Good evening. Welcome to Monday night phase one live session. Hello, hello, hello. I know
people are joining us right now. Good to see you all. So glad to be back tonight. Hello.
I'm going to wait for a minute for some people to join us. I know some people are still logging
in. Welcome. Is anyone, I'm looking at names. Is anyone new for the first time? You've never
been to any of our live sessions before. So put that in the chat for me so we can welcome
you. I'll kind of circle back to that again. Hi, hi, hi. Welcome. We have a bunch of people
kind of rolling in right now. So I want to plug Supernatural Saturday as always. I think
it's important to draw some attention to that. Jackie talked a lot about God wanting
us to live fearlessly. And what does that look like? And how do we get rid of fear and
partner with faith? And so I want to encourage you all, if you haven't listened to that,
definitely listen to it. And even if you've heard it before, maybe even listen to it again,
even while you're driving or something this week, because we need to get these truths
in our spirit, even myself included. And I want to apologize in advance. You all have
a cough drop in. I'm going to do my best to not cough on you all tonight. But so that's
kind of, I'm navigating that a little bit while I'm trying to do the live session with
you all. But even for myself, when I was listening on Saturday, and I was writing my list of
the fears that the enemy had been popping up in my spirit, even so subtly, some of them,
for those of you that don't know, and just so you know, when I put this, I'm good. But
the same day that I got sick last day, last week ago, Friday is the same day my father
passed away. And interestingly enough, as soon as that I started getting sick, and that
happened, there were just these little fears popping in about having to go see my family
because I don't have a good relationship with them. And especially my brother's wife in
particular out of all of them. And what am I going to do if I'm still sick, and I don't
want to get better and then go on this trip and get sick again, and all these little things
that were creeping their way in. And so I just want you all to know it happens to all
of us. And so when we recognize those fears, remember even a couple weeks ago, false fear
is false evidence appearing real. So the enemy is trying to create anxiety and fear and all
this stuff in areas where some of that stuff will never even happen. Some of that stuff
will never even take place. But if we're thinking on those things, and aligning with them and
partnering on, you know, with that and meditating on it, well, guess what it's feeding in my
spirit, negativity, fear, and then I go into that situation already from a posture of,
you know, lack of authority, lack of peace, and all these other things, or praise Jesus,
I can let God use that word to get rid of the fear and also lean into Okay, wait a minute.
The truth is that God goes before us in every situation. So he's already gone into that
situation before I get there. So the same applies to you all. So we can walk in situations
confidently knowing that God will give us everything that we need. In every moment,
he's already ministering in that situation. And he's prepared for me to come and meet
him there and receive the provision of that. And so I want to encourage you no matter what
you're going through in your life right now, God has the provision already there for you,
even in your heartwork process. You know, when the days come where you feel overwhelmed,
ladies, because it will come there will be days where you feel overwhelmed with the process
of healing with the things that God is revealing. But I want to encourage you to not partner
with overwhelm but partner with Okay, who's the solution provider in the midst of the
overwhelm, the Lord is, and he will help you shift out of overwhelm and shift into victory
and overcoming power. You know, the dunamis power comes straight from heaven, you all
the same power that rose Jesus Christ from the dead is living in us, and it's available
to us. So it's up to us to tap into that on a daily basis throughout every day. And so
just want to encourage you, whatever your fears are, God wants to meet you in the midst
of those as well. Hello, all the ladies that have joined since we started chatting tonight.
Let me know if you're joining for the first time. Want to welcome you and just let everyone
know. Oh, hope your first live session. Welcome. I miss that. I'm Bethany Cooper. I'm one of
the heartwork coaches in this community. Y'all will see a lot of me for now. You'll see me
throughout the community as well if you all choose to continue into the other phases,
but God is so good and I'm
I love being here in HeartWork with all of you and just continuing to do the race that's
set before us in Phase 1.
So I want to just touch on a couple things.
Best practice for the HeartWork journey, if you're new, best practice is one week of content
per week, ladies, okay?
We don't want you binging the book, binging the videos, or any of that kind of stuff.
Here's why.
Our spirits need time to process.
We need time for the stuff that we're learning to come in and percolate, if you will, in
our spirit to allow God to have the space to do the work, to reveal the areas for healing
that are needed.
If we're flying, even if you think about driving on a road, if you fly down a road that the
speed limit is 25, well, guess what, A, that's dangerous, and B, you might miss some things
along the way.
Don't we notice things more if we actually go the speed limit?
So many times, that's so true.
So I want to give that tangible example.
Also pressing pause on dating, connecting on apps with men or in person while you're
in HeartWork.
Why do we encourage this?
Because ladies, so many times, people that try to date while they're in HeartWork actually
get distracted and off course almost every single time.
Am I saying that's going to happen for everyone?
No, but a lot of the time, that is what happens.
So we want you to stay focused.
You are your best investment.
So the time you put in now is going to benefit you later on, and you will not miss out on
your spirit mate if you press pause on dating for this five weeks or six weeks, however
long it takes you, and invest in your heart healing.
Most of the time, it actually accelerates people's process later on in different ways.
Some people really go into a lot of healing that's needed regarding their job and careers
and all kinds of stuff.
For those that are asking how do we move on to phase two, well, A, number one, if you've
actually spent five weeks in here, then you can email the admin team and move forward.
But please don't email them or ask us to move forward if you've only been here for two weeks,
ladies.
I've had a couple people asking that recently, and one of them was only here a week and a
half.
Y'all, there's no way.
I love you.
You can tell me all day long that you've got everything that you need, and you're good,
but I lovingly don't believe you, okay?
So stay here, stay for five weeks.
Let's see what God wants to do, and we're going to have a lot of fun together.
If y'all will come into community and connect, if you're done, circle back and do it again.
If you're done with the heart work really fast, go back and do it again.
Start in week one, come in and get to know your sisters in the group, connect in community,
and it's going to be a good time.
Let me pray for us.
And we're going to dive right into our content for tonight.
Father, thank you so much for this night, God.
We thank you for every one of the ladies that are in heart work right now, God, that are
here live.
Those that are going to watch the replay, God, we thank you for the supernatural release
from heaven that they're going to experience tonight through your power, through your presence,
through coming together in community, positioning their hearts to receive all that you have
for them.
Lord, we thank you that you would bring things out of darkness into the light.
Lord, bring truth and revelation to areas of bitterness, unforgiveness, resentment,
any kind of anger or wrath or malice that we have held on to in our hearts, where we
have believed that we even at times, it's okay for us to hold on to it because of what
someone else did or said, but Lord, help us to surrender every one of these areas completely
to you.
Lord, help us to truly open our eyes and our hearts and our minds, our bodies, our spirits
and our souls to the truth of heaven tonight.
Help us to see ourselves through your eyes a little bit more.
Holy Spirit, we thank you for your presence here.
We ask you to weave in and out of our conversations through the teaching that you would give every
woman exactly what they need right where they're at.
God, you know, every story that's represented by every name in this community, in this group
and you know what they need in this exact moment in time of their life.
So Lord, we thank you that you're doing a great work.
Even as in the book of Nehemiah, God, that they were doing a great work, that they would
not come down off the wall until the wall of the temple was finished.
So Lord, even remind ladies tonight that as they stay dedicated to this process, God,
as they stay committed to the healing work, God, that you would transform them from the
inside out, that you are doing a great work in them.
And we just thank you in advance for all that you're doing and all that you are going to
do in Jesus name.
Amen.
Ladies, we're going to talk about forgiveness tonight and God's promise.
is, I'm so excited to talk about this topic. I want to encourage you no matter if you are
just know that you know that you know things about forgiveness, don't check out on me, okay?
Because there are some things even this afternoon, it was really awesome. I actually said to the
ladies, just keep an open heart and an open mind because I believe God wants to say something
to you specifically about forgiveness today. And I actually had two women testify.
One had just come off of a retreat to actually two different women. One was,
you know, an intensive kind of very deep kind of healing retreat. And another one was a four-day
retreat. And both of them were kind of like, they admitted they they're kind of like, I don't know
what else God could, you know, do because they just came out of this thing. And both of them
got revelation on an area that they really needed to lean into forgiveness. So I want to encourage
you stay really open and let's just see what God wants to speak to you about. Sue, thank you.
