All right.
So, as we're starting to talk about what is the broken heart, I felt like it was really
important for us to look at that first before we start to process wounds from our mothers.
We'll touch slightly on wounds from fathers and authority figures as well, but God did
highlight mother wounds for me and my spirit for all of you today.
And so here we go.
Trauma doesn't just hurt us, it creates different versions of us.
So I want you to be thinking about right now, over the years, what are just some situations
that come to mind for you where maybe you were there, but you felt like you had to hide
a part of yourself or that you couldn't really be your full self.
Maybe you went to a party and you just, you really wanted to be outgoing, but you felt
a lot of fear.
Maybe you wanted to try out for a play and you know, you would have really loved to sing,
but you were too afraid or shy, you know, you were labeled as shy, but here's the reality.
So many people, I'm not saying this is the case for everyone.
I'm not saying everyone was meant to be an extrovert, but there are some people that
have partnered with I'm shy because they shut parts of themselves down as a protection mechanism
when they were hurt as a child long ago, or even over the years.
So where has trauma not just hurt us, but caused there to be different versions of you created?
What is your broken heart leading you into?
That's not a part of your true identity.
What is your broken heart leading you into?
That's not a part of your true identity.
The identity God gave you is what I'm talking about.
So the day that he formed you, when he created you originally with all of his original thoughts
and mind, the fullness of God's plans and promises for you before trauma or wounds or
pain ever entered our lives, who is that?
Who is that?
And we don't always know, but we can ask the Lord to continue to show us or to continue
to help us to step into the fullness of his plans and promises for us from the beginning
of the day he created us.
We know in the book, as y'all are reading through it, if you're not there yet, it's
okay.
You'll get there.
There's a part of the book where it talks about how the enemy, Satan, who is the Lord
of the flies, he's known as Beezlebub.
He goes in and he like basically plants eggs inside of, you know, the, these broken open
sore areas.
And I'm just going to read that real quickly because it's so good the way she wrote it.
Flies serve a purpose in the decomposition process of organic materials.
However, knowing this nickname of the enemy, Beezlebub, Lord of the flies helps us understand
how our heart wounds get infected with these lies.
What flies do is they find an unhealed wound, a sore or someplace of decomposition, and
they lay their eggs inside of that place.
They do this so that when the eggs hash, the larvae will have an unlimited food source.
So I want you to kind of think about the wounds in your heart, the trauma, the places
of unforgiveness that you're still kind of harboring, the bitterness and the resentment
that you've been struggling with and understand that these places are places that the enemy
will always try to go to and plant more eggs, plant more lies, plant more misunderstanding
about God, yourself and others.
These unhealed heart wounds, traumas and rejections become an ideal place for the enemy to sow
his seeds.
Our hearts are fertile wounds.
So everything that's planted in there, you all, is going to get reproduced.
It's going to come out whether we want it to or not.
And so if we have a lot of brokenness in there, that's where we're going to see that show
up.
Now, some of you might be thriving in some areas of your life, but then other areas,
you're just not thriving at all.
Understand that that can be true.
You also can have layers of healing that you've done successfully, but there might still be
something down in there that that stronghold is still connected to because it's down further
underneath the surface and God is the one that supernaturally can bring us understanding
and revelation to that, that can finally help us dislodge from that area we've been stuck
in.
Has anyone ever felt like you go around the same mountain over and over in any area of
your life?
I know that I used to relationships in my life.
I had other areas going well, relationships and finances.
I kept getting stuck in the same area, stuck in the same areas.
I was like a broken record.
And I was like, what is going on?
I know I'm a good person.
Why do I keep attracting these men that betray me, cheat on me, steal all these different
things because I'm like, why is this happening?
And I had to finally stop and ask the Lord
to show me what I couldn't see
so that I could heal and be set free
and move forward and attract healthier people,
healthier friends, healthier men, everything,
healthier work environments, the whole nine yards.
So here is what the broken heart is.
It's a liar.
So the broken heart is full of lies.
It's a puzzle.
So it's all messed up.
We say we want things that we don't really want.
We eat food that we don't really wanna eat
because we're sad and we're stuffing those emotions
because we don't wanna feel.
We just wanna numb out.
Sometimes we binge watch TV
and we keep watching and keep watching.
Why?
Why do we do that?
Sometimes it is just to relax,
but y'all sometimes it's because we're hiding from pain.
Okay?
The broken heart is also a pretender.
How does the pretender show up?
Well, what kind of mask do we put on?
What area of our life do we show up in
where we project this identity
that we got it all together.
We have to be perfect.
We have to be the perfect mom,
the perfect sister, the perfect employee,
and we can't make any mistakes.
And we've got it.
And y'all, I like cute clothes.
So when I say this,
I don't mean anything like we can't have cute stuff,
but sometimes some of us want the car that looks amazing,
the purses, the clothes,
and we've got it all together on the outside,
but our inside is breaking and it's sad and it's lonely.
Or we believe that God is blessing everybody else but us.
So we have all these masks
that we need to come out from underneath of
so that our true identity can actually emerge,
our confident self.
And some of us, we struggle with insecurity,
fear, doubt, unbelief.
We struggle with actually having confidence
in God or ourselves,
but we are trying to fake it till we make it
because our society tells us that's the way we should do it.
Y'all, that's not how we should do it.
Am I saying that I always have known every way
to lead in my life?
No, and I've always done my best,
but I can tell you that from the point I'm at now,
leading from a healthier, more confident place
where I'm at peace on the inside of my soul
more than I've ever been
is definitely more freeing than where I used to be.
I was just doing the best I could do.
So we don't shame ourselves for what we used to do,
how we used to live,
but we get greater revelation now
so that for the rest of our life, everyday forward,
we can keep becoming more free, more whole, happier,
more full of actual supernatural joy,
unspeakable and full of glory that the Bible talks about.
Okay, Jeremiah 79 says this,
the heart is deceitful above all things
and desperately wicked.
Who can know it?
Who can know what that heart is full of?
Proverbs 4.23 in the ESV says,
keep your heart with all vigilance
for out of it flows the springs of life.
Our hearts are very impressionable.
So if you think about the things in your life
that you went through and just think about the fact
that when they pushed down on your heart,
they made an impression.
So what impression is still there?
We want God to come into these areas.
And so in order to do that, you all,
one of the things we have to do
is I want you to right now,
even if you have a piece of paper,
if something comes to mind all throughout today,
if anything comes to mind,
even if it doesn't make sense to you,
or you're like, I don't think I'd even hurt my feelings.
If anything comes up, any image, any memory, any phrase,
just write those things down
because those are things that the Holy Spirit
is bringing up for you to pay attention to, okay?
