Hi. Good evening. Welcome. Welcome. Welcome. Pat, just to kind of circle back to that,
that is just they probably emailed everybody that is in our community and you probably
just didn't get removed from the free group as far as your email. And so that's why you're
getting that even though you're already a part of the community. We don't really send
a lot of emails once you're in the community unless we have something to announce. So don't
feel like you're missing anything, you all. I hope that people still show up. HeartWork
is where you need to be because you're in the HeartWork journey. You're already a part
of our community and program. Yeah, I just want to make sure everyone's feeling good
about that. I am going to put in a few minutes here a song in the chat for you. I was just
listening to it myself. It's one of my favorites. And I'm going to talk a little bit about Awakening
tonight from a different aspect than we did last week because it came up this afternoon.
I feel like it's relevant. If you all haven't been here before, if this is your first live
session, we'd love for you to put that in the chat so we can welcome you so that I know
who's new, who's joined us for the first time. Or even maybe I thought Courtney, I thought
you looked familiar or new to me, your name and your face. Welcome, welcome. Ladies, I
would love for you to join me on screen if you're able. I haven't said that for the last
I don't think I said that last week. But if you're able, we'd love to see if you're driving
and you can't I understand or if you're eating, just wait until you're finished. If you're
at work, you don't have to. But welcome. Daphne's new, Courtney's new. Anyone else new? This
is your first live session. Okay, is it Alana? Is that how you say your name? Awesome. Oh
my gosh, I got it right. That's awesome. Well, welcome back to all of our other ladies who
have been here and you're rejoining us tonight. I'm so glad to be here with you. I'm Bethany
Cooper. I am one of the master heartwork coaches in this community. I've been a part of this
community for I was thinking about it today. I think it's been about three and a half years. May
of 2021. Gosh, it's almost four years. Now. We're almost at four. That's awesome. I'm one of the
success stories in the community. So some of the things I'm telling you y'all I've just I've
absolutely learned it from experience. The things I coach on are from the heartwork, but also my
life experience combined with the heartwork and a lot of other stuff. So just praying that it
bless you tonight and meet you right where you're at. For replays, I always try to plug a couple of
the replays because not only just because but they really are giving us so many things to really
meditate on to spend time with the Lord and Saturday was the season of upgrade is what I'm
calling it. I don't know if that's what Jackie was calling it. But that's kind of what I've coined
it as it's a message about the season that you're in is being as a season of upgrade. And then last
night, we did our prophetic ministry night. The first part of the night actually was a little
different than normal, because God was really just ministering real time through something that
Jackie was walking through and then led the community to pray into that for ourselves as
well. Some things in those areas. And then we went into some prophetic ministry time towards the
end of that. But if you all want to check those out, those are in the replay tab for you in the
app. I want to remind you all best practice as you're going through this. For those of you that
are newer, you wouldn't know this before you came in. We do encourage you to press pause on dating.
So if you're not sure what that looks like, and you just started talking to someone, go ahead and
put a question for me and ask a coach in the app. And I'll address it there. Just want to help you
guys navigate this really well. The reason we do that is so that you're completely focused on
yourself and your heart healing during this time. No matter how much people try, when they go
through this journey, and they're kind of dating or trying to date, they just never fully focus on
what God's saying. It's really hard to do that. Even when you're married, you all I can attest to
it. When we're doing heart work, and we're doing healing, and we got all the kind of things going
on with married life and, and all of that. It's not impossible, but there's a lot more distractions.
Okay, so lean in, it's five weeks, some of y'all may take a little bit longer, depending on your
pace, we don't want you to go quicker, it should be at least five weeks. But it'll be the best five
weeks of you investing in yourself and really giving yourself this time. Here's another one
invest in yourself care through this journey. If y'all don't know when we process trauma and wounds
from the past, it actually can release toxins and things into our bodies. And so it's really important
to drink a lot of water, eating healthy food, getting extra rest, some of y'all might need naps
during this five weeks, because you're processing so much, and then move your body, however, you
can move your body, even if it's today, I was just kind of getting up in between I work from home, I'm
at my desk a lot. And so I've been trying to get up and move throughout the day and just even walk
up and down. I have a ranch style house, just walk up and down my house. But whatever we can do.
To move our bodies a little bit. It's really, really good for us. Let me pray
and then we're going to dive right into the content. We went way over this afternoon.
We're not going to do that tonight. I have a lot to cover. I'm excited and I believe that
the Holy Spirit is excited about breakthrough for you all as well as I was praying before we
got on here tonight. He wants you all to break free from fear and anxiety and the desire and
the need to control. That's where we're tracking tonight. So Father, we just thank you.
We thank you right now in this moment that you're here with us,
that your word declares that you never leave us, you never forsake us, that you're always with us
wherever we go, that you've gone before us into every situation and even the areas where we just
really struggle to believe, help our unbelief, remove every spirit of doubt, every spirit of
unbelief, every divisive spirit or anything that the enemy might try to use to lead us away from
your word and your truth that brings us life. We ask you, Lord, to come and Holy Spirit, just come
and wash over our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits, and our souls and help us to open up
to receive everything that you have for us tonight, that you would bring those things that
are in darkness to the light, that you would just, even as I'm teaching and sharing, God,
that you would bring things to the surface, that it would just bubble up, that we would have
understanding and revelation of things that don't align with heaven, that don't look like or sound
like heaven, that we've been thinking on, meditating on, and living into throughout our lives or maybe
even recently that we just, we subconsciously, we did not even recognize it. It was just a part of
just what we're used to, things that we've succumbed to for a long time, like when a lullaby
is sang and it just lulls a baby to sleep. The enemy has lulled some of us to sleep and I thank
you, God, that you're awakening us in this new season, even as the Supernatural Saturday, it's
an upgrade season, a season of new, it's a season of change, changes in the air, and we thank you,
God, that you're awakening us to new, bold, beautiful futures, as well as truth and hope
in life. In Jesus' name, amen and amen. Y'all, I'm gonna put in the chat now, there's a song that I
put in there. I'll put this in the group as well, but if y'all want to copy and paste that, grab it,
Awake My Soul by Hillsong Worship, even if you've heard it before, I want to encourage you to listen
to that this week and really meditate on it, on God awakening the things within you that need to
be awakened. All right, last week, we talked a little bit about awake, awake, oh sleeper and
rise up from the dead, that scripture, so that's kind of already in my spirit leading into tonight
and everything that I just prayed, but as we start to move forward into the content tonight,
I want you to be thinking about, if you have a pen, I want you to write this something on your
paper as it comes up. If you have something, as I start sharing, I want you to think about this
last week and not in your own strength, in your own mind, but just ask the Lord to reveal this to
you. What is something that you have feared in the last week or in what way has the enemy attacked
you with fear? Like what was he saying to you when he was attacking you with fear in the last week,
maybe even today, but in the last week, where is an area of your heart and mind that you can recall
feeling afraid or having thoughts that are focused on fear or grounded in fear or anxiety
that can partner with that? I'm going to go into that here in a minute. I want to give you a moment
just to think about that. All right. So as you're thinking on that, I want you to go ahead and start
to put those in the chat for me. Let me see. What are some things y'all have been struggling with
in the last week connected to fear? Connected to fear. Let's start to see those in the chat.
I know it might be a lot to type really quick. All right. Losing my parents. Okay.
Are your parents sick, Karen? Or are you just saying that because they're elderly and that's
just a fear the enemy attacks you? Let's just want to know a little bit more there.
Fear of not being wanted, chosen by a man.
Anyone else?
Fear of taxes. Oh my gosh. That came up this afternoon as well.
Interesting. And all the time I've led heartwork that has never been one that's come up and that's
the third time it's come up in a week. Y'all in general. Okay. There's 71 mom battling cancer.
Okay. I'm so sorry to hear that about your mom. We're going to be praying for her. Y'all let's
pray this week for Karen Roa's mom. I don't know if I said your last name, right? For her to overcome
cancer, that cancer.
that would be gone in Jesus' name from her mom's body.
Parents getting in an accident, dying,
building an A, my dad in backyard, cost, okay?
Okay.
So your dad's gonna live, am I understanding this right,
Alana, that your dad, you're trying to make a way
for him to live in your backyard in a building?
Is that what that means?
Yeah, so there's just been a lot with my parents.
They're divorced, but my dad needs,
you know, I'm trying to, he's been living subsidized
in my house about 30 minutes away
because he would qualify for like section eight
and there's a huge long line for that,
but it also doesn't help you not be lonely and stuff.
And then my mom, a month ago I found out,
my brother and I are navigating,
she lost her retirement savings, like 450K to a scammer
and like fraud and it's gone.
And so just like navigating that
and being supportive and loving, yeah.
All right, awesome.
Thank you for sharing.
Not awesome that that happened.
Awesome job sharing.
We'll be praying.
You all, it's real.
