Hi, good evening. How are you? Great to see you all. Welcome, welcome. People are logging
on now. I'm going to give them a minute just because it's just now eight o'clock. For those
of you that are new, I'd love to hear from you if this is your first live session. Can
you put that in the chat for us so we can welcome you? For all of my ladies returning,
we've been here before. Welcome back. So glad that you're here with us again tonight. Monica,
first timer, welcome. Let me see. I want to find you on my screen here. Okay, so I can
kind of put a face with the name. Sherita, first time, welcome. Anyone else joining for
the first time? This is your first live session. All right. Okay, that's what I was, I thought,
so Ashley, but I couldn't remember. So Ashley's first time. Okay, so is it Yovana? Is that
the right way to say it? Your first name? Welcome to you. Yeah, ladies, chime in and
welcome them for their first time. Remember what it was like for you when you came the
first time. So the more we welcome others, it just really kind of that pay it forward
kind of thing. I'm Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the Master Heart Work coaches here in our
community. We're so glad for all of you joining us and all the things that God has been doing.
It's been such a blessing to read all of the posts that are coming in from you all, some
of the introduction posts, some of the questions. And I want you to know, because someone said,
I hope this isn't a dumb question. I forget what the question even was. But somebody said
that this week. And I want you to know there are no dumb questions ever. So don't even
worry about that. Because if you have that question, I bet someone else has that question.
So just feel free to ask that. And we'll answer that for you as soon as we can. I do want
you all to know just on the weekends, the responses will be a little slower, not because
we're not there paying attention. But my husband and I pastor a church on Sundays.
So my Sundays are a little, I kind of get in there later than normal. But we'll always
get back to you all. And so just know that it's not you because sometimes people will
post things and then they get nervous and take them down if they're not responded to
within a certain timeframe. But I want you all to kind of come away from that a little
bit and just know that our team will get back to you and we love you. And we're so glad
that you're you're posting in there. And we don't want you to believe any lies of the
enemy about any of that. Okay. And not that I heard that that happened, but I just know
that it has in the past. And so just mentioning that to a couple other little housekeeping
things Supernatural Saturday, on replay, if you were not able to join us live, Jackie
talked about empty is the place where God works. And I was telling the 1pm session that
when I even read, like when I heard her say that on Saturday, as well as reading it in
the title of the replay, it led me to think about Easter Sunday. And maybe because we
had this actual tomb that we did where it was like a wood thing that we turned into
a tomb and actually had a, like a round circle kind of like stone that was rolled away. And
it made it very like kind of real, you know, and my husband preached about the emptiness
and I was just thinking about that a lot the last few days. And so in reminding you all
about that message, I want you to also think about not only the emptiness as in we typically
think of empty being negative, but think about the power of the emptiness of the tomb. Like
Jesus rose from the dead and he like was set free. We were set free in that same moment
that all of the power, all of the glory, all of the things culminating and coming together
created that empty space. And so I really believe that that's a word for you all in
this season, that the things in the past that have held you back, the things that send you
to the tomb, so to speak, that God is going to be working in those and he's going to set
you free from that. And there's going to be a new emptiness that you might feel, but that
is because of something good happening. And then God can come in and fill that emptiness.
Hopefully, as you seek him with the fresh and filling of the Holy Spirit, and we know
how good that is, right? And so that you'll feel just new every day that there'll be a
new hunger, a new thirst for his righteousness for him. And that out of that, out of the
overflow of being rooted and grounded in the Lord and his love for you, that you will find
your path to your spirit mate and your spirit mate will find you. And that's the cherry
on top because God in your relationship with him is first and foremost, like the most important
thing. If we are used to lead you all closer to the Lord, like that's a huge win for us
in this community. And so just know we're praying for everything, all of God's blessings
in your life. But we are so excited about all of you that like the reconnections that
are happening with the Lord and the testimonies that are coming in and, you know, people
being set free from mindsets about who God,
who they thought God was, but that's not,
you know, wasn't truth and all those kinds of things.
So just be excited, be excited for the emptiness
because the filling is coming, the filling is coming.
And even as we talk in, you know,
Jackie's been talking about making room for the new,
you know, you are emptying something, a space,
or you're healing and creating, you know,
that space for something new to come.
And it's a good thing, preparation, right?
So just be leaning into those kinds of concepts
as you're going through the heart work.
And even in the moments where there feels like
that tension and the pain,
just know that we're there with you,
we're there with you and we're walking with you
and you're not gonna be alone.
Just hang in with the group.
Don't let the enemy isolate you and take you out
because he will try.
Stay like, keep leaning into community,
keep leaning into healing,
and God will lead you all the way through to victory.
I wanna encourage you all as well
to invest in your self-care
throughout your healing journey.
So you might hear me say this a couple of times,
just as reminders for you, it's really important.
So drinking plenty of water, getting extra rest.
So if you're not a nap taker, totally fine,
but you all might need to go to bed a little earlier
during heart work because you're doing hard work.
You're healing, you're restoring,
you're being rebuilt from the inside out,
eating healthy whole foods.
So you're really giving your body extra nutrients
that you need and then also moving your body.
And this is really important because as you're processing,
if you don't know this,
a lot of times we store our trauma up in our cells
when we're younger, when we're older.
And so when we're processing and we're healing,
those toxins are getting released from our cells.
So we want those to go out of our body
and not cycle back through, okay?
All right, so I'm not a doctor, but I do know those things
and those are super important for you all in heart work.
So try to do those in your time here.
I'm gonna go ahead and pray for us
and we're gonna jump right in.
Father, thank you so much for your goodness.
I feel an expectancy tonight,
just even as I was praying before I came on,
God, that reminder that Lord,
even I, I have the gifts and the abilities that I bring,
but God, it's you.
So I pray that you would just help me
to hear what your spirit is saying,
that I'll convey that clearly
and that the lady's hearts will be prepared to receive it.
We just ask for a hedge of protection over their hearts,
their minds, their bodies, spirits, and souls,
that where the enemy might even try to lie to them
in any level, God, that you would just protect their minds,
help them to receive all that you have for them.
We thank you for your grace, your goodness.
We thank you that you're revealing areas for healing
and bringing darkness to the light
so that they can be set free,
so that they can step further into the fullness
of who you originally created them to be.
God, I thank you that you would give them visions
and revelations of how you see them
and the things that you're saying over them, God.
We thank you that you would reveal lies of the enemy
that they've been believing
that have caused them to be stuck in any area,
even things that they didn't know,
the places maybe they were, had like snagged,
or, you know, they're trying to move forward,
but something's kind of snagged and they just can't,
and they haven't been able to see it.
God, we thank you for revelations of those things as well,
where we thank you for also just, yeah,
friendships and connections being created
through this community.
For those that have felt like they haven't had friends
in the last season, or they felt lonely, God,
we thank you for filling that as you heal, God,
that you would help them to have the courage
to reach out and make friends with someone in this community.
We just thank you in advance for that in Jesus' name, amen.
All right, so we're leaning
into supernatural surrender tonight.
That's gonna be our main topic.
We're gonna talk about that the most.
And this afternoon,
as I was getting ready to lead the session,
the Holy Spirit was just bringing up all kinds of stuff.
It was good, and one of the notes I wrote down,
I don't always have the, like,
I'm not always able to remember everything that I say,
which is totally fine,
because I like each session to be unique,
but I did write this down
because I didn't want to forget about it.
So the Lord brought up about the land
that's flowing with milk and honey,
and how Joshua and Caleb were the only two
out of that whole group of people
that were not deterred by the giants in the land.
And so I want y'all to be thinking
about that a little bit tonight, okay?
From the aspect of everybody had an opportunity to go in.
Everybody saw the giants,
but only two said that they could take the land, okay?
The enemy is gonna try to reveal to you
giants in the land as you move forward.
And God is always going to be trying to show you
that you've already won,
like the victory's already won for you.
But it's whether or not you believe
that the victory is won and that you can do it.
do it, that God can fulfill his promises in your life, that God is not withholding
from you, nor has he ever withheld anything that's good from you.
Maybe he didn't say yes to something that you thought was good, but it wasn't good
for you, but he is always trying to lead his people, his children into a land of
fullness and abundance, uh, the land flowing of milk, you know, milk and honey.
I mean, honey is, was like a big deal, you know, back, back then.
It's not like how now, like you go and there's just, you know, you can go to
these honey farms all over the place.
Um, and so I just want you, it was kind of like the, I would imagine back then,
and I would have to do research on this, but it was probably something
that was like of great price.
I imagine.
So the land flowing with milk and honey had a lot of blessings and
provision sustenance, you know?
Um, and so as you're moving forward, know that God wants to help you shift
in your perspective so that you can step into the promise land.
Okay.
And the promise land look might look a little different than you thought,
but it's going to be really good.
It's going to be really good.
How do I know that?
For those of you that are joining us for the first time, you
don't know anything about me.
You've not heard any of my story.
So I'm just going to tell you a little tidbit, uh, here and there as we go
tonight, um, so I'm one of the success stories from this community.
I went through the program back in 2021.
And, uh, God really did a huge work in my life.
I started coaching for Jackie in may of 2021.
And I met my, uh, back then the guy that I didn't know would be my spirit mate,
but as I was dating and talking to people, uh, God led me to Brian and
it was a very supernatural thing.
Uh, I did not want to move.
I was adamant that I wasn't going to move because my spiritual daughters
lived in Lexington, Kentucky, and I didn't want to move away from there.
And, uh, God through Jackie kept encouraging me to be open, to be
open to whatever God wanted to do.
And you all, um, God led me to extend just a little bit, just a little bit,
come out of my comfort zone, extend my search and literally the same
day I did that, Brian messaged me.
Now everyone's, it was a very supernatural.
I want y'all to understand that very supernatural thing that God was doing.
And, um, not everyone's story kind of falls together exactly like that.
Right.
But, uh, God is doing amazing work in a lot of people's lives in this community.
Um, Brian and I got married almost a year to the day of
meeting each other in person.
And, uh, it's just really been, uh, such a blessing.
And the reason I wanted to share that with you is because in the process, uh, I
was thinking about this part this afternoon, I didn't tell them on PM ladies,
this, um, not because I didn't want to, but I just didn't even think of it.
Um, but in my supernatural surrender process, I had to let go of a list, just
like we're going to encourage you all to let go of your list of things.
Does that mean you, you have to end up with someone you don't think is
attractive?
No, but there's things in our hearts that come from trauma that create our
list as well as things that we think we need that we don't always need.
