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Well, welcome. Another amazing Monday night. Happy St. Patrick's Day, you all. I wore my

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green for St. Patty's Day. I was really awesome. I was looking into, and I've seen it before,

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but just because of, you know, Brian and I pastor the church here in Florida, just trying

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to help people understand what St. Patrick's Day was about. And it was really a blessing

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to read the story, a little bit of St. Patrick and the missionary work that he did. And so

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if you ever have a chance to go look that up and research that a little bit, because

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there were ups and downs of his journey and there's a blessing and a prayer that is very

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famous and I think it will bless you all as you close out your night tonight to look that

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up. So I want to encourage you to do that. For those of you just joining us, I would

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love to welcome you if you're joining us for your first, well, everybody welcome, but

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if you're joining us for your first time, if you've never been here before, put that

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in the chat for us so we can welcome you. It's so great to see all of you that are here

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as well as those that are going to catch this replay. We love you and you are just as much

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a part of us as if you're here live. And we know that that can get through to you just

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the same way as if you're here. So I want to encourage you all to continue to stay in

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the game. A couple of my announcements tonight are about that. And what I mean by that is

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that distractions are going to come for all of us. And, you know, last week I shared a

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little bit how like, and I don't want this to sound bad, but like, you know, my dad passing

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away and I got sick in the same day and I was really sick for like a week. And those

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are things that we can't avoid. Sometimes life just happens, right? But we keep going.

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And, and that's even though that week I couldn't work as much or do as many things. That was

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something that was really hard for me mentally, because I'm a go getter. You all, I like to

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be busy. I like to get things done. I like to feel like at the end of the day, I've crushed

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it. And so when I'm laid out sick and I can't do those things, that's a struggle. And I

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can even get feelings of distraction and kind of isolation and all the things that some

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of you might experience here in your course, in the heartwork journey. We know that the

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heartwork journey is, is sometimes difficult you all, but when you see it through and you

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get the breakthroughs and you get the healing and you look back on this journey and see

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how far you've come, it's, it's going to be worth it all. I promise. And so the reason

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I mentioned that about the distractions I face is that they all can look different.

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Most distractions are our kids. Sometimes it's an old flame popping up that you just

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really know you shouldn't be reconnecting with, but people just can't help themselves

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and they, they, they believe, Oh, it must be the Lord. No, guess what? Guess who else

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causes causes these people to pop up? The devil, Satan. He wants to get people off track.

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He doesn't want you to get the healing that God has brought you here to get. And so he

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will do anything he can. So just keep that in mind. I want to encourage you all to check

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out supernatural Saturday from Saturday. Jackie talked about taste and see you all guess what

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taste and see that he is good, but also the importance of us earnestly seeking the spiritual

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gifts that God has provided for all of us to operate in. And not only to earnestly seek

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them, but to walk in them and be rooted in the love of the father. As we, you know, walk

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those out in our everyday life. Welcome to those of you that have joined us in the last

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few minutes. I don't know if I said who I am. I know a lot of, you know, who I am, but

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I'm Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the master hardware coaches in this community. So what

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that means is I've been doing this for a while and now I'm training other coaches to do it

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and raising other people up. And we're just having a great time helping people heal and

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step into the fullness of who God created them to be originally before trauma or wounds

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ever entered and being a part of that process and getting a glimpse of your victories is

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such a blessing for myself and my team. And then also before I forget, I kind of got off

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segue there. Jackie also and David led the Sunday night activation last night. So that

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replay should be up in the replay tab. If it's not, it'll be up there either later tonight

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or tomorrow. But want you all to check that out too, because what they did is they then

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helped people activate the spiritual gift of, I think she, all of them, but really emphasized

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prophecy last night. This Saturday, we're going to actually be activating the gift of

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faith on Supernatural Saturday. I'll be leading that session because Jackie will be traveling.

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It's going to be a really awesome time. So I want to encourage you all to come and join

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us for that. A couple other things as you all are in the heartwork journey and beyond.

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So it doesn't just stop when you finish your heartwork and beyond.

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I want to encourage you to come out of hiding, okay?

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All the different ways that the enemy tries to get us to go into hiding and

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the things that sometimes will cause us to step back,

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including sometimes y'all are going to be excited about what God is doing

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in you in this process and in this journey and you're going to share it

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with someone and they're not going to be supportive.

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They're going to actually think what you're part of is a little weird or

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what's this all about and you're good being single don't worry

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about the you know all these different things that people say

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and I want to encourage you to just be really prayerful

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about who you're sharing things with about this process.

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You know this sister squad here everybody that's here is kind of on the

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same journey so people here that you make friends with

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would be great people to share this journey with

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and not that you can't share it with your personal friends or family but just

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really be prayerful about are they someone safe you know asking

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the Lord are they someone safe that I can share

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this with even if they love you some people if

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they're not the person that God would say yeah

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they they are a safe person just really asking the Lord about that but

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coming out of hiding is like in every area of our life so how can you

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come out of hiding more in your work situations how can you come out of

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hiding more with your friendships how can you come

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out of hiding more when you do encounter a man on the street even if

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you know it's not a romantic encounter but like not

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looking down and avoiding eye contact and all the things

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that we do that are all aspects of hiding

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and living in fear and not really showing up

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so when you're showing up also in the group

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you all participating sharing what you you know you're processing hey

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even if you're struggling and you're angry about something that's coming up

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coming in the into the group and sharing that

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is going to help you but it's also going to help other people

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one of the ladies in our one o'clock session was saying last week after I

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said this exact thing that I just said to you

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she said last week when I shared that the activation was for you all to go out

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and have fun activating fun she felt

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anger she felt anger inside of herself even hearing that that was the

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activation and so I'm curious was there anyone

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else on a last Monday night that when you heard

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hey let's activate fun did anger come up for anyone else I'm just curious it's

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okay if so some people were really really

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excited they're like yeah I want to go have fun

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but there were or maybe fear or any any kind of negative

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emotion that you experienced when you heard that was the activation just know

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that you're not alone that's the point that's why I'm asking this because

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the enemy is trying to keep you from stepping into

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like freedom and a lot of times when people are asked to have fun

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and maybe someone criticized them when they were younger like

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made a statement like you can never have fun or you can you know

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really like hurting someone's feelings or when they were trying to have fun

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they put down that person's sense of humor or

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whatever that might look like growing up I mean

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there's a lot of different factors sometimes when life is really hard and

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we're in a lot of hard seasons season after season after season

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for someone to say hey go have fun and go go activate that and practice it

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you know it's kind of like a reminder of like oh my gosh

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yeah it's been a long time since I've I've had fun

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and sometimes that's not easy so I'm saying all that to say

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if you experienced any negative feelings when I mentioned that

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that's a revealing for healing for you okay so you want to really ask the lord

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why that emotion came up for you and to reveal you know what is it what's

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causing that anger or that fear or that sadness or disappointment I see Lisa

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put that in the chat regarding fun okay and so yeah

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I look forward to hearing what y'all think about that movie when you do watch

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it so when you come into the group and post

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about your stuff it might be like I said it might be

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feelings that like as you're reading the heartwork book you're processing things

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you might have questions there's never a dumb question you all

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okay I'd rather you all come in the group and ask the questions to process

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it properly versus not coming in and saying

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anything at all and the enemy really working negatively in this process

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in you instead of positively okay the lord doing

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doing a lot of healing heart posture is key as you're going through this heart

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healing journey really important you all I know I said

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it last week and I might have even said it the week before

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the the pace is important we have someone that emailed again

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they actually know someone that is one of the leaders in this community

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and they emailed them and just said hey I've already I'm already good on the

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healing stuff and they they've been here two weeks and

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so they just don't think

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they need to stay here longer.

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And this is the thing, y'all,

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that's a revealing for healing in and of itself.

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Whether people wanna recognize that or not,

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as I said last week, I had tons of healing

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before I came into this program.

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We all need healing every day.

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That's the reality.

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And if we get to the place that we feel like

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I've got all the healing I need,

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that's a concern for me, for you all.

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And so I love you all.

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And if that's you, I don't know who the person was.

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I just know that it was a statement that was made

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and we're not upset with anyone or any of those things,

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but I want you all to know,

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I've noticed in our new group lately,

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there's several people flying right through.

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And I'm not sure why that's happening more now,

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but this is your process.

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This is your time to get everything out

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of this Esther preparation time

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that you can get to glean from the healing and the coaching

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and the things that God is literally these tools

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that he's putting in your lap

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to get free from everything

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that you might not even realize is there.

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I can't tell you all how many times things will happen.

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And it's not always the deep intensive work like this,

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but like, I'm gonna give you an example.

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I've processed a lot of things about my dad

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as I shared last week,

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with him passing and a lot processing,

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but it was interesting as we were planning the trip,

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I did not wanna fly to Cleveland.

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And it's because all of my past history with my ex husband

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was all connected to Cleveland.

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And so we were looking at Canton Akron Airport

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and Columbus Airport and all the things,

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but guess what you all, God had another plan.

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Guess where the best flights were,

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the lowest costing flights, all the things, Cleveland.

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Yes, they were.

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And so, we decided to fly into there

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and I knew right away, like, okay, Lord, it's time.

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Cause here's the reality y'all,

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I haven't been back to Cleveland since the day

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I went to the divorce court

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and signed the official final papers.

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It wasn't a coincidence that God wanted to leave me there.

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And not only that, the reason I'm sharing this story

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is as we were driving to meet a friend of mine

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to have dinner, I was kind of just looking at the road signs

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and kind of observing where we were driving,

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like, oh my gosh, yeah, I used to get off at this exit

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and just things like that.

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And I noticed this sign that was for the VA hospital.

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And all of a sudden, this memory from when I was little

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came into my spirit and my mind.

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Well, it was already there, but I recalled it, if you will.

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And so, my dad, when I was younger,

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he was in jail for a really long time.

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And when he got out of jail, he got access

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into this VA hospital in Cleveland.

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And we had to drive there to see him.

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And there were several times I remember driving away

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and crying because we, like, he was staying there

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and we were going and all the things.

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And so, I'm saying this to you all to say,

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I coach heart work every week, all week long,

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and I've been doing it for years.

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And that is not something I've thought about ever,

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like hardly ever.

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On occasion, maybe like every, I don't know, 10 years.

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But like, for whatever reason, God led me to Cleveland

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to take back some land and authority

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from the prior experiences with my ex,

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and I'll share more about that later,

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but also to bring up this memory regarding my dad

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during the time that I was in that area

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to drive down to Canton for my dad's funeral.

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Timing is everything, you all, okay?

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And so, embrace the journey, keep your heart postures open,

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what all that God has for you.

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He has so many amazing things

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He wants to give you on this journey.

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So, stay in the game.

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When the enemy comes and tries to distract you,

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don't give up, keep going,

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put one foot in front of the other.

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Okay, let me pray for us.

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I know we're already at 8.16, I can't believe it.

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The time goes so fast.

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Father, thank you so much

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for everything that you're doing for us.

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Thank you for the hearts that are here,

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the hearts that are gonna watch the replay,

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help them to receive everything that you have for them.

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Lord, I pray that you would remove barriers,

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blind spots, filters,

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even as the things I've already been sharing, Lord,

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if there's anything that's popped up in people's hearts

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where they feel frustrated or unsure about who you are, God,

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or your plan for their life, or anything negative,

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God, we just ask you to, yeah, just...

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bring your peace, that you are the God of peace.

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And in your word, it says to be still

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and know that you are God.

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So Lord, I thank you for that reminder tonight.

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We thank you that you would reveal things for healing,

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that you would bring things out of darkness into the light

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so that we can step into further breakthrough,

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further healing, further revelation,

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that we would have impartation from heaven tonight,

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that we would see ourselves through different eyes,

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that you would help us to hear what your spirit is saying

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about us, to us, and for us in this season.

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And we thank you, Holy Spirit, for being here

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and having your way in our hearts, our minds,

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our bodies, our spirits, and our souls.

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In Jesus' name, amen.

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We're talking about identity tonight.

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We're gonna talk about inner vows tonight.

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And as we start this journey,

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oh, Glenna, I grew up a little bit south of North Canton.

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I grew up in Novara, Ohio,

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a little town down below Maslin in Canton area.

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So I'm sure you probably are a little familiar with that.

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So you're a Buckeye.

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I'm a Buckeye.

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They did that on the airplane.

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Sorry, y'all, I squirreled.

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I got distracted by what she said there.

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Sorry.

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No, it's good.

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I love it.

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You could have stayed with me.

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Oh, well, I appreciate that.

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So we did have a good time.

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Like I said, we stayed in a hotel in Cleveland

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and then drove down to Seville.

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That's where the funeral was,

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out there at the National Cemetery, yeah.

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But thank you, yeah.

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And I always loved when I see where people are at,

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you know, and can make a connection with someone.

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I think that's super important

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in this process as well, you all.

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So if you all are on the, this is a good example.

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If you guys get into breakout rooms

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and you find out like you have something in common

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with someone in your breakout room,

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that's an awesome time to be like,

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oh my gosh, me too, or I've been there,

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or those kinds of things after you do the questions,

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of course, that I give you.

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Connection and friendship is everything in this process.

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As I've said before, I have a lot of friends

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that are some of my closest friends now

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that I've made through this community.

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So I believe that can be possible for you as well.

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On identity, where we're gonna start tonight,

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I want you just to be thinking about

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in regards to your identity, like how you see yourself

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and really be asking the Lord

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as I'm coaching on the content tonight, how does he see you?

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Identity shifts are required for every new season.

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Do you all know that you're in a new season right now?

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Like literally God led you here

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for the heart healing process to begin a new season,

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a new chapter, doing something new in your life.

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And he wants to remove all the old and bring in new.

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And in order to do that,

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we have to leave behind the old things.

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The Bible talks about when the new wineskins

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are coming or are there, guess what?

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We've gotta remove the old wineskins.

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And so every new season, that's totally fine, Heather.

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Thank you for letting us know.

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Every new season requires an identity shift.

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One of the things I was saying this afternoon

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that it really has struck me a lot

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is the story of King David and how when he was first,

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called forth as King and he actually served

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for seven and a half years before the people

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came to anoint him as King.

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it says that David then perceived he was King.

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Y'all, he was already serving as King.

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So how is it that seven and a half years later

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he perceived it?

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There's something to that.

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So how many of us don't perceive that we are brides,

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don't perceive that we are more than conquerors

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through Christ Jesus in our jobs, in our families,

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in our communities, in our churches.

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We have to have the identity shift in our belief system

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and that transformation on the inside in our hearts

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and how we value ourself and how we see ourself

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so that we can actually step into it

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in the season that we're in or coming into.

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And so I wanna encourage you,

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some of you are like, yeah, I wanna meet that person

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and I wanna be married

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and I want to have the blessing of marriage and children

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and all these things.

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But so often we are partnering with lies like,

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I'm better off single, I'm happier single,

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I'm good by myself.

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And so I wanna ask you to really be introspective

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as we're talking about this tonight.

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What are the lies the enemy is saying to you

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that are convincing you?

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of the opposite of God's promises and plans for you

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regarding your spirit mate, finances,

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like I said, jobs, homes, whatever it is,

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your children being reconciled,

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people coming to know the Lord that you love,

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whatever it is, what is the enemy saying?

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The opposite of what God is saying

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about you and your family.

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But most importantly, who are you?

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Who has God said that you are,

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that the enemy is always attacking

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and trying to say you're the opposite of that.

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And he's trying to convince you

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through people and situations.

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And he's coming and he's like, yep, see, I told you.

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See, I told you through this situation

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or that situation that's happening, but he's a liar.

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The devil is a liar.

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And we have to understand that God is always trying

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to give us that upgrade of understanding

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of our identity in him.

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He's trying to help us see ourselves

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with the eyes of heaven, with his heart, with his eyes,

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more and more and more every day.

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A new identity forces out the limitations of a past season.

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If we will believe, not only have faith,

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but literally get the gift of faith

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to believe in something new.

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So I just wanna encourage you,

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if you don't believe that you are a bride,

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like sincerely, not just say, yeah, that's cool,

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I'm a bride, but like really genuinely believe it

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in your spirit, then I would encourage you to pray

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for the gift of faith from heaven to believe that,

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for the things that are in you that don't believe that

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to be removed because those are limitations.

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And those limitations, they will hold you back

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from stepping into the new season that God has for you.

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So maybe it's, some of the people will say,

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well, I don't believe that someone will really love me

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and my kids.

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I don't believe that someone will love me for who I am.

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Whatever the thing is, that's attacking your identity,

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whether you realize it or not.

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Because if we believe that God, that someone would not,

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excuse me, that someone would not love us and our kids,

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guess what, there's a lie under there

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that you don't believe that you are enough as a woman

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with like, with children and other lies connected to it,

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that someone would choose you, that's good, why?

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Why do we believe that stuff?

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Because at the core somewhere,

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we don't believe in our value.

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We don't really believe it.

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Our value as a daughter of the King has been attacked

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and assaulted over and over and over again.

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And so part of this journey of your heart healing

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is realigning with who you are as God's daughter.

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And we're gonna talk next week about the real you,

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who are you really?

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And what is God trying to help you continue to step into?

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But today, tonight, we're gonna plant some seed

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in preparation for next week,

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because we have to start understanding our identity

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through the eyes of the Father.

