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Hi ladies, happy Monday night.

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Welcome to our live session, 8pm.

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If you are joining us for the first time, as in you've never been on a live session

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with us before, can you put in the chat, say hi, I'm joining for the first time so we can

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welcome you and give a shout out to you.

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We're so excited to be here tonight, God's got a lot of stuff in store.

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My name is Bethany Cooper, I'm one of the HeartWork coaches in this community, and God

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is doing some great, great stuff, as far as even in the things that you all are sharing.

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I feel like so many people are getting really important breakthroughs, and some of them

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feel like big, and some of y'all are seeing how God will continuously bring breakthrough

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as you continue to seek him on your journey.

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Hi.

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Okay, so for those that have like iPhone, or Sprint, or Samsung, I want to just kind

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of give you a heads up, if you can share your name on there, and the way that you're

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going to do that is when you hover over your picture box on the Zoom, there will be three

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dots that show up.

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If you click on that, and then scroll down to rename, and click on that, you'll be able

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to type in just your first name, if you don't feel like putting in your last name, but that

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way we at least know who you are when you're joining us.

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But welcome for the first time, Susan, welcome.

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Anyone else joining, Rebecca's new for the first time, so we have a couple.

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Anyone else joining us new for the first time tonight?

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Welcome back to all of our ladies that have been here before, it's so good to see everyone.

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Hi, hi.

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All right, we always encourage in here, if you haven't been here before, we do encourage

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for y'all to turn your cameras on when you come and join us for heart work.

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If you can't, like you're driving, or you're eating, or you're changing, obviously you

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don't have to turn them on for that.

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But the reason we want to encourage you all to turn your cameras on is part of your heart

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healing process is really activating you all coming out of hiding in all different kinds

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of ways, ways that you don't even realize you've been hiding in some ways.

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And sometimes where we see it showing up is even when people don't want to come on screen.

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And I'm not saying that people that aren't on screen right now that that applies to you,

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I'm just saying that's something that we see in this community, especially during heart

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work and throughout.

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So I want to encourage you all to do that.

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If you're not ready to do that tonight, that's fine, but want to encourage you to do that

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for sure when you go into the breakout sessions, okay?

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So good to see you all.

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All right, so a couple other key housekeeping items, and then we'll dive right into the

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content.

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All right, want to do a quick reminder that you all when you're here for heart work, all

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of our students are here to receive.

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So you all don't have to coach anybody.

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You don't have to advise anybody.

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So you get to take your helper hats off.

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So even our amazing coaches, people that have been ministry for years, this is your time

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to take that hat off and just receive from the Lord.

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Super important.

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Here's why.

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I had to do this too when I went through heart work, because if you all can't tell, I'm a

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helper.

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I like to coach.

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I like to help people grow.

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I like to lead.

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So when I was in heart work, sometimes the enemy's ploy was to get me to help other people

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instead of helping myself.

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And so that's something I have to keep in check all the time and want to encourage you

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all.

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If you feel that kicking in, then you want to just kind of ask yourself, okay, am I trying

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to help everybody else when I'm supposed to be receiving right now, okay?

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And that doesn't mean you can't encourage people.

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Encourage each other.

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You need to get to know your sisters in this community and this groups, support each other.

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No, I'm not a rescuer.

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I am God's servant and his helper.

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So that's my title.

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And that's what I go by.

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If I was a rescuer, I would try to help people that don't want to help themselves.

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So really important for y'all to kind of keep that in mind as you're responding to people.

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If somebody wants prayer, you can say, Hey, I'll pray for you.

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And you can type a little prayer, but don't feel like you've got to be the one to help

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them.

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Does that make sense?

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Everyone.

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So even our people that have been in ministry a long time, you're going to feel that kick

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in where you see someone in need and you're just going to want to be the one to help them.

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And you don't have to do that because myself and the other coaches that are on our team

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are here to do that.

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So Annette Winter is a coach.

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Jennifer Yankovich is a coach.

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I'm a coach.

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We're going to be the main ones replying to you right now.

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I do have some coaches in training that when they are kind of launched a little bit more,

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I will let you know who they are and they might start responding at some point as well.

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All right.

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A couple other take a quick housekeeping.

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Supernatural Saturday.

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Really encourage for y'all to check out the replay of that.

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We also have the replay from last week's how to hear from God with our.

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special guest, Bethany Hicks. That replay is really phenomenal, y'all. Even if you don't

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know how you hear from God, it's going to help you start to learn all the different

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ways that God speaks to us on a daily basis. Prophesy your years coming up on January 5th.

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We will be putting out information about that soon. So we will let you know more, but just

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wanted you to kind of save the date. If that's something you would be interested in attending,

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that will be available very soon. Also, we don't do any social media posts inside of

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our group, from outside ministries, outside businesses, outside thought leaders. This

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group and this, like as you go throughout, all of our group pages for last year's single,

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we keep them primarily for last year's single content. Here's why. Our teams don't have

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time to vet out sermons from other people, devotions from other people, books from other

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people, content from outside sources. And so that was just one of the ways that we kind

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of set that guide guideline. So we just don't want anyone to feel discouraged. If you were

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to put a post in the group and it got deleted, that would be why. Okay. So there's nothing

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against you. We just, that's just a guardrail that we've put up. And so songs, worship songs,

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you can absolutely post those. That's totally different in our opinion. Okay. All right,

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y'all we're ready. I do want to want to read a little quote right before I pray tonight.

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As you're kind of processing your heart work again, as y'all are coming in, people are

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in all different weeks of the program. So tonight we have people that are in weeks,

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one, two, three, four or five, all different parts of the heart healing journey. But as

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you're going, there might be things surfacing that you would have never even thought of

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as a trauma. And that's because the things that break our hearts are different for everyone.

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So I want to encourage you all don't think that just because something isn't big, that

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it doesn't matter or that it couldn't have broken your heart. And a lot of times, ladies,

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what happens along the way is we actually experience pain and heartache, but we convince

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ourselves that that is normal, or I shouldn't be upset about this. Or we had someone tell

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us those kinds of things. And so as we go, we start to push those things down instead

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of processing those with the Lord. And so if something comes up in your spirit that

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you might even consider something small, I want to encourage you to ask the Lord why

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he's showing it to you, because there's a reason that's coming up. So this afternoon,

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I gave a couple little examples. So in some of the people I'm coaching right now, training

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them to be coaches, someone had shared, well, actually two ladies, one shared and then it

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caused another person to think about something they had been through too. Both situations

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were when these ladies were in kindergarten. One of them was just the one was really afraid

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to leave her mom. And then all the panic and stuff she faced after her mom left. And then

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the other one had moved from another country to here. And there were some things that she

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experienced when she was very little as well. And both of those ladies were like deeply

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impacted by these situations in kindergarten. So again, while we might think, well, that's

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not that really that big of a deal. Every kid goes through this. Well, that's not really

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true. Not every kid goes through those kinds of things. So while some might be our person

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related to our personality or makeup, sometimes things that we experience, even as small children

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happen because there was a prior trauma that happened that caused us to be afraid or have

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panic or whatever. So just remain open ladies. That's why I'm saying all this remain open

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as you go through your heart healing process. For those that have joined us in the last

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few minutes, my name's Bethany Cooper. We're so glad you're here tonight. If you're joining

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us new for the first time, definitely put that in the chat. Let us know you're here

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for the first time and we can give a shout out to you. We're so glad that you're here.

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All right. Let me pray for us ladies. Father, thank you so much for just the reminder that

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God that you can come in the midst of any circumstance, any situation at any moment

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and redeem it, restore it, rebuild it. Lord, I thank you that you would just, yeah, Lord

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awaken hope in the ladies tonight that they would see you as God, as a good father, who's

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faithful to bring good gifts, to bring transformation, to bring hope in the midst of a weary world,

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a weary heart. God, we thank you that, yeah, that they will reap if they don't faint, if

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they continue to move forward in their heart healing process and lean into the revealings

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for healing. God, that you would bring everything from darkness to the light so that they can

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be set free and that they can live further into the fullness of who you originally created

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them to be. We ask you to help us to lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us so

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that we can press on toward the high calling of God for our lives.

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Help us to

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recognize the areas where we have been stuck,

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where we've been living in cycles that aren't serving us,

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God, so that we can receive everything you have for us

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during this heartwork course, this healing time.

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We thank you, Holy Spirit, for being here.

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We ask you to weave in and out of conversations,

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in and out of the teaching,

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everything that's being heard

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that you would just minister to them

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right in the areas where they need it the most.

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Because Lord, you know the why behind the what.

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We are your vessels,

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and we're asking you to work in and through me

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and in through each one of these ladies tonight.

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In Jesus' name, amen.

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All right, so ladies,

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we're gonna talk about confession and repentance.

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And I'm gonna encourage you all,

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if you tend to struggle with fear

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or worry during these sessions,

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I'm gonna encourage you to just kind of receive,

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be in receive mode, okay?

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So everyone understand what I mean by that?

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So try not to be busy.

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Like I'm big on the chat,

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but sometimes we even like are,

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we're sharing in the chat a lot and not receiving.

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Does that make sense?

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So I want there to be balance there for everyone,

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but just kind of, if you battle fear and anxiety,

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that might be something that you might wanna watch

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as you're joining us for the live sessions.

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Okay, so as I was praying,

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we're talking about confession and repentance tonight.

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We don't always know the why behind the what.

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We don't always know why we do what we do,

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especially when we don't wanna do it

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and we keep on doing it, okay?

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But God does.

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God knows us from the beginning of time.

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He formed us, He put everything in us.

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He's seen every decision we've ever made up to this point,

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and He knows why we are doing what we're doing,

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including the cycles that we live in,

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sin cycles, living below our ability, below our worth,

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like our identity, not knowing that.

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He knows why we struggle with these things.

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So what's important in this process is for each one of us,

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including myself, I'm still in healing, y'all.

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I coach all the time.

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God's still healing all kinds of areas of my life.

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So we lean into the Lord

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and we rely on Him during this process

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because He knows what needs to be revealed

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and when it needs to be revealed.

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So we ask the Holy Spirit, if you remember,

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the Bible declares that He's our comforter,

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He's our counselor, He's our guide,

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He's our ever-present help in time of trouble.

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So we ask Holy Spirit every day,

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hopefully y'all are doing this,

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come Holy Spirit, reveal every area that I need revealed.

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Thank you, Holy Spirit, for being my counselor and my guide.

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I trust you and I'm gonna take your hand today.

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It's that supernatural surrender,

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surrendering to our ideas, our understanding.

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We don't wanna lean on our own understanding, right?

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We wanna start to lean and rely on the Lord

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and what His understanding is more and more and more.

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So I wanna give you some examples

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of some of the what that we do, if you will,

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the different areas, and this is not a complete list, ladies.

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Some of you all have been struggling in areas

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that won't be listed tonight.

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So I don't want you to check out

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if I don't mention your thing,

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because the Holy Spirit will show you

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what your area of struggle has been, okay?

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But these are just some to get you started thinking.

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So I wrote down insecurity.

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So God knows why we are insecure.

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God knows why we struggle with self-hatred

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and self-loathing, self-pity.

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You know, He knows why we think the negative thoughts

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about ourselves that we think, okay?

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Those are all in the same kind of framework there.

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He knows why we overeat,

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why we keep on eating stuff that's not good for us,

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even though we will, even in our heads,

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I don't know if y'all have ever done this,

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but I have, I'll know in my head,

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I actually don't want anything else, but I'll keep eating.

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Why do I do that?

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Well, long ago, I learned how to eat my feelings.

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As a kid, my mom did that.

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My sister did that.

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They hid food all the time.

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I watched it, I learned it, and then I started doing it.

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So again, just sharing things that come up

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as the Holy Spirit brings it up, here's some others.

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Gossip, yes, gossip is one of those things

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that people struggle with, and why do we do these things?

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Well, Holy Spirit, can you show me

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why I struggle with gossip?

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Ask Him for the root.

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Ask Him to show you the beginning of all that.

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Negative self-talk or thought patterns,

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which I kind of already alluded to,

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and then also sexual-related struggles.

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So having sex outside of marriage,

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pornography addictions, lust,

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you know, anything related in that sphere.

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Struggles with authority.

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So maybe you just always wanna rebel against authority.

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Whoever's an authority over you,

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you just are not able within yourself

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to come under their authority.

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Maybe you struggle with anger on the inside.

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or the outside, what do I mean by that?

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Some of us have seething anger on the inside

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and rage that we just keep internal.

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And then other people, the outbursts,

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that's when it kind of builds up, builds up,

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and then all of a sudden there's a volcano.

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So we erupt onto someone else, whoever that person is.

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So what we're gonna do tonight is we're gonna choose,

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hopefully, to repent and come out of agreement

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with the lies and the sinful and harmful behaviors

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that we've been operating in.

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I want you all to think about the fact

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that when you are walking in any kind of sin,

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in any kind of harmful behavior or thought pattern,

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we are going one way.

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So let's say we were all going this way.

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We're all going in the car together.

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And some of us are in the car tonight,

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and Holy Spirit's speaking to some people right now

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about some things that you need to stop doing

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so that you can live a healthier, happier,

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more full, abundant life,

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and you have an opportunity to get out of that car

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and choose to get in a different car

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and go in a different direction.

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You're literally choosing to change your mind,

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your body, and your spirit

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and go in a completely different direction.

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Now, remember that in heartwork,

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we talk a lot about how we don't want you

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just to behave good.

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We don't want you to pretend

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and try to be on your best behavior

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and have no real heart change.

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And God the Father doesn't want that either.

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He wants you to experience true and lasting life change,

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that you would be changed forever,

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that this moment tonight

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would mark a change in eternity for you.

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And it doesn't mean that you're not saved yet.

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It just means that some of the, like even myself,

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like I know that there's some areas

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that God's been talking to me about.

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Not that I've been living in massive sin,

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but I still struggle with that turning to food

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when I'm sad and I don't need that.

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And I've been working on that for a while

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and it's been going really good.

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And then just traveling and got out of the habits

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and lo and behold, before I knew it,

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I'm eating stuff that just doesn't serve my body well.

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Is that sin?

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No, but that is a harmful habit.

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And so I want you to be thinking about,

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some of you, it is sin that you're struggling with,

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that you need to turn away from,

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and some of you it's sin or harmful behaviors.

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Be willing to look at the whole picture though, ladies, okay?

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So what are the areas that tonight God is saying to you,

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daughter, I love you.

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I don't need you to behave good for me.

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I want you to heal and change

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so that you can be in closer relationship.

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It doesn't mean that he's ever far away from us,

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but when we sin you all, we choose to pull away.

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That's the reality.

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God never pulls away.

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We choose to pull away.

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James 5.16 says this,

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therefore confess your sins to each other

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and pray for each other so that you might be healed.

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The prayer of a righteous man avails much.

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When we don't confess, we can remain tethered to it.

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If y'all remember last week,

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for those that are joining us the first time,

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you wouldn't have heard all this part

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about the forgiveness and the tethers.

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If you want to go back and listen to that replay,

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it is in there,

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but we'll circle back around to forgiveness again

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in a few weeks.

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But tethers means we're tethered to something or someone.

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And so when we don't confess,

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we are literally remaining tethered again

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to those situations and that sin

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and those cycles that are not serving us well.

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Sin also that we don't repent of.

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So let's say we have sin.

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We know that we have sin and we're not repenting

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even though God is,

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he's lovingly knocking on the door of our hearts

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and saying, will you let me in?

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Will you let me into this area of your heart and your life

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because I want to set you free?

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Sin that we don't repent for or confess

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can create blind spots.

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So just like trauma can create blind spots and filters,

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so can sin that we don't repent of.

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Okay?

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All right.

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So you're gonna go into your first breakout session here

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tonight and we're gonna talk about with each other,

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what do you need to confess tonight?

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Do you have any areas that you need to repent

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and come out of alignment with something?

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And ladies, I wanna encourage you.

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If you've never been on one of these live sessions,

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don't check out, stay with us because your sister's here.

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This is a safe place.

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When y'all get into these rooms,

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you don't have to counsel each other.

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I know sometimes it can feel awkward

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if someone's in a place of pain

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or they're expressing something that's hard.

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You don't have to fix it for them, okay?

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You just gotta be there and love them and say, great job.

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Thank you so much for sharing that with us.

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And then the next person can share, okay?

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Just so everyone knows that is one of the best ways

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that you can be an amazing support to your sisters

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as you are.

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or excuse me, as you all are in there together, okay?

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And then just know that everyone's a little nervous, okay?

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Can we just all just honor each other in that?

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All right, awesome.

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It's gonna be good.

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It's so powerful, you all.

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Some of y'all get massive breakthrough

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from these breakout rooms,

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even more than from the teaching time.

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So just see what God wants to do.

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I believe he wants to do amazing things

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in all of you tonight.

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I'm gonna give you, excuse me,

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eight minutes for this first time.

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All right, that should be up there on your screen,

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popping up for you.

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Addie, I see you just joined us.

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I'll go ahead and get you in a room here in just a moment.

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As soon as some of the other ladies get situated,

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it hops around on my screen until they do.

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It's hard to get people in there.

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Welcome, welcome.

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All right, go ahead and click to join those rooms, ladies.

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All right, Patty, that link should be there for you.

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Oh, thank you.

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Hi, Christina.

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Yeah, so great job, Christina.

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Stay with me.

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Any other of my leaders?

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I don't think anyone else is here tonight.

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All right, Kalia, Laura,

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are you all going in the breakout session?