What I was gonna say is,
when we go through these things and our heart is all broken
and we've got all these lies on the inside,
the puzzle, the pretender, all these things are happening.
What often happens is we erect
what I call do not enter signs on our heart.
Y'all know when you're driving and it says do not enter,
that means we don't go there.
Well, we put those up on our hearts
and we're keeping God out, we're keeping other people out.
And it's not even something we're doing
like consciously sometimes,
but the brokenness in us has erected those signs.
And so I wanna encourage you all right now,
just really ask the Lord,
do I have any do not enter signs?
Do I have any areas of my heart, Lord,
where I'm like, yeah, I'll deal with that stuff,
but Lord, I'm not dealing with that.
I've already done that work.
I'm not going back there
or I've never wanted to go into this part of my heart
because it is too painful.
There's so many different aspects to this ladies.
And I want you to know that if the Lord is nudging you
to go there during this time,
He's doing that out of his love for you.
Because he doesn't want us to remain in brokenness
and these half, like where we live half alive,
you know, where we're just kind of like
zombying through this world and this life.
We're showing up, but there's a part of us
where we just don't feel like the light is on.
Does that make sense, everyone?
All right.
So for those of you that have processed pain in your past,
maybe you've done different programs,
maybe you've worked with a counselor,
here's what I wanna encourage you about.
Even if you've worked through something before
and God brings it up now
when you're in this HeartWork program,
I wanna encourage you that it's coming up for a reason.
It doesn't mean you have to go all the way back
through every single thing that you processed before,
but I just want you to ask the Lord,
is there anything that you're trying to show me
about this that's new information?
Or is there something I missed before?
So it's kind of like, I call it peek up under the hood.
I don't want you to be afraid
that you have to go back all the way through that trauma.
Now, some of you may have to,
but for those of you that don't,
don't feel afraid to look at something
just because you've processed it in part before.
We know in part and we see in part, ladies.
So we process as we go.
Forgiveness happens in layers and so does healing.
One of the things years ago,
I kept having very similar memories coming up
and I remember just feeling so frustrated,
like I've forgiven this before.
Why is this still coming up?
And the Lord just said, Bethany,
forgiveness happens in layers.
And as I kind of sat with him about that,
he was just showing me that he wanted to show me
something new about that situation
because before he showed me what I could handle then.
Now I had healed and grown more
and now I was in a new season, a new place,
and he could show me a little bit more of information
about that situation so that I could heal even more.
He will reveal things in due season out of his love for us,
not because he's withholding from us,
but because he knows what our heart can handle.
Okay, he does.
All right, we're gonna keep going.
As you're thinking about those, do not enter signs.
I just even want you just to right where you're at,
just invite the Lord to start coming in to those places
to help you have the grace and the courage
to take those do not enter signs down,
especially as we continue into the content today
and in the days ahead.
You guys need these signs to be down all the time,
but I just want you to be real open.
All right, so I want you to think about some lies
that you might be hearing
because of the brokenness in your heart.
And these are not like you might hear other lies.
This is just to get you started,
but these are some of the ones that I have felt led
the last few times I've led this session to bring up.
Lie number one, you are insignificant.
Definition of insignificant is not significant,
lacking meaning, not worth considering, unimportant.
Did someone ever tell you that you weren't important?
Kids can be there, but you don't need to be heard.
Have you ever felt like you don't matter
or someone said to you something that caused you pain
that led you to believe the lie
from the enemy that you don't matter?
Here's the, you should be seen and not heard.
That's the verbiage I was looking for.
Maybe your lie that you're believing is you're not enough
or maybe your lie is you're too much
because those tend to partner together
and play off of each other.
The enemy loves to get people in,
you're too much, you're not enough.
This back and forth thing that we get caught up in.
Lie number five, your opinion doesn't matter.
Here's another one, your heart doesn't matter.
Your needs, your wants don't matter.
Lie number six, you're always going to have to beg.
So this is where that orphan mentality
and those heart postures come in,
where we believe that God's blessing everybody else but us
and we just have to work and work and work and strive
and we're gonna miss out because,
it's whether we realize it or not,
there's this posture in our heart
that when we got neglected, abandoned
or forgotten in some way as children,
and even as we began to develop over the years,
we partnered with orphan mindsets and mentalities
that cause us to function and operate in our life
from that place, that heart posture.
What's the one?
Nobody likes me, everybody hates me,
guess I'll go eat worms.
Is that right?
That just came up in my spirit.
So that's why I'm bringing,
like we used to recite this stuff when I was a kid.
I'm like, when I think about that now,
why was that something that,
which again, I know literature in schools,
they introduce all different kinds of things,
but kids like, we kind of hung on to that stuff, didn't we?
We, that stuff sticks in your spirit.
And so if, if I can remember that now, all these years later, all those years,
somewhere deep down in there, that was still in there.
Nobody likes me.
Everybody hates me.
Guess I'll go eat worms.
What?
No, you are likable.
God loves you and you don't got to go eat no worms.
Cause God's going to put you at the banquet table because you're his daughter.
You're a princess and a couple of weeks for those of you that are brand new.
Some of you that have been here a few weeks, you know, we did the princesses
awakening and the tiaras.
We got the tiaras to come out.
We'll be doing that again in a couple of weeks.
But sometimes ladies, the heart posture is what needs to be healed first.
Cause if we don't believe that we belong at the table, even if God, he's already
pulled the chair out for us, it's already there, but we disqualify
ourselves and we actually internally believe we don't belong there.
Because at some point along the way, somebody told us that we didn't.
And a lot of times it's the enemy's voice through the voices of other people and
the trauma and the things we've been through.
But there are times where some of you have actually had things said to you.
Like nobody's ever going to marry you.
You'll be a terrible wife.
I hear it all the time.
Y'all have been coaching this for over three years.
Can't tell you how many times people have said that their parents or people in
authority, their uncle, you know, sisters, people just said hurtful things.
And then we believed them and we partnered with them because we
were broken and it hurt us.
Here's another lie.
If they really knew me, they wouldn't accept me, love me or choose me.
Some of you believe this.
When you meet good men, you feel like you, if they really knew what I've been
through, some of you believe as single moms, well, you feel like you're coming
into this situation already, like in the negative, because I got a kid who's
going to want a kid and I know, I know even speaking it out, some of you're
like, Oh, I feel that I feel bad that I feel that, but I'm bringing it to the
light because you struggle with it.
So let's just talk about it.
You're not coming in from the negative.
Your kid is a blessing.
You're a blessing.
And when you find your spirit mate, he will know he's found a good
thing in you as well as your kid.
And I can tell you that from experience, I'm a spiritual mom to two girls.
