Welcome, everyone, to Supernatural Saturday.
Some of you are new, you've never been here before, and we're so glad you're with us.
This is the day of the week where we lean in to the current prophetic reality of heaven
as a community.
What is God saying?
What is he doing?
How can we be encouraged?
How can we move forward in acceleration?
And today just happens to be the Saturday before Easter, and a lot of people refer to
today as Silent Saturday.
Have you ever heard that before?
Silent Saturday.
So here we are together on Silent Saturday, and guess what?
God is never silent.
He's always speaking.
And so we're going to talk about that today.
And you know, it's like Good Friday gets the cross, right?
It gets the cross, it gets the crucifixion, and then Easter Sunday gets the resurrection,
it gets the celebration.
But we always forget about the process.
And so in this scenario, Saturday would be the process.
And we hate process.
We all hate process, right?
Silent Saturday is the space where grief and doubt and uncertainty live, amen?
That's where it lives, and no one likes that day.
It's the middle day.
Let's think about what it would be like to be a disciple, like to be a disciple that
walked with Jesus on earth, one of those folks.
Let's talk about that for a second.
Let's lean in to what that would be like if we were one of them, right?
Jesus told them, you guys, Matthew 16, 21, other places, he told them plainly that he
was going to be crucified, buried, and resurrected on the third day, right?
Come on, let's talk about this.
But they don't remember that in the middle.
How do I know they didn't remember it?
Because when the women came from the tomb to announce that Jesus had risen, she found
them where?
Hiding out, y'all.
That's what they were doing.
They were hiding out.
Jesus gave them the word before there was any kind of tragedy or trauma.
He prepared them.
But in the trauma of the crucifixion, they forgot, they forgot what Jesus said, and that's
what happens to us.
I want to talk about that for a couple minutes right now.
God gives us a word.
He gives us a prophetic promise, a dream, some kind of confirmation.
But then when life crucifies those expectations, right, and that's always going to happen,
you guys.
There's always going to be pushback on a promise.
Life comes at us fast.
We start walking by sight instead of by faith.
I'm talking to myself, too.
I'm not just preaching to you.
We all do this.
This is the human condition.
I mean, these folks, they hung out with Jesus.
They lived with Jesus.
He was truly their rabbi.
Did you guys know back in the olden days, you know, you didn't just go to someone's
house and say, oh, that's my pastor.
Go home to that church.
That's my pastor.
No.
You, like, moved in your pastor's house.
If someone was your rabbi, you followed them around.
I think we think this is just a Jesus thing.
I think a lot of times when we see movies about Jesus, we think that, oh, all the other
rabbis were only in the synagogues.
Yeah, they did speak in the synagogues.
But in order to say that someone was your rabbi, you had to see how they walked out
the Torah in everyday life.
More was caught than taught.
And so you followed them around.
You ate with them.
And that's why a lot of people, if you read the Bible through that lens, you see that
people were amazed at who Jesus's followers were.
Let's just talk about this for a second.
This is how great Jesus is.
Don't you just love Jesus?
He's so amazing.
And here's why.
Because all these other rabbis, they had the best of the best.
You know that movie Top Gun?
The people that got to go to the Top Gun flight school, they were the best of the best of
the best.
All the other rabbis, that's all they had with them.
If you were Jewish, you're a Jewish boy specifically, you went to kind of like Torah school up until
a certain age.
But then you were sent home to do whatever your family did, carpentry, work in the fields,
fishing, whatever it is that your family did, you were sent home after that.
After that age, I don't know what that age was, but you were sent home to just go do
regular life.
Yeah, you were schooled in the Torah, but then you were sent home.
Unless you were the best of the best.
You guys, these people had to memorize whole scrolls of things, okay?
It wasn't like, oh, you just have to know, you know.
a couple pieces of doctrine here and there.
No, but if you were like the best of the best,
if you showed lots of promise,
then you got to follow around a rabbi.
You got to apprentice.
Do you see this?
And that's why you guys, in the light of historical,
you know, the history around what this looked like
during the time that Jesus was on the earth,
what did it look like to be a Jew?
What did it look like to be part of that culture?
That's why it's so crazy that Jesus is just walking by.
Who is he picking?
The people that got sent home.
You guys, the people that got sent home.
They were the people that got sent home in third grade.
Go work in the fields.
Go be fisher people.
Go be fishermen.
Go be whatever your family does.
Go work for a living.
You're not qualified to be part
of this elite group of people.
You guys, out of all the apprentices
that would follow a rabbi,
only a precious few would become rabbis themselves.
Right?
This was the best of the best of the best.
And that's why even when we look at Paul's life,
you guys, he said that he was a Pharisee among Pharisees.
Right?
He had risen to the top of his thing, his game.
He was the cream of the crop.
It's really important that we talk about this
because now you see why everyone else
was looking at Jesus all crazy.
Wait a second.
Who are your disciples?
Who are these people following you?
These are the cast offs that are following you.
And I know that we talk about,
oh, they were the unlearned men.
They were the fishermen.
They were the, but no, when you look at it this way,
they were the people that were sent home.
They weren't good enough to go into apprenticeship,
except Jesus said they were.
Jesus doesn't look on the outside, friends.
He looks on the heart.
