --> 01:06:47.360
what's released into the brain when people see pornography or things like that is pretty,

1080
01:06:47.360 --> 01:06:48.720
pretty addictive, pretty quick.

1081
01:06:49.760 --> 01:06:54.480
And so learning how that, you knowing that stress is a trigger, super important.

1082
01:06:55.120 --> 01:07:01.920
So removing yourself from those kinds of things when stress is kind of at a high will be important.

1083
01:07:03.360 --> 01:07:05.360
And so I just want to encourage you to keep going.

1084
01:07:05.360 --> 01:07:07.360
It sounds like you're doing really well.

1085
01:07:07.360 --> 01:07:11.680
You are sharing really confidently, which is good.

1086
01:07:11.680 --> 01:07:15.680
When we go into, I got to think, I think it's in week five.

1087
01:07:16.880 --> 01:07:20.640
So don't rush ahead to this, but there's a self-preservation technique sheet

1088
01:07:21.760 --> 01:07:23.040
that is in week five.

1089
01:07:23.040 --> 01:07:27.840
And it talks about all the different kinds of things we do ladies to self-preserve

1090
01:07:28.400 --> 01:07:30.960
and numbing is one of those.

1091
01:07:30.960 --> 01:07:31.760
Okay.

1092
01:07:31.760 --> 01:07:34.160
And sometimes people even numb out.

1093
01:07:34.160 --> 01:07:39.440
I've done this even on like rom-coms or TV, like binging TV stuff.

1094
01:07:40.000 --> 01:07:41.680
When you just don't want to feel anymore.

1095
01:07:41.680 --> 01:07:46.000
And you're just constantly like you're, I remember the old show Felicity.

1096
01:07:46.000 --> 01:07:50.720
I remember the last time I watched that series over and I can just remember the Holy spirit

1097
01:07:50.720 --> 01:07:56.240
just whispering to me, like, you're totally avoiding what you need to deal with.

1098
01:07:57.600 --> 01:08:00.960
He was so kind, but he just lovingly said that to me.

1099
01:08:00.960 --> 01:08:03.520
You're avoiding what you need to deal with.

1100
01:08:04.560 --> 01:08:05.840
And it just came like a whisper.

1101
01:08:06.400 --> 01:08:11.520
And so typically we want to always, if you guys remember, you're going to hear this all

1102
01:08:11.520 --> 01:08:12.080
the time.

1103
01:08:12.080 --> 01:08:21.439
When is the first time that you maybe watched porn or even gave into lust in some way could

1104
01:08:21.439 --> 01:08:24.640
even been a movie to numb.

1105
01:08:26.240 --> 01:08:30.160
So asking the Lord to reveal the first time you don't have to even do it tonight or now,

1106
01:08:30.160 --> 01:08:34.479
cause I'm going to start to shift towards the next content, but just as you're processing

1107
01:08:34.560 --> 01:08:40.560
this and unpacking it more, Sarah, asking the Lord, when is the first time I did any

1108
01:08:40.560 --> 01:08:47.840
kind of addictive behavior or even just disassociated and did something to numb?

1109
01:08:47.840 --> 01:08:50.160
And what was I going through when that happened?

1110
01:08:52.000 --> 01:08:52.800
That makes sense.

1111
01:08:54.319 --> 01:08:54.880
All right.

1112
01:08:54.880 --> 01:08:55.359
Awesome.

1113
01:08:55.359 --> 01:08:57.760
Y'all, this is some good, good stuff.

1114
01:08:57.760 --> 01:08:58.319
Y'all.

1115
01:08:58.319 --> 01:09:04.880
I'm so proud of all of you all sharing in the chat, in openness, in the breakouts, we're

1116
01:09:04.880 --> 01:09:06.399
going to keep track in tonight.

1117
01:09:06.399 --> 01:09:07.680
We're going to start to shift here.

1118
01:09:07.680 --> 01:09:08.000
Okay.

1119
01:09:08.800 --> 01:09:10.800
We're going to start talking about identity.

1120
01:09:10.800 --> 01:09:11.760
It's already nine Oh nine.

1121
01:09:11.760 --> 01:09:13.760
So I'm gonna try to do this really quick.

1122
01:09:13.760 --> 01:09:16.319
Cause I want you all to have another breakout time.

1123
01:09:16.319 --> 01:09:17.600
It's super important.

1124
01:09:17.600 --> 01:09:21.600
So basically where I'm picking up is Adam and Eve have sinned.

1125
01:09:21.600 --> 01:09:23.040
They have eaten of the fruit.

1126
01:09:23.040 --> 01:09:28.960
They're in the garden and, uh, they've hidden themselves and, you know, all that kind of

1127
01:09:28.960 --> 01:09:29.680
thing.

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01:09:29.680 --> 01:09:33.760
And in Genesis three, eight through 11, it says this, then the man and his wife heard

1129
01:09:33.760 --> 01:09:34.800
the sound of the Lord.

1130
01:09:34.800 --> 01:09:39.040
God, as he was walking in the garden, the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord

1131
01:09:39.040 --> 01:09:44.800
God among the trees of the garden, but the Lord God called to the man, where are you?

1132
01:09:45.520 --> 01:09:46.160
He answered.

1133
01:09:46.160 --> 01:09:50.720
I heard you in the garden and I was afraid because I was naked.

1134
01:09:50.800 --> 01:09:53.760
So I had, here's where we're going to focus tonight.

1135
01:09:53.760 --> 01:09:54.720
Verse 11.

1136
01:09:54.720 --> 01:09:58.880
And he said, God talking to Adam, who

1137
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.580
told you that you were naked?

1138
01:10:03.720 --> 01:10:05.900
And then he says, have you eaten from the tree

1139
01:10:05.900 --> 01:10:08.380
that I commanded you not to eat from?

1140
01:10:09.400 --> 01:10:12.580
Okay, who told you that you were naked?

1141
01:10:12.580 --> 01:10:14.620
So what I wanna say to you tonight,

1142
01:10:15.840 --> 01:10:18.100
who told you that you weren't smart?

1143
01:10:18.100 --> 01:10:20.420
Who told you that you weren't good enough?

1144
01:10:20.420 --> 01:10:24.320
Who told you that you can never break free

1145
01:10:24.320 --> 01:10:25.440
from this sin cycle?

1146
01:10:25.440 --> 01:10:27.940
Who told you that you could never have a husband

1147
01:10:27.980 --> 01:10:30.140
that's healthy and you could never have a family?

1148
01:10:30.140 --> 01:10:34.220
Who told you, whatever it is, fill in the blank.

1149
01:10:34.220 --> 01:10:37.120
Who told you you were naked?