Love you all and appreciate that. All right, so I want to talk about forgiveness and the importance
of why we do it. Not only does the Bible declare that we should do it, but why do we do it? Why
is it important? I like to use this example a lot because I think it makes people laugh a little bit
or think about good things too. Well, if you had fun in elementary school, did anyone play tetherball?
Anyone know this game? Okay, some of you know the game. So if you had fun playing this game,
then this will bring good memories for you. If you didn't have fun playing this game, maybe it won't.
But I love this example of a tetherball game because I think a lot of people can relate to it.
But basically there's a pole with a rope and a ball attached to it. And you attach the rope to the pole
and the kids will stand and they'll hit the ball back and forth. And that's the part I remember.
I don't remember all the rules, but the reason I like this example is because literally the only
way for that ball and that rope to get removed from the pole is for someone to remove it because
it clips on there. And I want you to think about forgiveness in the sense of when we don't forgive,
we are tethered, connected to the pole. We're connected to the rope. We're connected to the
trauma. We're connected to the people that are associated with that thing. When we don't step
into forgiveness, that is what causes, like we literally remain bound to them. How many of you
all don't want to be bound to people or situations where they've done something to harm you in some
way? Or maybe even you did something and you haven't forgiven yourself and you just feel
really bound to that situation. And you're wondering why you keep going around the same
mountain over and over and over again. And it all tends to go back to whether we realize it or not
subconsciously, it's going back to areas where we need to forgive, where we need to let go of
bitterness or the desire for vengeance. And y'all, I've been there. I've prayed those prayers
genuinely. I have. God, bring vengeance upon them in that situation. And I don't, you know,
even David prayed things like that. I think in our flesh and in our feelings, sometimes that is
the genuine way that we feel. But when we allow God to come into our hearts and heal us and we
choose to forgive, that kind of stuff starts to move on out of our heart. And God makes room
for the new and the new is forgiveness and reconciliation and peace and redemption. Does
that mean we're going to enter back into relationship with those people?
Not necessarily, but we have to be willing to be made willing to forgive.
When we forgive people, we release them and we also release ourselves. So I want to encourage
you tonight. I want you to just be asking the Lord as I'm continuing in this content,
Father, is there anybody that I need to forgive tonight? Is there anyone even, you know, Lord,
is there anyone even years ago that I don't remember that they did something to me and I've
forgotten about it, but it's impacting my soul in ways I don't even understand or comprehend.
Is there anyone Lord that I've been stuck in bitterness or offense or unforgiveness towards?
As you're thinking about those, I want to give my sunglass example. I haven't done it for a
little while because I kept forgetting to do it, but I love this example as well.
I want you to be thinking about brokenness and filters that are created through unforgiveness.
Okay. I think it's just a funny, silly story. So I like to tell it. So if I have these sunglasses on,
they're the kind that tend to
to make the room look a little bit pink, okay?
So it's got the extra UV stuff in there.
And this one day I was at the beach with Brian
and we were sitting there and I was like,
man, those clouds are so cool.
They're like orangish pink.
And he's like, what?
No, they're not.
They're white.
And I was like, no, they're like peach, like over there.
And I kept trying to tell him where I was looking
and what I was seeing.
And it didn't dawn on me that I was seeing that
because I had my sunglasses on that show me that color.
I know, I know.
I'm really smart y'all, but sometimes connecting the dots
in my mind, that is what it looks like.
And so what I want you to understand
and the reason I'm using this as an example
is because when we have unforgiveness,
it changes the way we see things.
It changes the way we show up in the world.
It changes the way we interact with people.
This is a lighthearted example,
but I do want you to understand it literally can taint
and change the color of everything, if you will.
So I want you to be thinking about in your life,
how many times have you shown up around somebody
and not shown up as your true authentic self
for one reason or another?
Maybe it was because you felt insecurity around them.
Maybe because they are someone that did something
or said something that hurt you and you never dealt with it.
Maybe it was someone that, you know,
you just are really not even sure
why you feel the way you feel,
but you feel yourself holding back,
putting up walls or whatever the case may be.
Unforgiveness impacts our ability to truly connect ladies.
Okay, we can show up and we can be in relationship,
but a lot of times unforgiveness,
it's like, we'll try to connect with people,
but like, it ends up going like this.
There's no, it like really doesn't allow us
to come in close.
And the Lord wants us to be able to come in close with Him
as well as other people.
As the book, The Heart Work talks about,
and I'm just gonna read this briefly.
It's talking about the blind spots and the filters.
And this is what it says.
When you walk into any situation,
it doesn't matter what it is, bad or good.
You don't see that thing, that place,
those people the way that they are.
You see them the way that you are on the inside, okay?
We don't see things, I'm gonna repeat it,
the way that they truly are.
We see them the way that we are.
For instance, say you were severely hurt
by a group of people, you can insert a church,
you can insert a person there, whatever the situation is.
They mistreated you, lied about you and then discarded you.
The heart wounds and lies that were created
as a result of that trauma will give you
a skewed perception of groups in the future.
You might avoid groups or communities of people
like the play, convincing yourself that they are all bad.
Women do this with men a lot.
They categorize men and all men are bad.
Whether they're saying they wanna meet a man,
but internally they've partnered with the lie
that all men cheat, all men lie, all men fill in the blank.
Sometimes going on, it says here,
you might try again to search for community,
but if you do decide to join a similar group in the future,
your most significant obstacle to belonging
will be the filter that was created
by your prior experience.
I know that some of the ladies in here in our group
have shared that they went through church hurt
or they were hurt by other women in authority.
We've been talking about that in the sessions.
We've been talking about that in the group board.
And I wanna encourage you all, if that is you,
the enemy is gonna really war against you
connecting in this community.
He'll try to convince you that if you share something
and you open up, it's gonna turn out
exactly like it always has.
I wanna encourage you to turn away from that
because the enemy is a liar
and he's just trying to get you into isolation
instead of leaning into community.
Hurt in community, healed in community, ladies.
Hurt in relationship, healed in relationship.
And as you stay and you lean into relationship here,
God will heal things in ways beyond
what you could ever ask and think or imagine.
And Denise, I just realized that it was you
that was asking about phase two.
I know you've been here for five weeks.
So girl, just email admin at JackieDorman.com
and we can move you along to that.
Matthew 22, 39 says this,
love your neighbor as you love yourself.
And so my question for you tonight, and a lot of you are going to say yes right away,
I'm going to already say it.
If I say, do you love yourself, we're going to be like, yeah, I do, I do, because we do
to the best of our ability.
But what I want you to actually ask yourself is, do you like yourself?
Do you like you?
Not just put up with yourself, but when you're alone, do you enjoy spending time with yourself?
If not, there's that's something that we need to look at.
Why?
Why not?
Why don't we enjoy ourselves?
A lot of people don't understand that self hatred on the inside subconsciously is impacting
even the way that you're showing up by yourself when you're with yourself.
And then that's impacting the way that you're showing up with other people.
Because again, it says love your neighbor as you love yourself.
But if we don't love ourselves, how are we going to be able to love the other people
around us?
Forgiveness is not a feeling, it's a choice.
I want you all to understand there's going to be a lot of times you're not going to feel
like forgiving.
You're going to actually feel the opposite.
You're going to feel like you don't want to, but it's, it's not a feeling that we have.
I will give you this.
Sometimes there is going to be that big supernatural release.
You're going to feel amazing and you're going to, it's just going to be an experience supernaturally
that you have.
Okay.
But most of the time, most of the forgiveness choices that I have made on my journey, I
have not felt some big awesome release.
It's been a choice, a choice to forgive, a choice to humble myself.
Even sometimes when I don't think the person should be offended, but they're offended because
I know my heart, but you know what?
Not everybody knows our heart.
And so I can lean into like, father, okay, can you show me, is there anything I could
have done or said differently in this situation to bring about healing, to bring about, you
know, restoration, to bring about peace, whatever it is.
And sometimes there's not because it takes two people in every relationship.
You all, it takes two people.
Everybody has to be willing to come to the table to make things work.
