Hello, welcome. Welcome, welcome. Joining us tonight for heart check in 8pm so glad
to be here. If you're joining us for the first time, would love for you to let me know in
the chat that you're here joining for your first live session. So you could have even
been in the heart work for a few weeks. But maybe this is your first live session that
you're joining. If that's you definitely let me know in the chat. Welcome back to those
of you that have been with us before. It's so good to see all of you again and just so
grateful even our afternoon session and just I feel like I have such a blessed opportunity
to get to know so many of you and to get to be just to see a small glimpse of your healing
journey. It's incredible privilege from my perspective. And y'all just as I start to
kick tonight off, couple housekeeping things as we welcome first time Liz, welcome. Stephanie
first live session. Welcome. Who else has joined us for the first time? Anyone else?
Hi, ladies. All right. Okay, so Bernice, do you go by Nisi? Is that what you're saying
to us? I think that's what you're saying. I like it. Yes, thank you. Yeah, I'll put
you back on. It's okay. Welcome for your first time. And I saw you on prayer this morning
and I loved what you had to share by the way. So glad to see you jumping in and just being
bold to share what God was speaking to you. As we start tonight. Again, if you're joining,
you're just logging in. If you're joining us for the first time, be sure to let me know
in the chat. Want to just welcome you and shout out to you. Replays Supernatural Saturday.
And we also have this last week, last night we did prophetic ministry night. So once a
month we do our best. We being the prayer team, Jackie, myself, and anyone else that's
able to join us that we have designated to do a prophetic ministry night. And we really
lean into like, what is God saying to us for the community? And so we did that last night
and that replay is there for you. I really believe that that will be a time of healing
for you all. If you're able just to like, you know, even just let yourself receive and
soak in it. And you can always go back and relisten and take notes, but it'll be such
a blessing. I think it'll really lift your spirits in a time when you're working and
processing so many things. All right, so those are under the replays tab for you. Y'all one
of the things I've noticed recently is in the app in the phone app. Sometimes we have
a couple of bugs and glitches. So even myself, when I clicked on the replays tab today, the
new replays weren't showing there, but I knew they were there. And so I clicked on a different
tab and then went back and they were there. So it was kind of like a refresh. So be sure
to do that. Just kind of, you know, click around on other tabs and then go back to make
sure you're seeing all the replays that are available to you. Best practice one week of
content per week, ladies. Okay. I know some of you want to go like really fast because
you feel like you're all healed up already when you come in here, but I want to encourage
you to really honor the guidelines that we've set. We've been doing this for a long time
and we really see what works and what's the most effective for everyone. And so if you
do kind of email us in email in, excuse me, and say that you're ready to move forward
and you've only been here two, three, even four weeks, we're going to encourage you
to spend that extra however many weeks applies to you in the heartwork. So we might encourage
you to go back and rewatch videos, whatever. If you guys, if you all get done, here's my
recommendation to you. If you're watching and content and reading your book, you want
to really stick with what are the videos and what are the reading and what are the journal
questions for each week. We've built them that way because it's progressive. It's supposed
to guide you as you go. And I know some people get super excited and they read all the way
through the book and then they don't watch the videos in correlation with it. Is it going
to still work? Yeah. But I, I believe we believe you're going to get more revelation if you
do kind of the way we've paired it together. Um, but if you finish content early, I want
to encourage you to go back and rewatch the videos for that week. Reread the book, visit
your journaling and really let God like give yourself space to, um, unpack with the Lord
what you've been hearing. Sometimes we're moving so fast, especially in this world and
society that we don't even have time to really process myself included y'all. Sometimes I'm
so busy coaching everybody else and helping everybody else. I, uh, sometimes forget to
pause and.
Take care of me. All right, so I want to encourage you don't don't lean into that lean into taking good care of yourself and
Receive everything that God has for you while you're here
We do put up a roll call post on every Sunday what that is. Basically, it's our weekly check-in
It's not mandatory, but we want you to know that's there for you to let us know. How are you doing?
What are your wins? What week are you on so that we can track with you? No matter what week you are on
Amy W. Hi, welcome back
Thank you for putting in the chat and letting us see you and know you if you all are joining for the first time
If you haven't heard me say this, I would love for you to come on screen
If you can we understand that not everybody can if you're at work
You don't have to if you're driving we get it
But if you're able want to encourage you to come on screen, here's why
You all in so many parts of our lives. We go into hiding and we don't even realize it
We don't show up as fully in the world because something has happened and it's caused us to shrink back. I
Told a story this morning. I'm in Kentucky visiting family for the holidays
We're about to head to Indiana, but I got to see my spiritual daughters
Super excited about that and my one the older of the two
She got to the restaurant a little bit before us the other day and I was like, hey
Can you go in and put our name in I thought we were gonna be there before you
The short of it is she said yes to me in the text
But then when we got there, she was afraid to go in by herself, which she's 21
So I was kind of like really you're afraid and then we went to this little coffee shop and I was walking in with her
I just was like right behind her and she said I'm kind of scared to go in here
and so I'm saying this to you as an example because
She's had so much trauma with her parents her biological parents and some of her own choices in life
That she is really becoming afraid of all kinds of things
And so what that causes is she often doesn't leave the house except for to go to work
She's 21. And so imagine any of us no matter how old we are
That sometimes the enemy really tries to push us into isolation, doesn't he?
Do you know that oftentimes the enemy will try to do that because that's where he can in his mind take us out
If we're in isolation, so community is good show up be in community y'all make the most of this five weeks
Show up post in the group. Let us know you let us see who you are
Let us hear from you even you know, here's here's the thing. Sometimes y'all as a coach. I'm gonna ask you hard questions
Okay, and I just want to encourage you
If you feel like I'm asking a really hard question
I want to encourage you to ask the Lord why you feel like it's hard
It doesn't mean that I'm you know, I never make mistakes or anything like that
But I want you to know genuinely from my heart
I know that y'all don't know me that well yet, but I have the best of intentions in my heart towards all of you
My number one goal is for you to get breakthrough and healing
sincerely and
Sometimes I'm gonna ask questions that might feel hard
And but really be sure that you're asking the Lord what lens am I hearing this through?
What lens am I reading this through?
Especially if the enemy is trying to cause you to feel offended
Okay, and that could be with me another woman in the community that comments on you
That could be later on in your life the guy that's on the dating apps when you're encountering, you know
Even myself I have to really keep short accounts
If I gave in to the enemy, I would probably be offended like daily
Y'all if I'm just being honest life is hard this world is hard, you know, there's a lot of angry people
And so I just want you to know you're not alone if that happens to you and we love you. I love you
I know you don't maybe fully know or believe that yet, but genuinely
That is my heart. And that is why I'm here
I'm one of the heart we're coaches in this community if you've never met me
I've been here doing this for almost four years now
Well, I joined the program four years ago
but I've been coaching with this community for about three and a half years and I'm continuing to learn as I go and
We'll always seek the Lord about how can I convey your heart in a healthier way in a more holistic way where they can?
Hear what your spirit is saying. So even before I jump on here with you all on Monday nights or Monday afternoon
I'm like Lord, I can't do this without you
You know them better than I do like help me to know what to say tonight that they need to hear and so I do
My best to lean into that on that note. I'm gonna pray and we're gonna start to unpack the material for tonight father. Thank you
Thank you for your grace
Thank you for your goodness. Thank you for man. You're a love that covers a multitude of sins
Thank you for your forgiveness
Thank you Lord that we can repent that we can confess and turn and go in different directions
and in a healthy direction,
we can turn away from every weight
that so easily ensnares us
and we can press on toward the high calling of God
for our lives.
I thank you for a greater revelation, greater healing,
greater truth being revealed in us and through us tonight,
that you bring anything in darkness to the light
so that there can be revealings for healing happening.
Lord, I'm asking for physical healing tonight.
I'm asking for emotional healing night tonight,
for breakthroughs, for mental breakthroughs in healing.
Lord, I thank you even for fragmentation
from trauma being healed,
that bodies and minds and spirits and souls
would be restored to complete wholeness,
lacking no good thing.
I know that God, you're more than able
to do exceedingly abundantly above all
that we could ever ask or think, hope or imagine.
Yes, Lord.
Where our hope has been crushed down
and it feels like it's just barely a flame flickering,
God, I ask you to breathe,
breathe hope into our hearts and our minds and our spirits.
Help us to receive everything you have for us
in Jesus name, amen.
That was a word for someone.
So if you came in feeling like your hope
is nothing but a flicker,
God wants you to know he's about to light that flame.
He's about to light that flame afresh
and that's not something that,
if you feel scared by that,
I want you to know it's a loving thing, okay?
It's a loving thing.
He knows that you are in need of him
and he wants you to know that he's there
and he's available to you, okay?
All right, we're gonna talk about
broken promises first tonight.
And we're gonna talk in particular
about things that we go through
where we experience brokenness
and people that break promises
and how that impacts the way we view the Lord
and that we believe that he breaks promises too oftentimes
because that is what our experience in the world has been.
