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What now?

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The flu is no joke, man.

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That thing could not be down for four days.

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I hope you're feeling much better now, though, Hope?

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Oh, yeah.

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Now I'm moving everything out of my house.

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So cool.

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Yeah.

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Thanks for checking.

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Yeah, well, welcome to, as I was saying before we hit record,

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welcome to Monday, December 23rd.

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It is, I guess, it's not quite our last Men's Heart

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check-in for the year.

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Next Monday, I'll be in Columbus.

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So just kind of be on hold for that.

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I don't know quite what my schedule is in Columbus.

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So I might try to get on, jump on with you.

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I don't know, are you guys going to be tied up next Monday,

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doing holiday stuff, work stuff, anything like that?

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Or anybody traveling for the holidays?

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I am, I know Steve is.

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Steve and I are trading places.

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No, I'm just going to be working really hard.

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You'll be working.

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Steve and I are trading places.

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Steve is coming to Austin.

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What's that, Steve?

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Be back Monday night.

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Oh, you'll be back Monday night.

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All right, cool.

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Yeah, that direct back, yeah.

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OK.

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I have absolutely no plans.

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Just staying home.

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You got a nice Christmas tree in the background,

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though, there, Andy.

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Yo, thanks, yeah.

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I actually set it up just in time

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for my family's Christmas party, which runs on Saturday.

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You see, we have to share my brother's in-laws.

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My brother has in-laws now, so that

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meant that we celebrated Christmas on Saturday,

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this past Saturday.

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Kind of weird, but.

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I have a tree literally up in my house

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right now with lights on it and no decorations.

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That's as far as I got with the lights, the tree.

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So the tree's up, lights are on it.

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Of course, it's a pre-lit tree, so I can't really

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take credit for lights on it.

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So it's like.

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That's sad, David.

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That's really sad.

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I'm wearing my tree.

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Yeah, I see it.

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There you go.

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I should get lighter clothes, too, for holidays.

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But anyway, I hope you guys are doing well.

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Hope you guys are going to have a good holiday.

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Hope you have plans to spend at least with some friends

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and family at some point in all the stuff.

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Abram, you're probably having some really good food.

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I mean, is that for sure what happens at your place?

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Nice.

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I should come out there for some sort of holiday or something

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or some sort of festive moment to see you and your family,

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because that has to be some good eating.

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And what's traditional for you as far as the main course?

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Some people have like ham, turkey, whatever.

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What's your main?

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You're asking everybody?

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I'm asking Abram specifically.

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We tend to, can you guys hear me?

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We tend to do like American, so we always have,

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we kind of do like Thanksgiving twice.

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But we always have Italian twists,

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like we'll always have a pasta.

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Or my mom, she tends to do like biscottis,

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and she'll do like half lemon glaze,

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half chocolate, like dipped.

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So she has some desserts kind of theme in her Italian.

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My dad can't cook, so his holidays are kind of,

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they're really about what they're

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supposed to be about, which is spending time with family.

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I feel like my moms, we always are definitely

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looking forward to the food, like 100%.

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Yeah, it's not healthy food, but it's all good.

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We could cheat.

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If you live the way you live, then that's good.

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You can do that.

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I love it.

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Yeah, yeah.

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So yeah, thanks for asking.

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Up in Canada, do you guys have a, what's your,

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do you have a main course up there, like anything unusual?

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Not for you, but unusual for us Americans.

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Oh yeah, no, we have seal and whale,

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and we have all the penguin and all that.

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It's all good, yeah.

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Are you serious?

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No, I'm not serious one little bit.

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Okay, I was about to say, I'm going to Canada.

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You could have totally fooled me.

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We usually do in the southerners.

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We could pull your legs all day long

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and you wouldn't know it.

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I bet.

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No, it's a traditional, you know,

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part of my family is Norwegian,

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so we have a lot of Scandinavian type foods,

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and Ukrainian foods like pierogi and ham,

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the turkey and everything else.

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So it's a variety of everything

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because we have so much culture up here,

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so many different people that we just bring in

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whatever they got,

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what they love for the Christmas season, you bet.

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All right, okay.

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That's good.

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Yeah, um, I

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Think Jackie's gonna do a roast. So we've got a sort of it's not a sir

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It's it's not just like a dry roast but like a nice roast that my daughter's recipe for us

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We're gonna do that in the crock pot

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I'm not gonna necessarily do a turkey. I do a turkey for Thanksgiving. That's about it

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It's about the only time I cook like major cook like pressure on sort of like cook during the year

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And I've last three years. I've cooked turkey and I've done a really good job. I might say so myself

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Simple nothing fancy. Nothing like, you know, like deep-fry or anything like that

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I haven't gotten into the like, Texas smoking and all that, you know, I'll just let that leave that to the Texans and

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That's too much work to like go and check on that and just living with meat all day for eight nine ten hours

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That's a lot

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so I

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Got other things to do

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Well good

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What's that in other words keep you out of the kitchen for the rest of the year, yeah trying to be

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No, that's funny. I usually get cleanup duty. It's kind of like there you go

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like babe

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Do you have to use all these bowls? Why can't you just use one, you know, or two?

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Can we just can we clean up while we're going? Nope. Can't do it. You get ease use all these serving spoons

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Okay, got to use all of them. All right got all of them. I'm gonna clean them all I

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Got you that's painstaking isn't it? I put down clean the stove

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I drive most women crazy because I I will clean up as I go along now. You have to

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You have to it's like

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No, and I left literally everything was going great this Thanksgiving. I would I will tell you this everything was going great

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This Thanksgiving we were kind of early. We're kind of actually prepared

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I mean in terms of like the food ready before like most of the guests were showing up and

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So people were coming in and I literally stepped out of the room

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For five minutes and everything was going smooth. There wasn't like stress and I was able to even watch the parade

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I mean, you know like it was just like going like clockwork

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And all sudden I leave the room leave the kitchen for five minutes and I'm hearing all this commotion. I'm like I

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Leave for five minutes. What is going on? There was a bowl that was

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and it was a glass bowl and it shattered everywhere and it was like and

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Then this happened and something else and then somebody came in and they you know

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They were trying to like take over the oven and it was just like chaos

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I'm like, I literally won't leave the room for five minutes and we can't have

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like what is going on like

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so it's um

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Have to keep keep tabs on everybody

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All right, so holidays is upon us

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Anybody got any stuff that you want to process?

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Talk about open up

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Right now relational. Yes

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Okay, absolutely

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Hunter what do you have for us?

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Well, I made some progress and I might put it down in that thing in singles app that I went

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I was struggling with loss of pornography gratification and my average time to go without is

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Usually 72 hours now. I'm breaking at the average to 96 hours and I next next week

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I and they last week was once a week something I've never done in years and now I might be

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Pushing towards a little over 96 hours without it. Then I figured this

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I mean the secret is is that it's porn is just sex with no intimacy

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So basically, I thought that sex is good

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Well on some marriage and I thought well if I'm I gotta have a relationship if I want to have sex

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That's like job you go work you get paid. I figure well if you want sex you gotta marry first

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I thought they like that but I figured no, it's not like that

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You got you gotta be committed or something and I and I'm gonna wait long because it's not the season

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God has my spear made for me, especially when I'm working real long hours during the holidays at Amazon

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So I figured you know what I remember my my last level 3-1

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I didn't like how she treated and I used to behave like her and and I didn't like it so much

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It's God's way saying you don't like how she behaved told you don't behave like that towards others

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And also try to be the best version of you

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You may not have your dream marriage that you dreamed in high school

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But in when you have your close family around but you know what you can do, you know

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I can do you can just open up and maybe

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Maybe but now it's bad because it's gonna get in the way of great where God has a spearman you're gonna have great

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It can't be all about it can't be a one when you make an idol

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That's the difference when you love someone so how you put God first in a relationship

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Well, you you gotta love God, but you can't well how you love God you gotta love someone there

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Idolatry is basically you trying to love that person,

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make her someone that you can do,

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and you can only love her in your infinite,

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your finite way.

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And you have to, and you rely on her,

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like self-evaluate, self-validation,

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and molding her to fit into your own agenda

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in the marriage, in the relationship.

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Well, I am rejoicing with you, Hunter,

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with regard to the progress you're making.

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I think that's awesome.

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Thank you for sharing that,

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and thank you for sharing what you're learning,

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because if we were all so studious as you,

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we might actually accomplish a few things,

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I tell you that much, and open and honest, and that's good.

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So keep it that way.

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You will definitely go far and succeed

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in what you're endeavoring to do.

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So definitely, thank you for sharing that,

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and we're rejoicing with you.

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All this healing heart and everything,

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all it's doing is just giving me

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all these philosophies and mindsets,

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I'm seeing healthy mindsets on how to look at things,

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like, okay, between a marriage and relationships,

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level one, level two, level three,

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there's a good way to go and not a healthy way to go.

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We're gonna go for the way,

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and I'm able to anticipate and discern on it.

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That's awesome, so awesome.

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Thank you for sharing that.

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That takes a lot of bravery to open up like that,

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plus at the same time, be so calculating.

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I mean, that's powerful, so good.

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I love it where you know where you stand.

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So thank you for sharing.

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Anybody else?

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That's something on your mind,

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something on your heart you wanna share?

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Well, I've been going through my different weeks

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that I've gone through, just finished the weeks,

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but I'm going through all the sub iPodcasts as well, too.

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And I come to this realization,

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I've been doing it all wrong.

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Oh, wow.

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It's like everything that she says,

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your wife says, I've done,

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what you're not supposed to do, I've done.

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So it's like, holy cow.

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Okay, what's one example of that?

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Well, I was in a very unique situation over the last year,

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dating for the first time after like 40 or 45 years.

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It's like dating today is totally different.

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Chivalry is right out the door.

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Women just don't like that.

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And it's like, wow.

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But anyway, the Lord did put me on one woman

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who actually did respond.

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And, but she was a very unique,

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she's the opposite than anything that I'd ever want.

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I mean, the opposite, really beautiful looking woman,

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but you know, she's larger than I'd like.

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And she's got a kid at home

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and that kid doesn't like anybody.

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And that kid has a child also.

