Hi ladies, happy Monday night.
Welcome to our live session, 8pm.
If you are joining us for the first time, as in you've never been on a live session
with us before, can you put in the chat, say hi, I'm joining for the first time so we can
welcome you and give a shout out to you.
We're so excited to be here tonight, God's got a lot of stuff in store.
My name is Bethany Cooper, I'm one of the HeartWork coaches in this community, and God
is doing some great, great stuff, as far as even in the things that you all are sharing.
I feel like so many people are getting really important breakthroughs, and some of them
feel like big, and some of y'all are seeing how God will continuously bring breakthrough
as you continue to seek him on your journey.
Hi.
Okay, so for those that have like iPhone, or Sprint, or Samsung, I want to just kind
of give you a heads up, if you can share your name on there, and the way that you're
going to do that is when you hover over your picture box on the Zoom, there will be three
dots that show up.
If you click on that, and then scroll down to rename, and click on that, you'll be able
to type in just your first name, if you don't feel like putting in your last name, but that
way we at least know who you are when you're joining us.
But welcome for the first time, Susan, welcome.
Anyone else joining, Rebecca's new for the first time, so we have a couple.
Anyone else joining us new for the first time tonight?
Welcome back to all of our ladies that have been here before, it's so good to see everyone.
Hi, hi.
All right, we always encourage in here, if you haven't been here before, we do encourage
for y'all to turn your cameras on when you come and join us for heart work.
If you can't, like you're driving, or you're eating, or you're changing, obviously you
don't have to turn them on for that.
But the reason we want to encourage you all to turn your cameras on is part of your heart
healing process is really activating you all coming out of hiding in all different kinds
of ways, ways that you don't even realize you've been hiding in some ways.
And sometimes where we see it showing up is even when people don't want to come on screen.
And I'm not saying that people that aren't on screen right now that that applies to you,
I'm just saying that's something that we see in this community, especially during heart
work and throughout.
So I want to encourage you all to do that.
If you're not ready to do that tonight, that's fine, but want to encourage you to do that
for sure when you go into the breakout sessions, okay?
So good to see you all.
All right, so a couple other key housekeeping items, and then we'll dive right into the
content.
All right, want to do a quick reminder that you all when you're here for heart work, all
of our students are here to receive.
So you all don't have to coach anybody.
You don't have to advise anybody.
So you get to take your helper hats off.
So even our amazing coaches, people that have been ministry for years, this is your time
to take that hat off and just receive from the Lord.
Super important.
Here's why.
I had to do this too when I went through heart work, because if you all can't tell, I'm a
helper.
I like to coach.
I like to help people grow.
I like to lead.
So when I was in heart work, sometimes the enemy's ploy was to get me to help other people
instead of helping myself.
And so that's something I have to keep in check all the time and want to encourage you
all.
If you feel that kicking in, then you want to just kind of ask yourself, okay, am I trying
to help everybody else when I'm supposed to be receiving right now, okay?
And that doesn't mean you can't encourage people.
Encourage each other.
You need to get to know your sisters in this community and this groups, support each other.
No, I'm not a rescuer.
I am God's servant and his helper.
So that's my title.
And that's what I go by.
If I was a rescuer, I would try to help people that don't want to help themselves.
Okay.
Yeah.
So really important for y'all to kind of keep that in mind as you're responding to people.
If somebody wants prayer, you can say, Hey, I'll pray for you.
And you can type a little prayer, but don't feel like you've got to be the one to help
them.
Does that make sense?
Everyone.
All right.
So even our people that have been in ministry a long time, you're going to feel that kick
in where you see someone in need and you're just going to want to be the one to help them.
And you don't have to do that because myself and the other coaches that are on our team
are here to do that.
So Annette Winter is a coach.
Jennifer Yankovich is a coach.
I'm a coach.
We're going to be the main ones replying to you right now.
I do have some coaches in training that when they are kind of launched a little bit more,
I will let you know who they are and they might start responding at some point as well.
All right.
A couple other take a quick housekeeping.
Supernatural Saturday.
Really encourage for y'all to check out the replay of that.
We also have the replay from last week's how to hear from God with our.
special guest, Bethany Hicks. That replay is really phenomenal, y'all. Even if you don't
know how you hear from God, it's going to help you start to learn all the different
ways that God speaks to us on a daily basis. Prophesy your years coming up on January 5th.
We will be putting out information about that soon. So we will let you know more, but just
wanted you to kind of save the date. If that's something you would be interested in attending,
that will be available very soon. Also, we don't do any social media posts inside of
our group, from outside ministries, outside businesses, outside thought leaders. This
group and this, like as you go throughout, all of our group pages for last year's single,
we keep them primarily for last year's single content. Here's why. Our teams don't have
time to vet out sermons from other people, devotions from other people, books from other
people, content from outside sources. And so that was just one of the ways that we kind
of set that guide guideline. So we just don't want anyone to feel discouraged. If you were
to put a post in the group and it got deleted, that would be why. Okay. So there's nothing
against you. We just, that's just a guardrail that we've put up. And so songs, worship songs,
you can absolutely post those. That's totally different in our opinion. Okay. All right,
y'all we're ready. I do want to want to read a little quote right before I pray tonight.
As you're kind of processing your heart work again, as y'all are coming in, people are
in all different weeks of the program. So tonight we have people that are in weeks,
one, two, three, four or five, all different parts of the heart healing journey. But as
you're going, there might be things surfacing that you would have never even thought of
as a trauma. And that's because the things that break our hearts are different for everyone.
So I want to encourage you all don't think that just because something isn't big, that
it doesn't matter or that it couldn't have broken your heart. And a lot of times, ladies,
what happens along the way is we actually experience pain and heartache, but we convince
ourselves that that is normal, or I shouldn't be upset about this. Or we had someone tell
us those kinds of things. And so as we go, we start to push those things down instead
of processing those with the Lord. And so if something comes up in your spirit that
you might even consider something small, I want to encourage you to ask the Lord why
he's showing it to you, because there's a reason that's coming up. So this afternoon,
I gave a couple little examples. So in some of the people I'm coaching right now, training
them to be coaches, someone had shared, well, actually two ladies, one shared and then it
caused another person to think about something they had been through too. Both situations
were when these ladies were in kindergarten. One of them was just the one was really afraid
to leave her mom. And then all the panic and stuff she faced after her mom left. And then
the other one had moved from another country to here. And there were some things that she
experienced when she was very little as well. And both of those ladies were like deeply
impacted by these situations in kindergarten. So again, while we might think, well, that's
not that really that big of a deal. Every kid goes through this. Well, that's not really
true. Not every kid goes through those kinds of things. So while some might be our person
related to our personality or makeup, sometimes things that we experience, even as small children
happen because there was a prior trauma that happened that caused us to be afraid or have
panic or whatever. So just remain open ladies. That's why I'm saying all this remain open
as you go through your heart healing process. For those that have joined us in the last
few minutes, my name's Bethany Cooper. We're so glad you're here tonight. If you're joining
us new for the first time, definitely put that in the chat. Let us know you're here
for the first time and we can give a shout out to you. We're so glad that you're here.
All right. Let me pray for us ladies. Father, thank you so much for just the reminder that
God that you can come in the midst of any circumstance, any situation at any moment
and redeem it, restore it, rebuild it. Lord, I thank you that you would just, yeah, Lord
awaken hope in the ladies tonight that they would see you as God, as a good father, who's
faithful to bring good gifts, to bring transformation, to bring hope in the midst of a weary world,
a weary heart. God, we thank you that, yeah, that they will reap if they don't faint, if
they continue to move forward in their heart healing process and lean into the revealings
for healing. God, that you would bring everything from darkness to the light so that they can
be set free and that they can live further into the fullness of who you originally created
them to be. We ask you to help us to lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us so
that we can press on toward the high calling of God for our lives.
Help us to
recognize the areas where we have been stuck,
where we've been living in cycles that aren't serving us,
God, so that we can receive everything you have for us
during this heartwork course, this healing time.
We thank you, Holy Spirit, for being here.
We ask you to weave in and out of conversations,
in and out of the teaching,
everything that's being heard
that you would just minister to them
right in the areas where they need it the most.
Because Lord, you know the why behind the what.
We are your vessels,
and we're asking you to work in and through me
and in through each one of these ladies tonight.
In Jesus' name, amen.
All right, so ladies,
we're gonna talk about confession and repentance.
And I'm gonna encourage you all,
if you tend to struggle with fear
or worry during these sessions,
I'm gonna encourage you to just kind of receive,
be in receive mode, okay?
So everyone understand what I mean by that?
So try not to be busy.
Like I'm big on the chat,
but sometimes we even like are,
we're sharing in the chat a lot and not receiving.
Does that make sense?
So I want there to be balance there for everyone,
but just kind of, if you battle fear and anxiety,
that might be something that you might wanna watch
as you're joining us for the live sessions.
Okay, so as I was praying,
we're talking about confession and repentance tonight.
We don't always know the why behind the what.
We don't always know why we do what we do,
especially when we don't wanna do it
and we keep on doing it, okay?
But God does.
God knows us from the beginning of time.
He formed us, He put everything in us.
He's seen every decision we've ever made up to this point,
and He knows why we are doing what we're doing,
including the cycles that we live in,
sin cycles, living below our ability, below our worth,
like our identity, not knowing that.
He knows why we struggle with these things.
So what's important in this process is for each one of us,
including myself, I'm still in healing, y'all.