And so I'm gonna just mention briefly the story of Candice.
You all will hear this in the material yourself
if you haven't already heard it.
Jackie talks about the story about Candice.
Jackie did not know Candice, but God knew Candice
and God started talking to Jackie about Candice.
Candice is coming, she's gonna be there
and she needs healing.
That's what God was speaking to Jackie about.
And so the reason I bring this up tonight
is I want you to just be reminded as we start tonight off
that God knows what you need,
God knows where you are
and he knows how to get what you need to you.
Okay, God knows what you need,
he knows where you are
and he knows how to get you what you need in this season.
So no matter what the enemy has said to you,
God has not abandoned you, he has not forsaken you,
he will not leave you alone on your journey.
Even through this journey of hard work you all,
I see Liz is saying that her hope's been attacked.
No matter what's going on you all,
God's not gonna leave you in the middle of this battle,
of this journey, of the hard work process
or even in the dating process
or the beyond dating and marriage process.
You all have been married for a little over two years,
we need God all the time, we need that reminder.
I have a great marriage, I'm so blessed,
but y'all they're still stretching and growing.
I have moved three, I said I was never gonna move y'all
and I've moved three times.
I said I wasn't gonna move for my spirit mate
cause I wanted God to bring him right to me
and God had other plans.
And I'm so grateful that God has stretched me and grown me
and that we are where we are at right now as a couple.
So I wanna encourage you,
the supernatural surrender is real.
As you learn that in the hard work,
I hope that you'll continue to utilize that tool as you go,
your whole journey, that we can daily choose to surrender
to the Holy Spirit, to what he's doing in our lives,
to the Lord and to the goodness of the Father.
So tonight I'm asking the Lord to reveal
to each one of you right now,
any areas that you are currently struggling to believe
that God cares about your needs as well as your wants.
Y'all needs and wants.
He cares about both.
Now, one thing that I need to mention here
that's super important is while he cares about the wants,
if something that we're asking for is not good for us
because he loves us, he is going to do his best
to protect us from it.
Now, if we continue to go forward and choose it,
we are going to experience,
we were talking about this this afternoon,
we're gonna experience consequences because we do that,
but it's not because God left us.
It's not because God's punishing us.
The reality is, is there is a consequence
to every decision.
You know that we make that is just kind of that law of I don't know if it's not law of attraction
But that's what keeps coming to my brain, but you know that law that happens when we choose something happens
It's that reciprocal thing. So we want God to reveal to us tonight that he is good
So even right now I didn't do this this afternoon
But I just feel like to do this if you have pen or paper, even if you're just with your phone
Whatever wherever you can take notes
Just ask God to reveal whatever your situation that's really weighing on you right now
We've asked God to reveal to you how he is good in that situation
God can you just reveal to me like if I was praying right now God
Can you just reveal to me all the ways that you're good to me in the midst of my spiritual daughters like choosing?
pathways of unrighteousness and brokenness
God in the midst of seeing them struggle, you know, like we make it real ladies
Okay, so whatever your situation is, that's one of mine right now. My spiritual daughters are really struggling
it's so hard to see them making the choices that they're making and it's hurting them and
Their parents are their biological parents are making choices that are hurting them
But I trust that God is good and I trust that what he did for me that he'll do for them and I need to
See his goodness in that situation
Daily does that make sense everyone?
Okay, so as we keep going
Not only that he's good here. We're gonna add on to this
But that he will come through for you
So God, how are you gonna come through for me in this situation?
I was talking to Jackie this this afternoon after I did the live session and we were chatting as a team about
I don't know how long ago it was, but we did this whole session on
You know when when we speak the Word of God out of our mouths lady out ladies out loud
Angels come and work in those
Declarations and that truth that we release. I don't know if you know that but it is true. The Bible talks about it
So if we are constantly
Aligning with the truth and partnering with it and our faith and our hearts are healed and and we are in complete alignment
Literally the angels come and they minister in those situations
So I can't always see it, but that doesn't make it not true. Does that make sense?
All right
So if you need I know some of y'all need protection some of you need defended some of you need healing
There's all kinds of things going on in your life
And I just want to encourage you that you can pray and believe for God to dispatch angels to war on your behalf in your
Situation. All right
All right as we keep moving forward letdowns trauma and unhealed wounds from the past
Cause us to view God in other people
If you remember through filters and false lenses
So even earlier when I was kind of sharing
Some of the ways that we hear people and things through filters is
You all if we get offended a lot, that's a signal
If we get angry a lot angers hurts bodyguard
Something's trying to be sick. The Lord's trying to reveal something to us in those situations. It's not always
Yeah, sometimes people are just not nice. Okay, let's just be real but even in that
This is just my heart. You guys don't have to choose to live this way, but this is just my heart
Lord, I want to go higher. I want to learn from this even if it wasn't my fault
Like what do you want me to learn from it? What do you want me to?
You know convey your heart to other people through it and how can I become more like you
Those are my goals. And so I always want to like shed the filter shed the lenses
So in a good example is Paul
If you all remember he was Saul and he was persecuting Christians. He was killing them
But he thought he was doing good
Because that's what he was taught
Because that's what he was taught and then he had this divine encounter with the Lord and
Then what happened scales came on his eyes, right?
And he had this divine encounter with the Lord during that time
And then when that time was over the scales fell off from his eyes and he saw completely
differently
and I
Imagine that in this time of heartwork
It's kind of like y'all are in this really big cocoon of time with Jesus and he's coming in and he's gonna give you a
New mindset. He's gonna give you a new heart
he's gonna give you new perspectives if you will choose to partner with that and let go of all the things that all the even
Religious ideas that you've come in the door door with mindsets heart postures even like myself
I said when I came into this program, I had done a ton of counseling y'all
I've served on churches on multiple
different staff positions. I've had good jobs. I didn't come in
prideful, but I did really think like, you know, I know this will
be a blessing to me. I know I need to be set free. But I
didn't really know how much I was gonna get. And then it
started happening. One thing after another is like light
bulbs were going off. I felt like God was converging
questions I had had for years that nobody else could answer.
All of a sudden, we're getting answered and things were being
addressed that a lot of a lot of different churches wouldn't
even touch with a 10 foot pole. And God was speaking to my heart
and he was setting me free from the yoke of bondage. I also
randomly this might seem like a rabbit trail, but I just it came
up in my mind. Even if you've never been divorced, ladies, I
really don't I encourage you to watch the divorce and
remarriage video. Okay, super important. Here's why. You
probably know someone that's been divorced or gone through
divorce or may go through divorce. And some of you all are
going to meet a spirit mate who's been divorced. So please
don't skip over that just because you haven't been
divorced or gone through that. Lean into that. And that came up
in my spirit. Because when I went through divorce, there were a
lot of things that happened there in the church. And a lot
of brokenness and things that were conveyed that were very
religious. I loved those people. But they were operating out of
their, their lack of knowledge of what to do with me. Does that
make sense? So sometimes people don't mean to hurt us, but
because of where they're at, they do it by the things that
they say. So we forgive them. But we also let God help us heal
and grow through those things. All right, numbers 2319 says
this, and this is the message version. God is not a man one
given to lies and not a son of man changing his mind. Does he
speak and not do what he says? Does he promise and not come
through? Does he promise and not come through? Y'all God is was
a man he came in the form of a man in that sense, but he was
also God. And so we we tend to think of God the same way we
think of our brother or our former ex husband or our mother
or you know, in the flesh. God, Jesus came in the flesh, but he
was still fully God. Okay, so he's never going to be exactly
like man. Y'all understand that? So what that means is he cannot
lie. Because he's not a liar. He's not he's not the one that's
going to do those things. But the people on the earth, the
fleshly ones us, we do our best to walk in the wholeness and the
healing that has been given to us, but we fall short. We fall
short. Yeah, so I see some people are asking that video is
in the app. If you guys log into the app as you continue to go
through your training on the training tab, not your training
the curriculum under the training tab. It is in one of
the later weeks. So you'll get there. Okay, so don't feel like
you have to skip ahead. Again, that's kind of put in there at
a good place because some of y'all need to come out of some
heart stuff before you listen to that video. Okay. But good
questions. I will be looking forward to hearing some of your
insights and takeaways from that. I'm going to read a couple
lyrics from this song called Sparrows by Corey Asbury. Has
anybody ever heard it before? Yeah. So God kind of talked to
me one day and he was just kind of like slow down and really
listen to the words of this song. And you all when God gave
me this, I've been coaching this curriculum for quite some time.