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On that note, I wanna talk about Adam and Eve very quickly.

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Genesis 3, eight through 11 says this,

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"'Then the man and his wife heard the sound

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"'of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden

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"'in the cool of the day.

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"'And they hid from the Lord God

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"'among the trees of the garden.

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"'But the Lord God called to the man,

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"'Where are you?'

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"'And he answered,' so Adam's answering God,

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"'I heard you in the garden and I was afraid

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"'because I was naked, so I hid.'"

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Verse 11, "'And he said,' so God talking back to Adam,

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"'Who told you that you were naked?

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"'Have you eaten from the tree

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"'that I commanded you not to eat from?'

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So a couple of things I wanna point out to you,

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as I was sharing the housekeeping tonight,

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I was talking about coming out of hiding.

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And here in this story, we have Adam and Eve hiding

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because they got revelation that they were naked.

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Jackie also talked about some of this

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on Supernatural Saturday.

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It didn't even dawn on me earlier.

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There's the part of Supernatural Saturday

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where she's talking about Adam and Eve

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and how actually they didn't know they were naked

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until Adam ate of the fruit.

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And so I want y'all to listen to it for that reason as well,

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to get that additional insight

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into what the Lord's trying to say through that.

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But here's the thing, God's talking to Adam

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because Adam's saying,

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I was hiding because we were naked and they were afraid.

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Well, did they forget God's love?

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I mean, they walked with God in the cool of the day.

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They knew who he was.

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They knew his character.

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But I think when they ate of the fruit,

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it distorted their perception

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of him loving them unconditionally,

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which is so very true for so many of us

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when we sin or make mistakes,

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we believe the lie that that's separating us

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from the love of the Father when that's.

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not truth. God says, I will never leave you. I will never

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forsake you. And the Bible even says in Isaiah, that even if our

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mother forsakes us, he will not. He will not. So he says, who

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told you that you were naked? And the reason I'm putting this

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scripture along with the identity section tonight is

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because who or what are you getting your identity from right

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now in this season? What is informing your identity? Who or

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what? What we've eaten, so to speak, taken in through trauma

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through the wounds we've experienced, personally, as well

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as ladies, I'm going to expand this not just the wounds we've

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experienced, but some of you have witnessed and watched other

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people being traumatized, or know about a situation. So for

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example, when I was in fourth grade, my brother, my oldest

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brother, my sister, and my mom were hit by a drunk driver. I

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was not in that car. I did not see that accident happen. But

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y'all better believe that was one of the most traumatic things

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of my life, knowing that they were hit by a drunk driver. I

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didn't even know until the next day, but going to the hospital,

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seeing my brother in a coma for a very long time, my sister had

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to have brain surgery. Thankfully, my mom walked away

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from that accident with just a couple, you know, minor

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injuries on her leg. But I'm saying all that to say that was

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a massive trauma that I had to work through, but I didn't see

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it. And I wasn't there. But it impacted me in a in a massive

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way. And so sometimes the traumas and the things that

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we've eaten, so to speak, are from those kind of situations as

489
00:26:39.120 --> 00:26:42.680
well. You know, or maybe as a child, you were watching your

490
00:26:42.680 --> 00:26:45.320
mother or your father being abused, because ladies, it's not

491
00:26:45.320 --> 00:26:48.880
just the men abusing the women we've got, you know, we hear all

492
00:26:48.880 --> 00:26:53.040
the time about women abusing men. And and I know, excuse me,

493
00:26:53.040 --> 00:26:56.480
a lot of men that that's happened to. So here's the next

494
00:26:56.480 --> 00:26:59.760
one about what or who are you getting your identity from right

495
00:26:59.760 --> 00:27:03.480
now? Are you getting it from what people have said to you?

496
00:27:07.240 --> 00:27:11.440
Yeah, Sylvia, you could absolutely feel trauma from

497
00:27:11.440 --> 00:27:15.480
being a widow. I have a good friend of mine and several women

498
00:27:15.480 --> 00:27:20.200
that have also gone through this program, that really had a lot

499
00:27:20.200 --> 00:27:23.400
of trauma to come out of because of losing their former

500
00:27:23.400 --> 00:27:28.080
spouse, and all the impact of things that have happened. And

501
00:27:28.080 --> 00:27:32.120
one lady in particular, her mother lost her husband at a

502
00:27:32.120 --> 00:27:35.800
younger age as well. And so then she also did. And there were

503
00:27:35.800 --> 00:27:39.040
things that her mother said to her and trying to help her like

504
00:27:39.240 --> 00:27:41.880
in a loving way. She wasn't her mom wasn't trying to hurt her.

505
00:27:42.080 --> 00:27:46.280
But it was words spoken over her that caused her to feel like it

506
00:27:46.280 --> 00:27:48.640
wasn't really okay for her to marry again.

507
00:27:50.200 --> 00:27:54.000
Because she had such a great marriage already, even though he

508
00:27:54.000 --> 00:27:57.120
passed away. And so there's a lot of different kinds of trauma

509
00:27:57.120 --> 00:28:01.520
or even things that people say that can inform our current

510
00:28:01.560 --> 00:28:06.120
identity. Okay, so she until God has been breaking her free from

511
00:28:06.120 --> 00:28:10.640
that she was really struggling. She she believes God has someone

512
00:28:10.640 --> 00:28:14.080
else for her. But internally, that's what I'm saying the shift

513
00:28:14.080 --> 00:28:17.800
has to happen. We can have it up here like we want it and we

514
00:28:17.800 --> 00:28:21.480
believe it. But our hearts are telling us something different.

515
00:28:21.920 --> 00:28:26.640
Our soul is being informed by something else. Sometimes it's

516
00:28:26.640 --> 00:28:29.920
the enemy telling us and saying things to us about who we are.

517
00:28:29.920 --> 00:28:33.240
So he can use people to say it to us. And sometimes he's saying

518
00:28:33.240 --> 00:28:36.360
it directly to our minds. And he's trying to come into our

519
00:28:36.360 --> 00:28:40.120
dreams. And he's trying to torment us in even the daytime,

520
00:28:40.120 --> 00:28:43.880
the nighttime, all these things. And the enemy could be the one

521
00:28:43.880 --> 00:28:49.200
trying to inform your identity. Or on the positive side, is God

522
00:28:49.240 --> 00:28:53.400
the one informing your identity? So just being asked, you know,

523
00:28:53.400 --> 00:28:58.000
be asking yourself that tonight and in the days ahead, like when

524
00:28:58.000 --> 00:29:00.480
you have a thought or something happens, or you're around

525
00:29:00.480 --> 00:29:03.440
someone and they say something to you. And have you ever had

526
00:29:03.440 --> 00:29:05.520
that feeling like when someone says something and you're just

527
00:29:05.520 --> 00:29:10.320
like, Oh, that didn't feel good. Even though sometimes what

528
00:29:10.320 --> 00:29:14.440
they're saying sounds good. It doesn't feel good to your

529
00:29:14.440 --> 00:29:18.960
spirit. Well, guess what you all, that's the Holy Spirit

530
00:29:18.960 --> 00:29:24.840
sometimes saying, wait a minute. Uh, that's not truth. You know,

531
00:29:24.840 --> 00:29:28.480
and that can happen in church sometimes to some pastors are

532
00:29:28.480 --> 00:29:31.560
preaching messages from the pulpit about how everybody

533
00:29:31.560 --> 00:29:34.440
should just be happy being single. You know, we got to be

534
00:29:34.440 --> 00:29:38.040
careful what we're listening to, and taking into our ear gates

535
00:29:38.040 --> 00:29:41.720
and our eye gates. And even on you know, TV, all these massive

536
00:29:41.720 --> 00:29:48.360
romance things that are just not real, y'all. I promise. It's not

537
00:29:48.360 --> 00:29:51.200
real. Guess what I was thinking about this, this might make y'all

538
00:29:51.200 --> 00:29:56.240
laugh. I was thinking about this today. I remember going on my

539
00:29:56.240 --> 00:29:59.160
honeymoon, and I had been on a honeymoon y'all before but for

540
00:29:59.160 --> 00:30:00.000
whatever reason

541
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:01.880
This was way more real this time.

542
00:30:03.200 --> 00:30:04.920
And just being like, oh gosh,

543
00:30:04.920 --> 00:30:07.800
I didn't think about the fact that we're sharing,

544
00:30:07.800 --> 00:30:10.800
you know, hotel room and you, you know, both people,

545
00:30:10.800 --> 00:30:12.560
the first time you're staying away

546
00:30:12.560 --> 00:30:16.360
and you're having to use the bathroom, you know,

547
00:30:16.360 --> 00:30:17.740
and you're just like, oh,

548
00:30:18.640 --> 00:30:20.680
I didn't think about that on the honeymoon.

549
00:30:20.680 --> 00:30:21.840
You know, all these little things

550
00:30:21.840 --> 00:30:23.200
and I'm just kind of making light,

551
00:30:23.200 --> 00:30:26.580
but like just things like that that happen

552
00:30:26.580 --> 00:30:28.920
that are normal everyday life,

553
00:30:28.940 --> 00:30:30.580
but until you're in that situation,

554
00:30:30.580 --> 00:30:32.180
you're not thinking about it.

555
00:30:32.180 --> 00:30:33.500
And I know that's kind of being,

556
00:30:33.500 --> 00:30:34.860
I'm trying to be a little funny

557
00:30:34.860 --> 00:30:36.900
as I'm kind of just shifting a little bit

558
00:30:36.900 --> 00:30:38.620
in our conversation tonight,

559
00:30:38.620 --> 00:30:40.700
but like all these things that impact us

560
00:30:40.700 --> 00:30:43.740
and make us insecure and all these things,

561
00:30:43.740 --> 00:30:45.220
but I guess I was saying that too,

562
00:30:45.220 --> 00:30:48.820
because the movies don't portray that kind of stuff.

563
00:30:48.820 --> 00:30:50.720
And that's real life, okay?

564
00:30:50.720 --> 00:30:52.460
I'm not saying that's the main point

565
00:30:52.460 --> 00:30:53.660
or that's the main focus,

566
00:30:53.660 --> 00:30:56.660
but there's all kinds of things that are in movies

567
00:30:56.660 --> 00:30:59.200
that just never happen, okay?

568
00:30:59.200 --> 00:31:02.560
And so let's not let media inform our minds

569
00:31:02.560 --> 00:31:07.560
and our identity and cause us to have all this pressure

570
00:31:07.600 --> 00:31:08.920
about some of these things

571
00:31:08.920 --> 00:31:11.600
that are just never gonna happen.

572
00:31:11.600 --> 00:31:14.520
So on that note, I wanna activate you all.

573
00:31:14.520 --> 00:31:16.560
I want you to put in the chat for me,

574
00:31:16.560 --> 00:31:20.800
two to three words that come to mind right now,

575
00:31:20.800 --> 00:31:22.640
super quick about who you are,

576
00:31:22.640 --> 00:31:24.480
and I don't want you to filter yourself.

577
00:31:24.500 --> 00:31:26.700
So if there's anything negative that comes up,

578
00:31:26.700 --> 00:31:28.200
put that in the chat too.

579
00:31:28.200 --> 00:31:30.380
If it's all positive, awesome.

580
00:31:30.380 --> 00:31:32.260
But what are two to three words right now,

581
00:31:32.260 --> 00:31:35.620
super quick that come to mind about who you are?

582
00:31:35.620 --> 00:31:36.940
What is your identity?

583
00:31:36.940 --> 00:31:38.400
Who are you?

584
00:31:38.400 --> 00:31:40.500
Put those in the chat for me.

585
00:31:40.500 --> 00:31:41.780
And as you're putting those in the chat,

586
00:31:41.780 --> 00:31:43.580
I'm gonna keep going

587
00:31:43.580 --> 00:31:47.000
just so that we don't get too far behind on time.

588
00:31:47.000 --> 00:31:47.900
I want you to think about

589
00:31:47.900 --> 00:31:50.980
what does your root system look like?

590
00:31:51.960 --> 00:31:54.640
What I mean by that is down in your soul,

591
00:31:54.640 --> 00:31:57.680
you've got soil, you've got things in there,

592
00:31:57.680 --> 00:32:00.780
and what's planted in your soul,

593
00:32:00.780 --> 00:32:02.120
is it good?

594
00:32:02.120 --> 00:32:03.800
Is it healthy?

595
00:32:03.800 --> 00:32:06.900
Or is it unhealthy and not good stuff?

596
00:32:06.900 --> 00:32:08.680
Or maybe there's a mix,

597
00:32:08.680 --> 00:32:11.880
because the reality is if we carry pain in us,

598
00:32:11.880 --> 00:32:15.120
if we have all these unhealed areas, guess what y'all?

599
00:32:15.120 --> 00:32:17.440
There's roots down in there that are unhealthy

600
00:32:17.440 --> 00:32:19.380
that need to be uprooted.

601
00:32:20.380 --> 00:32:22.120
They need to be taken out over time.

602
00:32:22.120 --> 00:32:25.940
And that doesn't have to be an abrupt, harmful process,

603
00:32:25.940 --> 00:32:29.440
but it is a process that we need to go through.

604
00:32:29.440 --> 00:32:31.220
So what does your root system look like?

605
00:32:31.220 --> 00:32:34.280
What are the things going on in your soul and your spirit

606
00:32:34.280 --> 00:32:36.160
when someone cuts you off in traffic?

607
00:32:36.160 --> 00:32:37.600
What are you thinking?

608
00:32:37.600 --> 00:32:38.880
What's coming out of your mouth?

609
00:32:38.880 --> 00:32:40.520
What's coming out of your spirit

610
00:32:40.520 --> 00:32:43.780
when someone is mean to your kid,

611
00:32:43.780 --> 00:32:46.880
or someone says something to you at work that's offensive,

612
00:32:46.880 --> 00:32:48.840
or all these different things.

613
00:32:48.860 --> 00:32:50.580
Someone says something on social media.

614
00:32:50.580 --> 00:32:52.740
We're so, y'all, I'm not gonna go into politics,

615
00:32:52.740 --> 00:32:55.100
but I'm just gonna say this.

616
00:32:55.100 --> 00:32:56.580
Everybody's got an opinion

617
00:32:56.580 --> 00:33:00.500
and everybody's so enraged all the time.

618
00:33:00.500 --> 00:33:03.440
I don't believe that is God's spirit.

619
00:33:03.440 --> 00:33:04.340
I don't.

620
00:33:04.340 --> 00:33:06.540
I don't think that is God's spirit for us.

621
00:33:06.540 --> 00:33:10.340
And so we need to look at why are we getting zero to 180

622
00:33:10.340 --> 00:33:15.080
angry all the time in our day in society and time?

623
00:33:15.080 --> 00:33:16.820
So let's be looking at what is,

624
00:33:16.840 --> 00:33:20.440
so the roots, and then we're thinking about the fruits.

625
00:33:20.440 --> 00:33:22.200
So the fruit is how it shows up.

626
00:33:22.200 --> 00:33:24.000
How does it manifest?

627
00:33:24.000 --> 00:33:26.160
Are you manifesting the fruits of the spirit,

628
00:33:26.160 --> 00:33:29.760
which are love, joy, peace, kindness, goodness,

629
00:33:29.760 --> 00:33:32.220
patience, gentleness, self-control?

630
00:33:32.220 --> 00:33:34.840
Are those showing up in your life?

631
00:33:34.840 --> 00:33:38.200
Or are other fruits showing up in your life

632
00:33:38.200 --> 00:33:41.720
that look a little decayed, that look a little harsh,

633
00:33:41.720 --> 00:33:43.880
that maybe jealousy and all these things?

634
00:33:43.900 --> 00:33:46.860
So I'm gonna give you some examples of the unhealthy fruit,

635
00:33:46.860 --> 00:33:48.500
but I want you to be thinking about

636
00:33:48.500 --> 00:33:50.920
what's showing up in your life.

637
00:33:52.940 --> 00:33:55.400
This is one of the ways you can tell

638
00:33:56.860 --> 00:33:58.500
what is a root versus a fruit.

639
00:33:58.500 --> 00:34:00.220
And this is from the HeartWork book,

640
00:34:00.220 --> 00:34:02.060
and I'm gonna come back and circle back to the things

641
00:34:02.060 --> 00:34:04.940
that y'all put in the chat here in just a minute.

642
00:34:04.940 --> 00:34:06.660
Fruits versus roots.

643
00:34:06.660 --> 00:34:10.040
Fruits are the emotional or physical manifestations

644
00:34:10.040 --> 00:34:13.280
and the subsequent actions you have been taking

645
00:34:13.620 --> 00:34:16.139
as a result of what you believe in your heart.

646
00:34:17.100 --> 00:34:18.980
So remember, what we believe in our heart,

647
00:34:18.980 --> 00:34:21.699
what's in our hearts, out of the overflow of our heart,

648
00:34:21.699 --> 00:34:23.659
our mouth is gonna speak.

649
00:34:23.659 --> 00:34:27.179
And that's the actions we're also gonna produce, okay?

650
00:34:27.179 --> 00:34:31.900
Fruits may include sickness, self-pity.

651
00:34:31.900 --> 00:34:34.679
So these are the unhealthy fruits, just so y'all know,

652
00:34:34.679 --> 00:34:37.600
just to make that differentiation, okay?