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Marley, Perla?

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If not, can you put that in the chat for me

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so I know whether or not to be watching,

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to put you all somewhere else?

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Okay.

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All right, ladies.

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I gotta get these people situated in rooms.

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Did it pop you out, Jennifer?

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I just sent you a new one

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because I saw you were sitting there by yourself.

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I'll have to send you a new one again.

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Give me one sec, it's okay.

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All right, that should be there for you.

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All right, Father, thank you so much for your amazing grace.

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God, thank you that your mercy is new every morning,

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and we have an opportunity tonight

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for every person that's a part of this live session,

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as well as those that will watch the replay

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to step further into the freedom

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that you have made available to us through Jesus Christ.

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Hey, Marley, did it kick you out?

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If you're talking, I can't hear you.

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You'll have to unmute,

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or you can put it in the chat, either way.

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Okay, I was just transferring from my phone to my laptop,

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so if I can go back to the-

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Absolutely, let me put you,

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there should be a link for you.

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I don't know if it's the same room you were in.

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No, it's not the same, but that's fine.

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Thank you.

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Laura, that's totally fine

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that you're just kind of listening in tonight.

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Totally understand, glad you're here.

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All right, I'm gonna keep praying.

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Father, thank you so much for,

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just a reminder, Lord, that your love is unconditional,

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and that nothing can separate us from your love,

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not height, nor depth, nor principality,

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nor power, nor things in the present,

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nor things to come.

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God, that you choose us,

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even in the midst of our sin and our struggles,

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that you love us, you pursue us,

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that your loving kindness is what leads us to repentance.

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So, Lord, I ask for just your presence

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to be manifest tonight,

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that every lady would just,

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that you would wash over this place

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with your loving kindness,

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that you would help them to see themselves

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through your eyes more and more and more,

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and to hear what your spirit is saying

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louder than any voice of the enemy.

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God, that you would remove any kind of fear,

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anxiety, panic, or worry.

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God, we thank you that you would bring peace,

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supernatural peace into their hearts,

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their minds, their spirits, and souls,

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that you would bring freedom and liberty

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to those that have been captive.

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Lord, we know that your word declares

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that where the spirit of the Lord is,

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there is freedom and liberty.

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So we thank you, Holy Spirit, for being here.

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We thank you that you're doing an amazing work

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in all of us,

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and that you're gonna continue that work,

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even as we continue to declare scriptures,

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and in all things, God, that you're just moving.

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And yeah, Lord, I just thank you

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00:24:37.700 --> 00:24:41.220
that you will help the ladies also to recognize

496
00:24:41.220 --> 00:24:44.140
all the ways that you're proud of them tonight.

497
00:24:44.140 --> 00:24:46.260
Lord, that you're looking at your daughters,

498
00:24:46.260 --> 00:24:49.660
and you are turning your face towards them tonight,

499
00:24:49.660 --> 00:24:53.060
and that you dance and rejoice over them with singing.

500
00:24:54.380 --> 00:24:55.820
Jeremiah 31.3 says,

501
00:24:55.820 --> 00:24:58.180
I have loved you with an everlasting love.

502
00:24:58.180 --> 00:25:00.580
Therefore, I've drawn you with loving kindness.

503
00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:02.180
Miss Emily, did it kick you out?

504
00:25:02.180 --> 00:25:05.120
And Amanda, did y'all get kicked out?

505
00:25:07.260 --> 00:25:11.980
It kicked my partner out, the person that was in there,

506
00:25:11.980 --> 00:25:14.580
and she hasn't come back in yet, so.

507
00:25:14.580 --> 00:25:17.300
All right, let me get you in a different room, Amanda.

508
00:25:17.300 --> 00:25:18.140
Okay.

509
00:25:22.140 --> 00:25:24.620
Hold on, I just gotta find one that has,

510
00:25:24.620 --> 00:25:25.900
yeah, okay, I'll do that.

511
00:25:28.460 --> 00:25:29.820
There you go.

512
00:25:29.820 --> 00:25:31.700
Emily, did you just join us?

513
00:25:32.780 --> 00:25:35.420
It's okay if so, I just wanna put you in a room.

514
00:25:38.260 --> 00:25:41.900
They're doing what, the question they're answering

515
00:25:41.900 --> 00:25:43.500
right now is what do you need to confess?

516
00:25:43.500 --> 00:25:47.100
So we're doing repentance and confession tonight, okay?

517
00:25:47.100 --> 00:25:49.380
So that is what they're chatting about.

518
00:25:49.380 --> 00:25:51.260
Here, is that room for you to join?

519
00:25:53.700 --> 00:25:54.540
All right.

520
00:25:57.700 --> 00:25:59.140
We have people keep coming in.

521
00:25:59.140 --> 00:26:03.060
Hey, Lolita, we're doing a breakout session right now,

522
00:26:03.060 --> 00:26:04.660
and it's on what do you need to confess?

523
00:26:04.660 --> 00:26:06.780
We've been talking about confession and repentance,

524
00:26:06.780 --> 00:26:11.660
so I'm gonna put you in a room with some of the ladies.

525
00:26:11.660 --> 00:26:12.700
Okay, thanks.

526
00:26:12.700 --> 00:26:14.740
All right, you're welcome, there you go.

527
00:26:17.840 --> 00:26:20.800
All right, I think we've got most people situated now.

528
00:26:22.220 --> 00:26:24.560
Okay, so let's see here, ladies.

529
00:26:26.620 --> 00:26:27.820
Yeah, this one was really cool.

530
00:26:27.820 --> 00:26:29.100
I was reading the scripture today,

531
00:26:29.940 --> 00:26:31.980
and as I was reading, it was talking about

532
00:26:31.980 --> 00:26:33.420
how much the Father loves us,

533
00:26:33.420 --> 00:26:35.700
and He wants to express His love and affection to us.

534
00:26:35.700 --> 00:26:37.860
It's John 16, 27,

535
00:26:37.860 --> 00:26:40.420
for the Father Himself loves you

536
00:26:40.420 --> 00:26:42.460
because you have loved me

537
00:26:42.460 --> 00:26:45.220
and have believed that I came forth from the Father.

538
00:26:46.540 --> 00:26:47.580
So we thank you, Lord,

539
00:26:47.580 --> 00:26:50.780
that you do desire to bestow your affection

540
00:26:50.780 --> 00:26:53.740
and your grace and your goodness onto our lives.

541
00:26:53.740 --> 00:26:56.740
We thank you that we can experience the goodness of God

542
00:26:56.740 --> 00:26:57.860
in the land of the living,

543
00:26:57.860 --> 00:27:00.340
that we don't have to wait until we get to heaven

544
00:27:00.340 --> 00:27:02.420
to experience your goodness, Lord.

545
00:27:02.420 --> 00:27:03.780
And I thank you, Lord,

546
00:27:03.780 --> 00:27:05.380
that every one of these ladies tonight

547
00:27:05.380 --> 00:27:06.620
would know the love of Christ,

548
00:27:06.620 --> 00:27:07.920
which surpasses knowledge,

549
00:27:07.920 --> 00:27:12.160
that they might be filled up to all the fullness of God,

550
00:27:12.160 --> 00:27:14.100
to overflowing,

551
00:27:14.100 --> 00:27:16.340
so that they would experience joy unspeakable

552
00:27:16.340 --> 00:27:17.400
and full of glory.

553
00:27:17.400 --> 00:27:20.740
We thank you that you, Lord, are the joy of our salvation,

554
00:27:20.740 --> 00:27:23.740
that everything that we need, you have,

555
00:27:23.740 --> 00:27:25.260
and you make it available to us,

556
00:27:25.260 --> 00:27:26.780
even in this moment right now.

557
00:27:26.780 --> 00:27:29.580
Hi there, I'm not sure what your name is

558
00:27:29.580 --> 00:27:30.660
with your phone number.

559
00:27:30.660 --> 00:27:33.340
If you can click on, like hover over your profile

560
00:27:33.340 --> 00:27:35.260
and click on the three dots,

561
00:27:35.260 --> 00:27:36.740
and then go down to rename

562
00:27:36.740 --> 00:27:39.940
and just put your first name in there, that'll help us.

563
00:27:39.940 --> 00:27:42.860
But they're about to finish the first breakout session,

564
00:27:42.860 --> 00:27:44.860
so I'm just gonna keep you here with us.

565
00:27:47.700 --> 00:27:49.300
Ephesians 2, four through six says,

566
00:27:49.300 --> 00:27:52.680
"'But God, being rich in mercy because of His great love,

567
00:27:52.680 --> 00:27:53.940
"'with which He loved us,

568
00:27:53.940 --> 00:27:55.900
"'even when we were dead in our transgressions,

569
00:27:55.900 --> 00:27:57.880
"'made us alive together with Christ.

570
00:27:57.880 --> 00:28:02.480
"'By grace, you have been saved and raised us up with Him

571
00:28:02.480 --> 00:28:04.740
"'and seated us with Him in the heavenly places

572
00:28:04.740 --> 00:28:05.580
"'in Christ Jesus.'"

573
00:28:05.580 --> 00:28:07.460
So Lord, we just thank you tonight

574
00:28:07.460 --> 00:28:10.580
that you have seated us in heavenly places.

575
00:28:10.580 --> 00:28:13.980
I thank you that you will help us make choices

576
00:28:13.980 --> 00:28:15.340
in the physical realm

577
00:28:15.340 --> 00:28:19.320
that enable us to partner with heaven,

578
00:28:19.320 --> 00:28:21.900
that enable us to walk into the fullness of your plans

579
00:28:21.900 --> 00:28:23.200
and your promises for us,

580
00:28:23.240 --> 00:28:26.640
that we would, yeah, Lord,

581
00:28:26.640 --> 00:28:29.320
lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us,

582
00:28:29.320 --> 00:28:31.480
that we would press on toward the high calling of God

583
00:28:31.480 --> 00:28:32.320
for our lives,

584
00:28:32.320 --> 00:28:36.520
that we would not run and grow weary for in due season

585
00:28:36.520 --> 00:28:38.480
if we don't faint, we will reap.

586
00:28:38.480 --> 00:28:41.240
So Lord, we thank you that you're gonna enable us

587
00:28:41.240 --> 00:28:44.080
to step into seasons of reaping,

588
00:28:44.080 --> 00:28:45.520
not only where we've sown,

589
00:28:45.520 --> 00:28:47.400
but Lord, also where we haven't sown.

590
00:28:47.400 --> 00:28:49.280
We thank you for, just Lord,

591
00:28:49.280 --> 00:28:51.800
your goodness and your heart towards us.

592
00:28:52.600 --> 00:28:54.360
I just keep hearing that scripture

593
00:28:54.360 --> 00:28:56.240
over and over and over again tonight too

594
00:28:56.240 --> 00:28:58.440
about how God will prepare a table for us

595
00:28:58.440 --> 00:28:59.720
in the presence of our enemies.

596
00:28:59.720 --> 00:29:02.100
So I wanna speak that over everybody

597
00:29:02.100 --> 00:29:06.040
that's a part of this heartwork community,

598
00:29:06.040 --> 00:29:09.520
that God is working in your situation and your circumstance

599
00:29:09.520 --> 00:29:12.480
and even where it seems dim or it seems impossible

600
00:29:12.480 --> 00:29:14.920
or it seems like your enemy has the upper hand

601
00:29:14.920 --> 00:29:16.580
is what I'm hearing in my spirit,

602
00:29:16.580 --> 00:29:19.040
that the enemy does not have the upper hand

603
00:29:19.040 --> 00:29:20.680
and God is still on the throne.

604
00:29:20.680 --> 00:29:23.360
Jesus is sitting at the right hand of the father right now,

605
00:29:23.360 --> 00:29:26.040
interceding for all of us

606
00:29:26.040 --> 00:29:27.640
for that breakthrough that we need.

607
00:29:27.640 --> 00:29:29.720
So we just thank you God for that right now,

608
00:29:29.720 --> 00:29:33.040
that everybody that's seeking the father for a breakthrough

609
00:29:33.040 --> 00:29:35.320
in any area of need where the enemy has seemed

610
00:29:35.320 --> 00:29:38.540
like he's winning, we know who wins, Jesus wins.

611
00:29:38.540 --> 00:29:41.780
So we partner with Jesus and we see him bring these things

612
00:29:41.780 --> 00:29:43.920
to life and fruition in our lives.

613
00:29:43.920 --> 00:29:45.180
Welcome back, ladies.

614
00:29:48.720 --> 00:29:50.120
Welcome back, welcome back.

615
00:29:50.880 --> 00:29:52.160
All right, awesome.

616
00:29:52.160 --> 00:29:55.680
So who is willing for those joining for the first time,

617
00:29:55.680 --> 00:29:57.280
this is when we do group share

618
00:29:57.280 --> 00:29:58.840
and then I'll do some coaching.

619
00:29:58.840 --> 00:30:00.240
We'll do as many as we can.

620
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.400
10 tonight before we move into the next part of our session.

621
00:30:04.400 --> 00:30:07.480
Who is able or willing to share tonight?

622
00:30:07.480 --> 00:30:08.520
All right.

623
00:30:08.520 --> 00:30:09.780
Laura, go ahead and kick us off.

624
00:30:09.780 --> 00:30:10.620
I love that.

625
00:30:12.440 --> 00:30:13.980
Okay.

626
00:30:13.980 --> 00:30:15.520
Yeah, I've shared about this before,

627
00:30:15.520 --> 00:30:17.640
but it's kind of like a work in progress.

628
00:30:17.640 --> 00:30:18.480
All right.

629
00:30:18.480 --> 00:30:21.120
It's just that like,

630
00:30:21.120 --> 00:30:25.380
I have like worked through like forgiveness,

631
00:30:25.420 --> 00:30:29.360
like towards like the ex over like,

632
00:30:31.780 --> 00:30:33.420
like the first like couple of years,

633
00:30:33.420 --> 00:30:34.420
like after our divorce,

634
00:30:34.420 --> 00:30:37.740
and then like he remarried again in February of this year.

635
00:30:37.740 --> 00:30:39.820
So like it brought up like other things for me.

636
00:30:39.820 --> 00:30:44.340
And then, yeah, I was telling my group that I've literally,

637
00:30:44.340 --> 00:30:46.940
I haven't worked outside the home for like 20 years.

638
00:30:48.340 --> 00:30:53.340
And so a lot of times my mind goes to,

639
00:30:53.500 --> 00:30:55.220
even though like I don't want to be with him anymore

640
00:30:55.220 --> 00:30:56.820
or whatever,

641
00:30:56.820 --> 00:31:00.140
that like my life was easier financially

642
00:31:00.140 --> 00:31:01.980
when he was like providing.

643
00:31:01.980 --> 00:31:02.820
And just like,

644
00:31:02.820 --> 00:31:05.900
I still have like some resentment towards

645
00:31:05.900 --> 00:31:07.260
like that our family fell apart

646
00:31:07.260 --> 00:31:09.380
and our marriage fell apart and whatever.

647
00:31:09.380 --> 00:31:10.260
Yes.

648
00:31:10.260 --> 00:31:12.500
And you know, this is really important.

649
00:31:12.500 --> 00:31:14.620
Some of these situations,

650
00:31:14.620 --> 00:31:17.180
it might take you a little bit to work through them

651
00:31:17.180 --> 00:31:20.980
because you're going to be processing

652
00:31:20.980 --> 00:31:22.940
and asking the Lord to reveal the root.

653
00:31:22.940 --> 00:31:24.620
And you're going to let like,

654
00:31:24.620 --> 00:31:27.300
God's going to reveal whatever that first thing is

655
00:31:27.300 --> 00:31:28.300
that needs to be revealed.

656
00:31:28.300 --> 00:31:29.820
And hopefully you're going to lean into that

657
00:31:29.820 --> 00:31:31.300
and work with him on that.

658
00:31:31.300 --> 00:31:32.420
And then as you go,

659
00:31:32.420 --> 00:31:35.060
God might reveal another layer of that,

660
00:31:35.060 --> 00:31:35.980
that you need healing.

661
00:31:35.980 --> 00:31:38.540
You need to step into forgiveness or repent,

662
00:31:38.540 --> 00:31:40.500
you know, and sometimes it is a process.

663
00:31:40.500 --> 00:31:42.180
So I don't want you to get discouraged

664
00:31:42.180 --> 00:31:44.500
if you're someone that has a situation like that,

665
00:31:44.500 --> 00:31:46.980
that God's kind of helping you unpack it.

666
00:31:46.980 --> 00:31:50.020
Because here, think about it like this too.

667
00:31:50.020 --> 00:31:52.020
Have you ever seen a jar where like,

668
00:31:52.020 --> 00:31:53.580
I have these jars,

669
00:31:53.580 --> 00:31:55.580
glass jars that I've been putting shells in

670
00:31:55.580 --> 00:31:58.460
and the bigger shells kind of like fill it up,

671
00:31:58.460 --> 00:32:00.900
but there's all these empty cracks and crevices in there.

672
00:32:00.900 --> 00:32:02.860
And so if I dumped a bunch of sand in there,

673
00:32:02.860 --> 00:32:05.260
all that sand would go down into the crevices

674
00:32:05.260 --> 00:32:06.740
and the cracks, if you will.

675
00:32:06.740 --> 00:32:09.540
And so sometimes when we go through these situations,

676
00:32:09.540 --> 00:32:11.180
there's this stuff that, you know,

677
00:32:11.180 --> 00:32:13.900
we don't even realize thought patterns, habits,

678
00:32:13.900 --> 00:32:16.180
mindsets that kind of get into the cracks

679
00:32:16.180 --> 00:32:18.980
and crevices of our hearts.