And so, um, I had a type, I had a type that I was typically attracted to.
And I also with my, um, at the time, um, I felt like I was pretty open minded
regarding denominational kind of people, like different denominations, whatnot.
But, uh, come to find out.
I wasn't quite as open as I thought when I first met Brian, Brian was from a
denomination that I felt was pretty conservative and y'all I'm, I'm, I'm not
conservative for those that are just coming into the community.
I, God uses me in all kinds of giftings.
It's a blessing, but I'm, I'm as Pentecostal as they come ladies.
So, I mean, it was just kind of funny.
Like God brought him into my life.
And I remember saying to Jackie, yeah, I don't know if I can date this guy
because we're like, like opposites, like, how's this going to work?
And she's like, Bethany, just get to know him.
And you know, I did.
And I'm so glad that I did.
And has it been, uh, something to learn and navigate?
Yeah, absolutely.
But Brian always accepted everything about me and not only accepted it, but
he encourages me to be myself and he's full of the Holy spirit.
So just because he's from a denomination that was different from mine didn't
mean he wasn't full of the Holy spirit.
And so I had to surrender that pen and I had to trust that God was doing
something supernatural in my life.
And that's what I'm kind of leading into now.
But I also wanted to share, cause I saw this right when I sat down and
it's here at my desk every day.
My Jesus cares board sits right here next to my laptop and my computer.
Cause I like to look at it.
I like to remember the things that I'm casting onto Jesus and the things
that I'm telling him, like, Hey, you got this.
I can't.
do this, but you can. And one of the things I put on there, and
it's going to tie into one of your activations. So this maybe
that's why God highlighted it when I sat down tonight. But I
literally I've had this on my board since before I ever met
Brian. And it says fun with an exclamation point point. And
then I said, Jesus, you care about me laughing and having
fun. And God's been answering that. He's been answering that
for years, but I keep it on there because I don't ever want
to forget that I can depend on him to help me step into my fun
side and, and to also for him to create fun in my life and
adventures and, and laughter. And, you know, he does that also
through my husband. I laugh more now than I've ever laughed with
anybody in my life. He's silly, and he's quirky. And sometimes
he says dad jokes that aren't funny at all. But they still
make me laugh. And sometimes I'm like, yeah, that's not too
funny. But we laugh about it. Right. So hopefully, this is
filling your hope tank a little bit to tonight, that God is
going to do something for you that you're not expecting, and
then some. And so what does it look like for God to add his
super to our natural? You know, your ability can only go so far
even your ability to pick the person that would be a good
match for you, not just physically attracted to someone,
but a good match, like that God sees all their potential, and he
sees all their giftings, and he sees all the things that he
knows that he's calling you into. And he's like, yeah, man,
okay, yeah, this is what my daughter has in her. And this is
what my son has in him. And man, whoa, when I bring them
together, they're gonna be a really awesome match. I mean,
these are things that I think that, you know, God is thinking
about, you know, and yes, there's more than one person
that those kind of things can happen with. But I do believe
that, just even again, from my experience, like, Brian and I
are doing things that I always felt like God was leading me to
but with the people in the past, I never felt like I could get
there. But it was always in me. But sometimes you need another
person to kind of partner with to carry out that, that
supernatural kind of spiritual DNA and the things that God is
calling you to the promises. And so for you, even as an
individual, what's important as I'm saying this tonight, is for
you to understand that you healing and growing and
becoming more whole, as an individual, is so vital to you
meeting someone else that is healthy. Right? So I had to take
some time to heal, to get more grounded and rooted in and who
God said I was to really understand like, okay, God, like,
who do you say that I am? And if I was thinking and hearing
negative things, understanding that that wasn't from the
Father, and had to really cycle through all of that stuff. So
all the things that I tell you all, I've done it, or I'm still
doing it, because it doesn't end. Like we all are being made
new every single day, if we turn our heart and our mind and our
thoughts over to the Lord, and we say, Okay, Lord, like, help
me to deny my flesh and help me to be full of the Spirit, like,
what is the Spirit saying, and that we would surrender to
anything that is apart from Him, as in not do those things, okay,
submit our flesh and, and surrender to the Spirit is, is
what I'm saying there, just to be clear. Okay. All right. So
John 15, four through five is the scripture verse I'm going to
start with tonight, remain in me, as I also remain in you, no
branch can bear fruit by itself, it must remain in the vine.
Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I am
the vine, you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in
you, you will bear much fruit. Apart from you, me, you can do
nothing. And so I love to set the table with that when I start
talking about supernatural surrender. Because even before I
got on tonight, that is the scripture I pray over myself
every time. God like, like, I need you, like these ladies
need you. So help me to hear what you're saying, and help me
to convey that as clearly as I can. And so trying to be an open
vessel for Him to flow through. And bringing that into
everything that we do, ladies, is so important. The scripture
there was John 15, four through five, that is in the NIV
version that I read tonight. But that we can even take that into,
you know, healing process. That's where you're at right
now. You're in the heart work healing. And I want you to every
day just think about even as you're doing the heart work,
Lord, like help me to remain in you because you're the vine, I'm
the branches. Apart from you, I can't do anything. Thank you,
God that you're, you're helping me hear what your spirit is
saying. You're, you're showing me what I need to know so that I
can receive more.
for healing and step further into the freedom
in the original plan and purpose that you have for me.
God, I thank you that you never leave me,
you never forsake me.
God, that I'm your beloved daughter,
you say it and help me to receive that truth.
You know, all those kinds of things I just,
you know, it's so important that we understand like,
ladies, you're not gonna have to walk one second
of this heart work alone.
Feel the Holy Spirit on that.
So I'm gonna just pause there for a minute.
Even in the very tender, tense moments of heart work,
because sometimes it is, man, we feel it.
And yeah, like Alina, I know.
Sometimes the loneliness is at the core of who we are
because of neglect that we went through,
but we're not alone.
And so we have to understand that if we really
are still battling with loneliness,
where is that coming from?
What's feeding the lie of lonely?
And I'm not saying we don't ever feel lonely
in the physical realm, y'all.
We moved many, many states away from where we lived before.
We have a church full of people,
but if you've never pastored,
you can't just hang out with the sheep all the time
like your friends, okay?
You can love them, you can get to know them,
but you can't hang with them like the same.
And so because we're so busy building the church
and doing what God is doing,
we haven't had a lot of time to go out
and just hang out and make friends yet, yet.
Y'all, I say yet a lot on purpose
because I want you all to use that word a lot too.
So you maybe don't have breakthrough yet,
but you're going to.
You might not have met your spirit mate yet,
but we believe you're going to.
It's that we would partner with faith in that,
in the statements that we make,
that we would leave room for faith
in the supernatural to work in our lives.
And so maybe you need a new job.
Maybe that's something you're praying for.
Maybe that's the area that you're really like,
yeah, you want the spirit mate too,
but man, you're really needing breakthrough over here.
Maybe it's a family situation and you're really like,
God, I'm trying to do everything I know to do,
but God, it's just,
I keep hitting up against wall after wall after wall,
whatever it is.
We had a lady in the afternoon session.
She's battled physical illness for a very long time, y'all.
She's tired and that's been a struggle for her.
But even in that,
that we would rely on the change and the healing coming.
So as we move forward tonight,
I want to remind you that God is a gentleman.
He will not force his way in.
What do I mean by that?
Well, he's not going to force his way into your heart
and he's not going to force his way past,
do not enter signs that you might have subconsciously erected
in your heart.
Cause what happens is sometimes we are like, okay, yeah,
Lord, you can come in and do this work in my heart,
in my life.
But then when he starts meddling, you know,
that's how we feel.
Like he's in there,
he's in there in the hard places and we're like, whoa,
wait a minute.
Maybe not, maybe not.
This, this feels painful.
I don't know why,
but this is what's coming up in my mind.
Like porcupine, like all of a sudden,
like the porcupine things go up and we're like,
wait a minute, get back, get back.
This isn't safe, get away from me.
And we have to understand that that is a fear response
happening in us, okay?
But if we will allow those do not enter signs to come down
and we allow the Holy spirit and we allow God,
the father and Jesus to come in to those tough places,
we will find that healing will come in,
in even those moments of fear or tension,
that they will begin to subside.
For some of you, because of the depth of your trauma,
it might take you a little longer,
but I want you to know you're still going to make it.
Just like different people have different injuries
that when they go into the hospital,
there's different levels of injury.
Am I saying that one person's sin is worse than another's?
No.
Am I saying one person's trauma is worse than another?
No.
What I am saying though,
is that there are different depths within people
because of maybe some people have been processing
some of their pain.
Maybe some people have never had anybody
to really walk them through this kind of stuff, you know?
So if you've got years and years and years of stuff
kind of pressed down in there,
it might take a little longer and that's okay.
Everybody's journey is their journey.
So really resist comparisons, okay?
When other people are getting breakthroughs,
the enemy is trying to convince you,
well, why are you getting breakthrough?
What's wrong with you?
I'm serious, y'all.
In heart work, this stuff happens.
I've coached people on it.
So when that happens, we want to resist the devil
because he's trying to lie to us.
And it says when we resist.
resist him, he has to flee, he can't stay.
So we lean into the light and we resist the darkness.
We allow the do not enter signs to come down.
We give God permission to come in.
Revelation 3 20 says, behold, I stand at the door and knock.
If any man hears my voice and opens the door,
I will come into him, will sup with him and he with me.
I use that scripture because even when we ask Jesus
into our hearts and our lives, we ask him to come in.
It's an invitation that he's extended to us,
like, hey, I wanna come in and have a relationship with you,
but he doesn't force his way in.
He's not barging the door down and breaking it down
and pounding on the door.
Some of y'all have been through all kinds of trauma
like that, yeah, that's not God.
That's not how Jesus and the Holy Spirit and God work.
He's like, hey, daughter, hey, hey, Ashley,
hey, I love you, like, come over here, come up here.
I have an upgrade for you.
And what that might sound like,
I don't know if this ever happened to y'all,
but when I was dating this one guy,
my spiritual daughters, when I talk about them,
it was their dad and I would go to family functions.
And at first it wasn't like this,
but the longer I was with him and the more that I just,
I knew he was not healthy for me,
but I'd be sitting there like the husband or the,
not the husband, the dad and the two boys,
their dad would sit in and hang out
and I'd be out hanging out with the dogs
because the dogs were friendly.
They were kind and they liked to have fun.
