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Hey Jess, how you doing? Hey Tom it's good I couldn't get my audio to connect
is Ray was supposed to let me borrow his office. But guess
what?
Oh, congratulations on all your recent closings.
Oh, thank you so much. Yeah, it's. It's an interesting
market we're in right now.
Yes.
Hey, Leslie, how are you?
Yeah.
It was like post election, everyone had certainty, so they
just started making offers like crazy. And then it's kind of
been at a standstill. Because we have so much inventory here.
It's it's crazy.
But
yeah, and then I noticed the rates went down. So that was
great.
Yeah, that'll definitely help. For sure. For sure. For sure.
I like your hat, Leslie.
Very nice. Very nice.
So maybe we'll give it like one more minute.
Yeah, I'm never the first one here. What's going on?
Everyone's taken a day.
Yeah.
Well, I have to send my driveway and my sander took a day so I'm
not happy.
Oh, no.
Yeah.
Just a little over here to fix it.
Guess what? We're past the 11th. And you're still here. So I
guess everything's going well.
Yeah, right. Nothing. It's been nothing since.
Can we joke about that now? Is it too?
I hope so. Okay, good.
I'd like to say I made everything out of nothing. That
would be great.
Well, our prayers are working then. And that's, yeah, that's
it matters.
That's the whole thing.
Hey, Lisa.
Good day. How are you lovely lady?
I'm great. I just love that. canvas behind you. What is that?
Is that a blanket?
It's it's, it's, it's a scarf I purchased in Cancun.
That's so cool.
One of the street vendors had it. I'm like, Oh, I gotta have
it. And it works. Perfect. Thank you.
That is so awesome.
So today, you know, I was just really prompted to put it back
on. Put this session back on, on you all that are attending.
And have you walk through just to start some break some things
that have shifted results wise in your life. And some things
that are still a work in progress. So, Lisa, since you're
big on my screen, maybe I'll start with you and very
colorful, and very patriotic. I love it.
Where do you see God showing up in your life? In a big way?
Where have you seen a major shift? And where do you feel
like he hasn't answered you yet?
He's shown up in a big way while one Well, I won't go back 12
months, I'm going to focus on right now.
Over the last couple of weeks, I have. And I'll be honest,
Jessica, it was when you it was, I think it was the last
time we we got together, it started. Because you were so
authentic and honest. And I just needed that slap in the head and
go at least and it wasn't a slap in the head. It wasn't bad. It
was a good slap.
As to where I really am. And I've been a believer. For gosh,
it's been 20 years. And yes, it's a roller coaster. And when
we drop the ball, and forget that he's in charge, and that we
can do all things through him with him, because he has given
us the Holy Spirit in us. We've got that strength. So the Oh,
woe is me pity party doesn't need to be. And just knowing
that I knew it, but just having I guess having you be
accountable, me be accountable and you speaking life into me
is what you did. It was it was tough love. It hurt at first,
but I'm so thankful for it.
And by that happening, that experience, I have taken charge of my life and I'm doing
lots of different things.
I'm connecting with the Chamber of Commerce here.
I was going to ask you, since our last meeting, how that's going with you getting out into
the community and how you're feeling, where you see God placing people in your life strategically.
Yes.
When I started a new business and in addition, I'm focusing on a second business, I've got
to focus on one or two things max.
I was trying to do too many things at once and that's not humanly possible.
And by putting a stake in the ground saying, okay, this is what I'm going to do.
I'm still searching for help to start an LLC.
I've gone to the Florida website, reached out to SCORE.
They're not real quick.
Did you reach out to Ray?
No, I didn't.
I probably ought to, huh?
Yeah, you definitely should.
Okay.
So I'm like, oh, he's got, we get this mindset, he's got enough on his plate.
No, he says he's there for us for a reason.
Do it.
So thank you for that.
God told me to do it.
And I'm like, oh, not now.
So yes, I will reach out to him and I'm excited about it.
So yeah, I've gone to storage facilities for my decluttering business and actually woke
up three nights ago and God said, you need to spell your business like this because it's
clutter free, made easy, Ray helped me with that and clutter free was already taken while
God woke me up three days ago and said, put it with a K.
Your last name starts with a K and so does the kingdom, start it with a K.
I go to find the website, it's available.
Boom.
Love it.
Oh my gosh, I love it.
So it's clutter free with a K.
And so that's good.
Things that I'm working on are.
Well, first, before we go there, let's just acknowledge you for following through with
the instructions.
I acknowledge you for that because being uncomfortable in your own skin, going to the chamber of
commerce, really feeling settled in a place and feeling like a place that you can call
at home.
I know it was very uncomfortable.
And so I acknowledge you for making those first steps.
And with that, obviously some different things are showing up in your life and I just want
to make sure you're acknowledging how incredible that is and where God is showing up to give
you the name to now you have a, I hear the focus and clarity in your vision now that
I didn't hear before.
And so, and Ray does this for so many people as well.
And that when we, when we free up one area of our life where we kind of close the door
on one area of our life and know that we're on the right path, there are other ones open
up, but we can't get to that other open door until that is closed or that is, or we've
gone through the learning lesson that he wants us to go through.
So I'm so excited for you.
I hear the clarity.
I know that this is your year for this.
And also you love it, which is so awesome.
Okay.
So now let's shift into where you're working on things.
I'm working at, and there's, there's a couple of things that I'm working on and ironically
one is simplifying my life here because I'm, my dream is to live in an RV for short term.
I love that.
Scared to do it.
I mean, I'm, I'm like freaking out going, no, it's not now.
And I'm guys like, you said you wanted it.
Let's do this.
So I'm going through everything in this house that I've brought with me from Texas.
And I think I'm going to close to sell, sell everything I own just because, I mean, I I'll
need it till the end of November when my lease is up.
But my goal is at the end of November to get in a, like they call it a class, be like
a van style.
That way I can drive anywhere.
And so what is holding you, what, what is the conflict there or is it just an internal
conflict that you're working through?
That's an internal conflict because I've got some, Hmm, I'm going to get emotional.
It's okay.
I have some antiques that are my great grandmothers and, and it's that emotional attachment that
if I get rid of them, I get rid of her.
But I know that's not true.
I know that's not true.
And I've got to get past that, that grief of losing something that was, I mean, it smelled
like her house still and I've had it for 20 years and it's just it reminds me of going to seeing her.