1150
01:10:37.120 --> 01:10:39.260
I also want you to think about it,

1151
01:10:39.260 --> 01:10:40.800
and I'm gonna kind of, y'all,

1152
01:10:40.800 --> 01:10:42.380
I'm not trying to take things out of context,

1153
01:10:42.380 --> 01:10:45.380
but God gave me this idea today, and I think it's good.

1154
01:10:45.380 --> 01:10:48.620
So I just want you to kind of imagine with me

1155
01:10:48.620 --> 01:10:51.320
when God is saying to him, have you eaten from the tree?

1156
01:10:51.320 --> 01:10:55.220
I started thinking about when we go through trauma,

1157
01:10:56.060 --> 01:10:58.060
whether it's something we chose

1158
01:10:58.060 --> 01:11:01.300
or we experienced it at the hands of someone else,

1159
01:11:01.300 --> 01:11:03.020
it's almost when that happens,

1160
01:11:03.020 --> 01:11:06.220
it's like whether we chose to or not, we ate.

1161
01:11:06.220 --> 01:11:09.020
We ate of something, right?

1162
01:11:09.020 --> 01:11:10.940
Imagine that whatever we went through,

1163
01:11:10.940 --> 01:11:14.420
it caused us to eat something and partake of it,

1164
01:11:14.420 --> 01:11:19.420
and that's what has caused us to now think something

1165
01:11:19.540 --> 01:11:21.620
that's not true, that we're naked

1166
01:11:21.620 --> 01:11:23.780
or realize that we're exposed.

1167
01:11:23.780 --> 01:11:25.300
I hear that word a lot.

1168
01:11:25.300 --> 01:11:27.300
I feel exposed, I feel naked,

1169
01:11:27.300 --> 01:11:31.100
and I want to encourage you all, if that is how you feel,

1170
01:11:31.100 --> 01:11:35.540
I'm not saying it's not true, but God doesn't expose,

1171
01:11:36.500 --> 01:11:41.500
he reveals for healing, and guess what else God does?

1172
01:11:41.780 --> 01:11:43.200
He covers.

1173
01:11:44.700 --> 01:11:47.600
There's a story in the Bible, I can't think of who it is.

1174
01:11:48.940 --> 01:11:53.420
It might be Noah after they got off the ark.

1175
01:11:54.100 --> 01:11:56.820
I'll have to look it up, but basically where,

1176
01:11:56.820 --> 01:11:58.020
yeah, I think it was Noah,

1177
01:11:58.020 --> 01:12:03.020
where one son found him drunk in the tent.

1178
01:12:03.180 --> 01:12:05.340
I think I've got it right.

1179
01:12:05.340 --> 01:12:08.380
And that son, guess what?

1180
01:12:08.380 --> 01:12:10.600
Didn't cover him up.

1181
01:12:10.600 --> 01:12:15.500
But the other son, he walked backwards.

1182
01:12:15.500 --> 01:12:16.780
He didn't even look, you all.

1183
01:12:16.780 --> 01:12:18.420
He didn't even open his eyes to it.

1184
01:12:18.420 --> 01:12:22.640
He walked backward and covered his father's nakedness.

1185
01:12:24.180 --> 01:12:27.980
The father is able to look at you,

1186
01:12:27.980 --> 01:12:32.500
even in your sin, and love you unconditionally.

1187
01:12:35.380 --> 01:12:36.980
Let that settle in for a minute.

1188
01:12:38.220 --> 01:12:43.220
His love covers a multitude of sins.

1189
01:12:44.900 --> 01:12:46.620
Does he want you to keep doing that?

1190
01:12:46.620 --> 01:12:49.980
No, but his love is great.

1191
01:12:49.980 --> 01:12:54.180
It's wide, it's deep, and it covers.

1192
01:12:54.180 --> 01:12:57.740
All right, so who told you you were naked?

1193
01:12:57.740 --> 01:13:01.340
What people in your life said to you

1194
01:13:01.340 --> 01:13:03.640
can form your identity if you let it.

1195
01:13:05.100 --> 01:13:08.820
So I wanna ask you, like, what have people said to you

1196
01:13:08.820 --> 01:13:11.900
that caused you to be where you are,

1197
01:13:11.900 --> 01:13:13.220
like in a negative way,

1198
01:13:13.220 --> 01:13:16.400
like the identity stuff that's not true about you?

1199
01:13:17.580 --> 01:13:18.900
Let's just, I wanna activate you.

1200
01:13:18.900 --> 01:13:21.500
Just go ahead and tell me, what's something someone,

1201
01:13:22.820 --> 01:13:24.320
what's something, we'll do the negative first.

1202
01:13:24.320 --> 01:13:27.500
What's something negative somebody has said to you?

1203
01:13:27.500 --> 01:13:28.860
They could have said it out of their mouth,

1204
01:13:28.860 --> 01:13:30.140
they could have wrote it to you,

1205
01:13:30.140 --> 01:13:34.680
but somebody said something to you that was hurtful.

1206
01:13:35.860 --> 01:13:37.460
One person.

1207
01:13:37.460 --> 01:13:39.940
My parents say that I need to lose weight

1208
01:13:39.940 --> 01:13:41.340
in order to find a husband.

1209
01:13:42.740 --> 01:13:44.660
Okay, yeah.

1210
01:13:44.660 --> 01:13:46.140
That's actually pretty common, you all.

1211
01:13:46.140 --> 01:13:47.940
It's really sad, but it's pretty common.

1212
01:13:47.940 --> 01:13:49.340
I hear it a lot.

1213
01:13:50.820 --> 01:13:52.620
Go ahead and keep putting those in the chat there for me.

1214
01:13:52.620 --> 01:13:55.260
As you guys keep doing that, I'm gonna keep moving.

1215
01:13:57.700 --> 01:14:00.060
Brillo pad and about my hair.

1216
01:14:00.060 --> 01:14:02.580
That's interesting, Crystal.

1217
01:14:02.580 --> 01:14:06.140
Tell me more about that, if you will, in the chat there.

1218
01:14:06.140 --> 01:14:07.460
Shy and quiet.

1219
01:14:07.460 --> 01:14:11.100
Okay, I might, if I have time, touch on that shy thing,

1220
01:14:11.100 --> 01:14:13.020
because I think God wants to help some of you all

1221
01:14:13.020 --> 01:14:16.000
who have been told you're just shy to come out of that.

1222
01:14:16.920 --> 01:14:20.040
I don't think that actually was some of you all.

1223
01:14:20.040 --> 01:14:22.120
I don't think that was your original identity,

1224
01:14:22.120 --> 01:14:25.240
but I think you became that because you felt like you had to.

