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Hi, good evening. How are you? Great to see you all. Welcome, welcome. People are logging

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on now. I'm going to give them a minute just because it's just now eight o'clock. For those

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of you that are new, I'd love to hear from you if this is your first live session. Can

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you put that in the chat for us so we can welcome you? For all of my ladies returning,

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we've been here before. Welcome back. So glad that you're here with us again tonight. Monica,

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first timer, welcome. Let me see. I want to find you on my screen here. Okay, so I can

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kind of put a face with the name. Sherita, first time, welcome. Anyone else joining for

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the first time? This is your first live session. All right. Okay, that's what I was, I thought,

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so Ashley, but I couldn't remember. So Ashley's first time. Okay, so is it Yovana? Is that

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the right way to say it? Your first name? Welcome to you. Yeah, ladies, chime in and

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welcome them for their first time. Remember what it was like for you when you came the

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first time. So the more we welcome others, it just really kind of that pay it forward

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kind of thing. I'm Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the Master Heart Work coaches here in our

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community. We're so glad for all of you joining us and all the things that God has been doing.

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It's been such a blessing to read all of the posts that are coming in from you all, some

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of the introduction posts, some of the questions. And I want you to know, because someone said,

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I hope this isn't a dumb question. I forget what the question even was. But somebody said

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that this week. And I want you to know there are no dumb questions ever. So don't even

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worry about that. Because if you have that question, I bet someone else has that question.

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So just feel free to ask that. And we'll answer that for you as soon as we can. I do want

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you all to know just on the weekends, the responses will be a little slower, not because

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we're not there paying attention. But my husband and I pastor a church on Sundays.

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So my Sundays are a little, I kind of get in there later than normal. But we'll always

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get back to you all. And so just know that it's not you because sometimes people will

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post things and then they get nervous and take them down if they're not responded to

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within a certain timeframe. But I want you all to kind of come away from that a little

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bit and just know that our team will get back to you and we love you. And we're so glad

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that you're you're posting in there. And we don't want you to believe any lies of the

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enemy about any of that. Okay. And not that I heard that that happened, but I just know

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that it has in the past. And so just mentioning that to a couple other little housekeeping

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things Supernatural Saturday, on replay, if you were not able to join us live, Jackie

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talked about empty is the place where God works. And I was telling the 1pm session that

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when I even read, like when I heard her say that on Saturday, as well as reading it in

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the title of the replay, it led me to think about Easter Sunday. And maybe because we

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had this actual tomb that we did where it was like a wood thing that we turned into

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a tomb and actually had a, like a round circle kind of like stone that was rolled away. And

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it made it very like kind of real, you know, and my husband preached about the emptiness

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and I was just thinking about that a lot the last few days. And so in reminding you all

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about that message, I want you to also think about not only the emptiness as in we typically

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think of empty being negative, but think about the power of the emptiness of the tomb. Like

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Jesus rose from the dead and he like was set free. We were set free in that same moment

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that all of the power, all of the glory, all of the things culminating and coming together

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created that empty space. And so I really believe that that's a word for you all in

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this season, that the things in the past that have held you back, the things that send you

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to the tomb, so to speak, that God is going to be working in those and he's going to set

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you free from that. And there's going to be a new emptiness that you might feel, but that

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is because of something good happening. And then God can come in and fill that emptiness.

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Hopefully, as you seek him with the fresh and filling of the Holy Spirit, and we know

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how good that is, right? And so that you'll feel just new every day that there'll be a

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new hunger, a new thirst for his righteousness for him. And that out of that, out of the

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overflow of being rooted and grounded in the Lord and his love for you, that you will find

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your path to your spirit mate and your spirit mate will find you. And that's the cherry

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on top because God in your relationship with him is first and foremost, like the most important

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thing. If we are used to lead you all closer to the Lord, like that's a huge win for us

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in this community. And so just know we're praying for everything, all of God's blessings

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in your life. But we are so excited about all of you that like the reconnections that

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are happening with the Lord and the testimonies that are coming in and, you know, people

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being set free from mindsets about who God,

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who they thought God was, but that's not,

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you know, wasn't truth and all those kinds of things.

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So just be excited, be excited for the emptiness

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because the filling is coming, the filling is coming.

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And even as we talk in, you know,

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Jackie's been talking about making room for the new,

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you know, you are emptying something, a space,

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or you're healing and creating, you know,

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that space for something new to come.

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And it's a good thing, preparation, right?

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So just be leaning into those kinds of concepts

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as you're going through the heart work.

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And even in the moments where there feels like

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that tension and the pain,

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just know that we're there with you,

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we're there with you and we're walking with you

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and you're not gonna be alone.

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Just hang in with the group.

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Don't let the enemy isolate you and take you out

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because he will try.

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Stay like, keep leaning into community,

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keep leaning into healing,

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and God will lead you all the way through to victory.

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I wanna encourage you all as well

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to invest in your self-care

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throughout your healing journey.

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So you might hear me say this a couple of times,

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just as reminders for you, it's really important.

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So drinking plenty of water, getting extra rest.

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So if you're not a nap taker, totally fine,

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but you all might need to go to bed a little earlier

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during heart work because you're doing hard work.

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You're healing, you're restoring,

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you're being rebuilt from the inside out,

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eating healthy whole foods.

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So you're really giving your body extra nutrients

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that you need and then also moving your body.

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if you don't know this,

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a lot of times we store our trauma up in our cells

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when we're younger, when we're older.

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those toxins are getting released from our cells.

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So we want those to go out of our body

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and not cycle back through, okay?

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All right, so I'm not a doctor, but I do know those things

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and those are super important for you all in heart work.

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So try to do those in your time here.

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I'm gonna go ahead and pray for us

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and we're gonna jump right in.

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Father, thank you so much for your goodness.

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I feel an expectancy tonight,

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just even as I was praying before I came on,

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God, that reminder that Lord,

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even I, I have the gifts and the abilities that I bring,

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but God, it's you.

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So I pray that you would just help me

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to hear what your spirit is saying,

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that I'll convey that clearly

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and that the lady's hearts will be prepared to receive it.

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We just ask for a hedge of protection over their hearts,

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their minds, their bodies, spirits, and souls,

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that where the enemy might even try to lie to them

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in any level, God, that you would just protect their minds,

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help them to receive all that you have for them.

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We thank you for your grace, your goodness.

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We thank you that you're revealing areas for healing

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and bringing darkness to the light

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so that they can be set free,

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so that they can step further into the fullness

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of who you originally created them to be.

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God, I thank you that you would give them visions

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and revelations of how you see them

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and the things that you're saying over them, God.

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We thank you that you would reveal lies of the enemy

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that they've been believing

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that have caused them to be stuck in any area,

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even things that they didn't know,

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the places maybe they were, had like snagged,

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or, you know, they're trying to move forward,

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but something's kind of snagged and they just can't,

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and they haven't been able to see it.

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God, we thank you for revelations of those things as well,

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where we thank you for also just, yeah,

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friendships and connections being created

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through this community.

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For those that have felt like they haven't had friends

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in the last season, or they felt lonely, God,

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we thank you for filling that as you heal, God,

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that you would help them to have the courage

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to reach out and make friends with someone in this community.

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We just thank you in advance for that in Jesus' name, amen.

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All right, so we're leaning

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into supernatural surrender tonight.

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That's gonna be our main topic.

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We're gonna talk about that the most.

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And this afternoon,

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as I was getting ready to lead the session,

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the Holy Spirit was just bringing up all kinds of stuff.

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It was good, and one of the notes I wrote down,

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I don't always have the, like,

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I'm not always able to remember everything that I say,

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which is totally fine,

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because I like each session to be unique,

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but I did write this down

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because I didn't want to forget about it.

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So the Lord brought up about the land

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that's flowing with milk and honey,

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and how Joshua and Caleb were the only two

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out of that whole group of people

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that were not deterred by the giants in the land.

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And so I want y'all to be thinking

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about that a little bit tonight, okay?

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From the aspect of everybody had an opportunity to go in.

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Everybody saw the giants,

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but only two said that they could take the land, okay?

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The enemy is gonna try to reveal to you

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giants in the land as you move forward.

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And God is always going to be trying to show you

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that you've already won,

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like the victory's already won for you.

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But it's whether or not you believe

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that the victory is won and that you can do it.

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do it, that God can fulfill his promises in your life, that God is not withholding

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from you, nor has he ever withheld anything that's good from you.

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Maybe he didn't say yes to something that you thought was good, but it wasn't good

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for you, but he is always trying to lead his people, his children into a land of

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fullness and abundance, uh, the land flowing of milk, you know, milk and honey.

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I mean, honey is, was like a big deal, you know, back, back then.

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It's not like how now, like you go and there's just, you know, you can go to

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these honey farms all over the place.

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Um, and so I just want you, it was kind of like the, I would imagine back then,

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and I would have to do research on this, but it was probably something

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that was like of great price.

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So the land flowing with milk and honey had a lot of blessings and

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provision sustenance, you know?

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Um, and so as you're moving forward, know that God wants to help you shift

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in your perspective so that you can step into the promise land.

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And the promise land look might look a little different than you thought,

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but it's going to be really good.

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It's going to be really good.

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How do I know that?

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For those of you that are joining us for the first time, you

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don't know anything about me.

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You've not heard any of my story.

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So I'm just going to tell you a little tidbit, uh, here and there as we go

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tonight, um, so I'm one of the success stories from this community.

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I went through the program back in 2021.

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And, uh, God really did a huge work in my life.

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I started coaching for Jackie in may of 2021.

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And I met my, uh, back then the guy that I didn't know would be my spirit mate,

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but as I was dating and talking to people, uh, God led me to Brian and

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it was a very supernatural thing.

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Uh, I did not want to move.

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I was adamant that I wasn't going to move because my spiritual daughters

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lived in Lexington, Kentucky, and I didn't want to move away from there.

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And, uh, God through Jackie kept encouraging me to be open, to be

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open to whatever God wanted to do.

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And you all, um, God led me to extend just a little bit, just a little bit,

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come out of my comfort zone, extend my search and literally the same

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day I did that, Brian messaged me.

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Now everyone's, it was a very supernatural.

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I want y'all to understand that very supernatural thing that God was doing.

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And, um, not everyone's story kind of falls together exactly like that.

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But, uh, God is doing amazing work in a lot of people's lives in this community.

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Um, Brian and I got married almost a year to the day of

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meeting each other in person.

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And, uh, it's just really been, uh, such a blessing.

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And the reason I wanted to share that with you is because in the process, uh, I

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was thinking about this part this afternoon, I didn't tell them on PM ladies,

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this, um, not because I didn't want to, but I just didn't even think of it.

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Um, but in my supernatural surrender process, I had to let go of a list, just

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like we're going to encourage you all to let go of your list of things.

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Does that mean you, you have to end up with someone you don't think is

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attractive?

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No, but there's things in our hearts that come from trauma that create our

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list as well as things that we think we need that we don't always need.

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And so, um, I had a type, I had a type that I was typically attracted to.

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regarding denominational kind of people, like different denominations, whatnot.

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But, uh, come to find out.

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I wasn't quite as open as I thought when I first met Brian, Brian was from a

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denomination that I felt was pretty conservative and y'all I'm, I'm, I'm not

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conservative for those that are just coming into the community.

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I, God uses me in all kinds of giftings.

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It's a blessing, but I'm, I'm as Pentecostal as they come ladies.

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So, I mean, it was just kind of funny.

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Like God brought him into my life.

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And I remember saying to Jackie, yeah, I don't know if I can date this guy

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because we're like, like opposites, like, how's this going to work?

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And you know, I did.

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And has it been, uh, something to learn and navigate?

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But Brian always accepted everything about me and not only accepted it, but

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he encourages me to be myself and he's full of the Holy spirit.

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mean he wasn't full of the Holy spirit.

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something supernatural in my life.

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And that's what I'm kind of leading into now.

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But I also wanted to share, cause I saw this right when I sat down and

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it's here at my desk every day.

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My Jesus cares board sits right here next to my laptop and my computer.

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Cause I like to look at it.

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I like to remember the things that I'm casting onto Jesus and the things

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that I'm telling him, like, Hey, you got this.

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I can't.

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do this, but you can. And one of the things I put on there, and

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it's going to tie into one of your activations. So this maybe

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that's why God highlighted it when I sat down tonight. But I

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literally I've had this on my board since before I ever met

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Brian. And it says fun with an exclamation point point. And

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then I said, Jesus, you care about me laughing and having

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fun. And God's been answering that. He's been answering that

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for years, but I keep it on there because I don't ever want

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to forget that I can depend on him to help me step into my fun

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side and, and to also for him to create fun in my life and

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adventures and, and laughter. And, you know, he does that also

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through my husband. I laugh more now than I've ever laughed with

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anybody in my life. He's silly, and he's quirky. And sometimes

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he says dad jokes that aren't funny at all. But they still

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make me laugh. And sometimes I'm like, yeah, that's not too

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funny. But we laugh about it. Right. So hopefully, this is

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filling your hope tank a little bit to tonight, that God is

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going to do something for you that you're not expecting, and

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then some. And so what does it look like for God to add his

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super to our natural? You know, your ability can only go so far

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even your ability to pick the person that would be a good

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match for you, not just physically attracted to someone,

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but a good match, like that God sees all their potential, and he

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sees all their giftings, and he sees all the things that he

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knows that he's calling you into. And he's like, yeah, man,

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okay, yeah, this is what my daughter has in her. And this is

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what my son has in him. And man, whoa, when I bring them

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together, they're gonna be a really awesome match. I mean,

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these are things that I think that, you know, God is thinking

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about, you know, and yes, there's more than one person

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that those kind of things can happen with. But I do believe

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that, just even again, from my experience, like, Brian and I

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are doing things that I always felt like God was leading me to

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but with the people in the past, I never felt like I could get

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there. But it was always in me. But sometimes you need another

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person to kind of partner with to carry out that, that

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supernatural kind of spiritual DNA and the things that God is

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calling you to the promises. And so for you, even as an

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individual, what's important as I'm saying this tonight, is for

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you to understand that you healing and growing and

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becoming more whole, as an individual, is so vital to you

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meeting someone else that is healthy. Right? So I had to take

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some time to heal, to get more grounded and rooted in and who

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God said I was to really understand like, okay, God, like,

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who do you say that I am? And if I was thinking and hearing

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negative things, understanding that that wasn't from the

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Father and had to really cycle through all of that stuff. So

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all the things that I tell you all, I've done it, or I'm still

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doing it, because it doesn't end. Like we all are being made

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new every single day, if we turn our heart and our mind and our

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thoughts over to the Lord, and we say, Okay, Lord, like, help

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me to deny my flesh and help me to be full of the Spirit, like,

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what is the Spirit saying, and that we would surrender to

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anything that is apart from Him, as in not do those things, okay,

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submit our flesh and, and surrender to the Spirit is, is

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what I'm saying there, just to be clear. Okay. All right. So

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John 15, four through five is the scripture verse I'm going to

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start with tonight, remain in me, as I also remain in you, no

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branch can bear fruit by itself, it must remain in the vine.

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Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I am

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the vine, you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in

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you, you will bear much fruit. Apart from you, me, you can do

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nothing. And so I love to set the table with that when I start

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talking about supernatural surrender. Because even before I

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got on tonight, that is the scripture I pray over myself

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every time. God like, like, I need you like these ladies need

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you. So help me to hear what you're saying, and help me to

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convey that as clearly as I can. And so trying to be an open

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vessel for him to flow through. And bringing that into

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everything that we do, ladies, is so important. The scripture

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there was John 15, four through five, that is in the NIV

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version that I read tonight. But that we can even take that into,

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you know, healing process. That's where you're at right

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now. You're in the heart work healing. And I want you to every

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day just think about even as you're doing the heart work,

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Lord, like help me to remain in you because you're the vine, I'm

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the branches. Apart from you, I can't do anything. Thank you,

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God, that you're, you're helping me hear what your spirit is

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saying. You're, you're showing me what I need to know so that I

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can receive

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for healing and step further into the freedom

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in the original plan and purpose that you have for me.

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God, I thank you that you never leave me,

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you never forsake me.

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God, that I'm your beloved daughter,

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you say it and help me to receive that truth.

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You know, all those kinds of things I just,

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you know, it's so important that we understand like,

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ladies, you're not gonna have to walk one second

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of this heart work alone.

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Feel the Holy Spirit on that.

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So I'm gonna just pause there for a minute.

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Even in the very tender, tense moments of heart work,

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because sometimes it is, man, we feel it.

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And yeah, like Alina, I know.

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Sometimes the loneliness is at the core of who we are

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because of neglect that we went through,

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but we're not alone.

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are still battling with loneliness,

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where is that coming from?

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What's feeding the lie of lonely?

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And I'm not saying we don't ever feel lonely

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in the physical realm, y'all.

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We moved many, many states away from where we lived before.

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We have a church full of people,

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but if you've never pastored,

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you can't just hang out with the sheep all the time

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like your friends, okay?

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You can love them, you can get to know them,

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but you can't hang with them like the same.

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And so because we're so busy building the church

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and doing what God is doing,

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we haven't had a lot of time to go out

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and just hang out and make friends yet, yet.

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Y'all, I say yet a lot on purpose

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because I want you all to use that word a lot too.

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So you maybe don't have breakthrough yet,

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but you're going to.

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You might not have met your spirit mate yet,

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but we believe you're going to.

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It's that we would partner with faith in that,

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in the statements that we make,

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that we would leave room for faith

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in the supernatural to work in our lives.

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And so maybe you need a new job.

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Maybe that's something you're praying for.

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Maybe that's the area that you're really like,

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yeah, you want the spirit mate too,

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but man, you're really needing breakthrough over here.

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Maybe it's a family situation and you're really like,

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God, I'm trying to do everything I know to do,

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but God, it's just,

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I keep hitting up against wall after wall after wall,

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whatever it is.

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We had a lady in the afternoon session.

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She's battled physical illness for a very long time, y'all.

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She's tired and that's been a struggle for her.

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that we would rely on the change and the healing coming.

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So as we move forward tonight,

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I want to remind you that God is a gentleman.

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He will not force his way in.

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What do I mean by that?

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Well, he's not going to force his way into your heart

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and he's not going to force his way past,

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do not enter signs that you might have subconsciously erected

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in your heart.

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Cause what happens is sometimes we are like, okay, yeah,

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Lord, you can come in and do this work in my heart,

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in my life.

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But then when he starts meddling, you know,

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that's how we feel.

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Like he's in there,

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he's in there in the hard places and we're like, whoa,

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wait a minute.

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Maybe not, maybe not.

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This, this feels painful.

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I don't know why,

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but this is what's coming up in my mind.

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Like porcupine, like all of a sudden,

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like the porcupine things go up and we're like,

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wait a minute, get back, get back.

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This isn't safe, get away from me.

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And we have to understand that that is a fear response

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happening in us, okay?

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But if we will allow those do not enter signs to come down

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and we allow the Holy spirit and we allow God,

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the father and Jesus to come in to those tough places,

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we will find that healing will come in,

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in even those moments of fear or tension,

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that they will begin to subside.

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For some of you, because of the depth of your trauma,

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it might take you a little longer,

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but I want you to know you're still going to make it.

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Just like different people have different injuries

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that when they go into the hospital,

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there's different levels of injury.

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Am I saying that one person's sin is worse than another's?