I coach all the time.
God's still healing all kinds of areas of my life.
So we lean into the Lord
and we rely on Him during this process
because He knows what needs to be revealed
and when it needs to be revealed.
So we ask the Holy Spirit, if you remember,
the Bible declares that He's our comforter,
He's our counselor, He's our guide,
He's our ever-present help in time of trouble.
So we ask Holy Spirit every day,
hopefully y'all are doing this,
come Holy Spirit, reveal every area that I need revealed.
Thank you, Holy Spirit, for being my counselor and my guide.
I trust you and I'm gonna take your hand today.
It's that supernatural surrender,
surrendering to our ideas, our understanding.
We don't wanna lean on our own understanding, right?
We wanna start to lean and rely on the Lord
and what His understanding is more and more and more.
So I wanna give you some examples
of some of the what that we do, if you will,
the different areas, and this is not a complete list, ladies.
Some of you all have been struggling in areas
that won't be listed tonight.
So I don't want you to check out
if I don't mention your thing,
because the Holy Spirit will show you
what your area of struggle has been, okay?
But these are just some to get you started thinking.
So I wrote down insecurity.
So God knows why we are insecure.
God knows why we struggle with self-hatred
and self-loathing, self-pity.
You know, He knows why we think the negative thoughts
about ourselves that we think, okay?
Those are all in the same kind of framework there.
He knows why we overeat,
why we keep on eating stuff that's not good for us,
even though we will, even in our heads,
I don't know if y'all have ever done this,
but I have, I'll know in my head,
I actually don't want anything else, but I'll keep eating.
Why do I do that?
Well, long ago, I learned how to eat my feelings.
As a kid, my mom did that.
My sister did that.
They hid food all the time.
I watched it, I learned it, and then I started doing it.
So again, just sharing things that come up
as the Holy Spirit brings it up, here's some others.
Gossip, yes, gossip is one of those things
that people struggle with, and why do we do these things?
Well, Holy Spirit, can you show me
why I struggle with gossip?
Ask Him for the root.
Ask Him to show you the beginning of all that.
Negative self-talk or thought patterns,
which I kind of already alluded to,
and then also sexual-related struggles.
So having sex outside of marriage,
pornography addictions, lust,
you know, anything related in that sphere.
Struggles with authority.
So maybe you just always wanna rebel against authority.
Whoever's an authority over you,
you just are not able within yourself
to come under their authority.
Maybe you struggle with anger on the inside.
or the outside, what do I mean by that?
Some of us have seething anger on the inside
and rage that we just keep internal.
And then other people, the outbursts,
that's when it kind of builds up, builds up,
and then all of a sudden there's a volcano.
So we erupt onto someone else, whoever that person is.
So what we're gonna do tonight is we're gonna choose,
hopefully, to repent and come out of agreement
with the lies and the sinful and harmful behaviors
that we've been operating in.
So when we think about repentance,
I want you all to think about the fact
that when you are walking in any kind of sin,
in any kind of harmful behavior or thought pattern,
we are going one way.
So let's say we were all going this way.
We're all going in the car together.
And some of us are in the car tonight,
and Holy Spirit's speaking to some people right now
about some things that you need to stop doing
so that you can live a healthier, happier,
more full, abundant life,
and you have an opportunity to get out of that car
and choose to get in a different car
and go in a different direction.
You're literally choosing to change your mind,
your body, and your spirit
and go in a completely different direction.
Now, remember that in heartwork,
we talk a lot about how we don't want you
just to behave good.
We don't want you to pretend
and try to be on your best behavior
and have no real heart change.
And God the Father doesn't want that either.
He wants you to experience true and lasting life change,
that you would be changed forever,
that this moment tonight
would mark a change in eternity for you.
And it doesn't mean that you're not saved yet.
It just means that some of the, like even myself,
like I know that there's some areas
that God's been talking to me about.
Not that I've been living in massive sin,
but I still struggle with that turning to food
when I'm sad and I don't need that.
And I've been working on that for a while
and it's been going really good.
And then just traveling and got out of the habits
and lo and behold, before I knew it,
I'm eating stuff that just doesn't serve my body well.
Is that sin?
No, but that is a harmful habit.
And so I want you to be thinking about,
some of you, it is sin that you're struggling with,
that you need to turn away from,
and some of you it's sin or harmful behaviors.
Be willing to look at the whole picture though, ladies, okay?
So what are the areas that tonight God is saying to you,
daughter, I love you.
I don't need you to behave good for me.
I want you to heal and change
so that you can be in closer relationship.
It doesn't mean that he's ever far away from us,
but when we sin you all, we choose to pull away.
That's the reality.
God never pulls away.
We choose to pull away.
James 5.16 says this,
therefore confess your sins to each other
and pray for each other so that you might be healed.
The prayer of a righteous man avails much.
When we don't confess, we can remain tethered to it.
If y'all remember last week,
for those that are joining us the first time,
you wouldn't have heard all this part
about the forgiveness and the tethers.
If you want to go back and listen to that replay,
it is in there,
but we'll circle back around to forgiveness again
in a few weeks.
But tethers means we're tethered to something or someone.
And so when we don't confess,
we are literally remaining tethered again
to those situations and that sin
and those cycles that are not serving us well.
Sin also that we don't repent of.
So let's say we have sin.
We know that we have sin and we're not repenting
even though God is,
he's lovingly knocking on the door of our hearts
and saying, will you let me in?
Will you let me into this area of your heart and your life
because I want to set you free?
Sin that we don't repent for or confess
can create blind spots.
So just like trauma can create blind spots and filters,
so can sin that we don't repent of.
Okay?
All right.
So you're gonna go into your first breakout session here
tonight and we're gonna talk about with each other,
what do you need to confess tonight?
Do you have any areas that you need to repent
and come out of alignment with something?
And ladies, I wanna encourage you.
If you've never been on one of these live sessions,
don't check out, stay with us because your sister's here.
This is a safe place.
When y'all get into these rooms,
you don't have to counsel each other.
I know sometimes it can feel awkward
if someone's in a place of pain
or they're expressing something that's hard.
You don't have to fix it for them, okay?
You just gotta be there and love them and say, great job.
Thank you so much for sharing that with us.
And then the next person can share, okay?
Just so everyone knows that is one of the best ways
that you can be an amazing support to your sisters
as you are.
or excuse me, as you all are in there together, okay?
And then just know that everyone's a little nervous, okay?
Can we just all just honor each other in that?
All right, awesome.
It's gonna be good.
It's so powerful, you all.
Some of y'all get massive breakthrough
from these breakout rooms,
even more than from the teaching time.
So just see what God wants to do.
I believe he wants to do amazing things
in all of you tonight.
I'm gonna give you, excuse me,
eight minutes for this first time.
All right, that should be up there on your screen,
popping up for you.
Addie, I see you just joined us.
I'll go ahead and get you in a room here in just a moment.
As soon as some of the other ladies get situated,
it hops around on my screen until they do.
It's hard to get people in there.
Welcome, welcome.
All right, go ahead and click to join those rooms, ladies.
All right, Patty, that link should be there for you.
Oh, thank you.
Hi, Christina.
Yeah, so great job, Christina.
Stay with me.
Any other of my leaders?
I don't think anyone else is here tonight.
All right, Kalia, Laura,
are you all going in the breakout session?
Marley, Perla?
If not, can you put that in the chat for me
so I know whether or not to be watching,
to put you all somewhere else?
Okay.
All right, ladies.
I gotta get these people situated in rooms.
Did it pop you out, Jennifer?
I just sent you a new one
because I saw you were sitting there by yourself.
I'll have to send you a new one again.
Give me one sec, it's okay.
All right, that should be there for you.
All right, Father, thank you so much for your amazing grace.
God, thank you that your mercy is new every morning,
and we have an opportunity tonight
for every person that's a part of this live session,
as well as those that will watch the replay
to step further into the freedom
that you have made available to us through Jesus Christ.
Hey, Marley, did it kick you out?
If you're talking, I can't hear you.
You'll have to unmute,
or you can put it in the chat, either way.
Okay, I was just transferring from my phone to my laptop,
so if I can go back to the-
Absolutely, let me put you,
there should be a link for you.
I don't know if it's the same room you were in.
No, it's not the same, but that's fine.
Thank you.
Laura, that's totally fine
that you're just kind of listening in tonight.
Totally understand, glad you're here.
All right, I'm gonna keep praying.
Father, thank you so much for,
just a reminder, Lord, that your love is unconditional,
and that nothing can separate us from your love,
not height, nor depth, nor principality,
nor power, nor things in the present,
nor things to come.
God, that you choose us,
even in the midst of our sin and our struggles,
that you love us, you pursue us,
that your loving kindness is what leads us to repentance.
So, Lord, I ask for just your presence
to be manifest tonight,
that every lady would just,
that you would wash over this place
with your loving kindness,
that you would help them to see themselves
through your eyes more and more and more,
and to hear what your spirit is saying
louder than any voice of the enemy.
God, that you would remove any kind of fear,
anxiety, panic, or worry.
God, we thank you that you would bring peace,
supernatural peace into their hearts,
their minds, their spirits, and souls,
that you would bring freedom and liberty
to those that have been captive.
Lord, we know that your word declares
that where the spirit of the Lord is,
there is freedom and liberty.
So we thank you, Holy Spirit, for being here.
We thank you that you're doing an amazing work
in all of us,
and that you're gonna continue that work,
even as we continue to declare scriptures,
and in all things, God, that you're just moving.