1225
01:14:25.240 --> 01:14:26.480
Comments about weight.

1226
01:14:26.480 --> 01:14:28.800
Okay, as you feel led, go ahead and put those in there.

1227
01:14:28.800 --> 01:14:30.320
Now I want you to tell me something

1228
01:14:30.320 --> 01:14:31.920
that someone said that was positive.

1229
01:14:31.920 --> 01:14:33.760
That might be easier for some of you.

1230
01:14:35.280 --> 01:14:37.440
All right, and then be thinking about this.

1231
01:14:39.520 --> 01:14:42.160
Who does the enemy try to tell you that you are?

1232
01:14:43.160 --> 01:14:46.400
And then who does God say that you are?

1233
01:14:46.400 --> 01:14:48.120
And who wins at the end of the day?

1234
01:14:48.120 --> 01:14:50.240
Is it the things that people say to you?

1235
01:14:50.240 --> 01:14:52.440
Is it the things the enemy is saying to you?

1236
01:14:52.440 --> 01:14:56.080
Or is what God says about you and to you,

1237
01:14:56.080 --> 01:14:58.280
what is ruling in your mind?

1238
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:04.840
The Bible says to think on things that are true, noble, lovely, and of good report.

1239
01:15:04.840 --> 01:15:08.960
Things that are above only and not beneath, but y'all, we have to choose what we're going

1240
01:15:08.960 --> 01:15:10.760
to put our minds on.

1241
01:15:10.760 --> 01:15:11.760
Okay.

1242
01:15:11.760 --> 01:15:13.720
All right.

1243
01:15:13.720 --> 01:15:14.720
Here we go.

1244
01:15:14.720 --> 01:15:15.720
You all.

1245
01:15:15.720 --> 01:15:18.280
I'm going to activate you more.

1246
01:15:18.280 --> 01:15:21.680
I know I'm having you put a lot of stuff in the chat, but I'm doing it for a purpose because

1247
01:15:21.680 --> 01:15:24.200
I want you to engage in what we're talking about.

1248
01:15:24.200 --> 01:15:27.840
Even if it feels hard to put it out and where people can see it.

1249
01:15:27.840 --> 01:15:29.360
All right.

1250
01:15:29.360 --> 01:15:35.560
I want you to, on your piece of paper first, on a piece of paper or in your phone, whatever

1251
01:15:35.560 --> 01:15:43.920
you have available to you, I want you to write down the first two to three words that come

1252
01:15:43.920 --> 01:15:44.920
to your mind.

1253
01:15:44.920 --> 01:15:47.080
When I say, who are you?

1254
01:15:47.080 --> 01:15:48.240
What is your identity?

1255
01:15:48.240 --> 01:15:51.600
Like who is, who is Deborah?

1256
01:15:51.600 --> 01:15:53.200
Who is Lauren?

1257
01:15:53.200 --> 01:15:55.720
Who is Kaylee?

1258
01:15:55.720 --> 01:15:58.040
Like who are you?

1259
01:15:58.040 --> 01:15:59.800
What is the first things that you hear?

1260
01:15:59.800 --> 01:16:01.720
If it's negative, y'all write the negative.

1261
01:16:01.720 --> 01:16:03.200
If it's positive, write the positive.

1262
01:16:03.200 --> 01:16:07.880
And there's a reason that I don't want you to shy away from whatever you hear.

1263
01:16:07.880 --> 01:16:11.280
And some of you will hear a positive and that's amazing, but I don't want you to think you

1264
01:16:11.280 --> 01:16:14.520
have to say that because you think that's what I'm looking for.

1265
01:16:14.520 --> 01:16:20.120
I want you to literally write down anything that comes to you, first two to three words,

1266
01:16:20.120 --> 01:16:22.200
and then we're going to do something with it.

1267
01:16:22.200 --> 01:16:24.800
It's going to be part of your activation this week.

1268
01:16:24.800 --> 01:16:30.600
All right.

1269
01:16:30.600 --> 01:16:34.200
If you want, you can put those in the chat so other people can see kind of some of the

1270
01:16:34.200 --> 01:16:38.400
things that you're hearing and thinking about yourself.

1271
01:16:38.400 --> 01:16:41.240
Some of these thoughts aren't even your own thoughts, you know, I just want to remind

1272
01:16:41.240 --> 01:16:42.240
you of that.

1273
01:16:42.240 --> 01:16:45.720
Some of these thoughts are literally the enemy's thoughts and he's putting them in your mind

1274
01:16:45.720 --> 01:16:52.720
and you think you're, that you think that they're yours, but they're not all right.

1275
01:16:52.720 --> 01:16:53.720
So good.

1276
01:16:53.720 --> 01:16:54.720
All right, ladies.

1277
01:16:55.640 --> 01:16:56.640
Let's keep doing that.

1278
01:16:56.640 --> 01:16:57.640
Here we go.

1279
01:16:57.640 --> 01:16:59.880
What does your root system look like?

1280
01:16:59.880 --> 01:17:03.520
What does your root system look like?

1281
01:17:03.520 --> 01:17:11.080
If you think of a tree, I found one, I wanted to show one earlier and I forgot.

1282
01:17:11.080 --> 01:17:13.280
And so let me, that's not it.

1283
01:17:13.280 --> 01:17:15.280
Hold on one second.

1284
01:17:15.280 --> 01:17:19.160
Oh, is it not going to let it come up?

1285
01:17:19.160 --> 01:17:24.320
All right, this tree right here, this one right here, I don't know if y'all can see

1286
01:17:24.920 --> 01:17:25.920
it.

1287
01:17:25.920 --> 01:17:26.920
That's the one I wanted to show you.

1288
01:17:26.920 --> 01:17:33.040
Half of the tree is alive and half of the tree doesn't look like it's got much life

1289
01:17:33.040 --> 01:17:34.040
on it.

1290
01:17:34.040 --> 01:17:35.040
Right?

1291
01:17:35.040 --> 01:17:36.040
It's losing its leaves.

1292
01:17:36.040 --> 01:17:37.040
It's bare.

1293
01:17:37.040 --> 01:17:45.120
I want you to think about this kind of visual image, if you will, that some of you are not

1294
01:17:45.120 --> 01:17:50.520
getting your nutrients from healthy places because you're believing lies about yourself.

1295
01:17:50.520 --> 01:17:55.600
As you continue to heal, obviously we believe that God's going to reveal the lies so that

1296
01:17:55.600 --> 01:17:57.200
you can replace them with truth.

1297
01:17:57.200 --> 01:18:02.200
And I believe that God can graft the truth in and replace those lies and help you bring

1298
01:18:02.200 --> 01:18:04.560
life in those places in the future.