680
00:32:18.980 --> 00:32:21.900
So we're going to be able to deal with the big stuff,

681
00:32:22.580 --> 00:32:25.300
pretty quick, but the cracks and crevices

682
00:32:25.300 --> 00:32:27.740
and that stuff that's gotten down in there,

683
00:32:27.740 --> 00:32:30.140
it might take us a little bit longer to get to that.

684
00:32:30.140 --> 00:32:32.980
And God will just do some stuff supernaturally, ladies.

685
00:32:32.980 --> 00:32:36.500
Okay, so don't worry if no matter

686
00:32:36.500 --> 00:32:37.940
what your process looks like,

687
00:32:37.940 --> 00:32:42.300
just this is again, surrendering the process

688
00:32:42.300 --> 00:32:45.300
and how it has to look compared to other people

689
00:32:45.300 --> 00:32:46.140
and all that stuff.

690
00:32:46.140 --> 00:32:47.980
So Laura, you're doing a great job.

691
00:32:47.980 --> 00:32:51.340
Really want to encourage you to continue to,

692
00:32:51.340 --> 00:32:54.180
even though I understand what you're saying,

693
00:32:54.180 --> 00:32:56.220
because I also, when I went through my divorce,

694
00:32:56.220 --> 00:33:00.100
I literally almost literally like lost everything.

695
00:33:00.100 --> 00:33:02.660
So I packed up, had to move out,

696
00:33:02.660 --> 00:33:05.500
almost lost my vehicle again, had two jobs,

697
00:33:05.500 --> 00:33:06.540
was working my butt off.

698
00:33:06.540 --> 00:33:08.860
And I can remember one night going to my truck

699
00:33:08.860 --> 00:33:11.300
after the late, late, I'd worked all day

700
00:33:11.300 --> 00:33:14.540
and then worked all night and was so exhausted.

701
00:33:14.540 --> 00:33:17.180
And I just remember crying like, God,

702
00:33:17.180 --> 00:33:20.700
like, is this how I'm going to live the rest of my life?

703
00:33:21.340 --> 00:33:25.780
I just remember being so tore up, but here's the thing,

704
00:33:25.780 --> 00:33:29.380
that was for a moment, that didn't have to be my life.

705
00:33:29.380 --> 00:33:30.700
And so God started showing me,

706
00:33:30.700 --> 00:33:32.900
no, that wasn't his life for me.

707
00:33:32.900 --> 00:33:37.180
And so I'm saying that to you because there are times

708
00:33:37.180 --> 00:33:39.980
where we have physical things that are impacted

709
00:33:39.980 --> 00:33:41.580
by other people's decisions

710
00:33:41.580 --> 00:33:44.420
and we experience the impact of that,

711
00:33:44.420 --> 00:33:47.340
but that doesn't have to be our forever.

712
00:33:47.380 --> 00:33:52.380
So for example, now, even before I met Brian,

713
00:33:54.060 --> 00:33:57.180
I was working full-time and God opened the door for me.

714
00:33:57.180 --> 00:33:58.460
I was working full-time.

715
00:33:58.460 --> 00:33:59.540
I started working at a church

716
00:33:59.540 --> 00:34:01.020
and then God opened this opportunity

717
00:34:01.020 --> 00:34:02.980
with Jackie and everything here.

718
00:34:02.980 --> 00:34:05.980
Now it wasn't to the level that it is now,

719
00:34:05.980 --> 00:34:08.219
but I started, and this kind of stuff

720
00:34:08.219 --> 00:34:10.820
has been my dream for many years.

721
00:34:12.060 --> 00:34:16.620
But I had to start believing that God had new things for me.

722
00:34:16.620 --> 00:34:18.900
And that's where it started.

723
00:34:18.900 --> 00:34:20.580
It started in my belief.

724
00:34:21.620 --> 00:34:22.860
So I wanna encourage you all,

725
00:34:22.860 --> 00:34:25.139
anyone that's kind of in Laura's situation

726
00:34:25.139 --> 00:34:28.460
or similar situations where, yeah,

727
00:34:28.460 --> 00:34:30.659
maybe life is gonna look a little different.

728
00:34:30.659 --> 00:34:33.100
Maybe it's not gonna be exactly the same as it was before,

729
00:34:33.100 --> 00:34:37.219
but what if, what if it could be better?

730
00:34:39.739 --> 00:34:41.420
What if it could be better?

731
00:34:41.420 --> 00:34:42.540
I just wanna plant that seed

732
00:34:42.540 --> 00:34:45.340
and we'll let the Holy Spirit simmer in that for you all

733
00:34:45.420 --> 00:34:47.900
and let Him say what that could look like for you.

734
00:34:47.900 --> 00:34:49.179
Awesome, Cherylora.

735
00:34:49.179 --> 00:34:50.300
Rebecca, go ahead.

736
00:34:52.739 --> 00:34:53.900
Okay, thank you.

737
00:34:55.380 --> 00:35:00.380
I had a beautiful connection with a Nicole here, hi.

738
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.960
Nicole was beautiful. I didn't I kind of come in late. So I was

739
00:35:04.960 --> 00:35:07.640
just kind of grasping the concept of what we were doing.

740
00:35:08.080 --> 00:35:12.080
And so I didn't have a lot of time to think about it. And but

741
00:35:12.080 --> 00:35:15.240
the thing that came right to me, like immediately was self

742
00:35:15.240 --> 00:35:23.800
loathing, and continuing to work in the says looks like you're

743
00:35:24.080 --> 00:35:27.000
done talking and we'll lower your Okay, I don't know what

744
00:35:27.000 --> 00:35:30.440
that meant. But working in the orphan spirit, I can't I'm

745
00:35:30.440 --> 00:35:32.920
having a really hard time accepting the good things. God's

746
00:35:32.920 --> 00:35:37.040
doing amazing, miraculous good things in my life right now. And

747
00:35:37.920 --> 00:35:41.920
it I shared an example of even like I've lost 92 pounds over

748
00:35:41.920 --> 00:35:45.360
the last two years of my trauma and healing, but I can't see it.

749
00:35:45.360 --> 00:35:49.280
I don't see it. Um, you know, there's some really great things

750
00:35:49.280 --> 00:35:53.840
happening in my world. And receiving those good things is

751
00:35:53.840 --> 00:35:58.280
still very, very difficult. And I and I know that I feel very

752
00:35:58.280 --> 00:36:01.440
bad about that. I keep asking the Lord for forgiveness for not

753
00:36:01.480 --> 00:36:04.960
being able to accept his goodness and the fruits of the

754
00:36:04.960 --> 00:36:09.080
way he's been blessing me lately. And I have a tendency to

755
00:36:09.080 --> 00:36:14.120
pinpoint like, zero in on the negative. Like I had a wonderful

756
00:36:14.120 --> 00:36:17.720
weekend and experience this weekend, some great things, and

757
00:36:18.160 --> 00:36:20.960
I'll pick out the negative, the one negative thing that happened

758
00:36:20.960 --> 00:36:23.840
this weekend before I'll see the positive. And I know that

759
00:36:23.840 --> 00:36:28.160
that is a route that needs to be uprooted. And I'm tired of it.

760
00:36:29.240 --> 00:36:31.920
This is so good, Rebecca. So let me ask you a question. Are you

761
00:36:31.920 --> 00:36:34.360
someone that struggles with you're afraid the other shoes

762
00:36:34.360 --> 00:36:35.320
always going to drop?

763
00:36:35.600 --> 00:36:39.320
Always? Yeah, it's no, that's not right. But

764
00:36:39.440 --> 00:36:41.960
well, here's the thing. I want you. Okay, so I'm going to

765
00:36:41.960 --> 00:36:46.520
encourage you ladies. I want you just to breathe and just receive

766
00:36:46.520 --> 00:36:51.880
grace right now. Because here's the thing, we can know something

767
00:36:51.880 --> 00:36:55.000
isn't God's best for us in our minds. This is what Jackie talks

768
00:36:55.000 --> 00:36:59.400
about, but our hearts don't know it yet. And so I really want to

769
00:36:59.400 --> 00:37:03.200
encourage you all to give yourself a lot of grace in this

770
00:37:03.200 --> 00:37:06.880
process of healing. Because we don't know what we don't know

771
00:37:06.880 --> 00:37:10.640
until we know it. And while you might know, okay, God, I know

772
00:37:10.640 --> 00:37:12.840
that you don't want me to think like this. And I know you don't

773
00:37:12.840 --> 00:37:16.280
want me to hone in on the negative thing. But Lord, I

774
00:37:16.280 --> 00:37:19.720
trust that you're going to show me in the in the due season at

775
00:37:19.720 --> 00:37:24.080
the right time, like what's going on in my heart that caused

776
00:37:24.080 --> 00:37:27.920
me to start down that path to begin with. You know, and ladies,

777
00:37:27.920 --> 00:37:31.080
some of this stuff is learned, some of it is learned, some of

778
00:37:31.080 --> 00:37:35.240
its earned. You know, I say that not because what we earned isn't

779
00:37:35.240 --> 00:37:37.960
what someone did to us. But sometimes our choices, I'm not

780
00:37:37.960 --> 00:37:40.600
saying that we earned it in a, you know, I'm not trying to be

781
00:37:40.600 --> 00:37:44.280
negative. But sometimes the reality is, is we are facing

782
00:37:44.280 --> 00:37:47.440
things today because of decisions we have made, right.

783
00:37:47.840 --> 00:37:51.680
But so we got to come out, we got to come out of alignment

784
00:37:51.680 --> 00:37:54.760
with that stuff. You know, and the pathways that it took us

785
00:37:54.760 --> 00:37:58.560
down because of the environments we were in the people that we

786
00:37:58.560 --> 00:38:01.720
were around, because we chose unhealthy things or whatever

787
00:38:01.720 --> 00:38:03.720
that looks like. And Rebecca, I'm not saying that's you, I'm

788
00:38:03.720 --> 00:38:06.440
just kind of kind of running with this for a minute. But

789
00:38:06.440 --> 00:38:09.200
just, you know, the self loathing, I really want to

790
00:38:09.200 --> 00:38:13.320
encourage you on that, Rebecca, in particular to ask the Lord,

791
00:38:13.560 --> 00:38:18.000
when did that like, when was the first time you actually were

792
00:38:18.000 --> 00:38:20.120
like, kind of loathe yourself?

793
00:38:20.680 --> 00:38:26.840
I know the exact moment. I was five. And I told my mother, I

794
00:38:26.840 --> 00:38:29.520
came out one late night in the middle of the night, she was

795
00:38:29.520 --> 00:38:32.200
still up and I came to her and I said, I hated myself and I

796
00:38:32.200 --> 00:38:35.280
wanted to die. And I was five. And so she says, Well, that's a

797
00:38:35.280 --> 00:38:39.080
sin to hate yourself. And you need to repent of that. And so

798
00:38:39.080 --> 00:38:42.240
we had a, you know, like she that was not a very, it wasn't a

799
00:38:42.240 --> 00:38:46.880
very loving response. And I think it's generational. I think

800
00:38:46.880 --> 00:38:50.760
that is a generational thing. I know that most of my family

801
00:38:50.760 --> 00:38:55.640
members struggle with that. And, but I remember it so

802
00:38:55.640 --> 00:38:59.600
distinctly, I was only five, but it was such a vivid memory of

803
00:38:59.600 --> 00:39:05.600
me truly hating everything about myself. And, and I think a lot

804
00:39:05.600 --> 00:39:10.000
of it was programmed, and talked to me from generational

805
00:39:10.000 --> 00:39:14.440
people, and, and stuff. And I think that that's the

806
00:39:14.440 --> 00:39:18.160
programming of also the vision of who I had, I'm working

807
00:39:18.160 --> 00:39:21.440
through and who I see my Heavenly Father to be. It's

808
00:39:21.440 --> 00:39:25.320
like, you know, he, he would, oh, yes, I want good things for

809
00:39:25.320 --> 00:39:28.440
you. But it's, it's not going to be what you really desire, it's

810
00:39:28.480 --> 00:39:30.960
going to be better for you. So you just need to accept what I

811
00:39:30.960 --> 00:39:32.960
give you, even if it hurts, because

812
00:39:32.960 --> 00:39:35.160
Okay, so I'm gonna, I'm gonna have you pause there. Because

813
00:39:35.160 --> 00:39:38.320
here's the truth. No, no, this is great. Rebecca, you're this

814
00:39:38.320 --> 00:39:41.560
is good. This is how we unpack things, ladies. And if I jump

815
00:39:41.560 --> 00:39:44.480
in, it's you please don't feel like you did something wrong.

816
00:39:44.520 --> 00:39:48.080
Okay, because you didn't. I just I'm, I'm feeling some things in

817
00:39:48.080 --> 00:39:50.560
the spirit. And so I'm wanting to jump in because I want to I

818
00:39:50.560 --> 00:39:54.040
want to also kind of kind of take this back and forth

819
00:39:54.040 --> 00:39:58.480
between us a little bit. This helps other people too. So a

820
00:39:58.480 --> 00:40:00.040
couple things super important

821
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.600
on this as well. I really am sensing that the five years old was not the first time

822
00:40:05.600 --> 00:40:13.120
that you were attacked by the enemy in this way. So I'm not sure what it was and we don't need to

823
00:40:13.120 --> 00:40:18.400
uncover that tonight if you don't know, but I really want to encourage you to ask the Lord

824
00:40:18.400 --> 00:40:26.160
to show you if there was a time before you were five years old. I really believe it was an attack

825
00:40:26.160 --> 00:40:30.880
of the enemy. It wasn't just a thought that you had. This is something the enemy was placing

826
00:40:30.880 --> 00:40:39.360
in your mind and you weren't old enough to know any different. Okay. You weren't, you didn't know,

827
00:40:39.360 --> 00:40:46.560
you didn't, and you know, let me also say this. I'm sorry for the way that that kind of was unpacked

828
00:40:46.560 --> 00:40:51.680
for you that night and the shame that I think that maybe entered in. And I don't know that

829
00:40:51.680 --> 00:40:57.440
your mom meant that, but it sounds like she was just trying to speak truth to you and probably

830
00:40:57.440 --> 00:41:02.640
didn't know what else to do. It's okay. I'm just saying, I'm just, I don't know your mom and I

831
00:41:02.640 --> 00:41:09.440
wasn't there. So I just want you to be open. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I want you to be open to whatever the

832
00:41:09.440 --> 00:41:16.960
Lord wants to reveal to you through this. The other thing is that I wrote a post to I'm going

833
00:41:16.960 --> 00:41:20.960
to use crystal again, just cause she did a post and it was really powerful in what she was

834
00:41:20.960 --> 00:41:25.120
processing. She was working through some hard stuff. It's in the group. If you want to go and

835
00:41:25.120 --> 00:41:30.320
look in the community tab, I think that, or ask a coach it's somewhere in there. But one of the

836
00:41:30.320 --> 00:41:36.080
things that I shared and coached on last week, ladies, while we understand and know that there

837
00:41:36.080 --> 00:41:41.440
can be generational negative things that happen and are carried down. And we want to have knowledge

838
00:41:41.440 --> 00:41:48.160
of those things. But sometimes we get so focused on that, that we forget the other side of the

839
00:41:48.160 --> 00:41:54.080
scripture that talks about generational blessings. And it's super important for us to have balance

840
00:41:54.080 --> 00:41:59.280
there. Okay. The enemy wants us to focus on all the negative because that's, if we focus more on

841
00:41:59.280 --> 00:42:04.960
him, then that's what the power is given to. So we want to focus and balance that out. Okay, Lord,

842
00:42:04.960 --> 00:42:10.000
but you brought me here to be a Kinsman redeemer. I believe God is, I love you. And I follow your

843
00:42:10.000 --> 00:42:14.960
commandments that you're going to bless my life and you're going to bless generations to come.

844
00:42:14.960 --> 00:42:20.320
And not only that, but you're going to go into time, my family timeline, and you can recorrect

845
00:42:20.320 --> 00:42:26.880
and redeem anything. He can literally move in and out of our whole timeline. Time is not like,

846
00:42:26.880 --> 00:42:33.280
it's not like what we know it as. It's different for him. And so we can ask him to go into those

847
00:42:33.280 --> 00:42:38.400
places and those, the depths of, you know, even if it is generational to go into the source

848
00:42:39.200 --> 00:42:46.720
and just lovingly put his finger on that place. Okay. And so we really want you all to start

849
00:42:46.720 --> 00:42:51.120
partnering with those kinds of thoughts. Well, I want you to have knowledge of what's come through

850
00:42:51.120 --> 00:42:56.560
your family to a degree. This is where it's really important that we don't dig. We don't try to turn

851
00:42:56.560 --> 00:43:02.320
up rocks of our family lines. We just ask the Holy spirit to reveal things for healing. If he reveals

852
00:43:02.320 --> 00:43:07.680
it cool, but if it's coming up through other ways, we want to be really careful with that. Okay. And

853
00:43:07.680 --> 00:43:13.200
Rebecca, I'm not saying that that's how that came to be for you, but just want everyone to know that.