And I want you to get that into your heart right now.
Jesus has qualified each and every one of you
for so many things, including marriage,
but so many other things.
Doesn't matter what other people have said.
Doesn't matter what other people do.
All that matters is what Jesus says.
And he has qualified you,
just like he qualified the disciples.
So you guys, he passed these disciples
and he said, come follow me.
And they could or couldn't, but they did.
Come and follow me.
Come be my disciple.
Let me be your rabbi.
Isn't that amazing?
And he picked some crazy folk.
And that's why they were murmuring about him.
Oh, he hangs out with sinners and fishermen
and unlearned men.
He hangs out with tax collectors
and the list goes on and on.
And I know that it must have been amazing
to be chosen by Jesus.
And now you see, you're like,
why would someone just drop their nets?
They're out fishing.
They're making a living.
This is their livelihood.
Why would they just drop their nets
and follow some man who's walking by?
Because it was such a privilege.
It was such a privilege to be an apprentice of a rabbi.
It was such an honor.
And they had heard about Jesus.
They had heard about the things that he was doing,
the things he was teaching,
the miracle signs and wonders that were following him.
It's incredible, you guys.
And they saw so many things that we can't even imagine.
And yet, they forgot what Jesus told them.
They forgot what Jesus told them.
And on silent Saturday, they forgot what Jesus told them.
And so my question for you is,
what did God already tell you that you forgot about
because you're an apprentice of a rabbi?
What did Jesus tell you that you forgot about
because you're in pain?
What did Jesus tell you?
What did God tell you?
And I don't mean physical pain or financial pain
or emotional pain.
I just mean the pain of the process.
In the pain of the process right now,
when you don't have in your hot little hands
what you want, what have you forgotten?
You're like, well, Jack, I didn't really forget it
because I remember it.
Yeah, but your life doesn't say you remember it.
Your actions don't say you remember it.
When the women were at the tomb,
I'm not even gonna say it.
anything about, hey, the men were hiding out and the women were over at the tomb.
I'm not even going to go there, gentlemen, because I love you, but the women were at the tomb,
okay? And I just want to let you know that, you know, Jesus' grave clothes were folded.
His cloth was folded. Do you know that Jews, when they would fold their bedcloth,
it just meant that they were going to return? That is actually what it meant.
In that culture, if you folded up those clothes, it meant that you were returning
to wear them again. You're returning. So much typology, so much beauty that was waiting for
them. Because remember, they're part of this culture, and so they understand those things.
We miss a lot of that. I have some Jewish friends that explained so many things to me
because they're, you know, they're Hebrews that believe that Jesus
is Messiah. Some of us would call them Messianic Jews, but they actually don't like to be called
that. They are still of the Hebrew line, the Hebrew birth. They are Jews, but they do believe
that Jesus is Meshuach. And so they've explained, they've kind of filled in some of my holes for me
because, you know, I don't know the history, and it just makes the scriptures come alive even more
when you know it. That's what that meant. That's what that means. So the disciples are aware,
they're hiding out, they're afraid. The same people that came and arrested and crucified
and killed their leader, you know, they could be coming for them. Right? And they're in pain,
they're suffering, they're grieving because they know that Jesus has been killed. They've heard.
They weren't there, they didn't see it, save one of them, but they know, and that's John,
the beloved, but they know that it happened. Right?
So what did God already tell you? What did God tell you? What did God promise you?
That now your life is looking like you forgot it.
You're living your life on the outside of your life. It looks like
you have forgotten that because you're in process and process equals pain.
What do you think about that? Go ahead and put it in the chat if you want to.
So for today's purposes, we're going to let Saturday be the processing place.
This is the place where heaven is working. Even when earth sees nothing, friends,
heaven is always working. There's always war going on in the heavenlies. There's always spiritual
transactions that are happening. I will tell you, God told me that there's a brokering happening in
the heavenlies this week. And I was like, brokering, like real estate brokering? Like,
what do you mean brokering? And so I looked at the word brokering and it means coming to a
settlement or an agreement. You guys, we have to settle what Jesus has said and come into agreement.
There's an agreement. There's an invitation to agreement with heaven this week, right now,
over your life, over my life. Guys, I have ads running for my new millennial challenge and I
have to monitor the ads. And so I monitor them and the comments in the ads are crazy town.
And I have empathy. I have grace because I know that people are hopeless. I know that they've
lost hope, but you guys, some of these comments are the most bitter things that I've ever read.
Angry, bitter, hopeless. What's happening in these people's lives? They've forgotten what God said to
them. What's happening in these people's lives? They're not coming into agreement with heaven.
They're coming into agreement with their pain.
That's what's happening. And I've been there. I've been there for a few moments in a couple
seasons of my life, but thank God I didn't stay there. Thank God I didn't stay there.
And I don't want you to stay there either.
The process is real. I get it. I've been on the struggle bus many times.
You have to remember the process is real, but it's not the end. And there's never a
more beautiful depiction. There's not a better depiction of that than this Easter season.
Crucifixion, process, resurrection. There's never a better example.
So Saturday is that process in place. Everything looks done. It looks over.
We're not seeing what's happening behind the scenes.
Work of resurrection is already in motion.
We know that to be true.
