Hi, welcome, welcome, welcome, we're going to wait for another minute or so for people
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So glad you all are joining us here tonight.
My name is Bethany Cooper, I'm one of the master hardware coaches in our community and
on the team with last year single.
And it's my honor to be here with you tonight.
We do want to let you all know just a couple of housekeeping things as we get started tonight.
If you all in any way used to save zoom links for any of our prayer calls, any of our events,
any of that stuff, y'all, those aren't going to work.
Okay.
So just so you know, we literally are going to be updating our zoom links in our events
calendar that is in your app on a regular basis.
Because sometimes we're going to be allowing people that aren't a part of the community
to experience prayer on a morning, and then we'll change the zoom link.
And so just want to make sure y'all aren't trying to save links and then having trouble
getting into meetings, because those are going to change.
So just get really comfortable with always checking the zoom links in the event that's
in the last year single app, versus saving any links.
And I know for some of you with your phone type, it just is kind of a struggle.
Apologize for that.
But unfortunately, there's not a lot we can do about that.
But the quickest thing for you to do is to just log into zoom for all of you every single
time my best practice recommendation for you, log into zoom first create a free profile
if you don't have one before you ever click on the zoom links, but if the zoom links don't
work for you, if you just go right to zoom and click join a meeting, that zoom meeting
ID and passcode is in that event for you that's in the calendar.
I know that might be a little longer than clicking on a link, but y'all it's super fast.
So let's be positive and just let's get into these events, the easiest way we can.
But yeah, just want to make sure y'all aren't saving the links and absolutely please do
not share any of our links with someone that is not a paying person in our program.
Okay.
And I know sometimes we have people come in and go out and that's totally fine.
We love that people know they can come and go whenever they want.
But just want to make sure you all aren't sharing those links with people.
Okay.
Not that anybody did that necessarily recently, so no one's in trouble, but this is just something
as we're continuing to grow, we want to make sure everyone's on the same page regarding
all of all things last year single that are in regarding like two events and things.
So that's my main housekeeping thing.
I'm super excited just to see what God's going to do tonight.
Let me go ahead and pray.
And Oh, one other thing, Jackie's going to be on a podcast tomorrow.
I don't know if she's telling people what it is yet or not, so I'm not going to, but
if we can just be praying for her and we'll pray for her at the end tonight as well.
Because this person has some views that are a little different than how we communicate
in last year single.
And so we're, we're asking God to really move and, and do something really great with this
podcast.
So God is opening doors.
We've been praying for this for years.
You all, and Jackie's been doing things for a long time, but significant, like for those
that are a little newer to our community, we've been praying for three to four years
for some of these doors that are opening now, um, to open.
And so want y'all to know, like our prayers make a difference.
We're seeing more men come into our program.
There's just a lot of good stuff happening.
So I don't know about you all, but when a lot of good stuff is happening, the enemy
tries to bring in a lot of negativity.
Okay.
So we got a war against that stuff and keep, um, any kind of division or negative thinking
away.
All right.
Okay.
That's my last housekeeping thing.
It's so good to see everyone tonight.
And looking super sharp there in your suit.
Very, very nice.
Love it.
All right.
Beautiful ladies, turning your cameras on.
I love to see you all gentlemen.
If you're onto, would love to see some of you, um, I'm pretty big on, if you can turn
your camera on.
Um, there's just something about when I'm coaching a room of people while, while it
is a computer that we're seeing each other through, I am a firm believer that community
and connection really, man, it increases when we can see each other.
Okay.
So father, thank you so much for just everything that you're already doing, God.
We thank you that you create atmosphere though.
Some of us are miles and miles and miles apart, God, that in the spirit, we are one and we
are close to each other.
God, we thank you for revelations that are going to happen tonight.
We thank you for revealing, uh, for healing happening.
Yeah.
Lord, that anything in darkness would be brought to the light that you would even connect dots
for people when they haven't understood why they've been having certain types of thoughts
or things that have really caused them to be stuck in.
They've tried to move forward and they don't know why they still are struggling to move
forward.
God, we thank you for a supernatural grace and empowerment tonight.
Um, yeah.
And endowment from power on heaven.
that dunamis power just to come in, in everyone's home
that you would help them to hear what your spirit is saying.
God, I thank you that you give me the opportunity
to be here tonight.
Thank you for helping me to be a vessel
that you can flow through.
So help me to hear what your spirit is saying
and convey that to your sons and your daughters,
my brothers and sisters.
I thank you God for not only just the teaching time
and just bringing that truth be God,
the people that might get into the hard work seat,
the people that may confess
and all the things that we believe
that you wanna do tonight.
So Lord, we just thank you for courage.
We thank you for love.
We thank you for truth.
And then, yeah, I just don't wanna forget Father,
just protect every mind, heart, body, spirit and soul
from any spirits of shame, guilt and condemnation
on any level.
God, we thank you for freedom.
Yes, and where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom
and the captives are set free.
In Jesus name, amen.
Amen, amen you all.
So if you saw my post about tonight,
I'm just gonna give you a quick overview
and then we're gonna get right into the content.
I really don't wanna take a ton of time for content,
but I did feel led to give some actual examples
of some things here in a little bit.
So I wanna do that.
And then we're gonna have a time of confession tonight
and I'll tell you exactly what that's gonna be about.
And then after that, if time allows,
we're gonna open the heartwork seat.
You all know what love seats are.
I think most of you, if you're brand new,
it's similar to love seat,
but instead of you getting advice on your love relationship,
unless it's connected to heartwork, okay?
That can be the caveat.
We're gonna do heartwork coaching
in the group setting tonight, all right?
All right, so in that post,
these were some of the things I just wanna kind of get you
like in the right spirit and your right heart,
just be thinking about these things.
Tonight, some of the things we want to break out of.
We wanna break through stubborn areas
of spiritual stagnation, okay?
So that means like maybe you're going to church
and you're just kind of going through the ritual,
but you're not feeling that love relationship with the Lord.
It can come from a lot of different reasons.
Maybe you're just not feeling even a desire to serve
or whatever that might look like.
Next one, find freedom from religious OCD and perfectionism.
That can be a very big hindrance to a lot of people,
even in your dating relationships.
Some of you, that religious OCD is showing up
and it's actually causing you to not even consider someone
because they're a denomination
that you're not familiar with
or you have a religious judgmental mindset about it.
And y'all, I was there, I was.
Years ago, I almost did not date Brian
because of his denomination.
Praise the Lord that Jackie talked to me
and the Lord convicted me and I allowed my heart to open
where I would have missed out on somebody pretty amazing.
Y'all, he's changed my life.
All right, quiet intrusive thoughts
that drive you into isolation.
We want to apply the hard work principles
to our specific spiritual challenges.
So where are we not only having challenges in our life,
but spiritually, where are you having challenges happen?
Are any of you going around the same mountain
over and over and over,
and you're struggling to break free
from some kind of stronghold?
That would fall into that same category, okay?
And then identify wounds
that keep you trapped in negative patterns, okay?
All right, so I want to do a refresh, just a real quick.
This is not going to do Jackie's
Supernatural Saturday justice by any means.
If you haven't heard it from Saturday, please listen to it.
Everything that I'm going to say right now
is going to make a lot more sense
if you hear what she was teaching.
But I want to pull out just a couple things
that she said on that Supernatural Saturday
that pertain to where we're going tonight.
And so this next part is actually Jackie talking.
I literally took her notes and wrote them down.
So she was talking about
back when she first started her discipleship journey,
and she was having all kinds of intrusive thoughts
and obsessive thoughts, okay?
So I'm going to explain what intrusive thoughts are
here in a minute for those of you
that might not even know what that means.
And if you don't, it's totally fine
because we're all in different places
on our journey with the Lord
and even understanding what some of the lingo is.
And so I just want everyone to understand.
It's okay if you don't know.
Jackie feels the same way.
We would rather you all ask a question.
You're not going to look dumb ever, okay?
So ask in the groups, ask us what,
if we're teaching about something,
coaching about something, and you're like,
I have no clue what any of that meant
because it's hard to understand
how to apply it to your heart work
if you don't know what it means, okay?
But I am going to explain that a little bit here tonight,
but also the obsessive thoughts.
So over and over and over and over,
we're thinking these kind of obsessive thoughts.
There's something that we're really like struggling.
Like I led prayer the other day and some.
Someone was saying, like, just always feeling like they had to defend themselves.
Y'all, that's, that's an obsessive thought, where you feel like you always have to defend
yourself to everybody and prove yourself, you know, and not that this person said this,
but this is just coming up in my spirit.
I feel like the enemy is really big on trying to get us to always prove ourselves to people.
That comes from insecurity and not being secure and confident in who we are in Christ.
So we need to understand that offset there, okay, but it can also come from things that
people have said to us in the past that we actually still are not healed from.
So Jackie goes on.
She said, I had what I call religious OCD.
I was worried that I wasn't enough and that God wasn't happy with me.
And so if those are types of thoughts that you're having as well, y'all, those are, those
are intrusive, obsessive types of thoughts.
She had so much anxiety about what was appropriate to wear to church, what kind of clothes, what,
you know, what she had to buy.
And she was telling the story about, you know, fitting in, in the church and having to get
a suit.
And then as soon as she got these two suits, then she started feeling like she had to give
it away.
This is what she said.
If I liked it, if it made me feel good, if it made me happy, then I couldn't have it.
I need to give it away.
It made me feel, if it made me feel comfortable, then I had to let it go.
Y'all, sometimes the enemy is really busy trying to convince you all that you're not
even allowed to be happy in a relationship or, you know, be happy going to a church or
be happy having fun because you should be doing something religious instead and spiritual
because you know, you're only spiritual.
I don't know if y'all ever heard anything like this, but in my church years ago, they
used to say the people that want the meat are here on Sundays at nighttime in addition
to the morning time.