854
00:43:13.200 --> 00:43:18.960
And we, the reason that it's important is we don't want to retraumatize ourselves. Okay. All right,

855
00:43:18.960 --> 00:43:24.640
Rebecca, great share. You did awesome. Thank you so much for your courage to share that. That was

856
00:43:24.640 --> 00:43:37.280
great. Amy, go ahead. Hi. Hi. So when we were talking earlier and you were sharing things and

857
00:43:37.280 --> 00:43:42.720
giving examples the Lord brought to mind, I'm just starting to think about Christmas.

858
00:43:43.760 --> 00:43:50.080
Oh, it's been a busy season. But thinking about like, which one of my parents do I go see? Do I

859
00:43:50.080 --> 00:43:56.720
try to pack them into one day? Sort of a thing. But what I feel like you revealed to me is that

860
00:43:57.520 --> 00:44:06.800
I have been a peace, I'm going to say this, right? A peace keeper, not a peacemaker.

861
00:44:07.440 --> 00:44:15.920
And that I tend to sacrifice myself to make my parents happy. Because if I don't do it,

862
00:44:15.920 --> 00:44:23.200
like it's going to be chaos sort of a thing. And so I don't know exactly what it would

863
00:44:23.200 --> 00:44:30.960
be repenting of. But that's like the big memory that's coming to mind. And I can see it like,

864
00:44:30.960 --> 00:44:38.720
he's been speaking about being a peacemaker, actively trying to say it right. And other

865
00:44:38.720 --> 00:44:43.360
areas of life too. So I feel like it's a big thing that he's just like, hey, pay attention.

866
00:44:45.360 --> 00:44:49.840
Um, yeah, so that's so good. I the first thing that comes to mind is this isn't a sin you need

867
00:44:49.840 --> 00:44:55.360
to repent of, but it just is an area like a habit. To me, this would fall under harmful habits that

868
00:44:55.360 --> 00:44:59.840
I was saying. So some of it is us coming out of and repenting for sin. Some of it's

869
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.800
us coming out of alignment and agreement with harmful habits.

870
00:45:03.300 --> 00:45:08.820
Um, people pleasing is, is harmful to us, especially when we are doing it to

871
00:45:08.820 --> 00:45:10.900
the point that we're harming ourselves.

872
00:45:12.120 --> 00:45:12.620
Okay.

873
00:45:12.920 --> 00:45:18.000
And so I would encourage you to be praying this week about boundaries,

874
00:45:18.080 --> 00:45:22.400
like what are the boundaries and ask the Lord, Lord, what boundaries do

875
00:45:22.400 --> 00:45:28.280
you want me to put in place so that I can walk in your peace this season?

876
00:45:28.880 --> 00:45:33.860
Now understand ladies, that peace isn't always, um, just there.

877
00:45:34.060 --> 00:45:34.280
Okay.

878
00:45:34.280 --> 00:45:37.660
Sometimes we're going to actually experience God as peace.

879
00:45:37.980 --> 00:45:42.900
Y'all know that the word declares he himself is peace and we will experience

880
00:45:42.900 --> 00:45:46.740
him in greater depths and greater revelation, even in the midst of

881
00:45:46.740 --> 00:45:51.160
hardship, but that doesn't mean we have to just put up with people being

882
00:45:51.160 --> 00:45:52.240
unhealthy either.

883
00:45:52.540 --> 00:45:53.040
Okay.

884
00:45:54.540 --> 00:45:57.500
So it's okay for you to set healthy boundaries and really ask the

885
00:45:57.520 --> 00:45:58.020
Lord.

886
00:45:58.400 --> 00:46:05.040
Um, I would also say what comes to mind, um, Amy, is that if we are people

887
00:46:05.040 --> 00:46:09.300
pleasing and we're just trying to keep peace to keep people happy, then there's

888
00:46:09.300 --> 00:46:19.320
a little bit of underlying where we're lying to some degree because in all

889
00:46:19.320 --> 00:46:24.980
reality, and we're not doing it overt, like we're not like overtly lying in a

890
00:46:24.980 --> 00:46:30.840
sense, but if we are just going along with what everybody else wants to keep

891
00:46:30.840 --> 00:46:34.100
them happy, we're actually lying to ourselves.

892
00:46:34.440 --> 00:46:39.400
And sometimes we're lying to other people just to, just to keep peace.

893
00:46:39.740 --> 00:46:43.920
Now, I'm not saying that, like, I can be like, Oh, Amy lied about this, but

894
00:46:43.920 --> 00:46:49.080
like, I feel like that is connected under there and lying to ourselves and

895
00:46:49.080 --> 00:46:55.860
devaluing ourselves is super huge, tied into identity and like self worth

896
00:46:56.040 --> 00:46:56.760
struggles.

897
00:46:58.080 --> 00:46:58.580
Okay.

898
00:46:58.720 --> 00:47:03.200
So all those kinds of might be kind of connected in little ways to each other.

899
00:47:03.440 --> 00:47:08.700
And so as you lean into this, the Lord might reveal a little bit more, um, and

900
00:47:08.700 --> 00:47:13.520
just ask, I would just ask him again, I I'm, I'm so big on sending you guys back

901
00:47:13.520 --> 00:47:17.800
to the father because he literally knows you better than you know yourself.

902
00:47:18.440 --> 00:47:23.080
And so just asking him, Lord, is there any time where I've actually like lied to

903
00:47:23.080 --> 00:47:30.840
myself and told myself that I'm, I'm good when I wasn't, you know what I'm saying?

904
00:47:31.000 --> 00:47:37.240
Just to keep the peace, but really inside I was hurting or I was sad or, you know,

905
00:47:37.240 --> 00:47:41.960
I didn't really want to go do that thing, but I felt forced to, in some sense, or

906
00:47:42.120 --> 00:47:46.600
whether the forcing is us doing it, because sometimes you all, we do it to

907
00:47:46.600 --> 00:47:47.120
ourselves.

908
00:47:47.120 --> 00:47:50.360
We convince ourselves that people are going to be mad.

909
00:47:51.080 --> 00:47:52.200
That may not be.

910
00:47:55.880 --> 00:48:00.920
I know y'all that is, you got to unpack that Stephanie.

911
00:48:00.920 --> 00:48:01.720
I see you girl.

912
00:48:01.880 --> 00:48:02.200
Yeah.

913
00:48:02.200 --> 00:48:07.800
So there, there are a lot of layers to the ways that we, we will sometimes lie to

914
00:48:07.800 --> 00:48:13.000
ourselves just because we feel like if it's going to make other people happy,

915
00:48:13.000 --> 00:48:18.840
we'll deny ourselves, but that's, that's not healthy for us in, in any relationship.

916
00:48:18.840 --> 00:48:23.320
And so if we do that in our relationships with our family and our friends, then we

917
00:48:23.320 --> 00:48:27.880
will tend to do that in romantic relationships and it will end up hurting us.

918
00:48:28.520 --> 00:48:28.840
Yeah.

919
00:48:29.320 --> 00:48:30.360
Great share, Amy.

920
00:48:30.360 --> 00:48:34.520
I hope that that's helpful if you know, as the Lord, I believe whether it's this

921
00:48:34.520 --> 00:48:38.520
week or whenever I would love to have you do a post on that just so that we can kind

922
00:48:38.520 --> 00:48:41.880
of see what the Lord is revealing to you and help you unpack that a little bit

923
00:48:41.880 --> 00:48:46.920
more, because I feel like there might be some additional layers as you lean into that

924
00:48:46.920 --> 00:48:47.400
a little bit.

925
00:48:48.360 --> 00:48:48.840
Okay.

926
00:48:48.840 --> 00:48:49.400
Awesome.

927
00:48:49.400 --> 00:48:50.520
Thank you.

928
00:48:50.520 --> 00:48:51.400
Crystal, go ahead.

929
00:48:53.400 --> 00:48:53.720
Okay.

930
00:48:53.720 --> 00:48:55.800
So, um, two things.

931
00:48:55.800 --> 00:49:01.160
So last week you had asked me, um, the same kind of thing came up and I gave the example

932
00:49:01.160 --> 00:49:03.800
of my mom driving crazy and how I was terrified.

933
00:49:03.800 --> 00:49:06.440
And you asked me to go back and ask the Holy spirit about that.

934
00:49:06.440 --> 00:49:09.240
And then all this other kind of stuff unpacked.

935
00:49:09.240 --> 00:49:14.040
So, um, yesterday I spent a lot of time and I just, I broke the generational curse and

936
00:49:14.040 --> 00:49:18.280
I had actually written out the verse that you had given me, um, like on a cue card and

937
00:49:18.280 --> 00:49:19.880
with pen and that.

938
00:49:19.880 --> 00:49:22.200
And, um, so I did that.

939
00:49:22.200 --> 00:49:25.800
And then I broke the curse and I was like, Lord, I want to receive the general generational

940
00:49:25.800 --> 00:49:27.960
blessing of that and change that all around.

941
00:49:28.760 --> 00:49:33.320
And the Holy spirit's like, I want you to change the scripture because he was like,

942
00:49:33.320 --> 00:49:37.160
he was like the thing that you've been given from the beginning was fear.

943
00:49:37.160 --> 00:49:38.760
And he was like, that didn't come from me.

944
00:49:38.840 --> 00:49:40.600
And he was like, I wanted to give you faith.

945
00:49:40.600 --> 00:49:43.720
And he was like, you were so full of faith as a child.

946
00:49:43.720 --> 00:49:47.720
So I changed the scripture to, I, crystal parent have a spirit of faith.

947
00:49:47.720 --> 00:49:51.720
He's like, I don't even want you to say the word anymore that, because that used to be

948
00:49:51.720 --> 00:49:53.000
one of my favorite scriptures.

949
00:49:53.000 --> 00:49:54.920
Like God, hasn't given me a spirit of fear.

950
00:49:54.920 --> 00:49:57.320
He's like, I don't even want you to say the word.

951
00:49:57.320 --> 00:49:59.320
He was like, let's not even acknowledge that anymore.

952
00:49:59.320 --> 00:49:59.800
He's like, let's.

953
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.080
just acknowledge what I gave you instead. And once I broke it, I

954
00:50:04.080 --> 00:50:08.280
was in the kitchen. And the Holy Spirit was so sweet, because he

955
00:50:08.280 --> 00:50:12.520
brought to the memory, the car memory. And then he, he brought

956
00:50:12.520 --> 00:50:16.560
to mind something my mom said, that her father used to drive,

957
00:50:16.760 --> 00:50:19.800
they were five kids, he used to put them in the car. And he used

958
00:50:19.800 --> 00:50:24.520
to drive them to the beach, and he was drunk. And I and a Holy

959
00:50:24.520 --> 00:50:27.540
Spirit said, How do you expect to do her to do anything

960
00:50:27.540 --> 00:50:31.860
different than what she learned. And it was such a sweet moment.

961
00:50:31.880 --> 00:50:34.860
And he and then he gave me another picture of her being

962
00:50:34.860 --> 00:50:38.500
scared. And he was like, you know, he was like, she did the

963
00:50:38.500 --> 00:50:41.500
best that she could. And it was just so sweet, because we

964
00:50:41.500 --> 00:50:45.220
expect to receive from people things that they can't give us.

965
00:50:45.220 --> 00:50:48.780
And when you get that deep, deep understanding, like this

966
00:50:48.780 --> 00:50:51.380
already happened for me, it was my father a long time ago, but

967
00:50:51.380 --> 00:50:54.500
it hadn't happened for my mother yet. And when the Holy Spirit

968
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showed me that it was just such compassion for my mom and the

969
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things that that had happened to me. And then in my group, I had

970
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shared this kindergarten man, kindergarten is a killer. I

971
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won't say it shouldn't say that. But anyways, my kindergarten

972
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teacher, my struggle with authority, my kindergarten

973
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teacher put me in the corner with the dunce hat on and laughed

974
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at me for helping another kid out. And that's where my

975
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authority struggle, the Holy Spirit showed me came from, like

976
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that just people, leaders, teachers, counselors don't have

977
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my best interest in mind.

978
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Yes. So Chris, I want to encourage you this week, I'm

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going to give you another assignment. I want you to ask

980
00:51:38.660 --> 00:51:43.300
Jesus to literally show you him taking you out of that corner in

981
00:51:43.300 --> 00:51:47.620
kindergarten. And what that looks like, and feels like

982
00:51:47.620 --> 00:51:51.740
taking the hat off you, and what his heart was for you in that

983
00:51:51.740 --> 00:51:56.220
time, ladies, this is this is really where, you know, these

984
00:51:56.220 --> 00:51:59.340
situations that we go through, again, not passing these things

985
00:51:59.340 --> 00:52:03.820
over, but understanding how that like, what did that right? And

986
00:52:03.820 --> 00:52:05.860
she doesn't have to answer it. But what does that kind of stuff

987
00:52:05.860 --> 00:52:09.980
right on our hearts in those moments? And on our identity?

988
00:52:10.140 --> 00:52:13.300
How does that mark us? And how do we live into life through

989
00:52:13.300 --> 00:52:17.820
those things? This is why we cannot lean like, I will say

990
00:52:17.820 --> 00:52:20.740
it's in your best interest when these kind of things come up to

991
00:52:20.740 --> 00:52:25.300
say to the Father, thank you for bringing this up. Show me

992
00:52:25.300 --> 00:52:29.660
what you're trying to reveal to me through it. Because he knows

993
00:52:29.660 --> 00:52:34.020
how to lead you into wide open spaces. He knows how to lead you

994
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into the new rivers and streams flowing in the desert places of

995
00:52:37.820 --> 00:52:42.660
your life. Crystal, thank you for sharing about the situation

996
00:52:42.660 --> 00:52:45.100
with your mom and what God showed you as well. Ladies, this

997
00:52:45.100 --> 00:52:48.540
is this is a supernatural process that you're in. And this

998
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is the path that God wants you all to get to. And everybody

999
00:52:52.940 --> 00:52:55.460
will get there at different times. So don't fall into

1000
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comparison or anything like that, because the enemy will try

1001
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to do that quick. But just know that God wants all of us to

1002
00:53:02.460 --> 00:53:07.460
learn how to have compassion and empathy for people who have

1003
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harmed us. It doesn't mean you have to let them back into your

1004
00:53:09.700 --> 00:53:13.140
life or let them do the same kind of things to you. But our

1005
00:53:13.140 --> 00:53:18.980
heart posture and our heart health is key. Okay. Love what

1006
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God is doing in all these things he's revealing to you. Crystal,

1007
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thank you for sharing. We'll take one more and then I'm going

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to go into the other content for the night. Alina, go ahead.

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Hi. Hi. This is the first time I'm sharing on here. Feels a

1010
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little bit vulnerable. But um, yeah, for me, it's been going in

1011
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circles with relationship. And that I knew I didn't want in the

1012
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beginning. And then he was just super persistent. And, and I

1013
00:53:56.660 --> 00:54:02.140
thought I was falling for him at some point. And then kind of we

1014
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got to the point where now, I know that I shouldn't go back to

1015
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it. And I find myself doing it anyway, like, I see myself. I'm

1016
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doing that, even though in my head, I know, I that's not what

1017
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I want. And I think it's tied to like, sexual cycles. On both of

1018
00:54:31.060 --> 00:54:32.660
our ends, I think.

1019
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Do you mean like, are you saying hormonal cycles? Is that what

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you mean?

1021
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Or even like addiction or like, um, but I think it's got to be

1022
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more than that. And I can't figure out because it's gone on

1023
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for years. And I can't we can't seem to like move on. Like, I'm

1024
00:54:55.340 --> 00:55:00.060
just really tired of this cycle. And I feel like I've had

1025
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some bad dreams whenever I connect with him and yet I can't seem to just completely move on from it.

1026
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What week are you in, just so that I remember, Alina? I know like second, but I'm not

1027
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through with reading. I'm kind of needing to figure out a schedule for that. That's okay.

1028
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I'm asking just because as you get further into the program, I'm going to look right now. I'm

1029
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sorry. I normally remember this off the top of my head, but I don't remember right now.

1030
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Okay. See what, okay. So when you get into week three, don't rush it. Go ahead and finish what

1031
00:55:39.440 --> 00:55:45.280
you're doing in week two, because again, this program is built for like the progression is,

1032
00:55:45.280 --> 00:55:49.760
is important. So that's why we really encourage y'all not to binge watch videos and just watch

1033
00:55:49.760 --> 00:55:54.480
through all the videos. The videos in the book go hand in hand with the journaling, right? But when

1034
00:55:54.480 --> 00:55:58.960
you get to week three, one of the videos in there is breaking soul ties. And I think that's going

1035
00:55:58.960 --> 00:56:04.960
to help you quite a bit. It's going to lead you through how to break soul ties with this man

1036
00:56:05.520 --> 00:56:10.080
that you all have created, you know, through having, it sounds like maybe some sexual

1037
00:56:10.080 --> 00:56:16.560
type encounters together, whether it's old stuff or new stuff, but also, you know,

1038
00:56:16.560 --> 00:56:22.000
soul ties, aren't just sexual. They're all, there's so many kinds of soul ties, spiritual,

1039
00:56:22.080 --> 00:56:27.520
emotional. And so listening to that, it will help you understand maybe the different things that

1040
00:56:27.520 --> 00:56:33.920
might still be connecting you with this man in multiple ways. Okay. And so want to say that first.