And those guys were grumpy and complainers
and all kinds of stuff, but I'd be sitting there
and the girls would play out with me
and, or they'd be outside playing.
But I remember thinking like, yeah, this isn't my family.
Literally multiple times I had that thought,
like, this isn't your family.
And y'all, sometimes I think it was the Lord saying,
hey, this isn't where you belong.
This isn't your family.
Like, I have something different for you.
And I heard that enough times that it really like,
it really started resonating more and more.
And among other things,
God used some really significant things
to lead me out of there.
Unfortunately, you know, other choices that he made
also were a part of that, but praise the Lord,
I chose and I walked away from that
and I just didn't look back.
And I'm so glad I didn't because God had way more
in store for me and I've never once ever had that thought
the entire time I've been married.
From the first day I met my husband's mom,
she hugged me and I just was like, okay,
like this feels healthy.
And, you know, every family has their stuff,
but even still like she came and stayed with us
for a week in January and his daughters have been out here.
I've literally never had the thought, this isn't my family.
Actually, I feel like they're more my family
than my bio family.
Just because they just love me way, way healthier
than my bio family was ever able to do
just from their own pain and stuff.
So I'm gonna read a little something to you
because we're gonna start to talk more
about this supernatural surrender and things in us
that cause us to try to resist surrendering, okay?
And so this is from the heart work book.
I'm not gonna read a lot,
but I do wanna point out these couple things tonight.
It says this, ever since we were toddlers,
our mantra has been, I do it myself.
We have been programmed by our broken world
to never depend on anyone or anything.
And people that do are considered foolish and naive.
All through our lives, we are taught overtly and covertly
that it's a good thing to be in and stay in control.
And that's a lot of hard work.
One of the main reasons we don't want to depend
on anyone else is because we don't want to be disappointed.
Being disappointed is painful, maybe even more painful
than not trusting anyone to help us in the first place.
I want you to be thinking about that.
How many of you are allowing yourselves
to depend on someone else?
I'm gonna keep going.
So many times we think we have asked God to help us,
but then when the answer doesn't show up immediately
and in the way that we want it to,
we think God has failed us.
We think God is not going to do what we have asked him to do
when in reality, he's doing exactly what we asked him to do.
But because it doesn't feel good,
we declare God incompetent and off we go
trying to fix it ourselves.
Self-help isn't a thing.
God doesn't ever tell us to go figure it out.
Good luck, kid.
I hope you make it.
That isn't what God does or says.
And so I want you to be even just thinking about
when are the times where even inside of yourself,
you're like, I'm just gonna do it myself.
So even if you're not necessarily having that thought,
but you're just like, you know, that whole,
Jesus take the wheel, then you take it back.
Jesus take the wheel, but then you keep taking it back.
What are the areas of your life where that's like,
you just don't think Jesus can,
or God can really figure it out for you.
Or you believe the lie that he's dangling carrots,
but then he keeps taking them away.
So you're just like, I'll just make this happen for myself.
Or you avoid it all together.
What do I mean by that?
You avoid people and relationships
because you just tell yourself,
you believe the lie that it's just easier to do life alone.
I had, I think I talked about this young lady last week,
but I'm gonna talk about her briefly again.
I have this young lady
that I've been introduced to here in Fort Myers,
and I feel led to so into her life.
Her mother lives in Miami.
She's living with her father here.
Her father doesn't believe in God.
And so she is wanting to go to church,
but doesn't feel like she can come to the church.
So I'm going to her at Panera.
We're meeting at Panera right now.
That's what we're doing.
But I bring her up because of this.
She is a more introverted person
based off of what I've learned of her so far.
But you know, she told me probably no less
than four or five times on Saturday when I met her
that she's like, I just don't really wanna be around people.
I just like to be by myself.
And you all, I think that there's probably
some level of truth to that,
but I've done this work long enough to know
that she's also convinced herself of that.
Because probably somewhere along the way,
somebody hurt her.
And so it's just easier to do life without people.
I 100% think some people do like kind of more the,
you know, out on the farm
and they don't want a lot of people.
So I'm not saying that, but like I asked her,
so what are some things you would love to do,
you know, coming up?
Like, what are some things you're looking forward to?
She said, nothing, there's not really anything to do.
This is an 18 year old.
I'm like, and you all, if you've never been to Fort Myers,
it's like a lot, there's a lot to do here.
There's a lot happening, there's a lot to do.
And so I was like, really?
I was like, wow, there's tons of stuff to do around here.
Let's talk about this.
And as we started talking,
I started sharing some of the things we,
Brian and I did recently.
We went to the animal kingdom and I was talking about that.
And she's like, oh yeah, yeah.
I would love to go to Disney.
And then I was talking a little bit more
and shared about that we, when we were in Hawaii,
we went on this helicopter tour
and it was something I always wanted to do my entire life
and we got to do it.
And she's like, oh yeah, I really like waterfalls too.
I like, you know, well here, this, you know,
you hear these things are bubbling up out of her
as she's realizing,
or at least I'm realizing as she's saying it,
but then I drew attention to it later.
Like, look at that.
Like, there are things that you want to do,
but maybe you just haven't been allowing yourself
to dream about them.
And so I encouraged her to make a bucket list.
And I forgot, this was one of my things
I said this afternoon for my ladies.
I see a couple of y'all are on this after,
or this evening again, the bucket list.
This is why.
It's gonna partner with your activation for fun.
I did a bucket list when I was in heartwork
because, you know, Jackie's so great
about talking about waking up, dreaming again.
You know, even I was saying to you all tonight,
like, who are you?
Like, what do you like?
I want you to be thinking about these things.
What brings you joy?
Like, what are some things you've always wanted to do
that you haven't done yet?
Because guess what?
You don't have to wait for your spirit mate
to come to do some of these things.
Yes, it's okay that you have a bucket list
for when your spirit mate comes too.
You can do that as well.
But ladies, what are some things that you can awaken to
and supernaturally surrender the pen
of when it has to happen, how it has to happen,
how it has to look, and just go start having fun
and living your life fully?
So I encourage you to make one of those lists.
What are some things that you enjoy?
So for me, I put on mine,
I always wanted to go to a butterfly garden
and just sit there.
I just always imagined that, you know,
sometimes you go to them, or at least they show it this way.
I've never been to one where this has actually happened,
but they show people where the butterflies
are landed on them.
And I just am like, oh, that's so cool.
That's what I want.
So I'm sharing this with you
because that was on my bucket list.
Now, I didn't ever go to an official garden like that
where it was enclosed,
but I ended up getting married in a garden
and right where, like we were in this,
I forget what it's called,
but when there's one of those really pretty trellises
and it has lots of flowers,
well, that trellis led right to a butterfly garden.
So right behind where we got married for our ceremony
was a butterfly garden.
That's what this place, that's like what they labeled it.
So it had tons of flowers.
for butterflies and the whole nine yards.
And I told the ladies this afternoon too,
y'all, I was gonna do this.
I had this whole envision,
like I was gonna do this butterfly release.
I bought all these butterflies
and everybody was gonna open them at the end
and they were all gonna be beautiful and fly away.
Y'all know that did not happen.
Poor little things, don't know how, don't know when,
but they all were dead.
It was one of those moments that it was just like,
okay, I'm gonna surrender to this expectation right now.
And all I can do is laugh about it.
Like I remember, cause just, it was such a like,
oh my gosh, like they're all dead.
Like, what do you do?
Like I just laughed, but guess what?
During the ceremony, I didn't know this,
but I had many people send me photos.
I had a butterfly that was on my veil the entire ceremony.
Y'all, butterflies were a thing between my mom and I.
My mom passed literally two weeks after I got engaged.
And so it was really kind of a special thought to think
that while that didn't work out,
that thing that I had planned
and this idea and this imagination of how it would go,
but here was this one sole butterfly on my veil,
the entire ceremony.
Now, I don't want this, I don't think weird things,
but I really believe that was kind of a symbol
of my mom with me.
I believe God gave that to me.
And so I'm saying this to you to say this,
sometimes we have to surrender the pan of our expectations.
Sometimes the way we think it's gonna turn out
and we can prepare and we can do all the things,
but like, let's just trust that like,
however it's meant to work out, it will work out.
And in that process, like tonight,
what are some things in that, again,
where you're like, I'll just do this myself
and I'll lean into my own ability
and I don't need other people.
Well, that whole day, the whole day of the wedding
and even the whole weekend, y'all, I needed people.
I needed people to help with all kinds of stuff.
And how great that I had a community and friends
and people that were willing to step in
and help with whatever we needed help with.
So being in community and opening yourself up to people
is a very powerful thing.
And if that even, the thought of that even scares you,
right there, you need to say, okay, Lord,
like, can you reveal to me,
like, why is that causing fear in me?
To think about connecting with people in relationship
and letting them actually get to know me
and not living in isolation.
Okay, I'm gonna keep going.
So in Supernatural Surrender,
we emphasize in this community for you to not dig.
We do not want you to dig.
We don't want you to get your shovels out
and try to figure things out on your own.
We are very big on revealing for healing.
And who's doing the revealing?
The Lord is.
The Lord is, okay?
Helen, those, the community groups
come later in the program, okay?
And we do that intentionally
because we want you all to really focus
on your heart healing and staying on course.
All right, so we want you to ask the Lord
to reveal things for healing, trust what he brings up.
And then when he brings things up,
you wanna lean into the Holy Spirit, okay?
And I tell people this a lot, pull the thread.
What's that mean?
That means whatever comes up first,
even if you don't understand it,
if it's an image, a phrase, a memory,
even if you don't think it even hurt you,
but that's what's coming up,
then you would ask the Lord,
okay, Lord, like you brought this memory up
from when I was in elementary school.
And I don't know what you're trying to show me,
but I believe you're bringing this memory up.
Can you reveal to me what it is
you want me to know about this?
And just see what he says.
And record all of those things.
Even if you think it's insignificant,
there might be things that God shows you now
that even a week from now, it will make sense.
Does everyone understand that?
That's where even that supernatural surrendering
to the process of healing is really important.
Okay, I'm gonna put you in your breakout groups
and it's gonna be really good.
This is the question tonight.
What are some things God is nudging you to surrender to him?
What are some things that God is nudging you
to surrender to him?
So let me get these ready for you.
Okay, perfect.
And if you get in a room and nobody else is there yet,
don't worry,
cause sometimes people's internet gets delayed
or people...
I didn't send it yet.