And just in June was when God really started speaking to me
through this song. And it came through a time where my husband
and I were in a former denomination and we were going
through a lot of persecution there. And it was before like we
moved to Florida where we're at now we're in an entirely
different church and denomination. And it was just a
really hard season was really hard season. And because of some
of the things we were going through, they were kind of
threatening to like we live in a parsonage. So like, our home is
because of my husband's job, and they were threatening, like
they were going to make us move out. And it was just a really
scary time. Because like, like, all my stuff was there, you
know, my life, I'm like, how am I going to pack my house in a
week, you know, all these fears try to surface when we go
through stuff, right. But here's what God, God reminded me that I
didn't have to worry about tomorrow. And here's what the
song says. And this is what I want to give to all of you
tonight, no matter what you're going through, that God's got
you, he loves you, he cares about you. And he's got you like
right in the palm of his hand. This is what it says. The
sparrows not worried about tomorrow, or the troubles to
come the lilies not thinking about the seasons, the drought
or the flood, a tree that's planted by the water isn't
fading.
by the fire. So why should I be? Because you take good care of me. He's talking about God here. You
take good care of me. You know what I need before I even ask a thing. And you hold me in your hands
with a kindness that never ends. I'm carried in your love no matter what the future brings. Yeah,
you take good care of me. The sun's not worried about the winter because soon it will pass. The
light's not thinking about the darkness or the shadow that it casts. A heart that's planted in
forgiveness doesn't dwell in the past. So why should I be? Because you take good care of me.
You take good care of me. You know what I need before I even ask a thing. And you hold me in
your hands with a kindness that never ends. I'm carried in your love no matter what the future
brings. Yeah, you take good care of me. I love that whole, all those lyrics. But y'all, I don't,
for whatever reason, every time I say that a heart that's planted in forgiveness doesn't dwell in the
past. So why should I be? All of it blesses me, but that part always, man, it gets, it's just,
it's so rich. I encourage you all to listen to that song this week. Let that really soak in that God,
guess what? He cares about us more than even the sparrow. And God says that he will provide for the
sparrow, right? He'll clothe them. He'll provide for them. So why should we fear or be afraid?
Why is this time different? I get that question all the time in this course, in this curriculum,
in the heart work journey. Why is this time any different? A lot of people struggle with that.
And basically, I just want to tell you, this time is different because you are different. You, you,
Laura, you, Anna, you, Sarah, you, Nellie, you, Bernice, Niecy, you, Crystal, all of you. I could
say every single one of your names. You are different now. You're different than the day
you came in the door of this heart work. Every day you are becoming somebody new. You're being
made. If you're allowing the healing to happen, if you're allowing God to minister to your heart,
mind, spirit, body, and soul, every single day, you are becoming a new creation in Christ Jesus.
So yesterday is gone. And today is a brand new day. Tomorrow is a brand new day that,
and then the next, and then the next. You all, every day we have a fresh start, don't we?
Yeah, we do. So let's reach out and grab that fresh start. Lord, what do you want me to do today?
Lord, how do you want me to hear your spirit today? What do I, where do I need to be set free
today? We don't have to worry about tomorrow because again, tomorrow will worry about its
own things. And I know that can feel so hard, right? When, when all of the world, it seems like
it's crashing in just like that situation I told you as that was happening and the things were
falling, it looked like they were falling apart and we were just being attacked left and right.
The enemy was using people that should have been a blessing to us to harm us.
But I know that my God is a good father. And so all I knew to do was to keep praying,
to keep praying, to keep praying. And then, you know what God did? He used some other people
that were in one of these churches to stand up for us and stand up to that denomination. And
they said no. And they ended up hiring my son, my son, they ended up hiring my husband as an
actual employee instead of the way the denomination had it set up so that they could still pay him.
And then they were allowed to let us stay in that house. Y'all tell me that God can't come in a
situation and turn it around and do whatever he wants to do to look out for his kids. Am I saying
it's always going to work out that way? No, but I knew that he kept saying, just trust me in this,
just trust me in this. It was scary. I felt fear, but every day I had to put my fear and
surrender it all the way down. Because if I fear, then I'm not made perfect in love.
And so if I felt fear, I had to know that God needed to show me more of his love to help me
understand what it felt like to be rooted in his love more and more and more. This time is
different because you are different. You're different. Thank you, Laura. Ecclesiastes 3.1
in the Message Version says this, there's an opportune time to do things, a right time for
everything on the earth. Heart change, ladies, equals life change. Heart change equals life
change. I shared this earlier as well. When I was going through the heart work,
one of the things that I was struggling with a lot, I was single, like a lot of you.
And I was living in an apartment that was, so sorry, ladies.
It was a little more, it felt like a stretch financially and COVID happened not long after
I moved in there and the whole nine yards and I was trying to help my spiritual daughters
and they were struggling.
I was trying to provide and their, their dad didn't have, there's just so many things happening.
And so I'm trying to provide extra for them and really just leaning in and praying.
And Jackie said, one of the things she said that stood out to me the most was that if
you're struggling financially, anywhere that we're stuck, ladies, that means there's something
that needs healing there.
And I just really struggled a lot of my life with finances.
I always, you know, I've taken classes, I've tried, I'm doing way better now, y'all.
I'm so excited.
God's got me on a good path.
I'm learning a lot.
But what needed to happen first, the knowledge was good before it wasn't that getting the
knowledge before was bad, but my heart condition, the way I looked at money, the way I thought
about life needed to change.
My orphan mentalities needed healed.
I had limiting belief systems and mindsets that I needed to be, I needed to be set free
from.
I tell this story a lot.
I kind of felt like this, like orphan.
And it felt like there was a gate.
Like if you can imagine a gate that had bars and it did have a door, but the gate was closed
to me.
That was my perspective.
And I always just felt like I was like stretching through the gates, just begging God to help
me.
That's how I felt on the inside.
And that came from a root of abandonment and neglect as a kid.
I'm letting that sink in.
God never neglected me, but my parents did.
And it caused me to feel like I always had to strive for attention and affection and
help.
Because I needed help as a kid and even as a teenager, when I told my mom for the first
time ever about the abuse and she turned and walked away.
And then the next day was mean to me, y'all, these are real things that happen that cause
us to feel like God is far away and he's out of our reach and he really isn't going to
help us.
And we're just always going to have to strive.
But that isn't true.
And the change came not only in my heart work, but something that I do a process every year.
I do a vision board and God, I had this picture on my board of a door that was like, it wasn't
all the way open.
It was just cracked open.
And all of a sudden, one day I was praying and I kind of did this thing.
I would pray and I would read scripture out loud.
And all of a sudden I looked up in that picture, it was still on the board, but it's like one
of those moments where you just, something jumps off the page at you.
And I just saw it differently.
And God was like, that door's open to you.
My door is open to you.
And he started talking to me about how he is always available to me.
Y'all, he's always available to you.
When that started happening and I started leaning into that truth, guess what started
happening with that picture that I saw of that gate?
Y'all want to guess?
The gate started opening in that visual that I saw where I felt like I was always striving
to get through the gate, but the gate door was closed in the way I looked at it in the
past.
But all of a sudden God started showing me that the gate was always open and I could
walk right in.
But it was my perspective in the past because of my heart wounds that caused me to think
that it was closed and I could not come in.
I did not say this this afternoon, so I feel like God is doing something with this for
some of you.
God doesn't want you to feel like he doesn't care about your problems and that he's not
available for you to come and find respite and rest in his care and his protection.
And some of you haven't experienced that before, but you're going to.
You're going to in the days ahead, God's going to show you in a fresh way how good of a father
he is.
And y'all, he's got the mother heart of God too.
He's both.
So if you need a good mom, maybe you feel like your mom failed you, God wants to heal
that tonight too.
All right, we're going to keep going, but I feel God's doing something there.
So I just want to, I want to follow him.
Real and lasting change is a process.
So we choose to step out of alignment with microwave culture and mentalities.
What do I mean by that?
Everything fast.
We want everything yesterday.
We don't want to wait five minutes, 10 minutes, 15.
We don't want, like I wanted my guy delivered to my door and y'all, that wasn't just because
I was being, you know, selfish or any of that is because I've been through so much pain
and I tried so much to get it right.
And I felt like I kept failing.
And so it just felt easier for God to bring him to my door, but God had other plans.
He wanted me to participate in that process.
And so I believe he'll probably have you all participate in that process too.
It's going to be good.
All right.
So we're going to step out of alignment of everything having to happen fast.
We're going to believe in supernatural transformation, but here's the thing.
We also partner with God in the journey.
So that's why we take imperfect action every day, ladies.
That's where the becoming every day comes into play, right?
So where do you need an upgrade tonight in your understanding of God's care for you?
Where do you personally need an upgrade?
Let's activate you real quick before we go into breakouts.
I know we're at 836.
I better hustle, but let me see.
Where do you need an upgrade in God's care for you tonight?
Go ahead and put whatever comes to mind.
It can be a word.
It can be a sentence, a phrase, whatever comes quickly to you.
As I'm, as you're doing that, I'm going to start to get these breakout rooms ready.
All right, I'm seeing hope.
I'm seeing worth.
Anyone else?
All right.
My mind, God's love, financial, hope and value, trusting him.
Maybe with your son.
Is that what you meant, Niecy?
That God's got it.
Trust, relationships.
Yes.
Hope, value, trust.
Sorry if I'm missing some of y'all.
Trusting in his provision, seeing God as mother and father to me.