All right, let's look at Ephesians 4.23 says this, forgive one another, just as God forgave
you because of what Christ has done.
I want you to think right now about the forgiveness that you received when you accepted Jesus
Christ as your Lord and Savior, and the grace that's been extended to you freely, openly,
never held back.
And when we, when we take time to actually sit and think about that, a lot of times,
ladies, that can give us the ability to, to step into that truth.
Oh my gosh.
Yeah, man, I've been forgiven of a lot.
I've been forgiven of so much.
So how could I hold forgiveness back from someone else?
Colossians 3.13 says, remember the Lord forgave you, so you must also forgive others.
You want to forgive all the characters in the story as well, ladies.
What do I mean by that?
I mean, including yourself.
I have found in this community more times than not, that people that stay stuck after
they've forgiven other people, it's often because somewhere deep down, they don't forgive
themselves.
For various different reasons.
Some people like, you know, I can remember coming out of the abusive relationships that
I was in and just feeling like such a fool that I got caught up in that again and really
struggling to forgive myself because I knew better, but I just kept going past those red
flags.
And praise God, I didn't continue to do those behaviors as I healed and really learned how
to stick to boundaries and all of that.
But it took time.
It took time to forgive myself for that.
You know, sometimes people will just not forgive themselves for things they're not even responsible
for.
I have people that I've coached in this community that as children, there was responsibility
put on them as kids and because they couldn't fulfill the responsibility, they actually
held themselves accountable to it, even when they were little.
When that was never their responsibility.
And that didn't come up this afternoon, so I feel like that is for someone here tonight.
You've been carrying responsibility on your back for a long time that was never intended
for you.
And it hurt you as a kid and you felt bad and guilt even because of that.
at because you were struggling under the weight of something
that wasn't intended for you. And the Lord wants to set you
free from that tonight. He wants to help you forgive the people
that put that responsibility on you. And so whoever you are, or
if you're watching the replay, we love you, and we're praying
for you. And God has so much better for you as you release
that to his care. Ladies, I'm last thing I want to share
before we go into breakouts is forgiveness happens in layers.
So often, healing happens in layers, I want to encourage you
to give yourself a lot of grace, and be open to the process of
healing. And we've talked about that even on our live sessions
recently, like, sometimes you're going to be processing something
and you're going to forgive people. And you might journey
another year down the road, and God might bring that person back
up. And if that happens, it's not that you didn't do a good
job, forgiving, it's just that there's another piece of that
relationship or that situation or something with that person
that the Father is trying to just show you another piece. So
that you can get more healing in that because he doesn't reveal
stuff to us before we're able to process it. Okay. I know a lot
of people be like, God won't give you more than you can
handle. And y'all, I don't really believe in that. I think
there's a lot of times we feel like we can't handle stuff. But
what I do believe is that God does release information, when
we are able to withstand it, whether we realize that we can
withstand it or not. Because here's the reality, we're not
withstanding it on our own, we always have God in us, the hope
of glory helping us process and walk through every situation in
life, even as I was saying earlier, he's already gone into
situations that we haven't even gone into yet. He's already
there. His Word declares that he goes before us to make a way for
us to be able to stand in the midst of a situation. So your
first question tonight, for the first breakout is who do you
need to forgive tonight? And why? Who do you need to forgive
tonight? And why? Let me get these breakouts set up. I'm
going to put three in a room tonight. Keep it short, brief
and powerful ladies, as you're sharing. And just make sure that
everybody in the room has an opportunity to share. Okay,
super important. I'm going to give you eight minutes. And here
are the rooms for you. Go ahead and click to join. Who do you
need to forgive tonight? And why? I'm praying for you all.
All right, I think we've got everyone has two. All right.
Father, thank you so much for every one of these ladies. We
thank you God for just the reality of forgiveness that
comes from heaven for us. We thank you that you would just
continue to minister truth and hope and life into our spirits,
our minds, our bodies, our souls, help us to hear what your
spirit is saying. Yeah, Lord, we thank you that you would just
transform us by the renewing of our minds that all old things
have passed away and behold, everything has become new and
new. We thank you God that the former things are being brought
into the new life that we're living in. So Lord, we thank
you that you would remove all the dead. What I keep kind of
getting in my spirit is all the dead stuff off of us, all the
dead skin, the dead weight, all the burdens and the things that
we've been carrying on ourselves. Lord, we thank you
that you would remove all of that off of us and help us to
receive a lightness, a vibrancy, a freedom in the supernatural
realm like never before. We thank you God that you would
remove every weight that so easily ensnares us so that we
could press on toward the high calling of God for our lives. We
thank you that you are the great redeemer, that you are redeeming
every situation in our lives that we can turn to you and
trust you in every circumstance. Psalm 147, three through four
in the Passion Translation says this, he heals the wounds of
every shattered heart. He sets his stars in place, calling them
all by their names. I want you to be thinking about that ladies
of all the different ways that he heals the wounds of every
shattered heart. Where's your heart shattered?
Tonight, where do you need God to come in and minister his healing touch?
He's waiting to meet you in that area and he loves you and he wants to make you completely whole lacking no
good thing
Revelation 12 9 through 11 says then I heard a
Triumphant voice in heaven proclaiming now salvation and power are set in place in the kingdom reign of our God
And the ruling authority of his anointed one are established
for the accuser of our brothers and sisters who relentlessly accuse them day and night before God has now been
defeated cast out once and for all I just want to remind you all that
Satan the accuser of the brethren has been placed under your feet
He's placed under your feet. You already have the victory. It's up to us to remind
Satan of the truth. So what is the truth that you're declaring over your life in this season?
Do you believe that God has more for you in the days to come?
Do you believe that he has blessing and life overflowing that you can experience the goodness of God in the land of the living?
If you don't I want to encourage you to invite God to come into every area that's causing
doubt or fear or
Unbelief in any way shape or form that he would come in and minister hope in life and truth and
Help you to have a new story a new prayer a new belief and that you would just continue to see
Even transformation in yourself that you would see yourself through the eyes of the Lord
Ephesians 3 17 through 19 says this then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him
Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong
and may you have the power to understand as
All God's people should how wide how long how high and how deep his love is
May you experience the love of Christ though? It is too great to understand fully
Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God
I love that first verse then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him
Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong
Father we just thank you right now that every one of these ladies that
You would help them to open their hearts to trust you more God to allow you to come into every area of their heart
every crevice that you would
Continue to make yourself known to them and that you would help their roots grow down deep into you father
that you would help them to hear what your spirit is saying to them louder than any voice of the enemy and
That they would experience your love and transformation
From the inside out in a fresh way
Sorry ladies this cough drops kind of kicking around here and
Lord, we just thank you that um, yes Lord. I
Just I'm heard the Lord say that even those that are doubting
Can this really make a difference God wants you to know that he sees you?
And that it will make a difference as you continue to partner with him and do the work
You're gonna start to experience a shift in the supernatural realm. They're gonna experience a shift in the physical realm as well
and
I just keep hearing the Lord say that
Those that are in need God is about to bring a solution and so we just thank you that you're the one that brings solution
and provision we thank you that you would help us to hear what your spirit is saying and that we would lean into
Yes, the truth of heaven over our lives over our situations that you're not gonna leave us empty-handed and you're not gonna leave us
Alone your word declares that you never leave us nor forsake us the Lord. We thank you for that
We thank you that you would help us to partner with the truth tonight
and
Just lean into truth in life and hope I'm gonna read this from heart workbook. This is from the heart check-in about forgiveness
Dear Heavenly Father in the name of the Lord Jesus
I purpose and choose to forgive and you would put in who you're forgiving for
What are you forgiving them for I release and you would say their name?
I cancel their debts and obligations to me in this issue dear Lord
I ask you to forgive me for my bitterness towards and you would say their name in this situation in the name of Jesus
I cancel all of Satan's power and authority over me in this issue
Because I have forgiven them and God has forgiven me it is done and over
Holy Spirit, please come and heal my heart and tell me your truth about this
this situation.
Father, I thank you that you would come
into every one of the situations
represented by every person
that's a part of this phase one hard work group
and you would show them the truth about every situation
that they're releasing into your care
where they're choosing to step into forgiveness tonight.