People might not be able to go so I might have to move people around. So just know that I'll be working on that. I'll be praying for you all. We're going to do seven minutes for this first one. And here you are, that should be on your screen. Go ahead and click to join that.
And Diane, I see that you just came in. So I have to wait until these kind of get situated and then I'll put you in a room as well.
I switched.
Oh, that's all right. Yeah, that's totally fine.
It's just they jump around on my screen. So it makes it hard to put you in a group. There you go.
All right.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
I think I've got every out routes is by yourself.
All right.
A couple more just trying to make sure people are getting in a room and they're not by themselves.
All right.
Stephanie, that's totally fine. You don't you don't have to go in if you're at work. And let's see Beth Donnelly. Are you able
Okay, Rosie, that's fine. I didn't know if you want to go into a breakout session room or not.
Okay, I think at least have two people in every room. All right, Father, thank you so much for everything you're already doing tonight. God, we thank you for revealings for healing happening. We thank you for truth.
We thank you. Yes, Lord. I speak hope over every one of the ladies. God, we thank you for your
Yeah, just Lord.
The reminder that you make all things new and what just specifically came to mind, even before I had that thought was just
The scripture that talks about how you will prepare a table for us in the presence of our enemies. And so where I believe that's for someone, whether it's someone here live or someone that will watch the replay just the reminder that
That you don't have to worry about the situation that's weighing on you that God is going to work that thing out.
And God is going to bless you in the presence of those things that you were have been warring against. Hi, Alicia. I'm going to put you in a breakout room. Let me see. I have one that's only let's see room for they're talking about what are some things God is nudging you to surrender to him today.
Or there you go.
All right. So Father, we just thank you again just for even your grace.
That is so amazing. I just think of the song like how sweet the sound of it is it saved a wrench like us. I pray that you'll help us to remember
How far we've come. God, I thank you that you would reveal areas for healing and impart truth and grace to us. I see galaxy s 10
I don't know what your name is, but we're doing breakouts. I can put you into a breakout room here as well. I think I have another room that only has two people. Oh, Amanda's by yourself. Gosh, how did that happen right got to put you in there.
That's there for you try to click to join that
There you go. All right. Awesome. I'm Sarah in California, just so I know to were you trying to get into a breakout room or you're not able tonight.
It's okay if you're not able to, but I just wanted to check. Alright, so where we just thank you for revelation power and we thank you for truth. We thank you that
Yeah, Lord, even in our minds that you, you are daily transforming us by the renewing of our minds that all things have passed away and behold, everything is becoming new and you
Got to thank you that you would just come in and create new neuropathways in our minds and and just those places in our spirits and our souls that need your touch. God, we thank you for the bomb of Gilead that you're placing upon every wound, God, and that you're going into the recesses of our souls.
And you're going into the crevices and the cracks and crevices of our foundation of our heart. Every area that has just
Just that brokenness and the the things that have happened, Lord, and you just take all those things and you hold them in the palm of your hand and you fill them up with the power of your presence.
That your healing power washes over us and cleanses us it renews us it rebuilds us it's restoring us God we we we come out of alignment and agreement with the lie.
Your grace is not sufficient for us, God, that we we can't go through these things. God, we thank you that you enable us you give us the power and the ability to not only go through but to overcome. We thank you, God, for the victory that's already ours. So, Lord, I pray that you would
Yeah, Lord, just place the blood of Jesus Christ over every one of these ladies over their lives, their situation.
and that you would just help them to recognize the power of the blood in this situation that they're walking through and we thank you
God for doors of opportunity opening for them. We thank you God that you would
Yeah, just help them help us all to show up differently every single day that we would be
Yeah, just that change from glory to glory to glory that people would come up to us and be like, hey, what's different?
What's going on with you because they would notice God your glory and your light shining through us more than ever before
God we thank you for
just continuing to remove all the the dross and the
the chaff and the deadness of even
Just what I'm kind of hearing in the spirit. Sorry leave
It's just like a shedding of you know dead set like dead skin cells dead layers
And we just thank you it's kind of like makes me think of even metamorphosis as I was talking about butterflies or earlier
You know, they go in and they're in this process in the cocoon and all that transformation is happening. And then when it's time
They break through that cocoon and they shed that thing and then they begin to spread their wings and then they can fly at some
point
And and so where we just thank you for that transformation
process
God we thank you that even in the midst of
challenging situations and dynamics that you will remind us that you are there and
Every single moment God that you don't slumber you don't sleep and you're your jewel
It's your joy to love us to bestow your grace and your good gifts upon us
I believe that even as the word like how Elijah was running down the mountain and your goodness was
Overtaking them God we we just speak the goodness of God
That we would experience it in the land of the living that we don't have to wait just to heaven to experience that so God
I thank you for supernatural divine healing and revelation for
Just helping us Lord to have an upgrade of understanding. I
Pray that you would help the ladies to receive fresh revelation and vision of who
They are in you that you would help them to understand how you see them as well as God that you would speak a fresh
word in this season
For them that it would literally transform them from the inside out because it comes to the court speaks to the core
The way they used to look at themselves
But now they have a new revelation of God how you see them and that revelation would just come in and break off chains
And we thank you God that you are the chain breaker
You're the one that helps us to overcome that empowers us to
Yeah, Lord
Lay aside every weight that
So easily ensnared us in the past that we can now press on toward the high calling of God for our lives
Which includes us walking into the fullness of everything that God had planned for us in the beginning
When he created us and that also includes praise the Lord our love story and helping us walk into those things
Well, we we just speak life. We speak joy. We speak
Yeah, not even just joy but joy unspeakable and full of your glory God that that would be manifest in our lives in and just
Radical ways and that people would see what you're doing in our life and they would want to know like hey again
Like what's happening? How's this going and God that we would be able to say? Hey God did this
He healed me
He set me free
And we'd be able to share our testimony by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony
That people will come to know him through us in Jesus name welcome back
I'm getting feedback. All right, welcome back
So for those of you that are joining us new for the first time if you didn't know this
Oh, I guess we lost maybe like five or six people when we went into breakouts there. That's a bummer
Hopefully people didn't get kicked out
But um, we are gonna do our group shares here and I feel like maybe I'm getting feedback from one other person
Let me see if I can find
There we go, okay, um
Sometimes I don't know why certain certain computers I get feedback. Um, so
If you are willing to share with the whole group what you shared in the breakout about your supernatural surrenders
The way I want to do this to begin with tonight is I want to have a couple people share kind of quickly
and then if I feel like I need to jump in and do some coaching I will or I might wait until all of you
Go and then coach from there. Hey, cuz I want to hear from more people
Helen go ahead
um
So we're sharing what we shared right just on personal level. Yep. One thing that God's teaching me to let go is
Destructive mindsets that partner with lies
and
Something you spoke to earlier about God is withholding or God is incompetent
Or he's enabling and are unwilling and or unwilling to bless me with us
family, even though I've been praying for it for decades. And that's a life on the pit of hell.
And I need to stop partnering with that, pruning those thought processes and partnering with true.
Yes, I love it. Thank you so much. So I am probably going to circle back because there's
some things on there. I felt like even as you were talking, let's see maybe what God wants
to continue to do there. But even maybe before I move forward, I feel like a nudge just to wait
here for a minute. So let's talk about this ladies, because I think this is going to help
a lot of people. On the God is unable or that, you know, he can't do it or won't do it.
Let's unpack that a little bit. Helen, when is the first time that you believe that, you know,
just even if you can, again, you're not trying to figure it out for yourself. But as I ask you,
when it comes up, just whatever comes up first for you. When's the first time that you remember
thinking that God was unable or unwilling?
It was if I got older, it wasn't always there. It was when I got older, and everybody else seems to
be getting their family and I wasn't. So I would say like in my late 30s. I mean, like literally,
when you mentioned the whole dangling a carrot, because it was one being single for too long to
watching all the breakthroughs for people. And then three, it's like I would meet someone.
And then things would not would fizzle out even when they were believers, like I would meet
someone whether it was online or introduced to or whatever. And, and then would fizzle out. And I'm
like, you know, I could have done with this is being being mad at God, which you should never
be. But anyway, I'd be like, done without that, like, why did you even bring allow this person
if he wasn't going to work out, you know, kind of thing. And yeah. Yeah. And so this is super
helpful. Because here's the thing, ladies, because even as you heal through this program,
if you continue to move into the remainder of our program, I'm like, one of the things we talk
about is that every we believe that every person that we come into contact with is an opportunity
for us to grow to heal, to learn something. Some of them, it's just like, bless and block. Okay,
thank you. See you later. You know, so there's some of those too. But every everything that we
go through in life, like even myself, not even regarding romantic, but even regarding my work,
I and even when I was in college, like there were so many things like little things along the way
that God, I believe even then before I was a believer, God was kind of putting things in my
life in my path to prepare me for what I'm doing right now. All of that experience. And I remember,
I mean, you all, I felt like I was never going to be able to really step fully into full time
ministry and get paid for it. But that was something I prayed for, for a long time, because
I knew that calling was on my life. And I was volunteering, like I was a boss, like I was doing
all kinds of stuff for free. And I'm not saying I couldn't do that. But I believe that God had
more for me, I didn't believe I was living in the fullness. And so I just continue to believe for
that and continue to believe for that. And what's really amazing is that through the heart work,
not only did God unlock my love story, but he unlocked financial stuff and breakthroughs that
I had been like kind of worrying for, for years, I stepped into full time, like getting paid for it,
full time coaching ministry, I was doing all kinds of stuff like, you know, and so I just
want you all to see that it's really important in this process that we look at, okay, why did we
have a thought like and not that it's like, this is not to put cause anyone to feel shame, because
I have thoughts like what Helen was saying in the past. But what I'm saying, I had to look at why
would I think God, why would you do this to me? Because basically, that's what we're saying, God,
why would you do this to me? Okay, so even with the girl's dad, I remember thinking originally
that I thought he was from the Lord, the first couple, like month or so, but then it wasn't long
in, but I dated him for a real long time. But pretty early on, I was like, wait a minute, like something,
something wasn't adding up, then there were other things. And but then I would just
keep going, like, oh, maybe that first guy, like, maybe he'll come back on the scene here,
you know, and so but I had to look at was that God doing that to me?
Or did I come across this person and then choose to move forward with them? Okay, because there is a
difference. I believe that I gained a lot of insight. I love having my spiritual daughters
in my life. But I do not think that God had that planned for me. I don't I think that I went on
that road. And God all along was trying to say, hey, hey, come over here, come over here.