You need to be careful on a line.
Don't ever click on a link or send people money
that you do not know, okay?
That's just for free.
Please don't do that ever, okay?
If you're ever in doubt, ask us, ask us.
We'll tell you, okay?
We'll vet it out with you.
I promise my mom who was elderly almost got scammed as well.
All right, but we don't live in fear ladies, right?
That's what we're gonna talk about tonight.
We're gonna live in authority and faith and confidence.
All right, some other ones here are job search
that I need to make a decision based from a place of fear
versus trusting the Lord's leading,
fear of not rising above my current circumstances,
fear that there will never be, okay,
anyone compatible enough for me to marry.
Yeah, okay, main community currently, okay.
Karen's saying her parents are really
her main community right now.
So in addition to the things happening with her mom,
that's her main community, understand that 100%.
Fear of the unknown, financial concerns,
fear of the future,
fear of getting in the way of my own healing, all right.
Fear of not being enough.
I'm doing this on purpose, ladies, just bear with me.
Fear of keeping up with work demands
and having a balanced life, staying sick.
All right, in Jesus name, Brenda, you're getting healed.
You're walking into healing.
All right, having to pay 2,400 in taxes,
just found out today, so we got another tax thing.
All right, fear of my one-year-old granddaughter
going back to her mom, okay, if the DSCC,
okay, DCF case is closed.
All right, Stephanie says I'm a worship leader
and had a fear anxiety.
Just recently spoke to the team I led about that
and they all had breakthrough in that way, that's awesome.
Yes, yes, yes.
Fear that I may not like God's choice
is what he showed me, all right.
Y'all, these are good.
I'll never be more than I am right now.
Well, praise the Lord.
Today is the day that you're starting to become someone new.
So guess what, ladies?
We're all becoming more than we are right now.
Can we just, in Jesus name,
I'll take that step forward in the spirit,
just right now, right now, taking a step forward,
you are becoming someone new.
And even as Jackie said on Saturday,
the flip side of that is you're unbecoming
all of the old counterfeit identities
that you used to live into.
And so either way, we're winning
and we're making progress every day
when we take a step forward.
Okay, so I had you all put those up.
And if you think of more, you can keep putting them up,
but I'm not gonna continue to read them out loud.
I'll read them as y'all as quick as I can
as you put them in there, but I won't read them out loud.
Okay, so as we're thinking about all of these things
that were put up in the chat and just the everyday life,
I want y'all to understand that our hearts
are very highly impressionable.
Everything we listen to, everything that we look at,
everything that we hear, the people that were around,
the news that we're listening to,
whatever it is that's impressing upon our hearts,
the trauma that we went through,
the wounds that we experienced,
they all made impressions.
And then the positive stuff makes impressions too.
But we have to think about how the scripture tells us
that we're supposed to, what does it say in Proverbs 4?
Y'all, I'm all over the place.
Lord, help me to get my words out tonight.
I felt like I had a hard time with this this afternoon too.
I don't know if the enemy's just doing that
to cause distraction, but I just come into subjection
that I'm gonna be able to get things out clearly.
And I just thank you, Lord, in advance for that.
be any confusion while I'm trying to release a word. All right. Thank you, Jesus. Proverbs 4.23
in the ESV version says this, keep your heart with all vigilance for from it flows the springs of
life. So I want you to be thinking about all those things that you put in the chat as well
as anything else that you all have feared or faced this last week that brought anxiety, panic, worry,
anything negative, grumbling, complaining, it all goes in there.
But that all going into our hearts is going to cause that stuff to flow out of our hearts. So
the word is saying keep your heart with all vigilance. So keep is like an action word.
That's something that we have to participate in. It's not just we sit and we just wait and then,
oh my gosh, this stuff keeps happening to me. No, we take an active role in our victory and
overcoming and declaring out of our mouths, you know, the truth over ourselves that we would take
every thought captive quickly, very quick. That's what I added that in. I always add that in because
I don't want to just go, you know, mile down the road a day down the road and realize, man,
the enemy's been beating the crap out of me. I want to know like I can catch him quick in his
lies. And some days he does take me for a journey longer than I wanted to go. But here's the thing.
If we're actively keeping our heart with all vigilance, that means this quality or state
of being vigilant, which is alertly watchful to avoid danger. So I want you just to be thinking
even in the last 24 hours. How many of you, and you can raise your hand digitally or put it in
the chat, yes or no. How many of you would say, and there's no shame in this. Remember, there's
no shame, guilt, or condemnation during these sessions, but I'm just posing this question.
Even as I pose it to myself earlier, how many of you would say that in the last 24 hours that you
were alertly watchful to avoid danger over your heart and your mind? Yes or no. If you're yes,
raise your hand. You say yes in the chat. If no, go ahead and put no in the chat and just leave
your little hand thing down. Okay. So not a whole lot of us, right? So many times we go through our
day and we don't put on the armor of God. We're not protecting our minds. We're not protecting
our hearts. And we're just letting a lot of stuff in. There's no gate, there's no protection.
If you go to really important places like in the government or travel far away and they have these
guards that stand like they're at the gate, you can't even get in. If you don't have access and
permission to go through that gate, you're not getting in. But yet we give the enemy full access
so many times, don't we? So tonight I want you to be thinking about the fears and the anxiety,
like worrisome thoughts, anxious thoughts, fearful thoughts, any kind of dread, panic,
all of that kind of stuff where maybe the enemy has been really taking you for a ride and you're
it's night's the night where you're going to say, okay, I'm getting out of this Jeep.
I'm not going to continue riding with you on this road anymore. And you're going to start walking
back towards the father's house, back towards where he wants you to go so that you can walk
into the fullness of everything he has for you. Fear is false evidence appearing real.
And we ought to remember that. I say it a lot. Fear is false evidence appearing real. So the
enemy's coming and he's pretending like he's the light, like he has truth. And like, you should
just believe everything that he says, because it sounds similar. Sometimes it does, doesn't it?
But he just slips something in that's actually cunning and deceiving and it turns truth into
a lie. And a lot of times he does that. And we believe that again, because subconsciously when
we are wounded and we went through trauma, we believed lies and partnered back then.
And that makes us more susceptible to lies and things that the enemy is saying to us now today.
Anxiety is fueled by fear. So false evidence appearing real is fear.
And then anxiety is fueled by fear. And what if thoughts
We have a project going on at our church today. I use this example this afternoon,
because it's a really easy example. Somebody said, well, what is a what if thought? Like,
what's the opposite of a what if thought? You know, they were asking some really good questions.
And here are some examples. We have this building project going on. Some of it's paid by insurance.
Some of it is not. We'll have to raise some money for that. But in the process, you got to get
But in the process, you got to get permits. You got to get supplies. You got to have the
construction people. You got to have good weather. We're about to like, you know, go into summer.
season, well then hurricane season is upon us right after that. And there's all these things
where the enemy's like, well, what if you don't get the things in time? What if they don't put
the trusses on? Literally, these are thoughts I've had. What if they don't get the roof on before
the hurricane season comes? Then is it going to destroy the work that's already been done? And
all these things, when at the end of the day, you all, that is the enemy trying to get me to
live in a mindset and thought patterns of anxiety. Because if he can get me to go over there,
well, then I'm not staying in the lane I'm supposed to be in, which is where God has
called me to be full of faith, full of peace, full of trust, standing on truth.
And then I lose that position of authority and power. Do I lose it forever? No,
but in that moment, I might. And then the enemy's kind of got his grips in me. And I'll tell you
this, even as I'm talking to you all tonight, I didn't even think about the fact that how many
times I've thought about the roof, not being on the church in time, but I've thought of that
multiple times. And see, that's how the enemy has been working, trying to get us into, get me into
that place of fear and worrying about stuff that at the end of the day, I can't control. But also
I can instead partner with faith and declare that the money's going to be in, we prayed this last
week, the plenty of money is going to be in and it'll be here in advance. And it'll be more than
we even need or expect. That's what I've been praying. And we were able to declare that last
week. Well, that's a statement of faith. That's not just something I'm making up. It came up
out of me when I was praying. That's what I really believe. And that's what I want to partner with.
So I want you to think about your own lives. Again, this is a very different situation. This
is about our church and things that are going on here. Before Brian and I ever came here,
they had a church fire and the whole sanctuary has to be rebuilt. So that's what I'm referring
to. We're in a rebuilding. So right now they're doing the demo, but it takes, it takes consistency,
ladies, to ward off the devil when he's trying to lie to us and get us into anxious thinking
and living. Vigilant. We have to be watchful to stand guard at all times. Okay. Know that the
Lord has you as well. We don't have to live in fear that we're not going to be protected either
because God's got us, but there is this participation on our part that that is very
important. Trauma that happened to us isn't what stops us from living an amazing life, ladies,
but it's the lies we believe because of the trauma.