I am a step-mom to a son from my former marriage.
I absolutely have loved those kids like they were mine.
And if I can do it, I know God can enable men to do it.
And I see it all the time.
My husband does it with my spiritual daughters.
So I want to encourage you if they really knew you, if they are healthy
people, they will love you.
They will choose you.
They will affirm you.
They will accept you.
And you know what?
They'll partner with you and relationship, friendship, whatever it is.
Okay.
So all of the lies that I listed out today, I did those on purpose because
they all point to having low self-esteem.
In some way, shape, or form.
If it's not low self-esteem, it tends to be not understanding our value
and worth or the pauper orphan mentalities that I talked about.
Those are kind of the three categories I touched on with the
lies that I brought up today.
The truth is, is that I'm going to talk just even regarding money right now.
We can have enough to give away all of the time.
We don't have to be a lender or I'm sorry.
We don't have to be a borrower.
We can be a lender, but it starts in our heart, whether or not we believe
that if our heart is healed, you know, if you grew up in a lot of, you know,
where your parents were always struggling financially, everything they
had to say about money was negative.
There was a lot of fear around money.
You know, you lost a lot of things, or even, you know, for me, when I
was married my first time, we had to move out of our house.
Like, I can't tell you how many times, cause my husband kept losing his job.
Um, some trouble that he got us into, um, genuinely, uh, that I had no part of lost.
My car got repaid twice.
Electricity was turned off.
Y'all that feeds when that stuff happens, whether we realize it or not, if the
brokenness of the past, when we grew up with our parents struggling, wasn't
healed, that just created an additional stronghold for those lies that I was
already believing to become stronger.
Because I absolutely felt like, wait a minute, God, I'm doing
everything I know to do for you.
Why is this happening?
And I blamed God for things my husband back then.
my former husband now, ex, what he was doing, I was projecting onto God
my pain from what my ex was doing. Do y'all understand? Yeah. And that's really common too.
God was actually protecting me and providing in so many ways that whole time. But when I was in
the midst of it, I was so focused on the pain and victimhood. My mindset was I'm a victim.
And so it was very hard for me to see right back then, like in those moments, how God was there,
how he was orchestrating things, how he was protecting me. He was providing a way out for
me. God came on a rescue mission for me. He came searching for me. He was there all along,
but I just didn't know it. I mean, I had a close relationship with him, y'all. It's not like I
wasn't close with God. I talked to him all the time, but again, my brokenness in these areas
caused me to not see him correctly. Okay. All right. I'm going to give you a couple of scriptures
and then we're going to do our first breakout session. Proverbs 12 49, a wife of noble character
is her husband's crown. Do you believe that you're the crown of your future husband
and not in a prideful way, but just like you're a blessing to his life?
Maybe you don't even know that you're a blessing to your own life and your own being,
let alone anybody else. Ephesians 1 5 says in love, he predestined us for adoption to
sonship through Jesus Christ in accordance with his pleasure and will.
Isaiah 43 4 says, since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you,
I will give people in exchange for you, nations in exchange for your life.
God's saying, I'm going to, because I love you, I'm going to, I'm going to go and I'm going to
give all this money and I'm going to give nations and stuff because that's how much he wants us.
Luke 12 7 says, indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid.
You are worth more than sparrows. Here's your breakout question. Number one, for those of you
that are joining us for the first time, when I get the breakout set up, you'll see a pop up on
your screen to join the breakout. Want to encourage you all. You're going to get into a room with
someone you might not know, but guess what? After today, you'll know them. Okay. And for those of
you that have a lot of fear around that one, encourage you to come out of hiding. Trust that
God has led you here at this time on this day for such a time as this to have the conversations
that you're going to have in these breakout sessions. I can't tell you how many people
get breakthrough even from the conversations in the breakout rooms. Okay. So stay fully engaged
and open and let's see what God wants to do. Here's the question. What lie have you been
believing that you need to invite God to come into so that you can heal? I'm going to, I'll
say it again for you. Okay. What lie have you been believing that you need to invite God into
so that you can heal? Okay. I'm going to set these breakouts up. I'm going to keep it
kind of short and sweet today. So keep it short, brief and powerful for me. Okay. Ladies,
I'm going to do two to a room and let's do, let's see, we're at 137.
Let's do five minutes. So that'll give each of you two and a half minutes to say what lie,
if you have extra time, you can say where you're from, what led you to the community,
but talk about the lie each one of you first. Okay. All right, here you go. I'm praying for
you all while you're in there. Go ahead and click to join those rooms. If there's anyone
that's not joining a breakout today, cause you're at work or some reason,
please put that in the chat for me. So I know to move people around.
Okay. Here we go.
you
Hi Stephanie, I can put you in a room. Um, hi, so sorry. Uh, let's put you down in room eight. They're talking about
Um, what lie have you been believing that you need to invite God into so he can heal it? Okay. Awesome
You
For those on the replay when you're seeing this just want to encourage you
I just realized I forgot to press pause so you have that blank time, but hopefully I'll take time
To process those lies that you've been believing as well
Would love to have you put those in the community chat group
So we can respond to you there and help you unpack those lies that you're maybe battling and struggling with as well
So just want to encourage those watching the replay to do that. Welcome back ladies. We'll have everybody here
Back with us in about 28 seconds. It looks like some people are still chatting in their group
Perla nice to see you
Welcome. Is this your second week? I can't remember. I'm on
Third going into fourth. Okay. Awesome
nice
Welcome welcome. All right. We have like seven seconds and then everyone will be back
Okay, here they come hello, welcome back so good to have everyone
I'm just going to do, yeah, there we go. Perfect. There we go. All right, so who is willing?
Well, probably just because I have a good amount of content for this second topic,
I'll probably take maybe two to three, and then I'll see kind of where we're at on time,
because sometimes some coaching takes a little longer than others, so we'll just kind of play
it by room, okay? Go ahead, and if there's anyone that is willing to share with the whole group
what you shared in the breakout. Okay, awesome. Amy, I see you. Amy W.?
Yeah, I think especially when it comes to marriage, I've not been married before,
but yeah, and hope to be someday, but yeah, I think it's, you know, I keep thinking, okay,
I need to fix this and fix this, because I'm very aware about issues and growing and learning,
and I'm all for that. I love processing and working through things, but yeah, the lie can be
where, you know, I'm not good enough, and yeah, and just I have to keep working on this, and then
I'll be ready to get married, you know, and then God will send someone, because I need to do these
steps first, yeah. What are some things that you love to do for fun? I like outdoors, and I like
traveling, and I like movies, and yeah, just going out to eat, hanging out with family and friends,
yeah. Those are good things. Do you have a hard time being silly?