Help them to hear, help them to see.
We thank you for revelation coming in Jesus name.
Romans 8 28 in NLT says,
and we know that God causes everything to work together
for the good of those who love God
and are called according to his purpose for them.
So I wanna encourage you,
whatever the situation is,
God's working it all together for good
for those who love him
and who are called according to his purposes.
Genesis 50 20 says,
you intended to harm me,
but God intended it all for good.
He brought me to this position
so I could save the lives of many people.
So Lord, we just thank you that you use all situations,
you work them all together for good,
that we can trust you to work
even in our lives and situations right now.
Lord, we thank you that you would remove
stony hardened hearts and parts of our hearts
that are just hardened and callous from pain
and the trauma that we've experienced.
And we thank you that you would put in our hearts,
hearts that are soft and pliable to you God,
that you would be able to come in
and have your way in our hearts,
that we would not hold back our hearts at all from you,
that we would truly surrender
to your supernatural grace and power.
We thank you God that yeah, Lord,
that the Lord just said to remind you all
that he's super compassionate and he's full of grace.
Even when we struggle to forgive,
but he's gonna continue to knock on the door of our hearts
to forgive because it's such an important choice.
We don't wanna be held back from our relationship
with the father in any way, shape or form.
And so as we forgive, it clears that path.
Jesus already died to make that path for us,
but we have to choose to step into it.
Welcome back, welcome back.
So glad to have you here.
Who is willing to share with the whole group
what you shared in your breakout?
Let's see, Sarah in California, awesome.
Hi, Bethany, hi everybody.
Hi.
So I've gotten,
I feel like I'm getting better about forgiving.
There's of course still challenges with that,
but I was at a church,
you were talking about kind of hurting church type thing
and I was, I just feel like it was a unhealthy,
kind of got really unhealthy,
kind of a little bit prior to 2020
and then through 2020 and then after 2020,
and there was kind of a lot of hurt and resentment.
But again, like I said, it was kind of even prior to that
and where some things were kind of festering
and wasn't like kind of dealing with it.
And so I ended up having to kind of like leave
for my own health and mental wellbeing
and all of that and spiritual wellbeing.
And it's been good.
And since I've left,
I've kind of just been kind of seeking God about it.
And I feel like I have more grace towards,
well, specifically the pastor and kind of,
anyway, so I feel like I have more grace towards him
and the leadership and everything,
but specifically him, it was just really hard.
I felt like kind of he was in some ways kind of like,
well, I don't want to go into too much detail.
It was nothing.
He didn't do anything specifically to me.
Like he didn't like nothing kind of where,
anyways, it wasn't, it wasn't, but-
Were you carrying an offense for something
that hurt other people?
Is that what you're saying?
Well, it was kind of personal, but it was like,
I don't quite know how to explain it.
Like, I don't want to like gossip or anything,
but it was just something that was unhealthy
that I felt like it was unhealthy
and maybe some others felt like it was.
And it was just kind of how he kind of
dealt with some people.
And so I just felt like I need to kind of put some space.
And since I have, it's been good and it's been better.
And I feel mentally in a better place.
But I have also done better on like forgiving him
and kind of trying to see things through his perspective
and seeing like through this course,
I feel like I have more grace for him than I did prior.
So that's all that to say that that's kind of what
I was, I guess, trying to get to.
Yeah, I love that.
A long about way.
Oh, that's all right.
Sometimes I'll just ask questions
to make sure I'm understanding what you're saying.
I love that, Sarah.
And you all, one of the things that even you all, it's in the coursework, but I want to pull this
out since Sarah mentioned something about seeing that change in her heart to have grace for someone
else, you know, because people are, even Christians, we're imperfect. We make mistakes all the time.
Do we want someone to give us grace when we make a mistake? I know I do, because some days we just
have a bad day, people. We do, right? And so let's extend grace to other people. But the one thing I
want to point out as well is, you know, that we would ask the Lord to help us see the gold in
people. I think so often we're looking for the negative in people on the regular, myself included,
especially after you've been hurt. I don't know about you all, but sometimes when you've been
hurt, that suspicious, you know, you're always trying to, what are they up to? What are they
trying to do? You know, like you're just always trying to look for that. And, and I think God
wants us to look for the good in people. Again, that doesn't mean we have to go back into
relationship. If somebody's toxic or unhealthy, we're not saying reenter that and go right back
into that like before. But what I am saying is like, what God, God made these people in His image.
Now, not every one of them are sons and daughters of God because they haven't accepted Jesus yet,
but they're still made in His image. So can we see the good in the people around us? What is
the gold that God wants us to see? And, and just the, the key there is that it's changing our heart
posture. That's the key. What's going on in our hearts and what does God want to do in us? I love
that you shared that, Sarah. Thank you so much. Ruth A. Ruth, you're up.
Oh, thanks, Bethany. Yeah. I shared in the group that I felt like the person I
most needed to forgive is myself. And, um, yeah. And the reason for that being, um,
getting divorced was something that, I mean, I'm sure nobody ever, it's nothing anybody ever wishes
for, but so, I mean, that's, I feel universal, except I was, you know, the person that I always
believed getting married that I, even on our wedding day, that I did not make vows to my
husband. I actually made my vows to God about him. Like that was a very strong belief I had.
And I just, and it's just like, we had family there, you know, and friends to kind of as
witnesses for that. So, but that was always my perception. I mean, I even told him, you know,
my now ex that, um, when we were engaged in, you know, all of that, so that if you ever leave,
I'm going with you. Like, that was just how I saw it. Like, there's no, this is a road of
no return kind of thing. Once you're back on it, it's a till death thing. And so for me,
I think the biggest part for me was just the, well, if I couldn't even keep that promise or
that vow, like what, what else can I not keep? Like what promise, you know, like,
like I can't be trusted to keep my word or a vow about something like of that magnitude or
significance. And so just kind of, you know, doubting and then having a pattern of starting
things and not finishing it, which I know a provider or multiple providers, actually,
I've said that that's an ADHD thing that they diagnosed, but I just, it really like, just feel
like I can't trust, like, you know, having that with myself, like funny, I haven't had a problem
forgiving him. It's been, you know, I feel like where I've been stuck and where I've even been
reluctant to engage in the community because I log in and I'll see stuff and I know I should
engage, but it's just not trusting myself. Well, let me ask you a question because I think it's
really important. You said, if I couldn't keep that promise, well, how long did you keep that
promise? You know, let's look at the flip side of this. Like you stayed in the game. You, you
tried to make it work. I'm guessing it wasn't like you just hightailed it out of there, right?
No. Yeah. Okay. So are you celebrating all the time that you actually did do your best?
Yeah, no, I don't believe so because I don't see them or I feel like they're very few
compared to failures. Yeah. So, and some of that is, it goes into when we're younger,
if we're programmed where, and I don't know, Ruth, I can't recall what your upbringing was, but
if we're programmed to think that nothing that we're doing is enough, even when we're doing
something good, it never is enough, even within ourselves. And so I want to just encourage you
to really spend some time with that statement. If I couldn't keep
that promise, then how can I keep other promises to myself? How can I believe anything I'm even
saying to myself? And when you really get to the root of that, basically there's that break in that
fissure within yourself where God wants to come in and heal. How can I explain this?
When we start not trusting ourselves, we actually war constantly within ourselves against ourselves.
God wants to bring peace to that situation. God wants to help you start celebrating the good
things that you have done. You're here in this community. You're doing the work and when you
come in the group, here's the thing. You can comment without even having to trust yourself.
You can just start engaging and every time the enemy tries to tell you, no, you shouldn't comment
because you can't trust yourself. Satan, I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to choose to
engage in the community because God's doing a work in me. It's choosing the opposite of what
you have chosen in the past to believe because here's the reality too. If the reason that you
got divorced was because there was brokenness for whatever reason, whoever filed, and I think a lot
of this comes from the church. Of course, I'm totally for marriage, you all, but I know that
God rescued me from my prior marriage. I know that he did. I would have never gone through divorce
either and that was a really tough thing for me to also get over, but once I forgave myself and
realized that I actually did the best thing for myself that I could have ever done, as well as
my stepson and the other people in this situation, because what I chose was life.