All right.
Mind and hope, his timing, physical help, happiness in the process.
That's a good one.
Sometimes we don't have happiness in the process.
Do we?
Relationships, his plan, future.
So many good things here.
Keep putting those up as you feel led.
So here's your question as you go into the breakout session tonight.
When was a time someone broke a promise that they made to you and how is that still affecting
you today?
And if you joined us this afternoon, you can say the same thing you did this afternoon,
or if God is showing you something new tonight, you can share that.
Don't feel like you have to share the same thing from this afternoon.
When was a time someone broke a promise they made to you and how is that still affecting
you today?
All right.
Let me get these going here.
We've got seven minutes, ladies.
Go ahead and click to join.
If you're not able to join the breakout, just let me know in the chat, okay?
Preferably if you can, everybody would love for you to join those.
I'll start to pray here in just a minute.
I just got to get people situated here.
Hey, it looks good, Father.
We just thank you so much.
That's okay, Kelly.
You can stay here.
I'm glad that you're here.
Thank you, Father, for everything that you're doing in our hearts, our minds, our bodies,
our spirits, and our souls.
Thank you, God, for ministering truth and hope in life to us.
God, we thank you that you would just come in and continue to reveal every area for healing.
Oh, Sarah, you didn't get...
There you go.
That should be there for you.
Do you see it pop up?
We thank you that you're revealing all these areas for healing.
God, I thank you that you would even come while they're in these breakout sessions and
help them to sense you as their father, to sense you as their mother.
Tap on the bottom of your screen.
There should be a thing that says more and then breakouts, because that should have popped
right up for you.
Do you see that?
You can unmute yourself if you're able so we can chat.
Oh, awesome, okay, I think she got in there.
All right, Lord, thank you for helping Sarah get connected.
Thanks for helping her get in that room and situated.
Thank you, Lord, for everything that you're doing.
Yeah, she's good to go.
Father, thank you again just for,
yeah, just coming in and restoring every area
where the enemy has come to try to kill, steal, and destroy.
But God, we thank you that you've come to give us life
and give it to us more abundantly.
I thank you, God, that you would just continue
to take blinders and filters and false lenses
off of our minds, our spirits, our hearts, our souls.
We thank you, God, that you would just place
the balm of Gilead upon us in every area,
that you would just bring healing and wholeness
in the depths of every part of our being.
God, we thank you that you would just, yeah.
Lord, remove debris out of the way.
Lord, we thank you that you would just come in
with your kindness and just begin
to lovingly remove debris out of the way.
Ladies, just what I'm seeing my spirit.
I saw this thing on TV last night
where there's, not to be too long,
but I feel like there's something in this
that the Lord wants to give to all of you.
When people in the world, in the US, throw things away,
sometimes they're supposed to get recycled by companies,
but at times they actually get sent to other countries
that are like in poverty.
Those countries get paid to take that stuff,
but they actually oftentimes get sent way more.
Anyways, what was on the screen
was all these clothes floating in the water,
in like ocean and in landfills and everything all over.
I just want to say to you tonight
that I was seeing that kind of like same kind of thing
in the spirit, like there's all this debris
and there's water, and I just sensed the Holy Spirit
and the Father and Jesus Christ just coming
and moving the debris out of the way
and making room for us to receive the goodness
from the Father, to receive the healing power,
and yeah, Lord, anointing oil.
There's a scripture that talks about
just how when the oil was poured over their head
and it would drip down like the beard of Aaron
and even King David, when he was anointed,
he was anointed in front of all of his brothers,
and I just sense the Lord is saying
He wants to honor all of you,
but there's some of you in particular,
you have felt dishonored by your family,
by friends, by other people,
and maybe even in church or work situations,
and God is saying that as you continue to heal
and trust Him and lean into Him,
that He's going to exalt you in due season
and that He has anointed you
to do the work that He set before you.
He's gonna equip you
and He's gonna be with you every step of the way.
So we'll just thank you for that.
We thank you for the word that whoever that's for,
we thank you, God, that you would just heal
and mend and restore and help them to receive,
yes, Lord, the fullness of your promises
and your plans for them,
and that the enemy cannot, yes, Lord,
we thank you for your hedge of protection
around every one of these ladies, around their families,
God, that you would place a hedge of protection around them.
We thank you that you would help them to actively choose
to guard their hearts and minds through Christ Jesus,
that you would help us to give you thanks and praise,
and that you would help us to be a good father
for we are fearfully and wonderfully made
and wonderful are your works towards us
and our soul knows it very well.
I thank you that in 1 John 3, 20, it says,
whenever our hearts make us feel guilty
and remind us of our failures,
we know that God is much greater
and more merciful than our conscience
and He knows everything there is to know about us.
God, I thank you that you see everything about us
and you love us and you choose us anyways.
Jesus, thank you that you chose to go to the cross for us,
that you chose to forgive us
and that you chose to forgive our sins
that we would commit and you still chose us.
And God, I thank you for repentance,
the opportunity that we have to turn our lives around,
to surrender completely to you,
to allow your blood to cleanse us,
to take our sins that are as scarlet, crimson red,
and turn them white as snow,
that they become as far as the East is from the West
and you remember them no more.
Lord, I thank you for the reminder that,
and we can choose to forgive ourselves,
we can choose to release ourselves
from any condemnation, guilt, or shame.
We thank you, God, that you'll help us to walk
into just the wide open spaces that you've set before us.
We thank you that you will wipe away every tear
from our eyes and eliminate death entirely.
No one will mourn or weep any longer.
The pain of wounds will no longer exist.
God, I thank you that the pain of the wounds
that we've experienced in the past
will no longer exist when we get to heaven,
but I believe, God, that we can also experience
that here on earth.
So I thank you, Lord, that you'll help us to...
Yeah, Lord, just come and let's cuddle
a little closer to you, Father.
I believe that you are a truly intimate God, and in your loving-kindness, Lord, you lead us and draw us to repentance,
you draw us to yourself, because you've always wanted us to be a part of a family.
And Jesus, I thank you that you died to make a way for us to be one with you as you are one with the Father,
and then you ascended into heaven so that the Holy Spirit would come to be our comforter, our counselor, and our guide,
that we never walk through life alone.
I thank you, Holy Spirit, for being here tonight, for continuing to help us to hear, yeah, through fresh ears.
I pray that you would help us to see everything through fresh eyes.
Yeah. Thank you, Lord.
Thank you, Lord, where we have in the past even agreed with limitation of what we can accomplish or do, where we can go, what we can receive.
God, I thank you that you'll help us to come out of alignment with those lies, the unbelief,
the limiting belief systems that the enemy has tried to get us to gravitate towards.
Even some of us have been raised in mindsets and households that were very limiting.
And so, Lord, we're trying to break free. We're trying to move forward.
And so, Lord, even as we try to move forward, sometimes we face border bullies.
So, Lord, if we face border bullies, when we're about to cross into the promised—
You're on mute.
Oh, I'm not muted.
Okay. Okay. Lord, if we're trying to cross over into the promised land,
I thank you that you will help us to resist the border bullies and we'll keep going.
In Jesus name. Y'all had a good prayer time.
I just needed to keep going to finish that out, that thought.
Welcome back. So excited to see you.
Oh, look, I see some new faces. Is it LaTia? Is that how you say your name?
Yes. All right. Awesome. I got it. Hi, Sharon.
I'm going to just call you lovely ladies out. I haven't seen some of you.
You've probably been here and you probably had your video on,
but tonight I see you, Katie. I see some new faces. I love it.
Okay, KR3204. I don't know what your name is, but hi.
Sarah. Who else? Naomi. Nellie. Let's see.
I know your name isn't Sprit. It's Tammy. Right?
Yep. All right. Trying to remember some of y'all. Kimberly.
Anyone else I didn't say? Hi, Judy. See Judy in there.
Arianne. Doesn't it feel good to hear your name sometimes?
Ladies. Rambo. Anna. Did I miss people?
Claudia. I hope I didn't miss people. I'm trying.
There's a lot of you on here tonight. That's good. That's a good thing.
All right. So who is willing to share with the whole group?
I turned away from saying who wants to because a lot of times people don't want to.
They're like, no, no. But like if you do it,
if you jump in and go first, typically other people go.
So who is willing to volunteer as tribute tonight?
Anyone? All right. Awesome. I see. I see two hands.
So Amy W. And then Sarah and California go after Amy W.
Okay. Awesome. Yeah.
I just said I could think of like two different situations like someone lying to me
and then it breaks trust and then I'm second-guessing everything they're saying after that.
And then also I remember a friend assuming something about me
and accusing me out of nowhere in front of people and and then never bothered to check that out.
And so then I asked her if she had an issue with me come talk to me privately,
you know, instead of like all of a sudden, you know, unexpectedly in front of people.
She's like, yeah, I know and apologize and then did it again a couple months later.
It's same type of thing and is pretty like distressing.
It just broke trust and you know, I feel like I can't really be around this person, you know,
because yeah, so I think I do have a fear that I'm going to marry someone
who's might come out with something like that and then it breaks trust.