1299
01:18:04.560 --> 01:18:11.080
But right now, some of you, are your roots causing you or parts of your life to decay?

1300
01:18:11.080 --> 01:18:16.340
Like are you losing life in some areas or feeling not alive?

1301
01:18:16.340 --> 01:18:20.140
But then the other parts, and this is very possible, feel very alive.

1302
01:18:20.140 --> 01:18:25.740
Y'all, I used to feel like I had tons of victory, like in church and serving.

1303
01:18:25.740 --> 01:18:30.980
I could, I mean, I could lead and lead all kinds of stuff in church, like nobody's business.

1304
01:18:30.980 --> 01:18:32.020
And I rocked it.

1305
01:18:32.020 --> 01:18:33.620
I did.

1306
01:18:33.620 --> 01:18:38.700
But my love life was always messed up.

1307
01:18:38.700 --> 01:18:40.300
And my finances, I struggled.

1308
01:18:40.300 --> 01:18:43.620
I did my best, but I struggled for a long time.

1309
01:18:43.620 --> 01:18:49.660
But I praise God that I'm learning how to be healthier in more areas of my life, not

1310
01:18:49.660 --> 01:18:54.420
just some, but I believe I am healing in every area of my life.

1311
01:18:54.420 --> 01:18:59.460
I'm starting to live into the fullness in every area that God created me to be and live

1312
01:18:59.460 --> 01:19:05.060
in, to take dominion and lead for the Lord in every area.

1313
01:19:05.060 --> 01:19:06.500
All right.

1314
01:19:06.500 --> 01:19:09.940
So how can you tell what's in your roots?

1315
01:19:09.940 --> 01:19:11.220
How can you tell what's in your roots?

1316
01:19:11.220 --> 01:19:16.380
How can you tell if your roots are like not full of life versus full of life?

1317
01:19:16.380 --> 01:19:17.380
Okay.

1318
01:19:17.380 --> 01:19:20.500
I'm going to stop my screen share so I can see y'all because I like that so much better.

1319
01:19:20.500 --> 01:19:21.500
All right.

1320
01:19:21.500 --> 01:19:25.580
Here's how I'm going to read a little bit from the book for you.

1321
01:19:25.580 --> 01:19:29.620
Again, I don't talk about the pages just because your page is different than mine because you

1322
01:19:29.620 --> 01:19:31.060
have the ebook version.

1323
01:19:31.060 --> 01:19:32.060
Okay.

1324
01:19:32.060 --> 01:19:34.500
Fruits versus roots.

1325
01:19:34.500 --> 01:19:39.260
Roots are the emotional or physical manifestations and the subsequent actions you have been taking

1326
01:19:39.340 --> 01:19:43.620
as a result of what you believe in your heart.

1327
01:19:43.620 --> 01:19:48.740
Fruits may include sickness, self-pity, a victim mentality, despair, suicidal tendencies,

1328
01:19:48.740 --> 01:19:50.420
disgust, and judgment.

1329
01:19:50.420 --> 01:19:51.420
Just a side note.

1330
01:19:51.420 --> 01:19:56.060
If you have a problem with judging others, it's because you have a fragmented heart.

1331
01:19:56.060 --> 01:19:59.060
A judgmental heart is a hurting heart.

1332
01:19:59.060 --> 01:19:59.980
Some more fruits.

1333
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:04.620
Some more fruits are obesity, perversion, addiction, sexual

1334
01:20:04.620 --> 01:20:08.520
dysfunction, hopelessness, hatred, and self hatred. Just so

1335
01:20:08.520 --> 01:20:11.560
you know, all forms of hatred begin with self hatred. You

1336
01:20:11.560 --> 01:20:15.800
can't hate someone else without hating yourself. Some others are

1337
01:20:15.800 --> 01:20:19.240
abrasiveness, short temper, irritability, jealousy, envy,

1338
01:20:19.240 --> 01:20:22.960
competitiveness, comparing, gossiping, backstabbing, being

1339
01:20:22.960 --> 01:20:26.280
unhappy, ungratefulness, selfishness, having a poverty

1340
01:20:26.280 --> 01:20:30.560
mentality. If you are habitually negative, unfaithful or have any

1341
01:20:30.560 --> 01:20:34.840
form of dis, including disease, disconnection, discontent and

1342
01:20:34.840 --> 01:20:38.200
disappointment, you are suffering from a broken heart.

1343
01:20:38.520 --> 01:20:41.840
Jackie says I could go on and on. As you can see, what we

1344
01:20:41.880 --> 01:20:47.320
often believe is the problem is just the fruit of the real

1345
01:20:47.320 --> 01:20:52.000
problem. If we really want these areas of our lives to become

1346
01:20:52.000 --> 01:20:56.840
healthy and abundant, we have to pull these things up by their

1347
01:20:56.840 --> 01:21:00.720
roots. That means locating and isolating the lie that we

1348
01:21:00.720 --> 01:21:06.360
believe that is at the core of all of these behaviors you are.

1349
01:21:07.000 --> 01:21:10.160
Okay, again, we're not looking for behavior modification. If

1350
01:21:10.160 --> 01:21:13.360
you related to any of those things or any other things that

1351
01:21:13.360 --> 01:21:17.560
I listed, you want to just keep asking the Lord to reveal the

1352
01:21:17.560 --> 01:21:22.720
lies that you believe in those areas that keeps you in those

1353
01:21:22.720 --> 01:21:27.160
places. Okay, reveal them for healing and replace them with

1354
01:21:27.160 --> 01:21:34.720
the truth. Here is your breakout question. I'm going to lean on I

1355
01:21:34.720 --> 01:21:38.160
had two options, but we're going to lean on option two for this

1356
01:21:38.160 --> 01:21:42.040
one. Was it what is a pot? Now those were all a lot of negative

1357
01:21:42.040 --> 01:21:45.480
roots. But what I want to do is talk about a positive root. So

1358
01:21:45.480 --> 01:21:48.000
what is a positive root that you're going to choose to

1359
01:21:48.000 --> 01:21:52.360
partner with in the days ahead? So the positive root would be

1360
01:21:52.360 --> 01:21:55.320
maybe the flip side of the negative root that you've been

1361
01:21:55.320 --> 01:21:58.240
were like maybe struggling with and we want to we want some

1362
01:21:58.240 --> 01:22:00.840
breakthrough. So we want to come out of agreement with that

1363
01:22:00.840 --> 01:22:05.760
stuff. And we want to come into agreement with the positive.