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Am I saying one person's trauma is worse than another?

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What I am saying though,

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is that there are different depths within people

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because of maybe some people have been processing

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some of their pain.

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Maybe some people have never had anybody

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to really walk them through this kind of stuff, you know?

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So if you've got years and years and years of stuff

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kind of pressed down in there,

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it might take a little longer and that's okay.

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Everybody's journey is their journey.

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So really resist comparisons, okay?

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When other people are getting breakthroughs,

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the enemy is trying to convince you,

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well, why are you getting breakthrough?

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What's wrong with you?

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I'm serious, y'all.

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In heart work, this stuff happens.

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I've coached people on it.

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So when that happens, we want to resist the devil

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because he's trying to lie to us.

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resist him, he has to flee, he can't stay.

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00:25:03.440 --> 00:25:06.680
So we lean into the light and we resist the darkness.

476
00:25:06.680 --> 00:25:08.880
We allow the do not enter signs to come down.

477
00:25:08.880 --> 00:25:11.620
We give God permission to come in.

478
00:25:11.620 --> 00:25:15.440
Revelation 3 20 says, behold, I stand at the door and knock.

479
00:25:15.440 --> 00:25:18.480
If any man hears my voice and opens the door,

480
00:25:18.480 --> 00:25:21.860
I will come into him, will sup with him and he with me.

481
00:25:23.360 --> 00:25:27.840
I use that scripture because even when we ask Jesus

482
00:25:27.840 --> 00:25:31.480
into our hearts and our lives, we ask him to come in.

483
00:25:33.040 --> 00:25:35.640
It's an invitation that he's extended to us,

484
00:25:35.640 --> 00:25:39.720
like, hey, I wanna come in and have a relationship with you,

485
00:25:39.720 --> 00:25:41.280
but he doesn't force his way in.

486
00:25:41.280 --> 00:25:43.720
He's not barging the door down and breaking it down

487
00:25:43.720 --> 00:25:45.880
and pounding on the door.

488
00:25:45.880 --> 00:25:47.600
Some of y'all have been through all kinds of trauma

489
00:25:47.600 --> 00:25:50.600
like that, yeah, that's not God.

490
00:25:50.600 --> 00:25:53.300
That's not how Jesus and the Holy Spirit and God work.

491
00:25:54.260 --> 00:25:59.160
He's like, hey, daughter, hey, hey, Ashley,

492
00:26:00.440 --> 00:26:04.740
hey, I love you, like, come over here, come up here.

493
00:26:04.740 --> 00:26:06.180
I have an upgrade for you.

494
00:26:06.180 --> 00:26:07.540
And what that might sound like,

495
00:26:07.540 --> 00:26:09.100
I don't know if this ever happened to y'all,

496
00:26:09.100 --> 00:26:11.540
but when I was dating this one guy,

497
00:26:11.540 --> 00:26:13.920
my spiritual daughters, when I talk about them,

498
00:26:13.920 --> 00:26:17.020
it was their dad and I would go to family functions.

499
00:26:17.020 --> 00:26:18.880
And at first it wasn't like this,

500
00:26:18.880 --> 00:26:21.720
but the longer I was with him and the more that I just,

501
00:26:22.080 --> 00:26:24.880
I knew he was not healthy for me,

502
00:26:24.880 --> 00:26:29.720
but I'd be sitting there like the husband or the,

503
00:26:29.720 --> 00:26:32.460
not the husband, the dad and the two boys,

504
00:26:32.460 --> 00:26:34.720
their dad would sit in and hang out

505
00:26:34.720 --> 00:26:36.960
and I'd be out hanging out with the dogs

506
00:26:36.960 --> 00:26:38.800
because the dogs were friendly.

507
00:26:38.800 --> 00:26:41.400
They were kind and they liked to have fun.

508
00:26:41.400 --> 00:26:44.000
And those guys were grumpy and complainers

509
00:26:44.000 --> 00:26:45.900
and all kinds of stuff, but I'd be sitting there

510
00:26:45.900 --> 00:26:47.840
and the girls would play out with me

511
00:26:47.840 --> 00:26:49.100
and, or they'd be outside playing.

512
00:26:49.120 --> 00:26:54.060
But I remember thinking like, yeah, this isn't my family.

513
00:26:54.060 --> 00:26:55.820
Literally multiple times I had that thought,

514
00:26:55.820 --> 00:26:59.060
like, this isn't your family.

515
00:26:59.060 --> 00:27:01.760
And y'all, sometimes I think it was the Lord saying,

516
00:27:01.760 --> 00:27:04.400
hey, this isn't where you belong.

517
00:27:05.240 --> 00:27:06.700
This isn't your family.

518
00:27:06.700 --> 00:27:09.000
Like, I have something different for you.

519
00:27:10.280 --> 00:27:12.540
And I heard that enough times that it really like,

520
00:27:12.540 --> 00:27:14.620
it really started resonating more and more.

521
00:27:14.620 --> 00:27:17.580
And among other things,

522
00:27:17.600 --> 00:27:19.800
God used some really significant things

523
00:27:19.800 --> 00:27:21.240
to lead me out of there.

524
00:27:21.240 --> 00:27:24.480
Unfortunately, you know, other choices that he made

525
00:27:24.480 --> 00:27:26.900
also were a part of that, but praise the Lord,

526
00:27:26.900 --> 00:27:29.380
I chose and I walked away from that

527
00:27:29.380 --> 00:27:31.420
and I just didn't look back.

528
00:27:31.420 --> 00:27:35.620
And I'm so glad I didn't because God had way more

529
00:27:35.620 --> 00:27:39.820
in store for me and I've never once ever had that thought

530
00:27:39.820 --> 00:27:42.160
the entire time I've been married.

531
00:27:42.160 --> 00:27:45.000
From the first day I met my husband's mom,

532
00:27:45.020 --> 00:27:48.120
she hugged me and I just was like, okay,

533
00:27:48.120 --> 00:27:51.840
like this feels healthy.

534
00:27:51.840 --> 00:27:54.400
And, you know, every family has their stuff,

535
00:27:54.400 --> 00:27:56.560
but even still like she came and stayed with us

536
00:27:56.560 --> 00:27:59.400
for a week in January and his daughters have been out here.

537
00:27:59.400 --> 00:28:03.840
I've literally never had the thought, this isn't my family.

538
00:28:03.840 --> 00:28:05.980
Actually, I feel like they're more my family

539
00:28:05.980 --> 00:28:08.200
than my bio family.

540
00:28:08.200 --> 00:28:12.840
Just because they just love me way, way healthier

541
00:28:12.840 --> 00:28:15.280
than my bio family was ever able to do

542
00:28:15.280 --> 00:28:17.440
just from their own pain and stuff.

543
00:28:17.440 --> 00:28:19.360
So I'm gonna read a little something to you

544
00:28:19.360 --> 00:28:20.760
because we're gonna start to talk more

545
00:28:20.760 --> 00:28:23.880
about this supernatural surrender and things in us

546
00:28:23.880 --> 00:28:27.560
that cause us to try to resist surrendering, okay?

547
00:28:28.480 --> 00:28:30.520
And so this is from the heart work book.

548
00:28:30.520 --> 00:28:31.340
I'm not gonna read a lot,

549
00:28:31.340 --> 00:28:34.080
but I do wanna point out these couple things tonight.

550
00:28:34.080 --> 00:28:36.000
It says this, ever since we were toddlers,

551
00:28:36.000 --> 00:28:38.460
our mantra has been, I do it myself.

552
00:28:38.460 --> 00:28:40.160
We have been programmed by our broken world

553
00:28:40.160 --> 00:28:42.800
to never depend on anyone or anything.

554
00:28:42.800 --> 00:28:46.400
And people that do are considered foolish and naive.

555
00:28:46.400 --> 00:28:49.560
All through our lives, we are taught overtly and covertly

556
00:28:49.560 --> 00:28:54.040
that it's a good thing to be in and stay in control.

557
00:28:54.040 --> 00:28:55.720
And that's a lot of hard work.

558
00:28:55.720 --> 00:28:57.920
One of the main reasons we don't want to depend

559
00:28:57.920 --> 00:29:02.920
on anyone else is because we don't want to be disappointed.

560
00:29:02.960 --> 00:29:05.820
Being disappointed is painful, maybe even more painful

561
00:29:05.820 --> 00:29:09.520
than not trusting anyone to help us in the first place.

562
00:29:09.760 --> 00:29:11.320
I want you to be thinking about that.

563
00:29:11.320 --> 00:29:13.480
How many of you are allowing yourselves

564
00:29:13.480 --> 00:29:16.440
to depend on someone else?

565
00:29:16.440 --> 00:29:17.880
I'm gonna keep going.

566
00:29:17.880 --> 00:29:20.160
So many times we think we have asked God to help us,

567
00:29:20.160 --> 00:29:23.220
but then when the answer doesn't show up immediately

568
00:29:23.220 --> 00:29:25.240
and in the way that we want it to,

569
00:29:25.240 --> 00:29:27.580
we think God has failed us.

570
00:29:27.580 --> 00:29:29.840
We think God is not going to do what we have asked him to do

571
00:29:29.840 --> 00:29:33.520
when in reality, he's doing exactly what we asked him to do.

572
00:29:33.520 --> 00:29:35.560
But because it doesn't feel good,

573
00:29:35.560 --> 00:29:38.600
we declare God incompetent and off we go

574
00:29:38.600 --> 00:29:40.360
trying to fix it ourselves.

575
00:29:41.240 --> 00:29:42.920
Self-help isn't a thing.

576
00:29:42.920 --> 00:29:46.460
God doesn't ever tell us to go figure it out.

577
00:29:46.460 --> 00:29:47.560
Good luck, kid.

578
00:29:47.560 --> 00:29:48.700
I hope you make it.

579
00:29:50.120 --> 00:29:52.440
That isn't what God does or says.

580
00:29:52.440 --> 00:29:55.640
And so I want you to be even just thinking about

581
00:29:55.640 --> 00:29:58.340
when are the times where even inside of yourself,

582
00:29:58.340 --> 00:30:00.440
you're like, I'm just gonna do it myself.

583
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:03.800
So even if you're not necessarily having that thought,

584
00:30:03.800 --> 00:30:05.520
but you're just like, you know, that whole,

585
00:30:05.520 --> 00:30:07.320
Jesus take the wheel, then you take it back.

586
00:30:07.320 --> 00:30:10.000
Jesus take the wheel, but then you keep taking it back.

587
00:30:10.000 --> 00:30:12.440
What are the areas of your life where that's like,

588
00:30:12.440 --> 00:30:14.320
you just don't think Jesus can,

589
00:30:14.320 --> 00:30:16.880
or God can really figure it out for you.

590
00:30:16.880 --> 00:30:19.160
Or you believe the lie that he's dangling carrots,

591
00:30:19.160 --> 00:30:20.520
but then he keeps taking them away.

592
00:30:20.520 --> 00:30:24.020
So you're just like, I'll just make this happen for myself.

593
00:30:24.020 --> 00:30:27.920
Or you avoid it all together.

594
00:30:27.920 --> 00:30:29.080
What do I mean by that?

595
00:30:29.120 --> 00:30:31.640
You avoid people and relationships

596
00:30:31.640 --> 00:30:33.840
because you just tell yourself,

597
00:30:33.840 --> 00:30:38.220
you believe the lie that it's just easier to do life alone.

598
00:30:39.600 --> 00:30:42.720
I had, I think I talked about this young lady last week,

599
00:30:42.720 --> 00:30:45.600
but I'm gonna talk about her briefly again.

600
00:30:45.600 --> 00:30:46.440
I have this young lady

601
00:30:46.440 --> 00:30:48.960
that I've been introduced to here in Fort Myers,

602
00:30:48.960 --> 00:30:52.520
and I feel led to so into her life.

603
00:30:52.520 --> 00:30:53.880
Her mother lives in Miami.

604
00:30:53.880 --> 00:30:55.600
She's living with her father here.

605
00:30:55.600 --> 00:30:57.040
Her father doesn't believe in God.

606
00:30:57.040 --> 00:31:00.340
And so she is wanting to go to church,

607
00:31:00.340 --> 00:31:02.640
but doesn't feel like she can come to the church.

608
00:31:02.640 --> 00:31:03.960
So I'm going to her at Panera.

609
00:31:03.960 --> 00:31:05.160
We're meeting at Panera right now.

610
00:31:05.160 --> 00:31:06.160
That's what we're doing.

611
00:31:06.160 --> 00:31:07.960
But I bring her up because of this.

612
00:31:09.680 --> 00:31:12.480
She is a more introverted person

613
00:31:12.480 --> 00:31:15.280
based off of what I've learned of her so far.

614
00:31:15.280 --> 00:31:17.580
But you know, she told me probably no less

615
00:31:17.580 --> 00:31:20.960
than four or five times on Saturday when I met her

616
00:31:20.960 --> 00:31:25.420
that she's like, I just don't really wanna be around people.

617
00:31:25.820 --> 00:31:27.700
I just like to be by myself.

618
00:31:27.700 --> 00:31:29.460
And you all, I think that there's probably

619
00:31:29.460 --> 00:31:31.120
some level of truth to that,

620
00:31:32.100 --> 00:31:34.840
but I've done this work long enough to know

621
00:31:34.840 --> 00:31:36.940
that she's also convinced herself of that.

622
00:31:37.980 --> 00:31:40.820
Because probably somewhere along the way,

623
00:31:40.820 --> 00:31:42.640
somebody hurt her.

624
00:31:43.640 --> 00:31:46.400
And so it's just easier to do life without people.

625
00:31:48.600 --> 00:31:52.140
I 100% think some people do like kind of more the,

626
00:31:52.140 --> 00:31:53.340
you know, out on the farm

627
00:31:53.340 --> 00:31:54.740
and they don't want a lot of people.

628
00:31:55.060 --> 00:31:57.660
So I'm not saying that, but like I asked her,

629
00:31:57.660 --> 00:31:59.700
so what are some things you would love to do,

630
00:31:59.700 --> 00:32:01.040
you know, coming up?

631
00:32:01.040 --> 00:32:02.940
Like, what are some things you're looking forward to?

632
00:32:02.940 --> 00:32:05.880
She said, nothing, there's not really anything to do.

633
00:32:05.880 --> 00:32:07.300
This is an 18 year old.

634
00:32:07.300 --> 00:32:09.740
I'm like, and you all, if you've never been to Fort Myers,

635
00:32:09.740 --> 00:32:12.740
it's like a lot, there's a lot to do here.

636
00:32:12.740 --> 00:32:15.460
There's a lot happening, there's a lot to do.

637
00:32:15.460 --> 00:32:17.060
And so I was like, really?

638
00:32:17.060 --> 00:32:20.140
I was like, wow, there's tons of stuff to do around here.

639
00:32:20.140 --> 00:32:22.140
Let's talk about this.

640
00:32:22.140 --> 00:32:23.700
And as we started talking,

641
00:32:23.700 --> 00:32:25.580
I started sharing some of the things we,

642
00:32:25.580 --> 00:32:26.580
Brian and I did recently.

643
00:32:26.580 --> 00:32:29.620
We went to the animal kingdom and I was talking about that.

644
00:32:29.620 --> 00:32:31.100
And she's like, oh yeah, yeah.

645
00:32:31.100 --> 00:32:33.260
I would love to go to Disney.

646
00:32:33.260 --> 00:32:34.860
And then I was talking a little bit more

647
00:32:34.860 --> 00:32:38.140
and shared about that we, when we were in Hawaii,

648
00:32:38.140 --> 00:32:39.500
we went on this helicopter tour

649
00:32:39.500 --> 00:32:41.940
and it was something I always wanted to do my entire life

650
00:32:41.940 --> 00:32:43.020
and we got to do it.

651
00:32:43.020 --> 00:32:46.300
And she's like, oh yeah, I really like waterfalls too.

652
00:32:46.300 --> 00:32:49.100
I like, you know, well here, this, you know,

653
00:32:49.100 --> 00:32:51.260
you hear these things are bubbling up out of her

654
00:32:51.260 --> 00:32:53.260
as she's realizing,

655
00:32:53.260 --> 00:32:54.980
or at least I'm realizing as she's saying it,

656
00:32:54.980 --> 00:32:56.460
but then I drew attention to it later.

657
00:32:56.460 --> 00:32:57.300
Like, look at that.

658
00:32:57.300 --> 00:33:00.940
Like, there are things that you want to do,

659
00:33:00.940 --> 00:33:03.500
but maybe you just haven't been allowing yourself

660
00:33:03.500 --> 00:33:05.180
to dream about them.

661
00:33:05.180 --> 00:33:08.340
And so I encouraged her to make a bucket list.

662
00:33:08.340 --> 00:33:10.140
And I forgot, this was one of my things

663
00:33:10.140 --> 00:33:12.060
I said this afternoon for my ladies.

664
00:33:12.060 --> 00:33:14.020
I see a couple of y'all are on this after,

665
00:33:14.020 --> 00:33:16.780
or this evening again, the bucket list.

666
00:33:16.780 --> 00:33:17.860
This is why.

667
00:33:17.860 --> 00:33:21.460
It's gonna partner with your activation for fun.

668
00:33:21.460 --> 00:33:24.300
I did a bucket list when I was in heartwork

669
00:33:24.300 --> 00:33:26.420
because, you know, Jackie's so great

670
00:33:26.420 --> 00:33:29.940
about talking about waking up, dreaming again.

671
00:33:29.940 --> 00:33:31.900
You know, even I was saying to you all tonight,

672
00:33:31.900 --> 00:33:32.780
like, who are you?

673
00:33:32.780 --> 00:33:33.860
Like, what do you like?

674
00:33:33.860 --> 00:33:35.860
I want you to be thinking about these things.

675
00:33:35.860 --> 00:33:37.100
What brings you joy?

676
00:33:37.100 --> 00:33:39.140
Like, what are some things you've always wanted to do

677
00:33:39.140 --> 00:33:40.540
that you haven't done yet?

678
00:33:40.540 --> 00:33:41.380
Because guess what?

679
00:33:41.380 --> 00:33:43.300
You don't have to wait for your spirit mate

680
00:33:43.300 --> 00:33:45.140
to come to do some of these things.

681
00:33:45.140 --> 00:33:47.140
Yes, it's okay that you have a bucket list

682
00:33:47.140 --> 00:33:48.980
for when your spirit mate comes too.

683
00:33:48.980 --> 00:33:50.700
You can do that as well.

684
00:33:50.740 --> 00:33:55.100
But ladies, what are some things that you can awaken to

685
00:33:55.100 --> 00:33:57.300
and supernaturally surrender the pen

686
00:33:57.300 --> 00:33:59.620
of when it has to happen, how it has to happen,

687
00:33:59.620 --> 00:34:02.020
how it has to look, and just go start having fun

688
00:34:02.020 --> 00:34:03.880
and living your life fully?

689
00:34:04.900 --> 00:34:09.900
So I encourage you to make one of those lists.

690
00:34:09.940 --> 00:34:11.699
What are some things that you enjoy?

691
00:34:11.699 --> 00:34:13.980
So for me, I put on mine,

692
00:34:13.980 --> 00:34:16.860
I always wanted to go to a butterfly garden

693
00:34:16.860 --> 00:34:17.699
and just sit there.

694
00:34:17.699 --> 00:34:19.380
I just always imagined that, you know,

695
00:34:19.380 --> 00:34:22.659
sometimes you go to them, or at least they show it this way.