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And so it was like everything, yeah, everything but,

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but the Lord gave me a unique thing

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that I finally realized a year later

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is that he gave me a person

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which I was supposed to love unconditionally.

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And that's hard for me to do love unconditionally.

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So a whole year of doing that

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has brought me to no level of understanding

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of what really love is and what it is not.

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And so in doing that, I've been able to process

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that ability to be able to love a woman

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the way that she needs to be loved,

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not the way that I think she needs to be loved.

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And that's, and that's brought,

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bringing things up like the five languages of love

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or the cherishing or cherishing somebody

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from a lot of the, I'm a reader.

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So I do a lot of reading

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and finding out all the mistakes that I've made.

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So when I finally find that one girl, that's the right one,

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it's gonna come all into play in the right time

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and I'll be able to use each one for it.

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But my biggest thing is that I'm,

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because I'm moving towards ministry,

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you just can't choose anybody.

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You gotta find somebody that's mature in the faith

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and also wise in the faith as well too.

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You put all those things together

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and those women are very difficult to find,

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extremely difficult.

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And so I've just gone, that's why I'm enjoying

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doing all the podcasts that I'm doing with Jackie

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and all her uniqueness, I have to say that's,

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she, when she punches, she punches hard.

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Cause I'm a total extrovert and I've married an introvert.

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I'll never do that again.

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And because it just, it may attract,

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but it doesn't mean it's right.

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Yeah, yeah, you guys think you guys have all heard Jackie talk and teach in that and some

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of you have even probably you've met her in person. I know that for sure some of you have

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and you think she's an extrovert or do you think she's an introvert?

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I would say she's probably an introvert but she comes out with a vengeance or you know

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an ambivert like where I would think that she probably processes a lot but then comes out.

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I don't know that would be my guess.

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Yeah, anybody else?

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Yeah, I think she's an extrovert to me. She seems like extroverted to me.

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Extroverted?

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I think that she's an introvert that learned how to become an extrovert.

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Stephen, what do you think? I want to hear what you have to say because Stephen actually knows Jackie pretty well.

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Yeah, I definitely can see the extrovert and I think she's very similar to what I am.

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We give a persona of extrovertism, however you want to say that correctly, but I enjoy my alone time,

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my peaceful time, my solace with just individuals one-on-one but yeah, you get into a gathering,

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you get into a group, a switch turns on and you can take over the room and you can be outgoing and I think Jackie is very similar to that type of personality as well.

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Yeah, yeah. No, that's right and you guys generally I think probably got it pretty correct.

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She's extroverted in a way that's like, you know, if you go with like the whole enneagram sort of thing,

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she's like a 7-8 is kind of like how she describes herself and, you know, so she has,

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she's a very strong personality but at the same time, you know, her 7 is the side of her that

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comes out where she just wants to have fun. She just, you know, loves people, wants to have a good time,

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you know, whatever sounds fun, let's go do that. Let's just, you know, be spontaneous, that kind of

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thing, you know, that really rocked my world when I met her the first time because I kind of like

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spontaneity but I like it to be sort of put on me, not necessarily from me. I'm not the one like

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cheering going, hey, let's go do whatever, fill in the blank, you know. I'm usually kind of like,

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you know, oh, that sounds kind of exciting but I'm also the kind of person that's not looking for

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that every moment, right, but a true 7 is just like, oh my god, let's just go out and like,

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you know, do something like tip over cows or, you know, just like something crazy, you know,

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and so Jackie's kind of like that but at the same time, you know, Stephen's right, you know,

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Michael, you said she's an ambivert. That's probably more accurate as far as an actual

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word that describes but she does value her alone time like Stephen was saying,

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you know, she's very kind of like, I need to be away from people and that kind of stuff and she

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recharges but the one thing and, you know, Kenton's right, you know, the one thing I think

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above anything and this sounds really cliche but it's very, very specific. You do need a woman

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that has her own relationship with the Lord and, you know, it can be very simple and it can be very

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deep and very like, you know, like she can be very knowledgeable, she can be very well-discipled

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but it doesn't have to necessarily be like she knows every scripture verse, she knows all

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theology, she knows all the, you know, spiritual ideals. She doesn't need to have the knowledge

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as much as sort of the relational part of it and that's one of the things that I learned early on

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with my wife when I met her was that at the end of the day, regardless of how crazy it might have

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been, regardless of how like, you know, at the time we were meeting at a time in our lives where we

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were both very, very down in our spiritual, not spiritual walk or spiritual life but what we were

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doing was ministry and so we were definitely on the downslope of our coming off of our traditional

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ministry sort of behavior just because of what had happened in the organizations and in our lives.

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So it wasn't that we were not spiritual, it was just in a time that was very undifferent

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than our recent history. Does that make sense? In other words, I was a pastor and I was doing a lot

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of pastoral things, I was doing a lot of teaching and a lot of ministry and so forth, and then all

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of a sudden I wasn't because I was this religious...

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gated to sort of the back corner.

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And her church fell apart.

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Her pastor went to prison.

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So it was just like she had nowhere

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to go in terms of a church community.

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So we were like suffering in that way.

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But it was a paradigm shift.

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And we didn't kind of really know it.

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We were meeting at that time.

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And so we were just finding a lot of fun and excitement

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in terms of meeting someone new.

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And just like going out and doing things

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that we really didn't ever have time to do,

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just go out and just have fun.

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And regardless of that, at the end of the day,

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she had a certain consciousness that serving God

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and pleasing the Father was really important.

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And I could see that even in the midst of what

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we were going through.

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And so that was really interesting to me.

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And not only that, she was very attractive and so forth.

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But at the end of the day, I say all that

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to say that this week was a very difficult week.

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And there was a lot of things that

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were challenging in my world, and especially

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even in the relationship with my wife.

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So it's so much to the point where we came together

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and we created, like this is my little list here,

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we recreated our vows to each other this week.

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Because we felt like there was definitely

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opposition to our relationship, to the work

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that we're in, to our lives in general.

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So when you have fussing and when

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you have relationship disorder because you've

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been with somebody for some time and you get picky,

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you get frustrated, and that's all

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a precipitation of what's happening in your world,

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being overwhelmed, having too much going on in your life,

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things going wrong.

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We probably had four, five, six things in our business

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and in our just things like break,

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and the garage door got stuck up,

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and just other things that were just like, why now?

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Why this?

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Everything's fine, and all of a sudden,

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things start just going wrong.

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Somebody does something in the community,

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or all kinds of things were going wrong this week.

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And there was just irritation after irritation

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and frustration.

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And we knew in our hearts, we're like, man,

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I feel like we're being challenged to the point

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of the enemy is coming against us.

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And I don't really talk much about the enemy.

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I don't talk much about the devil.

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I'm not one of those people that's like,

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oh, the devil's making me do this,

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or the devil's behind this, or the devil's against me,

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or the devil's tracking me down.

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I don't really do a lot of that.

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But the truth is is there is an enemy against your soul.

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There is an enemy against your life.

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And there is a strategy that that enemy

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is trying to work against you ever so subtly

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to try to put you off.

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And his success is, this is where in the heart work

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where Jackie talks about the little foxes,

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it's the little foxes that spoil the vine.

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It isn't the big stuff that comes at you that's obvious,

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like, oh, this is like really, this is demonic.

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Like, this is absolutely, like, this is just not right.

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Like, this is evil, and this is coming against me.

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It's not that stuff that really destroys your life.

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It's not that stuff that really puts you so off.

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That's very obvious, especially for someone

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who's aware as a believer.

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You just go, I'm not even falling for that

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because that's just ridiculous, right?

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It's the little things that just work on you

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day by day, moment by moment,

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that cause you to believe little lies,

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believe this, believe that, get into patterns,

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get into thought processes that become then ways

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of dealing with things that aren't heavenly,

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that aren't of any righteousness or anything.

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And so we, you know, had to come to the point

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in each of our own selves to where we're like,

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we need a reset.

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We need a recommitment.

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We need like, we did a massive do-over.

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Because we were just, it was just go,

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it was just, it was just too much.

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We couldn't handle all the little things

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that were either going wrong

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or things that were just not panning out.

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We were disillusioned with our own level of discipline,

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our own level of like, commitment to our goals.

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And of course, this is the time of year

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where most people look past, you know,

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look in the past and go, how did we do this year?

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You're evaluating a lot of things.

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You're looking forward to next year.

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You're looking forward to some new changes.

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This is the other thing,

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is that there's a lot of new changes,

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a lot of new opportunities,

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a lot of exciting things potentially.

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As you're coming into another year,

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that's going to change.

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And you're evaluating those

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and you're seeing how unprepared you are for those things

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because of all the things you were supposed to

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have accomplished this year.

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Does that make sense?

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Where it's kind of like, man, I hope at the holidays,

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I'm supposed to be enjoying the holidays.

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I'm supposed to be like, relieving.

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I'm supposed to like, just like putting down my work,

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putting down my sword, so to speak.

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I'm supposed to be like, just relaxing.

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Supposed to be taking time off.

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I'm supposed to be doing,

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but I can't because everything's ramping up

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to the end all the way.

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And it was extremely stressful.

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And so it caused us to really make some dramatic

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strides to each other.

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And where we were, you know, in the last couple of weeks,

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wanting to go away from each other,

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we decided to come toward each other.

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We decided to face each other,

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to lay down our differences,

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lay down this, lay down that,

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lay down the stressors, take the time.

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And we made commitments to each other again.

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And I'm sharing this,

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I don't know why I'm sharing this with you,

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but I'm just sharing this with you

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because it's extremely powerful, you know, what happened.

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But at the same time, you may look at,

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you may look at our situation.

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You may look at us as, you know,

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like leaders of this, of a movement,

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leaders of a group like this,

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and think just like a lot of people look at their,

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their leaders in work or leaders in church

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or leaders in wherever and go,

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man, they've got a lot of things going for them.

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They've got a light, they've got like a, you know,

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a perfect life or whatever.

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And that's just not the case for most people

494
00:28:02.320 --> 00:28:05.640
who are actually trying to make something happen,

495
00:28:05.640 --> 00:28:07.280
lead something, initiate something,

496
00:28:07.280 --> 00:28:10.000
pioneer something in the world.

497
00:28:10.000 --> 00:28:12.240
And so I'm just being transparent.