And then what do I do? Yeah, so can I ask you a question?
Yeah after you shared the friend that's has done the accusatory stuff.
Have you been through that with a mom or anyone in authority over you before?
Yes, I think when I was a child I did feel taken out on on occasionally by my mom
and I worked through that I think in my 20s
and today like my mom is one of my best friends like a lover to death,
but.
Yes, I did feel kind of a similar thing, not accusatory, but like taken out on.
And that's how I felt with this friend too, it was like, she's just taking out her woundedness
or something.
Yeah.
Okay.
I was going to ask you, I wanted to make sure I understood what taken out on meant to you,
but that helped me.
Yeah.
So here's the thing, uh, even though you've already worked through healing with your mom
and y'all are good now, which is awesome.
Two things ladies, I always encourage in this community, like we don't have to go all the
way back through that stuff, but sometimes we've got to take a peek under the hood.
Okay.
If the Holy spirit, he may not, but if the Holy spirit brings stuff up where you do find
that there's a connection with this friend situation and similarities to how it was with
mom, even in the past, um, just, just be open to taking a peek under that hood.
Okay.
Um, and, and here's why, uh, typically it doesn't always mean this, but because you've
kind of seen this show up a couple of times, even with different people, um, I'm just wondering
if the door is still slightly open somewhere from past hurt and trauma.
And sometimes it's just that current situation, but, um, what week are you on Amy?
Just so I know.
Uh, week one.
Okay.
So you're not too far in.
So as you go along, there's also going to be a soul ties video.
Hopefully everybody will watch that when they get there, but that also came up, I'm not
sure why, but I feel like there's a soul tie connection there.
Um, and so we'll just leave that to the Lord, but just be in prayer as you're, as you're
processing that.
Um, and, uh, I'm just hearing the Lord say that you're not anyone's punching bagged and
to tell you that.
Okay.
That's not what your role in life is.
And I believe God is going to send you some really great friends, uh, as well in the future.
So just start thanking God for that now, ladies, we partner with what God is doing, what he
is going to do.
And we believe by faith that he's going to send us good people, no matter what we went
through in the past, I can attest to that.
I used to attract all kinds of unhealthy people, men, friends, a lot of takers.
I'm a big giver.
And so I tend to do attract a lot of that, like a freaking magnet.
And I'm like, what's going on?
Why is this happening?
Well, I had to learn how to set healthy boundaries.
And I had to learn that I didn't have to always take everybody's crap on myself, pardon the
way I'm saying that.
That's reality.
And so I had to learn how to love myself and how to start believing for what I wanted to
see God bring into my life.
So I partnered with God.
Thank you that you're going to send me friends that are kind, that are good, that reciprocate
and you know, are healthy for me to be around.
And if there's an area in me that needs healing, that's attracting these accusations because
it's the enemy talking through them, right?
It's people, but it's the enemy using them.
And so, Lord, if there's anything in me that needs healing, show me that so that I can
be free and attract this kind of stuff less.
And sometimes it's just an attack of the enemy period, right?
All right.
Awesome.
Thanks for going first.
That was great.
Thank you so much.
Straight on.
Yeah.
You're welcome.
Sarah in California.
Yeah.
Hey, everybody.
Somebody got the long version in, in our breakout group.
So thank you for your patience listening and I'll try to give you guys the not so long
version, but I feel like a friend broke a promise to me to be in her wedding as, as
one of her bridesmaids.
And that was really hurtful.
That was in June.
And what came into play was something kind of COVID related, which I don't know, but
I'm sure everybody experienced some kind of trauma during that time from 2020 to 2023.
And so her fiance's husband had, I guess his, his dad almost died from COVID or something
like that.
And I had an upper respiratory infection the week before their wedding.
And they said, my, my friend said, you, you have to wear a mask or you have to get COVID
tested to, to be in our wedding.
And I'm like, well, I'm not going to wear a mask because I just don't think they're
effective.
And so, sorry if I'm offending anybody who are pro masks but that's just my feeling on
it.
And I said, I'll take the COVID test.
And it came up positive.
And I had been keeping her abreast about how I was feeling and everything.
And the test, and I just felt like the test on the back even says it's, it's not a reliable
source.
It says often pro often false negative, false positive.
So I was like, I don't feel like the test is really accurate.
And I, you know, I get upper respiratory infections.
I got them, I get them a lot.
And prior to 2020, I got, you know, I always would get them.
So anyways, they're not nothing new to me.
And then 2020 hits and then it just kind of shines us light.
on upper respiratory infections and all of that. Um, and so, and again, I'm not trying to offend
anybody, but this is just my perspective. Um, so my friend basically uninvited me to their wedding
said, Oh, the COVID test came up positive. We don't want you in our wedding. Um, our other good
friends said, um, why don't you maybe take the test the next day in the morning, just to see if
it's still positive. Um, but by that point, um, it was like my brother was my helping with my mom.
And she, you know, so anyways, he's like, I'm out of peace out. I got to go. I'm going back to
San Diego. You have COVID. I don't want to infect the people in my house. Um, so anyways,
there's just like all these doors are just slamming shut and I see you're trying to interject.
Well, I just have a question for you just so I can kind of bring this kind of full circle to
was this June of 2020 that this happened of this year, June of this year. Okay. So here we are.
Yeah. We're still, we're still going back to that, my friends. And I, I probably said the
Cardinal sin to my friend, which was, you know, your family was extreme during COVID.
I was like, your mom was wearing a mask up until the very last day, it felt like 2023.
And then my friend even was still dabbling with masks in 2024. And so I'm like, had I known this
would play a part in your wedding? Like I wouldn't have signed up for it, you know? So anyways,
there's just a bunch of, so just all this trauma came back to me when they were doing that, all of
this post, like the PTSD, you know, all that stuff, all those feelings, all those frustrations. And I
felt bad because I took it out on my brother too. And just, you know, I was just frustrated doors
were closing and I'm like, what is going on? Yeah. I have a question. Um, have you processed
at all? Like, and you may say no initially, but I'm, I'm just kind of sensing.
Were you angry at God at all during that time? Um, I would say I was angry at people. I was
angry at people, how they were acting. A lot of people I felt like were not acting scientifically.
They were acting based off of fear. Um, even doctors have said, you know, masks were never
intended to be worn 24 seven. You know, there are so many things that were, and I just felt like
there was a lot of people, not everybody, but it was like, if, if a mask is effective,
it should be good for one person and be, and actually be effective for that person.
Um, so I want to, I do want to honor other people too, because everyone's going to have
different opinions about this. And that's what I'm saying. I'm trying, I'm trying to like not
offend anybody, but this is my POV. Yeah. And so this is where ladies it's real important. And
it's so good that I started tonight about people not getting offended. Don't you think that's a,
I don't think that's a coincidence y'all. Okay. So we don't get offended. We, we hold space for
people and we understand that this was stressful. I can even tell, like, even as you're talking
about it, you're holding, I'm like, here's the thing. God intentionally had me ask you
if you were ever angry with him. And so I don't even know if it's okay. You don't have to even
unpack that more right now, but I want you to be about that because I feel like at some level,
you had anger towards people, but I feel like there's some other stuff underlying
and I can't fully say which direction that's going to go for you. But I, I know that God
wanted me to ask you that. And so I'm just trying to be obedient to that. So into this,
one of the things that I really want to encourage you to do, have you, I forget Sarah, what week
are you on in the heartwork? Are you on two? Okay. Okay. Yeah. So I am going to go ahead and
encourage you to do the forgiveness sheet. I am, even though you're not in week four,
because I feel like there's a lot of forgiveness that needs to happen here. Sometimes ladies,
because we get hurt, we can become bitter and the bitter root can cause us all kinds of problems.
The Bible talks about us having like really to be cautious about the bitter root. We can be
very judgmental and critical of other people and their opinions. And, but at the core we're hurt
somewhere. Anger is hurts bodyguard. Okay. So I just want, I want to be sensitive to the pain
that that caused you to feel excluded from that wedding that you want to, I'm guessing from what
you're saying to be a part of. And I, I really think there's something underneath of that,
even where you, there was something that got taken or something that's under again,
underneath the surface that is even before these weddings and these situations that God is going
to uncover for you. And I read lightly because we don't dig in this community. We ask for revealing
for healing. And so I just want you to be in prayer as you process the forgiveness with some
of these folks and, and just see what, where God will lead this, but you're on it. You're on a good
path. You're in this place where you're expressing.
Okay. This is a place where a promise was broken and this is good that you, that you
shared it. I think also some of the stuff, uh, as you are praying, um, I really want
to encourage you to ask God to bring peace into those memories. Yeah. Okay. Super important
ladies. Yeah, you're welcome. And we love you. And I'm so glad that you shared that.
And I want everyone to feel safe here, but we'll, we'll always do our best to make sure
everybody feels safe, but it's important for people to feel like they can, can actually
process stuff. Okay. Ladies. All right. Awesome. So, so good. Is there anyone else that wants
to go before I move on to our next content tonight? All right. I don't see. Oh yeah.