696
00:34:22.659 --> 00:34:24.540
I've never been to one where this has actually happened,

697
00:34:24.540 --> 00:34:26.219
but they show people where the butterflies

698
00:34:26.219 --> 00:34:27.540
are landed on them.

699
00:34:27.540 --> 00:34:30.260
And I just am like, oh, that's so cool.

700
00:34:30.260 --> 00:34:31.380
That's what I want.

701
00:34:31.380 --> 00:34:32.940
So I'm sharing this with you

702
00:34:32.940 --> 00:34:34.340
because that was on my bucket list.

703
00:34:34.340 --> 00:34:37.080
Now, I didn't ever go to an official garden like that

704
00:34:37.080 --> 00:34:39.020
where it was enclosed,

705
00:34:39.020 --> 00:34:41.340
but I ended up getting married in a garden

706
00:34:41.340 --> 00:34:44.100
and right where, like we were in this,

707
00:34:44.100 --> 00:34:45.020
I forget what it's called,

708
00:34:45.020 --> 00:34:47.340
but when there's one of those really pretty trellises

709
00:34:47.340 --> 00:34:48.780
and it has lots of flowers,

710
00:34:48.780 --> 00:34:51.480
well, that trellis led right to a butterfly garden.

711
00:34:51.480 --> 00:34:54.860
So right behind where we got married for our ceremony

712
00:34:54.860 --> 00:34:56.179
was a butterfly garden.

713
00:34:56.179 --> 00:34:58.660
That's what this place, that's like what they labeled it.

714
00:34:58.660 --> 00:35:00.060
So it had tons of flowers.

715
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.040
for butterflies and the whole nine yards.

716
00:35:04.040 --> 00:35:06.080
And I told the ladies this afternoon too,

717
00:35:06.080 --> 00:35:07.280
y'all, I was gonna do this.

718
00:35:07.280 --> 00:35:09.580
I had this whole envision,

719
00:35:09.580 --> 00:35:11.440
like I was gonna do this butterfly release.

720
00:35:11.440 --> 00:35:12.720
I bought all these butterflies

721
00:35:12.720 --> 00:35:14.560
and everybody was gonna open them at the end

722
00:35:14.560 --> 00:35:17.440
and they were all gonna be beautiful and fly away.

723
00:35:17.440 --> 00:35:20.120
Y'all know that did not happen.

724
00:35:20.120 --> 00:35:23.120
Poor little things, don't know how, don't know when,

725
00:35:23.120 --> 00:35:24.600
but they all were dead.

726
00:35:24.600 --> 00:35:27.320
It was one of those moments that it was just like,

727
00:35:27.320 --> 00:35:31.040
okay, I'm gonna surrender to this expectation right now.

728
00:35:31.040 --> 00:35:32.960
And all I can do is laugh about it.

729
00:35:32.960 --> 00:35:36.160
Like I remember, cause just, it was such a like,

730
00:35:36.160 --> 00:35:38.160
oh my gosh, like they're all dead.

731
00:35:38.160 --> 00:35:39.040
Like, what do you do?

732
00:35:39.040 --> 00:35:42.420
Like I just laughed, but guess what?

733
00:35:43.520 --> 00:35:45.840
During the ceremony, I didn't know this,

734
00:35:45.840 --> 00:35:48.800
but I had many people send me photos.

735
00:35:48.800 --> 00:35:53.800
I had a butterfly that was on my veil the entire ceremony.

736
00:35:54.440 --> 00:35:57.200
Y'all, butterflies were a thing between my mom and I.

737
00:35:58.040 --> 00:36:01.240
My mom passed literally two weeks after I got engaged.

738
00:36:01.240 --> 00:36:06.120
And so it was really kind of a special thought to think

739
00:36:06.120 --> 00:36:09.520
that while that didn't work out,

740
00:36:09.520 --> 00:36:12.600
that thing that I had planned

741
00:36:12.600 --> 00:36:16.200
and this idea and this imagination of how it would go,

742
00:36:16.200 --> 00:36:20.360
but here was this one sole butterfly on my veil,

743
00:36:20.360 --> 00:36:22.560
the entire ceremony.

744
00:36:22.560 --> 00:36:25.980
Now, I don't want this, I don't think weird things,

745
00:36:26.020 --> 00:36:28.100
but I really believe that was kind of a symbol

746
00:36:28.100 --> 00:36:29.900
of my mom with me.

747
00:36:29.900 --> 00:36:32.020
I believe God gave that to me.

748
00:36:32.020 --> 00:36:35.580
And so I'm saying this to you to say this,

749
00:36:35.580 --> 00:36:39.300
sometimes we have to surrender the pan of our expectations.

750
00:36:39.300 --> 00:36:41.620
Sometimes the way we think it's gonna turn out

751
00:36:41.620 --> 00:36:44.860
and we can prepare and we can do all the things,

752
00:36:44.860 --> 00:36:47.340
but like, let's just trust that like,

753
00:36:47.340 --> 00:36:51.180
however it's meant to work out, it will work out.

754
00:36:51.180 --> 00:36:53.460
And in that process, like tonight,

755
00:36:53.460 --> 00:36:57.700
what are some things in that, again,

756
00:36:57.700 --> 00:37:00.060
where you're like, I'll just do this myself

757
00:37:00.060 --> 00:37:02.020
and I'll lean into my own ability

758
00:37:02.020 --> 00:37:03.360
and I don't need other people.

759
00:37:03.360 --> 00:37:06.420
Well, that whole day, the whole day of the wedding

760
00:37:06.420 --> 00:37:10.200
and even the whole weekend, y'all, I needed people.

761
00:37:11.200 --> 00:37:14.280
I needed people to help with all kinds of stuff.

762
00:37:14.280 --> 00:37:16.860
And how great that I had a community and friends

763
00:37:16.860 --> 00:37:21.100
and people that were willing to step in

764
00:37:21.300 --> 00:37:24.380
and help with whatever we needed help with.

765
00:37:24.380 --> 00:37:27.780
So being in community and opening yourself up to people

766
00:37:27.780 --> 00:37:29.540
is a very powerful thing.

767
00:37:29.540 --> 00:37:33.300
And if that even, the thought of that even scares you,

768
00:37:33.300 --> 00:37:34.900
right there, you need to say, okay, Lord,

769
00:37:34.900 --> 00:37:36.800
like, can you reveal to me,

770
00:37:36.800 --> 00:37:39.240
like, why is that causing fear in me?

771
00:37:39.240 --> 00:37:42.740
To think about connecting with people in relationship

772
00:37:42.740 --> 00:37:45.060
and letting them actually get to know me

773
00:37:45.900 --> 00:37:47.500
and not living in isolation.

774
00:37:47.500 --> 00:37:48.660
Okay, I'm gonna keep going.

775
00:37:48.660 --> 00:37:50.380
So in Supernatural Surrender,

776
00:37:50.380 --> 00:37:53.700
we emphasize in this community for you to not dig.

777
00:37:53.700 --> 00:37:55.180
We do not want you to dig.

778
00:37:55.180 --> 00:37:56.700
We don't want you to get your shovels out

779
00:37:56.700 --> 00:37:58.940
and try to figure things out on your own.

780
00:37:58.940 --> 00:38:03.020
We are very big on revealing for healing.

781
00:38:03.020 --> 00:38:04.660
And who's doing the revealing?

782
00:38:05.580 --> 00:38:06.580
The Lord is.

783
00:38:08.740 --> 00:38:10.120
The Lord is, okay?

784
00:38:11.900 --> 00:38:14.260
Helen, those, the community groups

785
00:38:14.260 --> 00:38:16.740
come later in the program, okay?

786
00:38:16.740 --> 00:38:17.940
And we do that intentionally

787
00:38:18.220 --> 00:38:19.780
because we want you all to really focus

788
00:38:19.780 --> 00:38:24.660
on your heart healing and staying on course.

789
00:38:26.460 --> 00:38:28.420
All right, so we want you to ask the Lord

790
00:38:28.420 --> 00:38:31.100
to reveal things for healing, trust what he brings up.

791
00:38:31.100 --> 00:38:33.740
And then when he brings things up,

792
00:38:33.740 --> 00:38:36.260
you wanna lean into the Holy Spirit, okay?

793
00:38:36.260 --> 00:38:38.820
And I tell people this a lot, pull the thread.

794
00:38:38.820 --> 00:38:39.640
What's that mean?

795
00:38:39.640 --> 00:38:42.820
That means whatever comes up first,

796
00:38:42.820 --> 00:38:44.240
even if you don't understand it,

797
00:38:44.240 --> 00:38:46.480
if it's an image, a phrase, a memory,

798
00:38:46.480 --> 00:38:49.120
even if you don't think it even hurt you,

799
00:38:49.120 --> 00:38:50.360
but that's what's coming up,

800
00:38:50.360 --> 00:38:51.680
then you would ask the Lord,

801
00:38:51.680 --> 00:38:54.800
okay, Lord, like you brought this memory up

802
00:38:54.800 --> 00:38:56.920
from when I was in elementary school.

803
00:38:56.920 --> 00:39:00.060
And I don't know what you're trying to show me,

804
00:39:00.060 --> 00:39:01.800
but I believe you're bringing this memory up.

805
00:39:01.800 --> 00:39:03.320
Can you reveal to me what it is

806
00:39:03.320 --> 00:39:04.880
you want me to know about this?

807
00:39:04.880 --> 00:39:06.400
And just see what he says.

808
00:39:06.400 --> 00:39:08.200
And record all of those things.

809
00:39:08.200 --> 00:39:10.300
Even if you think it's insignificant,

810
00:39:11.200 --> 00:39:12.820
there might be things that God shows you now

811
00:39:12.820 --> 00:39:15.520
that even a week from now, it will make sense.

812
00:39:15.520 --> 00:39:17.120
Does everyone understand that?

813
00:39:17.120 --> 00:39:19.800
That's where even that supernatural surrendering

814
00:39:19.800 --> 00:39:22.360
to the process of healing is really important.

815
00:39:22.360 --> 00:39:25.480
Okay, I'm gonna put you in your breakout groups

816
00:39:25.480 --> 00:39:27.440
and it's gonna be really good.

817
00:39:27.440 --> 00:39:28.780
This is the question tonight.

818
00:39:28.780 --> 00:39:33.000
What are some things God is nudging you to surrender to him?

819
00:39:33.000 --> 00:39:35.240
What are some things that God is nudging you

820
00:39:35.240 --> 00:39:36.120
to surrender to him?

821
00:39:36.120 --> 00:39:38.100
So let me get these ready for you.

822
00:39:45.520 --> 00:39:46.620
Okay, perfect.

823
00:39:51.040 --> 00:39:53.040
And you all, if you get in a room

824
00:39:53.040 --> 00:39:55.000
and nobody else is there yet, don't worry,

825
00:39:55.000 --> 00:39:57.280
because sometimes people's internet gets delayed

826
00:39:57.280 --> 00:39:59.820
or people, I didn't send it yet,

827
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:14.340
People might not be able to go so I might have to move people around. So just know that I'll be working on that. I'll be praying for you all. We're going to do seven minutes for this first one. And here you are. That should be on your screen. Go ahead and click to join that.

828
00:40:19.300 --> 00:40:25.220
And Diane, I see that you just came in. So I have to wait until these kind of get situated and then I'll put you in a room as well.

829
00:40:25.980 --> 00:40:26.580
I switched.

830
00:40:27.840 --> 00:40:29.340
Oh, that's all right. Yeah, that's totally fine.

831
00:40:30.960 --> 00:40:35.160
It's just they jump around on my screen. So it makes it hard to put you in a group. There you go.

832
00:40:36.640 --> 00:40:37.320
All right.

833
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Thank you.

834
00:40:39.280 --> 00:40:40.240
You're welcome.

835
00:40:42.960 --> 00:40:45.120
I think I've got every out routes is by yourself.

836
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All right.

837
00:41:00.720 --> 00:41:05.840
A couple more just trying to make sure people are getting in a room and they're not by themselves.

838
00:41:08.440 --> 00:41:09.440
All right.

839
00:41:11.640 --> 00:41:18.200
Stephanie, that's totally fine. You don't you don't have to go in if you're at work. And let's see Beth Donnelly. Are you able

840
00:41:19.200 --> 00:41:24.240
Okay, Rosie, that's fine. I didn't know if you want to go into a breakout session room or not.

841
00:41:24.240 --> 00:41:34.640
Okay, I think at least have two people in every room. All right, Father, thank you so much for everything you're already doing tonight. God, we thank you for revealings for healing happening. We thank you for truth.

842
00:41:35.600 --> 00:41:42.120
We thank you. Yes, Lord. I speak hope over every one of the ladies. God, we thank you for your

843
00:41:43.880 --> 00:41:44.920
Yeah, just Lord.

844
00:41:45.640 --> 00:41:46.720
Yeah, just Lord.

845
00:41:47.960 --> 00:41:54.960
The reminder that you make all things new and what just specifically came to mind, even before I had that thought was just

846
00:41:55.760 --> 00:42:06.920
The scripture that talks about how you will prepare a table for us in the presence of our enemies. And so where I believe that's for someone, whether it's someone here live or someone that will watch the replay just the reminder that

847
00:42:07.920 --> 00:42:14.280
That you don't have to worry about the situation that's weighing on you that God is going to work that thing out.

848
00:42:14.680 --> 00:42:31.320
And God is going to bless you in the presence of those things that you were have been warring against. Hi, Alicia. I'm going to put you in a breakout room. Let me see. I have one that's only let's see room for they're talking about what are some things God is nudging you to surrender to him today.

849
00:42:33.400 --> 00:42:35.520
Or there you go.

850
00:42:37.640 --> 00:42:42.320
All right. So Father, we just thank you again just for even your grace.

851
00:42:43.400 --> 00:42:51.880
That is so amazing. I just think of the song like how sweet the sound of it is it saved a wrench like us. I pray that you'll help us to remember

852
00:42:51.880 --> 00:43:01.160
How far we've come. God, I thank you that you would reveal areas for healing and impart truth and grace to us. I see galaxy s 10

853
00:43:01.680 --> 00:43:13.560
I don't know what your name is, but we're doing breakouts. I can put you into a breakout room here as well. I think I have another room that only has two people. Oh, Amanda's by yourself. Gosh, how did that happen right got to put you in there.

854
00:43:17.760 --> 00:43:20.000
That's there for you try to click to join that

855
00:43:22.880 --> 00:43:29.560
There you go. All right. Awesome. I'm Sarah in California, just so I know to were you trying to get into a breakout room or you're not able tonight.

856
00:43:31.080 --> 00:43:40.360
It's okay if you're not able to, but I just wanted to check. Alright, so where we just thank you for revelation power and we thank you for truth. We thank you that

857
00:43:40.360 --> 00:43:49.840
Yeah, Lord, even in our minds that you, you are daily transforming us by the renewing of our minds that all things have passed away and behold, everything is becoming new and you

858
00:43:50.160 --> 00:44:09.720
Got to thank you that you would just come in and create new neuropathways in our minds and and just those places in our spirits and our souls that need your touch. God, we thank you for the bomb of Gilead that you're placing upon every wound, God, and that you're going into the recesses of our souls.

859
00:44:10.360 --> 00:44:18.360
God, we thank you that you're going into the crevices and the cracks and crevices of our foundation of our heart, every area that has just

860
00:44:19.360 --> 00:44:39.360
Just that brokenness in the the things that have happened, Lord, and you just take all those things and you hold them in the palm of your hand and you fill them up with the power of your presence, that your healing power washes over us and cleanses us it renews us it rebuilds us it's restoring us God, we, we, we come out of alignment and agreement with the lie

861
00:44:40.360 --> 00:44:55.360
That you're patient for us, God, that we, we can't go through these things, God, we thank you that you enable us you give us the power and the ability to not only go through but to overcome we thank you God for the victory that's already ours. So Lord, I pray that you would

862
00:44:55.360 --> 00:45:00.360
Yeah, Lord, just place the blood of Jesus Christ over every one of these ladies over their lives, their situations.

863
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:07.860
and that you would just help them to recognize the power of the blood in this situation that they're walking through and we thank you

864
00:45:07.860 --> 00:45:11.880
God for doors of opportunity opening for them. We thank you God that you would

865
00:45:12.520 --> 00:45:17.760
Yeah, just help them help us all to show up differently every single day that we would be

866
00:45:19.200 --> 00:45:26.160
Yeah, just that change from glory to glory to glory that people would come up to us and be like, hey, what's different?