1364
01:22:06.040 --> 01:22:09.600
What's the flip side. So one of the things I wrote down today,

1365
01:22:09.600 --> 01:22:12.160
this isn't a fruit necessarily, but this is what's coming up in

1366
01:22:12.160 --> 01:22:19.040
my spirit. Talk less and listen more. Here's why. In Proverbs,

1367
01:22:19.040 --> 01:22:23.680
it's telling me that people that are wise, listen, they listen

1368
01:22:23.680 --> 01:22:27.280
more than they talk. I'm not saying God's telling me I'm

1369
01:22:27.280 --> 01:22:30.240
doing something wrong, but I feel like he's leading me to

1370
01:22:31.520 --> 01:22:36.560
listen, listen more. Now is that is it a sin if I talk? No. So

1371
01:22:36.560 --> 01:22:38.560
maybe that's not the best example. But that's what came up

1372
01:22:38.560 --> 01:22:40.840
in my spirit. So some of you might even be something like

1373
01:22:40.840 --> 01:22:44.280
that. But maybe for some of you, you're talking leads to

1374
01:22:44.280 --> 01:22:49.200
gossip thing. So maybe that's why God might nudge you to not

1375
01:22:49.200 --> 01:22:52.720
talk as much, you know, who knows? Everybody's different.

1376
01:22:53.600 --> 01:22:55.600
Alright, so I'm going to put you in your breakout rooms. I am

1377
01:22:55.600 --> 01:23:01.680
going to recreate these. So I can meet some new people. I'm

1378
01:23:01.680 --> 01:23:03.680
not going to put you in there as long as going to be short, brief

1379
01:23:03.680 --> 01:23:07.000
and powerful. Again, what what is it a positive route that

1380
01:23:07.000 --> 01:23:09.200
you're going to partner with in the days ahead. So I'm going to

1381
01:23:09.200 --> 01:23:11.880
give you three minutes. So if you've got three people, you

1382
01:23:11.880 --> 01:23:14.880
each got a minute to share. Okay, gotta go quick. Here you

1383
01:23:14.880 --> 01:23:19.080
go. Go ahead and click to join those you have to be quick to

1384
01:23:19.080 --> 01:23:28.880
get in there. Lord, we just thank you for all that you're

1385
01:23:28.880 --> 01:23:32.880
doing. God, thank you that you're continuing to show us the

1386
01:23:32.880 --> 01:23:37.360
areas where you want us to continue to break through that

1387
01:23:37.360 --> 01:23:44.840
you want us to continue to heal and be restored. I thank you,

1388
01:23:44.840 --> 01:23:51.240
Lord, that you are helping us to continue to see your truth, your

1389
01:23:51.240 --> 01:23:54.720
life, your hope. I thank you, God, that yeah, Lord, that we

1390
01:23:54.720 --> 01:23:57.800
wouldn't look at ourselves through a microscope lens of

1391
01:23:57.800 --> 01:24:05.560
judgment, criticism, shame, self hatred, self loathing, God, that

1392
01:24:05.560 --> 01:24:08.920
we will look through your lens that we would be willing to hear

1393
01:24:08.920 --> 01:24:13.200
what your spirit is saying about us to us. God, we thank you that

1394
01:24:13.200 --> 01:24:17.680
Jesus died on the cross, not only for our for freedom from

1395
01:24:17.680 --> 01:24:20.640
the sins and the things that we've done. But Lord, I thank

1396
01:24:20.640 --> 01:24:24.000
you that he died to make a way for us to be one with him as he

1397
01:24:24.000 --> 01:24:29.160
is one with you. And I thank you that we fight from a place of

1398
01:24:29.160 --> 01:24:31.520
victory. So Lord, I thank you tonight that you're going to

1399
01:24:31.520 --> 01:24:34.360
help the ladies understand they're fighting from from

1400
01:24:34.400 --> 01:24:37.560
victory, not for it because Jesus already died to give them

1401
01:24:37.560 --> 01:24:39.920
the victory. So Lord, I thank you that you would help us to

1402
01:24:39.920 --> 01:24:45.120
apply the blood tonight that we would continue to heal and lean

1403
01:24:45.160 --> 01:24:49.360
more into who you want us to become in the days ahead. I pray

1404
01:24:49.360 --> 01:24:52.520
that if we have root systems that are not healthy right now,

1405
01:24:52.520 --> 01:24:55.880
because we're rooted and grounded in things that don't

1406
01:24:55.880 --> 01:24:58.640
look like the kingdom that don't look like Jesus that don't look

1407
01:24:58.640 --> 01:24:59.960
like love. I thank you

1408
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:02.180
that you'll come into those places

1409
01:25:02.180 --> 01:25:04.780
and reveal those areas for healing.

1410
01:25:04.780 --> 01:25:09.780
Help us to turn away from anything that is not like you

1411
01:25:11.180 --> 01:25:14.860
and to choose to go on the path with you, Lord,

1412
01:25:14.860 --> 01:25:16.900
that leads to life, that leads to healing.

1413
01:25:16.900 --> 01:25:18.900
We know that you have a plan to prosper us,

1414
01:25:18.900 --> 01:25:21.700
to give us a hope and a future.

1415
01:25:21.700 --> 01:25:24.060
And so, Lord, I thank you that you'll help us to partner

1416
01:25:24.060 --> 01:25:27.900
with, yeah, the future plans that you have for us.

1417
01:25:28.900 --> 01:25:31.880
Where we have tended to believe

1418
01:25:31.880 --> 01:25:34.880
that you only have the worst in store

1419
01:25:34.880 --> 01:25:37.040
because we've gone through a lot of bad things.

1420
01:25:37.040 --> 01:25:39.920
Some people in this group, that's what they've known.

1421
01:25:40.760 --> 01:25:44.020
Lord, thank you that you're giving them a turnaround story.

1422
01:25:44.020 --> 01:25:46.180
We thank you, God, that you would give them dreams

1423
01:25:46.180 --> 01:25:51.180
and visions and hope just overflowing,

1424
01:25:52.460 --> 01:25:55.560
not to the brim, but overflowing, God,

1425
01:25:55.560 --> 01:25:57.920
and suddenly starting to happen in their life.

1426
01:25:57.920 --> 01:26:01.000
We thank you for supernatural healing and transformation

1427
01:26:02.200 --> 01:26:04.920
that's just gonna continue to come, come, come, Lord.

1428
01:26:04.920 --> 01:26:06.640
And just, we thank you for,

1429
01:26:06.640 --> 01:26:08.080
even like how fun she's on tonight,

1430
01:26:08.080 --> 01:26:10.580
and she just got that revelation and that breakthrough

1431
01:26:10.580 --> 01:26:12.880
that she's been asking and seeking about,

1432
01:26:12.880 --> 01:26:15.500
where we thank you for those suddenly moments

1433
01:26:15.500 --> 01:26:18.480
when they happen and all the truth and hope and life

1434
01:26:18.480 --> 01:26:20.320
that they can bring and usher in.