It depends who I'm around, like if somebody's silly, it just like brings it out of me
more. I work with little kids, you know, preschool, so I can be silly with that, so.
All right, so do you feel like when you're around men that you are able to be silly and laid back
and have fun, or do you feel like you feel more like you have to have everything in order
and kind of have all your- I probably feel more reserved, yeah. Okay, so here's why I'm asking
those questions. As you were talking, I just heard the Lord say, tell her to have fun.
Cool, sounds good. Sometimes learners, I'm a learner myself, sometimes we can get into
learner mode, learn this, learn that, and this is what's going to make you prepared.
And at the end of the day, if we're always in that place, we really take less time to just
cut up and have fun, and then we get around guys. Guess what guys like? You don't have to not live
good, but they like women that can have fun, that can kind of cut up, that can be adventurous.
It doesn't mean we have to be who we're not, but the reality is that if we come out of that place
a little bit and understand that we can have fun too, and there's balance that's so key. So
to me, I remember the first time someone was like, they were doing this
lesson and they were talking about all these different levels of living a really full,
abundant life and fun, like an adventure was one of the things. And I remember when I took
that assessment, that was like the thing I spent the least amount of time on,
but I always wanted to do more of it. And the more my heart healed, the more I was able to just kind
of be myself. I remember on one of my first dates, I'm not joking. I can't tell you exactly what we
were talking about, but it was kind of goofy. And the guy, I could just tell he did, like,
he was so kind of put together and reserved. He couldn't just kind of cut up with that either.
And so he was a nice guy, you know, and that was still a good interaction, but it was one of those
kind of moments like, oh, like he doesn't know what to do with this kind of quirkiness and
silliness that I'm letting come out here right now. He didn't like mistreat me or anything like
that, but I recognized it. You know what I'm saying? And so I think it's super important for
us to understand that sometimes it's not that you have to do another thing.
That is so good. Really good. Thank you.
I want to encourage you to ask the Lord specifically for you. And you know,
if this is resonating for some of the others, I would encourage y'all to do this too,
but I would encourage you to say, Lord, like, what are some things I need to do to just have fun?
And are there any things that are very childlike from when I was younger that I can activate
and let the silly childlikeness come out in me?
I don't know why this is coming up,
but I don't know if this will resonate,
but even like finger painting, you all.
You know, as adults, we're like,
oh, don't get it messy, you know?
I mean, some artists are like, yeah, they, you know,
but if that's not your lane that you're in normally,
like we kind of want it neat and, you know,
we don't want to go outside the lines.
And I just hear the Lord saying like,
he wants you to kind of venture
outside the lines a little bit.
Okay, and so ask the Lord
kind of what that looks like for you.
Again, it's not you becoming something that you're not.
This is about the little girl you kind of coming up,
healing more and coming out to play.
Yeah, a sense of humor is important for me to like,
in a finding a mate is having a similar sense of humor
and I can have a goofy sense of humor.
So I really appreciate you saying that.
Cause yeah, I think I need more freedom
for that to come out.
Yeah, and so to encourage you, yeah.
And so on the flip side,
y'all I've been married over two years now
and my husband is like way more,
he does dad jokes all the time.
Sometimes they're funny, sometimes they're not.
I know he can hear me right now,
but so we have a lot of fun is what I'm trying to say.
We cut up, I scare him all the time.
He doesn't always like it when I scare him,
but I love it when I do.
And I crack myself up, you know?
And so I think that's what I just want you all to hear
is that what you've experienced in the past
doesn't have to be what you experienced in your tomorrow.
And as you let who you really are come out to play,
if you're on a date and somebody doesn't really like that,
that doesn't mean you have to stop being that person.
Living who you are is going to help you
attract a healthy spirit mate.
Yeah, so good.
I can't wait to hear kind of what comes out of that
for you, Amy, and appreciate you sharing.
Is there anyone else that feels led to share today?
Awesome.
Is Allegra?
Is that right?
Yes, yep, that's me.
Awesome, go ahead.
Similar to Amy, I was saying that I'm not being good enough.
And I think that stems from like,
even from like sports in class,
being the last to be selected, not being selected,
with peer groups not being selected.
And it's like, okay, I'm not good enough.
So let me withdraw.
Let me not even put myself in situations
where rejection can happen.
So tell me what it was like when you were little.
Were you shy?
Were you afraid to interact with other kids?
No, I wasn't.
I was very, I would say outgoing,
but I wasn't like the sports type.
I was heavier as a child.
And so I think that carried through.
I went to a great high school, all girls high school.
So confidence was there, but still like any,
now I see like in co-ed situations, it's like withdrawing.
So even at church, like in group settings
where there is a man like withdrawing, not saying much.
Yeah.
Okay, so for you, what I would say here is
especially because it seemed like God's highlighting
the co-ed stuff with you,
I want to encourage you to ask the Lord,
when is the first time that you were in a situation
with co-ed boys and girls,
where you felt like you needed to withdraw and pull back?
Okay, and just want to make sure you all know
when you're doing this process,
you just, whatever comes up first,
for now, you're going to take that as,
okay, this is the first thing, okay?
Now, if you're not,
if you're still feeling like there's more to that
and we'll coach you over that more and more,
but that's where then you would say,
okay, Lord, you brought this up.
Like, what do you want to reveal to me about this?
And then you would just ask him, is this the root?
Is this the first time?
Or was there another time
that this kind of similar thing happened
where I was with co-ed and I pulled back?
And also, did I ever pull back
when my mom and dad were both present?
You know, I just felt like that came right up.
And so-
I did.
Okay, so tell us about that.
What did that look like for you?
I think, I love my dad.
My dad is like one of my favorite people,
but I think even then he was very reserved.
And so I would pull back
and I always wanted my father's approval.
So it's like, okay, let me just come into the image
that dad says it's acceptable.
Okay, so were you too loud or something?
Oh yes, my dad always told me.
He said, oh-
You talk too much.
Girl, you talk too much.
You were too loud.
And so I would shut down and I said,
Lord, I'm gonna start talking to you.
And so, I mean, that was good
because it opened up a prayer life to this day.
But at the same time, it's like,
I was told those things
and that I wanted to respect my dad.
So pull back.
Yeah, so now what I'm gonna encourage you to do
is I'm gonna encourage you to come back out of there.
Okay.
Because here's the thing,
while it does, I don't, you know,
and this is a thing.
And even as we go into the mother wound stuff, ladies,
we can have really great parents,
but everybody has brokenness on some level.
And so if we're not healed,
we're showing up and doing things and saying things
to our kids through that brokenness,
or, you know, dad could have been tired.
Dad could have been stressed.
I mean, there's so many factors.
