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Hi. Good evening. Welcome. Welcome. Welcome. Pat, just to kind of circle back to that,

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that is just they probably emailed everybody that is in our community and you probably

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just didn't get removed from the free group as far as your email. And so that's why you're

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getting that even though you're already a part of the community. We don't really send

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a lot of emails once you're in the community unless we have something to announce. So don't

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feel like you're missing anything, you all. I hope that people still show up. HeartWork

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is where you need to be because you're in the HeartWork journey. You're already a part

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of our community and program. Yeah, I just want to make sure everyone's feeling good

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about that. I am going to put in a few minutes here a song in the chat for you. I was just

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listening to it myself. It's one of my favorites. And I'm going to talk a little bit about Awakening

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tonight from a different aspect than we did last week because it came up this afternoon.

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I feel like it's relevant. If you all haven't been here before, if this is your first live

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session, we'd love for you to put that in the chat so we can welcome you so that I know

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who's new, who's joined us for the first time. Or even maybe I thought Courtney, I thought

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you looked familiar or new to me, your name and your face. Welcome, welcome. Ladies, I

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would love for you to join me on screen if you're able. I haven't said that for the last

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I don't think I said that last week. But if you're able, we'd love to see if you're driving

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and you can't I understand or if you're eating, just wait until you're finished. If you're

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at work, you don't have to. But welcome. Daphne's new, Courtney's new. Anyone else new? This

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is your first live session. Okay, is it Alana? Is that how you say your name? Awesome. Oh

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my gosh, I got it right. That's awesome. Well, welcome back to all of our other ladies who

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have been here and you're rejoining us tonight. I'm so glad to be here with you. I'm Bethany

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Cooper. I am one of the master heartwork coaches in this community. I've been a part of this

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community for I was thinking about it today. I think it's been about three and a half years. May

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of 2021. Gosh, it's almost four years. Now. We're almost at four. That's awesome. I'm one of the

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success stories in the community. So some of the things I'm telling you y'all I've just I've

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absolutely learned it from experience. The things I coach on are from the heartwork, but also my

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life experience combined with the heartwork and a lot of other stuff. So just praying that it

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bless you tonight and meet you right where you're at. For replays, I always try to plug a couple of

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the replays because not only just because but they really are giving us so many things to really

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meditate on to spend time with the Lord and Saturday was the season of upgrade is what I'm

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calling it. I don't know if that's what Jackie was calling it. But that's kind of what I've coined

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it as it's a message about the season that you're in is being as a season of upgrade. And then last

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night, we did our prophetic ministry night. The first part of the night actually was a little

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different than normal, because God was really just ministering real time through something that

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Jackie was walking through and then led the community to pray into that for ourselves as

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well. Some things in those areas. And then we went into some prophetic ministry time towards the

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end of that. But if you all want to check those out, those are in the replay tab for you in the

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app. I want to remind you all best practice as you're going through this. For those of you that

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are newer, you wouldn't know this before you came in. We do encourage you to press pause on dating.

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So if you're not sure what that looks like, and you just started talking to someone, go ahead and

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put a question for me and ask a coach in the app. And I'll address it there. Just want to help you

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guys navigate this really well. The reason we do that is so that you're completely focused on

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yourself and your heart healing during this time. No matter how much people try, when they go

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through this journey, and they're kind of dating or trying to date, they just never fully focus on

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what God's saying. It's really hard to do that. Even when you're married, you all I can attest to

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it. When we're doing heart work, and we're doing healing, and we got all the kind of things going

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on with married life and, and all of that. It's not impossible, but there's a lot more distractions.

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Okay, so lean in, it's five weeks, some of y'all may take a little bit longer, depending on your

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pace, we don't want you to go quicker, it should be at least five weeks. But it'll be the best five

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weeks of you investing in yourself and really giving yourself this time. Here's another one

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invest in yourself care through this journey. If y'all don't know when we process trauma and wounds

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from the past, it actually can release toxins and things into our bodies. And so it's really important

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to drink a lot of water, eating healthy food, getting extra rest, some of y'all might need naps

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during this five weeks, because you're processing so much, and then move your body, however, you

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can move your body, even if it's today, I was just kind of getting up in between I work from home, I'm

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at my desk a lot. And so I've been trying to get up and move throughout the day and just even walk

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up and down. I have a ranch style house, just walk up and down my house. But whatever we can do.

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To move our bodies a little bit. It's really, really good for us. Let me pray

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and then we're going to dive right into the content. We went way over this afternoon.

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We're not going to do that tonight. I have a lot to cover. I'm excited and I believe that

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the Holy Spirit is excited about breakthrough for you all as well as I was praying before we

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got on here tonight. He wants you all to break free from fear and anxiety and the desire and

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the need to control. That's where we're tracking tonight. So Father, we just thank you.

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We thank you right now in this moment that you're here with us,

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that your word declares that you never leave us, you never forsake us, that you're always with us

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wherever we go, that you've gone before us into every situation and even the areas where we just

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really struggle to believe, help our unbelief, remove every spirit of doubt, every spirit of

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unbelief, every divisive spirit or anything that the enemy might try to use to lead us away from

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your word and your truth that brings us life. We ask you, Lord, to come and Holy Spirit, just come

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and wash over our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits, and our souls and help us to open up

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to receive everything that you have for us tonight, that you would bring those things that

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are in darkness to the light, that you would just, even as I'm teaching and sharing, God,

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that you would bring things to the surface, that it would just bubble up, that we would have

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understanding and revelation of things that don't align with heaven, that don't look like or sound

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like heaven, that we've been thinking on, meditating on, and living into throughout our lives or maybe

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even recently that we just, we subconsciously, we did not even recognize it. It was just a part of

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just what we're used to, things that we've succumbed to for a long time, like when a lullaby

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is sang and it just lulls a baby to sleep. The enemy has lulled some of us to sleep and I thank

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you, God, that you're awakening us in this new season, even as the Supernatural Saturday, it's

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an upgrade season, a season of new, it's a season of change, changes in the air, and we thank you,

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God, that you're awakening us to new, bold, beautiful futures, as well as truth and hope

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in life. In Jesus' name, amen and amen. Y'all, I'm gonna put in the chat now, there's a song that I

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put in there. I'll put this in the group as well, but if y'all want to copy and paste that, grab it,

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Awake My Soul by Hillsong Worship, even if you've heard it before, I want to encourage you to listen

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to that this week and really meditate on it, on God awakening the things within you that need to

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be awakened. All right, last week, we talked a little bit about awake, awake, oh sleeper and

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rise up from the dead, that scripture, so that's kind of already in my spirit leading into tonight

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and everything that I just prayed, but as we start to move forward into the content tonight,

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I want you to be thinking about, if you have a pen, I want you to write this something on your

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paper as it comes up. If you have something, as I start sharing, I want you to think about this

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last week and not in your own strength, in your own mind, but just ask the Lord to reveal this to

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you. What is something that you have feared in the last week or in what way has the enemy attacked

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you with fear? Like what was he saying to you when he was attacking you with fear in the last week,

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maybe even today, but in the last week, where is an area of your heart and mind that you can recall

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feeling afraid or having thoughts that are focused on fear or grounded in fear or anxiety

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that can partner with that? I'm going to go into that here in a minute. I want to give you a moment

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just to think about that. All right. So as you're thinking on that, I want you to go ahead and start

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to put those in the chat for me. Let me see. What are some things y'all have been struggling with

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in the last week connected to fear? Connected to fear. Let's start to see those in the chat.

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I know it might be a lot to type really quick. All right. Losing my parents. Okay.

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Are your parents sick, Karen? Or are you just saying that because they're elderly and that's

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just a fear the enemy attacks you? Let's just want to know a little bit more there.

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Fear of not being wanted, chosen by a man.

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Fear of taxes. Oh my gosh. That came up this afternoon as well.

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Interesting. And all the time I've led heartwork that has never been one that's come up and that's

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the third time it's come up in a week. Y'all in general. Okay. There's 71 mom battling cancer.

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Okay. I'm so sorry to hear that about your mom. We're going to be praying for her. Y'all let's

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pray this week for Karen Roa's mom. I don't know if I said your last name, right? For her to overcome

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cancer, that cancer.

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that would be gone in Jesus' name from her mom's body.

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Parents getting in an accident, dying,

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building an A, my dad in backyard, cost, okay?

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So your dad's gonna live, am I understanding this right,

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Alana, that your dad, you're trying to make a way

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for him to live in your backyard in a building?

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Is that what that means?

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Yeah, so there's just been a lot with my parents.

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They're divorced, but my dad needs,

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you know, I'm trying to, he's been living subsidized

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in my house about 30 minutes away

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because he would qualify for like section eight

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and there's a huge long line for that,

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but it also doesn't help you not be lonely and stuff.

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And then my mom, a month ago I found out,

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my brother and I are navigating,

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she lost her retirement savings, like 450K to a scammer

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and like fraud and it's gone.

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and being supportive and loving, yeah.

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All right, awesome.

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Thank you for sharing.

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Not awesome that that happened.

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Awesome job sharing.

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We'll be praying.

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You all, it's real.

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You need to be careful on a line.

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Don't ever click on a link or send people money

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that you do not know, okay?

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That's just for free.

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Please don't do that ever, okay?

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If you're ever in doubt, ask us, ask us.

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We'll tell you, okay?

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We'll vet it out with you.

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I promise my mom who was elderly almost got scammed as well.

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All right, but we don't live in fear ladies, right?

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That's what we're gonna talk about tonight.

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We're gonna live in authority and faith and confidence.

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All right, some other ones here are job search

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that I need to make a decision based from a place of fear

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versus trusting the Lord's leading,

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fear of not rising above my current circumstances,

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fear that there will never be, okay,

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anyone compatible enough for me to marry.

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Karen's saying her parents are really

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her main community right now.

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So in addition to the things happening with her mom,

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that's her main community, understand that 100%.

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Fear of the unknown, financial concerns,

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fear of the future,

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fear of getting in the way of my own healing, all right.

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Fear of not being enough.

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I'm doing this on purpose, ladies, just bear with me.

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and having a balanced life, staying sick.

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All right, in Jesus name, Brenda, you're getting healed.

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You're walking into healing.

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All right, having to pay 2,400 in taxes,

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just found out today, so we got another tax thing.

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All right, fear of my one-year-old granddaughter

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going back to her mom, okay, if the DSCC,

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okay, DCF case is closed.

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All right, Stephanie says I'm a worship leader

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and had a fear anxiety.

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Just recently spoke to the team I led about that

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and they all had breakthrough in that way, that's awesome.

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Yes, yes, yes.

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Fear that I may not like God's choice

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is what he showed me, all right.

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Y'all, these are good.

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I'll never be more than I am right now.

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Well, praise the Lord.

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Today is the day that you're starting to become someone new.

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So guess what, ladies?

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We're all becoming more than we are right now.

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Can we just, in Jesus name,

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I'll take that step forward in the spirit,

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just right now, right now, taking a step forward,

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you are becoming someone new.

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the flip side of that is you're unbecoming

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all of the old counterfeit identities

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that you used to live into.

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And so either way, we're winning

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and we're making progress every day

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when we take a step forward.

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Okay, so I had you all put those up.

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And if you think of more, you can keep putting them up,

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but I'm not gonna continue to read them out loud.

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I'll read them as y'all as quick as I can

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as you put them in there, but I won't read them out loud.

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Okay, so as we're thinking about all of these things

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that were put up in the chat and just the everyday life,

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I want y'all to understand that our hearts

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are very highly impressionable.

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Everything we listen to, everything that we look at,

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everything that we hear, the people that were around,

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the news that we're listening to,

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whatever it is that's impressing upon our hearts,

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the trauma that we went through,

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the wounds that we experienced,

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they all made impressions.

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And then the positive stuff makes impressions too.

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that we're supposed to, what does it say in Proverbs 4?

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Y'all, I'm all over the place.

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Lord, help me to get my words out tonight.

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I felt like I had a hard time with this this afternoon too.

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I don't know if the enemy's just doing that

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to cause distraction, but I just come into subjection

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that I'm gonna be able to get things out clearly.

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And I just thank you, Lord, in advance for that.

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be any confusion while I'm trying to release a word. All right. Thank you, Jesus. Proverbs 4.23

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in the ESV version says this, keep your heart with all vigilance for from it flows the springs of

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life. So I want you to be thinking about all those things that you put in the chat as well

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as anything else that you all have feared or faced this last week that brought anxiety, panic, worry,

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anything negative, grumbling, complaining, it all goes in there.

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But that all going into our hearts is going to cause that stuff to flow out of our hearts. So

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the word is saying keep your heart with all vigilance. So keep is like an action word.

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That's something that we have to participate in. It's not just we sit and we just wait and then,

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oh my gosh, this stuff keeps happening to me. No, we take an active role in our victory and

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overcoming and declaring out of our mouths, you know, the truth over ourselves that we would take

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every thought captive quickly, very quick. That's what I added that in. I always add that in because

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I don't want to just go, you know, mile down the road a day down the road and realize, man,

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the enemy's been beating the crap out of me. I want to know like I can catch him quick in his

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lies. And some days he does take me for a journey longer than I wanted to go. But here's the thing.

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If we're actively keeping our heart with all vigilance, that means this quality or state

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of being vigilant, which is alertly watchful to avoid danger. So I want you just to be thinking

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even in the last 24 hours. How many of you, and you can raise your hand digitally or put it in

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the chat, yes or no. How many of you would say, and there's no shame in this. Remember, there's

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no shame, guilt, or condemnation during these sessions, but I'm just posing this question.

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Even as I pose it to myself earlier, how many of you would say that in the last 24 hours that you

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were alertly watchful to avoid danger over your heart and your mind? Yes or no. If you're yes,

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raise your hand. You say yes in the chat. If no, go ahead and put no in the chat and just leave

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your little hand thing down. Okay. So not a whole lot of us, right? So many times we go through our

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day and we don't put on the armor of God. We're not protecting our minds. We're not protecting

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our hearts. And we're just letting a lot of stuff in. There's no gate, there's no protection.

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If you go to really important places like in the government or travel far away and they have these

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guards that stand like they're at the gate, you can't even get in. If you don't have access and

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permission to go through that gate, you're not getting in. But yet we give the enemy full access

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so many times, don't we? So tonight I want you to be thinking about the fears and the anxiety,

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like worrisome thoughts, anxious thoughts, fearful thoughts, any kind of dread, panic,

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all of that kind of stuff where maybe the enemy has been really taking you for a ride and you're

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it's night's the night where you're going to say, okay, I'm getting out of this Jeep.

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I'm not going to continue riding with you on this road anymore. And you're going to start walking

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back towards the father's house, back towards where he wants you to go so that you can walk

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into the fullness of everything he has for you. Fear is false evidence appearing real.