So instead of thinking of what's going on in your life right now, you might
be in the middle of that process, whatever it is, not just towards your
love story, but towards anything in your life that God has promised you
that has not yet manifested, you know, think of it less as a waiting season.
Okay.
Think of it less as a wilderness.
Okay.
And think of it more as a time when God is building and preparing you.
It's a place of preparation.
I was praying this morning before I got on this call.
There's some things that I want to see happen and I've started to get kind of
antsy about them because they haven't happened yet, but I know that God has
promised them and I was walking and I was praying and I hope you guys are
building on some of these prophetic words and these supernatural Saturdays
that we've been having about praying in your prayer language.
Raise your hand if you've been doing more of that, or maybe you've been
doing it for the very first time.
Let's see the folks that are doing that.
They're practicing that you're feeling more centered, right?
You're feeling more centered.
You're feeling more peaceful.
Joy is rising up.
Yes.
Maybe even you're getting some downloads.
It's good.
Okay.
Thank you.
You can go ahead and put your hands down.
So I was praying about that.
I was like, God, what the heck?
And he said, well, there's two things that I've been trying to teach you and
you're not, you're refusing to learn what they are and, and he's not lying
because he doesn't lie and I know exactly what those things are.
I mean, he told me what they are, but I know what they are.
You guys, I'm just going to call myself out.
And maybe this is your problem too, but I don't know how to rest.
I'm always doing, I am very, very rarely just being, I'm always doing, I'm
always creating, I'm always making, I'm always planning, I'm always doing
something, I'm doing, doing, doing, doing for Valentine's day.
My husband bought me one of these aura rings and this aura ring tells you
whether you're rest, you're in a restful state, or if you're in an engaged state,
or if you're in a stressed state, those are the three categories, rest, engaged,
stressed, and most of my day is spent in stress and engaged, very, very little
of my body, my day is my body in that other state, that relaxed state.
I'm always going.
And if my body's not going, my mind's not going.
I'm always going, and if my body's not going, my mind's going.
And if my, my body and my mind are not going, my mouth is going.
And that's not good.
If your mind's not going, your mouth is going.
That's not, that's not probably a good thing.
So God said, Hey, I called you to do a lot of amazing things.
I promised you this stuff and it's awesome.
So, but you can't get broke down on the side of the road because
you don't know how to rest.
God loves me.
What is he doing?
He's saying, yeah, I want to give you the things that I told you you could have,
but also here are the, here are the three things that I've been trying to prepare
you in, in order for you to be a steward of what I've promised you, in order for
that promise not to hurt you, remember Proverbs tells us that God's increase
comes without sorrow, meaning that when God promotes us and increases us, he
knows it's because we can handle it.
Or at least we're going to be obedient to the things that he is going to show us
to do in order to handle it without it breaking us, that's why when people say,
Oh, I got this amazing promotion and I'm making 30,000 more a year, and I just
know it was from God, but then you look at the aftermath, broken marriages, broken
families, you know, travel, they're never home, their kids resent them.
Yeah.
I don't think that promotion was from God, bro.
Just because it gave you more money, doesn't mean that it was from the Lord.
You got to weigh the cost, right?
And so God told me, Jackie, here are the two things that I really need you to work
on in this season in order for me to be able to, and I don't want you guys to get
it twisted, I am seeing some, a little bit of the interest, okay, of the
inheritance that God has promised me.
He's allowing me to collect the interest.
Anybody else?
You don't have the full, you don't have the full promise, but you have
little trickles of the promise, right?
Little bits, little tastes of what's happening and what God has promised.
And so I am experiencing that, but if I want.
experience more, then there are a couple things that I have to get in order and I know what
those things are.
And so maybe that's for you as well.
God's not inactive.
He's not inactive on your behalf just because what it is that you want hasn't fully happened
yet.
All right.
So what should we do when we're in process?
Well, first of all, we need to remind ourselves, we need to remind ourselves of what God told
us because it's easy to forget during the pain, remember?
So I want you to go ahead and take a couple minutes to just write it down.
You just take one of the promises, the one that you most want more than any of the others,
and a lot of you are probably going to write down marriage because that's why you're here.
But let Holy Spirit lead you in what to write down.
So write it down.
It's time to start coming into agreement with it.
Remember there's a brokering that's happening in the spirit realm, specifically this week.
We need to start putting it in front of our eyes, a place of remembrance of this.
Luke 24, six through eight basically says, and then they remembered his words and they
remembered and remembered his words.
Don't let disappointment be the death of destiny, friends.
You have not been abandoned.
You haven't.
All right, so you guys, the promise didn't die.
We know that it didn't.
It was just buried in the tomb, right?
And just because they didn't know what was going on doesn't mean that something wasn't
going on.
Something amazing was going on in the heavenlies, behind the scenes, in another realm where
we couldn't see.
And that's the same in our lives.
Sunday, Easter Sunday, resurrection day was already written in the story.
Jesus already told them he was going to resurrect.
Before Friday ever happened, Sunday was already part of the story.
And I want you to apply that to your life.
Before whatever has happened in your life that you think has derailed you, that you
thought was the end, that you thought you could never, ever recover from, whatever that
is, your comeback story was already written a couple paragraphs down, a couple chapters
over.
Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but God does what?