498
00:28:12.240 --> 00:28:17.240
And so anyway, we had an amazing Sunday

499
00:28:18.120 --> 00:28:20.480
in making these recommitments

500
00:28:20.480 --> 00:28:23.640
and making these vows to each other.

501
00:28:23.640 --> 00:28:25.080
And I won't take the time to read them

502
00:28:25.080 --> 00:28:26.640
because they're, you know,

503
00:28:26.640 --> 00:28:29.240
they're just kind of personal and,

504
00:28:29.240 --> 00:28:31.800
and, but they're very powerful.

505
00:28:31.800 --> 00:28:33.440
And they're things that we were,

506
00:28:34.360 --> 00:28:35.200
there were a lot of things

507
00:28:35.200 --> 00:28:36.960
that we had already committed to each other

508
00:28:36.960 --> 00:28:39.160
when we first got married and when we did a vow renewal,

509
00:28:39.160 --> 00:28:40.640
we were at 10 years.

510
00:28:42.280 --> 00:28:46.080
But we didn't, we didn't undo those things.

511
00:28:46.080 --> 00:28:47.800
We didn't make the contract where,

512
00:28:47.800 --> 00:28:49.400
okay, this is new contract.

513
00:28:49.400 --> 00:28:51.000
Everything else is null and void.

514
00:28:51.000 --> 00:28:51.840
You know, we didn't do that.

515
00:28:51.840 --> 00:28:54.240
We said like, yeah, everything we committed to before,

516
00:28:54.240 --> 00:28:55.680
we're committed to that as well.

517
00:28:55.680 --> 00:28:59.320
And we're committing to some new things here as well.

518
00:28:59.320 --> 00:29:02.560
We're committing to some honorable behavior,

519
00:29:02.560 --> 00:29:05.560
some cherishing behavior, some kinder behavior,

520
00:29:05.560 --> 00:29:10.560
some better processing of our words and our times together.

521
00:29:15.880 --> 00:29:19.080
And so God is just doing a work

522
00:29:19.760 --> 00:29:23.240
and I think probably one of the things,

523
00:29:23.240 --> 00:29:27.240
and this might be a strange pivot in this conversation,

524
00:29:27.240 --> 00:29:29.920
but I think one of the things that is so difficult

525
00:29:30.840 --> 00:29:35.800
in the life of a believer is when you're trying

526
00:29:35.800 --> 00:29:37.480
to either make a new commitment

527
00:29:37.480 --> 00:29:39.400
or you're trying to make a change

528
00:29:40.400 --> 00:29:42.600
or you're trying to do better,

529
00:29:42.600 --> 00:29:47.600
that you get excited about the change

530
00:29:48.080 --> 00:29:50.400
because you see the change is necessary.

531
00:29:50.400 --> 00:29:54.160
You see the behavior that is necessary to change.

532
00:29:54.160 --> 00:29:57.080
But at the same time, I don't know about you,

533
00:29:57.080 --> 00:29:58.520
but I get anxiety.

534
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.800
when I'm challenged with something, because what I'm afraid of is, can I do it?

535
00:30:06.960 --> 00:30:16.480
Can I walk it out? Can I fulfill it? And I don't know about you, but I'm like,

536
00:30:16.480 --> 00:30:24.240
I want to make this commitment. I want to, I want to have advancement in my life,

537
00:30:25.200 --> 00:30:32.720
but can I do it? You know? And it's just like, some people are like, oh, all you have to do

538
00:30:32.720 --> 00:30:36.800
is make the commitment and then to rise up to do it. Like, well, that's easier said than done.

539
00:30:37.600 --> 00:30:43.360
Right. Cause it is. And I admire people that are like extremely disciplined and they could just

540
00:30:43.360 --> 00:30:46.320
make up their mind and say, this is what I'm doing. I'm going to do it. And that's, what's

541
00:30:46.320 --> 00:30:51.120
happening. I'm going to go do it. I'm like, dude, that's amazing. Like, I don't know. I don't know

542
00:30:51.120 --> 00:30:58.400
how you do that sometimes in certain things. There's certain things I enjoy doing and I'm

543
00:30:58.400 --> 00:31:03.600
very committed to the things I like to do, but I'm not so committed to the things I don't like to do.

544
00:31:05.360 --> 00:31:12.800
You know, the things that are like, eh, not so much. Some people love to be challenged. Like

545
00:31:12.800 --> 00:31:19.680
they love to be challenged. Some people love to be like, this is a bad word, but like corrected.

546
00:31:19.680 --> 00:31:24.000
Some people love the admonition. You know what I'm saying? Some people like, oh yeah,

547
00:31:24.000 --> 00:31:29.200
just tell me where I'm going wrong. Just tell me what to do. And they love it. They love to like,

548
00:31:29.200 --> 00:31:32.640
put their little list together and put their little things and like, just like, you know,

549
00:31:33.520 --> 00:31:38.160
you know, recreate their behavior and do better. And I just like, I never been one of those things.

550
00:31:38.160 --> 00:31:46.640
I was always that kid. I wasn't a rebellious, bad kid in school. I wasn't, I was that kid that was

551
00:31:46.640 --> 00:31:53.280
very obedient. I dressed nicely. I was a good kid, but I would sit down when the teacher would

552
00:31:53.280 --> 00:32:01.680
tell you to sit down, but I was still standing up on the inside. Anybody like that? Like,

553
00:32:03.120 --> 00:32:07.600
I was compliant on the outside, but on the inside, I'm still like,

554
00:32:09.120 --> 00:32:15.280
yeah, I'm still standing up, you know? Yeah. No, I was compliant. I was non-compliant on

555
00:32:15.280 --> 00:32:20.080
the outside. Okay. So you're the opposite. You're just like, you were just actually truthful.

556
00:32:20.080 --> 00:32:25.760
See, I was lying. I was like compliant, but on the inside, my heart was still

557
00:32:26.800 --> 00:32:36.720
wanting to be like, rebellious in some sort of way, you know? It doesn't serve you well.

558
00:32:37.520 --> 00:32:44.400
I was a rebel against my peers. I was like, I was so much loyal to the teachers that I was

559
00:32:44.400 --> 00:32:48.480
rebellious against my peers, but it's kind of the opposite.

560
00:32:50.880 --> 00:32:53.760
Anybody else like that where you're just like, do you, I mean, resonate,

561
00:32:53.760 --> 00:32:59.280
anybody resonate with like, yeah, that's me. I might, I think you raised your hand.

562
00:32:59.280 --> 00:33:05.040
Yeah. You know, growing up, I didn't have a chance to actually be overly outwardly because of the

563
00:33:05.040 --> 00:33:10.960
environment I grew up in. So I would have to bow to the blows, but you know, inside of me,

564
00:33:10.960 --> 00:33:16.160
I was like, you're not going to break me, you know? And so, so I conform just because of

565
00:33:16.160 --> 00:33:19.680
punishment, not because I, cause I, you know, not inside though.

566
00:33:20.720 --> 00:33:26.640
Yeah. And it's interesting because I feel like in that way that for some reason,

567
00:33:28.160 --> 00:33:32.960
like I had, there were two brothers that I grew up with that my mom was really close friends with

568
00:33:32.960 --> 00:33:38.640
their mom and I wasn't necessarily as close to them, but my, our moms were best friends.

569
00:33:39.200 --> 00:33:42.320
And so we did things a lot together. They went to the same church we did and everything,

570
00:33:42.320 --> 00:33:45.760
but they were two brothers. They were like a year apart. They were almost like twins,

571
00:33:45.760 --> 00:33:49.680
but they were just, they were not twins. And they were like a year apart and they were a little bit

572
00:33:49.680 --> 00:33:54.160
older than me, like one year and two years older than me. And so I was still the little kid and

573
00:33:54.160 --> 00:33:59.840
everything, but they were like athletic and they were just like outwardly, just like whatever.

574
00:33:59.840 --> 00:34:04.240
They were not compliant. I mean, yeah, they were compliant to a degree like civil,

575
00:34:04.240 --> 00:34:09.840
but at the same time, you know, they did bad things and they pushed the envelope and they

576
00:34:09.840 --> 00:34:17.040
broke the rules and they were rude sometimes and so forth. And, and I just never could understand

577
00:34:17.040 --> 00:34:23.120
like, wow, man, how can they do that? You know, like I would, on the outside, I would like,

578
00:34:23.120 --> 00:34:26.800
that's terrible. That's, that's just wrong. I mean, I can't believe that they would just get

579
00:34:26.800 --> 00:34:30.639
in trouble so much. Like getting in trouble was just like a bad thing. You know, it was like the

580
00:34:30.639 --> 00:34:35.600
worst thing, getting in trouble. I was afraid of being in trouble. But at the same time,

581
00:34:35.600 --> 00:34:42.400
on the inside, it was like, man, I wish I could be more like them. Man, I wish I could be like,

582
00:34:42.400 --> 00:34:51.600
I wish I could be more like, I don't know, just do whatever I want. Why did they, they seemed like

583
00:34:51.600 --> 00:34:59.760
they were so free and able, and they were able to just do, say, think, act however they wanted to.

584
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:02.360
As long as they didn't do it too bad

585
00:35:02.360 --> 00:35:08.480
I mean, you know, they worked within the boundaries of what was like, you know, like what was safe or whatever

586
00:35:09.280 --> 00:35:15.280
And I was just like what in the world is of course, I didn't understand all of this stuff until I was much older

587
00:35:16.800 --> 00:35:18.800
To understand that I

588
00:35:19.200 --> 00:35:24.880
Really was kind of trapped inside, but it took me a long time to kind of figure that out

589
00:35:25.760 --> 00:35:33.020
Took me a long time to process that took me a long time to come to the point where years ago I would say

590
00:35:33.560 --> 00:35:35.560
Lord actually there

591
00:35:35.640 --> 00:35:39.680
There is a streak of rebellion within me. I do not want that. I

592
00:35:40.360 --> 00:35:47.520
Don't want to be in the end. Lots of my prayers guys are not necessarily help me to you know

593
00:35:47.520 --> 00:35:49.780
Do better in this today?