That's what I chose. I chose life and the enemy wants to try to get us to get hung up on the thing
that we supposedly did wrong, but what did we do right in the process? What does God want to
show us about our decision to live, move forward, to heal, and even if, let's just say this, even if
we didn't leave for the reasons the church deems that we can leave a marriage for,
do you know that God is so able to redeem that even in and of itself as well? At the end of the
day, you can't go back and change that. All you can do is move forward. That's all we can do,
ladies, is move forward, and so what does God want to show you about your steps forward, what you're
doing, what you're achieving, where you're at, how you're growing, you know, what is all the positive
that he wants to help you see, and if, like you said, if you try to look and you don't see a lot of that,
just keep asking him to show you yourself through his eyes, because I think part of the problem is
we're looking at ourselves through our own eyes versus the eyes of the Father, so what does he
want to show you, and how does he want to change and flip that script into, I can keep promises to
myself, and I do trust myself, and I'm moving forward. Yeah, yeah. Thanks. You're welcome. I'm so glad
that you shared and chose to come into community by sharing. That's awesome. Lisa, go ahead.
Hi, Bethany. Thank you. Hello. Knowing the back story, I had one day, my dad was screaming at me
because I wrote an exam and said to him that I don't think I passed that, although I did, but I
had the exam the next day, but that whole situation, it is this trauma, which God replaced with his
truth, so that is sorted, and I thought, okay, well, I'm done with it, but this afternoon, when I was in
the session and I was listening in, God reminded me that I had let somebody else scream at me in Canada
here when I lived with her for nine months, so I let her scream at me, and I didn't say anything, and I also
let my employer, my previous employer, scream at me for two years and not say anything, so
this was a revelation this afternoon that I had to actually forgive myself
for letting those people scream at me because nobody should be screamed at. Like, that's not
something anybody should be said, so I feel like I don't want anybody else screaming at me when I'm in
Germany. I don't want anybody screaming at me, so I feel like I thought I'm done my forgiveness,
like there's nothing, but there was this thing. The second thing that I wanted to quickly mention
was the thing that you said, carrying responsibility on your back that was never yours.
I think that was meant for me. I'm taking it on for me because my dad has to
way 70 years ago when I was in India. And then I took the entire responsibility of my house
over me. And I think God was just telling me that that was never my responsibility.
God is protecting my family, my brother and my mother. So I had to release that to God.
So good. Thank you for sharing that. Lisa, one of the things that I wrote down as you were sharing,
you're 100% correct. You don't need to be screamed at by anyone. And ladies, here's the thing.
If someone starts screaming at us, they may or may not be willing to hear this. But you can say to
them, if you're going to continue to yell at me, I'm going to walk away from this conversation.
And if they continue to yell, then you walk away from that conversation. We don't need to
just remain in situations like that, ladies. We need to set healthy boundaries with people
and know that it's okay that we do. They may not act like it's okay. They might actually
throw tantrums. People, literally adult people do this. But we don't need to be afraid of that.
And I really do believe, Lisa, that that is revelation from the Lord. He wants that cycle
to stop in your life. And He wants to help you, you know, begin to, well not begin, continue to grow
in your voice and standing up for yourself. And ladies, we don't have to be confrontational with
people. But we can literally just say, like, I've done that even on a phone call before years ago.
Actually, it was with my dad. He was yelling at me about something. And I just said, hey,
I really want to have a conversation. But I'm not going to continue on this phone call with you
if you continue to yell at me about this. This is not something, like I was married and he was
trying to tell me that I had to buy this thing that he wanted me to buy and all this stuff,
which isn't even biblical. When you're married, your husband is the one that you make decisions
with. But my dad was trying to strong arm me into making this financial decision.
And it was because it benefited him, you all. And I had, and that was tough. I had to say, you know,
hey, no, my husband and I talk and we make decisions about our finances. And that is
biblically in order. And we don't feel led to purchase this at this time, you know, and just
really try to set a healthy boundary. And as he continued to try to escalate it, I just said to
him, hey, I already said, if you're going to continue to be upset, I'm going to hang up.
I'm going to end this phone call. So because you're continuing to yell, I'm hanging up now.
And that's what I did. And, you know, not, not again, not always do these people appreciate that,
but you know what, my life was more peaceful. And I stood up for myself. And so I want to
encourage any of you, if you really struggle in those kinds of situations and dynamics,
that it's going to be really important for you to learn how to have grace, but strength in that
moment to stand up for yourself and use your voice. So praying for you, Lisa, on that. So
thankful for your share. Go ahead.
Oh, hi. I shared in my group that I'm not any exception other than anyone else. I just
applied a lot of scriptures because it was, I was taught in an early age, you know, in my faith to
do that. So I learned how to, you know, forgive easily. And it's only because of the word of God.
So it's, and also I share that because it's very painful, you know, forgiveness, give me a lot of
pain in my back and my neck and really robbed me from health. You know, I've never had a great
health challenges, but it could have gone there because of, you know, just holding on to a lot
of things. And I started learning how to process it in the word of God. You know, I am easy every
day, even today. I'm easy to forgive. The word of God said, you know, I may create many's image.
I adopt the voice of the Lord. I walk in it. I live in it. I breathe in it. I forgive people
even before they start doing anything to me. I forgive the people, you know, if I have to
serve people, I've owned my business. Now I get the opportunity to work in a bridal store.
The lady is very, the manager could be very violent, you know, her behavior, because she's
stressed. And I started learning to forgive her. If she might offend me, I say I'm dead to offense.
I, you know, I, Lord, thank me not to be offend anyone. So I apply the positive and I realized that
it works. It works that, you know, even I'm living here with my daughter, new relocation,
she had done some things and I just turn it over the next, it hurt in the first day and two.
And then I said, Oh, I'm taking on responsibility. That's not my, like you mentioned.
And I just tried over apply the Word of God and to I mean, she can't understand like,
Mom, you're not talking now, I'm done.
And that's not my personality.
But it's the Word of God that I apply in my heart to forgive.
And we can do it.
We can do it.
We just have to continue applying God's Word.
Yes, every day.
Thank you.
Yes, you're welcome.
You know, it makes me think about I wrote something down this morning, and I didn't
know if it would come up, but it's it's coming up in my spirit now.
And I wrote down the phrase, keep short accounts.
Keep short accounts.
And ladies, I think that's really important to emphasize tonight that when we keep short
accounts kind of like what Felicia is saying, you know, it's not always that it's easy,
but it's definitely beneficial and worth it when we forgive.
You know, even as she's saying, you know, we experience a lot of things in our bodies
and our spirits and our souls, you know, because of unforgiveness, and we want to be
free from all that stuff.
So encourage you all to continue to keep short accounts if there are people that even in
our day to day interactions, those little things that we think, oh, it's not that big
of a deal.
I'll just deal with that tomorrow.
Let's try to just deal with it now.
And that way, we won't have a big volcanic eruption later on, right?
So good, Felicia.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Brenda, go ahead.
Okay, this one's hard for me.
This is vulnerable.
So I feel like that's what the Lord wants me to share.
So 10 years ago, my sister took her life and she was not of sound mind for a long time.
And so I was with my parents and we did something like in memory of her and my mom was crying
and everything.
And I just realized that it upset me knowing what she was like when she was alive.
So the interesting part about this is, I don't know, like two years before she passed or
something hit number three, the guy that I was dating felt like I was supposed to forgive
her.
And I did.
But then I realized that even though I did some restoring the foundations and where the
Lord healed me of what happened, because it was very traumatic when I found out and everything.
But also realize that when I look back, I feel like I still don't have fond memories
of her.
Because she was abusive to me as well, like emotionally and mentally.
So yeah, so it was just interesting that like, because this happened, I don't know, I guess
a week ago.
But when you were talking about it, like the Lord reminded me again, you know, that like,
because I wanted, you know, think of her and be like, wow, you know, she was a part of
my life.
And there's still, yeah, some unforgiveness there.
Well, one of the things I want to share, ladies, and I wish it wasn't this way sometimes.
But here's my reality.
I want to share this because I think it'll minister to you, Brenda, and maybe anyone
else who's relating to what you're saying.