1041
00:56:33.920 --> 00:56:40.160
And the other thing is that what I have found from my life, I'm not saying this will be the same for

1042
00:56:40.160 --> 00:56:46.880
you, but when I was struggling with going back to a relationship with someone that wasn't healthy

1043
00:56:46.880 --> 00:56:52.880
for me, talk a lot about my spiritual daughters and their dad, and how I often went into relation,

1044
00:56:52.880 --> 00:56:57.200
like I was just in relationship with him for six years, cheated on me multiple times. It was just

1045
00:56:57.200 --> 00:57:04.800
very, very unhealthy and bad. But I kept staying. And so when I finally was working on, I started

1046
00:57:04.800 --> 00:57:10.640
seeing a counselor, even like a year and a half before I broke up with him, that's how long it

1047
00:57:10.640 --> 00:57:16.160
took me to get to the place. Now his daughters were involved. And so I just was really terrified

1048
00:57:16.160 --> 00:57:22.240
of losing them. There was a lot going on there, but at the core, when I had to look at what was

1049
00:57:22.240 --> 00:57:32.880
going on in me is I didn't believe I deserved better. I didn't believe like that. I could keep

1050
00:57:32.880 --> 00:57:38.880
someone that was consistently healthy. I didn't know how to live outside of chaos

1051
00:57:39.840 --> 00:57:46.400
because my whole life I'd grown up in chaos in relationships and family and like my mom

1052
00:57:46.400 --> 00:57:50.160
and dad fought all the time, other than my grandparents, that is what I knew.

1053
00:57:51.600 --> 00:57:58.880
And so I was used to chaos. And so to learn how to come out of chaos living and how to live in,

1054
00:57:58.880 --> 00:58:03.200
in a relationship with someone who's peaceful, it's a whole different ball game, but it's so

1055
00:58:03.200 --> 00:58:08.480
great when we finally get there, ladies, it's so great, but we have to start making that shift.

1056
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You know, I would really encourage you to just, and we're going to do some work on this tonight.

1057
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So this is really great. It's going to be a good segue. Our activation for this week is going to

1058
00:58:17.360 --> 00:58:24.240
be focused on you all really asking God to show you the good stuff in yourself. Like what is your

1059
00:58:24.240 --> 00:58:28.800
value? What is your worth? How does God see you? What does he want you to know about yourself?

1060
00:58:28.800 --> 00:58:32.080
All of that kind of stuff. So I'm going to share more about that in a little bit,

1061
00:58:32.160 --> 00:58:36.880
but Alina, I would encourage you to really be asking the Lord to show you any areas where you

1062
00:58:36.880 --> 00:58:42.960
might have low self-worth. And what is the root of those? Like, where did that start for you?

1063
00:58:43.600 --> 00:58:49.280
Ladies, we don't just struggle now, sexual, like with sexual stuff. This started somewhere for us.

1064
00:58:51.200 --> 00:58:56.800
So even with that, you know, Alina, you know, asking the Lord to show you when is the first time

1065
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that you, you know, entered into some kind of sexual encounter with someone

1066
00:59:02.960 --> 00:59:07.360
that that root might even still be causing you to struggle today.

1067
00:59:08.800 --> 00:59:18.480
Yeah. My uncle would start kind of inappropriately touching us. And I guess I took it as like,

1068
00:59:19.680 --> 00:59:23.600
I knew he was wrong. We were in church, you know, we grew up in church, but,

1069
00:59:24.320 --> 00:59:31.600
but part of me, I guess, got, got a sense of like, Oh, I'm liked, or I'm,

1070
00:59:34.560 --> 00:59:40.960
I've got a sense. I don't know, like, I don't know what, how to call it.

1071
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It's okay. So, ladies, one of the things I'll coach on this a little bit, and then we can circle

1072
00:59:46.640 --> 00:59:53.120
back to this more another time. But sometimes what can happen is we start to feel shame because our

1073
00:59:53.120 --> 00:59:59.760
bodies actually have a physical response to those things. And we can't help what our body does.

1074
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:10.000
And so I want to encourage you or anyone else, if you've ever been through something like that, where you were introduced to sexual things well beyond like a very young age.

1075
01:00:10.000 --> 01:00:20.000
So way before you should have been, that you would just really ask the Lord to come into any areas of shame or guilt or condemnation that you've been like living in.

1076
01:00:20.000 --> 01:00:28.000
And that, you know, basically kind of like what I said to Crystal, like ask Jesus to show you like, what are his thoughts towards you?

1077
01:00:28.000 --> 01:00:33.000
What does he want you to know about that situation? How does he want to help you walk out of that?

1078
01:00:33.000 --> 01:00:40.000
You know, where we really invite him to be a part of the process with us and know that that is not our forever.

1079
01:00:40.000 --> 01:00:44.000
And this is just, this is like the beginning of all this for you.

1080
01:00:44.000 --> 01:00:51.000
There's so many good things ahead. I believe God's going to bring some major breakthrough from all of the questions that you're going to be leaning into.

1081
01:00:51.000 --> 01:00:57.000
Like when I say leaning in, basically what I mean by that ladies is you're going to go to him and you're just going to start talking to him.

1082
01:00:57.000 --> 01:01:07.000
The heartwork journey, we say, ask God good questions and keep having conversations with him and growing in your connection with him and letting him show you the way to truth.

1083
01:01:08.000 --> 01:01:16.000
Jesus is the way the truth in the life. So growing in your friendship with Jesus is going to be really important too. Okay.

1084
01:01:16.000 --> 01:01:23.000
So good. These are great questions. Alina, great share for your first time. Do you feel, how do you feel? You feel okay?

1085
01:01:23.000 --> 01:01:26.000
Yeah. Awesome. Awesome.

1086
01:01:26.000 --> 01:01:34.000
Yeah, ladies, sometimes it is hard to do it for your first time, but I promise so many of you all, it's going to be really good when you take that step.

1087
01:01:34.000 --> 01:01:41.000
All right. We're going to start to turn into the next part of our content for tonight. And it's called the real you.

1088
01:01:41.000 --> 01:01:56.000
And I want you to just be thinking about who is the real you? What is your true identity? And what do I mean by that is this, who did God originally create you to be?

1089
01:01:56.000 --> 01:02:07.000
Long before trauma and pain entered your world, when God was forming you and he's putting you all together, who did he originally create you to be?

1090
01:02:07.000 --> 01:02:18.000
Now you can't know that in your own understanding. Okay. You can know it in part, but God is the one that needs to be the one like revealing those things to you.

1091
01:02:18.000 --> 01:02:25.000
So as you start to lean into this with the Lord, you start having conversations with him about it and talking to him and letting him show you all the things.

1092
01:02:25.000 --> 01:02:29.000
I want you to also process some of this stuff.

1093
01:02:29.000 --> 01:02:36.000
So in Genesis, when we have the story of Adam and Eve, Adam and Eve ate of the fruit, they realized they were naked.

1094
01:02:36.000 --> 01:02:41.000
They covered themselves and they hid and God comes looking for them in the garden.

1095
01:02:41.000 --> 01:02:49.000
And God says to Adam, when he finds them, he basically says, who like, basically, why are you hiding? Number one, I'm paraphrasing.

1096
01:02:49.000 --> 01:02:54.000
But then he says, who told you that you were naked?

1097
01:02:54.000 --> 01:02:58.000
So my question to you all tonight is who told you that you were naked?

1098
01:02:58.000 --> 01:03:10.000
And what I mean by that is, you know, some of you believe you're stupid. Some of you believe you're fat. Some of you believe you're not pretty, whatever the negative things are that you hear that you think about yourself.

1099
01:03:10.000 --> 01:03:16.000
You know, some of you feel like you want a promotion, but you really don't know if you can get it because you don't know if you're qualified.

1100
01:03:16.000 --> 01:03:24.000
And so I have people that even know like they have leadership ability, but they don't see that stuff in themselves.

1101
01:03:24.000 --> 01:03:26.000
Why is that?

1102
01:03:27.000 --> 01:03:36.000
I think that the business I saw, not business, I saw Stephanie's thing and read said business as I read that. That was so funny. Sorry, y'all.

1103
01:03:36.000 --> 01:03:48.000
I think basically God is just trying to invite you out of hiding and he's trying to invite you out of the shame and the guilt and all of the things that the enemy has tried to put on you for a long, long time.

1104
01:03:48.000 --> 01:03:54.000
So who told you that you were these things? Where did they originate? Did they originate from the heart of the father?

1105
01:03:54.000 --> 01:04:02.000
Did they originate from, you know, when you were formed? If they're negative? No, they didn't.

1106
01:04:02.000 --> 01:04:10.000
God did not put those kinds of things in us. Long ago, I don't remember if it was your all's group or how long ago I've shared it, but God did not.

1107
01:04:10.000 --> 01:04:17.000
Like I used to struggle so bad with fear and so bad with anxiety, like bad you all.

1108
01:04:18.000 --> 01:04:26.000
And I remember one day, I'm just really struggling with it. And I said to God, why did you make me this way?

1109
01:04:26.000 --> 01:04:35.000
I was driving to work and that was my question to him. And he said, as plain as I'm like, I wasn't audible, but it was that quick in my spirit, the still small voice.

1110
01:04:35.000 --> 01:04:41.000
He was he was speaking, but it was he was talking loud, not yelling, but just talking loud and very clear.

1111
01:04:41.000 --> 01:04:46.000
He said, I didn't. And I was kind of like, what?

1112
01:04:46.000 --> 01:04:54.000
Well, I've always been like this. And he said, no, you haven't.

1113
01:04:54.000 --> 01:05:00.000
I was not formed with anxiousness and fear in me, you all.

1114
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.880
Trauma and pain in my life opened the door to that.

1115
01:05:05.800 --> 01:05:08.160
So I want you all to really be looking at,

1116
01:05:08.160 --> 01:05:12.080
okay, am I walking around carrying stuff

1117
01:05:12.080 --> 01:05:14.480
and acknowledging it as a part of my identity

1118
01:05:14.480 --> 01:05:17.560
and who I am, but it actually never

1119
01:05:17.560 --> 01:05:19.840
was meant to belong to me?

1120
01:05:19.840 --> 01:05:22.840
It was never meant to be a part of who I am,

1121
01:05:22.840 --> 01:05:26.560
but I live in this story and I tell myself this is who I am,

1122
01:05:26.560 --> 01:05:29.000
or this is how it's always gonna be, some of you all,

1123
01:05:29.000 --> 01:05:30.840
and I'm not knocking this, some of us

1124
01:05:30.840 --> 01:05:34.440
have had physical things, we've battled our whole lives

1125
01:05:34.440 --> 01:05:37.880
because the enemy is the one that assaults us,

1126
01:05:37.880 --> 01:05:40.160
he brings death, disease, and destruction,

1127
01:05:40.160 --> 01:05:43.400
he wants to hinder us from moving into the fullness

1128
01:05:43.400 --> 01:05:44.840
of what God has for us,

1129
01:05:45.680 --> 01:05:47.680
and he will do it any way that he can.

1130
01:05:48.800 --> 01:05:52.320
Praise God that he sent Jesus and Jesus chose to come

1131
01:05:52.320 --> 01:05:54.200
and he chose to allow his body to be broken

1132
01:05:54.200 --> 01:05:55.920
and his blood to be shed so that we can have freedom

1133
01:05:55.920 --> 01:05:59.280
and liberty and live in the fullness and be blessed

1134
01:05:59.280 --> 01:06:02.080
in all of these things and be in relationship

1135
01:06:02.080 --> 01:06:03.920
that we never have to do life alone,

1136
01:06:03.920 --> 01:06:06.240
so we don't have to live in that nakedness,

1137
01:06:06.240 --> 01:06:08.160
we don't have to live in that shame,

1138
01:06:08.160 --> 01:06:10.080
and we don't have to live under the rubble

1139
01:06:10.080 --> 01:06:12.000
or the mess of our lives.

1140
01:06:14.400 --> 01:06:18.360
You are a supernova, each one of you is carrying something

1141
01:06:18.360 --> 01:06:20.960
that can absolutely change the world.

1142
01:06:20.960 --> 01:06:22.680
Will it be on a platform?

1143
01:06:22.680 --> 01:06:25.720
I don't know, a lot of times it's one person at a time,

1144
01:06:26.520 --> 01:06:29.280
but I'm telling you ladies that we're sharing things

1145
01:06:29.280 --> 01:06:32.720
and God is using us to change the world.

1146
01:06:32.720 --> 01:06:34.560
Now, here's another thing,

1147
01:06:34.560 --> 01:06:37.520
even if some of you choose to never use the things

1148
01:06:37.520 --> 01:06:41.440
that you've been through to reach someone else as you heal,

1149
01:06:41.440 --> 01:06:45.120
God will love you just as much.

1150
01:06:45.120 --> 01:06:46.960
It's not about what you can do for him,

1151
01:06:46.960 --> 01:06:48.280
that's not the point.

1152
01:06:50.600 --> 01:06:53.920
The reason I do what I do is because I've been healed

1153
01:06:53.960 --> 01:06:56.160
and I've been able to share it to myself.

1154
01:06:57.280 --> 01:07:00.560
Like it's out of the overflow of what he's done for me,

1155
01:07:00.560 --> 01:07:04.080
he's radically changed my entire life

1156
01:07:05.480 --> 01:07:07.240
and I can't help but share it.

1157
01:07:07.240 --> 01:07:11.320
You know, I don't want the rocks crying out for me, ladies.

1158
01:07:11.320 --> 01:07:14.360
I wanna praise him, I wanna tell of his goodness,

1159
01:07:14.360 --> 01:07:17.760
of his glory, of his love, and how much he's a good father

1160
01:07:17.760 --> 01:07:20.640
because I didn't have a good father on this earth,

1161
01:07:20.680 --> 01:07:23.160
but he's been my dad for sure

1162
01:07:23.160 --> 01:07:26.400
and he's shown me that more and more and more every day.

1163
01:07:29.160 --> 01:07:31.960
Alina, I'm so sorry that you didn't have a daddy either.

1164
01:07:33.360 --> 01:07:35.040
Anyone else?

1165
01:07:35.040 --> 01:07:36.400
I didn't go into this today,

1166
01:07:36.400 --> 01:07:38.680
so the Holy Spirit must be up on that.

1167
01:07:41.120 --> 01:07:43.240
But each one of us, we carry things

1168
01:07:43.240 --> 01:07:46.080
and God is doing stuff and he's moving in us.

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Romans 8, 37 through 39 says,

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"'No, in all these things we are more than conquerors

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01:07:50.600 --> 01:07:52.360
"'through him who loved us,

1172
01:07:52.360 --> 01:07:54.280
"'for I am convinced that neither death nor life,

1173
01:07:54.280 --> 01:07:57.280
"'nor angels nor demons, nor the present nor the future,

1174
01:07:57.280 --> 01:08:00.160
"'nor any powers, neither height nor depth,

1175
01:08:00.160 --> 01:08:02.040
"'nor anything else in all of creation

1176
01:08:02.040 --> 01:08:05.080
"'will be able to separate us from the love of God

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01:08:05.080 --> 01:08:08.520
"'that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.'"

1178
01:08:08.520 --> 01:08:12.520
If God is for you, ladies, who can be against you?

1179
01:08:14.080 --> 01:08:16.600
Will we experience trials and tribulation in this world?

1180
01:08:16.600 --> 01:08:17.439
Yes, we will.

1181
01:08:18.160 --> 01:08:21.960
But God can help you overcome every single one of them.

1182
01:08:24.279 --> 01:08:25.560
It's time.

1183
01:08:25.560 --> 01:08:27.319
It's time for what, you say?

1184
01:08:28.200 --> 01:08:29.200
What is it time for?

1185
01:08:29.200 --> 01:08:32.760
Well, it's time for you all to awaken.

1186
01:08:32.760 --> 01:08:33.640
Who is you?

1187
01:08:33.640 --> 01:08:35.479
You are princesses.

1188
01:08:35.479 --> 01:08:37.800
Maybe you've never seen yourself that way,

1189
01:08:39.840 --> 01:08:41.359
but that is who you are.

1190
01:08:42.800 --> 01:08:45.160
So I kind of want you all to imagine this.

1191
01:08:45.439 --> 01:08:48.319
I didn't do this this afternoon,

1192
01:08:48.319 --> 01:08:49.760
but this just came up in my spirit

1193
01:08:49.760 --> 01:08:52.800
as I'm looking at actually Kim W.

1194
01:08:53.720 --> 01:08:55.640
For whatever reason, Kim W,

1195
01:08:55.640 --> 01:08:58.520
God wants you to know that he does see you as a princess,

1196
01:08:58.520 --> 01:09:01.279
and I don't know that you see yourself that way,

1197
01:09:01.279 --> 01:09:02.920
but we're gonna do an activation this week

1198
01:09:02.920 --> 01:09:04.359
that's gonna be extra, okay?

1199
01:09:04.359 --> 01:09:06.920
I didn't have this on my paper,

1200
01:09:06.920 --> 01:09:08.800
but I keep looking at Kim W.

1201
01:09:08.800 --> 01:09:12.399
God is highlighting you to me in massive ways.

1202
01:09:12.399 --> 01:09:15.760
He sees you, he knows the cries of your heart,

1203
01:09:15.760 --> 01:09:18.000
and he wants you to know he's been working on your behalf

1204
01:09:18.000 --> 01:09:20.200
in ways you don't even know right now.

1205
01:09:20.200 --> 01:09:21.319
But ladies, we're gonna partner

1206
01:09:21.319 --> 01:09:22.920
with being a princess this week.