653
00:34:37.600 --> 00:34:41.179
Self-pity, a victim mentality, despair.

654
00:34:41.179 --> 00:34:43.800
So not just sadness, but the despair.

655
00:34:43.800 --> 00:34:47.520
And y'all, that can be like a very deep grief,

656
00:34:47.520 --> 00:34:49.880
heavy, laden, like people really have a hard time

657
00:34:49.880 --> 00:34:53.000
coming out of deep, deep sadness, okay?

658
00:34:54.040 --> 00:34:58.200
Suicidal tendencies, disgust, judgment.

659
00:34:58.200 --> 00:35:00.900
Just a side note, if you have a problem with judgment.

660
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.180
others, it's because you have a fragmented heart. A judgmental heart is a

661
00:35:04.180 --> 00:35:09.540
hurting heart. Some more fruits are obesity, perversion, addiction, sexual

662
00:35:09.540 --> 00:35:14.460
dysfunction. Y'all, the pornography, struggles, all that goes all together,

663
00:35:14.460 --> 00:35:21.420
okay? Hopelessness, hatred, self-hatred. Just so you know, all forms of hatred

664
00:35:21.420 --> 00:35:27.500
begin with self-hatred. You can't hate someone else without hating yourself.

665
00:35:27.500 --> 00:35:32.140
Some other fruits that are unhealthy that show up in our lives, abrasiveness,

666
00:35:32.140 --> 00:35:38.540
short temper, irritability, jealousy, envy, competitiveness, comparing yourself with

667
00:35:38.540 --> 00:35:44.580
other people, gossiping, backstabbing, being unhappy, ungratefulness, selfishness,

668
00:35:44.580 --> 00:35:50.940
having a poverty mentality. If you are habitually negative, unfaithful, or have

669
00:35:50.940 --> 00:35:56.500
any form of dis, including disease, disconnection, discontent, and

670
00:35:56.500 --> 00:36:02.620
disappointment, you are suffering from a broken heart. I could go on and on,

671
00:36:02.620 --> 00:36:08.480
and as you can see, what we often believe is the problem is just the fruit of the

672
00:36:08.480 --> 00:36:13.300
real problem. If we really want to, if we really want these areas of our lives to

673
00:36:13.300 --> 00:36:18.260
become healthy and abundant, we have to pull these things out by the root. And

674
00:36:18.260 --> 00:36:23.900
that means locating and isolating the lie that we believe that is at the core

675
00:36:24.260 --> 00:36:30.660
of these behaviors. Okay? And so we've talked about, like, when I ask you all,

676
00:36:30.660 --> 00:36:36.300
what's the root? What's the first time you remember feeling this or thinking this?

677
00:36:36.300 --> 00:36:40.180
That, the reason I ask you that is I'm trying to help you lean into the Holy

678
00:36:40.180 --> 00:36:46.780
Spirit and pray to find out, like, okay, Lord, when is the root, the first time?

679
00:36:46.780 --> 00:36:51.660
And we do our best to discern that. We just process what comes up, and sometimes

680
00:36:51.660 --> 00:36:56.060
that will be the root, but other times God will then show you another thing

681
00:36:56.060 --> 00:36:59.940
that's connected to that first thing that's come up. And so I want to encourage

682
00:36:59.940 --> 00:37:03.820
you all to continue, I'm so sorry, I'm stumbling over my words, continue to give

683
00:37:03.820 --> 00:37:12.020
yourself grace and a lot of just patience in this process because as you're seeking

684
00:37:12.020 --> 00:37:17.580
the Lord, trusting what you hear, the process of this heart healing also,

685
00:37:17.580 --> 00:37:22.940
you all, from my perspective, is about you all learning to trust yourselves again.

686
00:37:22.940 --> 00:37:27.300
So many people, including myself, when I went through my heart healing,

687
00:37:27.300 --> 00:37:31.620
there were so many aspects and ways I didn't fully trust myself because there

688
00:37:31.620 --> 00:37:38.860
were times I had made, like, healthy vows and promises to myself that I broke.

689
00:37:38.860 --> 00:37:42.580
And every time I broke a promise to myself, even little things, ladies,

690
00:37:42.580 --> 00:37:46.220
I try to really watch that in my life today. Like, if I say I'm going to do

691
00:37:46.260 --> 00:37:50.300
something, whether it's for myself or someone else, I try to always follow

692
00:37:50.300 --> 00:37:54.060
through in that because when I don't, every time I don't follow through on

693
00:37:54.060 --> 00:38:00.220
that, it actually diminishes my own belief in myself, in my confidence in

694
00:38:00.220 --> 00:38:04.380
myself, and all those things. But when we're here in heart healing, we can start

695
00:38:04.380 --> 00:38:10.420
to heal from some of that and really lean into, you know, what is God trying to

696
00:38:10.420 --> 00:38:15.060
help us to keep, you know, our promises to ourselves, trust ourselves, grow in

697
00:38:15.060 --> 00:38:18.900
understanding who we are, and all of the things coming out of those counterfeit

698
00:38:18.900 --> 00:38:23.660
identities and stepping into the true, real you. All right, let me look at the

699
00:38:23.660 --> 00:38:28.860
chat here. I want to check on these real quick. All right, bubbly, optimistic,

700
00:38:28.860 --> 00:38:33.140
joyful, Alina says not sure, and that's totally okay. That's why we're talking

701
00:38:33.140 --> 00:38:36.780
about this tonight. So hopefully you'll, you know, continue to gain

702
00:38:36.780 --> 00:38:41.340
understanding of who you are more and more. Daughter of the Most High, loved,

703
00:38:41.340 --> 00:38:46.340
adored, procrastinator, lacking self-confidence, kind, funny, positive,

704
00:38:46.340 --> 00:38:51.420
enthusiastic, confused, widow, love kids, loved by God, beloved daughter,

705
00:38:51.420 --> 00:38:57.380
victorious, conqueror, brave, God's daughter, straightforward, I am chosen, I

706
00:38:57.380 --> 00:39:02.260
am anointed, and a daughter of the King of Kings, overweight, in need of healing

707
00:39:02.300 --> 00:39:06.660
all over my body, woman of God, sensitive, compassionate, I know I'm a

708
00:39:06.660 --> 00:39:09.380
child of, okay, Alina's saying I know I'm a child of God, a queen, that's

709
00:39:09.380 --> 00:39:15.700
awesome, hopeful, energetic, overcomer, beautiful, heart, anointed to do good,

710
00:39:15.980 --> 00:39:21.060
wise, faithful, let's see, Sylvia says mine says princess, but heart was low

711
00:39:21.060 --> 00:39:25.420
self-esteem. I feel like I'm nobody without my husband. Okay, we're going to

712
00:39:25.420 --> 00:39:31.300
talk about that a little bit. All right, I wanted to, oh, and Ruth says tired,

713
00:39:31.300 --> 00:39:34.700
defeated, lost, and scared. I wanted to read all of those for the people that

714
00:39:34.700 --> 00:39:38.900
are even watching the replay, because, and even for all of you here that are

715
00:39:38.900 --> 00:39:44.780
live, because so many times we struggle to know who we are in Christ, but when

716
00:39:44.780 --> 00:39:49.980
we hear what someone else says, we're like, oh, I feel that too, even if it's

717
00:39:49.980 --> 00:39:55.540
a negative sometimes. But understanding and really being willing to look at the

718
00:39:55.540 --> 00:39:58.740
negative things that we believe ourselves, about ourselves is really

719
00:39:58.740 --> 00:40:00.060
important. And we're, like I said, we're going to

720
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.180
talk about that part more next week.

721
00:40:02.180 --> 00:40:05.000
So just come with an expectant heart.

722
00:40:05.000 --> 00:40:08.240
We're gonna really lean into coming out of the negative

723
00:40:08.240 --> 00:40:09.400
and into the positive.

724
00:40:09.400 --> 00:40:11.320
And some of you do have a lot of positive,

725
00:40:11.320 --> 00:40:15.080
we heard it tonight, but there's still so much more.

726
00:40:15.080 --> 00:40:18.520
For some of you, as Diana was really transparent

727
00:40:18.520 --> 00:40:22.160
and shared, overweight and need of healing in her body.

728
00:40:22.160 --> 00:40:25.320
And so ladies, these are things that are informing

729
00:40:25.320 --> 00:40:27.460
our identity right now.

730
00:40:27.460 --> 00:40:31.180
So when we go into these friendships or even romantic,

731
00:40:31.180 --> 00:40:33.140
we're trying to date, guess what?

732
00:40:33.140 --> 00:40:35.840
We're showing up with those lies in our spirit.

733
00:40:37.140 --> 00:40:39.380
And it doesn't mean like, I'm carrying more weight

734
00:40:39.380 --> 00:40:43.620
on my body right now and I need to lose some weight as well.

735
00:40:43.620 --> 00:40:45.980
We moved here to Florida and everybody wants to eat

736
00:40:45.980 --> 00:40:48.900
and it's been just one of those things.

737
00:40:48.900 --> 00:40:51.100
Pastors, we go out to eat with people a lot,

738
00:40:51.100 --> 00:40:55.020
but working on better choices, getting more active

739
00:40:55.020 --> 00:40:57.500
and taking care of our bodies, that is important.

740
00:40:57.500 --> 00:41:00.060
Okay, so I'm not saying we shouldn't want to shift

741
00:41:00.060 --> 00:41:01.740
if we need to get healthier.

742
00:41:01.740 --> 00:41:03.380
You know, I've battled a lot of sickness

743
00:41:03.380 --> 00:41:04.220
in the last few weeks.

744
00:41:04.220 --> 00:41:06.920
So I'm gonna be working on kind of detoxing my body

745
00:41:06.920 --> 00:41:09.220
from medicines and all kinds of stuff

746
00:41:09.220 --> 00:41:12.140
and really rebuilding my body up.

747
00:41:12.140 --> 00:41:15.260
And the reason I'm saying that is because it doesn't mean

748
00:41:15.260 --> 00:41:17.140
that we can't acknowledge areas

749
00:41:17.140 --> 00:41:20.060
we need to shift genuinely, okay?

750
00:41:20.060 --> 00:41:23.540
But what I wanna make sure is that we don't look

751
00:41:23.580 --> 00:41:27.580
at ourselves in the mirror and just put ourselves down,

752
00:41:27.580 --> 00:41:29.980
mentally, verbally.

753
00:41:29.980 --> 00:41:34.220
You know, somebody, I was talking to someone the other day

754
00:41:34.220 --> 00:41:39.220
and they were just like, man, I'm so stupid.

755
00:41:39.280 --> 00:41:41.420
Like they said it out of their own mouth

756
00:41:41.420 --> 00:41:42.460
just as we were talking.

757
00:41:42.460 --> 00:41:44.020
I'm like, no, you're not.

758
00:41:44.020 --> 00:41:48.180
You know, and so really helping our own selves recognize

759
00:41:48.180 --> 00:41:51.460
when we're having thoughts like that, that are not truth.

760
00:41:51.500 --> 00:41:54.540
You aren't stupid, you're smart.

761
00:41:54.540 --> 00:41:56.980
God has gifted you with the brain and knowledge

762
00:41:56.980 --> 00:41:58.140
and guess what?

763
00:41:58.140 --> 00:41:59.940
He can continue to give us.

764
00:41:59.940 --> 00:42:01.660
Did you know that the Bible actually says

765
00:42:01.660 --> 00:42:03.940
He can not only renew our minds day by day,

766
00:42:03.940 --> 00:42:06.380
but He can give us like new understanding

767
00:42:06.380 --> 00:42:09.320
and revelation from heaven every single day.

768
00:42:10.300 --> 00:42:11.320
So guess what you all?

769
00:42:11.320 --> 00:42:15.820
That means, and our brains literally regenerate.

770
00:42:15.820 --> 00:42:18.240
They develop new cells.

771
00:42:18.240 --> 00:42:19.100
So guess what?

772
00:42:19.100 --> 00:42:21.920
I think our brains can grow stronger.

773
00:42:21.920 --> 00:42:24.320
I think we can grow in knowledge.

774
00:42:24.320 --> 00:42:27.680
So no matter what you believed about yourself in the past,

775
00:42:27.680 --> 00:42:29.160
that doesn't have to be your forever

776
00:42:29.160 --> 00:42:31.360
and that's never been the truth.

777
00:42:31.360 --> 00:42:35.280
And so whatever we wanna choose to step into is up to us.

778
00:42:35.280 --> 00:42:37.280
Remember, as I said in the beginning,

779
00:42:37.280 --> 00:42:39.980
in order for us to move into our new season

780
00:42:39.980 --> 00:42:43.280
and step into our true identity,

781
00:42:43.280 --> 00:42:46.480
we've gotta get rid of the limitations.

782
00:42:46.480 --> 00:42:49.120
So if your limitation is in your mind

783
00:42:49.120 --> 00:42:51.080
more than anywhere else, guess what?

784
00:42:51.080 --> 00:42:53.200
That's connected to heart trauma

785
00:42:53.200 --> 00:42:55.620
and wounds and lies you're believing.

786
00:42:55.620 --> 00:42:56.760
It's not just your mind.

787
00:42:56.760 --> 00:42:59.320
It is your mind and we've gotta control the mind

788
00:42:59.320 --> 00:43:03.520
and pray that God would give us that spirit of self-control

789
00:43:03.520 --> 00:43:08.440
and really tame what are like, okay, I had that thought.

790
00:43:08.440 --> 00:43:09.660
Where did that come from?

791
00:43:09.660 --> 00:43:11.120
And we're processing those things

792
00:43:11.120 --> 00:43:12.900
instead of just receiving them.

793
00:43:14.320 --> 00:43:15.280
Okay?

794
00:43:15.280 --> 00:43:17.600
All right, I'm gonna put you into your breakout.

795
00:43:17.600 --> 00:43:18.440
It's gonna be really good.

796
00:43:18.440 --> 00:43:21.480
I'm excited for you all to talk about this with each other.

797
00:43:21.480 --> 00:43:24.120
What is a negative root that you need to confess tonight

798
00:43:24.120 --> 00:43:26.600
and gain healing in, okay?

799
00:43:26.600 --> 00:43:28.380
And then I also want you to talk about

800
00:43:28.380 --> 00:43:30.440
what is a positive root

801
00:43:30.440 --> 00:43:32.540
you're gonna partner with more in the days ahead

802
00:43:32.540 --> 00:43:37.380
because we all have negative things, unhealthy roots

803
00:43:37.380 --> 00:43:40.380
and we all have healthy, positive things

804
00:43:40.380 --> 00:43:43.400
that are producing good fruit, okay?

805
00:43:43.400 --> 00:43:45.440
All right, let me get these rooms ready.

806
00:43:47.560 --> 00:43:49.400
Excuse me, I'm getting so much better

807
00:43:49.400 --> 00:43:51.920
but I still have this lingering cough

808
00:43:51.920 --> 00:43:53.540
that's just showing up a little bit tonight

809
00:43:53.540 --> 00:43:54.880
because it's getting later.

810
00:43:55.880 --> 00:43:57.680
So I apologize for that.

811
00:43:58.560 --> 00:44:00.720
And I'm gonna give you all, yeah, eight minutes.

812
00:44:00.720 --> 00:44:02.940
So talk about that question first.

813
00:44:02.940 --> 00:44:04.120
What is a negative root

814
00:44:04.120 --> 00:44:05.920
that you need to confess and gain healing in?

815
00:44:05.920 --> 00:44:07.180
And what is a positive root

816
00:44:07.180 --> 00:44:08.640
that you're gonna choose to partner with more

817
00:44:08.640 --> 00:44:09.720
in the days ahead?

818
00:44:09.720 --> 00:44:10.720
Talk about that first.

819
00:44:10.720 --> 00:44:13.160
If you have extra time, get to know each other,

820
00:44:13.920 --> 00:44:17.520
where are you from, how did God lead you here?

821
00:44:17.520 --> 00:44:19.780
Or do you have pets or anything fun?

822
00:44:19.780 --> 00:44:22.520
You guys can just have fun, get to know each other, okay?

823
00:44:22.520 --> 00:44:24.760
Here you go, go ahead and click to join that.

824
00:44:33.840 --> 00:44:36.020
All right, go ahead and click to join those

825
00:44:36.020 --> 00:44:37.520
as quick as you can, ladies.

826
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:10.320
All right, I think I've got everyone situated, so I'm going to start to pray.

827
00:45:10.320 --> 00:45:17.840
Father, thank you so much for your just amazing grace and your mercy that is new every morning.

828
00:45:17.840 --> 00:45:22.920
And not only your mercy regarding forgiveness and grace that we can receive, but the mercy

829
00:45:22.920 --> 00:45:28.960
regarding just these revelations of new identity and the understanding new mercy and revelation

830
00:45:28.960 --> 00:45:32.920
and insight from heaven that you're just pouring down over us tonight.

831
00:45:32.920 --> 00:45:37.800
I thank you, God, that you are transforming us from the inside out.

832
00:45:37.800 --> 00:45:40.800
Lord, I thank you.

833
00:45:40.800 --> 00:45:47.600
I just had a vision of like when they are doing surgery and they pack, you know, all

834
00:45:47.600 --> 00:45:52.120
this stuff into the wound to kind of get the bleeding to stop.