You know, and I just I, I was just had other things that needed healing.
yield in me that were causing me to stay in a place that was not his best for me.
Okay.
And so even in the, Hey, Lord, I've been, you know, single too long.
Everybody else is getting married and I'm not getting married.
Why am I still sitting here?
You know, these things that we face and we encounter, they're real, but
where do those thought, like those thought postures, the heart postures
that say, okay, God is blessing everybody, but you, and then what's
underneath of that, like, when we're having those thoughts, let's
look at a little bit deeper.
Like, what is the Lord like trying to reveal there?
Well, underneath the surface for a lot of us, there's other times way back where
we felt like a person didn't come through for us and because that person
didn't come through for us the first time that it looked like God wasn't
coming through for us, God never comes through for us is what it turned into.
Do y'all, y'all see how that progression can happen?
Okay.
So I want y'all to just be asking if these kinds of things come up,
what's underneath the surface.
Okay.
Megan, go ahead.
Hey, um, some of it might be similar, but, um, I feel like, okay.
I feel like God's been bringing up stuff as I've going through the part of the
book with, um, like, what is the heart and kind of roots behind things.
So, um, I feel like it's fitting, but, um, I feel like what came up was
comparison and just how it's interesting.
I feel like God's giving me a lot of grace for people who've gone before me,
who have gotten married and have had kids, um, before me and I, and this longing
has been, you know, in my heart for, for many years, and I feel like I I'm
noticing subtly where this comparison can come up where it's just like, I feel
this disappointment where it's like, why has it happened?
Why has it happened?
Why hasn't it happened for me yet?
And I was thinking on just like the whole concept, we do freedom prayer at my
church and just like, where, kind of what you said, like, where did this start?
And like, is there a time in my life where I like felt the need to compare,
like felt that, you know, um, why, why not me?
And I know I'm like a competitive and driven person.
And, um, I, I feel like it may stem from like, just comparison with my sister
possibly.
Um, and like when I was young, that might be part of it, but yeah, it's this whole
like scarcity mindset that's coming up through me.
Um, and a verse that was brought up too was a heart at peace brings life to the
body, but envy rots the bones.
So like, there's like a lack of peace in my heart.
Like, I want that to be filled with the Lord and his peace.
Cause that can be a, like a self-limiting belief that, you know, affects what God
has for me in the future.
If I'm like, if I'm stuck in this lie, it's like, where did I first start believing
that lie?
So I'm still kind of like thinking on that, but I just wanted to kind of process
that out loud with, with you and y'all.
Yeah, this is so powerful ladies.
And so, all right, maybe I'm going to pause a little bit here and there because
there's just some things I feel like to pull out for you all.
So a couple things, I love that you're leaning into the Lord in the process and
just kind of like, okay, you know, allowing him to connect dots for you,
including that scripture that came up.
Um, the sister thing is what I feel led to ask you about.
Can you tell me more what that dynamic was like growing up?
Yeah, that's a good question.
Um, she's four years older.
Um, and she, I mean, I've always looked up to her.
Um, I feel like we fought more when we were younger, but as we got older, like
in, when she was off to college and I was in high school, we, we like got along
better.
Um, I don't know.
I'm trying to think like, she's always been really caring and fun.
And, um, I think when we were young, like we were very different, like body
types.
And a part of me feels like it's when you talked about, I relistened to that
supernatural Sunday or whatever, whatever, whatever that was, some
body types.
And so she's always, she was always really skinny and I'm more like muscularly
built, like athletic.
Um, and I feel like that's come up in freedom prayer, but for me before, where
it felt so like, you know, silly and superficial, but it was like, you know, I
think in the, when I was younger, I saw like people would comment a lot.
Like she looked like a super mall, like even family members said she should be a
supermodel.
Like ants would say that.
And so like, maybe there's some lie behind that.
Like, that's why she's gotten, you know, a man early and like has three kids and,
and like, and then at the time I think I was.
You know, I think there was there's been lies that have been spoken to me about being overweight when I was younger. I'm like, I definitely am health conscious now. And like, I'm, I feel like I'm healthier and in shape, but I'm just more muscularly built, not like, you know, skinny like she was. So anyway, maybe there's something like that. It feels so superficial, but I know you brought it up recently. So that could be part of it.
Let's unpack that too. Yeah, it feels superficial.
Okay, yeah, let me think about that.
I mean, because it's like, it's, I know that like, our beauty is like, it's, it's, it's inner beauty. And so like, I, I think it's a superficial thing to think that she like, her being skinny is like, more beautiful than me being like, muscular. I don't know. I just, it doesn't.
Go ahead.
But if you're broken heart, at some point, it sounds like I think you're onto something here. And I don't think it's superficial. I think that there's somewhere in your broken heart that's telling you that you're less than because your body is different than hers.
Yeah, that's true.
And here's, here's the thing. I literally was just talking to my husband about this today. When, when we don't feel confident in ourselves, like even if we feel like, okay, let me say this, I think there's a level of we can still be confident, like on a surface level, like we show up and we're good.
But like, deep down when there's body image issues, or there's these internal struggles because of programming and things that we heard other people say, and then the enemy was coming in and chirping at us. And we partnered or believe because we didn't know any better. A lot of times when we're young, we, we don't even have the capability to fight those kind of things off.
And if there are messages that we're receiving, even from people like parents and like aunts and uncles, they don't realize what they're saying, maybe somebody's picking at you because they think you're eating too much. And like, you know, all these little things that we don't even we're not even aware of, it all feeds into that same thing over and over again.
For me, watching my mom and sister hide food, some of the opposite things were it was those kind of things. Like, why did they do that? Like, I didn't, but then like that perpetuating that stuff when I would feel stressed out, like, it's weird, but it's part of that is because I saw them doing that stuff.
Yeah. And so that's kind of a polar opposite. So I want to pull that out for some other people that are on tonight, too. But like, I think it's good to ask the Lord. Like, even why, why, why am I believing the lie that this is superficial, that this is a struggle for me? You know, and and just come out because to me, that's the enemy trying to shame you when you're trying to get freedom.
Okay.
And I'm sorry. But there's a lot of people that are way out of balance and overweight in church and nobody's talking about it. And some of that is like, hey, hormonal things, everything, there's things that all come into play. But we we have to understand that the programming religious sometimes even program has told us that it's wrong for us to care too much about our body.
And our looks. I had a woman and I don't know why I'm going on this. We're already at 904. So we're probably only going to talk about supernatural surrender night. But God knows what we needed. So I had this woman tell me, um, I went on this trip when I was serving with Elevation Church and I let her like I paid for our hotel. So she's staying with me in the hotel room. So she didn't have to pay.
And I just you all, I don't feel like I'm a vain person. But I just I like to get my hair colored. I like to wear makeup. I like to have nice clothes. And so like, you know, she's seeing my process every day that we're there because I get ready before I go places. And you know, she like made a comment to me about like, that I need to not be so vain.
And I remember just like, wait a minute. Like in my spirit, I was like, No, I knew that was not from the Lord. And so I talked to another friend that was there. She was just staying in another room later that night and process that out with her. And, you know, just because I knew that was not coming from the Lord, but it hurt me because here I am. I'm, I feel like I'm not coming from the Lord.
I feel like I'm being super kind to this person
and then like the enemy used her to come at me
and try to cause me to feel like guilty and bad
for caring about these things, right?
And so for whatever it's worth,
I want y'all to be thinking about that too.
Like, are there people in the church that shame you?
Are there, were there people growing up
that said things negatively about you in these ways
that now it's like programming on the inside
that's subconsciously impacting you in certain ways?
And just be thinking about that.
There's a lot of, I can't tell you how many people
I've coached where there's been sibling comparison.
So I think, yeah, look into that with the Lord
a little bit this week.
And when I say that,
I just mean ask him some good questions.
We wanna encourage you in this community,
ask God good questions.
You wanna get like, keep doing that.
Keep asking him good questions, see where it leads.
And I believe he's gonna reveal quite a bit more there
and really give yourself that permission
to take a look at this.
Because again, it's not superficial.
God is leading you on a healing journey.
It's his purpose for you right now.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
So glad that you shared.
And I wanted to say also, Helen,
thank you for sharing as well.
I think I forgot to say that to you.
Amy, go ahead.
So for me, I really feel like the Lord
is having me surrender my job search to him.
But now that we're going through all of this,
I actually think on a deeper level, it's control.
Because I've been unemployed for eight months.
And I think there's some pride there too,
because I'm a very seasoned professional,
have never had trouble getting a job.
I got laid off eight months ago.
And I was very shocked
that I have not been able to find a job.
And I've been in multiple final interviews.
But I really feel like the Lord just revealed to me,
it's actually control that I need to release to him.
Because I felt like I've been in control for so long.
And I had a lot of tenure at this company.
So for me to be in this job search now
has been really difficult.
I even this morning was like having a meltdown about it
because every single door,
everything's been slammed in my face lately.
And so I really feel like it's been
a season of surrender for me
because I have to surrender financially to him as well.
And yeah, I think it's control actually.
I hear you talking to everyone else
and I'm like, oh my gosh,
the Lord just revealed to me what it is.
And also maybe a little bit of pride too,
if I'm gonna be transparent.
I think that's what the Lord has just recently revealed
to me in this conversation.
Yeah, I think you're right in that.
And here's the thing, I want you to,
okay, I also just heard it has to do with identity too.
Yeah.
This is at the core.
It is control and it is pride.
But ultimately I was going to say to you like,
who are you without your job?
And like even before I got the question out,
like I heard identity.
So like, I think God is trying to lead you to a revelation
that you are not defined by your job and your profession
and your career and your abilities.
Like there's so much more to you.
And it doesn't mean you can't have an amazing job
and do all these giftings
and use them the way that you do.
But I believe that there's something to that.
Yeah, I see that too, Lori.
Like I struggled, like I knew in my former job,
like I deserved a promotion.
Like, so, I mean, I always went above and beyond.
And you all, I cannot tell you,
like they would not promote me.
They would give me pay increases,
little bitty pay increases every year.
So praise the Lord for that.
I was super thankful.
But I remember just like, Lord, I don't understand.
I don't get it.
And you know what?
Y'all, if they had given me a promotion,
I probably would have stayed there.
That's good.
But God had other plans for me
and he was about to lead me into coaching full-time
and I just didn't even know it.
He was preparing me and I needed to make room
to be able to step into it.