You know, so let's, let's kind of even be open to what is the Lord trying to reveal
to us even in that regard where there's messaging that we've heard people say to us through
religion that is now still causing us to do things that the Lord may not even be asking
us to do.
I know for a fact in this last week, not even just in this community, but even outside of
this community, the Lord has led me to say to people five different times.
The Lord is saying, it's time for you to have fun.
What what do you like to do to have fun?
Do you know that out of those five people, none of them knew what they even like to do
for fun.
There's no shame in this y'all I'm mentioning it because I believe this is the opposite
side of the religious OCD, the religious thoughts and these other intrusive thoughts like it
steals our joy and it literally robs us of even knowing how to have fun.
And guess what?
God is fun.
So let's get on that track with him because he's funny.
He likes to use all different kinds of ways to talk to us.
And yeah, it's time for us to get into the fun seat with him because it's a lot better
than being religious and guess what?
More people are attracted to God's fun side than the religion of the world.
Okay.
All right.
I'm going to keep going.
If you always feel condemned, this is something she was saying.
She was always feeling condemned, always felt like it was vain for her to want nice things,
have nice things.
And if she wanted those things, then there was something wrong with her.
So the encouragement tonight and this week, as you all are continuing to unpack all of
this is stop rejecting yourself because you're not fitting into some kind of mold that you
think you have to fit into to please God, to find a guy or a woman, this whole idea
of what you're supposed to do.
Now obviously I'm not talking about what we're recommending in the guidelines of this program.
Right now I'm talking about religion.
Okay.
And this whole thing that the enemy uses to cause us to feel like we're never enough or
we're too much.
Those are two of the biggest lies that people battle when I'm doing heartwork with them.
And even in myself, that was, it was always the one or the other.
You're too much.
You're not enough.
You're too much.
It was back and forth, back and forth.
But the more that I grew in my relationship with Jesus Christ and my identity in him,
as well as knowing his character, y'all, I talk about this all the time, but I say it
often because those, those three things were pivotal to the transformation and the healing
in my heart and even being ready to receive the heartwork.
All right.
So are you someone that beats yourself up a lot?
Let's see your hands.
Who, who can relate with that?
Like you just really struggle.
Raise your digital hand for me so I can see you.
You struggle with beating yourself up a lot.
Okay.
All right. Awesome. So those of you that raised your hand where you really struggle with beating yourself up a lot,
will you put into the chat for me, like, what do you tend to beat yourself up about the most?
And it doesn't have to be a long paragraph. It can just be like a little blurb or two words or one word,
whatever represents that for you, where this is what you tend to beat yourself up about.
Put that in the chat for me so we can see that there. All right. I'm going to put these hands down.
Thank you for jumping in and participating there. All right.
So keep these in mind. I'm having you put them here in the chat. I have one.
I'm going to read a couple of these. How they look. Not being enough.
Not amounting to enough. Making mistakes. What others are thinking of me. Things I've said.
We're going to touch on a lot of these here in a little bit. I'm boring.
Which, Monica, that is a lie from from the pit of hell.
So let's come out of alignment with that, because I think you're probably actually really fun.
And the enemy is just trying to, like, squash that in you. Nobody wants you.
You're not good enough. You're too much. So wait. I see wait in here.
Making mistakes. Not doing it right. Not saying the right thing.
All right. So a lot of different aspects about not being right about something.
Could have, should have. That's very similar. Could have done it this way.
Should have done it that way. All that. Eating unhealthy. Not enough. Not getting it right.
Wait. Make the most of my life. Okay. So I'm not going to be able to read through all these,
but keep putting them in there for me. And we'll try to look these over,
because we're going to be praying for you all as a community regarding what we're doing tonight.
All right. I want to really encourage you all, as we start to kind of take a little shift now
from what Jackie was talking about on Saturday, that you don't have to worry about doing things perfectly.
Like tonight could literally be a night where you decide, okay,
I'm really going to choose to receive grace and understand that I don't have to be perfect.
There's one perfect one, and his name was Jesus Christ. We don't have to strive for perfection.
Y'all, when we have grace and we just like learn to relax and have fun,
life in general ends up going a lot smoother, including the journey to meeting your spirit mate.
All right. I'm going to read just a blurb from the heart work book,
and then I'm going to start to talk about the intrusive thoughts,
so that can educate you all a little bit on some of those.
And I'm not going to give an exhaustive list of intrusive thoughts.
There's so many, you all. There's so many, but I am going to give some examples tonight.
But I felt led to read this little part from the book, from the heart work book.
If you have the physical book, it's in page 69.
If you don't have the physical book, I'm sorry. I don't know what the e-book page is.
Lies disguised as problem areas.
How can one area of our life be pretty good and another area be a total disaster?
Remember I said we become the sum total of all of our experiences.
The state of your life has everything to do with your experiences and your perception of those experiences.
So not just the experiences that we have, but our perceptions of the experiences.
She goes on. Let me explain.
Your problem areas are the places you have the most unhealed wounds.
So remember earlier I mentioned, hey, be thinking about where do you tend to feel stuck the most?
Where are you, you know, identifying wounds that have kept you trapped because of negative patterns?
This is kind of why I wanted you to do that.
This right here. Your problem areas are the places you have the most unhealed wounds.
These unhealed wounds that are harboring fears, lies, and false narratives create havoc in that area of your life as they mature and manifest through emotions like shame, guilt, unworthiness, and fear.
Now it goes on, but that's all I felt led to read.
Y'all definitely check it out.
I cannot say enough, like not that y'all have to constantly be in the intensive heart care unit, but revisiting the heart work, whether it's videos, the book.
I think I watched the soul ties video like four times when I was just going through my journey, because every time I heard something different from the Lord.
And so definitely recommend that.
And it could be any of the videos you all, but just that one stands out in my mind to me.
If you've gone through divorce, I would recommend listening to that session a couple of times as well, because there's so much in society that is not true.
So getting the truth in us so that we can really stand up against the lies is very, very important.
All right.
So I'm going to give you again, a couple types of common types of intrusive thoughts.
Now, again, this is not an exhaustive list.
Okay.
So don't hold me like, oh, there's this and that.
Y'all, these are the ones that God told me to talk to you all about tonight.
But first, I want you to understand intrusive thoughts are unwanted involuntary thoughts.
Images or urges that can cause you distress.
Okay.
So.
Let's say you're going about your merry way, maybe you're having a great time, and all
of a sudden, I don't know if any of y'all have ever been through this, but if you've
been in a relationship before where you had sex before marriage, or it was a different
relationship that you were in, even if it was marriage, and you're happy down the road,
and all of a sudden you have this thought that comes out of nowhere, and you're like,
where did that come from?
I'm not even thinking about this person.
Yeah, that's an intrusive thought.
Okay, I want to give you that example.
Another one might be just, it could be other types of negativity, and again, I'm going
to go through these here in a little bit, but it also can be things that we have fears
about, things that worry us and concern us, and because we worry about them, or maybe
there was trauma or things that happened, and then because we couldn't control those
situations, we developed what we call in society today OCD in different ways.
All of that kind of stuff can come and stem out of wounds and trauma that we've gone through,
and that's the same thing that is true about these intrusive thoughts.
So again, intrusive thoughts are unwanted, involuntary thoughts, images, or urges that
can cause distress.
Having intrusive thoughts doesn't mean you want to act on them, okay?
The reason I feel like it's important to tell you all that is because I think the enemy
is beating people up because you're feeling like you're a bad Christian or you're not
spiritual enough because you're having thoughts like this, and that isn't true.
The enemy is actually attacking you, and these are revealings for healing that are happening.
When these intrusive thoughts come up, it can show us areas where we might need a little
more healing.
We might need to be set free and delivered from the things that are causing those thoughts
to enter our minds, but sometimes there's nothing that we're doing to cause it, okay?
So I want to emphasize that, all right?
All right, so we want to recognize the patterns of these thoughts because once we recognize
the patterns, that's when we can go to the Lord and ask for His help, and then as He's
healing us, guess what, y'all?
They're going to lose their power, okay?
All right, so here are some of the categories.
I'm going to give you the categories first, and then I'm going to give you examples in
all of them.
All right, health concerns.
I'm going to try to go through these slow enough so my amazing Aaron Joy is helping
me out doing notes in the chat there.
Thank you, Aaron Joy.
Health concerns, unwanted sexual thoughts, religious and or moral thoughts, perfectionism
and or mistakes.
Those are the categories that I'm going to cover a little bit tonight.
Again, those are health concerns.
She got them all, and perfectionism and mistakes.
That's awesome.
Okay, they're in the chat for you all, so you can grab them from there.
All right, now I'm going to go through each one and give you some, I'm going to tell you
kind of like an example as far as like high level, but then I'm going to give you an example
of how it might show up in your mind.
Does that make sense, everyone?
All right.
So let's say you might have, and again, there's so many more, but these are the ones I put
together for tonight, intrusive thoughts about health concerns.
They might show up like this, excessive worries about germs, disease or contamination.
Your thought might be something like this.
You might walk into a public restroom and think every surface here is covered in dangerous
bacteria that could make me severely ill.
And not that all of you have these things, but there are some people that have had, I
mean, they've been sick a long time and they've been battling physically, or they saw parents
battling physically most of their life as children and all that.
And so the enemy, because of that pain and the things they've been through, these are
some of the ways the enemy will war against their minds, okay?
Here's another one.
Thoughts about, this is kind of the theme, the overarching theme.
Thoughts about contracting serious illnesses from everyday activities.
So excessive worries about germs, disease or contamination, and then thoughts about
contracting serious illnesses from everyday activities.
So this might sound like in your mind, feeling a minor twinge in your chest and thinking,
this must be the beginning of a heart attack.
Experiencing a headache and immediately thinking, what if this is a brain tumor?
Experiencing a new freckle and obsessing, this could be melanoma, and by the time I
get it checked, it might be too late.
Y'all, it's good for us to be careful, but understand if these are thoughts that you
have on a regular basis, those are considered intrusive thoughts that are taking up resonance
in your mind.