Fears and anxiety feed off of the lies that we believe. Okay. I'm going to read something to you
really quick from the heart workbook. The biggest lie is what it's called. Y'all, if you haven't
read it already, you will. And this is what it says. The biggest lie you may believe in life
is that your life is normal. Many people that live broken lives believe that it's reasonable
to live that way. They have inherited that emotional debt or trauma from their family,
and they think it's normal to be overweight and unhappy, to be unfaithful, to be in a relationship
where someone mistreats you, or to be sick all the time. They think it's okay to have massive
amounts of debt and spend all of their energy trying to figure out how to pay the bills or
even more severe deception, like it's normal to abuse and hurt others or yourself or to be abused.
I knew someone like that. They thought it was normal to be molested by family members because
it's all they had ever known. When they were confronted by an outsider about the abuse,
they said that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it? No, it does not. Maybe you have been
confronted by people in your life, friends, co-workers, or even family that are trying to
get you to see how dysfunctional an area of your life has become. I've done this for people over
the years. Some people call it intervention. It's a reality check when someone is so deep in a lie
that their behavior has become dangerous to others or themselves. The desired outcome is that the
person will wake up and see what they are doing and ask for help. Hence, there's the awake my soul
coming in again there, okay? That we would awaken to the ways that we are living in dysfunction,
that we're living with no boundaries, where we're allowing people to come in and mistreat us and we
just keep excusing it because, hey, we're the body of Christ and we're supposed to be full of love
and kindness and so we just tend to let people walk all over us. No, that's not what God intended.
He wants us to walk in love and kindness and goodness, but he wants us to walk in wisdom.
Wisdom, out of all the things Solomon could have asked for in the entire world, he asked first and
foremost for wisdom. So I think that that's something we should follow. Like, Lord, give me
wisdom. Give me insight. Give me revelation. Mature me. Heal me and help me grow up on the inside.
In any way that I need it, so that I can overcome fear, doubt, unbelief, I can walk in maturity,
I can make right decisions according to the scripture and according to the word of God.
You know, like we're walking this stuff out and we're seeing and recognizing where we're
living underneath of God's fullness of his plan for us, the original plan and design
for us.
I want you to pause and ask yourself this the next time fear or anxious thoughts come
up.
These are two things you can ask yourself.
They sound similar, but they're actually not.
One is what are the facts and what is true?
What are the facts?
You're just leaning on the facts.
What's the facts of the situation?
Well the facts of the situation is that we're rebuilding the church and we're about at the
place where we're going to order the trusses and they should come in in six weeks.
That's in approximately six weeks.
That's the facts.
What's true is we're actually ahead of the plan right now and praise God it's nice and
sunny here right now.
And what's the truth?
The construction workers have been doing a great job and things have, you know, like
leaning on the truth.
Now that's truth in on the situation, but what's the truth of God's word is what I'm
also meaning there.
The truth is, is that he's our provider in every need that we have.
He will provide for us.
I believe that he will see us just like he did with the Nehemiah when they were rebuilding
the walls.
They didn't lack anything to rebuild the wall.
They build it and they had everything that they had need of.
And that I believe is the truth that I can stand on for this as well.
And again, I'm just using my own life to give you a, like an everyday example, but y'all
fear comes in all different shapes and sizes.
It comes in all different ways.
And so as we read in the chat, a lot of you all are battling fears.
We can overcome every one of these fears, the more that we heal and the more rooted
and grounded we become in God's love and faithfulness to us.
So on that note, I want to kind of read something to you before I go into the next scripture.
I was thinking on this this afternoon and it's from James chapter three, verse 11 and
12.
It says, can both freshwater and saltwater flow from the same spring?
My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives or a grapevine bear figs?
Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.
I'm pulling that in because the way that we choose to think produces what's flowing out
of us.
So a spring full of fresh water, that's spring water.
When we allow that to be filled in us, okay, let's talk about the infilling of the Holy
Spirit right now when we're taking time to pray and read the word of God and spend time
with the Lord.
And even a little bit before, I was just like, Lord, fill me up.
It's been a long day.
I feel tired.
I need energy.
Lord, just come and just flow in me and flow out of me to these ladies and give them everything
that they need.
I can't rely on bitter, salty water.
That's the leftover remnant because a long, hard day.
Now I haven't been bitter all day, but I'm just trying to give you all an example.
If I am thinking on bitter things, if I'm steeped in unforgiveness, if I have offenses
and I'm just angry all day, does that mean I can't be close to the Lord?
No, you can be because he never leaves.
He never shifts.
We just have to come to him.
But he does say, you know, for us to cleanse our hearts, to create in us a clean heart
of God and renew a steadfast spirit within us.
That was what David prayed.
So we can't produce fresh water and salt water.
So what I want to pose to you all is if we struggle with thinking on negative things
and being critical a lot, I'm going to say that it also will often breed a lifestyle
of fear and anxiety and panic as well.
It will.
And so we're going to be doing, I'm introducing this tonight, a negativity fast for the next
few weeks.
Okay.
What I mean by that is that I want to encourage you to really pay attention to what you're
thinking about, what you're talking about, the things that you're listening to, and really
step away from negative influences and allowing your mind to think on negative things.
And it will take some discipline.
I will get it out.
It's because I'm trying to talk too fast to you.
Oh man, it's funny.
But it will take a little bit of discipline, but it'll be worth it, ladies.
Okay.
So as we step out of fear, we...
step into faith, we step into also love. Love is the thing that we get rooted in and the more that
we grow in the understanding of God as love and know his character, the more we will be able to
be rooted in love and produce the good fruit and that fresh spring will be flowing.
So you all, fear is the opposite of faith and love. Anxiety and love are opposites. So
do I mean that people can't struggle with actual mental health struggles with anxiety? No, I'm not
saying that. I think that's very real and I think it's growing in our society. You can look all
around and see stats left and right. Even in the church, it's growing rampantly. Why? Do we stop
and wonder why? Well, think about everything we're unindated with every single day. The news,
our phones, like we literally, every time I scroll on Facebook, I literally see something
negative every single time. And we have to understand that this stuff is impacting us
more than we know. Am I saying you have to get rid of your phone? No, but if you have a lot of
anxiety and panic, you may want to consider like setting a timer and just staying away from your
phone for a little while, reading more, spending some time sitting in the sunshine, whatever
helps you find peace. I've, I really believe, I know it makes me think of the old movie y'all.
Yes. I watched this movie. I used to, it used to be one of my favorite, but Julia Roberts,
when she was with Richard Gere, she was the hooker. What was the name of that movie?
I'm telling y'all. I know it sounds so bad when I say it like that pretty woman. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
All right. But the reason I mentioned that movie y'all mentioned in pretty woman during heart
check-in, it's crazy. But I think of the scene where Richard Gere, she takes him to put his feet
in the grass and they just pop a squat or whatever she called it in the park. You know, he's working,
working, working all the time. But I really think of that even just for us, like so many of us don't
slow down and pop a squat. We don't. And what would it be like to just take a blanket to a park and
just lay there and read or, you know, let the sun hit on you or whatever that might look like for you.
We're going so busy so fast that we're not really allowing ourselves to center in the Lord
and allow him to renew our strength. Isaiah 40, 31 to rise and mount up with wings as eagles
that our strength would be renewed like the Eagles. Guess what y'all we have to connect
with the Lord in order for him to rise us up as an Eagle. It doesn't just happen,
it's by our participation and our connection with him. Okay, I'm going back to the fear now.
Here's what it says. Are you someone who's always waiting for the other shoe to drop?
Is that something that is common for you? Something's going really well and inside the
enemy just keeps telling you, just wait. Something's going to go wrong. Something's
going to go bad. It's not going to last. The other shoe is waiting to drop. Do you tend to
think of the worst case scenario instead of the best case scenario? Like an example, you get a
call from a boss and you automatically feel fear and panic like, oh my gosh, I did something wrong.
They're upset with me or they're I'm going to get in trouble or anyone else ever done that?
Anyone? Anyone? Oh my gosh, Bueller did what movie? I'm saying all kinds of movie stuff tonight
is coming up. I have no clue what movie that's from, but as soon as I did that, that's what
came to my mind. But man, I just remember even yesterday we were at lunch, Brian and I, and he
was telling me that his friend that lives here now as well, Ferris Bueller's Day Off. Okay,
y'all, I don't know why all this stuff's coming out tonight, but we'll just laugh about it.
But he was telling me that his friend that lives here now is going to church with us,
said, hey, let's get together on Wednesday. And his friend doesn't normally initiate them getting
together. So Brian and I are like, what's it about? We're just trying to figure it out. Is he,
is he deciding he doesn't want to be, cause Brian's talking to him about maybe be on the board at
church and all these things. And I finally said, you know, maybe you should just ask him
because then we'll just stop worrying about it. And then you'll know. Cause if not, we'll just
analyze it and overthink it and think about things that just are not even true. And you know,
his friend just basically was like, Oh no, I just thought it'd be good to hang out. There's no agenda.