867
00:45:26.160 --> 00:45:32.120
What's going on with you because they would notice God your glory and your light shining through us more than ever before

868
00:45:32.560 --> 00:45:34.560
God we thank you for

869
00:45:35.040 --> 00:45:39.600
just continuing to remove all the the dross and the

870
00:45:40.120 --> 00:45:42.620
the chaff and the deadness of even

871
00:45:43.280 --> 00:45:45.600
Just what I'm kind of hearing in the spirit. Sorry leave

872
00:45:48.520 --> 00:45:53.720
It's just like a shedding of you know dead set like dead skin cells dead layers

873
00:45:54.360 --> 00:45:59.680
And we just thank you it's kind of like makes me think of even metamorphosis as I was talking about butterflies or earlier

874
00:46:00.320 --> 00:46:07.040
You know, they go in and they're in this process in the cocoon and all that transformation is happening. And then when it's time

875
00:46:07.840 --> 00:46:14.600
They break through that cocoon and they shed that thing and then they begin to spread their wings and then they can fly at some

876
00:46:14.600 --> 00:46:15.440
point

877
00:46:15.440 --> 00:46:18.520
And and so where we just thank you for that transformation

878
00:46:19.280 --> 00:46:20.960
process

879
00:46:20.960 --> 00:46:24.320
God we thank you that even in the midst of

880
00:46:25.240 --> 00:46:30.560
challenging situations and dynamics that you will remind us that you are there and

881
00:46:30.920 --> 00:46:36.000
Every single moment God that you don't slumber you don't sleep and you're your jewel

882
00:46:36.000 --> 00:46:41.400
It's your joy to love us to bestow your grace and your good gifts upon us

883
00:46:41.400 --> 00:46:47.800
I believe that even as the word like how Elijah was running down the mountain and your goodness was

884
00:46:48.120 --> 00:46:51.120
Overtaking them God we we just speak the goodness of God

885
00:46:51.760 --> 00:46:57.720
That we would experience it in the land of the living that we don't have to wait just to heaven to experience that so God

886
00:46:57.720 --> 00:47:02.200
I thank you for supernatural divine healing and revelation for

887
00:47:02.800 --> 00:47:07.160
Just helping us Lord to have an upgrade of understanding. I

888
00:47:08.400 --> 00:47:12.560
Pray that you would help the ladies to receive fresh revelation and vision of who

889
00:47:12.880 --> 00:47:18.840
They are in you that you would help them to understand how you see them as well as God that you would speak a fresh

890
00:47:18.840 --> 00:47:20.480
word in this season

891
00:47:20.480 --> 00:47:27.680
For them that it would literally transform them from the inside out because it comes to the court speaks to the core

892
00:47:28.280 --> 00:47:30.280
The way they used to look at themselves

893
00:47:30.280 --> 00:47:37.120
But now they have a new revelation of God how you see them and that revelation would just come in and break off chains

894
00:47:37.120 --> 00:47:39.600
And we thank you God that you are the chain breaker

895
00:47:39.800 --> 00:47:43.320
You're the one that helps us to overcome that empowers us to

896
00:47:44.320 --> 00:47:45.120
Yeah, Lord

897
00:47:45.120 --> 00:47:46.600
Lay aside every weight that

898
00:47:46.600 --> 00:47:52.000
So easily ensnared us in the past that we can now press on toward the high calling of God for our lives

899
00:47:52.000 --> 00:47:57.560
Which includes us walking into the fullness of everything that God had planned for us in the beginning

900
00:47:57.960 --> 00:48:03.920
When he created us and that also includes praise the Lord our love story and helping us walk into those things

901
00:48:04.160 --> 00:48:07.160
Well, we we just speak life. We speak joy. We speak

902
00:48:07.960 --> 00:48:14.920
Yeah, not even just joy but joy unspeakable and full of your glory God that that would be manifest in our lives in and just

903
00:48:15.120 --> 00:48:21.200
Radical ways and that people would see what you're doing in our life and they would want to know like hey again

904
00:48:21.200 --> 00:48:25.560
Like what's happening? How's this going and God that we would be able to say? Hey God did this

905
00:48:26.080 --> 00:48:27.080
He healed me

906
00:48:27.080 --> 00:48:28.040
He set me free

907
00:48:28.040 --> 00:48:32.320
And we'd be able to share our testimony by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony

908
00:48:32.760 --> 00:48:37.080
That people will come to know him through us in Jesus name welcome back

909
00:48:40.840 --> 00:48:43.200
I'm getting feedback. All right, welcome back

910
00:48:43.200 --> 00:48:46.800
So for those of you that are joining us new for the first time if you didn't know this

911
00:48:46.800 --> 00:48:51.920
Oh, I guess we lost maybe like five or six people when we went into breakouts there. That's a bummer

912
00:48:52.320 --> 00:48:54.120
Hopefully people didn't get kicked out

913
00:48:54.120 --> 00:49:00.640
But um, we are gonna do our group shares here and I feel like maybe I'm getting feedback from one other person

914
00:49:00.640 --> 00:49:02.640
Let me see if I can find

915
00:49:03.000 --> 00:49:05.000
There we go, okay, um

916
00:49:05.400 --> 00:49:09.520
Sometimes I don't know why certain certain computers I get feedback. Um, so

917
00:49:10.440 --> 00:49:16.080
If you are willing to share with the whole group what you shared in the breakout about your supernatural surrenders

918
00:49:16.080 --> 00:49:22.120
The way I want to do this to begin with tonight is I want to have a couple people share kind of quickly

919
00:49:22.720 --> 00:49:27.880
and then if I feel like I need to jump in and do some coaching I will or I might wait until all of you

920
00:49:27.880 --> 00:49:32.200
Go and then coach from there. Hey, cuz I want to hear from more people

921
00:49:33.160 --> 00:49:35.160
Helen go ahead

922
00:49:35.160 --> 00:49:36.520
um

923
00:49:36.520 --> 00:49:43.600
So we're sharing what we shared right just on personal level. Yep. One thing that God's teaching me to let go is

924
00:49:45.040 --> 00:49:48.240
Destructive mindsets that partner with lies

925
00:49:49.360 --> 00:49:50.560
and

926
00:49:50.560 --> 00:49:55.160
Something you spoke to earlier about God is withholding or God is incompetent

927
00:49:55.160 --> 00:49:59.760
Or he's enabling and are unwilling and or unwilling to bless me with us

928
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:06.960
family, even though I've been praying for it for decades. And that's a life on the pit of hell.

929
00:50:06.960 --> 00:50:12.320
And I need to stop partnering with that, pruning those thought processes and partnering with true.

930
00:50:13.360 --> 00:50:17.680
Yes, I love it. Thank you so much. So I am probably going to circle back because there's

931
00:50:17.680 --> 00:50:22.800
some things on there. I felt like even as you were talking, let's see maybe what God wants

932
00:50:22.800 --> 00:50:29.520
to continue to do there. But even maybe before I move forward, I feel like a nudge just to wait

933
00:50:29.520 --> 00:50:33.360
here for a minute. So let's talk about this ladies, because I think this is going to help

934
00:50:33.360 --> 00:50:39.600
a lot of people. On the God is unable or that, you know, he can't do it or won't do it.

935
00:50:40.240 --> 00:50:45.520
Let's unpack that a little bit. Helen, when is the first time that you believe that, you know,

936
00:50:45.520 --> 00:50:49.920
just even if you can, again, you're not trying to figure it out for yourself. But as I ask you,

937
00:50:49.920 --> 00:50:54.080
when it comes up, just whatever comes up first for you. When's the first time that you remember

938
00:50:54.080 --> 00:50:57.200
thinking that God was unable or unwilling?

939
00:50:59.920 --> 00:51:05.360
It was if I got older, it wasn't always there. It was when I got older, and everybody else seems to

940
00:51:05.360 --> 00:51:11.360
be getting their family and I wasn't. So I would say like in my late 30s. I mean, like literally,

941
00:51:11.360 --> 00:51:16.640
when you mentioned the whole dangling a carrot, because it was one being single for too long to

942
00:51:16.640 --> 00:51:20.960
watching all the breakthroughs for people. And then three, it's like I would meet someone.

943
00:51:21.920 --> 00:51:26.880
And then things would not would fizzle out even when they were believers, like I would meet

944
00:51:26.880 --> 00:51:31.760
someone whether it was online or introduced to or whatever. And, and then would fizzle out. And I'm

945
00:51:31.760 --> 00:51:35.680
like, you know, I could have done with this is being being mad at God, which you should never

946
00:51:35.680 --> 00:51:41.440
be. But anyway, I'd be like, done without that, like, why did you even bring allow this person

947
00:51:41.440 --> 00:51:48.080
if he wasn't going to work out, you know, kind of thing. And yeah. Yeah. And so this is super

948
00:51:48.080 --> 00:51:53.600
helpful. Because here's the thing, ladies, because even as you heal through this program,

949
00:51:53.600 --> 00:52:00.000
if you continue to move into the remainder of our program, I'm like, one of the things we talk

950
00:52:00.000 --> 00:52:07.280
about is that every we believe that every person that we come into contact with is an opportunity

951
00:52:07.280 --> 00:52:13.600
for us to grow to heal, to learn something. Some of them, it's just like, bless and block. Okay,

952
00:52:13.600 --> 00:52:18.880
thank you. See you later. You know, so there's some of those too. But every everything that we

953
00:52:18.880 --> 00:52:23.920
go through in life, like even myself, not even regarding romantic, but even regarding my work,

954
00:52:23.920 --> 00:52:28.080
I and even when I was in college, like there were so many things like little things along the way

955
00:52:28.080 --> 00:52:33.040
that God, I believe even then before I was a believer, God was kind of putting things in my

956
00:52:33.040 --> 00:52:40.560
life in my path to prepare me for what I'm doing right now. All of that experience. And I remember,

957
00:52:40.560 --> 00:52:46.000
I mean, you all, I felt like I was never going to be able to really step fully into full time

958
00:52:46.000 --> 00:52:49.680
ministry and get paid for it. But that was something I prayed for, for a long time, because

959
00:52:49.680 --> 00:52:53.920
I knew that calling was on my life. And I was volunteering, like I was a boss, like I was doing

960
00:52:53.920 --> 00:52:57.920
all kinds of stuff for free. And I'm not saying I couldn't do that. But I believe that God had

961
00:52:57.920 --> 00:53:03.600
more for me, I didn't believe I was living in the fullness. And so I just continue to believe for

962
00:53:03.600 --> 00:53:08.880
that and continue to believe for that. And what's really amazing is that through the heart work,

963
00:53:08.880 --> 00:53:14.720
not only did God unlock my love story, but he unlocked financial stuff and breakthroughs that

964
00:53:14.720 --> 00:53:21.120
I had been like kind of worrying for, for years, I stepped into full time, like getting paid for it,

965
00:53:21.120 --> 00:53:27.040
full time coaching ministry, I was doing all kinds of stuff like, you know, and so I just

966
00:53:27.040 --> 00:53:36.080
want you all to see that it's really important in this process that we look at, okay, why did we

967
00:53:36.080 --> 00:53:42.080
have a thought like and not that it's like, this is not to put cause anyone to feel shame, because

968
00:53:42.080 --> 00:53:46.880
I have thoughts like what Helen was saying in the past. But what I'm saying, I had to look at why

969
00:53:46.880 --> 00:53:52.320
would I think God, why would you do this to me? Because basically, that's what we're saying, God,

970
00:53:52.320 --> 00:54:00.400
why would you do this to me? Okay, so even with the girl's dad, I remember thinking originally

971
00:54:00.400 --> 00:54:06.560
that I thought he was from the Lord, the first couple, like month or so, but then it wasn't long

972
00:54:06.560 --> 00:54:10.960
in, but I dated him for a real long time. But pretty early on, I was like, wait a minute, like something,

973
00:54:11.600 --> 00:54:14.720
something wasn't adding up, then there were other things. And but then I would just

974
00:54:15.280 --> 00:54:20.480
keep going, like, oh, maybe that first guy, like, maybe he'll come back on the scene here,

975
00:54:20.480 --> 00:54:25.360
you know, and so but I had to look at was that God doing that to me?

976
00:54:26.320 --> 00:54:34.000
Or did I come across this person and then choose to move forward with them? Okay, because there is a

977
00:54:34.000 --> 00:54:41.200
difference. I believe that I gained a lot of insight. I love having my spiritual daughters

978
00:54:41.200 --> 00:54:47.360
in my life. But I do not think that God had that planned for me. I don't I think that I went on

979
00:54:47.520 --> 00:54:54.960
that road. And God all along was trying to say, hey, hey, come over here, come over here.

980
00:54:54.960 --> 00:54:59.920
You know, and I just I, I was just had other things that needed healing.

981
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.240
yield in me that were causing me to stay in a place that was not his best for me.

982
00:55:06.680 --> 00:55:07.080
Okay.

983
00:55:07.360 --> 00:55:11.960
And so even in the, Hey, Lord, I've been, you know, single too long.

984
00:55:11.960 --> 00:55:14.480
Everybody else is getting married and I'm not getting married.

985
00:55:14.480 --> 00:55:15.660
Why am I still sitting here?

986
00:55:15.860 --> 00:55:19.960
You know, these things that we face and we encounter, they're real, but

987
00:55:19.960 --> 00:55:23.820
where do those thought, like those thought postures, the heart postures

988
00:55:23.820 --> 00:55:29.340
that say, okay, God is blessing everybody, but you, and then what's

989
00:55:29.340 --> 00:55:33.920
underneath of that, like, when we're having those thoughts, let's

990
00:55:33.920 --> 00:55:35.320
look at a little bit deeper.

991
00:55:36.000 --> 00:55:39.380
Like, what is the Lord like trying to reveal there?

992
00:55:40.020 --> 00:55:46.600
Well, underneath the surface for a lot of us, there's other times way back where

993
00:55:46.600 --> 00:55:50.640
we felt like a person didn't come through for us and because that person

994
00:55:50.640 --> 00:55:55.400
didn't come through for us the first time that it looked like God wasn't

995
00:55:55.400 --> 00:55:59.940
coming through for us, God never comes through for us is what it turned into.

996
00:56:00.380 --> 00:56:03.420
Do y'all, y'all see how that progression can happen?

997
00:56:03.900 --> 00:56:04.300
Okay.

998
00:56:04.540 --> 00:56:07.160
So I want y'all to just be asking if these kinds of things come up,

999
00:56:07.180 --> 00:56:08.580
what's underneath the surface.

1000
00:56:08.620 --> 00:56:08.980
Okay.

1001
00:56:09.260 --> 00:56:10.260
Megan, go ahead.

1002
00:56:13.300 --> 00:56:18.300
Hey, um, some of it might be similar, but, um, I feel like, okay.

1003
00:56:18.580 --> 00:56:23.140
I feel like God's been bringing up stuff as I've going through the part of the

1004
00:56:23.140 --> 00:56:27.880
book with, um, like what is the heart and kind of roots behind things.

1005
00:56:27.880 --> 00:56:33.240
So, um, I feel like it's fitting, but, um, I feel like what came up was

1006
00:56:33.280 --> 00:56:36.480
comparison and just how it's interesting.

1007
00:56:36.480 --> 00:56:40.200
I feel like God's giving me a lot of grace for people who've gone before me,

1008
00:56:40.200 --> 00:56:46.240
who have gotten married and have had kids, um, before me and I, and this longing

1009
00:56:46.240 --> 00:56:51.280
has been, you know, in my heart for, for many years and I feel like I I'm

1010
00:56:51.280 --> 00:56:55.780
noticing subtly where this comparison can come up where it's just like, I feel

1011
00:56:55.780 --> 00:56:59.900
this disappointment where it's like, why has it, why has it happened?

1012
00:57:00.060 --> 00:57:02.100
Why hasn't it happened for me yet?

1013
00:57:02.140 --> 00:57:06.300
And I was thinking on just like the whole concept.

1014
00:57:06.340 --> 00:57:08.020
We do freedom prayer at my church.

1015
00:57:08.020 --> 00:57:11.180
And just like, where, kind of what you said, like, where did this start?

1016
00:57:11.660 --> 00:57:15.780
And like, is there a time in my life where I like felt the need to

1017
00:57:15.780 --> 00:57:20.140
compare, like felt that, you know, um, why, why not me?

1018
00:57:20.160 --> 00:57:23.400
And I know I'm like a competitive and driven person.

1019
00:57:23.400 --> 00:57:29.080
And, um, I, I feel like it may stem from like, just comparison with my sister

1020
00:57:29.080 --> 00:57:35.200
possibly, um, and like when I was young, that might be part of it, but yeah, it's

1021
00:57:35.200 --> 00:57:38.320
this whole like scarcity mindset that's coming up through me.

1022
00:57:38.480 --> 00:57:43.800
Um, and a verse that was brought up to was a heart at peace brings life to

1023
00:57:43.800 --> 00:57:45.800
the body, but envy rots the bones.

1024
00:57:45.800 --> 00:57:49.200
So like, there's like a lack of peace in my heart.

1025
00:57:49.200 --> 00:57:51.860
Like, I want that to be filled with the Lord and his peace.

1026
00:57:51.860 --> 00:57:57.060
Cause that can be a, like a self-limiting belief that, you know, affects what God

1027
00:57:57.060 --> 00:58:01.660
has for me in the future, if I'm like, if I'm stuck in this lie, it's like, where

1028
00:58:01.660 --> 00:58:03.580
did I first start believing that lie?

1029
00:58:03.580 --> 00:58:06.960
So I'm still kind of like thinking on that, but I just wanted to kind of

1030
00:58:06.960 --> 00:58:09.420
process that out loud with, with you and y'all.

1031
00:58:10.340 --> 00:58:11.940
Yeah, this is so powerful ladies.

1032
00:58:11.940 --> 00:58:15.000
And so, all right, maybe I'm going to pause a little bit here and there

1033
00:58:15.000 --> 00:58:17.820
because there's just some things I feel like to pull out for you all.

1034
00:58:18.820 --> 00:58:23.440
So a couple things, I love that you're leaning into the Lord in the process

1035
00:58:23.440 --> 00:58:26.940
and just kind of like, okay, you know, allowing him to connect dots for you,

1036
00:58:26.940 --> 00:58:28.740
including that scripture that came up.

1037
00:58:29.160 --> 00:58:33.000
Um, the sister thing is what I feel led to ask you about.

1038
00:58:33.020 --> 00:58:35.920
Can you tell me more what that dynamic was like growing up?

1039
00:58:36.480 --> 00:58:38.480
Yeah, that's a good question.

1040
00:58:39.040 --> 00:58:40.740
Um, she's four years older.

1041
00:58:40.980 --> 00:58:45.800
Um, and she, I mean, I've always looked up to her.

1042
00:58:46.060 --> 00:58:51.220
Um, I feel like we fought more when we were younger, but as we got older, like

1043
00:58:51.220 --> 00:58:56.260
in, when she was off to college and I was in high school, we, we like got along

1044
00:58:56.300 --> 00:59:02.300
better, um, I don't know, I'm trying to think like, she's always been really

1045
00:59:02.300 --> 00:59:08.580
caring and fun and, um, I think when we were young, like we were very different

1046
00:59:08.580 --> 00:59:12.940
like body types and a part of me feels like it's when you talked about, I

1047
00:59:12.960 --> 00:59:18.160
re-listened to that supernatural Sunday or whatever, whatever, whatever that was.

1048
00:59:18.160 --> 00:59:24.160
Some y'all talked about body types and so she's always, she was always really

1049
00:59:24.160 --> 00:59:27.400
skinny and I'm more like muscularly built, like athletic.

1050
00:59:27.600 --> 00:59:31.360
Um, and I feel like that's come up in freedom prayer, but for me before where

1051
00:59:31.360 --> 00:59:35.600
it felt so like, you know, silly and superficial, but it was like, you know,

1052
00:59:35.600 --> 00:59:40.460
I think in the, when I was younger, I saw like people would comment a lot.

1053
00:59:40.460 --> 00:59:44.680
Like she looked like a supermodel, like even family members said she

1054
00:59:44.680 --> 00:59:47.440
should be a supermodel, like aunts would say that.

1055
00:59:47.720 --> 00:59:50.400
And so like, maybe there's some lie behind that.

1056
00:59:50.400 --> 00:59:56.080
Like, that's why she's gotten, you know, a man early and like has three kids.

1057
00:59:56.080 --> 00:59:59.920
And, and like, and then at the time, I think I was.

1058
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:24.000
You know, I think there was there's been lies that have been spoken to me about being overweight when I was younger. I'm like, I definitely am health conscious now. And like, I'm, I feel like I'm healthier and in shape, but I'm just more muscularly built, not like, you know, skinny like she was. So anyway, maybe there's something like that. It feels so superficial, but I know you brought it up recently. So that could be part of it.

1059
01:00:24.000 --> 01:00:29.000
Let's unpack that too. Yeah, it feels superficial.

1060
01:00:29.000 --> 01:00:35.000
Okay, yeah, let me think about that.

1061
01:00:35.000 --> 01:00:59.000
I mean, because it's like, it's, I know that like, our beauty is like, it's, it's, it's inner beauty. And so like, I, I think it's a superficial thing to think that she like, her being skinny is like, more beautiful than me being like, muscular. I don't know. I just, it doesn't.

1062
01:01:00.000 --> 01:01:01.000
Go ahead.

1063
01:01:01.000 --> 01:01:16.000
But if you're broken heart, at some point, it sounds like I think you're onto something here. And I don't think it's superficial. I think that there's somewhere in your broken heart that's telling you that you're less than because your body is different than hers.

1064
01:01:16.000 --> 01:01:18.000
Yeah, that's true.

1065
01:01:18.000 --> 01:01:36.000
And here's, here's the thing. I literally was just talking to my husband about this today. When, when we don't feel confident in ourselves, like even if we feel like, okay, let me say this, I think there's a level of we can still be confident, like on a surface level, like we show up and we're good.

1066
01:01:36.000 --> 01:01:56.000
But like, deep down when there's body image issues, or there's these internal struggles because of programming and things that we heard other people say, and then the enemy was coming in and chirping at us. And we partnered or believe because we didn't know any better. A lot of times when we're young, we, we don't even have the capability to fight those kind of things off.