835
00:45:52.120 --> 00:45:53.120
That had already happened.

836
00:45:53.120 --> 00:45:55.520
What I saw was the gauze was being taken out.

837
00:45:55.520 --> 00:45:57.160
So just want to speak into that.

838
00:45:57.160 --> 00:45:59.760
I trust the Lord is going to minister to someone through that.

839
00:45:59.760 --> 00:46:03.640
So basically what I hear the Holy Spirit saying is that the surgery has been it's already

840
00:46:03.640 --> 00:46:09.200
happened and you're in the season of God's taken that gauze out because they're about

841
00:46:09.200 --> 00:46:17.620
to close that that incision area up and the more healing and grace is about to happen.

842
00:46:17.620 --> 00:46:21.800
And so some of you feel like you're beyond repair and that's not truth.

843
00:46:21.800 --> 00:46:26.240
God is saying you're you're in the season that I have for you, Kalia.

844
00:46:26.320 --> 00:46:29.360
Okay, I just sent you a link to join the breakout session.

845
00:46:29.360 --> 00:46:34.440
The ladies are talking about what is a negative root that you need to confess and gain healing

846
00:46:34.440 --> 00:46:37.480
and then what's a positive root that you're going to partner with in the days ahead and

847
00:46:37.480 --> 00:46:42.360
the ladies can if you just want to listen to what they're sharing in the room and then

848
00:46:42.360 --> 00:46:48.480
you can ask him questions if you need to but feel free to join that room if you'd like.

849
00:46:48.480 --> 00:46:53.320
So as I continue to pray just Lord on that what you shared Lord, I thank you that you

850
00:46:53.320 --> 00:46:55.600
would oh you hit the button to leave Jennifer.

851
00:46:55.600 --> 00:47:01.600
Okay, let me I don't know if I can put you back into that same room.

852
00:47:01.600 --> 00:47:04.000
Let me put you in a different room.

853
00:47:04.000 --> 00:47:06.600
There you go.

854
00:47:06.600 --> 00:47:11.240
Sorry, I didn't see your message at first.

855
00:47:11.240 --> 00:47:12.240
You got that?

856
00:47:12.240 --> 00:47:13.240
Okay, cool.

857
00:47:13.240 --> 00:47:18.960
So father, we just thank you for that word and that reminder that you're always working

858
00:47:18.960 --> 00:47:24.040
Lord in our situations even when we can't see it in the physical realm that you're doing

859
00:47:24.040 --> 00:47:25.880
stuff in the supernatural realm.

860
00:47:25.880 --> 00:47:31.480
You're moving things you're healing you're redeeming you're restoring and you're rebuilding

861
00:47:31.480 --> 00:47:33.880
pretty did you get kicked out?

862
00:47:33.880 --> 00:47:40.520
Actually, I'm having some sound trouble and so I didn't quite understand the question

863
00:47:40.520 --> 00:47:45.920
and the person I was in my room with I think also didn't get the question so something

864
00:47:45.920 --> 00:47:46.920
about the root.

865
00:47:46.920 --> 00:47:47.920
I'm sorry.

866
00:47:47.920 --> 00:47:48.920
Can you reshare?

867
00:47:48.920 --> 00:47:49.920
Yeah, that's okay.

868
00:47:49.920 --> 00:47:52.640
Unfortunately, I won't be able to put you back in that room.

869
00:47:52.640 --> 00:47:58.000
You'll have to click to rejoin it like I will be able to yeah, the question is what

870
00:47:58.000 --> 00:48:01.480
is a negative root that you need to confess and gain healing?

871
00:48:01.480 --> 00:48:05.120
So remember the fruit that's displayed in our life.

872
00:48:05.120 --> 00:48:12.000
So if we have unhealthy fruit, so complaining gossiping being jealous and being, you know,

873
00:48:12.000 --> 00:48:16.000
all those those are fruits and those fruits are connected to a negative root.

874
00:48:16.000 --> 00:48:17.000
So where did it start?

875
00:48:17.000 --> 00:48:18.000
Oh, okay.

876
00:48:18.000 --> 00:48:19.000
Okay.

877
00:48:19.000 --> 00:48:20.000
Okay.

878
00:48:20.000 --> 00:48:21.000
Yeah.

879
00:48:21.000 --> 00:48:22.000
Yeah.

880
00:48:22.360 --> 00:48:23.360
Go ahead.

881
00:48:23.360 --> 00:48:24.360
I think I got the second part.

882
00:48:24.360 --> 00:48:25.360
It was just the first part.

883
00:48:25.360 --> 00:48:26.360
I was not sure.

884
00:48:26.360 --> 00:48:27.360
Okay.

885
00:48:27.360 --> 00:48:28.360
Thanks.

886
00:48:28.360 --> 00:48:29.360
Awesome.

887
00:48:29.360 --> 00:48:30.360
Do you see the button to click to rejoin?

888
00:48:30.360 --> 00:48:31.360
Yeah.

889
00:48:31.360 --> 00:48:32.360
I'm going back.

890
00:48:32.360 --> 00:48:33.360
Okay, great.

891
00:48:33.360 --> 00:48:34.360
Thank you.

892
00:48:34.360 --> 00:48:38.920
And so Lord, thank you for the reminder that you're working and you're doing something

893
00:48:38.920 --> 00:48:39.920
new in us.

894
00:48:39.920 --> 00:48:46.840
I thank you God that you are coming in and as the great physician you are, you know,

895
00:48:46.840 --> 00:48:50.720
putting in the sutures and you're putting in the stitches and you're starting to close

896
00:48:50.920 --> 00:48:54.880
these wounds that have for some been open their entire lives.

897
00:48:54.880 --> 00:49:00.840
So Lord, we thank you for helping every one of these women to step further into freedom

898
00:49:00.840 --> 00:49:02.920
and truth and hope and life.

899
00:49:02.920 --> 00:49:07.940
God, we thank you that you would give them divine glimpses from heaven of their identity

900
00:49:07.940 --> 00:49:13.160
in Christ, how you see them, the things that you want to speak over them.

901
00:49:13.160 --> 00:49:17.800
We ask you to shut the mouths of the lions that rage against them through the voice of

902
00:49:17.800 --> 00:49:19.680
the enemy that he sends through other people.

903
00:49:19.680 --> 00:49:22.840
And sometimes the direct assault against our minds.

904
00:49:22.840 --> 00:49:27.340
We thank you that you would help us, yeah, Lord, that you would just literally shut the

905
00:49:27.340 --> 00:49:34.800
mouths of the lions and help us to hear what your spirit is saying louder than any other

906
00:49:34.800 --> 00:49:35.800
voice.

907
00:49:35.800 --> 00:49:39.260
And we thank you God that you are coming in and you're redeeming, you're restoring, you're

908
00:49:39.260 --> 00:49:42.680
rebuilding all the broken and fallen places.

909
00:49:42.680 --> 00:49:47.120
Even as in like the old Testament back in the day when the temple was all torn down

910
00:49:47.120 --> 00:49:52.560
that you laid it upon Nehemiah's heart to go and rebuild the temple and all the time

911
00:49:52.560 --> 00:49:57.200
and the effort that was put into that, but God, the intentionality in every aspect of

912
00:49:57.200 --> 00:49:59.720
rebuilding the temple and how they worked as a team.

913
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.980
And even as people came against them,

914
00:50:02.980 --> 00:50:06.160
that the response was, I am doing a great work.

915
00:50:06.160 --> 00:50:07.540
We are doing a great work.

916
00:50:07.540 --> 00:50:09.500
We will not come down from the wall.

917
00:50:09.500 --> 00:50:11.040
Lord, I pray that you would help the ladies

918
00:50:11.040 --> 00:50:14.900
in this hard work process to stand in that place.

919
00:50:14.900 --> 00:50:17.260
Like they're doing a great work.

920
00:50:17.260 --> 00:50:18.780
When the enemy comes against them,

921
00:50:18.780 --> 00:50:22.020
that they will stand with resilience and perseverance

922
00:50:22.020 --> 00:50:25.660
and say that they will not come down from the wall.

923
00:50:25.660 --> 00:50:28.340
That they will stand and see your glory

924
00:50:28.340 --> 00:50:31.140
and your goodness being manifest in them and through them.

925
00:50:31.140 --> 00:50:36.140
And God, I thank you that you would help them to also,

926
00:50:36.300 --> 00:50:40.700
yeah, Lord, just to receive the upgrade

927
00:50:40.700 --> 00:50:43.020
in this new season that you have for them,

928
00:50:43.020 --> 00:50:45.900
that you would remove limitations and barriers

929
00:50:45.900 --> 00:50:48.480
and heart postures, limiting belief systems,

930
00:50:48.480 --> 00:50:51.100
things that they've said over themselves for years,

931
00:50:51.100 --> 00:50:53.040
or even other people have said over them

932
00:50:53.040 --> 00:50:56.460
or other family members that they then took upon themselves.

933
00:50:56.460 --> 00:51:00.740
So Lord, we just thank you that another image I just saw

934
00:51:00.740 --> 00:51:05.020
is like a top hat and I saw it being taken off.

935
00:51:05.020 --> 00:51:07.640
And what I believe God is even showing through that

936
00:51:07.640 --> 00:51:09.980
is just some of the mindsets that we have,

937
00:51:09.980 --> 00:51:12.780
we literally just need to take it off.

938
00:51:12.780 --> 00:51:14.140
We need to remove it.

939
00:51:14.140 --> 00:51:17.460
And we can ask the Holy Spirit to help us in that process,

940
00:51:17.460 --> 00:51:20.300
but it is a coming out of alignment and agreement

941
00:51:20.300 --> 00:51:23.500
with the negative things that the enemy is offering to us

942
00:51:23.700 --> 00:51:26.580
and saying, no, I'm not gonna partner with that anymore

943
00:51:26.580 --> 00:51:31.020
because I believe what the word of the Lord says about me.

944
00:51:31.020 --> 00:51:33.180
And I'm going to allow God to be the one

945
00:51:33.180 --> 00:51:35.100
that informs my identity.

946
00:51:35.100 --> 00:51:36.820
I'm not gonna go into hiding anymore.

947
00:51:36.820 --> 00:51:38.380
I'm gonna come out into the fullness

948
00:51:38.380 --> 00:51:40.380
of who the Lord has called me to be,

949
00:51:40.380 --> 00:51:43.740
created me to be, and he's equipping me to be,

950
00:51:43.740 --> 00:51:48.180
that we don't have to be afraid to be who we truly are.

951
00:51:49.060 --> 00:51:50.820
Sorry, ladies, I gotta get a drink.

952
00:51:51.820 --> 00:51:55.140
And we can step into that with boldness and courage

953
00:51:55.140 --> 00:52:00.140
and to really know and understand that God is,

954
00:52:01.500 --> 00:52:03.580
yeah, he's literally taking the heart

955
00:52:03.580 --> 00:52:07.700
that we've had for years that's damaged and he's loving it.

956
00:52:07.700 --> 00:52:09.980
And black areas, he's coming in

957
00:52:09.980 --> 00:52:12.420
and he's bringing them back to life.

958
00:52:12.420 --> 00:52:13.860
And what I mean by the black areas,

959
00:52:13.860 --> 00:52:16.940
it's kind of representing the broken,

960
00:52:16.940 --> 00:52:19.900
hurting parts of our hearts that God is loving.

961
00:52:20.220 --> 00:52:21.820
That God is literally coming in

962
00:52:21.820 --> 00:52:24.460
and he's lovingly touching those areas

963
00:52:24.460 --> 00:52:26.140
and he's bringing them back to life.

964
00:52:26.140 --> 00:52:28.620
He's healing them, he's restoring,

965
00:52:28.620 --> 00:52:33.100
and he wants to help you really feel your heart come alive

966
00:52:33.100 --> 00:52:36.700
and awaken with excitement and joy.

967
00:52:36.700 --> 00:52:38.380
Jeremiah 24, seven says,

968
00:52:38.380 --> 00:52:42.100
"'I will give them hearts that recognize me as the Lord.

969
00:52:42.100 --> 00:52:45.060
They will be my people and I will be their God

970
00:52:45.060 --> 00:52:48.940
for they will return to me wholeheartedly.

971
00:52:48.940 --> 00:52:51.860
Father, if there's any way that we as your daughters

972
00:52:51.860 --> 00:52:55.420
have been separated from you in our spirits,

973
00:52:55.420 --> 00:52:56.820
in our minds, in our hearts,

974
00:52:56.820 --> 00:52:59.860
God, I thank you for a reconnection with you,

975
00:52:59.860 --> 00:53:02.660
that you would help us to return to you, Father,

976
00:53:02.660 --> 00:53:04.820
as our first love,

977
00:53:04.820 --> 00:53:08.220
that we would not believe the lies of the enemy anymore,

978
00:53:08.220 --> 00:53:10.620
that we would take captive every thought

979
00:53:10.620 --> 00:53:12.740
and make it obedient to Jesus Christ,

980
00:53:12.740 --> 00:53:15.420
and that we would catch every thought quickly.

981
00:53:15.420 --> 00:53:18.560
And Lord, that we would no longer meditate on things

982
00:53:19.080 --> 00:53:21.240
for hours and days and fret,

983
00:53:21.240 --> 00:53:24.200
God, that we would turn away from anxious thinking

984
00:53:24.200 --> 00:53:26.760
and fearful thoughts invading our minds,

985
00:53:26.760 --> 00:53:27.900
our spirits, and our souls,

986
00:53:27.900 --> 00:53:32.440
and we would partner, Lord, with your truth instead

987
00:53:32.440 --> 00:53:34.080
more and more and more every day.

988
00:53:34.080 --> 00:53:35.800
So Lord, help us to know your truth

989
00:53:35.800 --> 00:53:37.720
because your truth is what sets us free.

990
00:53:37.720 --> 00:53:40.560
In Jesus' name, welcome back, everyone.

991
00:53:40.560 --> 00:53:41.760
So glad to have you back.

992
00:53:41.760 --> 00:53:43.360
I wanna hear from you,

993
00:53:43.360 --> 00:53:45.640
who is willing to share with the whole group

994
00:53:45.640 --> 00:53:48.560
what you shared in your breakout session tonight.

995
00:53:49.440 --> 00:53:50.640
Anyone willing to share?

996
00:53:51.880 --> 00:53:53.920
I don't know if I see anybody raising hands.

997
00:53:53.920 --> 00:53:56.520
Okay, Joy, awesome, go ahead.

998
00:53:56.520 --> 00:54:01.520
Okay, I wanna share is my root,

999
00:54:02.080 --> 00:54:05.080
negative root, just desire more,

1000
00:54:06.040 --> 00:54:09.000
kind of, you know,

1001
00:54:09.000 --> 00:54:11.280
it could be negative, it could be good.

1002
00:54:11.280 --> 00:54:13.120
I'm just so passionate,

1003
00:54:13.160 --> 00:54:16.800
pursue God and the desire of more of Him.

1004
00:54:16.800 --> 00:54:18.960
So I do struggle with this problem

1005
00:54:18.960 --> 00:54:20.760
for over so many years now,

1006
00:54:20.760 --> 00:54:22.600
is that something come up,

1007
00:54:22.600 --> 00:54:25.840
like a spiritual things, like a program,

1008
00:54:25.840 --> 00:54:27.920
then I sign up, I purchase it.

1009
00:54:27.920 --> 00:54:30.720
And then there's another one I could not help.

1010
00:54:30.720 --> 00:54:32.440
I say, this is good for me.

1011
00:54:32.440 --> 00:54:34.400
Oh, I need to get it.

1012
00:54:34.400 --> 00:54:36.160
And then I don't wanna let go,

1013
00:54:36.160 --> 00:54:37.440
and then sign up again.

1014
00:54:37.440 --> 00:54:40.280
And another one, and then I think it's good too,

1015
00:54:40.280 --> 00:54:41.840
then I sign up and purchase again.

1016
00:54:41.840 --> 00:54:45.320
So I have multiple, like four or five, six.

1017
00:54:45.320 --> 00:54:50.320
I mean, I'm just saying that there's one size I love

1018
00:54:50.680 --> 00:54:52.880
and pursue God, I'm so passionate,

1019
00:54:52.880 --> 00:54:55.840
desire Him, pursue passion.

1020
00:54:55.840 --> 00:54:59.120
But another side, there's something deep inside me

1021
00:54:59.120 --> 00:54:59.960
is a female.

1022
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.000
I'm afraid of missing something good.

1023
00:55:03.000 --> 00:55:04.000
Yes.

1024
00:55:04.000 --> 00:55:06.000
So, how can I give up?

1025
00:55:06.000 --> 00:55:08.000
Because I struggled for so many years.

1026
00:55:08.000 --> 00:55:10.000
I don't know how many years.

1027
00:55:10.000 --> 00:55:11.000
20 years or...

1028
00:55:11.000 --> 00:55:14.000
But because this caused me overloaded.

1029
00:55:14.000 --> 00:55:17.000
Then I sometimes could not focus on one thing.

1030
00:55:17.000 --> 00:55:20.000
I really love this last year's single.

1031
00:55:20.000 --> 00:55:21.000
It really...

1032
00:55:21.000 --> 00:55:24.000
I'm just so, so happy.

1033
00:55:24.000 --> 00:55:25.000
I joined this community.