Are these furniture pieces Lisa? Yes one's a secretary desk that's it's just ornate with
mirrors and hand carved wood it's beautiful and I've got two um mission rocking chairs
that are solid oak and I love wood so it's it's part of me's like I don't and like I could put
them in storage I guess or maybe I don't want to put them in storage though well there's that
there's a few ways to look at this um obviously logically we know what you know that that has
nothing to do with where she is and you know that she would want you to follow your your dream of
of doing this and obviously God is calling you to do that maybe to move around and meet people
yes so a suggestion and something that that came to mind is what about taking a piece of the
furniture maybe you know just carving a piece or having a handle of a drawer or something
taking a piece of the furniture and keeping that close to you just for a subconscious and and um
um just an emotional memory yeah and you say that and as you were speaking that it was
I have a photo of my great-grandmother standing in front of her house and you can see the two
rocking chairs on her porch beautiful so I don't really need a physical anything I've got the
picture I can scan it and make it digital yeah technology today I want to point out something
that um that we just this kind of exercise that we just went through because it's I think it's
very valuable for everyone including myself on this call um you know I talk a lot about this in
in our speeches at different events and things but giving giving yourself permission
is one of the hardest things that we can do and so even sometimes God tells us it's up to you
you know this is where I have free will for you it's up to you it's your choice either way is
going to be okay sometimes we have that green light and it's so hard for us to give ourselves
permission we look for permission from outside of ourselves in other people um you know from
from other circumstances and so I just want to point out that you didn't need my suggestion
to give yourself that permission you already had an idea of this photo and I'm sure you've
thought about it before but the fact that I was on this call and and said it to you just
reinforced okay I can move forward with this now and so it's really a call to arms to all
of us to remember that we don't have to do that yeah thank you and and myself included I'm preaching
to myself um we can step into this this space whenever we choose to when we feel it's right
so thank you for that thank you for opening up that discussion um and thank you for helping me
recognize that I don't need permission that's huge that is huge and it helps me keep and build
upon the confidence I used to have I know I have it it's in me and let's take charge and just rock
and roll rock and roll rock and roll rock and roll let's do this
doesn't that feel good it's that frequency you the energy within us when we do when we when we
get to that point that state of mind and it's it's all about energy at the root and it's yeah
jump up and down dance whatever I'm excited thank you and yeah I don't need permission
but I love you anyways well I love you too yes absolutely we can we can move forward with things
and sometimes like I've mentioned before God slams the door in our face but at least at least
we went for it you know we went for it and we found out oh that's not the right the right way
or it is either way we don't we don't need to seek permission outside of him and um outside
of ourselves so I appreciate you thank you Angela I don't know if you're on if you're
available to talk or not but I just got nudged to ask you the same question of where
have you seen God showing up in your life and
Where do you feel like there's still things you need to work on?
Thomas, I don't know how to make her bigger.
Poor Lisa is just right there with her big line.
Hey, hey everyone.
Wow, it's been, I can't believe all the things that have happened just in the short period of time of the year.
Just been really leaning in to listen to God like never before.
And just, it's been exciting.
So I've been in network marketing for 18 years at the top of one company.
And the last couple of years I've taken a hit and not at the top.
And just couldn't really get excited about it.
And I just, you know, so along came on January 11th, pretty much this other opportunity with a totally different category of product that doesn't compete with, you know, what I'm doing with the other one.
And I actually was invited to a small room with nine other scientists.
And I begrudgingly went, invited by basically a pastor that I let stay at my Airbnb.
So my Airbnb, I host pastors.
And anyway, I went there and these products so blew my mind.
I asked him if he would come and to church with me the next day because I knew my pastor needed to hear about them.
And well, so I actually asked him if he was a man of God.
I said, are you a man of faith?
And he said, he said, kind of.
And I said, well, would you go to church with me?
Because my pastor needs to hear about these products.
Anyway, he said, yes.
I said, full disclosure.
My church is four hours long.
He went and he received.
So this owner of the school.
So you met through someone staying at your Airbnb, a pastor staying at your Airbnb.
Yeah.
So I always wanted to be the shoot of my woman.
I don't know if you guys know what that means.
But the shoot of my woman would has, you know, always had a room to house Elijah.
And so and just just so I've hosted in house evangelists from all over the world in my home.
And many, many times I've kicked people.
I kick my kids out of the room and different things.
And I just really wanted to have a heart to really give people in past and, you know, the ministry a respite and just appreciation from buying them new pajamas to just, you know, wanting to try to make them feel special.
And so through this salon and spa that we purchased, I have this amazing Airbnb that we created called the blessing.
And so now I can do it outside of my home.
And so they were staying free there and they introduced us to a product that honestly I was kind of ticked off that they were telling me about another product because I have been in network marketing for 18 years and I don't want another product.
If you get when putting down.
Right. And when you get invited to those things, you know, you know what that.
Yeah.
Wine and dine you for no reason.
Yeah.
So basically this product is even helping people who are vaccine injured, which is a whole nother thing.
So I knew my pastor had to hear about it.
And so the chance of me actually getting this scientist to meet my pastor was zero to nil, if you know what I mean, on a Sunday.
But I just felt the Holy Spirit say, ask him to church.
So he said he would go to me with me to church.
I said, full disclosure, my church is four hours.
He said, that's fine.
He answered the altar call.
You guys.
This guy of this global company answer the altar call.
Okay, this is a very confidential information.
And after church, I just felt like the Holy Spirit said, go, like, go talk to your pastor.
And usually he disappears immediately.
I mean, he's it's a it's a big church, you know, and.
He spent eight hours with us.
He's like, this is exactly what this is exactly the enzyme I've been looking for.
And it's good for gardens.
So he sent us out to his garden.
He has a big garden that God told him to do.
And anyway, long story short is since January 11, I have 40 people on my team.
I have I'm planning a team meeting on the 15th of March with a totally different company.
I totally kept it separate from my other network marketing company because, one, I'm not going
after any of the people that are already on my team, and I'm so excited about this new
product and I just couldn't get excited about my old company.
So that's been amazing.
I can't even tell you.
It's just like I can't even believe I'm sitting right here where I'm at right now just because
I could have told you, if somebody would have told me that this would have been the case,
I would have told you that you're crazy.
So that's been exciting and I'm excited about what the product is doing and just I have
a new burst of energy of life around all that.