I mean, I've made mistakes,
even with my like stepson, my spiritual daughters,
like we all make mistakes and say things or do things.
But the reality is, is we can be good parents.
We can be amazing parents,
but if something we do or say causes brokenness
or causes our children to shut down in some way,
then that still happened, right?
So we still need to heal from those things.
So if you felt like, even like that,
I would write that down
and ask the Lord to reveal, like, did that cause you pain?
You know, were there ways where God wants to come into that
and invite you to come back out of that box, so to speak,
that you went into?
Because I almost wonder too,
I mean, you seem like a really great verbal processor.
It doesn't seem like you're afraid to talk in public,
but I do wonder if you're around co-ed men,
do you not talk as much?
Do you pull back?
You know, again, as you explore this with the Lord,
just kind of write down any kind of images,
words, phrases, memories, anything that comes up,
even if they don't all make sense, ladies, we record,
we write it down and we ask God
really good questions about it, okay?
Yes, thank you.
And let's just see, yeah, you're welcome.
Let's see where he takes you.
Because I do feel like, and the other thing I'll say
is come out of agreement and partnership
with the lies you're never selected.
Okay.
Even though that actually happened,
you have to first come out of partnership and agreement
with nobody picks me, nobody wants me.
Because those are the lies that we tend to believe
when we're not picked, when we're not selected.
And it is hurtful, right?
Right.
But when we come out of partnership and agreement
with those things, man, we just,
we will start showing up differently, ladies, we will.
We will.
So good.
Yes, this was so good.
Thank you so much.
You're welcome, thank you.
All right, because I have so much content on the next thing,
I'm gonna go ahead and shift into that
because I don't want you all to miss out on this
because I really do believe God has some divine appointments
for you all today.
All right, so healing from mother wounds
and we're gonna talk,
like you can apply this to father wounds as well.
I am gonna speak more from the mom perspective today.
You can also apply this to,
I felt led to include authority figures.
This could be people at school, people at church,
people at work, anyone in authority over you
that did or said something at any point in your life
that caused you harm or pain, okay?
All right, so as we start to go into the mother wounds,
I just, I'm gonna kind of be asking some questions.
Again, I want you guys to,
if it's in your phone or on your paper,
just write down anything that comes to mind as we go along.
So my first question for you is this,
where do you currently struggle to receive love?
Where do you currently struggle?
And this can be with anyone.
It could be in regards to anything.
You know, is there any kind of situations that happen
where like kind of we're talking about even with Allegra
where you pull back or you kind of pull in the reins
and you don't show up as your full authentic self
and maybe you don't feel as open to receive the love
that somebody else is trying to give you?
Here's the next one.
What wounds from the past with your mom, dad,
or people in authority over you still need to be healed
so that you can receive love more freely?
What?
Questions one more time, I'm so sorry.
Oh, that's okay.
Yeah, and I'll try to put some of these up
in the group for y'all too as you're processing.
The first one is where do you currently struggle
to receive love?
Okay.
The second.
One is, what wounds from the past with your mom, dad,
or people in authority over you still need to be healed
so that you can receive love more freely?
And ladies, you might know in part today, okay?
So this is something that I want you
to kind of have a continual conversation
with the Lord about today is just the starting point.
So don't feel like you have to list everything.
It's just what anything that comes up in your spirit today.
The next one is, are there areas you have walls up
and rebel against God?
Because when you were younger,
you chose a path of rebellion
with your parents or authority figures.
That one's kind of long.
Are there areas you have walls up and rebel against God?
Because when you were younger,
you chose a path of rebellion
with your parents or authority figures.
And I wanna make sure y'all understand,
rebellion isn't always like outward rebellion.
Rebellion is also this internal heart posture, okay?
And so we can rebel and have disgust
towards our parents in our spirit.
We can have this attitude like, I don't care what they say.
Like, you know, cause if we're mad about the brokenness,
or even again, if you had a great, you know,
you grew up in a great family,
there's most likely this has shown up in some other realm
because the enemy is always trying to bring breakdown
in relationship and connection.
And he always wants us to feel like an outsider.
He wants us to feel like nobody ever loves us.
Nobody chooses us.
So maybe you're trying to get a promotion at work
and you know, it's just not happening.
And so you start to feel rebellion towards your boss.
This can happen in church too, you know?
Somebody has an idea or they want to do something
and they're casting vision.
And you're the person that's just resistant to that.
Cause no way, no way, no way.
My idea is better.
This is the way we should go.
It shows up in all kinds of ways, ladies.
But rebellion is something that really holds
a lot of us back.
And again, some of you might've acted out on that rebellion,
you know, in different ways.
It could have been even in your marriage.
Maybe things were being withheld from you.
And so you decided to have an affair.
I don't know.
I'm just saying like this rebellion in our hearts
has led us astray.
And so where has that shown up for you?
God loves you so much and he doesn't want you to continue
to feel separated from him because of mistakes
your parents or those in authority made that hurt you.
So today, the point of why I'm going into this,
God wants you to know that he wants to be connected to you.
He loves you and he wants to take,
if you could imagine two chasms and there's a space,
there's a big space in between,
that's kind of like what's been created over the years,
but God's wanting to kind of remove that chasm
and bring connection back into what's existing
between you and him, first and foremost.
I know a lot of y'all came in for the spirit mate,
but the spirit mate's the cherry on top.
Your love relationship, your intimacy with the Lord
and connecting with him is first and foremost,
most important.
And out of the overflow and the abundance of our love
and our understanding of his love for us
and that communion with him,
that is when we shift into becoming
more of our authentic self, okay?
As we also heal, of course, that's a huge part of it.
Okay, here we go.
We're gonna keep going.
You may feel like you were emotionally rejected,
abandoned or orphaned in some way by your parents.
God does not want to leave you in this condition.
His heart is calling out to you today.
Neglect can look a lot of different ways, ladies.
My mom was a single mom, four kids,
and I do think with the knowledge and information she had,
she did her best.
I think that she could have looked for more help,
but because of the brokenness that she was raised in,
she was taught to not seek out help from other people.
There was a lot of pride in my mom's family.
And so my mom didn't a lot.
She did some, but not in a lot of ways.
And that really did kind of ripple effect into our family.
But I'm saying that to say, when my mom was a single mom,
at one point, my brother, my mom, my brother,
and my oldest brother and my sister
were hit by a drunk driver.
And both of my siblings were hurt very, very badly.
My brother ended up having,
once he came out of the coma,
they took him to a rehab in a totally different city.
My sister was at a different hospital.
At the time this happened, I was in fourth grade.
My mom was gone a lot, you all.
Did my mom mean to cause me to feel neglected and abandoned?