1034
00:55:25.000 --> 00:55:26.000
I learned from you.

1035
00:55:26.000 --> 00:55:29.000
It's so anointed and so practical.

1036
00:55:29.000 --> 00:55:32.000
And to help me deal with this root problem.

1037
00:55:32.000 --> 00:55:33.000
I'm so happy.

1038
00:55:33.000 --> 00:55:34.000
But meanwhile, I signed on.

1039
00:55:34.000 --> 00:55:36.000
I repurchased all the programs.

1040
00:55:36.000 --> 00:55:37.000
So, I'm not...

1041
00:55:37.000 --> 00:55:38.000
I understand.

1042
00:55:38.000 --> 00:55:39.000
Joy.

1043
00:55:39.000 --> 00:55:40.000
Okay.

1044
00:55:40.000 --> 00:55:41.000
So, I do understand what you're saying.

1045
00:55:41.000 --> 00:55:42.000
So, one of the ladies...

1046
00:55:42.000 --> 00:55:45.000
Just so you all know, she's talking about, you know, FOMO sometimes.

1047
00:55:45.000 --> 00:55:47.000
Like, we're afraid of missing out.

1048
00:55:47.000 --> 00:55:53.000
And I will tell you, interestingly enough, it is something that I've had to really watch over the years myself.

1049
00:55:53.000 --> 00:55:56.000
And there is this drive in me to always learn more.

1050
00:55:56.000 --> 00:55:59.000
I'm a learner by, like, as a part of my makeup.

1051
00:55:59.000 --> 00:56:01.000
But here's the thing.

1052
00:56:01.000 --> 00:56:08.000
Sometimes the enemy is trying to take us away from the one thing that we need to be focusing on.

1053
00:56:08.000 --> 00:56:13.000
By having us do multiple programs or spending money in multiple areas.

1054
00:56:13.000 --> 00:56:21.000
When God can actually give us that insight and revelation in the one thing that we've already given our yes to, if you will.

1055
00:56:21.000 --> 00:56:39.000
And so, what I have found is that deep down, what's coming to mind right now that I want to put with this before I jump to the next thing, is when I was younger, my oldest brother, who was my main abuser, which I didn't remember for a long time.

1056
00:56:39.000 --> 00:56:41.000
But I do think that it does...

1057
00:56:41.000 --> 00:56:43.000
It is important in this story.

1058
00:56:43.000 --> 00:56:46.000
But my oldest brother got straight A's.

1059
00:56:46.000 --> 00:56:48.000
He was, like, the best student.

1060
00:56:48.000 --> 00:56:50.000
He was, like, a top wrestler.

1061
00:56:50.000 --> 00:56:53.000
He was, like, good at everything.

1062
00:56:53.000 --> 00:56:56.000
Got a lot of recognition all through school.

1063
00:56:56.000 --> 00:57:00.000
And, you know, everybody just really adored him and put him on a pedestal.

1064
00:57:00.000 --> 00:57:03.000
Including, you know, my mom and all the things.

1065
00:57:03.000 --> 00:57:08.000
And so, I'm saying that to say I was child number four.

1066
00:57:08.000 --> 00:57:11.000
And my middle siblings kind of...

1067
00:57:11.000 --> 00:57:14.000
They did okay, but they really kind of struggled in school.

1068
00:57:15.000 --> 00:57:28.000
And so, as child number four, what I found is my mom put a lot more pressure on me because she didn't want me to just kind of coast through, if you will, and struggle like my middle siblings.

1069
00:57:28.000 --> 00:57:41.000
She kept trying to get me to be like my oldest sibling, my brother, who I subconsciously, whether I knew it openly or overtly at that time, but subconsciously, I knew he was my abuser.

1070
00:57:41.000 --> 00:57:48.000
And here was this competitive thing being put on me all the time to be like him, to be like him, to be like him.

1071
00:57:48.000 --> 00:57:50.000
Well, guess what?

1072
00:57:50.000 --> 00:57:55.000
Deep down, as that stuff came to the surface, well, I was like, I don't want to be like him.

1073
00:57:56.000 --> 00:58:04.000
But all those years that pressure was put on me to have straight A's, to be in all the activities, to be in all the sports.

1074
00:58:04.000 --> 00:58:10.000
And you all, that has impacted the way that I sometimes, you know, even...

1075
00:58:10.000 --> 00:58:13.000
And I'm totally okay with where I'm at.

1076
00:58:13.000 --> 00:58:17.000
But, like, one of the things I've been working on lately is finishing a book.

1077
00:58:17.000 --> 00:58:22.000
Because for years, I'll get books, and I'll start reading them, and they minister to me.

1078
00:58:22.000 --> 00:58:27.000
And I'll pick it up a year later, and it'll minister to me, and it'll be, like, right where I need it.

1079
00:58:27.000 --> 00:58:29.000
And that's cool, and that's awesome.

1080
00:58:29.000 --> 00:58:32.000
But I started seeing this pattern.

1081
00:58:32.000 --> 00:58:34.000
I want to finish.

1082
00:58:34.000 --> 00:58:35.000
I want to finish.

1083
00:58:35.000 --> 00:58:38.000
And I'm going to dedicate and finish some more books.

1084
00:58:38.000 --> 00:58:41.000
And it doesn't mean I have to finish every book I start.

1085
00:58:41.000 --> 00:58:47.000
But I am trying to work on, you know, seeing something through all the way.

1086
00:58:47.000 --> 00:58:49.000
And I do finish a lot of things.

1087
00:58:49.000 --> 00:58:53.000
But for whatever it's worth, that came up in my spirit, so I wanted to mention that as well.

1088
00:58:53.000 --> 00:59:05.000
So, Joy, I believe that the reason I shared the story about my brother and the comparison that I felt, I'm not sure if you felt that growing up.

1089
00:59:05.000 --> 00:59:11.000
But the comparisons in your family and pressure, societal pressure, your cultural pressure.

1090
00:59:11.000 --> 00:59:19.000
I know that there has been, I'm not 100% sure, but Joy, are you of Asian ethnicity?

1091
00:59:19.000 --> 00:59:22.000
You're right.

1092
00:59:22.000 --> 00:59:23.000
Okay.

1093
00:59:23.000 --> 00:59:34.000
And the reason I'm bringing that up is I've had several other women that have come through this program that have Asian ethnicity, that their parents put so much pressure on them.

1094
00:59:35.000 --> 00:59:37.000
And other ethnicities as well, ladies.

1095
00:59:37.000 --> 00:59:40.000
But it's been very evident in that ethnicity.

1096
00:59:40.000 --> 00:59:46.000
And it literally put them to the point of never feeling like they're achieving enough.

1097
00:59:46.000 --> 00:59:48.000
Yeah, not good enough.

1098
00:59:48.000 --> 00:59:49.000
Yes.

1099
00:59:49.000 --> 00:59:50.000
Yeah.

1100
00:59:50.000 --> 01:00:00.000
And so I just want to encourage you to really be asking the Lord if some of that in you is coming from any kind of initial things and situations.

1101
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:07.160
like that, where there was pressure academically to not only get good grades, but to literally

1102
01:00:07.160 --> 01:00:09.560
excel beyond, excel beyond, excel.

1103
01:00:09.560 --> 01:00:15.520
And even in our society in the U.S. now, my husband's daughter, I mean, she had like a

1104
01:00:15.520 --> 01:00:16.960
4.5 something.

1105
01:00:16.960 --> 01:00:20.560
Y'all, when I was in school, I didn't even know you could get that.

1106
01:00:20.560 --> 01:00:21.560
Okay.

1107
01:00:21.560 --> 01:00:22.920
Maybe you could, and I just didn't know it.

1108
01:00:22.920 --> 01:00:28.480
But it was kind of like, it was kind of like, to me, I'm like, why are we, why is this a

1109
01:00:28.480 --> 01:00:31.240
thing now?

1110
01:00:31.240 --> 01:00:37.000
You know, where not only what not the 4.0 isn't a good thing now, you got to have higher

1111
01:00:37.000 --> 01:00:41.800
than that now, you know, and so I just, I think there's some of that stuff at play in

1112
01:00:41.800 --> 01:00:42.800
us.

1113
01:00:42.800 --> 01:00:43.800
Yeah.

1114
01:00:43.800 --> 01:00:44.800
Yeah.

1115
01:00:44.800 --> 01:00:47.840
I want you to pray about that and just see where that might take you in your healing

1116
01:00:47.840 --> 01:00:48.840
process.

1117
01:00:48.840 --> 01:00:49.840
Joy.

1118
01:00:49.840 --> 01:00:50.840
Yeah, I know.

1119
01:00:50.840 --> 01:00:51.840
I know.

1120
01:00:52.840 --> 01:00:53.840
trauma.

1121
01:00:53.840 --> 01:00:59.480
I'd something really very, very bad happened to me.

1122
01:00:59.480 --> 01:01:04.080
So I was tormented.

1123
01:01:04.080 --> 01:01:11.160
I could not get what I, you know, have so much, a lot for it, but I could not get it.

1124
01:01:11.160 --> 01:01:13.960
I was kind of torment to me.

1125
01:01:13.960 --> 01:01:22.080
So that's why deep inside me, I said, I want to get what I love or interested.

1126
01:01:22.080 --> 01:01:24.520
I don't want miss it.

1127
01:01:24.520 --> 01:01:27.920
I know there's also still no trauma need to be healed.

1128
01:01:27.920 --> 01:01:28.920
Yeah.

1129
01:01:28.920 --> 01:01:29.920
Yeah.

1130
01:01:29.920 --> 01:01:30.920
Yeah.

1131
01:01:30.920 --> 01:01:31.920
Thank you so much.

1132
01:01:31.920 --> 01:01:32.920
You're welcome.

1133
01:01:32.920 --> 01:01:33.920
And ladies, here's another thing.

1134
01:01:33.920 --> 01:01:36.920
I want to plant the seed and all of you.

1135
01:01:36.920 --> 01:01:40.920
You all we can't miss our spirit mate.

1136
01:01:40.920 --> 01:01:41.920
Okay.

1137
01:01:41.920 --> 01:01:46.480
I want you all just to kind of sigh or sigh of relief.

1138
01:01:46.480 --> 01:01:53.040
Like here's the reality is that if you continue to walk in your healing and continue to follow

1139
01:01:53.040 --> 01:01:57.840
the Lord and take action, y'all, what I mean by that is you can't just sit on the sidelines

1140
01:01:57.840 --> 01:02:01.000
waiting for the person to be dropped off at your door.

1141
01:02:01.000 --> 01:02:03.760
It's not going to work like that.

1142
01:02:03.760 --> 01:02:06.080
So you're taking action every day.

1143
01:02:06.080 --> 01:02:07.520
And this is what I encourage people to do.

1144
01:02:07.520 --> 01:02:11.680
I want you, if you guys, I want you to remember all the heart healing stuff in remember these

1145
01:02:12.440 --> 01:02:13.440
tools as you move forward.

1146
01:02:13.440 --> 01:02:22.360
But I also want you to remember this Lord, what is next best thing I can do today?

1147
01:02:22.360 --> 01:02:27.320
What's the next best thing I can do today, every day that we would pray that prayer and

1148
01:02:27.320 --> 01:02:30.600
then do what the Lord is showing us to do that day.

1149
01:02:30.600 --> 01:02:36.120
And as we do that, you all sincerely, I believe it will lead you into the fullness of everything

1150
01:02:36.120 --> 01:02:39.640
God has for you, including your love story.

1151
01:02:39.640 --> 01:02:44.000
With some of that, going back to our identity conversation, guess what?

1152
01:02:44.000 --> 01:02:49.320
The limitations and the negative belief systems and the things we've been partnering with,

1153
01:02:49.320 --> 01:02:55.360
we've got to get rid of that stuff and open our hearts and make room for the new.

1154
01:02:55.360 --> 01:02:59.920
The new can't come in if we've got all the old junk and stuff in there.

1155
01:02:59.920 --> 01:03:00.920
Okay.

1156
01:03:00.920 --> 01:03:01.920
Joy.

1157
01:03:01.920 --> 01:03:02.920
Thank you for sharing that.

1158
01:03:02.920 --> 01:03:03.920
That was so good.

1159
01:03:03.920 --> 01:03:07.320
Jodi, I would love to hear what you have to say.

1160
01:03:07.320 --> 01:03:09.280
Hi there.

1161
01:03:09.920 --> 01:03:10.920
Can you hear me?

1162
01:03:10.920 --> 01:03:11.920
Yeah.

1163
01:03:11.920 --> 01:03:12.920
Okay, good.

1164
01:03:12.920 --> 01:03:23.120
Obviously not fun to be on the hot seat and share these kinds of things, but it's good

1165
01:03:23.120 --> 01:03:24.800
too.

1166
01:03:24.800 --> 01:03:38.080
So I think something, a lie that I have been believing for a long time is that I am a failure.

1167
01:03:38.560 --> 01:03:39.560
I don't know.

1168
01:03:39.560 --> 01:03:43.600
I think these are two different ones, but that I'm not good enough.

1169
01:03:43.600 --> 01:03:50.920
Do you remember when, and it's okay if not, but do you remember the first time that you

1170
01:03:50.920 --> 01:03:57.080
felt like you were a failure?

1171
01:03:57.080 --> 01:03:59.200
I don't.

1172
01:03:59.200 --> 01:04:05.000
That was a question I wondered too, if we have to, is that something we have to determine

1173
01:04:05.160 --> 01:04:12.680
in order to heal or yeah, it's a part of your healing process.

1174
01:04:12.680 --> 01:04:18.240
It doesn't mean that you just aren't going to be able to heal at all without that information

1175
01:04:18.240 --> 01:04:24.600
because sometimes it might be a little while before God reveals the root to you because

1176
01:04:24.600 --> 01:04:30.760
you might need some other healing first so that it doesn't harm you when you have that

1177
01:04:30.760 --> 01:04:31.760
memory.

1178
01:04:31.760 --> 01:04:32.760
Sure.

1179
01:04:33.040 --> 01:04:37.400
So that's where I'm always big on extending grace towards ourselves and being super kind

1180
01:04:37.400 --> 01:04:44.360
and patient with ourselves in this process because if that doesn't come up for you super

1181
01:04:44.360 --> 01:04:48.160
quick, there might be a reason it doesn't bubble to the surface right away.

1182
01:04:48.160 --> 01:04:51.680
So just trust the timing of that being revealed.

1183
01:04:51.680 --> 01:04:56.160
And so just as a reminder, everybody, if we don't know what something is, like when is

1184
01:04:56.160 --> 01:05:00.040
the first time, like if I was Jodi, Lord, when is the first

1185
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.120
time I believed that I was a failure. And if we don't hear

1186
01:05:03.120 --> 01:05:06.200
something, you know, kind of bubble up quick, that doesn't

1187
01:05:06.200 --> 01:05:10.240
mean there's nothing there. It just means most likely it's

1188
01:05:10.280 --> 01:05:15.200
shoved down pretty deep. Okay. And the Lord will reveal that to

1189
01:05:15.200 --> 01:05:19.360
you in time. Most times, I mean, there are times that some people

1190
01:05:19.360 --> 01:05:22.520
get into phase two, and then they have that revelation come.

1191
01:05:22.520 --> 01:05:26.480
So just trust your process. And you will definitely continue to

1192
01:05:26.480 --> 01:05:29.880
heal. It's not going to keep you from healing altogether. But like

1193
01:05:29.880 --> 01:05:33.600
I said, there's, there's also an importance in the process of

1194
01:05:33.600 --> 01:05:36.680
the healing, like the dots being connected at certain times, if

1195
01:05:36.680 --> 01:05:42.440
you will. Yeah. So do you happen to remember when, when is a time

1196
01:05:42.440 --> 01:05:47.000
that you felt or believe the lie or recognize the lie showing up

1197
01:05:47.000 --> 01:05:48.480
that I'm not good enough?

1198
01:05:48.480 --> 01:06:01.880
Oh, I, I don't know, maybe specific instances, but I think

1199
01:06:01.880 --> 01:06:10.680
I felt that way as a child. Because I, I didn't ever feel I

1200
01:06:10.680 --> 01:06:16.920
knew at an early age, like quite early, that my parents didn't

1201
01:06:16.920 --> 01:06:20.880
love me the way I needed to be loved. I knew that they loved me,

1202
01:06:20.880 --> 01:06:28.200
but I don't know, I, okay, for some reason, I knew that. And I

1203
01:06:28.240 --> 01:06:34.120
and, of course, you know, you think I'm not good enough. And

1204
01:06:35.840 --> 01:06:41.560
maybe that's why. So I think it started way back then. I don't

1205
01:06:41.560 --> 01:06:48.280
know a specific time. Okay. And so this is where I would

1206
01:06:48.280 --> 01:06:53.240
encourage any of you all to take this from here. So you're

1207
01:06:53.240 --> 01:06:56.120
recalling that you have a feeling from when you were

1208
01:06:56.120 --> 01:07:00.400
younger, that your parents loved you, but they didn't love you

1209
01:07:00.400 --> 01:07:04.520
the way you needed to be loved. And so I would ask the Lord to

1210
01:07:04.520 --> 01:07:08.440
give you an ex like, Lord, will you reveal a memory and a time

1211
01:07:08.440 --> 01:07:12.760
that I actually felt like my parents weren't loving me the

1212
01:07:12.760 --> 01:07:17.520
way I needed to be loved. And, and again, ladies, when we're

1213
01:07:17.520 --> 01:07:20.480
praying these things, keep a pen and paper handy or even in your

1214
01:07:20.480 --> 01:07:25.000
phone in your notes. And it may come up then it might come up

1215
01:07:25.000 --> 01:07:28.440
later in the week, it might come up when you're taking a shower.