Okay.
Unwanted sexual thoughts.
You might have unwanted sexual.
imagery that contradicts personal values.
So it could show up in, I give you,
I'm giving you all two examples tonight.
And again, this is a really big topic
and I didn't wanna go too far into this tonight
cause it could get, it could get really tough
with a combined co-ed group.
So I think what we'll do is we'll unpack
the unwanted sexual thoughts more in depth
when it's the men with the men
and the women with the women.
Everyone cool on that?
But I do wanna give you a couple so that you have them.
All right, having intrusive sexual thoughts
about someone you find inappropriate,
like a teacher, religious figure, or a family member
and thinking what kind of person am I
to have these thoughts?
During a religious service,
having unwanted sexual imagery pop into your mind
and thinking I'm desecrating something sacred
with my horrible mind.
Again, you're kind of like when we do that,
we're owning as if every single thought
that comes in our head is ours.
And they're not all ours.
Remember you all, we need to ask the Lord,
God, is this my thought?
Is this your thought?
Or is this a thought from the enemy?
That's one of the ways where you can continue
to unpack the thoughts that you're having
and understand, okay, wait a minute.
Like, yeah, that thought came in my mind,
but that thought didn't originate from my heart.
I'm here worshiping the Lord
and the enemy is trying to attack my mind.
Y'all that happens all the time.
It happens all the time.
All right, so you are not a bad person.
You don't have a horrible mind.
If you need healing that is causing you
to have thoughts like that on a regular basis,
then you should reach out and we can work on that with you.
But if you're literally,
you're in a service or something like that,
and it just comes out of nowhere,
y'all, that's how you can recognize that's from the enemy.
He's attacking your mind.
All right, next one, religious and or moral.
So you could have obsessive doubts
about whether you've acted ethically.
These are some of the ways that this can show up.
And we talked about religious a little bit already.
So this is kind of an addition to that.
From the examples that Jackie gave
to now I'm giving you some additional examples.
After a store clerk gives you too much change,
if you think something like,
if I don't go back right now, I'm a thief.
What if that person gets fired
because their register is off?
So like, you're just really like,
feel like any little thing that happens
that it's your fault.
Y'all understand that's kind of the underlying thing there.
Here's another one, donating to charity
and then thinking, did I give enough?
A truly good person would have given more.
So again, you see that underlying, it's never enough.
You're never enough.
You just went and gave,
yet the enemy is trying to convince you
that what you did isn't good enough.
Somebody better would have done this, okay?
Walking past someone asking for help
and thinking I'm fundamentally selfish
and failing as a human because I didn't stop to help them.
Okay, and you know, we see the example
in the Bible of the Good Samaritan and that's amazing.
And we know that the religious people pass that guy by.
And this is where I believe the spirit of religion
attacks us through stuff like this.
Y'all, that doesn't mean that if you're not able to stop,
that you're a bad person or that you're religious
or that you don't care.
I do think sometimes we do need to listen
to the Holy Spirit and stop.
But if you're beating yourself up over that
on a regular basis or not feeling enough,
and again, y'all, it could be totally different examples,
but I'm hoping this is getting you to think
about some things and recognize thoughts
that you're having.
Okay, perfectionism and or mistakes.
What if I made a terrible mistake?
So that's kind of the overarching,
what if I just made a terrible mistake?
Thoughts that go with that might sound
like these two examples or again, other things as well.
After making a major purchase, you think,
what if this was the wrong choice and I've wasted money
we needed for something more important?
So again, there's just this undergirding
where the enemy's always trying to chip it away
at your confidence, chip away at your confidence.
So maybe for the guys, maybe you just took someone
on a really nice date and the first thing,
the enemy's coming in like, you should have done this,
you should have done that.
Like nothing is ever enough, okay?
Another one here, after giving advice to a friend,
what if my guidance leads them to make a decision
that ruins their life?
Y'all, I know this sounds like such a big thing,
but there are people that actually think things like this.
Like they're afraid to even give their friend advice
or be there to support their friend
because if they say the wrong thing,
they're afraid that like,
let's just unpack this for a minute.
Y'all, that kind of leads to savior syndrome.
Do you know what I mean by that? Everyone? Yes, no, yes? Savior syndrome is the time
and place when we shift into thinking that we can save people or cause them to ruin their
life or not. Y'all, there's one Savior, and His name is Jesus Christ, and He's the one
that can lead their life. And, you know, hey, let's just look at it like this. We don't
have to even give our friends, like, hey, you should do this. Hey, you should do that.
But we could say, hey, what is the Lord saying to you about this? Do you see how that kind
of shifts all that responsibility off of us having to give people advice? Yeah. And so
we're going to practice that tonight here in a little bit, too. When we do the confession
time, nobody has to give any advice or anything like that. But we are going to hear people
say, well, I am going to finish this last part, but I just thought that would be a good
time to mention that as well. Maybe you are someone that replays past conversations or
actions to check for errors. So I do that sometimes. Sometimes I send people a text
and then I read it again, or I've done a post on Facebook and that, you know, autocorrect
isn't always my friend. I don't know about you all, but sometimes autocorrect, I'm like,
what the heck? Why did it say that? Now that's kind of lighthearted and a little different,
but sometimes people like obsessed and they look at it and look at it. And I should have
said this and I should have said that. And oh my gosh, what if they, what if they get
offended at what I said? And you know, all of that kind of stuff, that all goes in alignment
with this replaying past conversation conversations or actions to check for errors. So some other
examples, lying awake at night, mentally reviewing a meeting from earlier thinking, did I say
something offensive without realizing it? It could also be not even a meeting at work.
Maybe it's a conversation you had with a friend where you're just, you're just panicked over
this situation and dynamic. And that's, those are intrusive thoughts. You all, the enemy
is trying to steal people's peace. Repeatedly checking sent emails or texts, which kind
of goes with what I was saying to see if there were typos or if your tone could be misinterpreted.
After a social gathering, analyzing every interaction. When I made that joke, did everyone
think I was being insensitive? Did people think I was funny? You know, all that kind
of stuff. So we're coming out of insecurity tonight. I don't know if y'all understand
that that's some of what we're going to be doing as we release these intrusive thoughts.
We're going to release insecurities that come from them as well. One of the things Jackie
also said on Saturday that I thought was really important, out of mind doesn't mean
out of heart. So I'm going to give you some scriptures that can help you regarding the
intrusive thoughts, but I don't want you to think that I just believe that we can always
just quote a scripture and it will just go right away. Now I do believe, because I've
experienced it, that when the enemy is warring against me, if I start worshiping and I just
keep worshiping and worshiping, or I've even just got my Bible out and started reading
scripture out loud, well the enemy can't, like I can't hear him while I'm speaking or
worshiping at the same time. So if you do have a lot of struggle with thoughts or things
like this, worship is warfare, you all. It really is, and it can help you. But I want
you to understand that I also think it's so important for you to know that the more that
your heart heals, the more freedom you're going to get over the intrusive thoughts.
You're going to get revelation on where did these things enter. So that's what I want
you to also be thinking about. So I've stirred up some thoughts about intrusive thoughts.
I want you to be asking the Lord if there were any intrusive thoughts that came to your
mind that really are, they plague you and they're just things that you're really warring
against, I want you to start asking the Lord as I'm continuing through this content, Lord
when did this, when did this start for me? When was the first time I had this intrusive
thought? And if you have multiple you all, I would do that with every single one of them.
Because we need to get to the root of the problem. Remember heart work? We want to get
to the root. What was the wound or trauma that we went through that opened the door
for us to believe that lie or hear that thought and partner with it? Okay. Yeah. Yeah, Hunter,
I see you. I hear you. Sometimes they can feel on repeat, but the more that we heal
genuinely they will and can get better. Now we'll tell you another thing that just came
to mind reading his comment. You all, isolation is a.
other tactic of the enemy, and he wants to try to push people into isolation.
That's why we also are so big in last year, single talking about
come into community, come in and do a post, come in and get coaching, connect
with what we're saying, stay in alignment with the program.
Let us coach you, because if you're in the community, if you're talking,
if you're coming and bringing things to the light, guess what?
Darkness has to flee and like community can help you gain strength.
We want to be stronger together, we're better together, we're stronger together.
Isolation, too, can turn into idleness.
You're right.
And oftentimes when we're in isolation, those thoughts are going to come in more.
All right.
So I'm going to give you the scriptures next.
These are just a couple that I pulled together.
Y'all probably have heard them before,
but again, let's let's almost like, Lord, help us to hear these with new ears tonight.
Help us to see something we haven't seen before.
In Jesus name.
Second Corinthians ten, five and NIV says this.
We demolish arguments and every
pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God,
and we take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.
Y'all, a lot of times I pray,
God, help me to quickly take every thought captive because I don't like
I don't like thinking about things for a long time.
So I want to try to catch it quick.
I don't always, but it does help me
really pay attention to those thoughts.
Isaiah 26, three in the ESV version says this.
You keep him in perfect peace,
whose mind is stayed on you because he trusts in you.
Second, Timothy one, seven, for God has not given us a spirit of fear,
but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
That's New King James version there.
First, Peter, five, seven, and NIV says,
cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Psalm ninety four, nineteen and the NLT
version says, when doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.
I loved that.
I love all these scriptures, but that one really resonated for me tonight.
So I'm so I'm ninety four, nineteen, I'm going to say that one again.
NLT, when doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.
Psalm 139, verse twenty three and twenty four in the NIV says this.
Search me, God, and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts,
see if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.
That's also been one of my one of my favorite scriptures.
And also, I don't remember where it's at,
but what comes to mind is Psalm fifty one, where it actually is very similar,
but created me a clean heart of God and renew a steadfast spirit in me.
I might say something else, but that's what's coming to mind right now.
All right, so we're going to start to step
into kind of preparing for a time of confession.
And as we do, I want you to be thinking about what is what is the one thing
that you need Jesus to touch and change and transform?