Anybody, anybody relate to that stuff? Yeah. These are real things.
All right. You hear a siren and think something happened to someone.
you love. Maybe this is another one, you send a text to someone
and they don't respond to your text in the timeframe you think
that they should have. Do you tend to think things like
they're mad at me? They're ignoring me. They don't care
about me. I'm not a priority. He must be talking to someone else
this would be in regards to dating. I'm not pretty enough.
I'm not good enough. They must not care about what I have to
say. You know, all these different thoughts that we have
that oftentimes, again, are not based in any truth. But we live
in a day in a society where we are so connected to our phones
and our media and our computers and, and like we text someone we
expect almost an immediate response. Most of us I'm not
saying that everybody does. I work on that. I actually tell my
friends like, hey, just so you know, like, it's okay if you
can't message back right away. If you can't message for a few
days, I understand. But if I don't hear from you for like
several days, I'm going to message again just to make sure
nothing's wrong. But like, genuinely, that's how my friends
and I operate. And I do that intentionally because I don't
want myself I myself do not want to live in some kind of
friendship relationship where someone's mad, because I didn't
text them back quick enough. That is that is not healthy. And
so I just I just bust that wide open like, hey, this is how I
operate when we become friends. This is just I just want you to
know some days I you know, have really busy weeks. And you know,
like my friends all know that I coach on Mondays, I have team
meetings for last year single on Mondays, my days, Mondays are
just packed. So typically, I don't text my friends a lot on
Monday. And they just all know that. But you see there, I'm
like literally squashing the devil from being able to use
that for the most part with my friends. So some of us need to
maybe do that kind of stuff as well. But internally, here's the
other thing, ladies. I had to shift I had to shift on the
inside out of fear regarding not feeling like somebody cared
about me if they didn't get back to me in a certain timeframe.
That's not true. I know my value. I know my worth. I know
my friends love me. Right? But do we do we really believe those
things? And where you're going to see that come out is when
this stuff pops up, okay, whether it's with your friend,
your family, again, you know, not right now, we don't want you
to date right now. But when you get into phase two, and you're
starting to message someone and you're excited, and then they
just kind of go silent. And what typically happens with people is
women start freaking out. Like, oh my gosh, he did this. Yes,
you all guess what, I'm just gonna I'm just gonna spoiler
alert, you are going to be talking to someone and they are
going to ghost you. I hope it doesn't happen. I'm not speaking
that over you. But literally almost every single person
experiences it. And I want you to really start positioning your
heart right now. That if that happens, you are God defended.
God is protecting us every day, all day, or they just got busy.
And maybe it's just not super massively important for them
right now. Maybe your urgent season isn't their urgent season.
It doesn't mean you're not enough. It doesn't mean you're
not, you know, worthy of someone's time or any of those
things. All right. So I want you to think about what are your
thoughts rooted in the thoughts that you think on a regular
basis? What are they rooted in? Are they rooted in fear, doubt,
unbelief, pain, wounds? Sorry, y'all. I'm getting dry. Or are
they rooted in truth and love and hope and peace and joy,
kindness, goodness. Remember last week I talked about hatred
towards other people starts with self hatred. Guess what? Kindness
towards other people starts with kindness towards yourself.
Gentleness towards yourself, not being harsh towards yourself.
John 418 in the amplified version says this, there's no
fear in love dread does not exist. But perfect, complete,
full grown love drives out fear because fear involves the
expectation of divine punishment. So the one who is
afraid of God's judgment is not perfected in love, which means
has not grown into sufficient understanding of God's love. If
if you believe that God is a harsh taskmaster, and that he's
just looking to punish you, that is revealing to you that you
don't know God's character correctly,
and that you're not rooted in his love.
You know his love.
I'm sure most of you do
because I believe God has led you here.
Most of you have a knowledge of love in your minds
because you've been taught it in church
and you've read it in the Bible,
but down in here, deep down,
there's a lot of us that don't fully understand
the love of the Father,
the genuine, kind-hearted Father that we serve.
Because life has told us a different story.
John 3.16 says this,
"'For God so loved the world
"'that he gave his only begotten son,
"'that whosoever believes in him should not perish,
"'but have everlasting life.'"
We're gonna go into our first breakout session, ladies.
Here's the question.
What fear are you going to ask God to help you with tonight?
What fear, and maybe you already put it in the chat,
or maybe another fear came up.
You can share both,
but I want y'all to talk to each other.
For the ladies that are new,
the breakout sessions are our electronic breakout rooms.
I put two to three ladies in a room.
Y'all are gonna have time to share with each other.
There's no giving counsel, coaching, advising.
Everybody just has a little bit of time
to share about the question.
If you have extra time,
y'all can share where you're from, what brought you here,
but answer the question first, short, brief, and powerful,
and it should be pretty awesome.
Y'all can get to know each other a little bit.
I always believe in divine connections with these as well.
I'm gonna give you six, two, four, six.
Yeah, that gives everybody about two minutes
if you have three people.
If you've got two people,
you'll have a little bit more time,
but I'm gonna give you six minutes.
Go ahead and click to join those rooms.
That will pop up on the screen, ladies, for you.
So yeah, go ahead and click to join those.
Awesome.
Click those as soon as you can,
just so I can make sure people are in rooms together.
All right, we've got two there.
All right, Madison, are you able to join?
I think her thing is just delayed here.
Okay, Stephanie, you're at work.
That's totally fine.
What room is that?
Five.
Her up there.
All right, as soon as I get these ladies situated in rooms,
we have a couple of people that shall, okay.
Got a bunch of people,
and we must have people leave rooms or something.
All right, I think I got everybody situated here.
Just wanna make sure I missed someone this afternoon,
so I'm trying to be extra diligent.
Thank you for being patient, ladies that are here.
Father, we just thank you so much
for everything you're already doing tonight.
We thank you, God, for revealings for healing
that are happening.
God, we ask you just to remove barriers and blockages
from our hearts, our minds, our bodies,
our spirits, and our souls,
that you would breathe life and truth into us.
Yes, Lord, just the same way that Jesus rose from the dead,
we thank you for the same power that accomplished that,
that's living in us, that's operating through us.
We thank you tonight that you're helping us
to hear what your spirit is saying to us.
We thank you, God, that you would remove,
in Jesus' name, every spirit of fear,
because fear has to do with torment.
We thank you, God, by the power of your blood, Jesus,
and through your name, we lose the spirit of love
and of power and of a sound mind,
that you would help us to recognize, excuse me,
the ways that the enemy is trying to get us into a trap
and ensnare us and take us captive
and bind us into his plans that lead us into just evil
and things that are not the goodness of God.
I feel like Joy just popped in there.
Joy, were you by yourself?
I was by with a similar fear,
Carly is the new one.
I think maybe she might've dropped out.
Let me just put you in a different room, okay?
Oh, all right.
There you go.
Yeah, there's nobody in that room anymore.
All right, Father, so we just thank you
for just removing all distraction.
I still continue to feel that tonight, ladies,
so if anybody else is feeling that,
I just feel like the enemy is really trying to,
not because Joy popped back in, but again,
just I feel that resistance
as I'm even trying to pray tonight.
So we'll really just thank you
that you would just remove all spirits of intimidation.
distance every
yeah, Lord, we just thank you that in Jesus name that you would bind spirits of I
Just keep hearing this
I'm just gonna call it out deaf and dumb spirits any spirits that would hinder
The work Lord that you're trying to do we thank you God that yeah Lord that you would bind to break any spirit of pride
ego
Insecurity and Lord, we just thank you the opposite that you would lose spirits of of joy of peace of kindness of goodness that we would
Spirits of love that you would help us to become more and more rooted and grounded in the love of God
That we would see ourselves Lord through your eyes more and more and more every single day
We thank you that Ephesians 6 12 says your hand-to-hand combat is not with human beings
But with the highest principalities and authorities operating in rebellion under the heavenly realm
So where we thank you that you would just dispatch angel armies to war on our behalf tonight
That you would just help them to come to our aid that you would
Help us to see the ways that we are winning because of the victory Jesus Christ has already won for us
We thank you that you would help us to step further into that victory tonight. We thank you that you would
Yeah, Lord, just break off bondages chains falling off of people
Mindsets being shifted healing happening in hearts and minds and spirits and bodies even as they release fear and anxiety
To you Lord, we thank you that you would just yes Lord that you we as your daughters would be marked by peace
That we would know you God asked peace
but that we would walk in your peace that we would live and move and have our being in you God that we would
remember that
That John 14 27 talks about how you came to that
You said Jesus is the light of the world
To leave us with peace that we can remain in your peace and we can live and abide in that every single day
so we thank you Lord that
Yeah, Lord when the enemy tries to come and disrupt that plan
We thank you that you'll help us to just really get on the right track with you that we would partner with your truth
We thank you that
Yeah, here's another one another good scripture Philippians 1 6 says this in the message message version
There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind
that the God who started this great work and you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very
Day Christ Jesus disappeared or excuse me. I read that wrong Christ Jesus appears because I saw Madison pop up Madison
I think maybe your internet is
Maybe having an issue. Do you want me to try to put you back in that room?