1216
01:07:28.440 --> 01:07:30.800
I mean, there's just different times where that stuff will come

1217
01:07:30.800 --> 01:07:34.400
up. But it's, it's the process of asking God good questions.

1218
01:07:34.400 --> 01:07:37.800
Okay. So always going back and asking him another question. So

1219
01:07:37.800 --> 01:07:40.520
if something pops, you know, to the surface that doesn't even

1220
01:07:40.520 --> 01:07:44.320
seem like it connects, just still say, Okay, Lord, like,

1221
01:07:44.360 --> 01:07:47.560
this is what's coming up in my spirit. Like, you know, what are

1222
01:07:47.560 --> 01:07:49.520
you trying to show me through this?

1223
01:07:50.240 --> 01:07:55.400
I know one thing is that, like, I would play at my girlfriend's

1224
01:07:55.400 --> 01:08:00.520
house houses or whatever. And their parents, they would say I

1225
01:08:00.520 --> 01:08:03.480
love you, you know, back and forth if they were saying

1226
01:08:03.480 --> 01:08:08.320
goodbye, or, and I know that I never heard that from my

1227
01:08:08.320 --> 01:08:16.000
parents. And so I know that's one. One thing I remember, where

1228
01:08:16.000 --> 01:08:17.359
I really felt that.

1229
01:08:17.760 --> 01:08:22.200
Yeah, so that's a start. And so I would encourage you on that,

1230
01:08:22.560 --> 01:08:26.720
to use the forgiveness prayer sheet, and forgive your parents

1231
01:08:26.720 --> 01:08:32.439
for not verbalizing their love towards you. Yeah. And just as

1232
01:08:32.439 --> 01:08:35.080
you forgive that there might be other things that come to the

1233
01:08:35.080 --> 01:08:39.080
surface. But if not, just for now process that. Because I

1234
01:08:39.080 --> 01:08:42.880
really do have a feeling I have, I think you've suppressed some

1235
01:08:42.880 --> 01:08:48.160
stuff. And part of the way that will start to come up more is as

1236
01:08:48.160 --> 01:08:52.520
you forgive as you go. And then keep asking God questions about

1237
01:08:52.520 --> 01:08:55.760
things. And just again, let him you know, bring those up

1238
01:08:55.760 --> 01:08:59.680
organically. As a reminder, ladies, we don't ever we don't

1239
01:08:59.680 --> 01:09:03.399
dig, we don't get our shovels out and dig. So we just pray and

1240
01:09:03.399 --> 01:09:06.800
trust the Lord and what he reveals. But Jodi, I mean, I

1241
01:09:06.800 --> 01:09:10.479
think there's gonna be so much goodness and healing and great

1242
01:09:10.479 --> 01:09:12.479
things that you're going to experience in the days ahead.

1243
01:09:12.479 --> 01:09:16.720
And I appreciate you getting into the, like the share seat,

1244
01:09:16.720 --> 01:09:20.040
the hot seat, if you will. Because it's, you know, just so

1245
01:09:20.040 --> 01:09:23.920
y'all remember this, everything that you share is whether you

1246
01:09:23.920 --> 01:09:26.760
realize that it's helping you, but it's also helping someone

1247
01:09:26.760 --> 01:09:30.720
else in this community. And you're brave, you're like your

1248
01:09:30.720 --> 01:09:34.359
courageousness to share really is amazing and incredible. And

1249
01:09:34.359 --> 01:09:38.680
so praying for you, and we'll be asking God to really continue to

1250
01:09:39.439 --> 01:09:42.680
just help you have the memories come to the surface that need to

1251
01:09:42.680 --> 01:09:46.439
come from darkness to the light, so that you can receive more

1252
01:09:46.479 --> 01:09:51.120
healing and revelation. Because if there's anything I know for

1253
01:09:51.120 --> 01:09:54.720
myself, one of the things that I always used to be frustrated

1254
01:09:54.720 --> 01:09:57.320
about is when I would have enough of a memory, but not the

1255
01:09:57.320 --> 01:09:59.960
full memory. And I would feel so frustrated like

1256
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.560
I just want to understand what this is connected to.

1257
01:10:02.920 --> 01:10:06.080
But I will tell you that the one in particular that's coming to

1258
01:10:06.080 --> 01:10:09.420
mind tonight for me, I'm really glad that the Lord waited to

1259
01:10:09.420 --> 01:10:13.240
reveal the full thing until he did, like until the time when he

1260
01:10:13.240 --> 01:10:16.840
did, because I genuinely don't think I would have been able to

1261
01:10:16.840 --> 01:10:21.240
handle it if he had revealed it sooner. And so bless you. Thank

1262
01:10:21.240 --> 01:10:22.240
you so much.

1263
01:10:22.920 --> 01:10:23.440
Thank you.

1264
01:10:23.520 --> 01:10:25.840
Yeah. Alison, go ahead.

1265
01:10:26.840 --> 01:10:32.200
Yeah, my question is, and I've struggled with this for years,

1266
01:10:32.240 --> 01:10:37.120
is what do you do when you can't? Well, I shared my thing

1267
01:10:37.160 --> 01:10:43.280
is envying. And it's really specifically one family who just

1268
01:10:43.280 --> 01:10:47.680
has everything I want, which is children, now grandchildren, and

1269
01:10:47.960 --> 01:10:52.360
they love me to my core, they call me an aunt, they send me

1270
01:10:53.120 --> 01:10:58.360
pictures constantly, not knowing it hurts. And I can't confess it

1271
01:10:58.360 --> 01:11:02.160
to them. I confess it to all my girlfriends, I've confessed it

1272
01:11:02.160 --> 01:11:06.640
to them blue in the face, but I can't talk to them. That what it

1273
01:11:06.640 --> 01:11:11.040
makes me feel. And it hurts me because I love them. And they

1274
01:11:11.080 --> 01:11:14.920
they would lay down, they would have no idea that it's hard on

1275
01:11:14.920 --> 01:11:15.280
me.

1276
01:11:16.000 --> 01:11:22.640
Yeah. So thank you for sharing that with us. And I think the

1277
01:11:22.640 --> 01:11:28.320
first thing, so is your question, like, why is this

1278
01:11:28.320 --> 01:11:31.800
still a problem after you've already confessed it? What is

1279
01:11:31.800 --> 01:11:34.520
your tell me what your question is, because I want to make it

1280
01:11:34.520 --> 01:11:35.200
to that,

1281
01:11:35.240 --> 01:11:39.280
that because, you know, I feel ashamed, because God's been so

1282
01:11:39.280 --> 01:11:42.960
good to me. And he really has. And I'm one who loves life

1283
01:11:42.960 --> 01:11:47.920
naturally, but this area I don't love. But also, how do you

1284
01:11:47.920 --> 01:11:51.880
make things right when you really can't approach someone? I

1285
01:11:51.880 --> 01:11:55.880
mean, there are times you really cannot approach and clear there.

1286
01:11:56.360 --> 01:12:00.400
Yeah, well, yeah. Well, and in this case, they haven't done

1287
01:12:00.400 --> 01:12:05.960
anything wrong. No, not at all. Yeah. And so honestly, I don't

1288
01:12:05.960 --> 01:12:09.280
know that I would share this with them. And maybe that's even

1289
01:12:09.280 --> 01:12:12.640
going to bring freedom to you. You know, just knowing that

1290
01:12:12.640 --> 01:12:17.440
there are some things that God is just trying to do in us, and

1291
01:12:17.480 --> 01:12:22.280
allowing him to heal us and, and help us process, even if it

1292
01:12:22.280 --> 01:12:27.280
takes us a long time, that when someone hasn't done anything

1293
01:12:27.280 --> 01:12:30.200
wrong, we don't have to necessarily tell them that the

1294
01:12:30.200 --> 01:12:33.680
thing that they're doing is hurting us, when they're doing

1295
01:12:33.720 --> 01:12:37.760
something that's not technically normally wouldn't be hurtful,

1296
01:12:37.760 --> 01:12:42.160
right. So the thing I would say is a just giving yourself that

1297
01:12:42.160 --> 01:12:45.080
grace and that freedom that you don't have to share that with

1298
01:12:45.080 --> 01:12:48.560
them, that it doesn't mean you don't love them, it doesn't mean

1299
01:12:48.560 --> 01:12:51.120
that you don't care about them, or any of those things, the

1300
01:12:51.120 --> 01:12:54.880
enemy might be trying to make you feel I'm, I'm hearing the

1301
01:12:54.880 --> 01:12:58.400
word guilt over and over again. So, you know, the guilt and the

1302
01:12:58.400 --> 01:13:00.800
shame and the condemnation, I think is a huge thing, the

1303
01:13:00.800 --> 01:13:03.680
enemy is really trying to torment you with this, and make

1304
01:13:03.680 --> 01:13:08.680
you feel bad about your own self, when in reality, I'm where

1305
01:13:08.680 --> 01:13:12.480
the envy took root was way before this family, I really

1306
01:13:12.480 --> 01:13:16.720
believe that. And so, Allison, when when is the first time like

1307
01:13:16.720 --> 01:13:21.240
you believe the lie that God was blessing other people, but not

1308
01:13:21.240 --> 01:13:25.520
you? Not even just this family, but other people and not you?

1309
01:13:26.480 --> 01:13:31.640
Oh, when I was a child with my dad, I mean, I think most of us

1310
01:13:31.640 --> 01:13:36.880
would, it stems from childhood. But you feel ashamed when I

1311
01:13:36.880 --> 01:13:40.360
really do know God's blessed me, I feel ashamed.

1312
01:13:40.680 --> 01:13:43.640
But you don't. Okay, so here, let's unpack this. Because I do

1313
01:13:43.640 --> 01:13:47.440
think in Christian circles, especially, I mean, we're most

1314
01:13:47.440 --> 01:13:49.960
of us, I think all of us in this community right now are

1315
01:13:49.960 --> 01:13:52.680
believers in the days ahead, I think we're going to try to

1316
01:13:52.680 --> 01:13:56.320
bring in more non believers. But here's the reality, I think

1317
01:13:56.320 --> 01:14:00.880
there is a level of shame. Because we're told that we

1318
01:14:00.880 --> 01:14:03.760
should just know better. And we shouldn't feel these things.

1319
01:14:03.760 --> 01:14:08.560
And, and all this, but here's the reality is our pain, and the

1320
01:14:08.560 --> 01:14:11.720
trauma and the wounds we've experienced. That's what's

1321
01:14:11.720 --> 01:14:18.720
informing us. Not the truth of the wholeness of ourselves. And

1322
01:14:18.720 --> 01:14:22.880
so the enemy wants you to be bound by the shame and the guilt

1323
01:14:22.880 --> 01:14:26.920
and the condemnation. Because if you just step into the freedom

1324
01:14:26.920 --> 01:14:32.280
and the grace of like, hey, wait a minute, I'm, I'm human. I have

1325
01:14:32.280 --> 01:14:36.840
flesh, I have wounds in my soul that are impacting the way that

1326
01:14:36.840 --> 01:14:41.560
I feel sometimes. And you just really extend grace to yourself.

1327
01:14:42.480 --> 01:14:47.440
And I really, I do think this is going to start to shift. And so

1328
01:14:47.440 --> 01:14:50.800
every time those thoughts come up, Allison, I want to encourage

1329
01:14:50.800 --> 01:14:55.920
you to say, No, Satan, not today. Like, I really want you

1330
01:14:55.920 --> 01:15:00.080
to get used to like rejecting the lies of being ashamed.

1331
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:02.960
Like, no, Satan, I don't have to be ashamed

1332
01:15:02.960 --> 01:15:06.400
because I stand in the grace and the goodness of God

1333
01:15:06.400 --> 01:15:11.400
and I am okay even when I don't feel okay.

1334
01:15:11.400 --> 01:15:14.620
Because our feelings don't determine who we are.

1335
01:15:15.920 --> 01:15:16.760
They don't.

1336
01:15:17.720 --> 01:15:21.160
So we have to really come out of alignment with the lie.

1337
01:15:21.160 --> 01:15:25.280
Like for you, in this case, based off of what you've shared,

1338
01:15:25.280 --> 01:15:27.720
I'm gonna say that you probably need to come out

1339
01:15:27.720 --> 01:15:32.240
of the alignment with the lie that you're shameful

1340
01:15:33.120 --> 01:15:34.000
because of this.

1341
01:15:34.000 --> 01:15:38.660
And I keep feeling like it is connecting back to your dad.

1342
01:15:40.520 --> 01:15:44.680
Just even when you shared, it's like you started sharing

1343
01:15:44.680 --> 01:15:45.520
but then you said,

1344
01:15:45.520 --> 01:15:47.640
but we all have these things from childhood.

1345
01:15:47.640 --> 01:15:50.300
And so there's something in there that's causing you

1346
01:15:50.300 --> 01:15:52.840
to minimize what you've gone through as well.

1347
01:15:54.480 --> 01:15:57.640
And the Lord wants you to feel like the truth.

1348
01:15:57.640 --> 01:16:00.600
You don't have to minimize it because you're a Christian

1349
01:16:00.600 --> 01:16:02.360
and you've been blessed.

1350
01:16:02.360 --> 01:16:05.240
Well, yeah, okay, I've been massively blessed too.

1351
01:16:05.240 --> 01:16:06.760
But the reality is, Allison,

1352
01:16:06.760 --> 01:16:10.280
is I went through a lot of pain as a kid.

1353
01:16:10.280 --> 01:16:14.880
And I had to be able to process that and look at that

1354
01:16:15.760 --> 01:16:20.720
so that I could heal to come to the fullness of freedom,

1355
01:16:20.720 --> 01:16:22.200
not just because I'm a Christian,

1356
01:16:22.200 --> 01:16:23.640
you just shouldn't feel this.

1357
01:16:24.360 --> 01:16:28.080
You know, those are condemning statements

1358
01:16:28.080 --> 01:16:30.320
sometimes even from the pulpit or leaders

1359
01:16:30.320 --> 01:16:35.240
and where we just need to shape up or get out,

1360
01:16:35.240 --> 01:16:36.160
you know, kind of stuff.

1361
01:16:36.160 --> 01:16:38.400
And I'm not saying all like pastors and leaders do that,

1362
01:16:38.400 --> 01:16:41.160
but there's things that are said sometimes

1363
01:16:41.160 --> 01:16:44.040
that translate that into what we hear,

1364
01:16:44.040 --> 01:16:46.240
especially if when we hear it,

1365
01:16:46.240 --> 01:16:48.440
we're hearing it through the filter of brokenness

1366
01:16:48.440 --> 01:16:50.640
and pain and loss.

1367
01:16:50.640 --> 01:16:52.760
And if you, you know,

1368
01:16:52.760 --> 01:16:54.840
I'm not sure what the dynamic was with your dad,

1369
01:16:54.840 --> 01:16:57.440
but I'm just putting this out there for you or anyone.

1370
01:16:57.440 --> 01:17:00.560
If we had a relationship with our dads

1371
01:17:00.560 --> 01:17:05.400
that they were saying things that were hurtful to us,

1372
01:17:05.400 --> 01:17:06.240
well, guess what?

1373
01:17:06.240 --> 01:17:09.440
When we hear things from leaders,

1374
01:17:09.440 --> 01:17:13.800
we're filtering it through those lenses, right?

1375
01:17:13.800 --> 01:17:15.320
So even in this regard,

1376
01:17:15.320 --> 01:17:17.320
I think that's what's happening, Allison.

1377
01:17:17.360 --> 01:17:20.200
You're filtering the envy that you feel

1378
01:17:21.600 --> 01:17:24.840
through the filter of, I'm not good.

1379
01:17:26.760 --> 01:17:29.680
I should just be blessed and be fine

1380
01:17:29.680 --> 01:17:32.000
and I shouldn't feel anything negative.

1381
01:17:32.000 --> 01:17:33.680
And I don't think that's true.

1382
01:17:33.680 --> 01:17:34.800
You know, we have the flip side.

1383
01:17:34.800 --> 01:17:37.840
We have some people that are really negative all the time

1384
01:17:37.840 --> 01:17:40.400
and they really struggle to come out of negativity.

1385
01:17:40.400 --> 01:17:43.840
And then we have the other side where people are so positive

1386
01:17:43.840 --> 01:17:47.000
that they never really give themselves permission

1387
01:17:47.680 --> 01:17:49.000
to acknowledge their pain.

1388
01:17:49.920 --> 01:17:53.280
So I want to encourage you to acknowledge your pain.

1389
01:17:53.280 --> 01:17:56.840
Feel the feels so that God can heal your feels.

1390
01:17:56.840 --> 01:17:57.760
Thank you.

1391
01:17:57.760 --> 01:17:59.480
Yeah, you're welcome.

1392
01:17:59.480 --> 01:18:00.560
Because here's the thing,

1393
01:18:00.560 --> 01:18:02.920
let's look at what's underneath the envy.