He delivers them out of them all.
Am I wrong or is that the word?
So we have to reset our belief again on heaven.
We have to learn how to rest, rest in God's word, rest in his love, rest in his power.
We have to remember that it's already been written.
It's not for us to go out and try to make it happen, but we do have to partner with
God.
We do have to partner.
So why does this process time, why does it hurt so badly?
Why?
Why is it?
Why is it hurt so badly?
It's because of our senses, you guys.
It's because of our flesh.
This is the timeframe.
And so Saturday in this story, so Friday, the crucifixion, Saturday, kind of the time
of silence, that's why they call it silent Saturday, before the resurrection, even though
God had already told, you know, through Jesus, the disciples what was going to happen.
Remember, Jesus said when he was walking on earth with his disciples, I only do what my
father is doing.
I only say what my father is saying.
The plan was already in place, and it came through Jesus's words.
He already told them, I'm going to let you know, I'm going to make known the end from
the beginning.
I'm going to make known the end from the beginning.
Guys, that's the scripture in Isaiah, Isaiah 46, 10, my purpose will stand and I will do
all that I have promised.
Guys, you need to stand on that.
You have to stand on it.
When you got that word, when you got that promise.
from God when you had that dream, when you had that confirmation?
What was that?
That was God making known through Holy Spirit to you the end from the beginning.
It's the middle that we have a problem with.
You notice that Jesus says, I'm the author and finisher of the faith.
He doesn't say that I am the author and the middle and the finisher of your faith because
you're the middle.
The middle is where you have to come into agreement with God.
He says, I'm the end and the beginning.
He also doesn't say he's the middle because the middle is where you have to partner with
God.
God showed me that years ago when I was just stuck in the middle, always stuck in the middle.
Can I tell you something?
That you're always going to be in the middle of something, but at the same time, you're
going to have the fruit of something else.
There's going to be some things that are not ripe and ready, and you're definitely
in process, and that's where you just have to continue to agree with heaven and play
your part, whatever that is, but there'll be other things that you're not just eating
the fruit of, but you're drinking the juice of, that you're sharing with others.
There'll be other things that are just beginning to be planted, and there'll be other things
that are ready for harvest.
Do you understand?
Some of you, the reason why you're so discouraged is because you don't understand the laws of
the harvest.
You're always waiting for this one thing.
Let's take cooking, for example.
Say you're making a big meal and you're really excited about it.
You're specifically excited about this one part of the meal, and so you'd have that pot
on boiling, whatever.
You're making prep for that part of the meal, and wouldn't it be silly if you were just
standing there watching it instead of prepping the other stuff?
Washing the vegetables and cutting and dicing and doing, no, just standing there waiting
for this one part to be ready, but that's often what we do in our lives.
There's other things that are ripe, they're ready for you, because the Bible says that
what you reap, what you sow, you will reap, and that's not just a threat for people who
are out sinning.
That's the laws of the universe that God put in order, and a lot of you have a lot of good
seeds in the ground.
You've been sowing good things and good deeds for a long time.
You know what that tells me?
That tells me that you have a lot of ripened, ready harvest that you're not reaping, and
it's probably because you're standing at the field that's not ready yet.
You're just standing in front of that field and you're grieving because it's taking its
natural due process, and you don't like it.
You want it to be accelerated, and I'm not saying it doesn't get accelerated because
Amos 9.13 is a real thing, the reaper overtaking the sower.
The problem is, is that you have other opportunities that are rotting on the vine because they've
been ripe and ready for a while, but all you care about is this one place that's not.
That was a hard lesson for me to learn.
That's a sermon that God gave to me years ago for myself, and so now I live in perpetual
harvest.
You know that it's up to you whether or not you live in Amos 9.13 where the reaper overtakes
the sower, the sudden lease, harvest everywhere.
If you've been walking with Jesus for any length of time, which I have, almost 30 years,
and I have been pretty much in full-time ministry the whole time, I have a lot of good seeds
in the ground.
And so everywhere I turn, guess what?
Harvest.
Now, is it the one thing or the two things that I've been kind of wanting more than the
others?
No, but that's okay because I'm still going to enjoy my harvest.
You guys are my harvest.
Two hundred and sixty-seven of you are on here listening live.
You know how long I've been doing this?
A long time.
Over 15 years, I've been doing calls like this, and guess what?
I used to have to have my husband get on because you had to have at least one person to record.
Otherwise, freeconferencecall.com would not record the call, and I knew a lot of people
listened to it in replay, but a lot of people did not listen live.
I'd be lucky if I had one person on live and sometimes zero, so I had to have my husband
log in so that it would record.
And now there's 267 of you, and that's not all.
We have thousands of people that listen during the week to our prayer calls and to Supernatural
Saturday and to all the things.
Why?
Because that's the harvest of doing what?
Of not giving up.
Whatever it is that you see, disappointment, delay, doubt, it doesn't match what you believe.
It's not about what God can do.
It's about what you believe.
believe he can do. What do you believe? I believe that God told me that I was to speak.
I believe that God told me that he was going to give me a platform to encourage people.
I have a supernatural gift of hope in order to release that over people and see their
dreams resurrected and come to life. I believe God called me to be a revivalist to marriage
and family. It's not about what I see, it's about what I believe. And so even when there
was zero people listening, I was still doing what God had called me to do.