No, but that's how I felt.
And there were a lot of other things
even before that thing happened
that really fed into that more and more and more.
But I just wanted to put that out there
because my mom was trying to parent the best that she could
in that really tough situation.
And unfortunately, I was the baby.
I was the one that kept getting shipped to my friends
or shipped to this person.
And I had a good time with my friends,
but ultimately I spent a lot of time alone, okay?
So I believed growing up, I'm alone.
I'm not a priority.
I'm not enough.
My dad left.
He abandoned us.
He went and chose another family.
So I'm just, I know I'm stirring up a lot today.
I'm kind of stirring the pot quite a bit.
And so I want y'all to know,
I wanna be there for you in the group this week.
If this is hard,
let's process it together throughout the week, okay?
I'm gonna give you some scriptures.
Psalm 27.10 is the first one.
Though my father and mother forsake me,
the Lord will receive me.
I'm gonna say that one again.
Psalm 27.10.
Though my father and mother forsake me,
the Lord will receive me.
Psalm 68, five through six A.
I'm just doing that first part of verse six.
It says a father to the fatherless,
a defender of widows is God in his holy dwelling.
God sets the lonely in families.
He leads out the prisoners with singing.
John 14.18 says, I will not leave you as orphans.
I will come to you.
So were there times that you felt alone?
Did you feel like you were neglected in some way?
Maybe you felt loved again in your family relationship,
but maybe you have felt like
there's a lot of authority figures
who never let you move forward.
Whatever that is,
I wanna encourage you to not partner with orphan
or that you're abandoned,
where you have roots of rejection,
that you would invite the Lord to come into those places
and heal the lies and the trauma and the wounds
so that you no longer believe that you're rejected,
but you're chosen.
We're a royal priesthood.
God chose us from the foundations of the world.
He sent his son to die on the cross
for our forgiveness, for our healing,
but also to make a way for us
to be in relationship with Jesus
as he is in relationship with the Father,
which also means we get to be in relationship
with the Holy Spirit,
who is our comforter, our counselor, and our guide,
who's here and is an ever present help
in every time of trouble.
He takes us by the hand if we let him
and he'll walk with us and he'll talk with us.
That is the God that we serve.
That is the God that is in heaven above,
but also comes down.
He sent his son in the form of a man to relate to us.
Do you know that Jesus calls us his friend?
These are endearing terms, ladies.
Endearing terms are said not just for fluff.
I know our world throws the word love around
just like, I love this person, I love that, I love this.
And we do, we really like a lot of things,
but I would even encourage you all
to really kind of consider
how often do you use the word love
when maybe you need to reserve that
for what you really do love.
Does that make sense?
All right, I'm gonna keep going.
No matter what type of mother or father you've had,
no matter how deeply they may have wounded you,
God's unconditional love will always remember you.
No matter what type of mother or father you had,
no matter how deeply they may have wounded you,
God's unconditional love will always remember you.
Isaiah 49, verses 15 through 16 says this.
Even these may forget, but I will not forget you.
Behold, I have inscribed you on the palms of my hands.
Moms are known for what's called storage love, okay?
Storage love are these kinds of things.
Affectionate touch, eye contact, tone of voice.
When moms are healed and healthy
and they walk in the femininity of God,
because God is both masculine and feminine,
women who walk in that will have these natural ability
to show affection, to make eye contact.
Contact, yes, ladies.
For those of you that struggle to make eye contact,
that's a sign of the divine feminine
that's struggling in your life, okay?
Confidence in who we are that comes from healing
and also our tone of voice.
Do you ever struggle to get sharp with people?
Maybe you, you know, kind of just critical, judgmental,
you know, the guys are never good enough.
That all comes from us not having balance
and not being healed in our divine feminine
really being not fully present, okay?
But when that's all there and moms are healed,
and it doesn't mean we have to be perfect, ladies, okay?
Remember, we're becoming.
We can make mistakes, but men and women of God
who are healed and healthy and whole,
when we make mistakes,
y'all, we'll do our best to make it right.
We'll even apologize to our kids
if we do something that's not healthy.
We'll humble ourselves and we'll seek forgiveness.
My husband's like so good at it.
He'll apologize to me all the time
if there's something that he feels.
And sometimes I'm like,
you don't need to apologize for that.
That was me, you know?
And so I think it's really good
when we walk in that humility and that forgiveness
that we would keep short accounts.
The Bible talks about that as well.
Here's the thing, when we grow up without the storage,
storage, I don't know how you say it,
but it's S-T-O-R-G-E is how it's spelled.
When we grow up without that present with our mother,
okay, so that's that nurturing,
that connector type of vibe that you get from your mom.
When they look at you with love in their eyes, right?
That adoration that they have of you as their kid.
When we grow up without that stuff,
it can cause a deep inherent fear of relationship.
Okay, but here's the good thing.
God is here today and he wants to help you heal.
And he wants to help you break free
from the fear of relationships
that you've been battling with.
And some of you have gone into overdrive
and you're a people pleaser, okay?
Because when you grew up,
you felt like nobody was ever happy with you
or you believed the lie that nobody was.
And so you're like in overdrive.
You're trying to make everybody happy all the time
and you have no boundaries or very little boundaries.
Okay, and so we wanna kinda let God come
into all these places today and heal
and bring us further into balance,
bring us further into the divine feminine
and heal the wounds.
Again, we're not judging our moms.
I'm not bringing these things up, ladies,
about our moms, our dads, or these people in authority
so that we become angry and bitter.
I'm bringing them up so that you can choose
to forgive and heal.
One of the ladies that just, she just moved into phase two,
we had a session that wasn't exactly like this,
but we did kinda start talking about asking God
to show us the gold in other people.
It doesn't mean we have to not recognize the things
that aren't healthy.
It doesn't mean you have to go back
into toxic relationship with people,
but y'all, if we see the gold in people,
we will have compassion for them.
I'm gonna give you an example from my own life.
As I even have been processing some things
God has been bringing up, even this past weekend
regarding my parents, my mom and my dad,
God brought two different things up
over the last few days for me.
And as I was leaning into all of this stuff,
and that's what led me to deliver this to you all today,
I just was like, you know what?
I don't even know how I was born.
Like as far as, you know, naturally or C-section,
like I knew my dad left when I was born,
but like, was he at the hospital?
Was my mom there alone?
Like there were just all these questions
that started surfacing for me because I didn't need,
I don't remember anything below six years old
and no one ever really talked to me
about some of those things.
And so I reached out to an aunt who I feel close to
and I felt safe to ask some of those questions.
And y'all, I found out that my dad was not at the hospital.
My mom was there alone.