What is that one?
Like start with one intrusive thought
and allow him to come in and minister to you in that area tonight.
What is the one thing that you need to bring to him and say,
I can't do this and I can't do anything with this anymore.
Lord, I need you.
I need your help.
I need you, Jesus, to come in and take care of this for me.
And I also want to encourage you all if you do have intrusive thoughts and things
that you're still like really battling, even after sessions like this,
to write those intrusive thoughts out and put them on your Jesus cares board.
And if you have kids around that, you don't want them to read it.
I had someone once they created I don't even remember who who it was.
And you might be on this session tonight.
But they created this little box that they like pin to their board.
But the thing that they were casting
onto their board that they didn't want their kids to see was inside the box.
I thought that was such a creative way.
You can always fold it and tape it and that kind of thing.
But the whole goal is to get it off of yourself and onto Jesus.
OK,
James 516 says, therefore, confess your sins to each other and pray
for each other so that you may be healed.
The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.
So this isn't necessarily when we're going to I'm going to do coaching on the
heartwork, but what I'm going to do is I'm going to open up for you all to share.
Anyone that feels led to confess,
what are you confessing?
You're confessing about the intrusive thought that you've been struggling with
and you're saying, and I choose to come out of agreement
and alignment with this intrusive thought tonight.
OK, so we're going to I'm going to open it up.
And normally, especially in this kind of an environment.
and it takes one or two to get us going
and then other people, you know,
will get some courage too.
So is there anyone that is willing to go first tonight?
Melissa, awesome.
Thank you.
Hey, Bethany.
Hi.
So this is actually something that I've been wrestling with
for the past few weeks before intrusive thoughts
was even brought up on our radar.
And that's about scarcity.
It's really, I think some of the women in here
probably know that I'm pretty tall.
I'm six feet tall.
And I recently had an encounter with a six foot 10 man
who incidentally had a date with one of my shortest friends
who's five foot three.
And that sent me into a spiral of,
oh, it's just proof.
There's not enough tall men.
There's not enough men because now the men that I'm seeing
have to date my friends.
And not only that, but the tall men don't want me.
And so it's become this spiral into a scarcity mindset
of these intrusive thoughts of like,
I could be just walking anywhere and I see a tall man.
Oh, well, he's not even gonna want me.
Or, you know, just seeing a couple together,
like, and thinking to myself,
well, of course he chose her because she's tiny.
And so it's just been like, not even thinking about dating,
not even thinking about my own love story
and out of the blue,
these thoughts just are coming up over the past few weeks.
So that's definitely,
and then it leads me down the rabbit trail of like,
well, no wonder I'm not married.
There's not enough men.
There aren't any tall men for me.
Those sorts of things.
Thank you for sharing.
Powerful.
Not powerful and good that it's happening,
but this is gonna be a powerful night, you all.
Charles, go ahead.
Yeah, so I'm about to be really vulnerable.
Jack literally just had a conversation
with a friend about this.
And he told me to open up, actually.
So there's a longer context to this, but in a nutshell,
I was looking for alternative ways
other than muscle relaxer to like help with back pain.
And I ended up getting a vape, a weed vape,
and low THC, but if you hit it enough,
it becomes higher THC.
And at night you sleep, you know, yeah.
Anyway, that led to, like, that dropped the walls.
Like when, that, you don't care.
Like, it makes you numb.
That's the point.
That's why people do it, you know.
If it's not made this noise, to be numb, right?
And so, like, those intrusive thoughts,
like, I already struggled with them beforehand.
Like, I'm not blaming you on that,
but so anyway, I'm just gonna renounce it.
So I renounce marijuana.
I renounce intrusive thoughts regarding women
and viewing them in a lustful way.
Yeah, that's-
You're doing great, Charles.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
Yeah, I renounce allowing bitter thoughts
toward people who cut me off in conversation.
And, yeah, I'm only speaking for myself.
We just invite you in to heal those places
and to show us where they came from, in Jesus' name.
Amen.
Thank you.
Thank you for your vulnerability.
You're welcome.
Thank you for listening.
My pleasure.
Carrie, go ahead.
Carrie Reed, I should say, so everybody knows.
Thank you.
So this has actually been going on for a while
after the last guy I dated.
The intrusive thought is God doesn't care
about my love life and just trying to digest that
and getting roadblocks with just my love life
and asking God, I have a lot of people asking,
tell me to ask God what to do, and I hear nothing.
And so it's just a, I don't think he cares.
I really don't think he cares at all.
Thank you for sharing.
Don K., go ahead.
Hey, hi, Bethany.
This has been going on for maybe,
my biggest obtrusive thought is you made a mistake.
You dropped out of school.
It's your fault.
You did the wrong things.
You messed up.
And then God didn't come through for you, you know for me dropping out of Bible school has really
Affected me in such a big way, you know, I can't sleep at night. I've been very upset and frustrated
Over the decisions I made of why I left and basically it was because financially I just couldn't handle it
There was no money. There was no finances for it. Everything dried up
And so, you know, it's like you beat I beat myself up over and over like I could have done better
I should have done this. I should have done that and I stay in this period of condemning myself, you know
and then I look at the
Graduation photos and the banquet photos and I just start to cry because I feel like God let me down
I feel like God. Why did you call me to this and you let me down?
So the truth of thought is the mistake thing the religious mindset of going to the Bible school and the mistake
You're not good enough. You won't be good enough and you know, God let you down and you let him down
Thank you for sharing Don
Shelly Williams, go ahead
the
intrusive
Thoughts that I know to show up in dating and they're different but they're related to the same thing related to worthiness
so sometimes it will be like a passing thought like oh, he would one of my friends would be better with this guy because
they have more shared interests or somehow it's putting me in a position of
Not being enough and
the other angle of that is that I should be
Responding X Y or Z. It's it's all like disconnect kind of strategies and I see it so I don't
But it still pops up. So anyway, I just want to confess that
Thank you for sharing
Hunter go ahead
I
Did have to say I have a fear of even when I came to Christ's
FOMO fear of missing out because I remember watching I remember my parents
I would what play video games when it's a beautiful day and my parents and they say you see I'm playing World of Warcraft
all these kids are gay Scott golden kids are gained straight A's and they're out make going to apply to college and make the
Most of my life and I figure what would happen if I spend the next 14 years in college?
Well, not a young 20 year olds
What happens the next 14 years where I would be if I stayed around playing video games
What would that amount to so I developed saying well, you know
I gotta go get done and treat it like it's like homework when you go to school and you get homework
You have to have it done in certain time
Well, I want to have I want to marry did you get a job and marry and marry as young as possible?
so I can join my
Youthful join my youthful prime and make the most of it and I'm and I'm home with mom and dad
I'm near mom and dad and no slowly as the years go by had to process on. Oh, I'm okay
I didn't marry in college there. There goes the time. How do you look back?
I blew it I blew it or how about when I went moved out of the house at 24
I moved to another state now it's gone and then I told mom and dad say I didn't get to get I got a job
But it's still not coming and then and I said dad
I wanted to stay in Malvern the same town you grew up in grandpa grew up in and he goes, you know
I think you need to go make your own way into life
No, that may not have to be in Mount Vernon, Ohio
And then I have all this fear think I didn't amount a much because I spent my all my old 20s
Almost my entire 20s single. I'm 36 and I it's no not done because not done
It's almost like I'm I'm treating romance instead of being interested in somebody I treat relationships as one
I want to marry because there's something in it for me, too
I'm what I have to marry because this is like an aging rat race
you want to make that you want to live life at the fullest and
Of course, I and I'm doing my best
I and I if I want to spot I can go a whole of what I did all the last 14 years mounting to what?
I can
Yeah, you're doing great hunter. I love this. So so thankful that you shared
We're gonna I'm gonna coach here on some of these things and a little bit appreciate everything that you just shared with us
Debbie Gordon go ahead
For me it has to do with I'm trying to get a business going and I know that this is what God wants me to
Do but my struggle is really with worthiness
Feeling like I don't know enough. I'm not smart enough. I'm not good enough. And those are the things that keep holding me back and
I'm really, you know, it's coming. It's getting better, but it's still
Holding me back from being visible in the way. Well, God wants me to be
Can you tell me what those thoughts might sound like for you
So it's like okay, for instance, I'm doing it. I'm a coach the life coach also an author
I'm also a speaker and so it's things like well
Oh, you're not smart enough.
You don't know enough.
You're not ready to do this.
It's those kinds of things
that I've been fighting for so long.
Or it used to be the thought
where I had to continue to stay small
because I felt like I wasn't safe.
And that was how I stayed safe,
was to stay small and invisible.
And so I've,
but it's still, there's still that heart wounding
that's keeping me from being able to accomplish
the plan that I know God has for me.
And it's one of those things I think
that is still obtrusive.
It's not as bad as it used to be,
but it holds me back.
I second guess myself, Lord, how am I gonna do this?
And I know God is enough.
He will give me the wisdom.
And I know I have the training.
It's just sometimes those thoughts get in the way
of me being able to step out
and do what I know God wants me to do.
Okay.
Thank you so much for sharing.
Mackenzie Miller, go ahead.
Hey, first of all, this is very timely.
So thank you.
But I recently have been really struggling
with the spirit of jealousy a little bit.
There's a lot of people around me,
almost all of my friends around me
are either married or engaged or having babies.
And I am struggling because I wanna be in a season,
not only with them, like being able to partner with them
in this season of their life,
but I'm struggling with this mindset of like,
oh, I've done all of this work
and I want to be able to go through the work
that they're going through right now, if that makes sense.
And so it's been coming up the last few weeks
and I've identified what it is.
And so I'm just kind of submitting that to the Lord
and passing all my cares.
And I'm identifying that the emotions are not bad emotions,
but when it turns into jealousy,
that's where there's an issue.
And so I'm just submitting that
and laying it at the feet of Jesus tonight.
So good.
Thank you so much for sharing that.