And yeah, Lord, I just thank you
that you will help the ladies also to recognize
all the ways that you're proud of them tonight.
Lord, that you're looking at your daughters,
and you are turning your face towards them tonight,
and that you dance and rejoice over them with singing.
Jeremiah 31.3 says,
I have loved you with an everlasting love.
Therefore, I've drawn you with loving kindness.
Miss Emily, did it kick you out?
And Amanda, did y'all get kicked out?
It kicked my partner out, the person that was in there,
and she hasn't come back in yet, so.
All right, let me get you in a different room, Amanda.
Okay.
Hold on, I just gotta find one that has,
yeah, okay, I'll do that.
There you go.
Emily, did you just join us?
It's okay if so, I just wanna put you in a room.
They're doing what, the question they're answering
right now is what do you need to confess?
So we're doing repentance and confession tonight, okay?
So that is what they're chatting about.
Here, is that room for you to join?
All right.
We have people keep coming in.
Hey, Lolita, we're doing a breakout session right now,
and it's on what do you need to confess?
We've been talking about confession and repentance,
so I'm gonna put you in a room with some of the ladies.
Okay, thanks.
All right, you're welcome, there you go.
All right, I think we've got most people situated now.
Okay, so let's see here, ladies.
Yeah, this one was really cool.
I was reading the scripture today,
and as I was reading, it was talking about
how much the Father loves us,
and He wants to express His love and affection to us.
It's John 16, 27,
for the Father Himself loves you
because you have loved me
and have believed that I came forth from the Father.
So we thank you, Lord,
that you do desire to bestow your affection
and your grace and your goodness onto our lives.
We thank you that we can experience the goodness of God
in the land of the living,
that we don't have to wait until we get to heaven
to experience your goodness, Lord.
And I thank you, Lord,
that every one of these ladies tonight
would know the love of Christ,
which surpasses knowledge,
that they might be filled up to all the fullness of God,
to overflowing,
so that they would experience joy unspeakable
and full of glory.
We thank you that you, Lord, are the joy of our salvation,
that everything that we need, you have,
and you make it available to us,
even in this moment right now.
Hi there, I'm not sure what your name is
with your phone number.
If you can click on, like hover over your profile
and click on the three dots,
and then go down to rename
and just put your first name in there, that'll help us.
But they're about to finish the first breakout session,
so I'm just gonna keep you here with us.
Ephesians 2, four through six says,
"'But God, being rich in mercy because of His great love,
"'with which He loved us,
"'even when we were dead in our transgressions,
"'made us alive together with Christ.
"'By grace, you have been saved and raised us up with Him
"'and seated us with Him in the heavenly places
"'in Christ Jesus.'"
So Lord, we just thank you tonight
that you have seated us in heavenly places.
I thank you that you will help us make choices
in the physical realm
that enable us to partner with heaven,
that enable us to walk into the fullness of your plans
and your promises for us,
that we would, yeah, Lord,
lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us,
that we would press on toward the high calling of God
for our lives,
that we would not run and grow weary for in due season
if we don't faint, we will reap.
So Lord, we thank you that you're gonna enable us
to step into seasons of reaping,
not only where we've sown,
but Lord, also where we haven't sown.
We thank you for, just Lord,
your goodness and your heart towards us.
I just keep hearing that scripture
over and over and over again tonight too
about how God will prepare a table for us
in the presence of our enemies.
So I wanna speak that over everybody
that's a part of this heartwork community,
that God is working in your situation and your circumstance
and even where it seems dim or it seems impossible
or it seems like your enemy has the upper hand
is what I'm hearing in my spirit,
that the enemy does not have the upper hand
and God is still on the throne.
Jesus is sitting at the right hand of the father right now,
interceding for all of us
for that breakthrough that we need.
So we just thank you God for that right now,
that everybody that's seeking the father for a breakthrough
in any area of need where the enemy has seemed
like he's winning, we know who wins, Jesus wins.
So we partner with Jesus and we see him bring these things
to life and fruition in our lives.
Welcome back, ladies.
Welcome back, welcome back.
All right, awesome.
So who is willing for those joining for the first time,
this is when we do group share
and then I'll do some coaching.
We'll do as many as we can.
10 tonight before we move into the next part of our session.
Who is able or willing to share tonight?
All right.
Laura, go ahead and kick us off.
I love that.
Okay.
Yeah, I've shared about this before,
but it's kind of like a work in progress.
All right.
It's just that like,
I have like worked through like forgiveness,
like towards like the ex over like,
like the first like couple of years,
like after our divorce,
and then like he remarried again in February of this year.
So like it brought up like other things for me.
And then, yeah, I was telling my group that I've literally,
I haven't worked outside the home for like 20 years.
And so a lot of times my mind goes to,
even though like I don't want to be with him anymore
or whatever,
that like my life was easier financially
when he was like providing.
And just like,
I still have like some resentment towards
like that our family fell apart
and our marriage fell apart and whatever.
Yes.
And you know, this is really important.
Some of these situations,
it might take you a little bit to work through them
because you're going to be processing
and asking the Lord to reveal the root.
And you're going to let like,
God's going to reveal whatever that first thing is
that needs to be revealed.
And hopefully you're going to lean into that
and work with him on that.
And then as you go,
God might reveal another layer of that,
that you need healing.
You need to step into forgiveness or repent,
you know, and sometimes it is a process.
So I don't want you to get discouraged
if you're someone that has a situation like that,
that God's kind of helping you unpack it.
Because here, think about it like this too.
Have you ever seen a jar where like,
I have these jars,
glass jars that I've been putting shells in
and the bigger shells kind of like fill it up,
but there's all these empty cracks and crevices in there.
And so if I dumped a bunch of sand in there,
all that sand would go down into the crevices
and the cracks, if you will.
And so sometimes when we go through these situations,
there's this stuff that, you know,
we don't even realize thought patterns, habits,
mindsets that kind of get into the cracks
and crevices of our hearts.
So we're going to be able to deal with the big stuff,
pretty quick, but the cracks and crevices
and that stuff that's gotten down in there,
it might take us a little bit longer to get to that.
And God will just do some stuff supernaturally, ladies.
Okay, so don't worry if no matter
what your process looks like,
just this is again, surrendering the process
and how it has to look compared to other people
and all that stuff.
So Laura, you're doing a great job.
Really want to encourage you to continue to,
even though I understand what you're saying,
because I also, when I went through my divorce,
I literally almost literally like lost everything.
So I packed up, had to move out,
almost lost my vehicle again, had two jobs,
was working my butt off.
And I can remember one night going to my truck
after the late, late, I'd worked all day
and then worked all night and was so exhausted.
And I just remember crying like, God,
like, is this how I'm going to live the rest of my life?
I just remember being so tore up, but here's the thing,
that was for a moment, that didn't have to be my life.
And so God started showing me,
no, that wasn't his life for me.
And so I'm saying that to you because there are times
where we have physical things that are impacted
by other people's decisions
and we experience the impact of that,
but that doesn't have to be our forever.
So for example, now, even before I met Brian,
I was working full-time and God opened the door for me.
I was working full-time.
I started working at a church
and then God opened this opportunity
with Jackie and everything here.
Now it wasn't to the level that it is now,
but I started, and this kind of stuff
has been my dream for many years.
But I had to start believing that God had new things for me.
And that's where it started.
It started in my belief.
So I wanna encourage you all,
anyone that's kind of in Laura's situation
or similar situations where, yeah,
maybe life is gonna look a little different.
Maybe it's not gonna be exactly the same as it was before,
but what if, what if it could be better?
What if it could be better?
I just wanna plant that seed
and we'll let the Holy Spirit simmer in that for you all
and let Him say what that could look like for you.
Awesome, Cherylora.
Rebecca, go ahead.
Okay, thank you.
I had a beautiful connection with a Nicole here, hi.
Nicole was beautiful. I didn't I kind of come in late. So I was
just kind of grasping the concept of what we were doing.
And so I didn't have a lot of time to think about it. And but
the thing that came right to me, like immediately was self
loathing, and continuing to work in the says looks like you're
done talking and we'll lower your Okay, I don't know what
that meant. But working in the orphan spirit, I can't I'm
having a really hard time accepting the good things. God's
doing amazing, miraculous good things in my life right now. And
it I shared an example of even like I've lost 92 pounds over
the last two years of my trauma and healing, but I can't see it.
I don't see it. Um, you know, there's some really great things
happening in my world. And receiving those good things is
still very, very difficult. And I and I know that I feel very
bad about that. I keep asking the Lord for forgiveness for not
being able to accept his goodness and the fruits of the
way he's been blessing me lately. And I have a tendency to
pinpoint like, zero in on the negative. Like I had a wonderful
weekend and experience this weekend, some great things, and
I'll pick out the negative, the one negative thing that happened
this weekend before I'll see the positive. And I know that
that is a route that needs to be uprooted. And I'm tired of it.
This is so good, Rebecca. So let me ask you a question. Are you
someone that struggles with you're afraid the other shoes
always going to drop?