Seems to be a common theme in here.
Yeah.
Can I just acknowledge too that you were, what if you weren't obedient and didn't go
talk to the pastor on that Sunday?
Oh, I just, I can't even imagine.
You know, our pastor, he just, to spend eight hours with this man was a gift just in itself,
you know, but I just, I honestly, I look back at it and I just think I can't believe that
that happened.
And so, yeah, so it's been super exciting that.
And then we've got other really exciting things happening with, I don't know if you remember,
I was seeking God for wisdom on what to do with the cleaning company in DC and God told
me to do this contracting officer.
So we're just putting the final numbers in on that bid and, you know, just continuing
to pray.
You know, God opened the door.
I believe we're going to walk through it because that's just, that doesn't, that does not happen
you guys for, you know, a contracting officer just to set aside something, a multimillion
dollar deal for cleaning the, the army base in Fort Belvoir, Virginia.
So and then we've got some other real estate things that are really exciting and also really
crazy going on.
I had a fight with one of my contractors, two of my contractors were fighting the other
day and I felt the Holy Spirit just said, get in the middle, get in the middle of these
two guys are about ready to like throw punches.
And I just said, stop in Jesus name.
And one, they never heard me speak loud and two, they just, they all, these three huge
men just stopped and looked at me with these big eyes.
And I just told one, I said, Eric, you go home.
You know, these two guys, you finish the work.
And I just said, I shared the gospel with them and it was wonderful.
And they all thanked me for praying over them.
And it's been a tiring couple of days, but God's been moving.
And so yeah, just asking God for continued wisdom.
And with that, my son was selected in Bible college to go with nine other men to Daytona
right now.
And they are with the Jerry Savelle Ministries to, you know, preach the gospel to all these,
you know, motorcycle people, Harley-Davidson, it's a Harley-Davidson conference.
So pray for my son, Joe, he's, you know, he's 19 and he's an old spirit, but you know,
he put on dad's Harley hat and jacket, and it felt like he was David going to fight Goliath.
And he said to me, he goes, mom, do I look like a Harley man?
And he actually looked like a boy just in two big clothes, you know.
And I said, you look like a Harley man.
And anyway, he called me last night and he said, mom, I've never been so, I guess so
disrespected, you know, because he's sharing gospel, obviously, and like he's never been
so attacked in his life.
And so I just am praying for him.
So that's what I got to share.
So God's moving and, you know, my husband's moving way too fast because he wants to buy
a restaurant and we still have this medical building we're looking at purchasing.
And I'm like, okay, God, I know you want us to fund the end time harvest, and I just want
to be obedient.
I want to be pliable in your hands, and I know we can do all things through Christ who
strengthens us.
So strengthen me, Lord, and, you know, amen.
So.
Absolutely.
Well, we'll definitely pray for Joe and wow, is that going to accelerate him in his life?
He's 19.
Yeah.
He's a cool kid.
He's going to run through brick walls.
So, but you know that this is just ultimately, yeah, that's putting him through to really
just sharpen him to have a warrior spirit.
And that was something that I got by, I don't know if Ray, I'm sure Ray has shared the Brilliant
app with you all with Graham Cook, but it's Brilliant Plus app.
It's gotten me through some really hard times.
It is absolutely incredible.
And they do crafted prayers on there where he crafts a prayer, helps you to craft a prayer
around a, an area of your life that is, you know, that is circumstantially struggling.
And I did one around my children because I just felt like my daughter was just lacking
joy.
Like there was something attacking her or something, just, she was just lacking joy and the word
that kept coming up.
And I feel like it's the same word for your son is warrior, warrior spirit and praying
through that and for that warrior spirit and, you know, death and life are in the power
of the tongue that just kept coming to me and praying over their tongue, praying over
their speech, praying over their proclamation.
And in doing that, it literally changes everything.
And I, I don't want to get political on here.
Okay.
I just want to share something that was a very, very important lesson from what you
just said.
And it brought it up to me, you know, watching the, um, state of the union last night and
just listening to the way that Trump speaks.
Okay.
Which some people can't stand.
I get that.
But one of the things that we've been going through Ray and I with Graham cook is the
power of proclamation and saying it out loud.
And it hit me like a ton of bricks when I heard that state of the union last night,
because to, to people who don't understand this, he's, he can sound very arrogant.
I mean, we can all agree on that.
He can sound arrogant and he can sound like, you know, nutty sometimes, but man, is there
no one who proclaims what he wants and how amazing it is and going to be then Trump,
his power of proclamation is incredible.
And we can all learn from that power of proclamation in your life, whether you agree with him or
not that proclamation he follows through on in a lot of ways.
And he's got to be one of the most proclaiming humans on the planet that I've ever heard.
And look at what he's accomplished.
I mean, love him or hate him.
He's the president of the United States proclamation.
And I don't think anybody on here hates him, but I'm just, you know, it's, it's so powerful.
So you, you just speak, you speak that life over everything that you want and look at
what's happening in your life to who much is given, much is required.
And because of your obedience and what you're following through on.
And so I'll ask all of you where in the past, have you not been obedient?
Because sometimes we can sit in our current circumstance and where we are and think, how
in the world did we get here?
But it, but through prayer and asking those questions, we can see exactly how we got here.
And it's always through non-obedience whether, and we may not have recognized it at the time.
It's not to point blame or guilt, and God doesn't want that for us at all.
It's to show us, okay, moving forward, if you follow my path and you follow the obedience
and where I've called you and you make these different decisions, your life will be accelerated
and will look very, very different.
And so I commend your obedience and it's inspiring and everything that you're doing, you can
feel it in your energy and how you show up and just, you know, that nothing is too powerful
for Christ and just speaking over that and speaking into that, that power of proclamation
is real and it's important and it's important for our kids too.
And I mentioned one thing, so myself and another gal in my community, we started a Bible study
that meets every Tuesday.
and there's about 50 women, people are so hungry.
But we were talking about Zachariah
and how the angel came and said that,
Elizabeth was gonna have a child
and he was speaking doubt.
And so, the interesting thing is,
is that God muted Zachariah,
not to really punish him,
but really so he wouldn't speak against the plan of God.
So think about God, our words are so important
that God had to mute someone he was gonna use
so he wouldn't speak against where God wanted him to go.