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And we ought to remember that. I say it a lot. Fear is false evidence appearing real. So the

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enemy's coming and he's pretending like he's the light, like he has truth. And like, you should

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just believe everything that he says, because it sounds similar. Sometimes it does, doesn't it?

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But he just slips something in that's actually cunning and deceiving and it turns truth into

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a lie. And a lot of times he does that. And we believe that again, because subconsciously when

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we are wounded and we went through trauma, we believed lies and partnered back then.

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And that makes us more susceptible to lies and things that the enemy is saying to us now today.

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Anxiety is fueled by fear. So false evidence appearing real is fear.

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And then anxiety is fueled by fear. And what if thoughts

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We have a project going on at our church today. I use this example this afternoon,

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because it's a really easy example. Somebody said, well, what is a what if thought? Like,

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what's the opposite of a what if thought? You know, they were asking some really good questions.

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And here are some examples. We have this building project going on. Some of it's paid by insurance.

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Some of it is not. We'll have to raise some money for that. But in the process, you got to get

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But in the process, you got to get permits. You got to get supplies. You got to have the

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construction people. You got to have good weather. We're about to like, you know, go into summer.

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season, well then hurricane season is upon us right after that. And there's all these things

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where the enemy's like, well, what if you don't get the things in time? What if they don't put

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the trusses on? Literally, these are thoughts I've had. What if they don't get the roof on before

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the hurricane season comes? Then is it going to destroy the work that's already been done? And

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all these things, when at the end of the day, you all, that is the enemy trying to get me to

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live in a mindset and thought patterns of anxiety. Because if he can get me to go over there,

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well, then I'm not staying in the lane I'm supposed to be in, which is where God has

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called me to be full of faith, full of peace, full of trust, standing on truth.

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And then I lose that position of authority and power. Do I lose it forever? No,

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but in that moment, I might. And then the enemy's kind of got his grips in me. And I'll tell you

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this, even as I'm talking to you all tonight, I didn't even think about the fact that how many

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times I've thought about the roof, not being on the church in time, but I've thought of that

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multiple times. And see, that's how the enemy has been working, trying to get us into, get me into

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that place of fear and worrying about stuff that at the end of the day, I can't control. But also

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I can instead partner with faith and declare that the money's going to be in, we prayed this last

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week, the plenty of money is going to be in and it'll be here in advance. And it'll be more than

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we even need or expect. That's what I've been praying. And we were able to declare that last

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week. Well, that's a statement of faith. That's not just something I'm making up. It came up

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out of me when I was praying. That's what I really believe. And that's what I want to partner with.

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So I want you to think about your own lives. Again, this is a very different situation. This

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is about our church and things that are going on here. Before Brian and I ever came here,

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they had a church fire and the whole sanctuary has to be rebuilt. So that's what I'm referring

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to. We're in a rebuilding. So right now they're doing the demo, but it takes, it takes consistency,

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ladies, to ward off the devil when he's trying to lie to us and get us into anxious thinking

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and living. Vigilant. We have to be watchful to stand guard at all times. Okay. Know that the

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Lord has you as well. We don't have to live in fear that we're not going to be protected either

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because God's got us, but there is this participation on our part that that is very

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important. Trauma that happened to us isn't what stops us from living an amazing life, ladies,

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but it's the lies we believe because of the trauma.

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Fears and anxiety feed off of the lies that we believe. Okay. I'm going to read something to you

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really quick from the heart workbook. The biggest lie is what it's called. Y'all, if you haven't

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read it already, you will. And this is what it says. The biggest lie you may believe in life

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is that your life is normal. Many people that live broken lives believe that it's reasonable

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to live that way. They have inherited that emotional debt or trauma from their family,

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and they think it's normal to be overweight and unhappy, to be unfaithful, to be in a relationship

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where someone mistreats you, or to be sick all the time. They think it's okay to have massive

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amounts of debt and spend all of their energy trying to figure out how to pay the bills or

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even more severe deception, like it's normal to abuse and hurt others or yourself or to be abused.

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I knew someone like that. They thought it was normal to be molested by family members because

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it's all they had ever known. When they were confronted by an outsider about the abuse,

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they said that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it? No, it does not. Maybe you have been

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confronted by people in your life, friends, co-workers, or even family that are trying to

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get you to see how dysfunctional an area of your life has become. I've done this for people over

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the years. Some people call it intervention. It's a reality check when someone is so deep in a lie

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that their behavior has become dangerous to others or themselves. The desired outcome is that the

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person will wake up and see what they are doing and ask for help. Hence, there's the awake my soul

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coming in again there, okay? That we would awaken to the ways that we are living in dysfunction,

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that we're living with no boundaries, where we're allowing people to come in and mistreat us and we

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just keep excusing it because, hey, we're the body of Christ and we're supposed to be full of love

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and kindness and so we just tend to let people walk all over us. No, that's not what God intended.

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He wants us to walk in love and kindness and goodness, but he wants us to walk in wisdom.

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Wisdom, out of all the things Solomon could have asked for in the entire world, he asked first and

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foremost for wisdom. So I think that that's something we should follow. Like, Lord, give me

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wisdom. Give me insight. Give me revelation. Mature me. Heal me and help me grow up on the inside.

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In any way that I need it, so that I can overcome fear, doubt, unbelief, I can walk in maturity,

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I can make right decisions according to the scripture and according to the word of God.

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You know, like we're walking this stuff out and we're seeing and recognizing where we're

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living underneath of God's fullness of his plan for us, the original plan and design

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for us.

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I want you to pause and ask yourself this the next time fear or anxious thoughts come

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up.

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These are two things you can ask yourself.

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They sound similar, but they're actually not.

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One is what are the facts and what is true?

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What are the facts?

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You're just leaning on the facts.

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What's the facts of the situation?

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Well the facts of the situation is that we're rebuilding the church and we're about at the

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place where we're going to order the trusses and they should come in in six weeks.

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That's in approximately six weeks.

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That's the facts.

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What's true is we're actually ahead of the plan right now and praise God it's nice and

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sunny here right now.

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The construction workers have been doing a great job and things have, you know, like

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leaning on the truth.

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Now that's truth in on the situation, but what's the truth of God's word is what I'm

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also meaning there.

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The truth is, is that he's our provider in every need that we have.

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He will provide for us.

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I believe that he will see us just like he did with the Nehemiah when they were rebuilding

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the walls.

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They didn't lack anything to rebuild the wall.

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They build it and they had everything that they had need of.

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And that I believe is the truth that I can stand on for this as well.

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And again, I'm just using my own life to give you a, like an everyday example, but y'all

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fear comes in all different shapes and sizes.

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It comes in all different ways.

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And so as we read in the chat, a lot of you all are battling fears.

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We can overcome every one of these fears, the more that we heal and the more rooted

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and grounded we become in God's love and faithfulness to us.

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So on that note, I want to kind of read something to you before I go into the next scripture.

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I was thinking on this this afternoon and it's from James chapter three, verse 11 and

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It says, can both freshwater and saltwater flow from the same spring?

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My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives or a grapevine bear figs?

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Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.

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I'm pulling that in because the way that we choose to think produces what's flowing out

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of us.

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So a spring full of fresh water, that's spring water.

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When we allow that to be filled in us, okay, let's talk about the infilling of the Holy

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Spirit right now when we're taking time to pray and read the word of God and spend time

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with the Lord.

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And even a little bit before, I was just like, Lord, fill me up.

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It's been a long day.

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I feel tired.

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I need energy.

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Lord, just come and just flow in me and flow out of me to these ladies and give them everything

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that they need.

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I can't rely on bitter, salty water.

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That's the leftover remnant because a long, hard day.

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Now I haven't been bitter all day, but I'm just trying to give you all an example.

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If I am thinking on bitter things, if I'm steeped in unforgiveness, if I have offenses

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and I'm just angry all day, does that mean I can't be close to the Lord?

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No, you can be because he never leaves.

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He never shifts.

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We just have to come to him.

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But he does say, you know, for us to cleanse our hearts, to create in us a clean heart

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of God and renew a steadfast spirit within us.

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That was what David prayed.

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So we can't produce fresh water and salt water.

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So what I want to pose to you all is if we struggle with thinking on negative things

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and being critical a lot, I'm going to say that it also will often breed a lifestyle

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of fear and anxiety and panic as well.

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And so we're going to be doing, I'm introducing this tonight, a negativity fast for the next

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What I mean by that is that I want to encourage you to really pay attention to what you're

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thinking about, what you're talking about, the things that you're listening to, and really

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step away from negative influences and allowing your mind to think on negative things.

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And it will take some discipline.

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I will get it out.

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It's because I'm trying to talk too fast to you.

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Oh man, it's funny.

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But it will take a little bit of discipline, but it'll be worth it, ladies.

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So as we step out of fear, we...

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step into faith, we step into also love. Love is the thing that we get rooted in and the more that

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we grow in the understanding of God as love and know his character, the more we will be able to

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be rooted in love and produce the good fruit and that fresh spring will be flowing.

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So you all, fear is the opposite of faith and love. Anxiety and love are opposites. So

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do I mean that people can't struggle with actual mental health struggles with anxiety? No, I'm not

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saying that. I think that's very real and I think it's growing in our society. You can look all

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around and see stats left and right. Even in the church, it's growing rampantly. Why? Do we stop

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and wonder why? Well, think about everything we're unindated with every single day. The news,

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our phones, like we literally, every time I scroll on Facebook, I literally see something

424
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negative every single time. And we have to understand that this stuff is impacting us

425
00:31:03.680 --> 00:31:08.800
more than we know. Am I saying you have to get rid of your phone? No, but if you have a lot of

426
00:31:08.800 --> 00:31:14.400
anxiety and panic, you may want to consider like setting a timer and just staying away from your

427
00:31:14.400 --> 00:31:21.760
phone for a little while, reading more, spending some time sitting in the sunshine, whatever

428
00:31:21.760 --> 00:31:27.680
helps you find peace. I've, I really believe, I know it makes me think of the old movie y'all.

429
00:31:27.680 --> 00:31:32.800
Yes. I watched this movie. I used to, it used to be one of my favorite, but Julia Roberts,

430
00:31:32.800 --> 00:31:36.560
when she was with Richard Gere, she was the hooker. What was the name of that movie?

431
00:31:37.760 --> 00:31:42.960
I'm telling y'all. I know it sounds so bad when I say it like that pretty woman. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

432
00:31:43.520 --> 00:31:48.080
All right. But the reason I mentioned that movie y'all mentioned in pretty woman during heart

433
00:31:48.080 --> 00:31:56.080
check-in, it's crazy. But I think of the scene where Richard Gere, she takes him to put his feet

434
00:31:56.080 --> 00:32:02.000
in the grass and they just pop a squat or whatever she called it in the park. You know, he's working,

435
00:32:02.000 --> 00:32:08.320
working, working all the time. But I really think of that even just for us, like so many of us don't

436
00:32:08.320 --> 00:32:15.440
slow down and pop a squat. We don't. And what would it be like to just take a blanket to a park and

437
00:32:15.440 --> 00:32:24.080
just lay there and read or, you know, let the sun hit on you or whatever that might look like for you.

438
00:32:25.600 --> 00:32:32.400
We're going so busy so fast that we're not really allowing ourselves to center in the Lord

439
00:32:33.280 --> 00:32:39.440
and allow him to renew our strength. Isaiah 40, 31 to rise and mount up with wings as eagles

440
00:32:39.440 --> 00:32:43.760
that our strength would be renewed like the Eagles. Guess what y'all we have to connect

441
00:32:43.760 --> 00:32:49.920
with the Lord in order for him to rise us up as an Eagle. It doesn't just happen,

442
00:32:50.880 --> 00:32:56.240
it's by our participation and our connection with him. Okay, I'm going back to the fear now.

443
00:32:56.240 --> 00:33:03.040
Here's what it says. Are you someone who's always waiting for the other shoe to drop?

444
00:33:04.320 --> 00:33:09.440
Is that something that is common for you? Something's going really well and inside the

445
00:33:09.440 --> 00:33:13.760
enemy just keeps telling you, just wait. Something's going to go wrong. Something's

446
00:33:13.760 --> 00:33:19.760
going to go bad. It's not going to last. The other shoe is waiting to drop. Do you tend to

447
00:33:19.760 --> 00:33:26.880
think of the worst case scenario instead of the best case scenario? Like an example, you get a

448
00:33:26.880 --> 00:33:32.320
call from a boss and you automatically feel fear and panic like, oh my gosh, I did something wrong.

449
00:33:32.320 --> 00:33:36.720
They're upset with me or they're I'm going to get in trouble or anyone else ever done that?

450
00:33:37.600 --> 00:33:44.960
Anyone? Anyone? Oh my gosh, Bueller did what movie? I'm saying all kinds of movie stuff tonight

451
00:33:44.960 --> 00:33:48.800
is coming up. I have no clue what movie that's from, but as soon as I did that, that's what

452
00:33:48.800 --> 00:33:58.240
came to my mind. But man, I just remember even yesterday we were at lunch, Brian and I, and he

453
00:33:58.240 --> 00:34:02.480
was telling me that his friend that lives here now as well, Ferris Bueller's Day Off. Okay,

454
00:34:03.280 --> 00:34:07.280
y'all, I don't know why all this stuff's coming out tonight, but we'll just laugh about it.

455
00:34:07.280 --> 00:34:12.000
But he was telling me that his friend that lives here now is going to church with us,

456
00:34:12.960 --> 00:34:19.520
said, hey, let's get together on Wednesday. And his friend doesn't normally initiate them getting

457
00:34:19.520 --> 00:34:24.480
together. So Brian and I are like, what's it about? We're just trying to figure it out. Is he,

458
00:34:24.480 --> 00:34:28.239
is he deciding he doesn't want to be, cause Brian's talking to him about maybe be on the board at

459
00:34:28.239 --> 00:34:33.360
church and all these things. And I finally said, you know, maybe you should just ask him

460
00:34:34.000 --> 00:34:39.600
because then we'll just stop worrying about it. And then you'll know. Cause if not, we'll just

461
00:34:39.600 --> 00:34:44.960
analyze it and overthink it and think about things that just are not even true. And you know,

462
00:34:44.960 --> 00:34:48.800
his friend just basically was like, Oh no, I just thought it'd be good to hang out. There's no agenda.

463
00:34:51.440 --> 00:34:55.360
Anybody, anybody relate to that stuff? Yeah. These are real things.

464
00:34:55.360 --> 00:34:59.920
All right. You hear a siren and think something happened to someone.

465
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:07.040
you love. Maybe this is another one, you send a text to someone

466
00:35:07.040 --> 00:35:10.080
and they don't respond to your text in the timeframe you think

467
00:35:10.080 --> 00:35:13.400
that they should have. Do you tend to think things like

468
00:35:13.400 --> 00:35:17.120
they're mad at me? They're ignoring me. They don't care

469
00:35:17.120 --> 00:35:21.320
about me. I'm not a priority. He must be talking to someone else

470
00:35:21.320 --> 00:35:24.360
this would be in regards to dating. I'm not pretty enough.