Always? Yeah, it's no, that's not right. But
well, here's the thing. I want you. Okay, so I'm going to
encourage you ladies. I want you just to breathe and just receive
grace right now. Because here's the thing, we can know something
isn't God's best for us in our minds. This is what Jackie talks
about, but our hearts don't know it yet. And so I really want to
encourage you all to give yourself a lot of grace in this
process of healing. Because we don't know what we don't know
until we know it. And while you might know, okay, God, I know
that you don't want me to think like this. And I know you don't
want me to hone in on the negative thing. But Lord, I
trust that you're going to show me in the in the due season at
the right time, like what's going on in my heart that caused
me to start down that path to begin with. You know, and ladies,
some of this stuff is learned, some of it is learned, some of
its earned. You know, I say that not because what we earned isn't
what someone did to us. But sometimes our choices, I'm not
saying that we earned it in a, you know, I'm not trying to be
negative. But sometimes the reality is, is we are facing
things today because of decisions we have made, right.
But so we got to come out, we got to come out of alignment
with that stuff. You know, and the pathways that it took us
down because of the environments we were in the people that we
were around, because we chose unhealthy things or whatever
that looks like. And Rebecca, I'm not saying that's you, I'm
just kind of kind of running with this for a minute. But
just, you know, the self loathing, I really want to
encourage you on that, Rebecca, in particular to ask the Lord,
when did that like, when was the first time you actually were
like, kind of loathe yourself?
I know the exact moment. I was five. And I told my mother, I
came out one late night in the middle of the night, she was
still up and I came to her and I said, I hated myself and I
wanted to die. And I was five. And so she says, Well, that's a
sin to hate yourself. And you need to repent of that. And so
we had a, you know, like she that was not a very, it wasn't a
very loving response. And I think it's generational. I think
that is a generational thing. I know that most of my family
members struggle with that. And, but I remember it so
distinctly, I was only five, but it was such a vivid memory of
me truly hating everything about myself. And, and I think a lot
of it was programmed, and talked to me from generational
people, and, and stuff. And I think that that's the
programming of also the vision of who I had, I'm working
through and who I see my Heavenly Father to be. It's
like, you know, he, he would, oh, yes, I want good things for
you. But it's, it's not going to be what you really desire, it's
going to be better for you. So you just need to accept what I
give you, even if it hurts, because
Okay, so I'm gonna, I'm gonna have you pause there. Because
here's the truth. No, no, this is great. Rebecca, you're this
is good. This is how we unpack things, ladies. And if I jump
in, it's you please don't feel like you did something wrong.
Okay, because you didn't. I just I'm, I'm feeling some things in
the spirit. And so I'm wanting to jump in because I want to I
want to also kind of kind of take this back and forth
between us a little bit. This helps other people too. So a
couple things super important
on this as well. I really am sensing that the five years old was not the first time
that you were attacked by the enemy in this way. So I'm not sure what it was and we don't need to
uncover that tonight if you don't know, but I really want to encourage you to ask the Lord
to show you if there was a time before you were five years old. I really believe it was an attack
of the enemy. It wasn't just a thought that you had. This is something the enemy was placing
in your mind and you weren't old enough to know any different. Okay. You weren't, you didn't know,
you didn't, and you know, let me also say this. I'm sorry for the way that that kind of was unpacked
for you that night and the shame that I think that maybe entered in. And I don't know that
your mom meant that, but it sounds like she was just trying to speak truth to you and probably
didn't know what else to do. It's okay. I'm just saying, I'm just, I don't know your mom and I
wasn't there. So I just want you to be open. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I want you to be open to whatever the
Lord wants to reveal to you through this. The other thing is that I wrote a post to I'm going
to use crystal again, just cause she did a post and it was really powerful in what she was
processing. She was working through some hard stuff. It's in the group. If you want to go and
look in the community tab, I think that, or ask a coach it's somewhere in there. But one of the
things that I shared and coached on last week, ladies, while we understand and know that there
can be generational negative things that happen and are carried down. And we want to have knowledge
of those things. But sometimes we get so focused on that, that we forget the other side of the
scripture that talks about generational blessings. And it's super important for us to have balance
there. Okay. The enemy wants us to focus on all the negative because that's, if we focus more on
him, then that's what the power is given to. So we want to focus and balance that out. Okay, Lord,
but you brought me here to be a Kinsman redeemer. I believe God is, I love you. And I follow your
commandments that you're going to bless my life and you're going to bless generations to come.
And not only that, but you're going to go into time, my family timeline, and you can recorrect
and redeem anything. He can literally move in and out of our whole timeline. Time is not like,
it's not like what we know it as. It's different for him. And so we can ask him to go into those
places and those, the depths of, you know, even if it is generational to go into the source
and just lovingly put his finger on that place. Okay. And so we really want you all to start
partnering with those kinds of thoughts. Well, I want you to have knowledge of what's come through
your family to a degree. This is where it's really important that we don't dig. We don't try to turn
up rocks of our family lines. We just ask the Holy spirit to reveal things for healing. If he reveals
it cool, but if it's coming up through other ways, we want to be really careful with that. Okay. And
Rebecca, I'm not saying that that's how that came to be for you, but just want everyone to know that.
And we, the reason that it's important is we don't want to retraumatize ourselves. Okay. All right,
Rebecca, great share. You did awesome. Thank you so much for your courage to share that. That was
great. Amy, go ahead. Hi. Hi. So when we were talking earlier and you were sharing things and
giving examples the Lord brought to mind, I'm just starting to think about Christmas.
Oh, it's been a busy season. But thinking about like, which one of my parents do I go see? Do I
try to pack them into one day? Sort of a thing. But what I feel like you revealed to me is that
I have been a peace, I'm going to say this, right? A peace keeper, not a peacemaker.
And that I tend to sacrifice myself to make my parents happy. Because if I don't do it,
like it's going to be chaos sort of a thing. And so I don't know exactly what it would
be repenting of. But that's like the big memory that's coming to mind. And I can see it like,
he's been speaking about being a peacemaker, actively trying to say it right. And other
areas of life too. So I feel like it's a big thing that he's just like, hey, pay attention.
Um, yeah, so that's so good. I the first thing that comes to mind is this isn't a sin you need
to repent of, but it just is an area like a habit. To me, this would fall under harmful habits that
I was saying. So some of it is us coming out of and repenting for sin. Some of it's
us coming out of alignment and agreement with harmful habits.
Um, people pleasing is, is harmful to us, especially when we are doing it to
the point that we're harming ourselves.
Okay.
And so I would encourage you to be praying this week about boundaries,
like what are the boundaries and ask the Lord, Lord, what boundaries do
you want me to put in place so that I can walk in your peace this season?
Now understand ladies, that peace isn't always, um, just there.
Okay.
Sometimes we're going to actually experience God as peace.
Y'all know that the word declares he himself is peace and we will experience
him in greater depths and greater revelation, even in the midst of
hardship, but that doesn't mean we have to just put up with people being
unhealthy either.
Okay.
So it's okay for you to set healthy boundaries and really ask the
Lord.
Um, I would also say what comes to mind, um, Amy, is that if we are people
pleasing and we're just trying to keep peace to keep people happy, then there's
a little bit of underlying where we're lying to some degree because in all
reality, and we're not doing it overt, like we're not like overtly lying in a
sense, but if we are just going along with what everybody else wants to keep
them happy, we're actually lying to ourselves.
And sometimes we're lying to other people just to, just to keep peace.
Now, I'm not saying that, like, I can be like, Oh, Amy lied about this, but
like, I feel like that is connected under there and lying to ourselves and
devaluing ourselves is super huge, tied into identity and like self worth
struggles.
Okay.
So all those kinds of might be kind of connected in little ways to each other.
And so as you lean into this, the Lord might reveal a little bit more, um, and
just ask, I would just ask him again, I I'm, I'm so big on sending you guys back
to the father because he literally knows you better than you know yourself.
And so just asking him, Lord, is there any time where I've actually like lied to
myself and told myself that I'm, I'm good when I wasn't, you know what I'm saying?
Just to keep the peace, but really inside I was hurting or I was sad or, you know,
I didn't really want to go do that thing, but I felt forced to, in some sense, or
whether the forcing is us doing it, because sometimes you all, we do it to
ourselves.
We convince ourselves that people are going to be mad.
That may not be.
I know y'all that is, you got to unpack that Stephanie.
I see you girl.
Yeah.
So there, there are a lot of layers to the ways that we, we will sometimes lie to
ourselves just because we feel like if it's going to make other people happy,
we'll deny ourselves, but that's, that's not healthy for us in, in any relationship.
And so if we do that in our relationships with our family and our friends, then we
will tend to do that in romantic relationships and it will end up hurting us.
Yeah.
Great share, Amy.
I hope that that's helpful if you know, as the Lord, I believe whether it's this
week or whenever I would love to have you do a post on that just so that we can kind
of see what the Lord is revealing to you and help you unpack that a little bit
more, because I feel like there might be some additional layers as you lean into that
a little bit.
Okay.
Awesome.
Thank you.
Crystal, go ahead.
Okay.
So, um, two things.
So last week you had asked me, um, the same kind of thing came up and I gave the example
of my mom driving crazy and how I was terrified.
And you asked me to go back and ask the Holy spirit about that.
And then all this other kind of stuff unpacked.
So, um, yesterday I spent a lot of time and I just, I broke the generational curse and
I had actually written out the verse that you had given me, um, like on a cue card and
with pen and that.
And, um, so I did that.
And then I broke the curse and I was like, Lord, I want to receive the general generational
blessing of that and change that all around.
And the Holy spirit's like, I want you to change the scripture because he was like,
he was like the thing that you've been given from the beginning was fear.
And he was like, that didn't come from me.
And he was like, I wanted to give you faith.
And he was like, you were so full of faith as a child.