594
00:35:49.780 --> 00:35:56.860
Help me to like, you know think differently about this help me to feel differently about this

595
00:35:57.020 --> 00:36:00.420
My main prayer is Lord in the end

596
00:36:01.060 --> 00:36:03.220
Don't let me be that

597
00:36:04.820 --> 00:36:06.820
Don't let me be

598
00:36:07.060 --> 00:36:09.060
the end result of

599
00:36:09.940 --> 00:36:12.900
Whatever this path I can see is going down

600
00:36:14.420 --> 00:36:15.500
Like

601
00:36:15.500 --> 00:36:20.580
It for instance, this is all I use always use this example like if you're if you

602
00:36:22.820 --> 00:36:25.260
If you'd lied one time and

603
00:36:26.780 --> 00:36:28.300
and

604
00:36:28.300 --> 00:36:30.300
You told a lie

605
00:36:30.340 --> 00:36:32.820
Somebody said you could accuse you of lying

606
00:36:33.740 --> 00:36:37.660
But they wouldn't necessarily maybe call you a liar

607
00:36:38.980 --> 00:36:40.980
You know I'm saying

608
00:36:41.460 --> 00:36:43.660
Someone who is known as a liar is

609
00:36:44.460 --> 00:36:46.260
someone who has a

610
00:36:46.260 --> 00:36:48.260
habitual behavior and

611
00:36:48.780 --> 00:36:50.780
Every time you're around them

612
00:36:51.180 --> 00:36:55.020
There's a lie going forth or there's some sort of deception

613
00:36:55.900 --> 00:36:57.700
you know, so

614
00:36:57.700 --> 00:36:59.700
One lie doesn't make a liar

615
00:36:59.780 --> 00:37:02.660
But many lies and a habitual behavior of that

616
00:37:03.460 --> 00:37:07.420
Eventually you become a liar and so in that way

617
00:37:08.300 --> 00:37:13.300
I'm not necessarily about lying, but it's just a clean example in

618
00:37:14.500 --> 00:37:19.820
That I don't want to be found unfaithful. I don't want to be found

619
00:37:20.660 --> 00:37:22.340
I

620
00:37:22.340 --> 00:37:26.660
Don't want to be found rebellious. I don't want to be found in the end

621
00:37:27.620 --> 00:37:31.140
Not someone whose heart is after the Lord, right?

622
00:37:32.020 --> 00:37:36.420
And I found something this week that was really helpful to me because again

623
00:37:37.380 --> 00:37:40.220
In order to help us

624
00:37:42.180 --> 00:37:48.780
Reframe the idea came across this idea of what is the actual work of the believer?

625
00:37:49.740 --> 00:37:51.740
Does anybody know?

626
00:37:52.220 --> 00:37:54.380
what the primary work of

627
00:37:55.900 --> 00:37:57.900
The believer is

628
00:37:59.060 --> 00:38:01.940
This could be a very tricky sort of opening abide

629
00:38:03.060 --> 00:38:05.260
to abide to abide in the vine

630
00:38:07.380 --> 00:38:09.380
Okay, that's close

631
00:38:11.260 --> 00:38:13.260
Everything of and for the kingdom

632
00:38:13.620 --> 00:38:15.620
I'm sorry, everything what?

633
00:38:15.780 --> 00:38:21.860
Everything of and for the kingdom of God oven for the kingdom. Okay everything. Okay anybody else

634
00:38:22.620 --> 00:38:30.020
What is the primary work if you're looking at like? Hey, I'm a believer and the work that I'm doing is

635
00:38:30.860 --> 00:38:33.220
The most important work that a believer can do

636
00:38:33.780 --> 00:38:37.620
Burn Burke's I find it is is the is the relationship with God himself

637
00:38:38.100 --> 00:38:44.700
From everything else from that point alone. Everything else flows from having relationship. Okay having relationship with God, okay

638
00:38:47.500 --> 00:38:49.500
Anybody else

639
00:38:50.060 --> 00:38:52.060
Let's say the Great Commission

640
00:38:52.980 --> 00:38:57.700
Commission the Great Commission Great Commission. Oh, yeah going out doing the Great Commission. Okay. Yeah

641
00:38:58.660 --> 00:39:00.660
Those are all

642
00:39:00.660 --> 00:39:02.660
really good answers and

643
00:39:03.860 --> 00:39:08.480
They all have to do with the primary work of the believer

644
00:39:10.060 --> 00:39:14.940
Because they stem from this primary work and

645
00:39:16.100 --> 00:39:18.620
in John chapter 6

646
00:39:18.900 --> 00:39:27.460
The disciples asked him said what must we do to do the work or works that God requires

647
00:39:28.700 --> 00:39:32.380
and of course in biblical times we understand that

648
00:39:33.020 --> 00:39:35.020
There was a very

649
00:39:35.260 --> 00:39:36.820
strict

650
00:39:36.820 --> 00:39:40.820
consciousness, especially in the mind of the Jewish believers of

651
00:39:41.500 --> 00:39:46.300
Works, what are the things tell me the things I need to do like I we're all in

652
00:39:46.420 --> 00:39:48.420
We understand who you are

653
00:39:48.580 --> 00:39:55.860
We're in but in order to be clear tell us the works that God requires for us to do

654
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.560
Like, should we knock on so many doors?

655
00:40:02.560 --> 00:40:03.720
Should we heal so many people?

656
00:40:03.720 --> 00:40:05.020
Should we give so much money?

657
00:40:05.020 --> 00:40:09.280
Should we, you know, go out and tell so many people about,

658
00:40:09.280 --> 00:40:10.560
you know, like, line up,

659
00:40:10.560 --> 00:40:12.700
what are the works that we're supposed to do?

660
00:40:12.700 --> 00:40:14.360
And Jesus answered, he said this, he said,

661
00:40:14.360 --> 00:40:16.600
"'The work of God is this,

662
00:40:17.700 --> 00:40:21.660
"'to believe in the one he has sent.'"

663
00:40:23.960 --> 00:40:28.480
The primary work of the believer is to believe.

664
00:40:30.000 --> 00:40:32.400
Now, that may sound simple and very esoteric

665
00:40:32.400 --> 00:40:33.720
and very like, well, kind of out there,

666
00:40:33.720 --> 00:40:36.200
like, well, of course, like, you know, we all believe.

667
00:40:36.200 --> 00:40:37.740
Of course we do believe,

668
00:40:38.600 --> 00:40:43.600
but what you do stems from what you believe,

669
00:40:45.880 --> 00:40:50.800
how you act, how you behave, where you go, what you do,

670
00:40:50.800 --> 00:40:52.960
what you spend your time in,

671
00:40:53.840 --> 00:40:56.840
what you devote your life to,

672
00:40:56.880 --> 00:41:01.680
comes from, everything comes from, what do you believe?

673
00:41:01.680 --> 00:41:04.800
Jesus said it like this, it's not what God can do,

674
00:41:04.800 --> 00:41:08.640
it's not what God will do, it is, what can you believe?

675
00:41:09.840 --> 00:41:11.880
What do you believe?

676
00:41:11.880 --> 00:41:14.280
What do you believe about God?

677
00:41:14.280 --> 00:41:16.880
What do you believe about yourself?

678
00:41:16.880 --> 00:41:20.320
What do you believe about the world around you?

679
00:41:22.320 --> 00:41:25.400
And I'm telling you, I was really encouraged by this

680
00:41:25.400 --> 00:41:26.740
and challenged all at the same time,

681
00:41:27.640 --> 00:41:31.180
because when you put and you understand

682
00:41:31.180 --> 00:41:34.920
that the primary work of the believer is to believe,

683
00:41:35.920 --> 00:41:38.460
my prayer doesn't become,

684
00:41:38.460 --> 00:41:41.420
God, help me to do things differently,

685
00:41:41.420 --> 00:41:42.700
help me to do things better,

686
00:41:42.700 --> 00:41:43.900
help me to do the right thing,

687
00:41:43.900 --> 00:41:47.380
help me to, you know, say the right things,

688
00:41:47.380 --> 00:41:51.820
help me to behave, it has nothing to do with that.

689
00:41:51.820 --> 00:41:55.340
It has everything to do with what do I believe?

690
00:41:55.340 --> 00:41:58.380
Who do I believe I am?

691
00:41:59.700 --> 00:42:04.700
And so my prayer becomes, Holy Spirit, show me who I am,

692
00:42:06.100 --> 00:42:11.100
show me who God is, show me the truth, so that I may see,

693
00:42:11.940 --> 00:42:14.420
so that when I see, I will believe.

694
00:42:15.740 --> 00:42:17.500
And I don't have to see physically is what I'm saying,

695
00:42:17.500 --> 00:42:20.300
but I'm seeing spiritually, seeing supernaturally,

696
00:42:20.300 --> 00:42:23.540
so that I will believe,

697
00:42:23.540 --> 00:42:26.720
and from the position of what I believe,

698
00:42:27.620 --> 00:42:32.620
will stem my behavior, my life, my desires,

699
00:42:33.140 --> 00:42:38.140
my endeavors, the goals of my life,

700
00:42:39.220 --> 00:42:41.740
will stem from what it is I believe.

701
00:42:43.140 --> 00:42:46.220
And I'm having trouble, I've had trouble for a long time,

702
00:42:47.620 --> 00:42:52.620
just understanding who am I, what am I doing?

703
00:42:53.700 --> 00:42:55.260
You know, so many people are,

704
00:42:55.260 --> 00:42:59.700
I feel like are so more well-defined in who they are,

705
00:43:00.820 --> 00:43:02.460
like, so-and-so is this, and they're this,

706
00:43:02.460 --> 00:43:05.340
you know, like a short bio, like, who is this person?

707
00:43:05.340 --> 00:43:07.620
Da-da, this person is a da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da,

708
00:43:07.620 --> 00:43:10.140
and usually has to do with what they've accomplished.

709
00:43:10.140 --> 00:43:11.340
They're an author, they're a speaker,

710
00:43:11.340 --> 00:43:13.540
they're a business person, they're, you know,

711
00:43:13.540 --> 00:43:17.060
they're, you know, putting your job, title,

712
00:43:17.060 --> 00:43:22.060
that's not who you are, that's what you've done, you know?

713
00:43:23.980 --> 00:43:27.980
So the work of the believer is to work out

714
00:43:27.980 --> 00:43:31.100
and work through, what do you believe?