And now we have a global ministry that's helped over 1,600 people get married in four years and
growing all the time. And that doesn't even include all the other things that have happened.
So whatever you see, whether it's something or nothing, it doesn't match what you believe.
The disciples saw a sealed tomb, but what they couldn't see that was heaven was moving,
hell was trembling, and victory was already written. Come on, y'all.
The truth is, is God does his deepest work in hidden places.
He does. Let's think about it. Let's think about God's process for a second and things
besides ourselves. Let's think about planting. Let's think about seeds. You guys all know this.
Seeds have to be buried.
They have to be covered. They have to be hidden. And where do they break open
and start showing their potential first in the hidden places, huh? Isn't that, remember, like
fifth grade biology, science class?
Can you guys hear me?
Okay. Those seeds, remember when we had those glass canisters and we could see what was happening
under the soil? You guys remember that? That was powerful. The seeds just under there, just being
a seed, just hanging out deep in the dirt. Then we're watering it. And then it starts to break
open. Something happens. Change is happening. Now, if we didn't have the glass thing hot,
we wouldn't see that progress until it reached the top of the soil, would we?
There's a crazy plant. I believe it's the bamboo plant, if I'm not mistaken, that takes years and
years and years to break through the soil. But once it does, it's like six feet tall overnight.
It's like, oh, all right. That's an acceleration.
So these seeds, they break open underneath the soil before they sprout.
What's another hidden process? A baby in a womb. I know that we have all kinds of technology where
we can see what your baby is doing in there. We can see if it's like sucking its thumb or,
you know, whatever, giving you the finger. My friend had a baby that was always giving the
middle finger when the camera came on. I don't know what was going on with that.
It was awfully funny though. But even as far back as my child, she's 24, the only child that I've
carried in my womb and given birth to, we couldn't see our babies. You just had to just, you know,
believe it was there, especially before you started showing, before it started moving and
you started feeling it. You just had to believe by faith that you were pregnant. Am I wrong?
Now, don't get me wrong. There were signs. There were signs and they weren't necessarily good
signs. You were in some pain, you felt some nausea, you know, some things were happening.
But there are a lot of people that don't get those pre-pregnancy, those early pregnancy signs.
And so you, they just have to believe by faith. The doctor, you know, said that your blood test
came back positive and that you're pregnant. And so you're going to have a good four months,
maybe five before you ever start seeing signs of life. Is that not true?
And what do you do during this process, friends? You prepare. That's what you do.
Now, if Jesus' disciples weren't so traumatized by this moment where they forgot everything that
he had already told them was going to happen, they might have gone and got prepared for him
to show back up on the third day. Right?
That's what they might have done.
Jesus showed back up exactly when he said he would.
And guess what?
They never understood the process.
They didn't understand why Jesus had to die.
They didn't.
They saw him perform all kinds of miracles.
They saw him raise people from the dead, y'all.
They didn't understand that process.
And a lot of times we don't get to understand the process either.
I'm not promising you that when you actually step into manifestation of your promise, like
full manifestation, some of you are in different parts of it, partial parts of it right now.
You're like me, you're seeing some interest off that inheritance, but you're not seeing
the full thing.
And by the way, back in the times of the Bible times, the Jews didn't give their children
inheritances.
They actually had a steward.
They had someone that stewarded, an adult that steward their inheritance until they
were ready for it.
And the Bible goes on to liken that to the law.
The law was put in place to help us to what?
To help us to step into our full inheritance.
Once Jesus came and died for us.
And it says that now that Jesus has come, you don't need the schoolmaster anymore.
You don't need the steward of your inheritance anymore.
You can step fully into your inheritance.
Isn't that powerful, powerful.
But even though some of you are only seeing little trickles, little mercy drops of what
it is that you've been praying for, God continuing to remind you that, you know, it's still going
to happen.
I promise you one thing about it.
It's not going to look the way you've imagined and it's okay.
That's one thing I can definitely promise you.
You guys, people beat me up in the comments of my posts in the public, you know, so mean,
so vicious towards me.
And I know that they're hurting and I know that that's why they're attacking me.
They're bitter.
They're in complete unbelief.
Some of them maybe even be demonized.
And I, I, you know, I have, I have mercy for them.
I have grace for them.
Now don't get me twisted.
I do bless them and block them.
I do.
And you know how I make the decision of whether or not to bless them and block them.
If maybe they're just hurting and they're just kind of venting a little bit.
Is if they use the words, I don't believe that.
If they use the words, that's not true.
I don't believe that.
That's when I bless them and block them because you guys, it's not about what God can do.
It's about what you believe he can do.
And it's not my job to try to talk you into belief.
Come on.
It's not my job to try to talk you into the belief.
You know what my job is?
You know what God has gifted me to do?
He's gifted me to fan the flames of your belief.
He's gifted me to fan the flames of your hope.
That is what he has called me to do.
I can't create something that's not there, right?
That is a situation where someone has to go and they have to go through deliverance.
They have to surrender to God.
He's the one that takes hardened hearts and makes them soft through repentance, y'all.
But repentance comes from seeing the goodness of God in our lives, goodness, goodness of
God.