So powerful.
All right, Carrie Oliver, go ahead.
Hey, so I have struggled a lot in probably most of my life,
but especially the last like 10 years,
it's getting better, but it's still there.
Just the fear that I'll never get married
and that God has chosen to not give me a spouse.
And it's definitely an intrusive thought.
It bombards me.
It's getting better, but it still pops up here and there
of God is punishing me
because I must've done something so terrible
that he just would never want me to have a husband.
And no matter how much I ask him,
his answer will always be no.
So that's always kind of been
probably one of my biggest struggles.
All right.
I'm gonna come back to that one for sure.
Okay, so just Carrie,
actually, let me do this, a couple of people.
And it's not that I don't wanna coach everybody,
but there's a couple that I feel like just God's spirit
like on, and then I'll see how many I can get through.
Carrie Oliver, stay here.
Mackenzie Miller, if you can put your hand back up
just so I don't forget.
And then I'll look back through my notes
for the other people that I was circling some things
that God was giving me.
Amy B, go ahead.
Well, I can relate to the last few people
just with worthiness and just in general,
I find myself feeling like I don't have anything to offer
and that I never get chosen.
So it always comes back to that.
I mean, that's, and I don't know,
I feel like there's almost a part of me
that is disconnected from why I feel that way.
I feel like I'm kind of disconnected from myself.
So I either push people away
or I don't even realize I'm doing it.
I'm just kind of learning about it.
I push people away or then it's,
or it's the opposite where I might just cling to somebody.
So anyway.
Thank you for sharing that.
Sorry, I'm writing my notes.
Y'all know I'm a note taker.
I process so much when y'all are sharing.
Stephanie Hathaway, go ahead.
Yeah, so I noticed these thoughts
getting stirred up a lot more
when I went home to my parents' house this weekend.
So I just want to come out of agreement
and confess the thoughts that people don't like me,
that I have to be perfect to be acceptable,
that I can't make.
mistake. And just the fear that others will be critical of me.
So I just come on agreement with that and partnering with fear.
Thank you. That's really good. Joshua. I don't know how to say
your last name, Joshua. But can you go for me?
unmute. Okay. Santo is how you say the last. Okay. Okay,
awesome. Thank you.
Yeah. So for me, I don't get this a lot. But I, I noticed
that throughout the course of the year, you know, there's
recurring things that keep coming back. And I know there.
I know that they're not from God. But you know, I attend a
Slavic church, a Russian church, but I'm not Slavic myself. And
I've been there for 13 or so years, you know, and just
diligently following what God has me set to do there. It's in
a hard environment. But over the years, you know, like some of
the folks who have spoken, you know, seasons come and go youth
get married, they move on. And then you know, time passes by
and you're 34 years old now. And you're still not married. And
you realize, you know, is there ever going to be anyone and God
I look back over these times, and I did what I've been doing
the things that you've said on my heart that I need to do. I've
I've looked at things the right way, you know, you know, just
like how there's a bit in the Word of God that says to look at
your, you know, fellow brethren as though they're married, you
know, and not to, you know, to be holy, and things like that,
you do that, and you do all the right things. But, you know, and
it's hard to wait for God's timing, too. And but at the same
time, you don't want to step over that line, lest you, you
know, sacrifice self respect, or, you know, being honorable
and things like that. And with that, you know, would come, you
know, there's attacks that kind of come with that, too. It's
like, you're not good enough, you know, you've been here,
nobody wanted you, you know, or, or you're not equipped with any
of the right things. And you'll never be equipped because
you've already, you know, you didn't grow up the right way or
get, you know, at the right times of your life. Like in my
teenage years, I, just because of circumstances, I became
isolated socially. And there, it's not like you could go over
to the next door neighbor, because the next door neighbor
was miles away. So you didn't get any opportunity to, you
know, socialize and practice and build those experiences when
human development is really driving those. But anyway, you
know, I've had recurring thoughts like that. And from
time to time, you know, sometimes it changes. It's like,
you know, bitterness attacks, and it's like, you know, and try
to shove it off. But yeah, I've kind of thought that, you know,
the best way is to not listen to those look forward up above and
ahead. And I try my best with that. But I know that there are
better ways than just looking at it like that. Because the best
story that I'm that I know that to fight things like this is
with the Word of God and the truth, because that's where the
source of truth comes from from him. So but it kind of Yeah, I
have a question for you. On the one where you said do all the
right things yet still. What's the rest of that statement yet
still what?
When you have convicted, let me try to put it this way that when
you have find over the years that the place that you're at,
has been purposefully set by the Holy Spirit as an assignment for
you to do whatever that mission work is, it doesn't need to be
remote, it can be local. And that's, you know, and you don't
realize it until years enough time has passed by that, then
you start realizing that the Holy Spirit has set me here
because you tried to escape it only for the Holy Spirit to
bring you back. And then not only bring you back, but the
moment he sets your foot, your foot, feet back into the place
he needs you to be at, he lays a very strong impression on, on
me, in a way that it's like, as though he is saying, No, I need
you to be here. I need you to be here and do this x very specific
thing. And it won't let me leave, you know?
Well, no, and I'm asking this, because we have several people
in the community that can relate to this actually was just
talking with someone else. She was in our heartwork group, but
very similar. But I'm wondering if the underlying is I'm doing
all these things for you, Lord, but you're still not meeting my
needs. Is that what's under that?
So let me clarify that. So throughout my 20s,
I never looked at it as, you know, I'm hoping to get something from God, and it'd be this.
But rather, the perspective was that, God, I know that faith is the only thing that brings pleasure to you.
It's the only thing that pleases you.
God, I want to give you my life, and I want to follow you.
I want to do what you want me to do, where you need me to be,
to release the words that you put on me to the people that you need to hear certain things.
I believe with this, God, that if I have faith in you to focus on the Father's business,
that you'll take care of me in the way that you – how you know me on a personal level more than I even know myself.
And the idea of marriage, you know, that, God, I have a desire for marriage,
but, God, I will give it up to you because I know you love me.
When do you get to keep something, though, Joshua?
How do you mean?
Well, here's the thing I want to put out there.
I think that God also wants you to be happy, not like just for happiness sake,
but to bless you with the desires of your heart.
And what we've found from years now of coaching in this program, and we see it with all kinds of people,
but some, you know, y'all know, my life is ministry.
I mean, this is what I do. I do it for Last Year's Single.
I'm helping pastor a church with my husband.
But there are times where those are all amazing things, but God keeps talking to me about, for years,
He's like, okay, but you have to have balance.
We have to also have fun.
We also have to walk in the fullness of God's plans for us in every area of our lives, not just ministry.
But so many in the body of Christ, that's all we're kind of going towards.
And again, those are amazing things, but it can get out of balance.
And when we allow it to get out of balance, it's kind of like what Jackie was saying.
Every time we get something good, we feel like we got to give it away.
Where the statement that you said also, it is, it is, faith is what pleases God,
but there are other things that please Him as well.
Do you know that the Bible actually, like when Jesus got baptized,
and like the Lord literally spoke over Him, this is my beloved Son in whom I'm well pleased.
Like He literally hadn't done anything in ministry yet.
God's pleasure in us, you all, is because we are our daughter and a son.
I feel the Holy Spirit on this.
So I'm going to kind of linger here for a minute.
God's pleasure in us is literally because you're His son.
And it's amazing.
I think it's incredible, the things that you're doing, Joshua,
but I feel like God wanted me to linger with you for a little bit
because God cares about like the blessings that He wants to give you.
And, you know, it's okay for you to let yourself receive it.
Yeah.
I think you're right.
It reminds me of what you said.
It reminds me and also have a couple of experiences of this phrase
and description of being at rest in Him.
And what does rest look like?
It doesn't mean that you're not, there isn't any labor,
but at the same time, it's not hard.
Because having something to do with how much of you are surrendered
and submitting to Him, but yet at the same time, you know, you're at peace
because that's what comes with that relationship with Him.
And so you can be about the Father's business, not in stress like a workaholic,
which I think that has been easily, I would say I'm guilty.
It's easy to do in ministry.
Yep.
So easy.
But at that, you know, that balance point of drawing back a little bit
of that workaholism and just letting, recognizing that how much of a privilege
actually it is to be doing anything in the kingdom of God.
And that God does what you said that I don't think He wants us to just be
all in the game, you know, like that.
There was one experience, and this will be the last thing I say,
that I was driving home from my workplace one day,
and the sun hadn't set, everything was daylight.
But I had stayed after work for an hour or so, more than I needed to.
There was a lady I encountered at the driveway or close to my workplace,
and she had accidentally hit a pole.
A young lady, probably 18 or 19 years old.
And nobody was stopping by to help her,
and I was like, I don't know what's going on.
I decided, OK, I'm turning around.
I'm coming back.
And basically, she had to pull hard enough
that the car turned off.
But she left it in the wrong gear,
so she couldn't turn it on.
But after I got her up and running,
she just turned to me and said that, can I have a hug?
And she was about in tears for how it was to her.
And I'm like, OK, sure.
And just let the hug happen.
But what I realized walking away from that was, you know,
Josh, I didn't plan for this.
I didn't expect.
I'm talking to myself.
I didn't expect that this would happen today.
I wasn't planning for, I'm going to help somebody today.
I was just about my own business,
enjoying the work I was doing and enjoying, you know,
life and the peace of that day.
This came up, and I was more than happy to help.
And I walk away from it.
It's like, God, you used me in that person's life
and made an impact in her.
And I didn't anticipate it, but it just so happened.
It happened so easily with so much peace and so much rest.
God, it was a privilege just to even be used,
to be intertwined for a moment in somebody's life,
to be there for them, to be that, a figure of some sort
that got them safe and secure and on their way.
So she, you know.
It's really good, Joshua.
Yeah, this is really good.
So Julie, let's see here.
I lost the comment here now.
Juliana puts in the chat,
so why doesn't God just give the gifts he wants to give?