And so in that though,
there was a lot of entanglement for me
because I wanted that title
because I felt like that would like
establish me as accomplished.
I didn't finish my college degree
because I dropped out to take care of my mom.
And so it was like this level of accomplishment
that I was trying to attain
that I felt like would give me that,
like this, I finally made it.
I am somebody.
And so I want you all to be kind of considering
how that shows up in your life,
even regarding your romantic relationships and all that.
Who are you with just you?
Like, who are you?
Because knowing who we are.
We are, guess what?
I used to lose myself in relationships all the time.
You wanna know why?
Cause I actually, I knew myself, but I didn't really
to the point that I felt like every time
I would start dating, I would get so absorbed in them
or their kids or their, or whatever.
And I will lose myself more and more and more.
So knowing ourselves is so critical
to us being healthy in relationship.
But knowing who you are outside of a job
and a title is also super important.
That's really helpful actually,
because I feel like when I lost that job,
I was like, I'll get a new job.
Like, no worries, I'll get a new job.
And I had three job interviews
and went all the way to the finals
within a month of losing that job.
And then it was like crickets.
And now I'm not even getting interviews.
And so I've really been like crying out to God,
like, what am I gonna do?
But I will tell you,
the Lord has provided financially for me.
So that's really helpful.
I'm gonna pray more into that
because I've never been this long without a job.
So I feel like hopeless kind of,
like I'm feeling like, what do I do?
So.
I don't, I have a feeling there's a new,
I keep hearing the word new vine coming.
So what I am interpreting from that,
I almost feel like God is going to open a new direction
for you, like a new source, a new vine.
And I don't know if that means
like a totally different role or what,
but I just, I keep seeing and hearing new vine,
new vine, something new growing down.
So it might even be something
you're not expecting or looking for.
I'll take it.
I'm ready.
Okay, so here, ladies, this is what we do, okay?
I wanna teach you something right now.
So when we're facing these kinds of situations,
you wanna go through the healing aspects
that I'm talking to you about,
but I also want you to come out of alignment
with any lies that you might be hearing.
So ask the Lord, okay, when this process has been happening,
what lies have been surfacing?
Okay, what lies have been surfacing?
What have I been hearing that's not true?
And then partner with things like this.
God, thank you so much for opening up doors
of opportunity for me, you know,
in places and spaces that I couldn't even imagine.
God, thank you for putting my name
on people's hearts and minds that I don't even know yet.
Y'all, we can pray prayers like this
and not just pray them, but believe them.
And we might not always see that like right now,
but you all, guess what?
Like we can walk into that in the future
if we don't walk into it now.
And so praying with faith and belief that God can do,
again, take his super and add it to our natural
and amazing things happen.
So powerful.
I'm gonna be looking forward to the testimony
that's gonna come from this healing process
and what God's gonna do in this situation for you.
Thank you so much.
You're welcome.
And I did wanna mention earlier,
someone really quick, and then I'll come to Jennifer.
Where is it at?
I saw Alina put in there,
my brother drills me about wearing pants
because I'm a Christian.
And I really felt like I needed to say something on that.
I think if you wanna wear a skirt, girl,
go wear a skirt, get a pretty dress.
Let's bust out of that religious spirit
that's trying to come on you through your brother.
If you go to a super conservative church
where they don't believe in wearing skirts and dresses,
I'm not trying to tell you to be disobedient,
but I'm just saying there's a lot of rules
and religion and certain types of systems.
And I think it's totally fine
for you to wear a skirt and a dress
and be very modest and feminine and beautiful.
And so I wanna encourage you to pray into that
and make sure the enemy is not trying to bind you
into bondage with those statements from your brother.
Okay, Jennifer, go ahead.
So for me, I need to surrender some fear that I have about,
so my son is in a very unhealthy situation with his dad,
even though we have 50-50 custody of my son,
he is chosen to be with his dad the last six months
and he's really going downhill.
It's not a healthy situation for him.
And so I've been advised to get some legal counsel
on how to go about this process.
And I'm afraid and I feel like I need to surrender that fear.
I'm afraid that things are gonna get worse
between him and me.
They are already bad and I feel like it might get worse.
But I think I need to surrender this fear
and trust God with the outcome.
Even if it gets worse before it gets better,
I'm just seeking to just hear his voice and obey.
And I feel like I'm being called to do something
that's really out of my comfort zone.
I'm not a confronter. I like to keep things peaceful.
And so, yeah, that's what I need to surrender.
All right. Awesome. This is really good.
Y'all, there's so many powerful things happening tonight.
So first, make sure you put that on your Jesus Cares board.
Okay, very specific. I want to make sure you all very specific on your Jesus Cares boards.
Okay. If you just wrote, I need to get out of debt or I'm casting my debt on Jesus.
That's great. That's a great start. But let's get specific with our needs, ladies.
Okay. So in this case, she doesn't just need God to move in this situation with her son.
She needs God to get a hold of her son's heart.
Okay. Healing his heart and give her wisdom and decision making.
One of the things I wanted to say here, there's two things.
Fear is, you know, obviously we all feel it, but remember, it's false evidence appearing real.
Okay. So it's being informed through lies that you're believing.
So the reality is, is in the physical realm, it could get worse with your son temporarily.
Yeah. But here's the other flip side.
If God is nudging you and leading you to fight for your son and help him in a way that he can't comprehend it right now.
Yeah. It's worth it.
It's worth it. Right. And then what you said is I'm not a confronter.
And you might not be. Okay. I get it. But when you said it.
Like I heard the Holy Spirit say, tell her to stop partnering with that.
Okay. You all like we're called to like stand in authority and literally, you know, command heaven to come to earth.
So I want you, I want to encourage you to pray.
Yes, Lord, for heaven to come to earth in this situation.
That God would come in and like literally come into your son's room and meet him in his dreams.
And while he's awake, that you just start to partner with supernatural God working in his life, that God's going to provide you the ability.
And even when it's hard, that God is fighting for you when you all were in the breakout.
That was one of the scriptures I felt led to talk about was how God says he will prepare a table for us in the presence of our enemies.
That's the God we serve, ladies. And the enemies aren't just people.
They are principalities. They are powers.
They are the struggles that we have had for years and we've had a hard time overcoming them.
But God is saying, hey, daughter, I'm not only giving you victory over this thing, but I'm going to I'm going to bless you in front of your enemy.
So I believe that is for everyone, but I believe that's absolutely for you tonight.
God is going to bless you in the midst of your enemies. Yeah.
And we'll be praying for you. Please keep us posted on how that goes.
Yeah. Thank you. You're welcome. Thanks for sharing.
Let's see here. Ruth, go ahead.
Hi. Wow, this has been such a blessing listening to everyone's story and just what God's doing.
I'm so encouraged. And mine is I almost forgot what I was going to say.
I was just so like, wow, just taking in everybody's story like, oh, God, you're doing amazing.
Mine, I think, is control. I was in a great breakout with Sue and when she said some things,
I kind of also brought up some things in my soul and my spirit.
But I think mine is control and just holding on too tight. And it's started off with some of it is, you know,
with the capacity of poverty mindsets, I completely related with some of what I think was Jennifer shared.
No, not Jennifer. Megan shared about a sibling and part of it has gone from like, OK, God, like I've made wrong decisions.
I've kind of put myself in a situation where because you're a gentleman and you want to take control.
And I don't seem to know how to give God that control. I keep saying I'll give it to him and then I take it back.
It's like almost like the example I gave Sue was something I learned was like, you know, for people that lift weights,
whether it's like barbells, dumbbells, when they start having pain in their wrists, their elbows,
and they're like, oh, I can't lift is because they are gripping the bar too tight.
And if they actually adjust their grip, that they can actually lift more and actually carry more weight.
So I feel like I'm just an analogy for me is just like every aspect of my life, like trying to micromanage it because of, you know,
like I said, there's the fear, there's, you know, things that happen, happen by a certain age.
There's, you know, the comparison with my sister.
And in family, there's the, okay, God, if I screwed up and I've made so many wrong turns,
have I indefinitely delayed what you want to do because of my decisions?
And even if you did it, have I messed up so much that I would screw up what you gave me
because I already have that pattern of like a dysfunctional cycle, if that makes sense?
So that's kind of what it is.
Why it's almost like something that I know I've had a desire for.
I know it's the God-given desire, you know, being with the spirit mate, having children.
I'm like, am I so set in my ways being single that I wouldn't even know how to, you know,
I don't know how to explain it.
Like I wouldn't, even if I have that blessing, would I ruin it?
And so then not being afraid of the very thing that, I don't know if I'm making sense.
I feel like I'm not.
It is.
And we're not going to go into this content tonight, but one of the things I was originally
going to talk to you all a little bit about is that this time is different.
And how do you know, how can you tell it's different?
And one of the things I do want to say is that ladies, this time is different
because you're different.
It really is that simple in the sense of you are not who you were when you came in the door here.
So think about it this way.
Most of you, I'm not saying you won't struggle with some similar things, but most of you will
go on from heartwork and you will make different choices than you made before in all different
kinds of areas, because you will have healed and gotten breakthrough.
And so even when the enemy comes and brings unhealthy to your door, whether that's an
unhealthy work situation, friendship, romantic, whatever, whatever else there might be,
you're going to be like, wait a minute.
No, like that person's nice, but that's not for me, you know, or that's a really great
opportunity with that job.
But man, I just don't feel like God's blessings on that.
Like, I feel like he's saying, no, go somewhere else, you know, where you just really start to
own that.
Like, OK, God, like you're showing me and I trust you.
And so I want to encourage you, the insight and the revelation that you're getting, Ruth, even
the example that you're saying about the lifting weights and God is connecting dots for you.
I do believe that you are changing.
You are learning how to loosen that grip.
It might not seem like immediate, but like even little increments is still improvement
little by little by little.
Right. Same thing with working out.
We'll use that kind of similar analogy.
Like when we start working out, we might not see results right away, but if we keep working
our muscles, if we keep working out, we'll start to feel healthier, experience different
feelings in our clothes. Who doesn't love when you can tell a change in the way your
pants fit? I don't know about anybody else, but man, that feels so great.
Right. Well, you might not be able to feel the way your pants fit different right now in
these situations, so to speak.
But I absolutely believe.
You've been losing some inches, OK, like I'm kind of using that as an analogy, but like
you've been changing a hundred percent, you've been changing since you came into this
group. And so the more that you implement the confidence tools, I think for you, just
knowing some of your other things that you've gotten breakthrough from or that you've
been working on, the more that you know who you are in the Lord and like the things that
you enjoy, the things that you love.