1435
01:26:20.320 --> 01:26:23.160
And I thank you, Lord, that we can continue to partner

1436
01:26:23.160 --> 01:26:25.020
with you in this process.

1437
01:26:26.040 --> 01:26:30.840
And yes, Lord, that we don't have to be afraid

1438
01:26:30.840 --> 01:26:35.180
that our foot would slip or fall because, God, you've got us.

1439
01:26:36.120 --> 01:26:38.720
Yeah, Lord, I thank you.

1440
01:26:38.720 --> 01:26:40.400
I'm gonna wait until the ladies come back.

1441
01:26:40.400 --> 01:26:42.480
That was a good picture.

1442
01:26:42.480 --> 01:26:44.240
God's so good, you all.

1443
01:26:44.240 --> 01:26:46.820
He's always talking to us.

1444
01:26:46.820 --> 01:26:47.840
He's always talking to us.

1445
01:26:47.840 --> 01:26:51.640
Some of y'all are learning the ways that he talks to you,

1446
01:26:51.640 --> 01:26:53.240
and you're gonna learn that more and more

1447
01:26:53.240 --> 01:26:54.080
in the days ahead.

1448
01:26:54.080 --> 01:26:55.680
The more that you heal

1449
01:26:55.680 --> 01:26:59.040
and just recognize the way he speaks to you,

1450
01:26:59.040 --> 01:27:01.680
it's gonna be really fun.

1451
01:27:01.680 --> 01:27:03.200
It's gonna be really fun.

1452
01:27:03.200 --> 01:27:06.840
And he loves to talk to you, just so you know.

1453
01:27:06.840 --> 01:27:09.440
Like he loves to hear your voice.

1454
01:27:09.440 --> 01:27:12.220
He loves when you'd worship him.

1455
01:27:12.220 --> 01:27:14.040
He doesn't need our worship, you all,

1456
01:27:14.040 --> 01:27:16.680
but he just loves it when we worship him.

1457
01:27:16.680 --> 01:27:18.560
He loves to spend that time with us.

1458
01:27:19.560 --> 01:27:23.300
All right, as people come back, hello, hello, hello.

1459
01:27:24.240 --> 01:27:26.020
As I was praying for you all,

1460
01:27:27.360 --> 01:27:31.120
I saw an image of some of you all in the spirit.

1461
01:27:31.120 --> 01:27:32.760
Might be just for one, I don't know,

1462
01:27:32.760 --> 01:27:35.440
but I just wanna release it, because I saw it.

1463
01:27:35.440 --> 01:27:38.120
I saw like a cliff,

1464
01:27:38.120 --> 01:27:42.560
and I saw as if someone was like climbing,

1465
01:27:42.560 --> 01:27:44.360
like rock climbing.

1466
01:27:44.360 --> 01:27:46.360
And what I heard in the spirit was,

1467
01:27:46.400 --> 01:27:51.400
God says, don't worry, I'm going to catch you if you fall.

1468
01:27:53.240 --> 01:27:55.240
So I don't know if some of you feel

1469
01:27:55.240 --> 01:27:57.900
like this process feels like rock climbing,

1470
01:27:57.900 --> 01:28:00.880
like you're trying to like scale a wall

1471
01:28:00.880 --> 01:28:02.680
as you're trying to break through from stuff.

1472
01:28:02.680 --> 01:28:05.200
I don't know who that's for,

1473
01:28:05.200 --> 01:28:09.680
but God wants you to know like he's your harness, okay?

1474
01:28:09.680 --> 01:28:10.640
He's your harness.

1475
01:28:10.640 --> 01:28:15.640
And so I think he's gonna transform that rock wall

1476
01:28:15.920 --> 01:28:18.600
into a whole different revelation and understanding,

1477
01:28:18.600 --> 01:28:19.560
just FYI.

1478
01:28:19.560 --> 01:28:23.440
I think he wants you to know that it's actually not that.

1479
01:28:23.440 --> 01:28:26.440
He's gonna make it like with grace and ease,

1480
01:28:26.440 --> 01:28:28.600
that you're gonna walk into this healing

1481
01:28:28.600 --> 01:28:30.520
with grace and ease.

1482
01:28:30.520 --> 01:28:31.840
That it's not gonna feel,

1483
01:28:31.840 --> 01:28:36.440
life isn't gonna feel hard all the time anymore.

1484
01:28:37.440 --> 01:28:38.380
That's the word for someone.

1485
01:28:38.380 --> 01:28:40.160
I hope that blesses whoever that's for.

1486
01:28:40.160 --> 01:28:41.600
I think it's for multiple people.

1487
01:28:41.600 --> 01:28:43.560
And hey, if y'all don't know this,

1488
01:28:43.560 --> 01:28:44.400
you'll learn it

1489
01:28:44.400 --> 01:28:46.080
when you come to our prophetic ministry nights,

1490
01:28:46.080 --> 01:28:47.420
if you come.

1491
01:28:47.420 --> 01:28:50.320
Did you know that when there's a word released prophetically

1492
01:28:50.320 --> 01:28:52.880
that if you resonate with that,

1493
01:28:52.880 --> 01:28:55.080
you can reach up and grab that sucker.

1494
01:28:56.200 --> 01:28:59.160
Yes, yes.

1495
01:28:59.160 --> 01:29:00.220
I take words all the time.

1496
01:29:00.220 --> 01:29:01.240
I'm like, thank you, Jesus.

1497
01:29:01.240 --> 01:29:02.960
That was so good.

1498
01:29:02.960 --> 01:29:04.380
Not that I'm taking it from someone else.

1499
01:29:04.380 --> 01:29:05.220
Guess what you all,

1500
01:29:05.220 --> 01:29:08.120
there's an abundance of availability.

1501
01:29:08.120 --> 01:29:10.200
And if God gives it to me,

1502
01:29:10.200 --> 01:29:12.700
it doesn't mean you don't get it.

1503
01:29:12.700 --> 01:29:14.780
If we have scarcity mentality,

1504
01:29:14.780 --> 01:29:16.200
here's another thing.

1505
01:29:16.200 --> 01:29:17.700
Guess where that's rooted in y'all?

1506
01:29:17.700 --> 01:29:19.380
Orphan mindsets.

1507
01:29:19.380 --> 01:29:23.060
Ooh, limiting belief systems.