It can't be, gosh, sorry y'all,
I keep losing it because the chat's popping around.
It can't be that we aren't receiving the right way
because that makes religious OCD way worse.
I totally agree.
What I said before we started talking about
any of these things is y'all,
here, I'm gonna say it again.
Out of mind doesn't mean out of heart.
Heart healing is at the core what we need to have happen.
So for those of us that, you know,
we do fall into these striving or the,
I'm not good enough, so I've got to do this
and I've got to do this.
And if I just get this right, then somebody will love me.
Y'all, all that kind of stuff, that perfectionism stuff,
the Lord is saying like, okay, where did this start for you?
And I know, I know the kickback I'm gonna get
is I've been doing heartwork for years now.
Why can't I just be past this?
Y'all, I've done heartwork for years.
I'm married, praise the Lord, but it's still hard.
I'm still doing heartwork.
There's all kinds of reasons for heartwork.
It's not going to end,
but we can continue to every day grow and heal
and see something different, receive insight from heaven
so that we can get the upgrade
that brings the breakthrough, you all.
It's not so much that you're not doing
a good enough job receiving,
but what I was kind of,
why I was talking to Joshua about that
is because I felt on what he was saying,
the Lord saying that he's proud of his son.
And that it's okay for him to take a break
and rest and have fun and receive, okay?
So that's why I was going that route with him in particular,
but I wanna make sure y'all hear the importance of
what is the Lord saying to you?
Because I'm coaching him
and that can minister to a bunch of people,
but make sure you're not hearing it through the lens of like
I'm still not doing enough
because I clearly can't receive what God is giving.
If God is giving gifts,
then there's something wrong with me if I can't receive him.
Well, I don't know about that.
I think that there's times in my life
where I just wasn't in the right position to receive it.
Y'all, there's financial blessing I'm receiving
in my life right now
that if I had received it even two years ago,
I don't know if I would have handled it
the same way I'm handling it now.
I had to be prepared to receive Brian
because if I had received him sooner,
I think I would have not handled
that relationship appropriately in a lot of different ways.
So I'm not saying you're not good enough,
but what I am saying is God,
there is a preparation and there's healing
that needs to take place in us
to get us to the place to receive.
Does that make sense, everyone?
But it's not that you're not good enough
or you're not doing enough.
It's that God wants to continue to heal your heart
and help you receive, okay?
All right, I want to make sure that's really clear.
Hopefully that was helpful.
Anna Kast, go ahead.
Yeah, thanks, Bethany.
So for me, I.
think it's that I've squandered my childbearing age years, that
the men that would want to start a family are going to be worried
about my fertility. And the men that are my age are not going to
be interested in starting a family or expanding a family.
Thank you for sharing that. If I have time, I'm going to try to
come back to as many of these as I can. Tammy, go ahead.
All my money has to do with perfectionism, that I'm always
having to please authorities if there's something wrong about me
and I have to make up for it somehow and I have to atone for
my own mistakes or whatever and I had to do everything perfect.
And now since I've gotten older and lost a bunch of hair and I
don't look as good as I used to, it's a little heavier and
everything. And now it's like, and everybody talks about, you
know, dating apps and I'm thinking, no way, because I look
worse on the camera for some reason than I do even in real
life in a mirror looking at myself. It's just the light. I
don't know what it is. But I mean, you can like see the light
hits the top of my head because my hair's real thin up here
where my hairline used to be and it's receded. And that makes it
worse in real life. And I just I can't see good close up to put
my eyebrow makeup on so my eyebrows look like they're half
gone. And I just, yeah, I just feel ugly. And I don't feel like
anybody would want me and not they're just looking at a
picture and don't know me. If they base it on that. I mean,
they're pretty shallow anyway. But I don't know, I just feel
like, like even with groups of women, like a women's Bible
study, like, well, they all go to that church, and I don't go
there. So I don't really feel like I know what's going on. I
don't feel kind of outsider sometimes, kind of excluded
sometimes. There's all kinds of stuff like that. Not being good
enough. Not being equal to everybody else. Being less than
stuff like that.
Right. Thank you for sharing. All right, just so that I can
kind of I'm going to go to Margaret next Cheryl, Gina, and
then Victoria, but I can't have anybody else raise your hands,
because I am going to try to coach on some of these things.
Okay, Margaret, go ahead.
Yeah, um, the predominant life for me is, um, wow. I am my
heart is beating really extra fast right now. I'm like
shaking. Um, well, that's a trigger right there. Um,
obviously, the nerve has been hit here. So my past that
somehow, what ends up happening, or has been happening, it's kind
of manifesting is, once people, they meet me there, everything's
great, until they find out about my past. Once they find out about
my past, then I'm ghosted. So the lie that keeps coming back
is that I'm not good enough. Um, um, your past is going to ruin
the rest of your life, you will never be happy. So that's the
predominant lie. So
right before I come to Cheryl, just I need to say this, just
because this is a prophetic thing that is just to release
Margaret over you. As you were talking about that, I actually
saw God placing a blanket over your past. The blanket
represents his covering. So that means it's it's under his blood.
It's been under his blood. But just to give you a visual, like
literally, as you were talking, I saw him covering it with a
blanket. And so tonight, you can receive the truth that your past
is covered. And when you meet your spirit mate, they're going
to be in a healthy place. And you're going to be in a healthy
place. And they're going to be able to hear about your past and
love you and accept you. No matter what. Okay. Thank you.
You're welcome. Cheryl, go ahead.
Okay. First of all, I can just relate to what so many people
have shared tonight. So I just appreciate all the sharing. I
can relate a lot with the worthy, the whole worthy theme.
But for me, I just, I want to share just how I got really
triggered on Mother's Day. And then just some of the things
that came out from that. But I
Went to church on Mother's Day and I'm not a mother.
And there was like all this prayer for mothers and flowers.
And I just, it really triggered that pain in me
of wanting to be a mom
and feeling like I missed marriage and motherhood.
And then I just, I feel like I was standing with the men.
I felt so embarrassed.
I wanted to like escape the church, honestly.
And I just got into like the aisle
just so I wasn't so noticed.
And then it just hit these chords,
like being invisible, less than, on the sidelines,
like left out, always kind of watching everyone else,
forgotten, excluded, just as empty feeling.
So, and it's, I think that just really got triggered
on Mother's Day, but there's other times
where that, those same kind of thoughts have come out.
So.
I just want to say on behalf of the body of Christ,
I'm so sorry that that was your experience
on Sunday, Cheryl, genuinely.
I've been in that position before.
And even though I have a stepson and spiritual daughters,
I've been in that position before.
And so every year we just literally celebrate every woman.
And so I just want to say just,
I believe on behalf of the father's heart,
like his heart was breaking with you on Sunday.
And I'm so sorry that you went through that.
Thank you.
And we're so glad that you're here.
Thank you.
Y'all, life is hard, isn't it sometimes, right?
Just keep coming alongside of each other.
God loves you all.
And we're so glad that you're here.
Let's see, I think I had two more.
Abby, I'm not going to be able to come to you, sweetie.
Okay.
Gina, go ahead.
Thank you.
Yeah, I've honestly, I have been struggling
with a ton of anxiety lately.
It's kind of hard to talk about without a little background,
but I was married for 21 years and I worked.
I've always worked.
I've kind of always been a workspace person.
I think I entered foster care when I was a teen.
And so I've always had this like mentality
that I've had to earn everything that I have.
And when I was married,
I would have loved to be a stay-at-home mom,
but I just couldn't.
I just wasn't in a marriage that allowed that.
And I remember I had a job for almost 10 years
that was really hard on me
because it wasn't a match for who I am.
And it caused a lot of anxiety.
Well, I took a job a couple of years ago,
just running a business for a friend of my sister's
and things have changed recently.
In fact, one of the core values of the business
when I first came on board
was that they wanted to honor God
and they've recently removed that from our core values.
So, and I feel like there's so much anxiety now.
Things are going in a way that I don't wanna see
and my job is changing.
And I'm just, I'm saying all of that to say that
because I've always worked, I've always,
and I'm alone, like I don't have anyone to take care of me.
I don't, I feel like I can't ever rest.
If I don't stay at this job,
then I have to go to another job
and this job is becoming so toxic.
And, but I don't, I just, I think it's just,
I've had this, I guess this thought of I'm just tired.
I'm tired of having to hold all of the balls.
I'm tired of having to be the provider all of the time
and I don't wanna do it anymore.
And I feel like I'm kind of stuck in that situation
and I've really, my mindset has really suffered lately
because of it.
I've just, I can't even remember the last time
I felt anxious and now I can't get rid of the feeling.
Okay, thank you for sharing that.
So remember that anxiety is fueled by what if statements
and anxiety partners fear.
So the anxiety fuels all the fear
and fear is false evidence appearing real.
Now you're experiencing that situation in your job
that is real, but all the fears and the what ifs,
that's just the enemy trying to run away with your mind,
if you will.
And so you wanna really get at the core
because as you started sharing it for you,
as you started sharing that,
it linked back to your foster care.
So I would even ask the Lord if there's something back
in the foster care that's getting triggered
and surfacing now because of what's happening.
happening in the job situation. Just because out of, out of
everything you shared that stood out to me, not just because you
said you were in foster care, but because I actually wasn't
sure other than you've had to work your whole life, exactly
how that was connecting to the anxiety you're experiencing now.
Does that make sense? And so God basically highlighted that to me.
Because for me, I'm wondering what's making those two connect?
Does that make sense?
Well, yeah, I feel like explain, it's okay. Like, I just want to
make sure no, it's okay. I just want you to take some time and
pray about that and ask the Lord, is there something from
that time in your life that is getting triggered now in this
situation you're going through? Does that make sense? Yeah. Okay,
awesome. All right, Victoria, I need you to be short, brief and
powerful for me. Okay.