So don't make permanent decisions on Saturday, friends.
Don't harden your heart on Saturday because we already know Sunday's coming because we,
you know, we get to watch this in replay.
The disciples had to live in it.
So I'm not judging them at all.
Trust me.
I'm not judging them.
I probably would have done the same old thing they did.
But because we get to see it in hindsight, we know.
Don't walk away from what God told you that you could do just because nothing's happening
with it yet.
I just told you my story.
I know you guys think that, oh, you know, people like Jackie, they just, everything
they touch turns to gold and excuse me, excuse me.
I've been in a long process, a very, very, very long process.
And I'm still in process with a lot of things.
And I will be for the rest of my life.
Just because it's not working out yet, doesn't mean it's not going to work out, friends.
Don't settle for a half story just because you got tired of waiting.
You shouldn't be waiting anyway.
You should be preparing.
If you're tired of waiting, good.
It'd be so silly for you to find out you're pregnant and then say,
the doctor's office for nine months. That would be ridiculous. And it's also ridiculous to receive
a word from the Lord and then just dismiss it when you don't see evidence of it immediately
coming to pass. You need to prepare for it. You need to act like it's going to happen.
And that looks like something. It looks different for all of you. But if you really believed
something was going to happen, you would act on it. I remember God said to me once,
he said, what would you do if I handed you a check for a million dollars? And this was back
when a million dollars was a lot, a lot, a lot of money. Okay. So a lot of money,
but it was a lot, a lot, a lot of money back then. And I said, well, I would be so excited
about it. I would jump up and down. I would scream. I would run around the room and then
I would go cash it. Right. He said, yeah, he said, but he said people do the first part.
He said, this is, this is what's wrong with kind of like the church mindset.
People find out that they've won a million dollars, all this amazing stuff that Jesus
died to give us friends on the other side of Sunday, on the other side of the resurrection,
all the things that we get to step into. They find out they jump up and down. They run around,
they scream and yell. They tell their friends, they make bumper stickers and posters and they
embroider bags with stuff saying that won't he do it. He did it. This, that all the things,
but you guys, they never cashed the check. Never take action on it. The proof of belief is action.
Imperfect action. Sometimes you don't know what action looks like
or your specific promise or your specific thing that you want to have happen. And so you just
take imperfect action, but it doesn't matter. Action is action and belief requires action.
Don't lower your expectations because of delay, because of doubt.
Let's remember something very important. The same people who ran in fear are not going to
people who ran in fear on Sunday were the same people preaching with fire on the day of Pentecost.
All right. So because we know in hindsight that the resurrection has already happened,
we know that it's a done deal. We know that the setback was a setup for a comeback. We know all
that stuff. And because we know that let's begin to speak prophetically today. Shall we?
Let's start to begin to come into agreement and alignment with resurrection. We can do that.
We don't live during the time when Jesus was still in the tomb. Jesus is alive.
That's what's so beautiful for us, you guys. What a painful day for his disciples back then,
but we're his disciples now, and we already know that he's alive.
We know he's alive.
So what can we come into agreement with? With heaven?
Yes, we're in a season. We might be in the middle where we're resting, we're processing,
maybe we're pruning, we're preparing. And you guys, that's really important. Please don't
negate that season. Don't sleep on that season of processing, pruning, preparing, resting.
I know so many people that are pregnant right now, and because I've been pregnant,
I know what that's like. At the end of the pregnancy, people get very restless.
And that's why some of you, listen, God wants to talk to you right now. That's why some of
you are in such foul tempers. You're agitated, you're irritated,
you're uncomfortable because you're about to give birth to something.
At the end, at the beginning of pregnancy, guys, you're so excited about it and a little fearful
and sometimes not feeling that great. But by second trimester, you're usually feeling a lot
of energy and you're really enjoying the pregnancy because you're not having a lot of the horrible
effects of third trimester yet, where the baby's taking so much room that you can't breathe,
you're waddling, your hips are becoming displaced so you can give birth and you're just waddling
around like a little duck and all the different things that happen, get hemorrhoids. You can't
sleep on any side of your body because you got a big old belly and all the things. But second
trimester, kind of in the middle, you're good. You're good.
You're feeling good, feeling good.
And some of you are in that part, that part of the process of your promise.
You're still have high, high expectation.
You're feeling good.
You haven't been carrying the promise long enough for it to start agitating you.
Some of you are at the end and you're like, Ooh, I cannot go another day.
I remember just crying out to God, Oh Lord Jesus, deliver me of this child.
So I have a lot of friends right now that are pregnant and some of them are at the
end of their gestation.
And let me tell you, they are miserable.
It's not even summertime.
They're miserable.
Just talked to one of my friends the other day and she could barely talk because she
was so out of breath because the baby is pushing on her diaphragm.
And you're miserable.
You just want it to be over.
And so this is my word for you guys.
Rest, prune, continue to prepare.
You know why?
Because when my friend was saying all that stuff of how miserable she was with what
she was carrying and what was happening, I know because I've already had a child,
the real work is really about to begin.
Amen.
When we're pregnant, we just want to be un-pregnant.
But when you're un-pregnant, you have a little tiny infant that it's a whole
different type of process.
Am I wrong?