So as I mentioned earlier, my dad passed away a little over a week ago, and we're about
to go to his funeral.
It's really not even a full funeral to like this little mini service this Thursday.
And you all like it's just this little mini service that just my siblings and I are going
to and then we're going to go have a meal.
And the reason I'm mentioning this is that my dad lived a really hard life, and he made
a lot of not good choices.
And at the end of his life, there's not a lot of people that are really concerned about
a celebration of life for him.
Now our family is going to honor him and we're going to come together and, and do the things.
But I'm saying that to say that not everyone lives a life where we can have happy memories.
And we don't have to try to force something to be there that that wasn't, right.
And so I want to encourage you just to release yourself from that, Brenda.
Okay.
Yeah, I felt that when you said that.
So because I like I feel like this.
Like in a group text, my sister, my other sister was like, Oh, she'll be greatly missed.
And I'm like, it's so hard, because, you know, you know, knowing the Lord and, you
know, thinking, you know, how am I supposed to be how am I supposed to act, you know,
like we are, we are to love and, you know, and honor life and it's obviously it wasn't
it wasn't all bad, obviously, you know what I mean?
And you can love and honor her life without feeling like we're not all cookie cutter.
Right.
And everybody processes grief differently.
And maybe one day you'll feel, you know, differently, but right now you feel how you feel.
And so just give yourself permission to process where you're at right now, that it doesn't
have to look like the rest of your family, right?
And if you give yourself permission and freedom to do that, then it really can, honestly,
I think set you free in other ways where, you know, that, that feeling and that expectation
of, you know, well, I have to feel this way because if I don't, then I'm not loving them
well.
And I can tell you, like, I love my dad.
I do.
Right.
But I never got to know my dad.
So I love him to the best of my ability because I love him with the love of Christ.
I have forgiven him for the things that he did and the way that it broke our family.
But that doesn't mean that, you know, he didn't do the things that he did, you know?
And so even as, you know, he was starting to decline in health, I had a lot of conversations
with my husband, a lot of conversations with the Lord about just, you know, my heart regarding
my dad, just making sure that I had a clear heart, you know, all the things.
And so, but it's a process.
That's why I'm saying that it's a process.
And so just give yourself a lot of grace, give yourself permission to grieve and heal.
And even though it's been 10 years, you know what?
The first several years, anytime something massively traumatic like that happens, it takes
people a while before they can actually unpack that situation, that kind of a situation.
And so we'll be praying for you and look forward to hearing how God kind of works in this situation
in the days to come.
And let's just see what it looks like and feels like for you to live inside of grace
towards yourself regarding this.
Yeah.
Thank you.
I'm sorry for your loss, Bethany.
Oh, thank you.
Yeah.
Appreciate that.
Thank you.
God has been faithful, ladies.
He's so good to meet us in every situation, truly, truly.
Thank you.
Oh, you're welcome, Brenda.
Thank you for sharing.
All right, ladies, we're going to make a shift.
I want to talk about God's promises and how He cares for us.
I want to really highlight to you all tonight to be thinking about in your life, when was
a time that someone broke a promise to you?
When was there a time in your life when someone broke a promise to you?
And then not only that, but how has that or is that impacting the way you view God and
the way that you either believe that He cares about you or you don't?
Maybe it's both and, but I want you just to be thinking about that.
I want to lean into that a little bit as we move forward.
In the heartwork process, Jackie talks about this story about Candice.
If you haven't heard the story yet, you will, so don't worry.
But basically, Candice was someone that God knew she needed healing.
And He put Candice on Jackie's heart and said, you know, Candice is going to be there and
she needs healing.
And basically, Jackie didn't know who Candice was, but God did.
And He aligned their lives and the situations so that Candice could get healing.
So what I want you to pull out of that tonight is this.
God knows what you need.
God knows where you are, and God knows how to get it to you.
God knows what you need.
He knows where you are, and He knows how to get you what you need, where you're at.
Like He knows how to get it all to you.
So many times we are afraid that we're going to miss out on stuff.
Even tonight, I want you all just to really be fully honest with yourselves.
Like in your life right now, is there something that you're afraid that you're going to miss
out on it?
Or that God's going to bless other people and not you?
You believe, you do believe, but yet there's this lingering thing on the inside, like,
I don't know if God's really going to do it for me.
I want you to be asking the Lord and talking to Him about these kind of things, because
here's the reality, ladies.
Not only does God care about your needs, He cares about your wants.
Yes, you heard me right.
He cares about what you want.
Now, the caveat to that is if you want something that's really unhealthy for you, guess what?
He loves you enough to say no.
Praise God.
Y'all, I'm serious.
I say this all the time.
My spiritual daughter's dad, I begged God, I begged him, please God, please get him to marry
me. Please lead him to ask. Y'all, I pleaded for that. Praise God that I did not marry that man.
That would have been a worse disaster than the first marriage. It already was that in the
dating relationship that I was in. I was committed. He was never committed. Y'all,
he was having relationships like out the wall. I mean, literally so embarrassing the number
of women he was talking to on the side. Now, do you think that was a good thing that God said no
to? I do. Praise God. I'm living a whole different life now. And so I want you to know when there are
times that God says no, it's because he loves you. It's not because he's trying to hold out on you
or trick you or lead you astray. He loves you and he's protecting you and he's providing for
you in ways you can't even imagine. I want you to really start to understand that God is not
only good, but he will come through for you. Missy, he will come through for you. Sylvia,
he's going to come through for you. He's not going to leave you nor forsake you. The Bible says he
will never leave us. So whether we experience people walking out on us in life, abandoning us,
not showing up for us, betraying us, whatever that looked like, that is not who God is.
Even as I was sharing with you about the sunglasses earlier in the trauma,
these filters that we look at life through, the unforgiveness, the bitterness, the pain of the
past, it's impacting how we're viewing God himself. Numbers 23 19 from the Message Bible
says this, God is not a man, one given to lies and not a son of man changing his mind.
Does he speak and not do what he says? Does he promise and not come through?
He always comes through, ladies. He's not a liar. I'm going to put up in the group tonight
some lyrics to the song Sparrows. I want you all to read it. I'll pin it in the top of the group.
I'm not going to read it just because I can feel my voice starting to kind of linger a little bit
here. Or that's not the right word, but I can tell it's starting to struggle a little bit.
But the song Sparrows by Corey Asbury, it's very moving. If you read the lyrics, it's all about
how God will come through for us in all of the ways he shows up and shows his love
and takes good care of us. So I encourage you to please read that. I want you just to raise
your hand if you relate to this statement. Why is this time any different? Anyone relate to that
statement? Why is this time any different? Why is this even going to make a difference? I don't
know. All these things. We have these questions swirling in our minds, and here's the answer.
Because, ladies, you are becoming different. Every day that you show up and you're here and
you're doing the hard work and you're changing and you're allowing God to come in and rewrite
your story, you are becoming different than you were before. So how could you not enter into
something new and different in the future? The enemy is so busy trying to convince you
that you're never going to receive anything different than you've received in the past. And
I'm here to tell you that 100% I almost wanted to marry someone that was almost
the exact same kind of person as the first husband. But praise God, God protected me from that.
God led me through a lot of healing. God led me to this community, and I learned how to stop
blowing past red flags. I took ownership for my side of the street, ladies, and I stopped making
excuses. I stopped allowing takers to come in and keep taking and taking and taking. Y'all, I'm a
big giver, and so takers like to come and find me. You better believe I've learned how to lovingly
say no to the takers. In this last week, I had somebody, you know, and this is someone I used to
kind of be friends with. They're more of an acquaintance now. Life changes. Seasons change. I can't
minister or be there on the same level for every single person that I've gotten to know over the
last 10 years. And sometimes, ladies, we just have to just take care of ourselves. And this person
messaged me the other day, and I was still sick. They knew I was sick. You know, I'm not upset with
them, but they messaged me all these messages about all these needs that they had, and I
I just remember, like, I don't got energy for that.
And you know what?
I didn't feel bad.
Because sometimes we just need to reserve our resources
so that we can get better.
And for some of you during heart work,
that's what you need to do right now.
You really need to be careful about who you're
letting speak into your life and doubt this process and all
these things and really guard this healing process.