715
00:43:32.740 --> 00:43:35.060
What do you believe about yourself?

716
00:43:35.060 --> 00:43:37.060
What do you believe about the world around you?

717
00:43:37.060 --> 00:43:39.140
What do you believe about God?

718
00:43:39.140 --> 00:43:44.140
And from those things, you will begin to have your behavior,

719
00:43:44.540 --> 00:43:49.540
have your life, have your being in that direction of belief.

720
00:43:53.980 --> 00:43:58.980
And, you know, we'll center our lives as believers

721
00:44:00.740 --> 00:44:05.100
lots of times around religious rituals, acts of service,

722
00:44:05.100 --> 00:44:09.180
moral perfection, like, oh, just be better morally,

723
00:44:09.180 --> 00:44:12.100
you know, just be nicer to people, be kinder to people.

724
00:44:12.100 --> 00:44:13.140
Well, that's hard.

725
00:44:14.100 --> 00:44:16.460
When people are out there being complete jerks

726
00:44:16.460 --> 00:44:19.300
and, you know, doing a bunch of crap in this world

727
00:44:19.300 --> 00:44:20.620
and treating you like whatever

728
00:44:20.620 --> 00:44:23.260
and whatever life's handing you at the moment,

729
00:44:23.940 --> 00:44:25.020
that's not easy.

730
00:44:25.020 --> 00:44:28.340
I'm like, I'm not trying to be working on myself

731
00:44:28.340 --> 00:44:30.300
and working on my moral perfection.

732
00:44:30.300 --> 00:44:32.740
I'm not trying to work on having more acts of service

733
00:44:32.740 --> 00:44:33.580
in my life.

734
00:44:33.580 --> 00:44:36.180
I'm not trying to do more religious ritual,

735
00:44:36.180 --> 00:44:39.380
trying to like attend church more, you know, do all this.

736
00:44:39.380 --> 00:44:40.820
I'm not trying to do that.

737
00:44:40.820 --> 00:44:43.860
I'm literally trying to believe.

738
00:44:45.580 --> 00:44:50.580
I'm literally trying to increase my understanding of Him.

739
00:44:51.580 --> 00:44:55.260
And of course, this speaks to relationship.

740
00:44:55.260 --> 00:44:58.660
This speaks to all the things that you guys mentioned

741
00:44:58.660 --> 00:45:00.220
in your answers as far.

742
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.600
or as what is the primary work,

743
00:45:04.160 --> 00:45:05.920
I'm just trying to illuminate to you

744
00:45:05.920 --> 00:45:08.960
that all the things you said were correct,

745
00:45:08.960 --> 00:45:11.640
but the initial primary,

746
00:45:11.640 --> 00:45:16.640
the core work of the believer is for you to believe.

747
00:45:19.480 --> 00:45:20.920
And many of you might say,

748
00:45:20.920 --> 00:45:23.300
oh, well, I believe the Lord, I believe God.

749
00:45:23.300 --> 00:45:24.140
Really?

750
00:45:25.280 --> 00:45:27.380
What are the areas in your life

751
00:45:27.380 --> 00:45:29.880
where you're not believing God?

752
00:45:30.920 --> 00:45:32.880
Because trust me, there are areas.

753
00:45:34.580 --> 00:45:35.840
If you were really honest

754
00:45:35.840 --> 00:45:37.220
and you were really challenging yourself

755
00:45:37.220 --> 00:45:39.240
and you were really coming down to it,

756
00:45:39.240 --> 00:45:41.280
you're like, yeah, I struggle in my trust

757
00:45:41.280 --> 00:45:43.360
and my belief in God in this area

758
00:45:43.360 --> 00:45:44.880
for this thing or for whatever.

759
00:45:45.740 --> 00:45:47.780
So it's like, do you really believe God?

760
00:45:48.900 --> 00:45:52.040
And I'm not challenging you for the sake of challenging you.

761
00:45:52.040 --> 00:45:57.040
I'm illuminating the fact that your belief

762
00:45:57.780 --> 00:46:00.040
is the most important thing to work on.

763
00:46:00.980 --> 00:46:02.180
What do you believe?

764
00:46:02.180 --> 00:46:05.220
And believing the right things, the righteous things,

765
00:46:05.220 --> 00:46:10.220
so that from that position of belief,

766
00:46:10.260 --> 00:46:13.460
all of your activity, all of your behavior,

767
00:46:13.460 --> 00:46:18.460
all of your mindset, all of your doings

768
00:46:18.700 --> 00:46:22.860
come from that position of belief.

769
00:46:22.860 --> 00:46:24.540
Like you know who you are.

770
00:46:24.540 --> 00:46:27.260
Like the strongest person

771
00:46:28.620 --> 00:46:30.940
is the person who knows who they are.

772
00:46:32.180 --> 00:46:35.500
The strongest person in terms of how they're operating

773
00:46:35.500 --> 00:46:40.500
is a person who truly believes in the face of everything,

774
00:46:40.500 --> 00:46:42.380
this is who I am.

775
00:46:42.380 --> 00:46:45.540
This is why some people that are disciplined are disciplined.

776
00:46:45.540 --> 00:46:46.460
Why?

777
00:46:46.460 --> 00:46:48.180
Not because they're disciplined,

778
00:46:48.180 --> 00:46:52.500
but because they believe that they're a disciplined person.

779
00:46:52.900 --> 00:46:56.700
Like I have no problem believing in discipline.

780
00:46:56.700 --> 00:46:57.740
I've done this before.

781
00:46:57.740 --> 00:46:59.240
I've done this a million times.

782
00:46:59.240 --> 00:47:00.860
I'm very good at it.

783
00:47:00.860 --> 00:47:01.920
I believe that.

784
00:47:01.920 --> 00:47:04.360
Like nobody can change my mind on that.

785
00:47:05.540 --> 00:47:07.780
That's a position of belief.

786
00:47:09.900 --> 00:47:12.180
And so I guess what I'm trying to say,

787
00:47:12.180 --> 00:47:13.780
if there's anything to work on

788
00:47:14.980 --> 00:47:19.140
in terms of trying to tally up what you've done

789
00:47:19.140 --> 00:47:20.660
or what you're doing better or whatever,

790
00:47:20.660 --> 00:47:22.300
or trying to do it numerically

791
00:47:22.300 --> 00:47:25.220
or trying to do it like in the like,

792
00:47:25.220 --> 00:47:28.060
this helps me because I don't know if this helps any of you,

793
00:47:28.060 --> 00:47:33.060
but this helps me take the pressure off me to like do things

794
00:47:34.940 --> 00:47:37.580
just for the sake of doing things.

795
00:47:37.580 --> 00:47:41.460
Because I will never be able to do all the things.

796
00:47:42.500 --> 00:47:43.880
I just won't.

797
00:47:43.880 --> 00:47:44.760
I just know me.

798
00:47:45.820 --> 00:47:48.820
But if I believe something, if I'm convinced of something,

799
00:47:48.820 --> 00:47:50.500
this is another thing, conviction.

800
00:47:51.340 --> 00:47:54.700
I'm convinced that this is so, that I am this,

801
00:47:54.700 --> 00:47:56.660
that the Lord is this way.

802
00:47:57.580 --> 00:48:01.300
I've said it before that faith is the substance

803
00:48:01.300 --> 00:48:02.620
of things hope for as scripture says,

804
00:48:02.620 --> 00:48:05.460
but faith is simply knowing God.

805
00:48:05.460 --> 00:48:07.860
When you know God and you know his character

806
00:48:07.860 --> 00:48:10.580
and you know what he does and you know what he is about

807
00:48:10.580 --> 00:48:13.620
and you know what he won't do and what he will do

808
00:48:13.620 --> 00:48:17.740
and how he operates, you have a greater level of faith

809
00:48:17.740 --> 00:48:19.840
in knowing what the outcome's gonna be.

810
00:48:21.340 --> 00:48:22.740
Because you're in alignment with like,

811
00:48:22.740 --> 00:48:25.540
okay, I have faith that in this situation,

812
00:48:25.540 --> 00:48:29.660
I can change the situation because the things

813
00:48:29.660 --> 00:48:32.060
that are seen are subject to change

814
00:48:32.060 --> 00:48:36.500
as a result of applying your faith and faith being what?

815
00:48:36.500 --> 00:48:41.500
Faith being, you know God, you know his attributes,

816
00:48:43.460 --> 00:48:45.660
you know how he feels about this,

817
00:48:45.660 --> 00:48:48.080
you know how he operates in this way.

818
00:48:48.080 --> 00:48:51.760
You know that healing is a fact because God is a healer.

819
00:48:52.680 --> 00:48:55.640
And so therefore, when you need healing,

820
00:48:55.640 --> 00:48:58.360
it's not about what any doctor would say

821
00:48:58.360 --> 00:48:59.780
or what the circumstance says

822
00:48:59.780 --> 00:49:02.020
or what you feel like in your body,

823
00:49:02.020 --> 00:49:04.680
it matters that God is a healer and I know that,

824
00:49:04.680 --> 00:49:07.320
there's no way that you can convince me otherwise.

825
00:49:08.380 --> 00:49:12.000
And my belief, my understanding of that and knowing God,

826
00:49:12.000 --> 00:49:13.760
my faith becomes an operation,

827
00:49:13.760 --> 00:49:17.680
but it's all predicated on what I believe.

828
00:49:19.080 --> 00:49:23.840
So the question today is, what do you believe?

829
00:49:26.520 --> 00:49:28.400
What do you believe about like,

830
00:49:28.400 --> 00:49:30.440
it's easy to answer the question,

831
00:49:30.440 --> 00:49:33.740
what you believe on the things that's going well

832
00:49:33.740 --> 00:49:34.580
in your life.

833
00:49:36.560 --> 00:49:39.440
But if you look at the places in your life

834
00:49:39.440 --> 00:49:41.720
that are not going well, that you're unhappy with,

835
00:49:41.720 --> 00:49:46.000
you're dissatisfied with, or you're like, I want more,

836
00:49:48.080 --> 00:49:51.640
the question is, what do you believe about that situation?

837
00:49:51.640 --> 00:49:56.040
Do you believe that you're worthy of increase?