1508
01:29:23.060 --> 01:29:24.320
Didn't mean to bring that up

1509
01:29:24.320 --> 01:29:26.220
right before we log off tonight,

1510
01:29:27.160 --> 01:29:28.260
but there it is.

1511
01:29:30.380 --> 01:29:31.900
Y'all, I have so much fun.

1512
01:29:31.900 --> 01:29:32.940
I do.

1513
01:29:32.940 --> 01:29:34.020
I love it.

1514
01:29:34.020 --> 01:29:36.100
God knows what you need,

1515
01:29:36.100 --> 01:29:37.100
when you need it,

1516
01:29:37.100 --> 01:29:38.560
and he knows how to get it to you.

1517
01:29:38.560 --> 01:29:41.040
Some of you all are still really struggling

1518
01:29:41.040 --> 01:29:44.920
with orphan mentalities and scarcity mindsets.

1519
01:29:45.880 --> 01:29:46.720
Ooh.

1520
01:29:49.080 --> 01:29:50.600
Yeah, Jesus.

1521
01:29:50.600 --> 01:29:51.960
Guess what?

1522
01:29:51.960 --> 01:29:53.560
Here's the reality.

1523
01:29:53.560 --> 01:29:54.720
The kingdom,

1524
01:29:55.680 --> 01:29:57.760
God has a banquet table.

1525
01:29:59.640 --> 01:30:00.460
And y'all.

1526
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:01.400
All are invited.

1527
01:30:04.760 --> 01:30:06.040
You're all invited.

1528
01:30:06.040 --> 01:30:07.640
We're all invited.

1529
01:30:09.900 --> 01:30:12.400
Everything that you need,

1530
01:30:12.400 --> 01:30:13.760
I'm not saying everything you want.

1531
01:30:13.760 --> 01:30:16.920
You all, I wanted to marry the girl's dad.

1532
01:30:18.480 --> 01:30:21.480
Praise Jesus, God did not allow that

1533
01:30:21.480 --> 01:30:23.600
because he loved me enough

1534
01:30:23.600 --> 01:30:27.640
to know that I literally would have ruined my life again

1535
01:30:27.640 --> 01:30:29.360
and probably worse than the first time

1536
01:30:29.360 --> 01:30:31.640
when I married my prior husband.

1537
01:30:33.600 --> 01:30:34.480
Because God loves us,

1538
01:30:34.480 --> 01:30:38.960
sometimes he doesn't answer our prayers,

1539
01:30:38.960 --> 01:30:41.720
even when we beg and plead for it.

1540
01:30:42.960 --> 01:30:44.680
So I'm not saying from that perspective,

1541
01:30:44.680 --> 01:30:48.360
but what I want you to know is all the healing that you need

1542
01:30:49.480 --> 01:30:52.920
is available to you, all of it.

1543
01:30:54.760 --> 01:30:58.640
Yeah, God's not holding back healing

1544
01:30:58.720 --> 01:31:00.880
because you're not good enough.

1545
01:31:00.880 --> 01:31:02.760
So I don't know who's believing that,

1546
01:31:02.760 --> 01:31:05.560
but again, I'm just releasing what I'm hearing.

1547
01:31:05.560 --> 01:31:09.600
Some of you actually believe you're too far gone

1548
01:31:09.600 --> 01:31:12.440
and that you've messed up too many times

1549
01:31:12.440 --> 01:31:14.720
or that you're undeserving.

1550
01:31:14.720 --> 01:31:17.240
And he says, no, that is not true.

1551
01:31:20.560 --> 01:31:24.840
You're all welcome to come and sit at the table.

1552
01:31:24.840 --> 01:31:27.920
He's coming with the first aid kit for everyone.

1553
01:31:29.560 --> 01:31:32.080
So I'm willing to linger for a few minutes

1554
01:31:32.080 --> 01:31:34.840
because this is something people needed.

1555
01:31:36.960 --> 01:31:39.320
So I don't know, again, who it's for,

1556
01:31:39.320 --> 01:31:41.720
but I trust the Holy Spirit.

1557
01:31:41.720 --> 01:31:44.440
He knows what he's doing better than I do.

1558
01:31:44.440 --> 01:31:48.600
Your activation this week, you all, is two things.

1559
01:31:48.600 --> 01:31:50.240
I only gave one this afternoon,

1560
01:31:50.240 --> 01:31:53.080
but I feel like we need to do the mirror one again.

1561
01:31:53.080 --> 01:31:56.280
Even if you did it a couple of weeks ago when I issued it,

1562
01:31:56.320 --> 01:31:59.040
I want to encourage you to stand in front of the mirror

1563
01:31:59.040 --> 01:32:02.360
and pay attention to what you're thinking.

1564
01:32:04.080 --> 01:32:07.800
I want you to start thanking your body.

1565
01:32:09.560 --> 01:32:11.880
Here, I'm going to be real real and transparent again.

1566
01:32:11.880 --> 01:32:14.320
My brothers who sexually abused me

1567
01:32:14.320 --> 01:32:17.160
used to make fun of my boobs because I didn't have any,

1568
01:32:17.160 --> 01:32:18.440
is what they told me.

1569
01:32:18.440 --> 01:32:21.840
And then my mom would buy me bras and underwear

1570
01:32:21.840 --> 01:32:24.280
and force me to open them in front of them

1571
01:32:24.400 --> 01:32:25.240
when I was younger.

1572
01:32:25.240 --> 01:32:27.120
She didn't know at the time what happened,

1573
01:32:27.120 --> 01:32:30.120
but still, why would you make your teenage kid,

1574
01:32:30.120 --> 01:32:32.680
I love my mom, I do, you all,

1575
01:32:32.680 --> 01:32:35.600
but some of the stuff that happened, crazy.

1576
01:32:37.000 --> 01:32:38.320
Why am I bringing that up right now?

1577
01:32:38.320 --> 01:32:41.520
Well, because y'all, my whole life,

1578
01:32:41.520 --> 01:32:45.800
I just wanted big boobs and I was never happy with myself.

1579
01:32:46.840 --> 01:32:49.720
And some of y'all have, you're more busty.

1580
01:32:49.720 --> 01:32:52.080
My spiritual daughter, the younger of the three,

1581
01:32:52.600 --> 01:32:55.200
she's more busty and she doesn't like that either.

1582
01:32:55.200 --> 01:32:56.680
And it's a crazy, it's like, no,

1583
01:32:56.680 --> 01:32:59.440
but can we just all agree this week

1584
01:32:59.440 --> 01:33:02.720
that we're going to start to be happy with what God gave us

1585
01:33:04.120 --> 01:33:06.480
and know that he didn't make a mistake with you?