And my heart was breaking for her the other day
because I can't imagine being a mom of four
and my baby, my littlest is born and dad's not there.
That would be hard, right?
So did my mom make a lot of mistakes over the years?
Yes.
There were times that she was actually
really mean and manipulative.
But one of the things my aunt said to me
that also was very healing, she said,
You were your mom's pride and joy.
I was like, what?
I was?
Because I didn't feel like that.
Now, I don't know when or if that, you know,
at what point did that change.
I'm not saying that my mom wasn't proud of me.
But I'm saying that her harsh words and her tone
and her glares over the years, they were hurtful.
But I want you all to understand, hurt people
hurt people.
My mom was broken.
Does that make it OK?
No, but can I stand today and have
absolute compassion for her?
Yes.
And that's where I want all of you to get.
And you'll get there a little bit at a time.
This is a process.
I've been in process regarding my parents a long time.
And I feel like every time God brings something up,
it gives me a whole new layer of compassion for both of them.
OK?
All right.
I'm going to now stand in the gap on behalf of your mothers.
That's what we're going to do next.
And what I mean by that is I'm going to, if you will let me.
Now, I know I'm not your mom.
That's not what I'm projecting to you.
But what I am saying is I believe
God wants to help you all forgive your moms in a way
that maybe you haven't in the past.
And the way that I feel like we can start to usher that in
is I'm going to stand in the gap on behalf of your mom.
Some of you, your moms have passed away, like my mom.
And they can't apologize to you anymore.
And so how do you heal that?
Well, someone can stand in the gap and say, I'm sorry.
And so that's what I'm going to do.
And I just want to encourage you, if you need to cry,
if you don't, it's fine.
But if you feel tears, please don't hold that stuff back.
If you are afraid to let people see you cry,
you can go off camera.
But I do want you to acknowledge, OK,
why do I feel like I need to hide if I cry?
I wasn't allowed as a kid to cry.
I don't know exactly what happened.
But I remember feeling like I always
had to go to the garage or behind our garage
if I ever needed to cry.
So it was very apparent to me growing up
that I wasn't allowed to express emotion.
I think I got told I was too sensitive.
You're too sensitive.
No, I was actually broken.
And so that's where some of you have been in your life as well.
And so I want to encourage you to learn how.
And sometimes it's hard for me even as a leader.
I hope you all don't feel bad for me when I feel emotion.
It's just that this stuff is raw and real for me too.
But it's good because then I can give it to you like real time.
And hopefully it helps you today.
And so we're going to do that first.
So I'm going to stand in the gap on behalf of your moms.
And again, if this more resonates regarding your dad,
I'm not a guy, so I can't stand on behalf of your dad.
But you can receive it in that same way.
Just receive it how you need to receive it, OK?
All right, so I'm going to pray.
If you want to keep your eyes open, you can.
I'm going to speak some things.
And we're just going to see what God wants to do.
And then we're going to kind of go on from there.
So I just want to say to all of you,
this is what God put on my heart to say is I apologize
on behalf of your moms for the harm
that they have done to you in any way,
including harsh words that were spoken over you,
ways that they belittled you, layers
with eyes that were made where you felt like they were never
happy with you, loss of connection over the years
when you ran to them and wanted a hug,
but they turned you away because they were too busy
or they were angry or they were upset about something,
when you made a mistake and it wasn't received as a mistake,
but it was more that you just couldn't get anything right
when you needed love and hugs.
And I was, as a mom, I was dealing
with my own wounds, my own insecurities, and my own fear.
And so I struggled to express love to you openly.
I'm sorry for how I wounded you and I caused you pain.
I'm sorry for the times that I basically
minimized your importance.
Will you forgive me?
Will you forgive me for the times
that I wasn't there for you, when
you had a play or some kind of sports event
and you were looking for me in the crowd and I wasn't there?
Yeah.
Will you forgive me for the times
that even now, as an adult, I've criticized you,
I've caused you to feel like you never measure up,
and that you are never going to figure this marriage thing out?
Will you forgive me for the times
that I wasn't there for you, when
you had a play or some kind of sports event
Will you forgive me for the words
and you were looking for me in the crowd?
and the things that I've said
Yeah.
that have caused you to feel condemned,
Will you forgive me for the times
shameful, guilty in any way?
that I wasn't there for you, as an adult,
I've caused you to feel like you never measure up,
I love you.
God loves you.
and that you are never going to figure this marriage thing out?
And I want us to heal and move forward.
I just kind of went with it, Lori.
You might wanna go back and listen to the recording.
So as you all are kind of processing this,
and for some of you, maybe this isn't resonating at all,
and that's totally fine.
But for some of you, I think that it is,
and I just wanna give you a few, like a minute,
I'm gonna set kind of a timer.
I wanna give you a minute just to process.
Like what are some things that came up for you?
What are some things that you heard in your spirit
even as I was doing the apology?
Was there any kind of vision?
If you didn't already have it, you can ask God,
is there anything, God, you wanna show me now?
So I'm gonna just kind of be quiet for the next minute,
and I'm just gonna let you all process some of that stuff
and write things down, and we're gonna start now.
Thank you so much for helping us to heal.
God, thank you that you're coming into every area
of our hearts, our minds, our bodies,
our spirits, and our souls.
And you're releasing healing from heaven over us.
God, thank you for helping us to have courage,
to choose to forgive.
Lord, help us to have compassion,
to see the gold in other people, to see the gold in ourself.
God, I thank you that you'll help us to partner with you
and come out of alignment and agreement
with the lies that have been spoken over us
through people in authority over us.
We thank you, God, that you would continue to redeem
and reconcile relationships where we've been needing
and wanting connection and healing.
God, we thank you for supernaturally manifesting change
and transformation in hearts, attitudes, mindsets,
relationships.
Yes, Lord, shut the mouths of lions
where sometimes they rage against us through our parents,
through those in authority.
God, I thank you that you would help us
to hear your voice louder than any other voice
and that we would hear it as a voice of love
and not judgment.
God, correction is you loving us.
But God, we thank you that you're removing filters
and these lenses and these things that we hear
and see life through that don't cause us
to see you correctly.
We thank you for helping us to step further
into freedom today.
We thank you for helping us to unpack the heart boxes,
the things that are coming up even today,
that as we, yes, Lord, we thank you for Sab,
just an anointing of Sab from heaven.
God is coming and he's placing it upon your hearts, ladies.
And Sabs back in the day,
they were used kind of very medicinal.
They had properties in them that could bring
really, really strong healing.
And so I just feel like God is wanting you to know,
like the balm of Gilead is talked about in the Bible.
If you wanna actually have a scripture,
you can look that up.
But that was used for a purpose for like medicinal healing.