Yeah. Yeah. Nisi, go ahead. So what did you do when, um, you started attracting, um, these
wrong people into your life? What, what, how did you handle that? Um, well, what do
you mean? Like, how did I get healing or how did I stop attracting those people? Can you
give me some clarity on what you're asking? How did you stop attracting those type of
people that you were saying that all kinds of crap? Yeah. Yeah. Good question. Uh, I
am going to just mute you just cause I'm, I tend to get feedback for some reason. So
I'll, if, if we need to do a question back and forth, I'll mute you or you can unmute
again. Okay. Um, so basically, uh, the simple answer is heart healing. And I know that you
probably want a bigger, like big boom kind of, but genuinely, the more I healed, uh,
the less, it's not so much that I don't encounter people like that anymore, ladies. Cause the
reality is, is there's broken people everywhere. Okay. Um, but I don't allow them to come as
close into my inner circle anymore. Okay. So the access that they have to my heart and
my life is, is not the same as what I would have done in the past. And I come from a different
perspective. I tend to go into situations. I was sharing this a little bit this afternoon.
Like regarding my mom back in the old days, I would, every time I would go around my mom,
I go in as a daughter cause I'm a daughter, right? So I'd go around. My mom is a daughter
with my heart as a daughter. My heart was wide open. Cause that's my mom. Even though my mom
at times was not kind. Um, and over time I had to learn that I needed to change the posture of
my heart to go around my mom, because my mom said a lot of manipulative, manipulative, hurtful
things. Um, and so I had to start going in with the hat of a leader and a minister,
not to try to change my mom, not to try to convince her to be somebody different, but to,
to like in a, in a healthy way, show up in that situation differently.
And I'm not saying it didn't still hurt at times when she would do or say things,
um, even like up to like four months before she passed away, there was stuff that she was doing.
She went on, on social media and told everybody who her favorite kid was. And like, I mean,
it was just some hard, hard stuff. Um, but I just, I just started showing up as okay. Like if I'm
going into a situation as a coach, as a leader, as a minister, and someone's broken, I'm going
to look in and treat that differently than if I'm daughter. Does that make sense? I'm just giving
different access points. If I'm a daughter, if I'm a sister, if I'm a best friend, I'm going to,
I'm going to come in and I, because I I'm a giver. I love to hug. I love to love people.
And I'm going to let, I'm going to let them in. Love is a risk y'all. It is, but man, when it,
when it works and it's healthy and God is doing something, it's so worth it.
Okay. And so I go in and I embrace and I let them in. Is it always easy? No, but God helps me learn
who I can trust and who here's another thing. Okay. I see Karen. This is helpful. So I'm going
to share one other aspect here and then I'm going to keep moving y'all. Sometimes here's going to
be the reality. You all are not going to be able to share what you're doing in this program with
everyone. There are going to be people in your life that do not have the faith for it. That do
not have the comprehension for it. That think you should just stay single and be happy.
And some people who are okay, if you're broken, because it's actually, if when we start healing
you all, what starts to happen is it actually will confront other people in their life without us
even doing anything. And they will then have to come.
to their own crossroads, decide which way they're going to go.
That's nothing we can't, we can't prevent that because we're healing and we're
growing, God's doing stuff in us and we're starting to live differently and think
differently and feed off of the word differently.
And people will start to notice that.
And some people may not be comfortable with it, but that doesn't mean
we stop going and stop moving.
So some people are not going to be able to be safe for you to
share certain things with.
And that's where you're going to need to pray.
You're going to really need to pray and ask God to show you who is a safe
person to share certain things with.
So for an example, Brian and I are trying to get pregnant.
Yes, I'm 46 and we are trying to get pregnant.
I've always wanted a biological child or even adopt a child.
I want a child of my own.
I have cared for multiple other people's children, and I'm super grateful to
have had the opportunity to do that.
But, uh, that is a calling on my life.
I've known it since I was a little girl and I want to see that fulfilled.
Why do I share that?
Because you know what?
I can't tell you how many people have told me I'm too old.
I'm still having a cycle.
My doctor says I can get pregnant.
So I have to reject that from people and know that I might not be able to share
my journey regarding this, especially when it's hard with some people, because
they may not have the faith or the wisdom to speak into it.
Jesus went into some rooms and he, he moved, moved the people out of the room.
Okay.
Sometimes that has to happen.
All right.
I didn't mean to go into that tonight, but I think that is helpful.
And that was definitely something that helped me on my journey.
Um, I'm not sure, uh, Arianna, I'm not sure what you mean on that.
Um, but I will do my best to circle back to that in a little bit.
All right.
So we're going to start talking about stories.
Um, maybe one day we'll do a faith session on fertility.
Who knows, Anna, there's all kinds of stuff.
I think that's going to come out of this journey with my life and a lot of other
women in this community in the days ahead.
All right.
We're going to talk about stories.
And from this perspective, I want to encourage you all to step out of the old
story that you've been living under.
Okay.
What does that mean?
The limiting belief systems, the limiting thought patterns, all the things that we
cannot accomplish or that will never change or that we're not good enough or
whatever that looks like and sounds like for you.
And I want you to start stepping into the new story that God has written already
for you from the foundation of the world.
When he created you, y'all know that he actually had an original plan and design
for us long before trauma ever entered.
And so many of us aren't living into that.
Okay.
Cause brokenness entered our lives, but God wants to help us to get closer to
that and that's his original plan.
So he's already written it, but he's also writing our story now.
So here's how we do that.
We start to ask God to help us to be aware of the stories that we tell
ourselves that don't align with the kingdom of heaven.
So I want you to think about when something happens in your life, that's
hard.
What is your go-to reaction?
What is your go-to thought?
Start to put those in the chat for me as those come to you.
What is your go-to thought when something hard happens?
All right.
Crystal, find a solution.
Defeat the word of God.
Cry.
Who else?
I'm not worthy of finding love again.
Panic and fear to be expected negative attitude.
All right.
Let's talk about that to be expected.
Yeah, this is to be expected.
This is what's always going to happen.
Nothing's ever going to change, which is what we kind of talked
about a little bit earlier.
The chaos never ends to be alone the rest of my life.
Okay.
You all keep putting these out there because we're going to get
rid of this stuff tonight.
That's why I wanted you to be thinking about it and start to put it in the
chat because these are real things.
When the pressure is applied, when it's painful, when life happens,
that's disappointing something, you know, uh, crushes our heart in some way.
These are the things that are our habits in our minds.
These are the go-tos.
These are the, the, the ruts that have been created through
years of thinking these things.
And you all, we need to create some new thoughts.
And so as we're doing this, it will take about 30 days, at least
for you to create a new thought.
And for you to create a new groove, to get that thought going, where
that starts to become your go-to.
And sometimes for some of you, because you've thought those thoughts for so
long, it might take you a little longer.
So we want to, we want to think about that.
How do we typically react? Is it healthy? Is it unhealthy? For a lot of you, some of you guys had
some things that maybe that's your first go-to that was positive, but a lot of us tend to lean
toward the negative. What do your normal thought patterns sound like? Okay, what are your normal
thought patterns sound like when you're thinking about money? What are your normal thought patterns
sound like when you're thinking about your body or your dad or a husband or, you know, your kids?
Some of y'all are, you know, estranged from kids and there's brokenness there and every time
something happens, you know, I don't know why I'm saying this name, but Michael's never going to
change. I don't know if that's somebody's son's name. I have no clue, but that name came up in
my spirit, so I went with that one. Examples of thoughts that we think. I'm going to just, y'all, there
can be so many thoughts that we have, so please don't think this is a complete list. This is, these
are just examples. These are some things that we tend to think that are these limiting belief
systems or negative thought patterns, okay? We will tell ourselves stuff like, it doesn't matter.
What does that mean? Well, sometimes we want something and then when it doesn't happen,
we just tell ourselves it doesn't matter anyways. It doesn't matter, but that's not really true
because we wanted it and even if it wasn't good for us, it's not good for us to deny what we
actually feel and think, so let's start owning our feelings and feel the feels so that God can heal
the feels and he can help us sort those things out to show us whether or not that's a good thing to
want and let's even get, I'll get rid of that. Good. Let's get rid of that. Let's look at healthy
versus unhealthy. Is that a healthy thing for me to want God or is it unhealthy for me?
I didn't want that anyway. It kind of goes with that same kind of thought, so some of you are
telling yourself, well, I didn't want that anyways because it just feels easier to tell yourself that
than to actually admit that you wanted that. Even what Sarah shared, I think of that.
Sometimes it's easier for us to get, and I'm not saying that you haven't admitted these things to
yourself, Sarah, but I'm just using this as an example, so let me kind of run with this a minute.