1067
01:01:56.000 --> 01:02:16.000
And if there are messages that we're receiving, even from people like parents and like aunts and uncles, they don't realize what they're saying, maybe somebody's picking at you because they think you're eating too much. And like, you know, all these little things that we don't even we're not even aware of, it all feeds into that same thing over and over again.

1068
01:02:16.000 --> 01:02:33.000
For me, watching my mom and sister hide food, some of the opposite things were it was those kind of things. Like, why did they do that? Like, I didn't, but then like that perpetuating that stuff when I would feel stressed out, like, it's weird, but it's part of that is because I saw them doing that stuff.

1069
01:02:33.000 --> 01:02:57.000
Yeah. And so that's kind of a polar opposite. So I want to pull that out for some other people that are on tonight, too. But like, I think it's good to ask the Lord. Like, even why, why, why am I believing the lie that this is superficial, that this is a struggle for me? You know, and and just come out because to me, that's the enemy trying to shame you when you're trying to get freedom.

1070
01:02:57.000 --> 01:02:59.000
Okay.

1071
01:03:27.000 --> 01:03:51.000
And I'm sorry. But there's a lot of people that are way out of balance and overweight in church and nobody's talking about it. And some of that is like, hey, hormonal things, everything, there's things that all come into play. But we we have to understand that the programming religious sometimes even program has told us that it's wrong for us to care too much about our body.

1072
01:03:52.000 --> 01:04:14.000
And our looks. I had a woman and I don't know why I'm going on this. We're already at 904. So we're probably only going to talk about supernatural surrender night. But God knows what we needed. So I had this woman tell me, um, I went on this trip when I was serving with Elevation Church and I let her like I paid for our hotel. So she's staying with me in the hotel room. So she didn't have to pay.

1073
01:04:15.000 --> 01:04:36.000
And I just you all, I don't feel like I'm a vain person. But I just I like to get my hair colored. I like to wear makeup. I like to have nice clothes. And so like, you know, she's seeing my process every day that we're there because I get ready before I go places. And you know, she like made a comment to me about like, that I need to not be so vain.

1074
01:04:36.000 --> 01:04:59.000
And I remember just like, wait a minute. Like in my spirit, I was like, No, I knew that was not from the Lord. And so I talked to another friend that was there. She was just staying in another room later that night and process that out with her. And, you know, just because I knew that was not coming from the Lord, but it hurt me because here I am. I'm, I feel like I'm not coming from the Lord.

1075
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.080
I feel like I'm being super kind to this person

1076
01:05:02.080 --> 01:05:05.160
and then like the enemy used her to come at me

1077
01:05:05.160 --> 01:05:09.360
and try to cause me to feel like guilty and bad

1078
01:05:09.360 --> 01:05:11.560
for caring about these things, right?

1079
01:05:11.560 --> 01:05:13.060
And so for whatever it's worth,

1080
01:05:13.060 --> 01:05:15.040
I want y'all to be thinking about that too.

1081
01:05:15.040 --> 01:05:18.720
Like, are there people in the church that shame you?

1082
01:05:18.720 --> 01:05:20.680
Are there, were there people growing up

1083
01:05:20.680 --> 01:05:23.800
that said things negatively about you in these ways

1084
01:05:23.800 --> 01:05:26.600
that now it's like programming on the inside

1085
01:05:26.600 --> 01:05:30.180
that's subconsciously impacting you in certain ways?

1086
01:05:30.180 --> 01:05:31.800
And just be thinking about that.

1087
01:05:31.800 --> 01:05:34.060
There's a lot of, I can't tell you how many people

1088
01:05:34.060 --> 01:05:37.120
I've coached where there's been sibling comparison.

1089
01:05:39.760 --> 01:05:42.600
So I think, yeah, look into that with the Lord

1090
01:05:42.600 --> 01:05:43.920
a little bit this week.

1091
01:05:43.920 --> 01:05:45.600
And when I say that,

1092
01:05:45.600 --> 01:05:47.640
I just mean ask him some good questions.

1093
01:05:47.640 --> 01:05:49.160
We wanna encourage you in this community,

1094
01:05:49.160 --> 01:05:50.780
ask God good questions.

1095
01:05:50.780 --> 01:05:52.320
You wanna get like, keep doing that.

1096
01:05:52.320 --> 01:05:55.300
Keep asking him good questions, see where it leads.

1097
01:05:55.300 --> 01:05:58.580
And I believe he's gonna reveal quite a bit more there

1098
01:05:58.580 --> 01:06:02.040
and really give yourself that permission

1099
01:06:02.980 --> 01:06:04.060
to take a look at this.

1100
01:06:04.060 --> 01:06:06.540
Because again, it's not superficial.

1101
01:06:06.540 --> 01:06:08.700
God is leading you on a healing journey.

1102
01:06:08.700 --> 01:06:10.500
It's his purpose for you right now.

1103
01:06:11.380 --> 01:06:12.220
Thank you.

1104
01:06:12.220 --> 01:06:13.500
You're welcome.

1105
01:06:13.500 --> 01:06:14.340
You're welcome.

1106
01:06:14.340 --> 01:06:15.180
So glad that you shared.

1107
01:06:15.180 --> 01:06:16.620
And I wanted to say also, Helen,

1108
01:06:16.620 --> 01:06:17.660
thank you for sharing as well.

1109
01:06:17.660 --> 01:06:18.880
I think I forgot to say that to you.

1110
01:06:18.880 --> 01:06:19.920
Amy, go ahead.

1111
01:06:20.640 --> 01:06:23.640
So for me, I really feel like the Lord

1112
01:06:23.640 --> 01:06:26.720
is having me surrender my job search to him.

1113
01:06:26.720 --> 01:06:28.440
But now that we're going through all of this,

1114
01:06:28.440 --> 01:06:31.680
I actually think on a deeper level, it's control.

1115
01:06:31.680 --> 01:06:34.800
Because I've been unemployed for eight months.

1116
01:06:34.800 --> 01:06:37.320
And I think there's some pride there too,

1117
01:06:37.320 --> 01:06:40.560
because I'm a very seasoned professional,

1118
01:06:40.560 --> 01:06:42.560
have never had trouble getting a job.

1119
01:06:43.680 --> 01:06:46.400
I got laid off eight months ago.

1120
01:06:46.600 --> 01:06:49.400
I got laid off eight months ago.

1121
01:06:49.400 --> 01:06:51.640
And I was very shocked

1122
01:06:51.640 --> 01:06:53.920
that I have not been able to find a job.

1123
01:06:53.920 --> 01:06:56.720
And I've been in multiple final interviews.

1124
01:06:56.720 --> 01:06:58.360
But I really feel like the Lord just revealed to me,

1125
01:06:58.360 --> 01:07:01.560
it's actually control that I need to release to him.

1126
01:07:01.560 --> 01:07:06.200
Because I felt like I've been in control for so long.

1127
01:07:06.200 --> 01:07:09.480
And I had a lot of tenure at this company.

1128
01:07:09.480 --> 01:07:12.280
So for me to be in this job search now

1129
01:07:12.280 --> 01:07:13.880
has been really difficult.

1130
01:07:13.880 --> 01:07:16.320
I even this morning was like having a meltdown about it

1131
01:07:17.200 --> 01:07:19.400
because every single door,

1132
01:07:19.400 --> 01:07:22.360
everything's been slammed in my face lately.

1133
01:07:22.360 --> 01:07:25.880
And so I really feel like it's been

1134
01:07:25.880 --> 01:07:27.720
a season of surrender for me

1135
01:07:27.720 --> 01:07:31.640
because I have to surrender financially to him as well.

1136
01:07:31.640 --> 01:07:34.360
And yeah, I think it's control actually.

1137
01:07:34.360 --> 01:07:36.040
I hear you talking to everyone else

1138
01:07:36.040 --> 01:07:37.120
and I'm like, oh my gosh,

1139
01:07:37.120 --> 01:07:39.920
the Lord just revealed to me what it is.

1140
01:07:39.920 --> 01:07:42.200
And also maybe a little bit of pride too,

1141
01:07:42.200 --> 01:07:44.040
if I'm gonna be transparent.

1142
01:07:44.040 --> 01:07:46.040
I think that's what the Lord has just recently revealed

1143
01:07:46.040 --> 01:07:48.160
to me in this conversation.

1144
01:07:48.160 --> 01:07:50.840
Yeah, I think you're right in that.

1145
01:07:50.840 --> 01:07:53.120
And here's the thing, I want you to,

1146
01:07:54.360 --> 01:07:57.920
okay, I also just heard it has to do with identity too.

1147
01:07:59.200 --> 01:08:00.040
Yeah.

1148
01:08:00.040 --> 01:08:01.080
This is at the core.

1149
01:08:01.080 --> 01:08:03.720
It is control and it is pride.

1150
01:08:03.720 --> 01:08:06.520
But ultimately I was going to say to you like,

1151
01:08:06.520 --> 01:08:08.720
who are you without your job?

1152
01:08:08.720 --> 01:08:11.040
And like even before I got the question out,

1153
01:08:11.040 --> 01:08:12.040
like I heard identity.

1154
01:08:12.040 --> 01:08:15.600
So like, I think God is trying to lead you to a revelation

1155
01:08:15.600 --> 01:08:18.800
that you are not defined by your job and your profession

1156
01:08:18.800 --> 01:08:20.399
and your career and your abilities.

1157
01:08:20.399 --> 01:08:22.279
Like there's so much more to you.

1158
01:08:22.279 --> 01:08:24.359
And it doesn't mean you can't have an amazing job

1159
01:08:24.359 --> 01:08:25.479
and do all these giftings

1160
01:08:25.479 --> 01:08:27.680
and use them the way that you do.

1161
01:08:27.680 --> 01:08:30.760
But I believe that there's something to that.

1162
01:08:30.760 --> 01:08:32.640
Yeah, I see that too, Lori.

1163
01:08:32.640 --> 01:08:35.880
Like I struggled, like I knew in my former job,

1164
01:08:35.880 --> 01:08:37.640
like I deserved a promotion.

1165
01:08:37.640 --> 01:08:40.439
Like, so, I mean, I always went above and beyond.

1166
01:08:40.439 --> 01:08:42.200
And you all, I cannot tell you,

1167
01:08:42.200 --> 01:08:44.920
like they would not promote me.

1168
01:08:44.920 --> 01:08:46.319
They would give me pay increases,

1169
01:08:46.319 --> 01:08:49.200
little bitty pay increases every year.

1170
01:08:49.200 --> 01:08:50.279
So praise the Lord for that.

1171
01:08:50.279 --> 01:08:51.640
I was super thankful.

1172
01:08:51.640 --> 01:08:54.439
But I remember just like, Lord, I don't understand.

1173
01:08:54.439 --> 01:08:55.640
I don't get it.

1174
01:08:55.640 --> 01:08:56.640
And you know what?

1175
01:08:56.640 --> 01:08:59.279
Y'all, if they had given me a promotion,

1176
01:08:59.279 --> 01:09:01.040
I probably would have stayed there.

1177
01:09:02.640 --> 01:09:03.520
That's good.

1178
01:09:04.520 --> 01:09:07.319
But God had other plans for me

1179
01:09:07.319 --> 01:09:09.600
and he was about to lead me into coaching full-time

1180
01:09:09.600 --> 01:09:11.000
and I just didn't even know it.

1181
01:09:11.000 --> 01:09:16.000
He was preparing me and I needed to make room

1182
01:09:16.640 --> 01:09:18.279
to be able to step into it.

1183
01:09:19.680 --> 01:09:22.080
And so in that though,

1184
01:09:22.080 --> 01:09:24.120
there was a lot of entanglement for me

1185
01:09:24.120 --> 01:09:26.120
because I wanted that title

1186
01:09:26.120 --> 01:09:28.120
because I felt like that would like

1187
01:09:28.120 --> 01:09:30.560
establish me as accomplished.

1188
01:09:30.560 --> 01:09:32.560
I didn't finish my college degree

1189
01:09:32.560 --> 01:09:35.560
because I dropped out to take care of my mom.

1190
01:09:35.560 --> 01:09:38.200
And so it was like this level of accomplishment

1191
01:09:38.200 --> 01:09:39.399
that I was trying to attain

1192
01:09:40.200 --> 01:09:41.920
that I felt like would give me that,

1193
01:09:41.920 --> 01:09:43.720
like this, I finally made it.

1194
01:09:43.720 --> 01:09:44.960
I am somebody.

1195
01:09:45.840 --> 01:09:49.160
And so I want you all to be kind of considering

1196
01:09:49.160 --> 01:09:50.520
how that shows up in your life,

1197
01:09:50.520 --> 01:09:53.200
even regarding your romantic relationships and all that.

1198
01:09:53.200 --> 01:09:56.600
Who are you with just you?

1199
01:09:56.600 --> 01:09:57.720
Like, who are you?

1200
01:09:59.120 --> 01:10:00.520
Because knowing who we are.

1201
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.100
We are, guess what?

1202
01:10:02.100 --> 01:10:04.380
I used to lose myself in relationships all the time.

1203
01:10:04.380 --> 01:10:06.000
You wanna know why?

1204
01:10:06.000 --> 01:10:10.100
Cause I actually, I knew myself, but I didn't really

1205
01:10:10.100 --> 01:10:13.220
to the point that I felt like every time

1206
01:10:13.220 --> 01:10:15.620
I would start dating, I would get so absorbed in them

1207
01:10:15.620 --> 01:10:18.100
or their kids or their, or whatever.

1208
01:10:18.100 --> 01:10:20.400
And I will lose myself more and more and more.

1209
01:10:21.780 --> 01:10:25.260
So knowing ourselves is so critical

1210
01:10:26.260 --> 01:10:28.440
to us being healthy in relationship.

1211
01:10:28.480 --> 01:10:31.120
But knowing who you are outside of a job

1212
01:10:31.120 --> 01:10:33.960
and a title is also super important.

1213
01:10:33.960 --> 01:10:35.320
That's really helpful actually,

1214
01:10:35.320 --> 01:10:38.080
because I feel like when I lost that job,

1215
01:10:38.080 --> 01:10:39.800
I was like, I'll get a new job.

1216
01:10:39.800 --> 01:10:41.460
Like, no worries, I'll get a new job.

1217
01:10:41.460 --> 01:10:43.480
And I had three job interviews

1218
01:10:43.480 --> 01:10:45.520
and went all the way to the finals

1219
01:10:45.520 --> 01:10:47.800
within a month of losing that job.

1220
01:10:47.800 --> 01:10:49.840
And then it was like crickets.

1221
01:10:49.840 --> 01:10:52.280
And now I'm not even getting interviews.

1222
01:10:52.280 --> 01:10:55.440
And so I've really been like crying out to God,

1223
01:10:55.440 --> 01:10:57.460
like, what am I gonna do?

1224
01:10:57.460 --> 01:10:58.300
But I will tell you,

1225
01:10:58.300 --> 01:11:00.480
the Lord has provided financially for me.

1226
01:11:01.460 --> 01:11:02.420
So that's really helpful.

1227
01:11:02.420 --> 01:11:04.220
I'm gonna pray more into that

1228
01:11:04.220 --> 01:11:07.380
because I've never been this long without a job.

1229
01:11:07.380 --> 01:11:10.280
So I feel like hopeless kind of,

1230
01:11:10.280 --> 01:11:12.660
like I'm feeling like, what do I do?

1231
01:11:12.660 --> 01:11:13.500
So.

1232
01:11:13.500 --> 01:11:16.940
I don't, I have a feeling there's a new,

1233
01:11:16.940 --> 01:11:19.420
I keep hearing the word new vine coming.

1234
01:11:19.420 --> 01:11:21.740
So what I am interpreting from that,

1235
01:11:21.740 --> 01:11:26.740
I almost feel like God is going to open a new direction

1236
01:11:27.940 --> 01:11:32.060
for you, like a new source, a new vine.

1237
01:11:32.060 --> 01:11:33.380
And I don't know if that means

1238
01:11:33.380 --> 01:11:35.660
like a totally different role or what,

1239
01:11:35.660 --> 01:11:38.060
but I just, I keep seeing and hearing new vine,

1240
01:11:38.060 --> 01:11:40.140
new vine, something new growing down.

1241
01:11:40.140 --> 01:11:41.440
So it might even be something

1242
01:11:41.440 --> 01:11:43.740
you're not expecting or looking for.

1243
01:11:44.980 --> 01:11:45.940
I'll take it.

1244
01:11:45.940 --> 01:11:47.540
I'm ready.

1245
01:11:47.540 --> 01:11:50.140
Okay, so here, ladies, this is what we do, okay?

1246
01:11:50.140 --> 01:11:52.220
I wanna teach you something right now.

1247
01:11:52.220 --> 01:11:54.820
So when we're facing these kinds of situations,

1248
01:11:54.820 --> 01:11:56.380
you wanna go through the healing aspects

1249
01:11:56.380 --> 01:11:57.340
that I'm talking to you about,

1250
01:11:58.180 --> 01:11:59.380
but I also want you to come out of alignment

1251
01:11:59.380 --> 01:12:02.060
with any lies that you might be hearing.

1252
01:12:02.060 --> 01:12:05.540
So ask the Lord, okay, when this process has been happening,

1253
01:12:05.540 --> 01:12:07.360
what lies have been surfacing?

1254
01:12:08.460 --> 01:12:10.560
Okay, what lies have been surfacing?

1255
01:12:10.560 --> 01:12:13.020
What have I been hearing that's not true?

1256
01:12:13.020 --> 01:12:16.580
And then partner with things like this.

1257
01:12:16.580 --> 01:12:18.760
God, thank you so much for opening up doors

1258
01:12:18.760 --> 01:12:21.020
of opportunity for me, you know,

1259
01:12:21.020 --> 01:12:23.300
in places and spaces that I couldn't even imagine.

1260
01:12:23.300 --> 01:12:24.740
God, thank you for putting my name

1261
01:12:24.740 --> 01:12:27.620
on people's hearts and minds that I don't even know yet.

1262
01:12:27.620 --> 01:12:29.140
Y'all, we can pray prayers like this

1263
01:12:29.140 --> 01:12:31.860
and not just pray them, but believe them.

1264
01:12:31.860 --> 01:12:34.140
And we might not always see that like right now,

1265
01:12:34.140 --> 01:12:35.580
but you all, guess what?

1266
01:12:35.580 --> 01:12:37.700
Like we can walk into that in the future

1267
01:12:37.700 --> 01:12:39.860
if we don't walk into it now.

1268
01:12:39.860 --> 01:12:43.940
And so praying with faith and belief that God can do,

1269
01:12:43.940 --> 01:12:47.820
again, take his super and add it to our natural

1270
01:12:47.820 --> 01:12:49.580
and amazing things happen.

1271
01:12:50.460 --> 01:12:51.340
So powerful.

1272
01:12:51.340 --> 01:12:53.980
I'm gonna be looking forward to the testimony

1273
01:12:53.980 --> 01:12:55.940
that's gonna come from this healing process

1274
01:12:55.940 --> 01:12:58.780
and what God's gonna do in this situation for you.

1275
01:12:58.780 --> 01:12:59.940
Thank you so much.

1276
01:12:59.940 --> 01:13:00.780
You're welcome.

1277
01:13:00.780 --> 01:13:01.620
You're welcome.