And so God comes in and he wants to place
that balm of Gilead upon every part of our heart,
our mind, our body, our spirit, and our soul.
He wants us to be whole.
And so I pray a lot and I thank God
for making me completely whole, lacking no good thing.
So I wanna encourage you to partner with that
in the days to come.
I also felt led to, for all, let me see,
raise hand, who are my moms in this room today?
Who are moms?
All right, let's see.
I see Kim, I see Lori, Jenny, anyone else a mom?
Got a couple, okay.
So here's what I felt led to do as well.
Moms in our current program that have maybe,
maybe you guys have close relationships with your kids
and that's awesome if you do.
But for those that might, if you're not,
if you don't have broken relationships with your kids,
maybe people that are watching the replay,
I do want.
I include this in here for the moms here, if you've ever
struggled with treating your kids in any of the ways that we
prayed through today, regarding the ways maybe mom has, or dad
or someone in authority has mistreated you. If that's
something that you struggle with that God wants you to choose to
forgive yourself today. To forgive yourself for the times
that you might have spoken harshly or quick, or maybe been
really overwhelmed with life or whatever is going on, and maybe
your kid was wanting love and affection and connection, and
you rush them on or just put them in front of the TV or
whatever the dynamic is that you would forgive yourself. I want
to like activate all of you. Even if you're not a mom, let's
just kind of be activated in, let's come out of agreement and
alignment with these things that are more not a part of the
divine feminine. What areas, ladies, do we need to become
more soft to lean in and partner with the divine
feminine, the nurturing aspect, the affection? Is there anyone
in your life right now, you can put this in the chat, that you
struggle to connect with them in that kind of nurturing, loving
way? Yeah, Lori. Lori, what I would do is go back and kind of
listen to that replay. Unfortunately, just write it
down. I wrote some on my paper, but then I closed my eyes and
kind of kept going. And so I don't have the full thing. So
that's why I would say go back and do it that way. And
sometimes you can have those recorders where you record and
it'll dictate it for you. So that might even be quicker for
you. But yeah, anyone else, anyone else feel like you have
anyone in your life where, you know, you just shut off that
nurturing, soft, affectionate parts of yourself with them?
Let's see those in the chat. Hey, Arianna, I see you there
too, being critical, struggling with that. And a lot of times,
ladies, if we're critical with other people, it often starts
with us being critical of ourselves. Did you all know
that? Hatred and self like criticism of others starts
internally, self hatred, self loathing, being critical of
ourselves. So there's most likely revealing for healing
that needs to happen there as well. All right. Now I'm going
to read another thing over you all. Okay, this isn't an
apology. But this is just more of a prayer. Okay. And this is
more like, from you to mom. Okay. So as you kind of consider
and listen to this, I just want you to consider like, and you
may not feel all these things today, but I believe it's going
to help you kind of take a step towards them a little bit more
today. Mom, I needed your comfort and expressed love so
much. I didn't realize just how much I needed it until now. But
mom, because of your own emotional crisis, you weren't
always able to express to me the love that I needed. There were
times when I needed to hear tender tones in your voice. But
instead, your words pierced my heart. There were times I needed
to see in your eyes that you love me even when I failed in
your eyes. There were times I needed to be drawn to the
comfort of your bosom and be held but you weren't there. Mom,
I forgive you for all of these times because you did not know
what you were doing. You were too hurt and wounded in your
youth. I forgive you for not knowing how to express love to
me and the way that I needed it. I forgive you for not knowing
how to take me in your arms and provide that place of safety
and comfort. I forgive you for your inability to open your
heart to me in a way that would cause me to believe and trust
fully in your love. I forgive you for your inability to
provide me with the affectionate touch, the loving eye contact
and the nurture in your bosom that I so needed. I release you
from any resentment or bitterness. I honor you as my
mother, the woman who gave me life and brought me into this
world. Thank you for this gift of life. I commit myself to walk
in an attitude of love and forgiveness towards you from
this day forward. Now I'm going to read one to God because we're
not just reconnecting with moms today, we're reconnecting with
God today. Father God, I come to you longing to experience your
comforting mothering heart. You are the only one who can meet
the deepest need for storage love in my life. I bring my
earthly mother to the foot of the cross and release her from
any wounds and pain she has caused in my life. Please
forgive me for any resentment or bitterness I may have harbored
towards her and help me to walk in forgiveness and love towards
my earthly parents. I confess that I've turned to counterfeit
affections rather than to you to seek the storage love that I needed to fill the void in my heart.
Some of the choices that I have made have been wrong and I repent from any impure thoughts,
fantasies, or lusts that I have allowed to breed in my mind and my emotions.
Forgive me for not trusting you to meet all of my needs. I come to you now,
lay my head on your breast, and rest peacefully knowing that you, God, love and care for me. In
Jesus name,
amen and amen.
Y'all, I know this was a lot,
this was a heavy one today, but in a good way, in a good way.
And so what I'm going to encourage you to do, we always do activations, okay? Every single week we do activations.
And so what I would like to see in the group this week is a post regarding
your mom, mom or dad, or authority figure, whoever that fit for you today, that you are forgiving,
that you are forgiving. And
if there was something like a memory that came up for you today that you're processing, you can include that in there as well.
And we're going to really lean into
all of that with you as a community, that God's going to continue to help you heal
and thrive fully alive in 2025. It's going to be an incredible year, ladies.
And it's so important for us as we keep moving forward to
make sure that we don't have these pockets of bitterness and resentment that are hiding in there, right?
And so
thank you for your courage today as you kind of let me do this a little different.
We normally do another breakout session, but I really just felt led to keep you all here to do those prayers over you.
If you need to go back and listen to those prayers again, the replay will be up in the group tomorrow.
So that'll be there for you.
So again, what you're going to do in the group, the activation is,
you know, what are you going to do to forgive mom, dad, or an authority figure? And like, what are you forgiving them for?
Okay, that's the activation for this week. So I want to encourage you all to put those in the phase one
in the app group. You just create a post and put that in there.
And if you have a picture that of something that represents that for you and you want to include that with your post,
you can. If you just want to do text, that's totally fine as well.
So a picture could be like just something that you see that makes you think about what you need to forgive.
Or it could be something that you, if you're an artist and you like to sketch or draw, you can do that.
If you don't want to do any of that and you just want to do text, that's totally fine.
The point is to activate and take quick action on it. Okay?
All right, ladies, we love you. We look forward to seeing you in the group. It sounds like
Jackie might be live tonight.
If something comes up, I'll be there. But one of us will be there tonight at 8 p.m.
Don't feel like you have to join.
But that will be recorded as well and in the replay tomorrow also. Have a great day, everyone. Bye.
Thank you.