Sometimes in those early weeks of having an infant, depending on their sleep
schedule and eating schedule, you kind of want to shove them back in.
You're like, Hey, let me just go back to this other season.
And so what I'm trying to tell you guys is that there's always going to be parts
of a season that you're in that are not that easy.
Okay.
Amazing, but not easy.
And guess what?
There's grace for it.
But I get to walk through early relationship with so many people.
So for so many of you, you wrote down the thing that you want to be reminded of,
even in the process is God's promise over your marriage, over your love life.
So many of you wrote that down.
I know you did, but I want to promise you this is that early relationship.
It's not easy.
Not in the year 2025.
There's all kinds of things to navigate inside of yourself and inside of that
relationship as you grow in affection and hopefully love together going towards
marriage.
In early marriage, there's all kinds of refining that happens.
I'm just preparing you for what's coming.
Okay.
Jesus resurrected and what an amazing thing.
And he's like, I told you I was coming back.
Here I am.
But then what happened after that?
They're surrounded by the same people that try to kill Jesus.
There's all kinds of things to learn.
There's all kinds of process to go through.
Right?
Isn't that what happened?
So let's make some prophetic declarations right now.
You know, that marriage that you're believing for Sunday is coming.
Some of you are still believing to have a child from your womb, from your womb.
And we're going to believe that with you.
That child you're praying for Sunday is coming.
Some of you want to foster and adopt children.
That Sunday is coming.
The calling that you thought disqualified you.
Calling that you wanted, whatever you thought you were going to do for the
Lord, whatever he promised you that you think you're disqualified from now.
No, Sunday is coming.
It may not look the way that you thought it was going to look 20 years ago.
20 years ago, I just wanted to be a preacher.
That's what I thought I was going to do.
I had no idea that I was going to, you know, start a media company and
do all the things that I've done.
And, and look, guess what?
On Saturdays, I still get to be a preacher.
But you understand what I'm saying?
It doesn't have to look the way that you thought it would look.
Surrender that to the Lord and then, and then speak resurrection over
it because it's not over yet.
The dream that we bury, that we put on the shelf, Sunday's coming.
It's already written in the story.
Resurrection's already written in the story.
It's not dead.
It's just in process.
The healing, the breakthrough, the restoration.
You guys, I remember an entire decade of my life when I was sick in my body and in
my mind, my entire twenties was lost to physical and mental illness.
I did not.
I think that I was ever gonna be well enough
to even drive to the grocery store.
I couldn't even go to the grocery store.
I could not even drive a car.
My greatest dream back then
was just to go to the grocery store.
That's all I wanted.
I wanted to have a strong enough body
and a strong enough mind to get into a car
and drive less than five miles away to a grocery store.
I wanted to be able to accept the invitation
to go shopping with my friends to the mall
like most 20-year-olds, 24 or five-year-olds would do.
I could not do it.
I tried to do it a couple times
and then I had the embarrassment of whoever I was with
having to rush me back home almost as soon as we got there.
Severe obsessive compulsive disorder.
I had agoraphobia.
I had panic disorder.
And because of those mental health issues,
I had adrenal failure, not fatigue.
I had Epstein-Barr.
I had so many problems, you guys.
But I loved Jesus.
And in the process,
sitting at my home in an unhealthy and unsafe marriage,
feeling all the potential of God's promises
that had been spoken over my life
and yet not being able to live out even one of them,
imprisoned within a five-mile square radius of my house
with a husband who absolutely did not care
about anything that I was going through
and just wanted to have me committed to an asylum.
10 years.
At some point in time,
I think that I just surrendered to the idea
that this might be what life is always gonna look like.
But I wanna tell you guys
that God gave me the supernatural gift of hope.
And that is what I release over y'all.
And that is what is the secret sauce of what happens here.
And that is why so many people's love lives
and relationships have been resurrected here.
Because even in the midst of that decade of my life,
deep down inside,
I just knew that God was not finished yet.
I just knew.
And you guys, I would get down,
but I would not stay down for long.
Like I'm not even a couple days, not even a couple hours.
Doubt would try to come.
Disappointment would try to come.
Despondency would try to come.
I would kneel at the side of my bed
and I would cry out to the Lord and I would intercede
and I would travail and I would cry and I would pray.
And I would get up from that place with renewed hope again.
It was hope that could not be killed.
It couldn't be killed and I'm so thankful for that.
Because there came a day when all of it changed.
One of the scriptures that I carried around in my purse,
you guys, was Isaiah 41 10.
It just says that I am with you.
I am your God.
I have you.
I'm protecting you.
With my strong right arm.
You know, God was always with me.
He was always telling me that he wasn't gonna leave me,
that he wasn't gonna abandon me, that he was with me.
I used to carry that scripture around.
I used to quote it all the time.
I used to read it all the time.
I was hanging on by thread so many times, but I never fell.
And then one day, and the very next scripture after that,
I didn't pay a lot of attention to that scripture,
but that scripture basically says
that there's gonna come a time when you're gonna look
for those that are tormenting you,
the enemies that have surrounded you.
and you're not going to be able to find them because they're going to be gone.
You know, we get into a place in life where every day looks like the day before and that's
definitely what that decade of my life looked like. Every day looked like the day before.