Sometimes it's easier for us to get angry at people than to admit how much we wanted to be
in a wedding and how much we wanted to be there to see our friends or our family. Sarah doesn't
know this, but my oldest brother got married and I was the only one in my family that wasn't invited
and I wasn't invited because I told about the abuse and none of my family stood up for me,
not one person, and that broke me a lot and it was this thing that, you know, I did for a while.
I didn't want that anyways. I didn't want to go to that wedding anyways, you know, and I don't know
that I even really, I don't know deep down that I did, but I did. Does that make sense?
I did, but I don't know if I did. I kind of wanted it. All right, I'm just going to pick a random name,
so don't feel left out, but this gives my example a little bit more, if you will. All right, I'm
going to pick Rambo. Rambo, you should just give up on this. You know, the enemy is telling you,
Anna, you should just give up on this because you've tried, you know, five times and it just
never worked. I don't know. I'm just making this up, y'all, but that's how the enemy will, he'll
talk to us and he'll try to convince us that nothing's ever going to change and that you
should just give up. I never get picked. Anyone? Does anyone ever hear that? I never get picked.
God picks everybody else but me. The guys pick everybody else but me. We have a lady, we've been,
we've been doing a lot of heart work with her and she used to tell us all the time, I told this
story this afternoon, she used to tell us all the time, men don't pick fat ladies. And then she,
that's literally how she would say it to us over and over and over again. Didn't matter what we
said. That was, that was the go-to. And y'all, here, here's the thing. When we started unpacking
that more with her and we tried, we tried all through heart work. I kept saying, I kept trying
to ask her the hard questions. She was one of my tough cases, you all, and I loved her. We kept
loving her. We kept showing up. We continue to love her and challenge her. She keeps coming back,
so that's good. But here, all just recently, in the last month, she finally started opening up
and talking about things that she's never talked about. And she actually didn't even admit to
herself that they hurt her when they happened. She convinced herself that that was,
was normal and it happened to everyone
and she just needed to suck it up.
So someone probably told her that
when she was younger somewhere.
So I wanna encourage you all,
again, it's super important to lean into,
like, where is this stuff coming from?
Lord, will you show me the first time I had this thought
or believe this lie or begin to partner with these lies?
Here's another one.
I wait and God, you always take someone else
to the front of the line and I get passed by,
that's kinda like the I never get picked.
Here's another one.
God blesses everyone but me.
All men, I already said this one, okay, pass, keep going.
This program takes too much time.
I did that one non-regarding relationship,
but I get that sometimes too.
People are like, man, this just takes too much time.
Well, how much is our breakthrough worth?
How much is our healing worth?
Y'all, some of you, you literally are here
to just get healing.
And none of the approaches are wrong.
So when I say this, none of them are wrong.
Some of y'all really just wanna meet someone
and you're hoping that you can get healed
and just move to that, and that's okay too.
But here's the thing, the man is the cherry on top.
The spirit mate is the cherry on top.
You are in a community where you can potentially,
like, literally revolutionize your whole life, genuinely,
and change every aspect of your life.
Think about what you're thinking about
and where is it taking you?
We wanna start inspecting our thoughts.
What are the heart postures
that we're living up underneath of?
I want you to be asking the Lord again,
where's that original source?
Where's that original wound that this all originated from?
All right, 2 Corinthians 10, five says,
we demolish arguments and every pretension
that sets itself up against the knowledge of God.
And we take every thought captive
and make it obedient to Jesus Christ.
Think about your thoughts today.
What have they been rooted in?
Were they rooted in overwhelm, fear, risk,
or were they rooted in love, truth, kindness, patience?
Also, when are your intrusive thoughts happening the most?
I want you to start tracking,
when are your thoughts happening most?
Is it in the morning when you first wake up?
Does the enemy kind of onslaught you right then?
Is it at night when you're tired
and you're feeling weary and worn out from the day?
Is it after you have a conversation
with a certain friend or a parent?
When are the intrusive thoughts
happening in your life the most?
Breakout number two, we're about to go into it.
Here is your question.
What negative thoughts do you need to take captive tonight?
What negative thoughts do you want to take captive tonight?
Okay, I'm gonna go ahead and recreate these rooms.
I'm gonna put you with some different people
so you can meet some more ladies.
I'm gonna take it down to six minutes, y'all.
Short, brief, and powerful when you go into the rooms, okay?
Remember that.
All right, ladies, go ahead and click to join.
Okay.
Oh.
Okay, I got everyone situated.
Father, thank you
for everything you're already doing tonight.
Thank you for setting us free
and helping us to hear what your spirit is saying.
Thank you for leading us into all truth
and anointing us for all of our lives
and walking, calling, and leading us deeper
into Jesus today.
Thank you that we don't have to fear,
we don't have to be afraid,
because, Lord, you've gone before us
into every situation, every dynamic.
Lord, you're continuing to, yes, Lord,
transform us by the renewing of our minds
that all old things have passed away,
and behold, everything has become new in you.
God, I thank you that you're rewriting stories tonight,
that you're helping us to shift out of mindsets
and perspectives that we've had
that don't align with the kingdom of heaven.
We thank you that you're helping us
to just receive fresh downloads,
even as we would be here tonight,
but also that you would, yes, Lord,
stir up a hunger and thirst for your righteousness,
for your word, that we would desire to read your word
and get to know you more
so that we can come into a closer relationship.
with you and to receive everything that you have for us.
I thank you, Lord.
Yes, Lord, that you'll take all of the ashes
and turn them around into beauty,
that you'll take the oil of joy and turn the morning
and turn it into an oil of joy.
Gabby, thank you that you'll help us to dance and celebrate
and to experience the fullness of everything
that you have for us.
Yes, Lord.
In Ephesians 3, 17 through 19, it says,
"'Then Christ will make his home in your hearts
"'as you trust in him.
"'Your roots will grow down into God's love
"'and keep you strong.
"'And may you have the power to understand
"'as all God's people should, how wide, how long,
"'how high and how deep is his love.
"'May you experience the love of Christ,
"'though it is too great to understand fully.
"'Then you will be made complete
"'with all the fullness of life and power
"'that comes from God.'"
Lord, help us to know how wide and how deep,
how high and how long is your love for us.
Help us to have a revelation of your love
in a fresh way tonight.
We thank you, God.
Yes, Lord, I thank you that you would just remove
chains and shackles of condemnation and shame and guilt.
We thank you, God, that you would just help us to receive.
Thank you, Lord, that we have the spirit of love
and of power and of a sound mind,
that we don't walk in the spirit of timidity or fear.
Lord, we thank you that you're showing us all the ways
that you've already gone in and conquered the land.
You've already prepared it for us,
that we can be like Joshua and Caleb,
and we can go in and know that we can overtake the giants
that are in the land.
So, Lord, we thank you where there's strongholds
that have been in place in the past,
that you're coming and you're bringing revelation and truth,
and that you're equipping us and enabling us to come in
and really just break free from every stronghold,
every generational area that has held us back,
every mindset that's been a learned behavior
through parents, through grandparents, through friends,
through school systems, societal messages,
everything that is being fed into our minds,
the things that we take in through our eye gate
and our ear gate.
Lord, help us to know what does not align with you
and help us to protect our minds and our spirits
from those things.
We thank you, Lord.
Yeah, Lord, that we'll take that seriously,
that we won't be religious about it,
but God, that we'll take it seriously.
Psalm 147, three through four says this.
He heals the wounds of every shattered heart.
He sets his stars in place,
calling them all by their names.
So, Lord, we thank you
that you know each one of these ladies by name,
and that you never slumber or sleep,
and that your eyes are always on them
in a loving, kind way,
that you would lead them into all truth
and anoint them for all of their lives
and walk in calling.
And I think I even prayed that earlier.
That's funny, that came back up in my spirit.
Yes, Lord, we thank you that Matthew 7, 24 through 25 says,
everyone who hears my teaching and applies it to his life
can be compared to a wise man
who built his house on an unshakable foundation.
When the rains fell and the floods came with fierce winds,
it stood firm because of its strong foundation.
We thank you, God,
that even this heart healing work that we're doing,
that you're helping us to, yeah, Lord,
that you're coming in
and repairing the foundations within us,
that you're coming in and you're filling the cracks,
Lord, with your love, with your liquid love.
We thank you that you're bringing healing power,
that we are a remnant chosen for this generation
for such a time as this to be an impact
in kingdom families and marriages, God,
that it's not just for everybody else, it's for us.
And so Lord, I thank you that you'll help us to have faith
to believe in the promises that you've had for us
and that we would continue to contend and stand firm
until we see those fulfilled.
Yes, Lord.
Yes, Lord, thank you for the fulfillment
of your promises to us.
Well, there we go.
They're about to come back.
What other ones can we read?
This will be really good.
Ephesians 4, 21 through 24 says this,
since you have heard about Jesus
and have learned the truth that comes from him,
throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life
which is corrupted by lust and deception.
Instead, let the spirit renew your thoughts
and your attitudes.
Put on your new nature created to be like God,
truly righteous and holy.