And there's a scripture that says,
"'God, stand guard over the door of my mouth.'"
And that's a constant proclamation for me
because I think some of the most powerful places we can be
is sometimes in our silence.
If we can't speak anything,
that's going to propel where we wanna go.
So, amen.
Absolutely.
And what power in that lesson, right?
In that oftentimes, not sometimes,
oftentimes when you proclaim with your mouth,
what's the first thought or the first feeling that comes up
when we proclaim something big with our mouth?
I don't wanna disappoint.
I don't wanna, I don't wanna,
I don't know if I can do that.
So following through with the thought
and the feeling behind that proclamation is also huge
and not caring what other people think about it,
not caring how we sound,
that we're proclaiming big things,
that we're making big promises to ourselves and to others.
Not caring about how other people think about that
because the only one who matters is,
the only judgment that matters is God's judgment.
And I just, I love that.
And I love that prayer.
God, stand guard over the power of my mouth.
Over the door of my,
I think it's the door of my lips or whatever.
But yeah, like stand there.
And I know we talked about crafted prayer,
but oh, for years I've had Jermaine Copeland's book
called The Power of, no, Prayers That Avail Much.
Oh, I think everybody should get that book.
So it's, she's not related to the other Copelands.
I know sometimes the Copelands can be,
but her name's Jermaine Copeland.
If you look on, you know, Amazon,
it's called The Prayers That Avail Much.
And basically it's maybe 200 crafted prayers
over fear, financing, mental health, trouble with marriage.
And then it just is a prayer.
And then it tells you exactly
where the scriptures come from.
And so I've used that book for years.
And I really feel like that book has been instrumental
in even teaching me how to pray.
Cause people are like, how do you know how to pray?
And I'm like, well, I didn't know how to pray.
I would just look up the topic
I was having a challenge with and just, you know,
God says we need to send it out
because our words will not come back void,
but they'll go out and accomplish
all that they're meant to do, but only if we send them out.
And so that is kind of a cheat sheet or cheat book
for sending out prayers for children, marriage, addiction.
So, yeah.
I wrote that down.
Awesome.
And I need a constant reminder of how important that is.
And I'll just say it, especially women, right?
Because men are very straightforward to the point
when women get together,
it's very easy to go down the rabbit hole
of proclaiming the wrong things with your mouth.
So it's really important to guard that.
Absolutely.
And speak life over it, over your life.
Thank you so much, Angela.
That was great.
My joy.
And this is what the book looks like.
Prayer Set Available.
It's beautiful.
It's a beautiful book.
Yeah, it's leather bound copy on Amazon, 20 bucks,
something like that.
They have different versions I just found out, Angela.
So I'm going to look into that.
Thank you.
Yeah, they're great.
Leslie, are you still there?
She's hiding.
Yeah, I am hiding, but.
Why?
You look so great in your hat.
Well, because it doesn't fix everything.
Oh my gosh, you're beautiful.
You're absolutely beautiful.
I mean it, here.
I, I, um, I'm definitely on the struggle bus.
I just had, uh, a healing retreat in Mexico that was great, but I feel like
I had a hard landing when I came home.
So I'm really struggling after that.
Um, just trying to find my way.
Do you want to share?
I don't know what, I don't know.
I don't know what's wrong.
Um, we have a great group of women there that, um, again, it was intense and,
uh, just more healing, more stuff coming out that you need to do to keep moving
forward, you know, it's, this has been like, it's three chapters, so this time
was chapter two and a lot of them aren't saying they're not going to go back for
chapter three, but the way I felt when I got home, I don't know how I can not go
back for chapter three to finish it because I'm still, I'm, I still feel, I
don't even know what I feel.
I feel stuck or I'm just unable to move forward properly, or I go forward and
then I do that, you know, I just, I'm going to do it and then I freeze and then
I'm going to do it and then I freeze.
And I know part of it is my act because my act says I can't do it.
And I fight that every day.
And I, if that isn't one of the worst acts you could ever have, I don't know
what is because everything you do or want to do, it comes, it just, it just
sits on you and makes you, makes me feel like, oh, that's a great idea.
No, I can't do it.
And I'm, I'm really struggling with fighting that.
And, you know, then I got sick too, and I came home from Mexico.
So that didn't help.
That kind of weighs everything down.
Well, and I don't think I'm, I don't think I'm trying hard enough to be close
to God because it's all new to me.
And I, I, I.
So what's coming to me is that you need to stop trying.
Stop trying.
What?
Just stop trying.
You're always trying.
And I always feel like I'm failing.
You're always trying.
Always trying to do something different.
Always trying to do more.
Always trying to be more, always trying to get more out of others.
Just.
Just stop trying and just start allowing.
Okay.
That's a thought.
I, I definitely want all of us.
We don't have to do it on the call, but I definitely want all of us after
the call to pray over Leslie, because I also think, you know, some of this
could definitely be spiritual.
I mean, everything is spiritual, right?
But, um, you know, when we are constantly striving for a goal that we don't
even know what that looks like, we just feel like we're not enough constantly.
That is a black hole that will suck us in every time.
And because you just got back from a healing retreat, some of these
emotions are coming out and this is actually a good thing.
You need to process them.
Don't make yourself wrong.
We're always making ourself wrong for this, uh, process them, get them out.
And don't make it about, you know, why you're not good enough.
Make it about how can I just allow what's happening to me to happen and,
and get through with God by my side and see what he has next for me.
And then be obedient when I, when I'm aware of it and I see it.
Cause I know you, you could see it.
I know you can, I know how intuitive you are.
I know how, um, I know what a gift you have for helping other people.
I can see it because of what you've been through and how you
have that passion to help women.
Um, I, I just really, really, really implore you to allow more in your life
and stop trying as much in your life.
And I really feel like that hits home for you.
It does.
But, you know, my background was being told I didn't never tried hard enough.
So I guess I'm an over-trier because of that.
And old thoughts are hard to get rid of. I'm working on it, but.
The old man is very hard to get rid of. Yeah.
And you can't be just like with what Lisa shared with
feeling like she doesn't have a home or a community last time.
It's very difficult for God to put you on a plan and a trajectory that goes quickly.
If you're not going to allow him to do it.
It. And that old man is extremely hard to get rid of.
Ask me how I know, because you always want to do it your own way.