1394
01:18:04.320 --> 01:18:06.320
What's under the envy?

1395
01:18:06.320 --> 01:18:08.360
It's broken promises.

1396
01:18:08.360 --> 01:18:10.400
It's lies that the enemy is telling you

1397
01:18:10.400 --> 01:18:14.320
that you're not going to have things that other people have.

1398
01:18:14.320 --> 01:18:15.400
It's all the other thing.

1399
01:18:15.600 --> 01:18:17.600
There's probably a lot under there,

1400
01:18:17.600 --> 01:18:18.680
but that's where it's like,

1401
01:18:18.680 --> 01:18:21.320
give yourself permission to feel it.

1402
01:18:21.320 --> 01:18:24.080
Because when you feel the emotion,

1403
01:18:24.080 --> 01:18:28.280
then you can start to uncover the lies that you're believing

1404
01:18:28.280 --> 01:18:31.080
that are underneath the envy that you're experiencing.

1405
01:18:31.080 --> 01:18:33.000
Because remember, envy is a fruit.

1406
01:18:33.920 --> 01:18:35.320
What's at the root of it?

1407
01:18:36.400 --> 01:18:37.520
Right?

1408
01:18:37.520 --> 01:18:39.960
And the root of it is connected to feelings

1409
01:18:39.960 --> 01:18:42.160
and pain that need healing.

1410
01:18:42.160 --> 01:18:45.160
And so do y'all, I think you were here last week, Allison,

1411
01:18:45.920 --> 01:18:48.320
when I talked about loving on the little girl us

1412
01:18:48.320 --> 01:18:49.800
and allowing the little girl us

1413
01:18:49.800 --> 01:18:51.560
to converge with the adult us.

1414
01:18:51.560 --> 01:18:54.080
And if y'all weren't here last week, if you're new,

1415
01:18:54.080 --> 01:18:55.920
you can check out that replay.

1416
01:18:55.920 --> 01:18:59.520
But I think that comes into play here for you as well.

1417
01:18:59.520 --> 01:19:01.920
It's loving on who you were

1418
01:19:03.080 --> 01:19:04.800
and the pain that you experienced

1419
01:19:04.800 --> 01:19:07.320
and giving yourself permission to feel it

1420
01:19:08.360 --> 01:19:12.480
so that God can come in and love that little version of you

1421
01:19:12.480 --> 01:19:14.400
so that the adult version of you

1422
01:19:14.400 --> 01:19:17.080
can be set free from the envy.

1423
01:19:17.080 --> 01:19:18.480
Does that make sense, everyone?

1424
01:19:18.480 --> 01:19:19.720
Yes, and thank you.

1425
01:19:19.720 --> 01:19:21.200
Thank you for that insight.

1426
01:19:21.200 --> 01:19:22.360
That was good.

1427
01:19:22.360 --> 01:19:23.320
You're welcome.

1428
01:19:24.400 --> 01:19:29.000
Ladies, I have said so many times to my husband recently,

1429
01:19:29.000 --> 01:19:32.640
I don't know why I'm struggling to be patient with people.

1430
01:19:32.640 --> 01:19:35.280
I tend to be a really patient person,

1431
01:19:35.280 --> 01:19:37.120
but I've been struggling to be patient

1432
01:19:37.120 --> 01:19:39.320
with the sheep in our church.

1433
01:19:39.320 --> 01:19:41.160
And so I just wanna say that to you all,

1434
01:19:41.160 --> 01:19:44.320
because as a leader, I don't want y'all to ever think

1435
01:19:44.320 --> 01:19:47.160
that any of us have ever arrived.

1436
01:19:47.160 --> 01:19:48.760
I've not arrived.

1437
01:19:48.760 --> 01:19:53.120
Every day I'm experiencing healing and revelation.

1438
01:19:53.120 --> 01:19:54.600
And you know what?

1439
01:19:54.600 --> 01:19:56.400
I'd be lying if I didn't tell you

1440
01:19:56.400 --> 01:20:00.200
that the enemy tries to cause me to feel shame for feeling.

1441
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:06.160
that. Guess what? Part of the reason I'm struggling with the sheep in our current

1442
01:20:06.160 --> 01:20:13.120
church is because we were hurt by sheep in our prior church. I feel that even in my heart as I'm

1443
01:20:13.120 --> 01:20:19.520
saying it to you all. And so God's been showing me and reminding me to really process the offense,

1444
01:20:19.520 --> 01:20:27.920
to process the hurt. Because before I became offended and broken by those people, I was hurt

1445
01:20:27.920 --> 01:20:35.920
by them. Okay? So let's all of us this week, grace. Just remember, God, thank you for your

1446
01:20:35.920 --> 01:20:40.560
mercy. Thank you for your grace. Thank you that I don't have to, we don't have to be perfect.

1447
01:20:42.080 --> 01:20:48.240
Every day we just do our best. We do our best to live like Jesus would live, but you all,

1448
01:20:48.240 --> 01:20:53.360
we can't. He was perfect because there's one perfect one, but we can do our best to become

1449
01:20:53.440 --> 01:21:02.560
more like him every day. But he also acknowledged what he felt. Jesus expressed his, you know,

1450
01:21:02.560 --> 01:21:07.280
even in the temple, why did he go in and remove that stuff? Well, because they were filling the

1451
01:21:07.280 --> 01:21:13.120
temple with all kinds of marketplace stuff. And it was literally causing the Gentiles to not be

1452
01:21:13.120 --> 01:21:22.160
able to enter into the place of worship. And that caused him to feel angry. And he turned the tables

1453
01:21:22.160 --> 01:21:28.240
over because they were turning the temple into something that it was never intended to be. And

1454
01:21:28.240 --> 01:21:36.080
it was blocking people from being able to come to God and into the presence. And so I think it's

1455
01:21:36.080 --> 01:21:42.560
important for us to remember that Jesus felt, Jesus felt things. Alison, thank you for your

1456
01:21:42.560 --> 01:21:47.280
courage to share. I appreciate that. Y'all, I have seven minutes to do our next content. So I'm going

1457
01:21:47.280 --> 01:21:52.080
to hurry really fast and do this. I don't want y'all to miss this, but I really appreciated that

1458
01:21:52.160 --> 01:21:57.120
opportunity to coach on those couple things. And I believe that God's going to bring revelation

1459
01:21:57.120 --> 01:22:02.080
and healing to you all in the areas that you need it through that as well. But we're going to talk

1460
01:22:02.080 --> 01:22:12.160
about vows really quick. Inner vows are this. It's a determination set in our mind and heart

1461
01:22:12.160 --> 01:22:14.080
to protect us from pain.

1462
01:22:18.080 --> 01:22:24.960
Inner vows are a determination set in our mind and our heart to protect us from pain.

1463
01:22:24.960 --> 01:22:30.480
Romans 12.2 says this, do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed

1464
01:22:30.480 --> 01:22:35.120
by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test what God's will is,

1465
01:22:35.680 --> 01:22:43.840
his good, pleasing and perfect will. Soil in our hearts is important, ladies. Okay,

1466
01:22:44.480 --> 01:22:48.160
I'm going to read another little clip from the book, the heartwork book

1467
01:22:49.600 --> 01:22:56.160
about vows. And this is what it says. Even though you won't be able to replace the actual events

1468
01:22:56.160 --> 01:23:02.160
that happened in your life, you can replace the lies that you believed. And most importantly,

1469
01:23:02.160 --> 01:23:07.920
the vows that you made as a result of the lies. When we experience these hurts in life,

1470
01:23:07.920 --> 01:23:15.360
they make us sad. And when we are sad, that's when anger shows up. Anger is always the defender.

1471
01:23:16.000 --> 01:23:20.400
It always shows up when those wounded and vulnerable parts of our heart feel threatened.

1472
01:23:20.960 --> 01:23:27.760
I like to think of it as hurts bodyguard. When anger is around, we feel strong and we start to

1473
01:23:27.760 --> 01:23:34.320
make inner vows. Here are some inner vows to give you guys some examples, you ladies, some examples

1474
01:23:36.000 --> 01:23:40.880
of inner vows that some of us make. Now you might have an inner vow that's totally different,

1475
01:23:40.880 --> 01:23:44.800
but this is just going to get you started. Nobody is ever going to hurt me again.

1476
01:23:45.760 --> 01:23:54.000
I don't care about anyone. I can't trust anybody. I will never turn out like my mother or father.

1477
01:23:54.960 --> 01:24:00.960
I won't be made a fool anymore. Nobody is ever going to tell me what to do.

1478
01:24:02.640 --> 01:24:09.760
I can't tell anybody about this. I will be perfect from now on so that nobody can reject me.

1479
01:24:11.040 --> 01:24:16.400
We make a decision to harden our hearts and it makes sense in the moment. We think if we make

1480
01:24:16.400 --> 01:24:21.520
these vows and build these walls around our hearts that we can keep all of the bad things out.

1481
01:24:21.760 --> 01:24:27.760
But unfortunately, walls are good at keeping things out, but they aren't good at letting things in.

1482
01:24:28.640 --> 01:24:34.800
To stop surviving and start thriving, ladies, we have to start to let things in.

1483
01:24:36.480 --> 01:24:42.000
As the lies in their corresponding vows are emerging, we have to replace them with the

1484
01:24:42.000 --> 01:24:48.000
greater truth of God's word. I'm going to give you all a couple more vows that I've heard from

1485
01:24:48.000 --> 01:24:54.160
coaching and things that people have said. I will never date or marry a Larry. Fill in the blank

1486
01:24:54.160 --> 01:24:59.120
with a different name if it applies to somebody that you've dated that's hurt you and you've made

1487
01:24:59.120 --> 01:24:59.920
that kind of vow.

1488
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:03.740
you know, David or John or whoever it was.

1489
01:25:03.740 --> 01:25:05.380
I'll never date or marry a certain,

1490
01:25:05.380 --> 01:25:07.940
a person of a certain ethnicity.

1491
01:25:07.940 --> 01:25:11.460
I'll never date or marry a person that has a certain,

1492
01:25:11.460 --> 01:25:13.540
a guy that has a certain type of job.

1493
01:25:13.540 --> 01:25:16.380
You know, these are statements and vows that we're making

1494
01:25:16.380 --> 01:25:20.100
because some people grew up in, you know, pastors, kids,

1495
01:25:20.100 --> 01:25:22.540
and they don't want to date and marry someone

1496
01:25:22.540 --> 01:25:26.620
that's in ministry because they saw negative things.

1497
01:25:26.620 --> 01:25:29.100
You know, even as I'm sharing things that, you know,

1498
01:25:29.100 --> 01:25:31.420
we went through in our prior church, you know,

1499
01:25:31.420 --> 01:25:33.300
sometimes ministry is hard.

1500
01:25:33.300 --> 01:25:35.180
And when you're a kid and you're growing up in that,

1501
01:25:35.180 --> 01:25:37.300
or even as an adult, you're like, yeah, no,

1502
01:25:37.300 --> 01:25:38.280
I don't want that.

1503
01:25:38.280 --> 01:25:39.680
But y'all, there's a lot of good.

1504
01:25:39.680 --> 01:25:41.060
There's a lot of good.

1505
01:25:41.060 --> 01:25:43.940
So we want to make sure we're not making vows

1506
01:25:43.940 --> 01:25:46.060
about things that are actually going to hinder

1507
01:25:46.060 --> 01:25:49.500
God's blessing from coming into our lives.

1508
01:25:49.500 --> 01:25:50.340
Here's another one.

1509
01:25:50.340 --> 01:25:51.880
I'll never let my guard down again.

1510
01:25:51.880 --> 01:25:54.580
I don't know if I already said that one.

1511
01:25:54.580 --> 01:25:57.500
And I don't know if I already said this one.

1512
01:25:57.500 --> 01:25:59.700
I'll never let anyone hurt me ever again.

1513
01:26:00.780 --> 01:26:03.900
So here are some ways you can start to identify

1514
01:26:03.900 --> 01:26:08.080
inner vows that you might have in your life, in your spirit.

1515
01:26:09.460 --> 01:26:11.960
Do you always say words like,

1516
01:26:11.960 --> 01:26:16.660
or do you ever say words like always or never?

1517
01:26:16.660 --> 01:26:19.840
For example, they always do that.

1518
01:26:19.840 --> 01:26:24.840
You could put that along with men always cheat,

1519
01:26:29.800 --> 01:26:34.800
men always lie, or my friends always leave,

1520
01:26:35.960 --> 01:26:40.880
or nobody ever, that could be the opposite,

1521
01:26:40.880 --> 01:26:43.840
nobody ever chooses me.

1522
01:26:43.840 --> 01:26:45.360
Okay, see how these inner vows,

1523
01:26:45.360 --> 01:26:47.800
these are tied to lies we believe.

1524
01:26:47.800 --> 01:26:50.480
And then we create these self-protection mechanisms,

1525
01:26:50.480 --> 01:26:54.960
these vows internally, subconsciously to protect ourselves.

1526
01:26:54.960 --> 01:26:55.800
Here's some other ones.

1527
01:26:55.800 --> 01:26:58.120
I always get passed over.

1528
01:26:58.120 --> 01:27:00.120
Men never come through for me.

1529
01:27:01.240 --> 01:27:03.660
Men never pick me.

1530
01:27:03.660 --> 01:27:05.640
Earlier today, I also said this,

1531
01:27:05.640 --> 01:27:07.160
men never pick heavier women,

1532
01:27:07.160 --> 01:27:11.200
or some women think with certain ethnicities,

1533
01:27:11.200 --> 01:27:12.120
nobody's going to pick them.

1534
01:27:12.120 --> 01:27:13.680
Or like I said earlier tonight,

1535
01:27:13.680 --> 01:27:16.920
some people believe that because they have children

1536
01:27:17.000 --> 01:27:19.320
that they're not going to get picked.

1537
01:27:19.320 --> 01:27:20.400
That's not truth.

1538
01:27:21.240 --> 01:27:24.340
Another one, I'm never seen or noticed.

1539
01:27:25.360 --> 01:27:26.280
Here's the reality.

1540
01:27:26.280 --> 01:27:30.760
If we believe we're not going to be seen or noticed by people

1541
01:27:30.760 --> 01:27:34.840
we actually believe subconsciously that God doesn't see us

1542
01:27:35.840 --> 01:27:37.160
and that he doesn't care.

1543
01:27:40.040 --> 01:27:42.480
Sylvia says, what about our parents speaking that over us?

1544
01:27:42.480 --> 01:27:44.800
You are going to be blank one day.

1545
01:27:44.800 --> 01:27:46.040
Yeah, absolutely.

1546
01:27:46.040 --> 01:27:48.880
But here's the thing, at some point,

1547
01:27:48.880 --> 01:27:50.720
when they spoke it over us,

1548
01:27:51.600 --> 01:27:55.100
when it becomes our inner vow is when we partnered with it.

1549
01:27:56.160 --> 01:27:57.840
Does that make sense, Sylvia?

1550
01:27:57.840 --> 01:27:58.680
Okay.

1551
01:27:58.680 --> 01:28:01.600
So ladies, what are we partnering with in our minds

1552
01:28:01.600 --> 01:28:03.480
and our spirits and our thought patterns

1553
01:28:03.480 --> 01:28:05.720
and the things that we're saying and confessing?

1554
01:28:05.720 --> 01:28:08.140
And sometimes y'all, we're not speaking it out,

1555
01:28:08.140 --> 01:28:09.240
but we're thinking it.

1556
01:28:10.220 --> 01:28:13.720
And we're agreeing with it the more that we meditate on it.

1557
01:28:13.720 --> 01:28:15.560
What we think about,

1558
01:28:15.560 --> 01:28:17.080
the Bible says that we should think on things

1559
01:28:17.080 --> 01:28:20.300
that are true, noble, lovely, and of good report,

1560
01:28:20.300 --> 01:28:23.680
things that are above only and not beneath.

1561
01:28:23.680 --> 01:28:24.560
Guess what?

1562
01:28:25.480 --> 01:28:27.840
Like the enemy of your soul

1563
01:28:27.840 --> 01:28:29.800
wants you to think on negative things,

1564
01:28:29.800 --> 01:28:31.840
things that are below where you are,

1565
01:28:31.840 --> 01:28:34.320
that you're never gonna get out from where you are.

1566
01:28:34.320 --> 01:28:37.320
I was talking with a couple people today,

1567
01:28:37.320 --> 01:28:39.460
Jackie and some people on the team,

1568
01:28:39.460 --> 01:28:42.720
and she brought up in the book,

1569
01:28:42.720 --> 01:28:44.160
and I don't remember what page it's on,

1570
01:28:44.160 --> 01:28:46.240
but I feel led to mention it tonight.

1571
01:28:46.240 --> 01:28:47.800
The crabs in the bucket.

1572
01:28:49.360 --> 01:28:52.600
Y'all know the story about the crabs in the bucket?

1573
01:28:52.600 --> 01:28:54.880
When one crab tries to crawl out,

1574
01:28:54.880 --> 01:28:57.380
the other crabs pull the crab back down.

1575
01:28:58.960 --> 01:29:00.080
So some of you all,

1576
01:29:00.080 --> 01:29:01.920
I believe the reason that came up in my spirit

1577
01:29:01.920 --> 01:29:04.920
is some of you all are trying to move forward,

1578
01:29:04.920 --> 01:29:08.440
but you're in a bucket right now with some other crabs.