So I changed the scripture to, I, crystal parent have a spirit of faith.
He's like, I don't even want you to say the word anymore that, because that used to be
one of my favorite scriptures.
Like God, hasn't given me a spirit of fear.
He's like, I don't even want you to say the word.
He was like, let's not even acknowledge that anymore.
He's like, let's.
just acknowledge what I gave you instead. And once I broke it, I
was in the kitchen. And the Holy Spirit was so sweet, because he
brought to the memory, the car memory. And then he, he brought
to mind something my mom said, that her father used to drive,
they were five kids, he used to put them in the car. And he used
to drive them to the beach, and he was drunk. And I and a Holy
Spirit said, How do you expect to do her to do anything
different than what she learned. And it was such a sweet moment.
And he and then he gave me another picture of her being
scared. And he was like, you know, he was like, she did the
best that she could. And it was just so sweet, because we
expect to receive from people things that they can't give us.
And when you get that deep, deep understanding, like this
already happened for me, it was my father a long time ago, but
it hadn't happened for my mother yet. And when the Holy Spirit
showed me that it was just such compassion for my mom and the
things that that had happened to me. And then in my group, I had
shared this kindergarten man, kindergarten is a killer. I
won't say it shouldn't say that. But anyways, my kindergarten
teacher, my struggle with authority, my kindergarten
teacher put me in the corner with the dunce hat on and laughed
at me for helping another kid out. And that's where my
authority struggle, the Holy Spirit showed me came from, like
that just people, leaders, teachers, counselors don't have
my best interest in mind.
Yes. So Chris, I want to encourage you this week, I'm
going to give you another assignment. I want you to ask
Jesus to literally show you him taking you out of that corner in
kindergarten. And what that looks like, and feels like
taking the hat off you, and what his heart was for you in that
time, ladies, this is this is really where, you know, these
situations that we go through, again, not passing these things
over, but understanding how that like, what did that right? And
she doesn't have to answer it. But what does that kind of stuff
right on our hearts in those moments? And on our identity?
How does that mark us? And how do we live into life through
those things? This is why we cannot lean like, I will say
it's in your best interest when these kind of things come up to
say to the Father, thank you for bringing this up. Show me
what you're trying to reveal to me through it. Because he knows
how to lead you into wide open spaces. He knows how to lead you
into the new rivers and streams flowing in the desert places of
your life. Crystal, thank you for sharing about the situation
with your mom and what God showed you as well. Ladies, this
is this is a supernatural process that you're in. And this
is the path that God wants you all to get to. And everybody
will get there at different times. So don't fall into
comparison or anything like that, because the enemy will try
to do that quick. But just know that God wants all of us to
learn how to have compassion and empathy for people who have
harmed us. It doesn't mean you have to let them back into your
life or let them do the same kind of things to you. But our
heart posture and our heart health is key. Okay. Love what
God is doing in all these things he's revealing to you. Crystal,
thank you for sharing. We'll take one more and then I'm going
to go into the other content for the night. Alina, go ahead.
Hi. Hi. This is the first time I'm sharing on here. Feels a
little bit vulnerable. But um, yeah, for me, it's been going in
circles with relationship. And that I knew I didn't want in the
beginning. And then he was just super persistent. And, and I
thought I was falling for him at some point. And then kind of we
got to the point where now, I know that I shouldn't go back to
it. And I find myself doing it anyway, like, I see myself. I'm
doing that, even though in my head, I know, I that's not what
I want. And I think it's tied to like, sexual cycles. On both of
our ends, I think.
Do you mean like, are you saying hormonal cycles? Is that what
you mean?
Or even like addiction or like, um, but I think it's got to be
more than that. And I can't figure out because it's gone on
for years. And I can't we can't seem to like move on. Like, I'm
just really tired of this cycle. And I feel like I've had
some bad dreams whenever I connect with him and yet I can't seem to just completely move on from it.
What week are you in, just so that I remember, Alina? I know like second, but I'm not
through with reading. I'm kind of needing to figure out a schedule for that. That's okay.
I'm asking just because as you get further into the program, I'm going to look right now. I'm
sorry. I normally remember this off the top of my head, but I don't remember right now.
Okay. See what, okay. So when you get into week three, don't rush it. Go ahead and finish what
you're doing in week two, because again, this program is built for like the progression is,
is important. So that's why we really encourage y'all not to binge watch videos and just watch
through all the videos. The videos in the book go hand in hand with the journaling, right? But when
you get to week three, one of the videos in there is breaking soul ties. And I think that's going
to help you quite a bit. It's going to lead you through how to break soul ties with this man
that you all have created, you know, through having, it sounds like maybe some sexual
type encounters together, whether it's old stuff or new stuff, but also, you know,
soul ties, aren't just sexual. They're all, there's so many kinds of soul ties, spiritual,
emotional. And so listening to that, it will help you understand maybe the different things that
might still be connecting you with this man in multiple ways. Okay. And so want to say that first.
And the other thing is that what I have found from my life, I'm not saying this will be the same for
you, but when I was struggling with going back to a relationship with someone that wasn't healthy
for me, talk a lot about my spiritual daughters and their dad, and how I often went into relation,
like I was just in relationship with him for six years, cheated on me multiple times. It was just
very, very unhealthy and bad. But I kept staying. And so when I finally was working on, I started
seeing a counselor, even like a year and a half before I broke up with him, that's how long it
took me to get to the place. Now his daughters were involved. And so I just was really terrified
of losing them. There was a lot going on there, but at the core, when I had to look at what was
going on in me is I didn't believe I deserved better. I didn't believe like that. I could keep
someone that was consistently healthy. I didn't know how to live outside of chaos
because my whole life I'd grown up in chaos in relationships and family and like my mom
and dad fought all the time, other than my grandparents, that is what I knew.
And so I was used to chaos. And so to learn how to come out of chaos living and how to live in,
in a relationship with someone who's peaceful, it's a whole different ball game, but it's so
great when we finally get there, ladies, it's so great, but we have to start making that shift.
You know, I would really encourage you to just, and we're going to do some work on this tonight.
So this is really great. It's going to be a good segue. Our activation for this week is going to
be focused on you all really asking God to show you the good stuff in yourself. Like what is your
value? What is your worth? How does God see you? What does he want you to know about yourself?
All of that kind of stuff. So I'm going to share more about that in a little bit,
but Alina, I would encourage you to really be asking the Lord to show you any areas where you
might have low self-worth. And what is the root of those? Like, where did that start for you?
Ladies, we don't just struggle now, sexual, like with sexual stuff. This started somewhere for us.
So even with that, you know, Alina, you know, asking the Lord to show you when is the first time
that you, you know, entered into some kind of sexual encounter with someone
that that root might even still be causing you to struggle today.
Yeah. My uncle would start kind of inappropriately touching us. And I guess I took it as like,
I knew he was wrong. We were in church, you know, we grew up in church, but,
but part of me, I guess, got, got a sense of like, Oh, I'm liked, or I'm,
I've got a sense. I don't know, like, I don't know what, how to call it.
It's okay. So, ladies, one of the things I'll coach on this a little bit, and then we can circle
back to this more another time. But sometimes what can happen is we start to feel shame because our
bodies actually have a physical response to those things. And we can't help what our body does.
And so I want to encourage you or anyone else, if you've ever been through something like that, where you were introduced to sexual things well beyond like a very young age.
So way before you should have been, that you would just really ask the Lord to come into any areas of shame or guilt or condemnation that you've been like living in.
And that, you know, basically kind of like what I said to Crystal, like ask Jesus to show you like, what are his thoughts towards you?
What does he want you to know about that situation? How does he want to help you walk out of that?
You know, where we really invite him to be a part of the process with us and know that that is not our forever.
And this is just, this is like the beginning of all this for you.
There's so many good things ahead. I believe God's going to bring some major breakthrough from all of the questions that you're going to be leaning into.
Like when I say leaning in, basically what I mean by that ladies is you're going to go to him and you're just going to start talking to him.
The heartwork journey, we say, ask God good questions and keep having conversations with him and growing in your connection with him and letting him show you the way to truth.
Jesus is the way the truth in the life. So growing in your friendship with Jesus is going to be really important too. Okay.
So good. These are great questions. Alina, great share for your first time. Do you feel, how do you feel? You feel okay?
Yeah. Awesome. Awesome.
Yeah, ladies, sometimes it is hard to do it for your first time, but I promise so many of you all, it's going to be really good when you take that step.
All right. We're going to start to turn into the next part of our content for tonight. And it's called the real you.
And I want you to just be thinking about who is the real you? What is your true identity? And what do I mean by that is this, who did God originally create you to be?
Long before trauma and pain entered your world, when God was forming you and he's putting you all together, who did he originally create you to be?
Now you can't know that in your own understanding. Okay. You can know it in part, but God is the one that needs to be the one like revealing those things to you.
So as you start to lean into this with the Lord, you start having conversations with him about it and talking to him and letting him show you all the things.
I want you to also process some of this stuff.
So in Genesis, when we have the story of Adam and Eve, Adam and Eve ate of the fruit, they realized they were naked.
They covered themselves and they hid and God comes looking for them in the garden.
And God says to Adam, when he finds them, he basically says, who like, basically, why are you hiding? Number one, I'm paraphrasing.
But then he says, who told you that you were naked?
So my question to you all tonight is who told you that you were naked?
And what I mean by that is, you know, some of you believe you're stupid. Some of you believe you're fat. Some of you believe you're not pretty, whatever the negative things are that you hear that you think about yourself.