1207
01:09:23.920 --> 01:09:26.120
So some of you all who feel led,

1208
01:09:26.120 --> 01:09:27.960
I know that not every one of you will do this,

1209
01:09:27.960 --> 01:09:31.040
and that's okay, but whoever is willing,

1210
01:09:31.040 --> 01:09:33.520
I want you to ask the Lord

1211
01:09:33.520 --> 01:09:37.040
to help you find some princess gear this week.

1212
01:09:37.040 --> 01:09:40.600
Maybe it's a tiara, maybe, I don't know,

1213
01:09:40.600 --> 01:09:43.399
maybe it's some kind of a cape.

1214
01:09:43.399 --> 01:09:44.560
I'm just gonna put it out there.

1215
01:09:44.560 --> 01:09:47.279
I'll let you guys do whatever you want,

1216
01:09:47.279 --> 01:09:48.720
and I would love for you to,

1217
01:09:48.720 --> 01:09:51.160
you can put it on yourself and share a picture in the group.

1218
01:09:51.160 --> 01:09:52.800
You can just take a picture of it,

1219
01:09:52.800 --> 01:09:56.000
but let's just have some fun with this too.

1220
01:09:56.000 --> 01:09:59.800
For some of you, this is gonna feel hard,

1221
01:09:59.800 --> 01:10:02.800
but God wants you to know that he does see you as a princess,

1222
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:04.320
God wants you to partner with grace and ease,

1223
01:10:02.800 --> 01:10:05.800
and I don't know that you see yourself as a princess.

1224
01:10:04.320 --> 01:10:05.280
grace and ease.

1225
01:10:05.800 --> 01:10:08.800
But ladies, we're gonna partner with being a princess this week

1226
01:10:06.540 --> 01:10:10.040
A sequined dress, sure, whatever.

1227
01:10:10.040 --> 01:10:11.720
If you think of a sequined dress

1228
01:10:11.720 --> 01:10:13.640
and that's what God is nudging you to go do,

1229
01:10:13.640 --> 01:10:15.680
there's something on that for you.

1230
01:10:15.680 --> 01:10:18.480
This is about partnering with,

1231
01:10:18.480 --> 01:10:19.960
you know, when we were little girls,

1232
01:10:19.960 --> 01:10:22.080
and I'm not saying every little girl was this way,

1233
01:10:22.080 --> 01:10:24.120
because some little girls like to climb trees

1234
01:10:24.120 --> 01:10:25.600
and they like to just get dirty,

1235
01:10:25.600 --> 01:10:28.440
but there's a little princess on the inside of that too.

1236
01:10:28.480 --> 01:10:31.360
Y'all, this isn't so much, I said this this afternoon,

1237
01:10:31.360 --> 01:10:33.640
it's not so much about having to have your makeup done

1238
01:10:33.640 --> 01:10:37.280
and all the things, but there is a part of us,

1239
01:10:37.280 --> 01:10:40.480
and I found this to be so true, ladies,

1240
01:10:40.480 --> 01:10:45.480
that when we don't believe we are beautiful on the inside,

1241
01:10:46.280 --> 01:10:51.280
we stop doing things to care for ourselves on the outside.

1242
01:10:53.400 --> 01:10:54.880
And again, it's not about makeup,

1243
01:10:54.880 --> 01:10:58.320
it's about how, like, do we put any care or time

1244
01:10:58.320 --> 01:11:02.320
into our outfits or our hair or, you know,

1245
01:11:02.320 --> 01:11:06.680
guys are attracted to women that take care of themselves,

1246
01:11:06.680 --> 01:11:10.640
okay, but this tonight is more about

1247
01:11:10.640 --> 01:11:12.320
what's going on on the inside,

1248
01:11:12.320 --> 01:11:16.800
the princess that needs to awaken to your true identity.

1249
01:11:16.800 --> 01:11:18.920
And who is that and who does she look like

1250
01:11:18.920 --> 01:11:22.280
and what wakes her up and what makes her smile?

1251
01:11:22.280 --> 01:11:24.720
Some of you, you know,

1252
01:11:24.720 --> 01:11:27.280
maybe you might even feel the opposite.

1253
01:11:27.280 --> 01:11:28.960
I hear the Holy Spirit saying some of you,

1254
01:11:28.960 --> 01:11:31.360
your moms wanted you to be in pageants

1255
01:11:31.360 --> 01:11:33.080
and they paraded you around,

1256
01:11:33.080 --> 01:11:33.920
and so you're like,

1257
01:11:33.920 --> 01:11:37.560
I don't want anything to do with princess anything.

1258
01:11:37.560 --> 01:11:40.600
If that's you, I wanna encourage you to let God

1259
01:11:40.600 --> 01:11:43.960
come into those areas and heal that for you,

1260
01:11:43.960 --> 01:11:46.160
because that just got overextended.

1261
01:11:46.160 --> 01:11:49.160
God never wanted that to be misused and mishandled.

1262
01:11:49.160 --> 01:11:51.680
Okay, I gotta keep going, because we're at 912,

1263
01:11:51.680 --> 01:11:52.640
but I feel like there's a lot,

1264
01:11:52.640 --> 01:11:54.760
you guys were laughing and really smiling

1265
01:11:54.760 --> 01:11:57.160
when I was talking about tiaras and princess gear.

1266
01:11:57.160 --> 01:12:00.800
So I think some of you are liking this idea.

1267
01:12:00.800 --> 01:12:04.320
So I can't wait to see what's happening through that.

1268
01:12:04.320 --> 01:12:05.760
And maybe some of you are just laughing

1269
01:12:05.760 --> 01:12:06.600
because you're like,

1270
01:12:06.600 --> 01:12:08.320
I can't believe you're asking me to do this.

1271
01:12:08.320 --> 01:12:09.560
I don't know which one,

1272
01:12:09.560 --> 01:12:11.720
but I think it's gonna be really great.

1273
01:12:11.720 --> 01:12:13.640
All right, okay.

1274
01:12:13.640 --> 01:12:15.800
And I did accept that challenge years ago.

1275
01:12:15.800 --> 01:12:17.080
Y'all just so you know,

1276
01:12:17.080 --> 01:12:19.240
Jackie issued that challenge way, way back.

1277
01:12:19.280 --> 01:12:20.480
And a lot of us did.

1278
01:12:20.480 --> 01:12:24.680
Look, Stephanie, I knew one of y'all had a tiara.

1279
01:12:24.680 --> 01:12:25.640
I knew it.

1280
01:12:25.640 --> 01:12:26.800
All right, girl.

1281
01:12:26.800 --> 01:12:29.960
She's got some kind of tiara, some kind of pick.

1282
01:12:29.960 --> 01:12:31.520
Oh, that's so pretty.

1283
01:12:31.520 --> 01:12:33.560
Okay, here, look at this.

1284
01:12:33.560 --> 01:12:35.000
Y'all, this is good.

1285
01:12:35.000 --> 01:12:38.600
See, doesn't this make us feel good and alive?

1286
01:12:40.400 --> 01:12:42.760
You know what else this is gonna do in you all?

1287
01:12:42.760 --> 01:12:46.280
You're gonna start to dream about what God has for you

1288
01:12:46.280 --> 01:12:48.320
in every area of your life.

1289
01:12:48.360 --> 01:12:49.880
Just watch and see.

1290
01:12:49.880 --> 01:12:51.240
Watch and see.

1291
01:12:51.240 --> 01:12:53.840
All right, Ephesians 5, 14 says,

1292
01:12:53.840 --> 01:12:57.200
"'Awake, awake, O sleeper, and rise up from the dead,

1293
01:12:57.200 --> 01:12:59.400
and Christ will shine on you.'"

1294
01:13:00.280 --> 01:13:01.960
What are we being awakened by?

1295
01:13:01.960 --> 01:13:04.320
We're being awakened by true love's kiss.

1296
01:13:04.320 --> 01:13:06.440
The Father is our true love.

1297
01:13:06.440 --> 01:13:07.600
Is he gonna physically kiss you?

1298
01:13:07.600 --> 01:13:09.520
No, that's not what I'm saying.

1299
01:13:09.520 --> 01:13:11.720
But the kiss of heaven, he's gonna come,

1300
01:13:11.720 --> 01:13:13.680
and he's literally like, you know,

1301
01:13:13.680 --> 01:13:15.200
if you imagine Sleeping Beauty,

1302
01:13:15.200 --> 01:13:16.360
and not in the kissing sense,

1303
01:13:16.360 --> 01:13:18.880
but literally that he's gonna come down,

1304
01:13:18.880 --> 01:13:21.280
and he's gonna minister so much in your soul,

1305
01:13:21.280 --> 01:13:25.120
in your spirit, that he's gonna awaken you to stuff

1306
01:13:25.120 --> 01:13:27.560
that you have long pressed down,

1307
01:13:27.560 --> 01:13:29.040
that other people's words

1308
01:13:29.040 --> 01:13:32.240
and their harsh behavior pressed down in you,

1309
01:13:32.240 --> 01:13:35.000
things that just got just shattered.

1310
01:13:36.440 --> 01:13:38.000
And God is going to literally,

1311
01:13:38.000 --> 01:13:39.960
he's picking up the pieces, ladies,

1312
01:13:39.960 --> 01:13:42.440
and he's lovingly, he's holding them,

1313
01:13:42.440 --> 01:13:44.480
and he's grafting them together,

1314
01:13:44.480 --> 01:13:48.080
and he's making a masterpiece out of these things in you.

1315
01:13:48.080 --> 01:13:51.120
And you're gonna see this more and more and more.

1316
01:13:51.120 --> 01:13:54.000
I wanna encourage you all to awaken to your true identity

1317
01:13:55.320 --> 01:13:58.720
and allow God, and this is not just your true identity

1318
01:13:58.720 --> 01:14:02.120
that you think in your minds, but the God-given identity,

1319
01:14:02.120 --> 01:14:05.280
okay, that you would awaken to restoration,

1320
01:14:05.280 --> 01:14:07.920
that you would awaken to your big, bold future.

1321
01:14:07.920 --> 01:14:09.760
And this is where the dream's awakening.

1322
01:14:09.760 --> 01:14:11.400
So I wanna encourage you all,

1323
01:14:11.720 --> 01:14:15.680
if childhood dreams start bubbling to the surface,

1324
01:14:15.680 --> 01:14:17.760
write those things down,

1325
01:14:17.760 --> 01:14:19.760
dreams that you had as a kid,

1326
01:14:19.760 --> 01:14:21.840
things that you wanted to try or go do,

1327
01:14:21.840 --> 01:14:26.040
and somebody told you you couldn't for whatever reason,

1328
01:14:26.040 --> 01:14:27.800
or life in the world told you

1329
01:14:27.800 --> 01:14:30.480
that you couldn't, write those things down.

1330
01:14:30.480 --> 01:14:33.760
If you get new dreams, God starts giving you new ideas.

1331
01:14:33.760 --> 01:14:38.720
Maybe you wanna go try some kind of new cooking class.

1332
01:14:38.720 --> 01:14:40.000
Maybe you wanna go back to school.

1333
01:14:40.000 --> 01:14:41.920
Maybe you wanna try a new career.

1334
01:14:41.920 --> 01:14:44.960
Maybe you decide that you feel called to ministry.

1335
01:14:44.960 --> 01:14:47.480
I don't know what your thing is.

1336
01:14:47.480 --> 01:14:49.720
And maybe you won't feel any of those things,

1337
01:14:49.720 --> 01:14:52.440
but maybe it's something totally different for you.

1338
01:14:52.440 --> 01:14:55.240
I wanna maybe to paint, maybe if some of you like,

1339
01:14:55.240 --> 01:14:58.080
maybe you haven't painted or drawn in a long time,

1340
01:14:58.080 --> 01:15:00.200
but you have all of this artistic ability.

1341
01:15:00.800 --> 01:15:06.480
Sing, I don't know. Do any of you like to sing in your car? I love to sing loud in my car and just

1342
01:15:06.480 --> 01:15:12.560
jam out. I love it. It's so fun. Yeah, I like, sometimes I love it. It's kind of funny. I'll,

1343
01:15:12.560 --> 01:15:15.600
I'll just be singing along and then I'll look and then someone will be looking right at me.

1344
01:15:15.600 --> 01:15:21.280
It's just kind of, I laugh. It's fun, isn't it? Yeah. So let's just awaken to whatever

1345
01:15:21.280 --> 01:15:26.880
needs to be awakened in us. Okay. We're going to go into breakout sessions and this is what

1346
01:15:26.880 --> 01:15:33.120
we're going to talk about. In what ways does the enemy challenge the real you?

1347
01:15:34.800 --> 01:15:42.000
Does he often use comparison, competition, or imitation? Or does he use all of those?

1348
01:15:43.680 --> 01:15:48.320
And how do these tend to show up in your life? So I want you to think about how, in what ways,

1349
01:15:48.320 --> 01:15:54.240
like when you start leaning into who you really are, how does the enemy often try to push that

1350
01:15:54.240 --> 01:15:59.360
back down or challenge that? Does he try to get you to compare yourself to other people,

1351
01:15:59.360 --> 01:16:04.400
feel like you got to compete with other people, or act like you're somebody that you're not?

1352
01:16:04.400 --> 01:16:09.440
Those are the comparison, competition, imitation. Okay. And how do these tend to show up for you?

1353
01:16:09.440 --> 01:16:13.360
All right. I'm going to put you in your breakout rooms. I am recreating them because I want y'all

1354
01:16:13.360 --> 01:16:17.920
to get to know some new people tonight and we're going to do short, brief, and powerful on this

1355
01:16:17.920 --> 01:16:26.720
one. Okay. So we're going to do six minutes. And actually, I think I want to do those a little.

1356
01:16:28.560 --> 01:16:31.440
Okay. That's good. All right. Here you go.

1357
01:16:33.680 --> 01:16:36.720
Any leaders from the training group stay with me?

1358
01:16:48.880 --> 01:17:05.520
All right. I think almost got everyone situated. I have one more person I got to move around here.

1359
01:17:06.320 --> 01:17:15.520
And I think everyone is good. All right. Father, thank you so much for awakening every one of

1360
01:17:15.520 --> 01:17:21.280
these ladies to their true identity. The identity that you originally created for them when you

1361
01:17:21.280 --> 01:17:27.120
formed them long ago in their mother's womb. And I thank you, God, for every quality and gift that

1362
01:17:27.120 --> 01:17:31.600
you've placed within them. I thank you, God, that you have created them fearfully and wonderfully

1363
01:17:31.600 --> 01:17:35.520
made and that you didn't mess up. You didn't forget anything. God, I thank you that you would

1364
01:17:35.520 --> 01:17:41.840
awaken dreams in them, even now, that you would start to help them just remember things that they

1365
01:17:42.480 --> 01:17:46.960
would have loved to have gone and done. But for whatever reason, God, they didn't.

1366
01:17:46.960 --> 01:17:51.680
Lord, help them to hear what your spirit is saying to them louder than any voice of the enemy.

1367
01:17:52.800 --> 01:17:56.160
We thank you that you would shut the mouths of the lions, just like you did

1368
01:17:56.960 --> 01:18:01.600
with Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego and Daniel when they were in the lion's den. And you shut

1369
01:18:01.600 --> 01:18:06.400
the mouth of the lion in the place of harm that the enemy tries to put us in. God, we thank you

1370
01:18:06.400 --> 01:18:11.440
that you defend us, that you protect us, that you're always guarding and watching over us. We

1371
01:18:11.440 --> 01:18:17.200
thank you, Lord, that Philippians 1, 6 says, There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that

1372
01:18:18.080 --> 01:18:22.400
the God who started this great work in you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish

1373
01:18:22.400 --> 01:18:28.960
on the very day Christ Jesus appears. So good. God is always going to continue the work that

1374
01:18:28.960 --> 01:18:34.160
he's already begun in us. He's not going to stop. He loves us. He's going to continue to pursue us

1375
01:18:34.160 --> 01:18:40.320
and unfold those things within us. Hebrews 10, 25 says, This is not the time to pull away and

1376
01:18:40.320 --> 01:18:45.520
neglect meeting together, as some have formed the habit of doing, because we need each other.

1377
01:18:45.520 --> 01:18:50.000
In fact, we should come together even more frequently, eager to encourage and urge each

1378
01:18:50.000 --> 01:18:55.040
other onward as we anticipate that day dawning. So the way I kind of interpret like what the

1379
01:18:55.040 --> 01:19:02.000
Lord is saying through that scripture tonight for all of us is that community is so important.

1380
01:19:02.000 --> 01:19:06.560
God has drawn each one of you ladies here for a divine purpose, for a divine assignment. He's

1381
01:19:06.560 --> 01:19:13.840
doing something in your life far beyond what you can imagine. But some of you may come through the

1382
01:19:13.840 --> 01:19:20.000
program and just kind of you do the curriculum, and that's amazing. Maybe you see some of the

1383
01:19:20.000 --> 01:19:25.520
things people post, but you don't really ever participate. And you can still receive 100%.

1384
01:19:25.520 --> 01:19:30.320
You can be blessed and receive breakthrough and freedom. But God has so much more for us when we

1385
01:19:30.320 --> 01:19:36.000
engage in the community, when we post, when we ask questions, when we share during the lives. And

1386
01:19:36.000 --> 01:19:41.040
God wants to help each one of you come out of hiding more and more and come into that community

1387
01:19:41.040 --> 01:19:46.560
that he has for you here during this time. Philippians 3, 12 says, I don't mean to say

1388
01:19:46.560 --> 01:19:51.360
that I've already achieved these things or that I've already reached perfection, but I press on

1389
01:19:51.360 --> 01:19:57.360
to possess that perfection which Christ Jesus first possessed me. Y'all, this isn't about

1390
01:19:57.360 --> 01:20:00.160
becoming perfect in the sense that we know perfection.