Because you need to conserve your energy.
You're processing a lot in this journey.
Heart change equals life change.
So if your heart is changing, guess what?
That means your life can change.
Real and lasting change is a process, ladies.
OK?
So I'm not going to say it's not going to take work.
It is real and lasting change is a process.
But the process is absolutely worth it.
I want to encourage you in your life
right now to think about where do you tend
to want to microwave culture?
That's what I'm calling it.
Where do you want it to be the speedy fix?
Because that's the area you most likely
need the Lord to come into and really help
you understand why are you, like, expecting
this overnight turnaround.
When the process is what's going to actually deliver you
and set you free.
I'm all for being delivered and set free spontaneously.
Y'all, that does happen sometimes.
But I will tell you just from my own life, sincerely,
and I'm not just saying this because I'm teaching this
tonight, but genuinely, the times
where I've experienced the most life transformation
has been in the process.
The breakthrough, the stuff where I really
had to pray through some things and forgive some people
and gain more wisdom and knowledge
from the word on how to navigate things differently.
The time you put in, again, you are your best investment.
The time that you put in is never going to be wasted, ever.
Continue to apply this.
Don't expect the instant coffee, the microwave,
instant situations for change.
Here's my last question for you before I get you
ready for the breakout rooms.
Where do you currently need an upgrade
in your understanding of God's care for you?
Not everybody else, but for you.
I'll read it again.
Where do you currently need an upgrade
in your understanding of God's care for you?
His personal care for Juanita, or Rio, or Jess.
I could say all of your names because He
cares for you personally.
He calls you by name.
Every hair on your head is numbered, not in a negative way,
in a loving way.
I want you to think about, for some of you
if you've never had a child or held a baby
and really felt that adoration and love,
maybe you might not fully understand what I'm saying.
But I want to kind of give you this example
because it just came into my spirit.
You know, when parents have a baby, a lot of times
when they rock them, they're looking
at every aspect of that baby and just so loving.
And they're caressing their head.
And they're looking at their hair and their fingers
and just the way God has so intricately created them.
And that is how God the Father feels about you.
Yes, I know you're full grown.
But He looks at you and He's like, that's my girl.
That's my little girl.
And I'm rooting for her.
And I'm warring on her behalf.
And He's got Jesus sitting at His right hand interceding
for you right now, for you to step
into the victory that's already provided for you.
But you all, victory truly that's already provided,
the way we step into it is to receive the love of the Father.
Jesus already made a way for us to get to the Father.
Some of you, I want to encourage you in this next week
to really ask the Lord to help you know,
where does the little you need cared for and loved on?
So the little Kim, the little girl Kim
that got hurt at some point along the way,
where, Father, where does little Kim need loved on this week?
And what do I mean by that?
I mean like you literally turning to God.
Yourself as the little version of yourself and loving that little girl really well. I
Feel the Holy Spirit on this I'm gonna linger for a minute here
Some of you have not liked yourself since you were little and
The Lord wants you to converge back into unity with the little version of yourself
Because you've rejected yourself for so long
And he wants to show you the source of where it when did that start for you
When did you start, you know, even subconsciously? It's not even for some of you. It's not like you did it intentionally
it was the pain that you were going through it created that sever and
God's like I want to heal that and I want to bring that back to completeness and wholeness
The Bible says that God wants to make us completely whole lacking. No good thing. Oh
Yeah
What is what does it look like for Ruth as a little girl to be whole and
Loved on and adored by the King of Kings
For some of you that might be hard to imagine. I didn't have my dad hold me like that
My dad literally left not joking you all right after I was born
He came back on and off throughout my life, but I don't have a lot of memories of my dad
But I can tell you that I have absolutely been able to learn over these last I've been saved
I don't know since 1998. So however many years that's been a long time
so it's been a journey, but God continues to teach me about the depth of his love and
I know that he can teach you too
I'm gonna put you in your breakouts
Before anyone before I do that just in case if we lose people because sometimes people leave before the last breakout
Here are your activations for this week as you lean into really, you know that loving on the little version of yourself
One of the other things we're gonna do and forgiveness week as we're in a practice having fun ladies
Okay, so some of you have long forgotten how to have fun
So I want you to cultivate we're gonna call it fun sister play week. That's what I'm titling it
You know, it's not what we always call it, but that's what I titled it today. I
Want you to pray and ask the Lord what you need to do to go out and have some fun this week, you know
maybe it's the
Again, don't do something. You're not physically able to do depending on your age and all that
But like let's let's even consider
Some of you need to go do some things that you used to do when you're a kid
Go ride a bike go climb a tree go down a slide, you know, go on a jungle gym go ride a carousel
I don't know like whatever God is leading you. Yeah, go on a swing, you know
I even said earlier today like
Maybe have a bunch of girlfriends over and and have a party and have fun and paint nails if you're not into that do something
Else, but I'm just throwing a bunch of ideas out there for you
I did bring up the movie 13 going on 30 this afternoon and I want to mention again just because it's you know
there is some scenes in there ladies just fast-forward it, but if you want a kind of movie where
There's this scene and this is what why I came up in my spirit this afternoon where she's an adult woman
but she's surrounded by all these teenage girls and they're singing Pat Benatar and they're on the bed and they're all dressed up and
You know, the girls got the bras on the outside of the shirt and it's just this really fun scene
and it's like literally one of my favorite movie scenes and
Here's why because they're having fun in the movie
it looks so fun and I just it makes me think back to when I was a like a young girl and and just
laughed and caught up and all the things that life and trauma and
Whatnot try to take away from us. And so this week cultivate fun
Cultivate fun and then also the second activation is to do a post about the forgiveness
Who are you gonna forgive this week?
And why I want you guys to come into the group and tell us who you're forgiving this week
Some of you shared on the live session, that's awesome for those of you that didn't share
Um, you know, I want to encourage you to come into the group and share. Here's your question for breakout
When was a time someone broke a promise they made to you and how is that still affecting you today?
Okay
When was a time someone broke a promise they made to you and how is that still affecting you today?
And I will tell you I saw Pat that you said it took a while for
You to get in there if you all don't have a strong internet connection
Unfortunately, it will take you longer to get into the zoom room. So that is typically
On your end of things when that happens
So just so y'all know if that does happen just do your best to get in there as soon as you can
and make the best of it.
All right, I'm gonna give you all,
let's see here, we're at 9.20.
I'll give you all five minutes.
I recreated the rooms, there you go.
Go ahead and click to join those.
The quicker you click, the quicker you'll get in there.
Okay, go ahead and click to join those.
Oh, that's totally fine if some of you all
have to head out, totally understand.
All right, I think we've got,
yeah, Pat's kind of, okay, there she goes.
All right, Maria, are you hanging out here?
Okay, that's totally fine.
Yeah, you can stay here, I'm just gonna pray.
I'm gonna do my best to pray while they're in there.
I'm, with this, I'm not sure, so give me a sec here.
Father, thank you so much for everything you're doing
in the lives and hearts of the ladies here tonight,
as well as those that are watching the replay
in this group.
God, we thank you that you're reminding us
of your goodness, God, that you are faithful,
that you are kind, that you're working
in every one of our lives and situations
and ways that we can't even understand
and comprehend right now.
So Lord, I pray that you would remove barriers,
remove obstacles from our hearts, our minds,
our spirits, our souls.
Yeah, Lord, that you would close any open door
from wounds of the past, open doors to the enemy
where we don't even understand that he has authority
in areas of our lives because we're believing lies.
So we thank you, God, that you would reveal lies to us
that we're believing so that we can cast those lies
and those thoughts down and choose rather to believe
what your word says about us, Lord.
We thank you that you would, yeah, Lord,
just anoint our ears to hear what your spirit is saying.
Your word declares that your sheep hear your voice
and we will always obey what you tell us to do.
So Lord, we thank you that we will obey
your command to forgive.
We will obey your command to love.
First and foremost, ourselves,
as well as loving our neighbors.
We thank you that Isaiah 66, nine says,
I will not cause pain without allowing something new
to be born, says the Lord.
God, I thank you that you're making all things new, God,
that you're taking all of the past pain
and the things that we've gone through
and you're working them all together for good, God.