471
00:35:24.380 --> 00:35:28.080
I'm not good enough. They must not care about what I have to

472
00:35:28.080 --> 00:35:31.200
say. You know, all these different thoughts that we have

473
00:35:31.560 --> 00:35:36.920
that oftentimes, again, are not based in any truth. But we live

474
00:35:36.920 --> 00:35:40.680
in a day in a society where we are so connected to our phones

475
00:35:40.680 --> 00:35:44.920
and our media and our computers and, and like we text someone we

476
00:35:44.960 --> 00:35:48.960
expect almost an immediate response. Most of us I'm not

477
00:35:48.960 --> 00:35:52.600
saying that everybody does. I work on that. I actually tell my

478
00:35:52.600 --> 00:35:57.880
friends like, hey, just so you know, like, it's okay if you

479
00:35:57.880 --> 00:36:00.840
can't message back right away. If you can't message for a few

480
00:36:00.840 --> 00:36:04.240
days, I understand. But if I don't hear from you for like

481
00:36:04.280 --> 00:36:06.760
several days, I'm going to message again just to make sure

482
00:36:06.760 --> 00:36:11.000
nothing's wrong. But like, genuinely, that's how my friends

483
00:36:11.000 --> 00:36:14.400
and I operate. And I do that intentionally because I don't

484
00:36:14.400 --> 00:36:19.160
want myself I myself do not want to live in some kind of

485
00:36:19.160 --> 00:36:23.320
friendship relationship where someone's mad, because I didn't

486
00:36:23.320 --> 00:36:27.760
text them back quick enough. That is that is not healthy. And

487
00:36:27.760 --> 00:36:31.360
so I just I just bust that wide open like, hey, this is how I

488
00:36:31.360 --> 00:36:34.640
operate when we become friends. This is just I just want you to

489
00:36:34.640 --> 00:36:38.360
know some days I you know, have really busy weeks. And you know,

490
00:36:38.440 --> 00:36:42.440
like my friends all know that I coach on Mondays, I have team

491
00:36:42.440 --> 00:36:45.200
meetings for last year single on Mondays, my days, Mondays are

492
00:36:45.200 --> 00:36:49.080
just packed. So typically, I don't text my friends a lot on

493
00:36:49.080 --> 00:36:54.520
Monday. And they just all know that. But you see there, I'm

494
00:36:54.520 --> 00:36:57.720
like literally squashing the devil from being able to use

495
00:36:57.720 --> 00:37:02.120
that for the most part with my friends. So some of us need to

496
00:37:02.120 --> 00:37:06.000
maybe do that kind of stuff as well. But internally, here's the

497
00:37:06.000 --> 00:37:10.200
other thing, ladies. I had to shift I had to shift on the

498
00:37:10.200 --> 00:37:15.920
inside out of fear regarding not feeling like somebody cared

499
00:37:15.920 --> 00:37:18.320
about me if they didn't get back to me in a certain timeframe.

500
00:37:19.520 --> 00:37:24.000
That's not true. I know my value. I know my worth. I know

501
00:37:24.000 --> 00:37:32.760
my friends love me. Right? But do we do we really believe those

502
00:37:32.760 --> 00:37:36.480
things? And where you're going to see that come out is when

503
00:37:36.520 --> 00:37:39.480
this stuff pops up, okay, whether it's with your friend,

504
00:37:39.480 --> 00:37:42.920
your family, again, you know, not right now, we don't want you

505
00:37:42.920 --> 00:37:45.160
to date right now. But when you get into phase two, and you're

506
00:37:45.160 --> 00:37:48.240
starting to message someone and you're excited, and then they

507
00:37:48.240 --> 00:37:52.840
just kind of go silent. And what typically happens with people is

508
00:37:53.240 --> 00:37:57.640
women start freaking out. Like, oh my gosh, he did this. Yes,

509
00:37:57.640 --> 00:38:00.560
you all guess what, I'm just gonna I'm just gonna spoiler

510
00:38:00.560 --> 00:38:03.200
alert, you are going to be talking to someone and they are

511
00:38:03.200 --> 00:38:06.800
going to ghost you. I hope it doesn't happen. I'm not speaking

512
00:38:06.800 --> 00:38:09.560
that over you. But literally almost every single person

513
00:38:09.560 --> 00:38:13.400
experiences it. And I want you to really start positioning your

514
00:38:13.400 --> 00:38:17.840
heart right now. That if that happens, you are God defended.

515
00:38:19.840 --> 00:38:25.320
God is protecting us every day, all day, or they just got busy.

516
00:38:25.880 --> 00:38:29.040
And maybe it's just not super massively important for them

517
00:38:29.040 --> 00:38:32.760
right now. Maybe your urgent season isn't their urgent season.

518
00:38:33.240 --> 00:38:36.480
It doesn't mean you're not enough. It doesn't mean you're

519
00:38:36.480 --> 00:38:39.520
not, you know, worthy of someone's time or any of those

520
00:38:39.520 --> 00:38:43.160
things. All right. So I want you to think about what are your

521
00:38:43.160 --> 00:38:46.760
thoughts rooted in the thoughts that you think on a regular

522
00:38:46.760 --> 00:38:50.840
basis? What are they rooted in? Are they rooted in fear, doubt,

523
00:38:50.840 --> 00:38:58.440
unbelief, pain, wounds? Sorry, y'all. I'm getting dry. Or are

524
00:38:58.440 --> 00:39:04.520
they rooted in truth and love and hope and peace and joy,

525
00:39:05.120 --> 00:39:11.400
kindness, goodness. Remember last week I talked about hatred

526
00:39:11.400 --> 00:39:15.520
towards other people starts with self hatred. Guess what? Kindness

527
00:39:15.520 --> 00:39:18.840
towards other people starts with kindness towards yourself.

528
00:39:20.480 --> 00:39:24.240
Gentleness towards yourself, not being harsh towards yourself.

529
00:39:25.240 --> 00:39:28.760
John 418 in the amplified version says this, there's no

530
00:39:28.760 --> 00:39:32.280
fear in love dread does not exist. But perfect, complete,

531
00:39:32.560 --> 00:39:36.920
full grown love drives out fear because fear involves the

532
00:39:36.920 --> 00:39:40.200
expectation of divine punishment. So the one who is

533
00:39:40.200 --> 00:39:44.600
afraid of God's judgment is not perfected in love, which means

534
00:39:44.600 --> 00:39:50.520
has not grown into sufficient understanding of God's love. If

535
00:39:50.560 --> 00:39:55.200
if you believe that God is a harsh taskmaster, and that he's

536
00:39:55.200 --> 00:40:00.000
just looking to punish you, that is revealing to you that you

537
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.680
don't know God's character correctly,

538
00:40:03.680 --> 00:40:05.880
and that you're not rooted in his love.

539
00:40:05.880 --> 00:40:06.940
You know his love.

540
00:40:06.940 --> 00:40:08.200
I'm sure most of you do

541
00:40:08.200 --> 00:40:09.800
because I believe God has led you here.

542
00:40:09.800 --> 00:40:13.940
Most of you have a knowledge of love in your minds

543
00:40:13.940 --> 00:40:15.720
because you've been taught it in church

544
00:40:15.720 --> 00:40:17.480
and you've read it in the Bible,

545
00:40:17.480 --> 00:40:20.200
but down in here, deep down,

546
00:40:20.200 --> 00:40:22.640
there's a lot of us that don't fully understand

547
00:40:22.640 --> 00:40:24.080
the love of the Father,

548
00:40:24.080 --> 00:40:28.600
the genuine, kind-hearted Father that we serve.

549
00:40:30.040 --> 00:40:33.200
Because life has told us a different story.

550
00:40:33.200 --> 00:40:34.700
John 3.16 says this,

551
00:40:34.700 --> 00:40:35.900
"'For God so loved the world

552
00:40:35.900 --> 00:40:37.860
"'that he gave his only begotten son,

553
00:40:37.860 --> 00:40:41.680
"'that whosoever believes in him should not perish,

554
00:40:41.680 --> 00:40:44.320
"'but have everlasting life.'"

555
00:40:44.320 --> 00:40:47.080
We're gonna go into our first breakout session, ladies.

556
00:40:48.240 --> 00:40:50.140
Here's the question.

557
00:40:50.140 --> 00:40:54.020
What fear are you going to ask God to help you with tonight?

558
00:40:54.020 --> 00:40:56.840
What fear, and maybe you already put it in the chat,

559
00:40:56.840 --> 00:40:59.260
or maybe another fear came up.

560
00:40:59.260 --> 00:41:00.580
You can share both,

561
00:41:00.580 --> 00:41:01.900
but I want y'all to talk to each other.

562
00:41:01.900 --> 00:41:02.960
For the ladies that are new,

563
00:41:02.960 --> 00:41:07.760
the breakout sessions are our electronic breakout rooms.

564
00:41:07.760 --> 00:41:10.060
I put two to three ladies in a room.

565
00:41:10.060 --> 00:41:12.280
Y'all are gonna have time to share with each other.

566
00:41:12.280 --> 00:41:15.200
There's no giving counsel, coaching, advising.

567
00:41:15.200 --> 00:41:16.980
Everybody just has a little bit of time

568
00:41:16.980 --> 00:41:18.820
to share about the question.

569
00:41:18.820 --> 00:41:19.860
If you have extra time,

570
00:41:19.860 --> 00:41:22.460
y'all can share where you're from, what brought you here,

571
00:41:22.460 --> 00:41:25.640
but answer the question first, short, brief, and powerful,

572
00:41:25.640 --> 00:41:27.840
and it should be pretty awesome.

573
00:41:27.840 --> 00:41:29.640
Y'all can get to know each other a little bit.

574
00:41:29.640 --> 00:41:33.000
I always believe in divine connections with these as well.

575
00:41:33.000 --> 00:41:35.640
I'm gonna give you six, two, four, six.

576
00:41:35.640 --> 00:41:37.400
Yeah, that gives everybody about two minutes

577
00:41:37.400 --> 00:41:38.280
if you have three people.

578
00:41:38.280 --> 00:41:39.200
If you've got two people,

579
00:41:39.200 --> 00:41:40.600
you'll have a little bit more time,

580
00:41:40.600 --> 00:41:42.040
but I'm gonna give you six minutes.

581
00:41:42.040 --> 00:41:43.720
Go ahead and click to join those rooms.

582
00:41:43.720 --> 00:41:45.720
That will pop up on the screen, ladies, for you.

583
00:41:45.720 --> 00:41:48.600
So yeah, go ahead and click to join those.

584
00:41:48.600 --> 00:41:49.640
Awesome.

585
00:41:53.720 --> 00:41:55.940
Click those as soon as you can,

586
00:41:55.940 --> 00:41:58.740
just so I can make sure people are in rooms together.

587
00:42:00.980 --> 00:42:02.580
All right, we've got two there.

588
00:42:05.640 --> 00:42:08.820
All right, Madison, are you able to join?

589
00:42:08.820 --> 00:42:11.220
I think her thing is just delayed here.

590
00:42:14.980 --> 00:42:16.040
Okay, Stephanie, you're at work.

591
00:42:16.040 --> 00:42:17.380
That's totally fine.

592
00:42:17.380 --> 00:42:19.220
What room is that?

593
00:42:19.220 --> 00:42:20.060
Five.

594
00:42:22.180 --> 00:42:23.100
Her up there.

595
00:42:24.100 --> 00:42:26.580
All right, as soon as I get these ladies situated in rooms,

596
00:42:26.580 --> 00:42:30.240
we have a couple of people that shall, okay.

597
00:42:38.820 --> 00:42:39.660
Got a bunch of people,

598
00:42:39.660 --> 00:42:42.320
and we must have people leave rooms or something.

599
00:42:54.100 --> 00:42:57.380
All right, I think I got everybody situated here.

600
00:42:57.380 --> 00:42:59.060
Just wanna make sure I missed someone this afternoon,

601
00:42:59.060 --> 00:43:01.460
so I'm trying to be extra diligent.

602
00:43:01.460 --> 00:43:04.760
Thank you for being patient, ladies that are here.

603
00:43:06.100 --> 00:43:08.340
Father, we just thank you so much

604
00:43:08.340 --> 00:43:10.220
for everything you're already doing tonight.

605
00:43:10.220 --> 00:43:12.220
We thank you, God, for revealings for healing

606
00:43:12.220 --> 00:43:13.740
that are happening.

607
00:43:13.740 --> 00:43:17.460
God, we ask you just to remove barriers and blockages

608
00:43:17.460 --> 00:43:19.340
from our hearts, our minds, our bodies,

609
00:43:19.340 --> 00:43:20.820
our spirits, and our souls,

610
00:43:21.540 --> 00:43:24.580
that you would breathe life and truth into us.

611
00:43:24.580 --> 00:43:29.420
Yes, Lord, just the same way that Jesus rose from the dead,

612
00:43:29.420 --> 00:43:31.800
we thank you for the same power that accomplished that,

613
00:43:31.800 --> 00:43:33.860
that's living in us, that's operating through us.

614
00:43:33.860 --> 00:43:37.020
We thank you tonight that you're helping us

615
00:43:37.020 --> 00:43:38.940
to hear what your spirit is saying to us.

616
00:43:38.940 --> 00:43:40.780
We thank you, God, that you would remove,

617
00:43:40.780 --> 00:43:43.560
in Jesus' name, every spirit of fear,

618
00:43:44.560 --> 00:43:46.180
because fear has to do with torment.

619
00:43:46.180 --> 00:43:49.220
We thank you, God, by the power of your blood, Jesus,

620
00:43:49.700 --> 00:43:52.020
and through your name, we lose the spirit of love

621
00:43:52.020 --> 00:43:54.420
and of power and of a sound mind,

622
00:43:54.420 --> 00:43:58.100
that you would help us to recognize, excuse me,

623
00:43:58.100 --> 00:44:01.140
the ways that the enemy is trying to get us into a trap

624
00:44:01.140 --> 00:44:05.300
and ensnare us and take us captive

625
00:44:05.300 --> 00:44:10.300
and bind us into his plans that lead us into just evil

626
00:44:11.460 --> 00:44:14.620
and things that are not the goodness of God.

627
00:44:14.620 --> 00:44:16.300
I feel like Joy just popped in there.

628
00:44:16.300 --> 00:44:19.060
Joy, were you by yourself?

629
00:44:19.900 --> 00:44:22.900
I was by with a similar fear,

630
00:44:22.900 --> 00:44:26.620
Carly is the new one.

631
00:44:26.620 --> 00:44:28.840
I think maybe she might've dropped out.

632
00:44:28.840 --> 00:44:31.180
Let me just put you in a different room, okay?

633
00:44:31.180 --> 00:44:32.460
Oh, all right.

634
00:44:32.460 --> 00:44:33.300
There you go.