Sure, it's my my chargers broken. So I have to put it on the box
And so if it gets off kilter a little bit it turns off. Oh
Okay, that's all right. They're about to come back in like 60 seconds
I
Just stay here. I'll just catch one. All right. Awesome
so we're just thank you for also leading us into all truth and anointing us for all of our lives and walk and calling and
Leading us deeper into Jesus today
Ephesians 4 21 through 24 says this since you have heard about Jesus and have learned the truth that comes from him
Throw off your old sinful nature in your former way of life, which is corrupted by lust and deception instead
Let the spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes put on your new nature created to be like God truly righteous and holy
And Jesus name we have about 20 seconds before the ladies come back that reminds me that this afternoon. I
Did talk to the ladies a little bit about as I talked about the negativity fast
Just you know that some of you all might be willing to pray during this time of heart healing
About other areas where the Lord wants to grow you in spiritual maturity in different areas and
You know praying about ways that you can grow in relationship with him
So praying, you know not about religious duty ladies
but reading the word is creates connection because you get to know his character as you know the word and
Hey, maybe even
Memorizing the scriptures. I was thinking yesterday and I want to give this to y'all just really quickly
And then we're gonna do group shares
So whoever's willing to share what you shared in your private
Breakout room go ahead and put your hands up and I'll come to you and we'll start to do that. Okay
But I was thinking on this
Years ago. I used to memorize scripture a lot. I
worked on it all the time not because I felt like I had to but because I wanted to I was so hungry for
the word and to get the word in me and
I believe that's why I can pray the way I do today, but I'm not saying that because of myself
I thought of yesterday
I've been in trying to help the little children's church right now because we
Are in transition and we the person that was our children's church leader. Um is not anymore. But anyways
as I was getting ready for church yesterday, I was like, I just felt the Holy Spirit say and lead me like hey
you should, you should teach the kids,
like do a challenge with them and make this fun
so that they will want to study the scripture
and memorize it.
And so I'm gonna, I'm gonna develop
some kind of little game for them
and they're gonna work on teams and the whole thing
and we're gonna give them prizes.
And yeah, yeah, I am gonna give them prizes
if they memorize scripture
cause I want them to memorize scripture
and get that stuff good down in there,
even as they're little kids,
because then as they grow up,
that will be things they can grow up with.
So for whoever that's worth,
we can do that at any age
and we don't need prizes necessarily,
but if you wanna set a goal for yourself
and then go do something nice for yourself
after you get that done, then go do that.
So again, just planting seeds.
I love to encourage people to grow in their relationship
with Christ beyond just the moment
and the five weeks of the journey that you're on, okay?
Oh Mika, I'm glad, I'm glad that resonated for you.
All right, Joy, I would love to hear what you have to say.
Okay, so today I was entertaining.
I do watch my thoughts and my feeling motion
and today sometimes I feel a little bit anxious
about my job situation
because right now I released from first job
so I'm doing time process waiting upon the Lord
whether I'm going to look for a stable job or income
and or I can do some sales job
like doing the last year single affiliates
because I have a one, I just talked to someone
over the phone and she's interested.
So I focus on or do the affiliates of 100X of the Pedro.
So I was kind of, you know, there's a little bit,
sometimes there's a type of enemy fear
or maybe I should have found a stable job
or maybe I just have to wait
because I know I need healing.
I needed to take the course self study
about hard work healing.
I need to get on that.
So I do need healing.
So I'm kind of debating, I know.
So meanwhile, I was, you know,
not sure that's why there's a fear,
sometimes anxiety, sometimes can arise to,
to, you know, take my mind, my thoughts,
but I have to shut off and switch to choose
and switch to God.
So I'm detained sometimes, that's what, yeah.
Okay, well Joy, thank you for sharing.
I think the biggest thing, number one,
is really just praying regarding the job situation.
I believe that God wants us to be in places
where we will feel rooted and grounded and be at peace.
And when we don't have peace as our primary,
I'm not saying that that can't ever be,
okay, God has us in difficult places
to stretch us and grow us sometimes,
but if it's an extended period where we just have no peace,
then we might need to pray and really ask the Lord
about a shift we might need to make, okay?
You don't need to necessarily focus on that in heartwork.
We actually ask you guys not to make any big changes
when you're in heartwork,
but if you need to bring in income on a more steady basis,
you know, maybe pray and see if God does want you
to step into a different job
in addition to the things that you're doing.
But if I understood you correctly,
you're also trying to balance the heartwork
and having time to do that.
Is that what you were saying?
Yeah.
Okay, all right.
So if we have anxious thoughts that come in,
one of the ways that we can counteract that
is to think about what is the opposite of that thought.
So for example, if I have a bunch of what if thoughts
full of anxiety, then what's the opposite?
Like earlier I was saying, what if, you know,
the trusses are the things, you know,
that go in to make the roof for a building,
what if those don't come in in time?
Or I can look at it,
what if the money doesn't all come in in time?
But if I flip that, what if it does?
What if not only the money that we need comes in on time,
but what if God supplies in abundance above and beyond?
Now I can't live in that world
if we didn't have the insurance money
to cover those things, right?
So we have to also have a balance there
to walk in financial stewardship and walk things out
because we don't wanna just have supernatural faith
all the time and then we have nothing to live off of, right?
Okay, so we have to have balance there.
So we really wanna encourage you to pray into it,
but you can war against those anxious thoughts
with thoughts full of faith and truth
and grounded in the love.
So as you're walking out the path of really discerning
where God wants you to go.
go in the days ahead, put up some scriptures that are full of peace, that are full of faith,
really start meditating on those and partnering with that truth daily. Appreciate you sharing.
Anyone else? Yeah, you're welcome. Anyone else willing to share? Normally it takes one
and then other people go, Michelle, are you willing to share? Are you just clapping? I
don't know what I'm doing, but I'm doing great. I love it. I don't know what that thing is.
Yes. Thank you. I'm just learning so much. I'm just trying to take it all in. I definitely,
when I was in the room with two other sisters, it really resonated with me, fear of the unknown.
And while Joy was talking, I began to write down, like, what am I scared of? Like, I really
am trying to think of what was I so fearful of? And then I think the biggest thing for me was
the aging process, getting older, being lonely, not having a family or my own family, lacking
confidence. But I think the biggest thing for me has been the unknown of the future, and being
alone and not having my own family. So if I'm honest, I think that was the biggest out of many
of the things that I wrote down here. But I'm learning to trust God a lot more than I was
before I started this program. That's so awesome, Michelle. Thank you for sharing that. So I have
a question for you. If you feel comfortable to answer. When you were growing up, would you
describe your life as having unstability, like instability, like a lot of things changing
constantly? Anything like that?
Well, we don't have enough time to go back through my story. Yes. And you know, going through the
the coursework, and doing you know, section one, section two, the Holy Spirit showed me the
instability. My mother was very sick when we were younger. And with that I was bounced around with
different family members. Felt loved, was loved. But you know, when you're a little kid, you want
your mother. You know, you want your mother and my mother was in and out of the hospital. Now that I'm
getting older, and my mom is getting older. I don't think I've ever shared this with any of my
siblings. Okay. I'm concerned about her health. My mother's, you know, just the challenge. Today's my
birthday. I was with her at the doctor's office. Happy birthday. Thank you. So the instability to
answer the question, the instability of when we were younger, and all of my siblings are married,
and all of them have kids. I don't have kids. I'm not married. But I will be married this time next
year. Right? I wanted to say that. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. A lot of instability.
Okay, so here is when you said fear of the unknown. A lot of times we see people that have those kind
of fears that they felt like there wasn't something that they could like they felt their life was out
of control when they were younger. And it doesn't mean that you had bad parents. Like look at this
situation right here, ladies. This is a perfect example. It doesn't mean her mom didn't love her.