1278
01:13:01.620 --> 01:13:02.780
And I did wanna mention earlier,

1279
01:13:02.780 --> 01:13:06.060
someone really quick, and then I'll come to Jennifer.

1280
01:13:06.060 --> 01:13:06.900
Where is it at?

1281
01:13:06.900 --> 01:13:08.380
I saw Alina put in there,

1282
01:13:08.380 --> 01:13:10.740
my brother drills me about wearing pants

1283
01:13:10.740 --> 01:13:12.220
because I'm a Christian.

1284
01:13:12.220 --> 01:13:15.220
And I really felt like I needed to say something on that.

1285
01:13:15.220 --> 01:13:17.780
I think if you wanna wear a skirt, girl,

1286
01:13:17.780 --> 01:13:20.120
go wear a skirt, get a pretty dress.

1287
01:13:20.120 --> 01:13:22.460
Let's bust out of that religious spirit

1288
01:13:22.460 --> 01:13:24.700
that's trying to come on you through your brother.

1289
01:13:24.700 --> 01:13:27.200
If you go to a super conservative church

1290
01:13:27.200 --> 01:13:29.020
where they don't believe in wearing skirts and dresses,

1291
01:13:29.020 --> 01:13:30.820
I'm not trying to tell you to be disobedient,

1292
01:13:30.820 --> 01:13:33.060
but I'm just saying there's a lot of rules

1293
01:13:33.060 --> 01:13:36.020
and religion and certain types of systems.

1294
01:13:36.020 --> 01:13:37.820
And I think it's totally fine

1295
01:13:37.820 --> 01:13:39.420
for you to wear a skirt and a dress

1296
01:13:39.420 --> 01:13:42.740
and be very modest and feminine and beautiful.

1297
01:13:42.740 --> 01:13:44.580
And so I wanna encourage you to pray into that

1298
01:13:44.580 --> 01:13:46.700
and make sure the enemy is not trying to bind you

1299
01:13:46.700 --> 01:13:50.060
into bondage with those statements from your brother.

1300
01:13:50.060 --> 01:13:52.220
Okay, Jennifer, go ahead.

1301
01:13:53.460 --> 01:13:58.460
So for me, I need to surrender some fear that I have about,

1302
01:14:02.380 --> 01:14:07.300
so my son is in a very unhealthy situation with his dad,

1303
01:14:07.300 --> 01:14:10.180
even though we have 50-50 custody of my son,

1304
01:14:10.180 --> 01:14:14.220
he is chosen to be with his dad the last six months

1305
01:14:14.220 --> 01:14:17.140
and he's really going downhill.

1306
01:14:17.140 --> 01:14:19.560
It's not a healthy situation for him.

1307
01:14:19.600 --> 01:14:22.880
And so I've been advised to get some legal counsel

1308
01:14:22.880 --> 01:14:25.200
on how to go about this process.

1309
01:14:25.200 --> 01:14:30.200
And I'm afraid and I feel like I need to surrender that fear.

1310
01:14:30.480 --> 01:14:32.400
I'm afraid that things are gonna get worse

1311
01:14:32.400 --> 01:14:34.340
between him and me.

1312
01:14:34.340 --> 01:14:37.520
They are already bad and I feel like it might get worse.

1313
01:14:39.440 --> 01:14:42.880
But I think I need to surrender this fear

1314
01:14:42.880 --> 01:14:46.100
and trust God with the outcome.

1315
01:14:46.100 --> 01:14:49.160
Even if it gets worse before it gets better,

1316
01:14:50.000 --> 01:14:55.000
I'm just seeking to just hear his voice and obey.

1317
01:14:55.520 --> 01:14:57.760
And I feel like I'm being called to do something

1318
01:14:57.760 --> 01:15:00.200
that's really out of my comfort zone.

1319
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:05.000
I'm not a confronter. I like to keep things peaceful.

1320
01:15:05.000 --> 01:15:10.000
And so, yeah, that's what I need to surrender.

1321
01:15:10.000 --> 01:15:12.000
All right. Awesome. This is really good.

1322
01:15:12.000 --> 01:15:15.000
Y'all, there's so many powerful things happening tonight.

1323
01:15:15.000 --> 01:15:18.000
So first, make sure you put that on your Jesus Cares Board.

1324
01:15:18.000 --> 01:15:19.000
Okay. Very specific.

1325
01:15:19.000 --> 01:15:23.000
I want to make sure you all are very specific on your Jesus Cares Boards.

1326
01:15:23.000 --> 01:15:28.000
Okay. If you just wrote, I need to get out of debt or I'm casting my debt on Jesus.

1327
01:15:28.000 --> 01:15:30.000
That's great. That's a great start.

1328
01:15:30.000 --> 01:15:32.000
But let's get specific with our needs, ladies. Okay.

1329
01:15:32.000 --> 01:15:37.000
So in this case, she doesn't just need God to move in this situation with her son.

1330
01:15:37.000 --> 01:15:42.000
She needs God to get a hold of her son's heart.

1331
01:15:42.000 --> 01:15:46.000
Okay. Healing his heart and give her wisdom and decision making.

1332
01:15:46.000 --> 01:15:50.000
One of the things I wanted to say here, there's two things.

1333
01:15:50.000 --> 01:15:53.000
Fear is, you know, obviously we all feel it.

1334
01:15:53.000 --> 01:15:56.000
But remember, it's false evidence appearing real.

1335
01:15:56.000 --> 01:16:00.000
Okay. So it's being informed through lies that you're believing.

1336
01:16:00.000 --> 01:16:10.000
So the reality is, is in the physical realm, it could get worse with your son temporarily.

1337
01:16:10.000 --> 01:16:11.000
Yeah.

1338
01:16:11.000 --> 01:16:14.000
But here's the other flip side.

1339
01:16:14.000 --> 01:16:21.000
If God is nudging you and leading you to fight for your son and help him in a way that he can't comprehend it right now.

1340
01:16:21.000 --> 01:16:22.000
Yeah.

1341
01:16:22.000 --> 01:16:24.000
It's worth it.

1342
01:16:25.000 --> 01:16:31.000
It's worth it. Right. And then what you said is I'm not a confronter.

1343
01:16:31.000 --> 01:16:33.000
And you might not be okay. I get it.

1344
01:16:33.000 --> 01:16:42.000
But when you said it, like I heard the Holy Spirit say, tell her to stop partnering with that.

1345
01:16:43.000 --> 01:16:54.000
Okay. You all like we're called to like stand in authority and literally, you know, command heaven to come to earth.

1346
01:16:54.000 --> 01:16:58.000
So I want you, I want to encourage you to pray.

1347
01:16:58.000 --> 01:17:03.000
Yes, Lord, for heaven to come to earth in this situation.

1348
01:17:04.000 --> 01:17:10.000
That God would come in and like literally come into your son's room and meet him in his dreams.

1349
01:17:10.000 --> 01:17:17.000
And while he's awake, that you just start to partner with supernatural God working in his life, that God's going to provide you the ability.

1350
01:17:17.000 --> 01:17:23.000
And even when it's hard, that God is fighting for you when you all were in the breakout.

1351
01:17:23.000 --> 01:17:30.000
That was one of the scriptures I felt led to talk about was how God says he will prepare a table for us in the presence of our enemies.

1352
01:17:30.000 --> 01:17:33.000
That's the God we serve, ladies.

1353
01:17:33.000 --> 01:17:38.000
And the enemies aren't just people. They are principalities. They are powers.

1354
01:17:38.000 --> 01:17:43.000
They are the struggles that we have had for years and we've had a hard time overcoming them.

1355
01:17:43.000 --> 01:17:53.000
But God is saying, hey, daughter, I'm not only giving you victory over this thing, but I'm going to I'm going to bless you in front of your enemy.

1356
01:17:53.000 --> 01:17:59.000
So I believe that is for everyone, but I believe that's absolutely for you tonight.

1357
01:17:59.000 --> 01:18:02.000
God is going to bless you in the midst of your enemies. Yeah.

1358
01:18:02.000 --> 01:18:05.000
And we'll be praying for you. Please keep us posted on how that goes.

1359
01:18:05.000 --> 01:18:09.000
Yeah. Thank you. You're welcome. Thanks for sharing.

1360
01:18:09.000 --> 01:18:14.000
Let's see here. Ruth, go ahead.

1361
01:18:14.000 --> 01:18:21.000
Hi. Wow, this has been such a blessing listening to everyone's story and just what God's doing.

1362
01:18:21.000 --> 01:18:26.000
I'm so encouraged. And mine is I almost forgot what I was going to say.

1363
01:18:26.000 --> 01:18:33.000
I was just so like, wow, just taking in everybody's story, like, oh, God, you're doing amazing.

1364
01:18:33.000 --> 01:18:39.000
Mine, I think, is control. I was in a great breakout with Sue and when she said some things,

1365
01:18:39.000 --> 01:18:43.000
I kind of also brought up some things in my soul and my spirit.

1366
01:18:43.000 --> 01:18:50.000
But I think mine is control and just holding on too tight. And it's started off with some of it as, you know,

1367
01:18:50.000 --> 01:18:59.000
with the capacity of poverty mindsets, I completely related with some of what I think it was Jennifer shared.

1368
01:18:59.000 --> 01:19:10.000
No, not Jennifer. Megan shared about a sibling and part of it has gone from like, OK, God, like I've made wrong decisions.

1369
01:19:10.000 --> 01:19:16.000
I've kind of put myself in a situation where because you're a gentleman and you want to take control.

1370
01:19:16.000 --> 01:19:22.000
And I don't seem to know how to give God that control. I keep saying I'll give it to him and then I take it back.

1371
01:19:22.000 --> 01:19:28.000
It's like almost like the example I gave Sue was something I learned was like, you know, for people that lift weights,

1372
01:19:28.000 --> 01:19:34.000
whether it's like barbells, dumbbells, when they start having pain in their wrists, their elbows, and they're like, oh, I can't lift.

1373
01:19:34.000 --> 01:19:43.000
It's because they are gripping the bar too tight. And if they actually adjust their grip, that they can actually lift more and actually carry more weight.

1374
01:19:43.000 --> 01:19:52.000
So I feel like I've just had an analogy for me is just like every aspect of my life, like trying to micromanage it because of, you know, like I said, there's the fear.

1375
01:19:52.000 --> 01:20:00.000
There's, you know, things that happen, happen by a certain age. There's, you know, the comparison with my sister.

1376
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:05.760
And in family, there's the, okay, God, if I screwed up and I've made so many wrong turns,

1377
01:20:06.180 --> 01:20:10.980
have I indefinitely delayed what you want to do because of my decisions?

1378
01:20:11.520 --> 01:20:16.900
And even if you did it, have I messed up so much that I would screw up what you gave me

1379
01:20:17.360 --> 01:20:25.920
because I already have that pattern of like a dysfunctional cycle, if that makes sense.

1380
01:20:26.360 --> 01:20:27.300
So that's kind of what it is.

1381
01:20:27.300 --> 01:20:30.200
Why it's almost like something that I know I've had a desire for it.

1382
01:20:30.200 --> 01:20:33.420
I know it's the God-given desire, you know, being with the spirit mate, having children.

1383
01:20:33.420 --> 01:20:40.500
I'm like, am I so set in my ways being single that I wouldn't even know how to,

1384
01:20:40.960 --> 01:20:42.240
you know, I don't know how to explain it.

1385
01:20:42.240 --> 01:20:45.480
Like I wouldn't, even if I have that blessing, would I ruin it?

1386
01:20:45.480 --> 01:20:50.360
And so then not being afraid of the very thing that, I don't know if I'm making sense.

1387
01:20:50.360 --> 01:20:51.120
I feel like I'm not.

1388
01:20:51.840 --> 01:20:55.620
And we're not going to go into this content tonight, but one of the things I was originally

1389
01:20:55.620 --> 01:20:59.220
going to talk to you all a little bit about is that this time is different.

1390
01:20:59.220 --> 01:21:01.400
And how do you know, how can you tell it's different?

1391
01:21:01.780 --> 01:21:05.980
And one of the things I do want to say is that ladies, this time is different

1392
01:21:05.980 --> 01:21:06.940
because you're different.

1393
01:21:09.140 --> 01:21:15.780
It really is that simple in the sense of you are not who you were when you came in the door here.

1394
01:21:17.100 --> 01:21:18.700
So think about it this way.

1395
01:21:19.700 --> 01:21:24.460
Most of you, I'm not saying you won't struggle with some similar things, but most of you

1396
01:21:24.860 --> 01:21:30.700
will go on from heartwork and you will make different choices than you made before in all

1397
01:21:30.700 --> 01:21:34.500
different kinds of areas because you will have healed and gotten breakthrough.

1398
01:21:34.740 --> 01:21:39.100
And so even when the enemy comes and brings unhealthy to your door, whether that's an

1399
01:21:39.100 --> 01:21:44.260
unhealthy work situation, friendship, romantic, whatever, whatever else there might be,

1400
01:21:44.940 --> 01:21:46.260
you're going to be like, wait a minute.

1401
01:21:46.260 --> 01:21:47.140
No, like.

1402
01:21:48.300 --> 01:21:53.900
That person's nice, but that's not for me, you know, or that's a really great opportunity

1403
01:21:53.900 --> 01:21:56.900
with that job. But man, I just don't feel like God's blessings on that.

1404
01:21:56.900 --> 01:22:00.300
Like, I feel like he's saying, no, go somewhere else, you know, where you just really

1405
01:22:00.300 --> 01:22:03.060
start to own that.

1406
01:22:03.100 --> 01:22:05.900
Like, OK, God, like you're showing me and I trust you.

1407
01:22:07.540 --> 01:22:09.820
And so I want to encourage you.

1408
01:22:11.460 --> 01:22:15.300
The insight and the revelation that you're getting, Ruth, even the example that you're

1409
01:22:15.300 --> 01:22:18.780
saying about the lifting weights and God is connecting dots for you.

1410
01:22:19.620 --> 01:22:21.540
I do believe that you are changing.

1411
01:22:21.540 --> 01:22:23.860
You are learning how to loosen that grip.

1412
01:22:23.860 --> 01:22:28.980
It might not seem like immediate, but like even little increments is still improvement

1413
01:22:28.980 --> 01:22:30.140
little by little by little.

1414
01:22:30.140 --> 01:22:31.540
Right. Same thing with working out.

1415
01:22:31.540 --> 01:22:33.820
We'll use that kind of similar analogy.

1416
01:22:33.820 --> 01:22:36.900
Like when we start working out, we might not see results right away.

1417
01:22:36.900 --> 01:22:41.060
But if we keep working our muscles, if we keep working out, we'll start to feel

1418
01:22:41.060 --> 01:22:43.260
healthier, experience different feelings in our clothes.

1419
01:22:43.460 --> 01:22:46.260
Who doesn't love when you can tell a change in the way your pants fit?

1420
01:22:46.300 --> 01:22:49.220
I don't know about anybody else, but man, that feels so great.

1421
01:22:49.500 --> 01:22:54.300
Right. Well, you might not be able to feel the way your pants fit different right now

1422
01:22:54.300 --> 01:22:56.580
in these situations, so to speak.

1423
01:22:56.860 --> 01:22:58.860
But I absolutely believe.

1424
01:23:00.100 --> 01:23:04.660
You've been losing some inches, OK, like I'm kind of using that as an analogy, but

1425
01:23:04.900 --> 01:23:08.700
like you've been changing 100 percent, you've been changing since you came into this

1426
01:23:08.700 --> 01:23:14.980
group. And so the more that you implement the confidence tools, I think for you, just

1427
01:23:14.980 --> 01:23:18.740
knowing some of your other things that you've gotten breakthrough from or that you've

1428
01:23:18.740 --> 01:23:23.860
been working on, the more that you know who you are in the Lord and like the things that

1429
01:23:23.860 --> 01:23:25.780
you enjoy, the things that you love.

1430
01:23:27.180 --> 01:23:30.940
I do think you're going to be able to start letting go of that really tight grip.

1431
01:23:31.260 --> 01:23:33.260
Do you all know why we tend to control?

1432
01:23:35.660 --> 01:23:38.100
In addition to fear, does anyone else know?

1433
01:23:40.580 --> 01:23:44.620
I want you to think about the first time that you ever tried to control something.

1434
01:23:45.620 --> 01:23:54.340
A lot of times we do that because of pain and hurt, and we try to prevent ourselves

1435
01:23:54.340 --> 01:23:56.060
from experiencing that ever again.

1436
01:23:57.660 --> 01:24:02.540
Oh, yeah. And even people with OCD, you all just so you know, if you if even if any of

1437
01:24:02.540 --> 01:24:06.580
you struggle with OCD again, no shame, everybody deals with different things.

1438
01:24:06.780 --> 01:24:11.940
But most people that deal with OCD tendencies of any kind, it's because they were not

1439
01:24:12.060 --> 01:24:17.220
able to control any situation in their life at some point, whether it was growing up or even

1440
01:24:17.220 --> 01:24:19.860
as adults, something very traumatic happened.

1441
01:24:20.220 --> 01:24:26.180
And out of that, the only thing they could control were these things that, you know, the

1442
01:24:26.180 --> 01:24:31.100
cleaning or the hyper vigilance about certain things like my youngest spiritual daughter,

1443
01:24:31.140 --> 01:24:34.700
she was very, very particular about the sheets on her bed.

1444
01:24:35.700 --> 01:24:38.220
Like they literally have to be tucked a certain way.

1445
01:24:38.220 --> 01:24:43.460
It's very, it's very, it was a very difficult thing when she was little and I would try to put

1446
01:24:43.460 --> 01:24:45.340
her to bed and she used to sleep with her sister.

1447
01:24:45.340 --> 01:24:50.980
Yeah, that didn't last for very long because they would fight because Olivia was so like,

1448
01:24:51.820 --> 01:24:53.340
but there was something to that.

1449
01:24:53.380 --> 01:24:56.300
It wasn't just that Olivia was trying to cause trouble.

1450
01:24:56.300 --> 01:24:56.900
Do you see?

1451
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:05.760
and it would always get worse when her mom or dad would fight more or things you know mom would get

1452
01:25:05.760 --> 01:25:13.680
drunk in front of them. There was pain going on under the surface there and Olivia sweet little

1453
01:25:13.680 --> 01:25:21.200
girl all she could control were the sheets on her bed. Do you see how that works? So I want

1454
01:25:21.200 --> 01:25:25.200
you to think about the areas where you've tried to control things ladies because we're talking

1455
01:25:25.200 --> 01:25:28.880
about supernatural surrender. We're not going to go far into control tonight because I actually

1456
01:25:28.880 --> 01:25:34.960
have a whole thing of content on that for another time but supernatural surrender is for all of us

1457
01:25:35.680 --> 01:25:40.960
relinquishing control. It is waving that white flag and saying okay

1458
01:25:41.600 --> 01:25:47.680
Lord I trust you like you're gonna partner and do something supernatural in my life

1459
01:25:49.680 --> 01:25:54.400
and for some of you you might be like well I've been waiting and God hasn't done anything yet so

1460
01:25:54.880 --> 01:26:02.720
what's gonna change? Well again hopefully you are. Hopefully you are because sometimes it's that God's

1461
01:26:02.720 --> 01:26:08.240
always doing something supernatural but he's waiting to give us the blessing because we're

1462
01:26:08.240 --> 01:26:13.440
not ready to receive it or sometimes we self-sabotage and I know some of you don't realize

1463
01:26:13.440 --> 01:26:19.040
that right now but some of you self-sabotage with friends, with work, with romantic relationships

1464
01:26:19.040 --> 01:26:25.040
in ways you just don't know it yet. So and that will get touched on more when you're all in the

1465
01:26:25.040 --> 01:26:29.760
next the Love Story Accelerator so I won't go into those but I wanted to point that out tonight.