Hey, so I didn't actually hear what your question was about
what, what we were supposed to be sharing, but I kind of got the
gist from listening to everybody else. So, um, it's just, do you
have an intrusive thought that you're confessing tonight? I
think that I'm struggling maybe with having to figure out how to
take care of my mom by myself because my brother and his wife,
they do help me now, but I'm wondering if they're going to
drop the ball somehow at some point, and I'm going to be left
by myself to take care of her. Um, which my brother said, no,
that's not going to happen. Um, and just feeling angry towards
my sister in law of maybe, I don't know, she's saying I'm, I'm
being criticizing of her, but I'm feeling like I want more
care for my mom, better care for my mom.
But what's the intrusive thought?
I'm wondering if I'm like, hyper sensitive or hyper, um,
focusing on those things and, and, um, and also about my body,
not that I'm, I'm not out of shape necessarily, but I'm not
the way I was at 20 and 30 years old. So wondering how, when I'm
going to see this man that God has for me. Um, also, I'm
like, wow, like you're like, when's it my turn? And I'm not,
I'm definitely taking, um, captive those thoughts, but
right when it's happening and praying about it and saying, I
don't want to be jealous. I can't be jealous. He's not my
guy. It doesn't matter. It's okay. You know, but just kind
of feeling left out or when's it my turn? Like tired, just
exhausted, you know, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and,
um, but I know God's got it. So I'm just leaning in to his,
his, uh, new wine that he has for me and the water that he
has for me and, um, stepping into what he has. So I'm just,
I'm doing the best I can to not be out of sorts with whatever
circumstances are happening. And I'm just taking that I was
captive those, you know, scriptures and things like that.
So, um, yeah, just really, really taking those things out
and stepping into what he has for me and the water that he
has for me and the scriptures and things like that. So just
try not to be pulled into the junk and the devil, because
there's stuff happening. And I'm trying not my best not to get
pulled into the spiritual attacks that are happening
around.
So good. Y'all, this has been so good. I'm so thankful for
everything all of you have shared. I want to shift for just
a few minutes before I do that. I want everyone just to take a
minute to just open your own way. You don't need to unmute
just Lord, I'll let go of and say whatever your intrusive
thought is, because not everybody needs to open up and
share. But let's just like take a minute that you're going to
release that intrusive thought, whatever that thought for you
has been, even if it's been this last week, just something that
came out of nowhere, where you just felt attacked. And I saw
there was a question earlier when I was answering and talking
to the thing that Julia asked about, isn't surrender a big
yes, it is supernatural surrender, because sometimes we
can't do it on our own. And I want to say also, as several of
these individuals were talking, I heard the Lord say, let go of
expectations. Let go of expectations. I don't even
remember what I was reading yesterday. But it was talking
about something very similar, letting go of expectations on
ourselves. Hi, like unrealistic expectations. Let me let me,
let me correct what I was just saying. Not all expectations,
because we want you to have expectations of healthy people,
okay. But unrealistic expectations of yourself and
others. So if that's resonating for you tonight, like that you
would let go of these unrealistic expectations of
perfectionism, or you're comparing yourself to other
people, I forgot I had for Debbie Gordon, I wrote down
when
You were sharing about your intrusive thoughts and you were saying you're not smart enough,
you're not good enough, you were saying all this stuff, and I heard in my spirit,
comparison trap, and the question came up in my spirit, was there or is there a sibling rivalry?
So not that you have to explain the whole thing, but just yes or no,
have you ever had sibling rivalry be an issue in your past?
You can unmute, Debbie.
Oh, there you go.
I have an older brother who's really smart and he could work math problems that I couldn't do.
When he and I took a physics class together and I asked him for help and he worked my problem,
but I didn't know what he did or how he got the answer he got.
And so I think for me, it's not so much as rivalry, it's just feeling so much
not as smart as he was. Math never came easy to me, school never came easy to me,
I worked my tail off. I learned, I was learned, I learned, but it took me work.
And so that comparison comes to him.
Right. So, okay. So think about rivalry, not in just the normal sense of it,
but internally and subconsciously, sometimes we are living in rivalry to someone else
because of that comparison. We're always wanting to be just as good at them or better than them.
And there's this internal driver that's leading us to try to compete still today.
Does that make sense? And I don't, I didn't even know if you had a sibling,
a hundred percent, no clue had, I didn't know, but God knew.
And basically I think some of these things, that's why I'm bringing it up. I think some
of the things that you're struggling with, because it sounds like you're like, I'm a coach,
I'm an author, I'm a speaker, yet you're hearing the tape, the intrusive thought,
you're not smart enough. And so it's not surprising to me that you felt like you
weren't as smart as your brother. Okay. So let's, let's ask the Lord, when is the first time you
did not feel like as smart as your brother, what was the situation that happened? Like specifically,
was there something like, you know, was there comparison between like your parents were
comparing you or what, you know, the Lord can tell you what that is. So you don't have to figure that
out on your own. Okay. And also I just want to make sure that, I love that y'all were trying to
help Gina about kind of like, what's that connection there that definitely Gina, make sure
you're asking the Lord for that. And I just want you to know, like, I, I think you connected the
dots just great, but I, in my, like, as I heard your story, I felt like it was God highlighting
that there is a connection there that he's wanting to make. And that's important for you.
So wanted to make sure I did touch back on that one. Also, excuse me. Okay. Mackenzie. Hello.
All right. So let's talk about this root of jealousy. So when's the first time that this
was showing up for you? Was it just recent or is this something is, has jealousy been something
that has been a struggle even in the past for you as well? Oh, hold on Hunter.
Um, I think that it like specific specifically has come up more recently in like probably the
last three years. And I wouldn't, I didn't necessarily identify it as jealousy more as
comparison because my middle sister kind of took some time away from our family. And so it became
like, it was almost, um, my mom and stuff began to like favor her and kind of, and so we both live
far away from our parents, but we live in the same area. And when they would come up,
it was always intentional of, they would want to hang out with her, but wouldn't be intentional
because I've been here. So it wasn't, I talked to them and all that kind of stuff. And recently
she got married, which is beautiful. Super. I'm super excited for her. That's not what it is,
but I think that's kind of what started stirring it up. And now I have like seven friends who are
getting married and also I'm like helping I'm the coordinator for several of them.
And so then it's coming up and then I have friends that just had babies too. So it's like
all of these kind of over and over again. And I'm like, okay, it's clear to me that the Lord
is revealing it so that I can get healed.
Yeah, and so I wanna encourage you,
when this is going on with how your parents
wanna visit with her, what are the lies you're hearing?
I think that because she has more going on in her life
and they care more about what's going on in her life.
Okay, so that's step number one.
And then what I want you to do,
so spend some time with the Lord about that.
Like, hey, I'm believing,
the point would be to come out of agreement with that lie.
Yeah, yeah.
Not to partner with it anymore.
But the other thing is,
I feel like it's just the beginning, Mackenzie.
I think as you seek the Lord about that lie,
I want you to ask the Lord,
are there any other lies connected to this?
Where at some point you felt
like people favored your sister over you?
Because I'm sitting here thinking also,
as I'm saying that to you,
like you're having these friends getting married
and the root might be jealousy,
but underneath jealousy, if you guys remember,
underneath of anger is sadness, frustration,
all these other kinds of things.
So under jealousy is also other things.
So what's underneath of that?
Yeah.
So is it sadness?
Is it a lie that God is blessing everybody but you?
Like, those are the kinds of things,
the discovery where you,
remember, we're asking God really good questions, y'all.
We should always be asking him good questions.
Like, Lord, okay, like I had this hurt today.
Like this person said this,
like Brian and I just went through something
even in our church and like,
you can feel betrayed sometimes,
even though like, I don't know that those people
meant to like do something that would feel like betrayal,
but we gotta look, okay, why does it feel like betrayal?
And Lord, what do you wanna show me about it?
And sometimes it is betrayal, y'all, okay?
But I'm just, I'm using that as an example
because sometimes what we're feeling and thinking
isn't what someone else intended,
but it's what we're believing because of the filters
that are still like covering our heart.
Yeah.
And I think that as you're talking,
I think that the lie that is coming up is I,
I've always struggled not feeling chosen.
And so that's something that the Lord even like,
there's a radical story with that,
but just reminding myself that I am chosen.
And so then when it's like, they're choosing her over me,
I guess is probably the root of that coming up again.
Okay.
So when is the first time you felt like your parents
chose your sister over you?
That's where I would go next.
Okay.
Yeah.
Very good, this is good.
Carrie Oliver.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
All right, so the one I wanna work on here,
because I feel like this is gonna resonate
for a lot of people,
because I'm hearing people say it and seeing,
even if they're not saying this outright
in some of the groups,
I've heard kind of similar themes coming out.
His answer will always be no.
God's answer will always be no,
basically is what you were saying.
That's a lie that you're believing.
That's an intrusive thought you're having.
So let's talk about this for a minute if you're willing to.
Are you okay to do that?
Okay, awesome.
So when is the first time that you heard
or believed that lie?
I remember,
you mean the lie that God's always gonna say no?
I'm trying to remember the exact moment,
but I do remember,
I grew up in kind of a legalistic church,
which I feel like God's been doing a lot of work
over the years of helping me recover from that.
And so I think I just grew up in a church family
that in some ways was really great,
but in other ways with the works-based religious stuff
caused me to believe that God,
there's just some things that God's gonna say no to,
and it doesn't matter what you say or how much you want it,
he's going to say no.
And I've had a few people in my life growing up
say that to me specifically.