1391
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:07.000
We are only made perfect through Jesus Christ and the redemption work that He does in us, okay?

1392
01:20:07.000 --> 01:20:14.000
So I want to make sure you all understand the beauty and the power of the freedom of what Christ is doing in us.

1393
01:20:14.000 --> 01:20:16.000
He's the hope of glory, right?

1394
01:20:16.000 --> 01:20:24.000
So let's lean towards Him and look up towards the heaven where our help comes from in every season and situation.

1395
01:20:24.000 --> 01:20:29.000
And yeah, I just keep thinking about these princesses awakening.

1396
01:20:29.000 --> 01:20:36.000
I want to encourage you all, those that watch this replay, I don't have time to go into the coaching with everybody on tonight.

1397
01:20:36.000 --> 01:20:40.000
But one of the things I shared this afternoon is from the movie Wreck-It Ralph.

1398
01:20:40.000 --> 01:20:45.000
If you've never seen it, I'm going to kind of spoil it, but it still will be really fun if you watch it.

1399
01:20:45.000 --> 01:20:51.000
But Wreck-It Ralph, it's this kid's movie where Wreck-It Ralph meets Vanellope.

1400
01:20:52.000 --> 01:20:57.000
When he meets Vanellope, she's inside of this video game because Wreck-It Ralph was also a video game.

1401
01:20:57.000 --> 01:21:00.000
And she's got this glitch. She's considered a glitch.

1402
01:21:00.000 --> 01:21:03.000
That's kind of how we meet her in the movie.

1403
01:21:03.000 --> 01:21:08.000
And as she's going throughout this movie and Wreck-It Ralph is getting to know her,

1404
01:21:08.000 --> 01:21:12.000
there's this whole scenario like in the beginning he was sent to do her harm,

1405
01:21:12.000 --> 01:21:16.000
but he starts getting to know her and finds out she's amazing.

1406
01:21:16.000 --> 01:21:20.000
And they become friends and this whole storyline's unfolding, right?

1407
01:21:20.000 --> 01:21:25.000
Well, as the movie progresses towards the end, the evil guy in the movie,

1408
01:21:25.000 --> 01:21:28.000
which we will, you know, it's not really Satan in the movie,

1409
01:21:28.000 --> 01:21:32.000
but I'm going to say in this world, it's kind of the same kind of thing.

1410
01:21:32.000 --> 01:21:35.000
The enemy's always seeking to kill, steal and destroy,

1411
01:21:35.000 --> 01:21:39.000
but Jesus Christ comes to give us life and give it to us more abundantly.

1412
01:21:39.000 --> 01:21:44.000
Or he sends people like us with skin on to help people in their time of need.

1413
01:21:44.000 --> 01:21:48.000
And so we get towards the end of the movie and Wreck-It Ralph, he's helping her.

1414
01:21:48.000 --> 01:21:51.000
And all of this stuff is happening and unfolding.

1415
01:21:51.000 --> 01:21:57.000
And basically what, what is revealed is Vanellope was never a glitch.

1416
01:21:57.000 --> 01:22:00.000
She was actually always a princess,

1417
01:22:00.000 --> 01:22:04.000
but the evil guy in the movie took a part of her out.

1418
01:22:04.000 --> 01:22:08.000
And that's what caused her to glitch because it was inside this video game.

1419
01:22:08.000 --> 01:22:09.000
Right.

1420
01:22:09.000 --> 01:22:14.000
And so I want you all to understand that the enemy basically came in when we

1421
01:22:14.000 --> 01:22:16.000
were traumatized. And in a sense,

1422
01:22:16.000 --> 01:22:19.000
I'm not saying he actually physically took a piece of you,

1423
01:22:19.000 --> 01:22:24.000
but he basically took a part of our soul and our spirit and he,

1424
01:22:24.000 --> 01:22:29.000
and he basically took that away. And Jesus Christ has come to take,

1425
01:22:29.000 --> 01:22:31.000
he's already won that piece back,

1426
01:22:31.000 --> 01:22:35.000
but he's like basically going to help us reconnect if you will,

1427
01:22:35.000 --> 01:22:38.000
in a sense to who we were originally created to be that, that,

1428
01:22:38.000 --> 01:22:42.000
that part of us will feel that restoration. We'll feel that peace.

1429
01:22:42.000 --> 01:22:44.000
We'll feel that redemptive work.

1430
01:22:44.000 --> 01:22:49.000
And as I was saying, Vanellope was always a princess.

1431
01:22:49.000 --> 01:22:51.000
And so towards the end of the movie,

1432
01:22:51.000 --> 01:22:55.000
we find that she comes and stands in her rightful place.

1433
01:22:55.000 --> 01:22:58.000
And all of the people in the land are recognizing her as the princess,

1434
01:22:58.000 --> 01:23:00.000
but she was always that.

1435
01:23:00.000 --> 01:23:03.000
Even when the movie was showing her as a glitch,

1436
01:23:03.000 --> 01:23:07.000
she was never really a glitch, but sometimes the enemy,

1437
01:23:07.000 --> 01:23:11.000
the things that he does and says to us, cause us to, if you will,

1438
01:23:12.000 --> 01:23:13.000
Glitch in this world.

1439
01:23:13.000 --> 01:23:17.000
And so when I encourage you to lean into the fact that you've always been a

1440
01:23:17.000 --> 01:23:22.000
princess and what does it look like and feel like to live and walk like a

1441
01:23:22.000 --> 01:23:25.000
princess this week, I want you all to be thinking about like,

1442
01:23:25.000 --> 01:23:26.000
how do you hold your head?

1443
01:23:26.000 --> 01:23:30.000
Like do you walk around in the world with your head down all the time?

1444
01:23:30.000 --> 01:23:34.000
Never looking anybody in the eye, or do you walk with your head up?

1445
01:23:34.000 --> 01:23:38.000
Not proud, humble, but confident.

1446
01:23:39.000 --> 01:23:43.000
How are we showing up in the world? Are we showing up with grace?

1447
01:23:43.000 --> 01:23:47.000
Are we showing up with, you know, this like, Hey, I'm meant to be here.

1448
01:23:47.000 --> 01:23:52.000
God has blessed my life. I'm so, I'm so happy to be awake today.

1449
01:23:52.000 --> 01:23:55.000
Are we dreading what the day is bringing?

1450
01:23:55.000 --> 01:23:58.000
Well, you ought to be thinking about that and processing that.

1451
01:23:58.000 --> 01:24:00.000
Welcome back ladies.

1452
01:24:00.000 --> 01:24:03.000
I've been talking the whole time while y'all were in breakouts.

1453
01:24:03.000 --> 01:24:06.000
So if y'all want to go back and catch that on replay, you can later.

1454
01:24:06.000 --> 01:24:08.000
I did the same thing earlier.

1455
01:24:08.000 --> 01:24:13.000
All right. We have a few minutes. Is there anyone that feels led to share?

1456
01:24:13.000 --> 01:24:20.000
Any, anything that you want to share from your breakout session?

1457
01:24:20.000 --> 01:24:23.000
Alicia, go ahead.

1458
01:24:23.000 --> 01:24:27.000
So I've been struggling to share some things for week three.

1459
01:24:27.000 --> 01:24:31.000
I think some people have seen that in the group and.

1460
01:24:31.000 --> 01:24:33.000
I can't remember the girl's name that I was with.

1461
01:24:33.000 --> 01:24:35.000
I can't pronounce her name. I feel really bad.

1462
01:24:36.000 --> 01:24:41.000
But like, I've been just, I have a hard time just opening up to women.

1463
01:24:41.000 --> 01:24:44.000
Cause I've been so like battered a lot.

1464
01:24:44.000 --> 01:24:50.000
And so like, I really, you know, the Lord is telling me I need to share this.

1465
01:24:50.000 --> 01:24:53.000
Like not that, but like week three.

1466
01:24:53.000 --> 01:24:55.000
But if you want me to share it in this, I will.

1467
01:24:55.000 --> 01:24:57.000
But, or would you prefer me to just share it?

1468
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:05.280
Yeah, great question. So if it's about week three content, I would rather you put that

1469
01:25:05.280 --> 01:25:10.800
in the group and then I can respond to you there more intentionally regarding that content.

1470
01:25:10.800 --> 01:25:18.080
But if you want to share about what God led you to share on the topic, yeah, you can share

1471
01:25:18.080 --> 01:25:19.080
that now.

1472
01:25:19.080 --> 01:25:24.520
That's, I think it's just opening up and being vulnerable to share with other women is very

1473
01:25:24.520 --> 01:25:25.520
important for me.

1474
01:25:25.520 --> 01:25:26.520
Okay.

1475
01:25:26.520 --> 01:25:29.960
Trying to get over that fear in general.

1476
01:25:29.960 --> 01:25:34.880
You're doing great. You're doing great. This is a good start. Ladies, this is really important.

1477
01:25:34.880 --> 01:25:39.600
One of the things when you all went into the group, I was talking about, let's see if I

1478
01:25:39.600 --> 01:25:44.200
can find the scripture again, but just I'll read it again because I think it's, it applies

1479
01:25:44.200 --> 01:25:46.600
to this.

1480
01:25:46.600 --> 01:25:51.640
It's from Hebrews 10 25 and it says, this is not the time to pull away and neglect meeting

1481
01:25:51.640 --> 01:25:56.840
together as some have formed a habit of doing because we need each other. In fact, we should

1482
01:25:56.840 --> 01:26:01.200
come together even more frequently, eager to encourage and urge each other onward as

1483
01:26:01.200 --> 01:26:03.880
we anticipate that day dawning.

1484
01:26:03.880 --> 01:26:07.320
And a lot of churches and stuff. We'll talk about this, about people coming to church

1485
01:26:07.320 --> 01:26:12.840
and okay, cool. Yeah, we can talk about that. But this tonight, when you went into the breakout,

1486
01:26:12.840 --> 01:26:18.680
I was like, man, this is such a good reminder of why this community is so important.

1487
01:26:18.680 --> 01:26:24.560
What God is doing here. He's helping women heal with each other and how often the enemy

1488
01:26:24.560 --> 01:26:29.840
tries to actually get women to come against each other and bring division and, you know,

1489
01:26:29.840 --> 01:26:35.240
women against men and stuff too. It's not, it's not just women, but hurt and family healed

1490
01:26:35.240 --> 01:26:39.760
and family hurt and community healed and community, you know, hurt and relationship healed in

1491
01:26:39.760 --> 01:26:40.760
relationships.

1492
01:26:40.760 --> 01:26:46.240
So I believe Alicia that God wants to heal you through connection in this community during

1493
01:26:46.240 --> 01:26:50.820
this season and that he has a lot of great things in store for you. Thank you so much

1494
01:26:50.820 --> 01:26:55.060
for sharing and having courage tonight to share with us. We're going to be praying for

1495
01:26:55.060 --> 01:27:01.500
you to feel more connected in the days ahead too. It's going to be really good. Amanda,

1496
01:27:01.500 --> 01:27:04.500
go ahead.

1497
01:27:04.500 --> 01:27:13.980
So I was sharing that pretty early on in this process, probably week one or week two, some

1498
01:27:13.980 --> 01:27:18.860
things started coming back to me that I'd forgotten about or kind of let go of. And

1499
01:27:18.860 --> 01:27:22.500
that was musical theater and music. That was something that was a big part of my life

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01:27:22.500 --> 01:27:28.020
when I was younger, like a little girl singing and dancing around and doing all those types

1501
01:27:28.020 --> 01:27:35.740
of things. I had a dream about it not too long ago, a dream that I was producing Wicked.

1502
01:27:35.740 --> 01:27:43.340
So I was like, that's odd, you know, for a local community theater that I've been a part

1503
01:27:43.340 --> 01:27:50.300
of before. And then doing all this hard work, I was like, oh, that's a big part of me that

1504
01:27:50.300 --> 01:27:56.300
I don't do anymore. And then as I thought about it even more, it was my major originally

1505
01:27:56.300 --> 01:28:04.460
when I was in college, but I stopped because I was scared. Music is hard. Theory is hard.

1506
01:28:04.460 --> 01:28:10.900
I can't do this. Musical theater is difficult. I'll never make it on Broadway. I couldn't

1507
01:28:10.900 --> 01:28:18.820
make a decent show. I'm not a lead cast member. I'm not LA bound. I don't have those desires.

1508
01:28:18.820 --> 01:28:23.620
Will somebody pick me as a music teacher? That's like really hard to get your certification

1509
01:28:23.620 --> 01:28:28.580
in that. There's a lot of things there. So all those fears and insecurities. So my sophomore

1510
01:28:28.580 --> 01:28:34.980
year very quickly, very abruptly, without any reason, I switched to history. History

1511
01:28:34.980 --> 01:28:44.820
was easy and I'm good at history. I love this. I love this for you, Amanda. This has been an

1512
01:28:44.820 --> 01:28:50.340
amazing journey. I've just been so blessed to see all the ways that God is just, man,

1513
01:28:50.340 --> 01:28:54.980
he's just really working in your life. It's such an honor to have seen a glimpse of this.

1514
01:28:55.620 --> 01:29:04.420
I'm excited for you to go to the Lord and ask him where to go next. Okay. Because I really think he

1515
01:29:04.420 --> 01:29:09.620
does want to awaken this in you. I think that he has always seen you as someone who is musically

1516
01:29:09.620 --> 01:29:18.340
gifted and talented and your God colors in the world matter. They do. And when we live into

1517
01:29:18.340 --> 01:29:23.700
our passions and our dreams, ladies, and that can look a lot of different ways. It doesn't mean

1518
01:29:23.700 --> 01:29:27.620
you have to quit your job. I'm not telling you to go quit your job. You need to pray about all

1519
01:29:27.620 --> 01:29:35.060
those kinds of things, you know, but I do want to encourage you to also really ask the Lord,

1520
01:29:35.060 --> 01:29:40.340
the root of all of those lies that you believed, you know, in which you've worked through a lot

1521
01:29:40.340 --> 01:29:47.540
of that already, but you know, when you start to move forward, those border bullies that rise up

1522
01:29:47.540 --> 01:29:53.700
to tell you that you can't and where they come from. Does that make sense? Yeah. Yeah. But,

1523
01:29:53.700 --> 01:29:57.220
and I'm not telling you have to, but I don't think it's a coincidence that you are dreaming

1524
01:29:57.220 --> 01:29:59.860
about these things and then you're in the heartwork.

1525
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:05.600
God's awakening this stuff in you and so I'd love to just see as you pray about that even maybe just

1526
01:30:06.160 --> 01:30:12.400
you know volunteer at a local theater or something see if there's some way just to doesn't mean you

1527
01:30:12.400 --> 01:30:16.080
have to change everything you're doing in your life but see what that does in you and maybe

1528
01:30:16.080 --> 01:30:20.800
you'll decide that isn't for you in this season but I think there's something that God wants to

1529
01:30:20.800 --> 01:30:28.000
kind of just bring back to life in you through it yeah I think so too it's there's there's more

1530
01:30:28.000 --> 01:30:33.120
there's so much more to the story there always is there's just not never enough time like students

1531
01:30:33.120 --> 01:30:39.120
and little things that they've said to me just from playing around singing and things so yeah

1532
01:30:40.160 --> 01:30:45.360
all right so Laura let it be so open the doors for Amanda and let her see yourself the way you

1533
01:30:45.360 --> 01:30:53.920
see her every single day all right ladies it's 9 31 I can take um Alina and Lolita um if y'all

1534
01:30:53.920 --> 01:30:58.480
can keep them short brief and powerful and then I'm gonna do I'm gonna show you all what we're

1535
01:30:58.480 --> 01:31:02.160
gonna do for activation this week and then I'm gonna do one more thing before I release you all

1536
01:31:02.160 --> 01:31:13.120
okay so Lolita go ahead and go first oh okay so I was talking about um just being comfortable

1537
01:31:13.120 --> 01:31:22.960
in my skin um just knowing that uh my decisions are are good decisions like uh so it could be a

1538
01:31:22.960 --> 01:31:30.400
little competition like if I decide that I want to put on this outfit or wear my hair this way or

1539
01:31:30.400 --> 01:31:37.440
whatever then someone will be you know make that comment and then I might feel a little insecure

1540
01:31:37.440 --> 01:31:44.880
about that but just knowing that it's okay to be me and be who God created me to be and love the

1541
01:31:44.880 --> 01:31:52.400
skin that I'm in so I love that phrase that just really resonated in my spirit when you said it

1542
01:31:52.400 --> 01:31:57.840
it's okay to be me I encourage you to put that up somewhere where you can see it often to encourage

1543
01:31:57.840 --> 01:32:07.680
yourself Lolita and um I want you to find your favorite picture of yourself okay um and put that

1544
01:32:07.680 --> 01:32:12.480
up so that you can see it and maybe just start if you think anything negative when you see that

1545
01:32:12.480 --> 01:32:17.520
I want to encourage you to I don't even have any mirrors in the house except for the bathroom there

1546
01:32:18.480 --> 01:32:26.000
all right well this is something I think we're on to here aren't we sometimes ladies this is where

1547
01:32:26.000 --> 01:32:31.120
again this could have been a small thing but the Holy Spirit told me to say have her put a picture

1548
01:32:31.120 --> 01:32:38.080
up of herself and so I would encourage you even if even that if that feels hard find a picture you