You know, some of you feel like you want a promotion, but you really don't know if you can get it because you don't know if you're qualified.
And so I have people that even know like they have leadership ability, but they don't see that stuff in themselves.
Why is that?
I think that the business I saw, not business, I saw Stephanie's thing and read said business as I read that. That was so funny. Sorry, y'all.
I think basically God is just trying to invite you out of hiding and he's trying to invite you out of the shame and the guilt and all of the things that the enemy has tried to put on you for a long, long time.
So who told you that you were these things? Where did they originate? Did they originate from the heart of the father?
Did they originate from, you know, when you were formed? If they're negative? No, they didn't.
God did not put those kinds of things in us. Long ago, I don't remember if it was your all's group or how long ago I've shared it, but God did not.
Like I used to struggle so bad with fear and so bad with anxiety, like bad you all.
And I remember one day, I'm just really struggling with it. And I said to God, why did you make me this way?
I was driving to work and that was my question to him. And he said, as plain as I'm like, I wasn't audible, but it was that quick in my spirit, the still small voice.
He was he was speaking, but it was he was talking loud, not yelling, but just talking loud and very clear.
He said, I didn't. And I was kind of like, what?
Well, I've always been like this. And he said, no, you haven't.
I was not formed with anxiousness and fear in me, you all.
Trauma and pain in my life opened the door to that.
So I want you all to really be looking at,
okay, am I walking around carrying stuff
and acknowledging it as a part of my identity
and who I am, but it actually never
was meant to belong to me?
It was never meant to be a part of who I am,
but I live in this story and I tell myself this is who I am,
or this is how it's always gonna be, some of you all,
and I'm not knocking this, some of us
have had physical things, we've battled our whole lives
because the enemy is the one that assaults us,
he brings death, disease, and destruction,
he wants to hinder us from moving into the fullness
of what God has for us,
and he will do it any way that he can.
Praise God that he sent Jesus and Jesus chose to come
and he chose to allow his body to be broken
and his blood to be shed so that we can have freedom
and liberty and live in the fullness and be blessed
in all of these things and be in relationship
that we never have to do life alone,
so we don't have to live in that nakedness,
we don't have to live in that shame,
and we don't have to live under the rubble
or the mess of our lives.
You are a supernova, each one of you is carrying something
that can absolutely change the world.
Will it be on a platform?
I don't know, a lot of times it's one person at a time,
but I'm telling you ladies that we're sharing things
and God is using us to change the world.
Now, here's another thing,
even if some of you choose to never use the things
that you've been through to reach someone else as you heal,
God will love you just as much.
It's not about what you can do for him,
that's not the point.
The reason I do what I do is because I've been healed
and I've been able to share it to myself.
Like it's out of the overflow of what he's done for me,
he's radically changed my entire life
and I can't help but share it.
You know, I don't want the rocks crying out for me, ladies.
I wanna praise him, I wanna tell of his goodness,
of his glory, of his love, and how much he's a good father
because I didn't have a good father on this earth,
but he's been my dad for sure
and he's shown me that more and more and more every day.
Alina, I'm so sorry that you didn't have a daddy either.
Anyone else?
I didn't go into this today,
so the Holy Spirit must be up on that.
But each one of us, we carry things
and God is doing stuff and he's moving in us.
Romans 8, 37 through 39 says,
"'No, in all these things we are more than conquerors
"'through him who loved us,
"'for I am convinced that neither death nor life,
"'nor angels nor demons, nor the present nor the future,
"'nor any powers, neither height nor depth,
"'nor anything else in all of creation
"'will be able to separate us from the love of God
"'that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.'"
If God is for you, ladies, who can be against you?
Will we experience trials and tribulation in this world?
Yes, we will.
But God can help you overcome every single one of them.
It's time.
It's time for what, you say?
What is it time for?
Well, it's time for you all to awaken.
Who is you?
You are princesses.
Maybe you've never seen yourself that way,
but that is who you are.
So I kind of want you all to imagine this.
I didn't do this this afternoon,
but this just came up in my spirit
as I'm looking at actually Kim W.
For whatever reason, Kim W,
God wants you to know that he does see you as a princess,
and I don't know that you see yourself that way,
but we're gonna do an activation this week
that's gonna be extra, okay?
I didn't have this on my paper,
but I keep looking at Kim W.
God is highlighting you to me in massive ways.
He sees you, he knows the cries of your heart,
and he wants you to know he's been working on your behalf
in ways you don't even know right now.
But ladies, we're gonna partner
with being a princess this week.
So some of you all who feel led,
I know that not every one of you will do this,
and that's okay, but whoever is willing,
I want you to ask the Lord
to help you find some princess gear this week.
Maybe it's a tiara, maybe, I don't know,
maybe it's some kind of a cape.
I'm just gonna put it out there.
I'll let you guys do whatever you want,
and I would love for you to,
you can put it on yourself and share a picture in the group.
You can just take a picture of it,
but let's just have some fun with this too.
For some of you, this is gonna feel hard,
but God wants you to know that he does see you as a princess,
God wants you to partner with grace and ease,
and I don't know that you see yourself as a princess.
grace and ease.
But ladies, we're gonna partner with being a princess this week
A sequined dress, sure, whatever.
If you think of a sequined dress
and that's what God is nudging you to go do,
there's something on that for you.
This is about partnering with,
you know, when we were little girls,
and I'm not saying every little girl was this way,
because some little girls like to climb trees
and they like to just get dirty,
but there's a little princess on the inside of that too.
Y'all, this isn't so much, I said this this afternoon,
it's not so much about having to have your makeup done
and all the things, but there is a part of us,
and I found this to be so true, ladies,
that when we don't believe we are beautiful on the inside,
we stop doing things to care for ourselves on the outside.
And again, it's not about makeup,
it's about how, like, do we put any care or time
into our outfits or our hair or, you know,
guys are attracted to women that take care of themselves,
okay, but this tonight is more about
what's going on on the inside,
the princess that needs to awaken to your true identity.
And who is that and who does she look like
and what wakes her up and what makes her smile?
Some of you, you know,
maybe you might even feel the opposite.
I hear the Holy Spirit saying some of you,
your moms wanted you to be in pageants
and they paraded you around,
and so you're like,
I don't want anything to do with princess anything.
If that's you, I wanna encourage you to let God
come into those areas and heal that for you,
because that just got overextended.
God never wanted that to be misused and mishandled.
Okay, I gotta keep going, because we're at 912,
but I feel like there's a lot,
you guys were laughing and really smiling
when I was talking about tiaras and princess gear.
So I think some of you are liking this idea.
So I can't wait to see what's happening through that.
And maybe some of you are just laughing
because you're like,
I can't believe you're asking me to do this.
I don't know which one,
but I think it's gonna be really great.
All right, okay.
And I did accept that challenge years ago.
Y'all just so you know,
Jackie issued that challenge way, way back.
And a lot of us did.
Look, Stephanie, I knew one of y'all had a tiara.
I knew it.
All right, girl.
She's got some kind of tiara, some kind of pick.
Oh, that's so pretty.
Okay, here, look at this.
Y'all, this is good.
See, doesn't this make us feel good and alive?
You know what else this is gonna do in you all?
You're gonna start to dream about what God has for you
in every area of your life.
Just watch and see.
Watch and see.
All right, Ephesians 5, 14 says,
"'Awake, awake, O sleeper, and rise up from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.'"
What are we being awakened by?
We're being awakened by true love's kiss.
The Father is our true love.
Is he gonna physically kiss you?
No, that's not what I'm saying.
But the kiss of heaven, he's gonna come,
and he's literally like, you know,
if you imagine Sleeping Beauty,
and not in the kissing sense,
but literally that he's gonna come down,
and he's gonna minister so much in your soul,
in your spirit, that he's gonna awaken you to stuff
that you have long pressed down,
that other people's words
and their harsh behavior pressed down in you,
things that just got just shattered.
And God is going to literally,
he's picking up the pieces, ladies,
and he's lovingly, he's holding them,
and he's grafting them together,
and he's making a masterpiece out of these things in you.
And you're gonna see this more and more and more.
I wanna encourage you all to awaken to your true identity
and allow God, and this is not just your true identity
that you think in your minds, but the God-given identity,
okay, that you would awaken to restoration,
that you would awaken to your big, bold future.
And this is where the dream's awakening.
So I wanna encourage you all,
if childhood dreams start bubbling to the surface,
write those things down,
dreams that you had as a kid,
things that you wanted to try or go do,
and somebody told you you couldn't for whatever reason,
or life in the world told you
that you couldn't, write those things down.
If you get new dreams, God starts giving you new ideas.
Maybe you wanna go try some kind of new cooking class.
Maybe you wanna go back to school.
Maybe you wanna try a new career.
Maybe you decide that you feel called to ministry.
I don't know what your thing is.
And maybe you won't feel any of those things,
but maybe it's something totally different for you.
I wanna maybe to paint, maybe if some of you like,
maybe you haven't painted or drawn in a long time,
but you have all of this artistic ability.
Sing, I don't know. Do any of you like to sing in your car? I love to sing loud in my car and just
jam out. I love it. It's so fun. Yeah, I like, sometimes I love it. It's kind of funny. I'll,
I'll just be singing along and then I'll look and then someone will be looking right at me.
It's just kind of, I laugh. It's fun, isn't it? Yeah. So let's just awaken to whatever
needs to be awakened in us. Okay. We're going to go into breakout sessions and this is what
we're going to talk about. In what ways does the enemy challenge the real you?