Her mom was sick, and was struggling herself. And she did have other Michelle did have other family
members caring for but she said it so well. But she just wanted her mama. Right. And so we get older, and
those things are still in there. If they're not healed and restored and redeemed, where we're
walking in the truth and rooted in the truth, then that like literally feeds right up into our current
day, which can feed to the fear of the unknown because her life back then was constantly changing. She
never knew what was coming. And it makes sense to me also, that one of the things you said there, well,
really, two of them aging process, which Okay, yeah, as we get older, I think we all have things that pop up
there. But being lonely, and then you just told us that your mom is, again, not doing well. And so I feel
like that's why those are coming up so much for you. Because not only in your past, did this come up when your
mom got sick, these, you know, being alone or feeling of abandonment, even though your mom, you're either
wasn't abandonment per se, but we perceive things incorrectly as children, especially when the enemy is
lying to us. And we don't have any defenses toward like to get him away, or to resist those thoughts. And so
we tend to believe
a lot of what he says. And so I, I think part of the reason
you're struggling with fears about the aging process, being
alone, not having your own family is because as a little
girl, you didn't have the connection with your family that
you needed. And I'm not faulting your mom or your family for
that. But that's just that's just truth of what we tend to
struggle with as we get older. And so really continuing to
allow the Lord to come into those places and those memories,
Michelle, if you all weren't on before, when I've talked about
this, this is where we want to invite Jesus to come into a
memory that's hard. And ask him to help reveal what does he want
us to know about that situation? And Jesus, where were you when
this happened? Okay, and let's see what he shows you. And even
if you've worked on, you know, even one or two of those
scenarios, or all of them through your, you know,
forgiveness track or whatever, Michelle, I'm, I want to just
encourage you to ask the Lord, is there a memory that needs
revealed for healing that hasn't come up yet, but that's
connected to this?
Yes. Okay.
Yeah. And I just saw a picture. I just saw a picture. I know
it's the Lord. But as soon as I knew it was him holding a baby
rocking it, it turned into like the divine feminine. And so I
believe God wants to help you all the way back when you were
an infant.
Yeah, that nurturing, I feel the Holy Spirit, the nurturing love
and affection and that rocking that soothing, you know, those
things that we need as babies and children, even as toddlers,
you all, but God wants to take you all the way back there. So
let's just lean into that this week and see what he shows you.
And but even if it just helps you like to, to really meditate
and ask God to reveal to you what he showed to me, because I
can see it so clear in my mind's eye. But I want him to show it
to you. Okay. Amen. Thank you. Great. Awesome. Anyone else want
to share what you shared in your private breakout room?
Michelle, that was so good. Thank you so much. Thank you. I
don't know how to, I'll do it for you. It's okay. Okay, nobody
else wants to share. All right, Brenda, go ahead.
Okay. Um, so mine was interesting. One was today and
then one was like this week. But um, so the one today was, I'm
currently living with my parents and they were on a trip. And I
knew they were gonna be home anyways. And so I knew they
should have been home by now. And then it was the, I think
accident, they've died. And this has happened to me before,
because I've had several deaths in my family. So, um, so I was
trying to, okay, like, you know, Holy Spirit, like, what's the
truth kind of thing. And then the other was just, like, fear
of missing God's timing, because since I've been like, fighting
this congestion, I, the Lord's sending me to move to New York
I, the Lord's sending me to move to Texas, and I thought I was
gonna be there by now. And, um, and it's like a huge move for me
like a, you know, an Abraham, like, I don't know anything, all
this kind of stuff. And yeah, so just, you know, even trying to
gauge this before and then, you know, being sick and, and it
like not leaving, you know what I mean? And then you don't feel
well. And then it's like, okay, Lord, now what I'm feeling like,
okay, like, knowing that, like, you know, the enemies coming
against me in this area, but now I'm like, okay, Lord, like, did
I miss it? Because I felt like, you know, okay, I should have
been there by now. And I've had this before for timing. You
know,
okay, I have a couple things for you. I know that we've done a
little bit of work. You're, you're one of the ladies in the
group that's lost a sibling, right? Yes. Okay. I thought I was
remembering correctly. But I wanted to make sure. Yeah, a
little bit of work around that. But I feel like, you know, as
you mentioned, several deaths in the family, it took me back to
this woman that I was doing some hard work with. And this has
been over a year ago now. And she had, like, back to back
people that passed away in her family. And she didn't even
realize how much it had impacted her. But in the midst of that, I
believe the Lord wants to come and show you like his mark of
peace when y'all were in the breakout session. That was
something I thought
really led to pray into,
or maybe I was praying that when y'all were coming back,
I can't remember.
But at some point tonight that came up in my spirit,
like God is peace that we would know him as peace,
like in a really supernatural way that we would not only
like, okay, Lord, help me to have peace,
but like to genuinely have his peace imparted into us,
like supernaturally.
And I believe God wants to bring that into the center
of these situations regarding your family members
that have passed away,
because God doesn't want you to be afraid
the rest of your life that when, you know,
family members or people leave that, you know,
they're just gonna, something's suddenly gonna happen
and they're gonna die.
Now people, as they get older, you all,
we all know people pass away and things happen,
but God doesn't want that to be your fear
and that constant feeling in your,
like that comes up and triggers when somebody's late
or whatever.
Okay, that's the first thing.
The thing that I wanna emphasize there is God wants to like
impart supernatural peace into you and into those areas.
Okay?
The second thing is fear of missing out.
Ladies, we can't miss out on God's plan for us.
Y'all, we can't.
I know the devil wants to make us think
that we can miss out.
Now, I do think promises and plans shift.
His original plan and design for us,
it was placed in us long ago.
I was even reading a book tonight that, you know,
God uses the things in the heavenly realm
to call those things forth out of us
as we go throughout our lives,
because those are in there, but he's calling it forth.
And as we heal,
that stuff comes forward more and more and more.
But I was thinking about this as you were sharing.
If I can give you some of my life and my faith,
maybe you can just borrow mine for now, okay?
Okay.
Here's the thing.
If we can miss out,
then me having gone through my divorce
and then dating the girl's dad for six years,
then maybe, how would I be living in the promise right now?
Don't you think I would have missed it?
If we're going off of what the devil says,
the ways he tries to trip us up,
that's what I'm trying to paint this picture here.
We would believe that if I'm sick and I get delayed
and I don't go to Texas in the timeframe
that I originally thought,
that I miss out on God's plan and promise
and I'm gonna miss out on the person he has for me.
All these little lies that the enemy spews,
but here's the thing.
Literally God can redeem time.
He can take all of the pieces of your life
and pull them together and make a masterpiece out.
He's the master craftsman.
He can literally turn ashes into beauty
and mourning into joy.
This is a supernatural thing that God does
on a regular basis.
Just like I literally all of February, you all,
I was almost all of February.
Almost all of March.
I was sick and my dad passed away.
Y'all, I said last week, the last couple of weeks,
I felt like I lost that time and I was mad about it.
Like, man, that whole week is wasted.
It's gone, wasted.
I was so frustrated about it.
And God was like, I can redeem that for you.
And it shifted the whole way I was thinking
about that timeframe.
And so even now, what if, let's flip this.
What if right now, God is working on your spirit mate
in Texas to get, or wherever they're at,
to lead them to Texas.
At the same time, God's working on you over here
and taking you there in the timing.
And I guess I tend to, and I don't know where this,
and I think I need to ask the Lord,
but I tend to always go to myself
and be like, you know what I mean?
Like I did something wrong, I delayed it kind of thing.
I tend to like.
Okay, well that comes from somewhere.
Yeah.
So ask the Lord to reveal any area for healing
that's needed where you still believe
at the core of who you are,
that you did something wrong.
Yeah.
Hey, I messed up.
So that means God can't fulfill his promise to me.
That's not truth.
Right.
Okay.
God makes, he takes literally, I mean,
he wants us to make right choices and healthy choices,
but right now it sounds like you're sick,
you need to recover.
It sounds like there's some other things going on.
Sometimes we also interpret God's timing to the best of our ability,
but what if you're actually right on time?
Right. That's good.
Okay.
So these are the ways that you all, I just really try to get my brain to shift
because I tend to struggle with those kind of things too.
And we have to flip, we have to flip the switch.
We have to say, okay, Lord, if I believe I did something wrong
and that's going to hinder and delay your promise.
Well, that's not truth.
I believe that you take all of my wrongs and make them right.
Yeah.
So even if you did, I'm not saying you did, but even if we did make a mistake,
God can, what's that song?
Turn it around.
All of our hope is in him, like he can turn it around.
Right, right.
Yeah.
And then just the redeeming time, like that's good too.
And I think just because I'm older, you know, I think I think more about that
as well.
So, but yeah.
Hey, I'm 46.
I'm about to be 47.
I'm believing for a baby.
I'm believing for things that even the devil's trying to tell me I'm too old
to have, but I'm not, I'm not too old and whether we adopt or we have a baby
or whatever we do, I believe God has a plan for us in that.
And so I want to just encourage you don't partner ladies with I'm too old
for any of my ladies, whatever age you are.
If you think you're old, let's not partner with that.
Okay, age is just a number.
Yeah, it really is.
We have women getting married in their 70s and 80s.
So yeah, you all it is possible.
All right.
I'm going to keep moving Brenda praying for you.
I believe God is going to supernatural heal you and he's going to bless you
give you everything that you have need of for your Texas trip and living
and everything in Jesus name.
Thank you.
All right, you're welcome.
All right.