And we thank you that you are bringing new streams
and rivers where there's been wastelands and deserts, God,
that you are literally coming and paving a new way
in our hearts and our spirits and our souls
to receive everything that you have for us, Lord.
We thank you that we don't have to fear or be afraid,
that we can walk in a spirit of love and of power
and of a sound mind, that we can lay aside the anxiety
and anxious thoughts that the enemy tries to feed us
and step into your faith, to step into your truth,
to step into your anointing and your hope in your life.
We thank you, Lord, that Luke 8, 17 through 19 says,
because this revelation lamp now shines within you,
nothing will be hidden from you.
It will all be revealed.
Every secret of the kingdom will be unveiled
and out in the open made known by the revelation light.
So pay careful attention to your hearts
as you hear my teaching,
for to those who have open hearts,
even more revelation will be given to them
until it overflows.
So Lord, we thank you that you would continue
to give us more and more and more revelation from heaven.
God, that it would come in so much
that it would start to overflow out of our hearts,
that our hearts would be filled with your goodness,
your grace, your truth.
We would think on things that are pure, noble,
lovely of good report,
things that are above only and not beneath.
God, that we would have the mind of Christ
and we would literally cause our minds and our spirits
and our souls to come into submission to your truth.
Psalm 1, 3 says he will be standing firm
like a flourishing tree planted by God's design,
deeply rooted by the brooks of bliss,
bearing fruit in every season of his life.
He is never dry, never fainting,
ever blessed, ever prosperous.
God, I thank you that your word declares
that we can be full of life in every season,
that you will make us like a firm flourishing tree,
that we will be deeply rooted in the brooks of bliss.
Ladies, that's peace.
Bliss is a state of peace of mind, a peace.
of heart where we thank you that you would continue to help us to yeah Lord just step
into the river of cleansing and renewal God that we would not believe the lies of the
enemy about our life anymore that we would just continue to I just keep thinking there's
this old song about getting to the river and the dance in the river or something like that
it was years ago but it was all about just basking in the Holy Spirit in the presence
of the Lord and really allowing the river of life from heaven to flow into us and really
transform us from the inside out and so I want to encourage you to really lean into
the healing water that's flowing from heaven for every one of us that God wants to make
all things new he wants to wipe the slate clean and it just made me think about even
the scripture that talks about how he takes all the crimson red scarlet the sin in our
lives and you can make it white as snow and and remove those things as far as the East
is from the West that he doesn't even remember them anymore as soon as we repent of those
things and so praise God we can step into the fullness of his plan for our life in every
area and there's just so much more for us in the days ahead welcome back ladies we probably
have time for one or two depending on how how long the shares are is there anyone that
is willing to share with everyone what you shared in your breakup if you haven't let's
use someone who hasn't shared already preferably how do you process a hope deferred type situation
when somebody tells you for 36 years that they're going to do something and then they
never do and that just kind of leaves you not believing people keep they're going to
keep their word uh myself and the lady i was meeting with both had similar situations where
we don't really you know people say they're going to do something and we don't really believe them
until we see it well yeah i mean i i would actually say that's i think we should wait
for someone to show us that they're trustworthy not in a skeptical suspicious way believing that
everyone's a liar but i think that if we have learned from our previous situations like even
for for my example you know while it wasn't 30 years or i forget how many years you said there
six years the girl's dad showed me over and over and over again he wasn't an honorable man
over and over he showed me that but i kept believing he was going to change and then he
kept showing me through his actions that he was not going to change so at some point it's up to me
to look at why am i going back to the same thing expecting something different can bitter
and and good water come from the same spout the bible says it can't so i would say that
um hope deferred makes the heart sick but a tree of life if you look at the rest of that scripture
the things that bring life can change everything so maybe that person isn't going to change but
maybe there's someone else in your life that absolutely would be willing to be teachable
and change so let's look for those people and let's let's spend some time investing in those
relationships you know super important ladies how we posture ourselves regarding what we go through
it's terrible i'm so sorry to hear that someone hasn't kept their word to you for that long
but let's let's let's move into some healthy relationships and start looking forward honest
to goodness i think that's my best advice for you in that situation laura great question uh okay
tell me how you say your name is it yinky joy is that right yeah but i just called you call me
joy it's good i mean yeah i was sharing with sister and uh it's kind of one um okay i want
to make try to make sure my parents i have not seen my parents over 20 some years now close to
30 years now i'm in america they're in china so i actually so i broke the promise i said to my
parents i because i tried i tried to um encourage my own self and build on my own face i was going
back to see them unite with them so i prophesied and say a purpose to myself and meanwhile i told
them i will go back this year this year i said this over and over for several years but actually
god did not give me the green light because god wanted oh god wanted to protect me because of my
childhood trauma and also said other things so actually i did not go back so my mother already
passed away my my brother already passed away so but uh i just say
that I broke the promise. That's why my stepfather still can't disappoint about me and probably,
you know, holding grudge towards me. Disappointment said something negative words about me.
So myself, actually, I still in the process of healing mentally and physically and self-image.
And I could be very wise, very smart sometimes, but sometimes I could be, you know,
the trauma syndrome or whatever. So sometimes I need healing. Right now I'm experiencing
inflammation in my head and headache, but I know it's because of years of stress and
the trauma did not take care of the healing. So, but I thank God, I, in this community, I really
so, so grateful and so appreciated because when you say something, you really touch my heart. I
was, I was tears coming out of my eyes. When I heard that God will come through me,
um, over and over, I wrote on my notebook and over and over to myself, God, you will come through me.
I, I had a first marriage and he mentally and physically abused me. So, uh, cursed me a lot,
but I, I did a lot of work for, I went to the, um, to work and make a lot of money.
And he supported me to go to college and he was successful. Um, but just a lot of things.
So I don't want to say, and I'll compare all the people's time. So, yeah, you did great joy. Thank
you for sharing that ladies in the, in this situation, joy, I want to encourage you to
forgive yourself for breaking the promise to go visit your parents. Okay. So I want, I want you
to do a forgiveness sheet about that because that kind of, that's where you started. Now,
in addition to that, I want you all to know that, um,
it is important for our yes to be yes and our no to be no. And that's not to cause shame for anyone
because I've done something before. It's very similar where I've said, Hey, I'll come and visit
you or I'll do whatever. And then I didn't do it. And, and the Lord started talking to me about that
years ago about, you know, really leaning into the importance of my word and people believing
what I say. And so it's okay for us to just be honest and, and, and say, Hey, I'm healing right
now from some of the things that I went through growing up. And you might not be able to, depending
on how your parents or the person that this situation would be with, but just be honest
and say, I'm not going to come visit at this time, but I do love you.
And, and really be willing to allow the relationship to grow through that if it's
possible. And if it's not possible in this season, in this time, just be okay with where you're at.
Okay. I do believe in reconciliation and restoration, but it can't be forced. And
sometimes the process for those things takes way longer than, you know, that immediate. And so joy,
just want to encourage you just to give yourself a lot of grace as you continue to heal. Sounds
like you're doing a great job. You know, you're here. I know that you were saying you've done
some other healing work. I want to encourage you to, you know, like I said, forgive yourself for
breaking that promise in the past, but release yourself from that just, and don't keep like for
all of us. Don't let, let us not tell people, Hey, I'm going to go do this, or I'm going to
go do that. And then not follow through on our word. It's better for us to just be honest and
say, Hey, I love you, but I can't do that in this season. Right. Yeah. And they don't have
to understand. We don't have to over-explain ourselves ladies. Okay. We can, in a kind way,
just, just say, Hey, in this season, I'm, I'm just not able to do that and let that be enough.
Yeah. Yeah. Well, this has been an awesome night ladies. It's been so good to be back with you all.
I love being here on Mondays with you and being in the group. I've been seeing some awesome
testimonies of what God is doing in your lives. It like literally makes my day when I see your post.
So I encourage you come into the group. If you haven't posted yet, come in and post,
get let, let the ladies get to know you show up because you're showing up for yourself.
Ultimately, that's who you're showing up for. So love you all. We'll see you in the
group and I hope you have an amazing night. God bless you. Bye.