635
00:44:33.300 --> 00:44:35.100
Yeah, there's nobody in that room anymore.

636
00:44:37.100 --> 00:44:38.540
All right, Father, so we just thank you

637
00:44:38.540 --> 00:44:43.540
for just removing all distraction.

638
00:44:43.540 --> 00:44:45.820
I still continue to feel that tonight, ladies,

639
00:44:45.820 --> 00:44:47.660
so if anybody else is feeling that,

640
00:44:47.660 --> 00:44:49.500
I just feel like the enemy is really trying to,

641
00:44:49.500 --> 00:44:51.420
not because Joy popped back in, but again,

642
00:44:51.420 --> 00:44:52.980
just I feel that resistance

643
00:44:52.980 --> 00:44:54.940
as I'm even trying to pray tonight.

644
00:44:54.940 --> 00:44:56.020
So we'll really just thank you

645
00:44:56.020 --> 00:44:59.580
that you would just remove all spirits of intimidation.

646
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.000
distance every

647
00:45:02.040 --> 00:45:06.840
yeah, Lord, we just thank you that in Jesus name that you would bind spirits of I

648
00:45:07.840 --> 00:45:08.960
Just keep hearing this

649
00:45:08.960 --> 00:45:12.320
I'm just gonna call it out deaf and dumb spirits any spirits that would hinder

650
00:45:12.720 --> 00:45:19.640
The work Lord that you're trying to do we thank you God that yeah Lord that you would bind to break any spirit of pride

651
00:45:20.200 --> 00:45:21.440
ego

652
00:45:21.440 --> 00:45:29.200
Insecurity and Lord, we just thank you the opposite that you would lose spirits of of joy of peace of kindness of goodness that we would

653
00:45:29.760 --> 00:45:34.640
Spirits of love that you would help us to become more and more rooted and grounded in the love of God

654
00:45:34.840 --> 00:45:39.360
That we would see ourselves Lord through your eyes more and more and more every single day

655
00:45:39.400 --> 00:45:45.440
We thank you that Ephesians 6 12 says your hand-to-hand combat is not with human beings

656
00:45:45.440 --> 00:45:50.640
But with the highest principalities and authorities operating in rebellion under the heavenly realm

657
00:45:50.640 --> 00:45:56.280
So where we thank you that you would just dispatch angel armies to war on our behalf tonight

658
00:45:56.680 --> 00:46:00.400
That you would just help them to come to our aid that you would

659
00:46:00.760 --> 00:46:06.640
Help us to see the ways that we are winning because of the victory Jesus Christ has already won for us

660
00:46:06.720 --> 00:46:12.040
We thank you that you would help us to step further into that victory tonight. We thank you that you would

661
00:46:12.440 --> 00:46:16.760
Yeah, Lord, just break off bondages chains falling off of people

662
00:46:17.480 --> 00:46:24.680
Mindsets being shifted healing happening in hearts and minds and spirits and bodies even as they release fear and anxiety

663
00:46:24.920 --> 00:46:31.440
To you Lord, we thank you that you would just yes Lord that you we as your daughters would be marked by peace

664
00:46:31.640 --> 00:46:33.920
That we would know you God asked peace

665
00:46:33.920 --> 00:46:38.960
but that we would walk in your peace that we would live and move and have our being in you God that we would

666
00:46:39.360 --> 00:46:41.120
remember that

667
00:46:41.120 --> 00:46:46.000
That John 14 27 talks about how you came to that

668
00:46:46.000 --> 00:46:48.000
You said Jesus is the light of the world

669
00:46:48.040 --> 00:46:54.160
To leave us with peace that we can remain in your peace and we can live and abide in that every single day

670
00:46:54.160 --> 00:46:55.760
so we thank you Lord that

671
00:46:55.760 --> 00:46:59.320
Yeah, Lord when the enemy tries to come and disrupt that plan

672
00:46:59.400 --> 00:47:05.880
We thank you that you'll help us to just really get on the right track with you that we would partner with your truth

673
00:47:06.000 --> 00:47:08.000
We thank you that

674
00:47:08.760 --> 00:47:14.840
Yeah, here's another one another good scripture Philippians 1 6 says this in the message message version

675
00:47:14.960 --> 00:47:17.880
There has never been the slightest doubt in my mind

676
00:47:18.120 --> 00:47:23.160
that the God who started this great work and you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very

677
00:47:24.040 --> 00:47:31.080
Day Christ Jesus disappeared or excuse me. I read that wrong Christ Jesus appears because I saw Madison pop up Madison

678
00:47:31.080 --> 00:47:33.080
I think maybe your internet is

679
00:47:33.400 --> 00:47:36.400
Maybe having an issue. Do you want me to try to put you back in that room?

680
00:47:37.440 --> 00:47:41.600
Sure, it's my my chargers broken. So I have to put it on the box

681
00:47:41.600 --> 00:47:44.600
And so if it gets off kilter a little bit it turns off. Oh

682
00:47:45.280 --> 00:47:48.200
Okay, that's all right. They're about to come back in like 60 seconds

683
00:47:48.320 --> 00:47:49.400
I

684
00:47:49.400 --> 00:47:52.680
Just stay here. I'll just catch one. All right. Awesome

685
00:47:52.960 --> 00:47:59.760
so we're just thank you for also leading us into all truth and anointing us for all of our lives and walk and calling and

686
00:47:59.760 --> 00:48:01.760
Leading us deeper into Jesus today

687
00:48:02.280 --> 00:48:08.680
Ephesians 4 21 through 24 says this since you have heard about Jesus and have learned the truth that comes from him

688
00:48:08.880 --> 00:48:14.480
Throw off your old sinful nature in your former way of life, which is corrupted by lust and deception instead

689
00:48:14.760 --> 00:48:22.720
Let the spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes put on your new nature created to be like God truly righteous and holy

690
00:48:22.920 --> 00:48:29.920
And Jesus name we have about 20 seconds before the ladies come back that reminds me that this afternoon. I

691
00:48:30.760 --> 00:48:35.480
Did talk to the ladies a little bit about as I talked about the negativity fast

692
00:48:35.480 --> 00:48:40.760
Just you know that some of you all might be willing to pray during this time of heart healing

693
00:48:41.120 --> 00:48:47.360
About other areas where the Lord wants to grow you in spiritual maturity in different areas and

694
00:48:47.880 --> 00:48:51.720
You know praying about ways that you can grow in relationship with him

695
00:48:51.720 --> 00:48:55.000
So praying, you know not about religious duty ladies

696
00:48:55.000 --> 00:49:01.480
but reading the word is creates connection because you get to know his character as you know the word and

697
00:49:02.120 --> 00:49:03.920
Hey, maybe even

698
00:49:03.920 --> 00:49:10.280
Memorizing the scriptures. I was thinking yesterday and I want to give this to y'all just really quickly

699
00:49:10.280 --> 00:49:11.480
And then we're gonna do group shares

700
00:49:11.480 --> 00:49:14.800
So whoever's willing to share what you shared in your private

701
00:49:15.120 --> 00:49:18.920
Breakout room go ahead and put your hands up and I'll come to you and we'll start to do that. Okay

702
00:49:19.760 --> 00:49:21.760
But I was thinking on this

703
00:49:21.880 --> 00:49:24.960
Years ago. I used to memorize scripture a lot. I

704
00:49:25.480 --> 00:49:30.360
worked on it all the time not because I felt like I had to but because I wanted to I was so hungry for

705
00:49:30.360 --> 00:49:32.720
the word and to get the word in me and

706
00:49:33.360 --> 00:49:39.160
I believe that's why I can pray the way I do today, but I'm not saying that because of myself

707
00:49:39.160 --> 00:49:40.480
I thought of yesterday

708
00:49:40.480 --> 00:49:43.920
I've been in trying to help the little children's church right now because we

709
00:49:44.320 --> 00:49:51.500
Are in transition and we the person that was our children's church leader. Um is not anymore. But anyways

710
00:49:52.400 --> 00:49:59.800
as I was getting ready for church yesterday, I was like, I just felt the Holy Spirit say and lead me like hey

711
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.360
you should, you should teach the kids,

712
00:50:02.360 --> 00:50:04.960
like do a challenge with them and make this fun

713
00:50:04.960 --> 00:50:07.520
so that they will want to study the scripture

714
00:50:07.520 --> 00:50:08.640
and memorize it.

715
00:50:08.640 --> 00:50:10.160
And so I'm gonna, I'm gonna develop

716
00:50:10.160 --> 00:50:12.160
some kind of little game for them

717
00:50:12.160 --> 00:50:15.040
and they're gonna work on teams and the whole thing

718
00:50:15.040 --> 00:50:16.720
and we're gonna give them prizes.

719
00:50:16.720 --> 00:50:18.920
And yeah, yeah, I am gonna give them prizes

720
00:50:18.920 --> 00:50:19.920
if they memorize scripture

721
00:50:19.920 --> 00:50:21.480
cause I want them to memorize scripture

722
00:50:21.480 --> 00:50:23.680
and get that stuff good down in there,

723
00:50:23.680 --> 00:50:24.920
even as they're little kids,

724
00:50:24.920 --> 00:50:26.080
because then as they grow up,

725
00:50:26.080 --> 00:50:28.340
that will be things they can grow up with.

726
00:50:28.340 --> 00:50:29.860
So for whoever that's worth,

727
00:50:29.880 --> 00:50:31.920
we can do that at any age

728
00:50:31.920 --> 00:50:33.720
and we don't need prizes necessarily,

729
00:50:33.720 --> 00:50:37.320
but if you wanna set a goal for yourself

730
00:50:37.320 --> 00:50:39.120
and then go do something nice for yourself

731
00:50:39.120 --> 00:50:42.160
after you get that done, then go do that.

732
00:50:42.160 --> 00:50:44.880
So again, just planting seeds.

733
00:50:44.880 --> 00:50:48.000
I love to encourage people to grow in their relationship

734
00:50:48.000 --> 00:50:50.840
with Christ beyond just the moment

735
00:50:50.840 --> 00:50:53.900
and the five weeks of the journey that you're on, okay?

736
00:50:55.120 --> 00:50:58.200
Oh Mika, I'm glad, I'm glad that resonated for you.

737
00:50:58.220 --> 00:51:01.540
All right, Joy, I would love to hear what you have to say.

738
00:51:01.540 --> 00:51:06.540
Okay, so today I was entertaining.

739
00:51:07.940 --> 00:51:11.380
I do watch my thoughts and my feeling motion

740
00:51:11.380 --> 00:51:14.580
and today sometimes I feel a little bit anxious

741
00:51:14.580 --> 00:51:18.860
about my job situation

742
00:51:18.860 --> 00:51:22.660
because right now I released from first job

743
00:51:22.660 --> 00:51:26.780
so I'm doing time process waiting upon the Lord

744
00:51:26.780 --> 00:51:31.780
whether I'm going to look for a stable job or income

745
00:51:32.760 --> 00:51:34.960
and or I can do some sales job

746
00:51:34.960 --> 00:51:39.320
like doing the last year single affiliates

747
00:51:39.320 --> 00:51:43.440
because I have a one, I just talked to someone

748
00:51:43.440 --> 00:51:45.520
over the phone and she's interested.

749
00:51:45.520 --> 00:51:50.520
So I focus on or do the affiliates of 100X of the Pedro.

750
00:51:50.940 --> 00:51:55.940
So I was kind of, you know, there's a little bit,

751
00:51:56.200 --> 00:51:59.480
sometimes there's a type of enemy fear

752
00:51:59.480 --> 00:52:01.680
or maybe I should have found a stable job

753
00:52:01.680 --> 00:52:04.200
or maybe I just have to wait

754
00:52:04.200 --> 00:52:07.540
because I know I need healing.

755
00:52:07.540 --> 00:52:09.960
I needed to take the course self study

756
00:52:09.960 --> 00:52:11.780
about hard work healing.

757
00:52:12.840 --> 00:52:15.040
I need to get on that.

758
00:52:15.040 --> 00:52:17.100
So I do need healing.

759
00:52:17.100 --> 00:52:20.320
So I'm kind of debating, I know.

760
00:52:20.320 --> 00:52:23.040
So meanwhile, I was, you know,

761
00:52:23.040 --> 00:52:24.920
not sure that's why there's a fear,

762
00:52:24.920 --> 00:52:29.920
sometimes anxiety, sometimes can arise to,

763
00:52:30.680 --> 00:52:33.340
to, you know, take my mind, my thoughts,

764
00:52:33.340 --> 00:52:37.220
but I have to shut off and switch to choose

765
00:52:37.220 --> 00:52:38.620
and switch to God.

766
00:52:38.620 --> 00:52:41.980
So I'm detained sometimes, that's what, yeah.

767
00:52:43.060 --> 00:52:45.340
Okay, well Joy, thank you for sharing.

768
00:52:45.340 --> 00:52:47.600
I think the biggest thing, number one,

769
00:52:47.600 --> 00:52:52.600
is really just praying regarding the job situation.

770
00:52:53.600 --> 00:52:56.240
I believe that God wants us to be in places

771
00:52:56.240 --> 00:53:01.240
where we will feel rooted and grounded and be at peace.

772
00:53:01.400 --> 00:53:05.160
And when we don't have peace as our primary,

773
00:53:05.160 --> 00:53:07.400
I'm not saying that that can't ever be,

774
00:53:07.400 --> 00:53:09.560
okay, God has us in difficult places

775
00:53:09.560 --> 00:53:11.160
to stretch us and grow us sometimes,

776
00:53:11.160 --> 00:53:14.920
but if it's an extended period where we just have no peace,

777
00:53:14.920 --> 00:53:18.080
then we might need to pray and really ask the Lord

778
00:53:18.080 --> 00:53:20.960
about a shift we might need to make, okay?

779
00:53:20.960 --> 00:53:23.280
You don't need to necessarily focus on that in heartwork.

780
00:53:23.280 --> 00:53:26.840
We actually ask you guys not to make any big changes

781
00:53:26.840 --> 00:53:27.680
when you're in heartwork,

782
00:53:27.680 --> 00:53:32.160
but if you need to bring in income on a more steady basis,

783
00:53:32.160 --> 00:53:34.620
you know, maybe pray and see if God does want you

784
00:53:34.620 --> 00:53:36.960
to step into a different job

785
00:53:36.960 --> 00:53:39.040
in addition to the things that you're doing.

786
00:53:39.040 --> 00:53:41.240
But if I understood you correctly,

787
00:53:41.240 --> 00:53:43.940
you're also trying to balance the heartwork

788
00:53:43.940 --> 00:53:45.180
and having time to do that.

789
00:53:45.180 --> 00:53:46.640
Is that what you were saying?

790
00:53:48.240 --> 00:53:49.520
Yeah.

791
00:53:49.520 --> 00:53:50.640
Okay, all right.