Does he often use comparison, competition, or imitation? Or does he use all of those?
And how do these tend to show up in your life? So I want you to think about how, in what ways,
like when you start leaning into who you really are, how does the enemy often try to push that
back down or challenge that? Does he try to get you to compare yourself to other people,
feel like you got to compete with other people, or act like you're somebody that you're not?
Those are the comparison, competition, imitation. Okay. And how do these tend to show up for you?
All right. I'm going to put you in your breakout rooms. I am recreating them because I want y'all
to get to know some new people tonight and we're going to do short, brief, and powerful on this
one. Okay. So we're going to do six minutes. And actually, I think I want to do those a little.
Okay. That's good. All right. Here you go.
Any leaders from the training group stay with me?
All right. I think almost got everyone situated. I have one more person I got to move around here.
And I think everyone is good. All right. Father, thank you so much for awakening every one of
these ladies to their true identity. The identity that you originally created for them when you
formed them long ago in their mother's womb. And I thank you, God, for every quality and gift that
you've placed within them. I thank you, God, that you have created them fearfully and wonderfully
made and that you didn't mess up. You didn't forget anything. God, I thank you that you would
awaken dreams in them, even now, that you would start to help them just remember things that they
would have loved to have gone and done. But for whatever reason, God, they didn't.
Lord, help them to hear what your spirit is saying to them louder than any voice of the enemy.
We thank you that you would shut the mouths of the lions, just like you did
with Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego and Daniel when they were in the lion's den. And you shut
the mouth of the lion in the place of harm that the enemy tries to put us in. God, we thank you
that you defend us, that you protect us, that you're always guarding and watching over us. We
thank you, Lord, that Philippians 1, 6 says, There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that
the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish
on the very day Christ Jesus appears. So good. God is always going to continue the work that
he's already begun in us. He's not going to stop. He loves us. He's going to continue to pursue us
and unfold those things within us. Hebrews 10, 25 says, This is not the time to pull away and
neglect meeting together, as some have formed the habit of doing, because we need each other.
In fact, we should come together even more frequently, eager to encourage and urge each
other onward as we anticipate that day dawning. So the way I kind of interpret like what the
Lord is saying through that scripture tonight for all of us is that community is so important.
God has drawn each one of you ladies here for a divine purpose, for a divine assignment. He's
doing something in your life far beyond what you can imagine. But some of you may come through the
program and just kind of you do the curriculum, and that's amazing. Maybe you see some of the
things people post, but you don't really ever participate. And you can still receive 100%.
You can be blessed and receive breakthrough and freedom. But God has so much more for us when we
engage in the community, when we post, when we ask questions, when we share during the lives. And
God wants to help each one of you come out of hiding more and more and come into that community
that he has for you here during this time. Philippians 3, 12 says, I don't mean to say
that I've already achieved these things or that I've already reached perfection, but I press on
to possess that perfection which Christ Jesus first possessed me. Y'all, this isn't about
becoming perfect in the sense that we know perfection.
We are only made perfect through Jesus Christ and the redemption work that He does in us, okay?
So I want to make sure you all understand the beauty and the power of the freedom of what Christ is doing in us.
He's the hope of glory, right?
So let's lean towards Him and look up towards the heaven where our help comes from in every season and situation.
And yeah, I just keep thinking about these princesses awakening.
I want to encourage you all, those that watch this replay, I don't have time to go into the coaching with everybody on tonight.
But one of the things I shared this afternoon is from the movie Wreck-It Ralph.
If you've never seen it, I'm going to kind of spoil it, but it still will be really fun if you watch it.
But Wreck-It Ralph, it's this kid's movie where Wreck-It Ralph meets Vanellope.
When he meets Vanellope, she's inside of this video game because Wreck-It Ralph was also a video game.
And she's got this glitch. She's considered a glitch.
That's kind of how we meet her in the movie.
And as she's going throughout this movie and Wreck-It Ralph is getting to know her,
there's this whole scenario like in the beginning he was sent to do her harm,
but he starts getting to know her and finds out she's amazing.
And they become friends and this whole storyline's unfolding, right?
Well, as the movie progresses towards the end, the evil guy in the movie,
which we will, you know, it's not really Satan in the movie,
but I'm going to say in this world, it's kind of the same kind of thing.
The enemy's always seeking to kill, steal and destroy,
but Jesus Christ comes to give us life and give it to us more abundantly.
Or he sends people like us with skin on to help people in their time of need.
And so we get towards the end of the movie and Wreck-It Ralph, he's helping her.
And all of this stuff is happening and unfolding.
And basically what, what is revealed is Vanellope was never a glitch.
She was actually always a princess,
but the evil guy in the movie took a part of her out.
And that's what caused her to glitch because it was inside this video game.
Right.
And so I want you all to understand that the enemy basically came in when we
were traumatized. And in a sense,
I'm not saying he actually physically took a piece of you,
but he basically took a part of our soul and our spirit and he,
and he basically took that away. And Jesus Christ has come to take,
he's already won that piece back,
but he's like basically going to help us reconnect if you will,
in a sense to who we were originally created to be that, that,
that part of us will feel that restoration. We'll feel that peace.
We'll feel that redemptive work.
And as I was saying, Vanellope was always a princess.
And so towards the end of the movie,
we find that she comes and stands in her rightful place.
And all of the people in the land are recognizing her as the princess,
but she was always that.
Even when the movie was showing her as a glitch,
she was never really a glitch, but sometimes the enemy,
the things that he does and says to us, cause us to, if you will,
Glitch in this world.
And so when I encourage you to lean into the fact that you've always been a
princess and what does it look like and feel like to live and walk like a
princess this week, I want you all to be thinking about like,
how do you hold your head?
Like do you walk around in the world with your head down all the time?
Never looking anybody in the eye, or do you walk with your head up?
Not proud, humble, but confident.
How are we showing up in the world? Are we showing up with grace?
Are we showing up with, you know, this like, Hey, I'm meant to be here.
God has blessed my life. I'm so, I'm so happy to be awake today.
Are we dreading what the day is bringing?
Well, you ought to be thinking about that and processing that.
Welcome back ladies.
I've been talking the whole time while y'all were in breakouts.
So if y'all want to go back and catch that on replay, you can later.
I did the same thing earlier.
All right. We have a few minutes. Is there anyone that feels led to share?
Any, anything that you want to share from your breakout session?
Alicia, go ahead.
So I've been struggling to share some things for week three.
I think some people have seen that in the group and.
I can't remember the girl's name that I was with.
I can't pronounce her name. I feel really bad.
But like, I've been just, I have a hard time just opening up to women.
Cause I've been so like battered a lot.
And so like, I really, you know, the Lord is telling me I need to share this.
Like not that, but like week three.
But if you want me to share it in this, I will.
But, or would you prefer me to just share it?
Yeah, great question. So if it's about week three content, I would rather you put that
in the group and then I can respond to you there more intentionally regarding that content.
But if you want to share about what God led you to share on the topic, yeah, you can share
that now.
That's, I think it's just opening up and being vulnerable to share with other women is very
important for me.
Okay.
Trying to get over that fear in general.
You're doing great. You're doing great. This is a good start. Ladies, this is really important.
One of the things when you all went into the group, I was talking about, let's see if I
can find the scripture again, but just I'll read it again because I think it's, it applies
to this.
It's from Hebrews 10 25 and it says, this is not the time to pull away and neglect meeting
together as some have formed a habit of doing because we need each other. In fact, we should
come together even more frequently, eager to encourage and urge each other onward as
we anticipate that day dawning.
And a lot of churches and stuff. We'll talk about this, about people coming to church
and okay, cool. Yeah, we can talk about that. But this tonight, when you went into the breakout,
I was like, man, this is such a good reminder of why this community is so important.
What God is doing here. He's helping women heal with each other and how often the enemy
tries to actually get women to come against each other and bring division and, you know,
women against men and stuff too. It's not, it's not just women, but hurt and family healed
and family hurt and community healed and community, you know, hurt and relationship healed in
relationships.
So I believe Alicia that God wants to heal you through connection in this community during
this season and that he has a lot of great things in store for you. Thank you so much
for sharing and having courage tonight to share with us. We're going to be praying for
you to feel more connected in the days ahead too. It's going to be really good. Amanda,
go ahead.
So I was sharing that pretty early on in this process, probably week one or week two, some
things started coming back to me that I'd forgotten about or kind of let go of. And
that was musical theater and music. That was something that was a big part of my life
when I was younger, like a little girl singing and dancing around and doing all those types
of things. I had a dream about it not too long ago, a dream that I was producing Wicked.
So I was like, that's odd, you know, for a local community theater that I've been a part
of before. And then doing all this hard work, I was like, oh, that's a big part of me that
I don't do anymore. And then as I thought about it even more, it was my major originally
when I was in college, but I stopped because I was scared. Music is hard. Theory is hard.
I can't do this. Musical theater is difficult. I'll never make it on Broadway. I couldn't
make a decent show. I'm not a lead cast member. I'm not LA bound. I don't have those desires.
Will somebody pick me as a music teacher? That's like really hard to get your certification
in that. There's a lot of things there. So all those fears and insecurities. So my sophomore
year very quickly, very abruptly, without any reason, I switched to history. History
was easy and I'm good at history. I love this. I love this for you, Amanda. This has been an
amazing journey. I've just been so blessed to see all the ways that God is just, man,
he's just really working in your life. It's such an honor to have seen a glimpse of this.