838
00:49:56.040 --> 00:50:01.040
Do you believe that you're viable?

839
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:09.320
Candidate for relationship, do you believe that there is someone for you?

840
00:50:09.320 --> 00:50:12.580
Do you believe that?

841
00:50:12.580 --> 00:50:20.200
If you did, you would be coming from a different mindset and going towards that in your behavior.

842
00:50:20.200 --> 00:50:22.800
That is not a criticism.

843
00:50:22.800 --> 00:50:26.800
That is just a matter of fact.

844
00:50:27.520 --> 00:50:36.160
Have you ever heard of the phrase that people do what they want?

845
00:50:36.160 --> 00:50:45.240
That is very tied and very intrinsic of that idea of belief.

846
00:50:45.240 --> 00:50:51.800
People are in the way they are because they want to be.

847
00:50:51.800 --> 00:50:58.320
People don't like that truth, but we are where we are because this is where we want

848
00:50:58.320 --> 00:50:59.320
to be.

849
00:50:59.320 --> 00:51:03.520
And you're like, oh, well, I'm unhealthy and overweight.

850
00:51:03.520 --> 00:51:07.840
Yes, because you want to be.

851
00:51:07.840 --> 00:51:11.680
And that's really rude, and that's terrible to say, and it's just like, oh my gosh, that's

852
00:51:11.680 --> 00:51:14.600
like, you know, how could you say that?

853
00:51:14.600 --> 00:51:19.320
But the truth is this, is that that person believes what they believe about themselves.

854
00:51:19.320 --> 00:51:25.720
They do what they do, and it has resulted in this condition.

855
00:51:25.720 --> 00:51:32.640
And so the truth of all of the things in our lives, it's not an indictment.

856
00:51:32.640 --> 00:51:37.520
I mean, it kind of sort of is, but it's not trying to be mean.

857
00:51:37.520 --> 00:51:39.720
It's not trying to be rude or crude.

858
00:51:39.720 --> 00:51:42.760
It's just trying to be honest.

859
00:51:42.760 --> 00:51:43.760
Love that.

860
00:51:43.760 --> 00:51:44.760
Thank you, Mike.

861
00:51:44.760 --> 00:51:46.080
Without faith, it's impossible to please him.

862
00:51:46.080 --> 00:51:47.440
That's so true.

863
00:51:47.440 --> 00:51:50.040
It all comes down to what the end, look at the end.

864
00:51:50.040 --> 00:51:52.800
The end is the most for he who comes to God must believe.

865
00:51:52.800 --> 00:51:53.800
Yes, exactly.

866
00:51:53.800 --> 00:51:57.480
That was the scripture that I was thinking of prior to getting into this message, which

867
00:51:57.480 --> 00:52:02.520
was it comes to God must believe that he is.

868
00:52:02.520 --> 00:52:03.840
So we all are there.

869
00:52:03.840 --> 00:52:05.200
We all believe that God is.

870
00:52:05.200 --> 00:52:07.560
We all believe in God, right?

871
00:52:07.560 --> 00:52:08.800
But what's the next thing?

872
00:52:08.800 --> 00:52:10.760
It's like, OK, we believe in God.

873
00:52:10.760 --> 00:52:11.960
That's cool.

874
00:52:11.960 --> 00:52:14.960
But what about God do we believe in?

875
00:52:14.960 --> 00:52:18.120
What about God do we believe in for ourselves?

876
00:52:18.120 --> 00:52:24.480
What about God do we believe that he's done in us and through us and for us that we can

877
00:52:24.480 --> 00:52:29.880
believe in ourselves to see that come to fruition in our lives?

878
00:52:29.880 --> 00:52:34.920
You see, the whole flow of it comes down from believing in God, believing who God is, and

879
00:52:34.920 --> 00:52:38.680
then believing who God is in and through us.

880
00:52:38.680 --> 00:52:41.120
That's how the whole thing comes down.

881
00:52:41.120 --> 00:52:43.080
So we can talk about behavior.

882
00:52:43.080 --> 00:52:45.600
We can talk about changing our mindset.

883
00:52:45.600 --> 00:52:49.720
We can talk about new patterns of like, I'm going to do this and I'm going to organize

884
00:52:49.720 --> 00:52:50.920
this.

885
00:52:50.920 --> 00:52:51.920
You can try it.

886
00:52:51.920 --> 00:52:57.320
You can talk about new, you know, tricks to the trade.

887
00:52:57.320 --> 00:53:02.120
You can talk about all sorts of things to improve your life.

888
00:53:02.120 --> 00:53:07.040
But it all comes down to initially very from the beginning.

889
00:53:07.040 --> 00:53:09.080
What do you believe?

890
00:53:09.080 --> 00:53:13.600
If you, it's, you know, I always try to make simple examples.

891
00:53:13.600 --> 00:53:21.800
If you don't believe that you can make a certain dollar amount more in a year, that's why certain

892
00:53:21.800 --> 00:53:30.000
people never break the ceiling of like a certain number, because they in and of themselves

893
00:53:30.000 --> 00:53:36.280
and I'm not trying to be mean, like I didn't know that I could make as much as I make now

894
00:53:36.280 --> 00:53:41.440
versus many years ago, because I'd never done it before.

895
00:53:41.440 --> 00:53:42.720
I never experienced it.

896
00:53:42.720 --> 00:53:45.720
I never quite believed.

897
00:53:45.720 --> 00:53:50.880
Now there was a moment and when we started a business about seven, eight years ago, there

898
00:53:50.880 --> 00:53:58.440
was a moment that I finally saw somebody else and somebody else's testimony and what they

899
00:53:58.440 --> 00:53:59.440
had done.

900
00:53:59.440 --> 00:54:02.460
And it's not, wasn't the first time I'd heard a testimony like that.

901
00:54:02.460 --> 00:54:08.140
It was multiple times and it took me some time to get to believe that, but it pissed

902
00:54:08.140 --> 00:54:09.140
me off.

903
00:54:09.140 --> 00:54:11.580
I was like, are you freaking kidding me?

904
00:54:11.580 --> 00:54:13.140
That guy did that.

905
00:54:13.140 --> 00:54:14.900
Like okay, I'm done.

906
00:54:14.900 --> 00:54:16.140
Like that's it.

907
00:54:16.140 --> 00:54:17.940
I can do this.

908
00:54:17.940 --> 00:54:22.060
And it was at that moment I actually believed, I said, you know what, I could do that.

909
00:54:22.060 --> 00:54:28.300
I could actually make more in one month than I've ever made in one year in my life.

910
00:54:28.300 --> 00:54:34.060
And it was from that moment of like a, just a kernel of belief that we began to do more

911
00:54:34.060 --> 00:54:38.620
than we've ever done before in our lives.

912
00:54:38.620 --> 00:54:41.000
So it was a, it was a transformational moment.

913
00:54:41.000 --> 00:54:42.740
It was a pivoting moment.

914
00:54:42.740 --> 00:54:47.260
It was a, it was a paradigm shift, right?

915
00:54:47.260 --> 00:54:49.500
This is what we're looking for guys in our life.

916
00:54:49.500 --> 00:54:51.860
We're looking for where's the paradigm shift.

917
00:54:51.860 --> 00:54:59.620
Here's the moment that we began to believe that this was possible, that change was possible,

918
00:54:59.620 --> 00:55:00.120
that relationship was possible.

919
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.960
was possible that whatever it is that you're after whatever it is that the

920
00:55:05.960 --> 00:55:11.520
desire of your heart for like you to be you know and we can talk about

921
00:55:11.520 --> 00:55:15.280
accomplishments I think probably the greater thing is for you to step into

922
00:55:15.280 --> 00:55:20.080
like a greater understanding of belief of who you are I think that's like a

923
00:55:20.080 --> 00:55:23.120
greater way to go about it I mean just one thing to accomplish things like I

924
00:55:23.120 --> 00:55:26.680
did this and I did that and I accomplished this this year that's cool

925
00:55:26.680 --> 00:55:31.320
but I think sometimes it's greater for you to have an understanding of like who

926
00:55:31.320 --> 00:55:39.920
you are you know in terms of like your purpose for being here on this earth and

927
00:55:39.920 --> 00:55:44.200
that's like I know that's a big question but from that point with the better you

928
00:55:44.200 --> 00:55:55.280
understand that the more you start to behave like authentically the more you

929
00:55:55.280 --> 00:56:03.800
start to believe to to to to act out of your true nature your true self your

930
00:56:03.800 --> 00:56:17.600
true identity so belief is you know very closely tied to your identity and it

931
00:56:17.600 --> 00:56:21.720
starts with like like the scripture says it starts with believing him and that he

932
00:56:21.720 --> 00:56:26.040
is and then he is a rewarder of those who diligently seek him and so the first

933
00:56:26.040 --> 00:56:33.200
thing on my list to on my covenant is I covenant to see God in his wisdom and

934
00:56:33.200 --> 00:56:40.440
prioritizing his presence because it's in his presence that I begin to

935
00:56:40.440 --> 00:56:45.880
understand what I believe I can have a clarity of thought so I have to

936
00:56:45.880 --> 00:56:51.040
prioritize his presence I have to prioritize prayer I have to prioritize

937
00:56:51.040 --> 00:56:59.440
that relationship because my prayer the other night when I was just like seeking

938
00:56:59.440 --> 00:57:06.320
the Lord was Lord I believe you I I believe you and I was making that a

939
00:57:06.320 --> 00:57:11.520
confession but I was also saying it as from a truth standpoint I believe in you

940
00:57:11.520 --> 00:57:19.240
I trust you I like why would I go about trying to trust everything else that's

941
00:57:19.240 --> 00:57:26.160
failed me and not put my belief in the one who's never failed you know I'm

942
00:57:26.160 --> 00:57:31.080
saying we know that to be true because we like he never fails he's perfect you

943
00:57:31.080 --> 00:57:34.520
know all this kind of stuff I'm like that's cool you know but we like miss

944
00:57:34.520 --> 00:57:38.440
the we miss the juice of that because like oh wait a minute I'm putting my

945
00:57:38.440 --> 00:57:42.920
trust and my faith and I'm putting my sort of my confidence and the things

946
00:57:42.920 --> 00:57:48.280
that have failed me time and time again you know like the definition of crazy