I do think you're going to be able to start letting go of that really tight grip.
Do you all know why we tend to control?
In addition to fear, does anyone else know?
I want you to think about the first time that you ever tried to control something.
A lot of times we do that because of pain and hurt, and we try to prevent ourselves from
experiencing that ever again.
Oh, yeah. And even people with OCD, you all just so you know, if you if even if any of you
struggle with OCD again, no shame, everybody deals with different things.
But most people that deal with OCD tendencies of any kind, it's because they were not able
to control any situation in their life at some point, whether it was growing up or even as
adults, something very traumatic happened.
And out of that, the only thing they could control were these things that, you know, the
cleaning or the hypervigilance about certain things like my youngest spiritual daughter, she
was very, very particular about the sheets on her bed.
Like they literally have to be tucked a certain way.
It's very, it's very, it was a very difficult thing when she was little, and I would try to put
her to bed and she used to sleep with her sister.
Yeah, that didn't last for very long because they would fight because Olivia was so like, but
there was something to that.
It wasn't just that Olivia was trying to cause trouble.
Do you see?
and it would always get worse when her mom or dad would fight more or things you know mom would get
drunk in front of them. There was pain going on under the surface there and Olivia sweet little
girl all she could control were the sheets on her bed. Do you see how that works? So I want
you to think about the areas where you've tried to control things ladies because we're talking
about supernatural surrender. We're not going to go far into control tonight because I actually
have a whole thing of content on that for another time but supernatural surrender is for all of us
relinquishing control. It is waving that white flag and saying okay
Lord I trust you like you're gonna partner and do something supernatural in my life
and for some of you you might be like well I've been waiting and God hasn't done anything yet so
what's gonna change? Well again hopefully you are. Hopefully you are because sometimes it's that God's
always doing something supernatural but he's waiting to give us the blessing because we're
not ready to receive it or sometimes we self-sabotage and I know some of you don't realize
that right now but some of you self-sabotage with friends, with work, with romantic relationships
in ways you just don't know it yet. So and that will get touched on more when you're all in the
next the Love Story Accelerator so I won't go into those but I wanted to point that out tonight.
Ruth thank you for sharing that was really great. Yeah okay Jennifer and then Joy and then we
Helen I'll do my best to try to come back to you okay. Hi Jennifer.
Hi there. I'm quite nervous to do this. I haven't, I actually have never done this so
I had to write everything down. Something that God is nudging me to do and this is all very
complex but basically I've been working at a job that I feel like I'm done and
I originally did not want to do this but he's been like little by little I feel like that God
has given me a specific talent and he wants me to open up a business and I have no idea.
I've had people try to help me and I just keep getting stuck. In 2021 I lost my dad.
I'm really sorry about that.
And I completely went into a hole and
I live in a different state than my immediate family and
I had to grieve alone. I lost a lot of friendships and relationships.
People that I had their back for when they lost people or when they were going through rough
things did not do the same for me and my job I had a really awful manager and
she had a meeting and said told everybody to just stay clear of Jen. She's going through something
and don't even give her a hug and so I was alienated at my job as well. So I had to go
through grief alone and last year I found this program and I know that I needed to do the hard
work and one thing that Jackie had stated was she had said that don't start anything
until you finish the hard work and I knew that this was I had to completely. I forget what the
word is but I talked to an accountant and I had to completely like debilitate the business name
and everything and before then I could concur with why she said don't start anything. I was
grieving. I bought a house. The house has had so many issues since then. I made some bad financial
decisions and I keep getting stuck with the book. I've had to start over multiple times
and I need help with so I keep going into this revolving door knowing I have to leave my job.
I don't want to be forced out. They're not going to force me out but I feel like I'm going to be
forced out because it's just it's time. It's been time and I want to be obedient to God
but at the same time I don't trust very well and because of other complex issues as I know we all
have. I don't know if I need words of wisdom.
or I started a Bible study with a women's group in my church, and that was a big step.
And it's a book about trusting the Holy Spirit and knowing the Holy Spirit's voice.
I think it's been so long that I've just been, I've pushed beyond that I just don't trust
my gut anymore.
I don't trust, is that the Holy Spirit talking or is that the devil talking to me and saying,
you know, so I guess that's where I'm at.
Well, hey, here's one thing first, let me start.
You did great.
You did a great job, Jennifer.
So great job on opening up and taking that courageous step to share with all of us and
letting us just be here with you tonight in this and in that those hard moments that you
know, we can come around you and just like whether the ladies are, you know, you realize
or not, but we're all here with you in this moment.
And y'all, we're never going to be in a moment just like this one ever again.
They're all going to be different and that we love you.
And we're so glad that you're here.
And a couple little things I want to kind of just draw out of where God is leading you.
The first thing is like, you're in the best place you could ever be in so that you can
get the healing and breakthrough.
From my perspective, truly, y'all, I've done other hard work programs.
I've done other things and man, there's just God's doing supernatural stuff here.
It really is divine.
And so God led you here for a purpose.
I believe that you are going to get revelation in some areas that you need it, that revolving
door that you used to keep getting stuck with these different things, that God's going to
reveal all of that to you in this process.
And it will come little, little by little, and it might be beyond the heart work.
It might be in the other sections as well, but there's all going to come together to
bring revelation.
One of the things I talked about this afternoon is that you all, okay, here's the reality.
The blood of Jesus Christ was shed for us.
It gave us victory the moment that he shed his blood over every area that we would ever
need victory.
But here's the thing.
We don't typically achieve victory until we get the revelation of where the blood needs
to be applied.
Does that make sense?
All right.
So in this regard, Jennifer, as you gain revelation on the areas that you need healing, God is
going to show you how to pray and apply the blood of Jesus Christ, the victory that's
already been won to those areas.
And that's going to come through divine healing.
A lot of times y'all, I pray when I'm praying for you all, and even myself, the balm of
Gilead when the Old Testament, they talk about that as a very medicinal, like that balm was
very healing.
And so that's why I pray that way when I'm praying for you all.
And so I do want to encourage you a couple of specific things.
On the loss with your dad, I encourage you to do forgiveness prayer sheets regarding
the people that you felt were not there for you.
Okay.
Including the boss.
So separate ones for the people, each person that you felt like did not, was not there
for you, said something that was like, caused you to be isolated and just start forgiving
those people.
Because I believe that the enemy, which I understand, I've been there where you really
need someone to come through for you and show up for you and they don't, it is hurtful.
But the enemy loves for us to get stuck in a root of bitterness and resentment for those
things and the people in the situations.
And so we want, we don't want you to be there.
Okay.
We want you to come out of that.
The Lord wants you to come out of that so that you can step into healing and freedom.
God's not withholding healing, but you're going to step into even more healing once
you forgive them and let that go.
Okay.
Cause they can't change that.
And the situation you have going on at work, I think you're going to get revelation of
what to do next after you forgive this boss.
Yeah.
I think there's going to be a lot that's going to come healing there.
And then also, it just stood out to me when you were saying, and you said it multiple
times, I don't trust very well.
And I used to say the same thing I used to, I don't trust.
Well, I don't trust people and y'all it's not, it's not that it's not true.
I do tend to be very cautious of people and, and just observe them and really figure out
like, okay, Lord, is this someone that's safe?
But I did have to come out of alignment and agreement with, I can't trust anybody.
And here's the kicker y'all, there were times that I even said, like, subconsciously believed
that I couldn't trust God.
And so I had to.
forgive God for not that God did something wrong, but there were times that I actually felt like
God failed me and I couldn't trust Him. Even as a child, the things that happened to me,
horrible things. And so I had to forgive God for that stuff, even though He didn't do anything
wrong, but forgiving Him was one of the most important steps I could have ever done, truly.
And so I would encourage you to really pray into that. God, is there areas that I need to forgive
you where I've been putting things on you that you didn't do? That's true. That's true. That's
exactly what, that was the word I needed. I would probably forgive God first before I even forgive
anybody else. Yeah. And forgive them all. Do them all. Seriously, I'm serious. And it's okay if it
takes you a couple of weeks, but let's partner with, it's not hard to forgive. Through grace
and courage, God enables us, the empowerment of the Holy Spirit enables us to forgive ladies.
So if you feel like you can't forgive, guess what? You've got a partner, a comforter, a counselor who
literally enables you to do so. So you can, you can through Him. And so I want to encourage you
to just on those couple of things and want to really see how that goes over the next few weeks.
Okay. Okay. Thank you. We'll be praying for you. So glad that you're here tonight. Yeah. Ladies,
I know it's 936. So if you need to log off, I want to give you your activations. And then I
am going to have Joy share, just because she hasn't got to share yet. And I know she's been
waiting patiently. But the activations for this week are, and ladies that are new, you're like,
what are activations? Activations are things that we do to activate our faith, to partner it with,
you know, our faith and our works together. Does that make sense, everyone? So we go do something
to partner with God in this healing journey. Okay. So there's two, well, the bucket list I gave you
earlier, that can be one, but it kind of partners with number two. So number one is track your
thoughts this week. I want you to be paying attention to how many thoughts are you having
that are negative. Now, when you have them, I don't want you to hyper focus on them. Okay.
But I just want you to pay attention. Like, is a majority, like, are a majority of your thoughts
negative or positive? Okay. And then if you have recurring negative thoughts, I want you to
notice what those are, and understand that you need to use that revealing for healing cycle to
probably get through those so that you can come out of agreement with those lies and those things
that are negative and come into agreement with truth. So everyone understand? So when you
recognize the negative, don't just keep partnering with that. You write those down,
cross those out like that's not truth. So God, what's the truth? What's the other side of this?
What do you want to show me? And then number two activation is what I'm calling supernatural
surrender to Mrs. Serious. Isn't that fun? I think that's so fun. Supernatural surrender to
Mrs. Serious and open up to Mrs. I'm fun. Mrs. Here I am and I'm fun. I'm a fun person. People
enjoy being with me. Some of y'all need to say that kind of stuff over yourself because you
actually believe people don't like you, but that's not true. So you're going to cultivate fun this
week. What does that mean? You're going to foster the growth of fun in your life. You're going to
improve by caring about having fun. Do you know that God wants you to have fun?