That, you know, I remember one kind of mentor when I was,
it was just actually about 10 years ago
when I was not in that church anymore,
but she even said.
like, you know, sometimes God says no to marriage, and you
just have to accept it. No matter how much you want it, you
just have to accept the No. And then somebody else said, I don't
think that God wants marriage for you. So it's, I've noticed
that these people you trust. Um, one person I did. And then what
was interesting is when she said to me, you know, I just think
you're too, because at the time, I was having some anxiety. And
she said that she felt I was too fragile for marriage. And
this was about also about 10 years ago, I feel like this just
out of curiosity, was this a friend? Was this a mentor? And
it was actually she is, she's older than me. And she was in a
Bible study I was in. So she wasn't really a mentor. But she
was somebody I definitely looked up to. And she met with me,
which was very sweet, because she knew I was going through
some anxiety and panic at the time was about 10 years ago. And
she I was just explaining, like some of my anxiety was like, you
know, I just I feel like God is I've got this fear that I'm
never going to get married. And then she said, Well, you know, I
just think you're with that anxiety, you're just too fragile
for marriage. But what is really interesting is in that moment, I
felt this really deep power in my spirit. And God was like, No,
don't believe her. And so it was really at the same time, like
amazing that God stepped in. And I was feeling at peace, which
normally I would have walked away, like kind of in fear. And
I didn't because I felt that presence of God in that moment.
Well, and I think that's really powerful. And I believe that
that did help you that day. But because of other wounds that
were already there, just from hearing you talk about it,
because it wouldn't come up again tonight, if it wasn't
still in your mind kind of running around in there a little
bit. But basically, I think it is because of other things that
you have been like been spoken over you. Like sometimes God
just says no, like all these different times. And I'm not
saying y'all there are times when I've told you all I'm so
thankful now that God told like, when and when I say this, God
didn't come and tell me no, but basically, he just defended me
and protected me from the girl's dad. And I didn't marry him,
praise the Lord. But back then I wanted to marry him. I thought
I wanted to marry him. But God, God didn't mark that with yes.
But he did it because he loved me. And so when you were
sharing that, you know, let's let's really ask the Lord for
anybody that this is resonating with. Let's ask the Lord, when
is the first time I actually believed God didn't love me?
When he said no. Because that's at the core. Genuinely, because
if you think about it, like, if our parents, if we know our
parents love us, and they tell us no, we might not like it. We
might not, especially as teenagers. But at the core, we
believe they love us. If you had parents that it wasn't safe, and
they controlled or manipulated and their nose were a form of
punishment. Well, then you would believe that God's no is also
punishment. And then his answer is always no. Does that make
sense? And so I would encourage you just to kind of ask the Lord
like, okay, so when's the first time I believe that God saying
no is a bad thing?
Yeah, that's good. That's a good reminder.
Yeah, like, because God is a good father, who gives good
gifts to his children. And, you know, it, he's faithful, and
he's kind, and he's loving. And so why would we believe that if
he's not saying yes to something, and he's saying no,
if you will, that it means he doesn't love us, or he's not
providing for us, or he doesn't want to give us something.
Because he sees way bigger than we do, right? He's seeing that
heavenly perspective. And so he's looking at the whole
scenario. And he's like, man, Carrie, like that picture. So
often, it's gone around on on the internet, where Jesus has
the big teddy bear behind his back. And the little girl, you
know, she's got this little tiny teddy bear. Y'all, that's one of
my favorite, favorite images. It literally helped me through
my years of not dating, because I just kept remembering, like,
God, you have something so much better for me. Like, I'm afraid
to give you my little teddy bear, but you've got something
better. And so that's what I think of even just talking about
this with you, Carrie. But I do think just for you, I believe
God's marking you with yes.
I think he's actually marking you with yes, but the enemy is trying to convince you that his answer to you is always no.
And these people have come along in your life and it built that stronghold stronger and stronger and stronger every time.
And so y'all understand that we have the opportunity tonight, all of us, to not only confess, like y'all shared, so many of you shared and I'm so proud of you.
And even those were sharing in the chat and some of you have shared privately where you're at.
But the goal is to come out of alignment with this stuff and to really allow God to rewrite that part of your storyline.
So I want you all to like in this next week, I want you to really be asking God like, God, thank you for coming in and rewriting this part of my timeline,
helping me understand, you know, the root of why I believe that you don't love me and that you're withholding from me.
And I know I believed God loved me. I did.
But there was parts of myself when I really was honest with myself, where I actually didn't fully believe that.
Because I was still had lies in these old tapes that were telling me something different.
And again, it wasn't that it wasn't true. I knew God loved me, but there was a part of my heart that wasn't healed yet that was telling me he didn't.
Does everyone understand?
And so that's why even I'm always so big on let's grow further in the understanding of who God is as love to understand his character, to understand his desire to bless you.
And for some of you, you know, you've gone through so much and I'm so sorry that you have.
But it's it's caused you to believe that God is mean and he's stingy and he teases you and he's a trickster and all this stuff.
But he's not. He's good.
And so if we are struggling to believe that he's good.
Well, then that's the revealing for healing that we need another we need another upgrade in the understanding of his love for us.
And it doesn't mean it's going to, like, make it go away overnight, y'all.
It's not necessarily like that. Sometimes it is that supernatural, like just delivered.
And other times it's just walking it out one day at a time.
And so in the next several days, everything that you all have confessed as well, just know the enemy is going to come knocking and he's going to come see, like, knock, knock, knock on your door.
Are you going to open the door and partner with this again?
And so we have to get really good at like, you know what? No, Satan.
Not today. I'm not opening this door.
I'm believing and partnering with instead.
This is what God is saying.
So what is God saying to you?
Because, you know, we confess if you look back at the revealing for healing cycle, you guys pull that stuff back out.
That is a tool for you.
Remember, you're cycling all the way through.
What's the lie? What's the trauma?
What are the memories that are not healthy, but you're not stopping there.
You want to go all the way on the other side to the truth.
So what's the truth to replace the lie, that intrusive thought that you're having?
What's the truth that's the opposite of that?
What's the truth?
And the truth is what we stand on.
Yeah. Say goodbye to the lies.
I don't know. I don't know who said it.
I wish I could remember the whole not today, devil, not today.
But I just remember it was so impactful when I saw it.
And I do the hand every time because that's what they did.
They literally like just like a stop sign.
Just stop right there.
Like you're not coming in today.
And some days that is going to be harder than others, but we can do it and we can do it together.
Right?
Remember, we're better together.
I know we went long tonight.
I wanted to coach on a couple.
Y'all, if you have one that you really feel like you need help processing where it came from for you,
you can post in the group.
I will do my best to come in the groups as much as I can over the next few days to help with that.
But I'm also preaching on Sunday.
So if I don't get back to you right away, I will.
My team might respond to you first.
But I'm doing a lot the next few days to prepare for that.
But no, I love you all.
Jackie loves you all.
We're so glad that you're here.
We hope that tonight was insightful and helpful.
Remember, we're not stopping here.
We're going for the truth.
So what's the truth?
Well, to get to the truth, you have to know what the lie is.
So that's why I asked a couple of these people.
Okay, you feel jealousy.
You're struggling with jealousy.
But what is the lie that you're hearing, like with Mackenzie, like when her parents came to town?
Like what's the lie?
What's coming up?
If you are feeling rejected.
on the dating apps and all this stuff, okay, well, you feel rejected, but what is the lie?
Does everyone understand? All right, awesome. Let me pray for us. Father, thank you so much. I almost
said so good because I saw Shadi. Yes, Father, so good. Y'all, you can have a little party with me.
These are the kind of silly things that start happening when it gets late around here in Eastern
Time Zone. Those of you that are also in Eastern Time Zone, I'm so grateful you're here too.
Father, thank you so much for everything, God, that you're doing. We thank you for
revealings for healing that are going to continue to happen and for freedom to become manifest in
our lives, our hearts, our bodies. God, yes, thank you that our bodies will even shift. And I just
speak over Tammy right now, God, that you would create supernatural hair growth. And I pray that
you would just help her to find people in person that she can do community with and that will
accept her exactly the way that she is, but also help her just to know how you see her. God, we
thank you for changing us from the inside out, God. We thank you that you don't leave us how
you found us. You invite us into an amazing, incredible love story, God. We thank you that you
are taking all of the broken pieces of our lives and you're that master craftsman and you are the
potter and we're the clay and you're just continuing to lovingly form us into the masterpiece
that you created us to be. God, we thank you that you would place a hedge of protection over our
minds, God, that we would take every thought captive and make it obedient to Jesus Christ,
that we would know your truth, that your truth is what sets us free. So Lord, help us to have
your truth revealed that literally people would be waking up from sleep and just hear truth
from your voice. And Lord, whoever was earlier, one of the ladies said that she's asking God for
help. People are saying, ask God, ask God, and she's not hearing you, Lord. That might've been
Carrie Reed. I'm not sure who that was, but Lord, I thank you that you would open our open ears to
hear, but also God, I don't think it's necessarily that she's not hearing you, but I think she maybe
just isn't sure how you're talking to her because you talk to everybody differently. So Lord,
if for her, for anybody else on here, that's struggling with that, where it's just like,
God, I don't hear you and everybody's talking about this and I can't, God, I thank you that
you would give them dreams, that you would give them visions, God, that you would, yeah, Lord,
just start to highlight things for them and help them understand that. Like even one day I was on
a walk, God, and you just showed me an animal. And all of a sudden you started talking to me,
not through the animal, because it wasn't weird, but just about the animal. Like you were showing
me something prophetic and I had never paid attention to stuff like that before. And God,
all of a sudden it opened this whole other way that you were communicating with me. So God,
I thank you that you have made us creative and that you're creative. So God, I thank you that
you'll help us to understand and receive all the different ways that you speak to us. We thank you,
God, for your blessing upon our lives. We thank you for hedger protection around Jackie and David
while they're traveling. God, we ask for your blessing upon this podcast tomorrow, God,
and all the other things that they're on this trip for. God, we're thanking for,
yeah, thank you for divine favor, open windows of heaven, pouring out a blessing that which we
as a community could not contain it, but also Jackie and David and God, just for divine wisdom,
revelation. We know, God, man, she's so talented in hearing you, God, and communicating it to
people. But God, we ask for a double portion of that blessing tomorrow in Jesus name. Amen.
We love you all. Have a great night, everyone. We'll see you in the groups. Bye.