947
00:57:48.280 --> 00:57:52.920
doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results why wouldn't

948
00:57:52.920 --> 00:57:58.160
I just put my trust in the one who's never failed why wouldn't I put my trust

949
00:57:58.160 --> 00:58:03.200
in the one who's never left me and the thing about it is is I know that to be

950
00:58:03.200 --> 00:58:08.600
true but someone else may not necessarily know that about God so they

951
00:58:08.600 --> 00:58:13.000
have to learn that lesson first they have to learn the truth of he never he

952
00:58:13.000 --> 00:58:18.640
never left you he never forsake you he never abandoned you yeah but I feel

953
00:58:18.640 --> 00:58:23.800
abandoned all my family did yeah I know but God didn't and then they have that

954
00:58:23.800 --> 00:58:27.680
moment where they're like oh my god like where they finally opened themselves I

955
00:58:27.680 --> 00:58:32.720
said you know at first I was saying I believe you Lord as a way of like trying

956
00:58:32.720 --> 00:58:39.360
to confess that but then it became a reality because there was this

957
00:58:39.360 --> 00:58:42.960
transformation that happened that God revealed himself to that person and

958
00:58:42.960 --> 00:58:49.720
showed them I never left you other people may have abandoned you and you

959
00:58:49.720 --> 00:58:53.600
may have equated that with me leaving you in your life because you equated

960
00:58:53.600 --> 00:58:58.440
there was such goodness in that person or that experience or that thing or that

961
00:58:58.440 --> 00:59:05.760
thing that you were there were pushed out of but God never left you God never

962
00:59:05.760 --> 00:59:11.280
abandoned you God never lets you just be out on there on your own and say good

963
00:59:11.280 --> 00:59:20.480
luck hope you do well see you in heaven that's not the nature of God that is not

964
00:59:20.480 --> 00:59:25.240
like so so like the work when you talk about what is the work what must I do

965
00:59:25.240 --> 00:59:30.240
this is the question the disciples are asking Jesus what must I do the the work

966
00:59:30.240 --> 00:59:38.600
that you must do is to believe in the one he has sent believe in Jesus believe

967
00:59:38.600 --> 00:59:45.000
in his work on the cross believe in God the Father believe in like take him at

968
00:59:45.000 --> 00:59:55.560
his word when he says I am love believe him and then when the things that are in

969
00:59:55.560 --> 01:00:01.480
your life are not congruent with that

970
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.000
situation

971
01:00:02.480 --> 01:00:04.240
You call it out

972
01:00:04.240 --> 01:00:06.980
They say this is this this does not look like love

973
01:00:07.760 --> 01:00:10.680
God you said you were love. I need the love

974
01:00:11.600 --> 01:00:16.160
This does not look like healing God. You said you were the healer. I need the healing

975
01:00:17.200 --> 01:00:19.200
You said Lord that you were

976
01:00:19.920 --> 01:00:21.680
the provider

977
01:00:21.680 --> 01:00:28.220
That you will provide all my needs according to your riches and glory. This does not look like provision. I need provision

978
01:00:29.220 --> 01:00:30.300
I

979
01:00:30.300 --> 01:00:32.300
Need you to show me

980
01:00:33.020 --> 01:00:38.460
How this works so that I can continue the work of believing in you?

981
01:00:39.380 --> 01:00:40.900
and

982
01:00:40.900 --> 01:00:46.940
from that all of the other stuff begins to be made right and

983
01:00:48.620 --> 01:00:50.620
That is the work

984
01:00:51.740 --> 01:00:53.740
So we can work on ourselves

985
01:00:53.860 --> 01:01:00.460
You can work on doing better you can work on making more you can work on like trying to be nicer

986
01:01:00.860 --> 01:01:02.460
You can do all that

987
01:01:02.460 --> 01:01:04.460
but the greater thing would be

988
01:01:05.620 --> 01:01:07.620
Work on what you believe

989
01:01:09.220 --> 01:01:11.220
Like challenge yourself

990
01:01:11.940 --> 01:01:16.340
Man, what do I believe? What do I truly believe about this situation? What do I truly believe about myself?

991
01:01:16.780 --> 01:01:22.380
What do I truly believe about what I'm going through right now? What do I believe and

992
01:01:22.900 --> 01:01:26.660
Don't be afraid of the wrong answer

993
01:01:29.020 --> 01:01:36.700
That is the most believing part is when you confess I am believing a lie I

994
01:01:38.060 --> 01:01:40.540
Am believing this about this situation

995
01:01:41.420 --> 01:01:46.660
But I know the word or I know somebody's told me that that isn't the way God does things

996
01:01:46.660 --> 01:01:49.700
So therefore I need to work on my belief

997
01:01:50.220 --> 01:01:52.540
Because I need to believe it differently

998
01:01:57.100 --> 01:01:59.980
And that my friends is

999
01:02:01.020 --> 01:02:05.340
a revelation that God has been giving me this week and

1000
01:02:06.540 --> 01:02:08.940
through this difficult time because I

1001
01:02:09.860 --> 01:02:11.860
Don't want to believe any more lies

1002
01:02:12.380 --> 01:02:17.860
About myself. I don't want to believe any more lies about my relationships. I don't want to believe any more lies about

1003
01:02:17.860 --> 01:02:19.860
What's going on around me? I

1004
01:02:20.660 --> 01:02:25.700
Don't want to believe any more lies about what I can or can't do. I don't want to believe any more lies about

1005
01:02:26.340 --> 01:02:28.340
my future

1006
01:02:29.380 --> 01:02:31.380
You know, I

1007
01:02:32.420 --> 01:02:37.020
I want things to be different not because I just did better

1008
01:02:37.940 --> 01:02:41.340
I'm only going to do better based on what I believe

1009
01:02:42.340 --> 01:02:46.140
I'm only going to have increase or have change or have

1010
01:02:46.140 --> 01:02:51.500
A better life because I've just believed something now that I didn't believe before

1011
01:02:52.940 --> 01:02:57.020
That is the power that is the work of the believer

1012
01:02:58.700 --> 01:03:00.700
Is to believe

1013
01:03:02.140 --> 01:03:04.140
And so

1014
01:03:04.140 --> 01:03:07.260
When things are going a little like you encounter something like yeah

1015
01:03:08.060 --> 01:03:10.060
That's not right. I'm

1016
01:03:10.140 --> 01:03:11.900
That's not right

1017
01:03:11.900 --> 01:03:16.240
I'm something i'm not believing correctly about this situation

1018
01:03:17.020 --> 01:03:18.780
There's i'm just not

1019
01:03:18.780 --> 01:03:21.020
Not processing this right? So lord

1020
01:03:22.060 --> 01:03:23.820
What does it say?

1021
01:03:23.820 --> 01:03:25.820
Help thou my what?

1022
01:03:27.640 --> 01:03:29.580
Unbelief

1023
01:03:29.580 --> 01:03:31.660
Jesus literally is praying for you

1024
01:03:32.620 --> 01:03:34.620
That you will believe

1025
01:03:35.660 --> 01:03:36.940
and not

1026
01:03:36.940 --> 01:03:38.860
unbelieve

1027
01:03:38.860 --> 01:03:42.000
That's the prayer scripture says lord help thou my unbelief

1028
01:03:42.620 --> 01:03:44.620
I obviously am not seeing this

1029
01:03:45.100 --> 01:03:52.220
Right. I am not seeing this correctly. There's something that i'm missing. I must not be leaving this believing the right thing. So

1030
01:03:53.260 --> 01:03:58.540
Change change me. I believe you. I trust you. I believe you let that be your prayer

1031
01:03:59.420 --> 01:04:01.740
As he begins to then show and reveal

1032
01:04:02.540 --> 01:04:04.540
Like oh, no, it's this way

1033
01:04:04.940 --> 01:04:08.220
It's it's really not that way like you were thinking this way. No, it's not like that way at all

1034
01:04:08.300 --> 01:04:09.660
It's like this

1035
01:04:09.660 --> 01:04:11.660
You're like whoa

1036
01:04:12.060 --> 01:04:19.500
That is that's life-changing that's different I did not know that I did not understand that I was not convinced of that until this moment

1037
01:04:20.540 --> 01:04:22.060
And now I am

1038
01:04:22.060 --> 01:04:24.060
And i'm going to continue in that work to believe

1039
01:04:25.100 --> 01:04:27.100
Because I want things to be different

1040
01:04:27.180 --> 01:04:29.180
Mike you've got your hand raised

1041
01:04:31.180 --> 01:04:35.580
Go ahead bro, yeah, I I just um, like one of the things that I can tell when I don't have

1042
01:04:36.140 --> 01:04:40.060
I'm not believing something is when I want to take over in my strength

1043
01:04:40.620 --> 01:04:45.660
Yes, like, you know, like I go in and i'm like lord, you know, like I got this, you know

1044
01:04:46.460 --> 01:04:49.020
and it goes terribly right because you know, like

1045
01:04:49.660 --> 01:04:50.780
You know, it's like but you know

1046
01:04:50.780 --> 01:04:53.020
I think one of my questions is always like lord

1047
01:04:53.260 --> 01:04:58.860
What lie am I believing and one of the main ones and it's the first one is that the lord's holding out on me?

1048
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:05.760
Right, like, you know, like, oh, wow, like that. He's holding. I mean, like that. He's not good and he's holding out on me

1049
01:05:05.760 --> 01:05:11.280
Yeah, and I did a thing last Sunday in San Francisco that I knew I was made to do and you know

1050
01:05:11.280 --> 01:05:14.600
The little foxes. I just want to take it back to the little foxes things

1051
01:05:14.880 --> 01:05:20.480
I'm walking up the steps of San Francisco City Hall and the little foxes are running rampant in my mind

1052
01:05:20.760 --> 01:05:26.800
Wow, like my anxiety level is going through the roof, right? And I knew I was supposed to do this

1053
01:05:26.800 --> 01:05:28.800
I knew I was supposed to walk into this thing and

1054
01:05:28.800 --> 01:05:34.080
And you know, but I didn't believe you know what it came down to my belief was that I wasn't worthy

1055
01:05:34.600 --> 01:05:36.400
That I wasn't to do that, right?