1586
01:33:08.440 --> 01:33:11.200
And if you don't feel that yet, that's all right.

1587
01:33:11.200 --> 01:33:13.520
God will help you get there in your own time.

1588
01:33:13.520 --> 01:33:16.080
But let's start with thanking him for,

1589
01:33:16.080 --> 01:33:17.760
yep, I'm going to encourage you to thank him

1590
01:33:17.760 --> 01:33:19.840
for the body parts you have.

1591
01:33:19.840 --> 01:33:20.680
I'm going to encourage you to thank him

1592
01:33:20.680 --> 01:33:24.600
for the body parts you don't like, specifically.

1593
01:33:27.800 --> 01:33:30.400
So if you don't like your nose, God, thank you for my nose.

1594
01:33:30.400 --> 01:33:32.040
Thank you for the way that you made my nose.

1595
01:33:32.040 --> 01:33:35.040
If you don't like your eyes, whatever it is, y'all.

1596
01:33:35.040 --> 01:33:36.760
I talked about a couple of different examples.

1597
01:33:36.760 --> 01:33:40.040
You can go with whatever's going on with you,

1598
01:33:40.040 --> 01:33:41.640
but thank him for the parts

1599
01:33:41.640 --> 01:33:45.520
that you don't like about yourself.

1600
01:33:46.640 --> 01:33:49.600
And some of y'all might be like, I love myself.

1601
01:33:50.360 --> 01:33:51.760
Praise the Lord if that is you.

1602
01:33:51.760 --> 01:33:52.880
I love you.

1603
01:33:52.880 --> 01:33:54.400
I wish I was there.

1604
01:33:54.400 --> 01:33:56.960
I'm not, I'm still in process.

1605
01:33:56.960 --> 01:33:59.640
But genuinely, if some of you all, that's not you,

1606
01:33:59.640 --> 01:34:03.200
you can just thank him for whatever you feel led to do.

1607
01:34:03.200 --> 01:34:05.400
Here's activation number two.

1608
01:34:05.400 --> 01:34:08.080
I want to encourage you to do a root drawing.

1609
01:34:08.080 --> 01:34:09.320
And what I mean by that is,

1610
01:34:09.320 --> 01:34:11.560
y'all don't have to be artists, okay?

1611
01:34:11.560 --> 01:34:13.480
But you're just going to draw like a tree trunk

1612
01:34:13.480 --> 01:34:17.120
with some roots and you're going to label your roots.

1613
01:34:17.120 --> 01:34:18.360
And here's what I want you to do.

1614
01:34:18.360 --> 01:34:22.080
I want you to label roots that are not healthy right now,

1615
01:34:22.080 --> 01:34:24.760
that God revealed to you tonight or this week.

1616
01:34:26.080 --> 01:34:30.200
I want you to label ones that maybe he started revealing

1617
01:34:30.200 --> 01:34:32.760
a few weeks ago or this last week or whatever,

1618
01:34:32.760 --> 01:34:35.000
and you're already starting to heal

1619
01:34:35.000 --> 01:34:39.320
and that's starting to be transformed into healthier.

1620
01:34:39.320 --> 01:34:41.120
And then I want you to label the good roots.

1621
01:34:41.120 --> 01:34:44.800
So areas where you already are healed,

1622
01:34:44.840 --> 01:34:49.120
that those areas are producing good fruit, okay?

1623
01:34:49.120 --> 01:34:51.480
And I want you just to be able to look at this stuff.

1624
01:34:51.480 --> 01:34:54.480
And again, even the roots that are unhealthy,

1625
01:34:54.480 --> 01:34:56.240
remember, you don't have to stay there.

1626
01:34:56.240 --> 01:34:59.760
We're becoming something new every day, right?

1627
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:05.120
That's what I started with tonight. All right, you all let me pray us out. I know it's a lot

1628
01:35:06.000 --> 01:35:12.560
confession and repentance week and identity isn't easy you all, but we made it and we're going to

1629
01:35:12.560 --> 01:35:18.320
continue to heal and grow and be set free in mighty, mighty ways. Please show up in the group.

1630
01:35:18.320 --> 01:35:22.000
If y'all haven't noticed, people are sharing more in the group and it's been really powerful.

1631
01:35:22.560 --> 01:35:27.360
Keep showing up, cheer each other on, engage with each other. Y'all, there are some kinks in the

1632
01:35:27.360 --> 01:35:33.360
app. Okay. I'm just going to own it. We're working on it. If you have trouble seeing post, just know

1633
01:35:33.360 --> 01:35:37.040
we're in contact with our app developer. We're trying to figure out what's going on there,

1634
01:35:37.040 --> 01:35:42.880
but just pray, pray for our technology. We're trying to bring a solution and we've hit some

1635
01:35:42.880 --> 01:35:51.440
technology bumps. So we need prayer for that. All right. Let me pray. Oh, that's all right. Y'all,

1636
01:35:51.440 --> 01:35:56.400
that would be wonderful. I'll always receive prayer, but y'all can pray for me and our team

1637
01:35:56.400 --> 01:36:02.640
throughout the week. We love, we love when our team and our people pray. This is about the,

1638
01:36:02.640 --> 01:36:06.960
this movement's about ownership. Y'all can take ownership and become a part of a movement,

1639
01:36:07.920 --> 01:36:11.520
not just be here for a moment in a season in your life. That's up to you. And some people

1640
01:36:11.520 --> 01:36:15.840
come and go, and that's totally fine too. All right. Let me pray for us. Father. Thank you.

1641
01:36:17.360 --> 01:36:24.320
Yeah. Lord, thank you for healing. Thank you for grace. Thank you for truth revealed tonight. We

1642
01:36:24.320 --> 01:36:28.400
thank you that you're going to take everything that's in darkness and bring it to light and do

1643
01:36:28.400 --> 01:36:34.640
season so that we can be set free and delivered by the power of the Holy spirit. We thank you,

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Lord, that you're going to bring joy unspeakable and full of glory into our lives. That that's not

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just something we hear about, but God in a deep and abiding love, a deep and abiding joy that

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would just literally begin to percolate up out of us and kind of come out like a river of living

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water. We thank you, God, that you'll help us to continue to just confess and repent for areas

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where we have sinned, where we have fallen short of your glory, Lord, and that we would come out

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of alignment with those sin patterns or negative thinking and all the things that don't align with

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your heart for us. Help us Jesus to apply the blood to every area that we would. Yeah. Forgive

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ourselves, forgive others, and choose to receive the fullness of your love a little bit more this

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week in Jesus name. Amen. God bless you all. We love you and we look forward to seeing you in

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the group. Have a great week, everyone. Bye. Thank you. Bye-bye.