792
00:53:51.360 --> 00:53:53.840
So if we have anxious thoughts that come in,

793
00:53:53.840 --> 00:53:56.160
one of the ways that we can counteract that

794
00:53:56.160 --> 00:53:59.080
is to think about what is the opposite of that thought.

795
00:53:59.080 --> 00:54:02.440
So for example, if I have a bunch of what if thoughts

796
00:54:02.440 --> 00:54:05.880
full of anxiety, then what's the opposite?

797
00:54:05.880 --> 00:54:07.760
Like earlier I was saying, what if, you know,

798
00:54:07.760 --> 00:54:10.680
the trusses are the things, you know,

799
00:54:10.680 --> 00:54:13.060
that go in to make the roof for a building,

800
00:54:13.060 --> 00:54:14.440
what if those don't come in in time?

801
00:54:14.440 --> 00:54:15.280
Or I can look at it,

802
00:54:15.280 --> 00:54:17.280
what if the money doesn't all come in in time?

803
00:54:17.280 --> 00:54:20.660
But if I flip that, what if it does?

804
00:54:20.660 --> 00:54:23.520
What if not only the money that we need comes in on time,

805
00:54:23.520 --> 00:54:28.000
but what if God supplies in abundance above and beyond?

806
00:54:28.000 --> 00:54:29.880
Now I can't live in that world

807
00:54:29.880 --> 00:54:31.560
if we didn't have the insurance money

808
00:54:31.560 --> 00:54:33.960
to cover those things, right?

809
00:54:33.960 --> 00:54:36.000
So we have to also have a balance there

810
00:54:36.000 --> 00:54:39.360
to walk in financial stewardship and walk things out

811
00:54:39.360 --> 00:54:42.200
because we don't wanna just have supernatural faith

812
00:54:42.200 --> 00:54:46.280
all the time and then we have nothing to live off of, right?

813
00:54:46.280 --> 00:54:48.280
Okay, so we have to have balance there.

814
00:54:48.280 --> 00:54:49.960
So we really wanna encourage you to pray into it,

815
00:54:49.960 --> 00:54:52.600
but you can war against those anxious thoughts

816
00:54:52.600 --> 00:54:54.480
with thoughts full of faith and truth

817
00:54:54.480 --> 00:54:55.640
and grounded in the love.

818
00:54:55.640 --> 00:54:59.280
So as you're walking out the path of really discerning

819
00:54:59.280 --> 00:55:00.680
where God wants you to go.

820
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.600
go in the days ahead, put up some scriptures that are full of peace, that are full of faith,

821
00:55:06.600 --> 00:55:13.000
really start meditating on those and partnering with that truth daily. Appreciate you sharing.

822
00:55:13.000 --> 00:55:20.400
Anyone else? Yeah, you're welcome. Anyone else willing to share? Normally it takes one

823
00:55:20.400 --> 00:55:25.440
and then other people go, Michelle, are you willing to share? Are you just clapping? I

824
00:55:25.440 --> 00:55:31.440
don't know what I'm doing, but I'm doing great. I love it. I don't know what that thing is.

825
00:55:31.440 --> 00:55:40.040
Yes. Thank you. I'm just learning so much. I'm just trying to take it all in. I definitely,

826
00:55:40.040 --> 00:55:49.100
when I was in the room with two other sisters, it really resonated with me, fear of the unknown.

827
00:55:49.100 --> 00:55:54.540
And while Joy was talking, I began to write down, like, what am I scared of? Like, I really

828
00:55:54.540 --> 00:56:00.120
am trying to think of what was I so fearful of? And then I think the biggest thing for me was

829
00:56:00.120 --> 00:56:12.480
the aging process, getting older, being lonely, not having a family or my own family, lacking

830
00:56:12.480 --> 00:56:19.320
confidence. But I think the biggest thing for me has been the unknown of the future, and being

831
00:56:19.320 --> 00:56:25.540
alone and not having my own family. So if I'm honest, I think that was the biggest out of many

832
00:56:25.540 --> 00:56:32.500
of the things that I wrote down here. But I'm learning to trust God a lot more than I was

833
00:56:32.500 --> 00:56:38.460
before I started this program. That's so awesome, Michelle. Thank you for sharing that. So I have

834
00:56:38.460 --> 00:56:46.740
a question for you. If you feel comfortable to answer. When you were growing up, would you

835
00:56:46.740 --> 00:56:52.720
describe your life as having unstability, like instability, like a lot of things changing

836
00:56:52.720 --> 00:56:55.440
constantly? Anything like that?

837
00:56:56.480 --> 00:57:01.600
Well, we don't have enough time to go back through my story. Yes. And you know, going through the

838
00:57:01.640 --> 00:57:08.600
the coursework, and doing you know, section one, section two, the Holy Spirit showed me the

839
00:57:08.600 --> 00:57:16.160
instability. My mother was very sick when we were younger. And with that I was bounced around with

840
00:57:16.160 --> 00:57:21.800
different family members. Felt loved, was loved. But you know, when you're a little kid, you want

841
00:57:21.800 --> 00:57:27.620
your mother. You know, you want your mother and my mother was in and out of the hospital. Now that I'm

842
00:57:27.620 --> 00:57:34.180
getting older, and my mom is getting older. I don't think I've ever shared this with any of my

843
00:57:34.180 --> 00:57:45.780
siblings. Okay. I'm concerned about her health. My mother's, you know, just the challenge. Today's my

844
00:57:45.780 --> 00:57:52.320
birthday. I was with her at the doctor's office. Happy birthday. Thank you. So the instability to

845
00:57:52.320 --> 00:57:57.880
answer the question, the instability of when we were younger, and all of my siblings are married,

846
00:57:57.880 --> 00:58:04.200
and all of them have kids. I don't have kids. I'm not married. But I will be married this time next

847
00:58:04.200 --> 00:58:09.960
year. Right? I wanted to say that. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. A lot of instability.

848
00:58:10.780 --> 00:58:20.060
Okay, so here is when you said fear of the unknown. A lot of times we see people that have those kind

849
00:58:20.060 --> 00:58:25.100
of fears that they felt like there wasn't something that they could like they felt their life was out

850
00:58:25.100 --> 00:58:29.020
of control when they were younger. And it doesn't mean that you had bad parents. Like look at this

851
00:58:29.020 --> 00:58:33.660
situation right here, ladies. This is a perfect example. It doesn't mean her mom didn't love her.

852
00:58:33.660 --> 00:58:40.360
Her mom was sick, and was struggling herself. And she did have other Michelle did have other family

853
00:58:40.360 --> 00:58:49.380
members caring for but she said it so well. But she just wanted her mama. Right. And so we get older, and

854
00:58:49.380 --> 00:58:55.160
those things are still in there. If they're not healed and restored and redeemed, where we're

855
00:58:55.160 --> 00:59:02.480
walking in the truth and rooted in the truth, then that like literally feeds right up into our current

856
00:59:02.480 --> 00:59:08.740
day, which can feed to the fear of the unknown because her life back then was constantly changing. She

857
00:59:08.740 --> 00:59:15.380
never knew what was coming. And it makes sense to me also, that one of the things you said there, well,

858
00:59:15.380 --> 00:59:21.460
really, two of them aging process, which Okay, yeah, as we get older, I think we all have things that pop up

859
00:59:21.460 --> 00:59:31.100
there. But being lonely, and then you just told us that your mom is, again, not doing well. And so I feel

860
00:59:31.100 --> 00:59:37.640
like that's why those are coming up so much for you. Because not only in your past, did this come up when your

861
00:59:37.640 --> 00:59:43.880
mom got sick, these, you know, being alone or feeling of abandonment, even though your mom, you're either

862
00:59:43.880 --> 00:59:50.120
wasn't abandonment per se, but we perceive things incorrectly as children, especially when the enemy is

863
00:59:50.120 --> 00:59:58.440
lying to us. And we don't have any defenses toward like to get him away, or to resist those thoughts. And so

864
00:59:58.440 --> 00:59:59.820
we tend to believe

865
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.120
a lot of what he says. And so I, I think part of the reason

866
01:00:06.120 --> 01:00:08.700
you're struggling with fears about the aging process, being

867
01:00:08.700 --> 01:00:12.360
alone, not having your own family is because as a little

868
01:00:12.360 --> 01:00:15.960
girl, you didn't have the connection with your family that

869
01:00:15.960 --> 01:00:22.000
you needed. And I'm not faulting your mom or your family for

870
01:00:22.000 --> 01:00:25.740
that. But that's just that's just truth of what we tend to

871
01:00:25.740 --> 01:00:29.820
struggle with as we get older. And so really continuing to

872
01:00:29.820 --> 01:00:33.740
allow the Lord to come into those places and those memories,

873
01:00:33.740 --> 01:00:37.940
Michelle, if you all weren't on before, when I've talked about

874
01:00:37.940 --> 01:00:40.980
this, this is where we want to invite Jesus to come into a

875
01:00:40.980 --> 01:00:46.220
memory that's hard. And ask him to help reveal what does he want

876
01:00:46.220 --> 01:00:51.220
us to know about that situation? And Jesus, where were you when

877
01:00:51.220 --> 01:00:58.380
this happened? Okay, and let's see what he shows you. And even

878
01:00:58.380 --> 01:01:01.060
if you've worked on, you know, even one or two of those

879
01:01:01.060 --> 01:01:03.380
scenarios, or all of them through your, you know,

880
01:01:03.380 --> 01:01:07.340
forgiveness track or whatever, Michelle, I'm, I want to just

881
01:01:07.340 --> 01:01:10.340
encourage you to ask the Lord, is there a memory that needs

882
01:01:10.340 --> 01:01:13.380
revealed for healing that hasn't come up yet, but that's

883
01:01:13.380 --> 01:01:14.820
connected to this?

884
01:01:17.500 --> 01:01:18.820
Yes. Okay.

885
01:01:19.820 --> 01:01:26.580
Yeah. And I just saw a picture. I just saw a picture. I know

886
01:01:26.580 --> 01:01:30.180
it's the Lord. But as soon as I knew it was him holding a baby

887
01:01:30.180 --> 01:01:34.860
rocking it, it turned into like the divine feminine. And so I

888
01:01:34.860 --> 01:01:37.700
believe God wants to help you all the way back when you were

889
01:01:37.700 --> 01:01:38.620
an infant.

890
01:01:39.180 --> 01:01:44.260
Yeah, that nurturing, I feel the Holy Spirit, the nurturing love

891
01:01:44.620 --> 01:01:48.860
and affection and that rocking that soothing, you know, those

892
01:01:48.860 --> 01:01:53.180
things that we need as babies and children, even as toddlers,

893
01:01:53.180 --> 01:01:56.420
you all, but God wants to take you all the way back there. So

894
01:01:56.420 --> 01:01:59.580
let's just lean into that this week and see what he shows you.

895
01:02:00.340 --> 01:02:04.420
And but even if it just helps you like to, to really meditate

896
01:02:04.420 --> 01:02:07.260
and ask God to reveal to you what he showed to me, because I

897
01:02:07.260 --> 01:02:11.700
can see it so clear in my mind's eye. But I want him to show it

898
01:02:11.700 --> 01:02:15.860
to you. Okay. Amen. Thank you. Great. Awesome. Anyone else want

899
01:02:15.860 --> 01:02:18.220
to share what you shared in your private breakout room?

900
01:02:21.180 --> 01:02:24.460
Michelle, that was so good. Thank you so much. Thank you. I

901
01:02:24.460 --> 01:02:29.100
don't know how to, I'll do it for you. It's okay. Okay, nobody

902
01:02:29.620 --> 01:02:32.140
else wants to share. All right, Brenda, go ahead.

903
01:02:33.740 --> 01:02:39.820
Okay. Um, so mine was interesting. One was today and

904
01:02:39.820 --> 01:02:44.260
then one was like this week. But um, so the one today was, I'm

905
01:02:44.260 --> 01:02:51.380
currently living with my parents and they were on a trip. And I

906
01:02:51.380 --> 01:02:53.980
knew they were gonna be home anyways. And so I knew they

907
01:02:53.980 --> 01:02:57.180
should have been home by now. And then it was the, I think

908
01:02:57.180 --> 01:03:00.300
accident, they've died. And this has happened to me before,

909
01:03:00.460 --> 01:03:07.860
because I've had several deaths in my family. So, um, so I was

910
01:03:07.860 --> 01:03:10.980
trying to, okay, like, you know, Holy Spirit, like, what's the

911
01:03:10.980 --> 01:03:15.900
truth kind of thing. And then the other was just, like, fear

912
01:03:15.900 --> 01:03:18.620
of missing God's timing, because since I've been like, fighting

913
01:03:18.620 --> 01:03:24.580
this congestion, I, the Lord's sending me to move to New York

914
01:03:24.660 --> 01:03:28.540
I, the Lord's sending me to move to Texas, and I thought I was

915
01:03:28.540 --> 01:03:35.740
gonna be there by now. And, um, and it's like a huge move for me

916
01:03:35.740 --> 01:03:40.140
like a, you know, an Abraham, like, I don't know anything, all

917
01:03:40.140 --> 01:03:44.260
this kind of stuff. And yeah, so just, you know, even trying to

918
01:03:44.260 --> 01:03:49.220
gauge this before and then, you know, being sick and, and it

919
01:03:50.860 --> 01:03:52.820
like not leaving, you know what I mean? And then you don't feel

920
01:03:52.820 --> 01:03:55.420
well. And then it's like, okay, Lord, now what I'm feeling like,

921
01:03:55.420 --> 01:04:00.060
okay, like, knowing that, like, you know, the enemies coming

922
01:04:00.060 --> 01:04:04.300
against me in this area, but now I'm like, okay, Lord, like, did

923
01:04:04.300 --> 01:04:06.740
I miss it? Because I felt like, you know, okay, I should have

924
01:04:06.740 --> 01:04:11.020
been there by now. And I've had this before for timing. You

925
01:04:11.020 --> 01:04:11.340
know,

926
01:04:12.260 --> 01:04:15.780
okay, I have a couple things for you. I know that we've done a

927
01:04:15.780 --> 01:04:18.900
little bit of work. You're, you're one of the ladies in the

928
01:04:18.900 --> 01:04:22.700
group that's lost a sibling, right? Yes. Okay. I thought I was

929
01:04:22.700 --> 01:04:25.580
remembering correctly. But I wanted to make sure. Yeah, a

930
01:04:25.580 --> 01:04:30.300
little bit of work around that. But I feel like, you know, as

931
01:04:30.300 --> 01:04:33.900
you mentioned, several deaths in the family, it took me back to

932
01:04:33.900 --> 01:04:36.620
this woman that I was doing some hard work with. And this has

933
01:04:36.620 --> 01:04:45.140
been over a year ago now. And she had, like, back to back

934
01:04:45.500 --> 01:04:48.460
people that passed away in her family. And she didn't even

935
01:04:48.460 --> 01:04:52.500
realize how much it had impacted her. But in the midst of that, I

936
01:04:52.500 --> 01:04:57.220
believe the Lord wants to come and show you like his mark of

937
01:04:57.220 --> 01:04:59.340
peace when y'all were in the breakout session. That was

938
01:04:59.340 --> 01:04:59.980
something I thought

939
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.080
really led to pray into,

940
01:05:02.080 --> 01:05:03.920
or maybe I was praying that when y'all were coming back,

941
01:05:03.920 --> 01:05:04.960
I can't remember.