1056
01:05:36.400 --> 01:05:43.760
So actually I learned like and then I and then after I got through this whole wrestling match with myself

1057
01:05:44.280 --> 01:05:47.160
You know, it was five and a half hours of crushing it, right?

1058
01:05:47.320 --> 01:05:53.840
But it showed me the belief that I didn't fully believe that I was worthy or that I could do it

1059
01:05:54.040 --> 01:06:00.400
Even and you know, but then I but you know, I I think a lot of times that's our beliefs or I mean immediately was tested

1060
01:06:00.600 --> 01:06:05.480
Right, like, you know, put up or shut. I like you do you really believe what you believe?

1061
01:06:05.480 --> 01:06:08.600
And it was like and I didn't walk it up those steps

1062
01:06:09.280 --> 01:06:14.720
Yeah, but then once I like settled in I was like, no, this is what I'm made to do

1063
01:06:14.720 --> 01:06:18.760
So I guess I just want to like you guys it I try to keep it simple

1064
01:06:18.760 --> 01:06:20.560
It's like Lord, what lie am I believing?

1065
01:06:20.560 --> 01:06:25.360
Like what I I tell him a lot of times like Lord, I'm not feeling like you're I don't feel your love here

1066
01:06:25.360 --> 01:06:30.680
I don't feel I do. I don't feel like you I know you're a provider, but I'm really not feeling it

1067
01:06:30.680 --> 01:06:34.400
I really not seeing it. I'm not and I just have honest conversations

1068
01:06:34.520 --> 01:06:39.360
So yeah, just if you're grabbing on to something it's probably because you're believing that he's not good

1069
01:06:39.960 --> 01:06:41.000
Yeah

1070
01:06:41.000 --> 01:06:44.680
Yeah, no, I I can I can imagine myself in many situations

1071
01:06:45.600 --> 01:06:47.600
Where I'm not

1072
01:06:47.880 --> 01:06:52.320
Feeling right. I'm not feeling like I'm doing good, right and

1073
01:06:53.640 --> 01:06:56.600
I'm having a bad bad mindset. I'm having

1074
01:06:58.560 --> 01:07:05.320
Whatever I'm dealing with and I want to like dig down inside of me to bring out a fix in that

1075
01:07:05.320 --> 01:07:10.640
Like why can't I like the first question is why can I do this? Why can I why am I this way?

1076
01:07:10.640 --> 01:07:14.080
Why am I you know, you're asking myself this question

1077
01:07:14.760 --> 01:07:18.920
You know, so I'm looking within me to find the reason that it's wrong as

1078
01:07:19.960 --> 01:07:21.720
opposed to

1079
01:07:21.720 --> 01:07:24.000
like what Mike is saying like

1080
01:07:25.360 --> 01:07:29.680
Asking what is it that I'm what is it? I'm believing that needs to change

1081
01:07:30.320 --> 01:07:34.200
So that I can be the change in this situation

1082
01:07:35.680 --> 01:07:39.240
So it takes the pressure off me, I don't know I don't know about you

1083
01:07:40.080 --> 01:07:45.160
Guys, but I just you know, like the all the works thing is like hard

1084
01:07:45.160 --> 01:07:50.720
I don't like it. Like some people are like just totally like driven by that like, oh, yeah

1085
01:07:50.720 --> 01:07:55.040
I'll just like work the crap out of it. I'll just do this and I'll do that and like they love it

1086
01:07:55.040 --> 01:07:59.880
I just I hate it. I cannot deal with religion. I just and I

1087
01:08:00.400 --> 01:08:02.000
Been religious a lot of my life

1088
01:08:02.000 --> 01:08:03.240
I'm not saying you know

1089
01:08:03.240 --> 01:08:04.640
It's like that's like me

1090
01:08:04.640 --> 01:08:10.000
Like you got to do this and you got to do that and like just stop it with the doing I'm not gonna do it

1091
01:08:11.320 --> 01:08:15.680
Even if you tell me even if I know that it's right. I'm not gonna do it. I'm just not

1092
01:08:16.560 --> 01:08:23.000
Because why because you're telling me to do it. Remember I'm rebellious on the inside. I don't want to do it

1093
01:08:24.240 --> 01:08:27.120
Frickin stop telling me to do better

1094
01:08:27.760 --> 01:08:29.760
Because I'm not gonna do it

1095
01:08:30.160 --> 01:08:36.000
It's not until I convinced of something that is true that I'm able to go, you know what

1096
01:08:36.560 --> 01:08:40.720
That actually is true. Like that is just that's the better way to do it

1097
01:08:41.560 --> 01:08:44.560
That's what I'm gonna do. It is when I believe it

1098
01:08:45.920 --> 01:08:47.920
Does that make sense?

1099
01:08:48.359 --> 01:08:50.960
Hey, I think Abraham's feeling Abrams feeling me

1100
01:08:52.040 --> 01:08:57.540
that last thing you said kind of um rings true for me like right now because I'm kind of like

1101
01:08:58.300 --> 01:09:02.779
One of the words that a word that I got through the prophecy night

1102
01:09:04.260 --> 01:09:06.500
Was that I'm hiding

1103
01:09:07.540 --> 01:09:13.300
yeah, I think that's kind of true because I really am like I just don't go out and

1104
01:09:13.859 --> 01:09:15.859
mingle with people even

1105
01:09:17.660 --> 01:09:21.700
It's like, you know at this point it's like even if I want to go

1106
01:09:22.700 --> 01:09:24.020
and

1107
01:09:24.020 --> 01:09:27.460
Have community like I don't even know where to go anymore

1108
01:09:29.420 --> 01:09:31.420
So it's like

1109
01:09:33.300 --> 01:09:35.300
Yeah

1110
01:09:41.060 --> 01:09:43.060
You're muted

1111
01:09:44.060 --> 01:09:46.020
You're muted

1112
01:09:53.580 --> 01:09:57.820
So sorry about that I said you're talking I was Jackie's calling me she's like, hey, I need to talk to you

1113
01:09:57.820 --> 01:10:00.980
So I need to go talk to you because this is what I experienced

1114
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:03.460
my wife, but the scripture that comes to mind Romans 12 to

1115
01:10:01.940 --> 01:10:05.940
When you used to look up and over anything

1116
01:10:04.200 --> 01:10:06.760
Do not be conformed to the pattern of this world

1117
01:10:06.580 --> 01:10:08.500
and you'd hear a bad child

1118
01:10:07.600 --> 01:10:12.360
But what be transformed by the renewing of your mind?

1119
01:10:08.500 --> 01:10:11.700
Or hear something that wasn't as scary as you or something

1120
01:10:13.320 --> 01:10:16.600
If you renew the mind you renew what it is that you believe

1121
01:10:17.600 --> 01:10:22.000
you don't end up being conformed to the pattern of this world and

1122
01:10:22.960 --> 01:10:24.960
The pattern of this world isn't just sin

1123
01:10:25.360 --> 01:10:31.560
It's everything the pattern of this world sin is the precipitation of the wrong thinking you understand that right?

1124
01:10:32.160 --> 01:10:36.840
You understand that everything in this world everything. It's the patterns of this world

1125
01:10:37.440 --> 01:10:39.320
government business

1126
01:10:39.320 --> 01:10:41.320
you know like

1127
01:10:41.360 --> 01:10:46.620
Society social things all the stuff. It's all corrupt. You understand that right?

1128
01:10:47.360 --> 01:10:52.920
It's just all corrupt our food supply. I mean like people like highlight things are all food supply scrub

1129
01:10:52.920 --> 01:10:57.160
Yeah, well everything's corrupt like it doesn't matter like I don't know what you're thinking, but it's like everything's corrupt

1130
01:10:57.880 --> 01:11:02.240
Like there isn't anything that's just like oh now. This is that's a so the beacon of righteousness

1131
01:11:02.240 --> 01:11:09.720
No, and most of our churches the corrupt. It's ridiculous to think that anything has any sense of

1132
01:11:11.040 --> 01:11:15.480
Authentic like the only thing that is true is God

1133
01:11:16.600 --> 01:11:21.520
In the life of a person who is letting God that is the only thing that's true

1134
01:11:23.280 --> 01:11:25.280
And that's what that's actually really powerful

1135
01:11:26.320 --> 01:11:32.520
Because we want to put our faith right again talking about belief. We want to put our faith and our trust in things

1136
01:11:33.760 --> 01:11:39.440
That don't have the ability to stand up to the level of righteousness that we're trying to put on it

1137
01:11:40.960 --> 01:11:46.280
We're trying to put faith in an institution or some sort of thing or some sort of person or some sort of process

1138
01:11:46.640 --> 01:11:48.640
or some sort of

1139
01:11:48.640 --> 01:11:50.400
right and

1140
01:11:50.400 --> 01:11:55.880
It's just ridiculous because it's like there isn't anything out there. That's going to match

1141
01:11:57.040 --> 01:11:59.040
the authenticity of

1142
01:11:59.920 --> 01:12:01.040
Heaven

1143
01:12:01.040 --> 01:12:04.320
It's just not so why are we trying to do that?

1144
01:12:04.840 --> 01:12:06.480
You live through life, and you go okay?

1145
01:12:06.480 --> 01:12:09.960
This is what I've got to deal with and then I'm trying to do the best

1146
01:12:09.960 --> 01:12:15.360
I can trying to vote the best I can I'm trying to operate the best I can I'm trying to like work in the

1147
01:12:15.360 --> 01:12:17.040
Best way I can

1148
01:12:17.040 --> 01:12:22.760
But from me I have to operate from a position of who am I and who is God in me and

1149
01:12:23.240 --> 01:12:30.320
That is the only way we're going to not only survive, but be successful in our life

1150
01:12:31.400 --> 01:12:32.800
period and

1151
01:12:32.800 --> 01:12:34.440
That's it

1152
01:12:34.440 --> 01:12:38.900
All right, so I'm gonna wrap it up there guys because it we're over and I got to go

1153
01:12:38.900 --> 01:12:42.280
My wife is like I love you, but I need you so I

1154
01:12:43.640 --> 01:12:45.240
will

1155
01:12:45.240 --> 01:12:51.760
Abandon you and I will go see her. Love you guys. God bless you. Merry Christmas to you all