There's some people that don't realize that God actually cares about you having fun to encourage
that in your own life. So one of the ways we can do this ladies is you want to let the little Leanne
come out to play. Yep. Leanne, God keeps highlighting, highlighting you to me. So I felt
led to say your name with that. And so I don't know if this is speaking to you. If you're having
a hard time having fun in your life, if the enemy has really taken fun from you over the years,
I feel like maybe some diminishing of who you are has happened because of things you've been
through, but you're going to get, you're going to get that back. And then some, you're going to feel
like a totally different person very soon. And so part of that is having fun. And it might feel
awkward for some of you at first, especially if you haven't had fun in a long time, or it felt
like nothing is fun anymore because you just felt sad. But you want to let the little, little you
come out to play. So what did you like to do when you were little? Did you like to swing on the
swings? Did you like to go down a slide? Yes, you all. I'm going to encourage you to do those kind
of things. Now, some of you, if you're not physically able, totally fine, but ask God.
The whole thing, you all always ask the Lord,
Lord, Bethany's giving me this activation to have fun.
What should I go do?
And he will show you the things that you should go do.
But be creative about it.
Maybe it's gonna rain where you're at
and you need to go jump in the puddles and splash
and let the puddles get you muddy and dirty.
And yes, all the things that parents don't
like want their kids to do because the clothes get dirty.
Yes, do all of those kinds of things.
Splash around, have fun.
Let that vibrancy come out of you.
That's what I'm trying to get at, okay?
All right, those are your activations.
So if you need to sign out, totally understand.
Joy, I would love to have you share.
And then I am gonna have to,
Helen, I might not be able to come back to you.
So can you put yours in the chat for me?
Yep, thank you.
You're welcome.
All right.
Awesome, go ahead.
Oh, okay, I'm just told my sisters in the group
saying that tonight just something interesting happened.
I just found out I need to surrender my feeling
and surrender my, yeah, I think basically
surrender my feeling and the knowledge is very briefly.
My roommate was cooking chicken
and he put a plastic wrap on the top of chicken
and steam it.
I was so shocked because I noticed the plastic wrap
it can release toxidy, especially at high temperature.
So I was kind of a little bit overacted.
So I think God called me to surrender my feeling
and the knowledge.
Sometimes I do see people, even leaders
or I know something, knowledge.
And so I really, I need a patience to,
even they may not know it,
even shared wisdom, they may not receive it.
Even they probably, I mean, even they reject it.
I still have to just have patience and still have love
and not get a little bit over, overreacted.
I know this kind of pattern of being years
over long time now, because sometimes I saw people
do something very harmful to themselves.
I kind of very, you know, I don't know how to say it.
I just say, oh, come on, you do, you cannot do that.
You know, I kind of be, could be anxious for them.
Even they do not know it, even they don't care.
How can I just get up, get out of this kind of stuff?
I just have to cool and surrender, just trust God.
So Joy, on the overreacting,
I want to encourage you to ask the Lord,
when is the first time that you, that showed up in you,
where you overreacted to a situation?
And I feel like there was a reason,
like as in just kind of the nudging I got in my spirit
as you were talking is like,
maybe you felt unseen in a situation that was happening.
And so you felt like you had to overreact
to get that attention that you actually needed.
And I don't know if that is something that resonates,
but that's what came up in my spirit.
So I want to encourage you just to pray into that
and just ask the Lord,
when is the first time I overreacted in a situation and why?
And see what he reveals to you connected to that.
Yeah, when you say that,
I already saw the one trauma in my childhood.
I really, really wanted attention,
but they did not give to me,
which they supposed to love me,
protect me and care for me.
So I was very tormented
and my need could not met.
They were the ones supposed to protect me
and love me and care for me.
So that's why I was tormented.
And then I was kind of behave strangely to them.
I was do things rebellious and disobedient
to try to raise my anger and my...
Have you ever forgiven yourself for that stuff?
Oh, forgiveness.
my rebellion. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, have you ever forgiven yourself for reacting and rebelling
against your parents and acting in those ways? Um, yeah, I need to do that. And no, I did not.
Actually, it's, it's, it's something very horrible. So, and, yeah, so, and ladies,
the reason I'm drawing this out is because I'm not saying that her, it's good that her parents
neglected her or that she wanted attention. She wasn't getting it. So I'm not saying she's bad
because she rebelled, but here's the thing. When we do things that are not healthy,
whether we realize it or not, we subconsciously have feelings about our behavior.
And so a lot of times we need to actually forgive ourselves. And that will help us come
out of alignment and agreement with those things we partnered with when we were rebelling and
starting to misbehave and all of those kinds of things, if you will, to get attention or to
be heard or, you know, to have control or whatever the reason was, I'm not saying it wasn't maybe
internally justified on some level, but we aren't called to be people that react.
We are, we are called to be people who respond out of a rootedness and the love of God. But
when we're younger, we don't maybe know how to do those things. And so Joy, I believe that's
going to be really important for you this week to forgive yourself for these overreactions,
including this rebellion and the other things that were going on when you were younger.
And, and then let's see what God does in these other situations as well, because even though
that seems like a small situation with the chicken and the, in the plastic wrap, y'all see where that
led to these actually bigger situations. And so this is how heartwork happens. And so really,
we'll be praying for you, Joy, about that. Ladies, we're at 947. I do want to comment on,
Joy, thank you for sharing. I almost forgot to say that. I want to comment on two things really
quick, or maybe three, because I see them, but I do have to do this quickly. So Helen said,
so maybe address at some point, how not to come back to the thoughts of my past failures
are the reason I am where I am relationally gotten victory over the thought process,
but sometimes it keeps coming back. Yeah, so the biggest thing is that honestly, I'm,
I really do believe the internal heart healing is what helps us get that actual breakthrough.
But the enemy, like even in the Bible, it talks about when the strong man is bound
and the house gets cleaned out, y'all talks about how the enemy will come back
and he'll see that that house is clean. And guess what he'll try to do? He'll try to come
back in that house with not just by himself, but what? With his friends. So here's the reality.
The enemy is going to come back. We don't have to be afraid of that, but he's going to come back
and he's going to, he's going to see if you're still home. And he's going to see if, if you're
home, are you going to open the door back open to me and partner with me in this lie again?
And so, you know, there's a scripture that, uh, talks about taking every thought captive
and making an obedient to Jesus Christ. We take it and I, y'all, I pray God helped me to take
it captive quickly. I don't want to go around the mountain for a while. I want to catch that thing
fast. And I want to cast that thing down because I don't want to partner with that no more,
anymore, whatever the proper grammar is, but y'all understand what I'm saying. So it is through that,
that consistent, you know, like, okay, I am not going to partner with this lie. I'm not going to
believe that God doesn't love me. I'm going to activate and get out there and have fun. And I'm
going to do these healthy things. Cause here's the thing too. Sometimes we focus so much on the
spiritual that we, again, we were talking about the body physically. Oh, it's only your beauty's
on the inside. Well, no beauty's both it's inside and outside ladies. We can go have fun. And guess
what? When you have fun, Helen, that might be the warfare that breaks that all off of you.
Worship is our warfare. Guess what? Having fun and laughter is also warfare.
Okay. So we'll see, try it, try some of those things and see what happens with that. That was
a great question. Leanne, I saw your comment. Uh, she put in there. Thank you for that. Bethany,
I've lived a life of a false facade example, my 16th birthday. I wasn't able to enjoy it because
I was too concerned with making sure my bio bio dad didn't feel like I spent more time with my
adopted dad and vice versa. I have pushed that so far down inside of me. Y'all this is see how God
works. I didn't know anything of that about her, but God knew that tonight. And when that happened,
for multiple times tonight, God just kept causing me to see you. And I see all of you on the screen,
but for whatever reason, I knew there was something about Leanne tonight.
And in that moment, that was, that was the thing I just knew to release.
And so I'm going to be praying for you.
I'm so sorry that you couldn't enjoy those special moments the way that I
believe the father really wanted you to.
And so I would encourage you to pray and ask Jesus to show you, um, how he was
feeling towards you and for you in that situation, I feel like you need to feel
the empathy of God, the father in that situation, because I think that broke
his heart too, that you didn't, that you felt so torn and that you felt like you
had to make sure dads were okay.
And instead of just being able to be a kid and enjoy, you know,
that special day for yourself.
And, uh, so, you know, believing for healing for you and, you know, there
might even be other things that the Lord reveals in that kind of same vein.
Okay.
So just be open to seeing what those might be and process those out.
And then Sherita said, I didn't raise my hand, but wanted to, sorry, I can't
Oh, add, I surrender all my plans, trying to figure out life.
I no longer want to spin my wheels.
I've been for years.
Every single area of my life needs work, especially my physical help.
I'm done trying to do it myself.
Like Jackie said, some things are supernatural.
There are doors I cannot open on my own, not including losing
two family members this year.
Man, I'm so sorry to hear that January and March.
I'm still grieving.
I'm making some progress and I'm happy for that.
Sherita, we're going to be praying for you.
Want to encourage you all that are those of you that are grieving, you
know, grief is, is different for everybody.
Okay.
So just give yourself a lot of grace.
And even those of you that when some of these heartwork things come up
and you feel the grief of that, Leanne, if you feel grief, you know, when
those things are coming to the surface or anyone else, remember to feel the
feels so that God can heal the feels.
Okay.
It's important.
God will help you through.
And, uh, Sherita, the one thing I feel led to say to you as well is, um, ask
God, because you said you need God to touch every area of your life.
I believe he's going to, but ask him, what area does he want you to focus on first?
Like you're here doing the heartwork.
So you're going to do that holistically as a whole, but what area, and it
sounds like maybe your health, because that's where it seems like you're really
struggling more than even the other areas, but let's see what God reveals.
Cause we don't want to just assume that, but let's see what God shows you.
Okay.
Ladies, I better close this out.
I can't believe I've kept you all this long.
I'm so sorry, but I believe God's doing something really great.
Um, but I could say that every week cause he's always showing up.
So I got to stop doing this.
Oh, it's been great to be here with you all.
Let me pray.
Father.
Thank you.
I don't even have to pray a long prayer.
I just want to bask in your goodness.
Thank you for setting these ladies free.
Thank you for working supernaturally in their lives.
Thank you for showing them that you have a good, good life in store for them.
I pray that you would reveal the lies of the enemy, help them to see you more
fully see the truth and step further into, um, the victory, the land of
promise, the land of hope, and we just, we just ask for a fresh and filling
of your Holy spirit tonight in Jesus name.
Amen.
God bless you.
I will be seeing you all in the group.
Have a good night.
Good night.