I'm excited for you to go to the Lord and ask him where to go next. Okay. Because I really think he
does want to awaken this in you. I think that he has always seen you as someone who is musically
gifted and talented and your God colors in the world matter. They do. And when we live into
our passions and our dreams, ladies, and that can look a lot of different ways. It doesn't mean
you have to quit your job. I'm not telling you to go quit your job. You need to pray about all
those kinds of things, you know, but I do want to encourage you to also really ask the Lord,
the root of all of those lies that you believed, you know, in which you've worked through a lot
of that already, but you know, when you start to move forward, those border bullies that rise up
to tell you that you can't and where they come from. Does that make sense? Yeah. Yeah. But,
and I'm not telling you have to, but I don't think it's a coincidence that you are dreaming
about these things and then you're in the heartwork.
God's awakening this stuff in you and so I'd love to just see as you pray about that even maybe just
you know volunteer at a local theater or something see if there's some way just to doesn't mean you
have to change everything you're doing in your life but see what that does in you and maybe
you'll decide that isn't for you in this season but I think there's something that God wants to
kind of just bring back to life in you through it yeah I think so too it's there's there's more
there's so much more to the story there always is there's just not never enough time like students
and little things that they've said to me just from playing around singing and things so yeah
all right so Laura let it be so open the doors for Amanda and let her see yourself the way you
see her every single day all right ladies it's 9 31 I can take um Alina and Lolita um if y'all
can keep them short brief and powerful and then I'm gonna do I'm gonna show you all what we're
gonna do for activation this week and then I'm gonna do one more thing before I release you all
okay so Lolita go ahead and go first oh okay so I was talking about um just being comfortable
in my skin um just knowing that uh my decisions are are good decisions like uh so it could be a
little competition like if I decide that I want to put on this outfit or wear my hair this way or
whatever then someone will be you know make that comment and then I might feel a little insecure
about that but just knowing that it's okay to be me and be who God created me to be and love the
skin that I'm in so I love that phrase that just really resonated in my spirit when you said it
it's okay to be me I encourage you to put that up somewhere where you can see it often to encourage
yourself Lolita and um I want you to find your favorite picture of yourself okay um and put that
up so that you can see it and maybe just start if you think anything negative when you see that
I want to encourage you to I don't even have any mirrors in the house except for the bathroom there
all right well this is something I think we're on to here aren't we sometimes ladies this is where
again this could have been a small thing but the Holy Spirit told me to say have her put a picture
up of herself and so I would encourage you even if even that if that feels hard find a picture you
love of yourself and put that up and I want you to start asking the Lord what what do you and we're
going to do this as an activation but yours is going to be a little different okay I want you to
just start putting up words ask the Lord to tell you what he says about you and I want you to write
positive things up there okay and I'm going to tell you all everybody what to do with the negative
because we're all going to do something like this and if you all want to do it the way I just told
her cool do that but I'm going to give everybody an activation um before we log off that's kind of
similar all right Lolita thank you for sharing and pray into that those insecurities too that
are causing you to be afraid to see yourself in the mirror okay because we want to see you
we love you and I think other people in the world want to see you and love you and it starts with us
loving ourselves first ladies and being able to really see ourselves and and love what we see
right all right so good all right Alina go ahead thank you I um think it has to do more with
comparison I guess because I say to myself that um who am I to apply for this and that or
I constantly feel like I don't qualify um for a better relationship or a better
um job and some of it is practical like just getting more educated more but I constantly
feel like I don't qualify and I'm not as good as I don't say it in my head that I'm not as
good as other people but I just don't feel like I measure up to like the world the requirements
around me like and I guess kind of freeze or like overthink things and yeah so I want you to know
that you're not alone who can relate to what Alina just said raise your hand you can do digital or
your physical hand a lot of people raising hands right now yeah a lot of people struggle with the
the thoughts of can we measure up can we do it you know do I qualify for this so I just did that
so that you would know you're not alone in that but I also want to encourage you on the don't
measure up that really resonated for me with you um and so I want to encourage you to ask the Lord
to show you when is the first time
you felt like you didn't measure up to something, okay?
So maybe that was, you know,
something that someone wanted you to do.
Maybe it was a project in school.
I don't know what the situation was,
but it was a time where you got hurt
because someone kind of implied to you
that you did not measure up to their expectation, okay?
And really ask the Lord to reveal those areas for healing
and just see what he shows you.
It's gonna be, y'all, this sometimes can be painful,
but it's gonna be profitable.
It's gonna be beneficial, okay?
The first thing I remember is in elementary school,
my teacher threw my notebook on the floor
in front of the class because she didn't like my writing.
This was in Romania, so teachers were just more strict.
And my teacher was pretty old.
She was doing an extra year past her deadline of retirement.
And I'm thinking she just had enough with kids,
but she threw my notebook on the floor
and I started crying and I turned red.
And she made fun of me.
She said, well, did you put lipstick on?
Why are you so red?
I guess I turn red when I cry.
So I guess that's the first thing that popped in my head
when you asked them.
So I would encourage you to write this down tonight
about this teacher, because I would encourage you
to do a forgiveness sheet regarding her.
Yeah.
So when you get to week four,
there's actual forgiveness sheets in there
and you can print those out,
or you can just, as the Lord leads you,
write out your own prayer to forgive that teacher
and release her for the harm that she did to you that day.
Okay?
So good.
Yeah, ladies, it is so good.
God loves us so much.
He wants us free and all this baggage off of us
so that we can soar.
Here's your activation for this week.
Let me find my paper from this afternoon.
I gotta turn my blur off here.
Y'all don't have to be artists, okay?
This isn't like any comparison competition.
If some of you are more artistic, cool,
you can do it however you want,
but I want y'all to kind of imagine that this is a silhouette
like just an outline of yourself, okay?
You can put whatever eyes or nose, it's not very good.
Y'all, I did this really quick this afternoon
just to show you,
I literally don't care if it's super artsy or not.
It can be like this.
But what I want you to do with this,
you can put eyes on or just pray and put on there
what you feel led,
because there's meaning in all of it.
So I don't want you to try to figure it out.
I just want you to do what you feel led to do,
but here's what you're gonna do with the silhouette.
In addition to, if you feel led to put eyes and hair
and all that stuff,
you're gonna pray kind of like what I was talking
to Lolita about.
You're gonna pray and ask the Lord to show you
how he thinks and feels about you.
What does he want to say to you?
Words, phrases, maybe some of you will hear songs.
Whatever you hear,
I want you to write it on your silhouette picture, okay?
If it's positive.
If it's negative, it doesn't go on there.
Here's what you're gonna do with the negative.
You're gonna have another piece of paper.
Okay, let's pretend this is a blank piece of paper.
Here's my blank paper.
If I hear something negative,
I'm gonna write it down on my paper
and then I'm gonna cross it out.
Because remember where we're replacing lies with what?
The truth.
So when we write down the lie,
the negative that we heard,
cause that's not true.
God doesn't say negative things about us.
We're going to cross that out
and we're gonna ask God to show us the truth
to replace the lie.
All right?
And then some of you all might have to cross out
a couple things.
Cause for like, sometimes what happens
is some of you all will keep hearing negative.
And so do it all the way until you get to the positive.
And then when you get that positive one,
then you take that and put that on the silhouette.
Does everyone understand?
Okay.
If you scroll down through the group,
there might still be some from some of the ladies
that were in here before.
I will tell you all,
if you have a post,
like some of you all, if you haven't,
which is totally okay.
Okay. I don't want anyone to worry.
If you're in our group for more than five weeks
and you did a post that was like,
you know, from six weeks ago,
I don't know what the timeframe is,
but we do a clean out in our group.
So we like, it's an automatic thing.
So the people aren't doing it physically ourselves.
It's just in our tech, in our app.
It just, after a certain timeframe,
those posts are getting deleted.
Okay.
And so it just keeps it,
the group very clean and all of that.
But there might be some older posts in there.
from other people that you can see.
But again, don't compare yourself to them.
I'm just saying you can use that as a point of reference.
All right, we're gonna do one more thing
and then I'm gonna release you all tonight.
This is gonna be our closing prayer and declaration.
So I wanna encourage you all to go ahead
and kind of relax and close your eyes.
Get ready to receive something good, okay?
All right, I'm gonna make a declaration
over each one of you tonight
as we step into the real you.
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter,
a light bearer, a truth teller and a hope dealer.
My heart is awakening.
It's my time to be made whole.
I contain the beauty of all creation.
The mysteries of the entire universe reside inside of me.
I am the image of the almighty God,
the offspring of the great I am.
I am a beloved daughter of God.
My original heart is one of love, joy,
peace, hope, and innocence.
I was created for community.
I am accepted in the family of God.
I have been created to prosper.
I will not be anyone besides who loved God the Father
has made me to be.
From this moment forward,
every day when I look in the mirror,
I am going to see more and more of what God sees.
In Jesus name, amen.
Lolita, you didn't know that was gonna be
in the last thing there.
This is for everyone, y'all, for real.
Some of y'all might need to stand in front of the mirror
this week and just really love yourself.
Yeah, get your tiaras out.
Let's have some fun this week too.
I'm praying for y'all.
We love you and we look forward to seeing you in the group
and on prayer and all the things.
God bless everyone.
Have a good night.
Thank you.
Bye.
We love you too.
Good night.
Love you guys.