1466
01:26:29.760 --> 01:26:37.200
Ruth thank you for sharing that was really great. Yeah okay Jennifer and then Joy and then we

1467
01:26:37.920 --> 01:26:42.800
Helen I'll do my best to try to come back to you okay. Hi Jennifer.

1468
01:26:43.760 --> 01:26:50.160
Hi there. I'm quite nervous to do this. I haven't, I actually have never done this so

1469
01:26:51.200 --> 01:26:57.040
I had to write everything down. Something that God is nudging me to do and this is all very

1470
01:26:57.040 --> 01:27:05.520
complex but basically I've been working at a job that I feel like I'm done and

1471
01:27:05.840 --> 01:27:12.400
I originally did not want to do this but he's been like little by little I feel like that God

1472
01:27:12.400 --> 01:27:22.480
has given me a specific talent and he wants me to open up a business and I have no idea.

1473
01:27:22.480 --> 01:27:30.480
I've had people try to help me and I just keep getting stuck. In 2021 I lost my dad.

1474
01:27:31.040 --> 01:27:35.120
I'm really sorry about that.

1475
01:27:39.360 --> 01:27:44.160
And I completely went into a hole and

1476
01:27:47.520 --> 01:27:50.560
I live in a different state than my immediate family and

1477
01:27:50.720 --> 01:27:58.560
I had to grieve alone. I lost a lot of friendships and relationships.

1478
01:27:59.600 --> 01:28:05.200
People that I had their back for when they lost people or when they were going through rough

1479
01:28:05.200 --> 01:28:15.600
things did not do the same for me and my job I had a really awful manager and

1480
01:28:15.840 --> 01:28:22.880
she had a meeting and said told everybody to just stay clear of Jen. She's going through something

1481
01:28:22.880 --> 01:28:29.440
and don't even give her a hug and so I was alienated at my job as well. So I had to go

1482
01:28:29.440 --> 01:28:38.160
through grief alone and last year I found this program and I know that I needed to do the hard

1483
01:28:38.160 --> 01:28:46.640
work and one thing that Jackie had stated was she had said that don't start anything

1484
01:28:47.840 --> 01:28:56.240
until you finish the hard work and I knew that this was I had to completely. I forget what the

1485
01:28:56.240 --> 01:29:01.760
word is but I talked to an accountant and I had to completely like debilitate the business name

1486
01:29:01.760 --> 01:29:08.720
and everything and before then I could concur with why she said don't start anything. I was

1487
01:29:08.720 --> 01:29:15.360
grieving. I bought a house. The house has had so many issues since then. I made some bad financial

1488
01:29:15.360 --> 01:29:22.560
decisions and I keep getting stuck with the book. I've had to start over multiple times

1489
01:29:23.600 --> 01:29:31.680
and I need help with so I keep going into this revolving door knowing I have to leave my job.

1490
01:29:31.680 --> 01:29:35.840
I don't want to be forced out. They're not going to force me out but I feel like I'm going to be

1491
01:29:35.840 --> 01:29:42.080
forced out because it's just it's time. It's been time and I want to be obedient to God

1492
01:29:43.200 --> 01:29:52.320
but at the same time I don't trust very well and because of other complex issues as I know we all

1493
01:29:52.320 --> 01:29:59.920
have. I don't know if I need words of wisdom.

1494
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:07.840
or I started a Bible study with a women's group in my church, and that was a big step.

1495
01:30:07.840 --> 01:30:15.720
And it's a book about trusting the Holy Spirit and knowing the Holy Spirit's voice.

1496
01:30:15.720 --> 01:30:22.720
I think it's been so long that I've just been, I've pushed beyond that I just don't trust

1497
01:30:22.720 --> 01:30:23.720
my gut anymore.

1498
01:30:23.720 --> 01:30:29.960
I don't trust, is that the Holy Spirit talking or is that the devil talking to me and saying,

1499
01:30:29.960 --> 01:30:33.480
you know, so I guess that's where I'm at.

1500
01:30:33.480 --> 01:30:36.400
Well, hey, here's one thing first, let me start.

1501
01:30:36.400 --> 01:30:37.400
You did great.

1502
01:30:37.400 --> 01:30:39.560
You did a great job, Jennifer.

1503
01:30:39.560 --> 01:30:44.320
So great job on opening up and taking that courageous step to share with all of us and

1504
01:30:44.320 --> 01:30:50.560
letting us just be here with you tonight in this and in that those hard moments that you

1505
01:30:50.560 --> 01:30:55.040
know, we can come around you and just like whether the ladies are, you know, you realize

1506
01:30:55.040 --> 01:30:58.280
or not, but we're all here with you in this moment.

1507
01:30:58.280 --> 01:31:02.280
And y'all, we're never going to be in a moment just like this one ever again.

1508
01:31:02.280 --> 01:31:05.480
They're all going to be different and that we love you.

1509
01:31:05.480 --> 01:31:07.920
And we're so glad that you're here.

1510
01:31:07.920 --> 01:31:14.960
And a couple little things I want to kind of just draw out of where God is leading you.

1511
01:31:14.960 --> 01:31:19.440
The first thing is like, you're in the best place you could ever be in so that you can

1512
01:31:19.440 --> 01:31:21.000
get the healing and breakthrough.

1513
01:31:21.000 --> 01:31:24.400
From my perspective, truly, y'all, I've done other hard work programs.

1514
01:31:24.400 --> 01:31:28.560
I've done other things and man, there's just God's doing supernatural stuff here.

1515
01:31:28.560 --> 01:31:29.800
It really is divine.

1516
01:31:29.800 --> 01:31:32.080
And so God led you here for a purpose.

1517
01:31:32.080 --> 01:31:36.880
I believe that you are going to get revelation in some areas that you need it, that revolving

1518
01:31:36.880 --> 01:31:41.400
door that you used to keep getting stuck with these different things, that God's going to

1519
01:31:41.400 --> 01:31:44.800
reveal all of that to you in this process.

1520
01:31:44.800 --> 01:31:48.440
And it will come little, little by little, and it might be beyond the heart work.

1521
01:31:48.440 --> 01:31:52.360
It might be in the other sections as well, but there's all going to come together to

1522
01:31:52.360 --> 01:31:53.360
bring revelation.

1523
01:31:53.360 --> 01:31:58.640
One of the things I talked about this afternoon is that you all, okay, here's the reality.

1524
01:31:58.640 --> 01:32:00.520
The blood of Jesus Christ was shed for us.

1525
01:32:00.520 --> 01:32:05.800
It gave us victory the moment that he shed his blood over every area that we would ever

1526
01:32:05.800 --> 01:32:07.180
need victory.

1527
01:32:07.180 --> 01:32:08.940
But here's the thing.

1528
01:32:08.940 --> 01:32:16.080
We don't typically achieve victory until we get the revelation of where the blood needs

1529
01:32:16.080 --> 01:32:18.080
to be applied.

1530
01:32:18.080 --> 01:32:19.480
Does that make sense?

1531
01:32:19.480 --> 01:32:20.780
All right.

1532
01:32:20.780 --> 01:32:28.660
So in this regard, Jennifer, as you gain revelation on the areas that you need healing, God is

1533
01:32:28.660 --> 01:32:33.140
going to show you how to pray and apply the blood of Jesus Christ, the victory that's

1534
01:32:33.140 --> 01:32:36.180
already been won to those areas.

1535
01:32:36.180 --> 01:32:37.820
And that's going to come through divine healing.

1536
01:32:37.820 --> 01:32:42.220
A lot of times y'all, I pray when I'm praying for you all, and even myself, the balm of

1537
01:32:42.220 --> 01:32:47.780
Gilead when the Old Testament, they talk about that as a very medicinal, like that balm was

1538
01:32:47.780 --> 01:32:49.520
very healing.

1539
01:32:49.520 --> 01:32:52.960
And so that's why I pray that way when I'm praying for you all.

1540
01:32:52.960 --> 01:32:59.320
And so I do want to encourage you a couple of specific things.

1541
01:32:59.320 --> 01:33:05.720
On the loss with your dad, I encourage you to do forgiveness prayer sheets regarding

1542
01:33:05.720 --> 01:33:09.000
the people that you felt were not there for you.

1543
01:33:09.000 --> 01:33:10.560
Okay.

1544
01:33:10.560 --> 01:33:11.560
Including the boss.

1545
01:33:11.560 --> 01:33:16.960
So separate ones for the people, each person that you felt like did not, was not there

1546
01:33:17.120 --> 01:33:22.560
for you, said something that was like, caused you to be isolated and just start forgiving

1547
01:33:22.560 --> 01:33:25.360
those people.

1548
01:33:25.360 --> 01:33:30.600
Because I believe that the enemy, which I understand, I've been there where you really

1549
01:33:30.600 --> 01:33:36.320
need someone to come through for you and show up for you and they don't, it is hurtful.

1550
01:33:36.320 --> 01:33:42.520
But the enemy loves for us to get stuck in a root of bitterness and resentment for those

1551
01:33:42.520 --> 01:33:44.680
things and the people in the situations.

1552
01:33:44.680 --> 01:33:46.960
And so we want, we don't want you to be there.

1553
01:33:46.960 --> 01:33:47.960
Okay.

1554
01:33:47.960 --> 01:33:48.960
We want you to come out of that.

1555
01:33:48.960 --> 01:33:53.360
The Lord wants you to come out of that so that you can step into healing and freedom.

1556
01:33:53.360 --> 01:33:56.440
God's not withholding healing, but you're going to step into even more healing once

1557
01:33:56.440 --> 01:33:59.520
you forgive them and let that go.

1558
01:33:59.520 --> 01:34:00.520
Okay.

1559
01:34:00.520 --> 01:34:02.520
Cause they can't change that.

1560
01:34:02.520 --> 01:34:07.200
And the situation you have going on at work, I think you're going to get revelation of

1561
01:34:07.200 --> 01:34:11.680
what to do next after you forgive this boss.

1562
01:34:11.680 --> 01:34:13.120
Yeah.

1563
01:34:13.120 --> 01:34:16.160
I think there's going to be a lot that's going to come healing there.

1564
01:34:16.160 --> 01:34:21.560
And then also, it just stood out to me when you were saying, and you said it multiple

1565
01:34:21.560 --> 01:34:24.320
times, I don't trust very well.

1566
01:34:24.320 --> 01:34:27.800
And I used to say the same thing I used to, I don't trust.

1567
01:34:27.800 --> 01:34:31.920
Well, I don't trust people and y'all it's not, it's not that it's not true.

1568
01:34:31.920 --> 01:34:37.920
I do tend to be very cautious of people and, and just observe them and really figure out

1569
01:34:37.920 --> 01:34:40.280
like, okay, Lord, is this someone that's safe?

1570
01:34:40.280 --> 01:34:47.960
But I did have to come out of alignment and agreement with, I can't trust anybody.

1571
01:34:47.960 --> 01:34:53.560
And here's the kicker y'all, there were times that I even said, like, subconsciously believed

1572
01:34:53.560 --> 01:34:57.880
that I couldn't trust God.

1573
01:34:57.880 --> 01:34:59.600
And so I had to.

1574
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.800
forgive God for not that God did something wrong, but there were times that I actually felt like

1575
01:35:04.800 --> 01:35:10.720
God failed me and I couldn't trust Him. Even as a child, the things that happened to me,

1576
01:35:10.720 --> 01:35:16.080
horrible things. And so I had to forgive God for that stuff, even though He didn't do anything

1577
01:35:16.080 --> 01:35:22.400
wrong, but forgiving Him was one of the most important steps I could have ever done, truly.

1578
01:35:23.440 --> 01:35:29.200
And so I would encourage you to really pray into that. God, is there areas that I need to forgive

1579
01:35:29.200 --> 01:35:37.600
you where I've been putting things on you that you didn't do? That's true. That's true. That's

1580
01:35:37.600 --> 01:35:44.320
exactly what, that was the word I needed. I would probably forgive God first before I even forgive

1581
01:35:44.320 --> 01:35:50.960
anybody else. Yeah. And forgive them all. Do them all. Seriously, I'm serious. And it's okay if it

1582
01:35:50.960 --> 01:35:57.760
takes you a couple of weeks, but let's partner with, it's not hard to forgive. Through grace

1583
01:35:57.760 --> 01:36:03.760
and courage, God enables us, the empowerment of the Holy Spirit enables us to forgive ladies.

1584
01:36:04.320 --> 01:36:10.240
So if you feel like you can't forgive, guess what? You've got a partner, a comforter, a counselor who

1585
01:36:10.240 --> 01:36:16.080
literally enables you to do so. So you can, you can through Him. And so I want to encourage you

1586
01:36:16.080 --> 01:36:20.560
to just on those couple of things and want to really see how that goes over the next few weeks.

1587
01:36:20.560 --> 01:36:25.840
Okay. Okay. Thank you. We'll be praying for you. So glad that you're here tonight. Yeah. Ladies,

1588
01:36:25.840 --> 01:36:31.280
I know it's 936. So if you need to log off, I want to give you your activations. And then I

1589
01:36:31.280 --> 01:36:35.840
am going to have Joy share, just because she hasn't got to share yet. And I know she's been

1590
01:36:35.840 --> 01:36:40.880
waiting patiently. But the activations for this week are, and ladies that are new, you're like,

1591
01:36:40.880 --> 01:36:48.880
what are activations? Activations are things that we do to activate our faith, to partner it with,

1592
01:36:48.880 --> 01:36:54.320
you know, our faith and our works together. Does that make sense, everyone? So we go do something

1593
01:36:55.200 --> 01:37:00.800
to partner with God in this healing journey. Okay. So there's two, well, the bucket list I gave you

1594
01:37:00.800 --> 01:37:06.480
earlier, that can be one, but it kind of partners with number two. So number one is track your

1595
01:37:06.480 --> 01:37:14.240
thoughts this week. I want you to be paying attention to how many thoughts are you having

1596
01:37:14.240 --> 01:37:18.080
that are negative. Now, when you have them, I don't want you to hyper focus on them. Okay.

1597
01:37:18.080 --> 01:37:23.280
But I just want you to pay attention. Like, is a majority, like, are a majority of your thoughts

1598
01:37:23.280 --> 01:37:30.240
negative or positive? Okay. And then if you have recurring negative thoughts, I want you to

1599
01:37:31.120 --> 01:37:36.320
notice what those are, and understand that you need to use that revealing for healing cycle to

1600
01:37:36.320 --> 01:37:42.240
probably get through those so that you can come out of agreement with those lies and those things

1601
01:37:42.240 --> 01:37:47.920
that are negative and come into agreement with truth. So everyone understand? So when you

1602
01:37:47.920 --> 01:37:53.360
recognize the negative, don't just keep partnering with that. You write those down,

1603
01:37:53.920 --> 01:37:59.840
cross those out like that's not truth. So God, what's the truth? What's the other side of this?

1604
01:37:59.840 --> 01:38:06.080
What do you want to show me? And then number two activation is what I'm calling supernatural

1605
01:38:06.080 --> 01:38:13.040
surrender to Mrs. Serious. Isn't that fun? I think that's so fun. Supernatural surrender to

1606
01:38:13.040 --> 01:38:21.920
Mrs. Serious and open up to Mrs. I'm fun. Mrs. Here I am and I'm fun. I'm a fun person. People

1607
01:38:21.920 --> 01:38:26.080
enjoy being with me. Some of y'all need to say that kind of stuff over yourself because you

1608
01:38:26.080 --> 01:38:30.560
actually believe people don't like you, but that's not true. So you're going to cultivate fun this

1609
01:38:30.560 --> 01:38:34.960
week. What does that mean? You're going to foster the growth of fun in your life. You're going to

1610
01:38:34.960 --> 01:38:41.600
improve by caring about having fun. Do you know that God wants you to have fun?

1611
01:38:44.240 --> 01:38:51.360
There's some people that don't realize that God actually cares about you having fun to encourage

1612
01:38:51.360 --> 01:38:58.400
that in your own life. So one of the ways we can do this ladies is you want to let the little Leanne

1613
01:38:58.400 --> 01:39:05.920
come out to play. Yep. Leanne, God keeps highlighting, highlighting you to me. So I felt

1614
01:39:05.920 --> 01:39:10.160
led to say your name with that. And so I don't know if this is speaking to you. If you're having

1615
01:39:10.160 --> 01:39:16.800
a hard time having fun in your life, if the enemy has really taken fun from you over the years,

1616
01:39:16.800 --> 01:39:21.760
I feel like maybe some diminishing of who you are has happened because of things you've been

1617
01:39:21.760 --> 01:39:26.240
through, but you're going to get, you're going to get that back. And then some, you're going to feel

1618
01:39:26.240 --> 01:39:32.720
like a totally different person very soon. And so part of that is having fun. And it might feel

1619
01:39:32.720 --> 01:39:37.280
awkward for some of you at first, especially if you haven't had fun in a long time, or it felt

1620
01:39:37.280 --> 01:39:44.080
like nothing is fun anymore because you just felt sad. But you want to let the little, little you

1621
01:39:44.080 --> 01:39:48.640
come out to play. So what did you like to do when you were little? Did you like to swing on the

1622
01:39:48.640 --> 01:39:54.240
swings? Did you like to go down a slide? Yes, you all. I'm going to encourage you to do those kind

1623
01:39:54.240 --> 01:39:59.760
of things. Now, some of you, if you're not physically able, totally fine, but ask God.

1624
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:02.840
The whole thing, you all always ask the Lord,

1625
01:40:02.840 --> 01:40:07.280
Lord, Bethany's giving me this activation to have fun.

1626
01:40:07.280 --> 01:40:09.080
What should I go do?

1627
01:40:09.080 --> 01:40:12.480
And he will show you the things that you should go do.

1628
01:40:12.480 --> 01:40:13.840
But be creative about it.

1629
01:40:13.840 --> 01:40:16.040
Maybe it's gonna rain where you're at

1630
01:40:16.040 --> 01:40:18.820
and you need to go jump in the puddles and splash

1631
01:40:18.820 --> 01:40:21.120
and let the puddles get you muddy and dirty.

1632
01:40:21.120 --> 01:40:24.040
And yes, all the things that parents don't

1633
01:40:24.040 --> 01:40:26.880
like want their kids to do because the clothes get dirty.

1634
01:40:26.880 --> 01:40:29.340
Yes, do all of those kinds of things.

1635
01:40:30.520 --> 01:40:32.720
Splash around, have fun.

1636
01:40:32.720 --> 01:40:35.000
Let that vibrancy come out of you.

1637
01:40:35.000 --> 01:40:37.360
That's what I'm trying to get at, okay?

1638
01:40:37.360 --> 01:40:39.640
All right, those are your activations.

1639
01:40:39.640 --> 01:40:42.160
So if you need to sign out, totally understand.

1640
01:40:42.160 --> 01:40:44.160
Joy, I would love to have you share.