There wasn't much change. There wasn't any sign that Sunday was coming and yet there was hope.
There was no outward sign though. It was the same. It was the same life. It was the same
imprisonment. It was the same stagnation. It was the same physical and mental health issues.
It was the same marriage. It was the same everything.
The same everything. And you guys, I want to let you know that there's a lot of things that
we don't know about our situations. There's a lot I didn't know about the situation. I did not know
that you can't heal in the same environment that's making you sick. I didn't know any of
that stuff. We don't know what we don't know. And there are things right now as you're sitting
in your situation that you don't know about your situation, but God does. God does know those things.
I didn't know that I was in an abusive church. I didn't know that the pastor
was not who he appeared to be. I didn't know in at the end of that 10 year span that he was going
to go to prison. I didn't know that part of the reason why I was not getting better was because
of the stress that I was under from being in this marriage and in this church. I didn't know it.
I didn't know it. I was just trying to love God. I was just trying to serve God.
I was just trying to survive. I was doing every single thing that I knew to do.
Someone needs to hear that today. I was doing every single thing that I
knew to do and you're doing every single thing that you know to do.
And you guys, sometimes Sunday shows up weird.
And my Sunday showed up on a Tuesday.
There were two places that I felt safe outside of my house and one of them I'm safe enough to
go to and one of them was the church. And so I was at the church on a Tuesday because that was
a regular prayer night, not Wednesday, Tuesday, the regular Bible study night and I was in the
nursery with my young child. And I heard a commotion in the sanctuary and I looked at the
monitor and I saw a bunch of people I didn't recognize. And so I went into the sanctuary to
see what was going on. I sat on the back pew with the two little kids that I was watching in the
nursery, my daughter and another woman's little toddler. And I saw as the entire mess unraveled,
all the secrets were exposed, all the lies came out. And within one day, one night, one hour,
God opened the gate and said, go ahead, you're free.
Now, I wish I could tell you that that was an easy transition because it wasn't. Everything
that I knew to be real was not real. All the things that I believed to be real,
to be real was not real. All the things that I believed, all the people that I thought I knew,
it was a very scary time. But you know what? God used it to rebuild me. God used it to set
me free. When I tell you that almost all of my mental health and physical health problems were
gone within a year, I'm not kidding. My Sunday showed up very strangely and yours might show
up strange too. There might be some things that fall apart around you and you might be
scrambling to try to hold them together because you think that's a bad thing. But God said,
that's a good thing. That's not what you think it is. You don't need that anymore.
There were parts of that that you never needed. You've got to allow God to shift you.
There's a huge shift that has to happen. Confidence coming back, clarity coming back.
The resurrection is already written in the story, you guys. It was already there. It was there all
along. Can I tell you something? This is what came in my mind before the call today. I want
to make sure that I release it over you guys because it's very important. There were so many
times in that 10 years that there was an exit door and I didn't take it. There were so many times in
that 10 years that God tried to show me what inevitably I would see at the end, but I would not
listen because my loyalty to people was stronger than
my loyalty to God and I didn't know that.
I didn't understand that you guys because I was young.
I was young in the faith.
I had just met Jesus at 22 but some of you all are old enough in the faith to know better
and your loyalty to things that are hurting you is stronger than your loyalty to the promises
and prophetic utterances of God over your life.
Some of you are suffering needlessly.
Do you hear me?
Please listen.
You're suffering needlessly.
You guys the disciples went and once again I'm not judging them but they went and they
went into hiding and they begin to mourn and grieve and suffer but honestly it was needlessly
right because Jesus already told them on the third day I'm going to resurrect.
You've seen me raise people from the dead.
You've seen what I can do.
It's not like they haven't seen people get out of the tomb before remember Lazarus.
Are we suffering needlessly?
That's how I want to end the call today.
I want you to ask yourself that.
I want you to sit with Holy Spirit in the places of pain that you've been in and I want
you to ask honestly am I suffering needlessly?
Did God already say he would?
Am I missing the exit sign to this pain?
Am I still in process when I don't need to be in process?
Is it time for me to step into a different part of this process where there's victory?
These are the questions you guys.
Father God we thank you for today.
We thank you Lord that you love us so much and you said that you would never allow pain
to come unless something was being born and we know that Jesus endured the shame of the
cross, the suffering of the cross only because of the joy that was set before him of that
resurrection not just his but ours and so Lord we declare that today.
We thank you for that today.
We want to live in the resurrected life.
We want to live in all of the amazing things that Jesus died to give us and so Lord we're
asking that you would show us if we are still sitting in Saturday show us where we are still
sitting in Saturday where we don't need to be sitting in Saturday anymore.
It's time for us to walk out.
The prison door is open.
It's time for us to walk out.
The morning has ended and the new day has come.
It's time for us to walk out.
It's time for us to enjoy what Jesus died to give us.
Lord I just ask right now any place that we're dead in religion any place where we're believing
a lie any place where we're stuck on the inside but you have already set us free on the outside
and we are free to go.
I pray that you would reveal that you would heal that in us Lord.
We're asking for this in Jesus name.
Amen.
I love y'all.
We're going to have communion and prayer tomorrow night for those that you can join that can
join us because it is Easter and so there will be no activation just communion and prayer.
See you soon.