Lord, I just thank you that in that truth,
that Lord, you would help us to allow the Holy Spirit
to renew our thoughts, our attitudes.
our perspectives, that Holy Spirit would come and remove any scales from our eyes
that cause us to see people around us in ways that that aren't true.
Lord, I thank you that even when we hear things, God, if it's warped by the time we hear it,
I pray that you will just start to smooth that out so that we will hear things clearly.
Yeah, even more when you're saying things to us, sometimes the way we hear them,
Lord, is through condemnation and judgment. And Lord, we thank you that you'll soften our hearts.
Hi, ladies. Welcome back. Just leaning into that for a minute. God not only wants to change the
way we hear things, ladies, or see them, but he wants to change the way our hearts respond to him,
the way we view him, and the way that he brings correction and love into our life.
And we talked about this this afternoon. I won't have time to go into it too far tonight,
but I just want to mention this, that God isn't waiting to whip you and punish you, okay?
Some of you all might have grown up in environments like that, but God is, he does
bring correction and redirection, but he brings it with love, okay? He brings, it's always undergirded
in love. All right, I want to share the activations with you tonight. We are going to, I'll give,
if we have one or two people that want to share, if you want to get ready for me,
while I talk about the activations, just we're running short on time and I want to be conscious
of that. I'm so sorry, y'all. I'm in Kentucky, I'm back in Kentucky, and I'm having all kinds
of allergy stuff rising up. All right, activations this week. Number one, practice positivity.
Practice positivity, partner with grace and ease. I want that to start to become a new storyline
that you tell yourself, okay? What do I mean by that? I want you to come out of alignment with,
this is hard. Are you going to face hard things? Yes. Is it going to feel hard? Yes, but I don't
want you to partner with saying over yourself all the time, this is hard, this is hard. Yes,
we're going to feel that, but we're going to partner with God. Thank you that when I face
situations, you're going to help me walk through them with grace and ease, grace and ease, Lord,
and this season grace and ease. And until we feel that change, we're going to just keep partnering
with that. And sometimes y'all, it's okay to still say this still feels hard. And let's unpack that
because a lot of times, even in my own life situations I'm going through now, when it feels
hard, I'm like, okay, Lord, show me how I can look at this differently. Show me how I can rise up
above this thing. Yeah, I can do hard things, but Lord, I also want to do things with grace and ease.
Praise Jesus. I don't have to be striving hard life the whole life. That's something the enemy
used to tell me all the time, because my life was really hard growing up y'all. It was really hard.
And then my marriage was hard. And then the stuff with the kids was hard and the church stuff was
like, everything felt so hard. And I'm not saying that wasn't true, but part of that was because
I needed healing so that I could look at stuff different. And when it feels hard, I just,
I just invite my dad to come into the situation and fight for me because I can't fight all the time.
Truth. Anybody tired of fighting all the time?
Yeah. So I'm just like, dad, I need you to just come and fight. I just need you to fight on my
behalf because I just, all I know to do right now is stand. I didn't cause this situation,
but God, the enemy is coming after me and I just need you to protect me and defend me.
Y'all I'm being real right now. Sometimes it's just what we got to do and he'll fight for us.
Lord, I ask you to dispatch your angels to war on my behalf. These are things that I pray
when I'm, when I'm up against a battle and it feels hard.
And just like, basically I'm saying I feel the hard, but I don't partner with that thought.
Okay. So just really be aware of those kinds of thought patterns. Here's the next one. I want to
encourage you all to do like go to an internet browser and type this in top Bible verses about
positivity, top Bible verses about positivity. And here's what I want you to do with that.
I want you to click there's, there's different sources that are going to show you different
scriptures all centered around positivity. Okay. I want you to look through some of those
and I want you to pick one or two that speak to you in this season. Okay. And this is what I want
you to do with it. I want you to write it out. I want you to actually have the scripture for
First, I want you to write that out,
and then you're gonna create a declaration
with that scripture, okay?
I'm gonna give you an example.
My scripture I chose today is Philippians 4,
four through seven.
Rejoice in the Lord always.
I will say it again, rejoice.
Let your gentleness be evident to all.
The Lord is near.
Do not be anxious about anything,
but in every situation, by prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving, present your request to God,
and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,
will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
Now, my next one's gonna be similar,
but I've turned it into a declaration,
not just the scripture.
So it is the scripture, but it's the declaration
I will now put up in this next week for myself as well.
I, Bethany Cooper, put my name in there.
See how it's a declaration automatically?
I, Bethany Cooper, will rejoice in the Lord always.
Again, I say I will rejoice.
I, Bethany Cooper, will let my gentleness
be evident to all.
The Lord is near.
I, Bethany Cooper, will not be anxious about anything,
but in every situation, by prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving, I, Bethany,
will present my request to God,
and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,
will guard Bethany's heart and mind through Christ Jesus.
Y'all, you make it personal, okay?
That's one of the ways you turn something
into a declaration.
You take a scripture.
You don't take it out of context.
You just put your name in there,
and you make it personal,
and you start declaring it over yourself.
That's your assignment.
Those are your assignments this week.
Here's why.
Y'all, holidays, guess what?
When you're single, and you're struggling,
they feel hard, don't they?
We're not partnering with hard this week, are we?
We're gonna partner with grace and ease.
We're gonna partner with abundance, blessing,
even when we may not see it.
Y'all, I've spent holidays alone, okay?
So please know, I'm not saying this is gonna be real easy,
but what I am saying is that when we are like,
God, show me someone else that needs to feel friendship,
and let me invite them over to my house.
Yeah, I feel the Holy Spirit on this.
Y'all, we don't have to spend holidays alone.
There are homeless people that have no food
and nobody to go to, and we can go serve
at a homeless dinner.
So please, please, please don't partner with,
I have to be alone, and I have to be miserable,
and this is so hard, and nothing's ever gonna change.
Please don't choose that this week.
God, show me someone that I can be a blessing to.
Guess what?
Y'all, sometimes when we least feel like it,
we just need to go bless somebody else
because it helps us to get out of our own stuff.
I'm not saying we have to do that all the time,
but sometimes we just, that's the best remedy for us, okay?
So this week, come show me in the group.
I wanna see the negative thoughts.
That's the last activation.
I know I'm giving y'all a lot,
but you have some extra time with Thanksgiving.
So as you're thinking on things and you're around family,
let's keep the negative thoughts under control.
But let me see in the group this week.
What are the negative thoughts
that you are choosing to work on, okay?
I feel like if y'all post those in there,
you're gonna get a lot more coaching one-on-one
than I could give to everyone here tonight.
Some of y'all, the negative thoughts
that you're struggling with are going to show areas
that you need healing.
And that's how the coaches will be able to tell that
a little bit more, okay?
Y'all, we made it.
It's 9.33.
I was kind of taking a hike there at the end.
Hopefully we didn't rush too fast.
We love you all.
We're praying for you.
Again, please, if you don't have someone
to spend Thanksgiving with,
even here's the last thing I'll leave you with.
Some of y'all are not gonna wanna do this,
but I encourage you to invite yourself to someone's house.
I do.
Friend, so-and-so,
yeah, I really don't wanna spend Thanksgiving by myself.
Do you have an extra seat at your table?
And I hope they'll say yes.
If they don't, go to the next person.
Try not to feel rejection.
Don't give into that.
Just go to the next person.
Because some people might not even be home, y'all, okay?
Doesn't mean they don't love you.
Does everyone receive that?
Is that good?
That's a good word.
Just because someone says no
doesn't mean they don't love us.
It might just mean that it just doesn't work this time.
We just go to the next person.
I invited myself to people's house
when I was alone all the time.
COVID was, I literally was alone constantly with COVID.
I lived in an apartment by myself.
Y'all, we can do, we can do this.
And we can overcome and thrive through it.
All right, let me pray.
Father, thank you.
Father, I know some people don't know you as daddy.
Some people don't.
that even feels offensive to them because of the religion that they've been raised up in.
But God, I know that you're that kind of dad to me because you've shown me time and time again,
all the ways that you've shown up for me all along, not just in the last few years, but my
whole life. I pray that you would help these ladies just to sense your tangible presence this
week with them. Lord, that when it, when it might feel hard, that they would just sense just,
just the presence of the Holy Spirit, just entering in, help them to sense the mother
heart of God as well. We thank you that you would comfort them, that you would nurture them.
Yes, Lord, that even last week, as you shared that you would bend down with the first aid kit
and tend to every need that still continues this week. And we thank you for it.
Yes, Lord. We thank you that you catch every tear in a bottle and nothing is wasted.
You pour those back out on us like choice oil. Yes, Lord. And in due season, we will reap if
we don't faint. Thank you, God, for giving us the endurance, the perseverance, and the
courage to keep going as well as the grace every day to walk it out. Thank you that the reminder
that we are our best investment. Help us to continue to invest in our healing and to trust
you in the process in Jesus name. Amen. Amen. Happy Thanksgiving. If I don't see you all again,
as far as visually happy Thanksgiving, I'll be in the group. I'll see you all there.
God bless you. Have a great night, everyone. Bye-bye.