1549
01:32:38.080 --> 01:32:43.360
love of yourself and put that up and I want you to start asking the Lord what what do you and we're

1550
01:32:43.440 --> 01:32:48.560
going to do this as an activation but yours is going to be a little different okay I want you to

1551
01:32:48.560 --> 01:32:53.600
just start putting up words ask the Lord to tell you what he says about you and I want you to write

1552
01:32:53.600 --> 01:32:58.400
positive things up there okay and I'm going to tell you all everybody what to do with the negative

1553
01:32:58.400 --> 01:33:01.520
because we're all going to do something like this and if you all want to do it the way I just told

1554
01:33:01.520 --> 01:33:07.280
her cool do that but I'm going to give everybody an activation um before we log off that's kind of

1555
01:33:07.280 --> 01:33:13.040
similar all right Lolita thank you for sharing and pray into that those insecurities too that

1556
01:33:13.040 --> 01:33:20.480
are causing you to be afraid to see yourself in the mirror okay because we want to see you

1557
01:33:20.480 --> 01:33:25.840
we love you and I think other people in the world want to see you and love you and it starts with us

1558
01:33:25.840 --> 01:33:31.600
loving ourselves first ladies and being able to really see ourselves and and love what we see

1559
01:33:32.560 --> 01:33:41.680
right all right so good all right Alina go ahead thank you I um think it has to do more with

1560
01:33:41.760 --> 01:33:52.240
comparison I guess because I say to myself that um who am I to apply for this and that or

1561
01:33:53.440 --> 01:34:00.160
I constantly feel like I don't qualify um for a better relationship or a better

1562
01:34:01.600 --> 01:34:10.240
um job and some of it is practical like just getting more educated more but I constantly

1563
01:34:10.240 --> 01:34:15.680
feel like I don't qualify and I'm not as good as I don't say it in my head that I'm not as

1564
01:34:15.680 --> 01:34:22.160
good as other people but I just don't feel like I measure up to like the world the requirements

1565
01:34:22.160 --> 01:34:31.600
around me like and I guess kind of freeze or like overthink things and yeah so I want you to know

1566
01:34:31.600 --> 01:34:36.320
that you're not alone who can relate to what Alina just said raise your hand you can do digital or

1567
01:34:36.320 --> 01:34:40.960
your physical hand a lot of people raising hands right now yeah a lot of people struggle with the

1568
01:34:40.960 --> 01:34:47.440
the thoughts of can we measure up can we do it you know do I qualify for this so I just did that

1569
01:34:47.440 --> 01:34:51.280
so that you would know you're not alone in that but I also want to encourage you on the don't

1570
01:34:51.280 --> 01:34:58.400
measure up that really resonated for me with you um and so I want to encourage you to ask the Lord

1571
01:34:58.400 --> 01:34:59.840
to show you when is the first time

1572
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:03.320
you felt like you didn't measure up to something, okay?

1573
01:35:03.320 --> 01:35:05.440
So maybe that was, you know,

1574
01:35:05.440 --> 01:35:07.080
something that someone wanted you to do.

1575
01:35:07.080 --> 01:35:08.660
Maybe it was a project in school.

1576
01:35:08.660 --> 01:35:11.200
I don't know what the situation was,

1577
01:35:11.200 --> 01:35:14.120
but it was a time where you got hurt

1578
01:35:14.120 --> 01:35:17.440
because someone kind of implied to you

1579
01:35:17.440 --> 01:35:21.440
that you did not measure up to their expectation, okay?

1580
01:35:21.440 --> 01:35:24.520
And really ask the Lord to reveal those areas for healing

1581
01:35:24.520 --> 01:35:26.060
and just see what he shows you.

1582
01:35:26.060 --> 01:35:29.220
It's gonna be, y'all, this sometimes can be painful,

1583
01:35:29.260 --> 01:35:30.980
but it's gonna be profitable.

1584
01:35:30.980 --> 01:35:32.460
It's gonna be beneficial, okay?

1585
01:35:32.460 --> 01:35:37.340
The first thing I remember is in elementary school,

1586
01:35:37.340 --> 01:35:39.340
my teacher threw my notebook on the floor

1587
01:35:39.340 --> 01:35:42.360
in front of the class because she didn't like my writing.

1588
01:35:42.360 --> 01:35:46.100
This was in Romania, so teachers were just more strict.

1589
01:35:48.020 --> 01:35:50.660
And my teacher was pretty old.

1590
01:35:50.660 --> 01:35:55.380
She was doing an extra year past her deadline of retirement.

1591
01:35:55.380 --> 01:35:59.000
And I'm thinking she just had enough with kids,

1592
01:35:59.780 --> 01:36:00.920
but she threw my notebook on the floor

1593
01:36:00.920 --> 01:36:04.480
and I started crying and I turned red.

1594
01:36:04.480 --> 01:36:05.880
And she made fun of me.

1595
01:36:05.880 --> 01:36:09.460
She said, well, did you put lipstick on?

1596
01:36:09.460 --> 01:36:10.560
Why are you so red?

1597
01:36:11.600 --> 01:36:13.800
I guess I turn red when I cry.

1598
01:36:15.920 --> 01:36:18.440
So I guess that's the first thing that popped in my head

1599
01:36:18.440 --> 01:36:20.660
when you asked them.

1600
01:36:20.660 --> 01:36:25.660
So I would encourage you to write this down tonight

1601
01:36:26.660 --> 01:36:29.940
about this teacher, because I would encourage you

1602
01:36:29.940 --> 01:36:32.480
to do a forgiveness sheet regarding her.

1603
01:36:33.980 --> 01:36:34.820
Yeah.

1604
01:36:34.820 --> 01:36:36.340
So when you get to week four,

1605
01:36:36.340 --> 01:36:38.300
there's actual forgiveness sheets in there

1606
01:36:38.300 --> 01:36:40.340
and you can print those out,

1607
01:36:40.340 --> 01:36:42.620
or you can just, as the Lord leads you,

1608
01:36:42.620 --> 01:36:45.620
write out your own prayer to forgive that teacher

1609
01:36:45.620 --> 01:36:49.740
and release her for the harm that she did to you that day.

1610
01:36:49.740 --> 01:36:50.580
Okay?

1611
01:36:50.580 --> 01:36:51.500
So good.

1612
01:36:51.500 --> 01:36:53.500
Yeah, ladies, it is so good.

1613
01:36:53.500 --> 01:36:54.900
God loves us so much.

1614
01:36:55.740 --> 01:36:59.500
He wants us free and all this baggage off of us

1615
01:36:59.500 --> 01:37:01.060
so that we can soar.

1616
01:37:01.060 --> 01:37:03.180
Here's your activation for this week.

1617
01:37:03.180 --> 01:37:05.620
Let me find my paper from this afternoon.

1618
01:37:05.620 --> 01:37:07.700
I gotta turn my blur off here.

1619
01:37:10.000 --> 01:37:12.300
Y'all don't have to be artists, okay?

1620
01:37:12.300 --> 01:37:15.680
This isn't like any comparison competition.

1621
01:37:15.680 --> 01:37:17.900
If some of you are more artistic, cool,

1622
01:37:17.900 --> 01:37:19.420
you can do it however you want,

1623
01:37:19.420 --> 01:37:23.260
but I want y'all to kind of imagine that this is a silhouette

1624
01:37:23.260 --> 01:37:26.500
like just an outline of yourself, okay?

1625
01:37:26.500 --> 01:37:29.460
You can put whatever eyes or nose, it's not very good.

1626
01:37:29.460 --> 01:37:31.060
Y'all, I did this really quick this afternoon

1627
01:37:31.060 --> 01:37:31.880
just to show you,

1628
01:37:31.880 --> 01:37:34.460
I literally don't care if it's super artsy or not.

1629
01:37:34.460 --> 01:37:35.660
It can be like this.

1630
01:37:35.660 --> 01:37:37.000
But what I want you to do with this,

1631
01:37:37.000 --> 01:37:40.280
you can put eyes on or just pray and put on there

1632
01:37:40.280 --> 01:37:41.340
what you feel led,

1633
01:37:41.340 --> 01:37:43.720
because there's meaning in all of it.

1634
01:37:43.720 --> 01:37:46.240
So I don't want you to try to figure it out.

1635
01:37:46.240 --> 01:37:48.480
I just want you to do what you feel led to do,

1636
01:37:48.480 --> 01:37:51.740
but here's what you're gonna do with the silhouette.

1637
01:37:51.740 --> 01:37:54.460
In addition to, if you feel led to put eyes and hair

1638
01:37:54.460 --> 01:37:55.300
and all that stuff,

1639
01:37:55.300 --> 01:37:57.980
you're gonna pray kind of like what I was talking

1640
01:37:57.980 --> 01:37:59.940
to Lolita about.

1641
01:37:59.940 --> 01:38:03.660
You're gonna pray and ask the Lord to show you

1642
01:38:03.660 --> 01:38:05.840
how he thinks and feels about you.

1643
01:38:06.700 --> 01:38:09.960
What does he want to say to you?

1644
01:38:09.960 --> 01:38:14.800
Words, phrases, maybe some of you will hear songs.

1645
01:38:14.800 --> 01:38:16.000
Whatever you hear,

1646
01:38:16.000 --> 01:38:19.640
I want you to write it on your silhouette picture, okay?

1647
01:38:19.640 --> 01:38:20.800
If it's positive.

1648
01:38:20.800 --> 01:38:22.980
If it's negative, it doesn't go on there.

1649
01:38:22.980 --> 01:38:25.160
Here's what you're gonna do with the negative.

1650
01:38:25.160 --> 01:38:27.480
You're gonna have another piece of paper.

1651
01:38:27.480 --> 01:38:29.460
Okay, let's pretend this is a blank piece of paper.

1652
01:38:29.460 --> 01:38:30.780
Here's my blank paper.

1653
01:38:30.780 --> 01:38:31.980
If I hear something negative,

1654
01:38:31.980 --> 01:38:34.420
I'm gonna write it down on my paper

1655
01:38:34.420 --> 01:38:36.500
and then I'm gonna cross it out.

1656
01:38:36.500 --> 01:38:40.480
Because remember where we're replacing lies with what?

1657
01:38:40.480 --> 01:38:41.320
The truth.

1658
01:38:41.320 --> 01:38:42.820
So when we write down the lie,

1659
01:38:42.820 --> 01:38:43.960
the negative that we heard,

1660
01:38:43.960 --> 01:38:44.880
cause that's not true.

1661
01:38:44.880 --> 01:38:47.560
God doesn't say negative things about us.

1662
01:38:47.560 --> 01:38:49.960
We're going to cross that out

1663
01:38:49.960 --> 01:38:52.000
and we're gonna ask God to show us the truth

1664
01:38:52.000 --> 01:38:53.380
to replace the lie.

1665
01:38:54.600 --> 01:38:55.440
All right?

1666
01:38:55.440 --> 01:38:58.260
And then some of you all might have to cross out

1667
01:38:58.260 --> 01:38:59.160
a couple things.

1668
01:38:59.160 --> 01:39:02.100
Cause for like, sometimes what happens

1669
01:39:02.100 --> 01:39:05.060
is some of you all will keep hearing negative.

1670
01:39:05.060 --> 01:39:08.260
And so do it all the way until you get to the positive.

1671
01:39:08.260 --> 01:39:10.360
And then when you get that positive one,

1672
01:39:10.360 --> 01:39:12.920
then you take that and put that on the silhouette.

1673
01:39:12.920 --> 01:39:15.080
Does everyone understand?

1674
01:39:15.080 --> 01:39:16.080
Okay.

1675
01:39:16.080 --> 01:39:17.920
If you scroll down through the group,

1676
01:39:17.920 --> 01:39:20.100
there might still be some from some of the ladies

1677
01:39:20.100 --> 01:39:21.280
that were in here before.

1678
01:39:21.280 --> 01:39:22.320
I will tell you all,

1679
01:39:22.320 --> 01:39:23.560
if you have a post,

1680
01:39:23.560 --> 01:39:25.480
like some of you all, if you haven't,

1681
01:39:25.480 --> 01:39:26.920
which is totally okay.

1682
01:39:26.920 --> 01:39:28.620
Okay. I don't want anyone to worry.

1683
01:39:28.620 --> 01:39:32.400
If you're in our group for more than five weeks

1684
01:39:32.400 --> 01:39:34.720
and you did a post that was like,

1685
01:39:34.720 --> 01:39:37.160
you know, from six weeks ago,

1686
01:39:37.160 --> 01:39:38.720
I don't know what the timeframe is,

1687
01:39:38.720 --> 01:39:40.480
but we do a clean out in our group.

1688
01:39:40.480 --> 01:39:42.480
So we like, it's an automatic thing.

1689
01:39:42.480 --> 01:39:46.280
So the people aren't doing it physically ourselves.

1690
01:39:46.280 --> 01:39:48.640
It's just in our tech, in our app.

1691
01:39:48.640 --> 01:39:50.560
It just, after a certain timeframe,

1692
01:39:50.560 --> 01:39:52.080
those posts are getting deleted.

1693
01:39:52.080 --> 01:39:52.960
Okay.

1694
01:39:52.960 --> 01:39:54.560
And so it just keeps it,

1695
01:39:54.560 --> 01:39:58.240
the group very clean and all of that.

1696
01:39:58.240 --> 01:40:00.440
But there might be some older posts in there.

1697
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:02.080
from other people that you can see.

1698
01:40:02.080 --> 01:40:04.720
But again, don't compare yourself to them.

1699
01:40:04.720 --> 01:40:07.220
I'm just saying you can use that as a point of reference.

1700
01:40:07.220 --> 01:40:08.360
All right, we're gonna do one more thing

1701
01:40:08.360 --> 01:40:09.880
and then I'm gonna release you all tonight.

1702
01:40:09.880 --> 01:40:13.400
This is gonna be our closing prayer and declaration.

1703
01:40:13.400 --> 01:40:15.800
So I wanna encourage you all to go ahead

1704
01:40:15.800 --> 01:40:19.920
and kind of relax and close your eyes.

1705
01:40:19.920 --> 01:40:23.360
Get ready to receive something good, okay?

1706
01:40:23.360 --> 01:40:26.040
All right, I'm gonna make a declaration

1707
01:40:26.040 --> 01:40:28.720
over each one of you tonight

1708
01:40:28.720 --> 01:40:32.000
as we step into the real you.

1709
01:40:32.000 --> 01:40:35.800
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter,

1710
01:40:35.800 --> 01:40:40.400
a light bearer, a truth teller and a hope dealer.

1711
01:40:40.400 --> 01:40:42.760
My heart is awakening.

1712
01:40:42.760 --> 01:40:45.400
It's my time to be made whole.

1713
01:40:45.400 --> 01:40:49.000
I contain the beauty of all creation.

1714
01:40:49.000 --> 01:40:52.800
The mysteries of the entire universe reside inside of me.

1715
01:40:52.800 --> 01:40:55.240
I am the image of the almighty God,

1716
01:40:55.240 --> 01:40:58.240
the offspring of the great I am.

1717
01:40:58.240 --> 01:41:00.760
I am a beloved daughter of God.

1718
01:41:00.760 --> 01:41:04.360
My original heart is one of love, joy,

1719
01:41:04.360 --> 01:41:07.160
peace, hope, and innocence.

1720
01:41:07.160 --> 01:41:09.820
I was created for community.

1721
01:41:09.820 --> 01:41:12.660
I am accepted in the family of God.

1722
01:41:12.660 --> 01:41:15.600
I have been created to prosper.

1723
01:41:15.600 --> 01:41:19.880
I will not be anyone besides who loved God the Father

1724
01:41:19.880 --> 01:41:21.760
has made me to be.

1725
01:41:21.760 --> 01:41:23.760
From this moment forward,

1726
01:41:23.760 --> 01:41:26.680
every day when I look in the mirror,

1727
01:41:26.720 --> 01:41:31.520
I am going to see more and more of what God sees.

1728
01:41:31.520 --> 01:41:33.560
In Jesus name, amen.

1729
01:41:33.560 --> 01:41:35.120
Lolita, you didn't know that was gonna be

1730
01:41:35.120 --> 01:41:36.440
in the last thing there.

1731
01:41:36.440 --> 01:41:38.600
This is for everyone, y'all, for real.

1732
01:41:38.600 --> 01:41:40.560
Some of y'all might need to stand in front of the mirror

1733
01:41:40.560 --> 01:41:44.000
this week and just really love yourself.

1734
01:41:45.820 --> 01:41:47.740
Yeah, get your tiaras out.

1735
01:41:47.740 --> 01:41:49.840
Let's have some fun this week too.

1736
01:41:49.840 --> 01:41:50.720
I'm praying for y'all.

1737
01:41:50.720 --> 01:41:53.040
We love you and we look forward to seeing you in the group

1738
01:41:53.040 --> 01:41:55.200
and on prayer and all the things.

1739
01:41:55.200 --> 01:41:56.240
God bless everyone.

1740
01:41:56.240 --> 01:41:57.080
Have a good night.

1741
01:41:57.080 --> 01:41:58.040
Thank you.

1742
01:41:58.040 --> 01:41:58.880
Thank you.

1743
01:41:58.880 --> 01:41:59.700
Bye.

1744
01:41:59.700 --> 01:42:00.540
We love you too.

1745
01:42:00.540 --> 01:42:01.380
Good night.

1746
01:42:01.380 --> 01:42:02.200
Love you guys.