Even when we know we shouldn't do it our own way, taking over and doing it our own way,
thinking we're not doing enough is such a trap from the enemy. It's such a trap.
So if you want to get on a financial plan, a business plan, a life plan,
a weight loss plan, a spiritual plan. Yeah. It's hard to do when you just want to create
the plan yourself and then back away from it because you know, it's not right anyway.
Something in your spirit is saying to you, Leslie,
I can't do this because this is not, this is in my own strength.
I can't do this in my own strength. Maybe it's not the right plan.
Maybe you just need to allow that plan to come forward.
But don't make it. It's funny in the, in the network marketing sector that I'm in it,
they tell you how to do everything and it doesn't align with, with how I help people. I, I just,
I have to wait for the ideas to come and, and I put forth what comes out of my heart and you can't,
you can't, it's not in a book. That's not in a book. It comes from here. It doesn't come from
pages, you know? So I'm kind of going against the sell, sell, sell thing because I'm sharing.
I'm not selling, I'm sharing. And it's really hard to be patient when you're sharing and telling
yourself that down the road, it will result. Cause you know, we want it yesterday. We all want it
yesterday. We just do. So I, I'm just, but I am going against the grain and I'm just,
when the idea comes, then I make a post and it's from the heart and that's how I have to do it.
It's the only way I know how, so. I'm not saying to keep, not keep showing up, by the way. No,
no, no, I know. Yeah. I, I, I just think showing up in a different way and what you just described
is not what, what you just described is not the emotions that I heard coming out from you
five minutes ago. Okay. So what you just described sounds very like you're, you're in flow,
like everything, you know, your, your actions are in flow. Everything is in flow,
but five minutes ago, you said, you know, basically I start things and I don't finish,
or I start this and I say, I can't do it. So I guess my question is, and I'm not making this
wrong. This is all good. My question is where, why is that? Where is that conflict?
I think consistency is drilled into our heads all the time. And if you don't have an idea all
the time, you're not consistent. And I can't have, they come when they come, the ideas come when
they come. So I'm beating myself up over lack of consistency that I really don't think I have
control over because when it comes to me, I do it. And when, when I do it, I make it the best
I make it the best that I can. So that has maximum impact to help people. You know,
I don't want to go out there and do this half ass thing for lack of better words. Sorry.
You know, just throw it out there. There's so much crap out there. I don't want it to be crap.
I want it to be quality. So what you're really suffering from is guilt and shame.
You're guilty and shame yourself constantly. Yeah. Yeah. That fits.
And that's hard on you. That's hard on your body. Oh yeah. Yeah. That's so hard on you.
And so Angela shared some prayers in the chat.
Yeah. I see that. I'm going to, I'm going to take pictures of them. Are they from that book?
Do we know?
Yes.
She said from the book.
Mm hmm.
Yeah.
Cause I wrote down that book too.
I need all the help I can get around prayers.
Well we all do.
And so I just, I really want to stress how important it is to put, to clarify what, what
is attacking you.
I feel like it's the enemy.
Well he's attacking you with guilt and shame to, to really dig into the right questions
around what you're, what you're feeling or what any of us are feeling, asking those questions
is very important because when we can pinpoint specifically, Lord, I cast out this guilt
and shame.
It is not from you.
That is from the enemy.
We have a target.
We have something to cast out of ourselves versus Lord, I don't know why I'm feeling
this way, but cast out, you know, the enemy specifically praying for guilt and shame to
leave now in the name of Jesus, because it is not you okay.
Filling you with the joy of the Holy spirit, filling you back up with peace, any fruit
of the spirit that you feel you're called to be filled with in that moment.
I think that's your prayer because from what, from, like I said, from what you shared at
the beginning to like, this is, this is what I'm, I've been doing.
I'm like, well, there's nothing wrong with what you've been doing.
Where, where is this coming from?
You know, it'd be one thing if you said, I'm not doing anything, I'm totally paralyzed.
I'm not doing anything.
Okay.
Well, there's, there's ways out of that, but just not making yourself wrong.
Just stop and stop.
Stop making yourself wrong.
And then see what plan comes through.
Yeah.
Because like you said, you know, we've talked about many plans on here, you know, financial
plans and, and different ways to shift money, to pray, pray over your business.
But if you have a step-by-step guide of how to do that, but it's not right for you and
called for your life, you're not, it's not what you should do.
Yeah.
And it does.
It just doesn't feel right.
Yeah.
And I have to do it the way, the way I'm all, I'm just going to say the way that I know
to do it from my heart, what has helped to heal me and what I know so many other women
out there need that they're just not getting.
And a lot of it is because they can't afford it.
So I'm giving it, I'm not, you know, the help that I give around healing from abuse is free
because not everybody can afford $150 an hour, you know?
So why wouldn't I share what I've learned that works just for the sake of sharing it?
So it's not just about selling products.
Absolutely.
Yeah.
Where, where have you seen God show up in a powerful way in your life recently?
I think, Oh, I know you're going to love this at the retreat.
I have to write this down because I think I almost forgot.
At the retreat, we went through what they call, what do they call them?
We give ourselves, no, jobs is not the right roles.
We assume roles in order to survive what we're going through.
And one of my roles was trophy partner, you had to be perfect all the time and, you know,
always do the right thing.
And I could never do it.
So I don't even know why he kept trying to pound it into my head, but anyways.
So we have to let go of these trope, these, the roles that we play and what scares you
about letting go of those roles because they've been part of your life for however long they've
been part of your life.
And for my life, they were 32 years.
There was a lot of them, people pleaser, all those things.
So we had to write down on this piece of paper that we ended up burning in a barrel.
So what makes you afraid?
And I sat back and I knew what my answer was.
And I was like, where did that come from?
I can't do it.
That's what my answer was.
And I was like, what is going on here?
Two worlds just collided this world.
And that, yeah, like it came, I've got chills thinking about it now.
It just came out of nowhere.
I went and showed the psychologist there.
I said, does this fit for me in your opinion?
She goes, absolutely.
I said, I can't even tell you where it came from.
You won't believe me, but she's Christian.
So we did talk about it afterwards.
And she said.