So ladies, we're going to shift into control.
We're going to talk about control a little bit tonight.
So let me see some hands who is willing to admit whether or not you are
a control freak who's control freaks in here any control freaks anybody
willing to admit it?
Okay.
I see some hands.
I see some smiles and hands.
I love it.
We can have some fun with this ladies.
Okay.
All right, so let's think about why do we try to control and who do we try
to control and what do we tend to try to control that was a lot to say.
Let's think about these patterns of control.
What takes us there?
What train have we been riding on that?
It's again a Jeep.
It was a Jeep earlier.
Now, it's a train.
We're riding on this train and we need to get off because that's not the
destination that God has for us.
Control is not our destination.
I want you to be thinking about when is the first time you felt the need to
control someone or something?
And remember you're asking the Lord to reveal these things to you.
A lot of times we try to control because we have fear.
Okay, so I want you to see this is why I partnered the fear and anxiety with
the control tonight.
Yeah, Sharon.
I love that.
I want the outcome.
There's an outcome that we want.
And so we try to control and make that thing happen.
But here's the thing.
A lot of times it actually makes it worse doesn't make it better.
I'm going to read another little blurb to you.
It's from the heart workbook and it says never let them see you sweat.
I don't know how many people reading this will remember the antiperspirant
commercial with the tagline tagline never let them see you sweat or in
other words stay unemotional.
We don't want to see you sweat.
Or in other words, stay unemotional be in control and never let them see
any weakness.
If you're going to be going to get free if we're going to get free to be
our real selves.
We have to throw out these cultural lies being weak is okay.
It's okay to admit that you don't have it all together that you've made
mistakes.
I'll tell you this.
I'll show you mine.
If you show me yours, not just your highlight reel, but your blooper reel
too.
We want to see the skeletons in your closet your wounds your scars your
weaknesses the bodies in the trunk of your car.
Go ahead and bring them all out.
Somebody needs to see them.
This is a safe place to share them.
Let's declare war on caught on a culture of angles and filters auto-tune
in Photoshop because real.
them is found in vulnerability. Okay, so I included all of that.
But let's go back to the whole part that was all about the
staying on emotional being in control and never letting them
see your weakness. How many of you are actually afraid to be
vulnerable with people?
Sometimes,
sometimes Daphne, thank you for sharing. Yeah, anybody
else? I saw one hand go up.
All the time since my divorce.
Ruthann since divorce. Yep. I'm seeing some more come in.
Depends on the people. All right. Yes. So good. All right.
We have a couple more. If anything comes to mind, ladies,
you can put it in the chat. As we continue to talk about this
control is an illusion. It's a misleading image. It's something
that is misleading you intellectually, emotionally,
physically, sometimes. I just heard something in the Holy
Spirit. Sometimes women will even have sex outside of
marriage to have control. Men do it too. Now these aren't healthy
patterns. Why do why do they do that? Well, because at some
point that stuff was taken away from them. And so in order to
assert control, and I don't know that it's people in our
community, but this is just what came up in my spirit. But
in order to take back their control, take back what was
taken from them. There are people that you know,
subconsciously have sex outside of marriage. And they it's like
they tell themselves they can't help it. And then they do it so
many times that that does become like a habit for them. And so in
even Christian circles, we have people that don't believe they
can wait until marriage to have sex. And some people don't even
want to. So we need to say something. Sure, go ahead. I was
gonna say something about why I feel the need to control things.
I think because I've been so disappointed my entire life by
so many people that like, in order to do something, I'd
rather just do it myself. Then not like, you know, trust
somebody else to do it or do it right.
I love that. I mean, I love that you shared that. Are you
willing to let me coach you for a minute on this? Sure. Okay,
awesome. So you mentioned not being able to depend on people
most of your life and that you would just rather not be
disappointed and you would just rather do it yourself. And
that's why you tend to lean towards control. So as you're
leaning into this during the heartwork, Daphne, I want to
encourage you to ask the Lord to show you the first time you
were disappointed when someone gave you their word, and they
let you down.
And let's see what the Lord reveals, because I believe
that's going to be the starting point for you, where you're
going to start to heal in that first situation where you really
were depending on someone and they didn't come through for you
and you really needed them to. And that can be even as a child,
it could be something it could have been a friend. I mean, it
could have been anything. But let's let the Lord reveal that
because then what happens is along the way, that's in that
first situation. And then as we continue to go, you know, we go
through additional situations and the enemy is like, yep, see
told you, you can't depend on people see told you, you can't
depend on people, people never come through for you, you're
just better off doing it by yourself. And he just tries to
reinforce that and reinforce that and reinforce that through
the destruction and the things that he is bringing into our
lives. But on the flip side of that God is whispering over and
over again, His love for you, I'm here, I'm never gonna leave
you. I'm never gonna let you I'm not gonna let you fall like
those other people let you fall, whatever it is that he's
saying, but he's whispering from heaven, and he's trying to show
you that even leading you here is a part of his protection and
his provision for you, and that he isn't going to let you down,
he's not going to let you drop. I don't know why I keep feeling
led to say that. So for whatever it's worth something in the
spirit, that that feeling of that let down someone letting
you fall. And so, as you're unpacking that more with the
Lord, I also encourage you, and I give this assignment to anyone
that wants to take it, but I'm going to give it to Daphne,
first, that you would practice asking people for help in the
next few weeks. Men and women, even when you know that you can
do it yourself.
that you would ask people to help you. I've given this before. I've given it as a whole
group before, so anybody can take it. Whoever needs to practice this, you know who you are.
All of you lovely ladies know who you are. You need to practice letting people help you,
because here's the thing. Men that are healthy, that have the three Ms, mature, marriage-minded,
and masculine, like to be chivalrous. And guess what comes with chivalry? They want to help you.
My husband, every time I tell him something that I'm frustrated about or upset, he wants to fix
it, you all. And I have to remind him, babe, you don't got to fix this. Just listen right now,
okay? And then sometimes it's the, he literally races me to the door so that he can open the door
for me. And, you know, dropping me off at the hotel door or, you know, carrying my bags for me.
He doesn't, like, I don't carry my food to the car, you all, when I have leftovers. Like, that's how
much he wants to be chivalrous. Can I carry my own food to the car? Absolutely. Does it feel weird
to not do it sometimes? Absolutely. Because I can do it myself. And I was a go-getter. I've
had to provide for myself most of my life outside of the assistance of my grandparents and some of
what my mom could do as a single mom of four kids that went through massive trauma over and over and
over again. Our family just got knocked around like crazy. And so I was the baby. And so as the
baby, I didn't get a lot of attention. I learned at an early age that I can't rely on people. I have
to do it myself. But God didn't want me to have that as my core message the rest of my life. And
so I want to encourage Daphne and anyone else to come out of agreement and alignment with those
lies because you don't have to do it yourself. There are going to be people that will come into
your life that are going to love you and they will come through for you in this next season.
Remember, we're in the season of upgrade. The winds of change are blowing. And I don't think it's a
mistake. I don't know. It looks like you've got some hearts or leaves blowing on that tree in your
background. And I don't think that's a coincidence. So I want you to kind of take note of that.
I think that's a sign for you that the winds of change are in your life. Even if you've had that
up for 10 years, God is pointing that out to me multiple times tonight in your background.
And I didn't even think of it earlier. So thank you for sharing. That was really great
and really, really brave. I know how much it takes for y'all to share. So I appreciate that.
But pray into those things that I mentioned, okay? Yeah, because the mindset stays there,
you know, because you like, you know, the second you try to trust somebody
and they mess up again, you know, like the mindset goes.
Because you don't have it down in here yet.
Yeah. Right. But it actually happens. It continues to happen. Like,
I'll just give you a real quick example. I mean, like I trusted somebody to fix
my exercise bike pedal, you know, three times later.
It's because that healing's not happened in your heart.
Three times later after trusting them to fix it. You know what I mean? Like I'm sitting there going.
It's because ladies, we draw this stuff to ourselves like magnets when we're not healed.
Okay. And because that's the lie you believe. And even right now,
you're struggling to not partner with it tonight.
Right. Which I mean, I understand that. And it does like, I know it in my head that I got to
stop believing it. But it's got to get down here. And the only way it's going to get down here is
for God to go back to those core memories and places that you were wounded in and heal those
areas. That's genuinely how this stuff changes, ladies. Because transforming and renewing our
minds isn't just like we're being brainwashed to believe something different or switching
our thoughts. We have to have transformation in our soul, in our heart, deep down inside.
And so that's where why we encourage you all when you're in this program. I'm going to go ahead and
mute you, Daphne, just because I got a little bit more content to get through before we close
tonight. Okay. Thank you so much for sharing all that. So as we're healing a little bit more and a
little bit more and a little bit more, ladies, you're going to start to feel some of those
things shifting where you do struggle right now to believe in the positive. And you know,
we know, like she's saying, we know the things that we need to think or live in,
but it is hard. There's that tension, that tension that you're going to feel sometimes because
the changing and the transformation, just like metamorphosis, think about that.