942
01:05:05.800 --> 01:05:08.080
But at some point tonight that came up in my spirit,

943
01:05:08.080 --> 01:05:11.920
like God is peace that we would know him as peace,

944
01:05:11.920 --> 01:05:15.560
like in a really supernatural way that we would not only

945
01:05:15.560 --> 01:05:17.840
like, okay, Lord, help me to have peace,

946
01:05:17.840 --> 01:05:22.840
but like to genuinely have his peace imparted into us,

947
01:05:22.920 --> 01:05:25.000
like supernaturally.

948
01:05:25.000 --> 01:05:28.120
And I believe God wants to bring that into the center

949
01:05:28.120 --> 01:05:30.560
of these situations regarding your family members

950
01:05:30.560 --> 01:05:31.880
that have passed away,

951
01:05:31.880 --> 01:05:33.680
because God doesn't want you to be afraid

952
01:05:33.680 --> 01:05:35.560
the rest of your life that when, you know,

953
01:05:35.560 --> 01:05:39.040
family members or people leave that, you know,

954
01:05:39.040 --> 01:05:41.280
they're just gonna, something's suddenly gonna happen

955
01:05:41.280 --> 01:05:42.440
and they're gonna die.

956
01:05:42.440 --> 01:05:44.440
Now people, as they get older, you all,

957
01:05:44.440 --> 01:05:47.480
we all know people pass away and things happen,

958
01:05:47.480 --> 01:05:49.960
but God doesn't want that to be your fear

959
01:05:49.960 --> 01:05:51.920
and that constant feeling in your,

960
01:05:51.920 --> 01:05:55.760
like that comes up and triggers when somebody's late

961
01:05:55.760 --> 01:05:57.760
or whatever.

962
01:05:57.760 --> 01:05:59.160
Okay, that's the first thing.

963
01:05:59.160 --> 01:06:02.640
The thing that I wanna emphasize there is God wants to like

964
01:06:02.640 --> 01:06:07.560
impart supernatural peace into you and into those areas.

965
01:06:07.560 --> 01:06:08.400
Okay?

966
01:06:08.400 --> 01:06:12.120
The second thing is fear of missing out.

967
01:06:12.120 --> 01:06:15.120
Ladies, we can't miss out on God's plan for us.

968
01:06:18.200 --> 01:06:20.000
Y'all, we can't.

969
01:06:20.000 --> 01:06:22.360
I know the devil wants to make us think

970
01:06:22.360 --> 01:06:24.080
that we can miss out.

971
01:06:24.080 --> 01:06:28.200
Now, I do think promises and plans shift.

972
01:06:28.200 --> 01:06:30.160
His original plan and design for us,

973
01:06:30.160 --> 01:06:32.560
it was placed in us long ago.

974
01:06:32.560 --> 01:06:35.120
I was even reading a book tonight that, you know,

975
01:06:35.120 --> 01:06:38.280
God uses the things in the heavenly realm

976
01:06:38.280 --> 01:06:40.400
to call those things forth out of us

977
01:06:40.400 --> 01:06:42.000
as we go throughout our lives,

978
01:06:42.000 --> 01:06:45.320
because those are in there, but he's calling it forth.

979
01:06:45.320 --> 01:06:46.160
And as we heal,

980
01:06:46.160 --> 01:06:49.000
that stuff comes forward more and more and more.

981
01:06:49.000 --> 01:06:51.500
But I was thinking about this as you were sharing.

982
01:06:52.500 --> 01:06:56.540
If I can give you some of my life and my faith,

983
01:06:56.540 --> 01:06:59.460
maybe you can just borrow mine for now, okay?

984
01:06:59.460 --> 01:07:00.300
Okay.

985
01:07:00.300 --> 01:07:01.660
Here's the thing.

986
01:07:01.660 --> 01:07:03.860
If we can miss out,

987
01:07:05.020 --> 01:07:09.180
then me having gone through my divorce

988
01:07:09.180 --> 01:07:12.260
and then dating the girl's dad for six years,

989
01:07:13.820 --> 01:07:18.180
then maybe, how would I be living in the promise right now?

990
01:07:22.500 --> 01:07:24.700
Don't you think I would have missed it?

991
01:07:27.980 --> 01:07:31.020
If we're going off of what the devil says,

992
01:07:31.020 --> 01:07:33.140
the ways he tries to trip us up,

993
01:07:33.140 --> 01:07:35.300
that's what I'm trying to paint this picture here.

994
01:07:35.300 --> 01:07:39.700
We would believe that if I'm sick and I get delayed

995
01:07:39.700 --> 01:07:41.780
and I don't go to Texas in the timeframe

996
01:07:41.780 --> 01:07:43.340
that I originally thought,

997
01:07:43.340 --> 01:07:45.380
that I miss out on God's plan and promise

998
01:07:45.380 --> 01:07:47.980
and I'm gonna miss out on the person he has for me.

999
01:07:47.980 --> 01:07:51.300
All these little lies that the enemy spews,

1000
01:07:51.980 --> 01:07:53.500
but here's the thing.

1001
01:07:53.500 --> 01:07:56.420
Literally God can redeem time.

1002
01:07:56.420 --> 01:07:59.100
He can take all of the pieces of your life

1003
01:07:59.100 --> 01:08:01.860
and pull them together and make a masterpiece out.

1004
01:08:01.860 --> 01:08:04.540
He's the master craftsman.

1005
01:08:04.540 --> 01:08:07.620
He can literally turn ashes into beauty

1006
01:08:07.620 --> 01:08:08.940
and mourning into joy.

1007
01:08:08.940 --> 01:08:11.700
This is a supernatural thing that God does

1008
01:08:11.700 --> 01:08:13.820
on a regular basis.

1009
01:08:13.820 --> 01:08:17.380
Just like I literally all of February, you all,

1010
01:08:18.420 --> 01:08:20.779
I was almost all of February.

1011
01:08:21.500 --> 01:08:22.819
Almost all of March.

1012
01:08:22.819 --> 01:08:26.020
I was sick and my dad passed away.

1013
01:08:26.020 --> 01:08:27.939
Y'all, I said last week, the last couple of weeks,

1014
01:08:27.939 --> 01:08:32.540
I felt like I lost that time and I was mad about it.

1015
01:08:32.540 --> 01:08:36.220
Like, man, that whole week is wasted.

1016
01:08:36.220 --> 01:08:37.500
It's gone, wasted.

1017
01:08:37.500 --> 01:08:39.340
I was so frustrated about it.

1018
01:08:39.340 --> 01:08:43.380
And God was like, I can redeem that for you.

1019
01:08:45.380 --> 01:08:47.620
And it shifted the whole way I was thinking

1020
01:08:47.620 --> 01:08:49.580
about that timeframe.

1021
01:08:50.580 --> 01:08:53.340
And so even now, what if, let's flip this.

1022
01:08:53.340 --> 01:08:57.979
What if right now, God is working on your spirit mate

1023
01:08:57.979 --> 01:09:01.100
in Texas to get, or wherever they're at,

1024
01:09:01.100 --> 01:09:03.260
to lead them to Texas.

1025
01:09:03.260 --> 01:09:06.580
At the same time, God's working on you over here

1026
01:09:06.580 --> 01:09:09.260
and taking you there in the timing.

1027
01:09:10.819 --> 01:09:14.340
And I guess I tend to, and I don't know where this,

1028
01:09:14.340 --> 01:09:15.700
and I think I need to ask the Lord,

1029
01:09:15.740 --> 01:09:18.500
but I tend to always go to myself

1030
01:09:18.500 --> 01:09:21.420
and be like, you know what I mean?

1031
01:09:21.420 --> 01:09:24.979
Like I did something wrong, I delayed it kind of thing.

1032
01:09:24.979 --> 01:09:26.660
I tend to like.

1033
01:09:26.660 --> 01:09:28.540
Okay, well that comes from somewhere.

1034
01:09:28.540 --> 01:09:29.779
Yeah.

1035
01:09:29.779 --> 01:09:34.020
So ask the Lord to reveal any area for healing

1036
01:09:34.020 --> 01:09:36.060
that's needed where you still believe

1037
01:09:36.060 --> 01:09:37.859
at the core of who you are,

1038
01:09:37.859 --> 01:09:41.020
that you did something wrong.

1039
01:09:41.020 --> 01:09:41.859
Yeah.

1040
01:09:41.859 --> 01:09:42.740
Hey, I messed up.

1041
01:09:42.740 --> 01:09:45.540
So that means God can't fulfill his promise to me.

1042
01:09:46.700 --> 01:09:47.939
That's not truth.

1043
01:09:47.939 --> 01:09:48.779
Right.

1044
01:09:48.779 --> 01:09:49.620
Okay.

1045
01:09:49.620 --> 01:09:52.020
God makes, he takes literally, I mean,

1046
01:09:52.020 --> 01:09:54.420
he wants us to make right choices and healthy choices,

1047
01:09:54.420 --> 01:09:55.940
but right now it sounds like you're sick,

1048
01:09:55.940 --> 01:09:57.180
you need to recover.

1049
01:09:57.180 --> 01:09:59.620
It sounds like there's some other things going on.

1050
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.400
Sometimes we also interpret God's timing to the best of our ability,

1051
01:10:05.400 --> 01:10:09.300
but what if you're actually right on time?

1052
01:10:10.000 --> 01:10:11.100
Right. That's good.

1053
01:10:11.200 --> 01:10:11.700
Okay.

1054
01:10:11.900 --> 01:10:16.100
So these are the ways that you all, I just really try to get my brain to shift

1055
01:10:16.100 --> 01:10:19.000
because I tend to struggle with those kind of things too.

1056
01:10:19.200 --> 01:10:21.800
And we have to flip, we have to flip the switch.

1057
01:10:22.000 --> 01:10:25.600
We have to say, okay, Lord, if I believe I did something wrong

1058
01:10:25.600 --> 01:10:28.100
and that's going to hinder and delay your promise.

1059
01:10:28.300 --> 01:10:29.500
Well, that's not truth.

1060
01:10:29.800 --> 01:10:33.600
I believe that you take all of my wrongs and make them right.

1061
01:10:34.400 --> 01:10:34.800
Yeah.

1062
01:10:35.300 --> 01:10:39.600
So even if you did, I'm not saying you did, but even if we did make a mistake,

1063
01:10:40.200 --> 01:10:42.100
God can, what's that song?

1064
01:10:42.400 --> 01:10:43.600
Turn it around.

1065
01:10:46.300 --> 01:10:49.100
All of our hope is in him, like he can turn it around.

1066
01:10:49.400 --> 01:10:50.600
Right, right.

1067
01:10:51.000 --> 01:10:51.300
Yeah.

1068
01:10:51.300 --> 01:10:53.700
And then just the redeeming time, like that's good too.

1069
01:10:53.700 --> 01:10:57.400
And I think just because I'm older, you know, I think I think more about that

1070
01:10:57.400 --> 01:10:58.000
as well.

1071
01:10:58.000 --> 01:10:59.300
So, but yeah.

1072
01:10:59.300 --> 01:11:01.500
Hey, I'm 46.

1073
01:11:01.500 --> 01:11:02.900
I'm about to be 47.

1074
01:11:02.900 --> 01:11:04.300
I'm believing for a baby.

1075
01:11:04.300 --> 01:11:08.300
I'm believing for things that even the devil's trying to tell me I'm too old

1076
01:11:08.300 --> 01:11:13.000
to have, but I'm not, I'm not too old and whether we adopt or we have a baby

1077
01:11:13.000 --> 01:11:16.100
or whatever we do, I believe God has a plan for us in that.

1078
01:11:16.300 --> 01:11:21.500
And so I want to just encourage you don't partner ladies with I'm too old

1079
01:11:22.300 --> 01:11:25.000
for any of my ladies, whatever age you are.

1080
01:11:25.000 --> 01:11:28.100
If you think you're old, let's not partner with that.

1081
01:11:28.500 --> 01:11:32.100
Okay, age is just a number.

1082
01:11:32.900 --> 01:11:34.700
Yeah, it really is.

1083
01:11:35.000 --> 01:11:38.600
We have women getting married in their 70s and 80s.

1084
01:11:38.600 --> 01:11:41.800
So yeah, you all it is possible.

1085
01:11:41.800 --> 01:11:42.100
All right.

1086
01:11:42.100 --> 01:11:44.800
I'm going to keep moving Brenda praying for you.

1087
01:11:44.800 --> 01:11:49.200
I believe God is going to supernatural heal you and he's going to bless you

1088
01:11:49.300 --> 01:11:55.600
give you everything that you have need of for your Texas trip and living

1089
01:11:55.600 --> 01:11:58.000
and everything in Jesus name.

1090
01:11:58.200 --> 01:11:58.600
Thank you.

1091
01:11:58.600 --> 01:12:00.200
All right, you're welcome.

1092
01:12:01.400 --> 01:12:01.800
All right.

1093
01:12:01.800 --> 01:12:04.100
So ladies, we're going to shift into control.

1094
01:12:04.100 --> 01:12:06.900
We're going to talk about control a little bit tonight.

1095
01:12:07.000 --> 01:12:13.300
So let me see some hands who is willing to admit whether or not you are

1096
01:12:13.300 --> 01:12:18.300
a control freak who's control freaks in here any control freaks anybody

1097
01:12:18.300 --> 01:12:19.400
willing to admit it?

1098
01:12:19.900 --> 01:12:20.200
Okay.

1099
01:12:20.200 --> 01:12:21.000
I see some hands.

1100
01:12:21.000 --> 01:12:21.800
I see some hands.

1101
01:12:21.800 --> 01:12:23.400
I see some smiles and hands.

1102
01:12:23.600 --> 01:12:24.300
I love it.

1103
01:12:24.900 --> 01:12:25.300
I love it.

1104
01:12:25.300 --> 01:12:27.000
We can have some fun with this ladies.

1105
01:12:27.000 --> 01:12:27.500
Okay.

1106
01:12:28.800 --> 01:12:33.600
All right, so let's think about why do we try to control and who do we try

1107
01:12:33.600 --> 01:12:39.000
to control and what do we tend to try to control that was a lot to say.

1108
01:12:40.000 --> 01:12:42.600
Let's think about these patterns of control.

1109
01:12:43.800 --> 01:12:45.000
What takes us there?

1110
01:12:45.400 --> 01:12:48.700
What train have we been riding on that?

1111
01:12:48.700 --> 01:12:50.700
It's again a Jeep.

1112
01:12:50.700 --> 01:12:51.700
It was a Jeep earlier.