Oh wow, that's just so she said write it down we're gonna burn it tonight and we did so
I feel a little bit of freedom from it like I feel like I'm making gains but I guess I've
been in this place for so long I just want to be free so bad and just get on with it
that I just feel like I keep getting attacked and pushed back down and I don't want to anymore
I want to get out and go and just gets it's just hard to have it not happen as fast as
you need for it to to feel free I mean the clock's ticking man I'm 65 you know you look
incredible let's just start there yeah I mean any for anybody transitioning into the new
man is tough but for somebody who's been told by many people in their lives that they can't
do it because of how powerful you are and they know it's not true to bring you down
to where they want you to be your your body is physically addicted to I can't do it your
mind is physically addicted to I can't do it so your spirit and your soul have to take
over they have to start taking over and it's not going to be easy so it's not easy yeah
I implore you to just stay strong and pray through it and pray that guilt and shame off
of you and also pray the guilt and shame off of you that you feel when you are beating
yourself up again or saying you can't do it yeah I thought I was doing a lot better with
that but it comes it it comes back on you you know it's like a like the roller coaster
like if you could have seen I can't believe I'm gonna say this but if you could have seen
me just out in my garage bawling my eyes out over this stupid sander because I shouldn't
even have to do this this is a man's job why why I just wanted to go sand my driveway and
now the thing doesn't work and I don't know how to fix it and I'm just standing there
crying and just saying God please just please why can't it just work when I need it to work
I just I don't understand so I can't believe I just shared that but anyway so then I wasn't
even gonna come on here because I've all been there by the way yeah I was there last week
oh okay I'm gonna say good but I don't mean good that you were there good that I'm not
alone because I feel crazy when that happens crazy and I just I wasn't even gonna come
on here I thought no I can't I can't put this hat on because I'm such a mess and this hat
brings me so much peace and okay you know what no you're gonna put this down you're
gonna go on that zoom and pray for the best and I have to say I have no regret for being
here it was the best thing I could have done for myself today yeah I I really appreciate
everything I'm getting out of this and it really did lift me today I'm so grateful I'm so grateful
and I'm not kidding you I I go through that at least once a month oh wow really because I think
it's about once a month for me too oh my gosh I I think if we're all honest we all we all do
I mean there are moments in my life where I just hate the world yeah yep for no reason
for no reason yeah and that is a thousand percent a spiritual attack we are not crazy
we are being attacked the enemy is so clever and the more that we realize that and the more that
we acknowledge that the less time we spend thinking that it's something we're doing or
something that we're messed up with or something we did wrong or that this you know worrying about
the circumstance the more that we realize that the faster we come out of it and so it's just
practice we're we're practicing that's what I'm gonna practice I'm well see now you just said
don't try so hard I'm just gonna say I'm gonna practice a lot harder no no you can't practice
harder you have to be pretty darn hard I am I am I'm exhausted most of the time yeah just sit back
and and just practice when when the situation comes but it's not that when we all know this
it's not that it's not going to come it's just you're going to get out of it quicker
and that's that's life we just keep showing up you just keep showing up keep showing up keep
showing up and eventually you wear the enemy out so hard that he leaves you alone for a little while
and then you know later on he tries to creep on back but and by then you forgot
and it's him and you start blaming yourself again.
Yeah.
Right?
That's the power of things like this.
We've come to remind you.
Yeah.
I appreciate you all.
I do so much.
And where I'm supposed to be.
Thank you for being vulnerable.
It's just truth.
Yeah.
Sarah, I wanna make sure that we give you
the time you deserve.
So are you there?
Are you still there?
Hey, I'm here.
Sorry, I've had a disgusting migraine half the day.
So I'm a bit foggy.
Trying to put up my camera.
I don't know if I have much to share.
I don't know.
I kind of feel like Leslie at times,
like just a mess.
Like sometimes it's very obvious.
And then other times I'm just like,
okay, God, where are you?
The last month has been,
so my son had a lump on his neck
that was stressing me out for a long time.
And he figured that out.
And then he was supposed to have surgery last Monday.
So not two days ago, but the Monday before.
And insurance wasn't going to cover it.
They weren't getting ahold of them.
And so surgery got canceled.
Can only be done by one specialist
because it's wrapped around his nerve
that singles his brain to make him smile.
So he's now doing surgery on this Monday.
So that has been a huge stress for me.
We have our second daughter getting married
and they got married.
They're getting married almost to the day,
seven months apart from each other.
So that has been a huge,
just a lot of stuff that has to happen with the wedding.
And she also just brought her first house a week ago.
So that has been an added stress
of the expectations of mom stopped to do everything
because I always have stopped my whole life for my kids.
And so that expectation is still there
even though they're adults.
I do still have one living at home.
Well, two are living at home.
The one that's getting married and the younger one,
but the one that's getting married has a house.
But she's living at home until her wedding night.
But I mean, she's an adult.
She's not under my locking key, right?
But just, I feel like we've just had lots
of like spiritual attacks.
My son walked out to his car lot yesterday
and there's a huge hole in the back of his window.
And the whole back of the car is caving in.
It's just been like one like catastrophe
after the next, after the next.
The last meeting we were on with you,
I was here and 45 minutes into the meeting,
maybe 40 minutes into the meeting,
my soon-to-be son-in-law calls me in tears.
I think I'm getting fired.
Goes off for an emergency.
I had two kids get in car accidents.
I mean, this is all since January.
It's just been literally one crazy thing
after the next, after the next, after the next.
Is it mainly, does it mainly have to do with your children?
Yeah.
I, there's been one thing that was, that's in me.
I went to a, this is the year that I decided
that I was going to stop procrastinating.
And I was going to do all the things that I've said
I've always, always, always going to do.
So in January, I went to an appointment
to change my last name for the first,
I've been married 24 years and never changed my last name.
And so in January, I went to an appointment
that got pushed back, but we did it in February.
My name was officially changed,
got my new social security card.
So check mark.
So I decided that my thing in February
that I was going to not procrastinate anymore
was I was going to go get.
first mammogram. And of course it came back last, so I did it last Tuesday. And Tuesday at midnight,
I'm checking my reports and there's something suspicious. So I have to go back for more
testing. And so that's been really heavy the last week. I was supposed to go to a cardiologist's
appointment this morning. I am fairly young and was diagnosed with AFib.