1579
01:29:08.440 --> 01:29:11.400
And those crabs are trying to pull you back down.

1580
01:29:11.400 --> 01:29:16.400
And for some of you, the crabs are your own thoughts.

1581
01:29:17.960 --> 01:29:20.600
And as you start to really allow God

1582
01:29:20.600 --> 01:29:22.760
to transform your thoughts and your mind,

1583
01:29:22.760 --> 01:29:24.080
you're gonna be set free,

1584
01:29:24.080 --> 01:29:26.360
and you're gonna be able to get out of that bucket.

1585
01:29:26.360 --> 01:29:27.200
Because guess what?

1586
01:29:27.200 --> 01:29:30.440
The bucket can tip over any day because God can help you,

1587
01:29:30.440 --> 01:29:32.780
and you can climb right out of that thing.

1588
01:29:32.780 --> 01:29:34.320
So God is able.

1589
01:29:34.320 --> 01:29:36.700
So as you're looking at these things,

1590
01:29:36.700 --> 01:29:38.560
always and never statements,

1591
01:29:38.560 --> 01:29:41.800
or that it's never ever gonna happen,

1592
01:29:41.800 --> 01:29:43.060
are signal areas.

1593
01:29:43.060 --> 01:29:44.320
And those are ways that you can start

1594
01:29:44.320 --> 01:29:47.000
to determine those inner vows.

1595
01:29:47.000 --> 01:29:48.880
If you have any questions, ladies,

1596
01:29:48.880 --> 01:29:51.520
about anything I talked about tonight,

1597
01:29:51.520 --> 01:29:53.000
you can put that in the group,

1598
01:29:53.000 --> 01:29:54.480
and I'll answer your questions.

1599
01:29:54.480 --> 01:29:57.640
If you're not sure what your inner vows are,

1600
01:29:57.640 --> 01:30:00.240
you can come in and let's just start talking about it.

1601
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:02.280
believe the Lord will help you get to that place

1602
01:30:02.280 --> 01:30:06.560
to recognize maybe what some intervals you are having are.

1603
01:30:06.560 --> 01:30:09.200
And for some of you, you might just think,

1604
01:30:09.200 --> 01:30:10.680
I don't have any intervals,

1605
01:30:10.680 --> 01:30:15.680
but I will tell you that most of the time we all have them.

1606
01:30:15.900 --> 01:30:18.120
Okay, we just don't know what they are.

1607
01:30:18.120 --> 01:30:20.080
So Sylvia, do we just renounce those?

1608
01:30:20.080 --> 01:30:23.400
Yeah, so one of the ways for me,

1609
01:30:23.400 --> 01:30:28.400
I come out of agreement with lies or thought patterns

1610
01:30:30.000 --> 01:30:31.300
this has really worked well for me

1611
01:30:31.300 --> 01:30:34.120
is I actually write it out on a Post-it note.

1612
01:30:34.120 --> 01:30:37.060
And I write out, I come out of agreement.

1613
01:30:37.060 --> 01:30:38.520
Like I'll give you an example.

1614
01:30:38.520 --> 01:30:42.700
I come out of agreement with independence

1615
01:30:42.700 --> 01:30:46.800
and I come into agreement with interdependence on you God.

1616
01:30:47.960 --> 01:30:52.560
Because I needed to come out of the mindset

1617
01:30:52.560 --> 01:30:54.840
of I can take care of myself.

1618
01:30:54.840 --> 01:30:57.320
I don't need anyone's help.

1619
01:30:57.320 --> 01:31:00.300
And at times I subconsciously

1620
01:31:00.300 --> 01:31:02.000
didn't think I needed God's help.

1621
01:31:03.320 --> 01:31:07.000
And so I needed to really train my mind and my heart

1622
01:31:07.000 --> 01:31:11.360
every day to think about, God, I wanna depend on you.

1623
01:31:11.360 --> 01:31:13.500
So I'm gonna come out of alignment and agreement

1624
01:31:13.500 --> 01:31:16.540
with independence and doing it myself

1625
01:31:16.540 --> 01:31:19.400
and come into agreement with depending on you,

1626
01:31:19.400 --> 01:31:21.160
being interdependent on you.

1627
01:31:21.160 --> 01:31:23.220
And so, yeah, that's one of the ways for me.

1628
01:31:23.220 --> 01:31:24.460
And I put those Post-it notes,

1629
01:31:24.460 --> 01:31:26.340
I love to put Post-its up in my bathroom

1630
01:31:26.340 --> 01:31:27.900
or places I can see them.

1631
01:31:27.900 --> 01:31:29.340
Sometimes I put them by the sink

1632
01:31:29.340 --> 01:31:32.140
and I just declare those things out loud.

1633
01:31:32.140 --> 01:31:35.460
For me, out loud really makes a difference.

1634
01:31:35.460 --> 01:31:38.100
I can think it and pray it in my head when people are around

1635
01:31:38.100 --> 01:31:41.900
but when we confess things out of our mouths,

1636
01:31:41.900 --> 01:31:45.220
there's so much power in that ladies, okay?

1637
01:31:45.220 --> 01:31:46.680
Is there an exercise in the course

1638
01:31:46.680 --> 01:31:48.380
for the always and ever statements?

1639
01:31:49.820 --> 01:31:51.580
We don't have one in there,

1640
01:31:51.660 --> 01:31:56.580
but I can pray about that a little bit tonight and tomorrow

1641
01:31:56.580 --> 01:31:59.180
and maybe put some stuff up in the group for you all

1642
01:31:59.180 --> 01:32:02.420
to help you, but just really pray into it

1643
01:32:02.420 --> 01:32:04.100
and just see what the Lord uncovers.

1644
01:32:04.100 --> 01:32:06.140
And like I said, if you come in the group

1645
01:32:06.140 --> 01:32:07.760
and even ask questions or just,

1646
01:32:07.760 --> 01:32:09.980
hey, this is kind of what's starting to come up,

1647
01:32:09.980 --> 01:32:11.220
what do you think about this?

1648
01:32:11.220 --> 01:32:13.700
And then we can unpack it more from there.

1649
01:32:13.700 --> 01:32:16.300
I'm absolutely myself, my team,

1650
01:32:16.300 --> 01:32:19.220
we're there to help you all continue to process

1651
01:32:19.220 --> 01:32:20.280
what you're learning here.

1652
01:32:20.280 --> 01:32:23.120
So don't think you've got to just figure it out on your own

1653
01:32:23.120 --> 01:32:25.160
if you're not sure, okay?

1654
01:32:25.160 --> 01:32:26.480
Yeah, okay.

1655
01:32:26.480 --> 01:32:27.880
Jodi, that would be really great.

1656
01:32:27.880 --> 01:32:30.000
Let me pray for us, we're already at 934.

1657
01:32:30.000 --> 01:32:32.200
Y'all, this went so fast tonight.

1658
01:32:32.200 --> 01:32:33.840
We didn't do another breakout session tonight.

1659
01:32:33.840 --> 01:32:35.880
I'm really sorry, but I'll make it up to you next week,

1660
01:32:35.880 --> 01:32:36.840
okay?

1661
01:32:36.840 --> 01:32:40.660
All right, Father, thank you so much for your goodness.

1662
01:32:40.660 --> 01:32:44.000
God, thank you for the reminder that our identity in you

1663
01:32:44.000 --> 01:32:47.340
is always changing, that you're leading us into new seasons

1664
01:32:47.340 --> 01:32:48.720
and new places.

1665
01:32:48.720 --> 01:32:50.520
God, I thank you that even in Isaiah,

1666
01:32:50.520 --> 01:32:53.480
that you speak to us about enlarging the places

1667
01:32:53.480 --> 01:32:57.240
of our tent pegs and expanding and preparing

1668
01:32:57.240 --> 01:32:59.320
to receive the new that you have for us.

1669
01:32:59.320 --> 01:33:02.800
So Lord, I pray that you would just continue to speak

1670
01:33:02.800 --> 01:33:04.760
to the ladies and reveal to them the areas

1671
01:33:04.760 --> 01:33:09.760
where they aren't or haven't been valuing themselves fully

1672
01:33:09.840 --> 01:33:13.700
because they haven't really had a great view of themselves

1673
01:33:13.700 --> 01:33:14.540
through your eyes.

1674
01:33:14.540 --> 01:33:17.160
So Lord, where they need healing in their identity,

1675
01:33:17.160 --> 01:33:19.520
I pray that you would just speak that to them.

1676
01:33:19.520 --> 01:33:21.600
I pray that you would heal them and restore them,

1677
01:33:21.600 --> 01:33:23.360
rebuild them, renew them.

1678
01:33:23.360 --> 01:33:26.720
God, that you would make every crooked place straight

1679
01:33:26.720 --> 01:33:28.560
and help them to hear what your spirit is saying

1680
01:33:28.560 --> 01:33:31.120
louder than any other voice at the enemy.

1681
01:33:31.120 --> 01:33:32.460
In Jesus name, amen.

1682
01:33:32.460 --> 01:33:34.200
I almost forgot the activation.

1683
01:33:34.200 --> 01:33:35.040
Don't leave anybody-

1684
01:33:35.040 --> 01:33:35.860
I was getting ready to ask.

1685
01:33:35.860 --> 01:33:36.700
Thank you.

1686
01:33:36.700 --> 01:33:37.840
Don't leave.

1687
01:33:37.840 --> 01:33:38.680
So sorry.

1688
01:33:38.680 --> 01:33:40.600
All right, I'm gonna show you real quick.

1689
01:33:40.600 --> 01:33:42.200
I'm gonna give you an example.

1690
01:33:43.120 --> 01:33:44.640
Oh, where is that at?

1691
01:33:45.640 --> 01:33:47.680
Let's see here.

1692
01:33:47.680 --> 01:33:48.880
There we go, cool.

1693
01:33:48.880 --> 01:33:51.000
Okay, two activations.

1694
01:33:51.000 --> 01:33:54.480
The first one is to track your thoughts this week, ladies.

1695
01:33:54.480 --> 01:33:56.000
So I want you just to track how,

1696
01:33:56.000 --> 01:33:58.020
like what thoughts are you having?

1697
01:33:58.020 --> 01:33:59.120
What are the negative thoughts?

1698
01:33:59.120 --> 01:34:00.840
What are the positive thoughts?

1699
01:34:00.840 --> 01:34:03.940
To practice, you know, taking every thought captive

1700
01:34:03.940 --> 01:34:05.760
and making it obedient to Jesus Christ.

1701
01:34:05.760 --> 01:34:07.960
So that's kind of what that activation is about.

1702
01:34:07.960 --> 01:34:10.780
And the second one is a roots drawing.

1703
01:34:10.780 --> 01:34:13.080
I want you to really be asking the Lord.

1704
01:34:13.120 --> 01:34:15.060
Let me show you a couple examples.

1705
01:34:15.060 --> 01:34:18.480
Ladies, you can do yours however you want, okay?

1706
01:34:18.480 --> 01:34:20.260
These are just examples.

1707
01:34:20.260 --> 01:34:21.760
You don't have to do yours like this,

1708
01:34:21.760 --> 01:34:23.160
but this is just to show you.

1709
01:34:23.160 --> 01:34:26.260
So basically the roots activation is to really pray

1710
01:34:26.260 --> 01:34:30.520
about what roots, healthy and unhealthy, are in your life.

1711
01:34:30.520 --> 01:34:32.520
So you see some of the different ones here.

1712
01:34:32.520 --> 01:34:34.980
And then what is the fruit that's being produced

1713
01:34:34.980 --> 01:34:36.620
from those roots, okay?

1714
01:34:36.620 --> 01:34:39.920
So for example, this is kind of how she did hers.

1715
01:34:39.920 --> 01:34:41.240
She mixes hers all up.

1716
01:34:41.240 --> 01:34:43.900
There's positive and negative all throughout.

1717
01:34:43.900 --> 01:34:45.920
And then she didn't end up doing the fruit

1718
01:34:45.920 --> 01:34:47.740
on the top of hers, but that's totally fine.

1719
01:34:47.740 --> 01:34:48.860
Again, this is your thing.

1720
01:34:48.860 --> 01:34:51.020
You guys can do with it however you want.

1721
01:34:51.020 --> 01:34:51.940
Here's another one.

1722
01:34:51.940 --> 01:34:54.100
This lady was a little more crafty

1723
01:34:54.100 --> 01:34:55.480
and the other lady was crafty too,

1724
01:34:55.480 --> 01:34:57.220
but you know, she colored hers and all that.

1725
01:34:57.220 --> 01:34:58.580
You don't have to do that.

1726
01:34:58.580 --> 01:34:59.620
It's totally up to you.

1727
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:02.800
are things written on hers, it's a little harder to see it.

1728
01:35:02.800 --> 01:35:05.700
I don't know if y'all can see that a little bit better now.

1729
01:35:07.080 --> 01:35:08.900
One here is fear of rejection.

1730
01:35:08.900 --> 01:35:10.880
So that was an unhealthy root

1731
01:35:10.880 --> 01:35:13.200
that she was praying into God healing more.

1732
01:35:13.200 --> 01:35:15.880
And then she wrote the lies that she was believing

1733
01:35:15.880 --> 01:35:18.840
that were connecting to that fear of rejection.

1734
01:35:18.840 --> 01:35:20.800
And that was really powerful for her.

1735
01:35:20.800 --> 01:35:23.920
So that was why I also chose that example.

1736
01:35:23.920 --> 01:35:25.040
Here's another one.

1737
01:35:25.040 --> 01:35:28.680
This lady felt really led to not only,

1738
01:35:29.440 --> 01:35:32.480
you know, do a drawing, but she did a whole board

1739
01:35:32.480 --> 01:35:34.160
because it was setting her free so much.

1740
01:35:34.160 --> 01:35:36.880
So again, you guys do whatever you want with this.

1741
01:35:36.880 --> 01:35:41.000
But she wrote down here, you know, some three main things.

1742
01:35:41.000 --> 01:35:42.440
And then what she did was

1743
01:35:42.440 --> 01:35:45.000
she wrote other things underneath of it.

1744
01:35:45.000 --> 01:35:47.780
So for example, childhood perfectionism,

1745
01:35:47.780 --> 01:35:51.360
and she attached like grades, chores, sports,

1746
01:35:51.360 --> 01:35:52.440
different things in areas

1747
01:35:52.440 --> 01:35:55.680
where she struggled to try to be perfect.

1748
01:35:55.680 --> 01:35:57.000
Does that make sense?

1749
01:35:57.000 --> 01:35:59.800
And then up, what that led to was the fruit,

1750
01:35:59.800 --> 01:36:01.040
adult perfectionism,

1751
01:36:01.040 --> 01:36:03.560
and how that was showing up in her life.

1752
01:36:03.560 --> 01:36:05.400
Again, you guys don't have to do yours that way,

1753
01:36:05.400 --> 01:36:06.680
but I wanted to show that one to you.

1754
01:36:06.680 --> 01:36:08.280
Last example, oh, two more.

1755
01:36:08.280 --> 01:36:09.720
This one I wanted to show you

1756
01:36:09.720 --> 01:36:11.480
because she did hers on a computer.

1757
01:36:11.480 --> 01:36:12.720
This is totally fine.

1758
01:36:12.720 --> 01:36:13.960
This is great.

1759
01:36:13.960 --> 01:36:17.280
So unhealthy boundaries led to unhealthy relationships.

1760
01:36:17.280 --> 01:36:18.400
That was the fruit.

1761
01:36:18.400 --> 01:36:22.360
The root of love led to peace and connection, fruit.

1762
01:36:22.360 --> 01:36:25.500
Okay, so y'all getting the idea here?

1763
01:36:25.500 --> 01:36:26.940
Okay, here's the last one.

1764
01:36:28.700 --> 01:36:32.660
Fear of man leading to confusion, feeling stuck,

1765
01:36:32.660 --> 01:36:35.020
you know, feeling like she was living in a smaller world

1766
01:36:35.020 --> 01:36:36.580
than what God intended for her.

1767
01:36:36.580 --> 01:36:38.760
Her faith, which is a positive one,

1768
01:36:38.760 --> 01:36:41.780
leads to connection, to healthy relationships,

1769
01:36:41.780 --> 01:36:44.460
to, you know, having hope and all the things.

1770
01:36:44.460 --> 01:36:46.660
So she did a little bit of color in hers.

1771
01:36:46.660 --> 01:36:48.660
Again, you all do whatever you want.

1772
01:36:48.660 --> 01:36:51.940
After you finish your roots activation,

1773
01:36:51.940 --> 01:36:53.660
I encourage you to post them in the group

1774
01:36:53.660 --> 01:36:55.320
and share about your process.

1775
01:36:56.320 --> 01:36:57.940
Okay, so God bless you.

1776
01:36:57.940 --> 01:36:58.780
I love you.

1777
01:36:58.780 --> 01:37:00.080
So sorry I kept you late.

1778
01:37:00.080 --> 01:37:01.540
Have a great night, everyone.

1779
01:37:01.540 --> 01:37:03.660
I love you all and see you in the group.

1780
01:37:03.660 --> 01:37:04.500
Bye.