1113
01:12:51.700 --> 01:12:52.800
Now, it's a train.

1114
01:12:54.000 --> 01:12:57.400
We're riding on this train and we need to get off because that's not the

1115
01:12:57.400 --> 01:12:59.300
destination that God has for us.

1116
01:12:59.300 --> 01:13:02.600
Control is not our destination.

1117
01:13:05.000 --> 01:13:10.300
I want you to be thinking about when is the first time you felt the need to

1118
01:13:10.300 --> 01:13:12.700
control someone or something?

1119
01:13:12.800 --> 01:13:16.500
And remember you're asking the Lord to reveal these things to you.

1120
01:13:19.100 --> 01:13:24.000
A lot of times we try to control because we have fear.

1121
01:13:28.000 --> 01:13:31.600
Okay, so I want you to see this is why I partnered the fear and anxiety with

1122
01:13:31.600 --> 01:13:32.800
the control tonight.

1123
01:13:34.800 --> 01:13:35.600
Yeah, Sharon.

1124
01:13:35.600 --> 01:13:36.300
I love that.

1125
01:13:36.300 --> 01:13:37.300
I want the outcome.

1126
01:13:37.300 --> 01:13:39.500
There's an outcome that we want.

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01:13:39.600 --> 01:13:42.600
And so we try to control and make that thing happen.

1128
01:13:42.600 --> 01:13:43.500
But here's the thing.

1129
01:13:43.500 --> 01:13:47.200
A lot of times it actually makes it worse doesn't make it better.

1130
01:13:47.200 --> 01:13:49.300
I'm going to read another little blurb to you.

1131
01:13:49.800 --> 01:13:53.500
It's from the heart workbook and it says never let them see you sweat.

1132
01:13:54.800 --> 01:13:57.800
I don't know how many people reading this will remember the antiperspirant

1133
01:13:57.800 --> 01:14:02.100
commercial with the tagline tagline never let them see you sweat or in

1134
01:14:02.100 --> 01:14:04.400
other words stay unemotional.

1135
01:14:04.400 --> 01:14:06.400
We don't want to see you sweat.

1136
01:14:06.700 --> 01:14:12.300
Or in other words, stay unemotional be in control and never let them see

1137
01:14:12.300 --> 01:14:13.300
any weakness.

1138
01:14:14.300 --> 01:14:18.500
If you're going to be going to get free if we're going to get free to be

1139
01:14:18.500 --> 01:14:19.300
our real selves.

1140
01:14:19.300 --> 01:14:23.800
We have to throw out these cultural lies being weak is okay.

1141
01:14:24.700 --> 01:14:30.000
It's okay to admit that you don't have it all together that you've made

1142
01:14:30.000 --> 01:14:30.900
mistakes.

1143
01:14:31.800 --> 01:14:32.700
I'll tell you this.

1144
01:14:32.700 --> 01:14:33.700
I'll show you mine.

1145
01:14:33.700 --> 01:14:38.700
If you show me yours, not just your highlight reel, but your blooper reel

1146
01:14:38.700 --> 01:14:39.200
too.

1147
01:14:41.000 --> 01:14:44.600
We want to see the skeletons in your closet your wounds your scars your

1148
01:14:44.600 --> 01:14:47.100
weaknesses the bodies in the trunk of your car.

1149
01:14:47.100 --> 01:14:48.800
Go ahead and bring them all out.

1150
01:14:49.500 --> 01:14:51.200
Somebody needs to see them.

1151
01:14:51.500 --> 01:14:53.500
This is a safe place to share them.

1152
01:14:54.400 --> 01:14:58.500
Let's declare war on caught on a culture of angles and filters auto-tune

1153
01:14:58.500 --> 01:14:59.900
in Photoshop because real.

1154
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:04.500
them is found in vulnerability. Okay, so I included all of that.

1155
01:15:04.500 --> 01:15:09.400
But let's go back to the whole part that was all about the

1156
01:15:09.400 --> 01:15:12.880
staying on emotional being in control and never letting them

1157
01:15:12.880 --> 01:15:19.840
see your weakness. How many of you are actually afraid to be

1158
01:15:19.840 --> 01:15:21.480
vulnerable with people?

1159
01:15:24.280 --> 01:15:25.320
Sometimes,

1160
01:15:26.000 --> 01:15:29.880
sometimes Daphne, thank you for sharing. Yeah, anybody

1161
01:15:29.880 --> 01:15:31.920
else? I saw one hand go up.

1162
01:15:32.680 --> 01:15:34.840
All the time since my divorce.

1163
01:15:36.840 --> 01:15:40.480
Ruthann since divorce. Yep. I'm seeing some more come in.

1164
01:15:41.720 --> 01:15:45.960
Depends on the people. All right. Yes. So good. All right.

1165
01:15:45.960 --> 01:15:48.400
We have a couple more. If anything comes to mind, ladies,

1166
01:15:48.400 --> 01:15:52.080
you can put it in the chat. As we continue to talk about this

1167
01:15:52.080 --> 01:15:57.760
control is an illusion. It's a misleading image. It's something

1168
01:15:57.800 --> 01:16:01.240
that is misleading you intellectually, emotionally,

1169
01:16:01.560 --> 01:16:05.960
physically, sometimes. I just heard something in the Holy

1170
01:16:05.960 --> 01:16:10.400
Spirit. Sometimes women will even have sex outside of

1171
01:16:10.400 --> 01:16:15.480
marriage to have control. Men do it too. Now these aren't healthy

1172
01:16:15.480 --> 01:16:20.280
patterns. Why do why do they do that? Well, because at some

1173
01:16:20.280 --> 01:16:23.360
point that stuff was taken away from them. And so in order to

1174
01:16:23.400 --> 01:16:26.880
assert control, and I don't know that it's people in our

1175
01:16:26.880 --> 01:16:29.160
community, but this is just what came up in my spirit. But

1176
01:16:29.160 --> 01:16:32.920
in order to take back their control, take back what was

1177
01:16:32.920 --> 01:16:35.880
taken from them. There are people that you know,

1178
01:16:35.880 --> 01:16:40.760
subconsciously have sex outside of marriage. And they it's like

1179
01:16:40.760 --> 01:16:44.360
they tell themselves they can't help it. And then they do it so

1180
01:16:44.360 --> 01:16:50.040
many times that that does become like a habit for them. And so in

1181
01:16:50.080 --> 01:16:53.440
even Christian circles, we have people that don't believe they

1182
01:16:53.440 --> 01:16:57.200
can wait until marriage to have sex. And some people don't even

1183
01:16:57.200 --> 01:17:03.400
want to. So we need to say something. Sure, go ahead. I was

1184
01:17:03.400 --> 01:17:08.200
gonna say something about why I feel the need to control things.

1185
01:17:09.960 --> 01:17:13.160
I think because I've been so disappointed my entire life by

1186
01:17:13.160 --> 01:17:18.200
so many people that like, in order to do something, I'd

1187
01:17:18.200 --> 01:17:23.360
rather just do it myself. Then not like, you know, trust

1188
01:17:23.360 --> 01:17:25.400
somebody else to do it or do it right.

1189
01:17:28.160 --> 01:17:30.760
I love that. I mean, I love that you shared that. Are you

1190
01:17:30.760 --> 01:17:34.800
willing to let me coach you for a minute on this? Sure. Okay,

1191
01:17:34.800 --> 01:17:39.800
awesome. So you mentioned not being able to depend on people

1192
01:17:39.800 --> 01:17:42.400
most of your life and that you would just rather not be

1193
01:17:42.400 --> 01:17:44.760
disappointed and you would just rather do it yourself. And

1194
01:17:44.760 --> 01:17:49.640
that's why you tend to lean towards control. So as you're

1195
01:17:49.680 --> 01:17:52.000
leaning into this during the heartwork, Daphne, I want to

1196
01:17:52.000 --> 01:17:55.040
encourage you to ask the Lord to show you the first time you

1197
01:17:55.040 --> 01:17:59.640
were disappointed when someone gave you their word, and they

1198
01:17:59.640 --> 01:18:00.560
let you down.

1199
01:18:06.760 --> 01:18:09.120
And let's see what the Lord reveals, because I believe

1200
01:18:09.120 --> 01:18:12.040
that's going to be the starting point for you, where you're

1201
01:18:12.040 --> 01:18:15.560
going to start to heal in that first situation where you really

1202
01:18:15.560 --> 01:18:18.760
were depending on someone and they didn't come through for you

1203
01:18:18.760 --> 01:18:22.600
and you really needed them to. And that can be even as a child,

1204
01:18:22.600 --> 01:18:24.680
it could be something it could have been a friend. I mean, it

1205
01:18:24.680 --> 01:18:27.640
could have been anything. But let's let the Lord reveal that

1206
01:18:27.640 --> 01:18:32.280
because then what happens is along the way, that's in that

1207
01:18:32.280 --> 01:18:36.000
first situation. And then as we continue to go, you know, we go

1208
01:18:36.000 --> 01:18:40.200
through additional situations and the enemy is like, yep, see

1209
01:18:40.200 --> 01:18:43.920
told you, you can't depend on people see told you, you can't

1210
01:18:43.920 --> 01:18:46.680
depend on people, people never come through for you, you're

1211
01:18:46.680 --> 01:18:50.120
just better off doing it by yourself. And he just tries to

1212
01:18:50.120 --> 01:18:53.360
reinforce that and reinforce that and reinforce that through

1213
01:18:53.360 --> 01:18:56.680
the destruction and the things that he is bringing into our

1214
01:18:56.680 --> 01:19:01.520
lives. But on the flip side of that God is whispering over and

1215
01:19:01.520 --> 01:19:06.160
over again, His love for you, I'm here, I'm never gonna leave

1216
01:19:06.160 --> 01:19:09.800
you. I'm never gonna let you I'm not gonna let you fall like

1217
01:19:09.800 --> 01:19:12.160
those other people let you fall, whatever it is that he's

1218
01:19:12.160 --> 01:19:15.960
saying, but he's whispering from heaven, and he's trying to show

1219
01:19:15.960 --> 01:19:19.960
you that even leading you here is a part of his protection and

1220
01:19:19.960 --> 01:19:24.120
his provision for you, and that he isn't going to let you down,

1221
01:19:24.120 --> 01:19:27.560
he's not going to let you drop. I don't know why I keep feeling

1222
01:19:27.560 --> 01:19:30.360
led to say that. So for whatever it's worth something in the

1223
01:19:30.360 --> 01:19:34.120
spirit, that that feeling of that let down someone letting

1224
01:19:34.120 --> 01:19:40.320
you fall. And so, as you're unpacking that more with the

1225
01:19:40.320 --> 01:19:44.120
Lord, I also encourage you, and I give this assignment to anyone

1226
01:19:44.120 --> 01:19:46.280
that wants to take it, but I'm going to give it to Daphne,

1227
01:19:46.280 --> 01:19:52.000
first, that you would practice asking people for help in the

1228
01:19:52.000 --> 01:19:59.160
next few weeks. Men and women, even when you know that you can

1229
01:19:59.160 --> 01:20:00.080
do it yourself.

1230
01:20:00.640 --> 01:20:07.280
that you would ask people to help you. I've given this before. I've given it as a whole

1231
01:20:07.280 --> 01:20:12.480
group before, so anybody can take it. Whoever needs to practice this, you know who you are.

1232
01:20:12.480 --> 01:20:17.200
All of you lovely ladies know who you are. You need to practice letting people help you,

1233
01:20:17.840 --> 01:20:23.680
because here's the thing. Men that are healthy, that have the three Ms, mature, marriage-minded,

1234
01:20:23.680 --> 01:20:31.760
and masculine, like to be chivalrous. And guess what comes with chivalry? They want to help you.

1235
01:20:32.560 --> 01:20:37.440
My husband, every time I tell him something that I'm frustrated about or upset, he wants to fix

1236
01:20:37.440 --> 01:20:41.520
it, you all. And I have to remind him, babe, you don't got to fix this. Just listen right now,

1237
01:20:41.520 --> 01:20:48.800
okay? And then sometimes it's the, he literally races me to the door so that he can open the door

1238
01:20:48.800 --> 01:20:57.440
for me. And, you know, dropping me off at the hotel door or, you know, carrying my bags for me.

1239
01:20:57.440 --> 01:21:03.680
He doesn't, like, I don't carry my food to the car, you all, when I have leftovers. Like, that's how

1240
01:21:03.680 --> 01:21:12.400
much he wants to be chivalrous. Can I carry my own food to the car? Absolutely. Does it feel weird

1241
01:21:12.480 --> 01:21:18.800
to not do it sometimes? Absolutely. Because I can do it myself. And I was a go-getter. I've

1242
01:21:18.800 --> 01:21:24.880
had to provide for myself most of my life outside of the assistance of my grandparents and some of

1243
01:21:24.880 --> 01:21:30.560
what my mom could do as a single mom of four kids that went through massive trauma over and over and

1244
01:21:30.560 --> 01:21:37.200
over again. Our family just got knocked around like crazy. And so I was the baby. And so as the

1245
01:21:37.200 --> 01:21:46.720
baby, I didn't get a lot of attention. I learned at an early age that I can't rely on people. I have

1246
01:21:46.720 --> 01:21:53.840
to do it myself. But God didn't want me to have that as my core message the rest of my life. And

1247
01:21:53.840 --> 01:21:59.840
so I want to encourage Daphne and anyone else to come out of agreement and alignment with those

1248
01:21:59.840 --> 01:22:06.960
lies because you don't have to do it yourself. There are going to be people that will come into

1249
01:22:06.960 --> 01:22:12.240
your life that are going to love you and they will come through for you in this next season.

1250
01:22:12.240 --> 01:22:16.960
Remember, we're in the season of upgrade. The winds of change are blowing. And I don't think it's a

1251
01:22:16.960 --> 01:22:22.560
mistake. I don't know. It looks like you've got some hearts or leaves blowing on that tree in your

1252
01:22:22.560 --> 01:22:27.600
background. And I don't think that's a coincidence. So I want you to kind of take note of that.

1253
01:22:28.800 --> 01:22:33.120
I think that's a sign for you that the winds of change are in your life. Even if you've had that

1254
01:22:33.120 --> 01:22:38.480
up for 10 years, God is pointing that out to me multiple times tonight in your background.

1255
01:22:38.480 --> 01:22:44.400
And I didn't even think of it earlier. So thank you for sharing. That was really great

1256
01:22:45.600 --> 01:22:49.520
and really, really brave. I know how much it takes for y'all to share. So I appreciate that.

1257
01:22:49.520 --> 01:22:54.640
But pray into those things that I mentioned, okay? Yeah, because the mindset stays there,

1258
01:22:54.640 --> 01:22:58.800
you know, because you like, you know, the second you try to trust somebody

1259
01:22:59.760 --> 01:23:05.120
and they mess up again, you know, like the mindset goes.