The caterpillar goes into the
Into the cocoon and it's fighting if someone cuts that cocoon open guess what the butterfly dies
But it has to go all the way through that whole process
So that it can become the butterfly. So that's the process that you all are in right now. You're in the cocoon
like God's trying to transform you and heal you and
Minister to you and love on you and in areas of your heart in life that haven't been loved on in quite some time
Because guess what happens ladies, especially when when trauma and pain happens we put walls up
We don't mean to it just subconsciously happens
But the walls are gonna keep God out and it's gonna keep truth out. And so we have to ask the Holy Spirit
Jesus Christ and God the Father to help us to take those walls down
Healthy people who walk in victory don't try to control other people. They don't try to control situations
They know it doesn't work and it's not their job. We can only control ourselves ladies, okay
We can't control anybody else
What areas of your life do you struggle to let go of control?
I want you to be thinking about these and make notes tonight throughout the week
Do you struggle to let go of controlling people? Do you struggle to let go of trying to control places?
things
Perceptions. What do I mean by that?
Perceptions people have of you
Do you have to be the perfect mom? Do you have to be the boss, babe?
Do you have to like whatever the perfect thing is?
Perfect daughter perfect sister. I don't know perfect Christian
What are these perceptions that you really struggle to let go of control of and then outcomes?
Someone wrote that earlier, you know when you want a certain outcome, yeah
it's tough to not feel like you want to control that situation and manipulate it in some way even if it's
passively
We want to let go and let God come in and work in those situations work in our life work in the lives of other
People are you currently trying to control things to avoid pain to avoid getting hurt because you're afraid of loss
Which is actually what Daphne hit on when she was talking
Trying to avoid pain
So we just don't ask anybody for help because even recently she had another situation where she's asking him for help and it's not working
It's not working
but again
We have to lean away from that stuff and say, okay, even though
Satan I know this situations happening right now
I trust that God is going to send
people in
Situations into my life in the future where I'm gonna ask for help and they're gonna be able to help me and they're gonna have
The tools to be able to help me and they're gonna be able to do anything above and beyond, you know
Where we really again it's but how can I believe those things now you all it's because I've done the heart healing
Y'all I've been walking this for three and a half years just in this program alone almost four
Okay, so the victories I have now I don't necessarily expect you all to be where I am today
But y'all can get a glimpse of progress now
You didn't know me four years ago
but I can tell you that these are the kind of mindsets I had to come out of and
It does take time it does
But every step we take forward is progress. It's a win
It's a victory and we can celebrate those every step of the way
Celebrate those every step of the way. Are you trying to keep people where you want them so they can't hurt you?
Doing this is not living abundantly
the only thing we can control are our beliefs our
Responses
Responses versus reactions
Keep in mind a reaction is like when people are volcanic like they get really mad out of nowhere
Or they get triggered and they just you know react about a situation
no, we want to be in the response zone responses come from a place of love and
Roots into the Lord and his gentleness and his kindness
Can we feel hurt or anger, of course if there's a situation that happens that hurts you yes
But that doesn't mean we should
Exact vengeance on somebody with our words and our
Reactions we can still respond to people that hurt us from a place of love in the Lord
okay, and
Then also boundaries we are able to set healthy boundaries
We don't want to go overboard with boundaries though ladies because then that becomes a form of self-protection
So one of the things I pray a lot in every area of my life is Lord help me to have balance
Help me to live in balance in these situations in these dynamics
when I remind you to
lean into being God defended and embraced by his love.
Isaiah 23, six says this,
you will keep him in perfect peace
whose minds are steadfast,
which means stayed upon you,
stayed upon the Lord because they trust in you.
So I wanna encourage you ladies tonight,
as we start to close,
to yield control and wave the white flag
that you would give in,
that you will let go
and you would trust the Lord
to bring forth all of his promises in your life.
And I really wanna just really quickly,
before we close,
I wanna bring up our activation for tonight.
Two activations, I already told you one,
the negativity fast.
So remember, really watching what you're thinking about,
what you're saying, what you're listening to,
what you're taking in through your eyes
and protecting yourself from negativity
over these next several weeks.
And let's post in the group
as you guys are experiencing some shifts
and some changes because of this,
we'd love to hear what you have to say.
Here's the second one.
We're gonna call this letting go activation.
I touched on it briefly last night
during the prophetic ministry night,
but this is how we started.
Write a list of the things
that you're gonna let go of, okay?
So make a list of all the things
that you're gonna choose to let go of in this season.
You know, the pain, the hurt, the resentments,
the people that said they were gonna do things for us
and didn't, let's forgive those people and let them go.
All the things, all the things, ladies,
but let's pray into this and ask the Lord,
Father, what do you want me to let go of in this season?
What do you want me to,
where do you want me to let go of control?
Where do you want me to wave the white flag
and surrender to you and write that on a paper?
And I gave you guys kind of two options,
but you can always come up with your own.
So this is don't, you can do whatever you feel led to do,
but these are just some options that I'm gonna give you.
After you've written that list,
when you're in a safe place to do this, you can burn it.
You can tear it up.
I also love when ladies do a balloon release.
It doesn't mean you have to attach the paper to your balloon
but I would love to encourage you to get some balloons
that represent that thing that you are letting go of.
Okay, and pray before you actually burn these things,
before you rip them up, before you let the balloons go
and really be in that place of Lord,
I am choosing to move forward with my life.
No matter what has happened in the past,
I wanna move forward and I choose to let go
of these situations, these people, these things,
whatever it is the Lord leads you to write on your paper
and then to release that and let it go.
And I wanna share this picture with you.
This is Yamina, she's a part of our community.
She's one of the leaders in our community in phase three.
This was when she did her let go activation.
And she actually just did this when she went through
our peer coach training just a few months ago.
And this was four balloons chosen on purpose.
The color blue also meant something.
She was releasing some struggles she was having connected
to losing her former husband and feeling guilty
for wanting to move forward into a new relationship.
Her former husband passed away and she loved him.
They had a great marriage.
And so for those of you that have been in that situation
and had something similar happen,
I wanna encourage you to look at Yamina in this picture
and see the joy that she's experiencing.
This is genuine and God really set her free
and did an amazing work in her that day.
Laura, who's a part of this community as well,
also did the balloon release recently as she forgave her ex.
That was something she was really struggling with,
forgave her father.
And this is amazing, it's powerful.
And sometimes ladies, the reason we do these activations
is to partner our faith with action,
taking action on things and really allowing God
to help us let that stuff go,
have a visual and physical experience in that moment.
I'm gonna go ahead and close this out.
Thank you for everyone who shared.
I really, really appreciate you all.
Again, continue to pray into the things that were mentioned.
And ladies, just as a reminder,
anytime you're on these sessions,
if something's resonating with you,
I really wanna encourage you to go ahead
and grab it for yourself and lean into that for yourself.
Same thing on prophetic nights or prayer.
If we're praying over somebody else
and we're giving a word and that's really speaking to you,
just, Lord, yes, I received that for myself.
And I'm gonna lean into that.
Same thing with the coaching.
I see your message, Sylvia.
Yes, we do. Right now, I am not taking any clients one-on-one. I used to do quite a bit of that, but because I'm trying to grow our coaching team, that's kind of where I'm at right now, but we do have some coaches that do one-on-one heartwork sessions that we are working on getting them set up to start doing that.
They're not quite set up yet, but if that's something you feel that you need, you can email in, but I really want to encourage you all to take full advantage of the group setting as much as possible before you lean into that.
I know a lot of people, they're nervous to let their stuff out of the bag, so to speak, but I will tell you that if you all will lean into sharing in the group, it really can create a lot of breakthrough for you. It really, really can.
We're so glad that you're here. You're welcome, Karen. We love you guys. I'm going to pray. Father, thank you so much for everything that you've done tonight. Thank you for all that you're going to continue to do in the days ahead.
God, thank you for, yes, Lord, being the great physician. We thank you for placing the balm of Gilead upon every wound, upon every trauma, upon every broken area.
God, that you would bring healing and restoration to the forefront in their lives. God, that you would make all the crooked places straight, that you would, as we talked about earlier, take the ashes and turn them into beauty.
God, that you would fill every crack and crevice in our foundations with gold, the glory of heaven. God, that you would transform us from the inside out.
We thank you that you administer to every one of us, ladies that are here live, that watch the replay, that, Lord, are in the group, even if they can't be here.
Lord, we thank you that you administer to them while they're sleeping. God, give them Salem rest, that you would give them dreams and visions and understanding of you.
God, we thank you for supernatural healing and divine intervention in their lives. In Jesus' name, amen, amen, amen.
God bless you all. I'll see you all in the group. Love you. Bye.