1641
01:40:44.160 --> 01:40:45.440
And then I am gonna have to,

1642
01:40:45.440 --> 01:40:47.000
Helen, I might not be able to come back to you.

1643
01:40:47.000 --> 01:40:49.080
So can you put yours in the chat for me?

1644
01:40:50.520 --> 01:40:52.160
Yep, thank you.

1645
01:40:52.160 --> 01:40:53.600
You're welcome.

1646
01:40:53.600 --> 01:40:54.680
All right.

1647
01:40:54.680 --> 01:40:56.040
Awesome, go ahead.

1648
01:40:56.080 --> 01:41:01.080
Oh, okay, I'm just told my sisters in the group

1649
01:41:03.360 --> 01:41:07.960
saying that tonight just something interesting happened.

1650
01:41:07.960 --> 01:41:10.400
I just found out I need to surrender my feeling

1651
01:41:10.400 --> 01:41:15.400
and surrender my, yeah, I think basically

1652
01:41:15.720 --> 01:41:20.440
surrender my feeling and the knowledge is very briefly.

1653
01:41:20.440 --> 01:41:24.000
My roommate was cooking chicken

1654
01:41:24.000 --> 01:41:28.000
and he put a plastic wrap on the top of chicken

1655
01:41:28.000 --> 01:41:29.280
and steam it.

1656
01:41:29.280 --> 01:41:34.280
I was so shocked because I noticed the plastic wrap

1657
01:41:34.960 --> 01:41:39.400
it can release toxidy, especially at high temperature.

1658
01:41:42.280 --> 01:41:47.280
So I was kind of a little bit overacted.

1659
01:41:48.800 --> 01:41:52.800
So I think God called me to surrender my feeling

1660
01:41:52.880 --> 01:41:53.720
and the knowledge.

1661
01:41:53.720 --> 01:41:58.720
Sometimes I do see people, even leaders

1662
01:41:59.040 --> 01:42:02.360
or I know something, knowledge.

1663
01:42:02.360 --> 01:42:07.360
And so I really, I need a patience to,

1664
01:42:10.760 --> 01:42:12.200
even they may not know it,

1665
01:42:12.200 --> 01:42:15.000
even shared wisdom, they may not receive it.

1666
01:42:15.000 --> 01:42:19.480
Even they probably, I mean, even they reject it.

1667
01:42:20.360 --> 01:42:25.360
I still have to just have patience and still have love

1668
01:42:26.240 --> 01:42:31.240
and not get a little bit over, overreacted.

1669
01:42:33.040 --> 01:42:37.160
I know this kind of pattern of being years

1670
01:42:37.160 --> 01:42:41.680
over long time now, because sometimes I saw people

1671
01:42:41.680 --> 01:42:44.360
do something very harmful to themselves.

1672
01:42:44.360 --> 01:42:49.280
I kind of very, you know, I don't know how to say it.

1673
01:42:50.120 --> 01:42:52.840
I just say, oh, come on, you do, you cannot do that.

1674
01:42:52.840 --> 01:42:56.920
You know, I kind of be, could be anxious for them.

1675
01:42:56.920 --> 01:43:00.000
Even they do not know it, even they don't care.

1676
01:43:01.360 --> 01:43:05.320
How can I just get up, get out of this kind of stuff?

1677
01:43:05.320 --> 01:43:10.040
I just have to cool and surrender, just trust God.

1678
01:43:12.240 --> 01:43:14.880
So Joy, on the overreacting,

1679
01:43:14.880 --> 01:43:17.760
I want to encourage you to ask the Lord,

1680
01:43:17.760 --> 01:43:21.480
when is the first time that you, that showed up in you,

1681
01:43:21.480 --> 01:43:24.280
where you overreacted to a situation?

1682
01:43:24.280 --> 01:43:27.280
And I feel like there was a reason,

1683
01:43:27.280 --> 01:43:30.760
like as in just kind of the nudging I got in my spirit

1684
01:43:30.760 --> 01:43:32.200
as you were talking is like,

1685
01:43:33.240 --> 01:43:36.200
maybe you felt unseen in a situation that was happening.

1686
01:43:36.200 --> 01:43:39.840
And so you felt like you had to overreact

1687
01:43:39.840 --> 01:43:42.360
to get that attention that you actually needed.

1688
01:43:42.360 --> 01:43:44.560
And I don't know if that is something that resonates,

1689
01:43:44.560 --> 01:43:46.560
but that's what came up in my spirit.

1690
01:43:46.560 --> 01:43:48.400
So I want to encourage you just to pray into that

1691
01:43:48.400 --> 01:43:49.520
and just ask the Lord,

1692
01:43:49.520 --> 01:43:54.400
when is the first time I overreacted in a situation and why?

1693
01:43:54.400 --> 01:43:58.840
And see what he reveals to you connected to that.

1694
01:43:58.840 --> 01:44:00.000
Yeah, when you say that,

1695
01:44:00.000 --> 01:44:04.360
I already saw the one trauma in my childhood.

1696
01:44:05.560 --> 01:44:08.760
I really, really wanted attention,

1697
01:44:09.880 --> 01:44:13.840
but they did not give to me,

1698
01:44:13.880 --> 01:44:15.960
which they supposed to love me,

1699
01:44:15.960 --> 01:44:17.960
protect me and care for me.

1700
01:44:17.960 --> 01:44:22.120
So I was very tormented

1701
01:44:23.520 --> 01:44:28.520
and my need could not met.

1702
01:44:30.520 --> 01:44:35.080
They were the ones supposed to protect me

1703
01:44:35.080 --> 01:44:37.160
and love me and care for me.

1704
01:44:38.360 --> 01:44:40.520
So that's why I was tormented.

1705
01:44:40.520 --> 01:44:45.360
And then I was kind of behave strangely to them.

1706
01:44:45.360 --> 01:44:48.680
I was do things rebellious and disobedient

1707
01:44:48.680 --> 01:44:53.680
to try to raise my anger and my...

1708
01:44:54.560 --> 01:44:56.920
Have you ever forgiven yourself for that stuff?

1709
01:44:58.480 --> 01:45:00.200
Oh, forgiveness.

1710
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:06.640
my rebellion. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, have you ever forgiven yourself for reacting and rebelling

1711
01:45:06.640 --> 01:45:16.640
against your parents and acting in those ways? Um, yeah, I need to do that. And no, I did not.

1712
01:45:16.640 --> 01:45:27.360
Actually, it's, it's, it's something very horrible. So, and, yeah, so, and ladies,

1713
01:45:27.360 --> 01:45:32.240
the reason I'm drawing this out is because I'm not saying that her, it's good that her parents

1714
01:45:32.240 --> 01:45:38.160
neglected her or that she wanted attention. She wasn't getting it. So I'm not saying she's bad

1715
01:45:38.160 --> 01:45:44.080
because she rebelled, but here's the thing. When we do things that are not healthy,

1716
01:45:45.280 --> 01:45:50.560
whether we realize it or not, we subconsciously have feelings about our behavior.

1717
01:45:50.560 --> 01:45:58.480
And so a lot of times we need to actually forgive ourselves and that will help us come

1718
01:45:58.480 --> 01:46:02.480
out of alignment and agreement with those things we partnered with when we were rebelling and

1719
01:46:02.480 --> 01:46:08.080
starting to misbehave and all of those kinds of things, if you will, to get attention or to

1720
01:46:08.080 --> 01:46:15.280
be heard or, you know, to have control or whatever the reason was, I'm not saying it wasn't maybe

1721
01:46:15.280 --> 01:46:20.480
internally justified on some level, but we aren't called to be people that react.

1722
01:46:21.200 --> 01:46:28.400
We are, we are called to be people who respond out of a rootedness and the love of God. But

1723
01:46:28.400 --> 01:46:32.800
when we're younger, we don't maybe know how to do those things. And so Joy, I believe that's

1724
01:46:32.800 --> 01:46:38.480
going to be really important for you this week to forgive yourself for these overreactions,

1725
01:46:38.480 --> 01:46:42.640
including this rebellion and the other things that were going on when you were younger.

1726
01:46:43.200 --> 01:46:47.600
And, and then let's see what God does in these other situations as well, because even though

1727
01:46:47.600 --> 01:46:53.600
that seems like a small situation with the chicken and the, in the plastic wrap, y'all see where that

1728
01:46:53.600 --> 01:46:59.760
led to these actually bigger situations. And so this is how heartwork happens. And so really,

1729
01:46:59.760 --> 01:47:04.000
we'll be praying for you, Joy, about that. Ladies, we're at 947. I do want to comment on,

1730
01:47:04.640 --> 01:47:08.720
Joy, thank you for sharing. I almost forgot to say that. I want to comment on two things really

1731
01:47:08.720 --> 01:47:13.840
quick, or maybe three, because I see them, but I do have to do this quickly. So Helen said,

1732
01:47:13.840 --> 01:47:18.080
so maybe address at some point, how not to come back to the thoughts of my past failures

1733
01:47:18.080 --> 01:47:21.920
are the reason I am where I am relationally gotten victory over the thought process,

1734
01:47:21.920 --> 01:47:27.680
but sometimes it keeps coming back. Yeah, so the biggest thing is that honestly, I'm,

1735
01:47:28.400 --> 01:47:34.400
I really do believe the internal heart healing is what helps us get that actual breakthrough.

1736
01:47:34.960 --> 01:47:40.720
But the enemy, like even in the Bible, it talks about when the strong man is bound

1737
01:47:41.520 --> 01:47:45.360
and the house gets cleaned out, y'all talks about how the enemy will come back

1738
01:47:46.160 --> 01:47:50.800
and he'll see that that house is clean. And guess what he'll try to do? He'll try to come

1739
01:47:50.800 --> 01:47:56.960
back in that house with not just by himself, but what? With his friends. So here's the reality.

1740
01:47:56.960 --> 01:48:01.360
The enemy is going to come back. We don't have to be afraid of that, but he's going to come back

1741
01:48:01.360 --> 01:48:06.720
and he's going to, he's going to see if you're still home. He's going to see if, if you're home,

1742
01:48:06.720 --> 01:48:10.480
are you going to open the door back open to me and partner with me in this lie again?

1743
01:48:12.240 --> 01:48:16.720
And so, you know, there's a scripture that, uh, talks about taking every thought captive

1744
01:48:17.280 --> 01:48:22.640
and making an obedient to Jesus Christ. We take it and I, y'all, I pray God helped me to take it

1745
01:48:22.640 --> 01:48:27.040
captive quickly. I don't want to go around the mountain for a while. I want to catch that thing

1746
01:48:27.040 --> 01:48:31.600
fast. And I want to cast that thing down because I don't want to partner with that no more,

1747
01:48:32.480 --> 01:48:37.920
anymore, whatever the proper grammar is, but y'all understand what I'm saying. So it is through that,

1748
01:48:37.920 --> 01:48:43.360
that consistent, you know, like, okay, I am not going to partner with this lie. I'm not going to

1749
01:48:43.360 --> 01:48:50.320
believe that God doesn't love me. I'm going to activate and get out there and have fun. And I'm

1750
01:48:50.320 --> 01:48:54.560
going to do these healthy things. Cause here's the thing too. Sometimes we focus so much on the

1751
01:48:54.560 --> 01:49:01.440
spiritual that we, again, we were talking about the body physically. Oh, it's only your beauty's

1752
01:49:01.440 --> 01:49:07.280
on the inside. Well, no beauty's both it's inside and outside ladies. We can go have fun. And guess

1753
01:49:07.280 --> 01:49:13.280
what? When you have fun, Helen, that might be the warfare that breaks that all off of you.

1754
01:49:14.160 --> 01:49:18.160
Worship is our warfare. Guess what? Having fun and laughter is also warfare.

1755
01:49:18.880 --> 01:49:23.200
Okay. So we'll see, try it, try some of those things and see what happens with that. That was

1756
01:49:23.200 --> 01:49:28.240
a great question. Leanne, I saw your comment. Uh, she put in there. Thank you for that. Bethany,

1757
01:49:28.240 --> 01:49:33.360
I've lived a life of a false facade example, my 16th birthday. I wasn't able to enjoy it because

1758
01:49:33.360 --> 01:49:38.960
I was too concerned with making sure my bio bio dad didn't feel like I spent more time with my

1759
01:49:38.960 --> 01:49:44.160
adopted dad and vice versa. I have pushed that so far down inside of me. Y'all this is see how God

1760
01:49:44.160 --> 01:49:51.120
works. I didn't know anything of that about her, but God knew that tonight. And when that happened,

1761
01:49:51.840 --> 01:49:55.840
for multiple times tonight, God just kept causing me to see you. And I see all of you on the screen,

1762
01:49:55.840 --> 01:49:59.760
but for whatever reason, I knew there was something about Leanne tonight.

1763
01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:03.480
And in that moment, that was, that was the thing I just knew to release.

1764
01:50:03.480 --> 01:50:05.300
And so I'm going to be praying for you.

1765
01:50:05.300 --> 01:50:10.120
I'm so sorry that you couldn't enjoy those special moments the way that I

1766
01:50:10.120 --> 01:50:11.980
believe the father really wanted you to.

1767
01:50:11.980 --> 01:50:18.680
And so I would encourage you to pray and ask Jesus to show you, um, how he was

1768
01:50:18.680 --> 01:50:23.120
feeling towards you and for you in that situation, I feel like you need to feel

1769
01:50:23.120 --> 01:50:27.640
the empathy of God, the father in that situation, because I think that broke

1770
01:50:27.640 --> 01:50:31.680
his heart too, that you didn't, that you felt so torn and that you felt like you

1771
01:50:31.680 --> 01:50:34.000
had to make sure dads were okay.

1772
01:50:34.000 --> 01:50:37.040
And instead of just being able to be a kid and enjoy, you know,

1773
01:50:37.040 --> 01:50:38.560
that special day for yourself.

1774
01:50:38.960 --> 01:50:43.160
And, uh, so, you know, believing for healing for you and, you know, there

1775
01:50:43.160 --> 01:50:46.840
might even be other things that the Lord reveals in that kind of same vein.

1776
01:50:46.880 --> 01:50:47.200
Okay.

1777
01:50:47.200 --> 01:50:51.160
So just be open to seeing what those might be and process those out.

1778
01:50:51.160 --> 01:50:55.240
And then Sherita said, I didn't raise my hand, but wanted to, sorry, I can't

1779
01:50:55.360 --> 01:50:58.440
Oh, add, I surrender all my plans, trying to figure out life.

1780
01:50:58.760 --> 01:51:00.720
I no longer want to spin my wheels.

1781
01:51:00.720 --> 01:51:01.760
I've been for years.

1782
01:51:01.760 --> 01:51:05.400
Every single area of my life needs work, especially my physical help.

1783
01:51:05.440 --> 01:51:06.800
I'm done trying to do it myself.

1784
01:51:06.800 --> 01:51:10.080
Like Jackie said, some things are supernatural.

1785
01:51:10.080 --> 01:51:13.160
There are doors I cannot open on my own, not including losing

1786
01:51:13.160 --> 01:51:14.680
two family members this year.

1787
01:51:14.720 --> 01:51:17.000
Man, I'm so sorry to hear that January and March.

1788
01:51:17.000 --> 01:51:17.880
I'm still grieving.

1789
01:51:18.280 --> 01:51:20.360
I'm making some progress and I'm happy for that.

1790
01:51:20.360 --> 01:51:22.200
Sherita, we're going to be praying for you.

1791
01:51:23.200 --> 01:51:26.440
Want to encourage you all that are those of you that are grieving, you

1792
01:51:26.440 --> 01:51:28.840
know, grief is, is different for everybody.

1793
01:51:28.840 --> 01:51:29.200
Okay.

1794
01:51:29.200 --> 01:51:31.240
So just give yourself a lot of grace.

1795
01:51:31.760 --> 01:51:34.800
And even those of you that when some of these heartwork things come up

1796
01:51:34.800 --> 01:51:37.840
and you feel the grief of that, Leanne, if you feel grief, you know, when

1797
01:51:37.840 --> 01:51:42.000
those things are coming to the surface or anyone else, remember to feel the

1798
01:51:42.000 --> 01:51:44.240
feels so that God can heal the feels.

1799
01:51:44.240 --> 01:51:44.680
Okay.

1800
01:51:45.160 --> 01:51:45.920
It's important.

1801
01:51:46.160 --> 01:51:47.320
God will help you through.

1802
01:51:47.920 --> 01:51:52.920
And, uh, Sherita, the one thing I feel led to say to you as well is, um, ask

1803
01:51:52.920 --> 01:51:55.720
God, because you said you need God to touch every area of your life.

1804
01:51:55.720 --> 01:51:59.960
I believe he's going to, but ask him, what area does he want you to focus on first?

1805
01:52:00.200 --> 01:52:01.440
Like you're here doing the heartwork.

1806
01:52:01.440 --> 01:52:06.120
So you're going to do that holistically as a whole, but what area, and it

1807
01:52:06.120 --> 01:52:11.240
sounds like maybe your health, because that's where it seems like you're really

1808
01:52:11.240 --> 01:52:14.680
struggling more than even the other areas, but let's see what God reveals.

1809
01:52:14.680 --> 01:52:18.920
Cause we don't want to just assume that, but let's see what God shows you.

1810
01:52:18.920 --> 01:52:19.200
Okay.

1811
01:52:19.200 --> 01:52:20.600
Ladies, I better close this out.

1812
01:52:20.600 --> 01:52:22.240
I can't believe I've kept you all this long.

1813
01:52:22.280 --> 01:52:25.760
I'm so sorry, but I believe God's doing something really great.

1814
01:52:26.080 --> 01:52:28.440
Um, but I could say that every week cause he's always showing up.

1815
01:52:28.480 --> 01:52:29.760
So I got to stop doing this.

1816
01:52:31.120 --> 01:52:32.600
Oh, it's been great to be here with you all.

1817
01:52:32.600 --> 01:52:33.120
Let me pray.

1818
01:52:33.120 --> 01:52:33.480
Father.

1819
01:52:33.480 --> 01:52:34.120
Thank you.

1820
01:52:34.120 --> 01:52:34.640
Thank you.

1821
01:52:34.640 --> 01:52:35.360
Thank you.

1822
01:52:36.040 --> 01:52:37.440
I don't even have to pray a long prayer.

1823
01:52:37.440 --> 01:52:39.440
I just want to bask in your goodness.

1824
01:52:40.080 --> 01:52:41.880
Thank you for setting these ladies free.

1825
01:52:41.880 --> 01:52:44.360
Thank you for working supernaturally in their lives.

1826
01:52:44.360 --> 01:52:48.720
Thank you for showing them that you have a good, good life in store for them.

1827
01:52:49.680 --> 01:52:53.880
I pray that you would reveal the lies of the enemy, help them to see you more

1828
01:52:53.880 --> 01:52:59.160
fully see the truth and step further into, um, the victory, the land of

1829
01:52:59.160 --> 01:53:03.080
promise, the land of hope, and we just, we just ask for a fresh and filling

1830
01:53:03.080 --> 01:53:05.200
of your Holy spirit tonight in Jesus name.

1831
01:53:05.600 --> 01:53:06.160
Amen.

1832
01:53:06.160 --> 01:53:07.080
God bless you.

1833
01:53:07.080 --> 01:53:08.800
I will be seeing you all in the group.

1834
01:53:08.880 --> 01:53:09.480
Have a good night.

1835
01:53:10.400 --> 01:53:11.120
Good night.