And I woke up with a blazing migraine. Actually, I woke up to a tornado warning
that then realized I had a migraine. And so I've, and I've, this is like the fourth or
fifth migraine in the last few weeks. And I used to get them all the time and I stopped
and now they're back again. So I don't want to say it's only my kids, but it has a lot to do with
my kids. So the a lot of people think that the enemy attack circumstances,
but the enemy actually attacks our heart. He's not interested in our circumstances. He wants our
heart. He wants our soul. And so whatever is nearest and dear to your heart, when you're on
the right path and you start going down the right path, that's where he wants to get a foothold
and get, get in, get in your life. So I'm not surprised at all that many of these
different things that have been happening are having to do with your kids.
I mean, this is not a coincidence in any way, shape or form. This is a lot
in a short period of time with your children. And of course that can manifest in you.
So he's, yeah, I feel like I was making a breakthrough. This was probably three or four
weeks ago. And I sent Ray a bunch of texts and I felt like, Oh gosh, I'm finally like,
I felt like I was about to like hit a breakthrough. And he was like, do you have time to talk
this morning? I was like, yeah, it was early in the morning. I was like, yep.
Have time to talk, can talk. And I don't even remember which one of the many things that
it's happened over the last three months that, that it was. But one of those things happened
literally within probably 30 minutes of me saying, yes, I can talk. I never even saw his
message that said, okay, what's your phone number? I never even got back to my phone
for hours upon hours upon hours. And then the guilt of like, well, I never even answered him.
Hmm. And so all of that, that I felt like I was on the breakthrough of just kind of
squirreled away because I got wrapped up in the next catastrophe with the kids and then the next
one and the next one. And I used, when they were younger, I used to tell my husband all the time,
I always felt like I was putting out fires all day long. We were a homeschool family. So we were
at home and I always just felt like I was putting out fires all day long. And there were days that
she would come home and I'd say, I don't know what we accomplished today. I don't know if we
accomplished any homeschooling today, or I don't know if we accomplished any housework or whatever
it was that we were supposed to accomplish. And I just was putting out fires all day.
And for some reason, I feel like I'm back in that, that rat race of like putting out fires
constantly. And I didn't feel like I was there for several years. So it's.
What was your mom like?
She was a single, she was a single mom for a while.
And she had really hard marriages. I,
the first guy she was married to was abusive and she left. Married my dad, who was apparently
abusive too. My dad died when he was 32. I was seven. So I don't know much about him other than
in frustration with her, she will sometimes blurt out like something and I'll learn a little bit of
like something and I'll learn a little bit of a tidbit of information.
She showed a lot. She showed her love through buying stuff.
still does to this day. I won't say she was a bad mom, but she was never very
open about talking about things, still isn't. If you bring up anything
emotionally that you want to talk about, it gets shut down immediately.
You know, I don't know, because now that I think about it,
I'm very emotional to my kids. I'm the complete opposite. Like we're very, very close. We talk,
all the time. My son is 25 and we're, we're super close and that's not probably the norm, but
I don't know, maybe that, maybe that has something to do with that. I don't know.
Kind of blessing that you're super close and that you went the opposite direction. So
I give my time. I won't necessarily, where my mom gave her money all the time.
My mom, I'm trying to think of the best way to frame this here, but I'll just say it. So my mom
would she was a great mom at times. She was crazy at other times, literally, you know, now as,
as a mom and as a woman, you know, I wonder at times if she was just going through menopause or,
you know, everyone around her thought she was going crazy or what, but, you know,
tried to kill herself, a lot of things. I think, you know, my story,
bipolar diagnosed with bipolarity and, and all kinds of stuff. And so that created in me,
this craving to be a victim. And I didn't recognize it, but my children would do things
and I would just be like, I can't believe they're doing this to me. I'm so sweet to them. I'm so
loving how, why, why, why are they doing this to me? Why, why is this happening to me? Why,
why is this happening to me? Because I crave so much the love of a normal family. I craved so much
to feel that love that I never got from my family. And I never got, I felt I got from my mom,
from my kids that I turned myself into a victim in every circumstance.
And what you're going through right now is extremely challenging. And so I'm not
looking to guilt you or chastise you. I'm sharing with you my experience of when I recognize that
my walk in life with the family that I was gifted and the things that I went through,
both amazing and not good. My walk in life has gotten a lot simpler and a lot easier when I
abolished the guilt around what I was doing as a mom. And when I walked in a victor mentality
versus the victim mentality and when circumstances arise that are literally an attack on our most
precious asset of our heart, that is when the practice ensues of really stepping into that
victor mentality and mindset and not allowing it to penetrate each and every moment of our day.
Because Sarah, I bet you that you were on the verge of doing something incredible. I don't know
what that is, but I bet you that you were on the verge earlier this year of doing something
incredible or having something incredible show up in your life. And this is all a distraction
to keep you a victim. And I have to practice this every day. I have to practice stepping out of that
because I crave that so much.
from how my mom was as a mom, I felt victimized.
I felt like nobody heard me and I felt out of control.
And the one way I can control people's feelings
and emotions around me, including my kids,
was by stepping into that space.
And also it avoids the disappointment
and not getting that love back.
And so as there's a lot of challenging things happening
in your life right now, and the circumstances are tough,
it is so important for you right now
to step into claiming the victory over your family.
And I know that you know that as a Christian
and you know that as a woman,
and the enemy is keeping your emotional state high,
he's keeping your stress high,
he's keeping your brain foggy
so that you don't step into that place.
The victim, people look at, say, don't be a victim,
don't be a victim, but don't be a victim.
But do they really know how hard that is?
If they really knew how hard it was,
they would run to the Bible every time.
And Angela has given some amazing scriptures
in here to run to.
It is hard to not be a victim, hard, hard, hard.
So my encouragement would be to really try
to embrace the victor mentality
because it's gonna go against everything
in your nature right now.
And the only reason I know is because
I've been in that situation,
maybe not the health situation,
but I've definitely had health struggles with our children,
which obviously for any mom is way worse
than even what we're going through, right?
Definitely had health struggles with the kids.
So stepping into that victor mentality is so key.
And speaking that life into your circumstance,
your kids, your health, speaking that over you
and your family is going to be more important now
than it ever was.
And I can guarantee you, I can guarantee you
that if you do that, things are gonna start changing
and you're gonna step into some really amazing things
because I can see how big this distraction is.
And it is big, which means that there's a huge call
on your life.
You need to start proclaiming just really, really,
every time you remember it.
And there's gonna be times where you fail at it
and that's okay.
We all do.
I definitely get into feeling just defeated.