1260
01:23:05.120 --> 01:23:07.440
Because you don't have it down in here yet.

1261
01:23:07.440 --> 01:23:12.480
Yeah. Right. But it actually happens. It continues to happen. Like,

1262
01:23:13.120 --> 01:23:16.960
I'll just give you a real quick example. I mean, like I trusted somebody to fix

1263
01:23:16.960 --> 01:23:20.720
my exercise bike pedal, you know, three times later.

1264
01:23:22.560 --> 01:23:25.040
It's because that healing's not happened in your heart.

1265
01:23:25.520 --> 01:23:30.000
Three times later after trusting them to fix it. You know what I mean? Like I'm sitting there going.

1266
01:23:31.360 --> 01:23:37.280
It's because ladies, we draw this stuff to ourselves like magnets when we're not healed.

1267
01:23:37.280 --> 01:23:41.120
Okay. And because that's the lie you believe. And even right now,

1268
01:23:41.120 --> 01:23:43.520
you're struggling to not partner with it tonight.

1269
01:23:44.080 --> 01:23:48.800
Right. Which I mean, I understand that. And it does like, I know it in my head that I got to

1270
01:23:48.800 --> 01:23:53.920
stop believing it. But it's got to get down here. And the only way it's going to get down here is

1271
01:23:53.920 --> 01:24:00.080
for God to go back to those core memories and places that you were wounded in and heal those

1272
01:24:00.080 --> 01:24:05.760
areas. That's genuinely how this stuff changes, ladies. Because transforming and renewing our

1273
01:24:05.760 --> 01:24:11.600
minds isn't just like we're being brainwashed to believe something different or switching

1274
01:24:11.600 --> 01:24:18.720
our thoughts. We have to have transformation in our soul, in our heart, deep down inside.

1275
01:24:19.520 --> 01:24:24.160
And so that's where why we encourage you all when you're in this program. I'm going to go ahead and

1276
01:24:24.160 --> 01:24:27.520
mute you, Daphne, just because I got a little bit more content to get through before we close

1277
01:24:27.520 --> 01:24:35.280
tonight. Okay. Thank you so much for sharing all that. So as we're healing a little bit more and a

1278
01:24:35.280 --> 01:24:38.640
little bit more and a little bit more, ladies, you're going to start to feel some of those

1279
01:24:38.640 --> 01:24:43.440
things shifting where you do struggle right now to believe in the positive. And you know,

1280
01:24:43.440 --> 01:24:47.040
we know, like she's saying, we know the things that we need to think or live in,

1281
01:24:47.040 --> 01:24:51.680
but it is hard. There's that tension, that tension that you're going to feel sometimes because

1282
01:24:52.240 --> 01:24:56.880
the changing and the transformation, just like metamorphosis, think about that.

1283
01:24:57.920 --> 01:24:59.840
The caterpillar goes into the

1284
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:06.920
Into the cocoon and it's fighting if someone cuts that cocoon open guess what the butterfly dies

1285
01:25:08.360 --> 01:25:11.540
But it has to go all the way through that whole process

1286
01:25:12.400 --> 01:25:18.520
So that it can become the butterfly. So that's the process that you all are in right now. You're in the cocoon

1287
01:25:18.920 --> 01:25:22.400
like God's trying to transform you and heal you and

1288
01:25:22.960 --> 01:25:30.000
Minister to you and love on you and in areas of your heart in life that haven't been loved on in quite some time

1289
01:25:30.920 --> 01:25:37.020
Because guess what happens ladies, especially when when trauma and pain happens we put walls up

1290
01:25:37.720 --> 01:25:40.760
We don't mean to it just subconsciously happens

1291
01:25:41.560 --> 01:25:47.320
But the walls are gonna keep God out and it's gonna keep truth out. And so we have to ask the Holy Spirit

1292
01:25:48.000 --> 01:25:51.920
Jesus Christ and God the Father to help us to take those walls down

1293
01:25:53.000 --> 01:25:58.040
Healthy people who walk in victory don't try to control other people. They don't try to control situations

1294
01:25:58.120 --> 01:26:04.240
They know it doesn't work and it's not their job. We can only control ourselves ladies, okay

1295
01:26:05.440 --> 01:26:07.440
We can't control anybody else

1296
01:26:08.360 --> 01:26:12.200
What areas of your life do you struggle to let go of control?

1297
01:26:12.200 --> 01:26:15.940
I want you to be thinking about these and make notes tonight throughout the week

1298
01:26:16.320 --> 01:26:22.040
Do you struggle to let go of controlling people? Do you struggle to let go of trying to control places?

1299
01:26:22.440 --> 01:26:23.960
things

1300
01:26:23.960 --> 01:26:25.960
Perceptions. What do I mean by that?

1301
01:26:26.360 --> 01:26:28.360
Perceptions people have of you

1302
01:26:28.800 --> 01:26:32.960
Do you have to be the perfect mom? Do you have to be the boss, babe?

1303
01:26:33.160 --> 01:26:36.880
Do you have to like whatever the perfect thing is?

1304
01:26:38.440 --> 01:26:42.240
Perfect daughter perfect sister. I don't know perfect Christian

1305
01:26:42.920 --> 01:26:49.600
What are these perceptions that you really struggle to let go of control of and then outcomes?

1306
01:26:50.440 --> 01:26:53.920
Someone wrote that earlier, you know when you want a certain outcome, yeah

1307
01:26:53.920 --> 01:27:00.360
it's tough to not feel like you want to control that situation and manipulate it in some way even if it's

1308
01:27:01.520 --> 01:27:02.920
passively

1309
01:27:02.920 --> 01:27:08.720
We want to let go and let God come in and work in those situations work in our life work in the lives of other

1310
01:27:08.720 --> 01:27:15.120
People are you currently trying to control things to avoid pain to avoid getting hurt because you're afraid of loss

1311
01:27:15.120 --> 01:27:17.880
Which is actually what Daphne hit on when she was talking

1312
01:27:18.640 --> 01:27:20.480
Trying to avoid pain

1313
01:27:20.480 --> 01:27:27.720
So we just don't ask anybody for help because even recently she had another situation where she's asking him for help and it's not working

1314
01:27:28.360 --> 01:27:30.360
It's not working

1315
01:27:30.640 --> 01:27:32.640
but again

1316
01:27:32.920 --> 01:27:36.960
We have to lean away from that stuff and say, okay, even though

1317
01:27:37.600 --> 01:27:39.880
Satan I know this situations happening right now

1318
01:27:39.880 --> 01:27:42.440
I trust that God is going to send

1319
01:27:42.880 --> 01:27:43.640
people in

1320
01:27:43.640 --> 01:27:48.720
Situations into my life in the future where I'm gonna ask for help and they're gonna be able to help me and they're gonna have

1321
01:27:48.720 --> 01:27:52.960
The tools to be able to help me and they're gonna be able to do anything above and beyond, you know

1322
01:27:52.960 --> 01:27:59.800
Where we really again it's but how can I believe those things now you all it's because I've done the heart healing

1323
01:28:00.160 --> 01:28:05.720
Y'all I've been walking this for three and a half years just in this program alone almost four

1324
01:28:06.280 --> 01:28:11.800
Okay, so the victories I have now I don't necessarily expect you all to be where I am today

1325
01:28:12.320 --> 01:28:15.280
But y'all can get a glimpse of progress now

1326
01:28:15.280 --> 01:28:16.880
You didn't know me four years ago

1327
01:28:16.880 --> 01:28:21.280
but I can tell you that these are the kind of mindsets I had to come out of and

1328
01:28:21.920 --> 01:28:23.920
It does take time it does

1329
01:28:24.440 --> 01:28:27.880
But every step we take forward is progress. It's a win

1330
01:28:27.880 --> 01:28:31.360
It's a victory and we can celebrate those every step of the way

1331
01:28:31.360 --> 01:28:37.480
Celebrate those every step of the way. Are you trying to keep people where you want them so they can't hurt you?

1332
01:28:40.040 --> 01:28:42.720
Doing this is not living abundantly

1333
01:28:44.080 --> 01:28:47.720
the only thing we can control are our beliefs our

1334
01:28:49.520 --> 01:28:51.520
Responses

1335
01:28:52.040 --> 01:28:53.800
Responses versus reactions

1336
01:28:53.800 --> 01:28:58.680
Keep in mind a reaction is like when people are volcanic like they get really mad out of nowhere

1337
01:28:58.960 --> 01:29:03.360
Or they get triggered and they just you know react about a situation

1338
01:29:03.360 --> 01:29:09.440
no, we want to be in the response zone responses come from a place of love and

1339
01:29:10.320 --> 01:29:14.800
Roots into the Lord and his gentleness and his kindness

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Can we feel hurt or anger, of course if there's a situation that happens that hurts you yes

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But that doesn't mean we should

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Exact vengeance on somebody with our words and our

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Reactions we can still respond to people that hurt us from a place of love in the Lord

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okay, and

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Then also boundaries we are able to set healthy boundaries

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We don't want to go overboard with boundaries though ladies because then that becomes a form of self-protection

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So one of the things I pray a lot in every area of my life is Lord help me to have balance

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Help me to live in balance in these situations in these dynamics

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when I remind you to

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lean into being God defended and embraced by his love.

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Isaiah 23, six says this,

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you will keep him in perfect peace

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whose minds are steadfast,

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which means stayed upon you,

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stayed upon the Lord because they trust in you.

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So I wanna encourage you ladies tonight,

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as we start to close,

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to yield control and wave the white flag

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that you would give in,

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that you will let go

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and you would trust the Lord

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to bring forth all of his promises in your life.

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And I really wanna just really quickly,

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before we close,

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I wanna bring up our activation for tonight.

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Two activations, I already told you one,

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the negativity fast.

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So remember, really watching what you're thinking about,

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what you're saying, what you're listening to,

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what you're taking in through your eyes

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and protecting yourself from negativity

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over these next several weeks.

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And let's post in the group

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as you guys are experiencing some shifts

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and some changes because of this,

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we'd love to hear what you have to say.

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Here's the second one.

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We're gonna call this letting go activation.

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I touched on it briefly last night

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during the prophetic ministry night,

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but this is how we started.

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Write a list of the things

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that you're gonna let go of, okay?

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So make a list of all the things

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that you're gonna choose to let go of in this season.

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You know, the pain, the hurt, the resentments,

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the people that said they were gonna do things for us

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and didn't, let's forgive those people and let them go.

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All the things, all the things, ladies,

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but let's pray into this and ask the Lord,

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Father, what do you want me to let go of in this season?

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What do you want me to,

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where do you want me to let go of control?

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Where do you want me to wave the white flag

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and surrender to you and write that on a paper?

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And I gave you guys kind of two options,

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but you can always come up with your own.

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So this is don't, you can do whatever you feel led to do,

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but these are just some options that I'm gonna give you.

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After you've written that list,

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when you're in a safe place to do this, you can burn it.

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You can tear it up.

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I also love when ladies do a balloon release.

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It doesn't mean you have to attach the paper to your balloon

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but I would love to encourage you to get some balloons

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that represent that thing that you are letting go of.

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Okay, and pray before you actually burn these things,

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before you rip them up, before you let the balloons go

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and really be in that place of Lord,

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I am choosing to move forward with my life.

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No matter what has happened in the past,

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I wanna move forward and I choose to let go

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of these situations, these people, these things,

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whatever it is the Lord leads you to write on your paper

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and then to release that and let it go.

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And I wanna share this picture with you.

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This is Yamina, she's a part of our community.

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She's one of the leaders in our community in phase three.

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This was when she did her let go activation.

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And she actually just did this when she went through

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our peer coach training just a few months ago.

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And this was four balloons chosen on purpose.

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The color blue also meant something.

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She was releasing some struggles she was having connected

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to losing her former husband and feeling guilty

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for wanting to move forward into a new relationship.

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Her former husband passed away and she loved him.

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They had a great marriage.

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And so for those of you that have been in that situation

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and had something similar happen,

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I wanna encourage you to look at Yamina in this picture

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and see the joy that she's experiencing.

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This is genuine and God really set her free

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and did an amazing work in her that day.

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Laura, who's a part of this community as well,

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also did the balloon release recently as she forgave her ex.

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That was something she was really struggling with,

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forgave her father.

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And this is amazing, it's powerful.

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And sometimes ladies, the reason we do these activations

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is to partner our faith with action,

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taking action on things and really allowing God

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to help us let that stuff go,

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have a visual and physical experience in that moment.

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I'm gonna go ahead and close this out.

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Thank you for everyone who shared.

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I really, really appreciate you all.

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Again, continue to pray into the things that were mentioned.

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And ladies, just as a reminder,

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anytime you're on these sessions,

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01:34:33.240 --> 01:34:35.360
if something's resonating with you,

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I really wanna encourage you to go ahead

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and grab it for yourself and lean into that for yourself.

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01:34:42.000 --> 01:34:44.080
Same thing on prophetic nights or prayer.

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01:34:44.080 --> 01:34:45.720
If we're praying over somebody else

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01:34:45.720 --> 01:34:49.680
and we're giving a word and that's really speaking to you,

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01:34:49.680 --> 01:34:52.280
just, Lord, yes, I received that for myself.

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And I'm gonna lean into that.

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Same thing with the coaching.

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I see your message, Sylvia.

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Yes, we do. Right now, I am not taking any clients one-on-one. I used to do quite a bit of that, but because I'm trying to grow our coaching team, that's kind of where I'm at right now, but we do have some coaches that do one-on-one heartwork sessions that we are working on getting them set up to start doing that.

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They're not quite set up yet, but if that's something you feel that you need, you can email in, but I really want to encourage you all to take full advantage of the group setting as much as possible before you lean into that.

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I know a lot of people, they're nervous to let their stuff out of the bag, so to speak, but I will tell you that if you all will lean into sharing in the group, it really can create a lot of breakthrough for you. It really, really can.

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We're so glad that you're here. You're welcome, Karen. We love you guys. I'm going to pray. Father, thank you so much for everything that you've done tonight. Thank you for all that you're going to continue to do in the days ahead.

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God, thank you for, yes, Lord, being the great physician. We thank you for placing the balm of Gilead upon every wound, upon every trauma, upon every broken area.

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God, that you would bring healing and restoration to the forefront in their lives. God, that you would make all the crooked places straight, that you would, as we talked about earlier, take the ashes and turn them into beauty.

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God, that you would fill every crack and crevice in our foundations with gold, the glory of heaven. God, that you would transform us from the inside out.

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We thank you that you administer to every one of us, ladies that are here live, that watch the replay, that, Lord, are in the group, even if they can't be here.

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Lord, we thank you that you administer to them while they're sleeping. God, give them Salem rest, that you would give them dreams and visions and understanding of you.

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God, we thank you for supernatural healing and divine intervention in their lives. In Jesus' name, amen, amen, amen.

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God bless you all. I'll see you all in the group. Love you. Bye.