There's gonna be those times,
but it is so important to proclaim over yourself
every single outcome that you know
that God has promised you.
And that's what you need to do right now.
Okay.
I'm just gonna have to figure out how to get
to that point of victory.
There's definitely, yeah, definitely has me foggy
and exhausted and...
And you're tired, understandably so.
But I'm not gonna speak to that
because that's not gonna serve you
and that's not who you truly are
and that's not gonna serve you.
So it starts with your mouth
and it starts with what comes out of your mouth
just like we started this call.
And so once we get off this call,
I wanna pray for Joe, Leslie, I wanna pray over you
because you're clearly being attacked
and your heart is being attacked
and you start speaking with your mouth,
even if you're exhausted and don't believe it,
it starts with your mouth.
Okay, I'm gonna take some of these prayer things down
that Angela put in here too.
And I'm not coming down on you,
I'm just telling you from experience.
Yeah, it's just been very,
like even just questioning,
like, did I do the right thing?
Like financially, this is a huge,
um, financial thing for us. Um,
In the time when you should be celebrating your, the marriage of, of your daughter, right? Is it
your daughter? Yeah. The marriage to two marriages. Yeah. We just had one in September and we're
having another one in April. Think about that. That's such a beautiful thing that they found
life partners, right? Isn't that a beautiful thing? And the time that you should be celebrating
one of the happiest times of life, you're distracted with all this craziness going on
around you. Why start asking why we ask God the right questions. We get answers.
This is the time where you should be celebrating.
Why is he attacking you financially right now? Because he knows
that that's going to stress you out. It's going to bring you to your knees.
You are, he has created us to be so much more powerful
than we ever, ever can imagine because we've been so programmed to think that we can't make
a difference in this physical reality that we see around us. We have been so programmed to think
that we are not perfectly made and not God's creation. We have been so conditioned, even as
Christians. And some of you have been Christians way longer than me,
but even as Christians, we are still so conditioned to that old way of being.
We don't believe that if we speak over ourselves, we speak life,
some of those scriptures, we have a tough time believing.
It's true.
Because even in the things that I think that I should be sharing, I don't feel like I'm
good enough to share them for whatever reason. And I feel like God's place them on my heart.
I've had confirmation from other people. That's what I should be speaking on,
but it's still, as I do it, I'm like, am I even good enough to press send on this
social media posts or press send on this email? Or like, am I, am I the right person?
And you don't speak it. And then Ray one day said,
you're always two steps ahead of somebody else. So even if you're not fully in that spot yet,
like you're still two steps ahead of somebody else that's behind you that can learn from you.
And then, you know, somebody else may be two steps ahead of you and then you're learning from them.
And, and I believe that, but for, and, and I feel like I'm on that brink of like
opening a lot of doors, but they're not, like, I can't figure out how to get them
open, but maybe it's just that I've been so preoccupied with all the noise around me.
You think so, which I didn't even like it really never even
didn't tell me until we started talking, but all that was noise.
You think, and I tell my kids all the time, I'm like, stop listening to all the noise around you,
like just focus and just do it. Like sometimes we have to take our own advice.
So thank you. Cause I hadn't even like really verbalized it to anybody.
You're welcome. And that's why we don't speak it.
The power death in life is in the power of the tongue. Right. That's is it have to do with the
sound vibration that comes out of our mouth? I don't know. Maybe, I don't know the science
behind it. God does. But what I believe is that it has to do with what you just said,
because if I speak it, I might not believe it's real. And that means I'm a fraud.
And that means I'm a fraud, but when you speak it,
you then internalize it. You've spoken it out. You've spoken it out. You then internalize it.
And the more that you speak it, the more that you declare it, the more that you declare it
over your family, the more that you speak it positively, the more you internalize.
it and, and things start to change internally, which in turn change externally. I can't stress
enough to everybody how important this is. It is so important and we have been so conditioned to
believe that it is not, that it is just some foo-foo thing that, that, you know, life coaches
say to get us out of a mess that we're in or to make us feel positivity. It's not that.
The power of proclamation is so key in your life.
And I know you are on the brink of something really, really big, really, really big.
And so I'm, I'm definitely going to pray over you. I know this whole group is after we exit here
today. And I just want you to really, really grasp that power of proclamation today,
because you will, you are going to walk out of this perfectly healthy.
You're going to walk out of this perfectly healthy. Your son is going to get through
the surgery and he is going to come out fantastic. Your daughter's weddings.
While you already had one, but the one coming up is going to be a huge celebration,
the best celebration of your life. Your family's going to get together. They're
going to have a great time. And God is going to show up in your finances.
So unexpectedly that you are going to be praising his name all day.
How many times a day do we tell ourselves things like that?
How many times a day have you told yourself things like that?
In the last few weeks, often, not often, maybe not at all.
Yeah. But that's going to stop.
Maybe not completely probably won't, but you're going to change that.
I believe that for you. I do. I fully wholeheartedly believe that for you
because I know the power that we hold and that we wield believe the scriptures.
I've seen way too much evidence to not believe the scriptures,
believe the scriptures that you put behind your proclamations, believe them wholeheartedly.
And you'll see the difference show up in your life. I promise you, I promise you.
And I don't make empty promises.
Well, thank you.
You're welcome. And thank you for sharing that. I know that was a lot. I know we went over. Thank
you for those of you who stayed. I, I just felt like that was really, really important.
And I want you to reach out to Ray.
I will.
He does not care that you didn't answer him right away. I have the time. I never answer him.
I'm just kidding, but I'll pray for your migraine today.
I actually feel okay right now. I was really, really foggy at first, but
I feel like the fog is lifting. So that's good.
Yeah. Good, good, good, great, great way to speak it. The fog is lifting and you are so clear.
I love you guys so much. Thank you for saying.
And thank you all for sharing and being vulnerable and allowing me to metal in your life.
Cause you know, you're allowing that and I really appreciate it.
And I don't take it lightly. And I think we've all helped each other today.
I hope that you have an incredible Wednesday. I know that you will,
we're speaking that out, that there's going to be incredible supernatural
Godly provision that comes down today in whatever way that you need it. And as we exit today,
please pray for Joe Angela's son. Please, please pray over Leslie and that we cast out any
spiritual attacks on her. And, and please pray over Sarah and her health and her family's health
and pray over her finances. Thank you all so much. Thank you guys. Thank you.